Prologue

I keep checking my wristwatch just to make sure I won’t be late to our resort. Tanghali na kasi akong nagising dahil sa condo ako ni Levi nakatulog. Napapangisi nalang ako nung maalalang nalasing ako kagabi nung pumunta kaming buong squad sa club. At iyon ang dahilan kung bakit hindi ako nakauwi sa mansyon.

“Ikaw talagang bata ka, alam mo bang pinag-alala mo kaming lahat?”
Pagrereklamo ni Mang Noel habang nagmamaneho ng kotse.

Tinawagan ko kasi siya kanina at sinabing sunduin ako sa condo ni Levi. Si Mang Noel ang driver ko simula pagkabata at tinuturing ko na rin siyang pangalawang ama.

I looked at him in the rear-view mirror.
“Sorry po, Mang Noel. Hindi na po mauulit.”
I said in a soft voice.

He just nodded in response.

I leaned my head against the car window to check my visibility from the road. Napahawak ako sa aking bibig nang marinig ang tawag sa cellphone ko. I cleared my throat before answering my mom’s call.

“Baby, where are you?! Kanina pa kita hinihintay dito sa resort, saan ka ba natulog kagabi?”
She exclaimed.

My phone’s loudspeaker was on, so Mang Noel probably heard the loud scream of my mom. I put my index finger on my lips, asking Mang Noel to be quiet. Malalagot ako kay mommy kapag nalaman niyang nalasing ako kagabi.

I scratched my head, trying to think of a good reason.
“M-Mommy, nag-sleep over ako kila… Levi. Tama! Natulog ako sa kanila.”

My mom chuckled.
“Wag ka ng magsinungaling, halata ka masyado, anak. By the way, did Mang Noel pick you up?”

I nodded, even though she couldn’t see me.
“Yes mommy, nakasakay na po ako sa car.”

I heard her squealed.
“Naku! Pakisabi kay Mang Noel na ihatid ka niya agad dito dahil may mahalagang bisita sa resort.”

I stayed silent for a few seconds before I talked.
“S-Sino po—”

“Basta, I’ll be waiting for you here, anak. Fighting!”
She excitedly said then ended the call.

Marahan kong binaba ang aking cellphone. I pouted my lips, trying to think about my mom’s statement. She sounded so lively and it made my heart race because of excitement.

 

Sino kaya ang tinutukoy niya?

Maya-maya pa ay nakarating na kami sa aming destinasyon. Pagkababa ko ng kotse ay nakita ko ang ilang mga babae na sumisilip sa pinto ng resort. Agad ko naman silang nilapitan.

I tapped on the shoulder of a girl wearing a floral dress.
 “Excuse me, ate. Ano pong sinisilip niyo d’yan?”

I saw her lips parted in awe when she saw me.
“N-Nasa loob po kasi ng resort yung idol namin. Kanina pa nga kami ditong naghihintay na lumabas siya, eh.”
Disappointment was evident in her face.

Napatingin ako sa poster na hawak nila at nanlaki ang mga mata nung makita kung sino ang kanilang tinutukoy. My heart beats so fast and I couldn’t explain the mixed emotions that I’m feeling.

Kaagad akong tumakbo papasok ng resort. Hindi ko na pinansin ang pagtawag sa akin ni Mang Noel dahil sa sobrang saya ng aking pakiramdam. Napatigil ako sa pagtakbo nang makarating sa exclusive pool at masaksihan ang maraming tao na nakasuot ng itim na T-shirt na may nakasulat na
crew
sa kanilang harapan.

“Okay, rolling na tayo. Scene 362, take five in 3, 2, 1… action!”
sigaw ng lalaking ani mo ay direktor.

A familiar voice of a man shouted.
“Mahal kita! Hindi pa ba malinaw sa ‘yo ang nararamdaman ko? Wala akong ibang mamahalin kundi… ikaw lang.”

Napangiti ako nung makita siya. He’s at the pool, and he’s not wearing anything on top. I can’t believe his face didn’t change at all. His body became more sculpted; it seems like he often went to the gym to do some workouts. I know he’s an actor from Germany, so I was shocked to see him here.

“Kung ganon, patunayan mo! Gusto kong patunayan mong… mahal mo ako!”
biglang sabat ng isang babaeng kaharap niya sa pool.

A lot of cameras are filming them. The whole place was silent, and they were the only people talking. I couldn’t believe that they would film here at our resort amongst the other settings. 

Pakiramdam ko’y nadurog ang puso ko nang bigla niyang hinalikan ang babae. I saw how he held the waist of the girl who was only wearing a red bikini to deepen the kiss. The girl immediately hugged his neck in reply to his kisses. 

 

Bakit ako nasasaktan?

Sino ba ako para magdamdam
?

I

know they’re just acting, but why do I feel like dying?

 

Tumulo ang mga luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan nang mabaling sa akin ang kanyang tingin. He immediately pushed the girl when he saw me wiping my tears. Akma siyang tatakbo palapit sa akin nang biglang sumigaw ang direktor.

“Gellian, what’s your problem today?! Kanina ka pa wala sa sarili. Paano tayo matatapos niyan?”
Disappointment was evident in the tone of his voice. 

Gellian mumbled.
“S-Sorry, boss. Can we take a short break? I just need to—”

The director cut him off.
“No! Let’s start again. We need to finish this now

!”

I just turned my back and dragged my feet to walk out of that scene. My sight was blurry and I felt heavy inside. Nasasaktan ako sa di malamang dahilan. Matagal ko na siyang hinihintay pero hindi ito ang inaasahan kong makita.

Gellian came back,

The man who asked me to wait for him patiently to come back is finally here!

My old friend, my Knight in Shining Armor, and the other half of my heart came back after 6 years of yearning.

 

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🌈💅

F.B.I-1

“Zein, sandali!”
Sigaw ni Gellian nung malagpasan ko siya habang sakay ng bisikleta.

Kaagad akong lumingon sa kanya at nakita siyang pawis na pawis.
“You’re so slow, Gellian! You need to keep up. We’re running late.”

He gasped for air while tightening the grip on the handlebars of his bike. 

“Sira na yata ‘tong bike ko, angkas nalang ako sa ‘yo, Zein.”

I didn’t agree and just shook my head before I walked closer to him. I grabbed my handkerchief to wipe the sweat on his forehead, making his face flush. I let out a playful laugh when I saw his eyes widen.

He held my wrist and gently pushed it away from him.
“K-Kaya ko na, Zein. Wag ka na masyadong… lumapit.”

Ngayon ang unang araw ng pasukan at sa wakas ay highschool na ako. Hindi na ako nagpahatid kay Mang Noel na personal driver ko dahil niyaya ako ni Gellian na mag-bisikleta papuntang Ravenwood University. Gellian has been my friend since we were still children. Because of business connections, his parents and mine are very close. We’ve been schoolmates ever since elementary, and he’s been my partner in crime for as long as I can remember.

“Gusto mo, puntahan kita sa room mo mamayang recess para… sabay tayong kumain?”
Gellian asked me after he locked our bikes when we reached the parking lot.

 

I pouted my lips.
“Wag na, I also want to meet new friends.”

He caressed the top of my head and played with my hair.
“Very good, but please stop pouting your lips.”

“Why?”
My brows furrowed. 

“Wala, kalimutan mo na.”
He dropped the topic.

The bell rang, so we had to go to our class. Gellian is now in his 3rd year of high school while I’m just a freshman. It was my mom who suggested I enroll in the same school as Gellian so he could look out for me. I’m already 13, but there are still a lot of things that I didn’t know. I’m completely innocent. That’s why I easily get fooled. 

Mahigpit ang hawak ko sa lace ng aking backpack habang naglalakad sa hallway. Nanginginig ang aking mga kamay at napakabilis ng tibok ng aking puso sa kaba. Gellian isn’t with me because I told him to go to his class, which I regret because I don’t know where my classroom is.

“Yes mom, I brought it with me. Don’t worry, I will finish it all.”
A boy with a small face uttered while talking on his phone.
“Wag na po akong sunduin, nakakahiya…”
He whispered, feeling embarrassed.

I’m just looking at him and I couldn’t help but to admire his pretty face. He looks like a girl and he’s much taller than me. I gave him a sweet smile when he met my eyes.

“Hi! Freshman? ”
He asked in a soft voice.

 

I nodded my head while holding a tight grip on my slacks.
“Yes, are you a… freshman as well?”

He chuckled.
”

You don’t have to be shy, I’m not going to bite. What section are you in?”

“A-Archangels.”

He immediately wrapped his arms around my arm.
“Perfect! By the way, I’m Ezra. Let’s go, classmate.”

Nakita ko ang pagkagulat ng aming mga kaklase nung makapasok kami ni Ezra sa classroom. My nervousness faded when I noticed that the prof was not yet around. Ezra and I just sat on the chair in the back since that was the only available seat.

The girl wearing a cat hairband turned her head to us.
“Hey! Are you both Korean? Your skin is so white and you are both gorgeous!”
She overreacted while giggling.

“No, I’m not.”
I hissed before I look at Ezra.
“How about you, Ezra?”

He shrugged his shoulders.
“No.”

The girl just rolled her eyes before she looked away. I just grabbed my romance book and read it while waiting for the prof to get inside the class. Ezra pull out his earpods and place it on his ear before he closed his eyes. He’s so cool and he really know what he wants,
unlike me
.

Ever since I was a child, my dreams have constantly changed. When Mang Noel became my driver, I dreamt of also becoming one. That dream changed when my dog died and I decided I wanted to become a veterinarian. And then again, that dream changed when I studied in pre-school and wanted to become a teacher.

I feel like I’m still a child because I’ve been following the people around me. It’s making me worry about my future since, up until now, I still don’t know what I really want to become. But I’m taking my time to finally realize it.

Again, I’m just a teenager who’s in an adolescent stage.

Maya-maya pa ay dumating na ang prof. As usual, introduction lang ang nangyari at wala pa namang lesson na naganap. Hindi nakapagtatakang may ilan akong kaklase na competitive kahit simula pa lang ng klase dahil nasa highest section ako. I was ranked as valedictorian way back in elementary when I graduated. Some of them might know me, and a few may not, especially if they came from different schools. 

“Zein, do you want to have lunch with me? Let’s go to the cafeteria.”
Pagyaya sa ‘kin ni Ezra nang mag-recess.

“Sure, I’m craving for some strawberry short cake!”
I squaled, feeling excited.

I’m glad that I met Ezra and he became my new friend. He’s very witty and has a mature mind, which makes me fond of him already. I was shocked when he said that he became a model for a diaper commercial when he was still a baby, and it suits his charming face.

“Z-Zein,”
Gellian stuttered when he noticed I’m with Ezra.

Hindi ko inaasahan na hihintayin niya ako sa labas ng classroom dahil sinabihan ko siyang wag na pumunta kanina. A lot of my female classmates are looking at him with awe on their faces. Gellian is really a head-turner. He had a striking pair of hazel eyes, a well-defined nose, and sultry lips. It suits his wavy combed hair that makes him look manlier.

Ezra just tapped my shoulder and sent me a signal to go with Gellian. He gave me an assuring smile before walking away while holding his leather-strapped backpack. 
Kaagad akong lumapit kay Gellian habang naka-krus ang mga braso.

“I told you not to wait for me earlier, right?”
I said in a whisper.

He let out a sigh.
“Di ba nga, pinapabantayan ka sa ‘kin ng mommy mo? Sino ba ‘yung kasama mo… kanina?”

I pouted my lips, which made him shook his head.
“That’s Ezra. He’s my new friend. Isn’t he… cute?” 

He murmured something which I couldn’t hear before he got my shoulder bag that I was wearing. We started to walk towards the canteen and I noticed that he’s pretty famous since a lot of people were greeting him, especially girls. 

“Strawberry short cake, di ‘ba?”
Gellian asked me before he walked to the counter.

My eyes widened from shock.
“How did you know I was craving that?”

He caressed his nape. 
“N-Nakita ko sa post mo sa IG. Ako na bibili, wag ka ng tatayo.”

I gave him a sweet smile and nodded my head in response. I don’t know what I did in my past life to deserve a good friend like him. He’s someone I would treasure my whole life.

 

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🌈💅

F.B.I-2

Gellian was holding a tray with two plates of rice, vegetable soups, chicken adobo, the cake that I asked for, and two glasses of orange juice. He set the table for the both of us before he gave me the plate of rice and soup with a mix of vegetables.

”

Gellian, you know I don’t eat gulay. Just give me the adobo instead.”
I told him. 

“Hindi ko ibibigay sa ‘yo yung cake, kapag ‘di ka kumain ng gulay.”
He replied in his autoritative tone.

I got my purse from my bag and put a one-thousand-peso bill on the table.
“I’m willing to pay naman, so give me my cake. Now!”

He just smirked in annoyance before he grabbed a spoon and took a bite of my cake while looking at me playfully. I sighed heavily and hit his arm, feeling pissed off.

“Alam mo, you’re so bad!”
I yelled so loudly, tears forming in my eyes.

Kaagad napatingin sa table namin ang ilang estudyante dahil sa lakas ng boses ko. Napayuko nalang ako dahil sa hiya habang tumatawa si Gellian. Wala na akong nagawa kundi kainin ang gulay na nasa harap ko habang masama ang loob.

“Zein, wag ka ng magtampo. Bibili nalang kita ng ice cream. Gusto mo strawberry?”
Nag-aalalang tanong ni Gellian nung pabalik na ako sa classroom.

I just rolled my eyes.
“Do you think an ice cream will calm me down?”

He wrapped his arms around my shoulder. 
“Then, tell me what you want. I’ll buy it for you, Zein.” 

I removed his arm when I noticed a few students looking at us with curiosity on their faces.
“Y-You don’t have to buy me anything, Gellian. I’m fine.”
I hissed.

Nagpaalam na rin siya agad nung tumunog ang bell dahil sa kabilang building pa ang classroom niya. Kagaya ng naunang prof ay pagpapakilala lang ang naganap sa unang araw ng pasukan. I got to know some of my classmates’ names, but they don’t approach them just like Ezra did.

Tirik na ang sikat ng araw nung matapos ang klase at nauna ng sunduin si Ezra. I was walking down the hallway of the building where Gellian class is located when a group of girls wearing fancy hair bands blocked my way. The girl in the middle, who looks like their leader, takes three steps closer to me. 

 

“Pretty boy, are you the younger brother of Gellian Zamora?”
Matapang niyang tanong habang nakataas ang kilay.

I held a tight grip on the lace of my bag, feeling nervous.
“N-No, he’s my friend.”

My shoulders shrugged when she fixed the collar of my polo uniform with a grin on her face.
“You don’t have to be scared. We’ll not mess with you… as long as you follow my little request.”

 

Gusto kong sumigaw pero alam kong walang makakarinig sa akin. Naligaw na yata ako sa laki ng building at wala akong nakikitang ibang estudyante bukod sa kanilang tatlo. My sweat is rolling down my forehead. I’m scared, and I’m too frail to protect myself.

She opened her bag and handed me a pink envelope.
“Make sure to give that to Gellian. You won’t like what we are capable of, so better follow my order, you understand?!”

I just nodded my head and sighed when they left me alone. My knees are trembling and my tears are rolling down in my cheeks. Nagpakawala ako nang malalim na hininga bago nagsimulang maglakad at hanapin si Gellian.

I just leant on the wall of the corridor when I finally saw him in the midst of a lot of girl students. They are all giving him gifts and letters, and he’s just refusing them. He waved his hand when he turned his head in my direction. Gellian grabbed that opportunity to step out of the crowd and ran towards me.

“Kanina ka pa naghihintay?”

 I shook my head.
“Nope, I just came a few minutes ago.”

I was stunned when he cupped my face, making me meet his eyes.
“A-Anong nangyari? Umiyak ka ba?”

I held his wrist and felt the warmth of his bare hands.
“No, I did not. Let’s go. I want to go home. ”

Gellian took out his mesh cap from his bag and put it on my head. He got my bag and carried it on his wide shoulder before we started to walk towards the parking area. Hindi na ako nagtaka nung makita si Mang Noel na naghihintay sa labas ng van.

“Sasabay ka ba sa ‘min, Gellian?”
Tanong ni Mang Noel matapos niyang maipasok ang bike ko sa compartment ng van.

“Hindi na po. Parating na rin po yung sundo ko. Ingatan niyo po si Zein.”
Gellian uttered before he gave me my bag.

I took off his cap before I tiptoed my feet so I could wear it on his head. He immediately grabbed my waist when I almost fell, making my heart skip a beat. Gellian just chuckled because of the sudden embarrassment. 

“Susunduin ulit kita sa inyo bukas,” 
Gellian whispered in my ear.

I just nodded before I went inside the van. I waved my hand at Gellian and saw him bow his head in response. The van’s door is already closed, but he’s still standing while waiting for me to finally leave his sight. 

“Baby, how’s your first day?”
Mom asked me after she kissed my cheek when I entered our mansion.

I let out a deep breath.
“Tiring!”

“Baby, don’t state the obvious; I’m asking if you have gained new friends?”

 

Kinuha ko ang remote at binuksan ang tv bago humiga sa sofa.
“Yes, I met a new friend. His name is Ezra, and… he’s cute.”

“Is he cuter than Gellian?”

I pouted my lips, trying to think of an answer.
“Gellian is not cute, he’s… handsome?”
I replied, sounding unsure.

 

Mom gave me a playful smile.
“Do you like Gellian?”

My eyes widened in shock.
“No! Mom, he’s my friend.”

 

Tinaas ni Mommy ang dalawa niyang kamay at umaktong sumusuko. Lumapit nalang siya kay Manang Fe para tumulong sa paghanda ng aming tanghalian. My stomach growled when I smelled the steak that they were cooking.

Si Manang Fe ay asawa ni Mang Noel at kasama ko sila sa paglaki. Madalas kasing wala sila Mommy at Daddy sa bahay dahil abala sila sa pag-aasikaso sa mga resort namin. Wala akong kapatid kaya si Gellian ang tinuturing kong kuya simula nung pagkabata. Ilang taon na ang nakalipas pero tandang-tanda ko pa ang una naming pagkikita.

“N-Nanny Fe! Where are you?”

I shouted while holding a balloon in the middle of the park when I got lost.

I had been walking for a long time, and my feet were starting to get numb. Nanny Fe advised me to wait on the swing before she bought me an ice cream, but I disobeyed when I saw other kids playing with the sand. It’s already noon and the sun’s rays are starting to fade, which makes me feel more nervous.

 

I wiped my tears on my cheeks when I saw that the boy that I was playing with earlier came back for me. He’s holding a strawberry ice cream in his hand that is almost melting.

I was shocked when he extended his hand and gave me the ice cream that

was on his hand.

“Take this and stop crying. I will stay with you until your nanny come back.”

He promised me.

I forced myself to stop sobbing before I got the ice cream in his hand.

“D-Do you think she will come back? What if she left me because I didn’t… follow her?

”

 

 

 

He wiped his sticky hand on his shirt before he cupped my face, making me look at his eyes.

“Then, I’ll stay with you forever if she won’t come back. I will never leave you alone.”

 

We just sat on the swing while waiting for my nanny. Somehow, my anxiety faded because of him. He started to tell me about his toy collection, which made me calm and happy. I shouted when he pushed the swing that I was riding. I felt carefree after he did that. 

“I’m Gellian, what’s your name?”

“Zein,”

I answered in a soft voice.

“Do you want to be… friends with me?”

He sounded a little bit hesitant.

 

 

 

I turned my face to him.

“Sure! Let’s be friends, Gellian.”

 

 

He smiled in awe when he heard me say his name. When Nanny Fe came back to pick me up, I instantly felt a pang in my chest. This is the first time that I’ve had a friend around my age, so I’ll be sad if I lose him.

 

 

“Bye, Gellian…”

I whispered when I was about to get inside the van.

 

 

 

”

I’ll find you again, so don’t be sad. See you again, Zein.”

Gellian assured me. 

 

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🌈💅

F.B.I-3

“For you,”
I handed him the love letter that his admirer had asked me to give to him yesterday.

Bakas ang pagkagulat sa mukha niya nang kunin niya iyon sa ‘kin.
“Z-Zein, bakit—”

I cut him off.
“That letter is from one of your girls. She must have liked you a lot.” 

Napaawang ang aking labi nang walang awa niya iyong punitin sa harap ko at mabilis na pinatakbo ang kanyang bisekleta. Kaagad ko naman siyang hinabol at napasigaw nung bigla akong matumba.

He shook his head in disbelief before he went back to let me stand up on my knees. I rapidly held his shoulder for support when he pulled up the sleeves of my slacks to check if it left a bruise. 

I pinched his cheek, feeling annoyed.
“Why do you look mad? Don’t you like it that a lot of girls admire you?”

He stood up from kneeling down to face me.
“Zein, ayoko ng binibigyan mo ako ng love letters na galing sa iba. Nakita mo naman kung paano ako tumanggi di ‘ba?”

I pouted my lips because of the guilt that I’m feeling.
“Why? Do you like someone already?”

“Ikaw?”
He blurted.

My forehead creased.
“Ako?”

He swallowed the lump in his throat.

“I-I mean, ikaw? May nagugustuhan ka na ba?”

I shrugged.
“Wala pa naman,”
I replied before we continued walking while holding our bicycles. 

It was already class breaktime when I decided to use the restroom. The empty cubicles and the rusty noise outside send shivers down my spine. My heart leaped when I heard footsteps entering the restroom when I was inside of a cubicle. 

A loud knock on the door made me shrug.
“Pretty boy, remember what I asked you yesterday? It looks like you didn’t give my letter to Gellian.” 

Pinilit kong buksan ang pinto pero mukhang hinarangan nila ito.
“I promise I did. P-Please let me go…”

I screamed the hell out of me when I saw a spider on the floor making an entrance towards my direction.  Kaagad akong humagulgol sa sobrang takot habang tumatawa ang mga babaeng estudyante sa akin. Napatigil ako sa pag-iyak nung makarinig nang mahinahong boses.

“Hindi ka pa rin pala nagbabago, Cindy?”

“Look who’s here? Levi Miles Sullivan,”
She emphasized this while slowly clapping her hands. 

The guy with the resonance voice chuckled sarcastically.
“Hindi mo pa rin pala ako nakakalimutan?”
He took a few steps closer to the girl before he whispered. ”
Aalis kayo ng mga alipores mo o tuluyan na kayong hindi makakalabas ng buhay? You choose.”

“H-Hindi pa tayo tapos, Levi. Let’s go girls!”
She warned him before leaving the restroom.

Huminga ako nang maluwag nung tuluyan ng makaalis ang mga babaeng estudyante. Umigting ang aking puso nung makarinig ng sunod-sunod na katok mula sa cubicle kung nasaan ako.

The guy cleared his throat.
“Okay ka lang? You can now open the door. They already left, and I’ll make sure they won’t do it again.” 

Dahan-dahan kong pinihit ang doorknob at napansing wala na itong harang mula sa labas.
“Thank you—”

My eyes sparked when I finally saw my savior’s angelic face. He’s a guy, but he can also pass as a goddess.  Hindi ko napansing nakatulala na pala ako nang matagal sa sobrang pagkamangha sa kanyang mukha.

He bent down and grabbed the spider with his bare hand before he smiled at me.
“Hi, I’m Levi! Freshman?”

I instantly nodded my head.
“T-Thank you for saving me, Levi. I’m Zein. Yes, I’m a freshman.”
I answered while extending my hand to him.

Kaagad naman niyang tinanggap ang kamay ko.
“You’re so cute, Zein. Let’s be friends.”
That doesn’t sound like an offer from Levi.

“Sure, let’s be friends!”
I squealed.

Tuluyan nang nawala ang takot ko dahil kay Levi. He’s a year older than me, and he’s now a second year high school student. Levi is the president of media arts in our school, and I’ve seen some of his photos on the bulletin board. He’s not just charming, but also oozing with talent.

“Mr. Carson, what is photosynthesis?”
Tanong ni Mrs. Villaruiz kay Ezra.

Ezra removed the pods from his ear and stood up from his seat.
“Photosynthesis is the process through which plants use water and carbon dioxide to create their food, grow, and release excess oxygen into the air.”
He answered without stuttering, then sat on his chair before the prof’s advice.

Ezra is really a genius. We’d already finished our first semester, and I wasn’t surprised when our adviser announced that he was the top student in our class. Ezra is the type of student who’s not fond of being active in class. Most of the time, he’s just listening to music, and he will shock everyone when he’s always perfect in our quizzes.

 

He’s really different from me. I’m really focused on our class. I always listen to our professors and make everything so complicated. I’m a perfectionist, which is why I tend to look for what’s beyond our lessons, which makes me struggle most of the time. I’m only a few points lower than Ezra’s grade, and I ranked second this semester, so I’m content enough. 

“Ang tagal niyo naman, kanina pa ako dito.”
Pagre-reklamo ni Levi nung makarating kami ni Ezra sa loob ng cafeteria.

Ezra put his laptop on the table and gracefully sat on the chair.

“Sorry, Levi. Ang tagal kasi nito ni Zein kumilos.”

Nagkibit balikat ako bago umupo sa tabi ni Ezra.
“Sorry, I finished writing my notes, that’s why it took me so long.”

Malinaw pa rin sa alaala ko kung paano kami naging magkakaibigang tatlo. Hindi kami mapag-hiwalay ni Ezra sa loob ng classroom at sumasabay naman sa ‘kin si Levi tuwing recess.

Ezra and Levi’s personalities are miles apart from each other, which is why I find it hard to make them reconcile. After so much bragging, persuading, and convincing, I was able to accomplish my mission. And that’s for the three of us to become a squad.

The sound of chimes from the cafeteria’s door stopped me from chuckling because of Levi’s jokes. I waved my hand when I saw Gellian with some guys that I’m not familiar with. Nakita ko ang pagtapik ni Gellian sa balikat ng kanyang mga kasama bago lumakad palapit sa akin.

“Zein, nandito ka lang pala. Kanina pa kita hinahanap,”
Gellian uttered when he finally sat beside me, making Ezra move on the edge of the long chair.

“Hi, Gellian.”
Levi greeted him before he sipped on his milk tea.

“Nice to see you, Ezra and Levi,”
Gellian said in a flat tone before he focused his eyes on me. 

I pouted my lips at the charming guy on the counter.
“Who’s that, Gellian? Is he one of your friends?” 

Tiim bagang na sinulyapan ni Gellian ang lalaking pinagmamasdan ko.

“Y-Yeah, that’s Aaron Delgado. Why?” 
Curiousity was evident in his eyes when he turned his face back at me.

Ezra cleared his throat.
“He’s a varsity player of our basketball team.” 

Levi chuckled, which caught my attention.
“Bakit? Crush mo, Zein?”
He teased before he looked at Gellian with a grin on his face.

Napalingon sa direksyon namin ang grupo nila Aaron, dahilan para mapayuko ako sa kahihiyan. My shoulders quivered when Gellian blocked me with his back to cover my face. I tilted my head when I saw Aaron looking at me.

I feel like my heart wants to go out of my ribcage,

because of Aaron.

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🌈💅

F.B.I-4

“Hey, Gellian! Wait!”
I yelled his name when I noticed he was walking too fast, which made me unable to follow. 

Simula nung natapos kaming mag-lunch sa cafeteria ay hindi niya na ako kinausap. Gellian must have felt irritated because I kept on asking him about Aaron. He’s friends with him, so I guess he’s the best person to ask.

I was panting heavily when I reached him.
“T-tell me what’s wrong, Gellian.” 

I saw how his jaw clenched, making me feel more worried.
“Wala, and please stop asking me about Aaron. He’s not… my friend anymore.”

I suddenly felt confused after hearing that.
“Oh, why?”

He smiled bitterly before he tapped my head.
“Siya ang gusto ng—”

I didn’t hear him clearly when Mang Noel beeped the horn of the van. I took a glance at my wristwatch before I looked at the face of Gellian, urging him to go on, but he didn’t utter another word. I can’t fathom the emotion in his eyes.

I just pouted my lips while walking towards the van. Nagpakawala ako nang malalim na hininga nung magsimulang magmaneho si Mang Noel. Muli kung sinulyapan si Gellian mula sa bintana ng van at nakita siyang malalim ang iniisip.

“Anak, bakit naka-busangot ang mukha mo? May problema ba?”
Nag-aalalang tanong ni Manang Fe nung kinuha niya ang bag ko mula sa ‘kin.

I bit my lower lip, trying to resist the urge to cry.
“N-nanny, I think I did something… wrong.”

She immediately wiped my tears when they started rolling down my cheeks.
“Kung sa tingin mo’y mayroon kang ginawang mali, subukan mong humingi ng tawad.”

Nabuhayan ako ng loob nung marinig ko iyon kay Manang Fe. Dali-dali akong nagpaalam sa kanya bago kumaripas ng takbo palabas ng mansyon. Mabuti at nakita ko agad si Mang Noel kaya napanatag ang loob ko.

“Mang Noel, let’s go.”
I informed him before I got inside the van.

I saw him scratch his head in confusion.
“Saan tayo pupunta, Zein? Baka magalit ang mommy mo…”

“We need to go to Tita Cecil’s mansion. I have to see Gellian po.”
I used my soft voice, hoping it could persuade him to agree.

I clapped my hands excitedly when he got into the driver’s seat and started the engine of the van. Matagal na rin akong hindi nakakadalaw kay Tita Cecil dahil sa tambak na school works kaya isa na rin iyon sa dahilan kung bakit ko naisipang pumunta.

“Oh! Hi, baby Zein!”
Bati sa ‘kin ni Tita Cecil nung makapasok ako sa mansyon nila.

I gave her a tight hug as she caressed my back.
“I missed you po, Tita.”

She is already in her mid-40’s, but she still looks young. Gellian’s dad was always out of the country for business purposes, so she was the only guardian of Gellian aside from their maids and bodyguards. My mom and Gellian’s mom became friends when they met at a corporate event a few years ago. And that’s the time I met Gellian again and we became best buddies.

“Tita, where’s Gellian?”
I surveyed the huge living room, but I couldn’t see a glimpse of his presence.

Her lips parted before she let out a deep sigh.
“He’s probably at the pool. Could you please check him, Zein? My son looks like he’s not in a good mood.”
She asked me for a favor.

I nodded my head before I walked towards their backyard. Pinasadahan ko ng tingin ang kabuuan ng oval shaped pool pero hindi ko siya makita. Bigla akong nakaramdam ng kaba nung mapansin ko si Gellian na nakalubog sa ilalim ng pool.

I didn’t hesistate to jump into the pool, making my school uniform soaked in water.
“G-gellian! Are you o-okay?”
I worriedly asked after I saved him.

He bit his lower lip as he pulled me close for a hug.
“Z-zein, can we stay like this… for a moment?”

He’s half naked, and I can feel his fast heartbeat as he gets closer to me. I caressed his back when I heard him whimper. My heart skipped a beat when Gellian wrapped his arms around my waist, which sent a shiver down my spine.

“T-tell me what’s wrong, Gellian. I’m worried sick about you.”
I’m now freezing cold, but I managed to say my thoughts.

He sighed heavily.
“Why? Is it because I’m your… friend?”

“Because you’re important.”
I proudly remarked, which made him get out of his hug and take a glance at my eyes. 

He held my wrist and guided me out of their swimming pool. Kinuha niya ang puting tuwalya sa side table at pinunasan ang buhok ko. He was only wearing cycling shorts, so I just focused my eyes on his face. 

I combed the strands of his hair using my fingers and gave him a sweet smile.
“If you can’t say what’s on your mind, then that’s fine. Always remember that I’m here if you need someone who can listen.” 

Nabaling ang atensyon ko kay Tita Cecil nung makita ko siyang palapit sa direksyon namin ni Gellian. She gave me the bathrobe when she noticed my whole body was trembling from the cold. I was hesitating about wearing it since it’s supposed to be for her own son, but I just wore it when Gellian nodded his head. 

 

“Gellian, you know Zein is very sensitive. Why did you let him swim in the pool?!”
Bahagyang tumaas ang boses ni Tita Cecil habang nakatingin kay Gellian.

Gellian looked at the ground guiltily.
“Sorry, mom. I will let him borrow my clothes so he can change.”

Kaagad akong dinala ni Gellian sa kwarto niya pagkatapos sumang-ayon si Tita Cecil. Napangiti ako habang pinagmamasdan ang mga luma naming litrato na hanggang ngayon ay nakalagay sa bed side table ni Gellian. Wala rin siyang kapatid kagaya ko kaya tinuring ko na siyang kuya simula noon.

“You’re so cute when you’re still a kid.”
I mumbled without realizing it.

Lumakad siya palapit habang hawak ang damit na ipapahiram niya sa ‘kin.

“Am I… not cute now?”

I pouted my lips before I touched his toned chest down to his abs.
“No, these muscles are not fluffy like my rubber ducks.” 

Huminga siya nang malalim bago kuhanin ang kamay kong nakahawak sa katawan niya.
“Zein, please…”
He gulped.
“D-don’t do this to me.”

I cannot fathom the emotions on his eyes. His face blushed and I saw his forehead formed a sweat. He’s panting heavily. Inalis ko ang pagkakawak niya sa kamay ko para pakiramdaman ang noo niya.

“Y-you’re hot! Are you sick, Gellian? Should I call a doctor?”
I became worried.

He didn’t answer for a long time.
“I think I need to… have a cold shower. I’ll be right back, Zein.”

Agad akong tinalikuran ni Gellian at kumaripas ng takbo papunta sa banyo ng kwarto niya. Humiga nalang ako sa kama niya at malalim na nag-isip. Binalot ko ang sarili ko gamit ang comforter at pinikit ang aking mga mata.

I thought I knew him well, but I guess it changed when we grew up. I’m used to knowing Gellian as someone very vocal with his thoughts. He would always tell me even the most trivial things that were on his mind, which is something I admire about him.

The scent of a familiar body soap woke me up from sleep. My eyes widened when I saw Gellian hugging me with his bathrobe on. I chuckled in my mind when I heard him snore. He has a baby face with a huge built of body.

“Sleep well, Mr. Sleepyhead.”
I said in a soft voice before I went inside of the bathroom while bringing the clothes he let me borrow. 

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🌈💅

F.B.I-5

“S-Sorry po, sir. Wala na po kaming size nitong gusto niyong shoes.”
The shop assistant said in a worried tone.

I looked at the Dolce & Gabbana shoes that I wanted to buy while pouting my lips.
“B-but, I really want that. I’m willing to pay no matter how much as long as I have those shoes.”
I’m trying to persuade the sales assistant with my soft voice.

A guy with a deep voice intrudes. ”
I think this one suits you better,”

Tumingin ako kung saan nanggaling ang boses at natulala nung makita ko si Aaron. He’s wearing a black polo shirt, which matches his white skin. I smiled when I notice that he’s holding Chunky Low-Top sneakers.

Napahawak ako sa gilid ng bean bag chair kung saan ako nakaupo nung lumakad siya harap ko. He bended his knee and carefully held the calf of my left leg before he put the shoe on my feet that he was holding. My heart was beating so fast, his touch made me shiver.

He centered his eyes on me after he put the shoe on my feet.
“I told you, it would be perfect for you.”

Tumango naman ako at binaling ang tingin sa kawalan.
“Y-yup, thank you.”

“Sir, bagay po kayo- este… bagay po sa inyo yung sapatos. Are you going to buy that pair instead?”
Mapang-asar na tanong ng sales lady.

“Yes, I’ll buy this.”
I mumbled while looking at the shoe that I’m wearing.

Lumabas din ako agad ng shop pagkatapos mabili ang sapatos para hanapin si Mang Noel. Napansin kong sumusunod sa ‘kin si Aaron pero hindi ko na siya pinansin. My eyes sparkled in awe when I saw an ice cream shop.

”
You want to eat ice cream with me, Z-zein?
Aaron whispered.

Lumingon naman ako sa kanya nung marinig ko ang aking pangalan.
“Y-you know me?”

He caressed his nape while biting his lower lip.
“You’re the cutest student in our school. That’s why everyone knows you.”

I instantly felt shy after hearing that. A lot of my classmates and even my friends said the same thing, but hearing that coming out of Aaron’s lips makes me feel butterflies in my stomach. I noticed that he was trying to avoid my gaze, which made me walk closer to him.

“Are you okay? You look sick like Gellian.”
I anxiously asked while feeling his forehead with my palm.

Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko mula sa noo niya.
“O-okay lang, Zein. I really want to ask you for a date-”

Hindi ko narinig ang huli niyang sinabi nung tumunog ang phone ko. Agad naman akong lumayo sa kanya nung makitang si Gellian ang tumatawag. I didn’t hesitate to answer his call.

“What’s up, Gellian?”
I casually asked.

I heard him sigh on the other line.
“Nasaan ka?”

Napalunok ako nung marinig ko ang malalim niyang boses. Being with Gellian for so many years, I could easily determine if he was fine or in a bad mood. He’s now a hundred percent mad at the tone of his voice.

“Uhmm… I’m h-here at the mall.”
I started to stutter.

He tsked.
“Sinong kasama mo?”

I tried to look around to find Mang Noel, but he was nowhere to be found.
“I was with Mang Noel earlier, but… I can’t see him now.”

“Nandito ako sa labas ng mall kasama si Mang Noel, lumabas ka na d’yan.”

I turned around to look at Aaron.
“But, I’m with-”

“Zein, please listen to me. Do I need to beg?”
He asked in a frustrated tone.

Kaagad kong binaba ang tawag at lumapit kay Aaron para magpaalam. Hindi siya umalma nung sinabi kong kailangan ko ng umalis kaya napanatag ang loob ko.

“Gellian, w-where’s Mang Noel?”
I scanned the entire parking space, but I couldn’t see him.

Gellian gave me the ice cream that he was holding.
“Parating na ‘yon, hintay ka lang.”
He uttered, sounding unsure.

Bumuntong hininga nalang ako at kinain ang ice cream na bigay niya. He got the shopping bag that I was carrying and looked at it questionably. Gellian’s forehead creased, and it seemed like he was about to fight with my shoes.

Maya-maya pa ay dumating na si Mang Noel habang bitbit ang mga damit na binili ko kanina. Madalas akong paalalahanan ni Gellian na wag masyadong gumastos, pero hindi ko naman ito maiwasan. I feel overwhelmedly excited whenever I buy a new release of clothes from my favorite brands.

Ezra was busy taking selfies when our adviser entered the classroom. The boys immediately sat on their chairs, and the girls stopped spreading gossip. Most of them had a circle of friends, and I’m content enough with Ezra and Levi as my squad.

Mr. Consuales cleared his throat, making us focus on what he was about to announce.
“Good morning, Archangels. I have three important announcements to make, so I want you guys to listen attentively.”

“First, is that we will have our sportsfest next week and I want to see most of you guys participate. Every participant will be getting additional points for their performance task. ”

I was stunned when Mr. Consuales smiled at me.
“Second is… our school will be joining a district Science Quiz Bee and I need three participants from this class. Based on your last semester’s ranking, Zein and Ezra tied for the highest rank.”

Kaagad na nagpalakpakan ang iba naming kaklase habang ang iba ay hindi makapaniwala sa narinig. Narinig ko ang ilang bulungan na binabanggit ang aking pangalan, pero di ko nalang ito pinansin. I shrugged when Ezra held my shoulder and gave me a comforting smile.

“Sir, you said that you need three participants for the upcoming quiz bee? We still need one more brilliant student to make it three, aside from Ezra and Zein.”
Our class president clarrified.

Mr. Consuales nodded his head.
“That’s what I’m about to say for my final announcement. We have a new transferee that will be joining your class starting from now on. He was ranked as valedictorian at his primary level. He’s one of the most outstanding students who can compete in the quiz bee along with Ezra and Zein.”

“Please welcome your new classmate, Kyle Stanley Ateniano.”
Our adviser turned his face to the door and sent a signal to the new student outside.

Bumukas ang pinto at ang lahat ay napasinghap nung makita ang napakagandang mukha ng bago naming kaklase. He’s a guy since he’s wearing a boy’s uniform, but I couldn’t deny that he could pass as a girl with his soft features. A lot of guys whistled playfully, and some of the girls rolled their eyes while looking at Kyle, who’s now in front of us.

Kyle surveyed the whole class before he spoke.
“Hi A-archangels, I’m Kyle. Please take care of me.”

Kaagad na nagpalakpakan ang lahat. Napansin ko ang pagsulyap sa amin ni Ezra ng ilan naming kaklase at pagbalik ng tingin nila kay Kyle. Marahil ay pinag-kukumpara nila ang aming mga itsura dahil mukha ring may ibang lahi si Kyle.

Mr. Consuales hit the center table to stop us from making any noise.
“Kyle, you may now sit beside those two pretty guys like you at the back.”
He pointed at me and Ezra.

Mahigpit ang hawak ni Kyle sa lace ng kanyang backpack habang papalapit direksyon namin ni Ezra. I gave him a sweet smile since he looked so nervous. Kyle took a glance at me and Ezra when he finally sat down on the chair beside me.

“Hi! Can we be… friends?”
Kyle offered his hand to us.

I was about to take his hand when Ezra grabbed it before me.
“Sure, you’re now part of our squad!”

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🌈💅

F.B.I-6

“Kyle, wag ka munang mag-review. Malapit na rin naman tayo sa cafeteria, doon mo nalang ‘yan basahin.”
Ezra suggested while looking at Kyle, who was reading his reviewer papers while we were walking.

“I agree with Ezra, and don’t feel very pressured. We know you’re a straight-A student, so let’s just enjoy the upcoming quiz bee.”
I praised him while looking down our way.

Napabuntong hininga si Kyle nung mabunggo siya ng isang estudyante dahilan para kumalat sa daan ang mga papel na hawak niya. The male student with a bossy face smirked before he picked up the papers on the ground. Ezra and I were just looking at Kyle, who was now throwing death glares at the guy.

“S-sorry,”
I saw him swallow the lump in his throat when he saw the face of Kyle, while handing the papers back.

This guy is wearing a different uniform, and he must be a student from the Forthhill Academy for Boys, beside our school. He’s around the height of Gellian, and I find him unpleasant since his polo shirt is slightly buttoned.

Padabog na kinuha ni Kyle ang kanyang reviewer mula sa lalaki.
“Sorry? Alam mo namang dadaan kami, hindi ka pa tumabi! Ang lawak-lawak ng daan tapos sa amin ka pa sumalubong!”

The guy bit his lower lip, trying to calm himself down.
“Nag-sorry na nga ako ‘di ba? Ano pa bang gusto mo?”

Hindi kami makapagsalita ni Ezra sa sobrang pagkabigla. I didn’t know that Kyle had a strong personality like Levi, because of his innocent face.
Even this guy was stunned by how Kyle acted towards him.

Another boy came into the scene and tapped the shoulder of the guy Kyle was talking to.
“Bro, what’s the problem right here-”

The boy who just came in didn’t finish his sentence when he saw the face of Ezra. This guy is much shorter than his brother and looks younger too. He was wearing the same uniform as his brother, so I could easily tell that they were studying at the same school.

“Nothing, Carlos. I’m not going to fight someone who looks… feminine.”
He teased Kyle with a grin on his face.

Akmang susuntukin siya ni Kyle kaya pinigilan na namin siya ni Ezra. Mapang-asar ang mga titig ng lalaking nasa harapan namin kaya mas lalong nagalit si Kyle. I couldn’t imagine my friend being in a fight, and I know Kyle would lose if he ended up brawling with this guy.

“Feminine? Akala mo ang gwapo mo? Mukha ka namang… p-pangit!”
Sigaw ni Kyle bago tuluyang lampasan ang mga lalaki kaya mabilis namin siyang sinundan ni Ezra.

Mabilis ang kanyang mga hakbang hanggang makarating kami sa cafeteria. Agad na tumayo si Levi sa upuan para salubungin si Kyle. Bakas ang pag-aalala sa mukha nito.

