Prologue

“Sa tingin mo ba maghihiwalay pa ba tayo?” I whisper while we are both seating on this lovely table set in this center beach gazebo.

The ambiance around this place is very mesmerizing, the red candles make a wonderful reflection against the water below. The cold breeze of winds from the ocean gives shivers to my arms and hands. But his stares and touches make the warmest comfort in my whole world.

“That won’t happen, I mean sobrang tagal na natin magkakilala at alam ko na sa simula pa lang na ikaw lang ang babaeng mamahalin ko sa panghabang buhay Beb.” he said while caress my right hand while smiling at me.

“Paano kung maghi––,” he cut me off and speak, “That will never happen, hindi ko hahayaang magkahiwalay tayo at saka sa tingin mo ba makakaya ko pang mabuhay ng wala ka, halos simula nagkaisip ako ikaw na ang babaeng tinitignan ko at dahilan kung bakit ako patuloy na gumising sa araw-araw,” he said and smirk at me with his playful smile.

Hindi ko maiwasang tumawa at hampasin ang kamay niya dahil sa kakornihan niya. “OA naman na yung dahilan mo,” I said and drink this simple wine beside me.

I look at him when he holds my hand a bit tight and looks me in the eye. “But I’m serious Beb, I don’t know if I can face another day without you, I will never let us fall apart and separate. I promise that.” He lifts my right hand and kisses it gently.

I smiled at him, that was the safest assurance that I have in my life.dahil hindi ko rin alam ang gagawin ko kung mawala siya sa tabi ko, he was the strength, he was the motivation, he was the inspiration and he was the dream I feature with.

“I love you and we will never fall apart, Sienna,” he said, leaning close to my face and kissing me with the gentlest lips in the world.

“I love you too Gun.”

“Sienna? Are you ok?” I go back to my senses when I heard Luan call my name, while we were in the middle of the road right now.

Agad akong napaupo ng maayos at inayos ang seatbelt sa aking katawan, hinarap ko siya at ngumiti.. “Yeah, I’m totally fine why?” I ask.

“You seem like facing out again just like last night” nakangiti nitong sambit habang sumusulyap sa akin habang nagdadrive. Mabilis akong umiling at tumawa, “Hindi nakatingin lang ako sa daan ang ganda kasi” pagpapalusot ko at nagpatuloy sa pagtawa ng mahina.

He nodded like he was still not convinced by my excuse, but he nodded and focused on driving.

Why do I always think of him this very often? I feel so anxious these past few days because many memories keep popping up in my mind and it makes me space out most of the time.

And this is the second time Luan caught me spacing out because of him. He, the man I used to be within this driveway.

“By the way, I wanna have a weekly check-up with all your students to maintain their health since we have this unstable weather, kids need a weekly checkup,” he said and glance at me with his bright smile.

I instantly smile and laugh a little, “Don’t trick me with those checkups, checkup Doctor Luan Dreason, if you’re going to use the kids as an excuse for you to be able to annoy me every week that won’t happen, and unstable weather? Doctor, that’s normal here in the Philippines and your tricks. Keep it, I won’t buy it” I confidently said and laughed at him.

“Hey, it’s free,” he said. “What? the check up?” tumatawa kong sambit at tinitignan siya.

He chuckled before he spoke, “No, the trick it’s always free,” those playful smiles, are always so charming, I can’t help smiling at them.

“And also, for your information I’m not always here to annoy you, I’m here to court you, Miss Minami. Always remember that ok,” he said and suddenly grabbed a piece of red rose from the back seat and handed it to me.

I smile and sniff the beautiful red rose he gave me; he never fails to surprise me every day. “I know that and I will never forget that Mr. Dreason,” sagot ko humarap na sa bintana, malapit na kami sa bahay nila Aberry.

After a few minutes we’ve already reached Beltran’s humble house, at agad kaming sinalubong ni Aberry pagbaba ko ng sasakyan. “Hey, bakit nasa labas ka?” tanong ko sa kanya habang sinusulyapan si Luan na kinukuha ang regalo namin kay Olivia.

“Hinihintay ko din kasi yung delivery ng cake kanina pa dapat iyon eh,” Aberry said while looking at her phone, she looks so stress tho.

“Here,” Luan whispers at my side after he locks the car and grabs the gifts out of the trunk. I also felt his arms around my waist, that’s why I glanced at him.

I saw Aberry smile at me when she saw Luan’s hands on my waist but I just stick my tongue out in her and pulled Luan inside the house.

“Chantel’s here?” I ask Aberry while walking inside and glancing back at her. “Yup, already there,” she said and we left her outside the gate, still waiting for delivery.

Pagpasok namin sa loob lahat sila ay nandito na, agad kong tinuro kay Luan ang table for gifts para doon niya ilagay ang regalo namin kay Olivia habang ako ay dumiretso sa table nila Chantel. “How’s my baby Bunny?” I instantly get Bunny from Chantel and kiss every part of her face.

“Tita, I’m not a baby anymore,” Ellouise said while pouting at me, she grew up too fast. She’s already 10 years old now and all I can say is that she has a great combination of beauty and brains.

She got it from her parents. “But you’re still my baby eh,” I said while letting her sit on my lap, as I sat beside Chantel. “Why won’t you make yours na kasi” Chantel said while eating a pesto.

“Yeah, Mama is right Tita makes yours na po, Anata no mono o tsukuru (make yours)” Chantel and Alliana laugh at what Bunny said, while I feel so shocked, where did she learn about these things? “Chantel, ano-ano ang tinuturo mo sa bata!!” I hissed and let Bunny sit on the other chair beside me.

“What? I didn’t do anything, I just said that you should start your own family na kasi, you’re not getting any younger now Sienna” Chantel said and looked at me, while Alliana agreed with her.

“Palibhasa may mga asawa na kayo kaya minamadali niyo na ako” I said start taking a bite on the pesto.

“Hindi naman sa ganon, totoo lang talaga ang sinasabi ni Chantel,” Alliana said, “Anong sinabi ni Chantel, Ahmmm…Babe pakilagay sa table yung cake thank you,” lahat kami napatingin kay Aberry ng bigla siyang sumulpot at umupo sa tabi ni Alliana.

“Ok Ma’am,” Oliver said and wink at her. this couples!

“We we’re talking about Sienna, sabi namin she should start her own family na,” Aberry quickly nodded through what Chantel said and looked at me. “She’s right Sienna, napag-iiwanan ka na, bahala ka mahirap mag buntis at manganak pag mid 30’s na,” the word napag iiwanan literally hits me.

“Yeah, back when were like dalaga pa, we thought that you’re the first one to get married but it seems like the world is very round and playful, ikaw pa ang hindi kinakasal sa ating lahat ngayon” Chantel said, and every one of them agreed. Pinagtutulungan pa ako ng mga ito.

I just smile at them instead and didn’t answer, “Bakit kasi hindi mo pa sagutin ang gwapong Doctor Luan na yan, tingnan mo oh, kung tatabi kila Oliver mas gwapo pa kay Oli ko, ay shet joke,” Aberry said at lahat kami napatingin sa pwesto nila Luan habang kausap si Cad at Oliver pati na rin si Kace.

“Masaya ako sa pagtuturo at gusto ko pang magtagal sa profession ito at mag focus sa pagtuturo, kung makakapaghintay si Luan baka––,” Lana cut me.

“Sienna ang yummy ni Doc, nako pag naging asawa mo yan, feeling ko sleepless night ka dahil knows mo na ang mag Doctor walang tulugan yan bira lang ng bira yan roar” agad nakatanggap ng hampas si Lana mula kay Alliana dahil sa sinabi niya at nagtawanan naman ang iba.

“Tumigil nga kayo, alam kong may priority pang kailangan gawin si Luan kaya hindi ko rin sure kung handa kami sa isa-isa, tyaka masaya naman akong nandyan lang siya palagi” I said and stare at him, I’m lucky to have him at my side.

“Ayieee…Ashiena Minami Dreason, huwawwww bagay gurl” Lana said and laugh with Aberry. Mga loko-loko talaga, umiling-iling na lang ako at hinayaan silang magtawanan.

“I’m just gonna grab some drink,” I said and stood up––

“Gun you’re here!” I was stiff when Chantel said that name and looked at the person behind me. “Fresh from America,” Lana said and looked at me, while Aberry pointed at my back using her lips.

I suddenly feel nervous, and I clearly know who’s this person behind me.

Dahan-dahan akong humarap sa aking likuran at nasilayan ang lalaking matagal ko ng hindi nakita…

He’s here, he’s finally back…

“G-Gun,” I utter and stare at him as my heart beats so fast.

“Long time no see guys,” he said and smiled at us. Those smiles…It’s been so long since I witnessed that smile again.

My eyes stared at his face down to his hands where he holds a beautiful hand of a lady beside him, she’s––

“Meet my girlfriend Ady,” he said with the purest smile he always shows when he’s really happy.

And I guess he’s really happy now, happier than before…

Suddenly my chest feels so heavy and this question in my mind which stayed here for almost 8 years pops up once again…

I stare at those blue eyes and ask this question once again in my mind…

What happened to us Gun?

Why are we on a separate side?

Why do we fall apart?

We’ve lost our partnership… what happens?

Chapter 1

Disclaimer:

This story fiction name, characters, business, events, places, incidents are produced by the author’s imagination or dreams, any resemblance to the actual persons or events is purely confidential.

This story might contain matured scenes, strong language that is not suitable for very young readers, please read this at your own risk.

This story is purely unedited and has lots of errors please if you have encountered a typo’s language error please bear with me, I will try my best to fix it at any moment.

This Series has six stories inside and it is not all about Law, as I mention its Series names which Law of Attraction it doesn’t mean that it’s about the law. Law of Attraction is a universal principle that can be applied to all areas of your life, including relationships, which proposes that like attracts like. (google)

This is all about business and romance…

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“I’m Sienna, Ashiena Rei Minami,” I introduced myself to this lovely goddess like a new girl in school, she looked so naive and kind but no one seemed to like her from our class, so I did the first move.

“Minami?” she whispers my surname which makes me realize that she should have heard it somewhere, she’s thinking right so I chuckled and speak, “Yes, my family owns the University, Minami International University,” I said and smile at her but she just stared at me like she’s seeing a ghost and she looks like in the state of shock right now.

What did I do?

“You are?” I ask.

“Chantel Paige Delavine ‘’ She answered and urged a beautiful smile at me, Oh my why on earth god gave her all the beauty, she’s so lovely and charming at all cost. Wait, what?! Delavine you mean–– “No way Delavine’s cherry glimpse!!!” I said and instantly grabbed my favorite perfume out of my bag.

She is a Delavine, wait!!! Tinitigan ko siya ng mabuti at doon ko lang narealize na nakita ko na siya somewhere, and yes, she’s at the commercial of this perfume!!

“I love Delavine’s perfumes, that’s why you look familiar, you’re at the commercial when they launched this teen collection right, you were the model!!!” I said, I feel so excited but I don’t wanna frighten her if I burst out so I choose to speak calmly.

“Yes,” she said and avoided my gaze because she’s shy. So cute.

“Let’s be friends Chantel,” without any hesitation I asked her to be my friend, I wanna have a friend like her she’s so pure.

After that we talk the whole day and attend classes, I really find her so carefree and nice. She was the type of girl who will be your friend for the rest of your life and I really want to keep her.

“Ok, class dismiss,” mabilis kaming nagkatinginan ni Chantel ng matapos na ang klase, we both smile at each other while we started fixing our bags.

Mabilis kong inayos ang akin at nagpaalam sa kanya, “Bye, Chantel see you tomorrow” I said, she smiles back at me and nodded so I quickly run out of the room and while I walk down the hallway.

A loud shout of girls surrounds my ears, he’s here!

I smile and hold the strap of my bag tighter, pagbaba ko sa hagdanan nagkukulpulang mga babae ang sumalubong sa akin dito sa second floor.

As expected, he is here.

“Gun!” I called his name and with that, he instantly looked for me and when our eyes met, his green faded blue eyes shine at me, and the glimmers of his smile pop out.

“Sienna,” and he calls my name, making all the girls stop shouting and make him away to my place.

“Sorry got stranded haha,” he said like no one is staring at us but the truth is a dozen girls are glaring at me. He started walking while rubbing his nape and chuckled at me.

But I choose to ignore them and smile back at him, “As always,” sambit ko at nang nasa harapan ko na siya ay agad niyang kinuha ang aking na naging dahilan nang panlalaki ng mga mata ng kababaihan sa paligid.

“What can I say, habulin ng babae ang mukhang ito,” he lifts his own chair tho, I roll my eyes on him and start walking.

“Hey wait for me haha,” he said and chased after me. And wrap his arms on my shoulders making all the girls gasp, hahaha what a tease.

I look at him while he’s smiling and looking straight at our way to the canteen.

This is the man I met when I was six years old and did something unforgettable…

Back in Japan, I was six years old playing peacefully at our house, while my parents were preparing food for my brother’s birthday.

“Ashiena, kore wa anata no onigiri desu (This is your onigiri)” my mother put one piece of onigiri on a plate beside me and went back to the kitchen, I nodded and smiled at her before I focused on my toys once again.

I was at my peace that moment but this demon brother of mine suddenly stole my onigiri. “Ima wa watashi no monodesu (It’s mine now)” He said and took a big bite on it.

“Sono watashi no k

ō

ydai, Mama!!! (Kuya that’s mine, Mama!!!)“ My brother started to run, so I chased after him.

“Hashiru no o yamete, Kento o kaeshite! (Stop running, give it back Kento)” Mom said and we all heard a doorbell from the door but my brother and I didn’t bother at it and continued the chase.

“Yamete, Kento to Ashiena! (Stop it, Kento Ashiena!)” Mama shouted and ran to the door, but my brother didn’t stop and listened instead he took another bite.

“Tabenai de, kiraina hito! (Don’t eat it, Asshole!)” I shouted at him and started to cry.

“

Ā totemo oishī (Oh so yummy!)“ He teased me even more.

He runs again and I chase him until we reach Mama’s place. “Come in– Kento, Ashiena yamet––” Mama couldn’t finish what she said when I suddenly hit someone.

“Are you ok Ashiena?” I lift my head up to the lady beside the person I hit, she’s Mama’s friend. I slowly nodded as an answer and looked at the person in front of me.

“Gomen’nasai (I’m so sorry)” I whispered and burst out crying because I didn’t mean to hurt someone.

“What did she say Mom?” he asked her Mom and looked at me, “She said she’s sorry,” Mom said that made him a nod and get his scarf from his pocket and wipe my tears.

“Gun she’s Tita Chizuka’s daughter. Her name is Ashiena Minami, she’s one year younger than you” My Mama’s friend said and he stopped wiping my tears and smiled at me.

That smile makes me stop crying and look at my Mama, “Tēburu de onigiri o tori ni ikimasu (Go get him a onigiri at the table)” Mama said and push my back gently, I walk to the table and reach one piece of onigiri from the table and walk back at them.

I stand in front of him once again and sobs before I lifted my hand and offer him the onigiri.

“Onigiri ga hoshīdesu ka (Do you want onigiri?)” I spoke.

He just stared at me at that time. before he suddenly did something unforgettable…

He kissed me… “You’ll gonna be my wife someday,” he whispers.

Chapter 2

After that day, they always visit our house that month. My brother and Gun became close friends and so as we are but I know what’s between us is a little bit different.

And I remember that when Gun and his Mom visit our house, he always brings a piece of flower and gives it to me. I was six years old back then but I learned to keep all the flowers he gave me on a used wine bottle.

I wanna keep all the flowers because I feel happy seeing them, and after one month in Japan Gun and his Mom went back to the USA, but our communication doesn’t stop there.

As I grew up, Gun and I didn’t stop talking to each other and we became closer than I expected.

“Tadaima (I’m home)” I said as I opened the door and removed my shoes here at the entrance and wore my house slippers.

“Okaerinasai (Welcome Home)” Mom said while washing the dishes in the kitchen.

“Anata no denwa o shiyo dekimasu ka (Can I use your phone?)” I said as I lean on the kitchen and pout at my Mother.

“Denwa o tsukau dake (Just use the telephone)” walang ganang sambit ni Mama. I nodded and smiled before I ran to my room and changed my clothes. I’m excited to call him.

I’m already in grade 6 now, and every time I go home from school, I will always borrow Mama’s phone or the telephone to call him.

After changing my clothes, I quickly ran to the leaving room and seat beside the telephone. Dial his number and call him.

I can’t hide my excitement whenever I’m going to call him even though he always does this every day, hindi pa rin ako sanay.

After a few rings, he answered, “Ohayo (Good morning)” I bet it’s 4 in the morning in Washington right now while it’s here in Japan it’s quarter to 4 in the afternoon, siguro nagising ko nanaman siya.

“Good morning,” he answered with his sleepy voice, I smiled and looked out the window.

Gun is already a first-year high school student just like my brother, “How’s your day?” he asks. “It’s fine” I answer and sigh.

“How about the essay contest?” He asked and I heard him yawn from the other line.

“Second place again,” bagsak balikat kong sagot, last year I won second place too until now no improvements.

“Wow, congrats!!!” Gun said and make it sound so cheerful, alam kong ginagawa niya lang iyon para pagaanin ang pakiramdam ko dahil alam niyang gusto kong abutin ang 1st place pero kahit anong gawin ko di ko magawa.

“I know you’re just saying that because you wanna make me feel better,” I said and heard him sigh from the other line. “Because I know you’ll feel sad again, don’t worry maybe this is not your time but maybe next year you’ll win a,” he said, since I met him, his simple words comforts me a lot.

I smile and take deep breath to release this sadness inside of me, “By the wa—” hindi ko natapos ang aking sasabihin ng marinig ang malakas na pagkabasag ng pinggan mula sa kusina.

“What’s that?” Gun asked, he heard it too. “I’ll call you later,” I said and turned off the call, and instantly ran to the kitchen.

“Koko de nani ga okuro ka? (what happened here?)” I asked when I saw a broken plate on the kitchen floor. While Mama remains standing and facing the sink.

“Mama daijoubu desuka? (Are you ok Mama?)” I ask at nilapitan ko siya, paglapit ko sa kanya natigilan ako ng makita siyang umiiyak habang nakayuko at madiin ang pagkakahawak sa sponge.

“Ma” I whisper and just watch her cry and didn’t speak, hanggang sa bigla na lang niyang binitawan ang sponge at “O sara o arratte kuremasen ka (Can you wash the dishes for me)” she said and lock herself in their room.

Wala akong nagawa kundi linisin ang nabasag na plato sa sahig at hugasan ang mga plato, hanggang sa dumating na si Kuya at ako na rin ang naghanda ng aming kakainin sa hapunan.

“Yushoku wa junbi ga dekite iru mama (Dinner is ready Mama)” I said in front of the door, hoping that my mother will eat with us.

“Oniichan Issho ni tabete mada manpuku desu *Eat with your brother, I’m still full)” mahinang sambit ni Mama mula sa loob, bagsak balikat akong tumango at naglakad pabalik sa lamesa.

“She’s not eating Kuya” I said but my brother seems to understand what’s happening and continue eating, tahimik kaming kumain ni Kuya at pagkatapos ay agad siyang dumiretso sa kwarto niya at nagkulong samantalang ako ay naiwan para linisin ang aming pinagkainan.

I also prepare foor on the table, para paguwi ni Papa sabay silang kakain ni Mama.

Maybe Mama is just tired and stressed out, after cleaning the dishes I went inside my room and lay on the bed.

After a few seconds of laying on teh bed, biglang tumunog ang telephoen dito sa aking kwarto na nakaconnect sa leaving room.

Mabilis ko itong sinagot, “Hello?” who’s this?

“On my way to school” si Gun, agad akong napaupo sa kama at sinagot siya. “Ingat,” I said, I can speak three languages Japanese, Filipino at English and so as Gun is, but he’s still learning when it comes to Japanese.

“What happens a while ago by the way?” Gun asks and I can say that he’s in the car by the sound from the other line.

“I don’t know either I just saw a broken plate on the kitchen and Mama is cry––,” natigilan ako ng marinig ang sasakyan ni Papa sa labas, agad akong sumilip sa bintana para tignan siya.

“Bakit umiiyak si Tita?” Tanong ni Gun pero nakafocus ako sa pagsilip kay Papa sa labas hanggang sa makapasok ito sa bahay, binuhat ko ang Telephone upang madala ito habang sasalubungin ko si Papa.

Pero nangsubukan kong buksan ang pinto ay natigilan ako ng masilip si Mama na lumabas na sa kanilang kwarto habang pinupunasan ang kanyang luha, does she cry the whole time she’s inside?!

Imbis na lumabas ay sumilip na lang ako sa maliit na pagkabukas ng pinto ko. “Hey, still there?” i heard Gun ask from the other line, “Yes, nandito pa ako,” sambit ko at nakitang kong nilapitan ni Mama si Papa pero nilagpasan lang siya nito.

“Bakit mo ba ito ginagawa sa akin!!!” natigilan ako ng biglang nagsalita si Mama na nakapagpatigil ng paglalakad ni Papa.

“Pagod na pagod na ako sayo!!!! Sawang sawa na ako sa ganito!!!” Nagsimulang lumakas ang boses ni Mama at tumulo muli ang kanyang mga luha.

“Lagi na lang ganito!!!” lumapit si Mama kay Papa at hinampas ang likod nito gamit ang kanyang kamay, habang nanatiling nakatalikod si Papa kay Mama at hindi ito umiimik.

“Mabuti pang maghiwalay na lang tayo!!! Maghiwalay na lang tayo! Babalik na lang ako sa pilipinas, kesa sa makasama ka!!!” sigaw ni Mama.

“Sienna?” I can still hear Gun’s calling my name, but I can’t speak right now.

“Maghiwalay na tayo!!!!!” umiyak ng umiyak si Mama habang pinaghahampas ang likod ni Papa, I don’t know what’s happening but suddenly tears started to fall from my eyes.

“Pagod na gagod na ako sayo, pagod na pago––,”

“Sonogo,sarimasu! (Then leave!!)!” Papa just said those two words but it seems like Mama’s whole world stops.

Dahan-dahang umatras si Mama palayo kay Papa tumango-tango ito. I don’t know but my heart is breaking witnessing this scene.

“Oo tama, aalis ako! Aalis ako at isasama ko ang mga anak ko!!! Aalis kami” sambit ni Mama. “Bukas na bukas aalis kami ng mga bata!!!!” Mama said and walk pass through my father.

Nakita ko kung pano bumuhos ang luha ni Mama ng malagpasan niya si Papa at tumuloy sa kanilang silid. Si Papa naman ay muling lumabas ng bahay at agad umalis.

Napatakip ako ng aking bibig ng masara ko ang pinto ng aking kwarto. “Sienna are you ok? Narinig ko ang lahat” suddenly Gun speak from the phone.

Nandito pa pala siya, dahil sa tanong niya bigla akong bumigay at tuluyang umiyak…

I just witness how my family started to break. “Magh-hihiwalay n-na s-sila M-mama at P-papa” I whisper and because I’m crying so hard, it’s hard for me to speak properly.

“Shhh I’m here, everything is gonna be alright, whatever happens, tomorrow I’ll be here at your side ok, don’t cry” He gently said.

Kinabukasan ay nagising ako ng napakatahimik ng buong bahay, paglabas ko ng aking kwarto isang malaking maleta sa leaving room ang nakahanda habang nakaupo si Kuya at Mama sa dining table.

“Ohayo (Good morning)” hindi ko alam kung dapat pa ba akong bumati sa ganitong sitwasyon. Parang ang bigat ng buong paligid.

“Uuwi na tayo ng Pilipinas Sienna” seryosong sambit ni Mama, agad akong napatingin sa kanya at kay Kuya na walang reaksyon.

“Pagkatapos kumain maghanda ka na at aalis na tayo ang flight na’tin ay 10:00 am” dire-diretsong sambit ni Mama.

“Naayos ka na ang maleta mo kaya maliligo ka na lang pagkatapos nito” napatingin ako sa maleta sa leaving room, teka bakit dalawa lang?

“Yong kay Kuya?” Tanong ko at tinignan si Kuay pero hindi niya ako tinignan at nagpatuloy sa pagkain.

Mama just looks at me and continues eating, “Kuya?” I tap my brother’s shoulders. “I’m staying here, walang kasama si Papa pagumalis din ako” he said with a serious tone of voice.

Suddenly tears fall from my eyes, “You’re not coming with us? Magkakahiwalay tayo?” I ask.

“I’ll visit you guys during school breaks at ganon ka rin babalik ka dito tuwing bakasyon niyo,” He said and pat my head and mee with my hair after he smile but I can see how sad he is. That makes me cry even more.

After eating Mama talk with Kuya while I take a shower with a heavy heart, I don’t wanna leave this house? I don’t wanna leave Papa and Kuya.

But I also don’t wanna see Mama in so much pain, and staying here would cause her more pain.

“I’ll see in the next three months I guess,” Kuya said as I hugged him so tight. “Don’t forget to call me every day” I whisper.

“Yup noted,” he said, “Be strong Kent, take care of your father, at patawarin mo si Mama” Mama said and hugged him so tight, “Mahal na mahal kita anak ko” Mama said to him and after that, we ride the taxi to the airport.

And while the taxi is moving away from our house while I still glancing at my brother, I saw Papa’s car stop in front of our house and he step out of it and look at us, with his broken emotions.

I’ll see you soon Papa….Mama just needs me now…

“Calling all the attention of passeger flight 104 please proceed to gate 4, again flight 104 philippines please proceed to gate 4” agad tumayo si Mama at hinawakan na ang aking kamay.

“Tara na anak,” she said and smile at me with pain in her eyes.

I nodded and take a last glance around.

“Bye Japan,” I whisper.

Chapter 3

“Latest Updates on the weather at our destination will be given as we approach Manila, Philippines.” I instantly open the plane window curtain beside me as the announcement aired, the beautiful night lights in Manila met my gaze.

In just a glimpse, I can’t believe I’ll be living here.

Habang pinagmamasdan ko ang magandang tanawin sa ibaba ay narinig ko ang malalim na paghinga ni Mama kaya humarap ako sa kanya at bakas sa kanyang mukha na nag pipigil pa rin ito sa pagluha.

Hindi pa ’rin ako makapaniwala na may matagal na palang problema sila Mama at Papa, na naging dahilan ng pagkasira ng pamilya namin. Wala akong magawa dahil ako ay bata lamang.

Pero patuloy parin akong umaasa na magkaayos sila Mama at Papa.

Buntong hininga ko muling tinignan ang tanawin at sinubukan tanggapin ang lahat, hanggang sa tuluyan na kaming nakababa ng eroplano at lumabas ng airport ng walang kahit na sinong kakilala.

“Sandali, Sienna,” Mama said when I was about to call a taxi, she grabbed her phone out of her bag and dial someone.

I stop and put my bag in front of my legs and play with it by swinging it a bit, and I keep looking around, watching some people hugging their awaited family member.

I also saw a simple Family with two children and Boy and a girl, hugging their Father who just came out of the airport. They just look like our family but the difference was they are happy and complete while we are broken and far from each other.

Agad kong pinunasan ang tumulong luha sa aking mga mata dahil doon at hinarap si Mama na busy sa kanyang cellphone.

“Hello Jiselle, oo nandito kami ng anak ko sa Pinas ngayon…oo kakarating lang namin,” Mom is talking to her friend, “Oo wala pa kasi kaming matuluyan ngayon.. Oo sigurado ka ba? Sige anong address ng bahay mo?” tumango-tango si Mama pagkatapos at ng ibaba ang tawag agad niyang binuhat ang mga gamit namin at hinawakan ang aking kamay.

“Mama doko ni iku no? (Mama, where are we going?)” I ask while we are walking crossed the road.

“Sa Tita Jiselle mo doon muna tayo ngayong gabi,” She said and called a taxi, I nodded and just kept my mouth shut until we reached Tita Jiselle’s house.

Pagkababa namin ng sasakyan agad kaming sinalubong ng isang magandang babae, “Zhi!!! Why so sudden?” She asked and hugged my Mother and signaled his maids to help us with our things.

“You probably know the reason, si Sienna lang ang na sama ko at ayaw iwan ni Kent ang Papa niya,” sambit ni Mama na naging dahilan ng pagtingin sa akin ni Tita Jiselle, this is the first time I’ve seen her and I didn’t expect that she would look this young.

“Oh this is Sienna?! You look so beautiful,” She said and reached for my hand and pulled me for a hug. “My poor Sienna” she whispered, “Let’s go inside I prepare food” she said and pushed us inside their big house filled with glass and expensive plants and decoration outside.

““Feel at home, Sienna.. Later I’ll show you your room,” Tita Jiselle said.

“Jiselle wala kaming balak magtagal dito hanggang ngayong gabi lang sana at bukas maghahanap na rin ako ng unit or condo para sa aming dalawa,” Mama said as we seat on the long elegant dining table.

“No problem, if you want I’ll help you to look for a place to stay and while we are still on a hunt you two can stay here,” Tita Jiselle is so sweet talker and calm.

“Pano si Calenn? Hindi ba siya magagalit?” Mama said, agad umiling si Tita Jiselle at ngumiti. “Don’t worry he’s not staying here for a while, he’s on a business trip of a month.”

“Maraming salamat Jiselle” Mama said, “No problem, come on let’s eat.. Queen!!!” She called someone and looked at the staircase.

Maya-maya ay may bumabang batang babaeng kasing edad ko at nakasuot ito ng kulay puting dress at ang ganda nito.

Malusog ang kanyang pangangatawan at nakasuot siya ng isang malaki at makapal na salamin. At habang papalapit siya sa amin ay parang nahihiya siya at hindi kami mag tignan sa mata, nakayuko lang siya na umupo sa tabi ni Tita Jiselle.

“This is my Daughter Quenn, she’s a bit shy to other people but she’s nice.. Come on Darling greet Tita Zhi and Sienna, they will be staying here with us for a bit,” nakangiting sambit ni Tita Jiselle habang hawak ang kamay nito.

“Hi,” she said like it’s almost a whisper but I find it cute so I smile and speak, “Hi, Sienna,” I said and smiled at her, she looked at me and urged a small smile before she avoided my gaze again and we started to eat.

Mama and Tita Jiselle keep talking and talking while Quenn and I keep on eating, but I notice that she’s stopping herself to eat more even if her face shows so much hunger at the stake.

“Hey.. why don’t you get one?” I whisper at her but she quickly deny that she’s wanting the stake

“Come one it’s yummy,” I said and got one for her and put it on her plate. “No, it will increase my weight again, I will look even uglier” she said and pouted.

“No you’re beautiful even if you gain weight I promise you look good, and don’t torture your self if you want to eat, eat,” I said and smile at her. She looked me in the eye with those big glasses before she slowly urged a smile and nodded.

We started eating at the stake and kept on smiling at each other. And after dinner Tita Jiselle showed me the room I will stay in and let me sleep and she continued talking to my Mother down the stairs. I tried to borrow Mama’s phone to call Gun but she didn’t let me.

Paghiga ko sa kama biglang bumukas ang pinto ko ng konti kaya na paupo ako ulit na ng makita kong si Quenn iyon mabilis akong tumayo at nilapitan siya.

“Oh Quenn, bakit ka nandito?” Tanong ko at hinawakan ang pinto upang buksan ito lalo para papasukin siya pero umatras lang siya at nahihiyang napayuko.

“A-ahm.. I h-heard t-that you’re borrowing your mother’s phone to call someone important, and I guess she didn’t let you have it…so I’ll just give you this” she said and handed me a pink phone.

“Sayo ito?” I asked and looked at her, she nodded and fixed her glasses before she said, “I hope you can talk to that important person using that, don’t worry about me I have another phone in my room,” she said and walked to the pink door near my room.

Agad kong sinara ang pinto at agad sinubukan tawagan si Gun, buti na lang may wifi dito sa bahay nila Tita Jiselle kaya kahit sa facebook ko lang siya makausap.

After a few rings he answered it, “Hey how are you? Feeling fine? Do you have jet lag? Did you cry again? Did you eat dinner already? Are you sad? Tell me!” sunod-sunod nitong tanong at hindi man lang ako pinagsalita.

“Stop, I’m fine nandito na kami sa Pinas, tumuloy kami sa bahay ni Tita Jiselle and she have this daughter who has the same age as me, she lended me her extra phone so I can talk to you”

“Wow, tell her she’s a life saver haha,” napangiti naman ako a biro nito, at tuluyan na akong humiga sa kama. “I don’t know how me and Mama will start our life here,” I said.

“I know you can do it, just do what you are doing in Japan, keep chasing your goal and I’ll always be right here behind your back, I will support you no matter what,” He cheerfully said, “But I will not probably support you liking other guys out there!!! Remember my word!” he said.

“Bakit naman bigla kang naging ganyan, when I was in Japan you didn’t care about the boys around me” I said and remembered how he acted while we were in Japan.

“Yeah, because I know you don’t like Japanese Man, because you like me,” I laughed instantly through what he said and answered.

“You sure?” I said that to teased him off.

“Yes, hundred percent sure,” he said with too much confidence.

“Pano mo naman nasisiguro?” Tanong ko muli.

He really knows how to light up my mood… he’s really my mood changer.

“Because you like me so much and you might die if you don’t see me as your husband in the future so after 10 years you’re gonna propose to me and tell me that you won’t live without me, the oh so hot and handsome Gunner Tyson at your service” my lips parted with disbelief because of this Man confidence.

“Advance ka pala mag isip,” I said and chuckled.

“Yes, so advanced that I can already see you carrying my child someday, ops just kidding,” I don’t know but suddenly my face burned and I became speechless through what he said.

My heart is beating so fast….

“Baka (Stupid)” I said and turn of the call.

My heart, am I sick?

Chapter 4

After a week of staying at Tita Jiselle’s house, Queen and I become friends, I also transfer to the same school as her to finish my elementary level. Since we moved here in the middle of the second quarter.

“Are you sure you want to join me here?” Napatingin ako kay Quenn ng bumulong siya habang naglalakad kami para maghanap ng upuan sa canteen with our food.

“Yeah? Why would you ask me that?” I ask and look at her.

“Because—,”

“Ay!” I almost shouted when someone suddenly bump her, kaya natapon ang pagkain niya.

“Opss sorry fatty! My bad or not haha” the girl said and laughed with her friends. Lahat sila ay tinatawanan si Quenn, kaya agad kong binitawan ang pagkain ko sa malapit na table at humarang sa gitna nila.

“Hey, that’s rude,” I calmly said but I’m pissed off right now.

“And who are you?” this bitchy girl said and glared at me. “Why are you bullying her?” I ask.

“Bakit gusto namin eh!!! Sino ka ba!!!” the other one said, “you can’t just do that Baka(Stupid)!” I said and pushed her a bit.

Everyone in grade six-year level is watching us already, and when this girl was about to hit me I spoke before she even touched my face, “I’ll let you bully her and me if you can spell perseverance” I said and smirked at her.

She stops and looks at everyone before she faces me and looks so tense. “Yes, I know that!! P E R S I V I R A N S!!!” she said which makes everyone around us laugh.

I smile at her and hold Quenn’s hands “You can’t bully someone when you don’t have the proper knowledge to prove that you’re above us, fix your brain first kid” I calmly said and pulled Quenn out of that place.

When we both stop in the locker room where we put on our P.E. uniforms, Quenn started to cry and hugged me, she’s shaking because of those bullies.

“Hey look at me, don’t let anyone step on you ok play with your brains on with your fears,” I said and wiped her tears.

“I’ll be at your side,” I whispered and hugged her too.

That day was Quenn’s new start, she doesn’t have to deal with bullies anymore. Then she starts expressing herself in academics, we become much closer and as months pass by Mama and Tita Jiselle already found a place for us to permanently stay.

But every weekend I stayed at Tita Jiselle’s house to play and study with Quenn.

And with that I started to enjoy my life here in the Philippines, I started to appreciate the place and the people, the culture, and accept the fact that my parents separated for good.

Gun never leaves me at that point he’s always there…always.

“I only got two wrong answers on my exams!!!”

“I know you can do it, I’m proud of you,” Gun.

“I fix my bookshelf by myself!!!”

“You know I can do that better if only I was there, but what can I say you’re a super girl I know you can do it,” Gun.

“I miss Japan,”

“Yeah, I miss you too haha,” Gun.

“Baka (Stupid)”

“Hahaha,” Gun

He was always there, and now finally the day has come…

“Congratulations to our salutatorian, Minimum, Ashiena,” I smile brightly as I walk through the stage with my Mama.

All though I aimed for Valedictorian it’s fine, I guess I need to study more in the future.

After they handed me the medal we took a picture and went back to our seats. “Mama, can I borrow your phone?” I whispered to Mama, she nodded and handed it to me.

I quickly took a picture of my medal and sent it to Gun.

The picture goes by a message says. “For you,”

I waited for his reply and after a few seconds, he responded.

“Really can I get it?” he replied, I chuckled and clapped as the ceremony ended. Each of us stepped out of the auditorium and took a picture with everyone we know.

It’s just so sad, that Quenn wasn’t here to get her Valedictorian medal because she flew to France yesterday, I don’t know the reason but they leave.

I tried calling her last night but she didn’t answer even a single one.

I hope she’s here to celebrate with us…

“Sienna let’s take a picture!!!“napalingon ako ng tawagin ako ng mga kaklase ko para agpicture at agad naman akong ngumiti at nilapitan sila. Sobrang daming shots ang kinuha namin para maraming memories.

“Hi Sienna,” I glance at my guy classmate Shun when he calls my name and taps my shoulder.

I face him and smile at him, “Hi Shun,”

“I just want to give you this, I like you,” he handed me a flower and said those words that makes my eyes widen.

“Ahm…s-sorry I have—–”

“Can I get my Medal now?” natigilan ako ng may nagsalita sa likuran ko, and I badly know who owns that voice.

Dahan-dahan akong lumingon at ng nagtama ang aming mga mata, nabitawan ko ang binigay na flowers ni Shun dahil sa kanya…

“Gun,” I whispered and she just gave me that heartwarming smile and rubbed his nape.

“You’re here?” I whisper and am still in a state of shock.

“Yes, for good,” he said and laughed, spreading his arms for me.

I bite my lower lips and look at Shun, “I have him” I said and ran to Gun for a tight hug.

I can’t help my smile because of his presence…

my heart is beating so fast.

And I feel so happy he’s here!!! Finally, here in front of me.

After the tight hug, he put me down and smile at me, I instantly take off my medal out of my neck and let him wear it. “As promised,” I said and smile at him.

He pats my head and looks at y medal like she was the proudest person in the world.

“You’re staying here for good?” I ask that makes him look at me and bit his lower lip. And show so much excitement on his face.

“Yes, I’m going to study and live here for good,” he said which makes my eyes widen.

“Yes!!  we are going to the same high school!!!” I said and feel the excitement too, finally, I’m going to be with him.

“Yup and I want to ask something,” he said and look straight into my eyes.

“Pwedeng manligaw?” he asked.

“What?!”

Chapter 5

“Pwedeng manligaw?” he asked.

“What?!”

“Hey, anong iniisip mo dyan?” All the flashback moments in my mind stop when Gun suddenly speaks and taps my palm with his pointing finger.

I look at him when and got back to my senses, nandito na pala kami sa canteen.

“Wala,” I said and look around the whole canteen, para maghanap ng mauupuan naming dalawa.

Gun and I have this habit to eat after classes before we go home, “Kanina pa ako nagsasalita but you’re not listening, you’re spacing out again,” he said and pinched my nose before he pulled me to the nearest available table.

Hinila at pinaupo niya ako sa upuan bago ipinatong ang kamay sa lamesa at nilapit ang mukha sa akin. “The usual?” he said and smirked, I smiled at him and nodded.

“At your service Miss,” he said and pinch my cheeks before he went through the counter.

Ang uwian namin around 3 to 4 kaya nagmemeryenda kami ni Gun dito sa canteen. He’s already a second-year level student council member, basketball member, and also one of the school models, his face is all around the school because it’s used for advertising the school.

That’s why he’s famous here, I glance at him and sigh because just like I was saying this guy is famous, kaya biglang dumami ang pumipilang babae sa counter dahil sa kanya.

Halata naman sa mga mukha ng mga ito na si Gun ang dahilan kung bakit sila nagsipila, halos matunaw si Gun sa mga titig at ngiti ng mga kababaihan sa kanya.

Nangalumbaba ako at pinanuod lang ang mga itong kiligin kay Gun, habang si Gun ay busy sa pag order ng pagkain namin dalawa.

Simula ng pumasok kami dito sa school na ito, mas lalo kaming naging close sa isat-isa at mas nakilala ko din siya at ganun din siya. Mas lumalim ang pagsasama namin dahil mas lalo kaming naging komportable at totoo sa tabi ng isa’t-isa.

Gun never change, and about that courting thing…yes pumayag ako at hanggang ngayon ay nanliligaw pa rin siya. I mean we’re still young but if I find the right time to say yes to him, gagawin ko dahil wala naman na kaming hihintayin pa kung alam naman namin na gusto namin ang isa’t-isa.

“Hi Gun,” napalingon ako sa babaeng naglalakad ng batiin nito si Gun habang naglalakad papalapit sa table namin ito habang dala ang order namin. “Hi,” Gun said and looked at me.

“May kasama ka na bang kumain gusto mo samaha––,” he cut her out and said, “See that lovely lady over there I’m courting her sorry I’m eating with her,” He said that makes that girl glance at me with unexplainable expression.

“Ahh ok…,” she said and walked away. Ngumiti si Gun at tuluyan nang umupo sa tabi ko. “The usual Miss” he said and served the food for me.

Ang tinutukoy nitong the usual ay ang palagi naming kinakain na peach ice cream and velvet cookie dito sa canteen. Halos araw-araw namin itong kinakain but also, he will order other food too.

“Hi Gun” Napalingon kaming dalawa ng ay bumati nanamang isang grupo ng babae sa kanya. Gun just smile at them while preparing my food in front of them. “I’m busy preparing food for my baby as you can see haha,” he suddenly said, making this girl look at me and walk away.

“Your literally using me to make those girls stop bothering you right” sambit ko ng matapos niya nang ayusin ang pagkain ko at inayos naman ang kanya. “No, why would I use you when it’s true?” he said and looked at me with those charming faded green eyes.

I try to control my smile when he stares at me like that but I couldn’t hold it for a long time, I smile slightly to push his face away to stop him from staring.

“Such a flirty guy,” I utter that makes him laugh even more, “I’m flirty when it’s you but to other girls? Never gonna happen” he said. “Kumain na nga tayo dami mong sinasabi eh,” Sambit ko at nagsimula na kaming kumain.

“By the way have you already chosen a dress to wear to the accountancy party?” tanong niya habang ngumunguya ng burger at kinagatan ang velvet cookie na hawak ko.

“Wala pa,” Sagot ko at uminom ng juice, “Want me to come with you? I’ll help you choose your dress” he said pero agad akong umiling.

“No need I can handle it” I said, gusto ko kasi siyang isurprise man lang sa susuotin kong dress sa party. “You sure? May gusto ka bang ipabili sa aking make or something just tell me,” He keeps on insisting things when he already bought me a set of palettes last week.

“Diba kakabili mo lang nong nakaraan, tsaka tama na nga yon hindi naman ako madalas mag make up,” sambit ko at sinubuan siya ng peach Ice-cream.

“Ok ok, I’ll stop buying na but you sure you don’t want me to choose a dress with you? I mean I don’t really care if we stay the whole day in a women’s store just by choosing your dress… I would like to accommodate you at any time” here we go again with his boyfriend material mode.

“Nope, I’m ok just calm yourself I can handle this,” I said and was about to eat a spoon of ice cream when Gun stole it and ate it instead.

“Can I be your escort to the party?” tanong niya at pinunasan ang gilid ng labi ko, “Tinatanong pa ba yan?” malumanay kong sambit, he smirks and suddenly stand up.

Ang biglaan niyang pagtayo ay naging dahilan ng pag-agaw ng atensyon ng karamihang estudyante at kababaihan dito sa canteen.

“Everyone for those who are asking if I can be their escort on the party tomorrow sorry, I’m taken––,” hinapas ko ang hita niya kaya natigilan siya at tiningnan ako.

“I mean I’m taken to be the escort of this lovely lady over here,” sambit niya at umupo ulit sa tabi ko at kinain ang velvet cookie na hawak ko, na parang wala siyang ginawang kalokohan.

I look at everyone and they are all looking at us, some of them are smiling and some of them look so sad.

“Shet! Inggit ako!” I heard some girls say, “Inggit ako pero kinikilig ako ano ba!!!” all of them keep on mumbling something but i choose to ignore it and resume eating.

I watch Gun eat and can’t help to thank god for making me meet him. I know I act so embarrassingly to every single word he said when he’s proclaiming that he’s courting me but deep inside, I feel so happy and my heart keeps on jumping because of him.

Gun is the perfect definition of boyfriend material…

I grab a can of coke and drink it and handed it to him, para makainom din siya… “Here drink it,” I said kahit na tumutulo na ang coke mula sa aking bibig dahil hindi ko pa nalulunok lahat.m

“Thanks,” he said and instead of getting the coke from my hand he grab my hand and pull as I felt his lips on the lower side of my lips and gently suck a dripping coke from my lips.

“Wow, this coke suddenly taste so sweet,” he said and act like his looking at the can discription, I babdly know na namumula na ang buong mukha ko ngayon kaya agad kong kinuha ang abg ko at tumayo na…

“Tara na umuwi na tayo,” I said and start walking, “Yes, Ma’am,” Gun said and walk beside me.

When I look at him, I saw how he slowly lick the lower part of his lips, and suddenly I push him a bit.

My face is burning!!!

“Hey why?” he playfully said.

“Baka (Stupid)”

Chapter 6

“Tadaima (I’m home)” I said as I enter our house, naabutan ko si Mama na nagbabasa ng mga papers sa tinatayo niyang business dito sa manila. She’s planning to make her own business kahit na sinusuportahan ni Papa ang mga pangangailangan naming dito.

Mama still have her ego, sakin niya lang pinapagamit ang pinapadala ni Papa at sa mga panagnagilangan ko lang sa school pero never niya itong ginamit sa pansarili niya. I don’t really know the deep reason why they end up like this but all I know is Mama wants to be away from Papa because Papa never have tome for her.

“Nandyan ka na pala Sienna, I already put the dress you choose last night in your bedroom check it out now and by the way don’t forget to call your brother after checking the dress ok,” she said.

“Hai (Yes)” Agad akong tumakbo sa kwarto at binitawan ang bag ko para tignan ang dress na susuotin ko sa party.

I pull out the dress from the big box and run to the human size mirror in my room. Mabilis kong hinubad ang aking uniform at sinukat ang dress.

It fits very well..!

It was a stunning old rose knee-length cocktail dress with a see-through sleeve. This looks so calm and radiant. Parang habang suot ko ito ay napakakalmado lang ng kulay at ang ganda sa paningin.

I bite my lower lip to control my smile, what will be Gun’s reaction when he sees me wearing this?

Pagkatapos kong sukatin ang dress binalik ko ito ng maayos sa kahon at umupo sa kama, I grab my phone and the other one two.

Yes, I’m still using the phone that Quenn give me, hoping that one day she’ll call me here. Simula ng pumunta sila ng France wala na akong naging balita sa kanya at ganon din si Mama kay Tita Jiselle.

I miss Quenn.

I wag my head and remember that I should call my brother now, I dial his number and start calling him, it took me forever bago niya sinagot.

“Who the fuck—” I cut him, “It’s me, Sienna.”

“Oh yeah, Papa wants to talk to you wait a sec,” bored na sambit nito mula sa kabilang linya. “And by the way I buy you a lot of mochi ball here, will send this tomorrow,” he said while I can hear his footstep from the other line.

“Arigato (Thanks)” I said, mochi balls are my favorite and my brother never forgets that every month he will send me a box of it here in the Philippines.

“No prob,” he said, “Papa,” he handed the phone to Papa and we talk a lot about my school and how he misses us.

It took me till 9 pm bago kami natapos magkausap ni Papa kaya paglabas ko ng kwarto naghahanda na ng pagkain si Mama sa lamesa. “Anong sinabi ng Papa mo?” tanong niya sa akin.

“He said he miss us” nakita kong natigilan saglit si Mama dahil sa kanyang narinig pero agad din siyang umuwas at nagsalita. “Hindi ako ang namimiss niya baka ang pera niya” Mama bitterly said, umiling-iling na lamang ako at umupo.

I can still sense the love from both of my parents but they are just too blind about it.

We just ate silently that time and after eating I already sleep, because sleeping late at night wasn’t really my thing, I prepare to sleep before the clock hits 10:30 pm. So I can wake up early tomorrow.

And just like I was saying, I wake up at 5:00 am in the morning to prepare breakfast for Mama and clean the house. Dahil ito lang yong time and chance ko para mabawasan man lang ang trabaho ni Mama dito sa bahay, I want to help and let her rest for a bit.

After preparing breakfast and cleaning, I will just usually watch videos on YouTube and I always want to watch how kids learn ABCD and some funny moments of kids. Because I have this very big spot for kids, I love kids.

While watching Gun message pop up on my screen, it says.

From Gun,

I’ll fetch you later ok see you.

Napangiti ako ng maalala na mamaya na pala ang accountance party sa school. And I can’t wait to see what’s Gun’s reaction to my dress later.

Mama wakes up at 7 am in morning and we ate breakfast and I help her with her papers after and I volunteer to cook our lunch for the day. And I just cook a Japanese curry and it was my Papa’s favorite. We ate and go back to our different agendas.

When the clocks stop at 3 pm in the afternoon agad akong naligo at nagsimula nang mag-ayos ng sarili. “Mama!!” I call her up, to help me fix and straighten my hair properly.

I just choose to let my hair down and straighten it, so I can just look simple as possible. Mama also help me put some makeup on my face and fix my dress because I’m too thin for it so she needs to adjust the side of it.

“All done,” Mama said and let me face the mirror. My lips parted as I see myself. I’m wearing this old rose dress with a pair of simple silver earrings and a necklace. My long hair looks so straight and cleaned with a small pearl hairpin on the right side.

“Thank you, Mama,” I said and smile at her, kasabay non ay ang pagtunog ng doorbell ng bahay. He’s here.

“Sige na nandyan na ang partner mo, lumabas ka na magenjoy ka ah at mag-ingat sa mag iniinom ok” bilin ni Mama bago iabot sa aking ang purse ko at hiantid ako hanggang pinto.

When the door opens a handsome Gun showed up and quickly do the mano po to my Mama and greet her. “Good afternoon po, Tita Zhi,” he said but his eyes were locked on mine.

“Goodafternoon din Gun, sige na ikaw na ang bahala sa anak ko ah,” Mama said and push me gently out of the door and smile at us as she closes it.

Pagtingin ko kay Gun ay nanatili lang siyang nakatitig sa akin habang nakangiti, “Hey, are you ok?” I ask and wave in front of his eyes.

Tumayo siya ng maayos at nginitian ako lalo, “You look so beautiful as always but right now you’re shining like a star in my eyes” he said and handed me a red rose.

“Thank you” I suddenly feel so shy around him, “Let’s go beautiful,” he said and offer me his arms as we go to his service car and went to the school.

Pagpasok namin sa venue ng party dito sa school, agad kaming pinagtitinginan ng mga tao at kinuhanan kami ng mga litrato.

“They are all looking at you because you are the loveliest tonight” Gun whisper in my ears, but my eyes spot the most beautiful lady I know Chantel, there she is so lovely and looks like a goddess.

“I’m not lovely and pretty, they are looking at you” I whisper back.

“Ang ganda niya, bagay sila ni Gun sila na ba?” nakarinig kami ng malinaw na bulungan ng mag babae sa gilid habang kami ay naglalakad papunta kila Chantel.

“Believe me when I told you that you’re the loveliest because I mean it, you look like the woman I’m gonna marry in the future,” he teases me again with those future thingies.

But I buy it and smile at him.

“I believe you.”

Chapter 7

“To gradually start our accountancy party, we would like to hear another speech from our school principal Miss Coral Lisia,” as the accountancy party started, Gun and I chose to sit near the stage to have a better space and away from his fangirls.

Also, Gun said that he was asked to be seated near the authorities so they can easily talk to him about some sort of things, just like student council thingies and basketball school competitions. As expected to this man he almost had a hundred hobbies and the ability to do such things.

Nanahimik lang kaming nakikinig gaya ng ibang estudyante, aaminin kong medyo boring ang mag sinasabi ng mag school heads kaya para maibsan ang nararamdaman, nilaro ko ang mga daliri ni Gun habang tahimik siyang nakikinig.

Maya-maya lamang ay gumagalaw na din ito at hinuhuli ang aking kamay, bawat nahahawakan niya ang kamay ko ay agad akong kumakawala at nilalaro ito ulit pero kukunin niya lang din ulit, at ng tingnan ko siya ay nakatingin na din siya sa kamay naming dalawa at tila naeexcite siya sa paghuli ng aking kamay.

“On behalf of the head owners of this school we are pleased to have all the old and new students of the school, this party will serve as the main and formal meeting of you all.” hindi ko na naiintindihan ang mga sinasabi ng principal dahil sa paglalaro ng kamay namin dalawa ni Gun sa ilalim ng lamesa.

Hindi niya mahuli ang kamay ko dahil mas binilisan ko ang pagkilos at pag iwas ng kanyang hawak. I bite my lower lip because of excitement and I really enjoy this ga––.

“Again welcome and enjoy our accountancy party everyone” nagulat at nabitawan ko ang kamay ni Gun ng nagpalakpakan ang tao, tapos na ba yung speech?

“Tapos na?” I whispered ask him and lean closer. “Yup, so let’s go eat first, I don’t want you to feel hungry lovely lady,” he smirks at me and gently lifts up my hand as he pulls me to the food table and grabs our food.

“Hey Gun, your date looks so fine anong grade yan?” natigilan kami ni Gun ng biglang may tumabi sa kanya at inakbayan siya habang nakatuon ang mapaglarong tingin sa akin.

Gun simply licks his lip before he faces this guy, I guess it’s one of his teammates. “Yes, she’s lovely and stunning right, but sadly she’s well reserved by this alpha male named under Gunner Tyson… better back off or fight?” Gun said it as calm as he can be but this word hits differently and is dangerous.

“Ohhh…” itinaas nito ang dalawang kamay na parang nahuli ng police at dahan-dahang umatras. “I didn’t know thought she was one of your fans, I’m sorry my bad” pagkatapos niyang sabihin iyon agad siyang umalis at pumunta sa table kung saan maraming kalalakihan na nakaupo.

“Nagtatanong lang yung taoo kung anong grade ko ang harsh mo naman po,” I said that make him glance at me and rise his eyebrows.

“Then what grade are you?” He asks, “Grade 7” sagot ko he smirks like he just win the conversation when it didn’t really start yet.

“Tirador ng grade 7 yon, wag kang lalapit sa mga lalakeng nagtatanong kung anong grade ka na ok” he said, that why I step back and look at him.

“Hey why are you moving away?” he ask anf frowned. “Sabi mo wag akong lalapit sa lalaking nagtatanong kung anong grade na ako right?” paguulit ko ng kanyang sinabi kanina.

“Yes,” he answer and nodded, “But you just ask me a while ago what grade year level I am” I want to piss him off but he just sighs and smiles at me in exchange. “I’m the exception for everything Sienna,” he said and pull me back to our site for us to finish eating and dance after.

After eating nagpahinga lang kami saglit at may lumapit pa nga na organizer kay Gun para inform siya sa makukuha niyang certificate award para don sa campaign na pinataupad nila na galing lahat sa idea ni Gun.

As I was saying Gun is a very smart and wise man, he’ll probably make anyone around him amazed by him because he got a lot and a lot of potentials, halos hindi nga ata nauubusan ng brain cells si Gun sa sobrang flexible niyang tao.

“Gun restroom lang ako,” pagpapaalam ko sa kanya at agad naman siyang tumango at hinawakan ang kamay ko, “Gusto mo sama ako?” he ask.

“Wag na,” sagot ko at nang makiatng papalapit ang coach niya sa table namin nginuso ko ito sa kanya at kinuha ang pagkakataon makawala sa hawak niya. “Saglit lang ako, ok,” sambit ko at dumiretso agad sa restroom kanina pa ako naiihi.

Habang nasa loob ako ng isang cubicle nakarinig ako ng mga grupo ng babaeng pumasok sa restroom at nag-usap.

“Nakita mo ba kung gano kagwapo sila Cad, Kace at Gun grabee makalaglag panty talaga” I don’t know it that’s supposed to be funny but I awkard hearing it.

“Oo nga kaso taken na ata yong dalawa si Gun at Kace,” sambit naman ng isa. “Oo nga si Gunner pa naman talaga ang ultimate crush ko sa kanila pero may Jowa na pala siya,” well actually we are still not in a relationship so that a false rumor.

“Gaga pwedi pa yan maagaw mo pa siya,” nanlaki ang mata ko sa advice ng kaibigan nito, “Tyaka oo maganda nga ma Jowa niya pwedi mo pa rin silang landiin para mahulog sa sayo” bigla akong nakaramdam ng kaba dahil sa sinabi nito.

Flirthing someone could ruin the whole story of me and Gun, so I have to move before that happens. Hinintay ko silangg lumabas at pagkatapos non ay lumaba na din ako at naabutan si Gun na kausap ang dalawang kabigan niya bago ako hinarap ng mapansin papalapit na ako sa kanya.

Kace and Gun leave and Gun suddenly reach for my head and pull me between the crowd as we gently and softly dance with this love song played.

Both arms are on his shoulder while he is wrapped around my waist. “Ask me,” I whisper at him and hugged him, making him stiff and shocked.

“Ask you what?” tanong niya niyakap ako habang nagsway ang aming mga katawan.

“Ask me that ligaw thing again, no, ask me the other one instead,” mabilis ang tibok ng puso ko sa bawat secondong lumilipas na hindi pa siya nagtatanong.

He took a deep breath and face me, took a one step backward. Tiningnan niya ako ng puno ng saya sa kanyang mga ngiti at mata. Kaya hindi ko rin napigilang ngumiti.

“Will you be my girlfriend Ashiena Minami?” he formally ask, I smile and hugged him once again.

“Yes,” agad kong sagot at hinigpitan pa ang pagkakayakap sa kanya. “Yes as in..YES!!!” tila pang batang nanalo sa palaro ang reacksyon niya kung saan makukuha na nito ang premyo, ganon na ganon ang expression niya ngayon.

Hindi kami gano nagimikan pagkatapos non basta bumalik kami sa table namin ng magkahawak ang kamay at tahimik lamang.

“Let’s call on the accountance party best couple goes to…Gunner Tyson and Ashiena Minami,” agad kaming nagtinginan ni Gun dahil don at dahan-dahang tumayo at tinggap ito kahit hindi pa rin namin alam kung bakit kami na damay don.

“Wahhhh bagay na bagay!!!!”

“Ashner!!!!” hindi ko napagilang tignan si Gun kaya nagkatinginan kami at sabay tumawa dahil sa tinawag nila sa amin, haha Ashner? Hahaha cute yet so funny.

Nagtawanan kami ni Gun sa stage at natapos ang party na hindi ko na nakitang umalis si Chantel, siguro may kinailangan pang agwin kaya hindi nakapunta.

“Here we are Girlfriend,” Gun said as their car stopped in front of our house.

“Goodnight Girlfriend” Gun is teasing me using the word girlfriend because he knows that I feel shy about it.

“Goodnight boyfriend,” I said to get back to him but he just seems to enjoy it, “Sige na nga umuwi ka na,” I said and push his chest a bit.

“Where’s my goodbye kiss?” he asks and smile at me, alam kong sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko at sobrang naiinit ang aking buong mukha pinili ko pa rin siyang pagbigyan.

Kaya lumapit ako sa kanya ng isa pang hakbang at tumingkayad upang mahalikan siya sa pisngi.

“Sienna” natigilan kami ng marinig ang boses ni Mama, and when we look around there, she is standing in front of the door with her eyes widened.

“Mama?!” “Tita?!”

Chapter 8

“Mama?!” “Tita?!” sabay naming sambit at agad naglayo.

Mama look at us with disbelief before she sighs and seriously said, “Pumasok kayong dalawa sa loob,” at pumasok na siya sa loob ng bahay.

Gun and I nervously look at each other and he holds my hand as we both enter the house. Wala pa ngang isang araw ang relasyon namin pumalpak na kaagad.

Gun slightly squishing my hands as we take steps towards my mother’s place, nakaupo si Mama sa salas at umupo naman kaming dalawa sa tapat niya at ng subukan kong bitawan ang kamay ni Gun ay hindi niya iyon hinayaan at mas lalong hinigpitan ang pagkakahawak sa aking kamay.

At kitang-kita ko kung paano titigan ni Mama ang kamay naming dalawa, mamatay na ata ako sa kaba dahil dito.

“Pwed––,” hindi pa man natapos ni Mama ang unang salita na kanyang sasabihin ay agad na siyang inunahan ni Gun at lumuhod ito sa harap ni Mama na ikinalaki ng mata namin dalawa ni Mama.

“Tita, I know we’re still young po, I know you won’t approved us yet but please let us lock ourself with each other, we will stick together until the right time comes..wala po akong gagawin na masama na makakaapekto sa pag-aaral ni Sienna, mananatili po ako sa tabi niya at tutulungan siya sa lahat ng bagay.. Hindi ko po mamadaliin ang lahat I promise. Just please let us be in this relationship Tita,” I don’t know but I didn’t expect him to be this mature already, probably if ibang lalake ito siguro natatakot na kay Mama pero si Gun…

He’s really something…

Hinintay ko ang magiging reaksyon ni Mama sa sinabi ni Gun pero nanatili lang nakatingin si Mama kay Gun hanggang sa nagsalita muli si Gun, “I’ll prove myself po Tita, I will study hard and support Sienna at all cost, I will make living po when we grow up and make sure to have a better future for the both of us po..I know I am older than her po and I should know that this is not the right time for us to be in this state but what can I do Tita? since we were young she’s already the apple of my eye and I can’t bear not to be at her side, so please us be in this state Tita,” My lips parted after what he said and my heart seems to melt because of it.

Hinawakan ko ang kanyang balikat upang pabalikin siya sa upuan sa tabi ko pero hindi siya nagpadala at nanatiling nakatingin kay Mama, “Wala naman akong sinabing tutol ako ah,” gulat akong napatingin kay Mama ng sabihin niya iyon at ngumiti siya kay Gun.

“Ma?” I utter and she just nodded at me and let me pull Gun back to our seat and this time sumunod siya pero nanatiling nakatingin kay Mama.

“Gusto ko lang na manatiling malinaw sa inyong dalawa ang goals niyo na buhay at gawin ninyong sandigan ang relasyon na bubuuin niyo upang maging malakas at matibay sa pagsubok ng buhay, at Gun anak alam kong darating ang araw na ito simula bata pa lang kayo alam na namin ni Celia ito at masaya ako na nangyari na, ngunit napaaga nga lang sa inaasahan ko hahahaha, kailangan ka ni Sienna kaya inaasahan kong magiging magkasama kayo hanggang sa huli…bata pa kayo ngayon kaya nangangako akong gagabayan ko kayo hanggang sa kaya niyo na ang sarili niyo at may matibay na kayong pundasyon sa relasyon na ito,” nagulat ako ng bitawan ako ni Gun para lapitan si Mama at yakapin ng mahigpit.

“Thank you so much for understanding us Tita” bakas sa boses nito ang saya kaya tumayo na rin ako at nilapitan siya para makayakap. “Thank you Mama,” I said and looked at Mama and she gave me that comforting look and smile.

After that day Gun and I told it to Tita Celia too, by facetime, and just like my mother’s reaction Tita Celia expected it already and she was so excited to go back here to the Philippines but she’s still pregnant so we have to wait for a year.

Starting that day Gun and I become more open and free together, he helps me with my school’s works and tutored me during exam weeks, while I always support him with their games and his platform during the student council election. We’ve learned to handle our relationship as the days and months pass by.

“Congrats sa boyfriend mo Sienna, siya pala ang nag MVP” napalingon kaming dalawa ni Chantel ng batiin ako ng isa sa mga kaklase naming lalake, “Ahh yes, Thank you,” Sagot ko at nginitian na lang siya.

“Sige mauna na ako, congrats ulit,” He said and smiled before he left, “Wasn’t that abuse that he’s nagpapapansin lang,” Chantel said as we continued reading our books here at the library.

Umiling-iling na lang ako dahil wala naman akong nakikitang masama sa sinabi nong lalaki, and his just complimenting my boyfriend which I find it so nice.

“By the way I won’t be able to walk with you back to our room pala, Kuya’s wai—,” I cut her out and smile before I speak, “Kuya or Kace?” I said that made her eyes widen and blush. I know her so well.

She sighs and says, “Ok, you got me,” she said and hides behind her book. I smile and continue reading until we both finish our work and stand up, fix our bags and walk out of the library.

“Bye, see you tomorrow,” Chantel let go of my hand and quickly run down the staircase, sumilip ako mula dito sa hallway at pinanuod siyang tumakbo sa baba papuntang parking lot kung saan naghihintay si Kace.

Kace is his brother’s friend and Gun’s too.

I can help but to smile as I watch Chantel do a girly stuff in front of Kace, she’s too obvious and cute.

“Why are you smiling alone?” Suddenly Gun appeared beside me and wrapped his arms around my waist as we both leaned on the railings.

“Delikado yan Beb mamaya nababali kana ah hahaha” maloko nitong sambit at kinurot ang aking ilong, “Bakit pag nabaliw ba ako mahal mo pa rin ba ako?” I said and faced him, making our position look like this, I was leaning against the railings while his arms are on my both sides and our face is an inch away from each other.

“Of Course Beb, that won’t change even if you’re the craziest girl in the world” He gently said leane closer for a kiss, I was ready to accept his kiss when…

“Hoy!!!!” agad kaming napalingon ni Gun ng may isang teacher ang sumigaw, kaming dalawa na lang ang nandito sa hallway kaya siguradong kami ang sinisita nito.

“Shoot!” Gun whispers and bites his lips, he quickly grabs my hand. “Let’s go,” he said with excitement on his face before he pulled me and we both ran down the staircase.

“Hoy!! Kayong mga bata kayo!!!” rinig kong sigaw ng isang teacher sa amin at sinubukan kaming kaya mas binilisan namin ni Gun ang takbo at hindi maiwasang tumawa dahil rinig na rinig dito sa hallway ang hinihingal na boses ng teacher na humahabol sa amin.

His grip on my hands sends so much assurance and excitement, “Here,” he said and pulled me inside the boy’s restroom for us to hide. Agad kaming pumasok sa isang cubicle para siguradong hindi makikita at ng tuluyan na itong masara, puno kami ng pagpipigil ng tawa sa loob.

It’s funny because I was covering his mouth to control his laugh while he’s covering mine due to the same reason. “This is the second time already; I won’t let you kiss me in public anymore,” I whisper.

“Really?” he said and in an instant, I just felt his lips on my cheeks, “Really huh?” he said and kissed me again on the other side.

“Gun!” madiin kong sambit pero nagpatuloy lang siya sa paghalik sa aking mukha.

“Really huh!!” again he kissed me and this time he stole a peck on my lips.

“Gun–hmf!” again he stopped me with a kiss.

Chapter 9

“Congratulations!!!” I greet him with a warm and big hug, niyakap at binuhat niya din ako at inikot-ikot. I can’t help but to laugh and enjoy this moment.

It was another big achievement for him, although it’s a bit sad because he’s turning to college already and we won’t be in the same school after this school break.

Time runs so fast and now my boyfriend is already a high school graduate and he is soon to be a college business student.

I’m so happy for him, “I love you,” he whispered when he put me down. “I lov––,” hindi ko natapos sasabihin ko ng may mga grupo ng babae na lumapit sa amin, I mean sa kanya.

“Hi Gunner, pwedeng magpapicture?” sabi ng isang babae na nasa harapan. Ngumiti ako at tinignan si Gun bago siya binitawan at umatras upang bigyan sila ng space magpapicture sa kanya.

Pagatras ko pa lang ay agad na nilang nilapitan at niyakap si Gun, “Are you ok with that Darling?” napalingon ako ng bumulong si Tita Celia sa aking tabi habang buhat-buhat ang baby niya na younger brother ni Gun.

