W E L C O M E

AUTHOR’S

NOTE

Hello there! Thank you for giving this story a shot. Nakakatuwang malaman na merong reader ang maglalaan ng oras para basahin ang istorya kong ito. Pagpasensiyahan niyo na ’yung mga unang chapters. This was supposed to be a short story but everything doesn’t goes accordingly to my will and now, it end up being my very

first

novel

ever . But I promise, there’s a lot of turn out events in this story. There’s humor, drama, inis, and kilig moments. Minor and major plots are also present. Watch out for some unexpected twists.

Please do not romanticize this story. This one is a boyxboy novel, meaning, a boy will fell in love with another boy. There’s kissing, sex, and love between two men! So, if you don’t want these kind of genres, go fuck yourself off.

This story is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and events are fictitious, unless otherwise stated. Any resemblance to real person, living or dead, and actual event is purely coincidental. All right reserved . No part of this story may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any forms or by any means without the prior permission of the author. Plagiarism is a crime .

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Story status: [On-going/Editing]

C H A P T E R - 001

Ian’s

POV

“Ian, saan tayo ngayon?” Tanong ng ka-grupo ko sa thesis.

Tsk. Makapagtanong akala mo naman may dulot.

“Sa bahay na lang para mabilis tayong matapos” Suggestion naman ni Akie, may internet connection kasi sila sa bahay and since review of related literature naman yung hahanapin namin ngayon, kailangan nga talaga namin ng internet.

I nodded. Tinawagan ko si mama para ipaalam na gagawa kami sa thesis nila Akie. Fortunately, she allowed me to stay up to 7:00. “Sige, basta hanggang seven lang ako ah, susunduin na lang daw ako ni kuya. Dad will be mad if I will stay here for too long. Also, I think it will rain. I heard from the news that there’s a typhoon” Pagpapa-alala ko sa kanila.

They all agreed on my deal. Well, wala naman silang magagawa, I’m the leader of this group. Naglakad na kami papunta sa bahay nila Akie. Hindi naman malayo yung bahay nila. Mga sampung minuto lang ang tatagalin kung manggagaling kayo sa school.

5:30 na nang makarating kami sa bahay nila. May kalakihan din ang bahay nila Akie. Dalawang palapag at masasabi kong pangmayaman.

Pinapasok na kami ng nanay ni Akie, the interior design of their house is much prettier than I’ve expected. The motif of black and gray is somewhat odd but for me, it brings coziness. It’s kinda cool. We greeted Akie’s mom a ‘good afternoon’ as we all headed in Akie’s room. Compared to my room, Akie’s room is like a cage of a pig. It’s so messy. The shirts were scattered all over the floor, some of his undies was under his bed, a lot of crumpled paper were on the floor too, and chips and other kind of left overs stinks.

“Sorry, medyo marumi ’yung room ko” Nahihiya niyang sabi. Anong med’yo? Sobrang dumi kaya. Gwapo nga siya, burara naman.

“Okay lang, ’nu ka ba” Sabi naman ni Janice. Porket may crush siya kay Akie okay lang sa kaniya ’yun? Hindi ba siya nandidiri?

“Let’s start, i’ts already six in the afternoon” Sabi ko sa kanila dahil mukhang wala silang balak gawin kundi tumayo na lang.

“Tara na guys, nagsusungit na naman si Mr. Sungit” Asar ni Akie. Psh.