“Ghorl, what happened?”
Levi asked Kyle when we all sat at our table for lunch.

Kyle let out a deep breath.
“Wala, hindi lang maganda yung mood ko.”

Umorder nalang kami ng dessert bago nagsimulang mag-review. We only had three days left before the quiz bee, so all of us were together most of the time. Levi will also be at the same event to take some pictures for the school newspaper.

This is not the first time that I’ve joined a quiz bee, so I’m not feeling anxious. When I was in primary school, I competed in Science, Math, and Spelling Quiz Bees and won a slew of awards. I remembered that Kyle and Ezra became my competitors in some of those competitions.

“Zein, ito ba?”
Bulong ni Gellian habang hawak ang Biology book.

Nandito kami ngayon sa library at sinamahan kaming tatlo ni Gellian na mag-review habang oras ng recess. Ezra had his earbuds on while reading his notes. On the other hand, Kyle was feeling drowsy while murmuring some science vocabulary. The pressure is evident to the three of us.

I chuckled in my mind while looking at Gellian losing his sanity.
“No, that’s not it. I told you that it’s the book on the third section from the right.”
I murmured.

Hindi ko naman talaga kailangan ng libro dahil kontento na ako sa lahat ng napag-aralan ko. Gusto ko lang talagang makaganti kay Gellian sa paglilihim sa ‘kin noong nakaraang linggo. His face still looks calm, but I know he’s already mocking me in his mind. He’s been looking for a book that doesn’t even exist for ten minutes straight.

Nagpakawala ako nang malalim na hininga bago ako tumayo sa upuan namin nila Kyle at lumakad palapit sa kanya. I rolled my eyes when Gellian turned his back to me when I reached him, probably sulking. I pressed on the side of his tummy to stop him frowning, and I’m glad it worked.

“Gellian, just… forget about the book. I’ll buy your favorite ice cream.”
I said in a soft voice.

“Ikaw lang naman yung dahilan kung bakit ko binibili ‘yon,”
He mumbled, making me unable to hear.

“Ano?!”
Bahagyang napalakas ang boses ko, dahilan para sitahin kami ng librarian.

Gellian and I had no choice but to go out of the library. I just couldn’t stay quiet when I was with him. He’s immensely quiet, while I’m very vocal with my own thoughts. It’s funny that we became friends for so long despite our very different personalities.

Gumuhit ang ngiti sa aking labi nung makita ko sila Mommy at Daddy na tahimik na kumakain sa lamesa pagka-uwi ko. Binigyan ko sila nang halik sa kanilang pisngi bago ako umupo sa tabi ni Dad. I felt a pang in my chest when I noticed that they were not happy. It’s been a long time since we had our lunch together, so I kind of feel disappointed to see them frowning like this.

“Anak, kumusta ang pag-aaral mo?”
Pagbasag ni dad sa katahimikan nung matapos siyang kumain.

I wiped my mouth before I answered.
“I’m doing… just fine, dad.”

Mom caressed my back.
“Anak, pasensya na, baka ‘di kami makasama ng dad mo bukas…”

Sanay na akong hindi sila laging nakakasama sa mga competitions ko. Masyado silang abala sa pag-aasikaso ng mga resort namin at naiintindihan ko naman ‘yon. Siguro’y sabik ako sa kanilang atensyon kaya mas lalo kong ginagalingan sa pag-aaral. Iyon nalang kasi ang maisusukli ko sa kanilang paghihirap.

“That’s fine, Mom. I can just bring Nanny Fe and Mang Noel to support me tomorrow.”
I suggested

My dad tapped my head.
“Alam mo namang sobrang proud kami sa ‘yo, anak. Gagawin namin ang lahat para makapagtapos ka ng p-pag-aaral.”

Buong gabi akong nag-isip tungkol sa sinabi ni Dad. I can feel that there’s something wrong with his statement, but I don’t want to assume anything. I’d probably just wait for them to tell me what they were going through. My anxiety is making my head hurt, so I haven’t had a chance to review for tomorrow’s quiz bee.

“Kinakabahan ka ba, anak? Gusto mo ice cream?”
May pag-aalalang tanong sa ‘kin ni Manang Fe nung mapansing balisa ako habang naghihintay magsimula ang quiz bee.

I stopped biting my finger nail.
“Hindi na po. Naiinggit lang po ako sa mga… kaibigan ko kasi kasama nila yung parents nila.”

Kasama ni Kyle ang Mom niya na si Tita Cynthia habang nandito din ang dad ni Ezra na si Tito Christian para sumuporta. Si Levi naman ay abala sa pagkuha ng litrato ng mga kalahok sa kompetisyon. Walang akong nararamdamang kaba dahil mas namayani ang lungkot sa aking puso.

I snapped back to reality when I heard my phone ding. I opened my messenger and saw a message from Aaron. My cheeks instantly became hot after I read his message.

@
Aaron.Delgado

You can do it, Zein. Win or lose, you have already won in my heart.

After we met in the mall, Aaron followed me on all of my social media accounts. Just like Gellian, he never fails to send me encouraging messages when the school announces that I will be joining a Quiz Bee. I appreciate his effort, given that we just became friends not too long ago.

“Ghorl, kilala mo ba ‘yon?”
Levi asked while pointing at the male student who is also a participant in this competition.

I rolled my eyes when I remembered him.
“Yeah, that’s Yadiel Romero. Nakalaban ko dati sa Science Quiz Bee nung elementary.”

Levi’s lips parted in awe.
“He’s cute,”

“Crush mo?”
Kinikilig na tanong ni Kyle habang nakangisi kay Levi.

“H-hindi ah! Mukhang mayaman, ekis.”
Pagtanggi ni Levi.

“What’s wrong with being rich, if he can pay all of your bills?”
Ezra mumbled.

Levi secretly took a picture of Yadiel.
“No, I can work hard to pay for my own needs.”

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🌈💅

F.B.I-7

“And now, we are down to our last two finalists for our Science Quiz Bee. Give Ravenwood University and Forthhill Academy a round of applause, everyone!”
The emcee announced it on the microphone.

Kaagad nagpalaklapakan ang mga manunuod nang makatuntong kami sa stage. Our school was able to win against three universities that we competed against earlier. The last round between us and the bright students of Forthwill is going to be tough. I couldn’t believe that I would be able to compete with the students that I had competed with before when I was at primary level.

Me, Ezra, and Kyle are now in front of a long table with a buzzer on top. Katapat ko si Yadiel na nasa kabilang panel table at ang mga kapwa niya estudyante na pamilyar sa akin. Binigyan ko nang matamis na ngiti sina Manang Fe at Mang Noel na nakaupo sa front seat.

“Ghorls, kahit anong mangyari, manalo man o matalo, tandaan niyong proud ako… sa ating lahat.”
Kyle mumbled while panting heavily.

Ezra held Kyle’s trembling hand.
“Yes, so don’t feel pressured. Let’s just enjoy this moment like Levi, who’s admiring the face of one of our opponents.”

Napatingin naman ako kay Levi na nasa baba ng stage habang kumukuha ng litrato ni Yadiel. Nakalimutan yata niyang kami ang dapat niyang suportahan. Umiling nalang ako at napabalikwas nung magsalita ang host.

“Before we get started, I would like to congratulate our last two finalists who made it this far. Both of your schools must be very proud of all of you. Whoever wins in this round will be our overall district champion this year and will receive our Triumpt Trophy and ten thousand pesos cash per participant. Setting aside those prices, winning this quiz bee will also bring honor to your school, so I want you guys to do your best.”

Nagsimula akong makaramdam ng kaba. Huminga ako nang malalim at taimtim na humihiling na sana’y maganda ang maging resulta ng laban. We all know how much pressure we put on ourselves to make it this far, and I don’t want those efforts to go to waste. 

 

“What is the term refers to the study of tissues?”
Unang tanong ng host.

Mabilis na pumindot ng buzzer si Kyle.
“Histology!”

The host cleared his throat.
“Histology is correct. 10 points goes to Ravenwood University! ”

The school that first gets 100 points will be the winner of the quiz bee. We defeated three schools earlier, so I already felt a little exhausted when the last round began. Forthhill Academy won last year and they are aiming to win again this year, which I don’t want to happen.

“Name the English physicist who discovered electromagnetic induction?”
The emcee asked in an excited tone. 

Mabilis kong pinindot ang buzzer pero naunahan ako ni Yadiel.
“Michael Faraday, is the answer.”
He confidently uttered.

Naghiyawan ang mga ilang manunuod dahil tama ang sagot niya. Nakita ko ang talim na tingin ni Ezra kay Yadiel nung ngumisi ito sa amin. Hinawakan ko ang kamay ni Ezra para siya’y pakalmahin.

“Stratosphere!”
Ezra answered when the host asked about the location of the ozone layer in the atmosphere.

Our school and Fortwill academy is tie after the host threw bunches of questions. Nangangatog ang aking kamay sa sobrang kaba at humihiling na sana’y sa amin mapunta ang huling puntos. Dumilim ang buong paligid at ang tanging sa direksyon ng mga manlalaro nakatapat ang ilaw na nanggagaling sa itaas.

“The first student who answers this question correctly will be held as our grand champion among all of the school’s district.”
 The emcee clarified.

Narinig ko ang pagbuntong hininga ng host bago siya magsalita.
“The taxonomic breakdown of living things consists of the following categories: Family, Class, Genus, Phylum, Order, Kingdom and Species Give the order of these terms from least specific to most specific.”

 

Shocks!

Napalunok ako nung marinig ang final question. Napakagat ng labi si Kyle habang napakamot naman ng ulo si Ezra. Ilang minuto ang nakalipas at wala pa ring pumipindot ng buzzer sa pagitan ng dalawang paaralan.

My body was rebelling against me when I pressed the buzzer. I saw the amused looks from Yadiel and his schoolmates while looking at me. I will try to answer the question and trust my luck this time. 

My lips are shaking.
“C-class, Order, Kingdom, Phylum, Family, G-genus and…”

Kinuyom ko ang aking kamao at pumikit. Pilit kong inaalala ang lahat ng napag-aralan ko. Sobrang tahimik ng buong paligid at ang lahat ay naghihintay ng huli kong sasabihin. I snapped back to reality when I heard a familiar voice from the audience.

“Zein, kaya mo yan!”

I averted my gaze from the guy who called my name and almost cried when I saw Gellian. He’s wearing his school uniform, and he’s panting and sweating heavily. It seems like he rushed himself to get here even though he had a class that he needed to attend. I smiled when I saw him holding a customized banner that had my name on it and a bouquet of roses. Gellian’s presence made me feel at ease and comforted, which I really needed right now.

I let out a deep breath before I continued my answer.
“As well as… species.”

The host had no expression before he announced the result: ”
Class, Order, Kingdom, Phylum, Family, Genus, and Species is…”
He winked at me, which made me feel pressured.
“Correct! Congratulations to Ravenwood University for winning this year’s district science quiz bee!”

Mahigpit akong niyakap nina Kyle at Ezra at hindi naman nagpahuli si Levi na umakyat din ng stage. I bit my lower lip to resist the urge to cry. All our hard work has paid off. I couldn’t express how happy I am. I’m so proud of my friends, just like they are of me. 

Pinuri kaming tatlo nina Kyle at Ezra ng mga kapwa estudyanteng nakalaban namin kanina pagkatapos ng award ceremony. Kasalukuyan akong nasa gitna ng kumpol na mga tao nang may tumapik sa balikat ko. I turned my face to my back and instantly smiled when I saw Gellian. My heart froze for a moment when I saw him putting down the banner and bouquet of flowers on the ground before he held my wrist and pulled me onto his chest to give me a warm hug.

“I’m sorry if I’m late, Zein. If you feel like crying because of too much joy, you can cry now. I’ll make sure to cover you.”
He mumbled. I could hear his breathing heavily and his heart was beating so fast.

I wrapped my arms around his waist to feel his embrace. Tears started to form up in my eyes and rapidly rolled down my cheeks when he caressed my back. Gellian is my knight in shining armor. He’s someone I really treasure and want to keep as much as I can. With him, I don’t need to hide my true feelings.

“Gellian, akin na nga ‘yan! Baka mabasag!”
Sigaw ko sa kanya habang pilit inaabot ang trophy na mula sa quiz bee.

Gellian raised his hand that was holding the golden trophy, making me unable to reach it.
“Ang liit mo kasi, paano mo maaabot?”

Nandito kami ngayon sa room niya dahil napag-desisyunan ni Tita Cecil na sa mansyon nila ako mag-celebrate. Marahil ay naaawa siya sa akin sa kadahilang abala sila Mommy sa negosyo, at wala itong panahon na magdiwang sa pagkapanalo ko at ng buong school.

I tiptoed my heel to reach Gellian’s hand, but he accidentally fell on his bed, resulting me get on top of him. His lips parted in shock, and I couldn’t move my body to get away from him. I pushed his body away with my hands, but he tightly hugged my waist to keep me there.

“Kung pwede lang huwag na kitang bitawan para di ka na makawala sa ‘kin, ginawa ko na, Zein.”
He said, in his hoarse voice.

I pouted my lips, trying to think of a good reply.
“I’m not going to leave your side, Gellian. I will stay even if you push me away.” 

He raised his brows.
“T-totoo ba yung narinig ko, Zein? Na… hindi mo ‘ko iiwan?”

I chuckled when I saw him blushed.
“Oo naman. Ang magkaibigan hindi nag-iiwanan,”

Napabalikwas ako nung biglang bumukas ang pinto ng kwarto ni Gellian. Gumuhit ang ngiti sa aking labi nang makita ang ama ni Gellian na si Tito Allen. I felt my heart leap when I saw how his jaw clenched upon seeing me with his son’s bed.

 

“Gellian and Zein, please refrain from being too close. You’re both guys, for god’s sake!”
He bellowed while gritting his teeth.

 

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🌈💅

F.B.I-8

“How was your parents, Zein? I really miss shopping with your mom.”
Ani ni Tita Cecil pagkatapos naming kumain.

I sipped on the glass of orange juice that I was holding before I answered.
“They’re both busy managing our resorts, so… I haven’t talked to them that much po,”

I turned my face at Gellian when I felt him holding my hand under the table. Abala siya sa kanyang pagkain at hindi pinansin ang aking pagsulyap. Napaayos ako ng aking upo nung magsalita si Tito Allen.

“I heard that you won the district’s science quiz bee, Zein? You really resemble your dad when he’s still studying. He was such a bright kid back then.”

“Yes po, tito. I want to become successful like my dad in the future, which is why I’m studying so hard to not let him down.”

Tita Allen chuckled sarcastically.
“Successful? Well, I guess he was before but not–”

Hindi natapos ni Tito Allen ang nais niyang sabihin nung magsalita si Tita Cecil.
“Honey, let’s just drop the topic. We should focus on the kids since they are here.”

Bumaling ang tingin ni Tito Allen kay Gellian.
“Son, what are your plans for college? You will graduate in a year, so you should know what you want to pursue.”

“Si Zein po. Kung nasaan si Zein, doon din po ako.”
He proudly remarked.

Bakas sa mukha ni Tito Allen ang pagkadismaya.
“What?! Anak, matuto kang mag-desisyon para sa sarili mo dahil hindi habambuhay ay magkasama kayo ni Zein.”

I gently hit the arm of Gellian to stop him from spouting nonsense.
“H-he’s just joking, Tito. Your hardworking son right here has a lot of dreams, and… I can assure you that he can achieve those even without me on his side.”

Masakit para sa aking sabihin iyon pero alam kong ito ang nais marinig ni Tito Allen. Bata palang kami ni Gellian ay ramdam ko ng hindi niya gustong mapalapit ako sa anak niya. Madalas siyang nasa ibang bansa at madalang lang umuwi sa Pilipinas. Hindi ko masisi si Gellian kung bakit malayo ang loob niya sa kanyang sariling ama dahil kagaya ni dad, ay abala rin ito sa kanyang trabaho.

“Zein!”
Mabilis tumakbo sila Kyle, Ezra at Levi nung makita akong bumaba ng van pagkapasok sa school.

I gave them a warm hug.
“Na-miss ko kayong tatlo!”

Levi tapped my shoulder to get my attention.
“Kumusta naman yung bakasyon mo sa U.S? Ang dami mong pictures sa IG, nakakainggit!”

He crossed his arms over his chest while pouting.

“Okay naman. May pasalubong pala ako sa inyo,”
ani ko bago bumalik sa van para kunin ang mga souvenirs na nabili ko sa America.

Napakabilis lumipas ng mga buwan at di ko namalayan na Sophomore na kami nila Kyle at Ezra habang si Levi naman ay Junior High School na.
Nagbakasyon kami nila Mom sa America dahil na rin sa business trip ni Dad. Madalas naman akong tawagan ng buong squad noong bakasyon kagaya ni Gellian at Aaron kaya hindi ako nabagot kahit lagi akong iniiwan nila Mom sa hotel.

Speaking of Aaron, he’s now in Senior High School like Gellian, and I’m aware that they’re both running for valedictorian here at Ravenwood University. I couldn’t help but feel proud of both of them since they are close to my heart. I know they have a bright future ahead.

“Ateniano, Carson, Garcia, Mendez, and Perez are group one, while Amor, Buendiaz, Dela Paz, Enrile, and Montes will be your opponents.”
Our PE teacher announced it on his lapel.

Physical education has always been my least favorite subject. I would rather solve calculus equations than play sports while sweating. I admit that I’m not athletic and my body won’t stand excessive activity. I’m much softer than most of the girls in our class, and that’s what I’m worried about.

Ezra groaned in pain.
“Ouch! Coach, my stomach is aching. I don’t think I can join.”

Mabilis akong kumuha ng dala kong medical kit sa aking bag at lumapit sa kanya. Kumunot ang aking noo nung makita siyang kumindat.
“Shhh… wag kang maingay, Zein. Hindi talaga masakit yung tiyan ko, ayoko lang… sumali.”

Namilipit din sa sakit si Kyle pagkatapos marinig si Ezra.
“Aray! Ako din po, coach. M-masakit yung tiyan ko,”

Napakamot naman ng ulo si Coach Austin.
“Paano ba ‘yan? Kulang tayo ng dalawang players,”

Sakto namang pumasok ng covered court ang grupo nila Gellian habang nakasuot ng PE uniform. Mukhang katatapos lang nilang maglaro kaya pawis na pawis silang magkakaibigan.
Napatakip ako ng tenga nung marinig ang mga hiyaw ng aking mga babaeng kaklase nung makita silang papalapit.

Napalingon si Coach Austin kila Gellian.
“Akalain mo nga naman ang pagkakataon? Nandito pala ang varsity player ng school. Mr. Delgado, come here!”

Pinipigilan ko ang pagtawa nung makita si Aaron na tinuturo ang sarili niya para siguraduhing siya ang tinutukoy. Nung mabaling ang aking tingin kay Gellian ay nakaramdam ako nang pagkabigla nung mahuling sa akin siya nakatingin. Hindi ko mabasa ang kanyang mga mata pero malinaw sa aking hindi siya masaya.

Aaron gave his bottle of water to one of his friends before he ran towards our direction.
“Y-yes po, coach?”

“Well, my two students right here…”
Coach Austin said, pointing to Kyle and Ezra.
“They’re both unwell, so we need a sub to replace them. Can you and one of your friends be part of the Team Garcia?”

Aaron pursed his lips while looking at me, which sent a shiver down my spine.
“Of course! I can do anything as long as it’s for Zein.”

Padabog na lumapit sa amin si Gellian.
“I’ll be the other player to complete the team.”
He threw death glares at Aaron before he smiled at me.
“I’ve known Zein since we were kids, so I can guide him better than anyone else.”

Coach Austin scratched his head, looking confused at Gellian.
“Mr. Zamora, I thought you were just starting to play basketball. Are you sure you can keep up with Mr. Delgado?”

Gellian winked at me.
“If it’s for someone important, then I’m more than willing to oblige.”

Napadaing ako nung pabirong hampasin ni Levi ang aking balikat.
“Zein, kapag nakapili ka na sa dalawa, ibigay mo na sa ‘kin ang isa.”

Ezra chuckled in disbelief.
“Ghorl, di ka pa ba kontento k

ay Roque, Philip, Andrei–”

Levi cut Ezra off.
“Ayoko sa kanila, okay? Sila ‘tong lapit ng lapit sa ‘kin, ‘di ko naman sila gusto.”

Kyle whispered.
“It’s more exciting to be single. There are no distractions, less stress, and we can focus on our studies.”

I gasped when Coach Austin called my name to let me know that the game was about to start. I sat on the bench when I noticed that the laces of my shoes were untied. It’s the chunky low-top sneakers that Aaron suggested at the mall before.

Napangiti ako nung makita si Aaron na papalapit sa direksyon ko pero naunahan siya ni Gellian. Mahigpit akong napakapit sa sulok ng upuan nung walang pasabi siyang lumuhod at hawakan ang aking binti. Napansin kong pawis ang kanyang noo kaya kinuha ko ang aking towel sa bulsa at pinunasan iyon.

“These shoes aren’t right for you, Zein.”
Gellian mumbled while tying the lace of my right shoe.

I pouted my lips.
“Why? I think it looks… good on me. ”

Tumingala siya para masilayan ang aking mata.
“No, it’s not. I’ll just buy you a new pair. I don’t like to see you wearing these shoes again.”

Gellian’s deep voice echoed in my ears. His brows are furrowed, and he’s gritting his teeth. It’s confirmed that he was mad when he said those words. I chuckled and let him hear it before I pinched his cheeks. I couldn’t contain the amount of cuteness that I was seeing.

“Fine, I’m not going to wear these again. You said you’d buy me a new pair, right?”
I giggled while cupping his face.

Nahuli ko ang pamumula ng kanyang pisngi habang taimtim na nakatitig sa akin. Naririnig ko ang ilang bulungan ng aking mga kaklase habang nakatingin sila sa amin ni Gellian. Alam kong sanay na rin silang makita na lagi kaming magkasama.

“Zein,”
Pagtawag sa atensyon ko ni Aaron.
“The game will begin. Come here, I’ll teach you some basics. ”

Tinapik ko ang balikat ni Gellian bago ako tumayo at maglakad papunta kay Aaron. I roamed my eyes all over the entire covered court and saw some admirers of Aaron and Gellian who were killing me with their stares. I just clasped my hand tightly to lessen the anxiety that I was feeling.

“Keep your eyes on the target, Zein.”
Bulong ni Aaron sa aking kaliwang tenga habang inaalalayan ako sa aking likod.

I’m holding the basketball while trying to focus on the basketball ring. Aaron was right behind me, and I could smell his manly scent of perfume. He’s wearing a jersey sando shirt, making me feel shy since he’s almost hugging me. I turned my face at him when he held a tight grip on my waist and pulled me closer to him.

The next thing that happened… was a complete mess!

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🌈💅

F.B.I-9

Napaatras ako patalikod nung makitang bumulagta si Aaron sa sahig ng covered court. I covered my mouth in shock when I saw his lips bleed from the punch of Gellian. Aaron forced himself to stand up, but Gellian kicked him away.

“Sinabi ko naman sa ‘yong layuan mo si Zein, ‘di ba? Bakit ba ang hirap mong umintindi? Hindi pa ba sapat sa ‘yo yung mga babae mo?!”
Nanghahamon na tanong ni Gellian habang kuyom ang kamao dahil sa galit.

Aaron chuckled playfully while pursing his bleeding lips.
“Ano bang pakealam mo? Kung maka-asta ka, daig mo pa ang asawa, eh!”

Akmang susugurin siya ulit ni Gellian nung tumunog ang malakas na pito ni Coach Austin.
“Mr. Zamora, stop! Is that how a role student should act?”

 

Nagpakawala nang malalim na hininga si Gellian bago binaling ang tingin kay Coach Austin.
“Pero coach, nakita mo naman kung paano bastusin ng lintek na ‘yan yung… k-kaibigan ko,”

“Mr. Delgado is just guiding him! I can’t see anything wrong with that, Mr. Zamora. You’re being overprotective of your friend.”
Coach Austin replied with a mocking tone.

Lumapit ako kay Gellian at hinaplos ang kanyang balikat.
“C-Coach, I’m sorry. My mom asked Gellian to look out for me; that’s why he’s worried. Let me bring Aaron to the clinic to treat him.”
I suggested

Gellian looked at my eyes, trying to send me signals.
“Zein, please wag ka ng sumama sa kanya—”

I cut him off.
“Kaya ko ang sarili ko, Gellian.”

Alam kong pino-protektahan lang ako ni Gellian kaya niya ‘yon nagawa. Since it all happened because of me, I feel obligated to help Aaron. My friends offered some help, but I declined. I don’t want them to get involved in this mess.

“Ugh! Zein, masakit…”
Aaron growled while I was treating his bruised lip.

“Bakit kasi ayaw mo magpagamot sa nurse?! Alam mo namang ‘di ako marunong,”
I sulked, pouting my lips.

I noticed he was looking at my lips, which made me roll my eyes.
“Did someone say that you’re beautiful already?”
Aaron whispered. 

Ibinaba ko ang aking kamay na nakadampi sa kanyang sugat na labi.
“Meron. Si Mommy, si Daddy, si Kyle, si Ezra, si Levi at si… Gellian.”
I uttered while counting them with my fingers.

He held my face, making me focus on him.
“I like you, Z-zein.”
I could feel the hesitation in his voice.

Tumawa ako nang sobrang lakas habang hawak ang aking tiyan.
“I also like myself, Aaron.”

He pinched the bridge of his nose, looking frustrated.
“Sorry, Zein. J-just forget about what I said. You are too young for this.”

“No, I’m not!”
I stood up from my seat to show him my height.
“Why are you all saying I’m young and still a baby? Look, I’m much taller than the other girls in our class.” 

Tumayo rin si Aaron mula sa patient bed at lumakad palapit sa akin.
“Look, I’m much bigger and taller than you. I bet you can’t even surpass my height even if you grow older, Zein.”

Halos umusok na ang ilong ko sa galit.
I gave him a bitter smile while my hands were clenched. Aaron raised his brow, making me bite my lower lip in annoyance. He moved his face closer to my ear, and I felt my chest tighten.

“Gusto mo… ibili kita ng ice cream, baby?”
Aaron teased.

I used all of the anger inside me when I stepped on his shoe, making him growl in pain.
“Mag-ice cream ka mag-isa, I hate you!”
I howled, then walked out of the clinic, leaving him dumbfounded.

It was already the end of class when I saw Gellian with Krisha, our campus girl crush. She’s a cheerleader and one of Gellian’s classmates. I guess they are pretty close since I often saw her following him. I waved at them when they noticed my presence. 

 

“Hi Zein, come here!”
Krisha smiled as she called my name.

Kaagad naman akong lumapit sa kanila nung mapansing wala pa si Mang Noel. Matagal ko ng kilala si Krisha pero hanggang ngayon ay namamangha pa rin ako sa kanyang angking kagandahan. Her face was perfect from all angles. She had a pair of divine eyes, a narrow-shaped nose, and berry-colored lips, which made everyone love her. 

I was shocked when she pulled the arm of Gellian to get him close to her.
“Do you think we… look good together, Zein?”

Gellian centered his gaze on me, waiting for my reply. He just let Krisha caress his arm, and I could feel that he was now pissed off when he heard my answer to Krisha’s question.

“Yeah, you guys look good together.”
I genuinely uttered.

Padabog na inalis ni Gellian ang kamay ni Krisha na naka-angkla sa kanyang braso. A curse went out from his lips before he left the scene. I blinked twice, trying to catch up with what had just happened. Krisha, on the other hand, ran towards Gellian. My hands were clasped while looking at them fading away from my sight. 

It’s already 3 pm and I’m still waiting for Mang Noel to pick me up. I did try to give him a call, but he did not answer it. Kyle, Ezra, and Levi had already left after I declined their offer to drive me home. I felt a pang in my chest because of the loneliness that I’m feeling. I buried my face in my hands and cried silently. I guess Aaron was right; I’m really still a baby. 

“Zein,”
A familiar voice of a guy called me.

Kaagad akong tumingala at kinagat ang aking ibabang labi nung makita si Gellian.
“Here, take this. Please don’t cry. I will stay here with you until your driver picks you up.”
He handed me a strawberry ice cream.

That’s it.

That’s almost the same promise that he made when we were kids and we met for the first time. Gellian bent his knee so he could reach me before he wiped my tears away with his thumb. He’s still my savior whenever I get lost. He’s still my company whenever I feel alone and have no one by my side.

“A-akala ko, umalis ka na. A-akala ko, sumama ka na kay Krisha. Akala ko… iniwan mo na ‘ko.”
I whimpered, almost stuttering with every word.

He cupped my jaw.
“Paano ko magagawang iwan yung taong pinakamahalaga sa ‘kin?”

I closed my fist before I raised my pinky finger.
“P-promise? Hindi mo ako iiwan?”

He nodded his head as he locked my pinky finger with his.
“I promise, Zein. I will never leave you.”

I instantly wrapped my arms around his nape to give him a warm embrace. I heard his deep sigh before he held my waist to deepen the hug. I don’t care about the students who are questionably looking in our direction. This time, I just want someone to hold onto to make me feel calm. And I’m glad that I’m with Gellian more than anyone else.

“Simon, what should we do? How could we tell Zein about this?”
Mom sounds stressed while talking to Dad on her phone.

I cleared my throat to make her notice my presence.
“M-mommy, I’m here.”

Mabilis niyang binaba ang tawag bago sumilip sa kanyang relo.
“Oh, God! I’m sorry, baby. Hindi kita nasundo. How did you get here?” 

I pouted my lips as I let out a heavy sigh.
“Hinatid ako, Gellian—”

“Nasaan si Gellian?!”
I was shocked when she yelled in my face.

 
 

“H-he’s already left,”
I surveyed the whole living room.
“Where are Mang Noel and Nanny Fe, Mommy?”

She held my wrist and guided me to seat on the sofa. I looked at her eyes and saw a glimpse of sorrow. I suddenly felt scared on what she’s about to tell me.

“Manang Fe and Mang Noel already left…”
I blinked twice, trying to get a hold of what I just heard.
“Anak,

we have been keeping this for a long time because we don’t want to affect on your studies…”

My chest tightened when she hugged me.
“Baby, we’re now broke. Your dad’s business went bankrupt and he already spent your savings for college.”
She cried.

After hearing it from my Mom, I could hear the glass shattering in my mind. That’s the secret that my parents have been keeping to themselves for me to not know.

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F.B.I-10

“Baby, don’t forget to call me again once you get off of your class, okay?”
As I was unbuckling my seatbelt, Mom advised me.

I leaned close to give her a kiss on the cheeks.
“Mommy, you already said that for the nth time…”

Kinuha niya ang kanyang purse at binigyan ako ng isang libong piso.
“Baby, you need to eat. Look, you’re so thin.” 

Hindi ko naman tinanggap ang pera na binigay niya.
“No need, Mommy. I still have pocket money of my own. Just… use that to buy important stuff.”

Mom gave me the sweetest smile while her tears were starting to fall from her eyes.
“Hearing those words from you makes me feel proud as your Mommy. Thank you, baby, for being so understanding.”

She combed my hair using her fingers.
“Your dad and I will do anything so you can finish your studies.”

Tumango naman ako bago bumaba ng sasakyan. Wala naman mahalagang gagawin ngayon dahil sportsfest kaya nakasuot lang ako ng white tshirt, loose pants at low top running shoes. Napadaing ako sa sakit nung may mga estudyanteng bumunggo sa ‘kin. Tinungo ko ang gymnasium nung mapansing doon sila papunta.

I grasped my head when I scanned the whole gymnasium, which was filled with a lot of students. They’re making loud cheers while holding different banners of the guys who are close to my heart. I smiled when I saw Gellian and Aaron with their other friends wearing their jerseys.

Bukod kay Gellian at Aaron ay hindi mapagkakaila na may angkin ding kakisigan ang bawat myembro ng kanilang tropa. Starting off with Gabriel Carpio, he’s the oldest among their group. I guess he’s already 18 because he dropped out multiple times due to bullying. He’s a certified bad boy who has a crush on Kyle.

I shook my head in disbelief when I notice the naughtiest member of their squad, Leonard Delos Santos. Tuwing nakikita ko ‘yan parang gusto ko nalang pumikit. Napakayabang! Para siyang kasali sa Acapella.
Acala
niya, sobrang gwapo niya,
Acala
niya lahat may gusto sa kanya. Pero, akala niya lang ‘yon, dahil di naman siya pinapansin ng gusto niyang si Ezra.

Last but not the least, Roque Suarez. The flirtiest guy on our campus. Three exes in a week is the bare minimum of how she changed her girl. Malinaw pa rin sa alaala ko kung paano siya binara ni Levi nung magka-interes siya dito.

“Baby Zein, nandito kami!”
Eskandalosang sigaw ni Levi habang hawak ang kanyang camera. Napatingin naman sa direksyon ko ang ilang estudyante.

I dragged my feet towards the right side of the court where my friends were sitting. Tinanggal naman ni Ezra ang kanyang backpack na nakapatong sa upuan katabi niya. Tinapik niya ang upuan para doon ako umupo.

“Kanina ka pa namin hinihintay. Bakit ngayon ka lang dumating?”
tanong ni Kyle habang winawagayway ang kulay dilaw na lobo.

I scratched my head.
“Late na kasi ako nagising. Ano palang meron?”

“Ghorl, kaka-chat lang namin sa ‘yo kagabi na ngayon yung basketball match ng Sophomores at Seniors,”

Mapang-asar na ani ni Levi.

Ezra smirked.
“Baka mamaya seniors yung suportahan mo, Zein? Tandaan mo, Sophomore tayo.”

“Anong masama kung susuportahan ang mga Seniors? Eh, mas gwapo yung mga players nila,”
Levi whispered.

Tinuon ko nalang ang aking tingin sa mga manlalaro. Kahit hindi ako player ng basketball, alam kong mas magaling ang kampo nila Gellian kumpara sa mga players namin. They were all graduating this year, so I’m expecting that they will do their best to win this game.

I suddenly felt a cringe when I saw Krisha wipe the sweat of Gellian on his forehead even before the game started. She’s wearing her cheerleader uniform, and I don’t need to argue if someone mentioned that she’s here for Gellian since she’s a Senior, too.

“Please, don’t get too close to me!”
Gellian bellowed in the face of Krisha.

His voice echoed throughout the whole gymnasium, which made everyone curious. I know Gellian is short-tempered, but I’m glad that he didn’t show it to me, no matter how slow I am often times. I felt bad for Krisha when I noticed that she cried while walking out of the scene.

Tumayo na ako sa aking upuan para puntahan si Gellian. Napairap nalang ako sa hangin nung marinig ko ang bulungan ng kanyang mga tropa nung makita akong papalapit sa kanila. Aaron gave me an enticing smile, but I didn’t give a respond.

“Hey, Gellian,”
I tapped his back to get his attention.
“Why do have to do that to Krisha?”
I mumbled so no one could hear it.

He didn’t answer; instead he grabbed my hips to make me sit on their team base’s seat. My face flushed when he looked at my eyes with a raged expression. His hands were on my shoulders and I couldn’t move.

“Dito ka lang. Wag mo akong ibibigay sa iba.”
He whispered, with his hoarse voice.

I bit my lower lip as I nodded my head to agree. He held my chin up and gave me a wink. I don’t know what I’m feeling, but my heart was beating so fast when I met his eyes.

“Team, let’s have a quick huddle before the game starts.”
Anunsyo ng coach ng mga seniors.

I was shocked when Gellian threw me his sling bag before he walked towards his friends. Napayuko ako nung makita sila Kyle na inaasar ako sa kanilang mga tingin. Madalas nilang tanungin ang tunay na relasyon namin ni Gellian, at inaamin ko naman na siya’y aking matalik na kaibigan. Perhaps, my friends already knew my real gender because of how soft I am.

Tumindi ang emosyon ng mga manunuod nung magsimula ang laro.
As I expected, Aaron is the point guard. Gabriel is the power forward player, while Leonard is the small forward. The flirty Roque will serve as their center player. I was shocked when I noticed that Gellian was their shooting guard.

Bago lang kasi si Gellian sa basketball. Tanda ko’y last year lang siya nagsimula at nung huling nakita ko siyang maglaro ay hindi pa siya ganun kagaling. I really thought that he would be their center player, but I guess I underestimated his capability. But no matter which spot he’s assigned, I would still be his number one supporter.

“We can do it, Seniors!”

“Sophomores, kaya niyo ‘yan!”

Napuno nang sigawan ang buong court at halos mabingi ako kahit medyo malayo ako sa crowd. Kanya-kanyang cheer sa bawat manlalaro at di magkamayaw sa kakatili ang mga babae nung magsimula ang laban.

I let out a deep sigh when I noticed that the Sophomores were leading the game. I know I should feel relieved since they are at my level, but I just couldn’t when I saw Gellian panting heavily from too much running. Mestiso siya, kaya halata iyon sa pagkamula ng kanyang mukha.

Humabol naman ang Seniors sa second quarter. Naging maganda ang teamwork nila kaya nakahinga ako nang maluwag. Patapos na ang second quarter nung bungguin ng team captain ng Sophomores na si Storm si Aaron, dahilan para matumba ito sa sahig.

“OMG! Aaron!”
most of the female students yelled, feeling worried.

Pumito naman ang referee nung mapansing namimilipit sa sakit si Aaron habang hawak ang kanyang kaliwang paa. The game had to stop for a brief moment because of the accident that happened. The players blocked my sight, so I stood up from my seat to check Aaron’s condition.

I heard a lot of gossip and murmurs from the crowd, but a statement kept resonating in my ears.

“I wonder if Aaron can still participate in Mr. Intrams later…”

 

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🌈💅

F.B.I-11

“Sumali ka na kasi, Gelian…”
I suggested while my arms were wrapped around his biceps.

Tumigil siya sa paglalakad nung makarating kami sa mini-garden ng campus.
“Ayoko. Kahit anong pagpapa-cute mo, Zein, hindi ako sasali.”

I pouted my lips upon hearing him. I hurriedly removed my arms and crossed them over my chest.
“Siguro kaya ayaw mong sumali kasi natatakot kang matalo ulit kagaya sa basketball…”

Tumaas ang sulok ng kanyang labi, wari’y di makapaniwala sa ‘kin.
“Ako? Matatakot?

H-hindi ako takot.

Ayoko lang talaga sumali.”

I chuckled when I saw his face flushed. I could tell he was scared no matter how hard he tried to deny it. I’ve known him for almost ten years, so I can easily read his mind.

“You must step out of your comfort zone, Gellian. Believe me if I say that you have all the qualities of Mr. Intrams.”
I stated the fact.

He wiggled his brows to tease me.
“Talaga? Then, tell me all the good qualities that I have to make me believe you…”

I held my chin and fully surveyed his face, down to his feet.
“Well… you’re smart, good looking, and you are also tall like Aaron—”

“Stop!”
Gellian put his index finger to my lips to cut me off.
“Aaron, na naman? Please, Zein, don’t compare me to him. Ayokong naririnig yung pangalan niya kapag magkausap tayo,”
He pleaded before he retracted his hand from me.

“Nagseselos ka ba kay Aaron?”
I casually asked, almost a whisper.

 Gellian’s lips parted in shock.
“K-kanino mo naman nalaman ‘yan?”

“Sabi ng mga friends ko…”

He tsked.
“Bakit naman ako magseselos dun? Ako naman yung mas… mahalaga sa ‘yo di ‘ba?”

His face looked worried, which made me chuckle in my mind. I’m not sure where he’s getting those thoughts, but it’s making him possessive for some reason. My heart can’t take seeing him doubting his worth to me.

Hindi ako nakasagot ng ilang minuto, dahilan para tumalikod siya at lumakad palayo. I ran as fast as I could to follow him when I noticed that he was now sulking. I gave him a tight hug from behind when I finally reached him, hoping it would subdue his anger.

“You’re more important in my heart than anyone else, Gellian.”
I mumbled.

He held my hands that were snaked around his waist.
“I like you,”
He uttered it in a very soft voice.

“Ano?”
Because of the loud noises around us, I wasn’t able to hear him. 

Bumuntong hininga siya.
“Oo na, pumapayag na ako, pero sa isang kondisyon…”

I excitedly squealed.
“Talaga?! Sige, anong kondisyon?”

Nakabusangot ang aking mukha habang kinakabit nila Levi ang belo sa buhok ko. Sinasabi ko na nga ba’t hindi magiging maganda ang kondisyon ni Gellian dahil gusto niya kaming ikasal sa marriage booth. He really likes to tease me a lot. 

“OMG! Ang ganda mo, Zein!”
Ezra bluffed after he did my make-up.

Kyle gasped while unzipping the gown at my back. ”
I really hope Gellian won’t lose his sanity.”

Pinagmamasdan ko ang aking sarili sa vanity mirror nung matapos nila akong ayusan. I’m wearing a fancy bride summer dress with a floral crown veil on my head. Mommy would probably burst out laughing if she saw me like this.

My eyes twinkled upon seeing Gellian wearing a white silk tuxedo when I went out of the small tent. He bit his lower lip as he surveyed me as a whole. Kaagad akong napakapit sa kanyang balikat nung matapilok ako sa taas ng heels na pinasuot sa akin nila Kyle.

He slowly wrapped his arms around my waist, making me blush from shyness.
“You’re making it hard for me to unlove—”

The operator of the wedding booth called our attention, causing Gellian to pause on what he was saying.
“Next, we have Gellian Zamora and Zein Garcia!”

Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at inalalayan palapit sa wedding booth. Napairap ako nung makita sila Levi na umaktong kinikilig sa amin ni Gellian. Bakas rin ang pagkabigla sa mukha ng ilang estudyante na wari mo’y nagseselos ang mga tingin.

I was holding a “HAPPY TOGETHER!” flash card while Gellian picked the “HE’S MINE.” prop. Gellian rested his chin on my left shoulder, leaning against my back as the operator who was assigned to take pictures started to count. 

The operator cleared his throat.
“One, two, three, happy marriage!”

Pakiramdam ko’y tumigil ang aking mundo nung maramdaman kong dumampi ang labi ni Gellian sa aking pisngi. My lips parted in shock when the camera flashed on our faces. I would probably look like I had seen a ghost in that picture.

“Waaaaaaaaaa!!!”
sigaw nila Kyle at Ezra habang naghahampasan. Si Levi naman ay patuloy sa pagkuha ng litrato habang mapang-asar ang kanyang ngisi.

I just shook my head, couldn’t contain their reaction. Niyaya rin nila Gabriel, Leonard at Roque ang mga kaibigan ko sa wedding booth, dahilan para ako naman ang kiligin sa kanila.

“Subukan mong humalik kagaya ni Gellian, uupakan talaga kita!”
pagbabanta ni Kyle kay Gabriel bago sila kuhanan ng litrato.

Gab pursed his lips.
“Ang daming gustong humalik sa ‘kin, tapos ikaw ayaw mo?”

Levi intruded.
“Gab, wag mong subukan halikan yung kaibigan ko, kung ayaw mong ‘yon na rin ang huli mong halik.”

Roque snuck a kiss on Levi’s cheeks.
“Ako, Levi, okay lang na ikaw yung huli kong kiss.”
He blurted out before he ran to not let Levi catch him. 

“Ako, Ezra, ‘di mo ba ako iki-kiss?”
Leonard bent down and pouted his lips in front of Ezra.

Ezra took off the veil on his head and used it to clip the lips of Leonard, making him groan in pain.
“My lips cost a million, so better save first, Mr. Delos Santos.”

Sumali kami sa iba’t-ibang palaro ng bawat organization kaya’t pakiramdam ko’y pagod na ako nung sumapit ang hapon. Kasalukuyan akong naghihintay kay Gellian na nasa loob ng cubicle habang nagpapalit siya ng damit. It’s a good thing that Aaron and Gellian had the same height and body figure, so the clothes should fit them both. I was starting to lose my patience when Gellian opened the door of the cubicle.

