Chapter One

“Yellow flag!”

I couldn’t help but aggressively sigh as I stared at the game before me, I enjoyed watching the hunky men run around tackling each other but this was just too much! We were tied and there were only seconds left on the clock, and to make it worse, it was the fourth quarter and my feet were screaming at me to sit my ass down somewhere. I was too excited though, I couldn’t sit still because if we won, that would mean that we would be going to the district finals! I looked at Riley Baker did a signature clap, catching all of attention and I couldn’t help but roll my eyes as she propped her hand against her hip and looked towards me and the only other male on the team, Finley Abram. 

I was on the cheer squad, yay me, and while it was always fun to do back flips and the multiple routines that were drilled into our skull since the first day of practice, cheering definitely had it’s ups and downs. I did a back flip near the end of our routine and we quickly shook our pompoms as the marching band finished a cool ass cadence that I definitely had to do a little extra butt-popping too. I looked over as my best friend, Amber Wheat, joined me in my playful twerking before she smacked me playfully on the butt, making me laugh as she threw her head side to side so her ponytail twirled back and forth. 

“ GO, ELI AND AMBER !“ I heard a voice yell behind me, making me pinch my nose in embarrassment.

I turned my head to find the source to spot a man that was pushing thirties but he was already growing a graying beard with a pair of thick glasses that he wore while he typed away at his cellphone, not really paying attention to the game. His hair was once rich with thick, jet black curls that sat all over his head but nowadays he was balding near the scalp with beautiful, brown eyes that sparkled no matter the situation. My Father was aggressively chewing away on a piece of gum as his fingers moved fast over his touch screen, he paused as he was elbowed by someone standing beside him. 

The person who elbowed him while screaming at the top of his lungs was no one but my crazy Dad, step-dad to be exact, and that man right there was someone you’d normally call the life of the party. My Dad was much younger appearing but only younger than Father by only four years, he wore a heavy coat in the slightly chilled night with a pair of solid black gloves that held their own pair of matching pompoms. He had thicker blonde hair that fell slightly past his shoulders but tonight, he wore a sloppy bun with free curls falling in front of his baby blue eyes, they’re so baby blue people think he wear contacts. 

Dad realized that I was looking at him and eagerly waved at me, making me laugh as I waved back before he elbowed Father and pointed at me, letting Father know that I had spotted them in the crowd. Dad happily blew me a kiss and I blew one back before shaking my head and turning back around so I could watch the game that was about to end soon, and I was so thankful.

I scanned the field for one person and one person only, and that was Keshawn Michael and I momentarily was clueless until I spotted him running to take his position in the football routine, he was so damn sexy. My anxiety started to rise as I watched the other team take their position as well, I knew that Keshawn would be the one having the ball once the referee blew his whistle but I had faith in him. I think the entire school had faith in him. He was number one for a reason, and I assume it was because he was good at football, I didn’t know anything about football but I played along like I did. I enjoyed watching the guys tackle each other, and it also was just fun to watch at times because you see all kinds of things, but I hate when a player on our team gets hurt.

The whistle blew and the clock immediately started to tick down fast, Keshawn threw the ball to his best friend, Daniel Truman, who caught it and took us to a touchdown in no time. Or rather, just in time, because the clock immediately buzzed as it fell to zero and the uproar of the crowd made me smile as we did our last routine at the victory before we joined the huddling football players. I screamed in excitement and threw up my pompoms as the other cheerleaders did the same, Amber squealed and jumped on me while pulling me into a tight hug, and I quickly returned it as we both jumped in unison. 

“We’re going to districts!” I screamed as we continued to happily jump in unison.

I pulled away from her as she wiped at her teary face, her eyeliner was running down her chin but she seemed to careless as she continued to jump in excitement for our win, I laughed and helped her wipe her face, but it was pretty futile. I gave up as Amber went to hug with the other girls while the boys openly chanted “ Finals “ and the crowd soon joined in, chanting the same thing while I departed from the crowd to catch up with my parents. I spotted Father standing by the protective railing as Dad must of went ahead of him to start the car, I walked up to him while grabbing a random pair of pompoms to claim as mine. 

“Hey, good job, Kiddo.” Father said, making me smile as he leaned over the railing and pecked my forehead.

“Thanks… where’s Dad?” I asked.

“In the car already,” Father said,“ and we’re going to need a night-“

“Ew.” I playfully gagged. “Dad…” I whined, laughing as he shrugged.

“We’re human. I advise you stay away from home as long as you can.” He warned with a wink.

“Gladly, love you.” I said, taking the money from him offering hand. 

“Love you, Kiddo. Be safe.” Father said, leaning over the railing and giving me another peck on the forehead before walking away.

I looked at the bill of money and a smiled at the picture of Ulysses S. Grant staring at me as he sat on the fifty dollar bill, I turned to yell for Amber just as I spotted her entering the locker room we used to store our stuff. I followed the other cheerleaders as we exited the stadium and made a gossiping beeline toward the locker rooms nearby, I entered the boys locker room and grabbed my duffle bag without really worrying about changing. I slipped my duffle bag on my shoulder and stepped back out the locker room, I pulled up short and braced myself against the wall while watching at the football players slowly walk past. 

Many of them looked tired but they pushed onward into the locker rooms before it winded down to the few lingering around outside to talk to the cheerleaders. I spotted Amber and watched as Daniel put his hand on her hip almost provokingly as she smirked and cocked her head at him, I rolled my eyes and decided I’ll just wait for Amber at her car. I entered the parking lot that had already cleared out with the exception of cars that belonged to marching band members, and the cheerleaders and football players that drove themselves. I leaned back against Amber’s bronze Pontiac and patiently waited as I peeked at my watch, I had all night to find something to keep me busy, so whatever worked. I knew that Amber had a crush on Daniel, everyone knew that Amber had a crush on Daniel and she very well made it known to him, even when he came out and told her that he was dating Riley, the head cheerleader.

I looked in the direction of the locker rooms to see that Amber was finally making her way towards her car, but she wasn’t alone, in fact she was huddled together with a few cheerleaders and football players that merged. Daniel was in the front with his arm wrapped around Riley, who was laughing at something he was saying to her, Kevin Moore and Greg Hathway were playfully pushing each other while Amber and Ricky Anderson were talking about something. Amber broke from the crowd and I rose an eyebrow at her as she squealed and jumped on me again, making me roll my eyes and smile at her as she pulled away from me.

“I’m so cold!” I whined.

“Stop being a baby, we got invited to the party tonight!” Amber said with excitement. “Please, say you’ll come.” She pouted at me and gave me puppy dog eyes.

I playfully rolled my eyes once more but smiled and nodded at her, I was always curious of what happened at these parties and to make it better, it was at Daniel’s house and that was the perfect time for Amber to catch Daniel’s attention. Amber screamed and jumped on me again, almost knocking us to the ground as I laughed and hugged her back this time, she rocked us before releasing me and jumping up and down in excitement.

“YES! Okay, party’s at nine, let’s go get cute!” I happily agreed to what she said.

“I’m only doing this so you can be with Daniel.” A cool breeze caused me to shiver and I wrapped my arms around myself. “Now, unlock the doors, I’m freezing!” I winced, pulling at the door’s handle. 

Amber quickly fished out her keys from her purse and unlocked the doors, I hurriedly opened the door and climbed inside, shutting the door behind me as I breathed hot air on my finger tips, glaring at her as she slowly climbed in to tease me.

“I hate you, Snickerdoodle.” I joked.

“I love you too, cupcake!” Amber squealed, staring the car.

I rolled my eyes as my favorite song started to play, I smiled as I turned up the volume and started to sing at the top of my lungs as Amber pulled out the parking lot and started to drive toward her parent’s house. I didn’t have to worry about clothes because Amber and I fit the same size and swapped clothes all the time, I was a crossdresser so it wasn’t any problem for me to put on her clothes. My feminine touch with life truly made people believe that I was a girl, and plus I was a fairly pretty girl, so I rarely had people bother me about it because they truly thought I was a female. I kept myself up, my hair was thick and I always rod it up so my brown curls were so curly that they bounced when I walked. 

Growing up, Father allowed me to take hormone pills so I was more curvy than the average white male, I had a very nice set of hips and a plump butt that I could shake, I thank my mom for that. With Amber’s crazy driving, we reached her house in no time and I quickly hurried inside in the hopes of beating her to a cute outfit. I laughed as I heard her hurrying behind me and she caught up in no time, we both attempted to enter the room and my big hips got us both stuck as I tried to squeeze past her. I managed to wiggle in first and quickly staked my claim on the black, suede wedges as I landed beside them with a giggle. 

Amber laughed and stepped over me while grabbing a pair of skinny jeans while I settled for the denim skirt she passed up, I slipped it while tossing my uniform aside and lastly picking out a summer sweater with a tank top under it. I checked the mirror and deemed myself ready as Amber touched up her make up a little while standing in a tube top that showed her belly piercing, her skinny jeans hugged all the right places, and she settled for some Jordans since I took the wedges.

With our outfits complete, it was time to head to the party.

Chapter Two

I rolled the window down to allow some air to blow throughout the car as Amber drove, I was excited by my heart was also racing so fast and I didn’t know what anything was going to be like. We turned onto the street of Daniel’s house and the music was bumping heavily, the crowd was packed with people and to make it worse, I was able to see some people I knew. The street was packed with cars but Amber managed to find a good spot to park, I unlocked my door and quickly climbed out the car as Amber did as well. I glanced over at her before taking a deep, shaky breath, she bit her lip nervously and entwined her elbow with mine before we both advanced toward the door.

I stepped over a drunken person as they laid sprawled on the concrete path, the person groaned so I knew they weren’t dead. I glanced around me before walking up to the steps of the white porch, passing a kissing couple on the stairs. Malik was shoving his tongue desperately down Jessica’s throat as he had his hand poised under her shirt openly, not scaring who saw them. I glanced back at Amber as she reached forward and rapped twice on the door, she looked at me unsurely for a second but it was too late because the door was already swinging open.

Keshawn was standing at the door with a red cup in his hand, he looked so sexy standing before me that I just wanted to jump on him right in the door way. He was wearing his jersey like all the other football players at the party, he wore a pair of saggy jeans with gold Adidas that went with our gold and red school jersey. He surprised me by openly looking us up and down while leaning against the threshold, his brown eyes were so seductive as they squinted at Amber as he licked his bottom lip suggestively.

He thankfully moved out the way and Amber passed first, his eyes trialed her ass as I quickly followed her, wondering if he was going to look at my ass as well. I glanced back to see him close the door before taking a sip out of his cup and looking at me, he squinted his eyes in thought before disappearing into the dancing crowd. I glanced around for Amber but couldn’t find her, I flared my eyebrows in confusion on how she could disappear so fast before looking around again. I eventually spotted her trekking up the stairs behind Daniel as he held her hand and guided her, I sighed as I was “ditched” and decided to just try to fit in.

A sick beat started to play as I merged with the crowd and started to dance, I rocked my hips and rolled them as I felt a presence behind me, I continued to dance without acknowledging the person. The person behind me reached forward and grabbed my hips while pushing themselves against me, I felt something poke me and I quickly played it off as I almost flinched away. I finally turned to see who it was, Keshawn was smirking down at me with a glint of lust in his eyes while I continued to roll my hips before dropping it low and coming back up like the song said to do.

