Fire Beyond The Limits

Short Story

Warning: Explicit content ahead!

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Peter, with a little bit of his teenage rebellion, found himself seduced by the allure of crossing boundaries with his newfound delinquent friend, Saxon. Together, they danced on the edge of morality, and explore the world beyond the rules that Peter used to box himself in. But as high school came to a close, their lives split, leaving them to navigate life on their own.

One ordinary night, a knock on Peter’s window would give clarity of what their friendship should be. He will open a fire to break the limits that they had for themselves. Could it be Saxon, returning to remind him of the memories they once shared? Or letting a weak flame of love burn for more?

n o t e

Hi, this is Danmax! Returning after years of being inactive. I will keep on writing short stories for a while, because I have no time for making long novels anymore. I’m afraid, hindi ko sila matatapos.

I will only write 10 chapters per story. Pero kung may potensyal ang ilan sa kanila, I won’t hesitate to make longer versions. Please, enjoy my work. Thank you!

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HE’S A real troublemaker.

At first, I thought, he’s going to be my high school bully. He is a leader of a gang. One of those guys you would usually see at the abandoned part of the school. Smoking and doing a lot of bad stuff. Crime, perhaps? Who knows?

“Meet your new classmate… Saxon James Cruz.”

Pagkatapos siyang ipakilala ng aming guro, kapansin pansin ang sabayang bulungan ng aking mga kaklase. Kesyo gwapo. Kesyo mukhang basagulero dahil sa porma niyang magulo. O di kaya sa pilat niya sa talukap ng kaniyag mata.

Only one thing came up on my mind… I shouldn’t be friends with this person.

I know, judging the person’s attitude by the looks of his outer shell is wrong, but it is better than letting a bad guy possibly destroy whatever part of me he wants to destroy.

Yeah, bad guys do it for fun.

I remember when I messed up being the most outstanding and well-behaved student in the class. Klase namin iyon sa Mathematics. Habang nagdidiscuss ang aming guro sa harap, may bagay na biglang tumama sa batok ko. Isang bolang papel na nilumukos ang ibinato sa akin ng kung sino man ang nasa likod ko. Lumingon ako upang malaman kung sino ang may gawa nito.

Sa kaniyang mapanlokong tingin at ngiti makahulugan, walang duda na si Saxon ang nagbato sa akin nito.

Nagkunwari ako na parang wala itong problema sa akin. Wala akong panahon para patulan siya pabalik. Nagpatuloy lang ako sa pagsusulat ng lecture sa aking notebook.

Pero nasundan pa ito ng pangalawa…

Pangatlo… pang-apat at panglima.

Limang beses. At sa panghuli ay pambura na ang ginamit niya. Masakit ang pagtama ng rubber sa aking ulo, dahilan para kumulo ang dugo ko sa kaniya.

Dinampot ko ang mga papel na lumingon ako sa kaniya.

Sa pagkakataong ito, nakita kong umangat ang kaniyang isang kilay, tila kuryoso sa aking gagawin.

“Ano bang problema mo sa’kin?”

Isa-isa kong binato pabalik ang mga papel, pati na ang pambura niya. Kita ko ang gulat sa kaniyang mukha nung ginawa ko yun.

You thought I’m not capable of doing a pay back, huh? Shocking, right?

Akala ko, panalo na ako. It is done, and that would be our first and last interaction. Pero napansin ito ng aming guro na kaniyang ikinagalit.

“Peter… Saxon! Are you two fighting?!” she said furiously. I know she’s already mad by the fact that most of the students were too uninterested to listen to her. Saxon and I just added some fuel to it. “Both of you, go to the guidance office.”

For the fucking first time of my life, I am getting a disciplinary punishment for having vengeance from the real culprit. I can’t believe this is happening. Natatakot ako na baka hindi ako matanggap sa mga prestihiyosong unibersidad sa kolehiyo dahil lang sa hindi malinis na record sa high school. She didn’t even gave me a chance to explain. Agad niya kaming pinapunta sa lugar na hindi ko dapat patunguhan.

“Galit ka ba?” he asked as I walk awkwardly in the corridors with him. Binibilisan ko ang lakad ko para hindi siya makasunod, pero mas matangkad siya at mas malaki ang kaniyang mga binti kaya madali lang para sa kaniya na habulin ang bilis ng aking paghakbang.

Hindi ako umimik hanggang sa pagpunta namin sa tapat ng guidance office.

Kumatok ako ngunit walang sumagot. Sinubukan kong buksan ang knob pero naka lock ito.

“Wala namang tao,” he said without looking at me. Pinanliitan ko siya ng tingin.

Then I just saw him smirked like he is amused of what is happening right now.

“Siguro, maaga silang nagtanghalian,” he said like he is convincing me to ditch detention.

“Then we’ll wait for the guidance councilor to get back here.”

He snorted in disapproval.

“Huwag na. Sinasayang mo lang yung oras mo,” aniya.

“Sana naisip mo ’yan bago mo ako guluhin. Now, I’m wasting my time just by being here. Edi sana nakikinig tayo ngayon sa discussion at hindi parang mga tanga na nanghihintay ngayon sa councilor na obviously one hour pa makakabalik.”

He chuckled like he didn’t care that I’m upset. Hmm… my expectations about bad guys are true somehow. They enjoy getting people mad or sad. No idea how they find themselves cool by doing these kind of things.

“How obedient. Are you a dog or something?” pang-aasar niya.

It is actually not surprising for him to speak in English. He came from States before deporting to this country. Maybe that’s how he got his attitude. He was influenced a lot by the people there.

“Why do you look so mad? Gusto mo, bilhan kita ng Pedigree?” aniya at humalagpak sa tawa. Nice one, little joker. Sana tinago mo nalang yung biro mo.

What should I do right now to get out of here?

“Let’s get out of here,” aya niya sa akin. Oh, just like what I have thought. But I don’t trust him. Ayokong sumama sa kaniya na umalis dito. Mas gusto ko pang bumalik nalang sa classroom.

Pero bago pa ako humiwalay sa kaniya, agad niyang hinawakan ang aking kamay at hinila. Yeah, just like what you think it is, the most suspicious way to hold someone’s hand. How ridiculous and romantic. Damn.

II

“BITIWAN MO nga ako!” sigaw ko habang paulit ulit kong hinihila ang aking kamay mula sa kaniya. It is not working because he’s a lot stronger than me. With his not-so-ripe age, he’s already got ripped muscles. Surprisingly.

At the end, he eventually let go of me. Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba ako sa ginawa niya, dahil nandito kami ngayon sa isa sa mga pinakatagong lugar ng eskwelahan. Walang guro ang nakasubaybay at walang kahit isang estudyante ang umaabot dito.