“Z-zein, nasira yung zipper ng pantalon,”
He uttered while covering his crotch without nothing on top.

“Let me check.”
I sighed before I got on my knees to check it. I removed his hands and tried to zip it up, but it was still unsuccessful.

I turned my face up when I heard him sigh. His face looks flushed and he’s panting heavily while looking at my hands on his pants. Gellian held a tight grip on my shoulder and guided me inside of the cubicle with him before the boy students made an entrance into the restroom. 

He pursed my lips, asking me to be quiet. Gellian was too close to me to the point that I could even hear his heart beat, smell his mint scent, and see every little detail of his charming face. He’s looking intently into my eyes while his hands are on my hips, pulling me closer to him.

I gave him a smile before travelled my hands on the zipper of his pants to stop the awkward sensation. Napaawang ang aking labi nung maramdamang may kung anong matigas akong nakapa sa kanyang pantalon. Akmang itutuon ko doon ang aking tingin nung magsalita si Gellian.

”
Z-zein, I think the… students are gone.”
He said in his deep voice.

 

Kinakabahan akong tumango.
“Y-yeah, I think we have to go, Gellian. T-the competition should be about to start by now.” 

Nauna na ako kay Gellian pumunta sa auditorium. Hindi nakakagulat na halos puno na ang lahat ng upuan dahil nandito ang lahat ng estudyante. Kumaway sa direksyon ko si Kyle kaya nakangiti akong lumapit sa kanila.

“Baby Zein, where’s Gellian?”
asar ni Levi sa akin habang tutok ang mata sa lens ng camera.

I sat in the front seat they had reserved for me.
“He’s coming in a bit. Is it starting already?”

 

“Not yet, baby.”
rinig kong ani ng lalaki na nasa likod ng upuan ko.

Naparolyo ako ng mata nung makita si Aaron. Mukhang malala nga ang naging injury niya dahil may benda ang kanyang kaliwang paa. Katabi niya syempre ang tatlong asungot na sila Gabriel, Leonard at Roque na may hawak na banner para kay Gellian.

They are one of the cutest squads on the whole campus. I wonder if my friends would also like the idea if I named our squad the

Rainbow Squad.

 

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🌈💅

F.B.I-12

Naghiyawan ang mga tao nung lumabas sa backstage ang mga kalahok. I covered my ears since their screams were piercing and it was making my head hurt. The theme of this competition is about ecosystem inspired look, so all of the participants are wearing recycled clothings.

I cast my eyes on all of the participants and was shocked when I saw Gellian, looking so fine with his transparent plastic shirt, which makes his well-defined body slightly exposed. Mayroon siyang kapa sa likod na mula sa magazine at bumagay iyon sa suot niyang pantalon na gawa naman sa mga strip papers na may kulay asul, pula dilaw, at puti. Watawat ang sagisag nito.

“You can do it, Gellian!”
sigaw ko mula sa front seat nung magsimula ang question and answer portion.

Napansin ko kasing nanginginig ang kamay niya. Gellian’s face looks florid, and his jaw is clenched. I can easily read that he’s nervous. Seeing him being shy makes me remember those golden days when we were young. He’s always been a shy kid, and I’m the one encouraging him to be strong. 

Binigyan naman niya ako nang matamis na ngiti. Magagaling ang mga naunang kalahok pero may tiwala akong kaya itong ipanalo ni Gellian. He’s always been hesitant to cross his comfort zone, but he never considered defeat. Gellian always gives his best in everything he does.

Mr. Velasquez, who is our principal, cleared his throat before uttering the question on the microphone. He’s undeniably strict, so a lot of us are not fond of him. I never left my sight on Gellian as he swallowed the lump in his throat. 

“Paano magmahal ang isang Gellian Ross Zamora?”
Mr. Velasquez asked in a monotone.

The side lips of Gellian rose up upon hearing the question. I was stunned when he centered his gaze on me. His eyes speak a lot of emotions. My whole system gets confused after hearing his answer.

“A-ang pagmamahal ko… ay dalisay gaya ng alon sa karagatan. Kahit anong ulos ay hindi ito matitinag…”
He sounds so genuine, and it’s making my heart warm.

He’s finally in love! I wonder who is the lucky girl whom he loves. Gellian had never told me about his crush before, so I couldn’t help but to feel curious. 

“Hindi ko inaasam na tanggapin ng mahal ko ang aking pag-ibig… at handa akong maging tapat dahil sa puso ko’y siya lang ang sapat.”
He wiped his tears with his back hand when they rolled over his cheeks. 

Napatayo sa kanilang upuan sila Gabriel, Roque at Leonard at masayang pumalakpak. Tumayo na rin kami nila Kyle kasabay ng maingay na hiyaw ng mga estudyante. That heartwarming answer from Gellian made him the Mr. Instram of this year.

I was on my toes when I gave Gellian a tight hug after he went down the stage. I’m super proud, which makes me not care about the people looking at us. Bumitaw naman ako agad nung magsalita ang isang lalaking may baritong boses.

“Mr. Zamora, I’m Mr. Alvarez from Versace Modelling PH.”
The man gave his business card to Gellian.

Gellian wiped his hand on his pants before accepting the card.
“Nice to meet you, sir.”

“I just want to ask if you consider being a model or a celebrity. I’m actually here to look for aspiring students who can be our future superstars.”
Mr. Alvarez explained.

Gellian shook his head.
“I’m sorry, sir, but I’m not interested in getting into showbiz.”

Mr. Alvarez nodded and advised Gellian to give him a call if he changed his mind. I didn’t try to persuade Gellian since I didn’t want to cross my line. He’s much older than me, so he must be aware of what he’s dreaming for his future. Nonetheless, I’m willing to give him my full support.

I was buckling my seatbelt inside my mom’s car when I heard a soft knock from the window. I bit my lower lip upon seeing Gellian. Kaagad naman akong nagpaalam kay Mommy para bumaba saglit.

“P-para sa ‘yo, Zein…”
He rubbed his nape after handing me the trophy that he won in the competition.

I pointed at myself, feeling confused.
“B-bakit sa ‘kin mo binibigay? You should g-give this to your… special someone,”
I was almost stuttering with every word, while returning his achievement.

“I’m giving that to you because you are special to me, Zein. I don’t have anyone else in my heart… but you.”
He sincerely mumbled.

I avoided his gaze when I felt it piercing through my soul. I couldn’t utter a word, his statement was not clear to me. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa golden trophy nung bumukas ang headlight ng kotse ni Mom at maaninag ko ang malungkot na mukha ni Gellian.

“Gellian, kindly tell your mom that we will visit by tomorrow night. I miss Cecil already!”
Mom squealed with delight.

Gellian raised his brows.
“Makakarating po, tita.”
He averted his gaze at me.
“Zein, makakasama ka… ‘di ba?”

My lips stretched upon giving him a sweet smile.
“Oo naman! See you again…”

Nakahiga ako sa aking kama at maraming bumabagabag sa aking isip. Hindi pa rin maalis sa utak ko kung ano ang ibig sabihin ni Gellian nung bigla akong makatanggap ng tawag. Kaagad akong tumayo nung makitang pangalan iyon ni Levi.

“Hey ghorl, ano ng status niyo ni Gellian?”
mapang-asar na ani ni Levi.

My forehead creased.
“S-status? What do you mean, Levi?”

“Huh? Hindi niya pa rin ba nasabi yung feelings niya?”

I nodded even though he can’t see me.

“Ahhh… is this about his crush? Yeah, he didn’t say it to me. I guess he’s too shy to tell me who the girl he admires—”

Levi chuckled hysterically, making me stop speaking.
“Girl? Alam mo Zein, ang manhid mo! Bahala na nga. Basta update mo ako ‘pag sinabi niya na, ah? Bigyan kita ng tips.”

Napakamot ako ng ulo nung ibaba ni Levi ang tawag. I sat on the edge of my bed while scrolling through my feeds on my social media accounts. I felt relieved upon checking all of the photos and some clips that Levi had uploaded, but the ecstasy faded in the blink of an eye when I saw the recent post by Gellian.

@zamora.gellian4

:

See you again, my little dumbhead<3

That’s the caption of his post on our wedding booth picture. I was laughing in my mind upon seeing my wide eyes when Gellian kissed me on the cheek. I put my left hand on my chest after I felt my heart beating so fast. Parang itong nakikipag-karera sa sobrang bilis. Pinilit ko nalang matulog para humupa ang aking nararamdaman.

“Cecil, I missed you!”
masayang bati ni Mommy nung makapasok kami sa mansyon ng Zamora.

Aunt Cecil hugged my mom and caressed her back.
“Me too. I thought you wouldn’t pay me a visit.”

Nauna na akong pumasok sa living room nung bumati si Dad kay Tito Allen. Ayoko namang mainip habang pinakikinggan ang kanilang kamustahan. I’ve been roaming around their mansion since even when I was a kid, I still get lost often. Their mansion is bigger than ours, so that could be the reason why I’m still not familiar with every corner and room of their villa.

Maingat ang aking bawat hakbang habang papalapit sa kwarto ni Gellian. It’s 8 pm, so I thought he was still awake, but I sighed when I saw him lying on his bed. His deep snores reverberate throughout the room. I sat on his side as I combed his soft hair with my fingers. He’s such a baby when he’s sleeping.

I flinched when he wrapped his arms around my waist.
“Zein?”

“Hmmm?”
I hummed.

He bit his lower lip before he uttered his words.
“I… love you.”

Dugdug! Dugdug!

Napakalakas ng tibok ng puso ko. Para iyong kuryente sa dumaloy sa aking buong katawan sa siyang dahilan ng paninikip ng aking dibdib. This is the first time I’ve felt this way. I’m insanely excited, overwhelmed, and a little bit nervous.

What’s the meaning of this feeling?!

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🌈💅

F.B.I-13

Gellian and I were eating silently as our parents talked about their business. I guess it’s part of their pride to share their achievements and success with one another, which makes them superior. I’d rather play with my toys at home than listen to them brag to each other.

 

“If you need my help, you can say it now, Simon.”
prankang ani ni Tito Allen kay Dad nung matapos kaming kumain.

My mom handed the orange juice to dad when he coughed.
”

I’m fine, Allen. We’re doing our best to handle the situation—”

Hindi siya pinatapos ni Tito Allen nung tumawa ito nang pabiro.
”

How should the situation be handled? You’re now broke as hell since your investments are all failures. What do you think will happen to your son’s future right here?”
He pointed at me.

Aunt Cecil slammed the dining table really hard.
“Allen, stop! The kids are here, and it’s not the best time to talk about this stuff.”

Gellian held my hand under the table. He probably noticed how I was trying to resist the urge to cry. I felt bad for my parents. They don’t deserve this. They might be lacking in giving me attention, but I know how much they care.

“Why?”
Uncle Allen’s shoulders shrugged.
“I’m just telling the truth, honey. They shouldn’t be hiding this from their only child, especially now that I found out that they were trying to beg for the other companies to invest in their one last resort—” 

Mom disrespectfully stood up from her seat, which made Uncle Allen pause.
“I’m sorry, but we have to go. M-my child needs to sleep early due to his class tomorrow. Let’s chat again next time, Cecil.

Kaagad akong tumayo nung hawakan ni Mom ang palapulsuhan ko. Sumunod naman si Dad palabas ng mansyon ng mga Zamora. Binaling ko ang aking tingin pabalik bago ako sumakay ng kotse nung marinig ko ang sigaw ni Tito Allen.

“Gellian!”
hiyaw niya nung makitang sumusunod sa amin ang kanyang anak.

Gellian was breathing raggedly.
“D-dad, k-kailangan ako ni Zein.”

Bakas ang pag-aalala sa mukha ni Tita Cecil habang pinagmamasdan ang kanyang anak. She’s trying to send signals to Gellian to obey his dad. Uncle Allen is known for being stern when it comes to his family and work, so I understand how she feels.

“Son, just… stay here. Zein is gonna be okay.”
awa ang siyang namayani kay Tita Cecil.

I saw him whimpering and it broke my heart. I rarely see him cry, so it’s breaking my heart to see him like this. Gellian had such a contagious smile, but he also had the most pitiful face whenever he was sad.

“G-gellian, I’m… fine.”
I lied to stop him from following us.
“S

ee you tomorrow…”
is what I said before I went inside my dad’s car.

Maaga naman akong nagising kinabukasan para mag-prepare. Hindi ako masyadong nakatulog kagabi kaya umpisa pa lang ng araw ay pagod na ako agad. Hanggang ngayon ay bumabagabag sa akin ang sinabi ni Tito Allen tungkol sa kalagayan ng aming resort.

I sat on the vanity chair as I talked to myself in the mirror.
“Should I stop studying? I should help my parents, right? But how? I’m only 14 and I haven’t yet graduated from highschool.”

 I shrugged when I heard my phone ding on top of the side table. I let out a deep sigh, feeling confused upon seeing the message from Kyle to our group chat.  

GC Name: BesTea’s forever<3

@kyle.ateniano:

Zein, dito ka na sa likod ng school pumasok kapag nakarating ka na. We have already reserved your seat.

@levi_sullivan:

I agree with Kyle. Kasama mo ba si Gellian, @zein-garcia?

Me:

Wait, what’s happening? Is there something wrong?(˘･_･˘)

@ezra.g.carson:

Don’t feel nervous. We are here to protect you, our baby Zein.

I went down to our living room with a heavy heart. I was fully prepared to go to school when I noticed I was the only one in our mansion. Loneliness enveloped me as I grabbed the small note with a thousand peso bill on the center table. 

 
Baby, we just need to deal with urgent business. I’m sorry if we can’t take you to school, but I promise I’ll pick you up later. I hope you understand. Dad and I love you, our little sweetheart.

    -Mom

Sumakay nalang ako ng taxi papuntang Ravenwood University. Looking at the driver in front of me, I suddenly missed Mang Noel. I was praying every night for their safety too, just like my family. Nanny Fe and Mang Noel are much older than my parents, so they’re prone to sickness, and that’s what I’m afraid will happen. 

I tensely clasped my hand when someone threw a piecake on my face right after I made an entrance from the back gate. I was stuck and I couldn’t move my body. This is not how I expected my day to start. 

“Oops! Sorry…”
I heard a girl sarcastically utter.

Pinunasan ko naman ang aking mukha at nabigla nung makita ko kung sino ang aking kaharap. I really thought that I wouldn’t be seeing them after the comfort room incident a year ago. These three girls had become mature, and their fancy headbands have never left them ever since. 

The chubby girl on the left side hit the arm of their so-called leader playfully.

“Grabe ka naman, Cindy. Bakit mo naman ginawa ‘yon? Kawawa naman yung bata.”

Cindy sighed.
“Kawawa? Alam mo ba kung paano ako binalewala ni Gellian? At kung paano ako ipahiya ni Levi, na kaibigan na rin nito ngayon!”
She yelled while pointing her finger at me.

Kagat ko ang aking labi habang pinagmamasdan ang madumi kong uniporme. Ang dami ko ng problema at ayoko ng madagdagan pa. I don’t want to fight. I want to fix everything as best as I can. If I need to swallow my pride, then I’m more than willing to do so.

“A-ano po bang problema niyo?”
mahinahon kong tanong.

All three of them laughed. The thin girl on the right with red lipstick answered.
“Ikaw! Ikaw yung problema namin! As far as I know, all of the students here are coming from corporate families. Sadly, you’re not anymore…”

Cindy grabbed my collar and pushed me hard against the wall. Due to the sudden shock, my body seems to just contain the pain. I roved my eyes around, but I couldn’t see anyone else aside from us. 

“I couldn’t take the audacity of your dad to rob us of big bucks of money!”
Cindy cupped my jaw to make me focus on her.
”

I bet your great dad is now hiding because of his plenty of debts, so if I were you, I would plead with him to surrender himself to the cops.”

“Cindy, stop!”

Bahagya akong lumingon sa pinanggalingan ng boses at napanatag nung makita si Gellian kasama sila Kyle. Napasinghap si Cindy bago siya humakbang palayo pero huli na ang lahat nang buong lakas siyang itulak ni Levi.

“Di ba sinabi ko sa inyo, na kahit anong mangyari ay wag niyong papatulan ang kahit sino sa mga kaibigan ko?!”
Levi said in a mocking tone.

Lumapit sa akin sila Kyle at pinunasan ang aking mukha. Masama man ang ginawa nila Cindy sa ‘kin, ay nakaramdam pa rin ako ng awa nung makita ko silang tatlo na nanginginig sa takot dahil kay Levi.

“L-levi, kasalanan naman kasi ‘to ng dad niya. Their whole family are fraudsters and they should go to jail–”

Ezra slapped the face of Cindy to cut her off.
“Tito Simon is not a fraud. He just borrowed the money, but he’ll definitely pay it back. Now tell me how much he borrowed from you all and I’ll pay for it to shut you up!”

“Ezra, I think t-that’s enough. This is my fault and… I couldn’t blame anyone else.”
I wiped my tears before they rolled down my cheeks as I bowed my head to them.
“My parents will pay you guys back soon. I’m really sorry for this inconvenience.”

I screamed in surprise when Gellian carried me on his back, not minding how dirty I looked. He sent a signal to my friends before he walked carefully. I’m sobbing while my arms are wrapped around his neck for support. 

“Look, magkasama na naman sila.”

“If I were Gellian, I wouldn’t lower myself to bond with that… kid.”

“My mom said that their resort would be sold soon. I guess it’s time for him to pack up and leave our school.”

Bulungan iyon ng mga estudyanteng nakatingin sa akin. Bawat salita ay wari mo’y direktang sumasaksak sa aking puso. Tinago ko ang aking mukha sa likod ni Gellian sa sobrang hiya. Mas lalong binilisan ni Gellian ang paglalakad nung humagulgol na ako nang tuluyan.

“Zein, kaya mo pa bang… pumasok sa klase?”
Gellian asked worriedly after I changed my uniform, which he let me borrow.

“Oo naman,”
I bravely said while wiping the my neck using my handkerchief.

Tumingala ako nang marahan sa harap ng salamin para masiguro kong walang matirang dumi mula sa pie kanina. I noticed Gellian looking away while I was cleaning myself, which made me curious. He seems like he’s thinking very deeply. His brows are furrowed and his forehead is creased.

“Are you okay, Gellian?”
I asked as I got close to him.

 

His mouth formed an “o” shape.
“Huh? Y-yes. Susunduin kita sa room mo mamaya. Hintayin mo ‘ko, please.”
pag-iiba niya ng usapan.

I just raised my brows twice to let him know I agree. Pagpasok ko sa loob ng klase ay hindi na ako nabigla sa mapanuring titig ng aking mga kaklase. Wala mang lumalabas na salita sa kanilang mga bibig ay batid kong marami silang nais iparating sa akin. Umupo nalang ako sa tabi nila Kyle matapos humingi ng tawad sa aming guro dahil huli na akong nakarating.

I badly want this nightmare to stop.

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F.B.I-14

Gellian went out of the fitting room wearing a black Italian tuxedo. I surveyed him from head to toe and shook my head. I pouted my lips before I said my non-bias opinion.

“Uhmmm… next?”

Bumaba ang kanyang balikat sa pagkadismaya.
“Next na naman? Kanina pa ako nagpapalit, Zein. Baka gusto mong… wag na ako magsuot ng damit?”

I chuckled and let him hear it.
“Hindi naman sa ganon. Ayoko lang talaga ng dark colors. You know naman na I prefer something bright and colorful stuffs.”

He nodded his head.
“Okay, I’ll wear bright colors from now on.”

“No! Don’t change your style. Baka magalit sa ‘kin yung mga admirers mo,”
Kinakabahan kong ani.

Gellian murmured something before he grabbed a new set of suits and went inside the fitting room for the nth time. Alam kong maiksi ang kanyang pasensya pero hindi niya ako tinaasan ng boses kailanman.

I think the time stopped upon seeing him wearing a tailor-made burgundy and white slim-fit tuxedo. It matches his light complexion and his pleasant face. I stood up from my seat to give him a clap. 

“Ang gwapo mo,”
I blurted.

Gellian winked at me.
“Talaga?”

“Yes, sir! Naku! Napakagwapo niyo!”
Sabat ng sales lady sa di kalayuan.

I smiled at the lady when she walked towards our direction.
“Miss, bibilhin na po namin ito.”

“Huh? Z-zein, wala akong d-dalang pera.”
Gellian mumbled nervously. 

I tapped his shoulder.
“Don’t worry, Nag-ipon talaga ako para dito. Syempre, gusto kong… ikaw yung pinakapogi sa darating na JS Prom.”

“Matagal pa naman ‘yon–”

I cut him off.
“Gusto mo magtampo ako sa ‘yo? I got this, Gellian. Para namang hindi tayo magkaibigan?”

He must be worried because of our resort’s issue, but I already saved money for his JS Prom. This is his last year in high school, so I want to buy him a gift. God knows how much I forced myself to stop buying expensive stuff during the process.

“Gellian! Wait!”
I hit his arm in annoyance.
“Ang daya mo! Sabi mo ‘di ka magaling?”

He put down his toy gun and rubbed his arm that I hit. 
“Wala kong sinabing hindi ako magaling, Zein.”

Nandito kami sa Arcade at naglalaro ng shooting game. Kanina ko pa kasi napapansing lagi niyang natatalo yung score ko kaya naurat na ako. My competitive self is on again.

I rolled my eyes and just focused on my target. I bit the inside of my cheeks when Gellian guided my hands to shoot the target from my behind. He was so close, and I could feel his face on my nape. My heart started to beat at a fast pace.

“Paano nalang kung… wala ako?”
He whispered.

I cleared my throat, now starting to shoot the target.
“Hindi mo naman ako iiwan, eh.”

Napatalon ako sa tuwa nung malapagpasan ko ang score ni Gellian. Kaagad ko siyang niyakap nang mahigpit. Ang saya’y napalitan ng hiya nung makita kong marami na palang nakatingin sa amin. Ang ilan ay masaya habang ang iba’y bakas ang pagkadismaya.

“Mainit ba? I’m sorry, Zein. Dapat sa taxi nalang tayo sumakay.”
Gellian whispered to my ears, sounding apologetic.

I gave him a sweet smile.
“No, I’m okay. Don’t say sorry, Gellian.”

Ito ang unang beses na sumakay ako ng jeepney, kaya sobrang memorable. Wala na din kasi kaming pambayad sa taxi kung doon pa kami sasakay. My parents are very strict when it comes to my health and surroundings, but I don’t mind trying new things as long as I’m with Gellian. I am assured that he will take care of my safety.

Puno na ang jeep nung pumasok ang isang matandang babae na may dalang groceries. Siksikan na kami sa loob kaya walang pag-aalinlangan akong umupo sa hita ni Gellian. Ngumiti naman sa akin ang ale.

“Dito na po kayo umupo,”
I willingly offered my seat to the old lady.

She nodded and took a seat next to Gellian. The driver began to drive without notice, which made me startled. I unintentionally wrapped my arms around Gellian’s nape so I wouldn’t fall.

Gellian bit his lower lip before he held my waist for support. Our faces were only a few inches apart and I could smell the mint scent from his breath as he continued to gasp for air. Napakapula ng kanyang mukha na wari mo’y inaapoy sa lagnat.

“I think you’re the one who’s not okay, Gellian. Are you sick? Do you feel dizzy?”
I mumbled.

He swallowed a lump in his throat.
“I’m o-okay, Zein. It’s just… you are too close to me.” 

“Oh, should I… sit on the floor?”

His voice thundered.
“No! J-just sit on me.”

Napalingon sa gawi namin ang ilang pasahero sa lakas ng boses ni Gellian. I gave them a peace sign and smiled awkwardly. Gellian hugged my waist while his face was burried on my back. He looks so shy, well…the feeling is mutual.

“Manong, para po! Dito nalang po kami.”
mariing ani ni Gellian sa manong sa harap.

Napakahirap palang bumaba sa jeepney! Kailangang pang yumuko at magpasintabi sa mga umuupo na akala mo’y hari at reyna sa kanilang mga trono. I covered my mouth in surprise when I finally dropped of the jeepney.

This place!

This is where Gellian and I met when we were kids. I get teary-eyed upon seeing a lot of kids playing on the sand. This park was still the same, aside from the small houses around it that are now built after years have passed. Reminiscing that moment, I couldn’t help but to sob.

“Z-zein, what’s wrong?”
Gellian cupped my face and wiped my tears with his thumb.

“Wala. M-may… naalala lang ako.”

“Ako rin,”
He wryly smiled.

Nilapag namin ang aming bag at ilang pinamili sa buhanginan bago umupo sa swing. Nakatulala ako sa ulap habang nilalasap ang sariwang hangin, maging ang malalakas na hagikgik ng mga batang masiglang naglalaro. I badly want to visit this place again, but I’m not good with directions and I’m sure my parents will forbid me. 

Gellian broke the silence.
“Kunwari, isa akong Genie tapos meron kang isang wish, anong gusto mong hilingin, Zein?”

I pouted my lips as I darted my gaze at him.
“Isa lang? ‘Di ba dapat… tatlo ‘yon?”

He smirked.
“Isa lang kaya ko. Kahit ano, basta wag pera. Nagtitipid ako ngayon, eh.”

I sighed, trying to think of the best wish.
“Gusto kong matapos na yung problema ng parents ko. I feel pity for them. If I could just work to help them out, I wouldn’t hesitate to do it, but I can’t.”

He slowly nodded his head
“Okay,”

“Anong okay? Wag mo sabihing… kaya mong tuparin ‘yon?”
Di makapaniwala kong tanong.

Tumayo siya mula sa swing at lumakad palayo. My brows furrowed in a snap while looking at him leaving me behind. I abruptly stood up as well and shouted his name.

“Gellian!”
I bit my lower lip as he turned his head in my direction.
“S-saan ka… pupunta?”

“Babalikan kita, Zein! May bibilhin lang ako.”
He waved his hands and turned his back to me.

Staying in this park alone for a long time made me remember how scared I was before. It’s giving me the same feelings as when Nanny Fe left me alone for a while. I tightly gripped the swing’s chain, hoping for Gellian to come back.

Hindi niya naman ako… iiwan di ‘ba?

I wiped my tears hurriedly when I finally saw him going back. My heart throbbed upon seeing him holding a strawberry ice cream while smiling at me. The rays of the orange sunset make the moment more ethereal as he gets closer.

“You’re such a baby, Zein.”
He mocked before he handed me the melted ice cream in his hand.

 

I tsked.
“Akala ko kasi… ‘di ka na babalik.”

“P-paano kung… hindi nga ako bumalik? Maghihintay ka pa rin ba?”
Gellian sincerely asked.

“Malamang! Sabi mo babalik ka, eh.”

Pakiramdam ko’y bumalik ako sa pagkabata matapos naming maglaro ni Gellian buong hapon. Grabe! Sobrang saya at panandalian kong nalimutan ang problema. My dad called me earlier, saying that he would pick me up. Gellian and I were sitting on a wooden bench as we looked at the kids slowly leaving the park.

 

“Anak!”
malakas na tawag sa ‘kin ni Dad nung bumaba siya ng kotse, di kalayuan mula sa amin.

“Gellian, let’s go? You want us to… drive you home?”
I offered when I finally wore my bag.

He shrugged. ”
Hindi na, Zein. My dad will pick me up too. You can now… go.”

“O-okay,”
iyon nalang ang naging sagot ko.

I bid my goodbye to him before I walked towards my dad’s car. I was walking on my feet at a slow pace, waiting for Gellian to say goodbye, but he didn’t. A glimpse of hope came back to me when he shouted my name.

 

“Zein! M-mag-iingat ka!”
His voice broke.

I gasped.
“Ikaw din, Mr. Sleepyhead.”
I murmured before I sat down in the shotgun seat of my dad’s car.

 

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🌈💅

F.B.I-15

“Anak, bumangon ka na.”

Minulat ko ang aking mga mata nung marinig ang pamilyar na boses. Napaupo ako nang masilayan ang mukha ni Nanny Fe na siyang gumising sa ‘kin. Dali-dali ko siyang niyakap. I miss her so much that it makes me feel emotional.

“N-nanny, a-akala ko po… h-hindi ka na po babalik,”
I said between sobs.

She caressed my back.
“Maari ba namang hindi ko balikan ang tinuturing kong anak? Bumangon ka na’t papasok ka pa.”

I wiped my tears streaming down to my face. Hinalikan ko siya sa pisngi bago ako pumasok ng banyo para maligo. I was already wearing my uniform when I went down to our living room.

“Zein! Kumusta, anak? Tumangkad ka, ah?”

I was jumping for joy when I saw Mang Noel sitting with my parents at the dining table while eating their breakfast. I sat beside Mang Noel enthusiastically. I greeted my parents and said “Good Morning” before I looked at Mang Noel, who was wearing his full suit uniform.

“Hindi naman ako tumangkad, Mang Noel, eh. Ihahatid mo na po ba ako… ulit?”
Pag-iiba ko ng usapan.

My dad put a pancake on my plate.
“Oo, anak. Hindi na ulit aalis sila Nanny Fe and Mang Noel para di ka na umiyak tuwing gabi.”

“Dad! Aasarin na naman po ako nina Nanny Fe na

baby,

”
My mouth was hanging wide open from the sudden embarrassment.

Mom chuckled.
“That’s fine, anak. You’re still a baby, so no need to be shy, right Mang Noel and Manang Fe?”

“Oo naman. May pasalubong nga kaming rubber duckies para sa

baby

nating lahat na si Zein,”
Pang-aasar ni Mang Noel.

Napapangiwi nalang ako habang pinapakinggan sila. Mabuti’t maganda ang gising ko kaya’t hindi na ako sumabat. Hindi mawala ang ngiti sa aking labi habang pinagmamasdan si Mang Noel na nagmamaneho nang muli ng aming van. Ang iba naming sasakyan ay naibenta na ni Dad noong nakaraang linggo kaya’t ito nalang ang natira maliban sa kotse nila ni Mom.

“Gellia–”

Napatigil ako nung makitang nakahawak sa kamay niya si Krisha pagbaba ko ng van. Marahil ay hindi niya ako narinig dahil malayo sila sa akin at napakaraming estudyante sa paligid. Nagpaalam naman ako kay Mang Noel bago naglakad papunta sa aking klase.

I was surprised that my classmates didn’t badmouth me like last week. Some of them avoided my gaze, and the others apologized for their rude behavior from last time. I just smiled at them awkwardly before I sat beside Ezra and Kyle.

“Mabuti naman at natigil na ang tsismis,”
Kyle facepalmed while writing his notes.

Ezra nodded.
“We’re so happy that the issue has been resolved, Zein.”

They abruptly hugged me, which made me shrug. I just tapped their arms when I noticed our classmates were looking at us questionably. I’m so grateful that all of my friends are with me during my hardest time.

“Hindi ka ba sasabay sa ‘min, Zein?”
tanong ni Kyle nung oras ng recess.

Ezra put his things in his bag.
“You’ll go with Gellian, right?”

I pouted my lips before I raised my brows twice.
“I need to thank him personally.”

Napag-alaman kong nag-invest sa resort namin si Tito Allen at nagpahiram pa ito nang malaking halaga. That could be the reason why Mang Noel and Manang Fe came back. Our debt rumors have also stopped spreading. Somehow, it made my heart calm with the sudden escape from anxiety.

“Oh, Zein! Anong ginagawa mo dito?”
bungad na tanong ni Krisha sa ‘kin nung makita niya ako sa labas ng kanilang classroom.

“I’m looking for–”

“Krish, let’s go?”
Gellian uttered to Krisha when he went out of their class, making me pause on what I’m saying.

“Gellian, your friend is… here.”
She mumbled, her hand now intertwined with Gellian’s.

“Why are you here, Zein?”
Gellian asked in a cold voice.

Hindi ako nakapagsalita agad. Pilit kong iniisip kung masama ba ang loob niya dahil sa tono ng kanyang boses. I bit my lower lip, trying to hold back my emotions. I felt a pang in my chest. I blinked twice to stop the tears forming in my eyes.

“I’m l-looking for…”
I stuttered.

“Zein’s looking for me!”
Malakas na bulyaw ni Aaron at inakbayan ako.

Gellian let out a heavy sigh. His brows were furrowed while looking at the arm of Aaron that was wrapped around my shoulder. I can’t fathom the emotions in his eyes when he met mine.

 

Nagulat ako nang yakapin ni Krisha si Gellian sa harap ng maraming estudyante. Bakas ang pagkabigla sa mukha ni Gellian pero hinayaan niya lang ito. Umiwas nalang ako ng tingin nung makaramdam ng paninikip ng dibdib.

“Zein, what do you want?”
Aaron whispered in my ear when we sat on the chair in the pantry.

 

I pouted my lips as I look at the menu hanging on the food stall.
“Hmmm… I want–”

“Gulay!”
Sigaw ni Gellian habang nakatingin kay Krisha.

Isinandal ni Krisha ang kanyang ulo sa balikat ni Gellian.
“Gellian, ‘di ba sinabi ko sa ‘yo kanina na ayoko ng gulay?”

“Ikaw nalang kaya yung umorder? Ang dami mong arte, eh.”
Gellian suggested to Krisha.

Padabog na tumayo si Krisha at pumunta sa counter. Sinabi ko naman kay Aaron na kahit ano nalang ang akin dahil wala naman akong ganang pumili. Nakayuko ako habang hinihintay siyang bumalik.

“Z-zein, wala ka bang… sasabihin sa ‘kin?”
Gellian broke the silence between us.

I turned my head up with a blink of an eye.
”

You and Ate Krisha look perfect together.

”

 

“Salamat,”
He mumbled before he barged out of the pantry, leaving Krisha behind.

The past few weeks have been torture. It crashes my soul every time I see Gellian with Krisha. The real status of their relationship became the talk of the whole campus. They even became the cover models of our school newspaper. I remembered my promise that I would support him in everything that he does, so I couldn’t help but to feel grateful, especially now that he’s going out of his comfort zone. 

“Happy birthday, Zein!”
Bati sa akin nina Ezra at Kyle pagkapasok sa resort.

“Sabi ko wag na kayong mag-abala, eh. Thank you!”
I told them when they handed me their gifts.

“Maligayang kaarawan! Nandito na ang mga palamunin.”
Mapang-asar na bati sa ‘kin nina Gabriel at Leonard.

I pouted my lips while offering my hand.
“Where’s my gift? Ang yaman niyo tapos wala kayong dala?”

“Surprise!”
Sigaw ni Levi nung makapasok sa resort habang hawak ang kamay ni Roque.

“Oh… my… gosh!”
Kyle, Ezra, and I gasped in surprise.

Napaawang ang labi namin nila Kyle sa aming nakita. Alam kong nililigawan ni Roque si Levi pero hindi ko akalain na sasagutin siya nito. Roque is the flirtiest guy on the campus, so I’m really hoping that he will change for Levi. 

Today is my 15th birthday and the party will start at 2 pm. I’m now wearing an embroidered diamond tuxedo, stretched pants, and a pair of loafers from a famous brand.
Sila Mom at Dad ay abala sa pag-aasikaso ng mga bisita. Marami akong kaklase na dumalo at mga common friends sa iba’t-ibang organizations. May iilan ring mga businessman at kilalang personalidad ang inimbita nila Dad.

The whole resort was filled with colorful decorations, which I suggested. Balloon rainbows and cartoon lanterns are hanging from the trees. Of course, my rubber duckies, which come in different sizes, are floating in the exclusive pool. The poolside patio or pergola has festive bunting, banners, and tassels galore. 

“H-hello po, Tita.”
Nahihiyang bati ni Aaron kay Mom nung makasalubong niya ito.

 

Mom tapped on his shoulder to calm him down. Aaron tends to bite his lower lip if he’s anxious, and that’s what he’s doing right now. He’s teasing me about being a baby, but he seems more like it when he’s nervous.

“Are you a friend of… my baby?”
Mom said, in a playful voice.

Aaron rubbed his nape.
“O-opo, tita. I’m Aaron Delgado, 17 years old, nakatira po ako sa–”

Dad gave him a glass of water.
“Hijo, relax. Ang mga lalaki, hindi dapat natataranta kapag k

inakausap.”

Lumapit na ako nung masamid si Aaron. I caressed his back to help him out.
“Are you okay, Aaron? Your face is so red.”

Inalalayan ko siya papuntang table ng buong tropa at gaya ng nakagawian ay inasar na naman siya nila Gabriel, Leonard at Roque. Hindi rin nagpahuli sila Kyle na sinabing mukha daw ikakasal si Aaron dahil nakasuot din ito ng tuxedo at may bowtie pa sa kanyang leeg.

There are only a few minutes left before the party starts, but I can’t see a glimpse of Gellian. Hindi niya na ako muling kinausap simula nung nangyari sa pantry few weeks ago. Wala rin akong natatanggap na reply kahit ilang beses ko siyang i-text. Pakiramdam ko’y hindi ako magiging masaya sa aking kaarawan kung hindi ko siya masisilayan.

“Zein, kanina ka pa tulala. May problema ba?”
Aaron worriedly asked.

I shrugged.
“Wala. I’m just… waiting for someone.”

“Is it… Gellian?”

I pouted my lips.
“Oum, I think he f-forgot my b-birthday.”
 I started to cry, which made my pals concerned.

At that, Levi, Ezra, and Kyle gave me a warm hug, assuring me that Gellian would come and I didn’t have to feel anxious. I tried to stop myself from whimpering before my parents noticed it. I just sat straight when Dad greeted me a happy birthday to the microphone while standing on a customized stage in front of us.

“Zein, he’s finally here.”
Bulong ni Kyle sa akin.

Agad akong napatingin sa aking likuran at suminghap nung makita sila Tito Allen, Tita Cecil, Gellian at si Krisha na nakahawak sa kanyang braso. My parents greeted them which I did as well.

He didn’t look at me when I gave him a flashy smile. His eyes were focused on Krisha, and it’s making me question my presence. I’ve known Gellian for ten years, but I feel like he’s treating me like a stranger. 

He changed. He’s not the Gellian I know. The Gellian that I’m seeing now is not my shining armor, my sleepyhead, and not the one I love.

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🌈💅

F.B.I-16

“Happy birthday, Zein. You’re already fifteen, but you still look like a baby.”
Asar sa ‘kin ni Tita Cecil.

“I agree with you, Tita! Actually, all of the students on our campus adore Zein’s cuteness.”
Krisha added while putting some dishes on Gellian’s plate.

I bit the inside of my cheeks.
“Hindi naman po masyado, Ate Krisha.”

Krisha stopped what she was doing and rolled her eyes secretly, but I still noticed it. 
“Zein, a-anong sabi mo? Tinawag mo ba akong Ate Krisha?”

Ngumiti ako nang pilit.
“Opo, ate Krisha. Mukha ka po kasing matanda–”

Mom covered my mouth and awkwardly smiled with Gellian’s parents.
“Pasensya na. Baby pa kasi itong anak ko kaya niya siguro nasabi ‘yon.”

 

“Anak, Gellian, and…”
Dad questionably stares at Krisha.
“What’s your name again?”

“Krisha po,”
she answered, bowing her head.

Mom tapped my shoulder to get my attention.
“Baby, balik ka na sa table niyo nila Kyle. May pag-uusapan pa kami nila Tita Cecil mo. Isama mo na rin sila Gellian at Krisha,”
She softly uttered it in my ear.

Tumayo naman ako kaagad at niyaya sina Ate Krisha na sumama. Ang malakas na tawanan nila Levi ang una kong narinig nung makabalik ako sa table nila. Hindi rin nagpahuli si Manang Fe at Mang Noel na masayang pinakita ang mga baby pictures ko.

“Sino naman po itong espasol na katabi ni Zein?”
Aaron pointed at Gellian beside me in the picture.

“That’s your rival with your crush,”
Kyle whispered in the air.

I sat beside the seat of Aaron, pouting my lips.
“Nanny Fe, please don’t show them my embarrassing pictures,”
I shyly pleaded.

Sinara naman ni Nanny Fe ang photobook at ngumiti sa ‘kin.
“Anak, masaya lang ako na… malaki ka na. Wala man kaming anak ni Noel, nandyan ka naman para iparamdam sa ‘kin ang pagiging ina.”

Tumayo ako at binigyan siya nang mahigpit na yakap. Gumaya naman sila Kyle, Levi at Ezra kaya napatingin sa amin ang ilang bisita. Hindi ko maiwasang hindi umiyak dahil sina Manang Fe at Mang Noel ang nandyan para sa akin kapag wala sila Mommy at Daddy. Sila ang aking pangalawang magulang.

I shrugged when Aaron wiped my lips with his thumb while I was eating. 
“Ang kalat mo namang kumain, tsk.”

I rolled my eyes and wiped his lips as well.
“You too, Aaron. Please be gentle when eating since you’re wearing white. It will be hard to wash the stain.”
I mumbled, tapping his white tuxedo.

“Gellian, are you okay? The cake has already crumbled.”
 Rinig kong ani ni Krisha.

Matalim ang tingin ni Gellian kay Aaron nung sumulyap ako sa kanya. Nagkalat ang chocolate cake sa lamesa na galing sa kanyang plato. Umiwas naman siya ng tingin nung makita ako.

Is he mad again? Why? Don’t tell me… he likes Aaron now? But he already had Krisha. Arghhh! Gellian’s making my brain delirious.

“Kay Kyle… mocha. Kay Ezra, chocolate, kay Levi hmmm… vanilla, strawberry naman for me and Aaron,”
I murmured as I put various flavors of cupcakes on my plate.

Nahihiya daw kasi silang kumuha kaya ako na ang nagkusa. Ayoko namang iasa kila Nanny Fe ang lahat.
Alam kong abala din ang mga staffs ng resort sa pag-aasikaso sa mga bisita.

“Can you please put the strawberry cupcake on my plate, Zein?”
I heard a familiar voice behind me.

I darted my eyes at him.
“Sorry Kuya Gellian, ubos na.”
I said in a monotone. I missed hearing him call my name, but I’m still mad.

“Wait, w-what?”
His forehead creased.

I smiled flatly.
“I said, ubos na po. Wala na. It’s gone, Kuya Gellian.”

He bit his lower lip and brushed his hair up with his fingers, looking very stressed.
“You’re calling me K-kuya now? I heard you call him Aaron and not Kuya. W-why is that?”

“Well… Aaron doesn’t want me to call him Kuya. That’s why–”

 

He cut me off.
“How about me, Zein? Have you ever asked me if I want you to call me Kuya?” 

My face was stiff, but I was already laughing in my mind. I always like it when Gellian makes a frown face. He must be taking my words seriously.

“Are you… jealous?”
I asked with my playful voice.

Gellian grabbed the cupcake that was supposed to be for Aaron and bit into it instead of answering my question. He walked away holding his empty plate with his shoulders down. I was about to look away when I saw that he had purposely elbowed Aaron, causing Aaron to fall into the swimming pool.

“Oh my god!”
singhap ko kasabay nang ilang bisita na napasigaw din sa gulat.

Binitawan ko ang aking hawak at dali-daling tumakbo sa pool. Narinig ko ang boses nila Mommy at ng aking mga kaibigan pero di ko na ito pinansin. Di na ako nag-atubiling tumalon para iligtas si Aaron pero bigla akong may naalala…

HINDI PALA AKO MARUNONG LUMANGOY!

“H-help!”
I shouted between my gasps.

Nang sumisid si Gellian sa pool ay agad akong hinila ni Aaron palapit sa kanya. I wrapped my arms around Aaron’s neck, breezing from the cold. His hand instantly rubbed my back to give me comfort. I was so scared and I really thought I would die on my birthday.

 

”
Shhh… you’ll be fine, baby.”
Aaron whispered as he got close to my ear.