Keshawn watched me as I started to rock my hips some more, I threw my hands above my head and started to pop my ass before smiling as someone joined me in the dance. I didn’t know the person but her ass was fat and she also knew how to shake it, she smiled back at me as we continued to dance. I eventually lost my breath and slowed down to just rocking my hips while listening to the music, Keshawn had vanished into the crowd and was returning with a red cup.

He gestured it out to me and I happily took it before taking a needed sip, I immediately frowned in disgust as it burned my throat, I guess that explains why there’s not much inside the cup. He chuckled and pulled me close before quickly downing his cup and grunting, he surprised me by grabbing my chin and pulling me forward for a kiss. I gasped against his lips but quickly returned it as I used my unoccupied hand to touch his muscular bicep. He was so sexy and I just wanted to kiss his lips all night, however, I knew that Keshawn was a player and I wasn’t going to mean anything to him by tomorrow.

I pulled away and stared into his chocolate brown eyes as he stared back at me, he licked his lips pleasingly before leaning down and kissing me once more. I didn’t pull away or hesitate as I kissed him back, I opened my mouth and greedily accepted his tongue as he reached down with his empty hand and grabbed my left butt cheek. He cupped it without caring who saw him as I smirked while shaking my head and pushing him away, he wanted to fuck but I wasn’t ready for that with anyone . I turned to go find Amber but Keshawn grabbed my wrist and pulled me back, I rose an eyebrow at him as his eyes lustily pleaded to me.

My smirk widened as I reached up and trialed my fingers down his brawny neck, he had a large tattoo of a epic dragon with the letters HCS in very small print, High Cue Squad. It was the out-of-school group that everyone knew of, they mostly stayed out of trouble but always threw good parties and some how, managed to always get beer. Keshawn shivered at my touch as I laughed and pushed him away before turning and walking to the kitchen to pour my drink out and get some water or soda.

I entered the kitchen to find a double hose hookah-pipe being used, the smoke was clouding the kitchen and I fanned my face as I made my way toward the sink. I glanced around to see Riley and Daniel kissing on the counter, well, if Daniel is down here, where the hell is Amber? I sat my drink down and walked over to the two, I pushed Daniel’s in the back aggressively as he yelped in frustration and turned to see who pushed him. I did notice that Riley squealed when I pushed Daniel, he looked me up and down before turning back to Riley and going back to making out with her.

“Hey, dickwad.” I said, pushing him in the back again and this time, Riley pulled her legs wider and threw her head back against the counter with a scream of pleasure.

Daniel thrust his hips forward as I realized his jeans were hanging lowly on his hips, I almost gagged as I realized they were having sex on the counter, everyone knew that Daniel and Riley had a thing but no one really cared. The two were always on and off with each other and whenever the change was occurring, Amber took the opportunity. To see Daniel here after he just went up the stairs with Amber pissed me off, I pushed him once more and this time he got fed up as he pulled out of Riley and turned to face me without shoving himself back into his pants. I looked at his size with a raised eyebrow, there wasn’t anything special other than he had a good thickness but he wasn’t as long as he always claimed to be.

“Where’s Amber?” I asked impatiently, crossing my arms as he rolled his eyes carelessly.

“Fuck I know?” He asked, he seemed mostly sober but you can never know with Daniel. “I dicked her then left.”

He then turned and started to push his way back into Riley as she screamed in pleasure, he hunched inside her with grunts as I rolled my eyes and turned to walk up the stairs. I glanced around as I spotted Keshawn whispering in some girl’s ear, he glanced over at me in time before dismissing himself and making his way to the stairs. I grabbed the railing while breaking eye contact with him and started up quickly, I was on the third step when my wrist was grabbed and I was pulled back down. I turned to see who grabbed me, Keshawn was smirking up at me as he eyed me up and down, I’m now starting to think that the football players want anyone who will fuck them back.

“No one’s allowed upstairs.” I rose an eyebrow at him. “Not unless you plan on fucking someone up there.”

“I think my friend’s up there.” I told him, pulling my wrist away before turning to head up the stairs once more.

I heard his heavy feet behind me as he followed me, I walked to the first door and pushed it open to see a complete orgy going on, it was at least five girls and three guys going at it. I rose an eyebrow as I spotted Chantel riding a guy, she always claimed she was classy and didn’t have time to be a whore but look at her now. Keshawn reached past me and grabbed the door to close it, I turned to shoot a look at him before proceeding to the next door. I pushed it open and turned the light on to see Trey holding Amber’s legs up as she screamed for him to not stop. My eyes widened at the sight of them as she pushed up against him while holding onto the headboard, I started forward to break them apart but Keshawn grabbed my bicep tightly and dragged me out the room. He closed the door while walking across the hall and opening a door, the room was completely empty and he pushed me inside while closing the door behind himself.

“What the hell, Keshawn! Let me out!” I tried to get past him but he surprised me by lifting me up into his arms.

I quickly wrapped my legs around his waist by reflex, I always did it to people because I was scared I’d get dropped, Keshawn walked to the bed and laid down on it with me still glued to him. I unwound my legs from around him and pushed at his chest as I wiggled to get away from him, the more I struggled the more my vision stared to blur. I didn’t drink anything but a sip as I pushed at Keshawn’s chest, I felt him touch my hips and gently dig his fingers into my waist, sending electric shots through my body. I arched my back at the pleasure as it raced up and down my spine, I gasped as he leaned down and started to kiss and suck at my neck. It felt so good as he ran his fingers up and down my sides, I moaned as I stopped struggling and leaned into his touches while he reached up and pushed a strand of hair out of my face. I closed my eyes as he trailed his finger down my check and to my neck, I arched my back at his touches as I felt my nipples harden at his touch.

I could feel the fabric of my tanktop protesting as I arched my back and felt his chest against mine, my nipples were pointing so straight up that you could see them through my summer sweater. Keshawn leaned down and lifted my shirt up to my neck, I gasped as he was finally able to see a part of me that no man had ever saw, I had little C cups on my chest from my enhanced hormone shots and he was now seeing them. He eyed them closely with a look of lust as I stared at him while panting, I wanted him to touch them, to bite them… to suck on them, I wanted him to touch me so bad and my lower half was so hard. I moaned as I arched my back toward him, letting him know I wanted him to touch me, he willingly lowered his head and sucked my left nipple into his mouth as I moaned and arched into his mouth.

“K-Keshawn…” I moaned, curling my toes as he grounded himself against me.

Feeling him ground himself against me made me become harder as I moaned and pushed back up against him, what had he given me in that cup? I took a deep gasp of air as he moved to the right nipple and started to suck on that as well. I whined for more as he trailed his kisses lower to my denim skirt and didn’t even lift it up, he only kissed down to my thigh and pushed it up with his teeth.

I gasped as I curled my toes and started to push him off of me again, I was still a virgin and needed to stay that way because I wasn’t ready to give that part of myself up yet. Keshawn quickly grabbed my wrist as he sat up and pinned my hands above my head, I struggled against his tight grasp but I knew that it was a futile struggle because I wasn’t going to be able to win against him.

I gasped as he went back to sucking on my nipples, I wasn’t sure what I was going to do if I wanted to win against him but then again, I felt like there was no way I was going to win. I stopped struggling as he released my left nipple and kissed around my areola, they were so tender and I figured it had something to do with the drink Keshawn handed me. This time, Keshawn lifted my skirt up after releasing my hands, he lifted the skirt all the way up to my hips and exposed my laced panties.

I gasped as he pulled my panties aside and started to unbuckle his pants, I whined and reached up and circled my arms around my hard, aching nipples. I pinched them as the aching started to lessen, Keshawn looked at me as I looked at him wantonly, I needed him to make the aching in my nipples and balls stop. I needed him to touch me and make me cum, I curled my toes as he held my panties to the side and eyed me closely, I moaned as he leaned down and kissed the inside of my thighs.

I arched my back as my eyes rolled in the back of my head and fireworks exploded within me, I looked down in shock as I stared at the white creamy substance inside my yellow panties while panting. I looked up at Keshawn as he grabbed his thick, hard length and slid them between my panties to get some of my cream on the tip of his head, I stared on in utter confusion as I realized I had no more strength to fight. I allowed him to lift my legs up as I laid back and stared at the ceiling, my hands laid limp at my side as I took a deep breath while Keshawn pushed inside me at the same time. Pain erupted up and down my spine as I arched my back in agony, I opened my mouth to scream as nothing came out, I reached up and grabbed his hand as it held my leg up.

“Fuck…” Keshawn drawled, throwing his head back as I felt him push more of himself inside me.

Each trust caused more pain to explode inside me as my mouth hung open while I arched my back and stared at the headboard before me, I clutched his hand tightly as he continued to push inside of me. He’d push in and then he’d push out just as fast, he changed his angle and started to trust faster as I laid there, letting him use me to his own needs. I heard a girly scream echo down the hall as Keshawn leaned down and kissed me, I moaned into his kiss as the screaming of pleasure continued, meaning it wasn’t me. I made soft “uh” sounds as Keshawn’s thrust gained momentum until he was slamming so deep inside of me.

I felt my toes curl once more as I came while arching my back off the bed and releasing a scream, I was positive my scream couldn’t be heard over the music as Keshawn continued to thrust to his own release. I felt him explode deep inside me as I squeezed my legs tight and tried to roll onto my side to get away from his big cock that penetrated me so deep. He was unnaturally large in size, how was he able to be so big and only be eighteen was beyond me, I reached up and pushed at his chest as he held my hip while continuing to trust into me from the same angle, only this time, I was laying on my side.

I heard the sound of the headboard as he showed no remorse and pounded me to his own pleasure, his lips were moving but I couldn’t hear anything but ringing and the faint sound of the thumping music in my ears. Another burning sensation shot through my body as Keshawn threw his head back with his mouth hanging wide open, either he as screaming or he was yelling words at the top of his lungs for everyone to hear.

Suddenly, everything went black.

Chapter Three

I quickly shielded my face as the sun beamed toward me, I rolled a little and immediately halted as pain rocketed up and down my back, I whined and reached back to brace my lower back as I slowly opened my eyes to see around me. I felt someone shift beside me and looked to see Amber stretching, I reached up and grabbed my head as my temples throbbed painfully, it had to be from the loud music and drinking whatever Keshawn gave me. I looked over at her again as she stared at the ceiling before a large smile came onto her face, she looked over at me as I glared at her before her smile fell.

“What? What’s wrong?” Her hoarse voice asked, she cleared her throat. “You okay?”

I slowly shook my head as the thoughts of what happened last night started to resonate with me, Keshawn had sex with me and it felt so good but now the regret was setting in. I felt my eyes water up at the fact that I gave my virginity to a player, why was I so stupid to come to this party, even when I could of told Amber no. Slowly sitting up, I looked around for my clothes as I found myself completely naked and white cream running down my legs, I reached up and pushed a strand of hair out of my face, feeling something gooey on my fingers after doing so. I looked down at my hand to find the same stuff, this is so disgusting, I gagged in disgust as the door slammed open and Daniel stood there with Riley behind him.

“Yo, get ya’ll asses up and get out.” He said, not even bothering to acknowledge Amber as she frowned. “Oh and Amber we tried to get you dressed but… Jason took ya panties.” He spoke with a wink before turning and walking away.

“What?” She asked, starting to sit up before she halted with a pained groan.

I pulled the sheets over my lower half before yanking them farther up, I glared at Daniel as he smirked and leaned against the threshold, only for Riley to push him out the way.

