TEASER

TEASER

He’s not the man they think he was. He’s very dangerous and can be lethal. But when he has fallen in love, enemies found out his weakness and used it to bring him down.

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A former Army sniper and also known as “Alpha” in secret society, Keith Tuazon has given a mission to infiltrate the Dragon Dynasty–a syndicate underworld.

When he accepted the job, his destiny takes him to Rasha Taliyah Montecarlo, the woman who has captured his heart out of the blue. On top of that, she’s the daughter of the man he needs to root out.

Tangled in a different deadly situations while dealing with the mystery of the past he has been hiding for so long, Keith was forced to meticulously make a plan to escape.

However, his fate has became his own rival. And this time, it pushed him into a place where his skills were test just to survive. He came to realized that everything has a price when dealing with the devils, but he’s willing to give whatever it is they wanted from him—for as long as he could bring back the life that was taken away from him… on the condition that he could be with the woman he promised to spend his life with.

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Dear Grainners,

I am delighted to announce that finally you will have a glimpse of Keith Tuazon’s story. I hope the long years of yearning for him will be worth it.

A Promise Carved in Stone

is available to read first on Facebook VIP Group, exclusively made for Keith & Rasha. Kindly send your inquiries to MissGrainne’s Stories FB Page on how to join.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Love lots, MISSGRAINNE

PROLOGUE

PROLOGUE

I am not the same man they think I was. I know who I am, what I am capable of, and how lethal I could be.

I was trained to survive any form of war. I was built not only to live and seek for peace, but also to kill if I had to. I am a very dangerous man hiding under the shadow of being mysteriously mediocre.

I don’t need to prove anything to anyone. I am fully aware of who I really am, how deadly I could be, and what’s behind the masquerade I have been keeping all my life.

The blood that runs in my veins, the skills that I have, and the name I was forbidden to carry, everything about my identity was buried before I learned to discover it.

I understand that my existence could possibly bring danger to the man who has been hiding in the shadows for decades.

I have a complicated life. It was like an untamed whirlwinds with an endless turbulences. I don’t think somebody could ever want me to be part of their everyday.

Though I have friends who made me feel like I am just a normal man who needs laughers, chaos, and people to be with when I didn’t want to be alone. I am fortunate to have them and be part of this chapter in my life. I am honored to be given the chance to be with these men and to be treated like their own brother. Like I am part of their families.

I didn’t want to end all of these. I didn’t want to end the fun, the laughters, and the sarcasms I have shared with these brutes. Every time I think about my plans, I can’t help to be emotional and angry at the same time.

I wish I didn’t know who I am. I wish I didn’t know what blood runs in my veins. I wish I wasn’t this useful so that the enemies would stop meddling with my life.

At kung puwede ko lang talikuran ang lahat ng responsibilidad at piliin ang mas normal na pamumuhay, gagawin ko. Hindi ako magdadalawang isip na lingunin pa ang nakaraan. Patuloy akong maglalakad patungo sa hinaharap. Kung ganito kadali lang sana ang lahat, siguro mas masaya akong mabubuhay.

“That was deep. What is it?” Clane poked my waist playfully.

I chuckled.

This brute knows me but not enough. Still, I admired him for being sharp and observant. Minsan, hindi ako nakakatakas sa kanya. He caught me quickly. He knew when I was in deep thought or when I was in trouble.

“Ang sweet ni Clane kapag kay Keith!” Zyron dramatically complained.

We are inside the private room of D’ Club. Having a good time like the usual happening during weekends.

“Shut up.” Clane hissed.

I saw Carter walked towards our direction. He shamelessly sat next to me and put his arm on my shoulders.

I sighed.

“Tell me who do you love the most? Kuya Clane or me?” He asked, a bit tipsy already.

Nagtawanan ang mga kaibigan namin na naroon. They knew that Carter used to claim that I liked him better than his brother, Clane. Naging katuwaan sa amin at pati na rin sa akin.

These two Altarazas are very close to me. We have different kind of bond that I didn’t have with our other friends. Probably because I was with these two when I served in the Philippine Army.

By being with them during the hardships of survival, I can definitely say their differences. While Clane was calmed and silently sharp, Carter was untamed and aggressive. Kaya kung may mamamatay man sa aming tatlo habang nasa kalagitnaan ng giyera, baka si Carter ang mauna. But it was just my opinion. I will never allow anyone kill him and I am sure Clane will do the same.

Dwaye whistled teasingly.

“Of course, Keith loves Clane more than you, brute.”

Niyakap ako ni gago. Hindi siya papayag na malaman na mas mahal ko ang kapatid niya kaysa sa kanya. He’s really a little brother to me. Ganito siya maglambing sa akin o sa sinoman sa aming magkakaibigan. Mahilig siya mang akbay o mangyakap. I get used to this brute.

“Answer! Come on! Hmm?” He urged me to answer.

I smirked and shook my head.

“Umiling lang? What a pain, Carter!” Brooke muttered in an obvious dismay to annoy the Altaraza beside me.

“What a heartbreaking moment for Altaraza.” Howell sarcastically said.

“Grabe ka naman, Keith! Ako ang kasama mo sa giyera, tapos mas mahal mo si Kuya?”

My friends laughters echoed. I suppressed the grin on my face.

“Excuse me? We survived the war together too.” Clane butt in.

Nagpapaligsahan pa talaga silang dalawa.

“He saved me! I will do the same to you. Don’t worry, okay? I will catch bullets for you!” Carter embraced me more.

“Thanks. But I don’t want you to risk my life for me, Carter.” I said coldly.

I never wanted any of my friends to be in trouble because of me. Hanggat kaya ko na ilayo sila sa gulo, gagawin ko. They are one of my treasures, I vowed to protect all of them.

“Oh! That’s sweet! I know! I know you love me and you just didn’t wanna tell it directly!” He assumed confidently.

“Akala ko hindi ka mahal ni Keith. Aayain nalang sana kitang mambabae, brute.” Humalakhak si Kielton.

Nagpatuloy ang inuman, kwentuhan at kulitan sa silid na iyon. Mga ala-ala na talagang dadalhin ko at babalik-balikan kapag nag-iisa ako.

“Do you wanna talk about it?” Clane asked me again.

I motioned him to get outside to talk a bit of what’s going on with me.

We both went to the dark area of the parking lot. I gave him a cigarette before I lit mine.

“You know, you can always count on me.”

“I know that.”

“Then what’s up with you, brute?”

I puffed my cigarette. The cold breeze is like a hug of a ghost to my body.

“I’m gonna be away…” I trailed. “I don’t know yet where I am coming back.”

“May I know your reasons?”

I shook my head. “It’s confidential.”

“How can I reach you?”

“You can’t, Clane.”

I didn’t want to drag him with this. He’s a family man. I cannot put his life in danger. Hindi na siya katulad ng dati na handa palaging harapin si kamatayan. He already has a wife and son who need him. He deserved the freedom to be away from trouble and death.

“Then contact me.”

“I won’t promise you that, but I’d definitely try.”

“Should I be worried?” He was a bit hesitant. He probably felt like I wasn’t comfortable talking about this.

I shouldn’t in the first place, but I can’t control the noises in my head and the burden in my chest. Kailangan kong pakawalan kahit kaunti lang. Mabawasan lang ang lahat ng kargada ko.

“Nah.” I puffed my cigarette again.

“Do you want me to do something for Isla?”

We even have a secret code name for her.

Her beautiful face flashed my mind. Her smile, her giggles, and soft sexy voice, I heard all of them like a sweet melody that will take me away from insanity.

I took a deep breath. I can feel my chest is aching while I am thinking of her.

“I just want her to be protected and safe while I was away.”

“I need details, Keith. So I will know who’s the enemy.”

“Her father.”

Clane nods his head. He quickly understood it.

“I don’t like this feeling, brute,” he scoffed bitterly.

Tumawa ako ng bahagya. I didn’t like it either.

“Just do know that I have to live for her. I will come back no matter what.”

Since the day I realized that I cannot live without her, I knew by then that it was her that I wanna be with until my heart would stop from beating. I have nothing but a fierce love for her–a feeling that is too strong to handle, too deep, I always caught myself drowning.

All I wanted is to spend my life with her. I want her everyday. I want her badly to keep me sane and alive. Sa kanya ko lang talaga ibubuhos ang lahat ng pagmamahal ko. Sa kanya ko lang i-a-alay ang buhay ko.

Taliyah called me while I was driving. I answered it immediately.

“Where are you now?” Her voice was soft, it always soothes me.

“I’m on my way home, baby.”

“Oh? Are you already done having fun with your friends?”

“Yeah.”

“How was it?”

“It was fun. But I missed you already, so I left.”

She giggled which made me smirked.

“Okay. I missed you too. I’ll wait for you.”

I heaved another sigh after she ended the short call.

After one hour of driving, I arrived at the house where I live with Taliyah. It is located outside Metro Manila. A private and securely gated community.

She welcomed me in front of the door and embraced me tightly like she hasn’t seen me for years.

Marahan akong natawa. I leaned to kiss her lips.

“How’s my babies?” I asked and guided her inside.

The lights are off already. Ang liwanag lang ay ang mga ilaw mula sa poste sa labas.

I occupied the sofa and made her sit above my lap. I placed my palm on her big stomach. She’s pregnant and ready to deliver our child in a few weeks.

“We got bored waiting for daddy.” Malambing siyang yumakap sa akin.

I am happy but my chest is aching badly. I had to take another breath to make me feel comfortable.

“I’m sorry. I had to meet my friends. Are you ready for tomorrow?”

“Yes. I packed our clothes.”

We are moving to her mother’s house in Tagaytay. We decided to stay there until she gives birth. I didn’t want her to be alone with our baby daughter. I am comfortable knowing that she’s with her mom. We got help. We got support. That really mattered to me.

Hinaplos ko ang tiyan niya. This is our dream. I wanted to have a child with her. Tinupad niya ang isa sa mga pangarap ko. And I promised that I will grant her wishes too. Kakayanin at sisikapin kong tuparin kahit ano pa ’yon. Her happiness is my happiness.

“Do you know how much I love you, right?” I muttered with gentleness on my voice.

She nods her head against my neck. “I do. Why?”

“If you ever had one wish, what will it be?”

She kissed my neck. She then started to caress my chest. Sa paraan nang paghaplos niya, nararamdaman ko na may iba siyang gustong gawin. I couldn’t hide the playful grin on my face.

I stroked her thighs lightly and feverishly.

“Hmm?” I urged her to answer me.

“Only one wish?”

“Yes, just one.”

“Uh, let me think about it first.”

She faced me and cupped my jaw with her soft warm palms. She then kissed me passionately.

I closed my eyes when I felt like somebody was silently tearing my heart. It was painful. I can’t believe I am feeling this way.

The kiss deepened. It gets wilder and hotter. My hands are all over her soft body–keeping the fire that burning her skin.

“I wanna make love with you,” she’s breathless.

Taliyah is still sleeping beautifully. I didn’t wanna wake her up. She’s so peaceful, almost heavenly. The morning sunlight is striking where her face is. Her wavy long hair is like a crown that added beauty to her over all demeanor. I am mesmerized. This is the view that I am willing to work hard for, so just I can see her every damn day of my life.

I kissed her forehead before I left our bedroom.

Inilagay ko na sa sasakyan ang mga dadalhin namin. Siya nalang ang hinihintay ko para makaalis na. I already cooked our breakfast too.

Binalikan ko siya para gisingin na. I was kissing her cheeks and lips to wake her up. While I am caressing her big stomach.

“I’m sorry, baby, I need to disturb your sleep,” I whispered against her delectable lips.

Slowly, she opened her eyes.

And just by staring at her, I know and I am certain that she’s the only future that I want to be with until I die. Siya ang nag-i-isang landas na paulit-ulit kong tatahakin sa kahit na anong oras at panahon.

Hinalikan ko ulit ang labi niya. Thinking that I didn’t have much time to kiss her more. Like I was running of time. Kailangan kong sulitin ang mga sandali na kasama ko siya. Dahil hindi ako sigurado kung kailan ako makakabalik ulit sa kanya.

She wrapped her thin arms around my nape and pulled me closer to her. I heard her sobbing. I panicked a bit.

“W-what’s wrong?”

Is she going to give birth now? Is she having a painful labor?

Umiiyak siya. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Ngunit hindi niya ako pinapakawalan. Mahigpit ang yakap niya sa akin.

“Taliyah, what’s going on? Are you in pain? I’m gonna bring you to the hospital.”

She shook her head while sobbing. My neck is wet with her tears.

“What’s happening to my baby? Hmm? Did you have a bad dream about me being with another woman again?” I teased.

“No! It was worse than that!” Her voice trembled. “I am happy it was just a nightmare. I am happy you wake me up.”

“What was it?”

Hindi niya pa rin ako pinapakawalan. Sa sobrang higpit ng yakap niya sa akin, nararamdaman ko ang matinding takot niya.

“It was just a dream, okay? Whatever it was, it will never happen.”

“No! It felt real! It felt like it would happen!”

I growled. I didn’t even know her dream.

“Do you wanna share it with me?”

“It was terrifying. I didn’t even want to think about it.”

May tunog ang iyak niya at talagang bumubuhos ang kanyang mga luha.

I closed my eyes. I feel her pain and her fear.

“I… I saw blood… all over you… and… a-and… they take you a-away from me…” she heartbreakingly said.

Oh, my poor baby.

What a nightmare she had. But it was just a dream. It doesn’t mean it would happen in real life. Mostly, dreams and reality are contradicting. It’s rare to turn a dream into reality. And I hope her dream will never happen to me.

Kahit habang nasa biyahe kami, nakadikit siya sa akin. Hawak niya ang kamay ko. Well, she’s very clingy and possessive, especially now that she’s pregnant. I like it though. I got used to it. It made me remember her first trimester. Noong naglilihi siya, umiiyak siya kapag hindi niya ako nakikita. Hindi siya kakain kapag hindi ako nagluto. She locked me with her.

But this time, she’s scared. I can sense her fear and anxiety.

“Taliyah, relax. I’m here.” I kept on assuring her but it didn’t really work out.

“Don’t leave me, please?”

I can’t say that I won’t and that’s probably the painful part of leaving her. When you cannot say your goodbye, your reasons, and even promises.

“Remember you asked me what was my only wish?” Her voice quivered.

“Uh-huh.”

“I have my wish now…”

It made me anxious and petrified for some strange reason. I hope that I can grant her only wish. I hope I can promise to her that I will do it with all my might. But I didn’t want to make her hope.

“What is your wish?”

She embraced my arm tightly. She took a deep breath and slowly let it all go.

“I want a complete family. With you and our daughter. That’s my only wish.”

I smiled. I wanted that so bad. It was one of my wishes too.

“Can you promise me that you will grant my wish?” Malambing ang boses niya.

It was as if she’s hypnotizing me with her voice. That even though I didn’t want to make any promises, I will be forced to do it because I cannot resist her. She has me around her fingers. She knows how to use her charm and advantage to get what she wants.

Siya ang nag-i-isang kahinaan ko na kahit ang sarili ko ay hindi magawang panlabanan itong tila sumpa na isinaboy niya sa akin.

“Baby, please?” She urged me using her sweet and seductive voice that always captured me, like a slave to his master.

I silently groaned. I should never fucked this up. Otherwise, I might lose everything I worked hard for. I might lose her. But I will never allow it to happen though.

Walang saysay ang aking buhay kung wala siya. I will never want to continue living if she’s not gonna be with me. I want her every day. I want her life to be dedicated to me because I’d do the same to her. Without her, I am nothing. I am lost. I’ll be in the dark.

She’s my life. I’d die in pain living without her.

“Keith, I want your promise. Promise me that you will give me a complete family. We dreamed of this together, right? This is what we wished for. Our baby is going to be with us soon.”

I slowed down the pace of my driving, so that I can kiss her forehead.

“I promise to give you a complete family,” I said despite the discomfort inside my chest.

I had to say it. That will be my greatest motivation and inspiration for me to keep fighting, to keep moving forward, until I’ll have her again in my arms.

I never wanted the situation I am into. But to end all of these, I have to bravely face this miserable reality of my life. Sacrificing everything including my love, my relationship, and the little family that we have planned to build together.

“I love you so much, baby,” I whispered wholeheartedly as if that’s the last time she will hear those words from me.

“Mahal kita. Sobra.” She lovingly hugs my arm.

I feel the pain slowly wrecking my heart. It was tormenting me in a silent way. I don’t wanna leave her. I’ll be in the dark without her beside me. My world would stop from moving.

Baby, I will come back to you no matter what. Because you are the only reason why I am breathing. You are the light that will light my unlighted world. You will be my guide so I won’t get lost in the dark. You are the only hope that I need for me to continue living even if I was away from you. You are the antidote that will heal me. You are the fragrance of my sanity. I vow to come back to you–even if it would cost me my life, even if it would be the death of me. You will be in my arms again. I will come back for you, for our daughter, and for the family that we dreamed to build together.

It was a promise that I will carve in stone.

1 ~ ALPHA

CHAPTER ONE

“This is a classified information. Have it checked and call me when you’re ready.” Abaddon handed me a folder, then he left my car like nothing happened.

I immediately opened the folder to see what’s inside. I saw a photo of a beautiful woman with her details attached on the papers.

Rasha Taliyah Montecarlo, the daughter of Senator Ramesh Montecarlo.

I continued reading her profile to get to know her more. Kahit na noong nakauwi na ako sa condo unit na tinutuluyan ko dito sa Pampanga, hindi ko pa rin mabitawan ang binabasa ko. I poured a glass of whisky and sipped on it.

Taliyah likes to travel. She doesn’t really have friends. No boyfriends. She’s living privately with her mother, Tracia Montecarlo. Her brother is familiar to me, Rashid Montecarlo.

I opened another sealed folder. It is called ’ Black

Phoenix ’, I studied what’s inside.

While reading, I get more information that I need to start with this mission.

Senator Ramesh Montecarlo is allegedly a member of the international syndicate; Dragon Dynasty. Its operation is importing and exporting illegal drugs. They are also involved in human trafficking. The victims? Filipina minors.

Ngunit dahil walang matibay na ebedensya na makuha upang idiin siya sa mga paratang sa kanya, kinailangan ng grupo ni Abaddon ng makakatulong sa kanila para itumba ang isa sa balakid sa kapayapaan at kaligtasan ng mga inosenteng Pilipino.

Dragon Dynasty’s operations are worldwide. Particularly, the countries in Southeast Asia. This is not a small time syndicate. They are notorious and dangerous headed by powerful Mafias and high-profile criminals. They can influence those countries who don’t really care about their people. For as long as they earn money from illegalities.

Now, they successfully infiltrated the Philippines. Their operation here should stop. Otherwise, our country will be controlled by them. And while they have allies like influential politicians, their businesses here will continue. Because they have local protectors.

I set the schedule to meet Abaddon after I decided that I will get this job.

I will have my early retirement in the PNP. I realized it wasn’t for me. That’s not what I wanted to do. I didn’t feel any thrill unlike when I was in the Philippines Army. Hindi ko na sasayangin ang oras ko sa trabaho na alam kong hindi para sa akin.

I have plan to build my own security agency. I need more funds. That is why I need this job.

I hopped in to Abaddon’s car. He parked in the most dark area near the Clubs in Angeles City.

“I want this job.”

He scoffed. “Why? Because you found Haven too beautiful?”

Haven is our code name for Rasha.

“I need funds. Give me this.” I ignored the way he mocked me.

“And why do you need funds?”

“I don’t think you are allowed to meddle with my other businesses.”

He let out a sarcastic laugh. “Face your reality, Alpha. You cannot run from your past. That’s where you belong.”

That name… that alias. It was a reminder how dark the world I have chosen to live. How dangerous the people I have chosen to deal with.

“I don’t really like that name.”

“I don’t like Abaddon either.”

In this world where we are in, alias is use to cover the agents’ real identity. It could save us from enemies. It’s easier to change it. But it doesn’t mean that the job that you left behind using your alias won’t haunt you.

It took a couple of intentional meeting before I was able to talk to Taliyah directly.

“Are you following me?” She arched her brow.

I removed my sunglasses to have a clear view of her. I always knew she was beautiful, but I didn’t expect she’s this stunning when the distance was too close.

Nagmamasid ako sa mga dumadaan sa aking harapan. Hindi maalis sa isipan ko na baka hindi lang ako ang may gusto na mapalapit sa kanya ng husto. Her father has a lot of enemies. Her life might be in danger. Who knows?

I sipped on my martini and stared at her.

Her cheeks are getting red because of too much sunlight on the beach. Her skin is fair and radiant. She has light brown hair that matched with her striking hazel eyes. Mapula ang kanyang labi. I can see the thin veins on her cheeks and the light freckles dotted on her nose. It was too late for me to realized that she was this close for me to notice every corner of her face.

“Excuse me?” I smirked.

“I saw you last time at the bar. Then at the coffee shop. Then here. What’s that? A coincidence? Come on.” She rolled her eyes.

My gaze travelled to her body. She’s wearing a black two piece bikini. Looking so divine under the beautiful warm sunlight. Kahit ako ay nasisilaw sa kanya.

“Maybe it’s meant to be?” I sipped on my booze again without breaking our eye contact.

She’s too hot. She made my throat dried.

I am not sure how to play with this game. But I am enjoying this little encounter with her.

“Are you my father’s security?”

“No. I don’t even know your father.”

Taliyah’s life is very, very private. Kahit na senador ang kanyang ama at kilala, napanatili pa rin nilang mag-i-ina ang mabuhay ng malayo sa mata ng publiko. They don’t meddle with her father’s issues and everything that involved him. Walang marinig na kahit ano sa kanila.

“Are you sure?” She probed.

“How would I know?”

“Well, he’s a senator. You probably know him if I tell you his name.”

“What’s his name?”

“Ramesh Montecarlo.”

Tumango ako upang ipakita sa kanya na kilala ko ang tatay niya.

“You don’t look like him. You probably looked like your mother.”

Sumilay ang ngiti sa kanya. The deep dimple on the her left cheek emphasized how mesmerizing she is when smiling.

Mabilis na gumaan ang pakikitungo niya sa akin nang mabanggit ko ang tungkol sa mommy niya. I think, I know now how to get her.

Pero parang gusto ko rin magalit. Bakit mabilis niya akong pinagkatiwalaan sa pagkatao niya? Paano kung hindi ako gano’n kabait na kukunin nalang siya bigla at hihingian ng pera ang ama niya kapalit ng buhay niya? Hindi ba siya nag iisip? Hindi ba niya alam na maraming kaaway ang tatay niya?

Her smile faded. Then she pursed her lips.

She probably saw the annoyance on my face. What a stupid move. I shouldn’t care at all. What I need is to get closer to her.

“Maybe your mother is even prettier.” I muttered to annoy her.

Nalukot ang maganda niyang mukha. That’s the reaction I wanted to see. Hindi siya dapat maging mabait agad sa akin. Ni hindi niya ako kilala.

“You’re right. She’s the most beautiful person I have ever known. I don’t mind if people say that my mom is prettier than me. I love her that much.”

“But you have your own beauty.” I winked at her playfully.

I saw her blushed.

This is madness! I just wink and she gave in like that?

“I’m Keith.” I took that opportunity to introduce myself.

She let out a breath. “Taliyah.”

I shook her soft hand. Inalis ko rin agad ang pagkakahawak sa kanya. Her skin is too soft and fragile.

“Are you alone?” She asked me casually.

“Why?”

“Would you like to join me for dinner tonight? My date cannot make it.”

What a stupid boy.

“Sure.”

Ngumiti siya. “Don’t worry. My dad’s bodyguards won’t bother us.”

That’s when I realized that I was right all along. These strange men around, acting as tourist, blended carefully with other people, are her bodyguards.

I’m not going to get rid of Taliyah’s bodyguards. It may raise suspicion. I am certain they already profiled me. There’s no reason to lie about my life, my family, and friends.

Taliyah looked stunning with her ivory summer dress that hugs her curves. Her long wavy hair beautifully falls on her back. She smells like a seduction during midnights.

“Oh, thanks! I like flowers.”

Lumiwanag ang mukha niya nang binigyan ko siya ng bulaklak.

“Glad to know that.”

The waiter got our orders. We’re having a wine while waiting for our foods.

“I know who you are.” She gave me a small smile.

“Really?”

“I’m sorry, they have to do that. Profiling the people that I am with. Isn’t it creepy?”

Nagkibit ako ng balikat. That’s a useful information though. Kaya siguro wala siyang boyfriend ay dahil takot ang mga manliligaw niya sa mga bodyguard niya at sa tatay niya mismo. What a coward!

“I think, it’s normal if you’re a senator’s daughter. Your father wants your safety.”

She grimaced. “It’s tiring, you know. I can’t have my own privacy. They are all around me twenty-four seven.”

“That’s why you don’t have a boyfriend?”

Inirapan niya ako.

I have to fake a happy laugh so that she won’t be offended.

“Wala ka talagang boyfriend?”

“Wala.”

“And your supposed date tonight didn’t make it? Are you sure he’s still alive?”

Tumawa siya. Pati ang mga mata niya ay kumislap na parang mga bituin sa langit.

“My father might be very strict, but I don’t think he’d kill for no reason?”

She doesn’t have idea what her father’s business aside from being a senator. She’s innocent. I see.

“I hope I can make it on our next date.”

“So, are you looking forward for another date?”

“Why not?”

“Hindi ka naiilang sa mga bodyguard ko?”

“I don’t even know where are your bodyguards. Are they invisible?”

Damn. I had to pretend that I know nothing.

“Yes. They are just around. Hindi ako puwedeng umalis nang wala sila.”

I growled.

Para siyang bilanggo na malayang nakakagalaw.

“What if I ask you to come in my room? Are they going with us?” I chuckled.

Her laughter sounds like a happy melody.

“I hope not.”

“If I kiss you right now, would they punch me?”

Nanlalaki ang mga mata niya. Halata ang pagkabigla niya sa sinabi ko. She’s beautifully adorable.

She bit her lower lip. She’s blushing like a teenager who got caught while ogling on her crush.

“Don’t tell me you haven’t been kissed?”

Marahan siyang umiling.

Napapikit ako. Para bang ako ang nahihirapan sa sitwasyon niya.

Paano niya nakakayanan mabuhay na palaging bantay sarado? Ni hindi pa siya nagkaka boyfriend at nahahalikan.

Ano ang plano ng tatay niya sa kanya? Habang buhay siyang ikulong sa malayang paraan?

“Let’s kiss.” I told her with smirk.

Namula siya lalo. Sabay tumingin siya sa paligid.

“Tingin mo okay lang maghalikan tayo dito?”

“Bakit hindi?”

“Pipigilan kaya nila tayo?”

“Why don’t we try?” Hamon ko sa kanya.

Come on, you need to stand up for yourself, Taliyah. Kiss me whenever you want. Do not think about your stupid bodyguards. They are your employees. You’re the boss. Let them do their job and don’t make them meddle with your personal life.

Ang dami kong gustong sabihin sa kanya. Hindi ako natutuwa sa buhay na mayroon siya.

“Come…” I motioned her to come to me.

Kagat niya ang labi niya nang tumayo siya at lumapit sa akin. I grabbed her hand carefully and made her sit on my lap.

I heard her gasped the moment she settled above me. Hindi siya makatingin sa akin ng deretso. She’s very shy and awkwardly beautiful.

“This is… thrilling…” she giggled.

“I want you to think that your bodyguards don’t exist.”

She nods her head lightly. Nagkatitigan kami. Hindi ko matanto kung sino sa aming dalawa ang mas may malakas na pintig ng puso. Ako ba o siya. O baka pareho kami.

I found it thrilling too. That Rasha Taliyah Montecarlo is sitting on my lap and was about to kiss me. She will have her first kiss that will come from me.

“What if they punch you when you kiss me?” She’s worried.

“It’s fine. At least I kissed you.”

Sumugat ang ngiti sa labi niya. “You’re brave. I never dated a brave man like you.”

I smirked. Of course, her boys are stupid and coward. I am not.

I cupped her chin and angled my head. I closed my eyes when I claimed her deletable lips with mine.

Now I know whose heart beat loud the most. It was hers. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang kaba niya. Hindi ko alam kung para sa akin ba na baka suntukin ako bigla ng mga nagbabantay sa kanya o dahil sa marahan na halik ko sa kanyang labi.

Taliyah gripped on the collar of my shirt as if her life was depended on me.

Malambot ang labi niya, matamis at nakakahalina. If she would seduce me, I’d probably give in and provide everything that she wants.

Fuck me. I’m getting carried away with her lips.

“Mmm…” she moaned softly in between our kisses.

I had to pause, otherwise I’m gonna have a boner. I didn’t wanna scare her.

Namumungay ang mga mata niya habang nakatingin sa akin. I can feel her arousal already. Lalo na nang medyo gumalaw siya sa kandungan ko at inilapit ang katawan niya sa akin lalo. The warm from her body is affecting me. She wants something but she can’t tell it. She probably doesn’t have idea about what’s going on with her.

“I want more kiss…” she whispered, almost begging to me.

I groaned. Her voice was like tormenting me. Kailangan ko pang kontrolin ng husto ang sarili ko para lang hindi madala sa pagmamakaawa niya.

I licked my lower lip. “Sure. But don’t moan.”

“Why?” Hinaplos niya ang aking dibdib.

Gusto niya pa akong pahirapan. Mabuti sana kung nasa tamang lugar kami. I’ll kiss her any time she wants. She didn’t even need to ask for it. I’d kiss her myself so she can have an experience to be intimate with a man.

“Your moan is too sexy. You’re giving me a boner.” I muttered in husk.

Nahihiya na itinago niya ang kanyang mukha sa aking leeg.

I held her waist and caressed her there. She’s lucky we are not in a room. She’d be naked by now if that so.

What the fuck I am thinking?

Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata at humugot ng hangin galing sa dibdib.

“Do you think my bodyguards will follow us in your villa?” Her voice was suggestive, I could almost taste a good sex with her tonight.

“Why? Do you wanna be in my villa?”

I hope she won’t say yes. It was too early to be that intimate with her. But if she really insisted to be with me, what would I do?

“I wanna continue kissing you.”

Hindi niya alam na pinapahirapan niya ako sa gusto niyang mangyari. Maghahalikan lang ba kami buong gabi?

“Why do you wanna continue the kiss?”

“Because I want to learn how to kiss. Can you teach me?”

Hinaplos ko ang bewang niya. She’s getting comfortable with me.

“I can teach you.”

“Talaga? Why don’t we do it tonight?”

“While your bodyguards are watching us?”

“I don’t think about them. Sabi mo, huwag ko silang isipin.”

“You’re right. We will continue the kiss later then.”

Tumango siya. The tip of her nose touches the skin on my neck.

“I like your smell.” She whispered softly.

“Yeah?”

“Yeah.”

“Give me one more kiss then we will eat.”

She stopped smelling my neck and face me again. Her cheeks are rosy. Namumula rin ang labi niya. Lalo at kinagat-kagat niya pa. She’s tensed but very willing to kiss me.

I caressed her waist that made her gasped. She’s affected with my touch and she didn’t hide it. Or she just doesn’t know how to hide her emotions.

I angled my head and claimed her lips once more.

“Mmm,” she whimpered again.

I growled in between our kisses because of that. She’s such a moaner. I wonder how sexy she would sounds like when I go down on her.

2 ~ BABY

CHAPTER TWO

I barely go home. I always choose to be assigned to a place where I am away from my family and friends. I didn’t want them to worry about me, to wait for me when I will be back home, and to meddle with my personal life.

Pero kapag umuuwi ako, palagi kong sinisigurado na may oras ako sa dalawang babaeng mahalaga sa akin. But my mother changed the way she treats my sister when my father left them. Wala akong magawa upang pabalikin ang aking ama at maging buo ulit ang pamilyang sinira niya.

“Kuya, can you stay a little longer? I missed spending time with you.” Yane gave me a begging eyes.

My love for her is genuine. But also I pity her. She had no idea who she really was. Samantalang kami, alam namin na hindi siya ang tunay kong kapatid. We lost my sister long time ago. My parents found Yane at the same timeline it happened. To fill the void of losing a daughter, they legally adopted her without her knowing it even until now.

Ngayon na hindi maganda ang trato sa kanya ng aming ina, nagkakaroon tuloy siya ng mga katanungan sa isip niya. This is not my story to tell. Kahit alam ko ang totoo, hindi ako ang tamang tao para mag kwento sa kanya.

“I can’t stay that long, Yane.”

“Bakit? Busy ka sa trabaho mo? May girlfriend ka na ba?” She innocently asked me.

Uminom ako ng malamig na tubig. Sa tuwing uuwi ako, palagi siyang excited. Hindi pa rin siya nagbabago. When she was young, we spent most of our time together. We had a strong bond. When I went to the Philippine Military Academy, that was the same time she got busy with her studies. She got a lot of suitors. She found friends. Nagkaroon siya ng sarili niyang buhay na hindi ako kasama.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit gusto ko na gano’n ang gawin niya. Mahalaga siya sa akin at tiyak na pipiliin kong protektahan siya sa kahit na anong kasamaan. But I honestly didn’t want her to depend her life and happiness on me. I wanted her to find joy without me. To find solace even I wasn’t around.

Palagi kong sinasabi sa kanya na hindi habang buhay ay kasama niya ako. Para hindi siya umasa sa akin. She needs to stand bravely for herself. Walang kakampi ang tao kundi ang sarili niya lang.

“Wala akong girlfriend.”

I don’t do relationships. I think, it was not for me. Palagi akong abala sa mga bagay na gusto kong gawin at bigyan ng panahon. I have lots of things in my mind that I wanna do. I didn’t have time to find somebody to love.

Hindi ko pa makita ang sarili ko na makasama ng matagal ang isang babae. I haven’t found that woman yet. A woman who can make me stay with her in my own will, who can make me go down my knees so she won’t leave me, and the one who can drive me crazy.

Humalukipkip si Yane.

“Talaga? Wala kang nililigawan?”

“Wala.”

Tinalikuran ko siya. Alam ko na kung saan hahantong ang mga tanong niya. She was always curious about me and my love life. She probably found me intriguing because I wasn’t vocal with that things that I do. At kahit na nagtatanong siya, hindi niya pa rin makuha ang mga sagot na gusto niya.

“Kuya,” humabol siya sa akin.

I took a breath. I turned to face her again.

“What?”

“Kapag may nanligaw sa akin, okay lang?”

Nanliit ang mga mata ko. I am a protective brother, but I won’t stop her for having a boyfriend. She’s very beautiful, tall, and attractive, I am sure men stares at her longer compared to other girls. Kaya rin hindi ko siya ipinapakilala sa mga kaibigan ko. Because I know their type.

It worried me that one of them will be attracted to my sister. Paano kapag nag away silang dalawa? Hindi naman puwedeng hindi ko kakampihan ang kapatid ko kahit siya pa ang mali. I will become her ally and savior. I can tolerate her. And fuck my friend. I’m gonna break his bones whoever the hell he was.

“May nanliligaw ulit sa ’yo?”

If she has a suitor, I’d be comfortable to know if the guy wasn’t one of my friends.

Ngumisi siya. “Mayroon. Malapit na akong mag eighteen. Pwede na akong mag boyfriend?”

Nagkibit ako ng balikat. In a few months, she will turn eighteen. She can have her boyfriend as long as that boyfriend won’t hurt her. Otherwise, I’m gonna be upset because I didn’t want her heart to be broken.

“As long as you can still focus with your study, Yane.”

“Hindi mo na ako babawalan?”

“Binawalan kita noon dahil bata ka pa. But you will turn eighteen, so I think, you know now what to do.”

Masaya siyang tumango-tango. Malapad ang ngiti sa labi niya.

Malalaman ko rin naman kung sino ang nanliligaw sa kanya. I have my eyes even if I was away from my family.

I filed my resignation to the PNP. I need to focus with my new job for now. I hope my early resignation won’t raise questions on Ramesh Montecarlo. If he’s that keen, he’d find his way to gather more information about me. It’s easy to find the details of my life. My identity is not that suspicious.

Nagkita kami ni Clane para pag usapan ang tungkol sa mga plano ko. He doesn’t know about Black Phoenix. Hindi niya rin naman dapat malaman pa ang tungkol sa misyon na ’yon. It was classified.

“Why did you resign?” He asked casually.

We are inside his office in the Metro. Matagal na siyang wala sa Military pero malawak pa rin ang koneksyon niya. It gets wider because he’s now leading their company. So it’s easier to do things with him.

“I got bored.”

“Right. You like thrills and adventures.”

He handed me a glass of booze.

“I realized, it wasn’t for me. I wanna do something else.”

“Let me hear it.”

The only reason why I am comfortable sharing my plans and thoughts with this brute because I know I can really trust him. He will never betray me. He will never stab me from the back.

“I wanna start building a security services.”

From there, I will think if I am capable of having a private military. Mahabang pagpaplano ito. Kaya gusto ko nang masimulan. This is what I really wanted ever since. I wanna pursue this.

“I was thinking about it too,” he squinted his eyes at me. “Are you a mind reader now, Tuazon?”

I smirked. “Well, I need more funds. You have a lot of money. Let’s do this.”

He chuckled. “You sounded poor to me. Where’s the money you earn from your job abroad?”

If there was a person who knows me and what I do, it was Clane Altaraza. At kung mawawala ako, sa palagay ko, kayang-kaya niya akong hanapin.

“I’m saving that money for my future.”

“Future with who?”

“I don’t know, Clane. Malay mo balang araw mabaliw din ako sa isang babae. I have money to support her and her whims.”

I have other job that pays well. Mostly, international. I can use half of the money I earned from it t to build my security agency and the rest I will invest to real estate properties.

I want a secure place to stay in the future. Kahit hindi ko pa alam kung may makikilala nga akong babae na magpapabaliw sa akin. Gusto ko pa rin masigurado na may matitirahan kami balang araw.

Even though I know that my life and my job are both complicated, I still want to have my own family someday. Kahit hindi maging marangya ang pamumuhay, magiging kuntento ako matiyak ko lang na malayo ako o kami sa gulo ng mundo.

I had a good talk with Clane. It wasn’t difficult to convince him with my plan because he wanted that too.

From my place in Pampanga, I moved to a town in Bulacan. That’s where Taliyah’s mother is currently staying while their house in Tagaytay is still under construction. Kung nasaan si Tracia Montecarlo, naroon din ang anak niyang babae.

I got Taliyah’s contact. Our communication is constant. I always made sure my messages are casual and polite, her phone might be tapped. She has no privacy at all.

Taliyah:

Really? We are close. Let’s meet then.

I told her I moved in Bulacan. It’s on another town where she’s staying. I pretended that I didn’t know they have a house there.

Keith:

How come? I thought you’re in Makati.

She told me that she’s also staying in Makati. But I realized, she only does that when she wants to go shop or do something. But most of the time, she’s in Bulacan.

Taliyah:

I only stay in Makati when I get bored here in Bulacan. But during weekends, my dad is staying here. He’s with us right now by the way.

It’s too early to meet Ramesh Montecarlo. I didn’t wanna that yet.

Keith:

We can meet once your father is back in Makati. You should spend time with your parents.

Pinag-aralan ko ang schedule ng pagbisita ni Ramesh sa Bulacan. Kung saan siya madalas nagpupunta at kung sinu-sino ang mga nakakausap niya. He’s loaded by security. Even their house in Bulacan are full of guards. Para bang bilanggo niya ang kanyang mag ina.

Taliyah:

They are just fighting. Who wants to hear that, right?“

I got a lot of informations from Taliyah because she’s open to me. Especially about what’s going on with her parents.

Keith:

Why are they fighting?

Taliyah:

Call me, I’ll tell you.

Kumuha ako ng maiinom. I sat at the chair at the terrace of my new home . Hindi katulad ng mga kaibigan ko, hindi magarbo ang pamumuhay ko. Wala akong magarang sasakyan. Walang mamahalin na mga gamit. I choose to live simple way as possible and I stayed low-profile.

I could buy an expensive car. I could live in a bigger house. I could spend my money on luxuries. I could travel the world. But I chose not to. I didn’t want to attract attention.

I dialed her number and she answered immediately.

“Hello?” Her soft tone welcomed my ears.

“Hi.”

“Uh, why did you move?”

“I resigned.”

“Ayaw mo na maging pulis?”

I was honest with her about it because I know she will find out if I didn’t. She has resources of profiling me. I need to be very careful with my moves and words.

“Hindi na ’yon ang gusto kong trabaho.”

“Wala ka ng trabaho?” Malungkot ang boses niya.

I sipped on my beer. The breeze in the province is cold and seemed lonely. Tahimik ang lugar kung saan ko napiling manatili pansamantala. Madilim na bukid ang natatanaw ko sa harapan. May ilog na malapit at puwedeng puntahan kapag gustong magpalamig at magpalipas ng oras.

“I have an on call job. Puwede din akong magsaka o mangisda muna.” I chuckled.

Humagikhik siya sa kabilang linya. Kaya hindi maawat ang ngisi sa labi ko. Funny how everything feels like normal between us.

“Do you know how to catch a fish?”

“Of course.”

“Gusto ko rin matutunan!” She sounded excited. “Can we do it there? Are you near the river or fish ponds?”

“Near the river.”

“Do you think we can get fishes there?”

“Yeah. That’s what locals do here for living. Aside from farming.”

“Puwede akong magpunta diyan?”

I closed my eyes. Hindi ako sigurado kung gusto niya ba ako o malungkot lang ang buhay niya kaya kailangan niya nang maglalayo sa kanya sa kalungkutan. I think, she sees me as someone who can entertain her. So that even for a moment, she can forget how boring and sad her life is.

“If your parents will allow you. Sure, feel free to visit here.”

“My father doesn’t care about where I go as long as I have my bodyguards with me. Kapag kay mommy naman, magtatanong lang kung saan ako pupunta at sino ang kikitain ko. Panatag siyang umalis ako dahil alam niyang may magbabantay sa ’kin.”

Hindi ko siya puwedeng diktahan sa mga gusto ng magulang niya para sa kanya. That’s not on my job’s descriptions. But I hope one day, she will learn how to stand by herself. Maybe she doesn’t realize it yet–that she’s like a prisoner who can move freely, but there’s no freedom to be herself.

“Then bring your bodyguards with you.”

“Aren’t you bothered with the devils around me?”

Marahan akong natawa sa tawag niya sa mga nagbabantay sa kanya.

“You are like their angel and they don’t want you to be taken away by another devil.” I muttered playfully.

“You’re a handsome devil!”

I had to stop from grinning. I was like a fucking idiot smiling alone in the middle of the dark.

“Anyway, I can go there tomorrow. I heard my dad will leave tonight.”

“Why? It’s already late.”

“Because they are just fighting.”

I wanted to know more about the fight, but I stopped myself. I have a feeling that this conversation was recorded. They can hear us. I better be very careful.

“I’m sorry to hear that. Are you okay?”

She sighed. “Not really. But I’m starting to get use with their fights. I think, my mom will leave my dad anytime soon.”

Ramesh Montecarlo’s marriage is in the brink of falling apart. What could be the reasons? I will find out through Taliyah.

Indeed, she arrived in my apartment by herself. I saw a black SUV dropped her off at the street. Naglakad siya sa medyo maputik na bukid para lang makalapit sa akin.

The hem of her pastel yellow summer dress and her long wavy hair danced with the wind beautifully. I heard her giggles while she’s walking towards me. Sa gitna ng mga luntiang halaman at damo, tila siya bulaklak na namumukadkad habang iniilawan ng gintong sikat ng araw.

I crossed my arms above my chest as I watched her like a hawk.

“I made it!” She exclaimed merrily when she stood a meter away from me.

Her scent invaded me. It didn’t sooth me. It seduced me.

“Where are the devils?” I smirked.

Humalakhak siya nang matanto niya ang ibig kong sabihin.

“They are just around but not here. They already checked the perimeters. They found no threats. So, they leave.”

“Do you wanna go inside?”

Tumango siya at excited na sumunod sa akin.

My new home was inspired by a modern nipa hut. It has only one bedroom, living room, a shower room, a toilet, and a kitchen. Everything I may need is here.

“I like your new house. Not that big but it looked peaceful here.”

Pinadaan niya ang maputi niyang kamay sa bawat gamit at haligi.

“Maybe your bathroom is even bigger than this.”

“You’re right,” she laughed heartily. “But you know, maganda rin pala kahit maliit lang ang bahay basta payapa.”

“Hindi ba payapa sa inyo?”

“Hindi.”

I stared at her. Malungkot siyang nagkibit ng balikat. She comfortably sat on the bamboo chair with throw pillows.

“Do you wanna drink something?”

“What do you have there?”

“Water, beer, coffee, tea? What do you want?”

“Beer.”

“Taliyah, it’s still early to drink.”

“Let’s bring some beer when we go fishing.”

I told her that we are going to fish. I already checked the river and met some locals there. They’re kind enough to let me rent their fishing rods.

“We will. But you’re not gonna drink now.”

“Okay, kuya!” She sarcastically said with a leer.

Unti-unti ko siyang nilapitan.

She startled a bit when she saw me walking closer to her. She raised her brow at me to cover the tension.

“What did you say?”

“Kuya?”

“I don’t need another sister, Taliyah. Don’t call me that.”

Inirapan niya ako. Hindi siya akin makatingin ng deretso.

“Wala na nga akong kalayaan sa bahay, pati ba naman dito? I just want to drink lang naman.”

Bumuntonghininga ako. I understand her. But I don’t think drinking this early is right. We can do that later.

“Taliyah, hindi kita pinagbabawalan uminom. But it’s too early. Paano ka makakahuli ng isda kung lasing ka?” I playfully pinched her cheek.

Sinimangutan niya ako at hinawi ang kamay ko.

“But bring beer, okay? Kahit one bottle lang. I want to drink.”

“Yes, Ma’am.”

“Where is your restroom? I’m gonna wear my swimsuit.”

I winced. No fucking way!

“What? We are going to fish. You don’t need your swimsuit.”

“Can’t I swim sa river, huh?”

Parang nagkaroon ako ng biglang problema.

I don’t want her to wear a damn swimsuit at the river where people can see her. Hindi sanay ang mga tao rito na makakita ng mga babaeng naka bikini. I don’t want attention. I know her body and her skin. She would look like a goddess that bath on the river.

Sa sobrang pagtutol ko sa plano niyang pagsusuot ng bikini sa ilog, nanggigigil agad ako sa iritasyon.

“You can swim without wearing your bikini.”

“What? I’m gonna get naked? No way, Keith!”

Just a moment ago, she irked me. And now, she’s making me laugh. So, fuck me and the emotions that she’s giving me.

“Baby, no, just wear my t-shirt and shorts. Not your bikini.” I explained while silently having a hard time because she’s getting a pain in the ass to me.

3 ~ RIVER

CHAPTER

THREE

I take Taliyah to the river riding my motorcycle. I know she’s not use to this kind of transportation, but this will help her to experience new things and adventures. She’s embracing me tightly. She’s anxious because it was her first time to ride into a motorcycle and the road is rough.

“We’re going to fall,” she gripped on my t-shirt.

“We are not. Relax.”

Behind us is the SUV where the devils are. Hindi sila papayag na mawala sa paningin nila ang anghel na binabantayan nila. Siguradong mabubugahan sila ng matinding apoy ng kanilang amo kapag may nangyaring masama sa anghel na nakayakap sa ’kin.

If I was that bad, I could easily take her with me. Lalo at nararamdaman ko na sasama siya sa akin saan man ako magpunta. I don’t know what’s up with her that she easily trust me. Iniisip ko nalang na malungkot lang talaga ang buhay niya kaya kailangan niya ang katulad ko bilang pangpalipas oras niya.

Naging mas malubak at makipot pa ang daan. I already checked the location and cars can still get through. Mahaba ang ilog. Naghahalo ang berde at linaw ng tubig. The rocks and stones can be seen on the ground. Kalmado pa ang agos dahil hindi pa nagpapakawala ang dam na malapit roon.

I parked my motorcycle where the locals used to catch fish. Medyo nasa dulo ito ng ilog. Madalang ang mga naliligo sa parteng ito. There are few cottages made from nipa hut that we can rent for whole day in a very cheap rate.

The local that I have met was already waiting for me. He owns the cottages. He gave me a good price for fishing rods, cooked lunch, and cottage fee.

I removed Taliyah’s helmet. She’s so flushed. Probably because of the sunlight.

She fixed her long hair. Then pursed her lips when she checked her clothes again. She’s wearing my army green t-shirt and my black training shorts.

I smirked.

Medyo nagtalo kami sa pagsusuot niya ng bikini sa ilog. I had to explain to her that it’s not necessary. I thought of reasons so she won’t pursue it. Until I finally made her agreed.

“You can wear bikinis when we go to the beach.” I told her to make her feel lighter.

“When are we going to the beach?”

“Whenever you like.”

Lumiwanag ang mukha niya. Alam ko na ang paraan niya para hindi siya mabagot sa kanila ay gumala. Kahit madalas ay mag isa siya, ginagawa niya pa rin. Ngayon na nandito ako at puwede niyang kasama, mas lalo siyang ginaganahan.

The devils have rented their own cottage. They don’t wear their usual uniforms. They looked civilians. They are trained how to blend with other people.

Para sa mga tao na hindi alam ang kalakaran ng mga mayayaman at high profile personalities, hindi nila malalaman na may mga nagbabantay sa mga ito. But to someone like me who has experiences in the field, I can easily smell them.

Taliyah walked towards the water and wash her feet there. Pinagmamasdan niya ang payapang daloy ng tubig at ang mga bato sa ilalim.

I assembled the fishing rods.

“Ang lamig ng tubig!”

Ibinalik ko ang tingin sa kanya. She’s smiling at me, looking so pretty under the sunlight.

Suplado akong nag iwas ng tingin. I didn’t like it so much whenever she smiles at me. It was so genuine, it made me guilty.

“Keith, can I go on the other side?” She pointed the forest in front of her.

“Only when with me.”

There’s nothing there. Just trees, plants, and greens. Puwede rin makatawid dahil hindi naman gano’n kalalim ang tubig. But we better not. It’s just a waste of time.

“What’s in there?”

“Nothing.”

“Gano’n? Then, I don’t wanna go there.”

She can do whatever pleases her. Just don’t wear bikinis on the river.

Nakita ko na naglakad pa siya palayo sa akin. She’s curious and amazed. But I don’t want her to get too far from me. Who knows if the water suddenly gets deep? Or if somebody was just waiting for the right moment to take her?

I am slightly bothered that Ramesh has a lot of enemies and the target could be Taliyah to get even. Wala rin akong tiwala sa mga nagbabantay sa kanya. Pakiramdam ko, ako lang ang may kakayahan na mag ligtas sa kanya sa kahit na anong kapahamakan.

“Taliyah, don’t go further. There are some leeches there.” I warned her.

Nanlalaki ang mga mata niya nang lingunin niya ako.

“A what?”

“Come back here.”

She panicked. Mabilis siyang bumalik sa akin.

“Is it true?”

“Yes.”

“Really? I don’t wanna go fish then!”

I scoffed. I didn’t mean to scare her. But I don’t wanna lie. Leeches are common and natural part of freshwaters like rivers. Katulad din ng mga laman dagat, nasa ilog nga lang sila.

“We should go back then?”

She stomped her foot when she realized that I am seriously wiling to go back if we are not gonna fish. I’m not gonna waste my time watch her bath in the river while I do nothing.

“But there are leeches!”

“Taliyah, they are living quietly under the stones. They won’t harm you.”

Tinignan niya ang mapuputing paa niya para lang masigurado na walang dumikit na linta sa balat niya.

“Can you double check? Please?”

Umupo siya sa tabi ko. She lifted her feet so I can see if she’s clean.

Kinuha ko ang mga paa niya, inilapag sa kandungan ko, at tinignan ang talampakan niya para lang mapanatag siya. Even her feet are soft. Tila ba masusugatan siya agad kung hindi siya iingatan ng husto.

“There is one here.” I joked that made her screamed.

“No! Remove it! Please!”

Nakapikit siya. Takot na takot at nandidiri. Habang pinapadyak ang paa niyang hawak ko.

It made me laughed.

“I’m just kidding. You’re funny.”

I saw the devils looked on our direction. Probably got curious because the angel was screaming.

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah.” I massaged her feet on my lap.

Malalim siyang bumuntonghininga. Tapos ay sinimangutan niya ako.

“Don’t joke like that. I hate leeches!”

“What else you don’t like?”

“Worms, snakes, and cockroaches.”

“I will give you each one next time.”

“No way!” she hissed. “I’m not gonna see you next time then!”

I tickled her feet to distract her.

She giggled right away. “Stop it!”

I carefully let go of her feet so we can start fishing. Sobra na ang paglalambingan. Baka hindi na siya umuwi sa kanila at manatili nalang sa akin.

“Let’s get some fish.” I said and stood up.

“I don’t wanna go to the water.”

“You don’t have to. Do you see that big rock?” I pointed the one on the right side.

“Yeah.”

“That’s where we are going.”

“But my feet are going to get wet. There are leeches hidden under the stones.” She’s frightened.

I didn’t know she hates leeches. Nagkaroon pa tuloy ako ng problema kung paano siya kukumbinsihin na hindi naman siya madidikitan ng linta.

I grabbed the fishing rod and use my other hand to grab her wrist.

“Keith, ayokong tumapak sa tubig!”

“Alam ko.”

Habang sa tubig na ako naka-apak, siya naman ay mas piniling sa batuhan dumaan kaya nahihila niya ako palapit sa kanya.

“I’m just gonna watch you from here.”

“No, you’re coming with me.”

“Didikit ang linta sa akin!”

I took a deep breath. She’s starting to stress me out.

“Taliyah, it’s just leech, I can remove it from your skin.”

“No, no. I don’t want one on my skin!”

I stopped so that she will know she’s starting to piss me off. I think, I need more patience with her. Otherwise, I’m gonna fuck this mission and she would run away from me.

“Baby, I’m just going to carry you to that rock, okay? Stop whining about leeches.”

Binitawan niya ang kamay ko para lang humalukikip siya sa aking harap.

“Okay! You go first with that fishing rod. Then come back here to get me.”

This little temptress has started to show her horns on me. Interesting.

Tinitigan ko siya. I am interested to know how she will behave in different kind of circumstances. I know now what she hates. I’d like to know what pleases her.

I walked towards the big rock. The water leveled is on my waist. I left the fishing rod there and come back to her.

Nakasimangot siya habang naghihintay sa akin sa initan. I can already imagine her whining about being on the sun while we are fishing.

How unlucky she is to be with me because I cannot give her a luxurious life like what she has. I cannot give her a grandiose date like she probably had with her previous suitors. But I can guarantee her safety with me.

“Are you ready to meet some leeches?” I slightly pinched her chin.

Hinawi niya ang kamay ko. Kaya natawa ako. She’s annoyed and worried, but I know she wants to go fish with me.

“Come.” I carry her in a bridal style.

Her thin arms wrapped around my nape. I can feel the tension coming from her.

“You’re too nervous.”

“I’m scared of leeches.”

“I know. I’d give you one so you won’t be—”

“No, please! No!” She shook her head disgustingly.

She doesn’t realize that there are more scariest things in this world than leeches.

I carefully put her above the rock and I stayed in between her legs. I placed my hands on her sides, jailing her with my arms.

Sa pagitan ng titigan namin, umihip ang payapang hangin. Ang lamig ng tubig sa aking katawan ay yumakap. But the warm coming from her shielded me from getting cold.

“I don’t think you like what we are doing…”

“You’re wrong. I like to go fish, but when you mentioned the leeches, it worried me.”

Hindi siya maarte, takot lang talaga siya sa linta. Kung maarte siya, hindi siya sasama sa akin dito sa ilog. This is not her thing. She’s living in a very comfortable life. Away from poverty and simplicity. She has been pampered most of her life. Kaya naiintindihan ko na hindi siya sobrang komportable sa lahat ng ito. But she still doing her best to be comfortable.

“Next time, we will go somewhere else. Where you are more comfortable. Do you have a place in mind that you wanna visit?” I asked to give her option to choose this time.

Sumilay ang ngiti sa labi niya. It revealed her dimple. The warm sunlight is beautifully striking her face. Lalo lang akong nasisilaw sa ganda niya.

Her arms stayed on my shoulders. Ang mahabang buhok niya ay marahan na isinasayaw ng hangin. She doesn’t have make-up on. Just a natural beauty that mesmerized me.

“I wanna surf in Siargao.” She dreamily muttered.

“Do you know how to surf?”

“Not really. But I’m willing to learn. Do you know how?”

“I do.”

I do a lot of activities. Most of them are extreme. Wala akong plano na dalhin siya sa mga delikadong bagay na ginagawa ko dahil alam kong matatakot lang siya para sa kaligtasan ko. She’s pure and too innocent in a way that she probably thinks that all people have mercy, and that the word was fair.

“Talaga? Can you teach me?”

“I can. But you have to pay.” I taunted.

Her beautiful face brightened up. “Sure! How much?”

“Nah. I like other kind of payment.”

I was silently smirking. Come on, I think, I am going nuts.

“Like what?” She raised her brow in a suspicious way.

Kailangan kong pigilan ang ngisi ko. She might find me creepy.

“How about a kiss?” I squinted my eyes in a playful way.

I saw her cheeks turned red. She avoided my gaze. Kumibot ang mapulang labi niya.

Watching her reactions made me entertained.

“How many kiss?”

“A lot of kisses.” I said calmly.

She caresses my shoulders. I had to control the emotion that she didn’t know she’s making me feel. She’s provoking me without her even realizing it.

“I want a down payment now.” I demanded, while covering the heat from her caresses.

When she leaned closer, I was a bit stunned, because I didn’t expect her to give in that easy.

I swallowed. I then angled my head to welcome her lips.

Instead of minding the kiss, I was secretly accusing myself for being too forgiving. Hindi ko lang yata maamin na gusto ko rin siyang halikan. Kaya ganito lang kadali sa akin na mapasunod niya ako sa gusto niya.

I inserted my tongue inside her sweet mouth which made her whimpered softly. I had to focus with this kiss so she would feel that I like it too.

“Mmm,” her sensual moan was taken away by the gusting wind.

I placed my hand on her thighs, stroking her skin. Might add fuel to the fire coming from her. We must stop, but I can’t. Her kisses, despite the fact that she doesn’t really know how to do it properly, still, hypnotized me. Her lips drowned me.

She gripped on me more when I slid my palm under her t-shirt and caressed her stomach. Her skin is warm, creamy and, too soft for me. When she moaned again, I moved my palm to her waist. So that she won’t be too pleased. I didn’t want her moans to get louder.

“Uhh,” she gasped sexily when I sucked her tongue.

I forced myself to stop the kiss. I am having a boner because of her sensual moans.

Namumungay ang mga mata niya nang nahinto ang halikan. Her lips were reddish and deletable. I controlled myself not to devour that lips again.

“I gave you my down payment,” she giggled.

I angled my head to give her one more kiss. Arrest me, I got addicted.

“Yeah,” my voice was rough.

When she seductively glided her palm against my neck, I felt the brave soldier down there throbbed like he was ready to face a war. It made me growled. I was desperate and at the same time frustrated.

“Let’s go start fishing?” Malambing na aya niya.

At parang wala lang sa kanya ang pananabik na ipinaramdam niya sa akin. Tang ina. Masisiraan pa yata ako ng ulo sa misyon na ito.

Hindi ako umakyat sa bato. I stayed on the water to calm me down. She would be scared if she saw or felt like I was ready to bring her into a battle ground, and use all my ammunitions on her until we are both satisfied.

I grabbed the fishing rod and turned my back on her. I don’t think it was a good idea because she has complete access on my nape.

“Keith, thank you for taking me here,” she muttered sincerely.

She wrapped her arms around my neck. She’s comfortable with our position and she doesn’t care with the devils around us.

“I am tired hearing my parents fight. I can feel that my mom will leave my dad. Hindi ko lang alam kung kailan. But I know she’s determined to do it. She told me to get ready because we are going move to our new house in Tagaytay.”

I wanna know what is the reason why her parents are fighting. It’s safe to talk about this now because she is safe to say things.

“Why are they fighting?”

“You know, rumors about my dad being involved in illegalities.”

So, she knows some things, but not everything.

“Do you believe that your dad is innocent?”

“No,” she sighed. “He physically hurt my mom in between their heated argument.”

Oh, the fucker was a real devil. Hitting a woman, especially your wife or daughter, should be unforgivable.

“I think, that was my mom solid sign to really end their marriage.”

I kissed her hand. “How about you? Did your father hit you?”

“He did.”

My blood boiled immediately. I controlled my rage by clenching my jaw. I will never ever physically hurt women no matter how bad the situation would be!

“My dad slapped me when I shouted at him.”

I didn’t wanna hear all of these, but damn, I need informations.

“Why did you shout at him?”

“Because he hit my mom. My emotions took over me. Lahat nang ginagawa niya sa amin ni mommy, pareho naming hindi gusto. He always threatened my mom. Minsan, nakakulong lang kami sa bahay. Hindi kami puwedeng lumabas.”

I pity her and her mother for having a man like that in their lives.

“That’s why I have a lot of bodyguards. He’s afraid my mom and I will leave him. But you know, I’ll be happy if she leaves him. My dad has changed. I don’t know what gotten into him. But his behavior is becoming suspicious.”

“Why did you say that?”

She took another deep breath. I hold her one hand on my shoulder so that she will know I am here, she can tell me everything that bothers her.

“We have a room in our house, I accidentally opened it, I caught him and his other friends sniffing drugs. I was terrified, I thought he’s going to hurt me. But he didn’t. He threatened me though.”

I felt the fishing rod moved under the water. I caught a fish. Pero hinayaan ko na mataranta ang isda. Mas mahalaga sa akin ang mga sinasabi ni Taliyah.

“I shouldn’t tell anyone that I caught them using illegal drugs. Or else, he’s gonna kill me and my mom. I hope you keep this as a secret. I wanted to stay alive.”

I nodded my head. “Your secrets are safe with me.”

“I have more to tell you. I have no one else to share what’s happening to us. I am happy I found you.”

“You have me, Taliyah.” I said that like a promise that it won’t break, but I know, in the end, it will.

4 ~ LOVE

CHAPTER

FOUR

I only send my reports to Abaddon if I got useful information that can lead his team to prove that Ramesh Montecarlo is involved in Dragon Dynasty.

Everything came from Taliyah so far. I get to know more about what’s happening to her family. The relationship of her parents are about to fall apart. And I think she’s getting herself ready for that possibility.

I shouldn’t leave her side when that happened. I must use her vulnerability and sadness to get more informations. No matter what, I will stay with her.

This is how espionage works; get closer to your target, lured them, have them trust you, and do your best to gather more details. It always takes time. Sometimes, it takes years to complete a certain mission.

After all of these, I will be gone. I will leave her and do what I can do just so our paths won’t cross again. I’ve been doing this kind of job for a long years already. I met people, made them as a friend or even a girlfriend. Then once I completed the tasks I was paid to do, I vanished like the wind that never came back.

Gano’n din ang mangyayari sa amin ni Taliyah. Kahit pa gaano kalaki ang tiwala na ibinigay niya sa akin, kahit pa mahalin niya ako o mahulog din ako sa kanya, kailangan kong tapusin ang trabaho ko at i-sakripisyo kung anoman ang malalim na nararamdaman nami para sa isa’t isa.

I mastered how to handle and control my feelings. They always said that; a wise man never fall in love. Maybe, I am wise enough. I know when to stop. I know when to vanish. I know I shouldn’t fall in love.

Because I am certain that love can be the death of me.

That’s the only reason why I don’t allow myself to fall in love.

My weakness can be use against me. The woman that I was in love with can be taken away from me and that will be the end of me. I didn’t want her to suffer like how I will suffer if I lose her. Her pain, sorrow, and burdens will be my responsibility. I wasn’t sure if I can bear the agony of losing the woman that I loved. I would rather die first, before her.

Kaya una palang, itinanim ko na sa aking isipan na hindi ako kailanman magmamahal ng babae hanggat alam kong hindi ko pa siya kayang bigyan ng kapayapaan at buhay na malayo sa kapahamakan.

I am not a saint. There were hidden demons inside of me. I have dark secrets. My identity was tarnished. I eliminate enemies if I had to. I can easily dispose anyone who can be a threat to my safety.

I was trained not only to survive, but to kill.

I am a very dangerous man—tainted by endless dark, painted by red and black.

If I ever fall in love, days will be tough, painful, and full of blood.

When that day comes, I hope the woman who loves me will never give up on me. Because, once I love, I will give my all… I will sacrifice everything for her sake… I will love her in every drop of me… I will give her my heart until it stopped from beating.

It didn’t take me so long to realized that my attraction towards Rasha Taliyah Montecarlo is quite extreme compared to all the women I met.

Her voice was soothing me like a gentle waves crashing on the shore. Her laughters gave me solace in the middle of my solitude. Her caresses healed the wounds I didn’t know I had with me. Her embrace provided me warm that I silently yearned to feel. And her kisses made my heart race and it made me very frustrated too.

I had to stop the kiss because her sexy moans were giving me a boner.