 

Marahan akong tumingin sa kanyang mukha at nakita kong nakakunot ang kanyang noo. He’s throwing death glares at Gellian, who’s now on my back. These two guys have been haunting me, even in my dreams, for the past few weeks. Something is off, but I can’t determine what it is.

 

Inabutan naman ako kaagad ni Mommy ng tuwalya nang makaahon ako mula sa pool. Si Dad ay tumawag ng doktor habang sila Kyle ay kinamusta ang aking pakiramdam. Hindi ko maiwasang hindi mag-alala nung makita ko si Gellian na umalis palayo habang nanginginig sa ginaw.

His friends tried to call him, but he didn’t look back. No words are coming out of my mouth, no matter how much I want to shout his name. I’m just tired, and I don’t have the strength to even open my lips.

I feel worried, but I’m hesitating on whether I should follow him. My heart wants to keep him by my side, while my mind tells me not to. I’m afraid that my presence is not what he needs and that he might push me away.

Alas-8 na ng gabi natapos ang party at umuwi na ang lahat ng bisita. Maging sila Kyle ay sinundo na rin ng mga parents nila. I was almost done unwrapping the birthday gifts that they had all given me when I noticed a small red box. Curiosity hit me, so I grabbed it and surveyed if it was really for me. It doesn’t have my name and it makes me wonder if someone must have dropped it.

 

“This can’t be true,”
I muttered under my lower lip.

 

Tears formed in my eyes when I saw a promise ring inside. It has the initials “G” and “Z” engraved on it. There’s no need to clarify. This ring came from someone special in my heart. I really thought he had forgotten about me.

 

Gellian, how could I save myself from falling too hard on you?

 

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F.B.I-17

“Zein, gumising ka na, please…”
boses iyon ni Ezra habang pinipilit akong buhatin patayo sa aking kama.

“Magtatampo si Aaron kapag ‘di ka sumama,”
Kyle guiltripped me.

I heard Levi squeal. 
“Tsaka for sure yung babes ko yung magiging Prom King kapag ako yung pumili ng susuotin niya, kaya gumising ka na Zein.”

“Ghorl, kasali ka din mamaya ‘di ba? Ayaw mo ba… maging Prom King?”
Mapang-asar na tanong ni Ezra.

Levi gasped in disbelief.
“Sa ganda kong ‘to? Sa tingin niyo mananalo akong Prom King?!”

Padabog akong umupo mula sa aking pagkakahiga habang nakabusangot ang mukha.
“Please be quiet! Can’t you all see that I’m sleeping? It’s still 7 am on Saturday…”

Kyle hugged me and kissed my cheeks.
“Alam mo, Zein? Ang cute mo ‘pag bagong gising. Picture-an kaya kita tapos i-post natin sa Ravenwood Secret Files na group page?”

“Oo nga, sawa na ako sa mga stolen shots nila Gellian. Mas okay sana kung pictures niyong tatlo yung nakikita ko.”
Ezra grumbled.

I scratched my eyes before I looked at Ezra.
“Why don’t we post your pictures instead, Ezra? You can pass as a model because of your pretty face and height. To be honest, you’re a complete package.”

“Ehem!”
Kyle and Levi cleared their throats, trying to catch our attention.

Nawala ang antok ko nung makita ko silang dalawa na nag-ala FHM Model sa pag-pose. Kyle is pouting his heart-shaped lips while lying down on the floor, while Levi, on the other hand, is sitting beside Kyle with his head up to showcase his perfect neckline.

My friends never fail to make me happy. Growing up, I only had Gellian on my side. I’m a very shy student, that’s why I find it hard to get along with others. Perhaps, the reason why I never feel alone without Gellian is because of them. Our bond together is wholesome.

“Aaron, I thought you already had a tailer-made tux. Why do you need to choose a new one?”
tanong ko sa kanya habang nakaupo sa bean bag chair.

He rubbed his nape, feeling shy.
“Hindi ko kasi gusto yung gawa ng nagtahi kaya… papatulong sana ako sa ‘yo pumili nang bago.”

Nandito kami ngayon sa Gardini Fashion Center, dahil gaya ng sinabi nila Kyle ay sasamahan namin ang grupo nila Aaron na pumili ng suit na kanilang susuotin. Mamaya na kasi gaganapin ang JS Prom na matagal nang hinihintay ng mga dadalo. Sa grupo namin nila Kyle ay si Levi lang ang makakasali. Junior High na siya samantalang ako, si Kyle at Ezra ay kapwa Sophomores palang.

“OMG! Ang gwapo mo, babes!”
Malakas na hiyaw ni Levi nung lumabas si Roque mula sa fitting room.

Roque is wearing an Ivory Linen suit and pants, and it matches his bright and quirky personality. Ezra also gave compliments to Leonard, who’s in a jacquard tuxedo, while Kyle has no expression while surveying Gabriel from head to toe. Gab looks sharp in his Burgundy Red suit.

“Baby Zein, what do you think?”

I averted my eyes at Aaron when he went out of the fitting room too. My eyes widened in surprise upon seeing him wearing a white tuxedo suit that has the same style with Gellian. It’s a slim-fit type and it looks good on him since he has a nice upper body.

I stood up from my seat to properly check him.
“I think you… need to choose another design.”

Kumunot ang noo niya.
“Bakit? Dahil ba ayaw mong parehas kami ng suot ng crush mo?”

I gulped, feeling pressured.
“H-hindi naman sa ganon, Aaron.”

“So crush mo pa rin ‘yon?”

I bit my lower lip before I nodded at a slow pace. He didn’t need to mention the name, but I know he’s referring to Gellian. Before entering the fitting room for the nth time, his face was filled with disappointment.

“Good evening, Ravenwood peeps! This is Cheska, and welcome to my vlog. We’re here at Galexia Hotel to witness the most-awaited JS Prom of junior and senior high school students!”

 

I just found myself watching Cheska’s Facebook live while lying on my bed. She’s our student counsil president. Napaka-elegante niyang tingnan sa suot niyang Bohemian Evening Gown. Napatakip ako ng tenga nung bigla siyang sumigaw sa kanyang nakita.

“Gosh! The royal couple are here! Can you share with us what are you guys wearing tonight?”
She screamed in excitement while filming.

Levi grabbed the microphone from Cheska.
“I’m wearing a Leopard Slim Body Suit that was sponsored by my friends Kyle, Ezra, and Zein, but sadly they’re not here tonight.”

Cheska gasped.
“Oh? That was so sad, but would you like to give a message to your friends? They might be watching our live stream tonight…”

Kinuha naman ni Roque and mikropono kay Levi at kumindat pa sa video.
“I’m calling out the names of Kyle, Ezra, and Zein to come here tonight because my other friends will definitely not enjoy this special moment if you’re all not here.”

I wonder if Kyle and Ezra have plans to go there. I’m already wearing comfy pajamas while lying on my bed. I buried my face in my pillow when I heard my phone ringing. My eyes were closed, but I managed to grab my phone and answer the call.

“Zein, wala ka bang balak pumunta sa prom? Punta kaya tayo?”
Kyle proposed.

“Ayoko,”
malamya kong sagot.

Kyle let out a deep breath.
“Sayang. Balita ko pa naman, basag daw yung mukha ni Gellian

. Kawawa naman siya. Sino kayang tutulong sa kanya?”

Kaagad akong dumilat at umupo sa aking kama.
“A-ano?! B-bakit? Anong nangyari? Where is he? Who punched him?”

“Hindi rin namin alam, Baby Zein. If you’d like, we can accompany you there to the prom so you can check his condition.”
Ezra offered.

Nailabas ko na yata ang lahat ng mga nabili kong damit pero hindi pa rin ako makahanap ng susuotin. I shouldn’t be concerned about what I should wear, but I couldn’t help myself because I know everyone else at the prom is dressed up. My eyes sparkled upon seeing a woven poly-knit suit that my dad bought for me last Christmas.

“Wow! Baby, you look so charming in that suit, but… where are you heading?”
My mom combed my deshiveled hair with her fingers.

“Mom, I’m going to Gellian. He’s hurt and he needs me.”
I made a cute face, hoping it would work on her.

Kaagad nagbago ang kaninang masaya niyang mukha.
“Your dad will surely get mad if I let you go, baby. I’m sorry—”

I held her soft hands.
“Mom, please… kahit ngayon lang po. I’m with my other friends too, and I will get back here before 12 am. I promise.”

She took a glance at her wristwatch and made a scrunched face.
“You only have two hours left, baby.” 

 

Binigyan ko siya agad nang mahigpit na yakap.
“Thank you, mom! You’re the best.

”
I kissed her cheeks before I said my goodbye.

Pagkalabas ko ng mansyon ay ang busina ng van nila Ezra ang tumambad sa akin. Iniluwal nito sina Kyle na nakapormal din ang mga suot. Mabuti at sinundo nila ako dahil mahimbing na ang tulog ni Mang Noel at ayoko na siyang abalahin pa.

“Is that you, Zein? You look good!”
Pambobola sa ‘kin ni Tito Christian na Dad ni Ezra.

Uncle Christian started to drive his van after we all fastened our seatbelts. Kyle and Ezra keep on updating me about the happenings at the prom, but I can’t seem to focus. My mind is thinking of Gellian the whole ride, hoping that he’s okay for myself to feel relieved.

Sinalubong kami nina Gabriel at Leonard nung makarating kami sa venue. Hindi mapagkakailang engrande ang naturang prom dahil sa laki ng hotel na kanilang inakupahan.
Masayang sumasayaw ang ilang mga dumalo habang suot ang kanilang magagarang kasuotan.

“Kindly grab your partners because we are down to our second to the last song before our last dance.”

The emcee announced it on the microphone.

Nagsitayuan ang mga kalalakihang nakaupo at niyaya ang kanilang kapareha. I was standing in the middle of the crowd when Gabriel and Leonard asked my friends to dance with them. My eyes widened in surprise upon seeing Aaron who’s now dancing with Krisha. They look so happy while teasing each other.

“Ayoko nga sabi! May hinihintay ako!”

The sweet music from the speakers was booming, but his thunderous voice pierced my ears. My expression softened as I saw Gellian, who had gotten bruised on his lips. His brows are furrowed while looking at the girl in front of him.

“Paano kung hindi na siya dumating? Sayang naman, last dance na ‘to pero wala ka pang nasasayaw simula kanina.”
She grabbed the hand of Gellian.

“Ano naman ngayon sa ‘yo kung hindi siya pumunta? Wala akong ibang isasayaw kundi si Zein lang.”
He tried to remove his hand from the girl’s grip, but he couldn’t.

Hindi na ako nakapagtimpi at lumapit sa babae na kamukha ni Dora.
“Get your hands off my partner! He said he wouldn’t dance with you, right? I guess it’s my chance to dance with him.”

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💅🌈

F.B.I-18

The girl rolled her eyes at me before releasing her tight grip on Gellian’s hand. She walked away with a frown on her face. My forehead is creased while looking at her barging out of the scene. I averted my gaze from Gellian when he held my hand and began to cry on it.

“Zein, I’m sorry.”
He whimpered.

Napatingin sa direksyon namin ang ilang estudyante. Lumapit ako kay Gellian at hinaplos ang kanyang likod nung magsimula siyang humagulgol. Hindi ko alam kung bakit siya humihingi ng tawad pero kung may nagawa man siyang kasalanan ay handa ko siyang patawarin. Ayokong tuluyan na masira ang aming pagkakaibigan. Kasama ko na siya simula pagkabata ay hindi ko kakayanin na mawalay sa kanya.

“You look like a crying baby,”
I quipped, which made him chuckle.

My mouth hung open when the spotlight focused on me and Gellian. Some of the crowd gave us a cheer when the song changed into a sweet and gentle rhythm. Gellian squeezed my hand to attract my attention.

“C-can you be my… first and last dance tonight, Zein?”
He asked with his puffy eyes.

Natanaw ko sila Kyle, Ezra at Levi na bahagyang lumapit sa akin. Binigyan nila ako nang matamis na ngiti. Maging ang tropa ni Gellian na sina Aaron, Gabriel, Leonard at Roque ay nagawa pa kaming asarin. Nag-aatubili akong tumango kay Gellian kahit na nanginginig ang aking mga tuhod sa sobrang kaba.

The crowd gave us a loud cheer, and even Krisha squealed in excitement when Gellian guided me on the center floor. I chuckled when I noticed Gellian was trembling and he seemed like he didn’t know what to do. I just shook my head before I grabbed his hands and put them on my hips. His eyes widened from shock after I placed my hands on his shoulders. His face turned red, and it was very evident because of his bright skin.

“Mahal kita… Zein,”
He confessed in a very soft tone.

My heart beats so fast and I feel like the whole world stopped after hearing that from him. Gellian’s eyes are filled with hope while waiting for my response. I gave him an assuring smile before I spoke.

“Mahal din kita…”
His lips parted upon hearing that for me, but a lone tear fell from his eyes when I continued what I was saying.

“…bilang kaibigan. That’s how it is, right? All friends should love each other. I love you for being my friend, Gellian.”

“Just… forget about what I said, Zein.”
He wiped his tears with his back hand.
“I won’t ask for more as long as I have you on my side.”

He’s lying. I may be slow in understanding another person’s expression, but it’s very easy for me to read Gellian’s. I love him too, and if I could just shout my real feelings for him to the whole world, I would be glad to do so. However, I don’t want to risk our friendship that we have had for so many years.

“Zein, bakit kasi pumunta pa tayo dito? Baka hinahanap ka na sa inyo,”
Gellian informed me when I dragged him inside of a drugstore.

I’m browsing on my phone to search for a specific product.
“Just trust me, okay? I’ll just buy something.”

“Hmmm… miss, is this available here?”
I showed the pharmacist the picture of an ointment that my doctor had prescribed for me before.

Sumilay ang ngiti sa kanyang labi habang pinagmamasdan kaming dalawa ni Gellian. Doon ko lang napansin na kanina pa pala kami magkahawak ng kamay kaya nasa amin ang atensyon ng ilang mamimili. Sinubukan kong bumitaw pero mas hinigpitan ni Gellian ang kapit.

We sat on the bench outside after I bought the wound ointment. Nanny Fe always treats my wounds, so I will try to imitate how she does it to me. Without giving Gellian a heads up, I move my body close to him and gently apply the product to his bruised lips.

“Z-zein, I c-can do it myself.”
Gellian started stammering.

I looked at his eyes and was mesmerized by his gaze. We were only a few inches away from each other, so I could smell the mint scent on his breath. My hand was trembling, but I managed to apply it to the affected area. I gave him a smack kiss on the lips, which made his eyes widen.

 

“Nanny Fe always gives me a kiss whenever I’m sick, so I’ll get better fast.”
  ani ko habang pinagmamasdan ang namumula niyang mukha.

 

He held my chin and temptedly looked into my eyes.
“Z-zein, w-wag mong gagawin sa iba yung g-ginawa mo, okay?”

I pouted my lips.
“Bakit? Hindi ba mas mabilis gumaling kapag kini-kiss? One of my dreams is to become a doctor, and I’m planning to kiss all of my patients so they will heal—”

 

He cut me off when he yelled.
“No! Hindi ka pwede mag-doctor, Zein.”

“Why?”
I raised a brow.

Umiwas siya nang tingin.
“Kasi baka araw-araw akong magpanggap na may sakit para magamot mo lang.”

I chuckled loudly, which made him look at me again.
“Gellian, kahit wala kang sakit, handa kitang gamutin.”

My arms were abruptly wrapped around his nape when he pulled me close for a hug. His face was resting on my shoulder, and I felt my chest tighten during the moment. I tapped his back when he started crying again. 

“You know what? I believe that you can pass as an actor without even trying. You’re such a crybaby, Gellian.”

 

He stopped sobbing.
“Do you really want me to be an actor, Zein? Are you willing to support me?”

 

I nodded, even though he couldn’t see it.
“Of course! Remember when you were always there for me to cheer me up? I would also do the same with you. I’m willing to be your number one supporter on any journey that you may take, Gellian.”

 

“Ang swerte ko talaga sa ‘yo, baby.”
He whispered in a playful voice.

I released myself from his hug and rolled my eyes in irritation.
“Gellian, you know, I hate it when you guys call me baby. I hate you!” 

 

Padabog akong tumayo at lumakad palayo sa kanya. Ang inis ay napalitan nang pagkabigla nung walang pasabi niya akong yakapin mula sa aking likuran. Mariin kong kinagat ang aking ibabang labi para pigilan ang ngiti. Ang aking puso’y napakabilis ng tibok na wari mo’y tambol ang lakas.

Gellian kissed my temple.
“Sorry na, Zein. I’m just teasing you because you look cuter when you’re angry. I swear, you are the cutest in my eyes.”

My tilted head was towards him.
“T-talaga? Do you think I’m cuter than Ate Krisha?”

“Are you… jealous of her?”

 

“Me?! J-jealous?”
I scoffed.
“Why would I be jealous of her? I know I’m cuter than she is.”

He removed his suit and put it on my shoulders.
“Let’s go! I’ll take you home, my baby.”

 

 

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🌈💅

F.B.I-19

“Grabe, sobrang hirap naman ng exams! Makakapasa kaya ako?”
Kyle massaged his temple, feeling anxious.

“Makakapasa? Ikaw pa ba, Kyle? Eh, ikaw kaya yung highest last time.”
Ezra caressed Kyle’s back.

Pinaghiwalay ko naman silang dalawa at pumagitna.
“Don’t be too stressed. Let’s go to our resort and rest there!”

“Nandito na yung mga asungot. Basta talaga gala at libre, mabilis silang makaramdam.”
Ezra pointed at Gellian and his friends who were walking towards our direction.

Bahagyang lumayo sina Kyle nung kunin ni Gellian ang aking bag at bigla akong akbayan. Hindi ko naman siya pinigilan at nagpatuloy sa paglalakad. Napangiti naman ako agad nung makitang papalapit si Levi kasama si Roque. Mukhang napatino nga ni Levi si Roque simula nung maging sila dahil wala na kaming nabalitaan na may babae ito.

“Zein, sure ka ba na pwede akong sumama? Pinapapasok ba yung hampas-lupa sa resort niyo?”
 ani ni Levi nang makasakay kaming lahat sa aming van.

I shook my head in a snap after hearing that from him.
“No, don’t say that, Levi. I really wanted to invite all of you, but we are all busy before the finals, right Mang Noel?”

Mang Noel took a glance at us in the rear-view mirror.
“Naghanap ka pa ng kakampi, Baby Zein. Binibiro ka lang naman ng kaibigan mo.”

“Minsan talaga, Zein, may pagka-slow ka. Tama ba ako Gellian at… Aaron?”
Kyle asked in a mocking tone.

Aaron and Gellian swiftly cast their glances at Kyle. They both seemed nervous, so I asked both of them. I just pouted when they said they were fine, which I highly doubt. I can’t fathom the emotions in their eyes though.

“Good afternoon, Zein!”
sabay-sabay na bati sa akin ng mga staffs ng resort nung makababa kami ng van.

Napakatagal na rin pala simula nung huli kong bisita sa sarili naming resort at mukhang bago na ang mga empleyado. Marahil ay hindi na bumalik ang mga dating katiwala sa pag-aakalang tuluyan na itong magsasara noon kung hindi lang nagawan ng paraan nila Dad.

“Oh, my baby’s friends are finally here!”
My mom exaggeratedly said before giving my friends a hug.

My dad went out of his office and happily greeted my friends too. I can’t explain how I felt when I noticed they were not minding the presence of Gellian, who was beside me. They seem to be avoiding him for some unknown reason.

Pinaalalahanan ko sila mom na darating kami ngayon ng mga friends ko kaya siguro walang mga tao sa buong resort maliban sa mga staffs. Matapos naming kumain ng tanghalian ay nagtampisaw kaming magkakaibigan sa exclusive pool. Our feet were stroking the water as we sat on the tiled edge. Being with my friends after a tiring day makes my stress fade away. I wish they were always with me so I wouldn’t feel alone.

“Anong balak niyo paglaki?”
Gabriel broke silence.

Leonard chuckled.
“Malaki ka naman na, pre, ah? Ilang beses na naming nakita pero mas malaki pa rin ako syempre.”

All of them laugh, which makes me laugh too. I don’t know why they laugh, but they might find me weird if I have no reaction. I admit that I’m very slow sometimes, or should I say, most of the time.

Napatigil sila nung marinig ang malakas kong paghalakhak. Napatakip ako ng aking mukha nung bigyan nila ako ng nakakalokong ngisi. Napansin siguro nilang pilit ang aking pagtawa dahil wala naman akong naintindihan.

“Grabe, baby Zein! Mature ka na nga. Na-gets mo ba yung sinabi ni Gab?”
Tanong ni Levi na mukhang bilib na sa akin.

I nodded with an assuring smile on my face. ”
Oo naman! Tinanong ni Gab kung anong balak natin paglaki, eh… bata pa naman tayo.”

All of them shook their heads, looking disappointed. Ezra and Kyle gave me a thumbs up, while Aaron was trying to resist the urge to laugh. Levi turned his head upward in the sky as he spoke.

“Gusto ko maging successful balang-araw pero kung hindi papalarin, hahanap nalang ako ng Sugar Daddy.”

Levi mumbled.

Roque wrapped his arm around Levi’s shoulders.
“Bakit ka pa hahanap ng Sugar Daddy, eh nandito naman ako?”

Umakto sila Kyle na nasusuka at syempre dahil nainggit ako, ginaya ko na rin sila.
Ano bang nakakasuka sa sinabi ni Roque? Masarap nga yung Sugar Daddy, eh! Matamis. Meron kayang Sugar Daddy na strawberry flavor?

Roque cleared his throat.
“Walang halong biro. Gusto kong mag-pulis. Hindi ganoon kalaki ang sahod ng pulis Levi, pero… poprotektahan kita.”

Levi’s expression instantly softened upon hearing the promise of Roque. He tried to hide his emotions, but he failed when his tears started to fall from his eyes. He hurriedly wiped his wet cheeks and smiled at everyone, like nothing had happened. I was about to stand up to give him a hug when he shook his head, asking me not to. Levi will always say he’s okay, which I doubt most of the time. I really hope that he will be more open to me and to us.

“Me? I want to study law,”
Gabriel said, sighing.

Leonard clapped his hands for Gab.

“Yown! Attorney, kapag nakulong ako someday, ikaw tumulong sa ‘kin, ah?”

Aaron smirked.
“Kaya wag kang gagawa nang masama sa bar ng Dad mo, Leo, para di ka makulong. Ako? Gusto kong mag-piloto tapos lilipad kami sa langit ng mahal ko.”
He swiftly turned his gaze to me.

Humarang naman kaagad si Gellian at tinakpan ako gamit ang kanyang malapad na balikat. Simula nung magtapat si Gellian ng tunay niyang nararamdaman sa akin ay nagsimula na rin akong iwasan ni Aaron. He would always say that he’s busy with his studies since he’s running for Valedictorian against Gellian.

Si Kyle ay gustong mag-business, si Ezra naman ay undecided din kagaya ko, si Levi ay gustong yumaman para makatulong sa Mama niya. Gellian is the only one left who doesn’t share his dream for the future. I gave him a sweet smile after I tapped on his shoulder.

“How about you, Gellian? What do you want to become?”
I asked, feeling curious.

 

I noticed how he swallowed the lump in his throat before giving me a wry smile.
“Ako? Wala naman akong ibang pangarap kundi ang makasama ka habambuhay.”

“Yun oh!”

“Smooth, pare.”

“Huy! Baby pa ‘yan.”

Pang-aasar nila Roque. Tumango nalang ako bilang sagot. Nung marinig ko ang kanyang sagot ay para bang kumirot ang aking puso sa ‘di ko malamang dahilan. Seryoso ang kanyang mukha at nagsusumamo ang kanyang mga mata.

Kinahapunan ay sinundo na sina Kyle at Ezra ng kanilang mga magulang. Naging daan na rin iyon para makilala sila ng parents ko. Hindi naman nakapagtataka na kilala ng mga magulang namin ang isa’t-isa dahil business related ang kanilang mga trabaho. Nakauwi na ang lahat maliban kay Gellian na kanina pa balisa at mukhang malalim ang iniisip.

“What’s up, Sleepyhead? Why do you look so… sad?”
I uttered after I sat on the chair beside him. We’re sitting on a wooden bench in one of our pool cottages.

 

He played with his fingers, looking down.
“Paano kung… kailangan kong umalis, Zein? Hahayaan mo ba ako?”

“Saan ka naman pupunta? Bakit ka aalis? Kung aalis ka… kailan ka babalik?”
Sunod-sunod kong tanong.

Kaagad niyang pinunasan ang aking mga luha nung makita iyong bumagsak sa aking mga mata. Bakas ang kanyang pag-aalala at nangingig ang kanyang mga kamay. He pulled me close for a hug when he noticed I wouldn’t stop sobbing. I can’t! The thought of him leaving me behind will make me lose my sanity.

Gellian rubbed my back in a gentle manner.
“Oh, god. Sorry, baby. I won’t leave, so please stop crying. I’m sorry. I’m really, really sorry.”

 

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🌈💅

F.B.I-20

”… and I wish all of my co-students would be successful with all of the paths that we will be taking. Again, this is Gellian Ross Zamora. Happy Graduation, everyone!”
He proudly said into the microphone.

Kaagad na nagtayuan ang lahat ng mga estudyante sa auditorium kasabay ng mga magulang na narito rin para saksihan ang pagtatapos ng kanilang mga anak sa highschool.

Gellian’s average is 98.7, while Aaron’s is only a point lower at 98.6, making Gellian our Valedictorian for this year. I’m in the backseat, but I can still see how Aunt Cecil and Uncle Allen cried from so much joy. Gellian ran down the stage to give his parents a tight hug.

“Ma, Pa, p-para sa inyo po ang tagumpay ko.”
I heard him whimper, severely overwhemled.

Nagulat ang mga magulang nung buhatin si Gellian ng kanyang mga tropa na sina Aaron, Gabriel, Leonard, at Roque. Napakamot nalang ng ulo ang aming principal. Alam kong sanay na siya sa ganitong eksena dahil laging laman ng Guidance Office sina Gabriel. Umiwas ako ng tingin nung makita kong hinalikan ni Krisha si Gellian sa pisngi na siya namang kinatuwa ng ilang estudyante.

Levi stood up from his seat while holding a tight grip on his camera.
“Aba’t gaga ‘yan, ah! Lagot ka sa ‘king bruha ka—”

“Levi, stop. That’s fine. Hindi ko naman nakita na hinalikan niya si Gellian, eh.”
I whispered.

Tumawa naman sila Kyle at Ezra na nasa akin ding tabi. Padabog namang umupo si Levi at kami nalang ang kinuhanan niya ng litrato. I already told them that I had a crush on Gellian, so they must be worried about me. I’m so glad that I didn’t hear any objections when I told them what I really felt. They assured me that my feelings are fine and that loving a similar gender isn’t something I should be ashamed of.

“Congrats, Gellian.”
bati ko nung makalapit ako sa kanila pagkatapos ng ceremony.

“No need to congratulate my son, since he’s really meant to be in the highest rank.”
Uncle Allen proudly remarked.

Bakas ang pagkagulat ng ilang estudyante nung marinig iyon sa kanya. My dad mentioned that Uncle Allen was really competitive when they were studying before and that never left him, even when he aged. I couldn’t help but pity Gellian since I know he’s having a hard time meeting the expectations of his own dad.

“We will be having a victory party in our mansion. Do you guys want to come? My son’s girlfriend is also invited, so I hope you will come along.”
Uncle Allen added while pointing at Krisha.

Kyle gasped in surprise.
“Girlfriend mo na pala si Krisha, Gellian? Hindi mo man lang sinabi…”

Gellian hadn’t answered for a long time. Krisha smirked before she snaked her arms around Gellian’s. We’re both looking at their intimate scene, and it makes me want to barge out of the auditorium. It breaks my heart to see Gellian just letting her do what she’s doing.

“Bakit kailangan niyo pang malaman? Di naman kayo kasali sa relasyon.”
Mapang-asar na turan ni Krisha.

Gellian removed the arms of Krisha that were wrapped around his and held her hand. My heart has been crushed already. I just smiled at him when he looked at me. Tears were forming up in my eyes, but I managed to stop them from falling.

Gellian’s jaw clenched.
“Guys, s-sorry if I didn’t inform you, but yes. Me and K-krisha are now together. I hope you’re… happy with us.”

“We’re so happy for the both of you,”
I said, snapping the last bit of sincerety I held.

Kagaya ko ay binati na rin nila Kyle, Ezra at Levi sina Gellian na sinundan din nila Aaron. They congratulated the new couple with their poker faces. I just found myself agreeing with Uncle Allen’s offer to join them at their mansion.

“Aaron, wala dito yung van nila Gellian.”
I let him know when he guided me towards the parking lot.

He stopped in front of a flashy red sports bike.
“I just got my driver’s license yesterday and bought this bike. I want you to be my first passenger, Zein.”

”

Well, I h-haven’t ridden a motorcycle yet, so… I’m a little s-scared, Aaron.”
I honestly informed him.

He took three steps closer and put on a strawberry themed helmet on my head. 
“Wag kang mag-alala, hindi kita hahayaang masaktan.”

I sat on his bike’s passenger seat amidst the fear that I was feeling. I’m not the type of person who loves to experience new things. That’s why I’m very impressed with Levi for being reckless sometimes. He can go through the barriers and cross the limits if he wants to.

Aaron got my hands and wrapped them around his waist.
“Kumapit kang mabuti, baby. We’re going to claim your prince charming.”

Sumigaw ako nang napakalakas nung matulin niyang pinaandar ang kanyang motorsiklo. Ang aking mga mata’y nakapikit habang ang mukha ko’y nagkatago sa kanyang malapad na balikat. Takot akong mahulog kaya mahigpit ang kapit ko sa kanyang tiyan.

Aaron laughed.
“B-baby, n-nakikiliti ako. W-wag ka m-masyadong kumapit.”

I started to cry from so much fear.
“Please slow down, Aaron. My dad will be mad if you leave me a scratch.”

Napansin ko namang bumagal siya nang takbo kaya nakahinga ako nang maluwag. Binuksan ko ang aking mga mata at nakaramdam ng ginhawa habang pinagmamasdan ang daan. I was about to take off my arms from hugging him when he spoke in a soft manner.

“Kapit ka lang, Zein. Kahit ngayon lang. Please, wag kang bibitaw.”

It’s been a while since I heard Aaron call me by my name, so I felt shocked. He sounds so gentle and calm. He must have been afraid of being grilled by my dad if I fell. Without uttering a word, I just continued hugging him with a smile on my face. 

“Zein, a-akala ko ‘di ka pupunta?”
Krisha’s voice quivered.

“Inimbita po ako ni Tito Allen kaya ako nandito,”
I glared at her.

I shrugged when Aaron rested his arm on my shoulder, then I saw Gellian wearing a plain longsleeve shirt with his finged hair down. He looks like a new person to me. Giving me a cold stare, I just centered my eyes on Aaron.

“Gellian, guma-gwapo ka, ah? Ganyan ba kapag may love life?”
Aaron asked in a mocking tone.

Lumapit sa amin si Gellian. Hindi ko man siya matingnan nang diretso ay alam kong sa akin siya nakatitig. Umawang ang aking labi nung mas inilapit ako ni Aaron sa kanyang katawan. Nakita ko ang mapang-asar niyang ngisi habang nakatingin sa aming harapan.

I darted my sight to Gellian when he let out a heavy sigh.
“Pre, sana ganyan din kalinaw yung mata ng tunay na mahal ko.”

When I noticed that the theme of the party was very stylish, I assumed that Aunt Cecil was the one who decorated their backyard. There are hanging lights that keep everything alive after the sun goes down. Giant balloons, desserts on the table, and they even hire an expert bartender who mixes the cocktails for the adult visitors.

 

“Pre, bakit puro strawberry yung dessert niyo? Cake, cookies pati ice cream lahat strawberry. Yung totoo, para sa ‘yo ba talaga ‘tong celebration?”
Sunod-sunod na tanong ni Leonard habang pinagmamasdan ang mga nakahain lamesa.

Gellian pursed his lips.
“Alam kong pupunta yung taong mahalaga sa ‘kin kaya ako yung nag-prepare nito.”

Padabog na tumayo si Krisha sa kanyang upuan dahilan kaya napatingin sa kanyang ang lahat ng bisita. Kuyom ang kanyang palad at nakaramdam ako ng awa nung umagos ang luha sa kanyang pisngi.

“Gellian… ayoko na! Akala ko mamahalin mo rin ako kaya pumayag akong magpanggap na girlfriend mo, pero… mali pala ako. Let’s stop this deal!”
Krisha’s helpless voice pierced my soul.

Hindi siya nag-atubiling lumakad palabas ng mansyon. Sinundan naman siya ni Gellian habang ang mga bisita’y tahimik at natulala sa nasaksihan. Sina Tito Allen at Tita Cecil ay nagpatuloy sa pag-aasikaso sa ilang bisita na parang walang nangyari.

“Sabi ko na nga ba’t mangyayari ‘to,”
Gabriel murmured.

Leonard drank his cocktail before he spoke.
“This is that old man’s fault.”
Then he pointed at Uncle Allen with his lips.

Anxiously, Roque grabbed a strawberry cupcake and put it in Leonard’s mouth.
“Pare, marinig ka ni Tito, baka mapalayas tayo.”

I was trying to understand what they were saying, but I couldn’t. It seems like they know something and I’m the only one who’s unaware. I huff before blurting out what’s on my mind.

 

“Do you guys know something about what happened?”

 

Aaron sincerely looked into my eyes.
“W-we’re sorry, Zein. We didn’t let you know because you’re too young to understand the situation—”

 

“Because you all still think I’m a baby even when I’m not! I’m fifteen, Aaron, and I can understand things just like you guys. How will I mature if you’re all spoiling me as a baby?”
I let out the feelings I have inside me.

I thought that being with them for a year would make them realize how I had changed, but I guess they still think of me as a child. A child who needs to be pampered and someone who can’t handle complicated matters around me.

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🌈💅

F.B.I-21

“Baby, do you want us to go abroad? How about Thailand? Italy? Canada?”
Mom suggested after she sipped on her juice.

I pouted my lips while playing with my fingers.
“I don’t want to go anywhere, Mommy.”

“Sayang naman, anak. Bakasyon mo na, hindi ba? Sigurado ka bang dito ka lang sa mansyon? Ayaw mo naman kaming puntahan sa resort…”
Dad sounded glum.

Binigyan ko sila nang pilit na ngiti.
“Masaya naman po ako dito sa mansyon tsaka… may hinihintay din po akong bisita.”

Tatlong linggo na ang nakalipas simula nung nagtapos ang mga Senior Highschool at iyon na rin ang huling beses na nakita ko si Gellian. Madalas akong bisitahin nila Kyle at ng grupo nila Aaron. Lagi nilang sinasabi na abala si Gellian sa paghahanap sa unibersidad na kanyang papasukan kapag tinatanong ko sila. Noong unang linggo ay hindi ko iyon masyadong dinamdam ngunit tatlong linggo na ang nagdaan pero wala pa rin akong natanggap na text o tawag mula sa kanya. Hindi na rin siya active sa social media kaya ‘di ko maiwasang hindi mag-alala.

“Ang daya mo talaga! Sabi mo, hindi ka magaling?!”
bulyaw ni Kyle kay Gabriel nung matalo siya nito sa Tekken 7.

Gabriel winked at Kyle.
“Wala naman akong sinabing hindi ako magaling. Sinasabi ko sa ‘yo, magaling ako sa lahat, Kyle.”

“Kaya pala halos magmakaawa ka kay Mr. Arevalo na ipasa ka lang sa Physics,”
bulong ni Leonard.

Roque tapped the back of Gab.
“Grabe ka naman sa tropa natin, Leo. Hindi kasi ‘to tinuruan ni Kyle kaya muntik nang bumagsak.”

“Kasalanan pa ngayon ng kaibigan namin?”
Ezra got the controller from Kyle.

Gaya ng mga nagdaang araw ay maagang pumunta ang mga kaibigan ko sa aming mansyon para maglaro. Hindi man nila aminin ay alam kong nandito sila para samahan ako. Marahil ay hinabilin ito sa kanila ng aking mga magulang dahil wala naman akong ibang kalaro dito maliban kina Nanny Fe at Mang Noel.

“Zein, are you okay? Gusto mo ice cream?”

I snapped back to reality after hearing the voice of Aaron. I darted my eyes at him and shook my head in response. This would be the nth time if I asked them again about Gellian’s update, so I’m kind of hesitating if I will utter a word. As every day goes by, my heart seems to yearn for Gellian’s presence.

“Gusto mo… puntahan natin siya sa mansyon nila?”
Tanong ni Aaron habang nakabusangot ang mukha.

Levi shouted outloud.
“Wag niyo nang puntahan ‘yon! Kung ayaw niyang magparamdam, eh di ‘wag! Hindi siya kawalan.”

Roque pinched Levi’s cheek, hoping it would calm him down.
“Wag ka namang magalit sa tropa namin, babes. For sure… may problema si Gellian kaya hindi siya bumibisita kay Zein.”

“Ano naman kayang problema ng batang iyon?”
Turan ni Nanny Fe bago nilapag ang plato ng cookies sa maliit na lamesa.

Somehow, my worries lessened because of my friends. We played digital games and helped me decorate my room with colorful designs. They’re all teasing each other, making my room filled with laughter. I slammed my body exhaustedly into my bed after we finished.

“Zein, kanino galing ‘tong singsing?”
Kyle gestured with his hand on top of the bedside table.

I scratched my eyes before darting my gaze at Kyle.
”

That ring was given by Gellian. It has his and my initials engraved on it.

”

 

“Pre, kumusta naman ang iyong pakiramdam? Bawi ka nalang next life.”
Inakbayan nila Gab si Aaron.

Mabilis akong tumayo at lumapit sa kanya nung mapansin siyang nalungkot.
“Okay ka lang, Aaron? M-may sakit ka ba?”

My brows furrowed upon hearing all of them laugh hysterically. Leonard even held his stomach from so much joy. Without a second thought, I just laughed as well. This has become my habit of imitating everyone’s expressions whenever I’m unaware of what’s going on.

 

“Take this and stop crying. I will stay with you until your nanny came back.”

“Then, I’ll stay with you forever if she won’t come back. I will never leave you alone.”

“I’m Gellian, what your name?”

“Do you want to be… friends with me?”

“I’ll find you again, so don’t be sad. See you again, Zein.”

“Please stay! Gellian, please don’t leave me!”
I woke up to my own voice when I shouted helplessly.

 

Umupo ako mula sa pagkakahiga at pinunasan ang aking mga luha. Naghahabol ako ng hininga at hindi maganda ang aking kutob. Kagat ko ang aking ibabang labi para pigilan ang paghikbi. Maraming beses ko nang napaniginipan ang una naming pagkikita ni Gellian pero ngayon lang ako umiyak ng ganito.

I took a deep breath and let out a heavy sigh, hoping it would calm me down from whimpering, but it didn’t work. I dragged myself up and went out of my room to go to my parents’ room while holding my teddy bear. Mom’s hug might help me, and I also miss hearing my Dad read a fairytale during my bed time.

 

“Mommy? D-daddy? Where… are you po?”
I surveyed their whole room, but I couldn’t see a glimpse of them.

I hugged my teddy bear on my chest when the cold breeze of air brushed against my skin. My feet seemed to have their own minds when I walked towards the balcony where the windows are slightly open. The smile on my lips began to fade after hearing my dad talking on the phone.

 

“Maraming salamat, Allen. Hindi ko alam kung paano kami babangon kung wala kaming natanggap na tulong mo.”
My dad was leaning against the wall, which made him unable to notice to see me.

I know it’s not a good habit to gossip about someone else’s business, but I can’t help it. They might talk about Gellian, and my curiosity is haunting me even in my dreams.

 

Dad gasped for air, looking worried.
“Nirerespeto ko ang desisyon mo, Allen. I don’t have anything against your decision if you think this is the best for the children. I just can’t find a way to tell Zein this. My baby will surely feel downhearted once he knows his long-time friend will be gone—”

I interrupted him when I spoke with a shaky voice.
“D-dad, w-what did you say po? A-are you s-saying the truth? Did Gellian have plans to… leave me?”

I’m trying to keep myself prepared for what my dad was about to say. What he said earlier made my heart leap. His eyes were dreary when he turned his head towards me, and I knew that I was just waiting for his confirmation that he was telling the truth.

 

He tried to touch my shoulder, but I shrugged.
“Baby, anong ginagawa mo dito?”

“D-dad,”
I scoffed.
“Please be honest with me. I’m not a kid anymore, so I want you to slap the truth on my face.”

 

The moment he nodded his head, I felt like I had lost the world. The slightest hope that I had in my heart vanished in a quick snap. Reminiscing that dream, the same feelings come back to me. I realized that I’m still a child who’s terrified of being alone in the middle of nowhere.

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🌈💅

F.B.I-22

Naghahabol ako nang hininga nung bumaba ako ng kwarto. Nakita ko si Mommy na may kausap sa telepono at binaba niya iyon nung mapansin ako. I saw her gulped before she uttered a word.

“A-anak,”

“Mommy? T-totoo po bang aalis si Gellian? P-paano po ako?”
I clasped my hand tightily, and I could feel my tears forming up in my eyes.

She walked towards me while her legs were trembling from guilt.
”

A-anak, I’m sorry. T-this is our fault. I’m sorry if you have to suffer because of us.

”

Tuluyan nang bumagsak ang luha sa aking mga mata.
“Mom, I have to see him. I need to stop him from leaving me. I know… this is not what he wants.”

She took a glance at her wristwatch.
“Anak, hindi mo na siya maabutan. He should be at the Air Asia—”

I ran even before she finished her words. Narinig ko ang pagsigaw ni Mommy pero ‘di na ako lumingon. Natatakot akong tuluyan nang iwan ni Gellian. Hindi ko kakayanin.

“Manong, pakihatid po ako sa Air Asia. P-pakibilisan po.”
pakiusap ko sa driver ng taxi kung saan ako sumakay.

Napakatagal nang usad ng sasakyan at manhid na ang aking kamay sa kakatawag kay Gellian, pero hindi siya sumasagot. Parang nagkakarera ang bilis ng tibok ng aking puso sa halo-halong emosyon na aking nararamdaman.

“Manong, wala na po bang ibibilis ‘yan?!”
I gripped a scoop of my hair because of frustration.
“M-mahuhuli na po ako sa pupuntahan ko. M-maiiwan na po ako…”

Thirty minutes had passed when we reached the airport. I gave all of my money to the driver since I didn’t know how much it cost to drive me here. I cursed in my mind when I realized that I was only wearing my pajama shirt and pants. Still with my bedroom slippers on, I walked towards the airport’s entrance when the guard blocked my way.

“Sweetheart, nasaan ang kasama mo? Bawal kang pumasok kapag wala kang kasamang matanda.”
The lady guard gave me a heads up.

I bit my lower lip, trying to think of a good reason.
“M-miss, n-nando’n po yung k-kaibigan ko sa loob. Hindi ko na siya ulit… makikita kapag ‘di ko po siya maabutan.”

I saw the worry in her eyes when she heard how sincere I was after saying that.

”

I guess you… really love this friend a lot,”
then she looked at my slippers, which were almost worn off because of too much running.

“Yes po. Yung… k-kaibigan ko po na ‘yon… hindi niya po ako kayang iwan. Alam ko pong naghihintay siya sa ‘kin sa loob, so please…”
I sobbed.

Wala na akong pakialam kahit maraming tao ang naaawa sa akin. Ang mahalaga’y makapasok ako sa loob ng airport para pigilan si Gellian bago pa niya ako iwanan.

I shrugged when the lady guard caressed my back.
“Go ahead, sweetheart. I want you to leave this airport along with your childhood friend.”