I smile and look at her, “Ok lang naman po sa akin, Tita,” I answer and play with Gin instead. “Hello little boy, why are you so cute,” I said and made a face that made Gin smile and giggles.

“I really love kids did you know tha––,” I wouldn’t be able to finish what I’m gonna say when Gun pulled my wrist and called me. “Beb,” he said and looked me in the eye, and through that we communicated, his eyes showed that I should help him with those girls.

I chuckle and let him pull me towards that group of girls, “Sorry can we take a picture with my girl? Cause, to be honest, I’m really not comfortable around any other girls” he explained na agad naman tinanguan ng mga fangirls niya.

So we end up taking photos with me because they have no choice, “Woah that was a lot of takes,” Gun said when those girls finally leave us. Nilapitan namin si Tita Celia habang magkahawak ang kamay.

“Hey lovebirds we better get home now, Your mom” she pointed at me, “Prepared a Japanese dinner for our graduate student over here,” she said and looked at his son.

“Ok, let’s go!!!” inakbayan kaming dalawa ni Gun at dinala sa sasakyan nila. Yeah nagprisinta si Mama na siya ang maghanda ng celebration dinner para kay Gun bilang regalo daw.

Tita Celia just got here yesterday for Gun’s graduation together with Gin, well actually Gun was expecting his father but I guess being a big and well-known businessman is very busy so he couldn’t come. I know Gun is a bit disappointed but he just tries to hide it to avoid bad vibes.

This day is his day so he better not ruin it…

“Wow!!!!” malakas na sigaw nito pagpasok namin ng bahay, agad niyang niyakap si Mama para magpasalamat sa hinanda nitong pagkain. “This is so amazing, thank you so much Tita I love you” he hugged Mama so tight and sat beside me as we started eating his celebration dinner.

“Hey, slow down,” suway ko sa kanya ng tuloy-tuloy ang pagsubo niya ng sashimi. I also wiped the side of his lips because he was becoming a messy eater.

Mama and Tita are busy talking and feeding Gin so they didn’t notice us here, “Slow down” I said and hit him gently, he looked at me and smirked with food all over his mouth that made his cheeks pop.

“I said slow down, baka mabulunan ka n’yan,” I calmly said and removed that piece of rice on his chin. “It’s so yummy how can I slow down?” he said and pouted like a child.

“Basta slow down or you want to stop,” pagbabanta ko kaya wala siyang nagawa kundi kumain ng dahan-dahan.

“Oh my I think Gin just poop, I will just wash him Zhi,” Tita Celia said and brought Gin to our restroom. Naiwan kaming tatlo nila Mama dito, tapos na akong kumain kaya nagbalat ako ng candy para ito’y kainin, pampatanggal ng lasa ng wasabi sa bibig ko.

“What’s that?” Gun put his chopstick down and looked at my candy wrapper. “Candy,” sahot ko at pinakita sa kanya ang candy sa bibig ko.

“I want one,” he said kaya mabilis akong dumampot sa bulsa ko.

ding dong

Napalingon kami sa pinto ng may nag doorbell, agad namang tumayo si Mama at sinabi. “Nandyan na yung inorder kong cake, sandali” Nang makaalis si Mama binuksan ko yung candy at humarap kay Gun.

“Oh ito na yung cand—–hmf,” nagulat ako ng pagharap ko sa kanya ay agad niya akong sinalubong ng halik pero hindi pala simpleng peck iyon, halos lumuwa ang mga mata ko ng binuksan niya ang aking bibig at kinuha ang candy na kinakain ko.

Nang iyon ay kanyang makuha agad siyang lumayo at umupo sa tabi ko na parang walang nangyari. Samantalang ako ay nanigas sa aking kinauupuan at sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko.

Nang makabalik na ako sa katinuan agad kong hinampas si Gun na ikinatawa niya, “Ikaw!!!” I haze and hit him more.

“Done na baby Gin” “Ito na yong Cake” sabay na bumalik si Mama at tita Celia at naabutan nila kaming pinag hahampas ko si Gun.

Bumalik ako sa pagkakaupo at inirapan si Gun, “What happen?” Tita Celia asked.

“Nothing Mom” Gun said and I felt his hands on my hand under the table, he slowly intertwined our hands and I felt a cold thing touch my skin down there when I looked at it.

Pinasuot niya ito sa akin at sobrang gandang sing-sing nito.

It was a silver simple ring with a small sapphire stone at the center. And he showed me a cute little note down there, and it says…

Promise Ring or more like a key to my heart.

With that my heart melted and looked at him as he glanced and wink at me.

“Bakit mo hinahampas si Gun? Sienna?” Mama asked. But I’m too focused on the ring so I remain headshot.

“Wala lang po yon’ Tita inagaw ko lang hi ang candy niya,” he said and show the wrapper that I was holding a while ago.

Well, he literally steals my candy… and literally, he steals it from my mouth!!!

“Candy lang pala ang inagaw anak,” Mama said.

It was a different way of stealing Ma!

It was with a kiss and tongue!!!

Chapter 10

Summer has finally ended and our class started a week already, this time it was different. Gun wasn’t here anymore. He’s now studying at a university here in Manila and because we are in a different school, we often see each other anymore.

Nagkikita na lang kami sa bahay pag dumalaw siya, at tuwing weekends, para sa dates namin at paggala.

But it’s ok this year gagraduate na rin naman ako kaya masusundan ko din siya sa university niya. But hopefully ay makatapos ko ngayong grade level dahil medyo mahirap na siya.

“Hey, do you like this?” naagaw ng pansin ko si Chantel ng ituro niya sa akin ang isang cinnamon bread, kasalukuyan kasi kaming na sa canteen ngayon dahil break time at medyo wala din klase dahil abala ang mga teacher sa malapit na event na gaganapin dito sa school.

“Yeah, ok na yan,” Sagot ko at tumingin sa paligid, everybody has their own world and they seem to be enjoying our free time.

“Where are we going to seat ba?” lumabas kami sa pila dito sa counter at tumingin ng available table na pwede namin upuan.

Buti na lang may nakita akong table malapit sa window kaya agad ko iyong tinuro sa kanya, she nodded and we both walk through that table and seat. “What are your plans after we graduated high school?” she asked as we started eating.

“Hindi ko pa alam pero gusto ko talagang maging teacher,” I said and genuinely smile, imagining how it would be fun to teach kids and watch them grow. “Teacher? Wasn’t that necessary? I mean your family, no your father pala is on business line hindi ka ba nila pipigilan if ever na education yong want mo?” Chantel has a point and I already ask him about that and this is what happened.

Summer vacation in Japan a month ago.

“Papa sensei ni naritai (Papa, I want to be a teacher)” I said while watching a school documentary on the TV. I fly back here to Japan after a week of Gun’s graduation dahil ganito ang set up na pinagusapan nila Mama.

I will stay here in Japan during the summer and go back a week before school starts.

“Anata wa bijinesu kosu o toru beki desu (You should take business course)” napalingon ako kay Papa ng sabihin niya iyon, at tinignan ko din si Kuya na nakaupo lang sa kabilang couch.

“Dakara anata wa itsuka anata no kyodai o tasukeru koto ga dekimasu (So you can help your brother someday)” Papa said while fixing his necktie and preparing for work.

I smile and try to chuckle, “Wakarimashita, watashi wa bijines Papa o torimasu (Ok, I’ll take business Papa)” I said and went back to what I’m watching and kept my smile. But I know deep inside of me feel sad about that but if that would help my Papa, I will do it.

“Atode aimashou (I’ll leave now, see you later)” Papa said, “Hai (Yes)” I said.

Nang makaalis na si Papa agad tumayo si Kuya at kinuha ang binabasa, “Kare no iu koto o kikanaide (Don’t listen to him)” He said and walk toward his room. “Sore wa karede wanaku anata no jinsei desu (It’s your life no his)” He said before he closed the door.

I hope I can do that…

“ What are you going to take them?“ Chante asks again, I sigh and look at the window view. “Business,” I said.

“Oh come on, diba your kuya said don’t listen to your father,” Chantel said and took a bite on my bread. “But I’m not that kind of girl, I can’t do things against my parents and isa pa ok na din yun para makasama ko si Gun at same kami ng profession someday” sambit ko.

“That’s your palusot? So lame,” she commented, “Bakit ikaw kaya mo bang hindi sundin ang Mommy mo?” I said that makes her stop eating. “N-no,” see parehas lang kami.

I smile at her and just continue eating, we won’t win any battle against our family.

After eating pumasok na kami sa class and the whole time we just push ourselves to listen to our subject teacher so speak like a lullaby.

“Ok, class dismiss” that’s when I fix my things and put them on my back, “Hey I got to go na, see you tomorrow” Chantel kisses my cheeks before she runs and leaves.

“I guess may lakad na naman sila ni Kace” I whisper habang inaayos ang bag ko at isinuot ito. This day is tiring, kahit na wala yung ibang teacher parang pakiramdam ko nakakapagod dahil sa paper works na iniwan nila sa amin kanina.

“Hi, Sienna pauwi ka na?” Napalingon ako habang naglalakad ako pababa ng building ng may tumawag sa akin, It’s Kyle classmate ko last year pero ibang section na siya ngayon. “Hey Kyle, ahm yup,” Sagot ko at sumabay siyang maglakad sa akin.

“Sabay na tayo, pauwi na rin naman ako,” he cheerfully said so I nodded and smile at him. “Kamusta,” pagbubukas ng topic ni Kyle habang naglalakad kami sa field, mas mabilis kasi kaming makarating sa gate of sa field na kami naglakad.

“Ok naman,” simpleng sagot ko, “Balita ko galing ka daw ng Japan nitong summer,” tumango ako bilang sagot sa tanong niya. “Ako naman galing singapore haha,” he said and I didn’t know what to say so I just smiled and nodded again.

We’re near to the gate, “By the way may laro pala ako ng soccer bukas baka gusto mong manuod?” masigla niyang pag-aalok. “Ahmm,”

“I mean try mong manood siguradong mananalo kami kapag nandon ka” he said and smile widely. “Paano mo naman nasabi yan” sambit ko.

“Dahil nandon ka,” he said and blushed.

“Well I’m sure matatalo kayo dahil she’s not coming” napalingon kaming dalawa ni Kyle ng may magsalita sa harapan namin.

“Gun” I utter when I see him standing in front of the school gate with his varsity uniform. Agad akong napangiti at nakalimutang may kasama ako dahil agad ko siyang nilapitan at niyakap.

“Hi there,” he said when I hugged him. Why is he so handsome!!?

“Ah Gun ikaw pala, a-ah s-sige Sienna mauna na ako,” Kyle said and awkwardly smile at Gun.

Gun just seriously nodded at him and when he left, this guy faced me and kissed my cheeks. “I miss you” he whispered.

“Eh diba kakadalaw mo lang sa bahay kagabi” I said, “Eh hindi naman kita nakita buong araw, look at me I didn’t eat meryenda dahil sa training,” he said while pouting.

“Oww my poor baby,” I said and pinch his nose, he chuckled, “Tara na nga, saan mo gusto my treat,” naglakad na kami habang nakaakbay siya sa akin at sumakay sa sasakyan niya. “Kahit saan,” I answer.

Pumunta kami sa mall at kumain sa isang fast food stall. “Habang wala na ako sa school mukhang nagsisigalawan na ang mag mokong na iyon ah,” he whisper but I clearly hear him.

“What?”

“I said I forget to mark you up, mukhang nakalimutan ata ng mga lalaki sa school na may boyfriend ka na,” nakasimangot niyang sambit, tumawa ako at tinaas ang nakakunon niyang kilay.

“Hindi niya yon nakalimutan sadyang nagmabuting loob lang si Kyle na samahan akong maglakad palabas ng school” I said. “Huh! Really mabuting loob? O may mabuting balak,” nagseselos niyang sambit.

“Are you jealous?” natatawa kong tanong na agad niyang sinagot. “Ofcourse!!!” he said loud and proud.

“Tapos may pa mananalo mananalo kami basta nandon ka blehhh so lame,” he said and try to mock what Kyle’s said a while ago, kaya mas lalo akong natawa.

“Bakit diba sabi mo nga hindi ako pupunta,” I said.

“Talagang hindi ka pupunta dahil sa akin ka pupunta,” he said and took a big bite on his burger.

“Punta sayo?” I ask, “Yep open gates bukas ang University para sa game namin laban sa kabilang university and that means your going to watch my game and me” he said.

“Also foundation day din sa University kaya maraming open stalls mula sa iba’t-ibang colleges” pagpapatuloy niya.

“Ok,” sagot ko at hindi mapigilang matuwa dahil makakasama ko siya buong araw bukas. And I will get to meet his friends there and his new surroundings.

“And I’m sure we’ll win if you watch,” he said habang kumakain ng burger.

Look who’s talking, kanina kinakanchawan niya si Kyle na ang lame ng sinasabi eh parehas lang naman sila ng sinasabi.

“Hey why are you smirking?” he asked. “Wala I’m just thinking if maraming gwapo sa university mo,” I said to tease him.

“Ok wag ka nang sumama,” he said, I laughed at him and his funny actions. Is this really my hot boyfriend? Because now all I see is a sulking cute guy.

“I’m just joking,” I said.

“No, I change my mind you come but with a blind flood so you won’t look at any other guy” parang bata niyang sambit.

“I was just kidding,”

“Well, I’m not and you know I’m jealous when it comes to my greatest possession,” he said.

“Possession?”

“Yes, possession named Ashiena Minami.”

Chapter 11

I woke up early to cook some breakfast for us, dahil alam kong pagod si Mama sa negosyo na tiantayo niya kaya hindi na rin niya mahaharap magluto ng almusal kaya ako na ang nagkusa para makakain man lang si Mama bago umalis.

Habang nagluluto ay nakarinig ako ng doorbell mula sa labas kaya mabilis kong pinatay ang kalan at isinalin ang niluto kong Japanese Curry sa mangkok at nilagay ito sa lamesa bago tumakbo papuntang pintuan.

“Sandale” sambit ko at nag pagpag ng kamay sa aking apron bago pagbuksan ng pinto ang nagdodoor bell.

Pagbukas ko ng pinto ay isang bouquet ng flowers ang sumalubong sa aking mukha, kasabay non ay ang pagsilip ni Gun sa gilid nito ng may ngiti sa kanyang labi. Those kinds of smiles that will brighten up everyone’s day.

“Hi there,” natatawa kong sambit at kinuha ang binibigay niyang bulaklak, it was a periwinkle flower, sobrang ganda.

“Morning sunshine,” He greeted me before he hugged me and kissed my head. “Anong meron?” Tanong ko habang inaamoy ang bulaklak, sobrang bango nito at naghahalo din sa amoy ng pabango ni Gun dahil nakayakap siya sa akin.

“Wala lang I just want you to feel special every day, I mean we don’t need events to express that we’re in love. Every day would be a possible chance to express our love and for me that is today” he sweetly said and smiled at me.

What he said made my heart beat so fast and felt butterflies in my stomach, kahit 4 years na kaming magkarelasyon, he never fails to make me feel that he’s courting me every day.

“I cooked breakfast” sambit ko at hinalikan siya sa pisngi. “Great, I haven’t eaten breakfast just to pick those flowers in my grandma’s garden,” he playfully said.

“Oh no you don’t!!!” hindi makapaniwala kong sambit, Lola Lulu would never let others lay their hands on her flowers and this guy over here has the audacity to pick for a bouquet.

Gun just laughed at me and “Shhhhh it’s our secret and she would never notice that I picked a half,” the way he said the half I know it was literally half, that’s why I can’t help but to laugh at him and go inside the house.

Pag Upo namin sa dining table biglang tumunog ang cellphone ni Gun at nang tingnan niya ito, malokong ngiti ang sumilay sa kanyang mukha at pinakita sa akin ang caller.

It’s Lola Lulu! Nanlaki ang mata ko at agad siyang hinampas sa braso. He answered it and put it on a speaker.

“Hello Lala,” He said with a playful smile then he caught my hand and kissed it. “Apo mukhang may nakapasok sa garden ko,” I bit my lower lip to control my smile, ang iniisip ni Lola Lulu may ibang taong nakapasok sa garden niya.

“Oh no who on earth would do that Lala?” Gun said and acted like he really didn’t know who did that. “Yong periwinkle ko pa talaga ang kinuha naku apo ko hanapin mo kung sino ang kumuha ’non,” sambit ni Lola Lulu sa kabilang linya.

“Akong bahala Lala, I will punch that guy who steals your flowers..” This time I cover my mouth and laugh,“Ikaw talaga apo ko sobrang bait mo oh siya sige magtatanim muna ako ng panibago, wag magpapagabi ng sobra ah.”

“Yes Lala, Cal you later,” he said and turned off the call. “So better punch yourself Mister flower stealer,” I said while I continuously laughed.

Gun acted like he surrendered and punched himself in the face, naikinatawa naming dalawa at sakto namang lumabas si Mama sa kwarto niya habang inaayos ang hikaw na suot.

“Oh Gun nandito ka na pala.” Mama said as she seat in front of us, sinandukan ko ng kanin ang kanyang plato at inabutan siya ng isang maliit na mangkok ng curry na niluto ko. “Good morning Tita.” Gun said and smile at her.

“Ohayo (Good morning)” I said after I finish setting her food. “Salamat.” nakangiting sambit ni Mama at sabay-sabay na kaming kumain ng almusal.

“Oh siya maiwan ko na kayo, mauna na ako sa shop at tyaka magingat kayo sa lakad niyo mamaya ok” Sambit ni Mama bago siya tumayo at niligpit ang pinagkainan sa lababo at tuluyang umalis.

“Bye Ma.” “Bye po Tita.” sabay naming sabi ni Gun hanggang sa tuluyan nang makaalis si Mama. tinulungan ako ni Gun magligpit at maghugas ng pinagkainan kaya mabilis kaming natapos.

After that, I took a shower at where a nice white tube underneath my white see-through blouse and paired it with simple blue jeans. I also wear a while Sofia doll shoes to make them look more neat and calm.

I also fix my hair up using a white scrunchies and do a clean ponytail. Pagbaba ko sa hagdan nakapagpalit na rin si Gun ng basketball uniform niya at pinatungan niya lang ito ng varsity jacket niya, he also wear a band on his forehead that match the color of his jersey.

“Wow hi beautiful can I call you, mine?” he teases as I step in front of him, he wraps his arms around my waist and smiles at me. “Can I get a wish me luck kiss before we go?” he said show me his cheeks.

“My pleasure captain,” I said and kissed his cheeks but when my lips were about to touch his cheeks, he suddenly faced me, so I ended up kissing his lips.

“Woah, woah ok easy lady, I know I’m your dead hot boyfriend you don’t have to steal kiss from me” nang-aasar niyang sambit kaya hinampas ko ng mahina ang kanyang braso. “Opss chancing pa nga,” dagdag niya kaya lumayo na ako sa kanya.

“Bahal ka nga dyan,” I said and walked towards the door. “Alis na tayo baka malate ka pa,” I said, “Hold on,” Gun said and ran to me, he grabbed something from his bag and showed it to me.

It’s the same as his varsity Jacket but a crop top style, “Pinagawan kita,” he said and bite his lips as a symbol that he is shy. How cute.

“Thank you Beb” I said, at agad kong kinuha ang jacket mula sa kanya at isinuot ito. It looks perfectly fine and it suits my top. “Wait” sambit ko at hinubad ito ulit, pinahawak ko ito sa kanya at walang alinlangan na hinubad ang see-through kong blouse at sinuot ang jacket, bumagay ang crop top jacket na ito sa white tube ko.

“Look so damn hot Beb,” he said and hold my head, leading the way out of the house and after we lock the door we ride on his car and wala pang ilang minuto ay nakarating na kami sa parking lot ng university niya.

At dahil open gates at foundation nila ngayon, sobrang daming tao sa loob ng campus as in. “Let’s go Beb,” Gun said and open the door for me.

Buti na lang malapit lang ang parking lot sa gym nila kung saan naka locate din ang basketball court, sa sobrang daming taong manunuod ngayon kinakailangan pa naming dumaan ni Gun sa likod na pinto ng gym para lang mapayapang makapasok sa loob.

Dinala ako ni Gun sa locker room nila kung saan sobrang daming basketball player, nakita ko si Kace at Cadmus sa tabi at yung iba hindi ko na kilala pero I know gruopmate nila ito.

“Why is she here?” Tanong ni Kace, I just smile at him while his face still shows confusion. “Hindi ako pumasok,” I said.

“Oh your dead Tyson, better not get caught Bro,” Cadmus said. “Yari ka sa kuya nyan,may pasok hindi mo pinapasok,” sambit ni Kace at umiling-iling habang sinimulang hubadin ang kanyang t-shirt.

“Hey!!!” sigaw ni Gun sa kanya at agad tinakpan ang mga mata ko, “Ano ba papansin lang,” Inis na sambit ni Gun. narinig kong tumawa si Kace at sinabi, “What I didn’t do anything,”

“Fuck you!!! Show off!!” niyakap ako ni Gun at nilabas sa locker room nila at dinala sa court, konti pa lang ang tao sa loob mismo ng court dahil mahaba ang pila sa labas.

“Seat near our place ok, Over there and wait for me,” he said and pointed at their place. Tumango ako at nagsimula ang maglakad papunta doon, Umupo ako sa pangatlong linya ng mga upuan para hindi medyo malapit sa court at natatakot akong tamaan ng bola.

Pag Upo ko nakita ko pang kumaway sa akin si Gun bago bumalik sa locker room nila. I check my phone and received a text from Chantel.

From Goddess,

So duga!! Kace said you’re watching their games daw!inggit ako.

To Goddess,

Why didn’t you come, I was expecting to see you here.

From Goddess,

Well, I have this photoSHIT again, I’m with my Mom.

Hindi rin siya pumasok dahil sa photoshoot niya.

From Goddess,

Can you just watch girls around Kuya and Kace, watch them for me ok.

To Goddess,

Sure Ma’am, good luck with your photoSHIT hahaha.

From Goddess,

Ciao.

After that I put my phone on my sling bag and look at this girl who just came and ested beside me, nagulat pa nga ako ng tamaan ako ng rolled tarpaulin na hawak niya, It hit my head.

Then umikot pa siya ulit kaya tinamaan naman ako nito sa batok, at nang makita kong iikot nanaman siya iniwas ko na ang kamay ko sa aking mukha, pero medyo lumuwag ang pagkakahawak niya dito kaya dibdib ko naman ang tinamaan nito. “Awww”

“Ay palaka!!” siya pa ang nagulat sa akin, and when she looked at me her eyes widened when she realized what she did.

“Naku sorry gurl di ko na see, natatamaan ka na pala, why di nagsalita?” nag-aalala niyang sambit at tinulungan ako mag-ayos ng aking buhok. At binitawan sa upuan ang tarpaulin na hawak niya.

“It’s ok,” I said, umupo siya tabi ko at inayos ang mag dala, may hawak siyang tarpaulin tapos may tela siyang maroon sa noo niya at may mga dumi ng paint siya sa mukha.

“Sorry talaga Gurl hindi ko sinasadya, ay puta!” nanlaki ang mata ko ng magmura siya ng malutong ng mahulog ang dalang tarpaulin sa lapag.

“Ok lang,” sambit ko at nginitian siya, “Alam mo ang pretty mo ano name mo?” tanong niya at inabot agad ang kamay sa akin.

“Ashiena Minami” sambit ko at nakipagkamayan sa kanya, “Outside ka ’rin noh,” confident niyang sambit, tumago ako at pumalakpak siya. “Ay bet same tayo taga labas din ako eh, pumunta lang ako mag-isa dito para sa ultimate crush ko” kinikilig na sambit niya, napangiti ako sa sobrang kakyutan niya.

She’s wearing a maroon tank top and black mother pants that suit her body shape, she’s also wearing a crochet brown bag with a lot of paintbrushes inside.

Dahil sa malaki ang paintbrush nakikita ang ulo nito mula sa side ng crochet bag niya. Also she’s wearing a white air force 1, her style is a bit unique yet cute and jolly.

“Milana Villarino painter slash student, slash grade 12 slash anak slash kapamilya slash kapuso at Kapatid all in one channel na Gurl,” natawa ako sa pagpapakilala niya.

“Hahaha nakakatawa ka naman,” Sambit ko, “Mas nakakatawa kung panget ako pero buti na lang hindi diba.”

“Bye the way high way bakit ka nandito may boyfriend kang player noh,” she said with sa playful smile, “Paano mo nalaman?” tanong ko at agad niya namang hinawakan ang jacket ko.

“Ay oo, I want to support my boyfriend,” I said, “Ay wow ako din I want to support my crush,” she said at nakita ko naman papalapit si Gun sa pwesto namin kaya mas lalo akong napangiti.

“Kilala mo ba crush ko, sikat iyon si Gunner Tys––,”

“Hi Beb, here’s your water,” hindi ko napansin si Gun ng marinig ang sinabi ni Milana, si Gun ang ultimate crush niya?

“Ay siya yung jowa mo?!?!” hindi makapaniwala niyang sambit na ikinagulat ni Gun, “Beb, who is she?” bulong ni Gun sa akin pero di ko siya pinansin at tinignan si Lana ng buksan niya ang isang hawak na tarpaulin.

Nakasulat doon ay GO! GO! GUNNER HOTTER!

“Oo,” sagot ko sa tanong niya kanina, “Oh my gosh this is so heartbreaking,” she said at yumuko, nag-alala ako sa kanya kaya hinawakan ko ang kamay niya.

“I’m sorry” I feel bad for her, “Ang sakit sakit,” rinig kong bulong niya, kaya nakonsensya ako agad, she’s so nice and cute to be sad.

“What can I do to make you feel better?” I ask, nanahimik siya saglit bago muling bumulong. “Pahawak ng abs ng jowa mo,” bulong niya.

Nanlaki ang mata ko dahil sa sinabi niya pero agad ding natawa, hinila ko si Gun papalapit sa amin at kinuha ang kamay ni Milana. “Here,” I said at pinahawak ang abs ni Gun.

“What the!” gulat na sambit ni Gun, biglang tumaas ang ulo ni Milana dahil don at sobrang nagniningning ang kanyang mga mata dahil dito.

Umatras na si Gun at tinakpan ang abs niya, habang ako naman ay tinignan si Milana na nakangiti at nanatiling nakatingala, “Oh no,” sambit ko at agad kinuha ang panyo ko ng makita ang pagtulo nang laway mula sa labi niya.

“Eww,” bulong ni Gun sa likuran ko.

Bumalik siya sa katinuan at hinigop pabalik ang laway niya, “Ok, solve,” she said.

“I’m sorry,” I said.

“Ok lang Gurl ready ako may second ultimate crush pa ako,” she said and kinuha ang isa pang tarpaulin at binuklat ito.

“Hmf!! I got to go haha,” Gun laugh as soon as he saw what is written in the second tarpaulin, kahit ako ay napangiti sa nakasulat dito.

“Ang bilis mo naman magmove on,” sambit ko.

“Yeah, always ready, ever ready,” she said and shouted when Kace went out of the locker room.

Her tarpaulin says,

GO! GO! KACE LENNONSKY CRUSH BACK MO AKO!!!

Kace avoided looking at the tarpaulin and the game started…

“Go Beb!” I cheer together with Milana.

The game was so intense and sobrang lapit ng score, nang last quarter na halatang pagod na pagod na si Gun kaya kinuha ko ang tumblr ko at pinakita ito sa kanya.

Sinenyasan niya kaong bumababa at lapitan siya kaya sinunod ko siya “Water,” I said and handed it to him, hinihingal siya at puno ng pawis.

Pagkakuha niya ng tumblr hinila niya din ang kamay ko at niyakap ako sa harap ng maraming manonood. “We will win right?” he asked me.

I smiled and felt his kiss on my forehead and answered, “Yes, you will,” I said before I went back to my seat.

“Sanaoil,” sabi ni Milana pagupo ko at tinawanan ko lang siya. And for the last quarter isang puntos na lang ang kailangan nila Gun para manalo.

And ……

“Ahh!!!” halos dumagundong ang buong gym nang tumunog na ang timer at natapos ang laro…

And they win.

Chapter 12

“Bye Milana,” I said pagkalabas namin ng gym, “Lana nalang gurl,” she said and smile at me.

Pagkatapos ng game nakachancing si Lana kay Kace dahil sa tulong ng mga groupmates nila, panay ang pang-aasar dito. Lana had a chance to kiss Kace cheeks kaya ito siya ngayon sobrang nag nining ning ang mga mata.

“Ay gurl sayo na lang ito total nakamove on naman na ako kay Gun,” she said and quickly handed the tarpaulin she made for my boyfriend. “Haha thank you,” sambit ko at hinawakan ito.

Lana looks at her wrist watch bago biglang nagpanic at nagmadalin ayusin ang gamit, “OMG gurl mauna na ako may laro pa ng chess yung isang crush ko!!” nagmamadali niyang sambit.

“May isa pa?” ilan ba ang crush niya?

“Oo gurl pang 299 ito shetttt baka nagsimula na!! bye!!” pagkatapos niyang sabihin iyon ay agad na siyang tumakbo palayo at naiwan ako dito sa labas ng gym na hawak ang tarpaulin na ito.

“Hi Miss, outsider ka,” Napalingon ako ng may dalawang college student ang kumausap sa akin, swimming team sila, base sa nakasulat sa mga jacket na suot nila at may

I nodded as an answer and glanced at the exit of the gymnasium hoping that Gun was done dressing up. “Fan ka ata ng basketball team, swimming team ayaw mo?” napatras ako ng humakbang palapit sa akin ang isa.

“Ayaw niya, kasi ako lang ang susuportahan niya,” Gun suddenly appeared here beside me and wrap his arms around my waist.

“Girlfriend mo?” Tanong nung isa dito, “Hindi ba obvious?” pilosopong sagot ni Gun na ikina atras ng mga ito.

“Ay sige pala mauna na kami may laban pa kami mamaya haha,” sambit ng mga ito at agad pumasok sa gym. “The f—,” bago pa matapos ni Gun ang pagmumura niya mabilis kong pinalo ang labi niya at tinignan siya ng masama.

“Bakit kasi ang ganda mo!! Yan tuloy nilalapitan ka ng kung sino-sino dito” he said like a jealous kid, “Baka ikaw iyon” I said and pointed on his fangirls waiting at the side. Paglingon niya isang mabigat na paghinga ang kanyang pinakawalan bago niya hinawakan ang aking kamay at sinama ako papalapit sa mga fangirls niya.

“Hi Gunner,” bati ng isa paglapit namin, Gun smile at them and speak, “Can I take a pass on our taking picture and video greetings girls, as you can see I’m with my girl right now and this day was supposed to be our day so can you give this to us?” Gun gently said that made this girl melt and nodded like a kid.

“Ok, thank you so much,” Gun said and quickly pulled me for a walk around the campus, we played a lot of booths and took a lot of pictures together.

That was unforgettable, and after that Gun and I got busy on our exams but he never stopped visiting me at the house during weekends.

We never forget each other even through our busiest days and weeks…

And that makes us even stronger and matured with our relationship.

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“Congrats,” masayang pagbati ni Mama sa akin pagkatapos kong bumaba sa stage at lapitan siya, I hugged her so tight and let her wear my medal.

“I wish Chantel was here,” I whisper to her, because I felt sad when she left before our graduation, Tita Vivian said that she’s going to study college abroad which means I won’t be having her around on my college days.

“Ok lang yan anak, para naman sa ikabubuti ni Chantel ang pag-alis niya,” pagcocomfort niya Mama sa akin dahil konti nalang talaga ay maiiyak nanaman ako.

“Beb,” minulat ko ang aking mga mata ng marinig ang boses ni Gun, nakatayo siya sa likuran ni Mama habang hawak ang isang bouquet ng red roses. He smiled at me and spread his arms just like what he did when I graduated elementary.

Binitawan ako ni Mama at hinayaang lapitan si Gun,I ran to him and hugged him so tight, as soon as he hugged me back may tear fall out. “Shhh I’m here,” he whispered.

“Why do all of my best friend turn out studying abroad,” Umiiyak kong sambit, Gun kiss my head and whisper, “Because they are meant to study abroad and you are meant to stay with me,” after he said that he chuckled and so I look at him and smile.

He wipes my tears and hand me the roses, “Wag ka nang umiyak, special day mo ngayon tapos umiiyak ka,” he said and pinch my nose. His smile makes me calm down and stop crying.

“Gun ikaw na ang bahala dyan, mauna na ako sa bahay ah,” sambit ni Mama na ikinakunot ng aking noo.

“Yes, Tita,” Gun said and smiled at my mother before she leaves, “Teka bakit umalis si Mama hindi ba tayo pupunta sa bahay?” tanong ko.

“Nope sa bahay namin tayo pupunta,” He said and intertwined our hands before we walked out of the school using his car.

“Teka Gun saan mo ba ako dadalhin, wala akong makita! Baka madapa ako!!!” sambit ko, dahil simula pagbaba namin ng sasakyan ay pinasuot niya ako ng blindfold at inaalalayang maglakad sa kung saan.

“Congrats iha,” narinig ko pa ang boses ni Lola Lulu sa gilid habang patuloy pa rin kaming naglalakad, “Thank you Lala,” I said even though I can’t see her.

“Beb madapa ako,” sita ko ng nakaramdam ako lubak sa dinadaanan namin. “No, I won’t let you fall,” whisper and suddenly carry me instead, “Mas madali pala ang ganito bakit ko pa pinahirapan ang sarili ko na magbigay ng direksyon” he hazes and we both chuckled.

Buhat-buhat niya ako papunta sa kung saan hanggang sa tumigil kami at ibinaba niya ako.

“Ok,” he said and removed my blindfolds.

I gasped when I opened my eyes and saw this lovely set up date on Lola Lulu’s garden, the Pinetree in the middle of the garden was filled with Pixi lights and the floor had a Pixi light in a bottle so cute.

The table for two set up was a bit vintage and it’s a color brown and white theme, “I fix that” confident na sambit ni Lola Lulu sa likuran namin, I smile at her and mouth thank you.

“Surprise!” Gun whispered in my ears, and I heard the door close. Pumasok na sa loob si Lola Lulu at iniwan kaming dalawa dito.

Hinarap ko si Gun at hinawakan ang magkabilang pisngi, “Thank you,” I whisper and kiss him. “Ay apo nakalimutan ko ang tungko––ay,” agad kong tinulak palayo si Gun ng bumukas muli ang pinto at lumabas si Lola Lulu, she smiles when we avoided her gaze.

“Kukunin ko lang itong tungkod ko,” Lala said and get her stick, bago siya pumasok narinig namin siyang bumulong. “Mga bata talaga ngayon mas mabilis pa sa wifi namin.”

Pagsara ng pinto agad natawa si Gun at kinuha ang aking kamay para dalhin ako sa table at paupuin sa upuan.

“Wow,” hindi ko mapigilang matuwa ng makitang stake ang kakainin namin. “I cooked that,” mayabang na sambit ni Gun habang umuupo sa harapan ko.

“Talaga ba,” Sambit ko at tinikman ito, habang ngumunguya hindi ko mapigilang tignan ang paligid sobrang ganda nito. “I love you,” I said out of nowhere but I know I mean it.

Gun chuckled and answer, “I love you a hundred times kahit na pumuti pa ang buhok mo sa sobrang tagal mamahalin pa rin kita,” he said.

“Ang bola mo kumain na nga tayo,” sabi ko at sabay na kaming kumain at nagkwentuhan lang ng kung ano-ano, mga jokes niya at mga pick up lines niya.

Hanggang sa napunta sa course na kukunin ko this college…

“Final na ba ang desisyon mo Beb? Ayaw mo bang subukan na sabihin muna sa Papa mo na gusto mong mag education, I mean susuportahan naman kita sa lahat ng gusto mo Beb,” nag-aalalang sambit niya ng sabihin kong Marketing ang kukunin kong course.

“Oo sure na ako Beb, tyaka ayaw mo iyon mas malapit ako sa field mo at malay mo sabay pa tayong maging successful sa buhay at sa sarili nating business.”

“And if that happens don’t worry, I will let you study again and be the person that you like, you’ll be a teacher,” he said and kissed my hand.

“Promise?” nakangiti kong tanong.

He smiles and nods before he speaks, “Promise.”

“I will be forever at your side Beb.”

Chapter 13

Time runs so fast, I can’t even think about that Gun is already a college graduate, last month siya grumaduate and now his already training at Delavine’s Scent together with his friends Kace and Cadmus.

Parang kailan lang kakapasok ko lang dito sa university na pinapasukan niya. tapos ngayon wala na siya ulit, kailangan ko nanamang tapusin ang year na ito para masundan siya sa Delavine’s.

And I must say, being alone is really hard…

“Miss Minami,” agad akong napalingon sa terror kong prof ng tawagin ako nito. Dahan-dahan akong tumayo at ramdam kong pinagtitinginan ako ng mga kaklase ko.

“Yes Ma’am?” I ask, my hands starting to feel cold as I wait for her questions. “Tell me the Product Management Interfaces with the other functions in the following manners, Now,” I know that nag review ako kagabi.

I know I’ve read about that, but because of my fear and nervousness, I suddenly felt blank… “F-first is It Identifies a market p-problem or the customers, second is the It quantifies the opportunity in a market and It…it…it…“No, I forgot!!

“It what?! Miss Minami!!! I can say based on your answers, that you’re not taking this subject seriously!!!” mabili akong umiling sa kanyang sinabi. “No Ma’am I stu––,” she cut me out and glared at me.

“You don’t belong on the business industry Miss Minami that’s all I can say, better start thinking before you regret it in the future, business wasn’t really for you, Class Dismiss,” she said kaya agad nagsitayuan ang mga kaklase ko at lumabas ng room, mabilis ko din kinuha ang bag ko at hinabol si Mrs. Ferolino.

“Ma’am I’m really sorry, I swear I studied it last night. But I just went blank in front of everyone” I said that made her stop walking and look at me. “Mas lalong hindi ka bagay sa Marketing dahil sa sinabi mo” Mapang maliit na sambit nito.

“Ma’am please wag niyo naman po akong izero sa recitation na ito,” this graded recitation owns half of our grade dahil dito niya din ibabase ang performance namin and with that kind of answer I gave, I’m sure my score would be Zero.

“I see no effort in you Mrs. Minami, and just like I was saying, you don’t fit in inside this rough world of the business industry better step out now or regret it later” sambit niya at inabot sa akin ang isang papel bago tuluyang umalis.

The paper she handed in was my graded record for the whole second sem, singko.

Biglang bumagsak ang luha ko nang makita ang grade ko sa kanya, I never receive this kind of grades since I was in elementary. Tapos ngayon pa ako makakatanggap kung kailan mag fourth year na ako.

This is so frustrating; I mean I’m doing my best to cope up with my grade in her subject but she keeps on telling me that I don’t belong in this line of business.

Since she started to be one of my professors, she never stops making me embarrassed in front of the class and tells me that I will regret everything. Siya ang kaisa-isang Prof na nakilala kong dinadown pa lalo ang estudyante niya.

And take note ako lang ang kaisa-isang estudyanteng sinasabihan niya noon and talagang sumasakto ang pagtawag niya sa aking sa loob ng klase tuwing nawawala ako sa sarili at nagiisip-isip kaya ang ending wala akong nasasagot at napapahiya.

Ngayong college ko narealize na hindi sapat ang talino para makakuha ng magandang grades, kailangan mo rin talagang magustuhan ng prof dahil minsan kahit anong galing mo kapag ayaw sayo ng prof magiging bobo ka.

How I wish I have Chantel by my side, and I wish she’s not having a hard time in France right now. I don’t want her to feel what I feel right now.

Umiiyak akong umuwi ng bahay, dahil hindi ko alam kung paano ko ilalabas ang nararamdaman kong pagkadismaya sa aking sarili. Nangyari ba ito dahil ayaw sa aking ng Prof ko o dahil ako mismo ang may gawa nito? Tanong ko sa aking sarili.

Dahil sa totoo lang hindi ko na alam, kung anong problema sa akin…

Sobrang nagulo ang isipan ko pagtungtong ko ng college, at first hindi ko pa siya napapansin dahil nandyan lagi si Gun para icomfort ako at gabayan sa pag-aaral ko pero simula ng grumaduate siya don ko naramdaman ang epekto ng college life sa akin.

It was so damn hard to go with the flow because every single day the flow became a wave until it ended up being a tidal wave that no one could catch up and get drowned.

At isa ako sa mga nalunod doon, hindi ko alam kung kalokohan lang ba lahat ng inaral ko ng elementary at highschool dahil ngayon college ako ni isa wala akong maintindihan.

Ano bang problema mo Sienna?

Pabagsak akong dumapa sa aking kama at ipinagpatuloy ang aking pag-iyak. I feel so depressed…

Hindi ko maintindihan ang lahat!!! Ang gulo-gulo na.

Habang ako’y patuloy na umiiyak dito sa kamay ay biglang tumunog ang phone ko at nag silipin ko ito mabilis akong umupo at pinunasan ang aking luha. Gun is calling.

After I fix myself, I answer it with a cheerful voice, “Hi there,” sambit ko at pinilit ngumiti.

“Hey Beb, nakauwi ka na ba? How’s your day?” masiglang tanong ni Gun. pinunasan ko ang aking luha at ngumiti ng mapait, “Ok naman, medy––,” hindi ko natapos ang aking sasabihin ng magsimula ulit siyang magsalita.

“Good, ako naman masaya ako ngayong araw Bed because I was given a chance to handle the operation team and guess what the project went successful!!! It’s so fun hindi ko maexpress kung gaano kasaya at ka-fulfilling Beb!!! You know this is my dream right malapit na Beb!!! I can already feature it” bakas sa boses ni Gun ang tunay na saya.

He was aiming for this kind of adventure since we were young and now, he’s venturing inside the business industry that I wish I could do it too. But I can’t…

“I’m happy for you Beb” Malumanay kong sambit para hindi mahalatang ako’y umiiyak.

“Can’t wait to be with you here Beb, galingan mo sa school ah,” he said, I know he’s smiling widely right this moment.

Napatingin ako sa grades ko dahil sa kanyang sinabi at napatawa na may kasabay na pagluha. “Y-yes I will do my best and never give up so wait for me,” I said in a cheerful tone.

“That’s my girl, Ok gotta to go call you later,” he said at hindi niya na ako hinintay sumagot at agad pinatay ang tawag, siguro tinawag na sila ni Tito Cadrius.

Dahan-dahan kong binaba ang aking phone at sumandal sa headboard ng kama ko, I hugged my knees and lean my head on it.

“Kaya mo ito Sienna,” I whisper.

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“Please Ma’am nagmamakaawa ako bigyan niyo na po ako ng grade hindi po ako makakagraduate nito kung incomplete at blanko ang grades ko sa inyo. Ma’am wala naman po akong kulang sa mga requirements Ma’am please po nagmamakaawa po ako” hindi ko maimagine ang sarili kong gagawin ito, pero ito ako ngayon nagmamakaawa sa Prof ko para maka graduate lang.

Patuloy na ang pagtulo ng aking luha dahil hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko kung hindi ako makakagraduate dahil sa isang subject na ito.

“Ma’am please,” I begged, she sigh and look at me, “I already said Miss Minami hindi ka nababagay sa business,” umiling-iling ako at mas umiyak lalo, bakit niya ba ako pinapahirapan ng ganito.

“Ma’am please nagmamakaawa po ako” Pag-uulit ko, “Alam mo Miss Minami, hindi ko ito ginagawa dahil ayaw ko sayo, ginagawa ko ito dahil ito ang nakikita kong tama, alam ko. Nakikita kung hindi ka para sa business industry, and even marketing wasn’t your strength. How can you work and live with that profession if that wasn’t your expertise?” she said and tapped my shoulders.

“Please Ma’am hayaan nyo na po akong pilitin ang sarili ko dito, malay niyo magbago ang nakikita niyo,” I pleased.

Huminga siya ng malalim at kinuha ang ballpen niya, “I will give you what you want but don’t come back to me in the near future regretting this profession, because I’m telling you this is now really your destined profession, here,” sinulatan niya ang card ko at umalis.

Nanghihina akong napaupo sa sahig ng makitang kompleto na ang grades ko at gagraduate na ako…

“I will work hard and I promise I won’t come back to you regretting,” I whisper.

Chapter 14

“Magna Cum Laude Gonzales, Marie Congratulations,” lahat kami ay nagpalakpakan ng tawagin ang kaklase naming si Marie, hindi ko maiwasang malungkot dahil ito ang unang beses na grumaduate ako ng walang kahit anong award at ito na rin ang huli.

Habang pumapalakpak ako nagvibrate ang phone ko sa bulsa ng toga ko kaya kinuha at tinignan ko kung sino ang nagtext.

From Beb,

Hey smile Bed, your grades, and awards don’t define how great you are. Smile now it’s ok I’m proud of you.

Nilingon ko si Gun sa likuran matapos kong mabasa ang text niya, kumaway siya at ngumiti ng pagkalawak-lawak, nag make face pa siya para lang mapangiti ako kaya hindi ko maiwasang tumawa ng mahina at ngitian siya.

Again, he types something on his phone and I received a text from him again,

From Beb,

That’s my girl, I love you a hundred times, muah muah chup chup…

I glance at him for the last time before I look back at the stage and listen to the ceremony.

“Ok Ok.. magsitabi kayo dadaan ang graduate student natin,” malakas na sambit ni Gun habang naglalakad kami papasok ng bahay kung saan naghihintay sila Mama, Kuya, Lola Lulu at ang iba pang kaibigan ni Mama.

They all prepare a simple dinner for me, and I can say that this makes me feel better now.

“Congrats anak,” Mama handed me a small velvet box as a gift. “I’m so proud of you” and lean on to kiss my forehead. Ngayong nakaupo na kami sa dining area isa-isa na nilang inabot sa akin ang mga regalo niya.

When I open Mama’s gift I almost cry, because it’s a ring. Sobrang ganda!!! And I know the cost would be a bit expensive so I will treasure this for a lifetime.

“Here It’s from Dad and here’s mine,” Sambit ni Kuya at inabot sa akin ang dalawang malaking box. Nang buksan ko ito halos lahat kami ay nagulat niregaluhan ako ni Papa ng Louis Vuitton na bag. Tapos yong gift naman ni Kuya ay isang Macbook Pro at Ipad.

“That will help you with your work,” he said in a bored tone and continued drinking the wine.

“Nako iha ito naman ang galing sa akin,” Lola Lulu said and give me a big paper bag na ang laman ay isang woolen handmade bag.

“Wow, Lala sobrang ganda po nito,” sambit ko at agad nilagay doon ang macbook ko at Ipad.“Mabuti naman at nagustuhan mo iha, hindi kamahalan pero gawa sa pagmamahal” malambing na sambit ni Lala kaya tumayo ako para yakapin siya bago bumalik sa upuan.

“Ako naman, yung gift ko saka ko na ibibigay pagnagstart ka na magtrabaho sa Delavine ok” Gun said and mess up with my hair and kiss my cheeks.

“Your presence is one of the greatest gifts I had in my whole life,” I whispered to him, he kissed me once again and we started eating and puno lang ng masasayang kwentuhan.

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“Hoo kaya mo ito Sienna!” I cheer myself in front of this wide mirror here inside of my room, I’m wearing a cream tank top and covering it with my black coat, and also paired it with a black knee-length pencil cut skirt. I wear nice cream heels that match my top.

I also curl my hair a bit and do simple makeup on my face. I wanna look presentable and nice in my interview.

I heard Gun’s car outside so I took a last glance and whispered, “Ganbarou (Goodluck)” I said that to myself.

Pagbukas ko ng pinto ng aking kwarto ay sakto namang pagpasok ni Gun sa bahay habang nakasuot ng white dresser shirt at black pants. “Wow, is that my girlfriend? Oh no that’s my wife,” he talks to himself kaya nilapitan ko siya at hinalikan sa pisngi.

“Good morning,” I said, hinalikan niya din ako pero sa lips at pagkatapos non ay kinuha ko ang hinanda kong baon para sa kanya at sabay kaming lumabas ng bahay at sumakay sa Ford fusion sedan niya.

“Are you ready Beb?” he asked as he started the engine and drove our way to the Delavine’s building. Tumango ako bilang sagot kaya inabot niya ang aking kamay at hinawakan ito habang nagdadrive.

“I’m sure you can do it Beb, Ikaw pa ba,” pagpapataas niya ng confident ko, kaya napangiti ako at tumanaw na lang sa bintana para makapagfocus siya sa pagdadrive.

Mga ilang saglit lang ay tumigil na kami sa parking lot ng building, “Mauna na ako baba,” Sambit ko na nagpakunot ng kanyang noo.

“Why?” tanong niya habang tinatanggal ang seatbelt ko. “Gusto ko kasing pumasok mag-isa at harapin ang HR ng mag-isa Beb, gusto kong maranasan yung mga nararamdaman ng mga mag isang nag apply.

Agad naman nawala ang pagkakunot ng noo niya at inayos ang ilang hibla ng buhok sa aking mukha, “Ok I understand and I support you to whatever you like, good luck” he cupped my face and kissed me.

I close my eyes and accept his kisses before we stop and I open the door, smile at him, and wave before I go out and walk my way to the lobby.

“Hi Minami, Sienna I’m here for the interview,” I said when the front desk lady approached me. She smiles and dials someone on her telephone. “Yes, Ma’am she’s here, yes Miss Minami,” I bet she’s talking to the HR department.

Nangibaba niya na ito hinarap niya ako ng may ngiti pa rin sa labi at tinuro ang daan papuntang HR office. “That room over there, Ma’am,” she said and pointed at the glass door. I nodded at her before I walked towards the door she said and knocked at it.

“Come in,” renege kong boses mula sa loob, kaya dahan-dahan ko itong binuksan at ngumiti sa babaeng nasa loob.

“Good morning Ma’am,” pagbati ko sa pag upo ko sa harapan ng table nito. “Papers please” she said, kinuha ko agad ang papers ko at inabot sa kanya.

Kaya mo ito Sienna…

She scanned it for a minute before she looked at me and sigh, “You are not qualified for this job, but don’t worry we will call you if we have another position to offer,” my lips parted through what she said and that didn’t sink into my mind that fast.

Hindi pa ako nagtatagal ng limang minuto dito sa loob hindi na agad ako tanggap. “You can go now Miss Minami,” she said and set aside my paper and focus on her PC.

At dahil gulat at hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala sa sobrang bilis ng pangyayari nakatulala akong tumayo at nagbow sa kanya bago ako lumabas ng opisina niya at wala sa sariling naglakad.

Pakiramdam ko may kung anong bara sa aking lalamunan dahil sa nangyari at hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin maintindihan ang nangyari.

Pero isa lang ang malinaw sa akin, hindi ako qualified…

Palabas na ako ng kumpanya ng tinawag ako ng front desk lady, “Miss Minami panapabalik po kayo sa HR office.” she said and pull me inside, at pabalik sa HR office.

Pagbukas nito may kausap pa sa telepono yong HR, “Yes Sir, I understand, Ok Sir, bye,” at binaba niya na ito, tinignan niya ako ng seryoso bago pinaupo muli sa upuan na inupuan ko kanina.

“You’re hired,” she said.

What?! “P-po?”

“I said you’re hired, you will start on Monday since it’s Friday today,” she said.

Ano? Akala ko ba hindi ako qualified? “Diba po hindi ako qualified?” sambit ko.

“Don’t ask anymore ok, your hired and that’s it,” sambit nito at tumayo at pumasok sa parang restroom dito sa loob.

Naguguluhan pa rin ako, totoo ba ito? Pasok ako?! May trabaho na ako!!!

I look at may papar where my name is printed there, hindi ko mapigilang ngumiti ng maimagine ang propesyon na ilalagay sa unahan ng aking pangalan.

“Head Marketing Manager Ashiena Minami,” I whisper.

Chapter 15

Paglabas ko ng pinto ng HR office nakita kong nakatayo si Gun sa gilid habang nakasandal sa pader, nakakrus ang mga kamay sa dibdib at nakangiti sa akin.

I bit my lower lip and run to him, pagyakap ko sa kanya at binuhat niya ako at dinala sa isang gilid kung saan walang mga empleyado. “Pasok ako Beb!!!” masayang sambit ko at niyakap siya ng sobrang higpit.

“I know,” he said kaya tinignan ko siya, “Alam mo agad?” nagtataka kong tanong, ang bilis naman.

“No, I mean I know you can do it” he said and urge a kiss, binaba niya ako pero hindi tinigilan ang aking labi.

After a second “Ehem” mabilis ko siyang tinulak ng may umubo sa likuran namin. “This is a working place not a motel Tyson,” it’s Kace, nakasuot ng salamin at may mga papeles na dala, inayos ko ang aking sarili at nahihiyang nginitian siya.

“I know Lennon, but can you mind your own business,” Gun said to grab my hand, “Panggulo,” he said nang lagpasan namin si Kace. “I heard that jerk,” Kace said.

Tumawa na lang kami ni Gun at naglakad papunta sa elevator, “I’ll show you my office Beb,” he said at pinindot ang 12th floor. Pagbukas ng elevator wala masyadong tao dito iilan lang at busy pa sa kanya-kanya nilang lamesa.

Pumasok kami ni Gun sa kulay Navy blue na modern door at pagbukas nito, Navy blue, black and white ang theme ng opisinang ito.

“Sayo ito?” tanong ko at umikot ang tingin sa buong paligid, sobrang minimal at linis ng opisinang ito, I doubt na siya ang naglilinis nito, that won’t happen.

“Yup pero dahil medyo maraming trabaho sa labas, madalas akong nasa labas at sa mga branches or sites hindi ako madalas mag stay dito but I’m giving you this” he gave me a spare key.

“Starting on Monday, you can go here and stay whenever you like, also look I have this” hinila niya ako sa gilid kung saan may bookshelf. “We have a mini-refrigerator here where I put your velvet cookies and cinnamon rolls and bubble gum ice cream that you like. Sobrang daming stock ng mga paborito kong pagkain at snacks.

“And here” may binuksan siyang drawer na may lamang—, “Your sanitary pads stocks and my extra hoodie in case your cold of any other situation that you might need it, hinanda ko na lahat, also the hot compress you always use on your dysmenorrhea, I have it there on the other drawer,” hindi makapaniwala ko siyang tinignan, I mean sanay naman akong binibilhan at pinagdadalhan niya ako ng pads pero para magkaroon siya ng stock sa opisina niya, that’s different and heart melting.

“Hindi ka ba mahihiya Beb pag nakita ito ng ibang tao, Lalaki ka pero ang stock mo dito sa opisina mo ay sanitary pads” sambit ko at tumawa.

“Why would I be shy about it? Ang importante lang naman sa akin is that this stock would make you feel better if ever you’re on your red days during working hours, kahit wala ako dito at nasa sites at ibang meetings at least nandito mga hinanda ko para sayo,” Oh how God is so nice to me, giving me this man of my life.

I lean closer and give him a peck on the lips, “Thank you so much, I love you,” I said and smiled.

“Also, I will give my graduation gift now, since nakapasok ka na dito sa Delavine’s” He said and got something in his pocket.

He gave me a key for what??

“Ano ito?” tanong ko, “Beb naman susi yan hindi mo ala—,”

“I know, what I mean is for what? Another extra spare key for this office?” tanong ko at tinignan kung magkapareho ang dalawa pero hindi.

“That’s the key to our condo” so this is a key to our condo—–What?!

“Condo!!?!?” sambit ko at ngumiti lang siya sakin.

“Our condo? Susi ng condo natin?” hindi makapaniwala kong sambit. Anong ibig sabihin nito.

Inabot ni Gun ang dalawa kong kamay at seryoso akong tinignan, “I know naguguluhan ka, but I already think about this for almost 3 years and pinagipunan ko ito Beb so no worries. Since I started working here and know that you will work here someday, naisip ko na why not investing my money to a condo that we could stay in when you started working here na, I mean aminin natin medyo malayo ang bahay niyo papunta dito sa kumpanya and I know it’s hassle lalo na pagnaabutan tayo ng traffic, kaya pinagipunan ko na ito at ngayon tatanungin kita…” I gulp after what he said and I know where is this conversation gonna end.

“Will you live with me on the same roof?” he asks and smiles, tumawa ako at, “It’s like you’re asking me to marry you” I tease him.

“Pagiipunan ko pa lang yon Beb,” sagot niya at sabay kaming tumawa. “So, what’s your answer?” he asked.

“Oo, ok lang sa akin, pero tinanong mo na ba sila Mama?” mabilis siyang tumango at pinakita sa akin ang phone niya.

Tinext niya si Mama kagabi!!!

From Mamatita,

Ok na Ok lang sa akin anak, matatanda na kayo. At tama na rin na magkasama kayo ni Sienna dahil mas lalo akong magiging busy dito sa business kaya hindi ko rin siya maasikaso sa bahay.

Pumayag is Mama, “How about my brother?” I said.

Mabilis inangat ni Gun ang sleeve ng dresser shirt niya at pinakita sa akin ang isang malaking pasa sa kanyang braso.“Saan galing ito!!!” gulat kong sambit at dahan-dahang hinawakan ang kanyang braso.

“Your brother punched me when I tell him na ibabahay na kita pero sa huli pumayag din siya kapalit ng investment ko sa Bar niya,” so bar investment lang pala ang kapalit para pumayag ang kuya ko.

“I guess, wala na akong dahilan para tumanggi dahil mismong pamilya ko na ang pumayag,” nakangiti kong sambit.

“At kahit ayaw mong pumayag ibabahay pa rin kita noh,” he said and hugged me.

“Kailan tayo maglilipat?” tanong ko habang patuloy ang pagyakap niya sa akin.

“Bukas.”

Chapter 16

“Mag Ingat kayo ah, Sienna anak yung unan mo baka makalimutan mo,” Sambit ni Mama habang binababa namin mula sa aking kwarto ang iba kong gamit.

“Opo ma nasa bag na diba Beb,” sabi ko at agad naman tumango si Gun bilang sagot, he was already putting my things inside his sedan. Hindi ko pa nakikita yong condo pero ito na ako naglilipat na.

Ok na din na makapag lipat ngayon para may pahinga pa kami ni Gun bukas at may pasok pa kami sa Monday.

“Beb tapos na,” napalingon ako kay Gun ng sabihin niya iyon at isara ang trunk ng sasakyan.“Ma sure ka na bang kaya mo dito mag-isa? Wag kang mag-alala uuwi ako every friday para nandito ako ng weekends” sambit ko habang inaayos ang niluto niyang menudo.

“Wag mo nga akong alalahanin anak, ok lang ako at isa pa lagi akong nasa shop kaya hindi ko rin mapapansing wala ka dito sa bahay.. Oh ayan maganda yung magdala ng pagkain sa unang bese mong lumipat sa isang bahay para pagpapasalamat at tuloy-tuloy ang pagpasok ng biyaya.” Mama said and put all the menudo on my tupperware.

“Wow Tita sobrang sarap naman po n’yan,” sambit ni Gun ng lumapit ito sa tabi ko at hinawakan ang aking bewang, “Oo dalhin mo nyo yan doon sa condo niyo, oh siya kayo na bahala maglock dito nasa akin na ang isang susi, Sienna anak text mo ako lagi ah,” nagmamadaling sambit ni Mama habang hinuhubad ang apron na suot at inabot ang bag niya.

“Ok Ma, Bye,” I said and watched her run through the door and leave.

“Ano tara na?” Gun said and smile at me, Excited na akong makita yung condo kaya mabilis akong tumango at kinuha ang padlock ng bahay.

After making sure that I lock the house, sumakay na kami sa sasakyan at nagdrive papuntang condo. I don’t even know what it looks like at kung saan ito, ang tanging alam ko lang ay nasa akin ang susi nito.

I look at this key in my hand and smile, “Excited?” tanong ni Gun habang nagdadrive. “Oo naman pinahirapan mo ito eh,” sagot ko at tumingin sa daan.

Nadaanan pa namin ang building ng Delavine’s Scent kaya naniniwala ako na malapit nga lang ang condo na binili ni Gun.

“Delavine’s Condominium?” hindi makapaniwala kong sambit ng tumigil kami sa isang maganda at malaking condominium. Kila Chantel din ito!!!

“Yup this will be your new living environment Beb,” he said and leaned closer to remove my seatbelt. Bumababa kami na nanatili akong nakatingala at tinitignan ito, sobrang ganda…

“Ang ganda,” I whisper, “Wait until you see our unit,” Gun said and bring out my bags out of the trunk at paero naming dinala ang apat kong maleta papasok sa building.

“10th floor,” I utter ng makita kong iyon ang pinindot niya pagpasok namin ng elevator, “Yup,” he said and smile at me, pull me closer to him.

Hindi ko maiwasang pakiramdaman ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko dahil sa excitement dito sa condo na ito, I feel so happy about this. At tyaka sino ba namang hindi matutuwa kung may sarili na kayong place ng Boyfriend mo.

“Ok,” Gun said when the elevator stops at the 10th floor and the door opens, walang tao sa paligid at tahimik dito, pero buhay na buhay ang itsura ng hallway. The condominium is a touch of gray, white and black, na sobrang maaliwalas tingnan kaya hindi ko talaga maiwasang mamangha.

Hinawakan ni Gun ang aking kamay habang dala-dala nami ang mga gamit at naglakad papalapit sa pangatlong pinto malapit sa elevator. “Ito ang condo natin Beb,” he said and open it for me.

My lips parted and my heart skipped a beat as the door opened. All I can say right now is that this place was a dream.

“Nagustuhan mo ba?” nakangiting tanong ni Gun sa akin habang binibitawan ang mga gamit sa gilid, hinila niya ako papasok at sinara ang pinto habang nanatili akong nakatulala.

“Do you like it?” he said and stood in front of me to get my attention, I bit my lips before I smiled and jumped into him for a hug. “Gustong gusto!!!” I said and hugged him tight, tumawa siya at binuhat ako pa papunta sa gitna ng sala kung saan may glass walls na kitang kita ang magandang view sa labas.

He stood in front of the glass wall and held my legs so I wouldn’t fall, I rested the side of my head on his and looked at the beautiful sky. “Ito na talaga ang totoong buhay,” I said, pertaining to this world outside the school, this wide scary world that we need to face starting today.

“Yup, and I know it’s gonna be hard and rough but I promise to stay by your side and we’ll help each other until we reach our dreams,” he said and kiss my chin, I look at him and smile.

“Promise,” I ask, he chuckled and nodded. “Ok maglinis na tayo para makapagpahinga din tayo ng maaga,” bumababa na ako mula sa kanyang pagkakabuhat at nagsimulang buksan ang mga maleta ko.

Nagsimula na kaming mag-ayos at maglinis ni Gun ng buong condo, inayos ko ang aking mga gamit sa walk in closet dito sa loob ng kwarto at nilabas din ang mga gamit para sa kusina.

“Beb choose,” napalingon ako ng tawagin ako ni Gun at pinakita sa akin ang kulay brown and grey na kurtina na gagamitin para sa glass wall.

“Grey po,” sagot ko at isinalin ang Menudo sa mangkok, “Ok ma’am,” He said and umakyat na sa hagdanan para ikabit ang kurtina.

Pagkatapos kong isalin ang ulam at kanin sa mga plato at mangkok, hinanda ko na ito sa lamesa at pinanuod si Gun tapusin ang pagkakabit ng kurtina.

Nang matapos na siya ay tinawag ko na rin siya agad, “Kain na muna tayo Beb mamaya na ulit yan,” I said and put rice on his plate. Mabilis siyang naghugas na kamay at inayos ang buhok bago umupo sa tabi ko at sabay kaming nagdasal bago kumain.

“After this yong sa CR na lang ang aayusin ko diba?” tanong niya, “Yes,” sagot ko at nilagyan ng menudo ang plato niya kahit meron pa siya. “After that punta tayo ng mall para maggrosery at bumili ng ibang gamit” pahabol ko.

Tumango-tango siya habang puno ng kanin ang kanyang bibig, I smile at him and kumain na rin, mabilis lang kaming kumain dahil kailangan pa naming maglinis at mag ayos ng gamit.

“Done,” Paupo pa lang ako sa sala ng lumabas si Gun mula sa CR dala ang mga tools na kanyang ginamit sa loob, tumayo ako at tinignan ang CR, nakabit an ang curtain dito at ang mga lalagyanan ng mga skin care ko at mga stock ng shampoo, conditioner at soaps.

“Tara na,” sabi ko paglabas ko ng CR, tumango siya at pumunta sa kwarto para magpalit ng t-shirt. Paglabas niya nilapitan niya ako at hinalikan bago hinila palabas ng condo at bumababa sa parking.

Nagpunta kami sa Mall at agad dumiretso sa Our home para mamili ng gamit, “Beb ito?” he said and pointed at this cute side table who also looked like a mini bookshelf. “Maganda nga yan, let’s buy it,” I said and he agreed.

Pumunta kami sa counter para magbayad, “Debit card,” I said and handed her my debit card, galing talaga ang debit card na ito kay Papa, and Gun insisted to pay for it pero ang sabi ko sa side ko ilalagay ang side table na iyon kaya ako ang magbabayad.

“Pakidagdag na din Miss,” nagulat ako nang maglagay si Gun ng isang laptop case sa counter at tiningnan ako ng may malokong ngiti,“Libre mo, wow thank you Beb” wala pa nga akong sinasabi eh.

Tumawa lang siya at nag-ikot ulit, “Ma’am ilan taon na po kayo,” tanong nang cashier sa akin, I smile at her and, “22 years old why?”

She smile, “Ang ganda niyo po tyaka mukhang masaya po kayo ng asawa nyo, bagong kasal lang po ba kayo?” nanlaki ang mata ko sa sinabi niya at natawa.

“He’s my boyfriend hindi pa kami kasal” nakangiting sagot ko, “Ay sorry ma’am akala ko po kasal na kayo,” snagpapanic niyang sambit at napayuko sa hiya.

“No, it’s ok,” sambit ko, at tinignan si Gun nagbabasa ng libro sa gilid. Yeah, I would be happy if ever kinasal na kami dahil being with him is the perfect definition of happiness.

“Thank you,” I said when she handed me the receipt, kinuha na ni Gun ang box at dinala sa sasakyan habang hinintay ko siya sa tapat ng watsons.

“Tara,” he said pagbalik niya at mas nauna pang pumasok sa akin sa loob ng watsons, “Wait for me” I said so he stop and hold my hand, pumasok kami sa loob at nagpunta sa facial care section. “How about this Beb, it says it will moisturize your face,” he said and handed me the product.

Binasa at tinignan namin itong dalawa, “Ay ang cute naman sanaol,” napatingin kami sa dalawang babaeng nagsalita sa tabi namin, they are looking at us.

At kahit nakatingin na kami sa kanila, ay patuloy pa rin nila kaming pinaguusapan.

“Ngayon lang ako nakakita ng boyfriend na ina assist iyong girlfriend sa loob ng watson,” bulong nong isa sa kanyang kasama pero rinig na rinig naman namin ni Gun.

Gun smile at me and we both get the moisturizer and leave, bumili na din kami ng iba pang maaaring magamit sa condo.

“Beb bili na din tayo ng ganito,” he said and pointed at the sanitary pads section, “kumuha na lang tayo ng stock sa office mo sayang kung bibili pa tayo,” sa sobrang daming pads na tinabi niya sa office niya mas magandang kumuha na lang kami don kesa sa bibili nanaman.

“No, stock yon don if ever na abutan ka sa work,” he said at hinila ako para mamili, “Ah miss do you have this kind of pads?” nagulat ako ng nilapitan niya yung staff at pinakita ang phone niya, nilapitan ko siya at tiningnan ang pinakita niyang picture sa staff.

Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman ko kung matutuwa ba ako sa ginagawa niya o mahihiya dahil sa kanya. “Yes, sir meron po kami nyan,” nakangiting sambit ng babae at naglakad para kunin ang pads.

“You don’t have to do that, Beb,” I said. “Why not?” inosenteng tanong niya, ever since I met him hindi siya nahiya na bumili ng pads para sa akin.

“Sir ito po,” bumalik ang staff na babae na may dalang tatlong balot ng pads na hinahanap namin. “Great thank you,” Gun said at agad kinuha ito sa kanya.