Taliyah is sitting above my lap. Her arms were wrapped around my nape. Despite the dimmed lights around, I see her face turning rosy, her eyes were full of desire, and her lips were swollen while she’s slightly biting it.

“Why did you stop?” She strokes my nape.

Napapikit ako sa sobrang pagkabigo at galit para sa aking sarili.

Nang inulit niya ang paghaplos sa batok ko, lalo lang nag apoy ang iritasyon na nahalinhinan ng pananabik sa kanya.

Binisita niya ulit ako dito sa bukid. We went to the river today. The leeches still terrified her, but she’s still fish with me. Ngayon, komportable siya sa kandungan ko. Nasasanay na talaga siya na kasama ako. Gano’n din ako sa kanya. Masamang pangitain ito para sa akin.

Hinaplos ko ang kanyang maliit na bewang. It made her lips parted.

The straps of her cream dress were not on the right place anymore. Nahuhulog na ang mga ito sa balikat niya. She doesn’t care about it. She’s too drowned with the kiss.

“Next time, I’ll visit you.” I said, my voice was bit rough because of the damn kiss.

She dramatically sighed.

Ang malamig na hangin ay muling umihip. Madilim ang malawak na bukid sa aming harap. Tahimik ang paligid sa kabila ng ingay ng mga kuliglig at ano pang mga insekto na gising sa gabi.

“Where?”

“Sa bahay niyo.”

“Here sa Bulacan?”

“Yes. Can I visit you there?”

“Sasabihin ko kay mommy. I don’t want you to visit when my dad is there.”

“Why not?”

“Because I am not really allowed to have a boyfriend. At kahit wala naman talaga tayong relasyon, iisipin niya na boyfriend kita.”

Honestly, I wanted to punch Ramesh Montecarlo’s face.

If I was given a chance, I will. Para naman makaganti si Taliyah at ang mommy niya sa pananakit ng gago na ’yon.

“He will know even if we decided to keep our relationship as a secret.”

She’s thinking a lot about us. I wanted to know more what’s in her head.

“Do you picture me as your boyfriend?”

Mabilis siyang nag iwas ng tingin. Ngunit malaya ko pa rin siyang napagmamasdan sa kabila ng kaunting tanglaw. Kahit ang pagkagat niya sa pang ibabang labi niya ay malinaw sa aking paningin.

“No,” she croaked.

“Too sad. I thought of you as my girlfriend.”

Curse me now. I think, I wasn’t pretending anymore. I indeed thought of her being my girlfriend. Alam ko na doon din naman hahantong ang lahat ng ito. Pinapatagal ko pa talaga.

“W-well, uh, even if you thought about it, it doesn’t mean I’m going to be your girlfriend.”

I wasn’t worried. I have a lot of time to convince her to be in a relationship with me.

“From now on, I’m not gonna kiss you. I should only kiss my girlfriend’s lips.” I muttered firmly.

That’s her fault. If she didn’t want me to be her boyfriend, then I won’t kiss her. Gusto ko itong magsilbing parusa sa kanya pero sarili ko yata ang papahirapan ko.

I sensually caressed her waists. I need to keep the fire on her body burning. I can easily convince her if she’s aroused. I angled my head to tease her neck with my lips. She smells like a seduction that only exist to seduce me.

She arched her body and let out a sexy whimpered.

“Keith…” even the way my name escaped her lips sounded sensual.

“But what if I’d like to kiss you? Hindi mo talaga ako pagbibigyan kahit hindi mo ako girlfriend?”

I shook my head slightly.

She grimaced. Naalarma siya at naglikot ng bahagya sa kandungan ko.

“Hindi kita hahalikan kahit pilitin mo pa ako.”

I fucking need one of my friends to bet me on this. Sa kagustuhan kong manalo sa kahit sinong kaibigan ko, kahit anong pustahan pa, magagawa ko na hindi halikan si Taliyah. Dahil kung walang pipigil sa akin, kakainin ko lang itong mga sinasabi ko sa kanya.

“Are you punishing me?” Reklamo niya sa mapait na boses. “I know, I’m not a good kisser. But I wanna learn. Tapos, ayaw mo pala.”

Kinokonsyensya niya pa talaga ako. Hindi niya alam na gustung-gusto ko ang mga halik niya kahit hindi siya marunong.

But this time, I will stand by my decision. I am not going to kiss her. Unless, she became my girlfriend.

“Hindi na kita tuturuan kung paano humalik.”

Tuluyan na siyang naglikot sa aking kandungan.

I closed my eyes while I am kissing her neck because she’s hitting my hard on. Pareho lang naman kaming nahihirapan sa sitwasyon. Pero hindi ko hahayaan na malamangan niya ako sa pagkakataon na ito.

I moved my palm and slid it under her dress. I sensually stroked her thighs. Her skin is warm and soft. She made me desperate.

“But Keith.. mmm…”

“I’ll give you time to think about us, Taliyah.”

I can only hear her small moans while I was caressing her thighs.

Hindi ko siya kailangan tignan para makita kung nalulugod ba siya. Dahil sa init palang ng balat niya, alam kong makukuha ko siya sa paraan na gusto ko.

“I can’t have a… uhh, boyfriend…”

All I need is to get her into a relationship with me. I don’t care wether it was a secret or not. I will let her decide.

“You can have me.” I am giving her a feathery kisses on her neck.

I didn’t mean to tease her inner thighs but she moved that made my fingers touch her there. I cursed when I felt that she’s already fucking wet.

“Please…” she begged.

“Hmm?”

“Touch me, mmm…”

I moved my fingers against the fabric on her underwear. Siya lang dapat ang naliligayahan dito, pero pati ako ay nadadamay.

“Keith…”

I cursed silently. Hindi ko kaya na hindi siya paluguran. Lalo at ramdam ko ang pagmamakaawa niya sa akin. I can provide her this kind of intimacy and needs, for as long as she can provide me informations that I need.

I pulled the fabric on the side and touched her warm flesh. I stopped myself from growling when I have proven that she’s indeed very turn on. My fingers were soaked and it made me thrilled.

“You’re fucking wet,” I whispered hoarsely against her neck.

Nanghihina siyang kumapit sa braso ko. Na para bang kapag bibitaw siya sa akin, maglalaho siya sa mundo. Pakiramdam ko, hindi ko na siya makakausap ng maayos kung itutuloy ko itong plano kong gawin sa kanya.

Her body is on fire and she’s burning in desire. Madali lang para sa kanya na sabuyan ako ng init. Isang kapit at haplos niya lang sa akin, nahahalina niya ako na lumapit sa kanya lalo.

“What do you want me to do with this, huh?” I gently rub her softness.

She buried her face on my shoulder. She’s panting. Her heavy breathing satisfied me. I wonder how loud she can scream her moans when I go down in between her thighs.

“Just continue doing it,” her voice was fragile.

“This?” I rub her again that made her whimpered.

Humigpit ang kapit niya sa aking braso. Her other arm is around my nape. Tila sa akin nakasalalay ang buhay niya at ang tamang pag-iisip. Na kung hindi ako magiging maingat, mahuhulog siya bitag na maaaring ikapahamak at ikagalit niya.

“Yeah. I like it.”

Of course. She’s soaking wet. She made me thirsty. I had to control the urge to lift her and wide her legs, so I can taste how sweet she is.

I kept on gently and sensually rubbing her femininity with my fingers. Her sexy breathings echoed my ears. Habang naliligayahan siya, hirap na hirap akong pigilan ang sarili ko na ihiga siya at hayaan ang aking dila na ipagpatuloy itong kahibangan na nararamdaman niya.

“Ohh, Keith… uuhhh…” she grinds against my fingers.

I placed my lips near her ear.

“I wanna taste you,” I whispered, a bit frustrated because I was too excited to make her writhed.

“Huh?”

“I want my tongue here,” I draw a circle against her sensitive nub using may thumb.

Lumakas ang mga daing na lumalabas sa kanyang labi. Ang kapit niya sa akin ay humihigpit at nananabik. I can feel her hunger and anticipation. She just doesn’t know yet how to express it.

“W-what? Are you gonna lick me?”

“If you allow me.” And I hope, she will.

“Here?”

I can bring her on the bed, but I’d rather not. We might end up both naked and panting there.

I nodded my head like I was hypnotized by her.

When I have tasted her for the first time, I knew it won’t be the last. The burning tension will continue and I didn’t have idea until when it will end. I just wanted to treasure the moment so I won’t feel extremely guilty once everything between us meet its end.

Taliyah wasn’t that hard to please. She easily find happiness through little things. Hindi siya mahirap pasayahin. Mayaman sila pero madali siyang pakisamahan. It’s not that difficult for me to get information from her because she already trust me. I shouldn’t break that trust.

Clane snapped his fingers in front of my face.

“Babae ’yang nasa isip mo.” He smirked.

I spaced out. Abaddon was being pushy. He wanted me to infiltrate Ramesh’s house in Bulacan. But for me, it’s still early to do that.

We are inside D’ Club again. Some of our friends are hunting women. Hindi kami kumpleto ngayong gabi dahil karamihan ay may pamilya na. Nasa tahimik na pamumuhay kasama ang mga asawa’t anak.

“Trabaho.” I sipped on my whisky.

“Talaga?”

Kung malalaman niya ang tungkol kay Taliyah, hindi na ako magtataka. This brute has a wide connections and has his eyes everywhere. Kaya nga kapag nawala ako, palagay ko, mahahanap niya talaga ako.

“Ano pa ba ang sa tingin mong iniisip ko, Altaraza?”

“Gusto mong sagutin ko ’yan?”

I let out a frustrating breath. This shouldn’t be a problem to me. I am used with this kind of job. This shouldn’t affect me. But Abaddon is pressuring me.

“What do you know?” I suspiciously raised my brow at him.

“I know a lot, Tuazon.”

This mission was supposed to be confidential. I shouldn’t discuss this with anyone except Abaddon. But Clane has been my ally. He’s the only person I trust the most. He mastered how to keep things. At kahit pa nasa bingit na ang buhay niya, sigurado ako na hindi siya magsasalita.

“Do you know about Ramesh Montecarlo?”

“Of course,” he sipped on his martini. “That’s why I seen you with his daughter…”

Kahit hindi na namin ito pag-usapan ng direkta, alam niya na agad ang ginagawa ko.

“Anything that I can help?”

“Nah. I’m fine.”

“Are you sure?” He’s taunting me.

I leered at him with a smirk. I can tell him things, but not everything.

We are both glanced on my phone when the screen lit. I saw Taliyah has sent me a message. I grabbed it to see what she’s up to.

Taliyah: I can’t stop thinking about what we did. I think, I’m going crazy.

I had to stay stoic because the brute was watching me.

She’s talking about what I did to her. It was in my mind though. She sounded so sexy while writhing because of me.

Keith: I’ll do it longer next time. I love hearing your moans.

I sent it and hide my phone in my pocket.

“I want to buy a land by the beach…” I trailed.

“Do I look like a real estate agent?” Clane gave me an arrogant gaze.

“You know a lot of things and places. You might want to recommend a place for me.”

“But you’re right. You should invest your money to real estate properties. I’ll give you a list.”

“Clane, I don’t want anyone to know about this. Let me live my life away from people.”

“Even away from me?”

“Yeah.” I chuckled.

“You’re heartless.” His eyes squinted.

“Thanks, brute.”

Our friends came back. We continued our usual bond while drinking. Kahit na abala sa mga kaibigan, hindi pa rin nawawala sa isip ko si Taliyah.

Taliyah: I moaned loud. It’s embarrassing. But you’re too good, I can’t stop it.

It relaxed me to know that she’s thinking of me and what I did to her. I am now invading her mind and have her known my presence.

5 ~ ASSASSIN

CHAPTER

FIVE

I am completely aware that Ramesh Montecarlo has been following my moves. I need to be extra careful. I decided not to see my friends and my family. Except for Clane and his brothers.

“I found it. This island is on sale.”

Clane handed me the papers and photos of the island I told him to check for me as I didn’t have time to do it. Aside from that, even if I buy it, I won’t have it under my name. I heavily need to keep my life very private—almost like a ghost living in the shadow. I don’t want any records of me, my properties, assets, and even bank accounts that could be use against me one day.

My life is very complicated. My line of work is very risky and it can put my life in danger any moment. I didn’t want the enemies to use my connections to trace me. But I can’t just work alone by doing all of these.

Clane Altaraza is the only man I can really trust to help me hide and cover my tracks.

I’ve been wanting to have a private island. Live there in the future. No matter if I’d be alone or with a woman that I wanted to spend my life with, I’d like to stay there.

Sa lahat nang nangyayari ngayon sa buhay ko, kahit wala akong katiyakan kung tatagal ba ako sa mundong ito, patuloy pa rin ako sa pagpaplano sa hinaharap ko.

The money that I have right now and I will have, must be invested for my future.

Kung hindi man ako mabigyan ng mahabang buhay, umaasa ako na ang lahat ng pinaghirapan ko ay magagamit ng mga taong mahal ko at mahalaga sa akin. They are only few. It will be easy for me to share what’s mine to them.

“I will buy this.”

“What will be your mode of payment?” He smirked because he already know how it works.

“Cash.”

“Like a Mafia.”

We both laughed in a sarcastic way. Indeed, like a Mafia way who’d rather use cash for any business transaction because it was untraceable.

“Name it under your name, Clane. I don’t want anything under mine.”

He growled in disapproval.

“I think, it’s time for you to get a woman and have her pregnant. So you can have your heir or heiress.”

“Easy for you to say. What do you want me to do? Get a random woman and fuck her until she gets pregnant?”

The brute shrugged his shoulders. Para bang gano’n lang kadali na gawin ’yon.

“Or have Ramesh’s daughter as the carrier.”

I sharply glared at him.

I never wanted Taliyah to be involved with this kind of scheme. She’s nothing to do with this. We are talking about my future plan and I don’t think she would be part of it.

“She’s just a job to finish, Clane. I don’t want her to be involved with my future plans.”

“If you say so,” his sounded like he was doubting what I said.

Ayokong makipagtalo sa kanya sa ganitong klaseng usapan. Alam ko sa sarili ko na may hangganan ang anomang namamagitan sa amin ni Taliyah. Alam niya rin ’yon kaya hindi ko mawari kung bakit pinagdududahan niya ako.

Clane knows my line of work. He knows that everything will end like it didn’t happen at all. Parang hangin lang na dumaan–naramdaman, ngunit malabong bumalik ang kaparehong ihip.

“I’ll be back here for the payment.”

“I can’t name the island under my name, brute.”

I sighed. “What should I do?”

Clane silently think of ways to solve my problem. He’s a ruthless businessman–like a shark in the ocean who attack anyone that he thinks a threat to his victory. He must know what to do with the island I wanted to buy.

“I don’t want my family to be involved regarding this matter. This should be between you and me.”

He sipped on his martini as he rested his back on his swivel chair.

I stood up to go to his office’s balcony just to smoke. I gave him time to think.

When I checked my phone, I saw Taliyah’s missed call and unread message.

Taliyah: Where are you now? My father just left. Can you come?

I puffed on my cigarette. After that, I typed a reply.

Keith: I’m in Manila. Is it fine if I visit you tonight? How ’bout the devils?

She didn’t see my message yet. I continued smoking and waited for her response, but none.

Nang bumalik ako sa loob ng opisina, nagsasalin na si Clane ng panibagong alak sa dalawang baso.

“Any brilliant idea?” I asked, then sipped on my glass.

“Why don’t you have your own corporation? For all your real estate investments.”

“Is that the best you can think of to solve my lil problem?”

I was asking him and his opinion because I wasn’t good on this. This is his forte, he knew what to do. He mastered the way how business works.

“Yeah. Just think of company name and I’ll work on the legal documents.”

“I’ll think about it. Thank you, brute.”

“You owe me a bottle of Paradis Cognac.” The side of his lips curved up.

“I’ll have it with the cash.” I smirked.

I drove to Bulacan to see Taliyah.

Katulad ng madalas na napapansin ko, kung hindi tao, sasakyan ang nakasunod sa akin. I need to warn Clane about this. Sa kanya lang ako madalas nakikipagkita. I stopped seeing Abaddon since I noticed that I have tails. If I wasn’t careful, my cover will be blown up and I didn’t want that to happen this early.

The vacation house is located at the exclusive subdivision in town. Behind the huge land was the view of the mountain range of Sierra Madre. Houses are big as well as the lot. I parked my car in front of the secured gate.

Lumapit agad sa akin ang isa sa mga nagbabantay doon. I rolled down the window of my car when he knocked.

“Sir, this is a private property. Bawal pumarada dito.”

“I’m Taliyah’s friend.”

I forced myself to learn how to call her the name that she told me when we first met.

I dialed Taliyah’s number.

“Hindi puwedeng lumabas si Ma’am Rasha.”

She didn’t answer. It shouldn’t worry me, but the urge of knowing what’s happening inside that house was strong.

“Tell her, I’m here.”

“Kung ako sa ’yo, umalis ka na. Baka madamay ka pa sa galit ng amo ko.”

Suddenly, I heard voices, they are shouting.

“What’s happening?”

“Nag-aaway na naman ang mag asawa.”

I thought Ramesh left? That’s what Taliyah told me. I quickly typed a message for her.

Keith: I’m outside. Are you okay?

Hindi na ako umaasa na magrereply siya. Nang marinig ko ang mga sigawan at mga nababasag na gamit, natanto ko na hindi maayos ang lagay nilang mag ina.

“Umalis ka na, sir.”

I should leave. But I can’t.

The guard stopped bugging me when his radio communication made a noise. He was talking to somebody. I heard their conversation. They wanted me in.

I took a deep breath.

I guess, this is the time that I’m going to see Ramesh Montecarlo. Hindi ito parte ng plano ko sa ngayon. Ngunit ibinigay sa akin ng tadhana. I guess, I need to quickly find a solutions and reasons why I was here and luring his daughter.

Hinanda ko ang sarili sa mga posibilidad na mangyayari sa gabing ito. If this would become bloody, I hope Taliyah would forgive me.

“Pasok ka.” Binuksan niya ang gate.

I drove to the driveway and parked where another guard told me to park.

I silently roamed my eyes around. Looking for another exit and way to get out without using the front gate. I noticed that Ramesh have his armed men roaming around the property. There were CCTV cameras as well.

Kinapkapan agad ako nang makalabas sa sasakyan. I didn’t bring my gun. It will only alarm them. I only have my phone with me with location on. Just in case, I’d die here tonight, Clane will know where to find me.

“Clear!” He then pushed me to the door.

I stayed stoic. These men are trained to kill. Isang maling galaw ko lang, kayang-kaya nila akong barilin nang walang pag-a-alinlangan.

“Keith…” my name slipped on Taliyah’s bloody lips.

She’s sitting on the sofa, trembling and terrified.

While her mother was on another sofa, shaking in anger. There were bruises on her face and arms.

Sinikap kong hindi magpakita ng kahit anong emosyon kahit pa bumabangon ang galit sa akin. I think, I will never ever learn to accept why men physically hurt women. Kahit ano pa ang dahilan nila, hindi ko pakikinggan at hindi ko maiintindihan.

“So, that is your new boy toy?” Ramesh’s voice echoed.

He’s sitting arrogantly on that long sofa in front of his wife and daughter. Looking like a devil who just punished the angels that he caught flying around his territory.

The foreign blood on his appearance is palpable. His built is big and terrifying enough to scare his own family that easy. He’s smoking a tobacco while staring at me in calmly.

“Who are you?” He asked me.

“Dad—”

“Shut up, Rasha.”

“I’m Keith.”

I am not stupid. I know they already profiled me the moment I met Taliyah. Sinabi niya rin sa akin ang tungkol dito at inaasahan ko rin naman ’yon.

“Are you my daughter’s boyfriend?”

“No, sir.”

“I don’t like liars, Keith. I give you second chance to be honest with me. Are you my daughter’s boyfriend?”

“I am not.”

Ramesh motioned his men to get near me.

Dalawang armadong lalaki ang humawak sa magkabilang braso ko. One of them kicked my leg to make me kneel. And then they tied my hands on my back.

“Dad!” Taliyah was horrified, but she can’t do anything to stop her evil father.

“Ramesh, Keith is nothing to do with all of these. Stop making him involved!” Tracia Montecarlo whined.

I felt the cold tip of a pistol pointed at the back of my head.

I didn’t flinch. I stayed composed, cold, and calmed as possible.

“Why are you with my daughter then?”

“We are friends!” Taliyah panicked.

“Rasha, I’m not talking to you. I’m talking to your boyfriend—”

“He’s not my boyfriend!”

Ramesh puffed on his tobacco.

“Do you know that I can kill your boyfriend in front of you?”

Taliyah shook her head. Her eyes watered in fear. Tinignan niya ako na tila ba humihingi siya ng patawad sa akin dahil sa kasalanan na hindi niya naman ginawa. Ang takot sa mga mata niya ay nahaluan ng galit.

“Tell me about yourself, Keith. I wanna know why did you end up being with my daughter.”

This is some kind of a test. I need to be honest with my background. Sigurado ako na kilala niya na ako, ang pamilya ko, at mga kaibigan. Kung magsisinungaling ako, lalo niya lang akong pagdududahan. I need to gain his trust. I need to show that my friendship with Taliyah is genuine.

“I was a police officer—”

“An asset, you meant?” He cut me off.

“No, sir.”

Dumiin ang nakatutok na baril sa likod ng ulo ko.

“If you’re not an asset, what are you then? A spy?”

I wanted to smirk, but I remained emotionless.

“A paid assassin, perhaps?” He assumed.

I could be an assassin and assassinated him right now. But I wasn’t paid for that. That was not the job that I signed up for. He’s fucking lucky.

“If I was an assassin, you’ll be dead by now, sir.” I smirked devilishly.

Tumawa siya. He seemed impressed but he can’t just show it in front of his armed men.

“I wonder how would you kill me?” He taunted, then puffed his tobacco.

“A bullet in your head would be enough,” I trailed diabolically. “… or I might just slit your throat… and watch you die while bathing by your own blood.”

Tumalim ang tingin niya sa akin. I saw the glimpse of anger on his eyes. He motioned the men around me.

I almost groan when one of them kicked me until my body hit the ground. I don’t really have plan to fight back. I might kill them. I didn’t want Taliyah to witness that. It will traumatized her.

Nakatapak sa akin ang isang bantay. Habang nakatutok ang mga baril nila sa akin. I don’t think they are going to kill me right now. They are just threatening me. Trying to see if I’d be scared. But honestly, I am not.

“Keith, I am a good man. I don’t kill for no reason. But I don’t like being deceived. Tell me now who you work for to save your life.”

“I don’t work for anyone—”

“Tell me the truth!”

Habang nagagalit siya, nanginginig sa takot ang kanyang mag ina. Ngunit wala silang magawa para pigilan ang nag-a-apoy na demonyo.

“Mamamatay ka rin naman. Magsabi ka na ng totoo,” banta sa akin ng lalaking nakatapak sa likod ko.

“I have enemies who wants me dead. Marami na ang nagtangka at hindi nagtagumpay. Do you really think you will be the exception?”

“I told you, if I was your assassin, you will be dead by now.”

“Ang yabang mo gago!” The man kicked me hard which made me clenched my jaw.

If I will be given even a little chance, I’m really gonna break his bones.

“Give me a reason to save you from death tonight, Keith.”

Hanggat maaari, hindi ko isasama sa mga rason ko si Taliyah. Dahil alam kong magagamit lang siya laban sa akin.

“Your men are stupid. It’s time for you to replace them—” I was cut off when one of the guards pointed a gun at the back of my head again.

Yumukod pa siya sa harap ko habang nakatututok sa akin ang baril niya. Mayabang niya akong pinagmamasdan.

“Ako ang papatay sa ’yo,” he threatened me.

“Do it now.” I mocked.

“Don’t you dare,” Ramesh warned his men. “I wanted him to talk. Bring him to the black room.”

Hinila ako palayo roon. Kahit pa sumigaw si Taliyah at ang mommy niya, wala rin naman silang magagawa sa desisyon ni Ramesh.

“Dad! He’s nothing to do with this! I hate you so much!” Taliyah cried.

I didn’t look back. Hindi ko rin naman gusto na makita siyang takot na takot at umiiyak.

They brought me to a dark room. They made me sit on the chair. They tied my hands and feet tightly.

Ramesh came in with his tobacco. We are surrounded by his armed men.

“You were in the army…” he’s looking on the screen of an iPad. “… has a skills in close combat, and arm to arm combat… Dangerous man. Tell me why I shouldn’t doubt you?”

I am relieved that he didn’t have my sniper’s record. It means, he doesn’t really have that solid connection inside the Philippine Military. He didn’t have records of me working in secret society. His intel was not that impressive.

“I am not here to kill you. That’s the truth.”

He hissed impatiently. “You’re getting into my nerves! I cannot trust you!”

“You don’t have to.”

I looked at him in the eyes despite of the darkness. So he’d know I am not here to kill him and I could be his ally.

“I am here for your daughter,” I said emotionlessly. “And I didn’t like it when you hurt her.”

“What are you gonna do about it?” He laughed without humor in it.

“I don’t want you to hurt her, otherwise I’ll kill you.” My voice was cold and terrorizing.

Naramdaman ko ang pagka-alarma ng mga tauhan niyang nakapaligid sa amin. Lumapit agad sila para lang ipaalam sa akin na armado sila at anomang sandali ay puwede nila akong patumbahin.

“I like your guts and the audacity to talk to me like that. But you are not the one who will decide about that.”

I didn’t speak. I am thinking how to get in. Nandito na ako, dapat ay gamitin ko ang pagkakataon na ito na pasukin pa ang lungga niya.

“I know who you are, your family, your friends… I can easily kill them, Keith.”

“You can say whatever you want. You can threatened me until you get tired. I am not here to have an enemy. I want your daughter.”

He laughed like he cannot believe that I am here because of Taliyah.

“I will know if you’re fooling me. Maybe not right now, but eventually, I will.”

“I can take care of her. I’m better than your men. You know me and what I can do.”

For now, I won’t give a damn about Ramesh. I need to get closer to Taliyah.

“Do you want to be part of my daughter’s security?”

“I’d like to.”

Ramesh went speechless. He’s just looking at me, trying to read me. I mastered how to stay stoic and emotionless, he won’t get anything from me. Aside from the words that I told him.

6 ~ BODYGUARD

CHAPTER

SIX

Taliyah hugged me. I can feel her fear, her worries, and frustrations.

The only way to escape from Ramesh is to pretend that I only wanted is Taliyah. I made him believe that. I convinced him to be one of her bodyguards because I didn’t trust the devils around her. He has enemies and there are threats in his wife and daughter’s life.

I don’t understand why he’s hurting them and at the same time still protecting them from danger. He must be out of his mind and can’t do a clear decision about his own family. Ang gusto niya lang yata ay siya lang ang may karapatan na saktan ang mag ina niya. Walang kwentang asawa at ama.

I told myself I won’t involve Taliyah, but she’s the very reason why I came here.

“Are you hurt? What did they do to you?”

She checked my face and cupped my jaw. Natuyo na ang mga luha sa kanyang pisngi. Even the blood on the side of her lips went dried.

Kahit na nagagalit ako sa sinapit niya, hindi ko dapat ipakita sa mga naroon na apektado ako sa nangyari sa kanya. Kahit na gusto ko siyang yakapin pabalik, halikan siya, at bumulong na magiging maayos din ang lahat, hindi ko ginagawa.

Nanatili akong nakatayo habang nag-a-alala siya sa ginawa sa akin ng kanyang ama at ng mga tauhan nito.

Luckily, they didn’t torture me. I escaped death tonight. This is my second chance. Ramesh must know that I’m not into him. I am only interested to be with his daughter.

“I’m fine. Don’t worry.”

She hissed bitterly. “I just wanna be away from here. But I can’t leave my mom!”

Bigong-bigo siya. Napahilamos siya sa kanyang mukha gamit ang mga palad. She’s crying silently. Even if I wanted to comfort her, I chose not to.

Lumayo ako sa kanya nang maramdaman ko na pababa sa hagdan si Ramesh. Kasama niya ang ilang pinagkakatiwalaan niyang tauhan niya. Ang iba ay nasa paligid namin na tila ba hinhintay lang akong gumawa ng hindi maganda, upang makapagpa-ulan na sila ng bala.

“Rasha, stop being dramatic. I didn’t hurt your boyfriend—”

“I said, he’s not my boyfriend!”

I silently took a deep breath. I turned to face Ramesh.

“Keith, I want you to prepare your resume for a proper application. This is Mossad, my head of security. Give him your files tomorrow.” He motioned the man who pointed a gun at me a moment ago.

I nodded my head coldly.

“Go back to your room, Rasha. Keith will leaving.”

Napasinghap siya. She’s bewildered about what’s going on.

Ramesh and Mossad left.

I gave Taliyah a small assuring smile.

“Go and take a rest. I’ll be back here tomorrow.”

She wiped her tears. “Huh? What did you guys talk about?”

“I’m applying as one of your bodyguards…” I paused when I saw her eyes twinkled through her tears.

“Talaga? So, I’m gonna see you everyday?” Her beautiful face brightened.

“Uh-huh.”

Hindi niya napigilan ang sobrang galak niya kaya niyakap niya akong muli. I stayed still. Hinayaan ko siya na ipakita niya at ilabas niya ang nararamdaman niya kahit sa gano’n na paraan lang.

I didn’t want to be touchy in front of the devils around. Kahit pa mukha silang walang pakialam, alam ko ang trabaho nila. They reported everything that they see and hear.

I left their house and drove to my place.

I wrote a report to Abaddon. I wanted to meet him before I start working under Mossad. It will be hard for me to see him once I gave my commitment as Taliyah’s bodyguard. They will know my moves and whereabouts.

After I took a shower, I grabbed a beer and sat at the terrace. I turned off the lights and let the darkness invaded my surrounding. Ang hangin galing sa bukid ay hindi nagbabago, malamig pa rin na tila yakap galing sa mga espiritong hindi nakikita.

Taliyah: I thought I’m gonna lose you tonight. I was so terrified.

Bumuntonghininga ako. I can imagine her right now, laying on her bed, while thinking about what happened when I was with her father and his men inside that room. Habang ako ay nakakalimot na, siya naman ay naiwan na nag-iisip.

Keith: I’m alive. Stop worrying now.

Taliyah: Hindi ko kayang mawalan ng kaibigan. Ikaw nalang ang nakakaintindi sa akin. Ayokong mawala ka.

I felt the bitterness lurking inside my chest. Tinawanan ko ng bahagya ang pait nang banggitin niya na kaibigan niya ako.

Tama naman siya. Magkaibigan kami. Even if we kiss and make out, we are still friends. Kaya lang, hindi ko naman siya nakikita bilang kaibigan ko. I wanted more than that. That’s my plan. I wanted her to be my girlfriend. I wanted her commitment and trust.

Keith: Your father didn’t believe we are friends.

Taliyah: It’s his problem. I hate him so much.

I didn’t reply. We shouldn’t text too much. I am still doubting about her cellphone was being tapped.

Tumitig ako sa kawalan. Iniisip ko kung ano pa ang iba kong puwedeng gawin para makakuha ng mga impormasyon tungkol kay Ramesh. I must be friends to one of his men, gain their trust, and have them give me details that they know.

I am also thinking about the real estate properties I wanted to buy. I might follow what Clane’s told me about having a corporation. As long as that corporation won’t have my trace.

Bumiyahe ako kinabukasan papunta sa bahay nila Taliyah. I have my files with me to give to Mossad. When I arrived there, the security let me in without a hassle.

Mossad looked gloomy. He doesn’t look like a pure Filipino. That’s what I noticed about Ramesh’s security. Half of them has foreign blood. It made me think that these men were assigned by Dragon Dynasty to guard and watch Ramesh. He has a dragon tattoo on his neck.

“I can start anytime.” I said.

He’s checking the files I gave him as if he would find something there that he didn’t know yet. He’s just wasting his time.

“Rasha has no plans for today. But you can stay here. Tatawag ’yon kung aalis siya.”

Lumapit sa amin ang isang bantay na may dalang kape para kay Mossad.

When our eyes locked, his eyes get darker and I knew he felt what I felt. It was the familiarity of having a similar agenda but different reasons. It was a common nature with undercover agents, spies, and even assets. We can smell and sense each other even from afar.

“Bago, boss?” His voice was icy.

“Oo. Keith, this is Jacobi.” Mossad introduced us to each other.

I just nod my head. I didn’t need to shake his hand. Gano’n din siya sa akin. Sinipat ko siya kanina. I didn’t see a dragon tattoo on his neck.

Jacobi’s radio communication beeped.

“Jacobi, speaking…” he paused. “What time? Where?”

I stood up when I heard that Taliyah is looking for me.

Mossad eyed me sharply. He’s suspicious. He’s doubting me.

“Here, don’t lose that,” hinagis niya sa akin ang radyo.

I keep it with me with a smirk. “Is this a tracker too?”

Ngumisi siya bilang sagot sa tanong ko.

I know. They are very keen. I expected this.

“How ’bout a gun?” I arched my brow at him.

Tinalikuran niya ako para magpunta sa isa pang pinto ng opisina. Pagbalik niya, dalawang baril ang dala niya at pinapili niya ako. I chose the Glock 22.

Sinalubong ko si Taliayah sa pinto bago pa siya tuluyang makalabas.

Kasing ganda ng sikat ng araw ang liwanag sa mukha niya. She’s fresh from the shower, wearing a white fitted blouse and denim jeans. Her clothes emphasized her impressive curve. I can see the shadow of how round her breasts were. The fabric of her blouse hugged her small waist.

“Hi, good morning!” She greeted me with a smile.

“Morning.”

“Uh, I wanna go to Mall today. It’s nearby.”

“Okay.”

“Can you ask Mossad if we can go together without other devils?”

The side of my lips curved up. Natuto na talaga siyang tawaging demonyo ang mga nagbabantay sa kanya.

“So, you only like one devil with you?”

She giggled when she easily realized that I was referring to myself.

“Yes. My favorite devil!”

I had to hide my smile. I turned my back to ask Mossad about Taliyah’s request.

“Your highness wants to go to the mall with only me as her bodyguard, would you allow it?”

“Mall is just nearby. Go ahead.”

Tumango ako at bumalik kay Taliyah. Nangingiti siya habang pinagmamasdan akong naglalakad palapit sa kanya. I am not sure what’s running in her mind. I hope she’s not yet in love with me. It’s too early to fall for me, baby.

“We can go.”

Her beautiful smile grew wider. Revealing her dimple that always captured me.

“Alright. I’m just going to get my bag.”

“Keith, come, I’ll show you the car that you will use.” Jacobi motioned me to follow him.

I walked towards the garage. There are at least five vehicles there. Two vans, two SUVs, and one Lexus.

“Use this SUV. It’s bulletproof.” Jacobi throw me the key.

I looked at him. Trying to see if he’s gonna say something weird.

Tinignan niya rin ako. Tapos ay marahan siyang tumango-tango.

I looked around to see if somebody is around us. If it’s safe to talk. There are CCTVs at the corner.

“I don’t know yet who you are and what you’re up to…” he trailed while pretending to be interested with the car in front of us.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

I wanna let him talk.

He chuckled in a sarcastic way. “Come on, the moment you entered here last night, unarmed, I know Ramesh has been infiltrated by enemies.”

I pressed the key to open the SUV. It made a noise a bit as a signal and the lights blinked.

“I’m not here to kill your boss, Jacobi.”

“I will know in time, Keith.”

Tinignan niya ako ulit bago siya umalis.

I hopped in and roared the engine. I drove to where Taliyah was waiting. I don’t need to open a door for her because Jacobi did it. She sat at the back seat.

“I’m ready. Let’s go.” She announced merrily.

It was relaxing to see her living her life as if her parents aren’t fighting. Ito lang din siguro ang paraan niya para makalaya mula sa mga problema ng pamilya niya.

“Mamaya I’m gonna sit there.” She pointed the vacant passenger seat.

“You don’t have to.”

“But I’d like to,” she insisted. “You know, when you told me that you’re going to be one of my bodyguards, I felt happy.”

“Why?” I glanced at her through the interior rearview mirror.

“Because I will see you everyday. Aren’t you happy?”

I can’t be careless. I have my radio communication with me. I haven’t check yet if there’s a recording device inside.

“I need this job, Taliyah. I resigned in PNP. Remember?”

Nang sulyapan ko siya, sa bintana siya nakatingin at hindi maipinta ang mukha niya. Halatang hindi niya nagustuhan ang sagot ko sa kanya. I can always explain to her. I just want to make sure first if our conversations weren’t being recorded.

Hindi na siya nagsalita hanggang sa ma-i-park ko ang sasakyan sa basement ng Mall.

I heaved a sigh. I grabbed my radio and carefully dismantled it.

“What are you doing?” She’s curious.

I put my forefinger on my lips to silence her.

Lumabas siya ng sasakyan tapos ay lumipat sa harap. She looked thrilled while watching me dismantled the radio communication.

I saw a chip planted inside. It was the tracker.

After I made sure that there’s no recording device, I carefully assembled it again.

“What? What did you do?”

“I just made sure that this radio has no recording device.”

“And?”

I smirked. “None.”

“What does it mean? We can talk now?”

“Yeah.”

I throw the radio at the back seat. I leaned closer to her. I wanted to kiss her but I realized, she was not my girlfriend.

“I forgot something,” I chuckled.

Nakasimangot siya. Alam kong naghintay siya ng halik galing sa akin.

“You’re not gonna kiss me because you’re not my boyfriend?” She hissed dramatically.

“Yeah.”

“Why don’t you court me, then?”

I squinted my eyes.

If I wanted her to be girlfriend, I should court her. She’s right.

“I will.”

Sumilay ang ngiti sa labi niya. She’s blushing and she looked even prettier.

I really wanted to kiss her. But I’m stopping myself. I’m not sure until when I can stop this strong urge to taste her lips again.

When she leaned closer to me, I knew I am fucked up already. Dahil alam ko na hindi ko siya tatanggihan, hindi ko siya papahintuin, bibigyan ko siya ng karapatan para mahalikan ako.

I silently groaned when our lips met. I can’t handle the longing and intensity I was feeling towards her. I cupped her jaw to deepen the kiss.

Her lips formed a smile but continued moving it with the same pace as mine. She knew that she got me. She just can’t confirm it.

“Mmm,” she breathed sensually.

I moved my hand to caress her stomach. Her body is soft and warm. Napakapit siya sa braso ko nang lumalim pa ang halikan naming dalawa. I kept on stroking her abdomen like it was my energizer to make the kiss burning.

Hinahaplos niya ang braso ko. Hindi niya alam kung gaano ako ka-apektado sa ginagawa niya. I can undress her right now and take her. She shouldn’t know that she affects me this much. She might use this to get what she wants from me.

My palm traveled up to her chest. I growled when I traced her hard nipple. If she didn’t stop me, I will continue this until I heard her sexy moans.

“Ummm,” she paused the kiss.

Namumungay na ang mga mata ko.

If she didn’t want this, I’d be glad. She just have to tell it to me. But I don’t think she will. She’s watching my fingers playing with her hard peak.

“Do you like this?” I asked with a rasp on my tone.

“Yeah,” she’s panting slightly.

I kept on playing with her nipple as well as massaging her breasts alternately. She’s so flushed… so beautiful. It made me wanted her more.

When she lifted her blouse, I groaned roughly.

She pouted her lips. “What? You made my body on fire. You shouldn’t stop this.”

Marahan akong natawa. Yeah, this is my responsibility. I can’t stop this otherwise she will be upset.

I swallowed hard when I saw her expose cleavage right in front of my eyes. Her creamy fair skin gives me a boner. Nakakasabik na iwanan ng pulang marka ang balat niya para lang mapatunayan ko sa sarili ko na akin siya.

She unhooked her bra for me. My jaw clenched.

“You cannot stop me now, Taliyah,” I warned her with an obvious desire for her.

“I don’t have plan to.” She smiled seductively at me.

Muli kong hinagkan ang labi niya. I massaged her breasts and I felt satisfied already. But I know she’s not, she wants more than that. My lips traveled down to her neck, her smell is addicting. My lips found the valley of her breasts.

“Mmm, Keith…” she gripped on my arm when I started to lick her hard nipple.

I knew she was sweet, but she’s sweeter when she moans like this.

I tasted every part of her chest, thinking that they are all mine. Mine alone. Even her, she will be mine. I don’t know yet when, but I am certain, she will be.

7 ~ CODE

CHAPTER

SEVEN

I came to Clane’s office with cash inside a duffle bag. It’s just a down payment. The rest, I’ll give him in different time and locations.

I was being followed by Ramesh’s men. They will find it suspicious when I had duffle bags with me every time I meet my friend.

“I have tails.” I told him and handed him a bottle of Paradis Cognac.

“I know. My security reported it to me,” he checked the labeled of the bottle.

Alam niya talaga ang kalakaran sa mundong ginagalawan ko. Kaya madali lang para sa akin na magsabi sa kanya dahil naiintindihan niya ako agad. At kahit na hindi naman kumpleto ang mga detalye na ibinabahagi ko sa kanya, nagiging malinaw pa rin sa kanya ang mga ito.

“I’ll give you the address of the next payment. I can’t always visit here, brute.”

“I understand.”

It’s my day off being Taliyah’s bodyguard. Kapag ganitong wala akong trabaho, hindi rin naman siya nagpaplano na umalis sa bahay nila. Naroon lang siya maghapon kasama ang mommy niya. They would go swim, invite some of her mother’s friends, and spend time with them for the day.

It has became easy for me to get information since I’ve started working in Mossad’s security. I got to know the men I work with. Most of them have a dragon tattoo on their neck and arms. It is a symbol that they are part of Dragon Dynasty. Only few doesn’t have that ink on them, including Jacobi.

I still need to ask Abaddon about Jacobi’s real identity. He could be a threat to my mission. I didn’t want any ally on this. I always choose to work alone because it will be trouble-free for me to finish my job without other people’s interruptions.

Clane’s secretary came in to serve our lunch. She left after.

“I wonder if your wife doesn’t feel jealous to know that your secretary is a woman.” I teased.

The side of his lips curved up. “I made sure that I am only hers. There’s no reason for her to feel jealous.”

Tumawa ako. Hindi ko mapigilan na mamangha sa aking mga kaibigan. Nasaksihan ko kung paano sila maglaro noon sa mga babae. Ngunit ngayon na may mga asawa na, tila sila naging maamong tupa na kapag sinabing umuwi na sila, uuwi sila ng walang pag-a-alinlangan.

I guess, these brutes finally found their sweetest karma. They finally found a love that can make them go on their knees. Natagpuan na nila ang babaeng alam nilang kaya silang paikutin, paamuin, at bigyan ng kahinaan.

While we are eating, Clane has started to discuss the corporation he’s talking about.

“First, have you thought about the company’s name?” He asked me.

I shook my head. “Honestly, I didn’t have time to think about it. I just don’t want the name to be link to me.”

He sighed like he expected that I won’t give time thinking about all these because the corporate and business world are not my cup of tea.

“Here’s the list of possible company name that you might like. Tell me which one suits your secret business so I can process the legal documents.”

Tinignan ko ang mga pangalan ng kumpanya na puwede kong magamit. I am not very picky when it comes to this. I chose the one that sounds like Altaraza so when the time comes that enemies have to track me down, they won’t think that those properties are mine. They could belong to Altarazas.

“I’d be fine with Altadena.”

Ngumisi siya. “That’s what I thought.”

“Brute, I know this is too early for this, but you shouldn’t involve me with these real state properties.”

“Don’t worry. You’ll remain as a ghost investor under Altaraza Hotels Incorporation.”

Pagkatapos naming mag usap, umalis ako sa opisina niya. I met Yane because I got report that she’s seen being with my friend, Howell Banchero.

I don’t like it that much because I think she’s still very young. I am not sure if she’s thinking right or she’s just sad because of what’s going on to our family. And she needed Howell to ease her sadness. I have no problem with my friend. I know he’s not going to hurt my sister. Maybe, I am just overly protective.

But now that I am working under Ramesh’s security and he always has me followed, I think, I shouldn’t let them know that I care about Yane that much. They might use my sister against me in the future. Ngayon palang, iniiwasan ko na ang mga tao na magiging sanhi ng kahinaan ko balang araw.

Even though, Yane denied her intimate involvement with Howell, I know one day, it will all come out. She doesn’t need to hide it from me. She might be thinking that I’d get upset. Pero hindi. I don’t I have the rights to stop her from doing what she wants to do. Gusto ko lang masigurado na totoo ang nararamdaman nila sa isa’t isa.

I wanted Yane to be genuinely happy, to find the love that she has been looking for, and to have someone with her to support her. Dahil ang mga bagay na ito ay hindi ko kayang ibigay sa kanya ng buo. Hindi habang buhay ay narito ako sa tabi niya. I have my own life. She shouldn’t depend her life on me. That’s not right.

This time, I meet Carter in D’ Club.

“Brute! I miss you!” He hugged me.

I chuckled. “Wala ka bang girlfriend?”

“Wala pa. May irereto ka ba?”

“Wala rin.”

Tumulala siya bigla. Tila ba may binabalikan sa nakaraan.

Carter is like an open book. He’s very vocal and expressive. But when he’s silent, it’s difficult to read him.

“Do you remember the woman I was talking about?”

“The one you met in Australia?”

“Yeah.”

“Okay. What about her? Did you finally find her?”

“Unfortunately, no. But brute, she’s running freely inside my head. Kahit ibang babae ang kasama ko, siya pa rin ang iniisip ko. I think, she possessed me. What do you call it, gayuma?”

I laughed. I never believed on that kind of love spell.

“You’re going nuts, Altaraza.”

Sumimsim siya sa alak. Pagkatapos ay pagod na isinandal ang katawan sa kanyang inuupuan. Pumikit pa siya bilang pagpapakita na apektado pa rin siya sa babaeng nakilala niya noong nasa Australia siya.

“I feel like I’m going to see her again anytime soon.”

“Let me know once you see her again. So I can tell her how she made you feel.”

Humalakhak siya. He’s shaking his head.

“Kapag nakita ko siya ulit, tang ina, hindi ko na talaga siya pakakawalan.”

I grimaced. He sounded threatening. That woman would be scared if she even heard him saying this.

“Ganyan ka ka-baliw sa kanya?”

“You think so?”

I lifted my glass for a cheers as an answer to his question.

“Kapag ikaw na ang pinana ni Kupido, baka pati buhay mo ay ibigay mo sa babaeng mahal mo, Tuazon.”

“I doubt that.”

It was absurd. But it could happen too. Because love can be dangerous. The only thing that makes me thrilled is the fact that I was silently hoping I won’t find a kind of love that could make me risk my life for her.

Pinuntahan ko si Taliyah para pag usapan ang mga lugar na gusto niyang mapuntahan. When I became her bodyguard, my job get a little easier. I can see and talk to her freely. We can always be together. I got to know her better, her family, and what’s going on with Ramesh.

Today, she’s ranting. She has a freedom to express her feelings and thoughts when she’s with me. I made her feel like I am a trustworthy ally that is always ready to listen to her.

“It was your day off when they came. And you know what they did? They used illegal drugs inside that library room!”

We are sitting at the bench of the park under the shade of big tree. In front of us is the greenery of the nature and the mountain range of Sierra Madre from afar. The breeze was quite cold. The devils are not around us because we are just inside the subdivision. There’s no threat here.

“How many are they? Do you know them?”

“Five! One is a senator, two businessmen, and his friends.”

“Do you know their names?”

“Yes. Why?”

I shrugged my shoulders. I’d like to know the names of Ramesh’s associates. They’re only in one circle. It’s easier to track them down and see what’s business they’re into.

“I don’t like it when you have to witness your father and his friends doing that inside your house. Do you think I can do something about it?”

Malungkot siyang umiling. “I don’t think so. They are powerful. But people don’t know they are all evils.”

“Can you write down their names?”

“Sure. But what you’re going to do with the names?” She curiously asked.

“Because I am curious about your father’s friends. They might be the reason why he’s becoming a bad husband and a father.”

“Kung puwede ko lang silang isumbong, ginawa ko na dati pa.”

Hinarap ko siya para mas maintindihan niya ang mga sasabihin ko.

She’s wearing a beige midi dress. I have a clear view of her cleavage. It always distract me. Ang hubog ng katawan niya ay talagang umaakit sa akin. It was frustrating.

She looked at me with innocence on her expressive eyes. I had to stop myself from admiring her. I needed her to understand the situation so she won’t do something that could put her life at risk.

“Taliyah, I want you to stay calm whenever your father and friends visited your house—”

“How can I do that? They are ruining the peace of the house that supposed to be our home.”

“Listen, I understand you and your frustration. But this time, I want you to act like a real woman who can handle things calmly.”

Tumitig pa siya lalo sa akin. Alam ko naman na sinisikap niyang intindihin ang mga sinasabi ko. Pero hindi ko talaga maiwasan na hindi mabighani sa ganda niya.

Her eyes were hazel and they’re very enthralling. She has enough tint on her curled eyelashes. Her lips were plum and certainly sweet like fine wine. The veins on her cheeks are very visible when this close. Her upturned nose is cute as well as her divided chin.

“What I’m gonna do then?”

“First, I want you to give me the names of your father’s associates. Do not tell anyone that you gave me names. Okay?”

“Even to my mom?”

“Yes. This should be our little secret.”

When she nodded her head, I knew I convinced her.

“What else should I do?”

“I want us to have a secret code…”

She faced me more because she’s very intrigued.

“What code?”

Last time, she told me that she wasn’t the one who sent a message for me to visit her. It was one of Ramesh’s security. That was the night I met her father and have myself be part of her bodyguard.

We really need to be careful. I need to teach her some basic code so that we can’t compromise our communications.

“What is the flavor of your favorite ice cream?” I asked to start creating code for us.

“Hmm, my favorite is Pistachio flavored.”

“How ’bout your least favorite?”

“Strawberry.”

“Okay. We will only use this code if you’re in danger, do you understand?”

“No, I don’t understand. Enlighten me more.”

I took a deep breath. I think, she’s willing to cooperate. This won’t be a problem.

“When you are in danger, you will call or text me. What are you gonna say?”

“I will say that I’m in danger.”

“No,” I shook my head. “This is what you’re gonna say: Please bring strawberry ice cream for me.”

Taliyah stared at me. She’s trying to understand what I was saying.

“So, if I was in danger, I will ask you to buy me my least favorite ice cream flavor?”

“Exactly. So I will know that you’re in danger while the enemies don’t have idea about it.”

Unti-unting sumilay ang ngiti sa labi niya. Namamangha siya sa pinag-uusapan namin.

“Okay. But what if they confiscated my phone. Then they call you? And have me talk to you to come to me. How can I say that I’m in danger?”

“Just say, please come and bring my favorite ice cream,” I taunted, and see if she’s getting what I’m saying or she’s still unclear about this.

“But I’m in danger! I should say, please bring strawberry ice cream for me.”

I suppressed a damn smile. She’s attentive. I am quite impressed.

“Very good,” I praised her. “But here’s the thing, if I wasn’t sure that you’re in danger, I’d ask, which flavor? What are you gonna say?”

“Strawberry…” ngumiti siya. She’s proud of herself for doing all of this with me.

“How will I know how many men around you?”

“I will count them and say the numbers to you.”

“No,” I shook my head. “That’s very obvious.”

“What I’m gonna do then?”

“Remember this, if the men are less than five, you will say bring me a pint of strawberry ice cream. If you think that they are more than five, you will say, bring me a gallon of strawberry ice cream.”

Tumango-tango siya. Kumikislap ang mga mata niya at patuloy siyang namamangha.

“A pint if they are less than five and a gallon if they are more than five.” She trailed.

“Okay. Let’s practice…” I told her. “Call me. You’re in danger…” I grabbed my phone from my pocket to make this practice more believable.

She also grabbed her expensive iPhone from her bag. We are both pretending like we have on going call.

“Yes?” I asked.

“Hi,” she winced. “What I’m gonna say?”

Marahan akong natawa.

“Okay, let’s do this again,” I cleared my throat. This is ridiculous. “Hello, why did you call?”

“Uh, come here and bring me a pint of strawberry ice cream, please.”

I squinted my eyes. This made me amused. Kailangan ko pang pigilan ang ngisi ko para lang hindi siya ma-distract.

“Okay. I’ll be there soon. Do you want anything else?”

“Just you.”

Hindi ko napigilan ang mapapikit. Sumusugat na ang ngisi sa labi ko.

This was not the way I expected this conversation will be.

“What I’m gonna say instead of you?” She awkwardly muttered.

“You can just say, please hurry.”

“Okay. I will keep these in mind.”

I am still thinking of possible scenarios that we might encounter one day. I wanted her to be ready than be sorry.

“Can we also have a code name for my dad and his associates?”

“Sure. That’d be helpful.”

“I think, I’d say… leech and worms.”

I laughed amusingly. Even her code names for her father and his friends are the animals that she hates the most.

She giggled. “Suits them, right?”

“Right,” I kissed her temple. I am so amused, it made me kiss her.

Malambing na isinandal niya ang kanyang ulo sa aking balikat. Ang ihip ng hangin ay nagbibigay ng lamig at ginhawa.

“I wanna go to Siargao. Do you think Mossad would allow us to go together without other devils?”

“You have to talk to your father about this. Mossad is just following orders from leech.”

Her laughter echoed my ears like a music that lingered.

8 ~ TERRITORIAL

CHAPTER

EIGHT

I managed to communicate with Abaddon through an asset. We need to be keen with our moves because Ramesh has been following us. Including Clane and my friends. I went to a library of the university to get the files that the asset left there.

Inside a book was a message that I had to decode. It wasn’t that difficult because I am very use to this set up. It was basic with this kind of job I am in.

Chapter 20, Page M

A Python had to fight his enemies to escape from his own death. But the bounty hunter was hungry enough to stop him.

Python is our code name for Ramesh Montecarlo. He has 20 Million bounty on his head.

Pinunit ko ang papel at nilukot bago isiniksik sa aking bulsa. Then I get to the next page.

Havoc. Do not engage.

This is for Jacobi. He’s known as “Havoc” in the world where we are in. But Abaddon didn’t want me to engage. He probably had no idea yet who’s Havoc and who he works for.

I have money but the 20 Million is tempting. I wonder if Ramesh knows now that the bounty on his head was getting high-up. He better add more security so that the hunters won’t have his head anytime soon.

Like the usual, I always went to their house. This time, Taliyah asked me to take her to the river. Kahit na nandidiri siya sa mga linta na hindi niya pa naman nakikita, gusto niya pa rin na magpunta sa ilog.

Sa pagkakataon na ito, pumayag si Mossad na ako lang ang kasama ni Taliyah. Hindi ko pa masabi kung bakit nagiging maluwag sila sa aming dalawa. Pero isa lang ang sigurado ko, hindi pa rin nila ako pinagkakatiwalaan ng husto. They may be allowing me to guard Taliyah by myself, but it doesn’t mean we are not being followed.

Hindi alam ni Taliyah na may mga mata pa rin na sumusunod sa amin. But I noticed it. Kahit pa gaano sila ka-ingat na hindi ipaalam sa amin ang presensya nila, nalalaman ko pa rin. Kahit pa ibang tauhan at papalit-palit sila, I can still sense them.

Dinala ko siya sa ilog at sa cottage kung saan kami palaging nagpapalipas ng oras. Kaunti lang ang tao sa araw na ito. Ang ilog ay payapa ang agos. Mas tahimik kumpara noong nakaraan.

Taliyah is wearing her cream maxi summer dress. The thin straps and her cleavage were distracting me. She didn’t have plan to take a dip. Gusto niya lang magpunta sa ilog at tumulala roon. Isinama niya ako para hindi siya mag isa.

“What’s bothering you?”

I occupied the space behind her. We are both sitting at the long chair made from bamboo, while facing the dark green color of the long river. The forest on the other side added greenery to the water because of it’s reflection.

“I am not bothered but I heard the devils talking about leech…”

“What are they talking about?”

I embraced her from behind and jailed her with my legs. I started to smell her long wavy hair. She always smells good. Hindi lang tuwing gabi nakakahalina ang amoy niya, pati na rin kapag ganitong may araw pa. I don’t think I’d ever get tired smelling her scent.

“Hindi muna siya uuwi dahil delikado raw. I don’t know why. Maybe his enemies are hunting him down.”

Ramesh probably has idea now that he has bounty in his head. I am also certain that assassins are already moving their assess to get the best shot to bring home the bacon.

Twenty million is kinda small though. I’d have it if it’s fifty million. It would be easy for me because I am already inside Python’s territory. But I won’t do it. I’d rather stay with Taliyah, continue to do what I was paid to do, then wait until everything between us ended.

“He’s hiding then. For his safety.”

“My mom wants to take this opportunity to move out. What do you think?”

I was stunned for a moment. I haven’t really talk to Tracia Montecarlo. Masyado siyang mailap para paunlakan kausapin ang isa sa mga bodyguards ng anak niya. Pero kung ganito nga ang plano niya, mas mabuti pang gawin niya na habang hindi pa malayang nakakakilos si Ramesh.

“May tutulong ba sa inyo kung aalis kayo?”

“Mayro’n. My Uncle, mom’s brother—he’s a retired high ranking military officer. He’s willing to help us move out.”

I didn’t know that. Interesting. I should’ve gotten that details.

“When will this be?”

“As soon as possible.”

“That’s quick. I can help though.”

She turned her head to me. Then she sighed. She rested her head on my shoulder.

“Tatakasan namin ang mga tauhan ni daddy. Baka madamay ka kapag tumulong ka pa.”

“Still, I am willing to help, Taliyah.” I planted a kiss on her cheek. “Hindi mo ako matatakasan.”

Bumungisngis siya. I found it cute.

“Hindi naman kita tatakasan. Sasabihin ko pa rin sa ’yo kung saan kami lilipat para mapuntahan mo ako.”

“Tell me all your plans so I know what to do.”

“For now, we will stay in Uncle Harris’ rest house somewhere in Quezon. It was private and loaded with security. Anyway, mommy has filed an annulment. But, leech didn’t want to sign it.”

The separation was really happening. This is the best decision Tracia has done so far.

“My brother will help us too. Do you know him?”

Rashid Montecarlo.

“I don’t. Does he know about me?”

“Yes. I told him I found a trusted friend who became my bodyguards. But he didn’t want me to trust our father’s men.”

“Yeah. You shouldn’t trust any of them.”

“Only you?”

I smirked. I leaned again so that I can rest my lips on her cheek. Damn, I wanted to kiss her but I didn’t wanna interrupt her from saying things to me. Everything that she said can help me and this mission.

Gusto kong sabihin na huwag niya rin akong pagkatiwalaan. Dahil iyon naman ang totoo. Mabibigo lang siya sa huli kapag nalaman niya na bahagi lang siya ng trabaho ko. Pero hindi ko puwedeng personalin ang lahat ng ito. I need her to trust me. Siya ang tulay ko papunta sa dulo ng lahat ng ito.

“Yeah. You can only trust me. I am a good devil.”

She giggled. “You’re my favorite devil.”

It put a smile on my lips. This shouldn’t affect me but I can’t help to take it as a compliment.

I have gained her trust already. Kapag ganito na ang sitwasyon, magiging madali nalang para sa akin na hingian siya ng mas importanteng impormasyon dahil hindi niya ako pag-iisipan ng masama.

“But Jacobi, he’s nice too…” she muttered.

Sa binanggit niya pa lang na pangalan, mabilis na pumait ang timpla ko. I didn’t know yet what Jacobi’s hidden agenda. He could be an ally or an enemy. Taliyah shouldn’t trust him.

“How did you say that?”

“Because he’s the one who seems different. He’s kind to me and respectful.”

“Do you like him?”

She was stunned. She turned her face to see me but I stay stoic. I didn’t even look at her. Ang mga mata ko ay nasa ilog lang sa aming harap. Ayokong malaman niya na hindi ko gusto na nakikita niyang mabuti si Jacobi. Hindi lahat ng tao ay mabuti ang hangad sa kanya.

“I like him—”

I cut her off with a growl. She should’t feel that way!

“Taliyah, just because he’s nice and respectful, it doesn’t mean he’s not a bad guy.”

Nagbaba ako ng tingin sa kanya upang tignan ang reaksyon niya. Baka nakangiti pa siya habang iniisip niya ang tarantadong ’yon. But, she’s biting her bottom lip. Pinipigil niya ang pag usli ng kanyang labi.

“He’s handsome too…” she whispered while she’s blushing.

My blood is boiling for a petty reason. She must know that no matter how handsome the man was, they can’t be trusted!

I let out a frustrating breath to let her know I’m disappointed.

“Pero mas gwapo ka pa rin… mas malaki ang katawan… makisig… at paborito ko sa lahat.” Sabi niya, na para bang pinapalubag niya lang ang loob ko.

Hindi ako magpapadala sa mga ganito niya. Kailangan kong masigurado na mawawala ang pagtingin niya kay Jacobi. Sa akin lang dapat siya magtiwala. Ako lang ang may kakayahan na tunay siyang protektahan laban sa mga kasamaan.

“Taliyah, you shouldn’t trust Jacobi.”

“Why not?”

I massaged my temple. Her innocence was stressing me out.

“Because we don’t know if he’s a good man or not.”

“But he’s protecting me and my mom. I think, he’s a good man.”

“And you think that all the devils around your house are good men too?”

“No. Only you and Jacobi.”

I hissed. I can’t believe this conversation will piss me off.

“So, while I was away, you were talking to that bastard?”

“Yeah.”

Ang iritasyon ko ay nadagdagan lang lalo. Gusto kong maging tapat siya sa akin pero kapag ganitong magaan ang pakikitungo niya sa isa sa mga tauhan ng kanyang ama, hindi ito magandang pangitain.

Madali lang siyang paamuin. Pakitaan lang siya ng ilang beses na kabutihan, nagtitiwala na agad siya. Paano kung patuloy siyang paikutin ng gagong ’yon? Paano kung mas piliin niya ’yon kaysa sa akin? Kailangan kong mag isip ng paraan para mailayo siya sa nag-a-abang na kapahamakan.

“And what you were talking about?”

“He told me that he had a girlfriend but they broke up. So, he’s single now.”

“And?”

“He asked me if we our in a relationship, I told him that we are just friends. Because that’s what we are, right?”

“Yeah.” I muttered coldly. “And what did he say?”

“He said, I’m beautiful and I shouldn’t trust any of you guys.”

I laughed without humor in it. That motherfucker is trying to lure Taliyah. Uunahan pa talaga ako ng gago.

“What did you say?”

“I told him I trust you.”

Hindi niya ako mapapakalma sa ganito lang. I suddenly wanted assurance that she really trust me and she will never turn her back on me.

“Tapos sabi niya, bago ka lang daw, hindi dapat kita pagkatiwalaan agad dahil hindi pa kita kilala ng lubusan. But I made it clear to him that I really trust you.”

“You should.”

“Galit ka ba?” Malambing ang boses niya.

Bumuntonghininga ako.

“Hindi ko na siya kakausapin para hindi ka magalit. Okay?”

Nawalan ako ng sasabihin. I didn’t want her to trust Jacobi, but how can I tell her that she can still talk to him? For as long as she won’t fall for his hidden schemes.

“Hindi ako galit.”

“I feel like you are galit though,” she took a breath. “Kapag wala ka sa bahay, wala akong kausap. My mom was busy some times. Ano ang gagawin ko sa amin? Tutulala maghapon?”

“You can still talk to the devils. But you shouldn’t trust them, Taliyah.”

Tumango siya. Mas lalo niyang isinandal ang katawan niya sa akin. She also hugged my arms that wrapped around her.

I smell her hair. It relaxed me just like that.

“Ikaw lang dapat ang pagkakatiwalaan ko?”

“Ako lang.”

I sounded territorial. But I need to think about this, that I should be the only one she must trust. Walang iba. Wala akong tiwala sa mga tauhan ng kanyang ama. Ni hindi ako sigurado kung kaya ba talaga nilang protektahan si Taliyah kung malagay sa alanganin ang buhay niya.

I am the only one who can genuinely protect her from all the danger. Dahil alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ko siya hahayaan na mapahamak hanggat nandito ako sa tabi niya.

“Hmm. Kapag ikaw lang pinagkatiwalaan ko, dapat hindi ka umalis sa tabi ko. I want you to be always beside me. Because from now on, I am giving you the responsibility to take care of me and to make sure that I am safe. Sa ’yo nakasalalay ang buhay ko, Keith.”

This is what I wanted. I am glad that I heard these from her. It comforted me that she’s giving me the responsibility to look after her safety. Because that’s part of my job and I will do it because I wanted to protect her from any harm.

“I will request Mossad to have you as my primary bodyguard. Is that fine with you?”

“Sure. I’d like that,” I whispered as I glided my lips on her cheek. “I’d like to be with you every damn day.”

“I feel the same way.”

I moved my palm up to her breasts. I felt her trembled a bit. Sumiksik pa siya sa akin at lalong niyakap ang mga braso ko.

“I will introduce you to my brother.”

Tumango ako bilang pagsang-ayon sa gusto niyang mangyari. Sa huli, kailangan ko rin naman talaga na mapalapit sa kapatid niya.