Bago lang siya rito pero mukhang mas marami ang kaniyang nalalaman sa bawat sulok ng aming school. It’s not that I am underestimating him. He’s a bad guy, of course, he knows a lot of hiding spots.

“What are we doing here?”

He looked at me suspiciously.

“What do you think?” he said quietly almost like a whisper. Humakbang siya patungo sa akin at agad akong humakbang palayo. Then he bit his lip like he is going to bite me or do something… uhh… uhh… unnecessary.

“L-Look… it is not the best idea to hurt me. I always make sure that my parents and teachers would know if something bad happens to me. I-I swear, isusumbong kita,” pagbanta ko.

“Hmm… really? You really think you could tell someone about this,” he said as he step closer. “Not when you’re dead.”

He is actually handsome if you would look at his face closely, but now that he’s about to pick on me, he is getting a lot scarier. He insanely large and swollen with muscles. The scar on his eyelid says a lot of his personality, a troublemaker. Just one punch and I’m dead.

I stared at him hopelessly, and asking mentally why is he doing this. I’m sure, wala naman akong ginawang masama sa kaniya. He started this… and seems like he is going to end it as well.

He continued stepping closer and I just kept on stepping back, until I reached a wall of an old classroom that turned into ruins. He leaned to me with his one hand sticking at the wall beside my head, sort of trying to trap me. Then I just closed my eyes waiting for him to punch me.

It took a few seconds before he laughed at me. Napadilat ako.

“Your face is fucking priceless. Damn!” aniya. I cleared my throat as a response to this embarassment. “Akala mo talaga papatayin kita?”

I just threw the ‘unbelievable!’ face at him. I didn’t expect that he is just playing at me, even though that is something that I should have expected from him.

“Ikaw, sa tingin mo, ano bang gusto mong gawin dito?” he asked me.

Binaba ko ang aking tingin. Lumebel ito sa kaniyang dibdib. I am just staring at it straightly, kasi sobrang tangkad niya.

I don’t know? Are we going to learn Mathematics here? Don’t tell me, he wants me to tutor him right here? Funny thought.

He cleared his throat which made me look up to his face again.

“Why are you looking at my chest like that?” malisyoso niyang tanong. I’m a bit confused. “Looks like you want to take my shirt off… You naughty-naughty dog.”

Sa inis ko ay agad ko siyang tinulak.

“May toyo ka ba sa utak o sadyang mahangin ka lang? Bakit ko naman iisipin ’yon.”

Tumawa siya.

“Chill… wala namang makakakita sa’tin dito. We can do the things inside your head,” aniya at kumindat.

Inirapan ko lang siya.

“You know what… kung dinala mo lang ako rito para pagtripan, aalis nalang ako.”

He immediately held my shoulders and pinned me against the wall.

“Wait, I’m just kidding. You’re hard to joke around,” aniya at binitawan din ako agad. “I brought you here to escape.”

“Escape? Why? Are we in prison?” tanong ko.

Tumingin siya sa paligid at kunwaring naninigurado kung nasa kulungan ba kami. Then, he slowly nods his head.

I snorted.

“Nagbibiro ka ba? We are in a middle of class hours.”

He just shrugged his shoulders.

“No way you’re going to go back there after what our teacher did to us,” sabi niya.

Napakurap-kurap ako sa reyalisasyon. He has a point. I have messed up already, and going back would be a stupid move. I am sure our classmates are talking about us behind our backs, and it feels a bit awkward for me to show my face again.

“I know, lagi kang mabait. But for once, have you ever considered violating a rule for your own damn sake?” aniya at may nilabas siya sa galing sa bag niya. It is a pair of pliers. “It is time for you to break free, Pete.”

He moved towards the chain link fence and started to cut it. Making an exit for us.

Maybe he is right, I always know my limits in life, but that doesn’t mean I have to follow them all. It is time for me to break my limits.

III

I THINK I would never imagine us to be perfect for each other if that never happened in the first place.

We just fill each other’s spaces. Sa akin niya natutunan kung paano mapadali ang pag-aaral, by giving him tips and motivations. I even made him admire classic books by lending him what I have and like. One time, nakumbinsi ko pa siyang sumama sa akin sa clean-up drive operation para sa extracurriculars ko. He doesn’t complain. Hindi ko rin inasahan na dahil sa akin ay magiging kuryoso siya kung paano magseryoso sa buhay.

On the other hand, he taught me how to do crime… or maybe not that much to consider it as a crime, but I would like to call us ‘partners in crime’. One time, may natira akong chocolate popcorn from breaktime, and I decided to pour them in the toilets of men’s bathroom, in every cubicle for good measure. I remember a guy dealing with LBM at the time, can’t even sit to any bowl because he thought they were poop so he shitted out of his pants. It was Saxon’s crazy idea, but I decided to try it out. And then, nagsuggest din siya sa’kin dati na gantihan yung kaklase naming si Angela na kalaban ko sa academics. I am expected to be the valedictorian in our class, and she’s a step back from me. She might be hopeless kaya sumisipsip na siya sa aming teachers at kung minsan at pinapahiya pa ako sa klase.

“Clearly, he’s not doing enough research. Hindi pa ba uso sa’yo ang google?” ani Angela sa gitna ng mainit naming labanan.

It was a debate between me and her. My teacher laughed at that and admired her arguments afterwards. She eventuallly won with her useless reasonings. Alam ko naman na tita niya yung teacher namin dito kaya inasahan ko talaga na mangyayari ito.

Hinayaan ko lang siya at hindi ako gumanti kahit sinabihan ako ni Saxon na ipaglaban ko ang sarili ko.

“You shouldn’t accept defeat from a brainless girl,” he said. I just shrugged it off.

Bago mag-uwian, bigla nalang umiyak si Angela dahil nawawala raw ang kaniyang cellphone. Nadamay pa kami sa kaniyang pagiging burara dahil lahat kami ay inutusan maghanap ng teacher namin kung saan saan.

Later on, may nakahanap sa cellphone niya sa basurahan. Hindi kami makapaniwala. Narinig kong humagikhik si Saxon sa likod ko kaya agad akong lumingon. Nakangisi ang loko at kumindat pa sa akin.

He did it, for sure.

God, I love this man… in a friendly way, of course.

Lastly, we pranked the teacher who ordered us to go to the guidance office, by putting large cockroaches inside her desk drawer. Her scream was unforgettable.