“The whole squad fucked you, sweetie.” Her face reddened in shock.

“What?” She asked again, completely confused.

Her eyes landed on Daniel pleadingly as he smiled, he shrugged before turning and walking off, pulling Riley with him. Amber looked my way with her eyes filled with tears, I could see the anger flaring as she climbed to her feet and quickly stopped as she dropped to her knees with a groan. I quickly stretched to reach for her but when I touched her arm, she lurched away from me and got to her feet while glaring at me, I groaned at my movement and curled up in pain. Damn, losing your virginity hurts like hell, definitely after the first time. I wasn’t sure where Keshawn was but I figured he had left already, or maybe he was in a room with another person, who knows?

“You let them do this to me?” I pulled from my balled position to look at her with shock. “You let them all have sex with me!? Why didn’t you stop them!?”

“You-u can’t blame m–” I started.

“Fuck you, Eli.” She said, yanking the covers away from me.

I quickly shielded my nakedness as she stared at me bewilderedly, I swallowed hard before looking at her as my embarrassment rose higher, this was so unfair, at least she had clothes on. I sniffed in embarrassment as I felt my eyes watering up, she tossed the covers at me disgustingly while taking a step away from me.

“So you took a shot too, huh?” She said, glaring at me as she pulled her jeans higher on her hips before turning and limping toward the door.

“What? No!” I said, slowly climbing out the bed to avoid any real pain. “Where are you going? You can’t just leave me here!”

I went to grab her wrist to stop her but she yanked away from me one more time. “Don’t touch me!” She pushed me down and I cried out as I landed on my ass.

I took a deep breath as a tear slid down my cheek, I heard the sound of Amber’s footsteps disappear as I clutched my stomach, which was where my agony was now rooting. I wiped my eyes as the front door slammed, how could she do this to me? She was suppose to be my best friend but she’s leaving me in Daniel’s house with no choice but to call my Dad, if I still have my phone that is. I wiped my face again as the tears started up in realization, I was here alone and I was going to have to call my Dad to come get me. I looked up as I heard footsteps once more, maybe Amber’s a good friend after all and she came to get me back and help me get home… I looked up as Daniel stood at the door with a look of disgust on his face. I lowered my head in embarrassment as he rose an eyebrow and crossed his arms.

“Why are you still in my house, fag?” He asked, he took a step toward me as I felt my heart sink.

Oh, he is homophobic, I completely forgot. I bit my lip nervously as I slowly got to my feet, I leaned forward to avoid pain as I stared up at him pleadingly, I took a step back as he took another advancing one at me. I stumbled over my shoe and fell to the ground with a girly squeal of pain, so much for me trying to seem manly and untouchable to him. I slowly backed away as he kicked the door closed with his foot, my heart raced as I blinked heavily and my lip quivered. I quickly averted my eyes for an exit as Daniel smirked at me, I really can’t take another guy entering me, I’m in pain as it is.

“D-Daniel…” I started, staring at him as he rose an eyebrow at me. “I really don’t want to be…”

“Be what, fag?” He smirked, leaning toward my height a little more. 

“One guy was eno-” I was cut off by my head swiping left painfully;

I gasped as I clutched my cheek in shock, I stared at him as he stared back at me with a wider smirk.

“I used to think ugly people disgust me the most, until I meet you.” He said, looking me up and down with disgust as I quickly turned away from him and covered my self by balling up. “I mean, a tranny? How fucking disgusting.”

He got to his feet and I thought he was going to walk away until he kicked me hard in the stomach, I screamed in pain as I balled up tighter, I was kicked again and feel to my side. Daniel grabbed me by my hair and pushed me on my back before climbing on top of me to pin me down, I screamed for help.

“Shut up!” He said, punching me solid in the jaw.

I cried as I turned on my side under him and tried to stop the blows as he repeatedly punched me in the face and whatever else he could find. I felt blood touch my tongue as I put my hands up in a defensive way. My face hurt badly as the door slammed open and both of Daniel’s arms were grabbed, he was pulled off of me while kicking at me, I felt a hard kick to the stomach and gagged at the intense pain. I staggeringly climbed to me feet and wiped my nose the best I could as I found my pants, I quickly yanked them on as some of the guys from HCS held their thrashing leader down.

I then grabbed my shirt and limped out the room as I found bodies laying around, I felt my eyes water up as my face throbbed painfully, I held my shirt before slipping it on while reaching the door. I reached up and wiped blood from my nose as I pulled the door open and stepped out, I limped away without closing it as the yard laid packed with trash and more bodies. I stepped over the same person from last night as I glanced back at the house, just to make sure I wasn’t being followed as I saw Amber’s car gone, of course. I wiped my nose again as the blood continued to pour, I was slowly growing lightheaded as I took step after step, I stumbled a little as my mind grew fuzzy. 

Not again, not again. I thought as I stumbled on nothing and landed on my hands and knees, I slowly climbed to my feet as I felt something warm slip out of my left eye, but it was warmer than a natural tear. It was also thicker as I reached up and swiped under my eyes gently, I frowned as I looked at my fingers to see blood, I gulped heavily as I blinked and tried to stop the blood in my eye. How do you stop blooding from your eye? I heard the sound of footsteps loudly behind me and glanced around a little to fast and felt my dizziness settle as I slumped to the ground, I felt someone hold me up as darkness took over me once more.

“It is now your turn to answer, Eli, there are only eight answers left on the board and your team already has two misses. Name a animal with three letters in their name.”

I stared at the black and… greyish-white screen as a person with hot pink hair smiled kindly at the host of the game show. She leaned forward toward the microphone as she thought hard before smiling again.

“Dog.” She said, smiling.

The crowd cheered at her as she smiled and the muscular host gave her a grin before repeating her answer, the first bar changed and the word dog popped up with more than 198 points on it, the team cheered as the person cheered. I smiled as I watched the crowd cheer me on from outside the screen, I watched as the host shot me a flirtatious grin before going to the next person to ask the same ques…

I heaved as I felt water cascade down me, I bulked up as I felt my body shaking violently, I screamed loudly but the scream was so silent that it didn’t seem possible that I was screaming. I heaved as ice chilling water cascaded down my body again, I couldn’t control myself as I continued to shake heavily, what is going on with me? The way my body jerked made me think I was constantly falling and trying to catch myself, I gagged heavily as I felt someone holding my arm down and something encasing my face, I wasn’t sure what was happening but it felt like my insides were being ripped from me without my skin being broken. I heaved once more as my jerking slowly came to a halt and I couldn’t feel anything at the moment, my whole body felt numb, inside and outside of me.

“Rat.” Someone spoke as the team clapped.

The host replied the answer to the board and a loud buzzer was heard as we received our last strike….

I slowly pulled my heavy eyelids up as a bright light shined down in them, I quickly moved my head away as I heard the sound of everyone moving around me, I felt my chin carefully grabbed and the light was shined in my eye again. I felt an intense burn from the bright light and squinted my eyes close, this person was shining the light in my sore eye that was bleeding earlier. I grunted in pain as someone lifted leg and I screamed angrily in pain as I tried to get away from them, who the fuck just touched me? I pushed at the hands around me as I was I heard the door slam open and more footsteps were heard, I felt more hands on me as I started to reminisce on what happened with Keshawn… Daniel. A loud scream escaped my throat as I continued to fight against Daniel, his grip on my arms tightened as I continued to fight and struggle.

“

Eli

!

Eli, stop

!“ I heard the sound of my Father’s voice deep in my head as I immediately seized my movements and opened my eyes wide.

I quickly looked around me as everything in my left eye seemed blurry but in the other eye, everything else was completely fine, I spotted my Dad as he stood in the corner with tears streaking down his face. I was pushed back down on my back as someone placed a oxygen mask over my face, I heard the sound of high-pitched crying and to make it worse, my Father’s voice was filled with tears as he gently whispered to me to calm down and relax. I fought to keep my eyes open as the sound of machines close to me started to go haywire, the beeping was irritating and my head was hurting so much. Blurriness stated to settle in my right eye as my left eye was only able to see very bright circles of different lights, nothing out of it was recognizable. I closed my eyes as I felt them roll into the back of my head.

Chapter Four

The soft beeping of the machines around me were almost like an lullaby, I fount the sleep that tried to keep a tight grasp on me, I looked right of me to see an IV with different machines around, what happened? I tried to stretch my arm and turn the machine off but a loud bell from somewhere in the room went off, I looked around in confusion as heard footsteps and someone entered the room. I looked at the door to see a woman with warm blonde hair in a pixie cut, she had a genuine smile and wore soft pink nurse scrubs, she had pretty blue eyes that looked saddened.

“Good morning, dear. How are you feeling?” I stared at her with pleading eyes as her smile lessened. “Are you hungry, honey? Thirsty, maybe.”

I nodded as the nurse came forward and reached down to push a strand of my hair out of my face, I was thankful it was clean and not covered in that nasty goo, I moaned as a chilled towel was placed on my forehead. I closed my eyes as the coldness made my headache turn into a simple throb, it felt so good to finally be able to relax without this raging headache. I opened my eyes and stared at the nurse unsurely, I didn’t know her and what if she was going to jump on me next and beat me up… is she homophobic too? 

I flinched as she pulled the now warm towel away from my head and sat it away somewhere as it was replaced with another chilled towel, making me relax once more. I looked down at my body while straining to keep my head up long enough, I was able to see something encasing my right leg as I got tired of holding my head up and plopped it back down on the pillow under my head.

I sighed as it rightfully cushioned my head, I turned my head and saw the bright blue of my pillowcase to see that Dad must of brought it, maybe even Father had brought it. I closed my eyes to rest as I heard the nurse climb to her feet, I quickly opened my eyes to watch as she checked my vitals. I wasn’t sure when she was going to leave but I was hoping it was soon so I could sleep in peace.

“How is he?” A soft hoarse voice asked from the corner, I turned my head to see Father sitting and staring at the nurse with such hope in his eyes.

“He’s just fine, awake even.” Father looked at me and his eyes brightened as I gave him a pained smile.

I wanted to laugh as he nudged Dad’s arm, who whined a little before going back to sleep, he climbed to his feet and hurried to the bedside as I stared at him. I was wishing I could reach out and hug him tightly but as I tried to move, my fingers only twitched, I felt my emotions overflow as tried to reach for him but only got movement from my twitching fingers.

“D-Da…” I croaked as I started to hiccup and cry.

“Shhh, kiddo.” Father whispered, he leaned down and pecked my forehead as I squeezed my eyes closed and savored the feeling of his protectiveness near me. “Everything is going to be okay, I promise.”

I felt Father’s finger touch under my left eye and he wiped his red finger on his pants, I felt so lost and hopeless without him near me and since he was finally here, I felt safe and protected. I heard shifting from where Dad was laying to see him open his eyes and look at me with happiness.

“My baby.” Dad cried, hurrying to the bed and dropping to his knees beside it. “Oh, Eli, baby. It’s okay, everything is going to be okay now.”

He quickly but gently cupped my cheeks as I laid there crying with him, he gently rubbed my right cheek as I felt so loved and honored to have such a good family, I couldn’t thank the man above for having such a great life. Even when I had just gotten beaten, I still was happy to have them. I still couldn’t move but I was very grateful to have them by my side with me, it made me know that I wasn’t alone and that they were here to help me through this struggle. I love my Dad and my Father more than life itself, I tiredly closed my eyes as I gave my parents an assuring smile. Dad clutched my hand as I tried to clutch his back, only to have them twitch in his, I guess it was good enough though. I yawned tiredly as darkness over took me once more.