“Give me that ako na ang magbabayad just wait for me here,” he said and went to the counter. Naiwan ako dito kasama ang staff na babae.

“Ma’am ang swerte nyo po sa Boyfriend nyo madalang lang po akong mag assist ng lalaki dito sa section na ito, meron man nakasimangot at nahihiya pero yung boyfriend niyo po parang wala lang sa kanya at concern pa siya sa gagamitin nyo,” nakangiting sambit nito, she’s right I’m lucky to have him.

I smile at her and look at my man, yeah, I’m so damn blessed because of him.

Nang Matapos na siyang magbayad nilapitan niya na ako at hinawakan ang aking kamay, sabay kaming naglakad papuntang parking at dumiretso pauwi ng condo.

Dahil traffic mga 7:30 pm na kami nakarating sa condo at pagod na pagod naming binitawan ang pinamili sa gilid bago umupo sa sofa at nagpahinga.

“Iinit ko na lang yung tira nating menudo para makakain na tayo,” Sambit ko, “Ok, I’ll just fix this side table inside the room and take a shower after,” he said at binuhat ang box ng side table papasok ng kwarto at ako naman inayos na ang mag grocery namin at init ang menudo.

After he finish fixing the table and take a shower, naisipan naming kumain ng dinner sa sala’s habang kami ay manonood ng movie.

“This is nice,” he said after putting his empty plate on the table and leaning on the couch.

“Yeah, its ni–ack,” nasamid ako ng biglang bed scene ang lumitaw sa movie, nakita ko ding napaiwas si Gun sa TV dahil doon.

And I just realize that this is our first night sleeping together here…

Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko at hindi maipaliwanag na atmosphere ang nangibabaw, kasabay non ay ang kakaibang tunog na dulot ng nangyayari sa palabas.

I saw how Gun gulped and kept on avoiding the movie…

We are going to sleep in the same bed tonight!

Chapter 17

“Ehem,” I fake a cough and try to sit properly as the bed acne in the movie keeps going. Parang biglang uminit ang paligid at nagsimula akong pagpawisan.

Hindi ko magawang tignan si Gun dahil sa sobrang awkward ng sounds nang gagaling sa TV, this is the first time na naencounter namin ang ganitong klase movie marathon, bakit naman kasi may ganitong scene ang movie na ito akala ko ba wholesome lang ito!

Sobrang awkward talaga!

Anong gagawin ko?

Nawalan na ako ng gana kumain at dahan-dahan ko na itong ni lapag sa lamesa at umupo ng maayos, may space sa aming dalawa ni Gun at hindi ko talaga alam kung anong gagawin ko ngayon.

Bakit ang tagal matapos ng scene na ito!!!

“A-ah a-ano l-liligpit k-ko l-lang ito Beb,” ghad! Why am I shittering so much! Gun nodded and avoid my gaze, kitang kita ko sa kanyang mukha kung gaano siya ka hindi komportable sa sitwasyong ito.

At ganun din naman ako, tumayo ako at kinuha ang mga plato sa aming lamesa at inilagay ito sa kusina, ang tanging hiling ko lang ngayon ay sana pagbalik ko doon ay tapos na ang scene na iyon.

Pero mukhang hindi ako pinagbigyan sa aking hiling….

“Agh! Agh ah!” hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko sa tunog na ito, at sa scene ng palabas na ito, ano ba ito? Movie ba to’ o porn!!! Bakit ang tagal ng ganitong scene!

Umupo ako ulit sa aking pwesto at kinuha na lang ang aking cellphone, Gun stand up and grab the remote control and turn off the TV.

Nakahinga ako ng malalim dahil sa ginawa niya at tinignan ko na siya, he’s also looking at me when I glance at him kaya natigilan ako.

He leaned toward me and put his hands on the headrest of the couch, “B-Beb.” I utter…

He kissed me but it was a different kiss, I think it was a wet kiss, yung tipong malambot pero nakakabitin na halik, pagkatapos ay nagkatitigan muli kami hanggang sa naging mapungay ang kanyang mga mata at bumibigat ang kanyang paghinga.

At gaya niya medyo lumalalim na rin ang aking paghinga sa hindi malamang dahilan. At bakit ang init! Nakapatay ba ang aircon???

“Can we do it?” paos na sambit ni Gun, natigilan ako at parang naninigas ang aking buong katawan sa tanong na iyon.

I looked at those faded green eyes and suddenly I felt hypnotized and slowly nodded at him, when he was about to kiss me again, mabilis ko siyang pinigilan at sinabi, “Can I take a shower first?” naiilang kong sambit.

He nodded and move away, mabilis akong tumayo at pumasok sa kwarto…I grab the towel and ran to the bathroom as fast as I can.

Pagsara ko ng pinto halos matumba ako dahil doon ko na ilabas ang pa ngangatog ang aking tuhod, at tila sobrang nanghina ako dahil doon sa nangyari.

At ngayon kailangan kong harapin ang desisyon pinili ko…

Nanghihina akong tumayo at tumuloy sa shower, ang pag agos ng tubig sa aking katawan ay tila parang yelong sobrang lamig. Hindi ko alam kung kinakabahan ba ako o mamatay na ako sa sobrang bilis ng pagtibok ng aking puso.

I look at myself in the mirror after taking shower, my gaze slowly looking down to my own body. If we are going to do it now, does my body look fine?!

“No.” sagot ko sa aking sarili, mabilis kong kinuha ang kit ko likod ng salamin at kinuha ang pang shave at pumasok ulit sa shower area.

Paghakbang ko sa loob ng shower space ay sa madulas na part ako tumapak at hindi sinasadyang nadulas. “Owww!” I wanted to shout because my hips hurt so bad as it hits the floor.

Hinimas-himas ko ito bago dahan-dahang tumayo at sumandal sa pader, ano ba naman ito!! Nanginig at nangangatog na nga ako sa sobrang kaba, tapos ito pa madudulas pa ako.

Minasahe ko muna ang aking balakang hanggang sa unti-unti nang mawala ang kirot nito at tumayo ng maayos. Tinignan ko ang hawak at nagbuntong hininga.

Parang gusto kong sabunutan ang aking sarili ngayon, dahil sa sobrang kahibangan na ito. I’m literally starting to shave my pubic hair and thigh hair!!! Ghad Sienna is this really you!?

I bite my lower lip as I shave the back part of my legs, I know hindi naman ako mabalbon na tao pero gusto kong maging malinis tignan sa amaaring mangyari mamaya. Ano ba Sienna!!!

I can’t believe I’m doing this right now!!

After doing that thing, I put it back to my kit and clean the hair around the place.

Sinuot ko ang aking underwear at pati na rin ang robe bago hinawakan ng door knob ng pinto, I took a deep breath before I open it and took a step out.

Halos mawalan ako ng hininga dahil saktong binuksan din ni Gun ang pinto ng kwarto at pumasok. He’s wearing his pajamas paired with a white sando that shows his biceps and holding his phone.

I sat on the side edge of the bed and he sat at the other side of the bed. Magkatalikuran kami at sobrang tahimik, walang gustong magsalita, tanging tunog ng aircon lang ang nangingibabaw sa loob ng kwarto.

“Do you think we’re ready for that?” Gun asks, why would he ask me that when he’s the one who asks if we can do it.

“I think so.” I answer and play with my fingers. Nanginginig ang aking mga kamay at tuhod sa puntong ito at parang naninikip na rin ang aking dibdib dahil sa sobrang bilis ng tibok ng aking puso.

I didn’t expect for this kind of situation to happen this night.

Nanatili kaming tahimik ng maramdaman kong tumayo siya mula sa kama at naglakad papunta sa aking harapan.

I looked at him and gulp as those green faded eyes started to control me once again.

“Let’s do it then,” he whispered to my ears and gave me those wet kisses again on my face.

I close my eyes and feel his touch…

Those words give me a hundred shivers inside my body.

“I’ll be gentle.”

Chapter 18

R18

“I’ll be gentle,” he whispered before he slowly pushed to lay down on the bed, he kissed me and started moving, we did a lot of make outs but this one is different and I don’t know what to do and how to react.

But as his lips played mine, I felt it soft and slow and his hands traveled around my arms up to my wrist locking it both above my head using his one hand while the other one rubbed around my waist.

“Hmm,” I groaned when he suddenly bit my lips, “Sorry it’s so sweet,” he whispered between our lips, at first he was the only one who’s pursued the kiss not until I looked at his eyes and fell from it.

I kissed him back and followed what he was doing, his kisses were so calm and gentle and I admit it’s so tempting and I’m getting drunk by it.

His kisses were soft and sweet until they turned rough and aggressive. I want to move my hand and grab on something but his locking it and what he’s doing right now makes me go weaker.

Yong kaba at bilis ng tibok ng puso ko kanina ay mas lalong lumalala pero alam kong this time iba ang dahilan nito.

At walang iba kundi si Gun, siya ang dahilan nito.

I was drowning in the kisses and didn’t know what to do anymore, I hardly closed my eyes and tried to wag my hand so he would let go of it but he was too strong for me.

Gun started to suck my lower lip and push his tongue inside my mouth, exploring and savoring every inch of me. I gasped when he finally let go of my lips and moved down to my jaw.

I yelped when he suddenly used his free hand to wrap on my waist and lift me up, carry me up to the bed, and position us properly in the middle of the bed.

He did not let go of my wrist, instead, he rested it on the headboard and resumed his business on my jaw down to my neck.

Gun was biting and sucking my skin, leaving marks on it. I stifled a moan after I felt some pleasure from his tongue, because of that I arched my neck to give him better access through my neck.

Umakyat ang kanyang kamay mula sa aking bewang papunta sa aking tiyan at dahan-dahang tinanggal ang pagkakatali ng robe.

When he successfully untied it he opened it revealing my underwear, he removed my robe and put it at his side while he stared at my eyes.

After removing my robe, he removes his shirt also which makes him go topless above me. I know he’s been my boyfriend for a long time and in this situation, I should not be shy in front of him but I don’t feel weird to act normal during this situation.

After he threw his shirt somewhere he leaned over and went back to his neck business.

With him being topless above me and I was only wearing my bra and panty I could feel him skin-to-skin, and his warm body is burning mine every time it touches.

“Hmmm,” I moan when he teasingly licks my neck down to the center of my chest.

He finally let go of my hand and moved both of his at my back and unbuckled my bra, “Lovely,” he whispered into my ears when my breast served in front of him.

I badly know that my face turned tomato right now, I was breathing heavily as he moved down to my mound and teasing it with wet kisses.

I grip on the pillow when he starts sucking my right mound, while his hands caress the other one. Gun massage it and do the sucking alternately, which makes my mind blow into ecstasy.

He played with my nipple and used his index finger to rub the tip of it. I also shout when he does the sucking and rubbing at the same time.

While doing that he started to become a multitasking guy when he started dry hopping me while sucking my mound. The way he dry-hop me was sexy and tempting, making me lose my mind and play with him. With that, I also move to make it more pleasurable for both of us.

Dry Hopping gives me a hard time to breath but I love it and I go crazy over it.

In each movement and second comes I become dizzy and forget about thinking straight, instead I move with pleasure and look at those faded green eyes.

He kissed me on my lips once again this time it was impulsive and hungrily. He groaned and whispered a curse but I didn’t understand it.

He moves down and down until he reaches my panty and removes it. Here I am naked in front of him but his eyes were looking at my eyes.

My whole body is served in front of him but he chooses to stare at my eyes as he bends down and kisses my wetness. “Agh!”

He gives me soft kisses down there before his tongue touches my clit and suckles it on before he thrust his tongue inside of me.

It was the feeling of pain and pleasure that mixed together as he continued moving his tongue inside, the way his movements sway with the pain makes me bite my lips harder until I already taste blood on my mouth.

I felt something building up inside me down there, but I whimpered so hard when he inserted his two fingers inside of my sensitive part. “I’m sorry Beb, shhh,” he moved up and level to my face, kissing my forehead and sincerely apologized, but heck this guy he’s apologizing but started moving his fingers in and out.

I was panting and tears started to build up in my eyes but pleasure is stopping to fall. Gun kissed me and covered my lips to stop me from whimpering.

His hands move faster and faster, I grip his back as I moan his name over and over again until I release something from my wetness.

Nanghihina kong binaba ang aking mga hita sa kama at pagod na huminga sa kanyang balikat pero nagulat ako ng bigla siyang gumagalaw at ibaba ng bahagya ang kanyang pajama at grab his thing side that bulge.

He let it out, hard as a rock… how come that thing could be that big?!

“Be gentle Gun,” I said and I knew he could sense, I urge to back out, after seeing that friend of his.

“I don’t know if I could hold into that Beb,” paos niyang sambit na may halong kakaibang pagbabanta. Kaya nakaramdam ako ng matinding kaba dahil doon.

“But you promise,” I said.

“Did I” inosente niyang sam––.

“Ah!” sobrang diin ng pag kakapikit ng aking mata ng maramdaman ang pagpasok nito sa aking maselang parte, sobrang sakit at tila pakiramdam ko ay nahahati ako sa dalawa.

He stops when I shake and cry so hard, “Shhh, I’m sorry Beb please bear with me, the pain will disappear before you know it,” he said and kissed my tears.

I nodded and brace myself for him, he moved gently and I could feel some blood from my sensitive part running down my skin.

When he felt that I’d adjusted to his length he suddenly became aggressive and moved fast, thrust harder, and pushed it whole.

The pain became pleasure and pleasure became love.

“Ah, Gun..” I moaned.

He kisses and teases my mound using his hands while his thing keeps on pushing and thrusting so fast down there.

I started to feel a thing building up again inside of me, he moved faster than I expected. I lose my mind and keep calling his name.

“Agh, Gunner!!”

“Fuck, I’m cumming Beb,” he groaned and thrust deeper and his thing hits the g spot…

One hard thrust…

“Agh!!! Gun” “Fuck, Sienna”

We both moan as we reach our climax…

“I fucking love you Ashiena, I’m gonna die if I lose you,” he whispers as he falls down beside me and covers us both with the comforter.

Sobrang pagod na pagod at naghihina ako, kaya mabilis akong hinila ng antok…

“I love you too Gun,” I whisper before I fall asleep.

Chapter 19

I wake up feeling something in between my thighs, and as soon as I open my eyes. I just want to melt okaya lumubog sa kama.

Because when open my eyes Gun is literally cleaning me down there using the wet wipes beside him, nagpanggap muli akong tulog nang hindi niya mapansing nagising na ako, dahil hindi ko alam kung pano siya haharapin pagkatapos ng ginawa namin kagabi at ngayon sa ginagawa niya.

Bawat pagdampi ng wet wipes sa aking balat ay sobrang kahihiyan ang aking nararamdaman, because it’s broad daylight and I know he can clearly see my sensitive part at this state.

“Oh my!!!” nagulat kong sambit ng maramdaman ang kanyang labi sa isa kong hita, he kissed me there, kasabay non’ ay narinig ko ang pagtawa niya at pinasuot ako ng shorts, no it’s his boxers, he let me wear his boxers.

“I know you’re awake Beb,” he said and crawled up to level up with my face and kissed every part of it. Dahil nahihiya pa rin ako mas pinili kong panindigan ang aking pagpapanggap kahit huli na ako.

“Hahaha come on open those lovely eyes for me now Beb” he whispers and kisses my cheeks, pakiramdam ko nag iinit na ang aking mukha sa sobrang hiya, I push his chest and cover my face using the comforter so he laughs even harder and louder.

“How cute,” I heard him whisper and try to pull out the comforter but I didn’t let him. “Hey don’t be shy, I love what I see Beb come on show me your face,” he said while keeping on trying.

“No,” I said and tried to harden my grip on the comforter to hide my face because I know, it’s red like tomatoes right now.

“Ayaw mo ah,” may nagbabantang sambit nito at naramdaman kong bumaba siya ng kama, kaya pinakiramdaman ko kung saan siya pupunta, aalis na ba siya?

“Ay!!” I almost shouted when he suddenly went inside the comforter from my feet and crawl up above me, dahil doon mabilis kong tinakpan ang aking mukha gamit ang aking kamay.

“Oh come on,” sambit niya at hinawakan ang aking kamay, “Kapag Hindi mo pinakita sa akin yang mukha mo gagawin ulit natin ang ginawa natin kagabi Sienna,” sambit niya na naging dahilan ng mabilis kong pag alis ng aking kamay sa aking mukha.

Hindi ko magawang buksan ang aking mga mata kaya narinig kong tumawa siya ulit, “Open your eyes Beb,” he sweetly said and kiss my forehead.

“Ayaw ko” sagot ko, “Sige kung ayaw mo gawin na lang pala natin ulit yung kagab––,” hindi ko na siya hinayaang tapusin ang kanyang sasabihin at agad binuksan ang aking mga mata, hinila ang kanyang mukha at hinalikan ang kanyang labi.

After kissing him he move away and smile at me, “I love you,” he said, at tinignan ako na parang ako lang ang babae sa mundo niya.

That stare makes me lose the embarrassment and feel genuine love, I urge a smile and caress his cheeks. “Good morning,” natatawa kong sambit, he chuckled and leaned on me for a hug.

“What do you wanna do today?” he asks, “I just want us to stay like this the whole day,” I whisper and play with his hair.

“Oh, we can’t stay like this the whole day Beb, because we might end up doing that again. I can’t promise to stay loyal when your body is seducing me,” he said and I know it’s a half-joke and half-truth, so I push him and remove the comforter.

“I change my mind, I wanna go visit Mama,” I said when I sat on the bed, but my body aches also my sensitive part. Gun noticed that and he quickly stood up and walked in front of me.

“Still sore,” he said and carried me through the bathroom, “Want me to help you take a shower,” kunwaring inosenteng tanong niya but I can clearly see him playing through his eyes.

“No thank kaya ko po” sambit ko, “Are you sure Beb?” he ask at smirk, tumango ao at tinulak siya palayo, “Op kaya ko kaya wag kanang umasa dyan at lumabas na,” I said and we both laugh before he nodded and walk through the door.

“Ok Ma’am,” he said before he closed the door.

I smile and endure the pain while taking a shower, and after that, I just wear a simple white knee-length lace tape tunic dress and pair it with white bow sandals. I also do a ponytail on my hair to make it look neat.

Lumabas ako ng kwarto at naabutan si Gun na nagluluto sa kusina, His cooking pancakes and his wearing his pajamas and white shirt with the apron.

As I watch him from back I realize that what we did last night is normal, and I shouldn’t be shy around him because he is my lover and as time passes by lovemaking will be part of our life.

And I don’t regret what we did last night, I love it because it’s him.

Naglakad ako papalapit sa kanya at niyakap siya mula sa likuran, I took a sniff on his shirt and rested my head on his back. “I love mornings with you,” I whisper.

He chuckled and continued cooking, “I love you more than the mornings, Beb,” he said.

I smile and just stay like that until he finished cooking and we started eating breakfast. It was the first morning in my life that I felt so calm and at peace, and it was because of him.

After eating breakfast, he took a shower and we went straight to Mama’s cafe. “Mama” I called her attention as soon as we entered the cafe, she’s busy at the counter but left it to her staff when she saw us coming.

“Anak, Gun halika upo kayo,” she said let us seat and serve us coffee. “Kamusta ang uang gabi niyo sa condo,” masiglang tanong ni Mama na kaya sinamid ako at agad akong humigop ng kape, buti na lang Iced coffee itong binigay sa akin.

“Oh ok ka lang Sienna anak?” She tapped my shoulder and looked so worried. “Ok lang Ma, hahahaha,” she will kill me if I tell her nalumandi agad ako sa unang gabi na umalis ako sa puder niya.

“It was great Tita, mas convenience po sa amin ang patira sa condo dahil sobrang lapit niya lang sa company and they have the same owner, Delavine’s own the condominium that we are staying at, by the way, Tita this is the first time I see your cafe and all I can say is beautiful,” Gun try to avoid the question and open other topics.

Tumawa si Mama at hinarap si Gun, “Nako haha, oo ako ang nagdesign ng buong interior ng cafe kaya ganun haha,” tila kinikilig na sambit ni Mama. Gun glanced at me and wink before he continued talking to my mother.

The whole time we stayed here, I just listened to what they were talking about and drank my Iced coffee, and when we decided to leave Mama gave us a pack of cookies for us to bring at home.

“Good luck sa first day mo bukas anak,” Mama kisses my forehead before we open the car. “Ingat ka dito Ma ok, text me” sambit ko at niyakap siya bago sumakay sa sasakyan at tumuloy na pauwi.

Before we went home, Gun and I decided to stop by the church and attend the mass. “What did you pray for Beb?” I ask when we are walking out of the church. He looked at me and smiled, “I pray that you will have good health as always and also I pray that I could stick with you till lifetime,” he sincerely said and held my hand tighter.

“Me, I prayed a good start tomorrow and let him guide us to reach our dream together,” I said, hinila niya ako papalapit sa kanya at inakbayan ako papuntang parking.

Naka uwi kami ng medyo late na dahil sa traffic and we just eat bread and cookies for dinner and did that again.

“You know that it’s my first day tomorrow yet you still seduce me for this” I hazed at him while we are both catching our breath and staring at the ceiling.

He laughed, “Sorry” I know he didn’t mean it so I rolled my eyes at him, “Hahaha sorry na Beb, You’re just too irresistible to handle,” pangangatwiran niya.

“Wag ka nang tatabi sa akin bukas” I said that make him laugh even harder and hugged me. “It’s like telling me to die, Beb,” he said and kissed my head.

I feel so tired and weak to pull a fight when it already happened. I just glared at him and hugged him back, rested my head on his chest, and closed my eyes.

“Goodnight Beb,” “Goodnight,”

Kinabukasan ay maaga akong gumising para magluto ng almusal namin ni Gun at naghanda, I went to the bathroom na tulog pa si Gun and went outside at tulog pa rin kaya nagbihis na ako para magising siya.

I wear simple grey ankle pants top it up with a white sleeveless peplum top, sinuot ko din ang partner na coat ng grey ankle pants ko and black heels, and for the accessories, I just wear simple silver round earrings and the ring that Gun gives me.

I put on a light make-up and prepared my shoulder lady bag and made sure I put all my things inside, the phone, charger, wallet,  ID’s and other important stuff. Pagkatapos ay lumabas ako ng walk in closet at dumiretso sa kama para gisingin si Gun.

“Hey, handsome wake up,” I whisper on his ears and tap his shoulders, dahil naka dapa itong matulog.

He rolled to face me with his eyes closed and pouted, I chuckled and pinched his pouting lips. “Hmmm,” he groaned and opened his eyes.

Halatang inaantok pa siya pero kailangan na niyang gumising para makapag breakfast na kami at makapasok ng maaga sa trabaho.

“Morning,” he whispers with his hot morning voice, I kiss him and smile, “Good morning sleepy head wake up and prepare now.”

“I’m not a sleepy head Bed, because the other head of mine is wake and har—,” pinalo ko ang mukha niya ng unan bago niya pa tapusin ang kanyang sasabihin, “Maligo ka dami pang sinasabi,” I said and walk through the door, he chuckled, “Yes Ma’am.”

I prepare our breakfast on the table and wait for him by checking my phone and texting Chantel. Madalang na kasi siyang magreply sa akin ngayon dahil sabi niya busy siya sa france, hope she’s doing fine and she’s enjoying her stay there.

“Wow,” Gun said when he showed up beside me in his grey pants and white dresser shirt. “Let’s eat,” I said and put a rise on his plate and bacon.

We are both checking our phones while eating but we are talking at the same time. After eating breakfast I clean the dishes and we both drive our way to the company after.

“Good Luck Beb, see you later,” he said when he stop his sedan in front of the entrance of the company, hindi kasi siya dito tutuloy may morning meeting siya kaya hinatid niya lang ako dito.

“Yup, you too,” I said and kissed him before I opened the car and stepped outside. “Sir, Good Morning po” Pagbati ng guard ng makita si Gun sa loob ng sasakyan, Gun smile at him and say, “ Kuya girlfriend ko yan, she’s the new marketing head“ Proud niyang sambit kaya tinignan ako ng Guard at binati.

“Good morning po Ma’am,” he said, I smiled, “Sienna na lang po,” I said.

“I have to go Beb, text you later bye I love you” I nodded and watched him leave before I entered the lobby and walked to the 4th floor where my office is located.

Nakita ko yong HR na naginterview sa akin kaya ngumiti ako at binati ito, “Good Morning Ma’am” I said but she just look at me and ignored me after.

I don’t know if I see it right, did she roll her eyes at me or not? No, Maybe I was just nervous and hallucinating things.

Pagpunta ko sa office ko walang tao at sobrang tahimik dito kaya nanibago ako, umupo ako sa table ko at huminga ng malalim.

I was about to lean on the chair when the door suddenly opened so hard and a Beautiful middle-aged lady showed up, I stood up and smiled at her. “Hello Ma’am I’m Ashiena Minami the new Marketing hea––”

“I don’t care about your name, I want this marketing paper to be processed right ASAP!!!” she shouted,kaya nagulat ako at mabilis na naglakad para kunin ang papers na sinasabi niya. “Opss” when I was about to get the paper and it slipped on her hands and fell on the floor.

Natigilan ako at tinignan ito, “Ano pang hinihintay mo, pulutin mo!!!” she shouted at my face kaya mabilis akong lumuhod para pulutin ito isa-isa.

“I’m Feliciana and I’m have invested for the Delavine’s middle age perfumes! I need those papers now, so move!!!” she said and kicked the last paper that I’m gonna pick. Tinamaan ng heels nito ang aking kamay pero hindi ko na lang ito pinansin at mabilis na tumayo.

“I’ll be processing this papers now Ma’am if you’ll excuse––,”

“Just go! Ang dami pang sinasabi!!!” she shouted kaya nataranta na akong tumakbo palabas at naglakad kung saan kahit hindi ko naman alam kung saan ang advertising department dito.

I was walking and running because of Mrs. Feliciana until I dump into someone.

“Ay putik!!!” The person I bumped into shouted and we both fell to the floor.

“I’m so sorry––,” I stopped when I looked at her and quickly recognized her…

“Milana?!”

Chapter 20

“Milana?!” I utter when I recognize her, she looks at me with wide eyes and quickly stands up, she offers her hand and helps me pick up the papers around the floor.

“Sorry gurl hindi kita ma remind eh?” Nahihiyang sambit niya habang inaabot sa akin ang mga papeles na pinulot niya, I chuckled because of how she said that she don’t remember me, Remind tho haha.

“Sienna, Gunner’s Girlfriend” I said and smiled at her, “Wait Gunner? You mean… ay oo naalala ko na nong open gates first year college right!!! Sienna ikaw nga!!! Dito ka na nagtatrabaho?” Hindi makapaniwala niyang tanong.

Tumango ako bilang sagot, “This is my first day,” I said. “Talaga anong position mo?” tanong niya.

“Head Marketing Manager” sagot ko na ikinalaki ng mata niya, “Ahhh ikaw yung napabalitang nakapasok dahil––,” tumigil siya at tinakpan ang bibig bago tumawa, “Nababalitang maganda at bagong head marketing manager, ikaw pala iyon ah hehe sige mauna na ako by the way highway ako sana Media Planner team ako, head in design kita nalang tayo pag nagkita hahahah byieeeeee,” she said and run away, pinanuod ko siyang umalis hanggang sa lumiko na siya at nawala na sa paningin ko.

I can’t believe na magkikita pa kami dito, and she’s also working here. Ay nakalimutan kong tungin siya kung saan ang advertising department.

“Hi excuse me,” I try to ask the girl who was passing through but she just look at me, “I just want to ask if you know where is the advertising department,” hindi niya ako sinagot at nagpatuloy sa paglalakad na parang wala lang.

Naiwan ako nakatulala dito, bakit ganon?

Naglakad na ako ulit para maghanap ng matatanungan pero gaya ng kanina tinitignan lang nila ako at hindi sinasagot. At parang galit sila sa akin kung tingnan nila ako, mula ulo hanggang Paa.

Buti na lang nakita ko ang isang babaeng nakasuot ng polo shirt na may tatak na advertising team kaya sinundan ko ito at nakarating ako sa advertising department.

As soon as I opened the door they all looked at me like I was from a different world, “Hi,” I greeted them, my hands were trembling so bad because I have this feeling that they will do the same thing just like what others outside do.

“Hi Miss Minami right, nice to meet you kami po ang advertisement team, call me Sasha, this is Miki and Lora wala yung ibang staff nasa shoot ngayon kay kaming tatlo lang nandito. We already heard that this is your first day so we are expecting you to come here talaga, so ano ito?” Sasha said and checked the paper in my hands.

Nakahinga ako ng maluwag ng makaramdam ng ibang atmosphere dito dahil pakiramdam ko sa labas lahat sila ay galit sa akin, buti na lang hindi ganon dito sa loob.

“Oh my na encounter mo na agad si Mrs. Feliciana?!” napatingin ako sa kanya ng gulat niya akong tinignan pagkatapos basahin ang papel na dala ko.

Lumapit sa akin yong Miki at kinuha nag papers, “Iprocess ko na” she said and smiled at me before she walk to her table and start doing her job.

“Nako mag ingat ka kay Mrs. Feliciana, Miss Minami hindi siya madaling kausap” she said.

Tumawa ako ng konti at sinabi, “Hindi naman siguro,” I said and walk to Miki to help her process the papers, about as new Issued stock ang nakapaloob sa papeles kaya hindi siya ganon kadaling iprocess pero tinulungan nila akong tatlo matapos ito agad.

“Thank you so much, I need to go see you later,” I said before I leave the room, tumakbo ako pabalik sa office ko at naabutang nakaupo doon si Mrs. Feliciana.

“Ma’am tapos ko na po ang papers niyo,” I said and walk toward her place and handed her the papers, “Bakit ang tagal mong tapusin yan!!” she hazed and forcefully grabbed the paper from me and read it.

“Ano ito!!! Mali ng issued year ang products!!!” she shouted and show it to me, tama siya may errors sa year ng release ng issued perfumes, siguro kakamadali ay mali ang napindot ni Miki.

“I’m sorry Ma’am aayusin ko na lang po,” I said and tried to ask for the papers from her but I was stiff when she threw them into my face and stood up.

“No! I want you to revise it all over again!!! Stupid, kabago bago tatanga-tanga,” she said and walk out of the office. Tila para akong nanigas sa aking kinatatayuan dahil sa nangyari, I don’t know what to feel.

I sit and pick up all the papers on the floor and go to my table and do as she said, I receive it and check every single detail that I need to change, I also add things that I think could help the branding of the perfumes.

I was busy when I received a text message from Gun.

From Beb,

Beb I’m still in a business meeting with your brother right now, I won’t be there for lunch sorry. But make sure to seat lunch ok call me later.

To Beb,

Ok, Beb.

After replying I quickly put my phone at the side and resume what I’m doing. When the clock hits 12 pm tumigil muna ako at kinuha ang phone ko sa bag pati na rin ang wallet ko para bumili ng pagkain sa cafe sa baba.

As I step inside the cafe puno ng mga empleyado ang mga tables at sobrang crowded so I decided to take out some food and go back to my office para doon na lang kumain.

I walk to the counter where konti lang ang nakapila then suddenly one of the employees talks to me and says, “Hey Miss, disable ka ba?” she ask, napakunot ang noo ko dahil sa tanong niya pero mas pinili kong ngitian siya at sagutin ng malumanay.

“What do you mean po?” I ask nicely but she rolled her eyes and say, “Pang Disable kasi yung line na yan, pumila ka sa likod hindi yung gumagamit ka ng kapit para makuha ang gusto mo,” she said and look back on her line.

I don’t know what she said, and what she’s meaning to say parang may be something behind her words but I can’t figure it out. “I’m so sorry,” I said tama siya pang disable nga nag line na pinilahan ko, I’m so careless on that.

Hindi niya na ako pinansin nung nag sorry ako kaya naglakad na ako papunta sa dulo ng linya at tahimik na naghintay. While waiting I saw Milana enter the cafe and when I was about to call her, her team suddenly appeared beside her. They are all talking to her and laughing with her.

So I choose to hide my face na lang para hindi niya ako makita. Good Thing mabilis ang paggalaw ng line kaya mabilis akong nag order ng frappe at isang cinnamon rolls. Umakyat agad ako sa office at nagpatuloy sa trabaho while eating.

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“How’s work?” Gun ask as I enter his car, sinundo niya ako dahil hindi naman siya nag stay sa office the whole day.

“How’s your first day Beb? Is it fun?” masiglang tanong niya sa akin at sinimulang paandarin ang sasakyan.

Yeah, it was fun to get hit papers on the face and called stupid for simple errors, I guess that was fun.

“Ok naman,” I gently said and held his hand the whole ride, I just wanted to charge myself and rest on his side.

I want to lean on him and forget how scary it was in the real world of the business industry…

I wasn’t expecting that my first day is going to be like this but I guess it’s the reality of work.

I need to be tough and patient with all my might..and I’m sure siguro ngayon lang ganon si Mrs. Feliciana but after a week we will be in a good state din.

5 months passed by

“Ano ba namang trabaho ito!!! Lagi na lang palpak!!!” halos mabasag ang eardrums ko dahil sa sigaw ni Mrs. Feliciana dito sa loob ng office ko.

“But Ma’am that’s what you requested yesterday ang baguhin ang color ng branding para mas maganda sa paningin ng consumers na’tin,” I calmly said and tried to calm her down too.

“Hindi ko sinabi iyon!!” she said, but she said it yesterday kaya nga pinush ko ang ganitong color ng branding dahil sabi niya kahit nahihirapan ang advertising team.

“Ma’am you said that you like this color—–,”

“Hindi nga sabi eh!!” she shouted and throw the papers out the table, “Hanggang ngayon hindi ka pa rin natututo!! palitan mo yan!!!” she shouted, and leave the office, I saw a lot of employee were standing outside my office, the usual pinagpipyestahan nanaman nila ang nangyayari sa akin.

I sigh as the door closes, and I rested my head on the table, halos wala akong tulog kagabi para lang dito.

It’s been months pero ganito pa rin ang pakikitungo sa akin ni Mrs. Feliciana…

I feel so tired and I just want to rest, tumayo ako at isa-isang pinulot ang papers sa sahig. Parang nasanay na akong magpulot ng papel sa sahig dhail kay Mrs. Feliciana.

Pagkatapos ilapag iyon sa table kinuha ko ang phone at wallet ko sa bag at lumabas ng office ko, sumakay ako ng elevator paakyat at dumiretso sa office ni Gun.

I open the door and see him working on his Laptop, “Hey,” he said when he sees me enter. I smile at him and walk toward him, sit on his lap and hug him so tight.

“What’s wrong Beb?” he ask pero siniksik ko lang ang aking mukha sa kanyang leeg at nagpahinga doon. “Did the papers go wrong again?” he asks, I just sigh as an answer and he already knows what the answer is.

“Ayaw mo ba talagang kausapin ko si Gun about sa Tita niya? Think Mrs. Feliciana is taking you seriously,” nag-aalalang tanong niya habang nag patuloy sa pagtatrabaho kahit nakayakap at nakakandong ako sa kanya.

“No, you don’t need to do that, This is my job,” I whisper, he nodded and rubbed my back.

“I’m sleepy” I whisper, he chuckled and kissed my head. “Rest for a while Beb” he said so I slept on his arms for one hour and went back to my office after.

“Knock knock” the person outside didn’t knock but she made a sound of knocking. I smile, “Come in.”

The door open and Milana showed up, “Hi Sienna,” she greeted, “Hi.”

“Ano may sasabihin este tatanong pala ako sayo,” she said and seat on the chair in front of my table.

“Yeah, sure what is it?” I ask and rest my arms on my table.

“Nalaman ko kasi na naghahanap ka ng Marketing assistant” she said, yeah Gun suggested that and I’m still in a search for that, walang gustong kumuha dito ng position na iyon dahil sa hindi malamang dahilan.

“Why your interested? Pero mas maganda ang position mo ah,” I ask.

“Nako hindi hahaha yong kaibigan ko gusto ko sanang irecommend,” she said, ooh a friend.

“Magaling siya and sobrang sipag, sabik na sabik sa marketing areas iyon kaya hindi ka mag regret if ever na kinuha mo siya,” she said and smile at me.

Bukod kila MIki, Lora at Sasha si Lana lang din ang nakakausap ko dito sa kumpanya and I trust her taste. “Sure ask her to be here for an interview,” I said and genuinely smiled at her.

“Sige sige!! Thank you so muchhhh!!!” she stands and stand up, aalis na siya.

“Ahm Lana, can I ask what’s her name?” I ask and smile.

“Aberry.”

Chapter 21

“Beb, wala ang Head HR manager ng company so I suggest that you’ll be the one to interview that. What’s her name again?” Gun asks while driving our way to the company.

“It’s Aberry,” I said and scanned the info on my phone that Lana send to me last night.

“Aberry.. Ok, are you fine with that Beb? Alam naman na ni Gun na ikaw ang pag interview and ok lang naman sa kanya kung anong magiging desisyon mo,” He said and glance at me, I smile at him.

“Thank you for this Beb, I know you’re helping me because you know I’m struggling and I fully appreciate this, Thank you,” I sincerely said and held his free hand,he intertwined our hands and kissed the back of my palm.

“I will do anything to lessen your problems, always remember that,” he said and smiled at me. “I will,” I answered and lean close to him just rest on his shoulders, and close my eyes. This will be a new day and new challenges awaits, I need strength from him to have courage to face this day and especially Mrs. Feliciana.

“Here we are,” Gun said when we stop at the parking, nagmadali na akong tingal ang seatbelt para makababa agad, pero pinigilan ako ni Gun.

“Ako an,” he volunteered to help me remove the seat belt but he stops when his face is an inch away.

“Bakit?” malumanay kong tanong ng manatili siyang nakatitig sa akin. He stared who stayed by my eyes and slowly looked down to my lips.

He starts a beachy breath and I can already feel his breathe through my face, “Gun,” I utter his name when he didn’t stop staring.

“Beb, your so hot,” he whisper and move closer, magkadikit na ang aming noo dahil sa ginawa niyang paglapit at halos ma duling na ako kakatingin sa mga matang iyon.

“Can we have a quicky?” he said, my eyes literally widened and I automatically pushed him away and he ended up laughing because of my reaction. “I was just kidding Beb hahahaha,” he said and went back to his seat.

“I hate you,” I said but he just laughed at me and kissed my hand, “Maybe later I can shoot a shot on our condo, see you,” he teases, but I ignore it and just gently slap his face and kiss his lips before I step out of the car.

“Bye,” I said when he drive away, sobrang dalawang siyang nandito sa Company dahil maraming pinapaasikaso sa kanya si Cad, kaya feeling ko magkalayo pa rin kami gaya nung college ako.

“Hi Sienna,” Lana suddenly showed up as I walked in the lobby, “Oh, hi Lana,” I gently said and smiled at her.

“Parating na siya,” she said, I nodded and asked the staff if the HR office is open. “Sige, salubungin ko lang siya outside,” Lana said and waved before she ran to the entrance of the company.

“Ito po ang susi ma’am,” one of the staff handed me the HR office key. “Thank you,” I said and smiled at him before I opened the HR office and waited for Aberry.

I waited for just a minute and heard Lana’s voice outside already, “Mabait si Sienna don’t worry, by the way, ito na ang HR room andyan na sa loob si Sienna galingan mo gurl ah, see you later.” she said, How supportive friends.

Tumayo na ako para salubingin si Aberry, she knocks and I open the door for her with a smile, “Hello, Aberry right please come in,” I said and walked back to the HR table and pointed at the chair for her.

“So Milana recommended you, and I can see that she has pick a right person for this job, your presence says it all tho,” sambit ko inaayos ang papars na nakakalat sa table ng HR, “Your aura is so light and your charming,” I said and look at her but she’s just staring at me.

“Hey are you listening, Aberry?” I ask, she wag her head and look at me with her lips parted, “A-Ah yes, I’m fine thank you,” she answered, hahaha that’s cute. She spacing out a while ago.

“Yeah, your funny I like it, by the way sa tingin ko hindi ka na kailangan mag interview dahil ngayon pa lang, I already approved you as my assistant pero dahil interviews are company protocols and HR needed this one then let’s just have a casual interview no pressure ok,” I said but she seems like observing my lips talk because she’s just staring at me the whole time I talk.

What’s wrong with me? Does my voice sound bad? Do I have something on my face?

I ignored my thoughts and just started the interview, I just asked random stuff that was asked in a normal interview and she answered it all in extra! Sobrang talkative niya and I can see her hunger for this work.

And I wish I could be like that, But I don’t…

“It’s done, you’re hired although I already hired you before this interview, well just for the formalities right, so yeah you’ll start on Monday, it’s Friday now so you have a weekend to prepare.. Come with me. I’ll hand you my simple guidelines on my office before you go,” natapos ang interview ng sobrang fine, and I really like her.

Sabay kaming naglakad palabas ng HR office at pumunta sa office ko, na magiging office niya na rin.

Pagpasok namin sa office she looked at around, “See that,” I said and pointed on her table here inside my office. “Yan ang magiging working place mo dito,” I said and walked toward my table to get the guidelines and handed it to her.

She bite her lower lip as she scans the papers and reads some parts of it, her eyes show so much desire for this job and excitement is all over her face. I don’t know but I’m amazed by her expression and her hunger for the job was so big.

I think of myself and ask me, if I ever have that day that I have this expression inside this job. But I don’t remember any…because I don’t have that excitement and expression.

“I’ll see you on Monday byieeee,” she said and waved at me as she walk towards the door, I nodded and waved back until she close the door, naiwan akong magisa dito sa office at nanatiling nasa isip ng sigla sa mata ni Aberry.

Umupo ako sa aking swivel chair at sinandal ang aking sarili dito at pinaikot-ikot ang upuan gamit ang aking paa. “I want to feel that too,” I whisper and close my eyes.

“Aba kaya  naman pala palpak lagi and trabaho dahil patulog-tuloh lang!!!” mabilis akong napatayo sa gulat ng biglang bumukas ang pinto at sumigaw si Mrs. Feliciana.

“No, Ma’am I’m not actually sleeping, I just close my eyes for a bit to re—–,”

“Wala along pakialam sa paliwanag mo, pwede ba! Gawin mo an and advertising strategy para sa new issued perfumes! Hindi young patulog-tulog ka lang d’yan!!!” she shouted and put another bunch of folders on my table and leave.

Isang malalim na buntong hininga ang aking ginawa bago ito kunin at sinimulang basahin isa-isa.

I wish, I was enjoying my job…

Chapter 22

“So, how was it?” Gun ask when he seated on the couch and lay his head on my lap, tahimik lang akong kumakain ng popcorn kanina dahil nagshower siya and now basa pa ng konti ang buhok niya at humiga na sa hita ko.

Mabuti na lang may towel sa tabi ko at pinunasan ko ang kanyang buhok, “She’s great,” I answered and remember how jolly Aberry is.

“You’re smiling Beb,” He said and pinched my chin, “I like her, she’s so light and funny,” I said and continued drying his hair while he grabbed the Tv controller and chose a movie to watch.

“She has this aura na sobrang nakakadala, sobrang light, and carefree niya and what really makes me like her is that she’s dreaming of this and she’s hungry for this” I can still remember how her eyes bright when I hired her.

“Hungry for what?” Gun said, while still focusing on the TV. “Hungry for this job, she worked three years on a certain company and finished a marketing course but she didn’t have the chance to work in the marketing department on her previous work, that’s why she’s so excited to work with me in the marketing field,” I said and smiled.

“That’s good, at least you’re comfortable with her and it will be easy for you to work,” Gun said and finally chose a movie.

We started watching and focused on the movie when he suddenly asked me something..

“Beb can I shoot a shot later?” I clearly know what he means and its a, “No,” agad siyang umalis sa lap ko at umupo upang harapin ako ng maayos.

“Why not!!!” hindi makapaniwala niyang sambit, I smile and, “I’m on period,” what I said was like a knife stabbed in his chest because he acted like he was shot and lay on the couch, covering his eyes using his arms and sighing so loud.

“Fuck your menstruation!!!” He whispers and forcefully stand up and walk to our room, padabog pa ang bawat hakbang nito at malakas na sinara ang pinto.

I laugh and reach for the TV controller and turn off the TV, I also clean the popcorn around the place and wash the dishes as fast as I can. After that, I made sure that the lights outside were off and went inside our room.

Naabutan ko si Gun na nakadapa sa kama at nakapatong ang unan sa kanyang ulo, he’s like a child who didn’t get what he wants and throw a tantrum. Lumapit ako sa kama at umupo, tinapik ko siya at sinabi, “Are you mad? But Beb period and menstruation is normal, how can I stop this?” I said but he didn’t move his muscles, and just ignored what I said.

“Hey Gunner,” I said, he looked at me this time with his sulking face. “Sino ang tinatawag mong Gunner!!! Beb yon!!!” he hazes like a child and go back to his position, kaya hindi ko na kinaya at natawa na ako ng tuluyan sa kanya.

“Ok I was just joking, I’m not on my period. I just want to tease you” After I say that mabilis siyang umupo at tinignan ako na tila nagnining-ning ang kanyang mga mata.

“Can we do it?” parang bata niyang tanong, I just laugh at him and I think that’s just what he’s been waiting for and he instantly pushes me on the bed and position above me.

“Just to remind you Mr. Tyson may pasok tayo bukas,” I said.

He smirks and winks at me, “Oh I’m down for five rounds, walang tawad presong asawa lang,” he said and grab the comforter to cover us.

“Gunner!!!”

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After that night I feel so tired when I wake up in the morning because Gun wasn’t really true through his words, that five-round turn doubled!!! Now I feel sore but I need to prepare food and we have to go to work early.

Gaya ng routine ko nagluto na ako ng almusal at naligo, nagbihis at nagayos bago ko siya ginising. He woke up in a good mood and showered me with his morning kisses and sorry’s.

“I’ll be here at lunchtime, so wait for me and let’s eat together ok, bye Beb I love you,” he said when I stepped out of the car, I smiled at him and did a flying kiss before he left.

Pumasok na ako sa kumpanya at agad dumiretso sa opisina, wala pa si Aberry dahil maaga akong pumasok, this is her first they and I hope it will go well for the both of us. Inayos ko na ang startegy na pinapagawa sa akin ni Mrs. Feliciana at iniscan ito ulit.

While scanning I still feel sleepy, kasi kulang talaga ako sa tulog dahil sa ginawa ni Gun. my eyes feel sore because I really want to sleep but I’m at work and I need to work. “Work Sienna” I whisper and keep on scanning and checking it all again.

I don’t want to be scolded again, I want to make Mrs. Feliciana see that I’m really trying my best to meet her expectations and I am already getting stressed out by proving myself to her.

While reading it for the fifth time, my office door open without a knock, and Mrs. Feliciana showed up with her frowned brows. “Show me what you have come up with,” she said and sat on the chair.

“Siguraduhin mong maganda yan,” pagbabanta niyang sambit kaya kinabahan ako at na pressure bigla.

“So, I was thinking about the kind of advertisement where we will endorse it using this new generation artist so it will catch the attention of the consumers and increase their interest in the product and the brand itself,” I said but she stood up and read the papers I made.

“Ang panget!! Bakit sa tingin mo ba magugustuhan ng mga kakilala ko at amoga ko yan! Halatang hindi pinag-isipan!” She shouted, “Nasaan ang record ng branch ko!!1 Gusto kong makita kung among kinalabasan nung advertisement  an ginawa mo noong nakaraan buwan! Akin na!” she said, i panicked and quickly grabbed the papers that she wanted and handed it to her without thinking.

At nong hawak niya na ito doon ko lang na realize na hindi pala maganda ang record last month.

“Ano ito!!!” she shouted, sobra ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko dahil sa lakas ng boses ni Mrs. Feliciana, and natatakot ako para sa kanya baka mamaya mahighblood siya sa kakasigaw.

“Ma’am I’m really sorry hindi po ka—–,” hindi ko natapos ang aking sasabihin ng makitang ibabato niya ang records and,“Good morn——,” nanlaki ang mata ko ng pumasok si Aberry sa pinto at sakto namang doon ibinato ni Mrs. Feliciana ang records at tumama ito sa mukha ni Aberry.

“Oh my gosh! Sorry Aberry,” mabilis kong nilapitan si Aberry at tinanggal ang papel sa kanyang mukha. “Hindi ok lang ak—––,” hindi natapos ni Aberry ang sasabihin niya ng sumigaw muli si Mrs. Feliciana.

Oh my gosh…

“Ano uunahin mo pa yan!“I notice that other employees outside are looking at us so I close the door.

“Please Ms. Feliciana, calm down first,” I try to talk to her gently but she glared at me and shout once again. “Paano ako kakalma kung ganito na nangyayari sa branch ko! Hindi ba sinabi sa gaanong paraan ng pag advertise ay matitindahan ko ang mga kumare ko ng pabango pero hindi sila nagkaka interest dito!!!” she shouted at my face, oh please lord help me calm her down, my chest feels so heavy already.

“Ma’am I clearly apologize, don’t worry I’ll fix this,” I said and smiled at her, hoping that she would calm down.

“Sinabi mona din yan nong nakaraang buwan pero yon at yon pa rin ang nangyayari!!!” she hazed and stap her feet so loud.

“If you accept my rudeness to speak up in your private conversation, I would like to recommend you some plan to improve your advertising method Ma’am, By the way, I’m Aberry Jade Callereese new assistant of Ms. Minami,“natigilan kami ng magsalita si Aberry at nakuha ang atensyon ni Mrs. Feliciana

“At ano naman ang maitutulong ng isang assistant na gaya mo?!” nahihiya ako para kay Aberry, first day niya pa lang tapos ganito sasalubong sa kanya.

“I graduated as a marketing student and I have a good background from my past work, which is in Victon Company and I have prepared for this kind of situation Ma’am, Delavine’s way of advertising their product is very un-resistible but as you say, it’s possibly not working to oldies taste because of its new generation format. Naiintindihan ko po ang lock of communication ng Delavine’s commercials sa mga matatanda, and I’m not criticizing oldies abilities, I just understand the situation” my lips parted when I saw how she catch Mrs. Feliciana’s interest.

“I have this idea that I’ll immediately propose to the advertisement team if you approve it, Mrs. Feliciana, gusto ko hong magkaroon ng commercial ang Delavine’s which is if possible na kayo ho ang magiging model and this commercial aims to attract the taste of oldies because they can clearly relate if they saw a commercial that perceives their age and hindi na nila kailangan makiuso para lang maintindihan ang halaga ng produkto ng Delavine’s,” Aberry said and smile awkwardly, I look at Mrs. Feliciana and wait for her answer.

“Fascinating,” halos matumba ako ng manlambot ang aking tuhod at nakahinga ako ng malalim sa sinagot ni Mrs. Feliciana kay Aberry. Thank god.

Aberry and I look at each other before Mrs. Feliciana speak, “Gusto ko ang idea na iyan, sasabihin koi to agad kay Cadmus at ipapaapprove sa Advertising team and I want you two,” she said and pointed at us.

“To be the one to assist me on shooting that commercial,” she said and walked.

Nang makaalis na siya agad kong nilapitan si Aberry at hinawakan ang magkabilang balikat. “Aberry super thank you you saved me with that” she said and hugged her.

“Trabaho ko pong tulungan kayo sa lahat ng bagay Ms. Sienna, I mean ma’am Sienna, ay Ma’am Minami”

“No, just call me Sienna. Our age doesn’t have too much gap naman eh, you know I knew you are something and look it’s your first day and you quickly solve a marketing problem, thank god Lana recommend you,” I said and genuinely smile at her, siya ba ang sinend ni God when I pray for him to help me.

He sent this funny angel to me…

“Hindi naman masyado, excited lang talaga ako sa marketing kaya ganito… sure ka bang Sienna lang itatawag ko sayo?” she cheerfully said.

“Oo naman, I want to be friends with you and we can be a good partner if we are friends,” I said.

“Ayieee sige na nga pinipilit mo ko eh hahahaha” she said and we both laugh, and with that we start working.

In the middle of what I’m reading I glance at Aberry who’s seated on her table while enjoying writing something on the paper, I bet it’s an idea for the commercial. All I can say is she’s great.

And her idea was really good…

My smile suddenly faded when I hoped to be just as excited as her…

I envy her so bad.

Chapter 23

Days passed by, the commercial went well. Aberry took a lot of effort and work for this project and I must admit that Mrs. Feliciana liked her the first time she talks to her, she could level with the old lady’s grumpiness and she can clearly make the conversation so light with Mrs. Feliciana.

Hindi ka gaya ko, I’m just here monitoring the whole set and I feel worthless head marketing manager but I try my best to help but the staff keep telling me that Aberry can help them instead of me.sinasabi nila na si Aberry na lang ang lalapitan nila pa hindi ako maabala pero alam ko na wala lang silang tiwala sa ideas ko. Nakilala si Aberry dito sa kumpanya dahil siya lang ang kaisa-isang employee na napaamo si Mrs. Feliciana. They are all admiring her and every employee smile at her and talks to her during her first day which I didn’t feel on my first day.

My first day was a total mess, until now my job is a mess. Ngayon lang ako nakaramdam ng ginhawa ng dumating si Aberry.

I like her being around and being helpful to others but I also have these insecurities inside of me making me feel jealous at her. There was a time na pumasok sa isip ko na dapat hindi ko na lang siya tinanggap dahil mas nagustuhan siya ng mga tao kesa sa akin.

But then I realize that with or without her, people around this company still hate me.

“Aww kailangan natin ng copy ng script kaso naiwan ko sa office,” Rinig kong sambit ni Aberry sa tabi ko habang kausap ang si Miki.

“I will get it,” sambit ko kaya tinignan nila akong dalawa. “Ikaw? Bakit ikaw?” Tanong ni Aberry.

“Ako na lang,” I said and smiled at them, “Ok,” she said so I smiled at them once again and left the studio. Palabas ko ng pinto agad naglaho ang aking ngiti at bagsak balikat naglalakad papuntang elevator.

Sumakay ako mula dito sa studio ng walang tao hanggang sa paakyat nang paakyat padagdag nang padagdag ang mga tao dito. Nasa likuran ako kaya walang nakakapansin sa akin at saka kinuha ko na lamang ang aking cellphone para magkunwaring busy.

“Nakita mo ba ang bagong assistant ng Head marketing manager?” napalingon ako sa dalawang babae sa harapan ng magsalita sila.

“Oo nakita ko siya kaninang umaga papasok sa lobby bakit?” the other girl said. “Alam mo ba nakita ko siya kanina at napakinggang makipagusap kay Miss Feliciana sobrang galing niya magsalita at isa pa hindi nagagalit sa kanya si Mrs. Feliciana hindi kagaya nong head marketing manager na wala nang ibang ginawa kundi pumalpak haha” they both laugh together so I shook my head so no one could know that I’m here.

“Oo nga, kaya lang naman nakapasok dito iyon dahil sa jowa nyang COO, pero ang totoo hindi naman talaga siya qualified sa trabaho niya. Tyaka hindi talaga siya magaling, sana yong Aberry na lang ang HMM natin pare hindi na tayo nahihirapan sa boses ni Mrs. Feliciana,” I bit my lower lip and still manage to listen.

“Oo nga tama ka, hindi magaling yong HMM na iyon nakaasa na ang talaga sa kapit. Pag Naghiwalay sila yan ni Sir. Tyson nako nga nga yan si Gurl” I feel like my heart is being stamp by these girls.

Everything they say was right, even if I do try my best, I always end up failing and getting rejected. And yes, yung about sa kapit kapit na yan kaya inaayawan ako ng mga tao dito tanggap ko siya at alam kong totoo iyon.

Gun just talked to HR to accept me because he doesn’t want to give me a hard time finding another company.

When the elevator opens on my floor, Mabilis akong naglakad palabas at tumakbo sa aking opisina. Pagpasok ko sa loob nagulat ako ng puno ito ng mga petals ng rosas sa sahig at umikot ang aking swivel chair kung saan nakaupo si Gun na may ngiti sa labi.

“What’s this all about?” I ask and smile at him while I walk towards him. “I don’t know I just had this feeling that I need to make you happy right now because, for the past few days, I know you worked hard on the papers and branding analysis of the company. Also, I just heard the issue that they are thinking I just pulled you up here on this position but they don’t know how much you prepare yourself for this. Don’t mind the bashers and hate Beb, mind e instead, think of me instead,” he sweetly said and pulled me to sit on his lap and kiss my neck.

What he said make my heart skip beat and happiness suddenly eat my system, I rested on his shoulder and sigh, “Beb, I know this is not right, pero naiinggit ako kay Aberry, hindi ko alam bakit hindi ko magawa ang ginagawa niya, bakit kahit anong gawin kong effort hindi pa rin nila ako matanggap at makitang tama ang aking ginawa.” I said and closed my eyes.

“Beb hindi mo kailangan makipag kompetensya at gayahin ang ginagawa ng ibang tao para lang maging mabuti at magaling gaya nila, ikaw mismo sa sarili mo ay may tanging katangian na wala at kainggitan din ng iba” he said and robbed my cheeks using his right hand.

“Ano naman iyon?” I ask as I wrap my arms around his waist. “Your patience, sa tingin mo ba kung wala ka nyan makakaya mong bang tumagal dito? Ang pagiging mahaba nang pasensya mo ang dahilan kung bakit nanatili ka sa posisyon mo ngayon, don’t bother thinking of what other people say.”

“Remember this Beb, we are leaving on the place where everything must go on with a judgment, and you only have two choices to survive whether you ignore it or get yourself drawn to it. Paalala, most of the people who choose to be drawn by it, died” he said and chuckled because of his last word.

“Ikaw ba, ano ang pinili mo?” I ask and look at him. “I choose to ignore it because I don’t give a fuck to what other people think of me, I just care about what you think of me and how will I convince you to have a steamy night later,” he said with a playful smile on his lips.

“That’s not gonna happen, hindi kana uulit during weekdays,” I said and stood up, he pouted and remained to stare at me, he didn’t let go of my hands too.

“Only one round I promise,” he said like a baby. “I don’t believe you anymore with that number of rounds, Gunner,” I said and laughed at him.

“That’s rude Beb,” He said and stamped his feet like a child. I lean over and kiss his lips before I realize that I need to get something here and get back to the studio. “Oh, my I forgot,” I said and removed his hands to get the script.

“I have to go Beb, kailangan ko pala itong dalhin sa baba,” I said, “Ok see you later Beb, I love you so much,” he said as I run towards the door and smile at him before I close it and leave.

Bumalik ako sa studio, “Aberry here’s the script sorry natagalan” Inabot ko sa kanya ang paper habang busy siyang inaayos ang buhok ni Mrs. Feliciana. “Ok lang, ano ka ba Sienna,” she said and smiled at me.

I seat on the available seat out here and just watch the process of the shoot, hindi na ako pinakilos ni Aberry dahil siya na mismo nag asikaso ng lahat.

I just watch her and envy her the whole time…

Kinabukasan ay maaga akong pumasok at inihatid ni Gun dito sa company, may mga lakad siya kaya hindi ulit siya magstay dito. Maaga naming tinapos ni Aberry ang mga papeles para sa airing commercial sa iba’t-ibang TV station at editing ng commercial para mahabol namin ito sa exact time na kailangan ni Mrs. Feliciana.

Buong araw kaming nakatutuok sa PC para matapos iyon and thnak god natapos namin siya at hindi maki masyadong nagover time.“See you tomorrow Aberry” I said when I already saw Gun’s sedan coming.

“Sige bye-bye,” She said and walked toward the waiting shed.

Sumakay na ako sa sakyan at agad sinalubong ng halik ni Gun,“How’s work?” He asks and starts driving. “Ok naman tapos na namin ang commercial ilalabas na namin ito bukas,” today I feel so calm maybe because I wasn’t got nag by Mrs. Feliciana or Gunner’s words yesterday helps me.

“You seem to have a good mood Beb, because of that let’s eat dinner outside my treat,” he said and glanced at me with his manly smile.

“Wow I love that” pumunta kami ni Gun sa paborito niya’ng kinakainan ng steak and that is located in makati, Elbert’s Steak Room.

Papasok namin sa loob agad kaming naghanap ng available table and when we seat he excuse to use the restroom, Naiwan ako dito kasama ang wallet niya. Hindi ko naman ugaling pinapakiemalan ang gamit niya lalo na ang wallet nya but there’s something in it that really makes me curious.

May nakalitaw kasing half card number na sobrang fine and girly ang looks kaya kinuha ko ito at binasa.

“Nera Smith?” It’s a girl’s name, right? Vixen Bar? What’s this?

I’m so confused so I didn’t put it back and just wait for Gun to come back and I’ll ask him about this. After a second he came back with a smile, “So should we order now,” he asked.

“What’s this?” Malumanay kong tanong at ipinakita sa kanya ang card number ng babaeng nagngangalang Nera Smith na nagtatrabaho sa Vixen Bar.

He looked shocked when he sees me holding it, kaya mas lalo akong nakakaramdam ng mali dito. “Ah hahaha that’s nothing Beb,” he said and tried to get it from me. Iniwas ko ito at tinignan siya sa mata, his hiding something from me.

“What is this Gunner?” I ask.

“That’s ahm…. Number yan ng isang nakameeting namin kanina Beb,” he said but I know that’s not true.

“Sa bar kayo nag meeting?” I ask. “No! Hahaha that’s nothing Beb,” he doesn’t want to tell the truth. I stood up and asked the waiter for a takeout na lang. “Beb?” Gun tries to talk to me but I just look at him and wait for our take-out.

“Here, Ma’am,” inabot nila ito sa amin at ako na ang nagbayad, Gun is so busy hiding the truth from me.

“Tara na umuwi na tayo,” malumanay ngunit walang gana kong sambit. He followed me and brought the steak to the car and we drove our way to the condo.

Nanatili akong tahimik nong kumain kami dito, he tried to talk to me but I ignore him. Hindi ko siya kakausapin hangga’t hindi siya nagsasabi ng totoo. “Hey Beb, pansinin mo naman ako, are we just going to sleep like this?” Gun complaints.

“Then why don’t you just tell me the truth, so we could go to sleep,” I said.

He sighs, at hindi nagsalita na para bang hirap na hirap siyang sabihin ito sa akin. “See you can’t tell me the truth!” I said I try my best to make my voice loud but I couldn’t masyadong mahina ang boses ko para sumigaw.

“Matutulog na lang ako––,” hindi ko natuloy ang paghiga sa kama ng hilahin ako ni Gun at dinala sa walk in closet at sinara ang pinto. “Ok, I will tell you the truth Bed, just please don’t be mad at me,” he said, nakapatay ang ilaw dito sa closet at nakaupo kaming dalawa sa sahig.

We have this thing where when we fight, we always end up talking and fixing it inside the dark closet, this is our way to fix our problem and little fights.

Hindi ako nagsasalita at hinintay siyang magsalita, “The truth is Nera Smith is your brother’s assistant and Vixen Bar owns by your brother and I have a 15% share on it. Sorry hindi ko sinabi sayo dahil ayaw ng kuya mo na malaman na nagtatayo siya ng business dito sa manila,” he said and I know this time was true, I know him.

“Why didn’t he want me to know about this?” I ask.

“I don’t know either but Beb I’m sorry for not telling you this forgive me and don’t get mad at me Beb” he said and held my hand. Hindi malapit sa akin si Kuya kaya siguro ayaw niya itong ipaalam sa akin. I understand him.

I sigh and nodded, “Thank you for telling me the truth,” I said and rested my head on his shoulders.

“You’re not mad anymore?” he asked, “No but hindi pa tayo bati,” I said, trying to tease him.

Nanahimik siya sandali bago nagsalita, “How about I’ll offer a peace offering?” he said.

“Anong klase peace offering naman yan?” natatawa kong tanong.

“My body, you can punish me whatever you want Beb,” his voice suddenly turns in a bed room voice kaya mabilis akong tumayo pero hinila niya ako pabalik at pinahiga sa sahig at pumaibabaw sa akin. Madilim at hindi ko makita ang mukha niya.

“Gun!!!”

“Shhh ok ok, wag kanang magalit Beb iaalay ko na ang kawatan ko sayo ok wait lang wag kang excited,” maloko niyang sambit.

“Gunner!!!!”

“Oo Beb ito na, hahaha…”

Chapter 24

That night Gun took the advantage of our little fight and turned it into a steamy night, he even did things that made us stay up till morning dawn. And I wouldn’t want to talk about it anymore.

Gosh why face burning again!!

“Sienna namumula ka,” Napalingon ako kay Aberry ng magsalita siya mula sa table niya at ngalumbaba habang nakatingin sa akin.

“Ano?” tanong ko at hinawakan ang aking mukha. “Namumula ka ng sobra? Naiinitan ka ba?” She ask, tatayo na sana siya upang lakasan ang aircon dito sa office ng pigilan ko siya.

“No! Ok lang ako haha, allergy siguro,” I said and smile at her, “Inom ka ng gamot mamaya grabe namumula ka oh,” sambit niya at bumalik na sa kanyang ginagawa.

I shook my head on my table and bit my lower lip, “This is your fault, Gun,” I whisper.

Ilang minuto rin akong nanatili sa ganong posisyon hanggang sa mawala na ang pag init ng aking pisngi at sinubukan kalimutan ang ginawa ni Gun.

I go back to my work and keep rewatching the commercial para masiguro na ok itong lalabas sa media, at sa branch ni Mrs. Feliciana.

“Tara lunch tayo, Sienna,” Aberry said as she stood up from her chair and went in front of my table. Tinabi ko ang mga papers sa tabi folders at kinuha ang aking wallet at phone sa bag. Sasabay na lang akong maglunch sa kay Aberry dahil nasa meeting si Gun hanggang mamayang gabi.

We just grab lunch at the cafe in the lobby and go back to work.

“Sige mauna na ako Sienna,” Paalam ni Aberry at mabilis na umalis, na iwan ako dito sa office, kailangan ko pang iligpit itong mag papers at mga files nito. Para hindi kami mahirapan bukas maghanap ng papers kapag nandito na si Mrs. Feliciana.

“Ay,” nadulas sa kamay ko ang isang paper at nahulog ito sa ilalim ng table ko kaya kailangan ko lumuhod at kunin ito, kasabay noon ay narinig kong bumukas ang pinto at may pumasok.

I thought it was Aberry but I was wrong, “Sienna,” It’s Kent.

Mabilis akong tumayo at hinarap siya, “Kent why are your here?” I ask. “Chantel will start working here tomorrow,” Yeah I remember that, we just had a video call yesterday habang pasakay na siya ng flight nya and I’m sure nakauwi na siya.

I’ll just see her tomorrow.

“I just want to discuss with you about her guidelines since I ask Cadmus to give that Job to you because I’m busy tomorrow,” He seriously said and handed me the guidelines. I can’t control my smile because I can see through his eyes that he’s excited to be with Chantel but his words say that the other way around, he wants to avoid her.

After that umuwi ako mag-isa dahil nagpaalam si Gun na hindi ako masusundo at gagabihin siya sa meeting, and totoo nga dahil nakatulugan ko na siya, and nagising na lang ako kinabukasan na nakayakap siya sa aking bewang.

I did my morning routine and sabay ulit kaming umalis ng condo, and as expected Gun had errands outside. Pagpasok ko sa office ay nandito na agad si Aberry kaya binigay ko na sa kanya ang naka assign trabaho ngayong araw at agad dumiretso sa itaas.

To the CEO’s office…

Habang naglalakad ako sa hallway papuntang office ng CEO nakasalubong ko si Kace, his cheeks were red. Napakunot noo ako ng tignan niya ako at nilagpasan na parang tinatago ang kanyang mukha.

What’s his problem?

When I stand in front of the CEO’s office and hear that familiar voice. Naintindihan ko na kung bakit namumula si Kace kanina, it’s because of Chantel, she’s here!

Agad kong binuksan ang pinto at nakita siyang nakatayo sa harap ng table ng CEO, I could not control my excitement and call her name.

“Chantel!!!” she looked at me, “SIENNA!!!” she shouted and ran to my place, we hugged each other so tight. Ghad I miss her so much…even though I always see them at our video calls. Iba pa rin kapag nandito na talaga siya sa harap ko.