Aside from those ‘crimes’, we also did a few shoplifting, pranking, skipping classes, and other bad things without being caught. We played everything so safe that I received a “good manners” award in my school. I find it funny, so I celebrated it with Saxon by going to his house and secretly drank my first ever alcohol in his room. He even told me that he got that from his parents cabinet.

“Para sa kabaitan mo,” he cheered jokingly as he raised a cup of his beer. Tumawa lang ako hanggang sa nakatulog kami sa kwarto niya.

I remember waking up in his bed, with my head on his chest, and his arms around me. All I can hear is his breath. And we just stayed like that for a long time. The next day, I tried to forget about it, but it can’t get off my mind.

I am feeling kinda weird.

Then, I met his other friends who likes to play round with people as well. Thomas and Luke. Amongst the three of them, Saxon is the leader. They consider themselves a gang and they would fight with punches against other gangs around the neighborhood. Nakakausap ko lang sila pero hindi ako sumasama sa gimik nila dahil ayokong magkapasa sa katawan.

Hindi ako makapaniwala na naging magkaibigan kami hanggang sa pagtatapos ng high school. Graduation came and I was the one with the speech on the stage.

“We don’t have to box ourselves and just wait for something magical to happen. Newsflash, hindi tayo disney princess,” sabi ko at tumawa ang karamihan sa audience. “Sometimes you have to loose yourself, break free, and do something to make things happen. To make major changes in life, you need to break the limits.”

Of course, I would love to share the best lesson I had in high school. The one I learned from Saxon.

If I would go back in time and tell my old self to break the rules, it would be enigmatic for him. But in times, it is the right thing to do.

After the speech, the crowd applauded. I went back to my seat and I heard my phone beep in the pocket of my graduation gown.

From: Saxon na kulang sa aruga

Congrats, Pete! You nailed it. Meet me at the “place”

Napangiti ako sa text niya. Good to know he liked what I’ve said. That speech was inspired by him.

Lumingon ako sa direksyon kung saan siya nakaupo, at sa pagtingin ko at wala na siya roon.

“Kung sakaling may maghanap sa’kin, sabihin mo nagpunta lang akong restroom,” sabi ko sa katabi ko at saka ako tumayo upang umalis ng gymnasium.

I know where I am going to head. To the cornermost part of the school, the one we had our first cutting class together. The place that started everything.

I went there and I saw him looking the opposite from me.

“Saxon?”

Lumingon siya at ngumiti. The saddest smile I saw from him.

The he ran… towards me… and gave me the tightest embrace he could ever give.

If this is just another normal day, I would complain and push him away because I couldn’t breathe. For now, I let him take my breath away.

IV

“WE WOULD still see each other, right?”

He asked… or pleaded… like he’s mumbling a hopeful prayer. I embraced him back and felt how strange it is that we only did this once. It is much dramatic for a goofy person like him, but at this moment, inasahan ko na ito sa kaniya.

“Yes…”

Sa pinakasulok ng aking isipan, may mga bagay na nagtatago. Nahihirapang ilabas. Am I just struggling to say those things out loud? Or am I just afraid? Quite frustrating. I have no clue of what I exactly feel right now, or what I am supposed to tell him. My mind is clouded with so many thoughts and emotions and I can’t contain… but I am still holding them inside.

Binitiwan na niya ang pagkakayakap sa akin. Nagtitigan kami ng medyo matagal na parang kinakabisado ang bawat sulok ng mukha, na parang ito na ang huli naming pagkikita.

“I know you’ll do great in UP. I believe in you, Pete,” aniya.

I just nodded. This is not the subject I want to talk with him.

“Sneaking to your dorm would be a great idea, don’t you think?”

I just laughed at how he could come up of some random bad idea that we can do. Typically him.

“Yup… tsaka sa tingin ko magiging malaking distraction ka sa’kin kapag ginawa mo ’yun,” sabi ko. That should appear as a mild joke, but by the looks of his frown, it seems like I kind of offended him.

“So you don’t want me there?”

“Hindi naman sa ganun, Sax!” I exclaimed while shaking my head. “Please, don’t get me wrong, huh. I am fine with distractions, as long as they’re from you,” paliwanag ko.

Good thing, his face lit up a bit.

“I would like to visit your place, as well!”

“Good. ’Cause I can’t afford to end everything like this,” aniya.

Then he gave me a quick kiss on a cheek and ran away. It made me jump. Electrified. Standing in shock for a couple of seconds before a realization hit me. I just couldn’t believe that he just broke our friendship limits by stepping a bit further. And the scary thing is that… I liked it.

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IT WAS ALL a lie.

What’s the point of staring blankly at the window for hours, every day and night, hoping for someone to pop out of it, if it is just a waste of time?

I barely outlived college by drowning in coffees and earphone music. The experience is far worse than I expected it to be. Mas naging harsh and pag-aaral at hindi naging madali sa akin ang makatapos ng buhay pa.

I know, I am not used to the sudden shift of happenings, but I wished that at least I could take a glimpse of how things used to be. Full of fun… with my family… with my old town… and with Saxon. My parents can’t afford to visit me because they are busy at work. I can’t go back to my old town because it takes hundreds of kilometers for me to get there. All I can do is to wait for someone… the one who promised me to stay in touch with. And it never happened.

I gave him my exact address, and I still couldn’t see him coming. Or at least he would say where he lives, so I could go to him instead. He told me he’s not ready yet to go to college, kaya inasahan ko na magkakaroon siya ng maraming libreng oras. Maybe all of a sudden, they were occupied. I don’t know. The best thing I have to do is to forget about him and let myself move forward.

I graduated college with latin honors, but without a single friend.

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“The deadlines are tight. Kailangan mo talagang iuwi yung mga gawain mo sa bahay,” my coworker, Adrian, suggested.

“That’s unfair. Last weekend, imbes na magpahinga ako sa bahay, pumunta pa akong opisina para matapos yung proposals,” I said in frustration. I want to punch a wall and tear this building down to pieces right now. This job is driving me insane.

“I know, right? Our boss is a total shithead,” aniya na may inis sa pananalita.

“Wala na akong oras sa sarili ko. Baka naman pwede mo namang akuin ang responsibilidad sa iba, Adrian.”

Malungkot siyang ngumiti at umiling.

“Mayroon din akong iuuwing trabaho, eh.”

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako.

Pag-uwi ko ng bahay, agad kong inilatag ang lahat ng dokumento sa lamesa at inihanda ang laptop upang simulan agad ang mga dapat kong tapusin. Pagod man ang aking mga mata at utak, wala naman akong choice kundi sundin nalang ang iniutos sa akin. Ayokong mawalan ng trabaho.