I squeezed my eyes close as a bright light flashed above me, I frowned in disgust of the light as I squinted my eyes and looked around me at the dark room, it was completely dark inside but I could hear something moving. I started to immediately panic as the light above went out and it grew completely dark, oh no, not a nightmare. I gulped fearfully as I quickly looked around me before the floor swallowed me up, I fell into another room and landed on a bed with three bounces.

The bounces knocked the air out of me and I stared in shock as invisible restrains secured me to the bed, I gasped in shock as I felt someone climb on the bed, causing it to sink directly between my legs. I looked down but didn’t see anything as I started to thrash and fight the restrains, I gasped for air as something shoved itself in my mouth and I couldn’t close it. My eyes widened as I felt someone lift my skirt up and grab my length, I continued to fight as the object in my mouth was pulled out and I felt like I was suddenly suffocating.

My heart raced faster as I kicked and pushed at the force on top of me, my movement immediately halted as the force leaned forward and it’s face started to take shape. The person had hazel brown eyes with a narrow nose and plump, smooth lips that were a light taupe shade, so kissable and warm… so yummy. I slowly relaxed as I smelled something sweet in the air, it was so familiar wand strong, it was my Dad’s feminine perfume that was post to be made for men but it smelled so girly at the same time.

“

Eli

.“

I looked up at Keshawn as his gold eyes started down at me, we both turned our heads to see, who had called me. I stared at the woman with a pixie hairstyle and pretty blue eyes, I cocked my head in confusion as she smiled at me and clapped her hands together lovingly.

“

I need you to wake up, Eli

.“

I wasn’t sure why her mouth wasn’t moving but that didn’t have my attention for long as Keshawn started to kiss my neck and leave hickies, his touches were so delicate and soft that I wanted to stay here forever. Just so he could hold me and love on me for eternity.  

“

Please, Eli, wake u

-“

“

Don’t go

.“ Keshawn’s voice whispered in my ear as I laid under him. “

Stay here with me

.“

“

Eli, please, honey. Wake u

-“

“

Ignore them

.“ Keshawn’s voice spoke again . “

I love you, Eli

.“

I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out as I stared up at him, what was going on? Why couldn’t I say anything back to him? I gasped as something lounged itself back down my open throat and I felt like my breath was escaping me, what the hell is wrong with me now? I squinted my eyes closely as I felt something cold touch my forehead, it was so real and cold that I knew I wasn’t dreaming any longer.

I opened my eyes to see the white ceiling above me, I was so ready to be home at the moment and I couldn’t ask to just sleep when I got there. I glanced around me to see the room empty and my body didn’t feel completely numb any longer, I felt a little better after two days of sleeping, well, I almost slept two days away. The quietness was well needed as I closed my eyes and thought about my dream, it was something I easily remembered, the way Keshawn stared me in the eye, and the way he spoke to me. I buried the side of my face into my blue pillow and sighed tiredly, I wonder where the nurse went and why she wasn’t in here. I looked over as the door opened and the nurse walked in, she smiled softly at me before taking a glance at my machine and then checking my vitals.

“W-What happened to me?” I asked, my voice was very raspy but I didn’t care.

“A lot of things.” She said, she placed her checkboard under her arm and gave me a very tiny smile.

“Like?” I pressured.

She opened her mouth before opting to let it ride. “A detective will be in soon, he needs to take your story. Try to relay what you can.” She then turned and left, shutting the door behind her.

Right when she did, the door bounced back open and a tall, lanky man entered with a fedora on, is this some type of joke? I rose my eyebrow at him as he closed the door behind him and he flashed me a patient smile while pulling up a chair to my bed.

“Good aftern-”

“What time is it?” My voice was still croaky.

“It’s,” He confusingly glanced at his watch, “time for you to get a watch.” He said, trying to lighten the mood.

I blinked at him before turning to read the analog clock as he cleared his throat and pulled his fedora off, I read the clock to see it was 3:15 in the afternoon, not such a bad time to wake up I guess. I turned my attention back to the detective as he pulled his coat off and readied a pen and writing pad, he scribbled something down before looking up at me unsurely.

“It’s 3:15.” He spoke.

“I know.” I spoke, staring at him.

“So what happened on Friday 8, around 10:18pm. Do you remember anything?” I twisted my lips in thought as I tried to think of what to tell him.

“I was drugged and someone fucked me.” I spoke deliberately.

“Okay… more specific.

Who

… fucked you?“

I twisted my lips, it wasn’t like I was raped because I sort of wanted it… right? I didn’t want it at first but afterward, it felt so good that I didn’t want him to stop? I enjoyed it so much and I enjoyed it, it felt so good. 

“I don’t remember.” I spoke.

“Okay… who beat you?” I tried hard to remember what happened, and honestly, I couldn’t remember anything past this morning.

“I… I can’t remember.” I spoke truthfully, who did beat me?

I stared hard at my feet as I tried hard to remember who hit me this morning, causing me to have a aching headache and my leg to be in the situation it was at the moment, who hurt me this way?

“It was…” I whispered, it was Daniel!

“Who?” The detective pushed, quickly jotting down a couple of things.

“I…” I started, signing as I closed my eyes, I want another cold towel. “Can I have a moment, please.”

I took a deep breath to calm myself as I squinted my eyes before closing them again, I can’t believe this, what could possibly cause so much damage to little me? I wasn’t stock and well built but I was still a man, I have to take care of myself.

“Daniel Truman.” I said, glancing over at the detective as he looked up at me. “Daniel Truman is his name.”

Chapter Five

“You’re lying.” I turned my head to the door as I stared at the person standing there.

Amber stood in a green long-sleeve shirt with a pair of black jogging pants, she averted her eyes before looking back at me and biting her lip nervously, I was a little confused on what she was talking about but I didn’t care to ask as I turned away from her.

“I-It wasn’t him.” She spoke, I continued to ignore her as I closed my eyes to get some sleep. “Eli.”

I sighed while not turning to face her, I lifted my head a little and placed it in a more comfortable position before closing my eyes once more, I need to get some sleep and I don’t have time for this.

“Eli.” She repeated. “Say you’re lying.” She sniffed, reaching up and wiping a tear streak from her cheek.

“I can’t lie, Amber, he beat me.” I whispered.

The remembrance of the pain and the panic made me flinch as I balled up the best I could with my right leg encased in a cast, I rolled to look at her as she stood by the door, what could she possibly be her for if it wasn’t to support me?

“What do you want, Amber?” I asked, turning to face the other way once more.

“You said Daniel beat you, that’s not true.” She said.

“Oh, I guess you would know.” I stated sarcastically. “But wait, you were the one that left me, never mind. I guess you wouldn’t know.”

I closed my eyes, fighting the tears that started to push against my eyes , I didn’t want to cry. I was betrayed by this friend and I knew that it’d take more than her coming to “see me” for us to ever see each other and smile like we used to. I was her friend but not any longer, I didn’t want anything to do with her, this was my third day here and I didn’t have more than three days left before I could leave, I just want her to leave.

“Please leave.” I whispered loud enough for her to hear.

“Not until you stop telling detectives that Daniel beat you.”

“Just get out.” I said, not wanting to acknowledge her any longer. “You’re so far up his ass that it’s sickening.”

“Fuck you, Eli. I hate you.” She cried, I heard her hiccup as she tired to regain herself immediately afterward.  “You know what he means to me, why would you do that?”

“Get out.” I said, still keeping my back to her.

“I hope he doesn’t get charged, Eli. I really hope you don’t go through with this lie. No one believes you, not even my mom. Daniel wouldn’t do something like that, you’re just trying to get him away from me, I’ve already forgiven hi-”

“Get out!” I screamed, grabbing my blue pillow and throwing it at her.

I felt my eyes water as I grabbed the next pillow and threw it her away as well, I felt the warmth of creep down my left cheek as I tried to figure out why she was here if she didn’t care about me, what the hell could she want?

“Then drop the charges!” She screamed back. “Stop lying on him!”

“Get out! Get the fuck out!” I yelled, sobbing as I looked for something else to throw her way. “I hate you! Leave me alone!”

I stared on as Amber stared at me in shock, her eyes were wide open as I cried, I looked beside her to see her mom, as well as the nurse standing and pulling her toward the door.

“Drop the charges!” She screamed while pushing herself toward the bed.

“Stop getting fucked by the gang!” I screamed, she hlted immediately and stared at me with disbelief as my lip quivered.

“And you’re the one to talk! Be a man about it, I have more guts than you, bitch!” She screamed angrily.

“Get out.” I whispered, plopping down on the bed as my vision blurred while my heart raced in my chest.

“Keshawn punched Daniel today, he heard about the lie you had spread to everyone, he broke his jaw!” Amber screamed angrily. “He hurt my baby!”

I closed my eyes as her screaming vanished and it got quiet, so quiet and so soothing, I just need to sleep. I just need to get some rest and then everything will be okay when I wake up. Wait? Keshawn broke Daniel’s jaw? Hearing this confused me, what does Amber mean by Keshawn punched Daniel, at school I’m guessing. It was now Monday and when I told the detectives that Daniel was for sure the one that hurt me, a warrant wasn’t out for his arrest but people did find out that I snitched. I didn’t care what people thought of me, not anymore, definitely not Amber since she was the reason I was like it now.

“I hope you die, you idiot!” She screamed as the door slammed.

“I do too.” I whispered to myself as I dosed off.

The grass was a hot green as I laid down and stared up at the bright yellow sun, it reflected it’s rays on the black Avenger parked off to the side, I looked beside me to see Keshawn staring up at the sky as well. He must of sensed my stare and turned to look at me before a wide smile came over his face, I smiled back at him as he reached up and gently cupped my left cheek, it sent butterflies through my stomach. I reached up and placed my hand over his as he used his thumb to caress under my eye, it felt good to finally be able to feel loved and relaxed, I needed to feel loved and relaxed by him. The grass smelt so good and I enjoyed the scent as I heard the sound of

laughter in the distance, it was a child laughing and I was wondering if I knew who child it was. The sky suddenly started to dar…

“

Eli, wake up

.“ I opened my eyes immediately to someone calling me.

I turned my head to see two nurses with my doctor, what was today anyway? My doctor held a clipboard and pin as the two nurses carried a couple of items in their hands. What could they possibly want from me, I was hoping that today was the day to finally leave and go home, I liked being her but I hated being here at the same time.

“How are you feeling?” Doctor Lee asked, walking up to me as I sat up to acknowledge him.

“Great.” I responded, yawning a little as he  nodded before jotting it down on my patient sheet attached to his clipboard.

“And your left eye?” He asked, walking up and looking directly into my left eye to see how it was healing.

“Fine, haven’t had any blood lately.” I responded back. “But I don’t want to jinx that.”

Doctor Lee chuckled before nodding in agreement, he grabbed my chin with his chilled fingers and examined my eye a little closer before reaching in his pocket after setting aside his clipboard, he pulled out a flashlight. I opened my eyelid wider for easier access before waiting as he shined the flashlight back and forth quickly then pulled it away, he turned to his clipboard and jotted down something.

