PROLOGUE

note: the female lead is a brat. if you dont want to stress over some spoiled, crybaby, and immature bish, you’re free to go. also, thank u to whoever promoted this in tiktok <3

👄: az-ri-yel • se-lay-ra

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Prologue

A blessing or a curse. When someone is obsessing over you, it’s either a blessing or a curse. A blessing if you love him/her, and a curse at the same time because it won’t let you breathe.

Colour Black represents everything about him. Dominance, sex, manliness, anger, lust, poison, and musk.

“Kumain na ba?” Rinig ko ang baritono at mababa nyang boses mula sa kwarto kung saan nya ako ikinukulong.

Napalunok ako at napatingin sa pagkaing ibinigay sa akin kanina. I didn’t eat it. I won’t!

“Hindi ko po alam, sir. Pero iniwanan na po namin ng pagkain,” sabi naman ni Linda.

“All right. Get out of my sight,” malamig nitong nitong sabi. Narinig ko ang mga yapak papalayo.

Sumiksik ako sa gilid ng kama at mas hinila pa ang comforter nang matanto kong papasok na sya. I was right when I saw him entering the room.

He’s in his usual black longsleeves polo na itinupi hanggang siko, black belt and black slacks na nagpadepina ng kanyang mahahaba at malalakas na binti.

He’s the most handsome man. He really is. But he’s a monster. A beast. Any word related to that will do.

“Seleira…” Pagtawag nya gamit ang malalim na boses.

“Seleira…” napatingin ito sa bedside table kung nasaan ang pagkain. I saw his jaw clenched in anger.

“What are you doing?! Kumain ka!” Pagalit nitong sabi. Takot na takot akong umiling iling.

Nagpakawala sya ng buntong hininga saka napahawak sa sentido nya. Kunot ang noo nito at tila nagagalit nang sobra sa isang bagay

“I don’t want to eat! Pakawalan mo ako dito, you beast!” Halo ang galit at hikbi sa boses ko. Malambot ang ekspresyon nito nang lumapit sa akin.

“Baby, don’t be mad…” malambing nitong sabi. Hinila nya ang comforter at dahil nanghihina ako sa iyak ay wala akong nagawa.

“Asawa mo ako, Seleira. Do not forget it-”

“We were only married because our company needed yours-”

“Shut up,” nagtitimpi nitong sabi. Umiling iling ito na tila kinakalimutan ang sinabi ko.

“We’re married because we love each other, get it? That’s it… that’s it, baby. No more other reasons than that…” His voice and tone is so weird that I’m thinking he’s getting crazy

“Azriel… please, let me out of here,” pagmamakaawa ko.

“Shhh… shhh,” he hushed me and wiped my tears away.

“If only you didn’t let your boy kiss you on your cheek,” tila hinehele ako ng boses nito. Mas lalo akong napaiyak nang maalala si Jeff. My not-so-close friend from college, but still, he was really kind.

“He’s now in a far province, baby, don’t worry… He can’t hurt you-”

“Hayop ka talaga! I hate you! Nagtatrabaho sya nang maayos dito sa Manila!” Galit kong sabi. Nanlisik agad ang nga mata nito.

“So what are you trying to say? That you want him here? You want him here beside you instead of me?!” Tumaas ang boses nito at galit na galit na ngayon. Umiling iling ako at tinakpan ang mukha ko para umiyak.

Muli nya akong inalo. Niyakap at hinalik halikan ang buhok ko. He’s whispering things I can’t understand.

“Let’s eat? I’m tired from work, wife,” sabi nito.

Hindi pa ako nakakapagsalita ay binuhat nya na ako papunta sa bedside table. Umiiyak ako habang ang kanan nyang braso ay nasa bewang ko. Ang isa ay may hawak na kutsara para sa pagkain.

Wala na akong nagawa nang subuan nya ako. Unang subo ay mas lalo akong nagutom at nasabik pa sa pagkain. I haven’t eat for 8 hours.

“What food do you want for tomorrow?” Nakangiti nitong tanong habang ngumunguya ako.

Umiling lang ako at inayos ang buhok ko. Some of it are already in my face and sticked into it because of my dry tears.

Tinulungan nya ako at sinikop ang buhok ko para ilagay sa isang balikat. Sinubuan nya akong ulit. I can’t help but feel warm because of him and the things that he does.

He is actually a sweet man. But when he gets jealous, he can be the worst person you could ever meet.

“A-ayaw ko na,” mahina kong sabi at inabot ang tubig. Hinahaplos nya ang buhok ko.

He then buried his face on my free neck. Inamoy amoy nya iyon at naramadaman ko ang kanyang labi.

“Azriel…” saway ko. Isang beses pa nyang hinalikan bago ilayo ang mukha nya.

Namumungay ang mga mata nya. He licked his lower lip and then he looked away.

“I-I’ll go to t-the bathroom,” paalam ko at tumayo.

Tumayo rin sya at hindi ako hinayaang maglakad magisa papuntang banyo. This room has its own bathroom. Hinatid nya lang ako sa labas.

Pagpasok ko ay inilock ko iyon at napatingin sa salamin. Maputla na ang balat ko dahil tatlong araw na rin ako dito. Sunlight can’t get in here. Ang labi ko at kulay maputlang rosas. Mugto rin ang mga mata ko.

“Clean it fastly!” Rinig ko ang marahas na utos ni Azriel sa mga maid. Narinig ko rin ang tunog ng plato at pagaayos ng kama.

Bumuntong hininga ako at inilublob ang sarili sa bath tub. Nahagip ng mata ko ang phone ko sa may sink. I left it there but I don’t know if it’s already low battery or what.

Kinuha ko iyo at bumalik sa tub. It’s not lowbatt so I dialed Tito Glassifer’s number.

“Hija…”

“Tito.”

“Kamusta ka? You haven’t call me in a while. Nageenjoy ka ba jan sa asawa mo? I’m sorry if this is all happening, Seleira.”

“No no, tito, I’m totally fine here. Please tell that to daddy,” I lied.

“Are you sure? Thank you for this sacrifice, hija… Pero mahal na mahal ka naman ng asawa mo, alam ko iyon.”

Too much love is toxic. That’s the truth.

“Yup…”

We talked about what’s happening to my tito and daddy’s business and he said that the company is doing great because of Azriel.

Nagpatuloy ako sa pagligo at isinuot ang robe bago lumabas. Nagulat ako nang nandito pa rin sya.

He’s sitting on the edge of the bed with his legs wide apart. Nakapatong ang siko nito sa magkabilang hita at nakatingala sa akin. Watching my every move like a hawk waiting for its prey.

Dere deretso ako ng lakad pero mabilis nya akong nahila sa kandungan nya.

“Azriel!”

I wriggled so he can set me free but he just tighten his hug. Inaamoy amoy nya ang leeg ko.

“Hmmm Azriel…” I bit my lips when I realized I moaned because he licked my neck and gently suck it.

“Hmm what?” he asked gently. Hinalikan nya ako sa labi. Paisa isa, nanunuya.

“Azriel!”

I’m so frustrated. I want him to kiss me. Kahit anong galit ko talaga, kahit anong sama ng loob ko, I just can’t deny his sweet kisses.

Pinatakan nya ulit ako ng mabilis na halik. Ako na mismo ang lumapit para halikan sya nang mas matagal nang halikan nya ang pisngi ko. Nanatili iyon doon.

“Will you still let other man kiss you?” Malamig nitong tanong.

Agad akong umiling. Namumungay na ang mga mata ko.

“Who can only kiss you?”

“I-ikaw…”

“Who? I can’t hear it,” paguulit nya.

“Ikaw,” mas malinaw na ang boses ko. “Please, Azriel,” I pleaded.

Idinidiin ko ang sarili ko sakanya. Nagmura sya atsaka ako hinila para sa mas malalim na halik.

Pinaayos nya ako ng upo sa kandungan nya. Ipinulupot ko ang kamay ko sa leeg nya. He then again planted kisses on my neck. Mas lalo kong idinidiin ang sarili ko sakanya.

I can feel his huge member on mine. I moaned when I grind.

“Fuck! Stop that, Seleira.” May pagbabanta sa boses nito. Nagpipigil sya nakagat pa ang leeg ko.

“Ah! Az- oh my!” I continued grinding on him. Shit!

“Stop it! Lalabasan ako agad!” Nagpipigil nyang sabi. Hinalikan nya ang dibdib ko na nagpaliyad sa akin.

“I love you, Seleira,” malambing nitong sabi. Pinamulahan agad ako ng pisngi. Namumungay na rin ang mga mata nya habang hinahaplos ang dibdib ko.

“Please… take me now, Az shit!” Napapamura ako habang gumigiling sa taas nya. I want to remove our clothes now!

“Say you love me,” he commanded.

Ipinipirmi nya rin ang bewang ko. Nang tingnan ko sya ay madilim na ang mga mata nito pero nakikitaan kopa rin ng pagnanasa. Umiigting ang panga nito habang deretso ang tingin sa akin.

“Az please!” Naiiyak na ako sa frustration. I want him. I badly want him now.

“No. You don’t love me,” matigas nitong sabi at inilapag ako sa kama.

Agad akong nagising sa realidad nang nakatayo na sya at papalabas na.

“Az-”

“Get dressed,” he said and left me.

Tumulo ang mga luha ko. Do I love him? I don’t know. I think I do. But he’s a beast for jailing me here whenever he’s jealous.

Tumayo ako at ginawa ang gusto nya.

Chapter 1

Work

“Ma’am, breakfast po pinapahatid ni sir. Naliligo pa po sya.”

Mabangong amoy ng mga pang-almusal na pagkain ang nanuot sa ilong ko. Gising na ako kanina pa.

Tumango ako at hindi na sya tiningnan pa nang umalis ito.

This morning, I couldn’t find my phone in the bathroom. He maybe get it and hide it somewhere. Sa sobrang selos nya, kahit ano nagagawa nya.

I sighed and drink my milk. Napaso pa ako dahil mainit. Dumb maid! Hindi ba si Azriel ang nagtimpla nito? He knows that it should be mix of warm and hot water. Puro mainit ito.

“Is she awake?” Rinig ko na ang boses nya. Hindi pa nakakasagot ang kung sinoman ay pumasok na sya. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin.

He’s wearing his usual business suit. Nakasuklay na rin nang maayos ang buhok. Pagpasok nya pa lang, amoy na amoy na ang bango nya. Like musk, cold, and aftershave cream.

“What’s the problem?” Tanong nito. Napansin nya atang hawak ko pa rin ang baso at nakakunot ang noo.

“Hmm? Good morning,” bati nya at naglakad papalapit sa akin.

“Let me out of here. I want to work,” deretso kong sabi.

Dumilim agad ang mukha nito. Nakatingala ako sa kanya dahil sa nakatayo sya at matangkad pa. Nakaupo naman ako.

“I won’t let my wife work,” madiin nyang sabi. Umiling iling ako at naiirita na.

“I want to work! Hindi ako tatakas, wag kang mag-alala,” sabi ko.

“Seleira! Can’t you hear yourself? Why do you need to work kung kaya naman kitang buhayin?” Malamig ang boses nya habang nakayuko sa akin.

“I’m bored here! Gusto ko na, please…”

Tears stung in my eyes. Tumayo ako at hinawakan ang kamay nya. Napatalon naman sya nang bahagya.

“I-I won’t be with any boy or man! I promise, please?” I pleaded. Mariin nyang ipinikit ang mga mata.

“Please? Hubby…” I used my sweetest voice.

Please work. Please work.

Tinitigan nya ako nang mariin. My eyes remained innocent and sincere. Umiwas sya ng tingin na tila nahihirapan.

“Please, Azriel…” dagdag ko pa.

“No,” napapaos nyang sagot. Binitawan ko sya at saka umatras. Tiningnan nya ang kamay nya pagkatapos ay tiningnan nya rin ang akin. Tila dismayado sa naging galaw ko.

“Okay,” sagot ko at naupo muli.

Narinig ko ang marahas nyang buntong hininga bago umupo sa tabi ko. Gumapang ang braso nya sa bewang ko at hinalikan ako sa pisngi.

“Sorry, wife… You must stay here,” he whispered. Hot tears fell down my face. Hindi na ako nagsalita. Mabilis nyang pinunasan ang mga luha ko at pinaghahalikan ang pisngi ko.

“Shh, hush now, baby,” pagaalo nya pero lalo lang akong naiyak. Next time ko na lang siguro sya kukulitin tungkol dyan.

“Eat now, baby, please,” he pleaded. I just nodded. Ayokong magalit na naman sya.

“B-baka malelate ka na,” mahina kong sabi.

“No,” he said and kissed my hair this time.

Sinubo ko ang piraso ng pancake habang nakatulala. Muli akong napaso nang inumin ang gatas. Napamura si Azriel nang matapon nang kaunti ang gatas sa kamay ko kung kaya’t napadaing ako.

“Shit!” Mura nya at kinuha ang baso sa kamay ko. Tumayo rin sya at binuksan ang pinto ng kwarto.

“Linda!” Pasigaw nyang tawag.

“Sir!”

“Wet wipes!” Galit nyang utos. Agad na dumiretso ang maid sa may drawer at naghanap.

“Baby, are you okay?” Malambing nyang tanong at saka bumalik sa tabi ko. Kumunot naman ang noo ko.

“Bakit kasi ang init ng gatas?” Inis kong tanong. He kissed me on my temple before looking at the maid.

“Who prepared my wife’s breakfast?” malamig nitong tanong.

“S-si Xyra po, sir…” utal utal na sagot nito at inabot ang wet wipes. Padarag itong kinuha ni Azriel.

“Tell her she’s fired… Alis na!” Pagpapaalis sakanya. Lumabas naman ito agad.

Marahan nyang pinunasan ang kamay ko. I wiped my tears using my other hand.

“Umalis ka na, Azriel,” pagtataboy ko sa kanya.

“Wife… later, please-”

“Let me work, Azriel-”

“I said no,” matigas nitong sagot.

“Please… I don’t want to always be here all day-”

“You’ll escape me again. Remember that day hmm? You escaped and I caught you with Wayne, huh…” marahan nyang sabi habang inaayos ang buhok ko. Kung gaano karahan ang boses nya at dinig pa rin ang galit dito.

“We just met there! Hindi naman ako p-pupunta talaga sa kanya, Azriel…”

“Really?” He whispered.

I badly want to work or just get out of here! I just need to be sweet to him so he’ll allow me. Hindi naman na talaga ako tatakas dahil alam kong mahahanap at mahahanap nya ako.

“Yes, hubby,” I answered. Sumiksik ako sa dibdib nya. He smells so good. Agad nyang pinulupot ang braso sa bewang ko inamoy amoy ang buhok ko.

“Please, hubby…” Tiningala ko sya. His eyes reflects desire and love. What a great timing.

“Please?” Malambing kong pakiusap. I moved to kiss him on the lips slowly. Mabilis nya akong hinalikan pabalik na tila sabik na sabik. Kumapit ako sa leeg nya at mas idiniin ang sarili ko sa kanya.

“Dammit,” mahina nyang mura. Nag-iinit na rin ang katawan ko. I moaned when he started kissing my neck.

“Azriel… please,” dahan dahan nya akong hiniga sa kama at pinatungan. Pinulupot ko ang legs ko sa bewang nya at idiniin ang pagkababae ko doon.

“Ah!” I moaned when my womanhood touched his clothed member. He groaned.

I am holding onto his neck when he ripped my nighties. Ibinaon nya ang mukha sa dibdib ko kahit may bra pa.

“Oh my!”

Tinanggal ko ang hook ng bra ko sa likod at mabilis nyang hinagis yon kung saan. Init na init na ako. I badly want him. Kagabi pa.

“Ah ah! Oh my… Azriel” I moaned when his wet hot tongue licked my mountain peaks.

“Damn it, baby” mura nya. His manhood is now very hard, he’s so turned on.

“Please, hubby… please take me,” naiinip kong sabi.

“Hmmm?” Nanunuya nyang sabi habang pababa nang pababa ang halik. Nasa pusod ko na hanggang sa punitin nya na ang panty ko.

“Fuck, you’re so hot, wife!”

Napaungol ako nang malakas nang bigla nyang kainin ang ibaba ko. Napahawak ako sa buhok nya at idiniin pa yun doon.

“Oh fuck! Please, hubby… ah ah!”

“You smell so sweet. Dammit,” gigil nyang mura. He sipped it and I don’t know where to put my head because of the pleasure. He sipping, licking, and kissing it.

“Ahhhh, Azriel! Azriel!” Paulit ulit kong tawag sa kanya. Malapit na akong labasan nang tumigil sya at tumayo.

Namumungay ang mga mata kong tiningnan sya. Mabilis ang paghinga ko. He’s checking me out while removing his clothes.

“Hurry, hubby…” nag-iinit kong tawag. His muscles flexed when he removed his top.

“You’re damn hot,” he commented. I opened my legs widely when he positioned himself.

“Hubby!” Frustrated kong tawag nang hindi nya pa pinapasok at binubundol bundol lang.

“Hmm? What is it?”

“Please… please do me, Azriel. Please, I want…”

“As you wish, wife.”

Dahan dahan nyang ipinasoka ng kanya sa akin. I bit my lip because of the pain and pleasure. I looked up at him and he’s closing his eyes while biting his lower lip. Ibinaon nya ang mukha sa aking leeg habang patuloy na binabaon ang kanya sa akin.

“Ahh! Ahh!” I moaned when he started sipping my nipples.

“Please move, please please.”

He groaned loudly when he started moving up and down. From slow to fast. Umuuga at tumutunog na ang kama at palakas na rin nang palakas ang ungol ko. The hell I care if they hear us outside!

“Ah ah I love you, Seleira.. fuck,” ungol nya. “I love you, I love you,” paulit ulit nyang sinasabing mahal nya ako habang ginagawa nya yun.

Ungol lang ako nang ungol. Halos mawalan ako ng ulirat sa sarap nang itaas nya ang isang binti ko sa kanyang balikat at mas lumalim pa ang paglabas pasok nya.

“Ah! Ah! Ah! Azriel! Oh my gosh!” Putol putol na rin ang ungol ko at sumasabay na sa mabilsi nyang galaw. He’s moaning lowly that makes me turned on even more.

Pabilis nang pabilis at sa tingin ko ay bibigay ang kama. Nakatingala sya at nakapikit habang gumagalaw. I am biting his shoulder harshly dahil sa panggigil.

“I’m coming, baby…”

“M-me too…”

A long moan escaped my mouth when we finally reached our climax.

“I love you,” he whispered sincerely.

“Azriel…” nanghihina kong sabi. Nagulat ako nang buhatin nya ako at naglakad papuntang banyo.

I know it. He wants more. Mahina ang tatlong rounds sakanya. I bit my lips and get ready myself.

After the three more rounds in the bathroom, he decided to have a rest in the bathtub. Nakasandal ako sa kanya habang sya ay nasa likod ko. Nakapulupot din ang braso nya sa bewang ko at hinahalik-halikan ang balikat ko.

“I love you,” he whispered. I looked back at him. His eyes look si gentle and loving. Tumitig sya pabalik sa akin.

“Azriel…”

“Shh… I know you love me even you don’t say it,” he said, like he’s convincing himself. I just gave him a smile. Hinarap ko ang mga bubbles sa bath tub.

I just wish he’s always warm like this. Madalas kasi syang seryoso, malamig, at bossy.

Nanghihina ako pero sya ay ang lakas pa rin. Gusto nya pa nga pero umayaw na ako. Sumandal ako ulit sa dibdib nya habang pinaglalaruan ang mga bula.

“Let me work-”

“Seleira, we’re having a good husband and wife time here… please don’t ruin my mood,” seryoso nyang sabi.

Bumuntong hininga ako at tumango.

Chapter 2

Vase

Nakatulala ako ngayon dito sa kwarto. He locked it and only the maids and him has the access. Wala pa rin syang tiwala sa akin. I don’t even have my phone with me. Tinago nya iyon panigurado kung saan.

He left for work even though he’s late because of what we did this morning. Is that a problem though? He’s the CEO.

Kumatok ako sa pinto at sumigaw para tumawag ng kung sino mang nasa labas.

“Open this for a while!” Inis kong sigaw

“Ma’am, hindi po pwede…” I heard. I slammed the door with my hand hardly. Napaungol ako sa sakit nun.

“Shit,” mura ko at dinala sa labi ang palad para halikan.

“What am I supposed to do here then?!” Sigaw ko.

“Ma’am, s-sorry po talaga.”

“Buksan mo na yan, Linda, kung hindi pagsisisihan mo…” pagbabanta ko.

I was never kind. Maarte ako at maldita. So I don’t know how come that monster loves me more than his own life.

Nilingon ko ang salamin. My skin is so pale that I look like a vampire. The bastard hired men to block the windows out. Ilang beses na kasi akong nagtangkang tumakas dyan at tumalon.

Naospital ako at galit na galit sya. Sa sobrang galit nya, nakalbo ang mansion ng mga maids at mga guards. There were always new set of guards and maids weekly that time.

“Hindi mo bubuksan?!” Pananakot ko.

“M-ma’am, hindi po talaga pwede-”

“Okay! I’ll just kill myself here using a broken vase then,” I said coldly and throw the vase into the floor.

Narinig ko ang tili nya sa labas at nagtawag ng iba pang maids.

Tss. Stupid girl.

Kinuha ko ang isang basag na piraso at pinadausdos iyon sa balat ko. Hindi ko naman diniinan kaya hindi ako nasugatan. But it’s sharp. So so sharp.

Narinig ko ang pagpihit ng door knob. Tinitigan ko iyon hanggang sa iniluwa nito si Linda at ang iba pa nyang kasamahan. They are all wearing maid dresses. Nakakatuwa silang tingnan. I mentally laughed when I saw their faces.

“Ma’am, bitawan nyo po!” Sigaw nito. Pinanlisikan ko sya ng mata.

“Wag mo akong uutusan,” I replied.

“Just let me out and just pretend you didn’t see me going out, understood?” I said with an authority tone. Nagkatinginan sila at sabay sabay na umiling.

Aba!

“M-mas nakakatakot pong si sir ang magalit sa amin, Ma’am-”

“I’m your boss, too!” Inis kong sagot.

“M-ma’am, please… mawawalan po kami ng trabaho-”

“Gusto ko lang naman din magtrabaho!” I shout and slide the broken piece of vase on my arm. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang lumabas doon ang dugo. Napasinghap sila at nataranta.

Mahapdi iyon at hindi ko sinasadyang madiinan dahil sa galit ko, mabuti at hindi sa pulso.

“Tawagan mo si sir!” Sigaw ni Linda sa kasama.

“H-hey, don’t do t-that,” natatakot kong sabi pero buo na ang desisyon nila.

Nanahimik ako sa gilid at nakaupo sa dulo ng kama habang nanginginig sa takot. Tahimik silang naglilinis ng binasag kong vase at nagkakatinginan pa na parang may body language sila.

Hindi pa rin nagagamot ang sugat ko dahil ayokong hawakan nila ako.

“A-ano… pwede namang sabihin nyong aksidente lang eh,” mahina kong sabi. Animo’y tupa ngayon kumpara kanina.

“Ma’am, nasabi na po namin ang nangyari kay sir sa telepono eh,” sagot nito. Kumulo agad ang dugo ko.

“That’s why I was telling you not to call him!” I shout. Hindi na sila nagsalita. Bumalik lamang ang kaba ko habang nakatingin sa braso kong dumudugo.

“FUCKING HELL!” Dumagundong ang dibdib ko nang marinig ang galit nyang sigaw mula sa labas.

Nakurot ko ang sarili sa kaba at mas lalo akong kinabahan ng nakitang tapos na sila maglinis at papaalis na.

“H-hey, dito lang kayo-”

“GET OUT!” Napapikit ako nang marinig ang sigaw nito na ngayo’y nasa pintuan na. Yumuko ako at humiling na sana huwag na syang magalit.

Dali daling lumabas ang mga maids hanggang sa narinig ko ang mga yapak nilang papalayo at ang malakas na pagbalibag sa pinto. Nang itaas ko ang ulo ko ay sumalubong sa akin ang galit na galit nyang ekspresyon.

Nakatayo sya sa harap ko at namumula ang mukha sa galit. Lumalabas din ang kaunti ang ugat nya. I pouted.

“What the hell did you do, woman?!” Sigaw nito. Yumuko na lamang ako.

“Let me see!”

“I-it’s nothing-”

“Let. Me. See,” madiin nyang utos. Dahan dahan kong inilahad ang kamay ko sa kanya. He hold it tight and he closed his eyes. Tila problemadong problemado.

“Putangina,” pagmumura nya na mas lalong nakapagpakaba sa akin.

“What the heck is happening to you? Kanina okay pa tayo ah!”

I didn’t answer. I heard his low groan before sitting in front of me. Hinawakan nya ang magkabila kong balikat at pilit akong pinapatingin sa kanya.

“Look at me, Seleira,” utos nya. Dahan dahan akong tumingin sa mata nya.

Natatakot ako at nag-iinit na ang gilid ng mga mata ko. He’s so scary. Ang dilim dilim ng aura nya.

“Do you know how damn worried I was when a maid called me saying my wife slit her skin open?!” Dismayado ang tono ng boses nya na may halong lungkot at galit.

“Do you know how the hell did I made it here in 7 minutes when it’s supposed to be 30?!” Dagdag pa nya.

Yumuko ako at tuluyan nang nagsituluan ang mga luha ko sa takot at guilt.

“I know very well that you don’t give a damn about me, but please… please don’t slap it in my face. Please, baby…” Nahihirapan nyang sabi. I sobbed and covered my face with my hands.

“I’m sorry,” I said softly. My voice grew smaller than it actually is because I’m crying.

“I’m sorry, Azriel… G-gusto ko lang namang lumabas-”

“You shouldn’t have done that. That’s not a reason for you to do that damn thing on your precious skin!”

Yayakapin ko sana sya pero tumayo sya at umatras nang kaunti. Mas lalo lamang akong naiyak. I was hoping for him to heal my wound himself pero nagtawag sya ng maid.

“Yes, sir,” sagot ng maid at pumasok na may dalang first aid kit. Masama ko syang tiningnan.

When I look at Azriel, he’s roaming his eyes around our bedroom. Maya maya pa ay pumasok ang isang guard na may dalang isang box na walang laman.

“Remove all things that can be used to hurt oneself,” seryoso nitong utos.

“Sige po, sir,” sagot ng guard at nagsimulang ilagay sa box ang vases, mga picture frames, gunting, at iba pa.

“H-hey, that’s my favorite vase!” I said when he hold the pink vase with white roses on it.

“Sir?” Pagtatanong ng guard kay Azriel. I looked at him with pleading eyes.

“Put it in there,” he ruthlessly commanded. I groaned irritatedly before pushing the maid’s hand away from me.

“Akin yan eh!” Pagpupumulit ko.

“Ma’am, ginagamot ko kayo-”

“Noooo! Put my vase back!” Tili ko at tumakbo papunta doon.

“Seleira!” Galit na tawag ni Azriel. No, that’s my favorite one. I bought it myself. Iyan lang ata ang nabili ko sa sarili ko nung unang trabaho ko.

“No! Put it back, please,” I pleaded. Nakipag-agawan pa ako sa guard, but he’s large and fat kaya mas malakas sya sa akin.

“Ma’am, please, sabi na po ni sir.”

“Noooo!” I cried.

Narinig ko ang mahinang mura ni Azriel bago ko maramdamang lumulutang ako.

He carried me in his shoulders. Pinaghahampas ko ang likod nya ngunit parang wala lang iyon sa tikas nya.

“No! Put me down! Put my vase back! Ayoko magpagamot sa kanya!” I cried while slamming his back.

“What the heck are you looking at? Go, get the sharp things fastly and leave!” Singhal nito sa guard.

“You leave also,” he said to the maid. “Leave the first aid kit there,” dagdag pa nya.

Narinig ko ang pagbukas at pagsara ng pinto ngunit hindi ko makita dahil nakaharang ang buhok ko.

“Azriel! Put me down!” Tili ko. He just suddenly slap my butt na nagpatigil sa akin.

“Damn, behave.” He said in a low voice. Tumili ako at kinagat ang likod nya. He groaned and tighten his grip on me. Damn him!

“Tapos na po, sir.” Rinig kong sabi ng guard. No!

“Umalis ka na,” utos ni Azriel. Agad na umalis ang guard. Nilikot likot ko ang paa ko at hinahampas ko muli ang likod nya.

“Noooo! My vase!” I cried.

“Stop wriggling,” kalmado nyang saway. I just wriggled more, but then he put me in bed and went on top of me. Inalis nya rin ang mga nakaharang na hibla ng buhok sa mukha ko.

Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko nang magtama ang mga mata namin. I tried to push him but he’s effortlessly strong. I wriggled and wringgled while screaming.

“Don’t move!” Saway nito. Mas lalo lamang akong naglikot habang pilit ipinipirmi ng kamay nya ang baywang ko.

“Damn it, Seleira, titigasan ako kung hindi ka titigil,” seryoso nyang sabi. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa gulat. He tell me that while looking straight into my eyes.

“Shhh…” he whispered and wiped the dry tears on my face. Umupo sya at marahan akong hinila papunta sa dibdib nya. I smelled his manly scent again.

Naramdaman kong kinuha nya ang braso kong may sugat. I just let him do what he wants. I want my vase back tho. Kasalanan ko to. Kung sana hindi ko na ginawa ang bagay na ito kanina.

Pero aksidente lang naman yun! Hindi ko naman sinasadyang masugatan ang sarili ko ’no. Kasalanan to lahat ni Linda! Tama. Kasalanan nya ito lahat.

“Kasalanan to lahat ni Linda,” bulong ko.

“Tss,” Ismid nya habang ginagamot ang sugat ko. Sumandal ako sa matigas nyang dibdib habang ginagamot nya ako.

“Pagtrabahuin mo na ako-”

“Seleira,” nagbabanta nyang tawag. Tiningala ko sya at seryosong seryoso sya sa ginagawa.

“Sige na… s-secretary mo na lang,” sabi ko na parang ako pa ang lugi.

“No,” napapaos nyang sagot.

Naramdaman kong hinalikan nya ang buhok ko at inaamoy iyon. Nang tingnan ko ang sugat ay tapos na pala at may band aid pa.

“Bakit? M-magkasama naman tayo dun at h-hindi ako tatakas,” paninigurado ko. Hindi naman talaga.

Gusto ko lang na makalabas dito dahil nassufocate ako. Lalo na sa mga maid na yan! Nakakainit ng dugo.

“No, baby,” he whispered. His strong arms found their way on the small of my waist. He buried his face on my neck.

“Bakit nga?”

“You’ll be tired. I don’t want it.”

“Hindi naman!”

“Hindi ako makakapagtrabaho nang maayos kapag andyan ka sa paligid. All I will do is stare at you, you know it so well, wife. You’re like a drug to me,” he said huskily. Parang tumayo lahat ng balahibo ko at nag-iinit ang pisngi ko.

“I’m smitten. Badly smitten,” he added.

Azriel is currently facing his laptop. He decided to just work here for today. Nakasimangot ako habang pinagmamasdan sya.

Nakapambahay na sya pero anlakas pa rin ng dating. Mukhang wala akong magagawa ngayon kung hindi mag-antay ng pagpilit ko sa kanyang payagan akong magtrabaho ah.

“Azriel,” I called him.

Nakadapa ako ngayon sa kama habang nakatingin sa kanya. Sya naman ay nasa coffee table. He’s also wearing specs to protect his eyes from the harm of laptop. He looks cute with that.

“Azriel,” pagtatawag kong muli. Madrama akong nagpakawala ng hininga. He looked at me with no emotion and he sighs before looking back at his laptop.

“Arghh!” I said dramatically. He looked at me again for a second and back to his laptop again.

I hate him today. Why can’t he just give me job! Kung nag-aalaa sya, edi gawin nya akong secretary nya!

“AZRIEL!” Naiinis kong sigaw. I heard him sigh.

“What is it, wife?” kalmado nyang tanong.

“I hate you!” Sigaw ko at nagtalukbong ng kumot.

“No, you don’t,” mahina nyang sabi. Pinadyak padyak ko ang paa ko hanggang sa maramdaman ko ang kamay nya doon.

“Seleira,” tawag nya at tinanggal ang kumot. Masamang titig ang pinukol ko sa kanya while he looked at me with love, patience, and many more emotions.

“What do you like to have for snack? I’ll call a maid,” he said. Hindi ako sumagot.

“A secretary will be a nice job-”

“Stop it,” he warned.

“Or being the head of finance? Hmm…”

“Shut your beautiful mouth,” he said. Kumunot ang noo ko at natawa.

“What about a coffee maker of the company, then?” Natatawa kong suhestyon.

“I said shut your beautiful mouth, wife,” pag-uulit nya, ngayon ay may multo na ng ngiti sa labi. Mukhang may gagawing hindi maganda.

“I said I want to wo-” He shut me up with a kiss.

“Azriel-” I protest between the kiss. Hinalikan nya lamang ako lalo. Hinahabol ko ang hininga nang putulin nya ang halik. Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin.

“Are you afraid I might find some decent man?” Matapang kong tanong. Agad nagbago ang timpla nya.

“What the hell are you talking about? I’m a decent man-”

“Pero kinukulong mo ako dito,” I rebutt.

“Because you always escape. You always run away from me. Your innocent face have fooled me so much already, now, not anymore. I will never let you slip away from me. Remember that, wife.”

Chapter 3

Call

Nagising akong wala na si Azriel. I looked at the wall clock and it says 9:47 am. Kanina pa sya siguro umalis dahil alas otso sya kadalasan.

I looked at the bedside table. Nakita kong may pagkain. Kinukusot ko ang mata at hinawakan ang pancake. It’s cold! Napairap ako.

I stood up and went to the door. As expected, it’s locked. Kumatok ako roon. I heard a voice.

“Hey!” I shout

“Ma’am, hindi po pwedeng lumabas-”

“Stop putting words to my mouth. Ayoko ng almusal!” Sigaw ko.

“P-pero ma’am, kailangan nyo po iyang kanina at bilin yan ni sir-”

“It’s so cold already! Anong oras nyo nilagay to dito?”

“N-naku ma’am, kanina pa po kasi yan-”

“Give me new breakfast. Ayoko ng malamig,” utos ko.

Sinunod naman nya. Pinapanood ko syang kuhain iyon at lumabas. I heard the door locked which made my eyes roll. Binuksan ko na lamang ang flatscreen tv at namili ng palabas sa netflix.

Nang dumating ang almusal ay pinalayas ko na sya agad. Kumakain ako habang nanonood. It’s actually quite nice. I mean, this series. This is stranger things. Nakakawala ng boredom lalo na’t nawawala ang cellphone ko ngayon (na tinago ni Azriel.)

Maya maya ay narinig ko ang pagbukas ng pinto. Nakita ko ang ulo ni Linda na sumisilip. Pinanlakihan ko sya ng mata at pumasok na ang buong katawan nya. May hawak syang cellphone sa tainga.

“Ma’am, si sir po gusto kayo makausap-”

“Ayoko,” sagot ko at nagpatuloy sa panonood.

Bakit hindi nya ibalik ang cellphone ko para sa akin na lang sya tumawag, huh?! May relasyon siguro sila ni Linda at ginagawa nyang dahilan yan para makapag-usap sila.

“E, sir. Ayaw po ni ma’am,” rinig kong sabi nya. Naghintay sya at nakinig sa sinasabi ng kausap.

“Ma’am, saglit lang daw po-”

“Ayoko nga,” pag-uulit ko.

“Ayaw nya talaga, sir eh,” she said. I made a face and rolled my eyes.

“Nanonood po ng tv tapos kumakain ng almusal,” rinig kong sabi nya.

“Opo, kagigising lang po eh.”

Umirap ako. I thought he’s a busy man? Bakit tatawag tawag pa dito para alamin ang ginagawa ko.

“Can you leave? Hindi ko marinig yung pinapanood ko,” I said. Kinakabahan namang tumango si Linda at naglakad na.

“Pinapalabas na ako, sir eh.” Huli kong narinig bago nya isara ang pinto at i-lock. I just sighed.

Nakatulog ako matapos kumain. Nagising ako ng ala una na ng tanghali. I turned the tv off and stood up take a bath. Napansin ko rin ang tanghalian sa bed side table. Wala na rin ang pinagkainan ko ng almusal. And the food is still warm huh. Para akong preso rito.

Nagtagal ako sa banyo. Playing bubbles in the tub nang maalala ko ang ginawa namin dito kahapon. Nag-init ang pisngi ko. Umiling iling ako. No… Pinigilan kong alalahanin iyon dahil para akong sinisilaban ng kung ano. I just played bubbles to distract myself.

I want to call to tito, but how? Wala akong cellphone. Nakakatakot kulitin si Azriel at baka masaktan nya pa ako.  Natatakot akong dumating ang araw na mapagbuhatan nya ako ng kamay.

I went out of shower wearing nothing. Kinuha ko ang bathrobe ko saka lumabas. Umupo ako sa harap ng salamin at nagsimulang tuyuin ang buhok gamit ang  hair drier. Nang matapos ay nagbihis ako sa komportableng bestida atsaka nagsimulang kumain ng tanghalian. I’m so hungry.

May kumatok muli at hindi na ako nagatubiling lingunin. I just heard a maid’s voice.

“Ma’am?” It’s not Linda. Nilingon ko sya at tinaasan ng kilay na para bang tinatanong ko ang pangalan nya.

“Ako po si Rose. At ah, nasa telepono po si sir,” sabi nya at inaabot sa akin ang phone nya.

“Ayoko.” My the same answer.

“Ayaw po sir eh-” naputol ang sasabihin nya at napapikit na parang sinigawan sya. She looked at me with scared eyes while offering the phone to me.

“Ma’am please… kausapin nyo po si sir, nawawala raw po sya sa focus, please ma’am. Matatanggal daw ako sa trabaho,” naiiyak nitong sagot.

Bumuntong hininga ako at kinuha ang cellphone nya.

“What takes it so long? I want to hear her voice!” Narinig ko ang frustrated na boses nito sa kabilang linya.

“Azriel,” I said. I heard him let out a sigh.

“Wife,” he greeted back, agad na kumalma ang boses.

“What are you doing?” Seryosong tanong nito sa akin.

“Kumakain,” sagot ko.

“It’s late for lunch,” he said.

“Kagigising ko lang. Tsaka teka, h-hindi ka ba busy dyan?” Tanong ko.

“I am. I just suddenly remembered you.”

“Let me work there, please. I’m really b-bored here,” I said sweetly. He sighed.

“I’ll think about it,” he said that made me really happy.

“T-talaga? You will? Thank you, Azriel”

“Don’t be so happy. I will set rules for the both of us.”

Napasimangot ako. Pero atleast… he will think about it. Makakaalis ako dito at hindi ako lagi nandito! That’s great!

I’m happily dancing while walking in the hallway of the mansion. Pinayagan nya na rin akong hindi sa kwarto lang. I’m so happy!

Actually, wala pa sya. It’s only 3 pm and he informed the maids to let me out. I can only go here in the mansion, tho. Hindi ako pwedeng lumabas. Nang silipin ko ang labas ay may mga guards kaya talagang mahihirapan ako.

“Pwede pahiram ng cellphone?” Tanong ko kay Linda habang nagwawalis sya sa may poolside.

“H-hindi ko alam, ma’am.”

“What?”

“W-wala naman po kasi sinabi si sir na pwede kayo humiram-”

“He obviously let me out so please! Tatawagan ko lang si tito,” pagpupumilit ko.

Problemado naman syang bumuntong hininga. Lumunok sya at ipinahiram na sa akin ang phone. Hinablot ko yun at umupo sa upuan na gawa sa metal.

I dialed tito’s number and he wasn’t answering it at first. Mabuti at sinagot nya din.

“Tito?”

“Who is- Seleira? Is that you?”

“Yes!”

“O-oh hija bakit nagbago ang number mo? At ilang araw ka ring di macontact. Ayos ka lang ba?”

I pouted and I didn’t immediately answer.

“Opo, tito. I just left my phone somewhere and I can’t remember where. Anyway, nakihiram lang po ako sa isang maid!”

“Oh that’s bad,” he laughed. I smiled. I miss tito. “Anyway, hindi ka na nagtatrabaho ah? That’s nice hija, hindi ka mapapagod at stress. You really have a good husband,”

Hindi ako nakasagot agad. Hindi ko alam kung mabuti ba o masamang hindi ako nagtatrabaho.

“Y-yeah, tito. He’s really good.” I lied. “How is your company, by the way?”

“Our company, Seleira. It is doing good. Masayang masaya kami ng daddy mo. Malaki talaga ang hatak dahil may Nickolson na nakakabit sa kompanya natin. Thanks to your husband,” natutuwa nyang sabi.

Thanks to him, huh. Napapangiti ako dahil talagang masaya si tito sa ganap sa buhay nya. This is beyond enough. Hindi ko kayang makitang nahihirapan si tito dahil sya ang nagpalaki sa akin kaya masakit sa akin iyon.

Daddy doesn’t really showed much love to me. Even when I was young. Si Tito Glassifer ang syang maasikaso sa akin at nakikinig sa mga problema ko noon so I can’t fail him. I can’t be a useless niece.

Ibinalik ko kay Linda ang cellphone nang matapos ang tawag. Nakatulala lang ako sa malayo at mukhang napansin iyon ni Linda.

“M-ma’am, ayos lang po ba kayo?” Tanong nya.

“I am okay,” sagot ko.

“H-hindi nyo po kasi ako sinusungitan-”

“Gusto mo?!” Anas ko. Bago pa sya makasagot ay tumalikod na ako. Sinigaw ko ang salitang “salamat!” Bago pumasok ng mansyon.

This marriage is pure business. Ayaw sa akin ng parents ni Azriel, sa totoo lang. They view me as a cheap gold digger. Na sa tingin ko ay totoo naman. I took advantage of Azriel, being so in love with me, for the sake of my daddy and tito’s company.

Azriel knows it, but he just chose to ignore. Wala rin syang pakialam kung ayaw sa akin ng parents nya. We didn’t marry in church. We had a civil wedding because he was such in a real hurry. Atat na atat mapakasalan ako. Walang nagawa ang parents nya, but I know they hate me. Especially his mother.

Tahimik akong bumalik sa kwarto. Ang dami kong pinoproblema at iniisip. Nakakasawa.

Nagawa ko na ata lahat para magpalipas ng oras. Read a book, take a second shower, watch netflix, bwisitin si Linda, at magpagulong gulong sa kama.

Alas syete na nang bumaba ako sa salas. Gantong oras ang uwi ni Azriel. I don’t know why I’m excited to see him though. Baka talaga nagsawa lang ako sa mga mukha ng maids.

Nang marinig ang pagbukas ng main gate ay tumayo ako. Binuksan ko ang front door at nakita ang papasok nyang magarang sasakyan. He went out of it and gave the keys to a guard so he could park it.

Niluluwagan nya ang kanyang necktie at magulo ang buhok nya. He looks tired. Nang makita ako sa pinto at naghihintay ay parang nagulat pa sya.

Bahagyang nanlaki ang mga mata nya at mas binilisan ang paglalakad. Nang makalapit sa akin ay agad nya akong hinapit para sa isang yakap. He buried his face on my neck while smelling me.

“Azriel,” tawag ko at kumapit sa balikat nya.

“So this is how it feels huh,” he murmurred.

“Feel w-what?” Tanong ko.

“How it feels to have my wife waiting for me to come home,” he answered sincerely. Parang natunaw ang puso ko sa sinabi nya. Do I deserve him?

“Azriel…”

Hinarap nya ako habang ang braso ay nasa bewang ko pa rin. He’s supressing his smile but I can still see it.

“Did you miss me? Did you miss your husband?” Malambing nyang tanong bago simulang halikan ang noo ko. Napapikit naman ako.

What should I say?

Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin kaya’t di na ako sumagot. He looked disappointed for a while.

“K-kumain ka na ba?” Nag-aaalangan kong tanong. Umiling sya habang nakatitig sa akin.

“Sabay na tayo kung ganoon,” sagot ko at napatingin sa necktie nya.

Kusang pumunta doon ang kamay ko at dahan dahang niluwagan iyon. Titig na titig sya sa akin habang ginagawa ko iyon.

“Magbihis ka muna pala,” sabi ko at tumalikod nang dahan dahan. Yumakap sya muli sa akin mula sa likod.

“I love you,” he said. It made my heart beat fast. Kinagat ko ang labi dahil hindi alam ang isasagot.

“Magbibihis na ako,” sabi nya at binitawan ako. Kaagad kong naramdaman ang lamig nang humiwalay sya sa akin at naunang maglakad papuntang hagdan.

Did I do something wrong? I shrugged and run to him. Kumapit ako sa braso nya at napatingin sya doon.

“Look, if you’re being sweet because of me thinking about letting you go to work, then stop it,” malamig nyang sabi.

Napaawang naman ang bibig ko. I didn’t even think of that. Nauna syang umakyat muli. Humabol ako sa kanya.

“Azriel, it’s not about that-”

“Shhh… I’ll just pretend that your sweet actions were real. Mauna ka na sa dining room,” he said plainly. Napatigil na lang ako sa paglalakad at pinagmasdan syang pumasok sa kwarto namin.

That wasn’t what I meant.

Chapter 4

Hide

“M-ma’am, pinapaakyat na po kayo ni Sir Azriel sa kwarto nyo,” Rinig kong tawag ng maid. Gabi na at nasa labas pa ako, I mean sa garden at nagpapahangin.

Matapos ang tahimik na hapunan ay nagpaalam syang magsshower sa kwarto namin. Lumabas naman ako rito. Ang mga guard ay pasulyap sulyap sa akin na animo’y tatakas ako.

Paano ako makakatakas sa malaking pader na yan noh! Ayos lang ba sila?

“Mamaya na,” mahina kong sagot. Nakatalikod ako sa kanya at niyayayakap ang sarili dahil sa lamig.

“Pero ma’am, magagalit po si sir-”

“Mamaya na nga sabi ko diba!” Inis kong sigaw at naglakad papunta sa kabilang side ng garden. Tinawag nya pa ako ulit na mas nagpairita sa akin.

“Ano ba! I said mamaya na at gusto ko pang magpahangin! Say that to him!” Bulyaw ko. Takot naman syang tumango at tumakbo papasok ng main door.

Dinapuan naman ako ng kaba. Stupid Seleira! Dapat hindi ko na sinabi iyon. I’m so dumb. Magagalit sya lalo sa akin.

Kaya naman nang hindi nakatingin ang guard ay mabilis akong nagtago sa malaking halaman at malaki rin nitong paso. I’m slim so sigurado akong hindi ako madaling makita dito.

“Ew,” I whispered to myself when my hand touched the soil. Pinagpag ko yun sa aking bestida at nananahimik na. I heard running footsteps bago ko marinig ang pagtatawag sa akin ng maid.

“M-ma’am? Nasaan po kayo?” Rinig ang kaba sa boses nya. Paulit ulit nya akong tinatawag. Tahimik lang ako at nagdasal na sana hindi nya ako makita.

“Ma’am Seleira, nasaan po kayo?” Nanginginig na sa takot ang boses nya. Kinurot ko ang sarili para hindi matawa.

Ganoon na lamang ang kaba ko sa dibdib nang magsisigaw na sya.

“Guard! Ate Linda! Tulong! Nawawala si Ma’am Seleira!” She exclaimed nervously. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at sinilip pa lalo sila.

“Ano?! Andyan lang yun nakatayo kanina ah?!” Rinig ko namana ng guard. Shiz!

“Bobo! Natakasan ata tayo! Lagot tayo kay Sir Azriel nito!” Ang isang guard naman. Nanginig pa ang boses nito nang banggitin ang pangalan ni Azriel.

Nanumbalik ang tawa ko pero napigilan ko naman. I just laughed mentally when I saw their scared faces. Hah! Lagot kayo kay Azriel.

“Rose! Tawagin mo si Sir!” Rinig ko si Linda na sumigaw. Si Rose naman ay tumakbo muli papasok.

Iyan ang ayaw na ayaw kong marinig. Mas lalo akong kinabahan. Naririnig ko ang mga mura ng guard. Should I just show up? I’m dead. I’m literally dead. Should I just show up?!

Nagtatalo pa ang isip ko sa gagawin nang marinig ang pamilyar nyang galit na galit na boses.

“BLOODY HELL!” malakas nitong mura. Napapikit ako dahil doon. Narinig ko rin ang kinakabahan nilang mga bulong.

“WHERE ON EARTH IS MY WIFE?!” Sigaw nito. Wala namang sumagot. Parang may daga na sa dibdib ko sa sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko.

“SAGOT!” muli akong napapikit at ayaw na syang tingnan.

“A-andito lang po sya k-kanina, sir… tapos sabi n-ya p-po s-sabihin ko r-raw po sa i-inyo na m-mamaya na s-sya aakyat-”

“That’s why you shouldn’t have listen to her! She possesses an innocent face with sweet voice but she also have the darkest plans! Damn it! Son of a bitch!” Pagsisigaw nito. Nang silipin ko sya ay pulang pula ang mukha nito. Nag-init ang pisngi ko nang makitang wala syang pang-itaas at basa pa ang buhok. Tila kaliligo lang at naghanap lang ng jeans para bumaba agad dito.

“S-sorry sir-”

“Hanapin nyo! Hindi yun makakaalis agad!” Sigaw nya. Agad namang nagkulasan ang guard at maids.

“Close the whole village. Huwag magpapapasok at magpapalabas.” I heard him order to someone in his phone. I can see his perfect abs here. Mabilis din ang pagtaas baba ng balikat nya.

Should I just show up? Pero nanginginig ako sa kaba! Baka masapak nya ako!

“My wife is damn missing.” I heard him.

“Yes, again. She’s missing again- FUCK YOU! ANONG IBANG LALAKE? AKO LANG ANG LALAKE NYA, TANGINA MO, CORTEZ!” napapikit ako muli sa pagsigaw at mura nya.

I heard him groan and throw his phone somewhere. I should really just show up.

Hindi pa man ako nakakalabas ay nakita kong nakatitig na sya sa dereksyon ko. Sobra sobra ang kaba ko lalo na nang lumapit sya at nag-squat. Nagtama ang paningin namin. He looked at me dead serious in the eyes. Galit na galit sya.

Napatili na lamang ako nang walang habas nyang hawiin ang malaking halaman na nakapagitan sa amin. Malakas ang naging tunog ng pagpakabasag ng paso nito. Abot abot na ang kaba ko lalo na ng nanlilisik ang mga mata nyang lumapit sa akin.

“Get up!” He shout and pulled me.

“Azriel-”

“GET UP!” He shout angrily. Naiyak na lamang ako sa takot. I should’ve showed up earlier. I’m really really dumb.

“Sir, wala po si- Andyan na po pala sya-”

“SHUT THE FUCK UP!” Bulyaw nya sa maid. Wala na akong nagawa nang hinihila nya ako papasok ng mansion. Nakatingin sa amin ang mga guard at maids na may nag-aalalang mukha.

“I-I’m sorry,” mahinang sabi ko habang hinihila nya ako. He didn’t listen though. His grip on my wrist reflects how mad he is.

“Azriel, n-nasasaktan ako-”

“Nasasaktan ako, Seleira! Nasasaktan ako sa mga pinaggagawa mo!” He shout back. He let go of my hand and pinned me againts the wall. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at nilingon ang hagdan. We haven’t reach out room yet. Narito lang kami sa pinakatop ng hagdan.

When I look back at him, his eyes are so angry and dangerous. Natatakot akong saktan nya ako. Sa tingin nya sa amin ngayon ay kayang kaya nya akong patayin kung gugustuhin nya.

“I thought you wanted to work?” Madiin nyang tanonh. Nagpapikit pikit ako at nacconcious dahil sa sobrang lapit ng mukha namin sa isa’t isa at wala pa syang pang-itaas.

“I do-”

“Then why the fuck do you love to break my rules so much?!”

“W-wala naman akong g-ginawa. H-hindi naman ako tumakas ah-”

“Wala? You hid from me! You hate me so much that you wanted to get away from me badly, huh?” he concluded with pain in his voice.

“N-natatakot kasi ako s-sayo kanina,” pagdadahilan ko at yumuko. Suminghot ako dahil sa mga luha ko.

“You’re unbelievable,” he coldly said.

“Sorry na nga…” mahina kong sabi. Nakita ko sa gilid ng mata ko ang mga maids mula sa ibaba na nakikitingin.

“Sorry na-” naputol ang sasabihin ko nang inangat nya ang mukha ko at marahas akong hinalikan. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at napakapit sa matigas nyang balikat.

“Azriel-” I protest between the kiss. Napaungol ako nang kagatin nya ang ibaba ng labi ko sa sobrang galit nya. Tila dito nya binubuhos ang galit nya.

Tumulo ang luha ko nang malasahan ko ang sariling dugo. Kinakapos na ako ng hininga ngunit hindi pa rin sya tumitigil sa paghalik sa akin at pagdiin ng sarili sa akin. No, the maids are watching!

“Az-”

Pinutol nya ang halik at hinabol ko ang hininga ko. Pulang pulang ang labi nya dahil sa halik at dahil na rin sa dugo. Titig na titig sya sa akin.

“Sorry na nga, Azriel eh,” desperada kong sabi. Hinawakan ko rin ang labi dahil sa mahapdi iyon. Nagkasingaw ako. Tinanggal nya ang kamay ko at muli akong hinalikan. Galit at marahas pa rin kaya medyo humahapdi muli ang labi ko.

Tumigil sya pero hindi lumayo. Pinagdikit nya ang noo namin habang titig na titig sa mata ko. Ang isang braso nya ay nasa bewang ko at ang isa ay nasa pader, he’s trapping me. Pinatakan nya pa ako ng isang halik.

He planted soft kisses on my lips. Paisa isa lang at nararamdaman kong unti unti syang kumakalma. Hanggang sa binaon nya ang mukha sa leeg ko at niyakap ang bewang ko. I also smelled his addicting scent.

“I’m sorry,” I whispered. Pinulupot ko ang kamay ko sa leeg nya at niyakap sya pabalik. Nanatili kami sa ganoong posisyon hanggang sa kumalma na sya.

“I’m sorry. I really am,” sincere kong sabi. He let out a heavy breath pero hindi sumagot.

“Azriel,” mahinang tawag ko. Tumayo sya nang maayos at seryoso pa rin. Pero mas kalmado na ngayon kaysa kanina.

“Let’s sleep,” pagod nyang sabi. I suddenly felt guilty of what I did. Kanina, pagod na pagod sya galing trabaho tapos ganito pa ang ginawa ko.

I didn’t mean to hide naman. Talagang nawalan lang ako ng choice.

“O-okay,” mahina kong sagot. Tumalikod sya at nagsimulang maglakad. His muscles in his back and arms are just so distracting. Mabilis akong yumakap sa bewang nya at sinabayan sya sa paglalakad habang nakayakap. Tahimik nyang inilagay ang braso sa bewang ko at pinagbuksan ako ng pinto.

Habang nagha-halfbath ay nagmumuni muni ako ng mga ginawa. Napapikit ako nang mapagtanto kung gaano nakakahiya ang ginawa ko. Hiding on a massive plant? Really, Seleira?

I slapped my own forehead. He didn’t hurt me heavily. He just bit my lips. Sa paghalik nya binuhos ang buong galit nya hanggang sa kumalma sya.

I’m really a bad wife.

Tinuyo ko muna ang sarili ko gamit ang towel bago magbihis. Sa banyo na rin ako nagbihis dahil alam kong andun sya. I just wore my usual fushia pink silk night wear.

Paglabas ko ay nakita kong nakahiga na sya at nakatalikod. Nakabaon din ang ulo sa unan. Galit pa rin siguro sya.

Lumapit ako at dahan dahang humiga sa humiga sa pwesto ko. I saw him moved pero hindi sya lumapit sa akin. I pout when I realized he’s still mad. Umusog ako at yumakap sa kanya.

“Sorry na…” bulong ko. Hindi sya sumagot pero alam kong galit sya.

“Sorry na nga, Azriel,” pag-uulit ko pero wala pa rin.

“Hubby…” I called sweetly. Pumasok ako sa kumot at hinigpitan ang yakap. I suddenly bite his back. He groaned.

“I said sorry!”

“Tss. Just sleep-”

“Sorry na nga…”

Ilang minuto pa at wala na syang naging sagot. Naiinis akong binitawan sya at umusog palayo. Ayaw nya, edi wag.

Nagulat na lamang ako nang umusog sya at yumakap sa akin. Hinalikan at inamoy amoy ang buhok ko tulad ng lagi nyang ginagawa bago kami matulog. Pinigilan ko ang pagngiti. Hinalik halikan nya rin ang pisngi ko na gumagawa ng tunog. I giggled when I felt his long fingers drawing circles on my waist.

“Azriel,” I called him while laughing and trying to stop him from tickling me.

“Hmm?” Malambing nyang sabi at tinigil iyon.

“Forgive me na…” sabi ko. Hindi sya sumagot at tinitigan lang ako.

“I’m your hubby, you should call me that way,” seryoso nyang sabi.

“Okay. Forgive me na…” Pag-uulit ko. Bumuntong hininga sya bago ilagay ang ulo ko sa dibdib nya. Sumiksik naman ako sa mabango nyang leeg. He feels so warm and comfortable. He’s so warm because he’s topless.

“Fine,” he said. I smiled and giggled again. Lumayo ako nang kaunti. I curled my finger on his chest hair and pulled it. He groaned dramatically before hugging me closer so I can’t have the chance to do it again. I just laughed.

“Good night, wife. I love you so much, Seleira,” he whispered.

“Good night,” I replied.

Chapter 5

Spoil

I’m currently eating my fruits here in the dining room. Azriel made this maid, Rose, watch me wherever I go. Iritado ko syang tiningnan… pero bumuntong hininga na lang din.

“What did he say?” Tanong ko sa kanya at kumagat sa isang slice ng apple.

“S-sabi po ni s-sir Azriel, b-bantayan daw p-po kita at h-huwag aalisan ng tingin.”

“You’re making me uncomfortable,” I said. Tumayo ako at hinarap sya.

“Wala akong gagawin. Doon na ako sa kwarto namin, ayoko ng papasok ka.” I said sweetly and flip my hair. Sinadya ko pang ihawi ang palda ng bestida ko nang talikuran ko sya.

“Ma’am, hindi pwede-”

“Ayoko! Ayokong nasa kwarto ka namin!” I shout and ran. Tinawag nya ako at tumakbo rin. Mabilis ang tibok ng puso ko at pumasok sa kwarto namin at nilock. Kumatok sya at pinagtatawag ko.

“Ma’am…”

Azriel is unbelievable! What makes him think I’d want someone to enter our room!

“Bubuksan ko po gamit ang susi, ma’am-” Binuksan ko na at hinarap sya.

“Where’s Linda?” Tanong ko at gusto kong makihiram ng cellphone at tawagan si Azriel.

Kagabi ay naguguilty ako sa ginawa. I noticed when I only replied “Good night” to him, he got a bit disappointed. So I tried lambingin sya, but we ended up making hot love. He’s just so addicted to it! I mean, gusto ko rin naman, pero sya… he’s literally addicted and he loves it so much. I always receive many I love yous and praises from him.

Nag-init ang pisngi ko nang magawa na naman namin iyon. If you’re wondering if I will be pregnant, don’t worry, I take birth control pills. Hindi alam yan ni Azriel. I’m hiding the bottles from him.

Hindi pa lang talaga ako handa magkaanak. Hindi rin ako sigurado sa nararamdaman ko sa kanya so it’s better if I won’t have a baby for now. I just needed some control pills, because whenever we make love, 3 rounds is the least number of rounds that we can do. At least three rounds, at hindi yun pwede mabawasan. Hindi rin sya gumagamit ng contraceptives. I am not yet ready for a baby with him.

Pag nalaman nyang nagbbirth control pills ako, siguradong magagalit sya nang sobra. Whatever, he won’t know it naman.

Napabalik ako sa realidad nang iwagayway sa akin ni Rose ang cellphone nya sa mukha ko. Kumunot ang noo ko at nakita ang “Sir Azriel”

“Ma’am? Kanina ka pa tulala. Tumawag po si sir, kausapin nyo po?”

“Oo!” Mabilis kong sagot at hinablot ang cellphone sa kanya at sinara ang pinto. She didn’t knock. I guess she just waited outside.

“Azriel!” I greet and jump on our bed.

“Baby,” he called in a low voice. “What are you doing?” Napapaos nyang tanong at nakarinig ako ng pagsarado ng laptop.

“Can you tell Rose not to come in our room? Pinapanood nya ako. I’m so uncomfortable…” pagsusumbong ko. I heard him let out a heavy sigh.

“Just let her watch you there, it’s not a big deal-”

“It is! Ikaw kaya panoorin lahat ng galaw mo!” Inis kong sabi.

“If it’s you who’ll watch me, then I don’t mind,” mabilis nyang bawi. Kinagat ko ang labi dahil sa kung anong naramdaman.

“H-heh!” I pouted. “At g-gusto ko sanang pumunta sa mall…” sabi ko sa maliit na boses. I heard him groan irritatedly.

“No.”

“Please? Sige na, Azriel…”

“What will you do there, wife?” Seryoso nyang tanong.

“I-I’ll go to my laser hair removal… please!” I begged. I heard him sigh heavily.

“A-and also I want my nails done, hubby…” dagdag ko pa.

“Hmm…” that’s all he said. He sounds problematic.

“And my hair treatment, too,” I added..

“Yeah? What else?”

“And my facial care to my derma… p-please…” I made my voice sound really pathetic.

“Are you sure you won’t run away?” He asked. Nagningning naman ang mga mata ko.

“Yes! I won’t!”

“Wait me later there, then. I’ll go with you.”

“H-huh? Wag na, may trabaho ka pa diba?”

“Why do you sound like that? Don’t you want me to be with you? Tss,” irita nyang tanong.

“H-hindi naman… iniisip ko lang na may trabaho ka kasi,” pagdadahilan ko.

“You think I’ll let you go there? You keep on fooling our guards and maids with your innocent face,” he stated. I can’t help but to giggle.

“Hindi kaya-”

“Shut your beautiful mouth and wait for me there after lunch,” he said in a final tone.

“Pwede naman-”

“I said what I said. And you need me there, ako ang magbabayad ng mga kaartehan mo sa katawan,” seryoso nyang sagot. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at natawa. Kaartehan sa katawan?!

After the call ended, masaya akong umupo sa couch at nanood para magpalipas ng oras. Hindi ko na pinansin si Rose na nasa may pintuan at nakaupo sa sahig. Hindi rin naman sya nakatingin sa akin. Pinapakiramdaman lang ako. I just ignored her. I’m happy I can go out.

Alas onse imedya nang mahanda ang tanghalian. Bumaba ako at nakabuntot sa akin si Rose. Kumain ako at hindi na sila jinudge katulad ng lagi kong ginagawa. Masaya kasi ako ngayon.

Nasa banyo na ako at naliligo ng katukin ako ni Rose para ipaalam na pumasok na sa mansion ang kotse ni Azriel. I shout “Okay!” And turned the shower off. I didn’t bring my clothes here in the bathroom, akala ko kasi mamaya pa sya.

Naka-bathrobe akong kulay pink and pink and white bunny slippers nang lumabas ako. He’s sitting on the bed before and when he saw me, he didn’t cut his stare at me. Wala na rin si Rose.

“Hi,” I awkwardly said. Tinitigan nya lang ako nang seryoso kaya naman pumunta na ako sa salamin at umupo. I prepared the blower but then his large hand get it from me. Tiningala ko sya at tinurn on nya iyon.

Tahimik lang ako dahil sa sobrang bilis ng pintig ng puso ko habang tinutuyo nya ang buhok ko. He looks so serious with what he is doing. Hindi sya masyado marunong but I appreciate his efforts. Tumayo ako at kinuha yun sa kanya para ako na lang ang gumawa nun sa sarili. He’s just staring at my reflection in the mirror. He looks so in love.

Nang matapos ay ibinaba ko yun at binunot sa saksakan. I was about to sit when he caught and hug me from the back. I felt him smelling my neck and kissing it a bit. Don’t tell me we’re gonna do it again! Nag-init ang mga pisngi ko.

“Azriel, s-stop,” nanghihina kong sabi. He kissed me on my cheeks before whispering how much he loves me.

“I know… we won’t do it,” he answered in a low voice.

Umupo sya sa silyang nakaharap sa salamin at pinakalong ako sa kanya. I pouted to supress my smile.

“Go on,” He commanded.

He want sme to continue my routine so I did. Nakayakap lang sya sa skin habang nakaupo ako sa kandungan nya. Binaba nya rin ang isang side ng bathrobe ko kaya nalantad ang walang saplot kong balikat. He just keeps on kissing and biting it softly while I’m appplying foundation.

I actually feel a little turned on because it’s only my bathrobe which covers my whole body. Plus, I can see our reflection. It looks hot that he’s wearing his black suit.

“Hmm hubby, stop…” I said softly when his hand is going up to my mountains. Ibinalik nya rin iyon sa bewang ko at pinagdiskitahan na lang ang balikat ko.

“We just did it last night, but I still want it now,” bulong nya sa mababang boses. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at pabirong hinampas ang braso nya sa bewang ko.

Nang matapos ako ay nakita ko sya nakatitig na naman sa akin. Hinarap ko sya at nagbabaga na naman ang mga mata nya. It reflects love, lust, desire, and many more emotions.

Pinatakan nya ako ng halik sa labi. Paisa isa lang hanggang sa isang malalim na halik. Agad akong lumayo at baka kung saan pa mapunta!

“Magbibihis na ako,” natatawa kong sabi nang makita ang mukha nyang mukhang nabitin. Namumula rin ang labi nya. Tumayo ako at nanghihina nya akong pinakawalan. I suddenly saw a bulge in between his thighs. I giggled.

“You’re erect,” I commented. Hindi sya sumagot at nakatitig lang sa akin na parang kung ano na ang ginagawa nya sa akin sa utak nya.

Titig na titig sya sa akin habang naglalalakad ako papasok sa aking pink walk in closet (na bigay nya). Pumasok ako at isinarado iyon. Napahawak pa ako sa dibdib sa bilis ng tibok nito.

I just chose a pink sleeveless top and paired it with black fitted jeans. I need to wear something sleeveless para hindi ko na ito kailangan hubarin mamaya sa Skin Clinic. Wala namang reklamo si Azriel sa mga pinagsusuot ko as long as kasama ko sya.

Paglabas ko ay nakapagpalit na pala sya. He just wore a black shirt with a famous international brand in it and black jeans. Naka-cap din sya. He looks really hot whenever he wears black. Nakatitig naman sya sa akin bago tumayo at lapitan ako.

“Are you all ready?” He asked, holding my hand.

“Yes,” mahina kong sagot.

Masaya ako pero tahimik lang nang nasa kotse na kami. It’s a bit hot today. Sinusulyapan ko rin ang kamay nyang nagmamaneho. His long fingers look so good while driving. Iniwas ko ang tingin ko doon at tumingin na lang sa labas. Pasulyap sulyap naman sya sa akin.

He then put his large warm hand on my left thigh, claiming it. Hinayaan ko lang sya gawin iyon.

“What else do you want to do except your beauty stuffs?” He asked in a low voice. Nag-isip ako. Kumain? Busog naman ako. Hmmm… Ano pa ba.

“Wala akong maisip,” sagot ko. “Mamaya na lang, pag may nakita ako.” I added playfully. He looked at me and then back to the busy road of Manila. I noticed his small smile.

Kinalikot ko ang ipad nya na nasa dashboard para sa music. I chose “The One” by an international band named Kodaline.

Tell me, tell me that you want me

And I’ll be yours completely

For better and for worst

I know, we’ll have our disagreements

Be fighting for no reason, I wouldn’t change it for the world.

’Cause I knew, the first day that I met you

I was never gonna let you

Let you slip away

That’s one of my favorite songs because I remember he sang that to me in our honeymoon before we first made love. Takot na takot pa ako sa kanya noon, but his low calming voice with a guitar calmed me somehow.

When I looked back at him, he’s now smiling like recalling precious memories, like I do. Minsan lang sya ngumiti. Kaya walang hiya ko syang tinitigan mula sa inuupuan ko.

You make my heart feel like it’s summer

When the rain is pouring down

You make my whole world feel so right when it’s wrong

That’s how I know you are the one

That’s why I know you are the one.

Pinagbuksan nya ako ng pinto at sinusian ang kotse nya nang nasa parking lot na kami. Seryoso lang sya at hinawakan ang kamay ko para sabay kaming maglakad.

“Sa third floor yung Happy Skin Clinic,” I said softly while looking around. Pinagtitinginan kami hindi ko alam dahil ba sikat si Azriel o talagang napakagwapo nya. I caught them taking pictures of us.

When I looked up to him, his jaw is clenching like he’s angry at something. Nilingon nya ako at binitawan ako kamay ko. Hinapit nya ang bewang ko at mas binilisan na lamang ang paglalakad.

“Seleira, my dear! Long time no see!” My consistent dermatologist greeted me. Nagbeso ako sa kanya at kinumusta sya. We haven’t met for 2 months. Bigla naman syang napatingin sa kasama ko.

“Oh, you’re with your husband again,” She said. Nagpunta na rin kasi kami dito at kasama ko si Azriel.

“Good afternoon,” Azriel greeted lowly. She smiled at him and then proceeded to talk to me about what she is about to do.

I don’t need an appointment. Pwede namang deretsahan na at andyan naman si Azriel kung sakaling magkaproblema. Hehe.

“Hmm I-I think this will last for an hour or two. Baka mabored ka, pwede kang ano… lumabas labas dyan-”

“I’ll stay.” Matigas nyang sabi. Tumango na lamang ako at pinanood syang umupo sa sofa. Other customers are eyeing him. Inirapan ko ang isang babae bago tumalikod.

The session was so refreshing. Hindi ko namalayan na isa’t kalahating oras na rin pala. When I look at the mirror, my skin is glowing! Really really glowing!

“You look a year younger, Seleira dear!” Bati nito. I giggled and secretly agreed. Actually, I’m only 22 years old and Azriel is already 26. 4 years gap, huh.

Paglabas ko ay nakita kong naroon pa rin nakaupo si Azriel at nakatutok lang sa cellphone. Pinandilatan ko ang mga babaeng nakatitig sa kanya at palihim na nangunguha ng litrato. Tumigil naman sila at nagbusybusyhan kuno.

Nang lumapit ako kay Azriel ay hindi nya pa rin ako napansin. Anong pinagkakaabalahan nya riyan sa cellphone nya! Babae nya siguro!

Nang bahagya kong silipin ang tinitingnan ay nagulat ako nang nasa instagram feed ko sya. He’s watching my highlights na last last year pa. Naka-uniform ako at kasama ang mga colleagues.

“Hey!” I called. Muntik nyang mabitawan ang cellphone kaya natawa ako nang bahagya. Kumunot ang noo nya pero mukhang napansin nya ang skin ko. He looks amused when he stood up. Hinawakan nya ang pisngi ko at hindi na napigilan halikan iyon.

“You’re the prettiest.”

I heard my derma’s hearty laugh and the sighs of girls. Pabiro ko syang hinampas at akala nya nakakalimutan ko ang nakita ko huh!

“So you’re stalking my instagram account huh…” I said while looking straight into his eyes. Sumimangot sya.

“Tss. You’re following many boys in your account,” seryoso nyang sabi. My jaw dropped. This shameless stalker! Those are probably my blockmates or friends! Ah, I miss them.

I was about to say something when he walk pass me. Pumunta sya sa counter at naglabas ng card. After paying, he immediatley held my hand and steal one more kiss on my cheek before we go out. I didn’t even say my goodbyes to her sa gulat ko.

“Nainip ka ba?” I asked while we’re waiting for the mall’s elevator. Nasa fourth floor ang paborito kong Hair Salon.

“No,” he answered. I don’t believe him! Nag-eenjoy siguro sya roon sa mga babae nya. “You got many posts and highlights. I enjoyed seeing them,” he added.

“Stalker,” I said, laughing. He smirked.

“I’m your husband-”

“And also my stalker. Not just in social media, but in real life too,” I said but he just smirked.

That’s true! He’s a grownass man who stalked me for 5 years. When we were about to get bankcrupt, he immediatley grabbed the opportunity and manipulated everything. He did everything to make me his. We married fastly, like what I said.

Sa hair salon ay hindi na kailangan pa ng separate kwarto kaya nakikita nya ako. Titig na titig lang sya sa akin habang nasa sofa.

“Miss, yung kasama nyo grabe naman makatitig yan. Parang gusto kong isigaw na bakla ako! kase parang manununtok pag nahawakan ko ang parte ng katawan mo bukod sa buhok eh,” bulong ng isang gay na syang nakatoka sa akin.

I looked at Azriel at totoo nga. Mukha syang manununtok anytime. I just laughed.

Mabilis lang naman ang sa hair salon dahil hindi naman ganoon ka-damaged ang buhok ko. 45 minutes, I guess. Mabuti at hindi nabobored itong si Azriel.

We were at the cashier while he is paying for it. I pouted. I have money naman… but like 10,000 lang at dati pa yan nasa bag ko. He’s so rich.

“Ako na magbabayad sa nails ko,” sabi ko nang makalabas kami. Kinunutan nya lang ako ng noo.

“No-”

“Andami mo nang nagastos! Libo libo na,” mahina kong sabi.

“So? I’m your husband,” sagot nya na tila sapat na iyon.

“I love spoiling you, wife,” he said warmly as his possessive arm found its way on my waist. I smiled when I felt butterflies dancing on my tummy.

He loves spoiling me. True to his words, we went to get my nails done, for my laser hair removal, and we also bought women products in Watsons.

He bought me expensive lotions, bath gel and wash, feminine wash, toners, hair vitamins, sun cream, face cucumber masks, expensive women perfumes at marami pang iba. Wala naman akong napansing naiinip sya o badtrip. Mukha pa ngang nasisisyahan sya sa ginagawa naming pagsshopping.

“Thank you so much, hubby,” I happily said while we’re sitting on a fine dining restaurant.

We’re seating on a table for four, imbes na pang dalawahan lang. Gusto nya kasi akong katabi at nasa harap namin nakapatong ang sandamakmak na paperbags.

“You’re welcome,” he replied and kissed my forehead. Bumilis muli ang tibok ng puso ko. I hugged him. He’s really kind if he’s not jealous or I am not breakinghis rules. I sometimes think I don’t deserve this side of him.

“I wish I had took a photo of you with your eyes sparkling seeing these products earlier,” he said and let out a low chuckle. “You looked so beautiful. I ain’t lying.”

Yumuko ako dahil sa nararamdamang kung ano. Nagiinit ang pisngi ko at pakiramdam ko ay nagbblush ako.

“I would love to spoil my baby more just to see those look in your eyes again,” he said and kissed my hot cheek.

“I look like a gold digger,” pabiro kong sabi. But I think I am.

“You’re not. Stop thinking those things,” medyo galit nyang sabi.

“I’m your husband, after all. Depend on me, Seleira. I’ll stand for the both of us. I love you so much.”

Chapter 6

Secretary

Nakatulog na ako sa sasakyan nya nang pauwi kami. He carried all the paper bags and he also bought me donuts for later. Paggising ko ay nasa kwarto na ako at nagulat ako nang iba na ang suot ko.

I looked at the clock and it says 5 pm. Naka-puting tshirt lang ako at kay Azriel pa ito kaya malaki sa akin. Did we do something a while ago?! Nakashorts na lang din ako. I got up and looked for him.

“Where’s Azriel?” Tanong ko sa napadaang maid habang kinukusot ang mata.

“Nasa library po, ma’am,” she politely answered. I nodded and went back to the room and entered bathroom para maghilamos. Nagmumog ako at lumabas na para pumuntang library.

There’s a small library here in his mansion. Hindi na ako kumatok at naabutan ko syang nakatutok muli sa laptop. He’s wearing his specs again.

He eventually noticed me. Ibinaling nya sa akin ang buong atensyon at naghintay na lumapit ako. I didn’t go to him, though. Sa veranda ako dumiretso at nakita kong madilim na. Kaunti na lang ang nasisilayan kong araw at kulay kahel na ito.

“Seleira,” he called with a low tired voice. Nilingon ko sya at sumenyas syang lumapit ako. Dahan dahan akong lumapit sa kanya. Masuyo nya akong hinila at pinaupo sa kandungan nya.

“A-are you tired? Kanina pa ba ako tulog? Paanong napalitan ang damit ko?” I asked him.

“A bit. Yes. I did,” he answered and kissed my cheek for seconds.

“You did!” Gulat kong pag-uulit.

“Yeah. What’s wrong?” He asked like it’s not a big deal to him.

“Anong ginawa mo sa a-akin?” Tanong ko. He chuckled and kissed me again on my cheek.

“Nothing. I won’t do anything on your unconcious beautiful body, wife.”

Tinanggal ko ang specs nya at dahan dahang ibinaba yun sa table. He gave a one soft kiss on the lips.

“Are you ready to bear my child?” He asked, naglalambing. Siniksik nya ang mukha sa aking leeg.

Biglang bumilis naman ang tibok ng puso ko. I’m obviously not ready for him. Or for a baby…

“I-I’m still young, Azriel. M-marami pang pwedeng mangyare,” alangan kong sagot. Kumunot ang noo nya at tila na-offend sa kung ano man. Hinarap nya rin ako.

“What do you mean? Ano pa bang pwedeng mangyari ngayong asawa na kita?” He asked, medyo tumaas ang boses sa inis.

“H-hindi pa ako handa,” I said.

“Tss. I know,” he said lifelessly. I watched how his emotions suddenly feel empty.

“You’re not yet ready for me either,” he added. I looked down. That’s true.

We ate dinner together silently. Hindi naman talaga sya palasalita. Hindi rin ako. Matapos ang mahabang dinner ay nagpaalam syang magsshower.

“Ako rin,” sagot ko, paakyat ng hadgan.

“What ‘ako rin?’ You want us to shower together?” Naguguluhan nyang tanong. Nanlaki naman ang mga mata ko at agad na umiling. What is he thinking!

“H-hindi noh! Sabi ko maliligo rin ako,”

“Tss. Fine. I’ll use the bathroom downstairs,” he said.

At iyon nga ang nangyari. I went inside the bathroom of our room, carrying the products he bought for me earlier. Pabalik balik pa ako dahil mabigat at marami.

Our bathroom is wide. Malaki rin ang bathtub kaya kung minsan ay nanjan kami namamahinga pareho matapos namin magtalik. Iniling ko ang ulo ko at iniwala sa isip iyon. Malaki ang banyo namin at ang left side ay mga products nya, mga panlalaki. Men’s shaving cream, shampoo, body wash at soaps. Actually, kaunti lang ang mga gamit nya.

Nang tingnan ko ang sa akin ay pagkarami rami nito. Kulay pink ang pinaglalagyan. Merong mga lotion sa taas, malalaking bote ng strawberry shower gel, ph care, sun’s cream, imported shampoo, malalaki ring bote ng keratin at hair conditioners, at iba pa. He loves buying me those things because I love having it.

Nahihiya ako minsan, pero asawa ko naman sya at gusto nya rin namang binibilhan ako ng mga kaartehan ko.

I just took a quick shower. Hindi na ako nagbabad pa sa bath tub. I also brought my nighties here dahil siguradong andyan na sya sa labas. Hindi naman sya nagtatagal sa banyo.

Paglabas ko ay tama nga ako. Nakatutok lang sya sa laptop at may kung anonh trabahong ginagawa. He’s a busy man but he doesn’t complain accompanying me everywhere.

If a man really loves you, he’ll make a way. No one is too busy for someone they love.

If he can’t give you time, then throw the whole man away, sis. Just kidding.

Umupo ako sa kama at hindi na nag-abalang tuyuin ang buhok ko. Sinuklay ko na lamang iyon gamit ang mga daliri ko. He then looked at me and closed his laptop.

“Come here,” he commanded in a low voice. I pouted and went to him. Pinasandal nya ako sa dibdib nya. Hinaplos nya rin ang buhok ko na basa pa.

“I’ve decided to let you work,” panimula nya. Agad akong kumawala sa kanya at tiningnan sya.

“Talaga?!” I asked excitedly.

“Yes, baby.”

“Talagang talaga? Omg, thank you, Azriel…” I hugged him. He chuckled a bit.

“But one rule is don’t make me jealous. You already know it.” Bigla syang sumeryoso. Yun lang pala eh, well, that’s basic. I’ll just walk away from men there. Kakausapin lang pag may kailangan. Tama!

“Okay! It’s not like they don’t know we’re married anyway-”

“Kahit na. Some boys would kiss your feet and be down on their knees just to be your side boyfriend, atleast,” iritado nyang sabi. what?! Side boyfriend daw?

“Huy! Akala mo naman sobrang ganda ng asawa mo,” I laughed softly. Kumunot naman ang noo nya.

“Sobrang ganda naman talaga, ah?”

I playfully pinched his arm. He just chuckled and took his shirt out so I have a nice view of his perfect abs.

“But seriously, don’t make me jealous,” pag-uulit nya. Hindi na lang ako sumagot, I know it.

“Seleira, answer me,” he called in an authorative tone.

“Oo na,” mahina kong sabi.

Kaya naman masaya akong nagising ng umagang yun. I woke up at 7 am tulad ni Azriel. Nauna pa akong magising sa kanya pero nang maramdamang wala ako sa tabi, ay mabilis din syang nagising.

“Excited, huh?” he asked with his bedroom hot voice. Iniwas ko ang tingin at naghanap na lamang ng masusuot.

Last night, he said that I won’t be his secretary since he couldn’t focus seeing me everytime. So instead, I will be the secretary of Mrs. Johanss, the Chief Financial Officer. Si Azriel ang may pinakamaatas na posisyon, he’s the Chief Executive Officer. Syempre, kompanya nya iyon.

He even offered me higher positions, but I nervously declined. Wala akong masyadong alam sa business dahil BS Physics ang natapos kong kurso. So, a secretary will be good for me.

“Azriel, can I wear dresses? Like formal dresses?” Mahina kong tanong.

“Yeah.” Napatalon ako nang marinig nang sobrang lapit ang boses nya. Bago ko pa sya malingon ay nayakap nya na ako.

“A-azriel, hindi pa ako n-naliligo-”

“I don’t care,” he said while kissing my hair.

Hinayaan ko na lamang sya at pumili ng isang white korean style dress.

Nagpahatid ng breakfast si Azriel. I joined him in bed after I just took a bath at nakabath robe pa ako. Pinulupot nya agad ang braso sa bewang ko at humalik sa pisngi ko. He cut my pancake into smaller pieces for me. I happily eat it.

“Milk,” he offered. “That’s not too hot. I made it myself,” he added. I smiled and drink it.

Nagsimula na rin syang kumain. He have coffee and vegetable salad for his breakfast. Sumandal ako sa balikat nya habang ngumunguya.

“Masungit ba si Mrs. Johanss?” I asked.

“You think I’ll assign you to someone grumpy? Heck no,” he replied indirectly.

“So hindi?” Pagtatanong ko ulit.

“No. Shut up and finish your food, wife,” he said. Inirapan ko naman sya nang palihim.

“You’re the one who’s grumpy. Grumpy husband,” I murmurred. I just heard him chuckle and messed my hair.

Nag-toothbrush kami nang sabay pero lumabas na ako nang maliligo na sya. I wore the dress freely in the room because he isn’t here. Pinatuyo ko rin ang buhok ko at nag-apply ng light make up.

He shamelessly walk out of the bathroom, only wearing his underwear. Calvin Klein. Nag-init agad ang pisngi ko, lalo na ng parang wala talaga syang paki. Tila sanay na at okay lang na makita ko ang kabuuan nya. Nagtakip ako ng mukha gamit ang palad.

Geez! His huge member is so bakat and his muscles, too. Okay fine. He got the best body. Mas lalo akong pumula nang maramdaman ko ang kamay nya sa balikat ko.

“Why are you acting like it’s your first time seeing my body? I’m even wearing an underwear, Seleira,” he said, half laughing. Damn him!

“M-magbihis ka na nga!”

“Hey, look at me,” he commanded. No way.

“No way!”

“Baby, I’m your husband. I don’t mind walking naked here.” Papalayo na ang boses nya at nang silipin ko ay pumasok sya sa walk in closet nya.

Crazy boy!

Nang lumabas ay nakasuot na sya ng kanyang puting long sleeves polo at itim na slacks. Itinupi nya ang sleeves ng polo hanggang sa braso. He then put his addicting men perfume. Naglagay na rin ako ng pagbango bago tumayo.

He cling on me again and gave me a kiss on the cheek. Ghad, Azriel is so clingy. But he smells good, though.

“I love you, wife,” he whispered and kissed me again.

“I love you, my Seleira,” sabi nya ulit at paulit ulit na hinalikan ang pisngi ko. I giggled when it made kissing sounds.

“I love you, baby,” He again said and tickled me. I laughed and tried to stop his arms.

“Azriel, stop!” Natatawa kong saway. Kung hindi nya lang ako yakap ay kanina pa ako natumba sa pangingiliti nya.

“Stop what, hmm? I won’t stop loving you,” malambing nyang sabi. I just pouted, I don’t what to say.

“Sabay tayong mag-lunch mamaya. Don’t eat lunch with someone,” paalala nya habang yakap yakap ako.

“Huh? Paano pag ayain ako ni Calix?” Biro ko at tumawa. I don’t even know someone whose name is Calix. Bigla syang bumitaw at pinaharap ako sa kanya. Nagalit sya bigla at salubong na ang makakapal na kilay.

“What the fuck do you mean?!” Inis nyang tanong. Mabilis pa sa hangin magbago ang mood nya.

“H-huh? Azriel, wa-”

“Huwag kang sasama dun kay Calix! How the fuck do you know that bastard, huh?!” Galit nyang tanong. Naguguluhan naman akong tumingin sa kanya.

“H-huh?” I don’t know what to say and react. Natatawa ako na naguguluhan.

“Damn him!” Mura nito at galit na galit na ngayon.

“HA? Ano bang pinagsasabi mo dyan, Azriel?” Mahinahon kong tanong at hinawakan ang braso nya. Napatingin sya doon at nag-iwas ng tingin.

“You said Calix! How did you know him?” Nagtitimpi nyang tanong. Tuluyan na akong natawa. Masama nya naman akong tiningnan.

“Wala akong kilalang Calix, Azriel. Nagbibiro lang ako kanina,” natatawa kong sabi pero ayaw nya nang maniwala.

“Tss.” Ismid nya. “You clearly said Calix-”

“I was just kidding. I don’t know who you are talking about,” I sincerely said. Bumuntong hininga sya.

“Are you telling the truth to me?” He asked seriously. “You really don’t know Calix Sansford? The bastard in Finance department?” Dagdag pa nyang tanong. Pinigilan ko naman ang matawa at tumango.

“Yeah, I don’t know him.” I said and raise my little finger for a pinky promise. Itinaas nya rin ang kanya at pinagyakap namin ang mga little fingers namin. I taught this to him. I secretly giggled, a grownass man having a pinky swesr with me.

I played the song “Your Guardian Angel” by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus in his ipad when we were in his sexy car. Yes, sexy. Hinahayaan nya lang naman akong pakialaman yun.

“Get your phone in the dashboard, wife. I’m giving it back to you.”

Masaya ko iyong kinuha. Yes! He’s trusting me already. Kinalikot ko yun at wala namang mga nawala o mga nagbago. It’s still my iphone 8. Ang cellphone nya ay ang latest iphone model.

Nakita ko lang ang mga texts ni tito na nangungumusta. Wala namang reply dahil wala sa akin ito. Nang tingnan ko ang convo namin ni Daddy ay nalungkot lamang ako. Ni isa ay wala syang text. I sometimes feel like he didn’t love nor care for me at all.

Si tito lang naman ang may pake sa akin simula pagkabata. Daddy wasn’t in home always when I was young too. Kahit noong buhay pa si mama ay hindi naman sya masyado umuuwi.

Lumalala lang nang mamatay si mama ay halos hindi na ako nabibista. He just send money to me which is a sad thing.

“Why?” Azriel asked. I looked at him and shook my head. Hindi naman na sya nagtanong pa at tumingin na lang ako sa labas.

I will never let you fall

I’ll stand up with you forever

I’ll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me in heaven

’Cause you’re my…

You’re my, my

My true love, my whole heart

Please don’t throw that away

Such a great song with great meaning. It takes a lot for a person to be willing to sacrifice his/her own life for someone.

Kaya kayang ialay ni Azriel ang buhay para sa akin?

I shook my head. He won’t die. What the hell am I thinking.

“What are you thinking?” Tanong ni Azriel. Kanina pa pala sya nakatitig sa akin habang kulay pula pa ang stoplight. I then again shook my head. Kumunot ang noo nya at hindi naniniwala.

“What is it, baby?” Malambing nyang tanong at ipinatong ang kamay sa kaliwa kong hita. I hold it and shook my head.

“Damn, she’s making me frustrated,” he whispered to himself but I heard. I just laughed softly.

Use me as you will

Pull my strings just for a thrill

And I know I’ll be okay

Though my skies are gray

I will never let you fall

I’ll stand up with you forever

I’ll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me in heaven.

Pinagbuksan nya ako ng pinto at agad na hinawakan ang kamay ko. We entered the main entrance and everyone bows and greets us. Medyo gulat pa ako at tiningnan ko si Azriel na taas noo ang lakad, sanay na sanay na. He never bows to anyone.

“Good morning, sir, ma’am!”

“Good to see you po, Mrs. Nickolson!”

My cheeks burned up when I heard how he addressed me.

“What? You look shocked,” he commented. I am!

“Oo naman,” mahina kong sabi.

“Why so? You’re my wife after all. And everybody here knows that,” he replied. Hindi na ako nagsalita pa.

Ang laki at ang ganda. Anlaki ng mga pinagbago. Noong una kong magtrabaho dito ay maganda na, ngayon ay mas lalo. Mas nagmukhang elegante at yayamanin. Now, it have glass walls, expensive looking chandeleirs, a great gold stairs at iba pa! It looks so elegant and beautiful.

Marami pang bumati sa amin bago kami pumasok sa elevator made only for him, the CEO.

“Sino ang secretary mo kung ganoon?” I asked him while waiting for the elevator na ihatid kami sa top floor, which is the 45th. He looked at me before answering.

“Why? It’s a boy, wife. No need to ask,” he answered and a smirk plastered on his face.

“A-ano? N-nagtatanong lang naman ako,” I replied defensively. Nainis lang ako ng tumawa sya nang mahina bago ako yakapin mula sa likod.

When I was working here, he got a female secretary. Linggo linggo pa atang paiba iba! And guess what, they were all sexy! Big boobs and big butt! Nairita ako at umirap. Pilit ko ring inaalis ang mga braso nya but he’s just too strong.

“Baby, are you jealous now? Hmm?” Natutuwa nyang tanong.

“Hindi,” mahina kong sagot.

“Hmm okay,” he said in a playful tone. Nakakainis na lalaki.

“Lalaki? Seems like you changed, huh. Dati mga babae, linggo linggo pa. Big boobs and big butts!” I said. Natigilan sya at maya maya’y tumawa na.

His voice is sexy when laughing, but I am mad.

“Gotdamn, my baby’s jealous,” he said like it’s a miracle. Mas lalo nya akong niyapos at pinaghahalikan ang batok ko.

“Ano ba!” Naiinis kong sabi. He is all smiles and wants to kiss me all over my face.

“Azriel,” nagbabanta kong tawag.

“Hmm? My wife is jealous! What the fuck is this feeling!” He said happily like a crazy man. Inirapan ko sya. I don’t have big butt or big boobs!

Hanggang sa makalabas kami ng elevator ay good vibes na goodvibes ang siraulo. He is holding me possessively. His “secretary” na lalaki ay nasa labas ng office nya. He’s a young man with small eyes. Mukha syang japanese. He’s also tall.

“Good morning, Mr. and Mrs. Nickolson,” He greeted in a formal and usual way. Pinagbuksan nya rin kami ng pinto.

“Get in, Franco. State my schedule for today then you may leave,” Azriel said.

“Yes, sir.”

“Azriel, akala ko ba kay Mrs. Johanss ako? Why am I here?” Mahina kong tanong.

“Yes, baby. She’ll come by here to fetch you,” he answered. I just nodded. Bakit hindi na lang kami dun dumiretso.

He made me sit on the couch in the mini living room of his office. His office is so wide. Meroon pa dito na bed room, I looked into its door. Maybe that’s where he is doing his women before. Womanizer bastard!

Hindi ko naririnig ang pinagsasabi ng secretary nya sa kanya dahil malayo iyon sa akin. He’s sitting on his throne, I mean sit while looking intently at me as his secretary, Franco, tells him his schedule.

Maya maya ay may kumatok. Franco went to open it and a woman I think in her late 30s entered. She eventually looked at me and Azriel went to the door.

“Mr. Nickolson, is she your beloved wife?” She asked warmly. I can predict she’s nice and kind.

“Yes, she is. Come here, baby,” he shamelessly called me his baby! Umiwas na lang ako ng tingin sa kanya at lumapit.

“I’ve seen you in pictures, but you look much better in personal.” She showered me many praises and I thanked her endlessly. He then let me go with Mrs. Johanss, alam nya naman siguro ang magiging location ko.

We entered a normal elevator and she pushed buttons 3 and 6. Floor 36. She just chitchat a bit about me, about how cruel Azriel is and earlier was the first time she saw Azriel such in a good mood. I just laughed it out.

Her office is in front of mine. Kaso, transparent ang dingding ng medyo maliit kong office kaya nakikita ko ang nasa labas at nakikita rin ako. It’s pretty elegant, tho.

“I’ll use that if ever I need you to come inside, okay?” She clarified and pointed into a thing. I don’t know what it’s called so I just nodded.

“Okay. Everything you need to do is on your computer and send it on my email if it’s done. Don’t worry, it’s not much. Your husband will kill me,” she said and nervously laughed and comb her hair with his fingers.

I noticed her long fingers. They look abnormally long and she have many rings. Minsan ay tigdadalawa pa sa isang daliri.

“Okay po,” maiikli kong sagot at umupo na. I looked at my back at halos malula ako sa taas ng floor! It looks so good. Andaming buildings. Mamaya ay magppicture ako kapag gabi, siguradong maraming ilaw na iba iba ang kulay. Sakto, my phone is back too.

Chapter 7

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I’m just here in my office, doing my work. It’s actually not that hard. Ewan ko kung ganito ba talaga kadali ang trabaho ng secretary ng CFO o minapula na naman ito lahat ni Azriel. That man can do whatever he wants with his money, fame, and power.

Mrs. Johanss called me for some things that needs to to be signed by Mr. Wiltoncard who is in the 27th floor. Nang ilahad nya sa akin ang folders ay napansin ko na naman ang mahahaba nyang daliri na maraming singsing.

I nodded to Mrs. Long Fingers before heading my way to the elevators. Pinagtitinginan din ako at ang iba ay bahagyang yumuyuko. I didn’t mind them and waited together with other five employees.

“M-ma’am, you may use the private elevator of the CEO po,” she politely said.

“I don’t want to,” I replied and looked at her nameplate. Jorize

.

“Pero ma’am, baka magalit po si-”

“I said I don’t want to!” Inis kong sabi. Bakit nya ba ako pinapakialaman?

Tinawag nya pa ako pero nang bumukas ang elevator ay pumasok na ako agad. The people inside were shocked seeing me. Pumasok din sila.

“Ma’am baka magalit po si sir,” she said. Naiirtita na ako ah.

“Yes, she’s right po. Let me accompany you, ma’am.” A woman said and held my arm which made me look angrily at her.

“Don’t touch me!” Galit kong sabi. Nanlaki ang mga mata nila. Narinig ko rin ang mga bulungan ng nasa labas na nakikitingin, because the elevator is not yet closed.

“Akala mo kung sino,” someone in the elevator said.

“I heard she was just an employee here before-”

“Anong sinabi mo?!” Tumaas na ang boses ko at hinarap kung saan galing ang boses. No one talked.

“I said anong sinabi mo?!” Pag-uulit ko. They look scared and they can’t look at my eyes now. These bitches are getting into my nerves.

“Ma’am, you shouldn’t shout at her-”

“Why do you care? Did I tell her to touch me?” mataray kong tanong. Can I just slap her?! Mabilis na ang paghinga ko dahil sa irita at inis sa mga taong to.

I just wanted to use the regular elevator! That’s it!

“Ma’am, you’re being too much-”

“Enough.” A cold baritone voice made her stop on her sentence. It wasn’t Azriel’s though. Nagsitahimikan sila at nakatingin sa likod ko. When I look back, I saw a tall handsome man looking at me. He has this dark aura like Azriel’s too.

“Sir,” as they addressed him and bow a bit. Who is this?!

“Get out,” he said and looked at me. Nanlaki naman ang mga mata ko sa inis.

“What did you say?!”

“Calm down. Come here and we’ll take the next elevator. It’s full, you see.” He said calmly. Tumingin ako sa paligid at narealize na tama sya. Inirapan ko muna ang babae bago lumabas.

The elevator closed and we stood outside it together, waiting for the next one.

“Go back to your work,” he commanded. Mabuti naman at nawala ang mga nagchichisimisan. Very unprofessional.

“Why were you being so irritated a while ago?”

“Obviously, they didn’t want me to ride with them!” Sabi ko, naiinis pa rin.

“Because you aren’t a regular employee. You should take the CEO’s.”

“Shut up,” mahina kong sabi. The truth is I am scared of riding an elevator alone.

“Who are you?” I asked, looking up at him.

“I’m Ysmael Nickolson,” he said. Kumunot naman ang noo ko. Nickolson?

“Kaano ano mo si Azriel?” I asked. He looked at me before answering.

“I’m your husband’s cousin,” he answered. Cousin? I’ve never heard of Azriel’s family beside his parents (who hate me.) I never knew he had a cousin.

“I guess you don’t know. Well, your wedding was so fast that we didn’t even get an invitation. He badly wants you, huh?” He asked in a mocking tone then looked at my face and down to my body. Iniwasan ko sya ng tingin.

Nang bumukas muli ang elevator ay iisa na lang ang laman pero nagmamadali ring umalis kaya kaming dalawa lang ang pumasok.

“What floor?” He asked.

“Twenty-seventh.”

Walang nagsasalita sa amin at medyo malayo rin ako. I remember those stupid girls earlier. Just don’t let me see you again, Jorize. With her allies.

“T-thank you,” basag ko sa katahimikan. I looked at him and he is weirdly looking at me intently. Like he wants something from me. Nagsitayuan ang mga balahibo ko.

“You’re welcome,” he said in a low voice. Okay, he acts cold to some of the employees and I expected him to treat me the same way but he didn’t. He’s not even taking his eyes off me.

Nang marating ang floor ay nagulat ako nang lumabas din sya. Hindi ko na sya pinansin at dire-diretso lang ang lakad. I immediatley found the office after seeing the his name on the door. I knock three times at the door but I noticed Ysmael is still at my side.

“What?” I asked.

“What what? I’m going here, too,” he said. Hindi ko na lang sya at pumasok. The office isn’t that wide. There’s a man in his mid 40s who is sitting. He immediatley stood up after seeing me.

“Mrs. Nickolson, good morning,” he said in a polite way.

“Good morning po,” I greeted back before I saw him looking at my back.

“Another Mr. Nickolson, what brings you here?” He asked.

“Assist the lady first, sir,” he said. I mentally rolled my eyes when I saw him sit on the couch.

I just did what I need to do here. I am standing in front of Mr. Wiltoncard’s table as he signs every paper. He reads it quickly, too. I looked back at Ysmael and he’s looking at me, examining my whole body before his eyebrows went up and look straight to my face.

This man is handsome, but Azriel’s more. Hindi rin sila magkamukha man lang.

“Thank you, Mr. Wiltoncard,” I said. “Excuse me,” I headed my way to the door and I heard Mr. Wiltoncard asked him for what he is doing here.

“I have to go, sir. Sorry,” He said and followed me. Dito na ako kinutuban ng hindi maganda. What the hell is his problem?

“Are you following me?” Deretsa kong tanong. Napaawang ang bibig nya, he looks amused at something while looking at me.

“I just thought you’ll have a hard time riding the elevator again,” he said innocently. Something about what he is doing feels weird.

Kaya naman ng nasa elevator ay mabilis kong pinindot ang floor ko. He didn’t push any buttons though. He just stood there with me and the other two quiet employees.

“Bye,” I said and went out. Alam kong sumusunod pa rin sya and he’s making me uncomfortable!

“Are you following me?” Medyo naiinis kong tanong.

“I’m not,” he answered. Huminto at gumilid.

“Then go first,” I said. Napalabi sya at wala nang nagawa at nauna nang tahakin ang hallway. I am watching him walk away with my heart beating fast with unfamiliar nervousness.

Nang mawala sya sa paningin ko ay lakad takbo akong pumunta sa office ni Mrs. Long Fingers!

“Mrs. Long Fingers- I mean Mrs. Johanss, here it is,” I said na para walang nangyari.

“Mrs. Long what? Anyway, thank you, Seleira. There are works you need to do in your email. You may have your lunch after finishing it,” She said. I smiled and nodded. I just wish everyone here is like her. Just vibing and minding her own business.

Ganoon nga ang ginawa ko. Alas dose pasado na ng matapos ako at nakatanggap na rin ako ng text kay Azriel.

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

Baby, are you done? Where do you want to eat? I miss you.

I pouted when I realized I just want to be with him instead of that weird cousin earlier.

Me:

Tapos na ako. I want to eat pasta and strawberry parfait for my desert.

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

Yes, baby. I’m coming.

I put my phone down and get my make up kit. I just retouched a bit and put some hair essence he bought for me. Hubby buys everything for me.

Sugar hubby?

I laughed at myself. Tumayo na ako at inayos ang dress ko. I heard my door opened and I once saw his handsome face again. He smiled a bit and went to me quickly. He hugged me and buried his face on my neck. I hugged him back by embracing his neck. He still smells good.

“Are you tired? We can go home,” he said.

“Hindi no,” depensa ko. Hinaplos nya ang buhok ko at tinaas ang baba ko at masuyong akong hinalikan sa labi. He pulled me more, not letting any space between us. Nag-init ang pisngi ko nang makita ang mga empleyadong dumadaan sa labas na malisosyong nakatitig sa amin. Azriel didn’t mind it though, he’s enjoying kissing me.

He pulled the kiss and made our foreheads touch. Paisa isa nya pa akong hinalikan at marahang kinagat ang ibabang labi ko.

“I love you,” he softly said.

“You’re the love of my life, wife” He whispered in my ears that made me blush. He whispered many sweet things in m years and I just giggled cutely.

“I love you. I’m your husband,” he stated like I don’t know it.

“We are married because we love each other. I love you so much,” paulit ulit nyang sabi. I don’t know what the right thing to say so I just smiled.

Masaya ako habang nasa elevator “nya” dahil naeexcite akong kumain. I am so hungry! He is currently hugging me from the back while kissing and biting my neck like an addict. Sinasaway ko sya pero hayaan ko na raw sya.

“Get off me, Azriel” natatawa kong sabi nang malapit nang bumukas ang elevator. Umayos namang ng tayo at tinitigan na lang ako.

“You’re so pretty,” he commented. Pinigilan ko ang ngumiti. Should I tell him about his employees a while ago?! Or about his cousin? Wag na. Mamaya, mag-over react na naman sya. But those girls made me so angry, tho.

He seriously comb his hair using his fingers in a hot way. Then he held my hand pulled me closer. Bumukas ang elevator at nasa first floor na kami. We then went outside to go to the parking lot.

I unexpectedly saw Ysmael. He was about to go to me when he noticed Azriel. Natigilan sya saglit pero patuloy pa ring lumapit sa amin.

“Azriel, bro,” he greeted. Azriel stopped and looked at him emotionlessly.

“What?” He asked.

“You’re with your wife, I see. I met-”

“Hubby, I’m so hungry,” Pagpuputol ko sa sasabihin ni Ysmael. I know he’s about to tell Azriel that we met and I clearly know Azriel will be mad crazy when he knows it. He might stop me from working.

“Azriel, I said I m-”

“Shut the fuck up. Since when did you want to talk to me? Aren’t we rivals? Now, fuck off because my baby is hungry,” Azriel said coldly as he pulled my hand to walk. Sadya nya ring binangga ang balikat ni Ysmael. I saw Ysmael’s jaw moved but didn’t say anything.

“What do you mean? Magkaaway kayo?” Tanong ko. He looks like he’s in a bad mood. Nilapag nya ang kamay sa hita ko.

“It’s nothing, baby. He just gone salty because I’m the family’s heir,” he said. Ah, ganoon pala.

Ysmael is mad because the whole big company isn’t him, it’s Azriel’s. He’s just basically in a high position, but not on top. Baka pinagtitripan nya lang din ako kanina dahil alam nyang asawa ako ni Azriel.

“Well, that’s a childish move. He’s handsome but he must grow up,” mahina kong sabi. Naramdaman ko namang napatingin sya sa akin.

“Eyes on the road-”

“You’re right, but what do you mean you find him handsome?! You never even told me I’m handsome!” Nagtatampo ang tono nito. Napaawang naman ang bibig ko. I never did? Maybe. Palagi ko lang syang pinupuri sa isip ko.

“P-pero mas gwapo ka naman,” nahihiya kong sabi. Umiwas sya ng tingin pero biglang pagalit ulit ang tono.

“E-even so! Ako lang dapat, Seleira. You gave me another reason to hate that bastard,” he said.

“Basagin ko kaya mukha no’n-”

“Azriel!” Saway ko at bahagyang natawa pero sya, seryosong seryosong nagddrive. Ang cute nyang tingnan. Magkasalubong ang kilay at nagtatampo.

“O-oo na, pangit na ’yon,” pagsuko ko.

We went to a fine dining restaurant na hindi kalayuan sa kompanya. Sinalubong kami ng isang waiter.

“Table for two. Magkatabi,” maikling sabi dito ni Azriel.

“Yes, sir. This way po.” He guided us with our seats and magkatabi nga iyon at hindi magkaharap. Heads are turning everytime we walk by.

Grabe ang mga mata ng kababaihan kay Azriel. See, every girl wants him. He can literally leave me anytime he wants…

Azriel pulled the chair a bit for me to seat and he sat next to me. Tiningnan ko ang menu at nakikitingin din sya sa akin kahit na binigyan naman sya ng kanya.

“Baby, that looks great,” he said, pointing into a steak in the menu I’m holding.

“Azriel, go get your own menu,” mahina kong sabi.

“Tss. I’m your husband,” pagdadahilan nya. Inirapan ko na lang sya at naghanap ng pasta. Ang braso nya ay nasa sandalan ng upuan ko at nakikitingin sa hawak kong menu.

This clingy man! Kulang na lang ata magpakalong sa akin eh!

“I’m done picking mine, hubby,” I said.

“Yes, baby…” he said as he kissed my cheek quickly and called for a waiter.

“I want Creamy French Onion Pasta, Strawberry Cheesecake Parfait, and Fresh Peach Lemonade,” I said to the waiter. Each meal is actually quite expensive, but duh. As if may paki doon si Azriel.

“Order more for yourself, wife,” he said while looking at me. Umiling naman ako.

“Andami na nga eh,” I said. Hinaplos nya ang buhok ko at tumango bago bumaling sa waiter.

“Pan-Seared Steak with garlic butter, spring rolls, and wine,” he said.

“Right away, Mr. and Mrs. Nickolson,” he politely said and walked away fastly. He knows us!

A week passed and my routine has always been like that. Go to work with Azriel, meet Ysmael im the hallways and he follows me, eat lunch with Azriel, ect.

I’m actually happy that I’m now working, but Ysmael is just really weird. Since the first time he saw me, he always walk pass my office. Ewan ko kung coincidence lang, but whenever I pass by him in the hallways, he follows me around and act innocent.

I don’t know if I should tell Azriel o talagang binibwisit lang ako ni Ysmael dahil may kinikimkim syang galit kay Azriel.

I shrugged my shoulders and just continue doing work. I was sipping on my coffee when my phone buzzed and Daddy’s name popped up.

“Woah,” I whispered to myself. It’s really rare that he texted me. Once in a blue moon, so I guess this is something.

Daddy:

Seems like you forgot my birthday, hija. There will be a party that will be held this Saturday. I’ll introduce someone. Take care.

That is all his text. Shoot, I forgot my dad’s birthday! But who’s that someone? His new wife?! Something is off. He’s not like this before.

I then called Tito Glassifer. Ilan pang rings bago nya sagutin. I guess he’s in work, too.

“Seleira, dear, napatawag ka?”

“Tito, daddy texted me. And you know he doesn’t text me! What’s happening?” I asked.

“His birthday is coming, hija, alam mo naman-”

“I know, tito. And he said he’s gonna introduce someone, who is it? His new wife?!” Dere-deretso kong tanong. Naramdaman kong natigilan si Tito.

“Tito?”

“H-he said that?”

“Yes!”

“O-oh, h-hija… Don’t w-worry too much a-about that-”

“Do you know who is it, tito? Hindi naman ako magagalit kung may bago syang babae-”

“I need to end this call, h-hija,” he said and immediately hung up. What is happening?

Chapter 8

Pink

Papalubog na ang araw dahil alas sais na. My working hours are actually done but I still have my last task to do.

“Thank you,” mahina kong sabi. Ysmael carried the folders for me when he saw me struggling while walking.

“Where to, Seleira?” Bahagya pa akong nagulat nang tawagin nya ako sa first name ko.

“Uhm, kay Mrs. Santos lang sa 15th floor,” sagot ko. He nodded while staring at me and made his way to the elevator. Nagulat pa ang mga nasa loob dahil siguro magkasama kami.

“Good evening, sir.”

“Good eve po.”

“Good evening, sir, ma’am.”

Pagbabati nila. I didn’t mind them. Taas noo lang akong pumasok.

“You going home after this?” He asked. Kumunot ang noo ko at bahagyang naconcious sa mga nakarinig.

“Yup, with my husband,” I said and looked at him. He’s still looking at me. Matigas syang tumango at nag-iwas ng tingin. Hindi na rin sya nagsalita pa.

We went out and we walked together. Hmm mabuti na rin at hindi ko alam kung nasaan ang office ni Mrs. Santos, eh. Pinagbuksan nya ako ng pinto nang marating namin iyon. Mrs. Santos quickly signed the papers so hindi na kami natagalan pa.

“You can go on. I’ll to my office and eventually go home,” sabi ko at naunang pumasok sa elevator. Pinindot ko ang floor ko at hinintay ko syang pumindot ng kanya pero wala syang ginawa.

“H-hey, I said go,” pag-uulit ko

“Ihahatid na kita sa office mo-”

“Huh?!” Gulat kong tanong. Mabuti at walang iba kaming kasamang nakakarinig.

“H-huwag na, magagalit si A-Azriel,” mahina kong sabi.

“And?” He asked.

“Basta.” Sagot ko na lang. When the elevator stopped and opened, mabilis akong lumabas at hindi na sya nilingon. Hindi nya na rin ako sinundan kaya nakapunta ako ng office nang matiwasay.

Pumasok ako sa office ni Mrs. Long Fingers para magpaalam. She bid her goodbye and wished me a safe ride home.

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

I’m going there. I miss you, baby.

Me:

K.

When we got home, we decided to make our own dinner. We are wearing matching pink aprons. He looks hot with no shirt, just apron, and his black jeans. While I’m wearing my sleeveless top, shorts, and of course, my bunny slippers.

“Baby, it doesnt work that way…”

Sya na mismo ang kumuha ng kutsilyo sa kamay ko dahil nahihirapan akong maghiwa.

“Ang hirap kasi,” reklamo ko.

“Let me do it, then.” I watched him swiftly cut the vegetables. Ang gandang tingnan ng kamay nya.

Nakahiga na kami sa kama at kinakalikot ko ang cellphone ko. I’m posting the pictures of myself I took last week. My background is so pretty!

“What’s that?” Mahina nyang tanong at sumiksik sa gilid ko.

“Posting pictures…” mahina ko ring sagot. I felt him kiss my neck as he murmurred something I didn’t understand.

“Azriel…” I called softly when I felt his hand get down in my underwear.

“Hmm?” he then bit my neck as he sips it gently, putting his mark.

“A-ah,” I moaned softly when I felt his long fingers massage my clit.

“Azriel” nabitawan ko ang cellphone at humawak sa kamay nya. I bit my lips with the sensation. Ibinuka ko rin ang mga hita ko. He then puts a finger inside me as he kiss my ear.

“Hmmm…”

“Look at me, baby” malambing nyang sabi na agad kong sinunod. His eyes reflect love, desires, lust and want. Napaawang ang labi ko nang bilisan nya ang paggalaw ng daliri sa loob ko

“Ah! H-hubby!” I moaned while looking at him when he added another finger. It feels so good.

“Fuck,” mura nya habang titig na titig sa akin. I moaned more when I felt his other finger on my clit while he’s finger fucking me.

“Azriel.. I’m… I’m almost there…” paputol putol kong sabi. He then stopped and before I could protest, he went above me and kissed my lips. Akala mo ay may lakad sya sa sobrang bilis nyang tanggalin ang damit ko.

“I love you,” he said before his kisses went down. I then put my legs on his hips and embrace him more. I can feel his huge member and it’s now really hard.

Namumungay na ang mga mata nya nang tingnan nya ako muli. Nagbabaga na ang mga mata sa pagnanasa.

“Oh, Azriel!” I moaned when he suck my naked mountain. I hold his shirt and tried to take it off. Nakuha nya naman ang gusto ko at mabilis nyang tinanggal yun at hinagis kung saan.

“Baby, I’m so turned on,” he whispered. He then kissed me again and he took all of my remaining clothes below without breaking the kiss.

I can now feel better his hardness. Pinadausdos ko ang kamay ko sa matigas nyang dibdib pababa sa kanyang abs hanggang sa marating ko ang gusto ko.

I touched it and I felt it became bigger. I heard him groan sexily on my ear as he stopped me from touching it gently.

“Fuck… don’t touch it, wife,” napapaos nyang sabi. I didn’t listen and I touched it more. It’s so hard!

“Dammit baby!” Mura nya habang mabigat ang paghinga.

“Please, hubby,” I said sweetly. Tinitigan nya ako.

“No…” sabi nya sa mababang boses at hinuli ang mga kamay ko. I frowned at him.

“Please! I-I want to touch it, hubby!”

“Tangina,” mahina nyang mura nang haplusin ko iyon. It’s so erect that I could see how large it is in his pants.

“I want to. I want to taste-”

“Shut up, gotdamn,” nahihirapan nyang sabi at pumikit. “You’re making me cum just by your dirty talk.” Nanlaki naman ang mga mata ko.

“I’m not talking dirty,-”

“Just shut up, baby, please,” parang may kung anong nagpapahirap sa kanya sa pagsasalita. He then buried his face on my naked breasts again.

“Ahh, Azriel… I-I’m not talking dirty to you, what the hell,” I moaned then I giggle cutely.

“Yes, you do.”

“No, I don’t,” paggiit ko. I felt his went down and now kissing my tummy.

“You really won’t shut your pretty mouth? Hmm?” He asked, tiningila ako at namumungay na lalo ang mga mata.

“I said I want to- Ahhh hubby! Oh my ghad what are y-you doing, uhmmm…” Napahinto ako at napaungol nang bigla nyang halika ang kaselanan ko.

His hot and wet mouth covered my womanhood. He then put my legs on his shoulders as he eat me more. I also caught him looking at me, enjoying how I react with whatever he’s doing.

“Ah ah Azriel!” Hindi ko na alam kung saan ibabaling ang ulo ko nang maramdaman ko ang kung anong pumapasok sa akin! Shit! He’s tongue-fucking me!

“Oh my! Hubby, what the… ahmm”

My moans filled the whole room. Nasasabunutan ko na rin sya and I actually feel sorry for it but it’s his fault.

“H-hubby, I’m near…” nakukuyom ko ang mga daliri ko sa paa sa sarap. And I am genuinely concerned if he can breathe properly there! What the hell!

I let out a long moan when I came. Nakikiliti pa ako nang hindi sya tumigil kahit labasan na ako. He still eats me and my juices like he badly wants it.

“A-azriel, stop…” nahihiya kong sabi

“Just a minute, baby…” he said and I felt his tounge on my clit again. I bit my lip when I feel turned on again.

He then leveled me. He looks so hot while licking his own lips. Pinulupot ko ang kamay ko sa leeg nya.

“I love you,” he said. I put my right hand on his manhood again. He looked at me with warning eyes.

“Please, hubby… I want to do it to you, too-”

“What the hell are you saying?” Medyo inis at paos ang boses nya. He then kissed my shoulders and sometimes bite it like what he did to my neck. I know there’s a hickey now there. Now he’s putting more in my shoulder.

“Uhmm… please. I want to taste it-”

“Fuck no.”

“Please! B-bakit ayaw mo ba?” Mahina kong tanong at hinaplos ang perpekto nyang panga. Agad syang nagreact sa haplos na iyon.

“You think I’ll let you kneel? Never in my life, Seleira,” inis nyang sabi. Sumimangot naman ako. I really want to try.

Bumalik ang init ng katawan ko nang maghubad na sya. I really want to touch it. I touched it and it’s as hard as a rock. It’s also so erect.

“Hubby…” I sweetly said and touched it. He groaned before putting my both hands above. Hinawakan nya ang dalawa kong kamay gamit lamang ang isa nyang kamay at itinaas iyon.

“Hubby!” Pinadyak padyak ko ang paa. He positioned himself onto me.

“Stop wriggling, woman…”

“Gusto ko, hubby please… ahhh oh my god” I moaned when I felt its head poking in me. He’s teasing me. He doesn’t enter it yet, he just slides it in my hole that make me want it even more.

“I love you,” he said as he bury it inside me. Niyakap ko sya at napaungol nang maramdman kong punong puno ako.

“Ah fuck, I love you, baby,” he whispered. He’s so damn huge. He then put my legs on his hips. He holds my left breast as he whisper praises and how much he love me.

Para akong mawawalan ng ulirat nang magsimula syang gumalaw. From slowly to damn fast that the bed is making noise. He’s also moaning in his low husky voice which makes me want him even more.

“Ah ah ah ah,” putol putol na ang ungol ko at sumasabay na sa ritmo ng galaw nya. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa bedsheet. He’s moaning with his eyes closed at nakatingala sya. I can see how hot he is and also his perfect adams apple.

“Hubbyyyy… Ah!” He put my leg on hi shoulder as he thrust deeper and faster. Oh my god, why is this feel so good

“Ahhh,” I moaned when he slowly pull it off.

“W-we haven’t come, Azriel…”

“I’m gonna do you from behind,” he said. Something inside me felt excited as I follow him. Tumalikod ako sa kanya at bahagyang yumuko. I felt him positioned behind me.

He easily entered me from behind and my my… fuck, it feels so much better. I moaned wildly and more loud when he started moving. Shit, baon na baon.

He also whispers hot things to my ear as he bite it. Hawak hawak nya ang bewang ko at umuungol lamang ako.

“Fuck, baby, I love you so much!” Hinihingal nyang sabi.

“Ah ah ah ah ah oh my god, Azriel…” Naibaon ko ang mukha ko sa unan nang napakabilis na ng galaw nya.

“You want this position huh?” He asked with so much love and lust in his voice. Hindi ako agad nakasagot dahil sa pag-ungol ko sa sarap ng ginagawa nya.

“Baby, answer me,” he demanded and he move really slow.

“Hubby, please do it faster like earlier… please” I begged.

“Answer me first.”

“Y-yes… I want this, hubby, please!”

With that, he moved again fastly. Fuck, this position is so much better. Napahawak ako sa unan at halos mabutas iyon sa sobrang higpit ng hawak ko. Kinakagat ko rin ito. I also feel Azriel biting my shoulder sa sobrang gigil nya.

I didn’t even notice that it’s already raining. I didn’t felt cold because of what we are doing. We made hot love in a rainy cold night.

We had three more rounds in the bathroom after that. Azriel is a big scam. I told him I want to shower and he said he’ll just hatid and prepare the tub for me but we did it again. I like it, though.

“I love you,” he said.

“Hmp. S-sabi mo ihahatid mo lang a-ako dito?”

I heard him chuckle with his low sexy voice. I felt him kiss my neck from behind. He’s behind me and we’re here again in the bath tub, taking some rest.

“Hmm. Are you cold? I’ll make the water hotter,” pag-iiba nya ng usapan. I nodded. May pinindot sya sa gilid at mas naging mainit na ang tubig.

Sumandal ako sa dibdib nya. Hinihingal pa rin ako sa mga pinaggagawa namin.

“I love you,” mahina nyang sabi at pinaghahalikan ang pisngi ko. Hinahaplos nya rin ang buhok ko.

Azriel is so handsome. Basa ang buhok nya at punong puno ng pagmamahal ang mga mata. Do you want to see how fast his mood will change? I can just literally say a boy’s name and he’ll be angry af. I giggled to myself. Wag na at baka masapak ako.

“Why are you giggling cutely there? Hmm?” Malambing nyang tanong. I smiled and shook my head.

“Tss…”

“More bubbles, please, hubby” I said. Naramdman ko ang braso nyang pumulupot sa bewang ko. I also traced its veins.

“But there’s already many bubbles, wife,” he said.

“I want more!”

“Fine, baby.”

I saw his hand get the bottle of bubble bath from Sephora. Pinanood ko syang ibuhos iyon at agad namang dumami ang bula.

We spent an hour in the tub while he’s cuddling me before we decided to dry ourselves. Agad akong nagpaalam na sa closet na magbibihis dahil nakita kong iba na naman ang paraan ng pagtingin nya sa akin nang tumayo kami.

I was actually just wearing my pink bathrobe and he looks at me with some familiar emotions in his eyes. He wants it again! But I still feel sore kaya mabilis na akong umalis.

I just wore my korean style pajamas. Paglabas ko ay nasa kama na sya. He’s only wearing his boxers. Pagtingin ko sa orasan ay ala una na!

“A-ala una na pala,” mahina kong sabi. Nakatitig sya sa akin bago mahinang tapikin ang hita. Nakuha ko agad ang gusto nyang sabihin kaya lumapit ako. Masuyo nya ako pinaupo sa hita nya at niyakap. The big boy wants cuddles again.

“Yeah… let’s not go to work later?” He asked like the decision for the both of us in in my hands.

“W-wag na noh. Kawawa naman si Mrs. Long Fingers,” I said.

“Mrs. Long Fingers?” Pagtataka nya. I faced him at ipinatong ang dalawa kong paa sa kama habang kandong nya ako. Ang isa nyang kamay ay nasa bewang ko habang ang isa ay nasa mga hita ko.

“Si Mrs. Johanss. Mahahaba kasi ang.. ang mga daliri nya eh,” I said, pouting. He chuckled and I felt him gently squeeze me.

“You’re so cute, what the fuck,” natutuwa nyang sabi at hinalikan nang matagal ang pisngi ko. Naramdaman ko namang nag-init ang mga iyon.

“Baby, why aren’t you getting pregnant?” mahina nyang tanong. Nakita ko ring may hinawakan sya sa leeg ko na medyo mahapdi. I saw him smiled at it. It’s a hickey made by him! Mukhang magtturtle neck ako ah.

Ilang minuto pa kami nagtagal sa ganoong posisyon. Malakas pa rin ang ulan pero hindi ako nilalamig dahil sa init ni Azriel. Pero nang ilapag nya ako sa kama at tumayo ay nilamig na ako.

“I’ll get some food. Do you want some?” Tanong nya. Umiling lang ako.

“Okay,” sagot nya. Nag-alala pa ako nang lumabas syang nakaboxers lang pero tulog naman na siguro lahat ng maids.

Umupo na lang ako at hinintay sya. Kinuha ko ang cellphone na naabanduna ko kanina dahil sa mga nangyari. Napost ko naman pala at nagsicommentan ang mga dati kong kaklase.

Maya maya ay bumalik na si Azriel. He’s holding a plate with goodlooking burger and fries at the side. Meron ding inumin sa gilid.

“Come here, let’s eat,” yaya nya pero umiling lang ako. Tinalikuran ko sya at nagscroll na lamang sa feed ko. I saw my friends’ posts. I actually didn’t have best friends or any close friend dahil ayaw nila sa ugali ko.

All I have was friends na hindi ko naman pinagkakatiwalaan. Girls hate me either because of my attitude or their boyfriends trying to get my attention. Maarte rin ako noon pero matalino ako. Kapag may walang kwentang kagrupo ay agad kong tinatanggal.

Sa mga research papers ay sinasabi ko sa prof na gusto kong mag-individual dahil ayoko ng pabigat na groupmate. So they hate me. But I don’t need them, I’m smart. I don’t need groupmates.

When I look back at Azriel, he’s eating slowly while texting in his phone. Umupo ako at tumabi sa kanya.

“Pahingi,” mahina kong sabi.

“I thought you don’t want? Here… have it all” Sabi nya at iniabot sa akin lahat. Kinuha ko ang mukhang masarap na burger na isang beses nya lang ata nakagatan.

He just ate fries and continue texting on his phone. Nang silipin ko ay nakita ko ang pangalan ng secretary nya, si Franco.

“H-hindi ka papasok?” Tanong ko dahil iyon ang nabasa ko. He texted Franco that he’s not going to work today.

“No,” he answered and comb my hair using his fingers. “I also texted Mrs. Johanss you won’t.”

Tumango na lang ako. Anong gagawin namin dito maghapon?! Kawawa naman si Mrs. Long Fingers kung ganoon.

“Let’s just make love all day long,” he said. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at agad na lumayo sa kanya.

“Hey!” Tawag nya na mukhang na-offend sa paglayo ko. Hinapit nya ako muli.

“I’m just kidding, silly. But why not, though?”

Natulog na kami matapos namin magtoothbrush nang sabay. Nang kinaumagahan ay nakareceive na kami ng invitation sa birthday ni Daddy.

“It’s a formal business party, as usual,” he said as he stare at it. We are currently in the dining room, having breakfast at 11 AM. Late na kaming nagising pareho.

And yup, he did attend several times in my daddy’s birthdays. Palagi pa syang nakatitig sa akin noon nung “stalker” ko pa sya at isang beses na gumawa ng gulo nang magsama ako ng ka-date.

“It’s a day from now. Wife, what color wil your dress be?” Tanong nya. Tumigil naman ako dahil isusubo na sana ang pancake.

“Bakit?” I asked. Linda poured fresh orange juice on my glass like what I asked.

“I want to have the same color of my tie,” he answered and sip on his coffee. Napaiwas ako ng tingin at napangiti. He’s so cute.

“Pink,” I answered.

Chapter 9

Blooming

It’s still raining hard and the brute is sleeping.

Azriel is peacefully sleeping while hugging me from the back. Nasa may dibdib ko rin ang kamay nya at ang ang mukha ay nasa leeg ko. He can sleep peacefully if he’s doing that, he once said to me.

After we ate lunch, we just showered (not together) and just lay on bed. Umuulan pa rin ngayon simula kagabi kaya siguro inantok si Azriel at nakayapos lang sa akin ngayon.

Hinawakan ko ang braso nyang matigas at lalaking lalaki. I traced its veins and I looked at his fingers. His are long and strong and a bit tanned. Mine are not too long, slender and fair. We are the opposites of each other.

Ibinagsak ko ang tingin sa librong inaaral dahil magffinals na next two weeks and I can’t fail so even though it’s already 1am pass, I am still studying. I closed my eyes for a minute at inayos ang pagkakasuot ng specs ko.

Tiningnan ko si tito Glassifer na kasalukuyang umiinom ng wine. Kaninany alas dose ay kauuwi nya lang galing sa isang business party.

When he looked back at me, he immediatley opened his mouth to talk. Like he’s just waiting to talk about something because he doesn’t wanna disturb me studying.

“Seleira, hija, remember the bachelor I was talking about? The guy you talked once in an event? The guy who was always looking for you?” He asked and put his glass down.

“Who, tito? I’ve met many guys in business events,” I answered kahit na alam ko na kung sino ang tinutukoy nya. I took my specs off. Iniunat ko rin ang leeg ko.

I know that guy very well. He’s a weird guy. Since we once talked to each other in an event (and I was drunk so I say random stuffs) he always look for me. I even see him in public places and he followed me several times like a creep! Ayokong sabihin kay Tito at baka ano pang mangyari.

“The nickolson one,” his clue. The nickolson one. I know right. I know it so well.

“Yeah?” Tanong ko at pinasadahan ng daliri ang buhok ko.

“He was looking for you again in the event a while ago,” sagot nya at nanunuri ang tingin sa akin. Hindi ako agad nakasagot dahil hindi alam ang sasabihin.

“Tell me, is there something between you two? Hindi ako magagalit,” he bargained. I laughed and shook my head.

“None.”

“And oh! Believe me when I say he behaved strange a while ago,” dagdag pa nya. Napaiwas ako ng tingin.

“I noticed him going around for like an hour or two. Paikot ikot lang at napansin pa nga ng daddy mo.

It took him a long time, and with a frowning bad mood face, he reached us and asked: Where’s Seleira?“ Seryosong sabi ni Tito Glassifer na tila ginagaya pa ang ekspresyon ng lalaking iyon.

Imbis na matawa ay kinabahan ako. This is really something else. Does he have a mental illness or something?!

“W-what?” tanging nasabi ko. Tito Glassifer nodded and continued.

“Then when I said no and you were busy, he looked away and his jaw clenched. Mas naging bad mood ata at medyo matagal pa bago nakapagsalita.”

“W-what did he say?”

“Fuck! You don’t wanna hear,” he said and laughed. He drank on his wine glass again before smirking at me.

“W-what did he say, tito?”

“He just asked if you have a boyfriend that you’re being busy with. Ang tigas at ang pait pa ng boses nya, hija. Hindi pa ako nakakasagot sa gulat nang tumalikod sya. We just knew he went home nang magsspeech sya dapat pero wala na raw.”

He’s following me again.

Mabilis akong pumasok sa 24/7 convenience store habang hawak hawak ang dibdib sa kaba. Nilingon ko ang labas at napahinga nang maluwag nang makitang wala nang tao.

It’s already 11:47 in the evening and I’m still out. I had to stay in the campus for some school work. I’m already a 2nd year college so school isn’t easy anymore. Nanginginig ang mga kamay kong kumuha ng korean spicy noodles at coke in can.

Pumila ako sa cashier at may couple lang naman na nasa unahan kong nagbabayad na rin. I just hope they eat here. Please. Don’t take out. Wala nang ibang customer kundi kami at isang payat na babaeng cashier.

I texted tito if he can pick me up but I guess he’s sleeping by now. Nasabi ko kasi kaninang huwag na akong sunduin! I’m dumb sometimes.

Ganoon na lamang ang takot ko nang lumabas na ang couple. And I saw from my peripheral vision that someone entered in exchanged. Abot abot na ang kaba ko.

“M-ma’am are you okay?” Nag-aalalang tanong ng cashier. I nodded. She nodded too and smiled before telling me the bill. I pulled my card out and she swiped it. Ibinalik nya yun at ibinigay na ang binili ko.

“Coffee.” A familiar cold low voice. Hindi naman sobrang lapit sa akin pero nasa likod ko lang. The cashier stuttered in her words and asked him what flavor he wants. Mabilis kong dinampot ang binili ko at naramdaman ko agad ang titig nito sa akin.

Shit. Should I just run outside?! Or should I stay here?!

Napagpasyahan kong manatili na lang. At least he can’t do anything to me here. May cctv panigurado. I’ll just try to contact tito.

Nilagyan ko ng mainit na tubig ang korean noodles at naupo. Ininuman ko na rin ang coke at hindi sya tiningnan. Does he really do nothing in his life but to follow me?!

Nakaupo ako sa mesang nakaharap sa glasswalls ng convenience store and he sat down too. May isang upuan lang sa pgitan namin.

Of all the chairs! He really sat there! Mayroon namang mga pangdalawahan doon. But he maybe just want to see the dark skies too. Maybe.

Kinain ko na lamang ang pagkaanghang-anghang na noodles. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang titig nya sa akin. Ni hindi sya nahihiya.

“I’ve been looking for you,” mahina nyang sabi sa mababa nyang boses. Umiwas ako ng tingin kahit na hindi naman talaga ako nakatingin sa kanya.

I continued dialing tito’s number pero isinilent ko ang cellphone ko.

“Seleira,” he called. I didn’t look. He’s creeping me out. I heard him curse softly.

“Seleira… damn it,” frustrated nyang sabi.

“Please look at me,” he begged. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko habang nakatitig sa noodles nang lumipat sya ng upuan at nasa tabi ko na. Hindi pa nakuntento at inilapit pa lalo ang upuan nya sa akin. Ramdam ko ang mainiit at matigas nyang katawan sa gilid ko.

I felt him smelling my hair. Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko sa kaba. Is he a psycho or something?!

“Damn it,” mura nya sa napapaos na boses.

“W-what do you want?” I finally speak up and looked at him. His eyes reflect longing. For what?! For whom?

He didn’t answer. He just stared at my eyes, like he’s enjoying that I finally looked at him and gave him attention. He looks so expensive and handsome. Ang gwapo nya pag malayo pero sobra pa pala kapag malapit. I can also smell his manly perfume.

“G-get off me,” I said. He put his arm on the backrest of my seat, claiming his territory.

“Why did you go out of your school late? What did you do inside? Who were you with?” Sunod sunod nyang tanong na akala mo kanina nya pa pinipigilan itanong. Medyo galit din ang mga mata nito at nagsalubong ang makakapal na kilay. Inilapit nya pa lalo ang sarili nya.

“I waited outside for three damn hours,” he said which shocked me.

“W-what-”

“I always want to see you. I don’t know what’s happening but I just want to see you, and touch you. And smell your addicting sweet scent. I… I want you, Seleira. So bad… I’m badly smitten,” nahihirapan at namamaos ang boses nya. He has this husky low voice, too but when I realized what he said, I got nervous even more.

I turned around to face his handsome sleeping face. I touched his perfect jawline and I felt him move. He groaned and pulled me even closer, pinagsisiksikan ang malaking katawan sa akin.

“Azriel,” I called softly. I feel so warm in his large embrace. I heard him murmur something in his sleep but I didn’t understand. Nasa leeg ko kasi ang mukha nya kaya hindi ko masyado narinig.

It’s still raining hard. May bagyo kaya? I checked my phone and clicked the weather app. Meron, pero hindi ganoon kalakas. It’s only 23°c.

I suddenly feel hunger. Sinubukan kong bumangon pero ang bigat ng braso nya at hinihila nya ako sa dibdib nya.

“Azriel, let me go,” I said. He just moaned and pulled me even more. Bumagsak ako sa matigas nyang dibdib. I bite it and he groans in pain kaya mahina akong napatawa.

“Get off, b-bababa ako,” mahina kong sabi.

“Maya na,” he said in his sexy bedroom voice. Oh my ghad. What am I thinking! I find everything about him sexy and manly.

“I love you,” bulong bulong nya sa tainga ko. Napatawa ako nang mahina nang makiliti ako. “I love you, Seleira”

Ilang minuto pa ang nagtagal nang ganon ang posisyon namin at hindi ako naglikot. Nanahimik na rin sya at mukhang nakatulog ulit. Dahan dahan akong bumangon pero mabilis nya akong nahila pabalik. Pinatungan pa ako ng binti nya.

“Saglit lang, hubby” I said while tapping his cheek. Nakapikit pa rin sya. He didn’t answer, too

“Azriel…” I called. “I want to go down!”

“Hmm later. I still want to sleep,” sagot nya na akala mo nasa akin ang mga mata nya.

“You can sleep here-”

“No…” he said and buried his face on my hair as he smells it. “I want to feel my wife always,” wala sa sarili nyang sabi. Hinayaan ko na lang sya. Nakakainis.

“Azriel, nagugutom ako,” mahina kong sabi. I felt him move and later kissed my cheek. Dumilat sya at nakita ko ang namumungay ay inaantok nyang mga mata. He gave me a sweet kiss on the lips.

“Fine,” he said. I smiled and kissed him one more time. Lalayo na sana ako pero hinila nya ako para hindi maputol ang halik. I moaned when he bit my lower lip and sips it. Napahawak ako sa pisngi nya.

“I love you,” he said after the kiss while looking straight to my eyes. Why does his breath still smell good even when he just woke up?! I suddenly feel concious of mine. Humabol pa sya ng isang halik bago ako pakawalan.

I walked out of the room with a smile that can’t be removed in my lips. Ewan ko ba, ayaw kong matigil sa kangingiti.

Sinusuklay ko ang buhok ko ng mga daliri habang pababa. Nagulat pa si Linda at Rose sa akin pagpasok ko ng kusina. Nagtagal ang titig nila sa akin.

“Blooming ka, ma’am,” Rose praised. I just smirked and flipped my hair.

“Nadiligan ata si ma’am,” Linda said shamelessly. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko.

“What did you say?” Nag-iinit ang pisngi ko sa sinabi nya. What?! Nadiligan?! She’s so silly!

“W-wala, ma’am-”

“I wanna hear it,” I demand. Nagkatinginan pa ang dalawa. Nagpipigil naman ng tawa si Rose.

“K-kase po namumula ang pisngi at labi nyo po… t-tapos kanina pong umaga namumula rin ang ilang bahagi ng katawan mo tapos talagang b-blooming ka, ma’am. S-si sir naman po good mood,” hiyang hiyang sabi ni Linda. My cheeks burned in embarrasment.

Natawa na nang mahina si Rose. They immediatley excused themselve when I was about to say something.

These naughty girls!

Napahawak ako sa pisngi ko at ang init init nun. Ganoon ba talaga?! Nahahalata ba ng ibang tao pag may nangyari? Shooockkks! Nakakaloka!

I then ordered Linda to cook me some snack. Hindi kasi ako marunong magluto ng kahit ano, well Azriel knows everything.

Titig na titig ako kay Linda habang inilalapag nya ang bagong lutong fries. Kalalapag nya lang din ng homemade pizza.

“T-talaga ba? N-nahahalata ba talaga pag may nangyari?” Tanong ko. Napatalon naman sya sa gulat at hindi makatingin sa akin.

“A-ah eh, oo ma’am eh. S-sa ibang tao, h-hindi ko naman nakikita… p-pero sainyo po kasi blooming ka po talaga at pulang pulang ang ibang bahagi ng katawan m-mo. P-parang pinaggigilan,” Hiyang hiya nyang sabi.

Nanahimik ako at napapikit. I shouldn’t have asked! The mouth of this woman is just so!

Hindi pa ako nakasagot nang marinig ko na ang boses ni Azriel na hinahanap na naman ako. Nagmadali rin si Linda at magalang na nagpaalam.

“Baby,” he called. He just woke up and kissed me on my cheek like we haven’t met just minutes ago.

He then went straight on the sink and opened an unuse toothbrush to brush his teeth. Pinanood ko lang ang kanyang likod. Sinimulan ko na lamang kaninin ang inihanda ni Linda.

“Do you want to work tomorrow?” He asked as he walk to my direction. Umupo sya sa katabi kong upuan at tinitigan ako.

“Yup,” mahina kong sagot. Hinawi nya ang buhok ko papunta sa likod ng tainga ko.

“Whatever you want, wife,” he said. Pinanood nya akong kumain at hindi na ako nag-inarte pa o ano. I’m just hungry.

“Come ’ere,” he said as he tap his lap. Tumayo ako at kinandong nya ako na isa sa pinakapaborito nyang gawain. Inaamoy amoy nya rin ang leeg ko. The hickey he made is still visible tho. Marami rin sa balikat ko.

Sinubuan ko sya ng fries at agad nya iyong kinain kahit na alam kong mapait iyon dahil kasisipilyo nya lang. I continued eating while he’s hugging me and whispers sweet things and praises to my ears.

He whispers how much he love and adore me, how beautiful I am, how beautiful my body is, and everything a girl would want to hear.

Nagpyepyesta naman ang mga paruparo sa tyan ko sa mga naririnig. I giggled cutely which made him squeeze me. “You’re so cute,” he said.

Pinatikim ko rin sya ng homemade pizza and he gladly bite in it. Kumagat din ako at in fairness, masarap nga.

“Fuck… I love this times,” he said in a gentle voice. “I love it when we’re like this.” He added.

“I love it when you’re not afraid of me,” he said which made my heart break a little. I’ve been so scared of him the rest of our times.

Hindi ko sya kinakausap, takot na takot ako pag andyan sya at ilag ako sa kanya. But these days, I actually don’t feel any fear at him except I make something that will make him jealous.

“You’re giving me many reasons to just stay here with you everyday. Gotdamn, you truly own me, Seleira.”

He made me face him and he kissed me in the lips. Masuyo at puno ng pagmamahal. Muntik ko pang mabitawan ang pizza dahil nanghihina ako sa halik nya, mabuti at nahawakan nya iyon at inilapag.

“I love you,” he said countless times.

“Let’s go to our room?” Makahulugan nyang tanong. My eyes widenened and pretended to be hungry.

We went to work after that rainy day that was full of cuddles. Balik na ako sa trabaho at masaya naman ako.

Papalabas ako ng office ni Mrs. Long Fingers para sa papapirmahan ko sa isang floor nang bumungad sa akin si Ysmael.

Seryoso ang mukha nito at nakatitig sa akin na medyo galit pa.

“Why weren’t you here yesterday?” He asked. He looks handsome (not as handsome as Azriel is) in his brown suit with red tie. Seryoso ang tingin pababa sa akin at naghihintay ng sagot. Nakatingala naman ako sa kanya at gulat pa.

“H-huh?”

“You weren’t here yesterday and Azriel weren’t also. What did you do?” He seriously asked. Medyo nairita ako dahil parang nagingialam sya at ayoko sa mga taong ganoon.

“And you need to know because?” Naguguluhan kong tanong. He really looks dead serious. Parang sasapakin ako pag hindi nya nagustuhan ang isasagot ko.

“Because I went here and you weren’t here. Azriel wasn’t also. Maybe you did things in his mansion, huh?” he asked mockingly but there’s no humor in his voice. Naguguluhan ako sa pinagsasabi nya.

“What do you mean? And so what? W-we are husband and wife-”

“I know it’s a business marriage. Everybody knows it. Don’t lie to me,” he said. He sounds so bossy and I didn’t like it. Mabilis ang paghinga ko sa namumuong iritasyon.

“What’s your problem?” I asked. He didn’t say a word and just turned his back and left.

Chapter 10

Fight

“Azriel, magtrabaho ka nga dun sa office mo,” saway ko dahil andito na naman sya sa office ko.

After that weird moment with Ysmael, I haven’t seen him in the hallways again when I went there for some papers. Andito naman itong damulag na ito at yakap nang yakap.

“But I miss you,” mahina nyang sabi. Mahina akong natawa at hinapas ang braso nyang nasa backrest ng upuan ko.

Pinagtitinginan din kami ng mga empleyadong napapadaan. I’ve mentioned that my walls are trasparent kaya nakakahiya dahil sobrang clingy nito.

“What? We were together all day yesterday and we just met this morning,” I said. Inusog nya pa ang upuan nya sa tabi ko lalo at yumakap na.

“I don’t know. I miss seeing and feeling you,” he said and kissed my left cheek. Nag-init naman ang mga ito.

“B-bahala ka nga. M-may ginagawa ako,” sabi ko. Pinagpatuloy ko na lang ang ginagawa habang sya ay walang sawa akong niyayakap at pinaghahalikan kung saan saan. Hindi ba sya nagsasawa sa akin?

Subukan niya lang.

Tumayo ako dahil may kukunin sa drawer ko. I felt him staring at me. Nang tingnan ko sya ay nakatitig sya sa katawan ko at umakyat sa mukha ko. Nagtaas sya ng kilay at nagpahiwatig ng kung ano. Pinanlakihan ko sya ng mata at ngumisi sya. Then he chuckled lowly.

This man!!! Alam na alam ko ang mga galawan nya.

“Siraulo,” bulong ko sa sarili at hinanap na ang hinahanap ko sa drawer. I just need a folder where I can put the important papers.

Nang harapin ko ay nakaupo na sya sa upuan ko. Lumapit ako sa kanya habang nakatingala sya sa akin at prenteng nakaupo.

“Move, that’s my seat,” I said.

“I know. This is your seat.”

“Azriel, that’s my seat. Move!” Sabi ko at hinila sya nang mahina. He chuckled at gently removed my hands. This big boy got nothing to do in his life but to cling to me! Nangungulit at naglalambing na naman.

“Baby, this is your seat. Sit on me,” He said and a side of his lips rose. My cheeks burned and looked around and outside. There were two girls looking at Azriel but when I looked at them and made my one eyebrow up, they immediatley walked away.

Get your own Azriel, but not my Azriel.

What?! Forget about that. Shiz. What am I thinking!

Hinila nya ako paupo sa kandungan nya at naramdaman ko agad ang init nya. Niyakap nya ako at ipinahinga ang baba sa balikat ko. Ang bilis naman ng tibok ng puso ko sa mga galaw nya.

“Azriel-”

“Just do your work, wife. Don’t mind me.”

“What?!” How can I not mind him when I’m sitting on him?! Tumayo ako muli para pumunta kay Mrs. Long Fingers. She has a meeting at 10 am and it’s 30 minutes from now so I need to remind her. But this brute just won’t let me get away.

“Where are you going?” He asked.

“We have a meeting, Azriel,” I answered. He nodded with a frown on his face. I let Mrs. Fingers know about the meeting and she gave me 10 minutes to prepare.

Pagbalik ko ay andun pa rin sya at niyakap ako mula sa likod. I’m wearing a gray turtle neck longsleeve and a white skirt.

“Get off, Azriel…” mahina kong sabi at nag-apply ng lipstick. Hindi ako makaupo dahil nakayakap sya sa akin.

“No boys for you there, huh,” seryoso nyang sabi at hindi pinansin ang sinabi ko. Nagbabanta ang boses nya at alam mong may gagawing hindi maganda pag hindi mo sinunod.

That was one of his lines even when he was still stalking me back then. He would show up from nowhere and tell me not  to interact with other boys.

So him, saying this line again makes me remember a little bit of our interactions in the past. 

“No boys for you,” he seriously said. I let out  a heavy sigh before looking back at him.

“Y-you’re creeping me out. W-why do you care so much-”

“I told you already last night,” madiin at galit ang boses nya pero nanatili itong mababa lang. He looked at me down to my body. It’s monday so it’s required to wear our uniform.

“S-stop following me-”

“I won’t. Now who was that small boy who arrived with you earlier?!” Galit nyang tanong. His face is getting red and his eyebrows are almost meeting each other.

Gumagalaw din ang perpekto nyang panga. He looks ten times hotter and handsome when he’s angry. But it can make you feel jelly in fear at the same time.

“W-what? Small boy?” Mahina at naguguluhan kong tanong. Who’s small boy is he talking about? Oh. Is he talking about my boyfriend? Sya lang naman ang kasama kong pumunta ng university.

“Yes. That damn blonde child-”

“S-stop! He’s my boyfriend and he isn’t a  small boy or a child,” medyo iritado kong sagot. My boyfriend for this week, Zack, is a 5’8 foot man. He’s also a varsity player here so he’s pretty famous. But this man infront of me is a 6 footer.

“What?! boyfriend?!” He asked angrily like I betrayed him. Malalaking hakbang ang ginawa nya at tuluyang nakain ang distansya sa pagitan namin. Nagtambol ang dibdib ko nang makita ang galit nyang mga mata.

“Y-yes-”

“What the fuck?! You can’t have a damn boyfriend, Seleira!” Galit nitong sigaw. Tila naputol na ang pasensya nya. Tumingin ako sa paligid at nakita kong may mga nakikitingin na sa amin.

They look shock too because of the man I am talking with. Wala naman syang pakialam sa paligid, talagang nagagalit lang sya.  Bumilis na rin lalo ang tibok ng puso ko.

“Stop-”

“Break up with your boy toy! I know you’re not serious!” Frustrated nyang sabi. “Did he kiss you?! A-are you kissing each other?!” He groaned in so much frustration. This is getting weirder than ever! I am so shock that I couldn’t open my mouth.

“Let’s go!” He angrily said as he get a hold of my hand and pulled me towards his car. My eyes widened in shock and fear. I screamed for help but no one even tried to went near us because they know him. And how powerful he is.

“Stop! Help me!”

“I won’t do anything bad to you,” He said in a low calm voice. No, nagtitimping boses. Ano ba’t galit na galit sya?! Kinagagalit nyang may boyfriend ako?!

“Bitawan mo ako-”

“DAMN IT! Just come with me now because I am so angry that I don’t know how can I deal with this! Son of a bitch!” Pagmumura nya at ang bilis na magtaas baba ng balikat nya.

“A-ano bang pinagsasabi mo-”

“I need to calm down. And you’re the only one who can do that to me.” Nahihirapan nyang sabi. Narinig ko pa ang iilan nyang mura ganoon din ang walang habas nyang pagmumura kay Zack.

“Let’s go, Seleira,” I didn’t respond and wriggled even more to get out of his hold but he shamelessly carry me like  a sack to his car.

I hated that. I felt like a hopeless child. Even now, remembering it makes me sick. There were really sides of him that I couldn’t bare.

Napabalik na lamang ako sa realidad nang tawagin ako ni Mrs. Long Fingers. We both entered the elevator and she just briefly discussed the things I need to do later.

Nang makalabas ng elevator ay nasa 13th floor na kami. Medyo kinabahan pa ako dahil sa mga napanood kong horror movies tungkol sa 13th floor. Mabuti at umaga at maraming tao. We both entered a room where a woman in a formal attire welcomed us and guided us to our seats.

“This isn’t such a big meeting so the CEO, your husband, isn’t actually needed here. He deals with so much and heavier workloads so this will be such a waste of his time,” she said while we’re about to sit. I nodded even though my head says otherwise.

Talaga lang na marami at mabibigat ang ginagawa ni Azriel ah. Nakatambay nga lang yun sa office ko kanina at naglalambing.

Wala pa namang gaanong tao. Just two people and the other one is busy on her laptop. Pagkaupo pa lang ay ramdam ko nang may nakatitig sa akin.

I looked for whoever is it and it’s a man I think kaedaran nina Azriel at Ysmael. He smiled at me warmly. Nagtaas ako ng isang kilay at pasimpleng tumaray. Tss, I don’t like him. I heard him whistle like he enjoyed my reaction which I find more irritating.

I just look on my macbook and prepared everything. Nagbasa basa rin ako habang hinihintay ang iba pa. Ganoon din si Mrs. Long Fingers.

“Mrs. Johanss, what a beautiful woman to see this morning!” I heard the man who was looking at me talked to Mrs. Long Fingers. I heard her laugh before putting her iPad down table.

“How sweet of you, young man. Thank you,” she said.

“Not a problem, Mrs. Johanss. How about that beautiful girl in your right?” He asked while smiling.

“Oh! She’s my lovely secretary,” she said. “Seleira, this is Mr. Jung, from the finance department.”

“Good morning,” I greet in a usual polite tone. He smiled brightly at me.  He offered a hand before saying his name.

“I’m Wayne Jung, but Wayne will do,” he said and he smiled again and his eyes went smaller. Tinitigan ko lang ang kamay nya hanggang sa awkward na natawa na si Mrs. Long Fingers.

“O-oh! She’s Seleira Nickolson, wife of our respected CEO,” she introduced. Nakita kong nanlaki ang mga mata nito at agad binawi ang kamay. Paulit ulit pa itong nag-bow na tila pinagsisisihan ang mga pinagsasasabi nya kanina.

“O-oh my bad. S-sorry, ma’am… I-I didn’t know. I am new,” he explained. I just looked at him and looked back at laptop.

Ilang minuto ang lumipas at nagsidatingan na rin ang iba pa. They all greet Mrs. Johanss as their head and bowed to me, too, for being the wife of the CEO. So much benefits, huh.

Nang magsimula ang meeting ay nakikinig lang ako at nagttake down notes. Si Mrs. Long Fingers ay isa sa mga umuusisa sa nagrereport at sa report nito. Heck, I don’t even know what they’re talking about.

In the middle of the meeting, my phone beeped. It’s a text from Azriel, updating me that he have to go to a meeting too. He likes giving me updates even if I never asked for those. I like it that way, though.

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

Baby, I’m on my way to my meeting now with Zilorica Inc. See you later.

Me:

K.

The meeting went on and on and I actually understand some little things. I don’t like business. My dad, uncle, and Azriel all loves it.

I actually expected daddy to push me to take business back then, but he didn’t. I expected him to convince me to take business so I can takeover our business one day, but he didn’t.

Nang matapos ang meeting ay nagbatian silang muli. Alas dose na at nagugutom na ako. Meron namang ibinigay na snack kanina pero hindi naman ako nabusog at hindi ko masyadong kinain.

“Seleira, I need to go to the restroom. You can go first in your office. And oh! It’s your lunch break. Go ahead,” Mrs. Long Fingers said. I nodded and thanked her.

Magalang akong nagpaalam sa mga bumabating tao sa akin. Pagkalabas ko ay bumungad sa akin si Ysmael. Agad kumunot ang noo ko sa kanya.

“Easy, I’m not even doing anything,” he said and raised both of his hands in the air.

“What do you want this time?” Tanong ko.

“Where were you yesterday?” Pag-uulit nya sa tanong nya kaninang umaga.

“W-why do you keep asking that?” I asked and started walking. Sinabayan nya naman ako.

“Because I want to know.” I didn’t answer him. Tinitigan ko lang sya at binasa ang mga mata nya pero wala akong makitang kahit ano. Blanko ang ekspresyon nya.

“I need a new secretary,” he then said. Kumunot muli ang noo ko.

“And?”

“I want it to be you,” he demanded. Napaawang ang bibig ko at medyo nainis. What is wrong with this man?!

“Ysmael-”

“Trying to flirt my wife behind my back, huh?” Someone cut my words off. When I turned to look, it’s Azriel. Galit at pagod ang nakikita sa mga mata nito.

“Azriel-”

“Don’t even mess with this, Seleira,” nagbabanta nyang sabi. Tiningnan ko si Ysmael at walang mabasang ekspresyon sa mukha nito at nakatitig lang kay Azriel.

“Secretary?!” Azriel asked and laugh in a mocking way. “Do you like my wife? Huh? You, fucker. You always want what’s mine-”

“She’s yours?” Ysmael replied coldly. “Forgive me, but I can’t see it. Heck, I don’t even feel it. I don’t know, but I feel like she doesn’t love you at all. Everything about her screams purity, availability, and virginity-”

Naghiyawan ang mga tao pati na rin ako nang biglang sapakin ni Azriel si Ysmael. The sound of his strong fist in his cheek made a disturbing noise and Ysmael flew back. Tumama ang likod nya sa pader na nagpaalala sa akin.

“Azriel!” I screamed.

“Take back what you said!” Sigaw nito. “Bawiin mong sinabi mo! Fuck you!”

Azriel looks so angry. It’s like everything in him got triggered with what Ysmael said. Nanginig ako bigla sa takot. Ayan ang ayaw na ayaw nyang marinig. Say everything to him, wag lang yan. Wag mo lang sabihin na hindi ko sya mahal.

The guards tried to stop Azriel but he warned them. Hindi lumalaban si Ysmael at nakangisi pa. Tila masayang nagalit nya si Azriel.

“Fuck you, man,” nahihirapan nyang sabi habang nakangisi. Basag ang labi nya at ang pisngi nya dumudugo na. The employees are panicking but can’t do anything since they are both boss.

“Bawiin mong sinabi mo! Seleira loves me, you son of a damn bitch!” He angrily said. Lumalabas na ang ugat sa leeg nya at pulang pula ang mukha nya sa galit. Muli nya pang sinapak si Ysmael na kaunti na lang ay tingin kong mawawalan na ng malay.

“Azriel, stop!” I said and went near them. Anlakas na ng tibok ng puso ko sa kaba at alam kong ganoon din ang mga empleyado.

“I won’t take it back because it’s the truth,” Ysmael said lowly. Pagak pa syang natawa at bahagyang pinunasan ang labi. Mabilis ang paghinga ni Azriel at kung hindi sya sya pipigilan ay mapapatay nya sa bugbog itong si Ysmael!

We all screamed when Azriel gave him another punch. Muling tumalsik si Ysmael pero hindi mabura sa labi nya ang ngisi. Azriel walked and looked down at him as if he’s some low class creature. Some people tried to call him but he didn’t look back.

“You can kill me but the fact that she’s like a single blooming woman won’t change at all.” Ysmael stated. This man really need to shut up!

“And what are you expecting?! That I’ll let her be under you by being your secretary?” Naging malamig ang boses ni Azriel. Natahimik ang lahat pati na rin ako. Ysmael is still smirking when he nodded.

“Son of a bitch. She will never. You know why?” he asked as he step closer to Ysmael. Humakbang na rin ako papunta sa kanya sa takot na baka manakit syang muli.

“Because she’s always under me. Every night.”

Doon na nawala ang ngisi ni Ysmael. Napasinghap ang mga tao sa paligid at nag-init naman ang pisngi ko. Tumalikod sya at agad akong nahanap ng mga mata nya. Walang ekspresyon nya akong binuhat kaya gulat akong napakapit sa kanya.

“Azriel,” I called softly. Galit na galit pa rin ang mga mata nya at mabilis pa rin ang paghinga nya. Mukha syang nagtatampo at nagagalit.

“Ms. Ledesma, call an ambulance. Everyone, forget what happened. Go back to your work and no one should post videos or pictures or spread what happened. You will know what will happen to you and your family if you will.” Those are the last words I heard from the floor. That is his secretary.

“Azriel,” I called him again. He’s not looking at me. He’s looking straight at the way.

“H-hubby,” I called desperately.

Buhat buhat nya pa rin ako nang pumasok kami sa private elevator nya. At hindi nya pa rin ako tinitingnan.

“Hubby,” I called. Marahan kong hinawakan ang pisngi nya para mapaharap sa akin. He’s so handsome. But he’s angry.

I don’t know what to do so I just gave him a kiss on his cheek. Agad syang nag-react don pero nag-iwas ng tingin kahit na hindi naman sya nakatingin sa akin.

“B-bakit ka nagagalit sa a-akin,” mahina kong tanong. “I-I didn’t do anything bad. I-I wasn’t a b-bad girl.”  I heard him sigh heavily. I made my eyes cute when he finally look at me. Muli syang mabigat na napabuntong hininga. I hold onto his neck even tighter.

“I’m not mad at you, wife,” he said in a low voice. “I’m just mad. So fucking mad.”

Napatingin ako sa baba at naguilty kahit na alam kong wala naman akong ginawa. It was Ysmael who talked to me first! I’m innocent!

“Will you forgive me if I kill him-”

“Azriel!” Gulat kong sigaw. Seryoso lang syang nakatitig sa akin. Galit pa rin ang mga mata.

“Why? You realized you like him? Huh? Is that it?” Galit nyang bintang. We also reached the top floor. Malalaki at mabibilis ang mga hakbang nya na akala mo walang buhat buhat. I’m 44 kilos!

“Ano bang sinasabi mo? I-I just don’t want you t-to do something b-bad.” Nevermind. He did something bad. He beat Ysmael up.

Pumasok kami sa opisina nya at dere deretso syang naglakad papunta sa kanyang mesa. Inilapag nya ako doon at tumayo sya sa pagitan ng mga hita ko.

Nakatukod sya sa mesa na tila kinukulong ako. Titig na titig din sya sakin at pakiramdam ko ay matutunaw ako sa galit ng titig nya. I just hold on his broad shoulders.

“But you like him. You told me you found him handsome,” he said while looking straight at his eyes. “I want to kill him so I can have all your attention.”

I wanted to laugh because of how petty it is but kinda felt scared dahil alam kong kaya nyang gawin ang sinabi nya.

“A-azriel, yes he’s handsome. But y-you’re more. And I don’t want him-”

“Then who do you want? Hmm? Sinong gusto mo?” Tanong nya at mas idiniin ang sarili sa akin. Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko at humigpit ang kapit ko sa balikat nya.

“Baby, who do you want?”

“I-ikaw…” mahina kong sagot at tumingin sa baba.

“Who? I didn’t hear it clearly,” he said.

“I-ikaw, Azriel.” I repeated.

“Say it whole, wife. I wanna hear it.” Napapaos nyang sabi.

“I-ikaw ang gusto ko, Azriel.” Nahihiya kong sabi at dahan dahang nag-angat ng tingin sa kanya.

Mariin nyang ipinipikit ang mga mata at maya maya’y  unti unting  namula ang tainga. Narinig  ko syang napamura bago nya ibaon ang mukha sa leeg ko. Niyakap nya rin ang bewang ko kaya niyakap ko na rin sya pabalik.

“Damn it… I love you,” he whispered. “I want you, too. Only you, Seleira.” Napangiti ako at mas hinigpitan ang yakap sa leeg nya. Ilang minuto pa ang nagdaan at ganoon lamang ang posisyon namin.

“G-galit ka pa ba?” Tanong ko.

“A bit,” he whispered. Pinaharap ko sya sa akin at mukha ngang galit pa rin sya pero hindi na tulad ng kanina.

I put my hands on his neck and leaned to give him a kiss. Ito lang ang naiisip kong paraan para mapakalma na sya nang tuluyan.

Mabilis syang gumanti ng halik. Para syang sabik na sabik sa halik kung makahalik ngayon. Napipisil pa nya ang bewang ko sa gigil. Dumaing ako nang makagat nya ang labi ko.

“Sorry,” he said between the kiss. Hinaplos ko ang buhok at panga nya habang hinahalikan sya. He seems to enjoy it as he held my hand and guided it back to his jaw when I removed it.

“I love you,” he said when we pulled the kiss. Lumapit pa ako at pinatakan sya ng paisa isang halik sa labi na gumagawa ng tunog. He wants it. Hanggang sa idiin nya na ako para hindi na paisa isa lamang.

“Azriel,” naalarma kong tawag nang umamba syang tatanggalin ang blouse ko.

“Baby, we need to make love,” he whispered. Tumayo ang mga balahibo ko sa katawan at bahagyang naexcite dahil nasa office kami. Pero mabilis kong pinigilan ang braso nya. Tiningnan nya ako nang bitin ang itsura.

“What?”

“Azriel, s-stop. We c-can’t do it here.”

“Baby, please…” he begged and started kissing my neck. I moaned but I still pushed him.

“Baby, please… I want to make love with you” Nahihirapan nyang sabi at halos mapisil na ang buong katawan ko sa gigil nya. I giggled cutely at tuluyan nang bumigay.

I figured out kisses aren’t enough to make him calm for what happened. After this, I’m sure he’ll be calm and gentle.

After this, I’m sure he won’t be a man who wants to kill someone, he’ll just be a big baby who wants cuddles and kisses.

Chapter 11

Cuddles

“Azriel, mag-drive ka na,” natatawa kong utos. We just made it in his office! He cleaned me up before we went down here in his car. Ala una i-media pa lang pero uuwi na raw kami.

“Later,” he said as he kiss shoulder while he hugs me. We are in the backseat of his car and he’s clinging onto me so bad.

“Hmm… 5 minutes then?” Tanong ko. He groaned and he hugged me even tighter. Pinatong pa ang binti sa hita ko, pinagsisiksikan ang sarili sa akin.

“Baby, I always want cuddles after our love making,” he whispered. “I don’t think I will function well if I won’t get cuddles,” madrama nyang sabi kaya natawa ako.

“You’re over reacting, Azriel,” I said and I giggled. Hinaplos ko ang panga nya at napapikit naman sya.

Ang gwapo nya talaga. He isn’t wearing a suit anymore, he’s only wearing a black shirt which I find hot. Medyo pula rin ang labi nya dahil sa kahahalik sa akin.

“Sit on me,” he then said.

Masuyo nya akong inalalayang tumayo at pinaupo sa hita nya. Sumandal ako sa mabango at matigas nyang dibdib. His right hand is in my waist and the other one is on my butt. Nag-init naman agad ang pisngi ko.

“I-I don’t have butt,” I protest and I saw him smirk.

“Really? Then what’s this?” He playfully asked and gently squeeze it. Pabiro kong hinampas ang dibdib nya.

“I don’t have big butt,” pagcocorrect ko. Nakangisi pa rin sya na nagdadagdag sa inis ko. Surely, he likes girls with big boobs and butts!

“I love your body, wife. I really do,” he said, seryoso na ngayon. I just pouted. Liar!

He got the perfect man body. Hindi ko na kailangan pang isa-isahin ang katangian ng katawan nya dahil alam na ng lahat iyon. Girls would throw themselves to him and he’ll do them happily!

“Baby, what are you thinking?” He asked. Tinitigan ko sya at tinitigan nya rin ako pabalik. Hinaplos haplos nya rin ang balikat ko.

“Wala,” sagot ko.

When he started driving, he said that we’ll stop over to get McDonalds. Tumango ako dahil nagugutom na rin ako.

He’s in a light mood while driving. Nasa hita ko pa ang malaki nyang kamay at bahagya pang hinahaplos-haplos iyon. Hinayaan ko na lang sya.

Bumagal ang takbo ng kotse nang nasa drive thru na kami. Mayroong dalawang kotse sa harap namin kaya kailangan naming pumila pa. Itinatali ko ang buhok ko sa isang mataas na ponytail nang titigan nya ako.

“W-what?” I asked. He just shook his head and continued staring at me. Nag-init ang pisngi ko at nag-iwas na lamang ng tingin.

“What do you want, wife?” Tanong nya nang kami na.

“Fries… oreo mcflurry,” I said. He nodded and looked at the staff. Her eyes widened and her cheeks became a bit red when he saw Azriel. Umirap ako nang palihim.

“Can we get two large fries, a large coke, Oreo Mcflurry, one double cheeseburger, six pieces nuggets,” he said in his usual low sexy voice. Kakairita!

“Barbeque sauce,” I whispered.

“And barbeque sauce,” he said.

“Sweet and sour sauce at ketchup,” dagdag ko.

“And sweet and sour sauce and ketchup,” he said. The girl nodded cutely.

“Okay, sir,” she said sweetly. Kainis. I know they’re usually friendly but I instantly hate her.

Hindi na ako nagsalita. The car moved slowly and we waited again for our orders. He looked at me and hold my hand as he stare at me. He removed his seatbelt and leaned on me to give me a kiss. I pouted.

“What is it?” He asked. Umiling lang ako at inosenteng tiningnan sya. He kissed me on the lips again and I held on his neck. Tinitigan nya ako pagkatapos.

He kissed me again, but we heard a voice saying our orders are already here. Bahagya ko syang tinulak dahil sa hiya! Nakikita ata kami!

“Hubby!” I called. He kissed me one more time before pulling away.

Binigay nya sa akin ang mga orders. He payed using his card before the car moved again. Huminto kami sa parking lot dahil gusto kong kumain.

“Here,” he handed me one large fries and my oreo mcflurry. Agad ko namang kinain iyon.

“Yummy,” I whispered. He started eating his burger and I eat my fries.

“Here, take a bite,” he gently said. Itinapat nya ang burger sa bibig ko at kinagatan ko iyon. I nodded, it’s so yummy! Fast foods are the best!

“If you’re pregnant, I won’t let you eat these,” he said. Sinubuan nya pa ako ulit ng nuggets at masaya kong kinain iyon.

“But I’m not,” I said while chewing my food. He chuckled and wiped the side of my lips.

“I know. And that’s so damn weird,” seryoso nyang sabi. “Let’s get checked up. Maybe one of us is infertile.”

Kinabahan agad ako. He shouldn’t know I’m taking pills for my menstrual regulation!

“H-huh? Wag na,” sabi ko matapos lunukin ang pagkain. Kumunot ang noo nya.

“Baby, if you’re worried you’re infertile and I’ll leave you, then the answer is no.”

“B-baka m-mahirap lang talaga a-ako magbuntis. T-tsaka hindi pa ako ready,” mahina kong sabi. He let out a heavy sigh.

“I know,” malambing nyang sabi. Wala na ulit nagsalita at kumain na lang kami.

“Stay away from Ysmael, alright?” He said. Mabuti naman at nailihis ang topic. Inilapit ko ang bibig ko sa coke nya para makiinom at pinainom nya naman ako.

“Hindi naman talaga ako lumalapit sa kanya,” I defensed.

“Tss. You were together when I saw you earlier. And my secretary said he often saw you two,” naiirita nyang sabi. Lumamig din bigla ang boses nya.

“S-sya lang naman yung lumalapit eh. I-I didn’t do anything. I tried to push him away naman,” sabi ko sa maliit na boses.

“Just work in my office, dammit. I just can’t kick him out of my company.”

Nang makauwi kami ay agad kaming umakyat. Nauna akong maligo at naghintay naman sya sa labas. Matapos ko ay nagpaalam akong bababa lang.

“Make sure you won’t do stupid thing,” banta nya sa seryosong boses. I smiled cutely and nodded.

Seryoso nya pa akong tinitigan ng ilang saglit bago pumasok ng banyo.

Why is he so worried? Hindi naman ako aalis o gagawa ng kung ano.

With the remaining fast food in my hands, I went down and looked for some people. Nakita ko ang dalawa sa mga maids. Of course, it’s Linda and Rose. Hindi ko naman alam ang pangalan ng ibang maids. Masyadong marami.

“Here, take this,” sabi ko at iwinagayway ang hawak na supot ng McDo. Nagkatinginan muna sila.

“Baka magalit po si sir, ma’am,” sabi ni Rose. Umiling ako.

“Nope, he won’t,” I assured. I caught Linda looking intently at me.

“Blooming ka na naman po, ma’am,” makahulugan nyang sabi. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko.

“H-huh?!”

“Tsaka ma’am oh…” nginuso nya ang balikat ko. I’m only wearing my usual sleeveless dress na pambahay at nang tingnan ko ang balikat ay namumula. These are Azriel’s fresh love bites!

“N-nung nakaraan pa yan.”

“Mukhang bago lang po eh?”

“Heh! Shut up!” Singhal ko at inilapag ang supot ng McDo sa malapit na mesa. Nakangisi sila.

Talagang komportable na sila sa akin huh! I looked at my skin and there are also in my legs and arms! Namumula nga!

Umalis ako at umakyat na sa taas. Azriel isn’t done yet. Bukas na ang birthday party ni daddy kaya pumasok ako sa aking malaking walk in closet. Everything is here!

Pumunta ako sa corner kung nasaan ang formal elegant dresses. I looked for color pink dresses. But they all look pretty and elegant! Iba iba lang ang shades ng pink. Hindi ako makapili! Kaya naman pinatawag ko si Linda para tulungan ako.

If you’re wondering about Linda’s physical appearance, well she’s kinda tall. Kulot ang buhok at morena ang balat. Maganda sya sa edad nyang early 30s siguro.

And I think there’s something going on between her and our driver. I remember seeing them in the garage once. Heck!! I don’t even wanna remember what I saw!

“Hmmm… maputi po kasi kayo, ma’am. Ito sa tingin ko,” sabi nya at kinuha ang isang dress na pink pero dark ang shade nito.

It will expose 90% of my back and it’s also full of glitters. All of these dresses are designed by a famous designer, which is Azriel’s family friend.

Tumango na lang ako kay Linda at napagpasayahang yun na nga ang isuot. We also chose the heels I’ll wear. 3 inches only. Nagpaalam na sya nang pumasok ng closet si Azriel na nakatapis lang ng tuwalya sa kanyang bewang!

When Linda went out, Azriel immediatley went to me. He looks so hot with water dripping from his hair down to his manly body. His abs and muscles are all in right places. Niyakap nya ako at inamoy ang buhok ko.

“Azriel, you’re wet,” I said. He kissed me on my cheek. He’s so clingy!

“What are you doing?” He asked.

“We chose the dress na susuotin ko for tomorrow…”

“Shall I call a make up artist for you tomorrow? Or someone to help you?” He asked. Hindi naman ako makatingin nang deretso sa kanya dahil sa itsura nya. Nag-iinit ang pisngi ko.

“Huh? W-wag na. I can handle myself.”

Kinagabihan ay nasa kwarto lang ulit kami. We already ate dinner and showered and now ready to go to bed.

“It will start at 6 pm,” I said while looking at the invitation card. Azriel crawled in the bed and hugged me. He also smells my neck like he always does.

“Hubby,” I called.

“Hmm?” Malambing nyang sabi at siniksii ang mukha sa leeg ko. Nakiliti naman ako nang kaunti at hinawakan ang braso nya sa bewang ko. Ang tigas talaga.

“I want to go early para makapag-catch up muna kina daddy and tito,” I said.

“How about we go there at four?” He asked.

“Okay…” sagot ko at sumandal sa kanya. Naramdaman ko namang hinahalikan nya ang leeg ko. Hindi talaga sya nagsasawa sa kakalambing. Baka pag ako nanlambing dyan, makalimutan nya kung sino s’ya. Just kidding.

Kinabukasan ay late na akong nagising. Wala na si Azriel pagkagising ko dahil sanay syang nagigising nang maaga kahit hindi kami papasok ngayon. I looked at the clock and it’s already 9:30 AM.

Pumasok ang isang hindi ko kilalang maid pero alam ko naman ang mukha nya. May dala syang basket at mukhang kukuha ng gamit nang mga damit para labhan. Mukha pa syang nagulat nang makita akong gising.

“Good morning po, ma’am. Handa na po kanina pa ang almusal nyo sa baba. Nasa library po si sir.” She said politely. I combes my hair using my fingers at inayos rin ang nahuhulog na strap ng night wear ko.

“I want my breakfast here naman,” sabi ko.

“P-pero sabi po ni sir sa baba kumain-”

“Gusto ko nga here!” Iritado kong sabi. Ang aga aga nambibwisit!

“O-okay po!” She nervously nodded.

“And what do you mean kanina pa? I want my food hot,” I said. “Kanina pa ba gising si Azriel?”

“O-o sige po, ma’am. Iinitin po, kung ganoon. Kanina pa po gising si sir,” sagot nya.

Pinanood ko syang kuhain ang mga damit at saka pinalayas ko na. Naghilamos at mumog lang ako dahil kakain pa naman ako. Bumalik ako muli sa kama at hinintay ang pagkain ko. I just scrolled on my instagram.

adam_gallego:

say my greetings to tito. happy birthday! i couldn’t go since i’m in london.

That’s my colleague. Well, actually, he’s also my friend. Madalas kong kasama noon dahil hindi sya masyadong usisero tulad ng iba. Wala ring drama. Palibhasa pareho kami noong papalit palit ng kasintahan.

He’s handsome with his foreign features and he literally have the best body in the university I’ve ever seen (until I met Azriel, the greek god.) He was also pretty famous because he’s in photography and arts course.

frrh.seleira:

okay. miss u :D

adam_gallego

lol. can i say i miss you, too? i was once punched by your husband.

That’s true. Well, hindi pa kami mag-asawa nung sapakin nya si Adam. We were dancing in a bar casually, as in, walang malisya dahil hindi namin gusto ang isa’t isa. But Azriel was so mad and made a scene in the bar.

I laughed and didn’t reply anymore. I also deleted our short convo coz Azriel would throw tuntrums once he see it. He overreacts sometimes.

Nang maihatid ang pagkain ay agad akong kumain. It’s pancakes with strawberries and nutella. I have my warm milk too.

Nasa kalagitnaan ako ng pagkain ng pumasok si Azriel. His eyes look a bit tired. He quickly went to sit next to me.

“Good morning, pretty,” bati nya sa mababang boses.

“G-good morning,” mahina kong sabi. Hinahaplos nya ang buhok ko habang kumakain ako. Nahihiya naman ako at parang may kumikiliti sa tyan ko.

“Come here,” he commanded and pulled me closer to him. I faced him and he immediatley looked at my lips. Masuyo nya akong hinalikan pero bahagya ko syabg tinulak.

“Hindi pa ako nag-ttoothbrush,” sabi ko. Nakakunot lang ang noo nya as if I said something dumb.

“And?” He asked and leaned again for a kiss.

“Azriel, s-stop!” I protest and moved away. Nakakunot pa rin ang noo nya at tila naiinis pang lumayo ako.

“I don’t care. Give me my morning kisses, wife,” he said and pulled me again. I just kissed him back. I giggled when I felt his fingers tickle my waist.

“You still smell good. Your breath, your neck, your hair, and everything. I’m really in love with you,” he said gently which made me blush. No, you’re just obsessed.

“Azriel!” Tili ko nang mas lalo nya akong kilitiin. Napahiga pa ako nang kaunti at muntik nang mauntog sa headboard ng kama kung hindi lang nya mabilis na naiharang ang kamay nya.

He kissed me again at medyo nakapatong na rin sya sa akin. I bit his lower lip which made him groan dramatically.

“Hubby, you’re over reacting!” Natatawa kong sabi. He kissed me again and I bite him again. Kung anong tigas ng katawan nya, ang lambot naman ng labi nya.

He pulled the kiss out but didn’t move. Pinagdikit nya lang ang mga noo namin at tumitig sa mga mata ko. I pout and gave him a signal to kiss me again but he didn’t. He just stare at me with gentleness in his eyes.

Ako na mismo ang nagdikit ng mga labi namin. He didn’t move his lips, he just let me kiss him.

“Hubby,” I called between the kiss but he didn’t respond. So I bite him again! I heard his low sexy chuckle before kissing me back.

We spent almost an hour cuddling. Iyan ang gusto nya eh! Azriel, a sucker for cuddles! Kung hindi pa ako nagreklamong nagugutom ay hindi ako titigilan. Pangiti-ngiti tuloy ako habang kumakain, pero syempre, hindi ko iyon pinakita sa kanya.

The brute is shamelessly stalking my instagram on his laptop again! Wala pa syang pake na nakikita ko sya dahil “asawa” ko naman daw sya.

“Tss. Delete this one,” masungit nyang sabi. Nang lingunin ko sya ay picture namin iyon ng isa kong lalaking kaibigan noon. We were both wearing juice costumes because that was our foundation day at nagbenta kami ng juice.

“That’s a nice memory of my college days. And that was three years ago, Azriel.” Sabi ko at sumimsim sa aking gatas.

“Tss,” Ismid nya at hindi na nagsalita pa. Nagpatuloy lang sya sa pagsstalk. I actually have thousands of posts since I love posting everything back then.

Kaya andami ko rin sigurong followers dahil dyan. Azriel doesn’t have an official instagram. Noon, meron. I remember it has millions of followers kahit isa lang ang post nya.

Nakasandal sya sa elegante nyang itim na kotse at nakasuot din ng itim na suit at titig na titig sa camera. It has millions of likes and comments, too.

“Tsk.”

But he deactivated it and now, he’s hiding on a dummy account. Funny right? Ginawa nya lang ata yan para i-stalk ako.

“The fuck,” rinig kong mahina nyang mura.

Nang lingunin ko syang muli ay pati comments pinagbabasa nya. Kadalasan mga senior namin na mga lalaki ang nagcocomment sa posts ko kaya siguro ganyan ang kairitado ang itsura. Lihim akong natawa.

“Who’s this? He commented and you replied to him!” Iritado nyang tanong. Lumingon ako at lumapit para basahin.

orio.castñres: Honey, you’re the prettiest 💓

frrh.seleira: AWW, THANKIES HONEY. WUV U ❣

Bahagya pa akong napangiwi at na-cringe sa paraan ng pagtype ko. Ew. Was that really me? And hey, that was one of my flings back then.

“Who is that?!”

“J-just one of my flings-”

“I knew it!” Pabagsak nyang sinara ang laptop. Nagulat naman ako at kinabahan na natatawa.

“H-huy, three years ago pa iyan…” sabi ko.

“I know,” sagot nya pero alam kong naiirita pa rin. What on earth should I do?! Ang tagal na nyan.

Hinayaan ko na lang sya at tinapos na ang pagkain. Sya rin naman ang naunang maglambing ulit dahil hindi nya kayang walang ganoon.

Naligo na rin ako pagkatapos kumain at sabay naming hinintay na lumipas ang oras para sa event mamaya.

Chapter 12

Her

I lied. I needed a make up artist or a stylist at least.

Tapos na ako make-upan at inaayos nya naman ang buhok ko. She’s a short-haired cute girl na kulay lila ang buhok at maraming hikaw.

“Ang ganda nyo po, ma’am,” puri ni Linda habang inaayos ang susuotin kong damit. Naka-bathrobe lang kasi ako ngayon. Inirapan ko sya.

“I know right,” I answered.

Hindi pa man tapos pero pumasok na ang gwapong gwapo na si Azriel. I bit my lips when I saw him wearing an elegant and manly black suit with a pink neck tie!

Agad akong hinahap ng paningin nya. He stared at me a bit with amusement in his eyes. As if it’s the first time he saw me.

Malalaki ang hakbang nyang pumunta sa amin. Naupo sya sa gilid na upuan nang hindi pinuputol ang titig sa akin. Inaabot nya rin ang kamay ko pero hindi ako pwede gumalaw dahil baka mahirapan ang stylist.

“Wife,” he called. I am looking at my reflection. Wow, I look prettier with little dark make up. Inaabot nya muli ang kamay ko at tinatawag ako na akala mo mamamatay ’pag hindi nabigyan ng atensyon.

I heard the stylist’s soft laugh. Tiningnan ko na ang nangungusap nyang mga mata.

Nagulat ako nang bigla syang lumapit para humalik sa pisngi ko. Natigilan din ang stylist. Hindi pa sya nakuntento at halos hilahin na ako sa kanya.

“S-sir, hindi pa po tapos,” the stylist said shyly. Hindi umimik si Azriel at hinalikan lamang ako ulit. This man! Hindi talaga makapagpigil sa pagiging touchy nya!

I mentally apologized to the stylist.

“Azriel, sandali lang…” mahina kong sabi at mahina rin syang itinutulak.

“Okay, wife,” sagot nya sa mababang boses at dahan dahang umayos ng upo. Deretso pa rin ang titig sa akin. Nahihiya naman ako sa stylist at narinig ko rin ang impit na hagikhik ni Linda. That silly woman!

Nilibang ko na lang ang sarili ko aa aking cellphone. Ramdam ko pa rin ang walang sawang titig nya at paminsan minsang sumusulyap sa cellphone ko.

Tito Glassifer:

Everything’s ready, hija. Kahapon pa, actually. Have a safe ride.

Ako:

Ah, I see. Thanks, tito. We’ll be there in an hour.

Nang matapos ang stylist ay agad akong tumayo para mas lalong pagmasdan ang sarili sa salamin. I look so elegant. Ngayon na lamang ako ulit nakapagsuot ng ganito dahil matagal tagal na ang huli.

Lalapitan na sana ako ni Azriel pero I told him I’ll wear my dress na. Sumimangot sya at hindi na nagsalita.

Isang beses ko pa syang sinulyapan. He looks so hot and handsome. Nakatitig lang sa akin at halo halo ang mga emosyon sa kanyang mata habang pinanonood ang bawat galaw ko na syang nagpapainit ng pisngi ko.

“Pretty!” I commented. We’re inside my walk in closet and the stylist is helping me out.

“It suits you so much. I’ve never had a client this pretty and also have a nice figure,” seryosong sabi ng stylist. Tumawa ako pero sa bandang huli ay umirap.

“Stop it. You probably told that to every client you had!” Maarte kong sabi at tiningnan ang mga kuko ko. My nails look so pretty and on point!

“No. I’m telling the truth, ma’am,” she replied. “Although you lack boobs a bit, you still have an hour glass shape. Thanks to your small waist and nice butt.”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Was that a complement or is she mocking me?! Sisigawan ko na sana sya pero nagsalita syang muli.

“Were you a model back then, ma’am?”

Natahimik ako at bahagyang inalala.

“Yeah. College days,” I answered as some fresh memories of the past run through my mind.

“Turn the offer down,” he commanded seriously. I looked down to the starbucks coffee I’m holding and then to him.

He look even taller with this usual black pants. It’s the first time I see him wearing casual clothes. Just a black shirt and a black pants. Some girls are drooling over him too.

I feel small while looking up at him. Bumaba ang tingin ko sa kanyang mga braso na bakat ang iilang ugat. May hawak syang mga susi sa kanyang kaliwang kamay, kababa nya lang ng kanyang sasakyan at siguradong inaabangan na ako dito sa parking lot tulad ng lagi nyang ginagawa.

Nilingon ko ang paligid at pinandilatan amg mga estudyanteng nakikitingin. Nagbusy-busyhan naman sila. Tiningala ko syang muli.

“What are you talking about?” I asked. His jaw clenched and looked away as if I said something foolish.

“The Omokaine Women Modelling. I know you received an offer,” madiin at nagtitimpi nyang sabi. Kumunot ang noo ko sa pagtataka.

“H-how did you know about it?” Tanong ko. Ni hindi pa nga buo ang desisyon ko doon.

That was just a week ago when a staff from OWM  personally went to me to talk about it since they saw potential in me with my instagram photos.

Well, thanks to Adam. My close friend from BA Photography. I instantly became his practice model and his muse. Not bad though, I benefit by having high quality and good photos. And a lot of followers as the result.

“I just do. Turn it down. It’s a modelling agency well-known for beach attires and sexy theme!” He lost his cool and looked at me angrily. Naguguluhan naman ako at bahagyang naconcious sa paligid.

“Azriel, calm down-”

“I won’t. Not until you tell me you’ll turn it down-”

“Shut up! It’s my choice to make!” Mahina kong sagot pero madiin din. Mabilis kong tinahak ang kabilang daan pero mabilis nya rin akong nahila. Para akong nakuryente nang magdikit ang mga balat namin.

I looked at him and he’s even angrier and hotter now. Great.

Napagsinghap ang mga estudyanteng nakikiusyoso. Napansin din nya iyon kaya walang salita nya akong hinila papunta sa kotse nya.

“H-hey! My driver is waiting-”

“Just 10 minutes. Give me at least 10 minutes of your every day,” seryoso nyang sabi.

Pinasok nya ako sa backseat at sumigaw pa ako para magreklamo. He shut the door and he went to the other side to enter. Nasa backseat kami ng kanyang mamahaling sasakyan. It also smells nice and manly.

“Now, turn it down,” pag-uulit nya.

“I still have to think about it,” I said. Kumunot ang noo nya at talagang naiirita na.

“Turn the offer down, Seleira.” Kinilabutan ako sa paraan ng pagkasabi nya sa pangalan ko.

“Or I will do something for that agency to lose everything they have, hmm? You want that?” He asked mockingly but humor cannot be heard in his voice. Kinabahan ako dahil alam kong kaya nyang gawin ang sinasabi nya.

“A-are you threatening me? You manipulative-”

“I’ll do every damn thing to make you mine, Seleira. I’ll manipulate things if I need to.” The way he say it in his low cold voice gave me chills. Hinaplos nya rin ang pisngi ko at kitang nagpipigil sya sa kung ano.

“Gusto ko sa akin ang bagsak mo,” he said huskily.

“A-anong-”

“So turn that fucking offer down. Who the hell invited you, anyway?!” Pagalit nyang tanong. Hindi na ako nakasagot dahil sa lamig at kabang nadarama.

Napabalik lamang ako sa realidad nang may kumakatok sa labas ng walk in closet.

“Ma’am,” tawag din ng stylist. Tumango ako at naunang naglakad.

Paglabas ko ay tinitigan muli ako ni Azriel. He stared down at my feet at up to my face. He looks dead amused na gusto kong matawa.

Agad nyang hinapit ang bewang ko at napahawak naman ako sa matitigas nyang dibdib. Inamoy amoy nya ang buhok ko at hinaplos din ang pisngi ko.

“You look so beautiful,” he whispered. “Are you even real? And you’re fucking mine. What the fuck,” sunod sunod na pagmumura nya. Hinalik-halikan nya ang pisngi ko habang patuloy na bumubulong ng mga papuri. I giggled cutely and just hol onto his neck.

Linda escorted the stylist out and they both walked out of the room. Doon na ako niyapos nang sobra ni Azriel na halos mapisat na ako. Sunod sunod din ang mahihina nyang mura.

“Baby, shit…” mura nya habang ang mukha ay nasa leeg ko. He’s so clingy! Natatawa pa ako nang hinahalikan nya lang ang leeg ko pero nang maramdaman ko na ang ngipin nya ay kinabahan ako.

“Azriel! D-don’t give me hickeys,” sabi ko. The stylist put an effort hiding the hickeys he made days ago. Hindi pwedeng meron na nalang bago.

“I’m having a boner…” he whispered. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at agad syang tinulak nang mahina.

“A-ano?!”

“Because you look so sexy and pretty,” he blamed me.

“Come here, wife, let’s have a quickie, please. Fuck, you’re so gorgeous!” Frustrated nyang sabi. I am stuck between wanting to laugh and feeling nervous.

“Azriel, masisira ang make up ko.” I said. Nakakunot lang ang noo nya at lumapit muli sa akin. He sat down on the king sized bed and pulled me on his lap. Agad akong napakapit sa balikat nya.

“I’ll make it quick…” he begged. Namamaos na rin ang boses nya.

What the heck is happening to him suddenly?!

“No way,” sabi ko at mahinang natawa. He’s lying. Matagal syang labasan!