Hating gabi na at kakaubos ko lang ng pang-apat na baso ng aking kape nung may narinig akong kumatok sa pinto… hindi, parang sa bintana galing ang tunog. Bigla akong kinilabutan.

Pero may kutob ako na baka… ewan ko, basta.

Dahan-dahan kong hinawi ang kurtina ng bintana na pinakamalapit sa akin.

Nagpakita ang isang pamilyar na lalaki na nakangiti sa akin.

“Hey,” he said and waived his hand awkwardly. It is Saxon.

V

IT FEELS so strange that an old friend just knocked at your… uhh… window. Something that I was expecting him to do back when I was in college.

Without any hesitation, I let him in. Ano pa nga ba ang magagawa ko, di ba?

“Uhm… Hi!” I greeted awkwardly. Pinanood ko siyang ayusin ang kaniyang sarili dahil medyo gumulo ang damit niya sa pagpasok. “I have a door, alam mo ba?”

“Oh, really? Saan?” he said in sarcasm and chuckled.

Okay, I get it. He’s Saxon. Of course, he’s a rule breaker. I know him so well. Getting inside by using doors is way too conventional for him.

He’s wearing a shriveled long-sleeved polo with black slacks. With a messy hair, his face is still charming like it used to be, except for the short stubble. And of course, yung pilat sa talukap ng kaniyang mata. Dahil don, nagmumukha siyang maangas. Just a little bit of change I see.

He smiled and opened his arms wide. I think he is expected a hug from. Instead, I just shook my head in disbelief.

“Aww. You never missed me?”

Inirapan ko siya ng pabiro.

After long years of not seeing him, he asks me that? He’s so great at making people miss him. So much that I would love to give him a hug so badly, but I’m afraid I might lose myself by being intoxicated by his old scent, once again.

Also, he’s a major part of my high school. I may forget what he looks like, but I will always remember the times I spent with this man.

He just chuckled when he got no verbal response from me.

“You’ve changed a lot, Pete. Muntik na kitang hindi makilala kanina,” he stared at me deeply with those familiar sparkly eyes. He’s trying to examine me. Napaiwas ako ng tingin. “Since when did you start having those muscles, huh? Can’t believe you hit the gym. You buffed up, and it suits you.”

I don’t know how to handle that compliment so I decided to keep silent.

“What a nice place you have here,” aniya habang nililibot ang kaniyang mga mata. “Wow, is that really you, Pete? You really achieved you biggest dream, huh?” turo niya sa graduation picture ko.

He rested his arms around my shoulders and slightly squeezed the blade while his eyes are still fixated at my most priced possession on my wall. The one that I am most proud of.

I cleared my throat.

“So… how did you know where I live?”

He looked at me with a playful smirk.

“I always have my own ways,” aniya.

Of course, you would typically hear that from a rich and spoiled American guy. They always seem like they can get whatever they want so easily.

“And? What brings you here?”

“Ayokong pag-usapan ’to. But since you’ve asked, I just went from my girlfriend’s party. Didn’t like the people there so sneaked out,” he explained while massaging his forehead like he is so stressed out to think about what happened there.

Am I pressuring him too much? Yes…But I think I deserve an explanation, pagkatapos niyang hindi magpakita sa akin ng mahabang panahon. I told him where he would locate me at college, but he never told me a single thing about his whereabouts. Hindi ko siya mahanap sa social media. Everything about him just vanished into thin air, and he became somebody that I just used to know.

Also, I’m surprised to know that he have a girlfriend. Dati, sa tuwing tinatanong ko siya kung kailan niya balak magkarelasyon sa babae, lagi siyang walang imik o di kaya naaasar. He doesn’t want to bring it up to me, because he would never plan to have one.

I guess time can change people’s minds, huh?

“I also came to your house… Like I remember back when we were in high school… alam mo na, just to see you again. Kaso wala ka na pala dun. But at least your parents told me where you live right now, that’s how I was able to pay you a visit,” paliwanag pa niya.

Okay… He made some efforts to find me. At least.

I just nodded. I can’t say anything about it. I just listened.

“Good to know that you’re living a proper life. Last time I’ve checked, we were messing around in high school. Getting ourselves into trouble. And right now, it seems like I’m the only one messed up,” he said like it is some kind of joke. I know nothing of what’s he’s up to right now, so I just shrugged it off.

“You must be hungry. Wanna have some dinner? Pwede kitang lutuan ng kahit ano,” sabi ko.

“No, thanks. I’m fine. Just had a rough time, siguro itutulog ko nalang ito,” he said and yawned. “Where’s your bedroom?”

“Uhh… right there,” I pointed at my room.

“Hmm, okay.”

Then he just started stripping off his clothes one by one in front of me. He is now on his briefs when I decided to look down to avert my sight.

“B-Bakit ka naghuhubad?”

“I sleep naked, Pete,” he said then I just saw his underwear fell down on the floor without looking up. Pagkatapos ay pumunta na siya sa kuwarto ko.

VI

MY MIND is severly distracted right now. I suppose to finish all of my work tonight, but I guess, staring blankly at my computer screen wouldn’t do any progress.

Hindi ko kayang mag-focus ngayon, lalo na’t sa isip ko ay may hubo’t hubad na Saxon sa kuwarto ko. I’ve spent some nights sleeping in his room back in the days, together in his bed, but he never tried being naked beside me.

I just closed my laptop without even accomplishing a half of my task. Ayoko na. Pagod na ang isip ko. I am ready for my boss’ rage tomorrow, at hindi ako magsisisi na piliin ko munang magpahinga kahit ngayon araw lang.

Dinampot ko isa-isa ang mga damit ni Saxon mula sa sahig. And since hindi naman siya nakatingin, kumpyansa kong kinuha maging ang underwear niya. Nag-init ang pisngi ko when the fabric felt so warm in my hands. I dumped them in a small tray in the washing area.

My heart is beating so fast, and I think it is not the best idea para tabihan siya sa kama ko ngayon. Even though he seems sober (despite coming from a party), I just couldn’t be with him right now because he is completely naked. I am not that comfortable with him, anymore.

Thankfully, I have a second option for this. Which is to sleep on the couch. I am so tired and I need to regain my energy immediately.

Dahan dahan kong binuksan ang kuwarto upang silipin ang loob. Pagkita ko ay nakabalot ng kumot si Saxon, ulo lang niya ang nakalitaw. With eyes closed. Tulog na siya.

Then, slowly, lumapit ako upang kunin ang ilan sa mga unan at ang spare blanket sa ilalim ng kama. Ngunit sa paglapit ko, bigla akong kinulong ng dalawang malaking braso at hinila papuntang kama.