“Alright, we’re finished.” The doctor said. “I want to have you come back next week, just to see that you’re healing properly. We’re going to check your leg and your eye, internally as well to see if everything is still okay in there and there’s no punctured organs.”

I nodded as Dad came up beside me and placed a supportive arm around me, I had only walked once and it was a fail on my part because I didn’t want to move at the moment.

“Thank you, Doctor. You ready, Kiddo?” I sighed before nodding.

Dad gave me a small smile before pecking me on the forehead and handing the first forearm crutch to me, I slipped it on before waiting for the second one as he moved closer to help me to my feet. I slid off the bed carefully before quickly catching myself with the forearm crutches, I heaved in a deep breath as I started to walk cautiously with them, Dad was right behind me and I could feel him right at my feet as took the walking step by step. I grunted as I staggered a little before quickly managing to catch myself and glancing back at him with embarrassment, he gave me an encouraging smile before glancing over at Father as he stood off to the corner with his phone up to his ear. He was taking a couple of vacation days off to stay home with me, which I had three days of before I was going back to school, I had to make sure I kept my good grades because I want to graduate valedictorian or salutatorian.

“Finished, let’s get you out of here.” Father said, walking to the door and opening it as my doctor finished jotting down the last of his things and we started toward the check out area.

I staggered as I walked, my right leg was aching horribly but I wasn’t going to say anything, I glanced to my Dad as he walked beside me while constantly looking over at me to check on me, he caught me looking at him.

“Everything okay?” He asked, reaching up and pushing a strand out of my face.

“Yeah.” I whispered, taking another step as I waited for Father to finish checking me out of the hospital.

I was so ready to go, while the pixie nurse was nice, she always disturbed my sleep just to make sure I had went to the bathroom and if I had ate, I’m not hungry when I’m sleeping so leave me alone. I could finally go to my bed and sleep a long day away, then I’ll eat and I’ll be just fine. While that was my plan, the nurse gave Dad a schedule to keep me on but when Dad left to talk to her, Father said he’ll give me a little leeway with a wink, I love my family so much and I couldn’t ask for them to be any better. Father sighed he last paper on the clipboard before passing it on and handing Dad his keys to the 2001 silver Escalade he drives, I followed Dad as he led me out sliding doors and toward the truck. I staggered out on my forearm crutches and leaned against my left one as Dad opened the back door for me and helped me inside, I carefully climbed in with my casted calf and sighed as I laid back against the seat to catch my breath. I closed my eyes as I waited for us to go home, I was so excited but also dreading this leave, that means that when I get home, the real world will return to me and I won’t have the peace I once did. Father climbed in the driver seat as Dad climbed in the passenger and buckled up, I left myself unbuckled as I stared out the window and at the people coming and going, I wonder when they’re all going to go home and everything will be good for them, is that ever possible for a nurse?

                                                                       

I sighed as something tapped my window, it was getting cold outside and I had no reason to keep the window open, I glanced over at it before turning back to face the opposite way of the window. I heard the soft tap on my window again before flaring my eyebrows in confusion and carefully climbing to my feet, I wasn't sure how I got put into a cast but there had to be damage somewhere for that to happen. I got irritated as the soft tap came once more and I turned to see a black silhouette at my window, panic raced through me as my eyes widened and I backed away.

I wasn't paying attention to how far I was backing away unitl I toppled over the side of my bed and landed heavily on my back with a groan, the person cussed so loud that I heard them clearly through the window, Keshawn pulled the window up and quickly climbed inside without shutting it. I sat up slowly as I whined at the pain that shot up and down my back, why as he here anyway? I felt him place his cold hands on my biceps and help me up gently before grabbing my blue pillow and setting it behind me then tucking me in the bed.

"You okay?" He asked, looking me up and down cautiously.

I nodded, staring at him in confusion as he sighed in relief before looking at me, he wore nothing but a black hoodie jacket and a pair of black sweatpants but red sneakers, I started to wonder if he had a shirt on under his black hoodie. 

"You sure? I didn't mean to scare you. Honestly." He said, he shoved his cold fingers in his pockets and took a deep breath. "I came to checkup on you, see how you're doing."

"Ha, checkup on me?" I found that hilarious. "You're the one sucker-punching people." I reasoned, raising an eyebrow at him.

"I was only protecting what's mine." He muttered, reaching up and pulling his hood down.

I stared at him for a second before turning away.

"Yours?" I asked, raising an eyebrow while not turning to look at him.

"That's what I said, I was only protecting what's mine. He shouldn't of went around the school blurting about him kicking your ass, the little motherfucker got what he deserved." Keshawn said, glaring at the wall before turning to look at me. "Why am I not arrested?"

I cocked my head at him. "How do you know where I live?"

"I know everything. And don't avoid my question.... you liked it didn't you." He whispered quietly to me. 

"What are you talking about?" I asked, trying to act clueless but I knew exactly what he was talking about. 

"Ha, don't play dumb, Eli. I know you enjoyed it, the way you were moaning my name and arching your back, damn... that was the most beautiful sight I ever saw." He huskily whispered to me as he leaned close.

I felt my breath hitch as I stared at him, I would so willingly do as he ask at this point and that in fact scared me to death, what if he wanted to have sex with me again, would I do it, even if my parents are right down the hall? 

"Keshawn." I whispered, not sure what to really say.

"You liked it, I can tell by the way you just said my name. You enjoyed it." He leaned even closer, our noses were almost touching. "We can do it again, ya know."

"Keshawn..." I said, feeling my body go limp as he leaned forward and gently pecked my lips.

I gasped at the feeling of his lips on mine, this was just to real to be fake.

# Chapter Six

The rock feeling of his sculpted muscles under my fingers made me shiver as I moaned into his mouth, Keshawn placed his hand on my lower back before sliding it down and rubbing my ass openly. I moaned at his touch as he pushed me onto my back and pulled himself over me, I didn't stop him as I wrapped my arms around his neck and leaned into his kiss, he made me feel so alive and treasured. I then wrapped my legs around his waist and gasped as he pushed his hardness against me, I wasn't sure what to really do but the feeling of it so hard and big made me curl my toes. 

I easily remembered the feeling of his length jutting inside me and hitting all the right places when he did thrust inside me, how could I forget such a good feeling pass all the pain. I pulled away from him and stared into his hazel eyes as he looked my face over, I parted my lips a little as he meet my eyes and gave me a tiny smirk. I went to say something to Keshawn when I heard the door to my parents room open, I pushed him off of me as my heart started to race and so many scenarios of my Dad or Father walking in on us rushed to my head. I continued to push at him as he stared at my closed bedroom door.

"Get up, you have to go." I whispered, pushing at his chest more as he didn't bulge. "Keshawn..." I whined.

"I don't want to." He pouted so cutely, I fought against my smile as I pushed at his chest.

"But you have to, get up and go." I whispered, gesturing toward the door as he slowly climbed off of me and looked me up and down.

I knew that I looked a mess, my cheeks were probably flushed and pink, as well as my lips were swollen from his rough kissing, my lips throbbed so lovingly as I stared at him. I licked them as I got to my feet and limped toward where he was standing, I pushed him toward the window as he smiled and tried to wrap his arms around me.

"Keshawn..." I warned, pushing his arms away and then pushing him toward the window once more. "Go."

He pouted again and I fought another smile as he climbed out the open window carefully before turning to look back at me while holding the lower sash open for him to poke his head through. I rose an eyebrow at him as he smirked so sexually and I had to stop myself from yanking him back into my bedroom.

"You never did answer my question." Keshawn reminded me.

I shook my head as I went to close the window sash myself, he quickly reached forward and pulled me close to him, I stared into his pretty eyes of hunger as he licked his lips and looked me up and down. I didn't fight my tiny smile this time as he admired me before meeting my eyes once more.

"Well? Why am I not being arrested?" He asked, I heard the sound of footsteps entering the bathroom across from my parent's bedroom.

"Because..." I whispered, averting my eyes.

"Say it, say you enjoyed it." 

"I..." I looked into his eyes as he pushed a strand of hair out of my face. "I enjoyed it, very much."

He smiled and cupped my cheek as I leaned into his touch, I placed my hand on his wrist and pushed his hand away hesitantly as I reached for the window sash again to close it.

"Wait." He said quickly.

"What?" I asked, glancing back at the door before looking at him.

"Give me a kiss." Keshawn whispered, he leaned close to me as I looked back the door before looking at him. "Just a little peck."

I no longer hesitated as I leaned forward and pressed my lips against his, he placed his arm around my waist and pulled me close to him while deepening the kiss at the same time. I reached up and grabbed onto the shoulders of his hoodie jacket while moaning into his kiss, I accepted his nice, thick tongue and sucked on it as he dove it as far as he could into my mouth. It turned me on as he continued to kiss me, I gasped for air as I pushed him away and stared at him with my lips parted once more for pants of air. 

"Go." I whispered, he smiled and moved away from the window while also pulling the hood to his hoodie jacket up.

I quickly pulled my window close before quickly limping over to my bed and climbing in carefully, at least I can walk around without them for a minute, which is good. I laid flat on my back as a large grin came over my face, who would of thought that one of the most famous guys in school would come to my house and make-out with me in my bed? Not me. My grin didn't dissipate as I rolled on my side and closed my eyes to sleep, my whole day went so well, I was able to get checked out of the hospital 

and

 I got to see my crush, what a good day it's been. 

                                                ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Morning." I smiled kindly at Dad as he placed a plate of pancakes on the table. "Thanks, Dad."

"Morning and your welcome, honey, how are you feeling?" He asked, walking to take a seat at the table as I did as well. 

"Great." I said, a smile on my face as I took my seat.

"Mmmm, someone's happy..." Dad said, grabbing a pancake off the platter. "Is it because you slept in your own bed last night?"

I shrugged. "You can put it that way." I said, a large grin on my face as I grabbed two pancakes and stacked them on my plate to eat.

"Mmmm." Father said, entering the kitchen with nothing but boxers on. "Smells good, sexy."

He walked past me and pecked my forehead before walking to Dad and giving him a kiss on the lips.

"Good morning, handsome." Dad said, I playfully gagged as they both shot me playful glares before sharing another kiss. "
Hater
."

I playfully stuck my tongue out at him before putting a large bite of pancake into my mouth and chewing, I grabbed the syrup and drizzled it all over mine before taking another bite. Dad makes the best pancakes and I was also starving at the moment, I wasn't sure how Keshawn found out where I lived but I also didn't care, as long as he showed up more often. 

I was hoping that he'd show up tonight, then maybe we can see where this make-out session goes next, was I really ready to have sex again? I was only one day out the hospital and trying to already have sex with him, that's pitiful. I glanced at my Father to see him seated and eating his own breakfast as Dad got up and started cleaning up what was left of his mess, which was just the dishes that we were using and the skillet.

I yawned as I pushed my plate away and stared at the table, I quickly accepted the cup of orange juice that Dad sat before me and took slow sips while deep in my own thoughts. I couldn't help but think about Keshawn, there were times when I thought of him sexually and there were times when I thought of him as a good husband for me one day. 

I wanted a relationship like my fathers, they always stayed true to one another and didn't let anyone get between them, that's what real love was. I sipped my juice slowly as Dad huddled over Father while he read the newspaper, I was curious to know if my situation was in the papers, I'm sure it was but I didn't want to know about it, I didn't 
care
 at the moment. 

"Throw it away." Father muttered, slipping the newspaper to Dad, who didn't think twice as he trashed it in our trash bin. "All bullshit, every last bit of it."