“Ghad, I missed you so much even though we just talked on the video call before the flight,” I laughed at her and hugged her tighter, my heart is pounding because of true happiness. And we miss each other and It took us a minute to enjoy each other’s presence, “I dare to interrupt ladies, I bet you need to check Chantel’s office now and start working time it running” CEO’s said and looked at us while playing his pen was still such an intimidating presence.

“Yes Sir,” I said at hinila na palabas ng office si Chantel, “Good thing your office is near to mine so we can catch up lunch all the time,” I said as we walk together and go down to our designated floor and show her her office.“Really that’s great, but I bet I won’t really stay here at the office because I’m in charge of the photoshoots for endorsements” I nodded at her.

“Here’s your office, the staff under you is just outside don’t bother asking them, they already know you’re here and aware of your position so feel free to talk to them,” Pagpapaliwanag ko habang pasadal siyang umupo sa table niya.

“Sienna you know naman na I’m not really used to approaching others,” she said and shook her head, I know we both are… but I need to prove myself even if socializing wasn’t my thing.

“Yes, I know, but still if you need help ask them, their very accountable promise.” I said and smiled at her. “Yeah, I understand,” parang bata niyang sambit, still the Chantel I know nothing changed.

“Now, I better go and I still have a lot of work to do, start working na, let’s see each other later lunch ok,” Pagpapaalam ko at umalis na sa kanyang opisina at bumalik sa office ko. Naabutan ko si Aberry na inieedit ang commercial kaya nilapitan at tinulungan ko siya.

The whole day end up well and great thing Mrs. Feliciana had an important meeting so she didn’t come to the office and I feel at ease because of it.

“Hi there,” napangiti ako ng tumigil ang sasakyan ni Gun sa harap ko habang malakas ang pagbagsak ng ulan. “Hi,” I said at mabilis na sumakay sa sasakyan.

“I brought you something,” excited na sambit ni Gun sa pagsakay na pagsakay ko, “Ano yon?” tanong ko habang nilalagay ang seat belt ko.

“Look at the back,” nakangiti niyang sambit, sinunod ko ang sinabi niya at tinignan ang back seat kung saan mag malaking box ng dress doon.

“That will be your dress on the 10th anniversary of Delavine, I personally choose that for you Bed,” Hindi makapaniwala ko siyang tinignan at kaagad na niyakap.

“Thank you so much,” I was just about to buy a dress for the party but naunahan niya ako, so sweet.

“Actually, the dress looks as fine as you, but I like you more wearing naked,” he said and smirked.

I glared at him and he just laughed at me.

How come my man be this perverted? Kuya Kent what did you do to him!

Chapter 25

I wake up with Gun’s heavy arms on my waist, He’s sleeping peacefully because he sleep late last night, dahil may inayos siyang agreement na kailangan sa trabaho. Hindi ko na nga namalayan na tumabi siya sa akin kagabi dahil nakatulog na ako.

And now I need to prepare para pumunta na sa hotel, ngayon ang party and I ask Aberry to join me in preparing together with Chantel.

Kailangan kong lutuan si Gun ng almusal bago ako umalis,umalis na ako sa kama at hinayaan siyang matulog. I cooked bacon together with a toasted bread and egg, then I took a shower.

I just wore a simple peach camisole top and paired it with high waist short shorts, and white flats. Hindi ko na din inayos ng sobra ang aking buhok, tinali ko na lang ito ng ponytail at sinuot ang radiation glass ko.

Mag ayos din naman kami mamaya kaya hindi na kailangan mag ayos ngayon. Lumabas ako ng walk in closet at naabutan si Gun na iminulat ang mata at nag unat-unat sa kama.

He looks like a baby who just woke up with a frown forehead, I smile and nilapitan siya, humiga sa tabi niya at niyakap siya, agad naman niya akong hinarap at niyakap ng sobrang higpit, na tila pinanggigilan ako.

“Morning” I whispered to him and chuckled, fixing his morning messy hair. Naramdaman kong umidlip muli siya sa aking balikat kaya nag stay kami sa ganitong position ng mga 5 minutes bago siya tuluyang nagising at nginitian ako.

“Hi, there” His voice still sounds so husky because he just woke up. I smile at him and caress both of his cheeks. “Can I borrow your car? Please,” I said, this is a great chance to ask him dahil good mood siya.

““Where are you going?” He ask, ngumiti ako sa kanya at hinalikan siya sa pisngi bago sagutin ang tanong niya. “Magkasama kaming mag-aayos ni Chantel sa hotel and I’m gonna fetch Aberry at her unit para makasama na din namin siyang mag-ayos para sa party,” sambit ko at nginitian siya ng sobra para payagan ako.

“You know I don’t like when you drive Beb, It’s dangerous” he sighs and closes his eyes while saying that.

I pouted at him and put on puppy eyes to make him say yes. “Come on Beb, I’ll be careful I promise”

“Can I just drive you there?” He said and opened his eyes, staring at me with so much worry in his eyes.

I smile and quickly still a peck on him, “Beb I can drive, kaya ko na iyon please pagbigyan mo na ako tyaka diba may aayusin ka pa mamaya, I’ll just see you at the party,” I said.

“I trust you Beb, but I don’t trust accidents” Nagaalala niyang sambit at niyakap ako muli.

“I know kaya nga mag iingat ako tsaka malapit lang ang unit building ni Aberry sa hotel” I said, huminga siya ng malalim bago lumapit sa side table para kunin ang susi ng Sedan at ipakita sa akin.

“Promise me you’ll be careful,” he said, halatang labag ito sa loob niya pero mas pinili niyang pagbigyan ako.

“Promise,” I said.

“Ok, I’ll help you put all the things you need at the car after we eat breakfast,” sambit niya at agad tumayo, sinuot ang kanyang t-shirt at naglakad papuntang banyo.

Nakangiti kong kinuha ang susi at lumabas papuntang kusina, I prepare the plates and food at the dining table, then lumabas si Gun mula sa kwarto ng pinupunasan ang mukha ng face towel.

“Let’s eat” Masigla kong sambit na agad pinansin ni Gun.

“Masaya ka dahil magdadrive ka nanaman, just to tell you this Ashiena this will be your last,” he said, regretting giving me the car keys. Sorry Beb too late to say no.

I just laugh at him and put toast on his plate. He hazes and eats.

Habang kumakain ay may nag doorbell kaya mabilis akong tumakbo sa pinto at pinagbuksan ito. “Miss. Minami, this is your delivery” the delivery man said and handed me the box of dress.

“Thank you,” I said, signing the paper before I closed the door. “What’s that?” Gun asked while looking at me with toast in his mouth.

“A dress ito ang ipapasuot ko kay Aberry,” I said and put it on the couch together with my dress. Gun just nodded and went back to his seat and ate

“I’ll see you later,” I said and kissed his cheeks after he put the dress on the back seat. He nodded and kiss me back, halatang ayaw niya akong umalis at magdrive, hinatid niya pa ako dito sa parking para lang ipakita sa akin na labag sa loob niya ito.

Tumatawa akong sumakay sa sasakyan at pinaandar ito, “Bye, Love you,” I said and give him a flying kiss before I leave.

Dumiretso ako sa unit ni Aberry, naabutan ko siyang naghihintay na sa labas. “Hi,” I said and opened the door for her.

“Good morning,” masigla niyang bati at ganun din ang aking ginawa bago sinimulang mag drive.

“Well be staying in the hotel, my friend rented, para baba nalang tayo sa party pagkatapos,” I said and smiled at her, she just nodded and kept on her phone, while I focused on driving to the hotel.

We parked and got help from the bellboys to bring our dress up, “Andito na tayo,” I said and Aberry looked at me as I took off my seat belt and stepped out of the car. Bumababa kaming dalawa at agad ko na siyang dinala sa 20th floor where Chantel’s waiting.

I opened the door of the suite, “Paige, we’re here,” I said and sat on the couch.

Bumukas ang pinto ng room dito sa suite na ito at lumabas mula doon si Chantel, wearing silk white nighties. I smile at her and look at Aberry na tila nakatulala kay Chantel.

“Hi there,” Chantel said and smiled at me before she walked towards Aberry and did a beso on her. “Hi, nice to meet you, I’m Chantel by the way but you can call me Paige’’ Chantel said.

“H-hello, Aberry po,” I chuckled at how Aberry answered her like she’s shy around her.

“Paige siya yung sinasabi ko sayo na assistant ko, and also my new friend” I said. “Yeah, you already told her to me, by the way I must give you a big compliment bout’ what you did to Tita Felice,” umupo siya sa katabing couch ko at tiningnan ako, yeah nakwento ko sa kanya iyon.

“Aberry Chantel kapatid ni Cadmus, the Mister CEO,” I said that makes Aberry’s eyes widened. “Nako nakakahiya pong nandito ako Ma’am Dalavine,” Aberry said.

“Hey no way, don’t bow your head on me. It’s just me, your new friend, and what’s the problem with me being the sister of Cad?” Chantel’s trying to avoid talking conyo at Aberry that’s why I chuckled and speak instead, “Tama si Paige, Aberry kaya nga kita dinala dito para maging magkaibigan tayong tatlo and don’t worry know given profession or level in life when it comes to friendship, so feel free with Paige she’s super nice.”

“Come on let’s start preferring na, I already fixed everything inside my room come,” we entered the room and showed Aberry dresses I buy for her to choose from. “You choose na Aberry,” Chantel said.

Nagayos na kami at nauna akong lumabas ng kwarto dahil tapos na ako. Gun buys me this lovely matte black empire waist dress . And I just paired it with my black heels and my hair is styled a chignon bond.

“Bwala!” Chantel shouted and stepped out of her room together with Aberry.

“Nooo, who are you?!” I said and we look at our reflection in the mirror and laugh together.

“I told you it would fit you,” Chantel said while staring at her with a beautiful smile.

“Thank you, Chantel, Sienna,” Aberry said and genuinely smiled at us.

“Don’t thank us now, the party hasn’t even started yet” Chantel said and grabbed her purse, held my hand, and walked with Aberry out of her place.

“Let the party start” Chantel whispers as the door of the party opens for us.

As soon as the door opens attention comes to us. “Eyes on us, as expected”. Chantel whisper as we start walking, Aberry ask to find her friends kaya naiwan kami ni Chantel at umupo na sa table namin.

I was looking around to spot my boyfriend but I guess he’s still not here. Chantel and I just talk.

“Chantel, Sienna” Aberry comes with Lana and Alliana. “Oh hi, here here have a seat everyone” masiglang sambit ni Chantel at pinaupo sila dito sa table namin. “Chantel mga kaibigan ko, Milana from Media planner head on designs”pagpapakilala ni Aberry kay Lana.

Chantel nodded, “Yeah I know her, we already work back then when I was starting as a media Planner team too right Lana” she humbly said and Lana nodded with a wide smile.

“This is Alliana, my cousin, Market Analyst siya, “ Chantel genuinely smiles at her, “Alliana nice to finally meet you” she greets her and after that, the party starts with some VTR and speech from other head officers.

“Let’s dance guys,” Chantel said, she looked at us,“Sige kayo na lang pupuntahan ako mamaya ni Gun dito” I said and smile at them. “Hindi ayaw ko sumayaw,” sagot ni Alliana dito so Chantel just nodded and pulled Lana and Aberry’s hand towards the crowd.

I watch them dance at the crowd, and look around to find my boyfriend, bakit wala pa rin siya.

“Looking for someone?” napatingala ako ng marinig ang boses ni Gun sa aking likuran, he smile at me and kiss me before he seat beside me. He’s wearing a matte black dresser shirt and black pants simply but match my dress so well.

“Excuse me, Sienna restroom lang ako,” paalam ni Alliana kaya tumango ako at umalis siya.

“You look so damn beautiful, I can’t believe you’re mine” Gun teases me and we both laugh at each other, the party music suddenly turns into a sweet song.

“Let’s Dance,” Gun said and stood up. “No hindi ako marunong sumayaw,” I said and chuckled, “Me neither Beb” He said but still pulled me to stand up. “Beb, hindi tayo marunong sumayaw kaya wag na,” I said.

He lean closer and smile at me, “Then let’ figure it out together, I don’t care if we’d look stupid out there at least we’re together,” he sweetly said and that’s when I give in and let him bring me in the middle.

We dance and laugh at each other because we both know that we can’t sway with the music, but like he said we don’t care.

The night was filled with laughter for the both of us, and now we go home and lay on the couch dahil sa pagod.

“Take a shower na para makatulog na tayo” I whisper at him while his taking off my heels. “Wait I have surprise for you Beb, I almost forgot” Gun said and put my heels at the side and stand up, pumasok siya sa kwarto at nakarinig ako ng ingay mula doon pero hindi ko maintindihan bago siya lumabas na may dalang box na kulay pink.

“What’s that?” I ask and seat properly to accept the box.

“Happy Monthsary,” Gun said that make my brow frowned bukas pa ang monthsary namin ah, pero napatingin ako sa wall clock namin.

“Oh… it’s 12 am! Happy Monthsary,” I said and hugged him before I look at this box and smile at him, “Open it Beb” nakangiting sambit niya at umupo sa tabi ko.

Binuksan ko ang box and….

“Oh my!!!” I gasped as I saw this little baby chow chow dog. My heart is melting right now…

Naiiyak ako sa sobrang saya, Matagal ko nang gustong magka aso…

I look at him and cry, “Thank you so much, I love you,” I whisper and carry this cute little thing.

“What will you name him?” Gun asked and put his arms on my shoulders.

Name…

“Charvy,” I whisper then this cute little thing barks like he loved his name.

“Oh, you like it huh, Hi Charvy,” and he barks once again.

Chapter 26

The commercial went well, Mrs. Feliciana liked it and she approved of it too. As weeks pass by, her branch sales increase, Aberry and I work hard to aim for higher sales every week.

Also, the work with the advertising team is going well, I was in a safe place for almost a month because of Aberry.

She plastered my failed works and made them into better ideas and strategies.

Now we have just released a video of newly issued perfumes for teenagers, and our job for today is done.

“Ok, great job everyone,” I said but they didn’t look at me. Instead, they smiled at Aberry and complimented her. I just smile and fix the things here at the side before Aberry and I go back to our office.

She seems bit off simula kaninang umaga, “Mauna na ako Sienna bukas na lang,” she said and leave. Naiwan ako dito na nakatingin sa pinto na pinagabasan niya.

Umupo muna ako sa swivel chair ko at pinikit ang aking mga mata, Hindi ko maintindihan kung anong problema sa akin, I been working and trying so hard para lang mag improve sa trabaho. Pero there is this something inside of me making me feel less, I feel like everything I do is less na kahit anong pilit kong ipush, hindi ko pa rin magawa ng tama.

At hindi ko magawang makaramdam ng saya sa trabahong ito, hindi kagaya ni Aberry every time she works and share ideas, her eyes sparkling with excitement and happiness.

Ano bang problema sa akin???

My phone rings, so I open my eyes and check who’s calling. Si Papa.

Agad ko itong sinagot, “Papa, naze anata wa? (Why did you call Papa?)” I ask.

“Onii san wa doko imasu ka?!?! (Where is your brother?!)” galit na sagot ni Papa. “Naze shitsumon suru nodesu ka? (Why are you asking?)” I said and bit my lower life.

I know my brother doesn’t want to tell Papa where he is, and I don’t know if I will tell it to Papa or not.

“Kare wa koko de hataraku hitsuyo ga arimasu! Kare wa modotte konokatta! (He needs to work here! He didn’t come back!)” galit na sambit ni Papa mula sa kabilang linya.

“Kareni attara hanashimasu ( I will talk to him when I see him)” I said. “Papa o shinpai shinaide kudasai (Don’t worry papa)” what did you do this time Kuya! I haze and listen to Papa until we end the call.

I dialed Mama’s number and called her, after a few rings she answered it and with the sound around her. I think she’s still at the shop right now.

“Oh, Sienna anak bakit ka napatawag?” tanong nito sa akin.

“Ma pumupunta ba si Kuya sa bahay?” tanong ko, “Hindi eh, bakit?”

“Papa just call me and hinahanap niya si Kuya, pinapabalik niya na sa Japan si Kuya,” I said, I heard Mama sigh before she speaks, “Nagiging manipulative na naman ang Papa mo kaya siguro umalis ang Kuya mo, hayaan mo sasabihin ko sayo kapag nagpunta siya dito ok, sige na marami pa akong ginagawa dito, bye,” Mama hang up the phone kaya tumayo na ako at kinuha ang aking bag.

Umuwi ako sa condo mag isa dahil nauna nang umuwi si Gun sa akin kanina, as soon as I open the door Charvy run to me, mabilis ko binitawan ang aking bag at binuhat siya. “Hello Charvy, do you miss Mommy?” I said and walked toward the couch where Gun was sitting.

Charvy licks my hands and keeps wiggling his tail when I put him in my lap when I sit in front of Gun. “Miss me huh,” I said and kissed Charvy and began to play with him.

“Wow my girlfriend just forget that I exist” sambit ni Gun bago tumayo at kinuha ang pag ko sa harap ng pinto. I glance at him but look at Charvy once again, I miss him.

“Kumain na ba ang Charvy ni Mommy ah,” I ask and look at him as I carry him in front of me. Charvy barks and sticks his tongue like he’s so happy and his tail didn’t stop wiggling.

“Wait for Mommy, ikukuha natin ng food ang Charvy na yan ok,” tumayo ako at binitawan siya sa upuan para kumuha ng pagkain.

Pumunta ako sa kusina at naglagay ng food dog sa pagkainan ni Charvy at habang ginagawa ko iyon nakita kong nilapitan ni Gun si Charvy at bumulong bulong dito, na parang pinagsasabihan niya ito then Charvy was just listening to him and lick his nose.

“Charvy here’s your food,” I said and show Charvy his food kaya mabilis siyang bumaba ng couch at tumakbo sa akin, “Good boy,” I said and rub his head.

Habang pinapanuod kong kumain si Charvy napatingin ako kay Gun na ang sama ng tingin kay Charvy, I chuckled and ask him, “Bakit ganyan ka makatingin kay Charvy?” I ask.

“Oy nakikita mo pa pala ako? Akala ko hindi mo na ako nakikita dahil isang linggo mo na akong pinagpapalit kay Charvy!” parang batang sambit nito at nagkibit balikat.

“He even slept between us!! And I never get a chance to hug you for almost one week!!!” he said and roll his eyes on me, kaya natawa na talaga ako at tumayo upang lapitan siya.

I wrap my arms around his waist and smile at him, “Ow my boyfriend is jealous?” tanong ko at umakting na parang inosente. Inismiran lang ako nito at naglalakad papasok ng kwarto.

Tumawa ako bago ko nilapitan si Charvy at binuhat, sinama ko siya sa loob ng kwarto at doon pinakain at nilapitan yung matampuhing bata. Nakahiga siya sa kama kaya nilapitan ko siya at humiga sa kanya mismo.

I hugged him while I lay above him, “Beb?” sambit ko pero sininghalan niya lang ako.

I smiled, “Sungit naman nyan.” I said and he remained silent and ignored me. “I was planning of letting him shoot a shot this night but he’s so masungit,” maloko kong sambit, kaya agad niya akong tiningnan at nawala ang pagkakunot ng kanyang noo.

“Talaga!?” excited niyang sambit. Umupo ako at sinabi, “Wag na lang siguro ang sungit mo kasi e––”

“No no no, Beb hindi ako masungit, sorry sorry,” he said and hugged me. I smile and look at him.

I caress his face and initiate the kiss, na agad niyang tinugunan at hinawakan ang aking bewang upang iharap sa kanya.

“Hmm!” I groaned when he bit my lips teasingly.

“God, I miss this,” he whispers and pinches my waist so I can open my mouth for him to have access inside.

He tastes every inch of me as his tongue explores inside mine.

I felt his hands roam around my waist and try to take my tank off and move his hands under my blouse up to my chest, as I felt his warm hands on my mound, I arched my back and closed my eyes.

“Hmm fuck,” he curses when he starts massaging my breast and move his lips down to my neck.

We are in the middle of this intimacy when I open my eyes and glance at Charvy…

Pooping at the Bed!!

“Beb si Chravy,” I try to tell it to Gun but he didn’t listen, malapit nang ilabas ni Charvy ang poop niya!

I push Gun away, “Wait Beb, si Charvy he’s pooping!!” I said and tumayo ng kama at agad binuhat si Charvy paalis doon at dinala sa banyo.

Narinig ko ang pagdadabog ni Gun bago siya sumigaw sa inis…

“Charvy!!!!” he shouted.

Charvy barks as he hear his name, I laugh at him and wash him up.

Kinabukasan nakasimangot ako hinarap ni Gun, at wala akong magawa kundi tawanan siya at kumain. Hindi siya naka puntos kagabi dahil kinailangan naming linisin ang poop ni Charvy sa kama at dahil don napagod ako pagkatapos at nakatulog agad.

Charvy plays with Gun’s feet but Gun just keeps on avoiding him and moves his feet away from him, na akala ni Charvy ay nakikipaglaro sa kanya si Gun. kaya natawa lang ako lalo sa kanya.

“By the way Beb about Zoey’s birthday susunduin mo na lang ba ako mamaya? I already prepared our bags later pagpunta doon, you’ll just have to put it on the car before we leave ok,” I said and Gun just nodded at me at nakasimangot pa rin.

“Are you mad at me?” I ask with a smile.

Umiling siya at nilayo ulit ang paa kay Charvy but charvy keep chasing it. Nilayo niya ito ng nilayo hanggang sa hindi sinasadyang tinamaan ng paa niya si Charvy kaya natumba ito, at mabilis niya naman itong binuhat, “Sorry sorry sorry Baby,” he whisper, biglang nawala ang inis kay Charvy.

See hindi niya din kayang tiisin si Charvy, “Beb,” I call him, he looks at me and I smile at him before I say this.

“I love you,” is a genuine word that comes from my heart.

His grumpy face suddenly disappears and he slowly smiles and puts Charvy in his lap.

“I love you more.”

Chapter 27

“Miss Delavine, Miss Minami, the dinner is served at the lobby,” agad kaming natigil sa pagaayos ng gamit ni Chantel ng dumating na ang Bellboy.

“Susunod na kami,” I said and grabbed my phone before I faced Chatel. “Tara na sa baba Paige,” CHantel nodded and we both went out of our room, we decided to be in the same room kahit nalabag sa loob ni Gun wala siyang nagawa nong sinabi ni Chantel na kami ang magkasama sa isang room.

We’re here for Zoey Milendez’s birthday. She’s the daughter of a great investor of the company and she’s friends with us, lalo na kay Cad. Also she’s the finance manager’s girlfriend, that’s why we’re all invited here.

Also my brother suddenly showed up here together with his unknown girl.

As we both stepped out of our room kasabay din non ang paglabas nila Cad, my brother and Gun. “Hey,” Gun instantly pulled me close to him and wrapped his arms around my waist, but Chantel force to take me away from Gun and say,“She’s mine!“she said.

Gun just looks at me before he laughs at Chantel’s reaction and just gives in. lumapit na lag si Gun kay Kuya at kay Cad.

As the door open through the lobby at sabay-sabay kaming pumasok sa loob, agad kong nakita sila Aberry, Lana and Alliana na nakaupo sa long dining table. Nandito rin sila?

I was busy talking with Chantel so when we all sat together I just looked at them and smiled before I continued talking to Chantel.

“Do you feel it?” Chantel suddenly whispered at me when we both felt an intense atmosphere here. I glance at Aberry and I know there’s something wrong around here but I don’t wanna barge in.

This would probably be an issue…

“It feels tense tho” I whispered back and looked at Aberry and Lana who looked so uncomfortable in here.

The dinner went well, and all Zoey did is to tell how happy she is with her Boyfriend, after dinner umakyat na din kami sa room namin and Gun texted me to scroll around the place, kaya nagpaalam ako kay Chantel. “Paige labas lang ako samahan ko lang si Gun saglit,” I said and walk towards the door.

First, she rolled her eyes at me and said, “Yeah go, enjoy” she teases.

“Sira,” tumawa ako bago lumabas at sinara ang pinto.

Bago ko pa bitawan ang door knob ng pinto agad na akong hinila ni Gun na naghihintay na pala sa labas, he pulled me on my waist and kiss me as soon as I face him.

“I hate Chantel for taking you away!” he pouted, “Aww kamukha mo si Charvy Beb” biro ko na agad niyang tinawanan. “Of Course, he’s my baby haha,” sambit niya.

Charvy is at my Mama’s house right now, dahil walang magbabantay sa kanya sa condo lalo na nandito kami hanggang sunday. “Where are we going?” tanong ko sa kanya, hinawakan niya ang aking kamay kaya sabay kaming naglakad papuntang tabing dagat kung saan buhay na buhay ang paligid dahil sobrang daming stall and mini bars dito.

“I wanna get some tattoos, Beb,” he said when we stopped at a tattoo stall. Tinignan ko muna siya bago tinignan ang stall.

“Anong ipapatattoo mo?” tanong ko sa kanya, nag-isip muna siya bago sumagot.

“Your name on my wrist,” he said and wink at me, “Seryoso?” tanong ko at agad naman siyang tumango.

I purse my lips before I glance at the tattoo artist and look back at him, sigh and said, “Ok, ako din,” sambit ko na ikinagulat niya. “Ikaw din? You sure, it’s painful Beb” sabi niya.

“I want your name on my wrist too,” pursigido kong sagot, kung gagawin niya ito para sa akin gagawin ko din para sa kanya.

“Ok if that’s what you want,” he said with a sound of defeat and started talking to the tattoo artist.

Nauna siya sa akin para daw hindi ako kabahan, pero sa totoo lang kahit nauna siya o hindi kinakabahan pa rin ako pero kaya ko ito.

“Done,” the tattoo artist said after 40 minutes of the tattoo session, “Ashiena” Gun whisper as he looks at the final look of his tattoo, my name.

“Ok ako naman” lakas loob kong sambit at umupo na sa harap ng tattoo artist, yong puso ko parang tatalon na mula sa aking dibdib, dahil sa sobrang lakas ng pagtibok nito. “Hindi naman ganun kasakit Beb,” Gun whispered in my ears to cheer me up, I nodded with determination and smiled at him before I offered my wrist to the tattoo artist.

“Ok, let’s start,” the tattoo artist said and started working. Hinawakan ko ng sobrang higpit ang kamay ni Gun habang tinatattooan na ako, kahit maliit lang ito masakit siya.

“Malapit na,” the tattoo artist said when he noticed me have teary eyes already.

“Gunner,” Gun read my tattoo when the tattoo artist let go of my hand and fix his things. Gun kissed my forehead before he hugged me and whispered, “You’re so strong Beb,” proud niyang sambit.

After that we just eat at the seafood stall and go back to our room after, “Beb sa room ko na lang kaya ikaw matulog,” hindi niya ako binibitawan ngayong nasa harap na kami ng room namin ni Chantel.

“No, hindi pwede hahanapin ako ni Chantel,” sambit ko kaya sumimangot siya at hinalikan ang aking kamay, nagpapacute niya din akong tinignan. Pero hindi pwede hanapin ako ni Chantel at nagpromise ako sa kanya na dito ako matutulog.

“Tskk,” he said and just kiss me on the lips and walk at his room, tumawa ako at pumasok na sa loob ng kwarto namin ni Chantel.

Pagpasok ko sa loob ay tulog na si Chantel habang nakaharap sa cellphone, akala ko bukas pa ang phone niya dahil nanunuod siya but when I check it nakita ko si Kace pinapanood si Chantel matulog.

How sweet…

Hinayaan ko na lang iyon at natulog na, iniwasan kong tamaan ang aking right hand ko dahil medyo makirot pa ang tattoo.

Kinabukasan ay nagising akong wala na si Chantel sa kama niya at nung nakarinig ako ng tunog ng shower sa banyo, I know she’s taking a shower already, kaya kumuha na lang ako ng book sa bag ko at nagbasa ng konti.

Pagkalabas ni Chantel ng banyo ay agad niya akong tinanong “What time did you go back last night?” tanong niya at sinimulang i-dryer ang kanyang buhok.

“Almost 11 I guess, naabutan ko pa ngang pinapanuod ka ni Kace kagabi. Good thing he didn’t notice me.” I said and I know that will make her blush, at tama nga ako namula siya.

Maya-maya pagkatapos niyang mag-ayos nagpaalam, “I’ll just take a walk at the beach, be back later.”

“Ok ingat,” I said.

Naiwan lang ako sa room maghapon at nagbasa lang, Gun stay with his friends. And pagdating ng hapon dumating na si Chantel kaya nag ayos na rin kami para sa party ni Zoey ngayong gabi.

I just wore a simple one-piece white bandeau swimwear with big black horizontal lines on it and topped it up with denim short shorts, for my footwear was just a black slip-on slippers.

Itinali ko lang din ang buhok ko ng mababang ponytail at tumuloy na sa venue ng party.

“This night was the most special moment of my life now I’m turning 23 and I feel so old na but still look pretty right, I would not end up here without the people who supported me from the very start, Mom Dad thank you so much you give me everything I need and all the best for me you are the best… also to my man who’s standing over there, his my inspiration and my future Hi Babe I love you so much please don’t leave my side,” Zoey said in front and all of us just listen to her.

Then when the real party started Gun took me away from Chantel and went on the beach.

“Saan tayo pupunta?” tanong ko ng mapansing medyo lumalayo na kami sa party.

“Kuya,” Gun called a guy from here, I saw he mouthed something to that guy before we stopped in front of the little boat.

“Saan tayo pupunta!?” naguguluhan kong tanong sa kanya, nginitian niya ako bago may itinuturo at sinabi, “There,” he said, nang tignan ko ang tinuturo niya isang round floating mini gazebo na puno ng fairy lights, medyo malayo siya pero dito pa lang nakikita ko na ang ganda nito.

“Tara,” sabi niya at binuhat ako pasakay ng bangka at pinaandar na nong lalake ito papunta doon. Hindi na ako makapagsalita dahil sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko, hindi ko ineexpect ang ganitong bagay ngayong gabi.

“Thank you Kuya,” sambit ni Gun ng buhatin niya ako pababa ng bangka at binaba dito sa gazebo na ito, sobrang ganda… may table sa gitna, it’s dinner date.

“Sige ho, Boss tawagan niyo na lang po ako pagpapasundo na kayo,” sabi nito bago umalis at naiwan kaming dalawa dito ni Gun.

Hinarap niya ako at ngumiti, “Surprise,” he said and chuckled.

Nginitian ko siya at unti-unting napaluha, nilapitan ko siya at niyakap. “Ano na naman ba ito, sobrang daming surprises!!” sambit ko kaya mas natawa siya.

“Napapansin ko kasi na laging kang stress out sa trabaho and that makes you sad, even though you try your best to hide it ramdam ko. I want to make you happy so I did this, I plan this after seeing you working so hard,” what he said made me cry, even more, biglang naramdaman ko ang depression ko sa trabaho.

The thought that I can’t do better on my job even though I try my best, laging palpak at hindi ko na nagagawang maging masaya sa trabaho ko. That’s what’s stressing me the most, the fact that I can’t even feel the fun at my job.

Because I always fail…

“Shhh don’t cry na, hinanda ko ito para maging masaya tayo ngayong gabi,” Gun said and wipe my tears, bago niya ako pinaupo sa upuan at pinaghandaan ng pagkain.

He served me fish fillet with mash potato and salmon slices.

“Let’s eat,” he cheerfully said, and I nodded.

“Beb always remembers this, you are great in every single thing you do in my eyes. Let’s not care about what other people will think of us. What’s important is what’s between the two of us. We can live with that right,” seryoso niyang sambit at hinawakan ang aking kamay.

Tama siya, he’s all I need to survive!

“Yes,” I said.

He’s all I need.

Chapter 28

EXTRA R18

After eating, Gun suddenly light-up a small red candle, and played a song. Tumayo siya at inabot ang kanyang kamay sa akin.

“Can I heat you up,” he said, agad kumunot ang aking noo sa kanyang sinabi, “What!?” I ask, he chuckles and pulls me up.

“I hate your brother for teaching me that” he whispers and we both laugh, even though I don’t really understand what he said a while ago.

He put both of my arms on his shoulders while his hands wrapped around my waist and pulled me closer to him, “Hindi tayo marunong sumayaw Gun,” I whispered when he rested his forehead on mine.

“It’s just the two of us Beb,” he said and chuckled as he closes his eyes and feel the mood, sa sobrang lapit ng aming mukha sa isa’t-isa ramdam ko na sa aking balat ang kanyang mainit na paghina sa kabila ng lamig dito sa lugar na kinatatayuan namin.

As it continues, I suddenly felt the urge to reach for his lips and kiss those delicate lips of him, ang kaninang malamig na pakiramdam ay unti-unti natabunan ng init na dinadala ng kanyang malalim na paghinga.

Hindi ko alam kung ako lang ba ito oh, pero biglang nagiba ang mood ng paligid at uminit. At habang tumatagal kong tinititigan ang kanyang labi ay unti-unti akong nalalasing sa kakaibang pakiramdam na ito at unti-unting nilapit ang aking labi sa kanya.

I start it with a peck and as our lips touch, a sudden amount of electricity runs on my nerves and gives butterflies to my stomach.

That touch was a trap because it makes me trust for more, His hand gently caresses my waist, and because I’m only wearing this swimwear. I clearly feel the warmth of his palm up to his chest.

Our lips were just touching and not kissing, which builts more hunger inside of me.

“It’s working,” Gun whisper making our lips touch once again, Fuck I want that lips, nag subukan ko siyang halikan ay sinasadya niyang lumayo at ngumiti. I’m going crazy!

“What do you m-mean?” I whisper and keep staring at those lips. He smirks and gives me a wet peck.

“That candle is a sensual candle Beb,” he devilishly said and grabbed my butt and pushed it to me, which made me feel his bulge in between my stomach.

“What!” I said but he grips on my butt making me close my eyes and hold his arms for support. He started massaging my butt as he kept on rubbing that hard thing against me.

“That candle scent will activate your hormones and make you feel so hot and ready for this kind of activity,” he purposely uses his bedroom voice to seduce me more, as his other hand gently touches my mound.

“You plan this” parang kinakaposan na ako ng hininga dahil sa iinit na dinadala ng kanyang mga kamay, I start to breathe heavy and catching air.

“Yes Beb, got tips from your brother,” He playfully said while doing this job on my butt and chest. At alam kong binibitin niya ako tuwing gusto ko na siyang halikan.

That sensual candle is working! This is not me…

Bumaba ang kanyang kamay mula sa aking pwetan papunta sa sensitibong parte ng aking katawan. “Beb you’re soaking we—,” hindi ko na siya pinatapos magsalita at hinila ang kwelyo ng kanyang dress shirt at sinabi, “Pwede bang gawin na lang natin hindi yong binibitin mo pa ako!!” I haze na agad niyang tinawanan.

“Woah Beb, say less,” he said, at bigla niya akong binuhat at pinaupo sa table. Agad niyang pinaghiwalay ang aking mga binti at pumwesto sa gitna nito.

Tinanggal niya ang pagkaka butones ng aking denim shorts at mabilis itong hinubad, now I’m just wearing my swimsuit in front of him. He slowly pushed my shoulder and laid me down on the table as he pushed the plates on the floor.

Good thing the plates weren’t glass, he put his hands on my neck and slowly slipped it down to my chest, towards my stomach sending a lot of shivers on my whole system, I bit my lower lip when his hands reached my in between.

He used his free hands to touch my lips, and I don’t know why but I suddenly felt the urge to lick and suck his fingers.

When I did that Gun lean down to me and whisper, “I might buy a lot of this candle if you continue dosing this Beb,” he licks my earlobe as he said that and start to kiss me down to my neck, I instantly arched my neck and give him better access.

Naramdaman ko ang kanyang kamay na ginilid ang suot kong swimsuit at dahil swimsuit lang ang suot ko at wala nang kung anong dobleng underwear sa ilalim nito agad kong naramdaman ang kanyang kamay sa aking sensitibong parte.

I could feel him rubbing his finger to my clit and playing with that wet thing in it. “Hmm,” I moaned when he did that and hit something pleasurable down there.

I gasped when he suddenly inserted a finger inside of me. “Aghhh..nghh,” parang nawawala na ako sa sarili dahil sa kanyang ginagawa at kumapit na sa lamesa.

“This is against my will,” I still try to be me and haze him as he starts moving those fingers inside of me.

“Really? Then why is this?” Gun said and tried to spread my in-between on my folds and tease my clit and push his finger deeper.

“Soaking wet?” he said and moved his hand faster, and his other hand pulled my swimsuit down to my stomach and revealed my mounds in front of him.

He put my nipple between his fingers and started pinching it and licking the tip of it, that move making me lose control that I just want to faint now because of so much pleasure.

Gun lick and suck my mound like a hungry baby for milk, I know I’m near to the cumming stage when he moves faster and deeper down there.

“Gun,” I call out his name when I release that climax I got because of those filthy fingers.

Nanghihina ako huminga ng malalim ng mailabas ko iyon at tila nanginginig ang aking mga tuhod dahil doon. Akala ko tapos na kami ni Gun pero nagulat ako ng buhatin niya ako at padapang pinahiga sa lamesa habang nakatapak sa sahig ang aking mga paa.

When I glanced at him I saw him pulling his board shorts down and bringing out that hard thing and dry hop it on my folds.

“Agh G-gun” I groaned as it kept stimulating my folds, Gun moved faster and I was feeling when he suddenly inserted it whole.

“Ah!” I groaned in pain as it almost felt like I was ripped apart, but Gun leaned down and kissed my nape gently and made me focus on his lips while he slowly moved down there.

Pounding me with that thing, pakiramdam ko punong-puno ako dahil sa bagay na iyon. Gun lifts my right thighs up making me spread my folds even move and that way makes him hit the spot.

“Hmmm,” hindi ko na magawang makilala ang aking sarili dahil sa tunog na aking nilalabas dahil sa ginagawa ni Gun, I don’t know how did this sweet surprise dinner turn out to be this steamy.

Gun moves faster when we both know that we are about to reach our climax, “Ah ah ah,” naririnig ko na ang tunog na ginagawa ng lamesa dahil sa lakas ng pagbayo ni Gun.

“Ah.” “Fuck,” sabay naming sambit ng may mainit na bagay ang pumutok sa aking loob.

Gun did a few more hard thrusts before he held my chin and made me face him, kiss my lips and lick the side of it. Dahil hinalikan niya ako ay nakatagilid ang nakahiga sa lamesa.

Naramdaman kong hinawakan ni Gun ang aking isang hita, I was forced to open my eyes when Gun suddenly penetrated me with this side position of mine, and put one of my legs on his shoulder and started thrusting.

He moves and pounds me even more and this position gives different kinds of pleasure, and this time every thrust perfectly hits the g spot.

“Gun!!!” moan his name as he pushes deeper and harder…

I’m gonna die because of this, please! Why is that candle turning us up like this wild.

Again, naramdaman ko na malapit na ako kaya kinagat ko ang aking ibabang labi at pumikit, kumapit sa lamesa ng sobrang higpit.

“I’m cumming, Beb,” he groaned and thrust faster.

“Agh shit,” he moaned and thrust for the last time and released inside of me, and after him, I ended up reaching my climax and exploded that thing inside.

“Thank you for the dinner, Beb,” he whispered as he leaned above me and rested.

“I wasn’t informed that I was your dinner!” I hazed him, which made him chuckle.

“The best dinner I ever had,” nakapikit niyang sambit bago tumayo at kumuha ng tissue. Binuhat niya ako pa upo sa upuan at nilinisan gamit ang tissues at wet wipes sa gilid.

Habang ginagawa niya iyon napatingin sa dalampasigan kung saan kukonti na lang ang tao doon.

“Tawagan mo na si Kuya gusto ko nang matulog,” inaatok kong sambit at pumikit, tumayo siya at hinalikan ako sa aking labi bago ngumiti.

“Yes ma’am, kaya n’yo bang tumayo?” malokong tanong niya, kahit alam niya na yong sagot.

Sinamaan ko siya ng ngiti at tumawa lang siya bago tinawagan si Kuya at maya-maya lang ay dumating na ito.

“Sandali lang kuya buhatin ko lang girlfriend ko, nalasing eh haha,” Gun said.

Nag ibakay niya ako agad kong kinagat ang kanyang tenga at bumulong, “Nalasing ah.”

“Yeah, nalasing sa akin haha…”

Chapter 29

“Hey wake up sleepy head,” Nagising ako ng marinig ang boses ni Gun sa aking tenga at mainit nitong paghinga sa aking tenga.

Unti-unti kong iminulat ang aking mga mata, ay nakatanggap ako ng halik mula sa kanya, kaya na ipikit ko muli ang aking mga mata at ngumiti habang tinatanggap ang kanyang matamis na halik.

“Good Morning,” he whisper after the kiss, pakiramdam ko ay pagod na pagod pa rin ako hanggang ngayon matapos ng nangyari kagabi, and all I thought last night is tapos na but Gun insisted as we step inside of his suite.

“Morning,” I answer and open my eyes, Gun smile at me and carry me up para makaupo ako at niyakap ako ng sobrang higpit.

“Still sore?” He asks, which makes me roll my eyes and hit him at the back, “Do you think I’ll be ok after what you did last night!! Ghad Gun you’re always in the mood!” I hazed and pushed him away but in a teasing way.

He chuckled, “cause your a mood Beb, how can I resist,” sambit niya at ninakawan ako ng halik bago tumayo. Napatingin ako sa aking sarili ng makitang nakasuot na sa akin ang shorts ko at isang oversized white t-shirt na alam kog t-shirt niya.

Wait! Shocks!!! Baka hanapin ako ni Chantel!!!

Mabilis akong tumayo ng kama at nakaramdam ng kirot sa aking gitnang bahagi pero kailangan ko bumalik sa kwarto namin.

“Where are you going?” tanong niya sa akin ng makitang sinusuot ko na ang slippers ko.

“Kailangan kong bumalik sa room namin baka hinahanap na ako ni Chantel, see you later” I said at mabilis na tumakbo palabas ng kwarto at pumunta sa suite namin.

When I open the door the lights are off and no one’s inside, kung anong itsura nito ng iniwan namin ito ay ganun parin kaya this is a sign that Chantel also didn’t stay here last night.

Nakahinga ako ng maayos at dumiretso sa bathroom para magshower and after I just wear a simple pink shirt and jean, then I just fix my things para sa pag-uwi namin mamaya.

After a minute the door opened and Paige showed up…

I acted like I stayed here the whole night and ask her where had she been, “Paige saan ka galing kagabi pa kita hinahanap!!!” I wanna slap myself and laugh at what I said, hinahanap? Eh sure akong last night I’ve gone crazy because of Gun at wala na akong time hanapin si Chantel.

“Shhhhh!!!” she gestured and pointed her finger on my lips so I would speak in a more low tone, “Did my brother look for me?” she asks and sits at my bed, in front of me.

“No, good thing nawala din siya kagabi kaya hindi nagkagulo nong hinahanap ka namin, saan ka ba nanggaling?” Gun told me that Cad left last night kaya ko na sabi iyon. “I was with Kace ok,” my face automatically turns into a teasing smile and I think I know what happened.

“Ok I understand it already, I don’t need to explain,” I said while chuckling and resuming fixing my clothes.

At kahit sinabi ko nang naintindihan ko ang sinabi niya, kinuwento pa rin niya ang buong nangyari sa kanya. Hindi ko magawang matuwa dahil alam kong may ganun din nangyari sa akin kagabi.

Also, she told me about that guy who tries to put something on her drinks just to get laid with her, nakaramdam ako ng galit at inis doon. Good thing Kace came last night.

After fixing up we all gather at the lobby para magready na sa pag-uwi sa manila.

“Paige umalis si Cad dala ang Van niya kagabi saan ka sasabay ngayon?“I said to Chantel as she looked around to find their van.

“Siguro sain—–” she was cut when Kace appeared beside her and speak, “She’ll go with me, Cad already tell me to drive her home” He formally said to us, so Gun and my brother nodded at him while I keep on smiling purposely at Chantel just to tease her out.

“Let’s go” Kace formerly said and started walking to his car. Chantel faced me and said, “Mauna na kami ingat kayo bye” she waved at us and followed Kace after.

“Oww solo kita ngayon,” Gun said and wrapped his arms around my waist before he pulled me to walk towards his sedan.

While driving he just played music and held my hand as he focused on driving, while I remember what we talked about at our dinner last night before that candle thing happened.

“Sa tingin mo ba maghihiwalay pa ba tayo?” I whisper while we are both seating on this lovely table set in this center beach gazebo.

The ambiance around this place is very mesmerizing, the red candles make a wonderful reflection against the water below. The cold breeze of winds from the ocean gives shivers to my arms and hands.

But his stares and touches make the warmest comfort in my whole world.

“That won’t happen, I mean sobrang tagal na natin magkakilala at alam ko na sa simula pa lang na ikaw lang ang babaeng mamahalin ko sa panghabang buhay Beb.” he said while caress my right hand while smiling at me.

“Paano kung maghi––,” he cut me off and speak, “That will never happen, hindi ko hahayaang magkahiwalay tayo at saka sa tingin mo ba makakaya ko pang mabuhay ng wala ka, halos simula nagkaisip ako ikaw na ang babaeng tinitignan ko at dahilan kung bakit ako patuloy na gumising sa araw-araw” he said and smirk at me with his playful smile.

Hindi ko maiwasang tumawa at hampasin ang kamay niya dahil sa kakornihan niya. “OA naman na yung dahilan mo,” I said and drink this simple wine beside me.

I look at him when he holds my hand a bit tight and looks me in the eye. “But I’m serious Beb, I don’t know if I can face another day without you, I will never let us fall apart and separate. I promise that” he lifts my right hand and kisses it gently.

I smiled at him, that was the safest assurance that I have in my life.dahil hindi ko rin alam ang gagawin ko kung mawala siya sa tabi ko, he was the strength, he was the motivation, he was the inspiration and he was the dream I feature with.

“I love you and we will never fall apart, Sienna,” he said, leaning close to my face and kissing me with the gentlest lips in the world.

“I love you too Gun”

I feel so much assurance because of his words last night and I admit that that is the best thing I heard in my life. Because I know he will never let me go and leave.

Nakauwi kami ng manila pero hindi kami dumiretso ng condo, tumuloy kami sa bahay at kinuha si Charvy kay Mama.

“How’s my baby Charvy, do you miss mommy?” I said as I carried him and kissed him a lot.

“Nakausap mo na ba ang kuya mo?” Mama asks while we sit here in the living room and Gun tries to play with Charvy.

“Hindi pa Ma, pero I will try to talk to him ok, uuwi na din kami Ma para makapagayos pa at may pasok bukas,” I said, Gun get Charvy from me and naunang lumabas ng bahay at nagpaalam kay Mama.

Umuwi kami at nagpahinga lang at natulog, kinabukasan ay maaga din kaming pumasok.

I went busy with my work and also on reaching out to my brother so I end up having a lot of absences at work.

Also, because of my brother and father’s unknown problem, I didn’t accept Cad’s offer for me to handle the deal in New york kaya pinasa ko ulit ito kay Aberry.

I feel so stress out this months… at hindi mawala sa isip ko ang mga sinabi ni Kuya sa akin.

“Kuya kailangan mong bumalik ng Japan sabi ni Papa, ano ba, pakinggan mo naman ako oh!” pinuntahan ko siya dito sa bar na sinasabi ni Gun na itinayo niya para lang pag-usapan ito pero pilit niya akong iniiwasan at ayaw itong pag-usapan.

“Kuya ano ba!!!” pumasok kami sa isang VIP room doon niya ako marahas na hinarap. “What! I said I dont’ want to comeback, ano bang hindi malinaw doon!” he shouted at my face.

“Kuya ang hindi malinaw doon ay bakit ayaw mo nang bumalik, alam mo naman ikaw ang maghahandle ng business ni Papa doon, hindi ka ba talaga magiging responsableng anak!!!” I ask that make him mad and throw all the caps on the table here inside at lahat iyon ay nagsibasag.

“Responsableng anak? Fuck it, Sienna, isn’t it enough that I stayed with him when you and mom choose to leave us? Isn’t it enough that I grow up alone and didn’t have the chance to do things that I want, and in my way? Isn’t it enough?!  Fuck! You don’t feel it because you’re with our mother, she takes good care of you, while I stayed the hell inside the house, studying and living alone all this time! I fucking stay as a responsible son because you weren’t there! both of you leave instead of trying to fix our family back!!!”

What he said breaks my heart and suddenly felt the pain I hid for a long time, that pain that our parents gave us.

The reason why I can’t be happy is that this pain haunts me every time I want to escape.

And Gun was my only escape from the pain.

And now that my brother speaks up, I regret leaving him. “I’m sorry” I said and walk out of that room at paglabas ko ng bar agad akong sinalubong ni Gun at niyakap ng sobrang higpit.

I cried my heart out to him…

That’s the reason why I state off for almost a month, and Gun always tries his best to make me feel better.

Now ngayon lang ulit ako papasok ng opisina and I know Aberry just closed the deal in New york and she’s here.

I want to say sorry to her, dahil pakiramdam ko naging unprofessional ako this past few months dahil sa problema ko.

At sa kanya ko inaasa lahat, ngayon babawi ako at mag bubuo ng mas malakas na team work kasama siya.

As I enter the office there is she—,

Packing her things off her table, what?

“Aberry?” I ask.

“Anong ginagawa mo?” tanong ko ng humarap siya sa akin.

“Nag Resign na ako,” she said and smile.

What?! I can’t lose her…

Please don’t leave Aberry, not now please I badly want to say that but, “I understand,” I said and smiled at her.

Please don’t leave Aberry…I need you.

Chapter 30

Kasalukuyan ako ngayong nakaupo sa aking upuan dito sa loob ng aking opisina. Walang ingay sa paligid, tanging ang tunog lang ng aircon ang maririnig mo dito sa loob. Tahimik lang akong nakatingin sa walang laman na lamesa ni Aberry.

Tuluyan na siyang umalis at ito ang unang araw na wala siya, alam ko sa sarili ko na masyado na akong umasa sa kanya. Kaya ngayong wala na siya sobrang takot ang aking nararamdaman, takot na baka hindi ko na na naman magawa ng tama ang aking mga trabaho dahil wala na siya.

I was in the middle of silence when my phone rings and Mama is calling,

“Hello Ma” sagot ko at sumandal sa swivel chair ko upang ipahinga ang aking sarili. Dahil sa kaiisip sumasakit na ang aking ulo at inaatake na naman ako ng anxiety ko.

“Sienna ninakawan ang shop ko anak,” Umiiyak na sambit ni Mama mula sa kabilang linya, kaya agad akong napaupo ng maayos.

“Ano!!!”

“Si Weng yung isang empleyado ko kinuha niya lahat ng pera sa bolt ng cafe, iniwan ko sa kanya kagabi ang susi dahil may tiwala akong isasara niya ng maayos ang cafe anak, pero ninakawan niya lang ako anak,” sambit ni Mama, mabilis akong tumayo at kinuha ang bag ko.

“Pupunta ako dyan Ma, hintayin mo ako,” I said and instantly leave the office and ride a taxi to our cafe.

It just took me a minutes bago ako nakarating sa cafe ni Mama, naabutan ko siyang umiiyak sa loob habang pinapatahan ng ibang empleyado. “Ma!” sambit ko at agad siyang nilapitan at niyakap.

“Anak wala na ang pinaghirapan ko, Anak,” bakas ang sakit sa boses ni Mama ngayon at dahil kahinaan kong umiiyak si Mama, nagsimula na ring tumulo ang aking mga luha at tinignan si Jing ang isang empleyado ni Mama.

“Where’s the CCTV footage?” tanong ko at binitawan si Mama at pinaalalay kay Cris na isa ding empleyado dito.

“Dito po sa loob Ma’am,” sambit ni Jing at pumasok sa kusina, sinundan ko siya hanggang sa security room dito sa loob ng kusina kung saan nakalagay ang monitor para CCTV footage.

“Nakuhanan ba?” tanong ko habang chinecheck na namin ang footage kagabi, “Opo Ma’am,” sabi niya at tinigil ang footage sa 10:48 pm last night kung saan pinapakita sa footage na sinara na si Weng ang cafe at nagpaalam kay Mama.

Then she move it to 1:36 am footage kung saan makikitang bumalik si Weng ng may kasamang lalaki at binuksan ang pinto ng cafe, Jing turn the footage sa loob na ng cafe mismo kung saan pumasok sila ng kasama niya sa loob ng counter kung saa nakatago sa ilalim ang bolt ng cafe.

The guy na kasama ni Weng was the one holding the bag habang si Weng mismo ang kumukuha ng mga pera sa bolt at lahat ito ay sinimot at walang hamas na umalis pagkatapos.

“Hindi po namin inaasahan nagagawin po ni Weng ito Ma’am, siya po ang pinakamalapit kay Ma’am Zhi halos ituring na rin siyang anak ni Ma’am Zhi dahil naawa siya dito,” I bit my lower lip and feel pity for my mother, she trusted that kid so much and yet that kid do things like this to her.

“Ilang taon na nga ulit si Weng?” Tanong ko at sinumulang tawagan si Cadmus.

“Kaka18 lang po niya last month,” sagot nito, that kid ruined her life at an early age. I nodded and put my phone to my ear and waited for Cad to answer it.

After a few seconds, he answered, “Hello?” he asked.

“Hello, Sir I would like to ask for Atty. Austin’s phone number,” I said, “Well I don’t usually give his number to anyone but since it’s you, Ok,” he said and turned off the call and after a few seconds he sent me Atty. Austin’s phone number.

Agad ko itong tinawagan at medyo mailap itong sagutin ang tawag ko kaya kinailangan ko pa siyang itext at magpakilala bago niya sinagot ang aking tawag.

I explained to him what happened and he said he’ll take care of it.

Bumalik ako sa labas para puntahan si Mama at patahanin sa pag-iyak, sinubukan ko ding tawagan si Kuya pero hindi niya sinasagot ang tawag ko.

Dahil alam kong galit pa rin ito sa akin… I waited the whole day for Atty. Austin’s call and the police already went to our cafe a while ago and now they’re on the search for that Kid Weng.

Ngayong ay kasalukuyan kong sinusubukan tawagan si Gun para sana ipaalam na malalate ako ng uwi ngayon pero hindi niya sinasagot ang tawag ko.

I already texted him a lot of text messages but he’s not answering.

“Gun why aren’t you answering the ca––,” hindi ko natapos ang binubulong ko ng biglang nagtext ang police station sa akin at sinabing nahuli na daw nila si Weng.

Agad akong tumayo na ikinagulat ni Mama, “Nahuli na sila,” I said and lahat sila ay tumingin sa akin. “Ako na lang ang pupunta Ma,” I said and was about to leave when Mama stopped me by holding my hand and wiping her tears.

“Sasama ako anak,” she said, wala akong nagawa kundi isama siya at pagdating namin doon agad kaming inassist ng police kung saan naroon si Weng, nasa loob ng rehas.

Nagsimula ulit lumuha si Mama bago magsalita, “Bakit mo nagawa ito Weng?” tanong ni Mama dito.

Pero yumuko lamang ito at hindi sinagot ang tanong ni Mama, dumating ang police at sinabi, “Ma’am hindi na po namin na hanap sa tirahan nila yung perang ninakaw nila,” nanlambot si Mama sa kanyang kinatatayuan buti na lang ay mabilis ko siyang inalalayan at dinala sa labas

Nakipagusap ako sa police tungkol sa kasong isasampa namin,after that inuwi ko na si Mama sa bahay at inalalayan siya sa kanyang kwarto at pinainom ng gamot para maayos siyang makatulog.

Then again, I tried calling and texting Gun but his not answering, so I just texted him na hindi ako makakauwi dahil sasamahan ko si Mama dito sa bahay.

Kinabukasan ay maaga akong nagising para sana ipaghanda si Gun ng almusal pero naalala kong dito pala ako natulog sa bahay ni Mama kaya wala si Gun, and when I check my phone walang akong reply na natanggap mula sa kanya.

Kaya si Mama na lang ang pinaghandaan ko ang almusal at sinamahan siyanga kumain, tila walang gana si Mama dahil sa nangyari at sinabing magpapahinga na lang muna siya buong araw kaya nagpaalam ako na sasaglit sa condo para makapag bihis at babalik ako sa police station mamayang hapon.

Iniwan ko muna si Mama at umuwi sa condo, pagbukas ko ng condo agad akong sinalubong ni Charvy at kinagat ang aking pantalon, “Hello baby,” I said and smile at him.

Napansin kong nasa sofa ang coat ni Gun kaya alam kong nandito siya, tumuloy muna ako sa kusina para uminom ng tubig bago tumuloy sa kwarto…

Pagpasok ko sa loob naabutan kong nakapatay ang aircon at nakasara ang mga kurtina kay madilim pa rin dito sa loob, ng buksan ko ang ilaw nakita kong balot na balot ng comforter si Gun at tila namumutla ito.

“Gun!!” mabilis akong tumakbo sa kanya at hinawakan ang kanyang pisngi, mainit siya! May lagnat siya at mataas ito.

“Gun,” I said and try to pull the comforter para mas makita ko siya ng maayos, malamig ang pawis niya. Pero sobrang init ng katawan niya.

Nang mahila ko ito mula s akanya unti-unti niyang iminulat ang kanyang mag mata at sinubukan magsalita, “B-beb y-your h-here w-where h-have y-you b-been?” pous ang kanyang boses at pawis na pawis siya.

Hindi ko nasagot ang tanong niya dahil, kinakain ako ng sobrang kaba ngayon, ang taas ng lagnat niya. “Let’ go to the hospital Beb,” I said and try to pull his hand.

Umiling siya at hinila ako pahiga sa tabi niya, saka niyakap ng sobrang higpit. “Bakit hindi ka umuwi kagabi, sobrang nilalamig ako kagabi,” mahina niyang sambit at siniksik ang mukha sa aking leeg.

Dahil sa sinabi niya pumatak ang luha ko dahil sobra akong naiinis sa aking sarili, dapat umuwi ako kagabi, dapat inalaagaan ko siya kagabi.

Pinunasan ko ang luha ako at suminghot muna bago nagsalita, “Wait kung ayaw mong pumunta tayo sa hospital, bitawan mo muna ako at kukuha ako ng gamot at bimpo para sayo,” sambit ko kaya unti-unti niya akong binitawan at hinayaan akong gawin ang gagawin ko.

Kumuha ako ng bimpo at malamig na tubig sa bowl at umorder din ako ng sopas para sa kanya, hinanda ko rin ang gamot niya at pagpasok ko sa loob ng kwarto agad ko siyang pinunasan at pinalitan ang kanyang t-shirt na basang basa ng pawis bago ko siya pinakain ng sopas.

Pagkatapos kumain at uminom ng gamot agad din siyang nakatulog pero hindi pa rin bumababa ang lagnat niya, kaya bawat minuto ay pinupunasan at chinecheck ko ang temperature niya.

Habang pinapanuod ko siyang matulog tumunog ang phone ko at naka receive ng text mula sa police station na sinasabing inurong daw ni Mama ang kaso.

Agad akong napatayo at kinuha ang aking bag, pero hahakbang pa lang ako ay hinawakan ni Gun ang aking kamay at iminulat ang kanyang mga mata. “Stay,” he whispered.

Agad akong natauhandahil doon, anong ginagawa ko! Iiwan ko nanaman siya may lagnat siya!! Ano bang naiisip mo Sienna!! Natutuliro na ako dahil sa mga nangyayari, bakit inurong ni mama ang pagsampa ng kaso?!!

Bumalik ako at umupo, hinawakan ang kamay ni Gun at payukong pumukit dahil sa stress. “Sorry I won’t leave,” I said and with that Gun urge a smile before he smile again.

Sinubukan kong tawagan si Mama pero pinapatay niya ang tawag at ng itext ko siya para itanong kung bakit inurong niya ang kaso, she replied…

From Mama,

Sorry anak, naawa ako sa bata buntis pala siya at kailangan niya ang pera na iyon. Kaya inurong ko ang kaso anak.

After I call the Atty. and talk to the police about the case!

To Mama,

Peor akala ko ba Ma, gusto mo siyang sampahan ng kaso kaya nga ako nakipagusap sa pulis.

From Mama,

Wala naman akong sinabi na gusto ko silang sampahan ng kaso anak, ikaw ang bigla nalang nag desisyon.

Kasalanan ko pa pala?

To Mama,

Ok if that’s what you want Ma.

Napayuko ako sa kama at doon naiyak sa sobrang stress, hindi ako nakauwi kay Gun last night dahil gusto kong maayos ang problema ni Mama, at ginawa ko lahat ng kaya ko para ipahuli ang dalawang iyon.

Tapos malalaman kung binabalewala lang lahat ng ginawa ko kahapon? Ngayon nagsisisi na akong hindi ako umuwi kagabi.

I should have let Mom decide, bakit ba kasi ako nagmamagaling!

Sobrang pagod na ang isip ko, kaya umiiyak akong umakyat ng kama at niyakap si Gun.

Maya-maya lang ay gumalaw siya at niyakap ako pabalik… he hugged me so tight that makes me cry even more.

I should have chosen to go home to you, maybe this won’t happen.

Chapter 31

Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog pala ako sa yakap ni Gun at nagising ng wala siya sa tabi ko, kaya mabilis akong tumayo at hinanap siya sa labas, wala siya sa sala at sa kusina! Napatingin ako sa wall clock 7 na ng gabi.

“Gun!!” I shouted at bumalik sa kwarto, kinakabahan ako.

At medyo umiikot pa ang paningin ko dahil sa pagtulog, hinanap ko siya sa walk in closet pero wala at tumakbo ako sa bathroom at sapilitan itong binuksan.

“Gun!” I shouted and when I open it I saw him resting at the bathtub at halatang nagulat siya ng buksan ko ang pinto. “B-beb?” tanong niya at umayos ng upo dito.

Para akong nabunutan ng tinik ng makita siya dito, hindi na siya namumutla. Malakas na paghinga ang aking ginawa bago naglakad papalapit sa kanya at umakyat sa bathtub.

“Beb?! Sandali yung damit mo mababasa,” sambit niya, pero hindi ko ito pinansin at umupo ako sa bathtub kasama siya at yumakap sa kanyang dibdib, bago pinikit ang aking mga mata.

“Beb? Ok ka lang ba? Wag ka nang mag-alala wala na akong lagnat, ok na ako.. Sorry pinagalala kita” he said and hugged me back.

“No, I’m sorry” I said at sumiksik sa kanyang leeg. “Bakit ka nagsosorry sa akin?” tanong niya at inayos ang aking buhok.

I didn’t answer, instead I faced him and kissed him, “I love you, with you I’m at peace,” I whispered and rested on his shoulders.

“I’m lucky to have you Beb,” He whisper and we just stayed like that for an hour before we went back to bed and slept peacefully.

The morning after that day, we eat dinner outside before going to work because he wants me to rest on cooking in the morning. And now I’m currently walking to my office with all the files I need to do for this day.

As soon as I open the door to my office, isang folder ang sumalubong sa akin na hinagis ni Miss Feliciana at lahat ito ay nahulog sa sahig. Mabilis kong sinara ang pinto ng opisina ko at pumasok sa loob, pinulot ang mga papers sa sahig.

“Good morning Miss Feliciana” I greeted her while picking up the paper one by one. “Anong good sa morning kung dalawang linggo ng nakatambak ang papers para sa branch ko!!! Ano bang ginagawa mo!! Simula nung umalis si Aberry bumalik na naman sa dati lahat ng kapalpakan dito!!!!” she shouted, but I chose to keep on picking the papers and understand her.

I know dahil sa problema ko sa aking pamilya this past few days naging unprofessional ako sa trabaho at hinayaan tumambak ang mga ito. “I’m sorry Ma’am gagawin at tatapusin ko po ang lahat ng ito ngayong araw” I said as I stand up and walk to my table put all the papers there and face her with a smile.

“Tss, nagagawa mo pang ngumiti sa kabila ng kapalpakan mo!” she said and turned her back to me, before she walked towards the door and opened it. Bago siya lumabas na rinig ko ang binulong niya.

“Mas mabuti pang ikaw na lang ang nagresign kesa kay Aberry,” she whisper before she close the door and leave.

My smile faded as I sat back on my chair and looked at Aberry’s table. “Aberry why did you leave me? Now I have to go back to what I’ve started again,” I whisper and wipe a tear on my cheeks, and start working.

Buong araw akong nag focus sa pinapagawa ni Mrs. Feliciana at hindi ko na nagawa ng kumain ng tanghalian dahil doon. Now OT na ako pero hindi pa rin ito tapos kaya kailangan ko ito iuwi.

“Woah, that’s a lot of papers, why are you bringing that home?” Gun asks when I enter the car. Sinundo niya ako dahil hindi niya ako naabutan sa bahay ng umuwi siya.

“Hindi pa ako tapos eh, kailangan na ito bukas kaya iuuwi ko at doon tatapusin sa bahay,” I said and start re-reading the files again habang nasa sasakyan.

Nakauwi kami ng condo ng mas mabilis dahil walang traffic, Gun served me food and eat beside me kahit hindi ko siya kinakausap dahil busy ako sa files and papers na ito. Nang mapansin niyang hindi ko magawang kumain ng maayos dahil dito siya na ang nagprisintang subuan ako at pakainin.

After eating, he stayed beside me and played on his phone while waiting for me. Hanggang sa naramdaman ko na lang na may dumantay na sa aking hita dahil nakatulog na siya.

I don’t want to wake him up, so I work like that, with him on my lap sleeping.

Natapos ako ng mga 4:16 am na ng madaling araw, at dahil pagod na rin ako at antok na antok na mas pinili ko na na lang humiga dito sa tabi ni Gun at sa sofa kami natulog.

Nagising na lang ako sa alarm ko na nasa kama na ako at nakahanda na ang almusal sa side table at saka pumasok si Gun na nakaayos na para sa trabaho.

“Eat your breakfast already, para maihatid na kita sa office and get this day done dahil bukas gagala tayo,” masigla niyang sambit.

Saan naman tayo pupunta?

“Saan naman tayo pupunta?” tanong ko at nagsimulang kumain.

He smiled, “Secret!!” he said and went outside and I heard him play with Charvy in the living room.

After I finished my breakfast I took a shwoer and just wore a simple pink tent dress and paired it with flats.

“Let’s go,” I said at sabay kaming umalis ng bahay, iniwan namin si Chrvy sa condo dahil darating din naman ang tagalinis ng condo namin at babantayan niya si Charvy.

“See you later Beb,” he whisper and kiss me before I step out of the car, “Bye ingat,” nakangiti kong sambit at pinauod siyang umalis at hinarap ang kumpanya.

My smile faded away and I took a deep breath before I went inside, just like the old times no one talks to me again, Lana and Alliana are busy with their work while Chantel is always out for photoshoots.

And I Aberry is already in New york…

I open the door to my office and put all the paper in my table and just waited for Mrs. Feliciana to arrive and check all the files.

And as soon as she arrive gusto niya agad mabasa yong mga files na ginawa ko. “Ma’am, I think it’s way better if we improve the color of the brand sign for the middle ages because as we can see major numbers of people at your age tends to lose a better eyesight, color are important to make our––,” hindi ko natapos ang sasabihin ko ng bigla niyang lukutin ang hawak niyang papel.

“Ayaw ko ng Ideyang ito, halatang hindi pinag isipan at pinagpaguran, baguhin mo yan,” she said and stand up ready to leave again.

“Gusto ko ng maayos na trabaho next month, I will leave for vacation tomorrow and came back next month. Minami patunayan mo naman ang sarili mo,” madiing sambit ni Miss Feliciana bago umalis ng tuluyan.

Nanghihina ako umupo sa swivel chair ko at sinandal ang aking likod dito bago pumikit at maiyak sa frustration, Still a failure Sienna.

“No, kaya mo ito Sienna, do it better this time,” I said I cheered myself up and wiped my tears, went back to work and I have One month to make this way better and a success.

Gaya ng kahapon nagfocus ulit ako buong maghapon sa trabaho at umuwi ng condo na may dalang papers.

“Hey walang pasok bukas, can we just rest and aalis tayo bukas” he said and pulled me to the bed, we slept peacefully and woke up in the morning sunshine.