He groaned and just pull me closer. Binaon ang mukha sa leeg ko at bumubulong bulong ng kung ano ano. I just giggled.

Although Azriel looks intimidating, ruthless, and manipulative, he never forced me to have sex with him.

Hindi sya katulad ng ibang lalaki na namimilit nang sobra. He isn’t a rapist. He makes sure he has my consent whenever we’ll do it.

He’s probably horny 24/7, but he is not a rapist.

Even in our first night doing it, he still asked me if he can do me.

“Maybe when we get home, then?” He bargained. Natawa na ako. Nakangiti rin sya at sobrang gwapo nya. His straight white set of teeth added to his appeal.

“Please, baby?” nahihirapan nya sabi at pinisil pa ako. I can even feel hard member poking my butt.

“Hmm pag-iisipan ko,” biro ko. He groaned dramatically and hugged me again.

“Oo na,” Pagpayag ko.

He is in a light good mood even when we’re already on car. I just brought my silver glitery pouch with me. It has powder, lipstick, and blush on if I need to retouch later.

Ang kanan nyang kamay ay nasa kaliwang hita ko habang ang isa nyang kamay ay nagmamaneho. Pinipisil pisil nya pa iyon paminsan minsan.

Kinalikot ko ang iPad nya at namili ng tugtog.

All I want is nothing more

To hear you knocking at my door

But if I could see your face once more

I could die a happy man I’m sure

When you said your last goodbye

I died a little bit inside

I lay in tears in bed all night

Alone without you by my side

“Azriel,” I softly called.

“Hmm?”

Hinawakan ko ang kamay nyang nasa hita ko at dinama iyon. It’s a bit rough and hard. I played with his fingers that made him in a light mood even more.

“Paano kapag hindi pala tayo para sa isa’t isa-”

“What the heck?!” Inis nyang mura at binawi pa ang kanyan kamay. Nagulat ako at hindi agad nakapag-react sa bilis ng pagbabago ng mood nya.

“Azriel-”

“Tsk,” Ismid nya. Gusto kong matawa dahil random lang naman ang sinabi ko.

“We weren’t for each other, I know. That’s why I did everything to make you mine. Kahit ano pang  gawin mo, sa akin ang  bagsak mo,” seryoso at medyo iritado nyang sabi. I just giggle when he glanced at me

“And you’re still giggling, huh?”

I pouted. He groaned and put his hand on my thigh again, gently caressing it.

Nagulat ako nang ihinto nya ang kotse sa gilid at iritado pa rin ang mukha. Talagang nabadtrip sya sa simpleng sinabi ko. Madali talaga syang mabadtrip kapag binibiro ko ng mga ganoong klase.

“Come here,” seryoso nyang utos at tinapik ang kandungan.

“Huh?”

“Come here. Bring my light mood back! Kainis. Tangina.”

I burst out laughing because he looks so cute.

“Tss.”

“Azriel, you’re over reacting!” Natatawa kong sabi. Umismid lang sya at nag-iwas ng tingin. Bahagya pang namumula ang mukha nya.

Nakangisi akong umangat para pumunta sa kanya. Kahit galit ay inalalayan nya akong tumawid. I sat comfortably on his lap and he automatically bury his face on my neck. Yumakap din sya sa bewang ko.

“Azriel… hinihintay na tayo,” mahina kong sabi.

He just murmurred stuffs I didn’t understand. Dahan dahan kong hinaplos ang buhok nya. Agad nya iyong nagustuhan dahil nang tanggalin ko ay mahina syang nagreklamo.

But if you love me

Why’d you leave me?

Take my body, take my body

All I want is

and all I need is

To find somebody, J’ll find somebody

Like you

Parang kinukurot ang puso ko habang nakikinig sa musika.

It will hurt big time if the one who you love most leaves you.

“Kiss me,” he commanded and faced me.

“M-masisira ang lipstick ko,” sagot ko. He groaned in an annoyed tone again before pulling me again.

“When we get home, then. You promised.”

Maayos na sya hanggang sa makarating kami. He’s even smiling a bit because I’ve promised that we’ll make love once we get home again.

The media took pictures of us in the entrance. His arm is possessively placed on my waist.

Azriel showed our invitation card and pinapasok naman na kami. Napaawang ang bibig ko nang makita ang lawak at laki ng venue.

The theme is gold and black. Wala pa ring masyadong tao dahil maaga pa. May mga staff lang na nagfifinalize ng mga decorations.

It looks so elegant and extravagant! Daddy’s always spend moneg recklessly but this is too much. This is different than his past birthdays!

Manghang mangha ako habang si Azriel nakatanga lang at nakatitig sa akin.

I texted tito first that we are here. Maya maya ay may staff na lumapit sa amin para ihatid sa isang kwarto sa likod kung nasaan si Tito. Umalis din sya nang makarating kami.

“Tito!” I greet. Lumapit ako at yumakap sa kanya.

“Hija, you look so pretty!” Puri nya. Gwapo rin si tito sa kanyang tuxedo. Tito Glassifer is younger than daddy so we just vibe with each other.

“Good evening, Azriel.” Pormal nyang bati sa nasa likod ko.

“Good evening, sir.”

“No, ‘Tito’ will do.” Si Tito. Hindi na kumibo pa si Azriel.

“Kumain na ba kayo? Halika-”

“Si daddy po, tito?” I asked.

“Maya maya pa siguro, hija. Galing lang din kasi sya sa isang importanteng business event.”

I nodded. Naupo kami sa sofa at nag-usap na lamang tungkol sa kahit ano. Paminsan minsan ay nag-uusap silang dalawa tungkol sa business. Wala naman akong kaalam alam dyan.

“You see, Seleira doesn’t know a thing in business. Physics ang kinuha nyan. Mabuti at pinagtatrabaho mo pa rin,” sabi ni Tito at uminom sa kanyang wine glass.

“I know, tito. She just wants to work so I let her,” sagot naman ni Azriel at bahagya pang hinaplos ang balikat ko.

“We really thought she won’t like you! Kuya didn’t either.”

Nakagat ko ang labi at sumulyap kay Azriel.

“She does like me,” he stated. Hindi naman na ako nagsalita pa.

When the party was about to start, lumabas na kami. Agad kaming pinagtinginan. Marami na palang tao. Women are eyeing me and Azriel too much. Marami ring mga businessman ang bumati sa amin.

Azriel talked to some of them about business a bit and I just stood there. Hawak hawak nya rin ang kamay ko.

Tsaka ko lamang nakita si daddy nang umakyat na sya sa stage. He didn’t show up to me in the room earlier. Bahagya akong nadismaya pero baka kadarating nya lang din. He looks like he did not age at all.

“How about you join us in your table?” The fat businessman said to Azriel before glancing at me. “And let you beautiful wife to join, of course.”

Kumunot ang noo ko sa malisosyo nyang sinabi. Hindi rin iyon nagustuhan ni Azriel kaya hindi nya sinunod.

“No.”

Hinila na ako ni Azriel sa aming table. Marami pang gusto makipag-usap kay Azriel pero hindi na nya iyon pinagtuunan ng pansin. 

Pinili namin ang isang bakanteng mesa at mga upuan. This is a round table that can fill 7 people and we occupied the two.

“Good evening, ladies and gentlemen!” Bati ni daddy. Napangiti ako. Pumalakpak ang mga tao kaya natawa si daddy.

“Thank you for attending my birthday and also a business event at the same time. Let us use this time to enjoy and talk to great people in business world…” nagpatuloy ang speech nya at nakangiti lang ako habang nanonood.

“I knew you’ll going to be here.”

Pareho naming nilingon ang pinaggalingan ng boses. It’s Ysmael!

He looks handsome in his maroon tuxedo. Nakangisi sya ngayon sa amin.

“The fuck you doing here?!” Mahinang tanong ni Azriel sa kanya.

“Bro, it’s a business party. I must be here,” sagot nito at naupo sa katabi kong upuan.

Ramdam ko agad ang pagbabakod ni Azriel, inilagay nya agad ang braso sa sandalan ng upuan ko. Napatingin doon si Ysmael at nawala ang ngisi nya. Tumingin na lamang sya sa stage.

“Go find another table, dumbass,” mahina pero galit na sabi ni Azriel. Nilingon ko sya at hinaplos saglit ang leeg nya para kumalma. He can’t do a scene here! Napapikit naman sya.

“Tsk. This is a big table. Besides, we’re all Nickolson here,” sagot nya at tumingin sa akin. Umismid lang si Azriel.

“Hayaan mo na,” mahina kong sabi kay Azriel. Labag sa loob syang tumango at hinila pa palapit ang upuan ko sa kanya.

Nagpatuloy ang speech ni daddy habang nagsilabasan ang mga waiter. They are giving drinks. Tinanggap nina Ysmael at Azriel ang wine.

“What do you want for yours?” Tanong ni Azriel.

“Umiinom naman ako ng wine,” sagot ko.

“How about a fruit juice?” Pagbabalewala nya. Tumango na lang ako para matapos na.

Nang dumating iyon ay nanahimik na ako at sumimsim na lamang sa aking juice. Nahanap din kami ni tito at nakiupo na rin sa table namin. Nagbatian muna sila ni Ysmael.

Everyone went silent when daddy talked about the one whom he’ll introduce. Kinabahan din ako sa di malamang dahilan.

“So… I’m going to introduce someone whom I love the most. This is actually the first time,” nakangiting sabi ni daddy. Parang may kung anong kumirot sa loob ko.

Is this her new wife?!

“My daughter, Anikka Siobe Farrah!”

Nalaglag ang panga ko at ganoon din mga nanonood. Muntik kong mabitawan ang glass na hawak mabuti at mabilis gumalaw si Azriel.  Gulat na tumingin sa akin si Ysmael.

“What? I thought you’re an only child?” Tanong nito. Naguguluhan din ako. Narinig ko ang pagmumura ni Azriel.

“Hija…” namumutlang tawag ni Tito.

Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko at para akong nanliit nang pagtinginan ako ng mga tao nang may pagtataka.

What the hell is daddy doing?! How can he do this? Andami kong tanong. Pero hindi ako makapagsalita.

Tinatawag ako ni tito at hinawakan pa ang aking kamay pero hindi ako makagalaw.

I watched a beautiful woman walk out of the back stage. She’s wearing a champagne gliterry dress and her hair is up in a high ponytail. Matangkad ito at talagang maganda.

Naguguluhan man ay nagpalakpakan pa rin ang mga tao.

“Good evening,” she greet in a sweet voice.

Gusto kong magwala at isigaw lahat ng tanong sa utak ko. Bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko at nagsituluan ang mga luha ko. Mabilis na lumingkis sa akin si Azriel kahit na alam kong nagagalit na rin sya.

“What the fuck,” mura ni Ysmael habang palipat lipat ang tingin sa amin.

When her speech ended, the crowd clapped.

“Thank you, everyone. That’s all and you may enjoy the rest of the night. The foods are there, the wine, beer, music, and anything. Thank you!”

Hindi ako makagalaw kahit na nagsitayuan na ang mga tao para maghalobilo.

“What the fuck is that?!” Galit na tanong ni  Azriel kay Tito.

“A-azriel, wait-” natatarantang sabi ni tito.

Parang wala lang kay daddy nang makita kong papalapit siya sa aming table.

Nakatitig lang sa akin ng walang emosyon si Ysmael habang si Azriel ay galit na pinapaulanan ng tanong si Tito.

“Good evening, hija. And oh! Nickolson cousins,” bati ni daddy na nakangiti.

“What on earth on happened? You got another daughter?” Inis na tanong dito ni Azriel at tumayo. Bahagyang nagulat si daddy. Tumayo na rin si tito.

“Let me explain-”

“You better do because whatever you’re doing is hurting my wife!” Galit nitong sabi.

Natahimik lang ako at pinoproseso pa ang mga nangyayari. Hot tears fell down from my eyes. Nakatitig lang sa akin si Ysmael habang prenteng nakaupo.

I just stayed sitting quietly while Azriel is the one who speaks for me. He’s so angry and he sounds so protective now. Alam nyang nasasaktan ako kaya sya ang tumatayo para sa akin.

“Seleira, hija…” daddy called. Nasa likod na kwarto na kaming lahat para makapag-usap. Ysmale even came with us but he rarely speak. Nakikinig lang at seryosong nakatitig sa akin.

Nandito na rin ang babae.

I looked at the her. She looks so pretty and at the same age of me. And she’s… she’s looking at Azriel.

“Listen…” daddy said. Ibinaba nya ang kanyang baso ng tubig.

“She’s a year older than you, Seleira,” daddy said. Kumunot ang noo ko at maraming tanong ang dumaan sa isip ko.

“And she knows about you,” daddy added.

“W-what do you mean?” My voice cracked.

Halos hindi maproseso ng utak ko ang mga nangyayari.

She was the first daughter of daddy in his true family. My parents were never married. Kasal si daddy sa isang mahirap na babae at sya ang naging anak.

She’s the legal daughter.

And I’m a daughter from his mistress.

Kabit! Kabit si mommy!

Nagsituluan ang mga luha ko at agad kong narinig ang mga mura ni Azriel. I watched the girl. She looks so beautiful that I am feeling insecure. She looks just cool with everything that’s happening.

“She knows about you and she accepts you. Hija, pasensya na at ngayon lamang ako nagkaroon ng lakas ng loob…” daddy said gently.

“K-kaya ba wala kayo lagi  sa bahay noon?” Tanong ko at mas lalo lamang tumulo ang luha ko.

I looked at the girl once again. I watched how her jaw dropped when Azriel embraced me and planted soft kisses on my cheek. Pinupunasan din nya ang luha ko

“Hija… I’m sorry.”

“That’s why I never felt loved by you. Si tito lang ang nararamdaman ko noon,” my voice cracked at nagbabago na rin ang boses ko dahil sa pag-iyak. Mas lumiit at humina ito.

Narinig ko ang pagmumura ni Ysmael at nag-iwas sya ng tingin.

“I’m sorry… That’s not true. Her mother was just always sick, that’s why.”

Daddy looks so guilty and sad. Nagagalit ako at naiinis.

Pero may karapatan ba akong magalit gayong kami ang kabit?! Ako ang sabit sa pamilya nila. Alam at tanggap nga ako ng totoong anak tapos ako itong nag-iinarte?!

“Tanggap naman kita,” the girl talked. “Tanggap kita dahil wala ka namang kasalanan. Tinanggap ko lahat kahit na ako ang legal na anak pero kami ang naghihirap. Tinanggap ko kahit na alam ko ang tungkol sa iyo at sa marangya mong buhay na bigay ni papa na hindi nya maibigay sakin,” she added, her voice changing too.

Naiyak lamang ako ulit. She suffered, too. I don’t know what to feel.

“In the first place, why the hell would you have a mistress?!” Galit na tanong ni Azriel.

“If I didn’t, Seleira won’t be here.”

Baluktot ang rason pero napatahimik noon ang lahat.

“Bullshit,” mura ni Ysmael.

Wala akong maramdaman. Nakatulala lang ako hanggang sa naintindihan ang lahat. Tahimik na sinusuyo ako ni Azriel sa mga haplos nya at paghalik sa buhok at pisngi ko.

“I’m really sorry, hija… I should have said this.”

“It’s okay, daddy. Naiintindihan ko na ang lahat,” malamig kong sabi. Hindi ko sila masisi.

Wala akong masisisi. I can’t blame the girl since she’s the legal daughter and I’m from the mistress. I don’t want to blame daddy for having a mistess because hey, the product of that was me. I wouldn’t be here if he didn’t.

“Uuwi na kami ng asawa ko,” seryosong sabi ni Azriel. Muli kong nakita ang gulat at bigong ekspresyon ni Anikka.

What the hell is she thinking?! I can see that reaction from her many times.

Tumayo na rin si Ysmael. Niyakap ako ni Tito at paulit ulit na nag-apologize. Ganoon din si daddy.

Tahimik kaming lumabas na tatlo. Pinagtitinginan pa kami. Walang nagtangkang makipag-usap sa kanilang dalawa dahil siguro sa madilim nilang aura.

Nakatulala lang ako habang naglalakad. Nagulat na lamang ako nang buhatin ako na parang bagong kasal ni Azriel. Napatingin si Ysmael pero nauna na rin itong maglakad.

“Azriel,” mahina kong sabi.

“Shhh. It’s fine,” sagot nya.

Tahimik na tumango lang sa amin si Ysmael at dumiretso na sa puti nyang kotse. Buhat buhat naman ako ni Azriel habang naglalakad papunta sa kanyang kotse.

Nang makauwi ay nakangisi si Linda pero nawala rin nang mapansin nyang iba ang atmosphere ngayon. Concern syang tumingin sa amin.

Sa kwarto ay agad akong umiyak. Tahimik nya akong pinakinggan at niyakap. Paulit ulit na hinahalikan ang buhok ko.

Umiiyak pa rin ako nang utusan nya sina Linda na bihisan ako at nagbihis na rin sya sa banyo.

“H-hindi ko na po tatanungin ang nangyari ma’am ha… iiyak nyo lang po,” marahang sabi ni Linda na nagpaiyak pa lalo sa akin.

“Eto oh,” abot naman ni rose ng isang nightwear. Binihisan ako ni Linda at itinali pa ang buhok ko dahil napupunta iyon sa mukha ko.

“Magiging okay ka rin, ma’am,” sabi pa nito. Hindi ko sila magawang irapan dahil sa nararamdaman ko.

Nagsialisan na sila nang lumabas si Azriel sa banyo na bagong ligo at nakashorts lang at walang pang-itaas. Halos hindi sya makatingin nang deretso sa akin. Para syang nasasaktan makita ako.

“Come here,” he commanded in his low voice. Sumiksik ako sa mainit at matigas nyang dibdib.

I am genuinely concerned with how I look right now. Did my mascara smudged?!

Tumayo ako nang matapos umiyak.

“T-tatanggalin ko lang ang make up ko,” sabi ko sa nanghihinang boses. He pulled me to sit again.

“Let me do it for you, wife. What do I need to do?” Tanong nya. Sa gitna ng nararamdaman ay naramdaman ko na parang kinikiliti ang tyan ko sa sinabi nya.

“Make up remover…”

So I lay down the bed as he tries his best to remove my make up using a cotton and a make up remover.

“Sleep now. Don’t worry, I won’t make love with you in state like that,” sabi nya habang patuloy sa ginagawa.

“I love you, wife. I’m here,” malambing nyang sabi at binigyan ako ng isang halik.

I feel bad but Azriel makes it better. It’s nice to have someone you can lean on. You won’t feel alone.

It’s nice to have someone who’s always with you at the end of the day.

Chapter 13

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Walang gana akong nakaupo sa dining table kaharap ang iba’t ibang sushi. Different colors, sizes, designs, taste and structure.

I picked a Sashimi using my chopsticks at walang ganang sinubo iyon.

“Yes,” I heard Azriel’s voice beside me. “I’ll take a week leave, Franco. And also my wife…”

Kausap nya sa cellphone ang secretary nya. He’ll take a leave huh.

“Yeah. Just do the work my wife supposed to do. I’ll double your pay for this week.”

Ibinaba nya ang tawag at saka ako hinarap. We’re here in the dining room, eating sushi. I told him I want this so he immediatley ordered online.

“Hmm… just keep on eating. Are you fine now?” Malambing nyang tanong. I looked at him while chewing. He looks simple and handsome in his plain white shirt. Nakatukod sa mesa ang braso at pinagmamasdan ako.

Mabagal akong umiling sa kanya. I’m not fine.

“M-ma’am,” tawag ni Linda. Mukhang nabitawan nya ang buhok ko na tinatali nya sa mababang ponytail.

“Sorry… bilisan mo kasi,” walang gana kong sagot.

“It’ll be fine,” Azriel assured me. Nang matapos akong talian ng buhok ni Linda ay pinalayas ko na sya. Agad namang dumikit si Azriel sa akin. Inilagay nya ang braso sa sandalan ng upuan ko habang pinagmamasdan pa rin ako.

“Here, dip it here, baby…” he said gently. Isinawsaw ko ang sushi doon at saka kinain.

He just stared at me and I ate shamelessly in front of him. He caress my leg and kisses my cheeks. Hindi sya nagsasalita at naglalambing lang.

“Oh,” sabi ko at itinapat ang sushi sa bibig nya.

“Nah, it’s all yours,” he said. Kumunot ang noo ko sa kanya.

“Dali na,” pagpupumilit ko. “Gusto kong matikman mo rin.”

Kinain nya na rin naman saka yumakap na naman sa akin na parang isang bata. Siniksik ang ulo sa aking leeg na nagpapakiliti sa akin.

“Come on, wife. Mas okay pang magpasaway ka sa akin kaysa ganito,” nahihirapan nyang sabi. Bahagya namang nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sinabi nya.

“Huh?”

He groaned and squeezed me. I laughed a bit because of his weird actions.

“Azriel, ano ba?!”

“And why aren’t you calling me your hubby? Huh?” Tanong nya at pinisil ako muli. Nakikiliti pa ako dahil bandang bewang iyon.

“Azriel, stop squeezing me!” Natatawa kong sabi.

“You feel and act so cold! Damn it! I’m not the reason of that, right? You aren’t mad because of me, right? Shit… I’m scared,” parang baliw nyang sabi. Pinipigilan ko ang matawa sa pinagsasabi nya.

He’s over reacting again!

“Ano bang pinagsasabi mo dyan?” I asked. He just hugged me tighter.

“Azriel,” I called.

“I feel like you’re mad at me,” seryoso nyang sabi.

“H-huh? Hindi ah.”

“You act so cold to me. I can’t take this anymore. Para akong mababaliw maisip ko pa lang na nagtatampo ka sa akin! Tangina!” Pagmumura nya.

His voice sound hotter because he’s a bit annoyed. Napangiti ako at niyakap ang leeg nya. Hinaplos ko rin ang buhok nya. He’s such a big baby.

“Hindi ako galit sayo,” I said. “I’m just not okay right now.”

“I’m sorry, baby…” Naglalambing nyang sabi. He faced me and kissed ms gently. Para akong lumulutang habang hinahalikan nya at hinahaplos pa ang buhok ko.

He effortlessly lift me up to make me sit on his strong thighs. Kumapit ako sa leeg nya nang putulin nya ang halik.

“I love you so much,” he whispered and planted more soft kisses on my forehead. I can’t help but to smile and embrace him even more. Nahahawa na ata ako sa ka-clingyhan nya.

“What do you want me to do, baby? Do you want me to kill her so you can feel better-”

Hinampas ko na. Siraulong ’to.

“Azriel, what the heck are you talking about?!” Natatawa kong tanong pero seryoso lang sya.

“Stop. I’ll be fine and tanggap ko naman na lahat. Ako ang anak sa labas, mag-iinarte pa ba ako?” Biro kong tanong.

“Kahit mag-inarte ka, bagay naman sayo,” seryoso nyang sagot. Tumaas ang kilay ko sa kanya.

“You don’t even know how beautiful and hot you get whenever you act so picky,” dagdag pa nya at pinigilan ang ngisi.

Naramdaman ko naman nag-iinit ang mga pisngi ko. Hinigpitan ko ang hawak sa tee shirt nya.

“Ang ganda mo,” puri nya at nawala ang ngisi. Mas lalo akong namula. Why on earth is he acting so weird!!

“B-but I can’t cook…” sabi ko sa mahinang boses. Kumunot naman ang noo nya.

“So?” He asked like I said something dumb.

“N-not a wife m-material…”

“I can cook. Isn’t that enough?”

Napayuko ako. Azriel is good at everything. Beside his handsome appearance, he is an independent strong man. He can cook anything. He can do sports like basketball, swimming, tennis and literally any sport. He can play piano, guitar, and violin. He has a low and hot manly voice.

Everythinf is already on him. I don’t know why he sticks to me or why he chose me.

I suddenly remember my “half” sister. She’s so pretty in my eyes. Morena sya at mahahaba ang pilik mata. Napatingin ako sa mga mata ni Azriel na kanina pa naghihintay na tingnan ko sya.

“Hmm… h-how about…” I paused. “D-do you find Anikka pretty?”

I’m kinda hoping that he’ll say yes because she’s really pretty. Although she’s a bit shorter than me.

Matangkad kasi ako kaya pasado ako lagi noon sa mga modeling agencies. It doesn’t matter tho, Azriel is a 6 footer. Or maybe more. Like 6’1. But all I can say is hanggang leeg nya lamang ako.

Hinintay ko ang sagot nya pero kumunot lamang ang mga kilay nya.

“I said do you find Anikka pretty?” Pag-uulit ko pero kumunot lamang muli ang kilay nya.

“Who the fuck is that?” Tanong nya.

I rolled my eyes and hid my smile.

“My sister!” I answered. Nakakunot pa rin ang noo. Ang gwapo nya lalo pag ganyan. He squeezed me again and I giggled.

“I didn’t even look at her once! What the fuck are you saying, wife. Sa’yo lang naman ako lagi nakatingin.” Malambing nyang sabi.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko para sana itago ang ngiti pero hindi iyon umobra. Bolero! I chuckled and I heard his low chuckle too.

“Ask me if I find you pretty,” he said, half smiling. Nangingiti na rin ako sa pinagsasabi nito.

“Wag na ’no. Maganda naman talaga ako,” sabi ko at natawa. He chuckled too and buried his face on my shoulder once again.

“Ah!” Daing ko nang kagatin nya ako. Pero natawa na lang din ako. Pinisil nya ako ulit at pinaghahalikan sa pisngi nang paulit ulit.

“You’re so adorable,” gigil nyang sabi.

“Stop,” natatawa kong saway.

I admit. Oo na. Napapagaan nya ang loob ko sa simpleng kakulitan at kalambingan nya.

Matapos ang maaga naming agahan ay nagpahinga kami sa kwarto. It’s raining cats and dogs. Bigla lang umulan at wala namang balitang may bagyo.

Naka siksik ako sa kanya at dinarama namin ang init ng bawat isa dahil sa lamig.

“I love you. You’ll be okay,” he gently said. I nodded.

“I’m okay now, Azriel. It’s no big deal,” sagot ko. It’s true. Kung tanggap ako ni Anikka, then might as well I just accept her too.

“Really?”

“Yeah…”

Inaantok na raw sya. Palibhasa umuulan kasi nang malakas kaya nakaantok kahit umaga pa lang.

Naramdaman ko ang kamay nyang gumagapang sa dibdib ko.

“Azriel,” tawag ko. Bahagya ko pang itinulak dahil nakasiksik ang mukha sa leeg ko.

“Just let me touch it please… I want to sleep,” napapaos nyang sabi. Umirap ako at natawa.

“Sige na,” sagot ko. Hinayaan ko syang gawin ang gusto nya. I removed my bra and put in somewhere. His hand immediatley went to it. I lift my body a bit so he can have a fully access on it.

His large warm hand rested on my breast. Heck, I don’t even have big boobs!

“Mine are not big,” I whispered. He just chuckled lowly and embraced me even more.

“Who cares? I love them because they’re attached to you.” Natawa ako at bahagya syang hinampas. Ang bolerong ’to.

Mabilis syang nakatulog dahil sa posisyon namin. Inaantok na rin ako dahil sa lamig. Kinuha ko ang cellphone ko sa bedside table at in-open ang instagram.

I suddenly remember Anikka. Does she have an insta account?

I searched her name. Anikka Siobe Farrah

She got a nice name, huh. I like the ‘siobe’. Sa akin Seleira lang. Whatever.

I clicked the first account na lumabas.

Anikka Siobe Farrah

@siobenik

12 posts 345 followers 1,067 following

[FOLLOW BACK]

She doesn’t have lots of followers, huh. AND LOOK, SHE FOLLOWS ME!

Kailan pa? Like… years ago? Hindi ko naman kasi chinecheck ang mga nag-ffollow sa akin since my account is on public.

I suddenly looked at my profile.

Seleira Farrah

@frrh.seleira

1,384 posts 3,526followers 238 following

She’s one of those followers. I tried looking at my notifications para sana hanapin ang date kung kailan nya ako sinimulang i-follow. But I can’t find it.

I looked back at her page. She only have twelve posts.

There’s this one na nakasuot sya ng longsleeves at pants. Napangiwi ako sa fashion sense nya. And her background is like very probinsya. Maybe that’s where they live.

I left her page because there’s nothing pretty there. Tbh. I’m not even buffling. Maganda sya pero ang pangit ng feed nya.

Ibinalik ko sa table ang phone at niyakap pabalik si Azriel. He’s so warm and handsome. Nakatulog na rin ako.

Nagising na lang ako nang may humahalik sa pisngi ko. Of course, it’s Azriel. Why does he do that? That’s what dogs do.

“Azriel,” inaantok kong tawag at sumiksik pa sa kanya.

“Baby…” he called. “It’s not raining anymore. And it’s only 11 am. Let’s go somewhere.”

“Saan?” Tanong ko. Hinahaplos nya ang buhok ko

“I don’t know. Where do you want?” Tanong nya. Binitawan nya ako saglit at nag-unat. Bumaba ang tingin ko sa muscles nya sa kanyang braso.

Tumingala rin sya para iunat ang leeg kaya nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataong makita ang adams apple nya. Wala na rin pala syang pang-itaas.

What the hell, my husband looks so hot!

Mabilis nya akong hinila papunta sa kanya nang matapos mag-unat. Pinaghahalikan nya ulit ang noo ko. I smiled and giggled.

“Where do you wanna go, wife?” He asked. I know he’s doing this to prevent me from stressing over our family issues. Okay naman na talaga ako. At dahil sa kanya iyon.

“Hmmm…” Pag-iisip ko. Saan ba? Cinema? Horror house? Beach?

“The famous amusement park sa baguio!” I said excitedly. He stared at me for a while. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin at nag-pout. Mabilis nya akong binigyan ng halik.

“Baguio is about 4 hours away here in Manila,” he said. “I can drive. Let’s just… spend the night in a hotel there, hmm?” His low voice has malice. Nag-init ang mga pisngi ko at pinanlakihan sya ng mga mata.

“Hubby!” Saway ko. He let out a low chuckle habang ako ay namumula na.

“What? I didn’t say anything,” malambing nyang sabi. Binuhat nya ako at ipinatong sa kanya habang nakahiga kami.

“Azriel, mabigat ako,” sabi ko at hinarap sya. Ang kamay nya ay nasa bewang ko at ang isa naman ay nilalagay sa likod ng tainga ko ang mga takas na buhok.

“No, you’re not. You’re sexy as fuck.”

I pouted. “Punta tayo doon, ha” paninigurado ko.

“Whatever you like, wife.”

Patalon talon akong bumaba ng hagdan. Nasa baba na si Azriel at kanina pa nakabihis, ngayon lamang ako.

I wore a sunshine yellow dress. Above the knee ito at sleeveless. Naka-flat strappy sandals ako at may suot na white small sling bag. I also have my shades attached to my dress.

Nakasuot si Azriel ng mint green polo at black men shorts. Nakita ko na naman ang sikat na brand ng mga damit ng lalaki. Napataas ang kilay ko.

He looks so tall and strong again. His band muscles in his legs and arms are visible. Pagtitinginan na naman yan mamaya lalo na’t sikat sya.

“Eh ang pagkain nyo, sir?” Rinig kong tanong ni Linda.

“We’ll just take drive thrus if she gets hungry,” sagot naman ni Azriel sa mababang boses.

“Okay na po ang mga damit nyo para sa isang gabi, sir. Hmm, dinoble ko lang po ang kay ma’am dahil maselan sya. Baka magalit po eh,” sabi naman ng isa. Umirap ako sa kawalan.

Pumasok ako sa dining area. Agad akong tinitigan at sinuri ni Azriel.

“My fruit snacks, Linda!” I said excitedly.

“Yes, ma’am! Ayos na po!” Nakangising saad nito at iniabot ang isang pink korean tupper ware sa akin.

I opened it and it have fruits that are sliced to bite sizes. I pouted and nodded. I’ll eat these while in the car.

“Hubby, oh,” abot ko sa kanya. “Wala akong bag eh.”

“You have a bag,” sabi nya pero kinuna na rin ang tupperware.

“Hindi yan kasya eh,” sagot ko. He kissed me on my forehead before saying that he’ll go out first to start his car. Inutusan nya rin si Rose na sabihing buksan ang gates ng guards.

“Galingan mo, ma’am ha” nakangising sabi ni Linda. Kinunutan ko sya ng noo.

“What do you mean?” Mataray kong tanong.

“Alam nyo na, ma’am. Iyong gawain ng mga mag-asawa?”

“Linda! Ang bastos mo talaga!” Sigaw ko sa kanya pero natawa lang ang bruha.

“Bruha ka talaga!” Inirapan ko sya. I feel my cheeks burning, too. May mangyayari ba doon? Knowing Azriel, he loves making love with me.

“Alis na nga ako!” Sigaw ko.

“Ingat, ma’am!” Sagot nya na natatawa pa rin. That witch!

Nasa loob na ng kotse si Azriel at handa na ring lumabas. Nang makita ako ng guard ay pinagbuksan nya ako ng shotgun seat.

Pumasok ako at si Azriel na mismo ang nagsara ng pinto kaya napalapit sya sa akin. Sya rin ang naglagay ng seatbelt ko. He always do that because he overthinks that the door will just suddenly open and my body will be thrown out while the car is moving. He’s crazy sometimes.

“Let’s go,” seryoso nyang sabi at bumalik sa upuan nya. Pinanood ko syang i-start ang kotse at seryosong mag-drive. Ang gwapo nyang tingnan.

Nakatingin lang ako sa labas. Mabuti at medyo umaraw na. Alas dose na rin ng tanghali, maya maya ay gugutumin na ako.

Pinicturan ko ang labas at inedit iyon sa instagram para lagyan ng caption.

on the way :)

Then I hit ‘add to story’. There it’ll be visible for 24 hours.

Napatingin ako kay Azriel at seryoso lang syang nagddrive. Inilagay pa ang kamay sa hita ko. I slowly took a stolen picture of him. Mabuti at hindi nya naman napansin.

my driver. 💅

Inilagay ko rin iyon sa IG story ko. Lihim akong napatawa. May mga nag-reply tuloy na ang gwapo raw. Well, they already know he’s my husband. I’m just joking around.

I looked at the people who viewed it and my eyes widened when I saw Anikka’s account viewed my story.

So she always view my stories huh. Baka nangunguna pa ang akin sa mga stories sa account nya dahil na-view nya agad kahit ilang minuto pa lang ang nakalipas.

His phone suddenly rang but he didn’t even try looking at it.

“Azriel, yung phone mo,” sabi ko habang inaabot ang tupperware ko sa backseat.

“Answer it,” he said.

“Huh?”

“It’s in the dashboard, baby, please…” malambing nyang sabi. I pouted and nodded.

“Azriel, where on earth are you again? What the fuck, you filed a leave again? And you even included Seleira?” Narinig ko ang pamilyar na boses. It’s Ysmael. Hindi agad ako nakapagsalita.

“Just so you know, being on top next to you means that your work will be my responsibility if you’re gone,” dagdag pa nya at medyo naiinis.

“H-hello?” I said. Magsasalita pa sana sya pero natigilan ito.

“Seleira?” He said.

“Bakit nasa iyo ang cellphone ni Azriel?!”

“U-uh…”

“Who is it, wife?” Tanong ni Azriel. Inilayo ko ang cellphone sa bibig bago sumagot.

“Ysmael,” I answered. Kumunot agad ang noo nya at inilahad ang kamay.

“Akin na.” Inilapag ko naman at hinayaan na syang makipag-usap.

About business lang naman pero minsan naririnig kong nagmumura si Azriel at minsan ay naririnig ko rin ang pangalan ko. Hindi ko maintindihan dahil hindi naman naka-loudspeaker.

I just looked at my phone again and saw that someone replied to my story again.

@siobenik

:)

She just weirdly left a reply on my story. It’s the one who have Azriel in it. What’s with you, weirdo.

Umirap ako at itinago na ulit ang cellphone.

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Azriel to Seleira

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Chapter 14

Someday

“Ah! Azriel,” I called when he bit my shoulder.

Nakapila kami ngayon para sa tickets. We decided to get the ride-all-you-can tickets. Medyo matagal ang proseso ng pila dahil andito kami sa walang reservations.

Nasa likod ko sya at nakayakap sa aking tyan ang isang braso. Pinagtitinginan din kami dahil kay Azriel. He’s famous and he’s so handsome. Nakasuot din sya ng shades na nakadadagdag sa appeal nya.

“Azriel!” Saway ko at umusog paharap para mapalayo sa kanya pero agad akong binalik ng braso nya.

Kinakagat nya kasi ang balikat ko na parang ewan. Binalik nya ako at sumandal na lang ako sa dibdib nya.

Ang tagal ng pilang ’to. Palibhasa andaming pinoproblema ng matanda sa pinakaunahan.

“Ugh, stop…” mahina kong sabi at iniwas ang mukha nya. Ang hapdi na ng balikat ko sa pinaggagawa nya.

“Baby,” malambing nyang tawag sa mababang boses. Para akong kinilabutan dahil sa mismong tainga ko iyon.

Kinagat ko ang labi ko nang kagatin nya ulit ako sa balikat. Ewan ko ba sa kung anong trip nito.

“Hubby… it’s mahapdi na.”

He chuckled lowly and kiss me on my cheek from the back.

“I love you,” he said sincerely. Hinaplos haplos nya rin ang balikat kong pinanggigilan nya. Tiningnan ko at namumula na iyon.

I told him I can’t wait anymore so he manipulated some things para makakuha na kami ng tickets.

Ang una naming itatry ay ang hindi gaanong mataas na roller coaster.

Magkatabi kami at kumakalabog na ang dibdib ko kahit wala pa naman. Iniharang din ni Azriel ang braso nya at humawak sa gilid ko. Parang another seatbelt tuloy ang braso nya.

“Scared?” Tanong nya at ngumisi.

“A bit,” I said.

Nang magsimulang umandar ay agad akong napakapit sa braso nya. Hindi ko talaga kaya ang ganito katataas kaya napapikit ako. Nang nasa taas na ay hindi kaagad ito bumaba.

Bigla itong bumulusok pababa at parang nahulog din ang puso ko. Naghiyawan ang lahat lalo na ako. Grabe ang kapit ko sa braso nya habang sya ay naririnig ko ang pagtawa-tawa nya.

Parang ako naiiyak dahil sa takot. Hindi pa ito masyado mataas ah!

“Gusto ko na bumaba!” I shout. Bawat ride kasi ay dalawang ikot bale pangalawa na ito.

Nakangisi sa akin si Azriel habang pinagmamasdan akong kapit na kapit sa braso nya. This brute! Taking advantage of me!

Umakyat muli at nakagat ko na sya dahil sa sobrang takot. Yumuko ako habang tumitili. Parang nahuhulog ang lahat ng damit ko habang pababa.

Umiyak ako pagkatapos. I definitely don’t want to try that caterpillar ride roller coaster again.

“Baby, come on,” natatawa nyang sabi. Niyakap nya ako at natatawa pa rin nang mahina.

“Shh… hush, hush,” Pag-aalo nya at pinaghahalikan ang buhok ko. Naiirita ako sa kanya dahil patawa tawa pa sya dyan

“It’s not funny,” seryoso kong sabi. I felt him embrace me even more and stops himself from his chuckle.

So the next thing we rode is just the bumping cars for adult.

There’s this one one girl and one boy na parang hinahamon kami. Binabangga bangga nya ang gilid namin. Azriel even saw him wink at me.

Ang ginawa ni Azriel ay binangga nya nang todo. Napaalis tuloy kami dahil it’s againts the rules. I don’t know how he did it pero isang bangga nya at tumilapon ang dalawa.

Nakangisi pa sya pag-alis pero halatang naasar na.

“Azriel, ano na namang ginawa mo?” Iritado kong tanong pero natatawa talaga ako.

“He winked at you, didn’t you see?” Mas iritado nyang tanong. Kinunutan ko lang sya ng noo at nilagpasan na.

Mabuti at nakalimutan nya rin iyon nang sumakay kami ulit sa isa pang ride which is the Jungle Log Jam.

Nakakalula pa rin pero hindi naman na masyado. Sumakay at pumasok pa kami sa iba’t ibang houses at kumuha ng mga litrato. We were both just having fun.

I’m gonna post it later on my instagram. I’ll ask him later about his real account at bakit sya gumagamit ng isang dummy account. Funny, right? Azriel’s weird sometimes.

We decided to eat lunch on a restaurant inside the amusement park. Kakaunti na lang din ang mga kumakain since it’s 2 pm passed. Late lunch na namin kaya gutom na gutom na ako.

“Stir-fry beef and broccoli and grape juice,” simple nyang order. Isinulat naman kaagad iyon ng waiter.

“Hmm… Olive Garden Chicken and Gnocchi Soup and uh… Red Velvet Cheesecake,” I said and put the menu down.

“Got it. How about your drinks, ma’am?” He asked politely.

“I’m down for a glass of peach aide. And also water, not cold, please.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

Ibinalik ni Azriel ang menu sa kamay ko kaya napatingin ako sa kanya.

“Order more. You said you’re hungry,” mahinahon nyang sabi. Ang braso nya rin ay nasa backrest na ng inuupuan ko.

“Ang dami na nyan, Azriel.” Sagot ko.

“Nah,” he said before glancing at the waiter. “Hang on, I’ll order some more.”

“Y-yes, sir.”

Hinayaan ko na lang sya at pinanood habang seryosong binabasa ang menu. Ang gwapo nya. There’s sweat on the side of his forehead which adds to his hotness.

“Add spicy dumplings and corndogs,” he said. “How about for your desert?” Tanong nya sa akin.

“I already have my red velvet cheesecake,” I answered. Bumaba ang braso nya sa aking bewang.

“Ice cream?” Alok nya. Agad akong tumango. He smirked and add ice cream.

“What ice cream, sir?”

“Blueberry graham crackers ice cream. And I don’t have cash with me,” Azriel said. “Do you accept cards?”

“Yes, sir. Sa counter po. Hmm… ngayon na po ba or pagkatapos?” The waiter nervously asked. It’s like he’s intimidated by Azriel. Tiningnan ko si Azriel at nakakatakot nga. I mean, yeah, he’s freaking handsome, but whenever he’s serious, he looks so dangerous.

“After dining. Make it fast, my wife’s hungry,” seryoso nitong sabi. Tumango naman ito at magalang na umalis.

“I don’t like him,” he murmured. Inirapan ko lang sya. Hindi naman na rin sya nagsalita pa at lumingkis na lang sa akin.

Hinahaplos pa ang tyan ko kaya bahagya akong nakikiliti.

“We should really see a doctor, hmm? You don’t get pregnant. Baog pa ata ako. Fuck!” Inis nyang mura. Muli akong kinabahan.

“H-huh? Wag na ’no. B-baka mahirap lang talaga a-ako mabuntis-”

“That’s why we should really go see a doctor,” inis nyang sabi.

“Wag na. A-ayos lang naman-”

“What’s wrong with you? I know you don’t want a child with me yet but it’s impossible that you won’t get pregnant. I don’t use protection and I always put it inside you that’s why I’m confused.”

Napayuko ako at nag-iwas ng tingin. I’ll be dead once we go see our own doctors. Magagalit sya sa akin nang sobra.

“Maybe I’m infertile. Fuck… forgive me if I am, wife. D-don’t leave me,” paranoid nyang sabi at hinalik-halikan ang pisngi ko.

“Tss, ano ka ba,” natatawa kong sabi at mahina syang itinutulak.

Nang dumating ang pagkain namin ay kumain na rin ako kaagad dahil ginugutom na ako. Azriel still clings to me even when we’re eating. Gustong gusto pa akong sinusubuan ng mga pagkain.

“Just eat,” I said.

“Yeah, but I like doing this,” wagot naman nya. Sinubuan nya ako ng isang broccoli na agad kong inilingan.

“Ayoko nyan,” sabi ko. He kissed me on my  cheek instead. Halos hindi na sya makakain sa padikit dikit sa akin.

“Azriel, eat. Stop clinging onto me,“I said.

“But I’m your husband,” sagot nya.

Kinunutan ko sya ng noo at pinigilan ang sariling matawa. Hinalikan pa ako kahit na may mga tao sa paligid.

Kahit kumakain ay nasa akin pa rin ang titig. Nag-aabang lang na madumihan ako ng sauce o di kaya tumakas ang mga buhok ko mula sa tainga.

We decided to take a rest first before we continue our rides. Nakaupo lang kami sa Lover’s Bench (na sya ang pumili instead sa regular bench) habang nagpapalipas ng oras.

“I saw a rabbit ride, do you want to try it?” he asked. I looked at him before answering. Seryoso ang titig nya sa akin pero halatang masaya sya.

“Uhm… maybe later. Restroom muna ako,” sabi ko at tumayo. Tumayo rin sya.

“Azriel, ako na lang. Babalikan kita dito-”

“Why not let me come with you? Tss.” Medyo inis nyang sabi at hinila ang kamay ko.

“B-babalik din naman kasi ako,” Sagot ko

“I want to see you all the time, wife.” He asked a guard where the restroom is and tinuro naman iyon.

“I’ll use the restroom, too.” Sabi nya sa mababang boses.

“Okay…”

Nauna akong pumasok sa women’s restroom at sya rin daw sa panlalaki naman.

I just peed and wash. Naghugas ng kamay at humarap sa salamin para mag-retouch.

I was applying my lipstick when my phone beeped for a text.

Daddy:

Dito na kayo mag-dinner ng asawa mo. May dinner dito dahil birthday ng pinsan ni Anikka. Pumunta kayo.

Nagdadalawang-isip ako kung pupunta ba kami. But I’m okay already though. And why does daddy care about her cousin?

Talagang close na sila ah. Ni hindi ko nga kaano ano ang mga pinsan nyang iyon dahil malamang, iyon ay sa side ng nanay nya.

Ilang minuto pa ako tumunganga para mag-isip. Fine, I’ll just go. I don’t want daddy to have dramas. At nandoon na rin naman siguro si Tito.

“A-ah, mayroon po. Ano pong kulay ng damit?” Nilingon ko ang nagsalita. It’s a random woman na may kausap sa labas.

“Yellow.” I heard Azriel’a voice. Napairap na lamang ako, naiinip na naman iyan.

“Yes po. Ah miss, hinahanap ka po.” Nahihiya nyang sabi. I faked smiled at her and nodded.

“Thanks.”

Lumabas ako at iritado agad si Azriel.

“You took too long!” Inis nyang reklamo. Hindi ko na sya pinansin at naglakad na lang pabalik sa amusement park.

“Wife!” Nagtatampo pang tawag. Ah, yes, Azriel, my petty husband. Natawa na ako nang hapitin na nya ako para ipakitang naiinis sya.

“What?” I asked.

“WHAT?!” Inis nyang pag-uulit. Inirapan ko sya bago natawa muli.

“Nag-text si daddy. Doon na raw tayo mag-dinner,” sabi ko. Kumunot ang noo nya at halatang ayaw na agad.

“Let’s go there later, Azriel.”

“What? I thought you don’t want to see her?” Biglang napalitan ng nag-aalalang tono ang boses nya.

“Hmm I’m okay already. Let’s just go.”

Kahit alas tres pa lamang ay bumyahe na kami dahil apat na oras pa ang layo namin sa Maynila. Daddy’s mansion is in Makati so I think dyan din naninirahan si Anikka. But her old photos in instagram have backgrounds na parang probinsya.

Maybe she moved.

Azriel just changed into a simple black shirt na syang dala nya. Walang hiya syang naghubad sa harap ko kaya napatingin ako sa dibdib nya.

“Touch it,” he said. “Come on, baby. It’s all yours.”

He’s talking about his abs. Ang yabang nito. But it do be looking so good tho. Nahawakan ko na ’yan.

Sya na mismo ang kumuha ng kamay ko at pinahawak ang kanyang abs. It feels so warm and hard. Why is everything about him hard except for his lips?!

Nag-iinit ang pisngi ko nang hindi nya kaagad bitawan iyon.

Bahagya kong hinaplos at kita ko kung paano sya naapektuhan doon. Medyo nanlalaki ang mga mata nyang nakatitig sa akin.

“Ang tigas,” sabi ko.

“I know, baby…” he said in a husky voice. Pabiro kong binaba pa ang kamay sa gitna ng hita nya at mas lalo syang nagulat.

Natawa ako nang haplusin ko pa iyon. It isn’t that hard because he isn’t erect. Ang laki talaga. I don’t even know how it fits me whenever we do it.

“Damn it, Seleira,” nahihirapan nyang sabi. Napamura na. Ayan na, hindi na ako titigilan nyan.

“Sorry,” I said and laughed. Maya maya lang ay napansin kong medyo umumbok pa iyon lalo. Hanggang sa naging erect na ito. What the heck?!

“You get turned on so fast!” I commented. Nakatitig na sya sa akin ng may malisya. Halo halo na rin ang mga emosyon sa mga mata nya at talagang titig na titig na sa akin.

Ayan na.

Maglalambing na ’yan para maka-isa. (O tatlo)

He looks so hot. He stares at me with nothing in his top. Dinilaan pa ang labi.

“Baby, please…” he said in a husky voice. Ayan na.

Natawa ako at umiling iling. He groaned and leaned to me.

“Azriel!” Tili ko nang simulan nya akong halikan sa leeg. Natatawa ako habang mahina syang tinutulak.

Hinarap nya ako para halikan. Hinalikan ko rin sya pabalik habang hinahaplos ang buhok nya. I felt him went turned on eveb more. Bumibigat na rin ang paghinga nya at namumula na ang tainga.

In his car, really?!

“A-Azriel, we’re in the c-car,” nanghihina kong sabi. Nakakapanghina talaga kung humalik sya. Lalo na pag ramdam mo ang pagmamahal nya sa bawat halik at haplos.

“It’s fine, wife. For some good memory here,” parang baliw nyang sabi at halikan ako muli. Gustong gusto nyang umibabaw sa akin pero mahirap dahil nakaupo lang ako sa shotgun seat at sya ay sa driver’s seat.

“Go at the back, baby. Quickly,” utos nya. I followed what he want and he quickly go to me, too.

Nagsimula syang halikan ang leeg ko. I moved my neck to the right side so he can have an access with the other one.

“Azriel…” malambing kong tawag nang haplusin nya ang dibdib ko. Shit, nat-turn on na rin ako.

He quickly removed my top and he kissed my collar bone while my bra is still on.

“Hubby,” I called. “H-hubby, may dinner pa tayo…” Malayo pa ang Maynila!

He groaned sexily before removiny bra. “There’s no way I’ll leave you hanging…” He said. Napaungol ako nang mabilis nyang haplusin ang ibaba ko. “You’re already wet for me, baby.”

We did it twice in his car. It was really hot and the car is obviously moving! Nakakahiya sa mga nakakakita. Gusto pa ngang umisa pa, pero hinindian ko na.

I can’t believe we did it here! And I even enjoyed it. We did it in his office and now, here? What’s next? In a public place?!

Kinilabutan ako sa sariling naisip. No way I’ll do it with him in a public place.

“Hubby, w-where do we clean ourselves?” I asked shyly. He looks hot while driving. Nakakunot ang noo nito at seryosong nagmamaneho. Pulang pula rin ang labi kahahalik sa akin kanina.

“Azriel… we still have to have dinner in daddy’s house-”

“Baby, I haven’t even get my cuddles yet.” Naiinis nyang sabi. “We made love and I immediatley have to drive. Tss.” Nagtatampo pa nyang dagdag.

Kumunot ang noo ko at natawa. Azriel is really a sucker for cuddles. Kaya pala seryoso at nakakunot ang noo habang nagddrive.

“Mamaya na lang,” medyo natatawa kong sabi.

“Tss. I want it now.”

Azriel payed an expensive hotel so we can just use one of its restroom. Binayaran nya ang pang-isang gabi kahit na banyo lang naman ang gagamitin namin at aalis na rin kaagad.

Mabuti at magandang mga damit ang nailagay ni Rose dito sa bag. I wore a tube a white tube top and paired it with a purple tennis skirt. I also wore a small cardigan which is a trend now. We used the toothbrushes and I washed my face. Mabilis din akong nag-retouch.

Medyo wala pa rin sa mood si Azriel because he didn’t get his “cuddles.”

He’s always been like that. It’s automatic that whenever we make love, there should be sweet cuddles after.

Kaya sa sasakyan ay kumalong na lamang ako sa kanya para maging okay na sya. Umiwas sya ng tingin pero namumula naman ang tainga. I smiled secretly.

Isinarado nya ang pinto at agad pumulupot sa akin ang isa nyang braso habang nagmamaniobra ng kotse ang isa. Sumandal ako sa dibdib nya at hinahaplos din ang braso nyang nasa tyan ko. I also felt him kissing my hair.

“I love you,” he whispered. “I love you, Seleira, baby.”

I looked up to him and gave him a kiss on his cheek. Agad syang nagreact doon at hindi kaagad nakapagsalita. I really like my effect on him. I giggled and just hugged him.

“Ang bango mo,” komento ko. I heard his low chuckle.

“You, too.”

Nang mag-red ang stoplight ay agad nyang ibaon ang mukha sa balikat ko. Inaamoy amoy nya at maya maya’y kinagat. Napadaing ako sa kiliti at sakit.

“Azriel…” I called. Idinikit nya ang noo sa gilid ng noo ko pagkatapos. Hinigpitan din ang hawak sa akin.

“Tell me I’m the most handsome man for you,” sabi nya. I giggled and hugged him tighter.

“You’re the most handsome man for me, Azriel. Hubby,” I said sweetly and in a cute voice. Napapikit sya nang mariin at umigting ang panga. Umiwas din ng tingin.

“Hmm… how about Ysmael?” Hindi nya pa rin talaga makalimutan ang isang beses kong pagsabi na I found Ysmael handsome.

Gwapo naman talaga sya! Pero talagang sumobra lang si Azriel.

“Hindi na,” sagot ko. Gumuhit ang ngiti sa labi nya at pinupog ako ng halik sa mukha. Kumapit ako sa leeg nya at natatawa na lang sa pinanggagawa nya.

I feel so happy and I feel butterflies in my tummy rejoicing and dancing.

Umandar na muli ang mga sasakyan kaya pinaandar na ulit ni Azriel ang sasakyan. He’s still whispering praises to me though. I buried my face on his chest because I know my cheeks are color red right now.

Mahaba ang byahe at feeling ko napapagod na si Azriel.

“Uhm… baka nangangalay ka na, I’ll just sit there,” sabi ko at turo sa shotgun seat. Kumunot ang noo nya at umiling. Pinirmi pa ang bewang ko.

“No. It’s more comfortable having you in my lap,” he said seriously while driving. I just pouted. Whatever, this is is favorite thing to do after all. At komportable rin ang init nya.

Yumakap na lang ako ulit sa kanya at nagustuhan nya naman.

“Napapagod ka na ba?” Tanong ko. Nakakapagod mag-drive, ano.

“Hmm a bit,” He sighed and craned his neck.

“I’m sorry. W-we shouldn’t go in the dinner then?” Tanong ko sa mahinang boses.

“We’re going, baby. Just sleep for now,” he said.

I’m not sleepy so I just turned the music on his iPad.

Wake up by Elaine

from “it’s okay not to be okay”

That’s one of my favorite songs from a new kdrama I’m watching.

Nag-scroll na lang din ako sa feed. I searched Anikka’s account and she has a new post. She’s with a guy. Hmm, a bit handsome I guess.

siobenik

happy birthday, kuya Xylk! @xylkester

Oh. So he’s the one who has a birthday huh. The guts of them to celebrate it in our mansion! Oh well, sya nga pala ang “legal daughter”

So what?

Kita ko pa ang background ay ang garden namin. Mabuti nga at simpleng family family dinner lang, ano.

I took a selfie but I didn’t include Azriel. It’s just my serious face but halatang nasa lap ako ng isang lalaki. Kita lang hanggang leeg nya at ang adams apple nya ay kitang kita rin.

The photo looks hot tho. I added it to my story and once again, Anikka is the first one to see it. Pero hindi ito nag-reply ng kung anuman. She just viewed it.

Gusto ko sanang i-view ang story nya pero baka isipin niyang inii-stalk ko sya dahil hindi ko naman sya fina-follow.

“You hungry? Let’s grab some fast food?” Azriel gently asked.

“I want fries,” I said. He nodded and gave me a kiss on my forehead.

Nasa feed pa rin ako ni Anikka at pinagiisipan kung iviview ba ang story nya. Azriel suddenly hugged me really tight while we’re in a line for drive thru.

“Azriel, napipisat ako!” Natatawa kong sabi. He kissed and bite my neck gently. Natatawa pa ako nang bigla nya akong kilitiin. Tumili ako at narinig ko ang baritono nyang tawa. Tuwang tuwa na naman ang loko.

Ganon na lang ang gulat at inis ko nang aksidente ko pa lang napindot ang story nya.

It’s nothing. Puro black lang at iisang salita lang ang nakasulat.

siobenik 2 minutes ago

Someday.

She’s really weird. It was uploaded 2 minutes ago. I forgot about it quickly dahil sa kakulitan nitong lalaking ito. Nanlalambing at nangingiliti pa.

It’s easy to turn his mood from good to bad. Just make love with him and don’t give him cuddles.

“Babalik ako doon, nakakahiya, andito ako makikita ng staff,” sabi ko at kinakalas ang mga braso nya sa tyan ko. Hinigpitan pa nya at pinaghahalikan ang balikat ko.

“No, it’s such a waste of time. We’re next,” pagdadahilan nya.

Chapter 15

Nice girl

Bumeso ako kay daddy nang makarating kami. Wala pa nga lang si tito dahil maya maya pa raw sya.

“Daddy.”

“Hija, it’s fine. Mga magpipinsan lang ito at wala ang mga magulang nila, it’s gonna be fine,” he said. Walang emosyon akong tumango.

“Good evening,” seryosong bati ni Azriel. Humalakhak si Daddy at niyakap si Azriel.

“Oh! I hope we’re all okay now?” Daddy said hopefully. Tumingin naman sa akin si Azriel. I just nodded.

“Yeah,” maikling tugon nito kay Daddy. Ngumiti si Daddy at tinapik ang balikat ni Azriel.

“You really love my daughter, huh?” Daddy said, smirking.

“I always have and always will,” Azriel answered, still serious. Daddy laughed and raised his eyebrows.

“Hmm… I hope she feels the same way,” he said and laughed. Hindi naman iyon nagustuhan ni Azriel dahil kumunot ang kilay nito.

“Come in,” tumalikod na si Daddy at naunang maglakad.

“Damn it!” Mura nya at tumingin sa akin na parang ang laki ng kasalanan ko sa kanya.

“What?” Inosente kong tanong. Umismid lang sya at hinawakan na ang kamay ko para sabay kaming maglakad.

Sa dining table ay medyo marami ang mga nakaupo. The table needed to be extended than our usual table. They’re like 7 people. 4 boys and 3 girls, mga kaedaran ko lang.

Natigil ang ngiti ni Anikka nang makita kami. Tumahimik din silang lahat at napatitig sa amin.

“Everyone, this is my daughter that I was talking about. She’s Seleira with her husband, Azriel,” pagpapakilala ni Daddy. I didn’t smile. Azriel didn’t either, ayan pa.

Walang pakeng pinaghila ako ng upuan ni Azriel. Nakatitig naman doon ang mga babae. Azriel caress my hair like it’s just the two of us.

“Are you feeling fine? Do you feel dizzy?” Mahinahon nyang tanong. Nag-aalala siguro sya dahil ang tagal ng byahe.

“Nope,” I said. Sya nga dapat ang tinatanong ko dahil sya ang nag-drive at nasa kandungan nya pa ako. Malamang nangalay sya. “You?”

“Not at all,” he answered.

I look at the two other girls who frowned and looked at Anikka meaningfully. While the boys look amazed. Palipat lipat ang tingin sa akin at sa kay Azriel na parang kilala nila ito. Well, he’s pretty famous.

“Oh… May kapatid ka pala sa labas, Anikka,” ang sabi ng isang babae. I looked at her in an offended way.

“N-naku, Mika… H-hindi naman, parang kapatid lang din,” nahihiyang sabi naman ni Anikka.

I looked down at her body. She’s wearing a mint green dress. Napataas ang kilay ko at tumingin muli sa mukha nya. Mukha syang nahihiya at namumula at pasulyap sulyap sa katabi ko.

“Sus!” Sabi nung Mika at natawa.

“Stop it, girls,” saway ni daddy at naupo na.

“Okay… Glassifer is still on his way. Let’s just wait for him a bit,” Daddy added.

“Okay po, tito…”

“Okay po, tito.”

“Hmmm.. so you’re Seleira?” The other girl said. I didn’t answer. I just looked at her straight in her asian eyes.

“So, yes siguro ang sagot,” she said and she faked her laugh. Kumunot ang noo ko. What’s with this girl? I feel cringe for her.

“You’re so fake,” I said.

Natigil ang tawa nya at natigilan din ang iba. Parang sya siguro iyong tipo ng pinsan na walang kumakalaban. Huh, not until I step in the room.

“Anong sinabi mo?!” Tumaas ang boses nya. Azriel groaned and pulled my chair towards him. Nasa tapat ko kasi ang babae.

“Primrose, control yourself,” sabi ni daddy.

“What?! Tito, eh si Anikka nga na legal na anak ang bait bait tapos itong anak sa labas ang tapang-”

Tumigil sya at nanlaki ang mga mata ng lahat ng buhusan ko sya ng tubig sa mukha. Narinig kong napamura si Azriel sa gilid.

“Shut up. You talk too much,” gigil kong sabi.

Nanlalaki ang mga mata nito at hindi makapaniwala. Daddy slammed the table to stop us.

“Enough!” Saway nito.

“I’m sorry, I ruined your birthday,” I said apologetically to the guy I saw in Anikka’s post. Bahagya pa syang gulat at wala sa sariling napatango.

“Baby,” masuyong tawag ni Azriel at inilagay ang kamay sa bewang ko. Ginigigil ako ng babaeng ’to.

“Tito! Hindi nyo po ba nakita yung ginawa ng anak nyo sa akin?!” Nanggigil din nitong tanong. I looked at Anikka for a while and she seems like she doesn’t care at all. She’s just weirdly watching Azriel.

“Ate, tama na…” saway ng isang lalaki.

“No, August! Salbahe ito eh-”

“Can you like shut up na lang? Si Anikka nga na legal daughter walang say eh? And you? Who the fuck are you?!” Nanghahamon kong tanong.

“Aba-”

“I SAID ENOUGH!” Galit na sigaw ni daddy. Bahagya pa akong nagulat at nanlalaki ang mga matang napatingin kay daddy. That’s the first time I’ve been shout at by him.

“I-I’m sorry, Seleira. I didn’t mean to shout,” Daddy said gently.

“Palibhasa spoiled brat kaya-”

“Stop that woman from talking shit about my wife before I fucking do something,” medyo galit na sabi ni Azriel. Natahimik naman sila.

Napaawang ang bibig nung Primrose pero isinara nya rin agad. She looks scared and shocked.

“Kanina ka pa ah? Pumapatol ako sa mga babae bukod sa asawa ko,” seryosong dagdag ni Azriel. I looked at him and he looks dead serious while looking at Primrose. Nang tingnan ako ay lumambot ang mga mata nya.

“Let’s just go home,” he whispered. Medyo nakiliti pa ako dahil naramdaman ko ang labi nya doon.

“That’s what I’m saying. So stop being mean, Primrose,” daddy said. I smirked at her and she looks like she’s about to cry.

“Okay lang yun, Primrose… T-tanggap ko na naman ang lahat,” Anikka said gently.

You should.

Wala ka naman nang magagawa.

Uminom si Azriel mula sa kanyang baso. Naiinis na siguro sya, madali pa naman yang magalit.

“T-then at least t-treat Anikka right-”

“Did I treat her wrong? I didn’t even do anythin,” sagot ko.

“Ate, tama na…”

“Ate Prim, birthday ni Xylk oh. Tama na yan.”

Sinaway sya ng mga lalaki at ganoon din si daddy. Nakita kong nag-iigting ang panga ni Azriel habang hawak hawak ang baso.

“I said stop the fuss, Primrose!” Sigaw sa kanya ni daddy. I lick my lowerlip and smirked at her. Now, her tears are already falling.

“Crazy bitch,” I said.

Her eyes widened and looked at daddy, but daddy just looked away.

Pabagsak na ibinaba ni Azriel ang baso sa mesa.

“We’re going home,” he said and stood up. He looked at daddy.

Anikka’s mouth slighly opened and she was about to say something pero hindi nya na rin itinuloy. She just looked disappointed now.

“I’m sorry, hijo, for such a mess,” Daddy said sadly. Tumayo na rin ako.

“I’m sorry, daddy. I promise, we’ll have time spent here. Iyong tayo tayo lang,” I said and hugged him. He hugged me back and I felt him nodded.

“It’s fine, hija. Pagsasabihan ko itong si Primrose.”

Pumasok ang mga maids na may bitbit na iba’t ibang pagkain. There are so many foods. Gusto ko sanang kumain, kaso wag na. Natatakam pa ako sa dalawang naglalakihang cakes.

“I’m sorry again for this mess in your birthday,” sabi ko ulit sa lalaking nagngangalang “Xylk”.

His eyes widened a bit and smiled shyly. Namula rin ang tainga at nag-iwas ng tingin habang tumatango.

“A-ayos lang,” he said. Nagtawanan ang ibang mga lalaki at pabiro syang sinapak.

“Simp!” Asar nito.

“Wife,” Madiing tawag ni Azriel. I didn’t mind him and just look at Primrose. Hindi na sya umiiyak pero nakatingin lang sa malayo at halatang galit.

May binubulong bulong pa iyong Mika sa kanya. While Anikka, again, doesn’t look bothered at all. Nakatitig lang sya sa banda namin.

I smell something fishy about her.

Parang wala syang pakialam sa mga nangyayari sa paligid simula nang dumating kami ni Azriel.

We both bid our goodbyes to daddy before leaving the mansion.

“Naku, talagang Primrose yun,” ani Tito Glassifer. We run to him by the village gates and decided to have dinner together.

“I don’t like her, tito,” sabi ko. Azriel just listens while being busy slicing my steak for me.

“I don’t, either. She’s the type of cousin that no one in their family wants to mess with. Kaya ayan, lumalaki ang ulo. Si Anikka lang naman at ang mga lalaki ang parang napalapit na rin sa akin,” sabi nya at sumimsim sa kanyang wine.

Tinitigan ko syang maiigi. “What’s Anikka’s personality, tito?” Tanong ko. Medyo  natigilan sya at naguluhan bago sumagot.

“Well, she’s the prim and proper kind of girl. I heard she never had a boyfriend.”

Napatitig ako sa steak ko. I had many boyfriends and flings before. And I’m not a prim and proper girl!

I looked at Azriel but he’s still busy slicing my steak.

“Hmm… maraming kaibigan dahil mabait. She’s really nice, I guess. Obedient and always following the rules.”

Napansin ata ni tito na nakatingin lang ako sa kanya. Natawa naman sya.

“In short, the opposite version of you, Seleira.”

Mas lalo lang akong nainis.

“Eat, wife,” Azriel said when he’s finished.

“Eh ano ba ako, tito?” Tanong ko. Natawa ulit sya. He’s lowkey pissing me off. Inirapan ko si tito bago kainin ang isang slice.

“Well, you’re the most stubborn girl I’ve known. You know about it, Azriel?” Tanong nito at tumingin kay Azriel na busy sa pagsikop ng buhok ko.

“Very.” Maikli nyang sagot. Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin.

“Iyong mga hindi mo pa ata alam, madalas iyang tumakas sa gabi para mag-night out. Palaging may boyfriend, linggo linggo ay bago. Maganda kaya sakit sa ulo ang mga manliligaw noon sa bahay.”

Tiningnan ako ni Azriel ng may matigas na ekspresyon. It’s like he’s telling me “Explain yourself.”

Natawa ako at umiling iling. “That was a long time ago, tito. Come on!”

“But still. She was even a spoiled brat! Magaspang ang ugali! Palibhasa nakukuha lahat ng gusto,” pagpapahiya sa akin ni Tito at tumatawa pa.

“I know that very well,” Azriel said. “I still spoil her though.”

I pouted cutely while looking at him. Seryoso naman nya akong tinitigan pabalik.

Azriel and tito Glassifer gets along pretty well better than daddy. Medyo ‘off’ si Azriel kay daddy, maybe because he knows na si tito talaga ang kasama ko simula noon pa man. We share the same vibes and we just got along with each other.

Nang matapos ang dinner ay tumayo na kami. Azriel payed the bill although Tito insisted na sya na lang. Ibinigay na agad ni Azriel ang kanyang card.

“Just go there next time. Siguradong wala na roon sina Primrose,” sabi ni tito nang nasa parking lot na kami.

“Yeah, maybe next week,” sagot ko. Gusto ko ring makita si daddy. Tahimik lang si Azriel na nakahawak sa bewang ko habang naglalakad. Pagod na siguro iyan. Kanina pa kami eh.

“Hmm I see. Goodbye, then. Dadaan pa ako don para ibigay ang regalo ko,” he laughed. I nodded and waved.

Pinanood naming umalis ang kotse ni tito. Niyakap nya ako mula sa likuran, mabuti na lang at walang tao dito.

“Pagod ka na, Az?” Mahina kong tanong.

“Yeah…” napapaos nyang sagot. I chuckled lightly before facing him.

“Uwi na tayo,” aya ko. He stared at me for a while with his eyes that are full of emotions.

“That Primrose, stupid woman. I tried my best not to hurt her,” inis nyang sabi. I smiled and caress his jaw which made him close his eyes.

“Hayaan mo sya. She hates me so much eh di naman sya si Anikka,” sabi ko at umirap.

“Yeah. The Anikka girl is nice,” sabi nya.

Kumunot ang noo ko at bahagyang lumayo. What did he say?!

“What?” Taka nyang tanong.

“You probably like nice girls, huh?” Tanong ko. Kumunot na rin ang noo nya dahil naguguluhan.

Tss. Edi sana si Anikka ang pinakasalan mo!

“What?” Nagtataka nyang tanong ulit. I rolled my eyes and shrugged.

“Wala,” sagot ko at naunang maglakad papunta sa kotse nya pero mabilis nya akong nahila pabalik.

“I don’t like nice girls, silly,” sabi nya. “If you’re the ‘nice girl’ then why not.”

Umirap ako at pinigilang ngumiti. Bolero talaga ang isang ’to.

Hinalikan nya ako nang dahan dahan. Hinalikan ko sya pabalik at tumingkayad pa. Mabuti at nasuportahan nya ang bewang ko.

“I love you,” he said with his eyes full of love. I leaned to kiss him on his cheek.

Hinaplos nya rin ang buhok ko bago dahan dahang binuhat. Nasa kandungan nya ako ulit habang nagmamaneho pauwi.

“I might get used to this,” he said, smiling a bit.

I pouted and hugged him. He smells so good and his chest is hard and warm. So comfortable.

“Ngayon lang ’to.”

“Everyday,” he corrected. Natawa ako at pabirong hinampas ang dibdib nya.

“No way!”

“Yes.”

“No, no way!”

“Yes, baby…” hindi na mapawi ang ngiti ng loko.

“No way, hubby!”

“Damn yes, wife.”

I pinched his chest and he groaned dramatically. Ang OA talaga! Natatawa na lang din ako sa kanya.

Niyakap ako ng isa nyang braso at iyon naman ang pinagdiskitahan ko. I’m pulling the hair which makes him go over reacting again.

“I really never get bored whenever you’re with me,” he said while smiling. Tinitigan ko pa sya ng ilang segundo dahil mas gumwapo sya ngayon nakangiti at kita ang mapuputi at straight nyang mga ngipin.

Umangat ako nang kaunti at sinubukang halikan ang leeg nya. Napatalon sya at napamura na syang nagpatawa sa akin.

“Easy, Azriel,” natatawa kong sabi.

“Don’t tease me, wife,” sabi nya at ipinirmi ang bewang ko gamit ang isa nyang kamay.

“Huh?” Painosente kong tanong.

“You know I get turn on so fast when it comes to you. I know you’re tired so don’t.”

Ngumisi ako at tumango na lamang.

Pagkauwi ay binuhat nya ako dahil nag-iinarte akong masakit na ang paa. He gladly do it without complaining.

“Good evening, sir, ma’am!” Bati ni Linda.

I remember not eating all of my fruits. May mga natira pa doon sa tupperware.

“Ipaghahanda ko po kayo ng makakain?” Tanong nito.

“No, we’ve already ate. Rest na kayo!” Sabi ko at inirapan sya. Masaya naman syang tumango.

Inilapag ako sa kama ni Azriel at humiga agad ako. He looked at me and removed his top.

“Let’s have a bath together,” he said.

“Huh?! P-pagod ako, Az-”

“I know, baby. We’ll just have a rest together in the bath tub,” sabi nya at pang-ibaba naman ang hinubad.

Nakaboxers na lamang sya. Tinanaw ko ang abs at muscles nya habang nakahiga. I lowkey want him now…

“Just a minute. I’ll prepare it, warm water is it?” Malambing  nyang tanong.

Kinagat ko ang labi ko nang pumunta sya sa akin at saglit na pumatong para bigyan ako ng halik sa noo. Tumayo rin sya pagkatapos.

I want him but I know he’s tired. So maybe next time.

Pinaglalaruan ko ang mga bula habang nakasandal sa dibdib nya. Nakayakap naman sa akin ang dalawa nyang braso at hinahalik-halikan ang balikat ko.

“I love you, wife,” naglalambing nyang sabi. Ngumiti ako at sumiksik sa dibdib at leeg nya. He’s so warm.

“This is exactly how I want my days to end. You and me in a warm bath tub,” he said lovingly. I smiled and hugged him even tighter.

Hinahaplos nya ang buhok ko na syang nagpapaantok sa akin lalo. Hindi na kami nagtagal at nagbihis na rin. Sabay kaming nag-toothbrush at hindi ko na pinatuyo ang buhok ko, humiga na agad ako dahil sa antok. Pinatay na ni Azriel ang ilaw at agad akong tinabihan.

Naka-boxers lang sya at nagsusumiksik sa akin. Bumubulong bulong pa kung gaano raw ako kaganda, bolero talaga. Natatawa na lang din ako sa kanya eh.

Kinabukasan ay late na kami pareho nagising. Dahil siguro late na rin kami natulog.

We’re still on our leave from work. Pinagbabalat nya ako ng mangga ngayon dahil gusto kong bigla kumain noon. Natawa pa ako nang kumaripas ang isang maid sa supermarket para bumili.

“I’m sorry, hubby. I-I messed up our b-bed sheet,” nahihiya kong sabi.

Dinatnan kasi ako kaninang umaga. I didn’t know that I’ll have my period today kaya ayon. Hindi naman sya nagalit, nagtawag lang sya agad ng maid. He also called Linda to accompany me cleaning my stained clothes.

“Shh. It’s fine, wife,” mahinahon nyang sabi habang binabalatan ang mangga.

Nakakahiya talaga! Mabuti at hindi naman masyadong apektado si Azriel. Ngumuso ako at yumuko.

“Come on, baby, it’s nothing,” malambing nyang sabi at hinaplos ang pisngi ko.

Inilislice nya sa maliliit na piraso ang mangga at inilalagay sa isang bowl. Tumikim ako at maasim!

“Linda, can I have toyo and suka na spicy,” I said. Tumango ito at agad na sumunod.

“Tagal mong mabuntis,” komento nya.

“Ikaw dapat ang mabuntis,” sagot ko. He looked at me with furrowed eyebrows before he chuckled a bit.

“Tss.”

Inilapag ni Linda ang sawsawan at agad umalis ng kitchen. Sinawsaw ko doon ang isang maliit na piraso at kinain. Ang sarap talaga!

Tinry ko subuan si Azriel but he wants it without the soy sauce and vinegar. He finds me weird doing it. It’s not weird noh. Marami ang gumagawa nito.

“Azriel, paano kung…”

“Stop with your stupid what ifs, wife,” babala nya. Natawa naman ako.

“Paano kung hindi ka pala straight? Paano kung attracted ka pala talaga sa boys din?” Natatawa kong tanong. He looked at me unbelievingly.

“What the hell? I’m damn straight.”

“Kaya nga! Pero malay mo-”

“Shhh. I’m damn straight but I’m not homophobic either.”

I pouted while teasing him. He looks so cute. Nakasuot lang sya ng itim na sando kaya kita ko ang mga muscles nya sa braso. Seryoso pa kaya mas lalong gumwapo.

“I’m not homophobic, too. So if ever you’re homosexual, okay lang-”

“Damn it, stop that.”

Ang bilis talaga maasar nito. Pag-iigihan ko pa.

“Eh paano pag ako ang hindi straight? Like… I’m a lesbian pala?”

Pabagsak nyang ibinaba ang kutsilyo habang pinipigilan ko ang tawa ko.

“Tss.”

“Eh pano pag may gusto pala akong iba-”

“What the fuck?!” Agad nagalit ang boses nya. Medyo nagulat pa ako kaya hindi ako agad nakareact.

“Are you lowkey telling me that you love other man already?!” Galit nyang tanong pero tunog ang sakit doon.

“Azriel-”

“Tsk! Hindi ako papayag. Tangina nya!” OA nyang sabi. Hindi ko alam kung matatawa ba o ano.

“Sino?!” Tanong nya, seryosong seryoso na ngayon.

“Wala!” Natatawa kong sagot. “What ifs lang ’yun noh!”

“Tsk. It’s not funny,” seryoso nyang sabi bago pagbalingan ang isa pang mangga para balatan. “I’m so threatened whenever you joke like that.”

Natahimik ako at tiningnan sya. Tumayo ako at lumapit sa kanya. Niyakap ko ang leeg nya. “I’m sorry.”

“Tss. What if I tell you I’m falling for someone else? Another girl? Someone who’s nice, loves me back, and obeys me?”

Kumunot ang noo ko at agad syang binitawan. Nasasaktan ko syang tiningnan. Kahit na pinagpapalit nya lang ang sitwasyon namin ay ayoko ng ganun.

“Edi magsama kayo,” seryoso kong sabi at tumalikod. He groaned and pulled me back.

“Ano ba!” Sigaw ko.

“Hey,” masuyo nyang sabi. “Come on, baby, that’s just a random what if like what you did.”

Nag-iwas ako ng tingin dahil may parte sa akin na nasasaktan. Parang nag-iinit ang sulok ng mga mata ko maisip ko pa lang na may mamahalin syang iba bukod sa akin.

Na may lalambingin at lilingkisan sya bukod sa akin. Hahalikan nya at yayakapin. Pupurihin kung gaano sya kaganda at ang katawan nya. Kung gaano nya nya kamahal ito.

And that’s not me anymore.

“Ewan ko sayo!” Sigaw ko at tumalikod ulit pero mabilis nya akong nakukuha. “Bitawan mo ako!”

“Come on, let’s not fight over petty things, baby. I won’t fall in love with someone else, what the fuck?”

Niyakap nya ako habang nakatayo ako at sya ay nakaupo. Ibinaon nya rin ang mukha nya sa tyan ko. Pasimple kong pinunasan ang luha ko.

“Ano ba?” Nanghihina kong sabi at mahinang itinulak ang balikat nya. Nasasaktan talaga ako pag iniisip kong ganoon nga.

“I love you, only you. That’s what I felt when you said you’ll fall for other man…” nanunuyo nyang sabi. Para akong matutunaw sa lambing ng boses nya. Paano kung ganito na rin sya makipag-usap sa magiging babae nya?!

I shook my head. I really need to stop over thinking.

He stood up and I hugged him back. “I’m sorry, hubby.”

He kissed my hair while and caressing my back. “I love you, wife.”

Ilang minuto pa kami nagtagal sa ganoong posisyon at binubulungan nya lang ako ng mga magagandang bagay. Parang may kumikiliti sa tyan ko sa mga matatamis nyang sinasabi.

“Now, eat your mangoes,” he said gently. I nodded. Nauna syang umupo at papaupuin sana ako sa kandungan nya pero hindi ako pumayag.

“Hubby, meron ako,” sabi ko.

“It’s fine, come on, sit on me-”

“Eh! N-not now, at least…” sabi ko at umupo sa tabing upuan. He sighed and just made our seats very close to each other.

“Here, baby,” pagpupumilit nya at tinapik tapik ang hita. Umiling iling ako at kumain na ulit. He sighed again before just giving up and place his arm on my waist.

“What do you want to do today?” He asked.

“Dito lang. I have my mens, sasakit na maya maya ang puson ko,” sagot ko.

“W-what do I need to do to help?” Medyo alangan nyang sabi. Napangisi ako at umiling.

“Wala.”

Kinuha nya ang iphone sa bulsa at pinanood ko syang mag-search.

How to take care of

my wife during her period

Napangiti ako at mahinang tumawa. Seryoso naman sya habang tumitingin at nagbabasa ng articles. I giggled and hugged his other arm.

“Hubby,” I sweetly called.

“Hmm?” Seryoso nyang tanong. Seryoso pa rin syang nagbabasa.

“Wala lang,” I said. He pulled me into his chest and kissed my forehead while still reading.

If ever you’ll fall in love with another girl, isn’t that just for the best? Like what you said, a girl who’s nice, can love you back and can obey you. Will that be better than me being your wife? I don’t know. But it hurts me thinking those things.

“I love you, wife,” he whispered. “Does your abdomen hurt?”

“A bit… maya maya sasakit na ito nang sobra,” I giggled. Seryoso lang naman sya.

“Let’s go up? I’ll prepare your hot compress.” Tumayo sya. “ I’ll give you ginger tea first.“

Seryoso syang gumagawa ng ginger tea. I touched both of my cheeks while watching him seriously doing it.

He’s caring. What more if I’m pregnant right?

Kinikilig ako habang seryoso nyang ginagawa iyon. Hawak hawak nya iyon habang paakyat kami. Nagsisimula na ngang sumakit ang puson ko.

I had a warm bath a while ago so I don’t need to take a bath again. Inilapag niya ang tea sa bedside table habang isinasaksak ang hot compress.

Humiga ako sa kama at hinanahap ang phone ko. Agad ko iyong nakita at chineck ko ang instagram ko. Wala naman, mga messages lang ng ilang kakilala at ilang hindi.

“Come here,” he said in a low voice. Lumapit ako sa kanya. Inilapag nya ang hot compress sa puson ko at agad akong naging komportable doon.

“Drink this when it’s not that hot anymore.” He said. I nodded. He leaned to give me a sweet kiss.

“Thank you, hubby,” I said sweetly. He stared at me for a while before kissing me again.

Dinilaan nya ang labi nya pagkatapos. I find it hot. “You need to eat leafy vegetables. I’ll cook it myself”

“Talaga?”

“Yeah…” He said. Muli nya akong hinalikan. Kumapit na lang ako sa leeg nya dahil hindi ako masyadong makagalaw.

“I love you,” he said between the kiss. I bit his lower lip softly.

Pagkatapos ay umayos sya ng upo at hinaplos-haplos ang buhok ko.

“Fuck. I can’t even leave you here in our room,” sabi nya na ikinatawa ko.

“You’re over reacting, Azriel!”

“Nah. It’s really hard… nevermind, I’ll just go down. I’ll make it quick.”

I smiled and nodded. Pinanood ko syang lumabas bago ako kiligin. He’s so sweet!

I opened my instagram and searched Azriel’s dummy account.

Search

selr.06280628

Wala naman syang posts o ano. Ako lang din ang finofollow nya. Ang profile pic nya ay ang night sky. May mga stars din.

Hinanap ko ang cellphone nya kahit na ang sakit ng puson ko. Nasa drawer lang naman. I opened its instagram.

Andun nga ang nakadeactivate nyang account sa switch accounts. Binuksan ko ito kaya na-activate muli.

Azriel Danzel Nickolson

@a.nickolson

1 post    2.78m followers    1 following

See, he have millions of followers! I looked at that one post and it’s still the same picture. Like what I said, nakasandal lang sya sa kotse at nakasuot ng itim na suit. Seryosong nakatitig sa camera. It has millions of likes and comments.

Ako lang din ang finofollow nya which I find cute.

I stalked my account using his and I saw he liked everything I post except if I’m with some boys.

There’s a lot of notifications but there’s a new one.

@siobenik started following you.

This girl!

She probably likes Azriel. Tsk. You wish, bitch.

Inis kong ibinalik ang cellphone nya sa drawer at nabadtrip.

Chapter 16

Cook

Nakatulog ako matapos inumin ang hinandang ginger tea ni Azriel at uminom din ng pain killer.

Nagising akong mas maayos na ang pakiramdam. Wala si Azriel. Kinapa ko ang hot compress at naramdamang medyo mainit pa rin iyon kahit na ilang oras na akong nakatulog. Siguro ay nirecharge ni Azriel at iniagay muli sa puson ko. He’s such a caring husband. Nangiti ako at napailing.

Nagpunta ako ng banyo para magpalit. Maghilamos na rin at magtooth brush saka bumaba ako pagkatapos.

“Si Azriel?” Tanong ko.

“Nasa library po, ma’am,” sagot ng isang maid habang nagwawalis. I nodded and went out.

Pumikit ako at dinama ang malamig na pang-hapong hangin.

When I was younger, I was dreaming of having the perfect wedding. Being married to my long time boyfriend who’s also the man I love the most. Having a grand wedding, and living the perfect married life.

Pero hindi ko iyon nakuha. I got married with someone I barely know and we didn’t marry in church. Naging mabilis ang mga pangyayari.

My expectation and dreams didn’t happen.

“Just sign it, hija, it isn’t that bad,” pangungumbinsi ni Daddy. Pinunasan ko ang luha ko.

“B-but what about my perfect wedding dream?!” nagsimula ulit akong umiyak.

“Kuya, b-bata pa si Seleira oh-”

“Huwag mo nang kunsintihin pa, Glassifer,” nagbabantang sabi ni Daddy bago tumingin sa akin.

“Hija, you know I’ve done and give everything to you. Ito lang ang gagawin mo para kahit papano’y maibalik sa akin-”

“Pero ayaw ko sa kanya!” sigaw ko.

“Seleira, I really don’t understand why don’t you want to marry him. I mean, as far as I know, every girl wants him-”

“I said I don’t want him!” giit ko.

“Please. Magiging mahirap pa tayo sa daga kung hindi mo sya papakasalan. Paano ang mga beauty routines mo? A-ang nail salon, ang hair treatment, lasers, and everything you asked from me monthly? Mawawala iyon, hija… but if he becomes your husband, kaya nyang ibigay yun sayo lahat.”

Napatulala ako at napaisip. Kung hindi ko nga sila susundin, ay maghihirap kami. I looked at Tito Glassifer na nag-aalalang nakatingin sa akin.

“Although how he offers me to help in our company in exchange of you getting married is creepy, I don’t want to lose such opportunity,” Daddy added.

Hindi ko kayang mabuhay ng wala ang nail, hair treatment and laser sessions ko. Ganoon din ang pagpapa-derma ko.

Am I really ready for this? And he’s my damn stalker!! He had stalked me for 5 years. Buong college ko ay sumusulpot sya kung saan saan at nagwawala pag may kasama akong ibang lalaki.

This is getting creepier and creepier!!

“I want to get married as soon as possible. Next week, April 11 will do. Ayoko nang may humadlang pa,” seryosong sabi nya nang magkaroon kami ng dinner. Titig na titig sya sa akin kung kaya’t hindi ako makakain nang maayos. Natatakot din ako.

“A-ah eh, h-hindi ba masyadong mabilis naman iyon, Mr. Nickol-”

“Why? She’ll be married to me, anyway, why would we make it long? I want her so bad.”

Kinilabutan ako sa lamig ng boses nya. Nakasuot sya ng itim na polo na nakatupi hanggang siko kaya kita ang mga braso nya. Napatingin ako doon. It looks so firm and strong. I wonder if he will kill me using those.

“H-how do you know-”

“I love your daughter. I started loving her five years ago and I still love her and I want to have her now,” naiinip nitong sabi at ibinagsak pa ang hawak na wine glass.

Hindi naman makapaniwala akong tiningnan nina daddy.

“Y-yeah, she’ll be married to you. But you maybe just love her because of her looks. You see, she’s spoiled. She have attitude problem-”

“Tito!” saway ko. Mas lalo syang tumitig sa akin. He looks so handsome and dangerous.

“I am saying the truth-”

“I don’t care. I can spoil her all she wants. Gusto ko nang maikasal sya sa akin,” atat na atat nitong sabi.

That’s how we got married. Atat na atat sya at kahit sa nalalabing limang araw bago ang kasal ay naglalagi na sya sa mansion namin. Binabakuran ako at sinisinghalan lahat ng mga bumibisitang manliligaw.

Hindi ako nauubusan ng manliligaw noon. Nang magkaroon sya ng karapatan sa akin ay agad nya iyong ginamit. Pinagsisigawan nya ang mga lalaki na ikakasal na ako sa kanya.

We got married quickly. Ikinasal kami sa harap ng batas. No one in his family attended dahil sa sobrang biis ng pangyayari.

Isang araw matapos ang kasal ay sumugod ang parents nya sa mansion ni Azriel. Pinagsisigawan ako at takot na takot ako sa mommy nya.Takot na takot ako sa lahat ng tao dun sa mansion lalo na kay Azriel. He was so creepy and bossy although binihan nya ako ng pagkarami raming beauty products na mamahalin. Hindi rin ako pwedeng lumabas o magtrabaho.

Sinigawan din ni Azriel ang ina at nag-away sila. Mas lalo syang nagalit nang makita akong umiiyak sa takot. He angrily kicked them out of his house like they aren’t his parents. Pagkatapos ay sinubukan nya akong aluin at yakapin pero umiwas lang ako at tumakbo pabalik sa kwarto.

Those were my darkest days. Sa ngayon ay unti unti na akong nagiging okay sa mga nangyayari. Azriel already have my trust. And I have his trust too.

Pinunasan ko ang kakaunting luha na lumabas sa aking mga mata habang inaalala ang nakaraan. Nakakalungkot ang buhay. Pero lilipas din iyan. Hindi nagtatagal ang kalungkutan. Ano man ang problema mo, lilipas din yan at darating ang araw na tatawanan mo na lamang habang inaalala.

Isang mainit na yakap ang natanggap ko mula sa likod kasabay ng pagkalanghap ko ng pamilyar na amoy ni Azriel. I immediatley feel comfortable with his warmth and manly scent.

Ibinaon nya ang mukha sa aking leeg at hinahalik-halikan iyon. One of Azriel’s love language is physical touch.

“You must be hungry, wife,” he said huskily. Sumandal ako sa dibdib nya at hinaplos ang malakas nyang braso.

“I am,” sagot ko. It’s 3pm and it’s already snack time. Hinaplos haplos nya ang tyan ko na akala mo ay may baby sa loob non. Bumaba ang haplos nya sa puson ko.

“Masakit pa ba?” he asked, referring to my lower abdomen. I nodded.

“Yup. Masakit talaga yan buong araw dahil first day ko. Tapos bukas uli,” sagot ko. He heavily sighed and hugged me even tighter.

“What should I do to help you?” He asked problematically. I giggled because I find him cute. Kinurot ko ang braso nya.

“Wala…”

“Nah, there must be something.” His tone suddenly sound playfully.

“You know, baby, I’ve read that making love will help ease the pain-”

“Hubby!” Saway ko at natawa. What?! I can’t imagine!

“What?” he asked and chuckled lowly. He squeezed me, too.

“That’s gross!” tawa ko.

“Why so? It ain’t.”

“My period blood will be everywhere,” nandidiri kong sabi. Parang mas nandidiri pa ako kaysa sa kanya.

“So?” nilingon ko sya at nakakunot ang noo nya. “It’s yours after all, so I won’t mind.”

Nag-init ang pisngi ako humagikhik. He kissed my hair again while caressing my lower abdomen.

“No way!”

“Please, baby, let’s try. I wonder how hot your insides will be,” sabi nya. Tunog seryoso rin at alam mong hindi sya nagbibiro. Tumawa ako at umiking iling.

“Please, baby,” he begged. Talagang seryoso sya!!

Although gusto ko rin i-try, huwag muna ngayon. Ang lakas ng regla ko! It’s his hobby pa naman to eat me kapag ginagawa namin iyon. Walang round na lumilipas nang hindi nya ginagawa. He loves to give me pleasure pero ayaw nya pag ako na ang gagawa sa kanya.

“Azriel, you’re so weird,” natatawa kong sabi. He groaned and softly bit me on my neck which caused me moan. But I laugh again.

“I also want to try eating you out-”

“Yuckies!” Nandidiri kong sigaw.

“Why?” tanong nya. Hinarap ko sya at seryoso talaga sya sa pinagsasabi nya.

“Aren’t you disgusted?” Tanong ko, pinipigilang tumawa.

“Not at all. It’s you, baby, why would I be disgusted? Besides, I really want you and I also really want to help stop the pain you’re feeling.”

I pouted when I felt butterflies on my tummy. I’m sure I’m blushing now. Hinapit nya ang bewang ko kaya kumapit ako sa balikat nya.

“Hubby… no,” mahina kong sabi. He leaned closer even more and kissed my lips. I gladly kissed him back. Hinaplos ko rin ang perpekto nyang panga.

“You don’t really want?” He asked and kissed my cheek.

“No.”

“Fine,” pagsuko nya. “Let’s just cook your snack, then? But if you want to try it, I’ll always be available for you,” he said and smirked. Umirap ako pero napangiti na rin.

Kumapit ako sa braso nya at masayang tumatalon talon habang papasok kami ng mansion.

“Baby…” mahina nyang saway. “Careful.”

Linda just helped us with the ingridients and left smirking. Malisosya pa akong tinitingnan kaya pinanlakihan ko sya ng mata. Humahagikhik tuloy syang umalis. Kairita talaga sya!

“Anong lulutuin natin?” tanong ko. We’re wearing our matching aprons again, but it’s color purple this time. Ewan ko ba kung saan nya ito nakukuha dahil nung nakaraan ay pink.

“Italian pasta and Potato Cheese Chips,” sagot nya habang hinuhugasan ang mga malulusog na patatas. Para namang nagliwanag ang mga mata ko sa narinig. Gusto ko yun! Siguradong masarap.

“What else do you want?” he asked.

“Tuna cheese sandwich? Nakita ko yun sa internet. We have to put tuna and cheese in a slice of bread then roll it. Isasawsaw sa itlog at breadcrumbs tapos lulutuin!” Masaya kong sabi. I heard him let out a low chuckle.

“Sure, baby.”

Pinanood ko ang likod nya habang tinatapos ang paghuhugas. His shoulders are broad and strong. Ang gwapo nya pa rin kahit nakatalikod.

Humarap sya at seryosong inilapag ang mga patatas.

“I have to peel these first,” he said.

“What do I need to do, then?” I asked. “Let me peel them so you can work on the pasta na.”

“No. You might hurt yourself accidentally. I’ll do it later, baby,” sabi nya. I pouted and watch his hands peel the potatoes professionally. Ang bilis at smooth.

“Poor potatoes,” I said cutely. Nag-angat sya ng tingin sa akin at hindi na napigilang ngumiti. Ibinaba nya saglit ang kutsilyo bago magsalita.

“Give me a kiss, cutie,” he suddenly demanded. Patalon talon akong lumapit sa kanya at tumingkayad para bigyan sya ng halik. The kiss was fast and it made a kiss noise which made me giggle.

Mas lalo tuloy syang nanggigil, binitawan ang patatas at niyakap ako. Pinisil pa ako habang yakap yakap.

“Azriel!” Natatawa kong tawag.

“Stop being so adorable,” nanggigil nyang sabi at pinaghahalikan ang mukha ko. Natatawa ko syang itinutulak.

Ang landi talaga ng lalaking ’to!

Ang bilis tuloy ng tibok ng puso ko. Para rin akong lumulutang dahil sa kasayahan.

Pinapatuloy nya na ang pagbabalat habang ako naman ay ipinrepare na ang tuna cheese sandwich. Madali lang naman.

Kaunti lang ang ginawa ko. Ten pieces. Kaunti lang naman ang makakain namin ni Az, ang matira kina Linda na lang.

He’s busy making the sauce of the pasta. Ang galing nya tala ga.

“Hubby, it’s done na. Can I fry these potato slices?” tanong ko. He nodded.

Kaya naman pumunta ako sa kabilang parte ng kusina kung nasaan ang pangalawang kalan. Binuksan ko at ibinuhos ang mantika sa frying pan. Ibinuhos ko rin ang mga patatas.

“Ba’t ganun?” I whispered to myself. Parang hindi sila naluluto kasi hindi bumubula yung mantika? Hindi ba ganon yun? Or at least, it will make a soft cooking sound.

“Baby, you shouldn’t have put it already…” malambing na sabi ni Azriel at lumapit sa akin.

“Huh?”

“Pinainit mo muna dapat,” he said.

“I’m sorry… I-I didn’t know,” I said nervously.

He held me and gave me a peck before saying that it’s fine.

I also tried frying the tuna cheese sandwiches pero nasisira ito at lumalabas ang tuna at cheese. Naiiyak na ako pero kalmado lamang si Azriel. He fixed it.

“Just sit there, wife,” he said lovingly. I pouted.

“I’m sorry, Azriel…”

“It’s fine, baby. Just sit there.”

“You must be fed up having a wife who can’t cook at all,” nagtatampo kong sabi.

Totoo naman.

Narinig kong pinatay nya ang kalan bago lumapit sa akin. Walang hirap nya akong inangat at pinaupo sa kandungan nya.

“Baby, I’m not fed up and I will never be. It doesn’t matter if you can’t cook at all, I can cook for us,” nanunuyo nyang sabi at hinalikan ang pisngi ko. Gusto ko tuloy umiyak.

“Y-you must like girls w-who can cook,” I accused. He groaned before hugging me tighter.

“Stop it, wife, please. I only like and love you… whether you can cook or not. It’s not like it matters, anyway,” naglalambing nyang sabi.

“Hush, hush,” Napapikit ako nang punasan nya ang pisngi ko. Umiiyak pala ako. Hinalikan nya rin ang mga ito.

“It’s okay, alright? I can cook. And don’t think just because you’re my wife, you should know how to cook. Girls don’t belong to kitchen,” aniya na nagpangiti sa akin.

Pinunasan ko na rin ang luha ko at yumakap sa leeg nya. I heard him chuckle.

“You’re afraid I might like girls who can cook, hmm?” natutuwa nyang sabi. Umirap ako sa sarili.

“Are you jealous again?” Mas lalong natuwa ang boses nya. Pinisil nya ako at pinaghahalikan ulit sa sobrang tuwa nya.

Naririnig ko rin ang mahihina nyang mura.

Kaya naman nang magpatuloy sya sa pagluluto ay ganado sya. Hindi na rin mapawi ang ngiti nya. Sobrang gwapo nya tuloy ngayon.

Ako na lang ang naglalagay ng cheese powder sa mga luto nang patatas.

Pinagpapawisan sya nang matapos ang lahat. I feel guilty because I didn’t help him, I even made things worse. Nagtimpla na lamang ako ng juice. Umupo ako sa tabing upuan nya at pinunasan ang noo nya. Napapikit naman sya.

“Do it again, please, wife,” he said gently when I took my hand back.

Hinaplos ko ulit nag noo nya at pinunasan ang pawis nya.

“It feels great whenever you take care of me.”

Parang may kumurot sa puso ko sa sinabi nya. Am I really a bad wife? Hindi ko nga sya naalagaan at palaging sya lang ang nag-aalaga sa akin. And yet, he never complained. Basta nasa tabi nya lang ako, okay sya. I feel so guilty.

Kaya naman pinaglagyan ko sya ng pasta sa plato. Medyo nagulat pa sya dahil iyon ang una kong beses na gawin iyon.

“B-baby,” utal nyang tawag. Tiningnan ko sya at namumula ang tainga nya.

“Eat,” I said. I also poured juice on his glass. He looks so happy while eating tuloy.

Kumain na rin ako at ang sarap nga. Pinuri ko sya at mayabang syang ngumisi. I hope I can cook for him one day, too.

Kinagabihan matapos magdinner ay nagpaalam si Azriel na may emergency syang kailangan asikasuhin. Nasa library lang naman sya at haharap sa computer. Maybe from work.

Alas nuebe ay tinawag ko si Linda para magpaturo magluto ng sinigang. Paborito kasi iyon ni Azriel, isang beses nyang nabanggit sa akin.

“Eto na ang mga ingridients, ma’am… Ipagluluto nyo si sir, ano?” Nakangisi nyang tanong. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at agad umiling iling.

“H-hindi noh! Tse! Turuan mo na lang ako!” Iritado kong sabi.

“Okay po, ma’am!” Masaya nyang sabi. Inirapan ko agad nang tumingin sa akin.

We spent an hour or two and I can say I learned it well. Si Linda ang gumagabay sa akin pero ako ang gumagawa!

Napapalakpak ako ng tikman ko.

“Ang sarap!” I said. Tumaas ang kilay nya at kumuha rin ng sariling kutsara para tikman.

“Hala, ang sarap nga! Pwede na, ma’am!”

“Anong pwede ka dyan? Masarap naman talaga.”

Bumungisngis sya. Masaya akong nagtatatalon habang pabalik sa kwarto. Hindi ko muna sasabihin kay Azriel para magulat sya pag ipagluluto ko sya!

Nagkasalubong kami sa hallway at kakatanggal nya lang din ng specs nya.

“Azriel!” I called. Guess, what? Marunong na ako magluto ng paborito mo at ipagluluto kita!

Gusto ko sana sabihin pero huwag na. It’s better to surprise him.

“Come here,” je said. Lumapit ako at masuyo nya akong binuhat na parang bagong kasal.

“Shall we sleep?” He asked. I nodded.

“Why do you look so happy?” tanong nya habang buhat buhat ako at papasok sa kwarto. Umiling lang ako at kumapit sa leeg nya.

Nakahiga na kami nang makatanggap ako ng text galing kay daddy.

Daddy:

Come have dinner here tomorrow. Don’t worry, the cousins aren’t here. I just want to make it up to you, anak. Please, have time spent with us.

Nawala ang ngiti ko at bahagyang nalungkot. Tumatanda na nga si daddy.

“We’ll have dinner tomorrow kila daddy,” I said to him. Nilingon ko lang sya dahil nasa likod ko sya at yakap yakap ako.

He groaned. “Why? You’l just be stressed again.”

“No!” agad kong sabi. “Please, hubby? Daddy want to make it up to me. Gusto ko rin syang makasama dahil alam mo na… he wasn’t really there when I was young.”

He sighed and nodded. “Fine.”

Ako:

Okay, daddy, we’ll come. I’ll cook the ulam for us. Sinigang.

Daddy:

Really? You know how? That’s great, hija. Thanks for fulfilling your father’s simple wish.

Kinabukasan ay wala pa rin kaming trabaho ni Azriel dahil naka-leave kami ng isang linggo.

Nanlalambing lang sya buong araw hanggang sa dumilim na at oras na pumunta sa bahay.

I’m wearing a lettuce sleeveless white top and a pink skater skirt. Pinarisan ko iyon ng lacey sandals at white small sling bag from katespade. Azriel bought me this.

“Let’s go!” masaya kong sigaw at naunang tumakbo papunta sa kotse nya. He groaned in an annoyed tone before shouting that I should be careful.

I giggled and enter the shotgun seat. Kasasara ko pa lang ng pinto ay pumasok na rin si Azriel sa driver’s seat.

“You won’t seat here?” tanong nya at tinapik ang hita. Namula ang pisngi ko at umiling. He looked disappointed a bit but then he nodded and chuckled.

We arrived smoothly because there’s no traffic or whatsoever. Pinagbuksan kami ng maids at agad kami sinalubong ni daddy at ni… Anikka. She’s wearing a white simple dress.

Napatingin din sya sa suot ko at nagtagal ang titig doon. Sunod na tinitigan ay si Azriel at hindi na humiwalay pa ang mga mata.

“Seleira!” Daddy greet and hugged me quickly.

“Good evening,” Azriel greet. Daddy nodded at tap his shoulder.

“Come in, come in. And your wife will cook Sinigang!” Sabi ni daddy. Nahihiya naman akong tumango.

“W-what?” Tanong ni Azriel na naguguluhan.

“Uh… I’ll cook sinigang. T-that’s your favorite, right?” tanong ko at halos hindi makatingin sa kanya.

Ilang sandali pa syang tumitig sa akin at nakaawang ang bibig, hindi makapaniwala.

“Baby, is this for real? You’ll cook for me? And my favorite dish? Tanong nya at hinawakan ang dalawa kong braso. I smiled shyly and nodded.

Mariin syang napapikit at napamura. He looks like he just won in a lottery. Hindi pa makapaniwala at panay ang mura.

“Yes. Fuck!” Tuwang tuwa nyang sabi. Napatili ako nang hapitin nya ako at paghahalikan sa harap ni daddy at Anikka!

I heard Daddy’s laugh. Natatawa na lang din ako kay Azriel.

I looked at Anikka and her reaction is emotionless. Nakatitig lang sa amin.

“Anikka, why don’t you greet them?” si daddy.

Hindi pa rin tumitigil kakayapos at halik sa akin itong si Azriel kaya kinurot ko nang mahina. He chuckled and squeezed my body before stopping.

“Uh… h-hello, Seleira… and…” mahinhin nyang sabi bago lumipat ang tingin kay Azriel na walanghiyang nakatitig sa akin. “Azriel.”

“Hi.” maikli kong bati. She looked at me and then to Azriel, she looks like she’s hoping she’ll get noticed.

But Azriel didn’t mind her and even pulled me to get in the house dahil sa sobrang excited nya na ipagluluto ko sya.

Natawa si daddy at sumunod na rin sa amin.

“Come on, Anikka, dear,” pagtawag nya dito

Daddy had to do errands in his room so we’re just three in the kitchen. Handa na ang mga ingridients.

Titig na titig si Azriel sa akin mula sa kinauupuan nya. Si Anikka naman ay nasa kabilang side at pasulyap sulyap kay Azriel at minsan sa akin.

“Don’t stare at me like that,” mahina kong sabi at natawa.

“My heart beats so fast, wife. Shit!” Mura nya. Natawa ako lalo.

Tiningnan ko ang mga ingridients at inalala ang mga ginawa namin kagabi ni Linda.

“K-kaya ko rin magluto ng s-sinigang. A-ang totoo, paborito k-ko rin yan. M-mahilig kasi ako sa maaasim,” Anikka suddenlys said.

I looked at her and furrowed my eyebrows. I looked at Azriel who’s so attentive with what I’m doing.

“Oh, really?” I asked her kahit na hindi naman ako interesado. Kawawa naman, eh.

“Oo. G-gusto ko nga ng mangga, eh… K-kaso hindi nila season n-ngayon kaya wala…” she said and let out a sweet laugh.

Gusto kong umirap pero pinigilan ko. It’s so clear that she’s trynna get the attention of my husband.

Gusto mo ng mangga pero wala dahil hindi nila season? Well, guess what? I requested mangoes yesterday to Azriel and he immediatley made a way so I can eat those kahit hindi nila season.

Nakakairita.

Pinagpatuloy ko na lamang ang ginagawa. Anikka, watch how I’ll cook this dish that will make Azriel love sinigang even more.

Nang malapit na mataposay tsaka ako nablanko. Nakalimutan ko at ngayon ko lang naalala ang mga steps na dapat ginawa ko kanina.

Tahimik lang ako pero nagpapanic na ako. Sinuyapan ko si Azriel na masaya akong pinapanood. No! I’ll disappoint him!

Biglang pumasok si daddy nang nakangiti. “Ang bango ah!”

“D-daddy…” I was about to stop him pero nakakuha na sya ng kutsara at tinikman iyon.

“Let me taste it, too,” Si Azriel.

Kumunot ang noo ni daddy bago sandaling nanahimik. Kumuha sya ulit ng sabaw at tinikman muli.

Namamawis na ako sa kaba at hiya.

“Bakit maalat ito?” he asked.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko at hindi na alam ang gagawin.

“What? Let me try-”

“Azriel, wag na,” sabi ko at pumagitna para hindi na sya makalapit pa sa niluto ko.

“But, baby, I want to try,” naglalambing nyang sabi.

“Maalat,” komento ni daddy. “Anikka, halika’t tikman mo.”

Tumayo si Anikka at kumuha ng panibagong kutsara at tinikman. She dramatically spit it out.

“Ang alat nga po! Bakit ganon?” Tanong nya at tumingin sa akin. It’s like she’s lowkey mocking me.

“May sinigang bang maalat?” She added.

Napaawang ang bibig ko at nag-iinit ang sulok ng mga mata ko sa hiya.

“What? Let me try-”

“Azriel, wag na nga!” Sigaw ko. Nanlambot ang mga mata nya sa akin.

“Baby,” he called.

“I-It’s okay, hija… y-you can still learn,” pampalubag loob ni daddy

Naiinis ako at gusto kong tumakbo sa hiya. Nakakahiya na nadisappoint ko si Azriel at bahagyang nakangiti naman si Anikka.

“Ah eh, para hindi masayang, sigurado akong kaya itong ayusin ni Anikka. Magaling syang magluto,” si daddy.

“Yes, pa. Uh… Seleira, ako na ang bahala para uh… makakain ng paborito nya s-si Azriel..” namula ang mga pisngi nya habang pakiramdam ko ay nag-iinit ako sa galit sa sarili ko.

“G-ginawa ko n-naman yung t-tinuro ni L-linda eh,” paliwanag ko sa maliit na boses dahil naiiyak na ako.

“I’ll eat it,” seryosong sabi ni Azriel.

“H-huh?Pero m-masyadong maalat, hijo,” si Daddy.

“Iuulam ko,” giit ni Azriel.

“P-pero h-hintayin mo munang m-maayos ko!” natatarantang sabi ni Anikka.

Tumulo na ang mga luha ko na agad kong pinalis. Nakakahiya ka, Seleira. Si Anikka magaling magluto. Ako, hindi.

“I said I will eat what my wife cooked for me,” seryosong sabi ni Azriel at kumuha na ng bowl.

“Azriel… huwag na,” nanghihina kong tawag habang pinupunasan ang pisngi.

Wala nang nagawa sina daddy nang magsandok na sya. Inilapag iyon ni Azriel sa mesa.

“There, you can fix the rest for you. But don’t touch this bowl. My wife cooked this for me.” He said seriously.

Para akong naiiyak lalo dahil sa ginagawa nya. He’s so sweet that I wanna cry. Ang tanga ko kasi.

“Ah eh, kung iyan ang gusto mo, Azriel. Mabuti pa bumalik na lang tayo kapag naayos na ni Anikka.” nag-aalangang sabi ni Daddy.

“Where’s your old room, baby?” malambing nyang tanong. Pinunasan nya rin ang luha ko. “Shhh shh it’s fine. You didn’t disappoint me. I’m so happy you tried your best to cook for me.”

“T-talaga?”

“Yes. Fucking yes.”

“D-dito ang luma kong kwarto…” mahina kong sabi.

“Sa kwarto na muna nya kami.” Pagpapaalam nya kay daddy. Tumango naman si daddy at papalabas na rin. Nilingon ko si Anikka and she looks so disappointed.

“B-but I can fix this f-for you…” I heard her whisper but Azriel didn’t dahil busy sya kakasuyo sa akin.

“I want to eat what you cooked for me. Hush now.”

Chapter 17

Damsel in Distress

Umupo ako sa kama ng aking lumang kwarto. Iginala ko ang paningin ko sa kabuuan nito. This is where everything started. Simula bata ako at ito na ang kwarto ko.

“Wife, are you okay?” Tanong ni Azriel habang sinasara ang pinto.

I looked at him and he’s serious. Nang tingnan ako ay nanlalambot ang ekspresyon nito. Umupo sya sa tabi ko at pinaharap ako sa kanya.

“I’m sorry. Hindi ko alam bakit n-nagkaganoon… Sinunod ko naman yung mga tinuro ni Linda eh-”

“Shhh shhh,” he hushed me when I started to cry again. Idinala nya ang mukha ko sa dibdib nya. Sumiksik ako sa kanya dahil sa nararamdamang hiya.

“Stop it now, wife. It’s really fine,” naglalambing nyang sabi. Hinihimas din ang likod ko at pinaghahalikan ang noo ko.

“B-but I disappointed you…”

“Disappoint me? When?” tanong nya at bahagya akong inilayo para magtagpo ang mga mata namin. Halos hindi ako makatingin sa kanya kaya sa gilid ako nakatingin. Hinahabol nya naman ang paningin ko.

“Kanina! My sinigang was maalat!” I said. “There’s no maalat na sinigang naman eh!” I cried out like a child.

Muli nya akong isiniksik sa dibdib nya. He even chuckled lowly which made me more frustrated. I then felt him squeeze me.

“Sorry,” he said and tried to stop his laugh. “You’re so cute.”

I bit his shoulder which made him groan and laugh sexily again.

“But seriously, I’m still happy,” naging seryoso ang boses nito. Tiningala ko sya at seryoso na nga sya.

“That’s the first time you cooked for me,” he said. Different emotions are being seen from his eyes. Kumikislap ang mga ito na akala mo maiiyak sya o ano.

The truth is… I want to start taking care of him so our marriage isn’t biased. Alagang alaga at spoiled nya ako.

Hinahanda nya lagi ang gagamitin kong tubig sa tub, pinagluluto nya ako, binibilhan ng mga gusto ko, at palaging binibigyan ng assurance.

I feel like with him, I am safe and no one can hurt me. Like if I’m with him, mabubuhay ako.

Azriel is an independent powerful man. And here I am, slowly becoming dependent on him.

“Baby, what are you thinking?” medyo frustrated nyang tanong at niyakap ako mula sa gilid, hindi pa makuntento at halos ikalong na ako.

“Azriel, you’re such an independent man. You can cook, you have a stable great job, you’re very smart, you’re very rich, and you’re even famous,” mahina kong litanya. “And here you have a wife who can’t even cook.”

He groaned in an annoyed way before effortlessly lifting me up to sit on his strong thighs. Kumapit ako sa leeg nya at tinitigan sya gamit ang malungkot na ekspresyon.

“You think I can function well without you by my side?” matigas ang tono na ginamit nya, tila nagagalit. “Ni hindi ko kayang gumising ng wala ka tabi ko.”

I pouted. I feel really touched. Azriel is a sweet man.

“But I can’t cook-”

“Damn those girls who can cook, my baby can’t but I still love her!” Iritado nyang sabi. “Baby, please stop thinking that way. I can cook, okay? It’s enough for the both of us.”

Pinunasan nya ang luha ko at pinaghahalikan ang pisngi ko. “I love you,” he said sincerely before giving me a sweet kiss on the lips.

“Let’s work on that little insecurity of yours, okay?” panunuyo nya sa akin. I nodded and hold onto his neck tighter.

Hinalikan ko sya ulit at humalik din sya agad pabalik. Pagkatapos ay nagkatinginan kami. I felt butterflies dancing on my tummy with the way how he look at me.

We spent the rest of the minutes cuddling. He also whispers assuring words, that it’s really okay if I can’t cook. He’s so warm and sweet and we almost made love kung wala lang akong regla.

“You want to go anywhere after our dinner?” malambing nyang tanong. I pouted while thinking. Dahan dahan nya akong hiniga saka pumatong sa akin. Hinayaan ko lang sya dahil alam nya namang ayoko makipag-talik ngayon, hahalik lang yan.

“S-saan mo ba gusto?” I asked. Itinaas ko ang kamay ko at pinaglaruan ang buhok nya. Napapikit naman sya sandali bago pinaghahalikan muli ang leeg ko.

“I don’t know. You want me to buy you something?” He asked. Mahina akong natawa nang makiliti ako. Tinulak ko sya pero mahina lang naman.

“Wala naman akong gustong ipabili.”

“Hmm? I don’t think so,” he replied.

“Wala naman talaga. It’s not like you’re my sugar daddy or something!” Maarte kong sabi. Narinig ko ang mababa nyang tawa.

“But I love spoiling you…”

I pouted when he looked at me. Napababa tuloy sa labi ko kaagad ang tingin nya.

“Then what are you? My sugar hubby?” I asked.

Nangiti sya muli hanggang sa natawa na. I rolled my eyes when I find his laugh sexy.

Ibinaon nya ang mukha sa leeg ko habang ang balikat ay gumagalaw, tanda na tumatawa sya. Iritado ko syang tinulak pero mahina lang ulit.

“Sugar hubby, then,” sagot nya. Umirap ako ulit kahit na hindi nya nakikita.

“Hmm… what do you want me to buy you?” Tanong nya ulit. “Your perfumes, designer clothes and bags, anything.”

Hindi ako kaagad nakasagot. Iniisip ko kung ano bang kailangan ko.

Umalis sya sa taas ko saka humiga sa tabi ko. Agad nyang hinapit ang katawan ko papalapit sa kanya. Pinagsiksikan pa ang malaking pangangatawan sa akin.

“Let’s change your phone? iPhone 8s isn’t updated anymore,” he suggested.

“But I still can use it,” I said.

“Don’t you want an iphone like mine? The latest?” He asked desperately. Gusto nya talaga akong bilhan ng kung ano.

“I want to have the new collection of Pandora pala. I’ve seen in the internet they just launched a new collection,” sabi ko at hinarap sya.

“Hubby, please. I want to have it! Please?” I begged. He took advantage of me facing him, for a kiss. Niyakap nya ang bewang ko bago tumango.

“Sure. Whatever my wife wants.”

Ngumiti ako. Yes! I badly want that collection but IT’S SO EXPENSIVE! Walang patutunguhan ang 10,000 cash ko dyan!

It’s not like I can ask money from daddy like I used to when I was young.

Si daddy ang nagbibigay ng pera pambili ng mga luho ko. Yun nga lang, malabo pa sa sikat ng araw kung magpakita sya sa bahay. He just sends money to my account and text me he sent something and that’s it!

Naputol lang ang lambingan namin nang may kumatok.

“Maybe the dinner’s ready,” he said lazily. I nodded. “Let’s go?”

“Yup,” sagot ko.

Aahon na sana ako mula sa kama pero ayaw namang matinag ng malalakas nyang braso. Tiningnan ko sya at mukhang ayaw nyang umalis.

“Azriel, akala ko ba halika na?”

“Yeah…” Bumangon na rin sya at inikot muli ang paningin sa kwarto ko.

“I’d like to see your old stuffs here, but we don’t have much time.”

“Old stuffs like what?”

Hindi na sya sumagot at hinila na lamang ang kamay ko para lumabas. Binuksan nya ang pinto at isang maid ang bumungad.

“H-handa na po ang hapunan, ma’am, sir.”

Tumango ako at bumaba na kami. Nakatayo si Anikka at wala nang ekspresyong mabasa sa kanya ngayon. It’s like she’s pissed at something.

Tiningnan ko ang mesa at marami na ring ulam ang nakahanda, hindi lamang Sinigang.

There’s menudo, sinigang, fish fillet, at mga in-order na pagkain tulad ng popeyes chicken at steak. Mayroon ding sliced cucumbers. Nahagip ng mata ko ang bowl ni Azriel, napangiwi tuloy ako.

“Let’s eat! I’m so hungry!” Si daddy at naupo na. Tahimik na umupo si Anikka, pinaghila naman ako ng upuan ni Azriel.

“What do you want?” Pabulong nyang tanong.

“Steak…” sagot ko. Ikinuha nya ako ng steak habang kumukuha ako ng kaunting rice.

I looked back at Anikka and she still looks pissed, nakatingin sa kamay ni Azriel. When she noticed I’m looking at her, she smiled at me.

“Azriel, you don’t have to eat that,” sabi ko nang itinabi nya sa plato ang sinigang.

“We’ve talked about this already,” sagot nya naman. I looked at his face and he looks excited. Na-guguilty na naman ako

Sina daddy naman ay nag-aalalang nakatitig kay Azriel. I looked at him again and he eats a bit aggresive. Sabik na sabik sa niluto ko para sa kanya. Mas lalo akong na-guilty, it’s like he’s craving for his wife’s care.

“Azriel… stop,” I said. Nakangiwing tiningnan ko sina Daddy. Daddy looks shocked. Palipat lipat din ang tingin sa akin saka kay Azriel. Meanwhile, Anikka watches him while the bowl of her Sinigang is in her hands.

“S-seems like you likes what Seleira cooked huh?” si Daddy.

“Very much,” maikli nyang sagot.

“M-mag-aaral ako ulit. I-Ipapatikim ko sayo. Magpapaturo ulit ako kay Linda,” mahina kong sabi sa kanya. He licked his lips and looked at me with a ghost of smile on his lips.

“Really? You will?”

“Yes.”

Kinagat nya ang labi nya at may sasabihin pa sana ako pero napatalon ako sa kinauupuan nang marinig ang tili ni Anikka.

I looked at her at nabitawan nya pala ang hawak hawak na bowl ng sinigang. Agad nagsilapitan ang mga maids at napatayo naman si daddy.

I was shocked and I was left there, sitting, stunned. Her cheeks are flushed red at ganoon din ang mga kamay nya dahil sa mainit na sabaw na natapon dito.

“Dali, kuhain ang first aid kit!” Utos ni daddy. Agad tumalima ang isa.

Tumayo na rin ako at tiningnan si Azriel na nasa akin pa rin ang buong atensyon.

Umiiyak si Anikka atsaka ako tiningnan. Tiningnan nya rin ang katabi ko bago sya hilahin ng isang maid para hugasan ito sa running water.

“Seleira, do you know how to do first aid with burns?” Tanong ni daddy. Agad akong umiling.

“I don’t know. Kayo?” tingin ko sa maids. They all shook their head.

Tiningnan ko si Azriel na ngayo’y nakatayo na rin sa gilid ko. Alam kong alam nya kung paano. He’s smart and he know what to do with situations like this.

“What? I won’t do it,” mahina nyang sabi sa akin na akala mo’y nabasa ang iniisip ko. Inilagay nya rin ang braso sa bewang ko. He barely gives a fuck about what’s happening.

I know. I’m not letting you do it.

“Hindi po namin alam, daddy. Maybe she should just go to a clinic? Besides, it’s just probably a first degree burn-”

“M-mahapdi po, papa,” iyak nya. Pinaupo sya muli. Naawa naman ako sa kanya habang ginagalaw ang kamay dahil sa hapdi.

“B-baka alam po ni Seleira,” she cried.

I looked at her emotionlessly. Then I shook my head.

“I don’t.”

Girl, I literally don’t know what the heck to do with that.

“Fine, fine. Tell the driver to get the car ready. Alamin nya na ang pinakamalapit at bukas na clinic-”

“Papa!” Kontra ni Anikka. Medyo nagulat pa ako sa marahas na tono nya. It’s not very like her. Medyo mataas ang tono nya at ang pangkaraniwan nya ay mahinhin at malambot na boses lamang.

“B-baka alam po ng a-asawa ni Seleira,” she said hopefully.

Nalaglag ang panga ko sa sinabi nya. Tiningala ko si Azriel at nakatitig lang ito sa akin, hinaplos pa ang buhok ko na parang hindi nabanggit ang pangalan nya. Samantalang si daddy ay nalilito kaming tiningnan nang palipat-lipat.

“What?” I asked in a different tone. Napakunot tuloy ang noo ni Azriel saka binalingan si Anikka.

“A-ayaw ko naman pong g-gumastos pa kayo, papa,” katuwiran nya. Her face is already red. I don’t know why, maybe because of the pain she’s literally feeling.

“Ah eh, I can handle that, Anikka-”

“Please, pa!” Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa desperada nyang tono.

It’s like she’s very desperate to be touched…

by my fucking husband?!

Muli kong tiningala si Azriel at nakakunot ang noo nito kay Anikka, tila iritado.

“I won’t do it Just go to a clinic,” malamig na sabi ni Azriel. Naninikip ang dibdib ko sa mg ideyang naiisip.

Kumunot ang noo ni Anikka at saka dahan-dahang tumango. Nag-iwas sya ng tingin at ininda na lang ang sakit.

“You could just literally put a calming ointment to that while you’re on the way to the clinic,” maarte kong sabi.

“I’m calling the driver now so the car-”

“Hindi na po, papa. Lalagyan ko na lang ng gamot,” walang emosyong sabi nito. It’s like she’s disappointed at something.

“But we can go to a clinic-”

“Ayoko pong maiwan ang mga bisita rito. Saglit lang po, papa,” sabi nya at naglakad palabas ng kusina bitbit ang first aid kit.

Daddy awkwardly looked at us.

“Don’t worry. Ipapacheck ko rin ang kamay nya bukas na bukas. Hmm… marunong naman pala syang mag-first aid,” naguguluhang sabi ni papa.

“Ayaw lang kayo iwanan dito,” dagdag nya.

Tiningala ko si Azriel at nakatitig lang sya sa bowl na ng sinigang na niluto ko. Parang nabitin sya at sabik na saik ulit iyong kainin. Napatingin sya kay daddy at sumeryoso.

“I’m sorry, I can’t help your daughter. My wife might… you know,” seryoso nitong sabi. Nagkatinginan sila at akala mo ay nagkakaintindihan gamit ang tinginan. Men’s things.

Tumawa si papa at tumango tango. Sinenyasan nya rin kaming maupo na at ipagpatuloy ang pagkain.

Sumubo na ako ng steak at agad nagutom dahil sa sarap nun. I also eat fried chicken. Nilagyan ko ng fish fillet ang plato ni Azriel.

“Thanks, wife,” he said.

Pumasok muli si Anikka at nakabusangot ito. Mukhang ayos na rin ang kamay nya pero kailangan pa ring ma-icheck yan. Nang magtama ang mga mata namin ay tipid syang ngumiti.

“Is it fine now?” tanong ni daddy.

“Yes, pa.” sagot nya, sinulyapan si Azriel.

“Good. You should go to a clinic tomorrow by yourself. May mga gagawin pa pala ako,” sabi ni dad. Napaiwas ng tingin si Anikka.

I pouted and just continue eating.

“So, Azriel, hijo, I’ve heard…” daddy started talking about business. Sumasagot din si Azriel. I didn’t give much attention about it.

“Uh… Can I have some juice?” I asked a maid. Napatingin naman sa akin si Anikka.

“Y-yes, ma’am”

“And also, I’d like some vinegar for my cucumbers. Pakilagay na lamang sa bowl and put some salt,” I added.

The maid quickly put juice on my glass. Nakatingin doon si Azriel, napatingin lang ulit kay daddy nang magsimula ulit itong magtanong-tanong tungkol sa kalagayan ng kompanya.

Anikka stood up to get the pichel and pour juice on her glass herself.

“Naku, ma’am, ako na po,” sabi ng isang maid. “Ang kamay nyo po.”

Anikka laughed sweetly. “Naku, okay lang po. Kaya ko naman po kasi eh, at hindi naman ako palautos,” makahulugan nyang sabi.

Is she lowkey ranting me?

Tumaas ang kilay ko habang nakatitig sa pagkain. Inilapag ang pipino ko sa gilid at agad kong tinikman yun. Tastes good like ever.

Oo, palautos ako, Anikka. Because I want to.

“Hubby, I want some steak again, please?” I said cutely. Ramdam ko agad ang titig ni Anikka.

“Yes, baby…” mabilis na sagot ni Azriel at gumalaw para maglagay ng steak sa plato ko. Sya rin mismo ang naghiwa nun ulit para mas madali kong makain.

Tumawa si daddy. “Nako, my apologies, hijo. My daughter, Seleira, is a spoiled girl.”

I pouted and looked at Azriel. Napatingin sya sa akin. His jaw clenched and a smirk was formed on his lips.

“I know. She’s a spoiled baby.”

I giggled and daddy laughed, too.

“Anikka, why don’t you get a boyfriend, too? Mas matanda ka pa kay Seleira pero naunahan ka na!” Biro ni daddy.

Ngumiti si Anikka ngunit hindi umabot sa mata habang nakatingin sa amin.

“Papa, iba naman po ang kay Seleira. Ikinasal lamang sila para sa isang bagay,” sagot nya. Tila natigilan dito si Azriel at hindi nagustuhan ang sinabi nya.

“Why? What’s your opinion about fixed marriages?” Nag-iba ang tono ni Azriel. Para syang galit at nagtitimpi lang.

Anikka’s eyes widened. Her mood suddenly changed. She’s probably shocked because that’s the first time Azriel talked to her.

Pinigilan ko ang umirap dahil sa kung anong iritasyon na namumuo sa loob ko.

“S-sa tingin ko kasi, hindi iyon nagtatagal. Siguro sa una ay maayos pa pero darating ang punto na marerealize ng isa na walang kwenta lang pala ang lahat-”

“Anikka,” nagbabantang tawag ni daddy.

Halos sumabog ako sa iritasyon. Pero mas mukhang galit sa akin si Azriel. He’s staring at Anikka with angry eyes like he didn’t like any of she just said.

Anikka smiled innocently, though.

Parang sumasakit ang puso ko na makita si Azriel na nakatingin sa kanya, kahit pa galit ito.

“Azriel,” mahina kong tawag.

“O-opinyon ko lang iyon, ano ba kayo,” she awkwardly laughed. “Sa tingin ko lang yun, na hindi nagtatagal ang fixed marriages base sa mga kakilala at mga sikat na personalidad sa bansa. Kaya naman… umaasa pa rin ako.”

Umaasa sa ano?!

Yumuko si Azriel. His clenching jaw is very evident. Nagagalit sya sa kung ano man.

Agad ko syang hinawakan at hinaplos sa braso. Napatingin sya doon at hinawakan ang kamay ko.

“We won’t end up like them,” madiin at siguradong sabi ni Azriel, medyo galit pa.

“Anikka, that’s enough,” sabi ni daddy. Anikka nodded while having that smile on her face.

Naiirita rin ako, Azriel. Pareho tayo ng nararamdaman.

Tinapos na ang dinner nang tahimik. Saglit pang nag-usap si Azriel at daddy pero nauna akong lumabas sa salas.

I’m looking at the old painting hanged on the wall. That’s me. I was seven years old here and I look really pretty.

“Seleira…” I heard Anikka’s voice. Nilingon ko sya at nakangiti na naman ito.

“What?”

“G-gusto ko lang sabihin na ang swerte mo-”

“Do you like my husband?” Deretsa kong tanong.

Nanlaki ang mga mata nito at tiningnan ako na parang nahuli ko sya sa ginawang krimen.

I was caught off guard when she started crying.

“A-anong ibig mong sabihin sa s-sinabi mo?” she cried.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at agad napatingin sa paligid.

“Why are you crying? I literally just asked you-”

“Para mo k-kasi akong inaakusahan a-agad…”

She’s sobbing hardly! What on earth did I do to her? I just asked her.

“Look, I just asked you-”

“Anikka! Why are you crying?” Para akong nanlamig nang marinig ang boses ni daddy. Mas lalo namang umiyak ito.

“What?” I asked.

“Seleira, what did you do?” Tanong ni daddy.

Agad akong umiling iling. “I didn’t do anything, daddy!”

“W-wala po iyon, pa-”

“No! Ano bang nangyari?” Tanong ulit nito, nakatingin na sa akin.

“I literally didn’t do anything!” I said frustratedly.

I really feel angry right now and about to blow up but I saw Azriel walking seriously towards me. Malalaki ang hakbang nito at galing sya sa direksyon ng banyo.

“What happened?” kalmado nyang tanong. Agad akong kumapit sa braso nya.

“Ewan ko! Naabutan kong nag-uusap at umiiyak na itong si Anikka,” sabi ni daddy.

Azriel looked at me.

“I didn’t do anything!” I said, sobrang frustrated na. He nodded.

“My wife didn’t do anything,” he repeated, looking at daddy now.

Anikka’s lips became a grim line. Daddy sighed.

“I don’t know, Anikka, why are you crying?” tanong naman ni daddy.

“W-wala po. M-may pinag-usapan lang kami. W-walang ginawa s-si Seleira,” mahinhin nyang sabi at nagpunas ng luha.

“You’re really a nice girl, hija. But you should tell me-”

“I said I didn’t do anything! I just asked her a question and she already cried!” Sigaw ko. Napamura si Azriel at agad pinulupot ang braso sa bewang ko.

“Tama na po,” sabi ni Anikka.

She’s such a crazy bitch. Ginigigil nya ako. She’s playing the role of damsel in distress!

“Seleira, enough,” si Daddy

“Tama na, Seleira…” si Anikka na syang nagpairita lalo sakin.

“You know what? Alam mong wala akong ginawa sayo! Why are you doing this?” Sigaw ko sa iritadong tono.

“Tama na… I’m sorry,” naiiyak na sabi ni Anikka.

Mas lalong bumigat ang tingin sa akin ni daddy. Naiiyak na rin ako sa sobrang inis pero pinipigilan ko lang. Daddy never looked at me that way.

“Stop your bullshit. We’re leaving,” inis na sabi ni Azriel.

He looked at Anikka angrily before pulling me out. Nag-apologize si daddy kay Azriel at sa akin kahit na alam kong medyo disappointed sya.

“What the heck is wrong with her?!” I rant when we were in his car.

“Wala akong ginawa! I just asked her!”

Tahimik lamang na nakikinig si Azriel habang ini-istart ang kotse.

“She’ so paawa!” Dagdag ko pa.

Tiningnan ako ni Azriel nang may malalamlam na mga mata. Natahimik ako nang haplusin nya ang pisngi ko.

“I love you,” he said. He then leaned to me to give me one kiss. Pinagdikit nya rin ang mga noo namin.

His eyes look dark and angry. Hinalikan ko ang pisngi nya kaya napapikit sya.

“Let’s get your pandora collection?” Tanong nya. I nodded seriously and looked outside. Umayos na rin sya ng upo. Isinuot ko ang seatbelt at pinanood ang mga kotse sa labas. The car started to move, too.

“Come on, it’s not me who did you wrong… don’t be cold,” medyo frustrated nyang sabi.

“I know. I’m just not in the mood.”

He sighed. “Damn it. Let’s never come back to that house again. Your sister gets on my nerves everytime she does that to you,” seryoso nyang sabi.

Madilim na at tanging mga ilaw ng traffic lights at mga ilaw ng mga kotse ang nagbibigay ilaw sa buong daan. He looks so handsome tonight. He looks so ruthless and dangerous with his black clothes and the way his strong hands drive expertly.

“She’s pretty,” panghahamon ko.

“Who?” he asked.

“Her! My sister!” Paglilinaw ko. Tinitigan ko sya at hinintay ang reaksyon nya ngunit wala.

“She’s not.”

“She is!” giit ko.

“She’s not.”

“I said she’s pretty!”

“Fine. She may be pretty but she’s nothing compared to you when it comes to visuals.” seryoso nyang sabi.

“Wow!” hindi makapaniwala kong sabi. “So you find her pretty, huh?”

“What the fuck?” Mura nya at sinulyapan ako. Eyes on the road!

“Are you playing games with me, Seleira?”

“I’m not! You just said you find her pretty-”

“I didn’t.”

“You did!” Tumataas na ang boses ko sa iritasyon.

“I said she’s pretty, but-”

“SEE! You just said you find her pretty!” Frustrated kong sagot.

He looked at me for a bit with amusement in his eyes.

“Baby,” nanlalambing ang tono nya.

Umiwas ako ng tingin at tumingin na lamang sa labas.

“Baby, I said she maybe pretty but fuck… you’re a lot more prettier. It’s not even fair to compare the both of your beauties because she’s not on your level.”

Umirap ako at pinigilan ang pagngiti. Bolero talaga!

“Come on, wife, please…” tawag nya. Hindi pa rin ako tumingin o nagsalita.

“Wife,” he called.

I am so frustrated with my sister. I don’t know how to deal with her. She’s a crazy bitch. I am not sure if she likes my husband, but she shouldn’t dare. Ni hindi nga sya tinitingnan ni Azriel. Stupid bitch.

“Seleira, if you won’t look at me, I’m going to stop the car.”

“Bakit ba?!” irita kong tanong.

“What did I do? I didn’t do anything wrong… Please don’t be mad at me, baby.” parang bata nyang sabi.

Para akong natutunaw dahil sa kalambingan ni Azriel. He over reacts with almost anything related to me.

“I’m not mad,” sagot ko. Inilagay nya ang kamay sa hita ko. Agad kong hinawakan at pinaglaruan ang mahahaba nyang daliri.

“We’re okay, alright? No more petty fights,” sabi nya.

“My sister is a crazy bitch,” sabi ko. He sighed heavily.

“What do you think, Azriel?” tanong ko. Mas lalo syang bumuntong hininga.

“Don’t even try…” babala nya. Baka akala nya naglalaro na naman ako tapos ay aawayin sya.

“What?” inosente kong tanong.

“Stop with your questions about her.”

“I am just asking-”

“I don’t care about her, okay? Now, stop,” iritado nyang sabi. I giggled which made him more irritated.

“Maybe you like her because she’s pretty and she can cook. If she’s your wife, then maybe you’ll have fun in the kitchen, huh?”

He groaned in annoyed way. Nakangisi rin sya kaya nainis ako.

“Stop the crap!” Mura nya. “You’re jealous again. My baby’s jealous again.”

Iyan pala ang nagpapangisi sa kanya. Iritado kong inalis ang kamay nya sa hita ko. Tiningnan nya naman ako na akala mo’y na-offend sa kung ano.

“I’m just saying the truth. You like her-”

“I fucking don’t,” kalmado nyang sabi.

“Liar. Siguro hinihiling mo na sana kayo na lang ang naikasal!” Akusa ko. Agad naman syang napamura.

“I told you I don’t love or like anyone else,” sagot nya sa nagtitimping tono. Inihinto nya rin ang kotse sa gilid kaya bahagya akong kinabahan.

“You think I’ll stalk you and be a damn hopeless creep for five years just for nothing?” He seriously asked. Tinanggal nya rin ang seatbelt para makalapit sa skin.

“You know I’ve done everything just to make sure you’d end up to me,” he whispered.

“I’ve dreamed of having you in my arms. I’ve dreamed of being with you in the bath tub, me cooking your favorite food, spoiling you… I already achieved all of that but I still want those,” malambing nyang sabi at hinalikan ang pisngi ko.

“I’m still dreaming of you loving me and telling me how much you love me,” bitterness and pain were evident in his voice. Parang kinurot ang puso ko sa mga sinabi nya.

“I’m dreaming of you, taking care of me,” he added. Ibinaon nya ang mukha sa aking leeg.

Hindi na ako nakapagsalita.

“Fuck…” mahina nyang mura. “I’ll be crazy once I get you pregnant. An image of you, carrying our baby, is too good to be true.”

The father side of him melts me. Azriel is longing for a child. He’s a 26-year-old man and very ready to settle down.

But… I’m not.

“Please love me…” he begged.

Hindi ko alam pero parang nag-iinit ang mga sulok ng mata ko. Idagdag pa ang mga paghalik halik nya sa aking leeg na tila nagsusumamong mahalin ko sya.

Maybe not now. We still have a long run and I still don’t understand myself and my feelings for him.

But one thing is for sure- I don’t wanna lose him.

I hope I won’t.

I hope I won’t be too late.

Chapter 18

Real

I held the Pandora’s paper bag happily when we went out of the store. I have the latest collection now!

Nilingon ko si Azriel na kasalukuyang ipinapasok ang card sa kanyang black leather wallet. Mabuti at open 24 hours ang mall na ito.

Tinitigan nya ako pagkatapos at naglakad papalapit sa akin. Agad bumaba ang braso sa bewang ko.

“Let me carry it,” he said.

“Hindi naman mabigat!” I insist. He didn’t mind me and just get it from my hand.

“I’ll buy you a new iphone.” He said seriously. Kumapit ako sa braso nya at agad syang naapektuhan doon, napatalon pa ang loko.

I giggled but he just stared at me darkly. I pouted cutely and hugged his arm even tighter. His lips formed a smile but he looked away and started walking.

“Ayoko ng new phone, hubby” I said.

“Why not? I want us to have some matching phones.” He said seriously. May iilang nakatingin sa amin, pero kakaunti lang iyon dahil anong oras na. It’s late night already. If I was alone, I’ll be so scared being in a mall. But I’m with Azriel, I have nothing to worry about.

“I said I don’t want to have a new phone!” I said irritatedly and bite his arm. He groaned and I heard him chuckle.

“Fine, fine. What do you want then?”

You.

But I’m still on my period.

“Wala.”

We decided to just shop groceries because I told him I don’t want a new phone and I don’t want to go home yet either.

Ibinagsak ko lahat ng chocolates na yakap yakap ko sa aming cart. Toblerones, mostly. I love those! Hinahayaan lang naman ako ni Azriel sa mga pinaglalalagay ko. Hindi naman sya nagrereklamo o ano.

He’s the one who gets the essentials and necessities, while I just put chocolates and sweets.

“Azriel, saglit lang. Hahanapin ko yung korean banana milk,” I said. His eyebrows immediatley furrowed.

“I’ll go with you.”

Naglagay ako ng dalawang balot sa cart. I also saw korean milktea ice cream kaya naglagay din ako.

“This is so good, Azriel. You better taste this.” I said happily.

“Get some more,” he said in his usual serious tone.

We went home after shopping some groceries and buying my milktea. I didn’t drink it tho, bukas na lang.

Pagod na pagod ako pagkarating ng mansion. Azriel quietly get the shopping bags at the back of his car. Sinalubong naman kami ni Linda.

“Good evening, ma’am, sir!” masaya nyang bati. Humihikab na ako nang kinuha na nina Linda at Rose ang mga shopping bags.

“My milktea for tomorrow…” inaantok kong sabi.

“Yes, ma’am. Sa ref ko po ilalagay.”

Humikab ako ulit at kinusot kusot ang mga mata. I’m so sleepy. I want to lay down now.

Tahimik akong binuhat ni Azriel at napakapit agad ako sa leeg nya. Sumandal ako sa dibdib nya at hindi mapigilang hindi sya amuyin. He smells so good and manly.

“I wanna lay down now…” I murmurred. He didn’t say anything but I just felt him kiss my forehead.

Nang makarating sa kwarto ay inilapag nya ang paper bag bago ako dahan dahang ihiga sa kama. Sandali pa nya akong pinatungan at binigyan ng mga halik. I pouted and looked at him with my sleepy eyes.

One last kiss and he stood back. Lumuhod sya sa gilid ng kama at tinatanggal ang sandals ko. Natawa ako nang masahiin nya pa saglit ang paa ko.

Then I felt him kiss it.

“Azriel!” antok na antok kong tawag.

“Hmm?”

“Don’t kiss my feet.”

He chuckled with his bedroom sexy voice. “I worship you so much.”

Umirap ako kahit na hindi naman nya nakita. Dahan dahan akong tumayo dahil kailangan ko pang magpalit ng pad at maghilamos.

“Where are you going?” he asked.

“Bathroom.”

“Let’s spend some time in the bathtub, shall we?” He offered, his voice slightly husky now. Inaantok na rin siguro.

His offer is tempting. Me and him in a bath tub full of warm water and bubbles, that’s so relaxing.

“I have my period,” I said and frowned.

“But you want it,” he concluded, going to me now. Niyakap nya ako mula sa gilid.

“But I have my period,” I repeat. He frowned dramatically which made me laugh a bit.

“I don’t mind having a bloody bath at all,” he bargained. Umiling iling ako.

Yuck.

Naghilamos ako sa banyo at nagpalit ng pad. I also changed clothes and brushed my teeth.

Si Azriel ay nasa shower pero hindi nya naman isinara ang sliding door kaya nakikita ko ang likod nya. He’s fucking naked. The guts of this man! Porke lalaking lalaki at nakakaattract ang katawan. I can see his naked body from here, mabuti at nakatalikod sya.

“My ghad, close the door, Azriel!” Sigaw ko habang nasa harap ng lababo.

“Wife, come, join me here.” He said. I really want to, but I don’t want us be covered by my period blood.

“I’m sleeping!” I said and went out. I even heard his over acting groan. Napatawa na lang ako sa kanya.

Agad akong humiga sa kama at nagkumot ng hanggang baywang. Humarap din ako sa dingding at hinanap muli ang antok. Before finally falling asleep, I felt his large warm body, hugging me from the back.

“I love you, Seleira. I love you so much.” he mumbled and I felt soft kisses on my naked shoulders.

The next days went smoothly. Three days have passed and we did nothing but cuddle, watch movies and just basically spend time with each other. I am so happy that my period ended today.

Today is aso our last day from our week leave. Umagang umaga ay naghahanda na kami sa pagpapasok. I wore a formal white dress and did my make up. Not that thick, tho, dahil wala na kaming oras.

“Good morning, ma’am, sir.”

“Good to see you again, sir!”

Binati pa kami nang maraming beses. Isang tango lang ang ginawa ko. Nasa baywang ko ang braso ni Azriel nang pumasok kami ng elevator.

“I’ll go out first. Mauuna ang floor ko,” I said. He nodded and pulled me closer to his chest. Inilagay ko ang magkabila kong kamay sa dibdib nya at tiningala sya.

“Text me,” he said. I smiled and nodded. He stared at me with his serious eyes.

“Text me with long messages,” he added. Naging tawa ang ngiti ko. I only reply to him sometimes and it’s really short.

“That’s what I do naman ah?”

“Tsk,” ismid nya. “Really? You only reply one letter, K.” inis nyang sabi.

Natatawa kong hinaplos ang panga nya. Suplado syang nag-iwas tingin. Ang sungit ng gwapo.

“Oo na!” Sabi ko.

He kissed me one more time before finally letting me out when we’ve reached my floor. Lumabas ako at nilingon sya. Para akong nasasaktan nang iwan sya doon, nakatingin kasi sya sa akin tapos ang mga emosyon sa mata ay halo halo. I smiled cutely and wave. He just stared at me until the doors closed.

Tinanguan ko ang mga bumabati sa akin. I first went to Mrs. Long Finger’s office to greet her. She greet me back and told me the stuffs I need to do in my office.

Napatalon ako nang makita ang bulto ni Ysmael sa office ko. He’s in his usual brown vintage suit. Seryosong nakatitig sa akin at akala mo’y naiinis sa kung ano.

“Ysmael,” I said. “What are you doing here?”

“Are you okay?” He asked, medyo inis pa rin.

“H-huh? Yup.”

“I’m just asking how are you because last time we met, you were crying your heart out because of your father’s bullshits-”

“I’m one of those bullshits,” I said lazily and walk to my table. Sinundan naman nya ako ng tingin.

Hindi sya nagsalita pero alam kong naiinis sya sa sinabi ko at naiinis din sya sa iba pang bagay na hindi ko naman alam.

“I’m the product of his mistake, so basically, I’m one of his bullshits-”

“That wasn’t what I meant, Seleira. Don’t put words in my mouth.” Seryoso nyang sabi.

Kumunot agad ang noo ko atsaka sya tiningnan. Inilapag ko ang bag sa table atsaka nagsalita.

“What’s your problem? Bakit parang inis na inis ka? Kadarating ko lang-”

“That’s the problem! Kadarating mo lang!” He answered angrily. Hindi ako makapaniwalang nakatingin sa kanya. He’s gone crazy!

“Because you and I know what happened and I needed a break, alam iyon ni Mrs. Johanss.” Nagtitimpi kong sabi. Sinuklay ko rin ang buhok ko gamit ang mga daliri sa iritadong paraan. Napatingin naman sya doon.

“I know you need a break, Seleira. But why does that include Azriel?!” Inis nyang tanong.

That. Bingo. Ayan ang kinagagalit nya.

“What?” I asked.

Namumula na ang mukha nito sa sobrang inis. Did I already say he’s handsome? Yes, he is. But Azriel is really something more.

“O-okay. Fine, I’m sorry, Azriel was with me. Naging mahirap siguro mamahala dito mag-isa kapag wala sya-”

“That’s not my damn point, Seleira.” madiin nyang sabi at nagsimulang maglakad sa direksyon ko. Nataranta ako pero nang tumigil sya sa harap ng table ay kumalma naman, there’s a table between us.

“Then what is it?” I asked. Napaatras ko nang sinubukan nyang ilapit ang mukha sa akin. Napatingin agad ako sa paligid, my walls are transparent! Mabuti at working hours kaya wala.

“Just leave. Mag-aaway kami ni Azriel pag nakita tayong ganito.” I said and sit on my swivel chair. Bumaba naman ang tingin nya sa akin.

“You’re just married for convienience.”

“I know. But I’m trying to be loyal as possible.” I reasoned. Maging ako ay hindi sure sa nararamdaman.

Pinalayas ko na si Ysmael sa office ko. Nahirapan pa ako nang kaunti, he’s so weird! Parehas sila ng pinsan nya! Though Azriel is much creepier back then.

I just put my ass to work buong oras. I miss working, tho. The workloads, as usual, aren’t that heavy.

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

What are you doing?

Napangisi ako sa text nya. Obvious ba kung anong ginagawa ko?

Ako:

working (+_+)

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

You told me you’ll reply long. You only replied with a word.

Para akong baliw na tumatawa dito. Halos marinig ko ang naiinis nyang boses sa isip ko.

Ako:

I am working. B-)

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

Other girls text long and with heart emojis.

Kumunot ang noo ko. Hey, hey, hey, Mister. Did you just say that other girls text you and uses hearts?!

Ako:

So you’re texting with other girls who texts long and uses hearts, huh.

Muntik ko nang mabitawan ang cellphone nang mag-ring ito. The mad brute is calling!

I clicked the red button, not answering his call.

Tumawag pa sya ulit ng dalawang beses bago sya mag-text.

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

Seleira.

I can almost hear his warning voice, demanding for my attention. I giggle and called him. Mabilis naman nya iyong sinagot.

“Yes, hubby?” Inosente kong sabi. I heard his annoyed groan which made me giggle.

“You’re declining my calls in purpose,” he said in his low voice.

“I d-didn’t!”

“Tss,” ismid nya. “I have no other girls. I only text you.”

“But you said some girls text in a long way and with hearts!” I pouted.

“I just know. Some couples do that.”

Umirap ako kahit na hindi nya nakikita. Iniirapan kita, Azriel!

“Do that to me, too.” he demanded, his voice getting huskier. I bit my lip to surpress my smile although he can’t see me.

“Hmmm, pag-iisipan ko!” I laughed but he sighed.

“Let’s have lunch together here in my office for later. I’ll order food.” Pag-iiba nya ng usapan.

I giggle, “Can I request foods, please?”

Hindi sya agad nakasagot. “Can you please stop giggling cutely and making your voice cuter? Makes me want to see you now.” Seryoso nyang sabi.

“I’m not trying to be c-cute!” My cheeks burned in embarrasment. I didn’t, right?

“I know, baby…” namamaos nyang sabi. “You’re not trying to be cute, you already are.”

Bolero talaga! I smiled crazily to myself.

“H-heh! Gusto ko mamaya ng fried chicken, rice, burger, coke-”

“Baby…” malambing nyang tawag.

“at fries!” I continued.

“Baby, those are basically fastfood. Choose something else.” Mahinahon nyang sabi. Umiling iling ako.

“No way!”

“It’s for our lunch, pretty. I’ll order on a fine dining restau-”

“But I want fastfood!” I insisted.

“No.” he said seriously. Napaawang ang bibig ko.

“D-did you just say no to me?”

“Baby, I didn’t mean to-”

“No. You just say no to me.”

Narinig ko ang frustrated nyang tawa. Mas lalo akong nainis.

“My spoiled baby got offended, huh?” He said sexily. “Fine. Fastfood it is.”

The rest of the hours went by smoothly. After the call ended, I was in a light mood while doing my work.

I haven’t seen Ysmael since this morning. Tumayo na ako nang mag-lunch break. Should I tell Azriel about Ysmael’s weird behavior earlier? Gusto ko pero wag na lang. He’ll get pissed and maybe beat the heck out of Ysmael again.

Nag-retouch ako saglit bago umakyat. My phone beeped for a text, surely it’s from Azriel.

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

I’ll pick you there.

Ako:

Wag na. Paakyat na ako =_=

Hindi sya kaagad nakareply kaya lumabas na ako ng office. Kumaway ako kay Mrs. Long Fingers at bahagyang nag-bow. Dumiretso na rin ako sa private elevator. Ayoko nang sumakay dyan sa isa at masyadong obvious ang kaplastikan nila.

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

Where are the hearts?

Ako:

Paakyat 💛 na 💜 ako 🖤 so don’t ❤️ bother 💚 to pick 💙 me up 💋🧡

I sarcastically replied. The brute didn’t reply anymore. Inirapan ko ang phone saka lumabas ng elevator nang nasa top floor na ako.

I opened the door of his office and didn’t knock anymore. Nakita ko sya at nanliit pa ang mga mata ko nang makita syang nagpipigil ng ngiti. Namumula pa ang tainga habang nakatitig sa sariling cellphone. Halos hindi pa ako mapansin.

I walked towards him and saw him staring at our conversation. Specifically, sa last message ko.

“Hey,” I said. Nagulat sya at halos mabitawan ang phone. He looked at me like I caught him murdering someone.

“What?” Natatawa kong tanong. Nag-iwas sya ng tingin. Hinawakan ko ang namumula nyang mga tainga.

“Why are these red?” I asked. Masuyo nya akong hinila sa kanyang kandungan. He gave me one soft kiss.

“Why are your ears red?” I asked. He didn’t answer and just stared at me and happiness is evident on his dark eyes.

“You probably watched porn,” I concluded. Kumunot ang noo nya. Napakapit ako sa balikat nya nang higpitan nya ang hapit sa aking bewang.

“Where did you learnt that?” Tanong nya.

I pouted and traced his jaw. “Why? I’m not that innocent. And you really watched porn!” I accused.

Ipinikit nya nang mariin ang mga mata nya. “I didn’t.”

“True ba?”

“I really didn’t.”

Sungit. Inirapan ko sya at hinayaan syang isiksik ang mukha sa aking leeg. Pinaglaruan ko na lamang ang buhok nya. Azriel is such a high maintenance grownass man.

Napatingin ako sa pinto nang bumukas ito at iniluwa si Franco. He have paperbags of a famous fastfood. Nang malanghap ang amoy ay agad akong nagutom.

Tila propesyunal na ito at hindi sinulyapan ang posisyon namin. Pilit kong kinakalas ang braso ni Azriel but he doesn’t want to let go.

Tahimik na inihanda ni Franco ang pagkaij sa maliit na dining table ng office ni Azriel.

“Azriel, nakakahiya” I whispered.“

“He doesn’t care,” palusot nya, pinaghahalikan pa ang leeg ko. Nang matapos si Franco ay hindi pa rin ito tumitingin sa amin. Seryoso syang nag-bow at saka umalis.

“Let’s go!” I said. “I’m hungry!”

He kissed my cheek before standing up, still carrying me. “Put me down,” I said.

Hindi sya nakinig at gusto pang nakakalong ako sa kanya habang kumakain. “Azriel, I want to sit on my chair.”

“I am your chair.”

Inirapan ko na. Sumuko sya at pinaghila na lamang ako ng upuan. He put rice on my plate and a piece of fried chicken.

The rest of the hours went by smoothly. I haven’t met Ysmael again which is I’m secretly happy about. He’s so weird! I don’t know what’s with him.

Nang mag-end ang working hours ko ay madilim na. Nag-text na rin si Azriel na hintayin ko sya dito kaya’t nag-retouch na lamang ako.

We ate on a fancy restaurant for dinner before going home. Linda, as usual, is on the door with the annoying smirk plastered on her face.

“Good evening, ma’am, sir!” Masigla nyang bati.

“Dinner po?”

“We ate already,” Azriel answered. Malisosya akong tiningnan nito. What? We didn’t do anything! Not yet! Kakairita talaga sya.

I took a shower and cleaned myself. Azriel did, too, after me. Pareho kaming humiga sa kama matapos kong magpatuyo ng buhok.

I am currently scrolling on my phone. Nakatalikod din ako kay Azriel. He plabts soft kisses on my back which heats my body up.

“Hmm…”

Tumaas ang mga halik nya sa aking batok. I called him but he’s busy kissing me. Gumapang na rin ang kamay nya pababa sa aking bewang. Unti unti iyong pumunta sa aking dibdib.

“Az… Azriel.”

Hinarap ko sya at medyo nagulat pa ako nang halikan nya ako agad. He kisses me hungrily.

“I waited for this for a week,” napapaos nyang sabi. I laughed but I immediatley moaned when his kisses went down on my collar bones.

Mabilis kong iniangat ang kamay ko para mas madali nyang matanggal ang aking pang-itaas. I removed the hook of my bra and he quicky throw it into the floor.

“Oh!” I moaned when he started sipping my nipple like a big baby. His other hand is massaging my other mountain. This feels so great! Idinidiin ko pa ang mukha nya sa aking dibdib.

“I miss you,” he said, reffering to this and not literally me.

He then helped me remove my shorts and panties. His large warm hand immediatley covered my clit. I arch my back with the pleasure.

Titig na titig sya sa akin habang ginagalaw ang kanyang kamay. I can’t help but to release soft moans.

“You’re dripping wet,” he commented with so much desire in his voice. I bite my lip while staring at him which made him curse.

Naramdaman ko ang unti unting pagpasok ng mahaba nyang daliri sa akin. Napapikit ako at napaungol pa lalo.

“Azriel! Ohh!”

“Fuck.” he whispered. Naalerto ako nang unti unti syang bumaba. Oh my! He’s going to eat me!

“Azriel- A-ah! Oh…” I moaned loudly when his hot mouth covered my womanhood. He licks and sips it and he enjoys it so much. Ipinatong pa ang magkabila kong binti sa balikat nya kung kaya’t mas nabaon ang mukha nya sa akin.

“Ah! Ah!” Tuluyan nang lumambing ang boses ko dahil sa sensasyon.

“Please, Azriel…” I begged. I felt his tongue slowly entering me and all I can do is moan and hold onto his hair.

“Oh my… Azriel, what the!”

Naglilikot na rin ako. I badly want him to enter me now. Halos mapunit na rin ang labi ko kakakagat.

“Hubby please, I want you now…” I begged. Umahon sya at tinitigan ako. He looks so steamy hot while licking his own lips, my juices are still on his chin.

He’s only wearing his boxers. His huge member is now erect and I can almost see it now. Babangon sana ako para hubarin iyon pero madali nya akong pinatungan ulit.

“Remove it please?” I said. I’ll literally cry if I won’t get laid by him tonight.

“Shhh,” he said and started kissing my neck again. Ipinulupot ko ang aking mga binti sa bewang nya at idiniin ang sarili sa kanya. He groaned because of my naughty movement.

“Please please… I want…” I begged. “Please fuck me now, Azriel…” Agad syang napamura.

“I’ll make love to you,” he corrected. He caress my butt which made me feel wet even more. Damn it, Azriel.

Mabilis nyang hinubad ang kanyang boxers. It’s hard and erect. I touched it and it released its precum. Agad hinuli ni Azriel ang mga kamay ko. I looked at him with sad eyes.

“I want,” I said.

“Baby…” namamaos nyang tawag. Hinalikan nya ako ulit at ibinaba ko ulit ang kamay ko doon. Ang tigas tigas at ang laki. He moans lowly with every stroke I make.

“Ang tigas,” I said. Napamura ulit sya atsaka tinanggal ang kamay ko.

Hinalikan nya ako ulit at halos mawala ako sa wisyo tuwing tumatama ang kanya sa akin. Ipinipirmi nya ang naglilikot kong bewang at handa nang pasukin ako.

“Please…” I begged.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko at napaungol nang unti unti itong pumasok. He also moan with his low husky voice which makes my body crave for more.

“Fuck…” nahihirapan nyang mura. His face is red now and his eyes reflect love, lust and desire “It’s even tighter now.”

Kasabay ng pagbaon nya sa akin ay ang pagbaon din ng kuko ko sa likod nya.

“Ahhh! Oh my! I-I feel so full” I mumbled. He groans and started thrusting. With his every thrust, I am close to losing my mind.

Lalo na nang ipatong nya ang isa kong binti sa balikat nya at binilisan ang paglalabas masok sa akin.

“Seleira…” he called. He looks so hot. Nakaawang ang bibig at titig na titig sa akin. Minsan ay napapapikit at tumitingala habang umuungol sa kanyang mababang boses.

He put my other leg on his shoulder and he thrust even deeper. I was near to release my cum when he ordered me to face the other side.

I obediently do it. I turned my back at him and I moaned as soon as I feel him entering me from the back.

Ilang mura ang pinakawalan nya hanggang sa mabaon iyon. Halos tumirik ang mga mata ko nang magsimula syang gumalaw. I hold on to the sheets and buried my face on the pillows as I moan loudly, not minding those who can hear.

Azriel’s low moan makes me wet and horny much more. He then teases me when he started moving slower. He also caress my butt.

“Baby, look at me…” he commanded. Nilingon ko sya at titig na titig sya sa akin. Putol putol na ang ungol ko at sumasabay na sa kanyang paggalaw nang bilisan nyang muli.

One more pump and I release mine. Hingal na hingal ako habang sya ay patuloy pa rin sa paggalaw.

“Baby, I’m near” He said and as his moan is becoming aggresive.

“I love you, Seleira. I love you, I love you. Ah, fuck… I fucking love you”

A few more move and I felt his juices explode within me. It feels so good.

Bumagsak ako at dumapa sa kama dahil sa hingal. He didn’t pull out immediatley. Pumatong sya sa akin at pinaghahalikan muli ang batok ko.

“Ah…” I moaned. He’s fucking huge and I feel so full.

“I want more, wife…” he whispered to my ear. I am still breathing heavily but I’m fine to let him have more.

“Can I do you again, wife?” He asked in a sexy bedroom voice. Still good, Azriel, still asking for consent.

“Yes, hubby.”

He pulled out and he carried me to the bathroom, where he wants to do the next rounds. I actually feel excited and hot again because we haven’t done anything the past week.

He’s just so strong, hard, and obsessive over it. We made it again and he’s more passionate about it now. He whispers praises and I love yous to me every now and then.

“Still cold?” he whispered to my ear. I nodded. “I made the water warm.”

We’re here in our bathtub with our usual positions after our hot making love. Sumadal ako sa dibdib nya at dinama ang yakap nya mula sa likod. Binuhusan pa ni Azriel ng bubble bath kung kaya’t kumapal pa ang bula.

His strong legs are possessively jailing my pale weak ones. He buries his head on my shoulder and still putting love bites.

We spent 30 minutes before finally dressing up. My legs were still jelly so Azriel helped me wear my night gown. Humiga ako sa malambot na kama at natantong ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko.

I feel happy.

Azriel makes me feel special and happy. We don’t just make love, he also praises me and tells me how much he love me. His praises makes my insecurities in my body go away. He heals me.

Tumawa ako nang sumiksik ulit sya sa akin sa kama. Hinahaplos haplos ang buhok ko at hinahalikan din ang noo ko.

“I love you.” he whispered. I pouted and endured the dancing butterflies on my tummy. I gave him a peck on his cheek which made him look away.

Humikab ako at tinitigan sya gamit ang inaantok na mga mata.

“I still want to cuddle,” he said seriously, hugging my waist tighter. Hinaplos ko naman ang braso nya. “You gonna sleep?”

Hindi pa man ako nakasasagot ay nag-ring na ang cellphone ko. I couldn’t reach it because the brute is clinging onto me so bad.

“Az, wait lang…”

“Who could it be?” He asked. I don’t know, it’s late at night.

It’s daddy.

“Hello, daddy?” I greet. Umayos ako ng upo.

“Hello, Seleira.”

“N-napatawag po kayo?” I asked and turned the loudspeaker on. Umupo rin si Azriel at hindi mapigilan ang sariling yumakap sa akin habang nakikinig.

“So… yeah, sorry it’s late at night. Remember when I let you work in Nickolsons instead of our company?” He asked out of the blue.

“Y-yeah?”

“Well, I let you work there because I want you to know and experience other’s first before our own.”

“O-okay?” Naguguluhan kong sabi. Pinalo ko pa ang kamay ni Azriel na naglalakbay sa dibdib ko, hindi na nga kalakihan eh, pinaggigigilan nya pa.

“Well, I want to do that also to Anikka.”

Agad kumunot ang noo ko at sumeryoso. What?

“B-but daddy, there are other companies out there…” I said.

“Yeah. But isn’t it better to have you in her environment? And also, magaling ang kompanya ni Azriel kung kaya’t matetraining sya nang husto gayong sya ang susunod na mamamahala ng kompanya natin.” Mahaba nyang litanya.

Parang kinukurot ang puso ko sa mga narinig. Everything makes sense now. Kaya nya pala hindi ako pinilit o isinuggest man lang na kuhain nag kursong Business Ad dahil sa iba naman pala sya nag-iinvest, sa kanyang tunay na anak naman pala.

“T-that’s the reason why you didn’t even offer business course for me to take?” I asked. Naramdaman kong natigilan si daddy at ganoon din si Azriel. Pinaharap ako ni Azriel sa kanya habang tahimik na nakikinig.

“D-dear…” daddy nervously called. “I know you don’t like business either so I didn’t force you. You would be so pressured-”

“You should’ve ask me at least.” nanliliit na ang boses ko. He should’ve asked me. Kahit iyon na lang sana.

“I’m sorry…”

“It’s fine, daddy. Kung business ang natapos nya at talagang passionate sya, and then go.” I said coldly. Daddy laughed wholeheartedly.

“Thank you! I knew it, maasahan ka talaga. Hindi nasayang ang pagsspoil ko saiyo non.” He said. Hindi ko na maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko.

“Can I talk to your husband then?”

“Sure.” I said and passed the phone to Azriel. He’s staring intently at me as he put it in his ear. Tila binabasa nya ang isip ko.

“Hello,” he greet using his low baritone voice.

Daddy straightforwardly told him about what he wanted. Naiinis ako at hindi ko alam kung kanino. Isn’t it just fair for Anikka to have the company since she’s the real child? And will it really be unfair if it will be mine?

The answer is I don’t know.

“As long as my wife agrees to it, tito.” He said.

“W-well, ah, I think she’ll agree, Azriel.” Daddy then laugh. “You really love my daughter. I’m so glad.”

“Do you agree having your sister in my company?” He asked, he looks so concern too. Hinahaplos pa ang buhok ko.

“Yeah,” I answered.

I literally don’t mind at all. I don’t think this is all her plan though, ganito talaga si daddy noon pa man sa akin.

And also, she can’t get any closer to Azriel. If she will, then might as well, I confront her again and slap her when she starts crying.

Just kidding, I mean, it’s so easy. Azriel doesn’t even like her so there’s nothing to worry about. I’m just doing this because I love daddy so much.

“She said yes. So, yeah. I’ll make a way to have her a place in my company,” Azriel said, pulling me into his chest now.

“If you won’t ask, Anikka is brilliant. She took business ad and she topped three on Top Notcher Board Exam.”

Umirap ako at mas lalo lang nainis. Niyakap ko na lang ang dibdib ni Azriel at pinagdiskitihan ang balahibo nya sa dibdib. Agad nyang hinuli ang kamay ko.

“Oh,” Azriel sounds uninterested. “I’ll give her a position that’s something higher, then?”

“Yes, please.” Daddy answered enthusiastically.

“No, I’m asking my wife,” Azriel corrected. Awkward namang natawa si daddy.

“Yeah,” I lazily said. I don’t care anymore. All I want is having Azriel here.

The call ended and we all both agreed. Humiga ako at humiga na rin si Azriel. Nag-aalala syang nakatingin sa akin.

“I’m worried,” he said.

“I’m sorry, Azriel. My family is full of drama” I said and laughed but he remained serious.

“Is it really okay, though?”

“It is okay and I’m okay,” I said and smiled. I also kissed him on his cheek. “You don’t like her naman eh, diba?”

Agad kumunot ang noo nito. “Of course,” agad nyang sagot. “The fuck.”

Chapter 19

Delusional

Just like that, a week passed again and Azriel already has a place for Anikka in the company. He told me that yesterday. So basically, he’ll gonna be meeting the witch tomorrow.

Nanginginig ako nang magising sa kalagitnaan ng madaling araw. I’m freezing cold and my head hurts. Umuulan din.

I opened my eyes weakly and look for Azriel’s body. I found him at the other side of the bed, hugging a pillow as if it’s me. Nanghihina kong tinanggal ang unan at sumiksik sa mainit at malaki nyang katawan.

“Hubby,” I called weakly. It’s so cold and I think I have a flu.

Sumiksik pa ako lalo sa leeg nya. He groaned lowly and hugged me in his sleep. Medyo naiinitan ako dahil doon, but the air con is still low.

“Hubby…”

“Hmmm,” he unconciously moaned. Tinapik tapik ko ang balikat nya.

“Azriel,” I called again. I feel dizzy and I’m so cold. I think I’m sick, pero okay pa naman ako kahapon ah? And I’m sure I’m not pregnant either, I never fail to secretly take my menstrual regulation pills.

“Hubby,” I called, a little bit more and I’m gonna cry.

Stupid boy, why isn’t he waking up! I feel so bad. I really think I’m sick.

“Hubby!” I cried. I slightly punch his strong shoulders which made him groan.

“Wakey wakey!”

“Hmmm… what is it?” Instead of saying what I want, I just end up being attracted with his bedroom hot voice. Medyo paos pa at saka mababa.

Niyakap nya pa ako lalo at pinatungan ng binti, nang-aangkin.

“Hubby…”

“Shhh shhh,” he hushed me and started kissing my forehead. He maybe thinks I had a nightmare.

“Hubby, I’m so cold…” I whispered. “Azriel, please.”

He cleared his throat and I felt him forced open his eyes. Hinaplos nya ang buhok ko at tinitigan ako. How can someone be this handsome even when he just woke up?

“Why are you crying?” He asked, still in his low just-wake-up voice.

“I-I’m so cold… and I c-can’t wake you up,” I said softly. He hushed me again and wiped the tears out of my cheek. Hinalikan nya pa ang noo ko bago sya bumangon.

“I’ll turn the aircon off,” he said as he stood up. Get the remote and turn it off. Mabilis syang bumalik sa akin at binalot nya ang mga katawan namin ng kumot.

“What do you feel?”

“I feel dizzy,” mahina kong sabi. Agad lumapat ang likod ng kanyang palad sa aking noo.

“You’re temperature is normal, I think,” he said. “Let me get the thermometer.”

“No, ayos lang. Mawawala rin ito paggising ko.”

“Then maybe that’s just cold. I’ll get you a tablet, drink it before sleeping,” he said with so much concern in his voice.

Tumango ako. Mabilis syang humalik sa akin bago nya buksan ang ilaw. Nakita ko na naman tuloy ang kanyang katawan. He’s only wearing his usual boxers. Aangal pa sana ako nang papalabas na sya pero naiisip na wala naman nang gising na maid.

I reached for my phone though I feel dizzy and I feel my nose clogged. It’s 1:45 AM. Para akong lalong magkakasakit nang makita ang oras. Ayoko talaga ng ganito. I hate waking up and the sun is still far to rise.

Inantay ko si Azriel at umupo na muna. Maya maya pa ay nandyan na sya at seryosong may dalang tray.

There’s milk, a tablet for cold flu, water, and a piece of strawberry-milk cake. He also have some sliced apples on the side. Napangiti ako pero sya ay mukha pa ring nag-aalala.

“Breathe, Azriel,” I tease.

“Tss,” ismid nya. “Come here.”

Lumapit ako sa kanya nang ilapag nya ang tray sa table para sa kama. Ipinulupot nya muna ang kumot sa katawan ko. I pouted when I find him cute while seriously doing these stuffs.

“Don’t be so happily cute there, you are sick, Seleira.” Inis na inis nyang sabi. I can’t help but to giggle.

“Let’s see a doctor if your cold stays for three days,” he added.

Hindi naman talaga malala, he’s just over reacting again. I just feel dizzy because of the cold.

The warm milk helped me calm down my a bit shaking body. I took a picture of the foods and he sighed, hindi ko kasi nasubo ang sinusubo nyang cake.

“Why did you deactivate your real account?” I asked. “In Instagram?” dagdag ko pa.

“Be quiet and eat all of this so you can get better later when you wake up,” pambabalewala nya sa sinabi ko.

“I said why did you deactivate your account?” I repeat.

“I get too many notifications, wife. I just created that to stalk you but people followed me. The fuck,” mura nya. Natawa ako at pabiro syang hinampas.

“Stalker!” I accused.

“I know,” he admitted.

“Stalker. Did you know that you were creeping me out back in my college days?”

“I know,” he answered. “You got many boys.”

Ngumisi ako at natutuwa syang pinanood. He still can’t get over those.

“Hmmm sino ang natatandaan mo?” Tanong ko. Madilim nya akong tinitigan.

“The one who I caught you with! You were playing his hair,” puno ng hinanakit ang boses nya. Natawa ako ulit.

“Oh, that was Rehan, I think… Huwag ka mag-alala, hindi naman kami naggagawa ng mga below the belt noon. Lahat naman sila hindi nakahawak sa akin.”

“I know,” napapaos nyang boses.

“We just kissed. Sa lips at minsan sa leeg-”

“Stop it,” nahihirapan nyang sabi. Nandidilim na rin ang aura nya. I pouted and nodded. Kumapit ako sa braso nya at suplado nya naman akong tiningnan.

“What? Feed me na, hubby.”

He sighed.

“Please?” I eyed him cutely which made him sigh heavier.

“Fine.”

I put the picture of the tray in my story and put a little caption: thanks and I mentioned his real account. His phone beeped because of it so he cluelessly get in from the drawer.

“Tss…” nangingiti nyang sabi nang makita iyon.

“What?” natutuwa kong tanong. Umiwas sya ng tingin at may multo ng ngiti sa labi.

I didn’t eat everything. I just drank the milk, two slices of apples and I took the tablet. I hope I’ll be well later.

“Thank you, Azriel,” mahina kong sabi habang nilalapag nya sa gilid ang table para makatulog kami ulit.

He didn’t answer verbally, he just gave me a quick kiss on the forehead before turning the lights off. He turned on the lamp tho, so dim lang ang ilaw sa kwarto.

Humiga na sya sa tabi ko. I went closer to him to give him a kiss in the lips. Medyo natigilan man, ay agad nakasagot. Humawak pa sa aking bewang.

“I love you, let’s sleep?”

“Yeah.”

I woke up with a lighter feeling. Bagamat nahihilo nang kaunti ay bumangon ako. Sinisipon pa rin ako kaya siguro nahihilo ako.

Pumasok si Linda na may dalang tray ng breakfast.

“Good morning, ma’am!” Masigla nyang bati. “Ano na po ang pakiramdam nyo? Nabanggit ni sir na sinisipon kayo.”

“I feel a bit dizzy,” paos kong sabi. “Oo, sinisipon ako.”

“Naku, mabuti at nilutuan ko kayo nitong sopas!”

Nagutom at natakam ako bigla sa sinabi nya. Pinalapag ko na sa kanya ang soup. May gamot ulit at tubig. Sinulyapan ko ang orasan at nakitang alas siete pa lang ng umaga.

“Si Azriel?” tanong ko. Inilapag ni Linda ang table for bed saka ang sopas.

“Nasa baba po ata, ma’am,” sagot nya. Sinulyapan nya ako bago magsalita muli. “Ah, ma’am…”

“Ano?” tanong ko at hinihipan ang sopas.

“Ano po kasi…” humina ang boses nya. “Nung nakaraang araw, maglalaba sana ako noon.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at agad dinaluhan ng kaba. Did she saw lipstick stains on Azriel’s polos?!

“What is it?” Medyo aggressive kong tanong. “M-may lipstick stains sa polo ni Azriel? M-may babae sya?” Nanginginig ang boses kong tanong.

“Gaga.”

Kumunot ang noo ko sa kanya. Agad naman syang natauhan sa sinabi nya. Did she just mutter a curse on me!

“A-ay sorry, ma’am. Hindi ko po iyon sinadyang lumabas sa bibig ko.”

“What are you supposed to say?!” I frustratedly asked.

“Sa closet nyo po, ma’am,” mas lalong humina ang boses nya. “Nagte-take po kayo ng birth control pills?”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at agad tumingin sa paligid na akala mo may makaririg sa amin.

“Teka, ma’am-”

“Listen, do not tell this to Azriel, okay? Magagalit sya!” Pabulong kong sigaw. Sumimangot naman sya.

“Naku, ma’am… Maawa naman po kayo kay sir. Alam kong gustong gusto nya na magkaanak-”

“I know, don’t make me feel bad about it. Hindi pa ako handa.”

“Pero umaasa si sir panigurado…” mahina at malungkot ang boses nya. Nakokonsensya tuloy ako. Umiling ako at isinawala ang nararamdaman.

“Ano ka ba! I said I’m not ready for it! Bakit hindi ikaw ang magpabuntis?!”

Para kaming mga tangang nagbubulungan dito.

“Kay sir, ma’am? Aba, okay lang, gusto ko ng gwapo o magandang anak.”

Pabiro ko syang sinabunutan at inirapan, “Bruha ka!”

Humagikhik sya at para akong mahihilo lalo kakairap sa kanya. Maya maya ay sumeryoso sya ulit.

“Ma’am, paano yan kapag nalaman ni sir? Siguradong lagot ka na naman.”

“Anong ako lang? Ikaw din idadamay ko kung sakali,” I said, tasting the soup.

“Huh? Paano ako nadamay dito, ma’am?”

“Because you know about it!”

“Edi sasabihin ko na ngayon-”

“Fine! Fine! Do not tell him about it, you evil witch.”

“E-eh… b-babaguhin nyo pa ba iyong pinagtataguan nyo?” tanong nya, mukha talaga syang nakokonsensya.

“Nope. Azriel doesn’t meddle with my stuffs. Ikaw lang dahil pakialamera ka,” Inirapan ko sya. She still seems uncomfortable and threatened.

Para kaming mga kriminal na nahuli nang bumukas ang pinto, napatalon pa kami pareha ni Linda. Azriel is standing on the door with his usual office clothes. Deretso ang tingin sa akin at naglakad papalapit.

“How are you feeling?”

I thought he heard everything! I almost forgot that our room is soundproof (because of bed purposes) Agad nagpaalam si Linda na kakaba-kaba pa rin.

“Hubby!” I sweetly called and raise both of my arms, waiting for him to hug me. His expression suddenly soften because of my childlike gesture.

Yumakap sya sa akin at nanggigigil na pinaulanan ako ng halik sa noo. I giggled and pouted, making him squeeze me even more.

He smell and look so good. Maayos na nakasuklay ang medyo basa pang buhok. Though I like his messy hair more whenever he’s just at home, I like this style too. His hairstyle adds up to his dominant look together with his black suit.

One day, I’ll be ready to have a child with you, too.

I buried my face on his neck and smelled his manly scent. “Ang bango mo,” I commented.

He let out a low chuckle before stroking my hair softly. “You, too. You smell so good and feminine.”

“How are you feeling?” He repeat his question.

“Nahihilo na lang ako nang kaunti tapos sinisipon,” sagot ko at kumalas sa kanya para kumain muli. “Kumain ka na?”

“Yes… You should be at home today.”

Agad akong umiling iling. There’s no way I’m staying here, the witch will show up in his company today!

“Papasok ako!” Desidido kong sabi. Hindi sya agad sumagot at kinuha sa akin ang kutsara para sya mismo ang magpakain sa akin.

“But you’re not feeling well…” mahinahon nyang sabi at hinahaplos ang buhok ko.

“Okay lang ako! Please, hubby?” I begged and made my eyes cuter. He sighs and nods.

“Fine, but stay in my office,” nag-aalala nya pa ring sabi.

“But how about my work?”

“Someone’s doing your work,” sagot nya.

“Huh?” naguguluhan kong tanong.

The manipulative brute explained that there’s really someone who does my work either I go to work or not. Kaya pala hindi mahihirap ang trabaho ko at ayos lang sa kanya pumasok man ako o hindi!

Inirapan ko sya bago sya maglambing sa akin.

“Tsk. Ah basta! Papasok ako ngayon,” pinal kong sabi.

“Sa opisina kita mamamalagi ngayong araw,” he said.

“Oo na,” sagot ko. Sinubuan nya ako ulit at kinain ko naman. Hindi naman ako nahihiya na kagigising ko lang at kaharap ko na sya agad. Azriel never made me feel ugly. Palagi syang gandang ganda sa akin and that boosts my confidence so much.

“Let’s go to a jacuzzi after work? The hot water is good for colds,” he offered. I looked at him and think. Jacuzzis are relaxing!

“Yes!” I immediatley answered.

“Let’s have dinner outside, too. And…” his tone suddenly became so playful. “Let’s stay in an expensive romantic hotel.”

Nag-init ang pisngi ko at pabiro syang pinalo.

“S-sige. P-para matulog,” I said. Nagtaas sya ng kilay at mas lalo akong tinitigan.

“Hmmm let’s see.”

I felt better after taking a warm shower. I wore a longsleeves dress with sweetheart neckline. Kulay puti ito na may mga dilaw na bulaklak.

As usual, binati kami ng mga nakakita sa aming empleyado. Naalala ko tuloy si Linda bago kami umalis, halos hindi makatingin kay Azriel. She doesn’t have to be so bothered. Ako naman ang nakataya dito at hindi sya.

Franco opened the door of Azriel’s office for us. I looked up to him and he looks emotionless. Like he’s so done with everything and he just does his job for money and nothing more. His asian eyes look cute tho.

“Seleira!” Pagalit na tawag ni Azriel. Napatalon naman ako at agad lumapit sa kanya.

“Betraying me in front of my face, huh?” Inis nyang sabi bago balingan si Franco. “Lumabas ka na nga.”

“S-sir, how about your schedule for today?” He professionally asked.

“Just email it to me now. I’ll call you using the inter com if I need some things,” seryosong utos ni Azriel.

“Yes, sir,” he said and then he left, while this grownass man over here is throwing tuntrums on me.

“What?” I asked innocently.

“What!” Inis nyang pag-uulit sa sinabi ko.

“Seloso ka talaga,” I said and laughed. Umismid lang sya bago ako hinila nang marahan. Idinala nya ako sa mini living room ng kanyang office.

Hindi pa man nakakaupo ay narinig na namin ulit ang katok sa kanyang pinto. Azriel irritatedly look into it. Nababadtrip na ’yan dahil sa selos niya at kailangan na ng lambing kung hindi, sira ang buong araw nya. I know him so well. I giggled to myself.

“Come in.”

Franco seriously came in. Sinulyapan ako ni Azriel gamit ang madilim at nagbabantang mga mata. I smiled innocently which made him sigh.

“What? Didn’t I tell you to just wait for my orders?”

“My apologies, sir. But the woman you referred last week is already here. Uh… Ms. Farrah,” Franco explained.

Oh, shoot! I almost forgot about her. Kumapit ako sa braso ni Azriel at dumikit sa kanya.

“Where is she? Let her in,” Azriel commanded. Ibinagsak ko ang mga mata sa sahig dahil sa iritasyong nadama.

“Yes, sir. I’ll call her, she’s still on the ground floor.” Franco walked out and Azriel looked at me again.

“We’re not done, yet,” sabi nya.

“Not done with what?” I asked.

“You, obviously checking my secretary out.”

“What? Tiningnan ko lang!” I defensed.

“Tsk. Sit there, don’t be a bad girl or else you might get punishments,” he warned in a low husky voice. My cheeks flushed in embarrassment!

“W-what?”

He effortlessly lift me up and made me sit on his living room’s sofa.

“Don’t roam around, just rest. You might get dizzier,” naging seryoso ang boses nya.

“But-”

“Did you bring your phone?” He asked. I shook my head. Tumango sya at inilabas ang cellphone mula sa bulsa.

“Here,” pagbigay nya. Ngumisi ako at tumango. Good thing I forgot my phone today, huh. I can use his so I won’t be bored.

Hinalikan nya ako sa noo bago sa labi. Hinalikan ko sya pabalik at hinaplos din ang kanyang panga.

“Go to your table, Azriel,” I said. He stared at me for a while while his lips are a bit more red now from my lipstick.

“Later, let’s kiss more,” nabibitin nyang sabi. Tumawa ako at umiling iling.

“Just go! Maabutan tayo dito!”

“I’m your husband,” he said like I don’t know it.

“I know. Just go!” Pagtataboy ko. He nods and stood straight. Naglakad na rin sya papunta sa kanyang table.

Just a minute and Franco entered together with Anikka. Her morena skin complemented her office attire today. Mukha syang propesyonal at edukada.

However, the moment she saw Azriel, she got a bit clumy and nervous. I knew it. I know it whenever girls act like this and I’ve seen so much girls acting like that whenever Azriel is around.

“G-good morning, A-”

“Sir.” Azriel corrected her. “As long as we’re in work, address me as Sir.”

Napaawang ang bibig nya at dahan dahang tumango. Hindi ko na narinig ang mga sumunod na usapan dahil naging mahina at kalmado ang mga boses nila na para bang trabaho lamang talaga. Franco, meanwhile, is at the door standing, staring at nothing.

I looked down on Azriel’s phone and opened it. His lockscreen wallpaper is me, sleeping. Nag-init ang pisngi ko nang matantong nakahubo’t hubad ako sa loob ng kumot na ito. Hindi naman kita ang maseselan kong bahagi ng katawan. It’s just my naked shoulders as I face the window, causing the sunrays to hit my face. Naging maganda tuloy ang litrato.

I entered the pin which is our marriage date. Ang homescreen wallpaper nya naman ay ako pa rin. This is also a stolen shot of me, wearing the elegant dress I wore on daddy’s birthday. Seryoso akong nakatitig sa salamin at galing sa kanan an direksyon nya ng pagkuha ng litrato.

Tiningnan ko sila at talagang ninenerbyos si Anikka. It’s normal for girls whenever their crushes are around. Panay pa ang hawi nya sa kanyang buhok. Tiningnan ko naman si Azriel na mukha pa ring badtrip sa nangyari ngayon. Seloso!

Nakita kong nag-bow si Anikka sa kanya at dahan dahang naglakad palayo. Luminga ito nang kaunti at nagulat nang makita ako.

“S-seleira,” gulat nyang sabi.

“Yes?”

Hindi na sya sumagot at ngumiti na lang ulit nang tipid. There’s just something about her smiles. They don’t look fake though, it just looks… different.

“I’m going out, too, sir.” Paalam ni Franco na syang tinanguan ni Azriel bago ako madilim na balingan.

“What?” I asked. Umismid sya at supladong bumalik ng upuan nya. Ngumisi ako habang pinanonood sya. Suplado syang nakaharap sa kanyang laptop.

Seloso talaga.

Inilapag ko ang cellphone saka dahan dahang tumayo.

“Sit down there, you’re dizzy.” Masungit nyang turan pero hindi ako nakinig at lumapit na sa kanya.

Hinaplos ko ang pisngi nya at kahit nagtatampo ay hindi nya inalis ang kamay ko. Masungit lang syang umiwas ng tingin na syang nagpatawa sa akin.

“Hey,” I called. “Nagseselos ka pa rin?”

I am now smiling so wide. Umismid lang sya.

“G-go, sit there. I am working,” pagsusuplado nya pero halata namang naapektuhan ng mga simpleng haplos ko.

“Sure ka?” I asked and caress his neck now which made him close his eyes.

“Ayaw mo akong umupo sayo?” I tease. His jaw clenched, he’s probably gritting his teeth. Hinalikan ko naman ang panga nya. Napamura na tuloy sya.

I giggled. “Okay, I’m going back.”

Mabilis nya akong nahila sa kanyang kandungan. Hindi ko alam kung nagsusuplado pa rin sya o talagang ganyan na ang kanyang itsura.

“You like him?” Inis na inis nyang tanong. Halos pumula na ang mga pisngi sa inis nya.

“Who?” I asked and reached for his cheeks. I kissed them both.

“M-my secretary,” napapaos nyang sagot. Hinaplos ko muli ang leeg nya at hinalikan ang kanyang pisngi.

“S-stop it, we’re talking,” saway nya kahit na alam kong gusto nya rin.

I smiled and shook my head. “I don’t like him.”

I kissed his neck this time, agad syang napamura.

“Seleira. We are talking,” he remind.

“Yeah?” I playfully said

“Tss. You really know how to use your charms on me, huh?” Nanunuya nyang tanong. I pouted. I know right.

“But hubby,” I sweetly said. Napapikit sya at bumuntong hininga.

“Stop…” his voice is getting huskier.

“Hubby, let’s kiss”

“Fuck!” nanggigil nyang mura. “Wala akong matatapos na trabaho kung andito ka.”

Siniil nya ako ng halik. I giggled while kissing him back. I can’t get enough of him either. He’s just so hot and he smells so good.

“Trabahuin mo ako, Azriel…” naglalambing pero nang-aasar kong sabi. Pero mukhang tinamaan sya. I felt his member on my butt already poking and already hard.

Ilang ulit na syang napamura bago sinulyapan ang pinto.

“In my bedroom,” he said and stood up, carrying me. I giggled and wriggle my legs.

“No! I don’t like there!”

“My office got renovated. This is my first time taking you here,” he said. Umirap ako pero na-excite na rin. Dati kasi, dyan sa kwarto nyang yan panigurado nyang kinakama ang mga babae nya! I know him so well. Didn’t I say I used to work here?