Ano ba naman kasi ’tong mga ’to, bakit kasi sila pa naging ka-grupo ko. Si sir naman kasi eh. Bakit kasi sila pa yung ibinigay sa akin? Si Akie na mayaman nga, tamad naman, puro pa-pogi lang ang alam. Si Michael na akala mo kung sino, ambag sa pera lang naman yung naitutulong, at si Janice na lagi na lang naka-focus kay Akie. Yes, they are my mates in making our annual thesis. Binigay sila sa akin ni sir, since ako yung top 2 sa amin and sila naman yung ilan sa mga nasa lower rank. Sir wanted me and my fellow topnotchers to be the leader of this thesis to lead those students like Akie, Micheal and Janice to become more hardworking, responsible and commited. Pero, kahit anong gawin ko, ako pa rin gumagawa ng thesis namin, last week, halos ako na gumawa ng chapter 1. Nakakapagod nga dahil halos mapuyat ako gabi gabi para lang matapos yun. Inutusan ko kasi sila na gawin yung mga parte nila pero the minute I asked for their parts, they apologized. Wala raw kasi silang nagawa. So, I set aside the word “sleep” for that day just to finish our chapter one.

Okay na rin, at least, nagkakapera ako. Oo, binabayaran naman ako ng mga mokong. Mayayaman kasi sila, Micheal is the richest kid in our class, so, lagi niya akong nililibre at binibigyan ng pera. Ganon din sila Janice at Akie.

Mga 6:30 na ng gabi nang bumuhos ang napakalakas na ulan. Hindi pa kami tapos sa chapter 2, kailangan pa ’tong i-paraphrase. Thankfully, Akie has his laptop. Less hassle, hindi na namin kailangan mag-rent ng PC sa computer shop. Patuloy pa rin kami sa paghahanap ng RRL at RRS at patuloy din ang pagbuhos ng napakalakas na ulan.

Nag-buzz ’yung phone ko indicating that there is someone who texted me. Binuksan ko ’yung phone ko and I found my brother’s message.

: Ian, hindi kita masusundo, sira ’yung motor, ’tsaka mukhang baha sa daan, hindi ko kayang suungin ’yon.

Nag-reply naman ako.

:Hala, paano ako makakauwe? Susuungin ko ’yung baha?

I rolled my eyes kahit na alam kong hindi naman niya makikita yung ginawa ko.

Argh. Paano ako uuwi nito? Nag-reply si kuya sa text ko.

: Pwede rin. Hahaha. Wala namang pasok bukas kaya ayos lang na mabasa ka. Hahahaha

: What? Are you kidding me?

: Oh, teka lang bunso. ’Wag mo naman english-in si kuya. Nano-nose bleed ako. Hahahaha

: KUYAAAA!

: Papaalam na lang kita kay Mama, d’yan ka na lang matulog. Tutal tropa ko naman ’yung kuya ni Akie. Tsaka kilala naman ni Mama si tita Samantha. Papayagan ka n’on. Kami na bahala magpaalam kay tita.

: Huh? Pero wala akong damit, tsaka saan ako matutulog dito? Nakakahiya. Hindi ko masyadong close si Akie. Huhuhu

: Bahala ka d’yan

ARGH. BWISET KA KUYA. HUMANDA KA SA AKIN.

C H A P T E R - 002

Ian’s POV

“Ian, may problema ba?” Tanong ni Micheal.

“Ah? Ah, eh, w-wala. A-Ano kasi, h-hindi ata ako masusundo ni kuya” Nahihiya kong sabi.

“Paano yun? Edi ikaw na lang mag-isa uuwi?” Tanong ni Janice.

Sasagot pa sana ako pero bigla na lang may kumatok sa pinto.

“Uhm, ako na ang magbubukas” Sabi ko kay Akie dahil ako naman yung pinakamalapit sa pinto.

Pagkabukas ko ng pinto, agad na bumungad ang isang matipuno, gwapo, macho, at matangkad na lalaki. Naka-uniporme ito na pang marino. Pero may bag pa rin siya na nakasabit sa isa nitong balikat. Nangangahulugan na estudyante pa lang ito sa kolehiyo sa kursong Marine Engineering.

Nagkatitigan kami. He intimidatedly looked at me. Para bang papatayin na niya ako sa mga tingin niya.

“Akie, sabi ni mama pauwin mo na daw yung mga kaklase mo at baka mas lumakas pa ang ulan” Sabi ng lalaki gamit ang medyo paos na bose.