Bumiyahe kami kasama si Charvy ng hindi ko alam kung saan kami pupunta kaya natulog ako sa byahe at nagising sa halik ni Gun.

“Nasaan na tayo?” tanong ko.

“Tagaytay.”

Chapter 32

“Tagaytay” he whispered and kissed me again, before he removed my seat belt and got his bag at the back seat, stepped out of the car to open mine.

Charvy barks at me before we step out of the Car, I put him down and hold his leash as we started walking, “Kaya pala pinasuot mo ako ng jacket,” natatawa kong sambit at hinarap si Gun, habang may kinukuha sa trunk ng sasakyan.

Charvy keeps on jumping and running all around me, halatang sobrang naexcite siya sa paligid. He never seen such a green place dahil puro building ang nakikita niya sa condo.

“Charvy,” I call his name and he looks at me before he jumps and smells the grass. We are in Tagaytay picnic grove.

“Alright, let’s go,” nilingon ko si Gun ng isara niya ang trunk at may dala-dalang picnic basket. “So, pumunta tayo dito para magpicnic?” hindi makapaniwala kong tanong na agad niyang sinagot ng pagtango at inabot ang aking kamay para humanap ng pwede pwestuhan.

Instead of seating and renting a picnic table around here, Gun chose to find a plain grass spot and may nilabas siyang telang kulay puti at nilatag ito doon, bago niya ipinatong ang picnic basket at nilabas ang mga pagkain na naroon.

“Kaya pala pinaayos mo sa’kin ang closet mo kaninang umaga bago umalis dahil nagluluto ka pala umorder ka pa ng ibang food,” natatawa kong sambit dahil ang cute ng ginawa niya para lang hindi ko makita na nagluluto siya.

“Oo, ginulo ko talaga iyon para hindi mo makitang nagluluto ako, because I wanted to surprise you and I think it works…” he said and put all the food down and we both seat here with Charvy keeps playing along with the grass and the cold breeze of the wind.

“Do you like it?” Gun asks, as we settle down and start enjoying the view and watching Charvy play.

I genuinely smile at him and lean close to reaching his face to gently kiss him, “I love it” I whisper, and we both smile at each other and just relax here.

I feel so calm beside him and just watching Charvy explore the place, “Alam kong pagod ka sa trabaho and I want you to rest so I take you here, actually wala na akong naisip na plano after this dahil ang nasa isip ko lang talaga ay mapasaya ka with this simple date and make you forget of stress kahit na saglit lang.” he said and play with my hands, I smile at him and look around suddenly I saw a kid riding a horse.

“I have plan,” I said, kaya tinignan niya ako bago lumingon sa tinitignan ko.

“Let’s try riding the horse,” masigla kong sambit at tumayo, “You just ride me instead,” he joked kaya pinalo ko ang balikat niya at binuhat si Charvy papunta sa nag aassist ng gustong sumakay sa kabayo.

Gun paid for one horse and the guy volunteered to check Charvy for us while we rode the horse.

“Do you know how to ride it Beb?” tanong ko habang inaayos ang kabayo para sa amin. “I don’t know it’s my first time hahaha,” tumatawa niyang sambit.

“Don’t worry I’m a fast learner Beb,” he said and sumakay na sa kabayo, hinayaan ko muna siyang itry ito and when he already know how to handle it sumakay na rin ako at nag ikot kami sa park.

“Are you sure this is your first time?” tanong ko sa kanya habang patuloy kaming nagiikot dito sa park, Gun looks like he almost mastered this thing even if he said that this was his first time.

“Beb, hindi ako nagka time mag aral nito alam mo naman iyon ngayon ko lang ito na try,“natatawa niyang sambit, Yeah, I know…

What can I expect? Gun is a type of Guy who can fit into any kind of thing, work, and activity. He’s the real opposite of me, he’s good at everything while I’m a failure.

“Beb anong iniisip mo? Bakit ka nanahimik d’yan?” tanong niya ng mapansing hindi ako nagsasalita.

“Wala naman haha,” sambit ko at niyakap siya lalo mula sa likod at pinatong ang aking mukha sa kanyang balikat. I just want to rest.

Pagkatapos ng horseback riding kinuha namin si Charvy at ibinalik sasakyan ang picnic basket namin bago nag ikot muli sa mga stall dito sa park.

“Hi Sir ang gwapo n’yo naman ho,” sambit ng batang tindera ng tumingin kami ni Gun ng t-shirt sa stall nila. Gun smiles at her and looks at me, “Girlfriend nyo po?” nakangiting tanong nito kay Gun ng makitang hinawakan ni Gun ang aking bewang habang buhat-buhat ko si Charvy.

“Yes, ganda noh,” sambit niya nginitian ang bata. “Opo bagay na bagay kayo baka gusto niyo pong bumuli nitong sing-sing na ito gawa ko po ito,” she said and showed us a beautiful wire wrapped ring na may sapphire gemstone na maliit.

Halatang gawang bata lang ito pero maganda siya at worth it bilhin, “Wow,” I whisper.

Gun smiled at her and brought out his wallet, “You made that?” he asked, and the kid nodded with a wide smile.

“Edi kung ikaw may gawa niyan, pwede mo bang ibless yan bago ko bilhin,” nakangiting sambit ni Gun at naglabas ng 5 thousand mula sa wallet niya.

“Ok na ok po, ang sing-sing po na ito ay isa sa magiging tanda ng tunay na pagmamahalan nyong dalawa, habang buhay po haha,” natawa kaming dalawa ni Gun sa sinabi ng bata at kinuha ang sing-sing na gawa nito ay isinuot sa isat-isa.

“Here,” Gun handed the money to the girl that made her kid hug him and say, “Thank you po ng marami sobra po ito,” she said before she ran to her Mom and handed the money to her.

“Let’s watch the sunset,” he said and kissed my hand before we went back to the car and seat on top of it.

And waited for the sunset to come…

“Sobrang ganda ng araw na ito,” I whisper while I’m resting my head on his shoulders. “Mas maganda ang ngiti mo kesa sa araw na ito Beb, wag kang papatalo,” he said and we both laugh.

He just holds my hand and keeps telling jokes to me, some of them are literally funny and the others are corny.

“Beb ano ang maharlikang pagkain?” he asks, I look at him and smile before I ask.

“Ano?” wala pa man ay natatawa na ako dahil sa expression niya.

“Edi, Prince fries haha” sabay kaming tumawa sa joke na iyon ng biglang tumunog ang phone niya at may tumatawag.

“Hahaha wait,” sabi niya at sinagot ng tawag, bumababa siya ng sa sasakyan at kinausap muna nag tumawag sa kanya.

I know it was his Dad because he showed it to me before he answered it…

He looked shocked while talking to his dad and he glanced at me with different emotions in his eyes, which makes me feel uneasy…

What’s wrong?

My heart started to beat so fast when the call ended and Gun tore up his hair, and he only did that when he was problematic…

Umakyat siya muli sa tabi ko at niyakap ako, pinatong ang baba sa aking balikat bago huminga ng malalim.

“Anong problema?” tanong ko.

He sighs once again and…

“I need to go back to America, Beb.”

Chapter 33

“I need to go back to America, Beb,” he said and held my hand, caressing it like we were scared of what would happen next if we went back.

“W-why?” hindi ako makapagsalita ng maayos dahil sa bilis ng tibok ng aking puso at parang biglang may bumara sa aking lalamunan, at hindi ko magawang magsalita ng maayos.

“Dad said he’s going to train me handling his company because he’s retiring next two months and as his son, I should be the one to handle it.. Beb this is the first time my Dad ask me to go home and he said he wanted to be with me” bakas ang saya ng bangitin niya ang sinabi ng amang gusto siyang makasama nito dahil alam kong sabik na sabik si Gun sa kanyang ama simula bata pa kami.

Dahil lumaki siyang kasama ang si Tita Celia at kahit nasa america sila noon, ay madalang umuwi ang kanyang ama dahil sa negosyo nito.

Gun once said that if he was given an opportunity to stay with his Dad he will do it without any doubt because that was his dream. He became the best version of him, for his Dad to notice it and call him.

And now everything is happening now…

I can’t ruin his dream, ngumiti ako at hinawakan ang kanyang pisngi, “I’m proud of you” I said before I lean closer and kiss his cheeks.

I hugged him and took a deep breath before facing him again, I smiled and controlled my tears to fall. “Kailan alis mo?” nakangiti kong tanong.

He looks at me and wipes my tears, because even if I cry my best to control it. It still chooses to fall. “Gaano katagal ka daw doon? 3 months? 5?“sambit ko ang nagsimula na suminghot dahil nagpatuloy ng tumulo ang aking mga luha.

Gun just looks at me and keeps wiping my tears and caressing both of my cheeks.

“Punta tayo ng beach bago ka umalis, kahit 1 week lang” I keep on covering the sadness in my words and try to look for the good stuff, while he just truthfully stare at me and like his memorizing each and every part of it.

“I will leave tomorrow night Beb,” He said that makes me stiff, b-bukas…a-agad..

“I will leave tomorrow if I choose to but if you continue crying like this, I might now go then,” malungkot niyang sambit at patuloy akong tinitignan at pinupunasan ang pagtulo ng luha ko.

“Hindi na lang ako pupunta kung iiyak ka ng ganito,” sambit niya at hinila ako upang yakapin ng sobrang higpit.

“Ayaw kong iwan ka kung iiyak ka ng ganito Sienna,” He keeps on saying that, but this is his whole life dream, to be with his Dad, hindi pwedeng dahil sa akin ay hindi niya ito makakamit.

Pero hindi ko matiis na umiyak sa kanyang dibdib, hindi ko maisip na ganito kabilis…

“Pumunta ka Beb,” I whisper and wipe my tears bago siya hinarap, looking through his eyes makes me want to beg him to forget about those dreams but I know it to myself that this will complete him as a kid.

His dream to be with his father will complete his whole time dream…

I smile at him, hold his hand, look down at it, and touch our tattoos.

“I know you always wanted to be with your Dad, and now this is your chance to stay with him,” I said and looked back at those faded green eyes.

“Isa pa diba pangarap mo ring maghandle ng kumpanya ng Dad mo, ngayon na lahat mangyayari iyon Beb….sobs Susuportahan kita tyaka kaya naman natin ang long distance relationship diba,” saying that last word makes my heart break but I need to be strong for the both of us.

“Kaya naman natin diba?” I ask once again when Gun started to wipe tears from his eyes.

He nodded like a child and looked at me, I smiled at him, “We can video call each other every day, every hour and every minute, wala lang ito diba…diba Charvy kaya natin ito ni Daddy,” I cheerfully said.

“Ok,” Gun said and kissed me, “I will do this for my Dad, and when I come back we will get married ok,” he said and smiled at me.

I smile back at him and caress his cheeks, “Yes, I do,” sagot ko kaya tumawa kaming dalawa at inenjoy muli ang sunset.

The sunset suddenly feel so heavy and fast, parang biglang natakot ako sa bilis ng takbo ng oras..at habang hawak ko ang kamay niya ngayon pakiramdam ko sa oras na binitawan ko ito ay matagal ko nang hindi ito muli mahahawakan.

Sobrang bigat ng pakiramdam ko sa bawat sigundong lumilipas at bawat haplos ko sa kanyang mga daliri ay katumbas ng patinding pagpipigil ng pagtulo ng aking luha.

Huminga ako ng malalim ng tuluyan ng nagtago ang haring araw at ang malamig na simoy ng hangin na dala ng madilim na gabi ang yumakap sa aking balat.

“Let’s go,” Gun said and try to let go of my hand but I didn’t let him, tinignan niya ako ng hindi ko bitawan ang kanyang kamay at bakas ang lungkot ng kanyang mga mata ng tignan ako bago ngumiti at hinawakan din ang isa kong kamay at inalalayan pababa sa taas ng sasakyan at agad kaming sumakay at nilagay si Charvy sa dog crate niya sa back seat bago nagsimulang mag drive si Gun.

Sobrang tahimik lang namin sa byahe at patuloy paring mahigpit ang aking pagkakahawak sa kanyang kamay. I don’t want to let it go…

I don’t.

Dahil sa tagal ng byahe ay naka idlip ako ng hindi ko namamalayan at nagising na lang ako ng marinig ang tunog ng elevator at buhat-buhat akong nilabas ni Gun doon habang dala ng condominium helper ang crate ni Charvy.

I hugged him when I opened my eyes and felt his heartbeat, he opened the pad and let the helper put Charvy inside, and close the door.

“We’re here,” He whisper and we went inside our room. Binaba niya ako sa kama at naglalayo na siya agad kong inabot ang kanyang kamay at mahigpit muli itong hinawakan.

“Beb, I will just change,” natatawa niyang sambit pero alam kong hindi totoo ang pagtawa niyang iyon.

Umiling ako at yumuko, mas hinigpitan ko ang hawak at umiling lang ng umiling.

“Beb, I will just change my clothes and I’ll be back,” he said and try to pull his hand kaya mas lalo akong umiling at tumulo na ang aking mga luha habang nakayuko.

“Sienna magpapalit lang ako ng dami—,” tigilan siya ng hinarap ko siya at mas umiyak lalo habang tinititigan siya.

I just can’t stop myself from crying, sobrang bigat ng aking nararamdaman at hindi ko magawang bitawan ang kanyang kamay.

Umiling ako ng dahan-dahan sa huling pagkakataon at yumuko muli, narinig kong nagbuntong hininga si Gun bago umupo sa aking tabi at itinaas ang aking mukha gamit ang isang kamay.

“I love you,” he whispered before he kissed me and slowly pushed me down the bed, and moved above me.

“We can do this Beb, we can pass through this believe me ok, don’t be scared” he whispered and wiped my tears.

After that he leaned down and kissed me like it was the gentlest thing he did in his life, his hand roaming around my body as the other one remained intertwined with mine.

“I love you Sienna, we can do this,” he sincerely said and we shared a sweet and gentle night…

We can do this…

Chapter 34

I woke up with a heavy heart, as I stared at this perfect man in front of me. I can’t believe that that one phone call from his Dad will make this day our last day together before he goes back to his home country together with his Dad.

Hinaplos ko ang kanyang pisngi at inayos ang buhok na nakaharang sa kanyang noo, bago ko siya nilapitan at hinalikan sa kanyang labi.

Sobrang bigat ang aking pakiramdam, at hindi ko magawang titigan siya ng matagal dahil pakiramdam ko tutulo na naman ang aking luha, at ayaw kong makita niyang umiiyak ako muli.

Dahil baka maging dahilan pa ito ang pagatras niya, tumayo ako at binalot ang aking sarili ng kumot bago naglakad papuntang banyo at pagsara ko ng pinto ay kusang tumulo ang aking luha.

Humarap ako sa salamin upang tignan ang aking sarili at pinunasan ang aking luha, Huminga ako ng malalim bago tumuloy sa shower area at nagsimulang maligo.

Sobrang sikip ang aking dibdib sa bawat oras na tumatagal ako sa loob ng banyo, nahihirapan akong huminga tuwing sumasagi sa isip ko na aalis na siya mamaya.

Nanghihina ako at hindi ko magawang maging masaya para sa kanya kahit na ito ang kanyang pangarap, siguro nga pagiging makasarili ang ibig sabihin nitong aking nararamdaman ko pero anong magagawa ko sobrang hirap nito para sa akin.

Matapos maligo at muli akong humarap sa salamin at pinunasan ang aking mukha bago pinilit ngumiti, upang ipakita sa kanya na ok lang ako.

Lumabas ako ng banyo nang gising na si Gun at nakaupo na sa gilid ng kama, at nang makita niya ako ay agad ko siyang nginitian kung kaya’t ngumiti din siya.

Pero alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi kami ganito ngumiti sa isat-isa…

“Good morning” sambit ko at naglakad papalapit sa kanya bago siya niyakap at hinalikan sa pisngi.

He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me in his lap before he faces me and leans his chin on my shoulder and closes his eyes.

“Papasok sana ako ngayong umaga para uuwi na lang ako ng hapo––,” hindi ko natapos ang aking sasabihin ng hawakan ni Gun ang aking kamay habang nakapikit sa aking balikat.

“Can we just stay here?” He whispers, I gulp and try my best to control my emotions and tears. Hinarap ko siya at hinawakan ang kanyang baba mula sa kaing balikat at hinalikan siya sa kanyang labi bago ngumiti bago sumangayon sa kanyang nais.

Bumalik kami sa pagkakahiga sa kama at niyakap niya ako ng sobrang higpit bago siya sumandal sa aking dibdib at muling natulog.

Nanatili akong nakatingin sa kawalan hanggang sa bumalik ako sa pagtulog at nagising na lang na nasa tabi ko parin si Gun at taimtim lang itong nakatingin sa akin.

“Hi,” he whisper as he fix my hair and smile at me, umayos ako ng pagkakahiga bago lumapit sa kanya at muli siyang niyakap. “What time is it now?” tanong ko, at ramdam ko ang takot na marinig ang kanyang sagot.

“2:40 pm Beb,” sagot ni Gun na naging dahilan ng pagbigat muli ng aking dibdib, 3 hours left…

“Do you want me to cook you something?” nanghihina kong tanong pero pilit ko itong tinatago sa kanya. My voice badly wants to crack but I try my best to avoid it and be strong at this moment.

“Gusto ko ng sinigang na baboy, sisig at adobo” Nakangiti niyang sambit bago ako hinalik-halikan sa leeg.

I gulp and urge a smile, “Ok, ipagluluto kita ng mga yan,” I said before I seat on the bed and wear my slippers and walk out of the room, gaya ng kanina mabigat na paghinga muli ang aking ginawa bago tuluyang tumuloy sa kusina.

Charvy instantly plays with my feet when he saw me walking in the kitchen, “Charvy I’m cooking” I gently said and look at him, “Come here little one, wag mong guluhin si Mommy,” biglang lumitaw si Gun at binuhat si Charvy.

When I look at him hindi ko maiwasang ngumiti, “Ano yan?” tanong at itinuro ang kanyang mukha na may drawing ng bigote na halatang pentouch ang kanyang ginamit para magawa iyon.

“I just want to make you smile,” he said and made a funny face before he kissed me and sat in the living room and played with Charvy.

Umiling-iling ako at nagsimula nang magluto, first I cooked the sisig and next is the adobo at hinuli ko ang tinola, gusto kong maging masaya habang pinaghahanda siya ng pagkain pero hindi ko magawa kahit anong pilit ko.

Lalo lang akong nahihirapang huminga tuwing naririnig ko siyang tumatawa, pati na rin ang pagtahol ni Charvy. Hindi ko alam kung anong mangyayari sa condong ito pag umalis na siya…

It took me a hour and half to finish cooking it all, “Kain na” sambit haban ihinahanda ang pagkain sa lamesa. Agad lumapit si Charvy at Gun sa lamesa, Gun grab food dog for Charvy and let him eat beside him.

I put rice on his plate and let him get the first dish he wants to eat, “Wow, ang sarap!!! Mamimiss ko ’to,” masigla niyang sambit.

Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya habang patuloy siya sa pagkain, hanggat sa hindi ko namalayan na malapit na pala siyang matapos at halos na ubos niya ang lahat ng niluto ko.

“Sobrang sarap Beb, Charvy ikaw ba nabusog ka rin ba gaya ni Daddy?” tanong nito kay Charvy at muli itong binuhat.

I was just staring at them and didn’t realize that my tears were falling again, Gun glanced at me so I quickly wiped my tears and looked at the clock. “Beb,” Gun said, when we was about to reach my face mabilis akong tumayo at nagpunas ng kamay sa apron ko.

“Ako na ang mag iimpake ng gamit mo ok, maligo ka na at baka mahuli pa tayo sa flight mo” sambit ko at nang maglalakad na ako hinawakan ni Gun ang aking kamay at tinignan ako ng may lungkot sa mukha.

“Your crying,” he whisper with pain, agad akong umiling at sinabi, “Hindi napuwing lang ako, maligo ka na dali,” hinila ko siya patayo at tinulak papuntang kwarto, at sa banyo. “There maligo ka na ok,” I said before I close the door.

Bumagsak na ng tuluyan ang aking luha ng naglakad na ako papuntang walk in closet at kinuha ang maletang gagamitin ni Gun at isa-isang iniimpake ang kanyang mga damit.

Sobrang hirap akong huminga habang lalong lumalakas ang aking pag iyak sa pag iimpake.

I don’t want him to leave…

Nang malapit na akong matapos pinunasan ko ang aking mga luha pero hindi parin ito tumitigil sa pagtulo kaya sobrang hirap na akong huminga at nakakagawa na ako ng malakas na paghikbi dahil doon.

When I finish packing his thing tumayo na ako at hinila ito sa tabi habang patuloy sa pag singhot, I felt his arm wrap around my waist and his chin into my shoulders.

“Don’t be like this, Hindi ko kayang umalis kung ganito ka Sienna,” malungkot niyang sambit na mas lalong nakapagpaiyak sa akin.

Hinawakan ko ang kanyang kamay sa aking tyan at hinalikan ito bago umiling at ngumiti, “Umiiyak lang ako dahil mamimiss kita kaya hindi ito sapat na dahilan para hindi ka tumuloy,” nakangiti kong sambit.

Mas humigpit ang kanyang pagkakayakap sa akin,“Hindi ba sapat na ayaw kong umalis dahil ayaw kong malungkot ka?” tanong niya, tumawa ako ng mahina bago siya hinarap at kinurot ang kanyang ilong.

“Ok lang ako, aalis ka umiyak man ako o hindi ok,” I said and urge a genuine smile, but deep inside those words is breaking me.

Gun sigh before he let go of me and let me walk out of the closet, nagpalit na rin ako ng damit habang hinihintay siya at tinulungan siya sa lahat ng kailangan niya sa pag-alis.

Every move and step we take, “Take care of Mommy while I’m away ok,” Gun talks to Charvy as he put him in his dog crate, isasama namin siya sa paghatid kay Gun sa airport but Gun choose to talk to him nowhere in the condominium parking lot.

My heartbeat was so fast when he said that and looked at me, this time it was beating so fast because of pain.

“Sorry, I’m late,” napalingon kami ng dumating na si Kace, dahil siya ang magdadrive sa amin papunta doon.

“It’s ok bro,” Gun said and smiled at him before they started putting the luggage on the trunk. At sumakay kami pagkatapos, Gun is seated beside me here at the back seat and I just hold his hand until we reach the airport.

Pumasok kami sa loob ng airport ng hindi ko binibitawan ang kanyang kamay, Gun and Kace talk while we’re waiting for hsi flight and I just remain holding his hand and staring at it the whole time.

“Good evening passengers, this is the pre-boarding announcement for flight 13B to Florida. We are now inviting the passengers to begin boarding at this time. please have your boarding pass and identification ready. Thank you. “ halos mawalan ako ng hininga ng inaannounce na ang flight ni Gun.

Hinarap niya ako at sabay kaming tumayo, at agad niya akong niyakap ng sobrang higpit. “I don’t know when will I come back but I will promise,” He whispers and kisses my forehead.

Tears started to fall, hindi ko na magawang magsalita kaya hinalikan ko na lang siya bago niya ako bitawan. “I’ll call you ok,” he said and started taking his step away from me.

I just nodded and watched him walk away. Took every step away from me… Apart from me…

“I love you!!!” he shouted and entered gate 3.

I shook my head and just cry…I know this will not end up here but it still pains me seeing him away from me because all my life he is always beside me…

“Let’s go,” Kace said, I nodded bago dahan-dahang tumalikod at sumunod sa kanya.

“This will make your relationship stronger,” Kace said as we entered the car and left the airport.

His right…

This will make our relationship stronger…

I know we can do this…

We can do this Gun, I saw a plane fly in the sky and so I smile and look at it…

“Gun,” I whisper.

Chapter 35

“Are you sure you’re ok?” Kace asks as I step out of his car and smile at him. I nodded, “Oo naman ok lang ako, sige salamat ah,” I said and turned my back at him and walked fast towards the elevator.

I wave at him as the door closes, at nangtuluyan na iyong magsara nanghihina akong napahawak ng mahigpit sa pader nito, nanlalambot ang nanginginig ang aking kamay.

Tumulo din ulit ang aking mga luha, mabigat ang aking pakiramdam sa puntong ito na hindi ko na alam ang aking gagawin.

When the elevator opens I quickly walk to our condo and lock it before I run to our room and cry my heart out.

Halo-halong pakiramdam ang aking nadarama, natatakot ako, nalulungkot, at nasasaktan…

Charvy jump and jumps, trying his best to climb the bed but he’s too small for it. So I reach for him and carry him up.

Bumalik ako sa pagkakahiga at niyakap ang unan ni Gun bago nagpatuloy sa pag iyak, hanggang sa naramdaman ko nalang na tumabi sa akin si Charvy at siniksik ang kanyang sarili sa aking braso.

I stop and look at him for a moment before he barked and licked my cheeks. What he did make me stop crying and just hugged Gun’s pillow until I fell asleep.

Kinabukasan ay nagising ako sa alarm clock ng phone ko agad akong gumising at wala sa sariling tumayo at dumiretso ng kusina. I choose to cook fried rice and bacon as usual. While doing that Charvy suddenly showed up on my feet and lay with my slippers.

“Charvy no,” sinubukan kong bawalan siya pero mas lalo lang siyang na excite nong kinausap ko siya dahil akala niya, makikipaglaro na ako sa kanya.

Hinubad ko ang slippers ko at hinayaan siyang laruin ito, dahil kailangan ko matapos itong niluluto ko.

I also make coffees before putting all I cook on the table, pinagpag ko ang aking kamay sa apron bago ito hinubad at ipinatong sa isang upuan.

I walk towards our room while fixing my hair and bond it in a ponytail, I push the door using my back and enter it.

“Gun wake up, it’s already 6:30 p––,” natigilan ako ng makitang walang tao sa kwarto at sa kama, tanging ang kumot na iniwan ko kanina ang nandito.

And suddenly everything sinks into me…

Walang gana kong binagsak ang dalawa kong kamay at ngumiti-ngiting naglakad paupo sa kama.

“Wala kana pala dito..nakalimutan k-ko,” I whisper and wipe my tears.

“Masyado akong nasanay na andyan ka lang to the point na nakalimutan ko na ang pakiramdam na wala ka sa tabi ko,” I whisper before I walk towards the bathroom and take a long bath.

Hinintay kong tumigil ang pagtulo ng aking luha bago ako natapos maligo at nagbihis. I just wore a simple maroon jumpsuit and paired it with black heels and walked out of the room.

Paglabas ko ng kwarto ay agad sumalubong sa akin, ang hinanda kong usual breakfast namin ni Gun. kung saan nakahanda ito at may dalawang plato para sa aming dalawa.

Nawalan ako ng gana kumain kaya niligpit ko na lang ang lahat ng aking niluto at umupo muna sa couch para itext si Gun.

He didn’t reply to my text so I think he’s still on the flight, so I took a deep breath and carried Charvy to his dog crate, and left the condo.

Iniwan sa akin ni Gun ang sasakyan niya pero never niyang sinabing gamitin ko ito, but here I am crying again while driving his sedan.

“Charvy hindi ako sanay na ako ang driver haha, Gun is always been my driver but he’s not here,” I whisper and wipe my tears again.

It never stops!!

It took me an hour bago ko narating ang bahay namin, dahil sa sobrang traffic. And because of that traffic mas na bigyan ako ng time umiyak lang ng umiyak dahil sa pagkamiss kay Gun.

Before I step out of the car sinisiguro ko muna na maayos na ang aking itsura at wala na ring bakas ng luha sa aking mukha. Binuhat ko ang dog crate ni Charvy habang nasa loob siya nito at pumasok sa loob ng bahay.

“Sienna,” Mama said when she saw me coming, I just looked at her and handed her Charvy’s crate.

“Gun goes back to America and I will be busy at work so please watch Charvy for me, I will get him every weekend,” diretso kong sambit at iniiwasan tignan ang kanyang mga mata, I still feel stupid about what happened that day.

“Umalis si Gun?” tanong niya, I just nodded as an answer and fixed my bag.

“Babalik na ba dito sa bahay?” she asked, “No,” I said and brought out my wallet and handed her an amount of money para sa pangangailangan ni Charvy.

“Kaya mo bang mag isa doon anak,” nag-aalala niyang tanong, and this time I look at her and nodded seriously.

“I can,” I said and kissed Charvy before I left the house. Hindi ko magawang makitungo sa kanya gaya ng dati dahil pakiramdam ko hindi tama.

I don’t know…

Nagdrive na ako papasok sa kompanya at medyo na late na talaga ako dahil sa traffic din papunta sa kumpanya.

I park the car at the parking lot and went straight to the lobby,habang dala-dala ko ang bag ko at sinusubukan pa rin itext si Gun, or tawagan ito.

Pero wala pa rin…

Habang nakasakay sa elevator isang malalim na paghinga ang aking iginawad bago ito bumukas at tumuloy na ako papuntang opisina ko.

“Balita ko nag resign na daw si COO Tyson diba, bakit nandito pa rin yang babaeng yan,” I heard one employee whisper to her friend.

“Hindi ko nga alam, basta alam mo na basta may kapit alam na,” sagot ng isa, I just choose to close my eyes and walk pass through them but accidently I bump into someone and…

“Ouch!” I groaned and a hot burning water run into my right arms, dahil sa natapong kape ng nakabangga ko.

“Hmf!” I heard someone try to control her laugh, “Sorry, I’m sorry,” I apologize to the person I bump into but she just smirked at me and walks past me, na parang walang nangyari.

“Buti nga,” I heard them whisper once again, Ngumiti na lang ako sa kanila at nagbow upang magsorry sa pagkuha ng atensyon bago naglakad papasok ng aking opisina.

“You didn’t change!!!” isang malakas na sigaw, ang sumalubong sa akin pagpasok ko sa loob ng opisina ko, kung saan nakaupo si Mrs. Feliciana sa loob.

“Mrs. Feliciana,” I whisper and my hands instantly tremble when I realize that I left the papers she needed at the condo because I was too busy thinking of Gun and I forget about it.

Halos kainin ng kaba ang buo kong sistema ng bumababa ang tingin ni Mrs. Feliciana sa aking kamay. Halatang hinahanap nito ang papers na kailangan.

“Where’re the papers?” She asks and stands up.

“I-I…I f-fo—,” I couldn’t finish my answer because I’m scared and stressed out, Hindi ko alam kung pano ko pa babalikan iyon ngayon sa bahay kung nandito na si Mrs. Feliciana.

“You forget about it?!!?!” hindi makapaniwala na sambit ni Mrs. Feliciana at pinalitan ko, I close my eyes thinking that she would hit me but she didn’t she stand in front of me with a fierce expression and say, “Do it now or else your ruined,” madiin niyang sambit bago ako tinulak upang tumabi sa kanyang dadaanan.

“I’ll be back at 7:00 pm, finish that, start from the bottom and you’re not going back to your house to get what you’ve finished.. Ulitin mo yan!!” she said and left my office. Nanghihina akong napaupo sa sahig at hinawakan ang aking ulo bago huminga ng malalim.

Ang tanga mo talaga Sienna!

Tumayo na ako at hindi nag sayang ng oras at simulan muli ang papers na pinapagawa ni Mrs. Feliciana.

“Knock knock,” napalingon ako sa pinto ng sumilip si Miki, “Miki,” I said.

“Lunch oh,” he said and showed a plastik of food. “Sigurado kasing hindi ka nanaman kakain ng marami nyan eh dahil tambak ka nanaman dahil kay Mrs. Feliciana,” she said and put it on my table.

Pano niya nalaman? “Pano mo nalaman?” tanong ko na agad nagpalaki ng mata niya at iniwasan akong tingnan.

“Ahm ano k-kasi ahm.. Ano” I smile and think I know what it is… “Balita na ba sa labas na pinagalitan ako ulit?” nakangiti kong tanong, dahan-dahan siyang tumango bago nagsorry, “Sorry narinig ko kasi sa baba na pinagtatawanan ka dahil napagalitan ka daw tyaka sabi nila kawawa ka na daw dahil wala ka nang kapit dito,” dirediretso niyang sambit at nang marealize niyang nakatingin lang ako sa kanya tinakpan niya nag bibig niya at nagbow.

“Sorry talaga Sienna narinig ko lang,” she said, I chuckled and nodded at her, “Ok lang, alam ko naman iyon, by the way, thanks for the lunch but I need to finish this,” I said.

“Ahh.. oo aalis na ako goodluck,” she said and quickly ran out of my office, I rested on my swivel chair and smiled bitterly…

“Stupid,” I whisper and go back to work…

I can do this…!!!!

Pinilit at nilagay ko talaga lahat ng possible ideas ko sa papers ni Mrs. Feliciana at hindi ko pa rin nagagalaw ang pagkain na dinala ni Miki dahil dito pero gutom na gutom na ako.

Pero hindi kailangan ko muna tapusin ito….

When the clock strike at 7:00 pm kinakabahan kong inayos ang papel at tumingin sa pinto…

Walang ilag segundo ay bumukas na ito at ang galit na mukha ni Mrs. Feliciana ang nakita ko.

“Where is it!!!” she asks and walks straight to my table and looks at the paper I’m holding.

She forcibly grabbed it from me and didn’t let me speak, she scanned the paper and glared at me after. “Average as always,” she said and turned her back to me.

“You’ll never gonna fit in this field Minami,” she said and left.

I sigh and shake my head as the door closes and whispers…

“I am.”

Chapter 36

Kinabukasan ay maaga akong umalis ng condo, para makapag handa sa meeting ng advertisement team at Marketing team. Dahil magkakaroon ng new branding design ang new issued perfumes at innovate ang packing ng teens perfume and we need to settle it all today.

“Good morning Ma’am,” bati ng guard pagpasok ko sa lobby, I smiled at him and went straight inside.

“Sienna,” Natigilan ako ng tawagin ako ni Lana na galing sa coffee shop dito sa baba. “Anyare dyan?” she asked and pointed to my arms, I’m wearing a white tank top and balck see-through cover para hindi masyadong masofocate ang paso ko.

“Hindi sinasadyang natapunan ng hot coffee kahapon, ngayon nag sugat na siya kaya ganyan… does it look disturbing?” I said and we both stepped inside the elevator while she kept on looking at it.

“Hindi naman disturbing gurl, pero na a-ano ako masakit yarn eh, who’s that stupid person who bump you, patayin ko!!!” she said and sakto namang pumasok yung tatlong babae kahapon na nag uusap at yong nakabangga ko.

They all look at me from head to toe before they stand in front of us and close the elevator. “Ano sabihin mo sa akin gurl, sinong puta ang sumira sa balat mo!!!?” patuloy na pagtatanong ni Lana sa akin kaya agad ko siyang sinenyasan na manahimik at napatingin ako sa babeng nakabangga sa akin ng silipin niya ang braso ko at ngumiti.

Lana instantly stands in front of me and looks at me like she’s saying Sila ito no?. Umiling ako sa kanya at sinabing wag nang pansinin. “Ok” she said and stood beside me. Akala ko naintindihan niya ang sinabi ko pero nagulat ako ng bigla tumawa siya ng malakas.

“Wahaha, Sienna naalala mo ba yung dating nangbubully sayo nung highschool tayo hahahahaha nakakatawa amputik… naalala mo nong binuhusan ka nila ng gatas sa harap ko diba hindi nakapasok yung lalaking iyon ng tatlong linggo dahil binali ko yung kamay hahahaha nakakatawa talaga iyon sheeettttt…. Nako kung mauulit iyon ngayon aba baka hindi na lang kamay ang baliin ko,” she said it out loud that makes the girls in front of us look so scared because they thought it was true.

Lalo na yung nakabangga ko kahapon parang kinakabahan siya dahil sa harapan siya mismo ni Lana nakatayo.

“Hep!!” halos sumigaw yong tatlo ng pumadyak si Lana na naglikha ng malakas na tunog dito sa loob ng elevator. “Baka pati leeg mabali ko pag nalaman ko kung sino ang hindi sinasadyang matapunan ka ng coffee sa braso!!! Ang tagal ko pa man ding nangangating manakit” the elevator stop on the floor where the girls in front of us click.

“Rawr!!!” panggugulat ni Lana sa mga ito kaya nagsitakbo ang mga ito ng bumukas ang pinto ng elevator. “Ahh,” they shooted while running.

Nang sumara muli ang pinto ng elevator halos maglupasay si Lana sa sahig kakatawa dahil sa reaksyon ng mga babaeng iyon. “Putek laught trip, ahaha!” she shouted and hold my hand para tulungan siyang tumayo, hawak-hawak niya ang tyan niya habang patuloy sa pagtawa at nagpupunas na ng luha dahil sa kakatawa.

“Hindi naman tayo magkakilala noong high school,” nakangiti kong sambit, “Kaya nga laugh trip eh, paniwalang paniwala sila hahaha,” she said and keep on laughing.

I just smile at her until she finish laughing and look at me,“Sienna, tandaan mo walang sinasadya pagdating sa mga bruhang iyon, inggit lang yan sayo kaya ka nila ginaganyan wag kang papaapi ako bahala sayo, sige na dito na ako bye bye,” she said and run to her office, I smile and walk to my office.

Kinuha ko ang mga kakailanganin ko sa meeting bago tumuloy sa conference room kung saan naghihintay ang advertising team at marketing team.

“Good morning,” I greeted as I entered. They looked at me and nodded before we started the meeting. Tumabi ako kila Miki at nakinig sa meeting.

The meeting is fine until Mrs. Feliciana came and sat at the back to listen because she’s also concerned when it comes to branding because she owns a branch of Delavine’s Scents.

I was looking at Mrs. Feliciana when the advertising head called my name.

“Miss Minami,” she said, so I quickly looked at her and asked, “Yes?”

“So, I was asking if you have any idea about the advertising of Aliscents?” she asked, she was talking about the newly issued perfume na nilabas ng CEO.

“Y-yes,” kinakabahan kong sambit bago tumayo at tumuloy sa harapan, when I stand in front agad akong kinabahan ng tingnan ako ni Mrs. Feliciana, it’s so intimidating but I need to do my job and show them that I can.

“So Alicents was a little bit touch of lavender and wine scents right which probably meant for adults but when it comes to advertising it I suggest that we should try using this…” sambit ko at ipinakita sa screen ang design ng commercial and advertising stuff na gagamitin dito.

I drew it last night. It’s a picture of a kid who’s in a field of lavender gardens and smiling while wearing a strong red gown. “Sa tingin ko po maganda if we will lunch commercial na bata ang maglelead para iparating sa consumers na with this perfume this could still make you feel young and bold at the same time.” I said and smile, nakitang kong tumango-tango sila Miki kaya ipinagpatuloy ko.

“Lavender scent symbolizes the word young and fresh while this,” Pointed at the strong red gown on the screen. “Red gown symbolizes the scent of wine from the perfume,” I said.

They nodded, agreeing to what I suggested but Mrs. Feliciana stood up and looked at me. “I disagree!!” She said that makes every one of us confused.

“Are you really using your mind Minami?! Are you really ahead marketing manager at that stage? What shame!” she said and glared at me.

Everyone avoided looking at me because of this situation, my hands started to tremble right now.

“Satingin mo ba panoorin ng mga adult ang isang commercial kung una pa lang ay bata ang makikita nila, syempre iisipin nila na pang bata iyon,” she said.

“But ma’am that’s the innovation of logic and strategies of the new commercials at this time,” I try to say make my idea look good but she just hazed at me and look at the head of advertising.

“I like the first Idea because this idea right new is so stupid,” she said and walk out of the room.

Lahat sila ay isa-isa nang lumabas ng conference room, Miki taps my shoulders before she followed everyone leaving me here…

I sit on the chair and laugh bitterly…

“Tama Sienna, your Idea is nothing but stupid trash,” I whisper and cry because of frustration.

“Why can’t I get my job right?”

Chapter 37

Dahil sa nangyari tumuloy na lang ako sa aking opisina at doon nagpahinga, I just feel so frustrated that I can’t even do a thing right now.

Hanggang ngayon medyo mahapdi ang aking mata dahil sa pag iyak ko kanina, kaya din ako nagkulong dito dahil baka makita ng iba na umiiyak ako.

Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko ngayon, sobra akong naiinis at nafrufrustrate ng sobra, kanina ko pa iniisip kung bakit wala akong magawang tama ever since I started working here. I know I only got here because of Gun and I really try my best to prove that I’m worth it..

I mean I work hard in every task but every task seems to not like me because I always fail and disappoint others…

Napayuko ako sa aking lamesa at muling tumulo ang aking luha, I watch my tears fall in my heels and remember all the hard times I worked just to make Mrs.Feliciana satisfied but I also remember that I don’t have any memories of Mrs.Feliciana getting satisfied to my work.

She never did…

And I guess that never gonna happen…

Out of frustration, I chose to sleep for a while and when I woke up I received a text message from Gun.

Oh ghad, I miss him so much. I just want to hug him right now…

When I have times like this he’s always here to comfort me and with just one gaze he will hug me.

Pumupungas-pungas ko itong binasa at inayos ang aking buhok..

From Beb,

Hi Beb, I miss you. I just got here in Miami Florida. I’m with Dad at his house. I’m so excited and happy to start the training tomorrow. I wish I could hug you right now so you can feel how excited I Am… I love you Beb.. I’ll call you later just gonna sleep. Alam mo na jet lag haha love you.

He sent it an hour ago, so I just choose not to reply and continue my work here…

Nagpatuloy lang ako sa pagtatype ng papers buong araw at sinubukan kalimutan ang mga frustration ko ngayong araw.

I didn’t eat lunch because I feel so occupied that makes me feel full already. I just want to get this work done and go home to take some rest.

I miss Charvy…

Naka Focus ako sa pagtapos ng mga trabaho ito buong araw at umuwi agad ng 8:00 pm sa condo, Pagpasok ko sa condo, “Charvy mommy’s home,” I said but I realize that he also not here.

No one’s here…

Bagsak balikat akong naglakad papuntang kwarto at nagpalit ng damit,I wear Gun’s t-shirt and just eat a ramen noodles, I also watch Tv… sobrang tahimik ng condo aircon at tunog lang na nanggagaling sa TV ang naririnig mo parang walang buhay ang lugar kaya mas lalo akong nawalan ng gana at hindi na tinapos ang ramen na kinakain ko.

I just put it back at the fridge and go to our room, binuksan ko ang Laptop ko upang mag research ng pwedeng maitulong sa project ng Advertising team at marketing team. Gusto ko pa ring tumulong.

I will still try my best, maybe this time I will get it right…

Inabot ako ng 2am ng madaling araw sa pag research at pag-aaral, at sobrang antok na antok na ako kaya gumapang ako sa kamay at hinila ang unan ni Gun.

Niyakap ito at natulog na ng tuluyan…

Nandoon na ako sa puntong pahambing na ng tulog ng tumunog ang phone ko, kaya muli kong iminulat ang aking mata kahit sobrang bigat na ng talukap nito at sinagot ang tumatawag.

“Hello,” I almost whisper that because I really feel so sleepy…

“Hi Beb, are you sleeping?” It’s Gun, his voice sounds so alive and happy, I can feel it.

“Hindi naman” I answered and lift up my head para sumandal sa headboard ng kama. I parang sobrang miss na miss ko ang boses niya kahit wala pang dalawang araw kaming di nagkasama.

I never knew that missing him would cost me a lot of heavy feels in my chest…

“Beb, alam mo ba kakauwi ko lang kanina inikot ako ni Dad sa kumpanya at pinakilala bilang anak niya..Sobrang saya Beb, I never seen him so proud at me, as he tell it to everyone that I’m his son sobrang iba Beb. I feel so complete,” bakas ang saya sa boses ni Gun, kaya napangiti ako habang nakapikit ang aking mga mata.

“I’m happy for you Beb,” I said.

“How about you Beb? How’s your day?” masigla niyang tanong with a lot of positive energy. Ito yung nawawala sa akin simula ng umalis siya ang positive energy na binibigay niya sa akin sa araw-araw.

How’s my day? Worst.

“It’s great Beb, I’m doing fine don’t worry,” I said and laughed to make him less worried.

Nang Marinig niya akong tumawa narinig ko ang paghinga niya ng malalim na parang natanggalan ng tinik sa katawan.

“I’m glad to hear that, I know you can do it Beb,” he said and I feel that he is smiling in the other line, I wish I could smile like that too Beb.

Sobrang inaantok na ako pero gusto ko pa siyang makausap, To the point na pinipigilan ko na ang paghikab bo at pilit kinukurot ang aking sarili para hindi makatulog habang patuloy siyang nagkwekwento ng nangyayari sa kanila ng Dad niya.

He’s so happy that I’m afraid that I might ruin it if I let him hear and feel my frustrations.

So, I try my best to smile and laugh as I respond to him, I miss him so much…

“Beb I have to go, Dad and I have dinner with his co-investors. Para na rin daw makilala ko na ang maka trabaho ko soon hahaha yabang hahaha,” he said and laugh, and it was genuine, I know his happy.

“Ok, call me when you have time ok I love you,” I whisper.

“I love you more than I love you Beb, I call you later bye,” he said and hung up the call.

He’s so happy…

My man is completing his childhood dream, his dream to be with his Dad, to bond with his Dad.

I let go of my phone and put it on the side table before I lay on the bed properly and go to sleep.

I was going to deep sleep when my alarm clock rings… and when I open my eyes and check the time it’s already 5:30 in the morning.

Gun and I talk for almost 4 hours…

Tumayo ako at napa hilamos sa mukha gamit ang aking kamay..

“Morning Sienna,” I whisper.

Chapter 38

“Oouch!!!” nagulat ako ng biglang sumigaw ang nakabangga ko dito sa hallway.

“What the heck is wrong with you!?!” she shouted but I’m too sleepy to talk to her so I quickly bow my head and apologize.

“I’m sorry,” I whisper and try to walk pass through her but she grab my arms, agad akong napainda ng hawakan niya ang braso kung may sugat pa galing sa paso.

I bite my lower lip to control the pain, and look at her, “I’m sorry hindi ko sinasadya,” I said because maybe she just wants me to say sorry properly.

“Sorry lang!!” she said and glared at me, masakit na ang braso ko dahil humigigpit ang pagkaka hawak niya dito.

“Sor––,” hindi ko natapos ang sasabihin ko ng biglang may sumigaw.

“Hoy!!!!” Lana shouted while running towards our place. “The fuck you doing, ugly piece of shit!!!” she shouted that making the people around us look.

Tinulak niya ang babae sa tabi ko kaya nabitawan ako nito, “Aray!” biglang lumambot ang boses nito, naparang inaapi kaya lalong nakuha ang atensyon ng ibang tao sa paligid.

“Bernis ok ka lang,” may isang babae ang lumapit sa kanya at tinignan ako ng masama. “Hep!! Bakit ganyan ka makatingin sa kaibigan ko gusto mo dukutin ko yang mata mo!!?” humarang si Lana sa harapan ko at dinuro ang babaeng dumating.

“Lana,” I whisper at her and pull her cardigan para tumigil na at wag na palakihin ito, pero hinawakan lang ni Lana ang kamay ko at nagpatuloy sa pagsasalita.

“Kala niyo ba hindi ko alam mga kagaguhan niyo!! You are purposely hurting Sienna dahil wala na si Gun dito!!! Ano matapang na kayo pag wala ang pusa!! Alam ko naman na para kayong mga daga na inggit na inggit dito kay Sienna kasi siya nakapasok agad kayo kinailangan niyo pang gumamit ng suhol para makapasok dito ano!!! So lame!!!” walang takot na sambit ni Lana.

“Anong sinabi mo—–,” bago pa matapos nong Bernis ang sasabihin niya ay agad na siyang sinampal ni Lana na ikinagulat ng lahat.

“Opss sorry nadulas yong kamay ko,” sambit nito kaya agad siyang ginantihan ni Bernis pero bago pa dumantay ang kamay nito sa kanyang mukha ay nahuli na ni Lana ang kamay nito at hinila ito papalapit sa kanya, saka binulungan.

“Baka gusto mong ilabas ko ang baho mo na nilalandi mo ang asa ni Mrs. Cornelia,” nanlaki ang mata ko ng marinig iyon, at kitang kita ko naman ang pamumutla ni Bernis ng sabihin iyon ni Lana.

Lumayo siya kay Lana bago imayos ng tayo at tinignan ako, “Sorry Sienna,” she said and pull her friend away.

Hinarap ako ni Lana at hinawakan ang kamay ko, “Masakit ba?” she asks and looks so worried.

“Hin––,”

“Sienna?!” hindi natapos ni Lana ang sasabihin ng dumating si Chantel ng nakakunot ang noo. “What happened?” she asks Lana.

Hinigpitan ko ang pagkakahawak sa kamay ni Lana kaya tinignan niya ako bago sumagot kay Chantel. “Wala lang naglalaro lang kami ng jack n poy hahaha sige una na ako bye,” She said and let go of my hand, wink at me and leave.

“You’re playing basketball in the middle of the hallway?” Chantel asks and looks so confused. I smile at her and just pull her into my office.

“Is Tita Felice giving you a hard time?” She asks as we sit here on the couch inside the office.

“Hindi naman,” I said and smile.

“You sure? You look so tired,” Chantel said and touched my face, and checked my eye bags.

“Oo, kulang lang sa tulog dahil itong mga nakaraang linggo nakakapag-usap lang kami ni Gun ng madaling araw so I have to wake up early to talk to him or wait for him till dawn.” I said and yawned.

“Yeah, the time difference from here to Florida, I understand that. But you really lose weight look oh, I can see your cheekbones na they are so visible,” she said and pinch my cheeks.

“Haha hindi naman siguro,” Pagdedeny ko at tumayo na para umupo sa table ko, “Kamusta pala ang photoshoot mo kahapon?” I ask while preparing all the processed commercial papers na tratrabahuhin ko ngayong araw.

“It’s fine,” she answered and smiled at me, that smile means she’s genuinely happy with Kace. I’m happy for her.

Her phone rings, I watch her check it out and smile at me before she stands up and walks towards me to kiss me on the cheeks and leave. “I have to go na, eat more I don’t want you to be payat ng super ok Byeeee.” she said and closed the door.

My smile faded after she left and walang buhay akong yumuko sa lamesa at kinuha ang aking cellphone, at plinay ang voice record ni Gun dito.

“Hi Beb, I know you miss me, me too. I badly want to hug you right now.. Cheer up always Beb I love you,” he sent me this a few days ago while I’m at sleep and now I always keep playing it.

I miss him so much…

I yawned once again before I took a nap here inside my office.

“Miss Minami!!!!” mabilis akong nagising sa malakas na sigaw ni Mrs. Feliciana. “Ganito ba ang sinasabi mong trying your best!?!!? Natutulog ka sa oras ng trabaho!!!” she darkly said and glared at me.

“I’m sorry Ma’am, I just have a sleepless night this past few days kaya ho nakaidlip ak——,”

“Nonsense!!!! Show me your worth!!!” she said and put a bow of perfumes in my table, “Check every label of the product and produce a proper idea of packaging for this,” she said, inayos ko ang buhok ko at nakakita ako ng chance improve ang sarili ko kaya agad akong tumango.

“I will Ma’am, I will do the best out of me here,” I said and smiled at her, she just nodded and rolled her eyes before she took a step out of my office.

Agad akong nagsimulang nagtrabaho at nag research talaga ng magandang design ng packaging para dito. Buong maghapon,buong gabi, buong linggo….

“Hi miss magkano ang ganitong klaseng box niyo?” I said, nandito ako ngayon sa mall at naghahanap ng materials para sa gagawing kong sample ng packaging na kailangan sa new issued perfumes.

“Ah.. 450 po ang isa ma’am, kung gusto niyo po ng mas maliit dit—–,” biglang tumunog ang phone ko kaya hindi ko natuloy ang pakikinig ko sa kanya at sinagot ang tawag ni Gun.

“Hello,” I said while getting my wallet on the bag, inipit ko ang cellphone ko sa aking balikat at mukha para lang masagot pa rin ito habang kumukuha ako ng pera sa wallet.

“Beb, hindi mo sinagot ang tawag ko kanina so I wake up 12 am in the morning to make sure it’s your lunch time right now,” he said from the other line, bakas sa boses nito ang antok.

“Sorry naka tulugan ko na kasi yung ginagawa ko kagabi and hindi ako nagising sa call mo sorry,” sambit ko habang busy pa din sa pagkuha ng pera sa wallet ko.

“It’s ok I understand, by the way I have good news I close three deals this week and tomorrow I will be closing a new deal if papalarin,” masigla niyang pagbabalita.

I already expected that from him…he’s good at everything…

“Wow, congrats Be– ay!” nagulat ako ng mapigtal ang strap ng bag ko kaya nahulog ito at kumalat ang papel sa paligid.

“Beb I’m so happy that I’m making my Dad proud, seeing hi—,” hindi ko na siya pinatapos magsalita dahil humangin na ang mga papers na ginawa ko at kailangan ko itong pulutin.

“Beb mamaya na lang tayo usap,” I said.

“Wait what? Kakatawag ko pa lang wala pang 5 minu––,”

Nanlaki ang mata ko ng matapakan na ang mga papeles ng mga tao dito sa mall kaya kinailangan ko na talagang pulutin ito at patayin ang tawag.

“Byeee,”

“Wait Be—–,”

“Please wag nyong tapakan,” I ended the call and ask people to not step on the papers, at isa-isa itong pinulot.

“Ouch!” I groan when someone accidentally steps on my and when I pick the papers. “Oh, I’m so sorry Miss, I’m sorry I didn’t mean it sorry,” The guy said I looked up at him and nodded.

“Doc. Luan the car is here!!” Someone called this Guy, so he smiled at me, “I’m so sorry again Miss, I have to go,” he said and nodded before he ran and left.

Hinawakan ko ang natapakan kong kamay bago nagsimulang pumulot ulit.

After picking all the papers, bumalik ako sa store na binibilhan ko at binili ang box na kailangan ko. Pumasok ako sa kumpanya at nagkulong lang sa opisina para gumawa ng sample ng packaging.

I want to show my best through his sample…

Inabot ako ng 11 pm sa office dahil sa mga sample na ito, umuwi ako ng halos wala ng tao sa opisina, I drive my way home and pagpasok ko sa condo agad akong humiga sa kama at niyakap ang unan ni Gun.

My back hurt, dahil na ngalay sa pagkakaupo…

Nagpahinga lang ako saglit bago tumayo at tumuloy sa banyo, I took a long shower dahil pakiramdam ko sobrang drain na drain ako ngayong araw.

After taking a shower, I went out of the bathroom and sat on the bed to dry my hair, then I saw Gun called a minute ago, so I tried to call him back but he was not answering it anymore.

Gusto ko pa naman din siyang makausap, sobrang miss na miss ko na siya.. It’s been 2 months already. Madalang na din kami makapag usap dahil busy siya.

Humiga ako sa kama at niyakap ang unan niya, I gaze on our picture together on my phone. At naisipan kong tawagan si Mama para kamustahin si Charvy.

After a few ring sumagot si Mama, “Anak napatawag ka, anong oras na,” sambit ni Mama mula sa kabilang linya, hindi ko alam pero hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin magawang maging komportable sa kanya muli dahil sa nangyari sa coffee shop niya.

Hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin alam kung anong nararamdaman ko sa babaeng nagnakaw sa kanya.

“Si Charvy?” I ask.

“Ah anak nandito siya sa tabi ko natutulog, wag kang magalala ok naman siya dito,” sambit ni Mama.

“Ok, I will send you some food dog tomorrow,” I said and looked at the ceiling.

“Nga pala Anak binenta ko na yung kama mo dito sa bahay, binilhan kita ng bago” what!! That bed is important to me, why would she sell that without asking me.

Yong kamang iyon ang naging pahinga ko tuwing napapagod ako sa school,pag nalulungkot ako. Also, Papa bought it for me…

“Ok lang naman diba,” No!

“Yeah, do what you want, bye,” I said and hung up the call. Binato ko ang phone ko sa paanan ng kama at niyakap ng mahigpit ang unan ni Gun, bago ko naramdaman na tumutulo na ang aking luha dahil sa frustration na dala ng ginawa ni Mama.

“Gun, I miss you.”

Chapter 39

“Hello Sienna,” napalingon ako sa pinto ng opisina ko ng simulip si Miki habang may dala-dalang pagkain.

She smiled at me, “Alam kong hindi ka nanaman lalabas sa lungga ko kaya naisipan kong bilhan ka ng lunch, ito oh,” she said and put the food on my table as she sat in front of me and look at the sample packaging, I’m doing.

“Thank Miki,” I said and continue what I’m doing bukas na ito kailangan, kaya dapat matapos ko na ito at ipinakita kay Mrs. Feliciana.

“Ayan yong Idea ng packeging na ipropropose mo kay Mrs. Feliciana?” tanong ni Miki habag pingamamasdan ang aking gawa, I smile at her and nodded, “Oo, ano sa tingin mo?” tanong ko bago tingnan ang kanyang rekasyon kung paano ko ito buksan.

“Wow, ang ganda,” She said and looked at me, her reaction made me smile. I think this time I will get it right.

“Pero…” natigilan ako ng magsalita siya ulit at tingnan ako, “Sa tingin ko mas maganda kung dark colors gamitin mo para matured ang dating tapos hindi ba mahihirapan ang matatandang consumers kung ganyan pa bubuksan, Imbes na buksan lang nila kailangan pa nilang mahirapan para lang buksan ito?” she said, that makes a point.

Tama siya, bakit hindi ko naisip iyon. I was too focused on the playful theme of the packaging that I didn’t think of what will be the process of it when our middle age and old consumer will cope with the process of opening the product.

“Tama ka” I said and looked at what I did. “Iibahin ko na lang ito, thank you Miki this means a lot,” nakangiti kong sambit at sinimulan muling ulitin ang aking ginawa.

“That’s my suggestion lang hahaha sige mauna na ako,” she said and instantly stood up and left, “Eat kana,” she said before she closed the door.

Napangiti ako ng tingnan ko ang pagkaing dinala niya para sa akin, Miki is a true friend.

Gaya ng suggestion ni Miki inulit ko ang aking ginagawa at iniba ang design nito, mas pinadali ko ito para mas dali para sa consumers ang pagbubukas, kasi tama siya hindi naman bata ang target market namin sa new issued perfumes middle aged and oldies.

And at that age, people like them are very practical and not into playful things.

Inabot ako ulit ng buong araw sa paggawa nito and I’m so focused and motivated na matapos ito dahil sa sinabi ni Miki to the point na hindi ko na nagchecheck ang phone ko.

And ngayon ko lang nakita lahat ng missed call ni Gun…

I try calling him back ngayong pauwi na ako pero hindi na siya sumasagot. Baka tulog na siya, or nagpapahinga kasi sigurado pagod ito.

Umuwi ako sa condo at gaya ng nakasanayan, dumiretso ako sa kwarto at naligo bago matulog kailangan ko ng proper sleep para maipresent ko bukas ng maayos ang packaging.

I wake up with the loud ring of my phone, kaya pumupungas-pungas ko itong inabot mula sa side table at sinagot ang tawag.

“H-hello?” I whisper and try to open my eyes, dahil inaantok pa talaga ako.

“Morning Beb,” it’s Gun. I sit and lean on the bed headboard before I wipe my eyes and answer.

“Good afternoon,” I said and smiled, I heard him chuckle before he spoke,“ How are you?“ he asked. “I’m fine, I have presentation of packaging later for Mrs. Feliciana,” I answered.

“Wow, good luck Beb alam kong kaya mo yan,by the way Beb I’m already handling the company,” nanlaki ang mata ko dahil sa huli niyang sinabi at napaupo ng maayos. “Talaga!” sambit ko at narinig ko ang pagtawa niya mula sa kabilang linya.

“Yes, Your man already owned his Company,” proud niyang sambit, na naging dahilan ng pagngiti ko.

“I’m so proud of you” when I said that tears fell from my eyes, knowing how he dreamed of this since we we’re young, now my man is already reaching all his dreams. “I’m so happy f-for y-you,” umiiyak kong sambit.

“It’s all because you Beb, you stay and keep believing me Beb, You are the root of every success I achieve Sienna” he gently said that makes me cry even more, How I wish I could hug him right now.

“I love you,” I whisper and hug his pillow instead, yumuko ako at sinubsob ang aking mukha sa unan upang hindi marinig ni Gun ang pag iyak ko.

“I love you and you are my success Beb,” what he’s saying just keep on making me sad and missing him so Bad.

“If I’m your success then please be my future,” I said and tried to hide my sobs into a chuckle.

“I will” he answered and that’s all I need.

“Tomorrow I have a deal to close and this friday I will be discussing proposals with a big company here in Florida this will be the biggest proposal, our company might achieve it I close this Beb..sa tingin mo ba kukuah ko itong proposal na ito Beb?” tanong niya.

Pinunasan ko ang aking luha bago sumagot, “Oo naman Beb, nandito lang ako susuportahan kita sa lahat ng gagawin mo, at sigurado akong ma aprubahan yang proposal mo na iyon,” Sambit ko.

“I wish Beb, dahil malaki ang tiwala ni Dad na magagawa ko ito kaya ibinigay niya ito sa akin,” he said.

He can do it, walang hindi kayang gawin si Gun. I know he will close it..

“Gun son, we have to go,” narinig ko ang boses ng Dad niya sa kabilang linya na tinawag siya.

“Beb tinatawag na ako ni Dad, I will call when I’m free ok I love you. Good luck,” he said, I chose not to speak and just waited for him to hang up the call.

Bumalik ako sa pagkakahiga ko at pinunasan ang huling tumulong luha sa aking mata, “I love you too,” I whisper and go back to sleep.

Kinabukasan ay maaga akong gumising at nag ayos para sa araw na ito, I wear a simple while slick tank top and paired it with a old rose business shorts and also a old rose top suit. Inayos ko ang aking buhok at tinali ito ng low ponytail bago sinuot ang while wedge heels ko.

I put a simple make up and grab my sling bag together with my phone and wallet. Umalis ako ng condo na dala ang lahat ng kailangan ko para sa araw na ito at nagdrive papuntang opisina.

Pagbaba ko ng sasakyan ay nakita ko si Kace na kakababa lang din sa kanyang sasakyan, “Your driving?” he asked.

“Yes,”

“Didn’t G—never mind I’ll go first,” he said and left.

Dahil wala naman siyang ibang sinabi pa inayos ko na ang sarili ko at kinuha ang mga papers at sample sa back seat bago tumuloy sa loob ng kumpanya.

“Morning,” paglabas ko ng elevator sumalubong sa akin si Lana na may ngiti sa labi. “Ngayon yong proposal mo sa packing diba Goodluck,” she just said that and wink, before she walked through her office.

Napangiti na lang ako at tumuloy na sa aking opisina, inayos ko na ang sample na ipapakita ko Mrs. Feliciana mamaya.

Nag stay lang ako sa office ng mga isang oras bago tumuloy sa conference room kung saan ito naghihintay.

“Good morning Ma’am,” masigla kong sambit pagpasok ko sa loob, nandito na pala silang lahat.

“Let’s start,” Mrs. Feliciana said and look at me, “You go first,” she said, go first?

“Go first po?” tanong ko dahil medyo naguluhan ako. “Yes, the advertising team also has their own design to present,” she said.

Kaya tumango na lang ako at tumuloy na sa harapan, nilabas ko ang ginawa ko at iexplain na ito.

“This will perfectly fit the practicality of our consumers Ma’am,” I said as I ended my presentation about this packaging.

“Let me see,” Mrs. Feliciana said and her assistant handed my design to her.

Tiningnan niya ang bawat parte nito bago ako tinitignan at sinabi, “This is so plain walang kadating datin, it looks like a typical packeting like other company does, ito na ba yung sinasabi mong best?” Mrs. Feliciana said.

“But Ma’am na isip ko kasi na mas maganda kung practical lang po yong packaging pero unique siya sa iba dahil sa appreanse niya and se boldness ng color na ginamit mukha siyang elegant tingnan at bagay na bagay sa mga taste ng mga old consumers natin,” pagpapaliwanag ko pero nagulat kaming lahat ng bitawan lang ito ni Mrs. Feliciana at hinayaang bumagsak sa sahig.

“I don’t care,I don’t like it too plain next,” my lips parted as I watched what I made fall into the ground.

Wala sa sarili akong umalis sa harapan at pinulot ang aking ginawa bago umupo sa upuan sa tabi ng pinto.

“So this is our design,” sambit nila Bernis at inilabas ng kanilang desi—wait!

That’s my design, ayon ang una kong design. Agad akong napalingon kay Miki na agad namang umiwas ng tingin sa akin.

Bagsak balikat akong napatingin sa kanya, binigay niya ang idea ko kila Bernis. How could she do this.

“By the look’s of it, nakaka excite siya tingnan at iyon ang gusto naming maramdaman ng consumers pagnakita nila ang new packaging ng Delavine’s scent nice and exciting na mapapabili sila ng wala sa oras, look how we open this…. Diba exciting” kung paano ko ito ginawa at binuksan ay ganun din na ganun ang ginawa nila.

They copied my design…

“Wow, I like that,” sambit ni Mrs. Feliciana kaya tumayo ako na naka agaw ng atensyon nilang lahat.

“Miss Minami?! Bakit ba bigla bigla kang tumatayo––” hindi ko na tinapos ang sasabihin ni Mrs.Feliciana at buong tapang nagsalita.

“That’s my design Mrs.” I said and pointed at Bernis’s design. “What!!!?!” sigaw ni Bernis na tila hindi makapaniwala sa sinasabi ko.

“Mrs. Feliciana that’s my design,” I repeated na agad nilabanan ni Bernis. “Paano mo naman magiging design ito eh, si Miki ang may ideya nito wag mong sabihing kinuha ni Miki sayo ang design na ito.. Totoo ba kinuha mo sa kanya ito Miki?” tanong nito at tinignan si Miki.

Mrs. Feliciana and all of us waited for Miki’s answer, she glanced at me but instantly avoided my gaze before she answered.

“Bakit ko naman gagawin iyon,” she said, that makes me deaf for a moment, my knee weakens so I took a step backward and seat on my chair.

“Minami have you been out of your mind!!! Bakit mo inaagaw ang design nila!!!” Sambit ni Mrs. Feliciana.

“P-pero M-mrs. A-akin p-po ta-talagang d-design yan,” sambit ko at hindi parin maalis ang tingin kay Miki. paano niya nagawa ito sa akin, alam naming dalawa na akin ang design na iyon.

“Enough! Kung hindi mo matanggap na palpak nanaman ang ginawa mo pwede bang wag kang manira ng iba,” Bernis said and roll her eyes on me.

“Akin yang design na yan, kinuha ni Miki sa akin ang design na iy––,” i was cut when Bernis talk.

“Diba friends kayo ni Miki? Bakit ganyan ka magsalita sa kanya? Oh my ganyan ka palang kaibigan napaka plastik. Pinagbibintangan mo pang ninakaw ang design mo ng Kaibigan mo?” she said that makes me lose out on words.

Binaligtad pa nila ako ngayon…

Susugudin ko na sana siya ng sumigaw ni Mrs. Feliciana, “Don’t give me that attitude Minami! I fyou’re too lame to accept your failure hindi ka talaga nababagay sa trabahong ito!” She shouted that make me stiff.

What…“P-pero––,”

“Shut up and go back to your seat, it’s not your design so don’t be too desperate!” madiin niyang sambit na nakapagpahina sa akin kaya umupo ako sa aking upuan at pinipigilan ko ang luha ko ng ipagpatuloy nila ang presentation.

Nakatingin lang ako kay Miki hanggang sa matapos ang meeting at nag si alisan na sila, nang mahuling lumabas si Miki doon na ako nagsalita.

“Kaya ba pina palitan mo ang design ko dahil gusto mo ikaw ang magpresent nito?” sambit ko habang nakatitig sa lamesa.

“Akin ang design na iyon Sienna,” she said that makes me gasp, so I looked at her. “Paanong naging sayo iyon eh ako ang gumawa non Miki!!” tumayo ako at naglakad papalapit sa kanya.

“Akin iyon,” she whispered and avoided my gaze but shook his head down.

“Akin iyon Miki, alam nating dalawa iyon.. Akin iyon,“nagsimula ng tumulo ang aking mga luha dahil hindi ko na kaya ang sakit nang ginawa niya sa akin.