We already profiled Rashid Montecarlo. He had no involvement on his father’s other businesses. There was no evidence that could link him to Dragon Dynasty. We all believed that he knew about the syndicate but didn’t have that power to go against his father. What he can only do is to let Python know that he can’t be influenced or can’t be drag to that kind of dirty and illegal industry in underworld.

Rashid could become our ally if he cooperates with us. That’s could be the next mission Abaddon would tell me to do. Malayo palang, nakikita ko na ang mga daan papunta sa dulo. Alam ko na maraming magiging balakid at ngayon palang ay hinahanda ko na ang aking sarili.

Dragon Dynasty has wide connections and they are powerful. It won’t be easy to take them down. Dahil kung mapabagsak man ang mga miyembro na narito sa Pilipinas, magpapatuloy pa rin ang negosyo nila sa karatig na bansa. Masyado silang malawak at may malakas na impluwensya sa bawat bansa. Tila sila pader na hindi matibag-tibag.

“I hope you can be friends with him. Mabait siya. He looked intimidating for other people, but he’s really kind especially to me and to our mom.”

“Where is he?”

“He chose not to live with us. Palagi lang din silang nag-a-away ni daddy. I think, kuya knows that something was wrong with my father. Kaya hindi sila nagkakasundo.”

“What do you mean?” I made myself curious because I was interested to know about Rashid’s reasons why he wasn’t around his family.

“I think, kuya discovered something. I didn’t know what it was. Before he left our house, he had a big bloody fight with our father’s men. He almost got killed though. Simula noon, hindi na siya bumalik sa amin. He didn’t want to see leech anymore.”

I kissed her hair. If only I could take her away from this life, I would. But I know it was forbidden. I’ll be fuck up if I ever did that.

“I missed my brother. I am excited to see him again. I’m sure you two can get along well.”

“I am not sure about that. He might find me as one of the enemies became I am part of leech’s security.”

“Don’t worry. I already told my brother that you’re a good man and can be trusted. I even gave him your name. Maybe he already done checking your background,” she then giggled. “It’s weird, right? My family used to check the background of the people that get closer to me. Kaya siguro hindi ako nagkaka-boyfriend dahil natatakot sila sa pamilya ko.”

“They are coward.”

“Ikaw lang din ang matapang. Sana magtagal ka sa buhay ko. Gusto pa kitang makasama ng matagal.” Malamyos ang boses niya na tila ba nangangarap ng isang imposibleng mangyari.

I leaned more so I can kiss her. I saw her closed her eyes when our lips met.

“I’ll stay as long as you want me to stay.” I whispered like a promise that cannot be broken.

“I want you to stay… forever.”

That made my lips curved up. “Baby, forever doesn’t exist.”

“Make it exist for us then.”

“Hmm, I will try.”

“Don’t try. Do it. We will make our forever, Keith. Okay?”

“Whatever you say.” I murmured and resumed our passionate kiss.

9 ~ FAVORITE

CHAPTER

NINE

“I know you won’t take it. The bounty is too small for you.” Abaddon trailed meaningfully.

I honestly didn’t wanna talk about this. Pero alam kong hindi ko rin maiiwasan lalo at kilala niya ako. He knows what I do. He knows the darkness behind every job that I was paid to do. To make this short, Abaddon has most of the records of my job’s history.

“I was not paid to kill him.” I muttered coldly.

We were able to set a meeting inside the Art Museum. We are sitting in front of the large painting.

This conversation shouldn’t take too long. I just want to personally inform him about what’s going on with Ramesh and his wife. The secret plan to escape with the help of Tracia’s brother and Rashid. Tutulong din ako. Gusto kong masigurado ang kaligtasan ni Taliyah.

“This could ruin Python’s trust on you.”

“Hindi niya pa ako pinagkakatiwalaan. They are still suspicious. They sent their men to follow me and my moves. I shouldn’t met you in the first place, but I want to personally tell you my decision.”

He sighed. “Well, you know what to do. Just stay vigilant I’d say.”

I nodded my head and left him like I had never talked to him.

Pumara ako ng taxi. I intentionally didn’t bring my car with me. Minsan, mas madaling gumalaw kung makikihalo ako sa mga tao.

Hinintay ko ang mga tauhan ni Ramesh na sundan ang sinasakyan ko. I saw another black SUV tailing us.

“Saan tayo, sir?”

“Malate.”

I am going to get a key from our asset there. I need guns and ammunitions. I entered inside a KTV bar. I was welcomed by women who work there.

“Sir, are you alone? How many girls do you want to assist you?”

“I’m looking for Fumiko.”

“Ah! Si Fumiko pala ang bet! Mahilig sa chinita si sir pogi!”

“Oh! I’ve been waiting for you, sweetheart!”

A woman wearing a very short glittery dress walk towards me with a flirty smile on her lips. She snaked her arm on mine and guided me to a table.

“What do you wanna drink?”

“A beer will do.”

Fumiko is just one of our assets. Madalas na sa kanya dumadaan ang mga ilang impormasyon o mga susi na kakailanganin para mabuksan ang locker kung saan naroon ang mga baril, cash, pekeng passports, at kung anu-ano pang materyal na kakailanganin ng mga aktibo sa ganitong klaseng trabaho.

“You should stay longer, I missed hanging out with you.” She caressed my arm when we both noticed that a group of men came.

Those were Ramesh’s men. Fumiko have been in this kind of industry for a quite long time. She can smell trouble and enemies.

“You have tails…” she whispered near my ear.

“Yeah.”

“Big guys. But I know you can beat all of them.”

She continued to flirt with me while caressing my chest this time.

“I like your eyes a lot. Para akong natutunaw kapag tinitignan mo ako.”

“Give me my beer.” I smirked.

Ngumisi siya. Alam niyang hindi lang beer ang hinihingi ko sa kanya.

“Okay, sweetheart, wait for me here.”

Maarte siyang naglakad palayo sa akin. Humahampas ang balakang niya. She even waved naughtily on the group of devils.

I checked my phone to see if there’s any messages from Taliyah. I am only interested having my cellphone with me all the time because of her. I didn’t care about this kind of communication. I have my own way how to communicate with people. Pero dahil sa kanya, nagkakaroon ako ng pakialam.

Taliyah: Are you still in Manila?

I typed a reply.

Keith: Yes. Why are you asking?

I saw Fumiko walking towards me, holding a tray of two bottle of beer, with a flirty smile for me.

Taliyah: You seemed busy. Can you drop by here?

Fumiko sat next to me. She handed me a bottle and leaned closer. I felt her one hand on my thigh. I had to act like I was enjoying the way she flirts with me because these men are watching us.

“Here’s your beer,” she secretly slid the key on my pocket.

Her moves were smooth. I don’t think the devils would know what she just did.

“Aren’t you gonna take the 20M?” She meaningfully muttered.

“Nah.”

“Too small for someone who is highly-trained as you…” she buried her face on my neck. “But the assassins are moving their asses now to get the bounty.”

Kahit siya, alam niya ang tungkol sa patong sa ulo ni Ramesh. We are really moving in one small circle. Breathing the same air. Surrounded by the same darkness.

“I wish them luck.”

She laughed in a tone that sounded like she was really enjoying our conversation so much. She is a good actress.

“But the dragon was loaded by security. It will be a little harder to take him out.”

I sipped on my beer. After this, I will leave and go home.

“Flirt with me. Your tails are watching.”

I cupped her jaw with my one hand that made her giggled. I moved my head closer to her neck.

“Thanks for the beer.” I said coldly and let her go.

“That was hot though. I thought you’re gonna kiss my neck.” She sighed sadly.

I left a cash above the table and stood up. Gano’n din ang ginawa niya. She walked me to the exit door. The devils stayed on their table. But I knew others were waiting outside.

I got a taxi to drive me to Quezon City. Then from there, I will ride a bus going to Bulacan. It was already nine in the evening when I arrived at Montecarlo’s house.

Naghihintay sa akin si Taliyah sa pinto. Nakahalukipkip siya. Hindi rin maipinta ang magandang mukha niya.

I was hoping the devils didn’t take a stolen photos of me inside that KTV bar with Fumiko, then sent it here and let her see. Kung iyon ang dahilan kung bakit nagagalit siya, kailangan kong mag-isip ng maganda-gandang rason para kumalma siya.

“Where have you been?” She probed.

“I went to Manila.”

“And?”

“Had a beer.”

“Who was with you?” She raised her brow.

I had a strong feeling that she knew I was with a woman. Kung itatanggi ko, mas lalo lang siyang magagalit. Baka pa pag-awayan namin ito ng husto. Ayokong dumating kami sa punto na ’yon.

“A friend.”

“Babae o lalaki?” Tinitigan niya ako.

Kumikislap ang gilid ng kanyang mga mata. I can see her hands trembling a bit. She’s probably holding back her emotions or anger towards me. But I admired her staying calm.

“Babae.”

Her lips parted. Mabilis niya akong tinalikuran.

I took a deep breath. “Taliyah—”

“Go home!”

Hinarangan ako ng mga tauhan ni Mossad para lang hindi ko siya masundan sa loob.

Malalaki ang hakbang niya habang paakyat sa hagdan. Nakakuyom ang mga kamao niya. Hindi niya na rin ako nilingon pa.

“Umuwi ka na.” Jacobi mocked me.

I glared at him. But I didn’t say anything.

Hindi ko ipipilit ang sarili ko sa kanya. Maghihintay ako na humupa kung ano man ang nararamdaman niyang galit sa akin. I’d rather tell her the truth than lie in front of her face.

It was already eleven in the evening when I get back to my apartment. Taliyah didn’t send me any messages. I feel the loneliness in the middle of darkness. I am laying on my bed but I can’t sleep. I grabbed my cellphone to text her.

Keith: I don’t wanna lie to you. I’m sorry if the truth disappointed you.

Lying will only make this worse. Especially that she had idea that I was with Fumiko. I think, Mossad was trying to break Taliyah’s trust on me. Sa ginawa nilang ito, pinatunayan lang nila sa akin na talagang pinapasundan nga nila ako.

Taliyah: That’s why it took you so long to reply because you were with her!

Hindi ko alam kung mag-a-alala ba ako o matutuwa. I know she’s upset. But I didn’t expect her to be like this. I wasn’t sure if she was mad or she was just jealous. Maybe both.

Keith: Can I call?

I didn’t want to keep texting her. I wanted to know her feelings about this. She can pour everything to me until the anger or jealousy subsided.

Taliyah: NO!

Napabuntonhininga ako.

Taliyah: How dare you kiss her neck?! You don’t kiss a friend’s neck!

Bumangon ako. Napahilot sa sintido.

Those motherfuckers were getting into my nerves. Ipinapakita lang nila sa akin ang madilim na plano nila para sirain ang magandang relasyon namin ni Taliyah.

Taliyah: Well, we kissed and made out even if we are not in a relationship. Siguro ganito ka talaga sa mga babae!

I clenched my jaw. Now, she’s judging me.

I dialed her number and waited for her to pick up my call. I felt my heart throbbed when she answered. I had to take a deep breath so that I can control the sudden rapid beating of my heart.

“Taliyah—”

“I know, I don’t have the rights to feel upset, but I can’t control my emotions. What do you want me to feel, huh? Akala mo sasaya ako na makita na may kasama kang ibang babae?!”

She was panting because her emotions were uncontrollable. Sa sobrang galit niya, nababasag ang boses niya.

“I thought what we have was special. Hindi ko inaasahan na hahanap ka pa ng ibang babae!” Now, I heard her sobbing.

I pursed my lips tightly. I didn’t mean to hurt her this way.

“Hindi ko siya babae—”

“Ano lang?!” She was aggressive.

“She is nothing to me, Taliyah.”

“But you kissed her!”

“I did not.” Which was true.

“I saw the photo!”

“Who showed you the photo?”

“Jacobi!”

I gritted my teeth. That motherfucker was seeking for trouble.

“That fucker—”

“No! He’s not! I think, you are!”

Umawang ang labi ko. Hindi ko inaasahan na ganito siya kagalit sa akin.

I realized I cannot easily calm her down through phone calls. I should’ve talked to her about this in person. Mas madali para sa akin na magpaliwanag habang yakap siya at pinapakalma. I have learned my lesson now. Next time, I will know what to do to her.

“What do you want me to do? Lie to you?” I said, a bit dismayed.

Hindi siya nagsalita. I can hear her heavy breathing and controlled sobbing.

“Baby, I don’t wanna lie to you. I don’t wanna make you believe with lies.”

But in reality, I have been deceiving her. That, I think, was a painful truth.

“Is she your girlfriend?” Malamyos ang boses niya, kumakalma na kahit papano.

“No, she’s not,” my voice was firm.

“Why did you kiss her neck?”

I closed my eyes. Stopping myself to say anything that can hurt her again. Pero sa totoo lang, gusto ko nang tumawa. I can sense that she can’t really accept that I was with another woman. I understand her. Hindi ko na dapat ’yon ginawa. I was careless. I didn’t expect those motherfuckers will take photos of us. I was just acting. We did that so those devils won’t be too suspicious.

“She asked me to smell her neck—”

“And you did?!” She sounded aggressive and bitter at the same time.

“Because she bought a new perfume. She’s working in a KTV bar. She wanted to smell nice for the guests.” That was the best excuse I can think of.

“And you are her regular guest?”

“No. I wasn’t regular there.”

“Why did you visit her?”

I took a deep breath. This conversation is endless.

Pakiramdam ko, hindi niya ako patutulugin hanggat hindi siya nakukuntento sa mga naririnig niya galing sa akin.

“Taliyah, we can talk about all of these tomorrow. Aren’t you tired?”

“I’m not tired. I’m still upset!”

“What do you want me to do?”

She sighed heavily.

“Hmm? Do you want me to go there now? Hindi ako makakatulog kung ganitong alam kong galit ka.”

Nanlilit ang mga mata ko sa mga pinagsasasabi ko. Tang ina. Hindi ko na rin alam kung totoo ba na hindi nga ako makakatulog ng maayos dahil galit siya o baka parte lang ito ng trabaho ko.

“Sunduin mo ako dito bukas. I wanna spend my day with you there.”

Sumilay ang ngiti sa akin. “What time do you want me to pick you up?”

“Eight in the morning.”

“Okay. I’ll see you then.”

The silence stretched between us. I had to break it because I almost hear my fucking heartbeat.

“I have a surprise for you.” I smirked.

I bought her something. When I saw it, I remembered her.

“You better.”

“You’ll like it.”

“Hmp! This time, I don’t wanna fish. I just want to stay in your apartment. I like to watch the bukid and the sunset.”

I have no time to fish tomorrow. I honestly need to go to the locker room in Quezon City to get what I need, but it can wait. I must prioritized Taliyah. I don’t want her to lose her trust in me. That would be a big problem if that happens.

“We will do whatever you want. I’ll cook for us.”

I heard her small giggles. It made me smile.

“Okay! I better sleep na,” she yawned. “Good night, devil…”

Marahan akong natawa. “Where’s the word “favorite”, hmm?“

“I’ll think about it again. Baka may bago na akong paborito.”

“Taliyah—”

She ended the line, leaving me with disappointment. And who the fuck could be her new favorite?

10 ~ DEVOUR

CHAPTER

TEN

“I’m going with you. I’m not gonna stay here.” Taliyah insisted to go with me.

I was planning to stop at the wet market. Ipagluluto ko siya sa araw na ito bilang pangbawi sa sakit at galit na ibinigay ko sa kanya kagabi. Ayoko siyang isama sa akin dahil alam kong mandidiri lang siya sa matutunghayan niya.

“It’s wet and dirty there. Are you sure?” I asked her again.

We are still inside their SUV. I was driving and she’s sitting at the front passenger seat. She looked very pretty with that pastel pink romper. She’s glowing. Her hair is in half ponytail this time.

“I haven’t tried going to the wet market. This is my chance. Give this to me, devil.”

I scoffed. She has been calling me that name since last night. Until this moment, she hasn’t move on with what I did.

“So, I wasn’t your favorite devil anymore?”

She crossed her arms above her chest.

“You like Jacobi now more than me?” I taunted.

“He doesn’t kiss woman—”

“How did you know?” I cut her off. “You don’t even know him.”

“I knew him for a quite long while now. He doesn’t have a girlfriend.”

“Sinabi niya sa ’yo ’yan?”

“Oo.”

“At naniwala ka naman?”

Nakatuon ang mga mata ko sa daan pero nakukuha niya talaga ang atensyon ko dahil sa mga sinasabi niya. It irked me to know that she has time to communicate with that motherfucker.

Kailangan ko na yatang siraan ang gagong ’yon sa kanya para lang matigil lang siya sa pakikipag-usap. Wala pa akong impormasyon tungkol sa totoong pakay ni Jacobi kung bakit naroon sa bakuran ni Ramesh. I should know.

“He seems nice. Why would he lie to me?”

“People lie, Taliyah.”

“I know. But I don’t see reason why he needs to lie to me. Ano naman ang makukuha niya sa pagsisinungaling niya?”

“Your trust. Look at you, you sounded like you’re into him.”

Mariin ang tingin ko sa truck sa unahan. Mabagal ang takbo nito dahil mabigat ang dalang kargada. Kurbada rin ang daan.

“So what if I am into him?”

I have this feeling that she’s just testing me. Trying to see if she would get any reaction from me. Kung gusto niya ang gagong ’yon, bakit ako ang pinili niyang makasama sa araw na ito? Kung puwede namang ang lalaki na ’yon nalang ang ayain niya.

“Magagalit ka ba kung malaman mo na mas gusto ko siya kaysa sa ’yo?”

Tahimik akong humugot ng hangin sa dibdib.

Sino ang hindi magagalit? Kung nagustuhan niya ang tarantadong ’yon kahit hindi niya pa lubusang kilala, I think, I’d find it stupid. You can’t just like someone who you barely knew. Unless, you two are really meant to be.

But this life ain’t fairytales… ain’t fictitious romance novels,m. The reality of this life is cruel, full of pretentious, and endless lies.

“Magagalit ako kapag sinaktan ka niya. Don’t tell him you like him. He might use that advantage against you.”

“I don’t know what you mean. Jacobi was hired to protect me and my mom.”

Tumahimik ako at itinuon nalang ang atensyon sa daan. Gano’n din ang ginawa niya. Hanggang sa makarating kami sa palengke.

I sighed when I saw people ogling at us. Tila ba ngayon lang sila nakakita ng babaeng umiilaw dahil sa kaputian. Maliwanag na ang sikat ng araw kaya kapag tumatama kay Taliyah, mas nakakasilaw siya.

“You should’ve stayed inside the car.” I murmured.

“I said, I want to experience this. Let me have this moment.”

She wrapped her one arm on mine. Kahit ang tatapakan niya ay pinipili niya pa kaya tuloy tumatagal kami. Mas nagkakaroon ng oras ang mga tao na pagmasdan siya!

“Do you want me to carry you?”

“No. I’m okay.”

Ni ayaw niyang tumapak sa basa, maputik, at malansang daan. She’s covering her nose with her other hand. I can sense that she’s stopping herself from throwing up because of the stinky smell and untidy surrounding. Hindi siya sanay sa ganito, pero mapilit siya. Kaya tiisin niya.

“Hi, pogi! Anong sa ’yo?”

“Ito ho, dalawang kilo,” I grabbed the fresh squid. “Isang kilo ho rito,” then pointed she shrimp.

“I don’t eat squid and shrimps,” Taliyah murmured beside me.

I raised my eyebrow. “Why?”

“I have allergies.”

I had no fucking idea about this. Damn, Abaddon should’ve given me this kind of information.

“Hindi nalang ho pala,” sabi ko sa tindera.

“Bakit naman? Fresh ito, sir. Kaninang madaling araw lang dumating.”

“Hindi siya kumakain ng mga ’yan.”

Tumingin ang tindera kay Taliyah. “Ang ganda ng asawa mo, sir. Ang puti! Bagay kayo!”

I growled under my breath.

Lalo niyang niyakap ang braso ko. I felt her breasts pressing against my arm. It affected me. I can only do was sigh in silence.

“I have allergies po sa squid and shrimp. But we can have the tuna and those cute clams.”

“Hindi ka naman ba buntis, Ma’am?”

Taliyah grimaced. “Uh, h-hindi po.”

“Pasensya na at ganito talaga ang amoy dito, Ma’am. Halatang hindi ka sanay.”

“What else do you want?” I glanced at her.

Her eyes were roaming around the seafoods, fishes, and meats in front of us. Sa kagustuhan niyang hindi ipahalata na hindi niya gusto ang amoy, isinisiksik niya ang mukha sa braso ko kaysa takpan ang ilong niya.

“Chicken and barbecue nalang…”

Pagkatapos namin doon, lumabas na kami dahil talagang pinagtitinginan siya ng mga tao. I don’t want to cause any attention. I was the only guard she has right now and even if I have my gun with me, I’d rather stay out of people’s sight to avoid any trouble it may cause.

“Dito ka lang.” Sabi ko sa kanya nang makapasok siya sa sasakyan.

“Bakit? Are you going to buy more?”

“I will buy some vegetables and fruits. Stay here.”

“Okay.”

“Lock the car.”

“Okay, handsome devil.” She grinned at me.

I shook my head. Then left her.

Kahit na abala ako sa pamimili, nasa sasakyan pa rin ang atensyon ko. Hindi ako nag-a-alala na baka may kalaban sa paligid, mas iniisip ko pa na baka may mga taong lumapit sa sasakyan para lang makita siya. Dahil talagang naaagaw niya ang atensyon ng mga naroon.

Bumalik ako sa sasakyan nang mabili na ang lahat ng kakailanganin namin sa araw na ’yon. I don’t mind staying inside the house all day for as long as she’s with me, I’d be fine.

I prepared our lunch when we arrived. I will grill the tuna and make some soup with clams.

“Is there anything I can help?” Taliyah came to the kitchen.

Nilingon ko siya. She’s leaning against the wall while sipping on a glass of wine. She has a bottle wine with her. Plano talaga niyang manatili sa akin buong maghapon.

“Do you know how to cook?”

“No. But I can help you grill the tuna and barbecue.”

I transferred the barbecue grill at the terrace. I already set up our table there. It’s better to stay there to breath more air while watching the greens and trees.

We moved to the terrace after I cooked the clam soup.

Taliyah helps me to grill. She has a pretty pair of legs–creamy and milky. I was tempted to place them around my nape and hear her moans again.

I was sitting on the chair and watch her coughing because of the smoke.

Kahit sa ganitong gawain, halatang hindi siya sanay. I appreciate her trying to do these things with me. Kailangan niya pang lumabas lalo para mas malaman niya kung gaano kalaki ang mundo at kung gaano karami ang puwede niya pang matutunan.

“Come.” I motioned her to come to me.

Though, I am contented just by watching her, I can’t just sit there without being physically close to her. I guided her to sit on my lap where she belongs.

“The smoke made me cough,” para siyang nagsusumbong sa akin. “I think, I need to do more things. So I can be exposed with how big the world is.”

“We will do a lot of things together. You must write down all the things that you want to do.”

I smell her hair. Her scent stayed on her skin. Niyakap ko siya at dinama kung paano niya ako bigyan ng kapayapaan sa aking isipan. I came to realized that she could be my safe haven, an inner sanctuary that gives me a gentle waves of tranquility. Kailangan ko ng ganitong klaseng katahimikan. Siya pala ang makakapagbigay sa akin.

“First, we will go to Siargao to surf. Then, I wanna go hike too. Can we do it?”

“We will do everything on your list.”

She wrapped my arm with hers. She then stared at me.

Marahan ko siyang pinagmamasdan, kinakabisado ang bawat bahagi ng kanyang mukha, na tila ba pinapangunahan ko na ang mga mangyayari sa hinaharap at kailangan kong permanenteng iguhit ang larawan niya sa aking isipan—na kahit nasa gitna ako ng dilim, hindi ko dapat siya makalimutan.

Animo siya ang bubuhay sa akin. Siya ang magsisilbing liwanag sa oras na abutan ng karimlan sa daan. Siya ang ngiti na mapapawi ng mga sugat. Siya ang tunog na tatalo sa mga bulong. Siya ang imahe ng pag asa. Na sa kabila ng mga pagsubok at delubyo, ang kanyang anyo ang magsisilbing salamin sa akin upang hindi piliin ang sumuko.

“For now, I have two on my list. Let’s do it this month. Okay?”

Tumango ako. I was hypnotized. I will do everything that she wants to do.

I stared on her lips–to paint the shape, the color and even the taste inside my head. Then my gaze moved to her hazel eyes–to memorize every corner of them. Even her gold irises, brown ring around her pupils, and dark tint eyelashes, I painted secretly in my mind. So that I won’t forget how she looked like.

Taliyah leaned closer to kiss me.

I closed my eyes to feel how sweet and soft her lips were. I stroked her abdomen as our kisses get wilder and hotter. My tongue was exploring every corner of her mouth. She was breathless and trembling above my lap. Her skin gets warm.

“Mmm,” she gripped on my t-shirt.

My palm travelled up to her chest. I gently massaged her breasts while she’s moaning in between our kisses. I don’t think I will ever get tired of kissing her. Kahit ang tunog ng mga daing niya ay kayang-kaya akong baliwin.

She stopped the kiss so that she can watch my palm on her breasts. She was blushing. Her lips were swollen and delectable.

“Do you like this?” I teased her hard nipple with my thumb.

“Yes.”

Her beautiful eyes dilated with hunger. The fire between us was burning my skin.

“Suck it, please…” she begged and closed her eyes.

I just hope nobody was watching us. I cannot be careless. It was her body that they could see. I don’t think I’d want anyone to see her being exposed while she’s clouded by desire.

“Let’s get you to my bed.”

“Why not here?”

I gave her a faint smile. “Nah, your breasts are for my eyes only.”

Namula lalo ang pisngi niya. “Sa ’yo lang talaga.”

“Sa akin lang.”

I carried her and lay her on my bed. Masyado siyang mainit na inunahan niya pa ako sa paghuhubad ng damit niya.

“I’m feeling hot, Keith…” malambing na sambit niya.

I watched her remove her romper, leaving her with only bra and red laced panty. Her fingers touched the strapped and slowly pulled it down. Ginawa niya rin ang gano’n sa kabila at unti-unti niyang hinubad.

My heartbeat was like in a race and it was frustrating. I think, I was too excited to taste her. But she’s becoming so naughty that she’s seducing me.

I clenched my jaw when her round breasts became free to my eyes. I wanted to leave a red mark all over her creamy skin. She’s very, very seductive.

If we were in a different situation, if she was paid to lure me, I’d probably make her mission easy. I’d be seduced by her and she would be successful. Gladly, it was the other way around.

I started kissing her lips while palming her breasts. She’s wrapping her thin arms around my nape. She automatically wide her legs to accommodate me. I don’t have plan to take her. This is too soon. But if she wanted this badly, I’d be happy to give her what she wants.

Napapikit ako nang maamoy ang bango niya sa leeg. Kung pipigilan niya ako ngayon, magtatagumpay pa siya. I can definitely control myself and my libido. I was just thinking about her. Sana ay gusto niya talaga itong gagawin namin. Ayokong pagsisihan niya ito.

I stopped kissing her neck when I realized that this wasn’t really on my agenda. Tinignan ko siya. Nakaawang ang labi niya, hindi makapaniwala na huminto ako.

“What now?” She arched her eyebrow.

“Do you really want this?” I need to make sure.

“Yes. I’d like this a lot, Keith. Do you like this?”

“Yeah.”

She gave me a seductive smile. “I forgot, this is on my bucket list too.”

I can’t help but laugh shortly. Kahit sa simpleng paraan, kaya niya akong patawanin.

Inilapit ko ang aking mukha sa kanya. I teased her lips with mine.

“Then, we will do this.” I whispered roughly.

“Please, my body was aching. I wanna feel your kisses on my skin.”

I cherished every moment like this with her. I have no guarantee if it would happen again in the next days, months, or even years. Kahit ang sarili ko ay hindi ko mabigyan ng matibay na garantisiya tungkol sa mangyayari sa aming dalawa.

Taliyah’s sexy moans echoed my ears when I started to devour her hard nipples. Every part of her body tastes sweet and I’m becoming addicted.

I was clouded by desire and lust like her. I cannot stop this anymore. But if she ever stop me, I will gladly obey her.

“Ohh, Keith…” my name sounded so special when it came from her lips.

I moved my fingers to her flesh to tease her there, while I was sucking her rosy tit. Her body was writhing because of pleasure I was making her feel.

Nakapikit ang mga mata niya. Panay ang tawag niya sa akin na tila ba dinadasalan niya ako. Like she begs me to be under her spell. I am being possessed by this little temptress.

“I want my tongue here again,” I rubbed her wet pussy with my middle finger. “Would you let me?”

“Please!”

“Hmm?”

“Keith…” she pleads.

“I wanna devour this pussy…” I whispered.

I am becoming extremely thirsty. The lust and desire is taking over me. I am having a fucking boner.

Taliyah has a sexy curves. Her skin is soft, fair, and radiant. I can’t believe she will be mine.

“Lick me, mmm…”

My lips formed a smirk.

I slowly go down on her until my head was positioned in between her creamy thighs. I cursed under my breath when I saw her pussy—throbbing and too rosy. I am very tempted. It was like inviting me to taste her… to devour her… until both of us will be satisfied.

11 ~ KISS

CHAPTER

ELEVEN

I wish all the fightings will end. The tears will dry and the pain will subside. I hope every wounds and bruises will heal eventually. I have been yearning that all the broken pieces and wounded hearts will be fixed.

I want the person who have caused our suffering will realize that he wasted a family that once he promised to protect and love. Sana lahat ng kasamaan at pananakit na ginawa niya sa amin ay bumalik sa kanya ng triple pa. Upang maramdaman niya kung gaano siya naging malupit at walang puso.

My parents are always end up shouting and physically hurting each other. My mother was the one who always suffered compared to my evil father. I don’t understand why he can afford hurting the woman he marries.

Does he really love his wife? Does he really love his daughter?

They didn’t care wether I hear them or the guards. The loud bang of the doors, the breaking of the glasses on the floor, the curses and everything, are very tiring to witness.

If this marriage causing pain to one another, why don’t they just end it? It would be better, right?

My parents cannot blame me for leaving most of the time because that’s my way of escaping from my reality. I cannot stay longer inside a house that didn’t feel like home anymore.

“You cannot just threatened all the men and women that get near me!” My voice raised in front of my father.

He’s overly protective. Nakakasakal. Nakakasawa. Nakakagalit.

That’s the main reason why I don’t even have friends because they are afraid to my evil father. That’s the reason why men didn’t pursue me because they are threatened. I always have security around me wherever I go. Even when I go to a public restroom, they needed to come with me or have it checked first before I can enter.

My father has a lot of enemies and I am very aware of that. Marahil ay natatakot siya na pati ang pamilya niya ay balikan o idamay ng mga kaaway niya. Kaya ganito siya kahigpit sa seguridad namin ni mommy. Minsan iniisip ko na kabaliwan na itong ginagawa niya. Sa sobrang takot niya sa sariling multo, akala niya pati ang mag-ina niya ay takot din.

I don’t care if my life would be in danger anymore. Because I am tired living with my parents who only see each other to have a never ending fight. If hitting each other is their fucking love language, then I am out!

Kahit sandali lang, sana naman ay mabigyan ako ng pagkakataon na makalayo sa ingay, sa problema, at mga tao na nagbibigay ng hapdi sa aking puso.

Gusto kong maranasan ang mamuhay ng normal gaya ng iba. Gusto kong magpunta sa mga lugar na walang mga matang naka-antabay sa akin—na para bang malalagay sila sa impyerno kung mawawala ako sa paningin nila.

I just want to live freely. I have been longing to have my privacy and freedom.

My evil father puffed on his tobacco while sitting calmly on his swivel chair.

He is a Senator—who used to be linked in some illegal businesses. Even if they don’t want me to be nosy about what’s happening to him, I can still get informations through browsing on social media. At kahit pa ilang beses na banggitin ang pangalan niya na kasali nga siya sa mga iligal na gawain sa bansa, hindi pa rin siya napapabagsak. Dahil walang sapat na ebedensya para ma-idiin siya.

He’d say, his enemies are eager to put him down because they wanted the power that he has right now. He’d say, that’s how dirty politics were. For him, everything was about politics and his rivals dirty tactics.

But I have started to doubt his excuses. Especially when I witnessed his friends and associates using illegal drugs inside our own house. He has no respect at all to his wife and daughter who were living there. He didn’t only break his marriage, he breaks the family that he has built.

“I do it for your own safety, Rasha—”

“No! You do it because you’re too scared that every people who gets near me or mom might be sent by your enemies! I have no life at all! You didn’t only take away the peace in this family, you also took away my freedom to live!”

I was panting. My heart was beating so fast that it sting. My tears began to threatened my eyes.

But I didn’t wanna cry in front of him. I need to be brave, so he would stop picturing me as a weak woman who can’t protect herself.

He doesn’t trust people. It was difficult to get his trust. Talagang paghihirapan talaga siguro bago makuha ang loob niya. I don’t care at all. I just want him to stop being overly protective.

“Tell me who’s the guard that annoys you, I will fire him.”

“It’s not all about who annoys me. It’s all about my freedom, dad! I can’t even enter to a public restroom without them checking it! It was very tiring to know that I have eyes following me everywhere I go!”

He finished his tobacco. He nods his head slightly.

“I will ask Mossad to find you a guard who can do all the job by himself.”

“What does it mean?”

“You’re tired being surrounded by your security, right?”

“Very tired.”

“I will give you one guard to protect you. And if he ever failed to do that, I’d kill him by myself.”

I gasped.

He’s really, really becoming evil. He wasn’t the same father I used to love and used to spoiled me. He’s a different person now with diabolic characteristic. Like he has other life that surrounded by flames and horns.

Like hell, the sunlight was burning my skin. I was walking on the shore of white beach when I spot a familiar built.

I have noticed that mysterious man… who wouldn’t? He’s extremely good looking. My gaze kept going back to where he was.

This is my third time seeing him if I remember it correctly. I was not sure if our paths were destined to cross, if this was co-incidence, or intentional meeting. But I’m intrigued.

Like what I usually do, I travel whenever I felt like I was too stressed out because of my parents unending fights. Right now, I’m strolling around the beach and I saw that man again.

What if he was one of my invisible bodyguards? And I just don’t know it? Maybe he was newly recruited?

He made me thrilled. I wanted to make sure if he was one of my guards. I walked towards him. He immediately spot me. As if he anticipated that I will confront him this time.

I stood a meter away from him. He’s having a booze under the broad sunlight.

“Are you following me?” I arched my brow.

When he removed his sunglasses, and I saw his eyes, my knees quivered.

His eyes were amber… they were mysteriously hypnotizing. The way he stares at me felt like he was already claiming my soul… my sanity, and he wouldn’t stop until I succumb to his invisible temptation. His luscious eyebrows were thick enough to give him a brooding and menacing air. His jaw is prominent and matted with a five o’clock shadow stubbles. It suits him so damn good like how his sharply defined fade buzz cut did to his overall demeanor. But he carries a heavy and terrorizing aura that could make everyone tremble.

I swallowed hard.

I didn’t expect I’d see a man like him these days. He’s so fine, he can make me speechless.

“Hmm?” The side of his lips curved up in a mocking way.

I have to stay calm despite the sudden wild beating of my heart. I guess, I was just so thrilled to confront him. Hindi ko lang inaasahan na ganito ang itsura niya sa malapitan. Tila nanghihina ang mga tuhod ko at hindi yata kakayanin kung titigan niya pa ako ng husto.

“I saw you last time at the bar. Then at the cafe. Then here. What’s that? A coincidence? Come on…” I rolled my eyes at him to cover what I really feel right now.

If this is a coincidence, I’ll be fine. But if this was intentional, why would he do that? Unless, he was one of my father’s enemies? At kung ganito ang itsura ng mga lalaking ipapadala ng mga kaaway ng aking ama, medyo matutuwa ako. I am becoming petty, I know. He could put my life at risk, but at least I have a fine looking man kidnapping me.

My heart races so bad when his gaze roamed around my body. I am only wearing a black two piece bikini and I felt so naked in front of him. Kahit na sandali lang ang pagpasada ng mga mata niya sa aking katawan, ang init ay tila dumikit sa aking balat.

“Maybe it’s meant to be?” He then sipped on his booze.

I saw the muscles on his arm protruded because of his movement. He’s sporting a white cotton t-shirt and every time the wind blew, the fabric will hug his upper body, giving me a shadow of how hard and broad his chest was.

I silently sighed, I felt frustrated. Hindi naman siya nang-aakit, pero bakit para akong uhaw at nasasabik?

“Are you my father’s security?” I wish, he was.

I don’t mind him following me around every day. Kung ganito lang sana ang itsura ng mga nagbabantay sa akin baka mababawasan ang iritasyon ko sa kanila.

“No. I don’t even know your father.”

I felt a little bit disappointed because he wasn’t part of my security. He could be one of the enemies or just an ordinary man who I crossed paths with.

He doesn’t know my father. If this was a lie, I don’t care. Wala naman masyadong nakakakilala sa akin bilang anak ng isang senador. My parents have made sure that my life will be very, very private. I like this kind of privacy that I have, but I didn’t like the fact that it felt like my freedom was taken away from me.

Keith is the name of the man that I thought one of my father’s guards. Since he wasn’t part of my invisible bodyguards, I invited him for dinner.

I am alone and vexed because my new guy cancelled our date. It always happened. I got use to it. I am sure they are just scared of my father and my security. They felt threatened. I don’t lose hope though. I hope I can find a man who is man enough to stand for me.

When I made sure that Keith will meet me tonight, I went back to my villa. I will have my afternoon siesta. I am kinda tired because I joined in a group for island hopping this morning. I grabbed my phone to text my mom and let her know about what my date did.

Rasha: Mom, my supposed romantic date tonight was cancelled. But I found a handsome man as a replacement.

I hissed when I forgot to ask for Keith’s number.

Sana hindi siya katulad ng mga lalaking nakilala ko, na matatakot kapag nalaman na maraming mga mata ang nakatingin sa amin. I hope he’d understand that this is the way I live.

Mommy: Have Mossad checked your new date.

Umikot ang aking mga mata. Kahit si mommy ay nawawalan na rin ng tiwala sa mga taong lumalapit sa akin.

Rasha: I’m sure his men already have Keith’s background checked. I just hope that my new date won’t be scared because of my security.

Mommy: Let me know if he made it. If he ever did, that’s a good thing.

I don’t have friends to tell everything that I do in my life. I only have my mother who’s trying her best to stay supportive despite her having a hard time with her relationship with my father.

I had friends before but they all left me when they discovered about my dad’s linked to illegal businesses. They didn’t wanna be involved with me because it was dangerous.

Sinanay ko ang sarili ko na walang kaibigan. Minsan, nakakalungkot. Whenever I saw a group of girls, I envy them because of the friendship that they have. I didn’t have that kind of connections with other people. Malungkot talaga ang buhay ko. Hindi normal.

I texted Mossad to give me Keith’s profile. After a couple of minutes, he has sent me an email. Interesado akong malaman kung sino siya at kung ano ang ginagawa niya sa buhay. Aside from that, I am silently hoping that he wasn’t an enemy.

Keith Tuazon Police Colonel Philippine National Police

Tumaas ang kilay ko. Pulis siya!

Even the name of his parents and sister are indicated there.

Mossad only gave me basic information. I didn’t ask for more. I could ask Keith so we can have an interesting conversation.

I wear my ivory summer dress. Hinayaan ko lang nakalugay ang alon-alon kong buhok. I swiped a lipgloss and sprayed a perfume. I don’t need to put make-up to my face. I let it bare while my cheeks are rosy because I was under the sunlight mostly here in Puerto Galera.

Keith handed me a bouquet of flowers. I found it admiring. Because he’s generous enough to think about this.

“I know who you are…” I smiled, feeling proud of myself because I have my way on how to get to know him.

“Really?”

The waiter already got our orders. Now, we are both sitting on the chair, facing each other. Giving me a complete view of him.

Under the dimmed romantic lights, gentle crashing of the waves on the shore, and a salty breeze, I watch him like a mysterious hot man in a romantic movie. He’s dashing on his brown linen button down shirt. The enigmatic and domineering aura that he carries stayed.

“I’m sorry they have to do that. Profiling those men that I am with. Isn’t it creepy?”

He shrugs his shoulders. Like he didn’t find it creepy or weird.

“I think, it’s normal if you’re a senator’s daughter. Your father wants your safety.”

I grimaced. “It’s tiring, you know. I can’t have my own privacy. They are all around me twenty-four seven.”

I can’t help but to rant. I hope this won’t make him turn off.

Kung hindi ako magkakaroon ng boyfriend, sana naman kahit kaibigan lang ay makahanap ako. Isang klaseng kaibigan na hindi matatakot na maging bahagi ako ng buhay niya sa kabila ng pagkakaroon ko ng koneksyon sa isang senador na involved sa mga iligal na gawain sa bansa.

“That’s why you don’t have a boyfriend?” He taunted.

Umirap ako.

Naiintindihan niya agad ang dahilan kung bakit wala akong boyfriend. Sino ba kasi ang lalaki na mananatili sa isang katulad ko kung puwede naman silang humanap ng hindi kumplikado ang sitwasyon?

His short laugh echoed my ears.

“Wala ka talagang boyfriend?

“Wala…”

I told him about my supposed date tonight. That he’s probably scared of my father that’s why he chose not to meet me again.

“I don’t even know where are your bodyguards. Are they invisible?” His tone was a bit curious.

“Yes. They are just around. Hindi ako puwedeng umalis na wala sila.”

He growled. Kahit siya, tila hindi sang-ayon sa kalagayan ko.

“What if I ask you to come in my room? Are they going with us?” He let out a raspy chuckle.

Marahan akong natawa. Umabot na rito ang pinag-uusapan namin. I am enjoying this conversation I have with him.

“I hope not.”

“If I kiss you right now, would they punch me?”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Hindi ko inaasahan na ganito siya mag-isip! I didn’t even think about this stuff.

The truth is… I haven’t been kissed. It made me blushed. I had to bite my lips. Parang gusto ko nalang tuloy na kainin ako ng buhangin makaligtas lang sa pagkapahiya.

“Don’t tell me you haven’t been kissed?”

I shook my head slightly. There was no reason to lie.

“Let’s kiss,” his voice was raspy, like he was luring me to come to him so I can finally have my first kiss.

“Tingin mo okay lang na maghalikan tayo dito?” I asked while my face was heating up.

“Bakit hindi?”

“Pipigilan kaya nila tayo?”

I looked around. I know my guards are just near us.

“Why don’t we try?” Hamon niya.

It made me thrilled and excited. Hindi ko pa nagagawa ang makipaghalikan sa isang lalaki habang alam kong may mga mata na maaaring manood sa amin. Kailangan kong gawin ang mga ganitong bagay para naman magkaroon ako ng marami pang karanasan.

Keith doesn’t seem to feel bother about what he was asking us to do. He doesn’t really give a damn to my bodyguards around. I don’t see any fear on him. Wala siyang takot. He’s confident and he seemed to know what he’s doing. Na tila ba handa siyang harapin kung anoman ang kahihinatnan ng gagawin namin.

I should do the same, right? Who cares if I kiss him? This is my life. Hindi nila dapat ako pakialam sa mga ginagawa ko. Ang trabaho lang nila ay bantayan ako.

“Come,” he motioned me to come to him.

I bite my bottom lip. I was hypnotized. I stood up and closed our little distance.

When he hold my hand, I immediately felt the electrifying sensation that seeped through my veins. When he guides me to his lap, my heart gone wild.

“This is… thrilling.” I giggled.

“I want you to think that your bodyguards don’t exist.” He whispered hoarsely.

I smell his scent… it stayed in my nose, like a fragrance that will become my favorite.

Tumango ako bilang pagsunod sa gusto niyang isipin ko. I wanted to do that too. So that when we kissed, my mind will only focus with his lips… with him.. and with how I will feel.

“What if they punch you when you kissed me?” I am a bit worried.

“It’s fine. At least, I kissed you.”

My lips formed a smile.

He made me feel like he doesn’t care wether he gets hurt for as long as he could kiss my lips, he’d be fine.

“You’re brave. I never dated a brave man like you.”

The side of his lips curved up arrogantly.

My heartbeat became wilder when he cupped my chin and angled his head. I closed my eyes the moment our lips met. Para akong nawawala nang paunti-unti sa reyalidad, tinatangay ng masarap na sensasyon palayo sa kasalukuyan, at sa totoo lang—gusto ko na rin magpatangay kung saan niya man ako planong dalhin.

Lumakas pa lalo ang kalabog sa aking dibdib. Nauubusan na ng hangin dahil sa kakaibang ligaya na aking nararamdaman habang marahan na gumagalaw ang labi niya para angkinin ang akin. His lips were soft and deletable, I wish he would always kiss me.

“Mmm,” I whimpered very softly, I can’t handle the electrifying sensation.

I gripped on his shirt when he paused our passionate kiss.

“I want more kiss,” I said like a drunk lady who asked for another drink.

Keith licked his lower lip.

“Sure. But don’t moan.”

“Why?” I caressed his chest the way he caresses my waist.

“Your moan is too sexy. You’re giving me a boner.” Nahihirapan ang namamaos niyang boses.

Uminit ang buong mukha ko paikot sa aking batok. I didn’t expect that my moan can affect him like this. But it will be hard for me to stop from moaning. If he likes, we can continue this in his villa or mine.

“Do you think my bodyguards will follow us in your villa?” I asked suggestively.

I think, I am aroused. I didn’t want our kiss to stop. I was yearning to feel this kind of intimacy and pleasure. I didn’t want to waste this moment.

“Why? Do you wanna be in my villa?” He raised his brow, then stroked my waist again which made something in me throbbed.

“I wanna continue kissing you.” I whispered seductively, while thinking that I can use him to teach me how to kiss better. That would be great.

12 ~ SANCTUARY

CHAPTER

TWELVE

I feel delighted when I discover that Keith just moved in to another town in Bulacan—where we are currently staying. Our house in Tagaytay is still under construction but it’s soon to be finished. Ang sabi ni mommy, sa oras na matapos ’yon, doon na kami titira. I just hope that my father won’t meddle with her decision.

Keith resigned from his job in the PNP. Right now, he only has an on call job which I didn’t know what’s all about. We have a constant communication. He was the one who asked for my number and I immediately gave it to him. Kaya kahit nasa bahay na ako, hindi ako masyadong nag-iisip kung saan ako sunod na magpupunta dahil nalilibang akong kausap siya.

But since he’s just near me, I think, it’s better if we meet. Gusto ko siyang kasama dahil pakiramdam ko may kalayaan akong mag kwento sa kanya tungkol sa buhay ko at sa nangyayari sa aking magulang. He won’t judge me. He would just listen to all my rants and issues.

“Ayaw mo na maging pulis?” I asked him.

“Hindi na ’yon ang gusto kong trabaho.” Even his voice on the other line made me tittered.

I rolled onto my bed–trying to stop myself from being too excited to see him again.

I remember my first ever kiss. Hindi ko siguro ’yon makakalimutan. Iyon din kasi ang unang beses na kinalimutan ko na may mga matang nakamasid sa akin. I chose to focus with our kisses than think about the devils around us.

Nagpunta rin ako sa villa niya pagkatapos naming kumain. At dahil alam kong hindi na ako makikita ng mga nagbabantay sa akin, mas naging malaya akong gawin ang pakikipaghalikan sa kanya habang nasa kandungan niya ako.

It was very intimate and sweet moments for me. I don’t think I’d find another man like him who can kiss that way. He’s a very good kisser. He made my knees trembled. He made my heart raced like in a marathon. Kaya tuloy ngayon, kahit malayo siya sa akin at boses niya lang ang naririnig ko, impit pa rin akong napapatili at talagang sumusugat ang ngiti sa aking labi.

“Wala ka ng trabaho?” I felt sad for him.

Paano kung sabihin ko sa kanya na mag apply nalang bilang isa sa mga bodyguards ko? Susundin niya kaya?

Sigurado ako na mabilis siyang matatanggap lalo at pulis siya. May karanasan na humawak ng baril at tiyak magaling din siya makipaglaban ng walang hawak na kahit na anong armas.

Kapag inaalala ko ang katawan niya, ang mga muscle sa braso, at ang mga galit na ugat na namumutok sa kanyang balat, hindi ko mapigilan ang huwag pag initan ng pisngi. I could still feel how hard are the muscles on his arms–like the feeling stayed on my palms, I gripped on his bicep while we were kissing torridly.

“I have an on call job. Puwede rin akong magsaka o mangisda muna…” he chuckled.

I am amazed to know that. I can already imagine him catching fish, while holding a fishing rod, then the muscles on his arms will flex. Siguradong kahit na maglikot ng husto ang isda, hinding-hindi matitinag ang matigas at malaking braso niya.

“Do you know how to catch fish?” It made me excited. “Gusto ko rin matutunan! Can we do it there? Are you near the river or a fish ponds?”

“Near the river.”

“Do you think we can get fishes there?”

“Yeah. That’s what locals do here for a living, and also farming.”

Habang nag-uusap kami, pagulung-gulong ako sa kama ko. Wala pa mang kasiguraduhan na makikita ko ulit siya, pero talagang bumabalot sa akin ang nakakanginig na galak.

He knows that wherever I go, I have my guards with me and he wasn’t really bothered about it.

Sana talaga hindi siya matakot sa tatay ko, sa mga parating na banta, at sa mga nagbabantay sa akin. Nakakasawa rin kasing makisalamuha sa panibagong tao, tapos kapag nalaman na anak ako ni Ramesh Montecarlo, nawawala nalang sila bigla na parang hangin lang na dumaan sa akin.

“Then bring your bodyguards with you.”

“Aren’t you bothered with the devils around me?”

I called my bodyguards as devils because they are also the reason why I didn’t have my freedom to live.

“You are like their angel and they don’t want you to be taken away by another devil.” He muttered playfully.

“You’re a handsome devil!” I exclaimed merrily.

Nakatulog ako ng gabing ’yon na may ngiti sa aking labi. The next morning, I am very excited. Pupuntahan ko si Keith kung saan man siya nakatira. We are going to fish!

“Good morning, mom!” Maganda ang umaga ko at ayokong masira ’yon.

My mother is still wearing her champagne silk robe. She’s sitting at the chair in front of the swimming pool while having her tea.

“Morning, sweetheart. Where are you going?”

Tinignan niya ako mulo ulo hanggang paa. Nanliliit ang mga mata niya nang ibalik ang mga mata sa aking mukha.

I am wearing a pastel yellow A-line dress and I let my wavy hair down. I put a powder on my face, I curled my eyelashes, and swiped a shade of berry satin lipstick.

“You look glowing. What’s with that smile?”

“I will meet Keith today. We are going to fish.”

She raised her eyebrow. “So, he continues to communicate with you? Did he know about your security and your evil father?”

I nodded my head. “Yes, mom. He doesn’t care about the devils.”

“Well, don’t trust that man too much, Rasha. We don’t know him yet.”

“Don’t worry, mom. I think, it’s good for us if we became friends.”

“That’s what you need right now, dear. I am sorry that you have to live like this, without friends and even boyfriend.”

I didn’t wanna blame her for living like this too. Alam ko naman na ang plano niya para sa kanila ni daddy. I will support her no matter what. She’s the only person that I trust and love the most in this world. Without her, I don’t know what would happen to me. Palagi niya akong sinusuportahan at gano’n din ang gagawin ko sa kanya.

“This will end, mom. The pain, the suffering, the fear, will end.”

I kissed my mom goodbye.

I hopped inside our Mercedes Benz and told the driver the address where Keith’s live. Kahit siguro hindi ko sabihin sa kanila kung saan siya nakatira, tiyak na napag-aralan na nila. It took us less than an hour before they dropped me to the street. They even told me where his house is located.

At the end of the green field, there’s a modern Nipa Hut. It looked so simple, very local vibe, and it’s peaceful even from afar.

Nakita ko siya na nkatayo sa labas ng munting bahay niya. He’s on his cotton white t-shirt and faded pants. Katulad kung saan siya nakatira, simple lang din siya. Hindi magarbo ang buhay niya ngunit sa palagay ko ay malaya at may kapayapaan.

Mas pipiliin ko ang ganitong klaseng pamumuhay. Kaysa sa mayroon ako ngayon. I would rather live in a small simple house, surrounded by greens and trees, with freedom and peace around me.

Keith was watching me like a hawk while crossing his arms on his chest.

Sa gitna ng bukid, may makipot na daan papunta sa bahay niya. Kahit medyo maputik, hindi na ako nag reklamo. Dahil ang bawat hakbang ko palapit sa kanya ay tila hakbang patungo sa aking kalayaan.

“I made it!” I said in delight.

“Where are the devils?” There was a smirk on his lips.

Natawa ako sa tawag niya sa mga nagbabantay sa akin. Iyon na rin tuloy ang tawag naming dalawa sa mga ’yon.

“There are just around but not here. They already checked the perimeters. They found no threats. So, we can leave.”

“Do you wanna go inside?”

I nodded my head because I really do want to go inside his simple house. I wanna experience what it feels like to be there.

Nangiti ako.

Payak ang pamumuhay na pinili niya. Malayong-malayo sa aking nakasanayan. Pero kahit na maliit lang ang tinitirahan niya, ramdam ko agad kung gaano ka-payapa ang manatili rito.

I sat on the bamboo chair. There are throw pillows in Earth colors. I found it cute for him. Parang mas bagay sa akin ang mga pillow, kaysa sa kanya.

“Water, beer, coffee, tea? What do you want?” He asked.

His built is massive and he’s very tall. Kailangan ko pang tumingala sa kanya para lang makita siya ng malinaw. At kung hahalikan ko ulit siya, kailangan ko rin tumingkayad para maabot ang kanyang labi.

“Beer…”

He chuckled. “Taliyah, it’s still early to get drunk.”

This time, I won’t this slide. The way he calls my name sounds very special to me. He’s the only one calling me with my second name.

“Let’s bring some beer when we go fishing.”

“We will but you’re not gonna drink now.”

I rolled my eyes.

Gusto kong mag inom dahil masaya ako na kasama siya. May mga bagong ala-ala na uulit-ulitin ko sa aking isipan kung sakaling bigla nalang siyang maglaho katulad ng mga lalaking nakilala ko bago siya.

“Okay, kuya!” I leered at him.

I was just messing with him. But when I saw him closing our distance, I startled slightly. I think, I am more excited than nervous.

“What did you say?” His voice was calm.

“Kuya?”

His face darkened a bit. As if he didn’t like the way I addressed him.

“I don’t need another sister, Taliyah. Don’t call me that.” He sounded strict and firm.

Hindi na ako nakipagtalo sa kanya tungkol sa beer. I can drink at home if I want to. But I am glad he’s going to bring some. I want to have fun with him while we are fishing.

“Where’s your restroom? I’m gonna wear my swimsuit.” I asked after a while.

Madilim agad ang tingin niya sa akin na para bang ipinagbabawal ang gagawin ko.

“What? We are going to fish. You don’t need your swimsuit.”

“Can’t I swim sa river, huh?”

He massaged his temple. I can tell he’s stressed already.

“You can swim without wearing your bikini.”

I grimaced. “What? I’m gonna get naked? No way, Keith!”

His laughter suddenly echoed. Kanina lang mukha siyang problemado. Pero ngayon, aliw na aliw siya.

I pursed my lips. I was over acting. I didn’t understand what he meant.

“Baby, no, just wear my t-shirt and shorts. Not your bikini,” his voice was gentle.

Just a moment ago, I was determined to wear my bikini, but when his voice became gentle, I quickly changed my mind. I’d be fine wearing his clothes. That will be comfortable.

Keith handed me an army green t-shirt and black training shorts. May aliw pa rin sa mga mata niya.

“Don’t worry. You’re still very pretty without wearing your bikini.” He was teasing me.

I grabbed the clothes from him and went to the restroom. His clothes smells good like him. But since his body is massive, his t-shirt was too loose on my body. While the shorts, I had to tightly knot the string so it won’t fall on my small waist.

Nang makalabas ako, pinasadahan niya agad ako ng tingin.

I silently took a deep breath.

Hindi pa ako sanay sa ganitong titig niya sa akin. Pakiramdam ko, matutunaw nalang ako bigla kung tatagalan niyang gawin ito sa akin at sa katawan ko.

“Ayos lang ba?”

“Oo. Maganda ka pa rin.”

Sumilay ang ngiti sa akin. Gusto ko tuloy siyang lapitan at yakapin. Ngunit pinigilan ko ang aking sarili.

“Should I call the devils to pick us up?”

“No. We will ride on my motorcycle.”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Hindi ko pa nasusubukan sumakay sa motorsiklo. Pero ngayon, gusto ko ng maranasan din ’yon!

“Talaga?” Naglakad ako palapit sa kanya.

He stopped putting some beer inside an echo bag and waited for me until I am meter away from him. He’s really tall. I am already around five feet and seven inches, but my eyes only leveled his chest. He probably around 6’4 or more.

“Hindi ko pa nasusubukan sumakay do’n. But I wanna try.”

He nods his head slightly. “You will experience it today.”

Ngumiti ako. Hindi na napigilan pa ang sobrang galak na nararamdaman sa aking dibdib.

After Keith prepared the things that we need, we went to his motorcycle outside. He was the one who put the helmet on my head.

“So, I’m just gonna hug you from behind?” I am curious like a kitten under the hat.

“Yeah…”

Uminit ang pisngi ko.

I can already imagine myself embracing him while we are on the way. Sana malayo ang ilog para matagal ko siyang mayakap. Malaki ang katawan niya at halatang masarap siyang yakapin.

When he’s already sitting on his motorcycle, he held my one hand to guide me to sit behind him. I put all my weight on him and successfully settled myself on the space on his back.

“Are you ready?” Nilingon niya ako.

He’s also wearing a helmet. But we can still hear each other. We can still talk.

I wrapped my arms around his waist. That’s when I have proven how massive his body was. He made me feel small.

“I’m ready.” I croaked.

I bite my lower lip when I felt his hand on mine. Sinigurado niya na nakayakap ako sa kanya ng mahigpit.

“Hindi ako bibitaw. ’Wag kang mag-alala.” I assured him.

“I just wanna make sure you won’t fall. The devils would kill me.”

I giggled and embraced him more. “I won’t let that happen! Come on. Let’s go na. Give me a good ride.”

Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata at dinama ang katawan niyang yakap ko. Pinling makita ang dilim para lang damhin ang kalayaan na kasama siya. If being in the dark would give me freedom, I’d gladly take the opportunity to see the darkness for as long as I have him with me.

“Are you okay?” I heard his voice while my eyes were close and leaning my head on his back.

“Yes…”

“Aren’t you scared?”

“I don’t see reason to feel scared.”

Niyakap ko pa siya lalo.

While embracing him, I realized that he could be my peaceful haven. In the midst of difficulties, I am glad to find somebody that I can run into and make me feel like I have a sanctuary–a place where I can have my freedom and serenity.

“Ang sarap mong yakapin…” marahan na sambit ko.

Narinig ko ang tawa niya. Kahit na maiksi lang ’yon, napangiti pa rin ako.

“Bakit mo nasabi ’yan?”

I moved my palm to feel his hard abdomen. I am sure he has a packs of muscles there.

“Your body is massive enough to make me feel the comfort.”

I slid my palm under his t-shirt to feel his muscles more.

“Taliyah, I’m driving,” he warned me with roughness on his tone.

“Do you have abs?”

“Uh-huh…”

My face heated. I kinda knew that he has. Halata naman sa tindig ng kanyang katawan. He makes time for himself.

“Can I see?” I stroked his abdomen to feel the hardness.

“I’ll show it to you later. Stop teasing me.”

I didn’t remove my palm. “I’m not teasing you. I just wanna feel your abs.”

“Baby, just stop the caresses, okay?” His voice was raspy.

I think, my touch affects him. It made me smirk inwardly.

“Why? Na-a-apektuhan ka ba sa haplos ko?” I innocently asked.

Kung apektado siya, palagi ko na talaga siyang hahawakan at hahaplusin. Dahil sa totoo lang, sobra rin akong apektado kapag nagdidikit ang mga balat namin.

“Your palm is too soft… too warm…”

“That made you affected?”

“Of course.”

I giggled. That made me very happy. I can affect him too!

“Your touch and caresses affected me. So I think, it’s just fair.”

I take the chance to embrace him this way. I feel contented. It is very comforting to feel his body on mine.

While I am enjoying my freedom and peace, I am also thinking on what we are going to do next. I’d like to do things with him. I hope, he would feel the same. I’d be sad if he suddenly left without saying goodbye to me. I just wish that he won’t do that to me.

13 ~ TASTE

CHAPTER

THIRTEEN

When the road gets rough and muddy, I get nervous. I hugged Kieth tighter to make sure I won’t fall. This is a new experience for me and I am honestly looking forward to do more field activities with him.

I am glad because he wasn’t not the type who complains with things. He’s obviously very used to more extreme activities. This is just basic for him, I can see.

Nang makarating kami sa aming destinasyon, napawi ang pagkabahala ko nang masilayan ang mahabang daloy ng ilog. Madilim na berde ang kulay ng tubig, marahan ang agos, may mga iilang malalaking bato sa gitna at gilid na bahagi, at sa kabilang dako naman ay tila gubat na pinamumugaran ng mga puno.

Pati ang ihip ng hangin ay kasing rahan kung paano dumaloy ang tubig. I am tempted to feel the water on my feet. I waited for Keith until he’s done talking to the local. He has rented a fishing rods and the cottage made from nipa.

Kinuha ko ang pagkakataon na maglakad sa tubig. I left him in our cottage while he assembles the fishing rod.

Sa ilalim ng malinaw na tubig ay nakita ko ang mga iba’t ibang hugis ng mga bato. Tumapak ako sa mga ’yon at dinama ang yakap ng hangin sa akin. Kagaya kung paano damhin ng aking balat ang magaan na sikat ng araw.

Sumilay ang ngiti sa aking labi nang maramdaman ko ang kalayaan sa ganito ka-simpleng paraan. Pinatunayan nito sa akin na hindi kailangan ng magarbong buhay para magkaroon ng payapa at malayang pamumuhay. Minsan ang payak na kapaligiran na malayo sa mga materyal na yaman ay sapat na upang bigyan ng laya ang ating isipan na makawala sa ingay ng mundo at mga tao.

Gusto ko itong nararamdaman ko. Gusto kong maulit ang ganito. Hindi ako magsasawa na damhin ang ganitong klaseng kalayaan kahit pansamantala lang. Umaasa ako na mauulit ang pagpunta namin dito sa ilog.

I walked towards the big rock. Mula roon, makikita ko lalo ang kahabaan ng ilog.

“Taliyah, don’t go further. There are some leeches there…” I heard Keith’s voice from our cottage.

I quivered when I heard about leeches! I hate them!

Nanlamig ang aking mukha nang matanto na baka naaapakan ko ang mga linta na nagtatago sa batuhan!

“Come back here…”

Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko nang maglakad ako pabalik sa kanya. Malakas din ang tibok ng aking puso dahil kinakabahan ako na baka may dumikit sa aking paa at hindi ko lang naramdaman!

I am standing in front of him, panicking about the leeches. “Can you double check? Please?”

Gusto kong masigurado na walang linta sa aking balat!

I sat next to him, never minding the way he made me feel when we are this close.

Keith carefully grabbed my feet then placed them above his lap.

I bite the inside of my cheek when the familiar electrifying sensation seeped through my veins because of his touch. Kung ganito katindi ang nararamdaman ko sa tuwing hinahawakan niya ako, ganito rin kaya siya kapag sa akin?

“There is one here,” he muttered as he stroked my heel.

I panicked more. My heart was racing. “No! Remove it! Please!”

Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata dahil ayokong makita ang linta na aalisin niya sa aking talampakan. Hindi siya takot at hindi rin nandidiri. Samantalang ako, kabadong-kabado na.

Narinig ko siyang humalakhak habang minamasahe niya ang aking paa.

“I’m just kidding. You’re funny.”

“Are you sure?!”

“Yeah…”

Tinignan ko siya at sumimangot. He’s playing with me!

“Don’t joke like that. I hate leeches!” I grimaced.

“What else you don’t like?”

I thought about the animals or insects that I hate the most. There are few though.

“Worms, snakes, and cockroaches.”

“I will give you each one next time.” There was a mischievous glimpse on his amber eyes.

“No way! I’m not gonna see you next time then!”

He suddenly tickled my feet on his lap which made me giggled.

“Stop it!”

Hindi maampat ang pagbungisngis ko.

Napapanguso ako sa kanya dahil sobrang komportable niya agad sa akin. Habang ako, sinasanay ko palang ang sarili ko na kasama siya.

Noong inaya niya na akong mangisda, nagmatigas talaga ako na hindi na tatapak sa tubig sa pagkabahala sa mga linta sa ilalim ng mga bato.

Keith has always made things easier for me. He carried me towards the big rock so that I can be safe from the leeches.

“Are you ready to meet some leeches?” He slightly pinched my chin.