“Azriel, I was just messing around, chill!” Natatawa kong sabi pero ayaw na papigil ng loko.

Natawa ako lalo nang ibagsak nya ako sa kama. Halos hindi ko na mapansin ang interior designs dahil sa pinaggagawa ni Azriel.

“Azriel!” I laughed when he started kissing my neck. “Oh my ghad!”

“I’ll make love to you now,” he said huskily. I bit my lip and let him take me, let him dominate me.

“Para makatulog ka na at wala akong matatapos na trabaho kung gising ka,” he added. Natawa ako lalo pero sya ay seryoso lang.

“Hubby, hindi na ako mangungulit,” I said laughing.

“I am turned on, miss.” He smirked. I pouted cutely.

“You’re fucking hot,” he commented and started kissing my collarbones this time.

“Az… Azriel, yung ilaw,” sabi ko. “Turn it off.”

“I want to see you in pleasure,” he insist.

“I love you so much,” he added. “I love you so bad, Seleira.”

It wasn’t a quickie. He made love to me passionately and slowly. We only had two rounds since I don’t really feel well.

Antok na antok tuloy ako nang ilapag nya ako sa kama.

“I love you,” he whispered, slightly panting.

“Hmmm,” I moaned and turned my back at him for a better position to sleep. I heard his low chuckle before hugging me from the back.

“There, you’ll shut up and not tease me. I can do my work now,” he said.

Gusto kong umirap pero antok na antok na ako. I heard him clear his throat before he caress my hair.

“You owe me cuddles later,” he said.

“I’m so sleepy! Get out, Azriel… you’re so noisy” I said in my sleepy voice. He chuckled again and I felt his hot lips on my cheek.

“Fine, but we should cuddle later. I love you.”

Hindi ko na alam ang mga sumunod na nangyari dahil nilamon na ako ng antok.

I woke up and I feel better. Hindi na ako nahihilo, so sex is the answer huh. Natawa ako nang parang narinig ko ang boses ni Azriel sa isip ko na sinasabing make love iyon at hindi sex o fuck.

Kinukusot kusot ko ang mata ko atsaka bumangon. I wore nothing but Azriel’s white long sleeves polo. I don’t feel sticky down there so maybe he cleaned me up like he always do.

Tumayo ako at humarap sa salamin. My cheeks are flushed red and I notice that my skin is a bit glowy. Kulay pinkish red din ang labi ko.

Hinanap ko ang dress ko kanina atsaka iyon sinuot muli. Itinali ko rin ang buhok ko sa isang mataas na ponytail at lumabas na.

Azriel is not here. I looked at his wall clock at it says 11:30 AM. Nasaan na ba sya? Nagugutom na ako.

Lumabas ako at nahagip ako ng mga mata ni Franco. Seryoso syang lumapit sa akin.

“Ma’am, Sir Nickolson is in a meeting right now.”

“What time will he come back?” I asked, looking around.

“The meeting started at 9:30 AM and it’s supposed to end by around 11:30.”

“You mean right now?” I asked, looking at him now. Napaiwas naman sya ng tingin.

“Y-yes, ma’am.”

“Okay. You speak like a robot, do you have emotions at all?” Tanong ko pero hindi ko na hinintay ang sagot nya at naglakad na ulit papalayo.

“Ma’am, you can’t go out of his office. Sir Nickolson will be back anytime now,” pagpigil nya sa akin. Hindi ko sya pinansin at dere-deretsong naglakad papunta sa private elevator.

“Ma’am!”

“I know. I will back in five minutes,” I said. Aangal pa sana sya pero nakapasok na ako ng private elevator and he can’t go in.

He looked at me with such problematic face. There, I finally put an emotion on your face.

Sumarado ang elevator atsaka ko pinindot ang floor number ng office ko. Pero nagdalawang isip ako at baka andun na naman si Ysmael. So when I reached the floor, I didn’t go out. Pumindot lang ako ulit ng floor number.

First floor and then I went out. There are a lot of busy employees. Binati ako ng iba at tinanguan ko naman.

“Ang saya ko! Ang bait ng bagong Marketing Manager!” Narinig kong sabi ng isa.

“Oo nga! Ang ganda pa, tapos maunawain.”

Nilingon ko ang nag-uusap usap. They are a bunch of female employees. Napatingin din sila sa akin. They looked at me with hatred and fear in their eyes. They hate me so much, huh.

Taas noo akong naglakad papalapit sa kanila. I notice how their atmosphere suddenly changed

“Who are you talking about? The new Marketing Manager?” I asked elegantly. Nagkatinginan muna sila.

“A-ah yung b-bago po, ma’am… Si Miss Farrah,” she answered. Nagkatinginan ulit sila na parang ngayon lang narealize that we both have the same surnames, except that I’m a Nickolson now.

“Did she say something about me?” I asked.

“Ah, nagpakilala po sya kanina, ma’am. H-half sisters daw p-po kayo,” medyo alinlangan nyang sabi. “A-anak daw po kayo sa labas.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at agad umusbong ang galit sa dibdib.

“Pero sabi nya tunay na kapatid naman daw po ang turing nya sa inyo at walang kaso sa kanya kung mas maganda at marangya ang kalagayan nyo,” she smiled like she’s inspired.

“Ang bait nya pala noh?”

“Oo! Sobra!”

Umismid ako at tinalikuran na sila. That two-faced witch. Nakakainit ng ulo. Kailangan talagang sabihin na ako ang anak sa labas? (na totoo naman) but she didn’t have to be that detailed.

Iritado ako at nakatingin lang sa sahig hanggang sa nasa harap na ako ng private elevator. Pipindutin ko na sana kaso nakabukas na pala ito. Dahan dahan tuloy akong nag-angat ng paningin.

Azriel is arrogantly standing in front of me. Halo ang pagtataka at inis nya akong tiningnan. Nagtataka siguro kung bakit ako nandito.

“Why are you here?” Tanong nya at agad ako hinila palapit. The doors closed and I looked at him.

“Wala,” sagot ko.

“Tsk,” pagsusungit nya pero hindi rin nakayanan. Yumakap din at isinubsob ang mukha sa leeg ko. Malaya nyang nahahalikan ito dahil nakatali ang buhok ko.

“Azriel,” I softly called.

“Never do this again. I told Franco not to let you out,” he seriously said.

“Kalalabas ko lang din.”

“And the guts of you to roam around here, huh? My male employees are probably fantasizing about you.”

Mahina kong hinampas ang braso nya. “No.”

“Anyway, how are you feeling?” He asked, caressing my cheeks.

“Hindi na ako nahihilo,” I said, pouting. “But let’s stil go to a jacuzzi later, ha?”

“Yes. For now, let’s have lunch.”

Hahalik na sana sya pero natigilan kami. Pareho kaming napatingin sa pinto nang bumukas ito sa 28th floor. Who on earth will push its buttons there knowing this is a private elevator?!

Anikka is standing there wit folders on her hands, looking at Azriel shyly.

What the fuck?

“Anikka?” Gulat kong tanong. Azriel’s arm snaked on my waist. Bumagsak doon ang tingin ni Anikka bago tumingin sa akin.

“A-ah, ano kasi… puno na iyong mga elevators so…” she said softly and tried to smile cutely.

“This is a private elevator,” Azriel said seriously.

“Ah!” she awkwardly laughed. “Y-yeah, I know. P-pero nagbakasali lang ako dahil…” her voice sounds so nervous now.

“Baka pwede akong sumakay, Azriel? S-sa next floor lang naman ako,” she confidenty said now.

Napaawang ang bibig ko at halos hindi makapaniwala sa sinabi nya. Wala ba syang hiya or anything?

“Miss Farrah, dito na po, maluwag na po ulit,” a male employee called her. She looked at him with her eyebrows furrowed.

“Dito na lang ako,” she insisted na samin na lamang sumakay.

“Pero-”

“Dito ko gusto sumakay,” her tone suddenly became desperate. Halos hindi ako makapaniwala sa pinapakita nyang ugali ngayon. She looks so desperate!

Tiningnan ko si Azriel at nag-iigting ang panga nito. Tila naiinis sa kung ano.

“I told you earlier that this is a private elevator, Miss Farrah. Exclusively for me and my wife only.” Medyo inis na sabi ni Azriel, naiinis siguro dahil hahalik na dapat sya kanina.

Anikka’s eyes widened and looked at me with hopeful eyes.

“You heard him. The regular elevator is open now,” I said.

Ang ikinagulat ko pa ay ang pagtitig nya sa akin gamit ang mga galit na mg mata. Galit sya saan? Walang salita syang naglakad papalayo. Nahihiya namang nag-bow iyong lalaking employee bago umalis sa harapan namin.

The doors closed again and I can’t even process anything.

“What was that?” I asked.

“I don’t fucking know,” he huskily said. “Can’t you talk with her?”

“Bakit?” naging seryoso na rin ang boses ko.

“She insisted to ride with me a while ago, too.”

“What?!” medyo agresibo kong tanong.

“Well, I understand at first since she doesn’t know yet that it’s a private elevator. But she just did it again now. I don’t know what’s up with your sister,” paliwanag nya.

Hahalikan nya sana ako pero umiwas ako. He got offended though. Malayo ang iniisip ko ngayon. Ang lakas naman ng loob nya. Mamaya, bigla nya lang pasukin dito si Azriel at saka kung anong gawin. Azriel, however, can hadle it though. He can literally put her out with just a hand.

“Whatever she’s doing, she better stop. Naiirita ako kapag hindi ikaw ang nangungulit sa akin,” dagdag nya pa. Umirap ako at hinayaan syang yakapin ako mula sa likod.

After we ate lunch, nagpaalam ako kay Azriel na lalabas muna. Ayaw pa pero napilit ko naman. Pumunta ako sa floor kung nasaan ang office ni Anikka.

“Sa kapatid ko, please.” I said to her secretary.

“Ah, sure, ma’am. I’ll just tell her you’re here,” she said. Hinayaan ko syang pumasok at maya maya ay lumabas din para ipaalam na pwede nang pumasok.

I opened the door and I found her standing. She instructs me to have a seat. Medyo walang emosyon ang mga mata nito.

“Anikka,” Panimula ko.

“Azriel told me you insisted to ride with him earlier this morning?” Deretsa kong tanong.

“A-ano?” Ramdam ko ang biglaan nyang kaba. Hindi ako umupo at hindi rin sya umupo. Ang kanyang table ang nagpapahiwalay sa aming dalawa.

“Yes. He told me that.”

“Pasensya na, Seleira. H-hindi ko pa kasi alam k-kanina na esklusibo l-lamang sa kanya iyon-”

“Sa amin. It’s exclusive for us two only.”

Umiwas sya ng tingin at walang emosyong tumango.

“Then he told you that it’s an exclusive elevator for us only. Edi alam mo na. Kung ganoon, bakit mo pa rin sinubukan kanina?” Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili kong magtaas ng boses.

“Nagbabakasali ka bang mag-isa lang ulit si Azriel at baka pagbigyan ka na nya?!” Inis kong sigaw.

Nanlaki ang mga mata nya at unti unting lumuha. Galit ko syang tiningnan. She’s crying like a scared kitten now.

“I can literally ask him to fire you and he will!” Sigaw ko pa.

“Ma’am! Tama na po iyan!” Pumasok ang kanyang sekretrya at agad dinaluhan si Anikka. Some employees entered too, and I think magpapapirma sana kay Anikka.

Lalong umiyak si Anikka at masama namaj akong tiningna ng mga empleyado.

“M-ma’am, tama na po yan. A-alam namin na masungit po kayo pero mabait po si Miss Farrah…”

“Grabe!”

“Tahan na po, miss.”

I looked at her with so much hatred in my eyes.

“Masyado kang paawa! At ngayon umiiyak ka dahil nahuli kita, ano?!”

“T-tama na… H-hindi ko alam ang sinasabi mo, Seleira… Pasensya na talaga-”

“Shut up!” I shout. Lalong nagbulungan ang mga empleyado at nasa side silang lahat ni Anikka.

“Grabe, sya naman itong anak sa labas.” “Ayoko talaga sa kanya dati pa. Kahit noong empleyado lang dito, mayabang na talaga.” “Kawawa naman si Miss.”

“Tama na,” saway sa kanila ni Anikka. “Mabait ang kapatid ko.”

“No, ikaw ang tumigil na, Anikka. Palagi kang ganito kung kailan ka nahuhuli!”

“Tama na, pakiusap, Seleira. Gusto ko nang magtrabaho rito nang maayos…” nanghihina nyang sabi.

Nag-iinit ang mga sulok ng mga mata ko dahil sa galit. Pasimple kong pinunasan ang luhang mga tumulo.

“Delusional bitch,” I said before storming out of her damn office.

I hate them all.

I entered the elevator and just went back to Azriel. This is my comfort place, with him.

Chapter 20

Erotic

Ang umaga ko ay nasira dahil kay Anikka. Pero ngayong gabi ay siguradong masisiyahan at marerelax ako sa jacuzzi.

Pinanood ko si Azriel hubarin ang kanyang itim na coat at hubarin ang kanyang necktie. Ang kanyang panloob na puting polo na lamang ang natira, nakatupi rin ito hanggang sa kanyang braso. Bumaba ang tingin ko sa muscles nya dito. It looks firm and so strong.

“Let’s go?” yaya nya. Tumango ako at ngumiti. Nakapag-retouch na ako at nag-ayos na.

Hinawakan nya ako sa bewang at sabay na kaming naglakad. Pinagbuksan nya ako ng pinto at nakita namin si Franco na naghihintay sa labas.

“Your car is ready, sir,” he formally said. So he isn’t just his secretary, huh, maybe his right hand, too.

“Good. Tell the maintenance to fix my office, especially the bedroom.”

Pinamulahan ako sa sinabi inutos ni Azriel. Bahagyang nanlaki ang mga singkit na mata ni Franco at tiningnan pabalik si Azriel na parang nagkakaintindihan sila at pareho ng iniisip. Pasimple ko tuloy kinurot si Azriel.

“Yes, sir.”

Nang nasa kotse ay agad ko syang hinampas. “Why did you say that?!”

“Say what?” he asked.

“That the maintenance should fix your bedroom!” frustrated kong sabi.

“Because the sheets are messy, baby. We made love, did you forget?” Medyo inis nyang tanong.

“I know! I mean, nakakahiya baka isipin ni Franco-”

“Why do you care so much about Franco?!” nagbibintang nyang tanong. “And so what if he thinks we made love?!”

Inis na inis na syang nakatingin sa akin ngayon. Mukhang tinotoyo na naman at ayaw pang magmaneho.

“That’s not what I meant, Azriel…” mahina kong sabi at inabot ang pisngi para haplusin. Kahit naiinis ay napapikit pa rin sya nang haplusin ko ang nag-iigting nyang panga.

“Tss.”

“Nahihiya lang ako pero hindi ko naman ikinakahiya na may nangyari sa atin,” dagdag ko pa at pinagigihan syang haplusin para kumalma.

“Tss. Y-you even owe me cuddles,” sabi nya at supladong nag-iwas ng tingin. Napangiti ako at humagikhik. I can remember him saying I owe him cuddles right after we made love. Antok na antok na kasi ako noon.

“Hmm… kanina pa iyon ah?” I teased. Madilim nya akong tiningnan, like sending me a deadly warning. I smiled sweetly at him pero inirapan nya ako sa panlalaking paraan.

I laughed but he remained annoyed and bothered.

Sira na ang buong gabi nyan kung hindi ko lalambingin ngayon. Tumayo ako kaya agad syang naalarma.

“Matumba ka, Seleira!” Inis nyang saway saka ako inalalayan. Kumandong ako sa kanya at nakita ko agad ang lihim nyang pagngiti kahit na nagsusuplado pa sya.

I hugged his chest and smelled it. He smells so good! Inabot ko rin ang buhok nya at pinaglaruan yun. Agad syang napapikit at mas dinama ang kamay ko. He really craves for my touch and care.

Kahit noong nag-ddrive na sya ay nilalambing ko pa rin sya. Hindi tuloy mapawi ang ngiti ng loko. Good mood na good mood sya kaya natatawa na lang ako. Stupid Anikka, you can’t ruin my whole day.

“Kiss kita, hubby!” I sweetly said.

“Tss…” ismid nya pero nakangiti naman. Naiilawan ng iba’t ibang kulay ng mga nadadaanan naming gusali ang kanyang gwapong mukha. He looks ruthless and hot even when he’s just smiling.

Umangat ako at mabilis syang hinalikan sa labi. Kinagat nya ang pang-ibabang labi habang pinipigilan ang ngiti nya. Namumula na rin ang kanyang tainga kaya tumawa ako.

We arrived at an expensive hotel called Hilton X Manila. Azriel reserved a presidential suite and also a table for our dinner. But I’m just excited for the jacuzzi.

“Let’s have dinner, first,” he said. Iginala ko ang paningin sa buong suite namin. Sobrang ganda at elegante. Everything looks expensive, well, it’s a presidential suite indeed. Azriel doesn’t settle for cheap things lalo na pag kasama nya ako.

“I’ll just pee and wash,” I said and looked for the bathroom. Halos malaglag ang panga ko sa ganda ng interiors nito. Hindi ko tuloy namalayan na nakasunod pala sa akin ang walang hiya kong asawa.

“What? I said I’ll pee!”

“I know. I’ll just wash hands, baby, you can pee over there.”

Agad ko syang kinunutan ng noo at pabirong hinampas. Ngumisi naman sya at umamabang hahalik pero umatras ako.

“I won’t look. Look, just pee,” he said and turned his back at me.

Titig na titig tuloy ako sa likod nya habang umiihi. Aamba syang lilingon pero agad kong itinili ang pangalan nya. He laughed with his low sexy voice. Kainis na lalaking ’to!

Naghuhugas na ako ng akin nang aamba na naman syang lilingon.

“AZRIEL!” Tili ko. He laughed again. I know he won’t look, he just loves teasing me.

“Damn,” mura nya habang tumatawa. Nag-iinit ang pisngi ko at mabilis na isinuot ang panty at cycling ko sa ilalim nitong dress.

“Crazy boy!” Sigaw ko at bahagya na ring natatawa. Tumabi ako sa kanya sa sink para maghugas na rin ng kamay. Tumatawa pa rin sya nang yakapin ako mula sa likod.

“I love you… sarap pag tinitili mo pangalan ko,” he whispered. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at agad syang kinurot.

“Ewan ko sayo!” nangingiti kong sabi.

We went down to the hotel’s restau and we were escorted to our table. As, usual, magkatabi ito imbis na magkaharap. He just can’t take his sinful hands off me.

We ordered many foods but we eat slowly.

“Smile,” I said as I take pictures of us using front cam. Maliit lang ang ngiti nya. Niyakap nya rin ako kaya naging romantic at sweet ang sumunod na pic. Tumigil lang ako at ibinaba na ang phone nang makaramdam ng maraming nakatingin sa amin.

“Take a picture while we’re kissing each other in the lips,” he suggested. Kinunutan ko sya ng noo at umiling. Siraulo talaga ito.

“Loko,” natatawa kong sabi.

“Please, baby” he begged. Natawa tuloy ako lalo. “We don’t have any picture that we’re kissing yet.”

“Nakakahiya, Azriel,” mahina kong sabi. Nakatitig naman sya sa akin at seryoso talaga.

Hindi ko tuloy maiwasan hindi sya purihin. Ang gwapo nya lalo kapag ganito ang ilaw. The restaurant’s light is kinda dim and it gives the romantic feeling.

And here is my man beside me, looking so handsome and ruthless at the same time.

“Anong nakakahiya kung maghalikan tayo dito?”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at agad syang hinampas nang mahina. His mouth has really no filter!!

“Shhh! Your mouth is so dirty!”

“What? I just said I want to kiss you.”

Pinagtitinginan na kami dito dahil sa pinagsasabi ni Azriel. Hindi naman malakas ang boses nya pero sobrang tahimik kasi ng restau at tanging ang violin lang ang gumagawa ng tunog at mahihinang pagtama ng kubyertos sa plato.

“Shhh! Oo na, mamaya pag tayong dalawa na lang, magpipicture tayo,” hiyang hiya kong bulong. I felt relieved when he finally shut up and just have a satisfied smile formed in his lips.

Pagtapos kumain ay busog na busog ako. Gusto ko muna maglakad lakad dyan sa labas dahil may park ang hotel na ito. I saw it, it has many colorful lights and benches so it must be relaxing. Plus, it might be fun watching stars above.

Gusto ko pa sana lumabas pero nagyayaya na itong umakyat sa kwarto at maligo na kami sa jacuzzi.

“Please, let’s go to our room now…” pamimilit nya matapos magbayad ng bill.

“Mamaya,” sagot ko. He groaned in an annoyed way and almost hugged me.

“Bakit ba atat ka? Maliligo lang tayo saka matutulog ah?” Tanong ko. His lips twitched and he looked at me with malice. Agad ko syang kinurot at tumawa.

“Iyon lang, Azriel!” Natatawa kong sabi.

“Seleira…” he called, his voice getting huskier and deeper now.

“Tara na nga,” yaya ko at tumayo. He just can’t shut up about how he wants us to take pictures. Nadulas pa sya at gusto nya rin daw may gawin kami doon kaya hinampas ko na ulit.

“We just did it this morning, Azriel!” Natatawa kong sabi at kumapit sa braso nya. We are currently on elevator, on our way to our room.

“It’s different now,” katuwiran nya.

We entered our room and we went straight to the jacuzzi. Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko nang makitang may red rose petals dito at mau mga kandila rin na nagpapadagdag sa romantic atmosphere. I felt Azriel hug me from behind.

“I love you,” he said. I smiled and turned around to kiss him. Agad nya naman akong hinalikan pabalik.

“Ang ganda nito, Azriel!” Puri ko at pakiramdam ko ay nagniningning ang mga mata ko

“I really chose a not so big one so I can feel you more,” he said, smirking. Tiningala ko sya at para akong matutunaw sa paraan ng pagtitig nya sa akin. He stares back at me with love, desire, lust, patience, and many more emotions in his eyes. I feel like crying while looking at my most handsome man in front of me.

Umalis sya saglit at pagbalik ay may wine na syang dala. La Passion de

Latour

Cornet. Inilapag ko na rin ang phone ko sa gilid.

Uminit ang pisngi ko habang pinapanood sya ilapag iyon sa gilid at pati na rin ang dalawang wine glasses. He then looked at me sexually as he take his polo off.

Nag-iinit lalo ang pisngi ko habang naghuhubad sya. He really have the nicest body. Tinitigan ko ang abs nya na paborito ko, ganoon din ang kanyang panga. I watched how his muscles flex as he finally removed his polo.

“Come here,” he commanded with a hot low voice. Para akong tuta na sumunod sa gusto nya. He cleared his throat and lick his lower lip as he watch me walk to him. Damn, he looks so manly. He looks so hot.

“Hubby,” I softly called as I hold onto his chest, looking up at him. Binaba ko ang tingin ko sa aking mga kamay sa matitigas nyang dibdib. I look so small, fragile, and weak while he looks so strong, firm, and huge.

He can break me if he wants to.

“You own me,” he whispered huskily which sends shivers down my spine and made the butterflies in my tummy go crazy.

The way his long fingers play with the laces of my dress made me a bit turned on. He effortlessly pull the laces and my dress immidiatley fell off my feet. I am only wearing my undies while he looks at me with his eyes burning of desire.

Umatras ako nang kaunti nang tuluyan nya nang hubarin ang natitira nyang pang baba. He’s now naked. Lalo akong nag-iinit. He then went to the water and it looked small because of his huge manly body. He looked at me, waiting for me to come to him.

“Remove everything,” he said. I obediently obey him. Pulang pula ako habang hinuhubad ang aking panty at bra. Nang tingnan ko sya ay lalo lang naging evident ang kasabikan sa kanyang mga mata.

“Come to me, wife.”

Paglubog pa lamang ng aking paa ay agad na akong na-relax sa init ng tubig. Mas lalong napawi ang nararamdaman kong lamig nang nagdikit na ang balat namin ni Azriel.

“Hubby,” I called sweetly. He gave me a soft kiss. I held onto his neck, wanting for more but he stopped.

“Hubby?”

“Shh… Let’s have wine, first.”

I smiled as I watch him pour wine on my glass and his.

“Cheers!” masaya kong sabi. Although he looks hot, serious, and ruthless, he couldn’t hide his happy smile.

We just talked about random things and then he started kissing me again. From my lips and down to my neck. I slant my neck to give him more access.

I moaned softly when his fingers found its way to my most sensitive part. I can now feel his erect and huge member poking my stomach. It’s so hard, I want to touch it but Azriel just touches me down there, causing me to hold onto his broad shoulders.

“Ah! Azriel, shit…” I felt his finger entering me. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at napicture out sa utak kung gaano kasekwal at romantiko ang itsura namin ngayon.

When I reached my climax, I was feeling weak. Mabilis nya akong hinapit para sa kanya ako kumapit. He licked his fingers with my juices while staring directly into my eyes. Nahihiya ako sa pinaggagagawa nya. Magrereklamo sana ako pero agad nya na akong hinalikan muli. Sabik na sabik kahit na ginawa rin naman namin ito kanina.

“Azriel…” I called. “Chill.”

“Baby, I got no chill for this,” he said huskily.

We shared an erotic and romantic night. We did it again, he’s even more into it now than earlier. Probably the atmosphere here turned him on even more like what it did to me.

Just me and him, our naked bodies under the warm water, city lights, candles and our wine. Perfect to end the night.

Hinalik-halikan nya ang buhok ko at bumubulong bulong ng mga kung ano ano. I giggled and hugged his chest.

“Let’s take a picture, hubby,” mahina kong sabi. He cleared his throat and kissed my forehead. Inabot nya ang cellphone ko sa gilid.

We took pictures. Smile, fierce, and everything. We also did what he wants, ang mag-kiss kami sa picture. Natawa ako pero nang makita ko ang kinalabasan na picture ay nanahimik ako.

It looks so pretty and aesthetic. We were both topless (but only until our shoulders) and we are kissing. Kitang kita ang pagkakaiba ng katawan namin. Mine, milky skin and just slender. While him, he has dark complexion that really complemented mine. He has strong body that makes him look an Alpha Male. Well, he really is.

“Airdrop it to me later. I’ll put it in a frame,” he said slowly. I nodded and feel him even more. Niyakap ko rin ang leeg nya at pinaghahalikan sya sa pisngi. Hindi nakatakas ang ngiti nya at bahagya pang natawa.

Kung may ibang babae si Azriel… kung may iba syang dadalhin sa mga ganitong lugar para kumain, magtalik, at maglambingan… hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman at gagawin ko. I’m just over thinking.

“Azriel, paano kung-”

“Not your stupid what ifs again, wife,” pangunguna nya. I giggled cutely, alam nya na talaga.

“I won’t love another girl, I won’t be with other girl, I won’t make love with other girl. You won’t end up with any other bastard or kiss other man, of fucking course. Now, stop.”

“Wala pa naman akong sinasabi ah?” Natatawa kong tanong. Umismid sya at nagsungit pa kunwari.

“I know you,” he said.

“You don’t.”

“I do.”

“You don’t, but I know you very well.”

Umismid sya. “Of course, you know me. You know every damn little way to wrap me in your little soft hands.”

Humagikhik ako at tinakpan ang bibig nya. Marahan nyang tinanggal iyon.

“You know very well about your charms and how to use those spells on me, huh? You innocent witch,” pagpapatuloy nya. Mas lalo akong tumawa at ibinalik ang kamay sa bibig nya. Natatawa na rin sya sa kanyang mababang boses.

“And here I am, a poor hopeless man who always ends up under the spell of the prettiest princess.”

“Stop! Not true,” natatawa kong sabi. Mahina rin syang natawa habang isinubsob ang kanyang mukha sa aking balikat.

“You know what I love the most whenever we make love? Why I am addicted to it?” He just asked suddenly.

Niyakap ko ang leeg nya at pinaglaruan ang kanyang buhok. Hinigpitan nya ang yakap sa aking bewang at humahalik halik din sa aking balikat.

“The pleasure you’re feeling,” sagot ko.

“No,” he said. Inangat nya ang ulo nya at tinitigan ako.

“It’s how you react. I love the way you arch your back whenever I lick your folds. I love your facial expressions, your cheeks are flushed red, your sexy lips is a bit open, and your eyes are so hipnotizing- you’re so beautiful. I love how your eyes are about to cry once I stop. I love how you call my name, like all you need for that very moment is me, your husband.”

Hindi ko mapigilan ang pagngiti sa mahaba nyang sinabi. Malambing ang boses nya at punong puno ng emosyon ang mga mata. He looks so sincere and honest.

“Azriel…”

“And also the smell of you. Damn, I’m like a dog smelling your addicting scent down there. It’s just… it smells so much like you. A flower, so feminine… any words related to that will do.” Nahihirapan nyang paliwanag. Tila nahihirapan syang humanap ng mga eksaktong salita para ipaliwanag ang kanyang nararamdaman.

Nag-init ang pisngi ako at nahihiyang nagtago sa dibdib nya. Hinaplos haplos nya ang buhok ko.

“And of course, your sweet breasts are also my favorite. They look cute and just so pinky,” dagdag pa nya. Mas lalo lamang akong nahiya.

“Those are small!” protesta ko.

“But they’re attached to you,” he said. I pouted and bite his hard chest softly. He chukled and continued talking with his now bedroom voice.

“But your sweet moans are what drives me fucking crazy,” he said.

“Azriel…”

“I can write a whole book about why I love making love with you. And me, feeling the pleasure is not even one of those reasons. It’s all about you.”

I couldn’t help these stupid tears not to fall. I cried like a baby in front of him. I heard his low chuckle before hugging me.

“Hush.”

“Hubby!” I cried and hugged him tighter. I feel so touched with what he just said. I pouted when he wiped my tears away.

“Baby, come on…” malambing nyang sabi. Nang tumahan ako ay pinaghahalikan nya lamang ang buhok ko at patuloy akong sinusuyo.

When it’s already late and we both feel sleepy, he carried me out of it. Inilapag nya ako sa sink at kumuha ng malinis na towel. Nakatitig ako sa mirror walls na katapat namin. I can see our naked and wet bodies, but Azriel is drying me with a towel. Nasa gitna sya ng aking mga hita.

“Thank you, Azriel. Nag-enjoy ako ngayon sa dinner at sa… jacuzzi.” Nahihiya kong sabi. He looked up at my eyes seriously.

“I enjoyed, too. Don’ worry, we’ll have many more times like this. I’ll research for the most expensive and beautiful hotels again.” he said. He then went serious again while drying me. I just can’t take my eyes off our reflection in the mirror.

“How’s your dizziness and cold?” He asked.

“Wala na!” masaya kong sagot.

The night ended with me, feeling so loved and beautiful. I slept with Azriel, as usual in our king sized bed.

Chapter 21

Cake

Today is when I went back to my office to work. Hindi na ako sa office ni Azriel katulad kahapon. I feel glowing and just so happy.

“Seleira, you’re back! Are you now feeling good?” Mrs. Long Fingers asked. I smiled and nodded.

Napansin kong luminis ang office ko. Pinalinis siguro ni Azriel. Habang nagtatrabaho ay nacoconcious ako kakatingin sa mga empleyadong padaan daan. Why on earth does my office have transparent walls! I also think Ysmael could just pop out of nowhere.

Sa kalagitnaan ng pagtatrabaho ko ay may kumatok sa aking pinto. Nang mag-angat ako ng tingin ay nakita ko si Anikka sa labas. Hinawi ko ang buhok ko as I motioned her to come in.

“What do you want?” I asked. Awkward syang ngumiti at tumingin sa kamay nya. I also looked down and saw three korean style tupperwares.

“I-I made this… N-nabanggit ni papa na mahilig ka raw sa korean foods. T-tsaka nagkaroon tayo ng hindi pagkakaintindihan kahapon, gusto ko sanang… bumawi.”

Something inside me felt a bit touched. Is this for real?! Tumayo ako at tiningnan sya muli.

“May lason?” deretsa kong tanong. Nanlaki ang mga mata nya at umiling iling.

“Naku! Wala!” sabi nya habang umiling-iling pa rin. Nagtaas ako ng kilay at inilahad ang dalawang kamay.

Not bad if I eat this, huh.

“E-eto,” inilahad nya iyon sa kamay ko. Naamoy ko na kahit nasa loob pa iyon. Natakam tuloy ako.

“May kimchi, kimbap, korean style chicken, beef stew, rice, and egg roll…”

“Ang rami pala. I say thank you,” sabi ko. Totoo. If she’s always this nice, then I think we could get along. Just don’t mess with my husband.

“Do you want to eat this with me later?” deretsahan ko ulit na pagyaya sa kanya. I think she’s trying to make us work as true siblings.

“Sino? T-tayong dalawa lang?” she asked. She looked a bit hopeful.

“Yes, only the two of us.”

“P-paano ang asawa mo?”

Kumunot agad ang noo ko at hindi na nagustuhan kung saan papunta ang usapang ito.

“I’ll just text him to say I’m having lunch with you instead,” madiin kong sabi. Nanliit ang mga mata nya at bahagyang umatras. Which I found weird.

“P-pwede namang sabay sabay na tayong kumain, S-Seleira… Nakakahiya naman,” pagpupumilit nya sa marahang boses.

Just go straight tell me you want to eat with my husband.

Nabadtrip na ako agad. Pasimple kong padabog na ibinagsak ang mga tupperwares sa mesa.

“Tayong dalawa nga lang,” inis kong sabi.

“N-naku… Huwag na lang. Kainin mo na lang iyan lahat, Seleira, tutal paborito mo iyan,” she said and smiled awkwardly.

Kumunot ang noo ko at hindi na sya maintindihan lalo.

“Okay. I’ll just eat this with him,” sabi ko at umupo na muli. Ghad, I have work to do and here I am, talking to my crazy step sister.

“Talaga? S-sige. Sana magustuhan nya.”

She went out and she’s even swaying the skirts of her dress. Kumukunot ang noo ko habang sinusundan sya ng tingin paalis. Binalik ko ang tingin sa pagkain.

Wala naman sigurong lason iyan o gayuma o ano? I laughed at myself.

I continued doing my work while being concious of people walking around. Minsan ay sinisilip ko sila, ang bibilis nila maglakad. Siguro may ila-launch na naman na bagong project kaya busyng-busy ang lahat.

Nang mag-lunch time ay tumayo na ako at nag-unat. Itinali ko ang buhok ko sa mababang ponytail at nag-retouch nang kaunti. Nakatanggap na rin ako ng dalawang texts mula kay Azriel.

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

Baby

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

I’ll fetch you there. There are already foods here.

Mabilis akong nagtipa ng pang-reply.

Ako:

Huwag na, paakyat na ako.

He didn’t have to order food. May binigay naman ang aking “butihing” step sister.

Pagkatok ko ay agad iyong nagbukas. Si Azriel pa ang nagbukas sa akin at mabilis akong hinapit papasok.

“Azriel!” saway ko nang halikan ako agad nito pagpasok ko, isinandal pa ako sa kakasarado lamang na pinto.

“I missed you. Are you hungry?” Tanong nya at bumaba ang tingin sa dala ko. Nanlaki ang mga mata nya at bahagyang umatras.

“Y-you cooked that for me?” He sounds and look so hopeful.

“Nope. Anikka gave this for us to eat,” I plainly said. Umangat ang tingin nya sa akin.

“S-so, you didn’t cook that?” Medyo mahina nyang tanong. Umiling ako. Napaiwas sya ng tingin at tumango-tango.

“I’m sorry… next time, hubby,” I said. He hugged me again and kissed me all over my face.

“That’s a promise,” he said. Itinaas ko ang pinky finger ko at ganoon din ang ginawa nya atsaka namin pinagyakap ang mga ito.

“Let’s just eat this now. Anong in-order mo?” tanong ko at naunang maglakad sa mini dining room.

Umupo na kami at mga ulam at kanin pala ang in-order nya. I saw the store where he ordered and it’s an expensive and famous filipino restaurant.

I opened the tupperwares and giggle excitedly when I see the food. Umismid si Azriel sa gilid.

“Tsk. You could’ve asked me. I can cook those for you,” seryoso nyang sabi. Hindi ko na sya pinansin at kinuha na ang kimchi gamit ang chopsticks.

“Sarap!” Komento ko at humagikhik. I also danced happily in my seat. Tinikman ko rin ang triangular kimbap. Why does she cook so deliciously!!

“I said you could’ve asked me to cook that for you! Tsk!” inis nyang sabi sa gilid ko. Nang tingnan ko sya ay di pa sya kumakain at nagsusuplado lang sa akin.

“What? Don’t be jealous,” natatawa kong sabi at niyakap sya habang ngumunguya. Sinubukan ko syang pakainin pero ayaw nya. Iyong in-order lang nya ang kinain nya.

“Ayaw mo?”

“Nah,” he answered.

“Masarap.”

“Tsk.”

The big boy is jealous of my step sister. Natatawa ko syang niyakap ulit at hinalikan sa pisngi. Agad naman syang umiwas pero nangingiti.

“Sus. Seloso!”

After eating lunch, ay pinahugasan ko kay Azriel ang mga tupperwares.

“You know, kaya ko naman iyan. Pero parang mas magaling ka kaya ikaw na lang ang pinaghugas ko, hubby,” malandi kong sabi. I am smiling widely while watching him wash the tupperwares seriously.

Hindi naman sya sumagot. I giggled secretly as I watch him. The tupperwares look small with his large veiny hands.

“Hubby!” I playfully called.

“Hmm?” malambing naman nyang sagot.

“Wala.”

There was a remaining slice of cake sa in-order na desert ni Azriel so I put it in one on the tupperwares as a thank you.

“Bababa na ako,” pagpapaalam ko habang hawak hawak ang mga tupperwares, nakayakap pa kasi sya sa akin.

“5 minutes,” he said.

“Mamaya na, Azriel. Magkikita pa naman tayo,” natatawa kong sabi.

“I know. Kiss me here,” nanlalambing nyang sabi. Nakangisi ko syang nilingon, he’s pointing at his lips.

Tumingkayad ako at sinuportahan nya naman ang bewang ko. I kissed him quickly. Dinilaan nya ang kanyang labi pagkatapos.

“See you later, hubby,” I said sweetly and walked away. I heard him groan in annoyance.

“Baby, don’t leave me,” madrama nyang sabi. Natatawa ko syang inirapan at lumabas na.

I clicked on the floor where Anikka is. I walked and employees were greeting me. I just nodded and went to Anikka’s office. Nang makita ako ng secretary ay bahagya syang namutla. Naalala siguro ang nangyari kahapon.

“Hi. I’m going to Anikka, is she in there?” I asked, trying hard to be friendly.

“A-ah eh, s-sige po. Pasok po kayo.”

Pumasok ako at nakitang abala sya sa pagtitipa sa kanyang computer at paminsa’y minsan ay may binabasa sa folders. She looks so enthusiastic with what she’s doing. She loves her job.

“Anikka,” I called. Nag-angat sya ng tingin sa akin at tumayo. Bumaba rin ang tingin nya sa mga tupperware na dala ko.

“S-seleira.”

“Thanks for the food. I enjoyed it, everything was so delicious, I admit,” I said plainly. She smiled but it didn’t reach her eyes.

“I also put a slice of cake here as my thank you.”

“Naku! Hindi na kailangan pero salamat…” she said and laughed. Tumahimik sya at maya maya’y nagsalita muli.

“N-nagustuhan b-ba ni Azriel?” she asked.

Umawang ang bibig ko bago ilapag ang tupperwares sa table nya.

“Huh?” I asked. “Hindi tinikman ni Azriel, eh. Ako lang ang kumain.”

Napaawang din ang bibig nya at napaiwas ng tingin. Mapait syang tumango-tango. Naguguluhan ko naman syang tiningnan.

“G-ganoon ba…”

“Yup. Sige, I’m leaving.”

She called me again so I looked back, only to see her smiling meaningfully.

“What?!” I asked aggressively. She just shook her head.

I went back to my office feeling bothered at nothing. Inabala ko na lamang ang sarili sa pagtatrabaho. I stood up when I got a call from Mrs. Long Fingers then I went back again and just basically, do my job.

I’m happy with my work but it just sometimes feel that I don’t belong here. I don’t like business. I took Physics Major but I also don’t like it enough. These days, I’ve realized I want to do modeling.

I want my pictures to be placed on big billboards in the high way. I want to model expensive clothes and stuffs. But I don’t know if Azriel will allow me.

When I finished my minimal work, I decided to went up to Azriel. Hindi naman ako magpapakita, I just want to see what he’s doing.

I took the private elevator and I was giggling while waiting. Paglabas ko ay lakad takbo ang ginawa ko.

Napahinto lamang ako nang makita si Anikka na papasok sa office. She knocked and waited for a while before coming in. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at nanigas sa kinatatayuan. Hindi ako agad nakagalaw at pinoproseso pa ng isip ko.

“Ma’am?” Napatalon ako nang marinig ang boses ni Franco sa likod ko.

“H-huh?”

“Sorry. I just thought you needed something,” he explained.

“S-si Azriel?” I asked, my heart beating wildly now.

“He has a meeting, unfortunately. I’m not allowed to go inside if he have meetings, that’s on protocols.”

“B-but you’re his secretary,” I reminded.

“Yes, but it’s not allowed… Shall I inform him you want to see him, ma’am?” He asked. Agad akong umiling iling.

“Nah, nevermind. I have nothing to say to him anyways.”

Bumalik ako sa office at natulala sa kawalan. Why on earth did Anikka entered his office!? Kinuha ko ang phone ko at nanginginig pa ang kamay ko. Shall I dial him? Pinili kong huwag na lang.

Tumungo lang ako sa aking table habang nagtatambol ang aking dibdib. Maybe it’s just a simple meeting. Anikka is a marketing manager, after all.

Pinilit kong pakalmahin ang sarili. Hindi ko na namalayan na nakatulog na ako. Anong oras na kasi kami natulog ni Azriel kagabi tapos ang aga pa naming magbyahe para umuwi ng mansion bago pumasok sa trabaho.

I woke up with the sun already settling down. Nilingon ko ang aking likod na may napakagandang view. The skies are already color orange. Tumayo ako at nag-unat unat. Bumalik sa akin ang nangyari kanina. Anikka entering Azriel’s office.

Kinabahan ako ulit at dali daling tumayo. I rushed to the elevator and clicked the floor where Anikka’s office is. I went to her office and looked for her secretary.

“Si Anikka?” tanong ko. Please tell me she’s inside. Please.

“She’s still in a meeting, ma’am,” sagot nya.

Para na akong maiiyak habang nasa elavator muli at naghihintay na dalhin sa top floor. I rushed to Franco’s office na katapat lamang ng malaking office ni Azriel. Franco’s office is just like mine, glass walls.

He was even a bit shocked when I just barged in inside his office.

“Ma’am?”

“I’m sorry,” I apologized. “Is the meeting over?” I asked.

“It’s not yet done, ma’am.” Medyo alangan nyang sabi. Kumunot ang noo ko at nilingon ang office ni Azriel muli.

“W-wala pang lumalabas?” kinakabahan kong tanong. He shook his head.

Mas lalong lumakas ang tibok ng puso ko at halos hindi ko na maproseso ang mga nangyayari. What on earth is Anikka’s doing inside! At kanina pa sya pumasok! Hindi pa rin lumalabas!

Natahimik ako at naramdaman ko ang pag-aalangan ni Franco.

“S-shall I call him using the inter com, ma’am?”

Umiling ako at tumalikod. Pakiramdam ko babagsak ang luha ko. Nanghihina akong bumalik at umupo sa aking opisina.

Naghintay pa ako ng kaunti. I even received Mrs. Long Finger’s text, telling me my working hours are done. Nilingon ko ang labas at ang dilim na. Nag-iinit na rin ang mga sulok ng aking mga mata.

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

I’m taking an over time. Wait for me, please.

Tuluyan nang bumuhos ang mga luha ko. Pinulot ko ang bag ko at padabog na lumabas ng office. Pinunasan ko ang luha ko upang walang makakita nito. I went to Anikka’s office again.

“Is she here?” I asked, trying hard to compose my voice.

“W-wala pa po. Itinext nya po ako na mag-oovertime sya at pwede na raw akong umuwi. M-may kailangan po ba kayo?” Naabutan ko na ang sekretarya nyang naghahanda na umalis. I bit my lips as I shook my head.

“May I know where is her meeting being held? Uh… I just want to know my sister’s whereabouts.” Pagdadahilan ko. She checked her computer before looking back at me.

“In Mr. Nickolson’s office po, ma’am.”

Walang paalam na akong tumalikod at yumuko. Binilisan ko ang paglalakad hanggang sa nasa ground floor na ako.

Umiiyak na ako sa taxi. Tahimik naman ang taxi driver at walang pakialam. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ang tagal nila doon sa loob ng opisina nya. Trabaho lang ba iyon?! O iba na ang tinatrabaho nya?

“S-sobrang okay pa kami kanina eh…” pag-iiyak ko at pagkausap sa sarili. Narinig ko ang sipol ng driver pero wala akong pakialam. Sobra sobrang kaba na ang nararamdaman ko.

“Ayos lang ’yan, ma’am.”

“It’s not! My husband is probably cheating on me!” I cried.

“Naku,” I heard his whisper. Mas lalo lang akong umiyak. Maybe it’s just work. Maybe. I don’t know!

“Dapat po pinasok nyo kung may pagkakataon para walang lusot.”

Nakauwi akong luhaan. Pinunasan ko muna ang luha ko bago ako pumasok ng mansion. Napatalon pa ang guard nang makita akong mag-isa.

“M-Ma’am! Si sir po? Bakit hindi po kayo magkasabay?”

Hindi na ako sumagot. Tahimik lang akong naglakad papasok. Kahit si Linda na nasa pinto ay nawala ang ngisi nang makita akong mag-isa.

“A-ayos lang po ba kayo? Si s-sir Azriel, ma’am?”

Wala na rin akong sinagot at dere-deretso lamang sa kwarto. I took a bath while crying and over thinking. Azriel, what are you doing there?

Lumabas ako ng pinto nang nakabihis na. I went out of the bathroom door, only to find out Azriel, angrily sitting on the bed.

“What do you think did you do, huh?! Going home without me?” Inis na inis nyang sabi. I didn’t answer and just stared at him.

I feel like crying while staring at him. What did you do, Azriel? Did you cheat on me?

“How did you go home?! Don’t fucking tell me you were with my cousin?!”

Naggagalaiti sya sa harap ko. Ni hindi pa sya nakapagbihis sa sobrang inis nya. Ako dapat ang mainis at ako dapat ang magtanong!

“Nag-commute,” I simply replied which made him be angry even more.

“Nag-commute!” He repeat with so much amusement and anger. “What’s the matter?! Bakit ka umuwi mag-isa?”

“Wala. Gusto ko nang umuwi tapos mag-oovertime ka pa. Ayokong manatili sa opisina.”

Umupo ako sa harap ng aking salamin at isinisaksak ang hair blower gamit ang nanginginig na mga kamay.

“You could’ve texted me so I can go home with you! Fuck this!”

Napapikit ako nang sumigaw sya. Galit na galit sya dahil hindi ako sumabay sa kanya ng uwi. Sya nga itong sa tingin ko ay nagloloko. Ang bilis naman? Ayos pa kami kanina ah? O baka hindi naka-hindi kay Anikka gayong mas malaki ang hinaharap non kaysa sa akin.

Papait na nang papait ang nararamdaman ko. I stood up and pulled the hair blower out of the outlet.

“Kakain na ako,” sabi ko at nilagpasan sya. Mabilis nyang nahuli ang braso ko. Nandidiri akong lumayo sa kanya.

“No. Let’s talk about why you went home alone,” nagtitimpi nyang sabi.

“Azriel, stop. I just wanted to go home that’s all-”

“I’m not buying that-”

“Then don’t! Release me, ginugutom na ako.”

Doon lang sya tumigil. Mabilis ang pagtaas baba ng balikat nya at nag-iigting ang panga nya. Namumula na rin ang mukha at leeg nya sa galit.

“Mag-uusap tayo mamaya.”

Hindi ko sya pinansin at dumiretso na alng sa kusina. Nanlalamig ako at nagagalit din. Nag-aalala ang mukha ni Linda habang nagsasalin ng kanin sa aking plato.

“Anong nangyari, ma’am? Galit na galit si sir,” mahinahon nyang sabi. Hindi ako agad nakapagsalita. Nagdududa na ako. Puno ang isip ko ngayon ng mga konklusyon.

“Malayo pa lang, ma’am, kitang napaka-aggressive mag-drive ni sir.”

“I don’t want to talk about it,” sagot ko. She just nodded but I can still feel her hesitance.

Mas lalong tumahimik nang bumaba na rin si Azriel at umupo sa katapat kong upuan. Kahit maliit na bagay lamang iyon ay parang paisa-isa nang nang nagsasama-sama sa isip ko. He didn’t sit beside me.

Nakita kong bagong ligo na sya at titig na titig sa akin. I eat fastly at kita ko kung paano humigpit ang hawak ni Azriel sa mga kubyertos nya. Nagagalit na sya.

“I’m done,” I said and stood up. Hindi naman nya ako pinigilan o ano. I rushed to our room and brushed my teeth quickly. Itinapon ko ang sarili sa kama at nagkumot upang magpanggap na tulog.

Ayokong makipag-usap sayo.

Maya maya lang ay naramdaman ko na ang pagbukas ng pinto. Then I heard the bathroom’s door open. Maybe he did toothbrush, too.

“Seleira,” he called. Naramdaman kong lumubog ang kama.

“Seleira, I know you’re awake.”

“Inaantok na ako, matulog ka na.”

“No. Get your ass up here and let’s talk,” he insisted.

“Ayoko-”

“Walang matutulog hangga’t hindi tayo ayos,” inis na inis nyang sabi. Umupo ako at buo na ang desisyon na tatango na lang sa kanya para matapos na.

“Baby, what’s wrong? Why did you go home?” lumambing ang boses nya.

“I-I just really want to go home already…” sagot ko sa mahinang boses.

“I don’t believe that. Tell me what our problem is, please…”

“Azriel, really, it’s nothing. I just want to sleep.” I gave him an assured smile. I tried my best to give him a genuine smile.

The night ended with him, believing we’re okay. We are not. We are not okay. I don’t know if my guts are right, but I hope it’s not. Please…

Please, heavens… don’t let my husband cheat on me.

Kinabukasan ay balik trabaho muli. Nanlalamig at nagdududa na ako kay Azriel but I am trying my best so he won’t notice.

Halos di ako makapag-focus sa trabaho. Tulala ako habang naglalakad sa hallway. Kung hindi pa kumaway sa akin si Anikka ay hindi ko sya mapapansin.

I stared at her, I am almost in shock. She looks prettier than usual. Her skin is glowing and she’s smiling so brightly at me.

Naalala ko bigla ang sinabi ni Linda. A girl glows different after sex and it’s really noticeable. Mas lalo akong nagduda at kinabahan.

“Seleira!” She called happily. Lumapit sya sa akin habang ako ay hindi naman makagalaw.

“Busyng busy ang lahat, ano?” nakangiti nyang tanong. She’s smiling like crazy. Walang humor ang ngiti nya, talagang wirdo kung tingnan.

“By the way, thank you pala,” she smiled again meaningfully.

“Ang sarap nung cake,” she added.

Chapter 22

Problems

Masamang masama ang loob ko habang nagtatrabaho. Azriel texted me that we’ll eat lunch together later like usual, but I don’t think I can. Nasasaktan ako tuwing nakikita sya.

Wala ako sa sarili habang naglalakad sa hallway bitbit ang mga folders. Palihim akong nagdadasal na sana hindi ko makasalubong si Anikka. Natupad nga iyon pero iba naman ang nasalubong ko.

“Seleira,” he called. Mabilis syang naglakad papunta sa akin.

“What is it now, Ysmael?” I asked lazily.

“Are you okay?” Dinig na dinig ang pag-aalala sa boses nya.

“I am,” sagot ko sa mahinang boses.

“Oh, well… you just look so pale,” komento nya.

“I didn’t do my make up,” sagot ko. Napansin kong binabagalan nya rin ang kanyang paglalakad at sumasabay sa akin.

Natahimik ulit kami at wala nang nagsalita. Napansin ko lang na mas dumoble ang pagka-abala ng mga empleyado.

“Everyone’s busy. The company’s launching a big project, the investors are big businessmen, too,” he explained.

“Really?” I asked. Napatingin tuloy sya sa akin.

“Yeah, you don’t know?” medyo gulat nyang tanong. “You’re the CEO’s wife,” he mocked.

“I don’t know. Maybe Azriel doesn’t tell me those things since he knows I’m not interested in business.”

“Oh. Most boys… I mean, personally, I like women who love business. I don’t know about Azriel though.”

Whatever Ysmael is saying is not helping. Mas lalo lang akong nanlulumo. Anikka does love business. Azriel, too. Masyado na akong na-iistress. Lahat nagcoconnect. Hindi ko na alam. Ang sakit sakit ng dibdib ko.

“You know… you can plan and build an empire together if you both love business. But it’s fine if you don’t… you’re pretty,” marahan nyang sabi.

Naiinis lang ako lalo sa pinagsasabi nya. So what if I’m pretty? That I’m only pretty and I have nothing anymore?

“I’m going,” mabilis akong tumalikod at naglakad palayo. I heard him call me pero naiinis na ako at nasasaktan na rin.

When it’s already lunch break, kinakabahan ako. I looked at the mirror and I look so pale and just… ugly. I feel so ugly. I feel like my body is so ugly. It’s so ugly that Azriel wanted a new one.

“I’m so ugly,” I whispered to myself.

I never felt ugly, even when I was a kid, a teenager or what. Especially when I started being with Azriel, I was always feeling pretty. But now, all I can see is how ugly my face and body are.

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

Don’t bother to go here. I’ll pick you there, let’s eat outside.

Hanggang sa pagkaliit-liit na bagay, napapansin ko lahat. Why doesn’t he want me to go to his office? Is there anything he’s hiding?!

I slapped myself. I’m just over thinking.

Tulala ako nang madatnan nya. He looks so handsome that I want to cry. Seryoso syang lumapit sa akin. Tumayo na rin ako at hinagilap ang aking chanel.

I felt him hug me from behind. His warmth immediatley covered me and I’m lying if I say I don’t miss him even when we’re always together.

“I miss you,” nanlalambing nyang sabi. Pinaharap nya ako at saka tinitigan. Hinawi nya ang buhok ko at unang beses kong ma-concious sa aking itsura.

“Let’s just eat,” mahina kong sabi at bahagyang iniwas ang mukha. Kumunot ang noo nya at umambang hahalik pero pasimple akong umatras.

“Halika na,” dagdag ko.

“Baby,” ayan na naman ang nanlalambing nyang tawag. Gusto kong iiyak sa kanya lahat ng nararamdaman kong sakit gaya ng lagi kong ginagawa kapag may nararamdaman akong pait sa dibdib. Sa kanya ko lagi iniiyak ang lahat. Family problems, mini problems, and everything. I always cry to him like a baby and he’ll comfort me and kiss my hair endlessly.

But it’s different now, sya na ang may dahilan kung bakit ako nasasaktan.

“Baby, let’s kiss, please…” he said gently.

“Halika na,” pagpupumilit ko.

“How about my kiss? We haven’t seen each other for hours.”

“Halika na, nagugutom na ako,” pag-uulit ko at naunang maglakad. Nilingon ko sya at para akong nanlalambot makita ang malulungkot nyang mga mata.

Kahit sa restau ay tahimik lang ako. Nakayakap sya sa akin habang hinihintay ang orders namin.

“Azriel, maraming tao, oh” mahina kong saway at bahagya syang itinutulak. Mas lalo nya lamang akong niyakap at pinaghahalikan sa pisngi.

“Azriel, ano ba?!” saway ko at inusog ang upuan ko.

“What’s the problem? You weren’t like this before,” naguguluhan nyang tanong at inilagay ang braso sa sandalan ng upuan ko.

“Wala,” sagot ko at umiwas ng tingin. Nanahimik sya pero nanatiling nakatitig sa akin. Maya maya ay hindi na nakatiis at niyakap ako ulit.

“Azriel,” saway ko sa pangatlong beses. Hindi pa sya nakuntento at halos iangat na ako at paupuin sa hita nya.

“Stop, nakakahiya.”

“I love you,” he said gently. Dati ay nangingiti ako pero ngayon ay iritang irita na ako.

Laking pasalamat ko nang dumating na ang pagkain. Nagkaroon na ako ng rason para hindi sya kausapin. Tiniis ko na lang ang paglingkis lingkis sa akin.

Days flew by and I’m getting colder and colder. Sobra akong naiinis sa tuwing nakikita ko si Anikka although she’s being friendly to me. Kay Azriel naman ay nandidiri ako.

“Maybe I’m just over reacting,” pamaplubag loob ko sa sarili.

Noong isang gabi ay naglalambing sa akin si Azriel at gustong may gawin kami. Hindi ko naman sya pinagbigyan. He got frustrated but ends up just hugging me. He even bargained to just take a bath with him or take a rest in the tub with him and he promised he won’t do anything, but I still said no.

I wish I had a friend whom I can tell everything. I wish I wasn’t so rude back in school days so at least, I can have some girl friends.

I’m already done with every work to do so I just chill in my office. Binuksan ko ang aking instagram at wala naman masyadong notifs. Just people following me, likes my posts, or sends me a message.

Adam, the friend I’ve mentioned before is a professional photographer now. Pinag-aagawan sya ng mga modeling agencies but now, he settled down with the famous and international one— Monsieur & Mademoiselle .

I’m thinking of contacting Adam, I’m sure he can help me be one of the models there. The problem is only Azriel, but I know he’ll agree. Hindi naman sya controlling as long as wala lang talagang lalaki. Wala rin syang pakialam sa mga susuotin because he lets me wear whatever I want. Women can wear whatever we want to.

But if I resign here, then it’s like I did Anikka a big favor. Umiling iling ako  at kinalimutan na muna ang balak na mag-modelo.

Hapon na at napagpasyahan kong lumabas ng office. I went down to the pantry for some cola. Hindi na rin naman ako pinagbayad.

Umupo ko sa isang upuan at inilapag ang phone sa table. There’s not many people here. Just the people working in the pantry and a janitress doing her job.

“I fucking wish I had a girl friend,” inis kong bulong sa sarili habang nakatitig sa kawalan.

Matapos maubos ang cola ay nilisan ko ang pantry at pumunta naman sa ground floor. Everyone’s just so busy as a bee. Lumabas ako ng main exit at pumunta sa parking lot. I looked for Azriel’s car and tried to open it but it’s locked. I just want to chill inside and probably just wait for Azriel here! Mag-oout time naman na, unless mag-overtime na naman sya.

I forgot to say that Azriel had several times of taking an over time these days. Hindi ko na inalam, hindi ko na inulit ang ginawa ko. Hindi ko na inakyat at tinanong si Franco o ang sekretarya ni Anikka. Natatakot ako… Natatakot akong may malaman. I just waited for him patiently in my office until we go home together.

Pinilit ko pang buksan ulit ang pinto pero naka-lock talaga. I can even imagine Azriel inside fucking Anikka, just like in some movies. Sinilip ko ang loob nang maigi pero wala naman. Tumunog tuloy ang kotse bilang pag-alarma sa mga tao sa paligid na may nagtatangkang buksan ito.

Napatalon ako nang may magsalita sa likod ko. Napasimangot ako nang makita si Ysmael. He’s holding a starbucks coffee on his right hand and also some keys, while he’s holding his phone and wallet using his other hand.

“What are you doing?” He asked.

“Wala…”

“Hmmm… You going home?”

“Maya maya. You?”

“I’m going home. Look, Seleira,” Sumeryoso sya bigla at bahagyang lumapit.

“What’s the matter? You look upset these days,” seryoso nyang komento.

“Wala-”

“No. Your presence has always make me feel sunshine vibes, but lately you look not okay.”

Umiwas ako ng tingin at bahagyang nanlumo na rin. Natahimik kami pero titig na titig sya sa akin.

“You know what, I think I know this…” bigla akong kinabahan sa tono nya. Halos hindi na ako makahinga o makatingin sa kanya sa kaba sa maari nyang sabihin.

“I’ve seen it several times, but…” umiling iling sya na tila kinakalimutan ang sariling sinabi.

“Never mind. I hope not,” he added.

“W-what is it? T-tell me, Ysmael…” I begged. Lumapit na rin ako at halos umiyak na sa harap nya.

“Look, Seleira. I know you know I like you, but… I think I’m not in the right place-”

“Please! Ysmael, what’s in your mind? P-pareho ba tayo ng naiisip?”

Tinalikuran nya ako saglit at binuksan ang kotse nya. Nakita kong ipinasok nya ang mga bitbit nya doon bago ako harapin muli.

“What are you thinking?” pangungulit ko.

“I don’t know, Seleira!”

I’m not buying that. He maybe saw them doing– cheating! And if he really did see, then I will never forgive any of them.

I desperately held his hand which made him jump a bit. “Please, Ysmael… what is it?”

Napatili ako nang biglang napaatras si Ysmael sa marahas na paraan. Azriel ruthlessly punched him!!

“Azriel!” I shout. “Oh my!”

“FUCK YOU, YSMAEL! You really won’t stop flirtng my wife, huh?!” Galit na galit nyang sigaw. Pulang pula ang mukha nito sa galit.

“We are not doing anything,” Ysmael calmly said while wiping blood in the side of his lips.

“Fucking liar!” Singhal nito sa kanya bago ako harapin. Halos manliit ako habang galit na galit syang nakatitig sa akin gamit ang mga nagbabagang mga mata.

“Is this it, huh?! This is why you’re cold towards me?!” Galit nyang tanong. Parang bumabalik iyong dating Azriel na kinatatakutan ko. His whole aura is so dark. Very far from his baby boy side.

“Azriel-”

“You weren’t in your gotdamn office and you weren’t replying. Now, I’m seeing you here with him?!”

“Azriel, we were just talking-”

“IN THE DAMN PARKING LOT, SELEIRA!” Dumagundong ang galit nyang boses na nagpapikit sa akin.

“Azriel, don’t hurt her when you get home-”

“SHUT THE FUCK UP!” Singhal nya dito. “I know and I never hurt her physically!”

“Azriel, enough-”

“No. Let’s talk about you being cold towards me, you refusing to make love and kiss with me and talking to this fucker in the parking lot once we get home,” galit na galit nyang sabi.

Nakatitig lang sa akin si Ysmael habang pinipigilan kong tumulo ang aking luha. Padabog na sinusian at binuksan ni Azriel ang shotgun seat para makapasok ako.

“Y-yung bag ko nasa office-”

“Get the fuck in.”

Natahimik ako at pumasok na lang. Nanginginig ako sa kaba habang nasa kotse. Sobrang higpit ng hawak ni Azriel sa manibela at nag-iigting din ang kanyang panga habang nagmamaneho. Galit na galit sya at ngayon ay sobrang tahimik nya na mas lalong nagpapakaba sa akin.

“Azriel…” I called

“Later.”

Napaiwas ako ng tingin nang marinig ang malamig nyang boses. I’m not used to that. Natatakot ako.

Pinagbuksan nya ako muli ng pinto pagkadating at hinawakan ako sa pulsuhan. Hindi naman marahas o masakit pero natatakot talaga ako. Hindi ko nakita si Linda na dapat ay sinasalubong kami.

“Azriel-”

“Are you falling in love with my cousin?!” Hindi nya na napigilan ang sarili at sumabog na sya sa galit kahit wala pa kami sa kwarto.

“Azriel-”

“Answer me!” He demanded.

“I-I don’t-”

“I think you do. Why are you being cold to me?! It makes me upset!”

“N-nag-uusap lang naman talaga kami-”

“In the parking lot! Sa lahat ng lugar, sa parking lot pa talaga?! Why? So there aren’t many people that can see you?” He accused.

He’s a huge angry monster in front of me. My knees feel jelly and I’m so shy with the maids that can see us.

“Azriel, wala nga kaming ginagawang masama!” Inis kong sabi at tumalikod. Mabilis nya akong napihit paharap at mas lalo lang syang nagalit.

“Don’t turn your back at me, we aren’t done talking.”

“I said we were just talking, nagkataon lang na nasa parking lot kami!”

“Son of a bitch!” Galit na galit nyang mura saka tinabig ang isang vase sa living room. Napatalon ako sa takot, napatili naman ang ibang maids.

“Get back to your fucking work!” Galit nyang singhal sa mga ito. Hinawakan nya ulit ako sa pulsuhan bago hilain paakyat.

“Azriel-”

“I’m so pissed, Seleira. I’m so pissed that I want to kill him.”

I know he’s not bluffing around. Gusto kong i-sumbat sa kanya lahat ng frustrations ko pero pinili kong huwag na. I am not doing anything wrong and I am not cheating!

Ganoon na lamang lumala ang pagtambol ng dibdib ko nang makapasok kami sa aming kwarto. Parang gusto kong kainin na lamang ako ng lupa.

“Rose! Ibalik mo iyan, pakilamera ka!” si Linda.

“Eh kanino ba ito?”

“A-Azriel-”

“Who owns that?” Madilim nyang tanong. Palala na nang palala ang galit nya.

“N-naku, sir! S-sakin po-” natatarantang sabi ni Linda.

“H-hindi ko po alam, sir. Nakita ko po itong mga bote ng pills s-sa dressing room ni ma’am,” inosenteng sagot ni Rose.

Napapikit na lamang ako muli at nanginig nang marinig ang pagbasag ng mga ito sa sahig. Napatili rin sina Linda.

“Get the fuck out!” Galit na galit nitong utos sa dalawa. Tumakbo na si Rose pero si Linda ay naiwang nag-aalangan at nag-aalalang nakatingin sa akin. Umiiyak na rin ako at pilit na ngumiti sa kanya para sabihing ayos lang.

“M-ma’am…”

“I said get out!” nagagagalaiting sigaw ni Azriel. Hindi pa sya nakuntento at dinurong nya pa ang mga nagkalat na pills sa sahig gamit ang kanyang sapatos.

Talagang ayaw akong iwan ni Linda at sobrang nag-aalala ang kanyang mukha. Azriel forcefully pushed her out. Narinig ko pang tinatawag ako ni Linda na nagpaiyak pa lalo sa akin.

“Azriel, calm down-”

“How can I calm down! You were cold towards me, you constantly refused to make love with me, I caught you my cousin in the parking lot, and now this?! FUCKING PILLS?! SINCE WHEN?!” galit na galit nyang sigaw. Umiling iling lang ako at naiiyak na nang sobra.

“Why are you doing this to me?!” Halo ang pait at galit sa tono ng boses nya. Hinawakan nya ang magkabila kong balikat at siguro’y sa sobrang galit ay napipiga ako pero agad nya akong binitawan.

Pinagdiskitahan nya ang kahit anong makita. He throws everything in the floor while cursing endlessly. Napahagulgol na ako sa gilid at niyakap ang sarili sa takot.

“All I want… is you and a baby with you! You told me you weren’t ready, I understand that. But this?! I’m fucking thinking that you’re falling for my damned cousin!”

“I’m not!”

“WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?!”

“Azriel-”

“Sobra sobra ang kagustuhan ko magkaanak tayo, Seleira!” Ang boses nya ay parang maiiyak na rin pero lamang ang galit.

“I didn’t mean to…” nanghihina kong sabi.

“Stop. You know what? I thought I can trust you. You fucking disappoint me in every single way.”

Tumalikod sya at binuksan ang pinto. He called for a maid with his voice full of rage.

“S-sir?”

“Clean this mess and lock the door when you get out.”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at agad syang tiningnan. “A-Azriel, what will you do-”

“Locking you again,” matigas nyang sabi. Nakita kong kumikislap ang pisngi nya, he’s crying. He’s so disappointed.

“No! A-Azriel, you can’t do this to me again!” I cried but he didn’t even look at me.

He told the maid his last order before going out. “Tell Linda she’s fired.”

Wala akong nagawa kung hindi humagulgol sa kama. Nakita ko ring naawa iyong maid na naglilinis pero nanatili syang tahimik.

“P-please tell Linda, I’m sorry… and tell her I thank her so much. I hope we see each other again…” umiiyak kong sabi.

“S-sige po, ma’am.”

I’m so sorry, Linda. Until the end, you remained in my side, but I just let you fall. You lost your job because of me.

Nakatulog ako sa kaiiyak at nagising na lamang ako na nasa kama pa rin. I looked at my body and I am now wearing a night wear. Wala rin si Azriel at ang dilim at ang lamig ng kwarto.

Naiyak ako nang alalahanin ang mga nangyari. It was traumatizing although most of it is my fault. Tumayo ako at sinubukang buksan ang pinto pero nakalock na ito.

Maya maya ay may pumasok na maid na may dalang tray ng pagkain. I was hoping it’s Linda but it’s not. It’s Rose.

Pagkalapag na pagkalapag nya ng pagkain ay itinulak ko sya sa galit ko. Napatili naman sya at takot na takot na tumingin sa akin.

“You fucking snitch! Who told you to touch  my stuffs?!” I shout.

“M-ma’am-”

“It’s your fault why Linda got fired! Pakialamera ka!” Sigaw ko.

Pinalayas ko sya at sinabing ayaw ko nang sya ang mag-aasikaso sa akin. Naupo ako muli at muling napaisip ng mga mangyayari.

If I’m always here in home, then how can I know what Anikka and Azriel is doing?

Another maid entered to ask if I’m okay. Hindi na sya si Rose at hindi rin ito si Linda.

“Where’s Linda?” I asked.

“U-umalis na po, ma’am… P-pinalayas na po si Linda,” mahina nyang sabi at parang maiiyak na rin.

“S-Si Azriel?” I asked again. Umiwas sya ng tingin sa akin bago sumagot.

“U-umalis po eh.”

“Umalis?”

“O-opo, k-kanina pa po.”

She left but I even begged her to let me out pero mahigpit na utos daw sa kanila na huwag na huwag akong palalabasin. His rules when I was first locked here came back. I cannot go out again. I cannot work again. I cannot spy on them…

Nang makita ang cellphone ko ay agad ko iyong hinablot at planong itatago. Alam kong itatago rin ito ni Azriel kapag nakita nya.

Pagkatapos kumain ng hapunan ay nanlulumo akong naligo. Handa na ako matulog lahat lahat pero wala pa rin si Azriel.

It’s already 11 pm and he’s still not here. Where are you, Azriel?

The same maid came in to tell me to sleep already. May dala pa syang isang basong gatas. Umiling ako sa kanya.

“W-where’s my husband?”

“H-hindi pa po nakakauwi si sir, eh.”

Kinakabahan na akong muli. “K-kahit kanina? Hindi pa nakakauwi simula nang umalis?” nanginginig na rin ang boses ko.

“Hindi pa po, ma’am, eh.”

Umiiyak ako habang iniinom ang gatas. Pagkatapos ay itinapon ang sarili sa kama. Ramdam ko agad ang lamig at mahirap sa akin ang makatulog. I used to sleep in his arms and his warmth covering my whole body, but tonight is just so different.

Dahil na rin siguro sa pagod at kaiiyak ay nakatulog akong muli. I woke up, still, without Azriel. Inihatid ng isang maid ang agahan ko. Nakatulala lamang ako sa sobrang sakit ng puso ko.

“U-umuwi na ba si A-Azriel?” nanghihina kong tanong.

“Opo, ma’am. Ang sabi ng guard ay madaling araw na. Pumasok lang po dito sa kwarto saglit tapos umalis na rin ulit.”

Napaiwas ako ng tingin at mapait na tumango. Azriel, saan ka nagpalipas ng gabi?

“Lasing pa nga po, eh.”

Mas lalo lang akong kinabahan. Were they together? If they were together and Azriel was drunk, is it easy for her to take advantage of him?!

“Mababaliw na ata ako,” sabi ko sa maid. Nag-aalala syang nakatitig sa akin at para na ring maiiyak.

Wala sa sarili ko syang niyakap at humagulgol. Natigilan sya pero naramdaman kong niyakap nya rin ako pabalik at hinimas himas ang likod ko.

“I-I’m sorry, I just need to hug someone,” I said while crying. If only Linda was here, I will be more comfortable.

“Okay lang po, ma’am. Iiyak nyo lang po.”

Chapter 23

Rain

I can’t count how many times I’ve cried today. Kanina pa wala si Azriel dahil sa trabaho. Kakatapos ko lang mananghalian at talagang naiiyak ako palagi.

Wala pa si Linda. Kahit sinusungitan ko sya ay sya ang pinakapaborito ko sa kanila. That Rose is a wholeass witch!

Tinitigan ko ang phone ko na itinago ko sa unan. At least I have this. I can’t tell Tito I’m locked here because I know he’ll immediatley get me here which will cause a larger chaos.

Duda na ako kay Azriel. Once I’ll have the guts and enough evidences that he’s cheating on me, I’ll leave.

But on the other hand, he can just tell me… He can just tell me if he already lost interest. Kakayanin ko naman… sa tingin ko. He can just tell me and I might as well… just leave and never show up again.

Napatalon ako ng makatanggap ng text mula sa kanya. My heart jumped and suddenly feel excited. It’s ironic that the person who makes us feel pain is also the person that can only make us happy.

DEMON HUBBY 😡:

Do not do anything that will make me mad.

Nag-init ang mga sulok ng mata ko. Paano ba kami napunta sa ganitong sitwasyon? We were just okay the other day. He loves me. He loved me. He fell in love with me in a short period of time, does that means he can fall out of love easily, too?

Hindi na ako nag-reply at umiiyak na ni-rename ang pangalan nya sa contacts ko.

DEMON HUBBY 😡 changed to

Azriel

I turned my phone off and just forced myself to sleep.

Evening came and my dinner has arrived. Titig na titig ako sa orasan. 7pm. Out na ni Azriel.

I ate slowly while conciously looking at the door, waiting for him to come home. Pero nag-alas otso na lang at wala pa rin sya.

Nakatitig ako sa sariling cellphone at gustong gusto na i-send ang mensahe sa kanya.

To: Azriel

(Draft)

Where are you? I miss…

I erased it.

To: Azriel

(Draft)

Where are you? You should be home by now.

I erased it again.

To: Azriel

(Draft)

Come home, hubby, please…

In the end, I erased everything and I didn’t text him.

Where is he? He really should be home right now or at least… text me. Paano kung magkasama na naman sila? Hindi ko alam kung anong magagawa ko kung malaman kong may nangyayari nga sa kanila.

I opened my instagram and I saw anikka’s IG story. Kinabahan ako sa di malamang dahilan. I clicked her icon and I had a glance of her story.

Parang paulit-ulit na tinusok ang puso ko pagkakita ko nito. Nasa office na naman sya ni Azriel. Tangina.

This is basically Azriel’s living room. If he had a meeting, there’s a room inside his office na may malaking table. Why is she there?!

My phone beeped just when I was just about to cry.

Azriel

:

I’ll take another over time.

Dito na ako umiyak iyong tipong humahagulgol na ako. The same maid immediately made her way to go to me. Umiling iling lang ako habang hawak hawak ang cellphone.

He’s a fucking cheater.

He’s 100% cheating on me behind my back.

I’m not sure and I don’t have the evidences yet, but I trust my guts. May babae sya. At kapatid ko iyon.

“M-ma’am,” nag-aalalang tawag nito sa akin at sinubukan akong aluin pero umiwas ako.

“No! Don’t touch me!” I cried and hid below a blanket.

Hindi iyon magagawa sa akin ni Azriel. I think… I think he can’t… He shouldn’t… cheat on me. We’re married, right? This is so unfair.

Pinalayas ko ang maid at patuloy na umiyak. An hour passed and he’s still not here. Sigurado akong mugtong mugto na ang mga mata ko.

I forced myself to stop crying when I heard the maid knock.

“Andito na po si sir, ma’am.” I heard her voice from the door. Hindi ako gumalaw at nagkunwaring tulog. Narinig ko na rin naman syang umalis.

Idiinin ko ang pagpikit at humarap sa pader habang nagtutulog-tulugan.

“Is she awake?” I heard his deep voice from the door.

“Tulog na po, sir. Nag-iiyak po kanina eh, ayan, nakatulog na.”

Then I heard foot steps away and then going in. Sumara ang pinto at naramdaman ko ang paglubog ng kama. I heard him release a heavy sigh, tila napakalaki ng problema.

I mentally closed my eyes again when I felt his hand, caressing my arm. I am so disgusted. Get your fucking hand off me.

“Hey,” he whispered.

Nagsituluan muli ang pinipigil kong luha. I miss you, hubby. But I can’t fight this anger and disgust I feel towards you. Are you cheating on me?

Binitawan nya ako at naramdaman ko agad ang pangungulila sa kanya. By this time, if we’re in good terms, he’s just cuddling me until I fall asleep.

Narinig ko ang pagbukas at pagsara ng banyo at pagkatapos ay ang tunog ng shower. I hate that I still miss his fucking touch despite of all the anger I feel. Saan sya galing?! Anong ginawa nila?!

Maya maya ay naamoy ko na sya. Siguradong bagong ligo sya. He smells like musk and mint. He smells so nice. Lumubog muli ang kama at parang gusto kong tumakbo nang hawiin nya ang kumot. Hindi ko masyado ipinikit nang mariin ang mga mata ko upang hindi halata na pinipilit ko lang. Nakaawang din nang kaunti ang aking labi.

He cleared his throat. I felt his hand caress my hair like how he used to do it. Nang maramdaman kong pumatong sya sa akin nang kaunti at naramdamang hahalikan nya ako ay nagkunwari akong naalimpungatan.

I furrowed my brows and pushed him.

“Get off me!” galit kong sabi. Kumunot din ang noo nya.

“Why are you mad? Ako ang dapat magalit sa atin.”

“So what?!” Inis kong sigaw at napaupo na. Nakaupo na rin sya. Pagod na pagod ang mga mata nya habang titig na titig sa akin sa dilim.

“Seleira,” nagbabanta nyang tawag.

“Get lost!”

“I am the one who’s mad here. Don’t switch the-”

“I don’t care! I don’t wanna sleep with you!” I said harshly. Nakita kong napaawang ang bibig nito at dumaan ang sakit sa kanyang mga mata. He looks shocked and hurt at the same time that he couldn’t speak a word.

“I said leav-”

“Why?! Will you feel better if I were Ysmael and I am here with you?!” medyo galit nyang tanong. He’s still not over his insecurity over him. Pero mas galit ako ngayon dahil pakiramdam ko ay nagsasala sya sa akin.

“No! I don’t like him and I want you to leave!” Frustrated kong sabi. Nawala ang kunot ng noo nya nang sabihin kong hindi ko gusto si Ysmael.

“Leave!” Dagdag ko pa.

“But this is our room,” kalmado nya ulit na sabi.

“Then I leave! Oh well, I couldn’t leave,” I said as my tears are about to burst again. “Sa sahig na lang ako matutulog.”

Umamba akong tatayo pero mabilis nya akong nahila pabalik.

“Subukan mong matulog sa sahig,” nagbabanta nyang sabi. Marahas kong binawi ang kamay sa kanya, he looked at me again with his hurt eyes. Umiwas ako ng tingin.

“Then do something! Go sleep in a guest room or anything! Ayokong katabi ka!”

“Ano bang kinagagalit mo? It’s me who was betrayed and hurt, Seleira. You lied to me!” Puno ng hinanakit ang boses nya at pakiramdam ko ay nanghihina na sya.

“J-just leave!” I insist. Nagtagal pa syang nakatanga at nakatitig lang sa akin bago tumayo. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko na nalulungkot ako dahil susunod sya sa gusto ko.

Pinanood ko syang kumuha ng isang unan at comforter sa closet. Hinintay ko syang lumabas pero inilatag nya lamang ang comforter sa sahig katabi ng kama ko.

“I said leave, Azriel!” I said.

“I won’t. This room is where you sleep right? Then might as well, I’ll sleep here, too,” pinal nyang sabi at nahiga na.

Naiinis ako sa kanya. O sa sarili ko. He’s probably cheating on me while at the same time, he’s being like this. His usual self.

He doesn’t know why I’m mad. Kung totoo mang nagloloko sya, huwag sanang dumating sa punto na akto ko silang mahuhuli. Dahil hindi ko alam kung anong magagawa ko. O baka madurog lang ako. Sobra sobra. Nang pinung-pino.

I barely sleep last night so I woke up late. It’s already 11:30 AM. Ang almusal ko ay kanina pa siguro dito at ang lamig lamig na. Of course, Azriel is not here anymore.

I checked my phone, only to find Anikka requested to message me in instagram.

I clicked Accept. Nag-iinit ang dugo ko makita ko pa lamang ang pangalan nya. And maybe Azriel didn’t tell her, huh? I asked her why and she replied that she haven’t seen me since yesterday.

Mayroon pa syang IG story ng selfie nya at mukha syang masayang masaya. She looks pretty and I am now having insecurities.

I wish I had her morena skin. I wish I wasn’t so pale. I wish I had big boobs like hers instead of my little ones I want to ask her what did she do in Azriel’s office last night and the last last night.

Hindi na ako nag-reply at sineen lamang sya. I ate my newly brought lunch quietly, thinking of my actions.

The night came and Azriel is still not here. Alas otso na muli ng gabi at wala pa sya. But this time, he didn’t text.

“Ma’am? Gatas nyo po…” the same maid entered with a glass of milk.

“Ang asawa ko dumating na ba?” I asked.

“Ah eh, wala pa po, ma’am…” maingat nyang inilapag ang baso sa bedside table.

“Nagsabi ba syang mahuhuli sya ng uwi?” malungkot kong tanong.

“Wala pong tawag, ma’am, eh.”

Umiwas ako ng tingin at tumango. Pinanood ko syang umalis gayon din ang paglock ng pinto. The rain started pouring randomly which made me feel colder and emptier. Nilibot ko ang paningin sa kwarto namin. This was once full of love, cuddles, and warmth. Now, it’s only cold, empty, and dark.

My phone beeped for a text.

Azriel

:

I took an over time for important business things. I’ll be home in an hour.

Pumait lahat ng nasa isip ko. Bakit sya palaging nag-oovertime? Hindi naman sya ganito noon ah!

Galit na galit kong tinitigan ang bintana. It’s not blocked, but it’s too small. Then I looked at the balcony. Kumabog ang puso ko sa naisip.

I slowly walked to our balcony. Nabasa agad ako ng ulan. Sinilip ko ang ibaba at walang tao, of course, it’s raining.

If you’re having an affair with someone else, then I’ll just leave… and never come show up again.

Impit akong napatili nang madulas ako nang sinubukan kong akyatin ito. Mabuti at napakapit ako sa railings nito. Halos hindi ako makatili dahil baka may makarinig sa akin. Nakalambitin na ako at tanging ang nakakapit lamang ay ang kanan kong kamay.

“Shit,” nanginginig kong bulong sa sarili. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nanginginig, dahil ba sa takot o sa lamig ng ulan na dumadausdos sa bawat parte ng katawan ko.

I looked down and realized it’s not that high and I’ll probably not be hurt that much. It’s now or never.

In a count of three, I took my hand off the railing. Bumagsak ako at mahina akong napaungol sa sakit, naitukod ko kasi ang tuhod ko. Nanlalabo ang mga mata ko dahil nagsimula akong umiyak.

How did I end up with this situation? I feel so poor and pathetic. While, Anikka is probably enjoying there… at my husband’s lap.

Nagtago ako sa isang malaking paso. I managed to smile when I remember a memory about me, hiding in a big pot. Back when everything was still okay.

Dahan dahan akong gumapang papunta sa main gate. It was easy for me since it’s raining, the maids don’t roam around like they usually do.

The two guards are just chilling in a small house. I mean, it’s like an open house. I can see them and they’re just using their phones.

I waited for a while. Sobra na ang panginginig ko dahil basang basa na ako. Sinisipon na rin ako at bahagyang masakit na ang ulo. Kanina pa ako umiiyak kaya siguro ang sakit sakit ng ulo ko.

When I saw the guards stood up, alam ko nang andyan na si Azriel. Kinabahan ako pero tumakbo ako palapit saka nagtago. His elegant car made its way as the guards open the gate. Sinasabayan ko ang kotse nya habang nakayuko upang hindi ako makitang papalabas.

I ran as fast as I could but I immediately heard one of them calling me. Hindi ko na pinansin at tumakbo na lang ako nang tumakbo. Nanlalabo ang mga mata ko sa mga luhang hindi mapigilan.

Nadapa ako at sumubsob sa sementadong sahig. May bumusina at ipinikit ko na lamang ang mga mata ko at naghintay. Imbis na masaktan ay narinig ko ang galit na galit na boses ni Azriel.

“Seleira! What the actual fuck!” Sigaw nya. Basang basa na rin sya ng ulan. Hinila nya ako sa gilid kung saan madilim at walang tao at saka ako hinarap.

Nanginginig ko syang tiningala. Patuloy ako sa pag-iyak. What did you do, Azriel? Did you cheat on me?

“I’m asking you!” Galit na galit nyang sigaw. Humagulgol ako at umiling iling.

“Paano kung may mangyari sayo don?! Ano sanang nangyari kung wala ako!” His voice is so frustrated, angry and hurt at the same time. He removed his coat and put it in my shoulder.

He looks like a mad greek god, punishing me for a sin. Bumakat ang mga muscles nya dahil sa basa na ang kanyang katawan.

“Hindi ko alam! Hindi ko alam kasi ang hinihiling ko lang ay makalayo sayo!” I cried. Napaawang ang bibig nya at halatang nasaktan sya nang sobra.

“What did you say?” Lumalim lalo ang boses nya.

“I said I don’t wanna be with you anymore!” I shout. He’s hurting me that I couldn’t sleep peacefully at night. He’s hurting me that I started having insecurities and doubts about myself.

“Then who the fuck do you wanna be with?!” Galit na galit nyang tanong. Hindi na namin inanda kahit basang basa na kami. “Ysmael, perhaps?!”

“Wala! I… I hate you… So bad…” Pautal utal kong sabi dahil hindi na ako makahinga nang maayos kakaiyak.

“You don’t mean that. Bawiin mo ang sinabi mo,” nagbabanta nyang sabi. I cried and shook my head.

“No. I mean everything I say,” I lied. Napapikit sya at pagdilat ng mga mata nya ay halos hindi na sya makatingin nang deretso sa akin.

He looks so hurt and weak.

“Umuwi na tayo,” nanghihina nyang sabi. Umiyak ako at umiling iling. I pushed his hand that tried touch me away and I easily do it. Nanghihina sya at sobrang sakit ng ekspresyon nya. Mukha syang maiiyak ngunit pinipigilan lamang.

“I said I don’t want to be with you anymore! Why do you always control me? I don’t belong to anyone! I belong to myself!”

He groaned and pulled his own hair out of frustration. Tumalikod ako pero mabilis nya akong nahila.

“Uuwi. na. tayo.” matigas nyang sabi. He became strong again as he pulled me closer. Naramdaman ko ang init ng dibdib nya pero agad ko iyong tinulak.

“No! Please. Hayaan mo na ako-”

“Ikaw ang nagsinungaling sa akin, Seleira. Pinaasa mo ako kahit na alam na alam mong gustong gusto ko magkaanak sayo. You did everything… to make me mad, to make me sad, jealous, and all the fucking angry emotions in the world, so do not act like I’m the one hurting you here,” galit nyang sabi.

Hindi na ako makapagsalita at hindi ko maisumbat sa kanya ang hinala ko dahil isa pa lamang iyong hinala.

But how can you explain Anikka in his living room?! Kung meeting lang ay sana doon sa isang kwarto sa opisina nya at hindi sa living room. Something is just not right.

Nanginginig pa rin ako kahit na nasa tapat na ng fireplace ng mansion. Binihisan ako ng maid at pinaiinit sa harap nito. The maid was so shocked that I managed to escaped.

Si Azriel ay nasa itaas, malamang, nasa kwarto. Inutusan ko ang maid na kuhain ang phone ko sa itaas. Ininom ko naman ang aking hot chocolate with marshmallows habang nagpapainit.

I started thinking about the things we have talked about under the rain. Whatever he says, it doesn’t change the fact that he’s probably cheating on me. Inililihis nya lang ang topic para sa akin ang sisi.

I hate him. I hate men like him. Hinding hindi ko na sya kakausapin.

“Eto po, ma’am…” ang maid. Inabot nya sa akin ang phone ko at pumwesto sya sa likod ko para tuyuin ang buhok ko gamit ang isang tuwalya.

“Please put my hair vitamins, nasa kwarto rin. The color pink bottle,” wala sa sarili kong sabi. Umalis sya muli at pagbalik ay dala na iyon. Nilagyan nya ang buhok ko habang tinutuyo iyon.

“Ma’am, inihanda na po ni sir iyong pampaligo nyo sa itaas. Sa bath tub po, warm na yung tubig at maraming bula. Maiigi po iyon para di kayo sipunin.”

Tumango ako at tumayo na. Shall I expect him to take a bath with me? There’s no way I’ll agree with that.

Umakyat ako at binuksan ang pinto ng kwarto namin. Naabutan ko syang may kausap sa cellphone, mabilis nya naman iyong ibinaba nang makita ako. Nanliit ang mga mata ko pero agad umiwas ng tingin. Who is he talking to?

Napansin ko ring bagong ligo na sya. Boxers na lang ang suot. So he really… won’t take a bath with me, huh? I mean, I know I will not agree. But at least… just ask.

Umirap ako sa sarili at tinungo ang banyo. Naalala ko ang mukha nya kanina. He looks in pain and really hurt. Pero sa mga nararamdaman ko ngayon, dinagdagan nya lang ang mga rason kung bakit ayoko magka-anak sa kanya.

Muntik na ako makatulog sa banyo. Nanghihina akong umahon at nagpunas. Nagbihis na rin ako pagkatapos. Unlike my usual sexy night wears, I wore pajamas and long sleeves. Nilalamig din naman ako at isa pa, hindi nya naman ako yayakapin sa pagtulog kaya talagang lalamigin ako.

Paglabas ko ay nakaupo na sya sa sahig kung saan nakalatag ang comforter nya. Napatingin sya sa akin at hindi na natanggal ang titig nya. Hindi ko sya pinansin at dumiretso sa kama.

Gusto kong matawa. Ang may-ari ng mansion at ang sikat at mayamang CEO, natutulog sa sahig.

Humiga ako at nagkumot. Humarap din ako sa pader. I actually felt a bit bad for him since it’s raining very hard and it’s so cold and he’s sleeping on the floor.

“Just go sleep in a guest room, Azriel. Malamig ang sahig,” walang emosyon kong sabi nang di sya hinaharap.

“I want to be here,” mahina nyang sabi.

“Just go-”

“For what? You’ll end up escaping me again?” Nagtatampo ang tono nito. Hindi ko na sya sinagot.

I really swear I won’t talk to him again.

Naramdaman kong tumayo sya at dumilim na, pinatay nya na ang ilaw. I didn’t even had time to dry my hair. Sigurado akong nakatitig na naman yan na para bang hindi nya ako niloloko.

Chapter 24

Break

Each passing day, I feel emptier and emptier. Azriel is always going home late. Tulog na ako pag dumadating sya at tulog pa rin ako kung aalis na sya.

I don’t know why, it’s either because his company is launching a big project or… he’s just being with Anikka behind my back.

I will never talk to him again.

Tinitigan ko ang balkonahe na nakasarado na ngayon. Inilipat ko ang tingin sa bintana. Like what I said, it’s small but not too small that I couldn’t fit kasya pa rin ako kung pipilitin.

Buo na ang desisyon kong tumakas. He treats me like an animal. Asawa nya ako pero hindi ibig sabihin nun na maari na nya akong kontrolin at ikulong. I know I did mistakes, but do I deserve this?

I’m being locked here while he’s probably enjoying his every minute there. Wala ako, walang makakakita kung may nangyayari nga. I suddenly remembered what Ysmael said, hindi nya itinuloy pero pakiramdam ko ay may nakita sya.

“This marriage is bullshit! Mag-divorce na tayo!” galit na galit kong sigaw sa pader. I want to shout him in his face. “I never loved you and I will never love you, Azriel!”

Pinaghahampas ko ang pader ng unan na para bang ito si Azriel. “I hate you so much! Fuck you, cheater!

“I want to… file a divorce! I want to be free! I want to do what I want. I want to pursue modeling! But I can’t do any of that because of you, controling freak!” I cried. I wish I can say this all to him pero kapag nandyan sya ay natatameme ako. He is so intimidating.

I stood up and packed all my clothes in a bag. Umiiyak ako habang itinatago iyon sa ilalim ng kama. I want to escape.

I mentally laughed at myself, thinking about the novels I’ve read where the wives escape their abusive husbands and started pursuing their careers. I wish I can do that, too. I wish I could be a model and my face and body will be wherever he goes. At hanggang tingin na lang sya. Not even his finger tips will be able to touch me. Then I’ll remarry a good man which will make him regret cheating on me if he actually do.

I wish my life was just like the novels I’ve read. But I know it’s not. If I won’t do actions now, I’ll end up being a martir wife. There’s no such thing as destiny. We can’t just rely with the saying “If it’s meant to be, it will be”

No, that’s bullshit. That was my motto and now, look at me. Ugly and pathetic as fuck.

Matapos itago ang bagahe ay naupo ako sa kama. At least, I still have my phone with me. I just used it to look at the google maps.

This is where the bus stop. I can make it up there by just walking for about 10 minutes. If I am escaping, then I am running which will make it for just 5 minutes.

Inalala ko kung nasaan ang bahay ni tito. No way I’ll go home in Daddy’s house. Naroon si Anikka. Tito Glassifer’s house is just 2 hours away from here. Re

Spalo

Village. After riding a bus, I still have to ride a taxi. That’s it.

Nang gumabi ay inaasahan ko nang late si Azriel. I just ate my dinner innocently. Tahimik lang akong kumakain at hindi sinusungitan ang maid. Mukha tuloy syang nagtataka habang pinapanood ako.

“What?”

“Ma’am, kapatid nyo po iyong Anikka, hindi ba?” tanong nya bigla. Kumunot ang noo ko at dinaluhan ng kaba. Don’t fucking tell me she’s gonna spill some tea.

“W-why?”

“Ah, kanina po kasi hinihintay ko kayong magising. Tapos naliligo si sir, tumunog yung phone nya. Nag-text po iyong Anikka Farrah na contact name,” inosente nyang sabi.

Humigpit ang hawak ko sa aking tinidor. Galit na galit na talaga ako. Halos hindi ko na manguya ang kinakain ko dahil sa panggigil ko.

“W-what did she say in the t-text?” I asked nervously.

“Ay, hindi ko na po nakita, ma’am kasi kailangan naka-unlock iyong phone. Nag-notif lang po na nag-text iyong Anikka Farrah…” sagot nya. Tumango ako mapait na nag-iwas ng tingin.

“Pero ma’am, ang ganda nyo po doon sa lockscreen wallpaper ni sir. Halos di ko nga po intindihin iyong text eh, natulala po ako sa picture nyo,” nangingiti nyang sabi.

Samantalang ako ay hindi na makangiti sa mga nararamdaman ko. That witch. Sinasamantala nyang wala ako.

“Bagay kayong model, ma’am-”

“How can I be one if I’m locked here?” Inis kong sabat. Nawala ang ngiti nya at natahimik na lang.

Pinanood ko syang lumabas dala dala ang tray nang matapos kong kumain. I can’t live my whole life like this. Actually, kaya kong ayusin ito. I can just kiss him, beg, and cuddle him, and I’m sure we’ll be alright. Pero hindi. Hindi ngayon na sobra sobra na ang duda ko sa kanya.

I looked at the clock and it says 7:30 pm. Late na naman sya. Iniwan ko muna ang bagahe ko at pinagkasya ang sarili sa bintana. I successfully do it. Pero pulang pula na ang hita at braso ko dahil pinagkakasya ko lamang. I looked down and there’s a maid na nagtapon ng basura.

Gabi na at alam kong hindi ako madaling makita. I’ll just pray that the maid won’t come back to my room at the moment or my plan would be ruined.

Ginawa ko ang katulad ng ginawa ko kahapon. Tumalon ako at hindi iyon gumawa masyado ng ingay bukod sa impit kong ungol dahil naitukod ko na naman ang tuhod ko.

Nang maka-recover ay dahan dahan akonh tumayo. Masyado nang madilim kaya hindi ako makikita rito. Nagtago ako muli sa isang malaking paso, wala talaga akong kadala-dala.

I waited for another thirty minutes before I see Azriel’s car. The guards immediately opened the big gates. Hindi gaya ng inaasahan ko na sya mismo ang magpapark ng kanyang kotse, agad syang bumaba at ipinasa sa guard ang susi. I can’t escape if he immediately went down!!

I looked at him and he looked so tired and mad. Medyo magulo ang buhok na nakadadagdag sa kanyang appeal. Pagod na pagod ang mga mata nito.

Just when I was about to stand up, the same maid came rushing out of the door, screaming.

“Si Ma’am! Nawawala!” She shout. Naalarma agad si Azriel pati na rin ang mga guards.

Can I just get out of here?! This is so stressful and chaotic!

“Again?! Son of a bitch!” Dumagundong agad ang galit na boses ni Azriel. Nagkakagulo na ang mga maids at inutos nya nang isara ang buong village.

This is so nostalgic. I’ve been here before. Now I’m here again.

“How the fuck are you so dumb?! Dalawang beses na!” Inis nyang singhal sa maid ko. Naawa ako pero wala naman akong magawa

I was about to look up when I got taken aback by someone who pulled me up. Bumungad sa akin ang galit na galit na si Azriel.

“What is it now, Seleira!” Halo ang galit at pagod sa boses nya. Agad akong naiyak.

“Don’t cry at me. What is it that you’re doing?! How the hell did you go down? Did you jump?!” Akusa nya at papula na nang papula ang mukha nya sa galit.

Binatawan nya ako napamura sya sa galit. Galit din ako. Galit na galit din ako.

“Why don’t you just let me-”

“What is happening to you!”

“You’re controling me, obviously!” Umiiyak kong sigaw. Naramdaman kong natahimik ang mga maids at guards na nanonood.

Sobrang sakit makita ng ganitong ekspresyon ni Azriel. Medyo namumula ang mga mata nya at mukha syang nasasaktan at pagod na pagod na.

“Because you always want to escape me! You lied to me!” He repeat his words. Tila ito ang pinakanagpapasakit ng puso nya.

“So-”

“Please, stop hurting me!” Singhal nya pero rinig na rin dito ang pagmamakaawa. I looked at him. Unbelievable. What a liar. You’re the one who must stop hurting me, cheater

“No! You set-”

“PAGOD NA PAGOD NA AKO, SELEIRA.” Nagulat ako sa sinabi nya at kung paano nya ito sinabi. “Pagod na pagod na ako sa trabaho, sa negosyo, sa lahat lahat, putangina.”

Nagsituluan na ang mga luha ko. Kumikislap na rin ang mga mata nya. Umiiyak sya. He looks so devastated and broken. He couldn’t even look at me straightly. Para syang hirap na hirap.

“P-pagod ka na?” mahina kong tanong. Nag-iigting ang panga nya at marahas na pinalis ang luha sa sariling pisngi. Malayo ang tingin nya at para akong kakabahan sa mga susunod nyang sasabihin.

“It doesn’t matter… as long as I have you,” nanghihina nyang sabi.

“But I don’t know how the fuck to trust you anymore,” he added. Napayuko ako at para akong nagdurugo sa mga sinabi nya. He can’t trust me anymore.

“I don’t trust you either. Just let me go-”

“THERE’S NO FUCKING WAY I’LL DO THAT!” Bigla syang nagalit muli.

“But you’re tired! I’m tired, as well! Let’s end this! Nasasaktan na ako-”

“Ikaw ang nanakit sa akin,” matigas nyang sabi. Umiling iling ako at frustrated na pinunasan ang luha.

“You don’t love me. You’re just obsessed with the fact that you can control me. That wherever you go, whatever you do, you can always have me, waiting at your home. You’re obsessed with the fact that you own me because I was indirectly sold to you. This body isn’t mine anymore, neither this mind. I am all yours because you saved our company. I don’t own myself. You are always the one in control, that’s what makes you crazy for me. Kayang kaya mo akong kontrolin. Hindi mo ako mahal, mahal mo ang ideyang nakokontrol mo ako.”

I don’t even know where my voice came from. My voice was table and a bit deeper than my usual voice.

Napaawang ang bibig nya. He looks shocked and hurt. What? Realization hits him probably.

“So please. Don’t control me anymore,” mahina kong sabi.

“If that’s the only way to have you; If I have to control you just to stay with me, I’ll do it-”

“That’s bullshit!” Galit kong sigaw. Nasabunutan ko ang sarili ko sa sobrang frustrated. “I don’t want your love!”

“FUCK!” He cursed. Umiiyak na sya at ang hina hina nya na sa paningin ko.

“Seleira, pagod na pagod na ako sa ganito-”

“Ako rin! Gabi gabi ako umiiyak dahil sayo! You don’t know it because you’re so busy!” Umiiyak kong sigaw.

“I cry, too! You don’t know it because you’re probably thinking about my cousin-” I slapped him which made him stop. His fucking insecurity is one of the reasons why I am so hurt.

“A-ang sama mo,” umiiyak kong sabi. Nanatili ang pisngi nya sa direksyon kung saan ko sya sinampal. Nag-iigting na rin ang panga nya.

“You’re not my Azriel anymore. I hate you,” I whispered. Napapikit sya nang mariin.

“Is this what you want?” malamig nyang sabi.

“This is what I want,” I said. I lied.

“Then do it. But I will not divorce with you,” matigas nyang sabi.

“Then don’t. Of course, you always have the control, right? Magsama-sama kayo,” Galit kong sabi atsaka tumalikod. I am refering to him and to Anikka, but he maybe thought all of these people here.

“What if I find another?” What he just asked made me stop. Parang pinutol ang hininga ko sa tinanong nya. His voice sounds so hurt and sad.

“I don’t care,” I last replied.

“Of course, I won’t do that,” he let out his strong words and the cold air blew in a perfect timing.

You, liar. You already did. At kapatid ko pa.

No one stopped me from going out the whole damned mansion. Isang beses ko syang nilingon at sobra sobra akong nasasaktan makita syang ganoong ayos. He looks at nothing, his hair all messed up, pulang pula ang mukha, at halatang umiyak.

Is he giving up already?!

If he is… then I will give up, too. And like what I said, I’ll just leave… and never show up again.

I don’t know how I got to tito Glassifer’s house. Humahagulgol ako at hindi na kumatok pa.

Natigilan ako nang makakita ng isa pang lalaki sa bahay ni tito. Hindi ko alam kung anong reaksyon ang uunahin ko. Ang umiyak ba dahil ang sakit sakit ng pinag-usapan namin ni Azriel o ang magulat dahil may kalambingan si Tito na lalaki sa living room nya.

“Seleira!” sa gulat nya ay naitulak nya ang lalaki. Wait… tito is a gay?!

“Fuck,” mura noong lalaki nya habang bumabangon dahil naitulak sya nito.

“Tito…” I cried. “Azriel is probably cheating on me.”

“What the fuck?” Medyo gulat nyang tanong.

Ikinuwento ko sa kanya lahat ng alam at kutob ko. Anikka always in his office, in his living room, specifically. Azriel and Anikka always having over time and everything.

“Tangina. If this is true, then there’s no way I’ll forgive him, Seleira. I don’t care if our company will be down, I’ll arrange the divorce for you. If this is true… hindi ko alam ang magagawa ko.” Galit na galit ang boses ni tito habang niyayakap at tinatahan ako.

Ang lalaki nya naman ay tahimik lang at patingin tingin.

“P-please don’t tell Azriel about this, tito. Hindi pa sapat ang mga alam ko,” umiiyak kong sabi. “I want… an actual evidence.”

“Shhh hush hush… I won’t tell him,” pag-aalo nya. “If this is fucking true, Seleira… hindi ko na lang talaga alam. I never liked Anikka, anyway,” dagdag nya pa.

Hindi na ako nakapagsalita at pinunasan na lamang ang luha ko.

“Then he just let you slip off?” he asked.

“He did. Nagkasagutan kami at… at sinumbat kong palagi nya akong kinokontro… Naawa siguro sya o baka… nagsasawa na sya sa akin. Sabi nya pagod na raw sya,” I cried like a child.

I know, Azriel said that he’s just tired of work and not me. Pero pakiramdam ko sa akin na sya napapagod at nagsasawa. He just won’t tell. Or I am just over thinking.

“Pagod sa’yo?” paglilinaw nya. Umiling ako

“Sa trabaho raw,” I said. Hindi na nagsalita si tito. He sent me to a guest room at mabuti na lamang ay may mga damit ako dito. These are my clothes back in college. Mga bestida at masusuot ko pa naman.

We ate dinner silently at napapatingin lang ako sa kanilang dalawa. They are just looking at each other meaningfully. Gusto kong ngumisi man lang pero ayaw ng labi ko.

“So who is he?” I asked.

“S-Seleira, don’t mind him,” sabi ni tito. He shifted uncomfortably. Tiningnan naman sya ng lalaki na parang na-offend ito. Para akong maiiyak nang maalala si Azriel. He used to look at me that way kapag may sinasabi akong hindi nya nagugustuhan.

“Fine. This is Hiro. My three-year-boyfriend,” he said. Napaawang ang bibig ko sa gulat.

“Three years?”

“Yes. Huwag nang matanong,” he said uncomfortably.

“I never thought… you were a closeted gay, tito. But it’s fine. I’m not homophobic,” I tried to sound cheerful. “So I’m calling you tito…?”

“Tito Hiro,” maikli nitong saad. Tito Glassifer is good looking and so is he. Hindi ko nga lang sila masyado makausap dahil may bumabangabag sa isip ko.

“I’m sorry I hid this to you, Seleira,” si tito nang ihatid nya ako sa isang guest room. Nanghihina lang ako umiling.

“It’s fine, tito. Magpapahinga na po ako.”

I slept with a heavy heart. Nag-aalala pa ako dahil hindi ko nagawa ang evening skin care ko pero ang sakit talaga. I don’t have the urge to do anything.

I just woke up with the chaos outside. Naririnig kong may nagsisigawan. Pupungas pungas pa akong bumangon at sumilip sa bintana.

It’s Azriel.

No, a drunk Azriel.

His cheeks are drunk blushed. Namumugto ang mata at ang laki ng eyebags and he’s banging the gate. Sina Tito naman ay nasa loob at nagsisigawan na.

“Go home, Azriel. Wala dito ang pamangkin ko!” sigaw ni tito. I cringe with his deep voice.

“She wasn’t in their house! She must be here! Please… give me my wife,” he sounds like a crazy man! I want to go to him but tito just said that I’m not here.

Nasasaktan akong makita syang nagkakaganyan. Ang lala na ng away namin. I don’t think this will be fixed anytime soon.

Nagwawala sya sa labas at kinakalampag ang gate. Sinisigaw nya rin ang pangalan ko. Umiiyak na ako, ang sakit sakit sa dibdib makita syang ganyan kahina. He’s always been that independent strong man but he just look so weak right now.

“I said wala dito ang pamangkin ko! Ano bang nangyari sa inyo?!” Pagkukunwari ni tito.

“SELEIRA! FINE. I’M SORRY, BABY, PLEASE…”

Umiling iling ako sa sarili ko. No. We won’t be that easy, Seleira. Sigurado akong may relasyon sila ni Anikka. Nasa dulo na ng dila ni Ysmael.

Pumasok si Tito at nakita kong naiwan si tito Hiro sa labas.

“Hija, do not go out. Your husband is sick obsessed! A damn cheater also, if what you’re saying is true.”

Hindi ko na pinakinggan si tito at umiyak na lamang. Hanggang sa nakita ko na lang ang mga guards na kuhain sya. Nag-aalangan pa ang mga ito dahil marahil kilala si Azriel.

But then I saw a black van that is also Azriel’s. Lumabas iyong driver at ilang mga tauhan nya atsaka sya kinuha. Nanalalaban at nagsisisigaw pa si Azriel pero talagang nanghihina na sya kaya madali syang nakuha.

I hope he’s fine.

“He looks so weak without you, hija, not gonna lie.” komento ni tito sa likod ko.

“She’s his weakness, obviously,” narinig ko naman ang boses ni tito Hiro.

“But hindi dapat tayo magpadala dyan. If he’s really cheating, then he should learn a lesson. Once we find out he’s really cheating on you, do not ever come back.”

Tumango ako. I don’t have a plan coming back either.

“Siguradong makakarating ito kay kuya. Shit! How I want to slap Anikka,” inis nitong sabi.

Kinakabahan ako. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. I feel like something bad is going to happen.

“Wala akong cellphone,” mahina kong sabi. “I forgot it in his mansion.”

“Babe- este, Hiro, hindi ba may luma kang phone? Ipahiram mo muna,” nadulas pa si tito. Gustong gusto kong matawa. I’ve never thought tito is a gay. I mean, there’s nothing wrong with it. Nagulat lang talaga ako.

“Yeah,” sagot ni tito Hiro at lumabas. Bumaling naman sa akin si Tito Glassifer.

“Pero android iyon, hija,” sabi nya. Kumunot agad ang noo ko.

“What? Wala bang iPhone, tito? I’m not used to that,” I said. There’s no way I’ll use an android phone! So cheap and oldies!

Bumuntong hininga si tito bago napahilot ng sariling sintido.

“Just use it for a while. Bibilhan din kita next week,” he said. I nodded.

“Just 8s,” dagdag nya pa, naniniguradong hindi ang latest model.

“I know. Thanks.”

Nasa kwarto na ako at tinititigan ang pinahiram na cellphone. Its model is Oppo A3s. What the heck is that? Is that like… new? Or expensive? I don’t know.

Hindi ko memoryado ang cellphone number ni Azriel but he knows mine. Kaso naroon lang din ang cellphone ko so it would be useless.

“Seleira, kakain na,” pagtawag ni tito. Tumango ako at lumabas na ng kwarto. Their house is just a simple house in a village. Houses in village are just the same.

“Do you eat that? Luto iyan ni Hiro,” sabi ni tito habang papaupo sya. I looked at th food and it’s sweet and sour fish. I remember Azriel cooked this for me before.

Tumango na lang ako at umupo. Ramdam ko pa ring nagkaka-ilangan silang dalawa. I shouldn’t stay here for long. They look so awkward.

“I should get a job, tito,” mahina kong sabi. Nagkatinginan naman silang dalawa.

“Ah eh… how about your husband?”

“He must stop controling me, tito. Nasasakal na ako.”

“Yeah, I know. But knowing him, he can literally do just whatever he wants.”

Hindi na ako nagsalita pa. Buo na ang desisyon kong humanap at gawin ng trabahong gusto ko.

“I say you two should talk about it first,” I heard tito Hiro’s serious voice.

“But a woman’s guts are never wrong, Hiro,” depensa naman ni tito.

“I know. But it’s really necessary. Communication is very important. Kung mapapaliwanag nyang hindi iyon totoo, then good. Start making your marriage work. Pero kung totoong nag-checheat sya at hindi nya mapapaliwanag, then that’s the time you should leave,” tito Hiro said expertly.

I notice how mature he acts. He acts like a dad. I suddenly remember daddy. Does he also know about this?

“Y-yes, Hiro, you’re right. But if Seleira wants to just leave because she’s really in pain, then let’s let her be,” si tito Glassifer naman.

“You’re right,” pag-sang ayon pabalik sa kanya ni tito Hiro. They are so mature. I envy them.

“And about your work, hija… Do you mean like working in labs since you took Physics?” tito Glassifer asked but I shook my head.

“I don’t like that either. I’m thinking of pursuing modeling,” dahan dahan kong sabi. “I can’t do that if I will stick to my cheater husband. He always control me.”

“O-oh, that’s great! You suit there very much. I know some person in modeling industry. You know Madame Elise? The woman you once met in an event back in your college days? She owns the Dames Élégantes! Plus, I’ve seen her son once, I already know he’s interested in you,” parang nagniningning ang mga mata ni tito. “But you got a husband, so no.”

“Tito, you’re talking about Adam. He’s my good friend. He took BS Photography and I’ve seen in his instagram, he’s doing so great in his job…” mahina kong sabi.

Lumilipad ang utak ko. Na kay Azriel ang utak ko. I can’t stop thinking about the brute.

“Then that’s perfect!” he said.

“Adam is not interested in me. Magkaibigan lang talaga kami at medyo malapit.”

Our brunch ended and I immediately went back to my room. They don’t have maids so they washed the dishes together. Good for them to bond. Masyado ata akong nakakaabala dito.

Maghapon ay nakaabang ako sa bintana. I know. I know how hypocrite I am to hate him and wait for him at the same time. I just can’t help it.

I think… I’m already falling for him.

Night time came and my two titos invited me to go watch a movie in the living room. I know they’re just doing this for me to forget about my problems even just for a while. Naappreciate ko ito.

It suddenly rained randomly. Malungkot akong pumunta sa living room. I wonder what he’s doing.

Nakaupo ako sa pang-isahang sofa at nakabalot sa kumot samantalang sila ay nasa malaking sofa. May popcorn, nachos, soft drinks at chichirya rin. Just when we’re about to start the movie, we heard daddy’s voice outside.

“Glassifer?” He called. Tumayo si tito at medyo nabahala pa ako na baka makita nya si tito Hiro.

“He knows,” maikling sabi nito sa akin. Napatango naman ako.

Pumasok na si daddy at tila inaasahan na nyang narito ako. He looked at me seriously and went straight to me. Medyo basa pa ang buhok nya dahil siguro sa ulan.

“Seleira,” he called.

“Daddy…”

“I know… this might be too fast but… Anikka told me she’s been seeing Azriel for a while,” he said.

“Kuya,” nagbabantang tawag ni tito. Seryoso ko ring tinitigan pabalik si daddy.

“What? W-what do you mean seeing each other… for work?” kinakabahan kong tanong.

“No,” he answered.

“Kuya, it’s enough. Seleira had enough-”

“Shh,” he hushed tito. “Look, listen… I know you never liked this marriage.”

Parang hindi ko na nagugustuhan kung saan tutungo ang usapang ito.

“You can… you can just divorce,” he said like it’s an easy thing. Nalaglag ang panga ko at hindi makapaniwala syang tiningnan.

“What?!” medyo agresibo kong tanong. Sinaway sya agad ni tito Glassifer.

“Look, please, hija… Anikka… Anikka never requested anything to me. From clothes, money, materials, anything… She’s my legal daughter who lived in poverty and yet, she never asked for anything but this… Come to think of it. I’m sorry, this might be too fast but she asked me for Azriel. Then I thought you never liked him since it’s a fixed but-”

“Daddy, do you hear youself!” I cried. “Asawa ko si Azriel-”

“Yes but only in papers! I’ve seen… I’ve seen how you treat him. And now, this is happening because of it. Don’t you still get it, Seleira? This is all happening because you never loved him. You didn’t even try.”

Parang mga punyal na tumusok sa aking dibdib ang mga sinabi ni daddy.

Anikka asked for Azriel because she believes our marriage doesn’t work.

“Hindi ako makapapayag-”

“Then go back to him, I dare you.” He said. Halos hindi ko na makilala si daddy. His true colors is showing. He loves Anikka more.

“Kuya, that’s enough!” saway ni tito. Nanlalabo na ang mga mata ko dahil sa nagbabadyang luha.

“Will you still go back to him even if I tell you now something happened between him and Anikka?” He asked. Napaatras ako at nanginginig na rin ako. I don’t wanna hear what he will be saying.

“Why should I believe you-”

“Anikka never lies. She’s always been a prim and proper girl. Why would she lie to me now? I’m really sorry but… Hija, you know I love you-”

“Shut up, please!” I cried.

“Anikka…” pumikit nang mariin si daddy. “A maid told me she found Anikka’s underwear covered in blood in her bathroom. Itinago nya pa ito pero nakita pa rin. What could that be? Obviously, her hymen was broken by someone. Umiiyak sya noong umamin. May nangyari sa kanila ni Azriel.”

Humagulgol na ako at nagkagulo na sila. Galit na galit si tito kay daddy.

“Kuya! I told you that was enough! Kung may sasabihin ka sana pinagpabukas mo na lang!” galit na sigaw ni tito.

“Glass…” kalmadong tawag ni tito Hiro.

Nagagalit ako. Hindi ko na alam kung totoo ba ang lahat ng ito pero… lahat nagtutugma. Ysmael’s hesitancy to speak… Azriel always taking over time… Anikka’s IG story that she’s in Azriel’s office.

Umiling iling ako at ayaw maniwala sa lahat ng nangyayari.

Azriel can’t do this to me… right?

“Tangina! I was shocked, too, Glassifer! I’m just doing my daughter, Seleira, a favor!”

“I know! But you could’ve thought of her mental health, too! Makes me think you never love her, kuya.”

“Everything’s too late now!” Frustrated na sigaw ni daddy.

“You’re just doing this for the sake of youe fucking legal daughter!” Galit na galit pa rin si tito. Hindi na sumagot pa sa kanya si daddy. Bumaling na lamang ito sa akin.

“Now, go back to your husband. I dare you.”

Chapter 25

Gone

The rain is pouring so hard as the night become deeper and deeper. Hindi na ako matigil sa kaiiyak kahit ano pang pag-aalo sa akin ni Tito Glassifer.

“Kuya, I said stop it.”

“No, I am saying everything I know! Seleira, ang advice ko sayo ay huwag ka ng babalik sa lalaking iyon. He’s a cheater-”

“And so are you, daddy!” Galit kong sigaw. Napaawang ang bibig nya sa gulat.

“Just shut up, daddy. Hinding hindi na ako babalik sa kahit sino sa inyo.”

“I’m sorry, hija. Kung ako lang, kung hindi lang dahil sa negosyo ay hindi ko papayagang makalapit ang lalaking yan sa kahit sino sa inyong dalawa-”

“Oh shut up, please!” I cried.

“Fine! You can go back to him if you want. But I’m just telling you now. He is clearly cheating, Seleira. Nasasaiyo ang desisyon-”

“Kuya, that’s enough!”

Can I go back to him after knowing all of this? A big part of me is telling me that this is all true. Everything makes sense now.

“What scares me is if Anikka will get pregnant! Huwag naman sana at hindi pa maayos ang mga bagay bagay!” Si daddy. Alalang-alala sya kay Anikka. Parang ayaw nyang mabuntis ito hangga’t kasal pa kami. Kaya pinipilit nya akong makipaghiwalay ngayon.

Napikit ko nang mariin ang mga mata ko at umiling iling. I covered my ears so I won’t hear anything anymore.

“There’s a very little chance for a woman to get pregnant after the first time she have sex-” pinutol ni daddy ang sasabihin ni tito.

“How sure are we that they only did it once?! The exact words Anikka told me is that she. is. seeing. Azriel. and. not. for. work.” Madiing sabi ni daddy.

Para akong unti unting nadudurog. Nanghihina akong napaupo muli. My knees are trembling heaven knows why— is it because of the coldness this hard rain brings? Or because I feel so weak. Unti unting nawawala ang lakas ko at ang tangi ko lamang na kayang gawin ay umiyak.

“You’re being merciless, kuya!“Galit na sigaw ni tito.

“I’m not! Mabuti at sinabi ko ang nalalaman ko!”

Somehow, daddy is right, too. At least… at least he told me. Straight in my face.

Walang salita akong tumayo. Hahawakan sana ako ni daddy pero marahas kong binawi ang kamay ko.

I’m so done. I’m so done with this life.

“Seleira,” tawag ni tito at sumunod sa akin.

Kinuha ko ang unang travel bag na nakita ko. Nagsimula akong ipasok doon ang mga bestida ko. Nataranta naman si tito sa likod ko.

“S-seleira, what are you doing? Where are you going?” taranta nyang tanong. I looked up at him with so much pain in my eyes.

“I don’t want this anymore, tito… n-nasasaktan na ako… ayoko na…” nanghihina kong sabi. Niyakap nya ako at humagulgol ako sa dibdib nya.

“Seleira, come on,” pag-aalo nya.

“Now, come with me, Seleira. Para makapag-usap kayo ng kapatid mo-”

“Ayoko! I hate you all, especially her!  I don’t want to see any of you again!” singhal ko kay Daddy. I’ve lost all of my respect.

Biglang umiba ang itsura ni Daddy. He looked at me with so much darker aura. The one I’ve never seen before. Agad pumagitna si tito Hiro at itinago naman ako ni Tito Glassifer sa kanyang likod.

“You, ungrateful child. Ibinigay ko lahat ng gusto mo! Lahat ng luho mo! Lahat ng yaman ko halos ibigay ko sayo noon, habang ang legal kong anak ay nagdurusa sa kahirapan! And this is what you’ll give me?!” galit nyang tanong.

“Daddy-”

“No. Listen to me. This is ain’t that hard for you! Come on, Seleira, you weren’t like this before. Bakit parang hirap na hirap ka? You used to change boys weekly so what’s the big deal now?” kyuryoso at galit nyang dagdag.

“Because he’s my husband!” umiiyak kong sigaw.

“Marriage in papers!” Napapikit ako sa pagsigaw ni daddy. He looks so frustrated and so am I!

“Ito lang ang hinihiling ko sayo— namin ng kapatid mo,” kalmado nyang sabi. Umiling iling ako.

“You’ve gone crazy, daddy! I never asked money from you, you gave it on your own and because that’s your responsibility!Who are you? Parang wala kang pakialam sa akin! Anak mo rin ako at hindi ko kagustuhan na maging anak sa labas! You cheated!” I screamed. His eyes widened and his expression became angrier even more.

“All I wanted was… t-to feel loved by my own father.”

Nanghihina akong humagulgol. “Sana… sana hindi na lang kayo nagloko. S-sana hindi na lang ako pinanganak kung ganito rin…”

“Seleira,” nagbabantang tawag ni Tito. But what surprised me is what daddy said next.

“Sana nga. Sana nga hindi na ako nagloko. In that way, you won’t be alive.”

Nalaglag ang panga ko sa sinabi nya. Napamura si tito at hindi na ako makagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko.

“KUYA!”

“I’ve lived my life regretting about cheating. You know it, Glassifer. I wish I never cheated. I wish you never existed, Seleira. Dahil sa tuwing nakikita kita ay sumasakit ang dibdib ko, naalala ko ang paghihirap ng ina ni Anikka, ang babaeng mahal na mahal ko. That’s why I gave everything you wanted; money, expensive things, and anything just so I can stay away from you. If I can turn back time, I’ll make my actions right. I will never cheat and I’ll arrange Anikka to Azriel. In that way, things could’ve been better-”

Hindi ako nakagalaw kahit noong suntukin na ni tito si Daddy. Inaawat sila ni tito Hiro pero hindi ko na maproseso ang mga nangyayari.

I couldn’t think straight. My father despises me. He wishes he didn’t cheat and he wishes I never existed.

Tunatak ito lahat sa utak at sa puso ko.

“I hate you… I-I hate you… I hate you all…” pag-iiyak ko.

I want to get out. I want to breathe.

Kaya sa nanginginig na mga tuhod at kamay ay pinagpatuloy ko ang pag-eempake.

“Fuck you!” Galit na galit na mura sa kanya  ni tito. Marahas na nagmura rin si daddy pero hindi nya sinaktan pabalik si tito.

“Seleira is young, kuya! I fucking hate you, too! Hindi mo ba sya mahal?!” galit na tanong ni tito.

“Don’t you understand?! I said I wish I never cheated and everytime I see her, it’s like all my mistakes from the past is slapping me!”

“You did your own mistakes, kuya! Kaya dapat lang na inuusig ka ng konsensya mo ngayon! Labas si Seleira sa kataranduhan mo!” Dumadagundong na rin sa galit ang boses ni tito. Tila lalaki sya. Si tito Hiro naman ay panay ang pagpapakalma sa kanya.

“That’s why I’m correcting it now! I’m giving my true daughter, Anikka, whatever she wants na hindi ko nagawa noon! Ngayon, kung gusto nya si Azriel, then I will do my best to give it!” galit na galit na sabi ni daddy. I looked at him. Unbelievable.

“Kuya, you’ve gone crazy!” Frustrated na sigaw ni tito.

“I know. I know I look crazy! This is the first time Anikka begged to me. She was crying her heart out, awang awa ako, Glassifer!”

“But what she’s asking for is my husband, daddy!” Galit kong sigaw.

“Your husband that you never loved!”

Hindi ko na sila pinansin at isinarado na lamang ang travel bag. I looked at my daddy. Who was once the man I loved the most. And then to tito… that was my very best friend. And to tito Hiro, I secretly thanked him for taking care of tito the past three years.

I wish… I wish I wasn’t a mistake.

“Seleira, saan ka pupunta!” sigaw ni daddy.  No, he’s not my daddy anymore. Kaya pala kapag itinetext ko sya noon na gusto kong mag-bonding kami ay tumatanggi sya at magpapadala na lang ng pera kahit kapapadala nya lang.

I disgusts him.

“Ayoko na!” Sigaw ko.

“You have to talk to Anikka so things will be settled. You can’t leave!”

“Oh, trust me, I can!” Sarkastiko kong sigaw kahit na patuloy pa rin ako sa pagluha. Hindi na rin ako makahinga ng maayos.

“Glassifer… Pauuwin mo na muna si kuya,” narinig kong sabi ni tito Hiro.

“I’m taking Seleira with me,” si daddy. Umiling iling ako at hindi na nagsalita pa.

He was about to get a grip of me but then I ran, carrying my bag. I heard them call me but all I want for this very moment is to get away from them.

When I was young, I used to dream of a perfect wedding. I’ve said that. I was dreaming of marrying the man I love the most. Everything took a turn when daddy messed with my life.

He wanted me to marry him so their business will be saved. Then he just suddenly introduced his other daughter in an event, without even talking to me first. He didn’t even ask me if I have a plan taking business, because he’s already investing on someone— Anikka, who will also be the heiress of our company. Now, Anikka asked him if she can have Azriel especially now that something happened to them, Daddy immediately agreed.

I’ve realized daddy does things without thinking what will my  reaction and feeling be. Wala syang pakialam. Kahit kailan, hindi sya nagkaroon ng pake.

I remind him of his past mistakes which he wants to correct if he has the chance… which will also mean, me, not being born into this cruel yet wonderful world.

What a perfect life I have!

Pinunasan ko ang luha ko at sandaling tumigil sa pagtakbo. Basang basa na ako at nanlalabo na ang paningin ko. I’ve ran too far that I don’t even know where I am now. It’s cold… and so dark.

Para akong lumulutang habang naglalakad. Nanginginig na pati ang labi ko sa lamig. Ang lakas lakas ng ulan at ang sama sama na ng pakiramdam ko.

I crossed the empty road slowly. A car’s light hit me in the face. Lumingon ako at bahagyang pumikit dahil sa nakasisilaw nitong ilaw na tumatama diretso sa mata ko.

My mind suddenly goes to panic mode when I’ve realized that the car isn’t stopping. And it’s not a car. It’s a van. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa bag at pumikit habang dinadama ang sa tingin ko’y, huli ko nang mga sandali.

I’ve thought of Azriel.

Azriel…

My big boy who was once addicted to my  cuddles. My man who is mature yet gets angry whenever I joke inappropriately that makes him jealous.

Azriel… What did you do? Why did you do this so easily?

My heart hurts so bad. I have this bigass family problem and yet the one who was once my comfort place betrayed me, too.

Napadaing ako sa sakit nang maramdaman ko ang malamig na bagay na malakas na bumangga sa aking tagiliran. Nabitawan ko ang aking bag kasabay ng pagtalsik ko sa malamig at basang lupa.

I moaned in pain when I hit the ground. Sobrang lakas ng pagbangga sa akin at halos hindi ako makahinga sa sakit ng tagiliran ko na syang pinaka-napuruhan.

I closed my eyes. This isn’t like what happened just days ago. Walang Azriel na humila sa akin at galit na galit sa sobrang pag-aalala.

He is not here anymore.

“Oh my god! Laxus, what did you do?!” I heard a female voice, slightly shaking in fear and shock.

“Fuck!” rinig ko naman ang mura ng isang lalaki.

I cried in so much pain. Naramdaman kong parang akong masusuka. Sobrang sakit ng ulo ko at halos maputol ang hininga ko nang umubo ako nang umubo habang nakadapa sa basang lupa, hinang hina ako. I am puking blood. Ang isinuka kong sariling dugo ay kumalat at naghalo sa ulan na naiipon sa daan.

“H-help me…” I cried but I immediately stopped nang sumuka ako muli. Umungol ako at napahawak sa sariling tagiliran. It hurts so much.

“Oh fuck!! What the hell! May nasagasaan tayo!” I heard another voice.

“What shall we do?”

“L-let’s go, probably! Madilim naman at walang ibang dumadaang sasakyan dito!”

Their voices sound young. Like teenagers. I tried looking at them. I had a memory flashed through my mind seeing their clothes.

They wore the clothes I used to wore back when I was still young. They look like partying just like me and some of my friends back then.

“Help me…” I begged. “A-ang sakit… please,” umiiyak kong sabi habang nakahawak sa aking tagiliran.

“L-Laxus, we’re in big trouble! S-she looks so familiar!”

“She’s the… the wife of Azriel Nickolson!”

Hindi ko na alam ang sumunod na mga nangyari. Nawalan ako ng malay. The next thing I know, I was in the back of van. Bumalik sa akin ang mga nangyari. Duguan na ako na syang nagpaiyak sa akin muli.

“She’s awake!” a girl said.

“H-hospital… please… It hurts.. s-so bad,” nanghihina kong sabi.

Hindi nila ako pinakinggan at patuloy lang sila sa pagkakagulo. I heard three of them insists not to bring me to the hospital.

“We can’t just bring her there! She’s the wife of Azriel Nickolson! Siguradong kulong tayo!”

“I don’t wanna be in jail! We’re still young-”

“We’re still teens! Hindi tayo makukulong-”

“Stacy, did you hear me? I said she’s the wife of Azriel Nickolson! Kayang kaya tayo ipakulong nun!”

“Shut the fuck up! Nanginginig na ako baka mabangga tayo!”

Umiiyak na ako habang iniinda ang sakit. I’ve also noticed my wound in my forehead where the blood dripping my face came from.

“Please… h-hospital…” pagmamakaawa ko.

Wala na akong maintindihan dahil sa sobrang hilo ko. Pakiramdam ko ay mauubusan na ako ng dugo. Can’t I just die instantly? Sobrang sakit ng katawan at ng puso ko.

The next thing I knew is someone tied a blindfold on me with their shaking hands.

“She won’t remember our faces,” nanginginig na sabi ng isa.

I fell sleep again, and believe me when I say I feel like floating and I can now see my deceased mother. She’s crying. I don’t know why. I asked for her to just get me.

Please, good mother.

She shook her head. I mentally laughed at myself when I still woke up for the third time again. I’m still in pain. I never thought that your dead loved ones really show up when you’re about to die.

My body was aching and shaking so bad. I felt the car stopped. I thought of a hospital. But why did it take for them to drive so long? Pakiramdam ko ay ilang oras na ang nagdaan at nakailang gising na rin ako, ngayon lang kami nakarating?

“We’re really sorry but… ayaw pa namin makulong.”

“Please, forgive us.”

And with that, I felt my body thrown into a soft grassy land. Naramdaman ko rin ang paghagis ng bag sa gilid ko. I moaned in pain and tried to call them. I am begging for help.

“Please… please help me… h-hospital. Hospital… hospital…” paulit-ulit kong sabi.

“Naawa ako, Laxus…” umiiyak na sabi ng isa.

“Fuck that pity, Cassa! Papasikat na ang araw at lalabas na maya maya ang mga mangingisda! Get in or someone will see us!”

What? Mangingisda? At anong papasikat na ang araw? It was just night time. We’ve gone too far. Where the hell am I?

“Please… help me. B-bring me to h-hospital,” pagmamakaawa ko sa kung sino man sila. Bumibigat na ang mga talukap ng mga mata ko at alam kong hindi ito magandang senyales. I could die if I sleep now.

“Tara na!” sigaw ng isa.

I lost every hope to live I have when I heard their van go away.

It’s hilariously ironic that my heart still longs for Azriel despite it all. I am hallucinating, seeing him taking my blindfolds off and bringing me to a nearby hospital.

I cried in so much pain I’m feeling. My tummy and head hurts so bad. I can’t move anymore and I can feel how my eyelids feel so heavy. If I sleep now, there’s a very little chance for me to wake up again.

If this is the end of my life, then I am thankful. Salamat sa pagpaparanas sa akin kung paano mahalin at kung paano mabuhay.

Thank you.

Chapter 26

New

I opened my eyes and immediately felt the pain of my body, pero hindi na ganoon kalala katulad kanina.

Inilibot ko ang paningin ko. Nasa isa akong bahay… na gawa sa plywood at kahoy. Medyo mainit at hindi sanay ang balat ko sa ganito kainit na pakiramdam.

I looked down in my tummy. Nakita kong tumigil na ito sa pagdugo at nakabenda na rin ito, may iilan pang sa tingin ko ay halamang gamot na kasama sa benda. Kinapa ko ang noo ko at nakabenda na rin ito.

I roamed my eyes once more. Where on earth am I?

Para akong nakatira sa isang bahay sa mga probinsya. It looks classic, woody, and old.

Napatingin ako sa pinto nang bumukas ito. The door made a squeeky and creepy sound.

A man in his mid 20s entered while carrying a wooden tray. Napaawang ang bibig ko nang makita ang itsura nito.

He’s handsome. I mean… he’s so handsome. I suddenly remember Azriel, but Azriel, of course, is more handsome than him. It’s just that his build kinda resembles Azriel’s except that this man has a darker complexion.

He has this strong muscles and he’s also tall. Seryoso ito at nakatitig sa akin habang naglalakad papalapit.

“Kamusta ang pakiramdam mo?” tanong nya sa mababang boses. Hindi ako kaagad nakasagot. Nauutal ako at nanginginig pa rin.

“I-I… w-where am I?” I asked, not minding his question. I forced myself to sit but I ended up moaning in pain.

“Mas mabuting humiga ka muna,” sabi nya. Umupo sya sa kahoy na upuan kaharap ng kamang kinahihigaan ko. Ni hindi nga ito malambot. Pagkatapos ay inilapag nya ang tray na may lamang pagkain sa maliit na mesa.

“W-who are you? H-how did I g-get here?” I asked. Gulong gulo ako sa kung nasaan ako at kung sino ba sya.

“Nakita ko ang katawan mo sa damuhan bandang De Lama kanina. Duguan ka at akala ko patay ka na.”

I watched how his jaw and lips moved as he speak his words seriously. Makapal ang kilay nito at seryosong seryoso lang ang ekspresyon. Umiwas ako ng tingin ng matantong hindi ko mapigilang ikumpara si Azriel.

“Sino ka at paano ka napunta dito?” sya naman ang nagtanong.

Sa tanong nya ay naalala ko ang mga nangyari. Si daddy… sina tito… si Azriel at si Anikka. Ang paghihirap ko sa van kasama ang mga taong hindi ko kilala. Ang walang awa nilang pag-abanduna sa nanghihina kong katawan.

Nag-init ang mga sulok ng mata ko at nagsimulang umiyak. His eyes widened and I felt his hesitancy to touch me.

“I-I don’t know,” umiiyak kong sabi. Titig na titig sya sa akin at dahan dahang tumango. Bumuntong hininga sya at tila naintindihan na ayaw ko pang pag-usapan ang tungkol sa bagay na iyon.

“Anong pwede kong itawag sa iyo, kung ganoon?”

I stopped crying and looked at him for a while, amused at his straight tagalog speaking.

“L-lyra,” sabi ko sa maliit na boses.

“Lyra,” pag-uulit nya. Umiwas ako ng tingin nang tumitig sya ulit sa akin. He’s serious and it’s like he can see my soul through his intense and serious gaze.

Natigil lang sya nang may nagtawag sa kanya sa labas. He stared at me for a while before standing up.

“Strevan, pare!” I heard another masculine voice.

“Von,” rinig ko namang pagbati nya rito. I can clearly hear them talking even outside this room because everything is just wood here.

How come a handsome and musculine man like him lives here? Don’t get me wrong. I don’t like him.

“Hindi ka raw nakasama kanina sa pangingisda kina Zac?!” tanong nung isa.

Ipinikit ko nang mariin ang mga mata ko at pinilit nag sariling huwag nang makinig sa usapan nila.

The teenagers just left my body there. I wonder what do tito and daddy are doing right now. Are they looking for me? How about Azriel? Is he concerned right now?

The answer is I don’t know.

I suddenly felt concious of my body. Ngayon ko lamang napansin na nakasuot lang pala ako ng isang malaking tshirt at hindi ito sa akin! Pang lalaki ito.

Masama ang tingin ko sa pinto habang hinihintay iyong Strevan na bumalik. When he entered, I immediately asked him.

“Sinong nagpalit ng damit ko?!”

Umawang ang bibig nya na tila gulat pa. He looked at me in an amused way.

“Nagtatagalog ka rin pala,” he calmly said. I can’t help but to compare him to Azriel. This man is like a calm sea water while Azriel is like a mad volcano.

“S-sinong nagpalit ng damit ko?” pag-uulit ko. Gumalaw ang labi nya at akala ko’y ngingiti pero hindi pala. Umiwas lang sya ng tingin.

“Si Manang Stella,” he answered. Kumunot ang noo ko at pinakitang hindi ako naniniwala.

“Nagsasabi ako ng totoo,” he said and sit on a wooden chair in front of me. Tumango ako at hindi na nangulit pa tungkol doon.

“Look, where exactly am I?” I asked. I just realized that he can understand english but he doesn’t speak it.

“Nasa maliit na isla ng peloponese,” he said and brushed his hair using his hand. My eyebrows furrowed once more. Where?!

“Where?!”

“Maliit na isla ng pelo-”

“I know. Ang ibig kong sabihin in what city?” I asked. Tinitigan nya muna ako bago sya sumagot.

“Hindi ito syudad,” maikli nyang sabi. Kumunot ang noo ko at pinuwersa ang sariling umupo. I moaned softly when I felt a pang of pain in the side of my tummy.

“Sabi nang humiga ka muna,” medyo tumigas ang ekspresyon at tono nya. Nanlulumo akong humiga muli at tumingin sa kanya gamit ang malulungkot na mga mata. Tinitigan nya naman ako pabalik sa malamlam na ekspresyon.

Maya maya ay may kumatok. Bumaling doon ang tingin nya bago magsalita.

“Pasok.”

Pumasok ang isang ginang na may dalang lalagyan na gawa sa abaka. Mayroong mga dahon dahon na nakasilip mula sa lalagyan. She’s wearing an old daster for older women. It’s design is stripes and is color red and orange.

“Kumusta ka, hija?” tanong nya. “Strevan, ano raw ang pangalan nya?”

Hindi ako kaagad nakasagot sa tanong nya.

“Lyra,” sagot ng katabi ko.

“Oh. Ako pala si Stella, manggagamot dito. Pinatawag lang ako nitong madaling araw,” mahinahon nyang sabi. Tumayo si Strevan at inilahad ang upuan sa babae.

“Duguan ka kanina,” dahan dahan nyang sabi kasabay ng pag-suri nya sa katawan ko. Napatingin sya kay Strevan habang tahimik naman akong nakikiramdam.

“Ang puti puti at kinis mo. Talagang hindi ka taga-rito,” komento nya. Napansin ko tuloy ang kutis nya. Morena sya at bahagyang kulubot na ang balat.

“Maayos na ba ang kalagayan nya?” atat na tanong ni Strevan.

“Oo,” natawa sya nang bahagya. “Masyado kang nag-aalala, hijo.”

“Salamat po,” magalang na sagot nito sa babae.

“Naku! Kung malaman ng mga nagkakagusto sayo na may babae ka rito, tiyak na magagalit sila sa kanya,” natatawa nitong sabi at tumayo na. “Ikaw pa naman ang pinaka-”

“Manang Stella,” nagbabanta nitong tawag. Naguguluhan naman akong nagpalipat-lipat ng tingin sa kanila. What the hell?

“O sya. Mauuna na ako. Magpahinga ka, Lyra. Magiging maayos ka rin sa mga susunod na araw.”

Ganoon nga ang nangyari. I spent a week in his small house and my body slowly heal and become strong again. Nakakaupo na ako at medyo nakakatayo na rin.

Strevan is a good man. Wala sya tuwing umaga pero nakahanda na ang almusal ko. Uuwi sya ng tanghali tapos ay maamoy kong nagluluto sya pagkatapos ay sabay kaming kakain. Tapos aalis ulit syang muli para magtrabaho. He’ll go home by 6 pm, all looking sweaty, hot, and tired but he’ll still managed to cook dinner.

I never went out of this small wooden house and I wonder if nagiging pabigat na ba ako. Sa isang linggo ko ay kailan man, hindi ako nakarinig ng reklamo sa kanya. He doesn’t even know me and yet he keeps me here.

He’s working his ass off too much, maybe that’s why his body is well-toned. Ang tangkad at may itsura pa. Naalala ko tuloy ang sinabi ni Manang Stella na maraming nagkakagusto sa kanya.

There’s no day that I didn’t think about Azriel and my family. Hinahanap kaya nila ako? Nag-aalala ba sila? Nag-buntis ba si Anikka? May relasyon na ba sila at mas maayos na ang kalagayan gayong wala na ako, tulad ng sabi ni daddy?

Pinalis ko ang luha ko habang nakatitig sa kawalan. I miss him. But I hate him for not being there when I was really in pain. He didn’t come back. He wasn’t there when I was suffering in that freaking van. I thought he love me? He loved me so fast that it quickly faded away, too. If something really happened between the two of them, then there’s no way I’ll come back.

“Lyra,” tawag sa akin ni Strevan sa kanyang mababang boses. Ang gwapo at linis nyang tingnan sa kanyang puting t shirt.

“Strevan… I’m sorry,” naiiyak kong sabi. Kumunot ang noo nya at umupo rin sa kama upang magpantay kami.

“Lyra,” medyo nahihirapan nyang sabi at hindi malaman kung sana ako hahawakan.

“K-kasi baka pabigat n-na ako dito t-tapos hindi mo naman ako kilala,” umiiyak kong sabi. The truth is nahihiya ako sa kanya. At dagdag paiyak lang sa akin sa tuwing naiisip ko si Azriel at Anikka.

“Hindi ka pabigat,” marahan nyang sabi. “Tahan na.”

“Pero hindi mo ako kilala-”

“Dahil ayaw mong magpakilala at ayoko mamilit. Manatili ka rito hanggang gusto mo,” seryoso nyang sabi habang titig na titig akin.

Umiwas lamang ako ng tingin at tumango. Of course, I won’t tell him about who I am or what happened to me. I don’t trust him yet.

When the lunch time came, we both ate silently. I don’t even know what the hell is this pink fish!

“What’s that ba?” pagtutukoy ko sa isda. Bumaba ang tingin nya roon pagkatapos ay umangat ang tingin sa akin.

“Isda, Lyra,” marahan nyang sagot.

“I know right. I mean, bakit sya pink? May pink bang isda?” kyuryoso kong tanong. Napatingin sya sa akin ulit at may multo na ng ngiti sa labi nya. Mas lalo lang kumunot ang noo ko.

“A pink fish?” dagdag ko pa. Nangiti na sya at maya maya’y natawa sa kanyang mababang boses.

Nakakunot lang ang noo ko habang hinihintay syang sumagot. What the hell is wrong with him? He chuckles and he look so handsome + his moreno skin which gives him more appeal. Kaya siguro maraming nagkakagusto sa kanya tulad ng sabi noong manggagamot.

“Dalagang bukid ang tawag dyan,” sabi nya nang matapos syang tumawa. Inosente lang akong nakatingin sa kanya habang sya ay pilit na nag-seseryoso.

“Ah,” tumango-tango ako. It tastes good. Kaso nahihirapan lang ako dahil may mga tinik.

Tahimik nyang hinimay ang isda sa plato ko gamit ang kutsara at tinidor nya. Pinaghiwalay nya ang laman saka tinik pagkatapos ay inilagay ang mga tinik sa isa pang plato. Naalala ko na naman si Azriel. He used to do these things for me. Hinihimay nya ang isda ko, pinagbabalat ng hipon at pinaghihiwa ng steak.

“Kumain ka na.”

“Thanks.”

Nanahimik kami ulit at kumain na lang. He’s a good cook. Meron ding isa pang ulam, I don’t know what that is but it tastes good.

Nobody knows who I am here, so I guess this is really far from where I used to live.

“G-gaano kalayo ang Manila rito?” tanong ko. Napatigil sya sa pagkain at tumingin sa akin.

“Aalis ka na?” tanong nya. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at umiling iling.

“Hindi. Tinatanong ko lang,” paliwanag ko. Bumaba ang tingin nya sa pagkain bago sa akin ulit.

“Malayo. Malaking syudad iyon at napakalayo mula rito. Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras ang aabutin, hindi pa ako nakakapunta roon.”

Dahan dahan akong tumango. I looked around. His house is clean yet small. Iilan lang din ang mga gamit at napansin kong wala ng ibang appliances dito maliban sa ilaw at electric fan. Walang tv, oven, ref, o kung ano pa man.

“Uhm… Do you have a cellphone?” I asked carefully. Seryoso syang umiling sa akin.

“Oh,” bigo kong sagot.

“Walang cellphone ang mga tao rito pero mayroong telepono sa bayan. Pwede tayong pumunta roon… kung… gusto mo ng umalis,” marahan nyang sabi.

“N-no, I’m not leaving. Kung… ayos lang sayo,” sabi ko sa maliit na boses. I don’t have anything. I don’t have money, car or a phone. I don’t have anywhere to stay besides with him in his house.

Sa totoo lang, kung ayos lang kay Strevan na manatili ako rito, ayokong umuwi. Ayokong tumawag kay tito. Katulad ng sinabi ko, ayoko na sa kanilang lahat. Beside tito Glassifer and tito Hiro. And for Azriel… I don’t know. I don’t want to see him. I don’t even want to know if he and Anikka are now living or seeing each other.

“Dumito ka na muna kung ganoon,” sigurado nyang sabi. I smiled at him and nodded a bit. Seryoso lang naman nya akong tiningnan pabalik.

I hate the fact that I kept on comparing this man to Azriel. Sobrang kalmado lang kasi ni Strevan. O baka talagang ganoon lang umasta sa akin si Azriel dahil may karapatan sya sa akin kaya kinokontrol nya ako lagi.

I would never forgive my bitch sister. She begged daddy for my husband. I suddendly remember her words from the dining table once we ate with them. She believes that fixed marriages don’t work kaya siguro malakas ang loob nya.

Kung may nangyari nga sa kanila at hindi lang isang beses… bahala na sila. Bibitawan ko si Azriel. I am not martyr. I won’t beg and stay with him knowing he’s cheating.

Kinabukasan ay maaga akong nagising. Napatalon pa si Strevan nang makita ako sa pinto ng kwarto. Kaliligo lang nya at walang suot na pang-itaas. Hindi naman ako nailang o ano kahit na maganda ang katawan nya.

Naghahanda sya ng almusal at amoy na ang mabangong amoy ng nilulutong itlog nya.

“Aalis ka na?” mahina kong tanong. Inayos ko rin ang sleeves ng suot kong bestida. Mabuti at nakuha nya ang bagahe ko na naglalaman ng mga bestida at iilan kong damit panloob.

“Ang aga mong nagising. Maya maya pa ako aalis,” sagot nya at itinuon ang pansin sa niluluto.

“What’s your work ba? U-umaalis ka rin tuwing hapon,” I asked curiously.

“Nangingisida kami tuwing umaga. Sa hapon, nasa konstraksyon.”

Umawang ang labi ko at bahagyang nagulat. I’m right that he’s working too much. Mas lalo akong nakonsensya nang matantong nagluluto pa sya pa siya lagi para sa amin.

“Hindi ka napapagod?” pagtanong ko at dahan dahang naupo sa upuan kaharap ang mesa. Nilingon nya ako saglit bago ilagay sa mesa ang niluto.

“Hindi.”

His voice sounds cold or it’s just really like that.

“W-what can I help to this house, then?” I asked. Kumunot ang noo nya sa akin at hindi kaagad nakasagot.

“Wala kang kailangan itulong.”

“No, there must be something… You know… I can clean your house for you,” sabi ko sa maliit na boses.

“Alam kong hindi ka marunong. Mukha kang mayaman,” he said in a mocking tone. Kumunot ang noo ko sa kanya.

“Ano? Marunong ako, ano. I’ll wash the dishes after this then,” ma-pride kong sabi. The side of his lips rose and he nods playfully.

Sabay kaming kumain ng agahan. Our breakfast today are scrambled eggs, bread, and some apple slices. Pinagtimpla nya rin ako ng gatas habang kape naman ang sa kanya.

“Kung naiinip ka rito, pwede kang lumabas. Makikita mo agad ang magandang dagat dyan,” sabi nya.

“Paano kung tanungin kung sino ako?” tanong ko. I’ll gladly go out later for a walk. Iyon ang magiging unang beses kong paglabas ng bahay nya ng sa sarili ko.

Tumingin sya sa akin at parang hindi rin alam kung ano ang isasagot.

“Pinsan mo?” I suggested. Ngumisi sya at umirap sa panlalaking paraan.

“Wag. Marami akong kamag-anak na naninirahan dito,” sabi nya. I pouted a bit while thinking.

“Kaibigan?” alinlangan kong tanong. I know if someone will ask who I am, that will be hard. We can’t just say I am his friend because he lived all his life here! Bigla akong sumulpot, kung ganoon?

“Kaibigan,” pagsang-ayon nya.

Pagkatapos kumain ay tinulungan ko syang ilagay sa lababo. Ako pa naman ang maghuhugas.

“I’ll wash it,” desidido kong sabi. Mahina syang natawa at umiling iling.

“Nagbibiro lang ako kanina, Lyra. Ako na,” mahinahon nyang sabi. Umiling iling din ako at pumwesto na. Tumabi sya sa akin at agad kong pinuna iyon.

“Magdamit ka nga! Saka ako na,” medyo inis kong sabi. Nakangisi sya at halatang natutuwa sa nangyayari.

“Ganito ako lagi dito, Lyra. Hindi ako nagdadamit. Tsaka tutulungan na kita-”

“Ako na sabi,” pamimilit ko at nagsimula na. Wala na syang nagawa at nasa gilid na lang at pinanonood ako. Na-ppressure tuloy ako. I’ve never done this before.

“Lyra…”

Sa sobrang pressure ko ay nabitawan ko ang isang plato. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at kinabahan. Tiningala ko si Strevan at hindi naman sya mukhang naiinis o ano. May multo pa ng ngiti sa kanyang labi.

“Ako na kasi,” kalmado nyang sabi at yumuko.

“I’m sorry… I never done this before,” paumanhin ko at yumuko na rin para tumulong magpulot pero hindi nya ako hinayaang makatulong.

I feel so bad while sitting in a chair, watching him wash the dishes instead. Sya na rin ang nagtapon ng mga basag na piraso ng plato.

Hindi naman na sya sumagot. Mas lalo tuloy akong na-guilty. Tiningnan ko ang likod nya habang naghuhugas. Paano ba kasing hindi dudulas iyan sa kamay ko?

I feel so guilty. Tahimik pa sya at hindi nagsasalita kaya mas lalo lang nakakasama ng loob. Hindi ko alam kung anong iniisip nya. Mamaya galit na pala sya at bigla na lang akong palayasin dito.

“I said I’m sorry!” frustrated kong sabi. “Galit ka ba?”

“Hindi ako galit,” seryoso nyang sabi. Yumuko ako at pinaglaruan ang mga daliri ko at hindi na nagsalita.

Pagkatapos nyang maghugas ay sinulyapan nya ako. I looked back at him and he immediately looked away. Bumaba ang tingin ko sa katawan nya. Six pack abs, huh. Kakatrabaho nya siguro iyan.

I looked at the clock and it’s only 4 AM. Nagsuot na sya ng kanyang itim na tshirt. Maya maya ay may nagtatawag na sa kanya mula sa labas.

Wala ring nakakaalam na may kasama sya rito at ako yun. Iyong manggagamot lang.

“Strevan! Pumasok na kami ah?” sabi noong mga nasa labas. Napatingin sya sa akin at bahagya akong nag-panic. We’re in his small kitchen, makikita ako!

“Mga kaibigan ko,” sabi nya at naglakad papunta sa bukana ng kusina. Napatayo naman ako.

“Strevan! What if they see me here? Magtataka sila,” natataranta kong sabi. Nilingon nya ako habang inaayos ang kasusuot lang na damit.

“Ayos lang,” parang walang pakialam nyang sabi saka umambang lalabas pero huli na ang lahat.

His friends already saw me! They are three men and also musculine and handsome. Matatangkad pero si Strevan ang pinakamatangkad. I think he’s a 6 footer and the other three just lies between 5’10 to 5’11. Gulat din sila nang makita ako.

“Anak ng- May babae ka, Strevan?!” gulat na tanong ng isa.

Napaawang naman ang bibig ko. What?! Is this man in a relationship or married to someone?! I am in a big trouble if yes!

“Gago,” mahinang mura ni Strevan dito.

“Pinagsasabi mong babae, Zac? Wala namang kasintahan yan si Strevan,” sabi naman ng isa habang tinitingnan ako. Nanigas lang ako sa kinatatayuan ko.

“Oo nga, ang ibig kong sabihin, may babae ka pala dito?” gulat at naguguluhan nitong tanong.

I sighed in relief. He doesn’t have a girl. Good, I can stay here.

Pinaulanan nila ng tanong si Strevan at lalapit pa sana sa akin pero agad silang sinaway nito. Mahina silang tinutulak palabas.

“Mahuhuli na tayo,” sabi ni Strevan.

“Pare-”

“Tama na, Von. Para kang gago. Ngayon ka lang ba nakakita ng babae?” seryoso at medyo inis na tanong ni Strevan. I am actually shocked that he has this side.

The two laughed while the other is being so curious about me.

“Sino ba kasi sya? Alam kong gwapo at ikaw ang pinakahabulin dito pero hindi naman ganyan kagrabe ang ganda ng mga babaeng naghahabol sayo! Tangina!” natatawa nitong sabi.

“Pasensya na, Lyra,” sabi nya at nilingon ako. My eyes widened and shook my head. I just gave him a small smile.

“Lyra,” pag-uulit ng isa sa pangalan ko.

Nagtagumpay si Strevan na palabasin sila at nagpaalam na sya sa akin. May mga bilin pa sya na huwag na raw akong maglinis pa. I don’t know if he’s concerened about my tummy or he’s concerened about me, breaking all of his stuffs here.

And besides, I really feel better physically. Naghilom na ang mga sugat ko.

“Kung lalabas ka, huwag kang magpakalayo saka lumabas ka pag maliwanag na. Hintayin mo ako mamaya,” marahan nyang sabi. I nodded.

Tinanaw ko sila habang papaalis hanggang sa nilamon na sila ng kadiliman ng madaling araw.

Naupo ako muli sa upuan sa salas ng kanyang bahay. I can’t believe I’m living here. No tv, no cellphone, no internet, no washing machine, ref, and literally anything. Malayo sa sibilisasyon ang lugar na ito.

But from now, I’ll try my best to stop thinking about the people I’ve left behind, especially Azriel.

I will never go back even if I feel uncomfortable here and I also think that this will be the perfect place for me to move on. I’ve had enough.

You can move on about us now, Azriel.

Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko kapag naka-move on na sa akin si Azriel at magsimulang ibaling sa iba ang buong atensyon at lambing.

Kaya sana…

Please, heavens… let me move on first before he does.

Chapter 27

Countryside

Pinagtitinginan ako ng mga tao sa bawat lakad ko. Kaliligo ko lang at nakasuot ako ng puting bestida. Sleeveless ito at hanggang taas ng tuhod.

Napansin kong mga morena at moreno silang lahat. Sabagay, sa klima rito ay hindi malabo.

I’m walking in the shore. Some women are selling necklaces and bracelets made out of shells that they found here, too. Strevan is right. The ocean here is crystal blue and very clean.

Alas dyis na napagpasyahan kong lumabas. May mga gulat pa noong nakita akong lumabas ng bahay ni Strevan pero mabilis akong naglakad palayo.

I remember he goes home by around 11 AM.

“Miss?”

Napalingon ako sa nagsalita. It’s an elderly woman.

“Po?”

“Kanino kang anak? Hindi pa kita nakita rito noon,” sabi nya at sinuri ako ng tingin. Napatingin din tuloy ako sa katawan ko. My skin is milky white while everyone here is moreno’t morena.

“Ah…” hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko. “Kaibigan po ako ni… Strevan,” alanganin kong sabi. Kinabahan tuloy ako nang kumunot ang kilay nya.

“Strevan? Kailan pa?”

I’m starting to get irritated with her questions. Why does she care ba?

“Ah… nito lang po. Sige, mauuna na ako,” I didn’t wait for her to talk and I immediately walked away.

I tried my best being nice, okay!

Tumataas at sumasakit na ang araw sa balat. Alam kong pauwi na sina Strevan ngayon.

“Ate ganda, bili na po kayo!” masayang lumapit naman sa akin ang mga maliliit na batang babae. May bilao sila at may lamang mga kakanin na hindi ako pamilyar.

“I don’t have money,” I said. Nangunot ang mga noo nila at nagkatinginan.

“Ano ho?” tanong ng isa.

“Huh?” tanong ko rin. What?

“Bili na po kayo nito… luto ni nanay, masarap po!” pag-uulit naman ng isa.

“I said I don’t have money,” pag-uulit ko rin. Nagkatinginan ulit sila na nakakapagpairita sa akin.

“Wala raw syang pera,” umangat ang tingin ko sa nagsalita. Isang binatilyo ang may maliit na ngiti sa labi.

“Pasensya na, miss,” sabi nya at nahihiyang ngumiti.

“Oh. Okay lang,” I said. Nanlaki ang mga mata nya at umiwas ng tingin. Bahagya pang nangingiti.

They addressed him as kuya. Baka kapatid nila.

“Kuya, bigyan natin siya kahit wala syang pera,” pamimilit ng isa. Umiling iling naman ako. Thanks, but I don’t even know what the hell is that. Sa luto lang ni Strevan ako nagtitiwala rito.

“Ate, gusto ko magkaroon ng ganyang kulay ng balat!”

Myghad, this is chaotic! Pinagkakaguluhan ako ng mga batang babae na ito, causing some people to look at our way. And shiz, what’s with these kids ba?! I never liked kids, anyway!

“Ella, tama na,” saway nung kuya nila.

“Pero kuya-”

“Pasensya na talaga, miss. Sige…” paumanhin nya at halos di pa makatingin sa akin.

I nodded uncomfortably. I waved cutely and walked away. Sheesh, that was creepy.

Naglakad lakad ako ulit at natanto kong sobrang layo ng mga buhay nila rito sa buhay ko sa Manila. Fuck. Stop. Stop thinking about that because I’ll end up thinking about my cheater husband.

“Excuse me,” I said to an older woman. “Saan pumapalaot yung mga mangingisda?”

“Ah! Banda roon, ineng. Makikita mo naman agad. Saka sino ka-”

“Thank you,” I cut her off and walked away.

Sinundan ko ang direksyon na sinabi nung babae. I already some boats are here. Ibinababa na ang mga balde baldeng nahuling mga isda.

I stood aside. All of these men are so busy and at the same time, eyeing me shamelessly.

Inilibot ko ang paningin at hinanap si Strevan. Wala pa sya. Sabagay, kakaunti pa lang ang mga bangkang dumating.

Some men are winking on me which made me freeze. Sumisipol pa ang iba. Ghad, this is so disgusting! Nakakadiri!

Tumabi na lang ako at nagdasal na makarating na sya. I don’t even know why I’m here. I maybe just got bored.

“Sinong hanap mo?” tanong ng isang lalaki.

“Ah, I’m waiting for Strevan,” I answered and looked at the sea.

“Ah, si Strev. Pabalik na rin ang bangka nila, nauna lang kami,” sabi nya. Tumango na lang ako. I literally appreciate that he didn’t ask who I am or how am I related to Strevan.

“Hi, mi-”

“Hoy! Tangina mo, dun ka nga!” Nagulat pa ako ng biglang sinigawan ng katabi ko ang isa pang lalaking kumindat sa akin.

“Tss. Girlfriend mo? Saan galing?”

“Manahimik ka. Dun! Alis!” Tinaboy nya ang lalaki at nakasimangot namang umalis iyon.

Many boys catcalled me but this guy besides me just makes them leave. Salamat naman sa kanya at natatahimik ako. Boys just won’t let their dicks calm down.

“Sorry ah? Ewan ko ba sa mga ’yan. Akala mo ngayon lang nakakita ng babae,” sabi nya. I suddenly remember Strevan’s exact words like his.

“It’s not okay, but I’m used to it.”

Tumango sya at bahagyang tumingin na rin sa dagat. Iilan na ang mga bangka at ibinababa na ang mga balde baldeng nahuling isda. Nagtatawanan sila na parang mga walang problema.

“Oh, ayan na,” sabi nya. Naalerto ako at agad napatingin. Parating na ang isang medyo malaking bangka.

“Nakatingin na rito,” natatawa nyang dagdag. Tinitigan ko at nakita kong nakatayo na nga si Strevan. Topless. Nakabalandra ang kumikinang nyang muscles at abs dahil sa sikat ng araw at pawis. Nakakunot ang noo dahil sa sikat ng araw at nakatingin na sya sa direksyon namin.

Lalapit sana kami pero may mga babaeng humarang. Umawang ang labi ko at kumunot ang noo. Natawa naman ang katabi kong lalaki.

Nagbubulungan iyong mga babae. Well, actually, rinig na rinig naman na namin. They are shamelessly fantazising about Strevan! What the hell!

I mean yeah, sobrang gwapo, tangkad, at kisig ni Strevan, but it’s just that… I am not attracted. Azriel set a standard to me.

Nakadaong na sila at nagsimula nang ibaba ang mga balde ng isa. Nakita ko pa ang tatlong mga lalaki na nasa bahay kanina.

“Strev, bimpo oh,” sabi ng isa.

“Ah… Strevan, inimbitahan ka pala ni Mama sa bahay…” nahihiyang sabi ng isa.

Nakatingin na sa akin si Strevan pero hinarap nya muna iyong kumakausap sa kanya.

“Ah, may bimpo na ako, Nelly.” he politely declined before looking at the other girl.

“Sa susunod na lang,” he said to her. Bigo namang tumango ang babae.

Tumingin sya sa akin muli at naglakad papalapit. Tinawag pa sya ng iba pero nagulat ang mga ito ng lumapit si Strevan sa akin.

“Lyra…” he called gently. “Bakit ka nandito? Ang init,” alalang sabi nya at napatingin sa balat ko. I just laughed awkwardly.

“Pre, sinamahan ko. Andaming gagong nagbabakasakali eh,” natatawang sabi ng katabi ko. Napatingin sa kanya si Strevan bago sa akin.

“Sino?” tanong ni Strevan at luminga-linga.

“Wala!” I said. “U-uuwi ka na ba?” pag-iiba ko.

“Strevan…” another girl went to us. She looked at me and I looked back at her. She has dark complexion and curly hair which reminds me of a strong girl from a disney movie titled ‘Moana’

She immediately looked away as if she’s intimidated.

“Sabi kasi ni Kayee sabay daw kayong manananghalian? Hinihintay ka na nya sa may Resas,” mahinhin nitong sabi.

“Hindi naman ako pumayag, pero pakisabi pasensya. Uuwi na kami,” seryosong sabi ni Strevan. I smirked with the thought that girls are indeed flocking into him, huh.

Nanlaki ang mga mata nito at napatingin muli sa akin. Pati ang ibang mga babaeng nakarinig ay masama na ring tumitig sa akin.

“N-nino? Ni Alcazar?” Tanong ng babae at napatingin sa lalaking kasama ko kanina pa.

“Ha? Hindi ah,” sagot nito.

“Ni Lyra,” sagot ni Strevan sa mababang boses.

That’s when they started throwing deadly dagger looks to me and asked Strevan who I am. Walang sinagot si Strevan kung hindi ang pangalan ko.

“Una na ako, Strev,” paalam nya.

“Sige. Salamat, Alcazar,” he said.

“Thanks,” sabi ko naman. Tumango lang ito at umalis na.

“Strevan, anong ibig mong sabihin na k-kasama mo s-sa bahay mo a-ang babaeng iyan?”

“Kasama ko sya sa bahay,” sagot ni Strevan at nag-aalala pa ring nakatingin sa akin. Umusog sya papalapit sa harap ko, itinatago ako mula sa araw. Nanlaki naman ang mga mata ko dahil napalapit ako sa walang saplot nyang pang-itaas The girls are drooling over him, can’t he see that?!

“Strevan, pare! Tara na sa palengke!” may sumigaw mula sa kabilang banda. Napatingin dun si Strevan at nakita ko syang umiling.

“Uuwi na kami!” sigaw nito pabalik.

“HA?!”

“Uuwi na kami, Von!” sigaw nya ulit. I pouted hearing his masculine low voice. I wonder how he sounds like when he’s mad. He’s always calm and collected.

Binalingan ko ang mga babae at tinaasan sila ng kilay. Mas lalo tuloy silang nagalit at natawa ako nang ma-imagine na umuusok ang mga ilong nila.

Chill out, girls. I’m not stealing your king.

“Umuwi na tayo. Namumula na ang balat mo,” sabi nya.

“Huh? Hindi ba dapat sumama ka sa palengke?” inosente kong tanong. He’s looking intently at me as he shook his head.

“Hinintay mo ba ako?” tanong nya sa marahang boses.

“Oo,” walang alinlangan at inosente kong sagot. Hinintay ko naman talaga sya.

Gumalaw ang labi nya at nag-iwas ng tingin. A side of his lips rose, forming a small smile. Kinagat nya iyon bago tumingin muli sa akin.

“Uwi na tayo, magluluto pa ako.”

“Oh, okay…” nalilito kong sagot.

“Saglit lang. Babalikan ko yung t shirt ko,” sabi nya at tinanaw ang bangka nila. Tumango ako nang bumaling sya sa akin.

“Saka manghihiram ako ng payong.”

Hindi na ako nakapagsalita pa nang tumalikod na sya at naglakad papalayo. Sinundan naman sya ng tingin ng mga babae. Hindi ako nakaramdam ng takot nang masama nila akong balingan.

“What?” I asked and flipped my hair.

“Sino ka?” agresibong tanong ng isa.

“Sya nga raw si Lyra! Ang dapat na tanong paanong bigla kang sumulpot dito? At si Strevan pa mismo ang nagsabing nakatira kayo sa iisang bahay!” Napaawang ang bibig ko nang makitang namumula ang mga mata nya. Is she about to cry? She’s over reacting!

“O-oo nga! W-wala namang pinapansing ibang babae si Strevan tapos… tapos biglang may babae?”

I rolled my eyes and flipped my hair once more.

“You know what, I don’t care about your drama. You see me minding my own business, you do the same.” Inis kong sabi at umirap.

“Anong sinabi mo!” galit na tanong ng isa. Natawa ako ng bahagya. I looked back at them and they look insulted.

“Ang sabi ko wala akong pake-”

“Nakakaintindi kami ng ingles! Masyado kang mayabang-”

“Hoy hoy, Dayana, tama na yan. Anong nang-aaway na naman kayo dyan?” Napatingin ako sa isang lalaki.

“Kuya, ito kasi, nagyayabang eh hindi naman namin kilala. Tapos sabi ni Strevan-”

“O ayun naman pala. Huwag nyo na lang pakialaman pa si Strevan,” sabi nito. Mas lalong naggalaiti ang babae.

“Lagot ka kay Kayee sa oras na malaman nya. Ikaw, mayabang porke maputi-”

“Okay? That’s enough. Is it my fault to be maputi and different than all of you ba?” medyo tumaas na rin ang boses ko.

Inaawat na sya ng lalaki pero grabe ang bunganga ng babaeng ito. Galit na galit.

“Hindi ka namin kilala at ang landi-”

“Dayana!” pagalit na sigaw ng kadarating lang na si Strevan. Natahimik naman sila. Nakakunot ang noo ni Strevan at tila nagagalit. Deretso ang tingin nya kay Dayana (na kanina pa putak nang putak) samantalang natatakot naman itong nakatingin kay Strevan.

“Tama na.” he said coldly. My mouth formed an ‘o’ hearing this tone of his voice for the first time. Iyong Dayana naman ay tila maiiyak na.

“Umuwi na tayo,” pagbaling nya sa akin. Tumango ako at pinagmasdan syang buksan ang payong. Nakasuot na rin sya ng damit, seryoso at nakakunot ang noo.

Lumakad kami habang pinapayungan nya ako. Hinawi ko ang buhok ko dahil talagang mainit. Pulang pula na ang balat ko dahil sa init, nakkairita. Dagdag pa itong mga grabe kung makatitig sa amin at sa akin.

“Huwag mo nang uulitin ’to,” biglang sabi nya kaya tiningala ko sya.

“Don’t repeat what?” I asked.

“Ito. ’Wag ka nang maghintay doon kasi masyadong mainit. Pulang pula ka na,” sabi nya sa medyo inis na boses.

“Oh… I’m sorry. I got bored kasi…”

Hindi na sya sumagot at hindi na rin ako nagsalita. Pagpasok sa bahay ay sinabi nyang sa kwarto na muna ako dahil hindi gaanong mainit doon. Tinutukan nya rin ako ng electric fan.

“Maliligo lang ako tapos magluluto na,” sabi nya.

“Okay…”

Pinanood ko syang kumuha ng damit sa kabinet at umalis ng kwarto. Itinali ko naman ang buhok ko at nag-relax na sa harap ng electric fan. It was dumb of me not to include lotions in my bag.

But, duh. Who would’ve thought I’ll end up here? Ang akala ko nga mamamatay na ako.

Nagbasa na lang ako ng mga libro nya. Mayroong mga ingles at meron ding tagalog. Napansin kong puro mga greek myth ang mga libro nya. Maybe he loves greek mythology or someone gave this to him as a gift.

Isang oras bago sya makabalik. Medyo basa ang buhok at iba na rin ang damit.

“Lyra, kain na tayo,” yaya nya. Natingin sya sa buhok kong nakatali at nagtagal ang titig nya roon. Pagkatapos ay bumaba ang tingin nya sa librong hawak ko.

“Uh, okay,” I said and put the book down.

“Mahapdi ba?” tanong nya nang nasa mesa na kami, he’s refering to my skin. I looked at our food. Puro lutong gulay.

“Hindi na,” sagot ko.

Naglagay sya ng kanin sa plato ko. Nalilito pa sya kung anong ulam ba ang ilalagay sa plato ko.

“Anong gusto mo?” tanong nya. I looked down at his veiny and strong arms. Napataas ang kilay ko.

“Lyra…” he called again, making me look up at him.

“Ano ba yan?” tanong ko. He doesn’t looked shocked that I don’t know what those veggies are called.

“Pakbet saka Adobong sitaw ang tawag dyan,” he said carefully. I frowned.

“I-I don’t eat that…” mahina kong sabi. I saw his defined jaw clenched. Kinabahan ako agad. I shouldn’t have said that! Pinaghirapan nyang lutuin ang mga ito kahit na pagod sya at kagagaling lang sa trabaho.

“Anong gusto mo kung ganoon?” seryoso nyang tanong. Titig na titig pa sya sa akin gamit ang mga kulay kayumanggi nyang mata. I pouted and shook my head. He looked down at my lips and up to my eyes again.

“Wala. B-babalik na ako sa kwarto,” nahihiya kong sabi. I don’t eat foods like these. I miss City foods.

“Lyra, kumain ka.” Matigas nyang sabi. I looked at him and his eyes look mad. Malungkot akong tumingin sa kanya at napabuntong hininga naman sya.

“Mahirap lang ako. Kung hindi mo talaga kaya ang ganitong buhay, sasamahan kita sa bayan para tumawag-”

“No! D-dito lang ako… tsaka naiintindihan ko naman… I’m sorry,” frustrated kong sabi. I shouldn’t be so picky since nakikitira lang naman ako. He’s not Azriel na lahat ay kayang ibigay sa akin.

“Kumain ka na,” pag-uulit nya. “Pupunta tayo sa bayan sa sweldo ko-”

“I said I don’t wanna go home!” Natataranta kong sabi. His lips formed a smile while watching me panicking.

“Kakain lang tayo sa bayan, Lyra,” nakangisi nyang sabi. Nanahimik naman ako at nainis sa sarili.

“Talaga?” Paninigurado ko. He just nodded while his boyish smirk is plastered in his face.

I had no choice but to eat. Masarap naman, not gonna lie. But I’m just not used to this.

After eating, nagpahinga lang kami. Well, sya lang naman dahil hindi naman ako pagod. Sinamahan ko lang sya sa likod bahay.

Nakaupo ako sa handmade swing na nakatali sa puno habang sya ay nakaupo sa isang kahoy na upuan at nagbabasa ng libro. Maraming puno at halaman dito sa likod.

“Anong oras ka aalis?” tanong ko habang itinutulak ang sarili para gumalaw ang swing. Napatingin naman sya sa akin.

“Alas dos,” he answered. I nodded.

“Dito ka na lang. Mainit sa labas lalo na ganitong oras,” paalala nya. Magiging paborito ko ata ang tumambay dito dahil mahangin at talagang presko dahil sa mga halaman.

Napatingin ako sa kabilang gilid. My eyes widened seeing my clothes hanging.

“Did you wash them?!” tanong ko at itinuro iyon. Napatingin naman sya doon at tumango sa akin.

“Oo.”

Those are my dresses I wore the past week at nilabhan nya!

“Thanks… uh… I-Isn’t it awkward to wash my clothes?” I asked shyly. He looked at me intently before answering.

“Hindi.”

“Have you washed women’s clothes before, too?” I asked again. Tumaas ang kilay nya at tumaas muli ang sulok ng labi nya.

“Hindi pa, Lyra…” marahan nyang sagot. Tumango na lang ako. Good heavens, he washed my underwears himself! At wala pang wasing machine o ano rito! He washed it with his own hands!

Hiyang hiya ko syang tiningnan at uusok na ata ako nang makita ko pa rin syang nakangisi at tila may inaalala. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. What is he thinking!

“Wala ka talagang kasama dito sa bahay mo?” pagsisimula ko. Marami akong gustong itanong.

“Wala.”

“Kahit dati pa?”

“Noon. Pero namatay na rin ang mga magulang ko.”

My eyes widened and immediately apologized. He just smiled boyishly and shrug.

“Eh… diba sabi mo marami kang kamag-anak dito? Nasaan sila?” Pagtatanong ko ulit. He put the book down and gave me his full attention.

“Sa may unahan pa. Ilang kilometro lang ang layo dito,” he said. I nodded slowly.

“Mga pinsan mo, ganon? Mga lalaki?” Tanong ko. Kumunot naman ang noo nya sa akin habang inosente lang akong nakatingin sa kaya.

I moved again so my swing would move and entertain me.

“Bakit mo tinatanong kung lalaki?” He asked.

“Huh? Wala lang. Gusto ko lang malaman,” nalilito kong sagot.

“Mga babae at lalake.”

“Do they know that I’m here?” I asked curiously.

“Hindi pa. Pero baka kumalat na ang balita dahil may nakakita na sayo,” he said andopened his book again.

“What? Hindi naman big deal yun,” sabi ko at umirap.

“Sa kanila, oo.”

“Gusto kong sumama sa trabaho mo,” I said suddenly. Nagulat naman sya at agad umiling.

“Maini-”

“May silong dun panigurado. Naiinip ako madalas dito…” malungkot kong sabi.

“Hindi pwede,” sagot nya. Mas lalo akong sumimangot sa kanya.

“Bakit? Bawal daw?”

“Pwede,” sagot nya naman. I wiggled my feet.

“Pwede naman pala eh!”

“Pero maiinitan ka-”

“Ayos lang! Inip na inip na ako dito. Please, Strevan…” malungkot kong sabi. Napaawang ang bibig nya. Nang tingnan ako ay agad syang sumuko at bumuntong hininga.

“Sa susunod.”

“Talaga?!” tumatawa kong sabi.

“Oo.”

Pumalakpak ako sa tuwa. I just hope there are no bad bitches there na galit na galit na naman sa akin.

“Ang hirap mong hindian,” narinig kong mahina nyang sabi.

I suddenly remember Az… No. I promised to myself I won’t think of him anymore.

Wala nang nagsalita pa pagkatapos nun. Humiga na lang ako sa swing. Nakita kong inilapit nya ang upuan sa tabi ng duyang kinahihigaan ko.

“Matulog ka na,” sabi nya. I nodded and made myself comfortable. I felt the swing moved slowly, parang dinuduyan ako. Nakakaantok tuloy lalo pa’t ang presko at tahimik dito.

Binuksan ko ang mga mata ko at nakitang mahinang itinutulak ni Strevan ang duyan habang nagbabasa sya ng libro.

I giggled which made him look at me. “I’m not a baby!”

Ngumisi rin sya at umiwas ng tingin. “Matulog ka na. Aalis na ako maya maya.”

I nodded and just closed my eyes. Fresh air! Something Manila doesn’t have.

I wonder what Azriel is doi… nevermind.

Madali akong nakatulog. Paggising ko ay wala na si Strevan. Umupo ako at kinusot kusot ang mga mata. Sinulyapan ko ang labas at nakitang hindi masyadong tirik ang araw. Alas kwatro o alas singko na siguro.

I stood up and entered the back door which leads me to his small yet clean kitchen.

I saw good looking bread in the table with spread on the side. It looks aesthetic. I wish I had a phone to take picture. There’s also some sort of apple juice on the side but it’s not cold anymore.

I also saw a small note beside it.

Lyra.

I smirked and find it cute. Everything looks aesthetic. Everything here looks straight from 80s. Kahit ang maliit na papel na sinulatan nya ay vintage ang kulay at medyo luma na.

Makes me question myself if I’m really dead by now… and this… this is all my illusion. Or I’m in other dimension… Or I travelled back in the past. But the truth is… I’m already dead. Things like this happen in some movies I’ve watched. But if I’m still really alive, I wish to see him once again. Even just once and even if it’s still years from now.

Tuesday afternoon and I’m looking at myself in front of a mirror. Nakasuot ako ng isang dilaw na dress at naglagay ako ng ipit sa kaliwang bahagi ng buhok ko.

The dress also have no sleeves since it’s hot there. Ang tinatrabaho raw nila ay ang paggawa ng isang barn sa may farm.

I slapped my cheeks because I look so pale. Pumula naman ito ng kaunti.

Lumabas mula sa kwarto si Strevan. He looks good with his gray shirt though, not gonna lie.

“Tara na?” I asked, smiling. Napatitig sya saglit sa akin bago tumango. Humarap sya sa salamin kaya umusog ako nang kaunti. Sinuklay nya ang basang buhok gamit ang mga daliri.

I looked at our reflections. Hanggang leeg nya lang din ako. His frame also looks huge and strong while I look small and weak.

“Tara,” sabi nya at naunang lumabas. Sumunod naman ako at pinanood syang i-lock ang pinto.

The weather became a bit gloomy, unexpectedly. Hindi ko alam kung mabuti ba at hindi ako maiinitan o kakabahan dahil baka umulan at may trabaho pa sina Strevan.

“Daan muna tayo kina Tiya, ihahatid ko lang ’to saka kukunin ko iyong bisikleta ko,” sabi nya at kinuha ang supot sa gilid.

“Ano ’yan?” tanong ko at lumapit doon, iniwas nya naman. May bike pala sya. Sana lang hindi malayo ang bahay ng tita nya at ayokong lakad nang lakad.

“Isda. ’Wag ka na lumapit, malangsa.”

I just nodded. He can be masungit sometimes. O talagang seryoso lang sya. Pero sya naman ang nag-iinitiate ng conversation minsan.

Nakalimutan ko tuloy na pupunta kami sa tita nya.

“Wait, what? Pupunta tayo kay tita mo?” Gulat kong tanong.

“Oo. Tara,” nagsimula na syang maglakad. Pinagbuksan nya ako ng wooden gate nya. Pati dito ay maraming mga halaman na gumagapang at pati na rin sa mga bakod

The neighbors, although they are now used seeing me, are still eyeing me shamelessly. Binabati nila si Strevan at masamang tingin naman ang pinupukol sa akin, especially those girls.

“Trabaho ulit, Strevan?” an old woman ask him while smiling genuinely. Iba rin. Pati pala mga matatanda ay may gusto rito, ha?

“Opo, ’nay,” nakangising sagot naman ng katabi ko.

I mock and imitate him while doing weird faces pero sakto namang binalingan nya ako. Tumaas ang kilay nya at ngumisi lalo. Well, can’t blame them, he’s really good looking.

“Naku! Huwag magpapapagod at nasa tamang edad ka na para mag-asawa,” humagikhik ito.

“Nanay! B-bata pa po si Strevan ano!” May kumontra agad na babae. Napangisi na lang ako.

“Kaya nga po nagtatrabaho ako nang husto para handa na pag ikakasal,” biro naman ni Strevan at napatingin sa akin. I smirked mockingly at him. He smirked back, too.

Nagpaalam na sya at naglakad na kami. May mga magsasakang naglalakad at may bitbit na mga baskets. Binati nila si Strevan at binati rin sila.

I glared at Strevan when one of them started whistling at me.

“Sipulan mo pa, Allan.” Nagbabantang sabi sabi dito ni Strevan. Again, I’m surprised seeing this side of him. He’s always been calm and serious.

“O-oh, pasensya na!”

Nagtawanan sila at binatukan iyong lalaki. Mabuti naman at nalampasan na namin. I swayed my head while feeling the cold air blowing my hair. Nagsasayawan din ang mga matatangkad na damong nadaraanan namin.

“Malayo ba?” I asked. Nauuna akong maglakad dahil tumatalon talon ako at inihahawi ang palda ng dress ko na para bang isang prinsesa.

“Malapit lang,” marahan nyang sagot. Nilingon ko sya at pinapanood nya lang ako.

We’re walking in a peaceful land where the grasses at the side are tall, hanggang bewang.

“Gaano kalapit?” tanong ko pa. Oh my, this place is so pretty and instagrammable! I really wish I had a phone to take pics with.

“Malalaman mo pag wala na yang mga damo,” sagot nya. Tinanaw ko naman at natantong malapit nga lang.

I became comfortable with Strevan for the past week. He’s just so… kind… and calm. Makes me feel comfortable and just like having a vacation with a close friend.

Mag-isa rin akong natutulog sa kwarto nya tapos sya ay nasa salas. Take note, his sofa isn’t even sofa. I mean, gawa sya sa bamboos so it’s not soft!

It’s not like we can’t share the bed because his bed is pretty big for me since I have small and feminine frame. Kasya naman talaga kami but he just refuse. I asked him once but he immediately dismissed it.

“Dito, Lyra,” he said when we reached the end of the tall grasses.

Natanaw ko ang isang medyo malaking bahay na gawa rin sa kahoy. Houses like these look just so old. Am I really in the past or this island is just not civilized? I don’t even know!

“Sige. Hintayin kita rito,” sabi ko at gumilid sa isang puno. Kumunot naman ang noo nya sa akin.

“Halika na,” he insists.

“Dito nga ako, dali na!”

“Baka may mga langgam dyan. Bakit ka ba nagtatago?” nakakunot ang noo nya at nagtataka.

“Eh basta! Baka makita ako ng mga kamag-anak mo ano,” I said nervously.

“Ano naman? Halika na,” wala na akong nagawa nang hawakan nya ang kamay ko. I am actually shocked and so is he. Nabitawan nya rin ang kamay ko at inilipat nya na lang ang kanyang hawak sa pulsuhan ko.

Hinila nya na ako at wala na akong nagawa. Kumatok sya at mabilis namang nagbukas iyon.

There stands a woman in her mid 40s, smiling warmly at us. Sinuri nya pa ako at mas lalong lumaki ang ngiti.

“Tiya-”

“Sya ba yun? Sya iyong sinasabi nila na kasama mo raw! Jusko, Strevan! Marami kang dapat ikwento! Ang ganda nya!” Nanggigil na sabi nito.

“Hindi kami magtatagal. Inihatid ko lang ’to tapos kukunin ko yung bisikleta ko,” paliwanag ni Strevan at sinulyapan ako.

Problemadong napabuntong hininga si Strevan nang sumilip sa pinto ang iilang bata.

“Oh! Sayang naman… sa susunod, bumisita kayo ng girlfriend mo,” nakangiting sabi nito. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at nilingon si Strevan. Nakatingin lang sya sa akin at hindi man lang nag-deny.

“Naku, hindi po kami magkasintahan,” I said and laughed awkwardly.

“Oh! Pasensya, magkasama kasi kayo sa bahay at iyon ang nasa chismis,” natawa rin sya.

“Hindi po,” I laughed. “My name’s Lyra, by the way.”

“Oh! Ako pala ang tiya nitong si Strevan pero inglishera ka ata kaya tita na lang,” she said. I laughed a bit.

“Ito, mga pinsan nyang maliliit. May mga pinsan pa syang ka-edaran mo kaso wala rito, nagtatrabaho rin.”

I nodded. Nabaling lang ang atensyon ko sa mga bata na mahinang hinihila ang laylayan ng damit ko.

“Ang ganda! Ate ate, girlfriend ka po ni kuya Evan?”

“Mama, bakit ang puti nya po? Gusto ko po ng ganyan!”

“Ano pong pangalan nyo?”

The kids went to us and almost hug me. They are cute though. They are like little moanas and there are also 2 boys.

“Tama na,” saway ni Strevan matapos nyang i-abot ang supot sa tita nya.

“Eh sino po ba sya? Asawa nyo po ba?” tanong ng isa. We both got shocked but I just laughed, while he look tensed.

“Tama na, pasok na kayo. Aalis na kami.”

“Pero kuya!”

“Sa susunod na lang,” pambawi ni Strevan.

“Osya, sige na. Tama na yan, Kei, at may pasok pa ang kuya Evan nyo,” saway naman nung tita nya.

“Bumisita kayo minsan,” sabi nito at makahulugang tiningnan si Strevan. “Nariyan sa may gilid iyong bisikleta mo. Salamat daw sabi ni Kahil.”

“Sige. Mauna na kami,” sabi nya at pumunta sa gilid. Ngumiti lang ako sa mga bata at tumalikod na rin. Pinanood ko syang inilabas ang bike.

“Are you riding that to work?” I asked.

“Sasakay tayo,” he corrected.

“What?! I’m not riding that noh!” maarte kong sabi na nagpa-ngisi sa kanya.

“Maglalakad ka?” he asked playfully.

“O-oo…”

“Malayo pa, Lyra. Sumakay ka na sa likod kung gusto mo,” sabi nya. I groaned in an annoyed way.

“No way! Wala namang upuan eh,” I said while looking angrily at his bike.

He chuckled. “Nakatayo ka kasi,” marahan nyang sabi.

“Huh! No way! M-mangangalay ako saka paano kung makabitaw ako?” Taranta kong sabi habang sya ay nakangiti lang.

“Hindi ka mahuhulog. Pwede ka rin dito sa harap,” he suggested. Lalong kumunot ang noo ko

“Huh? Wala rin namang upuan eh! You know what, get your ass up and let’s just walk,” I said. He chuckled again but for a bit long now. He seems to enjoy this while I’m frustrated here!

“Malayo pa. Mahuhuli na ako. Sumakay ka na dito sa harap.”

Wala na akong nagawa kung hindi umupo sa harap. We look like a couple, what the hell! Ang tigas pa ng bakal! Wala man lang upuan! And we are so close! I can feel his chest touching my back.

“Sorry. Hindi ka ba komportable? Maglakad na tayo,” tila bigla sya nakonsensya.

“No. Tara na,” I said and hold on the drive wheel (?) whatever this is called. I’m dumb sometimes.

“Sigurado ka?”

“Yup,” I answered.

“Gagalaw na ako,” he said.

“Okay.”

I didn’t even think that sounds something else! Pero mukhang hindi nya naman napansin at ako lang itong kung ano anong naiisip. Nanahimik na lang din ako.

It’s relaxing. We’re in a bike and cold wind is blowing us softly. Naririnig din ang mga huni ng ibon pati na rin ang tunog na gawa ng mga hinahanging halaman.

He drives smoothly. I looked down on his strong veiny arms controlling it. Nasa gitna nya ako at komportable naman ako. Hindi ako naiilang. Maybe because I am not attracted to him.

“Strevan!” may tumawag sa kanya sa nadaanan namin. Everybody here just knows him! Kahit ata bagong panganak na baby ay kilala sya!

Binabati lang naman sya at napapatingin sa akin. He maybe feels that I feel uncomfortable whenever someone is watching us kaya mas binibilisan nya ang pagpedal kapag may nakakasalubong.

“Nakakapagod ba?” tanong ko at nilingon sya. Napatingin naman sya sa akin. He’s a bit smiling like he’s in a light mood.

“Hindi.”

“Palit tayo?” biro ko at natawa. Natawa rin sya nang mahina.