Pinagkatiwalaan ko siya….

I grab her arms and try to make her look at me, “Please sabihin mo akin iyon, pinaghirapan ko iyon ng sobra Miki, akin iyon,” I’m bursting out so much.

This is so frustrating…

“Akin nga sabi yun, hindi sayo!” biglang sumigaw si Miki at tinulak ako palayo kaya natuba ako sa sahig.

I gasp in pain when my hand badly hit the floor, mali ako ng pagbagsak.

“Akin ’yun!!!” she shouted and left the conference room. Leaving me hanging with pain.

Niyakap ko ang aking tuhod at yumuko bago patuloy umiyak…My phone rings kaya kinuha ko ito sa bulsa ko at sinagot ang tawag.

“Hell–,” he cut me out.

“Why are you driving Ashiena!!!???!?!?! Kace told me that he saw you driving the car. Didn’t I tell you na delikado ang mag drive ka!! Hindi mo alam ang disgrasya Sienna!!!” he hazed in the other line.

“I want to drive Gun, walang masama don,” Sagot ko. “Anong walang masama!! Diba sinabi ko sayo na wag kang mag drive pag wala ako,” he said.

I’m in the middle of my frustration and he’s adding more problems to me.

“So, kailan pa ako pwedeng mag drive pag nandito kana? Kailan pa Gun!? Eh wala ka naman dito!!!” I haze in irritation.

“What?!” hindi makapaniwala na sagot ni Gun mula sa kabilang linya.

“Ang sabi ko wala ka naman dito!!! Anong magagawa mo kung wala ka dito! Wala ka sa tabi ko, w-wala!!!” That’s when my voice cracks and makes him hear that I’m crying.

“You’re crying? Why are you crying Beb,” biglang naging malumanay ang boses niya mula sa kabilang linya.

“Wala ito, tatawagan nalang kita mamaya sorry hindi na ako mag da drive ulit,” I said and turn off the call.

I shook my head on my knee and continued crying…This is so frustrating…

Everything is frustrating!!!

I hate my life!

Umuwi ako ng bahay para kunin si Charvy, “Anak napadalaw ka kumain kana ba? Bakit namumula ang mata mo?” tanong ni Mama pero dire diretso lang akong tumuloy sa loob at agad hinanap si Charvy.

Pagpasok ko sa kwarto nakita ko si Chravy na natutulog at nang marinig niya ang sapatos ko agad siyang gumising at tumakbo sa akin.

Nakiat kong paika-ika siyang tumakbo sa kain kaya agad ko siyang binuhat at hinarap si Mama.

“Anong nangayari kay Charvy ma!!??!” sigaw ko kaya nagulat si Mama. “Anak nadulas lang siya kahapon dahil naglilinis ako ng sahig at hindi sinasadyang tumama ang paa niya sa stand ng table natin,” malumanay na sambit ni Mama.

Pero mas lalo lang akong nainis sa sinabi niya, “Hindi mo siya inalagaan ng maayos sana pala hindi ko na lang siya iniwan dito!!!” I shouted and walked past her and left the house.

“Anak hindi ko sinasadya,” sambit ni Mama ng pa sakay ako sa sasakyan. I ignore her and drive my way to the condo.

Pagpasok ko sa loob ng binuhat ko si Charvy at dinala sa kwarto, humiga ako sa kama at tumabi siya sa akin.

My tears fall out of frustration and I feel so hurt… this day feels so tough for me…

Kinuha ko ang phone ko at sinubukan tawagan Gun para makausap siya ng maayos dahil kanina alam kong hindi tama na ang mga sinabi ko.

But I’ve called him almost 5 times but his phone is off.

Niyakap ko lalo si Charvy bago pumikit…

“I need you here Gun.”

Chapter 40

I wake up because of Charvy’s barks, he jumps in the bed as I open my eyes and he plays with my feet.

Napansin kong ok na ang paa niya kaya binuhat ko na siya at binababa sa kama, pagkababang pagkababa ko sa kanya agad siyang tumakbo sa buong kwarto at nilaro ang slippers ko.

Tumayo ako at inabot agad ang aking cellphone pare tawagan si Gun pero nakapatay pa rin ang cellphone niya kaya tinext ko na lang siya.

To Beb,

Good morning Beb, I’m sorry about what I said last night. I will not drive ever again I promise, I love you…

After that I take a shower and just wear a simple white t-shirt and black boy shorts.pinatuyo at tinali ko lang ang buhok ko at tumuloy sa kusina para magluto ng breakfast.

Today I sunday kaya walang pasok, at kung may pasok man hindi ko rin alam paano ko haharapin sila Miki. I might cry again when I see her and I don’t want that to happen.

I will clear my mind this day and just forget about it…

“Charvy, let’s eat,” I shouted kaya mabilis lumabas ng kwarto si Charvy at tumakbo sa kain. I give him his food and we both start eating.

While eating Gun replied to my text, kaya agad ko itong binasa.

From Beb,

Please don’t drive, I’m just worried Beb. I’m sorry I’m not there.

Mabilis ko pinunasan ang patulong luha ng mabasa ko ang reply niya, I feel guilty on making him feel his shortcomings.

Hindi ko na nasagot ang text niya ng tumawag si Chantel, “Hello.”

“Can we go to the mall, my treat,” masigla nitong sambit mula sa kabilang linya.

“Ok, what time?” sagot ko at ngumiti, kailangan ko rin siguro nito.

“I’m on my way to your house” she said and chuckled, “Ok mag ayos na ako” sambit ko at agad tumayo, niligpit ko na ang pinagkainan sa kusina.

“Ok, see yah,” she said and ended the call.

“Charvy finish your food ok,” sambit ko ng daanan ko si Charvy na kumakain pa rin, tumuloy ako sa closet at nagpalit ng damit.

I just wear a simple brown pinafore dress and dressy flat sandals. Hinayaan ko na lang din nakalugay ang aking buhok.

Sakto pagkatapos kong magbihis ay nag doorbell na si Chantel. “HI!!!” malakas niyang sambit ng buksan ko ang pinto, sinuot kona kay Charvy ang leash niya at lumabas na kami ng condo kasama siya.

“Charvy is growing so fast, last time I saw him he’s like this tiny oh,” Chantel said as we walked in the mall.

“Oo nga eh” sagot ko at tinignan si Charvy na tahimik lang naglalakad at tumitingin sa paligid.

“Let’s eat there na lang oh,” Chantel said and pointed to a fine coffee shop. I nodded at her and we ordered coffee and cream cheesecake.

“How are you na?” Chantel asked as she took a sip on her drinks. Actually, I’m not fine.

“I’m fine” My lips and mind didn’t match well I guess.

“That’s good to hear, if tita Felice still gives you a hard time I will talk to her,” she said and hold my hand.

“Hindi naman wala namang problema, ok lang part ito ng trabaho ko,” I said and smile at her.

“Ok, if that’s what your say, Btw I’m so happy Kace is really giving his best in our relationship,” nagpatuloy siyang sa pagkwento at nakinig ang ako sa lahat ng ito.

Hanggang sa inabot kami ng hapon sa pagkukwento niya ng kung ano-ano. I just listen to her and eat with her the whole day. It was fun listening to how happy she is now.

I wish this won’t end for her. I wish the best for her…

“See you tomorrow byieeeee,” she said and went straight to Kace condo habang ako naman ay umakyat na sa floor ng condo namin ni Gun.

Pagpasok ko sa loob tinggal ko ang leash ni Charvy at hinayaan na siyang maglaro. I play with him after taking off my sandals.

“Here, jump, jump Charvy,” I said and CHavry jumped, but he fell so I laughed at him and kept on playing with him.

“Roll now Charvy, roll,” I said but instead of rolling he lay down and stuck his tongue out.

“Hahaha I said roll not play dead Charvy hahaha,” I said and kept on laughing…

Charvy stands and barks while I still laugh at him, and while playing with him my phone ring.

Mama’s calling, I don’t want to be stressed again so I didn’t answer it and continued playing with Gun.

Patuloy na tumatawag si Mama pero hindi ko ito pinansin hanggang sa tumigil ito at isang malakas na kalabog ng pinto ang gumulat sa akin. Mabilis akong tumayo at kumuha ng pamalo pago ko silipit kung sino ang nasa labas.

“Sienna!” si kuya.

Mabilis kong binuksan ang pinto at ang galit na mukha ni Kuya ang sumalubong sa akin.

“What the fuck is wrong with you Sienna?! Mama’s calling you for almost an hour!!!” he shouted at my face.

“K-kuya,” I utter.

“Mama is going to Japan right now, she wants you to check her coffee shop while she’s out!” inis na sambit ni Kuya. bakit galit na galit siya if that’s only the problem.

“Why are you so mad?” I ask.

“Because Dad has a heart problem, Mama’s going back to japan so take care of him!” natigilan ako sa sinabi niya at dahil doon agad akong kinain ng kaba dahil sa kanyang sinabi.

“Heart problem?” I ask.

“Yes, I just came here to inform you, because it seems like you didn’t care if your parents called you a hundred times already tss,” he hazed and walked out.

Naiwan akong nakatayo dito at pabagsak na napaupo sa sahig dahil sa panghihina ng aking mga tuhod.

Tears that I kept on avoiding since this morning fall again, I hug my knees and cry.

Why do I always end up choosing the wrong decisions in my life…

Lagi nalang palpak, lagi nalang mali, lagi nalang napapasama, lagi nalang ako…

Sinubukan kong tawagan si Gun ng makuha ko ang aking cellphone pero hindi niya ito sinasagot but he texted me.

From Gun,

I’m in an important meeting right now Beb, call you later ok.

To Gun,

I need you right now.

I waited but as time passed by he didn’t reply…

Dahil doon pabagsak ko itong binitawan sa sofa at pumasok sa aking kwarto, I cover myself with the comforter and cry out loud.

Natutuliro na ako, I don’t know what to do and what to feel.

Naiinis ako sa sarili ko, bakit pinapairal ko ang ego ko at kay Mama. bakit napaka walang sense ko mag isip. Bakit wala na akong matinong magawa.

I hate myself…

Nanatili lang ako sa pag iyak hanggang sa magmadaling araw na at tumawag si Gun, but this time I’m so weak and worthless to answer his call. Ayaw kong mag-alala siya sa akin.

I ayaw kong madamay siya sa kamalasan ko sa buhay,…

Hindi ako nakatulog dahil hinihintay ko ang text ni Mama, kung nakarating na ba siya sa Japan at kung ok lang ba ang kalagayan ni Papa.

Nagbihis na ako para pumasok sa trabaho, “Miss Minami kailangan daw po kayo sa studio,” a stuff come into my office to say that, kaya kahit tuliro pa rin ako hanggang ngayon tumayo ako at sumunod sa studio.

Pagpasok ko sa loob naabutan ko silang shinushoot na ang bagong design ng packaging na ideya ko pero inagaw ni Miki. I also glance at her, while she’s laughing with her team and Bernis.

“Minami can you reprint this,” napalingon ako kay Mrs. Feliciana ng inabot niya sa akin ang iilang papers.

Napatingin ako sa assistant niyang nakikipag tawanan kila Miki, bakit sa akin niya ito ipinagagawa hindi ito ang trabaho ko.

“Ma’am hindi ko po ito trabaho, gusto niyo ho bang tawagin ko si––,” hindi ko natapos ang sasabihin ko ng sapilitan niyang inabot sa akin ang mga papel.

“Gawin mo na lang pwede!” she said push me a bit. Wala akong magawa kundi sundin ang sinabi niya at tumuloy sa printing room para ireprint lahat ng ito.

After repainting it bumalik ako doon pero habang naglalakad ako sa loob ng studio ay bigla akong nakaramdam ng pagkahilo,kaya medyo umikot ang paningin ko at di sinasadyang nakadantay ako sa isang stand lights.

Pero hindi pala stable ito at agad natumba at tumama sa isa pang ilaw na naging dahilan ng sunod sunod na pagbagsak ng mag stand lights sa paligid.

Napuno ng sigawan ang studio dahil sa mga ito at lahat sila ay tumingin sa akin.

Nakita kong tumayo si Mrs. Feliciana at galit na galit lumapit sa akin, “Mrs. Feliciana, I’m sorry hindi po kasi ako nakatulog buong magdamag kaya medyo nahilo po ak––.”

Everybody gasps when Mrs. Feliciana throws water on my face… “Ayan  gising ka na ba?!” 

Hindi ako nakagalaw sa kanyang ginawa, my lips just parted and I slowly look down on the paper I reprinted, Basang basa ang mga ito.

“Wala ka an bang gagawin tama miss Minami!! Look what you’ve done sinira mo and buong shoot!!! At anong idadahilan mo hindi ka nakatulog!! This is so unprofessional, or maybe you were not meant to be professional!” she shouted into my face.

My hand trembles as I hear her painful words, I’m sorry I didn’t really mean it.

“You naver fit here Minami, you just use your boyfriend to get in here but look, it all slap in you face that you don’t fit here, you ruin everything and someday you’ll ruin Gunner’s reputation too!”  what she said made me look at her.

“I will never ruin Gun’s lif—,” again everybody gasp when my cheeks feel numb when Mrs. Feliciana slapped me on the face when I shouted at her.

I didn’t mean to shout…

“Ang lakas ng loob mong sigawan ako!!!” she suddenly lowered her voice.

“What’s happening here,” Cad suddenly showed up beside me and looked at me. “Sienna what happened?” he asked but I chose to shake my head and control my tears.

“Sienna!!!” I heard Lana shouted and run to me, hinawakan niya ang mukha ko at tinignan ako. The moment I saw her eyes my tears burst out and I instantly let go of the papers and hugged her so tight.

I broke down in her arms, and all the pain came out…“Bring her to her office,” Cad said and faced her auntie.

Dinala ako ni Lana sa office ko at binigyan ng tubig. “Sabi ko na nga ba may saltik talaga ang matandang iyon eh!!! Nakakainis siya kung di lang siya matanda baka nasagot ko na si––,” I cut her out and speak.

“Pwede bang iwan mo muna ako mag isa,” I said that make her stop, sumeryoso ang mukha niya bago siya tumungo at tumayo.

“Tawagin mo lang ako pag kailangan mo na ako,” she said ad leave.

I cry once again and feel so worthless, pakiramdam ko sobrang bigat na ng puso ko. Parang hindi ko na kaya.

I tried calling gun but his not answering, dumating si Cad sa office ko para ipahatid ako sa driver niya pauwi.

Hindi na ako umayaw dahil gusto ko nalang ding umuwi…

Bawat minuto ay sinusubukan kong tawagan si Gun pero hindi siya sumasagot…

Hanggang sa makauwi na ako sa condo at nagkulong sa kwarto kasama si Charvy, Charvy seems to know that I don’t feel good right now because he just lay down beside me and remain silent.

Again I tried calling Gun but he’s not answering…..

“Gun, I need you!!!!” I whisper in pain and cry harder until I don’t realize that I fell asleep and wake up when my phone rings.

I feel so numb right now, I don’t feel a thing…

I answered the call and heard Gun’s sigh…

“Hello,” “Hi,” walang gana at buhay naming sambit.

“How are you?” bakas sa boses niya na wala siyang gana…

I smiled bitterly and answered, “I’m fine, how bout you?” my tears start falling again…

“Yeah, I’m fine, I just lost the biggest deal my Dad trusts me haha,” I burst out in pain hearing him in pain also.

Napatakip nalang ako ng bibig at pilit hindi pinaparinig ang pag iyak ko, But when I start hearing Gun cry I break down into pieces.

“I’m sorry,” I whisper.

“Yeah, I was so nervous a while ago so I called you yesterday but you didn’t answer haha I need you,” he said, and I remember that he’s calling me this morning but I didn’t answer because I’m so out of myself.

It’s my fault again…

“I’m sorry,” I said and burst out crying silently.

“Hahaha,” Gun keeps on laughing just to hide his pain but I clearly feel all the pain he’s in right now, and I know it’s my fault…

“I think we need space,” I said that making him laugh, even more, I know my problems right now will just affect him and I don’t want him to be ruined like me.

“Do you think?” halos mawalan ako ng hininga ng itanong niya iyon..

We will just break into pieces if we both choose to stay in this state. And I don’t want that to happen.

“Y-yes,” I answer and shout in the pillow, I shout in a hundred pains.

“Ok, If that’s what you think is right I will support you because I always support you,” he whispered in the other line and heard him cry.

“Ok haha, I’ll call you when I’m fixed ok bye,” I said and quickly turned off the call.

“Ahhhhhh!!!” I shouted and buried myself in this pain…

Chapter 41

I woke up on the cold floor, while Charvy sat in front of me like he was staring at me the whole time. Hindi ko maimulat ng mabuti ang aking mga mata dahil pakiramdam ko sobrang bigat ng mga ito.

Pumipintig din sa sakit ang ulo ko dahil sa pag-iyak ko kagabi, dahan-dahan akong umupo at tinignan ang buong condo. I sleep here on the floor in the living room where all the pillows are around and a lot of cans of beer are thrown in the kitchen.

Wala sa sarili akong tumayo at naglakad papuntang kwarto, agad akong dumapa sa kama at muling umidlip ngunit hindi ko na magawa pang bumalik sa pagtulog kahit anong gawin ko.

My emotions felt so numb, and my brain was so drained with problems and hatred for myself.

Dahil sa hindi na ako makatulog mas pinili ko na lang tumayo at tumuloy sa banyo upang maligo. Dahil sobrang lagkit ko at hindi na talaga maganda ang pakiramdam ko.

Pagpasok ko sa banyo ay ang repleksyon ko sa salamin ang una kong nakita, I bitterly smile as I saw my ruined self, “So, this is you?” I whisper to myself as I stared at this ruined reflection of mine.

Magulo ang aking buhok habang suot ko pa rin ang nabasa kong tank top kahapon, at namumula pa rin ang aking pisngi dulot ng pagsampal sa akin ni Mrs. Feliciana. Maga din ang aking mga mata at may sugat ako sa pisngi, I mean it’s a simple line bruises but it’s visible, I don’t know where got this.

Pinuno ko ng tubig ang bathtub bago ako naligo at nagbabad dito ng ilang oras, I drown myself with the cold water and remember all that things that happened yesterday.

I just want to rest… I just want to have a break…

Cause I feel so hopeless at this state and I know I can’t be with anyone at this state…

“Yeah, I’m fine, I just lost the biggest deal my Dad trusts me haha.”

“I’m sorry,”

“Yeah, I was so nervous a while ago so I called you yesterday but you didn’t answer haha I need you”

“I’m sorry,”

“Hahaha”

“I think we need space,”

“Do you think?”

“Y-yes”

“Ok, If that’s what you think is right I will support you because I always support you,”

“Ok haha, I’ll call you when I’m fixed ok bye,”

Agad akong napa ahon sa tubig ng maalala ko ang nangyari sa amin ni Gun kagabi, we were both out of our self, pagod ako at ganun din siya hindi ko sinasadyang humingi ng space.

Mabilis akong umahon sa tubig at binalot ang aking sarili ng robe bago patakbong lumabas ng banyo upang hanapin ang cellphone ko sa sala.

Pagbukas ko pa lang ng pinto agad akong nilapitan ni Charvy at hinila ang robe ko pero hindi ko siya pinansin at aligagang hinanap ang phone ko.

“Nasaan na yon?” I whisper and look all over the place, pero hindi ko ito makita. Nabagsak akong umupo sa couch at pilit inisip kung saan ito nailagay.

Until, Charvy barks in front of me and pulls my slippers, “Not now Charvy I’m looking for my phone right now,” I said and brush my hair up using my fingers. Where did I put it?

Charvy ran to our room and kept on barking, “Ugh not now Charvy please my head hurts, you’re so loud,” I whisper and cover my face with my hand.

Gun needs me, Hindi ko dapat inisip ang sarili ko kagabi… naging makasarili ako at wala akong ibang inisip kundi ang frustration ko sa buhay to the point na hiniling kong layuan muna namin ang isa’t-isa, samantalang siya lang rin ang kailangan ko sa ganitong sitwasyon.

What have you done Sienna!!!

Habang nakapikit ako narinig ko ulit ang tahol ni Charvy mula sa kwarto kaya tumayo na ako para puntahan siya, “Charvy wag muna ngayon please lang,” I hazed.

He barks and runs to the other side of the bed, so I follow him. Nanlaki ang mata ko ng makitang nakatayo siya sa tabi ng cellphone ko.

“Charvy,” I said and smiled at him before I quickly grabbed my phone and opened it. Hindi ito nagbubukas dahil lowbat kaya agad akong tumayo at ichinarge sa sala.

I instantly open it when it has power already, I dialed Gun’s number but his phone is dead. Pero hindi ako tumigil at nagpatuloy sa pagtawag. I’ve tried to call him almost 20 times already but still, his phone is dead.

Kaya sinubukan kong tawagan si Tita Celia, after a few rings she answered it. “Hello, Sienna, why did you call iha?” She gently asked.

“Tita si Gun po?” I ask, my hands started to tremble as guilt started to eat me. Hindi ko dapat ginawa kay Gun iyon kagabi, hindi ko dapat hiningi ang bagay na iyon sa kanya.

“Sienna darling, nasa California kasi ako ngayon. I don’t know where’s Gun right now but probably nasa bahay lang siya ngayon why isn’t he not answering your call?” I nodded kahit hindi naman nakikita ni Tita Celia. “Opo.”

“Maybe he’s still sleeping pa, kagabi kasi umalis siya he said he’s going for a little drink. Then umalis ako ng bahay kaninang madaling araw na kakauwi niya lang. If you want, call our house telephone number I’ll give it to you na lang pati na rin ang office number niya ok” nakahinga ako ng maluwag dahil sa sinabi ni Tita at agad pinatay ang tawag upang hintayin ang number ng bahay at office nila.

After a few seconds I received her text message and dialed first their house telephone number. Pero nagriring lang ito ng nagriring walang sumasagot. Inulit ko ulit ang pagtawag hanggang sa makailan na akong tawag ay wala pa ring sumasagot na Gun.

Baka wala na sila sa bahay nila, next I tried calling his office number and after a few rings pinatay ang tawag. Sinubukan ko ulit pero dinedecline lang ang tawag ko.

Kaya bagsak balikat akong umupo sa couch, ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko, ayaw ko ng ganito, gusto ko siyang makausap at magsorry. Hindi ko gusto ng space at kung ano man, siya lang ang kailangan ko.

Again I tried calling all the possible numbers to reach out to him but none of them got answered, it’s either hindi sinasagot or nakapatay.

“Beb, please answer the calls” I whisper and beg God to let Gun answer my calls, pero hindi, inabot na ako ng hapon kakatawag sa kanya pero wala ni isa dito ay hindi nasagot.

“One last call, please Beb answer it,” I whisper before I try to call his number again.

Huminga ako ng malalim bago ko ito itinutok sa aking tenga at pinakinggan…

Napapikit ako ng nakapatay pa rin ito hanggang ngayon.

My tears burst out of frustration once again, I lay on the bed and hug his pillow so hard. “Please answer it Beb, why can’t I call you, where are you?” I was shuttering while whispering that.

Sobrang naninikip na ang dibdib ko sa inis sa aking sarili dahil dito… hindi ko siya makausap, baka galit siya sa akin, baka nasasaktan pa rin siya hanggang ngayon.

Habang umiiyak ako nararamdaman kong sinusubukan ni Charvy na umakyat sa kama pero dahil maliit siya hindi niya ito maabot. Kaya umupo ako at pinunasan ng aking luha bago siya abutin pero kakaangat ko pa lang sa kanya ay biglang tumunog ang phone ko.

Binaba ko siya ulit at agad sinagot ang tawag ng walang pagdadalawang isip…

“Gun!” I utter as my heart beats so fast.

“It’s me Cad,” nawala ang ngiti ko sa labi ng marinig ang boses ni Cad, I thought it was Gun.

“Yes Sir, why did you call?” I ask in formality dahil baka tungkol ito sa trabaho.

“We rushed Chantel here in the hospital. she might need a friend,” seryoso niyang sambit, Hospital!! Bakit na hospital si Chatel?! “What happened!!??!!” agad akong tumayo at nagpalit ng damit.

“She’s bleeding,” oh my gosh, no! “Ok, I’ll be there in a minute,” agad kong kinuha ang susi ng sasakyan at binuhat si Charvy para ipa bantay na lang muna sa helper ng condo, bago umalis ng condo at bumababa.

“Can you look for him while I’m out please,” sambit ko sa isang helper sa lobby. “Yes, sure ma’am,” he said and smile at me, I handed him Charvy’s create and run to the parking.

Alam kong pinagbawalan na ako ni Gun mag drive pero I have to, kailangan ako ni Chantel.

Mabilis akong nag drive papunta sa hospital na sinabi ni Cad, and I saw him outside the emergency room. “What happened to her, why did she bleed!?!” I know she’s pregnant, kaya kinain agad ako ng takot ng malamang dinugo siya.

“She got stressed, cous’ she had a fight with our Mom,” seryosong sambit ni Gun habang nakatingin sa pinto ng emergency room.

I prayed so hard for her and the baby’s safety and after a minutes lumabas na ang doktor at sinabing pwede nang ilipat ang pasyente. “How’s the baby?” Cad quickly asks.

“The baby is fine it’s just an internal bleeding cause by stress,” nakahinga kaming ni Cad ng sabihin yun ng doktor, nakipag usap pa siya dito hanggang sa tumuloy na kami sa room ni Chantel.

“She looks so tired,” I whisper and feel pity for my friend. “You both look tired,” Cad said beside me while we both stared at Chatel.

I chuckled and said, “Maybe this is not our lucky month,” I joked and tried to avoid the pain of thinking that I and my best friend are having a hard time in life right now and both of our strengths are nowhere to be found.

“I’m sure when she wakes up, there will be a decision made out of anger so I ask you to be at her side and choose to be with her in any decision she will make,” Cad’s voice was firm but I can still sense that he was begging me to take care of her sister.

I look at Chantel and seeing her tears fall from her sleeping eyes makes me melt, “I will be with her, ano man ang mangyari,” I whisper and sit beside Chantel and hold her hands until she wakes up.

“Happy now?! I will stop loving that trash just like what you’ve said, I will let go of him and not fucking find him anymore, that’s what you want right!!! Happy? You just fucking success ruining my life and make it fucking ass BETTER!!!” Chantel shouted at her Mom out of anger.

“You’re one of the reasons why I almost lost my Baby, giving me that video knowing that I have a dangerous pregnancy, you did that just to make me stop crying. Just like you did when I was a kid you just gave me an iPad to stop me from crying and didn’t even ask why I’m crying!! don’t worry I won’t ever do that to my child” she’s crying so hard, and that also makes me cry hindi ko kayang makitang ganito is Chatel.

“I’m sorry,” Tita said.

“You’re never sorry Mom!!! if you’ll excuse me, can you leave!!!” Chantel shouted so Tita was forced to leave the room together with Tito, and Chantel burst out crying.

“Calm down Paige,” I said and guided her to lay down on the bed, and handed her a bottle of water while controlling my tears.

“I already know everything that happens and I just want to let you know that I will never leave your side. We can do this Ok,” I said and urged a smile at her, my poor Chantel if only I can steal your pain I will do it.

We waited for her to calm down and I fed her and took care of her.

“I wanna leave,” She whisper out of the blue.kaya agad kaming nagkatinginan ni Cad, na halatang nagulat din sa sinabi ni Chantel, ito na ba ang decision na sinasabi ni Cad kanina.

“What?“he ask.

“What do you mean Paige?” I ask and hold her hands.

“I wanna leave this country and fly to Japan,” gamit ang isang kamay ay hinawakan niya ang kamay ni Cad at sinabi, “I wanna live in Japan Kuya,” what!

“Are you fucking serious?“Cad asked.

“Yes, I realize that it’s too risky for me to stay here. I will just always remember Kace and always end up fighting with Mom, I can’t bear to risk my child’s life again. I wanna move out of the country to where I can find peace and will live a simple life during my pregnancy. And the only place that I feel safe is Japan,” she said.

I know this was the decision that Cad was talking about and as I promise I will stay by her side.

“If you’re going to Japan me either, I’ll stay with you there,” I said and smiled genuinely at her.

“Kuya please help me move to Japan” bumukas ang pinto at pumasok sila Tita at tito.

“Your what?” Tito asked.

“I want to live in Japan and do my second and third trimester there,” Chatel firmly said like there’s no more fear in her eyes for her parents.

“No Chantel, you need to stay with us, your pregnancy is too risky and it’s dangerous if you stay in another country without us,” Tito gently said.

“It’s riskier inside that house, I might lose my baby again if I continue staying there.” she glared at her mother when she said that and I understand her, I will always understand her.

Tito and Tita were about to talk when Cad stood up and looked at their parents.

“Chantel will live in Japan, and that’s final,”

he said and left.

I guess I have to give Gun the space I needed because he might need it now, and I will call him after this problem.

I promise Beb I will call you back after all of this.

Chantel just needs me now.

I will call you after this Gun…I promise.

Chapter 42

The day when Chantel was discharged, she instantly decided to leave the day after, and that day is now.

“Take care of him while I’m away pleased,” I look up to my brother while hugging Charvy in front of his penthouse. He was standing in front of his door while looking at me.

He just nodded in an impatient way and looked away; I know he will take good care of him. Ngumiti ako at tiningnan si Charvy, “Be a good boy Ok, Mommy will come back ok,” I whisper and rub his back, as he sticks his tongue out like he’s smiling at me.

“As if your dog will answer you” kuya hazed but Charvy suddenly barks loud, tinignan ko ang kapatid ko bago tumayo ng may ngiti sa labi. “He will answer in his own language bro,” I said and tap his arms and leave.

Sumakay na ako sa taxi at tinignan si Charvy sa huling pagkakataon, “I will be back,” I whisper as the taxi move. Tumulo ang luha ko pero agad kong pinunasan, Chantel needs me.

Nauna akong dumating sa airport kaya hinihintay ko pa sila Chantel na dumating, just a half minute they are already here, kaya sinalubong ko siya.

“Paige,” I said as soon as Chantel stepped out of Cadmus’ car, I ran to her and hugged her so tight.

“Are you ready?” I ask her, but in reality I’m also asking that to myself. Am I ready? “Yes,” she answered so I hid my feelings and chuckled, cheerfully nodded at her.

“This is everything, I guess,” Cadmus said and put all the language on our side.“Yes, it is,” Chantel said and checked all her bags.

“Does he know?” Cad asks pertaining to Gun, which makes my heart feel heavy again my smile suddenly faded and I avoided their stares, “There’s no need for him to know haha,“I gently said that made them look confused.

“Be strong, call me every time you need me,” Cad said and kissed her forehead before he looked at me once again and said. “Take care of her please,” he seriously said.

“I will,” I said and smiled at him, and Cad took a last kiss on her forehead before he left. “Bye!!!” Chantel said and watched Cad Van’s leave. Tears couldn’t be controlled and she tore up as she watched her brother leave.

I tap her shoulder and, “Stop crying already Paige, your baby is hearing you,” I said and guide her inside the airport, for us to wait in the lobby for our flight and as we entered the airport, they already called for our flight so we didn’t wait for the flight and went straight ahead to gate 2 and went inside the plane already.

“Flight 901, Manila to Japan, please settle on gate 2,” pumunta na kami sa gate two at hanggang sa nakasakay na kami sa loob ng plane.

“How about your work Sienna?” she asks as we finally settle seating inside the plane. Dahil doon I looked at me and smiled. “I already resigned to Delavine’s scent Paige,” I said and remembered what Cad and I talked about last night.

“Are you sure about this? I mean yes, I said that you should stay by her side but if this is against your will don’t do it” He seriously said while we’re inside his office here at Delavine’s scent.

“Magreresign ako dahil ito naman talaga ang gagawin ko kahit hindi nangyari ang desisyon ni Chantel, at isa pa gusto ko siyang samahan sa Japan. Hindi ko kayang pabayaan na manirahan siya mag-isa doon.” sambit ko at tinignan niya ng diretso, he nodded and sign my resignation letter.

“I respect your decision and thank you for choosing to be with my sister. I can’t be with her at this time because Alliana needs me too, so I trust you with my sister to take good care of her and the Baby.” he sincerely said, I smiled and nodded at him.

I wish I could be like him, I wish I was there when my brother is in his hard times.

I got back to my senses when Chatel held my arms and asked,“Why?!” she asked, naalala ko ang dahilan pero mas magandang hindi niya na lang malaman so I hid it with a bright smile. “I don’t know but I think it’s the right thing to do,” I said while chuckling so she would think that there’s no serious reason for it. .

She just nodded and took a nap as the flight started. Our flight took 4 hours and 13 minutes before we reached Japan Haneda Airport or known as Tokyo International Airport. “Haaa.. Home,” I whisper as we step out of the airport and the cold breeze of air touches our skin.

It’s been a while Japan…

I reach and hold Chantel’s hand to cheer her up and I say, “Let’s go? A new start awaits,” she smiled at me and nodded, “Let’s go!!!” she said.

I will never let that smile lose its bright Chantel, I will be here for you…always…

Chantel and I rent a house here and start a simple life, while she’s going through her every trimester of pregnancy.

I became her partner in every struggle…

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“Sienna, my hips hurts and my legs huhu,” I stop washing the dishes when I heard Chantel talking, agad kong kinuha ang hot compress na lagi niyang ginagamit at sinimulan siyang hilutin sa hita.

Sabi ng doktor kasama ito sa pagbubuntis niya dahil medyo bumibigat na ang katawan niya dahil sa baby kayam nagkakaroon siya ng leg and hips cramps dahil sa ngalay at bigat. So, I always give her a massage.

“Ayan masakit pa ba?” I ask while keep on massaging her, “Yes, a little to the right please…there,” She said so I quickly followed it and do my best on massaging hanggang sa makatulog na siya at pinatong ko nasa kama ang kanyang hita.

“Yah,” I utter when I stand up and have a back pain, “Hooo…” I whisper and shake my hands, namanhid dahil sa kakahilot.

After that, I go back to my dishes…

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“Sienna, can I have water,” she said and pouted at me while she was watching a movie on her laptop. I stop what I’m doing to get her a water, pinainom ko siya at nilutuan na rin ng pagkain para bago matulog ay hindi na siya magutom.

“Wow thank you so much huhu,” her thank was was cheerful until she suddenly cry out loud, mabilis kong kinuha ang tissue sa gilid at inabot sa kanya. “Your so kind huhu” kasama ito sa pagbubuntis niya ang mood swings.

“It’s ok, stop crying na,” I said and wipe her tears and prepare the food in front of her. She stopped crying and started eating.

“This is so yummy,” she said and smiled. Tumango na lang ako at tinignan ang pagkain niya. Ito ang lagi niyang pinapaluto sa akin para sa midnight snack niya.

Mash potato and egg with wasabi…weird cravings…

I yawned and felt sleepy but Chantel spoke, the reason why I can’t still sleep.

“I want more hehe please,” I know it.

“At your service,” I said and smiled at her.

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While cooking nakarinig ako ng malakas na kalabog ng pinto mula sa kwarto kaya agad akong tumakbo para tignan ito at nakitang tumatakbo papuntang banyo si Chantel.

“Chantel!” I said and followed her inside as she started puking on the toilet bowl. Agad kong hinagod ang likod niya at tinali ang kanyang buhok habang patuloy siyang sumusuka.

Morning sickness…

Patuloy siyang sumusuka at sumasabay na din ang pag iyak niya kaya pinupunasan ko ang luha niya habang patuloy siyang sumusuka. “I don’t want na” she cried and hugged me.

“Shh don’t cry,” I said to susuka siya ulit and it was too late for her to shoot it on the toilet bowl so she ended up puking on my chest. When she saw what she did lalo siyang umiyak, “Oh no!! I’m so sorry Sienna huhu…”

“No it’s ok, it’s ok shhh, no stop crying I’m ok,” I said and smiled at her while wiping her tears. I quickly remove my shirt. Kaya sando ko na lang ang natira, “Look I’m ok Chantel stop crying na,” I said she stopped crying when she looked at me.

“You sure sobs,” she ask, tumango ako at ngumiti “Oo naman siga na tumigil kana at magpalit ng damit sa kwarto ako na ang bahala dito,” she nodded and stand up walk back to our room.

Bagsak balikat kong tinitingnan ang banyo at flinash ang suka niya sa toilet bowl at nilinis ang sahig ng banyo pati ang shirt ko na sinukahan niya.

While cleaning naka amoy ako ng amoy sunog and I realize that I’m cooking!!! “Shocks!!!” I utter and run to the kitchen.

Nabutan kong nagaapy na ang niluto kong fillet, kaya agad ko itong binuhusan ng tubig. “Ah shit my phone,” Kasamang nabasa ang phone ko.

Kinuha ko ang frying pan but I didn’t know na mainit pala ang hawakan nito kaya napaso ako. “Aghmm,” I bit my lips so Chantel won’t hear it.

Huminga ako ng malalim kung gano kagulo dito sa kusina… also my phone is soaking wet and my hand are already swollen..

I sigh…

“Sienna is everything ok there?” I heard Chantel ask.

No, it’s not ok.

“Yup, everything is perfectly fine, take a rest ok,” I said.

“Hoo start cleaning Sienna,” I whisper to myself.

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“Chantel sigurado kang ok ka lang dito? Hindi ka talaga sasama sa akin?” I ask for last time, dahil kanina ko pa siya tinatanong kung gusto niyang sumama sa akin sa supermarket para mamili ng stock dito pero masyado daw siyang tinatamad ngayong araw kaya ayaw sumama.

Pero nag-aalala kasi akong iwan siya lalo na malapit na kabuwanan niya, and mamaya kung ano pang mangyari habang wala ako.

“I know you’re worried Sienna but I’m fine, you already bring my water here, my mild, chocolates and chilli flaked here. I’m just gonna watch while you’re out and I think nothings gonna happen to me naman so suhh alis kana,” she said and smiled at me while enjoying her chili chocolates.

Huminga ako ng malalim bago sumangayon sa kanyang sinabi at sinuot na ang aking sapatos, winter ngayon sa Japan kaya kailangan kong mag makapal na damit.

“Ok bibilisan ko na lang ok,wag kang gagawa ng kung ano ok” I said and she just nodded while focusing on the movie she’s watching.

I step out of the house and walk through the market dahil malapit lang naman ito sa amin. And here in Japan, it’s better to walk than to ride in vehicles to avoid pollution…

Nakarating agad ako sa market ng mas maaga sa inaasahan ko at dahil monday ngayon konti lang ang tao kesa sa normal na dami nito pag weekends.

“Kore wa ikura desu ka? (How much is this?)” I asked and pointed at the box of chili flakes for Chantel.

“500 yen,” he said and smiled at me, I quickly grabbed money from my wallet and paid for it. Magugustuhan ito ni Chantel.

“Domo arigatou gozaimasu (Thank you so much)” I bow my head and have already completed all the things I need to buy.

So I walk again, dahil malapit lang naman at hindi naman nakakapagod maglakad. Habang naglalakad ako I stop when I saw a kid crying at the side of the street.

I think she’s around 7 years old, and she’s wearing a uniform with her balck japanese bag. Nakaupo siya sa gilid ng kalsada habang nakatakip ang mukha gamit ang dalawang kamay, kaya nilapitan ko siya at umupo sa harapan niya.

She’s so little, I can’t help but to smile at her cute size. And her piggy tails are so cute.

“Kon’nichiwa naze naite iru nodesu ka? (Hi, why are you crying)” I ask that she lift her head up and look at me with those small teary eyes. Sobra akong natutuwa sa mga bata, at sobrang cute niya talaga.

“M-mayotte imasu (I-I’m lose)” humihikbing sambit nito at pinakita ang kulay pink niyang ID sa akin. “Tasukete (Help me)” she said and her little hand reached my hand and she looked at me.

“Onegaishimasu, Onegaishimasu!! (Please, please!!)” she begged and held my hand tighter, even though her little hand can’t even hold my whole hand, she just held half of it.

“Hai,hai ikimasho (Yes,yes let’s go)” I stood up and hold her hand as we start walking, I know that school, alam ko sa kabilang street iyon matatagpuan dahil nakita ko na iyon dati.

While walking, “Kiite mo ii desu ka?(can I ask?)” she said, so I look at her and instantly smile when I see her stop crying. “Shouchi Shimashita (Sure)” I said.

“Anata no namae wa? (What is your name?)” she asked. I can’t help to chuckle at her cuteness.

“Watashinonamaeha Ashiena desu (My name is Ashiena)” I answered and saw her school as soon as we turn right to the other street, siguro namali lang siya ng napuntahang daan kaya siya naligaw.

“Watashinonamaeha Mikco desu (My name is Micko)” this time ngumiti na sa siya sa akin at mas kumapit pa lalo sa aking kamay. “Sensei desu ka? (are you a teacher?)” she asked again.

“Watashi wa kyousi de ha ari masen (I’m not a teacher)” I said and chuckled at her. “Domo anata wa sensei no yo ni miemasu (but you look like a teacher)” hindi ko mapigilang matawa dahil sa sinabi niya at tinignan ang repleksyon ko sa nadaanan naming shop ng bread kung saan makikita mo ang repleksyon mo sa glass wall nila.

“Micko!!!” at dahil malapit na kami sa school agad kong narinig ang isang teacher na tinawag ang pangalan ni Micko at lumapit sa amin.

“Doko ni ih!Ta no? (Where did you go?)” tanong nito sa kanya ng umupo ito sa harapan niya, and with that Micko suddenly cry and hug her teacher. “Sensei (Teacher)” she said kaya agad siyang binuhat nito at hinarap ito.

“Thank you so much for helping her, and sorry for the trouble,” she said and smiled at me. She speaks English.

“It’s fine, I don’t mind and I like kids so no worries,” I said and smiled at her, “Are you interested in teaching? People like you should try it because I can see in your eyes how much you adore kids, are you a teacher?” agad akong umiling sa huli niyang sinabi at tumawa.

“No, no I’m not haha…”

“You’re good with kids I can say,” she said and looked at Micko. “Micko is a very shy kid and also we never speak to someone she just met and surprisingly you manage to talk to her and hold her hands even if this is the first time you meet her,” she said.

I know I like kids and I’ve dreamt of becoming a teacher back then but I already forgot about that.

“I think that’s a compliment, thank you but I have to go bye,” I said and turn my back at them, bakit sumisikip ang dibdib ko bigla.

“Ashiena Sensei, s-sayonara (Teacher Ashiena, bye)” natigilan ako sa paglalakad ng marinig iyon at biglang tumibok ng sobrang bilis ang puso ko at parang nabuhayan ako ng sobra sa salitang iyon.

I look back at Micko and smile before I wave and leave, naglakad na ako pauwi ng bahay at hindi mawala-wala sa isip ko kung pano ako nabuhayan ng maisip ang tsansang maging kagaya ako kanina ng teacher na iyon.

Mukhang sobrang saya maging kagaya niya…. Pero hindi, malabong mangyari iyon.

“I will just fail.”

Chapter 43

Time runs fast that I expected because it’s been five months and still…

“Sienna?” I heard her whisper at me, while I’m in my sleep. “Hmm. Paige?” I slowly woke up from my bed beside mine and looked at me. “What?” I asked.

“I want strawberry chocolate with chili flakes now” she whispers and pouts at me. This time I completely opened my eyes and looked confusedly at her. “You want what?”

“I want strawberry chocolate with chili flakes,” she repeated. “Did I hear it right? You want strawberry chocolate with? Chili flakes? Or it’s just strawberry chocolate AND chili flakes?“hindi makapaniwala kong sambit ng makita ko kung anong oras pa lang.

“No, I want the chili flakes mixed with the strawberry chocolate Sienna,” she said.

“Oh my, your cravings are a bit too strange tho,” I said and walked out of the room. She followed me outside and watched me make her weird pregnancy cravings.

“Add more Sienna,” she said when I was putting chili flakes. “Like this?“I asked and added more. “More!” she said.

Her eyes widened because she put all the chili flake because I say it. “Oh my god Chantel hindi ba makakasama ito sa baby?” I asked and felt worried for the baby and scared.

“But My baby wanted it,” she said and held at her tummy, “Fine, fine, fine,” I said and just did what she wanted.

“Thank you Sienna, I love you,” she said while enjoying her wired food, “Hmm..welcome” I whispered as I went back to my bed to sleep.

Kinabukasan gumising kami ni Chantel ng 9:00 am para pumunta sa OB niya dito sa Japan this is the day where we’ll find out the gender her baby. I just wear a white pregnancy dress and flip-top sandals, tie my hair up and bring my chocolates to my body bag.

“Let’s go,” I said and grabbed my car keys as we drove our way to the hospital.

“Ohayo gozaimasu, go kibun wa ikaga desu ka (Good Morning, how are feeling?)” the doctor asked her. Chantel smiled at her and answered her with a nod.

“Junbi wa deki taka (Are you ready?)” The doctor gently asked. “Hai (Yes)” sabay naming sambit ni Chantel kaya sabay din kaming tumawa.

“Wakarimashita, ikimasu” The doctor said and started the ultrasound, “Sore o sansho shite kodasai. Sore wa akachandesu (See that, it’s the baby)” she said and pointed at the screen.

“Seibetsu, seibetsu!!” excited na tanong ni Chantel habang kinakabahan akong naghihintay.

The doctor slash Ob smile and…..

“Ona no ko (Girl)” she said, agad kaming ngumiti sa tuwa ni Chantel at naghawak kamay.

“Oh my god!!” I whispered and started to have teary eyes together with Chantel.

“Why are you one who’s crying?” Natatawa niyang tanong sa akin, The Doctor laughs with us.

“Domo arigato zaimashita (Thank you very much)” Chantel said as we stood up and were about to leave.

“Doitashimashite, jibun o daiji ni shite kudasai to akachan (You’re welcome, take care of yourself and the baby)” She said, “Hai, hai (Yes, yes)” we said and bow our head before we leave the OB, and went outside of the hospital.

“Satingin ko dapat na tayong bumili ng gamit para sa baby, since we already know what’s her gender already.” I said while she wrapped my hands around mine.

“Yeah, Let’s go buy,” she said, we both nodded at each other before we went inside my car and drove our way to the Diver City Tokyo Plaza, a mall here in Tokyo.

“Tara dali excited na ako,” I said and we quickly went inside the mall after we got down from her car. I’m excited when it comes to kids’ things.

We head straight to the clothes store and go to the baby section. “Sotua okusama e yokoso (Welcome to the store Ma’am)” the saleslady greeted us and guided us on buying things and stuff for the baby.

And we took almost a half-day on buying things, we also just ate at the nearby restaurant and continued buying things again. Chantel buys a lot of things using her savings and what Cad gave her.

“Ang dami na nating napamili” I said while putting all the paper bag on my car. “It’s fine, it’s for the baby and I won’t feel sad losing money just for my baby,” she said while rubbing her tummy.

“Right, Done! Yuko (Let’s go)” I said and we both went inside the car, driving our way home. But while we were in the middle of the street Chantel just—

“Sienna stop!!!”–shouted, making me panic and stop the car in instant “Why? What happened!!!!” I ask while panicking and checking her out.

“No Sienna I want chocolates,” I said, making a pity face on her. I sigh and say, “Paige may konting stock ka pa ng chocolate sa bahay,” I haze and look at the shop she’s pertaining to.

“Please the baby wants it so bad,” she said and I just sigh so hard before saying, “Fine let’s go,”

“Yehey!”

“That’s enough Piage, sobrang dami na nito! Dalawang basket!” I said and pulled her to the counter and paid for all she bought and straight went home.

“At last,” Chantel whispers as she lay down on the bed.

“I’ll just fix this,” I heard I said and fixed all the things we bought.

Nakatulog si Chantel s apagod kaya nagluto na ako ng dinner dahil hapon na rin namain, I cook two sets of egg rolls, shrimp fillet and rice, they are all served on our table.

“Wow,” Chantel said as she wakes up and look at the food. “Naayos ko na ang mga gamit ng baby pati na rin your birth bag mo if ever na manganak kana bubuhatin nalang natin pagpunta sa hospital, yong mga chocolate mo alam mo naman kung saan nakalagay doon oh,“paalala ko sa kanya.

“Yes, Mom,” she teased me and got her chopstick.

“Tabemono o arigato (Thank you for the food)” she said and started eating.

While were peacefully eating our dinner, I remember Gun, I mean wala namang araw na hindi ko siya naalala pero baka ito na ang time para tawagan ko si–– hindi natapos ang iniisip ko ng biglang tumunog ang phone ko

Kaya agad ko itong kinuha at sinagot ng hindi tinitignan ang tumatawag, sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko.

“Sienna anak,” si Mama?

“Sino?” Chantel whispered and took a bite of the egg roll.

“It’s Mom,” I said and answered. “Moshi moshi, Mama naze anata wa? (Hello, Mama why did you call?)”

“Sienna anak tinakbo sa hospital ang Papa mo, pumunta kana dito anak,” umiiyak na sambit ni Mama, kaya agad akong kinain ng kaba at agad nagdesisyon.

“Hai, Hai watashi wa ashita soko ni imasu, shinpai shinaide (Yes, yes, I’ll be there tomorrow, don’t worry)” I said and turned off the call.“What happened?” Chantel asks.

“Dad is in the hospital in Hokkaido”kinakabahan kong sambit, I hope Papa is fine. “Paige, I think they need me?” hindi ko mapigilan ang takot at kabang nararamdaman ko kay agad akong napaluha.

“You should go,” she whispered and tapped my shoulders.

“But how can I leave you? Manganganak kana next month who will be by your side if I leave you?” umiiyak kong sambit, hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. “Don’t worry about me I can handle myself; your dad needs you,” she said and rubbed her back to calm me down.

“I don’t want to leave you, Paige, it’s dangerous,” I said and hugged her waist. Hindi ko siya pwedeng iwan, pero ang Papa ko.

Natutuliro na naman ang isip ko, anong gagawin ko?!

“Come on Sienna your father needs you more right now you should go, I’ll be ok please trust me on this. I’m gonna be fine,” Chantel said and looked at me using those eyes.

Pero patuloy lang akong umiyak dahil natatakot akong magdesisyon, baka magkamali nanaman ako.

But my father needs me more right now…

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, sorry Paige” I kept saying while packing my things up and sobbing. She just chuckled at me and helped me, I’ll be leaving tonight so she can be there in the hospital tomorrow morning.

“Hey tumigil kana nga, I already say it’s fine and I can handle myself ok don’t worry about me worry about your father,” she said and closed my bag, I took a heavy breath as I carried my bag and wore my coat.

My father needs me but I’m so scared of leaving Chantel…

“Call me please ok, I will fly as soon as I can if you ’re about to give birth ok,” I said, she just laughed at me and nodded, pushing me to the door. “Off you go now, have a safe trip ok,” she said and with that, I take my leave.

“Wait for me Papa,” I whisper and wipe my tears.

Chapter 44

“Hokkaido-eki ni tochaku shimashita (We arrived in Hokkaido station)” as the announcement was released, I started to fix my hag and put my phone in my bag, ready to get off the express.

It took me 4 hours from Tokyo to Shin-hakodate-hokuto and transfer train to the hokuto limited express to Sapporo until I finally reached here back to our home town. It’s 8-hour travel and now it’s already mid lunchtime and I haven’t eaten anything yet.

But I need to run to the hospital to see my father, pagkasakay ko ng taxi sa labas ng station agad kong sinabi kung saan ako patungo, “Moyori no byouin e, onegaishimasu (To the nearest hospital, please)” at kinuha muli ang aking cellphone.

The driver nodded and quickly drive to the nearest hospital,agad ko’ng tinext si Chantel para ipaalam na nandito na ako, at kung kumain na ba siya ng lunch.

Hindi ko na alam ang mararamdaman ko, nagsisisi akong iniwan ko siyang mag-isa doon kasi baka may kung anong mangyari sa kanya. But at the same time I need to see my father.

Ilang minuto lang ay nakarating na ako sa hospital at agad pumasok sa loob para hanapin si Mama, and I quickly see her waiting for me at the lobby and look so worried. “Ma!” I said and ran to her, she quickly hugged me and cried.

“Nasaan si Papa?” Tanong ko. She looks at me and holds my hand as we walk to the hospital hallway to my Father designated room.

Pagbukas ng pinto agad kong nakita si Papa na punong-puno ng aparato sa katawan. I instantly feel so weak seeing him like this. Tears started to run from my eyes when I didn’t realize that ganito na pala kalala ang pinagdaanan ni Papa.

“Heart failure,” Mama said while looking at Papa, “What? Why?” Nanghihina kong sambit at nilapitan si Papa.

I held his hand and cried on its palm, As I regret not visiting him for a month.

The door open where a Doctor comes in and looks at me, “He’s heart has locked the ability to pump enough blood to meet his body’s needs, he has damaged his ventricular walls that are not able to push enough blood out of his heart” she explained and look at me but I focus on staring at my Papa and keep crying.

“How to cure this?” hinawakan ko ng mahigpit ang kamay ni Papa habang patuloy na nakakaramdam ng takot para sa Papa ko.

“He will undergo a diagnosis and other possible treatments don’t worry, we will do our best,” she said and smiled at me. I nodded and chose to have hope on the doctor’s words.

Tinignan ko si Mama na patuloy lang umiiyak sa tabi, tumayo ako at pinunasan ang aking luha. My Mother and Father need me now so there’s no time for me to be weak.

I hugged Mama and she rested her head on my stomach. She burst out crying…

“Shhh Papa can get through this Ma, I believe in him,” I said and look at my Father, pinunasan ko ang huli luhang tumulo mula sa aking mga mata, lakas loob na hinarap ang problemang ito.

I talk with a lot of doctors and research about heart failure. We faced a lot of bad news about his condition but I stayed strong and didn’t lose hope.

“Ma, sige na matulog ka muna ako na ang bahala kay Papa,” I said and lead my Mom to the couch here inside to let her sleep for a while.

“Pero dalawang araw kanang walang tulog anak, ako na muna ang magbabantay kay Papa mo,” she said, pero umiling lang ako at inihiga siya at kinumutan. “Ako na ang bahala, ang lakas ko kaya ohh kagaya ni Papa,” I smile at her to make her feel better.

She falls asleep easily because she’s also tired, and she was scared all the time. I know she still loves Papa and I still hope that after all of this everything will be back to where it started. A good start.

Umupo ako sa tabi ni Papa at hinawakan muli ang kanyang kamay, “Mewosamasu (Wake up)” I whisper and smile at him.

“Watashi Wa anata no tsuyoi koto o shitte imasu (I know your strong)” nanghihina kong sambit at pilit pinipigilan ang aking luha. “Anata Nara dekiru (I know you can do it)” I whisper and kiss his hands.

“Kono ato, watashitachi wa futatabi kansei shimasu (After this we’ll be complete again)” I know he can’t hear me right now but my hope is still strong, I know he can do this.

“Anata ga made okite nai nara watashi wa anata no okane o te ni iremasu (If you don’t wake up already, I will get your money)” I joked and laughed at my own joke, with painful tears coming out of my eyes.

“Gumising kana kasi Papa, onegaishimasu (Please)” I shook my head on his bed and cried all night long.

After that night Papa undergoes any other treatment until he finally has a conscience and he was able to talk with us but still he needs to be fully treated and recover his strength. As days goes by unti-unti na kaming nakakareceive ng good feedback about his condition and unti-unti na ring nagiimproved ang health niya.

And as he’s health improved, nagimprove din ang relationship nila ni Mama, nagkaayos na sila at nagdesisyon magsama muli because they never really choose to leave each other they just need space.

And witnessing that makes me realize na isa iyan sa dahilan kung bakit hindi ko magawang sabihin ang totoo kong nararamdaman dahil simula bata ako I badly don’t want them to separate and I didn’t had the strength to say it, hanggang sa kinalakihan ko na ang hindi pagsabi ng totoo kong nararamdaman sa ibang tao.

Their separation makes me scared of expressing my feelings because I saw how much they break each other’s hearts when they let their feelings all out.

Now that they are ok, pakiramdam ko ok na rin ako…

But still, something is missing…

Gu—– Someone is texted me.

When I read it my eyes widened and I stood up, making Mama and Papa look at me. “Sienna?” Mama asks while giving Papa a slice of an apple.

“I need to go back to Tokyo Ma,” I said, Chantel, is finally giving birth!!!!

“Chantel is on labour!” with that agad nila akong pinagayan umalis at puntahan si Chantel.

“Thank you, you’re awake!!!” I said and felt relief in my chest seeing her open her eyes.

I’m so proud of her, all the struggles suddenly pop up in my mind, which makes me cry while holding her hands. “Why are you crying?” she asked.

“I’m so proud of you,” I said and wiped my tears. “As soon as I received your text that you’re on labor I quickly asked Mom that I’ll be going to you for a couple of days,” I said and smiled at her.

“Also, I already informed your brother about this. He said he’ll go after his business trip” I said because I call Cadmus while she’s asleep. Chantel nodded and smiled genuinely at me, we just talked and talked the whole time.

“I brought you chocolate, from a fine shop of chocolates in Hokkaido, try it,” I said.

“Where did you buy this? I want this one!!” she said while enjoying eating the chocolate I bought.

“Hey dahan-dahan naman Pai—–” naputol ang pagbabawal ko sa kanya ng bumukas ang pinto at pumasok ang nurse dala ang baby.

“Sienna please hold this but don’t eat it it’s mine” she handed me the chocolate and waited for the baby. Hindi ko maiwasang mamangha nang pagmasdan ko ang paglapit ng baby sa amin ni Chantel.

“Here’s your healthy baby girl Miss Delavine,” The nurse said and handed her the baby.

“She’s so beautiful,” I whisper and we are both staring at this angel, admiring her peaceful sleeping face and her charming face.

“Yes, she is” she whispers and touches her face.

“Hi baby, it’s Mommy,” she whispered to her and kissed her forehead gently like she didn’t wanna interrupt her peaceful sleep. I look at her and smile “You did it” I said.

“No Sienna, we did it, without you I will not survive here, you are part of the hard work,” she said and I can feel that she’s thankful and makes my heart melt.

“You’re making me cry,” I said and we both laughed silently.

“What will you name her?” I ask and smile at her.

she stared at the little angel and smiled.

“Meet my Kacey Ellousie Delavine.”

What a beautiful name…

Ellouise, welcome to our world…

Chapter 45

11 months passed by “Ok, ok, ok Call me later after feeding Bunny ok, sleep tight baby Bunny,” Masayang sambit ko habang nakatingin sa screen ng aking cellphone ko.

I’m back here in Hokkaido because Dad has finally got discharged from the hospital, the doctors said that his recovery became faster than we expected, dahil si Papa mismo ang nagpurisge sa sarili niyang gumaling para kay Mama.

Ngayon ok na ang lahat at pakiramdam ko maluwag na rin ang pakiramdam ko.

“Ok Tita, Bunny will just sleep ok,” ako’y natawa ng si Chantel ang magsalita para kay Bunny at ginalaw pa ang kamay nito para kumaway sa akin mula sa video call.

“Hahaha patulugin mo na yan, at magpahinag kana, also clean the house, Bye,” I said.

“Yup, goodluck on your first day muah!! And by the way I like your new haircut, so fab hihi,” After that she ended the call. Kaya tumayo na ako mula sa kama at inayos ang aking suot.

bago naglakad papunta sa harap ng salamin upang tignan ang aking repleksyon dito. My hands is trembling in excitement and I can’t explain what I’m gonna feel in my look.

I’m wearing a simple cream suit with a white blouse underneath, and simple white doll shoes, I put on simple make-up and just fixed my new hairstyle.

Nagpagupit kasi ako kahapon para sa araw na ito, gusto ko kasi ng bagong look sa bagong simula na ito.

This is a new start and this time I’m sure that this will be the right decision in my life.

Kinuha ko na ang bag ko at bumababa ng mula sa kwarto papunta s akusina kung saan inaayos na ni Mama ang bento box na dadalhin ko.

“Bagay na bagay sayo ang bagong itsura ng buhok mo anak” she said and smile at me, my new hair length is above my shoulder, it’s an apple cut hair style.

“Thank you, ok na po ba ang lahat ng ito?” I asked and started to pack the bento box she prepared. “Ok na anak kumpleto na, sige na goodluck ok,” I smile and kiss her on her cheeks before I look at my Papa who’s watching TV.

“Papa watashi wa arimasu (Papa I’m leaving)” Pagpapaalam ko, he looked at me and smiled, “Ganbarou (Good luck)” I nodded and stepped out of the house, took a deep breath, and walked.

“Ikuzo (Here I go)” I cheered up and confidently walked towards the new start.

After a few minutes of walking here, I am standing in front of this new start…

I still can’t believe that I will be doing this… I still remember how Papa agreed to this…

One month ago, where Papa was discharged from the hospital.

“Be careful” sambit ko ng inaalalayan namin ni Mama si Papa papasok sa bahay.

“Tadaima (I’m home)” he whispers and we look at him with a bright smile, “Okaerinasai (Welcome home)” sabay naming sambit ni Mama, na parang tinik na nawala sa aming pakiramdam.

At last, everything is fine…

Nang maipasok na si Papa isasara ko na sana ang pinto ng biglang may dumaan na mga kinder student kasama ang teacher nila, nakapila sila at nakasuot ng cute na uniform.

“Oh, Ashiena sensei!!!” nagulat ako ng biglang sumigaw si Micko, kamasa siya sa mag student at yung teacher na kasama nila.

“Sensei?” Tanong ni Papa ng manatili sa tabi ko. I just chuckled at him and waved at Micko. Micko waves at me together with her classmate and they continue walking. How cute.

“Sensei ni naritai desu ka? (Do you want to be a teacher?)” biglang tanong ni Papa ng lumagpas na sila Micko, agad akong napatingin sa kanya at tumawa.

“What! iie, iie, watashi wa sensei ni naremasen (What! No, no, I can’t be a teacher)” sambit ko.

“Nazena no? (Why not?)” he said that makes me look at him with disbelief, “Watashi wa kaisha de anata o tasukeru tsumoridakara (Because I’m gonna help you with the company)” sagot ko at tumwa, bago sinara ang pinto.

’“Sensei ni natte hoshii (I want you to be a teacher)” nanlaki ang mata ko dahil sa sinabi ni Papa at hindi makapaniwala siyang hinarap at sumulyap kay Mama, Mama just smile at nodded at me while I look back to Papa. “Hontoni? (Really?)”

“Watashi wa anata ga kodomo ga sukida to shitte iru node sore no tame ni ikamasu (I know you like kids so go for it)” He said and hold my hand, “Saikai shimasu (Let’s start again)” what he said makes me cry and instantly hug him.

I cry on his arm with pain and happiness, Saikai shimasu!!!!!

That day is when I decided to aim for my real dream, to be a––

“Sensei!!!” Micko ran to me as I entered the classroom.

––To be a teacher.

“Ohayo (Good morning)” I greeted her and she chuckled as she hugged me tighter and hid her face.

“Sensei!!(Teacher)”

“Ohayo gozaimasu Sensei (Good morning teacher)”

“Sensei!!! Ohayo (Good morning)”

“Watashi no omocha no sensei o mite kudasai!!!(Look at my toy teacher!!)“malalakas na sambit nila.

Lahat sila ay nag silapit sa akin at niyakap ako, I’m hired as a kindergarten teacher just like what I’ve dreamed of.

“Benkyo shitaidesu ka, kodomo tachi?(Do you want to study, Kids?)” masigla kong tanong sa kanila.

“HAI!!!(yes!!!)” Sabay-sabay nilang sigaw, “Ok benkyo shimashou (Ok let’s study)” I cheered and they all went back to their seats and we started the class.

My heart is pounding so fast, seeing these kids in front of me, calling me a teacher, and listening to me…

“Kono tadashi sensei desu ka? (Is this right teacher?)” tanong ni Toma sa akin habang pinapakita ang drinowaing na bahay.

I genuinely smile at him and nodded, “Hai (Yes)”

“Sore Wa utsukushii sensei desu ka (Is it beautiful sensei?)” Kaori asks and shows me her pink house. “Haiiii (yesss)” I gently said and smiled at her.

She smiles and they all continue drawing their houses.

This was just a dream of yesterday and now, I’m really in this dream of reality.

I’m finally a teacher…

Chapter 46

After a year of teaching in Japan, I decided to move back to the Philippines. Because this is where I really want to push my teaching career.

“Ladies and Gentlemen, welcome to Ninoy Aquino International Airport. Local time is 8:00 pm. For your safety and comfort, please remain seated with your seat belt fastened until the captain turns off the fasten seatbelt sign. This will indicate that we have parked at the gate and that it is safe for you to move about. Please check around your seat for any personal belongings you may have brought on board with you. On behalf of Philippine Airlines and the entire crew, I’d like to thank you for joining us on this trip and we are looking forward to seeing you onboard again in the near future. Have a nice day” After the announcement, we waited for about 10 minutes before everyone settled and nakababa na kami ng airplane at nakalabas ng airport.

“Sienna!!!” Chantel shouted as soon as we saw each other, buhat buhat niya si Baby Bunny habang nakatayo sa tabi niya si Kace.

Also, the reason why I choose to go back is that some of my friends are getting married…

Sunod-sunod na sila kaya umuwi na ako pero wala akong malagpasang moment…

“Oh my gosh, you look so fresh and new na talaga look oh, are you still the Sienna that I know,” exaggerated na sambit ni Chantel kaya tumawa ako at nginitian si Kace habang buhat na si Bunny.

“Sira ka ba,” in butter and laugh at her before I walk towards Kace and get Bunny from him. “How’s Tita’s baby Bunny?” I ask that she giggled. “Let me put all the things on the car first,” Kace said and grab all my things.

Sumunod kami ni Chantel sa kanya habang nilalaro ko si Bunny, parang nawala pagod ko sa byahe dahil nakita ko na si Bunny.

“By the way did you already know?” napalingon ako kay Chantel ng sumeryoso ang boses niya. “Ang alin?” tanong ko at tumigil sa tapan ng sasakyan nila.

“About your ex’s new girlfriend in Florida?” agad tumibok ng mabilis ang aking puso ng marinig ang salitang Ex.

It’s him, she’s talking about…

And yes I know it, “Oo naman alam ko na balita na sa akin ni Cad,” sagot ko bago siya nginitian at binuksan ang pinto para sumakay sa sasakyan.

Sumunod siya at hinarap ako, sabay hawak ng aking kamay, “What do you feel about it?” she asks and looks so worried.

“I’m happy,” I answered and smiled at her, and pinch Bunny’s chubby cheeks. “Happy?” she asks.

I nodded at her and, “Yes, I’m happy for him I guess,” walang kasiguradohan kong sagot, dahil ako mismo hindi ko alam ang nararamdaman ko.

“Duh, you didn’t have proper breakup kaya!! So it’s not counted” she said as Kace enter the car and started the engine.

“I’m fine ok, I’m happy for him and for myself… and for now I want to focus on myself first,” I said that made her pout, and just nodded.

“If that’s what you’ve say so hmf,” Chantel said and move to the passenger seat, nakita ko kung paano agad inabot ni Kace ang kamay ni Chantel at hinawakan ito habang nagdadrive.

Umiling-iling na lang ako at nakipaglaro kay Bunny… so this is what thirdwill feels like…

“It’s Lonely,” I whisper.

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“Ok class this will be your new teacher, meet teacher Ashiena Minami or you can call her Teacher Sienna, say hi to her,” Miss Yalena said as she introduced me to the kids.

They’re all just staring at me with their lips parted, so I smile at them and greet them, “Hi kids, It’s nice to meet you all from this day forward I will be the one teaching you and playing with you, ok ba kayo don?” masigla kong sambit na agad nakapagpaliwanag ng kanilang mga mukha at ngumiti bago isa-isang lumapit sa akin.

At niyakap ang aking mga hita, “teacher ang ganda niyo po, gusto ko po kayong maging teacher.”

“Teacher bakit ganito ang mata mo?” tanong ng isa at ginawang singkit ang kanyang mata para magaya sa akin, kaya hindi ko napigilang tumawa.

“Teacher are you korean?” the other little girl ask, kaya nagkatinginan kami ni Miss Yalena at nagtawanan sa mga tanong ng mga bata.