Before rushing inside the airport, I nodded and smiled sweetly at her. Napaawang ang aking labi nung makitang sobrang lawak ng loob ng airport at makaramdam ng ginaw sa sobrang lamig. Yakap ko ang aking sarili nung magsimula akong maglakad sa ‘di ko malamang direksyon.

“G-Gellian, w-where are you? I’m now… here to pick you up this time.”
I whispered to myself while shaking from the cold.

Lakad dito, takbo doon. Pakiramdam ko’y nasa gitna ako nang kawalan. Nagsisimula na akong mawalan ng pag-asa. Lumipas pa ang ilang minuto at parang gusto ko ng sumuko pero sabi ng puso ko’y huwag. Pilit kong nilalakasan ang aking loob na huwag umiyak. Ang mapanuring mga tingin ng mga tao ang siyang nagpasidhi ng aking damdamin.

“Gellian!”
I yelled at the center crowd.
“N-nasaan ka na? S-sabi mo, hindi mo ‘ko iiwan! Nangako ka sa ‘kin na sabay tayong mangangarap! Nangako kang… s-sabay natin ‘yong tutuparin!”

Napaupo ako sa pinakamalapit na beam chair pagkatapos ko iyong isigaw. I covered my face with both of my hands while I was sobbing heavily. Tears keep on falling from my eyes, and my head feels so heavy. I was crying so hard, which made me catch my breath. I have never felt so pitiful in my whole life.

“I thought you didn’t want to see me,”
The voice of the guy that I’m looking for suddenly whispered. A warm jacket was wrapped around my body, sending shivers down my spine.

Kaagad akong tumingala nung marinig iyon. I wiped my tears using my back hand when I found out that I was right. It’s Gellian. He’s wearing a loose plaid longsleeve shirt over his white t-shirt. His wavy hair was combed upwards, and it made him more eye-catching. I couldn’t help but feel embarrassed about what I was wearing.

I gasped when he bent his knee to match my level and revealed the shoebox that he was hiding on his back. I was shocked when I saw that they were the Dolce and Gabbana shoes that I wanted to buy before. He placed my hand on his shoulder for support before he took off my worn slippers and put the shoes on my feet.

He arched his head and looked at my eyes after he’d done. ”
It looks good on you, baby.”

I stood up from my seat and held his wrist to guide him out of the airport, but he didn’t move at all. I turned my face to him and I couldn’t fathom the emotions in his eyes.

“L-let’s go, Gellian.”
I gave him an assuring smile.

He faltered.
“I’m sorry, Zein…”

Dahan-dahan akong kumalas mula sa pagkakahawak sa kanya.
“W-why? Is it because of me? Gellian, I promise I won’t bother you again, but please d-don’t… leave me.”
I pleaded.

He gave me a tight hug before he made his promise.
“Zein, babalik ako. B-babalikan kita, pangako. At sa oras na bumalik ako, hindi na kita ulit iiwan.”

“I… like you, Gellian.”
I mumbled between my sobs.

Gusto ko na siya simula pagkabata pero hindi ko lang kaagad naamin. Lagi siyang nand’yan sa tabi ko pero ngayon ko lang naipagtapat ang tunay kong nararamdaman. He’s my childhood friend, my puppy love, and the only person I want to have a happy ending with.

He nodded his head while caressing my back.
“I like you too, Zein. You don’t know how much you made me happy. I will strive hard until no one comes in our way to separate us again.

”

“Can you… promise that you’ll come back for me no matter how long?”

I surrendered.

Gellian held my hand and instantly beamed upon seeing his gift that I was wearing.
“Itong singsing na ‘to ang simbolo na babalik ako sa ‘yo. Kung wala ka pang asawa pagbalik ko… papakasalan na kita.

I will surely come back to continue our story, Zein.”

 

“Son, let’s go!”
Uncle Allen called him in an authoritative tone.

Gellian looked intently into my eyes. I swallowed the lump in my throat when his gaze went down to my lips. I closed my eyes when he moved his face close to me and felt relieved when he kissed my left hand.

“You’re still a baby, so… I guess this is where I should kiss you for now.”
He confessed before he messed with my hair.

Bumaling ang atensyon ko kay Tita Cecil nung siya’y magsalita.
“Zein, I’m sorry, but we have to g

o…”

Gellian cupped my face to make me focus on him. My chest tightened upon seeing his dreary eyes. It’s painful for me to see him like this. This is the first time I’ve seen this expression. He looks like… he’s barely living.

“S-should I… just stay, b-baby?”
His voice broke.

Is it okay for me to ask him to stay?

Gellian has always been with me since we were kids, and I know he would surely stay if I asked him to, but I think Uncle Allen is right. I guess… we need to let go of each other in order to grow.

Nakayukom ang aking kamao habang pinagmamasdan ang kanyang maamong mukha. Pilit kong tinatandaan ang bawat detalye nito upang hindi ko ito malimutan kung sakaling hindi niya na ako babalikan.
Labag man sa kalooban ko ay binigyan ko siya nang matamis na ngiti.

”

I

w-will wait for you, Sleepyhead.”

my voice broke.

Muli niya akong niyakap nang sobrang higpit na wari mo’y ayaw niya na akong pakawalan. Muling sumigaw si Tito Allen, hudyat na dapat ko na siyang bitawan. Bagsak ang kanyang balikat habang naglalakad palayo. Kasabay ng mabagal niyang paghakbang ay ang pagtulo ng aking mga luha. Kagat ko ang aking labi upang pigilan iyon na tawagin siyang muli at humiling na siya’y manatili.

Goodbye, my long-time friend, my knight in shining armor, and my first heartbreak.

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🌈💅

F.B.I-23

“As you can see, the profit in our Laguna resort slightly went up by 2% this month. This is not yet half of the profit that we gained from Cebu, Bohol, and Antipolo,”
I said, pointing at the presentation on the monitor.

Kaagad na nagbulungan ang mga staffs ng resort at bakas ang pangamba sa kanilang mga mukha. Ang ila’y nagpupunas ng kanilang mga luha habang ang iba’y walang emosyong ipinakita. Nanginginig ang aking tuhod pero kailangan kong maging matatag.

The pressure was on when dad gave me a fierce look.
“So… what’s your judgement, anak?”

I gulped before I spoke in a proud manner.
“We’re not going to reduce our staff or those cute freebies that we’re giving to all tourists.”

Napakamot ng ulo si Mommy.
“Baby, we really want to keep our people, but we need to have a good plan. Do you have something in mind?”

I pouted my lips.
“Wala po, pero isa lang ang alam ko… I don’t want our staff to lose their jobs. Some of them are still studying despite their age, while some are working to have something to feed their families.”

Ang agarang pagngiti ng aming mga tauhan ay sumisimbolo ng pag-asa. Wala man akong plano kung paano masasalba ang bawat isa sa kanila ay handa akong gawin ang lahat para sila’y manatili. Hindi ko na kayang mawalan pang muli.

Masakit. Napakasakit.

Dad tapped my shoulder when the staff left the conference room.

“You’re really an adult, anak! We can’t believe it. I still remember the day you pooped in your pants—”

I stamped my feet to stop him.
“Dad! I’m already 21, so don’t make me remember that day. That was the most embarrassing moment of my life, I swear!”

Pinunasan ni Mom ang kanyang luha sa sobrang kakatawa.
“Nakakaawa nga si Gellian noon, eh. Ayaw mong sumakay ng van kaya simula school hanggang mansyon, hinatid ka—”

Desperation envelopes me and I feel so down in just a brisk. That name is something I’m trying to avoid hearing. It’s funny how old memories flash across my mind very swiftly. 

“I’m okay, mom.”
I said in a small voice when she made a worried face.

Six years have passed since Gellian left, and a lot has changed. From being a happy-go-lucky child, I’m now helping my parents with managing our resort. While they handle our different resorts scattered around the Philippines, I was given the opportunity to supervise our resort here in Laguna.

I completed a Human Resource Management course a year ago. I just enjoyed studying and didn’t put too much pressure on myself, so I was surprised that I got the highest GPA amongst my colleagues.

Kyle graduated with Latin Honors in a course for BSBA (Bachelor of Science in Business Administration). Despite being a graduate of an accountancy course, Ezra decided to pursue his career in modelling. Meanwhile, Levi, on the other hand, broke up with Roque five years ago when Roque went to New York for his studies. Levi is now working as a photographer in a good agency.

Napabalikwas ako nung tumunog ang aking cellphone dahilan para bumalik ako sa reyalidad. Gumuhit ang ngiti sa aking labi nung makita ang pangalan ni Aaron na tumatawag. Simula nung highschool, hindi siya nakalimot na kamustahin ako araw-araw. Minsan nga’y saulo ko na ang mga kwento at mga banat niya.

“Hello baby! Bakit ang tagal mong sagutin? Pati ba naman sa tawag, matagal mo akong sagutin?”
Aaron sulked.

I rolled my eyes before I stood up from my chair. Opening the glass window, I leaned towards the balcony of my office. It’s now afternoon, so the breeze of the air will help me get through this long conversation.

“Sorry Aaron, medyo… busy kasi dito sa resort,”
I huffed.

I heard Aaron gasp.
“W-why? What happened? Do you want me to go there now?

Kumunot ang noo ko.
“Hindi ba may flight ka mamayang 5 pm? Gusto mo yatang sermonan ka ulit ng Chief mo hanggang madaling araw?”

Aaron is now a head pilot on Air Asia. I never thought that he would really become one when he said it six years ago. I don’t know when he started courting me, so I was shocked when he asked me before if we were finally official. Being single for 21 years, I never feel alone. That’s why I don’t feel the need to have someone as a partner. I have my family and my friends, which I call the Rainbow Squad, and I’m still hoping for someone to come back to fulfill his promise.

He chuckled awkwardly.
“Oo nga pala. Sorry, nakalimutan ko. I’m just worried about you. If you can’t handle the stress, just let me know, okay? Let me take you somewhere.”

“Talaga?! Sige, gusto kong pumunta sa Disneyland, Walt Disney, and Lego Land!”
I babbled excitedly.

“Wait! Wait!”
He scoffed.
“Baby, isa-

isa lang. Ang dami mo naman gustong puntahan. Nung last time na nagpunta tayo, mas sweet ka pa kay Mickey Mouse. Hindi mo na nga ako napapansin…”

“Huh? Is holding your hand throughout our trip not enough? I’m also allowing you to call me

baby

even though I hate it.”
I uttered nervously.

I gaped in disbelief upon hearing him let out a playful laugh.
“Hindi ka pa rin nagbabago. Ang bilis mo pa ring maniwala. I’m just kidding. No need to feel anxious, baby.

”

“You know what? Hindi na pala ako sasama sa ‘yo. Goodbye! Hmp!”
I frustratedly yell before ending the call.

 
Hindi pa ako nakakabalik sa aking lamesa ay muli na naman akong nakatanggap ng tawag. I grabbed a scoop of my hair, now on the verge of losing my patience. I could hear monsters howling in my brain, but I needed to keep calm as that is what other mature people do.

“Ano na naman ‘yon, Aaron? Kung aasarin mo lang ako ulit, hindi na nakakatuwa.”
I said in a monotone.

“Ghorl, w-wag mo sabihing… k-kayo na ni Aaron?! Hindi pwede! I mean, wag muna.”

I checked the screen and covered my mouth upon seeing the name of Kyle, who’s now calling. I sounded irritated, so I hope he didn’t notice. It seems like he’s much more interested in me and Aaron than the reason why he called.

“Hindi kami, okay? Alam niyo naman kung gaano ako ka-busy dito sa resort. Wala akong panahon sa mga ganyan.”
I lazily mumbled.

Kyle tsked.
“Good! Huwag ka munang magjo-jowa, baka maunahan mo pa ako. Anyway, you sounded stressed. Mind going to a club nearby? They just recently opened and it looks promising!”

“Club? Di ba pang-mature ‘yon? Sige, sama ako! Sawa na ako tawaging

baby

…”
Agad kong kinuha ang aking sporty mini bag at naglakad palabas ng office.

Binaba ko rin agad ang tawag nung makita si Mom na kausap ang isa sa mga staffs ng resort. Tumigil muna ako saglit at hinintay silang matapos bago lumapit. I hugged her waist, hoping she would soften for me.

Mom’s lips formed a smirk.
“Hula ko, may gusto ka na namang shoes, tama ba ako?”

“Mommy, wala po. Gusto lang kitang lambingin. Ayaw mo na ba sa cute mong baby, hmmm?”
I pouted my lips.

She shook her head. Amusement was evident in her face.
“Of course not! Why would I dislike my precious baby? Now, tell me, what’s the cause of your sudden sweetness, Zein Alexis?”

I stood up straight and showed her the time on my phone.
“Mommy, I’ll be… hanging out with my friends and promise to be back before 10 pm.”

She crossed her arms over her chest, raising one of her brows.
“Hapon pa lang naman tapos gabi ka na uuwi? Tatawagan ko si Mang Noel.”

I nervously raised my voice before she made the call.
“No, mommy! I’ll just book a cab since Mang Noel is tired too.”
I used my index finger and touched her arm.
“Wag mo akong isumbong kay Daddy, please?”

Bumuntong hininga siya bago ako bigyan nang pilit na ngiti.
“Do you know that your cuteness is your greatest strength, my baby? Looks like I don’t have a choice but to agree if you’re being so clingy.”

“You’re the best mommy ever!”
I kissed her on the cheek before I ran out of the cabin.

Nagpahatid ako sa taxi papunta kila Ezra dahil doon daw magkikita-kita bago dumiretso sa club. Namamanhid na ang pang-upo ko dahil halos dalawang oras ang biyahe simula Laguna hanggang Makati. Dumagdag pa ang traffic kaya mas lalo kaming natagalan.

“Zein, it’s been a long time. You still look fabulous!”
Pambobola sa akin ni Tita Maureen na Mom ni Ezra pagkatapos kong magmano.

Nagmano din ako kay Tito Christian nung lumapit ito sa akin.
“Sigurado ba talaga kayo nila Kyle na ayaw niyong mag-modelling? Sigurado akong pag-aagawan kayo ng mga talent agencies kung nagkataon.”

My eyes widened
“P-pag-aagawan? M-mas lalong ayoko na pong sumali. Baka po… masaktan kami. I’m not a good fighter po and I hate war, tito.”

Napatakip ng mukha si Tito Christian habang si Tita Maureen ay tumawa nang malakas. Tumawa nalang din ako gaya ng nakasanayan. Our laughter filled the living room, which my friends probably heard when they went down the stairs. I just followed them as they guided me towards the bedroom.

I was shocked when Kyle made me sit on the vanity chair. In front of me is a huge, flashy mirror. There are makeup palettes, brushes, and some products that I’m not familiar with. My hands tightly gripped the stool edge when Ezra held my chin to make me focus on his face.

“The guards won’t let you in if you have this baby face, Zein. Trust me, we will make you look… mature, just like what you wanted.”
Ezra assured me before they get started.

 

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F.B.I-24

Wearing a half-sleeved V-neck shirt, Autumn Loose Wide-Leg pants, and a pair of square-toed vintage shoes, I walked inside the club together with Kyle and Ezra. I heard some guys whistling while looking at us with a grin on their faces. Their stares send shivers down my body.

Ito ang unang beses na pumunta ako sa ganitong lugar kaya nabigla ako sa aking mga nakita. Napakaraming nagsasayawan sa gitna kasabay ng malakas na musika. Ang mga lamesa’y puno ng iba’t-ibang uri ng alak. Umiwas naman ako ng tingin nung mahagip ng aking mata ang mga nagyayakapan sa madilim na parte.

Umupo nalang kami sa sulok na table at pinakiramdaman ang paligid. Gusto ko nang umuwi pero masyado akong naaaliw sa mga kaedaran naming masayang sumasayaw sa dance floor.

I was taking a glance at a random guy when I noticed he was going towards our table. He has a nice face and a slim upper body, which was pretty obvious since he was wearing a white fitted long sleeved shirt.

“Hello! All three of you look new here. Wanna to join us at our table so we can have fun together? I’m Jake by the way.”
He offered after he sat beside Kyle.

Kyle arched one of his brows at the guy.
“I’m sorry, Jake, but we’re not available to have fun with you and your friends.”

 

“So… you’re all taken?”
Jake asked curiously.

Ezra answered on behalf of all of us.
“No, we’re not taken and we’re not interested either.”

Napaawang ang kanyang labi matapos masilayan ang mukha ni Ezra. Jake took a picture with Ezra before he went back to his friend’s table, feeling delighted. He said he’s a fan of Ezra, so he almost passed out upon having a photo with his idol.

I rubbed my index finger on the top of our table, pouting my lips.
“What’s taking Levi so long? I’m beginning to worry about—”

Napatigil ako nung may umakbay naman sa akin. Gumawi naman ang aking tingin sa lalaking nasa tabi ko na ngayon. He has this bad boy look and style, and I don’t like that. He’s also wearing all black, and that’s a massive turn off. I want something sprinkly and bright. 

“You’re just exactly my type. May I have your number?”
He pulled me close to him, which made my friends begin to worry.

I gave my friends an I-got-this-look before I removed the hand of the guy that was snaked on my shoulder. Levi has already taught me how to decline a guy, and I want to give it a shot to see if it works. His lips parted when I got close and gave him a playful smirk.

“If I gave you my number, what should I use then?”
I saw how he licked his lower lip. I let out a soft laugh.
“Just kidding, kuya. I’m already married. Thanks for liking me.”

 

Nanlaki ang mata ko nung bigla niya akong halikan sa pisngi bago umalis ng table namin. Pilit pinoproseso ng utak ko ang pangyayari at hindi ako makagalaw. Pinigilan ko naman sila Ezra at Kyle bago pa nila sundan ang lalaki dahil sigurado akong gulo ang kakahantungan nito.

But that guy just stole a kiss from me!

Never in my life have I let someone kiss me other than my family and Rainbow Squad. I’m very OC and I don’t like someone kissing me without my permission.

“Levi, ang tagal mo! Kanina pa namin gustong umuwi!”
sigaw ni Kyle nung makita si Levi na palapit sa amin.

Levi is looking good with his black slim tank top, loose blazer, fitted jeans, and leather booth. Seeing a lot of guys looking at Levi as he walks is nothing new to me. He gave us a hug before sitting beside me.

My forehead creased.
“Oo nga, Levi. Ang sakit na ng tenga ko. Dapat sa resort nalang namin tayo nag-party, eh.”

“Hayaan mo na, minsan lang naman ‘to. Enjoy nalang tayo.”
Ezra said after he tap my shoulder.

I swallowed upon seeing Levi putting down bunches of alcoholic beverages on our table. I tried to drink secretly before, and I remember throwing up until the sun rose. My parents scolded me that day. I could still hear them yell their hearts out at my head.

“Zein, hindi ka pwedeng uminom nang marami. Malalagot kami kay Tito Simon ‘pag nalasing ka.”
paalala sa akin ni Ezra.

Kyle gulped down the glass of liquor before he spoke in a lazy tone.
“Hindi ka magiging mature Zein kung hindi ka malalasing nang sobra. Let’s get wasted tonight, Rainbow Squad!”

Sinubukan akong pigilan ni Levi pero huli na ang lahat nung lagukin ko ang bote ng Smirnoff. Humagod ito sa aking lalamunan at halos maduwal ako nang matapos. My friend’s face stiffened upon seeing the bottle that’s now completely empty.

Nagsimula na ring uminom sila Ezra kaya sinabayan ko nalang sila. Ang paningin ko’y umiikot at pakiramdam ko’y sobrang init ng aking katawan. Mahigpit ang kapit ko sa lamesa, takot na baka ako’y matumba.

“Ghorls, gusto niyo na bang umuwi? Mukhang lasing na kayo. Tatawag na ako ng taxi.”
ani ni Levi pagkatapos niyang ubusin ang lahat ng alak sa lamesa.

I chuckled when Kyle stood up from his seat, looking dozy.
“Hindi pa ako lasing! Kaya ko pa ang sarili ko.”

Pumalakpak ako nung magsimula si Kyle na maglakad papuntang dance floor. Para siyang rubber duckies ko na pagewang-gewang kaya sinundan ko na siya. Masilaw ang iba’t-ibang ilaw pero nagawa kong makalapit sa kanya. Ginaya ko naman si Kyle nang makita ko siyang gumiling kasabay ng nakaka-indak na tugtugin.

I rolled my eyes when a stranger held my waist and abruptly pulled me close to him. I could barely see his face since I was drunk, but I could feel how he kissed my neck. My arms instantly wrapped around his nape when I almost fell from my feet.

“Do you want me to take you to heaven, my angel?”
He whispered in my ear.

 

I rested my face on his hard chest.
“H-heaven? But I don’t want to die yet. I have someone I’m waiting for, so I can’t. I’m sorry, kuya.”

Bumaling ang atensyon ko nung hawakan ni Levi ang aking palapulsuhan at inilayo ako mula sa lalaki. Hawak niya kaming dalawa ni Kyle at pinabalik sa upuan kung nasaan kami kanina. I took a nap on the table when I felt drowsy. The effect of the alcohol makes me feel sick and exhausted. My friends are with me, and I’m sure they won’t leave my wasted self behind.

 

I will never drink alcohol again in my whole life!

 

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F.B.I-25

I grabbed a scoof of my hair, hoping it could lessen the nausea that I was feeling. I slightly opened my puffy eyes and gasped upon realizing that I was not in my room. The roof doesn’t have glow-in-the-dark stickers and the wallings are not colorful either.

“M-mommy?! Daddy? Nanny Fe? Mang Noel? N-nasaan po kayo?”
I started to cry because of nervousness.

Someone gently slapped my face, and it made me snap back to reality. I turned my head on my side and saw Kyle laughing while covering his mouth. Ezra was sleeping peacefully on his left.

Nandito pala ako sa condo ni Levi.

Maingat kong inayos ang hinigaan ko dahil baka magising si Ezra. Alam kong pagod din siya kahapon dahil sa sunod-sunod niyang photoshoots pero pinili niya pa ring makasama kami kagabi. Gaya ko ay paniguradong malalagot si Kyle kay Tita Cynthia kapag nalaman niyang nalasing ang kanyang anak kaya ‘di rin ito nakauwi.

“Bakit kaya ang ganda niya kahit tulog?”
Kyle said in a soft voice, looking at Ezra.

Nakahalumbaba akong humiga sa kama para pagmasdan din si Ezra nang maigi.
“Yeah, he looks like a male barbie.”

Sinundan ko nang tingin si Kyle nung tumayo ito at lumapit sa bedside table ni Levi. Pagharap niya’y mayroon na siyang hawak na color pens habang nakangisi ang kanyang labi. He sat on the edge of the bed before he opened the cap of the marker.

“Zein, you like bright colors right?”
Kyle wiggled his brows.

“Yup, I like rainbows.”
I gave him a smile without knowing what he was about to tell me.

Kyle took a picture of Ezra’s colorful face after we made our piece of art. Ezra’s eyebrows are now connected to each other, and his noseline is now detailed because of how Kyle drew it. The cheeks, forehead, and chin of Ezra look pretty with different shapes and cartoon characters, which were drawn by me.

“Mission accomplished!”
malakas naming ani ni Kyle bago mag-apir.

Tumakbo palabas si Kyle mula sa kwarto nung magising si Ezra. Napansin kong nakatingin si Ezra sa hawak kong color pens kaya tinago ko iyon agad sa aking likuran. Binigyan ko siya nang matamis na ngiti ngunit huli na ang lahat nung buksan niya ang camera ng kanyang cellphone at pinagmasdan ang kanyang makulay na mukha.

“ZEEEEEEEEEEEEIIIIIIIIINNNNN!!!”

Tanghali na nung dumating si Mang Noel sa condo ni Levi para sunduin ako. Kasalukuyan akong nakadungaw sa bintana ng van nung tumunog ang aking cellphone. I cleared my throat before answering my mom’s call.

“Baby, where are you?! Kanina pa kita hinihintay dito sa resort. Saan ka ba natulog kagabi?”
She exclaimed.

I scratched my head, trying to think of a good reason.
“M-Mommy, nag-sleep over ako kila… Levi. Tama! Natulog ako sa kanila.”

My mom chuckled.
“Wag ka nang magsinungaling, halata ka masyado, anak. By the way, did Mang Noel pick you up?”

I nodded, even though she couldn’t see me.
“Yes, mommy. Nakasakay na po ako sa car.”

I heard her squealed.
“Naku! Pakisabi kay Mang Noel na ihatid ka niya agad dito dahil may mahalagang bisita sa resort.”

I stayed silent for a few seconds before I talked.
“S-Sino po-”

“Basta, I’ll be waiting for you here, anak. Fighting!”
She excitedly said then ended the call.

Nung napag-alaman ko ang bisita sa resort ay kumaripas ako nang takbo papasok. Hindi ako makapaniwalang ang matagal ko nang hinihintay ay narito na sa wakas. Napatigil ako sa pagtakbo nang makarating sa exclusive pool at masaksihan ang maraming tao na nakasuot ng itim na T-Shirt. May nakatatak sa
crew
sa kanilang likuran.

“Okay, rolling na tayo. Scene 362, take five in 3,2,1… action!”
sigaw ng lalaki na tingin ko’y direktor.

A familiar voice of a man shouted.
“Mahal kita! Hindi pa ba malinaw sa ‘yo ang nararamdaman ko?”

Napangiti ako nung makita siya. He’s at the pool, and he’s not wearing anything on top. I can’t believe his face didn’t change at all. His body became more sculpted; it seems like he often went to the gym to do some workouts. I know he’s an actor from Germany, so I was shocked to see him here.

“Kung ganon, patunayan mo! Gusto kong patunayan mong… mahal mo ako!”
biglang sabat ng isang babaeng kaharap niya sa pool.

A lot of cameras are filming them. The whole place was silent, and they were the only people talking. I couldn’t believe that they would film here at our resort amongst the other settings.

Pakiramdam ko’y nadurog ang puso ko nang bigla niyang hinalikan ang babae. I saw how he held the waist of the girl who was only wearing a red bikini to deepen the kiss. The girl immediately hugged his neck in reply to his kisses.

Bakit ako nasasaktan?

Sino ba ako para magdamdam
?

I

know they’re just acting, but why do I feel like dying?

Tumulo ang mga luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan nang mabaling sa akin ang kanyang tingin. He immediately pushed the girl when he saw me wiping my tears. Akma siyang tatakbo palapit sa akin nang biglang sumigaw ang direktor.

“Gellian, what’s your problem today?! Kanina ka pa wala sa sarili. Paano tayo matatapos n’yan?”
Disappointment was evident in the tone of his voice.

Gellian mumbled.
“S-Sorry, boss. Can we take a short break? I just need to-”

The director cut him off.
“No! Let’s start again. We need to finish this now

!”

I just turned my back and dragged my feet to walk out of that scene. My sight was blurry and I felt heavy inside. Nasasaktan ako sa di malamang dahilan. Matagal ko na siyang hinihintay pero hindi ito ang inaasahan kong makita.

Gellian came back,

The man who asked me to wait for him patiently to come back is finally here!

My old friend, my Knight in Shining Armor, and the other half of my heart came back after 6 years of yearning.

Hindi pa ako tuluyang nakakalabas ng resort nang bigla akong makaramdam ng pagkahilo. Humawak ako sa aking tiyan nung umalboroto ito. I really thought that the soup that Levi prepared for us would help me fight my hangover, but it seems like it didn’t. My body instantly lowered when I threw up everything I ate this morning.

“Alak pa,”

I looked up and rolled my eyes upon seeing Aaron with his familiar smirk. He rubbed my back to help me, and I’m glad that it worked somehow. I grabbed the handkerchief in his pants pocket and wiped it on my lips.

Aaron fixed my hair with his fingers, which made me startle.

“Baby, ‘di ba sabi ko naman sa ‘yo na wag kang iinom ng alak? Dapat milk lang or Yakult to improve your digestion.”

“May shift ka later, ‘di ba? Bakit ka pala nandito?”
Pag-iiba ko ng usapan.

He bit his lower lip.
”

Well, I’m here because my baby is here and I was informed that my rival is now shooting here at your resort. Did you see him?

”

“Yeah, your… baby saw me.”
A deep voice intrudes.

Kaagad kaming napatingin ni Aaron sa pinanggalingan ng boses. Hindi na ako nagulat nang makita si Gellian. He’s now wearing a short-sleeve shirt, beach shorts, and his steampunk sunglasses. His wet, tapered hair was now combed upwards. I couldn’t see his eyes because of his shades, but I knew he was mad. He’s so easy to read.

Agad akong inakbayan ni Aaron bago ngumisi kay Gellian.
“Bro, I thought you wouldn’t come back. It’s been six years, pero… bakit ngayon ka lang nagparamdam? We missed you.”

Gellian’s jaw clenched before he took off his sunglasses and centered his eyes on me,
“I missed you too.”

Parang binuhusan ako nang malamig na tubig matapos kong marinig iyon. Lahat ng alaala at mga pangako niya’y sumaging muli sa aking isip. I took a glance at Aaron, sending him a signal that I wanted to leave. He nodded his head and covered my face with his chest. I’m glad he did that when a lone tear rolls down from my eyes.

“Bro, mauuna na kami ng baby ko. It’s good to see that you’re here again. Welcome back, Gellian.”
Aaron bid his goodbye before he guided me towards his motorbike.

Marahan akong sumulyap kay Gellian at binigyan siya nang tipid na ngiti bago ko suotin ang helmet. Gellian’s frowned face kept registering in my panicked brain as Aaron started the engine. My heart raced from shock when Aaron held my hands and wrapped them around his waist for support. When Aaron drives his flashy motorcycle at a fast pace, I feel like my soul has left my body.

“Kumapit kang maigi, baby. Baka ako yung maunang bumitaw… kung mahulog ka sa kanya ulit.”
Aaron mumbled, which I barely heard from the loud sound of his stifling engine.

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F.B.I-26

“Sigurado ka bang… pwede ako dito?”
Tanong ko kay Aaron nung tumigil siya sa bago niyang bahay.

He told me last week that his house had just recently finished construction, so I was shocked that he would bring me here. It’s a bungalow- style one-storey house. It looks tantalizing because of the pyramid and hip roofing styles. I like how the color seems bright in my eyes.

Aaron took off my helmet and gave me a peck on my cheek. I hit his chest, which made him laugh. I’m not yet moved on from how the guy last night kissed me abruptly, and Aaron did it as well. These guys are losing my last bit of sanity.

“Sorry na, baby. Ang cute mo kasi ‘pag nagagalit—Aray!”
He growled in pain when I pinched the side of his tummy.

I couldn’t help but admire his home inside. The interior design of his house screams success and elegance. The walls, flooring, and even the furniture are all shining in my eyes since it’s all brand new. I roamed around and saw a sliding door that had has an empty room. Curiosity hit me, so I turned my eyes back to Aaron.

“Kanino yung kwarto na ‘yon?”
I pointed at the room.

“That’s yours,”
He proudly uttered.

Tumaas ang kilay ko.
“B-bakit may k-kwarto ako dito? Hindi na ba ako matutulog sa… mansyon namin? Am I g-going to live here… with you?”
I stuttered, feeling nervous.

He cupped my trembling face.
“Relax, baby. Hindi kita pipilitin. Kung gusto mong mag-stay sa mansyon niyo, that’s fine with me. Gusto ko lang sabihin sa ‘yo na… kung ako yung piliin mo, hinding-hindi kita iiwan.”

Aaron’s statement kept flickering in my brain as I slammed my body into my bed. It’s almost midnight and I’m already wearing my nightie pajamas. Because of my anxiety, I wasn’t able to eat properly at our dinner earlier. It’s Aaron who’s stressing me out during the day and Gellian in my dreams every night. I reached for my phone when I heard it ding. Pulling myself up from my bed, I checked my squad’s group chat, which I renamed when we finished high school.

 

GC Name: Rainbow Squad
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@kyle.ateniano:

NAKAKAINIS HMP!

 @ezra.g.carson:

Ako nga dapat yung mainis sa ‘yo, Kyle. Akala ko talaga kung ano nang nangyari sa ‘yo!

Me:

Wait, anong nangyayari? Wag kayong mag-away pls.

@levi_sullivan:

Kyle, Ezra, sabihin niyo kung anong problema bago umiyak yung baby Zein natin…

 @ezra.g.carson
:

Iyan kasi si

@kyle.ateniano

,

ang sabi niya pinapapunta daw siya ni Tita Cynthia, eh ‘di ko naman kasama si Tita kaya pumunta ako kanila kahit may shooting ako.

@kyle.ateniano
:

Sorry

 @ezra.g.carso

n, pero ang kinakainis ko talaga ay yung lalaking nag-interview sa akin kanina. Akala niya ang gwapo niya! Feeling may-ari ng kompanya! Ang presko tsaka mukhang manyak!

@levi_sullivan
:

Baka pogi naman talaga? Mukha bang daks si papi? OMG!!! Balitaan mo ‘ko Kyle, bigyan kita ng tips!

Me:

DAKS? Ano yun
@levi_sulliva
n?

@ezra.g.carso
n
:

Ipaliwanag mo kay Zein, Levi hahaha!

@kyle.ateniano:

LT! Nawala yung galit ko hahaha! Kaya mo yan, Levi!

@levi_sullivan
:

Ang daks ay mabait, maginoo at masunurin. Iyan ang katangian ng dakilang lalaki na dapat mong hanapin. Gets mo

@zein-garcia

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Me:

Okie, gets ko na. Thank you for letting me know! I’ll keep the word “Daks” in mind.

Nagising ako nang maaga kinabukasan dahil matagal-tagal na rin akong hindi nakapag-drive ng sarili kong kotse. It was my 18th birthday when dad bought me a Porsche Turbo S car with a bright color scheme because he knew I liked it. I hugged my flashy car before I opened the door and sat in the driver’s seat.

I excitedly gripped the steering wheel.
“Let’s go, my little pony. We need to reach our destination without a scratch and accident, okay?” 

Turning on the speaker of my car, I chose the song “Let it go” from the movie Frozen because I will surely let go of my fear. I will try to keep calm so I can reach our resort smoothly. Noong una’y nag-e-enjoy naman ako sa pagmamaneho dahil wala pa akong nakakasalubong na mga sasakyan sa compound pero nung makarating ako sa main road ay nagsimula na ang aksyon.

“G-get off my way!”
I yelled at the car in front of me while I kept on pressing my little pony’s horn.

 

Binagalan ko ang pagmamaneho pero binusinahan naman ako ng mga sasakyan na nasa aking likod.
Ayaw nila nang mabilis, pero ayaw din nila nang mabagal? Saan ba ako lulugar?

 

When I saw a shiny, armored black Lamborghini turn in front of me, my eyes widened in awe. The driver inside must be an expert based on how smooth he is when driving. Biting my lower lip, I followed the car when it went on the side road.

 

“Little Pony, sundan natin si Darky.”
sambit ko habang taimtim na nakamasid sa magarang kotse na nasa aking harapan.

I’m glad that Darky, who I named for the auto in front, didn’t switch lanes. It seems like we’re going to the same place, so I wonder if he’s also going to my destination. I’ve been managing our resort for a year now, but this is the first time that I’ve seen such a luxurious car. 

Isang metro nalang ang layo ko sa resort nang tumunog ang ringtone ko. Kinapa ko ang aking phone sa shotgun seat habang nakatingin sa daan kaya nahirapan akong mahagilap. I let out a deep sigh when my phone dropped from the seat, so I had no choice but to pick it up.

 

“Oh my gosh!”
I uttered this nervously after I heard a loud bump outside.

 

Kasabay nang paglaki ng aking mata ay ang paghawak ko sa aking bibig matapos kong makitang nabunggo ni Darky si Little Pony ko. Dali-dali akong bumaba ng sasakyan at huminga nang maluwag nang makitang wala naman itong gasgas. Sigurado akong papagalitan ako ni Daddy kung nagkataon.

”
Hindi pa rin nagbabago. Tsk!”

I averted my gaze from the guy with a deep voice on my back. He’s at least 6 feet tall, if I’m not mistaken. His face is covered with a face mask and shades, just as Ezra does whenever our squad goes on a trip, so I’m wondering if he’s a model as well. He had white skin, and looking at his body, it seemed like he went to the gym frequently. 

“Paano na ngayon ‘to? Your rainbow car bumped into mine.  Look at the scratches right here,”
He calmly said while pointing at his damaged trunk.

Lumapit naman ako sa kotse niya at niyakap iyon.
“OMG! I’m so sorry, Darky. My Little Pony didn’t do it intentionally. We will go to Car Repair to treat you, okay? ”

 

The tall driver covered his face, resisting the urge to laugh. Sumulyap ako sa suot kong singsing nung mapansing kaparehas no’n ang pendant ng kanyang kwintas. Kaagad akong humakbang palapit at sinuri iyong mabuti. Narinig ko ang kanyang pagbuntong hininga matapos kong hawakan ang suot niyang pamilyar na singsing.

Bumaling ang atensyon ko sa daan nung marinig ko ang pagharurot ng isang motorsiklo na palapit sa akin. Agad naman akong hinatak ng lalaki palapit para di ako masagasaan dahilan para mapayakap ako sa kanyang balikat. He smelled like a sweet strawberry, which made my heart calm. I really wanted to see him, so I reached for his face mask and gently pulled it down. My heart started to beat so fast upon seeing the guy’s face.

“This is how I wanted you to welcome me, my Little Pony.”
Gellian professed before he gets close to my face.

 

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F.B.I-27

I pushed him a bit when Gellian almost kissed my lips. Roaming my eyes around, I checked to see if there was someone around and breathed out after I saw that there wasn’t. It’s still early in the morning and the way towards our resort didn’t get passed by the cars that much during the morning.

 

“T-thank you for saving me, Darky—I mean, Gellian.”
I slipped my tongue.

Gellian put his shades up to his hair which revealed his tantalizing eyes. I wasn’t able to check him this close yesterday so I guess this is the right time to do that. Nagdaan man ang anim na taon ay hindi nagbago ang kanyang maamong mukha. Mas tumangkad lang ito at lumaki ang katawan.

I wonder if he has already found his perfect match. It’s been a long time, so he probably dated a lot of girls while I stayed single since birth. I hadn’t thought of looking for a partner when he left me because I was still holding on to his promise. He promised that he would marry me six years ago once he came back, so I’m lowkey hoping. Nonetheless, I would still support him if he found the right one, even if it’s not me.

Hindi ko na napansin na umiiyak na pala ako habang nakatingin sa kanya. Bakas ang pag-aalala sa kanyang mukha habang pinupunasan ko ang aking mga luha. Kinuyom ko ang aking kamao para humupa ang aking nararamdaman.

Muli akong sumulyap sa kanyang sasakyan.
“N-naiyak lang ako kasi… naaawa ako kay Darky.”
I lied.

Gellian gasped in disbelief.
“Are you calling my car Darky? I thought Darky was how you… called me earlier.”
He frowned.

I bet he didn’t know that his frowned face was my weakness since we were kids. He’s being extra cute whenever he puckers his lips and his brows furrow afterwards. I could watch his grumpy face all day without getting tired.

”
I really want to call you Darky, but I will only call someone Darky if he’s

Daks

like Aaron. Oh? It sounds like a tongue twister—”

He cut me off when he growled.
“Ano?! T-totoo ba yung narinig ko? Tinawag mong daks yung mokong na ‘yon?”

Tumango naman ako kaagad.
“Yup! Aaron is really daks. You aren’t daks like him, so I won’t call you Darky.”

“Okay,”
Tipid niyang sagot bago bumalik sa loob ng kanyang sasakyan at mabilis iyong pinaandar.

Did I get him mad?

Did I stamp on his pride when I said that Aaron is much kinder, a gentleman, and more obedient than he was?

Did he not catch my joke and take it seriously?

 

Mabilis akong lumabas ng sasakyan matapos ko iyong iparada sa parking lot na nasa labas ng aming resort. Maaga pa kaya nagulat ako nang salubungin ni Tatay Celso, siya ang gwardya ng resort namin dito sa Laguna.

“Zein, alas-10 pa ang meeting kasama ang mga business planners. Bakit ang aga mo yatang dumating?”
Ani niya matapos sumulyap sa kanyang relo.

“Maaga po akong nagising para makapag-prepare. Kumain na po ba kayo?”
I opened my small purse and handed him a one-thousand peso bill, which he tensely declined.

“Naku, Zein! Wag ka nang mag-abala, kakatapos ko lang mag-almusal. A-alam kong nagtitipid ka rin pampasahod sa amin dahil hindi ganoon kalakas… ang kita dito sa resort.”
Dispair was evident in his voice.

I tapped his shoulder.
“Wag po kayong mag-alala. Gagawa po ako ng paraan para maresolba ang problema ng ating resort. Hindi ko po kayo… papabayaan.”

I immediately slammed myself on the glass table upon seeing bunches of paperwork. These are probably some reviews and the list of cancelled reservations at our resort. Summer is about to come, so it makes me wonder why some reservations have been called off. 

 

The business planners arrived at 10 am. They were suggested by my dad, so they must be prominent. I welcomed them with a hug as they entered the conference room. My hands were clasped, hoping it would relieve my nervousness. 

 

“G-Garcia Private Resort here in Laguna has been experiencing a loss of… customers and visitors for the past few months. U-unlike the other branches, it received the lowest income for this year.”
I barely managed to speak, while looking at their judging eyes on me.

 

My parents aren’t here to help me out, and I’m now in front of a lot of professionals who I only met today. My knees are trembling under the table, but I have to keep myself firm. I promised our workers that I would do my best to surpass this crisis, so I have to be strong. 

 

  
A guy who’s probably around my age cleared my throat.
“Hello

I’m Nico, a businessman from Alore Ventures, and your dad asked me to guide you with your plans. How are you, Zein?” 

 

Di ko sinasadyang pagtaasan siya ng kilay.
“I’m fine, Nico. Do you know me before?”

 

Masuri kong pinagmasdan ang kanyang mukha at sigurado akong ngayon ko lang siya nakita. He called me by my first name in a very casual tone, as if he knew me for a long time, it made me cringe. He seems like a fine guy, but I don’t like the way he looks at me.

 

It feels strange.

“This is the first time that I saw you, Mr. Garcia. I’m sorry if I sounded rude. My friends often say that I am but…”

“Let’s go back to our business, sir. Do you have something to add?”
I said in a monotone.

 

Kagaya ko’y nakamasid din sa kanya ang ilang business planners. Ang iba’y napapangisi nalang habang ang iba’y bakas ang pagkadismaya. Hindi ko mawari kung saan siya kumuha ng lakas ng loob na kamustahin ako sa gitna ng aming mainit na diskasyon.

“Do you know that there’s a new resort that just recently opened a few blocks away from here, Mr. Garcia?”
Nico scoffed.

 

Napuno ng samut saring bulungan ang office. Hindi rin ako nakasagot kaagad dahil maaaring iyon ang dahilan ng pagkalugi ng aming resort. Huminga ako nang malalim bago sumambit ng salita.

“Pardon my ignorance, Nico. Do you happen to know who owns the resort nearby?”

He bit his lower lip.
“None other than the most influential businessman, Mr. Allen Zamora. The father of a great actor, Gellian Ross Zamora.”

 

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F.B.I-28

“How’s the meeting, baby? Did it turn well?”
Mom asked after she sipped on her orange juice.

I stopped slicing my steak and gave her a wry smile.
“I guess so. I learned a lot from them, even those things… I’m not aware of.”

Dad put some veggies on my plate.
“Mabuti kung gano’n, anak. I guess we shouldn’t call you baby from now on. You’re just a late bloomer, but you’ve fully become an adult. All of us are so proud of you.” 

Malalim na ang gabi pero hindi pa rin ako natutulog. Ramdam ko na ang antok at manhid na rin ang aking mga daliri sa kakatipa ng keyboard sa pagre-research. Humahanap ako ng ideya kung paano maisasalba ang nanganganib naming resort sa Laguna. Buo ang tiwala sa akin nila Dad, kasama ng mga workers namin at ayoko silang biguin.