“Kaya mo?”

“Oo naman!” I lied.

“Tss. Saan ako aangkas kung ikaw?” Nakangisi nyang tanong.

“Edi here din,” sagot ko.

We just laughed and talked about things as we pass by. Meron pang pababa ang daan pero kaunti lang ang takot ko.

I raised both of my hands as we go down. Tumili ako at parang naiiwan ang panty ko, my ghad! Strevan is just chuckling in his low voice behind me.

Medyo malayo nga. Natataw ko pa rin naman ang dagat pero puro na mga bakod ang narito.

Estedios Fruit Farm

I read the sign as we enter. Tanaw ko na rin ang sa tingin ko’y tinatrabaho nila. May mga nakatambak na materyales sa gilid at hindi pa tapos. Sa tingin ko ay matatagalan pa.

May mga lalaki na rin doon at ang iba ay nakatanaw na sa amin. Kumakaway na at tinatawag si Strevan. Bumagal na ang pagpedal nya hanggang sa tumigil ito. He removed his right arm so I can go down.

“Woah! Totoo nga yung pinagsasabi nina Dayana,” rinig kong sabi ng isa.

“Sandali, ipaparke ko lang ’to dun,” pambabalewala sa kanila ni Strevan. I nodded and watch him walk while pushing the bike.

“Hi! Ano pangalan mo? Totoo ba?” Bati ng isa at nakangiti. “Ako pala si Alex.”

“Hoy! Umaariba ka kaagad dyan!” saway ng isa at nagtawanan sila.

“Oh. I’m Lyra,” I said.

“Englishera,” komento ng isa. I smirked and shake my head.

“Hindi,” sagot ko.

“Kaano ano ano mo si Strevan? Totoo raw na girlfriend ka?” tanong nya.

“Gagi, kaya pala nagbubulungan na naman sila Kayee don. Nadaanan ko kanina sa may tubuhan,” natatawang sabi ng isa.

“Sino sya?” I asked although I’ve heard her name before. One of Strevan’s girls.

“Isa sa mga babaeng baliw dyan jay Strevan. Wala naman kasi yang pinapansing babae bukod dun kay Kayee,” he said as he laugh.

Napa-o ang bibig ko at tumango tango.

“Hindi ka nagseselos?” sabat ng isa. Kumunot naman ang noo ko.

“Bakit naman?” I asked. Nagkatinginan lang sila.

“Ano ba kayo, kaya lang naman pinapansin yun ni Strevan kasi minsan nang nagtrabaho sa kanila. Saka mabait yung tatay ni Kayee, napalapit na rin si Strevan don,” paliwanag ng isa.

I just nod my head as if I’m interested.

They asked me where did me and Strevan met. I just said we’re friends. That’s all. Hindi pa namin napag-uusapan ’yan ni Strevan kaya mahirap nang magsalita. Mamaya magkaiba ang isagot namin.

“Simulan na natin, tara!” Aya ng isa nang makabalik si Strevan.

“Mauna na kayo,” sabi nya dito. Tumango naman sila at kumaway sa akin ang iba. I just faked a smile.

“Anong pinag-usapan nyo?” kyuryoso nyang tanong.

“Wala. They just asked how and where we met.”

“Anong sinagot mo?”

“Wala. i just shrugged,” sabi ko. He nods as he stare at me seriously.

“Tara. Pwede ka rito sa kubo,” sabi nya at lumipat sa iba ang tingin, tila may tinatanaw.

“Talaga?”

“Oo. Mahangin dun. Tatawagin kita mamaya para mag-meryenda,” he said gently. I nodded as a response.

So after all, living here won’t be that boring, I guess. There’s so much more living in a countryside than a city. But I know deep inside that I only despise cities now because… it reminds me of Azriel.

Chapter 28

Fun

“Ano? Sumama ka na, Lyra. Wala ka namang ginagawa tuwing hapon dyan sainyo,” sabi ni Rea.

I smirked and shook my head.

“Pupunta kami sa bayan ni Strevan mamayang alas singko,” I said excitedly.

In my two months here, I made some girl friends. They are kind and nice although inaasar pa rin ako minsan dahil sa kaartehan ko at ka-conyohan. I never thought having friends are refreshing at all!

“Sus! Nanggagalaiti na naman si Kayee nyan,” sabi naman ni Sasa at tumawa. Natawa na lang din ako.

For the past two months, it was a miracle if Kayee doesn’t show up in the house for some stupid and petty reasons.

I remember one time she went in at the exact time where Strevan and I are laughing while cooking something in the kitchen (sya lang ang nagluluto at nakikisawsaw lang ako). Para syang maiiyak at muntik pang mabitawan ang dala dalang maja blanca.

She always have reasons to show up in the house. Either because she brings some food or may pinapasabi raw ang tatay nya kay Strevan. Strevan would just look at her seriously, thank her or just say something related to things about what his father has said.

I don’t mind though. Kung naging mabait lang sana sya sa akin ay baka ako pa mismo ang maglakad sa kanya kay Strevan.

“Hindi ka na talaga sasama? Sayang naman. Ang dami naming benta ’pag kasama ka,” Rea added. Kumunot ang noo ko at natawa.

“Of course, I’m your lucky charm!” mayabang kong sabi. They are selling some tobaccos and candies na syang paborito ng mga taga dito.

“Alam nyang maganda sya kaya ganyan!”

Nagtawanan kami.

Well, Strevan said we’re going to eat in bayan tonight. This is not the first time. For the past two months, lagi kaming nagpupunta roon kapag sweldo nya. He also insists to buy me more dresses which makes me feel guilty.

“Strevan, stop! Ayoko, meron pa naman ako sa bahay!” Frustrated kong sabi. Nasa tyangge lang naman kami but these dresses are sold for pretty expensive price for his income. Nakakahiya at nakakaguilty!

“Lyra, gusto kitang bilhan.”

He just can’t be stopped. Although madalas kaming mabigyan ng discount dahil sa kanya, ayoko pa rin. The vendors just love him so much na kung tatanungin ni Strevan kung pwede bang libre na lang ay talagang papayag ang mga ito.

The people here got used to see me, too. Hindi na ako palaging tinatanong ng kung ano ano. Eveything passes, indeed. Malilimutan din nila at masasanay. Ang iba ay nagustuhan ako tulad ng tita at malililit nyang mga pinsan at sina Rea, pero syempre meron ding mga hindi. Kayee and her allies are on the top list.

“O sya, sige na, mauuna na kami, Lyra. Masyado kang busy sa asawa mo,” pang-aasar pa nito.

I rolled my eyes. “Ugh, girl, shut up. Hindi ko asawa si Strevan o kung ano pa man!”

They both laughed. They are both morena. Si Rea ay kulot ang buhok samantalang si Sasa ay bagsak ang hanggang bewang na itim na itim na buhok. She has a boyfriend, iyong isa sa mga kaibigan ni Strevan, si Ivan.

“Bakit ba kasi ayaw mo? Hinahabol-habol ’yan tapos ikaw, dinedeny mo lang?” She mocked.

“We’re just friends, okay? Dyan na nga kayo. I’m going home!” I said and stood up. Nasa bakuran kami nina Rea. Tumayo na rin sila at hinatid ako sa may labasan.

“Paalam-”

“Just say ‘bye,’ Rea!” I said. She giggled and nodded.

“O sige. Bye, Lyra!”

“Bye bye!”

I smirked and waved my hand. “Byie!”

I went home after walking a bit. Dyan lang naman ang bahay ni Strevan. Pag-uwi ko ay sya ring pagdating nya.

“Lyra,” malamlam nyang bati. I smiled and waited for him to get down of his bike.

“Hi! Pagod ka?” I asked.

“Hindi,” marahan nyang sagot habang nakatitig sa akin. Binuksan ko naman ang wooden gate.

“Weh? Okay…”

“Maliligo lang ako,” pagpapaalam nya. He looks hot. His hair is damp from sweat at bumabakat din ang katawan nya sa tshirt nyang basa na ng pawis.

“You look tired. Let’s just go tomorrow-”

“Ngayon na,” sabi nya.

“Pero mukha kang pagod,” sabi ko. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang hawiin nya ang buhok ko. Mali, akala ko hahaplusin nya ang buhok ko, may kinuha pala syang dahon na napunta siguro sa buhok ko.

“Ngayon na, Lyra. Ayos lang ako,” he said warmly before opening the door for me. I pouted and I caught him hiding his small smile.

Nag-ayos na lang ako habang naliligo sya. I wore one of the dresses he bought for me. Pipilitin ko rin syang mag-bilyard kami.

I laughed. Who would have thought a brat like me would like this way of living. Maybe because it’s more peaceful even though I’m so far from my family. They don’t even look for me. Inabot na ng dalawang buwan… wala pa rin.

He went out, looking all handsome and serious. He’s wearing a gray muscle shirt which shows his biceps off. Sinuri nya rin ako nang medyo matagal. Nagtagal lang ang tingin nya sa labi ko. Well, this is his first time seeing me wearing lipstick. Ngayon ko lang nakitang may nakasama palang isa sa bag. But unfortunately, this is the shade I don’t like the most. Wala naman akong choice, so I just use it.

“Let’s go?” yaya ko.

“Sandali, yung susi…” sabi nya at pumasok muna ng kwarto. Sinulyapan ko muli ang sarili.

I’ve never wear shorts here. Wala kasi akong nadala. I once wore Strevan’s boxers and believe me… pulang pula sya at hindi ako kinausap buong araw. Halos hindi pa makatingin sa akin. I don’t know if he was mad or what. Nagkaayos na rin kami nung nag-sorry ako.

As usual, we rode his bike. Nasa harap ulit ako at dinadama ang hangin. This is also a new bike. Pina-customize nyang may malambot na upuan sa may harap kung saan ako patagilid na nakaupo kaya naman hindi na masakit sa pwet.

“Lyra, wag mong kontrolin,” natatawa nyang sabi mula sa likod ko.

“Huh?” lito kong tanong

“Yung kamay mo,” turo nya. I looked at my hands in the… manibela? If this is what it’s called.

“Hindi ko naman kinokontrol,” sabi ko.

“Umiiba ang direksyon oh,” sabi nya. Binitawan ko nga at mas bumilis ang pag-pedal nya, mas na-kontrol nya rin.

“I didn’t control it! Humawak lang ako!” depensa ko at nilingon sya. He’s smiling as if he isn’t tired.

“Alam ko. Masyadong mahigpit lang,” nakangiti nyang sabi. “Kahit hindi ka na kumpit, hindi ka rin naman mahuhulog. Nasa gitna kita.”

I nodded. “Okay.”

“Strevan! Lyra!” may mga kaibigan nya kaming nadaan. I smiled and waved until we pass them.

“Strevan!” tawag ko sa kanya.

“Hmm?” he asked gently.

“Let’s go to bilyaran,” yaya ko at natawa. I heard him chuckle, too.

“Baka mainis ka lang?”

“Hindi na!”

“O sige. Huwag ka lang sanang toyoin,” kahit hindi nakikita ay alam kong nakangiti sya.

Well, I throw tuntrums the last time we went there. Ang dadaya kasi nung mga naglalaro. Mabuti at na-ban sila doon.

Nakarating na kami sa bayan at kahit gabi ay marami pa ring tao. May mga nagbebenta ng lobo, mga candies na hindi ako pamilyar, at iba pa.

Umuusok na rin sa kabilang banda dahil sa ihawan. It’s a small grill house na talagang masarap ang binebentang barbeque.

“Kain na tayo?” tanong nya habang pinapark at itinatali ang bike. Marami ring mga bisikleta ang narito. Wala kasi talagang sasakyan dito. Nag-bbike lang ang mga tao at kung mayroon mang sasakyan, mga truck lang na naglalaman ng palay o mga produkto. Kaya siguro sariwang-sariwa ang hangin dahil nag-bibisikleta lang ang mga tao.

“Mamaya na!” Sabi ko. Tumingala ako at ang ganda na ng kalangitan. Ang daming bituin. Tumabi sa akin si Strevan at pinagmasdan din ang langit.

“Ang ganda ’no?” natutuwa kong sabi. Ang ganda pero parang nakakalungkot tingnan. Naalala ko si Azriel sa lahat ng bagay. Kahit anong pilit at ibaling sa iba ang atensyon, I always end up thinking about him and what is he doing or where is he. Who is he with? Does he miss me, too? Did he cry, too? But I can’t do anything but to force myself to leave people who left me first. He broke me first. I must just move on.

And just think that at least…

At least we met.

At least we were born on the same life time.

And at least… we’re under the same sky.

“Umiiyak ka,” puna ni Strevan. Tumingin ako sa kanya at mas lalo akong nalungkot. Hindi ko alam kung bakit.

“Lyra, anong problema? Saan masakit?” Medyo naalarma sya at pinaharap ako sa kanya.

Umiling iling ako at natawa. Pinunasan ko ang pisngi ko at natahimik ako nang hinawi nya ang kamay ko at sya mismo ang nagpunas ng luha ko. Hinaplos nya rin ang buhok ko habang nag-aalalang nakatingin sa akin.

“Wala,” natatawa kong sabi.

“Anong naalala mo?” tanong nya

“Wala… Ang ganda lang talaga,” sabi ko at tumingala muli. Ramdam ko pa rin nag nag-aalala nyang tingin.

Narinig ko syang bumuntong hininga. It’s like he’s stopping himself big time from asking personal questions. Tumango na lang sya ng sya naman ang tingalain ko.

His eyes are as dark as the night. Nag-iigting ang panga at tila malalim ang iniisip habang nakatingin sa akin.

“Come on, Strevan! Don’t spoil the night. Ayos lang ako! Tara na!” Masaya kong sabi at naunang magtatalon.

“Lyra!” I saw one of his friends. I laughed and waved at him. Kumaway din ang iba pa nyang kasama.

Lumapit din si Strevan sa akin. Nag-alala pa rin sya

“Strevan, don’t be a killjoy! Kainis ’to! Ano bang zodiac sign mo?” Natatawa kong tanong. Bumuntong hininga lang sya.

“Anong zodiac sign mo? I’m an aries!”

Bumuntong hininga ulit sya. “Virgo.”

“Oh, that’s why! Virgos are killjoy talaga,” I laughed at him. Umirap sya sa panlalaking paraan pero hindi na napigilan ang ngiti

“Tsk. Tara na nga,” he said.

Kamalas-malasan at narito rin sa ihawan si Kayee at ang mga alagad nya. Tila inaasahan nila kami at hindi na nagulat nang makita kami.

“Strevan!” masayang tawag nito at tumayo. Napatingin sa kanya si Strevan. I pouted and waved cutely to her allies. Isa isa naman nila akong inirapan.

“Kayee,” sabi naman ni Strevan.

“A-ah, a-alam ko kasing dito k-kayo kakain kapag mga ganitong araw…” nahihiya nyang sabi at sinulyapan ang mesa nila. “Dito ka na- kayo, pala. Maluwag pa ang mesa!”

I looked up at Strevan and his eyebrows are furrowed while looking at her. Then he shook his head

“Ah, hindi na. Salamat na lang, dito na kami sa pang-dalawahan,” he politely declined.

Kayee’s face frowned. Napangisi na lang ako at bahagyang tinapik ang braso ni Strevan.

“Tara na. It’s not like they’re not your friends,” sabi ko. His lips opened a bit.

“Let’s just sit with them,” sabi ko.

“Lyra…”

“T-talaga? Sige sige!” Masayang sabi ni Kayee at tiningnan ang mga kaibigan nya. “Hoy, usog!”

Inusog naman nila ang mga monoblock nilang upuan. There’s two seats more. Isa sa gitna ng mga kaibigan nya at isa pa sa katabi ni Kayee.

“Sige. Kung ’yan ang gusto mo,” marahan nyang sabi sa akin at naunang maglakad palapit sa mesa nila. Some people eating are greeting Strevan to which he nods and smiles politely lalo na kung may katandaan.

“Ah, sagot ko na lahat, Strev!” Masayang sabi ni Kayee. “Upo ka dito…” sabay turo nya sa katabing upuan.

“Ah, ’wag na. Ako na magbabayad sa amin ni Lyra saka tabi sana kami,” sabi ni Strevan. Napangisi ako ng marinig sa tono nya na medyo naiinis sya.

“Oh,” bigong sabi nito.

“P-pero Strevan, pwede namang tabi kayo ni Kayee eh. Tapos dito na si Lyra sa gitna namin,” sabat ng isa.

“Tabi kami,” he insisted. “Nahihirapan syang maghiwa ng inihaw.”

I nodded. Ang hirap kasi. I’ve always been dependent of people around me.

Wala na silang nagawa nang binuhat na ni Strevan ang dalawang monoblock para magkatabi kami. Pinaghila nya muna ako bago sya umupo.

I looked at Kayee and she’s angrily staring at me. I pouted and smiled cutely. Mas lalo syang naggalaiti

Iba’t ibang klase ng inihaw ang inilapag sa mesa. Strevan helped me with my grilled chicken. Hiniwa-hiwa nya para sa akin habang laglag ang panga nilang nakatingin sa amin. Even the people from other table are eyeing us.

“Thank you,” I said.

Nagsimula na kaming kumain at tahimik lamang ako. Kayee did her best to talk with Strevan. She uses her father or literally anything to ask to Strevan. Sinasagot lang naman sya nito at wala nang sasabihin pa.

“Masarap ba?” mahinang tanong sa akin ni Strevan nang balingan ako nito. I giggled and nodded. He smiled and wiped the side of my lips with a tissue.

“Oopsie,” I said.

He chuckled. “Kumain ka pa.”

“Yup!”

“Ano pang gusto mo? Softdrinks o juice?” he asked while watching me eat. Nilunok ko muna ang kinakain bago sumagot

“Beer,” sagot ko at itinuro ang mga iniinom nina Kayee.

“Wala yan sa pagpipilian,” sabi nya.

“So? Ikaw nga iinom din eh, ako rin,” I insist.

“Hindi na ako iinom kung ganon.”

Ugh! He’s so wise! Wala na akong nagawa at nag-softdrinks lang kami pareho.

“A-ah, Strevan, kanina pa tinatawag ni Kayee…” sabi ng isang kaibigan nya at pasimple akong inirapan.

Bitch, calm down. I ain’t gonna steal your king doe.

Hinarap naman ni Strevan si Kayee bago tanungin kung ano iyon. I just continued eating and sometimes steal some sliced liempo in Strevan’s plate. Hinahayaan nya lang naman ako.

“A-ah, si Papa kasi…” she started talking about her father. Nag-usap sila at medyo nagkasundo. Totoo nga ang sinabi nung katrabaho ni Strevan na malapit si Strevan sa tatay nya.

Nang matapos ako ay bumulong ako sa kanya na maghuhugas lang ako ng kamay.

“Sasamahan na kita,” sabi nya pero pinandilatan ko sya ng mata. Kung pwede lang mamatay sa mga titig, patay na ako kanina pa. Grabe makatitig itong si Kayee, akala mo pinapatay na ako sa iba’t ibang paraan sa isip nya.

I washed my hands and immediately went back, only to find out Kayee sitting on my spot. Okay? Why is she there though?

Tumayo na rin si Strevan nang makita ako

“Aalis ka na?” tanong ni Kayee sa kanya. Kinuha ko ang softdrinks ko at ininuman iyon.

“Oo,” sagot ni Strevan. “Lyra, halika na.”

I nodded. Nakangisi akong kumaway sa kanila habang sila ay pinag-iirapan ako. Hinintay ko muna si Strevan dahil nagbabayad pa sya.

“Thank you! Ang sarap!” Masaya kong sabi at umikot ikot. I heard him chuckle

“Saan mo pa gusto?” he asked. “Bibilhan kita ng-”

“Ugh! Strevan, stop! We both know na sapat lang ang kita mo for everyday ’no!”

“Lyra…” marahan nyang tawag. “Kaya nga ako nahuhuli minsan ng uwi dahil dagdag din ’yon. Hindi ’yon malaking kawalan sa pang-araw araw natin.”

Wow!

“Basta! ’Wag na!”

“Lyra, gusto ko-”

“E bakit mo ba gusto?!” sabi ko at inirapan sya. He chuckled with my action.

“Basta.”

“Anong basta?!”

“Lyra… hayaan mo na ako-”

“No way!” Sabi ko at tumawa. “Ano kita? Sugar daddy?” Biro ko.

“Mahirap lang ako,” he said and laughed. I laughed with him.

“Ano na naman? You still want to buy me stuffs,” sabi ko.

“Basta… Ang sarap mo kasing tingnan. Parang nagliliwanag yung mukha mo,” marahan nyang sabi. “Tapos nakangiti ka pa.”

I laughed and I expected him to laugh, too, but he didn’t. He’s just serious. Tiningala ko sya habang naglalakad kami at seryoso nga sya.

“So you’re saying I’m materialistic?!” biro ko.

“Hindi. Sabi ko ang ganda mong tingnan,” he said and smirked. Inirapan ko naman.

“Maganda talaga ako lagi kaya huwag mo na akong bilhan!” I said.

Sumuko na rin naman sya at hinayaan na ako. Naglakad na kami papasok sa bilyaran.

Medyo maraming tao at mostly lalaki. Kilala ko naman na ang iba kaya ngumiti ako sa kanila pabalik. Inirapan ko lang ang isang mahangin na lalaki. Humalakhak sya at yayakapin sana ako pero gumilid ako kaya bumangga sya sa matigas na braso ni Strevan.

“Sungit mo talaga, Lyra. Pagkaganda-ganda kong lalaki!” He said in his squeaky voice and showed his arms. Umirap ako.

“Wala naman!” pagtutukoy ko sa braso nya. Payat kasi sya at matangkad lang.

“Anong wala? Kumpara kay Strevan, di hamak na napakalayo ko ano!” he proudly said.

“Hoy gago! Syempre malayong malayo kay Strevan, nasa dulo ka!” Pang-aasar sa kanya ng isa. Nagtawanan kami.

“Tsk! Kabahan ka, Strevan, kapag naakit ko iyang si Lyra!” pananakot nya. Tiningala ko naman si Strevan at seryoso lang syang nakatingin sa akin. Tumawa ako.

“Talaga? Maakit mo ako?” I playfully said. Narinig ko agad ang pagtawag sa akin ni Strevan.

“O-oo naman!”

“Anong gagawin mo kung ganoon? Itatali mo ba ako sa kama-”

“Lyra!” inis na tawag ni Strevan. Naghiyawan naman ang iba at natawa na rin ako samantalang itong mahanging lalaki ay paulit-ulit na ang paglunok habang nakatingin sa akin.

“Anong gagawin mo? Sasayawan mo ba ako at gigilingan-”

“Lyra.” I heard Strevan’s dark voice. I laughed with the people.

“O-oo, kaya kong gawin yun! Para saan pa ang mga muscles ko kung hindi ako bubuhat ng babaeng sing-ganda mo?” He suddenly rebutt. I can’t help but to laugh with people. Hindi naman natutuwa itong katabi ko.

“Talaga? Gusto ko pa naman ng mga lalaking malalakas!” I said flirtly. We all laughed except Strevan.

Hindi nga lang naging maganda ang kinalabasan dahil maraming mga lalaking lumapit sa akin na hindi ko naman kilala. They are all flexing their muscles to me, what the hell!

“What the hell!” natatawa kong sabi at nagtago kay Strevan, the only man I trust here.

“Tama na,” seryoso nyang sabi rito at tinulak ang isa sa balikat. Nagtaas naman ito ng mga kamay habang natatawa.

“Teka, teka! Oo na! Narinig lang namin na gusto nya ng malalakas na lalaki-”

“Pero hindi nya sinabing gusto ka nya kaya umalis ka,” nagtitimping sabi ni Strevan.

“Aba! Kaya nga sabi ko narinig naming gusto nya ng malalakas na lalaki, e malakas ako. Parang ako na rin ’yun!” He proudly said. Agad kumunot ang noo ko at hindi malaman kung matatawa ba o ano.

“Talaga? Malakas ka?” nanghahamong tanong ni Strevan at humakbang na parang nag-aamok ng away. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko.

“P-pre,” utal nyang sabi.

“Hoy, Sean! Tantanan mo yan si Strevan at baka tulog ka na, isang suntok pa lang!” Someone teased him and they laughed.

Umismid iyong Sean at umiling iling. Bumalik na rin sya sa billyard nila.

“I thought you’ll gonna fight,” mahina kong sabi.

“Hindi ako bayolente.”

I shrugged and just pulled him to some vacant billyard. Naglaro rin kami ng mga kaibigan nya. We also got free drinks because the daughter of the owner likes Strevan. Tinatawanan ko iyon pero naiinis naman sya at hindi ako kinikibo.

Malalim na ang gabi nang matapos kami. Tatawa-tawa pa ako habang naglalakad kami papunta sa pinagpaparkingan ng mga bikes.

“Natalo ko sya,” natatawa kong sabi. Hindi naman sya kumibo.

“I said natalo ko sya! Won’t you congratulate me?!”

“Tss.”

Inirapan ko sya. “Why ka ba nag-susuplado dyan?”

Umismid lang sya.

“Mabuti at may free drinks tayo,” I laughed.

“Hindi ko sya gusto,” bigla nyang sabi. Kinunutan ko sya ng noo.

“Okay? Sinong gusto mo? Si Kayee?!” pang-aasar ko at natawa. Pumikit sya ng mariin at mas lalong nag-sungit. Hindi na rin kumikibo kahit patuloy kong inaasar.

Kinuha nya ang bike at saka sumakay doon bago ako masungit na tiningnan.

“Sakay na.”

“Imma try sa likod sumakay,” I said and tried to go up but he immediately pushed me gently.

“Dito ka na sa harap, baka mahulog ka-”

“Sabi mo hindi ako mahuhulog?”

“Oo. Pero delikado pa rin. Dito ka sa harap ko,” he insisted.

I just do what he said. Inaantok na ako. Dagdag pa ang malamig na hangin at marahang andar namin ni Strevan sa antok ko.

“Can I lean on you ba? Inaantok na ako…” mahina kong sabi.

“Oo.”

Sumandal ako sa matigas nyang dibdib at ipinikit ang mga mata.

“Nilalamig ka ba?” mahina nyang tanong sa mababang boses. I nodded.

“Hindi ako nakapag-dala ng jacket,” marahan nyang sabi. Umatsing ako at mas lalong nilamig.

“Bibilisan ko na…” he said lowly.

I nodded and made myself comfortable. Ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko at tuluyan na akong nilamon ng antok.

Kinabukasan ay nagising akong nasa kwarto na. Naabutan ko pa si Strevan na kumuha ng damit sa cabinet nya. Gross! Hindi man lang ako nakapag-palit ng damit!

“Good morning…” mahina kong sabi. Binati nya rin ako.

“Hindi ka nakapagpalit ng damit. Tulog ka na kagabi at walang ibang babae na pwede magpalit sayo,” seryoso nyang sabi.

I nodded. “It’s fine. At least you didn’t try.”

“Hinding hindi ko gagawin ’yon kung walang pagpayag ng babae,” he said seriously. I chuckled.

“You’re a nice man, huh. Kaya gustong gusto ka ng mga babae lalo na iyong sa kagabi,” natatawa kong sabi at bumangon. Itinali ko ang buhok ko habang pinanonood nya ako.

“Tss. Hindi ko nga gusto ’yon.”

“Whatever you say!” Sigaw ko mula sa labas ng kwarto.

“Lyra, hindi ko sya gusto,” pag-uulit nya. I laughed at him.

“Oo na! It’s not like it’s a big deal.” Sabi ko na nakapag-patahimik sa kanya.

I ignored him and went inside the small bathroom.

The next days were normal. Nasa trabaho lang sya lagi at ako ay pasama-sama lang kina Rea at Sasa.

“I miss going to salons…” I said, one afternoon. Nakatambay kami sa bakuran nina Rea at kumakain ng mangga.

“Walang ganyan dito,” sabi ni Rea.

“I know right.”

“Sabihin mo na lang kay Strevan. Pupunta kayo agad sa Manila? Diba marami nyan dun,” natatawang sabi naman ni Sasa.

Umirap ako at kumain ng isang slice ng mangga.

“He said he’s never been there.”

“Kaya nga. Edi first time nya kung nagkataon-”

“I told you we aren’t a thing. Strevan and I are just friends,” I explained again.

“Tss! Kahit na. Sasabihin mo lang kung talagang miss mo! Siguradong pupunta kayo agad ng Maynila,” sabi pa nya.

“It’s not like he’s rich naman,” sabi ko.

“Pero pag-iipunan nya yun kung hihilingin mo,” pang-gagatong nya. Inirapan ko silang dalawa habang tumatawa sila. Witches!

“Ayoko nga. There’s no way I’m going back to Manila,” medyo inis kong sabi nang may maalala.

“Bakit naman?”

“Basta.”

Chapter 29

Drunk

Pinanood namin ang nasa tapat naming bahay na maghakot ng mga gamit nila. Isang malaking truck din ang nagkakarga ng mga ito.

“Saan sila lilipat?” tanong ko sa katabi kong si Strevan.

Andito kami at nakatambay sa harap ng bahay ni Strevan habang kumakain ng pakwan.

“Dyan lang din daw, banda doon kila tiya,” sagot nya. Napatango naman ako.

“Eh dyan lang pala, bakit lilipat pa?” tanong ko habang tinatanggal ang mga buto sa slice ng pakwan ko.

“Hindi ko alam, Lyra.”

Inirapan ko sya at kumain na lang. Napatayo si Strevan nang lumapit sa bakod namin ang isang babae.

“Mag-iingat po kayo, Aling Laila,” sabi nya rito at lumapit doon. Tumayo na rin ako at lumapit.

“Naku! Oo naman. Dyan lang din naman kami lilipat,” she laughed. “Kaso baka ma-miss ka ni Stephany!”

Strevan laughed.

“Mag-ingat na lang po kayo. Uh, kailangan nyo po ba ng tulong?” he asked politely.

“Ay! Oo, dalawa lang kasi yung nagbubuhat tapos patpatin pa yung isa,” sabi nito. “Babayaran na lang ki-”

“Wag na po,” he cut her words before looking at me. “Saglit lang ’to,” pagpapaalam nya. I just nodded and watched them go to the house in front of us.

Madaling nabubuhat ni Strevan ang mga gamit. Hindi nga sya mukhang nahihirapan. Iyong Stephany naman ay kilig na kilig habang pinanonood sya. I smirked at her when she looked at me. Nanlaki ang mga mata nya at nagmamadaling pumasok sa loob.

What? Wala naman akong ginawa ah!

I just smirked! Umirap ako at pumasok na lang ng bahay dala dala ang plato ng mga pakwan.

The next day, Kayee showed up in our house at 6 AM. Yes! Ang aga aga!

Ako pa ang nagbukas dahil naliligo si Strevan. Well, today is Sunday so he’s here all day. We also have plans to go for a picnic near the ocean later.

“Good morning! Bakit?” tanong ko. Sumimangot agad ang mukha nya at luminga-linga sa likod ko.

“Hello? Bakit?” pag-uulit ko at kumaway pa kaya napatingin sya sa akin.

“Ah, si Strevan?” tanong nya.

“He’s taking a bath,” I answered. Naningkit ang mga mata nya sa akin. “Why ba?” tanong ko ulit.

“Gusto mo tawagin ko? Pwede ako pumasok,” pang-aasar ko at ngumisi. “Hindi sya magagalit,” dagdag ko pa.

I want to laugh hard when her eyes widened because of anger.

“Just kidding. Bakit nga? Pasok ka kung gusto mo,” bawi ko.

Look, I’m trying so hard to be nice here!

“Sige. Hihintayin ko siya rito,” she said coldly. I giggled and nodded.

Pumunta ako sa kusina para sa juice ng bruha. I get why she’s mad at me, it’s because she likes Strevan. Just like I said, I can help her only if she’s been nice to me. But she’s not, kaya bahala sya.

“Strevan! Si Kayee nasa salas!” sigaw ko.

“Bakit?” rinig kong tanong nya mula sa loob ng banyo.

“I don’t know!”

“Palabas na ako.”

Inilapag ko ang juice sa maliit na mesa kaharap ni Kayee.

“Palabas na raw sya. Sa kwarto lang ako,” pagpapaalam ko. Her eyes glimmered. Nakangisi tuloy akong pumasok ng kwarto. See! She likes him! She likes him! Nagniningning ang mga mata nya nang magpaalam ako para ma-solo nya si Strevan.

Oh my gosh, girls are really transparent!

Nagbasa na lang ako ng libro. It’s a greek myth about Hades, the god of the underworld. Isang linggo ko na rin itong binabasa. Hindi ko lang matapos-tapos dahil patigil-tigil ako.

Wala pang ilang minuto ay pumasok ng kwarto si Strevan na bagong ligo. Nakatingin sya sa akin habang ako ay nakahilata sa kama.

“What? Nasa salas kako si Kayee,” sabi ko at itinuro ang pinto.

“Alam ko. Lumabas ka para marinig mo kung anong sasabihin nya sa akin,” he said seriously. Kumunot naman ang noo ko sa kanya.

“Huh? Bakit naman? She asked for you, not me-”

“Para hindi kung ano-anong iniiisip mo, Lyra.”

Huh?! Ano bang iniisip ko? What does he mean by that?

“Wala naman akong iisipin?” nalilito kong sagot. He sighed heavily.

“Baka isipin mo gusto ko sya.”

I laughed with what he just said. Of course, he doesn’t like me teasing him about girls.

“Wala akong gusto sa kanya, Lyra,” paglilinaw nya. I giggled and just nodded.

“Okay! Sige na, don’t make her wait.”

Pero ang loko ay lumapit pa sa akin.

“Strevan, I said-”

“Halika na kasi,” sabi nya. Umirap ako at bumangon para sumama sa kanya. Naunang maglakad si Strevan at sinadya kong bagalan ang lakad ko.

“Strevan,” I heard Kayee’s sweet voice. Much sweeter than the voice she used to me a while ago.

“Kasi… Noon pa man… Simula nung una kitang makita noon…”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Oh my gosh, is she going to confess?! I need to go back! I need to go back to the room! It’ll be so awkward!

Pabalik na sana ako pero bigla akong tinawag ni Strevan kaya para akong magnanakaw na nahuli.

“Lyra, halika rito.”

Umiling iling ako. Kayee’s face suddenly became annoyed and sad. Naawa naman ako kaya umiling iling ako

“S-sa kwarto lang ako!”

“Halika rito,” he repeat.

“Hindi na talaga…”

Wala na akong nagawa nang masuyo nya akong hilain. Na-guilty ako dahil lumukot ang mukha ni Kayee. Masama ko tuloy tiningnan si Strevan habang malambot naman ang ekspresyon nyang nakatingin sa akin.

“Ano ulit yung sinasabi mo?” he asked her. Umismid si Kayee bago pilit na ngumiti.

I really feel bad…

“Wala, kalimutan mo na. Isa pa, may handaan mamayang gabi dahil anniversary nina mama at papa kaya may kaunting salo-salo at inuman. Gusto kitang imbitahin.”

I just played my fingers while listening. Kawawa naman. I really bet she was about to confess her feelings! Ganyang ganyan ang mga suitors ko noon. Oh my gosh, I just ruined my co-woman’s strategies.

“Oh, sige sige. Pwede ko bang isama si Lyra?” he asked and looked at me.

I groaned and rolled my eyes at him. “Ayoko, maaga akong matutulog.”

“Lyra-”

“Ayoko! Mabilis akong antukin sa gabi,” palusot ko pero mukhang hindi sya papaawat.

“Saglit lang tayo,” he bargained. Umiling-iling ako at natawa.

“Oo nga naman, Strevan. Mukhang antukin si Lyra kaya dito na lang sya,” she added. Napaawang ang bibig ko at natawa na at tumango-tango.

“Tsaka baka andun din sina Zac at ang iba pa. Matutuwa kayo dahil mag-papainom si papa.”

“Lyra, sumama ka.” He said seriously. Inirapan ko naman agad.

“Strevan, mukhang ayos lang kay Lyra na dito sya…” she insisted.

Natatawa na talaga ako. She’s so desperate. But oh well, wala namang kaso sa akin yun kaya you go, girl.

“Hindi ako pupunta kapag hindi sya sasama, Kayee,” he said.

She’s panicking a bit when she looked at me.

“S-sumama ka na, Lyra, sige na…” she said. Sinamaan ko naman ng tingin si Strevan at mahinang hinampas. Pinuna agad iyon ng mga mata ni Kayee.

“Ikaw! Sumama ka dun mag-isa!” I said and rolled my eyes at him while he remained gentle and calm.

“Ayoko.”

“Strevan!”

“Anong gagawin ko dun kung wala ka? Wala akong kasama at kausap,” he reasoned. Natawa na ako sa sobrang babaw ng sagot nya.

“You?! Walang kasama at kausap at kasama, my ass, Strevan. Halos lahat dito kilala ka at karamihan pa ay babae! Kahit siguro baby kilala ka!” Maarte kong sabi at umirap ulit.

We both heard his low laugh like I said something so funny. He’s just there, sitting while laughing his heart off.

“Tangina,” mahina nyang mura bago ako tingnan.

“Iba kasi kapag ikaw kaya sumama ka na,” pamimilit nya ulit. Kayee is impatiently staring at Strevan.

“Please, sumama ka na rin, Lyra,” she said.

I just gave up. They were both telling me to come, edi go.

Sa hapon ay nag-bibike kami sa may labasan. Marunong akong mag-bike kaya hindi na ako nahirapan. He borrowed this bike from his friend so we’re both biking while the sun is about to disappear.

Tanaw na tanaw dito ang paglubog ng haring araw. Tumigil ako kaya tumigil din sya. We are now on the shore so it’s a bit hard to pedal.

Tumawa ako at kumaway kina Rea at Sasa. They aren’t selling tobaccos now, but just chilling. Sasa is also with her boyfriend, Ivan.

“Hoy! Ano ’yan, bonding ng mag-asawa?” pang-aasar ni Rea nang magkalapit kami. Agad ko syang inirapan at hinampas nang mahina.

“Anong mag-asawa ka dyan! Iyan kamo sina Sasa at Ivan!” I teased back. We both laughed while Sasa’s cheeks went red.

“Pakiramdam ko talaga mag-asawa kayo tapos tinatago nyo lang,” komento naman ni Sasa.

“We’re not. Kung mag-asawa kami, nasaan ang marriage certificates namin kung ganon?” Pagtataray ko but they just laughed.

“Ano bang pinagsasabi mo, Lyra? Hindi uso iyan dito dahil hindi naman kami sibilisado. Basta kinasal sa may simbahan dun sa Ares, mag-asawa na kayo! Wala nang sertipiko o kung ano pa!” She said in a mocking tone. Kumunot naman ang noo ko.

“Talaga? Ganoon dito? Wala?” gulat kong tanong at nilingon si Strevan.

“Oo, ganoon dito,” he confirmed. Nanlalaki ang mga mata kong tumango. Nag-usap naman sina Ivan at Strevan sa gilid habang nag-chikahan kaming tatlo.

Ikinuwento ko na pumunta kaninang umaga si Kayee, but I didn’t say that she was about to confess. Feeling ko nakakahiya sa parte nya yun at ayokong mangyari sa akin yun.

“Sa anniversary nila Mang Rehan at aling Weng, ano? Ano, pupunta kayo ha! Pupunta kami eh,” Rea said.

“Yup, we’re going. Although ayoko talaga… pero pupunta naman pala kayo kaya magsasaya siguro ako,” I said and shrugged.

“Kahit wala kami, andyan naman si Strevan kaya magsasaya ka!”

Inirapan ko sila kahit na nagtawanan ang mga bruha.

“Nag…” lumapit sya at pinaglapit-kapit kami. “Nagtalik na kayo, noh?!” she guessed.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at umatras. They both laughed again like witches. I couldn’t imagine that even in my wildest dreams!

Me… Strevan?!

SEX?!

No way!!!

“Oo siguro!” gatong ni Sasa at humagikhik. “Malaki ba? Masarap ’no?!”

“Oh my gosh, Sasa, what the hell!!” Gulat na gulat kong sabi.

“Patalikod siguro ano? Hala! Iba na tuloy ang maiisip ko tuwing magpupunta ako sainyo!”

Fuck!

“Napakadumi ng bunganga nyo!” Natatawa kong sabi. “We didn’t have sex! My gosh!”

Para kaming mga tangang nagbubulungan dito.

“Weh? Wag mo nang ikaila. Naalala ko tuloy nung una namin ni Ivan! Hindi naman kalakihan pero grabe! Nakakabaliw at nakakaadik! Gabi gabi tuloy kami nagtatalik,” Sasa said while her eyes are glittering.

Napamura ako at nagtawanan kami.

“Gabi gabi!” pag-uulit ko.

“Oo, ang sarap! Gusto ko ulit ngayon!”

Hindi ako makapaniwala habang natatawa. She’s one of a wild girl! Baka mabuntis sya ano mang oras ngayon!

“Baka mabuntis ka?”

“Hindi. Sa labas nya pinuputok o kaya minsan sinusubo k-” I covered her sinful mouth while laughing.

What on earth! I never had friends this wild!

I will never look at her and Ivan the same way again.

“Nakakamiss tuloy madiligan,” nakangusong sabi ni Rea. Hinampas ko sya at nagtawanan kami.

I miss it, too. But I can’t do it with anyone else.

“Anong pinag-uusapan nyo?”

Para kaming mga kriminal at nagtalunan sa gulat nang biglang lumapit sina Strevan at Ivan. Ivan’s arm immediately made its way to Sasa’s waist. That action made me remember someone.

“Wala!” sagot ni Rea at tumawa. Ngumuso naman ako.

“Basta! Kita kits na lang sa bahay nina Kayee mamaya. Lyra, ah?” Sasa called.

“Yup. Pupunta kami.”

We bid our goodbyes and we both ride our bicycles again. Medyo madilim nga lang ang daan dahil gumagabi na.

Kayee said around 8 pm so nang mag-7:30 ay handa na kami. I just wore a puffy sleeves dress na color white at may design na mga dilaw na maliliit na bulaklak. While Strevan wore a black tshirt that is a bit tight so his biceps and muscles in chest are almost visible dahil sa pagkabakat nito.

“Mag-bbike tayo?” tanong ko.

“Hindi na. Dyan lang ang kanila,” he answered and faced the mirror. Tumango ako at nanalamin din. I put some clips na kakulay ng dress ko.

“Tara na,” sabi nya kaya tumango ako.

May mga nakasabay kami kaya ang ending ay sabay sabay kaming naglalakad. Kayee’s family is a bit known here since his father was said to be so friendly, kind, and nice.

“Para kang tanga, Sean,” natatawa kong sabi. He’s the same guy na payat pero ipinagmamayabang sa akin ang muscles nyang non-existent.

Tumabi sya sa akin habang naglalakad at nagyayabang na naman.

“Totoo! Maghapon na akong nagbubuhat ng mga sako dun sa manggahan kaya meron na talaga!” Mayabang nyang sabi. He also laughed with his squeky voice. Natawa na lang ako at napailing.

“Talaga?”

“Oo nga! Sus, itong si Lyra, walang bilib sa akin! Tatawagin ba akong Sean kung wala lang?”

Nagtawanan ang ibang nakarinig sa kanya kaya natawa na rin ako.

“Wala naman kasi talaga!” Giit ko at tumawa. Tiningnan ko pa ang pinagmamalaki nyang braso bago iyon mahinang hinampas.

“Halos parehas lang tayo ng braso eh!” Sabi ko. Nagtawanan kami.

“Hawakan mo kasi!” panghahamon nya.

“No way!” Sabi ko at umiling iling. Strevan and the other boys are on the back. Nauuna lang kaming maglakad nitong loko.

Nagbibiruan pa kami hanggang sa marating na namin ang bahay na may handwritten tarpaulin na nakabalandra sa labas. Nakasulat lang na 40th anniversary na nila. Wow.

Sinalubong kami ni Kayee nang malaki ang ngiti. Malaki rin ang bakuran at ganoon din ang bahay nila na gawa sa kahoy. May mga mesa sa bakuran at may mga ilaw na rin. Iilan na ang naroon at nagsitayuan para batiin ang mga kasama ko.

“Strevan, pare!!”

Pumasok kami at ngumisi si Strevan sa kanila bago bumati.

Okay, I feel so out of place. Nasaan na ba sina Rea?!

Hinanap ako ng mga mata ni Strevan at agad akong marahang hinila.

“Si Lyra,” pagpapakilala nya. Their eyes widened and look at each other with smirk on their faces. Tila nagkakaintindihan sila sa mga tinginan.

“Puta, tama pala ang chismis!” sabi ng isa bago ako tingnan. Napalabi sya at bahagyang nag-iwas ng tingin. “Carlos, pala. Pinsan ni Strevan,” he added before giving his hand for a shake.

Ako naman ang nagulat at mabilis na tinanggap ang kamay nya. We shaked hands pero mabilis ko ring binawi iyon.

“Kuya Evan, ang ganda nya! Kumusta po? Ako si Yssa!” masayang bati ng isa. I smiled back at her.

“I’m fine, thank you. I’m Lyra, nice to meet you,” I said sweetly. Mas lalong namangha ang ekspresyon nya.

“Nag-eenglish!” she exclaimed.

“Ang ganda, Strevan, pakilala mo naman kami!” nagtawanan sila.

“Girlfriend ko ’yan!” sabat ni Sean.

“Sabi ko si Lyra sya. Pinakilala ko na,” pilosopong sabi ni Strevan. Medyo inis pa ata.

“Ang ganda pala, sabi sa tsismis nina Dayana maputi lang? Kaya pala binahay agad ni Strevan! Tangina!”

Nagtawanan muli sila. Umirap naman ako at sinamaan ng tingin si Strevan para ipakitang hindi ako natutuwa.

“Hoy, tama na,” inis nyang saway dito. Nagsitahimikan naman sila.

“O-oo nga. W-wala namang namamagitan sa kanila…” sabat naman ni Kayee.

“Sus! Selos ka kamo,” pang-aasar sa kanya.

“Huh! Umupo na nga kayo. Tatawagin ko lang si Papa, ano uh… Strevan. Sabi nya tawagin ko raw sya pag dumating ka na,” she said and made her way to their house.

Nagkanya-kanya na muli sila at nagsimula na ang masayang tugtugin. Papaupo pa lang ako pero narinig ko na ang malakas na boses ni Rea na tinatawag ako.

“Lyra! Saan ka!” she exclaimed. I laughed and raised my hand.

We all sat in the same table. They look gorgeous with their dresses, too. Umalis lang si Strevan para kausapin ang ama ni Kayee at si Ivan naman para batiin ang mga iba pang lalaking kaibigan.

“Ano! Ang gwapo ng mister mo, huh?” Rea teased. Umirap agad ako.

“Can you stop? Kakairita ’to!”

Nag-chikahan lang kami habang itong si Sean at iba pa ay tawag nang tawag sa akin. Inaaya ako doon sa table nila. Inirapan ko sya at tumawa.

Pagbalik ni Strevan ay saka pa kami lumapit sa table. He helped me get food. Uupo na sana kami pero ako naman ang nakita ng tatay at nanay ni Kayee.

“Hello po,” bati ko. He laughed heartly before tapping Strevan’s back.

“Sya pala? Ang ganda mo, hija. Bagay kayo!” Sabi ng babae. Hilaw naman akong ngumiti.

“Huwag ka ring mag-alala at hindi ka lugi dito kay Strevanboy. Masipag ito at magalang sa babae’t nakakatanda. Gwapo pa, kahit anak ko ay tingin kong may gusto sa kanya!” He laughed again. I suddenly remember daddy with how the way he laugh.

Tumawa na lamang din ako. I also heard Strevan’s laugh beside me.

“By the way, happy anniversary po,” bati ko.

“Salamat, hija! Kain kayo!”

Pagkatapos ay umupo na kami para kumain. I don’t know what all of these but I just ate it. Masarap naman, talagang wirdo lang dahil hindi ako namulat dito.

Isang oras na kami rito at busog na busog na ako. Ang sakit na rin ng panga ko kakatawa dahil kina Rea at dito kay Sean na hindi pa rin tumitigil. Well, he’s drunk now kaya mas consistent pa.

The boys are drinking now except Strevan. Kahit sina Rea ay umiinom na rin kaya mas lalo akong natatawa dahil wala nang filter ang mga bibig nila.

“Strevan! Ivan! Tara dito!” tinawag na sila ng mga kaibigan nila sa inuman.

“Lyra, Sasa, pahiram muna ha?!”

Kahit ayaw ni Strevan ay wala na syang nagawa nang irapan ko sya at itulak papunta doon. Tho he promised he won’t drink.

Tatlo na lang kami rito at nagkakasiyahan sa table. Lumakas ang tugtog at mas lalong na-hype ang mga tao. Nagsasayawan na sila at kahit ang mga alagad ni Kayee na galit sa akin ay niyaya na kaming sumayaw sa sobrang kalasingan.

“Inom, Lyra! Wag mo sabihing hindi ka pa nakakatikim ng alak?!” natatawa at lasing na sabi ni Sasa.

I smirked. Me? Never tasted alcohol? You wish. Minor pa lang ako ay naglalagi na ako sa bar, ano! With my fake id and boytoys, of course!

Walang sabi kong tinungga ang isang basong alak. Napapikit ako nang maramdaman ang paghagod nito sa lalamunan ko. Naghiyawan ang mga bruha at nag-inuman pa kami. Nakailang bote na rin kami bago mapagpasyahang sumayaw.

“Whoooh! Come on, let’s dance!” I drunkenly said and stood up. Natatawa pa ako at paekis-ekis na naglakad. Nagtayuan din silang dalawa at sumayaw kami hanggang sa napunta kami sa gitna ng bakuran.

Nagkakabungguan pa kami dahil marami nang nagsasayawan. I laughed and made my moves a bit sexy.

A boy tried to dance with me and I couldn’t see his face dahil sa kalasingan. I just grind on him while dancing. Naghiyawan sila at mas lalo kong pinag-igihan. I heard him laugh as he pull my waist closer. I laughed, too.

Memories flash in my mind. Senior and College days. I was exactly like this.

Binitawan ko sya at lumayo. Pumikit ako at hinawi ang buhok ko. Hinagod ko ang dibdib ko pababa sa aking balakang habang gumigiling. They all cheered which made me more eager to dance sexily.

“Whooh! Sexy! Tangina!”

I twerked at isinabay yun sa beat ng music. Naghiyawan muli sila. Fuck, I’m so drunk!

May naramdaman pa akong humampas ng pwet ko kaya medyo naalarma ako. Nilingon ko at si Rea lang pala. Tumawa ako at gumiling muli.

Not until Strevan’s angry voice called me. He pulled me which made the crowd groan in annoyance. Me, too! I am annoyed!

“Ano ba!” inis kong sabi.

“Uminom ka?!” galit na paratang nya. Natatawa akong tumango.

“Yup, I did!!”

“Hoy, nasan na si Lyra? Sabi nyo sumasayaw? Tangina, nagbanyo lang ako, wala na agad!” rinig ko pa ang protesta ni Sean.

Hinila na ako palabas ni Strevan bago ako harapin. Hindi na masyado rinig ang music dito. I laughed while my body feels so jelly.

“I wanna dance more!” I shout. Rinig ko ang marahas nyang pagbuntong hininga.

“Malaswa kang sumasayaw doon at tuwang-tuwa ang mga gago! Hindi na, tama na-”

“What’s wrong with that?! I used to do that in Manila-”

“Alam ko, pero hindi ito Maynila. Kung kaswal lang doon ang pagsayaw nang ganoon, dito hindi, Lyra. Hindi sila edukado tungkol doon. Baka hawakan ka nila, gusto mo ba yun?!” medyo tumaas ang boses nya sa galit.

Agad nag-init ang mga mata ko. His expression suddenly changed.

“B-bakit mo a-ako sinisigawan? G-gusto ko lang naman s-sumayaw.” I said with my very little voice because I’m about to cry.

“Pasensya na… Lyra, hindi ko sinasadya,” marahan nyang sabi.

Nagsituluan ang mga luha ko na agad nyang pinunasan. Nagiging dalawa na sya sa paningin ko dahil sa kalasingan.

“Umuwi na tayo.” He said.

“No! I’m not going home!” I said. Marahan nya akong hinila pabalik sa loob.

“Lyra! Tara!” Rea called drunkenly. I saw two Reas dancing wildly. May kasayaw din syang lalaki.

“Uuwi na po kami,” magalang na paalam ni Strevan sa tatay ni Kayee.

“Oh? Ang bilis naman, hijo. Wala pang dalawang oras,” sabi nito.

Nag-usap pa sila pero wala na akong maintindihan dahil sa kalasingan. I also saw Kayee talk with him for a bit while I dance sexily at the side. Pero hawak hawak nya ako kaya hindi ako makaalis!

“Tama na,” nagtitimpi nyang sabi. “Umuwi na tayo.”

“Uwi na kami!” sigaw ni Strevan sa mga kaibigan nyang lasing din. They protest but Strevan immediately pull me out. Kumaway ako kina Sasa at Rea.

Tumatawa-tawa pa ako habang pa-ekis ekis na naglalakad. Medyo mahigpit ang hawak ni Strevan sa aking pulsuhan dahil kumakawala ako.

I wriggled my hand to get out of his touch while laughing drunkenly.

“Get off me!”

Hindi naman sya sumagot.

“No! Why are there two Strevans here?” I laughed.

Umiiyak-iyak ako habang nag-lalakad. Paulit-ulit naman syang bumuntong hininga. Maya maya pa binitawan nya ako at patalikod na nag-squat sa harap ko.

“Sakay na para mabilis tayo.”

Umiiyak akong pumasan sa kanya. Heck, I don’t even know why I’m crying. Maybe because I wanted to dance and he won’t let me!

Naglakad na sya habang nakapasan ako. I lightly punched his stone shoulders.

“I hate you! I said I want to dance!”

He didn’t answer.

“I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!” I cried while punching him.

Bumuhos ang luha ko at niyakap ang leeg nya mula sa likod. I felt him stiffened. Humagulgol ako sa likod nya at hinigpitan ang yakap.

“I hate you… I hate you, Azriel…”

He didn’t speak a word.

“I hate you for c-cheating on me with my s-sister. I hate you for not b-being there when I w-was about to die…” I sobbed.

“L-lagi kang wala… I-I was so h-hurt. My d-daddy despise me… I h-hate them all… Fuck you!”

“Fuck you!!”

Umiiyak ako habang si Strevan ay tahimik lamang. Kahit nang makauwi ay tahimik pa rin sya habang ako ay tatawa-tawa na.

“Magbihis ka muna.” He said seriously when he put me down in the bed.

Tinitigan ko ang likod nya nang mabuti.

I can see Azriel in him. Nag-dedeliryo na ata ako sa sobrang kalasingan.

“Lyra, magbihis ka,” pag-uulit nya at saka ako hinarap.

Napaawang ang bibig ko nang makita ang mukha nya. Azriel! Azriel is here!

I quickly grabbed his neck for a kiss but he pushed me gently.

“Lyra,” nagbabanta nyang sabi.

“Why are you calling me Lyra?! I’m Seleira!” I said and pushed my body againts his. I heard him curse.

Oh my gosh, Azriel is here!

“Tama na,” he said while lightly pushing my body away pero mas idiniin ko ang sarili sa kanya. Nag-iinit na ang katawan ko at gusto ko nang mag-hubad.

I will really cry if I won’t get laid tonight and luckily, Azriel is here! Tumawa ako at umamba ulit na hahalikan sya pero tinulak nya ako muli at iniwas ang mukha.

“Putangina,” rinig kong mura nya.

“Please, hubby…” I begged with my sweetest voice.

Binaba ko ang kamay ko sa abs nya at mainit iyon. Itataas ko sana ang tshirt nya pero agad nyang hinuli ang kamay ko.

“Lyra, tangina…” napapaos nyang sabi. “Tama na.”

“No! Please, hubby… I want…” I begged and grind myselft to him.

I miss you, Azriel. I am really glad you’re here for tonight.

“Please, kiss me…” naiiyak kong sabi at pilit na inaabot ang labi nya ngunit ipinagdadamot nya iyon sa akin.

Hinila ko sya at humiga ako kaya nakapatong sya sa akin. I opened my legs widely while looking at Azriel’s ash eyes. I miss you…

“Lyra, tama na!” nahihirapan nyang sabi at aalis na sana pero hinila ko kaagad sya.

“No! Please… please, hubby. I miss it, please… Hubby, please…”

Nanubig muli ang mga mata ko. Sunod sunod naman ang mga mura nya.

“Hindi pwede,” he said at umambang tatayo pero ipinulupot ko ang legs ko sa kanyang bewang at idiniin ako sa kanya. Mas lalo syang napamura.

“Please… don’t leave… I want!”

“Lasing ka lang, Lyra. Tangina.”

“Yes, I’m drunk but I’m giving you my consent! “ I cried.

“Hindi pwede.”

I felt him forcefully removed my legs on his waist. Mas lalo akong umiyak.

“Azriel! No!”

“Tama na. Matulog ka na.”

“No! Please, hubby!” Naglilikot na ako dahil sa sobrang init ng katawan na nadarama. My skin also feels more sensitive that whenever he touches me, I feel more hot and wet.

“Nahihirapan ako, Lyra,” napapaos na sabi nya at kinakalas ang kamay ko sa leeg nya. Umiling iling ako.

Azriel, you fucking cunt. Why don’t you want?! Do you love hers more?!

“Azriel!” Tawag ko nang tuluyan na syang tumayo at lumayo.

“Noooo! Do not leave!” Umiiyak kong sabi. I saw two Azriels carrying the electric fan. Itinutok sa akin at inilagay sa pinakamalakas.

“Matulog ka na, Lyra. Lasing ka lang. Hindi ko gagawin yun sa’yo.”

Those are the last words I heard from him. Umiiyak pa ako kahit noong nakalabas na sya. I hate Azriel! I hate Azriel and every boy who is named Azriel in the whole world!

I woke up very late the next morning. Napaungol ako dahil sa sakit ng ulo ko. Fuck hangovers! I didn’t even change my clothes!

Pupungas-pungas pa ako nang makita ko si Strevan na seryosong pumasok ng kwarto at may dalang tray ng pagkain.

Kumunot ang noo ko at tiningnan ang kalendaryo. Why is he here? It’s monday! He should’ve gone for work!

“Good morning…” paos kong sabi. Bumati lang sya at hindi na kumibo muli. Inilapag nya ang sopas, gatas, tinapay, at tubig sa mesa.

“Why are you here, though? It’s monday.” sabi ko at tumayo.

“Umupo ka muna at nahihilo ka. Kumain ka,” seryoso nyang sabi.

Is it just me or there’s something off here? Well, seryoso lang naman talaga sya lagi pero parang may kakaiba ngayon.

“Bakit ang sungit mo?” tanong ko at umupo gaya ng gusto nya para hindi na sya magalit.

“Wala. Kumain ka na.”

“Bakit ka nga nandito? Diba may trabaho ka pag ganitong oras? It’s only 10 in the morning…”

“Kasi alam kong sasakit ang ulo mo ngayon. Lasing na lasing ka kagabi,” medyo inis nyang sabi.

My mouth dropped open as memories from last night run through my mind. I was drunk.

“Oh my gosh! I can remember I was so drunk…” panimula ko.

“Uh uh,” he sat in a wooden chair while looking at me with his angry pierce eyes.

“Then I danced wildly back there! Oh my gosh! Maalala ba nila yun, Strevan? Nakakahiya!” Hiyang hiya kong sabi at humawak sa dalawang pisngi ko.

“Ano pang naalala mo?” tanong nya at pambabalewala sa tanong ko. Kumunot ang noo ko at inalala ang mga iba pang nangyari kagabi.

“Then I cried! Then we went home!” Pinal kong sabi. Oh my gosh! How can I show up to them if they saw me dancing sexily last night?! Mas lalong sumasakit ang ulo ko.

“Bukod dyan, ano pa?” tanong nya ulit. Kinunutan ko naman sya ng noo.

“Wala na? Kaya nga sabi ko umuwi na tayo eh?” nalilito kong sagot at humigop sa sabaw.

Perfect! Ang sarap!

Nakangisi ako dahil sa sarap ng luto nya habang itong kaharap ko ay seryosong nakatitig sa akin na para bang may hininhintay. He also looks pissed at something. Kahit kaninang pagpasok nya pa lang ay mukha na syang wala sa mood.

“Talagang wala ka nang maalala?” naninigurado nyang tanong.

“Wala na nga! Why are you so kulit ba?” tanong ko bago ako dapuan ng kaba. “Did… did I do something embarrasing? Oh my gosh… what did I do?” natataranta kong tanong.

He heavily sighed before shaking his head.

“Wala. Kumain ka pa para mawala ang sakit ng ulo mo.”

I smiled sweetly before nodding. “Okay! Thank you!”

Chapter 30

Moved

Days passed and Strevan is being distant. I mean, hindi naman talaga kami physically close lagi, but we always talk and laugh. Ngayon at noong mga nagdaang-araw, parang dumidistansya sya na hindi ko maintindihan.

“Why? M-may ginawa ba akong m-masama?” natatakot kong tanong sa kanya. I’m really afraid if he might just kick me out of his house once he realize I’m nothing but a heavy luggage for him.

“Wala,” maikli nyang sagot.

“E bakit parang galit ka? Bakit ka ba nagagalit sa akin?”

“Hindi ako galit.”

I pouted and watched him sweep the floor. Itinaas ko ang mga paa ko sa upuan para mawalisan nya ang ilalim ko.

“But it feels like you are.”

“Hindi nga-”

“Hindi ako titigil hangga’t hindi mo sinasabi kung bakit!”

Bumuntong hininga sya at umiling-iling. What the hell did I do ba? I really have no idea at all. This all started after we went to that anniversary party.

“Ano ba? Sabihin mo lang kung ayaw mo na ako dito!” Naiiyak kong sabi. He looked at me with his ruthless eyes. But his expression suddenly softened, too.

“Hindi ’yan ang sinasabi ko-”

“Eh ano nga?!”

“May asawa ka na.” It wasn’t a question. Dinig din ang pait sa boses nya. Napaawang ang bibig ko at nanlaki rin ang aking mga mata.

“W-what?”

“Azriel ang pangalan,” he added without looking at me. He stares at nothing with his bitter and slightly pissed expression. Nag-iigting na rin ang panga nya.

What?! How did he know?

“Saan mo nalaman ’yan?” nanginginig ang boses ko.

“Niloko ka at sumama sa kapatid mo, ganoon ba? Kinamumuhian ka rin ng tatay mo. Iyon ang dahilan mo kaya ayaw mo nang bumalik sa Maynila.”

His voice is so serious and there’s really no trace of emotion.

“S-Strevan…”

“Seleira,” he called me with my real name.

Mas lalong tumulo ang mga luha ko nang muling marinig na may tumawag sa akin ng totoo kong pangalan. Nag-aalala nya akong pinaupo muli sa upuan bago umupo sa harap ko.

“I’m sorry… I didn’t t-tell you anything. I’m sorry, Strevan, I really am…” umiiyak kong sabi. Tinakpan ko rin ang mukha ko ng dalawa kong palad.

“Shh. Hindi mo naman kailangan sabihin ang kahit ano. Wala naman akong karapatan malaman, tahan na…” marahan nyang sabi unlike earlier that he really look and feel like a ruthless man.

“Kumusta ka? Ayos ka lang ba? Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari at napadpad ka rito na duguan at walang malay,” para akong hinehele sa tono nya.

I cried even more when he asked if how am I and am I okay. Hinagod nya rin ang likod ko kaya mas lalo akong nagiging emosyonal.

“N-nagagalit ka ba kasi tinago ko?” mahina kong tanong at sinulyapan sya. Agad naman syang umiwas ng tingin na parang nahihirapan makita ako.

“Hindi. Walang kaso sa akin ’yon. Talagang… umasa lang ako… pero kasalanan ko ’yun,” his voice suddenly sound sad which made me confuse.

“Umasa saan?” tanong ko habang pinupunasan ang luha.

“Wala,” he quickly dismissed it.

Kinuwento ko sa kanya ang iilang parte sa nangyari sa akin. He looks so mad when I tell him about my conclusion that my sister and my husband are cheating behind me. Dagdag pa iyong kay daddy.

Strevan looks so sad, disappointed, mad, concern, and his emotions are so transparent. He hugged me and I can’t help but to cry.

Finally, I opened this to someone. Medyo nawala ang bigat sa dibdib ko.

“Lyra…” iyon lamang ang nasambit nya habang niyayakap ako.

“Thank you for sheltering me, Strevan…” mahina kong sabi. Nagtama ng mga paningin namin at ngumiti ako sa kanya.

He looks really sad.

“U-uuwi ka na?” nag-iingat nyang tanong. Nakayuko na sya at mukhang ang lungkot lungkot nya. Para tuloy akong nalukungkot ulit.

“Not yet… but I guess so. Hindi naman pwedeng habangbuhay ako rito,” I said and forced a laugh but he remained quiet. Nag-angat sya ng tingin gamit ang mga malulungkot na mata.

“Don’t be sad! Oh my gosh,” natatawa pero naiiyak kong sabi.

“Paano kung magkita kayo ulit?” tanong nya. Natigil tuloy ang tawa ko.

“Wala. I won’t let him come near me.” Kahit ako ay hindi na sigurado sa pinagsasabi ko. But I will really never let him get me again.

Dinilaan nya ang labi nya bago sya nagsalita. “Basta… kahit anong gawin mo, mag-iingat ka.”

“Anong gagawin mo kapag wala na ako dito?” I asked gently. Marahas syang bumuntong hininga at tumingala saglit bago ako tingnan.

“Ganoon pa rin. Pero tingin ko malulungkot ako, Lyra,” ngumisi sya pero hindi umabot sa kanyang mga mata. “Nasanay na akong kasama ka. Pero gawin mo kung anong magpapasaya sayo.”

I pouted and giggled. Naiiyak din ako sa pinagsasabi nya.

“Stop! You’re making me cry,” natatawa kong sabi. Pinunasan nya ang luha ko pero nakita kong umiiyak din sya. When he saw that I noticed he’s crying, he quickly wiped his tears away harshly.

“You really don’t have any plan to leave here?” I asked.

“Bakit? Gusto mo ng kasama umuwi?” biro nya. I laughed but I nodded. Nanlaki naman ang mga mata nya.

“Hindi pwede,” bawi nya. “Kung magmamaynila ako, ipagpapatuloy ko ang kolehiyo ko.”

My mouth formed an ‘o’ and nodded slowly.

“Isa yun sa pinag-iipunan ko ngayon. Hindi rin pwedeng habangbuhay ako rito,” dagdag nya pa. I nodded, still amazed. I never knew he has these plans. The walls between us are really broken now. Nasasabi na namin ang mga saloobin at mga plano namin sa isa’t isa.

Strevan is a hardworking man and has plans for the future. Whoever his girlfriend will be, she will be really lucky to have him. Kay Strevan ay wala kang dapat alalahanin. Who knows, he’ll maybe meet his girl in Manila.

I giggled with the thought.

“Bakit?” tanong nya.

“You’ll maybe meet your girl in Manila, huh,” biro ko at tumawa. Umirap sya sa panlalaking paraan.

“Mag-aaral lang ako doon, Lyra.”

“Ilang taon ka na ba saka anong year mo na?”

“Bente-kwatro anyos lang ako at fourth year ko na sana sa kolehiyo. Kaso noong lumindol, nasira iyong eskwelahan kaya hanggang ngayon, wala pa rin. Nag-iipon na lang ako dahil mas maraming oportunidad sa Maynila.”

I nodded. Na-late na sya dahil walang eskuelahan ng kolehiyo rito. Dalawang taon na syang late edi dalawang taon ang magiging tanda nya sa magiging classmates nya.

“You know what… pwede ka ring mag-part time job sa Manila. Like modeling? Bebenta ka don,” suhestyon ko. Agad kumunot ang noo nya.

“Ayoko ng ganon.”

Umirap naman ako. “Anong gusto mo? Handwork ganon?”

“Oo.”

“Sabagay, maraming trabaho sa Manila. And you’re handsome and strong. Kahit pa i-deny ng mga tao, talagang maraming benefits kapag may itsura ang isang tao,” I said. It’s a fact! Don’t even argue with me.

Nag-usap pa kami tungkol sa mga bagay bagay. Naging mas open kami sa isa’t isa and I can really feel him as a great friend. I am so lucky Strevan found me here at hindi kung sino lang ang nakadampot sa akin.

“Seryoso, ayos ka lang ba talaga? Kung uuwi ka, paano ang papa mo? Ang kapatid mo? Ang… a-asawa mo? Nag-aalala ako,” he said with so much concern in his voice.

“I don’t need to deal with them. I’ll just find  a job and live in my titos’ house for a while until I get my own condo. ’Wag kang mag-alala. Atsaka hindi pa naman ngayon, Strevan.”

Bumuntong hininga sya. “Mag-iingat ka.”

“Oo! Ikaw din! Magkita rin tayo minsan kapag nasa Manila na tayo,” I said and laughed.

“Dapat lang.”

I’m actually relieved and happy that he won’t stay here dahil sayang sya. I mean, I really know that he deserves more than this small island can offer. With a face and body like that, he can even beat some of Manila’s most handsome male models. Siguradong pagkakaguluhan at pag-aagawan sya doon.

I am really happy that I spent two months of my life here with him and everyone here. Mukha man akong namamaalam na, hindi naman talaga. But I’ll soon contact tito to pick me here.

“So ibig mong sabihin, hindi talaga kayo mag-asawa kasi aalis ka eh,” puna ni Rea bago sumubo ng slice ng patatas. She sliced potatoes in really thin slices and then fry them and put some salt. Para na ring fries.

“Hindi naman talaga,” sagot ko.

We’re here in Rea’s house together with Sasa. Tambay lang naman at nag-chichismisan. Nakakabagot kasi dahil nasa trabaho na naman si Strevan..

“Pakiramdam ko umasa talaga sya,” sabi naman ni Sasa at tiningnan si Rea. Mukha silang nagkakaintindihan kahit hindi nagsasalita.

“Umasa saan ba?!” inip kong tanong. Sinabi rin ni Strevan na umasa sya pero kasalanan nya raw iyon? What’s that?

“Hay! Manhid ka ba?! Syempre may gusto sayo yung tao!” Medyo agressive nyang sabi.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at natawa.

“What? You’re being delusional, walang ganon, Sasa. Wala syang sinabing ganon,” dagdag ko pa at tumango-tango.

Bumuntong hininga naman sila.

“Syempre hindi nya sasabihin kasi nalaman nyang may asawa ka na! Tapos manloloko pa!”

Pinanlakihan ko sya ng mata at baka may makarinig sa amin kahit na nasa loob na kami ng bahay nya. Humagikhik naman sya.

“Yun na nga, hindi nya yun aaminin na may gusto sya sayo kasi nalaman nyang may asawa ka na. Pero umasa sya, talagang umasa… lahat kami kitang-kita kung gaano kakaiba ka nya i-trato, Lyra.” Rea said and sipped on her guava juice.

“No… It can’t be that way…” I said, ayaw maniwala. Umirap si Sasa sa akin bago natawa.

“Totoo! Totoong gusto ka nya! Pero mabuti na rin siguro iyong nalaman nya dahil kawawa lang sya kung umamin nga sya… Halatang hindi ka interesado, Lyra. Mahal na mahal mo pa ang asawa mo, ano?” She concluded.

Doon ako natahimik at natamaad. Bumaba ang tingin ko sa aking baso at naramdaman ang lungkot.

“Ikaw na rin nagsabi na niloko ka… Huwag mong sabihing magpapaka-martir ka pa?! Jusko, sa ganda mong ’yan, Lyra! Kung kamukha at kasing-katawan kita, aba, ibabalandra ko ito!”

Nagtawanan sila pero hindi na ako makatawa. I really think I love him already. Kahit noon pa. Matagal ko lang napagtanto.

Sa tuwing umiiyak ako sa selos…

Sa tuwing lumulundag ang puso ko sa tuwing nakikita ko sya…

Sa tuwing gustong gusto ko na sya lang ang umaangkin sa akin…

Napapagtanto kong mahal ko na nga sya. At sya lang ang lalaking minahal ko nang ganito. Hindi ko alam kung makakapagmahal pa ba ako ng iba. Mahal na mahal ko sya na parang kumikirot ang puso ko sa tuwing naiisip na wala na akong dadatnan.

Baka may pamilya na sila kung kaya’t hindi pa ako nahahanap. O… talagang hindi na ako hinanap.

“Hoy! Wag ka ngang umiyak dyan! Sasa, tingnan mong ginawa mo!” Natatarantang sabi ni Rea.

Tumawa ako at umiling-iling para ipakitang ayos lang ako at wala silang kasalanan.

“Stop, I’m really okay!”

“Sigurado ka?”

“Yup!”

Kumain na lang kami ulit pero talagang hindi nila maalis ang topic namin kanina.

“Gwapo siguro ang asawa mo ’no? Ganda mo eh saka pihikan ka,” ayan na naman si Sasa. Nagtawanan kami.

“Gwapo,” sabi ko at tumango. Nagtilian ang mga bruha.

“Anong itsura?!”

“Hmm… matangos ang ilong. makapal ang kilay. Perpekto ang panga at abs! Malaki ang katawan, malakas, matangkad at sobrang gwapo talaga. Sana makita nyo,” I said and giggled. Para naman silang mga timang na nag-iimagine.

“Malaki ba ang kargada?!”

“Talagang malaki,” sagot ko. Mas lalo silang tumili.

“Magaling ba?!”

“Oo naman.”

Nagtawanan kami.

“Pero manloloko. Okay lang sa inyo?” Tanong ko at tumawa.

“Naku, huwag na! Kung manloloko, ay aba, doon na lang ako sa 5 inches ni Ivan! Loyal naman!” hirit ni Sasa.

Nagtawanan muli kami and I’m really laughing genuinely.

“Noong nakaraan, nung anniversary ng magulang ni Kayee? Sobrang wild naming dalawa. Lasing kasi kami pareho kaya kung ano anong posisyon ang ginawa namin na hindi pa namin nagagawa noon! Grabe! Sana lagi kaming lasing!” she added crazily.

“Oh my gosh, you witch!” Gulat kong sabi at nagtawanan kaming lahat.

“Napakamanyak nitong si Sasa! Mabuti nga at may boypren kaya may napapagdiskitahan,” sabi naman ni Rea.

“Ewan ko sa inyo,” natatawa kong sabi.

Nagpatugtog si Rea at nagsayawan kami. Isinarado nga lang namin ang lahat ng bintana at pinto para walang makakita sa amin.

“Shet, paano ba mag-twerk ng ganyan, Lyra?!” sabi ni Sasa at pumosisyon din. Natawa ako dahil para syang bibe.

“Bilugan kasi pwet ni Lyra kaya ang ganda tingnan!” Nagtawanan kami.

We danced sexily like we’re in a bar. May discohan naman dito pero mahal daw ang bayad at maraming manyak.

I grind my hips and they followed what I’m doing.

“Yeah, it do be like that, bitch,” natatawa kong sabi at mas gumiling pa. Nagtawanan kami habang nagsasayaw.

“Teka, teka, magte-twerk ako! panoorin nyo!”

Pinanood namin si Sasa at halos mabilaukan ako sa sarili kong laway sa kakatawa. Likod nya kasi ang gumagalaw imbis na pwet.

“Pwet, hindi likod! Para kang gago!” Pang-aasar ni Rea sa kanya.

“Paano ba kasi!!”

We had a good time in Rea’s house. Kahit tuloy nung pauwi na ako nakangisi ako at natatawa sa sarili.

Mahuhuli si Strevan ng uwi dahil nag-oover time sya dahil dagdag din yun. He’s really hardworking. Sabi nya rin sa bayan na kami magtatanghalian.

Alas dos na ng dumating sya. Medyo seryoso at tahimik. Naligo sya kaya hinintay ko na lang.

“Halika na,” he said.

We rode his bike and I’m the one in front again. I tried my best for us to be casual again and luckily, nakapag-usap naman kami at nagtatawanan pa.

The grill house is not yet open, naghahanda pa lang ang mga trabahador. They are marinating some meat and cleaning the tables.

“Gabi lang sila nagbubukas kasi dagdag sa init kapag tanghali,” paliwanag nya. Tumango naman ako at hinintay syang ma-ilock ang bike sa mga poste.

“Saan tayo kakain?” tanong ko.

“Dito, mga seafood ang ulam na niluluto nila.”

We entered a small wooden small house na maraming bintana. May mga lamesa’t upuan din sa labas.

“Sa labas tayo ha, gusto ko ng mahangin…” I requested. He just nods.

“Strevan!” Humalakhak ang sa tingin ko ay ang may-ari. He’s a middle aged man and is smiling warmly at us.

“Kumusta?” bati nito sa akin.

“A-ayos lang po…” I awkwardly said.

“Si Lyra po pala, kaibigan ko,” pagpapakilala sa akin. Hindi na sya nang-usisa pa at kinuha na ang orders namin.

Naupo kami sa labas habang hinihintay ang order. Kakaunti lang ang tao dahil nga tanghali. Mamaya pang gabi siguro darami.

Tumawa ako at kumaway sa mga kaibigang nakita. Kumaway din sila sa amin. May mga bitbit silang supot ng sa tingin ko ay tinapay.

“May work pa sila?” tanong ko kay Strevan. Hindi sya agad nakasagot. Nakatulala sya sa kawalan at ang lalim lalim ng iniisip. Kailangan ko pang kumaway para mapansin ako.

“Ah, ano yun?” he asked.

“You’re spacing out! Anong iniisip mo?” tanong ko. Mukha kasi syang nalulungkot na hindi maintindihan.

“Wala.”

When our orders came, we ate silently. Pero tinulungan nya pa rin akong magbalat ng hipon ko. He also helped me get the crab meat inside those hard shells. He’s just so expert about this. Ang hirap kaya at ang tigas!

Someone sat in the table behind me. Bale nakatalikod ako sa umupo habang si Strevan ay nakikita kung sino man sya.

Nakita ko lamang sa gilid ng aking mata na nakaitim itong suit. Kinabahan ako agad because no one in this island will wear something like that!

Pasimple akong lumingon at mabuti’t abala ito sa kanyang cellphone. Napahinga ako nang maluwag nang makitang hindi sya ang inaakala ko.

Hinarap ko ulit si Strevan at mukha lang naman syang walang paki o talagang napakalalim ng iniisip nya. Ibinagsak ko na lang ang tingin sa pagkain ko.

“Ano pong inyo?” some staff went to the man behind me.

“Ah, black coffee na lang.”

“Sige po.”

Okay, confirmed. Not him. It’s not him. But why is he wearing a black suit?! Nakakakaba tuloy. Tapos itong si Strevan pa ay wala sa sarili.

“Boss,” rinig kong sabi nya sa likod ko. Pasimple lamang akong nakinig at kunwari ay kumakain. Lumingon din ako at nakatalikod naman sya.

Nasa tainga nya ang kanyang cellphone.

“Yes, sir. We’ve already arrived in 645th location-” inilayo nya ang cellphone sa tainga na parang sinigawan sya ng kung sino doon.

“Sorry, boss… Opo.”

“H-hindi pa po ako nakakatulog. Pang-labinwalong isla na po ito para sa ngayong araw.”

Nag-iiba na ang pakiramdam ko sa mga naririnig. No… this can’t be what I’m thinking, right?

And what did he say? 645th location? So it means for the past two months, naghahanap na talaga sila kung totoo ang hula kong tauhan nya ito dahil malayo na ang number ng lokasyon…

Nagtambol ang dibdib ko at tiningnan si Strevan na wala sa sariling kumakain.

“Clear po sa 18 na islang napuntahan namin kanina. Nagpahinga lang po ako saglit pero sila Aldrus, nagsisimula na maglibot dito.”

Nakagat ko ang labi ko. Shit… there’s a big chance that whoever he’s talking to is my husband.

“Yes, sir. Nasa mga cities po yung team ni Perez. Clear din daw po sa Tugegarao area, sabi ni Reyes.”

Inilayo nya muli ang cellphone sa tainga.

“S-sorry po. Bibilisan na po namin.”

“Yes, boss. Pag wala po rito, may sampu ng islands pa kaming target bago matapos ang araw.”

Kakaba-kaba na ako at naninigas sa kinauupuan. Pinanlakihan ko ng mata si Strevan pero mukha naman syang may iniisip at mukha talagang malungkot.

The staff brought the coffee of the man behind me.

Nanginginig akong tumayo at lalapitan na sana si Strevan na nakaupo sa harap ko pero aksidente kong natabig ang baso ng juice ko. Napatayo si Strevan at mukhang nabalik sa sarili.

“Lyra,” he called.

“I’m sorry,” natataranta kong sabi at sinubukang punasan ang mesa pero may staff nang dumalo.

“Naku, ayos lang po. Umupo na po kayo ulit,” she said politely.

“Lyra, ayos lang ’yan,” sabi ni Strevan at pinigilan ako sa pagpupunas.

I was panicking and I got panicked even more when the man in black approached us. Umalis na ang staff pero nanatili akong nakatayo at naestatwa. Nagkatitigan kami at tila sinusuri nya ako. Palipat-lipat din ang tingin nya sa akin at sa cellphone.

“Miss?” he called.

Nanlalaki ang mga mata kong tiningnan si Strevan. Nakakunot ang noo nya habang nakatingin sa lalaki.

“Ano ’yon?” tanong ni Strevan dito. Napatingin tuloy sa kanya ito bago sa akin muli.

“Miss, anong pangalan mo?” he asked carefully while looking at me.

Humarang naman si Strevan at bahagya akomg itinago sa kanyang likod.

“Anong kailangan mo?” seryosong tanong ni Strevan dito.

Mas lalo akong nataranta nang daluhan sya ng iba pang mga naka-black suit na lalaki at hindi makapaniwalang nakatingin sa akin ngayon. Nag-iinit na ang sulok ng mga mata ko habang nasa likod ni Strevan.

“Miss, kamukha mo yung hinahanap namin.”

“Sino ba kayo?” medyo galit na tanong na ni Strevan.

“Ano bang pangalan ng kasama mo?” Sya naman ang tinanong. Pinunasan ko ang pisngi ko nang pasimple.

“Hindi ko kailangan sagutin ’yan,” he said seriously. He’s pissed. Nagkatinginan sila bago ako tiningnan muli.

“Miss… taga rito ka na ba talaga noon pa man?” he asked. Heck,  I can’t even answer because I think my voice will shake and I feel really jelly out of fear.

“Kamukha nya,” sabi ng isa sa kasama nila bago ako suriin. Papalit-palit pa ang tingin sa cellphone at sa akin.

“Sino ba kayo? Huwag nyo syang takutin,” inis na sabi ni Strevan bago ako sulyapan. Galit ang ekspresyon nito.

“Teka lang po, may gusto lang kaming itanong,” one of them said. “Pasensya na… pero kilala mo ba si Azriel Nickolson?”

My heart sank and I immediately looked up to Strevan for help. Nakuha nya naman agad. Hell, no. This can’t be. Alam kong magkikita rin kami pero hindi ko inakala na ngayon mismo!

“Hindi namin alam ang sinasabi nyo. Tama na, uuwi na kami ng asawa ko,” Strevan said seriously.

Halos hindi na ako maka-react sa sinabi nya sa sobrang takot. Nagkatinginan naman ang mga ito.

“A-asawa?” gulat na sabi ng isa

“May marriage certificate ba kayo?” another one asked in his serious voice.

Nag-igting ang panga ni Strevan habang nakatitig doon. “Walang ganoon dito dahil hindi kami sibilisado. Tsaka kahit mayroon, hindi kami obligadong ipakita iyon sa inyo.”

“Pero sir, meron nga?”

“Ang sabi ko, wala dahil hindi sibilisado ang lugar na ito.” Nagtitimping sabi ni Strevan bago ako lingunin. Nagkatingin sila muli at tila hindi naniniwala. Nag-usap usap sila sa mahihinang boses na hindi namin marinig.

One man went away and I saw him ask an old man. Pagkatapos ay tinanong nya rin ang isa pang taong malapit lang.

“Strevan…” natatakot kong tawag. Inilagay nya ang braso sa bewang ko at tinitigan ako sa malamlam na ekspresyon.

“Lyra, andito ako,” he said.

“Wala raw talagang marriage certificates dito sabi ng mga natanong ko,” sabi ng lalaking umalis para magtanong tanong.

Bagamat napaniwala naming kasal kami, ay hindi nakatakas sa akin ang nagdududa nilang mga mata.

They let us go and Strevan had to guide me while walking back to his bike because my knees feel jelly.

Natatakot ako. Mga tauhan nya nga iyon at mukhang hindi sila buong buong naniwala.

I should’ve dye my hair… or made my skin color a bit darker. Pero hindi talaga ako umiitim.

Umiiyak ako habang nasa bike. Tinatahan naman ako ni Strevan pero hindi na talaga ako mapakali.

“I hope they really believed us… I know we’re really going to meet each other. Pero hindi ko inaasahang malapit na… Kaya sana… sana naniwala sila at hindi sabihin sa kanya na may kamukha ang Seleira na dito naninirahan… If they will tell him, I don’t know what to do, Strevan…” umiiyak kong sabi.

Narinig ko ang marahas nyang buntong hininga.

“Hindi ko rin alam, Lyra. Pero nandito naman ako. Sabihin mo lang kung anong maitutulong ko.”

Even if I prayed so hard that night, things didn’t go my way. I prayed that  Azriel won’t go here, but… kabaligtaran ang nangyari.

The next day, the first thing I know in the morning is someone has already moved in the empty house in front of ours.

And… it’s my husband.

Chapter 31

Back

Someone is knocking in our wooden gate outside. Nanginginig ako kahit hindi ko pa nakikita kung sino. Malakas ang pakiramdam kong siya nga ’yan. Ang walang hiya kong asawa.

What the hell is he doing here? Nakakagalit na nakakaiyak! Ano, sawa na ba sya kay Anikka at nandito sya ngayon?!

“Nasaan ka na ba, Strevan?” mahina kong tanong sa sarili. Wala siya dahil pumunta sa bayan sa palengke pero hanggang ngayon ay wala pa rin. Hindi na nga sya sumama sa pangingisda dahil nag-aalala sya sa akin pero namalengke naman sya kaya wala rito.

“Lyra!” narinig ko ang boses ng kapitbahay naming si Aling Malou. Medyo nakahinga ako dahil sa akalang sya lang pala pero agad din napawi dahil sa susunod nyang isinigaw.

“May naghahanap sa iyo! Ano ka ba naman, kanina pa naghihintay rito oh! Ang gwapo gwapo pa naman!” Sigaw nya at narinig ko rin ang kanyang hagikhik.

Napapikit ako at nakagat ang labi sa inis. That’s surely… Azriel.

I took a deep breath.

“Come on, you’re Lyra, not Seleira,” I whispered to myself. Iyon lang ang kailangan kong gawin. Play the role that I don’t know him and I’m the wife of Strevan. Iyon naman ang sinabi ni Strevan kahapon sa tauhan. Kung magkakaiba kami ng sasabihin ay mabubuko kami.

I know very well that we’ll really meet, that he will really find me. But I didn’t expect that to happen here! Not now! I told myself I’ll come back in Manila with a name and he just can’t touch me easily.

Pero ngayong nahanap nya na ako at narito na sya agad, hindi matutupad ang plano kong iyon. This sucks!

I didn’t even had the time to escape, dahil andyan na sya agad kinabukasan. Ni hindi man lang lumipas ang isang araw!

“Lyra!” tawag muli sa akin.

“S-saglit lang po!” I shout back.

“O sige! Ah, dong, hintayin mo na lang ha? Mauuna na ako,” rinig kong sabi nya.

Kinalma ko ang sarili bago buksan ang pinto.

Para akong nanigas sa kinatatayuan ko nang magtama muli ang mga mata namin. His jaw is clenching as he stare at me. His look is not just a look. He looks at me with so much emotion in his eyes. Something in his eyes look glittering as he stare at me.

Para akong natutunaw. He changed. His body changed. His shoulders got broader than before. His muscles are also more toned and visible now. Hell, he even became taller and even more handsome! He was a grown up man before, but right now… he just looks like more.

Nakapatong ang dalawang braso sa kahoy na bakod at tila masisira iyon sa higpit ng hawak nya. Titig na titig sa akin medyo inaalog ang gate sa gigil.

His eyes also traveled down my body which made his jaw clench even more. Bumalik sa mga mata ko ang tingin nya bago nya mahinang kalampagin ang gate, tila hindi na makontrol ang sarili.

“Seleira!” he called. Napaawang ang bibig ko dahil mas lumalim ang boses nya. How the heck did he grew so much just for two months?!

Nag-iinit ang sulok ng mga mata ko. There he is, the man I like and at the same time, I hate the most. Naninikip ang dibdib ko habang nakatitig sa kanya at pilit kinakalma ang sarili.

“Seleira! I’ve been looking for you everywhere,” nagdidilim nyang sabi pero bakas ang pangungulila rito. Pulang pula ang mukha nya at halos gibain na ang kahoy na gate namin na nagpapahiwalay sa aming dalawa.

Naalerto ako at inalala ang dapat na gawin.

“S-sino ho kayo? Teka, masira po yung gate namin,” medyo natataranta kong sabi na nakapagpakunot ng noo nya.

“Come again?”

“Sino po kayo? Hindi po tamang magwala kayo rito!” I raised my voice in purpose which made him more shocked and angry at the same time.

“What are you talking about? Seleira, stop this, I am your husband,” he said gently, trying to control himself.

“Hindi kita kilala.”

“Fuck! Stop this, baby, please… I miss you, let’s fix this-”

“Sabi ko po hindi ko kayo kilala!” Sigaw ko. “Tumigil ka na o sisigaw ako para sa tulong!”

“Seleira, asawa mo ako! Open this so we can talk.”

Tumili ako nang sapilitan nyang buksan ang gate. Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko nang tuluyan syang makapasok. Grabe grabe an rin ang pagwawala ng aking puso nang hapitin nya ang bewang ko.

The exact moment he pulled me closer, I felt the butterflies in my tummy alive and rejoicing again. Like their king is here, so they must rejoice. Something I’ve never felt for the past months.

“Ano ba!” sigaw ko. I wriggled to get out of his touch but he’s just so stronger now.

“Seleira,” nagtitimpi nyang sabi at ipinipirmi ako. Nang tingalain ko sya ay namumula na ang mga mata nya. Parang may tumusok sa aking puso nang makitang lumuha sya at ang sakit sakit ng ekspresyon nya.

“Sabing hindi kita kilala! Tulong!” I shout. Tumili ako nang ibaon nya ang mukha sa aking leeg, inaamoy amoy iyon katulad ng ginagawa nya noon.

Nagsituluan ang luha ko nang matantong sabik din ako sa kanya pero lamang ang galit na nadarama ko. I pushed him but he’s so crazy to put his face on my neck. Naramdaman ko ang pamamasa ng leeg ko.

Fuck, he’s crying.

“Tulong!” I cried. I punched his stone shoulders pero ni hindi nya ininda. Umiiyak na ako hindi ko alam kung dahil ba sa takot o sa pangungulila sa kanya.

Ang puso ko nagsasabing hayaan na sya, yakapin at halikan ko sya. Pero ang isip ko ay paulit ulit na ibinabalik ang mga paghihirap ko at wala sya sa tabi ko.

“Tama na! Please! Hindi kita kilala at hindi ako si Seleira!” umiiyak kong sabi.

“What are you talking about?! You’re Seleira-my lovely wife!” hinarap nya ako. He looked at me with his lonely and angry eyes.

“Look, baby… I’ve changed. I-I won’t be controlling anymore, I’ll support you with everything, just please… please take me back.”

“Sabi ko hindi ako ang asawa mo at hindi kita kilala! Tulong!” Sigaw ko at pilit kumakawala. Sya naman ay hinuhuli ang kamay ko bago ako isandal.

“I love you,” nanghihina nyang sabi. Another set of tears fell down from his ruthless eyes.

“Hindi kita kilala! Bitawan mo ako! Nakakatakot ka!” I shout mercilessly at his face. Napapikit sya na tila nasaktan ng sobra. He closed his eyes as if I just shot him with daggers.

“Ayoko sayo! Bitawan mo ako! Please, tinatakot mo ako!” Dagdag ko pa. Marahas syang bumuntong hininga. Pagdilat ng mga mata nya ay mas lalo syang humina sa paningin ko. Ang lambot lambot ng ekspresyon nya pero mukha syang sobrang nasasaktan. Parang ako ang nasasaktan at nadudurog habang nakikita syang ganito.

He isn’t usually like this. He is a strong man, emotionally and physically. But I’ve realized that… I can make him cry. I can make him weak just by talking.

“Baby, please…” he called weakly, like I’m just the one who can give him strength.

Walang awa ko syang tinulak at madali kong nagawa iyon dahil nanghihina sya sa mga pinagsasabi ko.

“Hindi kita kilala.” walang emosyon kong sabi.

He was about to speak but Strevan entered our yard. Mabilis akong tumakbo papunta sa kanya at agad nya naman akong niyakap. Isang tingin nya lang sa akin at kay Azriel ay tila alam nya na ang nangyayari.

“Sino ka at anong ginawa mo sa asawa ko? Labag sa batas ang ginawa mong panghihimasok at mukhang takot na takot ang asawa ko,” Strevan said seriously.

Azriel’s expression quickly changed from hurt and sad to angry and aggresive. Tumayo sya at naglakad papalapit kay Strevan.

“What the fuck did you say? Your wife?!” pagalit na sabi nito. Marahas nya ring pinunasan ang sariling pisngi.

“Asawa ko.”

“You, bastard. That woman behind you is my woman,” Azriel said and whatever he’s feeling now is not good. He looks so mad. Lumaki ang hakbang nya at tinapatan si Strevan.

“Hindi kita kilala, tama na!” sigaw ko. Napatingin sa akin si Azriel at sandaling bumalik ang nanlalambot nyang mga mata. When he looked back at Strevan, marahas syang nagmura.

“What happened? Did she lost her memories and now you’re saying that you’re married?! Anong ginawa mo sa asawa ko?! You fucking brainwashed her?!” Dumagundong ang sigaw nito kaya napapikit ako. Nanginginig na ako sa takot. Pilit akong pumapagitna dahil sa takot na sapakin ni Azriel si Strevan.

Yes, Strevan is tall and muscular, but Azriel is more maybe because Azriel is two years older.

Pakiramdam ko ay mananakit talaga si Azriel base sa pagkakakilala ko sa kanya. While Strevan, his opposite, won’t hurt anyone. He once said that he is not violent.

“Hindi ko alam ang sinasabi mo. Asawa ko sya at dito na sya lumaki,” nagagalit na rin ang boses ni Strevan. “Tangina, ano bang problema mo’t nag-aamok ka ng gulo rito?! Wala rito ang asawa mo, kung sino man sya, putangina!”

Nagulat ako sa galit na boses ni Strevan. He’s cursing! Pero mukhang hindi natinag doon si Azriel.

“She probably lost her memories, huh?! Because she’s my wife, I can’t be wrong! Pinagsamantalahan mo ang asawa ko!” paratang ni Azriel. Pulang pula na rin pati tainga nya sa galit. Lumalabas na rin ang iilan nyang ugat sa leeg sa kasisigaw.

“H-hindi talaga kita kilala…” sabi ko sa maliit na boses. Sandaling napatingin sa akin si Azriel at nanumbalik ang nangungulila nyang mga mata.

“At dito na ako lumaki. B-baka kamukha ko lang iyong hinahanap mo… Kaya please… natatakot na ako sayo… please, tama na…” I said as I started to cry.

His mouth slightly opened as he watch me. He looks even more hurt and more broken now. Umangat ang kamay nya para hawakan ako pero mabilis akong umatras at umiling iling.

I looked up at him with teary eyes, begging for him to stop. Hindi siguro matigil ang luha ko dahil sa tanawing napakalungkot nya. At nagagalit sya sa sobrang lungkot nya.

“Tama na… Natatakot na ako,” I cried softly.

Pumikit sya at huminga ng malalim. Pagdilat nya ay panibagong luha ang lumabas. Umiwas sya ng tingin bago halos masuntok ang sarili sa sobrang rahas ng pagpunas nya sa sariling pisngi.

Walang salita syang lumabas ng bakuran namin. Para akong nadudurog habang pinagmamasdan syang lumayo. Binuksan nya ang kanyang bakuran at walang habas na pumasok. Padabog rin syang pumasok ng bahay.

Unti unti akong nanghina at napaupo. Strevan quickly put the food he bought aside before going to me.

“Pasensya na, Lyra…” marahan nyang sabi. Umiling iling ako habang umiiyak. Binuhat nya ako at kinuha ang supot ng pinamili bago kami pumasok sa bahay.

Inilapag ni Strevan ang agahan bago ako titigan gamit ang nag-aalala nyang mga mata. Bumuntong hininga rin sya.

“Malalaman at malalaman nya namang ikaw ang asawa nya, Lyra. Hindi ko alam bakit natin ’to ginagawa,” panimula nya. Ako naman ang bumuntong hininga.

“I know… but I never expected him to be here at this time. I’m expecting to see him again once I have my name build. Iyong hindi nya na ako basta basta makokontrol o mamamanipula. I want to as strong as he is-”

“Hindi naman sya mukhang malakas,” komento nya. Kumunot naman ang noo ko sa kanya.

“Huh?”

“Ibig ko sabihin, oo, siguro kung normal na sitwasyon, mukha syang malakas. Malaki ang katawan at palaging seryoso. Pero kaninang pinagtatabuyan mo sya saka sinasabi mong hindi mo sya kilala… ang hina hina nya sa paningin ko, Lyra.”

I closed my eyes and slap my own forehead softly. I’m so stressed.

“Kayang kaya mo syang durugin kung gugustuhin mo,” he added. “Huwag mong sabihing may plano kang gumanti?”

I looked up at him. Although most of his expression screams concern, I can still see some traces that he’s hurt. Strevan looks hurt and I don’t know why.

“Gumanti? I don’t have time for that.”

“Mabuti.”

Natahimik kami ulit. I realized I’m so dumb for making up excuses that I don’t know him and I’m married to Strevan. That doesn’t make sense at all. He’ll know it once I go back to Manila.

“Nabanggit nya bang nagloko sya?” he suddenly asked.

“What do you mean?”

“Ibig kong sabihin, nabanggit nya bang niloko ka nga nya? Tulad ng… humingi sya ng tawad kasi niloko ka nya kasama ang kapatid mo,” he explained while I try to recall the scenes a while ago.

“He didn’t. He just said sorry for being a controlling husband,” dahan dahan kong sabi. Pinasadahan nya ng kamay ang kanyang buhok bago magsalita.

“Pakiramdam ko hindi sya nagloko. Kitang kita kung gaano ka nya kamahal, Lyra,” medyo mapait nyang sabi. “Durog na durog sa harap natin kanina, umiiyak pa. Mukha pa namang ma-pride na tao pero umiyak sa harap mo.”

Well, he got a point. Azriel is a man of pride. Pero umiyak sya ulit sa harap ko and worse… sa harap ng kapwa nya lalaki. As far as I know, men have fragile egos.

“What are you trying to say? M-my dad won’t lie to me…” I said slowly, kahit ako hindi na rin sigurado sa mga pinagsasabi ko.

“Sabi mo ayaw sayo ng tatay mo? Bakit ang laki pa rin ng tiwala mo? Hindi kita maintindihan, Lyra.”

I rolled my eyes after I wipe some tears. “I know. I just love daddy so much. I can’t help it.”

He just sighed as if he faces the same problem as mine.

“Gusto ko lang sabihin na… walang kwenta ang ginagawa nating pagpapanggap, Lyra. Malalaman at malalaman nya rin,” he said problematically.

“Oh, e, bakit? Ikaw naman ang unang nagsabi nyan sa tauhan nya ’no!” sumbat ko naman. Totoo naman. He just said that to one of Azriel’s men.

“Kung hindi ko sinabi baka kinuha ka nila,” dahilan nya. I rolled my eyes but realized that he’s right.

“Just let it go. I’ll just contact tito soon.”

He suddenly looked at me with unreadable expression. “Malapit ka na talagang umuwi.”

“Yeah,” mahina kong sabi at lumilipad na naman ang utak ko. Sya na naman ang laman nito and I can’t stop it.

Bigla kong naaalala iyong walang salita nyang pagtalikod at padabog na pagpasok sa bahay. Anong ginagawa nya roon? I hope he doesn’t hurt himself.

Naligo na si Strevan dahil may pasok pa sya. Ayaw nya pa ngang pumasok dahil nag-aalala sa akin pero napilit ko naman.

His usual working hours in the farm is 2 pm pero ngayon, maaga sya. May mga nagw-wholeday naman talaga. Pinipili nya lang na hindi dahil mas madali raw ang pera ’pag nangingisda sya sa umaga kaya sa hapon lang sya sa farm. But today, he’ll be early in farm… with me.

Sumilip ako sa aming bintana. There’s no sign of Azriel in the house o talagang tahimik lang sya. Kinakabahan tuloy ako at nag-aalala. Baka kung ano nang ginagawa nya…

Maya maya ay lumabas sya ng pinto. He’s now wearing a plain sando that made his strong biceps visible. A famous men clothing is also printed on his top.

He’s just there, standing. Staring at our house. Kinagat ko ang labi ko nang maramdamang nasasaktan na naman ako.

Ilang minuto syang nagtagal na nakatitig lang sa bahay o pinto namin na tila may hinihintay lumabas. Bumuntong hininga ako at malungkot syang tinitigan

Once I found out you really did cheat, we’re done. I’ll really leave you and never come back. Hindi na yung ganito lang na nagtatago sa isang lumang isla. So I have to be rich on my own so I can just easily disappear once I know the bitter truth.

You, boy. You act like you’re the victim here when we both know you weren’t there when I was hurt. You weren’t with me when my father throws hurtful words to me. You weren’t there when I was crying because of Anikka’s pictures in instagram that she’s in your office. You weren’t there when I was about to die and yet, I still dreamed of you coming to save me. But you didn’t.

You were a controlling and manipulative freak. Tells me you own me as if I’m a thing or a property. You don’t let me do things that I want, you always cage me. Literally. Locking me up in a room is just too much.

I don’t want to be in that toxic relationship and situation again. Yes, there were times that I was really happy, but the bad times are the things that makes me go angry and never give a fuck about you again.

And yes, indeed… Azriel, you’re my best mistake.

Pinunasan ko ang luha ko dahil nanlalabo ang mga mata ko. I saw a black van and two men in black suit went out. Pormal at walang emosyon silang hinarap ni Azriel. I couldn’t hear a thing about what they’re talking about.

Maya maya pa ay pumasok na muli si Azriel. Padabog pa rin ang pagsara nya ng kanyang pinto. Samantalang iyong dalawa ay nakatingin naman sa bahay.

I really feel irritated right now. Why is Azriel like that?!

Lumabas ako at pakunwaring hindi sila nakita. Ramdam ko naman ang titig nila sa akin habang kunwari akong nagwawalis ng mga dahon. I just hope they notice that I do this expertly kasi kung hindi, they’ll really know I’m that Seleira, the nonsense wife.

Hindi naman sila nagsalita at talagang nanonood lang. Nang maglakad sila palayo ay sinundan ko ito ng tingin. They walked to one of our neighbors that is currently sweeping, too.

Kinabahan ako at baka kung ano na ang tinatanong nila. This is so annoying! I hate you, Azriel! You just really can always do whatever the hell you want!

Nagpupuyos akong bumalik sa loob. Hindi pa rin nakalalabas ng banyo si Strevan dahil kapapasok nya lamang kanina.

Kumain muna kami ng tanghalian kahit alas nuebe pa lang. We’ll just eat later since the snacks are free in the farm.

Pagkatapos ay naligo na ako. Strevan just waited for me with that problematic look in his face. Inirapan ko naman sya habang nag-aalala ang tingin nya sa akin.

“Hindi kita pwede iwan-iwanan dito, Lyra, hangga’t nandito ka pa. ’Yung asawa mo, pinapasok ka eh,” he said problematically while I think of something else sa huli nyang sinabi.

“H-huh?” medyo nalilito kong tanong.

“Sabi ko hindi ka pwedeng mag-isa rito kasi yung asawa mo, talagang pumapasok dito. Tang ina,” mura nya. “Kailan ka ba tatawag sa tito mo?”

“Bakit parang minamadali mo ako? Saka na, ’pag umalis na si Azriel dito,” katuwiran ko habang nagsusuklay ng buhok.

Umismid naman sya. “Hindi ’yun aalis.”

I just sighed.

“Kanina habang naliligo ka, lumabas ako. Sabi ni Aling Tasya, yung mga tauhan nya raw tinanong kung saan ako nagtatrabaho,” sabi nya sa kanyang galit na boses.

Agad kumunot ang noo ko. What the hell is he up to?! Tatanggalan nya ba ng trabaho si Strevan?! Nakakainis! I want to slap him if he really did!

“Baka manipulahin nya at matanggal ako sa trabaho, ah?”

“N-no… I’ll talk to him kapag ganon ang ginawa nya-”

“Edi nalaman nya?”

I sighed heavily. Malalaman nya naman talaga. ’Wag na ’wag nya lang papakialaman si Strevan at ang mga trabaho nya. Strevan is a good and hardworking man. He deserves non of these bullshits.

“Bahala na. I’m sorry, nadadamay ka pa, Strevan…”

“Okay lang, Lyra. At least may kasama ka na ngayon, sa kwento mo nung nakaraan, mag-isa ka lang nahihirapan.”

I pouted and felt touched with what he just said. I went to him and hug him. Nagulat pa sya pero mabilis nya rin akong niyakap pabalik.

Lumabas na kami ng bahay at hinintay ko sya sa labas dahil kinukuha nya at pinupwesto ang dalawang bikes. Narito pa rin ang hiniram nyang bike kaya tag-isa kami.

Tiningnan ko ang bahay sa tapat. Is he in there? Kapag may ginawa talaga syang katarantaduhan, lagot sya sa akin.

“Tara,” Strevan called. I nodded and ride the other bike.

Tahimik lang kami hanggang sa makarating kami roon. Napapikit ako nang maaninag ang isang itim na magarang kotse na nakaparada na at mukhang kanina pa nandito.

Nagkatinginan na lang kami ni Strevan pero walang nagsalita. We quietly parked our bikes before walking to the site.

Naka-break ang mga trabahador dahil hindi pa sila nagtatrabaho. Nagtatawanan lang sila pero nang mapansin kami ay kumaway sila at bumati.

“Strevan!”

“Kumusta?” bati naman ni Strevan.

“Kasama mo na naman si Lyra, ah? Bantay sarado?” tawa nito. Inirapan ko naman sya. Umiling lang si Strevan at bahagyang natawa.

May dumating rin na isa pang trabahador. I can remember him as Allan, the one who whistled and cat call me. Kababa lang nya ng bike at paulit-ulit na tiningnan ang magarang kotse. Nang makalapit ay hindi na nya napigilan magtanong.

“Kanino ’yang kotse? Tang ina, ang angas! Ngayon lang ako nakakita ah, puro truck dito!”

“Sa bagong investor ’yan ni boss. Kaninang umaga lang dumating, nakipag-negosasyon agad dito!” sagot ng isa. My eyebrows furrowed and looked at Strevan. He doesn’t speak, he just stared back at me.

Ang bilis talaga nyang kumilos. Tama si Strevan, hindi talaga sya titigil. Siguro natanong nila kung sumasama ba ako kay Strevan sa trabaho kaya’t inalam nila kung saan nagtatrabaho si Strevan. So now, he can have a reason to be here…

“Magsimula na kayo, tapos na ang break!” nakangising sabi ng boss nila.

“Nga pala, sa mga hindi pa nakakaalam, may bago akong investor, higit na pinakamayaman sa lahat ng nakilala ko! Kaya maging magalang kayo, baka maglibot-libot dito ’yun,” he added.

“Sige, boss!”

“Tataas sweldo naman, boss?” biro ng isa.

“Oo kapag wala syang naging reklamo sa inyo!”

“Yun oh!” naghiyawan sila bago desididong magtrabaho muli.

“Lyra ganda! Dito na kami!” paalam ng isa naming kaibigan. I just nodded and watched most of them move.

“Strevan.”

Mas kinabahan pa ako kay Strevan nang tawagin sya ng boss nila. Don’t tell me he’s getting fired!

“Po?”

His boss laughed. “Bakit ganyan ang ekspresyon mo? Gusto ko lang itanong kung bakit ang aga mo ngayon.”

I sighed in relief. His boss then looked at me and smiled warmly. I gave him a smile but I think it makes him think I’m constipated.

“Ah, hindi po kasi ako sumama mangisda kaninang madaling araw kaya maaga ako rito.”

Tumango tango ito bago tapikin sya sa balikat. “Ang sipag mo talaga! Kaya ka habulin eh, ganyang ganyan din ako noon!”

My eyes secretly widened. Talaga lang, huh.

“Saka yung anak kong si Tiara, sa tingin ko gusto ka rin,” humalakhak ito.

I’ve seen his daughter once. She’s pretty and has the right body curves. Hindi rin sya ganoon ka-morena. Medyo mas maputi sya sa mga taga-rito.

“Abala pa po ako sa ibang bagay,” katuwiran ni Strevan at pilit na tumawa.

“Naku! Ayos lang! Kanina nga’t nag-uusap kami ni Mr. Nickolson, iyong anak ko mukhang nabaling sa kanya ang nadarama. Nakita nya kasi at talagang maitsura,” he laughed again. What?!

“Ngayon, ayun, pasimpleng sinusundan… Sana lang hindi sya masigawan at mukhang masungit iyon.”

Nabatrip na ako kaagad sa narinig. Wala na ako sa mood kahit noong hinatid ako ni Strevan sa malapit na kubo pahingahan.

Naupo ako roon at tahimik na nilibang ang sarili. Mabuti at mahangin kaya hindi ako naiinitan.

Pinanood ko sina Strevan. Among them all, Strevan is the quickest to move. He’s also the strongest, tatlo tatlong sako ng semento ang binubuhat nya. I actually feel bad… doesn’t that tire him?

Maya maya ay dumating ang grupo ni Kayee. I mentally rolled my eyes when they all went here. Naupo sila pero tumayo sa harapan ko si Kayee. I looked up and saw her cheeks flushed red as well as her eyes and nose. She cried?

“Bakit-”

“Ano itong sinasabi nila na kasal raw kayo ni Strevan?!” panimula nya.

“W-what, where did you get that?” tanong ko.

“Sabi ng isang staff dun sa seafood eatery! Si Strevan daw mismo ang umamin! Ano, huh?! Tapos sabi ni Aling Malou may gwapong lalaki raw na kadarating lang tapos sinasabing asawa ka nya!” she cried. Magsasalita pa sana ako pero madiin nyang hinawakan ang magkabilang balikat ko.

Napadaing ako agad. She’s stronger than me because she have this chubby body, samantalang ako ay medyo payat.

“Aray!”

“Sino ka ba talaga, huh?! Sino ka?! Hindi pwedeng kasal kayo ni Strevan! Kailan pa?! Bigla ka lang sumulpot dito at hindi ko ’yun nakakalimutan! Sino ka ba?!” galit na galit nyang sigaw sa mukha ko.

Hindi ako makapagsalita dahil sa gulat. Inaawat na sya ng kasama nya habang ako ay tulala at pinoproseso pa ang mga pinagsasabi nya.

“Kayee, tama na! Sabi mo, kakausapin mo lang?”

Marahas nya akong binitawan. Malakas tuloy na bumangga sa pader ang aking likod.

“Lagot ka kay Strevan lalo ’pag nagsumbong sya!”

“Subukan mo lang at tatamaan ka sa akin lalo! Sexy ka, oo! Pero hindi mo ako kaya, mas malakas ako sayo!” She said wildly. “Sino ka ba talaga, huh?!”

“Wala kang pakialam,” inis kong sabi.

“Hindi ’yan ang gusto kong marinig!”

“KAYEE!” galit na tawag ni Strevan. Parang takot na pusa naman syang nilingon nito.

“S-Strevan, sinimulan nya-”

“Lyra,” nag-aalala nyang tawag at dinaluhan ako. Nakahawak pa ako sa balikat ko dahil ang higpit humawak nung bruha.

“Strevan-”

“Manahimik ka!” bulyaw sa kanya nito. Her eyes became more teary. Nakatingin naman dito ang iba sa mga trabahador.

“Sabi sayo, Kayee eh…” bulong bulong ng isa.

“Ayos lang, Strevan. Magtrabaho ka na ulit,” sabi ko. Hinaplos nya ang balikat ko

“Namumula na. Gagamutin ko mamaya ’to sa bahay,” marahan nyang sabi. I nodded.

“O ngayon na?” suhestyon nya. Agad akong umiling. Tumayo sya at galit na hinarap si Kayee.

“’Wag na ’wag mo uulitin ’to, Kayee. Hindi ako natutuwa.”

“Pero Strevan… T-totoong mag-asawa kayo?” she cried.

“Strevan, umiiyak na nga si Kayee oh?” sulsol ng isa. Hindi sila pinansin ni Strevan at sinusuri pa rin ako kung may iba pa bang masakit.

“What’s that? It’s working hours, right? You let your men roam around here when they’re supposed to work?”

Lumagpas ang tingin ko sa likod ni Strevan. Azriel is standing arrogantly while looking angrily at Strevan. Bumaba ang tingin nya sa kamay ni Strevan sa balikat ko at mas lalong nag-apoy ang mga mata nya.

Shit, pinag-iinitan nya ba si Strevan?!

“Ah, eh… Strevan, anong ginagawa mo rito? Sige na, magtrabaho ka na,” sabi naman nung boss nila.

Umiwas ako ng tingin nang dumapo sa akin ang paningin ni Azriel.

Umigting ang panga ni Strevan nang sulyapan si Azriel. Nagtitigan sila saglit at pareho silang mukhang galit. Nilingon ako muli ni Strevan bago marahang haplusin ang buhok ko.

“Mamaya na lang.”

“Okay,” I said and watch him walk.

“Kayee.” He just called Kayee in a warning tone. Umiiyak namang tumango si Kayee. Great! Don’t hurt me again!

“Pasensya na doon. Hindi naman ganoon si Strevan,” their boss said.

“Ang gwapo, Kayee, oh? Huwag ka nang umiyak,” bulong ng isa. They are now checking Azriel out, while Azriel stares at me the same way like before. Nag-iwas na lamang ako ng tingin.

“Papa!”

Nilingon ko ang tumawag. It’s Tiara, looking gorgeous in her yellow summer dress. Nagniningning ang mga mata nya habang tinititigan si Azriel. I think she’s just a year younger than me.

Yumuko ako nang lumapit sya kay Azriel. Pinaglaruan ko na lamang ang mga daliri ko habang nagkukunwaring walang nakikita.

“Si Tiara, porke may kaputian, akala mo maganda na…”

“Papansin nga, eh. Palibahasa ang gwapo sobra. Ang laki pa ng katawan at tangkad.”

I somehow understand their whispers. Akala mo kung sinong maganda, papansin naman.

“Hmm, Mr. Nickolson, gusto nyo makita iyong mga puno ng prutas para malaman nyong malulusog ang lupa-”

“I’ll stay here,” he said seriously. I can still feel his intense gaze. Mabuti na lamang at nakayuko ako.

“Pero… sige. Magpapadala ako ng meryenda,” he said.

“Papa, ako na ang kukuha,” Tiara suggested.

“Tang ina, akala mo talaga. Noon si Strevan, ngayon iyang mas gwapo,” bulong bulong ng isa. Wala sa sarili akong napatango.

“Oh,” her father laughed. “Sige sige.”

They both left while Azriel remained standing. Dinapuan ako ng kaba nang maglakad sya papasok ng kubo kasabay ng impit na tili ng mga kasama ko. Sumiksik ako sa pinakagilid habang kakaba kaba at hindi na makausap.

Umupo sya hindi kalayuan sa akin. Naamoy ko kaagad sya. He still smells the same. Still the same perfume and manly scent.

Napatingin sa gawi namin si Strevan. Napatigil sya at tumingin saglit. I waved my hand and forced a smile. He nods before continue what he’s doing.

Para akong kakapusin ng hininga ngayong napakalapit na nya at titig na titig sya sa akin. Kahit hindi ako nakatingin sa kanya ay alam kong nakatitig sya sa akin, gayundin ang nalilitong tingin nina Kayee.

I sighed before standing up. Sobra ang aking nararamdaman, parang hindi ako makahinga sa sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. Dahan dahan akong naglakad palabas.

Hindi naman nya ako tinawag o ano. Parang sapat na sa kanya na basta nakikita nya ako. Ni hindi ko na nga nilingon ang mukha nya dahil sigurado akong mas masasaktan ako kapag nakita ang ekspresyon nya.

Lumapit ako kay Strevan kaya bahagya syang natigilan.

“Uuuwi muna ako,” mahina kong sabi. Kumunot ang noo nya at sinulyapan ang kubong pinanggalingan ko.

“Lyra, baka sundan ka,” inis nyang sabi.

“I’ll lock the doors. Babalik na lang ako mamayang hapon, matutulog lang ako.”

Nag-aalala syang nakatingin sa akin.

“Sige. Bumalik ka dahil plano ko sana dumeretso tayo sa bayan mamaya para sa hapunan. Mag-oovertime kasi ako kaya medyo madilim na ang uwi ko,” he explained. I nodded.

“Babalik na lang ako,” mahina kong sabi. Pinanood nya akong umalis.

Gulong gulo na ang isip ko habang nagpepedal. Panay pa ang tingin ko sa likod at baka nandyan si Azriel pero wala naman sya.

I should… just talk to tito, right? Walang patutunguhan ang pagpapanggap namin dito.

Kaya naman ay dumiretso ako sa bayan. Nagtanong-tanong ako kung saan mayroong telepono. Itinuro naman ako sa isang malaking tindahan.

“Tatawag po ako,” I requested. The woman nods and opened her small wooden gate to let me in. May dalawang teleponong de-keypad at dalawa ring landline.

“Sampung piso ang limang minuto, ineng.”

I nodded and touched my pockets. Binibigyan naman ako ni Strevan ng pera kung kaya mayroon akong pera.

“25 minutes po sa cellphone,” I said and offered my fifty peso bill. She nodded and get it from my hand. Tumalikod sya at hinayaan na ako. Pumasok na rin sya sa kanyang tindahan. Good, privacy.

Inalala ko ang numero ni tito at nagdasal na sana hindi sya nagpalit.

Three rings before someone answered.

[Hello?]

Hindi ako agad nakapagsalita nang marinig ang boses ni tito.

[Hello? Who’s this?]

“Tito… it’s me,” I said. Sya naman ang natigilan ngayon.

[WHAT?! Sino ito?! Speak up!]

“Tito, it’s me! Seleira!”

[What the! Seleira, ikaw ’yan?! Fuck! Mababaliw na kami kahahanap sayo!] Rinig ko ang medyo natataranta nyang boses.

[Do not hung up!]

“Y-yes, tito… Please, can you pick me? Tito, nandito si Azriel,” hindi ko na malaman kung anong una kong sasabihin.

[Ano?!]

“Azriel is here but I’m making him believe I’m not his wife tapos nakikitira ako kay Strevan, tapos nandito talaga sya, tito-”

[Calm down, Seleira! Saka na natin pag-usapan ’yan at gusto ka na namin ma-secure rito! Jusko, si Azriel, noong mga nakaraang buwan, grabe grabe ang pagwawala nyan dito! Tapos andyan na pala-]

“Tito, I know! Let’s just talk! I want you to pick me here… alam kong h-hindi sya naniniwala, tito, help me” I cried.

[Oo! Susunduin ka namin! Text me the address! I’m really glad you’re alive, Seleira!]

Matapos ang tawag na pareho kaming natataranta ay itinext ko na agad. I don’t know out exact address but I know this island. I also described our house.

I didn’t even ask him about daddy or Anikka. I just can’t right now.

Ngayon naman ay nagi-guilty ako dahil hindi man lang ako nakapagpaalam kay Strevan na tumawag ako. I’m just here, crying while sending the message.

Unknown Number:

Sige

. We’ll be there tomorrow. We don’t even know that, but I guess google maps will help.

Byabyahe

na kami ni Hiro tonight.

I wiped my tears before typing a reply to say okay and I’ll wait.

Gulong gulo pa rin ako kahit noong nakauwi na ako. Sa sobrang concious ay inilock ko lahat ng pwede pasukan dito. I lay in bed and think of the things I’ve done.

I’ve been so indecisive and I always make the wrong decisions. Sana ay tama na ang ginagawa ko ngayon.

Tumayo muna ako para kumain. Wala sa sarili rin akong naligo muli sa akalang mawawa si Azriel sa isip ko but it didn’t work.

I’m thinking of Azriel.

Nakatulog ako nang mag-alas tres ng hapon. Paggising ko ay wala pa ring tao, wala si Strevan. I looked at the clock and it says 7:46 pm. Agad akong tumayo at nag-ayos para bumalik.

I’ve slept for so long! Wala si Strevan dahil magpapahuli sya.

Paglabas ay saktong napadaan si Aling Malou. Umismid sya bago magsalita.

“May tao pala riyan! Kanina, tawag nang tawag sayo yung bagong lipat. Kaano ano mo ba ang gwapong yun at palagi kang hinahanap?”

I was shocked but I just shook my head.

“Umalis tuloy pero ang tagal nagtatawag dito. Sabi ko baka walang tao kaya umalis sya. Hindi ko alam sayo, Lyra. May relasyon ba kayo nun? Pero may chismis na kasal kayo ni Strevan? Ano ba talaga?”

“Wala po,” I dismissed her. Kinuha ko ang bike at sumakay na rito muli.

“Sige po, mauna na ako!” sigaw ko at nagpedal nang mabilis para hindi na sya makatanong pa.

Pagdating sa farm ay madilim na talaga. Natanaw ko na sina Strevan at kakaunti na lang sila kumpara kanina. Bumaba ako at isinandal saglit ang bike.

Pupunta na sana ako kay Strevan nang mahagip ko ang kubo. Kayee and her friends aren’t there anymore, but there are just only two people.

Lumapit ako hanggang sa makita ko na nang malinaw.

It’s Tiara and Azriel. Maraming pagkain sa mesa at nakangiti nang malawak si Tiara.

Silang dalawa lang. Kinurot ang aking puso sa tanawin. Agad nag-init ang mga sulok ng mata ko kahit na wala naman silang ginagawa. They are just sitting there… with many foods and a dim light which makes the atmosphere romantic.

Nagsituluan ang mga mababaw kong luha nang magtagpo ang mga mata namin. Agad akong tumalikod at tumakbo sa takot na makita nyang umiiyak ako.

Ni hindi na ako nakalapit pa kay Strevan dahil agad akong sumakay sa aking bike at nagpedal.

Naiinis ako dahil sa mga luhang ’to. Wala naman silang ginagawa! Come on, Seleira, para kang tanga! At anong pakialam mo kung may gawin nga sila, huh? Didn’t you say you don’t know him?!

I’m a hypocrite!

Dahil sa galit at selos na nadarama ay ang bilis bilis ko magpedal. Mabilis akong nakarating sa bahay pero kabababa ko pa lamang ng bike ay may humawak na agad sa braso ko upang paharapin ako sa kanya.

I looked up at whoever it is with my crying eyes.

“Ano ba!” Umiiyak kong sigaw at binabawi ang braso ko sa kanya.

“Why are you crying?” he asked. Nahagip ng mata ko ang sasakyan nyang umiilaw pa at tila nagmamadali syang lumabas kung kaya’t hindi ito na-off.

I looked at him angrily. “Bitawan mo ako!”

“Not until you tell me why are you crying. Why did you run when you saw us? Bakit ka umiiyak?!”

His ruthless eyes stared at my soul and everything I am. Marahas kong pinunasan ang sariling luha.

“Wala! Anong pakialam mo?!”

“Nagseselos ka?” paratang nya.

“You’re my wife. Stop this bullshit and let’s talk about us,” nagtitimpi nyang sabi.

“Ayoko! Sabing hindi ako ang asawa mo!” nanginginig kong sigaw kahit na alam kong talo na ako.

Shit. Hindi man lang umabot ng isang araw ang pagpapanggap.

“Baby, why are you crying, then?” malambing nyang sabi. Mas lalo akong umiyak dahil nangungulila sa kanyang malambing na boses.

“W-wala kang paki-” He cut me off with a hungry kiss.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at hindi agad nakagalaw. Sabik na sabik sya kung halikan nya ako. My tummy suddenly feel so full of butterflies. I feel like floating… I can’t find the right words to describe what I feel.

Unti unti akong napapikit at nanghina. Hinapit nya ang bewang ko at hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili’t kumapit na sa kanyang leeg.

Mahina akong napadaing nang kagatin nya ang labi ko. Nanghihina na rin ang mga tuhod ko dahil sa paraan nya ng paghalik.

He pulled out the kiss and we both stuggle to catch our breaths. Namumungay na ang mga mata nya at ganoon din ang sa akin.

“I miss you, I know it’s you,” he said huskily. Tears started flowing down from my eyes again. Marahan nyang pinunasan ang pisngi ko.

Here we are at the darkest side while kissing each other. My heart goes crazy with the thought.

“I miss you,” napapaos nyang sabi at hinalikan ako muli. This time, I kissed him back, not minding anything or anyone else beside him.

Idinikit ko pa ang sarili sa kanya kung kaya’t napamura sya. He pulled it out and looked around.

“Azriel…” I called gently. Shit, fine. I lost. Bumigay na ako.

“Stop for a while,” nagtitimpi nyang sabi at hinuli ang dalawang kamay ko.

“Let’s fix us and talk first,” he said. His voice is getting deeper and huskier habang ako ay nawawala na sa sarili. I want him…

Nanlalambot na ako nang hatakin nya ako papasok sa kanyang bahay. Mabilis na ang paghinga ko at nag-iinit na ako at alam kong sya rin.

“Hey,” I called softly.

“Mag-uusap tayo, Seleira,” nanggigil nyang sabi. I also heard the sound of the door because he locked it.

Nilingon nya ako at muling napamura dahil sa kung ano man. Hindi nya na napigilan ang sarili at inatake na ako muli ng halik. Isinandal nya ako bago halikan nang mas malalim. I know, I’m so dumb for not pushing him.

“I miss you,” paulit-ulit nyang sabi. Bumaba na rin ang mga halik nya sa aking leeg na syang mas nagpainit sa aking nararamdaman.

My friend, Strevan, suddenly crossed my mind. He’s maybe waiting for me since we have a deal that I’ll come back so we can eat dinner together.

Pero nawala na lahat ng iniisip ko nang ihiga nya ako sa kama at patungan. Ipinulupot ko rin ang kamay ko sa kanyang leeg. I pushed myself to him, wanting for more.

“Fuck,” mura nya. “I miss you.”

Bahagya akong napatili nang punitin nya ang suot kong bistida sa sobrang gigil nya. It exposed my bralette. He’s like a hungry beast, eating and kissing everything of me. Wala syang pinapalampas.

“Let’s just talk tomorrow,” he said huskily.

Hindi na rin ako nakasagot pa dahil sa sensasyong nadarama na ilang buwan kong hindi naranasan.

I don’t know. I know I shouldn’t be this easy to get, but I can’t control it. I miss him, too. And I miss making love to him.

Bahala na bukas. Si Azriel lang at ang ginagawa nya ang nasa isip ko ngayon.

Chapter 32

Anew

I arched my back as he kiss every part of my skin. His tongue licks my tummy and it’s going down and I couldn’t wait anymore.

“Please, hubby,” I begged.

“Shh…” he hushed me. He’s so busy kissing me.

“Please…” I cried.

Nang pumanta sya muli sa akin ay tinitigan ko sya gamit ang namumungay kong mga mata. Nag-iigting na rin ang panga sa panggigigil. He then kissed my neck again and softly bite it.

I moaned with the mixed pain and pleasure. My dress was ripped but I don’t care. He also removed my bralette and I begged him not to rip it, it’s one of my favorites.

Hinalikan nya ako at agad ko syang hinalikan pabalik. Inilagay nya rin ang ang aking dalawang hita sa kanyang bewang habang nasa gitna ko sya.

Shit. I’m only wearing my panty.

I held his shirt and looked up at him with my teary eyes. “Please remove, hubby…”

“Fuck,” he curse as he quickly remove his top. “I miss you calling me that,” he whispered.

Tainga ko naman ang pinagdiskitahan nya. I giggle softly when I felt tickled because he’s kissing my earlobe.

“I dreamed of making love with you every night for the past months,” he bitterly said. “I will not be controlling anymore, baby…”

I smiled but it quickly faded when he now reached my panty. Para akong sinilaban lalo nang haplusin nya ang pagkababae ko.

Nagtataka ako kung bakit hindi nya nababanggit that he’s sorry because he cheated. He only says that he’s sorry for being controlling and he’s promising not be like that anymore.

“Azriel,” I called.

He removed my panty and throw it somewhere before he went down. Naalarma ako kaagad. Naglilikot na ako habang tinitingnan sya sa baba.

He slowly lick me which made my back arch again. Nakagat ko ang labi pero hindi na napigilang umungol nang ipagduldulan ang sarili doon.

“Shit, Azriel!” I moaned. He then put my both legs on his shoulder so he can taste it more. Napasabunot ako sa kanya habang ginagawa nya iyon.

“Oh my gosh, hubby!”

He’s eating me hungrily! He licks and sips it like he haven’t ate for so long.

“Fuck,” he cursed as he stare at me while doing it, watching my reactions.

I moan and close my eyes. Fuck, ang sarap.

“I-I’m near, hubby,” I said.

“Cum for me. I want to taste it… so bad,” namamaos nyang sabi at muling inginudgod ng sarili. I felt his tongue playing with my clit and I am so wet. Naramdaman ko rin ang mahaba nyang daliri na unti unting pumapasok sa akin. Napaangat ako sa sarap na nadarama.

“Please! Please! Hubby, don’t stop,” I cried. I’m crying. I miss this so much.

When he put another finger and move fastly it while eating my clit, I felt something in my lower abdomen forming. I’m cumming.

Umangat muli ang balakang ko at napasabunot sa kanya. I moaned his name as I feel my juices out. I cummed on him!

I looked down on him weakly and he’s still eating mine. Walang pinapalampas. He sips and lick everything that came out of my body.

“Azriel…” I called softly.

“Just a minute,” he said lowly. Nag-iinit ako muli nang hindi nya tinatantanan ang akin.

“Please, Azriel…” I called. “Kiss me, please…”

Wala na syang nagawa at pinantayan na ako. He then kissed my breasts, adding more heat to the pleasure I’m feeling.

Hinaplos ko ang matigas nyang dibdib pababa sa kanyang abs. Shit, this grew, too. It’s so hard.

I reached for him when he moved away. He slowly remove his belt using his long fingers. Titig na titig sya sa akin. His eyes reflect love, longing, want, desire, and many more. I bite my lips sexily which made him curse and removed his belt quickly.

“I want,” I said. Pumatong sya ulit at hinalikan ako habang hinuhubad ang kayang pants, leaving his boxers. I hold onto its garter and looked at his eyes. His member is so huge and erect.

“Remove, please…”

“I know, baby, don’t beg at me like that, I’m gonna cum quickly if you keep doing that,” nagtitimpi nyang sabi at mabilis na tinanggal ang boxers.

Literal na nanlaki ang mga mata ko. It’s larger and longer than the last time! It’s also erect and proudly standing. I caress its hardness which made him groan.

“Stop,” napapaos nyang sabi.

“No,” I said and continued playing with it. Hinuli nya agad ang mga kamay ko at itinaas iyon sa uluhan ko.

“Stop or I’m gonna cum soon. I’m no patient, wife,” he said and started kissing my neck again. His other hand is caressing my waist while the other one serves as  handcuffs, caging my playful hands above.

“Ah, Azriel!” I moaned whenever his shaft touches mine. Inaangat ko ang balakang ko para magdikit muli pero ipinipirmi nya ang baywang ko.

“Please, do it…”

“Tell me I’m your husband first,” he said grimly. Titig na titig sya sa akin.

“Azriel-”

“Ako ang asawa mo at wala nang iba. Tell me I’m your husband or I’ll stop,” he added. My eyes starts become teary again just by the thought he’ll stop.

“Shh shh,” pinaghahalikan nya agad ang pisngi ko.

“Selos na selos ako kanina, Seleira.”

Hinaplos ko ang panga nya at agad syang napapikit. Dumilat sya muli at supladong mga mata ang sumalubong sa akin.

“I did my best not to hurt him. Who is that man, anyway?!” sakim at selos na naman ang dinig sa boses nya. Mariin nyang ipinikit ang mata at umiling iling.

“I’m sorry, baby…” he said gently as he start rubbing his member to mine. Napaawang ang bibig ko at agad napaungol nang mahina.

“I won’t be very jealous always, I will not control you, I will not cage you… I love you, I miss you. I changed for you,” palambing na nang palambing ang kanyang boses kasabay ng pagpasok nya sa akin.

I moaned softly as I hang both of my legs in his waist. Halos hindi na ako maka-respond sa sinasabi nya dahil sa ginagawa nyang dahan-dahang pagbaon sa akin.

“Answer me, Seleira,” he demanded as he push it deeper and deeper. Humigpit ang kapit ko sa balikat nya.

“Y-yes…” tanging nasambit ko. Pinatakan nya muli ako ng halik pero napaungol din sya sa kanyang mababang boses. Shit, his groans and low moans turns me on even more.

Medyo nasasaktan ako dahil mas malaki nga ito nang kaunti kaysa noong nakaraan. I am very turned on so I expect myself to feel loose, but it’s not. I feel so tight because he’s just so big.

“I-is that all?” I asked, catching my breath. He stopped for a while and he closed his eyes, feeling me.

“No,” napapaos nyang sabi. “Not yet.”

I bit my lips. There’s still more and yet I already feel so full.

“Please enter it whole, hubby,” I begged. Hinalikan nya ako habang hinahaplos ang dibdib ko.

Kasabay ng pagbaon ng mga kuko ko sa likod nya ay ang tuluyan nyang pagbaon sa akin. Napapikit ako at napaungol. He moaned longer, too, while his eyes are closed and his face is flushed red.

Tumingin sya sa akin gamit ang namumungay na mga mata. He’s very turned on.

“I love you, Seleira. I miss you.” His voice is so gentle and lovely. Hindi muna sya gumalaw at pinapakiramdaman muna.

“You’re so tight,” he whispered to my ear. I suddenly wonder if he ever done this to Anikka. Pero agad nawala ang iniisip ko nang magsimula syang gumalaw.

“Tang ina,” mura nya habang dahan dahang gumagalaw. Kumapit ako sa leeg nya habang dinarama sya.

“Do it faster please, Azriel!” I moaned. Binibilisan na rin nya. Halos mawala ako sa ulirat dahil sa sarap. I miss this. I miss him, I couldn’t deny.

“Fuck, I love you, wife,” he said while thrusting in me fastly. Umuuga ang buo kong katawan. He reached for my breast and licks it. Nakakagat din nya sa sobrang gigil. It hurts a bit but him, thrusting inside me is the best feeling my body can ever feel.

“Azriel!” I moaned. He suddenly went slower. Malalakas pero mabagal ang pagpasok nya. He teases me. Sinasalubong ko naman pero pinipirmi nya ang bewang ko. Nag-iigting ang kanyang panga habang pulang pula na.

Inilagay nya ang hita ko sa balikat nya at mabilis na gumalaw muli. Napamura ako at umungol nang malakas dahil sa sensasyon.

Fuck, he’s so good.

“Hubby!”

“Damn it, Seleira…” ungol nya at mas lalong binilisan. Hinalikan nya rin ako habang hinaplos ang pang-upo ko.

“I-I’m near,” hirap na hirap kong sabi. Nagkatitigan kami habang parehong nakaawang ang aming mga bibig. Pulang pula na rin ang labi nya dahil sa kahahalik sa akin.

Ibinaon nya ang mukha sa aking balikat at pinagkakagat iyon. He’s leaving some love bites! But I couldn’t care no more.

“Shit, Azriel!!”

Bawal ulos nya ay baon na baon. Nararamdaman ko ring malapit na sya dahil lumalaki na ang kanya at pabilis na sya nang pabilis.

“I love you,” paulit ulit nyang sabi. Kinagat nya rin ang braso ko kaya napadaing ako. He’s leaving love marks everywhere.

“Shit, I’m cumming too, baby,” he said huskily.

“T-there mine goes,” wala sa sarili kong sabi.

“Me, too. Let’s cum together,” he said. Halos mapunit ang bedsheet sa kakahila ko.

“D-don’t pull out,” I begged. I want to feel it.

“I won’t.”

A few more thrusts and I felt my release as well as him inside me. Napapikit ako habang hinahabol ang hininga. I bit my lips once I felt him bite my leg in his shoulder.

“Azriel…” nanghihina kong tawag. He’s still inside me and my legs are still on his shoulder. I’m still shaking.

Dahan dahan nyang ibinaba ang aking nanginginig na mga binti at ibinaon ang mukha sa aking leeg.

“I love you. I miss you so much,” he whispered.

Hindi na ako makasagot dahil inaantok na ako at nanghihina na rin. Pinaghahalikan nya naman ang buhok ko.

“I want more…” he requested. Nanghihina na ako although I’m still in the mood.

Sumira ng mood ko ang isiping ginawa nya rin ito kay Anikka. Shit. I have so many things to ask to him and we have so many things to talk about but I’m so sleepy and weak.

“No,” I whispered back. I heard him sigh heavily. I moaned softly when he pull his member out of me. I feel empty when it’s completely out.

“Fine. I’ll just fix you.” Naramdaman kong hinalikan nya ako sa noo bago bumangon. Nilamig ako kaagad pagkaalis nya. Bahagya akong dumilat at nakita ang likod nya. He opened a wooden cabinet and get some tissue and wet wipes from it.

Namula ako nang makitang hubo’t hubad sya habang naglalambing ang mga mata. Pumunta sya sa ibaba ko at para akong sinilihan. It’s just so uncomfortable having him in my naked low body.

“Azriel…” I called when he wiped it with tissue. Wala sa sarili akong natawa dahil sa kiliti. After cleaning, I felt him kiss it quickly.

“Azriel!”

“I’m sorry… I can’t get enough of you,” dahilan nya.

Sinuotan nya ako ng kanyang tshirt bago sya magpaalam na maghuhugas sa banyo. Inaantok na ako at gusto ko nang matulog kaya’t tumalikod na ako at hinarap ang pader.

I closed my eyes and made myself comfortable. Mas naging komportable lamang ako nang bumalik sya at yakapin ako mula sa likod.

“How about our dinner, baby?” he reminded. Umiling lang ako. Hinigpitan nya ang yakap at hinaplos haplos ang tyan ko.

“Let’s cuddle first,” malambing nyang sabi. “I missed you… Let’s talk tomorrow.”

Nilalambing nya pa ako hanggang sa tuluyan na akong hilahin ng antok.

First thing in the morning, all I felt is fear.

I had sex with Azriel. I became so easy! And what the hell, who knows they did this, too, with Anikka?! Also, how about Strevan? I left him without any traces!

Agad akong bumangon at nilingon ang katabi kong mahimbing na natutulog. His arm is resting on my waist. He looks so good in the morning. Natatamaan din ng sikat ng araw ang kanyang mukha. Nakaboxers lang din sya kaya nag-iwas ako ng tingin.

I slapped myself. Si Strevan! I need to explain. Oh my gosh, did he wait me?!

Agad akong bumangon pero naalimpungatan si Azriel at agad akong nahila.

“Where are you going?!” he asked using his bedroom voice.

“Aalis na,” sagot ko at tumayo muli pero mabilis nya akong naibalik sa kama.

“Just like that?” offended nyang tanong. Medyo mas nagising na rin sya.

“Like what?”

“We made love last night, Seleira. Bakit ka umaalis ngayon?” he asked. His expression is shocked and hurt.

“Azriel, stop. I was just-”

“Stop.” Mariin syang pumikit.

“Azriel-”

“Bakit parang wala lang sayo? Ginusto mo ba ’yun, Seleira? Ginusto ko ’yun at wala akong pinagsisisihan!” Nasasaktan nyang sabi.

“What’s your problem? I thought we’ll gonna talk about this now?!” galit nyang tanong. Medyo natakot ako at napaatras.

“Bakit? Are you gonna explain to me why you cheated?!” I asked painfully.

Kumunot naman ang noo nya at napatayo na rin.

“What are you talking about?” sumeryoso na ang boses nya.

“Don’t fool me! I know you did cheat on me many times with Anikka!” I lost it. My tears started falling while he remained standing and confused.

“What the fuck are you talking about, Seleira?!” dumagundong ang boses nya.

“You cheated!” akusa ko.

“I never… what the fuck?! With whom?!” nagagalit nyang tanong.

“S-stop lying, please…”

“Hindi ko alam ang sinasabi mo, Seleira! I never cheat! What makes you think I did? Ganoon ba ang tingin mo sa akin?” nasasaktan nyang tanong. Kahit galit ay malambing pa rin ang paghawak nya sa balikat ko para maiharap ako sa kanya.

“Seleira, look at me,” he demanded.

“Stop lying!”

Daddy said they are both seeing each other! He can’t be lying, right?!

“Is this why you despise me back then? You thought I’m cheating?! Fuck that! Ni hindi ko alam ang tungkol dito! I thought the only issue between us is me being controlling!”

Humagulgol na ako at tinakpan ng palad ang aking mukha.

“What makes you think I cheated with your sister?” mariin nyang tanong.

“N-nag-over time ka… tapos s-sya rin…. tapos nasa o-office nya kayong dalawa. I waited! I waited for you but you seemed so busy with her inside your office! Only you two alone!” umiiyak kong sumbat.

“Seleira, when was that?! I’ve never been alone with her! Bakit ngayon mo lang sa akin ito sinasabi?!”

Pinunasan ko ang aking luha.

“Stop it! Alam mo ’yun-”

“Hindi ko alam. Now, tell me.”

“I can’t remember! P-pero ang tagal nyo sa loob ng office m-mo…” umiiyak kong sabi.

“Seleira, I don’t know what you’re talking about. I was never alone with her! Kung may meeting sa opisina ay hindi kami nag-iisa!” he said with his eyes full of anger now.

“Tell me the date and we’ll check the records together once we’re back in Manila. Naroon ang mga pangalan ng ka-meeting ko at mayroon ding cctv sa loob.”

Wala na akong masabi pa. Umiyak na lamang ako. So, he didn’t cheat?!

“That time, there was a big project coming up. I know you notice it since every employee was really busy. I took many over time to finish it quickly. I was working hard because… I was expecting a baby with you.”

Doon na ako nadurog. I know, I’m dumb! But I wasn’t ready and I was so confused with my feelings. Those were just two months ago but it feels so long not being with him.

“What else?” he asked.

“S-sabi ni daddy, madalas kayong n-nagkikita ni A-anikka… at hindi raw para sa trabaho!” Akusa ko at umiyak muli. He groaned before pulling me closer.

“I never did. Your dad told that to you?!” nagagalit nyang tanong. I nodded while crying in his naked chest.

“Fuck,” mura nya. “I need to talk to the both of them. You cried and doubted me because of that bullshit.”

Umiiyak lamang ako habang inalala iyon. I was so hurt. I’ve never felt pain until that event in my life.

“What else, wife?” malambing nyang tanong. Tiningala ko sya at malayo ang tingin nya habang galit ang mga mata.

“He proved my claim that you’re really having sex with her! H-he said you devirginized her!” Galit pero umiiyak kong sabi. Marahas syang napamura.

“What the fuck?! They really told that? Baby, that’s a made-up story. Tang ina, walang nagsabi sa akin!” galit nyang sabi. “I need to talk with your sister and father. Hindi ko palalagpasin ’to.”

“R-really, you didn’t?” I asked hopefully.

“Of course. Now, bakit ngayon mo lang sinabi ’to? Bakit hindi mo agad ako kinausap? I can’t read minds, Seleira!”

Ako naman ay napayuko. “I-I was afraid…”

“What else?”

Umiling lang ako habang pinupunasan ang pisngi.

“What happened to you? What did I miss? How did you get here?” his tone is making me cry even more. He sounds so caring. Nagbabalik ang mga ala ala ko na nakakapag-pahina sa akin.

“Nabangga ako.”

“What?!” marahas at nagulat nyang tanong.

“Nabangga a-ako… t-tapos hindi nila ako h-hinatid sa ospital. A-ang sakit sakit ng tyan at ulo ko noon… I-I was bleeding and begging for them to p-put me to a hospital but they didn’t… Itinapon nila ako rito, sa malayong lugar…” humihikbi kong kuwento. Napamura sya at agad akong hinapit muli.

“Fuck. You endured that?! Who was them? How about your tummy, does it hurt? Were you able to reach a hospital here-”

“Walang ospital dito pero ginamot ako ng manggagamot.”

“What the fuck? We shouldn’t trust that! You need to get checked up, Seleira!”

“Also, Strevan is the one who took care of me. Please do not be rude to him.”

Bumuntong hininga sya at tumango.

He then asked if I can remember who was the people na nakabangga at basta basta akong itinapon. Galit na galit si Azriel at halos mapisat ako sa kanyang yakap sa sobrang galit nya habang nagkukwento ako.

“Laxus… that’s the only name I can remember.”

“They’ll pay for it. I will hunt them down and I don’t fucking care if they’re minors. Tang ina nila. Magbabayad sila,” nagpupuyos nyang sabi.

Parang nawala ang malaking nakadaghan sa aking dibdib.

“T-talagang hindi k-ka nag-cheat?” paninigurado ko. Galit pa rin sya at hindi pa nakaka-recover sa ikinuwento ko.

“I didn’t.”

Tumahan ako at bahagyang lumayo. Naalerto sya agad at tiningnan ako ng nalilito nyang ekspresyon.

“Thank you, Azriel. K-kailangan ko nang umalis,” I said.

“No, aren’t we still okay? I changed, I promise. I won’t be controlling or  manipulative over you, Seleira,” nalulungkot nyang sabi. “Please, baby…”

“Azriel.”

“What else do I need to change? Tell me, please. I won’t be violent. I will not lock you in a room again, I promise,” natataranta nyang sabi.

I looked at his handsome face.

“I’m sorry, Seleira. I’m sorry for being a jerk husband. I changed myself for you, please give me another chance…” nagsusumamo nyang sabi.

“Azriel…”.

“Heck, I don’t even pray, but I prayed to Him to help me be a better man to deserve you,” he said weakly.

“Azriel, I’m sorry, too… I just gave signs but I didn’t tell you what was exactly in my mind. We were both tired-”

“I was tired of work, but never of you,” giit nya.

“I will let you follow your dreams, Seleira. I will not cage you, I will let you do your dream work. I know you don’t like business so go, do what makes your heart happy. Just please… include me with your every journey,” he begged. “Don’t leave me behind.”

Tumango ako habang umiiyak. Azriel is crying, too, pero hindi ganoon ka-visible. He then leaned for a kiss and I’ve never been this happy and contented ever.

“How about you? How are you without me?” I asked.

Marahas syang bumuntong hininga na parang may naalalang ayaw maalala. “I was devastated. I wasn’t living in my mansion since everything there screams your name.”

“Hmm… how did you find me though?”

Nanliit ang mga mata nya sa akin. “You know it. My men told me that they found someone who looks like my Seleira. I immidiately went here. Only if you knew how fast I drive yesterday.”

I pouted. “Careless brute.”

Nawala na lahat ng pangamba ko. So… this is what it feels to have communication, huh.

I was dumb not to talk to him and not to ask him the things that makes me up at night. From now on, I will try my best to tell him everything that makes me upset and frustrated.

I’ll try not be childish anymore.

“Things I need to do in Manila is now lining up. Mananagot lahat ng dapat managot.”

Medyo kinabahan ako pero natantong tama rin iyon. Daddy and Anikka were so bad to do that to me. I’ll let Azriel deal with them, I just hope he will not hurt them physically. Hindi na rin ako na-bother dahil nangako syang hindi na sya magiging bayolente. I’ll hold on to that.

As for the people who bumped me, they deserve to be jailed. I don’t know how, but Azriel will make an action for that.

“Azriel…” I called.

“Hmm? Are we okay now? I miss you…” naglalambing nyang sabi habang inaamoy amoy ang buhok ko.

“I think… I still need space.” Natigilan sya sa sinabi ko pero hindi rin sya nakapagsalita agad. I still need space to reflect with my actions.

“Kailangan ko lang ng space para makapag-isip… kung saan ba talaga ako dapat. Kung ano ba dapat ang mga ginagawa ko…” I said softly. I looked up to him and he looks hurt.

Bagamat nasasaktan ay tumango sya na nagpangiti sa akin.

“Where will you live then?”

“Kina Tito na muna. Pag-iisipan ko kung ano bang larangan ang para sa akin.”

Tumango sya. I’m amused that really changed.

“D-don’t fall in love with other man.”

Napangisi ako. Niyakap nya naman ako habang ako ay tumatawa.

“I miss you, really…” he whispered. Umupo sya sa kama at pinaupo ako sa kandungan nya. Just like before.

Nangingiti akong kumapit sa leeg nya. May multo na rin ng ngiti sa kanyang labi.

“I miss you, too…” I said and I kissed his cheek. Namula ito kaagad.

“Really? Y-you don’t like your other man?”

Kumunot ang noo ko. “Other man? Strevan?” tanong ko. Suplado syang tumango.

“Yup. He’s really a good man and he knows my story.”

Natahimik na lamang sya kaya hindi na rin ako nagsalita pa.

“Aalis na ako,” sabi ko nang nasa pinto na kami.

Tumalikod na ako at naglakad.

“Seleira,” he called.

“Hmm?” sandali akong huminto at nilingon sya.

“Don’t worry about anything anymore. I’ll handle everything. Just… go, chase your dream job…”

I nodded. Tumalikod na ako muli at naglakad palabas ng wooden gate. Pag lingon ko ay mukha syang nasasaktan habang pinapanood akong umaalis. Tumalikod na rin ako at pumasok sa bakuran ni Strevan.

Kinabahan ako agad habang pinipihit ang pinto. I opened it, only to find Strevan sitting on the sofa with a cup of coffee on the small wooden table. Nakatulala ito at bahagyang kita ang eyebags.

“Strevan…” I called. Nag-angat sya ng tingin sa akin bago bumaba sa katawan ko. Nagtagal ang tingin nya sa leeg ko. I touched it and I felt hurt. He’s looking at Azriel’s bite marks. I suddenly felt ashamed.

“Hinanap kita kagabi. Ang sabi mo babalik ka.”

Napayuko ako at talagang naawa sa nasasaktan nyang boses. I suddenly think of Strevan, roaming around in the dark with his bike, looking for me, while I’m in the sheets with Azriel.

“I’m sorry…”

“Nagkaayos na kayo?” Tanong nya at tumayo. Lumapit sya at mas sinuri ang leeg ko.

“O-oo.”

“Pero sinabi mong nagloko sya?”

I explained everything to him. He looked relieved, sad, and disappointed. But he still nodded. I also told him that I went to bayan yesterday to tell my tito na sunduin na ako rito.

“Mag-iingat ka kung ganon. Ang daming nangyari sayo kahapon pero hindi mo ako sinabihan.”

“I’m really sorry, Strevan.”

“May nangyari sa inyo?” tanong nya at hindi na makatingin sa akin.

Hindi rin ako agad nakasagot. Tumango na lang sya at tumalikod.

“Halika, naghanda ako ng almusal para sayo pero magbihis ka muna,” pambabalewala nya sa sariling tanong.

“T-thank you. And uh, ngayon na rin ako kukunin ni Tito…” mahina kong sabi habang tinatahak ang direksyon ng kwarto. I forgot I’m only wearing a shirt and no more inside.

“Sige,” mahina at mailki nya ring sagot bago pumasok ng kusina.

I feel guilty for making him wait but… I don’t regret being with Azriel last night. I’m so sorry, Strevan.

Chapter 33

Dream

Inilipag ni Strevan ang pitsel ng juice at ang mga baso sa mesa. Inililibot naman ni Tito at Tito Hiro ang tingin sa bahay.

“So, you’re telling me na ikaw ang kumupkop sa pamangkin ko?” tanong ni Tito kay Strevan.

Seryosong tumango si Strevan bago umupo sa tabi ko. “Opo.”

“Goodness gracious! Thank you so much! Jusko, kailangang mahanap iyang mga walang pusong umabanduna sayo, Seleira!” galit na sabi ni tito pero paulit ulit na nag-bow kay Strevan.

“Kailangan nyo nga pong mahanap ’yun at parusahan. Hindi ko pa kayang gawin ’yun kay Seleira ngayon dahil wala pa akong kakayahan,” ani Strevan at tumingin sa akin. I just gave him a small smile.

I’m currently wearing my longslevees dress at turtle neck din ang design. Kailangan kong takpan ang mga love bites ni Azriel. Hindi lamang pala iyon sa leeg ko, mayroon din sa braso at iilan sa hita ko.

“Seleira said that you were really a good man. Pinahirapan ka ba? Maarte iyan at spoiled! Ni hindi ko maisip kung paano nya nakayang mabuhay sa probinsya gayong umiikot ang buhay nya sa syudad,” sabi ni tito. Pinanlakihan ko sya ng mga mata.

Mahinang tumawa si Strevan. “Noong una po, maarte at hindi kumakain ng gulay. Natutunan nya naman kalaunan.”

Nag-init ang pisngi ko. Right! Dahil nahihiya ako kay Strevan ay hindi na lang ako nagrereklamo. Isa pa, talagang masarap iyong mga niluluto nya.

Humalakhak din si tito. “So… h-how can we pay you?”

Kumunot ang noo ni Strevan bago umiling. “Hindi na po kailangan.”

“No, Strevan! You told me you want to continue your studies, right?” sabi ko.

“Seleira, kaya ko ’yun. May ipon nga ako at sa susunod na buwan baka mag-Maynila na rin ako. Sabi ng tatay ni Kayee ay tutulungan nya akong makahanap ng eskwelahan doon at trabaho dahil may iilan syang kakilala.”

Bumuntong hininga ako bago dahan dahang tumango. Good for him, then? Baka rin sumama si Kayee sa kanya.

“Oh, maybe a few cash won’t hurt, Strevan?” si Tito.

“Hindi na po talaga-”

“Strevan naman!” iritado kong sabi.

Nag-iinit na ang mga mata ko dahil iiwan ko na nga sya. Sinulyapan nya ako at nanlambot ang ekspresyon nya.

“Sige po, kung gusto ni Lyra.”

“Gusto ko!” giit ko habang umiiyak. He chuckled lowly before hugging me.

Niyakap ko rin sya habang umiiyak. I’ve had many memories with for the past two months and I can say I treasure them so much.

“Thank you, Strevan… Thank you,” paulit-ulit kong sabi. He hushed me while stroking my hair. I also felt him kiss my forehead.

“Lyra… tahan na…” he said gently.

“I’ll miss you,” bulong ko.

“Mamimiss din kita nang sobra. Hindi ako nagsisising pinatira kita dito,” marahan nyang sabi. “Binuhay mo ako, Lyra. Noon, puro lang ako trabaho pero nung dumating ka, para akong nabuhayan. Nagkaro’n ng kulay ’tong maliit kong bahay dahil sayo.”

I cried again with his short message. “I’ll miss you. I’ll never forget you. Mag-iingat ka, sana magkita tayo, ah?”

“Oo naman.”

Malungkot akong nakatayo habang nag-uusap sina tito at Strevan.

Rea and Sasa rushed inside the house. Niyakap nila ako at halos mapisat din ako

“Sabi na nga ba, aalis ka na! Nung nakaraang araw pa kami may nakikitang mga kotseng mamahalin dito!” umiiyak na sabi ni Rea.

“I’m sorry… aalis na ako,” malungkot kong sabi.

“Ah, tito, sina Rea at Sasa, mga kaibigan ko…” pagpapakilala ko. Mayroon pang isang patakbong pumasok.

“Lyra, girlfriend ko! Aalis ka na raw?!”

Si Sean. Tumakbo sya at niyakap ako. Natawa naman ako kahit nalulungkot na ako.

“At ito si Sean,” I added.

“Nice to meet you all. I hope my niece wasn’t  a bitch to you?” si tito. Inirapan ko naman ito agad.

“Naku, masungit at maarte po! Pero ayos na rin basta totoo!”

I told them that we aren’t really married. Alam naman daw nila at nalulungkot talaga sila. Dagdag pa itong si Sean na ngumangawa na parang bata.

“Stop,” natatawa kong sabi.

“Eh pa’no, aalis ka na! Hindi pa nga ako nakakapagpalaki ng katawan!” sumbat nya. Tinawanan ko lang sya at mas pinagtuunan ng pansin ang pag-uusap namin nina Rea at Sasa.

Soon, Strevan hugged me for the last time here. Bitbit nya rin ang maleta ko. Umiiyak pa rin ako kahit noong pinasok nya na ang maleta sa likod ng kotse. Iilang kapitbahay ay nakatingin sa amin.

“Tell your tita na aalis na ako, ha. Hindi na ako makapag-paalam,” sabi ko. Tumango sya at pinunasan ang pisngi ko.

Nahagip ng mga mata ko si Kayee. Wala syang emosyon. Marahil alam nya nang hindi naman kami kasal.

“Ingat ka, Lyra!” si Rea. Tumango ako at niyakap ko silang muli.

“Strevan, salamat talaga sa pagkupkop sa pamangkin ko. I don’t know what’s enough na ibayad sayo but I hope the money I lend is,” mahinang sabi ni tito.

“Salamat din po. Naging masaya ako kasama sya.”

“Thank you, man.” Seryosong sabi naman ni Tito Hiro sa kanya at tinapik ang balikat nito.

“Strevan, aalis na kami…” huli kong sabi. Tumango sya. I hugged him again and peck a quick kiss on his cheek. Hindi sya kaagad nakagalaw at naka-react pero maya maya ay tumango.

“Bye bye!”

Nilingon ko sina Rea at ang iba pa. “Bye!”

Hindi ko na nga lang nilingon si Strevan dahil ang sakit makita syang ganyan. Ang lungkot lungkot nya tapos hindi na sya nagsasalita.

“Bye, Lyra! Mamimiss ka namin!”

“Ingat kayo!”

I smiled and wipe the side of my cheek. Nilingon ko rin ang tapat naming bahay. Nandyan kaya sya sa loob? Umiwas ako ng tingin at pumasok na sa backseat.

Medyo hindi ako responsive kina tito habang nasa byahe. Ang pait ng loob ko habang nadaraanan ang mga bahay bahay. I can see me and Strevan biking while laughing. O ’di kaya naman ay kaming tatlo nina Rea at Sasa na nagbibiruan. I hope I won’t be that sad. I need to move on again because I got no choice.

I hope they’ll all be okay here. Lalo na si Strevan, I wish him the best for his studies and part time work in Manila.

“Seleira,” tawag ni tito. Nilingon ko sila at nakatingin sa akin si Tito gamit ang rearview mirror. Si Tito Hiro naman ay seryosong nag-ddrive.

“May pagkain dyan. Fast food, malamig nga lang. Madaling araw pa kami nag-byabyahe” sabi ni Tito Hiro. Tumango ako at nilingon ang gilid. Natakam ako kaagad dahil sobrang na-miss ko ito.

“Seleira, mukhang mabait nga si Strevan,” panimula ni Tito. Tumango ako habang kinalkal ang supot.

“At saka, grabe ang itsura! Swerte mo talaga lagi ano? Sa nanggagwapuhang lalaki ka lagi napupunta!” He exclaimed.

“Tito… Sobrang bait nya. Ako pa lagi ’yung natutulog sa kwarto nya tapos sya doon lang sa matigas na sofa. Tapos… kumakain kami sa bayan ’pag sweldo nya…” nagsimula na naman akong humikbi. “Grabe ang pagrespeto nya sakin. Sobrang bait nya, tito…”

“Hush, hija… Ganoon talaga. Hindi naman pwedeng habang buhay ka roon. Salamat na lang talaga’t sa kanya ka napunta. Kung luluwas sya ng Maynila, ang laki ng oportunidad nya. Ang gwapo ba naman, matangkad, at matipuno pa,” komento ni Tito.

“Yeah,” sagot ko at nagpunas ng kakaunting luha. Kumagat ako sa malamig na burger. Masarap pa rin naman. There are nuggets, too, and many more.

“Gwapo sya saka andaming nagkakagusto sa kanya dun. Galit na galit pa sa akin ang iba,” pagke-kwento ko habang naalala sina Kayee at ang iilan nyang alagad.

“Sobrang gwapo, eh,” Tito repeated. Nag-angat ako ng tingin habang ngumunguya ng fries.

Nakakunot ang noo sa kanya ni Tito Hiro habang nag-ddrive.

“What?!” tanong ni tito.

“Pangatlong beses mo nang binanggit na gwapo sya,” seryosong sabi ni Tito Hiro. Napatigil ako sa pag-nguya at napangisi.

“So? Talagang gwapo naman!”

Umismid lamang si Tito Hiro at umiwas sa kanya ng tingin. Seryoso itong nag-maneho muli.

“My gosh, Hiro, are you jealous? Nakakahiya kay Seleira!” Natatawang sabi ni tito. Ako naman ang nag-iwas ng tingin para mag-kunwaring hindi sila nakikita o nakikinig.

Umubo ako kunwari at pinigilan ang tawa. They look like teengagers! Gwapo si tito at iilan lang ang taon na tanda sa akin. Maaga kasing nabuntis ni Papa si Mama noon at nakababatang kapatid ni Papa si Tito kaya medyo mas malapit ang edad namin. Si Tito Hiro naman ay gwapo rin at tisoy.

“Tito, have you got me a phone yet? Or ako na lang bibili?” pag-iiwas ko sa usapan nila.

“Oh! Nabilhan ka na namin kanina. Latest ito, hindi 8s lang,” sabi ni Tito bago tumawa pero nag-aalala pa ring nakatingin kay Tito Hiro. Mukhang nagtatampo sa kanya. Shiz!

“Oh my, thanks, tito!” I giggled atsaka kinuha ang box ng iPhone sa kanyang kamay.

Mayroon ding earpods kaya sinuot ko na ’yun habang nag-uusap silang dalawa. Nag-LQ pa nga sa harap ko. My gosh!

Isinet-up ko na lamang ang aking iPhone habang nasa byahe. Pagtingin ko sa labas ay nasa highway na kami, wala na kami sa probinsya-like-place.

Tinanggal ko ang earpod nang tapikin ako ni tito.

“What?” I asked.

“I forgot to ask, where’s your husband?” tanong nya. Bumuntong hininga ako.

I told them everything— na nagkaayos na kami pero hindi muna kami magsasama,  about my plans, and also about the cheating part. Hindi ko nga lang sinabi na may nangyari sa amin dahil baka isipin nila na masyado akong marupok.

I know I am but… I just can’t resist him. I missed him and I still miss him.

Bumuntong hininga si Tito. “Alam kong hindi sya nagloko, hija. Iyang kapatid mo ang ilusyunada.”

“Why didn’t you tell me then?”

“I didn’t know that time! Wala ka nung nalaman ko! Halos wala kaming tulog nitong si Hiro kahahanap sayo! Itong daddy mo, parang walang pakialam!”

Napapikit ako at marahas na bumuntong hininga.

“Pero wala talagang alam si Azriel, as in. Ang akala nya lang na issue sa inyo ay masyado syang nakakasakal. Naawa nga ako,” lumukot ang mukha ni Tito.

“Unang linggong wala ka, palaging nasa gate iyon. Umaga hanggang gabi, kahit umuulan, hindi talaga umaalis. Ang sabi namin nawawala ka pero ayaw maniwala. Pangalawang linggo, pinapasok na namin sa loob. Grabe, hija. Kung makita mo lang sya nung wala ka…”

Sumadal ako habang nakapikit nang mariin. Ang sakit kahit kinukuwento lang ni Tito.

“Hindi ko na rin sinabi kay Azriel na nag-plano pala iyong tatay at kapatid mo. I thought you should be the one who should tell him, I’m sorry, hija. Gulong gulo na rin ang buhay namin noong nawala kang bigla. Hirap na hirap kami, lalo na ang asawa mo.”

That’s why Azriel was so desperate yesterday. Sabik na sabik sya sa akin dahil naghirap nga sya habang wala ako.

“He was mad pero wala syang masisi, hindi nya alam ang nangyari between you and Kuya. He sent out his men to find you. Iba iba, bawat sulok ng bansa, may nakatalaga. Ngayong alam nya na ang pinlano ni Kuya, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin nya… I just hope he won’t tear our company down since that’s mine, too. Baka pulutin ako sa kangkungan.”

“Hindi ko na rin alam, tito. I told you, I asked space from him. Pumayag naman sya at mukhang ginagawa nya ang lahat para hindi maging tulad ng dati. I like it this way.”

Natahimik kami ulit. Si Tito Hiro ay nag-mamaneho lang habang si Tito ay mukhang bothered.

“How about my desperate sister, tito? Tapos si Daddy… hindi talaga nag-alala?”

“Anikka didn’t really care. Pakiramdam ko ay mas nagpursigi sya sa kay Azriel, however, Azriel wasn’t in the right mind. He shuts everyone off and he’s depressed. Ni hindi na na-push nina Kuya ang plano nyang ipagdikit sina Anikka at Azriel. Not gonna lie, Kuya sounds so dumb about that. Sa tingin nya papayag si Azriel? Damn,” mahaba nyang litanya. Hinawi ko naman ang buhok ko at tumingin sa labas.

“You know what… I honestly… don’t care  about Anikka and Daddy anymore. Parang wala na lang sa akin na ginago nila ako,” wala sa sarili kong sabi.

“That’s because you’ve cut them off a long time ago,” Tito Hiro suddenly said.

“How do you say, tito?” I asked.

“Back when you were in that small island, do you often think about your husband?” he asked.

“Yes… walang araw na hindi lumilipas, tito,” mahina kong sagot. Nakita ko ang pasimpleng ngisi ni Tito Glassifer.

“Okay. How about your father and your sister? Have you thought about them?” he asked again. Kumunot ang noo ko at inalala.

“No. I mean, siguro noong mga unang araw ko. Naiisip ko sila at umiiyak ako lagi sa gabi. But the day came that I just stopped and lost my care. I also think about the both of you, tito.”

“Then you clearly cut them off your life. You don’t care anymore and that’s totally okay, hija. It’s okay to cut people off even if they’re your family members,” Tito Hiro said meaningfully.

Natahimik ako at sandaling napaisip. Wala na nga talaga akong pakialam sa kanilang dalawa. I don’t have time to revenge, either. I just… don’t give a damn at all. Pagkatapos ng ginawa nila ay wala nang ano pang magpapabalik sa akin sa kanila.

“Really, Seleira?” si Tito Glassifer naman. Tumango ako. “You’re not mad at them?”

Umiling ako at nagkibit balikat. Wala na talaga akong pake at hindi ko alam kung bakit. Baka nga tama si Tito Hiro o pwede ring dahil mas masaya ako ngayon. I’m just contented that… Azriel didn’t lie to me and didn’t cheat. He also changed for me and he’s letting me do everything. I’m so happy about that and no one can ruin this feeling even if Anikka, daddy, or anyone will try to. Malakas na ang loob ko at malaki na ang tiwala ko kay Azriel na hindi sya papatol sa desperadang iyon.

Bahala sya. Get a life, Anikka, hindi ’yung aaligid-aligid ka sa buhay ko.

Nakatulog ako sa byahe at paggising ko ay hapon na. Wala pa rin kami sa bahay nila Tito. I checked my phone at it’s already 3 pm. Talagang malayo ang Peloponese dito.

Naalala ko tuloy si Strevan. I should’ve gave him my new number, pero hindi ko naman alam kanina. Kung magkikita ulit kami, edi matutuwa ako. Kung hindi naman, sana ay magtagumpay sya sa buhay nya.

“You skipped your lunch, Princess Aurora. Hindi ka magising kanina,” ani Tito habang nag-aaply ng foundation. “May pagkain dyan, malamig ulit. Kanina pang alas dose kami tumigil sa drive thru ng Wendy’s.”

Tumango ako at nagsimulang kumain. It’s weird that I constantly check my phone to see if Azriel has a message or call. Ni hindi nya nga alam ang number na ito.

Maya maya ay nag-switch sila. Si Tito naman ang magmamaneho dahil iidlip daw muna si Tito Hiro dahil kanina pang madaling araw nagddrive.

“Nga pala, Seleira,” tawag ni Tito habang nag-ddrive. “Anong plano mo?”

“I’ll call Adam later to see if there’s a chance to be in Dames

Élégantes

,“ nakangisi kong sabi bago iangat ang tingin kay Tito. Nakangisi rin sya at mahinang tumawa.

“Goodness! You’re really entering this field! I’m so happy, hija! I’m telling you, gustong gusto ka ni Madame Elyse. Didn’t I tell you she have countless mentioned you to me before? Lagi kong sagot busy at may trabaho, ngayon, ayan na!” tuwang-tuwa nyang sabi. Tumawa ako at umirap, hindi naniniwala.

“Oh come on, tito. You’re overreacting,” natatawa kong sabi.

“I’m telling the truth!”

“Shh! Natutulog si Tito Hiro. I’ll try to call or message Adam later in Instagram.”

Hindi na ako ulit nakatulog hanggang sa magdilim na. Natatanaw ko na rin ang village gate. Sa wakas, narito na kami.

I’m thinking of Azriel, but I know he’s okay. He’s maybe busy now.

“Ha! Sa wakas!” Nag-uunat si Tito nang makalabas kami. Nag-unat din ako at humagikhik.

“Tara,” sabi ni Tito Hiro habang bitbit ang maleta ko.

Nagpa-deliver lang sila for dinner. Hindi na fastfood o ano pa man. They ordered from a filipino cuisine restaurant.

Sa dinning room ay gutom na gutom ako. Tinawanan tuloy ako ni Tito. Also, they don’t have maids here. Silang dalawa lang para siguro pwede silang mag-lambingan kahit saan, huh. I remember catching them here being sweet.

“Gaano katagal ang space na hinihingi mo sa asawa mo?” tanong ni Tito habang kumakain kami.

“Wala akong sinabi hanggang kailan,” sagot ko naman at uminom ng juice.

After eating dinner, nagprisenta akong maghugas na ng plato para makapag-pahinga na sila. Medyo sanay naman na ako dahil tinuruan ako ni Strevan, pero talagang may mga hindi inaasahang pangyayari.

Napatalon ako nang madulas ang isang baso sa kamay ko. Tumingin tingin ako sa paligid na baka may nakakita pero wala naman. I pouted and slowly sweep it with a broom and a dustpan. Mabilis ko iyong tinapon sa trash can sa labas ng bahay at bumalik na parang walang nangyari.

Pagkatapos ng ginawang krimen ay pumasok na ako ng dati kong kwarto at kinalikot ang phone.

I tried sending a message to Adam. Hindi ko nga lang inasahan na makare-reply sya agad. And I was shock that he knows that I went missing! Mas nagulat pa ako ng sinabi nyang maraming tao ang nakakaalam. I didn’t know Azriel did publicize it and even offer thousand dollars to whoever can find me. Hindi nya nabanggit at hindi rin nabanggit nina Tito. Adam said it was all over the news for the past month pero tumigil na rin kagabi.

I am actually relieved that it stopped. Baka ’pag may nakakita sa akin sa labas ay hatakin ako bigla dahil sa perang pwedeng makuha.

adam_gallego:

yup. every week ata, pataas nang pataas yung offer.

ako:

omg. hindi nya nabanggit

adam_gallego:

Idk. Maybe he’s ashamed that if you’ll know, you’ll think of him as a creep or obsessed.

adam_gallego:

Akala ko possessive lang dahil sinuntok ako noon sa selos nya. Lol

Kumunot ang noo ko at natawa. Alam na alam ko ’yan. But if Azriel really did that, then he must be very desperate, huh.

ako:

anyw, can i apply in ur mom’s modeling agency ba? : (

adam_gallego:

wtf

adam_gallego:

for fucking real? oo naman! can i call? mommy will be really happy lmao

Napangiti ako at natawa. So, totoo nga ang sinasabi ni Tito kanina?

Also, I don’t want to share to anyone what I’ve been through—about the issues between me and my dad and her daughter and how I went missing, especially the part where I almost died. For me, it’s the weakest part of me and not empowering. Nahihiya ako at nawawalan ng gana kapag inaalala.

We exchanged our numbers and that night, we were both excited and laughing. He said he will then call her mother. Ayaw nya na ngang mag-audition pa ako pero sabi ko ay kailangan ko pa rin. Kahit hindi na siguro audition, basta’t mag-practice kami since he knows a lot about photography and arts.

Morning after that night, I told Tito about everything. He got excited and so am I. Nakangiti lamang si Tito Hiro.

“Mabuti’t hindi ka nangitim doon, Seleira! Hindi rin ba nagka-peklat ang tagiliran mo? Why don’t we go to a doctor to check you up?” medyo aligagang sabi ni Tito dahil sa excitement at pag-aalala.

“Yup, nawala ’yung peklat tito and  magpapa-check up naman talaga ako, Tito, for my medical which is needed sa kahit anong trabaho. Let’s just wait,” sabi ko naman at kumain ng piraso ng toast.

“Goodness! Mabuti naman. Anyway, I’m free today. Let’s go to the mall for your beauty routines.”

Iyon nga ang nangyari. We went to the mall and some people are staring at us. Maybe because of the news back then. I smiled to some who smiled at me.

Tito Hiro isn’t with us since he have work . Inisa-isa namin ang mga gagawin. From my nail manicure session, facial and derma, hair treatment, skin treatment, and laser hair removal. Although the hair strands were really thin and very few to notice, I still decided to get rid of them.

Si Tito ay nagpa-facial care rin habang nag-uusap kami sa iba’t ibang bagay.

Our bonding was so long that we didn’t notice we skipped lunch dahil madilim na nang matapos. Matagal kasi talaga per session dahil ibinababad especially the hair treatment.

Sobrang blooming ko tuloy pagkatapos. I giggled to myself.

“See, malalamangan mo pa ang mga babaeng modelo dun! Hindi naman magaganda ang itsura, maganda lang ang katawan,” komento ni Tito.

“Hmm hindi ko pa naman sila nakikita, Tito, pero hindi naman siguro sila tatanggapin kung hindi magaganda,” sagot ko naman. Umismid sya at umirap.

“Totoo naman. Mga billboards sa edsa, ni hindi tinitingnan masyado. Paano kung mukha mo ang nandoon? Baka dumami ang kaso ng banggaan, ah?” Biro nya ay humalakhak. Natawa na rin ako although that’s a bad joke.

“Unang una ang asawa mo if ever-”

“Tito!” inis kong tawag. Si Azriel, mababangga? No way!

“Chill, chill, I know! Hindi ka na mabiro, huh!” depensa nya at tumawa muli.

“Tsk,” medyo inis ko pa ring sabi.

“Fine! I’m sorry, okay? Let’s just buy your branded clothes!”

Tito bought me some fashion clothes which he said is from Tito Hiro’s credit card. Meron naman syang pera pero gusto nyang gamitin ang kay Tito Hiro.

“Kailan daw ang punta mo don?” tanong ni Tito nang nasa taxi kami. Tito Hiro offered to pick us up pero naawa na kami dahil galing pa syang trabaho kaya nag-commute na lamang kami.

“Tomorrow, sabi ni Adam,” sagot ko habang pinagmamasdan ang sarili sa camera ng aking phone.

“Tomorrow agad!”

“Yup. Ayaw mo?”

“No, I’m just shocked. Ang bilis naman. Noong isang araw mo lang tinawagan, andyan na agad sa harapan mo… I told you, hija, kakaiba talaga ang ganda mo kasi.”

Inirapan ko sya at natawa. “Cringe, tito!”

Sa bahay matapos maligo ay nagpasya akong suotin ang ilan sa mga nabili namin kanina.

I picked the very fitted red dress from Chanel. It reveals my collarbones and neck. Halata pa rin ang love bites pero hindi na yan halata sa picture.

I made a pose and looked seriously at the back camera of my phone while facing the whole body mirror. I took three mirror shots and I’m already contented.

Umupo ako at pinili ang pinakamaganda. The last one look fire. My curves are on point especially my waist and hips. My breasts isn’t that big pero nadala iyon ng iba pang kurba ng aking katawan at ng aking itsura, of course.

I filtered it with black and white at in-adjust nang kaunti upang hindi maging halata ang mga markang iniwan ni Azriel.

I posted it in Instagram right after.

frrh.seleira

Finally entering the modeling field. Thank you so much @adam_gallego ✨

dress by @chanel 🥀

Napangiti ako nang umani agad iyon ng likes at comments. I checked some and it’s all praises mixed with goodluck messages and a few about the event that I went missing.

Laking gulat ko lang nang may mga nag-comment at message na ibang mga modeling agencies, trying to get me.

katarainternational_official:

Hi! We are the Katara International Modeling Agency and currently looking for models. You are a well-known beautiful woman and we’ve been waiting for you to enter this field….

And so on. I didn’t read it, it’s so long. I took a nap at paggising ko ay mas rumami ang offers sa akin. My mouth is literally dropping right now! I can’t believe this and I’m so happy!

Meron ding messages na nag-ooffer sa akin bilang maging ambassadress ng kanilang products. Mostly clothes, and make ups.

dameselegantes_official@gmail.xxm

Hello, Seleira

This is the offical Dames

Élégantes

account and we’ve got a notice that you’ll apply our modeling agency. We are really glad, especially Mrs. Elyse.

We know that you are getting a lot of offers now, but we do hope you won’t accept any from them.

We are expecting you.

Dames Elegantes Team

Nagtitili talaga ako kahit na gabi na. This is it! This is my dream job! I’m so happy that I’ll finally do the things that I want to!

Chapter 34

Supermodel

“Ma’am Seleira, alas-kwatro po tayo aalis para sa gig mamayang gabi,” Hope said, my P.A.

“Are you going to drive?” I asked while closing my eyes, letting her put two fresh and cold slices of cucumbers on my closed eyes.

“Hmm, hindi po. Nanlalabo ang mga mata ko kapag madilim na. Si Kuya Adonis, ma’am,” medyo nautal pa sya sa dulong sinabi.

“Tsk,” ismid ko. “Why are you calling him ‘Kuya’ when you like him? Hindi ka nya mapapansin, Hope,” mataray kong sabi.

Ramdam ko tuloy na natigilan sya. Tanga na lang ang hindi mapapansing may gusto sya sa driver ko.

“H-huh? Ano b-bang pinagsasabi nyo jan, ma’am… Wala akong gusto ’no! Saka limang taon ang tanda no’n sakin!” She said defensively. Natawa tuloy ako.

Hope is pure and innocent girl. She’s two years younger than me. Iyong driver ko naman ay twenty five years old. Matipuno at medyo maitsura kaya ramdam ko ang tensyon nitong si Hope sa tuwing nasa SUV kami at may gig na pinupuntahan.

“Tss. Just tell him already. May kinikita ’yan minsan. Babaeng maganda at mahahaba ang mga binti!” Sabi ko at ngumisi. Ha, nakakapagod ang araw na ito. I did a runaway just this morning tapos gig ulit ngayong gabi.

“H-huh?! Maganda at mahahaba ang mga binti?!” gulat nyang tanong. Tumango ako kahit hindi sya nakikita. Nahulog tuloy ang isang piraso ng pipino pero ibinalik nya rin kaagad.

Hindi na sya nagsalita pa. Hope is a bit short. Maikli rin ang buhok at may bangs. She reminds me of Yang Xi from a chinese drama series titled “When we were young.”

Tumunog ang pinto ng kwarto ko dahil sa kung sino mang pumasok. We’re actually here in my condo. Lumubog ang ibabang part dahil umupo ito.

“Ouch!” daing ko nang mahina nitong tampalin ang hita ko. I’m just wearing my dolphin shorts! Medyo masakit tuloy.

“Why did you went home early again? Hindi raw kayo sumama sa after party kaninang umaga?”

Umirap ako kahit nakapikit nang marinig ang boses ng manager kong sadista. Mahina ko syang sinipa at natamaan ko sya agad.

“I don’t want to. Ayos lang naman daw sabi ni Tita Elyse, why are you so rude ba?! Andami daming lalaki doon-”

“So? They were all craving to see you there pero umuwi ka na pala! Napag-uusapan tuloy na maldita ka at walang pakialam sa big personalities na iniidolo ka!” Inis na sabi nito. Tumawa lamang ako.

“Wala naman talaga,” sagot ko. I’m just uncomfortable being around other men. Pakiramdam ko ay malulungkot o magseselos si Azriel.

We still haven’t met. The last time we saw each other is that time where we were both in Peloponese Island. Ngayon ay wala na akong balita. Maybe pinaninindigan nya ang pangako nyang nagbago na talaga sya at hindi na ako masasakal sa paraan nyang magmahal. He’ll give and support anything I want. I asked for space… then he’s now giving it.

I miss him though.

“Tama na ’yan, Ma’am Pearl! Sobrang sikat kasi nitong si Ma’am Seleira kahit sobrang baguhan pa lang!” Tuwang tuwa naman na sabi ni Hope.

“Yeah yeah! Whatever! You just started two weeks ago at ikaw agad ang napiling maging mukha ng Dames Elegantes. Some of your co-models may be nice to you but they’re backstabbing you for real so trust no one. Nadatnan ko noong nakaraang araw, nagkasagutan tuloy kami. Ang dami nyang dada kesyo dalawang linggo ka pa lang, may hatak sa anak ni Madam, ang sabi ko lang, ’pag inggit, pikit!”

Nagtawanan kami nang sobra. “Oh my gosh, you did that, Pearl? What the hell!” natatawa kong tanong.

“Yup! Nanggigil ako eh. Kapag nakarating pa ’yang panghihila sayo pababa kay Madam Elyse, ligwak ’yang mga ’yan!”

“I’m here, trying hard to be nice to have a pretty personality as a model, and my manager is there, shouting whatever on earth she wants!” Natatawa kong sabi st bumangon. Mabilis namang tinanggal ni Hope ang dalawang nahulog na mga cucumber slices.

Well, all of they said is true. It’s only been two weeks and yet I’m already famous and on top. Dames Elegantes is the most influencial and famous modeling agency here in the Philippines, but Tita Elyse and the whole team is doing their bests to start going international.

Sumikat ako dahil nakitaan ako ng potensyal at hindi dahil kaibigan ko si Adam na anak ni Tita Elyse.

First week of my gigs were all succesful, especially if runaways. Maybe because I love doing this so it’s easy for me. I am the face of Dames Elegantes and also one of the Supermodels.

Pinapayagan din ako maging ambassaddress pero pinadadaan muna sa aking manager. Pearl said she only accepts it if the brand is famous and very well-known.

Meanwhile, kasabay ng pagsikat ko ay ang mas lalong pag-angat din ng kompanya ni Azriel. Maybe he’s working his ass off too much, too, huh. Wala akong balita sa kanya at siguradong meron syang balita sa akin. My face is all over the internet! I’m gaining fans, too.

I’m wearing an erotic-styled black fitted dress which is full of glitters as I walk through the triangular stage. I’m on a serious mode since the theme of my dress is sexy.

Umikot ako at malisosyang tinitigan ang isa sa mga lalaking nanonood sa ibaba. I smirked when he lost his grip to his drink. Tumalikod ako at nagsimulang maglakad pabalik.

The applause was just so loud that I couldn’t hear the music. Ilang designer dresses and clothes pa ang iminodel ko bago matapos.

I’m always the one who models the works of Tita Elyse. Other models only wears the work of different teams in Dames Elegantes.

“Ang galing mo, Ma’am Seleira!”

“Laging napapanganga talaga kapag ikaw na ang rumarampa, ma’am!”

Pagkatapos ay maraming puri akong natanggap sa backstage. Ngumiti ako at nag-bow nang bahagya.

“Hmmm… Next week, designs ng Team Lorient naman po, ma’am ha?” she said and laughed.

Tumawa rin ako. “Depende kay Pearl,” sabi ko at naglakad na. Ngumingiti ako sa mga staff na pumupuri habang naglalakad ako.

“Ma’am Seleira,” tumabi sa akin sa paglalakad si Hope.

“May after party po ulit,” sabi nya. I rolled my eyes and shook my head.

“Ayoko,” sabi ko.

“Pero ma’am, mga businessmen naman daw po ang naroon. Nanood po sila rito at sabi ni Madam Elyse dapat pumunta ka kung kaya mo…”

I sighed. Maybe going there won’t hurt, huh. I’ll just won’t talk to men para hindi ako kinakain ng konsensya ko. Nakakahiya rin kay Madam Elyse at lagi akong tumatanggi. She just says it’s fine pero pakiramdam ko gusto nya talaga akong pumunta.

“Yo, pretty!” Tumawa si Adam at marahan akong niyakap. I laughed and hugged him back bago sya tingalain. Mayroon syang camera na nakasabit sa kanyang leeg at medyo pawisan sya. Siguro tinakbo nya ang labas mula dito sa backstage.

“Patingin ng mga kuha mo sa akin,” Sabi ko. He smirked before shaking his head.

“No way. You’ll see it once I post it using your instagram,” he said while smirking.

Umirap ako bago tumango. Well, we are three people who have the access on my account. Si Adam, dahil sa kanya nanggaling ang mga pictures ko at minsan ine-edit nya para mas magandang i-post, ako, at si Pearl na syang nagchecheck ng mga activities ko. Hindi raw pwedeng basta basta akong nagla-like ng pictures lalo na ng mga lalaki dahil mabilis ang issue sa industriyang ito.

“Ma’am, pupunta ka ba?” Pangungulit ni Hope, nilingon ko tuloy sya.

“Yup. Adonis should come, too, walang mag-ddrive sa akin pauwi ng condo.”

Lumaki ang mga mata nya. “K-kayo lang dalawa po? Ah eh… sasama na lang po ako,” bigla nyang sabi. Ngumisi ako at tumango.

Nakaupo ako sa isang kwarto sa backstage habang nagtitipa sa cellphone. I removed the dress after meeting with Tita Elyse for a bit in the hallways. She’s so busy so she can’t be here for much.

Naka-underwear lang ako habang nakaupo dahil tatlo lang naman kaming babae dito. Ako saka itong sina Pearl at Hope na kasalukuyang hinahalungkat ang dala naming bagahe para sa susuotin ko sa after party. Nakalock din ang pinto so no worries.

Ako:

Tito, it would really be better if you’ve watched me! May after party pa!

Matagal bago sya nakareply pero hinintay ko na lamang. Uminom ako ng tubig bago tingnan ang phone kong tumunog.

Tito Glassifer:

I’m really sorry, hija, but I know you did really well! May videos naman at titingnan ko sa youtube mamaya. Nasa opisina pa ako at may trabaho pa. Good luck! We both love you! Visit us soon.

“Ito na raw sabi ni Ma’am Pearl, Ma’am,” sabi ni Hope habang hawak hawak ang isang hapit na hapit na red dress. Pa-ekis pa ang likod nito. Tumango na lang ako at sinulyapan si Pearl na nagkakalikot na ngayon ng laptop.

“Shit, mas dumadami ang offers sayo, Seleira! I must review all of these emails tomorrow. Do you want to try commercials?” she asked.

“Hmm… Make ups lang or Skin care products-”

“I told you we won’t risk that skin care products! Baka magka-pimple ka lang…” seryoso nyang sabi habang tutok na tutok sa laptop. Nagkibit balikat ako at tumayo na para suotin ang red dress.

Pumikit ako habang binubura nya ang dark make up ko. It won’t fit my red dress so she’ll change it. Hope is also good on make up.

Pinalitan nya ang kulay ng eyeshadow at lipstick ko. I am now a lady in red. Itinali nya rin sa isang mataas na ponytail ang buhok ko kaya mas nagmukha akong sopistikada.

“Ito ang isa sa pinakanagustuhan ni Madam Elyse at ng mga tao sa inyo, ma’am. Kapag may itina-try na bagong damit at make up ay tila nagbabago ’yung mukha nyo kaya hindi nakakasawang tingnan.”

Ngumiti ako at bahagyang kinilig sa papuri nya. Sya naman seryoso lang habang inaayos ang buhok ko.  She also put the Enchant Heart Lock Pendant from Tiffany & Co.

“Hmm… ilang inches ng heels ang komportable kayo, ma’am?” she asks.

“Three or four.”

“Three na lang, ma’am, para gamay nyo,” she said and walked to get me a pair of heels.

“Is everything ready? Alis na tayo 10:30,” ani Pearl before proceeding in front of the make up mirror to retouch.

“Sasali ako sa party pero doon ako sa bandang likod, huh. If you want to go home but you can’t find me anywhere, you know it. Maybe that time, I already found some guy to have a one night stand with. Umuwi ka na lang, ipapasama ko naman si Adonis saka ikaw, Hope,” she reminded while applying her fake lashes.