Hinawi ko ang kamay niya. Nakasimangot pa rin dahil alam kong pinaglalaruan niya lang ako. But at least, he’s still gentleman enough to carry me towards the rock.

Habang nakaupo ako sa ibabaw ng malaking bato, nasa pagitan naman siya ng aking mga hita. He’s standing on the stones, the level of the water is until his waist. I placed my hands on his broad shoulders. I have a complete view of his nape. Nakagat ko ang aking labi dahil kahit ang batok niya ay nagbibigay ng munting nginig sa aking tiyan.

I am grateful because he takes me to the river. Even just for a couple of hours, I am able to feel the I am free. Though I know, some of my security are just around us. Some of them are occupying the cottage near us though. Ang iba, hindi ko alam kung nasaan nakapuwesto.

Sa kanya, pakiramdam ko may kalayaan akong mag kwento tungkol sa nangyayari sa buhay ko. Hindi ko pinigilan ang aking sarili na sabihin sa kanya ang mga bumabagabag sa akin kapag nasa bahay ako.

“That’s why I have a lot of bodyguards. He’s afraid my mom and I will leave him. But you know, I’ll be happy if she leaves him. My dad has changed. I don’t know what gotten into him. But his behavior is becoming suspicious.”

Katulad ng natanto ko, hindi na siya ang ama na nakilala ko. Tila ba may iba siyang pagkatao na matagal niyang itinago sa amin. Tapos ngayon, unti-unti nang nalalantad.

“How did you say that?”

Keith is a very good listener. He made me feel that I can say whatever I want to say and he won’t judge me. Nakakatulong sa akin ang ganitong klaseng kalayaan na mailabas ang aking mga hinaing kahit pa sa taong bago ko lang nakilala. It eases the burden inside my chest.

I felt his hand hold mine above his shoulder.

“We have a room in our house, I accidentally opened it, I caught him and his other friends sniffing drugs. I was terrified, I thought he’s going to hurt me. But he didn’t. He threatened me though.”

He doesn’t really have reactions. He’s just letting me say things to him. Kahit na alam kong hindi ko dapat sinasabi ang mga ito sa ibang tao, pinili ko pa rin na ibahagi sa kanya. Umaasa ako na hindi ito malalaman ng aking ama. Ayokong malagay sa kapahamakan si Keith.

“I shouldn’t tell anyone that I caught them using illegal drugs. Otherwise, he’s gonna kill me and my mom. I hope you keep this as a secret. I wanted to stay alive.”

He nodded his head slightly. “Your secrets are safe with me.”

My lips formed a smile. I hope, I can trust him and he won’t break it.

Ang pagkikita namin ni Keith ay nasundan pa. May laya akong makasama siya at makausap. I don’t care about the devils around us anymore. What mattered to me is the freedom I have when I am with him.

Bumisita ulit ako sa kanya at nagpunta ulit sa ilog. The leeches still terrified me but it didn’t ruin our moments together. When we went back to his humbled house, I found myself sitting above his lap while kissing him.

Pakiramdam ko, nagugustuhan ko na ng husto ang makasama siya at ang mahalikan siya. Alam kong hindi ito tama dahil wala naman kaming relasyon, ngunit hindi ko mapigilan ang matinding atraksyon na nararamdaman ko sa kanya.

Aside from I feel free when I am with him, I am also yearning to be kissed and touched by him. Hindi ko mawari kung matagal na ba talaga akong nasasabik na makasama ang isang lalaki kaya ako nagkakaganito sa kanya, o baka sadyang malakas lang ang dating niya at hatak na hatak niya ako dahil doon.

I whimpered when he sucked my tongue. I didn’t know how to kiss yet but I am learning because of him. He’s teaching me and I am really into it.

He has an admirable control. Kahit na madalas na ako ang humihingi ng halik sa kanya, ako ang nauuna, alam niya pa rin kung paano ako hawakan at ang sitwasyon naming dalawa. Dahil kung ako lang, magpapatunaw lang ako sa apoy sa pagitan namin at mawawalan na ng pakialam sa mga susunod na mangyayari.

Namumungay ang nakakaakit niyang mga mata nang mahinto ang mainit na halikan.

“Do you picture me as your boyfriend?” He taunted.

My cheeks heated up.

Ang sabi niya, gusto niya akong bisitahin sa amin. Pero ayokong bumisita siya kapag naroon ang aking ama. Dahil kahit hindi ko siya boyfriend, iisipin pa rin ni daddy na may relasyon kami. I am just trying to save him from the danger that my father could cause him.

“No…” I croaked.

Naghahalikan kami at palaging nag-uusap, ngunit hindi ko naman iniisip na maging boyfriend siya. Tila ba kuntento na ako sa kung anong mayroon kami. I am worried that our relationship won’t last long. I’d rather have him as my friend with a little bit of benefits. Because this way, I know, we are safe from my father’s judgement.

“Too sad. I think of you as my girlfriend.”

It supposed to make me smile, but I only felt a sting in my heart.

“W-well, uh, even if you think about it, it doesn’t mean I’m going to be your girlfriend.”

He stares at me. Talagang namamangha ako sa kulay ng kanyang mga mata. Para bang hinahalina niya ako palagi na sumama sa kanya.

“From now on, I’m not gonna kiss you. I should only kiss my girlfriend’s lips.” He muttered firmly.

I pursed my lips.

Bakit niya ako pinaparusahan ng ganito? Ang mga halik niya na nga lang ang nagpapasaya sa akin, ipagkakait niya pa!

“But what if I’d like to kiss? Hindi mo talaga ako pagbibigyan kahit hindi mo ako girlfriend?”

He shook his head. He’s really firm about this.

Was he that too honorable to make things right between us?

Ayos lang naman sa akin na maghalikan kami kahit wala kaming relasyon. Pero para sa kanya, hindi ’yon tama.

“Hindi kita hahalikan kahit pilitin mo pa ako…”

Nawawalan na ako ng pag asa. Kakayanin ko ba na makita siya at huwag siyang halikan? Hindi niya ba nararamdaman na gusto kong makipaghalikan sa kanya? Why does he need to be this heartless?

“Are you punishing me? I know, I’m not a good kisser. But I wanna learn. Tapos, ayaw mo pala.”

“Hindi na kita tuturuan kung paano humalik.”

Naglikot ako sa kandungan niya. Daig ko pa ang binagsakan ng langit at lupa sa pagiging matatag niya sa desisyon niyang ito. Kahit siguro magmakaawa ako sa kanya, hindi niya talaga ako hahalikan dahil hindi niya ako girlfriend.

I felt his lips teasing the skin on my neck. Nawawalan ako ng lakas. Idagdag pa ang paghaplos niya sa aking hita, natutunaw talaga ko.

“But Keith… mmm…” I can’t help but let out a small sounds of satisfaction.

“I’ll give you time to think about us, Taliyah…” he whispered with raspiness on his tone.

When his fingers have started to tease my inner thighs, my skin gets warmer and my arousal burns up. I don’t think I would ever stop him romancing my body. Halata na alam na alam niya kung paano akitin at pasabikin ang isang babae. Kagaya ng ginagawa niya sa akin ngayon, wala pa man ay para na akong tinatangay palayo sa reyalidad.

“Please…” I begged.

His fingers kept on teasing the thin fabric of my laced panty. I am aware how wet I am. I should be embarrassed, but I don’t. Instead, I get to like what I’m feeling.

“Hmm?”

His minty breath tickled my neck.

Hindi na ako makatingin sa kanya dahil abala na ako sa sansasyon na ipinaparanas niya sa akin. Animo handang-handa na akong sumuong sa apoy na kasama siya. Wala na akong pakialam kung gaano pa nakakapaso itong pinapasok ko. Ang sa akin lang, sana ay huwag siyang huminto.

I gasped when I felt his long fingers on my flesh. He slowly rubs me there, which made my knees shivered. I buried my face on his neck. The way he rubs me feels like he’s taking away my energy. Nakakapanghina.

My soft moans echoed when his fingers continued to rub and play with my femininity. This is the very first time that I let a man do this to me. Sa kanya ko lang talaga kayang gawin ang ganito. Sa sobrang kasabikan na nararamdaman ko, baka pati ang lahat sa akin ay ibigay ko sa kanya ng walang pag-a-alinlangan.

Nakakabahala ang ganitong klaseng atraskyon. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ang hangganan ng lahat ng ito. Sa ngayon, hindi ko na muna iisipin ’yon. I just want to savor this sweet and erotic moments with him.

“I wanna taste you,” his voice was rough.

Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata.

Hindi lang ang mukha ko ang mainit, pati na rin ang buong katawan ko. Wala akong karanasan sa ganitong mga bagay ngunit naiintindihan ko ang sinabi niya.

Nailarawan ko agad sa aking isip kung paano namin gagawin itong napakapusok na bahagi pagktapos naming maghalikan. Umiikot ang aking kalamnan sa matinding pagkasabik na maranasan ang gano’n na klaseng kaluguran.

“W-what? Are you gonna lick me?” I am amazed.

“If you allow me.”

I bite my bottom lip. I don’t think, I have the heart to refuse this!

Nakakabigo itong nararamdaman ko sa kanyang pagka-uhaw. Kung kanina ang mga halik lang niya ang pinag-uusapan namin, ngayon ay mas mapusok at mas lumalagablab pa ang gusto niyang gawin sa akin. I wanted to experience that kind of fire with him.

“Here?”

He nodded his head while staring at me with a glimpse of desire on his amber eyes.

I felt something in me throbbed. Alam kong gusto ko rin ito at wala akong plano na tumigil. Sana ay hindi ko ito pagsisihan. Sana pagkatapos nito, huwag siyang mawala bigla na parang bula.

He angled his head to claim my lips again.

Ang sabi niya, hindi niya ako hahalikan. Pero ano itong ginagawa niya, huh? Hindi niya rin pala ako matiis!

Sumugat ang matagumpay na ngiti ko habang sinasabayan ko ang mararahan na hagod ng labi niya sa akin. His fingers continued to play with my sensitive nub. I can’t help but moan between our kisses.

When he lays me on the long bamboo chair, I bite the inside of my cheek. I was blushing so hard. Malakas din ang pintig ng aking puso. I am too excited and a little bit nervous as well.

“Keith…” I called his name using my seductive voice I didn’t know I have.

His lips from mine traveled down to my neck. His palm has began to massage my breasts. My body is burning and aching for his touch. Hindi lang ako ang nasasabik, pati na rin ang aking katawan.

He parted my legs enough to accommodate his head. He then placed my one leg above the headrest, while he’s holding the other one, as if he didn’t want me to close them. Talagang hinawakan niya para lang masigurado na hindi ko isasara ang mga binti ko.

My eyes shut closed when I felt him kissing the fabric of my underwear. Kahit na hinahalikan niya palang ako sa parteng ito, nanginginig na ang mga hita ko. Pilit kong pinanlalabanan ang matinding init na bumabalot sa akin. Ang makamundong pagnanasa ay sumusuot sa aking balat.

It seems like my world stopped for a moment when I felt his hot tongue flicks against my throbbing femininity. My lips parted when the electrifying sensation seeped through my veins. I had to bite my finger to suppress a loud moan.

“Mmm…” I arched my hips but he only pinned me down.

Sinusubok ng kanyang dila ang aking katinuan. Ang bawat hagod ay nagbibigay sa akin ng ligaya na alam kong sa kanya ko lang mararanasan.

“Keith…”

He continues to please me using his tongue and no matter how hard I tried not to moan, I just can’t.

14 ~ SPY

CHAPTER

FOURTEEN

I never felt this kind of pleasure my whole my life. My body was like being burned by an invisible fire. My skin is very sensitive and warm. My mind is clouded by endless desire and my lips can only utter moans and his name.

I didn’t expect that this kind of hunger was this extreme. This silent longing to be touched by a man pains me—in a way that I had to beg him to continue devouring my femininity, I didn’t want him to stop. I feel like I’d go insane if he ever stopped.

The dimmed lights inside the modern nipa hut, the way the sheer white curtains dance, the cool breeze that coming from the dark green field, and the sounds of my sexy whimpers, everything around me has became magically erotic.

My legs were wide enough to accommodate Keith. At kahit na medyo nangangalay na ang aking mga binti dahil kanina pa siya sa pagitan ng aking mga hita, hindi ko maisip ang mag reklamo. Masyado akong lulong sa kaluguran na ipinaparanas niya sa akin na tila ba droga ito na mahirap iwasan kahit na mahigpit na ipinagbabawal.

Muling umalpas sa aking labi ang masarap na daing nang maramdaman ko ang dulo ng dila niya na senswal na umiikot-ikot sa pinaka sensitibong bahagi ng aking pagkababae. Marahil ay alam niya na na ang animo kahinaan ko ay ang parte na ’yon.

“Mmmm, Keith…” I stroke his head using my palm.

His both arms were under my legs, his large hands massaging my breasts. I’m still wearing my dress but damn, I just wanna be naked so that I can feel more of his skin pressing against mine.

I arched my hips when he starts to suck my cl*t. I knew it was his target even from the start.

“Damn… oohhh…”

Noong una, marahan lang ang galaw ng dila niya. Ngunit nang matanto niya at nang marinig niya na mas lalo akong umiingay sa tuwing naroon ang atensyon niya, mas lalo niya tuloy binibigyan ng oras.

Hinawakan ko ang mga braso niya na tila ba sa mga ito nakasalalay ang aking katinuan. Alam na alam niya kung paano ako paligayahin kahit na hindi niya pa naman ako talaga masyado kilala.

Keith keeps on sucking my sensitive nub until I cried in pleasure while calling his name—like a prayer in the middle of my insanity. I was panting. My legs were trembling. And the warm sensation inside my lower abdomen was boiling.

“Ohhh! Keith! Mmmm!”

I felt it again. I am about to reach another paradise just by having his tongue on my inner thighs. He didn’t really care even if I was already breathless and crying in satisfaction. He just continued torturing my swollen jewel by sucking it like a beast.

Nanginig ang aking mga hita nang hindi ulit kinaya ang labis na ligaya na ipinaparamdam niya sa akin. I just wish, he’d stop even for a moment and let me rest. But if he wasn’t, I think, I’d be fine. I just need to drink water because he has been taking my energy.

He slowly kiss my throbbing womanhood while I was dripping wet. Then his thumbs play with my hard nipples.

My heart was racing so hard. My throat ran dried. I am not sweating, but my body is still heating up. Ang apoy ay humina lang at hindi naman tuluyang natupok.

“Keith…” I bite my lower lip when I felt his tongue poke my entrance, it tickled me.

Uminit ang buong mukha ko dahil kahit hindi ko nakikita ang ginagawa niya, nararamdaman ko ito. Tinitikman niya kung anoman ang mainit na likidong lumabas sa akin dahil sa sobrang kaluguran.

I stroked his head. The roughness of his buzz cut against my soft palm only added sensitivity to my skin.

“I think, this is enough. My legs were numb…” I pursed my lips.

He chuckled sexily.

His minty breath hit my thighs. I sighed in delight.

“Aren’t you tired? You’ve been licking me like for… how many minutes already.”

“You taste so sweet, I can’t get enough…”

Umahon siya ng bahagya para lang patakan ng halik ang aking tiyan paangat sa aking dibdib. He then kissed both of my breasts. Kahit na may damit pa ako, hindi ko mapigilan ang makaramdam ulit nang pagnanasa dahil sa ginawa niya.

Our eyes met while he’s on top of me. Namumungay ang mga mata niya na tila ba nalalasing. There was a ghost of smile on his reddish lips. I can’t believe he just tasted me.

Hindi pa kami magkarelasyon pero humantong na kami sa ganito. Nakapagtataka na wala man lang sa akin kahit kaunti ang pagkontra. Sa katunayan pa nga niyan, gustung-gusto ko itong ginagawa namin.

“Magsasawa ka rin…” sambit ko.

“I don’t think so,” he kissed my cheek, then his lips went near my ear. “Kahit araw-araw pa natin gawin ’to, hindi ako magsasawa sa ’yo.”

My face went scarlet. I can already imagine us doing this whenever we see each other!

Should I start bringing my extra underwear, huh? So that I won’t go back home wet, but satisfied.

“Talaga?”

“Talaga…”

Hinaplos ko ang kanyang batok habang abala siya sa paghalik sa aking pisngi at leeg.

“I liked what we did. Though, it was too much for a first timer like me, I am still very satisfied,” I whispered with a small smile. “I didn’t know you’re such a beast…”

“A beast? How did you say that?”

“Uh, because you lick and suck like a hungry beast.”

Marahan siyang natawa.

“Can I suck these too?” His fingers tease my hard nipples.

Napapikit ako dahil hindi napigilan ang masarap na pagdaing dahil sa ginagawa niya sa katawan ko. Hindi pa rin pala kami tapos. May iba pa siyang gustong gawin. At ngayon, dibdib ko naman ang gusto niyang bigyan ng atensyon.

Kinagat ko ang aking labi.

Ang pag-iinit ng aking mukha at balat ay hindi pa rin humuhupa ng tuluyan. Animo nanghihintay lang ulit ng tamang pagkakataon na mapansin ko ulit ang apoy.

“I wanna lay on bed…” malamyos na sabi ko.

“Okay, let’s get this pretty baby on bed,” he playfully pinched my cheek.

My body was weak and tired, but I don’t mind being clouded by pleasure again on his bed. Nang maihiga niya na ako, hindi na ako makatingin sa kanya ng deretso.

Are we going to have sex after this? Hindi ba masyado pang maaga para umabot kami sa punto na ’yon? Or maybe not? We are just going to make out and kiss?

I sexily pulled down the straps of my dress while he’s watching me. He’s still standing at the edge of the bed like some Greek God that was sent for me to please me tonight.

His mesmerizing eyes dilated again. He watches me with desire and lust laced on his gaze. His jaw ticked. He made me swallowed hard.

“Come, help me remove my dress…” I sounded like I was tempting him to succumb with my hidden seduction.

Muling umigting ang kanyang panga.

Hindi ako sigurado kung kinokontrol niya ba ang sarili niya o nabibigo siya dahil hindi niya ako kayang tanggihan.

I stretched my arm so that he can join me on his bed. I gave him a small seductive smile, like I was luring him into a world that both of us will be satisfied.

“Keith, please…” I muttered sensually.

He pursed his lips tightly. He then looked away. I saw him gritting his teeth. That angle only made him looked him hotter.

Kapag bumababa ang tingin ko sa katawan niya, lalo ko lang napapatunayan na gusto ko siyang maramdaman sa tabi ko. His body is massive and the muscles on his arms were bulky enough, that he made me feel like I was a wanton woman who needs to be surrounded by him.

Lumakas ang kalabog ng aking puso nang unti-unti niya akong sinamahan sa kama. He helped me removed down my dress, leaving my wet panty on. My chest is bare and he has complete view of my breasts.

Nakita ko ang paglunok niya habang madilim ang kanyang mga mata. Tila ba matinding parusa sa kanya na masilayan ang aking katawan na handang-handa para sa kanya.

I am already aroused and very eager to feel his kisses on my skin again. Hindi ko akalain na ganito ang magiging pakiramdam ko pagkatapos matikman ang kaluguran na kasama siya. Tila hindi pa sapat ang ginawa namin kanina. Gusto ko pa ng sobra. Ng mas higit pa. Pero, siya lang ang gusto kong kasama sa bahaging ito ng aking buhay.

Keith lowers down his head and has started to plant kisses all over my chest.

Ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko habang hinahaplos ko ang matigas niyang braso. Tila ako wala sa reyalidad. Ang nakakapasong sensasyon ay muling kumukob hindi lang sa aking katawan, kundi sa aking isipan.

“Mmm… baby…” I whimpered when I felt my hard nipple inside his mouth.

I closed my eyes and rolled over my bed while thinking about what I have done when I was with Keith. I can’t believe with myself. How the hell I allowed a man to taste the most private part of my body? At hindi lang ’yon. Lumipat pa talaga kami sa kama niya para ang dibdib ko naman ang bigyan niya ng atensyon.

I slightly check my chest and winced when I saw red marks all over my breasts. He intentionally left a kiss mark. Hindi ko alam kung may gusto ba siyang patunayan sa akin o baka katulad ko, nalulong din siya sa kaluguran. Kaya hindi niya na rin napigilan ang sarili niya.

Rasha: I wanna tell you something. Can you call me?

We were texting. Hindi ako makatulog dahil ang tanging laman ng isip ko ay ang ginawa namin.

I suppressed a scream when I saw his name calling me after a few minutes. My heart was rapid.

“Hello?” I answered.

“What do you wanna tell me? Hmm?”

I pursed my lips.

“I have lots of red marks all over my boobs…”

“That’s good…”

I blushed hard.

Good? What does it mean? Gusto niya rin na may pulang marka siyang iniwan sa aking balat?

“Did you intentionally leave a kiss marks?”

“Uh-huh. Is that fine?”

“Yeah,” I sighed lightly. “It reminded me of you.”

He let out a short hearty laugh.

Napangiti na rin ako. Bihira siyang tumawa, kaya kapag ganito siya, natutuwa ako.

“I can’t sleep because I have been thinking of what you did to me…” pag amin ko.

I feel a little bit frustrated because it was already late at night, and here I am, still very awake. Mabuti nalang at gising din siya.

“I’m thinking of you…” his voice was rough.

Ngumuso ako para pigilan ang pagsugat ng ngisi sa aking labi.

“Really? In what way?”

“In so many ways, Taliyah…”

After we talked, we said our good nights.

I didn’t expect my father’s arrival. Usually, he goes home every weekends. But it’s not even Friday yet and he’s here.

“Get her phone,” he ordered Jacobi.

Wala nang panahon para itago ko pa ang cellphone ko. I handed it to Jacobi who looked cold. Ibinigay niya agad iyon sa aking ama.

Katulad ng palagi niyang ginagawa, humithit ulit siya sa kanyang tabacco. He’s arrogantly sitting on the single sofa. Above the table in front of him is a glass and a bottle of Macallan whisky. He’s on his black dress shirt, black slacks, and expensive leather shoes. He didn’t mind shaving his beards. It only added evilness to the air around him.

My father has a mixed blood. Romanian-Arabian-Filipino. That’s why he doesn’t really looked asian because of it. While my mother has Spanish-Filipino-American blood. They said, I have a softer version of my mom’s face, but I get my father’s hair color which is light brown.

“Who’s Keith?” He asked calmly.

“My friend.”

“Do you know who he really is?”

I silently took a deep breath.

Honestly, I only knew the basic information that Mossad gave me. I don’t think Keith’s background mattered. I have proven that he’s trustworthy and a good man. He’s not my father’s enemy.

“I only know some informations that Mossad gave me.”

He’s browsing on my phone.

It annoyed me. I have no privacy at all. Mabuti nalang at binura ko ang mga mensahe na tingin ko ay hindi na dapat mabasa pa ng iba. Lalo na ang mga galing sa akin. I just noticed that every time I started that kind of conversation, Keith would call me. Kaya madalas na sa tawagan talaga namin napag-uusapan ang tubgkol sa bagay na para lang dapat sa aming dalawa.

“Dad!” I walked towards him when I saw him typing a message.

Hindi ko alam kung para kanino pero si Keith lang naman ang palagi kong kausap. Kaya sino pa ang i-istorbohin ng taong ito?

“What are you doing? You are invading my privacy!”

“What’s happening here?” My mom asked in dismay as she walks down the grand staircase.

“Your daughter has a boyfriend, Tracia.”

“And so? She’s beautiful! Of course, men will pursue her!”

“She doesn’t know who he is the man she’s talking to!” His voice suddenly volumed up.

Halos mapatalon ako sa pagkagulat. Mabilis na nagbago ang pintig ng aking puso. Kapag ganito na ang aking ama, kinakabahan na ako. Dahil alam kong sasapian na naman siya ng kasamaan.

I tried to stop my mother from walking towards my father to get my cellphone, but I was too late to do that.

“Give it back to your daughter, Ramesh! You have no respect with her privacy!”

Tumayo ang aking ama. Matangkad siya at malaking lalaki rin. Kaya kahit na mataas din si mommy, manliliit pa rin siya.

“I am just trying to protect your daughter against my enemies.”

“Your enemies don’t care about us! So stop being delusional—”

Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko nang bigla niyang sinampal si mommy!

“Mom!” I hurriedly walked closer to where they are.

I checked her face and saw blood on the side of her lips. But she didn’t cry. She’s fury and vengeful. She still has some faded bruises on her arms and face. Tapos ngayon, nasaktan na naman siya!

“Mommy, let’s go. Please…” I am trembling in fear because I know, my father won’t think twice to hurt her again.

“You are evil!” I shouted at him.

“Sit!” He commanded me to sit down but I didn’t obey him.

I glared at him with tears that threatened my eyes. Natitiis ko ang masamang ugali niya ngunit hindi ang ginagawa niyang pananakit kay mommy at minsan din sa akin. Hindi na ako makapaghintay na mawala sa poder niya. At sa oras na mangyari ’yon, sisiguraduhin namin na hindi na siya makakalapit pang muli sa amin!

“I’m not a dog that will obey you! I am not your men who blindly obey you—” I was cut off by a slap on my face.

Namanhid ang aking mukha dahil sa bigat ng kanyang palad. I licked my lips when I felt the blood on it. Mas nangingibabaw ang kamuhian ko sa kanya kaysa sa pisikal na sakit na ibinigay niya sa akin.

“Ramesh!” My mom screamed in disbelief. “Fuck you! Go to hell!”

Niyakap ako ni mommy para aluin ako. But I choose to stay brave. Hindi ako iiyak kahit pa mahapdi ang aking pisngi at labi. Kailangan kong sanayin ang sarili ko sa mga ganitong klaseng pisikal na sakit. Hanggang sa mamanhid ako. Dahil hanggat kasama namin ang demonyo kong ama, magpapatuloy ang pananatili namin sa impyerno niya.

“I cannot believe you! Kahit ang sarili nating anak ay nakakaya mong saktan!”

My father stayed emotionless. Tila ba wala na siyang pakialam sa mga ginagawa niya at sa amin ni mommy.

“Shut up, Tracia—”

“No! I cannot stay in this house anymore! You’re evil! You are not the same man that I married!”

He just gave my mom a threatening gaze. Before he sat down again and drink the whisky on his glass.

Galit na galit si mommy. Hindi siya nagpapaawat. Binabantaan niya na si daddy tungkol sa pakikipaghiwalay at pagsasampa ng kaso. But the devil didn’t give a damn. He’s just sipping on his booze while his wife and daughter are angry at him.

I gasped when I heard commotions outside, and when I looked at the door, I saw Keith!

What the hell he’s doing here?

“Keith…” I called him, a bit panicky.

The devils were standing on his side. Na tila ba isang pagkakamali niya lang, sasaktan siya ng mga demonyo. Sinakop ako ng matinding pag-aalala para sa kanyang kalligtasan.

“So, that is your new boy toy?” My father’s voice was laced with mockery.

I don’t know what to do exactly. If I went to him, my father will get furious. But what should I do? Watch him being attacked by the devils? I cannot allow that!

“Dad—”

“Shut up, Rasha.”

“I don’t like liars, Keith. I give you second chance to be honest with me. Are you my daughter’s boyfriend?” The devil asked again.

“I am not.”

My father motioned his men to get near Keith!

Dalawang armadong lalaki ang humawak sa mga magkabilang braso niya. One of them kicked his leg to make him kneel. And then they tied his hands on his back. But despite the danger that he’s facing right now, Keith stayed stoic. As if the guns and the men didn’t scare him one bit.

“Dad!” I am horrified and very worried for Keith’s life.

“Ramesh, Keith is nothing to do with all of these. Stop making him involved!” My mom whined.

Mossad pointed his gun on Keith’s head!

Naghuhumerentado ng husto ang aking puso. Alam ko kung gaano kalupit ang aking ama. Kung kaya niyang saktan ang mag ina niya, mas kaya niyang saktan ang ibang tao. Isang senyas niya lang kay Mossad, tiyak na dadanak ang dugo!

“Why are you with my daughter then?”

“We are friends!” My anxiety heightened every damn seconds.

“Rasha, I’m not talking to you. I’m talking to your boyfriend—”

“He’s not my boyfriend!”

He puffed on his tobacco again. “Do you know that I can kill your boyfriend in front of you?”

Keith is not exception even if he’s not his enemy. That’s how evil my father is!

Totoong wala siyang tiwala sa mga taong lumalapit sa amin ni mommy. He even accused Keith of being an asset and spy!

“If you’re not an asset, what are you then? A spy?” My father continues to question Keith’s motives why he gets near me.

Even if there are guns that pointed on his head, he remained cold and emotionless. I saw darkness dilated on his amber eyes. His expression intimidated me.

“A paid assassin, perhaps?”

I swallowed hard.

I can’t imagine Keith being an assassin. I just can’t. But whenever I looked at him from afar, he has this terrorizing air that I couldn’t explain. Alam kong tahimik at malalim siyang tao. Pero hindi ko makuhang ilarawan na may madilim din na bahagi sa buhay niya. Kung anong klaseng dilim ’yon, ayokong malaman.

“If I was an assassin, you’d be dead by now, sir.” He said coldly, the smirk on his lips was diabolical.

Tila ba kahit mabait siya, kaya niya rin maging demonyo.

My father laughed without humor in it. I wasn’t sure if he was impressed or offended.

“I wonder how would you kill me?” He taunted, then puffed his tobacco.

There was a ghost of devilish smile on Keith’s lips. He’s kneeling on the floor, hands tied on his back, while two armed men pointed their guns on his head, and yet, I still found him hot.

No matter what he does, regardless of the situation he was in, I would still find a way to praise him.

“A bullet in your head would be enough,” he trailed diabolically.

I swallowed hard.

I know, Keith is not playing around. I could feel that… if he wants to, he could easily slaughter the devils around us. I am having a goosebumps. Despite seeing the other side of him—the one that is dark and lethal, I still couldn’t find myself being terrorized by him. I am more astonished…

“I might just slit your throat and watch you die while bathing by your own blood,” he muttered menacingly.

I winced. His words sent shiver down my spine. As if he’d really do it. Even if I know, he would never. But he could…

I imagine my father on that situation. It was terrifying. I hate him so much, but I didn’t want him to die like that. After all, he’s still my father—who gives life to me, who has raised me, and loved me. No matter how diabolical he could be, I cannot change the fact that he’s still my father. And I’d be in pain when he suffered that way.

15 ~ JEALOUS

CHAPTER

FIFTEEN

They took Keith to the library room. Even if I wanted to stop them, I can’t do it because the devils are around me and my mother. My heart is hurting at the thought of my father’s torturing the man that I have started to like.

Sa kanya ko lang nararamdaman ang totoong kalayaan. Hindi siya madamot sa akin. Mahigpit siya minsan, ngunit para rin sa kapakanan ko kaya siya gano’n. Tapos ngayon, nasa panganib ang buhay niya dahil sa aking ama. At wala akong magawa kundi ang umiyak.

“He’s so evil! What he’s going to do with Keith?!”

Niyakap ako ni mommy. Kahit siya na asawa, walang magawa. Sana dumating na ang araw na makalaya kami mula sa mga demonyo at impyernong ito. Nakakapagod na gumising araw-araw na tila bilanggo sa sariling tahanan.

“I have talked to your Uncle Harris, he’s preparing his men to help us get out from this hell. I’m sorry, anak, you have to experience your father’s evil side. I hope Keith will be fine.”

“He’s not the same dad that I used to love, mom.”

“He’s not the same man that I married, Rasha. I know that. Power and money has changed him. I just want us to be away from his hold. Gusto kong maging malaya ka rin mula sa kanya.”

Patuloy ako sa pag iyak. Hindi ko pa rin matanggap na talagang dinamay ni daddy si Keith. Siya na nga lang ang kaibigan ko at tumagal sa akin ng ganito, tapos ipagkakait pa talaga siya sa akin ng sarili kong ama!

Who wouldn’t get furious? Who wouldn’t hate him if he does this thing to me? To us? And now, he’s dragging Keith with his own evil doings!

After a long while, I saw Keith walking down the grand stairways. He looked grim and stoic.

Napatayo ako at agad na pinunasan ang mga luha sa aking pisngi.

My father and Mossad are walking with him as if they didn’t threatened him and pointed a gun on his head. How on earth these people act as if nothing dangerous has happened?

Niyakap ko siya kaagad nang makalapit sa kanya. Sinisikap ko na pawiin ang lahat ng aking pag-aalala kanina sa pamamagitan ng pagyakap sa kanya.

Keith didn’t hug me back. He just stood there like a statue with coldness.

“Rasha, stop being dramatic. I didn’t hurt your boyfriend—”

“I said, he’s not my boyfriend!” I cut my father off.

“Keith, I want you to send your resume for a proper application. This is Mossad, my head of security. Give him your files tomorrow.” My father ordered and pointed to Mossad.

Keith nodded his head coldly.

What the hell my father was talking about?

“Go back to your room, Rasha. Keith will leaving.”

I gasped. I am bewildered about what’s really going on with them. What did they do inside that library room? It seems to me that they had a little negotiation there?

My father and Mossad left. Talagang parang wala lang sa kanila ang ginawa nila kanina. Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako na iniwan na nila kami roon o magagalit dahil pinatunayan lang nila na wala talaga silang puso.

I stared at Keith. Medyo namumungay ang mga mata niya habang nakatitig siya sa akin. Kaya lang dumidilim din kapag napupunta ang tingin niya sa aking labi.

“Go and take a rest. I’ll be back here tomorrow,” he said gently.

I dried my tears on the sides of my eyes using my fingers.

“Huh? What did you guys talk about?”

“I’m applying as one of your bodyguards…”

Hindi pa siya natatapos sa pagsasalita, kumikislap na ang mga mata ko at tila ba napawi ang bigat na dinadala kanina lang.

“Talaga? So, I’m gonna see you everyday?” I can’t help but feel delighted despite the moist on my eyes.

“Uh-huh…”

Muli ko siyang niyakap dahil talagang nagagalak akong malaman na magiging parte siya ng mga nagbabantay sa akin. Ibig sabihin, malaki ang posibilidad na makita ko siya araw-araw.

I let him leave and go home. He assured me that he will be back tomorrow and that motivated me.

Magiging masaya ako kung makikita at makakasama ko si Keith palagi. Maybe I can also request to my evil father or to Mossad to have Keith as my personal bodyguard? I like him compared to other devils. I am more comfortable being with him because with him, I can taste my freedom.

When Keith has started to be my bodyguard, my life has became bearable. Palagi akong masayang gumigising dahil excited na makita siya. He’s an early person. He’d text me if he’s leaving home and if he already arrived in our house.

Minsan tulog pa ako pero nasa bahay na siya. Naghihintay lang siya sa labas, sa opisina ni Mossad, o kaya ay kausap ang ibang tauhan ng aking ama.

At dahil pinagbigyan ako ni Mossad sa request ko na si Keith ang gusto kong kasama kapag umaalis lalo at sa malapit lang ang punta namin, mas may oras kaming dalawa para sa aming sarili. Wala akong ibang iniisip na may nagmamasid na ibang demonyo. I am contented and at ease with my favorite devil with me.

I am amazed when Keith skillfully dismantles the radio communications that every security has. Mayroon na rin siya ng gano’n para makausap siya ni Mossad o ng ibang bantay.

He told me that he wants to make sure that the radio don’t have recording device. I didn’t even think of it!

I realized how keen and careful he was. That’s why I noticed that he’s kinda casual and polite whenever we text. But whenever we talk during calls or in person, he’s a little bit vocal compared through exchanging our messages using cellphones.

Since we are always together, we also have quality time alone. We always end up kissing and making out inside the car. Even if we I know we shouldn’t do that because we are not in a relationship, we both cannot resist each other.

The urge to kiss is too strong and even though he has mastered how to control himself, he cannot just refuse me.

I told him about my problems with my father, what I witnessed, and what my mother’s plans. I trust him and I know he’s on my side. He’s not my enemy. He’s my ally. He taught me some things that could help me save myself from danger one day.

My favorite part was when he taught me about the code. I was very attentive whenever he speaks or explain things. Kahit sa pagsasalita niya, nahahalina ako. Mabuti nalang at naiintindihan ko pa rin siya.

We are sitting on the bench under the shades of big tree. In front of us, from afar, is the beautiful mountain range of Sierra Madre. The sunlight was golden. The breeze was cool. I feel lighter and inspired. Probably because, I am with the man that I like.

Our code is about the flavor of an ice cream. Hindi ko akalain na puwede palang gawing code ang gano’n. Dahil sa kanya, nalaman ko tuloy.

If I was in danger, I’d ask him to buy me my least favorite ice cream which is strawberry.

How will he know how many men around me? If it’s less than five, I’d request for a pint. But if the men are more than five, I’d ask for a gallon of ice cream.

We even have our own codes for my dad, his associate and the guards.

Leech for my father. Worms for his associates. And devils for the guards.

Kapag iniisip ko itong itinuro niya sa akin, namamangha ako. Lalo lang akong humahanga sa kanya. Wala pa man nangyayari, pero tila ba hinahanda niya na ako sa mga posibilidad. Tama lang din siguro ito. Especially that my father has a lot of enemies. Hindi ko alam kung araw-araw ba akong magiging ligtas.

The only thing that comforted me that I’ll be real safe is because I know Keith won’t allow anybody to hurt me. He won’t allow the enemies to kidnap me or take me away from him. Sa kanya ko lang naramdaman ang ganitong klaseng pagtitiwala. Na pati ang kaligtasan ko ay ipinapaubaya ko sa kanya.

Nasanay ako na palagi siyang nasa bahay kaya kapag day off niya, mabilis ko siyang ma-miss. I texted him but it took him so long to reply. He’s in Manila. I don’t really know what he’s doing there. Maybe visiting his friends or family.

Naiinip na ako. Kapag ganitong wala siya, ayoko rin lumabas.

“Do you wanna eat outside later?” My mom asked me.

Pinapanood ko siya na nakababad at palangoy-langoy sa pool.

“Where?”

“They can drive us in Quezon City.”

But I want to be with Keith. Kahit day off niya, papayag naman siguro siya na sumama sa amin?

I sighed. I was not sure. I don’t want him to feel like I am becoming possessive. He might not like that. Araw-araw na nga kaming magkasama, tapos itong araw ng day off niya, gusto ko pa rin siyang kasama? Baka magsawa na siya sa akin.

Titiisin ko nalang itong pangungulila ko sa kanya.

“Let’s do it tomorrow night, mom.”

“Why not tonight?”

“It’s Keith’s day off. He’s not here.”

Tumigil siya sa gilid. Pinagmasdan niya ako.

I am sitting on the bed lounger. There’s a fresh juice on the side table. I’m trying to relax too. While waiting for his reply. Nakakainip pero kailangan kong magtiis.

“Give that man a rest day from you, Rasha.”

“I am giving him his day, mom. What do you mean? I don’t even call him because I know he’s busy in Manila.”

Tumawa siya.

Kahit na masalimuot ang buhay pag ibig niya at demonyo ang asawa niya, hindi ko pa rin maitatanggi na maganda talaga si mommy.

Sana kapag kasing edad niya na ako, ganyan din ako ka-ganda sa kanya. Paano nalang kung wala siyang problemang kinakaharap? Paano nalang kung mapagmahal ang asawa niya? Siguradong mas gaganda pa siya ng husto.

“But you’re texting him…”

I sighed dramatically.

Bakit? Masama ba ’yon? Hindi ko ba siya puwedeng i-text kapag day off niya?

“Should I stop texting him?”

“Well, as long as he doesn’t mind you bugging him, I think, it’s fine to text him even if it’s his day off.”

“I’m not bugging him.”

Umiling-iling siya at muling lumusong sa asul na tubig.

Hindi na ako nakatiis dahil matagal talagang mag reply si Keith. I am not sure if he’s too busy or something has happened to him. I don’t know. I shouldn’t panic but I wanted to make sure he’s damn fine. I stood up and went to Mossad’s office.

Nakita ko na nag-uusap sila ni Jacobi. Sabay silang napatingin sa akin.

“May kailangan ka, Ma’am?”

“I wanna know where is Keth. Can you track him?”

I hope… I wasn’t sound desperate.

Mossad types something on his laptop. While Jacobi is on his cellphone.

Naghintay ako sa kung sino sa kanila ang unang makakahanap sa kinaroroonan ni Keith.

“Here,” Jacobi showed me the screen of his cellphone.

My heart sank when I saw a stolen photo of Keith with a sexy woman! Pero hindi lang ’yon ang nagpahapdi sa puso ko. His lips were on the woman’s neck. Halatang nakikipagladian sa kanya ang babae dahil tuwang-tuwa sa ginagawa sa kanya.

I gulped. Hindi ko ipinahalata na na-apektuhan ako. Kahit pa pareho silang nakatitig sa akin na animo hinihintay ang aking magiging reaksyon.

“Is that today?”

“Yes.”

“Where is that?”

“Inside a KTV bar in Malate.”

I nodded my head. I left as if the photo and the information didn’t affect me.

Sinara ko ang pinto ng aking silid at bumagsak sa kama. Kaagad kong naramdaman ang pagdaloy ng luha sa aking pisngi. Kaya pala abala siya. May kasama siyang ibang babae.

Bakit ba ako magtataka? Gwapo siya at single. Siguradong maraming babae ang naghahangad sa kanya. I am not the only one who’s attracted to him. There are a lot of women out there who probably feel the same way I feel.

Gusto kong magalit sa kanya. Pero wala naman akong karapatan. Ni hindi niya ako girlfriend. We don’t even have a relationship. Why would I get mad if he was with another woman? When in fact, I have no rights. He can do whatever the fuck he wants to do!

Nakakasama lang ng loob na madali lang para sa kanya na halikan ang ibang babae. Hindi niya man lang ba ako naisip? Hindi ba mahalaga sa kanya ang pinagsamahan namin? Naghalikan din naman kami! Ano ’yon? Walang bilang o bigat sa kanya? Did he foget about me already?

When Keith arrives in our house, I was not in a good mood.

“Who was with you?” I probed.

Nakahalukipkip ako sa harap niya. Tila ba asawa niya ako na nagtatanong sa kanya kahit na may ebedensya na naman ako na may kasama nga siyang babae. Gusto ko lang ng kompirmasyon galing sa kanya. Kahit alam kong hindi pa rin naman lulubag ang loob ko kahit pa anong sabihin niya ngayon.

I want to know what will he say. Would he lie to me? If that so, then, it would be hard for me to trust him. But if he tells me the truth, I might forgive him.

“A friend.”

Not a girlfriend? Or a side chick? May kaibigan ba na hinahalikan sa leeg?!

I gritted my teeth. I am silently hoping he won’t lie in front of my face.

“Babae o lalaki?”

He stared at me as if he’s reading what’s running inside my head right now.

“Babae.” He muttered calmly.

He didn’t lie. But the truth really hurt me.

I turned my back on him.

“Taliyah—”

“Go home!” I screamed bitterly.

Bumalik ako sa kwarto ko para lang magmukmok at tanggapin na kasama niya nga ang babae na ’yon. Siguradong hindi lang halikan ang ginawa nila! Baka ginawa rin niya sa babae niya ang ginawa niya sa akin!

I allowed myself to cry. Hindi ko ito pipigilan. Hindi ko aawatin ang aking sarili na tiisin ang hapdi nang unang beses na pagkadurog ng puso ko dahil sa isang lalaki na hindi ko naman boyfriend, pero nasasaktan ako ng ganito.

Ang mahirap sa sitwasyon ko, wala akong ibang mapagsabihan ng saloobin ko. I can only share this to my mother, but I don’t think I’d like to add distress to her.

Then, there’s Keith who I use to share my thoughts with. Paano ko naman sasabihin sa kanya ngayon na nasasaktan ako dahil sa ginawa niya? Baka pagtawanan niya lang ako!

I grabbed my phone when I heard it beeped.

Keith: I don’t wanna lie to you. I’m sorry if the truth disappointed you.

Hirap na hirap akong palubagin ang loob ko. No matter what he says, I will still get mad.

Rasha: That’s why it took you so long to reply because you were with her!

Ito talaga ang pinuputok ng butsi ko kanina pa.

When he called, I was already aggressive. I was already crying again because it really pains me.

“I thought what we had was special. Hindi ko inaasahan na hahanap ka pa ng ibang babae!”

“Hindi ko siya babae—”

“Ano lang?!”

“She is nothing to me, Taliyah.”

I don’t believe him!

“But you kissed her!”

“I did not.” Lie!

“I saw the photos!”

“Who gave you the photos?”

“Jacobi!”

“That fucker—”

“No! He’s not! I think, you are!”

I was panting. My heart was racing and aching at the same time. I never felt like this before.

Paano nalang kung may relasyon kami? Baka hindi na ako makatulog kakaiyak sa sobrang sakit dahil nag taksil siya sa akin!

“What do you want me to do? Lie to you?” Nahihirapan ang boses niya sa kabilang linya.

Napanguso ako habang humihikbi.

Kahit na masakit ang katotohanan, mas pipiliin ko pa rin na iyon ang marinig. He did what he thought was right. I just can’t accept that bitter fact.

“Baby, I don’t wanna lie to you. I’d rather hurt you with the truth, than made you believe with lies.” His voice was raspy.

Napalunok ako.

Pilit na pinapakalma ang aking sariling damdamin. Maybe, I am just being so emotional. I forgot that we have nothing, but those stolen and special moments. Hindi dapat ganito ang maramdaman ko. Nagagalit ako at siguro… nagseselos din ng husto.

I bite my bottom lip. Maybe, just maybe, I am jealous.

“Is she your girlfriend?” My voice softened with the realization.

“No, she’s not.”

Even if I am able to calm myself a bit, I still asked him questions regarding that woman. I think, I won’t fall asleep thinking about them. I wanted him to assure me that she’s nothing and I am mattered.

“Hmm? Do you want me to go there now? Hindi ako makakatulog kung ganitong alam kong galit ka.” He sounded tired and stressed.

I pursed my lips.

Gustung-gusto ko siya. Ngayon ko ito natatanto ng husto.

Hindi ko kaya na bumiyahe pa siya pabalik sa akin para lang pakalmahin niya ako. I appreciate him thinking about it. But really, he doesn’t need to. I’ll be fine. I’ll see him tomorrow instead.

He needs to ease my… jealousy.

16 ~ GIFT

CHAPTER

SIXTEEN

The stinky smell hurt my nose. I didn’t want to complain because I insisted to join with Keith here at the wet market. Gusto ko rin itong maranasan. Now I know, I didn’t wanna go back. I cannot take the smell and the dirt that long. I was not use to it. But I am quite happy for myself because I got to experience this kind of shopping with the man I like.

Every time I think about my feelings towards him, my heart would go wild or I’d blush. Mabilis ko lang siyang nagustuhan. Pero sana matagal manatili ang pagkagusto ko sa kanya. Sana hindi agad maglaho at tangayin ng hangin palayo sa akin.

I like these feelings I have for him. He makes me happy, he gives me comfort, and most importantly, I have my freedom when I’m with him.

“Close your eyes,” his baritone made me close my eyes.

He’s done shopping. He bought everything that we need for today. Ipagluluto niya ako bilang pangbawi sa akin dahil sa ginawa niya kagabi. I appreciate him doing all of these. Kahit na wala naman siyang responsibilidad sa akin para gawin pa ito, mas pinili niya pa rin mag effort para lang makabawi.

I have plan to stay with him all day. I missed him yesterday. I was broken hearted when I found out he was with another woman. By healing the bruise in my heart, I wanna stay with him longer.

I’m sitting on the front passenger of our Lexus. While he’s on the driver’s side. He has a surprise for me and asked me to close my eyes before he will give it. Kung anoman ang ibibigay niya sa akin, magagalak ako ng sobra. He’s very thoughtful.

I nodded my head. “I’m ready…”

“Give me your hand…”

He carefully grabbed my one hand. Our skin touched. Magaspang ang palad niya. Malayong-malayo sa lambot ng akin. The roughness of his palm is a proof that he’s hard working. Aside from that, I like it. Ang gaspang ay nagbibigay sa akin ng hindi maipaliwanag na kiliti.

I am pursing my lips. My heart is pounding. Iniisip ko kung ano ang ibibigay niya sa akin.

Inilagay niya sa palad ko iyon. There are at least three objects I can’t figure out yet. I had to close my palm to feel them.

“Ano ang mga ito?” I can’t stop the smile on my lips.

“Open your eyes…”

Unti-unti kong binuksan ang aking mga mata para makita ang munting sorpresa niya sa akin.

My face heated when I saw three pieces of acrylic cute worms keychain in pastel pink, yellow and lavender color. The chain is gold and the worms are smiling at me.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit nangilid ang luha sa gilid ng aking mga mata.

He knows that I hate worms but these are too cute to throw away. Wala rin akong balak na itapon dahil galing ang mga ito sa kanya. I will keep these. These cute worms will remind me of him from now on.

“Thank you for this cute gift!” I embraced him.

He let out a hearty chuckle. “You’re welcome. That’s your favorite. “

Tumawa ako. I know, he’s messing with me.

“I will only accept these cute worms because you gave them to me.”

“Next time I’ll give you leech.”

I slightly slap his chest. “No. I won’t accept it!”

“I’ll give you real one,” he playfully said.

“No!”

Bahagya niya akong niyakap pabalik at pinatakan ng halik sa noo.

When we arrived on his apartment, he has started to prepare our lunch. He’s cooking clams soup. He knows how to cook and that’s impressive. Halatang maraming bagay ang kaya niyang gawin. Hindi na iyon nakakapagtaka. Sa tindig palang ng katawan niya, tiyak na kahit siguro ang pagbubuhat ng mga mabibigat ay kayang-kaya niya.

I got a bottle of wine from our house. I poured some on a glass and watch the green field in front of me. I really like the feeling whenever I am in this place. Probably, it’s the cool breeze, the greenery, the simple life, and the tranquility it gives me.

Sinasayaw ng hangin ang mga luntian na damo, malayang nagpapatangay ang mga ito na tila ba nakatitiyak na kahit saan man dalhin ng malakas na ihip, babalik at babalik pa rin kung saan nanggaling.

Ang mga ibon na palipad-lipad at ang ingay na galing sa kanila ay nagsisilbing musika sa tahimik na paligid. Habang ang gintong sikat ng araw ay nagpapakitang gilas na pintahan ng matingkad ang kulay ng kapaligiran.

I sipped on my wine and felt the gusting wind that embraces me. Hindi ko napigilan na ipikit ang aking mga mata upang damhin ang kapayapaan na dulot ng hangin sa akin.

My lips formed a smile. This place is becoming my peaceful refuge.

And the man that I am with right now is my shelter guardian.

I am sitting on Keith’s lap again and it feels like I am belong here. I am comfortable and fit perfectly. Possibly, this is a place that destined for me.

We are both watching the green field. He called me when he saw me coughing and having a hard time grilling the barbecue. I was just trying to help him. I ended up above his lap. Hindi niya na yata nakayanan na panoorin ako kaya tinawag nalang niya ako.

I told him about my bucket list—the places that I wanna visit. This time, I wanted to do it with him.

Nakatitig siya sa akin habang sinasabi ko ang mga gusto kong gawin at puntahan.

I cannot really stare longer at him because I’d melt. He has this enigmatic energy around him. Kilala ko siya sa paraan kung paano niya ipakilala ang sarili niya sa akin. Ngunit alam kong may mas malalim pa na bahagi ang pagkatao niya. Kaya ganito siya ka-misteryoso para sa akin. Hindi ko siguro kailan man maaarok ang lalim niya.

I embraced his muscled big arm. Nasasanay na yata akong yakapin ang braso niya. Kanina noong nasa palengke kami, para akong linta na nakadikit sa kanya. I hugged his arm and used it as a shield so I can’t smell the stinky wet market. He didn’t mind though.

Pinagkamalan pa kaming mag asawa ng tindera. Iniisip ko tuloy kung gano’n din kaya ang tingin sa amin ng ibang tao kapag magkasama kami at malapit ng husto sa isa’t isa? Hindi ko mapigilan ang mapangiti.

I think, I’m being assuming. Ni wala nga kaming relasyon. Tapos ganito na agad ang iniisip ko? Pero.. posible naman, di ba? Kung gusto niya rin ako, dapat sabihin niya sa akin. I’m willing to be his girlfriend.

My face heated up because of what’s running inside my head.

I am thinking too much. I don’t want to assume. I’ll be disappointed and hurt if things went against my will.

“First, we will go to Siargao to surf. Then, I wanna go hike too. Can we do it?”

“We will do everything on your list.” It was like a promise for me.

I am happy right now because he’s going with me. Mas lalo akong ginaganahan na gawin pa ang mga gusto dahil alam kong sasamahan niya ako.

“For now, I have two on my list. Let’s do it this month. Okay?”

Hindi niya inalis ang titig niya sa akin na tila ba ipinipinta niya sa kanyang isipan ang bawat bahagi ng aking mukha.

My heart is hammering against my chest again.

I don’t think I’d ever get use to the way his amber eyes stares at me. Nakakaakit at nakakahalina ang mga mata niya. Matutunaw ako nang walang kalaban-laban kung ipagpapatuloy niya ang titig sa akin.

I leaned closer to distract him from staring at me. I kissed his lips which made me closed my eyes.

Ang mga haplos niya sa balat ko ay bumubuhay sa init na nagtatago sa aking katawan. The way our lips moves were passionate and fiery. My mind is clouded with satisfaction of knowing the fact that I am kissing the man that I adore.

“Suck it, please…” I begged him to devour my hard tit.

“Let’s get you to my bed.” He whispered sensually.

“Why not here?”

“Nah, your breasts are for my eyes only.”

Uminit ang aking pisngi.

Hindi ko man lang inisip na nasa terrace kami at baka may ibang tao na makakita sa kapusukan naming dalawa.

“Sa ’yo lang talaga.”

I don’t have plan to meet another man and do this. He’s the only one I will kiss, hug, and do more than that. I can’t picture myself doing all of these if it wasn’t him.

“Sa akin lang.” He sounded territorial and I liked it.

When Keith put me to bed, I have started to removed my romper. I am feeling hot. My skin gets warm and sensitive again. Naging pamilyar na sa akin ang ganitong klaseng init dahil siya lang ang nagpaparamdam sa akin ng ganitong klaseng kasabikan.

Kung may mamamagitan man sa aming dalawa sa araw na ito, hindi ko pagsisisihan. I am willing to give myself to him.

I saw his jaw clenched when I finally removed my clothes together with my bra. Exposing my breasts in front of him.

He’s still standing at the edge of the bed, trying all his best to make all these slow and on his term. But I don’t want to prolong this hunger I have for him. I am so eager to be touched and kissed by him again.

Wala siyang dapat ikabahala. Gusto kong gawin ito sa kanya. Hindi ko ito pagsisisihan.

I closed my eyes when I felt his hot mouth covered my nipple. Kumalat agad ang ligaya sa aking sistema. Kahit pa nag-u-umpisa palang siya, napapaungol na ako sa sarap.

Marahan ang pagsipsip na ginagawa niya, tila ba nilalasap muna ang tamis bago tuluyang pagbigyan ang sarili niya sa nais niya talagang gawin. Nahihibang ako sa kaluguran. Damang-dama ko ang bawat pagtikim niya na animo sanggol na nauuhaw.

“Ohh… Keith…” I whimpered like crazy.

While he was sucking both of my hard nipples, his fingers were exploring my wetness. Naghahalo ang kiliti at ligaya. Wala akong ibang magawa kundi ang dumaing.

The white sheer curtain on the window danced when the cool wind blew.

“I want my tongue here,” he whispered huskily as he rubbed my flesh.

I felt something throbbed inside of me. It made me so excited, my body was itching. I wanted his caresses and kisses on my skin. I’d die if he ever stop.

“Please!” I was out of my mind.

“Hmm?”

“Lick me… mmm…”

My heart is pounding wild against my chest while his kisses lower down my stomach… until he positioned his head in between my thighs. The he placed my legs around his nape.

Kinagat ko ang aking labi. Hinahabol ko na ang aking hininga kahit hindi pa siya nag-u-umpisa.

I can feel his minty breath against my pussy already. He’s very close. Halos matikman ko na ang ligaya. Bakit niya pa ito pinapatagal ng ganito?

“Baby…” I desperately called him with his endearment for me.

I stroked his head with my soft palm. Urging him to devour me. Tila ako malalagutan ng hininga sa matinding paghihintay sa gagawin niya.

At first, he planted feathery kisses all over my femininity. Ramdam ko na ang bawat bahagi ay hinahagkan niya. Wala siyang pinapalagpas. As if his goal was to kiss every corner of me down there. To leave a mark… to let me know that every inch is his. Marked by his.

I arched my hips.

Talagang tila mamamatay na ako sa kasabikan. Hindi ko akalain na ganito katindi ang ipaparamdam niya sa akin. Ginawa niya na naman ito sa akin, pero ngayon, mas may damdamin at nag aapoy ang init.

I bite my forefinger when I felt him started to lick my pussy like it was the sweetest dessert he ever had in his life.

“Uhhh! Mmmm! Mmm!”

My legs around his nape were quivering already. My heart was booming hard. Panay ang hugot ko ng hangin sa aking dibdib na animo nahahapo ako dahil sa sarap ng ginagawa niya sa pagitan ng aking mga hita.

“Ohhh, Keith… mmm… Keith…” I was calling his name like it was a prayer in the middle of my insanity.

Naging madiin ang bawat hagod ng dila niya upang iparamdam sa akin na ganito ang paraan kung paano niya ako angkinin. He would then tease my entrance with the tip of his tongue, poking me there, trying to enter using it. I am losing my mind.

Kumapit ako sa bedsheet. Dumaing at pumikit.

Pakiramdam ko tuloy ay naghihintay ako ng isang regalo kung saan ay maliligayahan ako ng husto. A gift that I’d surely enjoy because it is coming from him.

“Keith… that feels… aahhh… so… good…”

He placed his palms on my stomach just to pinned me down because I’m really writhing above the bed. Tila ako nawawala na talaga sa aking sarili at sa reyalidad. Sinakop na ng makamundong pagnanasa.

“Ohhhh!” I gasped when I felt his tongue trying to enter me and it tickled me.

I can’t help but to move my hips. Hindi ko alam kung gusto ko bang iwasan ang ginagawa niya dahil talagang tumataas ang mga balahibo ko sa katawan. O baka sobra lang talaga akong nasasarapan kaya ang likot ko.

“Keith… mmm…”

He’s pinning me down, using his gentle force to stop me from moving. And then he continues to poke my entrance with his tongue. My pussy is throbbing and very sensitive.

Uminit ang buong mukha ko. Ayokong isipin kung paano niya ito ginagawa. I tried to move which made him buried his tongue on that tight hole for me to stay still!

“Uuuhhh!” I covered my mouth to suppress my loud moan.

He buried his tongue until I feel it inside of me, my thighs shook.

I grind again because it tickled me so much. Bumibigat ang paghinga ko. Nauubusan ako ng hangin.

“Baby, stop writhing…” his voice was very raspy.

I was gasping for air already. Malamig naman ang hangin ngunit pinagpapawisan ako at talagang mainit ang buong katawan ko. I am very naked and hot above the bed.

“How can I stop it? It feels so good… mmm…”

He chuckled huskily. “I was just starting. There’s more coming…”

At nag-uumpisa palang siya? Paano nalang ang mga susunod niyang gagawin sa akin? Baka wala na akong energy mamaya. Sa sobrang sarap nitong umpisa niya, gaano pa kasarap ang mga susunod?

“You’re too tight. But I want my tongue buried inside…” he sounds so sensual, it made me shiver.

I bite my bottom lip. “How can you make me not too tight?”

“Don’t worry ’bout it. I’ll break the barrier later…” he then planted a gentle kiss on my entrance, I felt it throbbed because of what he did.

“Please, do. I want you so bad….” I said very softly, almost like begging him to break what’s stopping him from entering his skillful tongue fully.

17 ~ GIRLFRIEND

CHAPTER

SEVENTEEN

I am already breathless and very ready for him. But Keith wouldn’t take me that easy. He’s already on top of me, I can feel his hard cock teasing my femininity, but he didn’t enter me yet.

“Please, take me na…” I begged again.

My eyes were dilated by undying desire. I wanted to feel him so bad—filling me with his hard on. My thin arms were around his nape. His body pressing mine. He’s naked as me.

Lalo lang akong nasasabik sa kanya kapag tinitignan ko ang malaking katawan niya. The muscles on his abdomen made me drool. Pati ang matigas na braso niya ay nagpapabaliw din sa akin.

“No, unless you tell me that I am your boyfriend,” he sounded like in a business negotiation.

Ayaw niyang pumayag na angkinin niya ako nang wala kaming relasyon.

Sa totoo lang, wala naman problema sa akin kung wala. Masyado akong nasasabik para isipin pa ang tungkol sa bagay na ito. But since he’s stopping this because of it, I need to make a decision.

“Okay! You’re now my boyfriend. Can you please take me na? My body wants you so bad!”

I pursed my lips seductively while I’m staring at him.

Tinignan ko siya habang namumungay din ang aking mga mata. Huwag niya na sana itong patagalin pa. Nabibigo na ako ng sobra. Gusto ko ng umiyak para lang huwag niya na akong pahirapan ng ganito.

I can’t believe myself. Ako pa talaga ang nag-uudyok sa kanya na angkinin ako? Samantalang siya, iniisip niya ang pagkakaro’n ng relasyon namin. I should be happy because I wanted him to be my boyfriend, but please, my body is in pain because he’s taking this too long.

“And you are now my girlfriend?” The side of his lips curved up arrogantly.

My face went scarlet. I could feel the heat on my cheeks.

I’m beginning to realized what’s really going on here. It looked like he was luring me to be his girlfriend. And to make me agree, he has to stop what made my body on fire.

“Yes,” I stroked his nape and gave him a seductive smile. “I am your girlfriend…”

His eyes narrow. He’s doubtful. I don’t know why. Seryoso naman ako sa sinasabi ko.

I arched my body for him to know that I am so ready for him. Damn it!

“Baby…” malambing na tawag ko sa kanya at muling hinaplos ang batok niya.

Umigting ang kanyang panga.

Napalunok ako.

Hindi ko akalain na kahit ang pag igting ng panga niya ay magpapasabik sa akin. Ganito ako kabaliw sa kanya!

He then buried his face on my neck. He kissed me there while he’s starting to poke my entrance with his hard shaft.

Sumilay ang ngiti sa akin. Nakakahibang ang ganitong klaseng emosyon. Hanggang kailan ko ito mararamdaman dahil sa kanya?

I frowned when I felt him filling me while kissing my neck. The pain sting… it lingered.

“Uuhhh…”

Keith didn’t move. He just rested his thick cock inside of me, making its presence known. He’s too warm and throbbing.

Kinagat ko ang aking labi sa hapdi na kumakalat sa buong pagkababae ako. Niyakap ko ang leeg niya at ibinaba pa siya lalo sa akin na tila ba hindi pa sapat ang pagdidikit ng aming katawan.

I know it will be painful. But this is really uncomfortable. Kulang nalang sabihin ko sa kanya na huwag na siyang gumalaw. His length is massive enough to break my hymen and to make me so stretched. I can feel my femininity is already swollen and wounded because of his size.

Tahimik akong humikbi at pilit na itinago ang mukha sa balikat niya. I don’t want him to know that I am crying because of the pain. Baka isipin niya pa na nagsisisi ako na ginawa namin ito. I don’t regret this one bit. Talagang masakit lang at kapag gumalaw siya, pakiramdam ko, mawawasak ako ng husto.

His thick shaft is destroying my pussy already even if he’s not moving yet. Nakabaon lang ito sa aking loob, tila ipinaparamdam sa akin na talagang na-angkin niya na nga talaga ako ng buong buo.

“The pain will subside…” he planted a gentle kiss on my temple.

I pouted my lips. “Don’t move yet, please. You’re huge for a first timer like me.”

I sense him heave a deep breath.

Hindi ko na sigurado kung kaninong puso ang malakas ang pintig. Kung akin ba o sa kanya? Baka pareho? I can’t figure it out. I was battling with my own discomfort to even think of other things.

Keith’s sweet feathery kisses made me at ease. Alam ko na nahihirapan din siya na huwag gumalaw. Ang mga muscle niya sa braso ay namumutok, pati ang mga ugat ay tila nagagalit dahil nag-a-alpasan sa kanyang balat.

I swallowed hard at the thought of him taking me roughly once I am ready for him. Kailangan na kayanin ko siya.

His one palm found my breast. While kissing my cheek, jaw, and neck, he’s massaging my boobs. I think, I am ready because my body is back from burning.

Hinaplos ko ang bicep niya bilang senyales na handa na ako na ipagpatuloy niya ang pag angkin sa akin.

Tiniis ko ang sakit nang mag umpisa siyang gumalaw. Kailangan ko itong tiiisin. Alam ko na pagkatapos ng lahat ng hapdi, ligaya ang susunod kong mararamdaman.

“Keith… ooohhh…”

I can’t stop my moans when his pace changed. From slow and gentle, it became a little bit harsh and too deep for me to take.