I searched for my phone when I heard it beep. Letting out a deep breath, I checked who texted me and gasped upon seeing it was Aaron. He sent me a good night message, so I replied the same way. He always sends me a text message before and after his flight and calls me when he’s free.

Maya-maya pa’y tumunog muli ang aking cellphone. Nagdadalawang isip pa ako kung sasagutin ko ito dahil hindi naka-save sa contacts ko ang tumatawag. Matapos ang limang missed calls ay sinagot ko na rin ito sa wakas.

“H-hello? I think you dialed the wrong number.”
I mumbled, then pouted my lips.

I heard a familiar laugh on the other line.
“I’m sure I’m calling the right person. This is the number of the reckless driver who bumped and scratched my brand new car, isn’t it?”

Walang duda na si Gellian itong kausap ko. Sa pagkaka-alala ko’y hindi ko binigay sa kanya ang number ko nung huli naming pagkikita. Galit siya no’n pero mahinahon na siya ngayon.

“Really? I’m sorry. I can’t remember bumping into someone’s car because I’m a careful driver. I don’t want my little pony to get scratched, Kuya.”
I teased him.

Gellian tsked, which made me chuckle in my brain.
“K-kuya? Don’t test my patience, Zein. I know you know who I am. And stop calling me Kuya. I just… hate it.”

I twirled my soft hair into my fingers.
“What shall I call you, then? Oh, you want me to call you Darky, right?”

In a husky voice, he whispered.
“Whatever you want, except from Kuya.”

I cut the chase.
“If you’re calling me to ask about the payment for the damage I did to your car, you can send me your bank account and I’ll pay you there, Darky. Have a good night.”

I was about to hang up when he shouted.
“Wait! Don’t leave me—I mean, w-why? Don’t you want to see me again? I miss you… Zein.”

I miss you too, Gellian.

I wanted to say these words, but I don’t know what would change if I did. Mukhang masaya na siya sa career niya at kontento na rin ako sa buhay ko ngayon. Ayoko nang masaktan ulit. Natatakot akong baka iwan niya akong muli at kung mangyari iyon, baka hindi ko na kayanin.

I sobbed quietly as I wiped my tears away.
“I’m s-sorry, Gellian. I can’t… see you. I have an important meeting tomorrow and I think I won’t be available to meet you because of my busy schedule.”

Alam kong abala din siya sa sunod-
sunod niyang shooting dahil sa bago niyang movie. He’s an award-winning actor, and most of his films are blockbusters. He seems out of reach now, which makes me glad for his success.

Whatever he does, I’m always behind him. I’m the shadow of his spotlight, and I will always be.

 

“Are you going with your… boyfriend tomorrow?”
Hesitation was clear in Gellian’s tone.

“B-boyfriend?!”
I scoffed.
“Who? I can’t remember having one.”

 

“Good,”
He giggles on the other line, which I find odd.

I barely heard him.
“What did you just say?”

 

“Sabi ko, matulog ka na. Ang mga baby hindi dapat nagpupuyat—”

Binaba ko kaagad ang tawag nung asarin niya ako. Wala pang ilang segundo ay muli na naman siyang tumawag pero ‘di ko na iyon sinagot. Humiga muna ako saglit sa aking kama dahil kanina pa ako humihikab.
Simula pagkabata ay hindi ko talaga kayang magpuyat kahit anong pilit ko.

“Anak, gabi na. May lakad ka, hindi ba?”

I leisurely opened my eyes because of the sound of a calming voice. Pulling up my body from my bed, I saw Nanny Fe sitting on my bed with a smile on her face. I hugged her waist like a child and snapped back to my senses upon seeing the dark sky outside my window.

Sumulyap ako ang aking alarm clock sa bedside table at napasigaw sa kaba.
“OMG! Has my Donald Duck clock stopped functioning? Or is it really 9 pm, Nanny Fe?”

 

“Alas-9 na talaga ng gabi, anak. Ginising lang kita dahil naalala kong aalis ka.”
She caressed my back to get a hold of myself.

 

Mabilis kong kinuha ang aking phone at napahawak sa aking bibig matapos makita ang napakaraming text at tawag ng iba’t-ibang tao. I dragged myself out to my room’s balcony before I dialed the number for Nico, which he gave me yesterday.

 

“Hello Zein! I thought you forgot about our appointment. I kept on calling you earlier, but you weren’t answering.”
He sounded displeased.

I bit the inside of my cheeks.
“I’m sorry, N-Nico. We can just reschedule this meeting for tomorrow since it’s… pretty late already. How does it sound to you?”

 

“No!

I’m sorry, Zein, but we can’t reschedule this meeting. How about you go to my unit so we can discuss this… further?”

 

His voice sends shivers down my spine. I just found myself agreeing with him, even with the strange feelings I’m having. I’m the one who’s at fault here, and the fact that he’s willing to help me, I shouldn’t take that for granted.

 

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F.B.I-29

Wearing a white draping blazer jacket, fitted trousers, and a pair of sneakers, I entered the Athic Hotel. I asked the lady at the front desk for permission if I could have a seat in their lounge while waiting for Nico, and I’m glad she agreed. My parents weren’t at home when I went out, so I only told Nanny Fe where I’d be going. Mang Noel was probably with my parents to drive them home.

Napatingin sa akin ang ilang tao nung tumunog ang malakas kong ringtone. Tumango naman ako sa kanila at humingi ng paumanhin bago ko sagutin ang tawag.

“Hello? Who’s this?”
It’s an unregistered number, so I wonder who it was.

“Nasaan ka, Zein?”
A familiar voice spoke in an authoritative tone.

”

I’m in my room, Darky. Why? ”
I can’t call him by his real name because of the visitors beside me, who might be one of his fans.

Gellian loudly sighed.
“You’re lying to me, Zein. Tell me the truth. Where are you right now?”

Hindi mapagsidlan ang aking tuwa matapos ko iyong marinig sa kanya. Akala ko’y hindi niya mapapansin na nagsisinungaling ako pero ang hirap palang mapaniwala ang taong matagal ka nang kilala. Ang hirap magpanggap sa taong kasama at kaibigan mo simula pagkabata.

“I’m here in the Athic Hotel to meet Nico. Why did you ask though?”
I’m trying to sound cold to match his voice, but I’m already squealing in my mind. 

”
N-Nico? So it’s guy, huh?

Leave that place now. As in now.”

I raised a brow.
“Why?”

“Because I said so, Zein. It’s not good for you to meet a guy in the middle of the night.”
I know he’s now mad, yet he managed to sound so calm and gentle. 

I was about to get up from my seat and just follow Gellian’s order when I finally saw Nico walking towards me. He’s wearing a slim-fit t-shirt, which showcases his nicely toned chest, cozy chino pants, and bedroom slippers for his feet. 

Umawang ang aking labi nung halikan niya ako sa pisngi at mariing niyakap ang aking bewang. Kaagad naman siyang lumayo nung itulak ko siya nang mahina. Hindi ko inaasahan na gagawin niya iyon kaya nabigla ako at bukod pa doon ay marami ring tao ang nakatingin sa amin.

My hands and knees were trembling as we got inside the elevator. We were the only two inside, and I could see him staring at my reflection in the mirrored door cladding. The sound of his loud breathing echoes in my ears, which makes me want to leave the place, but I can’t.

I feel so scared and vulnerable.

 

“Let’s finish our business for tonight, Zein. I promise our meeting will be done very quickly and you’ll be extremely satisfied with the result.”
Nico reassured me when the elevator door opened on the 18th floor.

Namumuo ang pawis sa aking noo habang sinusundan ko siya palapit sa kanyang unit. Wala akong makitang kahit isang tao sa paligid bukod sa aming dalawa. Nagawa kong mailabas ang aking cellphone mula sa aking bulsa kahit nangangatog ang aking buong katawan.

I hurriedly searched for my contacts and dialed any number while he was pressing his passcode. A loud scream came out of me when he grabbed my wrist, causing my phone to fall on the floor as he tried to pull me inside of his unit.

“N-Nico, b-bitawan mo ‘ko! P-please, d-dont do this to me. I’m… b-begging y-you.”
My eyes started to water while I was trying to release myself from his tight grip.

He licked his lower lip and temptedly looked at mine.
“I’m not going to do something you wouldn’t love, my sweetheart.”

Akmang ilalapit ni Nico ang kanyang mukha sa akin pero hindi iyon natuloy matapos siyang tumilapon palayo dahil sa malakas na suntok. Hindi ko nagawang makita ang kalagayan ni Nico nung takpan ng nagligtas sa akin ang aking mga mata gamit ang kanyang balabal.

“My little pony, I’m… sorry if I always come late.”
That’s voice of Gellian.

My tears fell more now that I knew he was here. I couldn’t see anything because of his scarf covering my sight, but I could hear bunches of curses and fist punches. I felt anxious and tired, but I couldn’t utter a word. After a few minutes, the hallway becomes silent. My heart throbbed upon seeing Gellian with his bruised face, while Nico was now passed out on the ground when I removed the scarf over my eyes.

Mabilis akong lumapit sa kanya at hinawakan ang kanyang sugatang mukha.
“I-I’m s-sorry, Gellian. T-this is all my fault. W-what should… I do? You’re hurt because of me. We should go to a doctor to get you treated.”

Gellian held my hands that were touching his face.
“Ikaw yung biktima dito pero ako pa rin yung inaalala mo? Tsaka hindi ako papayag na hindi makulong ang gago na ‘yan!”
He pointed at Nico, who looked pityful while lying on the ground.

“D-don’t make him go to jail. I can’t bear to see people lose their loved ones because it’s hurting me too, Gellian.”
pagmamakaawa ko.

Hindi kaya ng puso ko na iwan na lamang ang tulog na si Nico sa hallway kaya binuhat pa namin siya ni Gellian papasok sa kanyang unit. Muli kong tinakpan ang mukha ni Gellian gamit ang scarf bago kami bumaba sa ground floor.

“Darky, I missed you.”
I hugged Gellian’s car when I saw it in the parking lot. It looks new again without the scratches from the last incident.

 

“Zein, stop hugging my car.”
His arms were crossed over his chest as I turned my head towards him.

Nakabusangot ang aking mukha nung tinigil ko ang pagyakap sa kanyang sasakyan.
“Bakit? Hindi ko naman gagasgasan, ah?”

“Nagseselos ako,”
he scoffed.
“I can’t believe that there will come a time when I will be jealous of my own car.”

I pouted.
“H-huh? Oh, I’m sorry. Do you want me to… give you a hug too?”

“How about you treat my face instead, just like how you treated it before?”
Gellian suggested, now grinning.

He made me sit in the passenger seat of his car. Akala ko’y lalabas siya para sumakay sa driver seat kaya nagulat ako nang umupo siya sa tabi ko at mabilis na sinara ang pinto. Ngayon ko lang lubusang nakita ang kanyang kalagayan matapos niyang tanggalin ang scarf na nakatakip sa kanyang mukha. Mayroon siyang mga sugat sa pisngi at maging sa kanyang ibabang labi. Nadudurog ang puso ko kapag nakikita ko siyang nasasaktan.

“Shhh… don’t cry. I’m not hurt that much.”
He wiped my tears and looked intensely at my eyes.

 

“But it looks painful, Gellian. How can I make you feel better?”
I blatantly asked.

 

His dimples showed when he smiled.
“The pain will go away if you just do exactly what you did before.”

 

Diretso akong nakatingin sa kanyang mga mata habang pilit inaalala ang nakaraan. Sa sobrang dami naming pinagsamahan ay imposibleng maalala ko pa ang gusto niyang iparating. Taimtim siyang naghihintay ng aking sasabihin kaya binigyan ko siya nang pilit na ngiti.

“I’m sorry, Gellian. I can’t recall—”

I paused when he suddenly held my nape.
“I’ll make you remember, little pony.”
Then he pulled me close to his face and gave me a deep kiss.

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F.B.I-30

“Anak, anong oras ka na nakauwi kagabi?”
Tanong sa akin ni Dad na siyang ikinasamid ko.

Mom handed me a glass of water, which I drank very quickly.
“Uhm… three in the morning?”

“Not sure, baby? You’re with Nico, right?”
Mom bantered.

Umiling nalang ako at muling binaling ang aking tingin sa hapag-kainan. Hindi ko na gustong marinig ang pangalan na iyon dahil ramdam ko pa rin ang takot. Wala namang ibang nakakaalam ng nangyari maliban kay Gellian na siyang nagligtas sa akin kagabi. Hindi ko lubos maisip kung anong nagkokonekta sa aming dalawa dahil simula pagkabata’y palagi siyang nandya’n kapag kailangan ko ng tulong.

I darted my gaze back to Dad when he cleared his throat.
“Speaking of Nico, it seems like his dad removed him as one of the candidates for the next CEO.”

I covered my mouth in shock while Mom gasped in shock. Ang utak ko’y pilit pinoproseso ang narinig. Sa pagkakaalam ko’y anak si Nico ng may-ari ng kompanya kaya malabong tanggalin siya nito sa sarili niyang posisyon.

Sabay kaming pumunta nila Dad resort namin sa Laguna para mapaghandaan ang darating Sabado. Kyle is in his first week on the job at Rossett’s Holdings Corporation, and that is something we should celebrate as a whole squad. I never doubted Kyle’s intelligence and confidence, but I was still shocked when he managed to become the secretary of his boss.

“Kuya Fred, doon niyo nalang po ilagay yung mga rubber duckies.”
I suggested it to one of our workers while pointing at the middle of the swimming pool.

Fred gave me a thumbs up and then swam towards the center of the pool with my rubber duckies in his hands. Some of the employees are busy inspecting the food that will be prepared on Saturday. Everything should be perfect since our squad only bonds together occasionally due to our loaded schedules.

“The cutest and purest member of the squad, hello Zein!”
I tilted my neck after I heard a familiar voice from afar.

Hindi na ako nagulat nang makita ko si Levi. Bumiyahe pa talaga siya mula Makati hanggang Laguna nung sinabi kong kailangan ko ng tulong niya. Busy kasi si Ezra sa mga photoshoots at hindi ko din gustong magpatulong kay Kyle dahil siya ang celebrant.

I gave Levi a hug.
“Sabi mo kanina, hindi ka pupunta?”

He chuckled playfully.
“Ghorl, hindi na magiging surprise ‘yon kung sasabihin kong pupunta ako.”

“A-ano ‘yan?”
turo ko sa nakarolyong poster na hawak niya.

Levi scrolled down the poster and showed it to me.
“Syempre para ‘to kay Kyle. How was it? I’m not a good editor, but it still looks pleasing, right?”

I clapped my hands in excitement upon seeing the rainbows and clouds on Kyle’s poster. It looks very magical and cute. I just don’t like the text saying “In loving memories” below, but overall, it’s fabulous.

“Wait, there’s more.”
Levi uttered, then gave me a hard disk drive that contains solemn music from his bag.

Mabilis naming natapos ang pagde-decorate ng exclusive pool sa tulong ni Levi. Sa kanya talaga ako humingi ng tulong dahil siya ang pinaka-creative sa aming magkakaibigan. I bet he can pass as an artist if he would like to. I saw his drawings on the back of his notes way back in high school, so I know he’s amazing. He can do photographs, design crafts and even draw pictures like a professional.

Nang sumapit ang Sabado ay maaga akong nagising para makapaghanda. Alas-6 palang ng umaga ay nandito na ako sa resort. Sila Dad ay nasa resort namin sa Tagaytay kaya’t sila Mang Noel, Nanny Fe at ilang mga workers ang kasama ko dito sa Laguna.

“B-bakit ang… tagal nila? It’s almost 12 pm but they’re not here yet. Do you think they will come, Nanny Fe?”
I nervously asked after I took a glance at my wrist watch.

Hinaplos niya ang aking likod.
“Baka nahuli lang ang mga kaibigan mo, anak. Sigurado akong papunta na ang mga ‘yon.”

My anxiety about being left behind is striking me again. The thoughts kept running in my mind when Gellian left me six years ago. I don’t know. I’m just scared that someone will be gone and will never come back to me.

Kaagad akong tumayo nung pumara ang dalawang magagarang sasakyan. Bumaba ang isang maputing babae na nakasuot ng floral dress at lumapit kay Tatay Celso. Narinig kong pinagtaasan niya ng boses ang aming gwardya kaya lumakad ako papunta sa kanilang direksyon.

“I told you old man, my parents already rented the whole resort today since it’s my birthday!”
Sigaw niya habang dinuduro si Tatay Celso.

Yumuko si Tatay Celso bilang pagrespeto sa babaeng mukha namang espasol.
“P-pasensya na po kayo, pero nagkakamali po yata kayo ng resort na pinuntahan. Ang Garcia Private Resort ay nakareserba po ngayon para sa kaibigan ng aking amo.”

I gave the girl a deathly glare after I stopped in front of her with my arms crossed over my chest. I really hate it when someone makes themselves superior and overpowers those who are weaker than them.

“Tatay Celso, hindi po dapat kayo yumuko sa mga taong hindi karapat-dapat respetuhin.”
Mariin ko iyong sinabi habang matalim na nakatingin sa babae.

She surveyed my whole body and gulped afterwards.
“K-kilala mo ba kung sino ako? Dapat l-lang akong respetuhin dahil… n-nirentahan ko ‘tong buong resort!

I knew that I had won when she started to stutter.
”

Ako? Kilala mo ba ako? Kilalanin mo ang binabangga mo dahil ako ang may-ari ng resort na ‘to.”

Napaatras siya sa sobrang pagkabigla at humawak sa kanyang sasakyan. Sakto namang bumaba sa isang Ferrari Red Car ang isang matangkad na lalaki na wari ko’y nakita ko na noon pero ‘di ko maalala kung kailan. Lumapit siya sa akin at inilahad ang kanyang kamay.

“I’m Terrence. I would like to apologize for this girl’s behavior. She just turned 21, and she’s a little childish. I hope you accept my apology. ”

I let out a heavy sigh before I accepted his hand.
“I’m 21 too and also childish, but I never disrespect an elderly person just like what she did.”

Kaagad ko ring binitawan ang kamay niya bago magpatuloy sa pagsasalita.
“Apology accepted, Kuya. She mentioned today was her birthday, and she rented the resort. Are you sure it’s Garcia’s Resort?”

“Y-yes,”
the girl said, in a respectful tone this time.

I gave her a genuine smile.
“I see. Let me check our records so we can confirm your reservation.”

Akmang lalakad na ako papuntang office nung biglang magsalita si Terrence. Kaagad naman akong napatingin sa kanya.

“No need. Sa iba nalang siguro kami magsi-celebrate. Nakakahiya na rin po sa inyo.”
He looked at Tatay Celso apologetically.

Bagsak ang balikat ng babae nung pumasok siya sa kanyang sasakyan. Binuksan ni Terrence ang pinto ng kanyang kotse pero hindi iyon natuloy nung marinig ang sinabi ng katiwala kong si Fred.

“Happy first week of employment Kyle Ateniano? ‘Di ba ito yung cute mong kaibigan, Zein? Nagtatrabaho na pala siya?”
Tanong ni Fred habang hawak ang poster na dala ni Levi nung nakaraang araw.

Nagmamadaling lumapit sa akin si Terrence.
“I’m sorry, but we will not leave this resort no matter what. This resort has someone-I mean, something special that I can’t just let go of.”

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F.B.I-31

Bumaba sila Kyle mula sa isang Lexus Silver Car na pagmamay-ari ng isang lalaki na wari ko’y kaedaran din namin. Agad naman akong humingi ng tawad sa kanila at sinabing hindi namin maso-solo ang buong resort dahil napatunayan kong nakapag-
reserve nga ang pamilya ni Valerie, ang babaeng may kaarawan ngayong araw.

We’re all wearing our swimwear outfits when we head towards the exclusive right pool. The left pool was reserved for Valerie’s party, and they were pretty loud because of their huge speakers. I was able to show our present to Kyle, which includes his heavenly poster, while the solemn music played in the background, and of course, his favorite mocha cake that Ezra and I baked last night.

Umupo muna ako sa cottage seat matapos nilang umalis saglit. When my phone rang, I was assisting our staff in setting the table. I excitedly checked it and saw a good afternoon text from Aaron, to which I replied the same too.

Aaron appears to be very busy now that Gellian has arrived. I wonder if they hung out together with Gabriel, Roque, and Leonard. It’s been a long time since I saw those three musketeers because they are also busy with their professions.

A croaky voice whispered beside me,
“Excuse me, cutie.”

Humarap ako sa pinanggalingan ng boses at nakita ang isang matangkad na lalaki. Moreno ang kanyang kutis na agad kong napansin dahil wala siyang suot pang-itaas. Tinuon ko nalang sa kanyang mukha ang aking tingin at agad siyang ngumiti sa akin.

I pointed at myself.
“A-are you referring to me?”

“Yes, I am calling you cutie because you’re cute. By the way, I’m George and I’m interested in you.”

I’m amazed at where he got his confidence to say that to me. Is it that easy to confess to someone without having a fear of being rejected? I wish I had the same confidence as this guy.

“I’m s-sorry, George, but I… already have someone in my heart. I appreciate you taking an interest in me, so I’m scared to reject—”

Napatigil ako nung tumawa siya.
“That’s fine, cutie. You don’t have to feel sorry if you reject someone. It still depends on you whether you will agree or decline. Enjoy your day and I wish you the best with your love.”
He winked at me then went back to the left pool.

Gabi na nung matapos kaming maligo sa pool ng buong Rainbow Squad. Sa cottage table ay nakahanda ang barbeques, mga sliced fruits at ilang mga alak na pina-request ni Levi. Mas lalong lumakas ang ingay sa kabilang pool kaya halos hindi na kami magkarinigan nila Kyle habang nag-
uusap. Nung buksan ni Levi ang Alfonso 1 Brandy ay hudyat na simula na ang masinsinang usapan.

“Kyle, kumusta nga pala yung love story niyo ng boss mo?”
asar ni Levi habang sinasalin sa baso ang alak.

“Wag niyo nang alamin kasi hindi ko magugustuhan ‘yon.”
Mahinang sabi ni Kyle.

“Oo nga, wag na natin pilitin si Kyle kung ayaw niya.”
Ginaya ko ang mahinang boses ni Kyle.

“T-teka nga, bakit kayo bumubulong? Ang hihina ng mga boses niyo, eh wala naman dito yung pinag-uusapan natin!”
Bahagyang tumaas ang boses ni Ezra bago tumungga ng whiskey.

Levi took a glance at Ezra, looking worried.
“Ghorl, okay ka lang? Kanina ka pa galit, napapansin namin. May naka-away ka ba? Sabihin mo lang… reresbakan natin.”

Ezra just shrugged. I gave him a sweet smile, hoping it would calm him down. Lumihis naman ang tingin ko pabalik kay Kyle nung tumayo siya at yakapin ang lalaking naghatid sa kanila kanina.

I saw how the guy bit his lower lip while looking at Ezra.
“Do you guys mind if I join your table?”
He politely asked for permission.

“Sure! Why not? Basta ba mag-aambag ka ng $5,000.”
Levi gestured his hand to the vacant seat in front of Ezra.

Ezra growled in frustration.
“Para kang timang, Levi!”
He stood up from his seat and barged out of the scene, leaving us dumbfounded.

Despite the guy’s anxious face, he managed to introduce himself to us after Ezra left. He said his name is Carlos. I’m not a fan of judging someone’s intention the first time you saw them, but he seems like an honest and trustworthy guy.

Carlos was very vocal with his thoughts when told that he had also noticed Ezra’s unusual behavior towards him. I couldn’t help but feel bad. That’s why I suggested that he should follow Ezra, and he gladly obliged without wasting any more time.

Pagkatapos umalis ni Ezra at Carlos ay si Kyle naman ang sumunod dahil kailangan daw niyang pumunta sa banyo saglit. The Rossi Pink Moscato is tempting me. That’s why I asked our staff, who’s been looking out for me since earlier, to follow Kyle. As soon as they left, I immediately removed the cap of the wine and drank it like there was no tomorrow.

“Huy! Z-zein, hinay-hinay lang. Tama na ‘yan!”
Naagaw sa akin ni Levi ang bote pero ramdam ko na agad ang pagkahilo.

“O-one, two, shh… shreee… W-why do you have sh-so many faces? W-which face is t-true, hmmm?”
I hummed as I counted Levi’s multiple faces in the air.

 

Levi scratched his scalp.
“Malalagot ako nito! Nangako pa naman ako sa mokong na ‘yon na babantayan kita.”

“I’m fine, L-Levi. Look!”
I stood up on top of my seat and tried to balance with my one foot, but Levi hurriedly pulled me down.

Nakanguso ako habang nakatingin sa kawalan. Pakiramdam ko’y nagsa-slide ako sa rainbow habang nakasakay kay Little Pony. Binalik ko ang aking tingin kay Levi nung marinig ko ang pangalan ng lalaking kinaiinisan ko.

“Hello Gellian? Sorry kung napatawag ako. Ito kasing si Zein–”

Hindi natuloy ni Levi ang gusto niyang sabihin nung kunin ko ang cellphone niya. Tiim ang aking bagang at nanginginig ako sa galit lalo pa nung magsalita si Gellian sa kabilang linya.

“Go on, Levi! What happened to my little pony?!”
Gellian uttered nervously.

I screamed my heart out.
“Little Pony? Ang kapal ng mukha mong tawagin akong Little Pony pagkatapos mo akong i-kiss tapos hindi ka na nagparamdam!”

Hindi siya sumagot kaya nagpatuloy ako.

“Walang text! Walang tawag! Ano ‘yon? Kiss and Run?! Sabihin mo lang kung dapat pa ba kitang hintayin…”
Tears escaped from my eyes.
”

k-

kasi gusto ko nang sumuko.”

He gasped.
“Z-zein,”

“Sawa na akong… m-maghintay, Gellian.”
My voice broke.

I started to whimper.
“A-ang sabi mo, papakasalan mo ‘ko p-pagbalik mo–”

“I will! If you want, we can get married tomorrow, but I want to take it slow.”
Gellian bravely said.

I heard him sob.
“I will do my best to make you love me just like how much I’m crazy in love with you, my little pony.” 

 

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F.B.I-32

Gellian’s Pov

“Hello! Why don’t you want to play with other kids?”

A baby-faced kid wearing a strawberry themed romper asked, before he sat down and curled his knee. 

I continued writing in the sand with a piece of wood.

“I just don’t like it. I hate noisy kids.”

Kaagad naman siyang tumayo at akmang aalis pero nahawakan ko ang kanyang kamay.

“W-where are you going?”

His tender lips were pouted as he tilted his head back to me.

“You don’t like noisy kids, right? You might not like me either.”

“I like you,”

I was probably amazed that he didn’t treat me like some weirdo after I told him that I don’t like to hear noises. I’m not a good speaker, which is why I didn’t have any friends up until now. My schoolmates tend to avoid me as well, which makes it hard for me to get along with others, thinking that they might judge me.

“Take this and stop crying. I will stay with you until your nanny comes back.”

I promised as I handed him the strawberry ice cream that I bought especially for him.

He didn’t know he looked like a strawberry in my eyes. He’s so small and his cheeks are so red now that he’s crying. The kid forced himself not to sob, but his face was already soaked with his own tears. He’s so cute.

I guided him to sit on the swing as I started to tell him random things about myself. I even shared all of the toys that I have collected in my room. I just don’t want him to get bored with me. His smile is contagious, which makes me smile too, without even noticing it.

“I’m Gellian. What’s your name?”

I can’t just let the day pass without knowing him.

“Zein,”

he mumbled, then pouted his lips again.

 

Do I need to say it right? But what if he doesn’t like me either? I clasped my hand before I uttered a word.

 

“Do you want to be friends with me?”

I managed to say it, preparing myself to be declined.

Zein gave me a bright smile, which made my heart flutter.

“Sure! Let’s be friends, Gellian.”

 

When Zein’s Nanny came back, I felt my heart leap in an instant. I want to ask him to stay with me during that time, but I would be selfish if I did that. 

 

“I’ll find you again, so don’t be sad. See you again, Zein.”

I made a promise to him that I would surely keep, regardless of the outcome.

”

Dad! I finally have a friend!”

Tumatalon pa ako sa sobrang tuwa nung maihatid ako ng aming driver pabalik sa mansyon.

My mom carried me and pointed at my nose.
“That’s good! What’s the name of your friend?”

“His name is Zein. He has fair skin. His face looks beautiful, like you mom, and he likes strawberries.”
Ani ko habang inaalala ang kanyang mukha.

Dad took a glance at me.
“Did you get your friend’s last name? I don’t want you to get along with just anyone, Gellian. You must be friends with your schoolmates instead, since most of them have connections with businesses. You understand?”

Tumango nalang ako kahit labag iyon  sa aking loob. Businessman si Dad kaya inasahan ko na ‘yong marinig sa kanya. Siguro’y nasanay nalang ako sa paulit-ulit niyang habilin na pilit niyang tinatatak sa utak ko.

“Gellian, remember what you have to say when dad calls you on stage, alright?”
Mom reminded me while fixing the bow tie on the collar of my long sleeve shirt.

Nandito kami sa isang Corporate Event at napakaraming taong dumalo. As expected, puno ng mga businessman at mga bigating personalidad ang buong venue. Nangangatog ang aking mga tuhod dahil hindi naman ako sanay na humarap sa maraming tao.

“Let me call my good son and the future successor of all of my businesses, Gellian Ross Zamora, on stage. Come here, anak.”
Ani ni Dad habang hawak ang mikropono.

Nang makatuntong ako sa stage ay mas lalo akong binalot ng kaba. Bata lang ako at ang mga kaharap ko’y mga maimpluwensyang tao. Nanginginig ang aking mga kamay habang nakatapat sa akin ang mikropono.

“H-hello, l-ladies and… g-gentlemen. I’m G-Gellian Z-Zamora.”
I bit my lower lip when some of them laughed upon seeing me pee in my pants.

At that time, when I felt like the world was mocking me, I saw him again. He waved at me with a smile on his face. I chuckled as I saw him take off his father’s suit and run towards me to cover me up.

Simula nung araw na ‘yon, pinangako ko sa sarili ko na hindi ko na siya papakawalan. Tadhana nga sigurong maituturing na muli kaming magkita. Sinabi kong hahanapin ko siya pero nahanap namin ang isa’t-isa.

Naging magkaibigan ang pamilya namin. We discovered that our fathers were colleagues. Our moms’ easily get along with each other too, since they both have the same sense when it comes to fashion and luxury stuff. 

Growing up with Zein, my feelings for him began to deepen. Siguro kasi lagi kaming magkasama at hindi pa nga kami mapaghiwalay kung minsan.

“Zein, ayoko ng binibigyan mo ako ng love letters na galing sa iba. Nakita mo naman kung paano ako tumanggi ‘di ba?”

I will only accept a love letter from you, baby.

 

Napakaraming beses ko nang pinakita sa kanya ang aking pagmamahal pero ang hirap niyang makaramdam. Hindi ko alam kung sinasadya niya bang balewalain yung feelings ko o hindi niya lang talaga ma-gets, which I understand since he’s still a baby in my eyes.

“Who’s that, Gellian? Is he one of your friends?”
Zein pointed at Aaron, who’s one of my friends too.

Mapang-asar na tumawa si Levi.
“Bakit? Crush mo, Zein?”

Parang pinagsakluban ako ng langit at lupa nung nakita ko ang pisngi ni Zein na namula. Handa naman akong maghintay kahit gaano katagal basta wag lang siyang mahulog sa iba.

“Zein, kaya mo ‘yan!”
sigaw ko nung makita ko siyang nanginginig sa stage nung Science Quiz Bee.

That’s also the first day that I ditched my class because I wanted to witness my baby win that contest. My dad would probably scold me at home once our principal told him what I did, but I don’t care. Zein is very important, above all. And I’m willing to sacrifice everything as long as it makes him happy.

 

“Kunwari, isa akong Genie tapos meron kang isang wish, anong gusto mong hilingin, Zein?”

Sumulyap siya sa akin.
“Isa lang? ‘Di ba dapat… tatlo ‘yon?”

Napangisi ako.
“Isa lang kaya ko. Kahit ano, basta wag pera. Nagtitipid ako ngayon.”

My dad forbade me from being too close to Zein since we’re both guys, and I knew for a fact that he noticed that I didn’t see Zein as just a friend. I disobeyed him, so he cut off my credit card as a result.

Zein sighed.
“Gusto kong matapos na ang problema ng parents ko. I feel pity for them. If I could just work to help them out, I wouldn’t hesitate to do it, but I can’t.”

I swallowed my pride and asked my dad to help the parents of Zein with their resort’s financial issues. I just found myself accepting his condition to avoid Zein, since we’re going to Germany after my graduation. I will continue my studies in that country without assurance that we will come back here in the Philippines. My mom just cried when I asked her to persuade Dad to change his mind.

They leave me no choice.

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F.B.I-33

“Wala ka bang balak kausapin si Zein?”
Tanong ni Aaron nung magkita kami sa JS Prom.

I burried my face in my hand before letting out a heavy sigh.
“Pre, hindi mo alam kung gaano ako nahihirapan na iwasan siya pero kailangan.”

“Iiwas ka pa rin ba kung sabihin ko sa ‘yong… gusto ko na siya?”

Hindi kaagad ako nakapagsalita nung marinig iyon kay Aaron. Matagal ko nang alam na gusto din niya si Zein pero mas masakit pala kung manggaling ‘yon mismo sa bibig niya.

I gave him a forced smile.
“Alagaan mo si Zein. Mahilig siyang kumain ng strawberry ice cream kapag malungkot siya. Takot siyang maiwan mag-isa kaya lagi mo siyang sasamahan. Hindi siya kumakain ng gulay pero–”

He cut me off when he punched me straight in the face.
“Gellian, kilala kita kaya wag mo na subukang magsinungaling! Alam kong mahal mo rin siya! Papayag ka nalang ba na mapunta si Zein sa iba?!”

Aaron’s words registered in my panicked brain.
“A-anong gagawin ko? Tuloy na yung alis ko pagkatapos ng graduation. Kahit gaano ko pa siya kamahal, hindi na rin ako… magtatagal.”

“Then make the best out of your last month! Alam kong si Tito Allen ang nag-utos sa ‘yong layuan si Zein. Isang buwan nalang aalis ka na, pre. Mahal ko si Zein pero hindi ko kayang trumaydor ng kaibigan. Kung totoong mahal mo siya, iparamdam mo ‘yon sa kanya.”

Natauhan ako sa sinabi ni Aaron. Alam kong nasaktan ko si Zein dahil sa pag-iwas ko sa kanya, pero lingid sa kanyang kaalaman na hindi siya nawala sa puso’t isip ko.

“Pre, pupunta daw si Kyle, ah?”
narinig kong bulong ni Leonard kay Gab nung bumalik ako sa aking upuan.

“Talaga?! For sure, kasama din ni Kyle sina Ezra at Zein lalo pa’t nandito si Levi.”
Ani ni Gab.

Despite the bruise on my lips, I was crowned Prom King that year, with Krisha as Queen. The emcee advised that Krisha and I should dance on the center floor, but I declined. My first and last dance were already reserved for my baby.

“Get your hands off my partner! He said he wouldn’t dance with you, right? I guess it’s my chance to dance with him.”
Zein raised his voice at the girl who was forcing me to dance with her.

Iyon yata ang unang beses na nakita ko siyang galit. Kagat niya ang kanyang ibabang labi at masama ang kanyang tingin sa babae na agad naman akong binitawan at umalis. Mabilis kong hinawakan si Zein at nagsimulang humagulgol.

Fuck! I missed him.

“Zein, I’m sorry.”
I mumbled between my sobs.

Hinaplos naman niya ang aking likod bago tumawa nang malakas. Buong akala ko’y sisigawan niya din ako dahil nagawa pa namin siyang pagselosin ni Krisha, pero hindi niya iyon ginawa.

Niyaya ko siyang maisayaw sa gitna ng napakaraming tao at hindi maitago ang saya ng aking puso matapos siyang pumayag sa akin. Walang pag-
aalinlangan niyang inilagay ang aking kamay sa kanyang bewang bago siya kumapit sa aking balikat.

Kasabay nang mabagal na kanta ay ang pagtatapat ko ng aking tunay na nararamdaman.

“Mahal kita… Zein,”

“Mahal din kita…”
He whispered.

Umawang ang aking labi at parang tumigil ang oras matapos niya iyong sabihin sa akin. Gumuhit ang ngiti sa aking labi at napakabilis ng tibok ng aking puso ngunit ang saya ay napalitan ng pighati matapos niyang ituloy ang kanyang nais sabihin.

“…bilang kaibigan. That’s how it is, right? All friends should love each other. I love you for being my friend, Gellian.”

I told Zein to just forget about my confession, but deep in my heart, I was already crushed. The feelings that I have been holding onto for so long just crumbled after I heard him reject me in a straight manner. He didn’t even quiver at all.

“We will be having a victory party in our mansion. Do you guys want to come?”
My dad centered his eyes at Zein.
“My son’s girlfriend is also invited, so I hope you will come along.”
He pointed at Krisha.

I was too shocked to even utter a word. I didn’t introduce Krisha as my girlfriend to my parents, so I wonder where my dad got that information. I questionably looked at my mom, but she just gave me a pityful gaze.

Para akong nakakadena at wala akong lakas ng loob para makatakas. Binigyan ako ni Dad nang matalim na tingin kaya labag man sa aking loob ay umamin nalang ako na totoo ang kanyang sinabi.

It’s finally the day that we will be heading to Germany. Three weeks have passed, but I didn’t have the audacity to meet Zein after the mess that I made. He was surely heartbroken after knowing that me and Krisha were just pretending as a couple to make him hate me. It was not part of the plan to make him hurt since I was suffering a million times for what I’d done. 

”

Gellian, let’s go! It’s almost our boarding time.”
Mom gave me a heads-up.

“S-sandali lang po, mom.”

I cast my gaze around the airport, hoping to spot my baby before boarding the plane. My hands are holding a box of his favorite shoes that I bought with my own allowance that I had saved for months. I was hoping to see him for the very last time.

Matapos ang matagal kong paghihintay ay lumakad na ako palapit sa Custom’s Area. Akmang papasok na ako sa Departure Lounge nung marinig ko ang nagsusumamo niyang boses.

“Gellian! N-nasaan ka na? S-sabi mo, hindi mo ‘ko iiwan! Nangako ka sa ‘kin na sabay tayong mangangarap! Nangako kang… s-sabay natin ‘yong tutuparin!”

Napaupo siya sa beam chair at doon umiyak. Nakasuot lamang siya ng pangtulog na damit at nanginginig rin siya sa ginaw. Kaagad kong hinubad ang suot kong jacket at tumakbo palapit sa kanya.

“I thought you didn’t want to see me?”
saad ko bago balutin ang kanyang katawan ng aking jacket.

Zein wiped his tears with his back hand before he turned his head up to see me. I was cursing in my mind when I met his sorrowful eyes. Turning away, I knelt and replaced his ripped bedroom slippers with the shoes I was holding for him.

I bit my lower lip before I darted my sight back.
“It looks good on you, baby.”

Dali-dali siyang tumayo at hinawakan ang aking palapulsuhan. Pilit niya akong hinihila gamit ang kanyang buong pwersa pero hindi ako nagpatinag. Muli siyang sumulyap sa akin.

“L-let’s go, Gellian.”
Zein’s voice broke.

Niyakap ko siya nang sobrang higpit nung tumulo ang kanyang luha.
“Zein, babalik ako. B-babalikan kita, pangako. At sa oras na bumalik ako, hindi na kita ulit iiwan.”

“I… like you, Gellian.”
bulong niya.

Gustuhin ko mang matuwa matapos ko iyong marinig ay hindi ko magawa. Zein’s face was soaked with his own tears, which made my heart leap. He was never meant to be sad, and I’m the one who should be blamed.

I held his hand and instantly softened as I saw the promise ring I wanted to give him on his last birthday. I thought I dropped it or got it lost somewhere, but it seems like destiny is making its way to find its owner.

“Itong singsing na ‘to ang simbolo na babalik ako sa ‘yo. Kung wala ka pang asawa pagbalik ko, papakasalan na kita. I will surely come back to continue our story, Zein.”
I sincerely expressed my promise before I left.

Wala mang kasiguraduhan na maghihintay siya ay kumapit pa rin ako sa kakarampot na pag-asang hindi siya makakahanap ng iba. Hindi na rin kasi ako maghahanap ng iba kung hindi lang rin siya.

“Gellian, salutatorian yung baby mo.”

“Yung baby mo, uminom kasama namin sa bar.”

“Bumalik ka na, Gellian. Mauunahan ka na ni Aaron.”

Sa ilang taon na pananatili ko sa Germany ay alam ko kung anong nangyayari kay Zein sa tulong ni Levi. Noong una’y ayaw niya pang pumayag na balitaan ako pero siguro’y nakulitan na siya sa akin.

“Congratulations on your successful film!”
Bati sa akin ni Mr. Schmidt na siyang direktor ng pelikula na ginanapan ko.

I tapped his back before handing him the briefcase with a huge peck of money inside. He looks surprised after opening it, which he shouldn’t feel since I already told him that I’m willing to pay for breaching my contract with his agency when the time comes. And I guess this is the time to go back. I don’t want to become a widowed man someday if Zein falls for someone else.

The six years that I stayed here in Germany helped me grow, not just as an actor but also as a person who can stand on his own. My mom gave birth to a miracle baby who was named Sabrina. She’s now three and she reminds me so much of Zein since she also likes to eat sweets. Dad kept his title as the Most Influential Businessman because of his many properties all around the globe, which made me proud of him as his son. He truly deserves his title because I know how much he worked hard for it. 

“We will only stay here in the Philippines for just a month, Gellian. Don’t test my patience.”
Paalala ni Dad nung makapasok kami sa mansyon.

“No, dad! Hindi na po ako babalik sa Germany. Nung kinuha niyo lahat ng bagay na nagpapaalala sa akin kay Zein, hinayaan ko lang po kayo. Nung tinago niyo yung Visa ko, hindi rin po ako umalma. Ngayon lang po. Dad, ayoko nang malayo ulit sa kanya!”
Buong tapang kong sigaw para maintindihan niya.

“Sa loob ng anim na taon, walang araw ang lumipas na ‘di ko siya naisip. W-walang araw na hindi ako nag-alala na b-baka… sumuko na siya. Na baka… makahanap na po siya ng iba.”
I looked at my dad as tears fell from my eyes.

Ang malakas kong paghikbi ang umalingawngaw sa mansyon. Matagal ko na iyong kinimkim sa aking puso at para akong nabunutan ng tinik matapos ko itong maisigaw.

Kaagad naman akong nilapitan ng kapatid kong si Sabrina at nagpakarga.
“K-kuya, what’s wrong? Do you miss Kuya Zein again?”
I nodded as she began to wipe away my tears with her little hands. 

“Allen, naalala mo ba nung sinabi mo sa aking nahulog ka agad unang beses mo palang akong nakita?”
malambing na wika ni Mom at tinapik ang balikat ni Dad.

Dad tilted his head at mom.
“Yeah, why did you suddenly bring that up?”

“The emotion in your eyes and Gellian’s was the same when he told us that he met Zein for the first time. Your son talks about Zein every time he goes back to school and even murmurs Zein’s name at night whenever he sleeps.”

Dad’s frowned face instantly fades when the tears stream down my mom’s cheeks.
“Honey, what’s wrong? W-why are you crying?”

 

”

H-hayaan nalang natin na maging masaya si Gellian, Allen. Six years is enough to conclude that our son’s love for Zein will never change. We just have to accept the truth and just support him as his loving parents.”
My mom added.

Muling sumulyap sa akin si Dad at huminga nang malalim.
“Okay, so I guess there’s nothing I can do but to let him.”