Ang sexy ng boses niya.

Wait . B-Bakit ko sinabi yun?

Erase. Erase. Erase.

“Sige, ya. Sunod na lang kami” Sagot ni Akie.

Tumayo na yung dalawa at inayos na yung mga gamit nila.

Napatingin naman ako sa lalaki na nakatingin din pala sa akin. Sobrang tangkad niya, hanggang dibdib niya lang ako. Well, no wonder, Akie is tall too. Ang ganda din ng skin color niya, lalaking lalaki and his muscles tells how manly he is.

He smirked.

I blinked twice to check if namamalikmata ba ako. Pero hindi, naka-ngisi talaga siya akin. Problema ng isang ’to? I rolled my eyes at him at dumiretso na para kunin yung bag ko.

“Sabi ng kuya mo dito ka na lang daw matulog, nagpaalam na siya sa akin. Ihahatid kita bukas” Sabi ng kuya ni Akie.

I sighed. Inilapag ko na lang yung bag ko malapit sa study desk ni Akie.

“Ayos yun, Ian. Manood tayo ng movie mamaya” Excited na turan ni Akie.

I nodded. Sige na nga, wala naman na akong magagawa.

“Sige. Hatid ko lang sila Janice, malapit lang naman bahay nila dito. Tsaka wala naman sigurong baha sa barangay niyo?” Tanong niya kay Janice.

Kita naman na kilig na kilig si Janice dahil ihahatid siya ni Akie.

Ang landi.

Umalis na sila. Lumapit naman ako sa pinto para isara ito pero agad na pumasok yung kuya ni Akie para kunin yung laptop nito.

“Wait. We haven’t finished our thesis yet. We’re still working on it” Sabi ko dito bago pa man siya makalabas.

“Pakialam ko? Tsaka h’wag mo nga akong didiktihan sa kung ano ang pwede kong gawin” Sagot nito at dumiretso na palabas sa pinto.

Tinitigan ko siya nang masama. Ayos ’to ah. Wala man lang konsiderasyon.

Argh! Bwiset. Hihintayin ko na nga lang si Akie.

“Napakarumi talaga ng kwarto ni Akie” Bulong ko sa sarili ko.

Okay. Lilinisin ko na lang, tutal wala naman akong magawa.

Nagsimula akong maglinis. Dinampot ko lahat ng mga papel at plastic ng lahat ng chips tsaka ko tinapon sa trash bin na nasa kwarto ni Akie. May trash bin naman pala, pero ang kalat kalat ng sahig. Sinunod ko lahat ng damit at undies niya.

Kinuha ko yung brief niyang pula at may napansin ako. May kung anong natuyo mula dito. Kitang kita ko yung markang kulay puti.

I blushed after I realized that it was Akie’s cum. It was his fucking semen. Kadiriii. Hinawakan ko pa man din. Inilagay ko na lang sa laundry basket yung brief niya para matapos na yung paglilinis ko.

Dumating si Akie na malinis na yung buong kwarto niya. Nagulat pa nga siya eh. Pinasalamatan niya din ako.

May dala siyang mga junk foods na kakainin daw namin mamaya habang nanonood kami ng movie.

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Kakabalik lang ni Akie galing sa banyo. Nakatapis lang siya.

Kitang kita ko yung abs niya. Pati yung alaga niyang nakaumbok sa tuwalya. Namula ako matapos niyang mapansin na nakatingin pala ako dito. Agad akong umiwas ng tingin.

“A-Akie, a-ano nga pala, p-pwede ba akong manghiram ng d-damit sa’yo?” Nauutal kong tanong sa kaniya.

“Nauutal din pala ang isang Ian Salvador?” He smirked. I can feel the mischief in his voice.

“Shut up” Singhal ko dito.

“Sungit mo naman” Sabi niya.

Kumuha siya ng isang malaking t-shirt sa cabinet niya. Inihagis niya sa akin yun.