Rumaragasa ang bawat pagbayo niya sa aking pagkababae. Ramdam ko pa rin ang hapdi ngunit nangingibabaw na ang kaluguran na dulot ng aming pag iisa. Kahit ang langitngit ng kama ay naririnig ko dahil masyadong mabigat at marahas ang paraan niya kung paano niya ako angkinin.

“Ohh! Ohhh!”

I have to grip on his arms so that my body will stay still. My head almost touches the wooden headboard of the bed. He’s massive and heavy, the bed could break if he continued being this hard and rough towards me.

“Aahh! Keith! Mmm… aahhh… y-yes… p-please!”

The pain suddenly subsided. I am grateful. I can now enjoy the way he pounded against my swollen flesh. Hindi siya tumitigil. Patuloy ang pagbayo niya na tila ba may hinahabol.

He looked so hot while his veins on his arms and neck corded. His muscles flexed. His heavy breathing made me chewed my lips. And his handsome face was filled with desire and hunger as he claims me completely.

It didn’t take me so long to found my climax. Dahil sa paraan niya kung paano ako ihatid sa langit ng kaligayahan ay mabilis at napakapusok.

My legs quivered when his tip hit my cervix. Umikot ang mga mata ko at halos mawala sa sarili sa pag akyat ng kuryenteng dulot ng pag sugod niya sa pinaka loob ko.

“Keith…” my eyes shut closed when the heat exploded.

But even if I was already dripping, he’s still pumping inside and out of my swollen pussy. Malakas ang bawat pagtulak niya. Pati ang katawan ko ay nadadala. Umuugoy ang kama… nahihilo ako at nalulugod.

Keith has changed his position. He kneels in between my thighs. He wrapped my slender legs around his waist, then bang my tight hole again as if there was no tomorrow left for him. My hips almost on the air just to accommodate him fully.

I have a clear view of his body. Malaki talaga ang katawan niya. Like a tank that is difficult to break. He surely works out consistently to achieve this kind of built. He’s bulky enough to make me fantasize him this much. Medyo nangingintab na ang balat niya dahil sa pawis. His muscles were impressively hard. And the veins looked sexy and rough all at once.

He’s destroying me in a pleasurable way. Mabibigat ang paghinga niya at napapamura rin siya. He’s gripping on my legs around him while taking me with him to the brim.

“Tang ina,” he cursed under his breath.

I moaned loud when he buried his cock so deep that I felt the tip poking my cervix again. I saw his arms quivered a bit, before I heard him curse again.

Ipinikit niya ang mga mata at tumingala. Namumula ang kanyang leeg. Ang mga galit na ugat sa braso niya ay umaalpas.

Kinagat ko ang labi ko para pigilan ang malalakas na ungol at para rin pilitin ang aking sarili na huwag mabihag ng husto sa kanya. Lalo at malaya ko siyang nakikita ngayon kung paano lumukob sa kanya ang kaluguran. He looked so hot. Like some Greek God filled with blazing desire. Naaakit ako ng sobra.

He convulses above me after a couple of a long and deep thrusts.

I embrace him and feel his warm semen dripping above my flesh.

Pinatakan niya ako ng halik sa balikat bago niya ibinaon ang mukha sa leeg ko.

I fell asleep after our first round. My body is weak and I don’t have energy anymore. But I am satisfied and happy.

Nang magising ako, natanaw ko sa bintana ang kulay kahel na langit. I am laying beside Keith. Gising na siya at tila ba hinihintay niya lang din akong magising.

Dinala niya ako sa malapad na dibdib niya. Then hugged me using his one arm. I am still naked. Our bodies were covered with thin white blanket.

I have no words for him yet. Ngayon palang rumirihistro sa isip ko ang nangyari sa amin kanina. I am now aware that I gave him my virginity with all my heart. I am not a virgin anymore and I am honestly proud of myself.

But… What if I get pregnant? Am I even ready for that big responsibility?

Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata. Binabalikan ko ang namagitan sa amin kanina. Did he do it inside? I can’t remember. I need to be sure that I’m not gonna carry a baby this year.

“Are you still tired?” His low voice was rough.

I grit my teeth. Kahit ang tunog ng boses niya, malaking bagay na rin sa akin.

So, this is the sounds of his voice when he just woke up? Did he even sleep though? Baka ako lang ang nakatulog at pagod? I don’t think a one round of rough sex would make him tired. He’s too robust to get easily exhausted. Even if he did all the work.

“Yeah…” I breathed.

Hinaplos niya ang aking buhok sa marahan na paraan. Animo hinehele niya pa ako para makapagpahinga pa ng mas matagal. I don’t even want to get up, prepare and leave. Can I stay though? Would he mind it? Would that be fine with him?

Why not? He’s my boyfriend. Of course, I can sleep with him. Right?

Habang nakapikit, hindi ko maiwasan ang pagsilip ng ngiti sa aking labi.

Talaga bang totoo ito? We are officially in a relationship? Hindi ba ako nangangarap lang? Is this my reality now? Is he really my boyfriend?

I blushed. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nahihiya ako. Samantalang siya naman talaga ang naunang nagsabi na dapat may relasyon kami bago may mangyari sa amin. I just agreed to what he wanted. At gusto ko rin naman. This shouldn’t make my face heat up.

“What are you thinking?” He’s stroking my arm this time.

I bite the inside of my cheek.

Did I think too loud that he hear me? Or he’s just so good in reading people’s mind?

“I don’t wanna go back home. Can I stay for a night?”

“Of course…”

I heaved a deep breath. He’s too kind to even allow me to stay with him. He should be. I am his girlfriend. I have the rights to stay with him whenever I want.

“You can call Mossad to send his men here to guard me all night. I don’t think my mom would allow me to sleep in another house without the devils around.”

I need to let my mother know that I will stay with Keith tonight. I can’t wait to tell her that he’s already my boyfriend. I am sure she will support my relationship.

“Yeah, we’ll do that.”

The wind blew that made the white sheer curtain danced with it. The sky is painted with rose and copper. From his bed, we can both see how majestic is the view from outside. Sinasabayan pa ng malamyos na hangin ang nakakamanghang ganda ng paligid bago tuluyang sakupin ng dilim.

“Am I safe?” I asked quietly.

Inayos ko ang pagkakahilig ng aking ulo sa dibdib niya. I placed my palm on it to feel his skin and the warmth of his massive body. I made myself comfortable having him this close. Ang sarap niya talagang yakapin. Palagi na siguro akong magpapakulong sa mga bisig niya.

“You are safe with me, Taliyah.”

I don’t think he understands what I meant?

“Uh, I mean, I shouldn’t get pregnant…” I whispered.

His chest waved a bit when he took a breath. I could almost hear the calm beating of his heart.

“You’re not going to get pregnant.”

“Are you sure?”

“I am sure.”

I nodded my head slightly.

I trust him with this. This is my first time and I am certain this was not his. So he has more experience than me. The way he dominated the bed and my body, I knew he’s an expert.

After a long while of just talking calmly, cuddling, while waiting for the sun to finally set, we have decided to get up.

Napangiwi ako nang maramdaman ang kirot sa pagitan ng aking mga hita. Even my legs felt like jelly. I cannot work properly without wincing. I think I need to rest more to get back my energy.

We continued the grilling on the terrace for our dinner. I help him set the table too. Madilim na ang bukid. Mga tunog ng insekto at huni ng ilang ibon nalang ang ingay sa buong paligid.

Keith doesn’t have neighbors. He’s living quietly and away from people. That’s why he has his freedom and peace here. Like what I have when I am with him.

He’s talking to Mossad on the phone while I am sitting on his lap.

Hinilig ko ang mukha ko sa balikat niya. Habang ang mga braso ay nakapalupot sa kanyang batok. I am still tired. I just wanna lay on bed with him. But it’s too early. We just finished eating. Now, we are having the rest of the wine.

“… right… Just some back up. She’ll be fine…” he then paused.

I waited until they are done talking. When he put down his cellphone, I smile. Finally. I have his full attention.

Hinalikan niya ang aking pisngi. “Do you wanna rest?”

“I’m tired, but too early for bed. What did the devil said?”

“He will send his men here.”

“Where will they sleep?”

“Devils don’t sleep. Don’t worry about them.”

He grabbed his wine glass from the table and sipped on it.

Even if we don’t have much lights, I can still see how fine he is. Sa katunayan pa niyan, ang dilim ay nagpadiin lang sa pagiging misteryoso niya. I am intrigued what else he could do. Sigurado ako na mamangha lang ako sa kanya lalo kapag nalaman ko ang mga bagay na kaya niya pang gawin.

Malambing kong ibinaon ang aking mukha sa leeg niya. He smells so good. I get familiarized with his scent. It was addicting—like a petals of romance, and luxury of freedom that combined with manly fragrance.

“What does my baby think about? Hmm?” He rested his lips on my cheek.

Uminit ang pisngi ko. I think, I should get use to his endearment for me. Like how I wanted to get use to be this physically close to him. Ngayon na may namagitan na sa amin, pakiramdam ko, mas lalong gustung-gusto kong dumikit lang sa kanya. Normal lang ba ang ganito?

“Do you like a clingy girlfriend?” I asked in a sweet tone.

“Yeah…”

I suppressed a grin.

“Hindi ka maiinis sa ’kin kapag palagi akong nakadikit sa ’yo?”

“Hindi. You’re my girlfriend. It’s normal.”

“I’m gonna be like a leech sticking in your skin…” I pouted a bit.

He slid his palm under the t-shirt I am wearing. It’s his by the way. It’s too loose and big on me, it looked like my mini dress. Ipinahinga niya ang kanyang palad sa aking tiyan. Napahugot ako ng hangin. Nakakatunaw itong haplos niya.

“You are going to be my favorite leech then,” his lips on my cheek formed a smirk. “You’re too pretty to be a leech though.”

“What I’m gonna be then?”

“Just a clingy pretty girlfriend…” he gently strokes my abdomen.

I silently took a breath.

I am not seduced by the way he caresses me. But I do feel my vulnerability because of his palm on my stomach. I think, I should start taking a damn pills.

18 ~ SOLDIER

CHAPTER

EIGHTEEN

I avoided my mom’s gaze.

I just got back from Keith’s house. He’s outside with other devils.

I came to her to kiss her. She’s in front of her MacBook, sitting at the swimming pool area. This is her favorite part of this house. Maybe because it’s an open space and the air is cool.

Mommy even removed her eyeglass just to stare at me.

Hindi ko alam kung ano talaga ang gusto niyang iparating sa akin. Kung makatingin siya, tila alam niya na may nangyari sa amin ni Keith. Kung magtatanong siya, magiging tapat naman ako. Ngunit hindi ko siya papangunahan.

“You look glowing. What happened?” She raised her eyebrow in a suspicious way.

The morning sunlight is striking our direction. Yumakap sa akin ang mapreskong hangin.

I took a deep breath.

I shouldn’t hide secrets from my mother no matter how private it was for me. But this time, I feel like she shouldn’t know that I had sex with Keith.

When we woke up this morning, we did it again. Even if I am still so sore and swollen, I didn’t complain because the pleasure is too much. Wala akong oras para mag reklamo pa habang nasa gitna ng ligaya.

“Rasha, I know you. You are my daughter. But I will understand if you keep a secret from me.”

I pursed my lips. Kinakabahan ako.

She deserved to know that I am now in a relationship with Keith. Kahit ito man lang ay ma-i-bahagi ko sa kanya. Nang sa gano’n, hindi ko na kailangan magtago pa ng tungkol dito.

“Mom, we made it official yesterday. Keith is now my boyfriend.” I blushed.

Hindi siya agad nag react. Hindi naman siya galit. My mother is very gentle and soft spoken. Tumataas lang ang boses niya kapag kaharap si daddy. She cannot control her anger and disappointment towards her husband.

“That’s why you slept with him?”

“I was tired to travel back home…”

“What made you tired?”

Nag iwas ulit ako ng tingin sa kanya.

“Did you guys use protection?” She probed.

Uminit ang pisngi ko.

Hindi na ako makatingin lalo ng deretso kay mommy. I didn’t expect her to ask that question. Wala pa naman akong sinasabi, pero alam niya na agad na may nangyari nga sa amin ni Keith!

“We didn’t…”

She let out a dramatic sigh. “I should’ve warned you. I know, he was your first. Wala ka rin sigurong idea kung ano ang mangyayari sa inyo kung sakaling matulog ka na kasama siya…”

Actually, I have an idea. Sa katunayan pa nga niyan, ako pa ang nauunang makipaghalikan sa boyfriend ko. Ako rin ang nag udyok sa kanya na angkinin ako. Wala akong karanasan sa ganitong bagay pero ako pa talaga ang mapusok at agresibo.

While Keith is a calmed oasis, I am the untamed waves.

“Well, I think, I am safe. He made sure of that.”

“Really? Baka magulat nalang tayo pareho na dumuduwal ka na tuwing umaga.”

Hindi naman mainit ngunit pinagpawisan ako bigla. Ang tangi ko lang panghahawakan ay ang sinabi ni Keith na ligtas ako sa kanya. He won’t make me pregnant.

“It’s too early to get pregnant. We just made our relationship official. Besides, I don’t have plan to have a baby yet. I just wanna enjoy his company.” And his kisses, his hugs, and caresses.

“Ask him to buy you a pregnancy test. We need to make sure.”

I looked at her with so much amusement. Sobra naman yata ang sinasabi ng aking ina.

“Mommy, that’s too much to ask.”

“Ikaw, ha? You should wait for your period then. If you missed even a day of your red days, you might be pregnant.”

Kinabahan ako bigla.

Alam ko naman na pinapaalalahanan niya lang ako pero dinadaganan talaga ako ng kaba sa dibdib ko. Lalo pa at naulit ang pagtatalik namin kanina lang.

“I’m sure, I’ll have my period.”

She just shook her head as if she didn’t believe in me.

Napalunok ako. Bumibilis ang pintig ng aking puso.

Should I ask my boyfriend to buy me a pregnancy test? Or should we buy it together? Sabay namin ginawa ang pagtatalik, kaya dapat magkasama rin kami sa kahit anong pagkakataon lalo at patungkol sa kahihinatnan ng kapusukan namin.

I sat on the bed lounger and texted him.

Rasha: What are you doing? Call me.

Kahit nasa labas lang siya, gusto ko pa talaga na tawagan niya ako. Kahit na puwede ko naman siyang papuntahin kung nasaan ako.

I straightened my sit when I saw his name on my screen. I swiped the green button.

“Are you busy?” I asked.

“Not really. What do you want?”

I glanced at my mom. Even if she’s typing on her MacBook, I have a feeling that she’s listening.

“Let’s go to Mall after lunch.”

“Okay. Just call me when you’re ready. I’ll be staying here.”

“You can have lunch with us.”

Napatingin sa akin si mommy. Ngunit hindi ko naman nakita ang pagtutol niya.

“I don’t think it’s necessary.”

“Kami lang ni mommy. I wanna introduce you to her properly.”

Keith didn’t say anything.

“Tell him, I invited him,” my mother mouthed.

Ngumisi ako sa kanya.

“Well, my mom invited you to join us this lunch.”

I heard him sigh.

I hope this won’t make him pressured. Gusto ko lang naman na maayos siyang ipakilala kay mommy. Hindi kasi naging maganda ang unang pagkikita nila noong nakaraan. But today, we have time to make a proper introduction for them.

“Tatawagin kita mamaya diyan. ’Wag kang aalis. Okay?”

“Hindi ako aalis.”

“At kung gusto mo akong makita, magpunta ka lang dito.”

He let out a hearty short laugh. “Sure.”

Nailalarawan ko na sa aking isip na ako pa siguro ang mas mauunang hanapın siya. Bago niya matanto na gusto niya rin pala akong makita. Sana matiis ko na hindi siya masilayan kahit ilang oras lang.

Nakaidlip ako sa bed lounger nga hindi ko namamalayan. Nagising lang nang may mararahan na dampi ng halik sa aking kamay. When I opened my eyes, I was welcomed by a handsome face of a man—my boyfriend.

Kinusot ko ang aking mga mata. I looked around and my mother is already on the swimming pool. Sa katabing bed lounger ko naman ay naka-upo si Keith habang hawak niya ang aking kamay.

“Dear, you were snoring. Your boyfriend was enjoying watching you,” my mom teases me which made me blush.

Is it true? Did I really snore?

“She’s just messing with you,” he kissed my hand again.

May bahid nang pagka-aliw sa mga mata niya habang pinagmamasdan niya ako.

“I don’t snore.” I snapped.

He shook his head. “You’re so beautiful while asleep. I didn’t wanna wake you up.”

Maayos naman ang tulog ko kagabi. Nakayakap ako sa kanya buong gabi. Napagod lang din ako dahil sa  ginawa namin pagkagising kanina.

“We can eat here. I told Imelda to serve our lunch here.” Sabi ni mommy.

Wala akong ideya kung nakapag usap na ba sila dahil nakatulog ako. Pero sa paraan kung paano sila kumilos, tila ba nagka-usap na nga talaga sila.

“Did you already talk to my mom? Did you introduce yourself?”

“Yeah. Ipinatawag niya ako kanina.”

“Ano ang pinag-usapan niyo?”

His lips formed into a thin line. Halatang ayaw niyang sabihin sa akin ang pinag usapan nila ni mommy. I am intrigued!

“Sabihin mo na sa ’kin. What? Did she scold you?”

“Why would I do that?” Mommy butt in. “Ipinatawag ko siya dahil ipapabuhat sana kita sa kwarto mo. Naiinitan ka na diyan sa pwesto mo.”

Doon ko lang natanto na nasa akin nga ang sikat ng araw. At hindi ko alam kung bakit titig na titig sa akin si Keith. Ni hindi niya maalis ang tingin sa akin. It looked like he was mesmerized but he won’t say it.

“Aren’t you tired?” I arched my eyebrow at him.

“It’s too early to get tired.”

“I mean, because I am feeling tired,” I lowered down my voice so my mother won’t hear what I was saying. “My body is tired. I’m still sore…”

Muli niyang hinagkan ang aking kamay.

“I know how to ease the pain but can’t do that here…” his lips curled into mischievously.

“Huh? What do you mean?”

His amber eyes flickered.

“What will you do to make me feel at ease?” I am curious.

Lumapit siya sa akin. His lips near my ear.

“How ’bout a massage?” Napapaos na bulong niya.

I bite my lower lip. I had no idea what kind of massage he’s talking about. A body massage? Does he know how to do it? That’s great. I can have a free massage then.

“I want a massage…” I whispered.

“Really?”

“Yes. A body massage?”

He chuckled against my ear.

Tumiklop ako ng bahagya dahil sa kiliti. Kinagat ko ang labi ko para lang huwag humagikhik.

“No, not a body massage…”

“What lang?”

“A lick massage,” his tone was sensual.

Ang init ay umikot sa aking batok. I can already picture him doing a lick massage while his head was in between my thighs!

I growled frustratedly. “Can’t we do it in my room?”

Ang maiksi at napapaos na tawa niya ay sumabay sa ihip ng hangin.

“You’re my boyfriend. You can enter my room.” I whispered suggestively.

I giggled when he groaned like a wounded beast lost in the woods.

Our naughty conversation was interrupted when our housemaids came to serve our lunch at the open cabana near the pool.

Keith helps me get up from bed lounger. Hinawakan niya pa ako sa bewang para lang masigurado na hindi mabubuwal ang mga tuhod ko kapag nakatayo na. He’s caring and I appreciate it so much.

Umahon si mommy sa tubig. She dried her hair with a towel then wrapped her body with a swimming pool robe. Her cheeks get rosy because of the sunlight. Pareho kami, mabilis mamula ang pisngi kapag natagalan sa ilalim ng sikat ng araw.

We have a casual conversation during lunch. My mom asked questions to Keith regarding his work and personal life.

He’s polite and calmed. Alam kong tapat din siya sa mga sinasabi niya kay mommy.

I admired him because he is a confident man who knows what he does and what he wants in life. He has set his dreams and goals firmly so that he can achieve all of them through his hard works and dedication.

He doesn’t look nervous or doubtful while he was talking to my mother. He knows the proper way to make the conversation casual and formal at the same time. I can see how disciplined he was. I am certain that he’s a kind of man who valued his words and principles.

“I was in the Army. After I served, I decided to work in the PNP, Madame,” he muttered calmly.

Nakakamangha. He’s a former soldier. That’s why he has this heavy and authoritative air around him. I understand now why he’s different from other men. He’s not ordinary. He’s dangerous, and mysterious.

I sipped on my fresh cucumber juice. I am sitting next to him.

Kitang-kita ni mommy kapag nakatitig ako kay Keith kaya tinataasan niya ako ng kilay. I hope I don’t look like a hopeless girl who has been dreaming to get noticed by her ultimate crush.

He’s sitting straight and even the way he sits, it looked like he cannot be destroyed easily. Kaya pala matikas at may bigat ang tindig niya dahil sundalo rin siya. He was built like a tank to protect the nation and its people—to seek for peace instead of war.

Hindi ko mapigilan ang mangiti dahil namamangha akong malaman ang iba pang tungkol sa kanya. Gusto ko siyang makilala pa ng husto. Dapat hindi lang halikan ang inaatupag ko kapag magkasama kami!

“I see. That’s why your built and aura are different from the men around here.” Mommy nods her head in realization.

“Have you been to a war?” I butt in.

“Yeah.”

My eyes widened frantically.

I can’t imagine him having a hard time while in the middle of the battle ground. If I met him while he was in the Army, I don’t think I’d like the idea of him being in a war. I’d die thinking about him and his safety.

“Which one?”

“Mostly in Mindanao.”

I placed my hand on his forearm. “Were you scared? Were you hurt?”

Marahan ang tawa na kumawala sa kanya. Umiling-iling siya, may ngiti sa labi.

I think, he found my question stupid or petty. Of course, it’s normal to feel scared during the war. Soldiers may be built to survive and to kill, but they are also human who has feelings.

“I was not scared. Just got some minor injuries.”

Nilingon niya ako, may bahid na pagka-aliw sa kanyang mga mata.

“I’m glad I met you when you already left the Army. I didn’t like to have a boyfriend who’s an active soldier. Ayokong maranasan ang nangyari kay mommy noong nasa Iraq si kuya.”

The memories of my mother having anxiety and sleepless nights during the time my brother served in Iraq is still clear to me. Nahawa ako sa sobrang pag-a-alala niya kaya pinilit talaga namin si kuya na pagkatapos ng tour niya roon sa Iraq, umuwi na siya ng Pilipinas.

“My son—Rashid is a former US Army. He had a few tours in Iraq and Afghanistan during his service in the USA. The anxiety was like a torture to me knowing that my son’s life could be taken away from me any moment. It was one hell of a ride, I didn’t want that to happen again.” My mother explained to Keith so he has idea what we were talking about.

He sipped on his cold water. Then he nods his head after.

“That was every parent’s nightmare.”

“Exactly!” Tumawa si mommy. “I am sure your parents were having anxiety too during the war and you were in it.”

“Gladly, my father was there to calm my mom.”

“Your mother is lucky then. Si daddy walang paki noon. He’d just say, Rashid chooses to be there, let him face the painful consequences.” I grimaced.

“Right. I have started to realize that Ramesh wasn’t that very supportive even before. Kaya malayo rin ang loob sa kanya ni Rashid.”

“Where is Rashid? If you guys don’t mind me asking.” Keith asked in a polite manner.

I chewed my chicken salad and let mommy answer him.

“He’s staying in Alabang right now. He’s busy with his own security agency.”

“The security here, Mossad’s team, were they from Rashid’s agency?”

“No,” Mommy shook her head. “I didn’t know where Ramesh got these men. He didn’t want to get security from Los Oculto, that’s what Rashid’s security agency name.”

“Why not?”

“Even kuya insisted to send his men here, my father just didn’t let him. Kaya tuloy hanggang ngayon, may hidwaan sa pagitan nilang dalawa.”

Keith glances at me. But didn’t say any words. I think, I should be more open to him about what’s really going on. I trust him. He’s my boyfriend. He must know my life.

“Lumayo na ang loob ni Rashid sa ama niya. They are like enemies who don’t physically hurt each other but both could bring bruises to their egos.”

I suddenly missed my brother. But you know what hurts the most? He’s banned to come and visit us here. That’s how evil my father was. Even his own son is prohibited to see his own mother and sister.

“Leech banned kuya here,” sumbong ko pa.

“Who’s leech?” Mommy asked, she’s bewildered.

I giggled. “That’s our code name for dad.”

Her laughter echoed. It made me smile.

“Suits him!”

“I hate leech but I loath my own father.” I bitterly exclaimed.

“The feeling is mutual, sweetheart.”

“Why did your father banned his own son from seeing both of you?”

“Because he didn’t like it when somebody go against him. Kahit sarili niya pang anak, handa niyang kalabanin dahil lang hindi nakasuporta sa kanya.”

“That’s how evil Ramesh is. I wish you good luck, Keith. I hope my husband won’t use you to get what he wants.” It was like a warning from my mom.

I slightly squeezed his forearm. “Kapag umalis kami dito, sumama ka nalang sa amin. Stop working under Mossad’s security. They are evil. I hope you will realize that soon.”

“She’s right. Do not come back here once we leave. You have no future with these men, Keith. Madudungisan lang ang malinis na intensyon mo sa anak ko. Don’t wait for Ramesh to see any weakness from you that he can use to trick you.”

“I wanna know more about your husband, Madame. So I will understand everything that’s happening here.” His voice remained calmed as him.

“Oh, sure. I need your time to sit with us. I’m willing to tell you the reasons how I found out that my husband is really an evil—who’s hiding behind the face of a powerful senator. Everything you want to know, just ask, I can give you details. I have nothing to hide. I am now his enemy.”

Keith nods his head in a way that he understands that the chaos in our family cut deeper than what people only know.

19 ~ FANTASY

CHAPTER NINETEEN

We have decided to do the hiking first. I am very excited because I’ve been waiting to do this but I had no one else to do with. Keith is the only person who made the hike possible.

But first, I have to condition my body. I do exercise through swimming and some times I jog. Still, it’s not enough. Keith is the one suggested this. Alam ko naman na para rin sa kapakanan ko ang mga gusto niyang mangyari. I woke early morning to jog with him around the village.

I am panting already but he’s still has a lot of energy. We are both sweating but I am the only one who obviously looked tired. We have started the jog before the sun rise. Malamig ang simoy ng hangin at ang mga halaman ay medyo basa rin dahil marahil sa kondisyon ng panahon.

Sinasabayan niya ako kahit kaya niya naman na mas mabilis pa sa akin. He’s sporting a black muscled tee and a grey sweatpants. He looked so fine and his sweats only made him hotter.

Napapatingin talaga ako sa kanya kahit na ang atensyon ko dapat ay nasa harap ko lang. Hindi ko na alam kung saan ko siya unang titignan. Sa mga braso niya ba na lantad sa aking mga mata o sa bandang ibaba ng katawan niya.

Nag umpisa kaming mag jogging noong medyo madilim pa. At ngayon na sumisibol na ang araw, nagkakaroon ako ng mas malinaw na imahe niya.

His grey sweat pants is kinda distracting me because I can see the shadow of his bulge in between his thighs. I know! I know I’m becoming naughty or like a wanton woman who likes sex a lot. But what can I do? He’s distracting me. I am hopeless right now.

“Are you okay? Do you wanna take a break?” He glances at me.

I tried so hard not to look at him again. I focused on the long road ahead of us. On our both sides are greens and some big houses from afar. There are also some devils around that run with us but they have enough distance to give us space.

“Let’s reach that bench then I’ll take a break,” I pointed the wooden bench under the big tree.

I exhaled.

I should focus with the jogging to condition my body for our hike this coming weekend. Isasantabi ko muna itong lihim na pagpapantasya ko kay Keith.

When we reach the bench, he didn’t allow me to sit right away. We waited for a few minutes before I was able to sit. I then drink on my water tumbler. I am sweating bullets.

Keith remains standing on my side. He’s drinking his water too, while leaning against the trunk of the tree.

“Why don’t you sit with me?” Tinapik ko ang espasyo sa gilid ko.

“I will in a bit…”

Tiningala ko siya sa kagustuhan na makita ang kanyang mukha ngunit hindi sinasadya na dumaan ang mga mata ko sa kanina ko pa iniiwasan na parte ng kanyang katawan.

“Taliyah,” his cold voice made me pouted my lips.

I was right. The beast under his sweat pants is making its presence known even if I didn’t need him yet.

I blushed when I remembered the moment he filled me with that one. He destroyed my femininity and broke the barrier so that I can accommodate him.

I shouldn’t wonder now why even if he’s calmed, the size is massive enough to wreck me again. Hindi ako magrereklamo basta ba siya lang ang wawasak muli sa akin.

Noong binisita ko siya kahapon, may nangyari ulit sa amin. Kahit tanghaling tapat, talagang hindi kami nagpapaawat!

“I’m distracted…” I croaked.

“With what?”

Napalunok ako. I wiped my sweats on my forehead using my face towel.

“With your sweat pants.”

“Why would you?”

“Because I can see the shadow of the beast soldier…” I can’t help but blush again.

Ang halakhak niya ay sinabayan ng malamyos na sipol ng hangin. Dalawang tunog na sa palagay ko ay paulit-ulit kong gustong marinig.

“Baby, you’re becoming naughty,” he chuckled again.

Nag angat ako ng tingin sa kanya at nginisian siya. Napailing siya sa akin. May munting ngiti sa labi niya.

“I think, I’d like to play with your soldier—”

“Taliyah,” he cut me off as if I was too scandalous and he cannot handle it.

“What?” I gave him an innocent look. “You are the one who always play with me. Hindi ka ba nagsasawa?”

“Hindi,” he then slowly sit beside me.

Kumalabog ang puso ngayong katabi ko na siya.

Wala naman akong inaasahan na gagawin niya pero ang nakakanginig na galak ay talagang dumidikit sa aking balat.

I turned my body a bit to face him so that I can see him clearly.

Keith is staring at me with his amber eyes that hypnotizing me. There’s some sweats dripping on his forehead down to his prominent jaw. His growing stubbles giving him a rough gloomy air.

“Talaga? Hindi ka magsasawa? Do you like it that much?”

“Uh-huh.”

I bite the inside of my cheeks when suddenly an images of him from yesterday flashed my mind…

I was standing, the water from the shower flowing down my body while he’s kneeling in front of me. My one leg placed above his shoulder and I watched him how he licked my pussy. Habang ginagawa niya ’yon, nakatingin siya sa akin. He made me watch him how he devours me like that. He made me feel like I was really his.

Nabubuwal ako sa kinatatayuan ko kahapon dahil sa sobrang ligaya na pinaranas niya sa akin. Katatapos lang namin magtalik pero may nangyari pa rin na gano’n habang naliligo kami.

At kapag naroon ako sa bahay niya, hindi lang halikan ang ginagawa namin. He likes going down on me and make me scream just by using his tongue and fingers.

I placed my palm on his thigh. Napatingin siya sa kamay ko na naroon na tila ba apektado siya. Nang hinaplos ko siya, ibinalik niya ang mga mata sa akin. His lips formed into a thin line.

“I will stay with you after the hike. Is that fine?”

“Yes…”

Sumugat ang ngiti sa akin. Habang nagagalak ako, dumidilim lang ang itsura niya.

“I’d like to play with your—”

He cut me off with a desperate scoffs.

“I don’t want you to stay with me just because of sex…”

I rolled my eyes. “Hindi naman ’yon ang reason ko, ah? I want to stay with you always because I like hugging and kissing you.”

“How ’bout the sex?” He probed.

“Well, it’s just a bonus. But we can sleep without it. Right?”

Tumango siya.

“Kaya mo ba ’yon? Walang mangyayari sa ’tin habang magkatabi tayong matulog? What if like to have sex with you, will you give me what I want?”

Masakit siyang napapikit. Umigting ang panga niya.

I stroked his thigh again. “But Keith, aside from kissing and hugging, I think, I like to have sex too.”

He took a deep breath as if I was making him stressed.

“Don’t you like it?”

“It’s not that I don’t like it—”

“Then, you shouldn’t stop me from wanting it. It made me feel relaxed…”

Tinignan niya ako na para bang nakakamangha at nakakagulat ang rebelasyon kong ito.

It’s true though. Every time we finished fucking each other, though I felt tired but I am also satisfied and relaxed. Ibig sabihin, may magandang dulot sa akin ang pagtatalik namin.

“And what if I get you pregnant because you want to have sex with me so bad? Hmm?”

He caressed my cheek using the back of his hand.

“Ang sabi mo, hindi mo ako bubuntisin?”

Bumuntonghininga siya ulit. Mukhang kailangan niya pa ng mahabang pisi ng pasensya bago ko pa mapigtas ’yon.

“Taliyah, you should start taking pills. I cannot guarantee you that you won’t get pregnant by me.” Napapaos ang boses niya.

Uminit ang batok ko. Parang nangangapal ang balat.

Siya pa talaga ang nagsabi nito sa akin. Nakalimutan ko na nga ang tungkol dito.

“Bakit? You can be extra careful naman…”

“Kahit pa mag ingat ako ng husto, wala pa rin kasiguraduhan na hindi kita mabubuntis.”

Ngumuso ako.

Tama naman siya. Paano kung pareho kaming lunod sa kaluguran at makalimutan niya na hindi ako puwedeng mabuntis? Dapat talaga may proteksyon kami.

“Why don’t you just use condom then?” I suggested.

He groaned. “No, I don’t want to.”

“Why not?”

“Not with you, Taliyah.”

So, he likes it bare and raw?

“Let’s buy my pills later. Samahan mo ako.”

Keith agreed to that.

I shouldn’t be careless. It’s not a good time to have unwanted pregnancy. Kailangan pa namin umalis sa bahay namin. Hindi ko pa alam kung paano ang eksaktong gagawin para lang hindi magkagulo. Umaasa ako na walang masasaktan kapag sumapit na ang araw na ’yon.

I woke very early to prepare for our hike today.

After I took a shower, I wear a brown set of activewear; seamless strap bra, tights, and sports jacket with zipper. I paired them with comfortable sneakers. I have my backpack with me for my essentials, snacks, and water tumbler.

The Mt. Balagbag in Bulacan is the closest for us to go. It has a good trails for beginners like me. That’s why Keith suggested it.

I was also informed by Mossad that we will be with my other bodyguards and I don’t mind it. I understand that they need to be around me whenever I am away from home and will be surrounded by strangers.

I tiptoed to kiss Keith on the lips.

Hinawakan niya ang bewang ko para idiin pa ang halik niya sa aking labi.

It’s early in the mooring and yet, I am blushing. Even in front of my security, we are kissing!

“Good morning, pretty,” his morning voice is throaty.

“Morning, handsome,” I beamed.

He’s the one driving our Lexus. Kaming dalawa lang sa sasakyan. The black van where the devils are following us.

Keith is mysteriously looking so fine sporting a black jacket and black cap. I always found him enigmatic despite that I’ve known him for a quite while now. He has this aura that it made me think that he’s not just an ordinary man… he is deep and beyond my reach. Misteryoso talaga ang tingin ko sa kanya lalo at kapag ganitong tahimik siya.

“Hmm”? he took a quick glance at me.

He probably noticed that I’ve been ogling at him.

“You looked mysterious…”

“How did you say that?”

“That’s how you made me feel…”

“You already know me. I shouldn’t be a mystery anymore.”

But I like it that way. It made me more intrigued about him. I feel like there is more about him for me to discover. Everyone has a secret. For sure, he has secrets that he didn’t tell me… the secrets that he buries in the depth. I don’t want to unfold the mysteries of his life. I wanted him to stay a mystery to me.

“You will be forever a mystery to me…”

He carefully grabbed my hand and brought to his lips.

“Did you take your pills?” tanong niya.

Umikot ang mga mata ko. He smoothly changed our topic just like that, huh?

“I did after breakfast.”

“Good.”

“Maybe I’ll just take it before bed time so I won’t easily forget.”

I missed taking it yesterday so I had to take twice today. Sinasanay ko pa rin ang sarili ko na kailangan ko ’yon sa araw-araw para lang masigurado na hindi ako mabubuntis.

“Don’t miss it. Mabubuntis ka…” sabay halik niya ulit sa kamay ko.

I won’t! It’s too early for us to have a baby. My life is still complicated. Pregnancy is not my priority now. Alam kong gano’n din siya.

Inayos ko ang aking upo paharap sa kanya.

Maliwanag na sa paligid kaya nakikita ko na siya ng malinaw kumpara kanina. He has a pointed nose and prominent jaw. He let his stubble beard grow though. Kaya tuloy mas lalo lang siyang nagiging misteryoso at mabigat.

“Hindi ako mabubuntis…”

“Only if you don’t miss your pills.”

“Even if I am taking pills, don’t do it inside of me!” I snapped.

Sinulyapan niya ako. There’s a smirk on his lips.

“I’d like to do it inside of you…” he chuckled.

My cheeks burned.

“Hmp! Okay lang. I will still be safe.”

Kaya pala… palagi na siyang sa loob nagpapaputok simula nang mag pills ako.

After our hike, we are going straight to his house and I’m going to have a sleepover there. I have my extra clothes with me. I plan to leave some so I don’t need to always bring clothes with me whenever I’d sleep with him.

The local tour guide welcome us. He’s Keith’s contact. We did a registration, pay for the environmental fees, and so on. Then we have a short orientation. We are going to take the Dumagat Trails. Our local tour guide is part of the tribe and it’s amazing to know.

Keith took my bag and put it inside his backpack. Kahit ang tubig ko ay nasa gilid ng backpack niya para lang wala akong dala habang naglalakad kami. I only have my cellphone on my waist fanny bag and some mint candies.

The trails will take four to five house back and forth. It depends on our pace. This time, we are with another group of hikers. Men and women. Ang ibang lalaki ay pamilyar sa akin dahil mga tauhan ni Mossad. They are just blending in, pretending as hikers too. Ang iba, hindi ko talaga kilala.

Nag umpisa na kaming maglakad. The breeze is so cool and fresh. It made me happy already. The place is surrounded by greens while the sunlight is in golden tone. Pati ang ihip ng hangin ay tila ba may damdamin. Hindi basta-bastang sumisimoy lang.

I looked back when I heard the group giggling. Behind us are two of Mossad’s men—who looked stoic, then that group of girls almost nearing them.

“Taga saan po kayo?” Tanong ng babae sa mga bantay ko.

“Taga saan kayo?” Balik tanong niya.

“Norzagaray kami. Kayong dalawa?”

“Sa Caloocan.” They lied.

Hinawakan ko ang kamay ni Keith.

He removed his jacket already. He’s sporting an army green tee, tactical pants and shoes. Ang muscles niya ay umaalpas sa sleeves ng t-shirt niya. The fabric of it is enough to make his broad chest defined. Kapag humahangin, yumayakap lalo ang tela sa katawan niya. Kahit ito, pansin na pansin ko.

“Kasama niyo po silang dalawa?” Naririnig ko ang usapan sa aming likuran.

“Sino?”

“’Yang dalawa sa unahan niyo.”

“Hindi namin sila kasama.” Sagot ng isa sa bantay ko.

“Akala namin artista ’yung babae. Ang ganda at parang umiilaw ang balat! Ang gwapo ng kasama niya pero suplado.”

I giggled then wiggled our hands that hold each others.

“You’re suplado daw?”

“I’m not…”

“For me, you’re not. For them, you are. Why don’t you say hi?”

“Nah. I only want to talk to you.”

Siguro nasa isang oras na kaming naglalakad nang makaramdam ako ng bahagyang pagod. I slowed down my pace and Keith noticed it. So he did the same. Kinuha ko ang tubig sa backpack niya at uminom.

“Here, have some too.” I gave him my water tumbler.

He grabbed it from me and took a sip. His chest part is wet already because of the sweats. I can see the shape of his iron clad muscles. Even the way he’s holding my water tumbler is very manly.

I grabbed my face towel from his backpack and wiped my sweats. He has his own towel for him. He’s prepared too.

“It’s getting hot. I want to remove my jacket.”

“Remove it then.”

Tumango ako at hinubad ang jacket ko. I don’t mind having some sun on my skin.

I heard him growled the moment he saw what I was wearing under my jacket—that I wrapped around my waist. Nag angat ako ng tingin sa kanya upang malaman kung ano ang tila nirereklamo niya.

“What? This is a proper wear for hiking.”

Wala naman siyang sinabi. Madilim lang ang tingin niya sa dibdib ko. Kaya napatingin din ako sa parteng ito ng katawan ko. It became normal for me to see my own cleavage. But for him, he wasn’t use to it. I saw how white and creamy is my skin on my chest. Even the very thin veins are visible if you look closely.

“I didn’t know you’re conservative.” I teased.

“Not really.”

“Then my cleavage shouldn’t distract you.”

He leaned closer until his lips almost touched mine. My heart suddenly pounded.

“It didn’t distract me but it made me think of your breasts…” he whispered darkly.

Nadagdagan ng init ang aking mukha dahil sa sinabi niya.

“Keep your fantasy burning. You’ll have them later tonight.” I winked at him playfully.

“Can’t wait to suck your breasts all night…” he smirked devilishly.

I slightly slapped his chest that made him cackled. Lalo lang umapoy ang pisngi ko. Dito pa talaga namin pinag-uusapan ang tungkol sa bagay na ito?

“I want your nipple in my mouth until I fall asleep That’s one of my fantasies…” he whispered on my ear.

Kinagat ko ang pang ibabang labi ko. Kung may anong init ang bumalot sa akin. At isipin ko palang na gagawin niya ang pantasya niya sa akin, sumasakit na ang puso ko sa kasabikan na matupad niya ito.

“You’re such a hungry beast…” I leered at him while suppressing a smile.

20 ~ HIKE

CHAPTER TWENTY

I closed my eyes and feel the howling of the wind while standing at the summit of Mt. Balagbag.

After the long walk, the sweats and exhaustion, finally, I have reached the peak. I was given the kind of gift that I deserved for not giving up, and for pushing myself forward so that I can make one of my dreams come true. I was gifted by an amazing serenity and quietness that I’ve been longing to feel through this way.

My life has been painful and there’s no guarantee until when it will tear me and my mom. Behind all the stress, fightings, and difficulties, I am glad that I was able to get a break even just for a couple of hours.

I am grateful for this day. Kahit sandali lang, magiging kuntento ako sa kapayapaan na aking nararamdaman habang nasa itaas ng bundok na ito.

I took a deep breath and feel the breeze that embraces me. I silently pray that the pain hidden in my heart… because of my father’s evil doing and my mom’s suffering will end soon.

I didn’t have any wish but to have a life that is away from my own father. Hindi lang para sa akin ang hiling na ito, kundi, para rin kay mommy—na alam kong nahihirapan na sa sitwasyon namin.

Hindi ko akalain na sa lugar ko pa na ito napiling tahimik na humiling.

If the stars hear our wishes, I am sure the nature hears us too. Nararamdaman ko ’yon sa paraan kung paano marahan na yumakap sa akin ang hangin. Tila ba hinihilom nito ang sugat sa aking puso, pinapakalma nito ang isip ko, at binibigyan ako ng tamang lakas para maging matatag.

My lips formed a smile when I suddenly felt the peace in my head and the relief in my chest.

The majestic mountain, the greens around me, the ray of sunlight in my skin, the wind that caresses me, and the scent of nature, felt like a silent and magical process of healing I didn’t know I needed so much.

“Hmm…” a heavy arms enveloped me from behind.

“Ang ganda dito! Nakakamangha,” sabi ko, nangingiti. “Thank you for being with me here.”

Niyakap ko ang mga braso ni Keith. I rested the back of my head on his chest. I feel his warmth. It’s soothing.

“Let’s tick the box. We’ll do the surfing soon.”

Lalo akong natuwa dahil sa sinabi niya.

I am inspired to wake up every morning because of him. Palagi kong hinihintay ang pagkikita namin kinaumagahan. Even though we have a constant communication when he’s back home, still, I am excited to see him and talk to him in person. He makes me excited and thrilled.

“Lulubusin ko na ang pagkakataon na mapuntahan ang mga lugar na gusto ko habang nandito ka. I want to be with you with those places.”

He planted a kiss on my shoulder. “We’ll make memories together…”

“Memories to reminisce one day when we missed each other.”

We both don’t know until when our relationship will last. I hope it will last longer than we expected. Sana hindi makialam si daddy sa aming dalawa. I need to make a wish about it too!

“I’m gonna make a wish…” I muttered and closed my eyes.

I hope my evil father won’t meddle with my relationship with Keith. I hope he won’t hurt him or take him away from me. Sana sa kabila ng kasamaan niya, malaman niya na labis akong masasaktan kung sasaktan niya rin ang lalaking gusto ko. Sana kahit gaano pa kadilim ang budhi niya, huwag na huwag siyang gumawa ng paraan para lang paghiwalayan kami ni Keith. Hindi ko pa siya mahal, pero sigurado akong mawawasak ang puso ko kapag nawala siya sa akin.

Humugot ako ng hangin sa aking dibdib.

I suddenly felt emotional and worried because of my fear towards my evil father. Kung kaya niyang saktan ang sariling pamilya niya, kayang-kaya niya rin saktan ang hindi niya kadugo. I am scared for Keith’s life.

Niyakap ko lalo ang mga braso niya ng dumagan sa akin ang takot para sa kanya.

“Did your wish scare you? What was it?” he asked quietly.

Was he a mind reader? He knew that I am scared. He felt it.

“I have two wishes. It was for me and for my mom. Then the second one is for you.”

Umihip muli ang hangin na sinabayan ng malakas na pintig ng aking puso.

“What is it? I wanna know, Taliyah.”

“Uh, I just wish that leech won’t meddle with us. I don’t want him to hurt you. I hope he won’t take you away from me.”

His lips were on my neck now. He’s smelling and kissing my skin there. I am sweating yet he’s still kissing me. Mabango pa naman siguro ako kahit pinagpawisan na.

“My heart will be broken if he takes you away from me. I am afraid of him. I know he can do more evil things. Kahit pa anak niya ako, kayang-kaya niya akong saktan.”

“Connect me to your brother. I wanna know his plans. So I can help him take you and your mom away from your father.”

I nodded my head attentively.

Though, I trust my brother, I think, it’s also helpful if he allows Keith to be part of the escape plan. I’d be comfortable having him as one of our guards.

“Okay. I will call my brother when we get home later.”

“I’ll give you something later,” he whispered.

“A surprise? A gift?” I can’t help my excitement.

He laughed shortly against my neck. The tingling sensation is making me bite my bottom lip.

“A leech…”

Ngumuso ako. “I won’t accept it. Itatapon ko ’yon sa bukid!”

He embraced me tightly and kissed my cheek.

Ilang sandali rin kaming magkayakap habang tahimik na pinagmamasdan ang natural na ganda ng kalikasan sa aming harapan. Pareho naming dinama ang kapayapaan na alam naming pansamantala lang na maghahari sa amin.

Ang daan pabalik ay mas mabilis at madali. Nasa kalagitnaan na kami ng paglalakad nang biglang sumulpot sa tabi namin ang grupo ng mga babae. They are recording a video of the surrounding but I am not comfortable. Dahil baka mahagip kami ng camera.

“Bawal ’yan!” sita ng isang bantay ko.

“Bakit? Nag video lang naman po kami.”

“Have it checked.” Keith ordered darkly then hold my hand.

“Patingin ng video!” naglahad ng kamay ang masungit na tauhan ni Mossad.

Dumating pa ang dalawang malalaking katawan na lalaki at pinalibutan ang grupo. Naninindak sila. Nakita ko na napa-atras ang mga babae.

“Let’s go, Taliyah. Let the devils deal with that.”

Nilagpasan na namin sila at nauna nang maglakad.

We hopped in inside the Lexus and Keith drove away. We didn’t wait for the devils. I think, he already informed them that we are going to his house.

We stopped in a local restaurant to order our late lunch for to go. Mas gusto kong kumain sa bukid para makapagpahinga na pagkatapos.

Nang makarating kami sa bahay niya, naligo muna ako.

This time, I’m wearing a white spaghetti strap top and red ruffle shorts. It’s comfy and I use to wear this only when I’m in my bedroom. My mom didn’t allow me to wear a very short clothes inside our house because we are surrounded by men.

Keith’s scanned my body when I got out from the shower. The towel is wrapped around my head. Madilim agad ang mukha niya na tila ba galit sa suot ko. Ang selan niya kapag nakikita niya na lantad ang balat ko. Pero gustung-gusto niya naman kapag nakahubad ako.

I sat next to him on that long bamboo chair. Marami-rami na rin kaming karanasan sa upuan na ito. Nadadagdagan kapag narito ako sa bahay niya.

“I like these clothes, very comfy. I can’t wear these sa bahay because I didn’t want the devils see me like this. Sa kwarto ko lang ’to nasusuot at dito sa ’yo…” I explained even if I didn’t need to.

“Good. You shouldn’t walk around there with that clothes without wearing a fucking bra.”

I blushed. I intentionally didn’t wear a bra because I want my breasts to breath. Isa pa, huhubarin niya rin naman mamaya. So, what’s the use of wearing it?

“That’s why let me wear these here. Unless, you are thinking that I’m seducing you which I am not.”

“You don’t have to,” he glanced on my body again and his gaze stopped on my breasts.

Bumuntonghininga siya. Mukha na naman siyang problemado dahil lang wala akong suot na bra.

Ako lang yata ang nagbibigay sa kanya ng ganitong sakit ng ulo. Well, he better get use to it. I’m gonna wear whatever I want. I even have my slip dress with me that I will use in bed later. Baka kapag iyon ang nakita niya, hindi lang ulo niya ang sumakit.

“I wanna take a nap after we eat. Are you gonna lay beside me?”

I hugged his arm. It stopping him from dismantling his gun above the center table.

Nasanay agad ako sa kanya na may dala siyang baril palagi. Hindi na ’yon bago sa paningin ko dahil armado ang mga nagbabantay sa amin. But what made him special having a gun is… it made him look devilishly and dangerously hot.

“Yeah, as long as you won’t bother me…” he sounds cold but I could see the sly smile on his lips.

I gasped in disbelief. I wiggled his arm, making it pressed agains my boobs.

“I’m not gonna bother you. Baka ikaw ’yon? Your hand can’t stop from caressing me.”

“Don’t you like it?” tinignan niya ako, may paghahamon sa mga mata niya.

Sinimangutan ko siya. “I like it. I like cuddling.”

“I know.”

“And kissing…” I grinned.

Suplado niya akong tinignan at ibinalik ang atensyon sa baril para tapusin ang ginagawa niya roon. Hindi ko pinakawalan ang braso niya. Nagugustuhan ko ang pagdikit nito sa aking dibdib.

“Can we stay in one room in Siargao? I’ll be happy to stay with you.”

“And?”

“And what? Can’t I stay with my boyfriend, huh?”

Keith finished with his gun and gave his full attention to me. Kalmado niya akong tinitignan pero naghuhumerentado ang pa rin ang puso ko. Hindi ako makapaniwala na boyfriend ko siya. Parang kailan lang kami nagkakilala. Tapos ngayon, may relasyon na kami.

I believed that our paths are really meant to crossed and our fates are destined to meet.

“Kung ayaw mo, bahala ka. I don’t think you can sleep peacefully at night knowing that your girlfriend is alone in her room. What if enemies came? Should I scream? Dapat malapit ang room mo sa ’kin!”

Sumandal siya sa inuupuan namin at pumikit. I guess, I’m really making him stressed.

“Keith, don’t be too hard on yourself. We can stay in one room without having sex…” sabi ko pa para lang kumbinsihin siya.

Humalakhak siya. The chair vibrated.

Ano kaya ang iniisip niya? Wala namang nakakatawa sa sinabi ko, ah? At totoo naman ’yon. Puwede kaming matulog na magkatabi sa kama ng hindi nagtatalik!

“Ikaw lang ang nag-iisip niyan, Taliyah. I don’t even think of sex when we go to Siargao. I thought about surfing.”

Parang may apoy na sumaboy sa aking mukha.

Niyakap ko siya sa sobrang kahihiyan ko. I buried my face on his chest. Naramdaman ko ang braso niya na pumulupot sa akin.

“Then, let’s book a one room for us.” I urged him.

“Without sex, right?”

I whined against his chest. Parang ako talaga ang may mas gusto na magtalik kami!

“If you can resist me, sure.”

“I’ll book a room with two beds…”

Sumimangot ako. Hindi ko alam kung nagbibiro ba siya o sinusubukan niya lang ako.

“Whatever you say. Don’t sleep next to me then!”

Yinakap niya ako lalo at hinalikan ang ibabaw ng ulo ko.

“Just messing with you. I’ll book us a suite.”

Napangiti ako. See? He can’t resist me.

My heart is beating so wild as I watched Keith pulled up his t-shirt from his nape, exposing his upper body to my eyes. He has an impressive packs of muscles on his abdomen. I am silently drooling to touch that part of his body. His black shorts revealed his strong hairy legs.

When he crawled on the bed and positioned himself above me, I giggled.

“I thought we are going to take a nap?” I raised my eyebrow.

“We will,” he planted a sweet kiss on my lips. “But I want these…” he then palmed my breasts.

Kinagat ko ang labi ko. Naramdaman ko agad ang kasabikan ko sa kanya at ang kaluguran na ipaparanas niya ulit sa akin.

He slid his palm under my top and expertly found my nipple. He plays with it using his fingers until it hardened. Napadaing agad ako.

I wrapped my arms around his nape and deepened our kiss. My heart didn’t stop from racing. Sa kanya lang talaga tumitibok ng ganito ang puso ko. I wonder if he also feel the same way? I’d be happy to know if our feelings are mutual.

The kiss didn’t really last long. His lips travel to my neck while he’s helping me removing my top.

I stroked his head when he has started kissing every part of my chest. My legs are wide enough for his massive body to fit. Kapag nasa ganitong posisyon siya, kailangan ko talagang ibuka ang mga hita ko para lang sa kanya. Ang laki kasi ng katawan niya at matangkad siya, nanliliit ako.

“Keith…” I called his name when his mouth found my nipple.

Habang sinisipsip niya ang isa, pinaglalaruan naman ng mga daliri niya ang kabila. He’s literally sucking my tit as if he’s getting some milk from it. The tingling sensation made me moan. Hindi ko mapigilan ang dumaing sa sarap.

“Aahhh…”

Hindi lang ang mukha ko ang mainit, pati na rin ang buong katawan ko. Labis kong nagugustuhan ang kaluguran na ipinakilala niya sa akin. I can’t imagine myself doing this with other man, only with him.

Keith looked at me behind his lashes while sucking my nipple. Namumungay ang mga mata niya na tiyak na sumasalamin ng akin. At habang pinapanood ko siyang gawin ito, hinahaplos ko ang panga niya. Nalulunod ako sa makamundong pagnanasa. Nahihibang ako sa ginagawa niya sa katawan ko.

“Mmm… n-not too hard…” I whispered softly.

He alternately sucked my nipples. Minsan, marahan, pero madalas ay tila siya nanggigigil kaya talagang tinatagalan niya ang pagsipsip. Napapaawang ang labi ko sa nakakakiliting sensasyon. I bite my lips and closed my eyes when he sucked harder.

My heart is pounding loud. I think, he could hear my heartbeat.

I can already see the red marks on the skin of my boobs because of his sucking and the way he massages them. Halata sa kanya na nasasarapan din siya sa ginagawa niya da dibdib ko.

I feel my arousal is burning. I am wet and I suddenly wanted him to give his attention on my inner thighs this time.

“Keith…” I arched my hips so I can feel his body on my flesh.

Mabilis niyang natanto ang nais ko. He removed down my ruffle shorts together with my panty. He then touched my wetness with his long fingers. I whimpered in so much delight.

“Do you want my tongue here?” His voice was throaty, then he rubs my folds.

My body is aching for his touch. Damn, I am on it again. I wanted him so bad that it hurts.

“Yes, please…” I was driven by blazing pleasure.

Muli siyang umangat para lang halikan ako sa labi.

“Ang sarap kainin…” napapaos na bulong niya sa akin habang hinihimod ng daliri niya ang gitna ng aking pagkababae.

Tumataas ang mga balahibo ko sa katawan. Nasasabik ako ng husto sa kanya.

“Eat me, please, Keith…” I begged then I kissed his lips.

Saglit lang ang halikan namin dahil talagang naaagaw ang atensyon ko sa ginagawa niya sa pagitan ng aking mga hita.

“Ride above my face,” he commanded hotly.

“Huh?”

Umalis siya sa ibabaw ko at humiga sa tabi ko. He carefully grabbed my hand to guide me to the position that he wants for us.

I was biting my lips when I realized what I am about to do. Hinawakan niya ang bewang ko at sinigurado na nasa mukha niya ang pagkababae ko.

My eyes shut closed when I felt his tongue teasing my pussy.

He urges me to move… he’s giving me the power to dominate the bed this time. I have started to grind my hips and rub myself against his hot tongue.

“Ooohhh…this… feels… mmm… so good… Keith…” my moans echoed around us.

21 ~ BABY GIRL

CHAPTER TWENTY ONE

I am clouded by pleasure again.

With Keith, I don’t only have freedom and security, he also gives me satisfaction and relaxation through our physical touch.

I am starting to realize how much I like being this close to him, being this possessive and a clingy girlfriend. Mabuti nalang at mukhang gusto niya rin naman na palagi akong nakadikit sa kanya.

Simula noong may namagitan sa amin, napansin ko ang kagustuhan na mapalapit sa kanya lalo. Mahirap para sa akin sa tuwing kailangan niya nang umuwi sa bahay niya ng hindi ako kasama. Ako lang siguro ang nakakaramdam ng ganito.

He seems fine leaving without me. It seems that it didn’t really matter to him or it wasn’t a big deal for him.

But for me, I found it difficult to be away from him. Kahit na alam ko naman na makikita ko siya kinabukasan at maririnig ko naman ang boses niya kapag tinawagan ko siya sa oras na makauwi siya.

This feeling is worrisome. Paano kung maghiwalay kami bigla? Ano nalang ang mararamdaman ko? Paano kung maglaho siya na parang bula? Paano ko panghahawakan ang aking sarili at ang sakit na mararamdaman ko sa oras na mangyari ang ganito sa amin?

I can’t really focus on what Keith was saying because of the things running in my head right now.

“… this is a burner phone. Untraceable and undetected.”

He’s showing me a cheap cellphone. We are sitting on the same bamboo long chair. Nakayakap ako sa gilid niya, habang tahimik na nakikinig at nag-iisip ng ibang bagay.

“What’s the use of it? Why do I need to have that?”

“You can contact me through this. This is what we are going to use for a more secure communication.”

“How about my phone? Hindi ba secure itong gamit ko ngayon?”

“I’m not sure. But, don’t worry about it. I just want us to have another way how to communicate with each other.”

He planted a kiss on my head. Then he caresses my arm that wrapping around him. Gustung-gusto ko kapag ganitong malambing niya akong hinahalikan.

“So, that burner phone is like our secret communication device?”

“Yes.”

I nodded my head as I finally understood what he’s talking about.

I think, he’s just trying to be very careful. Kung anoman ang sabihin niya, susundin ko lalo at alam kong para rin naman sa akin o sa aming kapakanan.

“Should I hide it from the devils?”

“You better. They shouldn’t know about this.”

“Okay…” I sighed when I suddenly realized that I just wanted to stay with him longer as possible.

It’s already ten in the evening. Hindi pa ako inaantok dahil alas singko na ako nagising kaninang hapon. I was tired.

After I ride above his face, he took me. He was also the reason why I woke up because I felt him kissing my breasts. That was his sensual way to wake me up.

Kaya rin siguro ganito ako naging malapit sa kanya dahil matindi ang pagtatalik na ginagawa namin. Hindi ko makalimutan. Kahit na nasa amin ako at nasa kwarto ko, naiisip ko pa rin. Our heated and erotic memoreis lingered in my mind.

The burner cellphone is his surprise for me. Akala ko bibigyan niya ako ng laruan na linta. He’s kinda playful and tricky some times. He likes to surprise me and I like surprises.

“Let’s call my brother…” I said and grabbed my phone above the center table.

I dialed kuya’s number and waited for him to answer it.

“Hello? Kuya?”

“Yes? Why did you call? Is everything okay?” His baritone from the other line is icy.

“I’m not home. I am with Keith. Remember?”

“Your boyfriend?”

“Yes. Anyway, I call because I want to connect him with you.”

“For what?” He remained cold.

I can imagine his gloomy handsome face.

“About the escape. Mommy and I told him about it. Keith is willing to help us.”

“I’ll think about it…”

“Kuya, he’s trustworthy. I’d like him to be part of our escape plan. I am comfortable being with him. Mommy knows him too.”

“Rasha, let me think about all of these first. I’ll call you once I have my answer.”

I dramatically sighed. “Okay. Maghihintay ako ng sagot mo. I missed you though…”

“Missed you too and mom. See you soon.”

“See you soon, kuya! Ciao.”

I ended the line. Then I put back my cellphone on the table.

“He will call me once he decided to make you be part of the escape. Gano’n talaga siya. He doesn’t trust easily. Pinag-iisipan niya pa muna ang mga bagay bago siya mag desisyon.”

“I understand,” he kissed my forehead again. “Is it your bed time? It’s eleven already.”

It sounded like he’s treating me like a kid!

Umirap ako. I usually go to bed at eleven, but right now, I am not yet sleepy. I still want to talk to him while I am hugging him. Wala kaming ibang gagawin dito kundi ang mag usap. Dahil wala naman siyang TV. Halatang wala siyang pakialam sa gano’n na klaseng bagay. Masyado siyang abala sa buhay niya para maupo at manood ng kung anu-ano.

“Let’s talk. I wanna get to know you more…”

“Let me get some beer first.”

“Gusto ko rin…”

Tumango siya. Hindi niya ako pinagbabawalan uminom kapag magkasama kami. We only drink moderately though. Hindi ko pa nararanasan ang malasing. Siguro gano’n din siya. He’s too disciplined to get drunk and wasted.

Pinakawalan ko si Keith para makakuha siya ng beer. I then walked towards the terrace. May dalawang upuan doon at isang lamesa. Pinagtabi ko ang mga upuan para malapit pa rin ako sa kanya mamaya.

Madilim ang bukid. Ang hangin sa gabi ay malamig kumpara sa buong maghapon. Mas ramdam din ang katahimikan at kapayapaan sa gitna ng karimlan.

May mga maliliit na bituin na nagkikislapan sa maitim na kulay ng langit–tila simbolo ang mga ito na kahit gaano pa ka-dilim ang buhay, palaging may munting liwanag na masisisilayan.

Ang dilaw na buwan bagamat nakakamanghang pagmasdan ngunit halata rito ang pag iisa—animo nalulungkot ito kahit na napapaligiran ng mga tala.

I inhale the breeze and closed my eyes.

Madilim, halos nakakabulag, ngunit hindi ko maitanggi ang kapayapaan na humahaplos sa akin. Natanto ko na minsan, kahit simple lang ang pamumuhay, doon pa natin natatagpuan ang totoong kapanatagan sa puso’t isipan.

I think, I would like to live like this. Simple, payapa, at malaya. Hindi ko kailangan ng magarbong bahay, mamahalin na sasakyan, at mga mata na nakapaligid sa akin. Gusto ko na ang ganitong klaseng buhay; tahimik, payak, at malayo sa mga kaaway.

“I like this place. It’s peaceful…” I said when Keith sat next to me.

“This is just temporary.”

He opened the bottle of beer and poured my glass.

“Kapag umalis kami, aalis ka na rin dito?”

“Oo. Walang dahilan na manatili pa ako dito kung malayo ka sa akin.”

Kahit na payapa itong tinitirahan niya, handa niyang iwan para sa akin.

“Anong ibig mong sabihin?”

“Taliyah, I will live near you. Unless, you want a long distance relationship?”

Umiling agad ako.

I don’t like that kind of set up. Paano ko gugustuhin ang malayo sa kanya? Kung ang paraan nang pagpapakita ko ng damdamin ko ay ang dumikit sa kanya palagi?

“Ayoko ng malayo ka sa ’kin. I want to always see you.”

Kahit na ang tanging tanglaw lang namin ay ang ilaw galing sa loob ng bahay, nakikita ko pa rin kung gaano siya kagandang lalaki.

His side view profile is very attractive. Habang sumisimsim siya sa bote ng beer, at ang mga mata ay nasa kawalan sa aming harapan, kaya niya pa rin akong halinahin. Nakakamangha ang pagiging misteryoso niya sa gitna ng kaunting ilaw.

He’s wearing a black cotton t-shirt. Kapag ginagalaw niya ang mga kamay niya, nababanat ang muscles niya sa braso. Gusto ko na naman tuloy yakapin ang malaking braso niya.

“I have the complete address of my uncle’s rest house in Quezon. I will give it to you. So you can find new house to live near there. Or I can request to my mom to give you a room. Because I still want you to be my bodyguard.”

Gagawin ko talaga ang lahat ng paraan para lang mapalapit kami sa isa’t isa at hindi magkalayo palagi.

“You need to convince your brother or your uncle to trust me. Kung sila ang nag plano nang pag alis niyo, sila rin ang may responsibilidad ng kaligtasan niyo. The security will come from them.”