Muli akong napaiyak pagkatapos kong marinig iyon. Gusto kong tumalon sa sobrang saya dahil sa wakas ay dininig din niya ang pagsusumamo ko.

“But that doesn’t mean that I will support you, Gellian. Prove it to me how you can get my consent, then I’ll think if I should give you guys my blessing.”
He massaged his temples.
“For god’s sake, I want to have a grandchild from you, tsk!”

Lumapit ako habang bitbit si Sabrina at niyakap silang dalawa. Hindi ko man agad nakuha ang suporta ni Dad ay kukuha ako ng lakas ng loob ulit para hingiin iyon sa kanya pagdating ng tamang panahon. Sa ngayon, iisipin ko muna kung paano hihingiin ang kapatawaran ng mahal ko.

Zein, my childhood friend, my first love, and my baby, I will keep my promise to continue our story.

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F.B.I-34

Zein’s Pov

Pinilit kong bumangon kahit ramdam ko ang pagkahilo matapos kong marinig ang sunod-sunod na tawag. Kinusot ko ang aking mga mata nung makitang umabot na sa isang daang missed calls ang mula sa contact name na
“Darky.”
Tumawag muli ito wala pang isang minuto ang nakalipas.

My eyes were closed when I answered it, still sleepy.
“Whoooo… are you?”
I yawned.

The guy chuckled on the other line.
“Seriously? After you burst out your feelings for me last night, you don’t remember me anymore?”

Pakiramdam ko’y nawala ang antok ko matapos kong marinig ang kanyang malalim na boses. Muli kong sinulyapan ang aking cellphone at minasahe ang aking sentido nung maalala ko ang kahihiyan na nasabi ko kagabi. Akmang ibaba ko ang tawag nung muli siyang magsalita.

“You wouldn’t deny your feelings for me, right?”
Gellian said, in a soft voice.

I gasped for air.
“Yung sinabi ko kagabi? Wala akong natatandaan! W-wag ka na ring tumawag dahil ‘di tayo bati—”

“I’ll marry you, Zein. I’m sorry if it took me a while, but I came back because… I love you.”
He sincerely said it.

I bit my lower lip to stop myself from smiling.
“Can you wait for another six years just to marry me?”

“Yes!”
Mariin niyang sagot.
“Kahit gaano pa katagal basta ikaw yung katabi ko sa altar, handa akong maghintay, Zein.”

“Talaga?”
I said, in a playful tone.

“Yup,”

“Talagang-talaga?”

He sighed, probably losing his patience.
“Yeah, it’s true. Are you playing with me? Don’t tell me you’re still taking this as a joke, Zein?”

“Oh, why Dzaddy? You don’t like my jokes anymore? I remember how I made you smile from it before,”
I whispered.

Si Kyle ang naging inspirasyon ko para maging matatag. Kay Ezra ko naman natutunan ang magkaroon ng tiwala sa aking sarili, at si Levi ang nagsabi sa aking kailangan kong dumipende sa aking sarili at hindi lahat ng bahay ay dapat seryosohin.

“S-say that again?”
Gellian stuttered.

I raised my brow.
“What? You mean, about the joke?”

 

“N-no, about how you called me earlier.”

“Dzaddy? Don’t you like it when I call you Dzaddy?”
Pabiro kong tanong.

“Gellian, break time is up!”
Rinig kong sigaw ng isang matandang lalaki.

”

I like that. Call me that name from now on. I need to be back at our shoot. I have my ways, so don’t think of blocking my number, Zein.

”
Mabilis niyang ani bago ibaba ang tawag.

Nahihilo pa rin ako sa hang-over kaya nagpahatid nalang ako kay Mang Noel. Alas-10 palang ng umaga pero dagsa na ang mga tao sa resort. Maraming nagtatampisaw na mga kabataan sa exclusive pools at maging ang mga cottages ay puno ng mga bisita.

“Zein, mabuti naman at nakarating ka na. Ang daming mga nagpa-

reserve ng room pero konti nalang yung available slots.”
Bakas ang pag-aalala sa mukha ni Fred.

I took a glance at the people around.
“Ang dami yata nating visitors ngayon. May okasyon ba?”

“Walang okasyon, Zein. Ni-release na kasi yung trailer ng bagong movie nina Gellian at Chloe kagabi. Na-feature yung ganda ng Garcia Private Resort sa trailer, kaya asahan nating mas dadami pa ang customers natin sa mga susunod na araw.”

Gaya ng sinabi ni Fred ay naging abala nga ang buong resort sa nagdaang linggo. Kahit abala ay hindi ko ramdam ang pagod dahil tinutulungan ako ng buong staffs na mabigay ang maayos na serbisyo para sa mga turista. Kung dati’y katuwang lang ako nila Dad, ngayon ay ako na ang namamahala sa aming resort dito sa Laguna.

I have noticed that Aaron has stopped sending me updates just like he has been doing for the past week. I tried to reach out to him, but I do get the feeling that he’s probably busy because of work, unlike Gellian, who’s been sending me masses of sweet messages despite his jampacked schedule.

“Sigurado ka bang hindi ka uuwi, anak? Ipagpabukas mo na ‘yang trabaho baka magkasakit ka,”
Mom advised me over the phone.

I grabbed my coffee and sipped on it before I leaned on my swivel chair.
“I’m fine, mom. I just have to finalize the reports for this month’s profit, and I’ll sleep once I’m done.”

“Gusto mo bang papuntahin ko si Nanny Fe d’yan sa resort para may kasama ka? I thought you were afraid of ghosts, baby?”
Dagdag pa ni mom.

I stared at Gellian, who was sleeping on the couch wearing a pair of Lion Pajamas.
“I’m more afraid of the King of the Jungle.”
then I smirked.

Matapos ang pag-uusap namin ni Mom ay dahan-dahan akong lumakad palapit kay Gellian. Gaya noon ay malakas pa rin itong humilik. Umupo ako sa gilid ng couch at pinagmasdan siyang mahimbing na natutulog.

“Sabi ko naman sa ‘yo wag ka nang pumunta, eh. Sanay naman na akong mag-isa…”
I whispered while brushing his soft hair with my fingers.

He gently opened his eyes and grabbed my hand. I bit my lower lip when he kissed it, looking at me with his blazing eyes. I couldn’t move. This man knows how to shake my reflexes.

“Hindi na kita hahayaang mag-isa, Zein. Nawala man ako ng anim na taon, hindi ka nawala sa puso’t isip ko. Baka ikamatay ko kung mawalay pa ulit ako sa ‘yo.”
Pain was evident in Gellian’s voice.

Umiwas ako ng tingin nung maramdaman ang luhang nagbabadyang umagos mula sa aking mga mata. Marahan niyang hinawakan ang aking pisngi para iharap akong muli sa kanya.

“I still love you, Zein.”
He sincerely confessed.

I swallowed the lump in my throat. My heart screams ecstasy and pure bliss. I haven’t had this feeling for a long time, and it’s odd that after all those years have passed, he’s still the cause of my long-desired happiness.

Gellian cupped my face in a gentle manner.
“Push me away if you want me to stop,”
he said in a rough voice before he got closer to me.

“Huh–”
Napatigil ako nung walang pasabi niya akong hinalikan.

My eyes widened from shock, and my whole body was stiff. I don’t know what I should do. My hands suddenly gripped onto his shoulders when his tongue started to enter my mouth. 

”

Did I steal your first torrid kiss, baby?”
My eyebrows furrowed after I heard him chuckle.

“Y-you’re not my first kiss, though! I’m just s-shocked. T-that’s why I didn’t respond, but… I’m good at it.”
I lied.

He must have noticed that I was bluffing. That’s why he chuckled again. I couldn’t believe that I would say that. My competitive side is on again and I don’t want to lose to him.

“Show me how good you are then,”
Gellian said as he removed his pajama shirt, revealing his muscular chest and solid abs.

I wrapped my arms around his nape before I sat on his lap. Intently looking at his eyes, I close the distance between us when I move my face closer to him. He bit his lower lip and savoured me hungrily.

Mabilis niya akong pinahiga sa couch nang hindi kumakawala sa aking labi. His hands traveled down my legs, which sent a volt of shivers around my body. I was gasping for air when he started to unbotton my nightie shirt. 

“Hmm… Gellian,”
I moaned as his kisses moved from my lips to my neck.

Tinakpan niya ang bibig ko at ngumisi.
“Don’t make a noise, baby. The resort’s guests might hear you.”

I shyly nodded in response. Gellian held my chin, causing my lips to part before sucking on it again. He left me breathless. I just found myself rubbing his hard chest as he towered his body over me. My eyes widened when I felt his hard thing poke my tummy.

“Baby, you have no idea how hard I tried not to leave the shoot after you called me

daddy.

”
He mumbled.

“W-why?”
I shrugged when his hands roughly squeezed my ass.

“It turns me on, baby. Call me Daddy again and I’ll make you stay awake until morning.”
Gellian warned me before he took off his pants, making his Hanford White boxer brief exposed.

I gulped upon noticing his bulge. It’s huge and it’s very proud. I’m starting to get worried about myself if he really meant what he said.

“Dzad—”

Hindi ko natapos ang aking sasabihin nung tumunog ang aking cellphone. Dali-dali ko siyang tinulak at tumakbo palapit sa table para kuhanin iyon.
Napakapit ako sa aking buhok matapos kong mabasa ang reply ni Levi sa aming group chat.

@levi_sullivan:

Si Lavinia kasi, yung kapatid ko may sakit. She’s diagnosed with Acute Myeloid Leukemia.

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F.B.I-35

Marami mang gawain sa resort ay gumagawa pa rin ako ng paraan para madalaw ang kapatid ni Levi sa ospital. Vinia is only 5 and she just recently started studying in kindergarten, which is why it makes my heart break. She’s my greatest playmate since my squad was too mature to play with me.

“Baby Vinia, what do you want to become in the future?”
I asked her as I sat on the edge of her bed.

Pinigilan ko siya nung sinubukan niyang umupo pero ‘di siya nagpaawat. Taimtim siyang tumingin sa akin bago lumapit at bumulong sa aking tenga.

“I pray to… see my Ate Levi be successful in the future po.”
That’s what she shared with me before taking a glance at Levi, who was busy slicing fruits for her.

Pinipigil ko ang aking sarili na wag umiyak matapos niya ‘yong sabihin. Masakit para sa aking malaman na kahit sa pagtanda ay ang kapatid niya pa rin na si Levi ang kanyang lubos na dinadalangin.

“Zein, maraming salamat sa lagi mong pagbisita kay Vinia. Hindi mo alam kung… gaano mo siya napapasaya.”
Sambit ni Tita Carmen habang hawak ang aking kamay.

I gave her an assuring smile.
“Walang ano man po, Tita. Masaya nga po akong makipagkulitan sa bunso niyo. Babalik po ulit ako bukas—”

“Zein, kahit… wag na.”
Levi scoffed.
“Alam kong nanganganib na naman yung resort niyo sa Laguna at kailangan ka ng mga tauhan niyo para gabayan sila.”

Levi tapped my shoulder.
“And you need to rest, Zein. Look at the dark circles in your eyes. Natutulog ka pa ba, ghorl?”

Inaamin kong naging pabaya ako sa resort at maging sa sarili ko pero hindi ko iyon pinagsisisihan dahil mahalaga rin sa akin ang batang si Vinia. May taning na ang kanyang buhay kaya gusto ko laging nasa tabi niya. Ayaw rin kasing tanggapin ni Levi ang tulong na binibigay ko kaya kahit sa pagdalaw ay bumabawi ako.

“How about this, anak? I think it looks good on you.”
Ani ni mom habang hawak ang isang white printed shoe.

Nandito kami ngayon sa Dior Shop in Makati para mamili. It’s my mom who suggested that we go shopping together to relieve my stress. She must have noticed how exhausted I have been for the past week, so she brought me here. Buying shoes has always been my comfort, but I don’t feel that way now.

It’s odd.

“I told you, Nanny, I want my kuya! I want him to choose the perfect shoes for me!”
A little girl screamed inside the store in annoyance.

Napakamot ng ulo ang ale na nakasuot ng puting bestida.
“Naku, Sabrina, alam mo namang busy ang kuya mo sa trabaho. Ayaw mo ba talaga ng mga ito.”
turo nito sa samot- saring pambatang sapatos na nakalapag sa ibaba.

The cute little girl crossed her arms over her chest, pouting her lips.
“Ayaw ko po n’yan lahat, Nanny. My kuya knows everything about the shoes I like. I’m not going to leave here until my Kuya comes. Hmp!”

“Anak, do you think that little girl has similarities to you? She’s also cute.”
Mom whispered before she walked to the counter to pay for the shoes.

Yeah… she is.

The way she sulked and pouted her lips whenever things weren’t going her way is how I pictured myself when I was a kid. Well, I still have the same ego, but I can manage to not go that far. I’m just content with what’s in front of me and do not expect anything better to come.

Nakangiti akong tumayo mula sa arm chair at lumapit sa helera ng mga puting sapatos. A leather and mesh sneaker got my attention, I just found myself surveying it. It looks perfect and I like that fact that the mid and the endsole aren’t that high.

“Hello sir, you have nice eyes. That’s actually our new released model. May I ask for your shoe size so I can look up our inventory?”
The lady clerk asked in a sweet tone.

Binigyan ko siya nang matamis na ngiti.
“Do you have size 6 in inches?”

Her lips were slightly parted.
“Pardon?”

“The pair of shoes I’ll be buying aren’t for me.”

The lady just inclined her head in agreement before she walked towards their stock room. I just patiently waited for her until she came back while I was admiring the cute little girl’s face from afar. She has very long, silky hair, and it’s evident since she’s in a ponytail. This girl must have come from a well-off family considering the group of bodyguards around her.

“Hello! Sabrina, right? Would you mind if I suggested shoes for you? ”
I asked at a slow pace to match the little girl. Nakaluhod ako para magpantay kami.

“K-kuya Ze–”
Mabilis niyang tinakpan ang kanyang bibig bago maituloy ang sasabihin.

Bakas ang kanyang pagkagulat habang nakatingin nang taimtim sa aking mukha. Nagkibit balikat nalang ako bago inabot ang sapatos na napili ko sa kanya. Muli akong sumulyap sa mapungay na mga mata ng bata bago isinuot ang sapatos kanyang paa.

I nonchalantly pouted my lips.
”

If you don’t like it, you can just choose another

—”

Hindi ko natapos ang balak kong sabihin nung walang pasabi niya akong yakapin. Ngumiti nalang ako nang pilit nung mapansing nakatingin sa amin ang kanyang bodyguards at ilang mga buyers.

Sabrina proudly stated,
“I like the shoes and I like you for my Kuya,”
which made me chuckle.

“Oh really? Well, I’m glad that you liked the shoes, but I don’t think I will like your Kuya, sweetheart.”
I whispered, focusing my eyes on her.

Her eyes started to water, it made me worry.
“W-why? But m-my Kuya l-loves you so much.”

“Does your Kuya know me personally, sweetheart?”

“I know you,”
A husky voice suddenly intruded on my back.

Kaagad naman akong tumayo sa pagkabigla. Humarap ako sa aking likuran at pinagmasdan ang lalaking may malalim na boses. He’s wearing a loose plaid longsleeve shirt, khaki slim pants, and a pair of Trigger Oxford shoes. I could barely see his face because of his sunglasses and face mask, but I knew it was Gellian when I smelled his familiar strawberry scent.

Ugh! Strawberries…

“Anak, let’s… go?”
Napatingin si Mom sa lalaking nasa harap ko, bitbit ang mga shopping bags.

My mother’s eyes widen in surprise when Gellian takes off his shades. She must have been surprised to see Gellian after all those years had passed. It’s funny that among all of the places where he could see my mom again and for me to meet his sister, it happens inside of a shoe store.

We are now inside of a private restaurant, which Gellian had already reserved for them to have their lunch. Siguro’y nakatulong nga ang kanyang pag-iibang bansa dahil napansin kong mas humusay ito sa pakikipag-usap. Anim na taon din niyang hindi nakita si Mom pero hindi siya nakaramdam ng kahit kaunting pagka-ilang.

“Tita, ‘di ko nga po akalain na magkakaroon ako ng magandang kapatid.”
Gellian shared, then wiped the spaghetti sauce on Sabrina’s lips.

 

Mommy gently nodded.
“I wonder if Zein would love the idea of having a sibling.”

I wasn’t able to respond upon seeing Aaron paying on the counter. He stopped sending me messages like what he always did and it made me worry about his state. I didn’t hesitate to get up from my seat and go to him before he left the restaurant.

 

“Z-Zein,”
he says, surprised when he notices my frowning expression.

 

Pinipigilan ko ang aking sarili na wag umiyak. I missed him so much. Even though we keep on bickering with each other, I really appreciate those days whenever he updates me on his travel experience or just simply asks me about my day.

 

“Why haven’t you seen my messages? W-why did you stop calling me? Did I make you… mad? Tell me, Aaron, so we can go back to what we used to be.”
Mahina kong wika.

Some of the customers are looking at us, but I don’t care. My hands were clasped together, and that’s where I got my strength to not cry. Aaron is my friend, and I can’t bear to lose him either.

 

“I’ll be… going to the UK, Zein, and I don’t know if I will c-come back. Gellian is finally here, so–”
He paused when I began to whimper.

 

Gellian came and rubbed my back to comfort me, but it didn’t work at all. I’m now starting to doubt my worth.

Am I not enough to make them stay?

Why do they always leave me behind?

Why do I always wait for someone who has no assurance of coming back?

Kasabay ng pag-alis ni Aaron sa Pinas ay siya ring pagpanaw ng kapatid ni Levi na si Lavinia. Nagpabigat rin ng aking damdamin ang pagkalugi ng aming resort sa Laguna. Dumagdag pa ang paghihiwalay nina Kuya Terrence at Kyle na hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko lubos matanggap. Akala ko talaga’y magtatagal din sila kagaya nina Ezra at Kuya Carlos na hanggang ngayon ay nananatiling matatag.

Kyle is now in France, and he’s working for the same company as his dad. Levi also went abroad, and he’s now in Switzerland for career growth and to fight the misery of what happened to Vinia. I’ve never seen Levi cry in despair before, but he did when her sister was suffering from her sickness and died at such a young age.

I really hope someone will pick up Levi’s broken pieces aside from us.

“Tsk!”
Pabalang kong wika bago itapon ang ginusot kong papel sa basurahan.

Ezra let out a deep sigh before picking up the crumbled papers on the floor.

“Ghorl, pang-sampu na ‘tong advertisement plan na tinapon mo. Maawa ka naman sa papel.”

“I’m sorry, mga papel. I won’t waste you again.”
I sincerely said, still focusing on the advertisement layouts on my desk.

Ezra chuckled and sat beside me.
“Zein, I’m sorry if I hadn’t helped you that much in promoting your resort.”
He sounded blue.

Tinigil ko ang aking ginagawa at nakangiti siyang tiningnan.
“Ezra, you don’t have to feel sad. You have already done your part. In fact, you did more than just enough and I really appreciate it.”

“Kasalanan talaga ‘to ni Carlos, eh. Matatapos ko na dapat yung livestream kaya lang… naki-epal.”

“You’re wearing a hollowed-out sleeveless outfit when you did the livestream yesterday, so Kuya Carlos must be jealous of the guys fantasizing about you,”
I casually shared my thought.

Ezra rested his chin on his palm.
“Bakit ayaw mo humingi ng tulong kay… Gellian? Mas famous ‘yon kesa sa ‘kin. Sa daming fans no’n, for sure dudumugin ulit itong resort niyo.”

“He must have been busy with his schedule, so I don’t want to–”

Bigla siyang nagsalita.
“You’re his top priority above anything else, Zein, so don’t think that asking for his help will be a bother. For Gellian, you are the most important.”

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F.B.I-36

“Kapag malambot na ang karne, anak, ilagay mo na ang siling tagalog.”
Bilin ni Nanny Fe habang nakatingin sa akin na nagluluto.

I wiped the sweat on my forehead with my back hand.
“Nanny Fe, hindi po mahilig si Gellian sa maanghang tsaka ‘di na rin po siya magaling mag-tagalog, kaya wag na po tayo mag-siling tagalog.”

Napatakip si Nanny Fe ng kanyang mukha, pinipigil ang pagtawa. Napag-
desisyunan kong lutuan si Gellian ng sinigang dahil wala pa akong nabibigay sa kanya simula nung makabalik siya sa Pilipinas. Ito ang unang beses kong magluto at ayaw pa nga akong payagan ni Nanny Fe pero nagpumilit ako.

“Ang bango naman!”
Kinusot ni Dad ang kanyang mga mata nung makita ako sa kusina.
“Wait! Totoo ba ‘to, anak? Nagluluto ka para sa amin?”

“Bakit naman ang konti ng niluto mo, anak? Hindi kakasya sa ‘tin ito.”
Kaagad namang lumapit si Mommy at kumuha ng kutsarita. Akmang sasandok na siya sa kaldero nang bigla akong nagsalita.

“Mom, Dad, this special sinigang is meant for… someone else.”
I shyly admitted.

Mom took a step backward and then whispered something to Dad, which made him gasp. I wasn’t able to hear it, but I knew it was about me when they gave me a questionable look afterwards.

“Zein, anak, okay na yung van. Pupuntahan na ba natin si Gel–”
Hindi natapos ni Mang Noel ang kanyang sasabihin nung senyasan ko siya na wag itong ituloy.

Dad crossed his arms over his chest, now grinning.
“So that special sinigang is for someone special like Gellian. Are we not special, anak?”

I pouted my lips, tightening my grip on the wooden spoon I was holding.
“N-no, dad. You are all special in my heart. I can cook again for all of you… if you’d like.”

 

Mom gave me a hug upon noticing that I was almost crying.
“Anak, don’t take it seriously. Your dad is just joking. We already ate, so you can just give that to your special someone—I mean, to Gellian.”

I just pouted upon hearing them tease me. They must be enjoying it since I often do not get their jokes most of the time that I end up believing them. I’m a feebleminded person, and I admit that.

“Anak, ihahatid ka ba ni Gellian pauwi?”
Mang Noel asked while looking at my reflection in the rear-view mirror.

I shook my head, letting out a small smile.
“Hindi po ako magtatagal, Mang Noel. Ibibigay ko lang po ito tapos uuwi na po tayo kaagad.”

Nang makababa ako ng van ay marahan akong lumakad papunta sa Rising Stars Studio. Malayo palang ay nginitian ko na agad ang guard na nakatingin sa akin habang papalapit.

“Bagong artista? Ano pong pangalan nila?”
He opened his log book, checking the names listed on it.

“Hindi po ako artista. Nandito po ako para kay Dza–Gellian Ross Zamora.”
I slipped my tongue a bit, causing my heart to race at a fast pace.

I showed him the paper bag I was holding, which made him nod in response. He called someone on his radio phone before allowing me to enter their lounge. I simply sat on one of the comfy chairs on the side before sending a message to Gellian that I was here.

Well, I didn’t mention to Gellian that I would pay a visit, but I did know his schedule since he shared it with me. I’m a hundred percent sure that he’s here.

“Zein?”
a woman with a screechy voice called to my attention.

Napatayo ako sa aking upuan nung makita ko si Krisha. She looks so fine in her short-sleeved pleated dress. At first glance, I didn’t notice her because of her short and pink dyed hair. She has fully become a great lady.

“Are you an artist here, Ate Krisha?”
I mumbled in a shy tone after she gave me a hug.

She chortled.
“Maka-ate ka naman, Zein! Just call me Krisha, and yes, I’ve been working here for a month now. Are you here to audition by any chance? I can help you if you want.”

“Uhm… n-no. I’m actually here for–”

Napahawak siya sa kanyang bibig kaya ako napatigil.
“You’re here for Gellian, right? I knew it! Krisha, you’re so dumb.”
She said to herself as she knocked on her head.

 

“Halika, may kailangan tayong ipatumba.”
Matapang niyang wika bago hawakan ang aking palapulsuhan at lumakad sa hallway.

Nang tumigil ang elevator sa ika-
sampung palapag ay nauna si Krisha na lumabas. Nakasunod naman ako sa kanyang likod habang masayang pinagmamasdan ang mga nakapaskil na larawan sa dingding. Halos lahat ng mga ito ay poster ng movies ni Gellian at ang ilan niyang mga photoshoots.

Krisha stopped in front of a glass door that had the name of Gellian posted on top of it. She gestured with her hand on the knob, directing me to open it. I took a deep breath before I slowly unlatched the door.

”

I told you, I like you, Gellian. Can’t you hear me?”
The girl, wearing a slim bodycon dress, shouted in despair.

 

Hindi ako makagalaw nung marinig ko iyon. Nakatayo lang ako sa bukana ng pinto at parang gusto ko nalang tumakbo paalis. Nabigla ako nang tapikin ni Krisha ang aking balikat bago pumasok sa loob ng silid.

“Chloe… Chloe… Chloe,”
Krisha leisurely clapped her hands.
“Hindi ka pa rin nakaka-move on. I heard Gellian rejected you before and here you are, still begging for him to love you back?”

 

Chloe rolled her eyes, then dragged her feet close to Krisha.
“Ano naman sa ‘yo ngayon? Parehas lang naman tayo, di ba? You also want Gellian, but he doesn’t like you either.”

“But at least I know how to accept his decision. Kahit anong gawin mo, hindi ka rin niya magugustuhan. Better look for someone else, Chloe.”

 

Umawang ang labi ni Chloe.
“W-why is that?”

Gellian stood up from his seat and walked towards the two ladies.
“Because I’m getting married to someone I truly love. I’m marrying my childhood friend, my ball of sunshine, and the only reason why I came back to the country.” 

 

Hindi maipinta ang mukha ni Chloe nung marinig iyon. Napahawak naman si Krisha sa kanyang bibig sa sobrang pagkabigla. Maging ako’y nagulat sa aking narinig.
 

His words kept roaming inside my panicked brain. I clutched my chest when I felt my heart beating so fast. My eyes started to water. I was severely overwhelmed.

“W-who is that? and where’s the ring?”
Chloe stuttered, nervously.

That’s where I made my entrance. I bravely went inside of the room which made them turned their heads in my direction. Swallowing the lump in my throat, I centered my eyes at Gellian who’s now looking so proud at me.

“Gellian, you said we would take it slow, but I’m afraid that you’ll get taken away from me. I’m completely sober now, so listen carefully if I ask you to marry me.”
I fearlessly blurted.

Gellian’s lips parted.
“Zein, I–”

He paused when the cameras flashed in our faces. A lot of media suddenly intruded, and I just found myself covering my face, causing the dish that was cooked to spill all over the floor. Gellian hurriedly burried my face on his chest, as the reporters started to question what they heard from me.

What have I done to deserve this?

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F.B.I-37

[Gellian’s childhood sweetheart proposed to him!]

[The son of the most influential businessman, Mr. Allen Zamora, fell in love with the same sex?]

[The love story of Gellian and his long-time friend is now trending.]

 

I kept on scrolling through my feeds, and I just found myself crying, still on my bed. The old pictures of me with Gellian are all I’m seeing, along with some malicious captions. It breaks my heart, not because of myself, but because I’m worried about Gellian and his family.

For Pete’s sake, they even mentioned the name Tito Allen!

Kaagad kong pinunasan ang aking luha nung pumasok si Mom sa aking kwarto. Ang kanyang labi’y nakangiti subalit ang kanyang mata’y nagsusumamo. Umupo siya sa aking tabi at sinuklay ang aking buhok gamit ang kanyang kamay.

“You don’t have to force yourself to be strong, anak. Mommy will be here to comfort you.”

“And also, Daddy,”
Dad entered my room, holding a glass of milk.

Mabilis naman akong bumangon sa aking kama dahil sa pagkagulat. Alam kong dapat ay nasa resort na sila ngayon pero mas pinili nilang manatili sa mansyon para samahan ako.

“We will be going to your Tito Allen, anak.”
Mom said it almost in a hushed tone.

Muntik pa akong masamid nung marinig iyon.
“Mom, I’m s-scared. W-what if Tito Allen was mad at me? What if he scolds me? W-what if he takes Gellian… away again?”

When he noticed I was palpitating from fear, Dad gave me a very tight hug.
“Anak, we won’t allow that to happen. Every time I hear you sob every night while you’re sleeping, it b-breaks my heart. You keep on calling Gellian’s name, and I’ve been blaming myself for the past six years because I simply agreed to let you get… separated from him.”

Tears rolled down my cheeks, so I bowed my head down to not let them see it. All those years that I’ve been yearning for Gellian, they never heard anything from me. I never hold grudges against anyone. All I did was wait for him to finally come back to me.

“Mom, Dad, mahal ko po siya. M-mahal ko po si… Gellian.”
my voice broke.

Hinawakan ni Mom ang aking mukha at pinunasan ang aking luha. Nangungusap ang kanyang mga mata na siyang nagpakalma ng aking puso. Bahagya siyang tumango, hindi nawala ang ngiti sa kanyang labi.

“We know, Zein Alexis. Your dad and I knew it for a very long time. We thought you were just infatuated with him because you’ve been friends since childhood, but we realize that… we’re wrong. You really love him, Anak, and it’s definitely okay.”
Mom assured me.

Dad messed with my hair and winked at me.
“Stop crying because you’re not going to be our only baby eight months from now.”

Nanlaki ang mata ko bago binalik ang atensyon kay Mommy.
“A-am I going to have a sibling? Like a baby brother or sister?”
I excitedly asked.

Mom gently caressed her small tummy.
“It’s siblings, anak. I’m pregnant with your two younger brothers.”

Hindi mapagsidlan ang aking tuwa matapos kong marinig ang magandang balita. My mom is now 40, so I didn’t expect that. It feels surreal that, from being an only child, I will soon experience playing with my two younger brothers. It’s going to be chaotic, for sure.

Si Mang Noel ang naghatid sa amin sa mansyon nila Gellian. Nangangatog ang aking mga tuhod nung bumaba kami sa van. Wala naman akong makitang mga reporters pero hindi pa rin maalis sa akin ang pag-iingat.
Those flickering sounds of cameras and how the reporters threw bunches of allegations at me are still vivid in my memory. 

“Mommy! Daddy! Kuya Zein, is here po!”
Sabrina squealed before she hugged my waist as we walked towards their mansion.

Binuhat ko naman ito kaagad at hindi ko maiwasang ngumiti nang magpakarga rin siya kay Daddy. It’s just me and my mom, whom she had met before, so I’m glad that she didn’t feel timid towards my dad. Sabrina was speaking in a casual tone but in a good manner.

Hinayaan kong mauna sa paglalakad sila Dad dahil hindi ko alam kung paano ako haharap kay Tito Allen. I just wandered my eyes around while they were all busy catching up with each other. My lips formed a smile upon reminiscing the past by just looking at the same interior in their mansion’s living room.

“Zein, I missed you so, so much!”
I shrugged when Aunt Cecil pulled me close for a hug.
“You’ve become taller, but you’re still cute. So adorable!”

“I a-also missed you, Tita. You’re still beautiful as ever.”
My voice was shaking, but I managed to say it.

Napalunok ako nung makita si Tito Allen na taimtim ring nakatingin sa akin. Hindi ko mabasa ang kanyang ekspresyon kaya ngumiti nalang ako nang pilit. Pilit kong nilabanan ang kaba nung lumapit ako sa kanya at nagmano.

“Good to see you,”
Uncle Allen whispered in a monotone.

I wryly smiled.
“Likewise, Tito.”

Tumabi sa akin si Sabrina nung inihanda ng kanilang mga kasambahay ang iba’t-ibang putahe sa hapag-kainan. Uncle Allen shared with us how they lived in Germany and even how successful he is when it comes to business. He really wants to brag, and we’re used to that. I just focused my attention on Sabrina, who was looking so cute while eating.

“How about you, Zein? I heard that you’re now managing your resort in Laguna.”
Aunt Cecil took a glance at me.

Mahina akong tumugon.
“I’m doing fine po, Tita. My Dad asked me to manage the resort despite my lack of knowledge.”

I have no accomplishments to share that have happened in the past six years. Managing the Laguna resort isn’t something I should consider as a fulfillment, since it’s now suffering from financial loss. I feel like it’s all my fault because I’m the one who’s handling it.

Nang matapos kaming kumain ay napagdesisyunan kong pumunta sa pool area. Gellian must still be at the agency right now since I didn’t see a glimpse of him inside their mansion. I’m sure he’s stressed by now because of the mess I made. It’s funny how my confessions to him are always ironic.

“Zein,”
Uncle Allen said after he cleared his throat.

Ngumiti naman ako sa kanya bilang tugon. Mahinahon ang kanyang boses ngunit batid kong malalim ang kanyang iniisip. Bahagya akong lumapit sa kanya at yumuko.

“Tito Allen, I’m really sorry for the mess I’ve made. Believe me when I say that it’s not my intention to ruin anyone’s life with my carelessness.”
Pilit kong tiniim ang aking bagang para pigilan ang emosyon.

”

Do you have any regret when you said that you’d marry my son?”
He taunted.

“No! I really love Gellian, Tito. I won’t marry anyone else but him.”

Matapang kong wika.

Nagulat ako nang bigla siyang dumaing at napahawak sa kanyang sentido. Marahan ko siyang pinaupo sa tabing upuan at minasahe iyon nang walang pag-aalinlangan.

“Tito, are you also having a hard time breathing? Heart palpitations from time-to-time and vomiting by any chance?”
In a worried tone, I inquired.

Uncle Allen took a glance at me, surprisingly.
“H-how did you… know that?”

 

“Tito, I think you have high blood pressure due to stress. I could advise you to exercise regularly and reduce your sodium intake. You can also visit a doctor to be sure.”
I replied.

 

He didn’t answer for a long time and just stared at me. Napaawang ang aking labi nung umagos ang kanyang luha. Nagmamadali ko siyang inabutan ng panyo at tinanggap naman niya iyon nang malugod.

“D-did I cross the line again? I’m sorry, Tito. My dream was to become a doctor when I was in high school, so I’m a little aware of mild illnesses. You can disregard–”

Hindi ko natapos ang aking sasabihin nung hawakan niya ang aking kamay. Puno ng pagsusumamo ang kanyang mukha kaya ako nag-alala. Humugot siya nang malalim na hininga bago nagsalita.

”

Please take care of my loving son, Zein. I’ll take care of this mess, so don’t feel bad. I would like to apologize for what I did in the past, but allow me to make it right for the both of you.”

Uncle Allen professed.

 

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F.B.I-38

“I don’t see anything wrong with my son loving the same gender as he is. If you want to stop supporting my son with his showbiz career, then kindly do so.”
Uncle Allen proudly said it on the microphone.

Tumaas ng kamay ang isang babaeng reporter at nagsalita matapos siyang sensayasan.
“This next question is for Mr. Gellian. May I ask why your lover is not here with you in the press conference and why you didn’t answer his marriage proposal?”

Hawak ko ang remote ng telebisyon at hindi humuhupa ang aking kaba. Katabi ko sila Mommy at maging sila ay tutok din sa panunuod ng live presscon. Napalunok ako nung ngumisi si Gellian.

“Well, my baby is quite shy in front of the camera, so he’s not with me today, but he will surely… be with me tonight.”
Gellian said in a playful tone.

Naghiyawan ang mga reporters sa kilig at maging sila Nanny Fe nakakalolo akong tinitigan. My mom kept her mouth shut while my dad cleared his throat before shaking his head. I just covered my face from the sudden embarrassment.

Gellian asked everyone to be quiet and then continued what he was saying.
“And about my answer to my baby’s marriage proposal. I’d prefer to just keep it between us, but we’ll send you an invitation if it’s finally happening. I mean, the wedding.”

All of the media casts gasped in awe. Hindi ko alam kung saan kinukuha ni Gellian ang lakas ng loob para sabihin iyon samantalang ako’y para gusto ng kainin ng lupa. Halo-halo ang aking nararamdaman pero nananaig sa akin ang saya.

A male reporter raised his hand and uttered a word after he was allowed to.
”

This last question is for Gellian. You and your lover have been friends since you were kids. Do you think you would still love him if you just met him

now?

”

Gellian didn’t waste a second answering it.
“Yes! I’ve met a lot of people in my 23 years of existence, but it’s his charm that separates him from the others. The moment I saw his cute face when we were kids, I already promised myself I’d never look at anyone else. I was flickered by his innocence.”

The press conference was over already, but I could still feel the butterflies in my stomach. I’m not even at the venue where it was held, yet I look like I just finished being grilled in a hot seat. The feedback was all positive, and most of the malicious rumors were forfeited online when I checked it.

I was already wearing my unicorn pyjamas while lying on my bed. Burrying my face onto the pillow, hoping for drowsiness to envelope me My hand searched the bedside table when I heard my phone ring. 

 

“Hmm?”
Walang gana kong wika habang nakapikit ang mga mata.

“Baby, are you now sleeping? You want me to end the call?”
Gellian asked in a rough voice.

 

“N-no!”
Halos mahulog ako sa kama nung makita kong siya nga ang tumatawag.

He chuckled.
“Did you watch the interview, baby? Did I do a great job?”

 

Pakiramdam ko’y nag-init ang aking mukha matapos maalala ang sinabi mga niya kanina. I walked towards my room’s balcony, feeling the cold air brush my skin. Staring at the sky, I wish he was here by my side.

 

“Yes! You did great earlier with Tito Allen.”
I responded.

He stayed silent for a moment before uttering a word.
“Baby, can I receive a reward for doing a great job?”

“R-reward? I’m sorry, but I didn’t prepare any gifts. Bibigay ko nalang sa ‘yo bukas, Dzaddy.”
I teased him.

“Hindi na ako makakapaghintay ng bukas, baby. I want to claim my gift now.”
Pagmamatigas niya.

“Paano–”
Napatigil ako sa aking sasabihin nung makita ko siya sa baba ng mansyon.

He gave me a wink, which made me cover my face. I felt so shy. I’m in my nighties, while he’s wearing a business suit with a necktie on. His back was leaning against his flashy car as he stared at me.

Nakangisi siyang lumapit at umakyat sa bakod ng mansyon.
”

Come here, baby. Daddy will catch you with his arms.”

Oh my gosh! He looks like a prince, saving me from the tower of an evil Gothel. His hair was brushed up and his dimples were evident because of his wide, assuring smile.

I shake my head to stop imagining things. My parents were still in the living room, and they would surely not agree to let me go with Gellian because it was almost midnight. 

 

“I’m… s-scared to fall,”
My lips were trembling since I’m afraid of heighs.

“I’m not going to let you fall unless it’s with me, baby.”
Gellian took off his business suit, revealing his white long sleeves underneath.

 

He folded the sleeves up to his elbow and reached for my hand. Ramdam ko pa rin ang takot nung magsimula akong sumampa sa handrail ng balkonahe. Ang kaba na aking nararamdaman ay humupa nung bigyan niya ako nang matamis na ngiti. Mahigpit niyang hinawakan ang aking kamay hanggang sa makababa ako nang tuluyan.

 

I can’t believe I am going to cross the fence in the middle of the night just because of this man.

 

Mabilis niyang hinalikan ang aking pisngi na aking ikinagulat. Hawak niya ang aking kamay nang dalhin niya ako papasok sa kanyang sasakyan. He covered my body with his suit before buckling my seatbelt and giving me a short kiss on the lips.

 

Hindi ko maalis ang aking tingin sa kanya nung magsimula siyang magmaneho. I didn’t know that seeing Gellian driving his car very smoothly would cause my heart to race. Every time his car stopped, he would always lean close to give me a kiss. I’ve only allowed him since earlier, but I’ve noticed that he’s purposefully waiting for the stoplight to turn red so he can kiss me.

I abruptly moved my face to the side before he could kiss me for the tenth time.
“Stop it. My lips are now swollen. We’re in the middle of the road, so just focus on driving. You can feel free to kiss me later as long as you–”

 

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nung mapagtanto ang aking nasabi. Nakakaloko ang ngisi ni Gellian nang muli ko siyang sulyapan. Tinakpan ko nalang ang aking mukha sa sobrang kahihiyan.

Gellian parked his car in the garage of an American federal-style mansion. I got out of his car to see it further. It seems like I’m in a fairytale because of the mansion’s exterior. It has a similar approach to the Neo Classical architectural style because of its graceful proportion and symmetry. 

 

I shrugged when Gellian snaked his arm around my waist and kissed me on the neck. I was about to get off of his hold, but I paused when he whispered in my ear.

 

“Did you like our house, baby? You will now live with me here from now on.”

Umawang ang aking labi.
“Seriously? But isn’t it bad if we live together and we’re not a couple yet?”

 

Dahan-dahan siyang kumalas sa pagkakayakap sa akin at pinaharap ako sa kanya.
“Baby, aren’t we a couple yet? But… you already called me

daddy

and you even proposed to me.” 

 

He cupped my face to get my attention.
“We’re now a couple, baby. You know why?”

Taimtim akong tumingin sa kanyang mga mata.
“W-why?”

“Because we have already done this,”
Gellian leaned a bit and kissed me torridly on my lips without a warning.

 

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F.B.I-39 (SPG)

Warning: This chapter contains mature content, so if you’re not 18 yet or a sensitive person, I advised you to disregard this chapter.

I just found myself responding to his kisses. I’m not sure if he purposely drank a strawberry-flavored drink earlier because he tasted like it, making me go crazy. Mabilis niyang nabuksan ang pinto ng mansyon nang hindi ko namamalayan.

“G-Gellian, w-wait.”
Naghahabol nang hininga kong sambit nang buhatin niya ako papasok sa loob ng living room.

Tumigil siya sa paghalik at pinagmasdan ang aking mukha.
“I love you, Zein. I really, really do.”

I combed his hair using my fingers just like I did before when we were kids.
“Mahal din kita, Gellian.”

Yumuko siya at ngumiti. I held his face and looked closely at him. My chest tightened upon seeing his tears fall from his eyes, which I immediately wiped with my hands. His facial expression screamed bliss and lust.

“I think I’m… ready now, Gellian.”
Bulong ko bago lumihis ng tingin.

“Ready for what, baby?”
His bedroom tone of voice resonates in my ears.

Pakiramdam ko’y namumula na ang aking mukha sa sobrang hiya. Muli akong sumulyap sa kanya habang ang puso ko’y nagkakarera sa kaba. He wiggled his brows, making me roll my eyes. He’s such a tease.

“Make love with me, Dzaddy.”
I shyly mumbled.

Mahigpit akong kumapit sa kanyang leeg nung magsimula siyang maglakad papuntang second floor. Gellian has been carrying me since we entered the mansion, and I’m starting to wonder where he’s getting his strength. He pulled me down when we reached the bedroom and kissed me for the nth time while his hand reached for the doorknob.

Nalulunod ako sa kanyang mga halik at hindi iyon natigil hanggang marahan niya na akong pinahiga sa malambot na kama. Gellian’s huge body towered over mine, and I felt so small below him. He bit my lower lip as his hands hurriedly unbotton his long sleeves. His musculine chest and solid rock abs surprised me after he successfully took off his shirt and threw it somewhere.

“Are you sure you’re ready? Say yes, and I’ll keep you awake all night until the sun comes up, baby.”
He gave me a heads-up, panting heavily.

I swallowed the lump in my throat. Knowing Gellian for a long time, I knew that he was definitely honest by just looking at his hazel eyes. My heart was beating so loudly from the mixed emotions that I was feeling, but one thing was for sure. It’s yearning for him.

“Yes, I want you.”

He nodded before he removed his belt. Gellian centered his sight on me as he took off his pants, revealing his white boxer brief. My forehead began to sweat after seeing his huge hard shaft and after he pulled down his underwear.

 

Lumapit siya sa akin at hinalikan ang aking noo.
“Don’t be scared, baby. Daddy will be very careful so you won’t get hurt.”