I was a little curious but not curious enough to ask or dig it out of the trashcan on my own, I stretched my uninjured leg under the table before yawning and stretching toward the ceiling. I scratched my arm as I settled before  

"So... the plans for today?" I pressured. 

"None, you're staying in bed and getting some rest." I pouted, well, I guess Dad has a point because I don't see myself walking to the park like this. 

"So Daddy, what are you two doing today?" I asked, using my fork to scrape the syrup around on my plate.

"Nothing, and stop that." I sighed, setting the fork down before crossing my arms. 

"I'm going with my friends to the golf center, honey is going to make sure you're not getting into any trouble." Father said, taking a sip from the coffee mug left of his plate and frowning. "This isn't mine."

"You should of read the cup, you goof." Dad said, walking over and wrapping his arms around Father's neck before resting his chin on Father's shoulders. "Plus, I have to also go grocery shopping, I would ask if you wanna go b-"

"I do, pleaaase." I whined, giving him my normal puppy eyes as he pursed his lips in heavy thought. 

"Mmmmm..." Dad said, his lips were still in a pursed position as a smirk came over his face. "I'll think about it, go get some rest, honey."

"Okay, I'll be upstairs if you need me." I said, slowly getting to my feet and limping to the staircase.

I would have normally eavesdropped on my parents but I wasn't in the mood today, I wanted to Keshawn and talk to him about the whole punching incident, I haven't seen Amber either so I couldn't ask her. I wouldn't have asked her anyway because she had already picked her side and she was rooting for the guy who had drugged her and allowed his whole crew to rape her while she was intoxicated, some guy he is. I wasn't sure if anyone had gotten in contact with Daniel, I assumed they had however and I knew the whole school knew by now, about the incident as a whole. I wasn't going to be doing cheerleading any longer, I had no reason to because the only reason I sighed up was for Amber, but now it was time to do something that I loved, and that's nothing at all. I was going to drop all my unwanted activates and start enjoying myself for the benefit of... 

me

, I wanted to do things because I found them good for me, not because a good... 
ex-friend
 of mine were doing them. There was no going back for Amber and I, I was never going to forgive her for what she had done to me, how she so easily accused me of lying instead of accusing Daniel of being a abusive person. Why would someone lie on him for that, yes, he was a homophobic prick but I had no real hate for the guy because everyone had their own opinion of people. At first, I used to think Amber was a snobby school slut until we actually became partners on a important school project and days later, we were the best of friends. We shared everything with each other, she told me of her first time and I told her of my deepest fantasies, we held nothing back from each other so seeing that she chose Daniel over me was the end of the straw for me, I couldn't be her friend ever again. I entered my room and limped to my bed before plopping down on it, I felt a tingle below as I thought of Keshawn, I wanted him right now so badly. I looked at my door to make sure it was closed before curling up and putting my hands up my nightgown, I circled myself and released a soft gasp as I pictured Keshawn wearing his football jersey and a pair of snuggly jeans... like that night. Immediately with that thought came Daniel and I jerked my hand away from myself in repulse of his existence, he could of tried to kill me verbally, not physically.

"Eli!" I looked toward the door while slowly sitting up to avoid discomfort. "You have company!"

I frowned, who could be visiting me right now?

# Chapter Seven

I grabbed my forearm crutches to help me this time and cautiously left my room while my mind came up with different people that would visit, maybe it was my mom visiting to check on me... that was stupid, my mom 

hates

 me. Maybe it's a couple of friends from school... that's sad, Amber 

was

 my only friend at the school. I was running out of people as I took each step slowly, I looked up as I heard padded feet coming around the corner of the foyer, Dad looked at me with a rose eyebrow as I looked at him, waiting for him to help me because the stairs were starting to tire me. He thankfully came up the stairs and held my hand the rest of the way as we slowly descended down the staircase. I corrected my forearm crutches and started toward the kitchen before coming up short from the two people standing in my foyer. I looked at Father as if he had lost his mind for allowing them in the house, he looked at me with flared eyebrows in the way of telling me to behave as I threw a gust of air out of frustration, he was so unfair.

"Hey, Eli. We brought you a get well gift." I looked at Amber's mother unsurely as she held a hot pink gift bag in her offering hand. "It's just a little something, we hope you're feeling better."

"Yeah, it's tragic what happened." Her father spoke, making me look at him as he nervously averted his eyes... what, I was just looking to see if he was bullshiting me, and he was. 

"Yeah...." I trailed, not moving to take the gift as Dad sighed and reached forward, being the kind one.

"He's gratef-" Dad started.

"No I'm not." I said, breaking his sentence as I continued to stare of them, wishing they'd vanish in thin air.

"Yes, he is-"

"
No
, I'm not." I said. "I thought you didn't believe me, Mrs. Baker." 

"What I think is not important, I just want to make sure you were okay and not serious injured." She defended, looking at me before shaking her head in desperation. "You are my daughters best friend, you two were like glue and now look at the both of you, bitter as old men. I don't know what happened at that party but you can't blame Amber for being angry about it, just like I can't blame you for being angry about it. However, on that note, it was an out of school party, meaning that Daniel can't really be blamed for other people's a-"

"Get out." I spoke so with a calm voice.

"I just wanted to come and talk to you about it, that's all but you're pushing everyone away, you're worse than Amber and she can be a horrible pushover to everyone."

"Get out." I repeated, adding a little more loudness to my voice. "Now!"

"Come on, dear. Let's head out." Mr. Baker said, grabbing his wife's arm and pulling on her to indicate it was time to go.

"Yes, please." Dad said, grabbing my shoulders as I felt my crutches shaking beneath my hold.

One minute I was standing and glaring at the Baker family and the next, I was crumbling to the floor but luckily, Dad has a nice grip on me and saved the embarrassment, I grabbed onto him tightly while continuing to glare at them, they only came to talk me out of the charges. I knew there was something about them popping up, I wouldn't be surprised it if was nothing but a brick inside the gift bag because it was all just a set up, and Dad fell center into it. I pulled away as Father closed the door before coming and helping me get my crutches so I could go lay back down.

"You okay, honey?" Father asked, handing me one of my crutches as I leaned against Dad.

"Yeah, I just wanna go lay down." I whispered, slipping my arm through the cuff of the offering crutch. "Thanks."

"Go get some rest and chillax, kiddo, I know it's been a very long day for you." Father instructed, I nodded my head and made my way back to the stairs.

I was wishing that Keshawn would pop back up because I just wanted to feel him next to me and talking to me, I missed having him around me and last night was such a good night. It made me relax and wake up happy after I was about to go to bed bitter to the world, I guess people can change your intake of things. I made it to my room and entered it while closing the door behind me, showing my parents that I wanted to be alone. I walked to my bed and dropped the crutches before plopping down and resting my head in the pillow that seemed so comfortable all of a sudden. I glanced to the window and stared at the sun as I wished that I could contact Keshawn and tell him to come over to see me, I knew he'd be here in a flash if I meant that much to him. I reached up and pushed a strand of hair out of my way before laying my head back down and staring at nothing as I yawned and started to dose off, I was so tired and ready to just sleep the day away. 

I guess screaming and too much anger can make you an exhausted person, I couldn't help but wonder what Keshawn would say if I had told him what happened with Amber's parents. I wanted him to just pop up so bad so I could see him but I knew that I'd have to wait until later tonight and see if he showed up. Maybe he'll come dressed in another sweatshirt and sweatpants and we can resume from where we started last night, it's feels so nice kissing him because he's a little aggressive but it also feels so good. I reached up and ran my hands over the front of my shirt to find that my nipples had hardened a lot at the thought of him, I paused to make sure one of my Dads weren't coming up the stairs as I twirled my finger around my areola. I turned on my side and faced the window as I tried to think of something to do, I wish I could go see Keshawn or meet him somewhere but it's not that easy.

Everyone was pretty much out to get us two because we were against Daniel but who cared, if you were really my friend, you would be against him too. Amber knew nothing of what happened, she wasn't there when he had kicked me in the stomach and punched me in the face, who was she to say that I wasn't telling the truth. I felt my anger rising once more and I closed my eyes to calm myself as I thought of Keshawn, he was the one that was going to keep me sane in school, I realized. It then dawned on me that we were suppose to go to Districts this year, and Keshawn wasn't going to be able to go because he got into a fight with Daniel. I felt terrible because I was the reason he wasn't going to be able to actually go and play, maybe I should make it up to him one day, who knows, maybe he'll forgive me. He didn't seem upset about the whole thing, or maybe it hadn't dawned on him yet. I laid on my back and stared up at the ceiling with one hand laid over my torso and the other resting by my head, I could remember the way Keshawn treated me that night, the way he... I took a needed deep breath and closed my eyes while willing myself to not grow hard. I was thinking of so many nasty things and it made me horny, I should be whining about being crippled and such but instead I wasn't, I was busy thinking about Keshawn fucking me again... and again... and again. 

'You're such a bad person.' I thought with a smile on my face. 'But who cares, you're the one that got your ass kicked, not them.' 

I moved a strand of hair out of my face before turning on my side, my leg cast got in the way while I stretched to turn my light out, I stretched my middle finger and touched the button. Seconds later, the light flickered out and I was plunged into almost complete darkness, the only light in the room was from under the bedroom door and the window that faced the sun, giving my room a bright hue of the sort. I could feel the heat slowly sinking in, it relaxed me and warmed me to the core at the same time, I could get used to this. Part of me was missing school, I wanted to go back but I also didn't because I knew the looks would never end. Everyone was angry with Keshawn, and I wanted to be mad at him too but it wasn't that easy, he made it impossible by the way he constantly appeared amusing to me. I couldn't fight the tiny smile on my face as I thought of him, I should get my phone and text him but my phone is all the way downstairs and I wasn't getting up and going to get it. 

'What if he's texted me this whole time?' I thought as I bit my lip and started to seriously consider going to grab my phone. 'Nah, he'll just have to wait.'

I started to toy with the corner of my blue pillow as I felt a cramp in my neck, I then moved my original pillow out the way and grabbed the second, propping pillow to toss across the room. I replaced my blue pillow and sighed as I yawned and fixed the cover around my body, I was so comfortable and warm and I didn't want to be bothered with anymore today.

'I can't let that get to me, it's just going to get worse with the lawsuit.' I thought as I slowly sat up and glanced toward my window. 

I sighed as I wished that Keshawn was there, waiting for me to come over and open the window for him. I wished we could be something more as well, he was the type you could being to meet your parents, and since I no longer had any friends, he would be the one I spend my weekends and most weekdays with. 

'I should go to the mall,' I thought before frowning, ' how stupid, you're 
crippled
, idiot.' I plopped back against the bed and sighed.

"Eli." I jumped as I looked to my door as a soft knock came over it, Dad lightly pushed it open.

"Yeah, Dad?" I asked, looking at him with a confused expression on my face.

"How you feeling sweetpea?" He asked, entering the room while leaving the door wide open.

"Fine," I whispered, dropping my gaze to the bed comforter over my body, " everyone just thinks I'm doing it for no reason, I have a reason, Dad."

"I know, honey, and I don't care what anyone say." Dad replied, reaching up and gently pushing a strand out of my face. "You're my baby boy, and they're parents aren't going through what me and your Father are going through, they don't know how it feel. When I saw you laying there..." Dad shook his head as he averted his eyes. 