“A-Ano ’to? T-shirt lang?” Tanong ko sa lalaking ’to.

He shrugged.

“Oo, masyadong malaki yung t-shirt size ko sa size mo, so, abot tuhod mo na yung damit ko” Pagpapaliwanag nito.

Namula naman ako. I know na maliit ako, pero hindi ako magsusuot ng damit lang, ano ’to dress? Mukha ba akong babae?

“No, I will not sleep only with this” Sabi ko sabay lapat sa mukha niya yung malaki niyang t-shirt.

“Hindi sayo kakasya yung shorts tsaka pants ko. Malalaglag lang sayo ’yun kapag sinuot mo” He said in a matter of fact.

Alam ko naman talaga na masyadong malaki yung shorts ni Akie para sa akin pero ayoko matulog ng walang suot na short. Nakakahiya ’yun.

“E-Edi boxer shorts na lang” Nahihiya kong sabi.

“Ah, eto ba?” Tanong niya sabay taas sa ere ng boxer shorts niya.

“Isa na lang ’to eh, nasa labahan lahat ng boxer shorts ko eh. Balak ko sana na ako na lang ang magsusuot” Sabi niya na tila nangiingit at iwinagayway pa yung boxer short niya.

“Ako na lang magsusuot niyan, mag-shorts ka na lang” Paki-usap ko dito. Tinanggal ko na lang yung pride ko para hindi na niya ako paglaruan pa.

“Ayoko nga, mas gusto ko ’to para fresh sa feeling” Sabi nito at akmang susuotin na ’yung boxer shorts pero agad akong lumpit at inagaw sa kanya ’yon.

Nag-agawan kami sa boxer shorts niya.

“AKIE, AKIN NA SABI EH” Singhal ko sa kaniya.

“Ayoko nga, agawin mo muna” Parang bata niyang sabi sabay taas nung boxer shorts.

Hindi ko na tuloy maabot. Dahil sa inis ko, tinulak ko si Akie kaya napa-upo siya sa sahig, tsaka ko inagaw yung boxer shorts niya. Nakipag-agawan pa ako hanggang sa na-realize na lang namin na ang awkward na pala nung pwesto naming dalawa, nakapatong ako sa katawan niyang hubad na parang sinasakyan ko siya habang nasa may dulo naman ng ulo niya yung mga kamay ko dahil sa inaabot ko nga yung boxer shorts.

Namula ako nang husto dahil sa pwesto namin. Napatayo ako bigla pero dahil sa pagkataranta ay nadapa ako at napaupo ulit sa katawan niya. But this time, I was sitting right into his crotch. Namula ako nang todo dahil ramdam ko ’yung matigas na alaga ni Akie na tumutusok sa pwetan ko. Ramdam ko yung laki at taba ng pagkalalaki niya. Hindi ko sinasadyang gumalaw dahilan para mapaungol si Akie.

“Fuck” Akie moaned.

Gumalaw yung alaga ni Akie and it took all my courage not to moan. Kaya naman agad akong tumayo at mabilis na kinuha yung t-shirt niyang malaki at agad na lumabas sa kwarto niya at dumiretso na sa banyo.

Pulang pula ’yung mukha dahil sa kahihiyan. Oh my gosh, Akie moaned because of what I did.

A-And h-his d-d-dick, it’s too huge. B-Bakit ang laki nung kaniya?

Nakarating na ako sa banyo nila at agad kong narealize na nakalimutan ko pa lang kunin yung boxer shorts ni Akie dahil sa sobrang taranta ko. Ang bobo mo, Ian.

I don’t have choice, kailangan kong matulog na itong malaking t-shirt lang ang suot.

C H A P T E R -003

Ian’s POV

Tinignan ko yung sarili ko sa salamin. Gosh, ang landi ko tignan. Ang laki nung t-shirt sa akin kaya parang naka-dress ako. Abot hanggang sa hita ko yung damit. Thankfully, hindi naman kita yung brief ko.