“Okay!” I said and laughed. Pearl is a woman who doesn’t settle with just one man. One of the reasons why she always push me to go to after parties is because she loves seeing new faces of men. Aakitin nya tapos may mangyayari sa kanila. Kinabukasan ay maaga syang gigising tapos aalis na parang bula.

“Baka magkasakit ka sa ginagawa mo, Ma’am Pearl,” nag-aalalang sabi ni Hope.

“I won’t, I always let the man use a condom. May mga pumapalag pero ’pag ayaw, aalis ako. Some men are stupid, they don’t understand about the rules of women. Kairita,” inis nyang sabi. Tumango naman ako. Mabuti at medyo malaking babae si Pearl kaya’t may panlaban talaga sya sa mga lalaking masasama ang ugali.

Lumabas na kami ng kwarto nang oras na. Natagal lang kami dahil merong ibang nagpapa-picture sa akin.

We took an elevator so we can go down the ground floor. Pagbukas pa lang ng pinto ng elevator ay ang umiiyak at galit na mukha ni Anikka ang bumungad sa akin.

I was taken aback when she was about to hurt me. Mabilis syang naharangan ni Pearl. Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko habang nakatingin sa kanya. Si Hope naman ay bahagya akong hinila sa likod nya.

“Guard! Damn!” mura ni Pearl habang hinuhuli ang dalawang kamay ni Anikka.

“Ikaw! Walang hiya ka, Seleira!” umiiyak at galit na galit nyang sigaw.

“M-malapit na sana! M-malapit na sana kami ni Azriel, bakit ka pa bumalik?!” she cried out loud. Kumunot ang noo ko at tumingin tingin sa paligid. Mas concern pa ako sa mga reporters or paparazzi na maaring makuhaan kami ng litrato at video kaysa sa pinagsasabi nya.

“Sino ka ba?! Stop!” Sigaw ni Pearl sa kanya.

“Bakit ka pa bumalik, huh? Malapit na sana kami! Wala kang kwentang kapatid-”

“What the fuck are you talking about?” kalmado pero nagtitimpi kong tanong.

“Alam mo ’yan! Namatay ka na lang sana para hindi ka na makabalik!”

Umawang ang bibig ko at bahagyang nagalit. I took a deep breath before calming myself. I shouldn’t go down on her level… I opened my eyes and looked at her seriously.

“Wala akong pakialam sa’yo at sa mga drama mo sa buhay. If you like him, why don’t you go, continue to chase him like what you always did then? You’re a dog, Anikka. You keep sticking your nose on my life while chasing my husband. Try harder, pathetic bitch,” Mahina kong sabi pero sinigurado kong rinig nya.

“Go, try all your luck so you can be noticed by Azriel. Tingnan natin kung mapapansin ka ba,” sabi ko at ngumisi.

Gulat na napatingin sa akin si Hope at Pearl. They don’t know this issue that I have this crazy step sister. Ang alam lang nila ay asawa ko si Azriel pero alam din nilang hindi na kami nagkikita nito.

Mas lalong pumait ang itsura ni Anikka at umambang susugurin ako. Good thing the guards caught her.

“Walang kwenta kang kapatid at anak!”

“Can you stop?! Kinalimutan ko na nga ang ginawa nyo sa akin ni daddy at wala na akong planong maghiganti. So stop. Just stop before I ruin you and everything you have. If you like my husband, then go. Try everything you can to be noticed by him. I will never hear you again, delusional bitch.”

Nalaglag ang panga nya at galit na galit na sya. Tumalikod na ako matapos banggitin iyon. I feel nothing but hatred towards her. Can’t she just be happy that I’m not doing a revenge? Nakakairita.

“Ma’am,” nag-aalalang tawag ni Hope. I assured her I’m okay by nodding.

“Seleira! Pinatalsik si Papa bilang CEO sa kompanya! Masaya ka na ba?! Hindi na rin ako o sya pwedeng pumasok pa doon!” umiiyak nyang sigaw.

Natigilan ako sa paglalakad.

Dahan dahan ko syang nilingon.

“Oo! Wala na kaming trabaho! Hindi ka ba naawa sa amin?!”

“After everything you’ve both done to me, you think I still care? Anikka, I don’t,” walang emosyon kong sabi. Sinira nila kami.

Her eyes widenend in shock and disappointment.

Kahit ako ay nagulat din sa narinig pero bahala na sila. May suspetya rin akong alam ko kung sino ang nagpalayas sa kanila sa sarili naming kompanya. Someone who is so powerful and rich, maybe, huh.

“Let’s go,” I said and started walking away.

I feel guilty about it. Should I help my father despite of what he did to me? I don’t know.

Sigaw nang sigaw si Anikka pero isinarado ko na ang tainga ko. Nagdasal na lamang akong hindi na ito maging issue pa.

Sa kotse ay si Adonis ang nag-ddrive. Medyo wala tuloy ako sa sarili. Stop, I shouldn’t be bothered about that.

“So what was that?” tanong ni Pearl.

Bumuntong hininga ako. “My step sister.”

“I know. She likes your husband? Yuck! Ahas! Totoo ba? Gigilitan ko sya! Mabuti’t walang media kanina.”

Hindi na ako nagsalita pa dahil ayoko nang pag-usapan. Nakaka-stress lang.

Adonis played a loud music to set a mood. We bang our heads and laugh at each other. Meanwhile, Hope feels tensed. Magkatabi kasi sila doon ni Adonis sa harap. She’s sitting in shotgun seat while Pearl and I are both in the back.

“Adonis, papasok kayo?” tanong ko nang makarating kami.

“Depende po. Dito muna ako,” sagot nya. Tumango ako at sinulyapan si Hope. Si Pearl naman ay naghihintay na sa labas.

“You?”

“Ah, dito na lang din muna ako, ma’am…” mahina nyang sabi at sumulyap sa katabi. Tumaas ang kilay ko at ngumisi.

“Oh, okay. I don’t want the car to be messy, huh. Clean it if you’ll…” makahulugan kong sabi. Namula ang pisngi ni Hope habang tumawa si Adonis.

“Naku, ma’am. Hindi ko gagawin ’yun. Ang bata pa nitong si Hope. Hope, sumama ka do’n,” Adonis said with his low voice. Ako naman ang nagulat at napatingin kay Hope.

Nalukot ang mukha nito bago umiling iling. Adonis is wearing a black muscles shirt and black pants. Nakasumbrero rin ito ng itim. Well, Adonis is a bit playboy.

“Nako, ma’am, ano ba yang pinag-iisip nyo! Mas matanda sa akin itong si Kuya Adonis at parang kapatid ko na,” bawi naman ni Hope.

“Ano? Sinasabi mo bang  hindi ka pumapatol sa mas nakakatanda sayo, ganon? Eh bakit kanina nakita kita nakikipag-usap dun kay Ryan?! Namumula ka pa at mas matanda rin yun sayo!” Inis na sabi naman ni Adonis.

My eyes widened with what he just said. What?! So… gusto rin sya ni Adonis?!

“H-huh? Nag-uusap lang kami. S-saka-”

“Baka gusto mo iyong si Ryan,” supladong sabi ni Adonis.

“Ano?! Hindi! Hindi ko sya gusto, ano ka ba?!”

“Tsk. Sige na, sumama ka na at iwan mo ako dito.”

Gusto kong matawa sa usapan nila. What the heck is happening here exactly?

“D-dito lang ako, Kuya-”

“Huwag mo akong tawaging Kuya.”

Makikinig pa sana ako pero kinatok na ako ni Pearl. Pinanlakihan nya ako ng mata at sumenyas na labas na raw. I pouted and went out. Gusto ko pa ngang makinig sa kanila pero, well… I need to go.

“Ano ba’t ang tagal nyo lumabas? Hindi sila sasama?” Pearl asked innocently while fixing a bit of my hair strands.

Nilabas ko ang tawa kong kanina ko pa pinipigilan. Maybe something will happen there, huh. Huwag naman sana kung hindi seryoso si Adonis kay Hope. Hope is a really nice woman.

“What are you laughing at?” she asked while we’re entering.

Umiling ako at hindi na nagsalita.

May media sa entrance and we both stopped for some pictures before finally going in.

Nakipag-beso ako sa mga kilalang personalidad. Nagpa-picture pa ang iba. I also took pictures with my co-models.

This is just a simple evening party. Maraming waiters na nag-seserve ng drinks for free and also may food area. This party is just basically like a greeting party with some of our fans kaya naboboring ako.

“Girl, dito na ako, huh?” pagpapaalam ni Pearl habang mas ibinababa ang neckline ng suot na dress.

“Yeah,” sagot ko.

Naupo ako matapos batiin ang sandamakmak na tao. Ang daming lalaki! Gusto pang makipag-usap ng matagal ng iba but I quickly but politely dismiss them.

Naging dim ang ilaw at nagsimula ang slow beat ng music.

“Miss Seleira?” a middle aged man approach me. Tumayo ako at pilit na ngumiti.

“Yes,” I said.

Ngumiti sya. Hindi ko na maaninag ang iba pang parte ng mukha nya dahil dim na ang ilaw at matangkad sya.

“Wanna dance?” he asked.

“Uh no. Maybe later,” I said and laugh it off before walking away.

Kumuha ako ng wine sa tray ng isang waiter. Nakakahilo naman ang ilaw dito. I saw some of my co-models are already kissing. I’ll never look at them the same way again.

“Yo,” another man greet, but it’s my co-model.

“Ethan,” I said.

“You were so good earlier, huh. Bagay talagang ikaw ang napipili lagi,” he compliments. I smiled and laugh a bit.

“Thanks.”

“So, uh…”

Another man was trying to dance at my side. Kumunot ang noo ko nang marealize na sinasayawan ako nito. Fuck, this is why I hate going to parties like this.

Sinaway sya ni Ethan at nanghingi naman ito ng paumanhin. I thanked him and walk away.

“Hi, Miss Seleira. I’m Orion from…”

Many businessmen tried to interact with me by telling their company names. Wala naman akong interes. I don’t even know their companies. Hindi naman sa nangmamaliit pero masyado kasi silang nagyayabang kung nagpapakilala.

Nahagip ng tingin ko ang isang lalaking naka-itim na suit at mariin ang titig sa akin.

Parang tumalon ang puso ko nang makita sya. Everything in my system went excited. My heart started beating so fast.

He’s staring at me as if he’s been watching me for too long. His fingers is caresing the body of his wine glass. Fuck, he’s so hot and handsome.

Napalunok ako nang dahan dahan itong maglakad papunta sa akin. Nag-iigting ang panga at gwapong gwapo. Parang naghihintay lang syang makita ko bago sya lumapit.

“Seleira,” he called gently.

Pakiramdam ko ay mahihimatay ako. Why does he always make me feel this way!

He towered over me so I looked up at him.

“Azriel…” mahina kong sambit. “I-I thought I asked for space? What are you doing here?”

I’m trying so hard… para hindi maging marupok. Ang hirap.

“I know,” mahina nyang ring sabi. Napayuko sya at sinulyapan ang kanyang wine bago inumin iyon. Pinanood ko naman ang adam’s apple nya dahil nagkaroon ako ng magandang view no’n.

“I won’t do anything. I-I just want to see you, I’m sorry,” nanlulumo nyang sabi. Umiwas din sya ng tingin sa akin, pilit itinatago ang emosyon.

“Okay,” maikli kong sabi at uminom din sa aking wine. Hindi naman nakatakas sa akin ang pagkasabik at pagmamahal sa mga mata nya. Umiiwas lang sya ng tingin kapag titingnan ko sya sa mga mata.

“You’re shining so bright…” he suddenly said. “You’re so famous and great even when you just started two weeks ago. I’m so proud of you,” malambing nyang sabi.

I bite my lips because I suddenly felt touched. Nag-init ang gilid ng mga mata ko. That’s all I want to hear— that he’s proud of me. His opinion and feelings are the only things that matters to me. Wala ng kahit kanino pa, sa kanya lang.

“I was thinking if I deserve you… I worked harder even more so I can deserve you.”

Umiwas ako ng tingin at pinigil ang ngiti. “I know. Your company has gotten better and even more famous. You did well, too, Azriel.”

Nakagat nya ang labi at napatingala saglit. Pagtingin nya ulit sa akin ay nagpipigil sya ng ngiti. He looks so damn handsome.

“Uh, si Anikka sumugod kanina,” mahina kong sabi. Kumunot naman ang noo nya.

“What did she do? Did she hurt you?” agad nyang mga tanong. Sinuri nya pa ang katawan ko kung may masakit ba. Napalunok sya habang tinitingnan ang katawan ko. Eyes up, Azriel!

“Azriel,” I called. Tumaas naman ang tingin nya at bahagya pang namumula ang tainga. “Wala syang ginawa. She said daddy was kicked out as the CEO and Anikka can’t work there, too. Ano kayang nangyari?”

Nag-iwas sya ng tingin at umigting muli ang kanyang panga. Tinitigan ko iyon and I am so tempted to touch it. Syempre, pinigilan ko.

Hindi sya nagsalita o sumagot. Is this considered guilty? I knew it. He did it.

“Did you do it?” I asked.

He sighed. “I did. Are you mad at me for doing that?”

Umiling ako. He’s afraid of me, getting mad at him, huh.

“I’ve realized Tito Glassifer is working there so… I can’t just destroy it. I hope you’re not mad. They deserve it for doing those bullshits to you,” halo ang galit at pag-aalala sa boses nya.

“Thank you,” I said softly. Lumapit ako sa kanya at dahan dahan syang niyakap. Nanigas sya at hindi kaagad nakagalaw pero maya maya ay niyakap ako pabalik at ibinaon ang mukha sa aking leeg. Naging komportable ako sa init na ipinadarama nya.

“Azriel…” I softly called.

“Hmm?” he asked with his low voice. I bit my lips when he started planting soft kisses on my neck.

“Have y-you caught those teenagers?” I asked. Hindi sya agad nakasagot dahil busy sa paghalik sa akin. Hindi naman ako nag-aalala dahil dim na ang ilaw kaya wala nang makakakita sa amin.

Humiwalay ako at agad nya akong tiningnan. Mukha syang bitin dahil nakaawang pa ang kanyang labi.

Naglakad ako papunta sa sofa sa isang corner. Umupo ako at tumabi sya kaagad sa akin. Hinarap pa ako at inilagay ang magkabilang braso sa magkabilaang gilid ko, kinukulong ako. Ang bilis tuloy ng tibok ng puso ko lalo.

“I said what about those teenagers? What did you do?”

“They’re jailed two weeks ago.”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Impossible! “How?! That fast? Nahanap nyo?”

“I have my ways. Binangga ka’t iniwanan tapos hindi makukulong dahil sa edad? Not with my wife involved. Fucking not,” nanggigil nyang saad. Dinilaan ko ang labi ko at agad syang napatingin doon.

“Ano nang mangyayari kina daddy kung ganoon?”

“I don’t know. I don’t care,” he said and kiss my neck again. I giggled and play with his hair.

“Azriel,” malambing kong tawag. I slant my neck to give him more access.

“Don’t put marks. I have runaways next week,” paalala ko. He groaned before pulling my waist closer to him.

“Fine,” he whispered.

“Azriel, stop. Baka may makakita,” I said and pushed him softly. Humiwalay naman sya at pinasadahan ng dila ang kanyang labi.

“They already know I’m your husband,” he said.

“I know! Nakakahiya pa rin,” sabi ko habang inaayos ang damit. Pinanonood nya naman ako.

Fuck, tumino ka, Seleira! Nasaan na ang space na sinasabi mo?

Nilingon ko ang paligid at baka may pasimpleng nakakakita sa amin dito.

“Baby,” malambing nyang tawag, nanghihingi ng atensyon.

“What?” namumula kong tanong.

“Can I kiss you, please? I won’t put marks I promise,” he begged. Why is he like that? He’s always dying to kiss me!

Tinitigan ko sya at hinaplos ang pisngi nya. Napapikit sya at mas lalong isiniksik ang malaking katawan sa akin. I laughed a bit, he’s like a cat.

“Can I kiss you?” he asked. Pulang pula na siguro ako ngayon kung nakikita ko lamang ang sarili ko.

“Fine,” nakangisi kong sagot. Agad nya akong hinalikan sa labi. Ang lambot ng labi nya! Mabuti at kiss-proof ang inilagay na lipstick ni Hope. Speaking of Hope, nandoon pa rin ba sila sa kotse?!

“Azriel,” I called gently. He’s now busy kissing my neck and collarbones. Unti unti tuloy akong nag-iinit. Malamig ang paligid dahil sa sandamakmak na aircon pero pimapainit ako ng asawa ko. Wth!

“Sleep with me tonight, wife,” he whispered before kissing my ears. I giggled because it tickles me.

“Wife,” tawag nya ulit.

“Hmm?” natutuwa kong tanong.

“Let’s sleep together tonight, please?”

I pouted and made my hands roam in his chest. Umawang ang bibig nya at pinagmasdan iyon. I playfully hold his tie before looking up at him.

“I love you,” malambing nyang sabi. I am shock but I just giggle. He chuckled with his low voice before squeezing me.

“Azriel!” mahina kong tili nang kilitiin nya ang bewang ko. His laugh with his low manly voice drives me crazy!

“Let’s sleep in my condo,” he said. Umirap ako kahit natatawa. Sleep lang?

“I have photoshoot tomorrow for Hera Make up brand,” nakangisi kong sagot. Hinalikan nya ang magkabila kong pisngi. We’re just basically here, cuddling in the dark.

“Ihahatid kita, anong oras? Sasama ako. Sabay tayong magtanghalian. What else is in your schedule tomorrow?” medyo sumeryoso sya. Inayos ko ang strap ng dress ko na nahulog kakahalik nya bago sumagot.

“Why? Don’t you have work? Sasama ka?!” tanong ko.

“I did bunch of works today so I can come here tonight. I’m also free for tomorrow,” paliwanag nya at muli akong hinapit. Ipinatong ko ang binti ko sa matigas nyang binti. Hinaplos nya iyon at mas idiniin sa kanya.

“So soft,” he commented. Nagulat ako nang yumuko sya at hinalik-halikan yun.

“Stop! You always kiss everything of me!” Natatawa kong sabi. Umangat sya at sumiksik muli sa leeg ko.

“Sleep with me tonight and let me accompany you tomorrow, please…” pag-uulit nya. Ngumiti ako dahil sa nadarama.

“Hmm fine,” pag-sang ayon ko. Space space pala, Seleira, huh.

“Fuck yes,” bulong nya at ramdam ko ang ngiti nya sa aking leeg. Niyakap ko na lamang ang leeg nya at pinaglaruan ang kanyang buhok.

“I miss you, baby. I miss you so much. Did you miss me, too? I was so busy the past weeks for both you and me.”

He was busy, syempre, hinahanap nya iyong mga nakabangga sa akin at pag-aasikaso ng kanyang ginawa kina Daddy at Anikka. He also said he’s busy improving his company so he can deserve me. Deserve nya na ako. Ako nga itong parang hindi deserving sa kanya.

“I miss you, too, Azriel,” malambing kong sabi. Hinigpitan nya ang yakap at halos mapisat na ako. I giggled and he just chuckle happily.

We ditched the party. Hindi ko na rin mahagilap pa si Pearl. Sa parking lot ay hinanahap ko ang SUV namin.

“Hey!” sigaw ko habang kumakatok sa bintana.

Bumaba iyon at si Adonis lamang ang nasa loob. Ang lakas pa ng tugtog nya.

“Si Hope?” tanong ko.

“Pumasok, ma’am, ah?”

“Huh? I can’t find her. Why did you let her in alone?” medyo nag-aalala kong tanong. “Baka madali sya ng mga lalaki do’n. You know she’s innocent, Adonis!”

Nataranta sya at agad pinatay ang tugtog. He get his things and opened the door.

“Wife,” tawag naman nitong si Azriel. Gumapang din ang kanyang kamay sa aking bewang.

“Uh, hahanapin ko po, ma’,am… Sir,” bumati rin sya kay Azriel bago tumalikod at tumakbo.

“Let’s go?” atat nyang bulong sa aking tainga. Nakiliti pa ako dahil sumayad ang kanyang labi sa aking tainga.

“Yeah. Let’s just sleep in your condo,” I playfully said.

Humigpit ang hawak nya sa aking bewang habang naglalakad papuntang kotse nya.

“Sleep it is,” he answered in a mocking tone.

Chapter 35

Moods

I’m naked under the sheets with him. Azriel is the scammer and I am the willing victim.

Naalimpungatan ako ngayong madaling araw. Medyo malamig pa dahil hindi pa sumisikat ang araw. Mabuti na lamang ay yakap yakap ako ni Azriel mula sa likod.

Napangiti ako at dahan dahang gumalaw para harapin sya. He groaned unconciously as he pull me closer. Isiniksik pa nya lalo ang mukha sa aking leeg.

I can’t see him since it’s so dark. All I can feel is his hard body hugging mine.

“Hubby…” I called softly.

I caress his hard jaw. He looks so handsome in his sleep, and also hot because he’s literally naked under this blanket.

Mas binalot ko pa ang katawan ko ng puting kumot. I giggled and bite his arm which made him groan but he’s still asleep though. His member is poking the side of my thigh. It’s huge and really warm.

Bumangon ako kahit na mahirap dahil grabe ang paglingkis nya sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako naalimpungatan ngayon, eh, sa tingin ko katutulog ko lang din. We slept very late because we did several rounds and also, we took another hour for cuddling. Mahimbing na mahimbing tuloy ang tulog nya.

I tried reaching for my phone at the bed side table but a sleepy Azriel caught me again.

“Hey,” natatawa kong saway.

“Hmmm…”

“Wait lang,” sabi ko at tuluyan nang inabot ’yun. Tumayo muna ako para i-check ang phone. I got messages from Pearl, Hope, and some people.

Pearl:

See u tom. Nakadalawa ako tonight.

Hope:

Ma’am, nasaan po kayo? Sinubukan ko kayo hanapin kanina kaso dumating itong si Kuya Adonis at galit pa sa akin. May kausap lang naman akong lalaki tapos galit na galit na. Hindi ko naman alam bakit gano’n si Kuya Adonis.

Hope:

Tawag po ako bukas, ma’am.

Adonis:

Ano oras ko po kayo i-pick up bukas sa condo nyo, ma’am?

Isa-isa ko silang nireplyan. May mga staff din na naghahanap sa akin kagabi dahil may mga gustong magpa-litrato o makausap ako. I just said I left because I was not feeling okay. Si Azriel kasi, atat na atat magpunta kami dito, akala mo kung anong gagawin.

Azriel groaned and tried finding me in the bed with his eyes closed. Nakakatuwa syang tingnan. Kinagat ko ang labi ko dahil sa nararamdamang kilig, baka tumili ako rito.

Naawa naman ako at humiga na muli. He quickly hug me and bury his face on my neck as he smell me. Niyakap ko na lang sya pabalik at dinama ang init nya hanggang sa makatulog muli.

I just woke up with him, kissing me all over my face like a dog. Dumilat ako at nakitang kagigising lang din nya. Hindi pa sya bumangon at nanlalambing lang.

“What time is it?” paos kong tanong.

“Seven in the morning, wife. Good morning,” he greets with his husky low voice.

“Good morning, hubby,” bati ko naman sa maliit na boses.

He kissed me again in my forehead. Nakangiti na sya ngayon at tila ang ganda ganda ng gising at mood nya. Hinapit pa ako lalo at pinatungan ng binti. Hinampas ko naman iyon.

“Mabigat,” sabi ko habang nakangisi.

“Baby me, please…” nanlalambing nyang sabi at humalik-halik sa leeg ko.

I laughed, he’s so cute! “Huh? Ang laki laki mo na, nagpapa-baby ka pa?” natutuwa kong tanong.

“I’m your baby, Seleira,” pamimilit nya at pinisil ang bewang ko. Natawa ako lalo sa kanya.

“Hindi ’no. Walang baby na malaki!”

He groaned and bit my neck softly. Tumili ako at natawa. “No!”

Hinila ko ang isang hibla ng buhok sa dibdib nya bilang paghihiganti.

“Fuck,” nakangisi nyang mura. Pinantayan nya ang tingin ko bago ako halikan. He did his revenge by biting my lower lip.

“Hubby!” saway ko. Maya maya ay umangat ang kamay nyang mula sa aking bewang pataas sa aking dibdib. Pinamulahan ako at agad syang hinampas at lumayo.

“Wala ako n’yan! Wala kang mahahawakan!”

He chuckled lowly before pulling me closer again. “I want them. They’re small, soft and pink,” komento nya at ngumisi.

Ang kulit talaga ng isang ’to! Natatawa na lang din ako sa kanya.

“Azriel, ’yung ano mo sa hita ko…” sabi ko at itinutulak sya.

“My what?” painosente nyang tanong at nangisi.

“Tsk! You know naman, eh!” iritado kong sabi. Tumawa sya at lumapit na naman. Pulang pula na siguro ako ngayon.

We spent another 30 minutes just for cuddling in bed!

“It’s hard every morning…” he whispered. Nagsitayuan naman ang mga balahibo ko.

“Ang kulit mo talaga! Puro lambingan at kabalastugan ang nasa isip mo!” Natatawa kong sabi.

“Ikaw lang nasa isip ko, ah?” nakangisi nyang balik. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at pinaghahampas sya.

“Stop,” natatawa nyang sabi habang hinuhuli ang mga kamay ko. Kainis na bolerong ’to!

Natigil lamang kami sa lambingan nang tumunog ang cellphone ko.

“I have to take it, baka si Hope na,” sabi ko. He kissed me one more time before letting me go.

Umupo ako at kinuha ang tumutunog na cellphone. It’s Hope.

“Hello?” Bati ko. Iniipit ko sa tainga at balikat ang phone dahil ipinupusod ko ang aking buhok.

“Hello, ma’am! Good morning. Hindi kayo sumabay sa amin kagabi. Sabi ni Kuya Adonis sumama raw po kayo sa asawa nyo, ma’am?” she said in the line.

“Y-yeah, I’m with my husband,” sagot ko. Azriel, being Azriel, hugged me from the back. Heck, his friend down there is still poking me! Sumandal na lang ako sa kanya at hinayaan syang paglaruan ang lace ng aking suot na pang-ibaba.

“Hmm… So, sa studio na po tayo magkikita ma’am? 10 AM po ah. Dadalhan ko po kayo ng lunch?”

“Yup, sa studio na. I also texted Adonis a while ago not to pick me. Wait…”

Nilingon ko si Azriel at tumingin naman sya sa akin gamit ang kanyang malambot na ekspresyon.

“Saan tayo maglu-lunch mamaya?” I asked. He kissed my cheek before answering.

“I don’t know yet. I’ll still have to book us for later,” he answered.

Tumango ako bago kausapin muli si Hope. “No need. Kakain kami sa labas.”

“Oh, okay, ma’am! Paalala lang po, ’wag na kayo mag-apply ng kahit anong make up since memake-upan ka rin doon.”

“Okay. Si Pearl?” tanong ko. Ang batok ko naman ang pinagdiskitahan ni Azriel. Pinaghahalikan nya kaya panay ang paalala kong ’wag na ’wag syang mag-iiwan ng kung ano dyan.

“I’ll cook our breakfast,” he suddenly said. I told him to stay quiet but he’s just so shameless.

“Uh… pupunta rin syempre, ma’am.”

“Okay. I’ll bring my husband, by the way.”

Azriel whispered something to me which made me giggle. Ang kulit talaga. Hindi tuloy agad nakapag-salita si Hope.

“O-okay, ma’am. I-iitext ko si Adonis.”

Ibinaba ko na ang phone at tinext si Pearl para sabihing gising na ako. Lagi akong binobomba ng mga tawag nyan tuwing umaga dahil takot na takot ma-late ako.

“What do you want? Pancakes or waffles?” tanong nya habang patuloy sa paglalandi sa akin. Inirapan ko sya pero naglalambing lang naman syang nakatitig.

“Kahit ano. Maliligo na muna ako,” sabi ko at natigilan. “Azriel, my clothes? I don’t have clothes…”

He caress my naked tummy as if there’s a baby in it. “Later. I just texted Franco.”

Kumunot agad ang noo ko. “How will he know m-my size?”

“I know, I told him,” malambing nya pa ring sagot. Nang tingnan ko sya sa mata ay namumungay ang mga ito at halatang turned on na naman. His member is also a bit erect.

“How did you know?!” taranta kong tanong.

“Baby, why do you have so many questions? I touched them, of course…” he said lovingly at dahan dahan akong hiniga at pinatungan. My eyes widened both because of what he said and what he’s doing.

“Azriel! We j-just did it last night,” utal utal kong sabi. Fuck, he’s naked on top of me.

“I know. I can’t get enough of you.” He started kissing my collarbones. “Can I do you again, wife?” atat nyang tanong. His voice is also getting huskier and huskier.

Kinagat ko ang labi ko at pinaalalang huwag maging marupok. Damn it, Seleira, kagabi nyo lang ’to ginawa!

“What’s your reason you always want to do me, Azriel hmm? Anong binabalak mo?” malisosya at nakangisi kong tanong. He chuckled a bit but he didn’t answer. What the hell is he up to?!

Ibinuka nya ang dalawa kong hita at iginitna ang sarili nya. He’s more erect now. Sa bawat haplos nya ay para akong sinisilaban. I’m not going to be late, okay… 10 AM pa.

“Azriel…” malambing kong tawag. “Male-late tayo.”

“I’ll make it quick,” sabi nya habang busyng-busy sa ginagawa.

Nakakabaliw. Hindi ko rin mapigilan dahil  nararamdaman ko ang nararamdaman nya. Ang tagal kasi naming hindi nagkita kaya miss na miss ko rin sya. Marupok na kung marupok, Azriel is just so hard to resist. If you’re in my shoes, talagang bibigay ka rin.

We ended up both in the warm tub. This is so relaxing after making love again with him. Minsan nahihiya ako sa kanya kada tapos because I always remember myself moaning and calling his name. Nakakahiya talaga.

“How about our breakfast?” I asked softly. Sumandal ako sa kanyang dibdib habang ang kamay nya ay namamahinga sa aking tyan.

“It’s 8:30… Should I cook or just call for food?” he asks while kissing my hair. Hinawakan ko ang kamay nyang nasa tyan ko at hinaplos iyon. It’s huge and veiny, as well. It also feels rough

“Please cook, hubby,” I said and looked up to him. Mabilis nya naman akong pinatakan ng halik bago sya tumango.

Hindi na kami nagtagal dahil baka mahuli ako. We showered at the same time and I made my walls strong. Hindi na pwedeng may mangyari pa ulit sa amin. Nagbihis na sya sa banyo habang ako ay naka-bathrobe lang dahil wala pang damit.

I stared at my handsome husband. He looks and smell so good. He’s wearing his usual black pants and black longsleeves polo that is folded until his elbows. Nakasuklay din nang maayos ang buhok at nilagyan nya ng gel.

Gosh, he’s so ruthless and handsome! Ang bango bango pa! Ang tangkad nya rin at mukhang malakas. I will never stop fantasizing about him.

“What? You want more?” He asks playfully as he makes his way to me. Nataranta tuloy ako at hindi agad nakagalaw.

Mabilis nya akong nahapit. “Azriel!”

“What? You’re the one who stares at me too much,” mayabang nyang saad kaya inirapan ko.

He gave me one kiss in the lips while his hands are on my waist.

“I love you,” he said in the middle of the kiss. “You’re the most beautiful, wife. And damn, you’re sexy as fuck. Do I deserve you?”

I giggled and pinch him softly. “Bolero! Ang landi mo, Azriel!”

Tinawanan ko sya at kumalas na. Hay, nakakabaliw makasama si Azriel. He’s just so much in for cuddles and kisses. Gusto ko rin pero sya ay mukhang adik doon.

Nang dumating si Franco ay binuhat ni Azriel ang mga paperbags papunta sa kwarto. He said he’ll cook while I’m getting ready so I went in and locked the door. Ang daming paperbags at iba iba ang brands.

I just pick the Prada one since I’m one of their ambassaddress. It’s a color purple puffsleeves dress. Tamang tama sa size ko pati underwears!

Pinarisan ko na lamang iyon ng itim na 3-inches heels. Kahit mag-heels ako ay mas matangkad pa rin sa akin si Azriel kaya ayos lang.

I blowdried my hair after and just applied my sunblock and nothing more. This morning, I have a photoshoot for Hera Korean Make Up brand so I don’t have to do my make up right now.

Sa hapon ay mayroon akong photoshoot ulit, but it’s for the front page of Mackénzie, an international brand of magazines about women style and life. Isasama ko na lang si Azriel since mapilit sya about doon. Wala rin namang kaso sa akin. Mabuti na rin para walang kung sino sinong lalaki ang lumalapit sa akin.

It’s gross how men would leave women alone only if she has a man. They respect her man more than the woman herself. Have you experienced that? You can’t get catcalled if you have a man with you, but you will if you’re alone. That sucks and that needs to be stopped. Most men are indeed trash.

Lumabas na ako matapos mag-apply ng perfume. I walked to his kitchen and I saw him putting the well-cooked pancakes in a plate. Umupo ako at ininuman ang gatas na katitimpla lang.

“Saan na si Franco?” tanong ko at ibinaba ang baso.

Kumunot ang noo nya at napatingin sa akin.

“Why are you asking?”

Kumunot din ang noo ko sa kanya. “I just want to know since nandito sya kanina.”

“Tss. Umalis na,” suplado nyang sabi at iniwasan ako ng tingin. Sunod nyang inilapag ang fresh cherry tomatoes. Agad ko iyong kinuhaan at kinain.

“Sabi mo hindi ka na magiging seloso?” nakangisi kong tanong habang ngumunguya. Hindi naman sya sumagot at nanatiling seryoso sa ginagawa. Inilalapag nya naman ngayon ang scrambled eggs at toasts.

“Seloso,” pag-uulit ko.

“I can’t stop it,” seryoso nyang sabi habang nakangiti lang ako dahil sa inaakto nya. Titig na titig sya sa akin at itinukod ang dalawang kamay sa mesa.

“Nagseselos ka pa, eh ilang beses mo na akong naangkin!” I playfully said. A side of his lips rose… then he bit his lower lip.

“Tss,” pagsusungit nya pero hindi na mapigilan ang ngiti.

Matapos ilapag ang lahat ay umupo sya sa upuang katabi ko. Ipinagdikit nya pa iyon nang sobra.

“Finish your milk,” he said. Tumango ako at sumubo ng piraso ng pancake.

I can’t eat all of this piece. Masarap pa naman pero talagang hindi pwede. Naririnig ko na ang sigaw ni Pearl sa utak ko na hindi ako pwedeng kumain ng marami dahil isa akong model. Hindi naman ako tumataba!

“Baby…” Ayan na naman. Hindi mapakali kung hindi nabibigyan ng atensyon.

“Hmm?” I asks while chewing my food. He didn’t answer, he just tapped his thigh, telling me to sit on him.

Nag-init ang pisngi ko pero tumayo na rin. Inalalayan nya akong makaupo sa kanya. Agad nya akong niyakap mula sa likod habang ipinatong naman ang ulo sa aking balikat.

I made myself comfortable while sitting. Shocks, baka maging kaamoy ko sya. I’ll smell like Azriel! I don’t mind though. Sobrang bango nya kaso nga lang, manly ang amoy nya. Isn’t it weird for me to smell like that?

Sinubuan ko sya ng piraso ng pancake na ikinatuwa nya. Tuwing naiisip ko ang mga pagkukulang ko sa kanya, parang gusto ko na lang syang iwan para makahanap sya ng mas deserving, but then… I can be better to deserve him, right? Tulad ng ginawa nya. He said he changed so he can deserve me. I think I can do that for him, too.

After eating, we both brushed our teeth. Nakarating kami sa studio ng alas nuebe i-media na.

“Sina Pearl at Hope?” Tanong ko kay Adonis na syang nakita ko sa parking lot.

“Nasa may main entrance lang, ma’am. Itetext ko na po.”

“Okay, thank you,” I said and look at the other side, to Azriel.

“Let’s go, hubby,” I said. He nods and put his arm on my waist. Pinagtitinginan tuloy kami. Mabuti at mahigpit ang security dito’t walang media.

Nilakad namin papunta sa entrance. Ang lawak kasi nito masyado. Mabuti at mahangin lamang at hindi mainit.

“Stop!” Saway ko at tumawa. Umaabot kasi sa tyan ko ang kamay nya tapos ginagalaw nya iyon kaya nakikiliti ako. Hindi talaga mailugar ni Azriel ang kaharutan nya!

“I love your tummy,” he suddenly said out of the blue. Kumunot ang noo ko sa kanya at natatawang lumayo.

“You’re a weirdo.”

“No, really, I love your tummy, baby…” he repeats. What the heck is wrong with my husband? Ano bang pinagsasabi nito?!

“Stop being weird, Azriel!”

He smirked before pulling me closer again while we’re walking. Hinalikan nya ang sintindo ko bago may ibulong.

“Can we make love again when we’re home, wife?” he whispered which sent shivers down my spine. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at hinampas sya.

“You addict, we just did it last night and this morning!” hindi makapaniwala at natatawa kong sabi.

He chuckled a bit. “Just making sure.”

Kumunot muli ang noo ko at hindi sya naintindihan. Hindi na ako nakasagot dahil sinalubong na ako ni Hope.

“Good morning, ma’am! Good morning, Sir!” masigla nyang bati at kinuha ang dala kong bag para sya ang magbitbit. She’s wearing her usual white printed shirt and some pants. May clip din sa kanyang buhok at suot suot ang medium sized sling bag. That bag has everything in it! Napkins, biscuits, tubig, powder, make up, tissue, wet wipes, towel and literally everything I’ll need.

“Where’s Pearl?” I asked.

“Nasa loob na, ma’am. Hmmm,” sinuri ako ni Hope at bahagya pang iginilid ang iilang strand ng buhok ko.

“Iba ata ang glow nyo, ma’am?” she suddenly said. My eyes widened defensively.

“H-huh? Hindi naman.”

“Oo, ma’am. Anong ginawa mo?” inosente nyang tanong.

“Wala ah!” Taranta kong sagot at sinulyapan si Azriel. Nakatingin lang sya sa akin at may multo ng ngiti sa labi. Inirapan ko na agad.

“Oo, talagang meron, ma’am. Nagpalit kayo ng facial wash, ano?”

Hindi ko na sya sinagot at sinabing tumuloy na kami. Hindi na rin naman sya nang-usisa pa.

Azriel held my hand while we’re walking. Ang bilis tuloy ng tibok ng puso ko. My hands is so small so his large rough hand is holding the entire of it.

“Good morning, ma’am Seleira!”

“Morning po!”

“Looking pretty po, ma’am!”

“Omg! Good morning po, Mr. Nickolson!”

“Good morning, Mr. Nickolson!”

“Andito pala asawa ni ma’am!”

“Bumabakod ata.”

Tumango lang ako at ngumiti sa mga bumabati. They already know me since this isn’t the first time I’ll have a photoshoot of my endorsment for Hera Make Up. I’ve met the amorepacic group last week, which is the owner of this brand. They’re all koreans but they can speak English.

“Ma’am, Sir, this way po…” a staff lead our way. Nauuna pa ngang maglakad sa amin si Hope.

“Do you take my surname in your model name?” he asked, sobrang lapit pa ng bibig  sa aking tainga.

“Yeah…”

Hindi na sya sumagot at naramdaman kong hinigpitan nya ang hawak sa kamay ko. Nang lingunin ko ay nag-iwas sya ng tingin. He’s really indeed a weirdo.

“Seleira, oh my, the prettiest princess!” Ngumiti ako sa kanya at tinanggap ang yakap gamit ang isang kamay dahil hawak ni Azriel ang isa.

“You’re glowing!” puri nya at napatingin sa lalaking nasa likod ko. Gumalaw ang labi nya at humalakhak.

“I see, I see, why you’re glowing! You’re with your husband!”

Nagtawanan kaming dalawa. She’s one of the heads here and she’s a bit friendlier to me than the others.

Kinalabit nya ang isang staff. “Tell Tara to prepare, Seleira will then go to the make up room.”

Tumango iyong pinagsabihan nya. Tara is a make up artist here. Ngumiti sya muli sa akin.

“Mr. Nickolson, your wife is very pretty and always the one wanted by the audiences and fans! If she endorse it, like last week, the product she endorsed will end up sold out in shops quickly!”

Ngumiti ako at bahagyang nahiya ngunit na-touch din. Parang may humaplos sa aking puso sa tuwing may pumupuri sa akin.

“Yeah, she’s so beautiful and talented. I’m so proud of her,” Azriel then added.

Praises from him just hits different. Sumandal ako sa kanya saglit dahil sa nadarama. I just love Azriel’s presence so much.

We walked to the make up room for my make up. After this, beside the fee, I’ll also get a bunch of their make up products.

“Your manager is inside,” she said to which I nodded.

“Azriel, where will you wait?” I asked.

“Can I watch you while doing your photoshoot?” balik nyang tanong. Nilingon ko sya at punong puno naman ng adorasyon ang mga mata nya ngayon. He looks so interested.

“Uh, can he watch the shoot?” I asked her.

“Yup, of course! You can also just wait for there, too, Mr. Nickolson, a staff will prepare a sit and some drinks.”

Iyon nga ang nangyari. Habang mine-make upan ako ay dada naman nang dada sa akin si Pearl. Si Hope ay tahimik lamang na nakaupo.

“Kasi naman, hindi pa naman masama ang pakiramdam mo nun ah?” sumbat nya.

I stared at her lips with very vibrant purple lipstick.

“Sumama nga talaga…” dahilan ko at pumikit dahil nilalagyan ako ng eyeshadow. Light lang naman since lipstick lamang nila ang i-eendorso ko.

“Weh? Ang sabi ni Adonis, sumama ka kay Mr. Nickolson! Naku! Ang gwapo gwapo at yaman ng asawa mo kaya siguro hindi mo nahindian ano?”

Pabiro ko syang sinipa.

“Gaga!”

“True naman. By the way, ano na namang kinagagalit nitong si Adonis kaninang umaga, ha, Hope? Ang aga aga, badtrip sa sasakyan.”

Mukhang nabuhayan si Hope dahil sa biglang tanong.

“H-huh? Hindi ko alam…”

“Speaking of, I read your text this early morning. Nagalit sayo si Adonis kasi naabutan kang may kausap?” tanong ko.

“Uh… oo.”

“Oooh,” humaba ang nguso ni Pearl at makahulugan akong tiningnan. Sinuklian ko naman sya ng ngisi.

“Lalaki?” tanong nya.

“Uh, oo.”

Tatawa sana ako kaso baka mahirapan ang make up artist.

“What exactly happened?” tanong ko na lang.

Ngumuso sya. “Kasi naman… pumasok ako ng party tapos may kumausap sa akin. Edi kinausap ko rin… niyayaya nya ako umalis kaso naabutan kami ni Adonis. Hinila nya ako tapos galit na galit sya…”

Kinagat ko ang labi ko bago sya paulanan ng tanong.

“Hmm tapos?”

“Tapos pinasakay nya na ako…”

“Kanino?” tanong naman ni Pearl kaya pinandilatan ko sya.

“Huh?” nalilitong tanong ni Hope. “Pinasakay sa sasakyan.”

“Tapos?”

“Tapos sabi nya bakit daw ako nakikipag-usap sa kung sino-sinong lalaki… sabi ko naman wala syang pakialam!” nagalit bigla ang ekspresyon nya. She’s so cute. “Tapos tinawag ko syang ‘Kuya Adonis!’”

Nagtawanan kami pero mabilis din akong huminto. Si Pearl naman ay natatawa pa rin pero si Hope ay naka-ekis ang mga braso at galit ang ekspresyon. Medyo namumula tuloy ang pisngi nya.

“Tapos?”

“Tapos sabi nya iuuwi na kita tapos ayon… Hindi na sya ulit umimik. Inimbitahan pa nga ni nanay sa loob pero magalang syang humindi.”

I pouted. It’s clear as the sky that they both like each other. Itong si Adonis, seloso! Ito namang si Hope ay walang kamalay-malay sa mundo.

“He likes you, you dumbass!” Pearl concluded and laughed.

“Huh? Wala naman syang sinabing ganon.”

“Tss. Gusto ka no’n kaya nga ayaw magpatawag ng kuya!” sulsol ko naman.

Bumuntong hininga sya, tila problemado at hindi naniniwala. She cupped her face before talking again.

“Tapos sabi nya kaninang umaga nang sunduin nya ako, may pupuntahan daw kami mamayang gabi…” problemado nyang sabi.

My eyes widened as well as Pearl’s.

“Oh my gosh! Baka may balak ’yun sayo!” Natatawang sabi nito. “Shit, mag-shave ka!”

Kahit ang make up stylist ay mahinang natawa. Ako naman ay napanganga lang.

“Huh? Anong shave ka dyan… Natatakot akong patayin nya ako sa sobrang galit nya kagabi. Kaya nga isasama ko si Mikoy para may panangga ako…”

I sip on my starbucks as I let Pearl question her instead.

“Sinong Mikoy?!”

“Matalik kong kaibigan. Kilala ’yun ni Adonis kasi naglalagi sya sa amin. Nagagalit nga lang sya at hindi ako kikibuin kapag nakikitang magkasama kami ni Mikoy. Hays, hindi ko sya maintindihan!” sumimangot sya.

Pearl laughed again. I just smirked. Adonis is probably close to her mom, huh. Naglalagi raw sa bahay nila tapos nagagalit sa best friend nya. Of course, he’s jealous!

Naiwan ko na sila nang kailangan ko nang magbihis.

I’ll endorse this red lipstick. Tiningnan ko ang salamin at satisfied naman ako sa aking itsura.

I wore a white crop top with HERA printed. For my shorts, it’s a red korean style short. It’s basically just simple. Magpapalit din ako mamaya for different shots.

We three went back to the room where the photoshoot will take place. Maraming staffs at mukhang ayos na ang mga camera at lighting.

Hinanap agad ng mga mata ko ang asawa ko. He’s there, standing while other girl endorsers are flocking to him! Kumulo agad ang dugo ko. Nagsasalita rin sya at mukhang sumasagot sa mga ito habang nananatiling seryoso.

Pumikit ako dahil sa inis. Kinausap pa ako ng isang staff para sabihin kung anong pose ba ang kailangan tapos yung iba ay pwedeng sarili ko na lang. Tumango ako at pilit na ngumiti.

They said 5 minutes and the shoot will start. Hindi ako lumapit kay Azriel pero nakita kong lalapit sya sa akin.

“Baby,” he called. Hinapit agad ang bewang ko kahit na maraming tao. Iyong mga kausap nya ay insekyora nang nakatingin sa amin ngayon.

“What? Mag-sstart na,” sabi ko at palihim na umirap.

He quickly kiss my cheek as if we’re the only ones here. “I love you. I’ll watch you,” he said and excitement is heard in his voice. However, nawala ako sa mood dahil sa nadatnan ko.

“Maybe you like those girls more,” sabi ko sa maliit na boses. Nag-iinit agad ang gilid ng mga mata ko sa selos. I said I won’t be childish and jealous, but I just can’t help it. I need a very long time to master the art of knowing what to ignore and not being jealous.

“What?” gulat nyang tanong. Agad nya akong hinapit at pinaghahalikan ang noo ko. “Baby, they just asked me… No need to be jealous, please…”

“Just go b-back to them. My job will start-”

“No,” matigas nyang sabi. He cupped my face and kissed both of my eyes. Tiningala ko sya at nakangiti pa sya na parang natutuwa sa kung ano. Mas lalo akong nagalit!

“Ano ba,” madiin kong sabi. “You’re so happy with this, huh? Many girls for you,” akusa ko.

Napamura sya at umiling. “I’m sorry, you’re just so cute being jealous. You want me, hmm? My baby only wants me for herself, huh…” tuwang tuwa nyang sabi at napamura pa habang ako dito ay naiinis na.

“Shut up, hubby,” inis kong sabi. He just chuckled and hug me. Pinaghahalikan pa ako at bahagyang pinisil sa gigil nya.

“Don’t be jealous, please… I’ll kiss you in front of them.”

Nakakainis talaga sya! Pumikit ako nang halikan nya ako. I pouted after the kiss so he gave me more. Nahiya lamang ako sa ibang staff na nakatingin pero nang tingnan ko ay dali dali silang nag-iwas ng tingin.

Sina Pearl ay nakangisi sa akin habang kumakain ng chips at prenteng nakaupo sa isang monoblock.

Maayos na ako nang magsimula. Tumigil na rin ang mga babae na nagpapapansin sa kanya. That’s right, he’s married to me!

“There, there, there,” the photographer said.

I made my posture nice and looked straightly at the camera with the lipstick on my hand. Next shot, I put my hands inside my pocket and smiled a bit. Tuloy tuloy ang shots kaya hindi pwedeng iisang pose lang.

Then I pouted and raise my one foot in a sassy way. Next shot and I bit the lipstick while making the look a bit sexier.

“Yas, that’s it, Seleira! Make it even more sexier, dear!”

I did as she say. Hindi ko alam at mas ganado ako gayong nanonood sa akin si Azriel. Sinulyapan ko sya at nakaawang ang kanyang bibig habang tulala sa akin. Mas ginaganahan tuloy ako.

Pumalakpak ang head at tumigil kami.

“You’re so good! Very very natural!” puri nya. Ngumiti ako at bahagyang hinawi ang buhok.

“There’s so many good shots, ma’am. Kayo na lang po pumili,” sabi naman ng photographer at tiningnan ang head.

I have to change outfit for the next. I’ll wear a red off shoulder dress for this.

“10 minutes and we’ll start again, everyone!” sigaw ng isa.

Nakangiti akong lumapit kay Azriel. Nag-iigting ang panga nya at bahagyang seryoso. Ano na naman kaya ang nasa isip nito?

“You’re damn good as hell,” he said. Hindi pa ako nakakalapit ng tuluyan ay tinawag na ako.

“Seleira, mamaya na ang lambingan. Bihis na raw!” Sabi ni Pearl at humalakhak.

Mabilis akong kumaway sa seryosong si Azriel bago tumalikod. Tinanong ko kung nasaan si Hope at sabi nya’y bumaba raw. Baka kitain nya si Adonis.

I wore the dress and just continue the shoot. Tumagal kami dahil nakailang palit ako ng damit. Si Azriel ay seryosong seryoso akong pinapanood. Halos hindi na makausap. Gusto ko sanang humalakhak kaso masisira ang theme.

Pawis na pawis ako nang matapos kahit na aircon naman. May mga props din tulad ng upuan, a red balloon, and such. This job is no joke. Nakakapagod din.

Nagpalakapakan sila at ngumiti ako’t nag-bow. Pinuri ako nang sobra sobra at nakakataba ng puso. We also took some pictures with staffs, solo man o group pic.

Si Hope ay agad akong pinunasan ng bimpo pagkatapos. Pinainom nya rin ako ng malamig tubig.

“Galing mo! Laki ng talent fee sayo!” sabi ni Pearl.

“Bihis ka na, ma’am,” Sabi naman ni Hope.

“Yup.”

Lumapit si Azriel na nagpipigil lang ng ngiti. He gently pull me to him for a swift kiss which made Pearl groan dramatically.

“Let’s take a picture, wife.”

Kinuha ni Pearl ang phone ni Azriel at medyo lumayo sya. Inilagay ni Azriel ang braso nya sa bewang ko kaya sumandal ako nang bahagya sa dibdib nya at ngumiti sa camera. We did several cute pose before stopping.

“Instagrammable ba?” tanong ko.

“Malay ko! Edi sana sinama mo rito si Adam ’no,” pabalang nyang sagot at tumawa.

After taking thousand pics again with the staffs, we all went out. Tatawa tawa pa ako habang si Azriel ay halos buhatin na ako sa pag-aalala nyang mapisat ako ng mga gustong magpakuha ng litrato.

“Punta na lang sa condo mo, huh? 3pm,” sambit ni Pearl nang nasa parking lot na.

“Yeah.”

“Mr. Nickolson, we trust you with our girl,” sabi naman nito kay Azriel. Seryosong tumango naman ito sa kanya.

“Check your bank account,” sabi sa akin ni Pearl na tinanguan ko.

Nahagip ng tingin ko si Hope na tahimik at si Adonis na busangot ang mukha. LQ na naman? Akala ko ba binaba na rito ’yan ni Hope kanina?

“Ano bang pinagsasabi mo dyan, Kuya Adonis? Nakaka-frustrate ka na!” rinig kong reklamo ni Hope. Natahimik tuloy kami.

“Ang sinasabi ko lang huwag kang basta magtiwala sa mga lalaking nakakausap mo kasi baka may gawing hindi maganda sa iyo. At saka ’wag mo akong tawaging Kuya-”

“Kung ganoon hindi ako magtitiwala sa’yo gano’n?” sumbat naman ni Hope.

“Tss. Putangina,” pagmumura naman ni Adonis. Nang makitang malapit na kami ay tumigil sila.

“Ma’am,” bati ni Adonis, medyo bakas pa rin ang inis sa mukha.

“Uh… Hope, are you okay?” I asked. Nangingilid ang luha nito.

“O-okay lang po, ma’am…”

“Tsk! Akin na!” padabog pero halatang nag-aalalang sabi ni Adonis at dumukot ng panyo sa bulsa. Pinunasan nya ang gilid ng mata ni Hope na nagpagulat sa akin at sa amin ni Pearl.

“Ano ba! ’Wag na, k-kaya ko naman!”

“Ako na nga sabi.”

“Nakakahiya, Kuya Adonis-”

“Sabing huwag mo akong tawagin nyan,” inis na tumigil si Adonis sa pagpunas ng pulang pulang mukha ni Hope.

“M-mas matanda ka…”

“Mas matanda rin sayo si Ryan at si Echo, bakit hindi mo tinatawag nyan?! Kainis!” Inis na inis na sabi ni Adonis

Napaawang ang bibig ko at narinig ko na ang halakhak ni Pearl.

“Hoy, that’s enough. Hindi na kayo naiya rito kay Ma’am at sa husband nya!”

“S-sorry po, ma’am..”

“Sorry, ma’am.”

I just closed my mouth and looked at Azriel. Apparently, he isn’t doing or looking to anything but to me.

“You think the boy likes her?” tanong ko nang nasa kotse na kami at nagmamaneho sya.

“The two earlier?” he asks, placing his hand on my left thigh. Hinayaan ko iyon at hinawakan ang kamay nya.

“Yup.”

“Isn’t it obvious? The boy was jealous,” sigurado nyang sabi.

“Manhid kasi ’yung babae, si Hope,” natatawa kong sabi.

“Like you.”

Hinampas ko ang braso nya atsaka sya inirapan. “Hindi ’no!”

I received some calls about work to which I answered formally. Si Azriel naman ay walang tawag na natatanggap. He said he made sure that he won’t be disturb today. I actually feel bad kasi puro trabaho ako ngayon.

Our plan was to eat in a fancy restaurant but we can’t… some fans are going to me aggresively. Muntik pa akong masugatan kung hindi ako nahila ni Azriel.

I’m so disappointed.

“Strengthen your security. Masusugatan pa ang asawa ko,” galit na galit na sabi ni Azriel sa manager at dalawang guards.

“Azriel, that’s enough,” mahina kong sabi.

“We’re very sorry, Mr. Nickolson… We’ll do better next time.”

“Sorry, Sir.”

“Sorry po.”

“You know we’ll be coming. I told you I’ll pay extra for the security and a peaceful lunch,” Azriel added.

“Hubby, tama na,” mahina kong saway at hinaplos ang braso nya.

Marahas syang bumuntong hininga habang patuloy na humihingi ng tawad ang manager.

“Tama na… Let’s go, please. I’m so hungry.” I threw my last card. Talagang ayaw tumigil.

Doon lang sya tumigil. Hinila nya na ako palabas ng office at may dalawang guard nang nasa gilid namin. Wala na rin iyong mga tao kanina.

We just ended up in my condo. Bahagya pa akong nalungkot dahil gusto ko talaga ng korean style chicken pero wala.

“Lemme just order, wife. It’ll be quick,” bawi nya. “I’m sorry, we didn’t eat outside today.”

I cleared my throat and just shook my head. “That’s fine.”

“It’s not, baby. I’ll make it better next time. For now, I’ll just order food.”

Iyon nga ang nangyari. Um-order sya ng korean style fried chicken at iba pang korean foods. I actually suddenly remember Anikka with korean foods. Nakakainis na sinira nya ang imahe ng mga ito sa akin.

“Wife…” he called.

Nilunok ko muna ang nginunguyang kimchi bago sumagot. “Hmm?”

“I am still angry to your dad and sister. What I did to them doesn’t satisfy me yet.”

Kumunot ang noo ko sa bigla nyang sinabi. “Anong gusto mo kung ganoon? O-okay na ’yun, Azriel…”

“How can you say it’s okay when you were always crying because of that? You were so miserable and so I was. Nagagalit ako, Seleira. Lagi ’tong sumasagi sa isip ko sa gabi,” nagtitimpi nyang sabi.

Ibinaba ko ang chopsticks ko bago uminom ng tubig para panatilihing kalmado ang sistema ko at hindi sabayan ang galit nya.

“B-but… I think it’s enough. They don’t have the source of income now.”

“Why is it like you don’t care at all, wife? Aren’t you mad?”

Umiling lamang ako. “Wala na akong pake, Azriel, sa totoo lang. Kuntento na ako ngayon sa buhay ko. Just don’t l…leave me,” nag-iwas ako ng tingin dahil sa hiyang nadarama. “Hubby…”

Nang tingnan ko sya ay nanlalambot na ang mga mata nya. Tumayo sya at tumabi sa akin.

“I won’t leave you, you know that very well, wife. Ikaw ang dapat kong pakiusapan nyan,” marahan nyang sabi, ibang iba sa tono nya kanina. Hinaplos nya rin ang pisngi ko.

“Hindi rin kita iiwan-”

“Kahit magselos ka pa?” hamon nya. Hindi tuloy agad ako nakasagot.

“Baby,” he calls. “Promise me you won’t just leave me if you get jealous. I love the fact that you’re being jealous but please, at least talk to me and hear me out…” he begged. Hinaplos nya ang aking palad at dinala iyon sa kanyang bibig para halikan.

Dahan dahan akong tumango. I promise. I won’t be childish anymore! Well, I’ll try not to…

We did the pinky swear before continue eating. Nakakatuwa pa dahil sya ang nag-initiate. He’s a cutie.

Sana ay hayaan nya na lamang sila. I’m too shy to admit but… I really feel bad for daddy and I even want to see him if he’s okay. He’s still my dad… after all, right? Tell me it’s okay to consult him. He’s a bit old and helpless…

Kay Anikka, I don’t really care. I’ll just keep on focusing on my job and Azriel.

Another two set of weeks passed and my career went higher and higher. Nakakatangap na rin ako ng offers abroad but I always tell Pearl not to accept any from it.

Hindi ko rin nababanggit kay Azriel dahil alam kong papayag na ’yan sya kahit labag sa kalooban nya. It’s because he promised. I appreciate that but his work is here. Alam kong iiwan nya ’yan para sumama sa akin kung sakali and that is not a very good idea.

I threw my clothes to the floor sa sobrang inis sa sarili. Hindi ako nakapunta sa isang gig ngayon dahil masama ang pakiramdam ko. I don’t know how and why but I just feel so light headed and I just want to sleep all day.

Naintindihan naman ’yun ni Pearl, iyon nga lang, malaking excuse ang gagawin nya since sya ang haharap doon. Natanggap na namin ang kontrata pero sumama bigla ng pakiramdam ko.

Umupo ako at umiyak na lamang. Hindi ko rin nakayanan at humiga na lang.

Hope:

Ma’am, kumusta po? Punta po ako dyan!

Ako:

Don’t bother. I’m okay.

Hope:

Pero ma’am… Sige po. Baka dumating din po ang asawa nyo.

Pagkabasang pagkabasa ko ay tumunog ang doorbell ng condo ko. Hilong hilo akong bumangon at lumabas ng kwarto para buksan iyon.

It’s my husband with plastic bags of supermarket and pharmacy. Nag-aalala itong nakatingin sa akin.

“Wife, Pearl texted me. What happened?” he asked and tried to get it but I didn’t let him.

“Why are you here? I didn’t text you!” inis kong sabi. Umawang ang bibig nya at hindi agad nakapagsalita.

He’s wearing a kinda fitted white shirt. Bakat tuloy ang mga muscles nya. Hindi rin nasuklay o nalagyan ng gel ang buhok kaya medyo magulo ito, but that only adds up to his appeal.

Bigla akong nahiya sa itsura ko. Fuck, I probably look so ugly right now. Nakakahiya! I haven’t shower yet. I just washed my face and brushed my teeth, nothing more! No creams, tints, and such.

Dali dali akong tumalikod pero mabilis nya akong nahila paharap.

“What’s the matter?” seryoso nyang tanong at isinara ang pinto gamit ang paa. Binitawan nya ang kamay ko para ilagay sa table ang mga pinamili nya.

Tinitigan ko ang aking kamay na iniwan nya at nangilid agad ang luha ko. Kumuyom ang kamao ko sa inis. Nakakainis ang asawa ko! I want to kick him out of here! Someone, get this man out of my condo unit!

“Baby,” tawag nya at hinarap muli ako. Inilapat nya ang kamay sa aking noo habang nag-aalala nang sobra.

“You feel normal. Saan masakit?” Medyo natataranta nyang tanong at hinahanapan ako ng sumasakit sa katawan. Itinaas nya nang bahagya ang kamay ko pero marahas ko iyong binawi.

“Umalis ka na. Walang masakit sa akin,” malamig kong sabi.

Gulong gulo naman sya sa harap ko at hindi alam ang gagawin. Napamura sya bago ako buhatin sa paraang ginagawa ng mga lalaki kung bagong kasal. Naiyak ako bigla dahil sa alaalang hindi namin naranasan ’yun.

We just signed papers. No balloons, no cakes, no extravagant gowns, and no honeymoons! Nakakasama ng loob.

“Lay down. I’ll call a doctor-”

“Ayoko nga,” umiiyak kong sabi. Mas lalo syang naalarma at sunod sunod na ang pagmumura.

Ipinasok nya ako sa kwarto at aalis na sana pero mabilis ko syang nahila. Umiigting ang panga nya habang nasa ibabaw ko. Pinunasan nya rin ang mga traydor kong luha.

“Are you playing games with me hmm?” he asks, as if finally getting it. I shook my head.

Pinatakan nya ako ng halik na agad kong nagustuhan. He pulled the kiss but I still want more and he knows it. Hinaplos haplos nya ang aking buhok habang titig na titig sa mga mata ko, tila binabasa ang laman ng isip ko na nagpapagulo sa kanya.

“I’ll still call a doctor. Hindi ako napapanatag, Seleira,” seryoso nyang saad.

“No way! I’m really fine, bakit ba ang kulit kulit mo?” medyo inis kong tanong. Nagugulat sya at hindi kaagad nakakapagsalita.

“Why is my baby so mad at me, huh? I just came here and she’s already blowing fire on me-”

“Who is she?!” galit kong tanong. He sighs before laying down beside me as he embrace me more. Mas lalo akong nainis pero gustong gusto naman ang yakap nya.

“You’re just on your period, wife. I’ll be patient,” he whispers. Kumunot naman ang noo ko.

But I’m not on my period!

“Lemme just do you, hmm? So your mood will be better. I don’t care if you’re on your period,” he said maliciously. Muli syang pumaibabaw sa akin. Kinagat ko ang labi ko para pigilan ang excitement.

“I’m not,” sagot ko. Natigilan sya sa paghahalik sa aking leeg at inangat ang tingin sa akin. Hindi sya nagsalita at makahulugan lang akong tiningnan.

“Hubby, we always do it even yesterday and the past weeks,” I said, pouting. He kiss me again once.

“I’m just making sure,” he said meaning fully for the second time, but I still didn’t understand.

Chapter 36

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“Hush, hush,” naglalambing na tahan sa akin ni Azriel habang pinupunasan ang mga luha ko.

I didn’t speak, I just continue eating my corn. A while ago, I cried really hard because I wanted corn. Ang tagal pang magpa-deliver nitong si Azriel kaya ang sama sama ng loob ko.

“Don’t eat much,” paalala nya at hinalikan ang noo ko.

These days, Azriel is being extra clingy to me. As in extra mega super clingy. He was clingy before, pero sobra sobra ata ngayon. Sobra rin ang pag-aalala nya na kahit pumunta lang ako ng banyo, gusto nyang samahan pa ako dahil baka “madulas” daw ako.

He’s over reacting!

“Shut up, hubby!” Inis kong sabi at niyakap ang supot ng mga mais saka sya tinalikuran. I heard his low chuckle before hugging me from the back.

“Get off me!”

“My wife’s so moody, huh? I wonder what’s with you,” he said gently as he caress my waist to my tummy.

“Just shut up or leave me alone, you, ass.”

Inis na inis ako habang sya ay tuwang tuwa sa mga nangyayari. Halos hindi na nga ’yan pumapasok sa trabaho at nambibwisit dito lagi. Also me, I can’t go to some gigs and photoshoots because either I don’t feel well or I’m not in the mood.

Kawawa tuloy itong si Pearl na syang humaharap doon. Malaking problema at excuses talaga lalo na kung nakapirma na ako ng contract.

“Baby,” he called, calling my attention. Nilingon ko sya at inirapan habang nanatili syang malambing na nakatitig.

“Can I go to my meeting this afternoon? It’s very important, wife,” he said gently and started kissing my bare shoulder. Sumandal ako sa kanya at hinayaan syang gawin ’yun.

“Hmm? Can I go, wife?” pag-uulit nya.

Tss. He’s leaving me again. Umirap ako at tumango.

“Why can’t I go?” he asks as he caress my tummy with his big warm hand.

“I nodded! You can go!” Iritado kong sabi.

“No, I can’t. You’re mad.”

“I’m not!” Inis na inis na ako pero ayaw ko namang umalis sya. Kung importanteng meeting, edi umalis sya!

He chuckled again. Why is he so happy?! Palagi syang tuwang tuwa sa mga nangyayari. He’s always in a damn good mood habang ako ay naggagalaiti rito!

“Let me go, please, wife?”

“Ang sabi ko umalis ka kung gusto mo!” pagalit kong sabi at tinulak ang matigas nyang braso sa tyan ko. Ibinalik nya nga lang kaagad ’yun doon.

Nilingon ko sya, nakangiti sya at kinakagat pa ang sariling labi. Namumungay din ang mga mata nya.

“Let’s go to the doctor this weekend,” bigla nyang sabi. Ayan na naman ang tungkol sa doktor na ’yan. Baka may kinikita syang babaeng doctor, ah? Iyong katulad sa mga anime na malalaking boobs tapos kunwari mahuhulog ’yung papel tapos yuyuko nang todo?!

Kinunutan ko sya ng noo saka bahagyang itinulak. “Why?! Do you think I’m getting crazy?!”

Napapikit sya habang nakangiti. Umiling iling sya pero hindi nagsalita.

Inirapan ko sya saka itinabi ang mga supot ng mais. I don’t like any of these anymore. Humikab ako at inaantok na naman.

“Just go to your meeting, Azriel. Matutulog na ako,” sabi ko at tumayo. Napamura sya at agad akong hinawakan.

“’Wag kang bigla biglang tumayo, Seleira!” medyo inis nyang sabi. “Be careful.”

Gulong gulo naman ako sa inaakto nya. What?

“I just stood up!”

“I know,” bawi nya at tumayo na rin. Mabilis nyang ipinulupot ang braso sa aking bewang at hinawakan pa ang kamay ko gamit ang isang kamay.

“Nevermind. I won’t leave,” seryoso nyang sabi at inalalayan ako papuntang kwarto. Hinampas ko naman ang kamay nya.

“You’re over reacting, Azriel! You know what, just leave. Matutulog na ako.”

“Babantayan kita-”

“What?!” gulat at naguguluhan kong tanong.

“Paano kung maalimpungatan ka? Kung may gusto kang kainin, wala kang kasama rito.”

“I can call Adonis!” sabi ko at nag-martsa papuntang kwarto. Agad naman syang sumunod at halos buhatin na ako na parang siraulo.

“I’m your husband and I’ll be here. No need to call some random guy-”

“He’s my driver!”

“Tss.”

Hindi ko sya pinansin kahit noong nakahiga na ako. Tinalikuran ko sya habang sya ay nakaupo sa gilid ng kama, katawagan si Franco.

Maybe something is going on between them, huh

“Yes. Move the date, reschedule the meeting on Saturday.” I heard him say.

Umirap ako. Maybe they are meeting each other and having some dates on fancy restaurants. Stupid husband.

Nagkumot ako at mabilis agad na inantok dahil napaka-komportable ng kama. Natapos ang tawag nya at naramdaman ko agad syang humiga sa likod ko at yumakap.

“Sleepy?” he asks. I nodded.

“But you were sleeping a while ago, too.”

“I want to sleep, Azriel. Get out, you’re so noisy!” iritado kong sabi at umusog palayo. Tumawa ang loko at dumikit ulit sa akin.

“Fine. I’m sorry, baby. I’ll be quiet,” malambing nyang sabi at hinalik-halikan ang buhok ko. Mas lalo tuloy akong inaantok.

An image of Azriel kissing another girl’s hair suddenly cross my mind. She have big boobs and big butt, too. She can cook and all! Agad nag-init ang mga gilid ng mata ko at napaiyak. Bwisit. Hindi na dapat ako nakipagbalikan pa sa kanya!

I started sobbing which made him panic. Napamura sya at pinaharap ako sa kanya. Naguguluhan at nag-aalala syang nakatitig  sa akin.

“What is it now, wife?”

Pinunasan nya ang luha ko at hinalikan ang aking pisngi.

“Maybe you like other girls,” umiiyak kong sabi. Ang sama sama ng loob ko dahil sa naiisip.

Umawang ang bibig nya at hindi agad nakasagot. Maya maya ay gumuhit ang isa ngisi sa kanyang labi.

“And you’re admitting it now, huh? Why don’t you just go to your girls, hubby?! Doon ka naman ata masaya!” mas lalo akong umiyak habang sya mahinang tumatawa. Inalo nya rin ako at hinalik-halikan muli.

Pinatungan pa nya ako ng binti at mas hinapit sa kanya. “I don’t like anyone beside you wife.” He then kissed my lips which shut me up. Hinalikan ko sya pabalik at kumapit sa kanyang damit.

“Let’s go to the doctor this weekend. We really should,” he said happily. Maiinis na sana ako pero nang tingalain ko sya ay kumikinang ang mata nya… just seconds later and some tears are about to flow from his eyes which made me confuse.

Why the hell is my husband crying?!

“Bakit ka umiiyak?” tanong ko. “Saka anong doctor, wala akong sakit, Azriel. Kakapa-medical ko lang last month, I am so healthy! Do you think I’m crazy?! And why are you crying-”

Naputol ang pagsasalita ko nang halikan nya ako. He kisses me very gently, tila ingat na ingat na huwag akong masaktan. Idinilat ko ang mga mata ko at nakita kong nakapikit sya pero may mga luha pa ring umaagos. Bakit sya umiiyak?!  Baka pinagsisisihan nya nang ako ang asawa nya?

Hinayaan ko ang hair stylist na ayusin ang buhok ko habang nakasimangot akong nakatingin sa aking repleksyon. My make up is dark now because she matched it with my black midnight sexy dress. Gusto ko sanang sabihing gusto ko ng pastel colors pero huwag na at baka ma-issue akong maattitude.

“Are you okay? Hindi talaga pwedeng i-cancel ’to, Seleira. Malaki kasi ito,” mataray pero nag-aalalang sabi ni Pearl. Bumuntong hininga ako at inirapan sya.

Of course, we can’t just cancel this photoshoot and endorsement. Dior is a big and famous brand name so we can’t just leave this. Kaya kahit nahihilo ako ay pumunta na ako.

Hinatid ako ni Azriel ngunit pinaalis ko rin sya. Gusto pa ngang sumama rito at alalang-alala sa akin. I just rolled my eyes at him and told him to back off. He did what I said because I started crying. Sinunod nya nga pero umiyak ako ulit nang umalis nga sya.

“Start po tayo in 20 minutes, ma’am.” A staff entered the room. Tiningnan ko sya at tumango.

I bit my lips when I suddenly think of samgyupsal. I want to eat that now… I want to cry thinking how long this photoshoot will be. First time ko ring matakot na baka mapagalitan. I am not in my mood. I want to eat and sleep. I want my husband in my side!

I don’t understand myself. I should be really excited now since this is my dream career. Gusto ko pa rin naman pero wala ako sa mood ngayon. Hindi ko naman alam na nangyayari pala ang mga ganito.

Three new texts from

Hubbybaby

Kumunot ang noo ko nang tumunog ang phone ko. Hubbybaby? Hindi ako ang nag-set ng contact name na iyan!

Hubbybaby:

What are you doing?

Hubbybaby:

I miss you.

Hubbybaby:

Send me pics of you, please.

Ngumuso ako at pinigilan ang pag-ngiti. Hubbybaby huh? Ew, ang corny pero ewan ko ba… nag-iinit ang pisngi ko at natatawa.

Ako:

Anong hubbybaby?!

Hubbybaby:

Why? I’m your hubby and baby.

Ako:

Walang baby na malaki!

Muntik kong mabitawan ang phone nang tumunog ito dahil tumatawag sya. Mahina akong humagikhik. Tiningnan tuloy ako ni Pearl.

“Asawa mo ’yan ’no? Kanina sabi nya ’wag ka raw pagsuotin ng heels. Anong meron?” she asks. Sumimsim din sya sa kanyang softdrinks.

“What? He said that?” tanong ko at hinahayaang mag-ring ang phone.

“Okay na po, ma’am,” sabi ng stylist. Tumango ako at nagpasalamat bago sya umalis.

“Yup. Anyway, masyado kang wala sa mood, ni hindi mo napansing wala si Hope!”

Napatingin ako bigla sa paligid. Wala nga si Hope!

“Nasaan sya?” tanong ko at sinulyapan ang phone na tumutunog pa rin. I quickly texted him that the shoot will start minutes from now so he can stop.

“Nilalagnat daw. Ito namang si Adonis, nagpaalam na hindi rin makakapasok. I bet they are together.”

Tumango ako. Siguro nga. Nang tingnan ko muli si Pearl ay disappointed syang nakatitig sa akin. I gave him a ‘what?’ look.

“You’re really out of your mind, huh? Kanina ko pa hinihintay na mabanggit mo, hays!” inip nyang sabi pero maya maya ay tumawa na sya.

“Your face is in the billboard in EDSA again! Haynako! Aren’t you happy?!” natutuwa pero iritado nyang sabi.

“That’s not the first time,” sabi ko.

“Tsk. I know! Pero mas maganda ngayon! Check the news, girl. Ang daming articles about that! Pero ikaw, parang nawawalan ng gana sa lahat. I thought this is your dream?”

“I know… I just don’t feel fine. I’m sorry, Pearl.”

Disappointed din ako sa sarili ko kung bakit ganito ako umakto. I should be happy! I should be dancing like how I danced the first time my face was in that billboard.

I checked the internet and she’s right. Iba iba ang title at natuwa naman ako na napakaraming positive feedbacks from fans and even those who are not.

Kaya pala nakatanggap din ako ng texts galing kay Adam this morning, but I didn’t mind those.

Tinawag na ako ulit ng staff kaya’t tumayo na ako. Nagdo-doble ang paningin ko kaya hindi muna ako naglakad. May sakit ata ako.

Para akong lumulutang kahit noong naglalakad na ako sa room ng pagdadausan ng shoot. Ang daming ilaw, maraming staff, nahihilo ako lalo. Ang dami pang nagtatawag sa akin.

Nang magsimula ang shoot ay nananahimik sila. I tried my best to do good so the pictures won’t come up badly.

“Miss Seleira, fierce first. Do not smile, please.”

I nodded and do as he says. Surprisingly, hindi naman sya nag-reklamo kaya marahil maayos naman ang ginagawa ko.

The shoot took hours because there are different products to endorse. Paiba-iba pa ang suot ko at paiba-iba ang make up. Hilong hilo na ako at nasusuka n rin.

Nagsimula akong kabahan. Hindi naman ako nilalagnat.

I started remembering Azriel. Sa tuwing inaangkin nya ako ay hindi nya nilalabas ang kanya sa tuwing lalabasan na sya. I mean, okay lang naman dahil consensual naman. I wanted him to always put it inside me since I want to feel it.

And fuck, I’m not taking any pills! We did it several times, no, not only several… Always. Last weeks, he always wanted to make love with me in the night even when we just did it that morning.

Is this all his plan?!

“Seleira,” tawag ni Pearl na nasa likod ko.

Pumikit ako nang mariin bago dumilat muli. Hindi na rin ako makarinig nang maayos. Iniling-iling ko ang aking ulo at lilingunin na sana si Pearl pero nagdidilim na talaga ang paningin ko.

“Miss Seleira, over here!” another staff called me again but I tried my best to look back at Pearl.

Pakiwari ko ay pagod na pagod ako. Gusto kong sumuka, gusto ko ng tubig. Gusto kong mahiga at matulog.

“Pearl,” nanghihina kong tawag. Huli kong nakita ang nanlalaki nyang mga mata bago ako tuluyang bumagsak.

I woke up only to find out I’m in a white room. Hindi pa ako nakakabalik sa wisyo at nakita ko na agad ang mukha ng asawa ko. He looks mad and also worried.

“Azriel,” nanghihina kong tawag.

Hindi ko masyado maintindihan ang sinabi nya pero maya maya ay mabilis syang naglakad palabas. I felt hurt watching him leave me here.

Unti-unting nanumbalik sa akin ang mga nangyari kanina. I was in a shoot! Hinimatay ako kaya nandito ako. But how about that project? Anong mangyayari?

Maayos na ang pag-iisip ko nang pumasok si Pearl, kasunod si Azriel, at isang babaeng doktor. Umupo ako sa kama upang salubungin sila.

“Are you okay?! Nag-alala ako nang sobra!” Pearl said and hugged me. I hugged her a bit.

“I’m fine.”

Tumabi sya at si Azriel ang pumalit sa kanya. Nag-iigting ang panga nito, tila nagagalit sa kung ano. Namumula din ang mukha sa galit pero nag-aalala rin at the same time.

“Hubby,” I called softly. Pinulupot nya agad ang kanyang mga braso sa aking aking bewang at tyan kasabay ng paghalik sa aking sintido.

“I’ll never let this happen again,” madiin nyang sabi. He is mad, confirmed.

When I look at the doctor, she’s smiling very warmly while watching us. May mga hawak din itong papel.

“I have a hunch that I already know this case, but we still have to do tests.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at tiningala si Azriel. He doesn’t look surprise at all, mukha nga syang galit. Bahagya tuloy akong natatakot sa kanya. If he isn’t hugging me while kissing my hair, I would think he’s mad at me.

“What do you mean? May sakit ba ako?” tanong ko at natatakot na. Sumiksik ako lalo sa dibdib ni Azriel at tiningnan si Pearl na seryosong nakikinig sa doctor.

“Hmm… Mrs. Nickolson, did you get your period this month?”

Shit. No… I can’t be pregnant, right? I have this whole career in front of me!

“She didn’t.” Si Azriel ang sumagot para sa akin. Makahulugan akong tiningnan ni Pearl.

“Mr. Nickolson, I recommend your wife to undergo hCG test,” she said to Azriel.

“Wait, what’s that?” naalarma kong tanong.

“That test is done to measure the amount of the hormone hCG in blood or urine to see if a woman is pregnant.”

Hindi ako agad nakapag-salita. Hindi ko alam ang magiging reaksyon. If I am pregnant, I’m having a baby with Azriel!

“Azriel,” natatakot kong tawag.

“Shhh, I’m here,” malambing nyang sabi at hinalikan ang noo ko.

“But for the mean time, please do not stress yourself, Mrs. What happened to you earlier is very dangerous,” she said. “Excuse me, I’ll prepare the test first.” Umalis sya at naiwan akong nakatulala.

“Oh my! Y-you’re pregnant?!” Hindi na napigilan pa ni Pearl ang sarili.

Umiling iling ako. No… Not that I don’t want to have a baby. But what about my career?

Pearl then excused herself so we can have our privacy.

“Even without that test, I know you’re pregnant. Baby, all these weeks, I was waiting for your period,” naging malambing ang boses nya. Umupo sya sa kama at hinapit ako kung kaya’t napahawak ako sa kanyang dibdib.

“Do you hear me, wife? You are pregnant with our baby,” nanginginig ang boses nya at hindi ko alam kung ano ang dahilan.

He licked his lips before he looked away, he looks so amused. Mukha syang hindi makapaniwala. Paulit-ulit pa syang napamura.

“A-Azriel, we still don’t know…”

“No. You’re pregnant,” pagpupumilit nya. Medyo humigpit din ang hawak nya sa bewang ko sa panggigigil nya. “Hindi pwedeng hindi ka buntis.”

Maya maya ay hinaplos nya ang tyan ko. Napasinghap ako nang yumuko sya at hawiin pataas ang suot kong top kasunod ay naramdaman ko ang kanyang labi sa aking tyan. He’s kissing it very gently. He also murmurs stuffs I couldn’t understand.

“Azriel…” nanginginig na rin ang boses ko.

Pinantayan nya ako muli at namumula na ang kanyang mga mata at tainga. Para akong nasasaktan na makita syang umiiyak pero masaya naman ang mga mata nya.

“Once we know the sex, we’ll go shopping for our baby…” He said very gently as he started kissing my neck.  “Then we’ll make a room for our little. We’ll buy crib, milk, and tons of baby toys and clothes. You like that, wife? I like that so much… I’ve always been dreaming to have a baby with you. Only you.”

Nag-iinit na rin ang gilid ng mga mata ko. Inangat nya ako at pinaupo sa kanyang hita kaya’t napakapit ako sa kanyang leeg.

“Azriel,” I called.

“You don’t know how long I’ve waited for this. I always dream having you and our baby and now, here is it… You’re giving everything to me, Seleira,” his tone suddenly sounded sad and happy at the same time.

Ngumiti ako at hinaplos ang pisngi nya. Basa ito kaya pinunasan ko nang marahan.

“Ikaw ang pangarap ko, Seleira.”

His voice sounds so sincere that it touches every part of my heart. Ngumuso ako sa akalang mapipigilan nito ang pagtulo ng aking luha ngunit hindi. Tuluyan nang tumulo ang mga ito. Napamura sya at agad iyong pinunasan.

“From now on, I’ll always be with you literally. I would die in a young age once you pass out again!”

Unti unting sumasaya ang puso ko sa isiping magkaka-anak ako at si Azriel ang ama. Nakakatuwang isiping makakasama ko sya habang buhay kasama ang anak namin.

“Fuck,” mura nya at mukha pa ring hindi makapaniwala sa mga nangyayari. Halos mapisat na ako kakayakap at kahahalik nya sa akin.

“I love you, Seleira. I love you so much.”

Hinalikan nya ako at hinalikan ko rin sya pabalik. Halos ayaw pa akong pakawalan kahit noong dumating na ang ilang nurses.

All my life, I’ve never feel this kind of feeling. This is so exciting and at the same time, frightening. We both don’t have experience with this. This is our first time.

About my career, hindi ko na rin alam. Kanina sobra ang pag-aalala ko about doon, pero nung makita ko si Azriel na umiiyak saka masaya… parang ’yun na lang ’yung inaalala ko. I just want him to be happy.

This is one of his dreams— to have a child with me. This is one of my dreams, too. I should just talk to Pearl after this.

“Azriel!” I called heartly when he put me slowly to bed and he quickly went on top of me.

Kauuwi lang namin sa kanyang condo and the result came out positive! Pearl was a bit lost, too, that she said she’ll think about this very carefully.

“You’re really pregnant,” he said for countless times.

I giggled and nodded. Nakagat nya ang labi at hinalikan ako muli. Pinulupot ko kaagad ang aking mga kamay sa kanyang leeg at hinayaan sya nang bumaba ang halik sa aking leeg.

Dahan dahan nyang hinubad ang aking pangtaas. I gladly help remove it for my husband.

Bumaba sya at pumantay sa aking tyan na medyo flat pa rin. Nagsimula syang halikan iyon. Wala syang pinapalagpas. Every skin of my tummy is getting kissed.

“Azriel…” lumambing na ang aking boses dahil sa paghalik nya.

“Baby…” he whispers.

Napangiti ako at tinawag syang muli. Pinantayan nya naman ako agad at pinupog ng halik.

“Azriel…”

“Hmm?” malambing nyang tanong at humiga sa tabi ko. Agad nya akong pinaunan sa kanyang dibdib.

“H-how about my job?”

Hindi sya kaagad nakasagot na tila hindi nya rin naisip ito noon.

“For me, I would not let you continue working. I am so worried, Seleira. I would lose my sanity once someone calls me again saying my wife has passed out,” bumalik ang inis at pag-aalala sa kanyang boses.

“But it’s your decision, wife. I’ll just be with your every gig. I… don’t want to be a controlling husband,” he said. Hinahaplos-haplos nya pa ang buhok ko.

Tiningala ko sya at nginitian. “I’ll stop for now.”

Naging seryoso ang kanyang ekspresyon at mas hinapit ako palapit sa kanyang dibdib.

“Seleira, if you’re just thinking about what I said, it’s still you who will decide. Hindi kita pipigilan-”

“Shh!” I shut him off. “This is my decision. At saka nahihilo ako lagi, Azriel. I wouldn’t want to risk this. I’ll just maybe continue once i give birth,” Nanliit na rin ang aking boses.

A satisfied smile formed on his lips before he kiss me again.

The early night was so full of love. He made love to me and he told me how much he loves me and our child. We took a rest in the warm tub and we cuddled in bed.

I am excited having a baby with him. If it’s a boy, I’m so sure that he’ll be a replica of Azriel. Girls would chase him like how girls chase my husband, huh. If it’s a girl, I just hope she won’t do what I did. Parties, being a mean girl, spoiled, and has lots of boyfriends.

Ewan ko na lang kung anong magagawa ni Azriel kung magkaroon sya ng anak na tulad ko noon. He’ll end up having white hair at an early age, maybe.

“Seleira, get back here!” medyo inis nyang tawag nang bigla akong tumayo.

“I’ll just pee,” sabi ko at ngumisi habang sya ay inis at nag-aalala.

“Tell me, at least,” suplado nyang sabi at saka tumayo. He put his hand on my waist to guide me as if I couldn’t walk alone.

“Kaya ko! You’re over reacting,” natatawa kong sabi at tinutulak pa sya palayo. He groaned irritatedly as he pull me gently into him.

“Hey!” tili ko nang buhatin ako nito. Mabilis ang lakad nya papuntang banyo at sya pa mismo ang nagpaupo sa akin sa bowl.

“Labas na,” sabi ko at ngumisi. Seryoso naman ang ekspresyon nya at may bakas pa ng galit ang itsura.

“Just pee.”

“No way!” Nag-init ang pisngi sa isiping iihi ako at nanonood sya.

“I won’t look-”

“Bakit ba ayaw mo na lang lumabas?”

“Paano kung madulas ka?” paranoid nyang tanong. Inirapan ko sya bago ako magtitili. Sumuko naman sya at umalis pero alam kong naroon lang sya sa may sink.

Stupid husband. Natatawa na lang ako sa kanya.

Kinagabihan ay si Azriel mismo ang nagluto ng hapunan. Hindi sya nag-padeliver, ang sabi nya ay susundin nya ang mga sinabi ng doctor.

Nakaupo lang ako sa high chair habang pinanonood sya. He’s wearing a white sando and he is very serious while cooking. Nakita ko rin ang mga bote ng vitamins na siguro ay ibinigay ng doctor.

That’s a lot!

Nakangiti ako habang tinitingnan ang listahan na sya mismo ang nagsulat. It’s a schedule when to drink each of these vitamins. Malinis at maayos ang sulat kamay. Napanguso ako dahil sa nararamdaman.

“Hubby…” malambing kong tawag.

“Hmm?” hindi nya ako nilingon at seryoso lamang sa ginagawang paghihiwa sa raw chicken.

“Can we have pizza, please?”

He looked at me with a warning look but I only gave him a cute pout. Nakipagtitigan ako sa kanya pero sya ang unang sumuko.

“No,” napapaos nyang sabi.

“Why not? Isang beses lang, it won’t harm our baby-”

“Baby, no.”

Naiirita talaga ako sa tuwing humihindi sa akin si Azriel. In other words, it means that he doesn’t like my idea. If he doesn’t like my idea, then he probably doesn’t like me, too. Kaya naiinis ako sa tuwing humihindi sya.

“I’ll go to the grocery store later to buy your needs.”

See, winawala nya ang usapan. He just said ‘No’ to me and it doesn’t even look like he cares at all.

“Sasama ako.”

Bumuntong hininga sya. “It’s late night, wife. Just rest here and I’ll be quick-”

“Isama mo ako, Azriel,” pagpupumilit ko.

“Wife, you’re a famous model. I wouldn’t risk this,” sabi naman nya at naglakad papalapit sa akin.

He opened my legs and he placed himself in the middle of them while his arms are on my waist.

A part of me suddenly regrets that I am a model and I am famous. I couldn’t do normal things with him anymore and that hurts me.

“Pero… okay, hubby,” malungkot kong sabi at yumuko.

“Fuck. Fine, just don’t make that face. You’re killing me,” pagsuko nya. I smiled because I feel satisfied. Niyakap ko ang leeg nya at hinayaan syang dukutin ang phone sa kanyang bulsa.

It’s Franco who’s he talking with. Franco Franco Franco. I think he trusts him so much. I also think he’s also the only one he trust except me. He trusts him more than his own cousin, huh.

Teka, ngayon ko lang naalala si Ysmael. Where is he? What is he up to?

“Thank you.” I heard him say as he hung up the call.

“Azriel,” tawag ko.

“Hmm?” tanong nya at hinarap ako. Magsasalita na sana ako pero mabilis syang humalik sa akin.

“What is it?” tanong nya muli.

“Where’s Ysmael?”

Kumunot agad ang noo nya at agad sumama ang timpla pagkarinig pa lamang ng pangalan nito.

“Why?”

“I’m just asking because I’m curious.”

“He flew back to states a month ago.”

My mouth opened a bit with I just heard but I nodded quickly.

“Why? Nag-away kayo?”

“No.”

“Then why?”

“We are in good terms. It’s just that he said he want to create his own company from the lowest, so…” Nagkibit-balikat sya. “My parents are also there living.”

Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig nang marinig ang tungkol sa mga magulang nya.

“T-they don’t like me, right?” tanong ko sa mahinang boses.

He sighs before giving me a soft kiss in my left cheek. “It doesn’t matter.”

“It does! They’re your parents!”

“But if they don’t like you, then I won’t force them. It’s only your feelings who does matter to me the most.”

It’s like something touched my heart with what he said. It’s very selfish but I feel happy with that.

“R-really?”

“Really.”

“H-how about my Titos? When are we going to tell them?”

“Whenever you feel ready.”

“Now, then.”

Nanghahamon nya akong tiningnan while I only smiled sweetly to him.

“Please, tonight, Azriel… After grocery shopping!”

“No. You passed out this morning, you’re coming with me in the grocery store and now you want to visit your Titos? Ayokong pinapagod ka-”

“But you made love to me just hours ago. Pinagod mo na ako, Azriel. Nakapagpahinga ako at gusto kong ngayon sabihin kina Tito!”

He sighs problematically. I made my eyes cuter to convince him. Mas lalo syang bumuntong hininga.

“Fuck, no… Here comes the prettiest witch with her charms again.”

I giggled cutely and traced his jaw in a sexy way. “Papayag ka naman, ’di ba?”

Hindi sya agad nakasagot kaya inulit ko pa. I kissed his jaw softly and looked at him.

“’Di ba? Papayag ka?”

Napapikit sya at napalunok. I smirked. I really love my effect on him.

“’Di ba, hubby?” pag-uulit ko at hinaplos naman ang kanyang leeg.

“Yes…” napapaos nyang sagot. He really can’t say No kapag pinilit ko na. Ilang haplos at malambing na salita lang ay papayag na sya.

Napilit ko sya na pumunta sa bahay nina Tito ngayon din.  After eating what he cooked, we changed clothes.

Nagsuot ako ng isang gray dress at nag-flat shoes lamang. Azriel wore a black shirt and black pants. Nagsuot din sya ng itim na sumbrero at baligtad ang pagkakasuot nito.

Damn, he looks hot with that. He looks like a varsity and a mad playboy.

Sinuutan nya ako ng kanyang itim na jacket dahil alam siguro nyang lalamigin ako.

“’Wag kang maglilikot. We’ll make it quick, I don’t want you to be tired even more.”

Tumango ako kahit inaantok na. I’m thinking of just spending the rest of the night in Tito’s house. Kung papayag si Azriel ay wala sa aking problema.

He pulled me gently to the elevator. Isinuot nya ang hood sa akin at tinago ang mukha ko sa dibdib nya. I understand him, I also don’t want people to take pictures of me. We then arrived safely to the parking lot.

Sa mall ay iilan na lang ang mga tao at hindi rin sila lumalapit. Tumitingin lamang ang mga ito. We also have two guards in the back and Franco is also with us. He is a very quiet man.

Naninibago pa ako sa suot nya ngayon dahil palagi ko lang syang nakikitang naka-suit. Ngayon ay naka-simpleng t-shirt lamang sya at trousers but he also looks attractive.

We entered the hypermarket. Nagningning agad ang mga mata ko nang makita ang mga chocolates sa glass storage. Tatakbuhin ko sana pero hawak hawak ako ni Azriel.

“Soy milk is preferable, Sir.” Rinig kong sabi ni Franco sa kanya. “Also, dairy products for calcium. It should be on her diet.”

Umangat ang kilay ko. Hindi sumagot si Azriel at tumango lamang ito.

“Did you tell him to research?” pabulong kong tanong kay Azriel kaya binaba nya ang tingin sa akin.

“No, he really knows.”

“Why? He must be smart, huh.”

“I’m smarter, Seleira,” suplado nyang sabi. Inirapan ko naman sya.

“But he really knows. He have a pregnant woman, too.”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko habang napatingin saglit kay Franco pabalik sa kanya.

“What? Who?”

“Tss. Hindi mo kilala-”

“Pero kilala mo?”

“Not that much.”

“Asawa nya? Girlfriend?” pang-uusisa ko.

“No.”

“E, ano?”

“He said it was just a one night stand, but he got her pregnant.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at biglang nalungkot. “Poor baby, then. I bet they won’t live together or maybe ipapalabas lang sa anak nila na maayos sila.”

“No, they are living together now and I think Franco’s developing feelings for her already.”

Napa-o muli ang bibig ko. Gusto kong matawa sa pinag-uusapan namin. Ang pinag-chichismisan namin ay nasa tabi nya lang, but we are whispering to each other.

So, Franco has someone special already, huh. Well, he’s handsome, tall and serious, too. Maganda siguro iyong babae.

Hinayaan ko silang mamili ng brand ng gatas habang ako ay tumitingin-tingin sa paligid. Later, I’ll ask Azriel to buy me chocolates.

“Get many of those,” utos nya kay Franco. “We’ll just be in the fruits section.”

Masuyo akong hinila ni Azriel papunta sa fruits section. Nanggigil agad ako nang makakita ng mga mangga. Humagikhik ako at napapalakpak.

Azriel chuckled lowly. “You like these?” he asks gently. I nodded very happily.

Tiningnan nya ang mga ito bago magtawag ng staff for assistance. Kinilo ito ng staff. Azriel bought two kilos only since that can also make my tummy hurt.

We put some oranges, watermelon, and many more to the cart. Hinanap ng mga mata ko mga pipino sa katabing section pero iba ang nakita ko.

Nanliit ang mga ko at kinukumpirma kung tama ba ang nakikita ko.

I laughed and waved as I call him. “Strevan!”

Napatingin ito sa kung sino ang tumawag sa kanya. Napatingin din si Azriel sa akin na kasalukuyang may hawak na melon.

Strevan is wearing a white muscle shirt and a black pants. Umawang ang bibig nya nang makita ako. Kumaway ako ulit at sinigaw ang pangalan nya.

Hind sya makapaniwala habang nakatitig sa akin. Maya maya ay naglakad na sya palapit.

Oh my gosh, I miss him! He looks handsome as ever!

“Lyra,” ngumiti sya. Nakagat ko ang labi ko. Nag-init bigla ang mga sulok ng mata ko. I miss him and our memories in the island suddenly pass through my mind.

Napatingin sya sa katabi ko at maikli syang tumango. Tango lang din ang iginawad sa kanya ni Azriel bago bitawan ang melon at ipulupot ang braso sa aking bewang. Napatingin naman doon si Strevan pero mabilis na umangat muli ang tingin sa akin.

“Oh my gosh! Are you already studying here? Saan? Paano?”

Mahina syang tumawa. “Sa isang State U lang dito rin sa Manila,” sabi nya at mabilis na lumingon sa kanyang likod bago ibalik ang tingin sa akin.

“How? Iyong sinasabi mong kaibigan ng tatay ni Kayee?”

“Oo, Lyra.”

Tumango ako at ngumiti. He said he’s doing okay and he also mentioned that this is really better than Peloponese.

Palingon-lingon nga lang sya sa likod na parang may hinahanap.

“Uh, kayo? Gabi na ah? Lyra, maaga kang natutulog noon.”

Tumawa ako pero mukhang hindi natutuwa itong katabi ko. “We have plans for tonight.”

Sinamaan ko ng tingin si Azriel. He didn’t ask, hubby!

Tumango si Strevan at tipid na ngumiti. “Sikat na sikat ka na nga pala, Lyra. Parang noong nakaraang buwan lang, kasama pa kita at nangungulit ka sakin.”

I giggled cutely. “Hindi naman… but yeah, I miss those times, too.”

Gumalaw ang labi nya at tila namamangha pa rin sa akin. Tinatawanan ko lang sya habang itong si Azriel at halos buhatin na ako kakahapit nya sa akin papunta sa kanya. Seloso talaga ang isang ’to.

“Strevan…” A young woman approached us. Well, not really us, but Strevan only.

Well, she’s so pretty. She looks innocent and she’s also wearing a white dress. May mga hawak syang tsitsirya.

Natigilan sya nang makita ako. Lumapit sa kanya si Strevan at nakita ko kung paano nya ito tingnan. He looks at her in a very gentle way. I mean, he looked at me like that back then, too, but this is different. He looks at her with much more emotions and really really gently. Parang naglalambing.

“Iyan na lahat?” marahan nyang tanong dito bago kuhain ang mga ito sa kamay nya upang sya ang magdala.

Oh my gosh!

“Is she your girlfriend?!” gulat kong tanong. Teka, ang bilis naman? but good for him!

He chuckled with his manly voice. “Hindi.”

The girl suddenly look offended. Pilit syang ngumiti sa akin at parang kilala nya na ako. Maybe in magazines? Or social medias?

“U-uh…” awkward nitong sabi.

“It’s getting late, wife,” inip na bulong ng katabi ko at hinahaplos pa ang tyan ko.

“Strevan, dito na muna ako,” medyo off nyang sabi saka tumalikod. Naalarma si Strevan at sinundan ng tingin iyong babae.

“Are you sure she’s not your girlfriend?” ulit kong tanong. Dinilaan nya ang kanyang labi at umiling bago tingnan ang daang tinahak noong babae.

“Labing-walong taong gulang lang sya,” wala sa sarili nyang sabi.

“Oh! Okay, then. You can go, Strevan…” sabi ko at natawa.

“P-pasensya na, Lyra. Gusto ko pa sana makipag-usap sa’yo,” sambit nito. Umiling lang ako at tiningala ang naiinip na asawa.

“Sige na.”

“O sige. Mag-iingat ka.”

I nodded and wished him the best, too. We really did meet each other again… But I think something about him is different. I have a hunch that likes the girl but he’s just  telling himself that she’s young.

I forgot to ask who is she. I mean, paano sila nagkakilala at saan? Siguro sa university sila nagkakilala and he’s her senior.

“I thought he likes you,” komento ng katabi ko.

“Huh? He never did. I mean… we were just friends, I told you,” sabi ko at kumapit sa braso nya.

Hinalikan nya ang sintido ko. “Back there, I was really convinced he liked you.”

“No.” I shook my head.

“Infatuation, then. He was just infatuated.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at hindi na nagsalita pa. “Maybe you’re just infatuated, huh?” panghahamon ko sa kanya.

Kinagat nya ang labi nya. “No. My love for you are Eros and Agape. I’m not just infatuated or shits like that,” he said and caress my tummy again. I think that will be one of his hobbies now.

Eros is referring to sensual or passionate love while Agape is the highest form of love.

Dinaan ko sa tawa ang nararamdamang mga paru-paro sa tyan. Nagpe-pyesta na naman ang mga ito sa tuwa.

After buying my needs and also wants, he ordered Franco to put them in his condo. Kami naman ay pumunta na sa parking lot. I thanked the guards and Azriel even gave them extra payment.

Inaantok na ako sa byahe pero hindi ko pinahalata kay Azriel dahil iuuwi ako kaagad nyan. Baka mabulabog namin sina Tito but that’s okay, this is a very big news!

“My baby, please…” he said while driving. His hand is trying to reach my tummy, too.

“I’m your baby,” I said. He let out a low chukle.

“I mean, the little baby.”

“I’m your little baby!” giit ko. Dinilaan nya ang kanyang labi bago ako sulyapan.

“I mean my baby’s baby,” he said gently.

Ngumuso ako at dinala ang kamay nya sa tyan ko. Hinaplos haplos nya iyon at hindi na mawala ang ngiti nya.

“You have two babies now, huh,” nanunuya kong sabi. Tuwang-tuwa naman sya sa mga nangyayari habang ako ay unti-unting dinadapuan ng iritasyon.

“Yes. The bigger one is very pretty and sexy.”

Inirapan ko sya pero nakangisi na rin ako. Pabiro kong kinurot ang kamay nyang humahaplos sa tyan ko.

Nang makarating kami sa village ay desidido na talaga akong dito matulog dahil hindi ko na kakayanin ang mag-byahe dahil sa antok.

Hindi na ako kumatok at binuksan ko na ang gate. Si Azriel naman ay humawak sa aking kamay at sumabay sa akin.

Pagbukas ng pinto ay napatili ako at napatakip ng mga mata. Napamura naman si Azriel bago ako itago sa dibdib nya.

What the heck did we just see?! I’ll never look at them the same way again!

“Y-you should’ve texted or at least knock, Seleira…” utal utal na sabi ni Tito nang makapag-damit na sila at nasa dining table kami.

“Why do I always caught you in the living room, tito? Is that a fetish or something?” naguguluhan kong tanong. Narinig ko ang mahina at mababang halakhak ni Azriel.

“Damn, wife,” bulong nya at isinubsob ang mukha sa aking balikat.

Samantalang itong dalawa ay mukhang nate-tense. Well, Tito Hiro doesn’t mind at all. Malambing lang syang nakatingin kay Tito na ninenerbyos.

“It’s fine, tito! Chill! Sex is normal to couples,” natatawa kong sabi. Kinagat naman ni Azriel nang marahan ang balikat ko.

“We made love,” Tito Hiro corrected. I pursed my lips and just nodded.

“B-bakit ba kayo nandito? Jusko!” napa-paypay pa sa sarili si Tito sa sobrang hiya nyang nararamdaman but I made sure that it’s literally nothing to worry about.

I also promised to knock or text. E, kasi naman… Fine. I will knock.

Sana mabura na sa isip ko ang nakita ko! Si Azriel naman ay mahina lang akong tinatawanan.

I hope they’ll do it in a room next time, but hey, maybe it’s really their fetish to do it in living rooms.

By the way, Tito Hiro was the top.

Chapter 37

Mature

“Huwag mo akong ma-prank prank, Seleira!”

Tumawa ako at umiling-iling kay Tito.

“I’m not lying!”

Nagkatinginan sina Tito at si Tito Hiro, tila hindi pa rin naniniwala sa sinabi ko.

“Hubby, oh,” pagsusumbong ko sa asawa. Ayaw kasing maniwala ni Tito na buntis nga ako.

“Totoo ba, Azriel?!” ninenerbyos na tanong ni Tito.

“Yes, we’re pregnant.”

I pouted and let him kiss my forehead. Laglag panga naman si Tito sa harap ko habang si Tito Hiro ay tipid na ngumiti sa amin tapos ay binalingan si Tito.

“What?! Kailan pa? At saka kakabalikan nyo lang ah?” gulat nyang tanong bago ako tingnan at ituro. “Ang rupok mo, Seleira!”

Inirapan ko sya at saka tumawa. “I’m not!”

Hindi nya naman ako pinansin at binalingan naman si Azriel.

“Ikaw naman, ang bilis mo, hijo!”

Azriel just smirked evilly before snaking his sinful arms on my waist.

“I had to…”

Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin pero malambing na titig lang ang iginawad nya sa akin.

“N-no offense but how about your career? You have already signed contracts! And will you publicize this? Paano si kuya, sasabihin mo ba?” sunod sunod nyang tanong.

“I’ll stop while I’m pregnant and I’ll see if I still want to come back after… or just take care of our baby,” mahina kong sabi at tiningala si Azriel. Nakangiti ang loko na tila gustong gusto ang sinabi ko.

“Shit, you’re really a mother now, Seleira! Hindi ako makapaniwala!”

“About sa kung ipapa-public ba and the contracts, I’ll let Pearl think about that since she know things about this better. Kay Papa… I don’t even know where he is.”

Both of my Titos looked at each other meaningfully. Nagtataka naman ako at parang may naramdamang hindi maganda.

“Uh… Kuya is sick, Seleira,” nag-iingat nitong sabi.

“H-huh?” gulat kong tanong. Binalot agad ng pag-aalala ang sistema ko kahit na may ginawang kasalanan sa akin si Daddy.

“Yes. Na-trigger ang sakit nya sa puso dahil sa sobrang stress.”

It’s like my heart sank with what I just heard. Nanlumo ako at nag-init agad ang gilid ng mga mata ko.

“W-where is he? T-they don’t have money, Tito. Paano na si papa?” tanong ko sa malapit nang umiyak na boses.

Napamura si Azriel bago ako yakapin mula sa gilid. Hinalikan nya rin ang buhok ko at hinahaplos-haplos ang aking braso.

“Seleira, calm down, you just said you’re pregnant!” naaalarmang sabi ni Tito at napatayo. Si Tito Hiro ay tumayo rin upang kumuha ng tubig.

“Where are they?!” tanong ko.

“Baby, calm down…”

“Nasa St. Paul Institute. Tinutulungan naman namin pero mataas ang pride, hija. Dagdag pa itong si Anikka na galit na galit pati sa akin! Bwisit talaga ang malditang iyon!” inis na sabi ni Tito.

“I don’t care about her. I want to visit Papa, tito, please… tomorrow?” I begged Tito with my puppy eyes before looking at Azriel. “Hubby?”

He sighs heavily before stroking my hair. “You need to sleep more and rest. Please do not stress.”

“Tama ang asawa mo, hija… Ipagpaliban mo muna-”

“But Tito! How can I sleep at night knowing my father is not in a good state?” tuluyan na akong umiyak.

“Shit!” mura ni Azriel at halos ikandong ako kakasuyo nya. I hugged his neck and bury my face in his stone-hard chest while crying.

I know I shouldn’t be crying, but knowing about my father’s sickness plus my pregnancy hormones pushes me to.

“Just visit him tomorrow afternoon. Mas lalong sasama ang loob ni Seleira kung hindi nya makikita si Kuya,” mahinahong sabi ni Tito Hiro at umupo. Iniabot nya kay Azriel ang baso ng tubig na agad kinuha nito.

Tinapik nya ang kabilang upuan, sinesenyasan si Tito na umupo sa upuang tabi nya dahil nakatayo ito.

“Yes, Tito Hiro is right…” sabi ko at pupunasan na sana ang mga luha pero nauna na roon ang kamay ni Azriel.

Napatingin ako sa kanya at hinayaan syang punasan ang pisngi ko. Sya rin mismo ang nagpainom sa akin mula sa baso.

“Fine. Azriel?” Tito called him, asking for his opinion.

“My wife won’t stop bothering me and this makes her upset. It’s better to visit Tito, then. But not in the morning,” matalim nyang sabi sa akin. I smiled and nodded.

Natapos ang usapan at kailangan ko nang matulog. Nakailang tanong tanong pa sa akin si Tito tungkol sa pagbubuntis ko bago ako pakawalan.

I closed my eyes while laying in the soft bed. Azriel is massaging my feet while caressing my leg. Nagbihis ako kanina ng simpleng pantulog at sya ay hinubad lamang ang kanyang t-shirt at pants, so he’s just wearing his gray boxers now and he’s smoking hot.

The bed is actually small. Ako lang kasi ang natutulog dito noon. Ang kina Tito ay king sized dahil siguro hindi lang tulog ang ginagawa nila roon, but hey, that’s not my business anymore.

Humiga si Azriel sa tabi ko at agad lumapat ang mainit at matigas nyang katawan sa akin. Nawala agad ang lamig na aking dinarama kahit hanggang baywang lamang ang kumot.

“Much closer if the bed is small, huh.”

I giggled and made his chest as my pillow. He’s softly caressing my hair which makes me sleepy. Nakapatong ang kanyang binti sa akin na tila kinukulong ako. The hairs on it feels so manly. I love everything about Azriel.

“Do not think much, please,” he whispered.

“I won’t,” I answered. For our baby, of course.

Hinahalik-halikan at hinahaplos pa rin ako ni Azriel kahit noong antok na antok na ako. The last thing I can remember is him, whispering how much he love me and our baby before I fell asleep.

Paggising ko ay wala na si Azriel sa tabi ko. Ang bango bango ng amoy ng mga agahan. Agad akong ginutom pero pagbangon ko ay parang binaligtad ang sikmura ko.

My eyes widened as I cover my mouth. This room has no CR so I rushed outside. Napadaan pa ako sa kusina kung saan sila nagluluto at nag-uusap.

“Seleira!” nag-aalalang tawag ni Azriel.

I opened the door harshly as I kneel in front of the bowl. Sumuka ako nang sumuka at napapaiyak ako sa sakit ng sikmura.

“Hubby…” I called weakly before puking my heart out again.

Halos yakapin ko na ang inidoro dahil sa sakit. Halo ang sakit ng sikmura at hilo na nararamdaman.

“Wife,” nag-aalalang tawag ni Azriel at umupo sa tabi ko. Hinahaplos nya ang likod ko habang ako ay hinang-hina na nakayuko.

I coughed and coughed, too.

“Iyong tubig, Hiro!” narinig ko na rin ang boses ni Tito mula sa loob ng banyo.

Maya maya ay tiningala ko si Azriel na may mga luha sa mata. He cursed before letting me lean on his chest. May inabot sa kanya at pinainom nya sa akin ang tubig. Bumuti naman ang aking tyan.

“Hubby,” nanghihina kong tawag.

Meanwhile, he look pained and hurt. He couldn’t even look straight into my eyes. Sunod sunod din ang pagmumura nya.

“Bihisan mo muna, Azriel, bago pakainin dito’t mahirap nang walang laman ang tyan nyan.”

Azriel nodded before carrying me like a big baby. Paharap nya akong binuhat at hindi parang bagong kasal. Kumapit ako sa leeg nya at doon umiyak habang nagsusumbong ng aking nararamdaman. He hushed me patiently.

I still managed to change my clothes alone while Azriel is being paranoid. Pagbukas ko pa lang pinto ay mainit nyang yakap ang agad na sumalubong sa akin.

“How are you? Where does it hurt?” he asks.

“I’m fine now, Az…”

“Are you sure?”

I nodded but I pushed him a bit to look for my cellphone.

“We need to go to my condo right away after eating, your vitamins are there. We are also going home in my mansion.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at nilingon sya. He’s very serious as he walk closer to me again. Kulang na lang ay hindi na ako patapakin sa lupa ni Azriel dahil sa pag-aalala nya.

“How about our visit later to Papa with Tito?” tanong ko. Hindi na ako nagulat nang buhatin nya ako at paupuin sa kama.

He sighed. “Does that really bother you? You… need to sleep and rest, Seleira.”

I frowned but I understand him. Maybe next week, then?

“Next week, then?”

His face lit up. “Next week it is.”

Hindi na ako sumagot dahil humikab na ako. I want to sleep with him again. Yumakap ako sa kanya at ako na mismo ang umupo sa hita nya. I crave his warmth so bad.

Pinaharap nya ako at dahan dahang hinalikan. I held onto his neck, enjoying his hot steamy kiss.

He then slowly lay me in bed and went on top of me without breaking the kiss. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa t shirt nya dahil sa nararamdaman. His kisses always set my whole system on fire!

I giggled when our kisses are making sounds. He laughed with me, too, with his deep voice. I tried biting his lower lip to which he groaned. I couldn’t help my giggles when he kisses me so hungrily that he’s almost sucking my lips.

“Hubby,” I called between our kisses.

“Hmm?”

Bumaba ang halik nya sa leeg ko at pinanggigilang kagatin iyon. I laughed and hit him softly.

“Don’t!”

“Why not?” He asks. I tilted my head to give him more access of my neck. Hinaplos-haplos ko ang kanyang buhok.

Hindi na ako sumagot dahil muli nya akong hinalikan sa labi. I smiled at him after the kiss and gave him many kisses in the cheek which made him chuckle.

“I’m loving you even more when you’re pregnant,” he suddenly said and started caress my tummy.

“Why?” I playfully asked.

“Malambing ang asawa ko,” nanlalambing nyang sabi at ngumisi. I shrieked when he started tickling my waist. Bumaba sya at pinantayan ang aking tyan.

“Hubby!” Tili ko at tumawa. Nanahimik lamang ako nang huminto na sya at hinalikan na lamang ang tyan ko.

Maya maya ay hinaplos nya naman ang legs ko at pinagdiskitahan ang talampakan ko. Tumili akong muli habang tumatawa.

“No! Stop! Hubby!” Tumatawa kong sabi. Nakakakiliti! He is chuckling and enjoying my reactions with what he’s doing.

Sa sobrang kiliti ko ay hindi ko sinasadyang nasipa ang mukha nya.

Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko at natigilan din. Tumabingi ang mukha nya at nag-igting ang kanyang panga.

“H-hubby…” kinakabahan kong tawag pero hindi ko napigilan ang tawa.

“Hubby, sorry na, ikaw kasi eh-” uupo sana ako para daluhan sya pero mabilis nya akong inihiga at pinatungan muli.

“You, pretty sadist,” nanunuya nyang sabi. Itinaas nya ang dalawa kong kamay sa aking uluhan at ginamit lamang ang isang kamay para hawakan iyon.

Nag-init agad ang aking pisngi sa aming posisyon. “Sorry na nga…”

He kissed me again tenderly. Gusto ko sanang hawakan ang pisngi nya pero ang mga kamay ko ay hawak hawak nya.

I tried grinding while under him. He quickly lost his cool and glared at me. “Don’t,” napapaos pero nagbabanta nyang sabi.

“Why not?” ginaya ko ang tono nya kanina at humagikhik.

Mariin syang pumikit.

“Why not, hubby? Ayaw mo ba sa akin?”

Marahas syang bumuntong hininga bago ako halikan muli. Pilit kong kinukuha ang aking mga kamay mula sa paghahawak nya para mas mahalikan sya, but he just won’t give me my hands!

“Ayaw mo sa amin ni baby?” pilya kong tanong nang putulin nya ang halik.

He groaned before laying down beside me and carrying me to lay above him like a big baby. Ngumuso ako at sumiksik sa leeg nya.

“I love you both,” he whispered while stroking my hair. Mas lalo naman akong sumiksik sa kanya.

I hope we’re not heavy! Nakahiga ako sa dibdib nya and my whole body is on top of him.

“Baka mabigat kami ni baby,” nakanguso kong sabi.

“I’m strong,” arrogance is heard in his voice. Pabiro kong hinampas ang dibdib nya pero ako lamang ang nasaktan dahil matigas iyon.

“Wife, my kisses, please.”

“We kissed many times already this morning!” sumbat ko habang nakangisi.

Dahan dahan nya akong inihiga at umibabaw syang muli. I happily put my hands on his shoulder.

“Fuck,” he cursed. “We should be eating now so we can leave, but I want to cuddle you so bad. I want to cuddle until the sun sets.”

Tumawa ako at hinampas sya. “Ang OA mo talaga!”

But he just sighs. “It would be very hard for me to leave my babies for work.”

I pouted which he took the sign to kiss me again. I laughed when he’s almost sucking my entire lips. Tumawa rin sya sa kanyang mababang boses.

Hay, nakakabaliw ka, Azriel.

Hiyang-hiya ako sa mesa nang nasa dining room na kami para kumain ng almusal habang si Azriel ay busyng-busy sa paglalagay ng agahan sa plato ko. It’s like he didn’t mind it at all.

E, paano ba naman kasi, nahuli kami ni Tito sa kwarto na naghahalikan. Mabuti at halikan lamang at hindi kung ano!

“Azriel, ang sabi ko, pakainin ng agahan si Seleira, hindi sya ang kainin! Malay ko ba at nag-mumukbangan na kayo, ke aga aga!” nakangising-aso si Tito sa amin.

Humalakhak naman si Tito Hiro habang inilalapag sa mesa ang juice ni Tito.

I pouted and blamed Azriel in my mind. The brute just chuckled as if it’s funny!

“Hayaan mo na, mag-asawa ’yan…” Tito Hiro said.

Kumunot ang noo ni Tito na tila may na-realize bago balingan si Tito Hiro. “Have we tried that already?”

“Tried what?” tanong naman ni Tito.

“A kiss like that! Like how Azriel kissed her. A vacuum kiss or something-”

“What the fuck?” natatawang mura ni Tito Hiro.

Nag-init agad ang pisngi ko at masamang tiningnan si Tito. Ang walang hiyang si Azriel ay may gana pang tumawa.

“Hiro-”

“Shut you mouth, babe.” Agad syang pinigilan ni Tito Hiro sa pagsasalita.

Pinanlakihan ko ng mga mata si Azriel. He’s shamelessly smirking at me.

“Eat,” Azriel whispered to which I nodded.

“At least you didn’t caught us having-” tumawa ako nang marahang tinakpan ni Azriel ang aking bibig.

Tito laughed before giving me his final bitchy look.

Dinaan na lang namin ang lahat sa tawanan. Although a part of me is still concern about my father, nanaig sa akin na hindi ako dapat ma-stress para sa baby namin. I had a fun morning together with them.

“So, hindi tayo bibisita ngayon? Don’t worry, I’ll visit him, hija. Magpahinga ka na sa mansyon nyo…” sambit ni Tito na tinanguan ko. Nabanggit na namin na uuwi kami.

“I hired Linda again,” he whispered.

My eyes widened in excitement. Tumawa ako at pumalakpak. Yes, Linda! My favorite witch!

“Thank you, hubby! She’s the wicked witch!” hagikhik ko. He smiled and wiped the side of my lips with a tissue.

I am excited to see that rude and no filter-mouthed witch again! Mabuti naman at talagang umiyak ako noong umalis sya.

My phone beeped with a text from Pearl telling me if they can go to my condo to talk about things. Sinabi ko naman ang tungkol doon kay Azriel.

“Not now, wife. Just tell them to go straight in the mansion, text them the address. Ipapakuha ko na rin ang mga gamit mo sa condo mo, ipalilipat ko.”

“Your mansion got renovated, I heard,” si Tito kay Azriel.

“Yes, Tito. One of the guestrooms is still under construction again. It’s for our baby,” Azriel said with a genuine smile in his lips.

Napangiti rin ako dahil talagang marami syang plano para sa baby namin. Azriel is a man with future plans.

“Ooh! That’s great!” masayang sabi ni Tito at pumalakpak pa. “Hmm… I can’t wait to know the sex of your baby!”

“We’re planning to adopt, too…” singit ni Tito Hiro.

I smiled in genuine happiness. Seeing my Titos happy makes me happy, too. One things is just the missing piece of my life which is… sadly… my dad.

Mahal ko si Daddy although he did bad things to me and Azriel. I can sense Azriel’s anger but he just chooses not to speak about it.

“Yes. A baby girl, maybe,” kibit balikat ni Tito.

See, straight people do not have a reason to hate homosexuals at all. For example, this one… The babies and children that they are abandoning are being raised by people like my Titos. It’s not a sin to be homosexual, but to hate others for a shallow reason is.

“A baby girl!” pag-uulit ko.

“Yeah,” they both laughed heartily which is a good view for me. Tito is very happy with him.

Tumingin ako kay Azriel, “I want a baby girl.”

“I want a boy-”

“There’s no way this will be a boy!” giit ko at hinaplos ang sariling tyan.

Nakihaplos din sya pero marahas kong inalis ang kamay nya. “It’s my baby!”

“Our baby,” malambing nyang sabi. Inirapan ko sya at hindi na pinansin.

A baby boy, huh? Okay lang naman but I want a baby girl!

“Thank you,” Azriel said when we’re about to go off.

“Mag-iingat kayo! Seleira, ah? Ang baby,” paalala ni Tito at hinalikan ako sa pisngi. Tumango ako at nakipag-beso rin kay Tito Hiro. Tinapik naman ang balikat ni Azriel ni Tito.

“Take care of her,” he said.

“I will.”

“Thank you, tito, tito Hiro! Kakatok na ako sa susunod!”

Sa byahe ay good mood kaming dalawa, lalo na si Azriel. He’s softly banging his head, sinasabayan ang beat ng napili kong kanta sa kanyang iPad.

Good days like this just feels different. It feels so light. Feels like summer… or spring. Like flowers, fresh air, greens, hills, and stuffs like that.

“Azriel,” I called.

“Hmm?”

“Can you buy me gummy bears?” inaantok kong tanong.

“Are you sleepy?” nauna nyang tanong. I nodded. Nag-drive sya gamit ang isang kamay habang may kinuha sa backseat. It’s my the same pink neck pillow.

I smiled and put it on my neck. Inayos nya rin ang kung ano sa upuan ko kaya bahagya akong naging komportable.

“I’ll buy you gummy bears. Sleep well, wife.”

Those are the last words I heard before finally falling asleep.

The next thing I know is I’m already in our room, laying in bed, with Linda giggling excitedly right in front of my face.

“Gising ka na, ma’am!” she exclaimed.

Kumunot ang noo ko at itinulak sya nang bahagya. Hindi pa ako nakakapagsalita, ni wala pa ako sa wisyo, niyakap nya ako nang napakahigpit.

“I miss you, ma’am! Grabe, dati alaga alaga lang kita tapos nitong mga nakaraang linggo, nasa TV ka na! Pati sa mga social media, tapos meron din sa billboards! Tapos buntis ka, ma’am! Jusko! Nagkabalikan na kayo! Tuwang-tuwa ako!” sunod sunod nyang sabi at halos mapisat ako sa tuwa nya.

“Linda,” narinig ko ang boses ni Azriel. Agad ko syang hinanap habang shineshake ako ng tuwang-tuwa na si Linda.

“You’re squeezing my babies,” he said and went near me.

Humagikhik si Linda bago ako pinakawalan. Itinaas ko ang dalawa kong kamay at agad nyang nakuha iyon para yakapin ako.

“How’s your sleep?” he asks gently. I heard the witch’s laugh again.

“Very fine.”

“You skipped your vitamins this morning.” May bahid ng inis ang kanyang boses.

I pouted and touched my tummy. I’m sorry, baby, mommy was sleepy!

Napansin ko ang iilang pagbabago sa kwarto. Mas lumaki ito at napinturan ng mas vibrant na shade ng puti. Habang pababa kami ay marami ngang nagbago. The mansion got renovated. Many new vases are placed at every corner.

Nilingon ko ang katapat na kwarto ng aming kwarto. It is very noisy inside and there are some men workers, too.

“That’s the room I’m talking about… It’s for our little.”

Ngumiti ako at tumango. It is right in front of our room.

Sa hagdan ay binati ako ng mga maids. Natatandaan ko ang iba sa kanila pati na rin ang driver.

“Welcome back, ma’am!”

“Finally, nagkabalikan na sila ni ma’am!”

“Congrats, sir! Hindi na po bugnutin araw-araw?” biro noong driver.

I laughed and just waved at them. Azriel just smirked at them.

“Ito, ma’am! Mga sabaw talaga ang niluto ko dahil mabuti iyan sa pagbubuntis!” Si Linda nang nasa dining room na kami.

Agad akong natakam at umupo. Nagsalin ng sabaw si Azriel sa aking bowl na sinimulan kong kainin.

“Hmm… Ma’am, oh!” nakangising sabi ni Linda at inginuso ang dibdib ko.

Nakapag-palit na pala ako ng damit. She’s probably the one who changed me… or Azriel. I don’t really mind Azriel changing my clothes. He’s my husband after all.

“Oh? It’s a new nightie, hubby bought this for me,” kibit balikat kong sabi. Azriel kissed the side of my forehead.

“Hindi ’yan, ma’am. Lumalaki ata ang suso nyo?” she asked shamelessly. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Wala talagang filter ang bunganga ng isang ’to!

“Ano?!”

“Oo, ma’am. Ayan, oh,” itinuro nya pa. “Hindi naman ganyan ’yan noong huli kong kita, eh.” Kumunot pa ang noo nya.

“Shut up!” inirapan ko sya at nag-iinit na rin ang pisngi ko.

“Dahil ata sa pagbubuntis o dahil kay Sir?” humahikhik sya habang ako ay gustong-gusto na syang sakalin.

Azriel laughed with her, too, which makes me more mad. Masama kong binalingan si Azriel.

“You think it’s funny?” I asked sarcastically. Pinalo ko ang kamay nyang gumagapang na naman sa aking bewang.

“I’m sorry,” he said but a ghost of smile is still evident in his lips.

Hindi ko na sila pinansin kahit ang paminsan-minsang hirit ni Linda. I just continued eating my lunch and after that, I started eating my gummy bears.

“I’m going to take a shower,” I said.

“Let’s go,” he said. Sya pa mismo ang naunang maglakad papuntang banyo ng aming kwarto.

“I said me!”

“Baby, please… I haven’t take a shower either-”

“Pagkatapos ko na! O kaya sa baba ka maligo or in the guestrooms,” sabi ko.

He frowned. “But I’m your husband…” pagdadahilan nya na akala mo’y sapat nang dahilan. Tinawanan ko sya at saka inirapan.

“Just leave me, ass.”

“Please, don’t you want it? Let’s chill in the tub…”

Napaisip ako at mukhang relaxing nga iyon. Chill, huh.

“Fine!”

“Tomorrow, we’ll go somewhere. It’s a place where husbands give prenatal massage to their wives. There’s also an instructor… It’s good for the both of you,” he said gently. Niyakap nya ako mula sa likod at agad akong napangiti.

“Really?”

“Yes.”

My heart is so happy having him as my husband and the father of my child. He is changing and getting more mature and mature every single day. He is doing his best to be a good father and husband and so should I.

Chapter 38

Sorry

“The worst thing that I’ve ever do… was what I did to you…”

I sing the song “betty” very softly while caressing his hair. He is sleeping with his face buried on my chest. It’s 1am and kakatulog nya lang dahil sa ginawang trabaho kanina sa kanyang laptop.

“Azriel,” I called.

Hindi na sya nakasagot at marahil ay malalim na ang tulog.

Later today, we’ll be leaving for my prenatal massage. I also texted Pearl that we can talk here this morning.

I grabbed my phone and tried checking my Instagram. Ngayon ko na lamang ito mabubuksan muli dahil ngayon ko lang ulit naisipan.

Azriel’s official instagram is now active again. I tried searching his username and I immediately smiled. May mga posts na sya sa kanyang feed bukod sa isang piraso nyang picture.

His feed is full of my pictures. Mayroong tulog ako tapos ay nakaunan ako sa kanyang dibdib. Meron ding selfie ko sa kanyang phone. Merong stolen at posted din ang picture naming dalawa days ago when I was in a photoshoot. Natawa pa ako dahil either puso lang ang caption o kaya’y ang isang salitang “Wife.”

Of course, it got million of likes and comments. Hindi na rin ako nagtaka at sumabog na ang message request ko dahil sa rami ng nagme-message.

However, he is not on my feed. Maybe I’ll just make another account so I can post our pictures, too. Hindi kasi pwedeng basta basta akong magpo-post doon sa aking main account. Pearl will eat me alive!

Natawa ako at naisip i-search ang instagram ni Tito. I think he has one… or not?

Luckily, meron. He has some posts at totoo nga. Nainis ako sa sarili dahil ngayon lamang naisipan syang i-stalk. If I’ve done this before, edi maaga kong nalaman ang sikreto nya… or he blocked me back then like a teenager hiding his naughty posts from relatives.

They are three years already na ni Tito Hiro dahil merong post from 2018 na picture nilang dalawa.

They are on a beach. I don’t know where but Tito Hiro is hugging him from the back. They are both topless and their background is the beach.

Sa second pic ay nasa cottage na sila. Still topless and they are both sitting. Tito has a flower on his ear. Nakaakbay si Tito Hiro at nakahalik sa kanyang pisngi.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko dahil sa nararamdamang kilig para sa kanila. Oh my gosh! I never knew this!

Sa third pic ay… nasa hotel na sila at nasa kulay puting kama. Tito Hiro’s legs are widely spread while Tito is in between him. They look cute, not gonna lie!

I giggled while trying to find Tito Hiro’s instagram handle. Natawa pa ako lalo dahil puro ito stolen pics ni Tito. Merong awkward pero meron ding gwapo pa rin si Tito kahit hindi sya aware na kinukuhanan sya ng litrato.

Tito Hiro’s posts of Tito’s stolen pictures started from 2016. Yes, that’s right! Maybe… they both knew each other since 2016 tapos naging sila lang noong 2018?

Tito Hiro started posting him even when they are not yet in a relationship while Tito only started posting noong sila na. Pakipot pa si Tito, huh. Baka sya ang niligawan!

Binigyan ko lamang ng atensyon si Azriel nang mahina sya umungol at niyakap pa ako lalo. I smiled and finally put my phone down to hug him. Even in his sleep, he still wants my attention.

I want to do everything I can para makabawi kay Azriel. Sabik na sabik pa rin sya sa atensyon at effort ko kaya I’m trying my best to give him.

But sometimes, I just feel so irritated to him. Kahit anong gawin nya, naiirita ako pero gusto ko namang niyayakap at hinahalikan nya ako!

“Nakakainis ka, hubby,” I whispered straight to his ear… then I bite it. He groaned again and tried to find my face even when his eyes are closed.

I giggled when he found my face. Wala sa sarili nya akong hinalikan sa noo bago hapitin sa kanyang dibdib. I pouted and punched him softly.

I hate you, hubby, but I would puke if I married other man instead of you.

“Oh bakit, ayaw mo? He looks friendlier. Mayaman din,” sulsol sa akin ni Tito Glassifer. We are currently here in a business party, sightseeing some boys.

Tinitigan ko ang lalaking tinutukoy nya. I almost puke just by imagining I’ll marry that man. The man, to my surprise, is already looking at me. He winked and his eyes run down on my body in a very malicious way.

I sighed and rolled my eyes at him before turning to Tito. “No way. He looks older than you, Tito.”

Humalakhak sya at umiling-iling.

“Then go, marry that young Nickolson. Actually, papayag naman si Kuya kahit kanino ka magpakasal. Basta mayaman at magpakasal ka na ASAP, that’s what he wants,” he explained and drink on his wine glass. “Hindi naman kailangang Nickolson talaga, basta mayaman lang.”

Umismid ako. “He’ll just selling me indirectly!”

“I know!” Frustrated nyang sabi. “Kung ayaw mo, Seleira, I’m not forcing you to. Ayokong magpakasal ka agad. You didn’t even explore yet!”

“I’ve explored enough-”

“That’s not what I’m talking about. Iyong explore na travel, ginagawa iyong mga gusto mo, things like that! Hindi explore sa lalaki!”

Tumawa ako at uminom sa aking juice. Magsasalita pa sana ako pero natanaw ko na ang lalaking pinakaayaw kong makita.

Seryoso at arogante ang itsura pero nang magtagpo ang mga mata namin ay may kung anong emosyong dumaan sa kanyang mga mata.

Ugh, I hate him! He’s so handsome but I don’t like him! He’s desperate just like any boy I’ve kissed!

“Ayan na,” nakangising bulong ni Tito.

“Let’s go, tito. We have to go!” natataranta kong bulong.

“Kadarating lang natin, jusko! Palagi kang ganyan!”

“I’ll go home first, then!”

“Uh uh, wala kang kotse at gabi na para mag-commute. Just chill, may hinihintay pa ako.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at saka sya tinitigan. “Sino? Babae mo? You haven’t introduce any woman to me yet!”

That’s true. Wala pa syang babaeng pinapakilala simula noon. O baka wala lang talaga syang kinikitang babae for now?

“Tara na kasi, tito!” pabulong kong sigaw nang marealize na lumalapit na ito sa amin. Tumitigil lang kapag may mga bumabating businessmen at iilang babae pero ang titig ay nasa akin pa rin.

He’s like a hawk watching me from afar.

“Takbo ka nang takbo d’yan, e, ang gwapo gwapo. Look at those girls drooling over him. Even Samantha Rodriguez is silently watching him, oh? Pero nasa iyo lang ang atensyon.”

“I don’t care! I have a boyfriend-”

“Who’s your boyfriend for this week?” tanong nya.

“Duke.”

“Who’s that?”

“Duke Samirrez from Architecture department.”

Muli kong ibinalik ang tingin sa lalaki. Nag-igting ang panga nito pero nag-iwas na ako agad ng tingin. Mabilis ko nang hinila si Tito kahit na nagrereklamo pa sya.

“Seleira, I told you may kikitain ako rito!” inis nyang sabi pero nagpapahila naman.

“Just tell her you can’t go!”

“Fine! Iuuwi muna kita but I’ll be back here. May usapan kami at baka bukas na ako makauwi.”

“What? Sino ba ’yan? Baka makabuntis ka, Tito!” sabi ko at plastik na ngumingiti sa iilang lalaking humaharang para bumati.

“Stupid girl! Basta, bukas na ako uuwi. Sa condo nya ako ngayong gabi. Lock everything in the house.”

Hindi ko na sya tinanong pa ng kung ano ano para mas mabilis kaming makalabas ng venue. Daddy si not here because he’s in Batanes for some business trip.

I snapped back in reality when Pearl hugged me. They are already here.

This morning, Azriel and I woke up and we both ate breakfast. He just had to go out shortly for some errand to run. Minutes after he left, Pearl and the whole squad (except Adonis) came.

“I’m happy you’re pregnant… but fuck, this gives me headache more than my boys do!”

Pearl rolled her eyes but her lips remained smiling. Tumawa kami pero laglag panga pa rin si Hope sa aking tabi, hindi pa rin makapaniwala.

“Does your mom know?” tanong ko at nilingon ang katabing kasalukuyang umiinom ng juice.

“Yeah,” Adam answered and put his glass down. “A bit shocked, but mabilis ding natanggap.”

I sighed. “I’m really sorry, Adam. I know we have contracts already together with Tita Elyse but…” I stopped when I feel like my tears are about to burst.

“Hoy, ’wag mong paiyakin ’yan!” Iritadong sabi ni Pearl at kumain ng kanyang cake.

“Fuck, sorry,” medyo naalarmang sabi ni Adam. He put his hand on my back and caressed it softly. Bumalik naman ang luha ko dahil doon.

“Grabe, hindi talaga ako makapaniwala, ma’am! Ang bilis kasi!” natutuwang sabi ni Hope. Her eyes are shining and her smile is very genuine.

“By the way,” bumaling si Adam kay Pearl. “Are you gonna publicize it?”

Pearl stroked her hair in an irritated way. “Once the sex is revealed, I guess. Kapag nakita sa public na malaki na ang tyan, issue na naman ’yan na itinatago raw.”

“E, ano naman, ma’am? May asawa naman si Ma’am,” inosenteng sabi ni Hope. Tumango naman ako.

“Kahit na, Hope. Anyway, malalaman at malalaman din naman since the excuse I’ll use for the contracts she have signed is because she’s already pregnant. Ingat na ingat ang asawa,” Pearl said and she smirked. “By the way, pahingi ng copy ng mga resibo and results mo sa ospital.”

Tumango ako.

“Naku, opo, ma’am Pearl! Ingat na ingat iyang si Sir kay Ma’am!” hindi na napigilang sumingit ni Linda na kanina pa nakatayo sa gilid at naghihintay ng utos.

They all laughed except me and Adam, he just smirked.

“Talaga? Paanong pag-iingat ba ’yan?” Pearl asked the witch playfully.

“E, halos hindi na po patapakin ng lupa, ma’am! Kahit ata pagligo nagsasabay! Itong umaga, grabe ang paalala sa akin sa ingatan si Ma’am kase kailangan nyang umalis saglit. Gusto pa-”

“Shut up!” inis pero natatawa kong sabi. Nagtawanan din sila Pearl ngunit hindi na sila nagulat.

The talk about what are we gonna do continued. Pearl discussed what should be done.

I actually feel bad for everyone. I blame myself for this problem but at the same time, I am very happy with our baby. Talagang nakakalungkot lang na ganito.

“I’m really sorry, everyone…”

“Shit, ’wag kang iiyak, lagot ka sakin, Seleira!” nagbabantang sabi ni Pearl.

Tumawa ako pero pinupunasan ko na rin ang luha ko. Adam helped me with his handkerchief na smells like him.

“Okay lang, ma’am. Mas masaya kaming magkaka-baby ka na,” nakangiting sabi ni Hope.

“Naku, ma’am! Tumahan kayo, baka magalit si Sir,” natatawang sabi ni Linda bago tumabi sa sofang kinauupuan ko. She wiped my face and caress my back. Binawi ni Adam ang kanyang kamay nang sikupin  ni Linda ang buhok ko para itali. Inayos nya rin ang strap ng aking suot na bestida.

“Oo nga! It’s fine, Seleira, ako na ang bahala,” Pearl assured. I nodded sadly.

Tumayo muli si Linda sa gilid pagkatapos akong ayusan.

“Do not think much. It’s fine for Mama, I swear. She just couldn’t visit since she’s a very busy woman. She was sad that her favorite one will have a break, but it’s really fine. She was happy for your baby and looking forward for your child. Stop thinking too much, Seleira,” mahinahong sabi ni Adam at bahagyang tinapik ang balikat ko.

Their encouring words calmed me. I nodded and smiled a bit. Nag-usap pa kami nang kaunti bago sila magkayayaang umuwi na dahil may kanya-kanya pang trabaho.

I admit. I miss it. I miss going with them for gigs and such.

“Si Sir, ma’am,” mahinang sabi ni Linda kaya nilingon namin ang main door.

My heart jumped in excitement just by seeing my husband. He’s just wearing his usual black longsleeves polo and slacks. Medyo magulo ang buhok, seryoso, at nakatitig na ngayon sa akin habang humahakbang nang mabilis at malalaki. Mayroon ding susi sa kanyang kanang kamay.

They stood up to greet my husband. Mabilis na lumipat ng upuan si Adam nang mapansin nyang madilim na nakatitig sa kanya si Azriel.

“Not him, punching me again,” natatawa nitong bulong.

“You’re done?” tanong nya kina Pearl saka lumapit sa akin at agad pumulupot ang braso sa aking bewang. He occupied Adam’s former seat. Narinig ko naman ang hagikhik ni Linda sa gilid.

“Yes. Actually, paalis na kami,” sagot ni Pearl at hinagilap ang bag bago ako muling balingan. “Why? May gagawin kayo?”

“We’re going to a prenatal pregnancy massage home,” Azriel answered for me. I nodded and lean on my husband’s chest even more. Ang bango nya at hindi nakakasawa.

“Ooh, how about the media?” tanong ni Pearl at sinulyapan si Azriel.

“I already did something. Don’t worry.”

Pearl smirked at me before nodding. I stood up and Azriel immediately hold my hand to guide me.

“Hmm ingat,” I reached for Pearl to give her a kiss on the cheek. She kissed my cheek, too.

“Ingat din. Your baby is more important.”

I nodded and smile before turning to Hope to give her a kiss on the cheek, too.

“Ingat, ma’am! Text text na lang,” nakangiti nyang sabi. Tumango ako bago mabilis na niyakap si Adam.

“Ingat. Don’t worry,” he said. Tumango ako at hinatid sila sa main door. Si Azriel ay agad na yumakap mula sa aking likod at hinaplos ang aking tyan.

“Have you eaten?” he asks. Hinarap ko sya at saka hinaplos ang kanyang mukha. Ang kanyang mga braso ay nanatili sa aking bewang.

“Yup. You?”

Hindi nya ako sinagot at hinalikan lamang. Napakapit ako kaagad sa kanyang balikat dahil agad na nanghina sa kanyang halik. Bahagya ko lamang syang itinulak nang narinig ko ang kinikilig na tawa ni Linda.

Iniwas ko ang aking mukha kay Azriel upang pandilatan ng mata si Linda. She winked at me before walking away.

“Baby,” he calls.

“Hmm?”

Hindi sya muli sumagot at hinalikan lamang ako ulit. Pagkatapos ay ibinaon nya ang kanyang mukha sa aking leeg at inamoy amoy iyon.

“You smell so good. You took a bath?”

Umiling ako. “Not yet. Mamaya pa bago tayo umalis.”

Tinitigan nya muna ako bago muling bumalik sa aking leeg.

“Azriel,” tawag ko dahil nakikiliti ako sa paghalik-halik nya. Isinandal nya ako sa pintuan bago pag-igihin ang ginagawa.

“Stop. The maids might see us,” I told him. We are not in our room!

“Ang bango mo,” he said like an addict. “I’m having a boner.”

“What?!” agad ko syang itinulak. “Ang bilis!”

Namumungay ang mga mata nya nang titigan ako ulit. Inabot ko naman ang kanyang buhok at hinaplos iyon. Napapapikit sya saglit pero nagbabaga na ang kanyang mga mata.

“You just smell so good… so feminine and ladylike.”

Tumawa ako at saka sya hinampas. Dumaing nga lang ako dahil ang tigas ng kanyang braso. He quickly grabbed my weak pale hand to kiss.

Hindi na ako nagulat nang buhatin nya ako. I laughed and kissed him on his cheek. Nakakataba ng puso ang mga panlalambing ni Azriel kahit minsan ay OA na sya. He’s just so handsome and hot and cute at the same time.

Inilapag nya ako sa kama at saka yumakap. I knew it, magpapalambing lang ’yan.

“Mahal…” malambing kong tawag.

Natigilan sya at kumunot ang noo.

“Azriel, mahal ko…” mas nilambingan ko pa ang aking tono.

Hindi sya nakapagsalita at nagsimulang pumula ang tainga. I giggled and pinched his ears but he quickly caught my playful hands. I pouted at him.

“Mahal-”

“Tsk. T-that’s not how you call me,” he said and looked away.

Kunwari pang ayaw pero iba naman ang reaksyon ng katawan. Pumupula ang tainga at saka ang pisngi. Hindi na rin makatingin ng diretso sa akin.

“Mahal, ano ba! Ayaw mo ba?” I playfully asked. I tried holding his chin so he can face me but the brute didn’t let me.

“Halikan mo ako, mahal…” I cringe with my own words. I laughed at him because he freezed.

I wildly went on top of him to tease him. The brute’s jaw is clenching. Kagat kagat nya rin ang labi na mas nagdadagdag sa akin para asarin sya.

“Mahal, ayaw mo ba? Azriel, ayaw mo ba ng tagalog?” natutuwa kong tanong.

“Stop this,” namamaos nyang sabi pero inalalayan pa rin ang likod ko habang nakapatong ako sa kanya.

“Ayaw mo nga ng tagalog?!” pagpupumilit ko.

“Tang ina. Gusto ko, Seleira.”

Ako naman ang nagulat at nag-init ang pisngi. I giggled in so much joy.

“Talaga, gusto mo?” I asked playfully and traced his jaw. It moved which made me amused for a while.

“Kung ganon, pwede mo ba akong kant-”

“Fuck!” marahas nyang mura at tinakpan ang bibig ko. Tawang tawa ako habang ibinabalik nya ako sa pagkahiga.

His face is very red and his eyes are burning with so much desire.

“Mahal-”

“Shut up,” nanggigil nyang sabi. Ang sarap sarap nyang asarin, pulang pula ang kanyang mukha.

Kinagat ko ang labi ko at bahagyang inangat ang balakang. Sya naman ay ipinipirmi iyon.

“Mahal, gusto kong makant-”

“Putang ina,” mura nya at saka ako hinalikan para tumahimik ako.

I laughed while he’s kissing me. He’s so red. My husband is very red! It’s so great to tease him.

“Stop with your tagalog silliness, wife,” nagbabanta nyang sabi.

“But hubby!”

“Stop it… I’m serious.” He glared at me darkly. I just pouted and looked a him sweetly.

“I thought you’re having a boner?” I asked and started caressing his neck. Mabilis nya ring binawi ang kamay ko.

“Yes and you’re no help.”

I laughed again and I even clap my hands sa sobrang tuwa. Nakakatuwa syang asarin.

“I’ll do you roughly if you keep teasing me,” he warned.

Instead of being scared, I giggled in excitement. “Talaga?” natutuwa kong tanong.

Marahas syang bumuntong hininga bago humiga sa tabi ko at hinapit ako papunta sa matigas nyang dibdib. I hugged him and put my one leg on top of his.

“Stop this, please. You are pregnant with our baby.”

“Okay… hubby,” I said slowly. “Pahawak na lang-”

“Dammit, I said stop,” nagtitimpi nyang sabi. Something between his legs is now… erect. Bakat naman kapag normal lang, pero kung erect ay mas nagiging bakat ito. It’s huge and so cute that I want to grab it out of a sudden!

“Lagi na lang ayaw mo, hubby,” naiinis kong sabi.

He sighs. “Fine, but not the one below.”

Dinala nya ang kamay ko sa mainit at matigas nyang abs. Shit. Hinaplos haplos ko iyon para pagkaabalahan.

“It’s so warm and hard-”

“Shut up, wife.”

Ngumisi ako at hinaplos na lang iyon. Pero hindi talaga makatakas sa akin ang baba nya. Bumubukol kasi, it’s like it wants to get out of his pants and boxers.

“Hubby, can I touch it?” I asked sweetly and looked up at him. He looks ruthlessly handsome. Pulang pula ang mukha at nag-iigting ang panga. It’s like he’s supressing something.

“Hubby?”

“No.”

Nanlumo ako kaagad.

“Why not?”

“Just touch my damn abs, isn’t it enough for you, silly woman?”

“It’s not! Patahimikin mo ’yan kasi nadidistract ako!” pagsigaw ko sa kanya.

His lips slowly formed a smirk. He hugged me tightly and buried his face on my neck. Pinatungan nya rin ako ng kanyang binti kaya hindi na ako makagalaw but I can feel his hardness on my thighs!

“Don’t move.”

“Hubby!” inis na inis kong tawag. “Bitawan mo ako!”

“Just let me hug my wife and our baby,” malambing nyang sabi pero ako ay naiinis naman.

“No! Bitiwan mo kami!” I cried. “I can feel it in my thighs, hubby, please… I want touch it-”

“Fuck no,” he cursed with his usual deep voice.

“Bitiwan mo kami!” umiiyak kong sigaw.

“I’m sorry, baby,” he whispered. “I can’t let you touch it. I’ll go lose my control. I don’t wanna hurt you.”

Galit ako kay hubby kahit noong nakaligo at nakapagbihis na ako, handa na rin sa pag-alis namin. He went out of the bathroom only covered with the towel.

Tiningan ko ang repleksyon nya sa salamin. Basang basa pa ang taas nya at tumutulo ito sa kanyang dibdib at abs. Umiwas ako kaagad ng tingin dahil sa kung anong nararamdaman.

Pumasok sya sa kanyang walk-in closet na kulay itim. As usual, hindi nya isinarado ang pinto. Hindi nya talaga ’yan sinasarado dahil ayon sa kanya, “mag-asawa” naman daw kami.

Ibinalik ko na lamang ang tingin sa sariling repleksyon. Nakasuot ako ng black high-waist shorts at white sleeveless crop top. Nagsabit ako ng shades doon para mamaya.

Maya maya ay lumabas na si Azriel. Medyo magulo pa ang kanyang basang buhok. He’s also holding and reading something in his phone.

“Baby.”

Hindi ko sya pinansin at naglagay lamang ng red matte lipstick.

“I’m sorry. The clinic texted that we shouldn’t go for a massage yet.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at hindi na napigilang pansinin sya.

“Why?” tanong ko.

“They won’t give or teach pregnancy massages during the first trimester. There’s a potential that it can lead to miscarriage,” he explained. “I’m sorry, we can’t go.”

Yumuko ako at bahagyang nainis at nalungkot. So we are just staying here, then? Naiintindihan ko namang hindi pa pwedeng magpunta kami doon pero gusto kong lumabas kasama sya.

“So, we are just staying here, then?”

Bumuntong hininga sya bago ako lapitan. Agad kong naamoy ang kanyang bango. He smells mint and aftershave cream. It also added to things that made me sad, I want to see him with some stubbles.

Binuhat nya ako at sya ang umupo sa inuupuan ko bago nya ako ikandong. Natunaw agad ang galit ko kanina at yumakap na lamang sa kanyang leeg.

“I’m sorry. Where do you want to go?” he asks. Gumapang din ang kanyang kamay sa aking tyan at hinaplos iyon tulad ng lagi nyang ginagawa these days.

“Hmm…”

“Not very far. You need to rest and sleep more.”

“Wala kang trabaho?” tanong ko at hinarap sya. He took advantage of it and gave him a soft and quick kiss.

“I still have but I want to be with the both of you.”

“Kain na lang tayo, hubby…” nakanguso kong sabi. Hinalikan nya ako muli at ipinagdikit ang aming mga noo.

“Ng ano?”

“Ay, ’wag na pala…” pagbawi ko at umiwas ng tingin.

“Come on, wife,” pagsusuyo nya at hinabol ang aking tingin. “How about we go to a private pool?”

Medyo naging interesado ako doon pero mas masaya sana kung kasama namin sina Pearl o sina Tito.

“We have a pool here,” I said pouting.

“What do you want then? Don’t you want to go for a swim?”

“Let’s go to a beach with my Titos then? Tapos sina Pearl din?” pagsusuhesyon ko.

“Anything you like, wife.”

“But maybe they’re busy so I have to ask them first.”

“You should,” he said and nodded. “Now, where do you want us to go today?”

“Let’s go to cinema?” tanong ko at nilingon sya.

“Too crowded.”

“Museum?”

“That’s not your thing.”

“E, saan? Kahit saan naman maraming tao,” malungkot kong sabi at yumakap sa kanyang leeg.

“I dressed up for nothing,” mas lumungkot ang aking tono.

“Shh, we’ll go somewhere, wife.”

“Ay, alam ko na! Let’s go to daddy!”

“You told me you want to go there with Tito?”

“I changed my mind. Doon na lang, hubby!” atat kong sabi at shinake sya. He kissed my cheeks.

“Fine. St. Paul, is it?” tanong nya at masuyo akong hinahalikan.

“Yes.”

We cuddled a bit and he has some phone calls before we went down. Sinalubong kami ng nakangising si Linda sa ibaba ng hagdan. Hinampas ko naman ang kamay ni Azriel dahil halos buhatin na nya ako pababa.

“Saan kayo, ma’am?” nakangising bungad ng bruha. Nakatirintas pa ang kanyang buhok at pulang-pula ang labi.

“Kina daddy!” sagot ko at saka sya inirapan. She laughed and clapped her hands.

“Ingat, ma’am, sir! Uwi kayo ngayong gabi po?”

“Yes,” sagot ni Azriel at saka ako hinalikan sa sintido.

“Aw, sayang naman, sir. Akala ko mag-hohotel kayo.”

“Shut up, witch!” inis kong sabi sa kanya pero nakangisi lang sya. Sumasabay pa sa paglalakad namin.

“If she would request it, then we will.”

Inirapan ko silang dalawa at nauna nang lumabas. Handa na ang kotse ni Azriel sa tapat.

“Halika na, hubby.” sabi ko. Nakaaabang na ang driver para ibigay ang susi kay Azriel.

“Ingat, sir, ma’am.”

“Thanks,” I said.

“Psst… Romualdo!” mahinang tawag ni Linda mula sa likod.

Iritado ko syang nilingon at nakatingin pala sya sa driver. Kinindatan nya ito. I knew it! Didn’t I mention that I saw her once with our driver? Now, I can confirm it.

Kaya pala ayos na ayos ang bruha, huh. Nakatirintas at red lipstick pa.

Pumasok na ako nang pagbuksan ako ni Azriel. Ipinasok nya ang kalahating katawan upang suotan ako ng seatbelt. Pagkatapos ay isinarado nya at pumasok sa kabila.

I watched his skillful hands drive. His fingers are so long and it looks erotically sexy.

It wasn’t a long drive. SI watched his skillful hands drive. His fingers are so long and it looks erotically sexy. a Manila lang din ang ospital at 45-1 hr lang ang byahe.

Kung kanina ay excited ako, ngayon namang nagpa-park na kami ay dinalaw na ako ng kaba. I don’t even know why I feel nervous when he’s the one who did me wrong.

“You okay?” he asks and I felt the car stopped.

“Yeah,” I said, almost a whisper.

Tinanggal nya ang kanyang seatbelt bago lumapit para tanggalin ang akin.

“It’s gonna be okay, wife,” he assured and he gave me a long kiss on my forehead. Tumango ako at isinuot ang shades.

Paglabas pa lang namin ng kotse ay may dalawa ng guard na naghihintay sa amin. They escorted us to the insides of the hospital. Wala rin masyadong tao, kung meron man, ay hanggang tingin lamang. They all looked amused.

Binati kami ng iilang staff ng ospital na syang nginitian ko. Nag-log in kami sa entrance at pumirma. Pinapasok na rin kami ng guard pagkatapos and we then went to the information.

“Hmm… Farrah… Room 106 po. 4th floor.”

“Thank you,” I said

Pumasok kami sa elevator at bahagya pa akong natakot. Ghost hospital movies haunted me.

“Hubby,” I called softly.

“Hmm?”

Umiling ako at hinayaan syang halikan ang noo ko. Ginawa ko namang headband ang aking shades.

Hinanap namin ang room ni daddy at hindi na kami nahirapan pa. Labis labis ang kaba ko habang nasa labas. Azriel’s hand is in my waist while the other one knocked. Medyo nagtago pa ako sa kanyang likod dahil sa kaba.

It took a minute before someone opened the door.

Annika’s face lit up when she saw Azriel. Automatiko syang napangiti at halos hindi ako tinapunan ng tingin.

“A-Azriel!” gulat at natutuwa nyang sabi. “B-bumisita ka?”

Hindi sumagot si Azriel at iginalaw ang kanyang kamay sa aking bewang. That move gave Anikka’s hint to look at me. Agad lumukot ang kanyang mukha at dumaan ang iritasyon sa kanyang mukha.

“I want to see daddy,” I said.

“Bakit? Masama ang lagay ni Papa… Hindi sya maaring sigawan-”

“I said I want to see daddy!” pag-uulit ko at ipinadyak pa ang paa. I then glared at my husband.

“Let us in,” he said darkly to Anikka.

Walang nagawa si Anikka at mas malawak na binuksan ang pinto.

My heart immediately sank when I saw daddy there, sleeping. May mga aparatong nakakonekta sa kanya. He’s skinnier.

“D-daddy…” nanlulumo kong tawag at kumalas kay Azriel. Napatakip ako sa sariling bibig dahil naiiyak ako.

“Wife, do not stress yourself, please.”

“But daddy… Daddy, I’m here. I’m forgiving you na. I miss you,” umiiyak kong sabi at saka niyakap ang kanyang katawan.

Shit. He’s so skinny that I get hurt whenever his sharp bones hit me.

“Namayat sya dahil hindi ko kayang maibigay iyong masusustansyang pagkain na kailangan nya. Ni hindi nga sapat ang kinikita ko. Napupunta iyon sa hospital bills, sa mga bayaran sa bahay, sa gamot nya, sa lahat,” nanginginig ang boses ni Anikka.

A part of me feel so sad about what she just said.

“Wala ako masyadong mapagkuhanan ng pera dahil nga wala na akong trabaho sa kompanya. Adult na ako pero responsibilidad ko pa rin si Papa. Ni hindi ako makapag-focus sa buhay ko, Seleira.”

She started crying. I suddenly feel bad for her. Naninikip ang dibdib ko habang nakikita syang umiiyak dahil sa paghihirap.

“I-I’m sorry…” I said, crying softly. “For not helping with this thing.”

I was in top of my career while she’s here, struggling badly.

“Wife, stop crying,” nag-aalalang sabi ni Azriel at hinila ako para sa isang yakap.

This, too. I have the money, love, and Azriel while she is here in the lowest part of her life.

“I-I’ll help with the bills. I have savings-”

“’Wag na at baka isumbat mo pa-”

“Anikka, shut up and take my money! Hindi naman para sa iyo ito, this is for daddy!” Frustrated kong sabi.

“Yes, you both did me wrong but I want daddy to be healthy again! Hindi ko alam kung bakit ikaw pa ang galit gayong ikaw ang sumalbahe sa akin!” I added. My tears are falling uncontrollably.

Azriel cursed and quickly hushed me. Hinalik-halikan nya ang buhok ko at tinatahan ako. Kita ko naman ang pag-iwas ng tingin ni Anikka at pinunasan ang sariling luha.

“Hubby…” umiiyak kong tawag sa kanya.

“Fuck. I’m here, baby. I’ll help you, of course. Hush, hush, I’m here.”

Gumaan ang loob ko dahil sa sinabi nya. Hindi na rin nagsalita si Anikka at mukha na syang nahihiya ngayon.

“I’ll send a maid here to take care of your dad. I’ll pay everything here, too. I’ll send a refrigirator here and buy tons of healthy foods for him… Just stop. Stop stressing and crying, please, wife…” nagsusumamo nyang sabi. “I’m so worried for the both of you,” he added and caressed my tummy.

Pinunasan ko ang luha ko at tumango. Niyakap ko sya at paulit-ulit na hinalikan sa pisngi.

“Thank you, hubby… Thank you.”

“Of course, you’re welcome,” he said gently. “Always.”

A nurse entered to check on daddy. Nagkatinginan kami ni Anikka at parang may pinahihiwatig sya sa akin. I nodded and looked at Azriel.

“We’ll just talk,” I said.

“Hell no.”

“Saglit lang ’to. Please, hubby.”

Wala na syang nagawa pa dahil gusto ko ito.

Umupo ako sa dulong bahagi ng bench habang si Anikka ay nasa kabilang dulo. Narito kami sa garden ng ospital. Tahimik at sariwa ang hangin.

“I’m sorry…” panimula nya.

“Anikka.”

“I’m sorry sa lahat lahat… Wala akong kwentang kapatid… Mas matanda ako pero nagawa ko iyon. Nainggit ako nang husto sa iyo noon, patawarin mo ako, Seleira,” umiiyak nyang sabi.

She’s sobbing hardly. Pulang pula rin ang kanyang mukha.

“Anikka-”

“I’m sorry, naging inggitera ako. I’m sorry, naghangad ako ng hindi naman para sa akin. I’m sorry sinira ko kayo at gumawa ako ng mga kwento… I’m sorry, naging sobrang desperada ako. I’m sorry, sinubukan ko pa ring ahasin ang asawa mo noong nawala ka. I’m sorry, natuwa ako noong nawala ka… Hindi ko hiniling na mawala ka noon pero nangyari at tuwang tuwa ako. I’m sorry about it. I’m really really sorry, Seleira.”

Wala na ring tigil ang pagdaloy ng aking mga luha. Hindi na ako makapagsalita dahil siguradong mababasag ang aking boses.

“Anikka!” I called harshly when she started kneeling in front of me. Umiiyak akong tumingin sa paligid bago sya tiningnan muli.

“I-I’m really sorry. I don’t want to justify any of it pero sobra akong nagkagusto kay Azriel na hindi na kita inisip. Sampalin mo ako, Seleira… Sipain, sabunutan, gawin mo ang gusto mo. Oo, gusto ko pa rin si Azriel. Mahal na mahal ko sya pero hindi ko na iyon uulitin sa iyo, sa kanya, o sa kahit kaninong may asawa. I’m so sorry.”

Pinunasan ko ang luha ko at hinawakan sya sa balikat. “Get up!”

“Hindi… Gusto kong humingi ng tawad-”

“Tumayo ka sabi!”

Hindi pa rin sya tumayo. My heart aches so bad with our situation. She apologizes and every painful memory is coming back at me.

Masasakit na mga memorya kasabay ng pagsakit din ng aking dibdib. I’m crying so hard and I can barely see her because of the tears.

“A-anikka…” nahihirapan kong tawag.

“Seleira, I’m really sorry… Gagawin ko lahat mapatawad mo lang ako, kami ni papa…”

Hindi ko na maintindihan ang pinagsasabi nga dahil sumasakit at naninikip ang dibdib ko. Para akong kinakapos ng hininga dahil dito.

The last thing I remember is her panicking face then I fell down.

“I’m saying this now… maselan ang pagbubuntis ng misis mo, Mr. Nickolson. I’ve seen this the first time I checked her and it’s just days ago, and here she is again.”

I opened my eyes, only to find out I passed out again. Nahihilo pa ako at naramdaman ko kaagad ang bisig ni Azriel.

“This is her second time. Now, she had Vasovagal syncope. Extreme emotional distress triggered her. Huwag na sana itong maulit at baka humina ang kapit ng bata. Please take care or this will then lead to miscarriage.”

My eyes immediately watered with the thought of losing my baby.

“Fuck,” mura ni Azriel at niyakap ako. Agad akong umupo at sumubsob sa kanyang dibdib.

“I’m sorry, hubby,” umiiyak kong sabi.

“Hush, hush. I’ll never let this happen again,” bakas ang galit sa kanyang boses. Mas lalo akong naiyak sa isiping nagagalit sya sa akin.

“I’ll talk to you more about more informations. But I am telling you, hija, your pregnancy is very sensitive.”

“I’m sorry,” umiiyak kong sabi. I touched my tummy but Azriel’s hand is already there.

Tiningala ko sya at natakot ako nang pulang pula ang mukha nya at nag-iigting ang panga sa galit. Yumuko ako at nakonsensya.

I suddenly think of Anikka. Where are we, by the way? Is this the same hospital?

Kinausap pa kami ng doktora. Sobra sobra ang guilty ko dahil sa nangyari. I should be more careful now or I’ll… lose my baby. Azriel would be very upset and he might leave me.

Nang lumabas ang doktora ay halos hindi ako makapag-salita. Marahas na bumuntong hininga si Azriel bago ako ipaharap sa kanya.

Pumikit ako at hinanda ang sarili sa pagsigaw nya pero malambot na halik lamang sa noo ang natanggap ko.

“I will never let this happen again. I’m so worried, wife. Hindi na talaga. Tang ina. Hindi na pwedeng maulit ’to,” nanggigil nyang sabi.

“Hubby, I’m sorry. I’m such a careless mom-”

“Shh. I’m a useless husband for letting my wife end up like this.”

“Hubby! Ako ang may kasalanan sa inyo ni baby!”

He licked his lips before he cupped my face. Hinalikan nya ako habang pinupunasan ang aking pisngi.

“Stop this. Let’s stop the blaming, baby. Promise me you won’t ever stress or blame yourself again,” he said seriously.

“Hub-”

“Promise me,” giit nya at itinaas ang pinky finger.

I pouted and and raise mine, too. Pinagyakap namin ang aming mga pinky fingers pagkatapos ay niyakap nya ako muli.

“Nagagalit ka sa akin?” tanong ko sa maliit na boses.

“No.”

“Why does it feel like you are?”

“Nag-aalala ako nang sobra, Seleira,” he whispers.

“This won’t happen again, Azriel. I-I promise.”

We talked one more time to the doctor before we decided to go home. Hindi ako nahiya kahit noong buhatin nya ako papuntang parking lot. He carried me like a big baby, paharap ito at ingat na ingat.

Maybe I’ll just ready myself with an extra caring and OA Azriel.

“Hubby?”

“Hmm?”

“Where are we? This wasn’t the hospital where daddy is admitted.”

“We are in a different hospital. My trusted doctor is working here.”

“Ah.”

Hindi na ako ulit nagsalita sa takot naagalit sya. He is scary. Ang itim ng aura at sobrang unapproachable. Kung hindi nya lang ako niyakap kanina ay iiyak na ako sa takot.

“Where’s Anikka?”

“Still in St. Paul.”

“Did you get mad at her? It wasn’t her fault. She was apologizing and my chest was aching so badly that I couldn’t breathe. I remembered my painful memories…”

“Hush now. I got mad at her but I didn’t talk much. I will still help you and your family, so do not stress yourself about your father again.”

I smiled and nodded. “I’m sorry, really, hubby. I will take care of myself more.”

Hindi na sya sumagot at hinalikan na lamang ako sa noo. He opened his door and he made me sit on his lap. Naintindihan ko iyon at yumakap na lang sa kanya.

“What foods do you want?” tanong nya. Tiningala ko sya at umiwas sya ng tingin. He looks pained and hurt. Nag-aalala rin ang itsura nya.

“Please don’t worry too much, too, hubby.”

I smiled at him and reached for his lips. He quickly kissed me back. Hinaplos nya rin ang aking tyan.

He smiled and he sighed in relief. I will really stop over thinking and stressing myself. I should stop being selfish because I am not alone in this body anymore, I have our baby.

We stopped by a drive thru to get some food. Nakatulog ako sa byahe at paggising ko ay nasa kama na ako. Nakapagpalit na rin ako ng damit.

Azriel is like a creep in my side. He’s watching me while I was asleep. Ngayong nagising ay hinalikan nya ako sa sintido. Naramdaman ko rin ang kamay nya na humahaplos sa aking tyan.

I smiled at him to assure him I feel fine dahil halatang nag-aalala pa rin sya sa akin.

“How’s your sleep?”

“Fine. But I’m hungry…” reklamo ko.

“Yes, I know,” he said and kissed my cheek this time. “I ordered Linda to prepare food.”

I nodded and looked at the door. Someone knocked and I heard Linda’s voice. Azriel told her to come in.

Nag-aalala rin ang kanyang itsura habang dala dala ang tray. Inilapag nya iyon at dumiretso sa akin. Bumangon ako at agad nya akong niyakap.

“Ma’am, nag-alala ako! Nabanggit ni Sir nitong pagdating nyo tapos wala ka pang malay, akala ko kung ano na! Sasali rin ako sa inyo sa pag-iingat sayo!”

I laughed and hug her a bit before pushing her. I immediately felt Azriel’s possessive arms on my waist.

“Ayos lang ako! I will be more careful now!”

Bumuntong hininga sya. “Dapat lang, ma’am. Ito ngang pagkain, ako mismo ang nagluto para siguraduhing malinis at masustansya. Iyang karne ng baka pinakuluan ko talaga ’yan para walang mikrobyo!”

I giggled and nodded. “Thank you, witch.”

Napansin kong medyo magulo na ang tirintas nya at wala na rin ang kanyang pulang lipstick. Actually, there are still some traces but it is not fully there anymore.

“Kain na, sir, ma’am! Jusko! Kinabahan talaga ako!” she ranted while making her way out.

“I’ll feed you,” he said. I nodded at hinayaan syang ayusin ang pagkain.

Habang ginagawa nya iyon ay kinuha ko ang aking phone sa bedside table. There are some texts from people I know in work and there’s also this one.

Unknown Number:

I’m really sorry. Sana mapatawad mo ako pero maiintindihan ko kung hindi. Nakuha ko itong number mo kay Tito Glassifer.

• Anikka

Unknown Number:

Kumusta ka? Nagalit sa akin si Azriel pero naintindihan ko iyon. Sana hindi na kita kinausap o kaya hindi na ako umiyak at pinaalala ang mga nangyari three months ago para hindi nangyari ito. Hindi ko rin alam na buntis ka, sobra akong nagui-guilty.

Hindi na ako masyadong lalapit sayo kung ako ang dahilan ng stress mo. Huwag kang mag-alala, aalagaan ko si Papa.

Salamat sa inyo ni Azriel.

It’s like a warm hand touched my heart. Hindi ko alam kung totoo ito pero pakiramdam ko ay oo. Sana, nagbago na sya at sana mahanap nya na rin ang para sa kanya.

I saved her name in my contacts.

Ako:

Thank you. Do not be guilty, me and my baby are both fine. Thank you for being there for Daddy.

• Seleira

Then I turned my phone off. Sinubuan na ako ni Azriel at agad ko iyong kinain. I really hope everything will be fine now. Me, my baby, and Daddy.

“After this, we’ll just watch a movie in the movie room,” Azriel said.

Ngumiti ako at tumango. Hinalikan nya ako muli sa aking noo.

This. Times like this are really precious to me. I want to do normal things with only you, Azriel.

I am very content with him. I couldn’t ask for more.

Chapter 39

Parents

I moaned softly as I caress his hair. I pinched him when he suddenly bit the peak of my left mountain.

“Hubby, enough… Baka bumalik na sila rito,” sambit ko sa malambing na boses.

He didn’t answer though. He just continued sucking mine like a big baby who’s hungry for milk.

It’s been a month and my tummy is a bit noticeable now. We are currently here in a private beach, having some fun with our friends and my titos.

Pero itong lalaking ’to ay hindi mailugar ang mga kagustuhan nya. Also, he’s so over reacting na kahit sa pagligo ay nagsasabay kami. The past month, we always take a bath at the same time because he said he’s “scared” that I might slip off the floor or anything related to that.

Nagagalit pa sya sa tuwing nawawala ako sa paningin nya.

We visited Daddy twice last month, too. He’s getting better. Although Anikka wasn’t there the first time we visit, andun naman sya sa pangalawa.

“Uh, maayos na raw si Papa. Kailangan na lang talagang magpalakas dito saka yung maintenance nya,” Anikka said softly. Ni hindi rin sya makatingin sa amin.

“That’s good,” I said. Tiningala ko si Azriel at seryoso lamang ang ekspresyon nito. He also put the fruit basket and some foods we brought earlier down the table.

“Hmm, salamat. M-marami pang pagkain d-dito, salamat sa i-inyo,” nahihiya nyang sabi.

Tumango ako at inilibot ang mata sa paligid. Naroon na ang ref at mayroong isang maid na nakatayo sa gilid ng kama ni Papa.

“Good morning, ma’am, sir,” bati nya.

“How about you, Anikka? Where do you work?” I asked. Mukha pa syang nagulat nang bigla kong tanungin.

“Sa Del Sux lang… Natanggap din ako agad dahil may degree naman at experience.”

I nodded again.

A part of me wants to say that… I’ll convince Azriel to let her work in our company again since mukhang sina Tito lang ang namamahala doon. Having someone younger and has fresh new ideas will be good… right?

Pero siguro hindi muna ngayon. We need to adjust and we need more time. I’m also sure that Azriel will be mad. Actually, he’s already mad because of the shit we went through that is Anikka’s fault.

“I-ikaw? Hindi ka m-muna mag-tatrabaho? M-merong mga articles na k-kumakalat. Gusto ko sanang magsalita o mag-comment about doon pero tingin ko ay hindi mo magugustuhan,” medyo naiilang nyang sabi.

“Just let that pass. We’re gonna tell the media soon, too.”

“Oh! M-mabuti,” sabi nya at kinakabahang tumawa.

Napatingin ako kay Daddy nang gumalaw ito. This is the second time we’ll meet. Pagdilat ng mga mata nya ay agad nagkatagpo ang mga mata namin.

“S-seleira, anak!”

I smiled genuinely because of how he addressed me. Lumapit ako at niyakap sya. Meanwhile, Azriel remained silent at the side.

“How are you, daddy?”

“I’m fine. I’m really really sorry-”

“Daddy!” saway ko kaagad. “We’ve already talked about that. Ayos na sa akin ang lahat! We are okay now. All I need now is for you to get well.”

Ngumiti sya at tumango-tango. Lumagpas naman ang tingin nya mula sa akin papunta kay Azriel na nasa likod.

“You’re… a real man. Thank you so much, hijo. And I’m really really sorry. I wish I never do that.”

Mariin akong pumikit nang walang narinig na response galing sa asawa. I guess he’s still mad. Kumpara sa aming dalawa ay sya itong mas galit at may sama ng loob. Pero tinulungan nya pa rin sina Daddy dahil ito ang magpapasaya sa akin.

“Seleira… what I said that I wish I never cheated… I’m really sorry. I shouldn’t have said that. That’s not true, naguguluhan ako sa mga buwang iyon. I’m really really sorry,” lumandas ang luha sa pisngi ni Daddy. Umubo-ubo rin sya habang pinupunasan iyon.

“Papa…” nag-aalalang tawag ni Anikka.

Para namang kinukurot ang puso ko sa sinasabi ni Daddy. Napayuko ako at umiwas ng tingin sa kanya. I immediately felt Azriel’s support towards me. He hugs me and started kissing my forehead, tila tinatahan ako kahit hindi pa ako umiiyak. And thanks to that, my tears didn’t fall.

“Daddy, let’s forget about all of that now. We’ve learned our lessons and today, I wish nothing… but the best for the all of us.”

I went back to reality when Azriel called me.

“Hmm?”

“You’re so sexy,” he complemented in his usual husky voice.

“Hubby…” tawag ko ulit. I bit my lip because of the sensation I’m feeling. His tongue is so hot and it sets my whole system on fire whenever it touches my peak.

Natatanaw ko na si Pearl na umahon at ngayo’y papalapit na rito. Sina Tito, Hope, at Adonis naman ay nagkakasiyahan pa sa tubig.

“Azriel, si Pearl!” pasigaw kong bulong.

“I want more-”

“Shh!” Tinulak ko na sya at inayos ang strap ng aking bra habang sya ay nakaawang ang bibig at halatang bitin.

I’m wearing a red two piece swim suit while he’s topless and just wearing his beach shorts.

“Seleira, gusto ko pa.”

Pinandilatan ko sya ng mga mata habang sinusuot ang puting blazer. Nakasimangot sya pero tinulungan naman akong ayusin iyon.

“Oh!” bungad ni Pearl bago ngumisi.

I mentally slapped my forehead. Did she see it?!

Humalakhak sya bago binuksan at uminom ng beer in can. Ako naman ay bahagyang pinamulahan habang itong katabi ko ay titig na titig sa akin, nangungusap pa ang mga mata.

“Pearl, you’re dripping,” medyo utal kong sabi, inililihis ang kung ano man.

“Sige, kunwari hindi ko nakitang dumedede sa ’yo ang asawa mo, ha?” Natatawa nyang sabi. Pinigilan nya pa ang tawa pero humalakhak lang din sa huli.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko pero agad din akong pumikit nang mariin. Shit. I know right, she saw it!

“N-no,” ang tanging nasabi ko.

“Weh? Anong ‘No?’ Nakasubsob sa dibdib mo,” maarte nyang sabi bago tingnan si Azriel na hindi na maputol ang titig sa akin ngayon at walang pake sa pinagsasabi ni Pearl.

“Azriel, you did, right?”

“I did.”

Mas lalo akong nahiya at gusto ko na lang tumakbo. Look at this brute, he even admitted it!

Sinamaan ko ng tingin si Azriel habang sya ay naglalambing lang ang mga tinginan. He reached for my cheek to kiss. Pearl laughed again.

Umahon na rin sila kaya tumayo ako mula sa pagkakaupo at lumakad sa may labasan ng cottage. Azriel’s hand immediately went through my waist and stomach.

“Kain na!” sigaw ni Pearl mula sa loob.

Tito Hiro is running towards here while the three are just walking. Sinulyapan ko sya at kumuha sya ng dalawang tuwalya. Tumakbo sya ulit pabalik at binalot si Tito nito.

My eyebrow raised for that one little action.

“Halika na, Hope! Mamaya na ’yan!” rinig ko namang sabi ni Adonis.

Tiningnan ko si Hope na nakaupo at namumulot ng kung ano sa buhangin. My gosh, the sun is so harsh and she’s there!

“Seleira, tara!” yaya ni Tito na nakalapit na pala.

“Yeah.”

Gumalaw na rin si Azriel at mahina akong inaakay papunta sa loob.

“Wait lang, Kuya, may mga shells pa kasi-”

“Ako na ang kukuha nyan para sa ’yo! Dali na, mainit!” pagalit na sabi naman ni Adonis.

I joined them in the wooden table. Inaayos nila ang mga pagkain habang nagtatawanan. Huwag lang talagang magkakamali si Pearl na banggitin ang nangyari kanina!

Hope and Adonis then joined us. Nagbalot sila ng tuwalya at tumulong na rin.

“Oh, bawal ang beer sa buntis, ah?” nakangising sabi ni Pearl at kumagat sa hawak nyang barbeque. May hawak din syang beer can sa isang kamay.

“Bawal talaga at baka masapak ni Azriel ang magpapainom dyan!” Biro naman ni Tito. They all laughed except me… and Azriel that is so busy wiping my arms with a towel.

We are here in a private beach, just chilling and relaxing. Kaninang umaga pa kami dito at hanggang ngayon ay nagsasaya pa rin kami.

“Pineapple juice for you,” he whispered. Napabaluktot pa ako dahil sa kiliti nang tumama ang mainit nyang labi sa aking tainga.

Tumango ako at hinayaan syang magsalin ng juice sa isang plastic cup.

There are so many foods. Bukod sa catering na binayaran na ni Azriel ay may dala pang pagkain sina Pearl at sina Tito kaya medyo naparami talaga.

“Uh, Adonis, si Hope, hindi abot ’yung kinilaw,” Pearl said, smirking.

Inilipat ko ang tingin kay Hope na hindi nga maabot iyong “kinilaw,” whatever that is.

Umismid si Adonis bago kuhain ang plato para ibigay kay Hope. Hope blushed and uttered a small ‘thank you’ before putting some in her plate.

“Hmmm ang tagal malaman ng sex ng baby nyo, ano? Excited na ako. Tutulungan ko kayo sa pagpili ng pangalan,” singit naman ni Tito. His plate is full of shanghai. As in, walang ibang pagkain kung hindi iyan lang.

“No way, Tito! You suck at giving names!” agad kong reklamo.

Inabot sa akin ni Azriel ang baso na agad kong kinuha. Gumapang din agad ang matigas nyang braso sa aking bewang, umabot ito sa aking tyan kaya hinaplos-haplos nya iyon.

“I named you, you ungrateful girl!”

Inirapan ko sya at nagtawanan kami.

We started eating while talking about anything. Tumatawa ako sa kinukuwento ni Pearl, pero itong lalaking ’to ay halos sya na mismo ang magpakain sa akin.

“Azriel, kumain ka!” saway ko at itinuro ang table. He shook his head and just continue staring at me and also waiting for some food that will mess my face.

“Mukhang ikaw ang gustong kainin nyan, Seleira!” biro ni Tito. They laughed, even Tito Hiro!

Pero hinaplos ni Tito Hiro ang braso nya at may binulong na kung ano. Siniko naman sya ni Tito habang nakangisi.

“Hay! Sana makahanap din ako!” parinig ni Pearl sa gilid.

“Ayan oh, si Kuya Adonis,” singit naman ni Hope.

I watched Adonis’ eyebrows move and almost meet each other.

“I though he’s your boyfriend?” singit ulit ni Tito. I just notice that he’s being comfortable and talkative here.

“Naku! Hindi po, Sir!” natatawa pero kinakabahang response ni Hope. Mas lalo namang sumama ang timpla ng katabi hya.

“Hmm, no way! Baka sabunutan mo lang ako, Hope!”

I laughed but I slapped Azriel’s hand one more time again.

“Ang kulit mo talaga!” pabulong kong sigaw sa kanya. E pa’no ba naman, iyong kamay ay gumagapang kung saan saan habang namumungay ang mga matang nakatitig sa akin.

He isn’t even eating! He’s just here, staring at me like a creepy dog!

“Wife,” he called.

“Ano na naman?” tanong ko at kumain ng bite-sized liempo. Sinubuan ko sya ng isa na agad nyang kinain. Sinubuan ko rin sya ng maliit na slice ng pakwan at kinain nya rin.

See?! Nagpapasubo lang pala ang loko.

“May kumakalat na articles,” biglang sabi ni Pearl. “A rumor that you’re pregnant. Well, hindi naman bago. Iyan lagi ang iniisip ng mga tao kung biglang nawawala ang isang sikat na modelo or artist.”

I’m not even surprised at all.

“She’s indeed pregnant. We are gonna confirm this with the media soon, right?” si Tito naman.

“Yeah, of course,” sagot ni Pearl. “Although some agencies are still asking for you. Ang dami nga, eh. Pinagtatanggihan ko dahil nga hindi pa pwede for now.”

I pouted and nods. Azriel gave me a quick kiss on my cheek while his hand is now resting on my tummy.

“Thank you,” he whispered. I looked at him and gave him a for-what-look.

“You chose us,” he answered. His eyes are almost glimmering now. Iba-ibang emosyon ang nasa mga mata nya at nangingiti na rin.

Fuck, he’s so handsome. Effortlessly handsome.

“I always will,” I whispered and kissed him on his cheek, too.

He frozed for a while and his ears went red immediately. Tumawa ako at hinawakan ang mga iyon. Nakakatuwa talaga ang mga  reaksyon nya sa akin.

Nang medyo lumilim at tapos na kaming kumain ay nagyaya na akong maligo kay Azriel. Marami pa ring pagkain but it’s okay since we will be hungry again later.

“Hubby, let’s take a dip! Andoon na silang lahat,” I said happily.

“Mamaya na, dito muna tayo,” kontra nya naman at sinubukan akong hilain paupo sa kanyang hita pero umatras ako at saka sya sinamaan ng tingin.

“Pag-uwi na natin ’yang mga iniisip mo!”

“But, baby…”

“Buntis na nga ako, e,” nakasimangot kong sabi pero gustong gusto ko na rin ngumiti.

He stood up and pull me for a hug. Agad ko naman syang niyakap at hinaplos pa ang abs nya.

“It’s getting bigger now. I’m excited to see you when it’s so big, wife-”

“I’ll be ugly, for sure!” iritado kong sabi. “Magtatago muna ako kapag malaki na ’no para hindi mo makitang ugly ako-”

“No fucking way.”

Inirapan ko sya at saka tinanggal ang blazer ko at naglakad na. Mabilis naman syang sumunod at humawak sa bewang ko.

“Seleira! Azriel! Hurry!” tawag ni Tito. Tinanaw ko sina Pearl na nagkakatuwaan din. They also have a beach ball.

I laughed and got excited. Tumakbo ako para mas mabilis at narinig ko na agad ang nag-aalburotong tawag ni Azriel mula sa likod. I didn’t mind him and just went together with them.

“We’re playing beach volley!” sabi ni Pearl at lumangoy papunta sa amin.

“Sige!” I said.

“Azriel, may jetski dito. You might want to try it with Seleira,” rinig kong sabi ni Tito Hiro. Napalingon tuloy ako at narito na pala si Azriel.

“We’ll try later, Tito.” Magalang naman na sagot ni Azriel.

I giggled which made him look at me. He looked at me darkly before hugging my waist.

“Maglalaro pa kami!” singit ni Pearl at saka ako hinawakan sa braso.

“Later-”

“Kanina pa kayo magkasama. Pahiram naman,” natatawang sabi ni Pearl pero hindi naman natutuwa si Azriel.

“We’re gonna play!” sabi ko sa kanya. He sighs, talagang ayaw akong pakawalan.

“Fine.”

“Mag-jetski tayo mamaya,” pampalubag-loob ko at saka sya mabilis na hinalikan sa pisngi.

Tumalikod na ako para daluhan sina Pearl.

“Ano ’yun? Ang damot sa ’yo ah?”

Umismid lang ako at tumawa.

“Nakatitig si Sir sa ’yo, ma’am,” nakangiting sabi ni Hope. She’s just wearing a fitted shirt and dolphin shorts. Si Adonis naman ay naka-beach shorts lang din, at si Pearl ay naka-bikini.

“Ang sexy ni ma’am, ’no?” dagdag nya pa. I smirked and flipped my hair.

“Sexy pero walang dibdib.”

Pabiro kong hinampas si Pearl. Porke chubby sya at malaki ang dibdib nya!

“O’ sige, partner kami ni Seleira!” sabi ni Pearl habang pinaglalaruan ang beach ball na hawak.

“Hala! Ma’am, partner na lang kami ni Ma’am o tayo,” agad na kontra ni Hope. I looked back at Azriel and my titos are talking to him. Sumasagot sya pero pasulyap-sulyap din sa akin.

So Adonis and I are partners habang silang dalawa ang nasa harap namin. Tiningala ko si Adonis at nakakunot ang noo nya sa init.

“I’m not good so you carry the both of us to this game,” I said. He looked at me, too.

“Sige, ma’am.”

“We should win or I am going to cry,” I added. Umawang ang labi nya at tumango-tango. He smirked, too.

“Sige, ma’am. Baka mabugbog ako kapag umiyak ka. Laki-laki pa naman ng katawan ni Sir,” biro nya.

Umirap ako at tumango. Mabuti nang nagkakalinawan.

Our game started and it was so funny. Isang beses ko lang nahampas ang bola at laging si Adonis ang sumasalo.

“Ang daya! Adonis, ang lakas ng pwersa mo kung pumalo!” reklamo ni Pearl. Tumawa lang naman si Hope.

“Just say you’re losers and go, sis!” Maarte kong sabi at sinabuyan sya ng tubig. She laughed and did the same to me.

Nagsabuyan din ng tubig sina Hope and we are all just laughing. We didn’t even finish the game!

Tumigil lang kami dahil tinawag ako na ako ni Azriel. Busangot na ang mukha at mukhang kanina pa naghihintay.

“Seleira, mag-try na kayo!” sulsol ni Tito, he’s talking about the jetski.

Nakanguso akong lumangoy papunta sa nakabusangot na asawa. Naiinis na naman ’yan dahil hindi nabibigyan ng atensyon.

“I miss you.”

Umirap ako at tumawa. Pabiro ko rin syang hinampas. “It’s just been ten minutes or so!”

“I know. The staff is already there to accompany us.”

We both went to the shore. Nauna si Hope dahil inuuhaw daw sya.

“Hiwalay po ba, sir? Dalawa po?” tanong ng isang staff at medyo pasilip-silip pa sa akin. Azriel held my waist and pulled me closer to his wet body.

“Only one,” he said.

“Oh!” ninenerbyos na tumawa ito. Siniko ko naman si Azriel dahil paniguradong kung anong tingin na naman ang ibinibigay nya sa kawawang lalaki.

“S-sure, sir. This way po.”

Sinundan namin sya at kumaway lang ako kina Tito. Habang naglalakad ay nasa bewang ko pa rin ang braso at hinahaplos-haplos pa iyon.

“You’re really like a magnet, huh. You attract every damn man in the world,” sarkastiko at mahina nyang sabi.

“What?!” inosente kong tanong pero umismid lamang sya.

Azriel climbed on a jetski effortlessly. Pagkatapos ay agad syang naglahad ng kamay sa akin. Inabot ko iyon at sinuportahan nya ako sa pagsakay sa likod.

“Hug me,” he said.

I quickly hugged him and even pinch his abs. It’s so hard and warm even if he’s wet. He’s so hot, too. Napahigpit tuloy ang yakap ko sa kanya dahil nanggigigil ako.

“Hold on, wife….”

“I trust you, Azriel. Huwag mo akong ihuhulog!”

“I know, baby…”

“What if I fall?!”

“You won’t fall-”

“Paano nga kung oo, e?!”

“Baby, you won’t. Don’t you trust me?” tanong nya at nilingon ako. “Please, wife. I want to do this with you. We’ve never done this before.”

Umirap ako at bahagyang kinilig. Tumango na lang din ako. Kung mahulog ako o makabitaw, syempre kasalanan ko iyon! I will jail you, Azriel!

I suddenly remember those teenagers who just left me helplessly. We also visited them last month. Pinilit ko pa si Azriel dahil talagang ayaw nya.

He brought me to DSWD. There, I found all of them. Parang bumabalik sa akin lahat ng alaala at sakit habang nakikita sila.

“They are here for now. Once they turn at the legal age, they’ll be jailed. There’s no fucking way I’ll let each of them go.”

Tiningala ko si Azriel. Nag-iigting ang panga nya at talagang nagagalit. Medyo pula pa ang pisngi dahil sa galit. Hinaplos ko na lang ang braso nya. Napatingin sya doon at bahagyang kumalma.

Nakaramdam naman ako ng awa sa mga ito. How… how about their future? With their age, their future is just a few steps ahead of them.

Bakit ba laging ganito? Bakit lagi na lang akong naawa kahit na ako naman ang ginawan ng masama?

Sila ba, naawa rin sa akin? Nagsisisi ba sila na ginawa nila iyon sa akin? Bakit parang ako lang iyong nakakaramdam ng ganito at ako pa ang nakokonsensya?