“Where the hell are you sleeping, huh?” aniya habang nilalabanan ang pagpupumiglas ko. “Huwag kang malikot!”

“Let go of me!” sabi ko.

“Bakit di mo nalang ako samahan dito? Ayaw mo ba?” he asked with his pleading eyes.

“Argh! Ano naman kung ayaw ko?” sabi ko at agad kong nilakasan ang pagpiglas ko hanggang sa makawala. Tumayo ako agad at inayos ang aking sarili.

He rested his head on his left palm, habang nakatukod ang kaniyang siko sa unan. Now, he’s exposing his body a bit more. He proudly shows his chiselled pecs and abdomen with his dark happy trail. I almost let a drop of drool come out from my mouth with that sight of him.

Yeah, I have decided firmly not to sleep beside him. Delikado. It’s not because of him, but because of my inner thoughts! 

“You act like we didn’t do such intimate stuff before, Pete. We used to have sleepovers in my room,” aniya. With a disappointed look in his face. “What’s wrong with you? Kahit ngayon, kumportable pa rin naman ako sa’yo. Bakit ikaw, hindi na? Dahil ba matagal na tayong hindi nagkikita? That’s absurd! You know me, Pete. You still know me pretty well, everything about me, even my darkest secrets, and I’m sure that sleeping here beside me without any clothes wouldn’t be such a big deal to you, right?”

Even if that’s the most stupid reasoning I have ever heard, I still do think that he still have a point. Metaphorically speaking, I’ve seen his most naked side. The face of Saxon that no one ever know, except me.

“I never came here for you to leave me again. Please stay,” aniya. He’s with his puppy eyes, and I gave him a death glare. He became sad and turned his back at me.

This man!! Argh, God, have mercy on me. He doesn’t look like he’s a former high school gang leader who harms scrawny kids around. Right now, I am having second thoughts. May bahagi sa akin na parang gusto ko nang tabihan siya. I know, it’s insane… I am being insane! Pero pagbibigyan ko lang siya ngayon. Sa isang pagkakataon lang ito mangyayari.

“Alright, I’m here,” sabi ko at humiga sa tabi niya.

Tapos bigla siyang pumihit paharap sa akin upang ikulong ulit ako sa kaniyang mga bisig. My nose is almost touching his chest. Then his scent enveloped me. The smell he used to have, musky and manly. And it is not helping me get comfortable with him, cause I can feel my blood redenning my face.

“We should stay like this, kahit ngayon lang, Pete,” aniya.

Umiling ako at pumihit patalikod sa kanila. Fuck, this is difficult. It already feels like this is far from being appropriate. We shouldn’t be doing this.

Nanatili pa rin ang kaniyang yakap sa akin, at ang nakakabahala ay unti-unti itong humihigpit. It bothers me so much, because I can feel his thing… twitching on the back of my legs… and it seems like he doesn’t mind at all.

“S-Saxon?”

“Hmm…” he moaned in a sleepy way.

Malakas naman ang aircon sa kuwarto ko pero labis labis akong pinagpapawisan.

“Can you move a little bit far from me… P-please?”

“Uhh… Why?”

God, I know this idiot is totally aware of what he is doing. And he is doing it on purpose.

“Is it… because of this?” he said in a playful tone and I felt a sudden thrust against my leg. Agad akong napabangon.

“What the fuck are you doing?”

He laughed at me, so loud, like he heard the most hilarious joke in his life.

“I’m asking what’s bothering you, Peter… But now I already know,” aniya. Napaiwas ako ng tingin sa kaniya. Then, bigla siyang bumangon upang maglebel ang mga mata namin.

“Bakit mo ginagawa ’to, Sax?”

“Because I’ve never missed a person like this in my entire life,” sagot niya. He licked his lips and he became serious-looking. “I missed you so much that every part of my body got very excited when I saw you again.”

VII

WITHOUT ANY trace of alcohol scent in his mouth, I am doubting that he is completely sober, right now. Sometimes, people get horny when they are drunk, and one of the worst case scenario would be asking a best friend to care of it by doing dirty things. Like, you grew up thinking that you are brother’s for life, and all of a sudden, you went beyond through yur boundaries. Crazy.

“You’re definitely not in a right mind, Sax. Stop it,” sabi ko.

He even moved his face closer to me. Like he doesn’t believe that I am trying my best to resist his charms.

“I’m always not in a right mind,” aniya then he gave me a slow and soft kiss on my cheek. I am still stiff after he stopped. “Pero alam ko ang ginagawa ko ngayon, Pete. Trust me.”

“What are you going to do?”

“Alam mo na… Giving you a warm company,” he said with a hint of enticement.

“You have a girlfriend, Sax.”

Then he froze for a moment. Now, I can sense his hesitation.

“Look, if you’re doing this because you’re in a rut or something, I’m not the rightest person to  deal with it… You can talk to me, but not have sex with me. I would only allow a person do intimate things, kung committed sila sa akin.”

Nilayo niya ang kaniyang mukha niya sa akin. His eyes softened, and I almost believed that he has a feelings for me. So I kept reminding myself that he only came here just to get laid.

“I’m not fine being a fling… or a sex buddy. I’m not that kind of person, Sax.”

Although I have known, at the back of my mind, we could push our relationship further. But this is not what I meant. Meron na siyang girlfriend, at ayokong maging dahilan ng pagiging cheater niya.

“After these years, marami nang nagbago, at alam kong may bahagi sa akin na hindi mo pa alam, that’s why I am now making these things clear to you,” sabi ko at napaiwas ng tingin sa kaniya. “Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’ll sleep in the cou–”

Then he attacked me with a firm kiss. Rougher and rougher each time. Couldn’t do anything but pull his hair closer to me, giving back his kisses. Our tongues were fighting.

“Naiintindihan kita, Pete. But you are the most special person I had in my life. Guess, I have to fix things up then we make ‘us’ be possible.”

He pressed his body against me as he showered me kisses on my neck.

“I’ve done a lot of bad things back in the days. I’m a gang leader, and getting into trouble is what makes me alive. Kahit na gusto kitang dalhin sa mundo ko dati, hindi kita hinayaan na lumagpas. I want you to be insane like me, but not as troubled.”

The blanket slipped from his body, showing his full naked glory. With heavy breathes, I confidently took his long and straight shaft pointing directly at me. Warm and pulsating. The girth could barely fit in my hand.

He trembled above me as I started stroking him slowly. He bit his lip that seemed like it would wound it. Pumikit siya, at nakita ko ang pilat sa talukap ng mata niya. It makes him look very sexy. Dangerously looking. It suits him very much.