He gently unbuttoned my pyjamas shirt and kissed my tears away. I grasped at his disheveled hair when he hungrily planted kisses on my neck. To give more access, I tilted my chin up while biting my lip. 

“Ugh!”
Kaagad kong tinakpan ang aking bibig nung marinig ang sarili kong pag-ungol.

Gellian stopped kissing my neck and began laughing.
“Don’t be shy, baby. You can moan as loud as you can since no one can hear you but me. The more you moan, the more… excited I become.”

“I’m shy, Dzaddy.”

“Let’s see how long you can stay quiet, baby.”
Nakakaloko niyang bulong.

Gellian winked at me before moving his face down to my chest. I held onto the bedsheet as he started to lick my left nipple while his fingers were twirling on my right teat. It felt good how his tongue played with it like an expert.

“S-stop doing that! Ugh! It tickles. hmm…”
I lost it when my moans echoed the whole room.

Hindi pa siya nakontento at nanggigil niya iyong kinagat habang nakatingin sa aking mga mata. He looks like a wild beast eating his prey. Heat curled down my spine when he moved his body up and held his steel-hard cock.

Did it grow bigger than earlier?!

Gusto ko itong pagmasdang maigi kaya lumapit ako sa kanya. Mabilis kong inalis ang kanyang kamay at hinawakan iyon para suriing maigi. Napapikit si Gellian nung sinimulan kong igalaw ang aking mga kamay pataas-baba, hawak ang kanyang sandata.

He growled.
“Arghhh! Y-yes, baby. Keep doing that.”

I’m wondering if his shaft tasted like strawberries too. That’s why I licked the tip of it, making him groan louder. His hands guided my head as my lips opened and sucked on his enormous cock. Levi advised me to approach it in the same way I eat ice cream, and it appears to work by hearing Gellian call all saints in pleasure.

Napatigil ako nung hawakan niya ang aking balikat at maingat na pinadapa sa kama. He hurriedly took off my pants along with my underwear. I saw him gulp as he looked at my ass. When his face went down to lick my entrance, I immediately burried my face on the pillow.

I glared at him.
“Uhmm… D-dzaddy, I feel strange.”

”

You’re just feeling good, baby. I’ll make you feel good even more.”
He mumbled something and immediately got an oil bottle from the bedside table.

“Dzaddy, what’s that?”
Mahina kong tanong.

“It’s lubricant, baby. When I was 18, I did some research and discovered that it could help reduce friction when making love. So I can… ride you smoothly, my little pony.”
Gellian voiced out, then gently applied the product to his fingertips.

Mahigpit akong humawak sa headboard ng kama nung sinimulan niyang ipasok ang kanyang daliri sa akin. Despite the lust that he was feeling, he still managed to be extra careful to not let me get hurt. He continued pushing his finger until I felt like I was craving more. I’m anticipating something else.

I want that huge thing between his legs instead of his finger.

 

Humarap ako sa kanya at binigyan siya nang malalim na halik. Hindi siya kaagad nakagalaw sa sobrang pagkabigla lalo na nung pahigain ko siya sa kama. I was now sitting on his hard abs while savouring his strawberry taste in my mouth. Both of his hands held my jaw to deepen the kiss that would surely make my lips swell afterwards.

 

“Ugh! Fuck!”
He let out a curse when I held his shaft and position it on my entrance.

When his length fully entered me, I wrapped my arms around his nape as my face burried into his neck right away. Gellian was so big, while I’m so petite. His member seemed to extend all the way to my stomach. That lube that he uses helps his cock to seemlessly slide on my core.

I sobbed.
“Gellian, it h-hurts…”

He kissed both my eyes, hoping it could soothe the pain I was feeling. Gellian respectfully asked if I wanted us to stop, but I declined. I knew that it was my fault that I got hurt because I was in a rush earlier. I’m now lying facedown in the bed and he’s now behind me with his knees down.

 

He applied more lubricant to his shaft before slowly entering me. Unlike earlier, I didn’t feel hurt that much, especially when he began to move his hips towards my body. When I finally got used to his length, I started to push myself toward him, meeting his every thrust.

 

“Dzaddy, more… Augh! Please give me… more!”
I pleaded with pleasure.

 

Tumawa siya nang nakakaloko.
“I got it, baby. I’m not going to be careful now.”
He warned me.

 

Binilisan ni Gellian ang bawat pagbayo. Kasabay ng bawat ulos ay pag-ungol naming dalawa. Ang kanyang mga kamay ay nanggigigil na nakakapit sa aking bewang para salubungin ang bawat galaw. Halos mawasak ang kama nung mas bumugso ang kanyang paggalaw.

“Oh yeah, baby. I’m getting near!”
He groaned in a hoarse voice.

“I’m ready for it, Dzaddy.”
I scoffed.
“G-give it to me.”

 

His body arched faster as I moved along with it. Binigyan niya ako nang tatlong malalim na ulos bago ko naramdaman ang mainit niyang punla sa loob ko. Pagod akong dumapa sa kama nang maramdaman ang panghihina.

Ngayon lang ako napagod nang ganito!

Gellian sucked my earlobe while pinching my ass.
“Wanna have a second round with Daddy?”

 

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🌈💅

F.B.I-40 (SPG)

I was in the middle of my dreams until I felt heavy hands massaging my waist. My eyes were closed, still burrying my face in the fluffy pillow. 
Napalunok ako nung halikan niya ang aking leeg habang patuloy ang paghaplos sa aking hubad na likod.

“I know you’re now awake, baby. Bakit mo naman ako tinulugan kagabi? I thought we were going to do it… until the sun rose.”
Pagmamaktol ni Gellian.
 

“I just can’t keep up with you because you’re so aggressive, Dzaddy.”
I said in a raspy tone.

Mabilis na dumilat ang aking mga mata nung maramdaman ang matigas niyang sandata sa aking pang-upo. He keeps on squeezing my ass while rubbing the tip of his hard cock on my entrance.

“Have I told you before that I get turned on every time you call me

Daddy

?”
Gellian whispered.

Sumilay ang ngiti sa aking labi.
“Hmmm… Dzaddy?”
Pang-aasar ko.

I took a deep breath when Gellian moved hurriedly and parted my ass. He just got me as he began to lick my hole with his skillful tongue. Pilit kong binaon ang aking mukha sa unan para hindi gumawa ng kahit anong ingay.

“Are you… still hurt, baby?”
Hesitation was noticeable in his voice.

Nilingon ko siya mula sa aking likod at hinaplos ang kanyang maamong mukha.
“I just feel tired, but I’m not hurt.”

He bit his lower lip, now smirking.
“You want to… extend our session from last night?”

“Mmm… I would love that, Dzaddy.”
I seductively mumbled.

Hindi niya inalis ang kanyang tingin sa aking mga mata habang nilalasap ang aking bukana. His eyes were tempting, and I was getting hypnotized by his stares. Gellian enjoyed licking me as if I were the sweetest food he’d ever savoured in his life.

“Ughhh!”
I shiver deliriously after he inserts his middle finger into my core.

He continued licking it, then slid another finger inside, making me gasp in pleasure. Alam kong hinahanda niya lang ang aking sarili para sa malaki niyang alaga. Umungol ako nang sobrang lakas nung dumampi ang kanyang daliri sa maselang parte ng aking lagusan.

“Found you,”
Gellian said, now holding his throbbing cock in his fingers.

He cupped the cheeks of my ass then stretched it apart before he slowly pushed his member inside me. I nodded to give him a sign that I was ready when I noticed he was not moving, probably afraid to hurt me.

Ginabayan niya ang aking bewang kasabay ng kanyang pagbayo. Mahigpit ang kapit ko sa bedsheet habang pinakikiramdam ang kanyang kahabaan. It feels good every time he goes deeper and bumps that spot inside me.

“Y-yes, Dzaddy. Just like that.”
Paos kong wika nung mas bilisan niya ang kanyang paggalaw.

He combed his sweaty hair up with his fingers.
“You’re so… freaking tight, baby.”

I could feel Gellian’s getting near to the climax when I felt his shaft getting harder inside me. He hurriedly released his furious member and spilled his load on the cheeks of my ass. My eyes rolled upon seeing him wiggle his brows, trying to send me a signal for another round.

We had another session in the bathroom and cleaned up afterwards. Nauna na akong lumabas ng banyo pagkatapos no’n, dahil baka maulit muli at hindi na naman ako makatanggi sa kanya. Nang matapos kong ayusin ang kama ay doon ko lang napagmasdan ang kabuuan ng kwarto.

It’s like a carbon copy of my room from our mansion. The colorful wallpapers, glow in the dark stickers on the roof, and even some of our pictures hanging on the wall were the same. I just feel more comfortable here. Maybe because I’m with him.

I’m with someone I love.

“Gellian, I need your phone.”
Kinatok ko ang pinto ng bathroom.

He turned off the shower.
“Baby, I can’t hear you. I didn’t lock the door. Why don’t you come in so we can… have a good talk?”

“I’ll just look for it myself,”
Mahina kong sagot.

Good talk? Slow lang ako, pero ‘di ako uto-uto.

I picked up his pants from the floor that he wore yesterday and searched for his phone. Sigurado akong mag-aalala sila Mommy kapag makita nilang wala ako sa aking kwarto at kasama ko si Gellian buong gabi. Umawang ang aking labi nung mahulog ang maliit na bagay mula sa bulsa ng kanyang pantalon.

My eyes began to tear up upon seeing a shiny diamond ring in a red sapphire setting. Our initials, which are G and Z, were engraved on its shank. I nervously put it back in his pants pocket when Gellian came out straight from the shower, dripping wet. 

Pinunasan niya ang aking pisngi, bakas ang pag-aalala sa kanyang mga mata.
“H-hey, baby. Are you… hurt down there? Why are you crying?”

I hugged him tight. Tears kept rolling down from my eyes.
“I’m just happy. I love you, Gellian.”

Banayad niyang hinalikan ang aking noo.
“Mahal din kita, Zein. Mahal na mahal.”

He gave me a soft kiss on the lips before he walked towards his closet to get his clothes. I just sat on the bed, admiring his naked body in front of me. Gellian has nothing to be ashamed of. He has a handsome face, a sculpted body, and is undeniably gifted.

”

Why are you wearing a classy suit? Are you going to a corporate event or what?”
Saad ko bago tumayo at tulungan siyang suotin iyon.

“I’ll be going to meet my in-laws, so I have to be presentable.”
He replied, holding my hips.

He’s just staring at my face while I’m dressing him up. I probably look like a parent helping my own son prepare to go to school. Gumanti naman ako ng tingin habang isinusuot ang necktie sa kanyang leeg.

“I assume the in-laws you’re referring to are my parents, am I correct?”
I raised a brow.

He hissed.
“Malamang. May iba pa ba akong aasawahin bukod sa ‘yo, baby?”

Gellian covered his face with a mask as we walked out of our mansion. He said he wants me to live with him even though we’re not yet married, but only if my parents agree to it.
May tiwala naman sila Dad kay Gellian, subalit hindi pa rin sigurado kung papayag silang bumukod ako ng tirahan.

“Don’t you have a shoot today?”
Bungad kong tanong matapos niyang ikabit ang seatbelt ko.

”

I just had a shoot a while ago, baby. You can’t remember?”

 

My forehead creased.
“Where?”

“In your ass, baby. Ugh! That feels good.”
At tumawa siya nang nakakaloko.

Buong lakas kong hinampas ang braso niya sa sobrang inis. Mas pinili ko nalang na humarap sa bintana ng kotse kesa tingnan ang kanyang mukha. He’s cute most of the time, but I find him irritating whenever he teases me.

“How could you say that we can’t file a police report if it’s not 24 hours yet? Are you crazy? I told you, my son was not in his room since midnight!”
Hindi pa man kami nakakapasok sa mansyon ay rinig ko na ang sigaw ni Dad mula sa malayo.

Gellian bent his knees when we reached the living room, holding some gifts in his hands. Agad na napatingin sa amin sila Mom nung pinilit ko siyang itayo pero ‘di siya nagpatinag. Bahagya niyang niyuko ang kanyang ulo nung lumapit sila Dad sa amin.

“Tito, Tita, I’m sorry po. Tinanan ko po ang mahal niyong anak kagabi at nandito po ako ngayon para hingin ang inyong basbas sa aming pag-iisa.”
Buong tapang niyang sabi.

Hindi ko masyadong naintindihan ang kanyang sinabi pero maganda naman iyon sa aking pandinig. Dad massaged the bridge of his nose, intently looking at Gellian. Mom resists herself, trying not to chuckle while Mang Noel and Nanny Fe playfully smile at me.

“Gellian, I want you to tell me honestly. What base did you guys do last night?”
Tiim bagang na tanong ni Dad.

Mom hit Dad’s arm in disbelief.
“Honey, why do you have to ask that question? Hindi naman nila ‘yon ginawa. F-for sure, they just slept peacefully last night, right Gellian?”

Gellian raised his head, meeting my dad’s terrifying gaze.
“I hit the home run, Tito.”

Halos mahimatay si Mommy matapos iyong marinig. Kaagad naman siyang nasalo ni Dad bago pa siya tuluyang mahulog. My face was stiff, trying to understand the whole situation.

Base? Home Run? What’s the meaning behind those words and why are they reacting this way? 

 

Magkasalubong ang kilay ni Dad habang nakatingin kay Gellian nung umupo kami sa hapag-kainan. I helped Nanny Fe cook Sinigang since Gellian wasn’t able to taste my dish last time. He seems to be enjoying it despite the pressure he’s feeling due to my parents’ deadly stares.

Gellian cleared his throat before handing his gifts to my Nanny Fe and Mang Noel, which they accepted after a long persuasion. I was shocked when he showed a picture of his whole mansion to my parents.

 

“Mr. and Mrs. Garcia, here’s where Zein and I are going to live from now on. I’ve been… saving my money for the past 6 years so I could buy this mansion for both of us. It’s always been my dream to live with your son since I was a kid up until my last breath, so please…”
 Gellian looks straight into their eyes sincerely.
”

allow him to stay with me.
”

“Are you aware that my son never held a broom in his entire life?”
That was an overstatement from my dad.

Mom added.
“And we’re not letting him wash the dishes or laundries because of his sensitive hands.”

 

“Hindi rin siya masarap magluto, hijo.”
Sambit ni Nanny Fe.

“Wag mo rin siyang hahayaang magmaneho, Gellian.”
Sumabat na rin si Mang Noel.

“Naiintindihan ko po ang lahat ng nais niyong iparating. Marunong po akong maglinis, maghugas, maglaba, magluto at magmaneho. Wala po kayong dapat ipag-alala.”
Gellian reached for my hand under the table.

“And Gellian is a certified Daks, so I’m sure he will be a perfect husband for me.”
I proudly remarked.

 

Agad na hinaplos ni Mom ang likod ni Dad matapos itong masamid sa kanyang iniinom. Maging sila Mang Noel at Manang Fe ay bakas ang pagkadismaya sa narinig. Napatakip nalang si Gellian sa kanyang mukha at namumula ang kanyang mga tenga.

I just give them my famous sweet smile whenever I don’t get what’s going on around me. They must be extremely satisfied with Gellian’s good traits that they couldn’t utter a word. 

 

I’m so lucky that I will be having a Daks husband soon. A kind, gentle, and obedient partner in life. Someone who will protect me, will fight for me and will love me despite how lacking I am.

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Epilogue

“As you can see on the slide, our profit for this month increased by 7% compared to last month. Many tourists find our resort very entertaining because of the Rainbow Theme that was designed by me along with the helpers.”
Taas-
noo kong wika habang nakatingin kay Dad.

“Okay, how about those souvenirs that we’re giving to the tourists for free? Is that already deducted from the 7%?”
Pinagkrus ni Dad ang kanyang braso bago sumandal sa swivel chair.

Gumuhit ang ngiti sa aking labi.
“The Rainbow Keychains? Yes, it’s already been deducted from this month’s profit. The main goal of Garcia Private Resort isn’t just to make our visitors happy with our service but also to reach out to their hearts even after they leave. That keychain might be childish for everyone, but it has a… deep meaning behind it.”

“And what’s the meaning behind those rainbow keychains, anak?”
Dad curiously asked, looking directly into my eyes.

“Pag-asa. Na kahit ilang bagyo man ang dumaan, muling sisilay ang bahaghari… na siyang magbibigay kulay sa malungkot na kalangitan.”
Umiwas ako ng tingin nang maramdaman ang pamumuo ng luha sa aking mga mata.

Dad stood up from his seat and clapped his hands, which made me feel surprised. Even all of the workers gave me a warm hug, soaking in tears. I owe the success of our resort to all of them. Nothing is impossible because we help each other grow harmonuously. 

Isang taon na ang nakalipas at hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na mas dadagsa ang mga turistang bumibisita sa aming resort. Ang pagod ko sa pamamahala ay nawawala kapag nakikitang masaya ang mga bisita sa serbisyong ibinibigay namin sa kanila.

The sound of my lively ringtone welcomed me as I went back into my office. I’m debating whether or not to respond to the incoming call. My guilt was tripping me up, so I picked up my phone from the top of the table and answered him.

“Hello,”
Walang emosyon kong bungad.

I heard Gellian take a deep breath.
“It’s me, baby. A-are you sick? Why do you sound so down whenever I call these past few weeks?”

“Napagod lang siguro ako,”
I lied, pouting my lips.

“So I can’t make you feel tired once I go back to the country, huh?”
He whispered.

Gellian is now in the UK to shoot his latest movie, and he will stay there for a month. He keeps on sending me pictures of himself to lessen my longing for him, but it’s not even working. I miss him so much to the point that I’m having hallucinations of his face from time-to-time.

I shook my head, losing my patience.
“Wala ka bang nakalimutang sabihin sa ‘kin, Gellian?”

“I love you, baby.”
He replied immediately.

“I love you too, but it’s not that. Try to think of something more… important.”
Maayos ko iyong binigkas para sa kanya.

“Important than my love for you? What’s that, baby? Tell me.”
He’s probably anxious by now.

“Wala! Kalimutan mo na. Sa sofa ka matutulog pag-uwi mo ng Pinas. Bye!”
Bulyaw ko sa kanya mula sa telepono bago binaba ang tawag.

Isang taon!

Isang taon na akong naghihintay na alukin niya ng kasal at isuot sa daliri ko ang singsing na matagal niya ng tinatago. Mas mabuti siguro kung hindi ko nalang nakita iyon noon para ‘di ako naghihintay ngayon. Sigurado naman ako na ako lang ang mahal niya pero hindi maalis sa akin ang mag-alala.

What’s taking you so long, Gellian?

Muli akong sumulyap sa aking phone nung marinig ang isa pang tawag. My eyes widened in shock upon seeing Aaron calling me via Skype. I tried reaching out to him multiple times, but this is the first time he responded.

His smile flashed on the screen after I answered it.
“Hi… Zein! I’m sorry for not replying to your messages because I’ve been busy here in the UK. How are you and our friends?”

Bakas ang pagkabalisa sa kanyang boses. Gustuhin ko mang magtampo sa hindi niya pagpaparamdam ay ayoko na iyong gawin. It’s better late than never, ika nga nila.

“I’m still managing our resort here in Laguna. Kyle is now working in France, Levi is in Switzerland, and Ezra was here with me in the Philippines.”
I shared.

He nonchalantly nodded.
“How about your relationship with Gellian?”

”

He’s also there in the UK. Have you guys seen each other by any chance?”

 

“No. He’s pretty famous, but I didn’t hear any news of him being in this country.”

Seryosong wika ni Aaron.

I don’t like how strange I feel. That’s why I hurriedly booked a plane ticket to check on Gellian and also meet Aaron in the UK. My mom will manage Laguna Resort while I’m out of the country. It’s always been on my bucket list to travel alone, but I’m not feeling excited because of what I’ve heard from Aaron.

Gellian, you better hide in your own grave if I see you cheating on me!

It’s a 15-hour flight from Manila to the UK, and I’m fully awake the whole trip. Hindi ako makaramdam ng antok dahil sa bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. Kinakabahan ako sa ‘di malamang dahilan. The last time I had this feeling was when I tried to catch the flight of Gellian seven years ago. The anxiety mortified me.

I got out of the plane after it smoothly landed on the ground. I’m wearing a white winter-loose casual blazer, a knitted turtleneck sweater underneath, skinny slack pants, and a pair of Prada Sneaker shoes as I walk inside the airport.

Hawak ko ang aking maleta at tumakbo palapit kay Aaron nung makita ko siyang naghihintay. Nakasuot siya ng white tuxedo and he partnered it with a black bowtie. Kaagad niya akong niyakap nang sobrang higpit.

“I m-missed you, Zein.”
His voice broke.

Hinaplos ko ang kanyang likod.
“Me too. I really thought I wouldn’t see you again.”

Kinusot niya ang kanyang namumulang mata bago kuhanin ang aking maleta. Habang naglalakad kami palabas ng airport ay sinabi niyang nandito siya sa UK para mag-
training. This country has the third-largest aviation network in the world and the second-largest aerospace manufacturing sector, which will benefit him as a pilot.

“Oh, is that your car? It looks cool.”
I squealed upon seeing him stop in front of an Aston Martin Vintage Car.

Tumango naman siya bago pinasok ang aking maleta sa backseat. I was roaming my eyes around his car when I finally sat on the shotgun seat beside him. Aaron gripped his steering wheel using his left hand, looking very skillful.

“Are you going to tour me somewhere?”
Sambit ko nung magsimula siyang magmaneho.

Aaron winked at me.
“We’re going to find your sheepish prince, so hold on tight to your seatbelt.”
Then he started to drive at a very fast pace.

Tumigil ang kanyang sasakyan sa harap ng Camden Town Hall. Nauna siyang bumaba para buksan ang pinto ng sasakyan para sa akin. My heart was beating so fast as we entered the lounge and witnessed a lot of media. I just tilted my gaze to avoid them. I still have fear whenever I see camera flashes or hear flickering sounds of it.

Nagawi ang aking tingin sa isang lalaki na naghihintay sa loob ng Counsil Chamber. I could only see his back, but I know for sure that it’s him. He looks great in the black Italian tuxedo suit he’s wearing. His breathing is heavily strained, and it’s very evident in how his shoulders tremble. 

Nangangatog ang aking mga tuhod nung lumakad ako palapit. Hindi ko maiwasang ngumiti nang makita sina Roque, Gabriel, Leonard, at Krisha na nakaupo sa front seat. Lahat sila’y nakasuot ng pormal na kasuotan.

The old lady wearing a suit took a glance at her wristwatch.
“Mr. Zamora, you’ve been standing on your feet for an hour now. Are you sure he will come?” 

Gellian answered in just a split second.
“Yes, Mrs. Robinson. I’m a hundred percent sure that my baby will arrive soon.”

Kumaway sa akin sila Krisha nung makita ako pero agad ko silang sinenyasan na huwag itong ipaalam kay Gellian. Marahan akong umupo sa ‘di kalayuan para siya’y pagmasdan.

“Dude, I just received a text from Aaron and he said that Zein doesn’t love you anymore. Ang bagal mo raw kasi.”
Pang-aasar ni Roque.

Gellian’s growl echoes in the hall.
“What?! No, that will never happen. He just said,

I love you too

the last time I called him.”

Maingat na umupo si Aaron sa tabi nila Leonard bago nagsalita.
“Zein, mahal mo ba talaga ‘to?”
Sigaw niya habang nakaturo kay Gellian, na ngayon ay nakatingin na rin sa akin.

I rolled my eyes.
“Hindi ko na mahal ‘yan! Ang dami ko nakitang mas guwapo dito sa UK, dito nalang ako hahanap ng asawa.”

Tumakbo palapit sa akin si Gellian, nakaluhod na hinawakan ang aking mga kamay. Nagsimulang mangilid ang luha sa kanyang mga mata. Hinalikan niya ang aking mga kamay bago sumambit ng salita.

“Zein, I’m sorry if it took me so long to finally propose to you. Believe me or not, I tried a billion times to compose myself to finally say it, but… I just lost it every time I saw your innocent face.”
He uttered between his sobs.

“You’re still a baby in my eyes, and you will forever be. I said it before, but I will say it again.”
He centered his sight on me.
“The moment I saw your cute face when we were kids, I already promised myself I’d never look at anyone else.”

I couldn’t bear to see his sad face, which is why I gave him a sweet smile. My hands held his face and I wiped his tears away with my thumb. Hindi ko napapansin na pati ako’y umiiyak na rin dahil sa kanya.

Our friends stood from their seats when Gellian pulled out the small box from his side pocket. He abruptly moved, and his left knee was now touching the ground while his left was up. He cleared his throat before opening the engagement box, which revealed the sparkly diamond ring inside.

“It’s your cute face and innocent personality, my baby. The first time I saw it, I knew I wanted to see it for the rest of my life. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me… and will forever be.”
Taos-
puso niyang sinabi.

“I may not have a castle or a kingdom like in the fairy tale, but I promise that I’ll treat you like a queen. Allow me to be your king and marry me… please?”
He managed to take off the wedding ring from its box, tears streaming down his face.

I showed him my left hand, pouting my lips.
“I do, my King. Let’s get married!”

 

My long-time friend, my knight in shining armor, and my first love.
You have turned my life into a fairytale without you knowing it,

Gellian Ross Zamora

Now signing off,

Zein Alexis

Garcia

🌈💅

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-Terrorious

Author’s Note

To all of my Rainbow Squad,

 
 

      Thank you very much for reading the story of Gellian and Zein which is entitled

Flickered By Innocence

(Crossing The Line Series 4). This is the sixth story that I finished and I’m still eager to learn new things and to show more of my story to all of you.

       Ito na po yung huling istorya ng Crossing The Line kaya sobrang akong nalulungkot dahil natapos na siya, but at the same time ay masaya r

in. Basta halo-halo yung nararamdaman ko.

      I want to grab this opportunity to thank those readers who are helping me to promote my story. For those who voted and recommended my story to their friends and for liking my Tiktok videos to support me. Lagi kong sinasabi ‘to pero sasabihin ko ulit,

please don’t be scared to interact with me.

A simple comment to my story can lighten up my day. It also makes me feel motivated sa pag-iisip ng mga scenes and scenarios.

      Lastly, I hope that you enjoy reading

Flickered By Innocence

. We made it this far Rainbow Squad!

Nakakalungkot mang isipin pero tuluyan na tayong magpaalam sa original Rainbow Squad (Kyle, Ezra, Levi and Zein). I will miss them so much since their stories are the first series I wrote.

    
More BL Stories to come! Salamat sa pananatili at walang sawang suporta. Mahal ko kayo, Rainbow Squad.

Your Rainbow Squad Author,

Terrorious
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Announcement

Hello, Rainbow Squad!

    
I know some of you already know this, but Thirst Trap The Series are the stories of the Four Musketeers, who are Roque, Gabriel, Leonard, and Aaron.

    
The Thirst Trap Series is an erotic BL Series, so if you’re underage and don’t have a mature mind, I won’t advise you to read this series.

    
I’m not sure when I will be publishing the chapters since I’m still working on my 2 ongoing stories, which are BS5: Sweet Blood and Calendar Girls Series #9: September’s Escapade, but I’m low key hoping to finish it before the end of this year. Wish me luck.

    
Covers of Thirst Trap Series 1-4 have been posted here on my account.

THIRST TRAP SERIES 1:

-Roque Suarez & Jean Galvan’s Story

THIRST TRAP SERIES 2:

-Gabriel Carpio & Collen Estrella’s Story

THIRST TRAP SERIES 3:

-Leonard Delos Santos & Riley Gallardo’s Story

THIRST TRAP SERIES 4

:

-Aaron Delgado & Flynt Noriega

All Right Reserved,

Terrorious

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F.B.I (Special Chapter)

Warning: R-18

“Try going a little lower, baby,”
Gellian suggested reclining down on the bed.

Binaba ko ang aking mga kamay na nasa kanyang hubad na likod.
“How about here?”

He grumbled softly,
“Ugh! Yeah, that’s it. Push right there, baby.”

When I hear him behave in this manner, I cringe. I rubbed a small bit of oil onto my hands before squeezing his sore back. I’m sleepy even though it’s still early in the morning.

“Don’t be afraid to squeeze my back, baby; every part of my body is yours.”
I can’t see his face, but I know he’s grinning as of the moment.

Nang maurat ako ay binuksan ko ang
Pain Relief Patch
at pahampas iyong nilagay sa likod niya. I don’t care if he screams in pain. After massaging him for over an hour, my back feels sore as well.

“You remember how I urged you not to take that action movie role, pero hindi ka nakinig sa ‘kin? So, what happened now?”
I chastised him,
“You’re now injured after falling off the roof.”

He breathed deeply.
“Baby, I didn’t fall through a roof; I fell through a fence.”

”
I don’t care if it’s a roof or a fence, it didn’t change the fact that you’re injured, Gellian Ross Zamora.”
I scoffed.

Dali-dali siyang bumangon upang harapin ako. Nang makita niyang nakabusangot ang aking mukha ay nawala ang nakakalokong ngiti sa kanyang labi. I’m enraged, and if he hadn’t restrained me earlier, I swear I’d be complaining to his director about their unsafe stunts.

“Baby, I’m sorry. You know I’m trying to earn more money so we can save for our family, right?”
I rolled my eyes as he hugged me close.

Bumuntong hininga ako.
“But Gellian, we already have our own resort. You can just retire from acting so we can devote more time to it; and as for saving money, I’ve already made a lot.”

“Don’t worry, baby. My contract will expire this year, and I will not renew; I pledge to be completely devoted to you…”
Hinaplos niya ang aking tiyan.
” and not let you sleep at night until we can have our first baby.”

When his hand slid into my pyjama shirt, I slapped it.
“Wag ngayon. Hindi tayo bati.”

He kissed my left cheek after pouting.
“Can’t we just do it, baby? I think my injury will recover quickly after just one round.”

“Do you think so, dzaddy?”
I asked as I pushed him from the bed with my hands on his shoulders.

Kumapit siya sa aking bewang at pinaupo ako sa gitna ng kanyang mga hita.
“I suppose we’ll have to give it a shot to see if it works, right baby?”

When he took down my pyjama trousers and underwear, my hand grabbed onto his chest. His left hand grabbed for my nape, pulling me in for a kiss, while his right hand squeezed my ass’ cheek.

After feeling his finger penetrate me, I hummed,
“Hmmm… dzaddy.”

He murmured,
“Shhh… please be quiet, I’m watering my fish, baby.”

“Oh my!”
As his finger began to thrust in my entrance, I couldn’t help but groan.

Tinago ko ang aking mukha sa kanyang leeg nung bumilis ang paggalaw ng kamay niya. Even though it was only one of his fingers, I felt like I had reached my peak.
Why does this man have to be so thick in every way?

“Bite me if you’re hurt, okay baby?”
he warned before adding another finger.

Instead of biting his skin, I bite my lower lip. I wouldn’t want to leave any marks on him because he’s an actor. His fingers continued to tickle my arse till I felt something large poke me.
That must be his thing, right?

“Let’s start treating my injury, baby.”
usal niya bago ilabas ang kanyang galit na alaga mula sa suot niyang boxers.

He slammed his hard shaft into my ass, further widening my legs. I can still recall the last time we did it. That was a week ago when we celebrated our first wedding anniversary. Ilang araw yata akong paika-ika dahil inabot na kami ng umaga. Hindi naman siguro niya ako lulumpuhin dahil injured siya,
‘di ba
?

When he put his full-sized cock within me, I growled,
“Ahhh, Dzaddy!
”

He tried to calm me down by planting feathery kisses on my jaw and neck, but it didn’t work. My body began to stretch apart. Gellian kissed my lips and grinded in a smooth manner while holding my chin.
He’s on top of me in a flash!

When Gellian took my right foot and guided it towards his lips, my eyes opened. I let out a quiet groan as he sucked my toe and looked at my flushed face with his seductive eyes.

Hinaplos niya sa kanyang dibdib pababa sa bato-bato niyang tiyan ang aking paa. He also took my left foot and stroked his proud member with both of my feet. I swallowed the lump in my throat when he moved his hips.

“D-dzaddy, what are you doing?”

He snorted and applied some oil to both of my foot, saying,
“I’m going to fuck your feet, baby.”

“B-but why? Isn’t my ass enough?”
I said, my voice sick and concerned.

“Don’t say that, baby. You’re more than enough to me; I just don’t want to hurt you.”

Kumapit ako nang mahigpit sa bed sheet nung umulos siya nang mabilis sa pagitan ng dalawa kong paa. I observed how Gellian gasps every time he gets deeper. His little motions are intensifying the intensity of the scene.

I don’t want to say anything negative, but dang! My dzaddy is a hunk. Those broad shoulders, wonderfully toned chest, veiny arms, and 8-inch cock is worth to die for.

“Baby, I’m almost there!”
paos niyang wika habang patuloy na umuulos sa aking mga paa.

My body curved up as his hands tightly held my ankle, forcing it to stroke his raging cock at breakneck pace. Gellian is currently summoning all saints and feverishly sweating. He continued to grind, but he came to a halt when we heard the doorbell ring.

“Dzaddy, let me check–”

Pinutol niya ang aking sasabihin.
“Baby, I’m coming; just wait a minute.

Mas binilisan niya ang pag-angkin sa aking mga paa. I understand he’s nearing into his climax, but the sound of several knocks on the door irritates me. I free myself from Gellian’s clutches after putting on my clothing and kiss him before leaving his fully erect cock in the bedroom.

“Baby, ang sakit ng pantog ko…”
rinig kong usal niya pero nagpatuloy ako sa paglalakad.

As I approached the front door, I could hear soft giggles outside. Mas lalo akong nagmadaling pihitin ang doorknob upang pagbuksan sila. When I saw my twin younger brothers seated in their strollers, I squealed. They were brought here by our parents.

Yumuko ako nang kaunti para magpantay kaming tatlo.
“What brings you here, Zach and Zech?”

Zachary Ace is considered the elder because he went out of our mother’s womb thirty seconds prior to Zechariah Abe. They are identical twins, so they really look alike. The only difference is that Zach seems like the cold type of baby while Zech is the sweet one.  They are both one-year-
old.

“Anak, we missed you.”
sambit ni Mom matapos akong magmano.

I laughed.
“Mom, you already miss me after just visiting the mansion yesterday?”

“Alam mo namang bukod sa amin ng Mommy mo ay nami-miss ka rin nina Nanny Fe at Mang Noel. Lalo na itong mga kapatid mo, ‘di ba babies?”
biglang naging bata ang boses ni Dad nung humarap siya kina Zach at Zech.

Napaigtad ako nang may brasong lumingkis sa aking bewang. I shifted my focus to Gellian, who was now dressed in a long-sleeved shirt, pants, and even his black loafers. Basa pa ang buhok niya at halatang nagmadali lang siyang humanap ng susuotin dahil gusot ang kanyang damit.

My father inquired,
“Are you going somewhere, Gellian?”

“I told you, honey, they’re busy and won’t be able to accommodate our request.”
bulong ni Mom sa tenga ni Dad pero rinig ko pa rin iyon.

Gellian rubbed his nape.
“Do you have a request for us, Ma, Pa?”

Dad greeted him with a kind smile.
“Is it okay if you two babysit Zach and Zech while we’re gone? We’re only going to an important meeting and will be back by afternoon.”

Buong akala ko’y tatanggi si Gellian dahil hindi naging maganda ang nangyari noong huling beses naming binantayan ang dalawa kong kapatid. Zach threw Gellian’s iPad while Zech peed on our bed. He didn’t protest at the time, but his jaw had been clinched the entire night.

“I’ll be your daddy again, would that be okay? Please behave–”
Gellian didn’t finish his sentence when Zach hit him across the face with a toy rattle.

Kaagad akong lumapit matapos kong ihanda ang bote ng gatas para sa kambal. Zach smiled at me then welcomed me with his hands, so I carried him. When I look at Gellian’s face, his forehead becomes reddish because of what Zach did. He carried Zech, then stood next to me.

“Okay ka lang?”
mapang-asar kong tanong.

Zech’s back was gently patted by him.
“I just suffered a new injury, so you should treat me later using the same treatment that we did a while ago.”

“Gellian!”
I yelled, and all he did was smirk and walk towards the backyard, still carrying Zech on his chest.

Napakarami naming ginawa sa mahigit tatlong oras na pagbabantay. Nanood kami ng nursery rhyme videos, nagbahay-bahayan, at nag-story telling pa si Gellian bago nakatulog ang dalawa kong kapatid.
Nang sumapit ang alas-dose ng tanghali ay doon lang bumalik sina Mom para iuwi ang dalawang kong cute na kapatid.

Babysitting is both exhausting and rewarding, especially when Gellian is doing his hardest to keep Zach and Zech entertained. He didn’t show up for his shoot today since he needed to rest his body, but my siblings tire him more.

I took a spoonful of strawberry ice cream and fed it to my loving husband. Nakahilig ako sa kanyang dibdib at yakap ako ng dalawa niyang braso habang nakaupo kami sa sofa.
When he leaned in close and kissed my forehead, I closed my eyes.

Gellian whispered fervently,
“I love you, my baby Zein.”

“I love you too, Gellian,”
I said, my gaze concentrated on the Disney film we were watching.

Nang maubos ko ang ice cream ay lumakad ako papunta sa fridge. Halos tumalon ako sa tuwa nang makitang napakaraming ice cream doon. Kinuha ko ang mahigit limang tub may iba’t-ibang flavors at nilapag iyon sa dining table.

Gellian forbids me from opening the ice cream’s lid,
“B-baby, you can’t eat that.”

“Why?”
I pouted, then pressed my finger between his cheeks, acting cute.

I knew I’d won when he sighed.
“If you can guess the flavors of these ice creams, I’ll let you eat them.”

Pumalakpak ako.
“Talaga? So simple. Come on, give it to me to taste,”
I say, showing my tongue, which causes him to gulp.

When he drew a blindfold from his jeans side pocket, my mouth hung open. I was going to inquire what he wanted to do when he covered my eyes with it.

“G-Gellian, hindi kita makita.”
Kinapa ko ang kanyang braso.

His lips brushed across me.
“Of course, you can’t see me since I covered your eyes, baby.”

“But, why do you need to do this?”

“Baby,”
Tumaas ang balahibo ko nang bumulong siya sa aking leeg.
“Let’s have a taste challenge. It’s just a very simple yet thrilling game. What you have to do is guess the flavor of ice cream I will shove into your mouth. Pretty easy… right?”

Kinagat ko ang ibaba kong labi.
“All right, Gellian, how shall we begin?”

“First,”
Idinikit niya ang aking katawan sa kanya.
“You have to call me daddy.”

“Dzaddy,”
I said, almost a moan.

He kissed my lips once more.
“That’s excellent, baby; now go down on your knees so daddy can begin the game.”

Humawak akong maigi sa kanyang braso nang alalayan niya akong lumuhod sa harapan niya. My heart was racing and I had no idea what to anticipate. Regardless, I’ll try to guess which ice cream flavors he’ll let me try.

“Baby, listen carefully. Whatever happens, don’t bite anything I’m going to put in your mouth, you understand?”
aniya.

“B-but, it’s just an ice cream, right?”
kinakaban kong tanong.

I heard his playful chuckles.
“Yeah, it’s just an… ice cream with a twist; now open your mouth and show me your tongue.”

Huminga ako nang malalim bago ibuka ang aking bibig at ilabas ang aking dila. Everything is so quiet that I can hear him opening the ice cream tub and pulling a spoon from the drawer. I place my hands on my lap and anticipate his next move.

“Ready?”

Tumango ako.

He put the icy spoon in my mouth and said,
“Here we go, baby.”

The taste of a sweet flavor brushed against my taste buds after he drew out the spoon. This flavor comes from cocoa and melts on my tongue. When I realized what the flavor was, I smiled.

“Dzaddy, that’s chocolate.”

He put his hand on my head.
“That was great, baby; now try to guess the second.”

Kagaya ng naunang ice cream ay madali ko lang nahulaan ang mga sumunod pang flavors na pinatikim niya sa akin. Pakiramdam ko’y napakain niya na sa akin ang lahat ng variants kagaya ng cheese, vanilla, matcha, bubble gum and cookies & cream.

“Now here’s your favorite flavor, baby. Open your lips wider,”
he said, and I did what he said.

Hinawakan niya ang aking panga upang lakihan ang buka ng aking bibig. Maya-maya pa’y may kung anong malaki siyang pinasok sa bibig ko. My lips were stretched as a result of it.

“Can you guess what’s that taste, baby?”
paos niyang tanong nang alisin niya iyon sa aking bibig.

When I tasted an unfamiliar flavor, I swallowed. Marami na akong nakain na ice cream pero bago sa akin ito. Masarap naman pero masyado iyong mahaba at matigas.

“Dzaddy, is that a newly discovered flavor? Can you put it back into my mouth… please?”
I inquired, my voice enthusiastic.

Mahigpit niyang hinawakan ang pagkakatali ng blindfold sa aking likod at itinulak ako palapit sa
ice cream
na iyon. Is this
ice cream
for real? However, why isn’t it cold? I still enjoy it since it is sweet.

I sucked on it and savoured every inch with my tongue. As Gellian pushed me closer to the ice cream, it poked my throat. This ice cream is seriously addictive. This flavor, whatever it is, is far superior to my beloved strawberry.

“Ugh, baby. You’re doing a great job!”
ungol ni Gellian kaya ako nagtaka.

Nang bitawan ni Gellian ang aking ulo ay ako na mismo ang gumalaw para mas matikman ko iyon nang buo. My mouth was extremely full because of this ice cream. After it choked me, I pushed harder into it and coughed.

“Dzaddy, I love this ice cream,”
I said as I reached for it.

“My ice cream love you too, baby.”
wika niya bago minasahe ang aking dila ng ice cream.

Nang pumasok ulit iyon sa aking bibig ay sinipsip ko iyon. Narinig ko ang muling pag-ungol ni Gellian lalo na nung ilabas-masok ko iyon sa aking bibig. Magmula sa mabagal ay mas bumilis ako sa pagsubo nang masanay ako sa laki at haba ng ice cream.

“Ahhh! Yes, baby. Keep doing that.”
singhal niya.

Pinaglaruan ko ang ice cream sa aking bibig. Ramdam kong para itong may ulo sa dulong bahagi kaya mas lalo akong nanggigil. Labis sigurong natuwa si Gellian kaya napahawak siya sa aking buhok upang salubungin ang aking bibig.

“Baby, my ice cream will produce another cream, and I want you to spit it out instead of swallowing it,”
he explained, and I agreed.

Gellian hissed in delight as I twirled my tongue over the firm ice cream in my mouth. Halos mabilaukan ako sa pagsubo nito pero hindi ko na iyon ininda. Naluluha na rin ang mga mata ko sa tuwing dumadausdos ang dulo nito sa aking lalamunan.

“Oh! Baby, stop! It’s coming!”
sigaw ni Gellian pero hinawakan ko ang kanyang bewang upang mas kainin ko iyon nang buo.

Mas tumigas yata iyon nang buo sa aking bibig. Because of its size, I’m actually drooling, but that doesn’t bother me. Gellian’s ice cream is to die for, especially now that I know it’s the thing between his legs. I had no idea that his cock would become my new favorite taste.

“Oh yeah, baby,”
Gellian moaned as he come into my mouth and I drank his entire load without wasting a single drop.

Ako na ang kusang nagtanggal ng piring sa aking mata. Napangisi ako nang makitang kaharap ko ang namimintig niyang alaga matapos ko iyong kainin. I winked at him and stroked his wet shaft. He’s still hard after his first release, and I can still feel his load in my throat from earlier.

“Wanna have a second game, dzaddy?”

My greatest asset has always been my innocence, which I have had since I was a child. I have a lot of questions about a lot of things, and I’m lacking in some areas, but I’m glad I have him to help me with that.

Flickered By Innocence

by: Terrorious

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