He’s right. Ang galing niya. Naisip niya pa talaga ito. Ang bilis niyang makaisip ng paraan para lang makasama namin siya.

“Sasabihin ko kay mommy na kausapin si uncle. My mom likes you, I know it. Ayaw niyang mabahiran ka ng kasamaan kasama ang mga tauhan ni Mossad.”

His lips curled in dismay. Like a handsome monster secretly planning to devour me to make me feel that a man like him is… flawed.

“Taliyah, I am no saint. But I appreciate your mom’s opinion of me. I wanna be part of the escape plan because I want to make sure you’ll be safe.”

Sumilay agad ang ngiti sa labi ko.

Alam ko na naman ito pero sa tuwing naririnig ko ito galing sa kanya, kinıkilıg ako. This is normal, right? To feel like this?

Palagi niya sa akin ipinaparamdam na ang pangunahing prayoridad niya ay ang kaligtasan ko. Alam kong totoo siya sa mga sinasabi niya at ipinapakita sa akin. Hindi ko siya kailanman pinagdudahan ng tunay na intensyon niya sa akin. I know from my heart that he’s genuine.

“Thank you. I’ll do my best for you to be part of the escape. Kapag hindi sila pumayag, itakas mo nalang ako.” I grinned cutely at him.

Narinig ko ang maiksing tawa niya sa naaaliw na paraan.

Nagkatinginan kami. Sumusugat talaga ang ngiti sa labi ko. Pero nawala iyon nang mapansin ko ang pamumungay ng kanyang mga mata. Tila ba may iniisip siyang gagawin ngunit hindi niya gustong sabihin sa akin.

“What? Itatakas mo talaga ako kapag nagkataon?”

“Where do you wanna live?” Instead, he asked.

I squinted my eyes while holding his gaze.

Bigla kong naisip kung saan ko gustong tumira. Puwede rin sa bukid na kagaya nitong tinitirahan niya. But I’d only live here if I will be with him.

Siguradong maboboring ako sa ganitong klaseng tirahan kung ako lang mag isa. Dapat kasama siya. O kung hindi man kami araw-araw na magkita, I think I’d rather live in the province than in a busy City.

I would like to live in an island—a house by the beach. That’s a perfect place for me to stay or for us.

“Mmm, I wanna live by the beach…” I couldn’t hide the excitement on my voice.

Nakatitig pa rin siya sa akin. Hindi ko kailanman siguro malalaman kung ano ang tumatakbo sa isip niya. I am just assuming that he might be thinking of our future together and he wants to know my dream location to live.

Kung ganito nga ang iniisip niya, I’ll be honest to him so he has ideas about my dream house or place to live.

“I like bukid but I am scared with frogs jumping around. And what if there are leeches too? It’s possible. So, I think, the best place to live for me is by the beach. Gusto ko sa malayo at liblib na lugar. I don’t want enemies to find me or us.”

Maingat siyang tumango na tila ba isinasa-isip niya ang mga sinasabi ko.

“What else does my baby wants and dreams?” malambing na tanong niya.

Maingat na hinaplos niya ang aking pisngi gamit ang likod ng ka yang palad. Nakakatunaw.

I had to take another deep breath because my heart is going wild. He’s staring at me and his amber eyes are too mesmerizing. Nahuhulog na yata ako ng hindi ko namamalayan.

“I don’t have a lot of dreams. I just want to be away from my father, the devils, and the enemies. That’s all for now. And for the future, I already told you where I wanna live. I’d like to go fishing in the ocean, that’s where we are going to get our ulam. Even though I have allergies with shrimps and squids, I can still eat other kind of seafoods and fish. So I’ll be fine. And… hmm, what else? Oh, while you are away, I’ll be bored for sure. So, you need to gift me a baby girl…” I dreamily said.

His laughter echoed in the middle of a dark and silent surrounding. It sounded so soothing, I can’t help but to smile more because I made him laugh. I feel proud of myself.

Alam ko kung bakit siya natawa. Dahil sa huling hiling ko.

“A baby girl…” he’s nodding his head as if he’s considering to give me that special gift.

Gustong kong mapatili habang iniisip ko na baka nga totohanin niya ang hiling kong ito. My heart is thumping against my chest and I cannot stop it. Ang kasiyahan ko ay nahalinhinan ng kaba.

I turned my body to fully face him. Ngunit hindi iyon sapat sa kanya. Keith hold my hand and guided me to sit on his lap. Hinalikan niya agad ang aking pisngi habang tahimik niyang ipinasok ang palad niya sa ilalim ng aking damit. His warm callous palm stay on my stomach.

Hindi ko mapigilan ang pag-iinit ng mukha ko. Sa palagay ko ay nararamdaman niya ’yon dahil nasa pisngi ko ang labi niya.

I can picture myself having a big stomach already. Alam kong masyado pang maaga para isipin ang tungkol dito, pero excited ako na mangyari ito balang araw. I wanna carry his child. That will be my biggest dream and my greatest gift in this lifetime—to have our baby together.

“Yes, a baby girl. Para kapag wala ka, may kausap ako at hindi mag isa…” malamyos na saad ko.

“Saan naman ako magpupunta sa palagay mo?”

“Trabaho?”

He shook his head. “Before we settle down, I will make sure that everything we need is readily provided. So I do not need to be away from you just to work.”

Are we really discussing now about our future together? Umabot na talaga rito ang topic namin?

“You can be a fisherman so you don’t need to be away from us…” I teased.

“That would be cool. Then if I won’t be able to sell the squids and shrimps, I’d bring home.”

Bumungisngis ako. Sa dami pa talaga ng hindi niya maibebenta, ang mga hindi ko pa talaga kinakain ang i-uuwi niya.

“Don’t sell all the fish. Para may ulam tayo pag uwi mo.”

Kitang-kita ko ang kislap ng pagka-aliw sa magaganda niyang mga mata habang nakatingin siya sa akin.

“Do you like that simple life?”

I nodded my head. I like a life with him–whether it was simple or not. As long as I am with him, I’ll be happy and fine.

Alam kong hindi siya mayaman. If he has savings, maybe it won’t be enough to support me my lavish lifestyle. I didn’t want to pressure him to give me a luxurious life because I don’t need it. Siya ang gusto ko at kahit anong klaseng pamumuhay pa ang kaya niyang ibigay sa akin—hanggat malayo ako sa panganib, handa akong sumama sa kanya at bumuo ng sarili naming tahanan.

He’s a man of his words, he valued his principles, and he would rather live in a small house, than sell his dignity for a better way of living. I am certain that even if he’s not rich, he will work hard just to give me a comfortable and peaceful life. That’s what mattered to me the most.

“I don’t care about luxury anymore, Keith. I’d like a simple way of living for as long as I am with you.”

There was a glimpse of gentleness on his amber eyes as he stares at me.

“What if I die?” He asked quietly.

I felt the sharp pang violently hit my heart and it was painful enough to make me terrified.

“Would you find another man to be with you everyday?”

Isinantabi ko ang sakit na nananalaytay sa aking puso. Gusto kong malaman niya na kahit hindi ko pa alam ang mangyayari sa hinaharap namin, hinding-hindi ko siya ipagpapalit sa iba.

Pakiramdam ko, mahal ko na siya. Dahil ganito nalang katindi ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. Ni hindi ko na makita ang sarili ko sa hinaharap na iba ang kasama. Siya lang talaga.

“I don’t want you to die…” that words still escaped my lips. “I’ll be wrecked when you die.”

Tinitigan niya ako. Kung kanina marahan ang emosyon sa mga mata niya, ngayon ay hindi na. Tila may bahid ng lungkot doon na nahalinhinan ng panghihinayang na hindi ko kayang eksaktong ilarawan.

“And I will never find another man to replace you.” I whispered painfully.

Siya kaya? Makakaya niya kaya na palitan ako kung ako naman ang mamatay o mawala sa piling niya?

“What if I was the one who died, would you replace me?”

His face darkened. Hindi niya nagustuhan ang sinabi ko. Ibinalik ko lang naman sa kanya ang tanong niya. He seems affected and I’m satisfied to know that he is.

“Our daughter wouldn’t like that idea. I don’t think she would want her mommy to be replaced by another woman…” his voice is husky, but I can hear bitterness too.

“But what if she asked you to find a woman to be her mommy? Would you do it?”

Tinitigan niya ako lalo. Sumasakit na ang dibdib ko sa sobrang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko kanina pa.

“I will feel sorry for her…” he caresses my stomach. “I will never replace her mommy.”

I suppressed a smile. I am contented with the way he answered me. I will hold on to that. Pareho kami ng desisyon at nararamdaman. Gano’n din ang gagawin ko.

Hinaplos ko ang panga niya. His stubbles tickled my soft palm.

“I will feel sorry for her too…” I muttered sadly. “… because I will never replace her daddy.”

Namungay muli ang mga mata niya. Nakakahalina talaga siya.

I leaned closer until my lips touched his. Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata at dinama ang madamdamin na paglalapat ng aming mga labi.

22 ~ UNFAZED

CHAPTER TWENTY TWO

We are video calling Uncle Harris inside my mother’s bedroom. We didn’t want the devils to know that we are talking to my uncle because it would raise suspicion.

Uncle said we need to be very discreet when we communicate with him or my brother because my evil father has a lot of eyes everywhere.

“Tracia, we don’t want a bloody escape. We want it secretly done. Do you have somebody there who you think you can trust to cooperate with us?”

Uncle Harris is a retired Military Admiral in the Philippine Navy. He also served in the United States of America during his prime. Like my grandfather and kuya Rashid.

I raised my hand. “Uncle, we have a man here who we can trust. He’s willing to help us.”

I am referring about Keith.

“One of Mossad’s men?”

“No. He’s a newly hired personal bodyguard of Rasha. He didn’t come from Mossad’s men. He came from nowhere. Boyfriend nitong pamangkin mo.” Mommy explained.

Nanantili akong kalmado kahit pa gusto ko ng mapangiti. Sinabi pa talaga ni mommy iyon. Puwede naman na hindi. Pero makakatulong din naman na alam ni Uncle na boyfriend ko si Keith para pagkatiwalaan niya.

“Send me his name. I need to make sure he won’t betray us.”

“He won’t, Uncle. I already introduced him to kuya and they will meet to talk about the plan. Also, he was in the Army. He’s on our side.”

Tumango-tango si Uncle Harris na tila ba medyo nawala ang pagdududa nang sinabi kong nasa Army dati si Keith. Alam niya na ang mga sundalo ay may matibay na paninindigan at hindi basta-bastang mababaling prinsipyo. Hindi sila gano’n kadali na mabili ng salapi at maakit ng madilim na impluwensya.

“It’s good to know that he was in the Army.”

“He’s a different breed, Harris. He came here, unarmed, and was threatened by Ramesh, but he remained unfazed. Kahit na dinala siya ng mga tauhan sa isang silid, pagbalik niya, bodyguard na siya bigla ni Rasha. I didn’t know what Keith said to the leader of the devils for him to get his place under Mossad’s security.”

“He’s a highly-trained soldier. He mastered the art of survival. He knows how to negotiate when things go south, and he’s fully aware on what he should do during war to escape death…” Uncle Harris meaningfully said.

While my uncle was saying these words, I can’t help but to admire more Keith. And you know what’s the best part? That disciplined and highly-trained soldier is my boyfriend!

“I’m impressed.” Mommy smirked.

“Connect me to your soldier there. I wanna set a meeting with him.”

Namimilog ang mga mata ko sa galak. Nakapagdesisyon na agad niya na isasama namin si Keith.

Pagkatapos naming makausap si Uncle, gumaan ang loob namin ni mommy. Itutuloy na talaga ang pagtakas namin. We need to be ready. Wala pa kaming ideya kung paano ito gagawin o sa paanong paraan. Sigurado naman kami na sasabihin sa amin kapag planado na ang lahat.

I grabbed my burner phone to text Keith. He’s just outside though.

“What’s that?” Mommy asked with curiosity.

I grinned at her. “This? Keith gave this to me. This is a burner phone, mom. Ang sabi niya, ito ang gamitin namin komunikasyon para mas secure ang pag-uusap namin.”

Tumaas ang kilay niya. The bruises on her skin faded. Hindi rin kasi madalas umuuwi si daddy kaya walang away na nagaganap sa pagitan nila. Sana nga ay hindi na ’yon umuwi. Tahimik kami rito kapag wala ang lider ng mga demonyo. Walang nananakit sa amin.

“Sabihin mo sa kanya bigyan niya rin ako. I need that one to communicate with your uncle and brother.”

Mabilis akong tumango.

“Hindi dapat malaman ng mga devil na mayro’n po tayo nito. They might torture Keith and we both don’t want that to happen.”

“I understand. Text him. Tell him about this meeting when you two are alone. Not here.”

“Okay, mom. I’ll see you sa dinner.”

“Yes. Do not invite Keith. Baka mapansin nila Mossad na masyado tayong mabait sa kanya at baka pag initan pa siya. Siguradong nagsusumbong ang mga ’yan sa amo nila.”

Lumabas ako ng kwarto ni mommy at bumalik sa silid ko. I spend my time mostly inside my bedroom while texting with Keith. Kapag may pupuntahan lang ako napipilitang lumabas at makita ang mga armadong lalaki na nakapalibot sa buong kabahayan.

Rasha: Let’s go somewhere tomorrow. I wanna tell you something.

Habang naghihintay sa reply ni Keith, kinuha ko ang keepall bag ko at nilagay doon ang mga damit. Hindi pa kami sinasabihan na maghanda na, pero gusto kong masigurado na handa talaga ako.

Keith: I wanna take you to the shooting range. Would you like to try it?

My lips parted. It’s not my thing, but because he asked me, I’ll do it with him.

Rasha: Sure! Will you teach me how to use a gun?

Keith: I’d like to.

Nangingiti ako. Hindi ko naiisip ang mga ganitong klaseng activities na maaaring kailanganin ko isang araw. Hindi ako takot sa baril dahil maaga akong namulat na nakakakita ng gano’n. Pero ngayon, bigla kong gustong maranasan kung paano gumamit niyon.

Rasha: Teach me. I’d like to learn how to shoot.

Keith: You should. It will help you.

Rasha: I’m gonna shoot the enemies!

I saw my other phone lit up and saw him calling there. I raised my eyebrow. Sinagot ko ’yon.

“Hey?”

“I’m leaving soon. Do you wanna say goodbye before I leave?”

Ngumuso ako. Kung makatanong siya, para bang hindi kami nag usap tungkol sa shooting range bukas.

“Okay. Meet me at the pool area in five minutes.”

“Alright.”

I ended the line and wear my jacket. I tied my long hair and sprayed a perfume before I leave my bedroom.

Nakita ko si Keith na nakatayo sa harap ng swimming pool. Nakatalikod siya sa akin. Ang tanging liwanag niya lang ay ang mga munting ilaw sa ilalim ng asul na tubig.

He’s wearing a black t-shirt and pants, paired with a combat shoes. His both hands slid inside his pockets. Palagi ko siyang ilalarawan bilang misteryosong tao. There’s really something on his air that told me he’s not just a typical man who walks around to blend in—maybe there’s something more about his personality that I won’t be ready to know.

Mabagal akong naglakad palapit sa kanya. Hindi ko intensyon na istorbohin kung anoman ang mga iniisip niya. Pero isang hakbang ko palang, nilingon niya na agad ako na animo’y alam na alam niya na malapit lang sa kanya ang aking presenya.

I gave him a sweet small smile and waved my fingers cutely.

Keith turned his body and waited for me to come closer. Nasa bulsa niya pa rin ang kanyang mga kamay. Matikas ang tindig niya at halatang hindi matitibag ng basta-basta lang. Halata rin sa katawan niya na kargado siya ng ehersisyo at mga pagsasanay tungkol sa pisikal na lakas.

Napapanguso ako sa matinding kalabog ng puso ko.

Hanggang sa mga sandaling ito, ganito pa rin ang epekto niya sa akin. Hindi pa rin sanay ang puso ko kapag nariyan siya. Naghuhumerentado pa rin sa kaba at pananabik sa kanya.

Hindi ko na napigilan ang mabagal na paglalakad. Malalaki ang mga hakbang ko at halos mapatakbo pa para lang makalapit na sa kanya. When he opened his arms to welcome me, I get more excited.

I sighed in relief when I finally surrounded by his arms.

“You always looked excited to see me…” he noticed it before he kissed my forehead.

Nakakahiya dahil napansin niya ang ganitong klaseng damdamin ko. Nandito lang naman siya sa paligid ko buong araw, pero nasasabik pa rin ako na mayakap siya at magkaroon kami ng oras na para sa aming dalawa lang.

I rested my face on his hard chest. My thin arms were wrapping his waist.

“Are you not excited to see me and hug me?”

“I think, I just know how to handle my feelings.”

“I’m clingy, you know that. Gusto kong palaging nakadikit sa ’yo. It was like a torture seeing you all day around here but I cannot just run towards you to hug and kiss you.”

“Mmm-mm…” he cockily uttered.

“Hindi na ako makapaghintay na umalis—”

“Taliyah, we shouldn’t talk about it here,” he cut me off. “We’ll do it tomorrow.”

I shrugged my shoulders.

I understand that he just wants to make sure that nobody would know the escape plan. Right, I need to be careful too. Hindi namin puwedeng pag usapan ang tungkol sa bagay na ito lalo at nandito kami sa bahay, napapalibutan ng mga tao na siguradong tapat sa aking ama.

“Anong oras tayo aalis bukas?”

“I’ll let you know when I get home.”

“Where will it be?”

“In Norzagaray.”

“Oh, it’s near. I can have a sleepover again in your house.”

“You can. I have a surprise for you tomorrow.”

Ngumiti ako at tiningala siya. Alam niya talaga kung paano ako pasabikin at pasayahin.

“Baka linta na talaga ang ibibigay mo sa akin, ah? I’ve been waiting for it.” I playfully wiggled my eyebrows while looking up on him.

Ibinaba niya ang mukha niya sa akin para lang halikan ang tungki ng ilong ko. Tapos umakyat ang labi niya sa aking noo.

“I changed my mind. I won’t give you that. It will only remind you of your father.”

He’s right. He better not. Leech is our code name for my evil father, so whenever I see leech, I think of the devil too.

Nagpaalam si Keith sa akin kalaunan. Bumalik ako sa aking silid at ipinagpatuloy ang pag-i-impake. I also look for clothes to wear tomorrow for the shooting range.

Makalipas ang mahabang sandali, nakita kong umilaw ang burner phone. Keith’s is calling me. I answered it immediately.

“Hi, are you home?”

“Yes. Text me using your regular phone about the shooting range tomorrow.”

“Huh?”

“I will send you what message to text me. Okay?”

“Okay…”

“I’ll call you later…”

“Sige. I’m preparing my clothes for tomorrow.”

“Just wear comfortable t-shirt and pants.”

“I’ll see what I can get in my closet. I’ll let you know.”

Tinapos namin ang tawag. Wala pang ilang minuto, may mensahe na agad siya.

Keith: I wanna go to a shooting range tomorrow. Do you have any recommendations?

That’s the text I need to copy and send to him using my regular cellphone. I am not sure what he’s up to. But I started to realize that we don’t really talk about shooting range using my cellphone. Unti-unti ko na rin nararamdaman na ang conversation namin ay monitored nila Mossad. I have no privacy at all. Pati sa cellphone ko, may access sila.

Rasha: I wanna go to a shooting range tomorrow. Do you have any recommendations?

Nakatayo ako sa harap ng malaking cabinet habang tinitignan ang mga damit ko roon.

Keith: Yes. Why do you wanna go to a shooting range?

I smirked. We are pretending all these. Dapat ay galingan ko para hindi mag suspetsa sila Mossad sa pinag-uusapan namin.

Rasha: Because I’d like to learn how to shoot. Puwede mo ba akong dalhin sa shooting range na alam mo? I want to do it tomorrow.

I grabbed the dark brown v-neck fitted blouse and bring it to my bed. Next, I need a pants.

Keith: I can take you there. I’ll call Mossad for approval.

Umikot ang mga mata ko.

Rasha: I don’t need his approval. Just take me tomorrow. Pick me up at 7AM sharp. Okay?“

Keith: Okay.

I chose the high-waisted denim skinny jeans. I will just pair it with my platform ankle boots.

Hinanda ko ang mga susuotin ko bukas at mga kailangang dalhin.

I have some clothes in Keith’s house so I don’t need to bring extra. Pero naisip ko rin na puwede kong dalhin ang ibang damit ko sa bahay niya na magagamit ko kapag umalis na kami. Siguro naman hindi maghihinala sila Mossad na nagdadala ako ng mga damit? At kung magtanong siya, wala dapat siyang pakialam. But I need to make a believable excuse just in case that devil asked me.

Alas sais palang nakahanda na ako. I have my backpack with me where I put some of my clothes. Keith is on his way.

“Morning, mom…” I kissed my mom on the cheek.

She’s sitting at the open cabana while having her morning tea. She’s still on her maroon silk robe.

“Morning, dear. Where are you going?”

“We will go to a shooting range. Keith will teach me how to shoot.”

Umangat ang mga kilay niya.

“Well, you better do that kind of activities. You may need to use gun one day.”

“It’s for my protection and self-defense. I’m glad he suggested this.”

“He probably vision that you may need it.”

Mabuti nang handa ako. Nakakakaba na baka nga kailanganin ko ang baril isang araw pero dapat akong maging matapang. I need to protect myself. Hindi lang dapat ako aasa kay Keith o kay kuya. Dapat ay maasahan ko rin ang sarili ko.

Mommy scanned my body.

“Hindi ka kaya niyan sungitan ni Keith sa suot mo? Halata pa naman na istrikto at maselan siya sa paraan kung paano ka manamit.”

Tinignan ko ang sarili ko. My brown blouse is fitted enough that it hugs my curves and my breasts. My skinny jeans emphasized my small waist and the wide of my hips. Kaya lang, the cut of my top is v-neck. I can see my cleavage.

“He has no choice. This is the only blouse I think will work for the shooting range. Kapag nababahala siya sa damit ko, pinapahiram niya naman po ako ng t-shirt niya.”

“Your breasts get bigger and defined. Hindi ka ba buntis?”

Uminit ang mukha ko sa tanong ni mommy.

“Mommy! I am not pregnant! And my breasts are fine. Na-emphasize lang dahil fitted ang suot ko.”

Tumawa siya. Siguro ay inaasar niya lang ako.

“But you know, sweetheart, even if our family is in chaos right now, I don’t mind you being pregnant. I missed seeing kids playing around the house.”

Lumakas ang pintig ng puso ko.

Though, having a baby girl is one of my dreams and Keith knew that, still, I don’t think I’m ready to get pregnant soon. That’s why I consistently taking my pills. Sinisigurado ko talaga na hindi ko nakakalimutan. Lalo at aktibo kami ni Keith sa kama. Mabilis niya lang akong mabubuntis kung gugustuhin namin pareho.

“I think, it’s too early to get pregnant. But… I’d like to have a baby girl one day.” I flashed a shy smile.

“Okay lang ba kay Keith?”

I am not sure? He didn’t say it directly. But he’s probably considering having our child together? Or I am just assuming?

“Hindi pa po talaga namin ito napag-uusapan. But he’s the one who encourage me to take pills. Dahil mabubuntis niya ako kung hindi…”

I can’t believe I am very open about this thing towards my mother. I guess, wala na akong maitatago pa sa kanya. Siya lang din kasi ang mapagsasabihan ko ng mga ganito. Komportable ako sa kanya dahil alam kong susuportahan niya ako… kami ni Keith.

“So, he’s not yet ready for that kind of responsibility? I see. He looked like a man who carefully plan things out before he makes his moves.”

Maybe, she’s right. Keith is not yet ready for another big responsibility with me. Naiintindihan ko siya. Bago lang kaming nagkakilala at magulo pa ang buhay ko. Hindi dapat namin unahin ang pagkakaroon ng anak. Malaking responsibilidad ito at hindi basta-basta natatakasan kapag napagod na.

Sinalubong ko si Keith nang maglakad siya papunta sa amin ni mommy. He’s sporting an army green training t-shirt, cargo pants, and tactical boots. Nahahalina ako sa matikas na katawan niya at matibay na tindig. He’s gloomy early in the morning, but still, he looked so fine and he’s mine.

He angled his head to kiss my lips even we are in front of my mom. His palm rested on my waist.

“Morning, pretty,” he whispered against my lips.

Kinagat ko ang labi ko pagkatapos niya akong halikan. Naririnig ko na naman ang malakas na pintig ng puso ko.

“Good morning, handsome.” I smiled sweetly.

Umangat ang sulok ng labi niya sa mapaglarong paraan.

“Good morning, Madame.” He greeted my mom.

“Morning, Keith. Where are you taking my daughter?”

Niyakap ko siya kahit nasa harap kami ni mommy. I rested my face on his chest. Nanatili ang palad niya sa aking bewang.

“We are going to a shooting range in Norzagaray.”

“After that, ibabalik mo ba ang anak ko dito?”

I rolled my eyes. “Mommy, I’m gonna stay with Keith tonight. You must visit his house, you’d like the bukid there.”

Hinarap ko ang aking ina para anyayahan siya sa bahay ni Keith. She can visit us tonight and have dinner there. Para naman hindi siya mag isa rito mamaya.

“It’s peaceful there. Fresh air. Why don’t you have dinner with us?”

“I’ll think about it. I’ll let you know my decision later.”

“You can bring Imelda with you so she can help us. Dinner with us. Please? And bring wine too.”

She let out a soft laugh. “Okay. Okay. I’ll see you there tonight.”

I clapped my hands. “Alright. But mommy, his apartment is not big, okay? Bawal ang maarte.”

Umikot ang mga mata niya na para bang natatawa dahil sa akin pa talaga nanggaling ang huling salita.

“Rasha, if you can bear staying in Keith’s house, mas kakayanin ko. Di hamak na mas maarte ka kaysa sa akin.”

Bumungisngis ako.

I then looked up to Keith who’s just waiting for me to give my attention to him.

“Maarte ba ako?” I pouted a bit.

May panunukso at pagka-aliw sa mga mata niya. Hinaplos niya ang bewang ko, kaya tuluyan kong nakagat ang aking labi. Mainit ang haplos niya na animo may ipinapahiwatig sa akin.

“A little bit,” he planted a gentle kiss on my lips again. “But you’re my baby, so I don’t mind.”

It made me blush. Even if he finds me maarte, he doesn’t mind. Because, damn, I am his baby.

23 ~ SHOOTING RANGE

CHAPTER TWENTY THREE

Nobody is following us. Himala at walang mga umaaligid sa amin ngayon. Keith is driving the Lexus and I am sitting at the front passenger. Binagtas namin ang daan papunta sa bahay niya ngunit nilagpasan namin ang likuan kung saan siya nakatira.

“Is it safe to talk now?” I asked.

Sumipat siya sa side mirror.

“About what?”

We should’ve a code for the escape plan, right? Para masigurado namin na ligtas nga na pag usapan ito sa loob ng sasakyan. What if Mossad planted a recording device here and we just didn’t know?

“Never mind. I’ll talk about it later.” I changed my mind quickly.

Hindi naman siya nagpilit. Hinayaan niya lang ako sa desisyon ko. Pati sa ganitong bagay, binibigyan niya pa rin ako ng kalayaan. Hindi siya namimilit.

Dinaanan namin ang liblib na lugar. Napapaligiran ng mga puno at halatang tago ang lokasyon ng shooting range. Ipinasok niya ang sasakyan sa malaking gate. Napapaligiran din ng matataas na pader ang paligid bilang pagpapakita na pribado nga talaga iyon.

Keith stopped the car at the parking lot. Hindi pa kami nakakababa ay napansin ko na ang pamilyar na pigura ng isang lalaki na naghihintay sa amin.

Standing in front of a black modern container served as office, I saw my brother looking darkly at our direction. He’s sporting an all black tactical clothing—almost similar to Keith, while he’s crossing his arms on his chest.

“Is that my brother? Oh, my!” I excitedly opened the door and ran towards him.

I didn’t expect that I will see kuya Rashid today! It has been a long while since the last time I saw him!

“Kuya! You’re here!” niyakap ko siya. “I’m surprise to see you!”

“It’s good to see you again, sweetie.” He hugs me back.

“Are you going to do the shooting too?”

He chuckled. “This is my place.”

Lumayo ako sa kanya at namamangha siyang pinagmasdan.

He’s stoic. His aura is threatening. If he was not my bother, I’d be intimidated. He is very tall too with wide body frame. Kargado rin siya sa training at work out. Halata ’yon sa muscles niya sa mga braso at sa lapad ng kanyang dibdib. His hair is longer than before. He has beards too that added rouge to his demeanor. He is obviously willing to go against somebody who he thinks wasn’t good for his welfare.

“Talaga? You’re close to me! You should’ve invited me here.”

“I tried too. But the motherfuckers wouldn’t allow me to see you.”

Tumingin siya sa aking likuran kaya gano’n din ang ginawa ko.

Keith is walking towards us. When he gets near us, they shook their hands in a firm, quick and manly way.

I am amazed because they seemed to know each other already. Akala ko magkikita palang sila? Did they meet without my knowledge?

“Is this your first meet or you guys have met before?”

Nagkatinginan pa sila kung sino sa kanila ang sasagot sa simpleng tanong ko.

“We have a mutual associates…” Keith trailed. “I just discovered it.”

The side of my brother’s lips curved up arrogantly.

“Oh, I have something to tell. Can we do it first? Then I’ll do the shooting range? This is important.”

“Let’s get in.” My brother motioned us inside the container house.

The cold air-conditioned made me winced. Malinis doon at kaunti lang ang gamit. I sat on his swivel chair. Inunahan ko na si kuya. Kailangan ko silang makausap dalawa.

“Do you like something to drink?” Kuya Rashid asked.

“I want coffee with milk.”

“I’m good.” Keith muttered.

Kuya went to his coffee maker on the other side.

“So, we talked to Uncle Harris,” I started with our little meeting. “Ang sabi namin ni mommy, Keith wants to help us about the escape. I told him he was in the army, I think, that’s what made Uncle decided to get Keith’s contact.”

“I’ll contact him. Give me his number.”

“Okay,” I get my phone on my bag and write down Uncle’s number.

Kuya came back to us to give me my coffee with milk. Naupo siya sa tapat na upuan ni Keith. Kaharap ko na sila pareho. They are both tall and massive. They can make me look tiny even if I am also tall for a girl’s height.

“Have you guys talked about the escape plan? I wanna be involved.”

They both growled and it sounded like they didn’t agree to my idea.

I raised my brow. “Why not? I am good in keeping secrets!”

“This is not just a simple escape, Rasha. This is risky and dangerous.” Kuya explained.

“I am fully aware of that. Paano ko malalaman kung kailan tayo aalis? Kung hindi niyo sasabihin sa akin ang mga plano?”

“We can tell you some details. Pero hindi lahat.” Malamig ang boses ni Keith.

I think, I’d be contented with that? Ayoko lang na wala akong ideya sa mangyayari sa amin ni mommy.

“May nabuo na ba kayong plano?” I am curious how they made a plan about this.

“Yeah. We are just preparing some things before we move.”

“I readied my clothes and put it inside the duffel bag.” I informed them proudly.

My brother frowned. While Keith massages the bridge of his nose.

Pareho silang dismayado at hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit!

“Where did you place your duffel bag?”

“In my closet.”

“Call Imelda. Tell her to remove your clothes from that duffel bag and put them back in your closet.” Utos ni kuya sa akin at hindi siya nagbibiro.

“Why would I do that?” Tanong ko at kinuha ang cellphone ko.

“It may raise suspicion, Rasha. Hindi mo alam na pumapasok sa kwarto mo ang mga gagong ’yon.”

Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko sa pagkabahala. Is this really possible? Talagang wala na akong privacy sa sarili naming bahay!

“What? Pati ba naman ang kwarto ko papasukin nila?!”

“I know, it’s worrisome. Now, call Imelda. Tell her to move calmly.”

I dialed Imelda’s number. Ilang sandali pa ay sumagot na siya.

“Put your speaker on,” my brother commanded and I obeyed.

“Hello, Ma’am?”

“Hi, where are you?” I am nervous for some reason.

“Nandito sa silid mo. Naglilinis…”

“Can you get my duffel bag? It’s inside my closet. Remove all the clothes and put them back in the cabinet.”

“Okay, Ma’am. Sandali… titignan ko ang duffel bag kung nandito…”

“What do you mean, nandito? Nandiyan lang ’yan.” I can feel my heart is racing.

“Ah, pumasok kasi kanina dito ang mga tauhan ni Mossad.”

I gasped. It was confirmed! Talagang pati ang kwarto ko ay pinasok na ng mga demonyo. Wala silang patawad!

Nag-aalala na tinignan ko ang dalawang lalaki sa aking harap. Parehong madilim ang itsura nila.

“Nandiyan pa ba?”

“Itong Louis Vuitton na itim ba, Ma’am?”

“Yes! The black one.”

“Nandito. Nandito rin ang mga damit mo…”

Nakahinga ako ng maluwag.

“Ask her to check what’s inside…” Keith muttered calmly.

“Uh, Imelda, pwede bang patingin kung anu-ano pa ang nasa loob?”

“They might planted a tracker inside. We need to make sure.” Kuya said.

“Sige, Ma’am… mga damit at underwear lang naman ito… tapos… may kulay itim na maliit na box… parang lagayan ng singsing…”

Kumunot ang noo ako. Wala akong nilagay na kahit anong alahas sa duffel bag ko.

“Tell her to open the box… carefully…” my brother ordered.

“Imelda, pakibuksan ang box. Paki ingatan…”

“Okay po…”

We anticipated Imelda’s news about what she will find out.

“Walang alahas. Pero may… ano ba ’to?”

“Don’t touch it!” I panic a bit.

“Switch to a video call. Let us see.”

I switched the call to the video call. Nakaharap si Imelda sa duffel bag ko na nakapatong sa kama.

“Patingin po ng nasa box…”

Kaagad niya namang itinutok ang camera doon.

“It’s a tracker…” Keith’s whispered when he saw it too.

“Leave your bag like that. Do not remove the clothes and the tracker.” Sabi ni Kuya.

“Imelda, pakibalik na ang mga damit ko sa duffel bag pati ’yang box.”

“Sige, Ma’am.”

“Do not tell to anyone what you see, okay?”

“Walang problema. Sekreto lang po ito.”

“Salamat.”

I ended the video call and took a deep breath.

“What if they planted a CCTV camera inside my room, huh? They will see me naked!” I whined.

It gave me goosebumps. Those devils and the leader are really heartless!

“Have Keith checked it.”

Ang aga pa para maging problemado ako ng ganito.

“And they are probably have an access to my cellphone. I can feel it!”

“They have…” Keith admitted it.

Napasinghap ako. Sa tunog niya, tila ba matagal niya ng alam ito at hindi niya lang sinasabi sa akin!

“And you didn’t tell me?”

“I had to make sure that they really have access to you and to your mom’s cellphone.”

“Thanks for telling me. I’ll be more careful with my words when I text you then.”

Kaya pala kapag nagpapalitan kami ng mensahe, masyado siyang marangal. May pagdududa na pala siya simula palang na baka monitored nga nila Mossad ang cellphone ko.

“My mom wants a burner phone too. Can you give her one?”

“So, you have one?” Kuya arched his thick brow in a mocking way.

I grinned at him. “Yes. Binigyan niya ako. I’ll text you using that.”

Pagkatapos namin mag-usap, lumabas na kami at naglakad papunta sa field kung saan ginagawa ang shooting. May mga lalaki sa paligid. They jog and do physical activities.

Inilatag nila ang mga baril sa mahabang lamesa. Dalawa pa yata silang magtuturo sa akin.

“By the way, kuya, mommy will have dinner with us at Keith’s house. Would you like to join us? Mommy misses you.”

“I can have time. Sure.”

“Cool! I told mom to bring a bottle of wine.”

“Yeah? Wear this…” hinagis niya sa akin ang itim na t-shirt at sakto ’yon sa ulo ko.

Nakasimangot na hinablot ko ’yon.

What with these men, huh?

Kanina, sa tuwing dadaan ang tingin ni Keith sa blouse ko, halata ang tahimik na iritasyon sa kanya. Kahit hindi siya nagsasalita, ramdam ko ang pagtutol niya. Pero si kuya, malakas ang loob niya dahil kapatid niya ako.

“Let me see your shooting stance,” Keith commanded. “The one I taught you before we left.”

I tied the hem of the t-shirt because it’s too big on me.

Ngumiti ako sa kanya. Naalala ko ang sandaling pagtuturo niya sa akin sa harap ni mommy tungkol sa tamang posisyon kapag bumabaril.

“This?” I bent my knees a bit and straightened my arms as if I am holding a gun.

Nakahalukipkip sila pareho. Parang mga heneral sa militar na hindi magpapagapi.

The muscles on their arms protruded against the sleeves of their tactical t-shirt. The veins on their forearms corded dangerously. They stood straight with heavy and terrorizing aura.

I rolled my eyes on them. I don’t even flinched. Because I knew them. I love both of them in different ways.

“Teach me na, Keith. I don’t like kuya to teach me. He’s gonna be too strict.”

“Exactly. I don’t like to teach babies…” kuya mocked.

“Kapag nagka-girlfriend ka, hindi mo siya tuturuan?”

“It depends if she wants.”

“You won’t call her baby?” I raise my eyebrow at him with a devilish grin on my lips.

Hindi ko alam kung may girlfriend ba siya o wala. He never introduced women to us even before. Lalo siguro ngayon dahil magulo pa ang pamilya namin. He’d rather keep his girl for sure.

Keith motions me to come closer to him. We are standing in front of the long table where the guns are lined up. He picked one and teaches me the proper way how to use it. He also passionately explaining every part and what’s the function of each.

“… this is the magazine where you put the bullets… this is how you do it…” he’s showing me what to do.

I am attentive and at the same time amazed by him. Alam ko na hindi ito ang tamang oras para mabighani sa kanya ngunit hindi ko mapigilan. His long fingers and the rough veins at the back of his hands were very attractive.

“Next time, I’ll teach you how to assemble a gun and how to dismantled it…”

I nodded my head, I am very interested about whatever he’s saying. Seryoso siya at medyo istrikto. Tumitingin siya sa akin para lang masigurado niya na nakikinig nga ako sa kanya.

“Here, let’s do it together.” He gave me a gun.

I winced because I didn’t know it was that heavy!

“Oh, ang bigat pala nito…”

“What do you call on this part?” Using his finger he pointed the one near the trigger.

“Trigger guard…” I answered.

“How ’bout this?”

“Uh, the hammer.”

“And this?”

“The grip.”

“What is the function of this?” Keith patted the rear sight with his forefinger.

I shouldn’t be distracted with his fingers, but damn, help me, I can imagine him using that to please me!

“Taliyah…” there was a warning on his tone as if he knew what’s in my mind.

I pursed my lips. Naramdaman ko ang pagsaboy ng munting apoy sa aking pisngi. I cleared my throat.

“The rear sight helps me align the gun to the target. It served as a guide on the front sight.” I said.

“Very good.” He praised me.

“Impressive.” Kuya muttered and clapped his hands a bit to show his appreciation.

I am proud of myself. Their praises boosted my confidence. It made me want to learn more how to shoot. They inspired me so much to continue doing this.

Keith turned his body to face me. Marahan ang titig niya sa akin. Kanina niya pa ako hindi hinahawakan. At dahil abala kami, nakaligtaan ko rin na hawakan siya.

“Give me a good luck kiss.” I puckered my lips.

I heard my brother groaned disgustedly. He’s so bitter. Wala siguro siyang girlfriend kaya wala siyang kahalikan!

Hinawakan ako ni Keith sa bewang at yumukod para lang dampian ng halik ang labi ko.

Sumugat muli ang ngiti sa akin. Kahit na tila nag-aapoy ang mukha ko, walang mapaglagyan ang animo mga nagliliparang paru-paro sa tiyan ko.

Kinuha ni Keith sa lamesa ang mga gear na kailangan ko.

“This is electronic earmuffs…” he trails and put that one on my ears. “It protects you from the noise coming from the gunfire.”

He also gave me gloves and a safety glasses for my eyes. He made sure I am all set before we walked towards the shooting range.

There are three cardboards target on the other side. The distance from me is around 15 meters.

My heart is racing. I am very thrilled right now. But they advised me to stay calmed as possible so I can properly hit the target.

“Take a deep breath…” I heard Keith beside me.

I closed my eyes and took a very deep breath. Unti-unti kong pinakawalan ’yon upang mas madama ang pagkalma ko kahit papano.

Inayos niya ang mga braso ko at marahan na tinapik dahil siguro masyadong matigas ang mga ’yon dahil sa higpit ng hawak ko sa baril.

“Focus! Aim your target!” His voice was loud so that I can hear him properly because I am already wearing earmuffs.

I aligned my eyesight to the rear sight and saw the first target I want to shoot. Malakas ang pintig ng puso ko. Hindi ako natatakot o kinakabahan. Mas lamang ang excitement sa akin.

I slowly pulled the trigger and when the bullet came out, the impact of it was felt on my shoulder. Gano’n ito kalakas at kabigat!

Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko sa sobrang tuwa nang tumumba ang cardboard! Napatingin ako kay Keith at kay kuya.

“I hit the target! Did you guys see it? Look!” I exclaimed in joy and satisfaction.

Parang gusto ko na agad silang yakapin ngunit pinigil ko ang sarili ko. I wanted to hit the second target.

This time, Keith stood behind me. He then guided my arms to a more proper position to hit the target perfectly. I can feel the warmth from his body. He made me anxious and thrilled all at once.

“Hit when you’re ready.” I heard his sexy baritone.

His minty breath caressed my bare nape. My hair is in high bun. He has easy access to that part of me. I tried my best not to be distracted by our close physical contact.

“Kuya! Take a photo of us, please!” I requested to my brother.

Kuya Rashid leered at me but he pulled out his cellphone from his pocket and obeyed me.

I aimed the second target. And when I made sure that I can hit it, I pulled the trigger and it was bullseye!

I groaned with the impact again. Ngunit hindi na ’yon gano’n kabigat dahil nasasalo ni Keith habang hawak niya ang mga braso ko. I put down the gun and faced him.

I tiptoed and kissed his lips with joy in me. I am too happy and satisfied with my performance. He deserved a kiss because he taught me.

“That’s impressive for a first timer…” his lips curled arrogantly.

“I’m happy!”

“I can see…” he caresses my waist. “We’ll do this often, okay?”

Maligaya akong tumango. From now on, this will be added on my bucket list.

24 ~ REWARD

CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR

We are having dinner at the terrace of Keith’s apartment. Kasama namin sina mommy at kuya.

Simple lang ang hapunan namin na niluto ni Imelda. We have rice, beef shank soup, grilled fish, and chop suey. The side dishes are lumpiang Shanghai and buttered potatoes.

Tahimik ang buong paligid, mahangin, at payapa. Masaya ako dahil kasama ko ang mga taong mahalaga sa akin sa gabing ito. Natanto ko talaga na hindi ko kailangan ng magarbong bahay, dahil kahit nasa payak kaming tahanan, basta kasama ko sila, magiging kuntento ako sa buhay.

Nagpasalamat ako kay Keith dahil dinala niya ako sa shooting range. And the surprise the he talked about is my brother.

Sumaya talaga ako at nasorpresa nang makita ko si kuya Rashid kanina. I missed him. We only talked through phone calls. But now, I can talk to him personally. Kahit buong araw ko siyang makasama, ayos na sa akin ito. Alam ko naman na kapag naka-alis na kami mula sa mga kamay ng demonyo, malaya na kaming magkikita palagi.

“We will meet Uncle Harris this week to finalize the plan.” My brother muttered then sipped on his glass of wine.

Dalawang bote ng wine ang dinala ni mommy noong malaman niya na kasama namin si kuya. Emosyonal siya kanina noong nagkita sila.

“Are you gonna be with Keith?”

“Yes, mom.”

I glanced at my boyfriend. He changed his clothes. He’s now sporting a navy blue t-shirt while the sleeves are folded. Kaya mas nadepina ang muscles niya sa braso. Tahimik siya at magsasalita lang kapag tinatanong. Natutuwa akong makita siya na komportable at desiplinado sa harap ng aking munting pamilya.

“Good. Harris wants to meet him.”

Nagpatuloy ako sa pagkain. I picked one lumpia. Magana ako ngayon dahil kumpleto ang araw ko.

“Do you want one? Masarap ’to…” nilapit ko ang lumpia sa bibig ni Keith.

He opened his mouth and took a bite.

I cleared my throat. My gesture was normal. We used to feed each other. But right now, we are in front of my mom and my brother, I hope they won’t find me too cheesy and clingy.

“I always asked Imelda to make me lumpiang Shanghai. Right, mom?”

“Yes. You like that lumpia.”

Sumimsim si Keith sa wine. Alam kong hindi naman siya mayaman, pero kung hindi mo siya kilala ng husto, mapagkakamalan mong baka mayaman siya dahil kahit ang pagsimsim at paghawak niya sa glass ay tama at may dating.

“Rasha, you’re embarrassing us. Stop ogling at your boyfriend…” Mommy hissed quietly beside me.

Sumimangot ako. Hindi naman ako nahihiya na ganito ko siya titigan. Palagi akong nabibighani sa kanya.

Keith glanced at me. He raised his luscious eyebrow.

“What do you want?” he asked me politely.

I blushed. I don’t want anything from him right now. I just love staring at him because he’s hypnotizing me for being this so fine and mysterious.

“Nothing.” I smiled sweetly.

Tumingin ako sa madilim na bukid sa harapan namin. After the dark green field is the rough road where I can see our cars that parked there. Dalawa ang dala nila mommy at isa naman kay kuya. Tapos ’yong Lexus na dala namin ni Keith. Naroon ang mga bantay at naghihintay.

“Paano ang bahay na ito kapag umalis na kami? Dito ka pa rin ba titira?” Tanong ni mommy.

“Hindi na po. I will live near where Rasha is.”

“That will be in Quezon.”

“Mommy, by the way, pwede bang bodyguard ko pa rin si Keith? So he can stay with us.” I butt in.

She rolled her eyes at me. Mabilis niya lang akong mabasa. Alam niya rin kasi na gusto kong makasama ang boyfriend ko. I am confident she will support me with this. I don’t wanna be away from Keith.

“Ask him that. I am not the one who will decide about it.”

I faced Keith again. Hinawakan ko ang matigas na braso niya para lang maipakita ang aking sinseridad.

“Do you still want to be my bodyguard?” Malamyos ang tono ko.

Sumipol ang hangin sa paligid. Ang katahimikan ay medyo naabala ng malakas na ihip.

“That’s my job.”

Nanliliit ang mga mata niya ngunit hindi mapigilan ang pagguhit ng ngiti sa labi.

“So, who’s gonna pay you? I don’t have money. I am jobless.” How disappointing, right?

Narinig ko ang marahan na tawa ni kuya.

Nilingon ko ang kapatid ko. Alam ko na! Siya nalang ang pagbabayarin ko.

“Kuya, ikaw nalang ang magbayad kay Keith.”

“I don’t think your boyfriend needs that lil money just to guard you.” He smirked.

“Hindi siya mayaman. Kailangan niya ng pera.”

Humalakhak si kuya na para bang nakakatawa ang mga sinabi ko. Pero totoo naman ’yon.

My boyfriend is not rich but I don’t care. I like him so much. I will continue liking him because I know that he’s living by his principles and values.

“Don’t worry about it. My service is free for you.” Keith winked playfully at me before he sipped on his glass of wine without breaking our eye contact.

Lumiwanag ang mukha ko. I think, I need to behave, right? Hindi ko dapat siya bigyan ng sakit ng ulo dahil libre lang ang pagbabantay niya sa akin.

“Thank you! I’ll behave.”

“I hope so…” he cockily muttered.

Inirapan ko siya. Tapos ay sumimsim na rin sa wine ko.

“Since your service is free, I think, we should give you a free accommodation. How’s that?” Mom smiled warmly.

“That would be a big help, Madame. Thank you.”

Napapabuntonghininga ako dahil sobrang siyang marangal kapag kausap niya si mommy. Even if we are already in a relationship, he still addresses my mother in a proper way… he’s aware that he’s our employee and he must treat the wife of his boss professionally and respectfully.

Ayokong maging amo niya si Mossad at ang aking ama. Kailangan ko siyang ilayo sa kadiliman. Hindi siya karapat-dapat na masakop ng kasamaan.

Kuya assured us that he will update us regarding the meeting with Uncle Harris. Tumatakbo na ang mga plano at kaunting panahon nalang, mabubuo na ang mga ’yon. At makakalaya na rin kami ni mommy sa bahay na tila nagsilbing kulungan namin.

Hinatid namin silang dalawa hanggang sa makasakay sila sa kanilang mga sasakyan. Hindi ko alam kung may maiiwan na mga tauhan para magbantay buong gabi. Dahil ang natira nalang doon ay ang Lexus na ginagamit namin ni Keith.

“Mom, text me when you’re home. Kuya, you too.” I waved at them after I kissed their cheeks.

Nang mawala na sila sa paningin namin, naglakad kami pabalik sa bahay. Keith was holding my hand and the flashlight because it’s dark. Makipot din ang daan at madudulas ako kung hindi mag-i-ingat.

I removed all my clothes when we are inside the shower room. I am giggling because Keith is tickling my waist while I am removing my dress. Nauna ako sa kanya sa ilalim ng tubig.

Napapikit ako sa lamig ng tubig at sa yakap niya sa akin galing sa likod. We are both naked. He’s palming my round breasts.

“You made me happy today. You deserve a happy ending tonight.” I naughtily said.

Bumaba ang labi niya sa aking leeg. Hinahalik-halikan niya ako sa parteng iyon papunta sa balikat.

“What will be my reward? Hmm?” His husky voice was seducing me.

I grabbed the shower gel.

“Give me your hands. Open them…”

He obeyed me like he had no choice. I put some of the gel on his palm and let him spread it all over my breasts and stomach. His callous palms against my soft skin is electrifying. Kung may anong pumipintig sa akin. Hindi ko matukoy kung saan banda ba talaga.

“Your reward? I wanna give you a head—”

He cut me off with a low growl against my neck.

“I can do it, Keith! I know, you’re huge. But I’ll do my best to… put that soldier inside my mouth.”

Kakayanin ko kahit mahirapan ako. Gusto ko siyang paluguran. Masyado niya akong pinasaya ngayong araw. Karapat-dapat siyang handugan ng klase ng biyaya na maliligayahan siya.

His one hand traveled in between my thighs. Wala sa sarili na ibinuka ko ang mga hita ko para lang bigyan siya ng laya na hawakan ako sa maselan na bahagi ng aking katawan.

“How ’bout my tongue here?” Napapaos ang boses niya habang humahagod ang daliri niya sa aking pagkababae.

I swallowed hard.

Alam niya siguro na hindi ko siya kayang tanggihan tungkol sa ligayang ito? Wala pa man, bumabaliktad na ang kalamnan ko dahil sa pananabik.

“Right here?”

I turned my head a bit to see him. Nagkatinginan kami bago niya hinalikan ang labi ko.

“Here and bed…”

Mayroon pa sa kama mamaya!

“But I wanna give you a head…” malambing na sambit ko.

“I’ll let you later…”

“Why not here?”

“Hmm…”

Tululyan ko na siyang hinarap. Kailangan kong kunin ang pagkakataon na ito habang napapaisip siya. Baka mamaya ay magbago ang desisyon niya at hindi niya na naman ako payagan na paluguran siya sa gano’n na klaseng paraan.

I caresses his chest with my palm. Namumungay ang mga mata ko habang pinagmamasdan ko siya. I want to seduce him until he allowed me to give him a reward that he deserves for making me happy.

“Palagi nalang ikaw ang nagpapaligaya sa akin. Baka magsawa ka na niyan…”

His palms on the sides of my waist made me bite the inside of my cheek.

“Hindi ako magsasawa sa ’yo,” he leaned until his lips reached my ear.

“Kakainin kita… kahit araw-araw pa…” senswal na bulong niya, dahilan kung bakit uminit ang aking leeg.

“Paano kapag mag asawa na tayo? Are you gonna devour me? Every day?” I arched my brow.

“Uh-huh.”

“Ayoko! Magsasawa ka sa akin agad kapag ganyan.”

He chuckled huskily.

“Your sweetness is like my tranquilizer. I need you everyday.”

Napalunok ulit ako dahil sa biglaang paghuhumerentado ng puso ko.

Halos mailarawan ko na ang magiging buhay namin kung sakaling maging mag asawa nga kami. Araw-araw yatang mangangalay ang mga hita ko dahil sa asawa ko.

Hinaplos ko ang malapad na dibdib ni Keith habang nakatingala ako sa kanya. Naaakit ako kapag ganitong malapit kami sa isa’t isa at tinititigan niya ako gamit ang mga matang nananabik din sa akin. Pero sa aming dalawa, mas magaling siyang mag kontrol. Dahil kung ako lang, palagi kong papairalin ang mainit na tawag ng laman.

Sinubukan kong ibaba ang palad ko sa tiyan niya. I stroked his abs. Kahit hindi ko tignan ang muscles niya sa parteng ito ng katawan niya, nag iinit pa rin ako. When I tried to lower down my palm and touched his happy line, he immediately grabbed my wrist to stop me.

Madrama akong umungol.

“Then, I’m not gonna allow you to devour me!” I turned my back to him and continued taking a shower.

Keith wrapped his heavy arms around my waist then thrust forward making me feel his erection poking my ass. I smirked.

“Keith… I can give you a head right now. Don’t be too hard on yourself…” I whispered seductively.

“Hmm…”

“Do I need to beg? I can kneel now in front of you.” I continued to provoke him until he succumb to my temptation.

“Kneel,” he whispered darkly behind my earlobe.

My heart was pounding. I suppress the grin on my face. Hindi niya akong kayang tanggihan! Hindi niya ako kayang tiisin!

I slowly turned around again to face him. I cupped his jaw with my hands and tiptoed to kiss his lips. Pinutol ko agad ang halikan namin dahil gusto ko na siyang paluguran. I’ve been waiting for this day. Finally, it’s happening right now.

While kneeling in front of him, I was looking up on his. Pinadaan ko ang aking labi sa kanyang tiyan. Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na akin siya. Sa akin lang. At magiging akin hanggang sa hinaharap.

His chest waved when he took a deep breath. His lips parted a bit as he watches me kissing his abdomen. I can feel his erection poking my neck already. Damn, I hope I can make him happy tonight.

“Taliyah… you’re killing me…” he was breathless.

I smiled in a seductive way. Pati marahil ang mga mata ko ay sumasalamin sa emosyon ng aking ngiti.

Inalis ko ang tingin sa kanya para bigyan ng atensyon ang isa pang matibay na sundalo na palaging nagpapaligaya sa akin. I swallowed hard at the sight of his dick right in front of my face.

He’s really erect and massive. The veins on it were sticking out as if they have been waiting for my kisses to make them calm down. Hanggang sa parteng ito ng katawan niya ay may ugat.

Napalunok ako. The pre-cum at the tip of his shaft is waiting to be licked by me.

I stroked his cock and feel it against my palm. Hindi mag tagpo ang mga daliri ko dahil talagang malaki siya. It’s raging but it’s also warm and throbbing.

I can’t imagine how painful it was for him to be erected like this. Kailangan ko na siyang pakalmahin para hindi na siya nagagalit ng ganito at baka maparusahan pa ako mamaya.

“I’m gonna lick na…” I said softly.

“Baby, just do whatever the fuck you want to do…” he’s breathless.

“This is mine…” ngumiti ako. “Sa akin lang ’to. Di ba?”

He let out a desperate breath. Ang pamumungay ng mga mata niya ay lalo lang nagpapabaliw sa akin.

“Please? Say it! No other women! Ako lang dapat!” I possessively claimed.

“Sa ’yo lang…” nahihirapan na sambit niya.

Keith raked all my hair from my nape using his one hand and gripped on them.

While I was looking at on him, I stuck out my tongue to taste his pre-cum. I closed my eyes and felt satisfied already especially when I heard him cursed sharply. I continued to lick his tip to taste him more.

Tila ako nahihibang sa klase ng kaluguran na nararamdaman ko habang pinapatunayan ko sa aking sarili na akin nga lang talaga siya. Wala nang babae na gagawa sa kanya ng ganito kundi ako lang.

“Taliyah…” he growled when I opened my mouth and claimed his massive erection.

Napapikit ako dahil para na akong mabubulunan kaagad. I gagged and tried to fully accommodate him. I wanted all of him. Hindi ako papayag na hindi ko siya maangkin ng buo.

“Tang ina…” napapaos na mura niya.

My eyes were watery already. I moved my mouth forward until I felt his tip poking my throat. I am choking but I didn’t want to stop. His heavy breathing and curses made me want to continue pleasing him through this.

Tinignan ko siya upang malaman niya na ako lang talaga ang may karapatan na magpaligaya sa kanya ng ganito. Ayokong makalimutan niya ako. Dahil sa totoo lang, hinding-hindi ko siya makakalimutan. Mangyayari lang iyon kung magka amnesia ako.

I can now feel the cold tiled floor rubbing my knees. I started to move my head forward and backwards. Wala na akong pakialam kung mabulunan man ako o lumuha. Ang nais ko lang ay ang pasayahin siya at paluguran dahil nararapat ito sa kanya.

Naririnig ko ang mga mura ni Keith habang iginagalaw ang aking ulo sa bilis na gusto niya. Nabubulunan na ako at naluluha na rin. Halos lumaki ang mga mata ko habang nasa loob ng bibig ko ang ari niya. Naglalabas-masok at dumudulas sa aking labi.

I am glad he’s guiding me because I had no idea what to do. I am willing to learn. Para sa mga susunod na magtatalik kami, magagawa ko ito sa kanya ng mas maayos.

While he’s fucking my mouth, I am looking up on him and he’s looking down on me. His chest up to his neck is red. The veins on his forearm corded while he’s moving it to guide my head.

I am very satisfied right now because I know, I get to please him like this. He deserved this pleasure so much.

“Fuck!” he cursed hotly as his thighs quivered, then he pulled out his shaft from my mouth.

I gasped when I felt his warm semen drips near my lips.

Nakatingala siya. Mariin na nakapikit. Nakaawang ang labi niya habang mabigat ang paghinga niya. He looked like a Greek Gods who was punished by a forbidden pleasure. This gratification is my reward for him.

Unti-unti akong tumayo para lang yakapin siya. Labis akong nagagalak na napaluguran ko siya sa ganitong klaseng paraan. Kung hihilingin niya ito sa akin, pagbibigyan ko siya ng walang pag aalinlangan.

Niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit na tila ba kinuha ko ang buhay niya at naibalik ko rin agad sa kanya. The beating of his heart was fast and heavy. I guess, I made it that way.

“Baby, it’s my turn,” he whispered and carried me in a bridal style which made me giggle.

25 ~ CLAIRVOYANT

CHAPTER

TWENTY

FIVE

I woke up early. Keith’s heavy arm above my stomach made me smile.

Sinulyapan ko siya sa tabi ko. He’s laying on his side and his relax breathing is comforting—I am not sure how the sounds gave me comfort. Panatag lang siguro talaga ako sa tabi niya o kaya’y kapag nasa paligid ko lang siya.

He’s still sleeping. Even when he’s asleep, suplado pa rin ang itsura niya. He’s still divinely handsome though. Ngayon na nakapikit ang kanyang mga mata, nadepina ang kapal ng pilik-mata niya. His eyelashes matched perfectly with his luscious eyebrows. His lips were red. He has divided chin and the growing stubbles added to his virility.

I carefully moved my head to kiss his forehead. I then caresses his arm that place above my abdomen. Tinignan ko ang pagdidikit ng aming balat. Mine is fair and creamy, while he has deep, warm skin tone that complimented by rich, golden hues. Even his skin color is very appealing.

Gusto ko nang bumangon. I have enough sleep even if we fell asleep late. Hindi siya pumayag na hindi makabawi sa akin kagabi. Dinala niya ako sa kama at agad na pinaghiwalay ang mga binti ko.

It took him a little bit longer to devour my femininity with his tongue. I was soaking wet last night and I came multiple times. When he was satisfied, he took me.

I am not that very sore, but I think, I am still swollen because he was like a hungry beast while his head was on my inner thighs.

I pursed my lips.

Kagabi na ang pinaka matagal na pinaluguran niya ako sa pamamagitan ng dila niya. Mabuti nalang ay wala siyang kapitbahay at walang nakakarinig ng mga ungol ko. Gano’n kami palagi kapag nandito sa bahay niya.

I carefully get up but he only pulled me closer to him. Gising na pala siya pero nakapikit pa rin ang mga mata.

“Morning handsome,” I caress his jaw.

Keith buried his face on my neck and embraced me tighter. Ayaw niya akong pakawalan.

“Are you a clingy boyfriend now?”

“No, I just wanna feel you with me…” his rough morning voice provokes something in me.

Hinaplos ko ang braso niya. Dumampi sa palad ko pati ang mga ugat niya. Gamit ang daliri ko, binaybay ko ang mga ugat niya papunta sa likod ng kanyang palad. I can’t believe myself that even his veins will captivate and seduce me.

“I like your veins…”

“Which veins?” He teases.

I blushed when I remembered the veins on his shaft!

“All your veins…”

He jolted gently to make me feel his morning erection which made me bite my bottom lip.

Patuloy ako sa pagbaybay ng mga ugat niya. I was touching even his long fingers. Malalaki ang mga daliri niya kaya kahit itong mga ito lang ang gamitin niya sa akin, nalulugod pa rin ako ng husto.

“I want a morning like this…” I can’t help but dream to have this kind of morning with him everyday.

Is it possible? I want him everyday. Ganito rin kaya ang nararamdaman niya?

“I want this too,” he whispered tenderly.

My heart raced. Our feelings are mutual and it made me dream more for our future together.

“Gusto mo rin akong makasama araw-araw?”

“Gusto…”

Kinunot ko ang aking noo para lang supilin ang ngiti sa labi ko.

“Kapag maayos na ang lahat sa pamilya ko, mas magiging madali nalang ang buhay sa akin. We can move freely too.”

Isa sa mga sagabal sa aking buhay ay ang sitwasyon ng aking pamilya. Kapag nakawala na kami sa poder ng tatay ko, magiging malaya na rin kami ni mommy.

I wish to have a normal life with Keith this time.

Wala na akong ibang pakialam pa sa yaman o anong kagarbohan. Ang gusto ko ay tahimik at malayang pamumuhay kasama ang mga taong importante sa akin. I only have three people that mattered so much to me. Hindi naman siguro kalabisan kung hilingin ko ang buhay na malayo sa kasamaan.

“Please be patient. We are making plans and anytime soon, we will leave. Okay?”

I nodded my head. I am excited for that day. Kahit pa puwedeng maging delikado ang pag alis namin, isusugal ko pa rin ang kaligtasan ko. Kaysa habang buhay na makulong sa bahay na hindi na tahanan para sa akin.

Bumangon kami ni Keith nang lumiwanag na ng tuluyan dahil sa sikat ng araw. While he’s preparing our breakfast, I am waiting at the terrace. Nakita ko ang isang babae na nangunguha ng mga gulay sa bukid. Dahil iyon lang ang bahay na naroon, tinanaw niya ako at kumaway.

“Magandang umaga, Ma’am!” She greeted joyfully.

“Good morning, po!”

Naka-jacket siya at may tela na nakapalupot sa ulo bilang proteksyon sa araw.

“Gusto niyo ba ng gulay? Marami pa dito…”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko dahil sa anyaya niya. Nakita ko na may basket siyang dala at pinupuno niya ’yon ng iba’t ibang klase ng gulay na tanim doon.

“Sige po! Kukuha lang ako ng lalagyan.”

Tumayo ako at nagpunta kay Keith sa kusina.

“There is manang outside who’s harvesting vegetables. Would you like some?”

“Sure. Gusto mo bang samahan kita?” Nilingon niya ako saglit.

He’s topless while frying eggs and sausages. The muscles on his back is making my eyebrow arched. They are firm and he’s really hot. Ganitong view ang gustong kong makita araw-araw. Talagang gaganahan ako.

Sa lamesa ay naka handa na ang fried rice, sliced fruits, and fresh juice. I grabbed one glass and sipped on it.

“Okay lang kahit hindi na. Kaya ko naman. Where is your basket?”

He pointed where the basket is. Dahil kailangan ko siyang daanan, naglakad ako papunta sa kanya sabay haplos sa likod niya.

Narinig ko ang marahan na tawa niya na tila ba nakuha niya agad ang pahiwatig sa aking haplos.

“What’s funny? I am just caressing you.” I hide my naughty face.

“Yeah?”

Tuluyan ko na siyang niyakap galing sa likod. Pumikit pa ako para lang damhin ang malaking katawan niya.

“Dito nalang ako sa ’yo…” pabirong sambit ko.

“Maliit ang bahay na ito para sa ating dalawa…”

“Ayos lang sa akin…”

“No. I will find a bigger house for us…”

I bite the inside of my cheeks. Uh, what does it mean? Are we going to live together?