“Go faster,” he demanded. He melts in my touch. Writhes in pleasure. I’m having a crazy thought of stopping myself to see his reaction. I am sure that he would beg for me to continue. It excites me.

I squeezed his dick tighter. Because of pressure, mas lumilitaw na ang mga ugat nito, making me feel like it is going to pop. I can feel that he’s close.

“F-Fuck… Almost there,” he said then moaned deeply. With my other hand, I played his sack while waiting for his release.

It didn’t take much longer for him to explode. It dripped all over my skin and clothes. Warm and sticky. After that, he went down to bite me on the neck. It was quick, but it left a painful mark.

“You’re mine,” he said posssessively and kissed me aggresively. It is the second time that he literally took my breathe away.

Hindi pa kami natapos. He sat on the side of the bed while I’m kneeling in front of him. Giving him the best oral work I could offer. It is my first time doing it, but because of intense heat and sensuality, I am a bit overdoing the deed.

“Yeah… That’s right,” he said while messing up my hair. I am bobbing my head up and down as he whispers my name with his deep, firm and pleading voice. “Here it comes, again!”

I let him shoot everything inside my mouth. Feeling the warmth from my mouth… down to my esophagus. My nose is buried in his bushy dark pubes, having a scent of his natural manliness.

I unswallowed him. Then, Saxon effortlessly lifted me as if I were as light as a feather. I can’t believe I am not heavy anough to give him a hard time carrying me, despite my own dedication to the gym lately. His strength is built up since high school, which made me feel like a mere wisp in his hands.

Pinahiga niya ako sa kama at humawak ng mahigpit sa aking damit na parang balak niyang punitin ito. Pagkatapos ay bigla niyang hinubad isa-isa ang mga damit ko hanggang sa wala na akong suot.

“Now, it’s payback time,” he said playfully as he moved his down to the lower half of my body.

VII

I WOKE UP with a hot sticky feeling and a scent of breakfast food. Agad akong napabangon dahil sa pagkalam ng sikmura ko. I know, its just eggs and bacon, but I am very hungry right now so I will definitely take it. Mabilis akong nagbihis ng simpleng shirt at shorts na pambahay.

Nagtungo ako sa kusina at nasaksihan si Saxon na nagluluto. He’s on his underwear and topless underneath his apron. Wow, ang agang view naman ito. I am now confused. Which of them is my breakfast today. Aha, just kidding!

“Mornin’!” he greeted. “Perfect timing. I’m almost done.”

“Wait, wait, wait!… why are you still here?”

“Para lutuan ka ng breakfast? Obviously, Pete,” sagot niya.

I looked at my wall clock, and it shows that it is still five in the morning. I did not oversleep and I still have time to prepare myself to work. Napakamot lang ako sa aking batok at umupo sa lamesa. I feel like I am a disney princess, right now. I am just waiting for a prince to do things for me. Crazy thought.

I don’t mind kung pinakialaman niya ang mga pagkain ko sa storage.

“There you go!”

Then we started eating.

“Uhm… about last night…” I can’t finish the sentence.

“Yeah, I know,” he said and took a spoonful of his food. He swallowed before he continued. “There’s no need for you to feel awkward. I liked how things went. Let’s keep it casual.”

Napahinto ako sa pagsubo ng aking kinakain.

“Casual? So you have no plans of taking this seriously?”

“No, no! Hindi iyon ang ibig kong sabihin,” depensa niya. I really want to cut him off and kick him out of my house, but that’s rude, so I am giving him a chance to explain. “I just want you to be comfortable being intimate with me, just like I am to you. We’ve been friends for years, and I think its time to level it up. Like breaking the limits, like we used to, but know it is our friendship that we are talking about.”

“I see. Medyo inasahan ko na rin na ganito ang sasabihin mo, kapag dumating ang time na lumagpas na tayo sa boundaries natin dati. You love breaking the limits… the rules… it is your forte,” sabi ko.

“Our forte,” pagtatama niya at kumindat sa akin. Tumawa lang ako.

Natapos na kaming kumain at nagtulungan kaming iligpit ang hapag kainan. “So… anong oras ka pala aalis?” tanong ko sa kaniya. He is still not wearing his clothes yesterday, so I am wondering if he has a plan to go home.

“Uhh, Pete, about that…” he said like he’s about to say something but he holding it back. Napalingon ako sa kaniya habang naghuhugas ako ng plato para hintayin ang idudugtong niya. “I was kicked out from my apartment recently, because I can’t afford to pay the rent anymore. I have no job and when I tried to go back to my parents, hindi nila ako pinatuloy sa kanila. They think I have to learn to survive on my own because I am a grown man, already… That’s why I came here.”

Nanginginig ang kaniyang boses habang ipinapaliwanag sa akin iyon. I stared at him blankly, still processing what he just told me.

“Nagpunta ka lang ba dito dahil may kailangan ka?” mariin kong tanong.

“Kind of, Pete,” sagot niya. “I’m sorry… I promise you, if I stay here, hindi ako magiging pabigat. I’ll try my best to find a job, and pay you back.”

Napailing lang ako sa pagmamakaawa niya. Medyo nagdududa na ako sa kaniya. Tutal, hindi naman na siya ang Saxon na dating kilala ko, dahil sa mahabang panahon na hindi ko siya nakita, bakit kailangan ko pang magtiwala sa kaniya? He’s now almost a stranger to me.

“Please, Pete! Just this time. Wala akong ibang mapupuntahan kun’di ikaw lang,” patuloy niya pa.

Then he slowly tried to kneel in front of me. Nagulat ako kaya agad ko siyang pinigilan.

“You are not supposed to do that,” sabi ko. Then, silence.

Let me think for a second. Alam kong ang thought ko na lumapit lang siya sa akin dahil may kailangan siya ang nagpapa-frustrate sa akin, but I don’t think it is the best idea let him roam around the city, without any money, and without a home. Siguro iyon din ang dahilan kung bakit umalis siya sa party ng girlfriend niya. Napahiya siya doon dahil sa estado ng kaniyang pamumuhay ngayon. I am sure, his girlfriend just let him go away that night, to get rid of him.

Wala akong ibang naiisip kun’di hayaang mangibabaw ang awa sa aking puso. After all, he is Saxon, the guy who made my life memorable before. Who saved me from pressure. Who taught me that breaking free is the best way to live your life.

He is still my Saxon.

“Alright, you can stay here as long as you want,” sabi ko.

Tapos bigla siyang lumundag palapit sa akin upang yakapin at iangat ng kaniyang bisig.

“Thank you, Pete!” aniya at pinaulanan ako ng mabibilis na halik sa mukha. “You’re the best!”