Their too young to distinguish my nationality so I have to seat in front of them and, “Teacher Sienna is not a Korean, but I’m half Japanese, my father is pure Japanese while my mother is a half Pinay and Japanese.” malumanay kong sambit na nakapagpatigil sa kanila at tumingin lang silang lahat sa akin.

They all look like babies, My heart is jumping because of happiness…

“Sige teacher Sienna maiwan ko na kayo,” Miss Yalena said and leave the classroom. “Ok kids, go back to your seats, and let’s start learning yehey,” I cheered them up, and made our study exciting as possible.

Because they are still so young and get distracted easily so I try my very best to make our studies like a game.

“Ok, good what is this?!!!” I raise a fruit toy and show it to them, “Apple!!!!” they all shouted, kids are very energetic so I need to cope up with them to be able to make them learn.

“Very good, next is this one, what is this?” I ask, “Orange!!!!”

I smile, “Very good,” I can’t explain how happy I am right now. This is my dream.

“Ok, this one?” I ask.

“Grapes!!!!” they all shouted and some of them jumped as if they were really enjoying the class.

“Teacher!” natigilan ako ng tawagin ako ni Cloe at lumapit sa kain, she’s so small so I need to kneel to face her. “What is it baby?” malumanay kong sambit ng makitang nagpipigil siya ng luha niya.

“I want to pee” she said and pout, halatang nahihiya siya kaya agad akong tumayo at hinawakan ang kanyang kamay. “Ok, class I want you to draw your favorite fruits while I’m with Cloe for a minute ok” they all nodded and quickly grabbed their drawing pads and colors.

They all started the activity so I face Cloe and smile at her, “Let’s go pee,” lumabas kami ng room at sa katabing pinto lang nito ang restroom kaya malapit lang at rinig ko ang mga bata kaya ok lang.

“Here you go,” sambit ko at binuhat siya pa upo sa toilet bowl at nginitian siya habang nakaalalay sa kanya dahil hindi niya pa abot ang sahig.

“Done Teacher,” She said and shyly looked at me. I chuckled and put her down, helped her with her underwear and uniform before we stepped out of the restroom and were about to go back to the room.

“Cloe,” Someone calls her.

“Doctor Handsome!!!” agad akong binitawan ni Cloe at biglang sumigla ang boses bago tumakbo sa tumawag sa kanya at ng marinig iyon ng lahat ng estudyante ko sa loob lahat siya ay lumabas at tumakbo sa lalaking ito.

“Kids” I utter and when I look at the guy they were hugging, he seems familiar…

“Doctor handsome look oh, we have our new beautiful Teacher” Cloe said ng buhatin niya nito at tinuro niya ako dito.

“I’m their new Teacher, Ashiena Minami” pagpapakilala ko kahit na hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong pagpakilala sa kanya.

“Have we met before?” hindi ko maiwasang tanungin dahil parang nakita ko na talaga siya dati pa.

“I guess so,” he gently said and smiled at me with those heart-shaped thin lips. Ang ganda ng ngiti nito pati na rin ang pustura nito.

He’s wearing a simple white dresser shirt that folded its sleeve up to his elbow and neat black pants and he paired it with matte black Loafer shoes and he has bullpens in the pocket of his dresser shirt. His hair is neatly brushed up but still looks calm and young.

Nagulat ako ng lumapit siya sa akin habang buhat si Cloe at nakasunod ang mga bata sa kanya. His perfume smells so good, I can smell it already.

Again, he smiles at me and “Hi I’m the personal doctor of this kids and I’m….” tumigil siya at pinabitin pa ang kanyang pagpapakilala kaya napakunot noo ako and he chucked.

“Cute,” he said, what?

“Your name is cute?” I ask that makes him laugh charmingly.

“No, I said your cute haha, and funny,” he said and offered his hand.

“I’m Doctor Luan Dreason, you can call me Doc. Luan or handsome.”

Chapter 47

“I’m Doctor Luan Dreason, you can call me Doc. Luan or handsome,” he said and wink at me making all the kids giggle and smile at me. “I’m kidding,” he said.

“I think the kids needs to finish their activities” sambit ko kaya lalo siyang ngumiti at binaba si Cloe, “Kids your beautiful teacher and I will talk, so go back inside and finish your activities ok,” malambing niyang sambit at agad namang sumunod ang mga bata sa kanya at pumasok sa loob.

After that he stood straight in front of me and smiled, putting both hands in his pockets. “Nice to meet you, teacher,” he said.

I smile and, “I don’t remember that I have a student like you?” sambit ko na ikinatawa niya. “Nice,” he uttered and looked at the kids.

“I rarely visit the kids because of busy schedules but I think I can fix my schedule now, so I can see you often,” he said and glanced at me with those charming heart lips.

“What?” tanong ko na agad niyang sinagot, “I mean see you and the kids often for the check up,” kumamot ito sa tabok at halatang nahiya dahil sa kanyang sinabi, kaya natawa nalang ako sa kanya at umiling-iling.

“Doc!!!” napalingon kaming dalawa ng may tumawag sa kanyang isang lalake, at nang makita ko it bigla kong naalala ang lalake sa mall, napatingin ako kay Doctor Luan at naalalang siya yong lalakeng nakatapak sa kamay ko habang nagpupulot ako ng papers noon.

“Doc hinahanap ka doon sa clinic ni Doc. Gracia” tama sila nga iyon. “Ok, be there in a minute” he said and looked back at me.

“I remember you,” I said that made him raise both of his brows and wait for me to speak,“Ikaw yung guy sa Mall 3 years ago” when I said that he quickly smiled and chuckled,“What?” he asked.

“Yeah, ako yung natapakan mo yung kamay habang pinupulot ko ang mga papers ko noon, don’t you remember?” sambit ko kaya lalo siyang ngumiti at tumango.

“I knew it was you, how can I forget those teary eyes when I step on your hand, here,” nilabas niya ang phone sa kanyang phone sa bulsa bago binuksan at may pinindot doon bago ito hinarap sa akin.

My lips parted when I saw a stolen picture of me while talking to the counter of the craft shop 3 years ago. Hatalang kuha ito habang nasa loob siya ng sasakyan at paalis na ito kaya kiya ang sideview ko. Sobrang stress ng itsura ko dito, nakaessy bond at t-shirt and jeans lang ako that time.

“I don’t know what to say” sambit ko ng harapin siya muli, tumawa siya at sinabi, “You don’t need to speak, I’m glad I see you again, I better go now see you tomorrow” nagulat ako ng guluhin niya ng konti ang aking buhok bago kinuha ang phone at sinundan ang lalaking tumawag sa kanya kanina.

Tinignan ko siyang umalis at nang makaliko na sila, inayos ko ang aking buhok bago pumasok sa loob ng classroom, “Ok, tapos na ba kayo kids?” masigla kong tanong.

“Yes Teacher!!!” they shouted and raised their drawings, I smiled and checked all of it and started teaching other lessons to them.

“Ok kids, bring out your lunch box and eat your lunch ok,” I said and helped the kids fix their table so they could start eating together. “Yes Teacher,” sagot nila at nilabas ang kanilang mga lunch box.

“Enjoy your lunch kids, start eating na,” Sambit ko at nagpray na sila then start eating. They are all so cute with their small spoon and forks, nagtatawanan pa sila habang kumakain at nagsheshare sa isat-isa.

Sumandal ako dito sa teachers’ desk ko at pinanuod lang silang kumain. Hindi ko maiwasang matawa at ngumiti habang pinapanood si Geo na laging nahuhulugan ng pagkain buti na lang ay nasasalo din ito ng lunch box niya kaya ok lang. Pero sobrang cute dahil tuwing susubo niya na sa bibig niya ay ubos na ito.

Kaya hindi ko na natiis at nilapitan siya, “Geo want Teacher to help you?” I asked and sat beside him, he looked at me and pouted, “Ow kawawa naman ang baby na yan gutom na haha” I said and got his spoon, started feeding him and helping others too.

“Cloe eat the carrots that are good for your eyes,” I said and smiled at her, she looked at me and ate the carrots just like what I said.

“Hmmm yummy,” she said and cheerfully nodded while chewing the carrots, I smiled at her and wiped a piece of rice on her cheeks.

“Teacher look oh, I eat potato,” pinakita naman sa akin ni Hanna ang potato na nasatinidor niya at kinain ito sa harapan ko. “Good job Hanna,” I said and tapped her head before she went back to her seat and resumed eating.

While helping the kids some elementary students knocked on the door, so I stood up and walked towards them “Yes?” I ask.

“Teacher Minami, pinapabigay po ni Doc sa inyo kain na daw po kayo” he said and handed me a paper bag filled with food. “Sa’kin?” tanong ko at tumango siya bago tinuro sa di kalayuan si Doctor Luan na nakasandal sa pinto ng clinic habang suot ang white coat niya.

He smiles at me, “Sige po Teacher alis na po ako hihi,” the kid said and run, bumalik ang tingin ko kay Doctor Luan na nakatayo lang doon.

I pointed at myself to ask him if this was really for me, or maybe this is for the kids. He nodded and pointed to the paper bag where I saw a sticky note inside, Kinuha ko ito at binasa.

A doctor like me believes in working hard and being rewarded by food,

So, I give this reward to you as an appreciation for your kindness to the kids.

Joke, I just want to treat you and make you smile.

Ps: eat it all as the Doctor’s prescription…

Hindi ko maiwasang mapangiti sa nakasulat at tinignan siya, he winks at me and salute before he turns his back inside the clinic.

I smile and look at this food…

Pumasok na ako sa loob ng classroom at binalikan ang mga bata at sumabay kumain sa kanila. I also share the food with them.

After eating lunch, we started a new activity and played a lot of learning games, and I can say that the kids are really enjoying it.

“Ok, kid’s see you tomorrow ok, and do your homework before you sleep,” Palala ko sa kanilang lahat habang hinahatid sila sa parents waiting area.

“Yes, Teacher Sienna, bye-bye,” they said and walked through their parents. Nakahinga ako ng maluwag ng matapos na ang araw na ito, “Hoo.. good thing so one cry,” I whisper and go back to the classroom to fix it and get my bag.

Pagkalabas ko ng pinto gulat akong napaatras ng makita si Doctor Luan na nakatayo sa harap nito, “Doctor Dreason,” I utter and look at him.

“Do you believe in love at first sight?” he suddenly asked, “No, I don’t believe in that,” But I do believe in love at first kiss and that was with Gun.

“Second sight?” he asks again, “No,” I confusedly answer because I don’t get it why is he asking me this.

“Should I walk by again? So, you could fall in love at the third sight,” hindi ko alam pero natawa na lang ako sa pick up line niya at umiling-iling.

“Just kidding,” he said and we both laugh together, “Let me help you,” inabot niya ang bag ko mula sa akin at sinuod ito habang nakapatong sa braso niya ang coat niya.

“You know I’ve been keeping your photo for almost 3 years already and now that I finally see you again, I don’t wanna take it too long and I know you know that I kinda admire and like you, so I would like to take chances already,” he said and shyly avoided my gaze.

“Because I’m gonna be busy tomorrow so I want to ask you if I can court you.”

Chapter 48

“Because I’m gonna be busy tomorrow so I want to ask you if I can court you,”

he gently said and smiled at me.

Hindi ako makapagsalita dahil sa gulat at nabibilisan ako sa nangyayari pero naiintindihan ko ang sinabi niya.

Pero hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko sa kanya… “Ahm…” what to say?

“SIlent means yes, I’ll take that” he smiled at me and started walking. My lips just parted and slowly followed him until we reached the parking lot where we stopped in front of a black Lamborghini Urus.

Pinagbuksan niya ako ng pinto sa passenger seat at inalalayan ang aking ulo sa pagsakay ko at kaagad itong sinara bago umikot sa driver seat at pumasok.

“What’s your address?” he ask and started the engine, I don’t know pero pakiramdam ko lutang ako at sinabi ko nalang sa kanya kung saan ako nakatira at nanatiling tahimik sa buong byahe.

Hindi naman ganun kalayo ang school sa bahay dahil dito ulit ako tumira sa bahay namin ni Mama nong nagdesisyon akong dito na tumira at magturo. Kahit na malapit lang ito pakiramdam ko sobrang tagal naming tahimik sa loob ng sasakyan.

“We’re here,” he said and quickly remove his seatbelt, at dahil nawawala ako sa sarili mabagal akong kumilos, “Let me help you,” nagulat ako ng bigla siyang lumapit sa akin at tinangal ang pagkakabit ng seatbelt ko.

Hindi ako makagalaw dahil sa gulat, “Ok—,” he said and our eyes met. I didn’t blink because I’m still shocked, until he chuckled and smiled at me, “Don’t look at me like that. I move too fast. I might ask you to marry me tomorrow hahaha” dahil sa sinabi niya agad akong umiwas ng tingin at binuksan ang pinto pero agad niyang ni lock.

Nanigas ako ng makitang naglock ang pinto ng sasakyan, kaya dahan-dahan ko siyang hinarap. His right arm is leaning against my chair while the other one is on the steering wheel.

“But I’m serious about the courting thing Teacher Sienna,” he seriously said before he boyishly smile.

“I have to go, I will think about so please open the door,” I said, dahil ready na akong lumabas sa sasakyan na ito. Pinagpapawisan na ang kamay ko dahil sa mga sinasabi at ginagawa niya kaya gusto ko na makalabas dito.

“Ok, see you next week I guess,” he said.

What? What’s with next week?! “N-next week?” kinakabahan kong sambit.

“Next week it’s the kid’s general check up right?” he asks and smirks, he clearly knows that I think about something else!

“Ah yes I know that ok, bye” that’s when he opens the car lock and I instantly open the door and get out of the car. Hinarap ko siya ng maisara ko na ang pinto ng Lambo niya, binaba niya ang bintana at kumaway sa akin.

“Bye,” I said and waved at him.

“See you Teacher,” he teases and drives away…

“Sienna!!!” nagulat ako ng biglang may sumigaw sa tenga ko, kaya agad akong nabalik sa aking katinuan. It’s Lana, she shouted at my ears.

“Kanina ka pa kasi tulalay dyan, tapos na ang makeup mo oh!!!” she said and forcefully made me face the mirror, where I see my reflection wearing a white maxi dress with light makeup and fixed short hair.

“Ano ba kasi ang iniisip mo dyan gurl, baka tapos na ang kasal tulalay ka pa dyan,” she said and laugh at me as she put blush on her cheeks.

“Wala naman,” I said and stood up. It’s been a month since Luan ask me that, hindi ko napapansin sobrang bilis pala ng takbo ng oras.

“Nako kung ako sayo tutuloy na ako sa labas at hahanapin yong Doctor mo dahil siguradong pinagpyestahan na iyon ng mga babae sa labas. Saan mo ba kasi na danggit yon sama mo naman ako,” She said and smiled at me.

“Nadanggit talaga? Ano yon isda?” Natatawa kong sambit habang kinuha na ang maliit na boet of flowers na dadalhin ko mamaya.

“Oo masherep ne esda gurl hahaha, tapos parehas pa sila ni Gun ng pustura noh.. Talagang loyal ka pagdating sa taste mo” dire-diretso niyang sambit habang nakaharap sa salamin.

Tama siya Gunner and Luan have the same features like they have the same height, musculin body, and tattoo. When I mention the tattoo napatingin ako sa wrist watch ko kung saan nakatago ang tattoo ko ng pangalan ni Gun.

I sigh and smile at Lana, “Dyan kana nga, pupuntahan ko lang yong bride sumunod kana ah,” I said and walk out of that room and move to another room where Chantel stay.

Pagbukas ko ng pinto my heart beats so fast seeing her wearing a beautiful and stunning white gown. “Sienna” She called me and reached for my hand. “I’m so happy,” she said and happiness and love are very visible in her eyes, which makes me happy too.

She finally got her happy ending and it’s gonna be at the end of the aisle with his man.

“I’m happy for you,” I whispered and hugged her so tight.

Napalingon kami ng bumukas ang pinto at sumilip ang isa sa mga organizer ng kasal, “Bride and Bridesmaid, tara na po sa harap ng pinto ng simbahan mag start na po tayo.”

We both nodded and, “This is it,” I said and smiled at her. She held my hands so tight as we stepped out of the room and walked in towards the front door of the church.

“Dito po sa dulo yong bride,” that’s when we let go of each other and follow the position that the organizer said.

“Can I stand beside this beautiful lady?” napalingon ako ng magsalita si Luan sa tabi ko. “Hi Teacher,” he greeted and held my hand as my escort.

“Hi Doctor,” I said and we both chuckled.

And the door of the church opened and the music started to play and everyone started to enter the church.

“Next let’s welcome Miss Ashiena Minami with her escort, Doctor Luan Dreason,” we started waking in the middle of the aisle.

“The bridesmaid.”

Chapter 49

After Chantel’s wedding everything went fine and happy, and now I decided to visit my brother and get my Charvy. I heard his already big at makapal na lalo ang kanyang balahibo.

I can’t wait to see him again, after 3 many years. “Mukhang excited na excited ka gurl ah,” sambit ni Lana sa aking tabi habang siya ang nagdadrive ng sasakyan ng sasakyan ni Luan.

Yup, we’re using Luan’s other car which is a audi q8. Pinahiram niya since hindi niya ako masasamahan ngayong araw dahil sa busy schedule niya.

“Sobrang excited,” sambit ko at tumawa, “Ikaw ba hindi ka excited?” tanong ko na may halong pang-aasar.

“Duh as if,” she said and rolled her eyes. I was pertaining if she’s excited to see my brother again but that’s her reaction and I guess she’s not. Buti na lang na pilit ko siyang samahan ako kahit halos matanggal na ang kanyang mata kakairap.

I just laugh at her and look at the road, malapit na kami sa rest house ni Kuya.

“Were here,” excited kong sambit ng tumigil kami sa harap ng rest house ni kuya dito sa Zambales, I heard he bought this with a help of Cadmus, I’m not really sure but that’s what I heard.

“Yehey,” sarkastikong sambit ni Lana habang tinatanggal ang seatbelt. Tumawa na lang ako sa kanya at naunang bumababa.

Pagbaba niya tinignan niya ako at sumandal sa pinto ng sasakyan. “Sige na hintayin na lang kita dito, bilisan mo ah!” she said and looked away from the house.

“Ayaw mong pumasok sa loob?” tanong ko pero inirapan niya lang ako at naglakad sa likod ng sasakyan at doon sumandal.

Umiling na lang ako at tumuloy na sa harap ng pinto ng bahay at kumatok. After a few knocks, it opened and my brother showed up with a grumpy face. “Hi,” I greeted but instead of greeting me, he looked at the car.

“Who’s with you I thought you’re with L—,” I cut him out and pointed at the back of the car where you can see Lana’s feet.

“She’s at the back and she doesn’t want to see you,” I said and smiled at him, he hazed and clenched his jaw before he walked inside his house.

“Call him,” he said and glanced at me while he went straight to his kitchen to grab some water.

“Charvy!!!!” I shouted Charvy’s name and after a few seconds there he was running towards me. Agad akong umupo para salubungin siya ng malaking yakap.

Napaupo pa ako ng tumalon-talon siya sa akin,he licks me on my face and keep on push himself to me. “Oh gosh, I miss you so much” I utter and hugged him so tight.

“Yeah enjoy your reunion, I’ll be back,” Kuya said and brought water outside the house. I watch the door close and smile knowing where he’s going.

Hinayaan ko na lang muna sila at nakipaglaro kay Charvy, “Do you still recognize Mommy CHarvy? Do you miss me huh?” I ask and he keeps on barking and jumping so I can’t help but laugh at him.

Halata kasi na nabibigatan na siya sa sarili niya pero pilit pa rin siyang nagagalaw para sa akin.

Nagulat ako ng biglang bumukas ang pinto at, “Ani ba bitawan mo ako,  Sienna tulong!!! Punyeta naman oh!!! Sienna!!!” dahil sa gulat hindi ako nakaimik ng makitang buhat-buhat ni kuya si Lana habang basang basa ang mukha ni kuya.

“Sienna I will call my assistant to drive you back to manila just wait for a few minutes because this Rebel won’t be coming to you, she’ll stay here with m——,” hindi natapos ni Kuya ang sasabihin niya ng hampasin ni Lana ang likod niya.

“With you, Duh, as if! Tanga ka ba? Bakit naman ako magpapaiwan dito kasama kang gago ka!!!” Lana shouted.

“Watch your mouth or else” he said that makes Lana stop talking and look at me. “Sienna wag mo akong iwan” she said, but the door opened and Kuya’s assistant entered the house.

“Miss Sienna tara na po” he said and helped me with Charvy. Nilabas niya na si CHarvy kasama ang dogcreate at hinagis ni kuya ang susi dito na agad niyang sinalo.

“Sienna!!!!! Putek! Kidnapping ito, Kakasuhan kitang gago ka!!!” nagsimula na akong maglakad ng dahan-dahan pa lapit ng pinto. “Really? Who’s gonna be your lawyer then that Austin!!!” kuya darkly said but Lana fearlessly answered him.

“Oo!!!” dahil sa sagot ni Lana hinarap ako ni Kuya. “Leave her to me, Sienna,” Kuya said and I nodded because I was intimidated by his dark voice.

At pagtapat ko sa pinto ay “Sienna!!!!” nakita kong pinasok na ni Kuya si Lana sa isang silid.

“Tara na po Miss Sienna,” I look at my brother’s assistant when he calls me. “Ah oo sige,” sambit ko at sumunod sa kanya at agad kaming umalis ng rest house ni Kuya.

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After that, months passed by bumalik din si Lana dito sa Manila. And there are so many things that happen like Cadmus wedding which turns out to be Abbery’s wedding and at the same time the instant marriage of Alliana and Cadmus.

Sobrang bilis lahat ng nangyayari pero I’m so happy for them. At Least they are happy with their life already and witnessing it all makes me feel honored.

“Teacher Sienna, my mommy bake cookies and she wants me to give it to you po, here’s for you and this is for Doctor Handsome,” binigay niya sa kaliwa kong kamay ang para sa akin at sa kanan naman ay ang para kay Luan.

“Wow, thank you Kelly,” I said and smiled at her, she giggled and ran back to her seat and gave her classmates some small cookies too.

“Class after you eat your cookies, we can start on the second activity ok,” I said that making them nod and smile at me.

Pinanuod ko silang kumain at hinanda na rin ang activity nila after when my phone rings and received a text message from Luan.

It’s been three days since nagkita kami dahil busy siya sa hospital, I open his massage and read it.

From Doctor,

Off duty, see you later.

I smile and reply to him…

To Doctor,

Treat me dinner?

From Doctor,

Sure thing, Teacher.

Ngumiti na lang ako at nagturo na sa mga bata, and the day end up well and now the kids already left the classroom. Now I’m cleaning the room and the colors the kids use.

When someone knocks on the door, and by the scent of his perfume I already know it’s him.

“Sorry, Teacher I’m late,” he said and smirk at me, hinarap ko na siya at ngumiti sa kanya.

“Hi,” I said and went to my desk to fix my things and get my bag. “I already reserved a table for us in your favorite Japanese restau. Teacher,” he said and entered the room, he leaned on my table while watching me fix my things.

Pero habang nag aayos ay bigla na lang niya akong inabutan ng maliit na bouquet ng flowers. I looked at him and chuckled when I accepted the flowers. “Para saan ito?” natatawa kong tanong.

“Nothing I just miss seeing you smile and this flower makes you smile so I bought it, see you laughing,” he said and touched my chin.

“Thank you,” I said and smelled the flowers.

“Always welcome beautiful Teacher” wink. “Hahaha bola mo,” sambit ko, pero lumapit ang kanyang mukha sa akin at pinatong ang dalawang kamay sa magkabilang gilid ng lamesa kaya nakulong ako sa gitna.

He stared at my face, making me feel conscious about it.

“My eyes never lie, Sienna, your beautiful,” He whispers, moving away and giving me that charming heart-shaped smile.

“Stop that smile, I might fall into that,” I joked.

“Really!” he said and smile wider, so I laugh…

This guy always feels so calm to be with…Always make me smile…

Chapter 50

6 years passed by, “Sienna, where are you na?” isang malakas na sigaw mula sa kabilang linya ang sumakop sa kaing tenga.

Nilayo ko ang aking cellphone sa aking tenga bago ngumiti at inayos ang sinusuot kong hikaw. I’m preparing for Bunny’s 10th birthday. Sobrang bilis ng panahon parang kailan lang ng ipanganak niya and now she’s turning 10.

“Oo na paalis na ako ng bahay ok,” Sagot ko kay Chantel at binitawan ang cellphone sa kama at ni-loudspeaker ito para maayos ko ang aking suot na dress peplum dress.

“Ok, are you coming with Doctor Luan?” she asked, “Yup he’ll be here in a minute,” I said and grab my bag and step out of my room. Saktong pagbaba ko ng hagdan ay kasabay nito ang pagdating ng sasakyan ni Luan sa labas, kaya agad tumahol si Charvy at lumapit sa pinto.

Charvy seems to like Luan better than me, as years fast by Luan never gets tired on visiting the ouse with his free time but most of the time ay madalang kaming magkita dahil sa trabaho niya.

So, we often talk on the phone and video calls and twice a month lang kami magkita at lumabas. It’s been six years since I met him and I don’t regret meeting him, because he’s the sweetness and funniest Doctor I’ve known.

Lumapit ako sa pinto ng kumatok na siya at pagbukas na pagbukas ng pinto ay agad siyang sinalubong ni Charvy, “Woah, hello boy miss me?” tanong niay kay Charvy pero ng sabihin niya ang katagang Miss me, I know it was meant for me because he look at me and wink.

“Charvy stop na,” Sigaw ko kay Charvy ng hindi niya tigilan si Luan, and agad naman siyang nakinig at tumayo sa tabi ko. I rub his head and look at this guy wearing a simple sky blue dress shirt with a flooded sleeve showing his tattoo and black pants with luxurious shoes he owns.

“Doctor you’re just in time,” I said and smiled at him. “Yup as always,” he answered and smirked charmingly.

“Wait lang,” sambit ko at isinuot kay Charvy ang leash niya at inabot ito kay Luan. “Let’s go,” I said and we all stepped out of the car and locked the house.

Sinakay ni Luan si Charvy sa back seat ng sasakyan at pinagbuksan ako ng pinto, I smile at him as I enter his Lambo and instantly connect my phone to the car and play a song as he started the engine and drive.

“How’re the kids?” he asks while driving, I look at him and smile, “Cloe said he misses her Doctor Handsome,” I said that made him teasingly glance at me.

“Come on don’t be shy tell me you miss my face too,” he joked so I laughed and looked at my phone as Chantel kept on texting me.

While texting, I also scroll on my social media account to check the kids’ pictures and their mother posts when I stop in the USA breaking new…

The Tyson group of companies closed a billion worth dealing with the biggest company in the world and that all happens because of its young CEO, Gunner Tyson. As of 2020 he already closed 5 deals with some of the biggest companies and real estate in the world.

Natigilan ako sa nabasa ko and realize that after six years ngayon lang ulit ako nakatanggap ng balita tungkol sa kanya.

And now he’s beyond being successful, nalagpasan niya pa lahat ng goal niya sa buhay. I urge a smile and realize how he became so complete when I’m out of his life. Maybe ako lang talaga ang talamak sa buhay niya like what Mrs. Feliciana said.

I suddenly remember what happened when I attended a college alumni party where I met my prof. Again, I realize what she always tell me when I was in college. That I wasn’t meant for marketing field and I she’s right, narealize ko na kaya pala wala akong magawang tama at hindi ko mabigay ang best ko sa trabaho dati dahil hindi talaga ito ang gusto ko.

I wasn’t happy with it because I just forced myself to like it, and look at what it led me.

“You’re right Ma’am, here I am bumalik ako gaya ng sabi mo.. I regret pursuing the wrong pat… but I’m now choosing the right path and thank you for all the knowledge you teach me.

“I told you so,” she said and smiled at me, I chuckled and hugged her.

I’m thankful that she told me that back then, natagalan akong intindihin pero ngayon alam ko na at masaya na ako ngayon..

“Sienna? Are you ok?” I go back to my senses when I heard Luan call my name, while we’re in the middle of the road right now.

Agad akong napaupo ng maayos at inayos ang seatbelt sa aking katawan, hinarap ko siya at ngumiti.. “Yeah, I’m totally fine why?” I ask.

“You seem like spacing out again just like last night,” nakangiti nitong sambit habang sumusulyap sa akin habang nagdadrive. Mabilis akong umiling at tumawa, “Hindi nakatingin lang ako sa daan ang ganda kasi” pagpapalusot ko at nagpatuloy sa pagtawa ng mahina.

He nodded like he’s still not convinced by my excuse, but he nodded and focused on driving.

“By the way, I wanna have a weekly check-up with all your students to maintain their health since we have this unstable weather, kids need a weekly checkup,” he said and glanced at me with his bright smile.

I instantly smile and laugh a little, “Don’t trick me with those checkups, checkup Doctor Luan Dreason, if you’re going to use the kids as an excuse for you to be able to annoy me every week that won’t happen, and unstable weather? Doctor that’s normal here in the Philippines, and your tricks, keep it. I won’t buy it” I confidently said and laughed at him.

“Hey it’s free,” he said.

“What? the check up?” tumatawa kong sambit at tinitignan siya.

He chuckled before he spoke, “No, the trick it’s always free,” those playful smiles, always so charming, I can’t help smiling at them.

“And also, for your information I’m not always here to annoy you, I’m here to court you, Miss Minami. Always remember that ok,” he said and suddenly grabbed a piece of red rose from the back seat and handed it to me.

I smile and sniff the beautiful red rose he gave me; he never fails to surprise me every day. “I know that and I will never forget that Mr. Dreason,” sagot ko humarap na sa bintana, malapit na kami sa bahay nila Aberry.

After a few minutes we’ve already reached Beltran’s humble house, at agad kaming sinalubong ni Aberry pagbaba ko ng sasakyan. “Hey, bakit nasa labas ka?” tanong ko sa kanya habang sinusulyapan si Luan na kinukuha ang regalo namin kay Olivia.

“Hinihintay ko din kasi yung delivery ng cake kanina pa dapat iyon eh,” Aberry said while looking at her phone, she looks so stress tho.

“Here,” Luan whispers at my side after he locks the car and grabs the gifts out of the trunk. I also felt his arms around my waist, that’s why I glanced at him.

I saw Aberry smile at me when she saw Luan’s hands on my waist but I just stick my tongue out in her and pulled Luan inside the house.

“Chantel’s here?” I ask Aberry while walking inside and glancing back at her. “Yup, already there,” she said and we left her outside the gate, still waiting for delivery.

Pagpasok namin sa loob lahat sila ay nandito na, agad kong tinuro kay Luan ang table for gifts para doon niya ilagay ang regalo namin kay Olivia habang ako ay dumiretso sa table nila Chantel. “How’s my baby Bunny?” I instantly get Bunny from Chantel and kiss every part of her face.

“Tita, I’m not a baby anymore,” Ellouise said while pouting at me, she grew up too fast. She’s already 10 years old now and all I can say is that she has a great combination of beauty and brains.

She got it from her parents.

“But you’re still my baby eh,” I said while letting her sit on my lap, as I sat beside Chantel. “Why won’t you make yours na kasi,” Chantel said while eating a pesto.

“Yeah, Mama is right Tita makes yours na po, Anata no mono o tsukuru (make yours)” Chantel and Alliana laugh at what Bunny said, while I feel so shocked, where did she learn about these things? “Chantel, ano-ano ang tinuturo mo sa bata!!” I haze and let Bunny sit on the other chair beside me.

“What? I didn’t do anything, I just said that you should start your own family na kasi, you’re not getting any younger now Sienna” Chantel said and looked at me, while Alliana agreed with her.

“Palibhasa may mga asawa na kayo kaya minamadali niyo na ako,” I said start taking a bite on the pesto.

“Hindi naman sa ganon, totoo lang talaga ang sinasabi ni Chantel” Alliana said, “Anong sinabi ni Chantel, Ahmmm…Babe pakilagay sa table yung cake thank you,” lahat kami napatingin kay Aberry ng bigla siyang sumulpot at umupo sa tabi ni Alliana.

“Ok Ma’am,” Oliver said and wink at her. these couples!

“We we’re talking about Sienna, sabi namin she should start her own family na” Aberry quickly nodded through what Chantel said and looked at me. “She’s right Sienna, napag-iiwanan ka na, bahala ka mahirap mag buntis at manganak pag mid 30’s na” the word napag iiwanan literally hits me.

“Yeah, back when were like dalaga pa, we thought that you’re the first one to get married but it seems like the world is very round and playful, ikaw pa ang hindi kinakasal sa ating lahat ngayon,” Chantel said, and every one of them agreed. Pinagtutulungan pa ako ng mga ito.

I just smile at them instead and didn’t answer, “Bakit kasi hindi mo pa sagutin ang gwapong Doctor Luan na yan, tignan mo oh kung tatabi kila Oliver mas gwapo pa kay Oli ko, ay shet joke,” Aberry said at lahat kami napatingin sa pwesto nila Luan habang kausap si Cad at Oliver pati na rin si Kace.

“Masaya ako sa pagtuturo at gusto ko pang magtagal sa profession ito at mag focus sa pagtuturo, kung makakapaghintay si Luan baka––,” Lana cut me.

“Sienna ang yummy ni Doc, nako pag naging asawa mo yan, feeling ko sleepless night ka dahil knows mo na ang mga Doctor walang tulugan yan bira lang ng bira yan, roar” agad nakatanggap ng hampas si Lana mula kay Alliana dahil sa sinabi niya at nagtawanan naman ang iba.

“Tumigil nga kayo, alam kong may priority pang kailangan gawin si Luan kaya hindi ko rin sure kung handa kami sa isa-isa, tyaka masaya naman akong nandyan lang siya palagi,” I said and stare at him, I’m lucky to have him at my side.

“Ayieee…Ashiena Minami Dreason, huwawwww bagay gurl,” Lana said and laugh with Aberry. Mga loko-loko talaga, umiling-iling na lang ako at hinayaan silang magtawanan.

“I’m just gonna grab some drink,” I said and stood up––

“Gun you’re here!” I was stiff when Chantel said that name and looked at the person behind me. “Fresh from America,” Lana said and looked at me, while Aberry pointed at my back using her lips.

I suddenly feel nervous, and I clearly know who’s this person behind me.

Dahan-dahan akong humarap sa aking likuran at nasilayan ang lalaking matagal ko ng hindi nakita…

He’s here, he’s finally back.

“G-Gun.”

Chapter 51

“G-Gun?” I uttered as I laid my eyes on him, and my heart started to beat so fast.

He is wearing a white dresser shirt with a folded sleeve up to his elbow and paired with black ankle pants and Adidas Stan Smith sneakers and a wristwatch. Also, his hairstyle is neat as his faded cut is shown.

So different to the simple man I know, he looks so formal and high level. Nanatili akong nakatayo sa tabi ng upuan habang nagsilmula silang lumapit sa kanya at binati siya. I watch how Cadmus and Kace talk to him and they all laugh together.

Pinanuod ko silang lahat isa-isang bumeso sa kanya, Chantel, Aberry and Lana greet him with a warm welcome while I stay here stiffed and don’t know what to react.

Nihindi ko nga maigalaw ang aking mga daliri dahil sa presensya niya.

He’s really here, after so many years we meet again…

“Halika dito tayo,” agad akong napalunok ng biglang ayain nila Aberry si Gun papunta sa table na kinatatayuan ko.

We smile at them and nodded, hindi ko alam pero parang siya lang ang nakikita ko sa buong paligid. Parang lumabo lahat at tanging siya lang ang malinaw sa aking paningin.

Bawat hakbang na kanyang ginagawa ay katumbas ng pagsikip ng aking dibdib.

Sumisikip ito sa paraang sobrang hirap lumunok at huminga ng maayos. Sobrang talaga ko siyang hindi na kita, sobrang tagal namin hindi nagkausap at sobrang tagal na simula ng bigyan namin ng space ang isat-isa na nagtuloy-tuloy na sa pagkalimot.

“Long time no see guys,” he said and smiled at all of us. Those smiles…It’s been so long since I witnessed that smile again.

I smiled at him as he stand in front of our table then my eyes stared at his face down to his hands where he holds a beautiful hand of a lady beside him, she’s––

“Meet my girlfriend Ady,” he said with the purest smile, he always shows when he’s really happy.

My lips parted as I realized that he had someone with him all along, she was holding his hands and arms with a genuine smile.

All the boys smile at her and greet her, while my friends look at me and mouthed the girl named Ady.

She’s the girlfriend I guess, “Hi nice to meet you, Cadmus Delavine,” Cad shake hands with her and she nodded at him, “Yeah, I know you, Delavine’s Scents right?” her voice sounds so powerful and beautiful like her.

“Adelaide Tamara is the name, Nice to meet you all,” propesyonal na sambit nito na nagpahanga sa katabi ko na ngumanga pa talaga. “Wow, ganda,” I glance at Lana as she whispers that and drops her jaw while staring at Ady.

I push her chin up to close that wide mouth open and she looked at me, “Ay.. sorry mas maganda ka dyan gurl lamang ka ng konting hilamos,” she said and wink at me.

Umiling na lang ako at tumingin muli kay Gun pero sakto din siyang lumingon sa akin at nagtama ang aming mga mata.

I gulp as I smile at him and about to speak, “Lon—–,” hindi ko natapos ang sasabihin ko ng lumapit sa akin si Luan at pinakita sa akin ang batang buhat-buhat niya. “She’s my princess, she’s beautiful right?” he said and looked at the kid he’s carrying.

Humarang sila sa harapan ko kaya hindi ko na makita si Gun, so I just look at the kid and smile at her. “You’re the princess po?” she asks while pouting so cute..

Because of her cuteness, I urged a smile and pinch her chubby cheeks, “No, you are the princess,” I said.

“I want to marry the prince so please don’t be the princess,” she said and about to cry.kumunot ang noo ko ng mapaisip kung sinong prince ang tinutukoy niya.

“Prince?” I ask? At agad niyang tinuro si Luan at niyakap ito sa leeg. I sigh and chuckle before I look at Luan, he wink at me and smile.

Hinawakan ko ang kamay ng bata upang harapin ako nito, when she face me I smile at her and, “Your the princess, don’t worry sayo na yang prince na yan,” I said and pointed at Luan na agad umakting na binaril sa puso.

Kaya lalo akong natawa, “Really? I can marry him na po?” the little girl asked with full energy. Tumango ako kaya mabilis siyang nagpababa kay Luan at tumakbo sa Mom niya at tinuro si Luan, her Mom laughs at her and mouthed sorry to us.

“You just break my heart into pieces,” uaakting nasambit ni Luan at lumapit sa akin. Umiling-iling nalang ako at umupo na ulit sa upuan ko.

Agad niyang hinila ang upuan sa tabi ko at nilapit ang mukha sa akin, “How could you give me to that kid? Paano na kapag pinakawalan ko siya wala ka ng chance maging asawa ako,” hirap na pagsasalita ng tagalog nito, kaya hindi ko mapigilang tawanan siya at itulak ang mukha niya palayo.

“Kahit pakasalan mo pa lahat ng batang nagkakagusto sayo,” I said and laugh at him. Tumawa na rin siya dahil sa sinabi ko at hinawakan ang aking kamay.

“Hey that’s too much, I’m not a pedophile,” he said and we both laughed together.

“Hi,” natigil ang pagtawa namin ni Luan ng may magsalita sa harap namin, It’s Ady.

Napalunok ako at napatingin kay Gun na tahimik lang nakatingin sa amin. “I’ve already meet everyone except from you two, Hi I’m Adelaide, Gunner’s girlfriend,” pagpapakilala niya at inabot ang kamay.

Luan smiles at her and says, “Hi, I’m glad to meet you, I’m Doctor. Luan Dreason,” he said at inabot ang kamay nito.

Then she look at me, kaya agad kong inabot ang kanyang kamay at nakipag kamayan sa kanya. “Hi, I’m Sienna,” parang may bara sa lalamunan ko habang binabangkit ko ang sarili kong pangalan.

My heart is beating too fast…

“Ohh, Ashienna Minami, Gunner’s ex-girlfriend right? Hi so nice to finally meet you,” I stiffed through what she said and Luan looked at me after what she said.

Parang tumigil ang pagpasok ng hangin sa aking katawan dahil sa sinabi niya, at hindi ko magawang kumurap dahil doon.

“Oh, so your Mr. Tyson,” napatingin ako kay Luan ng magsalita siya at ngumiti kay Gun.

Gunner clenched his jaw and said…

“Yes, the one and only,” he said and looked at me.

“Long time no see Ashienna,” that’s when I completely lose air.

Chapter 52

“Long time no see Ashienna,” that’s when I completely lose air…the moment he calls my name my world stops and remembers everything from the past.

Hindi ako agad nakapagsalita at nanatiling nakatitig sa mga matang iyon, that faded blue eyes.

“Sienna?” natigilan ako sa pagtitig sa kanya ng hawakan ni Luan ang aking bewang at kamay, bago bumulong sa aking tenga. Kaya agad akong nabalik sa katinuan at ngumiti kay Gun.

“Yeah, long time no see k-kamusta?” I was shuttering, hindi ako makahinga ng maayos dahil sa presensya nilang dalawa sa aking harapan.

Pakiramdam ko sobrang liit ng space para sa aming apat, “I’m doing good, how bout’ you?” kalmadong sagot nito sa akin habang nakangiti sa akin si Ady.

Hindi ko alam ang susunod kong sasabihin tila nauubusan na talaga ako ng salita sa aking isip kaya tinignan ko si Luan at hinawakan ng mahigpit ang kanyang kamay upang humingi ng tulong na agad niyang naintindihan. “She’s fine, and great as always,” he said and smiled at me.

Gun just nodded and looked at Ady, Ady smiled at him and removed something on his face. “Hey,” he whisper and smile “Don’t look if your feel uncomfortable,” malambing na bulong ni Luan sa akin, kaya sa kanya na lang ako tumingin at ngumiti.

“Let’s eat na guys!!!” sambit ni Aberry na umagaw ng atensyon ng lahat ng tao. “Wait for me here, I’ll just grab some drinks ok,” napalingon ako kila Gun at Ady ng magsalita si Gun at tumayo.

“Sure,” sagot ni Ady sa kanya at hinalikan ni Gun ang kanyang nuo bago ito umalis. I avoid looking when Ady looks at me.

“Hey, I’ll just go to the restroom,” paalam naman ni Luan sa akin kaya tumango ako at pinanood siyang umalis at tumuloy sa loob ng bahay nila Aberry.

Then after that umayos nalang ako ng upo at hinarap si Ady na busy sa kanyang Ipad, she looks so sophisticated and elegant with those Chanel Vintage wool trouser jacket blazer suit and a black matte ankle pants paired with white buckled leather sandals from Balenciaga. halos ata lahat ng suot nito ay galing sa mamahaling brand.

I was busy looking at her ng may biglang humila sa braso ko patayo at agad nila akong hinila sa mga bata, sa tabi ng pool. “Why are you guys pulling me here?” naguguluhan kong tanong ng dalhin ako dito nila Chantel, Lana, Aberry at Alliana.

Sabay sabay silang umupo sa tabi ng mga bata at hinila din ako ni Lana paupo kaya napaupo ako, “What’s this about?” tanong at agad hinila ni Aberry at Lana ang balikat ko upang bulungan.

“Hanapan natin ng butas yong jowa ng ex mo,” sambit ni Aberry na agad sinangayunan ni Chantel at Lana. “Mukhang perang naglalakad ang jowa ng ex mo ngayon gurl, mamahalin ayaw ko sa kanya,” sambit naman ni Lana at sinunda ng tingin si Ady ng tumayo ito at may kinausap sa cellphone.

“Mukhang maarte at mas mataas pa sa social class ang dating, ayaw ko sa kanya,” When Aberry said that I saw how Alliana and Chantel agreed with her so I find it harsh.

“Hoy grabe kayo wag nga kayong ganyan sa tao” I said and look at Ady, she’s smiling and she look so smart and everything that I’m not.

“I never knew that Gunner’s new girlfriend will look like her, I expected a lower level and simple like you but her? She’s out of my expectations, so we need to check if she’s nice or bitch,” Chantel said and stand up, agad namang tumayo si Aberry at Lana bago sumunod kay Chantel papunta kay Ady.

“Hoy,” I tried to stop them but they didn’t let me, mabilis lang silang naglakad papunta sa kanya at naiwan kami ni Ali dito.

“Tara,” Alliana stand up and hold my hand, sabay kaming naglakad papunta sa table namin kung saan umupo ulit si Ady.

“Hi Ady,” walang hiyang pagbati ni Lana dito at tumabi pa nga kay Adelaide. “Hi,” Ady said and smiled at us.

“We want to make kaibigan with you, so tell us about yourself,” Chantel said as she sat on Ady’s otherside. “Oh, yeah sure,” sambit ni Ady at tinignan ako ng may ngiti sa labi.

Her smile is so real at parang pang miss universe ang dating… “So I lived in Miami Florida, half pinay and half Australian, 28 years of age, Owns AdelaideCosmo Cosmetics the largest brand of organic makeups around the world. If your familiar with it,” nahihiyang sambit nito.

“Omg ikaw yon!!!! Duh fan kaya ako ng packaging ng makeup mo, dahil sobrang aesthetic and gustong gusto ko talaga yung limited edition Ady’trest palette grabe sobrang ganda ng pagkakagawa mo doon gurl, goods ka don!!!” biglang nagbago ang seryosong mukha ni Lana kanina at naging sobrang sigla at tila parang kumikinang pa ang mata nito habang nakatingin kay Ady.

“So, nakakintindi ka ng tagalog?” Alliana asked, and she quickly nodded. “Of course, by the way Lana right?” agad tumango si Lana sa kanya, “If you want I’ll send you Ady’trest palette tomorrow just send me your address,” I can’t find flaws on her, or any other bad attitude from her, even her eyes say she’s nice.

“Talaga ba!!! Sureness overload,” agad nilabas ni Lana ang cellphone at nakipagpalitan ng number kay Ady, Aberry naman ay tumabi sa akin at bumulong. “Ayan pala yung kaibigan mong balimbing,” Aberry said and glared at Lana, natawa na lang ako sa kanya at patuloy kaming nakipagusap kay Ady.

After that I realized that Gun just finds a girl version of him, they have similar like and don’ts, the same way of thinking, both smart in business, and she’s liked by people just like Gun.

The party ended and Luan had to leave earlier than we expected because he suddenly got a text from the hospital and I know it’s an emergency so I let him.

Sabi naman niya babawi siya bukas ng Lunch, “Guys we have to go,” tumigil ako sa pagliligpit ng lamesa ng magpaalam na si Gun habang hawak ang kamay ni Ady.

Ady smile at everyone, “Sige ingat kayo,” sagot ni Aberry at lumapit dito upang ihatid ito sa labas ng gate,Gun nodded to everyone and when he look at me he smile and nodded like what he did to everyone before he wrap his arms around Ady’s waist and they leave.

“Mahal mo pa?” nagulat ako ng biglang nagsalita sa tabi ko si Alliana habang nakatayo sa tabi niya si Chantel at Lana.

“Anong sinasabi niyo?” bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko sa kaba dahil sa tanong na iyon. “Sabi namin mahal mo pa rin si ex mo gurl,” Lana repeated.

“No!” sagot ko at umiwas ng tingin sa kanila, “Are you sure?” Chantel ask kaya napatingin ako sakanya, bakit ba nila ito naitatanong sobrang tagal na naming hiwalay ni Gun.

“I mean you don’t really have a proper closure with him, so we guess that there is still a feeling in your heart,” she said.

hindi , wala na, dahil nandyan na si Adelaide…

“No, ok na ako matagal na akong naka move on and the space we have is our proper closure,” I said and smiled at them.

They all just nodded, so we all help finish cleaning the place and hinatid ako ni Lana sa bahay dahil wala nga si Luan.

“Bye ingat sa pagdadrive magagalit si Kuya,” I tease her but she just rolled her eyes at me, she doesn’t really want to hear and see my brother’s name.

“Alis na ako gurl, kita na lang tayo pag nagkita byeeee!!!” she said and drove her way home.

Pumasok na ako sa bahay kasama si Charvy at dumiretso sa kwarto upang mahiga, dahil sobrang pagod ako ngayon araw. Hindi lang physically but also mentally and emotionally…

I’ve finally seen him after so many years… He look so happy in his life, and ganun din ako kaya….

“Hindi na natin kailangan ng closure,” I whisper.

Chapter 53

“Ok Class, eat your lunch and don’t forget to pray before eating ok,” sambit ko at agad nagsilabasan ang mga bata papunta sa mga magulang nila sa labas, the school new system is they stop allowing kids to eat lunch inside the classroom as the parents requested to meet their child during lunch time kaya naiwan na ako mag isa dito sa room.

I instantly grab my phone to check Luan’s text because he said we will eat lunch together but I don’t receive any message from him, kaya umupo muna ako sa teacher’s chair ko at inayos ang mga gamit sa desk ko.

Also waited for his text….

Pero malapit nang magtatime ng magtext si Luan and say…

From Doctor,

I’m so sorry, I can’t meet you at lunch because of an emergency here in the hospital. Bus accidents, too many patients… Sorry bawi ako…

I sigh reading his text and expected this, because Luan is always an on-time person whenever he didn’t show up in the set time. It means he is busy in the hospital and I understand that so much, that I admire him for being the most effective doctor I know.

I urge a smile before I reply to his text..

To Doctor,

I understand, no, need to say sorry. I’m already eating my lunch, don’t forget to eat yours ok… and text me when you’re free.

I know I lie when I texted him that I’am eating when I’m not, kasi alam kong makokonsensya siya ng sobra pag nalaman niyang hindi ako kumain ng dahil sa kanya.

From Doctor,

Good thing you’re eating already, I will eat lunch after this, wuv u muah…

Hindi ko maiwasang matawa at kiligin ng dahil sa huli niyang sinabi, kaya nakangiting binalik ko ang phone sa bag at hinintay na lang ang mga batang bumalik, mamaya na lang ako kakain pag uwi ko sa bahay.

“Charvyyyy, I’m homeeeeeee!!!!” malakas kong sigaw pagpasok ko sa loob ng bahay, at agad kong narinig ang ingay mula sa hagdan at nakitang nagmamadaling bumaba si Charvy mula doon.

Kahit nabibigatan na siya sa katawan niya masigla pa rin siya at patuloy nagiging malikot. “Hello Baby,” I sat on the floor after removing my shoes and playing with him, I rub his tummy that makes him lay on the floor and let me rub his chubby tummy.

“Who’s the good boy…” I ask and smile at him, feeling ko sobrang gaan ng buhay ko simula ng magtrabaho ako bilang teacher, I never get scolded, I always get compliments from the other teachers and I never get stress when I’m with the kids… it feels like, I’m only doing the stuff that makes me happy.

While playing with Charvy my phone rings, kaya tinigilan ko muna si Charvy at kinuha ito sa loob ng aking bag.

Tumatawag si Mama, at agad ko itong sinagot, “Mama?”

“Sienna anak kamusta kana, gusto ka lang naming kamustahin ni Papa mo, nandito siya sa tabi ko. Koko ni (Here)” Malambing na sambit ni Mama mula sa kabilang linya, tumayo ako at umupo sa sala, at sumunod naman si Charvy bago pinatong ang ulo sa aking hita at pumikit.

“Kon’nichiwa Papa (Hello Papa)” bati ko ng marinig kong inabot ni Mama ang cellphone kay Papa.

“Wahh.. watashi no musume (My daughter)” masiglang sambit ni Papa kaya napangiti ako at tumawa ng konti. “Yuiitsu muni (The one and only)” sambit ko at tumawa silang dalawa sa kabilang linya.

I miss them, I wish I could hug them right now. “Gakko wa do? (How’s school?)” tanong nito.

“Sore wa subarashidesu, watashi wa sore o tanoshinde imasu (It’s great, I’m enjoying it)” Masaya kong sambit. “Anata ga shiawasena yoikoto (Good thing you’re happy)” hearing Papa like this makes me feel like the luckiest daughter in the world, he’s making me feel that he’s good in everything I choose in life.

It makes me feel free, no expectations….

“Nani ka hitsuyou bai–– (if you need anything—)” hindi ko siya pinatapos magsalita at sumagot na agad dahil alam ko na sasabihin niya.

“Hai, watashi wa jibun jishin o atsukau koto ga dekimasu shinpaishinaidekudasai (Yes, I can handle myself, don’t worry)” Sambit ko.

“Oo anak, alam namin iyon pero pag kailangan mo ng kausap nandito lang kami ng Papa mo ah” Mama said, “Sono tori (That’s right)” pagsasangayon ni Papa kay Mama kaya natawa ako.

“Hai, hai, ryoukaishimashita (Yes, yes, noted)” Sagot ko, at nagkwentuhan pa kami ng konti, hanggang sa matapos ito ng gabi na, kaya nagluto na ako ng makakain ko at agad natulog dahil maaga ang pasok bukas.

And the kids have painting activities, so sigurado puno nanaman ng energy ang mga bata kaya kailangan kong makipagsabayan…

Kinabukasan ay gaya ng sinabi ko maaga akong gumising at tumuloy sa school, iniwan ko si Charvy sa kapit bahay dahil gustong-gustong niya doon, I think he likes to be with his friends, marami ding kasing dogs yung kapitbahay ko.

Pagdating ko sa school inayos ko na ang mga gagamitin ng mga bata para sa painting activity ngayong araw, and they have to finish three paintings each. Kaya sa tingin ko buong araw kaming magpapainting.

“Teacher Sienna! Good morning po!!!” napalingon ako sa pinto ng sunod sunod na silang nagsidatingan at tinulungan akong magayos ng painting utensils nila.

“Ok this, we’re settled so I’ll explain to you our theme for this valentine paintings, I want you to paint three set of paintings that base on your choice that connect with love ok, like this” Sambit ko at pinakitaan sila ng examples.

Masigla silang tumango at sumunod sa instructions, some of them ask for help and some of them really enjoy what they’re doing alone.

“Teacher can you open this,” lumapit sakin si Sammy para ipabukas ang water color niya, I smile and open it for her and nagikot-ikot pata tulungan silang lahat.

“Ok, class put all your paintings at the side and we will check it tomorrow ok, for now settle your things and you may go home,” agad nilang sinuot ang mga bag at isa-isang nagpaalam.

Hanggang sa makaalis na silang lahat dito sa classroom at ako nalang ulit ang naiwan. Inayos ko ang mag upuan na ginamit nila pati na rin ang mag bintana isa-isa ko itong sinara.

Nang nasahuling bintana na ako malapit sa pinto nagulat ako ng may tao sa harap nito. “Ay!! Luan!!!!” suway ko ng bigla bigla na lang siyang lumilitaw at nanggugulat pa nga. He smile and sumilip sa pinto na may hawak na bunny nastufftoy.

“Hi, I’am Lunna I would like to ask a beautiful lady like you to have dinner with the handsome doctor beside me,” Ginalaw niya ito para kunwari ito ang nagsasalita.

Tumawa ako dahil sa ginawa niya, he doesn’t have a future on puppets…“Yes of course but I need to change first,” sambit ko at pinakita ang aking itsura sa kanya, I am with my teacher uniform with some paints on it.

“No, it’s fine you’re beautiful,” Luan said and grabbed my wrist, got my bag and classroom key, he locked it using his one hand and quickly brought me through his car.

“Luan ganito ang itsura ko!!” hindi makapaniwala kong sambit sa kanya, tinignan niya ako at kunot noong nagtanong, “What you look so damn fine, what’s wrong?” inosenteng tanong nito.

“Fine ba ito puno ako ng paint!” I said, “Always looks fine to me,” he said and started the engine. Wala akong nagawa kundi umiling at tingnan kung saan kami kakain. And he just smiled at me the whole time.

This guy is the weirdest but sweetest doctor I’ve met…

“We’re here” he said and removed his seatbelt, and helped me with mine. “Dito talaga!!! Luan!!” hindi makapaniwala kong sambit na tinawanan niya.

“What? We usually eat here? What’s wrong?” he asked and held my hand. “I hate you,” I haze that makes him laugh even more and get out of the car. Open the door for me and gently reach for my hand, pull me inside this expensive restaurant.

“Table for two please,” he said and the waitress quickly led us to our table. “Here sir,” sambit ng waitress at tinuro ang table na pang dalawahan.

“Thank’s” Luan said and pull the chair for me, “I really hate you Luan, I look like a mess,” I said habeng paupo sa upuan, then he lean close to my face and whisper, “What a beautiful disaster you are” hegently said, I hit him and smile at him until––.

I stiffed when those faded blue eyes stared at me.

My heart suddenly felt like in a panic attack, as it kept beating seeing him again.

“Gun,” I whisper.

Chapter 54

“Gun,” I whispered as I saw him on the other table besides us, he with.

“Sienna!?! No way you’re here too, Doctor Luan we meet again,” Ady said when she notice us, halatang nagulat si Luan ng makita ito sa katabing table namin, at kahit naman ako nagulat..

Hindi nga ako makapagsalita dito at nanatiling nakatingin sa seryosong mukha ni Gun, but when I was about to talk to him he avoided my gaze and look at Ady instead.

I gulp and just look at Ady, “Hi,” nahihiya kong sambit ng tingnan niya ako at nginitian ng sobrang laki, “This is so nice, we’re just waiting for our order, do you want us to joining table nalang let’s seat together,” pag-aaya nito.

Luan looked at me like he was hesitating on that idea because he knew that I wasn’t comfortable with Gun.

But i need to face Gun, hindi pwedeng iwasan ko siya ngayon dapat ok na ang lahat sa amin dahil matagal na kaming wala.

Hinawakan ko ang kamay ni Luan at ngumiti sa kanya bago hinarap si Ady, “Sure, tara,” tumayo ako habang hawak ang kamay ni Luan at ganun din sila, Ady stand up and wrap her arms around Gun’s and we move into a for seaters table.

“I like it better when we’re eating with someone, dahil pag kaming dalawa lang for sure about sa business lang ang paguusapan namin ni Gunne,” nakangiting sambit nito, I smile at her and just look at somewhere.

“So, Doctor Luan, how’s your work?” She ask Luan, kaya hinayaan ko silang magusap at tumingin-tingin na lang sa paligid.

Sinubukan ko ding tignan si Gun, nakatingin lang siya kay Ady habang nagsasalita ito at tumatawa habang kausap si Luan. his eyes show so much admiration for the girl he laid eyes on.

My lips parted as I watched him watch his girl, he looked so amazed at everything Ady said and he looked so in love with her.

My heart suddenly feels a bit strange while looking at him, I feel suffocated inside. He smirks when Ady jokes and he laughs when Ady’s laughing.

He’s happy with her…

Agad akong nag iwas ng tingin sa kanya ng tumingin siya sa akin, dahil sa kaba ko ng mahuli niya akong nakatingin agad akong tumayo at nagpaalam. “I’ll just go to the restroom,” paalam ko, “Ok,” Luan and Ady said.

Mabilis akong naglakad papunta sa restroom at nagkulong sa isang cubicle, agad kong hinawakan ang sumisikip kong dibdib at pilit humihinga ng malalim.

Sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko na parang may nakabara dito at hirap akong makahinga ng maayos.

I don’t know what to feel, seeing him with her makes me feel sick… watching him look at another girl like that makes me feel regret.

“Sienna, everything is done. Ayusin mo ang sarili mo wala na ito,” I said and took a deep breath, hindi ako dapat ganito.

Lakas loob akong lumabas ng restroom at bumalik sa table namin na patuloy pa rin ang pag-uusap nila and this time nakikipagusap na rin si Gun kay Ady.

“Your back, our order is here already,” sambit ni Ady at ngumiti sa akin, umupo na ako at agad akong nilagyan ni Luan ng pagkain sa plato ko, ramdam kong nakatingin sa akin si Gun pero ginawa ko ang aking makakaya upang hindi siya tingnan at iwasan siya.

Nagpatuloy ang paguusap nila Ady at Luan about sa hospitals sa ibang bansa habang ako naman ay tahimik lang kumakain dito sa tabi. Naririnig kong sumasagot si Gun tuwing kinakausap siya ni Ady kaya mas pinipilit kong umiwas at manahimik na lang.

“I just need to use the restroom Love,” ring kong paalam ni Ady kay Gun, “Sure Love,” sagot ni Gun.

Tinignan ko si Ady ng tumayo siya at nginitian bago siya maglakad ng napaka elegante papuntang restroom, hindi ko maiwasang hangaan siya, she looks so powerful and respectful.

She’s wearing a black embossed monogram form-fitting dress from Louis Vuitton and an 1854 Sofia mule Louis Vuitton heels, so much power she serves by her looks and personality just like Gun.

They fit perfectly for each other.

“Do you like the food? Or do you like me?” Bulong ni Luan sa akin kaya napalingon ako sa kanya at tumawa. “Mga banat mo ah,” sambit ko at tinulak siya ng konti palayo.

He chuckled and, “I was just taking chance mamaya madulas ka eh hahaha,” he said and wink at me. “Baka nakakalimutan mo dinala mo ako dito ng ganito lang ang itsura ko,“sambit ko na lalo niyang ikinatuwa.

“What’s wrong?” he said and laughed, so I hit him and we both laughed together. Why do I always laugh at his lame lines?

“Here,” natigilan kami sa pagtawa ng magsalita si Gun at tumingin sa akin, dahan-dahan kon ibina ba ang aking kamay ng kausapin niya ako.

He’s looking straight at me, with those eyes…

Inabutan niya ako ng tissue, pero dahil gulat pa rin ako hindi ako agad nakaimik kaya umiling siya at medyo lumapit sa akin upang punasan ang aking mukha gamit ang tissue na hawak niya pero ng malapit na sa aking mukha ang kanyang kamay ay may pumigil na kamay dito.

Luan stops him, Gun looks at him and says, “She has paint on her face,” Gun said.

“I know and I like it. I like her even in her messiest look,” Luan says, making the atmosphere change.

“So you don’t need to do this,” Kinuha ni Luan ang tissue kay Gun at ngimiti dito, his smile but I know that’s not how he smiles.

“Ok,” Gun said and got back his hand and looked at the restroom waiting for Ady to come out.

Nanatili akong nakatulala sa kanya dahil doon, pero hinawakan ni Luan ang aking kamay at ngumiti kaya ngumiti din ako sa kanya.

“Ok I’m back, why are you guys so silent,” nakangiting sambit ni Ady pagbalik niya, I saw how Gun wrap his arms around her waist.

“No we’re just in a silent mood hahaha” pambabasak ni Luan sa mabigat na atmosphere.

Ady instantly laughs at him and they talk again…

I look at Gun and he looks at me also…

Something tells me to look at him but my mind tells me to stop it and avoid him…

Avoid those stares Sienna…

Chapter 55

I wake up with the morning sunshine against the house window, pagmulat ng aking mga mata ay ang malikot na si Charvy ang sumalubong sa akin. He’s licking my hand and keeps on moving like he has all the energy in the world.

I instantly smile at him and sit on the bed, stretch my arms and gaze at the window. Another beautiful morning to spend.

Bumababa ako mula sa kama at tumuloy sa banyo para gawin ang morning routine ko, nang humarap ako sa salamin may natira pang paint sa aking pisngi kaya natigilan ako at naalala ang mga tingin na iyon.

“She has paint on her face.”

“I know and I like it. I like her even in her messiest look.”

“So you don’t need to do this.”

“Ok.”

Muling bumilis ang tibok ng aking puso kaya agad akong naghilamos ng mukha at binura ng tuluyan ang paint sa aking mukha. I face the mirror once again and look at myself, silently comparing myself to Adelaide.

I’m completely out of the league, Sobrang layo ng pagkakapareho namin ni Ady. She’s smart at her words, at her business and how she talks with other people.

While I am an introverted person, I’m not good with my words, I’m really not for business and I don’t really like talking too much with other people.

Ady’s, Gun’s girl version. They are both great in anything that they desire to do. They can easily aim and achieve their goals in just one snap, and they are very career-driven people.

While I choose to be in this type of life who’s calm and simple, malayo sa industriya ng pagnenegosyo na sa bawat araw ay malaking pagsubok ang kailangan harapin.

Matagal na akong tapos sa ngayong klase ng buhay.

“Ano ba ang iniisip mo Sienna, Snap it out!!” I haze to myself and pinch my cheeks, “Hindi kana dapat nag iisip ng mga bagay na ganito dahil wala na kayo at masaya na siya sa iba.. Mabuti pang isipin mo na lang ang sarili mo! May trabaho ka pa!” I talk to my reflection and nag at myself.

“Tama, kalimutan mo na ito at magfocus sa buhay mo, your life is your own happiness,” I utter and take a shower, preparing for school wearing my lavender teacher uniform and a white pair for doll shoes.

I fix my hair in a not so tight ponytail and put on some light makeup, grab my bag and put the record folder of the kids, my phone, wallet and sandwich.

Gaya ng kahapon dinala ko muna si Charvy sa kapit bahay at pinabantayan ito. I went straight to the school and met the kids.

“Ok Class, each and everyone of you should stand here in front and explain why did you paint that, Ok,” they all nodded, I sat in front and waited for Railey to come here in front to explain her work.

She’s so small so I have carried her and made her seat in my life before I asked her, “Ok our little Reiley, tell us about your painting,” her paint is like a canvas, I don’t understand any of it but I believe there’s something beautiful behind it.

Kids tend to paint to enjoy and not to perfect their works.

“I p-paint my dog and my brother because I love them both,” she look so shy while telling that so I smile and nodded, “Wow that’s good Railey, you did great,” I said and kiss her cheeks before I put her down and waiter for Jc to come in front and Railey go back to her seat.

Jc seat on my lap and show me his painting, “I paint my Mommy and Daddy because they love each other, this is Mommy and this is Daddy”

“Because you see your parents love each other you should also love them both Jc, Ok,” I said and he cheerfully nodded. “Ok next,” I said and put him down and waited for the next one.

Until I already finish all of them, “Zoe, what’s your painting all about?” I ask when I understand her painting a bit, because it shows two people, a man and a woman. The woman is wearing a wedding gown while the man is in his black suit. A Lot of kids are around them.

“Is that your Mom and Dad?” I ask.

Umiling siya at tinuro ako, “This is your teacher, you and Doctor handsome and this is us hihi,” she said and smile so wide, ganun din ang reaction ng ibang mga bata kaya nagulat ako.

“I want you to get married with Doctor Handsome po because he loves you so much and you won’t get hurt with him because he cures patients po,” she said and all of them agree. “Hey, ang babata nyo pa yan na iniisip niyo,” Natatawa kong sambit at pinabalik na siya sa upuan niya.

“Ok, for the last one Lucy, come here baby,” she’s Lucy the most shy and silent girl in the class. Nahihiya siyang tumayo at nakayukong naglakad papalapit sa akin.

Napatingin ako sa painting niya ng makitang mas marami ang kulay ng black dito, agad ko siyang binuhat at pinaupo sa lap ko. “Let’s see what’s our little Lucy paint,” nakangiti kong sambit, she looks at me and shows how shy she was but I smile at her and whisper..

“You can do it, I’m here,” she slowly nodded and started talking.

“T-this is m-my M-mommy and D-daddy,” She said, tinignan ko ang painting niya at pinansin ang guhit sa pagitan ng Mommy niya at Daddy niya.

“What’s this Lucy?” I ask, then suddenly she gets teary eyes and says, “My parents are broken,” she said and started to cry.

Kaya agad ko siyang niyakap, I suddenly felt the pain she’s into right now. Because I experienced this to when I was near her age. Sadly she experienced it earlier than I did…

While hugging her the school bell rings, “Ok, CLass you may go home now, be careful ok. See you tomorrow,” I said as I stand up and carry Lucy.

“Bye teacher!!!” the kids say and go home.

Naiwan kaming dalawa ni Lucy dito sa room at pinapatahan ko pa rin siya. “It’s ok, everythings gonna be ok Lucy,” I said and rubbed her back as she cried on my shoulders.

Patuloy pa siyang umiyak ng mga ilang minuto bago siya tuluyang tumahan at nayakap na lang ako. “Are you ok na?” I ask.I felt her slowly nod and face me.