I stayed quiet, biting my lip as I felt my eyes become glassy as well, it wasn't fair. 

"It's hard, I know. But you have to push it through no matter what anyone say. Your Father and I have your back a hundred and fifty percent, even if everyone else don't. We believe you and we will continue to believe you no matter what anyone claim." Dad said. "Now get some rest, we love you."

He gently patted my arm before getting to his feet, I smiled.

"I love you too." I said, rolling on my side with my back facing him.

"And Eli?" I turned around as Dad stood at the door, a small smile on his face. "No more sneaking boys in at night." 

My eyes widened while my mouth dropped in shock, how did he know?

Dad laughed at me as he shook his head. "I heard you two talking when I went to the bathroom, next time, tell who ever it is I said come through the door. And I won't tell your father."

I couldn't fight the smile that came over my face. 'I have one cool Dad.' I nodded and laid my head back down, feeling blessed to have such an awesome family.

# Chapter Eight

I curled my lip as I stared at the building before me, I couldn't believe that I was returning to this hellhole and I knew it was going to be different, I just hope no one pushes me into a locker or steal my crutch. I glanced around as Dad pulled the van to a slow stop, I looked over at him pleadingly as he gave me one in return, I rolled my eyes and looked down at my cast. Dressed in a pair of mid-thigh shorts and a flowery top, I had my hair pulled into a nappy bun and I had tired desperately to hide the blackness under my eye with a coating of makeup. I sighed, taking a heavy breath while glancing outside to see a couple of people huddling around, whispering and laughing and I already knew I was the conversation at topic. I dreaded seeing the school but I dreaded seeing the football team and Amber the most, while Keshawn wasn't going to be present today, I knew everyone was going to be gunning for me. 

"If you need anything, 
call me
." Dad warned, making me nod before reaching down to grab my Pink bag backpack. "I'm serious, Eli."

"I know Dad, I got this." I said, ready to put my best foot forward and challenge today as I would any other day.

I opened the door and grabbed the door handle for support, I glanced around because I knew part of Link Crew helped handicapped students off the bus and I could see a few walking around in their yellow shirts to signal who they were. I was wishing someone would help me because my arms felt like Jell-O and my legs unconsciously shook, I had the fear that I would fall if I released the door handle without my forearm crutches. I glanced at Dad as he looked at me with concern, I grabbed my crutch and braced myself on it as relief washed through me. I used my unoccupied hand to grab my backpack before sliding it on my back then grabbing the other crutch.

"Bye, Dad." I said, using my shoulder to close the door as he gave me a small wave with concern still on his face. 

I took a heavy, needed breath before backing away and slowly making my way to the stairs of the high school, I glanced around me as I felt all eyes staring at me on my little journey. It was so uncomfortable and embarrassing as I prayed to myself that no one would bother me, push me down, or taunt at me because I didn't have the time and I didn't want to deal with people or any more pain. My leg throbbed painfully, making each step painful and almost unbearable but I pushed forward because I didn't want to admit defeat in front of so many people. I took time, glancing around at the people staring at me and I was so uncomfortable at their stares, a couple of people snickered and I quickly turned my head away to keep from letting them win. I reached the front doors, I paused as I debated on how I was going to open the door, I sighed, reaching forward while trying to keep my balance but it was hard. I stumbled but caught myself against the door as everyone watching busted out laughing, my face reddened as tears swelled along the outside of my eyes, it wasn't fair. If this had happened to someone else... it wouldn't matter because that person would also be treated this way, and the sad truth is that... I would of bullied them too. I guess it's true, you do not know bullying until you experience it first hand and here I was, standing teary eyed in front of a group of people that I once joked around and partied with. The door suddenly swung open, knocking one of my crutches from under me and I gasped as I lurched forward, the solid impact of the concrete walkway felt terrible against my agonizing body and the tears no longer held back as my body screamed in pain. I cried out, sobbing as I laid on the ground while everyone laughed and took pictures of me, it wasn't fair! I laid there, not able to get up on my own and I was positive no one was going to help me up because I was "sabotaging Daniel Truman's life", "sabotaging his 
freedom
". I stayed there, crying as everyone passed me to get to class, the morning bell rung and I knew the only way I was getting to class was if I had help up. Luckily for me, our principal always came out to watch everyone head to class and I was hoping he'd help me up, even though he was a good friend of the Truman family. I waited, still sobbing as everyone passed me without a second glance, some pausing to see if anyone would help me but it was a useless effort to ask for help because everyone hated me, even Gregory, a bullied nerd that Daniel always picked on. Gregory walked straight past me without a glanced my way, enjoying the attention of the jocks as they patted his back while holding the new assignments he finished for them. I was exhausted from my crying on the front stairs, no one paid me any attention and just as I started to lose hope that I would be out here all morning, I was able to spot the principal's door open from outside and out stepped... Mrs. Michaels with Keshawn right behind her. She stood so elegantly, turning to face Principal Tyler, who was smiling and shaking her hand as Keshawn boringly stared around the hallway. Joy filled me beyond belief, reaching forward, I rapped very hard on the door to catch their attention and get help, the look on Keshawn's face said many words as his eyes widened before he rushed over in a small jog to help me. I smiled up at him, tears still streaming down my face as he leaned down and braced his hands under my armpits, he hefted me up easily before allowing me to lean on him as he carefully leaned down to grab my crutches. I thankfully took them while standing on squirming legs, I gave him a thankful look as I repositioned myself now that I was finally standing up. I was more than ten minutes late to my first hour and the reason for that was because everyone was assholes, everyone except Keshawn. He leaned forward and pushed his forehead against mine lightly before backing away and nervously glancing back inside as I realized his mother and the principal were still lurking nearby. 

"I'm going to come by later, don't go to sleep." He whispered before carefully releasing me and turning to face his Mom.

He didn't give me a chance to reply before he gestured to his Mom's car and started in that direction, I watched him go before sighing and heading inside the school, I was late so I wasn't in much of a rush to get to class. I glanced at Principal Tyler as he barely cut me a glance and I already knew where he stood on this case, he wasn't on my side and he was easily going to show me that as the time went by, starting now. I wasn't even the slightest embarrassed about the fact that Keshawn had to help me to my feet, if anything, I was happy it was him instead of someone else. I used my forearm crutches to get me to the principal's office for a pass, I wasn't too worried about a tardy because I was handicapped and that classified me as being able to get to any class late without having to worry about tardies or detentions for that matter. I entered the principal's office and looked at the secretary as she gave me a tender smile before quickly jotting something down on a slip of paper, it was nice to know at least 
someone
 other than my family and Keshawn were on my side, she passed me the slip carefully before going back to reading through a catalog of some sort. I decided to mind my own business as I started toward the door of the principal's office, I went to grab the handle while leaning myself on the opposite crutch when it pulled open, I looked up in alert as Principal Tyler entered and didn't spare me a glance at all. I slowly exited and started toward class once more, I wasn't too upset because I knew Daniel was the one pulling money in for our school but I didn't care, I never cared about this school nor the people in this school, only... Amber, and even she turned her back on me. I dreaded my first hour and almost every other hour because she was also present in those classes with me, I knocked on the door of my classroom and waited as my biology teacher pulled the door open. I presented her the slip of paper and entered slowly as I felt everyone's eyes on me accusingly, the whispers started up as I slowly made my way toward my chair before managing to get my backpack off and sit down in my chair. I took a deep breath that was very needed, I was going to have to build some strength if I was going to be doing this for some time, I was too nervous to look around and see who all was staring at me so I decided to save myself the heartache. Amber was sitting to my left and she nervously shifted as if to scoot away from me, 
the snitch
. I might of been a snitch but no one knew what happened to me because they were either passed out or gone already, missing the confrontation that involved Daniel beating me. I also showed my first hour with some of Daniel's friends and I knew the bullying was going to start sooner or later today, I bit my lip as I waited for Mrs. Yale to start class. 

"Today, we're going to review evolution for the test Friday, someone give me the definition of evolution." Mrs. Yale said, patiently waiting for someone to raise their hand as she scanned the crowd. 

I already knew no one was going to answer, they never did, and while I was always quick to raise my hand and answer her questions, I spared myself the accusations as I buried my hands between my thighs and sat patiently waiting as well. I knew that Mrs. Yale was going to call on someone, and I was just hoping she wasn't going to call on me and make me answer in front of everyone so I could receive backlash if I was wrong. I kept my eyes trained on the desk before me while waiting for someone to get called on, I finally looked up as Mrs. Yale sighed before scanning the crowd once. Her eyes fell on mine as I quickly looked away in a way of telling her I didn't want to be called on, she turned to the board and made a small dash by the word she wrote in erase marker. 

"Eli." I looked up with alert as she patiently waited for the definition.

"Uh..." I start, blinking a couple of times as I licked my suddenly dry lips as she lowered her head knowingly, she knew I knew the answer but I wasn't really feeling this so I was going to play dumb. "I don't know." I said abruptly.

"Of course you do, what is it, Eli?" She pushed, walking closer to my desk. "Evolution."

"It's... um..." I drawled, hoping she'd get the idea to leave me alone. 

"Development... and?" She replied, completely ignoring the hint I was dropping.

"Development..." I drawled once more, cutting my eyes down to my desk. "And diversity from earlier forms during the history of the Earth." 

"Yes, development and diversity from earlier forms during the history of Earth." She repeated while walking to the board and writing all of that by the dash. 

I reached down in my backpack the best I could and pulled out my notebook for taking notes, I had missed a couple of important things and this was going to be the chance I could catch back up and pass this test Friday. I took a heavy, pained breath before reaching down and grabbing a pencil out of my sparkly pink pencil pouch, I bit my lip before pulling out a mechanical lead pencil before jotting down whatever Mrs. Yale took the time to write down. I heard someone clear their throat as I focused on my notes, I looked up as Mrs. Yale patiently glared at Trey, I almost belched in disgust as he took his seat beside me and tossed his backpack carelessly toward the ground. 

"Late again, Mr. Ovary?" She asked, cocking her head with the 

tiniest

 smile she could muster.

I bit my lip to keep from snickering that this was happening right now, Trey only stared at her while I waited to hear a reply from him, I glanced to look at him as he cut his eyes my way before doing a double take, meaning he didn't know I was there until now. He stared at the longest before cutting his eyes back to Mrs. Yale as if he remembered she was waiting on an answer, I turned to face our teacher as well as she held her hand out for a slip. Trey passed his tardy slip toward her and glanced at me uncomfortably, he knew I saw what happened with him and Amber but because Amber and I wasn't friends and probably would never be again, that wasn't my business any longer. I stayed silent, watching as Mrs. Yale sat the slip on her desk before returning to her board and writing down a couple of other things to finish the first section of the evolution chapter in our textbooks. 

                                                                                                        
      ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I smiled at my Father as he opened the door for me and I carefully stepped out with my forearm crutches ready to cushion me, today was rather well other than this morning and I couldn't wait to tell Dad all about this. It was the regular schedule with Dad dropping me off and doing his everyday errands that involved him stopping by the grocery store every other day, and when my day was over Father picks me up after his long day at work. It was always that way since I was growing up, I would tell Father about my day and he would give me a little advice to make the rest of my day better and walk around with a smile on my face, because he'd usually say I can have ice cream. I walked with a little speed as Father grabbed my Pink backpack and carried it on his shoulder as he trailed behind me, I impatiently waited at the door for him with a big grin on my face as he chuckled at my excitement. 