“Oh, mga bata. Narito ang mag-asawang Nickolson,” a staff said.

Isa-isa silang napatingin sa amin. Same faces. I remember some of them clearly.

Para silang binuhusan ng malamig na tubig nang makita ako. Namula rin ang mga mata nila at nagulat ako nang tumakbo sila papalapit sa amin at nagsiluhuran.

“We’re sorry, ma’am! Please… please forgive us!”

“W-we’re sorry… We were all scared… M-my whole family is depending on me, please… Please, sir… Madam…”

Kinagat ko ang labi ko at nakaramdam na naman ng papalapit na luha.

“H-hubby,” nanginginig ang boses ko nang tawagin ko si Azriel.

He cursed before pulling me to his chest. Tuluyan akong umiyak doon. Para akong sinasaksak habang naririnig ang mga salita ng mga ito. Iba ibang storya nila at parang… naiintindihan kong mga bata lang sila at natakot lang din sila.

“Azriel-”

“No.”

Tila alam nya na agad. Tiningala ko sya habang umiiyak. Marahas syang bumuntong hininga at pinunasan ang pisngi ko.

“You’re picky, spoiled, naughty, snob, and has a bit terrible and uncontrollable attitude… but you have the softest heart, Seleira,” he said gently.

Natahimik ako at hindi agad nakapagsalita.

“Maarte ka at masungit pero madali kang umiyak, magpatawad at makalimot kahit na nasaktan ka nang sobra,” he added.

“Tell me why did I fall for you? And why do I keep falling for you and your little things over and over again?” malambing nyang tanong. Para akong tinutunaw sa lambing ng boses nya. Mahina’t mababa ang boses nya pero parang sya lamang ang naririnig ko at hindi ang mga teen agers na ito.

“But, baby, I’m sorry. The answer is No. These children did bad to you, you almost died, Seleira. Hinding-hindi ko mapapalagpas ito.”

That’s what happened in the center. Unlike how I conviced him to help Daddy, this time ay hindi na sya pumayag. Aniya buhay ko raw ang tumaya doon at hindi sya makapapayag na basta ganoon na lang.

I just hold on to the fact that they won’t be jailed forever. Maybe… that will serve as their lessons then? I nearly died. Azriel would gone crazy and miserable if I died and that’s the least thing I want to happen.

Pagalit na sumigaw sa akin si Azriel nang itaas ko ang dalawa kong kamay sa ere habang dinadama ang hangin.

The air is so cold, as well as the water! The sun is hot and everything is just so perfect! Ang bilis ng takbo ng jetski at sobra akong natutuwa.

“Wife, put your damn hands back around me!” He shout.

“Hubby, ang saya! Can you do it faster?!” pasigaw kong tanong dahil hindi kami magkarinigan.

Hindi sya sumagot pero ang isang kamay nya ay ibinalik ang mga kamay ko sa kanyang abs. I giggled and hugged him tight.

Natatanaw din namin sina Tito na nagsi-swimming pa rin. They are taking pictures now. Nakakainggit! Maybe later, I’ll have some pictures, too. Idi-display ko sa kwarto.

Medyo napalayo kami at hindi naman iyon problema dahil safe dito. Itinigil nya sa kaligtnaan at saka ako nilingon.

“Hubby,” malambing kong tawag.

“Fuck,” mura nya at umayos ng upo upang maharap pa ako. “Let’s kiss.”

I giggled and nodded. I hold onto his neck as I accept his hot steamy kiss. Ang mga kamay nya ay nasa bewang ko at ang tyan ko ay hinahaplos ng isa.

After the passionate kiss, he just made our foreheads met. He also stroke my wet hair and aim for one more kiss.

“Ang gwapo mo, Azriel,” puri ko habang pinagmamasdan sya. Ang buhok nya ay basa at bahagyang nasa isang direksyon. Tumutulo rin ang tubig mula sa kanyang buhok pababa sa matipuno nyang dibdib.

He licked his lips before looking away. A few seconds later and his ears are now red. He chuckled, too.

“Weirdo,” I said.

We cuddle a bit more before we go back because the of the jetski. Nasa cottage na sina Hope at Adonis habang si Pearl ay kinukuhanan ng litrato sina Tito and vice versa.

“Thank you,” I said to the staff. Azriel tipped him and immediately set him off.

“Ma’am!” si Hope at inabutan kami ng tuwalya.

“Thanks,” Azriel said. Inuna nya akong balutin ng tuwalya at ang kanya ay inilagay lamang sa kanyang balikat.

Pumasok kami ng cottage at agad akong uminom ng tubig. Si Azriel naman ay tinutuyo ang buhok ko.

“Masaya ba, ma’am? Ita-try din namin ni Ma’am Pearl mamaya… Pero magkahiwalay kami.”

“Oo, masaya! You should try!” sabi ko naman. Tumusok ako ng marshmallow saka iyon kinain.

“Hmm, sige! Dapat nga ma-try namin ’yun.”

“Sa akin ka na sumakay mamaya,” biglang singit ni Adonis.

“H-huh?”

“Huwag ka nang magsarili. Tayong dalawa na lang sa isa,” masungit nitong turan.

Umirap ako. Hindi pa rin pala nagkaka-aminan ang dalawang ito.

“You’re tired? Let’s go to our room?” Azriel asked while gently puts small kisses on my bare shoulder.

“Uh uh. Mamaya na,” sagot ko naman.

We are all disturbed by a ring of Azriel’s phone in the table.

Hindi nya ako binitawan at inabot lamang iyon. He didn’t put it in loudspeaker but it’s just behind my ear, too, kaya naririnig ko. Nakayakap pa rin kasi sya sa akin.

I saw the caller’s name. Lindsay.

It’s Linda! Nakinig ako nang maigi habang nginunguya ang aking marshmallow.

“Hello?” Azriel greets in his usual deep voice.

“Sir!” I heard her nervous voice.

“Why?” Azriel asked calmly while caressing my tummy. Hinawakan ko naman ang kanyang kamay na naroon.

“Sir, ano po kasi…” natatarantang sabi nito. Bigla tuloy akong kinabahan. What is happening in the mansion? May sunog ba? Nanakawan?

“Speak up,” Azriel demanded.

“Ah, s-sina Madam at Sir po, narito. K-kadarating lang a-at hinahanap kayo. Pinahanda nga po ang guestroom dahil dito sila mamamahinga dahil galing palang ibang bansa-”

“What the fuck?!” medyo gulat at bayolenteng tanong ni Azriel.

“Opo! Nagalit po ito d-dahil isusurpresa s-sana kayo, pero wala po kayo. Medyo nagalit pa nga po sa akin dahil h-hindi ko ibinigay ang number nyo pero sa tingin ko ay hindi dapat. K-kayo lang naman po ni Ma’am Seleira ang mga amo ko eh…”

Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko at nag-aalalang tiningala si Azriel. Meanwhile, he looks angry.

Azriel’s parents are here and they arrived just now! What the hell am I gonna do?! We weren’t in good terms the last time we met. Ayaw nila sa akin and I think they still don’t want me until now.

“Fuck. We’re coming home.”

That’s his last words before hanging the phone up.

“A-Azriel, your parents… T-they don’t like me, what should I do?” natataranta kong tanong. Gulat namang napatingin sa akin sina Hope.

“Baby, shh, calm down,” he said in a gentle way. He kissed my forehead and that calms me a bit.

“They view me as a gold digger-”

“You’re not!” galit nyang giit.

“But hubby, natatakot ako!”

“I don’t care whether they like you or not. And I am mad because they just went to our mansion without our permission.”

Azrile is getting mad slowly by slowly.

“Azriel…”

“Baby, I don’t care. Now, let’s go home and fix this shit.”

Hindi na kami nakapag-paalam nang pormal kina Tito. Sinabihan nya na lang sina Hope at Adonis na sila na ang magsabi because we’re in a hurry.

Mabilis kaming nagbihis sa kwarto namin sa hotel. Kahit nagmamadali ay malambing pa rin ang pananalita nya sa akin. Sa kotse ay sya ang naglagay ng seatbelt ko at hinalikan pa ako sa noo.

Hindi naman kalayuan ang private beach sa mansion. It’s just in Manila, too, so we got home in just forty-five minutes.

“Sir!” sinalubong kami ni Linda.

“M-ma’am… Hindi kayo maayos noon, natatandaan ko. P-pero kalmado naman si Madam, hindi lang talaga alam kung ano ang tumatakbo sa kanyang isip.”

I nodded. Hinila na ako ni Azriel papasok ng mansion. They said that they’re in the dining room.

Halos tumakbo na ako sa takot pero si Azriel ay mahigpit lamang na nakahawak sa kamay ko.

“Mother,” he greets formally.

I bit my lip and stared at these two people sitting in the dining room. His mother is just so pretty and elegant, like how she was the last time we met.

Medyo gulat lang ako dahil hindi sya bayolente o sumisigaw ngayon. Noong huli ay talagang nakakatakot sya. Sinisigawan nya ako at talagang mananakit kung sasagarin.

Now, she’s just there, sitting while staring at me. Tumayo sila at ngumiti kay Azriel.

“Son, it’s been a long time,” his father greeted before looking at me. Tumango ito sa akin at para naman akong nanigas sa aking kinatatayuan.

“Father, you could’ve asked me first before going here,” Azriel said grimly.

“We don’t have your number and your mother wanted to surprise you.”

“Too bad you weren’t here, huh?” her mother said. Mabilis akong napapikit dahil para na akong lumulutang sa takot.

Shout on me, please. Shout on me like how you did the last time. I think that’s better than showing this side, I don’t know if she’s just being nice and calm or just sarcastic and satire.

“Father, please. Just find a hotel, my wife is not comfortable-”

“There’s a room upstairs that smells new. A maid said it got under renovation last month and it’s for your baby?” she asked maliciously as her eyes went to my face down to my tummy.

My thoughts aren’t straight now. I’m afraid she might do something, but a part of me tells that she won’t. That she probably changed. Azriel’s hand that is caressing my tummy calmed me down.

“Yes. It’s for our baby,” he confirmed.

His father’s eyes widened a bit and looked at me. Bumaba ang tingin nya sa aking tyan at tumingin sa asawa.

Medyo mukha itong natutuwa at nakahinga lamang ako nang maluwag nang humalakhak ito at hindi na napigilan pang tapikin ang balikat ng anak sa tuwa.

On the other hand, his mother scoffed, as if she’s not happy with this. My heart sank seeing his mom’s expression like that.

So… she doesn’t want my baby, then.

“You really need to learn many things from now on, Danzel,” his father said, half smiling.

“Also, yes, your wife is pregnant, we will then leave later-”

“Maximillian!” iritadong tawag ng asawa. Muli akong dinaluhan ng kaba. Napapikit ako at lumapit kay Azriel. He gave me a kiss on my forehead and I just leaned on him.

“Danzel, you-”

“Mother, if you’re going to talk shit about my wife, then we do not want to hear it. She’s my baby and she’s pregnant. Please do not do something that will harm her.” Madiing sabi ni Azriel. I can also feel that he’s slowly losing his control.

Hinaplos-haplos ko na lamang ang kanyang kamay kahit na kinakabahan din ako.

His father is now okay with us but his mother isn’t… and I guess she never will.

Chapter 40

Gowns

“You’re famous, I see.”

Yumuko ako at halos hindi na manguya ang kinakain sa kaba. Si Azriel naman ay panay ang buntong hininga at halatang nagagalit din sa kung ano.

“Face of Dames Elegantes, brand Ambassadress of Prada, you got sponsored by Tiffany & Co., You once modeled Dior and Hera and many more. You shone and claimed your spot in just a span of two weeks,” she said as she nods her head.

Sinulyapan ko sya pero umiwas din ako kaagad ng tingin. I feel proud of what she is saying, but she’s just so intimidating.

I will really cry hard once she shouts at me again like how she did before.

“Magpapahinga na kami ng asawa ko,” medyo galit na sabi ni Azriel.

“Oh, sure sure, son-”

“Maxim! I’m still talking,” giit ng mama nya.

“Look, I am really not here to do bad-”

“You can’t blame me, mother, you treated her badly back then,” he said coldly. His hand found mine, too.

“I know and I am here to say sorry!” medyo tumaas ang boses nya. Napakapit ako sa kamay ni Azriel sa takot kahit na hindi naman masama ang sinabi nya.

Azriel cursed and pulled me closer to him. He almost makes me sit on his lap sa sobrang lapit ng mga upuan namin.

“See, I won’t shout especially now that she’s pregnant!”

“If you’re just doing this because she gain fame and money, then please, we don’t need that,” Azriel said.

Her lips opened which tells me that she’s a bit in shock.

“Danzel, that wasn’t what I meant!”

“But you told me she’s okay for you after you said she’s famous. What do you mean?”

“Danzel, you’re being rude to your mom,” his dad suddenly butt in. “Let’s just leave especially the lady is pregnant-”

“Oh, shut it, Maxim! Look, son, I am really sorry for everything I’ve done before. To you, too, Seleira… I will not explain or even try to justify myself because I was really wrong.”

“T-that’s okay, ma’am,” kinakabahan kong sabi.

“Baby, that wasn’t okay!” Giit naman ni Azriel. Imbis na mag-react ng kung ano ay pinamulahan ako. He just called me his baby in front of his parents!

“You despise her back then because you told me she have nothing,” Azriel added as he look back to her mom.

She sighs and closed her eyes problematically.

“I know, that was a childish act of me. Also, I was really mad because… you didn’t know her that much and you already want to marry her!”

“I knew her for five years already, I told you. I won’t marry if I’m not sure. I’m so sure of her back then and even until now. I will always be,” seryosong sabi ni Azriel. Hinaplos ko ang braso nya para manatiling kalmado.

“I know… We’re just really here to apologize. We didn’t come here to do shit!” frustrated na sabi ng mama nya, she’s obviously losing her cool.

“Then why you just showed up now and not before?!” galit na tanong ni Azriel. Medyo napatalon pa ako dahil sa biglaan nyang pagsigaw dahil sa galit. Maging ang mama nya ay nagulat din. Marahas syang nagmura bago ako hapitin lalo.

“Danzel, I am not liking your tone at your mother!” medyo galit ding sabi ng kanyang ama.

“Azriel, tama na…” mahina kong sabi at tiningala sya. Natatakot akong mag-away pa sila ng tatay nya at baka magkasakitan sila.

He closed his eyes before nodding. He gave a kiss on my forehead. “Fine,” mabilisan nyang sabi.

His father’s mouth slightly opened while watching his son. He looks shocked.

“That is because we are very busy, son. Please, forgive me.” Nagsimulang lumiit ang boses ng kanyang ina. Yumuko ako at tila kinakain ng guilt o ng kung ano.

I didn’t do anything! She was the one who did wrong to me. But I guess I understand that she’s just a mother.

Kung ako’y isang ina at naghahabol at nang-sstalk ang anak ko… tapos ay bigla nyang pakakasalan… I don’t think I’ll like that, too.

“Azriel, tama na,” pagpapakalma ko dahil tila ayaw tumigil ng inis nya. Mabilis ang paghinga nya at lumalambot lang ang ekspresyon sa tuwing tumitingin sa akin.

“Thank you, Seleira… I would like to talk to you alone to apologize-”

“There’s no fucking way!” Azriel shout aggresively and stood up, clearly dismissing them.

“Azriel,” pagsasaway ko. His father stood up, too, and I’m now really scared.

I looked at his mom and she’s already looking at me. She looks at me in an unexplainable way. Parang nangungusap.

“Azriel, it’s fine. I’ll talk to your mother-”

“Baby, I said no,” nagagalit nyang sabi.

“Please…” I begged as I lean to him to whisper. “I want to talk to her, too. I want to tell her that I now deserve his son. I was a dumb spoiled bitch back then, but I am fixing everything now. I want to assure him you are married to the right woman.”

Marahas syang bumuntong hininga. “You deserve me from the start. You’re my spoiled girl,” he whispered back. “Please, baby, don’t make me worried. I’ll really lose my sanity once something triggers you again.”

Tahimik ako noong salinan nya ng tsaa ang  tea cup ko. Sinikop ko rin ang buhok ko dahil hinipan ng hangin ang mga ito. We are currently sitting in the balcony.

“Please don’t think that I only came here and only like you now because you gained fame and money,” panimula nya.

Bagamat intimating ang itsura ay tumango ako sa kanya.

“I shout at you ruthlessly before. I despised you, I called you names, and I am really really sorry for that.”

“I-I understand.” Ang tanging nasabi ko.

“My son never liked anyone romatically. Back then in buisness parties, he would just greet women and then sit on a corner or talk to businessmen about business. He loves business so much that he got no time for himself. He claimed his spot at being the heir of our family and business at a young age.”

Tumango ako habang iniimagine kung ano ang pinagdadaanan ni Azriel noong hindi pa kami magkakilala.

“I don’t mean to offend you now but he used to love playing women and he only liked their bodies. You know, big boobs, big butt, thick thighs, and nothing more. He changed girls as if they’re clothes. His father was trying to change him but he just can’t. Danzel grew mad of his father for trying to change him even when it’s for the better,” she explained. Her expression also looks like she’s reminicing things.

Bad boy at sex addict back then, huh. Parang umapoy ang sistema ko sa iniisip na ang dami nyang babae noon.

“I know that,” I said.

“You do?”

Tumango ako. “I once worked at his company for experience. That time, he was already stalking me like what he said. There were girls coming in and out of his bedroom office and he’ll look at me while waiting for my reaction. I didn’t mind it that time,” I said.

He was a toxic bullshit man. Kaya hindi nyo rin ako masisi kung bakit ako nandidiri sa kanya noong bagong kasal kami.

His mother suddenly looked intrigued. “Then? What expression did you show him?”

“Nothing. I just went in and called for maintenance since there were used condoms inside.”

Talagang umaapoy na ako ngayon sa galit. Humanda ka sa akin mamaya, Azriel.

“And then?” tanong nya pa ulit. Kumunot ang noo ko. Tila nagiging chismosa na sya, ah?

She let out a small giggle which made me froze for a while. It’s like the walls separating us are slowly disappearing.

Sandali akong pumikit para alalahanin kung ano nga bang nangyari no’n.

“Yes, CEO’s office,” sagot ko sa staff ng maintenance.

“Okay. They are on their way already, Miss Farrah.”

Tumango ako kahit na hindi nya ako nakikita atsaka ibinaba ang telepono.

“The maintenance is now on their way, Sir-”

“That’s it?!”

Nagulat ako sa biglaang pagsigaw nya. Pulang pula ang mukha nya at wala pa syang pang-itaas.

“Po?” naguguluhan kong tanong. Naiinis na talaga ako. He’s my damn stalker and now I am working for him.

“Can’t you see what I did?!” inis nyang tanong. Umiwas naman ako ng tingin.

“I didn’t see the whole thing but Sir, you had sex.”

Nagkibit balikat ako na lalo pang nakapagpagalit sa kanya.

“And? You don’t care?! Where’s your jealous reaction? Fuck!” galit na galit nyang saad.

I sighed and shook my head.

“Lagi na lang! Putang ina!” malutong nya pang mura at ginulo ang buhok nya na parang bata.

Muntik na akong matawa. Does he really think I care? Kahit makipagtalik pa sya sa harap ko ay hindi ako magseselos. But surely, I will puke.

He’s a son of a bitch. Ikaw ang putang ina, Sir.

“Bakit naman ako magseselos, Sir?” tanong ko. “Baka ikaw ang magselos kung makipagtalik ako sa iba sa harapan mo-” Tumili ako nang isandal nya ako sa pader na nasa likuran ko mismo.

“Subukan mo,” naggagalaiti nyang banta. “I will kill him. Who is he?!” he demanded.

“Ano ba!” sigaw ko pero talagang malakas sya.

“Who is that you’re planning to make love with, huh?!”

“Stop!” sigaw ko.

“Who is it?! Adam, it is, huh?! That son of a bitch will see what he’s looking for!”

My eyes widened and shook my head. “No! Wala! Stop this!”

Kayang kaya nya akong pisatin kung gugustuhin nya. But he’s controlling his actions although his words can’t be controlled anymore.

“Why do you even care? You’re just my boss! Why don’t you just make love with-”

“I didn’t make love with them! I had sex with them!” giit nya. Salubong na salubong na ang mga kilay ngayon.

He’s so handsome and hot but I just can’t like him… maybe because of this sick attitude.

“So-”

“I want to make love with you,” he said huskily. “And… have babies with you.”

He said that in a different tone. Like a man talking about his dreams and wants. Hindi lamang basta sinabi.

Kinilabutan ako at parang tumaas lahat ng balahibo ko sa katawan. I hit him and he didn’t even flinch.

“Let me go!” tili ko.

Never even in my wildest dreams that I’ll make love and have babies with this man! I can’t even stand seeing him! How much more when we’re living in the same roof?!

“Please,” napapaos nyang sabi. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang haplusin nya ang bewang ko.

“Ano ba! Let me go! I’m getting scared!” nanginginig kong sigaw.

Nagmura sya at saka ako binitawan. Nakayuko sya habang pulang-pula pa rin ang mukha.

“Tang ina,” mahina nyang mura. Ginulo nya muli ang buhok at tila nasisiraan na.

Naalarma ako kaagad nang tumingin muli sya sa akin. He held my shaking hands and tried to kiss them pero mabilis kong binawi ang mga ito.

“Marry me, please…” biglaan at desperado nyang sabi.

Gulat na gulat naman ako at halos hindi agad maka-react.

“I promise I’ll change. No girls, no everything you don’t want. Marry me, please.”

Nasisiraan na sya!

I pushed him with my full force. “You’re crazy!”

“I want to be with you, is that hard to understand?!”

Kumunot ang noo ko at tinulak syang muli dahil bumalik sya sa akin.

“I don’t want to be like your girls on bed-”

“Not that! I want a serious relationship with you.”

Pagak akong tumawa. Ang lakas din ng isang ’to! After whatever the hell he’s doing with his girls, he expects me to believe he can be serious?

“You’ll never be serious in a relationship, Nickolson.”

I don’t give a damn about not addressing him now as ‘Sir.’

“You’ll marry me, Farrah. I’ll do everything to have you… in my side… in my bedsheets…  in my arms. I don’t give a fuck if we aren’t meant for each other, I’ll change it just to have you.”

Mrs. Nickolson laughed and she’s even slightly slamming the table sa sobrang tuwa nya. Kunot noo naman ako at medyo inis sa asawa dahil sa pagiging babaero nya noon.

Nawala ang kakaunting kaba sa dibdib ko habang nakikitang hindi naman nya ako sisigawan muli or worse, sasaktan.

“I’m sorry, but… he really did that? I mean he sounds so desperate! Very far from the Danzel that we know.”

“Yes. He was really like that… He even punched my good friend Adam Dames out of jealousy,” I said and sipped on my tea.

“Adam Dames!” she repeated. “The son of Elyse Dames of the Dames Elegantes?!”

“Yes…” awkward kong sagot.

“What on earth…” hindi makapaniwala nyang sabi.

“But now, he really changed po. He changed for me and for our baby. I am changing too so I won’t be a burden to anyone,” sabi ko at muling kinabahan.

Tumango sya ngunit hindi nagsalita kaya ipinagpatuloy ko na lamang.

“I-I just want to say… that I deserve your son, ma’am. I know I was a trash compared to your son before. Our company is a trash compare to his. I build up my career and name for money and also, that’s my dream. I may not be perfect but I’m doing everything to deserve him. I know there’s a lot of girls out there…” nagsimulang lumabo ang aking mga mata dahil sa nagbabadyang luha.

“Who truly deserves him… Women who are born rich and not like me-”

“Hush, hush, hija… It’s me who should be sorry. You do not have to explain your side because now I know that my son isn’t just playing here. He is here for you because he’s serious. He won’t be with you if he doesn’t love you. And with just that, I know you’re deserving. You deserve him even without the wealth. Forgive me for judging you…”

Tuluyan na akong umiyak. She stood up to go to me and caress my back.

Walang mapagsidlan ang tuwa ko dahil sa isiping ayos na rin ako sa kanyang ina. Umiiyak lamang ako dahil parang punong puno ang puso ko ng tuwa.

Then I guess, everyone changes. Everyone changes either for the better or for worse. But in this case, the people I know and even myself, are changing for the better and more development.

Natigil lang kami nang halos gumiba ang sliding door sa gilid. I can see Azriel knocking and he even looks mad. We can see him but he can’t see us since this is a one-way mirror.

“I’m okay, ma’am,” I assured. She gave me her handkerchief and I quickly used it, halos takot pang madumihan ito.

“Thank you for forgiving me. I just wanted to go here for that, except for another reason that we needs to go to Bataan to check our ranch.”

I nodded and I couldn’t stop my smile. I stood up, too.

“Also, address us as Mom and Dad if you are comfortable,” she said warmly. Nangiti ako muli dahil sa nararamdamang saya.

Bumaba ang tingin nya sa aking tyan at ngumuso bago ngumiti. “Hmm… We are not planning to stay for long, maybe just three months. Would you… allow me to organize your baby shower? I love events! Also, that’s my grand child although that makes me sound old!”

We both laughed and I feel so lighter now. Masaya ako dahil tanggap nya kami at naparito pala talaga sila para doon.

“I also want to schedule a dinner with my in laws, if that’s okay? We never had a formal dinner together.”

I giggled and nodded. “Yes! My titos would love to meet you po. Also, a baby shower organized by you sounds fun!”

Magsasalita pa sana kami pero bumukas na ang pino at mabilis na pumunta sa akin si Azriel. Hinawakan nya ang kamay ko at hinanapan ako ng masakit bago madilim na balingan ang ina.

“What happened?”

“Azriel, calm down. We’re okay!” nakangiti kong sabi. He looked at me as if he’s not buying whatever I’m saying.

“I am serious here, wife.”

“I am, too! We are okay!”

“Danzel, we are really okay. Also, I’m planning to have a dinner with her uncles and also a baby shower!” his mom says while smiling.

Azriel’s father then joined us and placed his arm on his mother’s waist.

“Please, I hope you didn’t say anything bad-”

“Hubby, I told you we are okay!” frustrated kong sabi.

He sighs before nodding. Mukha pang hindi naniniwala pero tumango na lang. Hirap pa akong paniwalain sya kahit noong nasa kwarto na kami at nakahiga habang nagpapahinga.

“Maybe she blackmailed you hmm? Tell me the truth-”

“Ang kulit mo, Azriel! I told you we are really okay. Please, believe me!”

Yumakap sya sa akin at sumiksik sa aking leeg. Pinatungan nya rin ako ng kanyang binti.

“Fine. I believe you. You can’t blame me, my mother isn’t kind to you.”

“Well, she is, now. She even told me to address them as Mom and Dad! Did you hear me, hubby? Your parents like me!” I said happily.

“Whether they like you or not, it doesn’t matter,” medyo inis nyang bulong.

“Can’t you just be happy, you brute?!” hinampas ko ang braso nya.

Hindi na sya sumagot at pinagdiskitahan na lang ang tyan ko. Hinaplos-haplos nya iyon at ramdam kong gumagaan na ang mood nya.

“Oh! I forgot to call Tito!” sabi ko. We left them and I know they’re worried right now.

Babangon na sana ako pero naunahan na ako ni Azriel.

“Where’s your phone?” he asks. “Ako na ang kukuha, humiga ka lang dyan.”

I pouted and remembered that it’s in my sling bag.. “It’s in my Chanel, hubby. Naiwan sa kotse.”

“Wait for me,” he said like he’ll be out for a very long time. He leaned in and gave me a quick kiss on the lips. Tumalikod na sya at lumabas.

I grabbed his pillow and hugged it. Ang bango nito at amoy Azriel. Smells so manly and cold mint. Minsan ay nagiging kaamoy ko na sya sa sobra-sobrang yakap nya sa akin.

“Ma’am!” Narinig ko agad ang tawag ni Linda.

“Ma’am, kamusta po? Mabait ba? Grabe, kung ayaw nya sa magiging baby nyo, edi umalis na lang sila! Naalala ko pa sinisigawan ka noon at tinatawag na kung ano ano!” she rants.

“Linda, we’re now okay! Nagkapatawaran na kami!”

“Iyon na iyon, ma’am? Totoo ba o baka tinatakot lang para-”

“Okay na nga! She said there will be a baby shower organized by her! Also, she said they will meet my titos! And she told me I can call them Mom and Dad!” tuwang-tuwa kong sabi.

Napatakip sya sa kanyang bibig at umupo sa dulo ng kama. Umupo naman ako.

“Hala, ma’am, totoo ba iyan?”

“Yes!” iritado kong sagot.

“Eh kailan naman, ma’am?”

Nagkibit balikat ako. “Sabi nya bago sila umalis kanina na ay sabihin lang sa kanila kung kailan namin gusto. As long as nasa Pilipinas pa sila, there’s no problem.”

“Hala, totoo nga! Congrats, ma’am! Kailan kaya kami ni Romualdo?” kinikilig nyang tanong sa sarili.

“I knew you have a thing with our driver.”

“Huh?!” pinamulahan sya. “N-nito lang, ano! Nagka-developan lang dahil laging magkasama tuwing nag-ggrocery.”

I laughed before rolling my eyes at her. “Malandi ka,” I commented.

“Ikaw din,” sumbat nya.

My eyes widened. The nerves of this witch!

“Anong ako rin?!”

“Ikaw din, ma’am. Hindi lang malandi, marupok din, ano! Mabilis kang masuyo ni Sir dahil bumibigay ka kaagad lalo na sa kama-”

Tumawa sya nang pabiro ko syang sabunutan.

“Kung babae ang anak nyo at kaugali mo, baka maagang mamuti ang buhok ni Sir kasasaway!”

We laughed but I hit her with a pillow. Hindi naman sya gumanti at sinasalag lang ang mga ito.

“Nakakairita ka!” sabi ko. Hindi sya sumagot at tumawa lamang.

“What if I cry here, huh?” pananakot ko.

Tumigil sya at agad itinaas ang mga kamay na tila sumu-surrender.

“Joke lang naman, ma’am.”

Ngingisi-ngisi syang umalis ng kwarto pagkabalik ni Azriel. Dumiretso naman sya sa akin at inilahad ang aking bag.

“Thank you!” Kinuha ko iyon at binuksan para hanapin ang phone.

“Tito has five missed calls and six messages, hubby,” I said while scrolling through my phone. Mayroon din sina Pearl.

Umupo sya sa tabi ko at yumakap habang pinanood ang aking phone. He also started kissing my hair.

I dialed Tito and it’s not even a second when he answered it. I put in on a loud speaker.

“Hello-”

“Seleira! Are you fine? What happened? Susugurin ko ’yan kung may ginawang masama sa inyo ng baby mo!”

I giggled and hugged my husband. “Tito, we’re fine. She just said sorry for shouting at me and calling me names.”

“Totoo ba iyan? Nag-aalala kami rito noong nagmamadali kayong umalis. Hope just said you got a call saying Azriel’s parents are there so we were dead worried!”

“Totoo, Tito! I promise. Also, sorry for making you worried.”

“It’s fine as long as what you’re saying is true, hija!”

Tumawa ako at tumango-tango kahit na hindi naman nya ako nakikita. Azriel keeps kissing my cheek now.

“It’s true. Hmm nakauwi na ba kayo? Imma text the others to say I’m fine.”

“Oo, nakauwi na-” naputol ang sasabihin nya at parang may bumagsak.

“Tito?” tawag ko.

“Babe…” I heard Tito Hiro’s low voice. Medyo mahina pa ito. “Hiro! Mamaya na ’yan! Kausap ko si Seleira!” rinig ko namang bulong ni Tito kasabay ng tunog ng paghampas.

Nagkatinginan kami ni Azriel at gumuhit ang makahulugang ngisi sa kanya. Pinandilatan ko sya bago tawagin muli si Tito.

I told him we’re really okay and that his mother accepts me now. Sinabi ko rin na gusto nyang magkaroon ng dinner kasama sila.

“Teka, is that true?! I will wear my most expensive outfit!”

I laughed and talked to him more. Hindi ko na rin narinig pa ulit si Tito Hiro bukod sa sinabi nyang mabuti raw na maayos na. Maybe they’re doing something so I made the call shorter.

Pagkatapos ay isa-isa kong tinext sina Pearl, Hope at Adonis.

“Are you happy?” Azriel suddenly asks.

Inilapag ko ang phone sa bedside table bago humiga. Mabilis din syang humiga sa tabi ko.

“I am,” sagot ko at ngumiti.

“As if she didn’t shout and call you names back then? You’re still happy now?” naninimbang nyang tanong.

“It doesn’t matter now. I forgive her.”

“You really forgive too fast. You’re so fragile. I need to protect you from this cruel world,” he said gently and hugged me again.

Niyakap ko rin sya. “I make mistakes, too, Azriel. I also want to be forgiven whenever I do something bad.”

He didn’t speak again and just kissed my forehead. Inamoy-amoy nya rin ang buhok ko habang hinahalikan iyon.

Aantukin na sana ako kung hindi lang sumagi sa isip ko ang alaalang naalala kanina.

I hit and pushed him which made him confused.

“What was that for?”

“Akala mo nakakalimutan ko, huh?” galit kong tanong.

“Forget what?” he asks, still confused. Hahawakan nya sana ako pero umatras ako. Nag-igting ang panga nya at tila nasaktan na umiwas ako sa hawak nya.

“Your girls back then! How dare you have sex with other girls just to make me jealous?!” inis na inis kong tanong at nagbabadya na rin ang mga luha ko.

Kumunot ang noo nya. “That was before-”

“I hate you! ’Wag ka nang magpakita sa amin ni baby!” umiiyak kong sabi. I remember that very well. Kung noon, wala naman akong pake, iba na ngayon!

“Fuck!” mura nya at hinapit ako. I wriggled to get out of his touch but he jailed me with his arms.

“I know, that was so dumb of me. I was so desperate to see any emotion of you for me but everything failed-”

“Ah gano’n? That wasn’t right! You didn’t even think of me and our baby!”

“Baby, that was in the past,” frustrated nyang sabi habang sinusuyo ako.

“Wife, I’m sorry for that, please… Hush, stop crying,” mas lalo nya akong nilambing. Pinunasan nya rin ang mga luha ko.

“You probably enjoyed, huh. How was it? Was it tight-”

“Stop this,” mariin nyang sabi.

“I hate you!”

“You don’t mean that, hmm” he planted soft kisses on my cheek.

“Mabuti pang huwag ka na lang magpakita sa amin ni baby at baka mapatawad pa kita!” Nagsimula ulit akong umiyak.

Hindi naman nya malaman ang gagawin dahil umiiyak na ako. Nakakatuwa syang pagmasdan pero lamang ang inis ko ngayon. Halos sumabog ako sa galit habang inaalala sya noon.

“Forgive me, please…” pagsusuyo nya. He sat down and gently pulled me so I can sit on him.

“Bitiwan mo kami!” giit ko.

“Hush, hush,” he whispers and gently kisses my wet cheeks.

“I’m sorry… If only I could go back, I won’t do that childish thing.”

“But you enjoyed it, huh?”

“I didn’t-”

“Liar! You have the audacity to lie in front of our unborn baby!”

He cursed and wiped my new set of tears. Hinaplos haplos nya rin ang aking tyan.

“I’m not lying,” marahan nyang sabi at hinalikan ako sa labi. I didn’t protest and just let him kiss me with his soft and hot lips.

“Liar lips,” I said after the kiss.

He chuckled with his manly voice. “I said I’m not lying.”

“Really?!”

“Yes,” he breathe. Pinaayos nya ang upo ko sa kanyang hita at kumapit na lamang ako sa kanyang leeg. He gave me a hot kiss again. Unti-unti na rin akong nanlambot at humawak na lamang sa tshirt nya.

“Hubby, remove ’to, please…” mahina kong sabi na parang hindi nagalit seconds ago.

He let go of my waist to remove his shirt. Pinagmasdan ko iyon. Ang ganda at tikas talaga.

Ibinalik nya ang kamay sa aking bewang at hinayaan akong haplusin ang abs nya. Kahit saan, matigas. Also his arms, they’re very hard and strong.

“Do you forgive me now?” he asks.

“Hmm, because of your perfect body, then yes,” I said and playfully touch his abs again. This is my favorite other than his perfect jaw!

“You only like my body,” he said. Inirapan ko naman sya.

“As if you have a perfect body?! You don’t, stop assuming things, Azriel!”

“Baby, you just said it-”

“Shut up!” inis kong sabi.

“Fine. I’m sorry, pretty,” malambing nyang sabi. I pouted and looked away.

“My pretty pregnant wife…” he says in a sweet way. Nagpye-pyesta na naman ang mga paru-paro sa aking tyan.

I hit his broad shoulder before biting it. He groaned but he just hugged me tighter. Hinalikan nya rin ang sintido ko.

“Hubby,” I called sweetly.

“Hmm?”

“Can I eat mangoes tomorrow?”

“Sure, but only two pieces. I’ll peel them for you.”

“Why two only?! We have bought many pieces naman ah?” tanong ko.

“Your stomach will ache if you eat too much.”

I bit his shoulder again. He groaned but he just end up chuckling. He’s so happy with this.

“Ligo tayo, hubby,” bigla kong yaya. He kissed me again before talking.

“I like that. Where? In the tub or in the pool below?” He asks in an enthusiastic tone. I just realized that he likes it better whenever I initiate.

Nag-isip ako kung saan ba mas maganda at masaya. Sa babang pool ay baka makita kami ng mga maids na naglalambingan! Pakalat-kalat pa naman sila. Lalo na iyang si Linda at aasarin na naman ako n’yan.

“In the tub… I want to sleep in a hot tub,” I said and yawned.

“Sure. I’ll just dress you up and put you here after, then.”

“Just dress me up!” pangunguna ko.

“I know. I won’t do something with your sleeping body although it’s very tempting,” he said and smirked at me.

Hinampas ko na. Ang dami talagang kalokohang pumapasok sa isip nya.

“I’ll just prepare it,” marahan nyang sabi habang nilalapag ako sa kama at kinakalas ang kamay ko sa leeg nya. Hindi ako pumayag at kumapit pa lalo sa kanya.

I don’t know why but I want to always stick with him.

“Baby, it’ll just be a minute, I promise,” nangingiti nyang sabi.

“So long!” reklamo ko.

He chuckled heartily. Tila tuwang-tuwa sya sa inaasta ko.

Binuhat nya ako at kumapit ako sa kanyang leeg. Hindi na tuloy mapawi ang ngiti nya habang hinahanda ang tubig. I watched him do it only with a hand because his other hand is supporting me.

We then relax and chill together in the tub. Mayroon din akong iniinom na gatas para mas lalo akong antukin.

“Careful,” he whispers. Kinuha nya ang baso sa aking kamay at sya na mismo ang nagpainom sa akin.

Nang maubos ay itinabi nya iyon. Sumandal na lamang ako sa kanyang dibdib at dinama ang init nya at ng tubig.

I’m just wearing my underwears because if I’m naked, Azriel will do something for sure!

“Sleep tight, wife.”

Hinila na ako ng antok habang nakasandal sa kanya. I just slept and trusted my husband.

“This is a very famous and successful brand, Seleira… Pero kung ayaw mo, tatanggihan ko ito.”

Humigop ako ng sabaw habang pinapakinggan si Pearl sa cellphone. I looked at my phone and she’s in the studio. We are face timing each other.

“What’s the brand?” I asked.

“Dorothy Perkins,” sagot nya.

My eyes widened. “Dorothy Perkins! They sent us an email?”

“Yes, they did! Bakit parang gulat ka? Hindi naman bago sa ’yo ang naglalakihang brands! Chanel, Dior, Hera, Prada, you name it!”

I pouted and started thinking about it. Hinaplos ko ang tyan kong hindi pa naman ganoon kalakihan dahil wala pang dalawang buwan.

“Hmm hindi na flat ang t’yan ko, Pearl,” sabi ko.

“Ano ka ba? It’s fine! Hindi naman lingeries.”

“E, ano?” tanong ko at kumagat naman sa aking garlic bread.

“Gowns. Medieval-Styled gowns!” excited nyang sabi.

“Gowns?” pag-uulit ko.

“Yup! Medieval style, ang gaganda no’n, but again, if you don’t want or Azriel won’t let you, it’s fine-”

“No, I’m in.”

Gowns! This is the first time I’ll model gowns stuff and also, Medieval Style is cute and classic.

“Papayag naman siguro si Azriel kung hindi naman ako masyadong magpapagod. Isasama ko na lang sya.”

The call ended after talking about some more info. Medyo masaya rin ako na isiping masusubukan ko ulit ang aking career after a month or so. It’s really like calling me.

Inubos ko na ang aking pagkain at hinintay si Azriel. Naliligo pa kasi sya sa itaas and I’m here in the dining room.

Pumasok si Linda para kunin ang mga platong ginamit ko at hugasan ito.

“Vitamins nyo, ma’am?”

“Ininom ko na,” sabi ko at naglakad na. I’ll just go upstairs.

Pagkapasok ko ng kwarto ay saktong kabibihis lang ni Azriel. Kunot noo syang lumapit sa akin at sinuri ang katawan ko.

“I told you to wait for me downstairs,” medyo inis nyang sabi. “What if you suddenly twist your feet and fall down in the stairs?!”

I laughed at him, but I didn’t mean to sound rude.

“Not funny, Seleira.”

“You’re over reacting!”

“Did you finish your food?” he asks.

“Yup,” sagot ko at yumakap sa kanya. I smelled him and he smells so good like always. Bumuntong hininga sya at niyakap din ako.

“I have to tell you something,” I said.

“What is it?”

“Promise me you’ll agree,” paghahamon ko at tiningala sya. Sinamaan nya lang ako ng tingin.

“What? No. What if you asks for a divorce?”

Tumawa ako ulit bago sya hampasin. “OA mo talaga! Hindi ’yan!”

“Then what is it?” naiinip nyang tanong.

“We have this shoot for-”

“No, I won’t allow you. I thought we’ve talked about this already?” offended nyang tanong.

I knew it, mahihirapan ako rito.

“I won’t be tired, I promise! Isasama kita!”

“But I thought we’ve talked about this? You are pregnant, wife.”

Hinawakan nya ang bridge ng kanyang ilong at pumikit nang mariin. That’s a sign he’s not liking any of it.

“I will be modelling gowns! Medieval styled gowns! Those will be cute and classic! Don’t you want it, hubby? Gusto ko ’yun!” nanggigil kong sabi.

“Baby, you will be tired and we both know that your pregnancy is very sensitive. You pass out whenever you’re experiencing stress and whenever you’re tired. I can’t risk you, not again,” madiin nyang sabi.

Frustrated ko syang binitawan. Agad naman syang naalarma at binuhat ako papuntang kama.

“It’s just a short shoot, Pearl said! Their head know that I’m pregnant so they won’t be making it too long. Besides, I will be happy for it. This is the last, please? Maii-stress ako kung hindi ko ito magagawa,” nalulungkot kong sabi.

Nagmura sya bago ako yakapin. Please say yes. Please say yes.

“Please, hubby?” I used my sweetest voice and made it sound sad. He sighed but he didn’t speak. Pinanonood lamang ako.

Hinaplos ko naman ang panga nya. Napapikit sya habang dinarama iyon. Malapit na syang pumayag, do better.

“Papayag ka naman, ’di ba, Hubby? ’Di ba? Papayagan mo ako?” malambing kong tanong at hinalikan ang kanyang panga.

“Fine!” pagsusuko nya. I smiled wickedly and let go of him.

“Stop casting your spells on me,” he said with his jaw clenching.

I giggled and clapped my hands. “Thanks, hubby! I know you’ll allow me.”

“This will be the last. I’ll go with you,” matalim nyang sabi sa akin. I pouted and kissed him quickly.

“Yes, Azriel!”

“Even in the back stage where you’re getting dressed and applying make up.”

I laughed and shook my head. “Hindi ’yan pwede!”

“May lalake ba doon?!” tanong nya at talagang naiinis na.

“Wala naman siguro! Puro babae siguro kami kaya ’wag ka na! Baka magkagusto ka pa sa iba, huh? Magaganda ang mga modelo-”

“Seleira, wala akong pakialam sa ibang babae. Ikaw ang inaalala ko,” galit nyang sabi.

Tumawa ako at pinagmasdan ang nagagalit na asawa. Hinalikan ko na lamang ang pisngi nya. Kunwari pa syang suplado pero hindi naman iniwasan ang halik ko.

“Talaga?”

“Oo. Huwag mong i-layo ang pinag-uusapan, may lalaki ba doon?”

“Wala!” natatawa kong sagot.

He groaned and messed his hair like a child.

“Fine! Just take extra care, wife.”

I smiled and nodded. My husband is a good boy today, huh? He deserves a treat!

“Thank you, hubby,” sincere kong sabi.

“You’re just so… effortlessly pretty and lovely,” napapaos nyang sabi.

I giggled and hugged him. Niyakap nya ako pabalik at hinalikan ang noo ko.

“It’s so hard to say no to you.”

Chapter 41

Jealous

“What position do you want? I’ll give you anything you want. How about my secretary?”

Umirap ako at ikinalma ang sarili. I tried to maintain my cool since I am talking to the CEO. I can’t just talk shit here.

He bites his lower lip and waited for me to answer. I looked away when I noticed that he looks so dashing and handsome. Nakagilid ang buhok at maayos na nasuklay at may gel pa. So formal.

“You can also just stay here in my office and I’ll pay you if you want. You don’t have to work at all,” he bargains.

Napapikit ako nang mariin. Malakas na talaga ang tama nito. He’s so desperate. Some said that this man is a snob, grumpy, business-monster, and all the other rude-related words in the world.

But guess what? He is desperate. A creep, a stalker, a brute.

“Sir, I am fine with my position,” I said nicely. Hinawi ko ang buhok ko at naagaw agad no’n ang tingin nya. He looks so amused with every little thing I do.

“I am not. Your position is low. Your position doesn’t have to meet the CEO all the time! I can’t see you!” he rants impatiently.

Hindi pa ako nakapagsasalita nang pumasok ang sekretarya nya.

I watched her smile maliciously at our boss. She’s wearing a black tube top and black pencil skirt. Lantad na lantad din ang malulusog nyang dibdib.

Tsk, yeah right. Of course, that’s his type. Not some petite-looking woman like me.

“Sir?” she calls sweetly. Ipinagsisiksikan nya rin ang mga hawak na folders sa kanyang dibdib at medyo gumagalaw sya upang tumalbog ang mga iyon.

“Seleira,” he demanded. I am not looking at him because I’m looking at his secretary. Umiwas din ako ng tingin at tumingin na lamang sa kawalan.

“Sir, this is about the…”

“Seleira!” pagdedemand nyang muli. I softly sighed. Can’t he just listen to his secretary?

“Miss Deala, leave us first,” he said, talking to the woman.

Hindi na ako nag-abala pang tumingin kahit noong nag-protesta iyong sekretarya. Nasigawan tuloy sya at kahit ako ay napapikit sa gulat at takot.

His voice is just so deep and baritone and when he shouts, it sounds so scary. Like you will just follow him or you’ll be eaten alive and whole.

“Look at me,” he demanded in a warning tone.

I really hate this man. He thinks he can have everything and everyone he wants. He just manipulates things and he can have it. Nakakairita. Parang mga puppet kami rito.

“Hmm?” tanging nasabi ko at nag-angat ng tingin. Kunot noo sya at masama na ang timpla pero nang tingnan ko ay gumaan ang ekspresyon nito.

“I said what position do you want?” bumalik ang marahan nyang tono. He just shifts moods in a second!

“I said my position now is fine.”

Bumalik ang iritasyon sa kanya. Umismid din sya na nagpapakita ng hindi nya pag-sang ayon.

And of course, how can I stop this powerful and wealthy CEO? Like what I said, he can just do whatever he wants to.

“Uh, thank you, Zyron,” I said nicely as I watch him carry my box for me. Lilipat na kasi ako ng office.

The mad man manipulated it again and made me his secretary. I don’t know how the hell did he do that in just a span of a day, and where on earth is the sexy woman I met the day before yesterday.

Namula ang pisngi at tainga bago nangiti. “Ah, welcome, Seleira.”

“Hmm hindi ka pa ba mahuhuli? It’s good you can help me, you know…” I said sweetly and flipped my hair. Nag-iwas sya ng tingin at tumango-tango.

“Miss Farrah, pwede namang ako na lang ang tinanong mo!” hirit ng isang lalaki sa gilid.

“Ako rin pwede, miss,” the other man said and winked.

Kahit naiinis ay tumawa lamang ako. “Sorry! Next time, then?” I asked sweetly.

That’s what men wants. The way you make them feel like a man, the way you act so feminine which makes them feel masculine and strong. I want to puke.

Nanlaki ang mga mata nila at tumango-tango. “Oo naman, miss! Kahit buhatin pa kita araw-araw papunta sa office mo-”

“Really?”

We all went silent when we heard that familiar deep and baritone voice. Both arrogance and annoyance are heard in his voice.

“Ah, S-sir…”

“Get back to work!” singhal nya rito. Nagtalunan ang dalawa sa gulat at takot bago tumango at tumalima.

Naguguluhan naman si Zyron kung ano ang gagawin habang buhat buhat pa rin ang box ko.

“You, too!”

“Ah, Sir, ihahatid ko lang po ang gamit ni Miss-”

“Give that damn thing to me.”

Wala nang nagawa si Zyron at hindi na lang din ako nagsalita pa sa kanya. Heck, I don’t even wanna look at him.

“Thanks, Zyron,” I said softly.

Ngumiti sya bago ilahad ang box na padabog na kinuha ng gago.

“Welcome, Seleira.”

Tumalikod na sya at inis na inis naman itong nasa harap ko ngayon. Mabilis ang pagtaas baba ng kanyang balikat at kahit ’di ko tingnan ay ramdam ko ang galit nya.

Tumalikod na ako at nagsimulang maglakad. Hindi pa man nakakalayo ay mabilis nyang nahawakan ang kamay ko

“What was that?!” iritado nyang tanong. Hindi ko pa rin sya tiningnan.

“What are you talking about?” I asked in a formal tone.

“You know about it, don’t make me a fool.”

“I don’t, Sir.”

“That! You let the bastard carry your things for you, huh? What about me?!” galit nyang tanong na parang bata.

“Isn’t it weird if you’re my boss and I’ll demand you to carry my things, Sir?” tanong ko habang hindi pa rin sya tinitingnan.

“Fuck that!” mura nya. “You can request anything to me! Pwede mo akong utusan.”

I smiled sarcastically. Iba na talaga ang tama nito.

“You even sound so sweet! You were using your bedroom voice to them!” galit nyang akusa.

I sighed. This is really bad. Really really bad.

I snapped back in reality when Azriel told me that my monthly check up will be next next week. Mas excited pa ata sya sa akin.

The end of this month will be my 8th week, malalaman na ang sex ng baby by that time. I’m excited about that, too!

“We will start shopping for our baby immediately,” he said in a happy tone.

Matatapos na rin ang renovation sa tapat. Finishing na lang at tuyo na rin ang pintura.

“Hmm are you excited?” tanong ko.

“I am, if it’s still not obvious,” he said. Nangingiti rin sya habang nagbabalat ng mangga.

Ngumuso ako at pinanood na lamang sya.

“I’m excited to buy small baby clothes,” he said. I giggled because I find him cute.

“Small shoes, toys, and many more…” he said. His eyes are also sparkling.

Humigikhik ako at yumakap sa kanya. Inilayo nya ang kutsilyo bago ako yakapin pabalik gamit ang isa nyang braso.

“How about me?” nakanguso kong tanong. Hinalikan nya ang noo ko at halata ang tuwa nya.

“You’re my baby, too.”

“The little baby?”

He nods, “My little baby.”

“Your sweet baby?”

“My very sweet baby.”

Nag-init ang pisngi ko.

“I will still spoil you. Fuck, I’m so happy, wife. These are all my dreams…”

“Hmm. Dapat lang,” sabi ko at pabiro syang kinurot.

“I need to work harder for my family, huh.”

“You’re so rich! You don’t need to work at all!” sabi ko.

“Still. I want more for you,” giit nya. Tinapik nya ang kanyang hita at nakuha ko kaagad iyon.

Tumayo ako at mabilis nyang inalalayan. Umupo ako at agad yumakap sa kanya. Halos manggigil pa ako dahil ang bango nya.

Gusto kong laging nakikita si Azriel. Para akong maiiyak sa tuwing wala sya sa paningin ko.

“Hubby…” natatawa kong tawag nang may maalala.

“Hmm?” he asks and quickly gave me a forehead kiss. Nabalatan nya na rin ang isang mangga at bago na ang binabalatan nya ngayon.

“I will go to the mall today,” I said.

“Why are we going to the mall today?” he asks.

I pouted cutely. “Hmm I will buy this new collection of Hermes Paris.”

Nagningning ang mga mata ko habang inaalala ang nakita sa internet kagabi. A new collection of their perfume is out and is only limited edition!

“You can just order that online, we don’t need to go out,” he suggested. Tumango naman ako. Sabagay…

“Use my laptop and use my account to have access on my credit card,” he added.

“Hubby, that’s so expensive! Hati na lang tayo,” suhestyon ko.

Umismid sya. “Just use mine, wife. A few bucks won’t hurt.”

“I have lots of money, too…” nakanguso kong sabi. Mabilis nya akong hinalikan.

“I know, but still.”

Tumango na lang ako dahil hindi talaga sya papayag. I mean… I’ll just use my money for our baby, then?

He started cutting the mangoes into bite sized pieces. Kinuha ko ang isa at kinain.

“So good!” I said and even clapped my hands. Sinawsaw ko ito sa toyo at maanghang na suka at mas lalo pang sumarap.

Meanwhile, my husband looks disgusted.

“Why are you dipping it there?” he asked.

“It tastes great. Tikman mo!”

“No.”

Dinabog ko ang mga paa ko habang inaalok sa kanya. He sighs and shook his head.

“Just try it! It’s not like you’re gonna die!” inis kong sabi.

Wala na syang nagawa at kinain na lamang. Hindi nga lang sya natuwa pero kinain nya naman.

I continue eating it happily while he’s busy kissing my hair and caressing my tummy.

“I miss it,” he suddenly said.

“Miss what?” tanong ko.

“We haven’t make love for three days already…” he said slowly while frowning. Humigpit din ang yakap nya sa akin at sumiksik sa aking leeg.

Kinunutan ko naman sya ng noo. “It’s just been three days!”

“Yes. That’s too long, I miss you already,” katuwiran nya.

Palibhasa’y nasanay na araw-araw kaya iyan… I laughed but then I hit him.

“You addict! Siguro kung malaki na ang tyan ko’t hindi na pwede ’yan, sa iba kang babae lalapit, ano?!” nagagalit kong tanong.

“What?!” offended nya namang tanong saka inangat ang ulo. “That’s how you think of me?”

Umismid ako. “You can’t blame me, you have this disgusting history.”

Marahas syang bumuntong hininga. “Please, I’m really sorry for that. I was dumb, if only I can go back, I won’t do that petty thing just to have your attention… Please, wife…”

Umiwas ako ng tingin at sinusubukang huwag maging marupok sa kanya. Pero shit… ang malalim at malambing nyang boses ay tinutunaw ako at pinarurupok ang  mga bakod na tinatayo ko.

“And I won’t have sex with other woman, what the hell is your pretty mind thinking?” inis pa rin ang tono nya. It’s like I hit some spot on his feelings.

“Talaga? Baka may mga babae ka sa opisina mo lalo na’t hindi ako nakakasama?!” paratang ko.

Dinilaan nya ang labi nya at bahagyang nangiti, ineenjoy na naman ang pagseselos ko.

“I don’t have other girls. You can come to work with me every single day if you want.”

Umismid ako at bumulong bulong. Hinapit nya ako lalo at inamoy amoy ang aking leeg.

“Besides, it’s only you who can turn me on. Just smelling your neck and I’m already having a boner.”

Umidmid ako muli. “Liar.”

“Fuck, baby, I’m not,” he said. “Making love while you’re pregnant with our child feels different, too. I love you so much.”

Tinulak ko sya at tumayo mula sa kandungan nya. Agad syang naalarma at niyakap na lamang ako. Ibinaon din ang mukha sa aking dibdib.

“Please, forgive me about my past…”

“I know! You were an asshole!”

He nodded painfully. “I was an asshole,” he repeats.

“You were toxic!”

“I was toxic…” napapaos nyang sagot. “Very.”

“You were a beast!”

“I was a beast.”

“Did you change, though?” pagalit kong tanong.

He nodded like a kid before looking up at me hopefully.

Umismid ako. “Kahit na! Hindi muna tayo matutulog nang magkasama sa kwarto ngayon!”

“What?! Not that, please. No, baby,” natataranta nyang sabi at tumayo na rin.

I tried my best to walk away but he’s hugging me so tight while kissing my cheek repeatedly. Tila sinusuyo ako.

“Bitiwan mo ako-”

“Please, no… ’Wag ganyan, Seleira,” nagbabanta pero halata naman ang takot sa kanyang boses.

“I said let go of me!”

“Let me sleep in our room-”

“Sa labas ka! Nakakairita ka!” naiiyak kong sigaw. Kung noon, wala akong pakialam, ngayon ay para akong inaasinan maisip lamang iyon!

“Hush, hush, no. We will sleep together please, wife. I won’t make love to you if you want, just please, let me sleep hugging you-”

“Ah, so ayaw mo na ngang makipagtalik sa akin?” lalo akong nagalit.

Marahas syang nagmura bago ako yakapin nang mahigpit at halik-halikan ang sintido ko. It calms me down but I am just so irritated to him!

“I mean you didn’t want, right? I won’t insist although I want it so bad.”

“Then let’s have sex then! Fuck me!” panghahamon ko.

He groaned in an annoyed tone. “It’s not just sex.”

“Shut up, it’s the same thing-”

“Seleira, it’s not,” iritado nyang sabi.

“It is the same!” sumbat ko.

“It’s not,” he whispers as he starts kissing my bare neck. Unti-unti rin akong nanghina kahit na naiinis pa rin.

“Baby, it’s not. So stop telling me it’s just sex because it hurts me so bad.”

Tumahimik ako at hindi na nakahanap pa ng mga salita. Hindi na rin sya nagsalita at humalik na lamang sa aking leeg habang hinahaplos ang aking tyan.

Kumalas lamang ako nang matipuhang kainin muli ang mangga. I sat down the chair and started eating it again.

“Sit here, baby, please,” he says softly while tapping his lap.

“Manahimik ka kung ayaw mong mag-away tayo, Azriel,” iritado kong sabi at kumain muli.

He sighed heavily but he didn’t speak anymore. Tumitig na lamang sya sa akin gamit ang malulungkot na mga mata.

Halos matawa ako sa nakakaawa nyang itsura. Nangungusap ang mga mata at nakakuyom ang mga kamay, nagpipigil na hawakan ako. Tatamaan talaga sya sa akin kung lalapat kahit dulo ng daliri nya sa akin.

My phone beeped so I reached for it.

Anikka:

Seleira, madi-discharge na nga pala si Papa bukas. Naisip ko lang na sabihin sa ’yo.

I wiped my fingers to reply to her.

Ako:

That’s good. He’s going home in the mansion here?

“Wife…” he calls but my full attention is on my phone.

Anikka:

Hindi, sa probinsya sya uuwi kasama yung taga-alaga nya. Salamat (;

I didn’t reply anymore but I feel okay. A huge part of me is relieved that my father is now okay.

I got distracted even more when I received many texts from staffs and from Pearl, confirming my presence in the photoshoot next week.

Ako:

Yup. I’ll go. Hindi naman maiipit nag tyan ko r’yan, ’no?

Pearl:

Yes! The head knows about your pregnancy so she made sure the stylists won’t give you a too fitted one.

I thanked her before putting my phone down and eat the remaining pieces.

“Baby, who were you texting with?” malambing nyang tanong.

“Si Anikka, na-discharge na raw si Daddy. Saka si Pearl, hindi raw fitted iyong gowns.”

He nods and I can still feel his intenze gaze, waiting for me to look at him.

“I’ll be with you,” he said.

Hindi na ako sumagot at uminom na lamang ng tubig.

“Wife, I said I’ll be with you.”

Tumango na lang ako.

“Baby, look at me please,” he begged. Bahala syang magdusa r’yan.

I stood up which made him panicked. Tumayo sya at agad akong inalalayan.

“I said do not touch me?! At hindi tayo matutulog ng magkasama ngayon!”

“Baby, please… I’m really sorry for my past, I really am,” frustrated nyang sabi.

Umismid ako at umirap.

“I know. I just don’t want to sleep with you,” I said and watch his problematic face. Parang ang laking problema kung hindi sya makakatabi sa akin sa pagtulog ng kahit isang gabi lang.

“Wife, please…”

“No!”

“Sa sahig ako, ’wag lang sa labas, please?” he bargained.

Naiirita ako sa kanya ngayon at para akong masusuka. Kahit noong nag-totooth brush ako ay para syang ewan na ipinagsisiksikan ang sariling katawan sa akin.

“Pansinin mo na ako,” desperado nyang sabi. Panay panay na rin ang mabibigat nyang buntong hininga. Patuloy din ang paghaplos nya sa tyan ko at paghalik sa noo ko.

“Fine!” pagsuko ko. “Oo na, umalis ka na, Azriel. Ang laki laki ng mansion tapos nagsusumiksik ka rito!”

“But I’m your husband…” he reasoned like it’s enough. Natawa na lamang ako at naawa na rin.

Kumapit ako sa leeg nya at agad sumigla ang mga mata nya. I gave him one quick kiss but he moves for more. Medyo matagal tuloy kaming naghalikan, mabuti na lamang at walang pumasok na maid.

Pagkatapos ay humikab ako. He kissed me softly again while still caressing my tummy.

“Antok na ako, hubby,” mahina kong sabi. Pinagmasdan nya pa ako bago buhatin.

I traced his veins in his arms then I looked at him using my sleepy eyes.

“Azriel, order the perfume collection,” inaantok kong sabi.

“I don’t know what you want,” he said gently.

“Hermes Paris,” huli kong sinabi bago ako hindi na naging responsive dahil sa antok.

The next days passed by quickly. Dumating na agad ang susunod na linggo or to be specific, my shoot’s day.

I am taking extra care and so is Azriel. Nakatayo sya sa likod ko habang nagpapatuyo ako ng buhok.

“Let me be with you in the backstage.”

Ayan na naman. Pinipilit nya naman iyan.

“Azriel, hindi nga pwede,” marahan kong sabi at inilapag ang hairdryer. Pinatay ko rin ito.

“I’ll be quiet in the corner… Please?” he begs with his sweet deep voice.

Huminga ako nang malalim nang yakapin nya ako mula sa likod. Ang kamay nya ay pumunta agad sa tyan ko habang inaamoy-amoy nya ang leeg ko.

“That’s still not allowed,” sabi ko at nilingon sya. Madali nya tuloy akong nahalikan.

“Why? I’m your husband,” he whispers. Tumawa ako at bahagyang hinampas ang kamay nya sa tyan ko.

“You always use that ‘husband card’ as if it’s a valid reason!” natatawa kong sabi.

“It is,” giit nya. I slanted my head to give him more access to my neck because he’s kissing it softly.

“It’s not…” I said weakly because of his kisses. Humigpit tuloy ang pag-alalay nya sa akin.

“Hubby,” I called.

“Hmm?” he whispered.

Sumandal na ako sa kanya at hinayaan syang ipagpatuloy iyon. He better not put any marks or else.

“Saglit muna tayo?” he whispered again but his voice sounds huskier now.

I blushed and looked at the wall clock. We still have an hour but I’m afraid Azriel might want more than a round.

“Male-late ako?” nakanguso kong tanong.

“Isa lang,” tawad nya. I giggled and hit his chest. Nakakagigil talaga ang isang ’to.

“Liar!”

“I promise.”

“Aantukin na ako pagkatapos, baka tamarin na ako sa shoot,” sabi ko at hinarap sya para yakapin. Ang bango nya talaga palagi.

“But baby… Fine. When we got home, then?”

I laughed before nodding. “You’re so thirsty!”

“I’m always thirsty for you,” he said as he smirk. Inirapan ko naman sya.

“Why don’t you just go to your girls?!”

“Stop it, please,” medyo inis nyang sabi.

Umismid ako. “Mamaya maraming babae doon. Pumili ka na lang, huh?”

“Stop this,” inis nyang sabi. “Asawa mo ako, Seleira. Bakit mo ako pinapamigay?!”

Umismid ako kahit nangingiti na. “Asawa kita?”

Suplado syang umiwas ng tingin.

“Asawahin mo nga ako?” I playfully said. Bumalik tuloy sa akin ang mga suplado nyang mata. I just gave him a sweet smile.

“I know what you’re talking about.”

“Huh?” natutuwa kong tanong. “Wala ah?”

“Tonight, Seleira. Or if you want, then right now.”

Ilang beses ko pang pinagkatuwaan si Azriel kahit na hindi sya natutuwa. He’ll just groan in an annoyed way and hug me. Nakakatuwa lang dahil lalo syang gumagwapo kung nagsusuplado.

We arrived at the studio just thirty minutes before the call time. Sinalubong agad ako ni Pearl ng isang beso. She also greeted Azriel before telling me where to go.

“Good morning po, Ma’am, Sir!”

“Good morning po!”

Ngumiti ako sa mga bumati at sa iba pang bumati. Azriel remained serious and just nods at them while his arm is possessively placed on my waist.

“Sa studio na tayo, ma’am,” masiglang bati ng babaeng staff.

I nodded before looking at my husband.

“I’ll be going.”

He sighed. “I’ll be in the corner…”

“Hindi nga pwede,” nangingiti kong sabi bago sya mabilis na hinalikan sa pisngi. Narinig ko tuloy ang sadyang pag-ubo ni Pearl.

“Text me, then.”

“Azriel, magbibihis at me-makeupan lang ako roon!” natatawa kong sabi pero seryoso naman sya. Nag-aalala ang ekspresyon nya.

He kissed me on ny forehead before nodding. “Still reply to me.”

Ngumuso na lang ako at tumango. He was about to kiss me on the lips but I pushed him. Tumingin din ako sa paligid at nakatitig ang iba sa amin.

“PDA ka talaga,” pasigaw kong bulang.

“Asawa mo naman ako.”

Umirap ako bago maglakad na papuntang room. He just stood there staring at me before a male staff approached him, maybe to lead him to a room where he can wait.

In the hallway, I was greeted by the casting director and the scout. Ngumiti lang ako at nakipag-usap saglit. Kumuha rin ng mga photos bago mag-proceed sa kwarto.

“Good morning, ma’am, I’ll be your stylist po. Jessa po,” masiglang bati agad sa akin pagpasok.

There’s a damn muscular and tall guy in here and he’s only wearing boxers. Inaayos din ang buhok nya.

“Uh, who is he?” awkward at mahina kong tanong sa stylist.

“Oh! Si Sir Augustus po, hindi nyo po ba nabasa sa contract?” she whispers back.

Tiningnan ko naman si Pearl.

“What? Nakalagay ’yun sa contract, he’ll be your partner for this shoot. Hindi ka ata nagbabasa?”

“You should’ve told me.”

“I thought you’ll read?” naguguluhan nyang tanong. Umirap na lamang ako.

“Also, iisang room lang po talaga ang magpa-partners. Iyong iba rin po, nasa iisang room para makapag-usap kayo at sa shoot ay maging komportable,” the stylist, Jessa, explains.

Tumango na lang ako at naglakad na. It’s not like I’m bothered by his body. My husband’s is better.

Napatingin sya sa akin. He immediately smirked and his dimples revealed themselves.

“Hi! I’m Augustus and you’re Seleira, right? Damn, girl. You’re so pretry,” he said in a cheerful but deep voice.

“Sir?” nag-aalangang tawag ng isa pang stylist.

He chuckled. “Later, later.”

“Okay po.”

“So?” pagkausap nya sa akin muli.

“Yeah?” I asked and sat down. Inilapag ko rin ang aking sling bag. Umupo naman aa gilid ko si Pearl kaya binati rin sya nito.

“I’m Seleira, yes, how’d you know?” I asked, trying to be nice.

He chuckled again. “Who wouldn’t know you?”

I smiled.

“So, you’re Augustus. I’ve never heard of you before.”

Saka lamang nag-sink in sa akin na nakaka-offend pala ang sinabi ko.

I laughed it out while waving both of my hands as if it’s nothing. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it to come out rudely-”

“No, no, it’s okay,” he said, laughing. “I’m not as famous as you are.”

“I’m not that famous!”

“You are…”

Ngumiti na lang ako at tiningnan ang cellphone kong tumunog.

Umupo na rin si Augustus sa tabing upuan ko, but it’s not too close. His stylist went to him again para ayusan pa sya lalo.

Tiningnan ko naman ang sarili ko sa salamin. I’m not wearing any make up dahil gagawin din naman iyon dito. For my outfit, I’m wearing Chanel’s Vintage Logo Terry cloth and just a plain black high-waisted pants.

Hubbybaby:

What are you doing?

Ako:

Nakaupo. Aayusan na ako.

“Uh, so, I heard this will be your last project for this year. Is that right?” Augustus asked.

Kahit hindi gustong makipag-usap ay tumango ako.

“Yup.”

“Oh! Personal reasons, huh?”

“Yes,” I said softly.

Siniko ako ni Pearl at inginuso ang cellphone kong may bagong text na naman.

“Saan pala si Hope?” tanong ko sa kanya bago bigyan ng atensyon ang cellphone.

“She’s sick again… Si Adonis nagpaalam ding hindi papasok.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at hinarap syang muli. “Palaging nagkakasakit si Hope, ah?”

She sighs before nodding. “Kaya nga. I told her we can go to the hospital but she refuses. Madalas nang sumakit ang ulo.”

“Maybe she’s pregnant?”

“That’s what I thought so I made her try two PTs. Negative both. Medyo na-offend pa sya noong pinasubok ko sa kanya, eh virgin pa pala ang loka.”

Imbis na tumawa ay malaking parte sa akin ang nag-alala.

“So palaging masakit ang ulo nya at may sakit?”

“Yes… Nakakaawa nga. Ayaw kasing magpa-ospital.”

Hindi na ako nakapag-salita at nag-isip na lamang. What could be the problem? May sakit ba syang hindi nya sinasabi?

My phone beeped again but the stylist talked to me already. Mabilis akong na-makeupan dahil light lang naman.

“Here’s the gown, ma’am…”

Nilingon ko ang hawak hawak nya. Halos mamilog ang mga mata ko sa ganda! This was like the ones I wore in high school during the school plays pero mas bongga ito. Its color is light pink with white linings. Marami ring nagpapakinang dito at talagang pang-medieval era ang itsura.

“That will look great on you!” Augustus commented. Nakatayo na sya at naka-full outfit na. Ang ganda ngang tingnan pareho ng aming mga suot.

He’s handsome, too.

“Seleira, phone mo,” sabi ni Pearl. I grabbed it from her hand and found out that Azriel is calling.

“Uh…”

“I’m sorry, I know phones should be turned off,” nahihiya kong sabi at pinatay ang phone.

She smiled and guided me to the small dressing room na nasa loob lang din nito.

Medyo mahirap suotin dahil mabigat ito. Tama lang din ang size at hindi naiipit ang tyan ko.

“So beautiful!” puri ni Augustus. Humarap ako sa salamin at maganda ngang magsama ang mga damit namin.

Hindi na maalis ni Augustus ang tingin sa akin at paulit-ulit ang pagpuri. I just shrugged and smiled at him.

“Ayusin ko pa po buhok nyo, ma’am,” Jessa said. I nodded and sat down. Umupo rin si Augustus sa tabing upuan.

“We should practice,” he said.

“Yes,” sagot ko naman. Hinanap ng mga mata ko si Pearl at nakitang wala sya.

“She left,” sagot ni Augustus nang tanungin ko sya.

“Oh, maybe bathroom break,” sabi ko at nagkibit balikat.

“You have the nicest body I’ve seen. I mean, just small frame and very feminine,” he said.

“Thanks! You have a muscular body, too,” I said while half smiling.

He chuckled. “Hindi naman. Not yet toned that much.”

Just when he answered, the door opened.

“Pearl,” tawag ko pero may kasama pala sya.

My husband frowning and obviously, masama na ang timpla. Mahigpit pang hinahawakan ang cellphone. Mas lalo pang nagalit nang may makitang lalaki rito.

Kahit mangha sa itsura ko at sa suot ay lamang pa rin ang galit nya.

“He texted me, hindi makatiis huh?” bulong ni Pearl.

“Don’t worry, ma’am. Pwede naman po ang bisita kung okay lang sa model,” the stylist said.

“Uh, okay.”

I let the mad brute sit down beside me, he’s occupying Pearl’s former seat. Nagpaalam naman si Pearl na kakausap sa mga iba pang may matataas na posisyon.

“Mr. Nickolson!” gulat na bati ni Augustus. Pero itong lalaking ’to ay badtrip na. Ni hindi man lang ngumiti o tumango.

“Where’s your phone?” madiin pero mahinang tanong nito.

“You said you’ll only text, why did you call? Hindi pwede ang maingay dito,” mahina ko ring sagot.

His jaw is clenching while staring darkly at my reflection in the mirror.

“You didn’t answer my texts.”

“I’m busy, sorry na, okay?” malambing kong bulong. Humawak ako sa kanyang kamay. Bahagya syang nagulat at mabilis na nag-iwas ng tingin.

“I’m sorry, okay?” paglalambing ko pa. Suplado syang umismid pero tumango na rin.

“Thanks, hubby.” I leaned in and gave him a quick kiss on his left cheek. His eyes widenened quickly. I giggled at his reaction.

“Uh, you done, Seleira? Let’s practice?” biglang singit ni Augustus sa gilid. Inilapag nya ang cellphone na kanina’y kinakalikot.

Mahinang nagmura si Azriel bago ilagay ang braso sa bewang ko. Bumaba doon ang tingin ni Augustus at nagulat pa. Kumunot ang noo bago nag-iwas ng tingin.

“Are we done?” tanong ko sa stylist.

“Ah, hindi pa po, ma’am. Lalagyan pa ng fake blonde strands…”

I nodded. Hinaplos ko ang hita ni Azriel para kumalma sya.

“Who is that? Why is he calling you with your first name? Why is here?” sunod sunod nyang bulong.

“My partner for this shoot.”

“What the fuck? You didn’t tell me?” galit nyang tanong pero mahina pa rin.

“I didn’t know, too! I didn’t read the contract.”

Marahas syang bumuntong hininga. Tila problemadong-problemado. Ibinaon nya ang kanyang mukha sa aking balikat at hindi na nagsalita pa.

“Your boyfriend?” Augustus asks seriously.

“Husband.”

Naunahan ako ni Azriel sa pagsagot kahit na nakatungo sya sa balikat ko.

“Husband!” pag-uulit nito.

“Ah, yeah. He’s my husband,” I said while smiling.

“Oh, shoot! I’m sorry, I didn’t know-”

“Why are you sorry? Did you do something to her?” matalim na tanong ni Azriel at inangat ang ulo.

Itinaas ni Augustus ang kanyang dalawang kamay bilang pagsuko.

“N-no, I didn’t. I just thought she’s single.”

“She’s not. Her name is Seleira Nickolson.”

Hinampas ko na ang basagulerong ’to. Parang siraulo, nag-aamok ng away!

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, okay?” awkward na sabi ni Augustus.

I smiled at him apologetically.

“I’m sorry, Augustus,” I said softly. Kinurot ko nang mahina si Azriel kaya sobra ang pagka-offend nya. Nagagalit pang sya ang sinasaway ko. Para talaga syang bata kung nagseselos.

“Stop it,” bulong ko sa kanya.

“Tell him to stop hitting on you-”

“Azriel, he’s not. Stop.”

He groaned annoyingly and didn’t speak anymore. Naramdaman ko na lamang ang mahina nyang kagat sa balikat ko bilang pagganti.

I smirked. Nakakairita sya pero nakakatuwa rin.

“Uh, so, we’re three pairs, right?” Augustus suddenly said. I can feel he’s trying his best to sound casual kasi baka magka-ilangan kami sa shoot mamaya kung hindi kami mag-iimikan ngayon.

“Three?”

“Yup. You didn’t read the contract?” nakangiti nyang tanong.

“Uh, no…” nahihiya kong sagot.

“Hmm, maybe busy? By the way, I heard the photographer is a grumpy man.”

“Oh?!” gulat kong tanong.

“Wife…” mahinang tawag naman ng loko.

“Yup. Mr. Aguirrez, he’s a well known photographer since his young days. Now, he’s very strict and perfectionist.”

Kinabahan naman ako nang kaunti. Surely… he won’t shout at me, right?

“Seleira…”

Ang kulit talaga ng isang ’to. Parang mamamatay kung hindi mabibigyan ng atensyon. He’s so freaking cute and hot at the same time.

“But you’re professional so you shouldn’t be worried.” Augustus chuckled. I just laughed it out, too.

I’m a professional. For me, not for anyone else.

“Baby, look at my finger, please… It hurts here.”

Nagsasalita pa si Augustus pero binalingan ko na ang nagmamaktol na asawa.

“Where?” I asked.

Ibinigay nya sa akin ang kanyang kamay. Sinuri ko iyon pero wala namang sugat!

“Wala naman ah?” tanong ko.

“Just hold it, it doesn’t hurt if you’re holding it,” katuwiran nya.

Kumunot ang noo ko at hinawakan na lang ang kamay nya.

“Surely, there’s an interview after this. Will you go?” tanong ni Augustus.

“Yeah. For maganizes,” sagot ko.

“Wife, look at my chin please. Something hurts here, I can’t see it…”

“That’s good. I’ll be there, too,” Augustus replied.

I’ve actually seen him in some billboards pero hindi ko alam na Augustus pala ang pangalan nya at sya ang kaharap ko ngayon.

His hair is color gray, he have this pair of almond eyes and dark eyebrows. Matangkad at maskulado. Maganda ang tindig dahil isang modelo.

“Seleira…” naiinip na tawag ni Azriel.

“Hmm?” nilingon ko sya pero pinatayo na rin ako ng stylist.

“Okay na, ma’am. Ang ganda nyo po,” namamangha nyang sabi. I looked at my reflection and agreed with her.

Pinuri ako ni Augustus habang si Azriel ay laglag panga pa ring nakatitig sa akin. Hindi nya na napigilan pang yakapin ako. I laughed and tried to push him.

“Azriel, nakakahiya!”

The stylists laughed. Azriel took photos of me and I bet he’ll post them in his instagram again. Nagpasuyo pa sya sa stylist na kuhanan kaming dalawa.

Augustus and I just practiced for a bit. We did some poses but I bet he has some more to offer later. Nahihiya lang siguro sya kay Azriel na pakiramdam ko ay kayang kaya syang patayin sa oras na magkamali sya ng galaw.

“Five minutes, ma’am, start na po tayo!” Another staff entered to tell us that.

I nodded. Sinuyo ko na lang saglit si Azriel dahil kung hindi ay mababadtrip pa sya lalo.

“This way, ma’am! Sir!”

Pumasok na kami sa shooting room at naroon na nga ang dalawa pang pares. They have big boobs! What the!

Parang ang laking sampal sa akin, ah? Ako pa ata ang pagigitnaan. Well, whatever, I’m the prettiest naman.

Binati muna kami ng mga photographers at kahit ang masungit na sinasabi ni Augustus ay ngumiti naman. Maybe, he’s just strict kapag trabaho na talaga.

“Let’s go?” aya ni Augustus.

“Yeah, wait lang,” sabi ko at nilingon si Azriel.

“Behave ha,” I said and gave him another quick kiss before walking towards the other models.

“Women first!” the photographer demanded.

Ako ang inilagay sa gitna (dahil bukod sa ako ang pinakamaganda) ay ako rin ang pinakamatangkad. I mean, I think I am 1-2 inches taller than them.

Nakatitig pa sila sa akin na parang hindi makapaniwala. I just gave them a warm smile so we can all be comfortable.

“Fierce.”

I did as the photographer says. Nakailang shots at iba iba ang aming pose. Our outfits are complementing each other, too.

“Good job, Hailey, Seleira!”

Mas umayos pa ako at napansin ko ring kinukuhaan ako ng litrato ni Azriel. Mas lalo tuloy akong ginanahan.

Mayroon ding mga props na syang ginamit.

“Good job, girls! Especially, you, the one at the center. Of course, Miss Seleira,” the man said and he even clapped his hands.

I smiled a bit before looking at Azriel. Muntik na akong matawa sa itsura nya. My gosh, he looks like a proud dad.

“By partners! Seleira and Augustus first.”

Nagsialisan ang dalawang babae bago pumalit si Augustus. Agad tumitig si Azriel at nakita ko pang bumuntong hininga.

Augustus placed his arm on my waist before whispering, “Is it okay?”

“Yes. This is job,” I answered.

Azriel looked at me grimly and his jaw is now clenching. He looked down on my waist and his expression looked darker.

Hindi na rin sya kumukuha ng litrato. I looked at Pearl at nakatingin din pala sya kay Azriel. Ngumisi sya sa akin at nagtaas baba ng dalawang kilay.

I didn’t mind them and just focused on my job.

“Closer, please.”

Hinapit ako lalo ni Augustus nang sabihin iyon ng photographer. I put my hand on his chest and looked seriously at the camera.

Pinuri kami dahil doon.

“Look at me,” he whispered.

So I do. Natatawa ako dahil sobrang lapit namin pero sinabihan nya akong mag-seryoso.

Okay, he’s professional. Don’t be such a pussy, Seleira.

Tinitigan ko sya at at pagkatapos ay sumandal sa dibdib nya. Heck, I don’t wanna look at Azriel. Baka tumakbo ako bigla sa kanya at sabihing trabaho lang ito.

Nakailang kuha pa kami. Hindi pa ako nakakalingon kay Azriel at hinila na ako agad para sa retouch at mas magaang dress habang yung iba ay pinipicturan na nang by partner.

Ang tagal pa naming natapos plus my time removing the dress. Ang dami ring nagpapicture na mga staffs at iilang small models kaya talagang natagalan.

Nahihilo na ako at gusto ko nang umuwi.

Alas dose i-medya na rin nang natapos. Pearl congratulated me and hugged me.

“You look tired,” she said.

“Hindi naman…” sabi ko at nagmamadaling sinikop ang phone at iilang gamit ko pa papasok sa bag.

“Seleira, it was nice working with you,” Augustus said.

“Yeah, you, too!” masaya kong sabi. Nakapants na lang sya at wala nang pang-itaas kaya nagulat ako nang yakapin nya ako.

Niyakap ko na lang sya pabalik at agad kumalas.

“Thank you.”

“You were fun and pretty! You sure this is your last shoot for this year?” pagtatanong nyang muli.

I smiled and nodded. “Yup.”

Pagtalikod ko ay nariyan nang nakaabang si Azriel. Nakakunot ang noo at hindi nagsasalita. Shit, para akong kinilabutan sa awra nya. He won’t hurt me, right?

“Thanks, Pearl. Uh, we’ll go now,” I said to my friend.

“Oh! Sure sure!”

“Uh, Azriel?” mahina kong tawag.

“Umuwi na tayo.” Maikli nyang sabi at hinawakan ang pulsuhan ko.

I suddenly feel a hollow space in my tummy. I wonder if he’s mad.

Marami pang bumati bago kami makarating ng parking lot. Tahimik nya akong pinagbuksan ng pinto at sinuutan ng seatbelt bago umikot para pumasok sa driver’s seat.

Hindi ko naman maalis ang tingin sa kanya.

“Hubby?” I called.

Hindi sya sumagot at seryoso lamang na ini-start ang kotse. Nag-iigting pa rin ang panga nya at kunot noo rin.

Umiwas ako ng tingin at tumingin na lamang sa labas. Isn’t he proud of me? He looks so proud naman kanina but now… he looks so ruthless and grumpy.

He’s driving smoothly using his right hand at ang kaliwa nyang braso ay aroganteng nakapatong sa may bintana ng kotse.

Hindi na rin naman ako nagsalita. Maybe he doesn’t want to talk to me, then. Hinaplos ko na lamang ang tyan ko.

We stopped when the light’s red. Tinitigan ko na lamang ang mga taong tumatawid sa pedestrian.

The car behind us beeped when it’s already green which made me look at Azriel. Nakatulala at nakatingala sya sa labas.

I blushed when I realized he’s looking at the huge billboard— which is displaying me while holding a glass of Soju as an advertisement.

Binusinahan pa kami bago nagmura si Azriel at pinagpatuloy ang pagmamaneho.

“Azriel?” tawag ko ulit dahil nabo-bother ako sa pananahimik nya.

“What?” he asks.

Umiling lang ako at tumingin na lamang sa labas.

“Hubby?” pagtatawag ko ulit.

Hindi sya nagsalita at nilingon lang ako saglit.

“Popeyes chicken, please?” I requested and pointed at the approaching restaurant.

“Not healthy.”

I frowned and just looked down.

Pagkauwi ay ginugutom na ako. Pinagbuksan nya ako ng pinto at agad akong kumapit sa braso nya.

“Hubby, what’s the problem?” tanong ko.

“It’s nothing. Let’s just eat, I’ll cook for us.”

I pouted, not believing him. “Carry me, please?”

Walang pagdadalawang-isip nya akong binuhat. Nasalubong pa namin si Linda na nakangisi at kumakaway.

Dahan dahan nya akong inilapag sa kama pero hindi ko sya hinayaang umalis.

“I said what’s the problem?” tanong ko. Umismid lamang sya.

“Nagseselos ka?” nakangisi kong tanong. Suplado syang nag-iwas ng tingin. Agad kong hinaplos ang panga nya habang natutuwa.

“Jealous boy…” I murmurred.

“Stop it, magluluto na ako.”

I giggled and kiss him on his cheek many times. “Nagugutom na ako, hubby!”

“That’s why I said I’ll cook now-”

“Hindi, ibang gutom, hubby!” paglilinaw ko.

Gumalaw ang labi nya at halatang naapektuhan pero pinipilit pa rin na nagtatampo sya.

“Sorry na, trabaho lang naman ’yun… I made it sure to everyone. Saka, alam naman ng lahat na asawa mo ako, eh…” pagsusuyo ko at niyakap sya. Hindi nga lang sya yumakap pabalik.

I started planting kissed on his clenching jaw which made him swallow hardly.

“You’re my husband, huwag ka nang magselos,” malambing kong sabi.

Umismid sya kahit na naapektuhan na. “Maybe you enjoyed there, huh? I heard you find that bastard muscular.”

Natawa ako at umiling-iling habang hinahaplos ang braso nya. “I find you hot and very muscular.”

“Really? Tsk. Maybe you’re just bluffing,” suplado nyang sabi pero ang kanyang mga tainga ay namumula.

Pinagdiskitahan ko ang mga ’yun.

“Stop,” napapaos nyang sabi.

Ni hindi pa kami nakapagbihis but I need to tame this brute. Nagwawala na naman ’yan sa loob loob nya.

“Sorry na,” I happily said and kissed his nose. Pumikit sya at dinama iyon. Pinaglalaruan ko rin ang buhok nya.

Nilalambing ko pa sya pero tumunog na ang phone nya. Binitawan ko sya para bigyan sya ng space pero agad nya akong hinila muli.

“Lambingin mo pa ako…”

I smiled but then it turned to giggle. “Sagutin mo ’yun!”

“Later.”

“What if it’s important?” tanong ko pero niyayakap nya lang ako at pilit inilalagay ang kamay ko sa mukha nya.

“Galit ako, suyuin mo pa ako,” nagpapalambing nyang sabi. Mahina ko naman syang hinampas kahit nag-iinit ang aking pisngi sa sinabi nya.

“Hubby, get it!”

“Answer it for me, then.”

Iyon na nga ang ginawa ko. Kinuha ko ang phone nya mula sa table. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at agad ibinigay sa kanya.

“It’s your mother!” I said and jumped back to bed.

Kinuha nya iyon sa kamay ko.

“Hello,” he answered in a formal tone. He turned it to loudspeaker.

Bumati lamang ang kanyang ina at ipinaalam na nasa rancho na sila sa probinsya. Napangiti ako dahil nabanggit pa nito na itext daw ni Azriel sa kanya ang number ko.

“Yes, I will,” Azriel answered.

“Also, son, make sure you and her Titos are ready for our dinner next week.”

Umawang ang bibig ko at medyo kinabahan pero lamang ang excitement. Finally, a formal introduction, huh?

Napaisip tuloy ako kung isasama ko ba si Anikka, kahit hindi na si Daddy since nagpapahinga pa sya.

Tiningnan ako ni Azriel na para bang sinasabihan akong “you heard that.”

Tumango lamang ako at tipid na ngumiti. I should invite Anikka since she’s a family, too. But I hope she’ll behave nicely and not like a desperate woman before.

Chapter 42

Shop

“Hubby!” I cried while calling him. It’s currently 9 pm and he’s so busy with his work. He’s in the coffee table with his laptop in front of him. While I’m here in our bed.

“Azriel!” I called again.

Fuck, I’m so wet. The obge was right, she told me I’ll experience worse sexual drive than usual.

“Baby, wait please. I’m finishing this,” he said seriously. “I’ll sleep with you later.”

I stomped my feet as a sign of disapproval. I threw my pillow on the side, too.

“I said now!” inis na inis kong sabi habang patuloy na pinapadyak ang paa.

Nakita kong tumingin sya sa akin at dinilaan ang sariling labi. He looks so hot with his reading glass. Naka-plain white shirt lang din sya at itim na boxers.

“Ten minutes, please?” malambing nyang sabi.

Kumunot naman ang noo ko. “Ang tagal!”

“I’ll make this quick. I’m working for our family, wife.”

Hindi na ako nagsalita. Nakakairita talaga sya minsan. Why can’t he just go here, kiss me and make love with me?!

Maybe he doesn’t want to make love with someone who is pregnant already, huh.

I tried touching my coochie and it’s so wet! Ew, it feels so sticky. I don’t know why Azriel loves touching this when it’s so wet… it’s so disgusting!

“Hmm…” I moaned softly when I felt a sensation while touching it. I didn’t even feel shy when Azriel saw me.

“What the fuck,” he cursed ruthlessky. I saw him walking over here. Kinagat ko ang labi ko habang hinahawakan ang akin.

“What the fuck do you think you’re doing, hmm?” Lust is heard in his deep voice. Lumiyad ako habang nakatingin sa kanya.

“Hubby…”

“Damn it, you’re fucking hot, wife.” napapaos nyang sabi. “Stop that!”

I almost cried when he removed my hand but he quickly replace with his.

“You’re dripping wet, Seleira,” nanggigil nyang saad. He traced my clit down to my hole using his long fingers.

Hindi naman na ako makasagot dahil sa nararamdaman. Nakapikit ang aking mga mata at mahinang umuungol habang mahigpit na nakahawak sa kamay nya.

He removed his hand which made me open my hopeful eyes. His eyes now reflect  a bunch of emotions. Love, lust, want, desire, and more.

“Az, please… put it back.”

He is removing my shorts and panty. Naglilikot na ako dahil sa nararamdaman habang pinipirmi nya naman ang bewang ko.

“So wet,” he commented which made me blush. “Why are you this wet? What are you thinking?”

Pilya akong ngumiti at umiling.

Ngumisi rin sya. “What is it that you’re thinking that made you this wet, hmm? You naughty woman…”

I giggled cutely. Pinatakan nya ako ng halik at agad akong kumapit sa kanyang leeg. Natitigil lamang ako kapag dumadaing sa sarap ng paghaplos nya sa akin doon.

“This makes me hungry, wife,” makahulugan nyang sabi at bumaba.

I was about to say something but it turned to a sweet moan when I felt his hot mouth to it. Napasabunot ako agad sa kanya, I feel bad but heck… this feels so good.

Ipinatong nya ang dalawa kong binti sa kanyang balikat at mas lalong inginudngod ang sarili. I am losing my breath because of my intense moans. He eats it so hungrily as if someone is going to take it away from him.

So basically, we shared our night while making hot love. His work is left behind… I feel bad about it but I’m not sorry. I need my husband, too!

I covered my naked body with our blanket. Tumalikod ako sa kanya para sa mas komportableng posisyon sa pagtulog.

“Baby…” he called. “I enjoyed making love with you tonight. It feels even better because I know you’re pregnant.”

I bit my lip because of the familiar feeling I’m feeling whenever he says something sweet.

Yumakap din sya sa akin. Ramdam na ramdam ko tuloy ang mainit at hubad nyang katawan.

“Face me here, please. Kiss me,” malambing nyang sabi. Napangiti tuloy ako. However, I’m so sleepy and tired to do anything.

“Azriel, I’m sleepy…” I said softly.

“Just a little cuddle, wife,” pagpupumilit pa nya. Hinahaplos haplos nya rin ang tyan ko.

“Continue your work,” wala sa sarili kong sabi.

“How about our cuddles?” he asked like a child.

“Just let it pass tonight-”

“What?!” offended nyang tanong. “How can I just let this cuddles after making love with you pass?”

Mahina akong tumawa. Ang OA nya talaga. Ang sarap asarin.

“Just sleep.”

“Seleira, I’m your husband.”

I smirked. He really loves using that as an excuse.

“Wife, I need your cuddles!” he demanded. Halos mapisat na rin ako kayayakap nya.

I laughed. “Bukas na-”

“Cuddle me tonight,” frustrated nyang sabi kaya lalo akong natawa. He also started kissing my neck.

“Bukas na-”

He groaned and even bite my neck softly as his revenge. I moaned but I laughed too.

“Why don’t you want cuddles? You just want me to do you, huh? Now after it, you don’t want me anymore,” nagtatampo nyang sabi.

Humalakhak ako sa ka-OAhan nya. Nakakatuwa talaga sya.

Naawa ako at hinarap na sya. Nakakunot ang noo nya at bahagya pang nakanguso. Fuck… how can my husband be cute and hot at the same time?

“Anong gusto mo?” malambing kong tanong at hinaplos ang panga nya. Agad syang napapikit at dinama ang kamay ko.

“Cuddles.”

I giggled and started playing with his hair. Umangat din ako nang kaunti at paulit-ulit na hinalikan ang pisngi nya.

He couldn’t supress his smile now. Bahagya pang namumula ang mga tainga. Hinapit nya pa lalo ang bewang ko at pinatungan ako ng isang binti.

Bumaba ang kamay ko sa matigas nyang dibdib at hinaplos iyon. Ibinaba ko rin sa kanyang abs.

“How can you maintain this? You still work out?” I asked softly.

“No,” he answered in his bedroom voice, inaantok na siguro.

“I only did workouts years ago. I didn’t have much more time when we’re living together,” he added.

“Why naman?” mahina kong tanong. Binigyan nya muna ako ng mabilis na halik bago sumiksik sa leeg ko.

“Can’t you see, I’m so busy here with you.”

I laughed. “Anong busy ka d’yan? You can still do whatever you want!”

“I love to do you,” singit nya. Pinamulahan ako at pinagkukurot sya habang mahina syang tumatawa.

“Siraulo ka talaga! Matulog na nga tayo!” namumula kong sabi. Hinalikan nya tuloy ang mga pisngi ko.

“Mamaya na…” naglalambing nyang sabi. “Maglambingan pa tayo…”

I laughed because of how cringe his choice of words is. Pero nagpyepyesta naman ang mga paru-paro sa tyan ko.

“Hubby,” pagtatawag ko.

“Hmm?” tanong nya habang busy sa paghalik sa aking buhok.

“I have a challenge for you,” natatawa kong sabi.

“What is it?”

“I’ll pay you 1,000 bucks if you can do this.”

“I don’t need money? How about you kiss me a thousand times as a prize?” he suggested. Kinurot ko sya agad. Dumaing sya pero natawa rin.

“Okay, the challenge is you can’t kiss and touch me for a day-”

“What the fuck is that fucking challenge?! No way!” agad nyang sagot at medyo agresibo pa. Lalo pa syang sumiksik sa akin.

“It’s a challenge!” natatawa kong sabi habang tinutulak sya.

“No. That’s bullshit.”

“Hmm?” natutuwa kong sabi.

“How can I do that? Just look at you roaming around here? No… No. Fuck, no,” inis nyang sabi at bahagyang pinisil ang bewang ko.

“You’re a KJ! Whatever, the next challenge na lang, pero para sa akin at hindi sa iyo.”

“What is that?!”

“Bakit ka galit?” natatawa kong tanong. Umismid lamang sya.

“The challenge for me is not to talk to you for a day. Hindi kita papansinin o kikibuin!”

He groaned in a very annoyed way. Tuwang-tuwa naman ako.

“Subukan mo.” May pagbabanta sa boses nya.

“Talaga!”

“You’re enjoying this, huh?” he asked sarcastically. I giggled and shook my head.

“I have a challenge for you, too.”

“Sige, ano?” natatawa kong tanong. He lift his head and look at me with his dark eyes.

“I’ll make love to you but you can’t moan or show any emotion,” he said while smirking evilly.

Hinampas ko na.

“Gago ka talaga, hubby,” naiirita kong sabi.

Sya naman ang humalakhak. Niyakap nya ako at tuwang-tuwa talaga sya. His shoulder is shaking because of his laughter.

“What did you call me?” he asked while laughing.

“Gago!” iritado kong sigaw at pinagbubunot ang maninipis na buhok sa kanyang dibdib.

He groaned but he is still laughing. Hinuli nya rin ang mga kamay ko habang tawang-tawa pa rin.

Ang gwapo ng gagong ’to.

“Fuck…” natatawa nyang mura. “I love you so much.”

“I hate you!” I said while blushing. Hinalikan nya ako at ramdam ko pa rin ang ngiti nya.

“You don’t mean that. You love me,” he whispered.

Umismid ako. “Just do my challenge!” I said.

“Uh uh,” he said, shaking his head as a disapproval. “You do my challenge.”

“Ayoko! Ako naman ang unang nagsimula ng challenge ah? Dapat challenge ko sa iyo ang mauna!”

“Ako naman ang unang pinanganak,” dahilan nya.

Kumunot ang noo ko at natawa. Hinampas ko sya habang tumatawa. “Kalokohan mo talaga!”

He laughed with me, too. We then end our night while feeling each other’s heat.

Kinaumagahan ay ka-facetime call ko si Tito habang nag-aalmusal. Azriel is not here though, he went to work for a quick meeting. Ayaw pa ngang iwan ako rito but I assured him that I won’t do stupid things.

“So when is this?” Tito asks. I can see him eating breakfast, too.

“I don’t really know. Maybe next month or so,” I said.

Inilapag ni Linda ang request kong pagkain. It’s a wheat bread with scrambled eggs and avocado on top. My fruit juice and vitamins are also with me in the side.

Imbis na sumagot si Tito ay tinitigan lang ako nito at nagtaas ng kilay. He smirked, too. “Teka, blooming ka ata? Did you put make up this early?”

“Hell, I didn’t! I won’t put make up just for our call ’no,” maarte kong sabi at sumipsip sa aking fruit juice.

“Gaga! True ba? Ganda ng skin mo.”

“Thanks! I always do skin care,” kibit balikat kong sabi.

“Anyway, so Hiro and I will come. Just send me a text ahead of time. She better be good because I’m not kind, too, Seleira!” banta nya at tumawa. Inirapan ko na lamang.

“She’s kind. A bit intimidating but she’s nice to me.”

Tumango-tango sya habang kumakain ng vegetable salad.

“Si Tito Hiro?” tanong ko.

“Nasa lalake nya! Bwisit!” biglang nagbago ang mood ni Tito. Hindi naman ako nakareact agad.

“Bakit?”

“Hindi umuwi kagabi at may tinatapos daw sa office. Tumawag naman bago ako matulog pero nakakairita pa rin. Maya maya andito na ’yan, nag-text ng pauwi!” iritado nyang sabi.

I laughed. “Tito, chill. It’s not like he can find someone who can replace you-”

“He can! Believe me, he can. Mapa-babae o lalaki naglalaway dyan! Bwisit!”

I just listened to his rants the whole time. Clearly, he’s over reacting. Hindi lang umuwi ng isang gabi, tumawag naman, ganito pa rin sya.

But, hey… Kung si Azriel hindi umuwi ng gabi, talagang salamat na lang sa lahat. Bwisit sya, magsama sila ng mga babae nya.

“Haynako, oo, Tito. Kung si Azriel hindi umuwi ng isang gabi…” hindi ko na naituloy ang sinasabi ko nang mangilid agad ang mga luha ko.

“Hoy! ’Wag kang umiyak!” naalarma pero natatawang sabi ni Tito.

“Kung hindi umuwi si Azriel ng isang gabi… Kung mag-isa lang ako sa kwartong matutulog tapos malamig at walang yakap nya… Tapos ibang babae ang kinakama at niyayakap nya…” I started crying hardly. Napamura si Tito at kahit si Linda ay bumalik dito.

“Hey! Hindi ’yan gagawin ni Azriel, jusko!” sabi ni Tito.

“M-ma’am,” nag-aalalang tawag ni Linda.

“May babae ba si Azriel?” umiiyak kong tanong kay Linda.

“Huh! Wala, ma’am! Kung sana nakikita nyo lang si Sir sa tuwing nakatitig sa inyo, parang nagiging puso ang mga mata nya. Ikaw lang tinititigan nang ganoon ni Sir, ma’am.”

I pouted and stopped crying. Tumango-tango ako at tinanggap ang tissue nya.

“Ano? Bruha ka!” natatawang sabi ni Tito. Inirapan ko lamang sya at nag-usap pa kami ng ilang saglit bago patayin ang tawag.

Tumayo na ako matapos kumain. I went back to our room to take a bath although Azriel told me this early morning that he’ll join me in my bath. Ang tagal nya kaya.

Matapos maligo ay nakahubo’t hubad akong lumabas ng banyo. Imbes na sa closet ko dumiretso ay sa closet ni Azriel ako pumasok.

Namili ako ng sa kanyang mga malaking t-shirt. Everything looks so comfortable and huge! Mga branded din, of course. Kaamoy pa nya kaya gustong gusto ko ito.

I wore the huge black one. Hanggang taas ito ng aking tuhod. I then went back to my closet for some panty and shorts.

I looked at the mirror. This looks and feel good, huh. Clothes just hit different when they’re not yours.

Bumalik ako sa closet ni Azriel at hinakot ang mga t-shirt nya at inilagay iyon sa akin.

Sumalampak na ako sa kama at nag-cellphone na lamang.

Nahihilo na naman ako. Hindi naman na ako masyado nagsusuka pero pakiramdam ko lang na ganoon.

Pearl:

Check your bank account.

Ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko dahil sa hilo at antok. I’ll just check it next time.

Hubbybaby:

What are you doing? I’m still here in the meeting.

Ako:

Nakahiga.

Hubbybaby:

I miss you.

Hubbybaby:

Who are you texting with beside me?

I laughed. He acts like a jealous teenager boyfriend. Gusto ko sanang sabihing marami pero baka ma-distract lang sya lalo’t nasa meeting pa naman sya.

Ako:

Ikaw lang. Umayos ka dyan, matutulog na ko.

Hubbybaby:

Really? 👶

Kumunot ang noo ko sa reply nya. Why the hell is there a baby emoji?! Loko loko talaga ang isang ’to. Hindi pa ako nakakareply ay may text na sya.

Hubbybaby:

Sleep. I’ll be home in an hour. Do not move too much.

Ako

Okay, ingat.

Hubbybaby:

I miss you.

Hindi na ako nag-reply pa dahil nahihilo na’t naaantok. Papikit na ako nang makalimutang magbilin sa kanya.

Ako:

Please buy me some gummy bears…

Hubbybaby:

Sure. What else does my baby want?

I giggled cutely. But why does he reply so quickly though? Nasa meeting sya ah.

Ako:

BOBA

Hubbybaby:

Flavor?

Ako:

Wintermelon and mango plushie. Thank you, hubby ☁️ ill sleep ✨🌸

Nakatulugan ko nga iyon. Paggising ko ay rinig na ang tunog ng shower. Dali dali akong bumangon.

“Azriel?” I called. Medyo malat pa ang boses ko dahil kagigising.

“Azriel?” pag-uulit ko.

I heard the turning off of the shower.

“Wait, baby. Don’t get out of bed, please…” I heard him say.

“Okay!” sigaw ko at tumalon pabalik sa kama.

I’m so hungry. It’s already pass 1 pm and I still haven’t ate my lunch.

Maya maya ay may kumatok at nang sabihin kong pasok ay iniluwa ng pinto si Linda.

“Gising na kayo, ma’am! Ang lunch nyo po? Nakapag-luto na kami.”

“Why didn’t you call me at 12 pm?!”

She laughed. “E, masamang ginigising ang mga buntis, ma’am.”

Kumunot ang noo ko. Parang wala naman akong naaalalang ganoong kasabihan, ah?

Napatingin sya sa suot ko. “T shirt ni Sir ’yan, ma’am ah?”

I groaned. “Why are you so pakialamera ba?!”

Hindi nya pinansin ang sinabi ko. “Saka andyan na si Sir, ma’am oh. Sabay na kayong kumain!” makahulugan nyang sabi sabay ngisi.

“Could you shut up for once?” iritado kong sabi at nagtakip ng unan sa mukha.

“Okay, ma’am!” masigla nyang sabi.

Hindi na ako sumagot at hinayaan na lang syang kuhain ang mga gamit na damit. Wala na sya nang tingnan kong muli.

I just played with my phone for a while before I felt Azriel’s presence.

“Wife, I miss you,” he said. He’s also topless, he’s just wearing his gray boxers. Again, I have this very hot and yummy view.

Naamoy ko kaagad ang bango nya. I opened my arms for a hug. He chuckled and quickly bury his head on my neck.

“Bango mo. You put perfume?” he asks gently.

“Nope!” I said, giggling. “I just woke up, hubby.”

He chuckled and gave me a sweet kiss. Napatingin din sya sa damit ko bago ngumisi.

“Baby, this is my shirt…”

“Not anymore!” iritado kong sabi.

His eyebrows shot up before kissing me again. “Fine.”

“Wife, where are all my nice shirts, hmm? I couldn’t find them,” malambing nyang sabi habang hinahalik-halikan ang buhok ko.

“They are all mine now,” I said greedily. “They are all in my closet now, hubby.”

He licked his lips and a smirk was formed there. Niyakap nya ako at bahagya pang pinisil.

“Azriel, you’re squeezing us!”

“Fine. Can I borrow my shirt, please?” malambing nyang tanong.

“Yes, you can. It’s good you asked,” I said arrogantly.

He laughed and started hugging me again. Pinipisil pa ang buong katawan ko sa gigil nya.

Ilang minuto pa kami naglambingan bago nya ako buhatin pababa dahil sa reklamong nagugutom na ako.

Azrile put rice on my plate. Then he put some buttered shrimps. We also have sinigang.

“Eat first, wife.”

Tumango ako at ibinaba ang milk tea.

“Nag-lunch ka na?” tanong ko at tinusok ang hipon.

“Not yet,” he said and grabbed the fork from my hand. Sinubuan nya ako at kinain ko naman agad.

It tried getting my utensils to him so he can eat too but he just don’t give it to me.

“I want to feed you,” he insist.

“I can eat alone, Azriel. Para makakain ka rin,” giit ko naman.

“I’ll eat here in the same plate, too.”

“Huh?! Huy, kumuha ka ng sarili mo!” natatawa kong sabi.

“Mag-asawa naman tayo,” dahilan nya.

Natawa ako lalo. Akala nya talaga pwede iyang gamiting dahilan sa lahat.

Hinayaan ko na lang sya maki-share pero kinuha ko na ang kutsara’t tinidor. I eat a mouthful before I feed him, too.

Tuwang tuwa tuloy ang loko. Hinapit nya rin ang bewang ko.

Parang kaming tanga ritong nagsasalo sa iisang plato! Pero yeah right, “mag-asawa” naman kami.

“Let’s go shopping for our baby,” bigla nyang sabi. Kumunot agad ang noo ko.

“We still don’t know the gender!”

He groaned and kiss my forehead. “But I’m so excited to shop for our baby. Let’s just buy both for either girl or boy.”

“Masasayang lang ’yung isa, Azriel.”

“It won’t be wasted, let’s just put it aside. We’re going to have more babies in the future anyway- fuck!”

Hinampas ko na agad. Dumaing at napamura tuloy sya.

“Manahimik ka! Puro kabalastugan ang nasa isip mo talaga, ’no?”

He sighed. “Please, baby… Let’s go shopping.”

Kaunting pilit nya na lang ay papayag na ako. Gusto ko rin kaso baka nga masayang… pero sabagay, surely, Azriel won’t be contented with just a child.

Nawala na rin ang hilo ko dahil sa pag-idlip kaya pumayag na rin ako. Pero bago iyon ay itinext ko muna ang manager ko.

Ako:

We’re going to the mall and my tummy is a bit obvious now. What should I wear?

Pearl:

Wear something loose. Your pregnancy isn’t announced publicly yet.

Ako:

Alright. We’ll shop in the baby section, won’t that be an issue?

Pearl:

FUCK.

Pearl:

Kakalat na naman ang articles nyan. But whatever, malalaman na rin naman next week ang gender ng baby nyo. We’ll make a public announcement for that.

Ako:

Okay. Thank you.

Nagsuot na lamang ako ng isang t-shirt ni Azriel na kulay purple at black pants. Maganda pa rin namang tingnan at may dating din. I put a purple clip and wore my white flat shoes and I’m good to go.

Azriel wore his usual black muscle shirt and black pants. Suot suot nya rin muli ang kulay itim at plain nyang cap.

“You’re not wearing a dress? That’s new,” he commented and hugged me.

“Pearl told me not to. It’s because of my baby bump.”

Bumaba tuloy doon ang kamay nya.

“It’s cute though.”

“I know right but public shouldn’t see this until we have made an announcement.”

He nods and kissed me on my forehead.

“I have called the mall for extra security. Don’t worry,” he assured.

Mabilis lamang ang byahe dahil walang traffic. Pagkarating pa lang ay nagtinginan na agad sa amin. Kumukuha pa ng litrato at ang iba ay gustong lumapit. Thanks to the two big guards on our side.

There’s also an announcement regarding this. Kumalma ang mga tao at nagsitinginan na lang. I just smiled and waved at them.

But sometimes, I want my normal life back.

We entered the department store and straightly went to the baby stuffs section. Tulak tulak nya rin ang push cart habang hawak ako sa isang kamay.

“Fuck.” Rinig kong natutuwang mura ni Azriel. Nang tingalain ko ay halos kumikinang ang mga mata nya habang nakatingin sa baby clothes na mga panglalaki.

“Look at this, baby, gotdamn cute!” puri nya habang hawak hawak ang maliliit na medyas na color blue.

“It’s not that cute. Let’s look for some more.”

I just laughed when he quickly put tons of it in the cart.

“Look,” tuwang-tuwa nyang sabi. Natatawa na lamang ako sa pagka-sobrang excited nya.

“Their designs are small trains and cars,” he said happily and put the small shorts in the cart.

“Azriel, that’s too much!” saway ko. Kinuha ko ang isang set ng socks and looked at its price tag. 1,200 pesos per set. Tapos kumuha sya ng ilan nito. This man is learly burning cash!

Sinubukan kong ibalik ang ilang set pero inagaw nya iyon sa akin at ibinalik.

“These are expensive! Okay na ang ilang set, Azriel.”

“Baby, it’s not. At saka iba iba ang designs nyan.”

Natawa na lamang ako at pinanood syang mamili ng mga damit.

“Wife, what do you think?” tanong nya at pinakita sa akin ang mga maliliit na sando.

“Choose another color.”

“Green?”

“Better.”

Hindi mapawi ang ngiti nya habang namimili kami. Ang dami agad na laman ng aming push cart and to think that each set costs around 1,000+… Nakakaloka! I mean, kasinghalaga na ng mga damit ko!

“This is too much.”

“I am working for this. Please, let me do this, wife. I’m working for the both of you,” he said gently. He gave me a quick kiss before continuing what he’s doing.

Namili na lamang din ako ng mga diapers. Tinitingnan ko pa lamang brand ay mabilis nang nahakot ni Azriel ang karamihan dito. Umiling-iling na lamang ako.

“Let’s go get some toys,” he said excitedly. Niyakap nya ako at halos mapisat ako sa sobrang tuwa nya.

“I love this,” he said. He even groaned and kissed me again.

Hinampas ko na ulit sya dahil may mga tao rito. Sumimangot sya pero yumakap na lamang

He is putting some soft car toys and some ducks habang ako ay namimili ng mga tunog sa music box.

Pinili ko ang may tunog na “One Summer’s Day” from my favorite anime movie titled “Spirited Away.”

“How about the bottles?” tanong nya.

“Just a few. Madalas ko syang ibe-breastfeed siguro.”

Natigilan sya saglit. He then looked at my bigger boobs now before looking up at me again.

“What?” tanong ko at naglapag ng isang rattle sa cart.

“I can… still suck and eat those, right? Even if we already have a baby?” kyuryoso nyang tanong. Kumunot ang noo ko at mahina sya hinampas. Mabuti’t nasa dulo ng shelves iyong mga guard.

“Hindi na pwede,” sabi ko.

“What?!” tila offended nyang tanong.

“We have a baby already!” I said.

“I’m your baby, too. You said that!” Natawa ako ng makarinig ng hinanakit sa tono nya.

“My child and I will share. Our baby isn’t greedy,” dagdag nya pa.

I just laughed and shook my head. Minsan talaga ay para syang bata. Minsan naman ay nakakatakot sa sobrang mature at seryoso.

“Bahala ka. Hindi na kita papayagan,” I teased.

He groaned in an over reacting way. Napatingin tuloy iyong mga guard. Niyakap nya ako at inis na bumubulong-bulong.

“Oo na. I was just kidding,” pagbabawi ko dahil sumimangot na sya.

He talked more before we proceed to continue shopping. Namili rin ako ng mga pangbabae kaya sobra sobra na ang mga bilihin namin.

We were in the middle of shopping when my phone vibrated for a text. It’s from Azriel’s mother.

Mrs. Nickolson:

I would love to have dinner with all of you this Friday in a fancy restaurant or somewhere. Keep safe.

I smiled and nodded before texting back. I also texted Anikka. I hope she’ll agree to come or if she’s not comfortable, it’s very okay.

“This Friday,” I said to Azriel which he quickly understood. He nodded and gave me a quick kiss in the forehead.

“Alright.”

I smiled and hugged him, not minding the people who could see us.

“Your check up is on wednesday,” pagpapalala nya.

My eyes widened and nodded. Oo nga pala!

“We’ll know the gender,” excited nitong sabi at pinupog ako ng halik.

“Kinakabahan ako…” I said.

“Why?”

“I don’t know. But I’m excited to know, too!”

He chuckled. “Don’t be nervous, please.”

I sighed and nodded. “Okay, hubby.”

“Let’s buy some more,” he said gently even though our cart is very full now.

Ang sarap pala sa pakiramdam ng ganito.

I feel complete. Just Azriel and our baby. I really couldn’t ask for more. I can understand why Azriel is so excited because I feel the same way, too, he just expresses his feelings obviously and I don’t.

I tiptoed to give him a kiss on the cheek. He stopped for a while.

“Thanks, hubby.”

His ears went red which made me laugh. That. Him and his every reaction to me are keeping me alive.

Chapter 43

Tattoo

Nasa labas na kami ng department store. A while ago, Azriel contacted Mang Romualdo to help us here. We have a lot of boxes and paper bags to carry. And when I say “a lot” it means A LOT.

Halos tatlong punong cart ang naokupa namin kanina

“Lead them to my van below and go home first. Put everyting in our child’s room,” pag-uutos ni Azriel sa driver na

“Yes, sir. Iiwan lang po namin at hindi bubuksan o ipaaayos sa mga maids?” Mang Romualdo asked.

“Iwanan nyo lang. Gusto kong kami ng asawa ko ang mag-ayos ng kwarto ng anak namin,” seryosong sabi ni Azriel.

I pouted and hugged his arm. Hinalikan nya naman ang noo ko.

Mang Romualdo smiled. “Sige po, sir,” he said before looking at the male staffs.

“Dito po!”

Bumuhat din sya at naunang maglakad. Other staffs are pushing the carts with boxes in it while following Mang Romualdo.

Naawa pa ako dahil may dalawang malaking boxes na may lamang cribs. One pink and one black. Nainis pa ako sa kanya dahil bakit itim?! Pwede namang purple, green or blue. Meron ding orange o yellow, talagang black talaga ang isa.

We also bought two baby walkers. One blue and one pink.

“Will it fit in the room?” tanong ko at tiningala sya.

“Yes, wife.”

“Parang andami?” tanong ko ulit. Well, actually, hindi pa ako nakakapasok sa room na tapat ng kwarto namin. Ngayon lang talagang natapos. I mean the final finishing is done and the smell of paint is gone.

“The room is huge,” he assured.

“It’s just the same as our room ah? Hindi kakasya iyon,” pagpupumilit ko.

He then kissed my forehead again. “Pinagiba ko ang pader sa pagitan ng dalawang kwarto kaya malaki iyon.”

My mouth dropped but I managed to nod. So imbes na dalawang kwarto ay naging isa na lang? Isn’t it hard for the engineer and construction worker? Mabuti at nasa second floor lang kami at baka mahirapan lalo kung third.

The third floor of the mansion is filled with guestrooms.

Anyway, today is Monday. My check up is on Wednesday like what Azriel said and it’s already my 9th week so my baby bump is really noticeable if I didn’t wear such a big shirt like this. We will also know the gender of our baby already. And this Friday is our dinner.

“You want to stop by a restaurant first?” he asks. I suddenly touched my tummy. Medyo busog pa ako dahil kakatapos lamang namin mag-tanghalian nang dumiretso rito.

“Ice cream parlor, Azriel?” I suggested.

“Sure,” he quickly replied and so we went to the second floor of the mall.

Binati kami agad at kahit walang reservation ay iginiya kami sa table na gilid para hindi masyadong makita ng mga tao.

“Menu po.”

Kinuha ko ang dalawa nyang ibinigay dahil nakatayo pa si Azriel. Binuhat nya ang upuan at itinabi iyon sa akin. Imbes na magkatapat tuloy ay magkatabi kami!

“Put it back,” I said.

“Why? Gusto kitang katabi,” kibit balikat nyang sabi.

I pouted and just let him be. Nakita ko ring pinaupo nya sa kabilang table iyong dalawang guards at pinapili ng orders.

“Naku, sir, salamat po!”

“Salamat, Sir.”

Tumango lamang dito si Azriel bago ako balingan at halikan sa noo. Inilagay nya pa ang braso nya sa sandalan ng upuan ko, tila inaakbayan ako.

“Azriel, you have your menu,” I said while looking at my menu. Nakikitingin din kasi sya sa akin, eh dalawa naman iyong binigay.

“You can pick anything you like,” pambabalewala nya sa sinabi ko.

Naalala ko tuloy ang ginastos nya kanina. My gosh! The bill was so expensive, I mean VERY VERY EXPENSIVE. Binigay nya lang ang card nya na parang wala lang iyon sa kanya.

“Ako na ang magbabayad ng kakainin natin dito pati nina Kuyang guards,” sabi ko at tiningala sya.

Agad kumunot ang noo nya. “What? No. I still have money.”

“Azriel, I know, you have tons of money. Meron din ako at ikaw na ang gumastos lahat doon kanina. You even gave tips to the staffs. Kung ganyan tayo kagastos, baka isang araw, wala na tayong pera at makain?” Medyo inis kong pang-sesermon sa kanya.

“That will never happen. That’s why I’m working, it is for you and our family,” he replied.

“Tsaka ikaw magugutuman?” inis nyang tanong at mahinang nagmura. “Baka makapatay ako, Seleira.”

Hinampas ko sya agad. OA talaga! Palibhasa barya lang ang ginastos namin ngayon sa yaman nya. I remember when I was using his laptop to order my perfume collection, halos lumuwa ang mata ko nang makita ang amount ng pera sa kanyang account.

I don’t want to say how much, but it is so… high. Not just seven numbers.

We ordered and we started eating as well as the guards.

I’m eating this chocolate mixed with strawberry ice cream. May mga chocolate bars pa at strawberries. There are also some wafers and candies. Nakakatuwa dahil malaki. Ang ganda pa kaya parang nakapanghihinayang kainin.

“Hubby, you shouldn’t have ordered yours. Pwede naman tayong share dito, ang laki laki kaya,” I said. I took a picture of the pretty ice cream.

Azriel just ordered a caffeine ice cream. Marami ring toppings pero hindi ganoon kalaki tulad ng akin.

“You don’t have to finish that all,” he said.

“Sayang naman,” I replied and gave him a frown.

He sighed. I sighed, too.

I’ll just try my best not to mess everything here. Sa gilid lang ako kakain at hindi bababuyin para kung may gustong kumain… edi go. We’ll just leave this here.

“That’s a bigass ice cream right there, baby,” he said like a jerk. He even chuckled.

Hinampas ko sya at inirapan. Kumain na lamang ako at tingin ko ay mauubos ko ito dahil sa sarap! I mean it’s not too sweet kaya hindi nakakaumay.

Maybe if I’ll crave for ice cream, I’ll order here. Kukunin ko na lang ang social media or business number ng kanilang shop.

Busog na busog ako pagkatapos at inaantok na. Hindi ko naubos pero maayos pa naman ang ice cream. I begged a staff to just eat it. Maayos pa ang itsura at malaki pa.

Gulat pa sya pero tumango rin. Hindi lang ako matatahimik kung magsasayang ako ng pagkain dahil itatapon nila iyon.

I slept in the car on the way home. Paggising ko ay nasa kama na ako at nakapambahay na bestida na lamang.

Busog pa rin ako at ang sabi ng maid ay nasa library raw si Azriel.

Humarap ako sa salamin at itinaas ang palda ng aking bestida. I’m still wearing my white panty. Malaki na nga ang tyan ko. Hindi ko lang napapansin ang paglaki dahil araw araw kong nakikita.

I went back to bed and pulled my laptop out. I’ll order some stuffs online.

I ordered a bunch of cat keychains in Amazon. Hindi ko naman talaga kailangan, they’re just cute!

I also ordered t-shirts from CK and Forever 21. Some lipsticks  and stuffs.

“Ma’am?” I heard a maid from the door, calling me while knocking.

“Come in!” sigaw ko habang nag-aadd to cart ng mga bagay bagay.

“May package pong dumating,” she said.

Kumunot ang noo ko. What? Kao-order ko lang ah?

Pinalapit ko sya dahil tinatamad akong tumayo. Two boxes.

I looked at the card and saw it’s from Tiffany & Co.

to

Seleira

Nickolson

🌙

And a little message is written in the card.

Tumango ako at pinalayas na sya. I forgot I’m sponsored by them. All I need is to just wear this jewelries, put some complementing cloth and take pictures. Send it to Pearl so she can make a caption and post it in Instagram.

Itinabi ko iyon dahil wala ako sa mood. Maybe next week or tonight or any day. I’m so busy here.

Umorder ako ng mga make up at kung ano ano pa. Online shopping is so addicting!

Tumayo ako at naglakad palabas. I entered the room in front of us and Azriel is right. It is so damn huge. Parang pwedeng palagyan ng mirrors and it can be a dance practice room.

Halong puti at blue ang kulay ng mga dingding. Very light lang ang mood at tingin ko ay hindi rinig ang ingay mula sa labas dito.

Hinaplos ko ang aking tyan at napangiti. “Only if you can see this, baby. This is so pretty. Thanks to your responsible daddy.”

Humagikhik ako na parang baliw. I danced while walking. Tiningnan ko ang hindi pa nabubuksan na mga kahon na nasa gilid.

I’m so excited!

Just a day from now and we’ll know the gender already! Mag-dedesign na kami rito sa kwarto!

I giggled in excitement again. If I can only kiss my belly like how Azriel do, I will. Kaso mababali ata ang likod ko?

Kinagabihan ay nasa kwarto na kami. We already ate dinner and clean ourselves. Gabing gabi ay inii-stress ako nitong si Azriel! My whole day was happy and here he is now!

“Azriel, you don’t have to!” Frustrated kong sabi. “Masasaktan ka lang, masakit iyon!”

Hinawakan ko sya sa balikat  habang pinagmamasdan syang may kausap sa kanyang laptop.

This man has been talking to this tattoo artist since last week. Nagpapa-schedule ng kanyang tattoo!

“I want to.”

“Ayoko!” giit ko at shinake ang kanyang balikat. He chuckled before he tried to make me sit on his lap but I refused.

“Baby, it won’t hurt. I want it in my right bicep.”

Nag-aalala ako sa kanya. Kung ano ano na lang talaga ang pumapasok sa isip nya.

“I want your name inked in my skin,” he added.

I immediately blushed and bit his shoulder.  He groaned, but he chuckled too.

“Para saan pa? Magkasama naman na tayo lagi!” I said.

He sighed. Marahan nya akong hinila paupo sa kandungan nya.

“Please, baby, let me,” he begged. “Allow me to get a tattoo please.”

Ako naman ang bumuntong hininga. Ang hirap nyang tanggihan kung ganito.

“Sa bicep?” tanong ko at hinaplos ang kanan nyang bicep. Kinagat nya ang labi bago tumango.

“Sa biceps lang.”

“Maliit lang?” paninigurado ko.

Hindi sya nakasagot kaya hinampas ko sya nang mahina.

“What? Maliit lang, huh?” I repeat.

“Medium.”

“Maliit lang dapat!” Inis kong sabi. Ang tigas at laki pa naman ng mga braso nya. Baka babae ang nagtatattoo ah? Tapos libre himas?!

“Medium, please, wife.”

Ang kulit talaga nito! Mukhang hindi titigil hangga’t hindi pinapayagan.

“No way, Azriel! That would hurt for sure. Dudugo pa!”

“It’s normal for it to bleed,” malambing nyang sabi.

I shook my head. “Liitan mo lang.”

“It won’t be noticeable.”

“So?”

“Please, wife. Just ’ Seleira

’ on it.“

I laughed sarcastically. “Paano kung maghiwalay tayo? Permanent na iyan!”

Ngunit hindi nya nagustuhan iyon. Kumunot agad ang noo nya at hinarap ako.

“What do you mean we’ll break up?!” offended nyang tanong.

“Huh-”

“Hindi tayo maghihiwalay!” galit nyang sabi. Mahina pa syang nagmura dahil sa kanyang inis.

Tumawa lang ako at niyakap sya. Pabebe nya namang inalis ang kamay ko.

“We already have a child, I can’t let this pass-”

“It’s just a joke, okay?” natutuwa kong sabi.

Umismid sya. “Not funny.”

Natawa ako lalo. “Nagtatampo ka?” I asked sweetly. I reached for his cheek to give it a sweet kiss. Unti-unting namula ang tainga nya at umiwas sya ng tingin.

“Suplado!” I teased and kissed him again.

“S-stop that,” mahina at paos nyang sabi pero hindi naman sya lumayo o tinulak ako. Gusto rin naman.

I giggled and kissed his cheek repeatedly. I heard him groan.

“Sige na. Payag na akong magpa-tattoo ka,” I said.

He looked at me seriously. “That’s not my concern here. You just told me we’ll break up.”

I licked my lips. Agad syang napatingin doon. Napalunok pa ang loko.

Ang dali nya talagang paamuin. Natawa tuloy ako. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean that. Of course, we won’t break up.”

Unti-unting nawala ang kunot ng noo nya. I sat down on his lap and aimed for a kiss. He gladly kiss me back.

“Really?”

“Yup,” I said.

Hinalikan nya ako muli pero hindi ako humalik pabalik. Hindi nya pa napansin nung una but then he groaned. I just laughed.

“Kiss me, please.”

“Okay,” I said playfully. Hinalikan nya ako muli at hindi ako gumalaw. He groaned again and just put his hot lips on my neck. Ako naman ang dumaing nang mahina nya akong kagatin doon. How dare him make a revenge on me

He chuckled and hugged me. Paulit-ulit nya ring hinahalikan ang noo ko at hinihimas ang tyan ko.

Hinaplos ko ang braso nya nang paulit-ulit. Ang sarap talagang hawakan. He enjoyed my touch because I saw him smile and looked away.

“Kailan daw iyan?” tanong ko at humiga sa kama. Agad syang pumatong sa akin pero humahalik lang naman.

“Tomorrow.”

“Agad?!” gulat kong tanong at pinaglaruan ang buhok nya na syang paborito nya. I remember he once said he loves the feeling of it because it feels like I care for him.

Kaya naman lagi ko na itong ginagawa sa kanya.

“I want it immediately. Besides, the day after tomorrow is your check up.”

I smiled. His hand went to my tummy and caress it. “Fuck…”

“Hmm?”

“I’m so excited, wife. What do you think?” natutuwa nyang tanong. Parang kumikislap talaga ang mga mata nya sa tuwa. Tinabihan nya ako at niyakap.

“A baby girl,” I said softly.

“I bet it’s a boy.”

“It feels like a girl. Some articles said that sensitive pregnancy results to having a baby girl?” Kibit balikat kong sabi. Or not. I don’t know if that site is legit.

My pregnancy is very senstive. I remember the past months and my first days were so exhausting. I pass out, I vomit a lot and I really really feel so bad. Ganoon din ako hanggang ngayon but now, nasasanay na ako.

“Hmm,” he whispered. Hinalikan nya ang sentido ko. “It’s okay for me if it’s a baby girl. But if she have the same attitude as you back in your teenage years then fuck… I’m totally fucked up.”

Tumawa ako at mahina syang hinampas. Napapansin ko lang na panay na ako hampas sa kanya ah? Puro kasi kalokohan ang lumalabas sa bibig.

“Parang ang sama ko naman noon?” natatawa kong tanong.

“You had too much boyfriends and boytoys. Every week, I see a new boy holding your waist. Fuck them. May nagsuntukan pang dalawang gago para sa iyo,” inis nyang bulong.

I laughed while remembering it. “It was fun.”

“Fun?!” he repeated, sounding so offended.

“Yeah, it was. But having you as my stalker is a different kind of fear. You were so creepy.”

“Fun, huh… But yeah, I’m really sorry about that, wife.” Now he sounds so regretful.

“It’s so hard not to…” nahihirapan nyang sabi. “I always want to meet you everyday.”

I suddenly remember what he said back then. Na kahit 10 minutes lang daw sa isang araw.

“I really thought that one night you’ll end up raping me,” sabi ko at inaalala ang takot ko noon.

“What the fuck?” inis nyang sabi. “You viewed me as a rapist?!”

I shrugged. “Yeah. I don’t know why though.”

“I really really just like you that time. But I will never rape you. Do I think of you while I masturbate back then, then the answer is yes. I’m so thirsty for you but I will never… rape you,” he said. Tunog pang nangdidiri ang tono nya sa huling sinabi.

Namula naman ako at hinampas syang muli.

“Anong iniisip mo ako habang nagsasarili ka?!”

He licked his lips. “I did. It was my dream to make love to you.”

I pouted. Well back then, it was creepy as fuck. But now that I get to know him, seeing him so happy whenever we make love is just so satisfying.

I giggled when he went on top of me. He kissed me tenderly. Agad akong kumapit sa kanyang leeg para sa suporta.

Hinaplos ko ang kanyang matigas na braso. Pakiramdam ko tuloy nag-iinit na sya dahil umiiba na ang paraan ng paghalik nya sa akin. Bumibigat na rin ang paghinga nya.

“Wife,” he called huskily. “I want you…”

I giggled. I want him, too. Nahahawa na ata ako kay Azriel. Oh my gosh, my sex life is so blooming! Naririnig ko ang sermon ni Tito sa utak ko pero pakiramdam ko ay mas malalala pa ang sexual life nila sa amin!

“Hubby, we just made love yesterday,” nakanguso kong sabi.

Ang tainga ko naman ang pinagdiskitahan nyang halikan. Sa tuwing nagtatalik talaga kami ay wala syang pinalalampas. Sa tingin ko ay nahahalikan nya ang buong katawan ko lagi.

“We can stop if you want,” medyo nag-aalala nyang sabi.

Umiling ako. “No!”

He chuckled and kissed my neck.

His member is already poking me and I feel wet already. Maybe… another night making love with him is okay? This is just so uncontrollable.

After this, I won’t be marupok na. But ugh, it’s so hard not to be!

He slowly put me to bed after doing it in the bathroom. We had only two because I feel tired already but I’m happy and satisfied.

“I’m guilty,” he whispered while putting the blanket on me. Nakapikit naman ako dahil sa pagod at antok.

“Palagi kitang pinapagod. We’ll lie low from now on,” he added. I almost roll my eyes only if my eyes were open. That’s a lie of course. Sya pa, e adik ang isang ’yan. (Gusto ko rin naman.)

Umalis sya at tingin ko ay maglilinis ng kanya since he only cleaned me. Nilalamig tuloy ako nang mawala ang katawan nya. Hindi sapat ang kumot sa nararamdaman kong lamig.

“Hubby…” I called softly.

Wala sa sarili kong hinawakan ang aking tyan. I wonder if my doctora will probihit sex or will say that we shouldn’t do it always, especially now that I’m on my second trimester.

Kung hindi na pwede ay ayos lamang although we’ll both miss it of course. We can just kiss and that’s all.

“Azriel!” I called again while my eyes are still closed.

“Wait up.” I heard him say from the bathroom.

Kumunot ang noo ko at pumadyak padyak sa inis. “Hurry!”

I covered myself more with blanket but the cold is just so much. I need him and his warmth here.

“Hubby, nilalamig na ako. Hurry…”

Maya maya pa ay naramdaman ko nang lumubog ang kama.

“Should I turn off the aircon?” he asks gently.

“No,” I answered.

“Alright,” he said. Humiga sya at agad akong pinaunan sa kanyang dibdib. Niyakap ko naman sya at agad na naging komportable sa kanyang init.

“Baby,” he whispered. Naramdaman ko ring kinumutan nya  kami kaya mas lalo akong naging komportable.

Minutes from now and I’ll have my very comfortable sleep.

Hindi ko na sya maintindihan. He is talking but I’m too sleepy to understand and reply. Narinig ko lang na nangungulit na naman ng “cuddles” but I quickly slept.

Kinaumagahan ay pakiramdam ko tuloy  nagtatampo sya. Ngayon pa naman ang pagpapa-tattoo nya.

“Good morning,” I said gently when we were in the dining room for breakfast.

“Good morning,” he replied.

Tahimik nya akong nilagyan ng pagkain sa plato habang si Linda ay inilapag ang vitamins ko tulad ng lagi nyang ginagawa sa umaga.

I looked at me uncomfortably again. He really looks mad… o nagtatampo ’to? O nag-ooverthink lang ako.

“Enjoy, ma’am, sir!” natatawang sabi ni Linda matapos ilapag ang huling pinggan ng almusal. It has fresh grapes in it. Lumabas na rin sya.

“Azriel,” mahina kong tawag. “Anong oras ang tattoo appointment mo?”

“Twelve.”

Tumango ako at sumubo ng isang piraso ng ubas.

“Galit ka ba?” mahina kong tanong. Hindi sya sumagot.

I chuckled a bit. Pinagdikit ko pa lalo ang mga upuan namin saka ko sya niyakap.

Umismid ang loko.

“Bakit ka nagtatampo? Hmm?” I asked sweetly.

“Just eat, Seleira.”

Lalo akong natawa. Ang cute ng supladong ito. Kunwari ay galit pero iba naman ang reaksyon sa bawat haplos ko.

“I’m sorry na,” nakanguso kong sabi at niyakap ang kanyang braso. “Antok na ako kagabi eh.”

“I know, that’s why just eat now.”

Hmm. Matigas talaga, huh.

I stood up and hugged his head. I also played with his hair. Nanlaki ang mga mata nya at rinig ko pa ang pagbagsak ng kanyang tinidor sa plato.

“Sorry na. Ayaw mo kaming pansinin?” pabebe kong tanong at hinaplos ang aking tyan. I heard him sigh. He sounds so frustrated. You can’t stop yourself, hubby. Kaunting suyo lang ang katapat mo.

Umismid sya. Ang mga tainga nyang namumula ay hinawakan ko rin.

“I’m sorry na. Ngayon na lang tayo mag-cuddle?” I giggled.

“We made love last night,” he said, still trying to be serious.

“Pwede namang late na ang lambingan,” sabi ko naman. “Bakit ba gusto mo lagi?”

Nakakatuwa na nakaawa sya. Kapag ganito ay akala mo’y pinagkakaitan sya ng pagmamahal at aruga.

“Without cuddles, it feels like plain sex. I love you and I’m not just having sex with you.” Rinig pa rin ang pagtatampo sa kanyang boses.

“You didn’t even tell me you enjoyed it… or you loved making love with me last night. You just slept and ignore me like we did nothing,” he added.

Napangiti ako at talagang naawa na ngayon.

Inangat ko ang braso nya para makadaan at makaupo sa kanyang hita. Kahit nagtatampo ay inalalayan nya pa rin ako.

“I’m sorry na. It wasn’t just plain sex to me and I always love making love with you. Hindi naman ako papayag kung ayaw ko eh…” pagsusuyo ko sa kanya at yumakap.

“I was just really sleepy,” I added and reached for his lips.

Gosh, Azriel is really going dramatic over this. But I find it cute… Next time, I won’t just sleep on him. Ganito pala ang nararamdaman nya. I love how he’s vocal over his feelings. That’s something I’m still working on. I need to practice it because communication is important in relationships.

Nagkabati rin kami at puno ng lambingan ang aming almusal. Sinubuan ko sya habang yakap yakap nya ako mula sa likod dahil nakaupo pa rin ako sa hita nya.

“Sama ako sayo ha,” sabi ko at uminom sa aking gatas.

“You’ll just be tired. We already went out yesterday,” malambing nyang sabi at humalik sa pisngi ko.

Maarte ko iyong pinunasan. “Hubby, your lips have chocolate syrup!”

He chuckled and hugged me even more. Kumakain kasi sya ng pancake na may chocolate syrup tapos hinalikan nya ako!

“Arte,” sabi nya at ngumisi. Inirapan ko naman.

“Wipe your lips first!” pag-iinarte ko pa ulit na nagpatawa sa kanya lalo. Tuwang tuwa sya, huh.

“Ganda mo talaga kapag nag-iinarte ka.”

Pinamulahan ako at pabiro syang hinampas.

“But what’s the matter if you’ll have chocolate there hmm? I can kiss you even if you didn’t brush your teeth-”

“Yuck!”

He chuckled and bury his face on my nape. 

“Sabi ko sasama ako,” pag-uulit ko sa pinag-uusapan namin kanina.

“No need…” he said slowly and started caressing my tummy.

“Babae siguro kaya ayaw mo akong sumama,” I concluded. Bitterness quickly spilled over my whole system.

He chuckled again. Tuwang tuwa sya sa ganito ah? Baka talagang babae?

“Ano? Babae ’yung kausap mo kagabi ’no? Tapos ngayon magkikita na kayo?!” My voice raised.

Hindi sya sumagot dahil tumatawa sya. Hinigpitan nya ang yakap sa akin pero pilit ko iyong kinakalas.

“Malaki dibdib tapos ilalapit kunwari sa braso mo! Ganyan ang mga gusto mo! Alam na alam ko ’yan,” naiiyak kong sabi.

Doon lamang sya tumigil. Nagmura sya at agad akong pinaharap sa kanya.

“Bitawan mo ako!” I protest. Namumungay ang mga mata nya na nagpapainis pa lalo sa akin.

“Hush, hush,” he whispered and kissed my forehead. “It’s a man, baby. You know Felix Qatar?”

Kumunot ang noo ko at inisip kung saan ko ba narinig ang pangalang iyon. Right! He’s a famous and professional tattoo artist.

Pinunasan ko ang sariling luha pero agad na naunahan ako ni Azriel.

“Hush, please. Sya ang mag-tatattoo sa akin. And fuck… I don’t like big boobs anymore-”

“Liar!” I accused. Hinampas ko nang mahina ang dibdib nya pero agad nyang nahuli ang kamay ko. Dinala nya iyon sa kanyang labi at masuyong hinalikan.

“I promise I’m not attracted to that anymore. I’m not attracted to anyone but you,” sabi nya sa marahang boses na tila sinusuyo ako. “Please believe me, wife.”

I pouted. “Really?”

“Yes. I never lied and will never lie to you.”

Yumuko ako at hinayaan syang tuyuin ang pisngi ko. Hinalikan nya rin ang mga ’yon.

“Fine. You can go with me.”

I smiled and nodded. “I won’t tire myself! I’ll just sit there.”

He nodded too.

Kapag ganitong mga bagay talaga ay akala mo hindi ako buntis. Talagang gusto kong kasama ako lagi kay Azriel… wait… I sound like him, too. I’m acting like a clingy Azriel. Gusto nya ring palagi syang kasama sa akin.

That’s normal right? “Mag-asawa” naman kami, like what he always say.

Eleven in the morning and we’re already both ready.

Sa sasakyan ay kumakain lang ako ng fruit snacks. Hindi rin gaanong traffic.

“Saan ’yun, Azriel?” tanong ko.

“Green heights, wife,” he answered and put his hand on my thigh.

Tumango ako. Malapit lang pala.

Nakarating kami at agad kong sinuot ang aking shades at black cap. Nakasumbrero rin naman sya. Pinagbuksan nya ako at sabay naming pinasok ang shop.

“Good morning, Sir! Oh!” Nagulat pa iyong staff nang makita ako. I smiled at her and roamed my eyes around.

May mga posters ng design  na pwedeng pagpilian pero tingin ko’y pwede ring sariling design.

Also, the customers are few. Azriel probably payed for this, too.

“Dito po, sir.”

Pumasok kami sa isang private room. VIP I think. Sa labas kasi ay magkakatabi lang yung seats but here, you have an access for privacy.

“Where’s Felix Qatar?” Azriel asked. His arm is on my waist, too.

“Ah, baka po maya maya pa dahil alas onse kinse pa lang.”

Azriel nodded. Pinaupo kami sa isang malambot na sofa bago bigyan ng inumin saka sya lumabas.

Tinanggal ko ang aking cap at shades. Tinanggal ko rin ang kay Azriel saka iyon itinabi sa isang mesa.

Bumagsak ang tingin ko sa mga gamit sa isang mesa. Ayan siguro ang mga pang-tattoo.

“Are you scared?” tanong ko. Paglingon ko ay nakatitig na pala sya sa akin.

“No,” he answered.

I pouted. Madali nya tuloy akong nahalikan.

“I don’t want a tattoo,” I said.

“It’s okay. I don’t like tattoos too but I like your name inked on me.”

Shit. Can he stop being like this?!

Niyakap ko sya upang itago ang ngiti. Mabuti’t dalawa lang kami rito sa loob.

“I feel like you really own me if I have your name on me, wife. Pakiramdam ko sayong-sayo ako.”

Idinaan ko sa tawa ang kilig. “Akin ka naman talaga!” sakim kong sabi.

Sya naman ang mukhang kinilig. Hindi sya agad nakapagsalita. Nakakatuwa talaga sya.

Para kaming mga tanga rito. Mabuti talaga’t dalawa lang kami.

He kissed me on my neck so I slanted it to give him more access. He even whispers naughty stuffs which made me pinch him softly.

Kahit saan na lang talaga, Azriel!

Namumula ako kahit noong pumasok iyong isang staff.

“Uh, sir…” she said. “Hindi po makakarating si Sir Felix dahil sa emergency.”

“What?”

Tumayo si Azriel kaya tumayo rin ako. I held onto his arm although I’m sad, too, that he won’t get his tattoo today.

“But I need to get my tattoo now,” medyo inis na sabi ni Azriel.

“We have other tattoo artists po, Sir,” kinakabahang sabi ng staff.

Azriel sighed problematically. Mas lalo tuloy nataranta yung staff.

“Magaling din po. Si Sir Felix lang po talaga ’yung sikat, pero magaling din po iyong iba.”

“Fine. Send me your best artist here,” Azriel said calmly although I know he’s disappointed and pissed.

“Yes, sir! We’re really sorry po,” she said and went out, running.

Hinaplos ko ang braso ni Azriel. “It’s fine, hubby. You can also just get it next week.”

“I want it now, wife. I’m pissed but I understand emergencies.”

Hindi na ako nagsalita dahil bumukas na ang pinto.

Tang ina.

The substitute tattoo artist is a woman. Big boobs and ass! Nakasuot pa sya ng revealing… I mean, there’s nothing wrong with it. I’m just uncomfortable.

“Si Miss Autumn na lang po ang substitute. Bukod po kay Sir Felix si Miss Autumn din ang isa sa mga magagaling,” the staff proudly said.

“Good afternoon, sir,” medyo utal pang bati nito. Para syang hindi mapakali habang nakatingin kay Azriel. Parang nagniningning pa ang mga mata nito.

“Oh! Ma’am Seleira, the model!” pagbati nito sa akin pero agad ding bumalik kay Azriel ang tingin.

“Miss Autumn, kayo na pong bahala ah?” the staff said.

“Oh, oo oo! Of course!” nanginginig pa ang boses nya.

Tiningala ko si Azriel at nakatingin sya sa akin.

“What? Go, start it.” Hindi ko napigilan ang pagtabang ng tono ng boses ko.

“Wife.”

“Uh, l-let’s start?” The Autumn girl asked. Nagpaalam naman iyong staff na lalabas na.

Umupo iyong Autumn at kinalikot ang mga gagamitin.

“I can just have it next week,” he said to me.

“Akala ko ba gusto mo ngayon? Just go. I’ll just wait and sit here,” I said.

He sighed.

“Why? Affected ka ba?” pag-aakusa ko. His eyebrows quickly furrowed, digust is even seen in his face.

“Fuck no.”

“Then go.”

Tinitigan nya pa ako bago tumalikod. Umupo na rin ako rito sa sofa.

“Upo p-po kayo, Sir.”

Para akong nasasaktan makita si Azriel na nakaupo sa tapat nya. Ang lapit pa nila.

“Anong design po? M-may brochure kami rito or p-pwede ring sarili nyo,” she said nervously. Hindi pa sya makatingin nang deretso kay Azriel.

Girls always behave like this whenever they’re attracted to someone around. Nakakairita. Kitang narito ako.

Sa sobrang kaba nya ay naihulog nya ang mga brochures. 

“Oh! S-sorry,” she said and started grabbing them from the floor.

TANG INA TALAGA.

Iyong malulusog na dibdib nya halos tumama na sa tuhod ni Azriel dahil talagang magkatapat sila tapos nakayuko sya at kinukuha iyong mga brochures.

Para akong sasabog sa galit. Si Azriel naman ay bahagya iniatras ang upuan nya, kunot noo pa ito at tila naiinis. He then looked at me and his expression became light. Nawala ang pagkasama ng kanyang tingin.

“I’m sorry, S-sir, about that,” she said shyly and put them back. Hinawi rin nya ang buhok nya.

“Just start,” Azriel said impatiently.

Nag-iinit ang mga sulok ng mata ko at pasimple ko iyong pinunasan.

“Oh!” she laughed. “A-anong design po?”

“It’s a word. Just letters.”

“Oh. Okay, sir. I’ll just get a piece of paper so you can write it.”

Pagtayo ni Autumn girl ay iniatras ni Azriel ang ulo nya dahil muntik nang tumama ang pesteng dibdib na ’yan sa mukha nya.

She laughed. “I-I’m sorry, sir.”

Kinuyom ko ang aking kamao at umiwas ng tingin. Para-paraan, huh? And maybe the brute liked it, too! Nakakainis. Nakakainit ng ulo! Kunwari pang nakakunot ang noo ni Azriel at mukhang bad trip pero siguro ay gustong gusto naman!

I want to cry because of my anger.

Bumalik sya at pinasulat kay Azriel ang tattoo na gusto nya. Habang nagsusulat si Azriel ay walanghiya nya itong tinititigan kaya kung pwede lang magwala rito ay ginawa ko na.

“Se-le-i-ra?” she pronounced as she read the paper.

Mas lalo pa akong nairita dahil sa maling pagbikas nya ng pangalan ko.

“It’s Se-lay-ra,” Azriel corrected. “Just start it, can you?”

The brute is impatient. Pasilip silip pa sa akin na kulang na lang kalungin nya ako habang tinatatoo-an sya. Huh, you wish, brute. Naiinis ako sa iyo!

“Ah, saang body part mo?”

Ewan ko ba at parang lahat ng sinasabi ng babaeng ito ay may malisya sa akin. I know I am being rude and unreasonable here, but she’s really doing something else right?!

“Right bicep.”

I am watching her every expression. Umawang ang bibig nya at napatingin sa braso ni Azriel.

Damn this unprofessional woman. Ganito ba sya sa tuwing lalaki ang client?! Well, maybe not. My husband is so handsome and his body is just out of this world. That’s maybe what attracts her.

My man is wearing a gray shirt. Sinubukang itaas ni Azriel ang kanang manggas ngunit bumababa lamang ito.

“Fuck,” he cursed and looked at me.

Ano?! Bwisit ka.

“Uh, I suggest you to just take your shirt o-off, sir. Para walang sagabal…”

That’s it! I’m out! Tang ina.

“No. I’ll just hold it,” Azriel insists.

“Mangagalay p-po kayo at masakit po ito k-kaya baka mabitawan nyo’t masira lamang ang tattoo.”

Ramdam kong tumingin sa akin si Azriel. I didn’t look at him. Just go, take that damn shirt off and do whatever the hell you want with that woman!

“Fine,” I heard Azriel say. I also saw in my peripheral vision that he took his shirt off.

I feel like my heart is breaking. Fuck. They’re really sitting in front of each other and this woman is drooling over him like a damn dog.

“Baby, come here, please…” I heard him call me.

“S-sir?” gulat na tanong ni Autumn.

I looked at him with no emotion. I saw fear in his eyes.

“Come here,” he said. Hindi ako umimik dahil tingin ko ay maiiyak ako sa galit.

“Sir?” tawag muli noong Autumn nang tumayo si Azriel.

My husband is fucking topless. Looking all hot while he carrying another chair and he placed it beside his.

“Hug me, it’s going to be painful for me…” he said gently. Inilahad nya ang kanyang kamay na kinuha ko rin.

Hindi ko ata kakayaning manood lang habang pasimple itong babaeng ito sa asawa ko. But I’m still mad at Azriel!

“Start,” Azriel said to her when we’re already both sitting. Hinapit nya pa ako at naramdaman ko kaagad ang init nya

“I hope this is okay?” Azriel asked her.

“O-opo, Sir… Huwag lang m-malikot,” she replied and didn’t even bother to look at me.

Niyakap ko si Azriel at nakita kong napatingin sya sa kamay ko sa abs ng asawa ko. Asawa ko ’to.

I don’t know what she’s doing but I feel like  natauhan sya. That’s it. You stop drooling over someone that’s not yours.

Nang magsimula ang pagtatattoo ay halos hindi ko lingunin ang isang braso ni Azriel. Pakiramdam ko ay masasaktan ako. Pagtingala ko sa kanya ay nag-iigting ang panga nito habang nakatingin sa akin.

“How bad does it hurt?” tanong ko.

“Shh,” he hushed me. This is his first time! Masakit pa siguro sa kanya!

“It doesn’t hurt as much as you think. I’m fine, just hug me.”

I nodded and hug him.

Hindi na ulit nagparamdam si Autumn ng kung anong kaahasan. She really shouldn’t. Wala na ring reaksyon ang makikita sa mukha nya. Just plain straight face. Pero mukha syang dismayado.

Since it’s only a word, it only took an hour. Hindi naman dragon ang ipina-tattoo dyan ni Azriel na aabutin kami ng syam syam!

Pagkatapos ay medyo namumula ang mukha ni Azriel dahil sa sakit. Naawa ako at hinaplos ang kanyang pisngi.

“Wife, look at it,” he said and he’s smiling now.

Seleira

It’s just plain but having my name there feels… I can’t find the right words. I feel touched although I feel bad because that probably hurts big time.

“Thank you,” he said formally to Autumn.

“Welcome, sir. Here’s a brochure for after care po.”

Azriel nodded and grabbed it from her hand.

“I’ll send my payment to your bank account,” Azriel said. I blushed because he’s even caressing my tummy while talking to her. It really becomes his habbit now.

“Ah, sa cashier lang po magbabayad, Sir.”

“I won’t pay you?”

Autumn’s mouth opened like she’s been offended or what. Umiling ito.

“Alright,” sabi ni Azriel at tinalikuran sya.

“I can’t wear my shirt, wife,” he said. Tumango ako dahil baka nga masayad gayong bago pa ang tattoo.

Kinausap nya pa si Autumn at tinanong ng ilang bagay regarding this. Autumn answered him formally. Tila ngayon lang lumabas ang pagka-propesyonal nya ah?

“It will typically heal within 1-2 weeks, Sir. Just continue the after care even if it looks like it’s already okay.”

Naglahad din sya ng ilang ointment bottles. I read one as Aquaphor.

“Apply this daily. And this black one, this is actually optional. But it will help for it to heal faster. Itong puti ang required namin.”

She put the bottles into a paperbag before handing it to Azriel.

“Thank you. I really want to pay you a tip.”

Tumaas ang kilay ko pero bumuntong hininga na lang. I know, I know! I’m being unreasonable right now.

She laughed. “No need, Sir. Nase-swelduhan kami nang maayos dito.”

Sinuot ko kay Azriel ang cap nya at sinuot ko na rin ang akin pati na rin ang shades. Hinawakan ko rin ang nahubad nyang t- shirt.

“You should’ve wear a muscle shirt,” I whispered.

“I know, baby. I forgot, I’m sorry.”

Lumabas na kami at laglag panga sila habang nakatitig sa katawan ni Azriel. I possessively put my arms around his abs while he’s paying in the counter.

Tinitigan ko ang tattoo nya. Namumula ito pero talagang maganda. Ngayon ko lang napagtantong maganda rin pala ang pangalan ko!

Nang nasa kotse ay hindi ko pa rin makalimutan iyong dibdib ng babae sa tuhod at muntik na rin sa mukha ni Azriel kanina. Kinapa ko ang dibdib ko at medyo lumaki naman ito. Hindi lang ganoon kalaki.

“Don’t do that. Fuck.” I heard him say.

Binitawan ko iyon at saka sya tiningnan. “Does it hurt?”

“It does but not too much. The pain doesn’t bother me, wife. Do not worry.”

Nakahinga ako nang maluwag. Mabuti naman.

Pagkauwi ay namahinga muna ako. I’m really worried about the pain the tattoo’s causing him but he doesn’t really look hurt at all. Binabalewala nya. Pero baka hindi naman talaga masakit? Should I get one, too?

Ano namang ilalagay ko, Azriel? I laughed.

Azriel is in the library again, working his ass off. I don’t know why he’s still working hard when I already saw his bank account.

I suddenly remember his tattoo artist and her tacticks. Pilit kinikiskis pa talaga ang dibdib sa tuhod ni Azriel kanina! Inatras lamang ni Azriel ang upuan nya para hindi dumikit, tsk! If I know gustong gusto nya rin naman!

Para akong sasabog sa galit. “Bwisit! Bwisit na lalaki!”

Nanlulumo kong hinawakan ang tyan ko. Poor baby, your father probably has a mistress.

Nagagalit at umiiyak akong tumayo at binuksan ang pink drawer ko. Kinuha ko ang transparent box na naglalaman ng aking pink glitters.

I stood up and entered Azriel’s closet. I pinched a small amount of pink glitters and put it all over his drawer of remaining shirts.

Pumasok ako ng banyo at pumunta sa side na may mga products nya. I also scattered pink glitters on them.

Umiiyak-iyak pa ako habang nilalagyan ng glitters ang mga gamit nya.

I went out of the room and went downstairs. Itinago ko ang hawak na glitters sa mga maids na pakalat-kalat.

Lumabas ako ng mansion at pumunta sa garahe. I entered his car and scattered my magical pink glitters in the dashboard, driver’s seat and some of his things there.

That’s what you get, Azriel!

I went back to the room and lay down. When I heard footsteps coming, I pretended to be asleep.

“Wife.” I heard him call me bago lumubog ang kama at maramdaman ko ang yakap nya.

“Still asleep?” he asks in his damn deep and husky voice. “Wake up, I miss you already.”

Malaking effort ang ginawa ko para hindi ngumiti o tumawa. Mabuti at nakabaon ang mukha nya sa batok ko kaya pwedeng ngumiti.

“Hmm,” he moaned. What the hell? He’s moaning randomly.

Gumapang ang kamay nya sa tyan ko at hinaplos iyon. I never thought Azriel still cuddles me even in my sleep.

“I love you, wife…”

Then I felt him removing my hair strands on my face. Paulit-ulit nyang hinalikan ang pisngi ko.

Kunwari akong gumalaw per tulog pa rin. I heard him chuckle and I felt his lips on mine. I’m afraid I might blush! Init na init na ang mga pisngi ko.

Ilang minuto pa nya akong niyakap bago ko naramdaman ang paglayo nya pati na rin ng footsteps nya.

Dinilat ko ang mga mata ko at nakita syang pumasok sa banyo.

“What the?!” I heard him say inside the bathroom.

I giggled softly. That’s what you get!!

Dumilat ako nang kaunti at nakitang naglakad sya papunta sa pinto at binuksan ito.

“Linda!” rinig kong sigaw nya Ipinikit ko ulit ang mga mata ko at nagkunwari tulog.

“Linda!”

“Sir!” narinig ko naman ang mga tumatakbong yapak.

“Why are my things covered with glitters?!” iritadong tanong nito. Kinabahan tuloy ako bigla.

“Huh? Sir, hindi ko po alam.”

“Then how will there be glitters there?”

“Saan, sir?”

“In our bathroom.”

“Hala, hindi po talaga alam, Sir! Jusko, baka may multo na rito!”

Azriel groaned and I heard him walk.

“Fuck, here in my things, too!” rinig ko namang galing sa kanyang walk-in closet.

“Hala, wala talaga akong alam, sir!”

Natatawa ako pero naawa rin. Nakakainis kasi si hubby eh. That serves him right.

“Then who the hell will put glitters here?”

Natahimik silang dalawa at hindi ko napigilang tumawa.

“I knew it,” Azriel said. I looked at his direction while laughing. He smirked and made his way towards here.

Tumili ako nang hawakan nya ang paa ko at patungan ako.

“Not me!” natatawa kong sabi at tumili.

“Really?” he playfully asked and started tickling my waist. Tumili ako habang tumatawa.

“Azriel!” tawag ko habang pilit syang itinutulak. “Not me!”

Tumili ako nang ibaon nya ang mukha sa aking leeg at naramdaman ko ang kanyang dila.

“Hubby!” natatawa kong sabi dahil kinikiliti nya pa rin ako.

“Hubby, you deserve those pink glitters!” pag-amin ko. Hinalikan nya ako sa noo at itinigil ang pagkiliti.

“Why so? You pretty witch. You put your magical pink glitters on my things, huh? Where else did you put those stuff?”

I pouted and giggled. “In your car, hubby!”

He stared at me darkly. Napapikit sya nang mariin. “Fuck.”

I laughed again. “I’m sorry, but it is your fault!”

“How come it’s my fault, wife?”

“Autumn’s boobs were so close to your knees and face!” akusa ko at sinamaan sya ng tingin. Sinulyapan ko rin ang tattoo nya.

“Who the hell is Autumn?”

“The tattoo artist!” frustrated kong sagot.

“I know she was making moves. I was and still disgusted, wife,” he said.

“Liar!”

“I’m not. I would love it if it’s yours.”

Mas lalo ko syang sinamaan ng tingin. “I don’t have those size!”

“I mean these,” he said and cups both of my breasts. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at inalis ang kamay nya.

“Sa ’yo lang gusto kong hawakan at halikan, Seleira,” malambing nyang sabi at hinalikan ako sa pisngi.

I pouted. “Talaga?”

“Yes, wife…”

“Meganon?” rinig ko namang pagkontra ni Linda.

What the?! The witch is still here!

“Hey, get out!” I shout. I heard her witchy laugh before she went out.

“Baby,” he called again so I looked at him.

“What will I do now that my things are covered with pink glitters?”

“I’m sorry, hubby, but isn’t it cute?” nakanguso kong tanong. He chuckled and gave me a quick kiss.

“It’s cute now because my baby’s the one who put it all there.”

I pouted again and hugged him.

“You better be a good boy now or else that will be my revenge. You might want your things covered with purple glitters next time!” Pananakot ko pero tumawa lamang sya.

Nakakainis! Nakakainis ang lalaking ito!

Kinabukasan tuloy ay nakita nya na ang kanyang dashboard ng sasakyan. Hindi naman marami, pero makikitang kumikinang ang ito.

Today is Wednesday and we’re on our way to our doctor. I’m a bit excited and nervous at the same time though.

“Cute hehe.”

Ngumisi ako kay Azriel dahil seryoso syang nakatingin sa akin. He’s lowkey looking at me like “Look at the mess you’ve done.”

“Cute ’di ba?” pag-uulit ko.

He didn’t answer.

“’Di ba?!” agresibo kong tanong.

“That’s not what I’m thinking, wife. I’m a bit nervous,” he said while putting his own seatbelt.

“It’s going to be a babygirl,” I said surely.

Hindi sya sumagot at ini-start ang kotse. Maya maya pa ay mahina nyang hinampas ang manibela bago tumingin sa akin.

“Fuck, my hands are shaking,” he said. Natawa ako dahil sa kanyang reaksyon.

“Chill! Hindi pa nga ako manganganak nyan!” natatawa kong sabi. Napalunok sya at hindi agad nakapagsalita.

“What? Takot ka manganak ako?” pangungulit ko.

I laughed when he started looking all pale. Hinawakan ko ang kamay nya at ang lamig nito.

“Hubby, it’s going to be fine.”

“Kiss me, please,” he suddenly said.

“Huh?”

“Calm me down, wife. I’m really nervous.”

“Weh? Baka kapag nanganganak ako, halikan mo ako dahil ninenerbyos ka?” natatawa kong biro.

“Fuck, that’s not funny, wife!” inis nyang sabi.

Lalo akong tumawa. I removed my seatbelt and leaned on him to give him a kiss. Hinaplos ko rin ang pisngi nya. Agad nanlaki ang mga mata nya

“It’s gonna be fine, hubby.”

“Really?”

“Yes.”

Chapter 44

Family

The weather is getting very cold nowadays. Dahil siguro ilang buwan na lang ay magpapasko na. It is currently the month of October.

Binalot ako ni Azriel ng jacket matapos nya akong pagbuksan ng pinto. Nakarating na kami sa parking lot ng ospital at kahit kulob na ito ay malamig pa rin.

“Still cold?” he asks.

Umiling-iling ako.

Nang hawakan nya ang kamay ko at idikit ako sa kanya habang naglalakad ay wala na ang lamig na nararamdaman ko. Lamig na lang sa loob ng katawan, kung may ganoon man, dahil sa kaba sa magiging gender ng anak.

Months from now, it will be Azriel’s birthday. Ang birthday ko naman ay 11th of April, it’s summer time.

Naalala ko tuloy iyong birthday ni Azriel a few years ago.

It was March 3 and is also Sir Nickolson’s birthday. Everyone in the company is invited in his big day. The venue is an expensive resort. The whole resort is being rented! Ang laki laki pa naman nito at maganda ang beach.

Naupo ako sa isang kahoy na upuan since that’s the theme. Parang beach style? I don’t know. I don’t even want to be here in the first place.

I suddenly remember the day last week it was announced. Pinatawag kami sa conference room. Not all, but just the people with higher positions to talk about his “party”.

“So, everyone is invited to my party. It is not compulsory, if you don’t want, then don’t. Also, announce this to everyone here after this meeting,” he said. He really looks so arrogant and that irritates me.

I don’t know if that’s just really him or he’s really a bastard, arrogant, and rude.

I raised my hand which made them look at me.

“I can’t go, Sir.”

Kumunot ang noo nito at napaayos ang upo. “What?!”

“I can’t go po. I’m sorry, I have something else to do,” I said. Well, I actually lied. Ayoko lang talagang pumunta doon.

“What?! It’s my birthday, why won’t you go?!” He sounds so offended. Kunot noo at mabilis pa ang paghinga.

Nagulat naman ang iba sa paraan ng pag-react nya. Kahit ako ay nagulat but not that much. I see him react like this many times already.

“Hindi naman po required, right?” naguguluhan kong tanong.

“But it’s my birthday!” inis nyang sabi na parang bata.

“You just said it’s not required-”

Humalukipkip sya at tila nagagalit na. “Then it’s required now.”

The nerves of this man!

Nanahimik ako sa tabi kahit nakakaramdam ng iritasyon. Sya rin ay iritado at pilit nyang ipinapakita iyon sa akin ngunit wala naman akong pake.

“Uh, so, required na pong um-attend lahat, sir? I’ll make an announcement later.”

“Yes, Miss Realonda. Required,” he said with finality.

“Should we make a public announcement, Sir? Para sa mga kakilala nyo po?”

“No. I have a separate party for that.”

Yumuko ako saglit bago sya tingnang muli. “I really can’t go, Sir. I’m sorry, what will be the consequence?”

Lalong sumama ang timpla nya. Kumuyom ang kamay na nakapatong sa mesa at mariin nya akong tinitigan.

“It is my birthday, Seleira. Why don’t you want to come?!” inis na inis nyang tanong.

Bakit ba parang big deal sa kanya iyang birthday nyang ’yan? Ano naman kung hindi ako pumunta?

“K-kailangan ko pong samahan ’yung tito ko,” I reasoned out. Sorry, Tito, I’m using you here.

“Hindi na rin ako pupunta kung ganoon,” sabi nya.

Napasinghap iyong mga empleyado sa gulat. Maging ako ay nagulat! What?

“Sir?” naguguluhang tanong ng isa.

It’s his damn birthday tapos hindi sya pupunta. Galing talaga.

So that’s why I’m here in this damn birthday party. I need to go or the brute won’t. Kung hindi ako pupunta, hindi rin sya pupunta, not even considering it’s his birthday. Ano, may birthday party pero wala yung celebrant?!

Actually, okay na rin dahil gusto kong maligo sa beach. Maganda pa naman at siguradong masaya.

Inilapag ko ang purse sa mesa at sumandal sa upuan ko. Tinabihan ako ng iilang kaibigan sa trabaho.

“Crush ka siguro ni Sir,” bungad sa akin ni Leila. Naka-bikini na sya at parang naligo na sa beach. Late kasi ako and who the hell cares.

“Nah.”

“Oo! Ano ’yun, hindi raw sya pupunta kung hindi ka pupunta?” Natatawang tanong nya.

“Maybe. Want do you want, Seleira?” tanong naman ni Rex at nagtatawag ng waiter.

“Pineapple juice lang. Mamaya na ako mag-aalak,” sagot ko.

“Cocktail akin, Rex.”

Ni hindi pa kami nakakaayos ng upo  ay narito na sa harap ang birthday boy.

He’s topless and that almost made me hungry, but then I despise him so… No. He’s topless and just wearing his summer shorts. Naka-shades pa at medyo basa ang buhok kaya lalong gwapo kung titingnan.

Tiningnan ko ang ibang empleyado at nakatingin ang iba rito. Kinikilig pa ang iba, hindi ko naman masisisi coz yes… he’s handsome and hot. Marami na ring naliligo.

Tumayo sya sa harap ng table namin at medyo hinahangin ang buhok dahil sa malamig na hangin ng beach.

“Yes, Sir?” nakangiting tanong ni Leila.

“Let’s talk, Seleira.”

Hindi na ako nagulat. Tumayo na lang ako at sumunod sa kanya para matapos na ito.

By the way, I’m wearing a mustard yellow fitted and sleeveless crop top. I paired it with a high waisted maong short. My hair is in a high ponytail and my side bangs are down. Nakasuot din ako ng beads necklace and some colorful clips.

Beach themed daw eh.

Also, I’m only wearing my strappy sandals since there’s a lot of sand here.

Tumayo sya sa harap ko nang nasa hindi na kami masyadong mataong lugar. Tinanggal nya rin ang kanyang shades kaya nasilayan ko ang mga mata nya.

He looks like he’s waiting for something. Is he waiting for a what? A gift? I didn’t get him anything!

“I-I don’t have a gift. I’m sorry,” I said. Talagang malungkot ako dahil… I attended and I got no gift? Nakita ko pa ang mga katrabaho kanina na may sari-sariling regalo. The gifts area is also full!

Kumunot ang noo nya at tila hindi iyon ang gusto.

“It’s okay.”

Natahimik kami. Nakatayo pa rin sya sa harap ko at nag-aantay. Naguluhan naman ako. Nag-aantay ng ano?!

“Uh, why did you want us to talk?” tanong ko.

“You’re late. I was looking for you for an hour now.”

My eyes widened. “Oh, really? Why will you look for me?!”

He sighs. “I want to see you and make sure you’ll come.”

“And if I don’t?”

“I’ll go to your uncle’s house.”

Umirap ako. “You don’t know where.”

“I do. I know everything about you, Seleira.”

I groaned in irritation. Nakakainis talaga ang isang ’to! Pero ’di bale na, birthday nya  naman. Wala pa akong gift.

I stepped closer to him and tiptoed to give him a friendly kiss in the cheek.

“Happy birthday!” I said happily and smiled.

I stepped back and looked at him. His eyes are wide open and his lips are a bit open. Unti-unti namula ang tainga nya at parang nanigas sa kinatatayuan.

I smirked and turned my back. Hindi na nya ako nahabol dahil sa tingin ko ay nanigas na ’yun sa kinatatayuan nya. Kinikilig?

There, maybe he’ll shut up the whole time, huh? At huwag nya na akong gambalain pa dahil nandito ako para… magpalipas oras.

But I’m wrong. Nasa tabi ko sya throughout the party! Hiyang-hiya tuloy ako sa iba at nakatitig pa rito.

“What else do you want?” tanong nya at inilapag ang plato para sa akin na punong-puno ng pagkain. The party’s food is buffet style at sya mismo ang kumuha para sa akin.

Halos hindi na sya makapunta sa stage or manood ng presentations for him dahil sa nasa akin sya.

“Sir, manood ka naman ng presentations and dance number para sa iyo,” sabi ko at medyo iritado.

“Hmm?” malambing nyang tanong.

Kumunot ang noo ko at nag-init ang pisngi. Tumingin ako sa paligid at nanonood naman sila ng mga sumasayaw. Naghihiyawan at nagtatawanan pa dahil sila Berto ang sumasayaw ng macho dance.

“I said go watch the presentations that’s made for you.”

“I’m busy. Ano pang gusto mo?” tanong nya. Hindi man sya nakangiti ay parang masaya naman ang mga mata nya.

I wonder if there are really times that he feels this warm and not a cold brute.

Umiling na lamang ako.

He licked his lips and nodded. “Come with me in my another birthday party. This time, it’s thrown by my mother and it’s going to be a business party-like.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at agad umiling. “Huh? Bakit naman ako sasama?”

He sighs. “I want to be with you… Please.”

I scoffed. Muntik na ako mabulunan, mabuti na lamang at nainom ko kaagad ang aking pineapple juice.

“Hindi pwede, Sir. I’m just an employee here.”

Nagsisimula na syang mairita. Gumapang agad ang kaba sa aking sistema. Nakakatakot pa naman sya kung magalit. Ang laki laki kasi ng katawan at baka kung suntukin ako ay makatulog na lang ako at hindi na magising pa.

“I want to be your boyfriend,” bigla nyang sabi.

I knew he’s having a crush on me (he’s my stalker + he treats me differently) but I never expected him to just say it away!

“No.”

Mariin syang pumikit na tila nasaktan. Matatawa sana ako kaso pagdilat ng mga mata nya ay talagang mukha syang nasasaktan.

“Why? I want to be your boyfriend… I want the label.”

Umiling-iling ako. No way he’ll be my boyfriend. He’s a womanizer and a sex addict (?) I don’t know! But all I know is I should stay away from him!

I don’t feel anything for him. Siguro respeto lamang? Takot pa nga ako sa kanya eh.

“Why? You kissed me earlier!” sumbat nya. Nanlalaki ang mga mata kong tumingin sa paligid sa takot na may makarinig.

“Where did I kiss you?” I asked.

“On my cheek!” he said like an offended child.

“See? That’s a friendly kiss, Sir. I kiss a lot of boys on their cheeks and that means nothing. It’s your birthday so I gave you a peck. That’s normal, I do that to everyone,” I said heartlessly.

Umawang ang bibig nya at ayan na naman ang nasasaktan nyang ekspresyon.

“That’s nothing, huh,” he said and chuckled but without humour.

“Why are you expecting?” hindi ko na napigilan ang inis ko. “You kiss girls in their lips and have sex with them.”

“That’s nothing!” nandidiri nyang sabi.

I looked at him disgustingly. “You’re disgusting. Everything I do for you is nothing to me. Don’t expect much from me, Sir. I don’t like you or the idea of having you as my significant other.”

I stood up and grabbed my purse. Naiwan syang nakaupo at tila nasasaktan sa narinig. Hindi sya agad nakagalaw kaya kinuha ko iyong oportunidad para umalis at umuwi na.

When I got back home, his face covered with hurt expression haunts me. I shook my head and shrugged it all out.

I got back to my senses when the guards of the hospital greeted us with their warm smiles.

“Good morning, sir. Good morning, ma’am!”

“Good morning,” I said to the hospital guard. He smiled before he let us in.

Pakiwari ko’y nanlalamig ang kamay ni Azriel. I laughed and raised it.

“Ang lamig ng kamay mo!” I pointed out.

Hindi sya sumagot at hinalikan lamang ang noo ko. We then ride the elevator to the third floor kung nasaan ang office ni Dra. Grahams. I just know now that she is addressed as Dra. Grahams.

Is she a graham?

“Hubby, isn’t Dra. Grahams a graham?” I asked.

But he couldn’t answer anymore. He looks tense.

“Hubby?”

“Shh, wife,” he whispered and kissed my forehead again.

Lumabas kami ng elevator at naglakad sa hallway. Huminto kami sa isang kwarto na nakasulat ang pangalan ng doctor namin.

“Mr. and Mrs. Nickolson, of course, good morning! I’ve been expecting you!” She said and gave us a warm smile.

“Good morning,” Azriel greets.

“Good morning po,” sabi ko naman.

“Hmm, by now we can tell the gender of your baby and also…” natigilan sya nang bumaba ang tingin sa akin tyan.

“Wait,” she said. She went to her table and look through some papers.

Pinaupo ako ni Azriel sa upuang tapat ng table ni doc. Tumayo naman sya sa gilid ko habang nakaakbay sa akin.

“It’s only your 9th week, right?”

“Yes, doc.”

Tumango-tango sya bago inayos muli ang mga papeles.

We then proceeded to the Ultrasound room. Dito na ako kinabahan. Hindi na rin nagsasalita si Azriel at panay halik na lamang sa noo o sintindo ko.

“Lay down your wife,” nakangiting utos ni Doc.

“Come here, baby,” Azriel said. “Careful, wife…”

Dahan dahan nya akong pinaupo sa kama at hinubad ang jacket.

“Nilalamig ka?” buong nya at taas babang hinaplos ang braso ko. Nakasuot lamang ako ng sleeveless at maluwag na dress kasi.

“Kaunti, hubby,” bulong ko rin.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered and kissed my forehead again. Nginitian ko lang sya at tiningnan na si doc.

“Lay down, hija…” she said.

Humiga ako at tumayo sa gilid ng kama si Azriel. He held my hand while doc is pulling up the dress.

May kinalikot si Doc sa computer at may itinapat sya sa aking tyan.

“It’s a bit bigger than the usual 9 weeks belly but let’s see…” she said.

“What does that mean?” tanong ni Azriel. Para pa syang ninirebyos.

Dinaluhan din ako ng kaba. Does that mean something is wrong with me?! Or my baby?

Nakapikit ako the whole time she’s putting that thing in my belly as if scanning something. Mahigpit naman ang hawak sa akin ni Azriel.

Dumilat lang ako nang narinig ko ang natutuwang tawa ni Doc.

“Congratulations! You are having fraternal twins, both baby boys!”

Para akong nanigas sa narinig. Tiningnan ko ang screen at dalawa nga ang naroon.

Narinig kong napamura si Azriel ngunit parang ang nakikita ko lang sa mismong oras na ito ay ang screen.

There are two babies inside me! Both boys!

“W-what on earth… Two baby boys?” I heard Azriel’s nervous voice.

“Hubby,” I called. My hands are shaking.

“Yes, two healthy baby boys!” The doctor confirmed.

“Fuck!” mura ni Azriel at pilit akong niyakap kahit na nakahiga ako.

“Two baby boys! You heard me, wife? We are having baby boys… fuck,” hindi makapaniwala nyang sabi. Nanginginig ang boses nya kaya iniisip ko kung umiiyak ba sya.

“Azriel…”

“Wife, you make me so happy! And our boys… damn!” Hindi nya mapigilang himasin ang tyan ko at halikan nang paulit-ulit. Natawa naman si Doc.

Nag-iinit ang mga sulok ng mata ko. Two baby boys. I am raising them with the man of my life.

“Seleira,” he called. Nang harapin ko sya ay hindi ko alam kung matatawa ba ako o maiiyak lalo.

He’s crying! Pulang-pula ang mga mata’s ilong nya pero nakangiti sya.

Umupo ako para yakapin sya. Isiniksik nya naman ang mukha sa aking leeg. Natatawa ako dahil lumalakas ang iyak nya habang paulit-ulit na sinasabi ang pangalan ko.

“Azriel, hush,” natatawa kong sabi kahit maging ako ay naiiyak din sa tuwa.

“I’ll leave you for some privacy. Congratulations again and meet me later before you go home for some ultrasound pics.”

I nodded and thanked her.

“I can’t believe this. I’m having a family with you, baby, with our boys. Two baby boys…”

Hindi talaga sya makapaniwala. Paulit-ulit nya akong hinahalikan sa noo at yakap nang yakap sa akin na akala mo mawawala ako.

Natutuwa rin ako at papaulanan ko ng tanong mamaya si doc. Shit… kaya pala mas sensitive ang pagbubuntis ko noong una pa lang?!

Halos buhatin at ikalong na ako ni Azriel kakayakap nya sa akin. Tuwang-tuwa sya at naiiyak pa!

“Azriel, calm down!”

“How can I calm down, wife? You have our two baby boys inside you!” Hindi ko na maintindihan ang tono nya. Para syang natutuwa, na nababaliw, at nawawala sa sarili.

I squeak when he squeezed me again in his  hug. Pakiramdam ko ay nanggigigil sya sa sobrang tuwa nya.

“I’m sorry,” he said and kissed my forehead repeatedly.

“We’ll buy tons of baby stuffs again… We’ll decorate the room. We’ll start thinking about the names, baby, I’m getting crazy! I love you so much.”

His eyes are really sparkling right now. Hinalikan nya ako sa sobrang tuwa nya at hinahaplos pa ang tyan ko.

Kahit noong nakauwi na kami ay buhat buhat nya pa ako! He is getting crazy!

“Ma’am, sir, anong gender?!” excited na tanong ni Linda mula sa pinto. The rest of the maids are also there, waiting for us.

Kumapit ako sa leeg ni Azriel at tumawa. Hinayaan kong sya ang sumagot.

“Fraternal twins. Two baby boys!” Azriel said proudly.

Naghiyawan sila at nagpalakpakan. Tumalon-talon pa si Linda habang tumitili.

Azriel laughed and kissed me. Kumapit naman ako sa leeg nya nang ayusin nya ang pagkarga sa akin.

“Ang lakas nyo, sir! Dalawa agad!”

Ngumisi si Azriel sa kanila.

“OMG Ma’am! Congratulations!”

“Congrats, Sir, ma’am!”

“Masaya kami para sa inyo, ma’am! At excited na sa mga babies!”

“Naku, mga lalaki! Nagagwapuhan panigurado!”

Nagtawanan kami pero bigla akong hinalikan ni Azriel sa sobrang tuwa nya. Naghiyawan tuloy sila. Hinampas ko sya.

“PDA!” sabi ko.

I just realized now that I’m crying, too. Pinunasan iyon ni Azriel at hinalikan ang pisngi ko. Ibinaba nya rin ako.

“Magcecelebrate ba tayo, ma’am?” tuwang-tuwang tanong ni Linda.

“Sa baby shower na lang!”

Nagpalakpakan sila at nakakatuwa lang na pati sila ay sobrang excited. Ako rin ay natutuwa kahit na may kaunting kaba dahil sa sensitibong pagbubuntis.

“Excited na ako, ma’am! Pag-isipan nyo ang mga pangalan, dapat malapit sa pangalan nyo! Hay, nakakatuwa!” tuwang-tuwa nyang sabi at niyakap ako. Halos mapisat pa ako dahil tuwang-tuwa sya.

“Congrats talaga, ma’am…” sabi ng isa. I smiled at them.

“Don’t worry, I’ll make sure you’re all invited in the baby shower party.”

They cheered in joy.

Gumapang ang kamay ni Azriel sa bewang papunta sa aking tyan.

“Sa kwarto na tayo…” he whispered.

Makahulugan ko syang tiningnan.

Sabi ni Doc kanina nang tanungin namin ay pwede pa naman daw but make it gentle.

Gentle naman talaga si Azriel ever since. Kahit gigil na gigil na sya ay kinokontrol nya ang sarili nya dahil ayaw nya akong masaktan. Although sometimes, I am super turn on, of course I will feel loose but he’s big so may kaunting sakit pa rin.

Lalo na noong una namin, he was really really gentle. Halos ayaw pang gumalaw kahit noong sinabi kong okay na at nakapag-adjust na ako. Natatawa na lang ako pag naaalala ko ang nag-aalala nyang mukha.

“Hubby, are we going to do it?” I asked when we’re in the stairs.

“No… not now, at least. Nanggigil at hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko sa tuwa, Seleira.”

Humagikhik ako at yumakap sa kanya. Nagpalit lang kami ng damit bago pumunta sa harap na kwarto.

I’m just wearing a loose white dress while Azriel is wearing a muscle shirt and some jersey black shorts.

I’m just here sitting pretty while he’s standing in front of me.

I touched his muscular arms. It’s really  attractive. Ang tigas at ma-muscle. Tapos may pangalan ko pang naka-tattoo!

“You like that?” he asks, smiling.

“Uh uh.”

“It’s for you.”

“Masakit pa?” tanong ko at yumakap sa kanya habang nakatingala. Niyakap nya naman ako pabalik at hinalikan sa noo.

“No.”

We started talking about how will we decorate the room. Nagbubukas lamang ako ng mga gamit like toys, clothes, and such.

Umakyat din sina Linda at Mang Romualdo upsng tumulong.

“So this side is for my baby boy and this is for my other baby boy,” Azriel explained to Mang Romualdo.

“Itong crib na pink, sir, kanino?” Tanong nito.

I giggled.

“That crib and everything we bought for a baby girl will be set aside in a guest room,” Azriel said.

“Ay, sayang naman, Sir. Ang dami pa naman.”

“Ano ka ba, Rom, syempre iisa pa ’yan sina Sir pagkatapos ng kambal! Malay mo, babae na? Edi princess,” singit ni Linda at tumawa.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at pabiro syang hinampas. Magkatabi kasi kami at nagbubukas ng mga small boxes.

“Right,” pag-sang ayon ni Azriel at ngumiti.

Aba! May balak pa talagang umisa ang isang ’to.

They started putting the black crib in the right corner. Nag-order naman ng isa pa at color blue. Nag-order din ng dagdag na mga damit panglalaki at mga diapers.

After placing the small cabinets, kami na ni Linda ang nag-ayos ng mga damit. Sya sa kabila at ako dito sa kanan.

Nakakalambot ng puso habang hawak hawak ang mga maliliit na damit. We are having two baby boys… and they’re all inside of me right now.

I want everything to look minimalistic. Naglagay ako ng mga biniling maliliit na paintings sa wall para mas gumaan ang ambiance.

I played the music box and it sounds so cute! I am so excited!

The toy cars are placed below, too. Pero hindi pa iyan yung matitigas na laruang kotse. Parang stuff toy na kotse ang disenyo.

“Hubby, put some fairy lights,” I said.

“Hmm? Fairy lights? Sure,”  he said and went towards me. Humawak sya kaagad sa bewang ko.

Tumingkayad naman ako para punasan ang pawis nya. Mabilis nya tuloy akong nahalikan.

Ibinaon nya ang ulo sa aking leeg at inamoy-amoy iyon. Agad akong na-concious dahil medyo pawis ako.

“Azriel, pawisan ako…”

Mahina ko sya itinutulak pero ayaw nyang umalis.

“Bango mo,” pagpupuri nya at lalong idinuldol ang sarili. Natatawa ako dahil nakikiliti sa paghalik nya.

Maybe because of the skin products I’m using which makes me smell good all the time. Sya rin naman.

“This is my dream, wife. If you still don’t know… you and having a family with you is my dream.”

I smiled genuinely. “This wasn’t my dream. Never in my wildest dream I’d like to be married to you, Azriel…”

He frowned which made my smile wider.

“But I like it so much now, hubby. No, I love it. Like you, I love sleeping and waking up in your arms. Thank you for everything, Azriel,” I said in my smallest voice. I feel like crying because I am so happy.

Napapikit sya at tila dinama lahat ng sinabi ko. Niyakap nya ako at pinaghahalikan.

“No, thank you, wife. Everything’s worth it. I want to spend my lifetime and the next with only you and our children.”

I licked my lips. It feels so good to hear the words “our children”.

Maghahalikan na sana kami pero andito pa ang dalawa. Mabuti at nasa kabilang dulo sila na medyo iilang hakbang ang layo rito. They’re both busy with putting some toys in the basket.

We kissed quickly and I giggled. Everything’s worth it indeed. My life has become so much wonderful with my husband.

Friday afternoon and we’re about to finish this movie we’re watching in our movie room. An hour from now, which is 6 pm, we’ll get ready for our dinner.

“Yes, itinext ko sa iyo yung restaurant at address ah? Or lemme send you again?” sabi ko sa telepono, kausap si Anikka.

Azriel is laying with his head on my lap while we’re watching a movie. Pinaglalaruan ko naman ang kanyang buhok.

“Hindi na, na-receive at na-save ko na… Uh, Seleira?” nag-aalangan nyang tanong.

“Yes?” tanong ko at sumipsip sa aking fruit juice.

“M-may kasama ako… pwede ba?”

Nagulat ako sa sinabi nya. “Sino?”

“Uh…” she laughed awkwardly.

“Hmm?” pag-uulit ko. Napatingin tuloy sa akin si Azriel. I sticked my tongue out to him and he smirked. Bumalik ang tingin nya sa flat screen tv at nanood.

“Si Wilfred… Boyfriend ko.”

Literal akong nagulat at napatakip pa sa aking bibig. But then why the hell am I surprised? Anikka is pretty and of course, she’s as of age! Normal nang magkaboyfriend!

“Wow!” iyon na lamang ang nasabi ko.

She laughed. “Yup. Pero kung hindi pwede, okay lang. Hindi ko pa naman nasasabi sa kanya.”

“Sino sya? I-I mean paano kayo nagkakilala?” bigla akong na-excite at gustong makipag-kwentuhan sa kanya.

“Ike-kwento ko sa ’yo pag nagkita tayo.”

So this is how it feels to have a genuine sister, huh. Masaya at para kang may mapaglalabasan ng mga opinyon at kung ano ano pa.

I really hope we can get together… as sisters. Best friends. We’ll shop together, do matchy outfits, and more. I would love to have that kind of relationship with her. Only if she wants too, of course.

I told her it’s okay and we talked for a bit more before we both ended the call.

“What’s that?” tanong ni Azriel.

“Anikka is going with her boyfriend tonight,” I said while smiling.

“Oh,” he said uninterestedly.

Sunod kong dinial si Tito para siguraduhing makakapunta sila.

“Tito!” I greet.

“Yes, hello?” Imbes na boses ni Tito Glass ay Boses ni Tito Hiro ang narinig ko.

“Oh! Tito Hiro! Just wanna ask if you two can go tonight? Remember, the dinner?”

“Yes, I know about that,” he said. I heard some taps before I heard Tito’s soft moans. Mukhang kakagising lamang.

“It’s Seleira. The dinner is about two hours from now,” Tito Hiro said.

Hinintay ko si Tito at kinausap nya naman ako. Medyo malat nga ang boses dahil kagigising lamang.

“Why are you asleep at this hour, tito?” tanong ko. It’s 6pm!

“Uh,” he said but it sounds like a moan. Parang wala pa sya sa sarili nya at nag-uunat unat pa.

“Sorry, hija,” he said. “I just woke up. Magreready na kami.”

“Bakit? Tulog kayo kanina?” pangungulit ko pa.

Kinuha ni Azriel ang kamay ko at dinala iyon sa kanyang labi habang nakatingin sa akin. I just stroke his hair again because he’s asking for attention again.

“May ginawa lang…” Tito said.

“Ano naman?” tanong ko. “You worked out?”

“No. Kitakits later, maliligo pa kami.”

“Sabay?” nakangisi kong tanong.

“Sabay.”

Humagikhik ako at tinapos na ang tawag para magka-oras sila.