Pagkabukas ko ng pinto ng banyo ay agad na bumugad sa akin yung kuya ni Akie. Fuck, ang hot niya. Naka-boxer lang siya at may dalang towel na nakasabit sa maskulado nitong balikat. Napatingin ako sa boxer short niya, puta, ano ’tong nararamdaman ko? Bakit pakiramdam ko, gusto kong hubarin yung suot niya at titigan yung malaki niyang alaga na nakabakat sa boxer short niya.

“Pwede mo naman nang isubo kung gusto mo” Pang-aasar niya after he realized that I was looking at his bulge for almost a minute.

“H-Huh? B-Bakit ko naman gagawin yun? H-Hindi naman bakla” Agad kong sabi dito.

“Pero kung titigan mo parang gusto mong hawakan?” Patuloy niyang pangaasar.

“A-Ano bang pinagsasabi mo? Alis nga diyan” Tinulak ko siya at dumiretso na papunta sa kwarto ni Akie pero bago pa man ako makalayo ay agad naman akong hinatak ng kuya ni Akie patungo sa kwarto niya.

Agad niyang ni-lock yun pinto the moment na nakapasok na kami dito.

“Bitawan mo nga ako” Galit kong singhal sa kuya ni Akie. Agad din naman niya akong binitiwan.

“Ano bang problema mo?” Sigaw ko dito. Pero agad akong natahimik matapos niyang ipakita yung litrato na nasa cellphone niya.

It was a photo of me and Akie kanina sa kwarto niya. Yung nakapatong ako sa katawan niya. Sa litrato, parang may nangyayaring kababalaghan sa pagitan namin ni Akie. Nakapikit pa si Akie kaya para talagang may nangyayari sa pagitan naming dalawa.

Bakit meron siyang picture nun? Nakuhanan niya kaya kami kanina? Argh.

I tried to snatch his phone pero sadyang matangkad lang talaga itong kuya ni Akie kaya hindi ko maabot yung cellphone niya.

“Ano bang gusto mo? Ano bang trip mo?” I narrowed my eyes and glared at him. Bwiset na ’to.

“Simple lang, gusto kong sundin mo lahat ng sasabihin ko” Maangas niyang turan.

“If I don’t want to, what would you do?” Mataray kong tanong dito.

“Then, I will upload this picture. It was kinda cute. Ano kayang iisipin ng ibang tao kapag nalaman nila na ang isang Ian Salvador ay pumatong sa heartthrob ng school na si Akie Villaflor? I wonder” Sabi niya.

My eyes widened in horror. No way. What the fucking hell is wrong with him?

“No way. Hindi ako susunod sa mga sasabihin mo” Matapang kong saad. Hindi ako basta basta magpapadala dahil sa larawan lang na yun. Hindi niya ako alila para sundin yung gusto niya, mamaya utusan pa niya akong magnakaw.

Aalis na sana ako sa kwarto niya pero agad niyang sinabi ang mga katagang pinaka-kinatatakutan ko.

“Okay. Mukhang malaking balita ’to sa school niyo. Ian Salvador isang bakla?”

Pagkalingon ko, nakita ko siyang nakangisi. What the hell is wrong with him? Ano bang gusto nito?

“Edi i-upload mo, as if may maniniwala naman sa sasabihin mo. Iisipin lang naman nila na gumagawa ka lang ng kwento para manira ng ibang tao” Sabi ko dito.

Nako, kung pwede ko lang tong suntukin ginawa ko na, pero hindi pwede dahil sure ako na ako mabubugbog, sa laki ba naman jg katawan nito.

“Okay, upload ko na pati yung video” He innocently said.

“W-What video?” I stuttered.

“This” Pinakita niya sa akin yung maikling video clip na kung saan ay gumalaw ako ng hindi sinasadya habang nasa ibabaw ako ni Akie at rinig din sa video yung ungol niya.

Fuck. I’m screwed.