“One day, we will live in one roof together…” I dreamily muttered.

“Yeah…”

Tahimik akong pumikit. My heart is thumping against his back.

He just confirmed that we are really going to live in one house. Hindi ko maiwasan isipin na kailan kaya iyon? Malapit na kaya? O maghihintay pa ako ng matagal?

Umalis ako sa likod niya at kinuha na ang basket.

Lumabas ako ng bahay at naglakad kung nasaan ang ale. Hininto niya ang ginagawa niya nang makita niya akong papalapit.

“Napaka ganda mo pala lalo sa malapitan. Kanina no’ng nakaupo ka sa terrace, para kang umiilaw. At ngayon na nasa ilalim ng sikat ng araw, nakakasilaw ka na…” Mahabang sabi niya sa magiliw na paraan.

I am wearing my A-line light blue summer dress with a bow tie straps. My hair is in half ponytails. I don’t have anything on my face but the sunscreen I put as part of my morning routine.

“Salamat po.” I smiled warmly.

“At may dimple ka pa! Lalo kang gumaganda kapag ngumingiti!”

I pursed my lips because she praises me so much.

“Tiyak na mahal na mahal ka ng asawa mo, Ma’am. Ganyan ba naman ang imahe na makikita niya araw-araw, baka ang pag alis sa tabi mo ay pahirapan pa sa kanya.”

Kumunot ang noo ko.

Ito na ang pangalawang tao na napagkamalan kaming mag asawa ni Keith. Did we really look like a married couple? Hindi ba halata na magkasintahan palang kami at hindi pa kasal?

Pareho namin na nilingon si Keith sa terrace. Inilalapag niya ang mga plato sa lamesa para sa paghahanda ng almusal namin. Wala pa rin siyang pang-itaas na damit. We have a full view of his upper muscled body.

“Ang gwapo gwapo rin ng asawa mo! Ang laki ng katawan!”

“Opo. Ang sarap nga pong yakapin.” Bumungingis ako.

“Maaga ka niyan mabubuntis, Ma’am.”

Uminit ang pisngi ko. “Uh, hindi po muna.”

Tila siya nangangarap habang pinagmamasdan ako tapos ay titingin siya kung nasaan si Keith, tapos ay ibabalik ang mga mata sa akin.

“Gusto mo hulaan kita?”

Tumaas ang isang kilay ko.

I don’t believe in clairvoyant. I haven’t tried it yet. But this time, I have this urge to try it. Wala naman sigurong mawawala kung magpapahula ako? Hindi naman ibig sabihin nito ay mangyayari na nga talaga ang magiging resulta ng hula sa akin.

“Manghuhula po kayo?”

“Oo. Kilala ako sa lugar na ito na nanghuhula. Albolaryo rin ako.”

Namangha ako. “Talaga po?”

“Noong unang beses kong nakita ang asawa mo rito sa bukid, nagkaroon agad ako ng pangitain sa kanya.”

Hindi ko alam kung bakit tumaas ang mga balahibo ko sa katawan. Hindi naman ako natatakot sa matandang babae na kausap ko. Sa katunayan pa nga ay magaan siyang kausap.

“Puwede ko po bang malaman ang pangitain mo tungkol sa kanya?”

Agad siyang umiling. Tila ba ipinagbabawal iyon.

“Sa kanya ko lang puwedeng sabihin ang nakita ko, Ma’am. Kung papaunlakan niya ako, baka matulungan ko siyang iwasan ang mga puwedeng mangyari sa kanya…”

Bigla akong kinabahan.

Sinulyapan ko si Keith. He’s leaning at the wooden fence of the terrace with his elbows as a support to his weight while watching us like a hawk.

“Akin na ang kamay mo…” anyaya niya sa akin.

I slowly give her my hand.

Maingat niyang hinawakan ang kamay ko at tinignan ang aking palad. She’s silently staring at my palm. Kulubot na ang mga kamay niya at madumi gawa ng pangunguha niya ng mga gulay.

“Ilan po ang magiging anak ko?” I asked, a bit anxious and excited.

“Dalawa…”

I gasped. Lumiwanag ang mukha ko sa sinabi niya.

“I want to have a baby girl. That’s my dream.”

“Babae at lalaki ang magiging anak mo…” she stroked my palm with her thumb. “… sa magkaibang lalaki.”

Napangiwi ako.

Ngayon palang, ayoko nang maniwala sa kanya. Dahil sigurado ako na si Keith lang ang gusto kong maging ama nang mga magiging anak namin.

“… magmamahal ka ulit… hindi mo ito maiiwasan…” patuloy niya.

Biglang naghumerentado ang puso ko. I swallowed hard. I can’t picture myself loving another man, only Keith!

“Siya lang po ang mamahalin ko.”

She shook her head. “Nakikita ko na may iba ka pang mamahalin bukod sa kanya. Mahihirapan kang iwasan ang estrangherong lalaking ito dahil…” huminto siya at ibinalik ang tingin kung nasaan si Keith.

“Dahil? Ano po?” I was so curious.

“… dahil nasasabik ka sa asawa mo. Mawawala siya…”

Tumaas ang mga balahibo ko sa katawan. At tila may kung anong kutsilyo na tahimik na tinatarakan ang aking puso.

“S-sino po ang mawawala?” Huwag si Keith!

“Ang asawa mo. Mawawala siya sa ’yo. Ang anak niyo lang na babae ang tanging ala-ala na maiiwan niya sa ’yo…”

Dahan-dahan kong kinuha ang kamay ko sa kanya ngunit hindi niya ’yon binitawan.

“Pero huwag kang mag-alala—”

I pulled my hand from her hold that made her stopped. Malalim siyang humugot ng hangin sa kanyang dibdib.

“Ayoko pong mawala sa akin ang asawa ko!”

“Hindi niyo ito maiiwasan—”

“Hindi po ako naniniwala sa mga hula!”

“Wala akong magagawa kung hindi ka maniwala, Ma’am…” tumango siya. “Sana ay makausap ko ang asawa mo. Hindi biro ang haharapin niyang pagsubok para lang sa ’yo.”

Nangingilabot ang buong katawan ko. Hindi ko na rin mapigil ang malakas na tibok ng puso ko. My throat ran dried. Her words gave me chills.

“B-bigyan mo na po ako ng mga gulay…” pag-iiba ko sa topic namin.

Mabilis niyang ipinamahagi sa akin ang mga gulay na nakuha niya. Inilagay niya ang mga ’yon sa basket na dala ko. Nang matapos siya, kinuha ko ulit ang basket.

“Maraming salamat po! I can pay.”

“Hindi na,” umiling-iling siya. “Sana ay maging matatag ka. Sobrang bigat nang pagdadaanan niyong mag asawa. Huwag kang bibitaw. Kakailanganin ka ng anak niyo.”

I nodded my head nervously.

Ayokong maniwala sa kanya ngunit tila may kung anong nagtutulak sa akin na bigyan ng importansya ang mga naging hula niya sa amin ni Keith.

Kahit na mabigat ang dala ko, binilisan ko pa rin ang paglalakad para makalapit na kay Keith na naghihintay sa akin. Ibinaba ko ang basket at niyakap siya agad nang mahigpit. I am suddenly emotional.

“What happened?” He’s worried. “What did she say?”

I shook my head firmly.

I don’t want him to know what the old woman just told me. Ayoko siyang mabahala dahil lang sa mga hula at pangitain sa aming dalawa. I didn’t want to believe her. Hindi ko dapat sa kanya ibinigay ang kamay ko. Hindi na dapat ako nagpahula!

“Taliyah, what is it?”

I took a deep breath. My heart was beating painfully.

Ang maintinding takot na baka bigla siyang mawala sa akin ay walang patawad na bumalot sa buong katauhan ko. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko kung mangyari iyon. Ayokong isipin! Natatakot ako ng husto!

Lalo ko siyang niyakap. I even buried my face on his chest.

“Don’t leave me…” I croaked with a broken voice.

He took a deep breath and planted a kiss above my head.

“Why would I do that?”

“Just don’t leave me, Keith!”

He embraces me back. He feels so comforting. I hope he can ease the fear and pain that linger inside my chest.

“Hindi ako aalis, Taliyah. Kung nasaan ka, nando’n din ako.” Tila pangako ’yon na nagpapagaan ng aking loob.

I bite my bottom lip. Still, I am not contented.

Paano ko ba masisiguro na hindi nga siya aalis sa tabi ko? Paano ko siya maikukulong sa akin? Para palagi na kaming magkasama? I am becoming desperate.

“Kapag nasa Quezon na kami, doon ka na rin tumira. Please?”

“That’s our plan. Remember?”

Tumango ako. I know, but I wanted a guarantee!

“How can I be so sure that you will live with me?” I can hear the doubt and anxiety from my tone.

Hinaplos niya ang buhok ko sa marahan na paraan. Tila ako hinehele at humuhupa ang takot na nanunuot sa kailaliman ng aking puso. I hope my fear of losing him will fade and never ever go back.

“I am your personal bodyguard. I’ll be with you twenty-four-seven.”

Tiningala ko siya at madamdamin na tinignan.

He’s looking down on me with a glimpse of tenderness on his amber eyes. Sumasakit na ang dibdib ko sa walang humpay na malakas na tibok ng aking puso.

“Gusto ko palagi ka lang nasa tabi ko. Ayokong mawala ka sa paningin ko.” I possessively muttered.

Umangat ang sulok ng labi niya. Animo naaaliw siya ng husto.

“Paano nalang kapag naglilihi ka na? You’d be more possessive of me?” There was a sly smile on his lips.

My face heated uncontrolledly. “Mas malala pa siguro…”

He chuckled. “I better be ready.”

Ngumiti ako.

Kahit papano, nabawasan ang pangamba ko. I will make sure that he’s going to be on my side every damn day. Hindi ako papayag na kahit isang araw lang, mawala siya sa paningin ko.

I turned my head to see the old lady, but she’s no longer there.

26 ~ IN LOVE

CHAPTER

TWENTY

SIX

Tangina. Hindi na yata pagpapanggap itong ginagawa ko. Totoo na yata ang lahat ng ito kasama na ang nararamdaman ko.

I lured Taliyah to be my girlfriend so I won’t feel guilty when I took her. I didn’t have plan to continue our sex escapades. It wasn’t part of my mission. But whenever she kisses me, caresses me, or stares at me seductively, I always end up allowing myself to surrender by her seduction.

The more I get to know her, the more my feelings get deeper.

I am very aware that once I let my emotions take over me, there’s a big possibility that I might fail this mission that involved her. But I can’t just control these feelings I have for her.

This is unprofessional. Hindi ko dapat isinasali ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya sa trabaho ko. Mahirap ito para sa akin. Hirap na hirap akong iwasan siya.

Ultimo pag uwi ko sa inuupahan kong bahay pagkatapos ng buong araw na pagbabantay sa kanya ay nabibigatan akong gawin. At kapag mag isa nalang ako sa kama, hindi ako makatulog ng maayos dahil sa paghihintay na magliwanag na para makita ko ulit siya.

Kahit ang plano nilang mag ina na tumakas sa bahay nila, isinali ko pa rin ang sarili ko masigurado ko lang ang kaligtasan niya.

This is madness. I didn’t want this kind of obsession, but I was feeling hopeless because I know that this will go deeper and will take longer than I have ever expected.

The only good thing that I see on this mission is I get more details about Ramesh, his security, his associates, and the fact that Rashid Montecarlo—his son, is not linked to Dragon Dynasty.

Nalaman ko rin na hindi maayos ang relasyon ng mag ama. I can use that details to encourage Rashid to be my ally. It won’t be that easy, but I am certain, I can.

We are planning the escape of Rasha and Tracia from their house in Bulacan. This is risky and can make any of their lives in danger. That’s why we need to really carefully plan this out. I am having a meeting with Rashid and General Harris Evander. We are in one of Harris’ safe house in Calatagan.

“Mossad will be suspicious if ever we take Rasha while she’s with you.” He said.

Pinag-uusapan namin kung sa paanong paraan makukuha si Taliyah nang hindi ako pinaghihinalaan na kasabwat. I am determined to be part of this because her safety became my top priority. I can’t imagine the anger I’d feel if ever something bad happen to her under my watch.

“Take me with her. We will let it appear that I was abducted too.” I suggested.

That is more believable than taking only Taliyah and leave me. I stand as her most trusted bodyguard. She put her trust on me and my job is to protect her until death. Wala sa pagkatao ko na hahayaan ang binabantayan ko na mawala sa akin nang hindi ako lumalaban.

I didn’t want this to be bloody just to make Ramesh believe that I was not part of the escape plan. Ayokong makasakit ng mga taong alam kong kakampi.

“How can we make sure that Mossad will take the bite?” Rashid asked.

“I have a radio communication with me with a tracker. We will let them track us first. Then destroyed the device eventually and make it appear that it was taken away from me.”

“If Mossad calls you, what would you say?” General Harris sipped on his rum.

“I won’t wait for him to call me. I’d contact him to let him know that a group of armed men abducted us. I’d like to keep him informed.”

I still don’t forget what my real mission was. I need to dig deeper about Dragon Dynasty. I need evidences about their illegal doings. I can’t just leave Mossad’s security. I wanted in. Hanggat hindi ako nakakatapak sa kuta ng mga sindikato, hindi dapat ako tumigil.

Gusto kong matapos ang misyon na ito at magpakalayo-layo… kasama si Taliyah.

Rashid stares at me. He’s trying to read me. I need to be vigilant. He has experiences about espionage and undercover missions, it would be easy for him to know what I am up to if I was careless.

“Do you want to continue working with Mossad after the escape?” He raised his brow.

I puffed on my cigarette.

I need to continue working with Mossad. I need to know where they will go once Taliyah and Tracia left their house. Ano ang sunod nilang gagawin? Saan sila susunod na mananatili? O sino ang mga malalaki at importanteng tao ang babantayan nila? I want those informations.

“I don’t have plan to, but I know, they will look for me, my friends, and family. I don’t want my love ones to be in danger. I need to be back.”

General Evander cleared his throat.

“Mossad won’t accept you. You failed to save your client. Who would accept a failure?”

“He will accept me. I have informations where Taliyah and Tracia are. He could use me as their eyes against you guys.”

“Whatever your game is, I didn’t want to be involved with it, Tuazon,” Rashid muttered coldly. “Just make sure my sister will be safe.”

“How certain are you that Mossad won’t kill you?”

I smirked. “I won’t give him the satisfaction to kill me. He won’t have a chance, General.”

Eventually, we have decided to do the escape while Ramesh are hiding. They are aware that the devil has a bounty on his head.

The plan is to abduct Taliyah and me. She shouldn’t know about this. Alam kong excited siyang umalis sa bahay nila ngunit hindi ko sasabihin sa kanya ang plano kung paano o kailan gagawin. She can be careless some times. We don’t want any suspicions from Mossad and the devils.

After the meeting, I drove back to Manila with the motorcycle I’ve rented to meet Clane at D’ Club. Alas singko palang ng hapon. We made sure that our friends won’t be there when we talk. We’re hanging out in our usual VIP room.

Madilim ang itsura niya nang ilapag niya ang dokumento sa lamesa.

“I need your signature.”

I sighed and scanned the pile of papers. It is the real estate properties I bought. One is a private island and the other one is a huge farm land.

While signing using the company name that I choose to use, I suddenly remember Taliyah’s dream location to live. It’s by the beach with our baby girl.

I squinted my eyes when those memories flashed my mind. I appreciated her being vocal about her future dreams with me. It made me think about us… living together in the future. I don’t have guarantee that it would happen, but I hope, it will.

“Can you find a land by the beach?” I asked the gloomy brute in front of me.

Sumimsim siya sa alak sa baso niya. Mariin ang titig niya sa akin.

I stayed stoic. Clane could read me. Ayokong malaman niya kung ano ang tumatakbo sa isip ko ngayon.

“You have a private island. You can build a house there…”

“I know. But I want more. By the beach. Away from people.”

“For your future life?” The side of his lips curved up.

“Maybe?”

“Bakit? Nakahanap ka na nang pakakasalan?”

I tried to stay emotionless while signing all these papers and documents.

“Hindi pa.”

Humalakhak siya.

I gritted my teeth. I think, he sensed it.

“Imbitahan mo ako sa kasal niyo.” Nanunuya ang tono niya.

Clane knows about Taliyah. He’s probably thinking right now that I’m into her. Which I am. Damn it!

“Malapit na. Tatawagan kita.” I mocked.

He whistled playfully. “Tang ina. Kilala kita, gago. Alam kong totoo na ’to.”

Sinisikap kong huwag siyang bigyan ng kahit na anong kompirmasyon. But if I deny this, he would only think that I was bluffing. If I remained silent, he’d think he’s right.

“Doon pa talaga sa alam mong mahihirapan ka ng husto.” Umiling-iling siya.

Hininto ko ang ginagawa ko at kinuha ang sariling baso para inumin ang alak. Ang pait at init ay agad na lumapat sa lalamunan ko. Tila ginigising ako sa katotohanan na tama ang kaibigan ko. Sa dinami-rami ng babae na puwede kong magustuhan, napili ko pa talaga si Rasha Taliyah—na alam kong puwede kong ikapahamak ng malala sa huli.

Ngayon pa nga lang, nahihirapan na akong isipin kung paano ang gagawin ko sa kanya kapag nasa Quezon na siya nakatira habang nagpapatuloy akong magtrabaho bilang parte ng security ni Mossad.

Kailangan kong makaisip ng diskarte upang mapapayag ang demonyo na ’yon na gawin akong mga mata nila o espiya. Para lang hindi ako malayo kay Taliyah.

She doesn’t like a long distance relationship. It would frustrate her. She might break up with me if I was away from her. I won’t let that happen. She’s clingy. She likes our physical contact so much. She can’t stand being away from me that long.

“I should find that place myself…” I mumbled. “She told me what she likes. I need to see it by myself.”

“Brute, I can see hearts forming your eyes.” Clane mocked me more.

Tumawa ako sabay hagis sa kanya ng sign pen na agad niyang nasalo.

“I’ll invite you to our secret wedding.” I smirked.

Hindi ko iniisip ang kasal noon. I didn’t care about it. But right now, I can only see Taliyah on her white dress, while walking on the aisle towards me at the altar.

“Damn, I hope you won’t fuck up. But, congratulations for finding the one for you, brute.”

We cheers.

Taliyah was very happy when she saw Rashid.

I wanted to surprise her on the day of her shooting training. It’s very easy to make her smile.

Sanay siya sa magarbong pamumuhay ngunit mabilis niya pa rin bigyan ng pansin ang mga simpleng bagay lang. It wasn’t difficult to be with her because she appreciates little things. And she will be fine for as long as she can have her freedom and peace.

May mga pangarap siya na kaya kong tuparin para sa kanya. Ngunit mayroon din na hindi ako sigurado kung mapaninindigan ko ba. Kagaya nalang nang kagustuhan niyang manatili ako sa tabi niya palagi. I have no idea until when we can be together but I can assure her that… I will always do what I can do just to be with her longer.

I watched her talking to the old woman at the green field in front of my house. She’s wearing a light blue summer dress and her hair is in half ponytail. She’s very enthralling, I can’t take my gaze off her. Her brown hair dances with the wind together with the hem of her dress. Maputi ang balat niya at palaging tila umiilaw—lalo na ngayon na nasisinagan siya ng sikat ng araw.

I am standing at the terrace, waiting for her to come back to me so we can have our breakfast together. She doesn’t know how to cook but it didn’t bother me. I am willing to cook for her every damn day if… Heavens would allow me to be with her while I am still alive.

This life that I have right now felt like just a short-live. I wanted to spend every bit with her as long as I am breathing. Alam kong mahihirapan ako sa sitwasyon naming dalawa ngunit hindi ko kaya na layuan siya dahil lang nakasalalay ang buhay ko sa pagpili sa kanya.

Kung mapapahamak ako dahil pinili ko siya, sisikapin kong makaligtas sa kahit na anong pinsala na puwede kong matamo makasama ko lang siya. Kung ang kapalit ng mga dugo at sugat ko ay siya, walang pag-a-alinlangan na titiisin ko ang lahat ng sakit para sa kanya.

I will be in the dark if I lose her. I will be lost if she’s taken away from me. This life will be lifeless without her because… she’s now my life.

My heart raced when I saw Taliyah running towards me holding the basket full of vegetables. I anticipated her coming to me like a bullet ready to hit me. I am thrilled and anxious all at once.

Niyakap niya ako nang mahigpit at agad kong naramdaman ang takot niya.

“Taliyah, what is it?” I asked.

I didn’t hear her conversation with the old woman but I saw what they did. Ibinigay niya ang kamay niya sa matanda kanina. Kung hindi ako nagkakamali sa nakita ko, posibleng hinulaan ang guhit ng palad niya. At halatang hindi maganda ang narinig niya.

“Don’t leave me…” her voice broke.

I stopped thinking of leaving her. I will finish my mission and make sure that the remaining years of my life will be spent with her.

Kaya wala siyang dapat ikatakot na iiwan ko siya. Wala akong plano na layuan siya. Ang tanging nasa isip ko sa mga sandaling ito ay kung paano ko masisiguro na sa akin lang talaga siya.

Tiningala niya ako. I saw the glimpse of fear written on her striking eyes. Her beauty is hypnotizing. I always found myself staring at her and be clouded with so many memories that I wanted for our future together.

“Gusto ko palagi ka lang nasa tabi ko. Ayokong mawala ka sa paningin ko.” She possessively muttered.

I can’t help but to smirk.

Baby, you don’t have to say that to me, I don’t have plan to be away from you. Not now, that I felt like I’d go insane without you.

“Paano nalang kapag naglilihi ka na? You’d be more possessive of me?” I teased her.

The image of her having a big stomach carrying our baby girl flashed my mind. Kahit na buntis siya, nakakahalina pa rin ang ganda niya.

I silently groaned at my own thoughts. Hindi ko pa dapat iniisip na buntisin siya, ngunit sa tuwing ganito siya maglambing sa akin, parang gusto ko nalang siyang itanan at hindi pakakawalan hanggat hindi buntis.

“Mas malala pa siguro.”

I’d like to spoil her. Even though she’s thinking that I don’t have much money, I still want to make ways to give her what she deserved. I didn’t want her to settle for less. Na dahil lang nakatira ako sa maliit na bahay, papayag na rin siya na tumira sa akin—dahil lang iniisip niya na mahirap ako at hindi ko kayang bumili ng malaking bahay para sa amin.

I even thought of building a house in the island that I just bought so that she can have her own freedom and peace while living there. Pati ang gusto niyang bahay na malapit sa dagat, ay handa kong ipatayo para lang matupad ang pangarap niya.

When I met her, I didn’t have plan to take her seriously. But as time passed by, I realized that she’s the one I wish to have by my side in this lifetime.

No matter how impossible it would be, I hope to make all her dreams come true. I never dream about wanting a child, but when she told me that she’d love to have a baby girl, I suddenly want to grant her wish.

If I wasn’t in love, what the fuck was this I have for her?

27 ~ WANT

CHAPTER

TWENTY

SEVEN

“There are some changes regarding the schedule of Rasha’s security…” Mossad hold a meeting.

We are inside his office located near the garage. Ang mga ipinatawag niya ay ang mga nagbabantay kay Taliyah sa tuwing umaalis. There are at least ten armed men with us. Only few of them I just met today.

“Keith, you will be moved in night shift. You will remain as Rasha’s personal bodyguard.”

They all looked at me. I stayed emotionless.

“Who’s gonna be with her during day time?” I asked coldly.

Mossad glanced at the man just right next to me.

“Jacobi will be her personal bodyguard during day time.”

I have no words for them or for this decision. I need to know why Mossad suddenly changed our daily schedules. Sinigurado ko naman na hindi nila pagdududahan ang pakikipagkita namin ni Taliyah kay Rashid sa shooting range.

I was careful with my moves too. Bago ako nakipagkita kila Rashid at Admiral Harris, tiniyak ko na hindi ako nasundan ng mga tauhan ni Mossad.

“I hope that would be fine?” Jacobi arched his brow at me.

I just looked at him with smirk but didn’t say anything.

Taliyah would rather stay inside their house than go outside without me. She won’t agree with this new schedule, she would rant, but in the end, we both know that she has no power to stop what her father wants for her.

“Hanggang kailan ito?”

“Hindi ko alam. Utos ito galing sa itaas. Sumunod tayo.”

“Sinong itaas?”

Jacobi leaned a bit closer to me. “If you want this kind of information, be friendly to me.”

Abaddon has warned me about Jacobi. I shouldn’t engage. But I want informations. Damn it!

“I can find it myself.”

“Sure. Unless you get in…” he meaningfully muttered. “I know a way to get in.”

Keep trying, motherfucker. I don’t bite bait.

After the meeting, I waited until I am left alone with Mossad.

“Anong kailangan mo?” Malamig ang tono niya habang isinasalansan ang mga baril sa lamesa.

“You didn’t answer my question.”

Binigyan niya ako ng madilim na sulyap.

“You don’t need to know who the bosses are.”

“ I should know who I work for…“

Kinasa niya ang baril niya at itinutok sa akin.

He won’t pull the trigger. He’s just trying to intimidate me, but he knew me, I won’t be intimidated by a mere gun pointed on my direction.

“I should know who you work for, Keith. I’d know… in time.”

No matter what I say, he won’t really believe in me. He’s still doubtful. It’s normal. I was nobody who mysteriously landed on their den.

“So, we have other boss aside from Senator?” I assumed for him to confirm it.

Ngumisi siya sa demonyong paraan. “Oo. May reklamo ka?”

“I wanna meet the bosses…”

Mossad laughed then put his gun down.

“You won’t meet them just like that, soldier.”

A high-profile syndicates are working behind the shadows of their men. This could be a sign that Ramesh is only the front man of Dragon Dynasty and behind him are the shadows of their big bosses.

“How can I meet them then?”

“Why are you so interested?”

“Because I want a job. You don’t pay me enough. What do you want me to do? Settle for something that my skills don’t deserve?”

Tumititig siya lalo sa akin. He’s trying to read me but I won’t give him anything but eagerness to see who else are the bosses.

“You’re making yourself in trouble. Be contented on what you have right now, I’d say.”

“Jacobi seems to have idea about the big bosses…” I taunted.

“If you want to meet the bosses, get me an interesting informations about Jacobi.” Mossad negotiates.

Mossad is also doubting Jacobi’s real intentions. This is fact.

“And?”

“And I’ll kill him once I have proven that he’s betraying me.”

“Okay. I’ll see what I can do.”

I left Mossad’s office with the idea that we are not only working with Ramesh. There are more big bosses aside from him. I need to dig deeper to get the names of those motherfuckers.

Taliyah: Come to the swimming pool. I will tell you something.

I sipped on my coffee while roaming around the gate. This job is boring. I’d rather be in the field and mov endlessly.

Keith: Alright. Give me twenty minutes.

Natanaw ko si Jacobi na naglalakad papunta kung nasaan ako. Kagaya ng iba, armado rin siya.

“What did you two talk about?” Jacobi inquires.

I looked around to see if there are other security who could possibly hear us having this kind of conversation. When I made sure that we are safe to talk, I sipped on my coffee again.

“He’s doubting you…”

It’s either I’d get Jacobi’s trust or he’d get mine. It’s a matter of how much informations you could give for the person to trust you or for you to trust them.

“I know that. He’s doubting you too.”

“I am aware of that…”

“Did he mention about the big bosses?”

“How did you know about it?”

Jacobi take a steps forward while checking the locks of the gate.

“I did my own research. I found out that we have other bosses aside from Senator.”

I shrugged my shoulders. This shouldn’t interest me. I pretended that I wasn’t really interested.

“Whatever that it is you know, keep it to yourself. Mossad’s eyes are on you.”

“He said that? Because he has his eyes on you too. What a coincidence…” he sarcastically whistles.

It wasn’t new to me. I am very aware ever since that Mossad has sent men to follow me.

“I’ll give you information about the big bosses. But give me what I want…”

Sinulyapan ko siya. I wanna play his game. He has what I want, I could probably give what he wants that’s why he’s asking me about it.

“What do you want?”

Jacobi checks the surrounding. Lahat ng mga bantay ay abala sa mga simpleng pag-uusap at pagmamasid. We are doing just the same. The only thing that is fact is… I am not on their side.

“Let me out from here.”

“Why?”

Jacobi heaved a sigh. Halata sa kanya ang pagtitimpi na huwag akong sagutin. But he needs to do it otherwise he won’t get my sympathy.

“They have my son…”

“Who?”

“The big bosses.”

If he was lying, I’d break his neck.

“What’s your plan?”

“Get in, kill the big bosses, and get my son.”

That sounds easy, but it was not. It would cost him his life and his son’s life. If this is just his cover story to get my help or sympathy, then, it could work, but I am too keen to believe with this kind of plot. I need proofs and evidences.

“I’d advise you… do not step into a war where you only have is a mere percentage of survival.”

“You don’t know what a father can do to save his child, Keith.”

It hit something in me.

What if I was in his shoes—where my child was taken away from me and needed me to survive?What am I willing to do just to save my own blood and flesh? How dangerous I could be to save her? I’d probably kill.

“Meet me where Fumiko is working. Friday, 10PM. I’ll give you what you want.” Then Jacobi left.

Damn it! He knew Fumiko. He’s fucking one of us!

It was in my mind. If this is some kind of a bait, then, I better be extra careful.

Pinuntahan ko si Taliyah kalaunan. She’s sitting on the sun lounger in front of the pool. Looking hot with her one piece black bikini.

I occupied the space beside her and caresses her milky legs.

“It feels illegal to see you on this bikini…” I whispered.

She pursed her lips. Her hair is wet from swimming. Her face is bare. Makinis at walang kahit na anong kapintasan na makikita.

“What took you so long to come here?”

“I have work to do outside.”

“I saw you talking with Jacobi. Are you guys are friends now?”

I scoffed. “No…”

“Don’t you have friends?”

Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko na nasa ibabaw ng tiyan niya. She trails the veins at the back of my hand using her fingers. I got use to her being touchy.

“I have friends. I’ll introduce you to them.”

Her beautiful face brightened. She’s excited.

“I want to meet them. I thought you don’t have many friends. I don’t see you calling them.”

“I’m not into text or calls. We see each others in one of my friends’ Club.”

“Can we go there? I want to go to a Club, drink and dance…” her eyes blink in joy.

I growled. Kahit ang ganitong klaseng pagsasaya, hindi niya pa rin yata nararanasan.

“We will…”

“Promise me!” She squeezes my hand.

I gave her a gentle smile.

I’ll do everything she wants. I’ll obey her. I’ll make her dreams come true.

“Yeah, I promise.”

Taliyah’s giggles made me sigh.

Though, I like to see her smile, to hear her laughters and giggles, but some times, I feel like I shouldn’t. Baka masanay ako na ganito siya palagi ka-saya at kapag nalungkot siya, hindi ko na alam kung ano ang gagawin para lang sumaya siya ulit.

I caressed her abdomen again while having her image in my mind with her big stomach.

I am really fucked up. I just hope, I won’t fail this mission. Abaddon would be very disappointed. He won’t hire me again for sure.

“What do you wanna tell me?”

“Uh, it was about my dream this afternoon…”

Cool! I am interested to know. Everything about her fucking interest me.

“What is it? Am I part of it?”

“You were there…” the pretty smile on her pink lips made me want to kiss her. “… we are on a yacht, we made love… and…”

“And?”

She avoided my gaze. I saw her blushing.

Hinaplos ko ang tiyan niya para lang ibalik niya ang tingin sa akin. I want her attention. I want to stare with her, I won’t get tired watching her beauty. I’d like to see every emotions on her almond eyes.

“And, I found out I was pregnant…”

It was fucking hard to suppress a damn smile coming from me. I narrow my eyes while she’s staring back at me with her naughty gaze.

“Are you still taking your pills?” Kung hindi, mabubuntis talaga siya sa akin!

Kaya kong iputok sa labas. Pero mas masarap talaga kapag ipinuputok ko sa loob niya. Tang inang kabaliwan ’to.

“Yeah. But I missed some days…” she pouted her lips. “Would that be fine? Are you being careful naman, di ba?”

I groaned painfully.

Kung ganito siya, paano ko mapipigilan ang pagtitimpi ko na huwag siyang mabuntis? It seemed to me that she wants to have a baby, even if we are not yet in a good situation. I don’t want to risk her and our child’s safety.

“Gusto mo na bang mabuntis?” napapaos na tanong ko at umaasa na sana ayaw niya pa.

Pero nang sumilay ang magandang ngiti sa labi niya at kumislap ang mga mata niya, alam ko na agad ang sagot sa aking tanong.

Tang ina. Huwag sana akong patayin ng tatay niya sa oras na mabuntis ko siya sa ganito kabilis na panahon.

I licked my lower lips.

Sure, I can make her pregnant. I can support her and our child. I can take her to a better place to live, but I cannot just turn my back like that from the mission that I was tasked to do. There will be consequences…

“Gusto ko na magka baby tayo…” malamyos ang boses niya.

Mabagal akong napapikit.

Nakakahalina itong gusto niya. Hindi na ako magtataka kung isang araw, matagpuan ko ang sarili ko na ginagawa ang lahat maibigay lang kung anoman ang paglilihian niya.

“But I know, it’s not yet the right time to be pregnant…”

I feel sad for her because she cannot be pregnant yet because of her life situation. But I am glad that she thinks about it. Alam niya ang nangyayari kaya hindi rin niya minamadali ang sarili niya kahit na gusto niya na.

“Don’t worry. We’ll have our baby once everything is settled, okay?” I said with gentleness.

Tang ina ko. Gusto ko rin naman palang mabuntis  ko siya. Paninindigan ko talaga itong sinasabi ko sa kanya. Hindi ko siya paaasahin.

Muling sumugat ang ngiti sa labi niya. Her dimple made her pretty. Lumamlam din ang kanyang mga mata habang nakatitig sa akin.

“Gusto mo rin na magka baby tayo?” Parang hindi pa siya makapaniwala.

I slowly nodded my head. I clenched my jaw.

I didn’t like what I am feeling right now. Because I know this could put my life at risk. Nasa bingit na nga ng panganib ang buhay ko, lalo ko pang itinutulak sa dulo dahil sa kagustuhan kong matupad ang mga pangarap niya.

“Only when you are the mother of my child. If it was not you, I don’t mind having none.”

Taliyah motioned me to come closer to her so she can hug me.

I can feel the joy from her at the same time her warm body that provoking me. She’s testing my control once again. I kissed her forehead.

“But you’re my first baby…” I whispered playfully.

Madamdamin ang naging tawa niya. Her thin arms wrapped around my nape. I can feel her round breasts pressing against my hard chest.

“Kapag may baby na tayo, ako pa rin ang first, huh?”

“You will always be the number one, Taliyah.”

She releases her embrace and cupped my jaw to kiss my lips.

Napapikit ako dahil alam kong masaya siya. Nakakabahala na hindi ko matupad ang pangarap niya kapag hiniling niya na. I am robust and healthy, I can make her pregnant. Ayoko siyang biguin pagdating sa bagay na ito.

“This is rough…” she caresses my stubbles. “It tickles me every time we kiss or whenever you kiss my body…”

I chuckled. “Do you want me to shave?”

Umiling siya. “Not really. Maybe not now. I like it though.”

“Do you feel it when my head is in between your thighs?”

Namula ang pisngi niya.

She loved her pussy to be eaten by me. Madalas ay hindi ko siya tinitigilan. I intentionally devour her longer than she ever expected. I like hearing her sexy moans. I like watching her writhing because of pleasure, and I like it so much when she calls my name with a soft whimpers.

“I do feel the roughness, yes…”

“Do you like it?”

Tumango siya agad. Hindi niya inalis ang palad niya sa aking panga.

“I like it so much.”

“Hmm…”

“But when you lick harder and longer, you made me crazy…” she blushed.

I smirked. “Thanks for letting me know that. I like it longer and harder so I can hear your moans.”

Taliyah sexily bites her bottom lip. Her eyes suddenly filled with desire and hunger that’s very familiar to me. She wants me, but my pretty baby cannot have me right now. She better wait until tomorrow, I’ll give her all that she wants.

Nang hinaplos niya ang braso ko, doon ko napatunayan na kapag ganito siya, alam kong nasasabik nga talaga siya.

We are very active in bed. She easily gets hot and I was not in control most of the time, that’s why we always end up naked and moaning.

I am thankful she’s using her pills. Dahil kung hindi, unang buwan palang ay baka nabuntis ko na siya agad.

“I’m getting wet…” she whispered frustratingly.

Napaungol ako. Tang ina. How can I resist this kind of temptation? Fucking help me.

“I cannot lick your pussy here. I wish I could…” I whispered back with desperation.

“Let’s go to my room then…” namumungay ang mga mata niya.

I clenched my jaw.

Hindi pa ako nakakapunta sa kwarto niya, ngunit kung ganito ang paraan niya para imbitahan ako, sino ang tatanggi? Lalo at panay na ang haplos niya sa braso ko. She’s seducing me to do what she wants.

“And please check if they planted a hidden CCTV cameras there.” Now, she’s making a valid excuse for me to get into her bed.

Ngumisi siya nang makita niya na napapayag niya na ako.

“Please, Keith, I want you now…”

I gritted my teeth. I fucking want her too and this feeling is frustrating the hell out of me.

28 ~ ESCAPE

CHAPTER

TWENTY

EIGHT

I am upset because Mossad changed the schedule of my security.

During day time, Jacobi will be my personal bodyguard. When night time, it will be Keith. I have no idea until when this schedule will last. I am disappointed but I don’t have the power to go against it.

Paano kung gusto kong magpunta sa bahay ni Keith? Nakabantay malapit sa akin si Jacobi? Bigla na naman akong nawalan ng privacy at kalayaan. Samantalang no’ng si Keith ang personal bodyguard ko, daig ko pa ang nakawala sa hawla dahil malaya ako kapag siya ang kasama ko.

I heaved a dramatic sigh in front of my mother.

Nasa loob kami ng kwarto niya dahil ayokong marinig ng mga tauhan ang pinag-uusapan namin. Kailangan namin makasiguro na walang makakalusot na detalye tungkol sa nalalapit na pagtakas namin.

“Magtitiis nalang ako. Besides, we are soon to leave this hell.”

“That’s the only thing you can do for now, anak. Please, be more patient, okay?”

“Yes, mom…” I nod my head. “I am excited though. Sasama sa atin si Keith at makakalayo na rin siya sa mga devil dito.”

She gave me a warm smile. Her face is brighter now. My evil father is still very busy that’s why he can’t come home. I hope he will remain that busy forever so he doesn’t need to see us.

“Sana nga at hindi siya mapahamak sa pagtulong sa ’tin. Ano kaya ang paraan nila para hindi maisip nila Mossad na kasabwat siya?”

Wala pa kaming detalye tungkol sa kung kailan at paano ba gagawin ang pagtakas. Ang sabi lang ni kuya, palagi kaming maging handa. They also warned us not to pack our things. Iniisip ko nalang na madali lang bumili ng mga bagong damit at personal na pangangailangan sa oras na makaalis kami dito. Kaya hindi ko na poproblemahin ang tungkol sa bagay na ito.

What important now is for us to have a clear and responsive mind when the day of the escape happens and I feel like it’s soon.

“Tatanungin ko si Keith. But I don’t think he’d tell me. Palagi niya lang po na sinasabi sa akin na sisiguraduhin nilang makakaalis tayo dito ng ligtas.”

Pumikit si mommy at humugot ng malalim na hangin mula sa dibdib. She slowly let it go until she feels relaxed again.

“I trust them. I know, they won’t disappoint us. Just be ready, okay? Huwag ka na masyadong lumabas-labas muna.”

“Wala po akong plano na lumabas. I will just wait until evening so I can see Keith.”

“Can’t he go here during day time?”

“Mossad didn’t allow him to do that.” I bitterly said.

Pati ang pagbisita sa akin ni Keith, hindi na rin pinapahintulutan!

“Well, I think, it’s best if we stay here.”

I always text or call Keith, so I won’t be bored. Iba lang din kasi talaga kapag kasama ko siya. Malaya kaming magyakap o maghalikan. Kapag dito sa bahay, ayaw niya na gawin namin ang gano’n. Pero napapapayag ko siya isang beses na pumasok sa silid ko.

Sinikap kong huwag umungol ng malakas habang nagtatalik kami sa kama ko. Nahirapan akong gawin iyon dahil talagang sobra akong nalulugod sa ginagawa niya sa akin. But at least, I was able to control my loud moans.

I winced when I remembered about my pills.

I used to be responsible about taking it once a day, but these passed few days, I always forgot to take one. Hindi naman ako nagmamadali na mabuntis. Alam ko na hindi ito ang tamang panahon para roon.

What makes me happy is the fact that he wants to have a baby too. With that in mind, I feel like I can patiently wait for the right moment for me to get pregnant. We need to plan this. I trust his way of planning for us.

“Mom, can I be pregnant if I missed a pill?”

She raised her brow at me. “Of course. Why? Did you miss taking your pills?”

“Some times…”

Umiling-iling siya na tila ba gusto niyang sabihin sa akin na delikado ako dahil nakakaligtaan ko ang dapat hindi.

“He likes to have a baby with me.” I beamed at her.

Mommy rolled her eyes with a hidden smile on her lips.

“I kinda expected it. Pero sana, pakasalan ka niya bago ka mabuntis.”

I pursed my lips.

I don’t think about the wedding. Mas inuna ko pang isipin ang pangarap kong magkaro’n ng babaeng anak kaysa ang pagpapakasal. Pero paano namin gagawin ’yon? I don’t think he’s in love with me. Would he willing to marry a woman that he doesn’t love?

My feelings for him get deeper. It wasn’t only about sex and desire anymore, it’s also about what my heart is making me feel when I’m with him.

I know I am falling in love with him. I can’t just say it directly to him. I can keep this love. Hindi ko lang alam kung hanggang kailan ko kaya na itago ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanya.

“I don’t want to think about that, mom. I think, it’s too soon to get married.”

“But not too soon to get pregnant?”

“I always want to have a baby girl. If he can give me one, I’d be happy.”

“Keith is a responsible man. I am confident he won’t run away from responsibility. I just want you to have a normal life with someone you love. Ayos lang sa akin kung sa ibang bahay kayo titira kung sakali na magpakasal na kayo at mabuntis ka. But, please, choose a place that is near Tagaytay, so you guys can visit me.”

Mom’s house in Tagaytay is soon to finished. After staying in Quezon, we will move to Tagaytay. Naghihintay lang talaga siya na pirmahan ni daddy ang annulment papers. Para tuluyan na siyang makalaya mula sa taong nagdudulot sa kanya ng sakit at pinsala.

“Sure, mom. Kung puwede nga lang ay sa ’yo pa rin kami titira. Pero gusto ko rin po na maranasan na mamuhay na kami lang muna ni Keith. Marami pa akong kailangan na matutunan. But don’t worry, mommy, I will always call you.”

Ngumiti siya sa akin. “I can’t believe my baby girl is in love and probably soon to get pregnant.”

I leered with a grin on my lips.

Ganito na agad ang pinag-uusapan namin kahit wala pa man din katiyakan na mangyayari nga ang mga sinabi ko sa kanya. Nakadepende pa rin kay Keith kung ano ang plano niya para sa aming dalawa. Kung papakasalan niya ba ako o hindi. Kung titira ba kami sa i-isang bubong o hindi.

Dumating si Keith ng alas sais ng hapon. Sinalubong ko siya sa pinto.

He’s wearing a black long sleeves that hugs that muscles on his arms, dark pants and black cap. Looking so mysteriously hot with amber eyes that stares at me.

“Finally! My favorite bodyguard is here!” I embraced him.

Marahan ang balik niya ng yakap sa akin.

For sure, the men around us knew that we have a relationship and it’s normal if I kiss or hug him, but for him, it’s not. He’s not that touchy when we are in our house. Pero kapag nasa bahay niya kami, hindi na mapaglayo ang mga katawan namin.

“I have a surprise for you…” he whispered calmly.

Tumaas ang isang kilay ko at tinignan ulit ang mukha niya. He didn’t shave yet. His dark stubbles gave him rough and ruthless air. Nahuhumaling lang ako sa kanya lalo kapag ganitong madilim at misteryoso siya.

“What is it?” I am excited!

“I’ll show you later. You’d like it…”

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang sorpresa niya pero gustung-gusto ko nang makita.

“Are we leaving? Should I change?”

I am only wearing a relax pants, white blouse, and flip flops.

“Hmm, maybe change your footwear to a sneaker.”

Mommy is not here. She left around four in the afternoon. She’s going to meet her friends in Manila. So I was left alone but not anymore because Keith is here already.

“Okay, wait for me. I’m gonna get my bag too.”

Pinakawalan niya ako.

I hurriedly went to my room to wear my black sneakers and grabbed my sling bag where my phones are, wallet, perfume,  and some make ups, like powder and lip gloss. Kumuha rin ako ng jacket dahil malamig ang panahon tuwing gabi.

Nang matapos ako, binalikan ko si Keith. I caught him talking to Jacobi. But when they saw me coming, they stopped.

“I’m ready!” I announced.

Keith clicked the wireless key of the Lexus which created a sound of unlocking the doors and the lights blinked.

“Keith, be back before ten in the evening.” Mossad said coldly.

“Yes, sir!” Keith saluted.

“Jacobi and his team will be your tail tonight.” Pahabol ni Mossad at hindi ko ito inaasahan.

Keith didn’t say anything. He opened the front passenger for me and I hopped in. When he’s already on the driver side, I leaned to kiss his cheek.

“You’re too serious and cold. But you’re still handsome. How did you do it?”

Nilingon niya ako. He slightly pinched my chin.

“Where are you going to take me?”

“Somewhere away from here…” he then winked at me before he stepped on the gas.

Wala akong ideya kung ano ang sorpresa niya sa akin. Madilim ang daan na tinatahak namin. Parte pa rin ng Bulacan ngunit bulubundukin na at malubak. Hindi naman ako kinakabahan dahil kasama ko siya at nakasunod sa amin ang isa pang SUV kung saan lulan sila Jacobi. Ngunit hindi ako pamilyar sa lugar.

“Where is this?”

“Still part of Bulacan…”

“Uh, I don’t see anything interesting in the dark. Are you sure we are taking the right way?”

“Taliyah, relax. I know what I’m doing.”

Hinakawan niya ang kamay ko at marahan na pinisil. Kalmado ako ngunit may kaunting kaba dahil siguro ang dilim talaga ng daan at sasakyan lang namin ang naroon. Ni wala kaming ibang kasalubong.

I heard the radio communication.

“Where are you taking us, moron?” It was Jacobi.

I grabbed the radio. “Shut up!”

Narinig kong tumawa si Jacobi. “Aren’t you scared? The road is too dark and rough.”

“I’m only scared with devils following us!”

Keith sighed. Ang tunog niya ay tila ba hindi niya gusto ang naririnig niya.

Sa malayong harap, nakita ko ang ilaw ng sasakyan. Natuwa ako. Dinadaanan naman pala ng sasakyan, madalang nga lang.

I saw Keith rolled down the window. His pace get slower, he then simply looked up the dark sky.

Ginaya ko siya. Pinilit ko rin sinilip ang madilim na langit at nakita ang helikopter na animo lalapag anomang sandali sa lugar na ’yon.

He pulled out his phone from his pocket and dialed a number.

“I have a tail. Do not hit my asset there…” he muttered darkly.

I bite my lips. I never seen him this serious and dark. I am quite astonished.

“How would I know who’s your asset?” The voice from the other line sounded icy.

Nakakunot ang noo ko.

Iniisip ko kung sorpresa ba talaga ang pupuntahan namin o tatakas kami? Is this the night of our escape? It made me anxious already!

“The driver…”

I blew a breath. I didn’t have idea what they are talking about.

“Roger that, soldier!”

“Happy hunting,” Keith chuckled.

Habang papalapit kami at pasalubong sa sasakyan sa harap, bumabagal pa ang takbo namin.

“Taliyah, can you grab the vest at the back seat? Then wear it.”

“Huh?” I am stunned.

“Check the back seat…”

Lumingon ako sa likod na upuan ngunit wala naman akong nakita na vest doon.

“There’s none…”

Mabilis din siyang lumingon at napamura nang makita na wala nga roon ang sinasabi niya. He immediately removed his long sleeves, making me see that he’s wearing a damn bullet proof vest!

While driving, he’s removing his vest. His eyes focus on the road and up in the sky. As if he’s checking the weather, but no, the helicopter is about to land.

“Here, wear this…” he handed me his vest.

“I don’t know how to wear this exactly…” I checked the vest and it’s heavy.

“That is the front…” he pointed the front.

I nodded my head started to wear it with me.

I am becoming nervous because why the hell he’s making me wear a bullet proof vest? Unless, we are in danger? The helicopter? Is that the enemy? Who he was talking to a while before?

“Keith…” my heart is racing.

He took a deep breath then he hold my hand again.

“Sorry, I didn’t inform you about this. We are going to escape tonight…” hinalikan niya ang kamay ko.

Pumikit ako at napakapit sa vest na suot ko. Ang malakas na pintig ng puso ko ay naghumerentado pa. We are escaping but how about my mother? She’s in Manila!

“But what about my mom?”

“Don’t worry, Admiral Harris and his men are probably on the move now to get your mom in Manila.”

Napahugot ulit ako ng hangin sa aking dibdib. I am silently praying that everything will be fine. I hope this escape will be successful. At sana walang mapahamak sa amin.

“Does she know that tonight is the escape?”

’No. She has no idea like you.“

“How about that helicopter? Are they enemies or…”

“That’s where your brother is. We are going to use that going to Quezon.”

Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya dahil nanginginig ang sa akin. Hindi ko talaga inaasahan na ngayong gabi kami tatakas. Nakakakaba ng husto. I can’t help but to feel worry about our safety.

The car in front of us stopped. The bright lights from it made me closed my eyes.

I heard the radio communication again.

“What’s happening there?” It was Jacobi.

“I have a car in front of me. Can your men check who’s this motherfucker?”

“Go! Go! Check the car!” Jacobi ordered.

Nakita ko na limang armadong lalaki ang lumabas sa van, dumaan sa gilid namin. Nakatutok ang mga armalite sa sasakyan sa harap. Ang isa ay kinatok ang bintana ng driver side.

“What’s happening?” I am very worried.

Keith dialed a number using his burner phone.

“I have interruption here. This is not part of the plan!” He said with icy voice, it gives me chills.

Tumingin ulit siya sa itaas kaya sinundan ko ang helicopter. Pababa na iyon. Kung naroon si kuya, dapat ay makapunta na kami doon.

I heard voices in radio communication.

“Igilid mo!”

“Kayo ang gumilid!”

“Bilisan mo!”

Nakikipagmatigasan ang driver ng sasakyan sa harap namin.

I saw Keith grabbed his gun. Kinasa niya ’yon at biglang lumabas sa sasakyan!

Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko nang halatang nawawalan na siya ng pasensya na nagpunta sa driver side at tinutukan ng baril kung sinoman ang nasa loob!

I closed my eyes. I didn’t want to witness him killing somebody. I know he’s capable of killing, but I am not ready to see it! My heart is thumping so loud.

Maya-maya lang ay nakita kong umatras ang sasakyan sa harap. That’s when Keith came back to our vehicle. He looked very gloomy, ruthless, and dark, he didn’t even say anything to me.

Napanguso ako ng bahagya.

Sa kabila ng pagiging marahas niya, at nakakasindak na itsura, hindi ko pa rin magawang matakot sa kanya. Siguro dahil alam ko na kahit anong mangyari, hindi niya ako kayang saktan. Hindi niya ako papabayaan. At higit sa lahat, kakampi ko siya.

The vehicle in front of us moved on the side so we have space to go forward. But what I didn’t expect was a loud and multiple gunshots echoed after we passed!

Mabilis kong nilingon ang pinanggalingan namin! Nagbabarilan sila. Kitang-kita ko ang mga ilaw na nanggagaling sa bawat pagputok!

“Keith! They’re shooting each other!” I got scared and hold his firm hand.

“I should’ve shot that motherfucker!” He hissed.

“You moron! Who are these guys on that vehicle?!” Jacobi was upset, I heard gunshots coming from him.

“Worry about yourself. Don’t be killed.” Keith muttered calmly.

“Are you trying to sell me?!”

“No! I have sniper watching you. You better leave!”

“Mossad might kill me! At least give me a wound to make it believable that I am not a traitor but a fucking survivor!” Jacobi laughs like a devil.

Ipinkit ko ang mga mata ko. Rinig na rinig ko ang malakas na pintig ng puso ko.

“Shoot yourself. Make it bloody so you’d get Mossad’s sympathy.” Keith suggested heartlessly.

Hindi ko alam kung matatakot ako, kakabahan o matatawa sa kung paano sila mag usap.

Another vehicle in front of us is approaching. But this time, it is fast like the driver is intentionally want to bump into us! Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko dahil talagang papunta sa harap namin ang sasakyan!

“Keith!” I screamed when the bright lights made me closed my eyes and I felt a loud bang of that vehicle against ours!

I wasn’t able to control my body due to the heavy impact of that car. But it didn’t stop there, I heard gunshots that coming inside. I gasped when I felt a sharp pain on the side of my stomach.

My head and body is aching. My heart is pounding badly. I do not have enough energy to see what’s happening.

Unti-unti akong sinasakop ng dilim. Hinawakan ko ang masakit na parte ng aking tiyan. I bite my lips when I felt my warm blood covered my palm.

I tried to see what Keith’s is doing. He’s shooting the men from another vehicle.

“Taliyah, are you okay?” I heard the panic on his voice.

“Y-Yeah,” I said weakly even if I am already in pain.

I didn’t want him to focus on me. Ang atensyon niya ay dapat nasa mga kalaban sa harap na walang sawa sa pagpapaulan ng bala sa sinasakyan namin.

“Stay down! Taliyah! Please!”

I lowered my body to protect myself from the bullets. The windshield is broken already and the broken glass is hitting both of us.  Had no idea until when the shooting will stop. My eyelids got heavier and I don’t think I’d be able to keep myself conscious.

“Baby! Stay with me! Don’t sleep!” The fear on his voice was heard.

Kahit pilitin ko, hindi ko talaga kaya. Nakakapanghina ang nararamdaman kong sakit sa buo kong katawan. I put a pressure on my wound but still, it was not enough to make me stay awake.

“Taliyah! Open your eyes! Fuck it!”

Slowly, darkness invaded me.

29 ~ FALLEN

CHAPTER TWENTY NINE

The pain was excruciating. It made my conscious came back but not completely. My eyelids are still heavy, but I am really trying to stay awake.

The loud sounds of the helicopter blades were deafening. We are already flying. I didn’t know how I made it here. But I’m glad we did.

“Baby, stay with me,” I heard Keith’s voice laced with agitation. “Look at me, look at me…”

Sinikap kong ibukas pa lalo ang aking mga mata.

Keith is in front of me, attending to my wound. I am no longer wearing a bullet proof vest. The blood coming from my stomach covered my white blouse. It terrified me.

Even his hands were tainted by my own blood. I saw scratches on his face too and some bloods. I am happy because he’s still with me. We are both alive. Hindi siya mawawala sa akin. Alam kong sasamahan niya ako sa kahit na anong panahon at pagkakataon. Tiwala ako na palagi niya akong babantayan.

I opened my lips to say something but I cannot utter a word. Nanunuyo ang labi ko at ang lalamunan.

Nakita ko rin si kuya, tumutulong siya kay Keith sa pag-ampat ng dugo na galing sa aking mga sugat. Lalo na sa bandang tiyan. Masakit talaga ang parte na ito. They are both focused with this particular wound as if I might die if they didn’t give their attention to me.

“Tang ina!” Keith’s sharp curse made me winced.

I closed my eyes again and hope that I will be alive. Though I am in pain, but I feel relieve as well. Because we were able to escape from the devils. I will be free. I think, I can now take a rest.

“Taliyah!” That was the last word I heard from my boyfriend before I finally allowed myself to sleep.

Iminulat ko ang mga mata ko nang tamaan nang pang-umagang sinag ng araw. Ang maalat na hangin ay yumayakap sa akin. Sa harap ko ay ang marahan na hampas ng alon sa dalampasigan, at nagkikislapang pinong puting buhangin. Ang kulay asul na karagatan ay nagsilbing salamin ng matingkad na kulay ng langit.

“Mommy!” I heard a voice from somewhere.

Hinanap ko ang boses na ’yon. I saw a little girl, running towards where I am. Her brown wavy hair is bouncing together with her princess tutu dress. But her face wasn’t clear to me.

Niyakap niya ako nang makalapit siya sa akin. I swallowed hard because I felt a pang on my chest.

“Are you waiting for my daddy?” She innocently asked me.

I can smell her. She smells like a baby with a unique scent that soothed me—like a soft petals of white flowers during summer days. She heals the wounds inside of me that never get healed.

“I will never get tired of waiting for him to come back.”

“But you said, he’s in heaven?”

My forehead creased. The anger and bitterness are eating me again. I can’t accept it. I don’t wanna accept it. That the man that I loved so deeply, my husband was taken away from me.

Nangilid ang luha sa aking mga mata. My hands trembled. Ang mabagal ngunit madiin na pagtarak ng matalim na kutsilyo sa aking puso ay tahimik na pumapatay sa akin.

“No!” I am furious.

Narinig ko ang pag iyak niya at tila ako tinutunaw.

“I wanna see my daddy…” she’s crying against my neck.

“Me too,” my voice cracked. “I missed him so bad. It’s killing me.”

Naramdaman ko ang pagdaloy ng luha sa aking pisngi.

Hindi ko kailanman matatanggap na hindi ko na siya makakasama, hindi na maririnig ang boses niya, at hindi na mararamdaman ang mga halik at yakap niya. My husband—Keith’s death is the end of me.

Tila pinupunit ang aking puso. Hindi ako makahinga sa sobrang pighati at sakit.

“No! No! Keith! No! Please! Don’t leave me like this! I’m begging you! Come back to me! Please!” I felt the tears on my cheeks but I can’t wipe them off.

“Hush, Taliyah…” I heard a familiar gentle voice coming from him.

“Keith!” I cried more.

I felt a gentle hand squeezing mine.

“I’m here, baby, I’m here…” he whispered so tenderly that it pained me.

“Keith! Please… don’t do this to me… c-come back to me…” I kept on saying that like a prayer while crying.

“Open your eyes, please… baby…” he kisses my forehead, down to my cheek.

Hindi lang buong katawan ko ang masakit, pati na rin ang puso ko. Nakakapagod. Gusto ko nang magpahinga sa lahat ng pighati na nararamdaman ko. Kung panaginip lang ang lahat ng ito, gusto ko nang matigil at bumalik sa reyalidad.

“Taliyah… wake up…”

Dahan-dahan na binuksan ko ang aking mga mata.

I saw him, Keith, in front me, staring at me, with scratches on his face… he’s alive!

My tears began to flow and even if it was hard to move, even if my arms were weak, I tried hard to carry my body so that I can embrace him. Niyakap ko siya ng sobrang higpit. Takot na takot ako na mawala siya sa akin.

He hugs me back. Then he caresses my hair. He planted a kiss at the top of my head.

Ang lakas-lakas ng pintig ng aking puso.

Panaginip lang ang lahat ngunit tila totoong panaginip. It felt like it happened… or it would happen. I can’t explain my dream.

“Don’t leave me…” pagmamakaawa ko sa kanya.

“I won’t.” He kissed my forehead again.

Sinubukan niya akong ihiga ulit sa kama ngunit nagmatigas ako kahit na nanghihina at nararamdaman ang pagsuot ng hapdi sa gilid ng aking tiyan.

“You left me. You left us…”

I remembered the little girl in my dream. She was hugging me while she was crying on my neck because she wants to see her daddy.

“I didn’t.”

I shook my head. I am so terrified. I didn’t wanna let go of him.

“Hug me… hug me… please… don’t leave me…” I’m begging.

Narinig ko ang marahan na tawa niya. Tapos ay niyakap niya ako lalo habang hinahalikan ang noo ko at sintindo.

His kisses started to calm me down… he’s comforting me… his embrace gives me peace of mind.

I took a deep breath. Namigat muli ang talukap ng aking mga mata. Ngunit ayoko nang bumalik sa pagtulog. I didn’t want my dream to continue. Ayokong malaman ang mga susunod na mangyayari. Kahit panaginip lang iyon, sobrang sakit pa rin ang idinulot sa akin.

“I don’t wanna sleep again…” nanginig ang boses ko dahil sa takot.

Keith stares at me. Namumungay ang mga mata niya. His amber eyes… I suddenly missed watching them.

Gusto kong lunurin ang sarili ko sa pagtitig sa kanya—sa iba’t ibang bahagi ng mukha niya. Natatakot ako na dumating ang panahon na baka hindi ko na siya masisilayan.

I swallowed the bile on my throat. My heart was racing so hard that it hurts me.

Tinignan ko ang rahan sa mga mata niya habang nakatitig sa akin. Tahimik kong ipininta sa isipan ko ang kulay, ang hugis, pati na rin ang emosyon na ibinibigay niya sa akin sa mga sandaling ito.

I painted the coppery hue of his pupils, and his golden irises in my head. So that I won’t forget them. Na kung sakali man na sumapit ang araw na hindi ko na siya makikita, may larawan ako ng mga mata niya na permanente kong ipininta sa aking ala-ala.

Paulit-ulit kong babalikan ang paraan kung paano niya ako titigan. Hindi ako magsasawang sariwain ang paraan kung paano niya ako pagmasdan ng ganito.

My eyes traveled down to his reddish lips. The lips that always passionately kiss me. Gusto ko siyang palaging halikan para lang hindi ko makalimutan ang tamis ng labi niya. I want to kiss him longer until the sweetness of his lips stayed on mine. In this way, I will have a freedom to taste his lips whenever I missed him through licking mine.

I am feeling so hopeless and broken, I didn’t want him to be away from me. How can I make him stay with me? Can we have our forever together?

Keith leans closer to kiss my trembling lips.

Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata upang damhin ang madamdamin na halik niya sa akin.

Hindi ko napigilan ang mga luha na dumaloy muli sa aking pisngi habang marahan niya akong hinahalikan. Tila ba narinig niya ang mga pangarap sa aking isipan—nalaman niya na gusto kong manatili sa aking labi ang tamis ng kanya.

“Taliyah, I’m here. Hindi ako mawawala sa ’yo…” namamaos ang pabulong na boses niya.

I shouldn’t get affected by my dream. This is my reality now. Keith is still with me. He’s still mine. He’s beside me. He won’t leave my side.

Habang pinagmamasdan ko siya, lumalakas ng todo ang pintig ng puso ko. Alam ko sa sarili ko na mahal ko na siya. Sigurado ako sa nararamdaman kong ito.

He needs to know what I feel for him. Di bale na kung hindi niya ako mahal. I just want him to know my love for him. He deserves to be loved. He deserves my love.

Keith is sitting at the space of the bed. He’s gently wiping the tears on my cheeks using his thumb. While his other hand is holding mine. He relaxes me… comforts me… like my oasis of calm.

Our eyes locked once again. I had to take a deep breath so that I won’t pass out because of the intensity of the beating of my heart. I am making myself ready to tell him about my love for him. I am very anxious.

His lips parted as if he’s thinking of something amazing and he can’t believe it.

I saw his jaw ticked. His luscious eyebrows knotted.

Kung kanina marahan siya, ngayon ay tila siya nagagalit sa sarili niya o sa kung ano man ang iniisip niya habang pinagmamasdan niya ako.

“I have no idea what I’d do if I lose you…”

I bite my bottom lips.

Naalala ko ang nangyari noong tumatakas kami. Malinaw ang lahat sa akin. Kahit na nawalan ako ng malay, naibalik ko rin naman no’ng nasa helicopter na kami. I saw him and my brother, darkly panicking while attending to the wound on my stomach.

Hinaplos niya ang pisngi ko sa napakarahan na paraan. Tila ako tinutunaw. Napapapikit ako.

“I’d be lost without you. I’d be in the dark if I won’t see you…”

Naririnig ko ang malakas na tibok ng aking puso. Hindi na rin ako sigurado kung sa akin lang ba ang naririnig ko o pati ang kanya. Kinakabahan ako habang magkatitigan kami at habang sinasabi niya ang saloobin niya sa akin.

“Losing you means losing myself, Taliyah.”

Slowly, Keith leaned closer again. I can almost taste his lips, but he didn’t kiss me.

Para akong mawawala sa wisyo. Nalalasing at nasasabik na muling matikman ang labi niya. Tila ako maiiyak sa tuwing iniisip ko na mahal ko siya. Siya lang talaga ang gusto kong makasama sa buhay na ito.

“Baby, I’ve fallen for you,” he whispered, then painfully closed his eyes.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit masaya naman ako ngunit animo sinusugatan ang puso ko nang malaman ko na mahal niya rin ako. Ang hapdi, galak, at pait ay walang patawad na naghalo sa aking dibdib.

I silently catch my breath. I am astonished.