“Baby,” he called.

“Hmm? Tumawag mommy mo?” tanong ko.

“Last night, yes. But you were asleep.”

“Anong sabi?” natutuwa kong tanong. He chuckled, too.

“Not much. Just asking if we’re sure to go… Hmm, and she just asked a bit about you.”

“Ask what?”

“Our baby’s gender…”

“DID YOU SAY IT?! You shouldn’t have said it, hubby!” inis kong sabi.

He chuckled. “No, I didn’t.”

“Good!”

“Why are you shouting?”

“I’m not!”

We then change clothes since naligo na kami kaninang umaga pa. Nag-freshen up na lamang.

I wore a longsleeves puff dress na color purple at may designs na maliliit na strawberries. I applied light make up and put some perfume.

I just noticed my make ups are mostly Chanel. I didn’t buy that, I’m sponsored. I also put some jewelries.

Kahit noong nasa sasakyan na kami ay hindi ko mapigilang ngumiti. I even giggle because of my excitement!

“You look so beautiful,” he said with amusement in his voice.

Mas lalo tuloy akong ngumiti.

“I mean, you’re always beautiful, wife.”

“Talaga?”

“Yes,” he whispered. Bumalik ang tingin nya sa kalsada at may bakas na ng ngiti ang labi.

A soft and slow love song is also playing in the stereo. I took some pictures of him. Ginawa ko iyong wallpaper dahil ang gwapo nyang tingnan.

“My babies, please…” he said and tried to reach my tummy.

I pouted. “Me?”

A side of his lips rose. “No… the other babies, please, ma’am.”

He is being playful. I smirked, too.

“Which babies? You have three babies in total, sir,” I said and smiled cutely.

He chuckled as if he’s very happy. Mahina syang napamura bago ako tingnan.

“Fine, the pretty one first.”

“Can I know what’s the name, sir?”

“Seleira Pretty Nickolson,” malambing nyang sabi.

Humagikhik ako. He laughed with me, too.

Inilagay ko ang kamay ko sa nakaabang nyang kamay. He’s all smiles. Dinala nya ang kamay ko sa kanyang labi para halikan.

Nag-iinit ang aking puso sa sobrang saya. Hindi ko alam na pwede pala ako maging ganito kasaya. Having fun and playing with boys were fun, but this… this is, like what Azriel said, too good to be true.

Binawi ko ang kamay at hinaplos ang tyan ko.

“My other boys now, please, ma’am,” he requested.

I giggled. “What are the names, sir?”

He chuckled a bit. Nanahimik sya sandali.

Wala pa kaming naiisip na pangalan dahil kahapon lamang. We should do research!

“To my boys, Aldus Zuriel and Uzziel Chase, please…”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Saan nya nakuha ’yan?!

“Hmm? We don’t have those names, sir.”

“There are, now.”

I smiled. Those names are very nice!

Dinala ko ang kamay nya sa tyan ko at hinaplos haplos nya iyon.

“Those names are pretty, Azriel! Kailan mo naisip ’yan?” natutuwa kong tanong.

He smiled. “I don’t know. I just made that up now. That’s not final, don’t worry.”

“What? Gawa gawa mo lang ngayon?!” gulat kong tanong.

He shrugged. “We were playing, right?”

I laughed and looked at him. Unbelievable. “The names are great! Let’s use those!”

“Wife, we can still think for more. Malayo pa naman,” nakangiti nyang sabi. Hinawakan ko naman ang kanyang kamay sa aking tyan.

“Fine. But I want those two names! Aldus… Zuriel? We can make his nickname as ‘Azul’” natutuwa kong sabi.

He chuckled. “You’re right.”

“I’m so excited, hubby!”

Pinagkukurot ko ang kanyang kamay. Natatawa lamang sya sa kanyang tuwa.

Pagdating namin ay patalon talon na ako sa tuwa. By the way, this is an expensive hotel. We’re here because their restau is known for delicious italian foods. I don’t know if we’ll go home or we’ll stay in a suit here.

Azriel put his black coat over me because it’s really getting cold.

“Good evening, Mr. and Mrs. Nickolson, this way…” A waiter said professionally.

“Thank you!” I said happily.

Papalapit pa lang at natanaw ko na ang mga magulang ni Azriel. Shet. I should’ve wore something more elegant because of how pretty elegant her mom’s dress is.

“Good evening,” Azriel greeted. Tumayo sila at nakangiti sa amin.

“Good evening, son, Seleira!” She said at nakipagbeso sa akin. Tumango naman sa akin ang papa nya.

“Good evening, ti-”

“Mom and Dad!” she corrected.

I smiled and nodded. “Good evening, dad, mom…”

Natahimik ako sandali. Ilang taon ko na ring hindi nabibigyan iyan simula nang mamatay si mommy.

Come on, Seleira, you can’t be emotional tonight!

Kakaupo pa lang namin ay dumating na sina Tito.

They both look handsome, clean, and formal. Tumayo ulit kami para magbatian.

“Good evening,” Tito greeted.

“Oh, good evening, good evening! You both must be Seleira’s uncles?” Mom asked with a smile on her lips.

“Yes, ma’am.”

She laughed. “Oh no, I’m Adrianna and this is Maxim.”

Nagkamayan sila at nagngitian. Hindi pa nakakaupo ay dumating na sina Anikka.

Hindi ko napigilang matuwa nang makita sila. She’s wearing some satin beige bodycon dress which looks perfect with her morena skin tone.

Ang kasama nya ay matangkad at medyo maputi. Nahihiyang ngumiti sa akin si Anikka.

I went to her and give her a kiss in the cheek which shocked her.

“Sya ba?” natutuwa kong tanong.

“Ah, oo. Ngayon ko sya sinama para pormal ko mapakilala… Kilala na kasi ako sa kanila.”

I smiled and nodded.

“Hello, I’m Seleira. Anikka’s sister, and you are?” nakangiti kong tanong.

Azriel’s possessive arms snaked into my waist quickly. Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin bago ibalik sa lalaki ang tingin.

“Ah, yes, Seleira the model. I’m Wilfred, Annika’s boyfriend. Nice to meet you!”

Nagkamayan kami at ganoon din sila kina Tito at sa parents ni Azriel.

After some introduction, we settled down on our seats.

We are in a bit long table. Katabi ko sa kanan si Azriel at si Tito naman sa gilid. Tapos si Tito Hiro sa tabi nya. Tapos si Anikka and then si Wilfred. Sa tapat namin ay ang parents ni Azriel.

“Don’t worry, we’ve ordered a lot a while ago. It is being prepared now. Let’s just talk for now,” Azriel’s mom said. I’ll just call them Tita and Tito, but if talking to them, then Mom and Dad. I’m still not used to it.

“So, I know, we’ve never had any dinner together since I was againsts these two,” She started.

Tumango ako.

Tumingin si Tita kina Tito bago ngumiti nang medyo guilty.

“I’m really sorry for, you know, judging your niece. I also want to say that I didn’t accept her just because she’s pregnant or she became a supermodel but I accepted her because… it’s clear as the sky how my son loves her. My son became responsible and eager to settle down for her. He loves her, so therefore, I’ll love her, too. I’m really sorry for the hatred I caused.”

Yumuko ako at kinagat ang labi. Agad namang hinawakan ni Azriel ang kamay ko.

“All is okay now. I understand how you felt because that’s how I felt before, too. I didn’t like Azriel since he had a history,” Tito said and looked at me meaningfully.

“But when I saw that he’s changing, he’s changing for my niece, I said to myself that why don’t I give him a chance. Then Azriel really proved himself to me. My niece is a stubborn, naughty, and spoiled girl and she’s always telling me her whims and ranta but she never ranted that Azriel hurt her physically. Noong kinasal sila, iyan ang pinakainaalala ko—paano kung saktan sya ni Azriel? Given the fact that she’s stubborn tapos maliit pa ang body frame. But he didn’t. Azriel might be have a bad past, but he’s the only man I know my niece deserves.”

Ngumiti ako at ’di na napigilan ang luha. Kakairita! Nagtawanan sila pero nag-aalala rin dahil nga buntis ako.

“Don’t hurt her,” Tito Hiro said in a different voice.

“I never and I won’t hurt her, Tito Hiro. I assure you that,” Azriel said like he’s promising.

“I know. That’s why we both trust you.”.

Azriel hushed me and kissed my forehead. He also whispered some assuring words which made me stop crying.

“Aww, this is very sweet! I know, too, that Seleira is the woman my son deserves. I judged too quickly but you’re right, all is okay now. Right, Maxim?” sabi nito at binalingan ang asawa.

“I knew that since the start. My son won’t settle down and marry someone he doesn’t love. Hindi naman ako tutol, talagang nabilisan lang ako,” marahan nitong sabi sa kanyang mababang boses.

Azriel chuckled.

Dumapo ang tingin ni Tita kay Anikka na nananahimik sa tabi.

“So, you’re her sister?” nakangiti nitong tanong.

“Half po.”

“Half!”

“She’s my daddy’s daughter with his… legit wife. I’m basically a child of mistake,” I said and laughed it out like it’s nothing.

“Seleira,” nagbabantang tawag ni Azriel.

“Don’t say that, hija. That’s not your fault,” Tito Maxim said.

“Hindi mo kasalanan, Seleira,” nakangiting sabi ni Anikka.

I chuckled and nodded. “I know, sis. That’s all in the past.”

She smiled, too.

Tita laughed a bit. “So, what can you say when Azriel and Seleira married that fast?”

Nagulat si Anikka. “Uh, wala pa po ako sa kanila noong kinasal sila. Nasa probinsya pa po ako noon.”

“Oh!” awkward na sabi ni Tita.

“Kailan lang noong nanirahan dito sa Maynila,” dagdag ni Tito Glassifer.

Ngayon ko lang napagtantong walang kaalam alam ang mga parents ni Azriel sa mga nangyari sa amin. But I guess they don’t have to know.

They both then had to check their room since a staff said that there’s a problem with the baggages. May nawala raw so they had to fix it first.

“Dito pala sila matutulog?” tanong ko kay Azriel.

“Yes,” he said and watched his parents follow the staff

“Tayo?” tanong ko. Tumingin naman sya sa akin.

“Dito rin tayo magpapalipas ng gabi.”

Tumango ako. Isa isa nang dinadala ang mga pagkain dito. Babalik din naman daw sina Tita.

“So, anong course mo?” rinig kong tanong ni Tito sa boyfriend ni Anikka.

“Tapos na po akong mag-aral. Business management din po.”

“Seryoso ka ba dyan kay Anikka?”

Hinampas ko si Tito dahil parang may ibang meaning ang tanong nya. If I know may galit sya kay Anikka. Parang pinaparating nyang talaga

?

seryoso

ka

dyan?

sa

babaeng

ganyan? Kaya hinampas ko sya.

“What?” natatawang tanong nito.

“Seryoso po ako.”

“Where did you two meet?” Tito Hiro asked.

“In a club-”

“A club!” pag-uulit ko.

“Ah,” natatawang sabi ni Anikka. “Nag-part time job kasi ako doon tapos naroon din sya.”

Hindi na kami natagalan dahil bumalik na ang mag-asawa. Naupo sila muli at ngumiti sa amin.

“What happened?” Azriel asked.

“It’s fine. The key just got lost, but they found it now.”

Tumango ako. Nag-usap pa ang lahat tungkol sa kung ano ano hanggang sa dumapo ang usapan sa akin.

“So, I heard the ultrasound was a day ago! What gender?” excited na tanong ni Tita.

I laughed when Tito Glassifer also pinched me a bit. Natawa rin sina Anikka dahil excited ang lahat.

Huminga ako nang malalim bago magsalita. “Fraternal twins… Two baby boys.”

Napasinghap sila saglit pero agad ding pumalakpak at naghiyawan. Mahihiya sana ako ngunit ngayon ko lang napansing walang ibang nag-didinner. Maybe Azriel rented this for a certain time.

“What? Kambal, Seleira?!” Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ni tito.

“Yes!”

“Oh my gosh…”

“Congrats, Seleira!” Anikka said.

“Congratulations, son! This is a really great news!” Tito Maxim said, nakangiti ito nang malawak.

“Congratulations, Seleira, Azriel…” si Tito Hiro naman na nakangiti.

“Congrats! This needs a grand celebration!” Tuwang tuwa naman na sabi ng nanay ni Azriel. Napapalakpak pa ito.

“So, I’ll organize this baby shower real soon! Everyone of our business friends should go. Media and photographers, everything!” she added.

Kinabahan ako sa sinabi nya pero na-excite din. Azriel chuckled and hugged me.

Tumawa rin sina Tito Hiro.

“Should I tell Kuya?” tanong ni Tito sa akin.

“He doesn’t know?” tanong ko at tumingin kay Anikka.

“Alam nyang buntis ka, nabanggit ko last month.”

“Can he go?” I asked again.

“Titingnan ko kung maayos ba ang kondisyon nya. Pero ’pag sinabi ko ang tungkol dito, siguradong pupunta sya.”

“The theme should be blue and black, right? What do you think?! Oh my gosh, don’t worry, I’ll be the one to arrange everything!”

Nagtawanan kami. Tita is obviously exaggerating sa sobrang excite nya. Sabagay, they only had Azriel and no more babies anymore.

The night ended with everyone being so happy. We took many pictures but was advised not to post any. ’Saka na kung na-announce na sa media ang pagbubuntis ko or this is going to be a nagtatagong-buntis-issue.

Sa presidential suit na kami nanatili ni Azriel dahil masyado nang gabi at inaantok na ako. Napasarap ang kwentuhan ng bawat isa kanina kaya halos 11 PM na naming naapgpasyahang magpahinga.

I’m just here in the balcony, feeling the cold wind and watching the city lights.

Maraming mga tao at mga kotse. Each of those people have their own story to tell. Some are having the best time of their lives and some are having the worst.

Some are rejoicing because of good news and some are crying because of many different reasons. Maybe a loved one died, they didn’t pass their important exams, they failed a business proposal, they are too poor to buy food, and some are too tired of work or just… literally too tired of anything.

So as long as you can, be kind to everyone.

“What are you thinking?” I heard Azriel joined me in the balcony.

He hugged me and I immediately feel comfortable with his warmth. Sumandal ako sa kanya at hinaplos na lamang ang braso nya na nasa aking tyan.

“Nothing,” I whispered.

He kissed my hair while caressing my tummy. “Are you happy?”

“I am!” Agad kong sagot. “Are you?”

“More than happy.”

I smiled. Ako rin. Masyadong lagpas sa salitang “masaya” ang nararamdaman ko. I  never been this happy before.

“Seleira…” he called softly.

“Hmm?” tanong ko ngunit hindi pa rin sya nililingon.

“Come with me,” he whispered.

Kumunot naman ang noo ko. “Huh? Saan? Magkasama naman tayo.”

Nilingon ko sya at nakangiti sya. I find him handsome but this is weird.

“Hoy!” natatawa kong sabi dahil para syang ewan na nakangiti at tila maiiyak sa kung ano.

“What?” natatawa kong tanong. I feel like my tears are about to burst too just by seeing him like this.

“Come here…” napapaos nyang sabi at lumayo nang kaunti. Inilahad nya rin ang kamay nya.

I laughed and put my hand on his waiting hand.

Hinalikan nya iyon at dahan dahan nya akong hinila.

“Azriel, you’re weird! What is this all about?” natatawa kong tanong.

Hinihila nya ako pabalik sa loob at hindi ko makita ang tinatahak dahil nauuna sya sa akin. I can only see his wide and broad back.

He then opened the room and my jaw dropped.

Everything is arrange inside here. There are red rose petals in the bed and the light is dim, making the ambiance look romantic. May mga pulang lobo rin sa sahig na umookupa ng halos 3/4 ng kwarto. There are also heart-shaped balloons in the ceiling. There’s a huge bear and many gifts in the side of the bed. There are also romantic candles in the floor which makes the whole set up 100x better.

“Azriel!” Napatakip ako sa bibig ko sa sobrang gulat. Para akong tinutunaw makita ito.

Sobrang ganda at sobrang nakakataba ng puso. How did he arrange this?! Who helped him?! Fuck, this is so pretty!

Mas lalo akong natunaw nang panoorin ko syang unti unting lumuhod. Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko habang pinapanood syang kuhain sa bulsa ang isang maliit na box.

“Azriel, what the?!” naiiyak kong sabi nang buksan nya ang box.

Para akong nasilaw nang makita ang laman nito. It’s a ring with a bright diamond. It looks so expensive and elegant and to think that this is…

He cleared his throat as if he just cried.

“Please… marry me again, please…” he said weakly while looking up at me with so much hope in his eyes. He looks so weak that if I reject him, he’ll be so miserable.

I started crying but I laughed. “Azriel, you’re supposed to ask me!”

“No, baby, please marry me again…”

Natatawa ako pero patuloy naman ang agos ng luha ko. Parang sasabog ang puso ko sa sobrang tuwa.

“Ask me!” I demanded.

He chuckled but I can see his cheeks shining a bit. He’s crying, too.

“Will… will you marry me again, baby?”

Hindi ko na napigilan at humagulgol na ako habang tumatango. This was one of my dreams back then. To have the love of my life propose to me romantically. And here it is now…

“Yes, Azriel. I’ll marry you… again, for sure, in the church. Only you, hubby.”

His eyes widened and he slowly put the ring in my ring finger. Para akong namatayan kung makaiyak. Naalala ko iyong singsing na bigay nya noon. That was so expensive and pretty, too, but I threw it away sa sobrang galit ko.

But this now… I’ll cherish everything that comes from him

Tiningnan ko iyon sa daliri ko st sobrang bagay. Sobrang ganda. Medyo mabigat dahil sa diamond, but it’s fine.

Niyakap ako ni Azriel pero hindi napigilan ang sariling buhatin ako. I laughed while crying. He cried with me in joy.

“Thank you. I love you, baby,” he said in his most sincere voice.

Hinalikan nya ako at kumapit lamang ako sa kanyang leeg. Isinandal nya ako sa pader habang hinahalikan. Ipinulupot ko naman ang aking legs sa kanyang bewang.

“I love you, too, Azriel. Matagal na… Mahal kita. Mahal na mahal,” umiiyak kong sabi.

Natigilan sya. Napapikit at napamura.

“Yes… Yes… Fuck, yes!” he said like a crazy and kissed me again. “My baby loves me… Damn. Seleira loves me for real…” hindi makapaniwala nyang sabi

“Tang ina,” mura nya.

Pinunasan ko ang mga luha nya dahil talagang umiiyak ang loko.

“You love me?” he confirms. Ngiting ngiti na sya ngayon at nanggigil nang halikan ako.

“Yes, I love you! I said I love you!” sigaw ko. Kinagat nya ang labi at napapikit. Tumawa ako dahil sa ka-OAhan nya.

“You said that because you love me, right? You’ll marry me because you love me? Not like before? Please say yes… Please tell me you love me so you’ll marry me… Please, baby,” nahihirapan nyang sabi.

I laughed and nodded. “Mahal kita kaya papakasalan kita ulit! This isn’t like before. I’ll marry you now not because I’m forced, but because I love you. Mahal kita, noon pa.”

He groaned and buried his face on my neck as if he’s getting his strength there. Sunod sunod ang pagmumura nya sa sobrang tuwa.

“Thank you… I love you more. This is my dream, Seleira. You loving me, with our children… And fuck, you’re marrying me because you love me. I didn’t force and threaten you… You’ll marry me because you love me. You love me,” paulit ulit nyang sabi kaya lalo akong natawa.

Nakakatuwa talaga sya. Ang sarap sarap panoorin ng mga reaksyon nya sa akin. Walang kupas.

This isn’t planned but… we made love again. Nagkalat ang mga regalo’t mga paper bags sa sahig dahil nakapatong ito sa kama kanina at sobrang likot at wild ni Azriel.

Hindi naman ako nasaktan, talagang nanibago lang ako. Paulit-ulit pa nyang gustong marinig na sinasabi kong mahal ko sya habang ginagawa namin iyon.

The ambiance even added to the heat we were feeling. When we had a few rounds more, we did it in the tub. Even in the tub, there are rose petals too.

Love making has so much felt better with him and this set up!

Niyakap nya ako mula sa likod at pinatakan ng maliliit na halik sa batok nang nakahiga na kami. We are both naked and hingal na hingal pa ako dahil sa ginawa.

“Did you enjoy? I enjoyed making love to you like always, wife.”

I smiled. “Yes, hubby… Thank you.”

Hinarap ko sya agad para sa lambingan bago matulog. He’s smiling so wide and so am I. Hinaplos ko ang panga nya at napapikit sya.

“Tell me you love me,” he whispered.

I smiled. “I love you, Azriel.”

He smiled and groaned. Kinagat nya rin ang kanyang labi. Namumula na rin pati ang mga tainga.

“Isa pa…”

I giggled. “Ang dami ng i love you kong sinabi, hubby!” nakanguso kong sabi.

He chuckled and kissed my cheeks.

“Please…”

“I love you, Azriel. I love you, I love you, I love you!” marami kong sabi at pinaghahalikan ang pisngi nya.

Nanlaki ang mga mata nya at bahagyang natawa. Pinaglaruan ko na lamang ang kanyang mga taingang namumula.

“More please, baby. Ang sarap marinig,” he demanded.

Mahina ko syang hinampas. “Ang dami na no’n!”

He groaned like a child. “Gusto ko pa.”

“Hindi na pwede,” I said.

“Why?” malambing nyang tanong. He started carresing my naked tummy, too.

“I love you! Bukas na ulit!”

He smiled and nodded. The big boy is addicted to it, huh?!

Inilabas ko ang kamay ko at pinagmasdan ang singsing. Ang ganda talaga at sobrang elegante!

“Who helped you here?” I asked.

“The staffs… I need everything to be perfect. I contacted them last week.”

I’m shocked but I managed to giggle. “You! Wala akong kamalay-malay!” I said. He didn’t even act suspiciously!

He chuckled and kissed my forehead. “It’s a surprise.”

“How about this?” pinakita ko ang aking daliring may singsing.

“I bought it myself,” he said. Kinuha nya ang kamay ko at pinagmasdan iyon. Hinalikan nya iyon nang paulit-ulit.

“When?! And oh my gosh, Azriel, this looks hella expensive!”

“It is,” nakangisi nyang sabi.

“How many digits?!” tanong ko.

He chuckled. “Seven.”

“Millions!” gulat kong sabi.

“Millions.” he confirmed.

“When did you purchase this?! This is so expensive, Azriel, how about our babies?!” natataranta kong tanong but he just chuckled.

“I ordered that a year ago. It just arrived last month,” he said. “It needed time. It’s personalized.”

Namamangha akong tumango pero para g nanghihinayang din.

“Don’t worry, purchasing this doesn’t cost much.”

“Anong doesn’t? This cost millions!”

Although I really saw his bank account, nanghihinayang pa rin ako.

“I saw your one credit card and it have seven digits, too. Does that mean you don’t have any money now?!”

Tumawa sya na parang kalokohan ang sinasabi ko.

“What? That’s just one of my cards, baby. I won’t go broke. Besides, I paid that fully one year ago, too.”

“We aren’t even married for a year,” sumbat ko.

“So? I knew from the start I’ll marry you so I purchased two sets. I never even saw you wearing the first one,” medyo nagtatampo nyang sabi.

Tumawa ako. “I know. I didn’t even like marrying you, why would I wear it?”

Umismid sya.

Sinubukan kong halikan sya pero pinagdamot nya sa akin ang labi nya. Kumunot ang noo ko at humalik na lamang sa pisngi nya.

“Sorry na. Noon naman ’yun, hindi na ngayon. I love you na nga diba?” malambing kong sabi.

Halatang naapektuhan sya dahil gumalaw ang kanyang labi pero suplado pa rin ang mga mata. I giggled and kissed his nose.

“I love you, hubby… Ang gwapo mo.”

Napalunok sya at pumula muli ang mga tainga. Hinalikan ko iyon bago humiga sa kanyang dibdib.

“Hindi ka mag-iilove you too?”  I asked like a child.

He cursed before hugging me tightly. Pinatungan pa ako ng kanyang binti at hinalikan sa buhok.

“I love you if you still don’t know. I started loving you five years ago and the fire is still burning wildly… I don’t think it’ll stop. I can’t tame it.”

I smiled and hugged him as I feel my eyelids getting heavier and heavier.

“Mine, too, hubby.”

“Good night,” he whispered. “I love you, Seleira.”

“I love you, Azriel.”

Chapter 45

Final Chapter

This is the final chapter. Thank you for the support and everything. I hope you will never forget them. I hope that Seleira and Azriel will always have a special place in your hearts.

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Evermore

I never understand how people say love hurts. I didn’t even believe it. I didn’t even believe in love.

I used to have so many boys but I was never hurt. I was never in love. But when I started feeling things for Azriel, I understand them.

I understand how love can make you feel hurt. How love can shatter you into pieces. How loving someone can rip your heart into two.

You really can’t love without getting hurt. So if you know you’re already in love, get yourself ready for the pain, the heartbreaks, the sleepless nights, and everything. However, if the love is true, you’ll get through it together and it will make you stronger.

“Baby, tell me you love me, please…” Azriel said while doing something on his laptop. He is reviewing some business proposals.

He’s on the coffee table and he’s wearing his specs. Ako naman ay nakahiga lamang sa kama at naglalaro ng online games. This Among Us game is really addicting! I’m not a good liar so I always end up getting ejected quickly.

“Baby…”

“Hmm?” tanong ko at sinulyapan sya.

“You love me?” he asks, still looking at his laptop.

“Yes. I love you, hubby!” I said and giggled.

Napatingin sya sa akin at dinilaan ang kanyang labi. Bahagya pang ngumuso kaya nanggigil ako sa kanya. Dammit, my husband is so hot and cute at the same time!

“I love you more,” napapaos nyang sagot.

Ako naman ang kinilig. Agad akong tumalikod para itago ang namumulang mga pisngi.

“Baby, face here please. I can’t see you,” he demanded again. Natatawa akong umirap. Lahat na lang talaga ay gusto nya!

“Just do your work, Az,” I said, still busy with my game.

I heard him sigh heavily. “Please, baby… I love you. Do you love me? I want to see you while doing my work.”

Humagikhik ako dahil sa nararamdamang mga paruparo sa tyan. He’s really so demanding! Kulang na lang ay kumalong ako sa kanya habang nanggagawa sya dyan.

Humarap ako sa kanya habang nakahiga pa rin. Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin habang sya ay malambing lamang na nakatitig sa akin.

Hindi na sya ulit nagsalita at nag-focus na lamang sa ginagawa. Gusto nya lang na nakaharap ako sa kanya dahil siguro akala nya ay hindi ko sya binibigyan ng atensyon  kapag nakatalikod ako.

Azriel is a big baby boy.

It’s been weeks since Azriel’s extravagant proposal. The baby shower is all ready for next next week. Iyong kasal ay next year pa dahil ayokong malaki ang tyan kong maglalakad sa altar. Also, we can’t do honeymoon if my tummy is very very big already.

“Wife, I love you. Do you love me?” malambing nyang tanong muli.

He’s really like that after I told him I love him the very first time. Hindi na sya mapakali kung hindi ko sinasabihan na mahal ko sya. Halos kada limang-minuto ay tinatanong ako kung mahal ko ba sya!

“Oo nga, hubby! Paulit-ulit ka naman!” sabi ko at umirap.

“Ang sarap kasi,” dahilan nya.

Tumawa ako dahil sa mababaw nyang dahilan. Anong masarap doon? Hindi naman nya natitikman.

Last night, Tita asked if I want a bachelorette party. I immediately said yes! I mean, who wouldn’t? Gusto kong maranasan lahat ng mga ginagawa bago ang kasal.

Kaya’t eto at nagtetext muli sya para kumpirmahin. Tita organized the baby shower kaya sobrang smooth lang. Itong wedding ay tutulong din sya pati na rin sina Tito.

Also, daddy will attend the wedding and I am so happy about that. Sabi ni Anikka ay maayos na raw sya at nakakapaglakad so surely, maihahatid nya ako sa altar.

Ako:

I want to have a b party po. But I’ll ask Azriel first :)

Tita:

Oh sure! Although I have a very strong feeling he won’t agree. I’ll also invite some nice girls I know for you to be friends with.

Ngumuso ako at nag-isip ng i-rereply. Nice girl friends daw!

“Wife.”

Then those girls should be really nice. I am a nice woman, too. Although a bit picky, I’m still nice.

I know what they’re doing in bachelorette’s party. There will be men but I am not interested naman. I want to be there for the fun.

Gusto kong mapanood sina Sasa maglaro. You know, naughty games, dick cakes and many more!

“Wife?” pagtatawag ni Azriel. Tiningnan ko naman sya at natigil sya sa ginagawa at nakabusangot na.

“Why?”

“Who are you texting with?” he asks and stood up. He removed his specs and put it down the table. Isinarado nya rin ang kanyang macbook.

Umupo ako nang lumapit sya rito. Agad syang yumakap sa akin at hindi agad nagsalita. Pinaglaruan ko naman ang buhok nya dahil alam kong nagpapalambing lamang ito.

“I was texting with Tita,” I said softly.

“Didn’t she tell you to call her ‘Mom’?” he asks as he faces me. He gave me a quick kiss on the forehead, too.

“Naiilang ako… maybe someday, I’ll call her as that.”

He nodded. “What did she tell you?”

Hindi ako sumagot at ibinigay lamang ang phone sa kanya at yumakap. Hindi nakatakas sa akin ang pasimple nyang ngiti nang ilahad ko ang phone.

I rolled my eyes. Of course, I’m not hiding anything so I can freely give him that.

“Bachelorette Party?!” aggressive na tanong ni Azriel.

I laughed. “What? Mommy mo ang nag-alok sa akin! Pumayag naman ako syempre!”

He groaned dramatically. Tuwang-tuwa naman ako.

“Why the hell are you having a bachelorette party? That’s full of men, wife, am I not enough for you?!” inis na inis nyang tanong.

I laughed again. Ang OA talaga!

“Hey, listen!” I said and hold onto his shoulder. Natigilan sya at napatingin doon, agad na naapektuhan. Pero mabilis ding ibinalik sa akin ang naiinis na tingin.

“Bukod sa girl friends ko, Tita will be sending some nice girls, too! Don’t you like that? I’ll be having new friends?” I asked.

Mabilis ang paghinga nya ay supladong umiwas ng tingin.

“You can just meet.”

“No!Bachelorette is fun!” nanggigil kong sabi at hinalikan sya sa pisngi. Mas lalong bumilis ang paghinga nya at pasimple pang kinagat ang labi.

“No. I’ll be dead jealous. I know what happens to bachelorette parties!” akusa nya at hinawakan ang mga kamay ko sa kanyang balikat.

Kumunot naman ang noo ko at binawi ang kamay.

“What do you mean you know what happens to bachelorette parties?! Bakit, naging guest ka na doon?!” pagalit kong tanong.

Hindi pa sya nakakapagsalita ay mahina ko nang hinampas ang matigas nyang braso.

“You probably attended one, huh? Anong ginawa mo? Sit down there while the girl is licking your inner thigh?!” akusa ko. Agad tumaas ang iritasyon ko dahil sa mga naiisip.

“WHAT THE FUCK?!” Gulat at inis na inis nyang reaksyon.

“Bakit?! Hindi ba totoo?” I asked, starting to cry now. Napamura sya at agad akong niyakap pero kumakawala ako.

“Shut up, Azriel! Payagan mo kaming mag-bachelorette party!” Umiiyak kong sigaw.

“Dammit, I never attended one!” iritado nyang sabi pero iba naman ang kilos. Marahan akong niyayakap at hinahalik-halikan ang noo. Halos pakandungin na rin ako sa kanya.

“Talaga? Nagsisinungaling ka ata,” I cried.

“Hush, hush,” he said gently. Hinalikan nya ang pisngi ko at dinala ang ulo ko sa kanyang leeg.

“I never attended, I just know how things work there,” sabi nya habang patuloy sa pag-aalo sa akin.

Kumalma naman ako at yumakap lalo sa leeg nya. Inamoy-amoy ko sya at mas lalo pang sumiksik dahil sa mabango nyang amoy.

Ewan ko ba at naadik na ata ako sa amoy ni Azriel. I even think his scent is lingering on me.

“Really, hubby?” I whispered. Niyakap nya ang bewang ko.

“Yes.”

Umirap ako. “But still, I’m having my bachelorette party! It will be organized by your mom!”

He groaned again. Medyo napisil pa ako sa inis nya.

“Azriel!” tumili ako nang ihiga nya ako sa kama at patungan.

“I said no. Why are you insisting?! Those will be full of men and naughty games. Nagseselos ako!” walang-hiya nyang pag-amin.

Imbes na mainis ay natawa na lamang ako. Nagmura sya habang pinupunasan ang mga natuyo kong luha.

I pouted cutely. “But we love to have a bachelorette party.”

“Sasama ako.”

Hinampas ko sya at natawa. “No way! Meron ngang kasabihan, bawal daw makita ng bride ang groom for a month before ng kasal!” tuwang-tuwa kong sabi.

“No fucking way!” agresibo nyang sabi at niyakap ako. Ibinaon pa ang mukha sa aking leeg at pinatungan ng isang binti, ayaw akong pakawalan. “Hindi ako papayag!”

“Azriel-”

“Isang buwan? Tang inang kasabihan ’yan at tang ina rin ng kung sino mang nagpauso!” galit nyang sabi.

Hindi ko napigilan ang tawa ko. Hinampas ko pa sya sa sobrang tuwa ko.

“Crazy!”

“One month my ass. The fuck I’ll be doing without you?!” iritado nyang sabi at kinagat ang leeg ko nang mahina. Napadaing ako kahit na tumatawa.

“Maybe with your girls, huh?” akusa ko at lumayo.

He groaned. “I don’t have girls. I’m in love, whipped, and badly smitten to you, if you still don’t know, young miss.”

I giggled cutely.

“Mahal mo ba ako?!” medyo galit nyang tanong pero nangingiti naman habang naghihintay ng sagot.

“Hmmm?” I playfully asked. “Ano? Wala akong narinig!”

“I said do you love me?”

Kunwari akong kumamot sa tainga ko. “Ano? Wala akong narinig-”

Tumili ako nang kilitiin nya ako. I am laughing and he’s smirking but I can feel his irritation.

“Tell me you love me,” he demanded.

Hindi ako sumagot dahil abala sa pagtawa. He groaned again like a mad dragon or something.

“Baby!” he demanded again, but angrier this time. His low voice really sounds hotter whenever he’s mad. He stopped tickling and waited. Umangat din sya nang kaunti habang titig na titig sa akin.

“Say it. I love you, wife…”

I smirked. “I love…”

Nakakatuwa syang pagmasdan. Attentively waiting for the words he need to hear.

“I love… me, I love me!” Tumili ako muli nang kilitiin nya ako.

“Say it! You told me you love me!” sumbat nya. Tawang-tawa naman ako sa pagkiliti at sa inaakto nya.

Tumigil sya at naghintay muli. While looking at him, I feel a bit scared. His aura is getting darker and it feels like that if he won’t hear what he wants, he’ll end me.

“I love… I love cats,” I said and laughed.

Inis na inis syang binitawan ako at umayos ng upo.

“Kainis! Tang ina!” parang bata nyang sabi. Kunot pa ang noo at galit na galit ang tingin na akala mo ay may ginawang masama sa kanya ang sahig.

I laughed and I even clapped my hands. Ang sarap talagang asarin.

Bumangon ako at yumakap sa braso nya. Bahagya syang napatalon at sumulyap sa kamay kong nasa braso nya. Dumaan ang mga emosyon sa mga mata nya pero agad na supladong umiwas ng tingin.

Hinaplos ko ang matigas nyang braso. Bumigat tuloy ang paghinga nya.

Uh uh? He looks mad but he doesn’t push or stop me from doing this, huh?

“Azriel,” malambing kong tawag. “Papayagan mo naman akong magka-bachelorette party ’di ba?”

Hindi sya sumagot kaya patuloy kong hinaplos ang braso nya. Pinaghawak ko pa ang mga kamay namin.

Napansin kong unti-unting namumula ang tainga nya kaya naman mas pinag-igi ko pa.

“’Di ba, hubby? I love you, hubby… I love you. Mahal kita, Azriel,” I said sweetly while looking up at him.

Mariin syang napapikit at kinagat pa ang labi. Tuluyan na ring namula ang mga tainga nya. He groaned and cursed softly.

“Azriel?” I called sweetly. Let’s see if he’s still grumpy.

“Yes, baby?” agad nyang tanong gamit ang napapaos na boses. Akala ko galit ito? Tumawa ako.

“I love you!” I said happily.

“I love you more,” malambing nyang sabi at nagmura muli. Why is he cursing so many times!

“Let’s kiss, please…” he requested.

Dahan dahan nya akong inangat at pinaupo sa kandungan nya. Agad akong kumapit sa leeg nya habang sya ay hinapit ang bewang ko para mas mapaglapit pa kami.

He slowly tilt his head to kiss me. Shit, this is really addicting. His hot and gentle kiss makes me weak. Bumaba ang hawak ko sa t-shirt nya at nanghihinang kumapit doon..

He chuckled when he felt that his kisses got me weak.

“Hubby,” mahina kong tawag.

“Hmm?”

He’s now busy kissing my ears kaya napapabaluktot ako. I hugged his neck to get support from it.

“No bachelorette parties for you,” he whispered.

“But Azriel!”

“Well, you can. Only if I’ll be there and I’ll be your partner.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at umiling. “It’s not supposed to be like that!”

“Fuck rules. I make my own,” inis nyang sabi.

I laughed and shook my head. Nabatrip tuloy sya pero yakap yakap pa rin nya ako habang nasa kandungan nya.

Shit. Sayang at naka-t shirt sya. I’d love to feel and touch his warm chest and hot abs.

Nakakainis! Gusto ko ng bachelorette party just like every girl I know!

“Azriel, naka-oo na ako sa mommy mo!” I said, talking about the party.

He irritatedly shook his head and gave my forehead a kiss.

“Then should I have my bachelor’s party, too?”

Agad kumunot ang noo ko. Bachelor’s party?! Full of sexy women? Naughty games? Walang makakakita ng mangyayari doon!

The girls will maybe kiss him or give him a blow! Or a hand! And he’ll moan!

Agad nanubig ang mga mata ko. “What?! Bachelor’s party? Edi doon ka na!” Umiiyak kong sabi at umambang aalis.

Agad syang nataranta at hinigpitan ang yakap sa akin. Umiiyak na ako at mahina naman syang natatawa.

“What’s funny?!” galit na galit kong tanong. “Maybe, you love having your bachelor’s party! Para maraming mga sexyng babae!”

He cursed before burying his head on my neck. “Fuck that. I have no plan.”

“You just said!” sumbat ko.

“Hush, hush,” he said while smiling. Pinunsan nya rin ang pisngi ko at pinaghahalikan ang mga iyon.

Parang tuwang-tuwa pa sya, huh? Mas lalo akong nagliliyab sa galit.

“M-maybe you’ll love when… girls will give you a blowjob! And then they will beg for you to fuck them!”

Another set of tears fell. Napamura si Azriel at pilit akong pinaharap sa kanya.

“Stop your dirty words, wife!” inis at nandidiri nyang sabi. “Hush now, I won’t have any party.”

Tumahimik ako at tiningala sya.“Really?”

Seryoso syang tumango kahit na may multo naman ng ngiti sa kanyang labi.

“I’d rather spend my night with you than any party. Nothing can beat a night while cuddling with you in bed.”

Ngumuso ako tumahan. Mas tumahan pa ako nang halik-halikan nya ang buhok ko habang paulit-ulit na hinahaplos ang likod.

Wait, did I just acted unfair? Nagpupumipit akong magkaroon ng bachelorette’s party tapos ngayong sya ay umiiyak ako sa selos.

“Hubby,” I cried again.

“Hush, please,” he said gently and started planting soft kisses on my forehead now. Yumakap ako sa kanyang dibdib sa takot na maagaw sya ng iba.

“Hubby, I’ll just tell Tita to cancel it,” mahina kong sabi.

He sighed heavily. “I’m sorry, wife. I know I promised not to be controlling and not to stop you with your wants but… Not this. Hindi ko kayang naroon ka at puno ng mga lalaki.”

I nodded, truly understanding him.

What the hell is the sense of bachelor and bachelorette’s parties anyway? Nakakainis nga ang ganoon. Ikakasal ka na, makikipaglandian ka pa. Paano kung bigla kang ma-inlove doon?!

Wala pa namang pinipiling pagkakataon ’yan. Just like Azriel. He got smitten badly the very first time he saw me. However, I didn’t care about him. Sya lang ang may gusto.

I remember a quote mommy has said to me when she was still alive. I didn’t understand it when she first said it because I was too young but now, I already do.

She said, “Sometimes, Cupid runs out of arrows and only shoots one person instead of two.”

It just hit me now that it’s like what happened to me and Azriel before. That quote means a one-sided love.

“And

Seleira

, I hope you’re the person that didn’t get shoot. I don’t want you to run over a man.“

Everything makes sense now. Thank you, mommy. But the man who got shoot is the love of my life and I’ll… gladly run to him. Over and over again.

The next days pass by smoothly. We contacted my friends in Peloponese for my baby shower next week. However, dalawa lamang ang nakarating.

“Grabe! First time ko rito sa Manila!” Rea screamed happily.

Tumawa kami at sabay sabay nag-cheers ng aming mga baso.

“Ako rin! Mamamasyal muna tayo dahil next week pa naman ang baby shower!” sabi naman ni Sasa.

I actually feel sad na sila lang dalawa ang makakapunta sa baby shower. Ivan, Sean, and Strevan were all busy with their work. Sila lang naman ang mga lalaking kaibigan ko roon.

“Grabe, Lyra! Modelo ka nga talaga! Habang nasa daan, nagbibilang kami ng billboards mo!” Rea said happily.

I smiled. “Thanks.”

“Pinakapaborito ko iyong model mong bags! Ang gaganda!” Sasa said.

“Oh! I’ll give you both each. Marami ako noon at pumili lang kayo mamaya.”

Nagkatinginan sila. “Nako, huwag na! Gaga!”

“Bakit? Akala ko gusto nyo?” takang tanong ko.

“Bakit ang bilis mong mamigay?” Rea laughed. “Maarte ka lang talaga pero mabilis kang maloko kung sakali.”

Hindi ko naman sila naintindihan. Of course, I’m not easy to fool! Talagang mga kaibigan ko lang sila kaya gusto ko sila bigyan ng mga gamit ko.

“I want to give you bags. Don’t mind it,” I said.

“Iisang guest room lang ba kayo or paghihiwalayin?” tanong ko pa.

“Naku! Isa lang, Lyra! Nakakaloka at napakalaki ng bahay nyo rito!”

“Tsaka grabe, dalawa ang bata sa tyan mo! Puro lalaki pa! Siguradong naggagwapuhan ’yan, ipaasawa mo sa magiging anak mo, Sasa!” Rea joked.

We laughed but Sasa shook her head.

“Kung magkaka-anak akong babae, hindi-hindi sila pwede ng anak nitong si Lyra. Masyadong mayaman!”

Natigilan ako kahit na nagtawanan sila.

“Does it matter?” tanong ko.

“Huh?! Oo naman! Kung sakali, kawawa lang ang anak ko sa bash. Sikat at mayaman kayo, ano!” she said and laughed like it’s nothing. I just shrugged, too.

“Sya nga pala, asan ang asawa mo? Hindi pa kami nakakapagpasalamat sa van na sumundo sa amin.”

“Mamaya sya uuwi,” I said and smirked.

Naghagikhikan sila. “Teka, teka! I-kwento mo na sa amin ang proposal!” kinikilig na sabi ni Sasa.

I giggled, too before I started describing that perfect night. About the family dinner and then when we went to our suit.

I told them how pretty the room was. Romantic candles, expensive gifts, a lot of balloons, the design and everything!

“Grabe, nakakakilig! Nag-picture kayo? Grabe, Lyra! Nakakainggit! Sana ako rin ay makakilala na ng lalaki!” si Rea.

We laughed.

“Sakin, ayos lang si Ivan! Mabait naman at pursigido sa trabaho para sa future namin!” si Sasa naman na masaya.

“Oo, nagpicture kami, mamaya ipapakita ko!” I said. Ngumisi ako at dahan-dahang itinaas ang kaliwang kamay.

“This is the ring!”

Nanlaki ang mga mata nila at tinitigang mabuti ang kamay ko. Pagkatapos ay tumili sila at nagtatalon.

“Hala, ang ganda ganda! Sobrang kinang at mukhang totoong dyamante!”

“Of course, it’s real.”

“Ang swerte mo, Lyra! Hindi dahil dyan pero talagang mahal na mahal ka ng asawa mo! Sana ako rin balang araw!” Si Rea muli.

I laughed with Sasa. Rea is daydreaming to finally have a man. Sana nga dahil mabait naman sya. Iyong mabait sana at mapagmahal sa kanya.

We just watched movies in the movie room while Azriel is still out for work. Nang medyo dumilim na ay nasa pool na kami para mag-swimming.

“Salamat po!” masayang sabi ni Rea kay Linda. Linda together with the other maids brought many foods in the table.

Tinatanaw ko sila habang nag-sswimming dito sa pool. Naka-bikini na rin sila at ako rin, syempre. My baby bump is a bit bigger now and I find it really cute!

“Naku, may boyfriend po ako!” Rinig kong sabi ni Sasa kay Linda at tumawa.

Tumaas ang kilay ko at mukhang nagkakasundo sila. Rea then join me in the water. Sumakay pa sya sa isang salbabida at lumapit sa akin.

“Sexy mo!” puri nya at tinitigan ang katawan ko pagkatapos ay tumingin sa kanyang katawan.

“Medyo tumaba ako nitong mga nakaraang buwan. Piyesta eh!” she laughed.

“Piyesta ng ano? Saka umuwi si Strevan?” tanong ko at lumangoy papunta gilid para kuhain ang fruit juice na inilapag bago bumalik kay Rea.

“Harvesting na kasi kaya may piyesta. Ganoon doon taon-tao. Tsaka hindi na nakatira doon si Strevan ah. Simula ng umalis ka, isang buwan lang ata nag-Maynila na rin sya.”

I nodded. “Yeah. Nagkita kami ulit sa grocery nung mga nakaraang buwan ata. I’m not sure,” kibit-balikat kong sabi.

“Grabe ang iniyak ni Kayee noong umalis sya! Nagpa-asikaso agad sa tatay nya na mag-Maynila rin pero hindi pinayagan dahil may maliit silang negosyo do’n.”

Rea laughed and I laughed too even if it’s bad.

“By the way, may kasamang babae si Strevan,” I said.

Lumaki ang mga mata nya at agad na hinawi ang tubig para makalapit sa akin. Kumapit din ako sa salbabida nya dahil malaki naman iyon.

“Sino?! Paano?!”

“I don’t know! Basta maganda at mukhang inosente. I even thinks he likes her but he said she’s just eighteen,” I answered.

Tumili sya at hindi makapaniwala akonh tiningnan.

“Talaga ba? Ang bilis naman! Ano raw ang pangalan? Sayang! Akala ko talaga may kung ano sa inyong dalawa noon,” natatawa nyang sabi. Umirap ako.

Ewan ko ba at bakit ako nababanas ’pag iniisip ng mga taong may kung ano sa amin ni Strevan. I mean, like what I said, he’s handsome, tall and very respectful pero si Azriel lang talaga ang gusto at mahal ko.

“Hindi ko nga alam kung paano sila nagkakilala. Mabilis lang kami nag-usap dahil nagseselos si Azriel eh,” sabi ko at inilapag muli ang baso sa gilid ng pool.

Sinulyapan ko si Sasa at nakikipag-kwentuhan kay Linda habang nagtatawanan. Hmm, maybe I’m their topic!

“Hala… Kung disi-otso anyos lang, ang bata nga no’n para sa kanya! Bente-kwatro na si Strevan.”

I nodded. “He can wait ’til she grow up and be mature though. Knowing Strevan, he’s very patient and kind. Also, age doesn’t matter as long as none of them is a minor.”

Napatango-tango rin sya. “Sana lang ay mabait din para deserve nila ang isa’t isa.”

Umahon kami para kumain. I put some barbeque on my plate and some fresh pineapple slices. Tumutulo pa ang katawan namin but it’s okay since backyard naman ito.

“E ikaw, may boyfriend ka rin?” Linda asks Rea shamelessly. Nakangisi pa sya.

Rea coughed dramatically. Sasa and I both laughed because we knew she doesn’t have one.

“Si Sean!” pang-aasar ko at tumawa. I remember that thin guy. Mahangin at madalas na nagpapasikat sa akin.

’Yun nga lang, I don’t know if he’s just trolling or he really likes me.

“Hoy!” reklamo nya at mahina akong hinampas sa braso bago tumingin kay Linda.

“Wala po! Baka dito ako sa Maynila makahanap at makabingwit!”

We laughed at what she said. Well, Rea is pretty, too. She has a very nice skintone. Morena at makinis ang balat.

“Nako, tama ka dyan!” walang-hiyang sabi ni Linda. Umiling-iling na lamang ako. Linda is indeed a social butterfly.

“Kung magpunta ka sa bar at maghanap ng mayamang ka-one night stand, aba! Kung magustuhan ka ay hahabul-habulin ka! Bonus kung gwapo at bata bata pa!”

We all laughed at her. She’s so ridiculous! I wonder what is going on with her mind everyday. Parang hindi nauubusan ng mga kabalastugang ideya.

“Hala! Oo nga!” sunud-sunurang sabi naman ni Rea.

I just shook my head and took a bite on my pineapple.

Linda put a towel on me and made me sit on a monoblock. Inayos nya rin ang buhok ko dahil pumupunta iyon sa kinakain ko.

She’s always been like that. Very caring na kahit nasusungitan at nasisigawan ko sya ay wala lang sa kanya.

I’m trying my best not to be rude. Hindi ko nga lang maiwasan minsan dahil sa moods ko na sobrang iritado sa iilang pagkakataon.

“Sasa, magpunta tayo sa bar!” Rea said and laughed. Hindi makapaniwala ko syang tiningnan.

“Hoy!” saway ko at bahagyang natawa. “Kapag ikaw naanakan dyan, iyak ka talaga!”

She smirked. “Goal ko nga! Para may habol!”

Kumunot ang noo ko pero sumabay na rin sa tawanan nila. Ridiculous!

Nag-swimming kami muli at kumuha ng mga litrato. Nakakatuwang makasama sila ulit after several months.

Alas syete na nang dumating si Azriel. Wearing his usual black suit with his messy hair, he walked towards here and his eyes immediately found mine.

“Uy, ang gwapo ng asawa mo! Ayan na, lapitan mo na!” bulong-bulong ni Sasa.

I smirked and nodded.

“Halikan mo ah?” bulong naman ni Rea.

I blushed when Azriel held his hand for me. Kumapit ako sa kamay nya at umakyat sa pool stairs. Mas lalo akong namula nang naka-bikini lamang ako at tumutulo pa.

His eyes went down to my body and his jaw immediately clenched. Umiwas sya agad ng tingin at tila nagpipigil.

“I miss you,” he whispered and gave me a long kiss on the forehead.

“Hubby, basa ako…”

“Sir oh,” nakangising sabi ni Linda at inabutan ng towel si Azriel. Binalot ako ni Azriel at inangat ng kanyang kamay ang baba ko para sa isang maiinit na halik.

Ang sarap talaga ng mga halik nya. Gusto ko sanang kumapit sa leeg nya para palalimin pa ang halik pero narinig ko na ang hagikhikan ng tatlo.

I cut it off and smiled at him.

“I miss you,” pag-uulit nya. “I love you, wife.”

“I love you, Azriel,” I said sincerely.

His lips moved and he immediately look away. Kinagat nya ang labi bago tumingala saglit at tumingin muli sa akin.

“Really?” nakangiti nyang tanong.

“Yes, hubby. I love you. Are you tired?” I asked and my wet hands went to his tie.

“I love you more… Yes, baby, I’m tired, I need some cuddles,” napapaos nyang sabi.

Tumawa ako at mahina syang hinampas. Bumaba naman ang kamay nya sa basa kong tyan at hinaplos iyon.

Halos makalimutan nya nang may kasama kami!

“Oh, good evening,” pormal nyang bati sa dalawa.

Tumawa sila at tumango. “Good evening! Salamat pala sa pagpapa-sundo, sir!” Sasa said happily.

“Anong sir? Just call him ‘Azriel’!” I corrected.

“Ay, okay! Salamat! Masaya kami makakasama sa baby shower!”

They clapped their hands like seals.

What? Why did I even compare them to seals?!

Azriel nodded. “You’re welcome. Enjoy your stay,” he said. “Sa kwarto na muna kami.”

Kinunutan ko sya ng noo. “Anong kwarto? My friends are here kaya! We’ll be swimming for some more.”

Linda shrieked and laughed.

Azriel groaned and looked at me with tired eyes. “Please, baby…”

Umiling-iling ako at kumawala sa braso nya para lumapit sa mesa. Ininuman ko ang baso kong may fruit juice habang sumunod naman sa akin si Azriel.

“You’ll go back here, too. Just an hour for our husband and wife time, please… In the tub?” he suggested.

I chuckled. OA talaga! Ayan na naman ang “husband and wife time” na sinasabi nya.

“An hour? Tapos na silang maligo noon!” I said. Niyakap nya ako mula sa likod na nagpatili at tawa sa tatlo. Hiyang-hiya naman akong kumawala dahil basa ako at talagang PDA ito!

“Huy, Lyra, sige na! Hindi pa kami tapos maligo pagkatapos ng isang oras!” Rea said and laughed with her witchy voice.

“Totoo! Kahit alas dose ka na ng hatinggabi bumalik, andito pa kami!” paggatong naman ni Rea.

Tumawa ako umiling-iling. The girls are even on this brute’s side!

Azriel looked at me with soulful and begging eyes. Parang kahit anong iutos ko ay gagawin nya basta’t magpunta na kami sa kwarto.

“Please, wife… I’m tired. I need you.”

“You can just rest there, susunod ako,” Suhestyon ko.

He groaned softly as a sign of disapproval. “I need you in our room to cuddle and rest. Besides, I’m your husband.”

I rolled my eyes at the last sentence he said but I just end up laughing.

Sumama na lamang ako sa kanya at nangako kina Rea na isang oras lamang. I just need to cuddle this big baby boy because he’s tired.

He showered in the bathroom while nagpalit at nagpunas ako sa loob ng aking walk-in closet.

Nagsuot na lamang ako ng satin terno. Sleeveless at shorts na color red velvet. Paglabas nya ay naka-boxers na lamang ito.

His body is really too good to be true. Lalo na ang abs at jaw nya. The muscles and everything! Matangkad pa. He really looks smoking hot. An alpha male.

Humiga na sya sa kama habang ako ay naglalagay pa ng serum sa mukha. I looked at my tummy through the mirror. It’s really bigger now! Hindi ko lang mapansin masyado dahil araw-araw kong nakikita.

“Halika na sa kama…” he called with his low voice.

Tumaas ang mga balahibo ko at bahagyang kinilig. Are we going to do something? shiz, my friends are waiting I think.

“Baby, please…” pagod nyang tawag.

Naawa naman ako at pumunta na. Agad akong humiga sa braso nya ay niyakap nya naman ako at inamoy-amoy.

“Kumain ka na?” tanong ko at hinaplos-haplos ang buhok nya.

“Not yet, but I’m not hungry.”

Kumunot agad ang noo ko. “Tell me if you’re hungry, sasamahan kitang kumain sa kusina.”

Agad syang napangiti. Napapikit pa sya na tila kinikilig. Hinampas ko dahil para syang ewan.

“I want these,” he whispered and touched my breast. My eyes widened and immediately push his hand.

“Hubby!” natatawa kong reklamo. Ewan ko ba dyan at gustong-gusto ang dibdib ko kahit na hindi ganoon kalakihan. Lumaki lang nitong mga nakaraan but still, it’s not even an average size!

I usually just wear bralettes kesa sa mga bra which is an advantage to me dahil ang cucute ng mga bralette.

“Please, baby. I’m hungry,” reklamo nya. Nangungusap na rin ang mga mata nya.

“Edi kumain na tayo doon?”

“No,” he said. “These, please…” he said and touched it again.

I pouted as if it will hide the redness of my cheeks. Pakiramdam ko ay nakita nya iyon dahil napangisi sya at pinaghahalikan ang pisngi ko.

“Later, hubby.”

“Really?”

“Yeah. Bago matulog,” I said.

He bit his lower lip and nodded. Ngumiti pa sya at nag-iwas ng tingin.

“Can I sleep while feeling them, too?” he asks again. I chuckled and just nodded.

“Sleep early, too. We’ll have our cake-tasting tomorrow and also we’ll meet the wedding organizer.”

I nodded and giggled excitedly. This is really happening!

“Do you love me? I love you, wife,” naglalambing nyang sabi at sumiksik sa leeg ko. Ang laki laki ng katawan tapos pinagsisiksikan sa akin!

His arms is really my safest and comfort place. It feels warm and comfortable. It makes me feel so sleepy. However, babalikan ko pa iyong mga kaibigan ko.

I’ll just let Azriel sleep.

“I love you, Azriel,” I said and smiled. Humigpit ang yakap nya sa akin at pinatungan na ako ng binti.

This is what he likes—cuddles. Cuddle all night, or all day. Basta cuddles ay game na game sya.

Hinarap nya ako at hinalikan sa labi bago ako titigan.

“You’re the prettiest, Seleira.”

I blushed once again and this time, hindi ko na napigilan ang paghagikhik dahil sa kilig. He chuckled lowly, too.

Dati ay medyo iritado ako kapag nasasabihang maganda sa school. Pakiramdam ko kasi iyon lang ako.

Pretty and nothing else more.

That’s how people describe me back then. I felt hurt, of course, but a big part of me agrees with it.

I’m only pretty, I can’t cook, I can’t clean, I can’t do anything for the love of heavens!

That’s why I did my best to excel in school. My grades were high, but still… I was never praised for that. I was only praised because of my beauty.

Instead of being happy, that made me feel horrible.

I never settled for one man because I know that all they want from me is my face and the feeling of entitlement.

“Shit, pre, girlfriend ni Jackson si Farrah!”

“Putang- talaga?!”

“Swerte. Pangarap namin, girlfriend nya.”

As if those words will comfort me. It’s objectifying women like me.

Nakipag-break ako kaagad at naghanap ng pamalit. That’s the routine. No man made me content. Pakiramdam ko para akong trophy kung gilfriend nila ako. Tinitingala sila ng mga estudyante, basta malamang boyfriend ko.

Well, fuck that.

There were times when my boyfriend is not from the same campus of mine. Taga-kabila at mas matanda sa akin ng higit tatlong taon.

I find it more okay. Hindi kami madalas magkita kaya medyo sila ang tumatagal. Nagsasawa ako kaagad. Also, one thing I only like dating them is because I can enter their campus whenever there’s an event.

Lalo na noong naging boyfriend ko ang SSG president at saka iyong isang quarterback ng football team. Ang saya! I can watch them playing and also can attend on their events.

But still, I’m not content.

I still have the feeling that they’re using me for fame and entitlement. Especially in the time now na karamihan sa mga lalaki ay pagandahan ng girlfriend.

I was never content. Well, not at least I met Azriel.

Azriel made me feel that it doesn’t matter if I can’t do the duties of wife that the society has made. The sick gender roles, like what he called it.

There were also times where I feel scared because of growing old and still not settling down. Still a woman who changes boyfriends like clothes. Dagdag pa ang pang-aasar ni Tito sa akin!

Tito laughed evilly and said, “Baka naka-settle down na ako, ikaw wala pa rin ah?”

I rolled my eyes in a very annoyed way. “Shut up, Tito. Wala ka rin namang pinapakilalang babae pa, kaya don’t act like I’m getting left behind!”

He just smirked meaningfully na ikinainis ko pa lalo.

“At isa pa, mas matanda ka sa akin kaya ikaw ang matakot!” I added.

He couldn’t supress his laughter. Inis tuloy akong uminom sa aking baso.

Until Azriel came in my life. No, that’s a wrong word. Until Azriel barged in uninvitedly in my life.

When we were engaged, like what I said, he barged in our house. (But Daddy invited him this time.)

Marami akong mga manliligaw at kahit sa bahay meron. Nang magkaroon sya ng karapatan sa akin ay naroon sa bahay, sa bakuran at sya ang kumakausap sa mga lalaki.

“Who the fuck do you think you are?! Seleira is too much for you to handle!” rinig ko.

He’s in the gate, shouting at a man.

“I’m her husband.” I heard him say.

Tinanaw ko kung sino ang kausap nya. Umiling-iling na lamang ako dahil si Axel iyon. One of the freshmen na nag-confess sa akin noong foundation day.

“Didn’t you hear what I said to that boy? I said Seleira is getting married to me!” galit nitong sigaw.

He’s been there for hours, nag-aabang ng mga lalaking nagtatangkang manligaw.

“Lakas talaga ng tama nyan sa’yo, ano?” rinig kong sabi ni Tito sa likod ko. Kahit hindi nakaharap ay alam kong nakangisi sya.

“Pero in fairness, sya ang pinakagwapo at pinakamatangkad. Pinakamayaman din. I’ve experience meeting your suitors as sons of businessmen, but fuck, not this. Not the CEO in training, himself.”

I rolled my eyes. “I don’t care about the looks. Well, not that much. I feel like he’s a walking red flag, Tito.”

“You don’t care about the looks, but you do about the wealth, huh?” he teased. Mas lalo lang akong nairita.

“Duh. We’re be bankcrupt anytime now, Tito and you still have the audacity to laugh?”

He laughed again. “Whatever.”

Umiling-iling na lamang ako. Minsan talaga ay nakakairita si Tito.

“It’s not about the looks and the wealth,” he said again. “Then is it about the D?”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at nilingon sya. “What the fuck? Tito, you’re so- what the?!”

Natawa na lamang kami.

“You should check the D first, hija. Baka magsisi ka kapag hindi malaki, habang buhay pa naman kayong magkasama at wala ka nang kawala.”

Crazy! But he’s right though.

Also, of course, Azriel is fucking big. I feel so full whenever he’s inside me. Nasasaktan pa ako minsan because his size is really not a joke.

I went back to the present when Azriel groaned in his sleep. Nakatulog na pala sya at yakap na yakap sa akin.

He’s really tired. Hinalikan ko ang noo nya bago dahan-dahang bumangon. I need to go back to my friends in the pool. Inayos ko pa ang strap ng bralette ko dahil nagulo ito. He sucked it a while ago like a big baby hanggang sa makatulog sya.

Tinanggal ko ang braso nya sa aking bewang pati na rin ang binti nyang nakapatong sa aking hita.

Kaya lang, umungol si Azriel at hinanap ako sa kama. Umayos ako ng tayo sa gilid ng kama at pinanood sya habang mahinang natatawa.

His eyes are closed as he unciously find me in bed. He groaned when he didn’t feeling anything. Nakakaawa syang tingnan pero natatawa ako.

Umupo ako sa kama at agad syang sumiksik sa akin. Hinahanap pa nya ang ulo ko kaya humiga ako saglit. He kissed my forehead and buried his face on my neck to sleep again.

Sheez, how can I go back to my friends now?!

Naghintay ako ng ilang sandali bago bumangon muli. This time, he didn’t notice it.

Babalik din naman ako at magpapaalam lang sa dalawa.

When I went back to the pool ay nag-sswimming pa rin sila.

“Nilalamig na ako.” I heard Rea said.

Nakita nila ako at nagtawanan sila. “May nangyari?”

Umirap ako at umiling.

“Oh ba’t parang bad trip ka at wala?”

Inirapan ko sya at natawa. I actually want to but Azriel is tired. Kung hihilingin ko ay papayag naman sya pero pagod lang talaga sya ngayon.

“I can’t stay much, hinahanap ako ni Azriel kahit tulog sya. Linda, hatid mo na lang sa kwarto ah?”

“Yes, ma’am! Balikan mo na si Sir!”

Inirapan ko rin sya. “By the way, may lakad kayo bukas?”

“’Yun nga, napag-usapan namin gumala bukas,” Rea said.

“Do you need money?” tanong ko.

Agad silang nahihiyanh umiling.

“Naku, huwag na! May pera naman kami!”

“Please, just let me. Mas masayang gumala kung may pera kayo,” I insist. “Linda, just give them money, too. 10K or 20K. Kuha ka na lang sa drawer.”

Tumango-tango naman si Linda. Actually, Linda is the only one who we trust with the access of our cash drawer.

“Hala, Lyra, grabe naman!”

“Huwag na!”

Umiling-iling ako. “Hindi ako makakasama. May cake-testing kami bukas for the wedding.”

They nodded happily. I waved to bid my good bye and smiled at them.

“Bye! Good night!” I said gracefully.

“Bye, Lyra! Bukas na lang!”

“Salamat!!”

I went back to the room and my husband is hugging my pillow. Tinanggal ko naman iyon at ako ang pumalit.

Agad syang sumiksik at pinatungan ako ng kanyang binti. I put my head on his chest and I already feel so sleepy.

“Good night, Azriel. I love you.”

Umaga na nang magising ako. Nagising ako dahil sa katabing humahalik-halik sa akin at hinahaplos pa ang tyan ko.

“Good morning,” he greet using his husky bedroom voice.

I looked at him and he gave me a soft kiss. Nahiya ako dahil naligo na pala sya pero nakaboxers pa rin sya.

“Good morning, hubby,” sabi ko naman sa maliit na boses.

“Your uncles are already downstairs. Your friends told me to tell you they’re going out to stroll around the city,” he explained.

“The cakes are there?” I asked. Nagpa-home service kasi kami ng cake tasting so the cakes will be here today.

“On their way.”

I nodded. “Okay. Halika na.”

Umamba akong tatayo pero agad nya akong nahila pabalik sa kanyang dibdib.

“Mamaya na. Kakagising mo lang.”

“So? Kaya nga mag-aayos na?”

“I know. But I want to feel you first.”

Umiling-iling na lamang ako habang mahinang natatawa. Adik talaga ang isang ’to.

Sana lang ay mag-enjoy sina Sasa at nagamit nila ang pera. It’s not fun to just window-shopping! I never do that. Palagi akong bumibili at hindi lamang tumitingin.

“Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah you fucking with this wet ass pussy-”

I laughed when Azriel covered my mouth. Pinatungan din nya ako ng binti habang mahigpit na niyayakap.

“Bring a bucket and a mop for this wet ass pussy,” pagkakanta ko pa. Tinatakpan nga lang ni Azriel ang bibig ko.

“Ano ba?! I’m singing here!” natatawa kong sabi.

He groaned. “Stop it,” he said with his low bedroom voice.

“Give me everything you got for this wet ass pussy!”

He chuckled but he squeezed me. Tumili ako at mahina syang hinampas.

I’m so into Cardi B’s song WAP. The beat is really nice although the lyrics are very sexual. It’s okay for me, though.

I grabbed my phone to play that song. Azriel just groaned and hugged me tighter. Binaon pa ang mukha sa aking leeg at bumulong ng kung ano ano.

Pinaglaruan ko na lamang ang buhok nya habang nakikinig sa kanta. Napangiti ako nang makita ang pangalan ko sa braso nya.

I always have the nicest view in the world. Moreno skin tone. Toned muscles. Strong arms and thighs. Perfect jaw. The big bakat in his boxers. And of course, his perfect abs.

Hinimas ko tuloy ang abs nya.

“Fuck, you’re not helping, wife. I told you I’m erect every morning. You’re even singing that song!”

I just laughed. “It’ll pass, don’t worry,” I said sweetly.

Sungit nito.

I just opened my camera while the song is still playing.

“Hi, good morning…” I said to the camera while taking a video.

I headbang softly because of the beat of the music.

“Hubby, mag-hello ka sa camera,” I said, laughing. Hindi sya sumagot at mas niyakap lamang ako.

I blushed when I felt his member on my thighs. It’s very hard!

“I don’t cook, I don’t clean, but let me tell you I got this ring!” sinabayan ko ng kanta ang tugtog saka ipinakita sa camera ang kaliwang kamay ko na kung nasaan ang aming engagement ring.

Azriel chuckled which made his shoulder move. Tumawa rin ako at tinigil na ang video.

Is that song for me? I don’t cook, I don’t clean, but let me tell you I got this ring! The pick me girls just died.

“I love you,” he said and faced me.

Hindi ako sumagot at nagkunwaring abala sa cellphone. He groaned in annoyance. Pinigilan ko ang matawa. OA talaga!

“Wife!” he demanded.

“Hmm?” patay malisya kong tanong.

Nagmura sya at isinubsob muli ang mukha sa aking leeg.

“I love you… I said,” he repeats.

“Thank you.”

He groaned again, more aggressive this time.

“Seleira!” inis na inis nyang tawag. Palihim akong natawa. Tiningnan ko sya at namumula ang pisngi sa inis.

“Ano? Tara, maghanda na tayo-”

“FUCK!” mura nya. “I said I love you!”

Ginulo nya ang buhok nya na parang bata. Frustrated din ang kanyang itsura.

“Thank you-” tumili ako nang kilitii nya ako. I laughed and tried to push his playful hands away from my waist.

“I love you, I love you, I love you, wife…” he said, smirking.

Hindi naman ako makasagot dahil natatawa. Nabadtrip sya muli pero tuloy pa rin sa pagkiliti sa akin.

“P-paano ko masasagot?!” natatawa kong tanong. “Nakikiliti ako!”

“Fine,” he said and stopped tickling me.

“I love you, baby,” he said sincerely and waited for me to talk.

“Thank you-”

Muli akong napatili at natawa nang kilitiin nya ako muli. He buried his face on my neck and he chuckled, too.

“You, playful witch…” he whispered.

“Stop it!” I said while laughing. He stopped and I looked at his handsome morning face. Pinunasan ko rin ang gilid ng mata ko dahil lumuha ako kakatawa.

“Say it!” naiinis nyang sabi muli.

I pouted and shook my head. “Ang ano? Parang wala naman akong matandaan ah?” I teased.

Napadaing ako nang mahina nyang kagatin ang leeg ko sa inis nya. Nakakatuwa talaga sya. Para syang bata minsan.

“You told me you love me!” sumbat nya.

Kumunot ang noo ko kunwari. “Huh? Wala naman akong sinabing ganoon-”

I shrieked when he started tickling me again. Kahit nakangisi sya ay ramdam kong naiinis na sya.

“Uh uh… I love you… Kuya Azriel,” I teased.

He groaned and punched the his pillow. I laughed because of how cute he is. I thought he’s erect? Nakakalimutan nya talaga lahat tuwing gusto nyang sabihin kong mahal ko sya.

“Please, baby…” he said weakly. “Tell me you love me please… I think I’ll die.”

Natawa akong muli at hinampas sya. Napangisi naman ang loko. Ang drama talaga!

“Really?” I asked playfully.

“Yes, I need those magic words of the prettiest witch for me to be alive…”

I smirked.

“What else?” I asked.

Hinaplos nya naman ang tyan ko. “And my babies with her, of course.”

Ilang beses ko pa syang inasar kaya inis na inis tuloy sya. Umagang-umaga ay bad trip. Of course, nilambing at sinabihan ko naman ng gusto nyang marinig kaya ayos na.

We just need to get ready because a maid said that the cakes are here. Actually, hindi ko alam na pwede palang home service ang cake-tasting.

Pagkatapos namin kumain ng minimal breakfast ay nag-proceed na kami sa pagtikim ng cakes.

“Hmm, mas gusto ’yung nauna,” I said and put my fork down after eating a small piece of cake.

“But that contains too much chocolate, Seleira!” reklamo ni Tito sa tabi ko na tumitikim din. Si Tito Hiro naman ay tahimik lang na nakaupo sa tabi nya. Nakaakbay din sya sa sandalan ng inuupuan ni Tito.

“It’s okay, Tito! I like sweets,” giit ko.

Azriel kissed the side of my forehead while he’s patiently sitting beside me. Napatingin tuloy ako sa kanya.

“Just get it both,” he said in his usual low voice.

We are cake-tasting for our wedding. Marami at iba iba ang disenyo’t laki ng mga cakes na narito sa mesa. Tito is here to help us pick.

“I mean, the main cake will be this,” I said, pouting.

Umirap si Tito pero hindi na nagsalita. He’s acting so picky, this isn’t your wedding, mister!

There will be a lot of cakes in our wedding. We haven’t tasted it all but I know it will taste great. They’re very expensive!

We didn’t taste test the cupcakes and other foods because the wedding stylist has texted that she already entered the village.

Azriel stood up and lend a hand to me. Agad ko iyong kinuha para tumayo. Nilingon ko naman sina Tito at Tito Hiro na nanatiling nakaupo.

“Linda, just lead the wedding stylist to the study room. Mauuna na kami ng asawa ko,” Azriel said.

“Titikim pa kayo?” tanong ko kina Tito.

“Yeah,” he answered.

Tumango ako at sumunod na kay Azriel.

Pinagbuksan nya ako ng pinto atsaka kami dumiretso sa isang mesa. The chirping birds are even heard here. They maybe made a new nest near the window.

Imbes na umupo ako sa upuan ay pinaupo ako ni Azriel sa kandungan nya. Hinaplos nya rin ang tyan ko.

“Hubby, darating na yung stylist,” sabi ko at tumayo, mabilis nya nga lang akong niyakap.

“Hubby!” saway ko muli.

“What?” painosente nyang tanong kaya inirapan ko.

“’Yung stylist, baka madatnan tayong ganito ang ayos!”

“So? Mag-asawa naman tayo.”

Kinurot ko na sya agad. “Kahit na!”

He just chuckled. Tuwang-tuwa lagi iyan kapag nangungulit. Kung inaasar naman kahit kaunti ay halos magwala.

“You love me?” he asks.

I nodded and smiled. “Yes. I love you, hubby,” I said sweetly and kissed him.

Agad syang napangiti kahit na pinipigilan nya. The only thing he can’t control is when his ears are turning red.

Nang may kumatok ay umayos na ako ng upo sa upuan ko. We then stood up to greet Ms. Hazel, whom is the wedding organizer and she’s with another woman whom I think is her stylist.

“Good morning, Mr. and Mrs. Nickolson,” she greets.

“Good morning!” masigla kong bati. “Have a seat!”

They smiled and nodded. Umupo sila sa tapat namin at inilapag ang laptop at folders na hawak. Azriel fixed my chair at inalalayan akong umupo.

While they’re asking questions like themes, designs, what kind of flowers… I feel like I’m in a cloud nine. This has always been my dream.

To have a grand and elegant wedding and to marry the love of my life.

“Number of guests po?” she asks while her assistant is very busy with the laptop.

“Hubby?” pagbaling ko kay Azriel. He’s already looking at me while his hand is on my thighs.

“Fifty?” I asked although I find that very small.

“No,” he answered. “People I know in business should attend. They’re a lot of people.”

I licked my lips and nodded. “Should I invite my co-models? Oh! The kind staffs, I want to invite them!”

Azriel smiled, “You should.”

“A thousand people, will that be okay?” seryosong tanong nya sa organizer.

“Oh! Yes, sir. Then the food will be adjusted as well,” she says while scanning her folder.

A while ago, we listed a lot of foods. So many that they also helped us thinking.

“For photographers, I want the highest-paid ones. Get the media, too,” Azriel added.

A part of me is so excited but also worry about the money. This will cost millions! Which I think is just coins for him. However, I’ll help paying. I also have a lot of money in my bank account.

“Yes, sir…” the assitant said as she types on her laptop.

The wedding will be held on one of the largest church in the country. It’s good, too, that a resort is just a few blocks from it. The resort is very big and Azriel said that we’ll rent it for the Reception.

“For my wedding gown… I’m flat chested, what design can you suggest?” I asked.

Azriel’s hand then crawled to my waist. Pinagdikit pa nya lalo ang mga upuan namin.

“Hmm… Cassidy, patingin mo kay ma’am ’yung designs for small bust sizes,” she said to her assistant. Bumaling muli sya sa akin.

“To be honest, ma’am, you’re very very pretty so you don’t need big boobs to draw attention. However, you can just choose a body part to highlight instead na chest area. It can be your shoulders, back, or legs.”

I pouted and started thing of it. Ipinakita sa akin ang iilang designs. They’re really pretty kahit na drafts pa lamang.

“Hindi pa ako makapili. I need time. Can you send them to my email instead? I’ll think about it overnight.”

She smiled and nodded. I typed my email address so she can send the file to me.

For my dress in the reception, I’ll choose three. Of course, these will be easier to wear than the actual wedding dress.

“Azriel, is it okay if my third dress will have a high slit? It’ll expose my left leg,” sabi ko at tumingin sa kanya.

He shamelessly kissed the side of my forehead. “You can wear whatever you want, wife. Fuck people who sexualize clothes.”

I giggled. “Alright!”

Ilang oras pa kaming nag-usap bago matapos. Pero hindi pa rin tapos. Marami pa ring kailangan pag-usapan.

“Thank you, Ma’am, Sir. Balik po kami next next month,” the organizer said. We nodded and guide them downstairs.

“Thank you!” I said.

The wedding planner will arrive next month pa dahil galing syang ibang bansa.

I watched them ride their van. The maids are very busy dahil maraming staff na narito sa bahay.

Hinila ko si Azriel papunta sa dining room. Naroon sina tito na tumitikim-tikim pa rin.

“You done? Ito masarap, I swear!” Tito said and pointed a pink cake.

Tumakbo ako at excited na pumunta doon.

“Seleira!” inis na tawag ni Azriel. Pumwesto sya sa likod ko at agad ipinulupot ang kamay sa aking bewang.

“Pahiram,” sabi ko at kinuha ang fork ni tito. Tinikman ko iyon at napatango-tango.

Masarap nga! I mean, hindi masyadong matamis tulad ng una kong napili. And it’s color pink!

“Yes, I like this!”

The staff listed it down. I want it as the main cake.

“Nakapili ka na ng gown?” tanong ni Tito. Tiningnan ko naman si Azriel na kausap na ngayon si Tito Hiro.

“Hindi pa, but I’ll choose later.”

“Don’t choose something na gawa na. Magpa-personalize ka,” he said.

Napaisip ako. “Really?”

“Yes! Para mas maganda!”

I pouted and nodded. Mas maganda nga. I’ll talk to the stylist again.

Buong araw kami nag-aasikaso at nagpplano. Noong tanghali ay dumating sina Pearl. She told me that the articles has now spread. The news of me being pregnant. Sya lamang ang nag-painterview dahil busy kami rito.

She told me that I was trending on twitter and other social media platforms, but not because of negativity, but positivity.

Dumating din sina Tita noong tanghali kaya busyng-busy ang buong mansyon. A whole bunch of Wedding Planners is in the house.

“Grabe! Excited na ako para sa iyo!” Rea said.

Halos hindi ko pa sya marinig dahil malakas ang speaker ng tugtog.

After everything (although hindi pa rin tapos i-organize ang kasal), ay nagkaroon kami ng mini-pool party dito rin sa mansyon kinagabihan.

Hindi problema ang space dahil malaki talaga ito. May inuman at nagkakasiyahan ang lahat.

“Cheers to Mr. and Mrs. Nickolson!” Tito said and laughed.

Everyone raised their wine glasses and shout, “Cheers!”

Naghiyawan din sila at nagpalakpakan na akala mo’y kasalan na talaga. I laughed because of how happy I am.

Ang mga staff na tumulong sa amin ay nagkakasiyahan din habang nag-iinuman. Tito, Tito Hiro, and Tita are having fun. Rea and Sasa got along pretty well with Pearl. While Adam and Hope are still teasing each other. The maids are dancing with the song playing.

I wipe the side of my eyes. There’s a few tears there. Nakakatuwa. Sobrang saya ng puso ko.

Isang mainit na yakap ang naramdaman ko mula sa likod. Sumandal ako kaagad kay Azriel at dinama sya.

“Are you tired?” he whispered.

Hinalik-halikan nya rin ang buhok ko. “Don’t cry. I love you.”

“I’m just so… I’m so happy…” hindi ko na napigilan ang paghikbi. Mabuti na lamang at malakas ang tugtog.

Pinaharap nya ako at pinunasan ang pisngi ko. Hinalikan nya rin ang noo ko at hinapit pa lalo sa kanya.

“Me, too. I never felt so happy without you. You make me happy and alive, wife. I don’t know what to do without you…”

Mas lalo akong umiyak. I heard him chuckle although nakita kong kumikislap na rin ang mga mata nya. He’s crying out of joy, as well.

“I love you, too, hubby. Ikaw lang… I’ll never love anyone romantically beside you.”

Napapikit sya at tila dinama ang sinabi ko. Pagdilat nya ay mukha na syang nanggigil.

“I love you more. I’ve always been in love with you… I waited for this so much. Thank you for making me the happiest man, Seleira. I’ll be loving you until my last breath. I’ll be with you and our babies for evermore.”

I smiled and felt so touched. Naghiyawan sila nang halikan nya ako sa harap nila. Mas lalo lumakas ang hiyawan nang buhatin ako ni Azriel.

“Let’s go to our room,” he said huskily.

Tumatawa ako habang nakahawak sa balikat nya. He smiled at me with fresh tears in his eyes.

Here is the man that I love and the only man I’ll love.

They say love hurts.

And I say, yes, it hurts indeed.

But you just have to choose the right person. The one who is willing to face storms and rainbows with you. The one who knows you very well. The one who will love you despite of your imperfections. The one who will change and grow together with you.

My heart chose Azriel and it will keep on choosing him over and over again.

To the love of my life, Azriel, I love you and I swear to the gods of olympus, to the gods of the sky and land, to the gods of love, destiny and fortune, I will continue to love you until my very last breath. I will love you for evermore.

EPILOGUE

Azriel’s

I can’t find any words to describe her other than my angel.

••••

My life is very dark. Black and dull. Plain but quite nice. I used to like it that way.

Work, girls, sex, pleasure, alcohol, and money. Those are what makes my life whole. Those are all that matters to me and nothing more.

I have many girls. Big boobs, butts, small waists, pretty faces, money, and everything, you name it. But I don’t like any of them. I’ve never had someone whom I see my future with.

My world turned upside down the moment I met Seleira. One glance and I knew I’m screwed. I knew I’m gonna be dead smitten.

I know very well what the consequences will be, especially because of the fact that she hates me. But I still risked it.

I was never a risk taker. Everything I do is precisely planned. I know and I’m always sure of the outcome and if not, I always have a plan B. From my studies to business, everything is planned.

The only risk I did is to pursue Seleira wholeheartedly. And I will never regret it. Loving her is the best thing I’ve ever did and I still do until now. I love her. Always have, and always will.

Seleira is the highlight of my life.

I’ve always been in love with her. Always been thirsty for her attention and care. Seleira made me feel the feelings I’m not familiar about. She made me feel things. She made me feel the butterflies. She colored my world.

One thing I can never stand is how scared she was when I first got angry with her when we’re already married. Her eyes went larger and she stepped backwards like a scared kitten.

My poor baby. She maybe thought I’ll hurt her.

I will never hurt her. You can call me the most ruthless man but I will never hurt my wife. Hinding-hindi ko sya pagbubuhatan ng kamay.

Kaya naman nang tumawag sa akin ang isang maid habang nasa trabaho ay halos mawalan ako ng ulirat.

“Sir, si ma’am po, sinugatan ang sarili nya gamit ang vase! Dumudugo po ang braso nya!”

I left everything in the office even if it’s about the most important projects. Franco Cortez interrupted me but fuck! Everyone needs to fuck off because my wife is hurting herself.

“Get the hell out of the hallway!” My voice boomed the entire hall. The employees quickly run to the side.

It’s supposed to be thirty minutes before I got home, but I made it on seven.

Binalibag ko ang pinto ng kotse at inihagis ang susi sa guard. Tumabi ang mga maids sa dinaraanan ko kaya mabilis akong nakaakyat sa kwarto.

Halos kapusin ako ng hininga sa galit. Pakiramdam ko ay kayang-kaya kong pumatay ng kahit sino ngayon sa sobrang galit at pag-aalala ko.

“FUCKING HELL!” I shout angrily as I open our door.

The maids jumped in fear. My angry eyes quickly looked for my wife.

There she is… at the corner of the bed, hugging her knees like a scared kid.

I closed my eyes to suppress the feeling. There’s this feeling that whenever I see her, I just want to hug and kiss her. She’s so pretty and soft.

Damn it, get a grip of yourself, Danzel. You’re supposed to be mad.

Nagmamadaling tapusin ng mga maids ang kanilang nililinis na mga bubog para makalabas na.

“H-hey, dito lang kayo-” she said using her soft voice. Damn it.

“GET OUT!” I yell impatiently.

I couldn’t control how angry I am again. I had a glimpse of her wounded arm which makes me angry and worried.

She closed her eyes in fear when I shout. I immediately felt bad but the anger inside me couldn’t be tamed… well, unless she kiss me.

When the maids went out, I closed the door and started walking towards her. I can feel my face heating up because of anger.

Meanwhile, she looks up at me with her puppy and soulful eyes. I closed my eyes for a second to remind myself I should be mad.

When I opened my eyes, she’s already pouting. Putang ina.

“What the hell did you do, woman?!” Pagalit kong tanong. Yumuko sya at hindi sumagot.

Shit. It’s really so hard to be mad at her. How can I be mad with my baby? She’s a small feminine woman with a very pretty face and voice. She looks so innocent but she has the darkest plans. She hides it all behind her sweetness.

And here I am, a dumb fucked-up man that will literally do anything she would say. I’ll fucking simp for you until my last breath, Seleira.

“Let me see!” I demanded, trying hard to sound mad when in reality, I am already melting.

“I-it’s nothing,” she said softly while pouting.

“Let. Me. See.” Madiin kong utos. Let me see how bad you did to yourself.

Dahan dahan nyang inilahad ang kamay nya sa akin. I hold it tight and I closed my eyes problematically.

“Putangina.” Hindi ko napigilang magmura. It’s bleeding and the skin around it is very pink.

Para akong mauubusan ng dugo sa nakikita. She’s bleeding and she does nothing about it but to be cute!

That was not the first time. She had her worse when she jumped from the window and almost broke her knees.

I fired everyone. Dumb guards and maids, they were supposed to do their work and yet, this pretty lady still fooled them.

Fuck you, Danzel. She can fool everyone and you are in her number one list. Fucking simp. Hypocrite.

I remember vividly how my system stopped the first time I saw her. It was an evening in a business event.

After giving my speech, I put my ass to my seat plainly. I’m just standing whenever people approach me. Fake a smile for the photos the media is taking.

When I sat down again, a woman sat next to me. I immediately looked at her familiar boobs. Damn huge.

“After party? My place?” she asked sexily. I sighed heavily and drank the remaining wine from my glass.

“I’m not interested with you anymore, Veronica,” I said in a very boring tone.

No woman could ever satisfy me. No one has ever turned me on so much. No woman made me run after her. They’re all the same.

She groaned. “I’m not Veronica! I’m Pia!”

Umiling-iling ako at hindi na nagsalita.

“Why?” she asks again when I didn’t speak. “Have you found someone with larger boobs?”

Fuck! This is so problematic. I hate dramatic women. I just want the sex, after that, fuck off.

“Stop being dramatic,” I said seriously. She was about to speak again but I stared at her grimly. She stopped and got scared.

I stood up, finally ready to leave the place.

I was just about to walk in the exit, when I see this girl in red.

I don’t know how she got my attention when she’s only busy dipping marshmallows to the chocolate fountain. She ate it and she giggled… cutely. Fuck, what?

My heart started beating crazily. What the hell is this?

She has this fair skin that complements her red dress. Her dress hugged her body perfectly. She has the right curves except her small chest. Her hair is in a high ponytail, making her jaw, shoulder and neck visible.

And her face is probably the most beautiful part of her body. She looks so innocent. She’s very feminine and small. Her small red lips feels like it’s calling me.

I swallowed hard. I touched my left chest, feeling my heart that is beating abnormally.

Tumingin ako sa paligid at natantong hindi lamang ako ang nakatitig sa kanya. Agad umusbong ang galit sa loob-loob ko. Ang mga gagong ’to.

She’s drawing too much attention just by eating marshmallows with chocolate.

I build myself up before trying to walk near. I stopped when a man approached her. She smiled at him and even gave him some marshmallows.

My eyebrows immediately furrowed and an unfamiliar greedy feeling rose from within. I clenched my jaw while watching them.

The man is young. Early 30s I think, but he looks younger than that. He’s tall, mascular, and has a passing face for being considered handsome.

“Tito Glassifer, it’s masarap!” She said with a very sweet voice.

I sighed in relief. It’s her uncle, what the fuck you are thinking, Danzel?! And why do I act like this?

Umupo ako sa isang gilid at ginawa ang lahat para hindi nya mapansing tinititigan ko sya.

“Mr. Nickolson!”

Tumayo ako muli para kausapin ang mga kasyoso sa negosyo pero ang mga mata ko ay nanatili sa kanya.

Nalingat ako saglit at wala na sya. Puta.

I felt nervous and I don’t know why. I’m afraid I won’t have a glance of her again.

I left them and avoided the people who wants to talk to me. Gulong-gulo ang sistema ko at para akong mababaliw sa isiping umuwi na sya nang hindi ko man lang nakakausap.

I then saw her at the terrace of the building, alone. She’s watching the night sky with a wine glass on her hand. I wonder how soft it is and how does it feel to touch them.

Pinilig ko ang ulo ko dahil sa kung ano-anong naiisip.

I went near her and she jumped in shock. Halos mabaliw ako sa naramdam ko. Fuck, that’s the first time she had a reaction for me.

“You scared me!” she said in a bit higher pitch. Napahawak pa sya sa dibdib.

I find myself smiling while staring at her. Her eyes are wide open as well as her red seductive lips. She’s so pretty. Too pretty to be true.

“I’m sorry,” napapaos kong sabi.

She stopped for a bit when she heard my voice. I cleared my throat and look away.

Damn it. I should stop staring at her but I just can’t.

I felt her staring at me, criticizing my every feature. I know how handsome I am but having her staring at me just feels different.

In my mind, I am composing conversations that I can use to start one. Damn, I never do this. It’s always the women who thinks for the topic because I barely talk.

“I have to go,” she said which made my heart sank. I know I’m being dramatic but it literally feel like it sank.

“Wait,” I said and looked at her gently.

She stopped and looked at me again using her mesmerising eyes, waiting for me to talk.

“What’s your name?” I asked eagerly.

Her sexy red lips opened for a bit. She’s so freaking beautiful. I’ve never been this attached so quickly to someone.

“Seleira.”

And that was our first meeting. Of course, I wasn’t contented with that.

“Look at the guest list last Saturday. Find the Seleira in it,” utos ko sa aking sekretarya, isang umaga.

Ms. Mudanza looked at me and smiled erotically. “Why, sir?”

Agad na kumunot ang noo ko. “The fuck you asking for?! Do it because I said so!”

Good, she got back to her senses. She nodded nervously. “Y-yes, sir. Right away.”

After meeting her, I never felt in peace again. Every second, all I remember is her red lips that seems like seducting me even if she’s just talking.

Kahit gabi ay hindi ako pinapatahimik nito. Seleira

. What a unique name. I never met someone whose name is Seleira.

I read the email Miss Mudanza sent me.

Name: Seleira Farrah Age: 17 From: Farrah Company Course and school: BS PHYSICS - UST MANILA.

And the rest is her public information.

Agad kong nasapo ang noo ko. Putang ina. She’s a fucking minor!

But it didn’t stop me. I started going to her school and watch her walk. As she walk, the necks are breaking while watching her.

There’s really something with the way she walk. It’s like she treats the road as a runaway. Everything she wear looks good on her.

Even if she’s just wearing a simple shirt and pants, she still get so much attention. I checked her background information and she’s not a model, but I really think she is. She makes every cloth beautiful. If she’s going to be a model, she’ll be successful for sure.

Natigilan ako sa sariling naisip. Model? Her? Then she’ll get more attention, more fans, more love to receive especially from boys.

Ngayon nga ay napakadami ko nang lalaking namimigay ng kung anu-ano sa kanya, ano pa’t maging modelo sya?!

Mababaliw ako. She’ll get more options to choose from and I’ll be just one of them.

Fuck. I need to win her.

I need to earn more money. I need to earn my own money and not just depend on my parent’s.

“Danzel, you are stalking a damn minor!” My father’s voice boomed in the four corners of my room, one night.

I closed my eyes and let out a heavy sigh. I know that, but fuck. I don’t think I’ll stay sane if I won’t see her even just once a day.

“I know. She’s turning eighteen-”

“As if that will justify your act, you pedophile!”

I know that, too. Tang ina. Isang taon na lang naman. Ilang buwan na lang.

“Maxim, it’s fine. As if you don’t know him? He’ll just be like that for days,” my mother said in her usual voice.

I stood up and towered the both of them. I’m twenty-two but I’m now inches taller than my father.

“Our son is clearly just lusting over that kid-”

“I am not just lusting over her!” galit kong sigaw. Hindi ko nagustuhan ang sinabi ng sariling ina.

“Do not shout at us!” My father angrily said.

Huminga ako nang malalim upang makontrol ang sarili.

“I am not just lusting over her,” I repeat, more calmly now. “I’ll marry her one day.”

“What the fuck are you thinking?!”

My father was about to throw me a punch but my mother quickly get inside. Umismid lamang ako bago lisanin ang kwarto kahit na tinatawag ako.

I put my ass to work to provide for my needs. Heck, I won’t live in that damn house together with my parents. That’s suffocating. And also, I want to spoil Seleira with my own money. I want to buy her whims and wants.

I am currently the CEO in training. Unfortunately, my cousin isn’t very happy with that.

“We are on the same age, so why can’t I take over the top place?!”

I watched his veins almost showing themselves as his face turn bright red out of anger. I smirked and looked at him mockingly. Pinaikot ko rin ang susi ng kotse ko sa aking kamay. This is very funny.

“Danzel has always been on top. His grades in Business School were always been flat 1. You know that, Ysmael. He was a valedictorian and a top notcher. He doesn’t let his emotions mess with business. He can handle this company really well.”

I licked my lips and looked at my cousin. His jaw is clenching and he is breathing fastly.

“Just give me a chance, please! I will do my best. I swear I’m better!” he desperately said.

“Ysmael, you can still work in the same company!”

Hindi ko na tinapos pa ang bangayan nila. I got no time for drama. I have other more important things to do such as going to my Seleira’s campus.

“Azriel!”

I looked back and the bastard quickly punched my face. Hinawakan ko iyon ngunit hindi naman ganoon kasakit.

Ang puta, sinuntok pa ako. What will my girlfriend’s reaction be if she saw this?!

“Fuck you!” galit nitong mura sa akin.

I didn’t punch him back. Tumalikod lang ako at sumakay na sa aking kotse. I hope that one punch will set him to sleep peacefully.

I stopped my car at the school’s parking lot. I looked at my reflection. I fixed my messy hair for the scary thought she’ll be turned off to me.

Damn, this is the first time I’ve been insecure with my looks. Girls would flock to me every single time but this girl just gives no fuck.

Lumabas ako ng sasakyan at sumandal doon. Tiningnan ko ang relo’t tama lamang na dismissal na nya.

It took me hours while waiting for her. My heart started beating loudly, too. Where the hell is she?!

Kinuyom ko ang kamao sa isiping kanina pa sya umalis kasama ang gago nyang boyfriend. Whoever the fuck that is.

The sun has set a few hours ago. Just when my thighs started aching because of standing for too long, I saw my girl walking out of the campus’ main gate.

She looks tired that a part of my heart sank seeing her like that. However, it also jumped as I see her. My initial reaction will always be the same.

I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me really. I know really well that she’s a minor and what I’m doing is stupidity but… damn it. Mababaliw ata ako kung hindi ko sya makikita sa isang araw.

I knew she felt I’m following her when her steps got quicker. I’m sorry, baby, I’m scaring you. But this is the only way that I can sleep tightly at night.

Ilang buwan ko pa syang sinusundan at habang patagal nang patagal ay mas lumalalim ang nararamdaman ko.

Gustong-gusto kong nakikita sya at naririnig ang boses nya. Gustong-gusto ko kapag tinitingnan nya ako at pakiramdam ko’y mawawala ako sa sarili sa tuwing alam nyang nandyan ako pero hindi nya ako pinapansin.

“I want to… marry. Have babies with her,” I whispered to myself. Huminga ako nang malalim at ginulo ang buhok. Ininom ko rin ang alak sa baso.

That’s my dream! But I don’t know how I can make her fall for me, for goodness sake, she doesn’t even notice me! She’s scared of me because I’ve stalked her for how many months already.

Malakas kong sinuntok ang pisngi ng lalaking humalik sa kanya. Grabe grabe ang paghihintay kong ihatid nya si Seleira bago ko sya turuan ng leksyon.

“Putang- Ano ba?! Sino ka ba?!” galit nitong tanong at pinunasan ang gilid ng labi.

“Fuck you,” nanggigil kong saad. “Huwag mo syang hahalikan!”

The bastard looks so dumb confused.

“Sino?!”

Sinapak ko muli.

He groaned and tried to punch me but I’m strong. Much stronger now that I’m angry.

“Seleira Farrah. Get your ass out of her life or I’ll beat you!” I spat. Hinila ko ang name plate nya.

“Remus. You have a Pineapple Products factory, right?” I asked. I couldn’t help but to smirk.

“What the fuck?!”

I pushed him finally. “I’m warning you.”

“Who are you?!” pagalit nitong tanong.

Umismid ako. “Azriel Nickolson.”

His face changed when he heard my surname. I left him and went inside my car.

I really need to make my own name. Hindi lang apelyido ko ang kailangan nilang marinig kung hindi ang pangalan ko lang.

I woke up from a dream of us, being happy together. Damn it. She really mess my whole system up without even knowing. And I love it. That dream was so realistic. I even feel bad for waking up!

Mas lalo akong na-badtrip nang makita sya sa mall kasama ang tiyuhin nya.

Putang ina. Are they really that close? Nakakaselos.

“Tito, let’s go to Victoria’s Secret!” she said and giggled. Kinawit nya ang kamay sa braso ng tiyuhin nya at hinila.

I closed my eyes painfully.

Is that really her uncle? Why does it feel like they’re so close? They really look like a couple.

I wonder how it feels when she put her soft hands in my hard one and pull me. I wonder how it feels having her in my arms and just basically being cute, asking me to buy her things.

That will really make me go crazy. I love that. That’s my dream now. She’s my dream and I’ll do everything to have her.

Sa loob ng isang taon ay wala akong ginawa kung hindi ang sumunod nang sumunod sa kanya. Hindi ko mapigilan.

Something inside me aches whenever I’m at work and I imagine her hanging out with her boytoys.

Ganoon na lamang ang panggigil ko nang maabutang may kasayawan sya sa bar. Nagdidilim ang paningin ko at sinuntok ang lalaking gumigiling sa kanya.

The party people stopped. The women shrieked in shock.

“Adam!” she called nervously and looked at me with angry eyes.

Adam, huh?

Mas lalo akong nagalit. Baby, why are you staring angrily at me? I didn’t do anything bad.

“What the?!” the Adam shout and wiped the side of his lips.

“Fuck you!” galit na galit kong sigaw.

“What the hell is your problem?!” Seleira shout at me.

I know it’s embarrassing but I stopped talking. It’s crazy how she can just do this and I’ll stop… willingly.

“Seleira,” I called weakly, getting weak by her anger.

“What’s your problem?!” pag-uulit nya.

Hindi ako makapagsalita dahil tangina… Sobrang ganda nya. Lalo na kung galit.

I felt bad after that. I felt bad that she got frustrated but I’m not sorry for punching that asshole.

I know it’s wrong but I pulled her arm. She started shouting but no one interrupted us. His Adam boy tried to pull her back but fuck him, I’m stronger.

“Why do you always stalk me? You’re scaring me!” she shout when I finally got us to the dark parking lot.

I sighed heavily.

“He… he was dancing with you,” I said gently while staring at her. She’s now looking sexy. Red lips, her hair is down and she’s wearing a red velvet tube top and a mini black skirt.

“So?!” She spat. “I always see you everywhere, even in school! Please do not mess with me anymore!”

That didn’t stop me. Nothing can.

I always ask myself if is she attracted to me, too. Gustong-gusto ko sya at palalim nang palalim ang nararamdaman ko sa mga nagdadaang taon.

She never liked me but I never gave up. This feeling is very rare. The reason why I’m doing this, why I always want to see and talk to her, is I don’t know. They said if you love someone, you don’t know what makes you love them. You just do.

I know this is not just a physical attraction. I’ve been attracted with women with almost perfect body. Big boob, nice butt, waist, hips, face and all, but not this way.

I’m not attracted to them as I am to Seleira.

I don’t know but I think I love her. And to be loved by her back is my dream. To have her in my arms, to sleep and wake up next to her are my dreams.

I went to her school after my work. Just the usual routine I’ve been doing for years.

I waited for her while leaning on my car’s door. I am more eager to pursue her now that I’m earning my own money.

Also, my parents went outside of the country like they always do. They let me do this since my baby is not a minor anymore, but I still have the feeling that my mother is not agree with every thing of this. I don’t care though.

I saw my baby walking down the hallway with some guys around her. She’s even smiling sweetly and I noticed that she carries a lot of paper bags. Maybe some gifts she got from her boy toys.

Agad akong naggalaiti at napaayos ng tayo. She’s really good at this, huh? She carries the conversation with other men so much better than she does with me. She shuts me off and she’s mad and afraid of me at the same time.

Sometimes, I wish she could just make me one of her boy toys. Kahit ano na lang… putangina. Kahit ano, basta pansinin nya ako. Kahit ano basta’t tingnan nya ako at bigyan ng atensyon.

She bid her sweet goodbye before looking for their family van. Instead of finding it, her eyes caught mine.

I seriously walked towards her. I sensed that she panicked and her sweet smile fell. I feel hurt with the sight. She hurts me so much.

“Seleira,” I called and I just can’t help but to be gentle. My voice really sounds gentle whenever I talk to her normally.

Hindi sya sumagot at tumalikod. Nasaktan ako kaagad at hindi agad nakagalaw. Ang sakit talaga. Damn it. I should be used to it by now, it’s already been years with that treatment.

“Seleira,” I called again, much clearer now.

“What?” she asks. Bumuntong hininga ako at ikinalma ang sarili.

I didn’t speak and I just stare at her. Her beautiful eyes widened while looking up to me. Bumaba naman ang tingin ko sa mga hawak-hawak nya.

“What are those?!” I asked, demanding for an answer.

“You don’t care.”

I bit my lip. She really doesn’t care about me but I won’t stop.

Tumalikod sya muli at mabilis na naglakad. I quickly caught her hand and made her face me.

“Please,” I begged. I know it’s not the usual me, but I’ll do everything to have her attention.

“Please w-what?” utal-utal nyang sagot sa takot.

“Just 10 minutes, please.”

Kununot ang noo nya at sinubukang bawiin ang kamay. I let her hand go because I don’t want to make my grip harder, she might get hurt.

“You’re crazy!”

I nodded.

“Leave me alone! Ilang taon na! Do you want me to file a case?!” she warned. “I can file a case if I want to! I know who you are and you’re very rich but I am rich, too! I can fight you in court!”

Instead of being angry, I found myself smiling. That’s the longest words I got from her and I feel happy. She gives me attention and time.

“Leave me alone! I know you’re Azriel Nickolson and we just talked once in a party! Why were you stalking me for the past years?!”

Mas lalo akong nangiti. Damn, baby, yes please. Tell me more. Tell me longer words and tell me your feelings. Be angry to me, kahit ano, basta’t makaramdam ako ng emosyon galing sayo.

“Speak up!” she demanded and I’m here, smiling like an idiot. Is it wrong if I’m imagining that she’s a wife, getting angry at her husband because of some little things?

Please more, baby. Pagalitan mo ang asawa mo.

Ganoon na lamang ang panghihinyang ko nang talikuran nya ako muli. Agad akong humawak sa pulsuhan nya pero nandidiri nya iyong binawi.

“Stop!” frustrated nyang sigaw.

I felt bad but I stopped. I watched her ride their family van. She didn’t even look back to me.

I sighed and looked down. I should get a grip of myself. I know I want to be with her so bad but I shouldn’t invade her privacy so much… but how? She doesn’t like me. She won’t invite me in her life willingly and if I won’t make a move now, nothing will happen. The past years will go to waste.

I know we’re not meant for each other but I will make a way. I won’t let him end up with other man.

I went to bed the same night with a bit lighter heart. At least she did talk to me longer. She got mad and I feel better about that.

What a nice day it is!

I went to sleep while daydreaming about me and her. I hugged a pillow and I imagine it as her. Shit, Seleira! Sa sobrang pag-iimagine ko ay tinitigasan ako.

This isn’t the first time that I feel erect just by thinking of her. I want to make love to her so bad. And have babies, too. Then we’ll name them with names close to our names. We’ll buy them small clothes and well watch them grow up. We will have outings and many fun things.

I never felt this with any woman. Just her. I’m now thinking if she’s a witch or her family has some witch background. I got whipped the first time I saw her. Unbelievable.

Tang inang buhay ’to.

I want to make love to her and kiss her hair. I want to hear her moaning my name. And fuck, making love to her while she’s pregnant with our baby will be my forever dream. Or just making love to her while she’s on her period will be my forever fantasy.

I cummed after ten minutes or more. But still, I’m still erect. I’m so thirsty for her. I want her.

“I love you, baby,” I whispered crazily while thinking of her beside me, panting because of our hot love-making.

Nababaliw na nga ata ako. I looked down at my shaft and it’s still standing proudly.

You’re long and huge. Damn boy, you’re getting beat so hard tonight.

I want to go to dates with her. I never had a date. I never experienced that but I want it now with her. I want to go watch movies with her. I want to eat in fancy restaurants with her. I want to do normal things with her.

I want her to make love to me because she wants to. I want her to offer herself to me willingly. Fuck rape and forceful sex, consent is very sexy.

Although I am so thirsty for her, I’ll never force her to make love to me. That’s disgusting. That’s why I’ll do my best to pursue her and to earn her love.

Every time I’m waiting for her outside her campus, he is with a man. Different guy every week. That makes me angry.

Hindi naman pwedeng sundan ko sya lagi dahil may trabaho ako. Wala talaga syang pakialam sa akin, tang ina.

“Hey…”

I released a heavy sigh just by hearing a familiar voice of a woman.

I’m currently here in Index bar to drink some, hoping to get Seleira out of my head even just a few hours.

“Need some sweet juices tonight, daddy?”

I put my wine glass down without looking at her. “Shut up, yours were never sweet.”

Instead of being offended, she just laughed. A soft thing brushed through my arm. Damn this girl, she’s brushing her boobs on my arm shamelessly.

Iniwas ko ang braso at lumagok na lamang muli.

“Not in the mood?” she asks again.

I didn’t answer. I told the bartended to give me more and so he did.

“Hey, Azriel,” she called again. Kiniskis nya muli ang dibdib nya sa braso ko at halos kumandong na sa akin.

I irritatedly pushed her, but not too much. Damn those boobs. I don’t know but I’m suddenly irritated and disgusted with big boobs.

Uminom ako muli at inisip na uuwian ko si Seleira at magkayakap kaming matutulog. Hahalikan ko ang buhok nya habang pinapatulog sya. Sya naman ay ngingitian ako gamit ang inaantok nyang mga mata.

Shit. That’s too good to be true.

Imagine going home to her after a long tiring day in the office. She’ll be my rest.

“That hurts, huh. What’s your problem?” iritadong sabi sa akin ng babae.

I didn’t answer because I’m busy thinking about my baby.

I promise to give her every whim and wants without complaining. I have so much money now and I am still earning more.

“Leave me alone,” I said coldly.

She talked shit more before turning her back. Unfortunately, three women approached me in exchange.

“Hey!”

“Azriel Nickolson!”

“Hi!”

I sighed heavily. I’m still not drunk.

“Our friend, Christy, said that you’re wild in bed. So, we thought you want to do it with us… foursome?” she suggests like it’s a usual thing. “Don’t worry, no strings attached!”

She laughed and her other friends laughed, too.

“I have a girlfriend,” I said.

They gasped and looked at each other.

“W-who? Is this about Raspee Lauda? The one that has been circling around the internet?”

Padarag kong ibinaba ang baso. Why are they so nosy?

I stood up and left some cash in the counter. I walked away without talking but I heard them call me again.

Fuck them and who the hell is Raspee Lauda? Maybe some of the women I talk to in events and of course, media will always give meaning to every thing.

I have a girlfriend but she doesn’t know yet. She’s Seleira and I’ll see her tomorrow.

I entered my car and thanked the heavens I’m not drunk yet. Just a bit tipsy.

I’m driving the long busy road of EDSA when I saw this bigass billboard.

That made me think for a while.

Para akong naawa sa sarili ko. Sinasayang ko ang ilang taon ng buhay ko. Ilang beses na akong nasasaktan pero kasalanan ko rin naman.

I just love her so much and I can’t go on with a day without seeing her.

If it’s not mutual, why pursue it?

Fuck that.

I know the feeling’s not mutual, I know she doesn’t like me nor care for me, but I love doing this.

I love going to her school to see her even if she doesn’t even look at me. I love to see her even if she have many boys around that makes me feel hurt.

I love every piece of it. I’d pursue her until she gives in.

This feeling is very rare and I don’t think I’ll feel this towards other woman again. I don’t want to waste because if I will… I will be regretting my entire life. If she’ll marry other man, I’ll just kill myself.

I’ve been stalking her for three years already in exact. She’s joining many pageants in school so I pay it to be one of the judges. I also monitor the business events that her family will attend, so I know where and when should I attend as well.

I know I’m a creep, a weirdo, or a desperate but I just can’t tame it. The feelings inside me is burning wildly. It will never stop. It will only be deeper, wilder and better.

Another two years have passed which makes it 5 years in total.

Five fucking years of stalking and trying to pursue her, but still. None of it work. Palala pa nang palala ang pangdidiri nya sa akin.

I even sent her flowers once a week anonymously but the flowers always just end up in a nearby trashcan.

I just close my eyes every time. It’s fine, Danzel. We’ll try again tomorrow.

Her body grew. She grew a bit taller and she had this very nice shape. Her face is much mature now and she’s really more beautiful.

My body grew as well, of course. I just went for a couple of months in gym to make my muscles toned. I grew taller, bigger and stronger. I can finally see myself as a grown man. I have the money, my own mansion, and a successful business, I’m very ready to settle down.

“Please… Make me your boytoy… Even just your boyfriend for a week. Please,” I begged, truly putting my pride down.

The Proud Azriel Nickolson is now begging to be a boytoy of this woman, just like how women beg for me. It’s crazy how the world quickly turn upside down.

The prettiest woman I’ve ever seen just flipped her hair. “I don’t know you-”

“You do! You know me for five years already!” sumbat ko. Parang nagliliyab ang kaloob-looban ko sa tuwing nakikita ko sya.

I closed my eyes for a moment. My heart aches and it longs for her so bad.

Something in my heart is very happy every time I see her. Especially if she talks to me and gives me attention.

“I know you, but as a creepy stalker.”

Hindi agad ako nakapagsalita. Ninanamnam ko pa ang pagkakausap nya sa akin at pagbibigay ng kaunting atensyon.

She’s currently wearing a purple dress inside and her lab coat is on. She’s taking BS Physics and seeing her with that lab coat is just so satisfying. She’s so pretty.

“What’s your standards? You have so many boyfriends, I want to be one… Please, kahit ano,” I begged again.

She sighed and it pains me to see how problematic she is because of me. Yumuko ako at kinagat ang sariling labi.

“You can’t be one b-because you’re a stalker.”

“Please. I love you,” I said sincerely. “I want to hold your hand and go to dates with you. I want sleep next to you. I want you to care for me…”

I stopped talking when she looked at me with a disgusted face. I looked away because of the aching heart inside me. Yumuko ako at marahas na ginulo ang buhok.

“I can’t love you, do you get it? You’re stalking me even before! You made me feel afraid every time I’m alone!” Fear is evident in her voice.

I looked down again, feeling guilty. But what can I do? I’m still in love with her. I always have and always will.

I felt like my soul went out of my body when the HR gave me the list of applicants and I saw her name in it.

Seleira Farrah 22 Applying for Marketing Assistant position

I quickly signed it right away even if that’s not part of my job. Shit.

Does she realized she likes me, too? And now she wants to work here!

Putang ina. Iyon nga lang ay pinagpyepyestahan sya ng mga lalaking empleyado at sya naman ay pangiti-ngiti lang. She really have this side. She can talk to boys really well. She knows her charms and how to use it properly.

“Get back to work! Never go here again!” I shout angrily. Dali-dali naman silang nagsialisan at dala-dala pa ang mga pagkain na ibibigay sana sa kanya. Nakakaselos nang sobra.

Seleira didn’t look at me and she just sat down. She opened her computer and didn’t bother me again.

I just stood while watching her. My heart is so happy having her here. Napangisi ako. Pinapalitan ko ang computer nya at ang design nitong cubicle. I ordered a pink computer. Pinapinturahan ko rin ang mesa ng pink. I know she likes pink. That’s why I did this.

I smiled while watching her again. She’s such a baby. I would love to hug her from the back but she might freak out.

“What position do you want? I’ll give you anything you want. How about my secretary?” I asked and I can’t help my smiling.

She rolled her eyes. I looked away because that made me hurt again. Damn it. She really can shatter me into pieces. Kayang-kaya nya akong durugin nang pinung-pino.

I bit my lip and waited for her answer.

“You can also just stay here in my office and I’ll pay you if you want. You don’t have to work at all,” I bargained.

I really just want to have her in my office. I want to see her and talk to her everyday so bad.

“Sir, I am fine with my position,” she said nicely. Hinawi nya ang buhok at naagaw agad no’n ang tingin ko. She’s really beautiful. Every thing she does amazes me.

“I am not. Your position is low. Your position doesn’t have to meet the CEO all the time! I can’t see you!” I said, digreeing.

Because she doesn’t want any of I suggest, I just manipulated some things, making her end up as my secretary.

She worked for me for months and I’m just so happy having her. Iyon nga lang ay wala talaga syang pakialam sa akin. Kahit magdala ako ng mga babae at kunwari’y may nangyari sa amin ay talagang wala syang pakialam.

Her jealous reaction is something I would die for. I want to have it. I want to feel it so bad.

I ordered two set of personalized rings. One with real diamond and the other one is Gold. The gold one is the one that was easier to finish so that will be our engagement ring. The one with diamonds will take a ring. It cost me millions.

I ordered rings even if there’s no chance we’ll be together. But fuck that, I risk everything.

If I can pursue her harder and make her fall in love with me, I’ll marry her again. In church or anywhere she likes. For now, I need label.

And it seems like that destiny is the one working for us. Her father, Simon Farrah filed an appointment with me one day.

“You’re stalking my daughter,” Simon Farrah stated seriously. I looked at him formally, as well, not breaking the eye contact.

I don’t know how he knew, but I don’t give a damn. I am very curious what brings him here.

I stood up proudly, making him think that I’m a decent man.

“For five years,” he added. “Why so?”

I cleared my throat before talking. “I love your daughter, Sir. I’ve been in love with her since the past five years and I am still.”

The man smirked and played the ballpen in his fingers.

“I see,” he said as he nods. His eyes roamed around my office, too.

“I have a deal.”

I nodded, having a bit hunch of what he will say.

“I’ll let you marry my daughter in one condition-”

“Any fucking condition will do,” I interrupted.

I didn’t mean to be rude to my soon-to-be father in law but damn, the feeling inside me is so overwhelming.

I’ll be marrying Seleira. We’ll live in my mansion and we’ll make love many times. We’ll have babies and have a very nice life.

Tang ina. Iniisip ko pa lang ay halos mawala na ako sa sarili.

Simon Farrah chuckled. “My company is at sake. Having your name attached to it will be a very good idea, considering that you’re very successful at a very young age. Businessmen are running over you.”

I didn’t speak. My mind is busy thinking about my future with Seleira.

“But I cannot assure you she’ll be a nice girl. She’s spoiled and a very mean girl. She have lots of boyfriends and… does she like you?”

Kumunot ang noo ko at tila nainsulto. Kumuyom din ang kamao ko.

“Of course she likes me,” I said. But I know that’s a lie.

She’s my girlfriend in my head and we make love every night.

He chuckled again. Damn, heaven knows how I want to punch this man for lowkey insulting me.

“This summer is the civil wedding. I want her immediately. I want her to live together with me,” I demanded. “And the benefits you want from me will be yours.”

He licked his lips. “Fine. But I’m telling you, I cannot assure you a happy married life with my daughter.”

True to his words, my first married days were hell. She’s scared of me and had tried to escape who knows how many times.

Still, I didn’t give up. Mahal na mahal ko sya at ngayong kasal na kami ay mas lalo akong hindi susuko.

I feel bad for not courting her though. I dreamed of being her boyfriend, but the label I got is more. I’m her husband. So I’m using that line every single time.

First months were dark, but it gets better. She was scared but I can’t help to he mad. I know how scary I look whenever I’m mad but I’m trying to be sweet.

My better months came and she’s slowly getting out of her shell. I waited for her patiently. I love her so much.

She became sweet and she even started calling me her “Hubby” which makes me smiling for days. Shit. Sobrang sarap sa pakiramdam at halos ayaw ko na syang pakawalan sa mga bisig ko. Kahit umiihi sya ay sumasama ako sa sobrang pagkabaliw ko sa kanya.

Humahagikhik sya at hindi na natatakot.

“Hubby,” she called sweetly and sat on my lap.

Agad kong iniwan ang laptop upang mapagtuunan ng pansin ang asawa ko.

“Hmm?” malambing kong tanong at hindi na napigilang ngumiti.

I hugged her waist and reached for her soft red lips. We’ve made love several times and I couldn’t get enough of it.

Finally, my dreams are becoming true. I thought once we made love, my worldly desire for her will end, but fuck. Mas lumala lang. I love her so our love-making is so much better.

Iba pala talaga kapag mahal mo. Bawat daplis ng kamay ko sa katawan nya at bawat paghalik ko sa balat nya ay ibang-iba ang pakiramdam.

I have asked her about her insecurities. I want to know so I’ll know where to love her more.

“I love your chest, wife. So pinky and small,” I said sincerely and buried my face on her neck.

I smelled her and she smells like sweet strawberries. I bought her many products and she’s so happy about it. I love seeing her whenever I buy her things because her eyes really sparkle.

She pouted and looked at me. “But they’re small.”

I smiled and kissed her forehead. Hinapit ko rin sya lalo sa dibdib ko.

“So? I’ve never been turn on with small breasts but this. I love you, baby… Can I eat them?” I asked gently.

Her pretty eyes widened and softly pinch me. Her reactions are so priceless. I could live just by seeing her.

“Hubby!” Now her cheeks are already red.

I kissed them and hugged her tightly. She giggled cutely.

Parang sasabog ang puso ko sa tuwa. Sabik na sabik ako sa kanya na halos hindi na ako pumasok para maglambingan lang kami.

She’s just a baby. She’s mean and rude but she’s a softie. She cries easily and I’ll always be here to hush her. I love my wife so much.

“Hubby, can I have some muffins? Strawberry muffins?” she asks sweetly and hold onto my neck.

Fuck, yes, of course you can, wife.

“Anything, wife,” malambing kong sagot at hinapit pa sya sa dibdib ko. Humagikhik sya na syang nagpatunaw ng puso ko.

“What else do you want? I’ll place an order right now.”

Hinalik-halikan ko ang buhok nya. Hindi naman sya umangal at mas lalo pang sumiksik sa akin. I smirked and kissed her lips.

She kissed me back as I make our kiss deeper. I felt her getting weak by my kisses. Humihina ang kapit nya sa leeg ko at humahawak na lamang sa suot ko.

“Azriel…” she called and pulled out the kiss. Nabitin pa ako at muli syang pinatakan ng halik.

“Hmm?” I asked and started smelling her neck now.

“Can you get my hair vitamins in the bathroom? I forgot to get it kasi.”

Hinalikan ko pa sya saglit bago tumayo para gawin ang gusto nya. Dinilaan ko ang labi at napahawak doon, wala sa sarili akong napangiti.

Kung dati ay ayaw na ayaw kong umuwi, ngayon ay gustong gusto ko na lamang dito. Gusto kong niyayakap sya at binibigyan nya ako ng atensyon.

“Hubby!” she called again from the bed.

“Yes, baby?” I asked gently. I looked at her while she’s in bed. Her lips are very red and her hair is a bit messy. She’s just wearing a satin night gown which always adds to the fuel of my hunger for her.

“Also my moisturizer, please, hubby!”

I smiled and nodded. “Sure, wife. Anything.”

I then turned my back to get what she wants.

My baby is a bossy girl. She can boss me all she wants, but not in bed. I always want to be the dominate one in bed. I want to be the one in control.

I also gave her a position in the company since she requested for it. She’s bored here. And also, I already trust her that she won’t escape me.

Kahit nasa kompanya ay hindi ako mapakaling hindi sya nakikita. Kung gawin ko naman syang sekretarya ay mas lalo akong hindi mapapakali.

Knowing her, she’ll tease me while doing her job. My Seleira is a playful and jealous wife.

I smirked with the thought.

She cries easily with a simple tease. She will even cry out of jealousy because she couldn’t cook. She’s such a baby. She’s my baby.

“Franco,” I called my secretary using the intercom.

“Yes, sir?”

“Pass by my wife’s office to see what she’s doing. She’s not replying to my text.”

Mababaliw ata ako sa asawa ko. Hindi ko kayang hindi ko alam ang ginagawa nya.

Minutes after and Franco requested a call from the intercom so I answered it.

“What?”

“She’s facing the computer, sir. Maybe doing some work.”

I can’t help but to smile. I wonder what my baby thinks right now.

Hindi ko na napigilan at tumayo na para puntahan sya.

Our days in the company were heaven. We go to work, eat lunch, and go home together. Then when we got home, we’ll eat dinner and shower. Then we’ll cuddle in bed.

My heart is always happy unlike before. Now, she gives me attention. She laughs with me and her cute giggles are the ones I always want to hear everyday.

Those were nice not until I realized that my cousin is hitting on my wife.

“Trying to flirt my wife behind my back, huh?”

I punched the asshole’s face hard. The employees gasped in shock but I don’t give a damn. My baby shrieked, too. Halos sumabog ako sa galit.

This man right here asks my wife to be his secretary. Tang ina nya. I knew it. I knew he has a thing for her and I’ll teach this motherfucker a lesson now!

“Azriel!” my wife called.

“Don’t even mess with this, Seleira,” I warned. My baby looked at me and she’s so scared. Damn it. I want to hug her but the anger inside me is uncontrollable.

“Secretary?!” I asked and laugh in a mocking way. “Do you like my wife? Huh? You, fucker. You always want what’s mine-”

“She’s yours?” Ysmael replied coldly. “Forgive me, but I can’t see it. Heck, I don’t even feel it. I don’t know, but I feel like she doesn’t love you at all. Everything about her screams purity, availability, and virginity-”

That’s when he crossed my line.

The employees shout when I punched Ysmael’s face harder now. The sound of my fist againsts his face made a sound. Ysmael flew back and his body slammed againsts the near wall.

“Azriel!” Seleira called agaun.

“Take back what you said!” I shout. “Bawiin mong sinabi mo! Fuck you!”

I’m so angry. Everything he said pushed my buttons especially that now that I’ve found out that he likes my wife.

Say everything, but never say that my wife doesn’t love me. She won’t marry me if she won’t! That’s what I believe.

The guards tried to stop me but I warned them. Ysmael didn’t fight back but his annoying smirk remained on his godforsaken face.

“Fuck you, man” Nahihirapan nyang sabi habang nakangisi. Basag ang labi nya at ang pisngi nya dumudugo na. The employees are panicking but can’t do anything since I am the boss and I told them not to.

“Bawiin mong sinabi mo! Seleira loves me, you son of a damn bitch!” I angrily said. Pakiramdam ko ay pulang-pula ang mukha ko sa galit.

Muli ko syang sinuntok at naghiyawan sila muli sa takot.

“Azriel, stop!” Seleira called again. I was about to go to my wife when Ysmael speak again.

“I won’t take it back because it’s the truth,” Ysmael said. Pagak pa syang natawa at bahagyang pinunasan ang labi.

Muling bumilis ang paghinga ko at sinugod sya. I gave him another punch which made him flew again but his smirk stayed. Damn this man.

I walked and looked down at him as if he’s some low class creature.

“You can kill me but the fact that she’s like a single blooming woman won’t change at all,” Ysmael stated again.

Ang putang inang ’to.

“And what are you expecting?! That I’ll let her be under you by being your secretary?” I asked coldly, trying to calm myself.

His smirk is still there and I swear that will drop because of what will I say next.

“Son of a bitch. She will never. You know why?” I asked as I step closer to Ysmael.

“Because she’s always under me. Every night,” I said and smirked.

True to my words, his smirk fell off. His dark aura went out but fuck who cares.

I coldly went to my wife, who’s so scared right now. I actually feel bad that she saw this side of me.

I carried her and I immediately relieved having her in my arms. I know I sound OA like what she always say but I really feel so bad whenever she doesn’t give me attention.

“Azriel,” she called softly. I continued walking while carrying my wife and left the whole crown dumbfounded.

I’m so angry. I don’t know if he really likes my wife or he’s just teasing me because I’m the heir and not him.

Whichever reason, fuck him and he deserves what I did to him.

“G-galit ka pa ba?” My baby asked when we’re already in my office.

I sighed and closed my eyes. Lumiliyab pa rin ang kalooban ko sa galit. Yakap yakap ko sya sa takot na maalis sya sa tabi ko.

“A bit,” I whispered.

She put her soft hands on my neck and leaned to give me a kiss. I stopped and I’ve realized how much her effect can mess up my system.

Mabilis akong gumanti ng halik. Hindi ko alam kung nararamdaman nya bang sabik na sabik na ako sa kanya at sa halik nya. Nanggigil ako’t napipisil pa sya. Ang hirap magpigil lalo’t sya ang unang humalik.

She moaned when I suddenly bit her lip.

“Sorry,” I said between the kiss. Hinaplos nya ang buhok at panga ko habang hinahalikan ako.

Mas napapikit ako dahil doon. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam sa tuwing hinahawakan at hinahaplos nya ako dahil pakiramdam ko ay mahal nya rin ako.

Ibinalik ko ang kamay nya sa aking panga nang tanggalin nya iyon. Damn, baby, touch me more please.

“I love you,” I said when we pulled the kiss.

Lumapit sya muli at pinatakan ako ng paisa-isang halik. Idiniin ko sya agad para lumalim pa.

“Azriel,” she called when I tried to remove her blouse.

Damn it, I’m so turned on again. I want her. I want to see and eat her soft breasts right now.

“Baby, we need to make love,” I whispered impatiently. She held on my arms and looked up to me

“What?” I asked, so hungry for her.

“Azriel, s-stop. We c-can’t do it here,” she said softly. Her lips is so wet and so red which makes me hungrier.

“Baby, please…” I begged and started kissing her neck. She moaned and I feel like she likes it but she pushed me softly.

If she won’t agree with me, then I’ll just stop. But before that, I’d like to ask her again.

“Baby, please… I want to make love to you,” nahihirapan kong sabi at halos mapisil na ang buo nyang katawan sa gigil ko.

She giggled cutely and nodded.

We made love because of that. Selos na selos kasi ako at parang kung hindi ko sya maangkin ay mamatay ako sa galit.

A round is not enough for me. I love her so much so our love-making is really different and addicting.

“Hubby…” she calls weakly.

“Hmm?”

She shook her head and just gave me a small smile. I smiled, too. I hugged her so we can start our sweet cuddles. I’d die if I won’t hear her soft giggles and teases.

This is all I need. Her, in my arms and being happy about it. I love my wife more than anything and no man can get her away from me. Not, even if I die, and not again, even in the next life. She’s mine now and for the next life times. If not, I’ll do my best again.

One event in our life lead to my heart, being broken into thousand pieces. My lovely and once cheerful wife is crying and breaking down in front of me.

“What on earth on happened? You got another daughter?” I asked angrily. Damn this Simon Farrah.

This man got another daughter secretly!

“Let me explain-”

“You better do because whatever you’re doing is hurting my wife!” Galit kong sigaw.

I know this is unrespectful, but fuck! My wife is crying and so broke right now. Nanginginig ako sa galit

Niyakap ko ang asawa ko at paulit-ulit na hinalikan ang noo nya. Pinunasan ko rin ang luha nya pero patuloy lang iyon sa pag-agos. Hindi na rin sya makapagsalita at pulang-pula na ang pisngi at ilong nya.

Tang ina. Para akong dinudurog. Halos hindi ko na sya matingnan nang deretso kaya tiningnan ko na lamang ang ama nya.

So basically, my wife is his daughter in his mistress. Putang ina. Maisip ko pa lang ay sobrang sakit na, ano pa ang nararamdaman ni Seleira ngayon?

Although her half sister seems nice and does accept her, I’m still angry. Simon Farrah should’ve confronted my wife privately and not this. It’s not right to just throw a damn party to introduce her.

My baby’s so broken right now so we went home silently. She’s crying in our room and if that will continue for days, I’ll be crazy.

Wala akong ginawa kung hindi aluin sya kahit sa loon loob ko ay galit na galit ako.

I just hugged her until she fall asleep. I also removed her make up using a cotton and a bottle of make up remover.

I’ll do everything for my wife. I will protect her and love her until she loves me back, I will never stop.

Her sister, Anikka, then started working in my company. I actually do not want since I have a feeling that Seleira doesn’t like her. But my wife requested for it, so I must just do it.

My eyebrows furrowed when my elevator opened even when it’s still on 15th floor. It should stop on the top floor and no one else can enter, except my wife, because this is my private elevator.

When the door opened, Anikka is the one whom I saw. She’s smiling shyly which made me confuse even more.

“Ah,” she said and laughed a bit. “Naisip ko lang kung pwedeng sumakay?”

Nilingon nya ang katabing ordinaryong elevator bago tumingin muli sa akin. Seryoso ko naman syang tiningnan pabalik. Damn it, I’m pissed but I shouldn’t be rude since she’s my wife’s sister.

“Miss Farrah, private elevator po iyan ng CEO,” an employee said.

I clenched my jaw impatiently and looked at my wrist watch. My wife is waiting for me already. I miss feeling her in my arms, too.

“Naku, mukhang ayos lang naman kay Azriel. Hindi ba?” She smiled at me and tried to be cute.

Fuck that. Does she like me? This is how women exactly behave when they like me before.

“No,” I said. “This is a private elevator for me and my wife.”

Her smile fell off. I impatiently pushed the close button to finally go to my office. I miss my wife, she’s sleeping on a room there and I got no time for things like this.

She knows this is a private elevator but maybe she just forgot.

Sinundo ko ang asawa ko para sabay kaming mananghalian. She just woke up and she still smells like bed sheets so I’m so down to smell her. So addicting.

Niyakap ko sya mula sa likod habang nasa elevator kami dahil manananghalian kami sa malapit na restaurant. Hinalik-halikan ko rin ang batok nya.

“Hubby!” saway nya sa medyo mataas na boses.

I chuckled and squeezed her waist. She’s so cute. I also caressed her tummy, wishing someone is already there. And if not, I’ll continue to make love to her.

Hahalik na sana ako pero natigilan kami. Pareho kaming napatingin sa pinto nang bumukas ito sa 28th floor. Badtrip kong hinintay kung sino ba ito dahil putang ina, private elevator ito at gusto kong maghalikan na kami ni Seleira.

Anikka is standing there with folders on her hands, looking at me shyly again.

What the fuck? Again?

“Anikka?” Gulat na tanong ni Seleira. I snaked my arm on her small waist.

“A-ah, ano kasi… puno na iyong mga elevators so…” she said softly and tried to smile cutely.

“This is a private elevator,” I said seriously.

“Ah!” she awkwardly laughed. “Y-yeah, I know. P-pero nagbakasali lang ako dahil…” her voice sounds so nervous now.

“Baka pwede akong sumakay, Azriel? S-sa next floor lang naman ako,” she confidently said now.

“Miss Farrah, dito na po, maluwag na po ulit,” a male employee called her. She looked at him with her eyebrows furrowed.

“Dito na lang ako,” she insisted.

“Pero-”

“Dito ko gusto sumakay,” her tone suddenly became desperate.

I clenched my jaw in an annoyed way. She knows it, why did she do it again now?

“I told you earlier that this is a private elevator, Miss Farrah. Exclusively for me and my wife only,” inis kong sabi muli.

Napawi lang ang inis ko nang maglambingan kami ni Seleira sa restaurant. Seleira better talk to her sister because I am annoyed if she will do that again. I don’t know what I can do if she will enter my elevator again.

Then she’ll just smile shyly and chuckle as if I’ll be happy with that.

Nakakairita kapag hindi si Seleira ang gumagawa nyan. Nakakasura.

Forget that shit.

We have made love several times but still, she’s not getting pregnant. I want us to be checked up by my trusted doctor but she always refuses.

I’m thinking that she’s afraid I might think she’s infertile. I don’t mind at all. Of course, I want to have children with her but if she can’t bear child, it is fine for me.

She’s the one I need the most and not anything or anyone.

I didn’t push her again to go to the doctor since I don’t want to pressure her.

Ako lamang ang nagpatingin. Hindi naman ako baog. My sperms are healthy and strong, in fact.

Kinalimutan ko iyon at itinuon ang pansin sa trabaho.

The company’s launching a big project now with investors from US. I can’t believe that foreign investors really want to invest on my company.

One of their reasons is because I’m young, successful, and full of fresh ideas. Some of them are even introducing their daughters as if I’m interested.

Their audacity to expect I’ll like their daughters is just so high. These women are nothing compared to my wife.

“Sir, meeting with Mr. Francisco in 10 minutes,” Franco said.

I nodded and looked at my wrist watch. An hour before my out and also Seleira’s. I need to make this quick because my baby is not so patient.

I smirked while thinking of her, frowning impatiently.

The next days became very busy. The employees and of course me, are so busy. Ysmael stayed quiet and just basically doing his job.

I’m a bit thankful that Anikka is actually a catch for the company. She’s an effective Marketing Manager. In meetings, she is very active and smart. She’s smarter and wiser in business than the past Manager.

“Meeting adjourned,” I announced and looked at my wrist watch.

It’s already late and pass the working time. We all took an over time and I texted my wife about this earlier.

They all greet me and some shook hands with me. I thanked them too, for the nice project and deals.

I was about to get out when Anikka called me.

“Yes?” I formally and seriously asked.

“Ah…” I sensed that she didn’t know what to say.

I looked at her impatiently.

“Iyong driver kasi namin may emergency. Naisip ko lang kung pwede bang makisabay sa ’yo?” She asked. “I mean… sa inyo ni Seleira, kung pwede.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at agad umiling. Tiningnan ko rin kung may text ba ang asawa ko bago tumingin muli kay Anikka.

“No. My wife needs to rest, I can’t drive you off.”

“Oh!” She smiled but it didn’t reach her eyes.

This woman and Seleira doesn’t look like each other. Maybe because they both got their faces from their mother.

But Seleira is really the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen. I’m not saying this because I love her, but because it is true. The current female models must be thankful she’s not in a modelling agency.

“I have to go,” I said and walked out.

“Franco, you can go home,” I said seriously to my secretary when I passed his office in front of mine.

“Sir, your wife went up here earlier.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at muling tiningnan ang cellphone. “Why?”

“She was just asking if you were still inside.”

I nodded and I couldn’t help but to smile. Maybe she missed me, huh.

I went down to her office and I almost threw my phone when I didn’t see her there. Pumasok pa ako at tiningnan ang banyo ngunit wala sya. Pati ang bag nya ay wala na rin.

Where the hell is she?

I asked the employees nearby and they said she went out an hour ago.

I calmed myself down and just think that maybe she’s in the pantry. I looked once again at my phone to check if I missed her text, but there’s none.

I went to the pantry and she’s not there. Pinahanap ko rin kay Franco pero talagang wala.

“Sir, the guard said Mrs. Nickolson have went outside the company an hour ago. Then the person in CCTV parking area said that she was never seen there.”

“She maybe took a commute. Fuck it.”

Doon na pumait ang nararamdaman ko. Tinawagan ko sya pero out of reach na. Inisip ko pa kung nag-away ba kami pero hindi naman.

I know I didn’t do anything bad. I texted her that I’ll take an overtime and I also said that I want her to wait for me.

I drove home very fastly because of my anger. She took a commute. Nakakabaliw maisip na sumakay sya ng taxi at paano kung may gawing masama sa kanya ’yun!

Padabog kong sinara ang pinto ng kotse nang makarating ako. Inihagis ko ang susi sa guard at malalaking hakbang ang ginawa ko para pumasok ng mansyon.

“Ang ma’am nyo?!” pagalit kong tanong.

“K-kanina pa po andito, sir. Sa kwarto po.”

I angrily went upstairs, then into our room. She’s not in the bed or anywhere, but the sound of shower is on.

I sat down and tried to compose myself but this anger is overwhelming. I’m her husband so we should go home together. Plus, the fact that she commute by herself and we had no problems!

“What do you think did you do, huh?! Going home without me?” I stood up and looked at her angrily. She’s just wearing her pink bathrobe and she’s looking at me with her soft and scared eyes.

Pumikit ako saglit dahil nanlalambot agad ako sa kanya. Hindi pwedeng lambingin ko sya, kailangan galit ako dahil totoo namang galit ako. Hindi ko lamang maintindihan kung bakit sya umuwi.

“How did you go home?! Don’t fucking tell me you were with my cousin?!” I accused. Just thinking of her with Ysmael makes me go punch something or someone.

“Nag-commute,” she replied like it’s just a simple and usual thing.

“Nag-commute!” I repeat with so much amusement and anger. “What’s the matter?! Bakit ka umuwi mag-isa?”

“Wala. Gusto ko nang umuwi tapos mag-oovertime ka pa. Ayokong manatili sa opisina.”

She sat down in front of her vanity mirror and turned her hair blower on like her husband is not angry at her.

“You could’ve texted me so I can go home with you! Fuck this!” Galit kong sabi at lumapit

She didn’t answer which made me mad even more. My breathing is now fast because I am hungry for her answers.

She stood up and pulled it out from the outlet.

“Kakain na ako,” she said plainly and tried to just walk pass me but I managed to pull her.

“No. Let’s talk about why you went home alone,” nagtitimpi kong sabi.

“Azriel, stop. I just wanted to go home that’s all-”

“I’m not buying that-”

“Then don’t! Release me, ginugutom na ako.”

That’s where I stopped. Fuck it. Init na init ang mukha ko sa galit but fine, she’s hungry. My baby’s hungry.

“Mag-uusap tayo mamaya,” I said darkly.

I took a shower because of the thought that it might calm me down a little but it didn’t. My system still longs for her answers. I miss her, too.

I went down and I found her, eating silently. Umupo ako sa harap na upuan imbes na sa tabi nya para mas makita ang ekspresyon nya. If she won’t say her reasons, then I’ll just try to read her actions.

I placed my plate and hold my utensils very hardly while looking at her. Damn it, Danzel. She’s just a baby, calm yourself down.

“I’m done,” she said as she stood up quickly, not letting me read her mind. I clenched my jaw and watched her leave the dining room.

Mamaya ka sa akin.

After a quick and silent dinner, I went up again and I saw her lying in bed, facing the wall. I went to the bathroom first to brush my teeth before going to her.

“Seleira,” I called.

“Seleira, I know you’re awake.”

“Inaantok na ako, matulog ka na,” she said. Marahas kong kinagat ang sariling labi.

There’s really a problem right here. She wouldn’t go home without me, but she wouldn’t say her reasons either.

“No. Get your ass up here and let’s talk,” I insisted.

“Ayoko-”

“Walang matutulog hangga’t hindi tayo ayos,” inis na inis kong sabi. Kumalma ako nang kaunti nang umupo sya.

“Baby, what’s wrong? Why did you go home?” I asked gently. I really can’t stay mad… She’s so pretty and small. She’s my wife and my forever baby, so how can I stay mad at her?

“I-I just really want to go home already…” sagot nya sa mahinang boses. I sighed heavily, not believing any of it.

“I don’t believe that. Tell me what our problem is, please…”

“Azriel, really, it’s nothing. I just want to sleep.”

She gave me an assuring smile. Doon lamang gumaan ang pakiramdam ko kahit na may kaunting kyuryosidad pa rin.

Good thing she let me hug her in our sleep because if not, I’ll die. I love to hug her even if she feels so cold right now.

Ibinaon ko ang mukha ko sa leeg nya at inamoy-amoy iyon bago halikan. Pinatungan ko rin sya ng isang binti at niyakap ang kanyang bewang, pilit na pinagsisiksikan ang katawan ko sa kanya.

She’s asleep now. I smiled to myself and kissed her forehead.

“Good night. I love you.”

The next days, I don’t know if it’s just me or she is getting colder and colder. Pakiramdam ko ay nawawalan na sya ng gana sa akin.

I feel so hurt while staring at her. She’s just looking at me blankly. No emotions can be seen from her pretty face.

“Baby, please…” nanghihina kong tawag.

“Azriel, stop! I’m not in the mood to have sex with you,” she said irritatedly.

Napapikit ako sa sakit. Pakiramdam ko ay maiiyak pa ako pero pinigilan ko.

“Baby, it’s not just sex-”

“Then I do not want to make love to you! Just sleep!” She said harshly and turned her back at me.

Hindi ako kaagad nakagalaw. Para akong natuod sa kinatatayuan ko. Ininda ko muna ang sakit at marahas na bumuntong hininga.

“Okay, baby,” I said weakly. I feel so hurt while looking at her back.

I feel like the old her who doesn’t care for me is coming back and that scares me the most.

I placed my arm on her waist and cut every possible space between us. I felt her move away but I followed her again.

“Baby, I’m sorry. I won’t force you… Let’s just cuddle, please,” I requested. I grit my teeth when I felt my tears are forming up.

This really hurts me. Maybe everyone or even here views me as a strong man who doesn’t cry, but it’s not true. Just a simple cold treatment from her will make me cry. I’m afraid she’s being fed up on me. I’ll try my best to be a good husband.

“Matutulog na ako.”

“No. How about me?” nasasaktan kong tanong. “Let’s take a rest in the tub, please. I won’t do anything, I promise.”

She sighed. Parang nanlamig ang buong katawan ko sa kaba at takot. Tang ina, nagsasawa na sya sa akin.

I hugged her again, afraid that she’ll leave me. She groaned but that didn’t stop me.

“I love you,” I said.

“Get off, Azriel! Ang init init!” iritado nyang reklamo.

Days pass again and she’s still like that. I thought that maybe she’s on her period but it’s pass one week.

Or…

She is pregnant.

The big project made us all busy again. I took so many overtime to earn more money. My wife is probably pregnant and I want more money for her.

“Azriel!”

I closed my eyes in irritation when Anikka called me again. Palabas na ako dahil kakatapos lang ng meeting. Masakit ang ulo ko at pagod na pagod ako. Niluluwagan ko rin ang tie ko at wala akong ibang gustong gawin kung hindi magpahinga kasama ang asawa ko.

“What is it, Miss Farrah?” I asked in a formal tone. I’m actually annoyed that she’s addressing me as “Azriel” when it should be “Mr. Nickolson” like how everybody here in the office call me.

Some of the investors are looking at us with meaningful eyes, maybe confused because she’s calling me by my first name.

Nagpatuloy ako sa paglalakad at naramdaman kong sumusunod sya sa akin. Hinarap ko sya nang nasa hallway na kami at walang ibang tao.

“May ibibigay sana ako sa iyo,” sabi nya. Seryoso ko lamang syang tiningnan habang kinakalikot ang bag nya.

She then held out a box for me.

“Para sa iyo…” malamyos nyang sabi at ngumiti.

Kumunot naman ang noo ko at hindi agad iyon tinanggap.

“Ah,” she said when I didn’t speak nor move.

“Pang-thank you sa ibinigay mong slice ng cake the past week,” she said and her cheeks are now flushed. “Ibinake ko ito para sa iyo.”

Mas lalong kumunot ang noo ko. When did I give her a slice of cake? Wala akong matandaang nagbigay ako ng cake.

“What do you mean? I never gave you a slice of cake,” I said seriously.

Her eyes widened. “Huh? ’D-di ba? Iyong ibinigay ni Seleira? Hindi… Hindi sa iyo galing iyon?”

Gumulo lalo ang isip ko. “What are you talking about?”

Inisip ko kung kailan ba iyon. It was the past weeks when Seleira told me she’ll give Anikka a slice of cake as a thank you for giving her korean foods. She put it in a tupperware and left.

“That was not from me. It was Seleira’s.”

Her smiling face fell off. Muntik pa nyang mabitawan ang box na dala kaya iritado kong sinuportahan ang kamay nya upang hindi iyon mahulog at masayang.

“Oh!” I heard Ysmael’s shocked voice from behind.

I quickly removed my hand. Damn it, why am I feeling guilty? I just helped this girl out.

I looked back at Ysmael darkly. He’s looking at us suspiciously.

“What are you doing?” He asked with traces of malice in his voice.

“None of your business.”

He smirked and raised his brows at Anikka. His look went down to the box and looked at me meaningfully. Anikka then quickly excuse herself and left.

“Umayos ka, gago,” he said grimly.

Kinunutan ko sya ng noo. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“Really?” He asked mockingly.

I left him and just went to my wife’s office. She’s there and ready to leave.

And still, she’s very cold.

Halos mabaliw ako gabi-gabi dahil sa kinikilos nya. It’s been weeks and we haven’t made love. It’s not that that’s all I want but I miss her. I miss her giggles and all.

Palagi ko syang sinusuyo kahit na nasasaktan na rin ako. Palaging dumadaan sa isip ko na nagkakagusto na sya sa iba, and worse, pinsan ko pa. Gabi gabi akong binabagabag nito lalo’t hindi nya ako binibigyan ng assurance.

There’s this feeling that she’s getting fed up on me, but I want to hold on to the idea that maybe she’s pregnant. And everything of this is just her mood swings.

Maisip ko pa lang na buntis sya ay para akong sasabog sa tuwa. I will kiss her and take care of her so much. I will never let her be tired. I’ll give her everything she wants and everything our baby needs.

I will make love to her even when she’s pregnant because I am so sure that feels so much better. Imagine, making love to my wife while she’s pregnant. I love her so much. I would gladly die for her.

But my idea that she’s pregnant is not true. She doesn’t want to have a child with me.

My world fell off the moment I saw her with my cousin in the damn parking lot. Galit na galit ako at sarado ang tainga ko sa kahit anong paliwanag.

The fact that they are in a parking lot and she said they were just talking. Who the fuck will buy that?!

Galit na galit ako at mas lalo akong umapoy nang makarating kami sa mansyon; sa kwarto namin.

“Get the fuck out!” I angrily shout while looking at the bottles. Rose quickly ran out but Linda stayed.

“M-ma’am…” she called nervously.

“I said get out!” Pag-uulit ko. Marahas kong itinapon sa sahig ang mg pills atsaka dinurog ito gamit ang aking sapatos.

Putang ina. Alam nya kung gaano ko kagustong magkaanak sa kanya.

Linda didn’t go out so I forcefully drag her out and close the door.

“Azriel, calm down-”

“How can I calm down! You were cold towards me, you constantly refused to make love to me, I caught you my cousin in the parking lot, and now this?! FUCKING PILLS?! SINCE WHEN?!” galit na galit kong sigaw.

I’m like an erupting volcano. Walang mapagsidlan ang galit ko at muhi sa pinsan.

“Why are you doing this to me?!” Nasasaktan pero galit kong tanong. Hinawakan ko ang magkabila nyang balikat at napadiin sa galit ko. Dumaing sya kaya agad kong binitawan.

Instead of hurting her, I threw every thing I can touch. No amount of throwing things can calm me down right now.

“All I want… is you and a baby with you! You told me you weren’t ready, I understand that. But this?! I’m fucking thinking that you’re falling for my damned cousin!”

“I’m not!”

“WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?!”

I feel bad seeing her crying and scared, but I am angry. What she’s doing to me is too much.

She’s talking to my cousin and she was resuing to talk, kiss, and make love to me the past weeks. The is really hard to endure.

“Azriel-”

“Sobra sobra ang kagustuhan ko magkaanak tayo, Seleira!” Pakiramdam ko ay rinig na sa boses ko na maiiyak na ako.

Fuck it! I’m so angry and disappointed that I just want to cry.

Gusto ko ng anak sa kanya. Gusto kong magpalaki ng anak kasama sya.

“I didn’t mean to…”

“Stop. You know what? I thought I can trust you. You fucking disappoint me in every single way,” I said coldly, not letting any emotion slip off.

Tumalikod ako at binuksan ang pinto. I called for a maid.

“S-sir?”

“Clean this mess and lock the door when you get out.”

I then left before she could see me breaking down.

I cried in my car for a bit. My chest is so heavy and I feel bad for crying.

I then went to a bar for some drink. I just don’t want to see my wife since it hurts seeing her.

I drank all night thinking I can forget the heaviness but it didn’t. The alcohol just made me miss her more.

By this hour, we should’ve been cuddling. She’s in my arms, giggling, while I whisper her sweet and naughty stuffs. She’ll kiss me and say good night while I’ll kiss her hair until she falls asleep.

I can’t believe she can do that to me. She lied and betrayed me.

Mas lalo pang nakakasakit sa akin ang nakitang magkausap sila sa parking lot.

The next days, I tried my best not to melt by her charms. She’s not talking to me either which makes me so much angry. I’ve never been this angry my whole life.

Although I really feel bad for her, I can’t do anything but to cage her. She has tried to escape me several times so I don’t want to risk it. I’ll be crazy once she get away from me without my knowing.

I just need time to heal from the bullshit she did to me. She didn’t even think of what I might feel once I found out. Maybe… maybe she still doesn’t care about me. Maybe she’s faking everything.

She never even said she loves me. I’m not complaining but it just pains me think about that. I chose this. Ginusto kong makasal sa kanya kaya dapat tanggapin.

I took overtimes for too many times just to put my attention to other things. Palagi akong late ng uwi at tingin ko ay mas mabuti na rin. Kung palagi akong nasa mansyon ay malamang mas lalo lang akong madudurog.

“Miss Farrah, this way,” I heard Franco said so I looked back.

The businessmen are already inside the meeting room here in my office. I saw Anikka taking a photo of my living room weirdly.

“Ah, oo. Pasensya na,” she said.

“Why are you taking a photo?” I asked curiously.

She smiled and shook her head.

Kumunot ang noo ko at hindi na nagtanong pa. I just entered the meeting room and the last think I saw in her phone’s screen is instagram.

Anikka has been behaving so weirdly. This isn’t the first time I caught her taking some pictures of the office, particularly the living room. And then I’ll see Instagram on her phone’s screen.

There’s also a time that I got mad because she tried to enter my bedroom. She got scared and told me she’ll just take pictures but I dismissed her.

That’s fucking weird.

I don’t know what’s up with her but entering my bedroom, where I make love to my wife and cuddle with her is just insulting. I don’t let anyone go inside unless it needs to be cleaned.

Our relationship becomes more toxic and more toxic. I am and so is she. I don’t know what the fuck is making her mad but she knows what drives me mad crazy.

There are nights that I just really end up crying silently. She’s sleeping while facing the wall, turning her back at me. While I’m here, lying at the cold floor.

She doesn’t want me next to her and she wants me to get out. I don’t want that. I don’t want to sleep in another room so I just put a comforter in the floor and put myself to sleep. I’d rather sleep here than sleep in another room.

Mahirap nga lang. Titig na titig ako sa likod nya at naramdam ng pagkasabik na yakapin sya.

Fuck it, I miss her.

I just want to forgive her but the feeling that she’s in love with my cousin is killing me. Ni hindi nya ako mahal, tang ina.

My office work tires me more than anything. It’s just the sweet moments with her that keeps me alive. Her giggles, our cuddles, her voice, and everything. And now that it’s gone, I just feel more tired even more. Nawawalan na ako ng gana sa lahat.

“PAGOD NA PAGOD NA AKO, SELEIRA!” The tirediness and anger is very evident in my voice. “Pagod na pagod na ako sa trabaho, sa negosyo, sa lahat lahat, putangina.”

My tears are really so much now that I feel when I close my eyes, they’ll all fall. I know I look so devasted and broken but I am just so tired. Her, being fed up on me breaks my heart so bad… so fucking bad.

She’s really the only one who can shatter me into pieces. She’s the only one who can make me cry and make me feel this broken and pathetic. She knows about it and how she can control my feelings so she’s taking advantage of it.

“P-pagod ka na?” mahina nyang tanong. Marahas kong pinunasan ang mga luha ko at tumingin sa malayo.

“It doesn’t matter… as long as I have you,” I said weakly. It’s true. She’s my only inspiration to continue working and to continue living. 

“But I don’t know how the fuck to trust you anymore,” I said sincerely. I want her to know everything that goes in my mind.

“I don’t trust you either. Just let me go-”

“THERE’S NO FUCKING WAY I’LL DO THAT!” Sigaw ko. Putang ina talaga. Gustong gusto nya nang makawala sa akin gayong mahal na mahal ko sya. Kayang kaya kong gawin ang kahit ano para sa kanya pero hindi ang ibigay sya sa iba.

“But you’re tired! I’m tired, as well! Let’s end this! Nasasaktan na ako-”

“Ikaw ang nanakit sa akin,” mariin kong sabi kahit na nasaktan ako sa sinabi nya.

Bakit parang ang dali lang sa kanyang iwanan ako? Parang ang dali dali lang putulin ng relasyon namin para sa kanya.

Well, maybe because she doesn’t like me. She never even said she loves me. She used pills because she is disgusted to have chidren with me. She despise me so fucking bad.

She shook her head and wiped her own tears. Kahit anong galit ko talaga, hindi ko kaya. Gustong gusto ko syang yakapin at patawarin.

“You don’t love me. You’re just obsessed with the fact that you can control me. That wherever you go, whatever you do, you can always have me, waiting at your home. You’re obsessed with the fact that you own me because I was indirectly sold to you. This body isn’t mine anymore, neither this mind. I am all yours because you saved our company. I don’t own myself. You are always the one in control, that’s what makes you crazy for me. Kayang kaya mo akong kontrolin. Hindi mo ako mahal, mahal mo ang ideyang nakokontrol mo ako.”

My mouth dropped open as the bitterness spilled all over my system. I know I am strict but I didn’t know that that’s how she feels deep inside.

Realization hit me that I was never a good husband. She’s right. Why the fuck am I controlling and caging her like an animal?! Who the fuck gave me rights to cage my wife like how toxic husbands do?!

But If I will let her go away, then she might find someone better.

She wants to go away from me. She couldn’t breathe with me. Ang gago ko para ikulong sya sa kwarto sa tuwing may nagagawa sya. Alam kong mali pero putang ina, hindi ko kayang mawala sya sa akin.

“Then do it. But I will not divorce you,” I said weakly. She asked for space, now I’m giving it.

She needs time to breathe and I also need to, but that doesn’t mean I’ll go away. I’ll just… be better. I’ll make myself better and I’ll win and pursue her again. I’ll do my best to change every bad thing about me to deserve her.

Please, Lord. I know I was a bad man and I don’t pray much, but please… help me be a better man to deserve her. I don’t want her to end up with another man. Make me better and give me another chance and I’ll make sure that this will be worth it. This will be the last shot.

Gayon na lamang ang pagwawala ko nang malamang nawawala sya. Kung kailan na ako handa para magbago at tratuhin sya nang mas maayos ay saka sya nawala.

“What the fuck do you mean she’s missing?!” I asked angrily. I know this is disretpectful to Tito Glassifer but I couldn’t help it.

I went here last morning while drunk. They said she was not here but I got the feeling that she was. My men just picked me up because I was so wasted, and now Tito Glassifer called that my Seleira is missing. That was also the time that I found out Tito Glassifer has a boyfriend but that’s the least of my concerns now.

At first, I didn’t believe that Seleira is missing. But seeing Tito Glassifer crying, the truth dawned me slowly.

Unti-unti kong na-realize na nawawala nga sya. Hindi ko alam ang dahilan at sinabi lang ni Tito na umalis sya isang gabi.

Sinisi ko ang sarili ko. Kung sana… Kung sana hindi ko na lang syang hinayaang umalis noong gabing ’yun ay maayos pa sana. Nandito pa sya sana.

If only I was a good and not controlling husband, she wouldn’t run away. Kung sana pinalipas ko na lang ang selos ko kay Ysmael at pinalagpas ang pagpi-pills nya ay sana nandito pa sya.

What if she’s hungry right now? What if a bad man caught her and will do bad things to her? Putang ina. Mababaliw talaga ako kapag nangyari iyon.

My poor baby is probably out there and very scared, very hungry, and crying. Fuck you, Danzel. This is all your damn fault. If only you were understanding.

“Team A in Mindanao area. Team A.1, Team A.2 and so on, divide yourselves for each province and city there. Team B, Luzon…” I announced seriously while having a meeting with my men.

They are all serious as they should. One smirk and I’ll beat the hell out of whoever he is. Does he think this is funny?! My wife is missing so no one must be happy and laughing.

“Franco, tell the media I’ll reward 5 million dollars for whoever can tell legit information about my wife. 10 million for someone who knows where she is,” I said.

“Copy, Sir,” Franco replied.

“Make it higher each week,” I said to which he nodded seriously.

My men then spread out in the whole country to look for Seleira. Kahit kaliit-liitang lugar ay merong nakatalaga.

Days without her isn’t easy. Heck, just a few more months and I don’t think I’ll still stay sane. I always drink and my liver will destroy itself in a few more drinks.

I’m so stressed. I don’t work. I can’t work when I’m longing for my wife so bad. I just lay down in our bed while hugging a pillow that smells like her.

“I’m sorry, baby… Where are you? Please…”

I cried and hugged her pillow even more. I miss her soft voice, her giggles, her naughtyness, and her, calling me her “Hubby”.

I miss everything about my wife. Ngayon ko lamang natanto kung gaano kahirap ang buhay ko kung wala ang asawa ko. Madilim at walang buhay ang mansion.

Hindi ko kaya.

I don’t even eat that much. Whenever I eat, my wife’s face flashes in my mind. I feel guilty eating because she’s probably hungry right now.

“Anong- putang ina! Ilang linggo na, bakit hindi nyo pa rin nakikita?!” Galit na galit kong tanong kay Franco, isang araw na pumunta ako sa office.

“Pardon me, Sir. We’re doing our bests and I monitor each team from time to time. Don’t worry, it’s been just weeks, we have much time-”

“We fucking don’t!” nanggigil kong sabi. “Do you think I won’t be crazy if a year will pass and still, no traces of her?!”

I broke down in front of him. Hindi ko kinaya. Umiyak ako sa harap nya habang paulit-ulit na binabanggit ang pangalan ng asawa ko.

I never thought I could cry in front of him, but the heaviness of my heart is too much to handle. I couldn’t even say her name without crying.

I fucking miss her.

“Sir,” Franco called with concern in his voice.

I quickly wiped my tears and looked at him seriously. “Do your best… Please.”

His small eyes grew larger maybe because that’s the first time I said “Please”.

“Please find my wife.”

He nodded seriously, too. “We will.”

I hold on to that.

But it’s still hard. A month has passed and still, none of them found her.

I blamed myself with everything. I hurt myself physically. I punched my face, I torture myself by not eating for days and I even cut myself. I also don’t sleep.

The feeling after hurting myself satisfies me.

“This serves you right,” pagkausap ko sa sarili habang tinititigan ang dugo.

I don’t feel pain. Heck, I can’t even feel anything anymore.

I stared at myself in the mirror. My eyebags are very visible. My lips are bright red. I licked it and it tastes metallic. Of course, it’s blood. I punched myself so hard.

I fucking hate how this body still grows. My muscles are becoming toned even more. I’m growing tall, too. This just slaps me that I am a grown man and I should settle down and have children. But how? My wife is not here and who knows where she is.

As days passed by, I feel more far. I don’t know how but I just feel that I’m being sucked by darkness.

Sya ang laging nasa panaginip ko kaya minsan ay hinihiling kong huwag na lang magising pa. Kasi doon, kasama ko sya.

I also wake up being sweaty because in my dream, we are making love.

Gustong gusto ko nang tapusin ang buhay ko, tang ina. But the thought that she’s still alive and she’ll cry if she knows I’m dead stops me.

I tried going to work. Franco was concerned but I told him I’m alright. Mas mamamatay ako kung mananatili ako sa mansion.

Malakas ang pakiramdam kong mababaliw ako at mapapatay ko ang sarili ko kung magtatagal pa ako sa mansion ngayong wala si Seleira. I just moved to my condo unit near my company.

I sat down and faced my computer. Ganoon pa rin ang ayos ng opisina kaso bago na ang mga vase. Madalas akong nagwala dito noong nakaraang linggo.

Kahit anong gawin ko, sya talaga eh. Kahit ibaling ko ang atensyon ko sa iba ay si Seleira pa rin talaga ang laman ng isip ko.

She really own me. She owns every inch of me. She mean it when she once said I’m hers.

Yes, baby, I’m yours. Please go home now. I love you, I miss you.

“Azriel.”

I looked at the woman who entered my office. She’s holding tupperwares and she’s smiling while waking towards me.

I stood up. “Yes, Miss Farrah?” I asked formally.

She smiled again which made me irritated. What the fuck makes her smile when her sister is missing?!

“Ah, ito… Nagluto ako para sa iyo,” sabi nya at inilahad ang tupperwares.

Umiling ako.

“No.”

Siguradong magagalit ang asawa ko. Her face will be red and her voice will raise. And then she’ll be a soft baby and she’ll cry out of her jealousy.

I can’t help but to smirk at that thought. My baby is such a jealous wife.

However, Anikka thought my smirk is for her. Her cheeks went red and her eyes grew.

“Azriel?” she called softly.

Iritado ko naman syang tiningnan. “Why are you giving me food? And how can you still do that when your sister is missing? How about your dad? I never heard of him. I only know Tito Glassifer and Tito Hiro are trying to find her, too.”

I can’t help but to sound angry. Ako rito ay halos mabaliw na sa galit sa sarili dahil nawawala si Seleira, samantalang sila ay parang walang pakialam.

“Ah… Nag-aalala naman ako,” sabi nya at yumuko. “Nag-aalala rin ako sa iyo.”

Kumunot ang noo ko. “Why? I’m perfectly fine. You should worry about your sister.”

I let her out with her tupperwares. I do not want to eat anything.

That wasn’t the first time she just barged in my office. She always have tupperwares containing food but I never accept anything.

There was a time I’m sleeping in my office’s bedroom and I woke up with her, sitting on the edge of the bed.

“What the fuck are you doing here?!” Hindi ko mapigilang hindi magalit.

I stood up and looked at her angrily. Sya naman ay napatitig pa nang saglit sa akin.

“N-nag-aalala lang ako-”

“I told you I’m fine! Do not ever go inside my office again without my permission!” Galit kong sigaw.

She flinched but I didn’t feel bad.

“P-pasensya na. Akala ko kasi pwede at ayos lang sa iyo… Kapag si Seleira kasi ay ayos lang sa iyo,” nahihiya nyang sabi.

Mas lalong kumunot ang noo ko at nagalit. “She’s my wife and you’re just my sister-in-law. You cannot invade my privacy like how my wife does,” madiin kong sabi.

This woman is hella crazy!

“Pasensya na…” Nagsimula syang umiyak. Marahas akong bumuntong hininga. Gustong-gusto ko na syang palabasin ng kwarto.

“Leave.”

She looked up at me with teary eyes.

“Azriel, may tanong ako…”

Mariin kong ipinikit ang mga mata ko sa inis.

“Kung… Kung si Seleira ba ay wala, magugustuhan-”

“Fucking no. Even if my wife is not here, she’s the only woman I love. No other than her. Now, leave as long as I can still control myself.”

She left while crying. Inis na inis naman ako. What the fuck is going on with her to just barge in here and stare at me creepily while I’m asleep?!

I then told Franco not to let anyone in unless I say so. I want him to call me using the intercom first. Kahit kapamilya pa ay hindi papapasukin nang walang permiso ko. Well… except my wife of course.

The happiness on people’s faces pisses me off. I hate how they can laugh and smile while I’m dying here. Every night, I dream of her. Sometimes before sleeping, I wish that if I dream of me being with her again, please do not wake me up. Or if I wake up, please give me news from my men that they found her.

“Azriel, kumusta?”

Those were Tito Glassifer’s first words when they visited me in the office. It’s been two months already.

Pakiramdam ko ay maiiyak ako sa tanong nya. I know they view me as a strong man but I’m really weak without my wife. I’m nothing without her.

“Azriel…”

Marahas akong bumuntong hininga. “I’m fine.”

They both look at each other.

“Azriel, I’m really sad of what is happening but I’m not giving up. I know my niece is alive and one of your men will find her soon. Please do not give up as well,” he said.

I nodded bitterly. They continued to tell me comfort words which made me cry again. Gotdamn, nanghihina talaga ako kapag ang usapan na ay ang pagkawala ng asawa ko.

“I’m sorry, Tito. I became toxic to her. I’m blaming myself for everything… Kung sana pinatawad ko na lang sya agad sa pagpi-pills at pagkahuli ko sa kanila ni Ysmael ay hindi na sana nangyari ito,” pagsisi ko sa sarili at marahas na pinunasan ang luha ko.

Tito Hiro tapped my shoulder while Tito Glassifer comfort me again.

“You will find her. Please hush now, I know you’ve been a good husband. Huwag mong sisihin ang sarili mo, Azriel,” si Tito Glassifer na ngayo’y umiiyak na rin.

Ang sakit sakit talaga. Hindi ko maiwasang hindi sisihin ang sarili ko kung bakit nahihirapan lahat ng taong naiwan nya.

Tito Hiro then spoke, “We all make mistakes. Once in our lives, we become toxic and no one is an exemption. We cannot go to past, so just do your best now in the present time. In the future once you find her, do your best to change that attitude. Prove yourself not only to her, but to us, too. Patunayan mong hindi nagsisi si Glassifer na pumayag na ikaw ang maging asawa ni Seleira. Patunayan mo ang sarili mo.”

Tito Hiro’s words haunt me until the next days. Their words comforted me and made me strong again.

Nothing will change if I hurt myself or cry again. I should reflect my actions and make myself better. Para pagdating ng panahong mahanap ko sya ay kaya ko nang maging mabuting asawa.

“You’ll find her soon, Azriel.”

True to Tito Glassifer’s words, one of my men called that someone in this small island looks like Seleira. I didn’t mind his warning that the woman is probably living all her life there and is not my wife, I quickly put my neccessities on the back of my car to get ready for the long ride.

One look at her and I already know she’s my wife.

She can tell me she’s not Seleira, but she cannot tell my heart what to feel. How can she explain how my heart jumped the moment I saw her again? I memorized everything of her. From the tips of her hair and down to her feet, I know everything.

I rented the empty house in front of the house she’s living.

Gustong gusto ko syang yakapin, halikan, at sabihin kung gaano kasama ang nararamdaman ko noong mawala sya. Pero hindi nya raw ako kilala. Iyon ang pinakamasakit na mga salitang narinig ko sa kanya.

What I don’t understand is why whe fuck is there a man living with her?!

“Ang sabi po ng babae ay mag-asawa sila,” Cedric, one of my men said.

I furrowed my brows and throw the can of soda I drank. “Bullshit.”

“Iyon po ang sabi, Sir.”

“Hindi ako naniniwala.”

A huge part of me doesn’t want to believe. She is my wife and that will stay as that. Wala syang ibang asawa!

I went out of the house and stared at the house in front. I tried to talk to her earlier, but I end up getting inside with force. She wouldn’t open the wooden gate, so I did.

Ang sabi ko ay kakausapin ko lang pero hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili kong yakapin sya. Agad kong ibinaon ang mukha ko sa leeg nya at inamoy-amoy iyon.

Damn it. She’s really my wife.

Miss na miss ko sya. Halos mabaliw ako noong wala sya kaya ngayon ay hinding hindi na ako papayag na maulit iyon.

Seeing her after my dark months is such a Spring to me. My wife is alive and still healthy.

She shrieked and tried to get out of my touch but I just hugged her tighter. It pains me whenever she refuses my kisses and despise my touch.

That’s the moment where I finally felt at “Home”. The truth is, home is not a place, but it is a person. Seleira is my home.

Napawi lahat ng madidilim kong araw sa yakap kong iyon. Iyong mga gabing iniyak ko dahil miss na miss ko sya ay napawi dahil sa isang yakap.

A man entered and told me to back off. She hugged my Seleira which made the anger inside me rise. Putang ina. Gustong-gusto kong manakit pero nanaig ang kagustuhan kong magbago na.

I walked out of their yard with a heavy heart. Binalibag ko ang pinto ng tinitirhan kong bahay. Galit na galit ako dahil sa selos pero wala naman akong magawa.

My men told me that the man’s name is Strevan and that they are fucking married which I don’t believe. I even asked them for a marriage certificate, but it is not a thing here. Once you married each other in the church, you’re married.

This island is very far from civilization that I blame the goverment why they don’t give this attention.

Nagtatrabaho raw iyong Strevan sa isang farm at construction dito at minsan ay sumasama ang asawa ko. Kaya naman agad akong kumilos.

“Yes, I’ll invest a high amount in your farm,” I said to the owner.

True to my men’s words, they really went here. I watched how they talk to each other.

Strevan even accompany her to the nearby nipa hut. Nawala agad ako sa mood at nabadtrip.

I went there to sit, too. Hindi ko mapigilang tumitig nang tumitig sa kanya. Gustong-gusto ko syang yakapin at sabihin kung gaano ako kasabik sa kanya.

Everytime I move closer to her, she moves away until she’s in the corner. Ininda ko ang sakit pero hindi na iyon ipinahalata.

I don’t know why she’s still denying that she’s not my wife when it is very obvious. She reacts with my every move.

She walked out and I just stared at her while walking away, feeling so bad.

I walked near her and I saw her talk to Strevan. She said she’ll be back tonight… so they can fucking have dinner.

Imagine how painful that for me. My wife is living under the same roof with another man. And they eat meals together…

Does something already happened between them?

Fuck. She’s my wife, right? But if there’s really something happened between them, then fine! Tatanggapin ko basta sa akin pa rin sya bumalik.

Kahit ano, bumalik lang sya sa akin. Wala na akong pakialam sa mga nagawa nya.

I feel so pathetic but I am here to do my best to win her again.

The owner’s daughter has a crush on me. I don’t give a fuck, but I just rode on her trip. She wanted to eat foods with me tonight.

I heard Seleira will be back tonight kaya sasakyan ko ang trip ng babaeng ito. Titingnan ko lang ang reaksyon nya. If she react, then she’s my wife. And if she didn’t mind then… I don’t know anymore.

Destiny, being on my side, Seleira walked out the moment she saw us.

Agad akong tumayo para habulin sya kahit na tinawag ako noong babae. Damn it, she’s really my wife. I knew it.

Nakangisi akong sumakay ng sasakyan at mabagal syang sinusundan. She’s biking and I can see that she often wipe her own eyes.

She’s my wife. My heart is so happy right now but my mind is very curious how on earth did she got here. We will be talking about so many things tonight. No one will sleep unless we are both satisfied.

My poor baby…

She’s really jealous of everyone.

Papasok na sana sya ng bahay nila nang hawakan ko ang braso nya. Nilingon nya ako gamit ang umiiyak na mga mata.

Halos matunaw ako sa nakikita ko ngayon. Sya nga ito. Asawa ko sya at hindi nya na ako mapapaikot ngayon.

“Ano ba!” she cried.

“Why are you crying?” I asked. Nag-iinit na ako agad, hawak ko pa lamang ang braso nya.

“Bitawan mo ako!” she screamed and her eyes are very angry now.

“Not until you tell me why are you crying. Why did you run when you saw us? Bakit ka umiiyak?!” pagtatanong kong muli.

I looked at the love of my life tenderly. I cannot believe that she’s here now. Very close. She’s here now after the hell months that I’ve been through.

“Wala! Anong pakialam mo?!” umiiyak nyang tanong.

Damn it, she’s so pretty. Her nose and lips are very red and she looks so fragile. I just want to put her in bed and hug her all my life.

“Nagseselos ka?” I accused. She didn’t answer and just wiped her own tears.

“You’re my wife. Stop this bullshit and let’s talk about us,” inis kong sabi.

“Ayoko! Sabing hindi ako ang asawa mo!” Umiiyak pa rin sya. Taliwas ang sinasabi nya sa reaksyon ng kanyang katawan.

Parang maiiyak din ako ngayong nandito na sya. She’s still my wife. The jealous and crybaby wife.

“Baby, why are you crying, then?” mas nilambingan ko ang aking boses.

“W-wala kang paki-” I cut her off with a kiss.

She was shocked but then I feel her, getting weak. Humawak sya sa leeg ko para kumapit.

And that’s where I feel alive again. My system is on fire again. The butterflies are back and now rejoicing.

It was supposed to be a serious talk inside my house, but it ended up with me on top of her in bed.

Ang hirap pigilan gayong dumadaing sya na hawakan ko pa sya lalo. She’s aching to be touched and I am a slave of her, so I must do what she wants.

Besides, I love to make love to my wife. Only her.

She’s laying here in the bed, her hair is a pretty mess, flushed cheeks and her mouth is a bit open. She’s arching her back and her legs are wide open. Her womanhood is dripping wet and is aching to be filled, very ready for me.

This night was one of the best nights of my life. I found her again and she’s back in my arms again.

The dark nights where I think of killing myself has ended. I have found my home again.

Sabik na sabik ako sa asawa ko. Hindi lang sa tawag ng laman, kung hindi sa pagmamahal at atensyon nya rin.

I made love to her very passionately. I kissed every inch of her skin and the soft spot between her legs is my favorite. I ate it hungrily. I’m so hungry for her juices. I miss it and I want it so bad.

I promised not to be controlling anymore. I would let her do everything she wants.

However, it’s still not enough because the next morning, she was about to leave me. And I was sleeping. Mabuti at naalimpungatan ako kung hindi mukhang iiwan nya ako na parang wala lang ang ginawa namin.

“We made love last night, Seleira. Bakit ka umaalis ngayon?” Galit kong tanong. Hindi rin nakatas ang sakit sa aking boses.

Damn it. She really can hurt me using her words. Her words always stab me and she doesn’t care about it. She knows her charms and she knows how to make me feel pain and still, I will kneel in front of her if she wants to.

“Azriel, stop. I was just-”

“Stop.” I cut her words off. I don’t want to hear here lame excuse.

Her body in this moment still looks sore. There are red marks on some of her body part. I put my love marks because I couldn’t help it last night. Her lips are also very red and she looks so pretty in the morning.

“Azriel-”

“Bakit parang wala lang sayo? Ginusto mo ba ’yun, Seleira? Ginusto ko ’yun at wala akong pinagsisisihan!” I said. Halo ang galit at sakit sa boses ko.

I thought we were already fine and that we can go back together, but still. It’s not enough. I made promises to her and when I make a promise, I’ll keep it until I die.

But still, it is not enough. I want her to tell me what is enough for her. I want her to tell me what she wants me to do that will satisfy her. I’m really a fucking useless husband.

“What’s your problem? I thought we’ll gonna talk about this now?!” I asked. She looked scared and took a few steps backward.

“Bakit? Are you gonna explain to me why you cheated?!” she asked.

Agad kumunot ang noo ko at napatayo. What the fuck is going on here?!

“What are you talking about?” sumeryoso na ang boses nya.

“Don’t fool me! I know you did cheat on me many times with Anikka!” She accused and her tears started flowing.

“What the fuck are you talking about, Seleira?!” Pasigaw kong tanong.

Putang ina, anong sinasabi ng asawa ko? I never cheat! What the hell is happening here?

“You cheated!” akusa ko.

“I never… what the fuck?! With whom?!” Galit kong tanong. With Anikka? Ganoon ba kababa ang tingin nya sa akin?! Putang ina, hindi ko sya hahabol-habulin limang taon ang nakalipas at hanggang ngayon kung wala lang!

“S-stop lying, please…” she said weakly and covered her face. Mas lalo akong nagalit.

“Hindi ko alam ang sinasabi mo, Seleira! I never cheat! What makes you think I did? Ganoon ba ang tingin mo sa akin?” I asked and made her eyes meet mine by making her face me. My voice is angry but my touch is very gentle. I held her shoulder softly and hold her chin up.

“Seleira, look at me,” I demanded impatiently.

“Stop lying!” galit nyang sigaw.

I didn’t expect the next words that went out of her mouth.

Her father told her that I am cheating with her sister.

Ibang klaseng galit ang namuo sa loob ko. Galit na kailan man ay hindi ko pa naramdaman noon.

Sure, there are plenty of businessmen who fooled me when I was just starting to rise and I got angry but this anger is different.

Nanginginig ako sa galit. Gusto kong manakit at magwala. Nasaktan sya nang dahil doon. Iyon ang iniinda nya noong nagkakalabuan kami.

And fuck it, she endured everything of this fake pain alone! I didn’t know anything, no one told me! She didn’t even tell me about it, she suffered from it alone.

Just thinking of her, crying silently at those night and thinking that I’m cheating will probably be the reason of my death.

I don’t know what made her believe into her father and sister’s lies but fuck… that time, she doesn’t trust me. She didn’t open it to me when in fact, we are married and I am her husband. I should be her number one comfort person.

Galit na galit ako pero pilit kong pinaintindi sa kanya na hindi ako nagloko. Fuck, how the hell can I cheat when my wife is so much better than anyone else?

Walang makakapantay sa kanya. No woman can even come close to her level.

The only thing other women can bark on her is that her inability to cook. Which I think is perfectly fine since I can. I will provide for her and I won’t shame her for anything. Inasawa ko sya dahil mahal ko sya at hindi para gawing tagapagluto ng kakainin ko.

She’s fucking too good for that.

She’s crying so bad that I feel she can’t breathe properly. I hushed her and I hugged her so tight, afraid that she might slip off again.

Ang mas nagpalala ng galit ko ay ang katotohanang nabangga sya at iniwan kaya sya narito.

Teenagers? Fuck age, what they did is a damn crime. No people can just go away when my wife was hurt. I don’t even want to think how she endured it all without me. She was bleeding so bad and that makes me shake in anger right now.

I hugged her so tight and hush her again. My touch maybe soft, but deep inside me is a boiling anger.

Magbabayad lahat ng gumawa nito sa asawa ko. Wala syang laban. Putang ina nila.

I’m glad she believed my explanations because those are really true. I didn’t cheat and I will never. I made a promise that I won’t be controlling and manipulative anymore. I have changed for her.

I’m glad that the heavy luggage in her heart that she probably feeling for many months is now gone. I’ll always give her assurance.

“I think… I still need space.”

I stopped kissing her hair when she said that. I couldn’t even speak at the moment but maybe… Maybe she really needs it.

I have caused her trauma. I made her cry and now she needs a small amount of space for it.

I nodded but I know I look hurt. It’s because I really am. I miss her and I want us to be back together in a roof but if she asks for this, then I’ll give it.

“Kailangan ko lang ng space para makapag-isip… kung saan ba talaga ako dapat. Kung ano ba dapat ang mga ginagawa ko…” she said softly.

Tiningala nya ako kaya tumango ako muli. And then she smiled. From that moment, I knew I’m okay. Just one smile of her while looking at me calms me down.

“Where will you live then?” I asked carefully.

“Kina Tito na muna. Pag-iisipan ko kung ano bang larangan ang para sa akin.”

I nodded again. Good for her. I hope that space won’t be a very long time, huh? Another month without her will be very painful for me to bear. I hope it’s just a week or two.

This time, I will change fully. I will change every toxic trait I have for her. I’ll do every change for my wife.

Now, I will be the better man and no other man will enter the picture. Just me and Seleira. Azriel and Seleira.

“Thank you very much for keeping my wife,” I said seriously.

The man named Strevan nodded.

“Walang anuman. Masaya rin akong nagkaroon ng kasama rito.” He replied with the same intensity and seriousness. I grit my teeth. Sumasagi pa rin ang selos ko noong nakita ko sila.

I sighed before pulling my wallet out of my pocket.

“I don’t mean to offend but do you need money? I will give you much for taking care of my wife.”

He looked at me in an offended way before shaking his head. “Hindi.”

I licked my lips. “Why so? What do you need then?”

I really hope he won’t take this in a wrong way. I just need to help and I want to thank him.

“Hindi ko kailangan. Ang sabi ko, masaya rin akong nagkaroon ng kasama rito.”

Tumango na lang ako at ibinalik ang wallet para matapos na ang usapan.

“Did you hurt her? Did… you do something on her?” I asked, a bit angry now.

My wife is a very naughty and playful woman. She’s picky and mean, too, so I am concerned if this man has ever hurt her out of his anger.

Mariin syang umiling.

“Hindi ko sya sinaktan. At kung inaalala mong may nangyari sa amin, wala. Hindi ko gagawin iyon.”

I clenched my jaw. That’s not what I meant. If something happened between them, then maybe I’ll just forgive even if it will be so painful to me. I’ll just endure it than to lose her again.

I nodded, a bit relieved. This man is really something. I want to do something to help him, at least.

“Aaminin ko, gusto ko sya,” sabi nya.

Kumunot ang noo ko at agad na humakbang papalapit. Nanggalaiti agad ako sa galit at ang selos kanina ay bumalik na naman.

“Pero nalaman kong may asawa sya kaya dumistansya ako.”

“How’d you know?” maangas kong tanong. Mabuti at alam mong may asawa. Mabuti rin at alam mo ang pwesto mo sa buhay nya.

“Isang gabi, nalasing sya…”

“Nalasing!” galit kong pag-uulit. Ginagalit ba talaga ako ng isang ’to?!

He sighed. “Doon ko nalaman. Pag-uwi ay napagkamalan nya akong ikaw. Maraming beses akong sinubukang halikan habang tinatawag ang pangalan mo, ’ Azriel

’ at ‘Hubby’. Gustong gusto nyang angkinin ko sya noong gabing iyon pero pinigilan ko ang sarili ko. Ikaw ang hanap nya at hindi ako,“ mahaba nyang litanya. Hindi rin nakatakas ang pait at sakit sa boses nya.

I slapped my own forehead. My wife is really a naughty and clumsy woman. I just thank the heavens that this man is the one who found and kept her. Kung iba ay marahil pinagsamantalahan na sya. Kung mangyari iyon ay wala sa akin kung makulong ako dahil sa pagpatay.

I nodded. “Thank you so much, no, really, I’m really thankful, man.”

I don’t know how to thank him that will satisfy him but I want him to know that I’m forever thankful of what he did.

Even if he insisted he doesn’t want money, I still gave him. He mentioned that he’ll go in Manila so I managed the vehicle that will pick up his garments and him, as well.

Pag-uwi sa Maynila ay nasa opisina agad ako. Now, every person who did wrong to my wife will pay.

“Franco,” I called.

“Yes, Mr. Nickolson?” he asked attentively.

“Teenagers who bumped my wife with their van and just threw her away. A rainy night two months ago. Purple Meteor street, Manila. One guy is named Laxus.”

Hindi ko na kinailangan pang i-detalye, nakuha na agad nya. This is what I like about him, being my secretrary and right hand. Very smart, attentive and not dramatic. He doesn’t show much reaction and emotion just like me. I only show my emotions to my lovely wife.

“Copy, sir,” he said as he type it down his macbook.

“Put them in jail. They are minors but that won’t stop me. Put them in DSWD and they will be jailed when the time comes. The Laxus one, which is she said to be the driver, make his years in jail longer. 20 fucking years will do. I’ll steal his childhood and future. Do everything, manipulate things if it’s needed. If anyone goes againsts you, just say my damn name,” galit kong utos.

“Yes, sir. I assure you my team can find them in just a week.”

“Also, tell the media to announce to stop about the reward money,” I said. Baka ay pagkaguluhan pa sya kung on going pa ang paghahanap lalo’t may pera.

The next concern I focused on is her father and sister.

I went to their company angrily. I manipulated every damn thing to kick his ass out of their own company. Also, this fucking woman, she can’t enter here anymore.

Kung ako lang ay sasaktan ko ang mga ito. Galit na galit ako pero ang asawa ko ay malamang na malulungkot. I also promised not to be violent to anyone anymore so this is just what I did.

“Please… Huwag ganito, Azriel, I am your father in law!”

“Fuck that shit! Did you forget how heartless you were to your own daughter? You’re doing this because she’s your daughter from your mistress? Putang ina mo, kasalanan mo iyan! If only your dick wasn’t hungry for more than one pussy, then you’re not feeling guilty now! But I’m thankful that it was because my wife is alive!”

Fuck respecting elders when they’re the wrong one.

“Oo at hindi nya kasalanan! Pero gusto ka ng totoo kong anak!”

Itinigil ko sa ere ang kamao ko. My promise to my wife is echoing in my head. Nanginginig kong binawi ang kamay.

“I don’t like anyone except Seleira,” I said.

“That will just pass-”

“Do you fucking hear youself, Simon?! I am your daughter’s husband! And this will all pass? Fuck that! It’s been more than five years, and still… my love for her is still burning wildly and it will never stop. Now, stop bullshitting my wife as long as I can still control myself not to kill anyone.”

I left him while he’s catching his breath. I entered my car and drive immediately. Hindi ko pinansin kahit noong may nakasalubong akong ambulansya sa entrance ng village, na sigurado akong para sa kanya.

I smirked. I don’t even feel bad. At least I didn’t hurt him physically. My wife will not be mad at me.

As for her sister, fuck that but I think she’s a dumb bitch. The fuck she lied for? Does she think she can just steal me away like a thing? Kahit mawala pa si Seleira ay sya lang ang hahanapin ko.

Fuck them for hurting my wife and making her believe with their lies.

I want to hurt them emotionally and physically, to let them feel the pain Seleira endured, but still. I’m holding on to my promise to her.

Napatanag lang ako noong nailagay na sa DSWD ang mga batang iyon. May kahahantungan sila paglaki.

“What did you tell your father two months ago?” I asked coldly.

I looked at Anikka Farrah in front of me. I can feel her nervousness. I might look okay, but deep inside, I am very very mad. I’m just holding on to my promise to my wife that I will not be violent.

“A-anong ibig mong sabihi-”

“Fuck that!” Hindi ko na napigilang magmura. “You know it.”

Napapikit sya saglit bago takot na tumingin sa akin.

“Hindi ko a-alam. T-tsaka si Papa ay nasa ospital ngayon!”

I clenched my jaw. I’m no patient with things like this.

“That’s not what I’m asking and I don’t care about that. I’m asking you, what did you tell your father two months ago?!”

I couldn’t help but to shout at this unbelievable woman.

I know she knows about it. Especially right now that she is starting to cry.

“T…totoo namang… m-may tsansa ’di ba?” umiiyak nyang tanong.

Kumunot ang noo ko at hinampas ang mesa na nagpatalon sa kanya.

“Chance in what?! What did you tell to your father that made my wife cry for nights?!” galit kong tanong.

“Pasensya na-”

“What did you tell him?!” I demanded.

“N-na… na may nangyari sa atin at nagkikita tayo lagi,” she said while crying hard.

Galit na galit kong hinampas muli ang mesa. Bumibilis na ang paghinga ko sa sobrang galit.

“You’re fucking disgusting!” Diring-diri kong sabi. Unbelievable!

She looked at me with so much tears in her eyes but that made me angrier.

“You did that to destroy us! Talagang ginawa mo noong panahong nagsisimula pa lang kami at hindi pa malakas ang tiwala sa akin ng asawa ko!” Gigil na gigil kong sabi.

Gustong-gusto ko syang saktan. Hirap na hirap akong kunin ang tiwala noon ni Seleira tapos ganito pa ang ginawa nila.

“Pasensya na-”

“You’re really disgusting. I thought you’re nice but what makes you think you’re better than my wife, huh? What makes you think I’ll like you?” I asked and looked at her face down to her body mockingly.

“No part of your body or attitude is attractive. You’re nothing compared to your sister,” I added.

Nalaglag ang panga nya at muling bumuhos ang luha. Mukha syang sobrang nasasaktan.

I know I’m sounding harsh but since I can’t hurt her physically, then let me just shatter her confidence.

Damn this woman. Me, having sex with her? Fucking disgusting.

“B-bakit? H… hindi ka naman gusto ng kapatid ko!” Now she’s sounding angry.

“T-tsaka walang alam ang kapatid ko kung hindi magpaganda! Hindi sya marunong sa kahit anong bagay!”

Umigting ang panga ko. Putang ina.

Do not ever talk sick about my wife.

Unti-unti akong lumapit habang madilim ang titig sa kanya. Ramdam ko ang kaba nya at umatras din sya.

“She’s effortlessly pretty and she doesn’t have to do anything for me. I married her because I love her. Now stop your delusions, wake the fuck up! I’m your sister’s husband!”