"Well, something good had to happen at school. I'm happy you had a good day, sweetpea." Father said, pecking my forehead as I smiled up at him while he pushed the door open. "Your dad's in the kitchen making you a sandwich for lunch."

"Okay." I said, walking in carefully and heading straight for the kitchen. "Dad!" I called while entering so he'd know I was here in advance.

"Hey, honey, how was school?" Dad asked, stepping out in Father's plaid shirt and a pair of jogging pants that clutched his small legs.

"School?" I asked plainly, sinking into his fatherly... motherly embrace. "It was good."

"That's good," He pecked my forehead before turning to Father, who sat my Pink backpack down before opening his arms for Dad's embrace next, "hey, baby, how was work?"

I made my way to the kitchen on my forearm crutches to happily miss the interaction between my parents and find my very needed sandwich, Dad had it already on a glass plate with a cup of lemonade beside it. I leaned against the counter and dropped my crutches before grabbing one of the halves of my sandwich and taking a very needed bite, I licked my lips and took yet another bite as Dad entered with Father right behind him. Father had his arm around Dad's shoulders as I took a large gulp of my sweet lemonade before going back to munching on my sandwich, I could wait to tell Dad about Keshawn and that he was coming over later. 

"Thanks, Dad." I said, waiting as Father grabbed a barstool table from the island and moved it so I could sit down. "And 
other
 Dad." They both snickered.

"You welcome, what's the plans for today, or you going to stay cooped up in your ugly room the rest of the day." I rolled my eyes and sipped my lemonade.

"My room isn't ugly, and I don't know." I said, shrugging tiredly.

"Well, you do need to get some sleep." Overprotective Dad to the 
rescue
 again, I whined. "Don't wanna hear it."

"You heard your Dad, Eli, some rest and then we can find something to do. Did you take your medicine?" Father asked, making me roll my eyes to the ceiling for him blurting it out.

"No, you didn't. I completely forgot... why you let me forget, Eli. Here, take your medicine and go lay down." Dad said, grabbing the different bottles with my name on the prescription tags.

"I don't nee-" I started.

"Take it." Dad pushed while cutting me off, handing me three different pills as I gave him a sour look, I opened my mouth to argue but decided to put the pills from the look Father was giving me.

"Night." I said grumblingly before taking my forearm crutches Dad offered to me.

I slid them on and started toward the stairs, so much for warning them about the little guest I was having over, but maybe it was for the best considering Keshawn was probably going to be coming over later at night.

# Chapter Nine

I rolled over as I heard something tapping my glass, I frowned as I slowly sat up with a groggily groan escaping from between my lips from the pain of my back protesting the movement, I released my blue pillow and reached up to rub my eyes before looking back to the window to see a black figure standing there. The moon was on the opposite side of the house so it was even harder to see with no visible sunlight reflecting from the large mass of rock in the sky, I cocked my head in confusion as the figure knocked on the glass again, not noticing that I was looking in it's direction. I pushed the covers back as a small grin came over my face, I moved closer to the edge of my bed as the figure looked around nervously before trying to peer into my dark bedroom once more. 

That's when I noticed something different about this person, Keshawn wasn't nervous when he came over because he knew what bedroom I stayed in, nor was this person as bulky as my burly crush. I inched to the window unsurely while looking toward my opened bedroom door, I was tempted to run into my parent's room but I couldn't run to them every time I was in some concerning trouble. I sighed and moved to the door before pulling it open as the person turned to look directly at me, I cocked my head in pure shock as I stared at the person before me. 

They had a oval shaped face with dark brown eyes that were glistening with wetness, the person's lips were cupid shaped and well plumped in a way similar to mine, I stared at Amber in shock as she slowly stepped into my room and quickly closed the window behind her. I was happy she did as part of a breeze was able to escape inside and I shivered, I wrapped my arms around myself and stared at her with a gawking expression because she was the 

LAST

 person I thought I would see right now. I pulled myself together and turned my back to her while walking toward the inside of my bedroom, I paused by my desk and looked at her with a raised eyebrow. 

"I..." She paused, pushing her hood off and showing me her brown hair pulled into a crooked ponytail.

Amber wore a baggy black hoodie with a pair of dark grey sweatpants that fit loosely on her, her new tennis shoes scrapped against the blue rug nervously as she took a heavy breath before looking at me hopelessly. It was rather odd to see her right now, I never would of expected it to be her that showed up, and what made it worse was that Keshawn could be showing up at any minute right now. Amber always dressed to impress, even if she was just coming to visit me but lately she was always sprouting baggy clothes with nice shoes that she probably hid in her closet until now. Even this morning, she dressed nice in a high-low top that tightened along her bosoms and loosened around her torso with a pair of hip-hugging jeans to show off the nice, round butt she had. 

"I need your help." She said, making me blink owlishly because there was no way she was standing before me and say she wanted my help when she treated me so terribly.

She was suppose to be my friend and she turned on me when I needed my best friend the most, she called me a liar and tried to accuse me or raping her when I might of been raped numerous times myself, I wouldn't know considering I found semen in my hair and in other parts of my body. She was the one that had took the whole crew and then tried to accuse me of raping her too, what a low fucking blow and that pissed me off to no end but still somehow, she had the balls to stand before me and say she needed me, what big balls she had. I rose my eyebrows in shock and a little of frustration, I was close to kicking her ass out of my house without the bat of an eye but I decided to not take my frustration out on her before actually hearing her out.

"Why do you need my help?" I asked, raising an eyebrow at her before turning to walk back to my bed.

"I... I took a pregnancy test-" Amber started.

"What?" I asked, cutting her off with shock yelp as she quickly put her finger to her mouth before cutting me a pissed look.

I quickly repeated her action before looking toward my door wearily, I was hoping that I didn't wake my Father or Dad because he probably would think I was sneaking Keshawn in again, I listened closely before nervously turning to her so she could continue. I knew better than to let this girl in because she wasn't even my friend anymore, who was to say this was all a prank and she was just using this as an excuse to get close to me again and make me believe Daniel wasn't a threat to any other gays at the school... or to 
ugly
 people. I pursed my lips as I stared at her, watching as she lowered her head before looking up at me pleadingly, almost as if she was asking me to believe her as she was about to say something too believable at this moment in her life. 

"
I'm pregnant
." She said abruptly but quietly at the same time, as the words slipped from her mouth, I easily noticed her head shake as her ponytail moved back and forth. 

"Wow... do you know... who's it is?" I asked blinking owlishly once more, slightly hoping she wouldn't get offended and slightly hoping she would. 

"I... that's what I'm worried about," She whispered as her lip quivered and worry took over her visage, "I can't go to my mom and tell her, Mommy I'm pregnant but I don't know the father of my baby, she'll think I'm a whore!" She sobbed.

"I'm... sorry." I said, fighting the urge to get up and hug my best friend because...
 fool me once, shame on you... fool me twice... can't put the blame on you... fool me three times... 
"I really don't know what to do-"

I was cut off by another tap on my glass, I abruptly fixed my slackened posture and straightened my back as my heart jumped in my chest, I reached over and cut on my lamp this time instead of just using my night light to see, I was hoping it was actually Keshawn. I didn't know who else would come to my window when the whole school hate me but Amber was just enough, I didn't need anyone else showing up right now. I spotted the big burly man that I loved to hold tight to me every chance I get, just to feel each strongly sculpted muscle under his soft skin and the eternal warmth he provided when he was close to me. 

I struggled to my feet this time, moving a lot slower without actually meaning to but my back screamed with each protest as I slightly hobbled to the door and pulled the window up with Keshawn's help. I couldn't fight the large grin on my face as Keshawn gave me a peck on the lips before stepping into my room through the window. I moved aside and looked at Amber nervously, I hated to kick her out right now but this was one of the few times I was able to see Keshawn and she wasn't even my 
friend
 anymore, she threw me aside! 

"Hey, babe." Keshawn said, putting his arms around me and pecking my lips again. "How you feeling?" He asked with concern, he must of noticed my slow movements. 

"I'm okay, tired." I whispered sheepishly. "Amber's here." I tacked on suddenly.

"Huh?" He asked, scanning my room and spotting my ex-friend nervously fidgeting with her hoodie by my dresser. "When did this happen?" Keshawn asked accusingly, glancing at her with disdain. 

"Just a few minutes ago, I thought she was you." I whispered, half lying because I knew she wasn't him but I didn't want him to be angry.

I reached up and pulled his hood down, his hair was freshly cut short and the scent of his cologne smelt so good as I lightly smiled up at him while he cut his eyes to Amber unsurely. Of course I told him about her, why wouldn't I? I moved away from Keshawn and sat down on the bed with a quiet groan before laying down as I tiredly batted my eyes, hoping they'd both get the signal that I wanted to go to sleep instead of fight and fuse about this at five o'clock at morning. Keeping the fetal position, I reached out to Keshawn and he immediately came to my side without hesitation while I grabbed his hand and tried to pull him into the bed, he climbed in with his eyes still on Amber. I sighed in bliss as Keshawn wrapped his strong arms around me and started to gently peck my neck before leaving little suckles in between his butterfly kisses that made me shiver with need. 

"Eli... call me, please." Amber said, making me nod as I barely allowed what she said to register. 

I turned on my side to face Keshawn as he captured my lips in a hot kiss and made a moan slip from me, I whimpered as I laid on my back and allowed him to climb on top of me, his large body easily encased mine and filled me with the sensation of protection. Keshawn took matters into his own hands by lifting my shirt up and gently kissing a trail from my stomach up to my breast, his paused there and nibbled on my left nipple teasingly, making my toes curl. I reached down and braced a hand on his shoulder before sitting up a little to pull the shirt off my body, I tossed my shirt to the floor and made sure that Keshawn's soon followed. It did, as well as my pajama pants and his sweatpants, and that was when I found he wasn't sprouting any boxers under his sweatpants and my life changed in that second as I grabbed his hard, hot stick and guided it where it didn't belong. 

I savored the feeling of him entering me while holding me tight to him, showering me with affection and meaning as I whispered my affections back to him, I never felt so good after such a rocky time in my life. I reached down as Keshawn laid on his back, sweat glistened along his skin as I grabbed his face and leaned down to kiss him on the lips while he took his time and tried his best to prevent my mattress from squeaking as he thrust up into me. I hissed in pleasure as he stroked my spot with his large jutting length, with each trust up, I leaned back against him with a soft mewl of pleasure that escaped from inside of me. I looked down at Keshawn pleadingly, hoping he'd rock my body right like the first time and have me squirting all over myself and him in no time. 

I was rewarded with that as he carefully rolled us over and laid me on my blue pillow, I placed my hands beside my head submissively as he lifted my legs to his shoulders and dipped down to kiss me. I responded to his kiss hungrily as he stroked himself a little before grabbing my hips and lining himself up, he started to push inside me and was ready to penetrate me in no time. I squealed and quickly covered my mouth as I rolled my eyes in the back of my head as pleasure immediately followed the pain the large head of him entering me after so long.

"K-Keshawn..." I whispered in bliss, the itch I had for him was finally being soothed once more.

"I love you, baby." Keshawn whispered back, his breath hitched as he sunk himself deeper into my depths before releasing a very throaty groan.

"I love you too." 

    

   To Be Continued...

Book Two: Loser, AGAIN!

Song: Sweet Misery
Artist: Rashad