“Thank you teacher Sienna,” she said while sobbing, I smiled and wiped her tears using my scarf and pinch her chubby cheeks. “Smile kana pala ah,” I said.

I chuckled so she would smile and she smiled, “That’s it, Lucy is so pretty when she smiles so you better smile always ok,” I said and she nodded.

“Let’s go na, baka hinahanap kana…ihahatid na kita sa gate,” I said and get her bag,also mine and lock the room. Buhat-buhat ko siya habang nalalakad kami papuntang gate.

At agad siyang nagpababa ng malapit na kami sa gate at tumakbo, “Lucy be careful!” I said and watched her run towards this guy…

“Luc––.”

Named Gun.

His here.

“Tito Gunner!!!” Masiglang sambit ni Lucy, kaya natigilan ako. Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko ng ituro ako ni Lucy kay Gunner na naging rason ng pagtama ng aming mag tingin.

Gunner nodded at Lucy and they walk towards me, “Teacher this is my tito Gunner, my aunt Ady’s boyfriend hihi,” biglang naging masigla ang boses ni Lucy dahil kay Gun, habang si Gun naman ay nakatingin kay Lucy habang nagsasalita ito at saka humarap sa akin.

“So you’re a teacher now?” he ask, it took me seconds bago makapagsalita at sinagot ang kanyang tanong.

“Ah, yeah Kindergarten teacher just like––,”

“You dream of,” he continued what I’m gonna say making me stop and parted my lips.

“Hahaha you’re right,” I feel so awkward laughing in front of him…

“Are you going home?” he asked again.

“Y-yes hinatid ko lang si Lucy dito sa gate. Sige mauna na ak—–,” again he stopped me with his words.

“Let us drive you home, right Lucy,” he said and look at Lucy na agad ngumiti at nagustuhan ang ideyang ihahatid ako.

Agad akong umiling at ngumiti, “Nako hindi na, magtataxi nalan––,”

“But Lucy wants us to drive you home, right Lucy” he said, “Yes, Teacher let us take you home!” masiglang sigaw ni Lucy kaya napatingin ang ibang tao sa paligid.

Kaya wala akong nagawa kundi tumango at sumakay sa sasakyan ni Gun. he put Lucy at the back seat in the kids car seat at sumunod ako katabi ni Lucy sa likod.

Hinihintay kong isara ni Gun ang pinto ng sasakyan pero hindi niya ginawa at nanatiling nakatayo sa harap nito.

I confusedly looked at him and he lean down, kaya agad akong napalayo dahil malapit ang mukha niya. “I don’t want to look like a driver alone in front, so please can you sit beside me?” he gently said, my heart beating so fast but I try my best to hide it and act normal.

“Oh I’m sorry, yes,” I said and quickly pushed him a bit so I could step out of the car and move in front.

Mabilis akong sumakay at sinara ang pinto, sumakay na din siya at nagulat ako ng bigla siyang lumapit sa akin. So I gasp so loud and cover my face.

But I just realized that he just put seatbelts on…

“Hahaha,” he chuckled…

Dahan-dahan kong binaba ang aking kamay mula sa aking mata at tiningnan ang seatbelt na nilagay niya.

When I glance at him he’s grinning as he starts the engine and drives. “So do you still liv––” alam ko na agad ang itatanong niya kaya agad ko na siyang inunahan at hindi pinatapos.

“I moved to Japan for 4 years and am going back here again. So nakatira ako ulit sa dati naming bahay,” dire-diretso kong sambit.

“Ahh,” he said and nodded, “Kung nakalimutan mo ang address ng bahay nami—,”

“I didn’t forget,” he said when he cut me out and continued driving. “Tito Gunner, you know each other po?” napalingon ako kay Lucy ng magtanong ito.

“Yes she was my e—–,” hindi ko pinatapos si Gun at naunang magpaliwanag kay Lucy. “We’re friends back then Lucy, that’s why we know each other, right?” sambit ko at tinignan si Gun.

“No” nanlaki ang mata ko ng agad siyang sumagot, kaya kunot noo ng tumingin si Lucy sa akin. “She’s my first lo—–,” I napanic and realize namalapit na kami sa bahay kaya hindi ko muli siya pinatapos magsalita.

“Ahh! ayan na ang bahay ko baba na ako haha” masigla kong sambit kaya nagtatakang itinigil ni Gun ang sasakyan ng hindi kami sa mismong bahay nagstop.

“The last time I remember that is your house and this is your neighbor,” nagtatakang tanong nito sa akin. Nagmamadali kong tinanggal ang aking seat belt at hinarap siya.

“May kukunin kasi ako sa kapit bahay, Thank you sa paghatid sa akin, Bye Lucy,” Sambit ko at nagmamadaling bumababa. Tumakbo agad ako sa gate nila Rosy at kumatok.

“Rosy, kukunin ko na siya,” Sambit ko, agad namang lumabas si Charvy at Rosy, binuksan ni Rosy ang pinto at lumabas si Charvy at tumalon sa kain.

“Hey ther—–,” “Charvy?” natigilan ako ng magsalita si Gun, nang lingunin ko siya nakatayo siya sa likod ng nakabukas niyang pintuan at nakatingin kay Charvy.

When Charvy look at him agad itong kumawala sa hawak ko at tumakbo sa kanya, lumayo ng konti si Gun sa sasakyan niya para salubungin si Charvy at niyakap ito.

“You’re so Big!” manghang sambit. Charvy licks him so I walk towards them para pagbawalan si Charvy dahil baka madumihan niya ang damit nito.

“Charvy don’t lick,” I said, and Gun look at me kaya natigilan ako. “Good boy, you still know me huh?” he said and played with Charvy.

“Do you miss me?” He asks seriously but he’s looking at Charvy so I assume that he’s talking to him.

“He missed you haha,” Sambit ko ng makitang patuloy ang paglilikot ni Charvy, but when Gun look at me I stiffed.

She stared at me differently… and it makes me gulp and tremble….

“Tito Gunner, let’s go na po!!!” sigaw ni Lucy mula sa loob ng sasakyan kaya agad akong umiwas ng tingin at kinuha ang leash ni Charvy.

“Tara na Charvy,” I said and pulled him beside me. “Salamat ulit,” sambit ko ng dahan-dahang tumayo si Gun.

“Tito Gunner!!!” sigaw muli ni Lucy kaya hinarap ako ni Gun at sinabi, “We have to go,” he said and look at Chavy who’s playfully looking at him.

“Ingat,” I said and watched him ride his car again and drive away.

Charvy barks sadly so I seat and hold his face, “You miss him?” I ask.

Charvy barks… I know you do.

Chapter 56

After that day, nalaman ko na nasa ibang bansa pala ang mga magulang ni Lucy kaya kasamang umuwi ni Gun si Adelaide dahil ito ang magbabantay sa bata.

But Ady is so busy on building her branch here in Manila, kaya si Gun ang laging sumusundo kay Lucy.

“Let’s go,” Gun said when Lucy full me in front of his Car, “Ahm G-gun ok lang may pupuntahan pa kasi ako salamat na lang” I lie and try to avoid him.

Magdadalawang linggo niya na akong sinasabay sa paguwi nila, at hinahatid sa bahay.

“Where? We can drive you there,” sambit niya habang nakahawak sa susi ng kanyang sasakyan. Teka saan ako pupunta? Anong idadahilan ko?

“Ahm sa Hospital kay Luan, magkikita kami ngayon hahaha,” even though we’re not. Gun nodded and looked at me, “Ok,” he said, he went inside of his car and drove their way home.

Nakahinga ako ng maluwag nang mawala na sila sa paningin ko, agad akong pumara ng taxi at umuwi sa bahay.

Dahil hindi ko naman talaga pupuntahan si Luan dahil may busy siya ngayon, at kakatext niya lang kanina nung pinadiliveran niya ako ng lunch. He always does that when he’s busy.

“Manong sa tabi na lang po,” sambit ko at agad nagbayad sa driver at bumababa ng taxi.

Dumiretso ako kila Rosy para kunin si Charvy at tumuloy sa bahay, “I didn’t know that your house is a hospital?”

Halos tumalon ang puso ko ng may magsalita sa likuran ko habang binubuksan ko ang pinto, agad ko itong hinarap at nanlaki ang aking mga mata ng makita si Gun sa tapat ng bahay.

He crossed his arms above his chest and stared at me, “G-Gun?” hindi makapaniwala kong sambit.

“I know you would do this,” he said and smirk, “Ano cinancel ni Luan, d-dahil may emergency sa hospital” pagpapalusot ko at tumayo ng maayos. He nodded and looked at me, “I just wanted to give this to Charvy,” he said and showed a lot of paper bags.

Naglalaman ito ng mag food dogs, mga kagamitan na magagamit ni Charvy at ibang laruan. I urge a smile and quickly get it from him. “Thank you so much,” I said.

“Welcome, I’ll go now see you tomorrow,” he said and rubs Charvy’s head before he leaves. Pagkaalis ng sasakyan niya nanghihina akong napaupo sa three step stairssa tapat ng pinto ng bahay.

Nanginginig ang mga tuhod ko, hindi ko inaasahan na maaring mangyari iyon. Nahuli niya akong nag sinungaling buti na na lang ay nakapagisip agad ako ng palusot. “Charvy bakit ganito!!!!” I haze and hug Charvy.

Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko….

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“Welcome, I’ll go now see you tomorrow,”

I was in my peaceful sleep when that suddenly pop up in my mind, Magkikita ulit kami mamaya. Kahit wala pa si haring araw ay tumayo na ako mula sa kama at naghanda ng almusal sa baba.

I also took a shower then prepare for school, dahil friday ngayon hindi ko kailangan magsuot ng uniform. So I choose to wear a black cropped top from H&M and off-white ankle pants with black mules on.

Also, put some makeup on my face, and because I wake up early I have extra time to curl my short hair.

After dressing up, I also change my normal bag to a leather one. I don’t know? I suddenly feel that I should do this…

Ilang beses akong humarap sa salamin bago, paulit-ulit na inayos ang aking buhok.

When it’s about time to leave nilagay ko na ang leash ni Charvy at muling sumulyap sa salamin bago tuluyang pumunta sa pinto at binuksan ito.

Pagbukas ko ng pinto isang magarang busina ng sasakyan sa harapan ng bahay ang sumalubong sa akin.

And I badly know who this guy is…. “Luan!” I haze when he opens the window and smiles at me. “Care for a free ride showty,” maloko nitong sambit kaya umiiling-iling kong nilock ang pinto ng bahay at pinasok ang bag sasakyan niya bago dinala si Charvy sa kapit bahay.

Pagkatapos kong dalhin si Charvy sa kapit bahay, sumakay na ako sa sasakyan ni Luan at ang malapusong hugis ng labi niya ang sumalubong sa akin.

Sinara ko ang pinto at nakangiting hinarap siya, “Seems like the doctor is out of the Hospital, why is that?” I said make him chuckle and put his sunglasses on.

“Because the Doctor have a special patient for today, the most beautiful patient he ever had,” nakangiting sambit nito saka biglang naglabas ng isang box ng chocolates.

I smiled and felt butterflies in my stomach, as I appreciated his sweetness… “Thank you,” I genuinely said and smiled at him, he held my hand and added another box so my eyes widened.

“This is too much!!!” hindi makapaniwala kong sambit, pero tumawa siya, “I know it’s too much, so I give you this to hand it to the kids hahaha,” I also laughed ng marealize na isa lang pala ang akin.

He started the engine with laughter between us, and he started talking about the pregnant patient he saved in the operation yesterday. Hearing that makes me think that the person who will be his partner in life will be the luckiest…

We reach the school after a minute, “Thank you for the funny ride Doctor, and I’ll tell the kids about this,” I said and show him the box of chocolates for the kids.

“Thank you, Teacher,” he said and kissed my hand before he removed my seat belt and opened the door for me.

“Let’s have dinner after class ok, I’ll fetch you up at 5,” he said and wink, “Oo na umalis ka na,” natatawa kong sambit at sinara na ang pinto ng sasakyan niya.

“Wuv u,” he said and drove away. Umiling-iling akong pumasok sa school at sinalubong ng mga bata.

“Teacher!!!!”

“Good morning, Teacher.”

“Good morning class, I have good new Doctor Handsome gave me this,” itinaas ko ang isang box ng chocolates at tila nagningning ang mga mata ng mga bata kaya napangiti ako lalo, Luan really know how to make this kids happy.

“I will give each and every one of you, if you all have a high score for our quiz today, understand?” malambing kong sambit.

Lahat sila ay nag sitanguan ng mabilis na umupo sa kanilang mga upuan at nilabas ang mga lapis. I smile and put my things on my desk and start giving them their quiz for today.

They instantly answered their quizzes as soon as I handed them to them…after giving all the quizzes I just watched them the whole time.

They took lunch and I ate lunch together with Lucy, then we continued the quizzes.

“Ok, for a line before you go home so I can give you guys your chocolates” mabilis nilang sinuot ang mag bag at pumili sa harapan ko. “Ok Jc, say thank you to Doctor handsome when you see him ok,” he nodded and walk, “Lian, he’s yours”

“Lili this is for you,” lahat sila ay binigyan ko hanggang sa maiwan na lang kami ni Lucy sa loob. “Lucy here’s your chocolate,” I handed her the last one and smiled at her. Luan really knows the number of my students, saktong sakto oh.

“Excuse me, Lucy,” napalingon kami ni Lucy ng kumatok si Gun sa pinto at ngumiti. Lucy quickly ran to him and hugged him. “Tito Gunner!”

Gun looked at me, so I suddenly felt conscious. Mukha ba akong maayos??? My body is trembling from those stares.

“Can we give you a rid—,”

“Nope, you can’t, because she’s coming with me,” nagulat ako ng biglang lumitaw si Luan sa likod niya na may ngiti sa labi.

“We’re going on a date tonight, so I’m sorry she can’t and she won’t,” Luan said but he’s smiling and chill but the atmosphere really is different when he comes.

Lumapit siya sa akin at hinawakan ang aking kamay, he smiles and winks at me before he gets my bag and walk pass through Gun and Lucy.

“Bye Lucy,” he said and smiled at Lucy before we walked through the hallway…

Naglalakad na kami ng magsalita muli si Gun at tinawag ang pangalan ko… my heart suddenly felt adormal….

“Sienna,” napalingon ako agad dahil doon, “Y-yes?” I ask.

“Did Chantel already tell you about the reunion?” he asked, agad akong tumango. Dahil sinabi na ito sa akin nila Chantel at Lana noong nakaraang araw pa.

“Yes,” I said.

“Are you coming?” he asked, my heart gone crazy buti na lang Luan is holding me right now. Alam kong nararamdaman niyang nanginginig ang kamay ko kaya pinipisil-pisil niay ito ng dahn-dahan.

When I glance at him, he’s just smiling at me. The smile that sends so much comfort…

“Yes,” I answered.

Gun smile and, “See you there,” he waves and they walk on the opposite way. I watch his back and whisper…

“Y-yeah, s-see y-you.”

Chapter 57

“Y-yeah, s-see y-you,” I whisper.

“Ok, if you’re done can we go now? Haha,” Luan said and so I face him, narealize kong mali ang ginagawa ko kaya nahihiya ko siyang tinignan.

“Sorry,” I said and shook my head, Luan held my chin and made me face him, he smiled so charmingly and whispered, “I understand, now let’s go and eat, I’m super hungry,” he cheerfully said and laughed as he pulled me through his car.

With the gentlest he ever made me feel, dahil doon gumaan ang aking pakiramdam at unti-unting ngumiti dahil sa kanya.

Pinagbuksan niya ako ng pinto ng sasakyan, at nilagay din ang seatbelt bago sinara ang pinto at agad tumakbo pasakay ng driver seats. He’s smiling while glancing at me and starting the engine.

“Where do you want to eat?” he asks, Napatingin ako sa kanya at ngumiti. “The usual,” I said and he quickly chuckled before he nodded and, “At your service Ma’am,” he said and binilisan ang pagdadrive.

I smile at him as we both laugh at each other in unexplainable reasons. All I know is that his smile makes me laugh.

Mga ilang minuto lang ay tumigil kami ni Luan sa isang park at agad kaming bumama, naglakad papalapit sa linya ng mga street foods. When I first meet him, he really doesn’t like this stuff because it’s not clean daw but one time I call him out here and force him to eat and try this.

I remember that we ended up laughing all night that time because of his epic expression. Until nasanay na siya at kumakain kami dito pag alam niyang hindi maganda ang pakiramdam ko.

“Kuya give me five of these…” Luan glanced at me and asked, “What’s this again?” parang batanitong tanong. I smile at him, “Isaw.”

“Yeah, Kuya give me five Isaw and ten of these orange egg,” he said making me chuckled, tinutukoy niya ang kwek-kwek na naging paburito niya.

“Why are you laughing?” kunot noong tanong niya ng harapin niya ako habang hawak ang dalawang baso na may laman isaw at kwek-kwek.

“Wala naman,” I said and got the other cup from him, before we sat on the park bench. We just started itching and watching the sunset.

“Are you ok?” napalingon ako sa kanya ng bigla siyang magsalita ng seryoso. “Yes, why?” I ask. He smiles genuinely and looks at me, “I know you still have feelings for him, right?” I was caught off guard by his question, kaya nabitawan ko ang hawak kong pagkain buti na lang ay agad niya itong nasalo bago matapon sa aking pants.

“Opss that was close haha,” he said and put my food at the side before he looked at me and grabbed his scarf to wipe the side of my lips. Nanatili lang akong nakatulala sa kanya at hindi alam ang isasagot.

After wiping the side of my lips, he stared at me for a second and chuckled before he pinches both of my cheeks and say, “Hey, I was just asking, I’m fine with you don’t need to freeze hahaha so cute,” ginulo niya pa ang aking buhok pagkatapos.

He laughs and faces the sunset again, keeps on smiling like this fact won’t hurt him. Umupo ako ng maayos at tinignan din ang naglalaho ng haring araw.

“I don’t know,” sagot ko sa kanyang tanong kanina, he nodded and we stayed silent for a seconds before he speaks again.

“Tomorrow you’ll see him,” he said while staring at the sunset, I looked at him and waited for the next thing we will say, “Figure it out please,” he said.

What does he mean?

“I want you to know if you still love him, because I don’t want to see you like this,” he smiled and glanced at me. “I don’t want to see you confused over things, because I couldn’t see your beautiful genuine smiles when you’re confused, so please figure it out tomorrow” he sweetly said making my heart melt.

Dahil sa sinabi niya narealize kung tama siya, kailangan kong linawin ang lahat sa amin ni Gun. kailangan kong malaman kung mahal ko pa siya.

I urge a smile at him before I nodded and whisper, “I wil.l”

He smile and hold my hand, “But before that…eat this haha,” nilagay niya palad ko ang baso na puno na lang ng stick.

Nanlaki ang mata ko at tiningnan siya, “Inubos mo!!!?” hindi makapaniwala kong tanong, and he laugh, no, we both laugh.

Kinabukasan dahil sabado ay nanatili lang ako sa bahay at nagpahinga, I played with Charvy and text Luan after lunch, dahil doon lang siya may time.

Then, when the clocks hit 4 o’clock, I took a shower and prepared for the reunion party. Everyone will be there and especially him. So, I choose to wear a Celine lingerie dress in silk candy black paired with black and gray pump heels. I top my dress with a crop top leather jacket. I also curl my hair and put some makeup on.

While fixing my earring my phone suddenly rings and Chantel is calling kaya agad kong sinagot at niloud speaker.

“Chantel, are you going to pick me up? Saan ka na?” bungad ko bago pa siya magsalita.

“Yeah, that’s the problem. I’m here na sa Party. Kace and I came here together na. So, I just ask Lana to pick you up, she’ll be there in a minute ok. Byeeeee,” hindi na ako nakasagot sa kanya ng agad niyang patayin kaya bumaba na ako pinatay ang mga ilaw ng bahay.

Charvy is already on Rosy house kaya hindi ko na siya kailangan ihatid, Lumabas na ako ng bahay at sinara ang pinto, habang sinasara ito may bumusinang sasakyan sa tapat ng bahay at bumukas ang back seat window nito.

“Girl tara na!!!!!” malakas na sambit ni Lana at pinagbuksan ako ng pinto. I smile at her and put the key on my bag and walk towards her.

Sumakay na ako at sinara ang pinto, “You look beautiful Sienna,” natigilan ako ng humarap sa akin si…

“Ady,” I whispered and instantly looked at the view mirror and saw Gun as the driver of this car, and Ady’s seating beside him.

“Ay oo gurl, nakita ko kasi silang dumaan sa waiting shed habang naghihintay ako ng taxi. Naisip ko iisang lugar lang din pupuntahan natin kaya pinara ko sila at nakisabay tapos sinundo kana din namin sabi kasi ni Chantel… diba nakalibre tayo haha,” sa oras na ito gusto kong isumbong si Lana kay Alliana para sabunutan siya.

I urge a smile at Ady and say, “Thank you sa pagsabay sa amin, sorry,” I said. “No, it’s fine just like what Lana said, we’re all going in one place. Why don’t we go there together na, right Love?”

“Yes,” Gun answered and our eyes met in the view mirror in front, But I quickly avoided it and just looked out the window.

Guns started the engine and drove our way to the party…

“Sienna ok ba?” kinalabit ako ni Lana para ibulong iyon, kaya walang gana ko siyang hinarap at bumulong…

“Isusumbong kita kay Ali,”

“Bakit naman? Anong ginawa ko?” naguguluhan niyang tanong.

I sigh and look back at the window…

“I hate you, Lana.”

“I love you too,” she said.

Chapter 58

“Love,” nanahimik kaming dalawa ni Lana sa likod ng sasakyan ng magsalita si Gun at tinawag si Ady na busy sa kanyang cellphone.

“Yes?” Ady asks him but she’s still busy on her phone, “Your hand,” Gun asks and we watch Ady give her hand to him and Gun hold it while driving.

Agad akong siniko ni Lana ng makita ito, I look at her and she keep on pointing their hands using her lips, kaya agad kong tinakpan ang kanyang bibig at bumulong. “Stop,” tumigil siya at umupo na lang ng maayos.

I gulp and avoid looking in front and just gaze at the window. My chest suddenly felt heavy because of it.

Mga ilang saglit lang ay nakarating na kami sa Bar ni kuya kung saan gaganapin ang reunion party and pagkatigil ng sasakyan sa parking agad akong bumababa at hinila si Lana. “Sige mauna na kami sa loob may aayusin pa kami,” I said and quickly walk toward the entrance of the bar.

“Anong aayusin natin gurl? Yang puso mong sira?” she joked and so I glared at her and she automatically said peace and nauna na sa loob.

“Sienna!!!” sinalubong kami ni Aberry sa loob at hinila na sa second floor ng bar. “Ang ganda mo,” Aberry said when she looked at me from head to toe while holding both of my arms.

“Thank you, mas maganda ka,” I said and smiled at her, Aberry is wearing a black halter top paired with a silver sequin skirt inches above the knee.

“Sienna!!!!!!” agad lumapit sa akin si Chantel at Ali ng makita nila ako. “You look so pretty Sienna,” Chantel said at pinagigilan ako ng yakap.

“Si Lana?” Ali ask, kaya lumingon ako sa tabi ko pero wala na si Lana doon. “Where is she?” I utter.

“Ayon oh,” napatingin kami kay Aberry ng ituro niya si Lana nasa counter na ng bar kumukuha ng drinks. “Hindi pa man nagsisimula,” Alliana hazed.

“Hayaan mo na siya tara sa tabel na’tin,” umupo kami sa table na malapit sa railings para makita namin ang nasa baba. I watch Gun and Ady walk up here while Ady’s hands are around Gun’s.

“Bro,” Bati ni Gun kila Cadmus at Oli, they talk with Ady and all the girls are just watching Ady until she and Gun finally sit at one table.

“Do you think Gun loves her?” Chantel asked.

“Sa tingin ko hindi, baka yang babae lang na yan ang nagpupumilit ka Gu—,” hindi natapos ni Aberry ang pangjujudge niya ang kurutin siya ni Alliana at sinabi. “Tumigil ka nga, alam naman nating mabait siya,” She’s right.

Ady is perfectly fine…

“Inom na pala tayo!!!” Sambit ni Aberry pero agad lumitaw si Oli sa tabi niya. “Limit yourself missy,” he said and kiss Aberry’s fore head in front of us.

Umiling nalang ako at uminom na rin, hindi ako iinom ng sobra ngayong gabi dahil ayaw kong magkaroon ng hangover bukas.

“Let’s dance!!!” Chantel said and pull Aberry down the crowd and nilapitan si Lana. sumayaw silang tatlo doon baba habang nagpaalam namang magbabanyo si Ali.

“Samahan na kita gusto mo?” I ask her, she’s pregnant mamaya ano pang mangyari sa kanya sa loob.

“No, I’ll just call Cad, sige na dyan ka lang bantayan mo yung tatlo,” tinulungan ko siyang tumayo at agad namang lumapit si Cad sa kanya at inalalayan siya papuntang restroom.

Parang kailan lang nung kinasal sila and now they’re having their second child. I took a sip on my drink and whispered. “Sienna, Sienna, Sienna always the bridesmaid never the bride,” I laugh bitterly and just watch those three girls dance down stared.

Napatingin ako sa hagdan malapit sa dj ng makitang lumapit doon si Ady habang hila-hila si Gun at may binulong siya sa Dj kaya nag iba ang kanta sa sweet song.

I was Chantel pull Kace in the middle at lumapit naman si Oli kay Aberry para isayaw ito habang si Kuya naman ay binuhat palabas ng bar si Lana. then Gun and Ady dance sweetly in the middle.

I watch how gently Gun wraps his hands on Ady’s waist and Ady wraps her arms on his neck. Pinadikit nila ang kanilang noo habang nakangiting naguusap.

Suddenly tears fall on my hands as I watch them from afar. My chest suddenly felt so heavy to the point I wanted to break down. I avoided watching them and drank the whole bottle of liquor here at our table.

I watch him smile at her, I watch him be happy with her… hindi ako nakontento sa isang bote kay aininom ko din ang isa. I drank it all as my tears kept falling.

Sobrang sikip ng dibdib ko, hindi ako makahinga ng maayos. I started sobbing loud because it’s really hard for me to breathe.

When I look back at them, SUddenly Luan words recall in my mind.

“Figure it out.”

“Do you still love him?”

I stood up and took a last glance at them kissing in the middle of the crowd and whispering. “Yes, I still love him and it kills me,” I turn my back and went to the cigarette area here in the second floor kung saan walang tao dahil halos lahat ng tao ay nasa baba.

I weakly sit on the floor as soon as I close the door. I burst out in pain and covered my face. I started hitting my chest to avoid the killing pain in my chest. I keep on hitting pero hindi nawawala ang sakit.

Sobrang sakit….!!!!

Bumalik lahat ng hirap at sakit na pinagdaanan ko nung mga panahong mas pinili kong iwan siya. “I r-regret it,” I whisper weakly. “I admit it, I regret letting us fall apart, I regret it,” I shook my head and hid it on my knees and arms.

“G-gun I regret it,” I whisper. I keep on whispering alone here. “It’s your choice!!! It’s your fault!!!” I said and pulled my hair and kept hitting and hurting myself but my body seems to feel numb right now because I don’t feel any pain in my body.

All the pain is in me hear right now, I stand up and wipe my tears lumabas ako ng pinto at humihikbing nanatili sa gilid.

I waited…

I waited until I saw Gun walking toward the cigarette area. Because I know he will smoke. I just know it.

Pagpasok niya sa loob ay agad ko siyang hinila at hinalikan…

Until he pushed me and, “Sienna! Anong ginawa mo?!” galit niyang sambit at pinunasan ang kanyang labi which break me even more.

I shook my head in front of him and cried again, “What happened to us?” I ask.

I took a step closer to him and started hitting his chest, while I kept on looking at the ground. “What happened!!!??!”

“What happened Gun!! Anong nangauari sa atin!!!” I said, hitting him harder. “Bakit tayo nagkaganito!!!” 

“Sienna stop it,” Gun tried to catch my hands and stop me but I became more aggressive and still tried hitting him. “Hindi!!! Sabihin mo anung nangyari sa atin!!” I shouted.

“Sienna” he still tries to stop me. “Bakit?! sabihin mo bakit tayo nagkaganito Gun! Bakit mo ako iniwan?!” I shouted all out, and this is the time when he really stopped me and grabbed both of my wrists.

“Ako ba ang nangiwan!!!” he shouted to my face, I stiffed and stared at those eyes who shouted pain.

“Tell me Sienna, ako ba ang nang iwan!!!” madiin niyang sambit…his grip tightens on my wrist making me flinch in pain. “Ako ba ang nang iwan!! Hindi bat ikaw! Hindi ba’t ikaw ang may gusto nato!!! Ikaw ang humingi ng spcae! Ikaw Sienna!!” I gaps and weakly sit on the floor.

“Ikaw ang nangiwan Sienna, Ikaw ang sumuko hindi ako kaya wag mo akong tanungin ng ganyan, tanungin mo ang sarili mo! At hindi ba matagal na iyon!!!” he said, making me cry even more.

“Sirang sira ako non Gun,” I whispered and all the pain from the past came back. The suffering I went through came back.

“Ubos na ubos na ako non eh, walang wala na ako noong panahon na iyon. Hirap na hirap ako, kasi ano…wala ito lang ako noong panahon na iyon eh. Wala akong magawang tama sa mga oras na iyon… kailangan kong harapin ang araw araw ng wala ka, kailangan kong tanggapin lahat ng paso, pagod, pangmamaliit ng lahat sa akin… Araw-araw yon Gun.. hindi ako nag reklamo kasi wala eh, ganito lang ako,” I rose my head up to look at him filled with tears.

Seeing his eyes break me down, “Pagod na pagod ako Gun, pagod na pagod ako,”

“Masasakit na salita ang sumasalubong sa akin araw-araw, paulit-ulit na trabaho, Gutom na ako pero kailangan ko pa ring mag trabaho, kasi kailangan ko pa ring patunayan ang sarili ko sa lahat ng tao. Bumigay lang ako ng isang beses, nagkamali lang ako ng hiniling sayo ng isang beses Gun… isa lang,” I shook my head and break down.

“Isa lang,” sobrang sakit na ng puso ko.

“Bakit ikaw lang ba ang nahihirapan nung oras na iyon Sienna?” mahinang sambit ni Gun.

“Fuck! Ayaw ko ng space na iyon Sienna, ayaw ko pero dahil hiniling mo binigay ko kasi nasasaktan din ako nung oras na iyon!!!! Pagod din ako.”

“Pagod din ako,” madiin niyang sambit bago umalis at iniwan akong mag-isa.

As she leaves my heart crashes into pieces…

I hurt and hit myself, “Kasalanan mo lahat!!! Ikaw ang may kasalanan Sienna!!!” I slap my face so hard and keep hitting myself.

“Sien—–Sienna!!!! Hey stop!!!!” Chantel opens the door and quickly stop me from hurting myself but it’s too late, ilang taon ko na palang sinasaktan ang aking sarili.

“Hey stop, Sienna…oh my god. Noooo Sienna stop it,” Chantel tries to stop me but I continue.

“It’s all my fault!!!” I shouted silently in pain.

“Nooo, it’s n-not your fault… Sienna stop please” She started crying too until I weakly stop and just rest in her arms.

“It’s my fault Chantel,” I whisper…

“Don’t say that,” she cried with me.

Until the door opened and Lana, Aberry, and Ali came. They just looked at me and the seat hugged me.

“Iiyak mo lang Sienna,” Ali whisper.

“Andito lang kami,” Aberry.

“Hindi ka namin iiwan,” Lana.

That’s when I cry harder…

“Ahhhhhh,” I shouted in drowning pain…

Chapter 59

“Bakit ikaw lang ba ang nahihirapan nung oras na iyon Sienna?”

“Fuck! Ayaw ko ng space na iyon Sienna, ayaw ko pero dahil hiniling mo binigay ko kasi nasasaktan din ako nung oras na iyon!!!! Pagod din ako.”

“Pagod din ako.”

I can hear Gun’s voice; I slowly opened my eyes and saw Chantel sleeping beside me. Dahan-dahan akong umupo at agad napahawak sa aking ulo sa sobrang sakit nito. My eyes also feel so numb and sore.

Did I cry?

When I look around, they are all here, Chantel is sleeping beside me, Lana is sleeping while holding my hand and Aberry is sleeping on the other bed.

Ali is seated on the couch in front of the bed while drinking coffee and reading a book. “A-ali?” bakit nandito silang lahat?

She looks at me and binitawan ang kape sa side table bago ako nilapitan at tinapik si Lana. Lana slowly wakes up and even Chantel. “Kamusta na ang pakiramdam mo, masakit ba ang ulo mo, gusto mo ba ng tubig?” Ali asked.

“Sienna,” Lana called my name and caressed my hand.

“Oh my you’re awake!!” Agad umupo si Chantel at niyakap ako ng sobrang higpit. Aberry also wakes up and sits at the edge of the bed while looking at me.

Lahat sila ay tinitingnan ako ng puno ng emosyon sa kanilang mga mata, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry I didn’t know your struggles, I’m sorry that I weren’t there when you need me” Chantel suddenly cry on my shoulders and hugged me tighter.

“You were always at my side, you always see my problems and I was too blind to see yours because you always hide them with your calm words and smile. I hate you,” Chantel keeps on crying on my shoulders as Lana keeps on looking at me and holding my hand so tight.

Realizing how Chantel burst out as this and everyone looked at me, I know I did something last night. I just can’t clearly remember everything.

Wait…

“What happened Gun!!! Anong nangayari sa atin?!” 

“Bakit tayo nagkaganito!!!”

“Sienna stop it.”

“Hindi!!! Sabihin mo Gun, anong anong nangyari sa atin!!!” 

“Sienna.”

“Bakit?! Sabihin mo bakit tayo nagkaganito Gun!!!” 

Nanlaki ang aking mata at agad kong tinignan si Ali, “Did I do it?” hindi makapaniwala kong tanong.

She nodded slowly, that’s when I gasped and realized how immature I was last night!!!

“You pass out after crying so hard last night Sienna,” seryosong sambit ni Aberry. “Dinala ka namin dito sa malapit na hotel dahil ayaw ka naming iwan” Alliana said.

“B-but the kids?” iniwan niya ang mag anak nila? Dahil sa akin.

“Their fine, kasama naman nila sila Oli,” Aberry said.

I shook my head and say, “Sorry for the trouble I cause, hindi niyo na dapat ako sinamaha––,”

“No way, after seeing your breakdown last night. We’re not going to leave you na!!!” Umiiyak na sambit ni Chantel habang nakatingin sa akin.

“Tama hindi ka namin iiwan,” Lana.

I smile at her, and I appreciate all of them…but what happened last night…

Tinignan ko si Ali, “What did G-Gun s-said?” I ask.

“Wala umalis na sila pagkatapos kasama si Ady, kaya kami sumunod kay Chantel dahil nakita naming hinila na ni Gun paalis si Ady.” Lana said.

He’s mad at me… I smile bitterly, sino ba naman kasing hindi magagalit sa taong nang iwan at suko pero nanunumbat pa rin… so lame Sienna, nothing changes…

I have to let go…

“Chantel,” I whisper. “Yes?”

“Can I borrow your phone; you have his number right?” I said and looked at her, “Yes, Sure,” she said and quickly handed me her phone. “Anong gagawin mo Sienna?“tanong ni Lana.

“I want to talk to him and say sorry about last night and to have….” I stop when I see his name on the contact list.

“To have what?” Aberry.

I dialed his number and say, “To have the closure we never had.”

And he answered.

“Chantel why did you cal––,” I cut him out and say, “Gun can we meet, it’s me Sienna,” I firmly said.

Narinig kong natigilan siya mula sa kabilang linya bago huminga ng malalim at sumagot, “Sure,” he said, I nodded and turn of the call, texted him the place and give the phone back to Chantel.

“Are you sure about this?” Aberry asks and they all look serious on me.

I need to be sure because I don’t have any choice…

I urge a smile, “Yes, I’m sure about this, I will end it here,” nakangiti kong sambit at agad nila akong niyakap apat.

“Nandito lang kami para sayo” Ali said.

“I know, thank you” I genuinely whisper and feel their support through this hug.

After that, I stayed with the girls till lunchtime and we had our separate ways after that, I went home and got Charvy from Rosy. I stayed with him in my room, we played and ate together.

Nang Malapit nang mag alas sais, tumuloy na ako sa banyo at naligo. I tried to have peace of mind while having a shower then prepared, I wore a white simple doll dress and paired it with white flip-flops.

Hindi na ako naglagay ng kahit anong make up sa aking mukha, I just grab my reading glasses and let my hair like this. Nilagay ko ang leash ni Charvy bago kami lumabas at ni lock ang bahay.

Sumakay ako ng taxi at nakarecive ng text mula sa kanya.

From Unknown Number,

I’m on my way.

I took a deep breath as I put my phone down and glanced at the window. I watch the road where I always used to see every morning with him.

Hanggang sa tumigil na ang taxi, I paid and carried Charvy down and put him down beside me as I rose my head to see this big building in front of me. The place where I used to be happy.

Muli akong nagpakawala ng malalim na paghinga bago tinignan si Charvy at ngumiti. “Let’s go Charvy,” I gently said as I walked inside the Delavine’s Condominium where we used to live.

Sumakay kami ng elevator at nanatiling tahimik lang at sumusunod si Charvy sa akin hanggang sa bumukas ito sa floor ng unit namin. Bago ako humakbang palabas ng elevator pinilit ko munang maging ok. Dahil sobrang bigat na ng pakiramdam ko habang papalapit ako ng papalapit sa dulo.

I urged a smile and stepped out of the elevator and saw him standing beside the door of our unit.

Parang tumigil ang pagpasok ng hangin sa aking katawan habang tinatahak ko ang daan papunta at palapit sa kanya.

I was suffocated inside but I choose to smile and show him the key of the unit, binuksan ko ang pinto at na unang pumasok. It took him seconds of staring around the place before he stepped in.

Lahat ng gamit ay nakatakip na ng mga puting tela pero malinis ang paligid. Ilang taon na ring walang nakatira dito.

I walk near the glass window before I face him and smile. We walk towards me and stand in front of me. Again, I smile at him and start talking, this is it, Sienna. “I’m sorry about what I did last night, I was so drunk and I couldn’t help my emotions. I’m so sorry,” I said and chuckled to hide my emotion.

He nodded and smiled, “It’s ok, I understand. I’m also a bit tipsy last night, kaya pinatulan kita and I knew I was wrong. I’m sorry,” he said and rubbed his nape.

I smile at him but my eyes are blurry because I started to have teary eyes. I can’t control it anymore.

He stared at me and slowly reached for my face and wiped my tears using his thumb. I instantly close my eyes and feel his warm hands on my skin. “I’m sorry,” I whisper.

I look at him while he holds my face, “I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry for not being there, I’m sorry I didn’t defend you, I’m sorry I leave you, I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you needed me,” he whispered, I burst out of crying in his hand.

“No, hindi mo kailangan mag sorry… I finally understand everything between us. Gun, we were trapped in our dreams and beliefs at that time. We are both pressured and we are both tired of the expectations…we love each other but we have different lives, we have problems to face and I guess our love wasn’t that strong to let us stay. We both choose to leave instead of holding on… we fall apart because we have nothing to use to let us stay… dahil pareho tayong pagod at ubos, Gun….” I said and shook my head as I let my tears fall to my feet.

“Mas pinili nating bitawan ang isat-isa sa puntong ang kailangan lang pala natin ang isat-isa,” I utter and break into pieces.

“Kung sana hindi ako sumuko nong oras na iyon, kung sana sinuportahan pa rin kita at nanatili ako sa tabi mo. Kung sana mas pinili kong mahalin ka nalang at kalimutan ang lahat ng problema at mga sinasabi nila….kung sana ikaw na lang ang naging lakas ko…ako parin sana ang kasama mo ngayon.” I face him, filled with painful eyes.

“We have our own lives now Sienna,” he said and still wiped my tears. I smile and, “I know,” sobrang sakit na ng puso ko, hindi ko na magawang huminga ng maayos.

“Can we go back?” I ask.

“I still love you but I already have Ady right now, I love her Sienna” he said making me stiff and tears fall faster than before.

I smile and hold his hand, slowly put it down and hold it using both of my hands. “I understand, and I will let go, this will be our closure.” I weakly whisper and keep on smiling at him even though my face is flooding with tears.

“Thank you and I’m sorry,” he said and smiled. “Here,” I open his palm and give the key to the condo and the necklace he gave me.

“So, this will be the end of our story” natatawa kong sambit at sinara ang kanyang palad, habang nasa loob nito ang susi at kwintas.

“Thank you for everything Ashienna Minami,” he said and genuinely smiled at me, I chuckled and smiled, “Thank you for everything Gunner Tyson,” I said and slowly let go of his hand and watched him walk towards the door.

When he holds the doorknob, I call him, “Gun,” he stops and looks at me.

I smile and, “Can I make an impossible joke?” I said, he chuckled and nodded.

I smile, “Kung lumipas ang limang taon, kung sakaling mag-isa parin tayong dalawa, pwedi bang tayo na lang ulit?” nauubusan na ako ng hininga sa sobrang bigat ang aking dibdib, sobrang kirot.

He laughed and I laughed too, “Impossible joke won’t happen haha,” he said and opened the door, took the last wave, and closed the door.

“Goodbye Gunner” I whisper before I fall on the floor and cry. The door opened and all my friends showed up with a proud smile and walked towards me and gave me the most perfect comfort I felt in my life.

“We’re proud of you Sienna,” they whisper.

This is the end of me and him, and the new start of…..

Me and myself…

Chapter 60

GUNNER

“Thank you for everything Gunner Tyson,” she said and slowly let go of my hand, so I decided to turn my back on her and start walking towards the door.

When I hold the doorknob, she weakly calls my name, “Gun,” I stop and look at her.

She urged the most beautiful smile and, “Can I make an impossible joke?” she asked while sobbing, making her nose go red even more. I chuckled and nodded.

She smile, “Kung lumipas ang limang taon, kung sakaling mag-isa parin tayong dalawa, pwede bang tayo na lang ulit?” hirap niyang sambit habang pilit tinatago ang sakit sa kanyang ngiti.

I laughed to hide the pain from watching her cry and she laughed the hardest way. My heart feels so heavy so I try my best to control it and answer her, “Impossible joke won’t happen haha,” I said before I opened the door, took the last wave, and left.

I quickly went down to the parking lot and went inside my car, I hit the steering wheels so many times and tears started to fall from my eyes.

“Fuck!” I cursed so hard and shook my head to the steering wheels.

Seeing her like that, watching her beg, watching her let go still fucking pains me!

“Fuck!!!” I whisper and remember everything…

Calling Beb…

I have been calling her since yesterday but she’s not answering. I’m scared that something might happen to her. Maybe she’s having a hard time… I wanna talk to her.

“Are you ready Son, the meeting is about to start,” napatingin ako sa aking likuran ng magsalita si Dad at tinapik ang aking balikat at inayos ang aking suot na necktie.

“Yes, Dad,” I firmly said before I checked my phone once again, checking if she answered my calls but still no…

I’m starting to lose focus because of her, I know her when she has problems she will not talk to me because she doesn’t want to distract me But fuck when it’s about her I wanted to be distracted!!!

“Answer now Beb please” I whisper and keep trying…

“Son, let’s go,” Dad said, I took a last glance on my phone and sighed before I entered the meeting.

As the meeting started she called, I was about to answer it when Dad held my hand. “Not now Son,” whisper.

I nodded and didn’t answer the phone even if I’m dying wanting to hear her voice. So I just texted her.

To Beb,

I’m in an important meeting right now Beb, call you later ok.

As I send it my phone shut down, “Fuck!” I curse so everyone looks at me, “I’m sorry” sambit ko at agad tinabi ang aking cellphone sa aking bulsa, and choose to focus on the meeting.

The meeting ended so late, and when we went home Dad told me to come to his office here in the house and he handed me a dozen of folders. “Review all of this for the proposal tomorrow, don’t miss a spot ok,” Dad said, I nodded and walked toward the door.

“Give me your phone, avoiding disturbance will help us to close the deal for tomorrow so give it to me, I will give it back tomorrow,” he said, wala akong nagawa kundi iabot ito at bagsak balikat na naglakad papunta sa aking kwarto.

I sat on the bed and glanced at the night sky. “Beb Are you ok out there? I miss you, please be strong,” I whisper and silently pray.

I started reading the files but I keep losing my focus because I badly want to talk to her. Every time I try to focus and understand what’s inside the papers I always end up thinking of her face, her smile… damn I miss my girl so much.

I lay on the bed and closed my eyes, imagining she’s here beside me until I didn’t realize I fell asleep and woke up in the morning sunrise.

“Fuck!!” malakas akong napamura ng marealize kong hindi ko nabasa ang lahat ng files na pinapabasa sa akin ni Dad. ngayon ang proposal and deal, hindi ako dapat pumalpak.

I instantly stood up and took a shower. After taking a shower I ran to my walk-in closet to prepare but Dad started to knock. “Son we gotta go, we can never be late,” he said, so I quickly put my tie on and grabbed all the files together with me, and open the door.

“Let’s go, this is your big day Son,” he said and tapped my back. As he walked through his car and started the engine.

When we reach the company, I still try to read some of the files. But it’s so loud here in the company and Dad keeps talking to me. I can’t focus.

“Let’s go, son, they’re waiting inside,” Dad said as we stand in front of the conference door. I took a deep breath and ready myself.

I can do this…

“Oh, I forgot here’s your phone, I already changed it,” he said and handed me back my phone before he opened the door and saw the big investors.

I opened my phone and the moment I saw Sienna’s text message. Everything stopped, Dad stepped inside of the conference room but I took a step backward. “Son?” he asks, I look at him and say, “I’m sorry Dad, she needs me,” I whisper and run so fast out of the company and drive my way to the airport.

To Gun,

I need you right now.

All I know right now is I need to go back to the Philippines, she needs me… my Sienna needs me!!!!

I got stuck in traffic, So I immediately abandoned my car and ran to the airport. I ran as fast as I could, I ran and ran until…

“Oh my god!!!!!” my sight suddenly turned round and round as I felt my body hit the floor. But I still choose to stand up and walk to the airport. “Oh god no your bleeding!!!!” An old lady stopped me by holding my hand.

“I n-need to go to the a-airport,” I whispered and felt my arms so painfully. “You need to go to the hospital, you got hit Son,” the old lady nervously said, pero umiling ako at ngumiti, I can endure the pain but I can’t endure the time that I wasn’t there for Sienna when she needs me.

“No, you can’t Son, your bleeding oh god! Let’s go” she said, ‘’ But I let go and ran towards the airport, I heard her shout but I didn’t bother to look and run inside the airport lobby.

“I need a plane ticket to Manila, Philippines right now. ASAP!!!” malakas kong sambit. The girl looked at me from head to toe and said, “No sir, you can’t ride a plane in that state, let me call you a hospital” she said.

“No! I need plane ticket now!!! Please!!!” I beg. “No, Sir your bleeding!!!! Hello 911, their a patie––,” hindi ko na siya hinintay matapos at naglakad papunta sa gateway but they stop me.

“No, I need to fly back to Manila!!! Please, let me go! Please I’m begging you, she needs me! Let me go! Let me go back to her!!!” I break down and cry, thinking how hard Sienna is in right now.

“No, Sir we need to take you to the hospital…” the guard said and tried to bring me to the ambulance. Pilit akong nagpupumiglas.. “Please, I’m fucking begging you, I need to go back to Manila!! My girlfriend needs me!! She needs me!!!”  but they didn’t listen and put me inside the ambulance.

“I’m begging you,  please! Bring me to her! She needs me!!”

“Sir, calm down please,” I saw the nurse inside the ambulance inject something into my arms. Making me feel dizzy and weak…

“Please my Sienna needs me, she needs m—–,” everything went black…

I woke up inside the hospital alone, but the door opened where my Dad showed up with so much anger on his face. “We didn’t close the deal, the company lost the biggest opportunity..you failed me, Son,” he said and left.

This was the first time my Dad said that to me, I feel so worthless…

We lose the bright future of the company and that’s because of me…fuck!

I look at myself in the window where I can see my reflection, I look so messed up…

And when I saw my phone, I grabbed it and saw a missed call from Sienna.

I called her and after a few rings, she answered it…

“Hello,” “Hi,“nanghihina kong sambit, at ng marinig ko ang walang buhay niyang boses, napuno ako ng galit sa aking sarili, I filed to be at her side when she needs me.

“How are you?” I try my best to hide my emotions.

“I’m fine, how bout you?” it kills me hearing her like this…

“Yeah, I’m fine, I just lost the biggest deal my Dad trusts me haha,” I whispered and shook my head and bit my lips so hard, trying to stop my tears.

I heard her gasp “I’m sorry,” and whisper.

“Yeah, I was so nervous a while ago so I called you yesterday but you didn’t answer haha I need you,” I lie.

I can’t afford to let her know, That I got into an accident. She will just blame herself.

“I’m sorry,” she whispered.

“Hahaha,” I started crying and broke down so I hid it in a laugh so she wouldn’t hear me cry.

“I think we need space,” I stiff as I hear those words, please no, not now Sienna.. Please I’m begging you…I want to shout that but I didn’t…

“Do you think?” I ask and push my thighs.

“Y-yes,” she whispered, and everything fell into pieces…

“Ok, If that’s what you think is right I will support you because I always support you” I whisper and cry harder.

“Ok haha, I’ll call you when I’m fixed ok bye,” she said and quickly turned off the call.

“Ahhh!!!!!!” shouted and pushed the things beside me, everything I can grab flying around the room as I let my pain get away!!!

I drive my way back to my penthouse and weakly open the door where Ady waited for me. “Are you ok love?” she whispered and instantly hugged me.

“We let go,” I whisper and cry in her arms.

She started rubbing my back and whispering, “I’m proud of you both,” she said and held my face and made me face her.

She smiles and wipes my tears, “It’s time for a new start Love, I’m here for you,” she said and kiss me.

After the kiss, I hugged and finally let go…

This is the end of our story Ashiena, be happy and free my love…

“New start,” I whisper.

“Yes, new start,” Ady whispered.

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Sienna’s POV

Weeks pass by, I try to cope up and focus on my work…I finally let go and I’m happy right now…

“Kids, let’s go inside,” I said but the kids didn’t listen and stayed at the playground. I just give them a spare time to play here in the school playground.

“Kids?” I ask when they line up and show letters to me. I started reading it…

“Can I be your new start?” That’s what is written on the papers they hold. Naguguluhan ko silang tinignan bago lumitaw si Luan sa likod nila habang hawak ang leash ne Charvy at isang malaking bouquet ng white roses.

“Teacher Ashiena Minami, can I Doctor Luan Dreason be with you in your new start? Can you be my permanent patient?” he charmingly asked and stood in front of me.

I couldn’t help my smile; this guy has always been there for me… I guess it will be great to have him in my new start…

“Yes.”

Epilogue

6 years pass by,

“Sienna!!!!! Where are you na ba?” I smile as I hear Chantel’s voice from the other line while I fix my earrings and stand in front of the mirror wearing this white maxi dress paired with white mule shoes from Chanel. Inayos ko din ang mahaba kong buhok,I curl it a little bit, so it looks like wavey.

Also, I colored it last week in a light blond with highlights so I look so different but I love it.

“I’m on my way,” I said before I stepped out of my room and got Charvy’s leash, and got out of the house. I opened the back seat of my white sedan and put him inside before I went inside the driver’s seat and started the engine.

I connect my phone to my ear pads and dial Luan’s number, after a few rings he answers it. “Yes? May I help you?” he said from the other line.

“Yes, I would like to consult the doctor next week, is he busy?” nakangiti kong sambit at tumawa siya mula sa kabilang linya.

“He’s busy but if the patient were named Sienna, he would be glad to serve the lovely patient,” he said and laughed.

“Ok, see you, next week Doctor,” I said before I ended the call and went straight to the beach resort where Ellouise Birthday will happen.

Agad akong dumiretso sa pool area kasama si Charvy at naabutan kong busy na nag-aayos si Ali, Aberry at Chantel ng venue kaya nakangiti ko silang nilapitan.

“Ay tingnan mo ito, kami nagaayos at mukhang losyang dito tapos ikaw naka ayos kana duga pre” sambit ni Aberry ng makita ako. They all look at me and smile.

“Sorry hahaha” I said and laugh, lumapit ako sa kanila at isa-isang hinalikan sa pisngi.

“Kamusta pagtuturo teacher?” Sambit ni Ali, “Fine and happy as always,” Sagot ko ng buong puso. Teaching kids is my pure happiness and now I’m fine at kuntento na ako dito.

“Pupunta ba daw si Doctor?” Aberry ask, umiling ako habang ngumingiti, “He’s in Batangas right now with Hope,” nakangiti kong sambit at nagsimulang tumulong sa pagdidisenyo ng lamesa.

“Talagang masaya kana noh, kitang kita sa ngiti mo eh, abot langit talaga ang saya pag singol sanaol singol hahaha” Sambit muli ni Aberry at tumawa. “Sira ka talaga Jade, hayaan mo si Sienna. Sumbong kita kay Oliver dyan singol singol ka pa,” hinampas ni Ali si Aberry ng balloon ng sabihin iyon kaya tumawa kaming apat.

“Joke lang!! Ito di mabiro,” pahabol ni Aberry.

“Tumigil na nga tayo kakatawa at tapusin na ito para ready na mamaya,” sambit ko at nagsimula nang mag focus sa pag aayos ng lamesa.

Aberry is right, I’m single and free… I’m also happy right now. After 1 year Luan and I realize that we didn’t work out, our relationship seems like a friendship so we end up choosing to be friends again.

And after a year he met Hope, he’s current girlfriend right now. I supported him and was happy for him.

I choose to live like this because this is where I find peace, I find peace for being alone and free.

While a year ago we heard that Ady finally gave birth to their first child, and with that I feel happy for everyone.

Naging malaya ako pagkatapos ng mga nangyari and now all I feel is genuine happiness for everyone.

“Oh shit!” napalingon kami kay Chantel dahil bigla siyang nagsalita at tumingin sa amin. “Bakit?” sabay naming sambit ni Ali.

“I forgot Bunny’s dress in our condo,” she panicked, “Shit! Can you get it for me Ali?” she said and asked Ali.

But Ali quickly shake her head, “I don’t have my car with me, kasama ko si Cad pumunta dito,” Sambit nito kaya tumingin kami kay Aberry. “Oh bat ako tinitignan niyo, excuse me, kasama ko lang din ang asawa ko papunta dito” sambit nito kaya sa huli ako ang tinitignan nilang lahat.

“Ok ako an,” sambit ko bago pa nila sabihin, “Oh gosh thanks Sienna, here’s the key to our unit and the number, just go inside, you will is agad on the living room. Thank you so much!” she said and hugged me before they pushed me out of the venue.

Umiling-iling akong bumalik sa parking at iniwan sa kanila si Charvy. Sumakay na ako Sedan ko at agad itong pinaandar papunta sa condo nila Chantel.

Hanggang ngayon kahit may bahay nang pinatayo si Kace sa Japan at Laguna mas pinipili pa rin nila tumira sa condo nila. Dahil mas gustong magstay ni Chantel sa Manila malapit sa amin.

After a few minutes nakarating na rin ako sa harap ng condominium ng mga Delavine. The highest rating condominium here in Manila.

I quickly stepped out of the car and went inside, raised the elevator and followed the floor Chantel gave me. Pagbukas nito ay nagmamadali akong naglakad sa hallway at hinanap ang number ng unit nila.

Back then units here didn’t have numbers, but right now they have so it’s easy to find. “Here!” I said as I stood in front of the unit Chantel said.

There uni––,

Hindi ko natapos ang aking sasabihin ng biglang naging familiar ang unit na ito sa akin….

I look at the key and the number before I glance at the surroundings…“This can’t be real?” I whisper.

I look at this door and smile with disbelief, this is our unit back then.. How come it becomes, Chantel and Kace unit are this? Did they buy it from him?

I slowly open it using the key and when it opens, sumalubong sa akin ang sobrang maaliwalas na unit at malinis na silid.

I took a step inside and look around the place, “No way,” halos bulong kong sambit habang pinagmamasdan ang buong paligid.

Ito pa rin ang mga gamit namin dati dito sa unit na ito… paanong nangyaring ganito?

My heart is pounding as a lot of good memories showed up in this place. Parang namatain ang lahat ng gamit kahit ang mga rugs na nilalabhan ko noon.

I stopped when the door from our old room opened and a big bouquet of flowers showed up with this man behind it.

I stop breathing as I recognize those legs walking towards me.

My lips parted as it stood in front of me and he slowly peeks at the side and there he is…

“G-Gun,” I whisper.

There he is with that handsome face just like the first time I saw him…

He smiled and finally moved the bouquet to the side and showed his face straight to me.

“Your here,” halos kapos hininga kong sambit.

“Yes, hindi ko kasi nakalimutan yung impossible joke mo, yung pang lipas ng limang taon, kung sakaling mag-isa parin tayong dalawa, pwede bang tayo na lang ulit?” he said sweetly as tears started to fall from my eyes.

“B-but Adela––,” he cut me out and said, “We parted ways 4 years ago as we went back to US,” he said made me cry even more.

Hindi ko alam ang nararamdaman ko dahil ang tanging alam ko lang ay nandito si Gun sa harapan ko.

“So, expired na ba nag impossible joke mo? Huli na ba ako?” he asked and tears started to roll from his eyes.

I shook my head and cried before I faced him and urged the most genuine smile I can show him…

“Pwede pang iexted ng one week, kaya hindi ka pa huli,” I said and he hugged me so tight. I cry even more as I finally touch him and I’m finally in his arms again.

“I love you Sienna, I have always been in love with you , nothing changed, Beb” he whispered while we’re both sobbing and crying in happiness.

“I love you too Gunner, I never stop loving you,” I whisper and face him, he smiles before he reaches for my lips and we share the most free kiss we ever had.

“Will you accept my surname as yours, Ashiena Minami?” he whispered between our kisses. I smile and kiss him.

“I will,” I said and cherished this moment.

This guy was my own definition of Love, how can I unlove this man when he’s the reason why I learn to love.

He will always be the reason why I choose to smile… We went through ups and down and we’ve lost our strongest partnership.

But now I can surely announce that I will never lose this partnership again…

This will be a lifetime partnership…

I Ashiena Minami soon to be Mrs. Ashiena Minami Tyson is resigning as your unperfect employee…

And applying for this  Mr. Gunner Tyson’s Permanent Partnership…

SECRET SPECIAL CHAPTER OF TAX PRINCIPLES

“Wake up sleepyhead,” I felt Cadmus breath on my ears as he whispered to me that, when I didn’t move he started blowing my ears making ticklish feels.

“Hmmm,” I groan and try to push his face away and turn on the other side of the bed.

“Ow.. Mommy doesn’t want to wake up Dyky, what should we do?” I heard him ask our son who I felt he’s also seating beside him at the bed. “Kiss!” Dyky said and jumped on the bed.

Dymus is already 4 years old now, he’s growing too fast and he’s becoming like his Dad for some reason. “You think we should kiss Mommy?” Even though I don’t see Cadmus’ expression right I completely know that he’s smirking behind my back.

“Yes,” Dyky stop jumping and felt him seat, pinakiramdaman ko sila ng ilang segundo ng nanahimik sila pero––“Ayy!” napasigaw ako ng bigla akong buhatin ni Cad paalis ng kama at binuhat ako ng bridal style bago pinaghahalikan sa mukha.

“Good morning Love,” he said while kissing and Dyky kept on giggling on the bed while jumping. “Cad tama na hahaha,” sambit ko ng makiliti na ako sa kanyang ginagawa.

He kissed me on my lips before he put me down on the side of the bed and Dyky quickly wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed me on my cheeks. “Morning Mommy,” Dyky said and smiled at me.

“Hello sweet, kamusta ang tulog ng Dyky ni Mommy,” hinila ko ang kamay niya ng dahan-dahan upang kandungin siya at yakapin.

“It’s fine Mommy,” he said and hugged me tighter, Cadmus standing in front of us, as his arms crossed on his chest and staring at me. “I’m the one who wakes you up but this little guy gets the chance to hug you more, isn’t that not fair little buddy?” he said, which made Dyky look at him and giggle.

“Mommy loves me more Daddy,” Dyky said and hugged me while showing it to his Dad purposely and teasingly. “I see, well then let’s ask your Mommy then,” he said while raising his brows on his son.

This two, pagtulog ako laging magkakampi sa kalokohan pero pag gising na ako ay kala mo hindi mag-ama kung mag asaran. “Mommy who do you love the most, me or him?” I gasp and teasingly glance at Cadmus when Dyky calls him HIM, instead of Daddy.

Dyky really knows how to tease his father, “I love Dyky the most,” I said and filled him with a peck of kisses. “I hate you guys,” Cadmus said and walked out of the room.

“Daddy seems to be getting mad, what should Dyky do?” I ask my son, he looks at me and thinks. “Sorry to Daddy,” he said, bago siya bumababa sa pagkakabuhat ko at sinundan ang kanyang ama sa labas.

Umiling-iling akong tumayo mula sa kama bago inayos ito at nagtungo sa banyo upang maghilamos at magtoothbrush. Pagkatapos ay sumunod na ako sa labas, pababa at naabutan silang mag-amang nasa kusina.

“Daddy,” Dyky calls his Dad but this big old guy ignores his son and keeps on focusing on what he’s cooking. Dyky looked at me with those teary eyes like his asking help for his Dad to notice him. I sigh before I walk towards him and carry him to show him to Cadmus.

“Daddy, Dyky said he’s sorry,” I said as I stood beside Cadmus while carrying Dyky.

“Daddy Sowwy,” Dyky said and tapped his father’s arms. But Cad acted like he didn’t feel and hear him, so Dyky started to cry silently. This kid fights with his Dad but when Cad gets mad at him he cries and always asks sorry.

“Camus!” I hissed, Cadmus instantly faces us and grabs Dyky from before he laughs and starts tickling his son. “Daddy was just kidding hahahha,” sambit nito kaya agad pinunasan ni Dyky ang kanyang luha bago nakipagtawanan sa kanyang ama habang kinikiliti siya nito.

Cad pulled me by wrapping his one arm on my waist.

“Want to go to the Mall?” Cadmus asks, “Yes!!!” Dyky said. “Wala ka bang pasok ngayon?” tanong ko habang inaayos ang buhok niyang nagulo dahil sa pagkiliti kay Dyky.

“I’m on a day off today Love, so we can spend the whole day together,” he said and smiled at his son. “Buy toys!!!!” sigaw ni Dyky kaya natawa na lang kaming tatlo. We ate breakfast together and prepared to go to the mall.

I made Dyky wear a navy blue kids dresser shirt and denim jumper pants paired with white rubber shoes, Chantel gave him. While I wear a simple white t-shirt blouse and blue jeans, paired with white doll shoes.

“Are we ready?” Cadmus ask, paglabas namin ng bahay dahil mas nauna siya sa garage. Wearing a simple white dresser shirt with navy blue pants, he tanks in his dress shirt in his pants showing his belt and folding the sleeves up to his elbows.

His hair isn’t that neatly fixed because he didn’t bother fixing it. He just let it down this time so he looks so casual and simple, but still looks so expensive.

“Let’s go,” he said as he opened the door of the car for us. Kakandungin ko na lang si Dyky dito sa harapan dahil ayaw niyang mag-isa sa likod.

“Ok, are you ready little boy?” he asked his son. “Yes!!!” Cad nodded as his son cheered. He started the engine and drove our way to the mall.

“By the way love, if you want we can visit Papa this weekend,” sambit ni Cad kaya agad ko siyang nilingon. “Wala ka bang trabaho this week end? Hindi ba nagday off kana ngayon tapos pati sa weekend din? Baka matambakan ka ng trabaho nyan?” kunot noong sambit ko.

Cad reaches for my left hand and holds it while driving, “I’ve settled everything since last week so you have nothing to worry about. Also I wanna visit Lola and Lola,” he said.

“Ok, Dyky we’re going to si Papalolo this weekend,” masaya kong sambit kay Dyky, na agad nginitian ng anak ko.

After a few minutes we reach the mall and the usual, we end up staying in the toy’s store for an hour because Dyky wanted to buy a lot of toys which Cadmus spoiled him by buying it all for him.

Wala naman akong laban sa mag-ama kaya nanahimik na lang ako sa isang tabi at hinayaan silang dalawa.

“Done?” tanong ko ng lumabas na kami ng toy’s store. Dyky nodded with a lot of satisfaction on his face as he looked at this father’s carrying. “You spoiled him too much,” I said.

“I spoiled him once a month Love, That isn’t bad,” pagpapalusot ni Cad kaya umiling nalang ako at naglakad.

While walking napadaan kami sa isang store na may malaking picture ni Louie as an endorser of the brand. He became more successful than I expected and after my church wedding, we met again and had our proper closure.

“Tss,” napalingon ako kay Cad ng suminghal ito bago naunang naglakad sa akin kasama si Dyky.

“I’m more handsome than him,” I heard him whisper, making me smile. Paglabas namin ng Mall tumigil siya at tinuro ang kabilang building. “See that! That’s the really drop dead gorgeous man,” nakasimangot nitong sambit habang tinuturo ang billboard na may featuring him as the hottest CEO of the year.

I smiled and just nodded at him, “I know,” I said but he just hazed at me and walked through our car.

Hanggang sa makauwi kami sa bahay, at kumain ng lunch panay ang pangiismid nito sa akin at halatang nagseselos pa rin kay Louie, kaya hindi ko maiwasang matawa na lang sa kanya.

“He’s already asleep, I’ll take a shower first,” walang ganang sambit nito matapos patulugin si Dyky sa kwarto nito at tumuloy sa kwarto namin.

I immediately dial Chantel’s number and call her, after a few rings she answers it and, “Yes?” she asked.

“I need your help,” I said.

After a few minutes Chantel texted that she’s in front of our house already kaya tahimik akong lumabas at pinuntahan siya. “Here,” he handed me a red paper bag and smiled at me, while Kace was standing at her back wearing PJ’s and specs.

“Good luck, I’m sure he won’t get mad at you anymore hahaha, looking forward to a new nephew or niece,” she said and ran through their car and left.

Umiling-iling na lang akong naglakad papasok ng bahay at tumuloy sa banyo dito sa sala’s. I wear this sexy lingerie that Chantel gave me and prepared this for Cad.

Tignan lang natin kung magseselos pa rin siya kay Louie nito, at kung matitiis niya pa rin ako.

Pumasok na ako ng kwarto habang nasa loob siya ng bathroom. After a few minutes, he stepped out of the bathroom with his eyes widened.

His lips parted as he stared at me from head to toe, “Hi,” sambit ko.

He gulped and tried to avoid me but he sighed so loud and looked at me, “You’re so unfair!!!” he hazed and I laughed.

“I guess we need a new baby,” he said as a sign of defeat before he walked towards my place and savored me with a kiss.

“I can’t fucking unlove you Alliana Cadice Cortez Delavine,” He whispers between our kisses.

“I can’t unlove you too Cadmus Geib Delavine, my man,” I smile and kiss him back.

He push me through the bed and move down his kiss to my neck an––,

“Mommy Daddy!!!!” agad ko siyang tinulak palayo ng bumukas ang pinto at dumating si Dyky dala-dala ang unan niya.

“DYKY!” sabay naming sambit ni Cad habang nakaupo siya sa sahig.

“Daddy, why are you eating Mommy’s neck?”

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Ashiena Minami

Age: 23 y/o

Birthday: April 20

Blood type: O

Weight: 45kg (99lbs)

Height: 1.68 cm/ 5.6 ft

Zodiac: Taurus

Eye color: Dark brown

Hair color: Black

Hobbies: Teaching and playing with Kids

Gunner Tyson

Age:24 y/o

Birthday: February 14

Blood type: O

Weight: 74kg/163 lbs

Height: 1.84 m/ 6 ft

Zodiac: Aquarius

Eye color: Green but turns faded blue

Hair color: Chestnut Brown

Hobbies: Stare at Sienna 24/7