I thought she’s nice but in reality, she’s not. She hides her real personality. Now, I understand why Seleira is so pissed of this woman.

“I’m warning you… Do not ever lay a finger on my wife. Like what I said, pumapatol at nananakit ako ng babae bukod sa asawa ko.”

My whole attention turned to something else the next days. I even forgot the hatred I’m feeling and the happiness was there in exchange.

My wife has gotten to the top as a supermodel. In. Just. Two. Weeks.

I can’t help but to admire her more. I secretly watch her runaways and I feel so proud.

Men beside me are drooling over her, and I just want to shout that she is my wife. I love her so much.

She was full of praises and of course, hateful comments. Gustong-gusto kong patulan itong mga gumagawa ng fake articles tungkol sa kanya pero pinipigilan ko lamang.

She’s shining so brightly and she’s very famous. I’ve seen her instagram account which I think is not being handled by her anymore. I’ve seen that she’s modeling the biggest brands of women clothes, perfume, lotions, make ups and literally everything.

I love watching her in stages, being admired by many people including me. She slay each outfit and she looks so passionate with what she’s doing.

Finally, I can see her doing her dream job. Dumb me for caging her and making her work in office when her heart is for modelling.

I feel like she’s so much farther now. She’s on top… too high for me. It makes me question myself if I deserve her.

That’s why I did my best to make myself even better. I did my best to excel in my own field-which is business. My name became famous even more and now, a bunch of foreign investors are wanting to do projects with me.

Kasabay ng pag-angat ko ay ang pag-angat nya rin. Yes, wife. We’re doing our bests even if we’re apart. Let’s do our bests for our future.

I always stalk her account and like every post. I also save each picture of her and change my wallpaper everyday. It inspires me to work and makes me smile whenever I’m exhausted.

I also love reading positive articles about her.

Soju

• Which was considered as the worst Korean drink rises up its sales as soon as the Model

Seleira

Nickolson

advertised it.

Read: The power

Seleira

Nickolson

holds!

Soju

which was considered the worst korean drink got their best and highest sales when the photoshoot pictures and videos of

Seleira

Nickolson

has been released! The video of her, drinking

soju

, made the

netizens

thirsty

for it!

Soju

suddenly looked refreshing and expensive. All because of the Queen

Seleira

!

Nation’s It Girl for a reason!

I smiled and felt proud. I’ve watched that short video clip many times. I even downloaded it and they’re right. She drinks it and it made me crave I don’t know for what. Either thirsty for her or for that drink. Maybe both.

I read more article headlines to make myself happy. This is my routine every night except watching “Seleira Nickolson backstage videos” kind of stuffs on youtube. This is my rest.

Seleira

Nickolson

, the most

succesful

Supermodel of

Damés

Elegantes

!

Seleira

Nickolson

as the new face of Dior and new Muse of Hera.

New

ambasaddress

of Prada, guess who?

SELEIRA

NICKOLSON

!

Seleira

Nickolson

, being a head turner even when she’s only wearing a basic shirt and pants. Queen things!

Seleira

Nickolson

got the highest votes and the top place in Most Beautiful Faces of the Philippines 2021!

Seleira

Nickolson

breaking the norms that you need boobs to be hot!

Seleira

Nickolson

, number one trending on twitter after just posting a picture of her newly done nails! Hail the Queen!

Seleira

Nickolson

being the supermodel standard!

SELEIRA

NICKOLSON

, THE MODEL EVERY OTHER MODEL IS JEALOUS OF.

Seleira

Nickolson

climbs up to the spot in just a span of two weeks. Meghan

Lionda

who?

Seleira

Nickolson

-Nation’s It Girl !

Cat walk of

Seleira

Nickolson

is the most viewed video of Dames

Elegantes

’

youtube

account. Her video hit almost 40 million views in just an hour!

Seleira

Nickolson

is the standard of being pretty! Pictures of

Seleira

being effortlessly pretty.

See more…

Seleira

Nickolson

is the first Filipina to be the

ambassaddress

of the world’s most valuable luxury brand, Louis Vuitton!

Those were some headlines. I feel satisfied. I closed my eyes but it’s hard for me to sleep now that my heart is jumping in happiness.

I opened my eyes again to read more. And of course, of there are positive articles, there are negative, too.

Seleira

Nickolson’s

old photos were recovered. Selfies of her kissing different guys! Nation’s It Girl or Nation’s Flirty Girl?

Seleira

Nickolson’s

two weeks of climbing up to her spot has said to be cheating. She has a powerful best friend. Click more to read.

Seleira

Nickolson

• Very pretty face and body, but very stinky personality?

Nakuyom ko kaagad ang kamao ko. Gusto kong pa-imbestigahan kung sinong nasa likod ng mga articles na ito at nang maturuan ng leksyon.

I just hope she didn’t see this. I hope she won’t check social much because there are so many toxic articles.

I hope she’ll just ignore this and just focus shining more.

Finally, she’s now in the place she wants and she deserves. I’ll do everything for her. I miss her… so bad, but if she needs more space, I’ll give it. Kahit ano basta’t kami pa rin sa dulo.

I touched her soft spot between her legs. Agad syang lumiyad habang nakatingin sa akin gamit ang mga mapupungay nyang mata. Pulang-pula ang labi at ang pisngi.

“Hmm?” I tease and stopped caressing it.

I went to an after party of one of her gigs and I couldn’t control myself when I saw her there.

I think she got mad because she asked for space but… I really just want to see her. And if she’ll be uncomfortable all night then I’ll just leave.

“Hubby! Hold it more, please… Hubby,” she moaned and tried to reach for my lips but I moved my face away.

She groaned in frustration and she started crying.

I can’t help but to smile. She’s really so cute. Everytime we make love and I stop to see her reaction, she will literally cry.

“Hush, hush,” I said gently and wiped her cheeks. I also kissed the both of it. “Such a baby, huh?”

“AZRIEL!” Pagalit nyang tawag. Very very impatient. I chuckled in so much joy.

“My baby’s hungry for kisses,” I tease again as I caress her clitoris now.

Kinagat nya ang labi nya at mas idiniin ang sarili sa akin. Basang basa na sya.

Tang ina.

“Fucking hot,” I commented. Tinitigan ko sya nang mariin habang nawawala sya sa sarili.

Nanghihina na ang mga kamay nya at hindi na makakapit nang maayos sa balikat ko.

I really love kissing her all over her body before I enter her. She loves it, I know she does. She would arch her back and purr like a cat in heat.

I told her we’ll just sleep, but damn… I missed her so bad. I love her so much. Seeing her in my bed here in my condo drove me thirsty for her again!

I then planted soft kisses on her collar bones. She hugged my head to bury my face there more.

Damn it, I couldn’t breathe properly. But it’s fine, it’s Seleira who did it. She can also kill me and I’ll just request a last kiss from her. I’m willing to accept anything she would want to do to me.

“Baby, I love you… I miss you,” I said and tried to look at her. But this woman is already holding onto my belt. Damn it.

“Hubby, remove please?” she requested using her baby voice.

I closed my eyes for a while to recover from her effect.

“Later,” I said huskily.

She then started crying which made me panic but I found her really hot. Now, her nose is flushed red, too.

There’s really no make love with her where she doesn’t cry. She always cry when she doesn’t get what she wants.

“Tsk. Tsk. What a spoiled baby,” I whispered.

She continued crying and slap my shoulder. I can’t help but to melt and just chuckle.

Shit, my member down there is so hard. Kanina pa lang sa byahe ay tumitigas na ’yan, hindi ko lang alam kung pansin nya ba.

I wiped her tears again and kissed the both of her cheeks.

I looked at her womanhood again. It’s really so pretty and it is so wet. Her private part has always been shaved… no, I mean her pubic hair has always been lasered out.

I don’t mind if there will be hair since it’s normal, but if she prefers none, then be it. I have no say because that’s her body.

“Hubby, you’re so slow! Stop kissing me and put your dick inside me now!” she ranted out like a spoiled kid.

Napaawang ang bibig ko sa gulat. Mahina akong natawa. She really have a dirty mouth. Dirtier than mine but fuck, that made my cock harder even more.

Hinaplos ko ang kaselanan nya para manahimik sya. She moaned and arch her back again. I feel pity, I’ll eat her now.

“Baby, sit on my face, please,” I requested and kissed her neck again.

“Hubby, no!” She was about to add something but then she moaned… “I’m heavy.”

“No, you’re not. Sit on my face as I eat you, please.”

She giggled excitedly which made me aggressive even more. I’m so hungry for her and her cum.

Malaking pagpipigil ang ginagawa ko para hindi ko sya mapisil sa gigil ko.

She aggreed but still, she’s shy. Bumangon sya at ako ang humiga.

“Hubby?” she asked for guidance. I hold her hand and guide her to my face.

“Sit now,” napapaos kong utos habang nakatingin sa kanya.

She pouted. “Can you breathe?”

I chuckled. “A bit. Please, just sit, wife. I want to eat you now…”

She slowly sit on my face. I told her to hold onto the bed’s headboard.

“Hubby- Ahh!”

I started licking her clit and I hold onto her butt. She moaned so loud which made me more eager to eat her.

“Azriel! Azriel! Oh my gosh!” she moaned. Hinawakan ko pa ang hita nya upang pumirmi sya dahil sobrang likot nya.

Damn, it really tastes so addicting. Her moans turn me on even more.

I continued eating her out. I entered my tongue on her hole which made her groan. She’s also grinding on me.

Fuck, my baby’s so turn on!

“Ah ah ah!”

Ibinuka ko pa ang hita nya para makain sya lalo. I made sure she’s so wet when I enter my one finger while still eating her clit so it won’t be painful for her.

“Hubby! What the- More please, please, Azriel!” she moaned sweetly.

I eat her even if I can barely breathe. This position is probably her favorite now so we’ll always do it.

I stopped when I feel like she’s twerking on me. Gotdamn, she’s fucking my face. Fucking hot.

Bumangon ako at dahan-dahan syang binuhat upang maalis sa mukha ko. Inihiga ko sya at bago pa sya maka-react ay inilagay ko na ang dalawa nyang hita sa balikat ko at inginudngod ang sarili ko muli sa kaselanan nya.

She’s moaning my name and begs for more.

“Cum for me, baby. I want to taste it so bad,” I said. She couldn’t answer properly. Her legs are now shaking and I know she’s near.

Putang ina, Seleira. Talagang bubuntisin kita.

We shared a hot night together. We had four rounds and we tried different positions which she liked very much.

Although I want more, she got tired and so sleepy so we just cuddled for a bit before sleeping.

Our relationship is now okay which makes me so happy. Wala akong ginagawa kung hindi ang yakapin at halikan sya.

Kahit nag-aayos sya ng buhok nya ay nakayakap ako sa kanya. Takot na takot na talaga akong mawala pa sya.

“Baby…” I called while trying to catch her sight. She’s busy with her phone.

“Hmm?” tanong nya pero hindi man lang tumingin sa akin.

I sighed painfully. I don’t know why but it really hurts me if she doesn’t look at me. I know she’s busy, but I just want a bit of her attention.

Niyakap ko na lang sya at hinalikan sa sintido. Pinanood ko rin ang kanyang ginagawa sa cellphone.

“Wife…” I called again. I really can’t stop myself.

“Yes, hubby?” she asked softly and looked at me. Finally.

Napangiti ako nang haplusin nya ang buhok ko. Mas lalo akong sumiksik sa kanya.

She chuckles and put her head on my chest. Mas bumuti ang pakiramdam ko dahil pinansin nya na ako.

I always text her when we’re not together. Hindi pa ako makapag-focus sa trabaho tuwing hindi sya nagrereply o natatagalan.

I want to impregnate her so bad. But it’s not to the point that I’m putting my semen inside her, without her knowing. I always ask if I can cum inside her. I would love to but if she refuses, then I’ll pull out.

But she always agree so I always put it inside. I also take her every time we have time. These days, we’re making love every day. It will be impossible for her not to get pregnant.

I’ve thought of her career. I wonder if she will be mad when she got pregnant but… I didn’t push her to be pregnant, right? I always ask for her consent if I can cum inside her and she always say yes.

We then found out she’s pregnant.

I had a hunch that she’s pregnant since the beginning of this month because she’s so mean to me. Galit na galit sa akin pero gusto namang niyayakap at hinahalikan ko.

I don’t know what the right thing to do when I found out she’s pregnant with my child.

Sa totoo lang ay takot na takot akong mapahamak sya at kung pwede lang yumakap ako sa kanya sa lahat ng oras ay gaagwin ko.

Tuwang-tuwa ako at halos mapisil ko sya. Ingat na ingat din ako sa kanya pero ilang beses syang nahimatay.

Galit na galit ako habang nakikinig sa doktor. Her pregnancy is very sensitive and I’m afraid I might lose one of them. Mababaliw ako kung may masama pang mangyayari kay Seleira.

This is really my dream coming true. Years ago, I only dream of having a family with her. Now, it is now the reality. I don’t have to sleep because my reality is so much better now.

Whenever someone asks if she’s pregnant, I say “We’re pregnant”. Because I include myself here. I include myself with my wife’s journey and I want her to feel that she’s not alone.

I cried. I didn’t feel ashame while she was staring at me when I cried out of so much joy. She hugged me softly. I’m gonna be a father… And Seleira is my wife. We’ll be forever with each other with our children.

I became a very protective husband after that. Hindi ako papayag na hindi kami sabay maligo dahil baka madulas sya o ano. I also always carry her and in the stairs, my arms are snaked on her waist. I’m so afraid of something might happen to her and our baby.

I badly want to shop for our baby, too. I couldn’t imagine the amount of joy I’ll feel while holding those small baby clothes and baby stuffs. Nakakataba ng puso. I really thank my wife, she’s all that I need and want.

Umiiyak sya habang yakap yakap ako. Tinatahan ko naman sya habang hinalik-halikan ang buhok.

“Hush, hush. What do you want? I’ll give and buy everything you want,” I said gently.

Nakakalong sya sa akin habang umiiyak sa dibdib ko.

“HUBBY!” she called while crying. I smiled and kissed her forehead. She is very emotional these days.

“What do you want?” malambing kong tanong.

We are here in the mansion’s dining room while her manager and other closed people are eating.

“Maybe you like other girls, huh?!” she accused. Napangisi ako kaagad. Iyan pala ang ikinaseselos at iniiyak nya.

“I don’t, baby,” I said gently and kissed her forehead.

Hahaplusin ko na sana ang pisngi nya pero umiwas sya. “Don’t touch me! Your hands are dirty!”

She threw me angry looks while I’m looking at her lovingly. I smiled again.

“I’m sorry, wife,” malambing kong sabi.

She then pout and hugged me again. Niyakap ko rin sya nang mas mahigpit. “I love you.”

Lumayo sya kaya nakita ko ang umiiyak nyang mga mata.

She wrinkled her nose. “Hmp! Stinky hubby!” The cuteness of my wife is really out of this world.

I chuckled. “What? I just took a bath,” I said.

She pouted and hugged me again. Mas lalo pang sumiksik sa leeg ko.

“I thought I’m stinky?” I asked while smirking.

She started crying again which made Pearl and Hope laugh.

“Hmm… hubby smells good,” she murmurs. Natawa na lamang ako at niyakap pa sya para idiin sa dibdib ko.

“Tinotoyo ang buntis!” Pearl ranted and laughed. I chuckled as well but a soft punch from my wife made me stop.

“Don’t laugh!”

I licked my lips and nodded. “I’m sorry, wife. Forgive me, please?”

She pouted and rolled her eyes. She can be throw me her worst attitude and I’ll still be a patient husband. I just love her more than I love myself.

Kahit magalit pa sya dahil sa maliliit at walang kwentang bagay ay susuyuin ko pa rin sya. Susuyuin, hahalikan, at yayakapin.

“Let’s just go to our room,” I said and put my fork down.

“True! Gawan mo na lang iyan para umungol na lang at hindi na mag-inarte!” Si Pearl.

I chuckled again. Her manager has such a very vulgar mouth.

“Pearl!” reklamo ni Seleira. Agad ko syang niyakap at hinalikan ang noo.

“Oh bakit? Ayaw mo?” Pearl asked while laughing. My wife’s cheeks suddenly went red.

“Araruhin mo, Azriel, para matulog na! Ang arte arte,” she added and laugh evilly.

I smirked and looked at my wife’s tomato cheeks. She’s very shy and embarrassed now.

I leaned in to her ear to whisper. “Araruhin daw kita? Hmm? Sa kama?”

Mas lalo syang namula. I chuckled. I was just joking because I don’t want her to be tired. I love her so much that I don’t want her to feel any kind of pain.

“Yes, please, hubby,” she whispered back. Kumunot ang noo ko. I knew it, she would be naughty.

Pinunasan ko na lamang ang luha nya habang nagbabanta syang tiningnan.

“Araruhin ko ako nang mabilis-”

I kissed her to shut her up. Damn it! Now, I’m turned on. She’s really very naughty sometimes.

“Stop,” napapaos kong bulong. “I thought we both talked that we won’t do it much often?”

Lumukot ang mukha nya at muling umiyak. Napatingin tuloy dito ang iba. Inayos ko na lamang ang pagkakaupo nya sa hita ko.

“Bakit, huh? Ayaw mo akong araruhin, huh?!”

Napapikit ako nang sabihin nya iyon. Tang ina talaga. Nagtawanan ang tatlo at napapalakpak pa sa tuwa si Pearl.

“Ano ba ’yan, Azriel! Sabi sa iyo at gawin mo na eh!”

Umiling-iling ako habang nakangisi.

I stoop up and carried her in front of me like a big baby. She’s still crying and I feel bad. Iaakyat ko na lamang sa kwarto at patutulugin.

The next days, we went out to get my tattoo. It’s a tattoo on my right bicep with her name on it.

Seleira

It’s so fucking pretty to see her name inked on my skin. Pakiramdam ko ay kanyang kanya ako. Hindi nya ako ipapamigay sa kahit sino.

But hours after we went home, I found my things covered with pink glitters. Fuck, it is so hard to remove those shiny things!

“Then who the hell will put glitters here?” Iritado kong tanong kay Linda nang pumasok sya ng kwarto.

Linda didn’t answer. I didn’t speak either.

But then we heard soft and cute giggles… It came from none other than my wife.

“I knew it,” I said and I couldn’t help but to smirk. My wife was playful but she is naughtier now that she’s pregnant.

She looked at me while laughing. Agad ko syang pinatungan kaya tumili sya.

“Not me!” tumatawa nyang sabi at muling tumili.

“Really?” Nakangisi kong tanong at nagsimulang kilitiin sya. Tumili sya habang tumatawa.

“Azriel!” she called and tried to push me. “Not me!”

She’s really my wife. I would do anything for this playful woman.

Tili sya nang tili. Ang sarap sa tainga lalo na kapag natatawa sya. Ibinaon ko ang mukha ko sa leeg nya at dinilaan iyon.

“Hubby, you deserve those pink glitters!” she said. I stopped tickling her and kissed her soft forehead.

“Why so? You pretty witch. You put your magical pink glitters on my things, huh? Where else did you put those stuff?” I asked gently while caressing her hair.

She pouted and giggled. “In your car, hubby!”

Fuck! But it’s fine. I can’t help but to melt with her cuteness. Her giggles and pouts are my favorite.

I really love this playful side of her. She’s such a baby.

I stared at me darkly even if I’m already melting inside. Napapikit ako nang maalalang nilagyan nya pati ang kotse ko “Fuck.”

Playful woman right here. The prettiest witch has cast a spell on me again, huh? Or the prettiest fairy has put her pixie dust on my things.

“I’m sorry, but it is your fault!” she said cutely.

“How come it’s my fault, wife?” malambing kong tanong at hinalikan ang ilong nya.

“Autumn’s boobs were so close to your knees and face!” she accused and throw me deadly stares. Hindi pa ako kaagad nakasagot dahil napatitig ako sa kanya habang salubong ang mga kilay nya.

Damn cute.

“Who the hell is Autumn?” I asked. I think I’ve heard that name but couldn’t remember who exactly.

“The tattoo artist!” inis nyang sagot.

Oh, that woman. She was obviously making moves on me. Didn’t my wife see that I was irritated? Like what I said, I’m suddenly not attracted to big boob anymore. I am very content with my wife’s.

“I know she was making moves. I was and still disgusted, wife,” I said.

“Liar!” she accused again.

“I’m not. I would love it if it’s yours,” sincere kong sabi.

She threw me again her dark stares. “I don’t have those size!”

She’s really insecure of her breasts. Maybe it’s my fault since I was a jerk who once loved big boobs. I feel bad for my past.

Kung pwede kong lang maibalik ay hinding hindi ko gagawin ang mga iyon. I want to help her with her insecurities.

It’s only her breasts that I want to kiss and touch. She doesn’t know how I love them. They are pink, soft and just cute. I always love to eat and sleep on them.

I asked for a baby boy but I received more.

She is pregnant with two baby boys! Damn it, imagine having my two boys here! Seleira is really my dream. And now she’s giving me more. More than I expected. More than I asked for.

I ordered more baby boy stuffs online for my other baby, Uzziel Chase.

Now, I have three babies in total. I have so many to take care of. The prettiest one is the love of life. She’s very jealous so I must do my best to walk away from girls who show motives.

After knowing that, I contacted this hotel’s crew team to help me arrange my proposal. Dumating na rin ang singsing na isang taon kong ipinagawa.

I am very ready to marry her again. I am dying to have a family with her.

“I love you, hubby!”

Napapikit ako at dinama iyon. Hindi ko mapigilan na mangiti. Ang tagal ko itong hinintay. Kaya ngayong narito na ay hindi mapigilan na paulit-ulitin syang sabihin iyon.

“Baby, I love you… Do you love me?” I asked gently and buried my face on her neck.

She giggled. I caress her big tummy while kissing her neck.

“I love you, Azriel!”

Kinagat ko ang labi sa tuwa. Ang sarap talagang mapakinggan. Pakiramdam ko ay mahal na mahal nya ako.

“Akin ka, Azriel! You better throw your other girls!” nanggigil nyang sabi.

I can’t help but to chuckle while melting. Damn, yes, baby please… Ipagdamot mo pa ako.

“Yes, baby. I’m yours. I don’t have other girls.”

Inangat ko ang tingin ko at nakanguso na sya. Agad ko syang masuyong hinalikan.

My heart is really so full right now. My baby is pregnant and she’s so lovely. She also started telling me she loves me and now I am very addicted to it.

“Mahal mo ako?” tanong ko muli.

“Yes, hubby. Mahal na mahal kita.”

I groaned. I hid my face on her neck again and I hugged her tight.

“I love you more. I’m your husband, Seleira,” I said.

She giggled. “I know!”

“Let’s just cuddle here, please?” I requested. I love to cuddle my pretty pregnant wife.

Humalik pa ako sa kanya sa sobrang kasabikan ko. Pakiramdam ko ay palagi ko syang nami-miss. Hinding hindi na ata mawawala ito. I just love her so much and I hate it whenever she’s far from me literally.

I always want her on my side, especially that our babies are inside her.

“Okay, hubby…”

“Do you love me? I love you, wife. I love you all so much,” sincere kong sabi.

She smirked which is I think a bad sign.

“I love you, hubby… Would you follow anything I’ll say?”

Kumunot ang noo ko. “Yes, but no divorce. No me, sleeping outside the room.”

She laughed and even hit me lightly. I smirked, too.

“No! Hindi ’yan!”

“Then what, hmm?”

Nagulat ako nang itulak nya ako pahiga sa kama at pumatong sa akin.

“Seleira, what the fuck?” nakangisi kong tanong at inalalayan ang bewang nya.

Damn it, my pregnant wife is on top of me with a playful smirk plastered on her pretty face.

“Let me be the top!”

I chuckled but I quickly recovered from it. Umangat ako at mabilis na pinagpalit ang pwesto namin. Pero kahit mabilis ay ingat na ingat ako sa kanya.

She shrieked and laughed. Now, I’m the one on top.

“No, baby… I’m the top. You’re the bottom,” I said huskily.

She giggled cutely. Her eyes are now burning of desire.

“Please, hubby?” nalalambing nyang tanong. Sinimulan ko na syang halikan.

“Hubby,” pagtatawag nyang muli.

“Hmm?” nakangiti kong tanong.

She then giggled. “Dogstyle, please? Please hubby…”

I closed my eyes problematically. My member is now very very hard. Nawawalan na rin ako ng kontrolat natatakot akong masyadong manggigil sa kanya. Masasaktan sya.

“Shh…” I tried to shut her up with a kiss caressing her tummy.

“Azriel, dali na! Gusto ko nakatuwad-”

“Shut your beautiful mouth,” nakangisi kong sabi at hinalikan na lang sya. She just giggled between the kiss like a mad woman.

Damn it, I really should have a grip of myself and not be blinded by her hotness and silliness. I’d do her roughly if she won’t stop.

When she got pregnant, her sex drive has become higher. Which is I’m okay about. I’m trying my best not to make her tired but she’s the one asking for it! Wala akong magawa at saka gusto ko rin.

“I love you, hubby!” She said again using her sweet bedroom voice.

I smiled. “I love you more.”

I will forever be addicted with the way she tells me she loves me. I will never get over it. I will always ask her because it feels so good.

Five years ago, I was only dreaming of her. Now, she’s here in my arms already, willingly and she loves me genuinely.

Without her, my life would be dull, boring, and dark. Girls, alcohol, sex and work. That’s it.

She made me realize that there are more things that are better than that.

She made me feel pain and love. She made me feel alive and not just surviving. She made me feel how worthless I am and now she’s making me feel as if I’m the best man in the world. She deserves better so I am getting better. I am also the better man that she deserve. Tito Glassifer is right, I am the only man that his niece deserves.

We have encountered so many problems that forced us to grow and change. Without those challenges, our marriage will probably still be toxic.

I’ve realized that Obsession is not a form of love. It is not love to cage her. It is not love to stop her from her dreams. It is not love to be violent and agressive whenever you’re jealous. It is not love to manipulate things just to get her.

It is love when you let her do the things she wants. It is love when you let her explore the world. It is love when you trust her that she won’t like other man. It is love when you don’t force her to things she doesn’t want. It is love when you always ask for consent. It is love when you feel proud seeing her shine and being appreciated by many people.

Seleira is the love of my life.

I was very toxic and I regret it. She never ask me to change, but I am doing it on my own willingly. I changed because I love her. I changed because I want to be better for her.

One of the reasons I changed because I don’t want her uncles to be disappointed on me. I respect them because Seliera loves them. But the main reason I changed is because Seleira deserves more.

And after all, I can say that it is worth it. The five years of pain and suffering was worth it. It was worth the shot.

Because seeing her, walking down the aisle and wearing all white, makes me forget everything. Seeing her crying out of joy right now makes me forget the pain, the suffering, the heartaches, the disappointments, the tears and every painful feeling I have felt before. Her love heals all the wounds of my past.

My parents, Tito Glassifer and Tito Hiro, and the two maids holding my two baby boys are all crying out of joy, too. I will never hurt her, your trust is worth it.

Every person here now is witnessing how I marry the only woman of my life again. Heck, this marriage is very elegant and cost me millions, but I don’t care. This is her dream and I love to make her dreams come true like what she did to mine.

You really cannot love without getting hurt. But for Seleira, I will endure everything.

’Cause you make my heart feel like it’s summer

When the rain is pouring down

You make my whole world feel all right when it’s

wrong

That’s how

I know you are the one

That’s why I know you are the one

To Seleira, the love of my life, I promise to be a faithful, patient, and loving husband. I already was but this time, I’ll be better. I’ll love you in every single way possible. I’ll protect and love you and our children.

My life is nothing without her.

Indeed, Seleira is the highlight of my life. Always have and always will.

This is Azriel Danzel Nickolson, promising to the gods of olympus, to the gods of destiny and fortune, to the gods of the land and the sea, that I’ll love my family until my very last breath.

Anikka

Anikka’s

.

I’m jealous of everything she have.

Walang wala ang buhay namin sa buhay nya. Hindi ko pa maintindihan noon kung bakit. Bakit sya ang mas lamang gayong ako naman ang legal na anak.

“Kilala ko sya, mama,” pagkausap ko sa aking ina noong nabubuhay pa sya.

I know her so well. I actually seen her personally.

“M-maganda ba?” Nahihirapang tanong ni mama. Inayos ko muna ang kumot nya na magtatatlong taon nya na ring ginagamit.

Ngumiti ako nang mapait bago sumagot, “Sobra po.”

“Maganda po ang uniform nila, ’ma. Parang iyong sa mga anime na napapanood ko,” paglalarawan ko. Nakita ko sya noong sya ay nasa high school pa.

Sobrang ganda nyang nagdadalaga. Pinagmasdan ko lahat ng mga tao tuwing dumadaan sya, nababali ang leeg katitingin, babae man o lalaki, matanda man o bata.

“Hmm… m-maganda ang ina nya, Anikka.”

Napayuko ako nang tumulo ang pinipigilan kong luha. Alam ni mama. Alam ni mama ang tungkol sa kabit ni papa. Iyon ang nagpapalala ng kondisyon nya. Stress.

“K-kaya mas m-mahal iyon ng p-papa mo-”

“MA!” I cried. Tumawa sya pero kumislap ang kanyang pisngi, tanda na umiiyak sya. Nagmumukhang matanda si mama dahil sa sakit nya.

“Ituloy mo, Anikka… Gusto kong marinig ang tungkol sa anak nya.”

Nagpunas muna ako ng luha at tumikhim bago magsalitang muli.

“Ang gaganda ng gamit nya, ’ma. Palaging mga branded, iyong mga brands na nakikita ko sa magazines!” I laughed.

Hindi kumibo si mama kaya nagpatuloy ako.

“Nang makita ko syang muli ay nasa kolehiyo na sya. Sobrang ganda nya talaga at nakakainggit. Parang nahihiya ako kung malalaman nyang ako ang kapatid nya. Para akong basura pag tinabi sa kanya,” I laughed but I’m really in pain.

“Anak. T-tigilan mo ang paggaganyan,” saway ni mama. Tumango na lamang ako.

“N-nalaman ko na pag kolehiyo pala sa Manila, hindi sila nag-uuniform. Dalawang beses ko syang nakita, ’ma.”

Sobrang ganda nya na para syang iyong mga bida sa anime. Parang pumapabor ang araw sa kanya at kahit saan sya pumunta ay nagliliwanag sya. Para syang kumikislap sa paningin ko.

Naiinggit ako.

Mas lalo akong nainggit nang magkita na kami at malaman nyang may kapatid sya.

She was crying her heart out. She looked even prettier with her nose and cheeks flushed.

Napatingin ako sa lalaking katabi nya. Pakiramdam ko ay sya lang ang nakikita ko sa sandaling iyon. Matangkad sya at matipuno. Sobrang gwapo rin. Mas lalo itong gwapong tingnan nang bahagyang galit ang itsura nya.

Nalaglag ang panga ko nang makita ko kung paano nya hinahalik-halikan at sinusuyo ang kapatid kong umiiyak.

“What on earth happened? You got another daughter?!” Nagulat ako sa pagsigaw nito sa galit. I can’t even be mad at him for shouting at my father because he looks so handsome. Magkasalubong ang mga kilay at hinaharangan ang kapatid ko ng isa nyang braso na tila pinoprotektahan ito.

Parang may kung anong kumurot sa puso ko.

“L-let me explain-” si Papa.

“You better do cause whatever you’re doing is hurting my wife!”

Napayuko ako. Nakurot ko ang daliri dahil sa kung anong nararamdaman. Para akong nasasaktan.

He is standing for him. Hindi na makapagsalita si Seleira at umiiyak na lamang.

Para syang tigreng nagagalit sa papa ko. Pero kay Seleira ay napakalambot ng mga mata nya kung tingnan nya ito. Hinahalik-halikan pa at inaamoy ang buhok nito. Nakikita ko ring bumubulong sya ng kung ano.

Mali ba kung sasabihin kong gusto ko rin no’n?

Nagseselos ako, sa tingin ko. At gusto ko sya. Gusto ko ang asawa ng kapatid ko.

Ang sabi noon ni mama maganda rin naman ako. Morena ako at pilipinang pilipina ang itsura. Samantalang si Seleira, ay parang may lahi. Her features look so foreign. Hindi nakakasawa ang ganda nya.

Naiinis kong hinubad ang dress ko nang makarating kami sa bahay. Inilock ko ang pinto ng kwarto ko at itinapon ang sarili sa kama.

Naiinis ako.

Hindi naman ako naiinis sa kanya dati kahit na may talagang marangya syang buhay. Tanggap ko pa nga eh, at nagagandahan ako sa kanya. Inggit lang ang nararamdaman ko noon, pero hindi ko sya tinuring na kaaway.

Pero ngayon, inggit at inis na. May galit pa.

“

Uuwi

na kami ng asawa ko.“

Tinapon ko ang unan sa pader nang maalala ang sinabi nya. Narinig ko ang pangalan nya ay Azriel. Naiinis ako. Hindi ko maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko.

Ilang beses na rin naman akong nasabihang maganda. Pero hindi ko pa naranasan na pagtinginan sa tuwing dadaan ako.

Sinubukan kong magpabili kay papa ng mga mamahaling damit. Binilhan nya naman ako. Ito ang unang beses na hingin ko to sa kanya.

Isinuot ko ang tube top at high-waisted short na pinarisan ko ng blazer. I’ve seen her once wearing this and she looks so hot. Nababali ang leeg katitingin sa bawat daan nya. Siguradong ako rin.

Lumabas ako at naglakad sa plaza. Inaasahan kong pagtitinginan din ako pero wala. Kung meron, sumusulyap lang pero iiwas din ng tingin.

Galit kong hinubad ang mga damit nang makabalik sa kwarto ko.

“Bakit ganon?! Bakit hindi katulad ng kanya ang reaksyon ng mga tao!” Naiinis kong sigaw sa sarili.

Dyan nagsimula ang galit, inggit, at pagkamuhi ko sa kanya.

Binuksan ko ang cellphone ko at hinanap ang account nya, isang araw.

Marami syang followers, posts, commenters at likers.

Magaganda ang mga post nya. Minsan sya at minsan ay mga pagkain.

She also have many highlights. Merong isang highlight na may pangalang “FRESHMAN” which is I think mga pictures at videos noong first year college sya. Merong highlights na puro mga kaibigan nya tapos sila ni tito Glassifer.

They are so close. Kung hindi mo kilala ay mukha silang mag-nobyo dahil mas bata ang itsura ni Tito Glassifer kaysa sa edad nya. Matipuno at tuwing may litrato kasama si Seleira ay mukhang magkasintahan talaga.

Puro mamahalin pa ang mga bags nya. Iyong mga brands ay nakikita ko lamang sa magazines.

She can also speak english well. Ako ay hindi masyado. Mas magaling lang ako kung isinusulat ito dahil napag-iisipan ko pa ang grammar.

Simula noong business event na ipinakilala ako ni Papa ay mayroon namang mga pumapansin na sa akin. Pero hindi ako makuntento dahil hindi naman sila ang gusto ko.

“Anong ibig mong sabihing may nagugustuhan ka na?!” gulat na tanong ni Ate Primrose, isa sa mga pinsan ko.

Tatlo kami rito dahil narito rin ang isa ko pang pinsang si Mika.

Humagikhik ako at nakaramdam ng pag-init ng pisngi. Nanlaki rin ang mga mata ko at bumilis ang tibok ng puso.

“Sino?” tanong ni Mika at kumain ng palabok.

Hindi ko mapigilang mangiti. “Hmm…”

“O’sige, i-describe mo na lang!” Si Ate Prim naman at kumain ng puto.

“Okay…” sabi ko at ngumiti muli. “Gwapo.”

“Ooh!”

“Ano pa?”

“Matangkad at matipuno,” sabi ko pa at inaalala sya.

Nagkatinginan sila at parehong tumawa. “Sino?! Bihira ang matitipunong gwapo!”

Dinilaan ko ang labi ko at hindi agad sinagot kung sino.

“Seryoso lagi ang itsura pero nalalambot din ang mga mata nya,” sabi ko at natigilan.

Ayokong sabihin na nanlalambot lang ang mga mata nya sa tuwing titingin kay…

“Hala! Parang ang gwapo nga! Kilala ba namin?” si Mika na bahagya pang kinikilig.

“Hindi ako sigurado… Pero sikat sya, at isang CEO!” Proud kong sabi at ngumiti.

“CEO!” gulantang nilang pag-uulit.

Humagikhik ako.

Ano ba ito?! Pakiramdam ko ay proud na proud ako at nag-iinit ang mga pisngi ko. Napahawak tuloy ako doon at napapikit.

“Hala! Kilala ka?!”

“Wait! Nakilala mo ’to noong ipinakilala ka sa business event ano?” hula ni Ate.

I nodded. Nagtilian sila at nakisali ako.

“Kaso…” panimula ko.

“Kaso ano? May girlfriend ba?” natatawang tanong ni Mika pero halatang nagbibiro lang sya.

Umiwas ako ng tingin. “May asawa.”

Tulad ko, umusbong din ang galit nila sa kapatid ko. Kahit hindi naman nila kilala ay nagalit sila dahil umiyak ako.

Hinding-hindi pa ako nagkagusto sa isang lalaki at ngayon lang. Kaya ang malamang may asawa sya ay sobrang nakakasakit.

Bakit naman ganito? Unang beses ko tapos ay ganito pa ang nangyari.

“Tahan na, Nik… Business naman pala ang marriage. Hindi iyan magtatagal!” pampalubag-loob sa akin ni Mika.

“Tama! Sa una lang ’yan. Mare-realize nyang lalaking hindi nya pala mahal kaya tahan na.”

Tumango ako at nagpunas ng luha. Bahagyang gumaan ang pakiramdam ko dahil doon.

Tama. It’s just a business marriage. Tulad ng sa mga celebrities, hindi iyan magtatagal.

“Ang gawin mo, magpapansin ka!” sabi ni Ate Primrose. Kumunot naman ang noo ko.

“Paano naman? Sobrang layo ng agwat namin ni Seleira. Sobrang ganda noon,” malungkot kong sabi.

Mahinang hinampas ni Mika ang braso ko. “Ano ka ba? Maganda ka rin! Baka nga maputi lang ’yun!”

“Tama. Ano bang flaws noon? Imposibleng walang flaws ’yon at perpekto ano!”

Inalala ko ang sinabi ni Papa. Bago ang business event na iyon ay nagsabi sa akin si Papa.

“Your sister is a very spoiled girl. Don’t mess with her or do anything that will make her cry. She will cry once she get frustrated or when she doesn’t get what she wants. And once she’ll cry, lagot tayo sa asawa nya.”

I just nodded, not minding it that much because I haven’t met Azriel that time yet. Hindi ko naman alam na ang asawa nya pala ang pinakaunang lalaking magugustuhan ko.

“Also, she can’t cook or clean. But don’t make fun of it or even mention it kasi mafufrustrate sya. Baka magalit ang asawa at malagay sa panganib ang kompanya.”

Iyon ang mga naalala ko. Hindi sya marunong magluto o maglinis. Mga bagay kung saan magaling ako.

“Oh? Ano? Talagang perfect?!” pangungulit ni Mika.

Umiling ako at ngumiti. “Hindi sya marunong magluto o maglinis. Spoiled brat din.”

They suddenly looked disgusted.

“Nge? Walang kwentang asawa kung ganoon. Hindi marunong magluto o maglinis!”

Tumango ako at bahagyang bumuti ang loob.

“Kung ganoon, mag-request ka kay Tito na magtrabaho doon! Tapos simulan mo!”

Iyon nga ang ginawa ko. Humiling ako kay Papa at dahil minsan lang naman ako mag-request ng mga bagay bagay ay pinagbigyan nya ako.

“Ah,” sabi ko at idinaan sa tawa ang hiya. “Naisip ko lang kung pwedeng sumakay?”

Pakiramdam ko ay pulang-pula ang mga pisngi ko habang nakatingala sa kanya. Sobrang gwapo nya! Ang kanyang perpektong panga ay parang ang sarap haplusin.

Ang totoo ay alam kong pribado ang elevator na ito. Pero gusto kong… makasama sya.

Hindi ba gusto ng mga lalaki iyong conservative na mga babae? Hindi ganoon si Seleira.

Ang mga suot nya ay laging maiikli pero bagay naman sa kanya. Kahit ano ay bagay sa kanya.

Iniisip ko lang na mas gusto ng mga lalaki iyong conservative. Kaya naman ang suot suot ko ngayon ay isang longsleeves na office dress at lampas hanggang tuhod.

“Miss Farrah, private elevator po iyan ng CEO,” sabi ng isang nagtatrabaho rito. Lumingon ako at umiling.

“Naku, mukhang ayos lang naman kay Azriel. Hindi ba?” Tanong ko at mas pinalambing pa ang boses ko.

“No,” he said. “This is a private elevator for me and my wife.”

Nanlumo ako nang pindutin nya ang button at muling umakyat ang elevator.

Marahas akong bumuntong hininga at napahawak sa dibdib. Ang sakit pala…

BAKIT KASI SI SELEIRA?!

Kung malulugi ang kompanya ni Papa ilang buwan ang nakalipas ay sana ako na lang. Marunong akong magluto, maglinis, maalaga at gusto ko pa sya! Ang sabi ni Papa ay hindi raw gusto ni Seleira si Azriel kaya… kahit papa’no ay may pag-asa pa rin.

Inis na inis ako ngayon at halos umiyak ako rito. Pwede naman nya akong pasakayin ah? Nagbihis pa ako pero ni hindi nya man lang tiningnan ang suot ko.

Samantalang kay Seleira ay lagi kong nakikitang naglalakbay ang mata nya sa katawan nito. Yayakapin nya at sigradong bubulungan ng mga matatamis na salita.

“Miss Farrah? Okay na po ang elevator,” pag-uulit ng isa.

Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin kaya nanlaki ang mga mata nya sa takot. Tumawa ako bigla at ngumiti.

“Naku, thank you ha? Maghahagdan na lang ako. Salamat.”

I tried it again.

Kaso pagbukas ay dalawa pala sila sa loob.

Parang pinipisil ang puso ko sa nakita ko. Nakayakap si Azriel sa kanya mula sa likod  at tumatawa si Seleira. Umamba pang hahalik si Azriel.

Gusto ko nyan. Gustong-gusto ko si Azriel.

Gustong-gusto ko sya kaya galit na galit ako noong hindi pa rin nila ako pinagbigyan.

Sinamaan ko ng tingin si Seleira habang sumasara muli ang pinto.

Umiyak ako sa office. Ang sama sama ng loob ko at selos na selos ako.

Sinugod ako ni Seleira noong hapon ng parehong araw. Galit na galit sya.

“Then he told you that it’s an exclusive elevator for us only. Edi alam mo na. Kung ganoon, bakit mo pa rin sinubukan kanina?” Seleira shout at me angrily.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at nanlamig. Azriel told her that I tried to ride with him alone and then I tried it again when they’re two.

Why do Azriel always tell her about everything?! Bakit kinailangan pang sabihin! Hindi ko alam ang idadahilan ko ngayon at nanginginig ako sa takot kay Seleira.

Unang kita ko pa lang ay alam ko nang palaban si Seleira. She always look bold, fierce and strong. Kaya naman natatakot ako ngayon.

“Nagbabakasali ka bang mag-isa lang ulit si Azriel at baka pagbigyan ka na nya?!” Inis nyang sigaw.

Nilukob ako ng kaba at hiya. Nakakahiya…

Nakita kong papasok na ang sekretarya ko at ang ibang mga employee kaya nagsimula akong umiyak. Hindi naman ako nahirapang magpalabas ng luha dahil natatakot talaga ako ngayon.

“I can literally ask him to fire you and he will!” dagdag nya pa.

Mas lalong pumait ang nararamdaman ko. Isang sabi nya lang ay gagawin ni Azriel.

“Ma’am! Tama na po iyan!” ang sabi ng sekretarya ko at dinaluhan ako.

Lalo akong umiyak kaya mas lalo rin syang masamang tiningnan ng mga ito.

“M-ma’am, tama na po yan. A-alam namin na masungit po kayo pero mabait po si Miss Farrah…”

“Grabe!”

“Tahan na po, miss.”

Galit na galit si Seleira. Ang sabi ni papa ay hindi raw gusto ni Seleira si Azriel, pero bakit ganito sya ngayon? Galit na galit sya dahil nagsumbong ang asawa nya sa kanya.

Paano kung… Paano kung patulan ako ni Azriel at magkaroon kami ng sekretong relasyon? Hindi ba magiging masarap iyon? Patago kaming magkikita hanggang sa mapagtanto nyang mas gusto nya pala ako.

“Masyado kang paawa! At ngayon umiiyak ka dahil nahuli kita, ano?!” Seleira’s angry voice popped the bubble of my imagination.

“T-tama na… H-hindi ko alam ang sinasabi mo, Seleira… Pasensya na talaga-” nanghihina kong sabi pero agad syang sumigaw.

“Shut up!” sigaw nya na nagpalala ng inis ng mga empleyado.

Nanatili naman akong tahimik at umiiyak para makakuha ng simpatya.

“Grabe, sya naman itong anak sa labas.” “Ayoko talaga sa kanya dati pa. Kahit noong empleyado lang dito, mayabang na talaga.” “Kawawa naman si Miss.”

“Tama na,” saway ko sa kanila. “Mabait ang kapatid ko.”

I tried to sound nice but Seleira is very angry.

“No, ikaw ang tumigil na, Anikka. Palagi kang ganito kung kailan ka nahuhuli!”

“Tama na, pakiusap, Seleira. Gusto ko nang magtrabaho rito nang maayos…” mahina kong sabi.

Nang makitang umiiyak na si Seleira sa galit nya ay parang lumiyab ang kagustuhan kong makita syang laging umiiyak.

I don’t know but I feel satisfied. I would love to see her, crying because of a broken heart… because Azriel chose me instead of her.

“Delusional bitch,” she said and walked out.

Napaawang ang bibig ko at mas lalong nagalit. Hindi ako delusional! Talagang maagaw ko sya!

Ikaw ang bitch, Seleira. Alam kong marami syang naging lalaki noon at baka hindi na sya virgin. Sa akin ay panalo si Azriel. Wala akong experience, marunong ako sa lahat kaya siguradong… magkakaroon ng tyansa. Sana…

Inalo nila ako at nagkunwari akong umiiyak pa. Sinabihan nila ako ng mga comfort words at kung gaano kalala ang ugali ni Seleira.

Palihim akong ngumiti.

Ngayon ay sigurado akong mas okay ako kaysa sa kanya. Mas maganda at sexy lang sya pero… sa tingin ko ay mas kamahal-mahal ako.

Kinabukasan ay nagluto ako ng korean foods. Sinabi kong peace offering pero ang totoo ay isa ito sa mga paraan para makasabay kong kumain si Azriel.

Kaso ayaw ni Seleira. Tinanggap nya ang pagkain at sinabing kaming dalawa na lang ang kumain kaya naalarma ako.

Sinabi kong ayaw ko kaya sabi nya sila na lang ni Azriel. Nabuhayan ako muli sa isiping kakainin ni Azriel ang niluto ko!

Sobrang saya ko tuloy.

Mas lalo akong sumaya noong abutan ako ni Seleira ng isang hiwa ng cake. Kilig na kilig ako habang kinakain iyon sa isiping si Azriel pa ang nag-slice para sa akin!

At marahil gusto nya na rin ako o kahit na-turn on man lang dahil sa niluto ko! Masarap iyon at paniguradong natuwa si Azriel noong tinikman nya.

I can cook many dishes… something his wife can’t do.

Mas lalo akong naiinlove kay Azriel. Madalas kaming nagkikita dahil Marketting Manager ako at sa meeting ay palagi ko syang tinititigan. Hindi nga lang sya tumitingin sa akin.

Sobrang gwapo nya kasi. Laging seryoso at anlaki ng katawan.

Nakikita ko noon sa IG stories ni Seleira na nakaupo sya sa kandungan ni Azriel. Selos na selos ako at iniisip kong ako iyon.

Ano kayang pakiramdam na maupo sa kandungan nya habang yakap yakap nya ako?

“Ano pang sinabi?” tanong ko sa sekretarya ko. Hindi ko mapigilang hindi ngumisi.

Kahapon ay may meeting kaming marketing team sa opisina ni Azriel. Pagpasok ko pa lang ay alam kong nakatitig si Seleira sa likod ko noon. Gabi na noong matapos ang meeting at sinabi ko sa sekretarya ko na pwede na syang umuwi.

Ngayong umaga ay may ikinuwento sya sa akin.

“Kasi pumunta na sya unang beses, ma’am.  Tinatanong kung nasa loob na kayo, sabi ko naman wala. Tapos bumalik ulit ilang oras makalipas, madilim na nga po noon eh. Tinanong ulit kung nasa loob kayo sabi ko wala nasa meeting. Tapos tinanong kung saan iyong meeting at sabi ko sa opisina ni Mr. Nickolson.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at hindi agad naintindihan pero unti-unti nang nagsisink in sa akin.

“Noong sinabi ko po na naroon pa rin kayo sa opisina ni Mr. Nickolson, hindi na sya nagsalita. Parang maiiyak nga, ma’am eh tapos agad din umalis.”

I slowly smirk as I understand each of this.

Iniisip nya nang may nangyayari sa amin ng asawa nya. At baka iniisip nya ring kaming dalawa lamang ni Azriel ang naroon. Ngayon ay may trust issues na sya sa asawa.

Looking back, sabi ni Papa ay hindi gusto ni Seleira si Azriel. Kaya… wala pa ang tiwala. Binubuo pa lang ang tiwala kaya… kung nagdududa sya ngayon ay dapat kong kuhain ang oportunidad na ito.

“Ang sarap nung cake!” I said when we met in the hallway.

Napaawang ang bibig nya at parang maiiyak. Ngumisi ako at hindi nagpahalata na nasisiyahan.

Hinawi ko ang buhok ko at nagpaalam na aalis na.

I left her, looking pathetic and stunned. Now, thoughts are running inside her head.

Hindi ko kailanman inakalang magkakaganito ako para sa isang lalaki… worse, asawa pa ng kapatid ko. Pero kinasal lang sila para sa kompanya!

“What do you mean? I never gave you a slice of cake,” Azriel said seriously.

My eyes widened and looked at the box of cake I baked. 

“Huh? ’D-di ba? Iyong ibinigay ni Seleira? Hindi… Hindi sa iyo galing iyon?”

“What are you talking about?” he asked.

Hindi ako kaagad nakasagot.

“That was not from me. It was Seleira’s,” he added.

Muntik ko nang mabitawan ang dala dahil sa gulat at disappointment. Akala ko pa naman sa kanya galing kaya tuwang-tuwa at kilig na kilig ako habang kinakain ’yun.

I left, feeling devastated.

“Home wrecker.”

Umiling ako kay Mika.

“Nakokonsensya ako, gagi… Mag-asawa pa rin sila!”

Hinampas sya ni ate Prim.

“Ano ka ba, Mika? Talaga namang maghihiwalay iyan! Pinapabilis lang ni Anikka!”

Actually nakita na nila ang mag-asawa. Nagkaroon kasi ng dinner dito noong birthday ni Xylk last last month pero hindi napigilang mag-attitude nitong si Ate Prim. Nasigawan sya ni Azriel.

“Parang mahal na mahal noong lalaki iyong kapatid mo eh? Lalo na noong dinner dito,” kibit-balikat na sabi ni Mika.

Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin.

“Hindi… Business lang iyan,” pagkukumbinsi ko sa kanila at… pati na rin sa sarili ko.

Noong mga sumunod na araw pa ay hindi ko na sila nakikitang sweet sa isa’t isa.

Napatigil ako noong nakita kong tinatanggal ni Seleira ang braso ni Azriel sa bewang nya.

“Let’s just see each other this lunch!” Bakas na bakas ang inis sa boses nito.

“But, wife… Let me accompany you in your office first. Some soft cuddles? We haven’t cuddle this morning.” I heard Azriel’s gentle and almost desperate voice.

Natulos pa ako dahil sa sobrang lambing ng pagkakasabi noon ni Azriel. Pati mga mata nya nanlalambot habang nakatitig sa kapatid ko.

Gustong gusto kong umiwas ng tingin dahil sa sakit pero nanatili akong nakatingin.

“I have so many stuffs to do and so are you! Sa lunch na tayo magkita!” iritadong sabi ni Seleira at umambang aalis pero niyakap sya ni Azriel.

Hindi ko na nakayanan at tumalikod na ako. Selos na selos ako pero parang ayos na rin dahil pakiramdam ko nagdududa na si Seleira.

“Petty. Tigilan mo na ’yan. Naninira ka ng mag-asawa,” sabi ni Mika nang muli kaming magkita.

Bumuntong hininga ako at umiling. “Sa tingin ko… ipagpatuloy ko na lang.”

“Shut up, Mika! Alam mong gusto ni Nik iyong lalaki tapos sasabihin mong itigil?!” sabi naman ni Ate Primrose.

“Nakakakonsensya kasi. Pero bahala ka, labas ako dyan.”

Mariing tumitig naman sa akin si Ate. “Ipagpatuloy mo lang. Gusto mo sya ’di ba? Edi gawin mo!”

I followed Ate Primrose.

Sa mga sumunod na araw ay hindi ko na nakikita pa si Seleira. Hindi ko naman alam kung kanino magtatanong.

“Fucking do you work!”

Napatalon ako nang dumagundong ang boses ni Azriel sa hallway.

Nilingon ko at galit na galit ang itsura nito. Magulo ang buhok at pagod ang mga mata.

What is happening? And where is Seleira?

“S-sorry, sir.”

Bawat araw na dumadaan ay palaging badtrip si Azriel. Ang dating maayos na buhok at nakagel pa ay ngayo’y magulo na lamang. Pero mas nakakadagdag pa iyon sa appeal nya.

Palagi rin syang galit. Takot na takot ang lahat at nakakaramdam ng pressure.

Hindi ko naman alam ang nangyayari!

“Hala! Hindi na pumapasok si ma’am, ano kayang nangyari?”

“Kaya nga. Wala si ma’am kaya laging badtrip si sir.”

“Magagalitin talaga dati yan si Sir. Nitong kasama nya si Ma’am sa trabaho ay doon lang medyo palangiti na. Ngayong nawala na naman si Ma’am ay grabe grabe na ang galit nya.”

He shouldn’t behave like that especially we’re launching a very big project! Kung sisigawan nya lahat ng tao ay baka mas mahirapan ang lahat!

Kumunot ang noo ko at nakitang napatingin sila sa akin.

“Ma’am? Hindi ba nabanggit nyong half sister nyo si Ma’am Seleira? Bakit po wala sya ilang araw na?”

Hindi ako nakasagot dahil hindi ko talaga alam ang dahilan.

Sa meeting ay kawawa lagi ang mga presentors. Ginigisa ni Azriel at akala mo’y may personal na galit.

Pakiramdam ko ay nag-away sila. At ngayon ay lalo na sigurong lumala ang duda, huh?

This is my time. Nakailang overtime na ang team kaya pagod na pagod lahat. Everyday ay overtime rito sa meeting kasama si Azriel.

Ayos lang naman sa akin dahil gusto kong nakikita sya. Nakakanginig lang talaga dahil galit na galit sya lagi. Ang dilim dilim pa ng aura.

So that’s him without his wife, huh.

“Proceed to the meeting area, please,” Franco Cortez said.

Ang mga businessmen at iilang empleyado ay pumasok na sa meeting room ng office ni Azriel.

Imbes na doon pumunta ay mabilis akong pumunta sa living room. I took a picture using the instagram camera.

Gulat na gulat ako nang mapansin iyon ni Azriel at kunot noong nakatingin sa phone ko. Mabilis ko iyong tinago at sumunod na sa meeting room.

If Seleira is having her doubts to Azriel, then they’re really messed up. Napangiti ako sa naisip. Alam kong iniisip nyang kaming dalawa lang ang nagmeeting dahil ayon sa sekretarya ko ay naiiyak na raw sya.

I put the photo on my instagram story with the caption “Overtime again🤤💗”

And my hunch was proven right when she’s the first viewer.

Ang lakas ng kabog ng dibdib ko at para akong nakokonsensya. Pero mas nanaig sa akin ang kagustuhan kay Azriel

I tried messaging Seleira on her instagram but she didn’t reply.

Gustong-gusto ko si Azriel. Hiyang hiya ako pero tingin ko ay kung hindi ngayon, wala ng iba pang pagkakataon.

Titig na titig ako sa panty ko habang nasa banyo.

Hawak hawak ko naman ang kutsilyo sa isang kamay.

Ininda ko ang sakit ng pagsugat ko sa sariling braso. Hindi pa sapat iyon kaya mas idiniin ko pa.

Umiiyak ako habang pinapatulo iyon sa aking underwear.

Pagkatapos ay hinugasan ko ang braso ko at ginamot. Tumigil naman  ang pagdugo nang lagyan ko ng betadine. Madali ko rin itong maitatago dahil palagi naman akong nakalongsleeves o t-shirt. Tulad ng sinabi ko, conservative ako.

I hid it under the pile of underwears and wait for a maid who will find it. And then my acting will start.

I just love Azriel so much. Selos na selos ako sa kanila at gusto ko ang pwesto ni Seleira.

Kung sana ay ako na lang ang ipinakasal. Anak din naman ako.

“Papa,” umiiyak kong sabi.

“Bakit may dugo sa underwear mo?!” galit na tanong ni Papa. “Itinago mo pa!”

Yumuko ako at palihim na ngumiti.

“Sino? Sinong nakauna sa iyo?!”

“Si…”

“Anikka, sino ang gagong ’yan? Ni hindi man lang humarap dito!”

“Si… Si Azriel po.”

Nalaglag ang panga ni Papa at hindi makapaniwala akong tiningnan.

Marami pa syang tanong at nanginginig ako habang nagsasalita. Parang gusto ko biglang bawiin ang mga pinagsasabi ko.

I am making up stories!

Hindi ko alam kung umiiyak ba ako dahil sa parte ng palabas o dahil natatakot ako sa pwedeng mangyari.

“Nagkikita kayo?!”

“Opo. Nagkikita kami at lumalabas nang patago.”

Napamura si Papa at umiling-iling.

“Sigurado ka ba?” tanong nya.

“Opo…”

“Ang gagong ’yun. Sasabihin ko kay Seleira-”

“Papa, gusto ko po si Azriel… please, papa. Hindi naman sya gusto ni Seleira, hindi ba?” pagmamakaawa ko. Sobrang desperada ko na habang patuloy ang daloy ng luha ko.

“Damn it, Anikka! What the hell are you talking about?!”

“PAPA! Gusto ko po si Azriel! Please… Wala naman akong ibang malalaking pabor na hiningi sa inyo, ito lang…” I cried.

Pahirapan bago tumango si Papa. Awang-awa rin ang itsura nya sa akin.

Niyakap nya ako at hinalikan sa noo.

“Fine. I’ll do my best.”

Doon lamang ako napangiti. “Thank you. Salamat, papa.”

The next night, Papa said they have talked and Seleira was crying her heart out. Nagulat pa ako nang malamang wala sya sa bahay ni Azriel at nakina Tito Glassifer sya.

So they are really fighting? Now the problem has gotten worse!

Nanginginig ako sa kaba at mas lalo na noong ibinalitang nawawala si Seleira.

Tito Glassifer was crying while talking to the Police. Si Papa naman ay tahimik lamang at tila nakokonsensya.

Wala si Azriel.

“Please, hanapin nyo. Nawala kaagad, hinanap namin! Umuulan kasi!” Utal-utal na si Tito habang pinapakalma ng isa pang lalaki.

The Policemen left and that’s when Tito Glassifer threw a punch to papa.

“Tang ina mo, Kuya! Sinabi ko nang tigilan mo na kagabi! Gago ka! Putang ina nyong dalawa, magsama kayo!” galit na galit si Tito at muling sinuntok si Papa.

Hindi naman lumalaban si Papa.

Napaatras ako nang duruin ako nito.

“Ikaw na desperadang babae ka! Gaga ka rin ano? Tingin mo magkakagusto sa iyo si Azriel?! The fuck! Si Seleira ang standards ng lalaking iyon tapos ikukumpara mo sarili mo?!”

Para akong nanliit bigla. Para akong sinampal ng pagkalakas-lakas. Namuo agad ang mga luha ko. Mas mabuti pang pisikal akong saktan kaysa ganito.

“Glass…” pagpapakalma noong lalaki pero binawi ni Tito ang kamay nya.

“Puta ka ba, Anikka? Gunggong na lang ang magkakagusto sa ’yo! Desperate and delusional fucking bitch! Kating kati ba? Magpapakamot ka kahit kanino! Tang ina nyong dalawa, kakalimutan kong kamag-anak ko kayo! Mahal na mahal ko si Seleira and I’ll choose her over anyone and under any circumstances!” he angrily said but his voice getting weak because of crying.

Hindi ako makapagsalita dahil sa takot.  Tuluyan na akong napaiyak at nanliit. Hiyang hiya ako. Si Papa naman ay seryoso lang at hindi na pinapatulan pa si Tito.

Tito Glassifer is crying. Tinakpan nya ang mukha nya habang humahagulgol. Niyayakap naman sya noong lalaki.

Naiingit ako. Mahal na mahal si Seleira. She is so loved.

Naisip ko kung mawawala ba ako, ganito rin?

Isang buwan na ang lumipas pero hindi pa rin sya nakikita. Parang may parte sa akin na nagustuhan iyon.

“Let’s stop this delusion,” Papa said.

“Pero papa… Gusto ko po si Azriel-”

“Na asawa ng kapatid mo. Stop this, Anikka. You are better than this, come on!”

“Pero gusto ko po talaga si Azriel!” pagpupumilit ko.

“Stop.”

Nagalit ako kay Papa. Nag-aalala sya kay Seleira kahit na naghahanap naman na ang mga tao ni Azriel. Ako naman ang legal na anak pero hindi ako pinagbibigyan.

I didn’t listen to Papa. Hindi na rin ako makapag-meet up kina Ate Prim dahil busy na sila sa trabaho habang si Mika ay nasa final year na nya.

I tried my best to show my concern to Azriel.

Noong mga unang linggo ay talagang hindi pumapasok si Azriel kaya alalang-alala ako. Kaya nang marinig kong narito sya ay umakyat ako sa floor nya.

Nagulat pa ako dahil may kakaunti syang sugat at pasa sa mukha. Gulong-gulo ang buhok at tulala.

His eyes are also bloodshot. Halatang ilang araw nang umiiyak.

I always try to give him food but he refuses. Ang sakit sakit sa dibdib tuwing tinatanggihan nya iyong mga pinaghihirapan ko samantalang kay Seleira ay kahit maalat noon ay enjoy na enjoy syang kainin.

Sa totoo lang ay hindi ako nawawalan ng pag-asa. Ngayon pang wala si Seleira.

Iniisip pa ni Tito kung may kinalaman ba ako roon pero sa totoo ay wala. Wala akong alam at nagulat lang talaga akong nawala sya bigla.

Akala ko mas madali kong maagaw si Azriel pero talagang faithful at loyal sya. He is also too depressed to notice me.

Ilang beses pa akong pumasok sa bedroom nya nang hindi nya alam pero galit na galit lang sya lagi. Gusto… gusto ko lang namang maramdamang nasa iisang kwarto kami.

But he shuts me off!

Mas lalo pang lumala ang sakit na nararamdaman ko noong nalaman kong nakita na si Seleira. Naospital si Papa at napatalsik pa sya bilang CEO nang ganoon kabilis! Ako naman ay bawal nang magtrabaho sa sarili naming kompanya, sa kompanyang dapat ay mamanahin ko.

“What did you tell him?!” Azriel asked darkly.

Nanlumo ako at agad na napaiyak sa takot.

“N-na… na may nangyari sa atin at nagkikita tayo lagi,” I answered while crying hard.

Napatalon ako nang hampasin nya nang malakas ang mesa. Mas lalo akonh humagulgol.

“You’re fucking disgusting!” Diring-diri nyang sabi.

“You did that to destroy us! Talagang ginawa mo noong panahong nagsisimula pa lang kami at hindi pa malakas ang tiwala sa akin ng asawa ko!”

Sa puntong iyon ay parang sumampal sa akin ang lahat ng mga kamaliang nagawa. Anong nangyari sa akin at nagkaganoon ako para sa isang lalaki?

Umuwi ako nang luhaan. Oo, mahal na mahal ko si Azriel at gusto ko sya para sa akin pero siguro… tama na.

I should correct my mistakes.

Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari sa akin sa mga nakalipas na buwan pero alam kong sobrang sama noon.

Naging ganoon ako para sa isang lalaki, and worse asawa pa ng kapatid ko.

Humarap ako sa salamin habang mugtong-mugto ang mga mata. Medyo madilim ang banyo ng kwarto ko pero hindi ko na magawa pang mangkapakialam. Kita pa rin naman ang sarili ko dahil sa kakaunting ilaw mula sa nakabukas na pinto.

“Anong nangyari sa iyo, Anikka?” tanong ko sa sarili.

Sinulyapan ko ang braso kong naghilom na ang sugat.

“Nakakadiri ka,” bulong ko sa sarili. “Tama si Azriel, nakakadiri ka.”

I stooped down very low for a man. I tried wrecking a home.

Indeed, I was a home wrecker. I tried wrecking their relationship but Azriel’s love for Seleira is out of this world. His love for her is very unconditional, understanding and passionate. No one or nothing will break his love for her.

And I think this is the time for me to stop and just wish that I’ll experience that in the right time and the right person, too.

I confessed to Seleira and broke down in front of her. Humingi ako ng tawad sa lahat at hindi ko alam kung napatawad nya ba ako o talagang wala na syang pakialam.

I know she have so much in his plate right now. She is now a successful model and she claimed her spot in just a span of 2 weeks.

Wala na syang paki dahil tingin ko ay mas tumatag na ang relasyon at pagmamahalan nila. Dapat na rin syang mapanatag dahil hindi na ako manggugulo pa.

I’ll stay away… as I should.

What I did was very wrong in any angle. Walang rason ang pwedeng mag-justify sa ginawa ko. Naging sobrang desperada ako at hiyang-hiya ako ngayon. Pinagsisisihan ko ang lahat at kung sana’y pwede pang maibalik ang panahon ay gagawin ko.

Kahit ako ay nandidiri na sa sarili ko. Sabi ni Seleira ay napatawad nya na ako. Hindi ako makapaniwalanh napatawad nya na ako. Sobrang lala ng ginawa ko.

I viewed her as a bad woman. Mean, picky, spoiled and very ill-mannered, but the truth is she is very soft. Noong nabalita sa kanyang nasa ospital si Papa ay ilang araw lang at bumisita sya.

Sya pa mismo ang nag-request sa asawa na tulungan kami ni Papa dahil short na ako sa pera. Ang trabaho ko maliit lang ang kita. Mali ang pagkakakilala ko kay Seleira dahil naunahan ako ng selos at inggit—na hindi ko dapat nararamdaman dahil kapatid ko sya.

Pinatawad ko na rin ang sarili ko at pinalaya sa walang kwentang ilusyon. Nangako rin akong titino na. Ngayon at sobrang ayos na ng relasyon naming pamilya. Wala na ring kahit sino pa ang nagbanggit tungkol doon.

Parang iyon ang pinakamadilim na parte ng aming mga buhay at dapat nang kalimutan.

I wiped my tears as I watch them exchange vows in the altar. They are both crying, especially Azriel. Nangingiti ako kahit na naiiyak. Sa ilang buwan na buntis si Seleira ay kahit papano’y nakapag-bonding kami kaya mas close na kami. At ngayong ikinakasal sya muli ay ang sarap pala sa pakiramdam.

Ang sarap pala kung walang inggit o selos na nararamdaman. Pagpapatawad ang kailangan ko. Mula sa mga taong nagawan ko ng masama at pati na rin pagpapatawad sa sarili ko.

The wedding is extravagant and very very beautiful. The theme is pastel pink and white. This is also the largest church in the Philippines. Sobrang daming guests at media. At ang sabi ay mas malaki pa raw ang reception venue.

Halatang pinaghandaan at pinaggastusan. Sobrang ganda ng disenyo at parang mga hari at reyna ang ikakasal.

Seleira is wearing a very pretty and very long wedding gown. Sobrang ganda nya at para syang nagliliwanag. Kaninang pagbukas ng pinto ay nalaglag ang panga ng lahat dahil sa sobrang engrande ng gown at sobrang ganda nya talaga.

Sinulyapan ko naman ang mga anak nila at hindi na napigilang hindi mangiti.

They deserve each other. I smiled and cried again, harder this time because I really feel so touched. I am not faking it. I am really happy for them.

“Stop it,” the man beside me chuckled.

Nagulat ako at tiningala kung sino man iyon. Hindi ito boyfriend ko dahil hindi sya makakapunta dahil sa trabaho. At hindi ko rin alam bakit sya nakaupo sa tabi ko ganoong naalala kong walang nakaupo riyan kanina.

An unfamiliar tall and handsome man wearing a black suit. His boyish smile made my heart beat fast.

“S-sino ka?” tanong ko at nagpunas ng luha.

Tinitigan nya lang ako nang mariin bago tumayo at tumalikod. Kumunot ang noo ko pero hindi na iyon pinagtuunan pa ng pansin.

Ibinalik ko ang tingin sa mag-asawa at muling napangiti. Nagtatawanan naman ang crowd ngayon dahil halos hindi makapagsalita si Azriel dahil sa pag-iiyak nya. Hinampas sya ni Seleira at napatawa na rin ako.

Sinulyapan ko rin sina Tito Glassifer at para syang namatayan dahil sa sobrang pag-iiyak. Tinatawanan naman sya pero inaalo rin ni Tito Hiro.

Si Daddy naman ay nasa tabi ni Tito at nagpupunas din ng luha.

Iyong mga iba nyang kaibigan na sina Pearl, Hope, Sasa at Rea ay umiiyak pero tumatawa rin. Nakilala ko na sila dahil nakapagbonding na rin kami at masaya silang kasama.

This… this is how family should be. No leeches, no backstabs, no lies and no more bad things.

They deserve each other and I shouldn’t push myself to be in the picture. I’ll now focus on my life and promise not to run over a man anymore.

Never again.

Strevan

Strevan’s

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“Strevan, saan ka?! Tara na!”

Ibinaba ko ang platong may pritong itlog bago linungin ang pinto. Bumukas ito at lumitaw ang ulo ni Zac. Ngumisi sya at tinawag pa akong muli.

“Bakit ang aga nyo?” seryoso kong tanong at nilingon ang orasan. Alas tres i-medya pa lang. Kadalasan ay alas kwatro kaming umaalis para mangisda.

Tuluyan na syang pumasok at napatingin sa mesa ko. Kahahanda pa lang ng almusal ko.

“Bakit ka pa nagluto? Hindi ba sinabihan kita kagabi na huwag na?! May paalmusal nga roon kina Kayee!” Halo ang pagtataka at inis sa boses nya.

Napapikit ako nang maalala nga iyon. “Nakalimutan ko.”

Ganito ako lagi. Makakalimutin dahil masyadong abala sa trabaho ang utak ko. Doon lang naman tumatakbo ang buhay ko.

Trabaho at bahay tapos kaunting oras sa mga kaibigan. Pagkatapos noon ay wala na. Kaya naman ganoon ka-boring ang buhay ko. Parang may kulang lagi pero hindi ko alam kung ano.

Napagtanto ko ang kulang na iyon sa pagkatao ko nang magsimulang manirahan ang isang babaeng hindi ko kilala rito.

Marahil sasabihin ng iba na isa akong tanga sa pagkupkop ng taong hindi ko kilala pero unang kita ko pa lang ay alam ko nang hindi ito masamang tao.

Sobrang ganda at amo ng mukha. Pinakamagandang babaeng nakita ko ngunit hindi ’yan ang nagtulak sa akin na kupkupin sya, kinupkop ko sya dahil kaawa-awa ang itsura nya.

“Putang ina,” mura ko habang tinatahak ang madilim na daan, karga karga ang walang malay at duguan nyang katawan.

Ni hindi ko alam kung paano ko sabay-sabay nahahawakan ito. Karga ko ang katawan nya, isang maleta, at isang flashlight.

Ako lang ang nakakita sa kanya dahil hind ako sumabay kina Zac. Tulad ng sinabi nya, nag-almusal pa sila kina Kayee pero dahil nakaluto na ako ay hindi ako sumama.

“Manang Stella!” sigaw ko at ibinaba ang maleta’t flashlight. Mabilis ko ring kinatok ang bahay.

“Strevan? Jusmiyo, ano iyon at nagsisisigaw ka sa madaling araw?!”

Gulantang sya nang makita ang karga karga ko. Hindi pa sya naestatwa sa dugo, kung hindi dahil sa mala-anghel nitong itsura.

Mabilis kaming umuwi ng bahay para doon nya magamot.

Akala ko talaga patay na sya dahil sobrang daming dugo. Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari sa kanya o paano sya napunta doon pero gusto ko lang tulungan sya.

Hindi ko alam pero nanginginig ako sa galit sa isiping may masasamang tao sa likod nito.

“Ayos na sya. Tumigil na ang pagdugo,” ani Manang Stella saka itinabi ang mga dahon.

“Malalim po ba? O kaya’y malubha?” Hindi ko na napigilang magtanong.

Umiling ito at ngumiti. “Hindi naman. Sige, pumasok ka. Binihisan ko na rin at may mga damit naman sa maletang nasa gilid.”

Napahinga ako nang maluwag. Si Manang Stella ang isa sa mga manggamot dito at mula bata ay may tiwala na ako.

“Salamat po,” seryoso kong sabi at saka pumasok ng kwarto.

Halos hindi ako makapaniwalang sa nakikita ko. Sobrang ganda nito at kung titingnan ay napakahimbing ng tulog. Pulang-pula ang labi at talagang napakaamo ng mukha.

Sa unang pagkakataon ay nakaramdam ako ng ibang emosyon. Hindi pamilyar na emosyon. Masarap na nakakaba at hindi ko maintindihan.

Kinupkop ko sya at… doon ko napagtanto kung anong kulang sa buhay ko.

Ito. Ito ang kulang sa buhay ko.

“Strevan! Hurry!” Natutuwa nyang sabi at halos kurutin pa ako sa sobrang tuwa nya.

Ngumisi ako. “Saglit lang, malapit na.”

Tumili sya at pumalakpak nang matapos. Inilahad ko sa kanya ang bula na nakalagay sa isang baso.

Ginawa ko ito para may pagkaabalahan sya. Bula mula sa panghugas ng plato at gumamela. Ikinurba ko ring pabilog na may hawakan ang maliit na alambre.

“Lemme try!”

Pinanood ko syang subukan iyon. Isinawsaw nya ang alambre at hinipan iyon kaya naman maraming bilog na mga bula ang lumabas sa ere.

Tumili sya at tumawa sa sobrang tuwa nya. Hindi ko mapigilan ang hindi ngumiti habang tinititigan sya. Parang nagliliwanag ang mga mata nya at sobrang ganda nya.

Simula nang tumira sya rito ay parang mas naging buhay ako. Kung noon ay ayokong umuwi at pinipiling magtagal sa trabaho, pwes ngayon ay hindi na.

Gustong-gusto kong umuwi dahil may naghihintay sa akin. Kahit anong pagod ko sa mabibigat na trabaho, ewan ko ba at napapawi talaga basta naririnig ko ang boses nya at magkasama kaming kakain.

Kada uwi ko ay magkekwento sya o kaya naman ay magtatanong ng kung ano anong bagay. Pagkatapos ay hahagikhik kung nakakatawa o kaya sisimangot at ngunguso kung nakakalungkot.

Nakakatunaw ng puso. Minsan nga ay ayoko na lang magtrabaho at gusto ko na lang manatili rito kasama sya.

Noong una ay takot pa sya kaya naman hindi ko sya pinilit sa kahit anong bagay. Hindi ko sya tinanong dahil baka masakit ang pinagdaanan nya at iiyak lang sya, isang bagay na ayokong makita.

Tinanong ko lang kung anong pwedeng itawag sa kanya, at ayos na iyon sa akin. Wala akong karapatang magtanong ng kung ano-ano sa kanya. Kung kusa nyang sasabihin ay ayos lang.

Iyon nga lang ay napakaarte nya. Hindi naman ako nahirapang intindihin sya kahit na nag-iinarte sya kahit sa kaliit-liitang bagay.

Hindi ko alam kung sino ba ang totoong sya pero ang makasama sya rito ay ayos na sa akin. Takang-taka tuloy ang mga taga-rito at biglang may sumulpot sa bahay ko.

“Strevan, sino ba iyang babaeng nakikita ko sa bahay nyo? Sobrang ganda at kinis! Ang puti pa!”

Seryoso akong umiling. “Kaibigan ko. Huwag nyo na lang pong masyadong tanungin at hindi sya magiging komportable.”

“Eh sino ba kasi sya?”

Iyan ang mga tanong na kinaiinisan ko. Nagagalit ako sa tuwing sinasabi ni Lyra na paulit-ulit syang tinatanong dahil alam kong hindi iyon komportable.

Nakakainis na hindi marunong makiramdam ang mga tao. Ako nga ay hindi sya pinipilit magsalita tungkol dyan.

“Did you wash them?!” tanong nya, isang hapon na nasa likod bahay kami.

Nilingon ko sya at prente syang nakaupo sa duyan habang inosenteng nakatingin sa mga bestida nya. Nakasampay ang mga ito dahil nilabhan ko.

“Oo,” sagot ko habang pinagmamasdan sya. Napatingin tuloy sya sa akin at parang unti-unting namula ang mga pisngi nya.

“Thanks… uh… I-Isn’t it awkward to wash my clothes?” nahihiya nyang tanong.

“Hindi,” seryoso kong sagot habang pinagmamasdan sya.

“Have you washed women’s clothes before, too?” tanong nya muli.

Napangiti ako kaagad. Dinilaan ko ang sariling labi sa akalang titigil ang pagngiti ko pero hindi.

“Hindi pa, Lyra…” marahan kong sagot, ingat na ingat na huwag syang makaramdam ng kahihiyan.

Pero huli na at pumula na lalo ang mga pisngi nya. Nanlalaki rin ang mga mata habang nakatitig sa akin.

Umiwas ako ng tingin at bahagyang natawa. Pakiramdam ko ay mamumula rin ako dahil sa lubusang pagtitig sa kanya.

Itinuon ko na lang ang tingin sa librong binabasa pero kahit anong ulit kong basa sa isang talata ay hindi pumapasok sa isip ko. Si Lyra lang at ang namumula nyang mga pisngi ang laman nito.

Tang ina.

Alam ko naman na hindi ako pwedeng… magkagusto sa kanya dahil kahit hindi nya sabihin, alam kong lumaki sya sa mayamang pamilya at nasusunod lahat ng gusto. Hindi pwede dahil mahirap lang ako at wala pang napapatunayan.

Pero kung isang araw ay mabibigyan ako ng pagkakataon, gagawin ko iyon. Basta’t marinig ko ang gusto kong marinig ay tatanggapin ko ang alok ng tatay ni Kayee na mag-Maynila. Lahat ng trabahong pwede ay gagawin ko kasabay ng pag-aaral.

Ginulo ko ang buhok ko at nahihibang na ata ako sa pinag-iisip ko. Hindi pwede, Strevan. Ni hindi ko sya kilala.

Madalas ay hindi sya nagtatagalog pero naiintindihan ko naman sya. Nakakaintindi ako ng English at sa totoo lang ay marunong din akong magsalita nito. Iyon nga lang ay hindi ko masyadong ginagamit ang lengguaheng ’yon dahil karamihan sa mga tao rito ay hindi nakakaintindi no’n.

“Isang daan isa, pero sige, singkwenta na lang!” Nakangising sabi ni Aling Milan, isang tindera sa tyangge.

Kumunot ang noo ko at mas sinuri ang mga bestidang tinda nya. Hindi ko alam kung anong magugustuhan ni Lyra pero tingin ko basta bestida ay ayos sa kanya. Napapansin ko kasing puro ganoon ang mga damit nya at talagang gusto ko syang bilhan.

Napangiti ako sa isiping matutuwa sya sa dala ko.

“Isang daan na lang po, ’wag nyo nang bawasan ang presyon. Kukuha po ako ng tatlo,” seryoso kong sabi at nilabas ang pitaka.

Tumawa sya. “Naku! Sige na, singkwenta na lang talaga! Para ito sa kasintahan mong maganda ano? Kaya sige na! Nagagandahan ako roon, grabe!”

Ngumiti ako pero umiling din saka sya inabutan ng tatlong daan.

“Huwag na po talaga.”

Hindi ako pumayag sa gusto nya. Lahat naman kami ay nagtatrabaho at ayokong malugi sya.

Tiningnan ko ang laman ng pitaka ko. Kasya pa naman at medyo sobra pa. Madalas akong nagpapahuli para mas malaki ang bayad sa akin. Ginagawa ko ’yan para mas lumaki ang pera ko para sa amin ni Lyra.

Pag-uwi ko ay magluluto pa ako para sa amin pero talagang hindi ako nakakaramdam ng pagod. Ewan ko ba. Lalo na’t kapag nagluluto ako at nariyan sya para magkwento at tumawa ay napapangiti na lang ako.

Ngayon ko lang napagtanto na ginagawa ko ang lahat ng ito para kay Lyra. Ni hindi nga para sa sarili ko o para kahit kanino.

“Crazy man!”

Nilingon ko si Lyra na kasalukuyang nakaupo sa isang kahoy na silya. Kasaluluyan kaming nasa tapat ng bahay.

“Totoo naman! Kung pagbibigyan mo lang ako, Ly! Sisiguraduhin kong sasaya at satisfied ka,” nakangising sambit ni Sean.

Umiling-iling na lang ako habang patuloy na pinapaypayan ang iniihaw. Narinig ko naman ang hagikhik ni Lyra kaya natigilan ako saglit.

“Talaga? Satisfied?” mapaglarong tanong ni Lyra.

Pumikit ako nang mariin.

“Oo, satisfied!” Pag-sang ayon naman ng gago.

“Satisfied sa kama ba? Pero tingin ko hindi, masyadong maliit ata ang sa iyo?” bulgar na sabi ni Lyra.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko sa bahagyang inis pero hindi ko mapigilang hindi ngumiti. Tang ina. Ang kulit talaga.

Ito namang si Sean ay napapadalas dito sa pangungulit sa kanya. Binabalaan ko lang na huwag pumasok dito kapag mag-isa si Lyra dahil nasa trabaho ako. Bagamat magkaibigan kami ay hindi ako nagtitiwala.

“A-ano? Puta, Lyra! Hindi ito maliit ano? Gusto mo ipakita ko sa iyo?!” panghahamon ng gago.

“Ew! No way!”

“Tingnan mo para makita mo!” pag-uulit pa nya.

Narinig ko ang tawa at tili ni Lyra. Tumawa rin si Sean.

“Strevan oh!” pagsusumbong ni Lyra. Sinulyapan ko sya at napangiti ako kaagad. Ang sarap talaga tuwing binabanggit nya ang pangalan ko.

Tumakbo sa akin si Lyra at pabiro naman syang hinabol ni Sean.

“Hoy gago, tama na,” saway ko kay Sean at hinawakan ang pulsuhan ni Lyra.

Ngumisi si Sean at sumipol. “Gege! Kita tayo bukas!”

“Anong bukas?!” tanong ko. “’Di ba sinabi kong huwag kang pupunta rito kapag wala ako?!”

Humagikhik si Lyra kaya tiningnan ko sya. Kasalukuyan na syang naglalaro ng mga abo sa gilid. Kinagat ko ang labi ko para mapigilang ngumiti.

“Kaya nga! Pupunta ako kapag narito ka na saka may trabaho rin ako!”

Seryoso kong binalingan si Sean. “Sige. Siguraduhin mo lang.”

Mabait si Lyra sa totoo lang. Maarte lang talaga sya pero alam kong malambot ang puso nya. Madali syang umiyak sa mga maliliit na bagay.

Sweet din sya sa lahat ng taong pinagkakatiwalaan nya kaya kung hindi mo sya kilala ay aakalain mong may gusto sya sa iyo. Pero ang totoo ay hindi, talagang ganoon sya.

Para akong lumulutang sa saya habang nag-bbike kami. Marunong sya kaya minsan ay nagbibike kami papuntang dagat tuwing hapon.

“Kung may cellphone lang ako ay talagang marami na akong litrato!” sigaw nya sa dagat.

Ngumiti ako habang pinagmamasdan sya. Mangha ko syang tinitigan habang itinatali nya ang buhok dahil hinahangin ’yon.

Lyra, gusto kita…

Hindi ko masabi. Sa dalawang buwan nya rito ay kailan man hindi ko nasabi. Hindi ko alam kung nararamdaman nya ba na gusto ko sya.

Bumaling sya sa akin at ngumiti. Ngumiti rin ako.

Kung titingnan ay akala mo wala syang problema. Pero alam kong meron. Kitang-kita sa mga mata nya na may problema sya at kahit ngumiti sya ay kita iyon.

Hindi ko sinasabi sa kanya pero may pangalan syang binabanggit sa tuwing tulog sya.

Azriel.

Minsan kasi sa hatinggabi ay pumapasok ako ng kwarto para tingnan kung ayos lang ba sya. Aayusin ko ang kumot nya at ang electric fan. Papakiramdaman ko rin kung may lamok ba.

Hindi ko alam kung sino ba iyan at napapadalas ang banggit nya. Minsan pa ay may mga luhang lumalabas sa nakapikit nyang mga mata.

Nagagalit ako. Kung sino man iyang lalaking ’yan, ay baka sya ang rason kung bakit napadpad si Lyra rito. Duguan, walang malay, at walang kalaban-laban.

Paano nyo nakakayang saktan ang tulad ni Lyra?

Nalaman ko kung sino ang nagmamay-ari ng pangalang ’yan at kung ano ang nangyari sa kanya, isang gabi. May kasiyahan sa bahay nina Kayee noon at naglasing sya.

Binuhat ko sya sa likod ko habang pauwi at hindi ko inaasahang umiyak sya at magsalita.

“I hate you… I hate you, Azriel…”

Natigilan ako nang muling marinig ang pangalang iyon. Pinagpatuloy ko ang paglalakad at hindi ko nagawang magsalita.

“I hate you for c-cheating on me with my s-sister. I hate you for not b-being there when I w-was about to die…”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at gustong-gusto kong tumigil para tanungin sya pero pinigilan ko ang sarili ko.

“L-lagi kang wala… I-I was so h-hurt. My d-daddy despise me… I h-hate them all… Fuck you!”

Nakaramdam ako ng awa at ng galit. Putang ina niloko sya at talagang pinabayaan sya noong natagpuan ko?!

Humahagulgol sya sa likod ko na syang nagpayukom ng kamao ko. Paano nila nagagawang saktan ang babaeng ito?!

Niloko gamit ang mismong kapatid nya. Putang ina, isipin ko pa lang ay nakakasuka na. Awang-awa ako sa kanya ngayon.

Azriel, kung sino ka man ay gago ka. Pati na rin ang ipinalit mo.

Mas lalo akong sumeryoso, determinadong tanungin na sya bukas tungkol dito.

“Magbihis ka muna,” seryoso kong sabi at inilapag sya sa kama.

Hindi sya sumagot kaya hinarap ko sya saka iyon inulit,

“Lyra, magbihis ka.”

Umawang ang bibig nya at halos mahulog ako sa kama sa gulat nang bigla nyang hatakin ang leeg ko para sa isang halik.

Marahan ko syang itinulak kahit na nagsimulang magwala ang puso at sistema ko.

Putang ina, gusto akong halikan ni Lyra.

“Lyra,” nagbabanta kong tawag.

“Why are you calling me Lyra?! I’m Seleira!” Sigaw nya at idiniin ang sarili sa dibdib ko.

Nagsimula akong mag-init kahit ganoon lang dahil gusto ko sya. Pero nananaig ang kagustuhan kong malaman kung sino sya kaya kinokontrol ko ang sarili ko.

At isa pa, lasing lang sya. Kahit pumayag pa sya, kung lasing naman sya ay hindi ko pagbibigyan.

“Tama na,” sabi ko pa saka dahan dahang tinutulak ang bewang nya, takot na masaktan ko sya sa pwersa.

Tumawa sya at umamba muling hahalik kaya mas ginamitan ko na sya ng pwersa habang iniiwas ang mukha ko.

“Putangina!” marahas kong mura dahil iginigiling nya ang katawan nya sa akin, halos kumandong na rin sya.

Aaminin kong tinitigasan ako. Hindi ako mabilis ma-turn on pero iba ito eh… gusto ko sya.

“Please, hubby…”

Doon ako natigilan at halos hindi nakagalaw agad. Kumunot ang noo ko at sari-saring emosyon ang naghahari sa damdamin ko.

Hubby.

May asawa sya?! At kung tama ako ay iyon ang pangalang lagi nyang binabanggit?!

Hinaplos nya ang abs ko kaya mabilis kong hinuli ang mga kamay nya. Tang ina! Naguguluhan ako sa pinagsasabi nya, dagdag pa itong malilikot nyang mga kamay.

“Lyra, tangina…” napapaos kong pakiusap. “Tama na.”

“No! Please, hubby… I want…” pagmamakaawa nya.

“Please, kiss me…” umiiyak nyang sabi at pilit na inaabot ang labi ko ngunit ipinagdadamot ko iyon sa kanya.

Hindi ko na sya halos pansinin dahil nag-uunahan na ang sakit sa dibdib ko. Putang ina, may asawa sya.

Lahat ng iniisip kong plano, kasama ang pagtatapat sa kanya ay gumuho.

Hindi ko maipaliwanag kung gaano kasakit ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Hindi ko pa ito naramdaman. Parang may nawawasak sa dibdib ko.

Gusto nya lang akong halikan at gusto nya lang makipagtalik sa akin dahil lasing sya at inaakala nyang ako ang asawa nya.

Putang ina!

Umigting ang panga ko sa galit at dismayang nararamdaman.

Umayos ka, Strevan! Kasalanan mo iyan at umasa kang gago ka!

“Matulog ka na, Lyra. Lasing ka lang. Hindi ko gagawin yun sa’yo.”

Umalis ako ng kwarto at isinarado iyon. Tinapatan ko rin sya ng electric fan bago umalis para mawala ang init ng katawan nya.

Napahawak ako sa pader at sandaling ipinikit ang mga mata. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko at marahas na hinubad ang damit saka pumasok ng banyo.

Hindi mawala sa isip ko. Nanginginig din ako, hindi ko alam kung dahil ba sa lamig o sobrang sakit talaga ng nararamdaman ko.

Kasalanan ko naman. Hindi dapat ako umasa. Hindi ko dapat hinayaan ang sarili na mapalapit nang husto sa kanya.

Walang kasalanan si Lyra o Seleira. Kasalanan ko lahat ng ito.

Hindi ko inaasahang maiiyak ako. Sobrang bigat sa dibdib.

Akala ko ang pinakamasakit na naramdaman ko ay noong namatay ang magulang ko. Pero parang mas masakit ata ito.

Ramdam ko pa rin ang hawak at haplos nya sa braso ko. Masarap sa pakiramdam pero sa tuwing sumasanggi sa isip ko na inakala lang nya akong asawa nya ay nadudurog ako.

Muli, akala ko iyon na ang pinakamasakit pero hindi pa pala.

Nahanap sya ng asawa nya. Mayaman at higit na mas deserving kaysa sa akin.

Pinagmasdan ko ang mga reaksyon ni Lyra nang pasukin sya nito at yakapin.

Kahit tinutulak nya ay umiiyak naman sya. Iyong mga emosyon sa mata nya ay kailanman hindi ko nakita sa kanya. Kahit itinutulak nya ay kitang-kita sa mga mata nya na nangungulila sya sa asawa.

Sobrang sakit pero wala akong magawa kung hindi sisihin ang sarili. Kasalanan ko naman! Tang ina!

Hindi ko lang talaga napigilang hindi mahulog sa kanya gayong napakasaya nyang kasama. Napapangiti nya ako, mabis syang matawa, at malambing.

Umasa lang akong gusto nya rin ako pero hindi. Kasi base sa nakikita ko kung gaano nangungulila ang mga mata nya habang nakatingin sa asawa ay patunay na mahal na mahal nya ito.

At hindi ko na dapat ipagsiksikan ang sarili ko. May asawa na at nagmamahalan. Sana lang ay tinatrato syang mabuti at iyong pagloloko… ay hindi totoo.

Ayokong masaktan si Lyra. Ayos na itong ako ’yung nadudurog at hindi sya. Hindi rin naman nya alam na nasasaktan ako at tingin ko… mas mabuti na ito.

Mas mabuting masaktan na lang ako nang patago dahil kung malalaman nya ay makokonsensya pa sya at iiyak. Ayokong umiiyak si Lyra.

Mabilisan kong tinapakan ang preno ng bisikleta nang muntikan na akong sumubsob sa bato.

Sobrang dilim na at kanina ko pa hinihintay si Lyra sa farm. Ang sabi nya babalik sya kasi kakain kami ng hapunan sa bayan pero wala naman sya.

“Zac, si Lyra nakita nyo ba?” nag-aalala kong tanong kanina noong nasa farm pa.

“Huh? Hindi, eh!” Sagot nya.

Mas lalo akong nag-alala. Sobrang dilim na at hinihiling ko na lang na nasa bahay sya.

Tang ina. Nasaan sya?! Tulog pa rin kaya?

Inayos ko ang bisikleta ko dahil bumangga ang harap na gulong nito sa malaking bato. Hindi naman na-flat kaya ayos lang.

Muli akong sumakay at habang tinatahak pauwi ay palinga-linga ako.

“Lyra…” bulong ko at napamura.

Ayoko munang umuwi dahil baka wala sya sa bahay. Baka papunta na dapat sya sa farm pero may masamang nangyari. Tang ina! Huwag naman at baka mabaliw ako.

“Mang Nestor!” sigaw ko mula sa dilim.

Napatingin sya sa akin at inaninag pa ako sa dilim.

“Oh, Strevan?!”

“Si Lyra po?” Hindi ko namalayan na nanginginig na pala ang boses ko sa takot at pag-aalala. “Nakita nyo po ba?”

Napakunot ang noo ng matanda. “Lyra?”

“Iyong… babaeng lagi ko pong kasama. Maputi, maganda, hanggang leeg ko po… Nakita nyo po ba?”

“Hmm… Parang nakita ko nga. Nakabisikleta ata! Pauwi, umiiyak pa,” sabi nya.

Mas lalo akong kinabahan. Bakit sya umiiyak? Dahil ba sa asawa nya?

“Salamat po.”

Mabilis akong nagpedal pauwi. Natigilan ako nang makita ang bisekletang pinapahiram sa kanya na nasandal lang sa isang puno.

Ang mas nagpakaba sa akin ay ang kotse sa tabi nito.

Marahas kong kinatok ang kotse at sunod sunod na akong napamura. Putang ina! Anong ginawa nya kay Lyra?!

Walang lumabas o sumagot. Marahas din akong pumasok ng bahay.

“Lyra!” sigaw ko.

“Lyra!” pagtatawag ko pa habang pinapasok ang kwarto. Tiningnan ko rin sa likod bahay at banyo pero wala!

“Nasaan sya?” tanong ko sa sarili.

Hindi ko namamalayan na nanginginig na ako sa kaba.

Lumabas ako ng bahay at otomatikong napatingin sa harap na bahay. Lalong bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko.

Hindi kaya…

Dahan dahan akong pumasok ng bakuran nito saka lumapit sa pinto.

Alam ko namang mahal talaga sya ni Lyra. Tuwing nag-uusap kami nitong mga nakaraang araw tungkol sa asawa nya ay iba ang kislap ng mga mata nya.

Doon pa lang alam ko na kahit hindi nya sabihin o aminin. Nangungulila sya sa asawa nya dahil miss na miss nya ito at mahal nya.

Kaya naman nang makarinig ako ng mga halinghing at ungol ay para akong nawasak at natulos sa kinatatayuan ko.

Kahoy lang ang bahay kaya rinig na rinig. Boses iyon ni Lyra. Ang lambing at ang tamis ng boses nya. Rinig din ang boses ng lalaki na sinasabinh mahal sya nito habang ginagawa nila iyon.

Napapikit ako nang mariin at hindi na nakayanan. Umalis na ako habang nakahawak sa dibdib dahil ang bigat bigat sa pakiramdam.

Mag-asawa sila at normal lang na magtalik… Mahal sya ni Lyra at miss na miss nila ang isa’t isa.

Pero putang ina, hindi ba niloko nya nyan?

Napaupo na lang ako at napahilamos sa sobrang sakit na nararamdaman ko. Tumulo na lang ang mga luha ko at hindi na ako makapagsalita.

Hindi ko pa rin makalimutan ang kakaibang boses ni Lyra. Kapag tinatawag nya iyong lalaki ay kakaiba talaga, sobrang lambing at ang tamis. Hindi ko pa narinig sa kanya iyan. Sa asawa nya lang siguro ginagamit.

Hindi ako pinatulog ng sakit na nararamdaman. Kasalanan ko naman. Kasalanan ko lahat at parusa na itong sakit ngayon.

Sa buong dalawang buwan dito ni Lyra ay napasaya nya ako nang sobra. Ako ang may utang na loob sa kanya at hindi sya. Kaya wala kang karapatang magreklamo o masaktan, Strevan. Ginusto mo lahat ng ito.

Kinaumagahan ay wala pa rin sya. Wala sa sarili akong napatingin sa salamin. Mugto ang mata ko. Halo ang eyebags saka ang pamumula dahil sa pag-iyak.

Napatawa ako pero mabigat pa rin sa dibdib. Ang gagong ’to. Wala kang karapatang umiyak.

Ngayon, ano mang oras ay siguradong aalis na sya. Maiiwan ulit ako rito sa walang buhay na bahay. Walang kwenta ang lahat ng ito kung wala sya.

Nagluto na lang ako ng agahan at ilang beses pang nasunog ang mga itlog dahil natutulala ako nang hindi ko namamalayan.

Tinapon ko na lang at nagluto ng panibago. Nag-prito rin ako ng iba pa nago ihanda lahat sa mesa.

Siguradong uuwi rito si Lyra maya maya at baka gutom sya. Ayokong nagugutom o nalilipasan sya.

Dumating sya at hirap na hirap na akong tingnan sya.

Pulang-pula ang pisngi nya at may iilang marka sa leeg nya. Nakasuot na lang din sya ng t shirt imbes na bestida.

Tinanong ko kaagad kung totoo bang nagloko. Ipinaliwanag nya sa akin ang lahat ng nangyari at naawa ako dahil sa kwento nya kung paano sya napunta rito.

Wala akong magawa kung hindi tumango kahit na nasasaktan talaga ako. Pero habang nakikita ko si Lyra ngayon na may ibang kislap sa mga mata, alam kong masaya na sya.

May parte sa akin na guminhawa dahil hindi totoong nagloko ang asawa nya kaya hindi na sya masasaktan. Iyong mga bumangga sa kanya ay sana pagbayarin. Kawawang-kawawa ang lagay noon ni Lyra.

“Halika, naghanda ako ng almusal para sayo pero magbihis ka muna,” sabi ko at umiwas ng tingin.

“T-thank you. And uh, ngayon na rin ako kukunin ni Tito…” mahina nyang sabi.

Napalabi ako at mariing napapikit. Aalis na nga sya. Tang ina.

“Sige,” nanghihina kong sagot at nauna na sa kusina.

Alam kong darating talaga sa puntong ito na aalis na sya. Hindi naman sya pwede rito habang buhay.

Niyakap nya ako habang umiiyak sya. Pagkalapag na pagkalapag ko ng maleta nya sa likod ng sasakyan ay mahigpit nya akong niyakap.

Niyakap ko sya pabalik at hinaplos ang buhok nya habang tinatahan sya.

Tiningala nya ako at hinalikan sa pisngi. Natulos ako kaagad at hindi nakagalaw. Unti unti akong nakabalik at pinagmasdan ko syang pumasok na.

Hinawakan ko ang pisngi ko at napangiti. Parang napawi lahat dahil sa halik na ’yun.  Nag-init tuloy ang mukha ko at pakiramdam ko mamumula ang mga tainga ko.

Tinapik ako ng isa sa mga tito nya na syang tinanguan ko. Pinagmasdan ko ang kotse nilang umalis habang naririnig ang iyak ng mga naging kaibigan nya rito.

Salamat, Lyra. Naging masaya ako sa loob ng dalawang buwan. Hindi ko alam na pwede ko palang maranasan ’yun kahit na saglit lang.

Sana ay huwag ka nang saktan ng asawa mo at maging masaya na kayo.

Ilang linggo lang na wala sya ay para na akong mababaliw. Kaya naman nag-impake ako para sa paghahandang mag-Maynila.

Binigyan ako ng pera ng mga tito nya. Hindi ko talaga gustong tanggapin dahil may ipon naman ako pero umiiyak si Lyra at naiinis sa akin kaya tinanggap ko na.

“Strevanboy,” pagtatawag sa akin ni Mang Rehan, tatay ni Kayee.

Tipid akong ngumiti. Tinapik nya rin ako bago nginitian.

“Mahal mo, ano?”

Hindi ko inaasahan ang tanong nya gayong nandito ako para sana sa balak na pagma-Maynila dahil nagsabi sya na tutulungan nya ako.

Hindi ako nakasagot agad.

“Mahal mo, alam ko. Sabi ni Kayee, may asawa raw. Alam mo… ayos lang iyan. Siguro nasasaktan ka ngayon dahil tingin mo mahal mo na pero hindi kayo para sa isa’t isa,” marahan nyang sabi.

Hindi ko alam pero parang pinipiga ang puso ko sa sakit. Miss na miss ko si Lyra, sa totoo lang. Hindi ko kakayaning tumagal pa rito.

“Pero maniwala ka sa akin, napagdaanan ko na iyan. At iyang pagmamahal at sakit na nararamdaman mo, walang-wala iyan sa mararamdaman mo sa tamang tao. Sinasabi ko sa ’yo, wala pa iyan sa kalingkingnan ng mararamdaman mo kapag ang tamang babae na ang nakasama mo. Malalaman mo rin… Dahil ibang iba talaga. Iyon ’yung pagmamahal na talagang hahamakin ang lahat at ipagdadasal ko na makita mo na…”

Prinoseso ko pa ang sinabi nya pero sa huli ay tumango ako.

“Salamat po.”

Sana nga… Hindi naman ako nagmamadali. Mag-aaral pa ako.

Humalakhak sya at muling tinapik ang balikat ko. Ngumisi naman ako at nagpunas ng luha.

Natupad nga ang pagmama-Maynila ko. Hinatid ako ni Mang Rehan sa bahay ng kaibigan nya sa Maynila. Malaki ang bahay at animo’y mansion.

Sabi ni Mang Rehan ay gagawin daw akong scholar ng kaibigan nya. Papatirahin sa bahay nila at pag-aaralin, kapalit ng pagtatrabaho sa shop nila.

Humalakhak si Mang Rehan nang nasa salas na kami ng mansion.

“Ito iyong sinasabi ko sa ’yo, si Strevan! Masipag ito, responsable at maasahan!” pagmamalaki ni Mang Rehan.

Ngumiti iyong lalaki at tumango. Mukha syang kaedaran ni Mang Rehan.

“May tiwala naman ako sa iyo, Rehan,” sabi nito at tumingin sa akin.

“Magandang umaga po,” bati ko at naglahad ng kamay.

Ngumiti ito at nakipag-kamay sa akin. “Good morning! Ako si Lazarus, kaibigan nitong si Rehan. Pero tawagin mo akong ‘Tito,’” nakangiti nyang sabi.

Ngumisi ako at tumango. “Sige po. Maasahan nyo po ako sa lahat.”

“Good! I know! Unang tingin pa lang. Anong buong pangalan mo, hijo? Aasikasuhin na ng isang tauhan ko para makapasok ka na nitong darating na pasukan.”

“Strevan Exykel Caspian po. Salamat po talaga,” natutuwa kong sabi. Malaki talaga ang pasasalamat ko.

Tumango-tango sya. “Ayos lang, hijo. Gusto ko talagang magkaanak na lalaki pero…” nagkibit-balikat sya.

Nag-usap pa sila saglit ni Mang Rehan.

“Ano po ang mga gagawin ko?” tanong ko.

“Ah, may shop kasi kami at nagtitinda kami ng mga parte ng kotse. Minsan ay mabibigat at dinedeliver pa kaya doon ka tumulong. Tsaka…”

Tumango ako at hinintay ang sasabihin nya.

“Ilang taon ka na nga?”

“Bente-kwatro po.”

Tumango naman sya. “Iyong anak kong dalaga, first year college nyan sa pasukan. 18 years old. Suwail eh, mahilig mag-barkada at papalit-palit ng mga lalaki kaya gusto ko sanang bantayan mo. Doon din kita pag-aaralin sa university na pinapasukan nya.”

Nagulat ako pero hindi na nagsalita. Suwail, huh? Baby sitter pala at taga-tulong sa shop nila ang gagampanan ko. Madali lang ito para sa akin at para na rin maibaling ko sa ibang bagay ang atensyon ko.

Isang buwan pa lang ay nahirapan na akong pagsabayin ang pag-aaral at pagtatrabaho. Hindi naman ganoon kahirap ang trabaho pero talagang mahirap ang mag-aral. Last year ko na sa kolehiyo at graduating na.

“Sienna,” pagtatawag ko. Huminga ako nang malalim nang tingnan nya ako at ngitian nang matamis.

“Sino iyong lalaking kasama mo sa library kanina?” Hindi ko na mapigilang itanong.

Hindi ko alam pero naiinis ako nang makita ko sila. Nilalayo ko sya lagi sa mga lalaki at alam ko sa sarili kong hindi iyon dahil utos ng tatay nya kung hindi… dahil gusto ko.

“Ah,” humagikhik sya. “Wala ’yon. He just helped me with an assignment. You know, analytic geometry… I had a hard time because it uses principles of calculus and geometry so…” nagkibit balikat sya na parang wala lang sa kanya.

Mas lalo lang akong nainis pero ikinalma ko ang sarili ko. Maraming lalaki ang nagkakagusto sa kanya. Sikat din sya sa university. Madali nyang napapaikot ang mga lalaki.

“Bakit hindi ka sa akin magpatulong at lumapit kung ganoon? Engineering ang course ko, Sienna,” sabi ko at inis na umiwas ng tingin.

Humagikhik sya at literal akong napatalon nang lumapit sya sa akin at ipinatong ang dalawang kamay sa balikat ko. Napalunok ako habang titig na titig sa kanya.

“I’m sorry na,” malambing nyang sabi.

Napamura ako at agad nanlambot. Tang ina, papatayin ako ng tatay mo.

Mahirap pagsabayin ang pagtatrabaho at pag-aaral pero kakayanin ko. Lalo pa’t hindi lang ito para sa sarili ko, kung hindi para rin sa isa pang taong mahalaga sa akin.

Ysmael

Ysmael’s

“Asshole,” I said while smirking.

Azriel chuckled and ran. I ran with him while laughing, too.

“Gago!” mura ko habang sumasabay sa pagtakbo nya.

“Hurry up, you son of a bitch!” He cursed.

We stopped when we reached a convenience store. Nilingon ko ang pinanggalingan at nakitang wala namang tauhang nakasunod.

“Scared cat?” he mocked and removed his shades. “Let’s get in. I got thirsty.”

Hindi na ako nagsalita at sabay na lang kaming pumasok ng convenience store. Pinagtinginan agad kami ng mga customers pero seryoso lang kami pareho.

We are actually quite famous in the university and even outside of it. Perks of being the Nickolson Cousins.

We are not really close. We mock each other but we still get together just like now, we ran away from his and my father’s men.

“You think they’ll catch us?” I asked seriously while getting some Blue in the refrigerator of the convenience store.

Our fathers are very strict about our grades. They train us in business very strictly.

Umismid sya. “So? They won’t. My grades are high so I don’t see why father is being harsh to me.”

I clenched my jaw and looked at him. “Are you low key ranting?”

He mockingly laughed and shook his head. This fucking guy is the guy I hate the most. But still, we’re cousins.

He’ll be the one to take over our company one day-something I am very bitter about. But it’s still years from now and I still have time to prove myself to them.

“I’m going to a bar in BGC tonight. Make excuses for me,” he said and turned his back at me.

“Damn it, Azriel!” mura ko at inis na sinarado ang pinto ng ref.

This asshole right here is a womanizer, but he is smart in class. He is a genius, actually. He always tops the exams, and the class ranks. His only flaw is being a womanizer.

I’m not like him. I value my education more so I don’t have time for temporary women.

“I said go fucking home and make excuses-”

“I’m not your slave. I’ll tell that to tito-”

“Why are you so nosy? Asshole, no matter what you do, the company will be under my name,” he said ruthlessly.

Hindi naman ako nasaktan. Talagang ganyan na ang tabas ng bibig ng gagong ’yan.

After paying, we went out. He wore his shades again and smirked at me.

“I gotta go.”

“Azriel, you didn’t bring your damn car,” I said.

He shrugged. “I texted Candy. She’s by the Broadway street.”

I sighed heavily and looked around. He is not just a playboy, but a bad boy, too.

“Tang ina!” He cursed while looking at the road behind. Kinuha nya ang itim kong cap at sinuot iyon nang pabaligtad.

“They’re here! I need to go,” he said and ran away like a thief.

Umiling-iling na lang ako. Nilingon ko ang tinitingnan nya kanina at nariyan na pala ang mga tauhan ng parents namin.

“Sir!”

I sighed. “Azriel escaped.”

They talked for more before I assured them I’ll go to my business class. Our classes in university is actually done, but our parents make us go for 2 more hours for another set of business classes.

However, Azriel doesn’t like it. He’d rather be in a bar with his lap that is full of girls.

His high school years can be just explain with a sentence: Being a playboy asshole while being the top student.

“Ysmael!”

I put my book down and looked for the one who called me. Scarlette is running towards here.

“What?” I asked uninterestedly.

“I was from football field. Hinahanap ko si Azriel. Where is he by the way?” she asked.

Umiling ako. “I don’t know.”

She sighed and occupied the empty space beside me.

“He told me he likes me, but he acts opposite,” she said problematically.

That asshole.

I didn’t speak.

“I was really happy because he’s my crush, I mean… he’s every girl’s crush. Kung hindi ikaw, sya naman.”

Kumunot ang noo ko. Like what I said, I don’t have time for temporary women.

“Akala ko liligawan na ako kasi nga…” natigilan sya kaya napatingin ako sa kanya.

Namumula na ang mga mata nya at nakatitig sa isang direksyon. Ang gagong ’to. May inaakbayang ibang babae.

Walang salitang umalis si Scarlette. Damn him! Scarlette is a nice girl!

She wasn’t the first girl who cried for Azriel. I have girls who like me, too, but I just don’t like having one. I’ll give time for that when my career is already stable and I make my own money.

Tumitigil lang si Azriel sa pangbabae kapag darating na ang exams o finals week. In that time, you will barely see him. He’ll be dead serious while reviewing and studying.

“Why don’t you keep a girlfriend?” I asked him, one time.

He immediately shook his head. “Para saan? I don’t like being committed.”

Ngumiwi ako. “Really?”

“Yeah,” he glared at me. “Keep a girlfriend if you want. Let’s see until when can you take it.”

“Of course, I will, one day. And you’ll be jealous because I’ll have my own kids with the woman I love the most.”

He made a face. “Well, good luck with that. That also means, you can only have her and no other girls anymore.”

“If you love her, you won’t have the guts to be with other girls, I’m telling you,” I said.

Pagak syang natawa, hindi pa rin naniniwala.

I sighed. “Malalaman mo rin.”

“Gago, sinabi kong ayoko nga. Ayokong makasal dahil ayokong matali habangbuhay. Ayoko ng may babaeng nangingialam sa buhay ko,” paliwanag nya.

Talagang lang, ah?

He talks like being in a relationship is a very bad and suffocating thing.

Even after we graduated in college, he never stopped having girls. He was the valedictorian while I only got the latin award lower than his.

That made me freak out for days. I was stressed and doomed. He is really the one taking over our company, and not me. Damn this life!

He still never got a girlfriend. However, I overheard his parents talking about him, stalking some minor.

I was shocked, of course, and I didn’t believe it at first. The Proud and Playboy Azriel Nickolson is stalking someone? And worse, a minor!

“’Pa, please make some way. I did my best to excel!” I begged to my father, one night. “Please talk to tito and tita!”

My father sighed. “I’m sorry, son. Ito ang usapan noon pa man. Kayong dalawa lang ang natitirang Nickolson kaya napag-usapan namin noon pa man na kung sino ang mas mataas, sya ang magmamana.”

“That’s true, Ysmael… You can still work there,” Mama said.

I bitterly nodded. Wala na talagang pag-asa, huh.

I’m not dumb! I’m smart but not as smart as Azriel.

“You know what, Pa? I heard tito and tita talking, Azriel is stalking a minor.”

Muntik nang maibuga ni Papa ang iniinom na kape. “What are you talking about?!”

“Isn’t that pedophilia? Or if not, stalking is a crime!” I said irritatedly.

What the fuck is going on with him, anyway?! Bata na ba ang tipo nya kaya ayaw nya sa mga kaedaran namin? Damn it!

Pinagpipilitan ko pa ang tungkol doon pero palaging sinasabi nila na lilipas din daw ’yan. I hate them for saying that.

What if the minor girl is feeling uncomfortable?! Tang ina talaga ni Azriel! I thought he’s smart!

Mas lalong nakalimutan ang tungkol doon noong isang taon na ang lumipas. Dahilan naman nila ngayon na hindi na raw menor de edad, but still… stalking is a crime.

For the next four years, I’ve never seen Azriel with a girl again. Everytime I go to bar, I barely see him which is very unlikely of him.

I’ve seen the girl he’s stalking once. Not on person, but using his phone. He left his phone on the office and the screen is on Instagram page of a very beautiful girl.

Ito pala ang pinagkakaabalahan nya, huh.

Naalala ko pa kung gaano sya kagago noon. Ayaw na ayaw sa committment. Ayaw na ayaw magpatali.

Kaya naman nang malaman kong ikinasal sya ay hindi ako makapaniwala at gulat na gulat ako. Sobrang bilis at walang ceremony!

Mas lalong hindi ako makapaniwala nang makita kong sinusuyo nya pa ang babae.

“Baby, please… I’m sorry, I’m late.”

Gusto kong matawa sa malambing nyang boses. I’ve never heard of that before. Even when he’s talking to his girls before, he never used that tone.

The woman ignored him.

“Baby, please… Wife, please look at me,” nagmamakaawa nyang sabi. Napangisi na lang ako.

Ayaw palang matali ah? Eh hindi nga lang sya tingnan ng babaeng ito ay parang malalagutan na sya ng hininga.

When the woman turned her face on the other side, I got a glance of her face.

Natigilan ako at halos mabitawan pa ang dalang kape.

If this fucktard is crazy over her then I understand. This woman is very beautiful and when I say beautiful, I mean it. She looks innocent and very feminine. Her face is probably the most beautiful face I’ve ever seen. Her face is also so much better than any of his girls before.

She rolled her eyes at Azriel while the asshole remained patient.

Nang titigan ko pa ang babae nang matagal ay parang may naaalala ako.

Wait a fucking minute… is this the same woman that he’s been stalking before?!

Fucking right!

That’s the woman I’ve seen in his phone and now, they’re married. I’m pretty sure that the woman doesn’t like him. Who would like a stalker? Also, I guess this is just for business.

“You fucking stoop low for that?” I asked him, one time in his office.

Galit ako nitong binalingan. “The fuck you talking about?”

“That’s marriage for business, isn’t it?” nakangisi kong tanong. “Why? Just because she’s very pretty?”

Padabog nyang binaba ang screen ng macbook.

“Because we love each other. Shut the fuck up!” inis nitong sabi.

I smirked even more. Maybe I hit some spot.

“What’s her name-”

“Why the fuck do you ask?! Do you like my wife?!” He asked aggressively.

Hindi ako kaagad nakasagot dahil sa gulat.

Azriel is being possessive. Azriel… Possessive… Married… What the fuck is happening? This is not him. He likes girls so much!

“What the fuck happened to you? I thought you don’t like commitments?!” I asked.

He groaned. “That was the high school me, asshole.”

I can’t help but to laugh. “I’ve seen you with her. Ayaw palang magpatali at mag-commit ah?”

He cursed. “Can you stop mocking me?! Of course, this is the new me. I’d love to be committed to her.”

An amused smile escaped my lips. “Really? Will your marriage last, then?”

I don’t mean to mock him in a bad way. I mean, of course, I want him to have a very happy married life. Inis lang ako nang kaunti sa kanya nakapangalan ang kompanya.

For the past five years, our company became on top. Lalo pa noong nagsimula si Azriel mamuno. Maybe, having him as the CEO is really the best way. However, inis pa rin ako.

“Shut up! You just like my wife so much or you’re still bitter about our parents’ decision. She’s my wife so back off!” Galit na galit nyang sabi.

Ngumisi ako. Mas madali na syang galitin ngayon kung ang usapan ay asawa nya.

His wife, Seleira Farrah is a very beautiful woman. Every action she does is so nice and calm. She’s also very feminine and gentle.

She started working here just yesterday. I heard from the employees that she also worked as an employee here and now, they’re all shocked that the CEO married her.

And also, fuck… I admit it. I am attracted to her.

I, myself, don’t believe it, too because my priority is really my career. Sure, there are many pretty women, but I barely get attracted. Maybe because my standards are too high. And now I admit that I am attracted to her.

She’s just really so beautiful. The first time, I thought it’s just because she’s always wearing fancy clothes like expensive dresses, but then there are also days when she’s just wearing jeans and a basic white shirt but yet… I still find her hot.

“You can go on. I’ll to my office and eventually go home,” Seleira said and went in the elevator.

We are together because I helped her carry folders. I just can’t handle seeing her, carrying folders. Kaya naman tinulungan ko.

Whie carrying those stuffs for her, she muttered a soft “thanks” which made me smile. Fuck, I want more…

This isn’t wrong, right? She doesn’t like or love him. She was just forced into this.

I went in, too and let her push the buttons of her floor first. I felt her wait for me to push buttons, but I didn’t.

“Hey, I said go,” she said and looked up to me.

“Ihahatid na kita sa office mo,” I said eagerly.

“Huh?!” Gulat nyang tanong.

“H-huwag na, magagalit si A-Azriel,” she said softly. Marahas akong bumuntong hininga.

Maybe she’s afraid Azriel might hurt her once he caught us.

“And?” I asked.

“Basta,” she said, clearly dismissing me. I didn’t speak and when the elevator stopped, she went out without looking back.

I just stared at her walking away. Really… really really pretty.

She occupied my mind for the past days. Now I understand why Azriel stalked her for years.

I wonder how it feels when she talks sweetly to me. Does she do that to Azriel, too? Do they sleep in the same bed? And… what else do they do in bed beside sleeping?

Damn it! Asawa ’to ng pinsan ko. Hindi ko lang mapigilang hindi sya titigan. Too pretty. Too pretty not to look at.

Hindi ko nga lang alam kung totoo ba syang mahal ni Azriel, but then, why would he stalk and wait for her if he doesn’t love her, right? He wouldn’t waste time for such thing considering that that time, he was the CEO in training so he was very busy.

Also, lagi kong nakikitang napakalambing nya rito. Gusto kong matawa pero parang may inis lang akong nararamdaman.

Nagkasapakan pa kami dahil sa sobrang selos nya. Well, hindi naman ako lumaban. Nakakatuwa lang syang asarin dahil talagang kayang-kaya pumatay para kay Seleira.

However, he also know how to get into my nerves… hardly.

“Because she’s always under me. Every night,” he said seriously.

Damn him!

Naglasing ako dahil sa inis noong gabing ’yun. Hindi tuloy mawala sa isip ko na nasa ilalim nya si Seleira. Tang ina. Lalo na noong araw na absent silang dalawa tapos umuulan pa.

Shit! I fucking hate my cousin.

Why does he always get whatever I want? I hate this.

The next weeks, we all got shocked by the news that she has a step sister and worse… she’s a daughter from a mistress.

She cried very hardly which made me feel pain. I also blame his father because he just threw a party and introduce his “legal daughter” without Seleira knowing. That fucking sucks.

Nalaman kong “Anikka” ang pangalan ng babae. Ilang linggo lang ay  nagtrabaho na rin sa kompanya.

“The fuck was that? Why’d you do that? That’s her step sister, why would you let her work here?” Hindi ko mapigilang hindi mairita.

He groaned. “Seleira requested for it.”

“I don’t believe you!” I said harshly.

He then looked at me suspiciously. “Why do you care so much? This is what my WIFE wants and I’m just following whatever she says.”

Umiling-iling ako. Azriel is really dense. Maybe Seleira just agreed although she doesn’t like the idea of having her step sister here. If I were her husband, I won’t let it happen.

But then, I started seeing them together… or that’s just coincidental?

I saw Anikka holding a box of cake and she’s lending it to Azriel.

Namuo agad ang galit sa dibdib ko. Ang gagong ’to!

“What are you doing?” I asked suspiciously.

“None of your business,” he answered which made me feel angrier.

I smirked and raised my brows at Anikka. I looked down to the box of cake suspiciously. Anikka excused herself quickly, something’s weird.

“Umayos ka, gago,” galit kong bulong.

Kinunutan nya ako ng noo. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“Really?” I asked mockingly. I clenched my jaw when he just turned his back at me.

Damn him! Niloloko nya ba si Seleira? Tang ina!

Unti-unti akong nakaramdam ng pagbabago sa kanila.

Seleira has always been jolly. Her presence used to always give me sunshine vibes, but these days, it changed. She always look lonely and sad.

Tinanong ko sya at hinindian nya lang ako. Pero alam kong may problema.

“You know what, I think I know this…” I said to her, one afternoon in the parking lot.

I was about to go home because I was dizzy. I grabbed my keys, my starbucks, and left. And now, I saw her here.

“I’ve seen it several times, but…” sabi ko pero agad din akong umiling. Hindi na sya nagsasalita at pakiramdam ko iiyak sya.

Damn it, I feel pain, too.

“Never mind. I hope not,” I added. I don’t have enough proof.

“W-what is it? T-tell me, Ysmael…” she started begging and her eyes are now bloodshot.

Agad akong nakaramdam ng inis. Naawa ako. Tang ina ni Azriel. Is he having an affair with Anikka?!

“Look, Seleira. I know you know I like you, but… I think I’m not in the right place-”

“Please! Ysmael, what’s in your mind? P-pareho ba tayo ng naiisip?” she then started sobbing which made me feel cold. Parang nanlamig ang buo kong katawan habang umiiyak sya sa harap ko.

Tinalikuran ko sya dahil hindi ko kayang makita sya sa ganoong sitwasyon. Binuksan ko ang sasakyan at pinasok doon ang kape.

“What are you thinking?” pagtatanong nya pa ulit.

“I don’t know, Seleira!” I harshly said. Agad akong nagsisi dahil mas lalo syang nanlumo.

She looks soft and very fragile. Stupid Azriel for hurting her!

She desperately held my hand which made me jump a bit. “Please, Ysmael… what is it?”

Hindi pa ako nakaka-react sa paghawak nya sa akin ay malakas na suntok na ang natanggap ko.

Tang ina!

Galit na galit syang madatnan kami sa ganoong ayos pero mas galit akong maari  ngang niloloko nya si Seleira.

Pinapasok nya si Seleira sa kotse at natatakot akong baka saktan nya ito sa mansion.

Damn him.

I respected their privacy for the next days. Hindi na ako nangulit pa o nagtanong. Besides, hindi na rin pumapasok pa si Seleira.

Sobra sobra akong nag-aalala. What the hell did this bastard do to her?! Sinaktan ba sya?!

I don’t know. Laging galit si Azriel at halos mapurnada pa ang malaking proyekto ng kompanya.

He looked so problematic.

The next thing I know, Seleira is missing.

The news went all over the country. Azriel doesn’t go to work, too. I tried going to their mansion, but he isn’t there. Ang sabi ng maids ay umalis at nag-condo.

Damn him! Really, damn him! What the fuck is happening, anyway? Pati ako ay nadadamay sa gulo nila… dahil gusto ko si Seleira at nag-aaalala ako sa kanya.

Dalawang buwan na ang nakalipas. Pumapasok si Azriel pero sobrang lutang nito. Unresponsive at laging tulala.

Hindi rin nakakatakas sa akin ang mga iilan nyang sugat na tingin ko ay sya rin ang may gawa.

His parents, Tita and Tito, don’t know about this. Neither my parents.

It’s because they don’t really care. They don’t like Seleira for Azriel. Pero wala lang silang nagawa dahil nga mabilis ang kasal at walang makapipigil kay Azriel.

Me, of course, I am very worried. Hindi rin ako makatulog sa pag-aalala sa pinsan ko at kay Seleira.

Seeing Azriel, broke as fuck, made my feelings for Seleira buried and forgotten. I’ve realized that this man… my cousin, deserves her more. At kung wala si Seleira sa tabi nya ay mababaliw sya nang literal.

When they found Seleira, that’s where I found my peace. Seeing Azriel being alive again, it made me feel okay.

“Are you sure? Have a safe flight,” he said seriously.

I smirked when I looked at him. He looks dashing. Bumalik rin ang pagaalaga nya sa katawan nya. Wala nang sugat, at ayos na ayos na ang itsura.

Walang-wala talaga sya kung wala si Seleira. Pinababayaan nya ang sarili nya. At ngayong nahanap na ay masaya ako para sa kanya.

“Yeah,” I answered. “Might go, look for my woman,” I joked.

He smirked mockingly. “You really should. Seleira is my wife.”

“Uh uh, I know. And she’s slowly climbing up to the modelling industry, huh? You better make the company better.”

He nodded. “I know.”

Tinapik ko ang balikat nya. “Good luck, then. Just send me an invitation to your wedding.”

That’s when he smiled. I am actually shocked that he smiled and not smirk.

“I know. Just go.”

“Alright.”

That’s what I did. I spent months in US. I actually don’t know why I suddenly just want to move out. Maybe for some fresh air and new environment.

“I said I need a maid. My personal one,” I said to the caretaker of our mansion in NYC.

“Kaya nga po, Sir. Darating nga po ngayon,” she said.

I just nodded impatiently. I should’ve just went to my condo, but then we have a mansion. Aalis din ako rito kung magsawa.

Our caretaker is a Filipino. My parents just trust Filipinos more.

“Pilipina rin, Sir. Mabait, inosente, at mapagkakatiwalaan,” sabi pa nya.

Tumango na lang ako kahit hindi naman interesado.

A woman with fair skin, brown hair, and with a very innocent face entered the door. Muntik ko pang maibuga ang iniinom na softdrinks.

“Eto po sya, Sir. Si Kirsten po. Mabait po ito, Sir, kilalang-kilala ko po dahil taga amin din ito.”

I don’t even understand what Manang is saying because my eyes are fixed to the woman with a small smile on her face.

She is also staring at me. Ako na lamang ang umiwas ng tingin dahil sa kakaibang init na naramdaman sa mukha.

And at this very moment… I knew… I’m fucked up.

My months in NYC are better than I actually expected it to be. Months ago, I said to myself that I’ll only stay for like two months but right now… I don’t think I can go… without someone.

Kirsten is a very nice woman. She’s jolly, kind, pretty, and it’s easy to make her laugh.

Kahit noong dumating ang balita sa akin na buntis at nanganak na si Seleira ay talagang ayokong umuwi. Of course, I’m excited to see my nephews, but I just can’t leave. Kirsten won’t go with me.

“Aalis ka… s-sir?” she asked with almost teary eyes.

I sighed. We don’t have a label, but we know to ourseleves that we like each other. And I don’t treat her as my maid.

Damn it, I think I need a new maid? This woman right here… I wouldn’t let her do stuffs for me.

“Yeah,” I answered.

I want to see my nephews and also, it’s Azriel and Seleira’s 2nd wedding so I can’t miss it.

“O-okay…”

“Don’t call me Sir,” I whispered and lean to her.

Nagulat ako nang tuluyan na syang umiyak. Imbes na awa ang maramdaman ay parang napangiti pa ako.

She doesn’t want to let me go.

I hugged her and kissed her forehead. I felt her cry even more.

“Hush. I’ll be back next month,” I whispered while smiling. “I’ll miss you.”

Yumakap na rin sya sa akin na mas lalong nagpabilis ng tibok ng puso ko.

Damn it! Kung ganito lang pala ang mangyayari sa akin sa ibang bansa, ay matagal na akong lumipad papunta rito.

“Ysmael.” Even the way she says my name is different.

“I know, baby. I’ll be back.”

Her cheeks went red after I called her that. Napamura na lang ako. Shit, hindi ko yata kayang umalis dito!

But still, I flew back to Philippines.

The wedding, as expected, is very classy and expensive. A lot of media and photographers are on the outside. I just knew Seleira is a bigtime model. I never knew that! Masyado ata akong na-busy.

Maraming  bumati sa akin at nanghingi ng mga litratro. The venue is full of businessmen. Kilala ko ang karamihan at ang iba ay mga sikat pang mga modelo.

I am happy for the two of them. I also looked at the twin baby boys and I immediately smiled.

Tang ina. Naalala ko pa si Azriel noon na ayaw nyang magpatali. Ayaw pala, huh. Dalawa agad ang nagawa at ngayon ay pinakasalan muli, ang dami pang media. Malamang selos iyan sa mga katrabaho ni Seleira. Binakuran agad ang asawa.

My eyes then looked for the woman who once tried to destroy them.

Anikka.

She’s sitting while watching the altar. Her cheeks are full of tears but she is smiling genuinely.

I sighed. Mabuti naman.

I don’t know what exactly happened to them since I went out of the country immediately after Seleira was found. I just know that Anikka tried to destroy them. Ayaw na ring pag-usapan ng kahit sino sa pamilya at tingin ko ay gusto na iyong kalimutan.

Kumunot ang noo ko nang may makitang umupo sa tabi nya. Lalaki iyon at parang pamilyar.

I’m a man and I know whenever a man likes a woman and I can say that he likes her. The way he stares at Anikka just feels odd. He chuckled and turned his back immediately.

Napamura ako nang makilala iyon nang humarap ito. Damn, that’s Zero Sullivan and he has a wife!

From the way I know Zero Sullivan, he is a determined man. From business to everything. And by judging how he stares at Anikka, I know he likes her.

I suddenly miss Kirsten. Fuck it. Pagkatapos na pagkatapos ng reception party ay luluwas na ako.

Patuloy ang sermonya ng kasal pero nilapitan ko na si Zero.

“You like her?” I asked directly.

He looked at me seriously and didn’t speak.

“You like her? Anikka? That woman,” I said.

“I do.”

Napailing na lang ako. Minura ko sya bago tumalikod.

“Who is she by the way?” he asked. I didn’t answer him. He has a wife!

“Fine. I’ll find it out myself.”

Ang gagong ’yon! Hindi nya titigilan. I knew it. Bahala sila.

I just enjoyed the rest of the ceremony. I want to laugh because I felt touched. Azriel is crying his heart out. He can barely speak.

I laughed with the crowd, but I just suddenly felt hot tears. I immediatley wiped it away.

Finally, they are now happy. They faced a lot of problems and they overcome it together. I wish them nothing but a happy married life.

And soon, I will be a groom, too.

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Special Chapter

CW: There’s a short mature scene in here. Also, I don’t know if there are some scenes here that will make confusions of readers. (Especially about the months thingy). I didn’t proofread this, I’m sorry. I’m very busy in school.

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Special Chapter

: Babies

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My pregnancy was announced months ago at kahit noong nanganak ako ay may media sa labas ng ospital which was very annoying. Pearl told me that I got a lot of hateful comments because they sensed that I was going to leave the industry.

Of course, I felt bad that time, but Pearl told me that those are not really haters. They are just fans that are sad and longing for my activities again. However, I don’t think I can come back. I am busy and very happy with my family.

I watched how Azriel chuckle while carrying baby Azul in his arms. Tuwang-tuwa sya at kumikislap pa ang mga mata.

I smiled when he kissed his tiny little forehead.

“Hmm. Good boy, do you love Papa? Hmm?” he playfully asks.

Narinig ko ang mumunting tawa ng anak kaya napangiti ako lalo. Humalakhak pa si Azriel at paulit-ulit na hinalikan ang noo ng anak.

Nakakatuwang makita syang ganito. Sobrang saya at hindi mapawi ang ngiti sa labi.

Halos hindi na nga iyan pumasok sa trabaho! Gustong-gusto na narito lamang at nilalambing kaming tatlo.

I giggled and looked at the baby boy I’m carrying, Baby Uzziel is sleeping peacefully.

Our first months were literally hard. Well, si Azriel ang pinakanahirapan. I couldn’t move much since kakapanganak ko lamang noon kaya sya ang gumagalaw.

Gayunpaman, I never heard any complain from him. Tuwang-tuwa pa nga sya. Tumutulong naman si Linda pero gusto talaga ni Azriel na sya. Hindi lang sina baby ang inaalagaan nya, kung hindi ako rin.

He even knows how to put and remove diapers more than I do! Ang sabi nya ay nanood daw sya sa youtube which is find really cute.

“Baby, are you tired?” malambing nyang tanong sa akin. Bakas pa rin ang ngiti sa labi at hinalikan ang noo ko. “Please sleep first. You need more sleep.”

I smiled and shook my head.

“No. Gusto kong bantayan sina baby.”

Both of our boys are good looking. I never even knew babies could look handsome Ang tatangos ng ilong at makurba ang mga labi. Itong si baby Uzziel ay may dimples pa.

“Fine. But let’s sleep later, please? Once baby Azul sleeps, let’s cuddle and sleep together,” he said.

I giggled. Iyan ata ang hindi na mawawala sa kanya. His love for cuddles will never be gone.

“Hmm…” sagot ko na lamang dahil hinalikan ko ang noo ni baby Uzziel.

Ganito pala ang pakiramdam magkaroon ng mga anak. Ang sarap at talagang hindi ko maipaliwanag.

Masaya ang buhay ko noong kami lang ni Azriel, but having our babies made my life so much better.

“I love you, wife…” he whispered. Tiningnan ko si baby Azul at tulog na pala kaya sya bumubulong.

“I love you, too, hubby,” I whispered back.

Bahagya syang ngumuso at hindi na napigilang ngumiti. Nanggigil pa at umambang humalik sa akin kaya nagalaw si baby Azul at umiyak.

Agad syang tumayo para ihele. But it’s too late! Nagising na rin si baby Uzziel!

“Noisy hubby!” I said.

He chuckled and kissed baby Azul’s forehead. Tuwang-tuwa pa sya habang hinehele at paulit-ulit na hinahalikan ang noo.

“Hush, hush, papa’s here,” rinig kong bulong nya.

Azriel and I are really parents now! I am so happy and ready for it.

Mabilis kong napatulog muli si baby Uzziel. Mabilis talaga silang nakakatulog kapag pinapahiga ko sa dibdib ko.

Sumenyas sa akin si Azriel na ilalagay nya na sa kabilang kwarto si baby. Tumango ako at tatayo na sana pero umiling sya kaya nanatili akong nakaupo.

Pagbalik nya ay dahan dahan nyang kinuha si baby Uzziel sa akin at naglakad muli palabas.

I smiled. Azriel is really much more caring now. Ayaw na ayaw nyang napapagod ako o kahit maglakad man lang. Kapag madaling araw at tumunog ang speaker na konektado sa kwarto ng babies ay sya ang tumatayo para patahanin sila.

“Ako na, matulog ka pa.” That’s his usual line and then he’ll kiss my forehead quickly and leave.

Naawa rin ako dahil may trabaho pa sya pero nag-aalala talaga sya sa akin. Hinang-hina kasi talaga ako noong kapapanganak ko lamang.

His paternity leave was over but still, he’s working at home.

I had a normal delivery. It was very very painful but worth it.

Bumalik si Azriel na nakangisi. He jumped in bed so I shrieked and laughed. Yumakap sya agad sa akin at sumiksik sa leeg ko.

“They’re sound asleep now,” he said huskily.

Tumaas naman ang kilay ko at napangisi. “Oh tapos?”

He looked at me meaningfully. Agad kong hinampas dahil may pinahihiwatig!

He chuckled. “What? I didn’t say anything else. I just said they’re asleep.”

Umirap ako. “Heh! Halatang may gusto kang gawin!”

Natatawa na rin ako. Hinalikan nya ako sa pisngi at pinatungan din ng binti.

Our baby boys were already four months old when we got married again. I actually feel bad because they were too young, but I also wanted to have them in our marriage.

However, later that night, things went wrong. We didn’t make love but that was our last concern at that very moment.

“Please, what’s wrong? Why did he just suddenly have a high fever?” I cried out loud. I was crying in the hospital hallway, wearing my white short reception dress.

“Wife… fuck it, calm down please…” Azriel hugged me and I can sense that he’s starting to lose his cool now.

He tried to calm me down but I was really panicking. That was the very first time one of them got sick and it was my fault! Stupid mother! Careless and selfish!

It was already 2 AM. The reception party was long over and we were supposed to be in our elegant room to have our honeymoon, but Wrena, our babysitter called, saying that baby Uzziel won’t stop crying and he feels very hot.

Of course, we rushed to them and bring him to the hospital. Ni hindi nga kami nakapagbihis.

Umiiyak ako nang sobra habang chinecheck si baby. Paulit ulit naman akong hinahalikan sa noo ni Azriel.

“Hija, calm down! Walang mangyayaring masama kay baby Uzziel!” pagpapakalma sa akin ni Tito.

Umiiyak akong tumango. Azriel is also whispering assuring things to me.

“Calm down,” the doctor said. “Your baby just suddenly got cold because he got too exposed in air conditioner for hours… Also, your baby is very young. He is very prone to viruses. Babies this age should always stay in a warm, quiet and sanitized room.”

Wala akong nagawa kung hindi ang sisihin ang sarili ko sa oras na ’yun. I blamed myself so hard that it made me cry for days.

Azriel was very gentle to me that time. He was very patient and he didn’t blame me to anything although I was the one who pushed that the boys should go with us.

We still haven’t do our honeymoon up until now. Our reservations to different islands (because we planned to do island hopping with only the two of us) got canceled. Our vacation in Paris, France was also canceled.

Mababaliw ata ako kung malalayo pa ako sa mga anak ko. Naintindihan iyon ni Azriel at kailan man ay hindi na nya pinilit o binanggit pa.

Actually, I am very okay now since it’s been almost two months already after that incident. Naka-recover na ako sa nangyari at hindi ko na sinisi pa ang sarili ko. Azriel was my source of support that time.

I went back to reality when Azriel hugged me and tried to kiss me.

“Baby, play with my hair, please…” he said gently.

I pouted and put my hand on his hair to play with it. Napapikit sya at mas lalong sumiksik sa akin.

“Do you love me?” he whispered.

“Yes. I love you and our babies.”

Napalabi sya at tumango. Kinurot ko ang tainga nya nang marahan dahil namumula ang mga iyon.

“Wife,” tawag nya sa mababang boses at sumubsob sa akin lalo.

I just realized now na sobrang tagal na noong huli namin. Since when my tummy got big, hindi na kami nagtalik pa. Puro lang ako tulog noon.

We waited for me to recover from giving birth and when I was finally okay and ready for the honeymoon after our wedding, may hindi naman inaasahang pangyayari ang nangyari. But still, we both know our child’s safety is and will always be our top priority.

“Hmm?” I asked.

“Give me a kiss, please.”

Ngumiti ako at inangat ang mukha nya. Dinampian ko sya ng halik at nginitian.

Muli syang naestatwa at natulala saglit bago mamula lalo. I giggled and kissed him some more.

Napamura sya sa tuwa at saka mas lalong sumiksik sa akin. “I love you. I hope you don’t blame yourself anymore, wife… I feel so hurt whenever I see you sad and crying.”

I smiled and nodded. I don’t want him to feel frustrated anymore.

“I love you, hubby. I don’t blame myself anymore… We have talked about it already.”

He smiled and he even chuckled because of his joy. “I’m in love with you, Seleira.”

Ako naman ang nakaramdam ng pag-iinit ng mga pisngi. It really sounds better!

Naglambingan na lamang kami at in-enjoy ang maikling oras na kaming dalawa lamang.

To be honest, I really want to know how to cook. I want to cook for our babies and also, Azriel. Kahit snacks na lang dahil mahirap talaga ang mga ulam.

I’m thinking of trying to cook something now. Magpapaturo na lang ako kay Linda.

Bumangon ako at umambang tatayo but Azriel groaned and pulled me back. Galit pa ito.

“What?” tanong ko.

“Lay down, Seleira! I know you feel tired!” inis na inis nyang sabi pero may halo ng pag-aalala. “Ano bang gusto mo at ako na ang kukuha?”

I pouted and shook my head. “Azriel, I’m very okay! What are you being concerned for?”

Umismid sya at mukhang inis pa rin pero humalik naman sa pisngi ko.

“You just gave birth months ago and you suffered from too much stress,” he said, suplado pa rin ang mga mata.

Humagikhik ako at humalik sa pisngi nya. Umismid sya pero hindi naman napigilang ngumiti.

“What do you mean I just gave birth months ago? Ang tagal na! Halos kalahating taon na! OA ka talaga!” natatawa pero kinikilig kong sabi.

I gave birth six months ago. They were four months old when we got married and it’s been two months after that. So basically, it’s really been six months after I gave birth so I’m really okay!

He groaned and hugged me tighter, ayaw akong pakawalan. “Still, I’m very concerned. Huwag mo akong baliwin sa pag-aalala, Seleira.”

Hindi ko na napigilan ang tawa ko. Mahina ko rin syang hinampas. Napangisi naman sya.

“Ayos na ako!”

He sighed problematically.

“Oo nga! Ayos na ang tahi ko. You can check my pussy if you want,” pilya kong sabi at ngumisi.

Of course he won’t see the tahi there, I’m just kidding. Tsaka hindi naman na ako stress!

He smirked, too, but he sighed again. Ginulo nya ang buhok nya at pilit tinatago ang ngisi pero lumalabas talaga.

Humagikhik ako. “Ayaw mo? Ang tagal na noong huli.”

He groaned and buried his face on my nape. Kinagat nya ako nang marahan doon kaya mas lalo akong ngumisi.

The past week, bumisita sina Tito. Napapadalas pa nga ang bisita kahit noong mga nakaraang buwan dahil tuwang-tuwa sila sa dalawa. Next week ay bibisita silang muli.

“Azriel, hayaan mo na akong maglakad-lakad. I’m really okay!”

Doon na nya ako pinakawalan kahit labag pa sa loob nya.

I went to the kitchen and he is stalking me. Ingat na ingat pa at nakayakap sa likod ko habang tumitingin-tingin ako sa loob ng ref.

It is very full, as always.

Hinampas ko ang braso nyang nakapulupot sa tyan ko dahil OA talaga ang isang ito.

“I said I’m fine! Sit there, Azriel!”

He groaned. “I’m worried… baby, please.”

Umiling-iling ako at hindi na sumagot pa.

Today is actually the end of the month. Nakalimutan kong umuuwi si Linda sa kanila every katapusan kaya wala sya rito. Walang magtuturo sa akin.

I sighed.

“Wife, why? What’s the problem?” tanong nya.

“Wala,” sagot ko at naglakad muli. Muli syang bumuntot sa akin at humawak sa kamay ko.

This man got really nothing to do with his life than to hug and be clingy with me!

“Seleira, hold my hand, please,” he said. Tiningnan ko ang kamay at sya lang pala ang nakahawak sa akin. “It feels like you don’t love me.”

Kumunot ang noo ko at natawa. “OA!” I said.

I just intertwined our fingers so he can feel good.

“Do you love me? I love you, wife,” he said. Hindi naman ako sumagot dahil busy sa pag-iisip ng ipapaturo kay Linda pagbalik nya.

“Seleira!” he demanded.

If you want to kill his good mood, just don’t answer him whenever he asks you if you love him. But just kidding, of course. Kawawa naman ang asawa ko.

“Yes, hubby, I love you,” I said.

Narinig ko ang buntong hininga nya. “Tsk! You’re not even looking at me.”

I giggled and looked up to him. “I love you! Matagal na!” I said.

Umiwas sya ng tingin at hindi napigilang ngumiti. His jaw also clenched as his ears went red. He groaned and kissed me.

I kissed him back.

“Hubby!” reklamo ko nang pinanggigilan nya ako. He’s almost sucking my whole lips! He’s doing whatever Tito called “vacuum kiss”.

He chuckled after the kiss. Dinilaan ang labi bago ako halikan sa noo kahit na iniirapan ko sya.

Umakyat ako pabalik sa kwarto nina baby. Ewan ko ba at gustong-gusto ko silang nakikita palagi.

Malayo ang agwat nila sa isa’t isa because like what I said, this room is actually two rooms. Giniba lang ang pader sa gitna kaya sobrang lawak. Magkabilaan sina baby at maraming mga gamit para sa kanila.

Sa ganitong paraan ay kapag umiyak ang isa ay hindi madadamay iyong isa.

Mayroon ding mini table pagpasok pa lamang ng pinto. In this part, alcohol, masks and hand sanitizers are placed.

We have a rule in this mansion that before you touch the babies, you should sanitize your hands first. It applies to anyone, even us or the maids. Ang iba ay pinagma-mask at gloves pa ni Azriel because he is very careful.

Madaling magkasakit at ma-infect ang mga babies at iyon ang pinakakinatatakot naming dalawa ni Azriel. Ayaw na naming magkasakit pa ang kahit sino sa kanila ulit.

We both put alcohol on our hands before we silently walk to baby Azul.

“Zuriel,” I whispered happily. Dahan dahan ko syang inangat at binuhat.

He is sleeping and he is very cute! Hinalikan ko ang noo nya.

Yumakap sa akin si Azriel mula sa likod. Ipinatong nya ang ulo sa aking balikat at hinaplos ang pisngi ni baby.

“I love you all,” he whispered.

Parang pinipiga naman ang puso ko sa tuwa. Ibinaling ko ang ulo ko sa kanya para patakan sya ng halik sa pisngi.

Hinalikan nya rin ako at gumawa iyon ng tunog kaya hindi ko napigilan ang humagikhik. He chuckled, too.

Nagising tuloy si baby! Ang kulit kasi ng asawa ko!

Azul didn’t cry but he opened his eyes. Tuwang-tuwa namang hinawakan ni Azriel ang maliit na kamay nito.

“Our first born woke up,” he said happily.

I nodded. Aldus Zuriel is the older one compared to Uzziel.

The next days passed by smoothly. Kinailangan nang bumalik ni Azriel sa trabaho dahil hindi na maisasantabi pa ang mga meetings.

Linda and Wrena are to help me. Wrena is two years older than Linda and she already have three children kaya talagang marunong na sya.

Si Linda naman ay wala pang anak pero marunong mag-alaga ng bata dahil nag-alaga ng mga maliliit na kapatid noon.

Hindi naman ako masyadong nahihirapan. Mahirap lang kapag sabay silang nag-iiyakan at hirap akong patahanin. Kailangan kong ilayo ang isa habang pinapatulog.

Next month ay ang advised ng doctor na makipaglaro na sa kanila at subukang patayuin at alalayan maglakad. Good thing, we bought baby walkers to help our boys!

Hubbybaby:

I miss you three.

Hubbybaby:

I wish I was there.

Humagikhik ako. OA talaga! Uuwi rin naman sya sa gabi ano! Pero miss ko rin sya at sana nga nandito sya lagi.

Ako:

I miss you, too :–(((

Hubbybaby:

Fuck. Do you want me to go home?

Ako:

No! Matutulog na ako dahil tulog din sina baby. See u tonight.

Nakatulugan ko nga iyon. Paggising ko ay naligo ako para tuluyang magising.

I looked at my naked body in front of the whole body mirror.

I can’t believe I’m still in shape. Mas lumaki pa ang dibdib ko! I didn’t get fat but I have light stretch marks. I’ll go to my derma next month because I prefer having none. I’ll also go to gym for a bit.

Sa tingin ko ay hindi na ako makababalik pa sa industriya ng pagmo-modelling. And I feel really… really bad for that. It’s my dream, but I can’t deny that I love being at home with our babies more than anything.

I also breastfeed my boys pero hindi ganoon kadalas. For some reasons, they sometimes reject my breast but drink branded milk.

Nakakasama ng loob, huh? These bad boys don’t want my milk! I asked my doctor about it and she just chuckled a bit and said it’s pretty normal.

Si Azriel ang gustong-gusto.

Ang siraulong iyon! Nag-iinit ang pisngi ko. Napangisi ako nang maalala ang isang pagkakataon.

“Baby, please…” he begs, one night.

“Azriel, pangit nga ang lasa! The babies only love them because their taste buds aren’t fully developed yet!” natatawa kong sabi.

He groans. “Please… didn’t you say I’m your baby, too?”

Hindi pa sya nakuntento at pumatong na sa akin habang yakap yakap ako. Nakahiga kasi ako sa kama at ito sya sa ibabaw ko, nakayakap at nakasiksik ang mukha sa leeg ko.

“It tastes bad. I’ve tasted it.”

“See? You tasted it, let me taste it too…” pangungulit pa nya at halos mapisat ako.

Umiling-iling ako habang natatawa. “Crazy!”

Pinagbigyan ko na lamang. Habang tinatanggal ang bra ay sabik na sabik syang nakatitig sa akin.

“Go. Taste it, you, big boy!” I said, smirking. I’m very sure he’ll spit it out.

Sinubo nya agad ang isa kaya napadaing ako. Hinawakan ko ang ulo nya para mas madiin sya doon. I then felt he’s sucking my milk like how I feel whenever my babies do it.

Ilang minuto na ay dumedede pa rin sya kaya hinampas ko na at natatawang tinulak.

Bitin na bitin pa ang itsura at may kaunting gatas sa labi. Nakaawang din ang bibig nya.

I laughed so hard because he looks like a big hungry baby.

He licked his lips and hugged me pero itinulak ko syang muli.

“Crazy! ’Di ba? Pangit lasa!” sabi ko.

“It doesn’t taste that bad. Actually, it doesn’t taste anything but it’s addicting…” sabi nya at umamba muli pero itinulak ko ulit.

He groaned while I laugh. Inaabot ko rin ang bralette ko at nagsimula nang isuot iyon muli.

“Baby, please…” pagmamakaawa nya at humalik sa leeg ko.

“Azriel, enough!” I laughed. This addict!

He sighed but I felt him nodded. Gumapang nga lang ang kamay sa dibdib ko at pinisil iyon.

“Azriel!” saway ko habang nag-iinit ang pisngi

“Lemme just eat them… I won’t suck your milk. Please, baby? I love them so much.”

I pouted and found out that I want it, too.

“Don’t suck the milk!” I warned.

“Yes, wife.”

Tinanggal ko muli ang bra at humiga. Agad nya iyong sinunggaban. Hindi naman nya nilalamas, talagang hinahalikan nya lang. Hindi ko rin nararamdamang sumisipsip sya.

I hugged his head and just felt that I’m being sleepy. Nakakarelax ang ginagawa nya kaya unti-unti ko nang ipinikit ang mga mata ko.

Nakakatawa talaga tuwing naalala ko iyon. He’s literally a big baby boy. Kahit may mga anak na kami ay hindi pa rin nya tinitigilan ang pagpapa-baby.

I looked at the clock and it’s already 6 PM. 7 ang uwi ni Azriel. I just went to the room of my boys to check on them.

Nagising si baby Uzziel kaya pinadede ko saglit. Nakatulog din sya agad dahil pinatugtugan ko ng music box.

Gosh, I love my boys so much! I have three boys now and I love each of them.

Quarter to 7 na nang bumaba ako ng kusina. Nakahanda na ang pagkain at maiinit pa.

There are also variety of fruits in the table. Palagi namang meron but since I gave birth, it just got doubled. Si Azriel ang nagsabi nyan sa maids.

I looked at the banana. It is long and big. Nag-init ang mga pisngi ko nang may maalala. That banana is big, but Azriel is larger.

I suddenly miss it again. Like what I said, sobrang tagal na noong huli. Lumaki pa kaya? Hindi ko pa nakikita at miss na miss ko na!

Hinawakan ko ang magkabila kong pisngi at humagikhik. I miss him…

Namumula pa rin ako noong may yumakap sa likod ko. Amoy pa lang ay alam ko nang si Azriel.

I looked back and my heart jumped in excitement.

“Hubby!” I called excitedly and jumped on him para magpakarga. I know I’m very OA here but I just suddenly miss my husband.

He chuckled and hugged me back. Ang bango bango nya talaga lagi. Lalo tuloy akong sumiksik sa kanya.

“You miss me? Hmm?” tuwang-tuwa nyang tanong.

“Yes, hubby!” I said dramatically and hold onto his neck more.

He is very happy with it. Paulit ulit nya akong hinalikan sa pisngi habang hinahaplos ang likod ko.

Pero iyon ang sumilab sa init na nararamdaman ko. I just said I miss him! Plus the fact that my legs are hugging his waist! I can feel mine getting wet and I wonder if he feels it, too.

“I love you. I miss you more,” malambing nyang sabi.

Ngumuso ako dahil sa kilig. Namumungay din ang mga mata nya at halatang tuwang-tuwa ngayon.

“I love you, too, Azriel.”

Agad nya akong hinalikan. Natuwa naman ako at hinalikan sya pabalik.

Wala akong paki kung may pumasok na maid dahil… naghahalikan lang naman kami ah? I smirked.

“Please, hubby…” I whispered.

Nanlalaki ang mga mata nya nang tingnan ako. Humagikhik ako pero napakagat labi rin agad.

“You want it? Are you okay now?”

“Yes!” atat kong sabi at ako na mismo ang humalik. Agad nya akong hinalikan pabalik at ramdam ang pagkasabik nya.

Isinampa nya ako sa bakanteng space ng kitchen island at hinalikan nang mas mariin.

I giggled but it turned to moan when he cupped my clothed breast.

“I miss you,” napapaos nyang sabi. I know what he’s talking about so I nodded.

“I miss you more… Hurry!”

“In our bedroom,” he said.

Pero hindi ko na ata kaya pang maghintay ng ilang segundo habang paakyat doon kaya hindi ko sya hinayaang buhatin ako para umalis.

I hold onto his neck more as I spread my legs very widely. He swallowed hard and his eyes are now reflecting different emotions. Love, desire, lust, and longing.

“Baby… fuck!”

“Oh, please, hubby…” daing ko at pakiramdam ko ay maiiyak na ako.

He kissed me again and caressed my soft spot.

I moaned softly but immediately felt concius.

“Is this soundproof?” wala sa sarili kong tanong habang lumiliyad. Mura naman sya nang mura habang hinahaplos ako.

“No,” he answered huskily. “Only ours is the soundproof one.”

Napapikit ako nang mariin hindi ko alam kung dahil ba sa hindi ito soundproof o dahil pumapasok na ang kamay ng asawa ko sa panty ko.

“You’re so wet,” he commented.

“Hubby, a maid might get in!” natatawa kong sabi pero agad napaungol. Actually, situations like this excites me. Iyong kahit kailan ay pwedeng mahuli kami. Pero mag-asawa naman kami!

Hindi ko alam kung gusto ko ba iyon o talagang hindi ko na kaya pang umakyat pa para dito.

“Ibuka mo pa, Seleira,” utos nya. I just found out he’s now lowering. Ang dress ko rin ay nakataas na at ang panty ko ay nasa sahig na. Now, he have the full access!

Ibinuka ko pa lalo ang mga binti ko at gusto ko na lang na ingudngod nya ang sarili doon ngayon na!

“Fuck… I miss it so much. So fucking pretty. I’m so hungry,” he said huskily which adds to my desire for him.

What if a maid will hear us or worse, get in here and see us?! She will see me, moaning so hard while my legs are very open with my husband’s face in between, eating me like there’s no tomorrow?!

Shit, I am so horny and so is Azriel!

“Ah!” napatakip ako sa bibig ko nang magsimula syang kainin iyon.

Sobrang diin kong kinagat ang labi ko dahil sa paraan ng pagkain nya sa akin ngayon. Ibang iba! Para syang sabik na sabik at pinipisil pa ang pang-upo ko. He is very hungry!

“Ah! Azriel!” ungol ko. Lumiliyad na rin ako at sinasabunutan sya.

“Oh! Ang sarap… please…”

It feels so good that I’m already crying. Ipinatong nya pa ang dalawa kong hita sa balikat nya kaya mas lalo nya akong nakain.

I feel like my soul is leaving my body. Ibang iba talaga sya ngayon. It feels like he’s gone wilder and I am very excited about that!

“Hubby… cumming…”

“Cum a lot for me, I miss it so fucking bad,” he huskily said. Even his breath on my clit pleasures me.

He started tongue-fucking me and that’s when I lost it. I moaned so loud like an animal.

Kinain nya lahat iyon at walang pinapalampas. He is indeed very hungry. Nakikiliti ako kahit nanghihina dahil sa ginawa.

I’m still in heat. I badly want him inside me. Gusto kong… madiligan. But fuck! I’m not safe today! I can be pregnant if he’ll put it inside!

I shouldn’t be pregnant while the boys are still babies, of course!

He stood up when he’s finished. He looks at me sensuall while licking his lips dahil may natira pa doon.

Nag-init ako muli at muling ibinuka ang legs ko.

“Put it inside now… Please, hubby…”

“Yes, I will. Putang ina,” mura nya at halos punitin na ang dress ko dahil gusto nya namang pagdiskitahan ang dibdib ko.

“Hubby, I’m not safe today,” I said while getting lost at his touch. Ipinulupot kong muli ang legs ko sa bewang nya.

“Fuck… what do I do? Just pull it out then?” napapaos nyang tanong habang pilit tinatanggal ang dress ko.

“Condom?”

“Damn it, how the hell will I have a condom?!”

“You don’t?”

“I don’t! Why would I have it? I don’t want to use it to you. You are my wife,” he whispers and started caressing my soft spot again.

Dumaing ako at mas lalong nasabik.

“Pull it out then.”

“Where will I cum?” nakangisi nyang tanong. “In the fucking floor here?”

Oh, shoot! Mas lalo kaming mahuhuli!

I smirked back. “In my mouth.”

Nawala ang ngisi nya at halatang nanggigil. Ibinaon nya ang mukha sa aking leeg at kinagat ako doon bago sinipsip. Damn it! He’s putting marks!

“Let’s just go up.”

“But I want to be filled now!” I said like a spoiled brat.

“Shh,” he said and smirked. Natuptop ko ang bibig dahil napalakas ng sabi ko noon.

I looked at his pants and his bulge is very ver evident now. Bakat naman kahit hindi erect but now, it is very evident. Pero bakit parang lalong lumaki ata?!

The sight made me more aggressive.

Hindi pumayag si Azriel na doon namin gawin sa kitchen. Hindi ko alam kung paano kami nakaakyat sa kwarto nang walang nakakakita. I don’t have any under wear but he was holding my panty shamelessly while going up.

We did it in our bedroom and oh boy… believe me, his dick was so much larger! It was so pleasurable although a bit painful. I was very satisfied before but noe that it is very large, I feel more!

And it was very very hard. Kahit noong nakatatlo na kami ay sobrang tigas pa rin. I just giggled and suggested positions.

Gigil na gigil sya. Probably because he waited too long and so did I! Our love making was so great. Very very happy and satisfied. Thanks to my husband, huh?

I suddenly think of how will we do it once the boys are already big. Sure, they would want to sleep in our bedroom and I would love that! But what if Azriel and I wants to do it, but the boys are in our bedroom?! A quickie in the bathroom, then?

“Hush, hush… We’ll do it again when you’re safe,” pag-aalo nya sa akin nang nakahiga na kami pagkatapos.

I hugged him. I am just very emotional when I saw him put his cum on the floor and not inside me.

“I wanted to feel it,” umiiyak kong sabi. He chuckled but he still hugged me.

“I know, baby… We’ll do it again and I’ll put it inside you, hmm?”

I nodded and cried more on his chest. I felt him kiss my forehead.

“Pinahawak ko naman sayo,” pampalubag loob nya at ngumisi.

He let me cum first so when he pulled out, nakapagpalabas na ako at hindi bitin. While he’s putting his cum, I put my hand on his member and it made me feel better.

We’ll just do it on my safe days, then. I can’t be pregnant now or the following years. Not until the boys are four or five. Para na rin hindi kami mahirapan. This is our family planning.

The next week came and Tito and Tito Hiro are here again. But it’s not just them!

“Tito, oh my gosh!” Tili ko at nagtatalon pababa ng hagdan.

Azriel groaned and tried to catch me but I quickly ran to tito.

“Oh my!!” Muli kong tili.

Tito Hiro chuckled while Tito Glassifer smirked at me.

“Look, sobrang cute,” Tito said while giggling.

Tumingkayad ako at sinilip ang karga karga ni Tito Hiro na nakabalot pa sa lampin.

There is a sleeping baby boy. Halos lumuwa ang mata ko dahil sa itsura nito. Again, it’s me questioning how can babies look handsome?! And I thought they wanted a baby girl?

Tumili ako ulit at nagtatalon. “Oh my! Saan galing? I mean surrogate ba? Wala akong alam!”

I felt Azriel’s presence on my back. He held my waist possessively. Sinamaan ko naman ng tingin pero agad akong naabala sa bagong baby.

“Gaga! Anong surrogate? Si Hiro? Hindi pwede! For sure, mag-iinarte ang babae habang buntis para doon si Hiro!” nanggagalaiting sabi ni Tito.

OA! Tito Hiro chuckled but he kissed Tito’s forehead. Napaawang ang bibig ko at tumawa nang mamula si Tito.

“OA mo, tito! Nasa contract naman iyon na pera lang ang support nyo! But anyway, saan nga? And what’s his name?!” nanggigil kong tanong.

Dahan dahang pinakarga sa akin ang baby boy. I giggled and looked at him more. Nilingon ko si Azriel at nakatitig sya sa baby.

“He’s from Fhilgate Orphanage. Actually, a month pa sya sa amin pero ngayon lang namin dinala. Masyado pa ngang baby para magbyahe but…” Nagkibit balikat si Tito at hinalikan ang noo ng baby.

“Wasn’t that orphanage known for having caretakers who abuse children? I remember their issue years ago,” Azriel suddenly said seriously. Nagulat naman ako.

“Yeah. That’s why Glassifer chose that orphanage. Also, that issue was addressed months ago. I kept an eye since then,” Tito Hiro said.

I nodded. Poor babies and children. Mabuti at naayos na.

I giggled again to bring the jolly atmosphere back. “So what’s his name? And didn’t you say you wanted a baby girl?”

Ngumuso si Tito bago sumagot, “Iyong baby girls doon, 3 years old na iyong pinakabata, e gusto namin baby pa lang nasa amin na so…” Nagkibit balikat sya.

“Oh. Just adopt a baby girl again,” I suggest.

“Yup, that’s our plan,” si Tito Hiro.

“Are the documents all settled?” tanong naman ni Azriel.

“Yes! Look,” sabi ni Tito at saka inilahad ang mga dokumento na nasa folder.

Kinuha iyon ni Azriel at pinasilip din sa akin.

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ADOPTION ORDER : APPROVED.

Adopting Parents

Travis Hiro Patterson and Glassifer Pierce Farrah.

Name of child after Adoption

Zekiel Archer F. Patterson

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And the rest are just information about the address, lawyer, contact numbers, their occupations, monthly salaries and such.

“Zekiel!” I read the name. “Baby Zekiel!”

Tito chuckled. “Kaedaran lang ’yan ng kambal.”

Tumango-tango ako at natuwa rin na mayroon na rin silang baby.

Nasa sala na kami para makaupo. Nag-serve na rin ng meryenda at ibinaba na ang kambal.

My babies aren’t crying and they’re awake. Kagigising lang kasi. Meanwhile, Baby Zekiel is crying.

“Hush, hush!” sambit ni Tito habang hinehele.

Ang dami kong gustong itanong tulad ng anong itatawag sa kanya, Mommy ba o daddy? Papa ba o mama? Or tito rin? But I just kept my mouth shut.

Tumahimik naman sya pero si Uzziel naman ang nagsimulang umiyak.

Damn, the whole sala area is so chaotic!

Humagikhik ako at kinuha si baby Uzziel kay Linda.

“Have he drank his milk yet?” Tanong ni Azriel.

“Hindi pa, Sir. Kagigising pa lang.”

Azriel nodded and looked at me. “Titimplahan ko muna sa taas.”

Umiling ako. “Padedein ko na lang.”

Kumunot ang noo nya at bumuntong hininga. Wow, parang labag pa sa loob ah?

“Let’s go upstairs for a while, then?” he asks and put his arm on my back. He leaned for a soft kiss on my forehead.

“Huy, bakit? Dito ka na magpadede at nagkekwentuhan pa tayo,” sabat ni Tito at nakita kong karga nya na si Baby Zuriel.

I looked at Tito Hiro and he’s the one holding their baby.

“Nahiya ako!” sabi ko at tumawa.

Kumunot agad ang noo nya. “Hindi naman kalakihan iyan! At saka walang maattract dyan kung hindi ang asawa mo dahil you know naman,” makahulugan nyang sabi at sinulyapan si Tito Hiro.

“Excuse me? Malaki na ito, ano! Fine! You’re both gays naman.”

Yumakap sa akin si Azriel at parang ayos lang din naman sa kanya. Mas big deal pa ata sa kanyang naagawan sya ng…

Inilihis ko ang bra ko at agad gumalaw si baby Uzziel. He’s hungry, I think. Kagigising lang kasi.

Titig na titig naman doon si Azriel at napapalunok pa. Mahina ko tuloy syang hinampas.

“So, anyway…” Tito then started to talk and when he does, it will take hours for him to stop.

“So, you’re saying that Daddy’s therapy is now over?” I asked.

“Yup. Kuya is still young, I think. Wala pa nga syang 60s kaya marami pa rin syang kayang gawin,” sabi ni Tito.

I sighed, thinking about my old father in province. After our wedding, umuwi na rin sya kaagad doon. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang hiya nya sa akin at kay Azriel.

Daddy did bad thing to me but he is forgiven a long time ago. Hindi naman ako nagtatanim ng sama ng loob dahil hindi ko kaya.

Alas kwatro na tuloy ay saka lang kami natapos kakadakdakan. Tawang-tawa ako dahil ang dami palang complications noong nag-aapply sila for adoption.

My boys were upstairs already nang ihatid na namin sila sa pinto dahil uuwi na sila.

“Thank you, Azriel, Seleira!”

“You’re welcome, tito. Ingat po,” magalang na sabi ni Azriel mula sa likod ko.

“Ay teka lang, Azriel ah?” sabi ni Tito at marahan akong hinila. Hindi naman nagreklamo si Azriel pero ramdam ko ang titig nya.

Pakiramdam ko ay may chismis itong si Tito dahil ganitong ganito sya umarte noon kung meron.

“Do you still have contact with Anikka?” he asked.

Kumunot naman ang noo ko. “Bakit? After ng kasal, hindi na kami masyado nakapagkita.”

“Hmmm… Are they still together? Her boyfriend, I mean,” he added.

Mas lalo akong nalito sa pinagsasabi nya. “I’m not sure, but wasn’t her boyfriend’s name Wilton? Or Wilfred? I don’t exactly remember.”

He raised his one eyebrow at me, one thing he always do whenever he’s about to spill some tea. Gosh! I miss those days when I was still a teenager and we talk shit about everyone!

“Nakita namin kanina ni Hiro sa may entrance ng mall, may kasamang lalaki,” he whispered.

Kumunot naman ang noo ko at hindi naintindihan ang inaakto nya. “So? Mag-boyfriend nga ’di ba-”

“No!” he immediately said. “The man wasn’t her boyfriend. Ibang lalaki! Gwapo!”

Na-concious tuloy ako sa paligid dahil napalakas ang sabi nya. And what? Ibang lalaki?

“What?!” gulat kong tanong.

“Wife,” Azriel called and put his arm around my waist. Ang isang ’to talaga ay hindi makapagpigil!

“Azriel, nag-uusap pa kami,” I said.

“No, it’s fine. Hindi naman madaldal iyan si Azriel. So ayun na nga, may ibang lalaking kasama and that wasn’t the man whom she brought on our family dinner!”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa ikinuwento ni Tito. Tinanong ko pa sya kung sure ba at tumango-tango sya.

“How’d you see? I mean… Paano? Dumaan kayo ng mall?” Hindi ko malaman kung anong itatanong ko.

But, maybe Anikka and Wilfred broke up? But she should’ve said it to me. Close naman na kami.

“A while ago! Teka, na-picturan ko,” he said and looked for his phone on his pocket.

Gusto kong matawa na talagang may picture pa sya pero nang ipakita nya sa akin ay natahimik naman ako.

Yes, a handsome man! And Anikka is beside him, with his arm on her waist! They are also laughing as if they’re very happy!

“Oh my!” I said and dramatically covered my mouth.

“What’s that?” Azriel asked. He leaned in to see what was in the picture.

Kumunot ang noo ni Azriel bago ako tingnan nang seryoso. “That’s Zero Sullivan, a businessman.”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko pero mas ikinagulat namin ni Tito ang sunod nyang sinabi.

“He is a married man. Why the hell are they together?”

Tito and I were left dumbfounded. Nagkatinginan pa kami at hindi kaagad nakapagsalita.

“What the hell are you saying, Azriel?!” tanong ko at medyo nainis kaya tumaas ang boses ko. “So, this man is making Anikka his mistress?!”

Tiningnan ko sya at nanlambot naman ang ekspresyon nya.

“Wife… I don’t know. I’m just telling you what I know, please don’t be mad at me,” he said weakly.

I sighed. Napamura si Tito at natatawa pero bakas sa mukha nya na hindi sya makapaniwala.

“Oh well! I’ll send this picture to you and you can ask Anikka, Seleira.”

“She’s at it again. Destroying families,” nagagalit kong sabi at para akong maiiyak sa inis. I know how it feels to be on that situation.

“Calm down, maybe she doesn’t know yet.”

“I’ll just say it once and if she doesn’t agree with me, then bahala sya!” inis kong sabi.

I then felt Azriel kiss my forehead as he caress my arm. “I know, wife. Please do not stress yourself anymore.”

Tito sighed and put his phone back on his pocket. “Sayang. Tumino na sana sya,” Tito said. “Hindi porket gwapo ay rurupok na sya. Pero sabagay, gwapo talaga!”

“Hindi naman,” sabi ko.

“Gwapo nga! Lalo na sa personal kahit malayo!” giit ni Tito at napapalakas na ang boses dahil piangdidiinang gwapo.

I bid my goodbye to tito by giving him a peck on the cheek. Lumapit sya kay Tito Hiro na kasalukuyang nakasandal sa kotse, karga karga si baby Zekiel at naghihintay. Pansin ko ring madilim ang titig nya kay Tito.

“Oh, you should’ve waited inside, Hiro! Uwi na tayo?” tanong ni Tito.

Tito Hiro looked at him darkly. “I don’t know. How about you go home with whoever that man na kanina mo pang tinatawag na gwapo?!”

Napaawang ang bibig ko at hindi napigilang tumawa nang mahina. He is looking darkly at Tito with baby Zekiel on his arms which I find cute.

Damn, ayan na naman sila! I remember that moment in the car when we’re about to go home from Peloponese to Manila.

Seloso si Tito Hiro!

“Hiro, my gosh! Stop being jealous of everyone!” natatawang sabi ni Tito kahit na pakiramdam ko ay nahihiya sya sa amin.

“I’m not. Maybe you just like other men more, huh? Zero Sullivan, perhaps?” pagalit at sarkastikong tanong ni Tito Hiro.

I giggled and I also heard Azriel’s low chuckle behind me. Pulang-pula naman si Tito Hiro.

“Oh my gosh, you better not throw me an attitude right here, Hiro! Let’s go home!”

“You called other man handsome in front of me and our baby,” Tito Hiro and he sounds so offended.

“Fine! Ang gwapo mo, Hiro! Damn it, mamaya ka sa akin sa kwarto! Okay na ba? Ang gwapo gwapo mo!” Tito said while laughing.

That’s the last line I heard except Tito’s laughs and him, saying goodbye, because they already closed their doors.

Pinanood kong umalis ang kotse nila at medyo mabagal pa ang drive nito. Maybe Tito Hiro is driving very carefully.

Natawa ako ulit kahit wala na sila sa paningin ko.

“Tito Hiro is possessive!” I said while laughing.

“I am, too. If you call other men handsome, I’ll be mad,” Azriel said. Inirapan ko naman.

“Oh, don’t be silly, Azriel! Of course, we can find other men and women handsome and beautiful and it’s okay!” I said.

“I don’t find other women beautiful,” he said seriously.

Umirap naman ako. “Lies! Of course you do and it’s okay! It’s normal!”

Totoo namang hindi namin maiiwasang magandahan o magwapuhan sa ibang tao at ayos lang ’yun!

“Really? It’s okay for you if I find other woman beautiful and attractive?” he asked.

Natahimik ako agad. Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin dahil agad pumait ang loob ko.

“So, you’re indirectly admitting now that you find other woman beautiful and attractive?! Wow, Azriel! Your audacity is out of this world!” I said and started crying.

Napamura sya pero natatawa rin. Sinubukan nya kong yakapin pero lumayo ako at nagpunas ng luha.

“Wife, damn it, that’s not what I’m saying-”

“Shut up!” I cried.

He is chuckling while hugging me. Halos mapisat pa ako sa tuwa nya habang paulit-ulit nyang hinahalikan ang noo ko.

“Stupid hubby!” I said which made him laugh harder.

And I cannot accept that his laugh is so good to hear!

“I’m sorry, baby… Like what I said earlier, I don’t find other women attractive or beautiful. If only you can see yourself in my point of view, you’ll know why I fell in love with you… and why I keep falling and falling over again,” he said as he hush me by kissing my hair.

Ngumuso ako at agad natigil sa pag-iyak. I always want assurance! And Azriel always give it to me.

Nang gumabi ay nasa kwarto na kami. Nasa bathroom ako at kaharap ang sink dahil katatapos lang mag-toothbrush and of course, my husband is behind me.

Ngayon lang ako ulit binagabag ng nalaman kay Tito. I just hope Anikka doesn’t know that he’s a married man and when I tell her to stop it, she’ll listen.

Hindi ko na muna poproblemahin. I’ll just call her tomorrow morning.

“Are you okay?” Azriel asked.

I nodded. “Yeah… tatawagan ko si Anikka bukas.”

He nodded too and gave me a forehead kiss which made me feel calmer.

“I wish our boys will be friends with Tito’s son,” he suddenly said.

Gumaan ang mood ko dahil sa isiping iyon. “Yes! Tito said they’re on the same ages. Also, I’m pretty sure they’ll all be handsome in their teenage years.”

He looked at me lovingly but he didn’t speak.

“Siguro kapag toddlers na sila ay paglaruin natin sila more often so they can be close to each other,” sabi ko pa habang nakangiti.

“Yes, wife…”

“That baby is handsome so I’m sure, when they grew up and they’ll be friends, they will be a handsome trio,” I said and giggled.

Azriel chuckled. “Stop it. I don’t want my boys to grow up yet…”

Ngumiti ako at tumango. “Right. But they’ll grow up one day.”

“So let’s enjoy it while they’re very young,” he whispered.

I nodded and faced him for a hot kiss. He quickly responded and squeezed my waist.

“Kapag apat na taong gulang na sila…” nakangisi nyang sabi. “Bubuntisin kita ulit, huh?”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at pabiro syang hinampas. Pakiramdam ko tuloy ay namumula ako!

“Crazy!”

“Why? I thought we’ve talked about this?” offended nyang tanong.

Humagikhik ako at yumakap sa leeg nya. Niyakap nya rin ako at binuhat pa kaya napayakap ang legs ko sa baywang nya.

“I know! I just hope it will be a girl!”

“It will be a girl,” he assured like he knows it.

I trust that. Noong sinabi nyang lalaki, ay talagang lalaki. Kaya sana naman babae na sa susunod. But it actually doesn’t matter as long as the baby’s healthy, it’s fine.

“Sa kama na tayo,” biglang yaya nya. Nag-init naman ang mga pisngi ko.

“Huh? Pupuntahan ko sina baby!” sabi ko at umambang aalis at bababa pero niyakap nya ako nang mas mahigpit.

He groaned. “Kanina pa sila eh, ako naman…”

Lalong kumunot ang noo ko at natawa na. Mahina ko ring hinampas ang braso nyang nakapulupot sa akin.

“Crazy! Magkasama naman tayo sa gabi!”

Iniwan ko syang nagmamaktol doon. Parang bata talaga sya minsan!

Dinala ko si baby Azul sa kwarto namin para padedein. Si baby Uzziel ay kanina pa tulog at binabantayan ni Wrena sa kwarto.

Hinahayaan ko naman silang mag-cellphone lang kapag tulog ang baby basta hindi to the point na naroon na lang ang atensyon nila. Alam naman ni Wrena ang ibig kong sabihin.

Busangot si Azriel habang nakatitig sa amin. Nakaupo na kasi ako at pinapadede si baby habang sya ay nakaupo sa dulo ng kama at titig na titig sa akin.

“Ano? Matulog ka na o kaya ituloy mo na ang trabaho mo,” sabi ko at hinaplos ang buhok ng anak.

He groaned again but I gave him a “stfu” look.

Inis nya akong tiningnan pero hindi na rin umimik.

“Aww, cute baby… sleep ka na, hmm?” malambing kong sabi at humagikhik saka hinalikan ang noo ni baby.

Bumuntong hininga si Azriel at bahagyang lumapit. Pagkatapos dumede ni baby ay pinagdighay ko na sya saka ako humiga. Ipinatong ko rin sya sa dibdib ko para mas mabilis syang makatulog.

“Wife!” inis na tawag ni Azriel.

Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin at mahinang sinipa. Tiningnan ko sya at inis na inis ito pero nang tingnan ko ay nanlambot nag ekspresyon.

That’s what he wants! Inis na inis ’yan sa tuwing hindi binibigyan ng atensyon at lalo na kung hindi ko titingnan.

Ibinuka nya ang legs ko kaya muntik na akong mapatili. Natawa na lamang ako nang ipwesto nya ang sarili doon at yumakap sa isang leg ko.

“Hubby, behave!” I whispered.

Bahagya akong naawa dahil para syang nanlilimos ng atensyon.

Tiningala nya ako at nakabusangot pa rin. Tinapik ko ang tabi ko. “’Lika dito.”

Suplado ang mga mata pero sumunod naman. Humiga sya sa tabi ko at yumakap sa amin.

“I thought you don’t care about me anymore,” he whispered. I giggled and shook my head.

Hinalikan nya ang noo ni baby atsaka yumakap muli sa bewang ko. Hinahalik-halikan nya rin ang buhok ko kaya nagsimula akong makaramdam ng antok.

“I’m sleepy, hubby,” I whispered. He then kissed my forehead.

“Sleep then. I love you. I’m in love with you,” he whispered sincerely.

Napangiti ako kaagad. “I love you, too. I’m in love with you, Azriel.”

Hindi ko na nalaman pa nag reaksyon nya dahil inantok na rin ako.

Paggising ko sa umaga ay wala na si baby sa dibdib ko. Baka kagabi pa ibinalik ni Azriel sa kwarto nito.

“Wife, breakfast,” yaya ni Azriel.

“Later,” I said.

“The boys already drank their milk… We should eat,” he said.

“Go down first if you’re hungry… I’ll dial Anikka first,” I said.

He nodded but he didn’t move. “I’ll wait then. I want to eat with you.”

Dinial ko ang number ni Anikka pero hindi sya sumasagot. Ilang missed calls na ang nagawa ko.

So, I just texted her.

Ako:

Is it true that you’re having a relationship with Zero Sullivan? Do you know that he’s a married man? If you don’t know, well now, you do. Please stop. You’ve already learned your lesson. You’re better than that, Anikka.

Ewan ko ba at sobra akong apektado rito. Maybe because I know how it feels to be there. I know how it feels to have trust issues with your husband and how it feels to cry every single night.

Well, in my case, I’m lucky because my husband is faithful and loyal to me. But for whoever that wife of Zero Sullivan is, I feel very bad for her… because her husband is really cheating.

Or we’re just all over reacting?! And Anikka and him are just really friends?!

Kinakausap ako ni Azriel pero nawawala ako sa sarili. Naalerto lamang ako nang tumunog ang phone ko para sa isang text.

Anikka:

Paano mo nalaman? Alam kong may asawa sya dahil sinabi nya mismo sa akin. Ang sabi nya ay hindi nya mahal iyong babae at business lang ’yun.

Naggalaiti ako at agad na nagalit sa kanya. Damn it! Damn her!

Hindi ko napigilang umiyak sa galit at inis sa kapatid. Azriel cursed and hugged me.

“Wife, what the fuck is wrong?!”

Hindi ko pinansin si Azriel, dinial ko muli ang number nya at sinagot nya na ito.

“What the fuck are you thinking, Anikka?! May asawa iyong tao!” galit kong sabi. Tumahimik naman si Azriel at nag-aalala lang na nakatingin sa akin.

I heard her sobs on the line. “P-paano mo nalaman-”

“It doesn’t matter!” I said.

“Hindi nya naman daw mahal,” umiiyak nyang sabi sa kabilang linya.

“Oh please, and you believe that?! Where’s your boyfriend?! Are you still together?”

Matagal bago sya nakasagot. “Kami pa rin… naguguluhan ako, Seleira. Tingin ko mahal ko na si Zero pero ayoko namang mawala si Wilfred-”

“Bitch!” I can’t help but to be angry. “May asawa iyong tao, hindi ka ba naawa sa babae? At maawa ka rin sa boyfriend mo! You, fucking bitch!”

Mas lalo syang umiyak pero galit na galit ako.

“I’m sorry… mahal ko sya… ilang buwan na kaming nagkikita pagkatapos ng kasal mo-”

“You’re digging your own grave! Bahala ka na! Continue living your miserable life and don’t say I didn’t warn you!”

Binaba ko ang tawag habang inis na inis sa galit. Ilang beses pa syang tumawag pero pinatay ko na lamang ang cellphone.

Yumakap ako kay Azriel sa sobrang inis. Marahan naman nyang hinahaplos ang likod ko.

“Hubby, she doesn’t listen to me!” pag-iiyak ko. “I pity his wife…”

“It’s fine, wife. Not every thing is your responsibility. Do not stress yourself anymore. You’ve done your part, to warn her. And if she doesn’t listen, then that’s not your business anymore… Hush, hush…” pagpapakalma sa akin ni Azriel.

The truth is we cannot stop people. We can only tell them what’s right and what’s not, but the decision is still for them to make.

I let it out. Tama si Azriel. Masyado akong na-iistress at hindi iyon mabuti para sa akin at maapektuhan noon ang mga anak ko at si Azriel. Especially him because he gets sad whenever he see me devastated.

Bahala na sya. At least I tried to stop her. Kung hindi pa rin sya natututo sa ginawa sa akin ay bahala na. May asawa at mga anak ako na mas dapat kong pinagtutuunan ng pansin.

“Hubby, I should just take my regular pills or go for depo shots… Masyadong matagal ang apat pang taon. We can’t just depend on my safe days! I want you to put your juices inside me always, hubby. Ang sarap kasi, I feel full and warm,” I said to my busy husband, one cold night.

“What the fuck?!” mura nya at kaagad tinigil ang ginagawa sa laptop.

Humagikhik ako at saka ngumuso.

“Wife, do not ever talk about that whenever I’m doing something! Damn it, now I have to stop-”

“Why will you stop? Just stay there, I’m just sharing my ideas,” pilya kong sabi at dumapa sa kama.

Madilim nya akong tinitigan at saka sinarado ang laptop. Tinitigan nya ang katawan ko at agad umigting ang panga. Shit! Nanggigil na naman ’yan! Oopsie!

“How can I continue this when my wife is talking about how she wants the feeling of my cum inside her, hmm?”

Nanlaki agad ang mga mata ko at nag-init ang mga pisngi. Papalapit na rin sya rito kaya tumawa ako.

“Hubby! Go, continue your work, you busy man!”

Tumili ako nang pahigain nya ako dahil nakadapa ako kanina. Pinatungan nya rin ako kaya natatawa ko syang hinampas.

“No, I won’t.”

I pouted.

“What were you saying a while ago?” he asks.

I giggled and hugged his neck which made him curse again.

“I said I love the feeling of your cum inside me! Also, your member is very big, hubby, it is so satisfying… I’m lucky my husband has a large shaft, huh? I’m always happy and satisfied,” pilya kong sabi at muling tumawa.

Napapikit sya at kinagat ang labi. He groaned in an annoyed way, but the side of his lips rose.

“Also, your abs, hubby… And your big muscles and strong arms!” I said while pouting.

“Damn it! You only want my body, hmm?”

I laughed and shook my head.

“No, no, hubby!”

Pinatakan nya ako ng halik sa labi bago pagdikitin ang mga noo namin.

“Really?”

“Yes, Azriel.”

“Tell me you love me, then,” pa-suplado nyang demand.

“I love you, hubby! I love you, Azriel, hubby ko! Walang pwedeng umagaw!” I said while laughing but I kissed him on his cheek.

Napapikit sya kaagad. Kagat kagat nya ang labi nang dahan dahang pumula ang mga tainga nya. Napamura rin sya at agad ibinaon ang mukha sa leeg ko.

“Ah!” daing ko nang kagatin nya ako doon.

“Damn it, Azriel! Don’t bite me, you, dog!” natatawa kong sabi at mahina syang tinutulak.

He chuckled, too. “I love you more. I’m all yours, baby.”

Wala sa sarili akong napangiti at niyakap pa sya lalo. Halos madaghanan nya na ako sa tangkad at laki ng katawan nya, pero hindi naman nya binibigay ang buong bigat sa akin.

“Really? Maybe you have a girl, huh? A pretty girl?” panghahamon ko at bahagyang nagtaray.

“Yes, I do have a pretty girl. Her name is Seleira,” he said while smiling at me- a very nice view.

I pouted again. “Really? Baka ibang Seleira ’yan!”

He chuckled again and his eyes reflect so much love. He seems so entertained.

“Hmmm, her name is Seleira Pretty Nickolson,” he said.

Kinikilig ako at napatawa. Nahampas ko tuloy sya nang medyo malakas.

“Wife!” he complained but he’s still chuckling.

I should change my instagram username to seleira_prettynickolson. Or Tito should’ve included “Pretty” in my name!

“But, seriously, hubby, I’ll just take pills.”

He sighed.

“What?! Hindi pa akong pwedeng magbuntis ulit, ano?!”

He nodded. “I know, baby. Thank you for telling me.”

I smiled and hugged him.

“I’m going to tell you everything, hubby. You should tell me everything about your plans, too!”

“Yes… Promise me we’ll always have our sincere conversations. If you have a problem, tell me. If something about us is making you hurt and confused, talk to me,” he said gently.

“Yes, I promise, Azriel.”

He raised his pink finger seriously. Itinaas ko rin ang akin at pinagyakap namin ang mga iyon.

I shouldn’t be childish! There’s no mother that is selfish, careless and childish. Azriel is a mature man. Hindi nya lang mapigilan ang sarili kung nagseselos o nagpapalambing, but overall, he’s smart and mature.

I looked at the clock and it says 11:43 PM. Very very late.

“Hubby?” I called.

“Hmm?”

“Let’s get drunk tonight, please?”

He cursed. “No.”

I groaned and looked at him angrily. “Why no?!”

“It’s late. Saka sasakit ang ulo mo bukas.”

I pouted. “Please… sige na, hubby. Let’s go to a nearby hotel with lagoons… Please?”

I looked at him cutely. He groaned and looked away.

I caress his jaw, too. “Please? Papayag ka naman ’di ba? ’Di ba, hubby?”

I leaned to him and started kissing his neck. He smells so good.

“Dammit, wife…” namamaos nyang mura.

“Or not? Or you’ll turn my offer down and we’ll just sleep?” I asked naughtily.

He looked at me darkly but I just gave him a cute smile.

“Of course, we will go to that fucking hotel right now,” he said huskily.

I giggled and nodded.

“Thanks, hubby. I love you!” I said sincerely.

“I love you more,” he said while his ears are getting red.

I’m sorry, babies! But can daddy and mommy have some short sexy time?

I giggled again with the thought. He kissed my forehead and pulled me to sit.

“Let’s buy our babies some toys on the way home tomorrow, wife,” he suggested.

“Okay!”

“Dammit, I love this. Thank you so much, Seleira. I love you, wife,” tuwang tuwa nyang sabi at kitang kita ang mga emosyon sa kanyang mga mata.

Yumakap ako at sumiksik sa leeg nya. Naramdaman kong tumayo sya habang buhat buhat ako sa harap.

“I love you, too, hubby.”

This is really my what makes me happy and contented. My husband and our babies. And now, we will together guide them as they grow. They will grow up and be honorable men someday as they should.

Azriel, let’s stay in love with each other forever. I love you.

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