“Just wear a shirt, please. I don’t want you walking around naked,” sabi ko sa kaniya.

Tumango siya at ngumiti.

“Yes, sir!” aniya at tumungo kami sa kwarto ko upang bigyan siya ng mga oversized t-shirts ko. Sakto lang ang mga ito sa kaniya.

Pagkatapos ay nanood kami ng TV sa sala at nagkwentuhan. He told me that he met his girlfriend at a bar, looking for a man she would dig for dimes. He was so naive that time kasi sustentado pa siya ng mga magulang niya, kaya kumagat siya sa bitag.

“I am now looking forward to break up with her. She told her friends that she’s a bit of embarassed to bring me to a party, dahil wala na raw akong pera. Na-frustrate ako kaya iniwan ko siya dun,” kwento niya. His arms were wrapped around my waist while I am sitting between his legs. He rested his chin on my shoulder. “Ikaw, Pete? Meron ka bang special someone na tinatago sa akin? Sabihin mo na.”

Umiling lang ako.

“Work is always my priority. I have no time for love,” sagot ko.

Naramdaman kong mas lalong humigpit ang yakap niya sa akin.

“What about now? Are you willing to give time for love? Now that I’m here?”

I chuckled at his ridiculous question.

“Sure… why not?”

Then we heard a few knocks at my door.

“Let me open the door for a second,” sabi ko at dahan-dahan siyang kumalas.

Pinagbuksan ko kung sino man ang kumatok at nagpakita ang isang magandang babae na may bubblegum pink na buhok. She is wearing a very skin-revealing denim outfit.

“Hmm… I’m looking for Saxon. Nandito ba siya?” mataray pero determinado niyang tanong sa akin.

“Uhh… sino ka?” although I am already sensing this person’s identity.

“I’m Aira, his girlfriend,” mariin niya sabi at bigla akong tinulak para makapasok siya sa loob ng bahay ko.

IX

HINDI KO NA siya napigilan. She saw Saxon sitting on the couch, at pumamaywang ito sa kaniya.

A shocked Saxon stood up in surprise. He is a lot taller than her but Aira doesn’t seem to care. She acts like the tougher one between them, with folded arms and death glare to his boyfriend.

“How dare you! Iniwan mo ’ko dun,” mariing sipat ni Aira sa kaniya.

“How did you know I’m here?”

Aira snorted.

“May mga kaibigan akong nakatira malapit dito. Nakita ka nila na pumunta dito, and they told me. I’m here para sunduin ka,” aniya na may mapang-asar na ngiti. Saxon is trying his best to appear more intimidating, but its not effective. With his helpless eyes, tumingin siya sa akin. I slightly smiled at him, giving the assurance that I am always be on side of him. Tumango siya at matapang na hinarap si Aira.

“We’ll talk… Outside,” mariin sabi ni Saxon at lumabas ng bahay.

Aira snorted but eventually obeyed him. Nanatili lang ako sa loob, umupo sa sala at nanood ng TV habang hinihintay silang matapos sa pag-uusap.

I can hear them arguing, but not clear enough for me to know. Sana hindi nila maisip na magpisikalan dito. It crosses the line.

“We’re done, Aira. Leave me alone!” sigaw ni Saxon. Pinakamalinaw na narinig ko.

“Okay, fine!” sigaw naman ni Aira pabalik. “Fuck you, Sax!”

Pumasok na si Saxon sa loob. He exhaled deeply. Then, he smiled.

“It’s over, Pete,” aniya at lumapit sa akin. Kahit hindi niya hingiin sa akin, I gave him the embrace that he wanted. He gave it back, and more firm than mine.

…

“GETTING MARRIED in States, huh?” sambit ni Luke, dating kaibigan ni Saxon na kapwa niya basagulero. Now he is working as a senior accountant in New York. Look how time can redirect people in their rightest paths.

“Going back to the country where I grew up would be the best option for us. That place is accessible for all types of union,” ani Saxon.

“I can definitely help you guys to process your documents. Just give me a call, anytime, whenever you are ready.”

I took a sip on my champagne as I look around. Most people I see are a lot more successful than me. I should be pressured, since I was the valedictorian in our class. But just accepted it. Surely, I am amongst the happiest people here in their lives.

“Best wishes sa inyong dalawa!” Angela said, habang pabalik-balik ang tingin niya sa amin ni Saxon. “I am so excited, I am already planning for a wedding gift.”

Tumawa lang kami at nagpatuloy lang sa pakipag-usap.

Masaya ako na nagkasama-sama kami after a long time na walang balita sa isa’t isa. We carry on to our lives like we should let ourselves float amidst of unpredictable ocean with strong tidal current and be wherever we deserve to be.

Just like how Saxon came back to me. He said he was lost, and I got lost with him. Then we lost each other. I found my own purpose… alone… and he came back as I gave him a purpose as well… to live.

“To batch 20xx! Cheers!” sigaw ni Thomas na kasama rin dati ni Saxon sa gang, at nagtaas ng kaniyang glass. Sumabay kaming lahat sa kaniya.

…

WE ENDED up drunk, but still were able to get to our home.

When we arrived at my bedroom, he showered me with hungry kisses all over my face. Magkadikit ang aming mga katawan at nadarama ang init ng isa’t isa.

Honestly, the heat is quite unbearable, but Saxon is locking my body with his arms, pulling me closer. Feels like my face is already buried in his chest, and all I can smell is his sweat that doesn’t even stink. He smells manly.

On my stomach, I can feel his throbbing member wanting to get out from its fabric cage. He rubs it unashamedly, and in every thrust he makes, he moans.

I, being so amused by his horniness, decided to tease him right now. I grabbed his hips, preventing him from dry humping.

“I think we should wait after the wedding,” I said jokingly.

“W-What?… But why?”  He said with a clear confusion in his face. “Are you worried that you might get pregnant?”

I just shrugged.

“You know that’s impossible, right?” aniya.

I shrugged again.

“Well, fuck Science! I’ll get you pregnant tonight, Pete,” he said viciously and started to rip off my clothes. Yes, he destroyed it. Tearing them apart until I’ve got nothing. I am all naked.

He roamed his eyes to get a sight of every corner of me. As if he is studying my anatomy.

“What if I really didn’t get pregnant by this?” that’s a ridiculous question, obviously. But I am so sexually aroused to think straight.

“Then we’ll do it again, baby. No matter how many times… I’d still fuck you more ’til we have our first child,” aniya as he opened his zipper to reveal his glorious manhood.

X

I INSTANTLY grabbed his hard member and started stroking it. Even without my face getting nearer to his crotch, I can literally smell the scent of his manhood. The sweat and heat. Somehow, intoxicating me into oblivion.