I have never expected that I’d hear him saying that he has fallen in love with me. Ang tanging nasa isip ko lang ay kung paano sasabihin sa kanya na mahal ko siya. I guess, this is how it supposed to be and I don’t have plan to stop my confession.

A warm gentle smile escaped from my lips as I watch the fine looking man in front of me. He’s in love with me and I felt enthusiastic. Kung hindi lang masakit ang katawan ko, baka ako pa ang mauna na angkinin siya.

“I’m in love with you,” I softly said and gave him a loving gaze.

He licked his lips. Namumungay ang mga mata niya.

My heart is really hammering against my rib cage.

“Let’s get married soon,” he whispered against my lips.

Namimilog ang mga mata ko at bahagya pa siyang naitulak para lang makita kung seryoso ba siya o ano.

Hinahabol ko ang paghinga ko, nababahala na bigla nalang akong mahimatay dahil sa tindi ng nararamdaman ko. Tila ako nahihilo at nanghihina.

“Keith…”

Umiigting ang panga niya.

The growing dark stubbles on his jaw made him look hot, matured, and rough all at once.

Napalunok ako. Hindi na mapigilan pa ang paghuhumerentado ng puso ko. Kanina pa tila bulkan na nag-a-alboroto. Sumasakit na ang dibdib ko. Hindi ko na yata kakayanin kung uulitin niya pa akong ayain na magpakasal.

I pursed my lips. I’m feeling dizzy. My hands were trembling.

“Will you be my wife?” there was solace on his tone.

Parang pinipiga ang puso ko dahil sa labis na saya.

Sana ay tumigil pansamantala ang pagdidiwang sa loob ng aking dibdib. Hindi ako komportable na ganito pala katindi ang pagtingin ko sa kanya.

Dahan-dahan akong tumango.

I don’t care if he doesn’t have ring yet to give me. But I’d be happy if he will give me soon.

“I wanna be your wife,” my lips quivered.

He cupped my jaw to kiss my lips again. This time, it’s very passionate and loving. It made me close my eyes.

I allowed myself to feel his sweet lips on mine, thinking that I’ll have his lips in this lifetime. Only for me. He’s made for me. He’s destined to be with me. He belongs to me.

I am panting after our slow and emotional kissing. I bite my lips.

Ramdam ko rin ang pag-iinit ng aking pisngi. Sana ay hindi ito panaginip. I hope this is the reality. I’d be mad if this was just part of my dreams.

“I’m sorry, I don’t have your ring with me,” he slightly pinched my chin.

Ngumiti ako. “You can always give me my ring. I’m willing to wait.”

His lips formed into a thin line but there’s a mischievous glimpse on his amber striking eyes. Oh, I love his eyes so much. Handa akong magpakalunod sa kawalan habang tinititigan siya.

Kinuha niya ang kamay ko at may rahan na hinalik-halikan ang aking mga daliri. Animo sinasamba niya ako habang nalulugod siya sa katotohanan na pumayag akong magpakasal sa kanya.

This is the man I will marry. The only man I want to be the father of my children. And definitely the one I hope to spend my life with everyday.

30 ~ SUCK

CHAPTER

THIRTY

I am right. We are already at Uncle Harris’ safe house in Quezon. My mother is also with us. I felt so relieved. We are now free from the devils. I wish my evil father won’t bother us anymore.

Nang magising ako, masakit ang buong katawan ko. Nadatnan ko si Keith na nasa tabi ko. Siguradong hindi siya umalis. Hinintay niya ulit akong magising. Inalala ko ang mga nangyari…

The night of our escape, we encountered enemies on the other side of the road. There were gunshots, breaking pieces of the glass, multiple bullets on our direction, the pain and fear.

I lost my conscious during the gunfires. But I was awake when we got inside the helicopter. I remember my brother and Keith attending to my wounds. Then I passed out again.

I had a dream…

I was on the shore, a little girl called me ‘mommy’, she smells so good, I could almost smell her scent now. But we were both crying because we lost her father—I lost my husband and that was… Keith.

Napalunok ako. Biglang nanlamig ang kalamnan ko.

Hanggang sa mga sandaling ito, kahit alam kong panaginip lang iyon, binabalot pa rin ako ng matinding takot.

Then, Keith’s confession about his love for me flashed my mind. I can’t help but to bite my lips. My heart is pounding. He’s in love with me and he asked me to marry him!

Napasinghap ako nang tuluyang maalala ang mga pinag-usapan namin. I have no idea what was the exact date it happened. I lost counts. I’ve been asleep.

“Anak, Keith will be back. Okay?” Mom comforts me.

Nakaidlip lang ako ng sandali kanina, pag gising ko wala na siya. I suddenly have this anxiety of not seeing him again once he left me. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko aalisin itong takot at pagkabahala na baka mawala sa akin ng tuluyan ang lalaking mahal ko.

“Sumama lang kay Harris sa bayan. Hindi ko alam kung ano pa ang kailangan nilang bilihin at isinama pa talaga si Keith. Alam naman ng uncle mo na para kang nanghihina kapag hindi mo nakikita ang boyfriend mo.”

Sumimangot ako.

“Mommy, he’s not my boyfriend anymore. He’s my fiancé now. Wala nga lang singsing.”

“Oo nga pala. Maybe they were just making excuses, huh? Baka bibili talaga ng singsing mo?”

Mabuti sana kung gano’n nga. Para hindi na ako mag-aalala ng ganito.

Uncle Harris’ rest house is quite big. There are eight bedrooms, a swimming pool, and jacuzzi. It was located in the middle of the forest. It was hidden and packed with armed security too. His late wife used to be my mother’s closest friends. They only have two children. Parehong lalaki at may kanya-kanya na rin buhay. Ngunit alam ko, wala pang mga asawa kagaya ni kuya.

Mauunahan ko pa talaga silang mag asawa.

I smiled as I imagine myself walking on the aisle while Keith was waiting for me at the altar. Kailan kaya ang kasal namin? Excited na ako!

“I hope so, mom. I miss him already.”

There’s a glimpse of solace on her brown eyes. Her hair is in clean low bun. Her beauty remained timeless.

“My baby girl is really in love. I am happy that Keith is feeling the same way. Masasaktan ako kung hindi ka niya mahal.”

Naglakad palapit sa amin si Lucinda na may dalang tray kung saan nakalagay ang meryenda.

“Heto na ang request niyo, Madame. Sana magustuhan niyo.” She carefully put down the cassava cake and the Halo-halo with ube on top.

“Salamat po…”

“Walang anoman, Miss Rasha.”

We are having our snacks in front of the swimming pool area at the back of the house. I can feel the quietness around us. Mabilis na gumaan ang pakiramdam ko dahil sa wakas wala na kami sa bahay ng aking ama. Malayo na kami sa kanya at sa mga demonyo na pumigil sa amin maging malaya.

Humugot ako ng hangin sa dibdib upang mas madama ang gaan na dulot sa akin nang pag-alis namin sa dating tinitirahan. Sana ay huwag na kaming abalahin ni daddy. Sana ay hayaan niya nalang kaming mabuhay ng wala siya. We don’t need him. We can live and survive without him.

“It’s not hard to love me, mom. I think, he likes me ever since…” I continued our conversation that was interrupted when Lucinda brought us our snacks.

“I can tell. Kahit sinasabi niyong magkaibigan lang kayo, alam ko pa rin na mas higit pa sa pagkakaibigan ang nararamdaman niyo para sa isa’t isa. Especially when you confessed that you gave him your virginity. I was worried though. I thought you were going to get pregnant that month.”

I winced. I don’t have my pills with me!

“Pwede na siguro akong mabuntis ngayon?” I beamed.

Mahinhin ang naging tawa niya. “Pwede. But make your wounds healed first, Rasha. You’re too aggressive.”

I giggled. “I am not. I think, I am just so in love with him I want us to have a baby.”

“And I am certain, he wants it too.”

Tumango-tango ko bilang pag sang ayon.

Napag-usapan na namin ni Keith ang tungkol sa pagkakaroon ng anak. Ngayon na malaya na kami, puwede na siguro. I can’t really explain my obsession to have a baby girl with him. Pakiramadm ko, sasaya ako ng husto kapag biniyayaan na kami ng anghel na mamahalin namin hanggang dulo.

I picked up my new iPhone. We also changed our numbers. So the devils can’t track us down. I typed a message for my fiancé.

Taliyah: Are you still out? Can you buy me pills? I don’t have it with me.

Kung hindi pa siya handa na magka-anak kami, maiintindihan ko. I was asking him to buy me a pills for me to know what will be his reaction.

I took a bite of sweet cassava cake and have my halo-halo while waiting for his reply. After a few minutes, he did.

Keith: You don’t need that.

My face heated. Sa sagot niya, parang sinabi niya na rin na hindi ko na ’yon kailangan dahil baka may balak na siyang buntisin ako! I am becoming assuming, huh?

Taliyah: Why? I’m gonna get pregnant. Sige ka!

Keith: We’ll talk about this when I get back. What are you doing?

Taliyah: Eating my snacks while talking to mom. Come back here na. I miss you already.

Keith: Yeah. We’ll be home in one hour or two.

Taliyah: Ang tagal!

His name suddenly popped on my screen because he’s calling me. I didn’t want to talk to him in front of my mom. Tumayo ako at kahit medyo i-ika ika, naglakad ako malapit sa swimming pool.

“Hello?”

“What are you eating?” His baritone on the other line made me bite the inside of my cheek.

“Cassava cake and halo-halo. Are you in town?”

“Yes. I’m waiting for your uncle’s meeting to finish. Then we’ll be back there.”

“Are you with his security?” I want to know if he’s safe!

“Yeah. Why?”

“Just making sure you’re safe there.”

“I am safe. Don’t worry.”

“Uh, why don’t you like to buy me a pills?” I arched my eyebrow.

“Taliyah, it’s not good for you.”

“What if I get pregnant? Huh? Are you ready to take the responsibility?”

“I am always ready.”

Tila may kung anong apoy ang sumaboy sa aking pisngi. Talaga yatang may plano na siyang buntisin ako! Hindi man niya derektang sinasabi, ngunit nararamdaman ko na handa nga siya kung sakaling mabuntis man ako.

“That’s good to know. You’re a soldier after all… always ready…” I beamed.

Ang tunog ng tawa niya sa kabilang linya ay nahimigan ko ng pagka-aliw. Napapangiti tuloy ako.

“Okay. Let’s talk later.”

“Sige. Ingat!”

I ended the line and went back to my mom. She’s crossing her legs while watching me.

“Where are they?”

“In town. May meeting daw po si Uncle Harris.”

“I see. I believe his sons will visit here this coming weekend.”

“How about kuya?”

“He will visit with Pearson and Taylor.”

I clapped my hands in excitement.

Noong nagising ako, isang beses ko lang nakita si kuya Rashid. Bumalik agad siya ng Maynila. Mabuti naman at bibisita siya rito. I wanna thank him personally for helping us to escape from our father.

Gusto ko man makibalita kung ano na ang nangyayari kila Mossad at sa aking ama, mas pinili kong huwag nalang. I am positive that they are angry but I hope they won’t seek for revenge. Sana talaga ay tuluyan na kaming maging malaya ni mommy.

“Mom, aren’t you scared? Paano kung utusan ni daddy ang mga tauhan niya na hanapin tayo?”

She’s enjoying her halo-halo. Kung umasta siya ngayon akala mo ay hindi siya galing sa impyerno at hindi mahirap ang naging paraan para maka-alis siya doon.

“I’d be more scared if I stupidly chose to stay in hell and be with your evil father. I’d rather have a life without him and his shadows.”

I exhaled. Mom is right.

Ganito rin dapat ang maramdaman ko. Pagsisisihan ko ng husto kung hindi ako makakaalis sa poder ng aking ama at ng mga demonyo sa paligid namin. I never wanted to be imprisoned in hell. I wanted a life where I have freedom, where I can do all that I want, and where I can be with people that I cherished so much.

“Wag kang mag-alala, anak. Sinigurado sa akin ni Harris at ng kuya mo na ligtas tayo sa lugar na ito. Nakita mo naman na marami rin tauhan sa paligid. Hindi nila tayo pababayaan.”

“Alam ko po. Pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasan na huwag mag-alala. Especially about Keith’s life. What if dad will hunt him down? Natatakot ako para sa kanya.”

Mommy put down her halo-halo so that she can hold my hand and squeeze it gently. The coldness of her soft hand  because of what she’s eating made me quivered slightly.

“You need to trust Keith. He knows what he’s doing. He’s highly trained. Ang taong kagaya niya ay mahirap pabagsakin. Bago pa nila isinagawa ang plano nila, sigurado akong pinag-aralan din nila ang mga posibleng kahihinatnan ng gagawin nila. They are ready with the consequences. Ang hindi lang natin alam ay kung paano nga niya lulusutan si Mossad at ang tatay mong walang puso.”

I wanna talk to Keith about this. Hindi ako mapapakali hanggat hindi ko nalalaman mula sa kanya ang mga gagawin niya para lang makaligtas sa mga kamay ng kalaban. I made him involved with this. I am responsible for his life and safety from now on. Especially that the enemy is my own father.

Pagkatapos namin mag usap ni mommy, bumalik ako sa silid ko. I took a brisk shower and clean the wounds on the side of my stomach. The cut is deep. I am thankful that it didn’t hit the sensitive part of my abdomen. Tiniis ko ang hapdi at nagpatuloy.

I wear a peach sunny dress. I let my long wavy hair fall on my back. After I put lotion on my body, I sprayed a perfume.

Keith texted me that they are already on the way back here. I am excited to see him after a few hours of his absence. I’m becoming possessive and I hope he won’t get tired of me.

I am done brushing my hair when I heard a knock on my door.

“Come in!”

Nang bumukas ang pinto, nangiti ako nang makita ko si Keith.

He’s sporting a white t-shirt and a cargo pants. The fabric of his top is thin enough for me to see the shadow of his iron clad chest. The short sleeves exposed his big forearms. Nahuhumaling talaga ako sa braso niya.bI can imagine myself gripping on it while he’s taking me…

I leered at myself. Am I that thirsty? Ilang araw palang kaming hindi nagtatalik, ganito na ako manabik sa kanya?

When Keith took a step forward to get closer to me, I stood up from the sofa. My knees quivered a bit.

“You’re here. Finally!” I blew a breath of excitement.

Sinalubong ko siya nang malapit na siya sa akin at agad siyang niyakap. He embraces me back and kisses the top of my head.

“How are you?”

“I’m feeling better. I cleaned my wound.”

“Let me see…”

I looked at him and tiptoed to kiss his lips.

Habang lumilipas ang araw, mas dumidilim ang panga niya. I think, he likes to grow his stubbles. I don’t mind though. He’s still mysteriously hot and vigorous.

I caressed his jaw with my palm.

“Don’t you wanna shave this?” Itinagilid ko ang ulo ko habang pinagmamasdan ang lalaking mahal ko.

I am really in love with him. Makita ko lang siya, sumasaya na ako. Malaman ko lang na ligtas siya, napapanatag na ako. He’s like a tattoo in my mind, I couldn’t get rid of him. I don’t have plan to. Gusto kong manatili ang imahe niya sa aking isipan.

“Do you want me to?” Inabot ng halik niya ang kamay ko sa kanyang panga.

Hindi ako makapili kung ano ba ang mas gusto ko. Malakas pa rin ang dating niya kahit mag shave siya o hindi.

“Not really. You looked hot with this growing stubbles…”

“Just tell me if you want me to shave.”

Umiling ako at ngumiti. “No, I think, I like it for now. Kapag nagsawa na ako, I’ll be the one who shave your stubbles.”

Keith angled his head to give me another kiss.

Ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko habang iginagalaw ang aking labi. I slightly gasped between our kisses when he carried me and he walked towards my bed.

Slowly, he lay me down and he positioned himself on top of me.

Nahinto sandali ang halikan namin ngunit agad din na ipinagpatuloy. Our tongue is passionately fighting against each other. Nalulunod ako sa matamis at maalab na halik na pinagsasaluhan naming dalawa.

He placed my thin arms on his nape. Then he has started to caress every part of my body. When he carefully slid his palm under my dress and found my breast, I whimpered. I missed being touched by him.

Hinahabol ko ang aking hininga nang itigil namin ang marubdob na halikan. Tinignan ko siya ng may pananabik sa aking mga mata.

“Does your wound hurt?” marahan ang boses niya, nanghihina ako.

“A bit. But I’m fine…”

He carefully removed up my dress. He groaned roughly when he saw my exposed breasts.

Kinagat ko ang labi ko.

I didn’t wear a bra. I don’t need it. Alam kong darating siya at nasasabik ako sa kanya. I looked down only to see that my rosy nipples are hard enough to seduce him.

He plays with one using his thumb. It made me sigh in satisfaction. I want him. My body was aching for him.

“Let me suck these pretty teats…” he sensually muttered.

“Please…”

I guided his head towards my chest.

Ingat na ingat siya na huwag niyang masagi ang sugat ko sa tiyan. I won’t move to avoid any contact with him against my wound.

“Uuhhh…” a soft moaned escaped my lips when I felt his hot mouth covered my nipple.

Pinanood ko ang ginagawa ni Keith.

Nakapikit ang mga mata niya habang tahimik niyang sinisipsip ang utong ko. His thumb is playing with the other one, making it harder. Nakakaliyo ang sensasyon. Nalulugod ako at napapakagat sa aking labi dahil sa sarap.

I can already feel the excitement coming from my inner thighs. But I can’t just move. Para maiwasan na masagi niya ang sugat ko. Kailangan kong mag ingat na huwag mabangga ito dahil makirot at sariwa pa.

“Keith…” I called him when he sucks too hard.

Masarap sa pakiramdam ngunit medyo may hapdi dahil halata nanggigigil siya. Hinaplos ko ang magaspang niyang panga habang masarap na dumadaing.

“You were like a hungry baby looking for my milk…” I giggled sexily.

He looked at me behind his thick eyelashes. Namumungay ang mga mata niya at patuloy sa pagsipsip sa utong ko. Hindi ko mapigilan ang huwag umungol. Ang galing niya talaga. Alam na alam niya kung paano ako paligayahin kahit sa ganitong paraan.

“Mmmm… uhhh…”

I arched my back when his one hand travelled to my inner thighs. He didn’t need to remove my shorts. He expertly slid his palm on my underwear and found my throbbing femininity.

Napapikit siya lalo at halos mapamura nang maramdaman niya sa mga daliri niya kung gaano ako nasasabik sa kanya. I am soaking wet already. Tila sumasakit ang pagkababae ko dahil lang gustung-gusto ko na ng atensyon niya sa parteng ito.

“Keith…” muli ko siyang tinawag sa walang tiyak na dahilan.

He stopped from sucking my nipples. He then licked his lower lips.

“I wanna suck your cl*t…” he pressed his thumb against my nub which made my body shivered in pleasure.

Napadaing ako sa ligaya. Tumaas ang mga balahibo ko sa katawan. Sabik na sabik na ako sa kanya. Nakakawala ng lakas.

“Suck it, please…”

“Lower down your moan. This room is not soundproof….”

Nahihibang akong tumango. Kahit na hindi ako sigurado kung kaya ko bang hinaan ang mga ungol ko habang pinapaligaya ng dila niya ang pagkababae ko. My body is burning and aching at the same time. I really want him.

When Keith removes down my thong, my legs shook because of his callous hand. Nakatingin siya sa akin. Nalalasing ang mga mata niya. Lalo lang akong nahuhumaling sa kanya.

I parted my legs so that I can accommodate him fully. I then guided his head down to my inner thighs.

I gripped on the bedsheet when I felt him kissing my flesh. I am throbbing shamelessly. I closed my eyes tightly when his kisses went to my cl*t. Sobrang rahan ng halik niya, mababaliw yata ako sa matinding ligaya.

“Aahhh…” I bite my lips. “Mmm…”

He slid his arms under my legs to reach my hands. Hinawakan ko ang magkabilang kamay niya na nasa bewang ko na tila ba ang mga ’yon ang kakapit sa akin upang hindi ako mawala ng tuluyan sa katinuan.

When he has started to gently suck my cl*t, I cannot control my loud moans anymore. It was too hard to stop myself because he’s so good… damn him. I love him so much.

31 ~ WOUND

CHAPTER

THIRTY

ONE

Keith needed to carry me inside the bathroom because my scandalous moan was making him panic. I was laughing while he’s leering at me. Ang suplado niya talaga.

Ano ba ang magagawa ko? He licked me so damn good! It was extremely difficult to control my noisy and scandalous moans.

I pursed my lips when he put me down at the marbled countertop. I am already naked.

He’s topless, revealing his massive upper body to my eyes. Malalaki ang mga braso niya at matitigas. Idagdag pa ang mga galit na ugat na nag-a-alpasan sa balat niya. Nakakatakam. Nauuhaw ako lalo. Gustung- gusto ko ang katawan niya.

He’s still on his cargo pants. I can see his V-line abs and the happy trail on his lower abdomen. It made me swallowed. The view of his body is seducing me. He’s too hot and ravishing. I wanted him to take me until he’s satisfied.

I feel so hopeless. Aside from that I am so in love with him, I am lusting over him as well.

“Baby…” malambing kong tawag sa kanya sabay haplos sa braso niya.

Wala na akong pakialam kung mahadpi man ang sugat sa tiyan ko o kung dumugo ’yon, mas nangingibabaw sa akin ang kasabikan na maangkin niya.

“I think, I need to make our bedroom soundproof because my wife is such a loud moaner,” he whispered sensually against my neck.

My throat suddenly ran dry. He called me as his wife!

Uminit ang buong mukha ko at umikot hanggang sa aking batok. Kailangan ko pang lumunok para lang hindi mabilaukan sa walang paawat na bilis ng pintig ng puso ko.

My hair fall down on my back, revealing my chest in front of him. My body is still burning and I am ready for him to take me. Kaya lang parang hindi iyon ang plano niya dahil ang halik niya sa leeg ko ay bumaba sa dibdib ko… pababa sa pagitan ng aking mga hita.

I bite my lips tightly. Hindi pa siya tapos! Hindi pa siya kuntento sa ginawa niya sa akin sa kama!

“Really?” I rolled my eyes when he parted my legs and placed my heels at the edge of the countertop.

“Now, you can moan as loud as you can. I hope nobody would hear you.”

I caressed his head while he’s erotically licking my flesh. His warm tongue is making me crazy. Pumikit ako at muling dinama ang ligaya na umiikot sa bawat bahagi ng aking pagkababae.

“Ooohhh… Keith… mmm! Mmmm!”

Hindi ko na pinigil pa ang mga ungol ko. Sinasabayan ko rin ang galaw niya sa pamamagitan nang pag-giling ng aking balakang. I think, I am doing it right because I heard him cursing.

“Rub it,” he commanded darkly and stuck out his tongue.

Tila ako nalalasing habang nakatitig kami sa isa’t isa. He’s waiting for me to rub my flesh against his tongue. I felt like… I am going insane because of the extreme pleasure invading my senses. My skin is so warm and sensitive.

I rock my hips sexily to rub myself against his tongue. Para akong mawawala sa ulirat at tumitirik ang aking mga mata dahil sa hindi matatawarang kiliti at kamunduhan na tuluyang dumikit sa buong pagkatao ko.

Sa kanya ko lang kayang gawin ang bagay na ito. Walang ibang lalaki, siya lang talaga.

I watch his head moving up and down to meet my wet center. Nahihibang na yata ako sa kaluguran. Daig ko pa ang lasing na wala sa katinuan.

“Aahhh… y-yes… ummm… you’re so good… oohhh…”

Napakapit ako sa balikat niya nang maramdaman ko ang pagbabadya ng init na naipon sa aking puson. I am at the edge again. I could taste the tingling satisfaction poking my lower abdomen.

When he does the long and hard suck, I screamed his name.

“Keith! Aahhh!” My thighs trembled, the squirt was uncontrolled!

“Tang ina,” he cursed hotly and inserted his tongue on my entrance!

“Fuck…” I bite my bottom lip. I was panting, I need air.

Pumikit ako, hinihingal, habang nilalabas-masok niya ang dila sa entrada ng pagkababae ko. He’s literally fucking me with his tongue!

“Keith…” I moaned his name ones more.

Nanginginig ang buong katawan ko sa tindi ng kaluguran na ipinaparanas niya sa akin. Hindi ko talaga siya makakalimutan!

“If you continue fucking me with your tongue, I’d cum again…” I was breathless.

Nagbaba ako ng tingin sa kanya at pinanood siya na gano’n pa rin ang ginagawa. Talagang ipinapasok niya ang dila niya sa loob, isasagad, at hindi aalisin agad. Ipinaparamdam sa akin na kanya lang talaga ako. Siya lang talaga ang may karapatan na gawin ito sa katawan ko.

I thrust my hips to make his tongue go deep inside of me. Halos magdugo na ang labi ko sa sobrang pagkagat ko. Ang mga mata ko ay namumungay na ng todo dahil sa matinding pagnanasa.

Right before I taste another spasm, he stopped and positioned his hard shaft on my entrance. The moment he kissed my neck was the same moment he buried himself inside of me which made me moan wildly.

Hindi na niya pinatagal pa ang aming pag-iisa. Niragasa niya agad ang pagitan ng mga hita ko habang hinahalikan ako sa leeg at sa dibdib. Tumingala ako sa ligayang nararamdaman.

My hands are place on my sides to support my weight, while his, were at the edge of the countertop near where my heels are. His raging cock inside of me was like destroying me because he was pounding so hard and deep. Umuuga ang katawan ko. My boobs were bouncing too.

“Aahh! Aahhh! Yes! Y-Yes! Uhhh!”

I felt a little bit of pain on my stomach but I ignored it. I was driven by too much pleasure to give a damn about my wound.

Keith buried his shaft deeper on me, I then heard him growled like a beast against my sweaty neck.

“Tang ina,” his rough voice and heavy breathing sounded erotic.

My lips parted when I felt his tip poking my lower abdomen. Animo may gusto siyang makamtan sa bahaging ito ng katawan ko at para maabot niya, kailangan niyang ibaon pa ang pagkalalaki niya sa aking loob.

“Keith! Mmmm!” I used my other hand to grip on his muscled arm.

Umaalpas sa labi ko ang masasarap na daing habang malalim niyang binabayo ang pagkababae ko. He thrusts so deep, it made my eyes dilated. I was panting. My heart is booming against my chest. While my body is bouncing because of his harsh and heavy moves.

When he pounded deeply one more time, and rested his throbbing cock inside of me, I gripped on his arm to give myself enough strength to let go of the boiling sensation coming from my lower abdomen. Tila nawala ako pansamantala sa reyalidad nang kumawala ang naipong init sa aking loob.

“Ohhh. Keith…”

My eyes shut closed when I felt him loaded me with his warm bullets. He made sure he filled me everything and no amount was wasted. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang init na pumuno sa akin. It’s very fulfilling. It made me smile. My heart is still racing.

I weakly rested my head on his shoulder blade. He’s scent is addicting… its comforting me.

We are both gasping with heavy breathing. The beating of our hearts are rapid like they synchronized so timely.

Keith planted a tender kiss on my forehead. I felt his love, his care, and his devotion for me.

Kaya lang, gustuhin ko mang magyakapan pa kami, hindi ko na matiis ang pananakit sa tiyan ko.

“Ang hapdi ng sugat ko,” malamyos na sambit ko.

His hearty short laugh made me pouted.

“Let me clean you.” He then carefully carry me.

Naglakad siya papunta sa shower. Ibinaba niya ako at binuksan ang tubig. Kakaligo ko lang at heto’t maliligo na naman. But this time, I am with him. I allowed him to wash my body and my private part. I have no energy to do it myself.

“Hindi ka ba nababahala na baka hanapin ka ng mga tauhan ni Mossad?” Tanong ko sa kanya.

Bumabagabag sa akin ang tungkol dito. Gusto kong malaman niya ito.

“Hindi.”

“Bakit? Hindi ka natatakot?”

He’s massaging my breasts with shower gel. He’s standing behind me. I can feel his hard chest pressing on my back and his erection poking my ass. He just had orgasm but he’s still erect!

“Hindi ako natatakot sa kanila.”

Wala siguro siyang kinakatakutan? Kung mayroon man, ano kaya ’yon?

“Ganyan ba ang mga sundalo? Wala nang kinakatakutan?”

“Walang dahilan para matakot ako sa kanila.”

Bumuntonghininga ako.

“Pero ako ang natatakot para sa ’yo. Paano kung hanapin ka nila? They are probably thinking that you betrayed them by being with me.”

Umagos ang maligamgam na tubig sa katawan namin. Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata.

“They won’t. I am your personal bodyguard, what do you think they would expect me to do? Let you go without me? That’s not my job. Kung nasaan ka, dapat nando’n din ako.”

Hindi ko man lang naisip na ganito ang rason niya. In some point, he’s right. A personal bodyguard shouldn’t leave without his client. Wherever I go, he must be there with me. That’s what his job’s description. Hindi niya dapat ako walain sa paningin niya.

“What does it mean? Are you still working with the devils?”

He turned off the water after he made sure we are both cleaned. He grabbed the towel and gave it to me. Kumuha rin siya ng kanya at ipinulupot lang ’yon sa bewang niya. The water is dripping sexily from his hair, down to his jaw, and broad chest.

Bago niya pa matanto na nakatingin ako sa katawan niya, ibinalik ko agad ang mga mata ko sa mukha niya. He’s stoic and dark. Ganito siya kapag seryoso. Misteryoso na suplado ang dating niya.

“Let me clean your wound,” he motioned me to go back to the bed.

Nauna akong magpunta sa kama at hinintay siya doon. When he came back, he already has the emergency kit with him.

The towel is around my chest. If I will remove it, I’ll be naked again. At hindi ko alam kung paglilinis lang ba sa sugat ko ang gagawin namin o baka may iba pa. Kaya minabuti kong kumuha ng underwear man lang para makaiwas siya sa tukso.

I wear a pair of black lace panty and bra. I walked back to him wearing only that. He’s sitting at the edge of the bed. Madilim ang mga mata niya habang nakatingin sa katawan ko.

Umirap ako. If he can seduce me, I think, I can do the same to him. But I won’t do it now. He needs to clean my wound.

I lay on the bed and waited for him to do his task. When he crawled to get closer to me, I giggled because he planted a soft kisses on my feet, up to my legs, then to my abdomen.

“Beautiful…” he whispered as he watches me laying on bed.

I caressed his arm near me. Nginitian ko siya. I am happy that he’s with me now. Sana huwag na siyang bumalik sa Maynila. I hope he will stop working under Mossad’s security. He can work here. He can be one of Uncle Harris’ securities. It’s better here. He’s safer here.

“Saan ka pala natutulog?” I arched my brow.

“I have a room located on the first floor.”

“You can sleep here with me. This bed is big enough for us…”

He squinted his eyes. Tila ba pinag-iisipan niya pa ang anyaya ko sa kanya. Wala namang masama doon. We are engaged. I used to sleep with him. What’s the matter now? Magiging mag asawa rin naman kami kalaunan. Why don’t we start sleeping together, right?

“Are you sure with this?”

“No doubts…”

“Hmm…”

“Don’t worry about my mom or uncle Harris, they will understand. We are engaged and probably soon to get married. Kaya ayos lang na matulog tayo sa iisang kama.”

Nagpapaliwanag pa talaga ako sa kanya para lang makumbinsi siya na magtabi kami na matulog simula ngayong gabi. I like to sleep and wake up next to him. His body is very comforting. Gustung-gusto ko kapag magkayakap kaming dalawa habang natutulog.

“Ipapaalam ko pa rin ito sa mommy mo, Taliyah.”

I rolled my eyes. Masyado pa rin siyang marangal na akala mo unang beses palang namin na matutulog ng magkasama sa iisang kama. While in fact, we did more than sleeping together, we did more than a kiss.

“Ako na ang magsasabi kay mommy. She knows that I am not a virgin anymore. Papayag ’yon.”

His lips parted. Namamangha siya sa sinabi ko. “Did you tell her?”

I pouted a bit. “I did. Akala niya nga mabubuntis ako no’ng unang beses na may nangyari sa ’tin.”

He blew a breath. He even massage the bridge of his nose as if I am stressing him out.

“Don’t worry, it’s fine. She likes you for me. Kakampi natin si mommy. She’s very supportive. Ayos nga lang din sa kanya kung mabuntis ako. She wants to have an apo na.”

He growled.

Pinigil ko ang ngisi na sumusugat sa aking labi.

“Uh, you know, I dreamed about a little girl. In my dream, she was my daughter… but…” I paused and took a sigh.

“But?”

“We were waiting for you… we were crying… it was very painful…” nangilid ang luha sa mga mata ko.

Hanggang sa mga sandaling ito, ramdam ko pa rin ang matinding sakit na idinulot sa akin ng panaginip kong ’yon.

“Where was I?”

Hindi ko siya matignan ng deretso. I had to avoid his gaze. Napalunok ako. I didn’t want to tell him my dream, but, I should let him know, right? So he’d be very careful.

“She said, you’re in h-heaven…” my voice cracked.

Natawa siya ng bahagya.

Sumimangot ako. I hope I can take that dream as light as the way he takes it.

“I will not go to heaven. Probably, in hell.”

“I don’t want you to go to both. Dito ka lang sa ’kin!” hinila ko siya para lang mayakap ko.

Natatawa siya ngunit walang lakas na nagpatangay upang pagbigyan ako na yakapin siya.

“Dito ka lang. Huwag kang aalis.” I sounded like a toxic and possessive girlfriend.

“Hindi ako aalis sa tabi mo hanggat hindi ka buntis?” he whispered teasingly against my neck.

My cheeks went scarlet. I am serious and he’s just teasing me!

“Kapag nabuntis ako, lalong hindi ka pwedeng umalis sa tabi ko!” Masungit na sabi ko.

I remember clearly what he did a moment ago. He filled me with his warm semen. May plano na yata siyang buntisin ako. He knows I am not taking my pills, but he still did that.

“I’m gonna be stuck with you and our baby then…”

“You will be forever stuck with me and our baby girl. You cannot escape from me!” I said that like a curse.

“Oh, did you just put a spell on me?” he lifted his body a bit to see my face.

Namumungay ang mga mata niya at may multong ngiti sa labi.

“I did. You are tied to me. I’ll be lost if you get lost. I’ll be in the dark if you get in the dark. My life without you will be lifeless.”

His jaw clenched.

I meant what I said. I’ll be so lost without him. I’ll be so broken if I won’t see him again.

Dumilim ang mga mata niya ngunit banaag pa rin ang rahan sa titig niya sa akin.

Hinaplos ko ang kanyang panga.

“Bawal kang lumayo sa ’kin kapag buntis ako, paglilihian pa kita…” my lips formed a smile.

Masakit siyang napapikit. He bites his bottom lip tightly as if he’s suppressing a damn grin.

“I want our baby to have your amber eyes…” I dreamily whispered.

He groaned. He then traces my neck with his feathery kisses…

“Bubuntisin talaga kita,” napapaos na banta niya.

32 ~ RING

CHAPTER

THIRTY

TWO

Nagtataka ako. Gabi na ngunit wala pa rin si Keith at Uncle Harris. I have no idea what makes them busy in town. Kahit si mommy, wala rin impormasyon na maibahagi sa akin.

Lucinda is preparing our dinner with Ruth. But I noticed that they cooked a lot tonight which is strange because only me and my mom will have dinner on that long table.

“What’s happening? We cannot eat all that. But looked yummy though.”

“Miss Rasha, ngayong gabi daw kasi ang dating nina Sir Pearson at Sir Taylor. Baka nga po kaya wala pa sila General ay dahil naghihintay sa Port.”

Nagkatinginan kami ni mommy.

“Harris didn’t tell me about it.”

Napatakip sa bibig si Lucinda. “Naku, sekreto lang yata at nasabi ko pa, Madame.”

Tumawa siya ng bahagya. “Don’t worry, Lucinda. It’s okay. I’ll call Harris to confirm it. Dahil kung on the way na sila dito, makakapaghintay naman kami ni Rasha sa kanila para sabay-sabay na kaming kumain.”

I don’t mind waiting for them. I’d like to eat with people that I know cared for us. But I want to taste the lumpiang Shanghai fist. Hindi ko sila kayang hintayin dahil natatakam na ako sa lumpia.

“Well, I’ll have my appetizer first.” I shrugged my shoulders and put a two piece of lumpia on my plate.

Mommy dialed Uncle’s number.

“Harris, I heard Pearson and Taylor will arrive tonight. Can you confirm?” Mom asked the other line, then she paused…

“Okay, we can wait. Well, Rasha is already having her lumpia. How many minutes before you guys get back home?” She sipped on her wine glass.

I’m just listening.

“Alright. We’ll wait then. Malapit na pala kayo. Okay… okay… you guys take care.” Then she ended up the line.

“Malapit na po sila? Kasama po sina Pearson and Taylor?”

“Yes, they will be here in twenty minutes.”

“Cool! Where’s my Keith?”

Inirapan ako ni mommy tapos at sumimsim sa wine niya ulit.

“What? He’s mine. He’s soon to be my husband.” I chuckled.

“Rasha, I think you’re too clingy when Keith is here. Nakita ko kayo kahapon na naghahalikan sa swimming pool.”

Ngumisi ako nang maalala ang ginawa namin ni Keith.

Inaya ko lang naman siyang mag swimming dahil kung palagi kaming nasa kwarto ko, magtatalik lang kami nang magtatalik. I was the one who initiated the kiss yesterday because he looked hot while I was watching him expertly swim.

Hindi ko akalain na gano’n siya kagaling lumangoy! Talagang namamangha ako lalo na kapag a-ahon siya sa harap ko.

He can do different kind of strokes, then freestyle. Halatang inaral niya rin nang maigi ang paglangoy. He can even do underwater swimming. He was so calmed, smooth, precise, and silent underwater. I didn’t even see him moving. Nagulat nalang ako umahon na siya sa harap ko.

“Did you see the way he swam? I am amazed, mom. He deserved a kiss!”

Hindi niya napigilan ang mahinhin na paghalakhak. Napapailing pa siya. She’s on her Versace silk dress and her hair is in French twist.

“Kinausap niya ako…” aniya.

“Huh? Kailan? For what?”

Nangingiti siya. Halata na nagigiliwan siya sa kung ano.

“Nagpaalam siya kung puwede bang do’n na siya matutulog sa kwarto mo.”

Napanguso ako ng bahagya nang maramdaman ang mainit na haplos sa aking puso.

Keith really did that? Kahit sinabi ko naman na ako na ang bahala tungkol sa bagay na ito. Kinausap niya pa rin si mommy para magpaalam. Kaya paanong hindi ako patuloy na mahuhulog sa kanya?

“He’s respectful. Kahit na inaasahan ko na naman na matutulog kayo sa iisang silid, nagpaalam pa rin siya sa akin. He earned my respect and trust. Kung magpapakasal na kayo, ako ang unang susuporta sa inyong dalawa.”

My heart is melting.

My man; he’s always making things that made me fall for him deeper. He deserved my love so much.

“Thank you, mom…”

Tumayo ako para lapitan siya at yakapin.

“Rasha, I will support you and Keith no matter what. Ganito rin ang gagawin ko sa kuya mo kung sakaling makita niya na ang babaeng mamahalin niya. Right now, Keith have proven that his intention is pure. He loves you genuinely. Alam mo ba kung anong ginawa niya no’ng wala kang malay pagkadating dito?”

Lumayo ako kay mommy para makita siya at alamin ang mga bagay na lingid sa akin.

“Po? What did he do?”

“Galit na galit siya kahit na stable ka na naman.”

“Kanino po siya galit?”

“Sa kuya mo at sa mga tauhan niya na kasama na nag rescue sa ’yo.”

I gasped. Damn, I didn’t know that!

“Bakit siya nagalit kay kuya?”

“Dahil sa may tama ka ng baril. Which I think, he didn’t expect the sudden attack. Kinuwelyuhan niya pa ang mga tauhan ng kapatid mo. He was furious.”

Napangiwi ako. I can imagine Keith raging and becoming violent because I was unconscious and wounded.

“Keith made me nervous. He looked vengeful that time. Rashid and Keith were glaring at each other too. Pareho silang galit. Kung hindi pa sinita ni Harris, baka nagpang abot pa ang dalawa.”

I pouted my lips a bit.

May gano’n pala na pangyayari at hindi ko alam. Kung hindi pa sabihin ni mommy, hindi ko na talaga malalaman. I don’t think Keith would ever tell that to me.

We have welcomed the men when they arrived. But what made me worried is… I didn’t see Keith with them!

“Where is Keith?” I worriedly asked.

Nagkatinginan silang mag-a-ama. Tapos tumingin din sa mga tauhan na kasama.

“Where is he?” Uncle asked his security.

“Meet him at the swimming pool area, Rasha.” Taylor told me with a smirk.

Kumunot ang noo ko. Hindi ba sila magkakasabay bumalik?

“Go ahead…” Pearson urged me.

Nagkibit ako ng balikat. I am not sure what they are up to. But okay, I am going to where Keith is. Naglakad ako papunta sa swimming pool area. I saw him right away.

He’s standing in front of the water, sporting an army green long sleeves and dark pants. I am facing his back. But when I continued my steps towards him, he turned to finally face me. His hands were on his pockets.

My pace gets slower as if I was walking on the aisle while he was waiting for me at the altar. It felt like that. And honestly, it made my heart booming against my chest.

His amber eyes, despite of the limited dimmed lights around, were staring at me—anticipating me to be closer to him.

Sa gitna ng kaunting liwanag, tila siya misteryosong lalaki na lihim kong kinikita tuwing gabi. Animo ang relasyon namin ay ipinagbabawal kaya heto at puro nakaw na sandali lang ang paraan para magkita kami.

He always made me thrilled and excited. Kaya rin siguro hindi nagbabago ang intensidad ng pagtingin ko sa kanya dahil palaging may kasabikan sa akin sa tuwing nariyan siya sa paligid. Even though I know that he’s mine, still, I feel like I needed to work hard more to finally have him completely.

“What are you doing here?” I asked and smiled when I am already a meter away from him.

My lips parted when he slowly kneel down while looking up on me.

He offers me a rare jubilee cut diamond ring. It was beautifully blinking and shining. And I know, it costs a fortune. I am astonished and overwhelmed!

“Keith…” I covered my mouth with my one hand because I didn’t expect that he will do this!

“Rasha Taliyah, will you marry me?” His voice was husky.

Kaagad akong tumango at kasabay ay ang pagbagsak ng luha sa aking mga mata. Mga luha na simbolo ng lubos na kasiyahan mula sa aking puso.

“Yes, yes! I will marry you!”

Keith gently grabbed my hand and slid the diamond ring on my finger. It perfectly suit me. Tila ba inilaan talaga ang singsing para lang sa akin.

Keith stood up. I cupped his jaw and kissed his lips.

Ang sabi ko, makakapaghintay ako ng singsing. Hindi ko akalain na sa ganitong paraan niya pa rin hihingiin ang kamay ko sa pangalawang pagkakataon. This time, he has my ring.

I kissed him while my tears were flowing on my cheeks. My heart was pounding so much like it didn’t want to stop. I don’t feel anything but my burning love for him. Para bang habang tumatagal, nag-a-apoy lang lalo ang pagmamahal ko sa kanya.

He placed his hands on my waist then angle his head to kiss me thoroughly. His kisses were passionate, feverish and loving all at once. I can feel his genuine love for me. Alam kong tapat siya sa akin at totoong gusto niya akong pasakalan.

I gasped when I heard clapping behind us.

It distracted me a bit, but Keith didn’t allow me to stop our kissing. Nangiti ako sa gitna ng halikan namin. I wrapped my thin arms around his nape and continued to gently tastes his tongue with mine.

He pulled me closer to him after that feverish kiss. Namumungay ang mga mata niya habang nakatitig sa akin.

“I love you, baby,” he whispered breathlessly.

I bite my lower lip. My cheeks were heating up. Ang malakas na pintig ng puso ko ay walang humpay.

While I am staring at him, I can imagine us in the future…

We were living by the beach, with our daughter. I’d wait for him because he went fishing. Then I’d help him cook our meals. I wanted a simple and peaceful life with him. Magiging masaya at kuntento ako sa buhay kung siya ang kasama ko at ang aming magiging anak.

“Mahal kita…” malambing na sambit ko.

Tinititigan niya ako. Tapos ay marahan na hinaplos ang aking pisngi gamit ang likod ng palad niya. Humugot siya ng hangin sa dibdib.

I am melting. I don’t think I’d ever get use of the way he stares at me. Siguro kahit mag asawa na kami, patuloy akong magiging apektado sa mga titig niya sa akin. Patuloy na patitibukin niya ang puso ko sa hindi normal na paraan.

“This ring is so beautiful. I love this!” I happily showed him my ring.

“You deserved it.” He carefully grabbed my hand and kissed my ring finger.

“This is very expensive. May pera ka pa ba?”

Marahan siyang natawa. “Wala na. Kailangan ko nang magtrabaho.”

Sumimangot ako at muling ibinalik ang mga braso sa batok niya.

“No, I don’t want you to work away from me. You work here nalang with Uncle’s security.”

Pinatakan niya ng halik ang noo ko.

“Just kidding. Hindi muna ako magtatrabaho. I wanna focus on you.”

Unti-unting sumilay ang masayang ngiti sa akin.

“Talaga? Paano ’yan? Magpapakasal pa tayo? May pera ka pa ba para sa kasal natin?”

Tumango siya. “Mayro’n pa,” may multong ngisi sa labi niya. “Basta para sa ’yo, palaging mayro’n.”

Nangingiti ko siyang inirapan.

Maybe, he has enough savings. He had been working though. Wala rin siguro siyang masyadong pinagkakagastusan kaya naipon niya ang pera niya. Pero tama rin siya, kailangan niyang mag trabaho. And I need to understand it.

How can he support me and our little family if he would stop working, right? Unless, he has fortune on his bank that can secure our everyday expenses. Pero baka maubos din agad.

Kailangan kong lawakan ang pag iisip ko. Hindi ko siya pwedeng pigilan kung gusto niyang mag trabaho. It’s for us after all. But I hope, he will find a new job just near me so he won’t be away from me.

“I don’t need a grand wedding. I only want an intimate ceremony.”

Besides, I only have few people that I will invite. My mom and my brother. Then Uncle Harris and his sons. How about Keith?

“I want that too.”

Tumango ako. “Hmm, are you going to invite your parents and sister? How about your friends?”

He shook his head slightly. “Please do know that we shouldn’t publicly announce our wedding. Let’s keep it intimate and private. Okay?”

I agree. I never wanted my father to know that I am married with Keith. Ayoko siyang makita sa kasal ko. I don’t want him to be part of my special day like how I didn’t want him to be part of our life again. He did nothing but hurt us. He didn’t deserve us.

“I understand. I agree with you. I don’t want my father to know our wedding. I don’t need him.”

“Let’s plan our wedding. Let’s do it soon.”

The smile on my lips widened. I thought I am the only one who’s excited to marry him, I didn’t know he’s more excited and he wants it soon.

“Okay. Let’s talk about our wedding later. For now, let’s have dinner. I want my lumpia.”

Gumapang ang palad niya sa aking tiyan. “Hmm?”

“Hindi pa ako naglilihi.” Inunahan ko na siya.

“Soon, you will,” his lips curled.

Pakiramdam ko ay namumula na ang pisngi ko sa labis na pag-iinit.

“May plano ka talaga na buntisin ako? Let’s get married first before you make me pregnant.”

“We will,” he kissed my lips one more time. “I always imagined you having a big stomach. You will always be mesmerizing to me.”

Napalunok ako. Hindi na magkandamayaw ang pintig ng aking puso.

I am amazed to know that I have an image of my big stomach in his mind. He just proven that he really has plan to impregnate me.

“Is that one of your fantasies? To make me pregnant?” I arched my brow.

There was an arrogant smirk on his lips.

“I have a lot of dreams for us. But yeah, just recently, I’ve been dreaming of you carrying our child.”

“So, to have a child together is both our dreams?”

“Uh-huh…”

I tiptoed to kiss his lips. “Then, we will make our dream come true soon.”

“We will.” Hinalikan niya ang noo ko.

We were congratulated by my mom, Uncle Harris and his sons. We had our casual dinner. Then after, we decided to have a drinks by the pool. Napag-usapan ang ilang bagay tungkol sa mga nangyari kailan lang.

I didn’t know that Taylor was the helicopter pilot. I didn’t recognized him. I was not in good state. While Pearson was with Uncle Harris when they got my mother in Manila.

“Thank you very much for all the help. I know how dangerous it was, but all the effort and sacrifices are worth it, right? Because we are finally free from the devils.” I lifted my glass of champagne a bit and sipped on it.

Malambing na isinandal ko ang ulo ko sa braso ni Keith. He’s playing with my ring using his thumb.

“You shouldn’t drink alcohol,” he whispered, enough for me to hear.

“Why?”

“What if you’re already pregnant?”

My cheeks heated.

Hindi pa naman siguro? Kailan lang ako huminto sa pag inom ng pills. But, we are very active especially now that we are sleeping in the same bed. We always have our time for making love. Wala rin kaming pinipiling oras. I better start being careful to what I eat or drink.

“I will just finish this. Then gonna have my dessert.”

Keith changed the position of his arm. He snaked it around me, then his palm stopped above my stomach. Like he’s protecting whoever is inside even if I am not yet pregnant. He’s becoming protective already.

I moved a little bit closer to him when the cold wind blew. I felt him smelling my hair. Sobrang panatag ko kapag nasa tabi ko siya.

“Right now, what we need to make sure is… if Ramesh would really stop meddling with the two of you. We don’t know yet his plans. We’ll know in time.” Uncle muttered, then glanced at Keith as if they have a secret conversation that only they know.

“Well, I hope he will finally sign the annulment. There was no reason for us to stay with him. I want my life back. We don’t need him. Right, sweetheart?” Mommy turned to me.

“Yes, mom. I don’t think we need him. We don’t. We are fine and happy without him.”

“Let’s just wait for Rashid’s updates if he can get information about your father’s plan.”

I nodded my head while yawning.

“Sleepy?” Keith’s low voice comforted me.

“A bit. But I want my dessert first.”

“Let me get you one. What do you want?”

“No, I call Lucinda,” pinigilan ko siya agad dahil ayokong umalis siya sa tabi ko.

“Mom, do you want a dessert? Can we ask Lucinda or Ruth to get us some sweets?”

Sumenyas agad si Uncle kay Lucinda at agad naman na lumapit sa amin.

“Miss Rasha, may kailangan ka po?”

“Uh, what dessert do we have?”

“May cassava cake, ube halaya, ice cream…”

“What flavor of ice cream?”

“Vanilla and strawberry.”

“Your favorite flavor,” Keith murmured.

Umirap ako. Alam kong nilalaro niya lang ako. He knows my favorite flavor of ice cream and my least favorite.

“Can I have the ube one instead? Thanks.”

“Sige, Miss. Ikaw, Madame?”

“I’ll have the vanilla ice cream, Lucinda. Salamat.”

Lucinda left to get our dessert. The men were contented just having their booze.

“Maiba tayo,” bumaling sa amin si mommy. “Kailan ang plano niyong magpakasal dalawa?”

“Mommy, hindi pa po namin napag-uusapan talaga. But we both decided to have a very intimate ceremony.”

“That’s what I thought. Okay then. If you need anything from me, just ask.”

“Same here. I’d be happy to help you guys.” Uncle Harris said.

“Thanks. I appreciate the help. We’ll let you all know soon our plan.” Keith was polite and calmed.

Humilig pa ako sa kanya. If I won’t wait for my dessert, I’d surely can sleep on his warm hard chest while his arm is around me.

Keith leaned until his lips were near my ear.

“Where do you wanna get married?” His voice was low and it made me more sleepy.

Do I have a dream wedding destination? I don’t remember. But thinking about it now, I’ll be fine having a garden wedding. This place is huge and surrounded by trees. I’ll be contented marrying him around nature. After all, what matters the most is to legally have him as my husband.

“For now, a garden wedding is I think best for us. How about you?”

He nods his head lightly. Then his lips traveled to my temple.

“I’ll marry you wherever and whenever you want,” he whispered with devotion dedicated only for me.

33 ~ HEAVENLY

CHAPTER THIRTY THREE

Taliyah is about to lose her conscious again. Her white blouse is covered with her own blood because of the gunshot she got when we were inside the car. I know, she’s in pain, but I admired her for trying her best to stay up.

“Baby, look at me… look at me…” I am panicking.

Kailanman, hindi ko naranasan ang mag panic sa kahit ano pang sitwasyon. I gone through the most bloody situation in my life, I gone through the worst battle field in the history, I witnessed how people died in front of me, but I had never panicked like this.

I felt like I would’ve a heart attacked seeing her fighting for her life.

This time, I don’t think I would be able to calm down. My heart was pounding against my chest. I am extremely worried with her situation.

Taliyah was not use to the pain. This is probably her first time being hit by a gunshot. Kanina nawalan na siya ng malay. Ngayon, bumabalik iyon pero alam kong nahihirapan na talaga siya.

Her lips parted. She cannot utter any words. I am so mad. I didn’t expect the sudden ambush. It was not part of the plan. I still need to know who those fuckers were!

Rashid was the one putting the pressure on Taliyah’s wound so the blood will stop from coming out. I am helping him and the surgeon to do his job from removing the bullet.

This escape was well planned. I had to force them and made sure that they will bring a surgeon because we had no idea know what will happen with this run off. I am a bit relieve because we have a professional to assist Taliyah.

I have some minor wounds but I can endure the pain. I wanted to make sure first that she’s stable, before I will focus with my own discomfort.

Sanay ako sa ganitong klaseng sakit ng katawan. Kayang-kaya kong tiisin lahat ng hapdi at kirot. Makakapaghintay ako na gamutin ang sarili ko. Siya, hindi. Mas kailangan niya ako ngayon. I won’t leave her for myself. I will stay by her side until I am certain that she’s safe.

I hold her soft hand and squeezed it, helping her to stay awake even if I can see that she’s really trying, but she can’t. Hindi magtatagal, ipipikit niya na naman ang mga mata niya. Maghihintay na naman ako kung kailan siya magigising.

“Taliyah…” I called her name while her eyes were closing.

I took a deep breath. I must let her rest. The bullet has been removed.

Nang tuluyan nang pumikit ang mga mata niya, hindi ko mapigilan ang galit ko para sa mga taong nagpaulan ng bala sa sasakyan namin kanina.

Rashid’s men job were to make sure no enemies will interrupt the escape, but they didn’t able to stop it. It was his responsibility.

“Your men didn’t do their job properly.” I muttered coldly as I attended on my own wounds.

Rashid glared at me sharply.

“You didn’t do your job properly. You allowed the enemy to hit my sister.” He countered back icily.

I poured alcohol to the wound on my arm. Dumaplis ang bala doon kanina na nagsanhi ng sugat at pagdurugo.

“Haven’t you seen the situation below? We were fucking ambushed! Where the fuck were your men during that time? Huh?”

“Tuazon, my men did their job. You didn’t.”

I clenched my jaw.

I had to calm myself down otherwise I’m gonna have a heated argument with this man that might end up in a physical rage. And I don’t want that to happen. Taliyah wouldn’t like it. This is her brother. I should always keep that in mind.

“Your men weren’t able to stop the ambush.”

“Your job is to protect Rasha from any harm. Look at her…” Rashid motioned his sister.

Hindi ko matatanggap na nabigo akong protektahan si Taliyah mula sa mga bala. But I won’t also accept the fact that Rashid’s men weren’t enough to stop the ambush.

“So stop fucking blaming my security—”

“You fucking stop blaming me,” I cut him off, a bit agitated already. “How would I stop the gunshots when I was alone with your sister? You have men around, I have sniper on stand by. Everything was organized according to plan. But your men weren’t enough to stop the fucking ambush, the sniper did the job!”

Rashid took a deep breath while glaring dangerously at me. He looked dark and ready to attack me, but he’s disciplined as me. So he won’t do it. He knows that Taliyah wouldn’t like it if he attacks me. Vice versa.

“You, two, stop fighting, let the princess sleeps peacefully.” Taylor, the Pilot, said coldly.

The helicopter landed safely at the helipad in Quezon on Admiral Harris’ place.

Taliyah is still unconscious. Rashid was about to carry her but I do the honor. He calmly allowed me to do it for his sister.

Galit ako sa mga tauhan niya. I thought by carrying Taliyah, having her skin on mine, would ease my anger, but it didn’t. I guess, I am too upset with what happened to her and I would rather blame Rashid’s security for their lacked of coordination and actions to avoid the ambush from coming to us.

I was the one who changed Taliyah’s clothes. She has some scratches on her face and arms. Her creamy skin has red marks and bruises too. Sobrang sensitibo ng balat niya, ang bilis niya lang masugatan. Kaunting bangga lang, mamumula na agad at magkakapasa. Hindi talaga siya puwede sa magulong buhay.

I kissed her forehead and stared at her for awhile. Then I left to confront Rashid’s men outside.

Napatayo silang lahat nang dumating ako.

Natanaw ko ang paparating na mga sasakyan sa mahabang driveway. Probably, it was Admiral and Tracia Montecarlo. But I am in rage for the confrontation to welcome them, I won’t let this night pass without talking to these armed men.

“You didn’t do your job properly!” I grabbed the collar of the team leader.

“Sir! Sir!” Awat nila sa akin.

“Your task was very simple! Do not allow any interruption during the transport! You and your team failed to do that!”

“Sorry, Sir—”

“Say it to Rasha! Not to me! You fucking—”

“Keith!” I heard Rashid’s voice thundered around.

I gritted my teeth.

“Can you fucking stop blaming my security?!” He sounded vexed.

Binitawan ko ang team leader.

I turned my gaze to Rashid in front of me. He’s taunting me. As if he’s so pissed of me and ready to face any war I was so eager to throw right now.

“Rasha is stable. Stop throwing a fit like a fucking—”

“This is a fucking serious matter,” I cut him off. “She’s stable, but it doesn’t mean I would allow the fact that your men failed to secure the premises!”

Mariin na ang titig niya sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung ano pa ang pumipigil sa kanya para hindi niya ako atakihin.

I might putting a bruise on his ego and to the way he handles his security, but right now, I don’t think about other people’s feelings. Kahit pa kapatid siya ni Taliyah, hindi ko hahayaan na ganito nalang tatanggapin ang nangyari.

“You fucking failed to protect Rasha—”

I pushed his chest, taunting him to make this argument into physical. I’m becoming violent. The urge to hurt somebody was too strong. It was like having an unmanageable rebellion.

Nanatili siyang taas noo, matikas ang tindig, at nanunuya akong tinitignan.

He’s right. He hit the point. I was failed to protect her from the bullets. I did everything I could to fire back, so the gunshots from another car would stop, but I ran out of ammunition. It was a failure on my part. I just couldn’t accept it. I was the one to blame in some point.

“That was the only job that I gave to you. You fucking insisted to do it,” the brute reminded me.

I clenched my jaw. I really wanna punch someone right now, or anything. But I won’t do it on Rashid. Damn him!

Taliyah would hate me if she learns that I hurt her beloved brother. So, I’d rather not. I don’t want any fights with her. Madadagdagan lang ang mga iniisip ko.

“You failed, Tuazon. Accept it.”

Huminto ang mga sasakyan at nagsilabasan ang mga lulan ng mga iyon. But they can’t just move properly because they see us, standing there, silently creating war.

“What’s going on here?” Tracia Montecarlo asked, she’s bewildered.

Walang nagtangkang sumagot.

“You two, if you want to kill each other, do it outside my house.” I heard General Harris firmed tone.

“Oh, Rasha wouldn’t like it, Harris. She loves these men…” Tracia chuckled nervously. “Where is she, by the way?”

Rashid pushed me so I won’t block his way towards his mother.

“She got hit. But she’s stable now, mom.”

“What? Oh, my, goodness! Where’s my baby girl?” Nataranta siya bigla.

“She’s in her room.” Rashid guided his mother to where Taliyah is.

I turned to face the armed men again. This time, they are all standing straight and strong.

“I am not your boss, but it doesn’t mean I don’t have the rights to be disappointed with your team’s execution tonight. You just put your client’s life at risk.”

“Sir, niratrat din ’yung mga bantay sa gate. Hindi agad naitawag sa ’min.”

Nananatiling malamig ang tungo ko. They know the consequences of their job. They expected bloods and some casualties.

“Do you have idea who were those fuckers?”

“Hindi pa confirm. But we already have team on site who rans the identity of the ambushers. We’ll give you information once we have it.”

“Don’t forget to give it to me. I need that informations.”

“Roger that, Sir!”

I went to General Harris at the living room. He’s having his rum with his sons. I saluted before I shook hands with Pearson.

“What happened, Sergeant?”

“We got ambush near the transport area, General.”

Pearson poured me a glass of rum and handed it to me.

“Did they already identify the ambushers?”

“Not yet. Rashid’s men are still working on it.”

Tumango-tango siya. Napapaisip ng malalim.

If the ambushers were from Ramesh’s men, I don’t think they are willing to put Taliyah’s life in danger. At kung ako lang ang target nila, dapat ang banda ko lang ang pinaulanan nila ng bala. Palaisipan pa rin sa akin kung sino ang mga tarantadong ’yon.

“We need to cool down the situation. Huwag ka munang bumalik kila Mossad.”

That’s my plan. But I have to get in contact with Abaddon to let him know that I will take a break. Maybe a month of staying in Quezon would be fine. I wanna spend more time with Taliyah. I have a lot of plans for us already.

“I guess, these men weren’t from Mossad’s security. They knew I was with Taliyah, why would they ambush us?”

“You could be right. But who else is your enemy?”

I shook my head. “I don’t have enemies, General.”

Do I have enemies? I don’t think so. I left all my job without my trace; cleaned and successful. Nobody would even know I was there.

“Probably, from Ramesh’s enemies then.”

I assumed that. But what’s questionable is how the enemies know that we are going on that place tonight? Nobody knew our escape plan except me, Rashid, his men, Harris and his sons.

Jacobi knew it too. He might ratted me out. But, he knows the consequences if he ever did.

“Anyways, it was a long tiring night. I’m going to take a rest. How about you, gentlemen?” General stood up.

“Yeah, I’m just gonna finish this, dad. Good night.” Pearson lifted his glass.

Tumayo ako para magpaalam na rin. Before I go to my room, I visit Taliyah again.

She’s alone. I sat at the space beside her and hold her hand.

She was still unconscious when I carried her towards the helicopter. It was terrifying. I remember my body were shaking because I was panicking and extremely worried—that I might lose her. I don’t think I would be able to recover if I ever lose her under my watch. I won’t forgive myself, I will never.

I realized then that I won’t be able to live without her. I wanted her in my life.

She was like a breath to me, without her, I’d be dead. She’s the air that I need to keep living. She’s the view that I want to continue moving. And the only woman that I picture to be with me in this lifetime.

I exhaled as I hold her soft hand.

She looked like a sleeping goddess. Her wavy brown hair enchantedly fall on the sides of hair face. The subtle dotted of her freckles on the bridge of her nose, her bow-shaped plum lips, were perfectly suited with her celestial nose. Her soft angled eyebrows and natural tint curled eyelashes were defined because she’s sleeping.

She’s so peaceful and heavenly. She will always be in my eyes. I will work hard just to see her every day. I wanna stare on her face in the morning when I wake up and at night before I close my eyes.

When the time comes that I’d only see dark, I want her beautiful face to be my reminder that despite of darkness, I’d have the light through seeing her.

She will be a glimpse of hope when everything felt like a falling debris. She will be a glow of sunshine that will push me to continue walking in unlighted world.

Her scent will be my tranquilizer—like a drug that will keep me alive, insane, and sane all at once. Her smell was like a fragrance of sweet floral petals of desire. It will be my energizer, my power, like a soothing antidote that I may need to escape from insanity.

I kissed the back of her hand. Kissing each of her bare fingers, while thinking that I will slide a ring one day. A ring that symbolized of my love for her.

This is not part of my plan. But it was hard for me to control whatever it is in my heart. This feeling is like a tidal wave—uncontrolledly crashes upon me without a warning. It was overwhelming, I felt like drowning.

Wala akong ideya kung paano pigilan ang pagbugso ng damdamin ko sa kanya. Para bang ang tanging paraan lang upang kumalma itong nararamdaman ko sa kanya ay hayaan itong bumuhos hanggang sa maubos.

I fucked up, I am very aware of this.

Habang pinagmamasdan ko siya, rumirihistro sa aking isip ang mga imahe naming dalawa na magkasama, namumuhay ng simple at payapa, malayo sa gulo at ingay ng mundo.

Her beautiful images with me, with our daughter, were like a secret future dream of mine—that I wish to be my reality.

A painful smile formed my lips.

I think, this is what love really means. I have fallen for her. My heart was singing her name like a melody in the garden of paradise. The sounds were calming, comforting, it was so surreal.

I can picture myself marrying her, making her pregnant, and watch her while carrying our soft baby daughter on her arms. I wanna paint those images in my head. So I won’t forget how she looked like… how she made me feel… and how I have fallen deeply with her.