“Hold it tight, Pete,” he demanded as he thrusts into my hands, following the movement of my hand. He looks so hot doing that. I spat on my other hand to lubricate his length from tip to balls. He moaned in pleasure.

To my surprise, he released his seed so early. It splattered on my face and my clothes. The scent of his jizz is strong, overpowering his sweat. We are both catching our breaths.

“I didn’t expect to be that quick,” sabi ko habang nakatingin sa mga mata niyang puno pa rin ng pagnanasa.

“Who said we’re done? We’re just getting started,” aniya at nagsimulang hubarin ang kaniyang mga damit. I also undressed myself, preparing for what’s next.

He kissed me on my nipple, gently, then sucked it. I bit my lip as I am being electrified by the sudden pleasure. My toes curled.

Then, he moved away for a bit and spat on his hand. His wet hand went to my entrance and started massaging it. His fingers entered one by one, slowly, preparing it for his thick dick to fit in.

“Damn, you’re so tight. Can’t wait to feel more of it,” bulong niya at bahagyang kinagat ang aking tainga.

After that, he positioned himself between my legs and spread my butt cheeks. He pointed the tip of his wang on my hole, and slowly made his way inside. I clawed a handful of bedsheets as pain struck immediately.

He stopped when he heard me whimpered.

“Are you alright?” he asked.

I am scared. It’s still hurts, even though we have done it multiple times.

“Tell me if you can’t bear the pain, I’ll stop,” aniya.

“N-No,” I said weakly, almost like a whisper.

“I’ll try my best to be gentle.”

He kissed me on my cheek and carefully pulled himself and entered again. He is taking it one at a time. My whole body weakened, but I trust him that he’s not going to push it until I am completely knocked out.

Few minutes later, I become used to it. I demanded him to go quicker. I want him to pound me with all of his energy.

“Sure, babe. Get ready,” he said like warning me that it is going to be more rapid than I expect.

His hips were fast. My fingers are clawing on his skin in satisfaction and pain. He doesn’t stop, even for a bit. He became a little more aggressive, and me– being wild at the moment, loved it so much.

“I’m so close,” mariin niyang sabi.

The pleasure is intense. I closed my eyes tightly, and knew that I am so close to cry. A teardrop came out, and he kissed my face to wipe it off.

We both came. It let him pour his juice inside me, while mine splurt between our bodies. We stopped for a moment, breathing heavily, then I felt his thing moved again inside me.

“Another round?” he said– unashamed. I nodded without even thinking.

…

I DRANK my second cup of coffee, and my head is still spinning. Nakaupo ako sa dining area while watching Saxon walking around in the kitchen naked from head to toe. He’s becoming more comfortable in my home, and somehow it is just kind of fine with me.

Nung natapos siyang magluto, nilapag niya ang pagkain sa harap ko. It smells so good but I am not in the mood to eat it.

“Hindi pa ako nagugutom,” sabi ko sa kaniya.

He just raised a brow.

“You should eat. Nanghihina ka ngayon kasi hindi ka pa kumakain,” aniya.

I groaned as I stretched my arms and yawned. Yes, I am feeling a bit sleepy. Pero hindi ako makatulog ng maayos dahil masakit pa ang ilalim ko.

“After your breakfast, drink the painkillers,” aniya at nilapag ang gamot na nahanap niya sa medicine cabinet ko.

Kahit gaano katagal pa niya akong pilitin na kumain, hindi ko pa rin gagalawin ang niluto niya. All I need is relaxation.

Out of nowhere, my eyes just went to his soft dick. It is still gigantic even if it is not yet alive. I can’t believe this thing entered me last night.

“I want you to offer me a different kind of breakfast,” I said, and still can’t take my eyes off it.

He slightly grinned when he get what I wanted. Lumapit siya sa akin at tinapat ang kaniyang pagkalalaki sa aking mukha.

“Is this the breakfast that you want?” tanong niya. I nodded like an innocent boy, and grabbed his thing and watched it slowly hardening in my hand.

Without hesitation, I took it inside my mouth and sucked it tightly. He began to rock his hips back and forth, and gradually getting quicker and quicker. He held my head to support it.

I cupped his balls and my other hand wrapped around the base of his manhood. Its thickness is getting wider. He is about to come.

He exploded inside my mouth and drank every drop of his seed like a thirsty animal. There is so much of it, that a few drops overflowed from my mouth.

He sighed in satisfaction.

“Damn, Pete. Your mouth is amazing.”

Wakas

I WALKED TO the balcony of our apartment to feel the wind blow to my face. My nostrils flared to smell the streets of America. I can’t believe that I am already here.

It is also unbelievable that I am married to Saxon. I keep touching my ring for hours, trying to figure out if everything is just a dream. But the more I think of it, the more I realize that all of it was real. That I am already bound to someone.

I felt a pair of strong arms wrapped around me from behind. It’s Saxon, wearing nothing but his boxers. Kakatapos lang niya na i-arrange ang mga mabibigat na gamit sa apartment, kaya dama ko ang kaniyang pawis na tumatagaktak sa kaniyang balat. Ang kaniyang mabigat na paghinga ay tumatama sa aking balikat.

“Malalim yata ang iniisip mo,” aniya.

Umiling ako.

“I am just spacing out for a bit,” paliwanag ko. Nakatingin pa rin ako sa labas habang pinapanood sa baba ang mga dumadaang sasakyan at mga taong naglalakad sa sidewalk. “Hungry? Do you want me to prepare some food for you?”

“No… I just want to space out as well with you,” aniya.

“Alright,” tipid kong tugon. Hinayaan ko siya sa kaniyang pagyakap, ngunit bigla akong napaatras sa kaniya nung may naramdaman ako sa aking likuran.

I literally felt his dick growing and getting harder in my butt crack. I groaned and rolled my eyes.

“Seriously, Sax?”

He is always sexually aroused every time our skin touches. There must be something wrong with him, and surely my presence is making it worse.

“Wanna have sex?” he asked and I laughed.

“Right here?”

“Yeah.”

“You’re crazy!” sabi ko. This person is wild when horny. “Don’t you think we might go to jail for a sexual exhibition?”

“I have no idea, Pete. Do you want to find out?” he said and grabbed my butt cheeks from behind. “Besides, we’ve been rulebreakers. We can do whatever we want.”

I slapped his arm and twisted myself to face him.

“Stop it.”

He chuckled, and kissed me on my lips.

“I love you, babe,” he said tenderly.

“I love you, too.”

Everything went very fast. All I know before is that I lose a friend years ago, and recently, I gained a lover. It feels surreal.

Wakas