C H A P T E R - 004

Ian’s POV

“Tingin mo ba, masasabing gawa gawa ko lang ’to? Iisipin kaya nila na gawa ko lang ’yung may nangyari sa inyo?” Tanong niya na may halong pang-aasar.

Napayuko ako. Tama siya. Sigurado akong bubully-hin na naman ako ng mga tarantadong bully sa school. Before, they always treat me worse. They beat me until I bleed, they used to throw punches as if it was just a normal thing for them. And, I don’t want to experience it once more.

“Fine. What do you need”  I sighed. Wala naman na akong choice.

“I need you to suck me” He said as if it was just a fucking normal command. My eyes widened in disgust.

“What? Are you fucking serious? I’ll never do that. Suck yourself off, stranger” Sabi ko sabay tulak sa kaniya. Lalabas na sana ako but I felt his hands at the back of my neck. Hinatak niya ako pabalik sa kwarto niya at inihagis sa kama niya. Ni-lock niya ulit ’yung pinto.

Lumapit siya sa akin at dinaganan ako. Sinipa at sinuntok ko siya, I give my all just to get him out of me. But the act was futile. Hinawakan niya ’yung bibig ko nang napakahigpit. Nagwala ako pero mas hinigpitan niya lang ang pagkakahawak sa bibig ko para hindi ako makasigaw.

“Tangina ka, Ian. Ang pinaka-ayaw ko ay yung sinasagot sagot lang ako. Nagtitimpi lang ako sa’yo dahil gusto kong tikman ’yang bunganga mo. H’wag na h’wag mo akong sisigawan at sasagutin dahil hindi mo gugustuhing makita ’yung tunay kong ugali. Pasalamat ka at hindi pa kita sinasaktan” Matatalim ang mata niyang binitawan ang bawat salitang iyon.

I shook my head hard para mabitawan niya yung panga ko. The moment na nabitawan na niya yung pagkakahawak sa bibig ko ay agad akong sumigaw.

“Akie, he —” Hihingi pa sana ako ng tulong pero mabilis niya akong nasampal ng malakas.

Napatigil ako. Agad na bumuhos ang luha ko. This is the first time after how many years na masampal ulit ako. My bullies always did this just because they knew that I am vulnerable for being small, pale, skinny and nerd. Nagbalik lahat ng ala-ala ko simula nung first year high school ako. Naramdaman kong muli ’yung hapdi at sakit. Hinawakan muli ng kuya ni Akie ang panga ko at itinapat niya sa mukha niya.

“Tandaan mo, Ian. H’wag na h’wag kang gagawa ng bagay na alam mong ikapapahamak mo at ikapapahamak ko, naiindindihan mo? Naiintindihan mo ba?” Nanlilisik na mga matang tanong niya sa akin. Tumango ako to show that I understood what he meant. Binitawan na niya ako.

“Simple lang naman ’yung gusto ko, Ian. You just have to suck me off” Sabi niya habang nakangisi. Ano bang trip ng isang ’to? Bakit niya ba sa akin ’to ginagawa?

“B-But, h-hindi nga ako b-bakla” Sagot ko sa pagitan ng mga hikbi. Patuloy pa rin kasi ako sa pag-iyak.

“I don’t fucking care. That’s what I want, at lahat ng gusto ko, nakukuha ko. Even you, Ian Salvador” Makahulugan niyang turan. Nagulat ako ng bigla niyang itaas ’yung t-shirt ni Akie na suot ko. Kitang kita na tuloy yung hita ko. I was so exposed. This is the first time na halos hubad na ako sa harap ng ibang tao.

“You’re so pale, Ian. So soft, so smooth, so tender. You resemble a girl. You’re a fresh piece of meat. Tangina, gaano kaya kasarap ’yang butas mo? How would it feel penetratinf you hard” Sabi niya na tila hayok na hayop.

What the hell? “N-No, I-I will not l-let you do that” I said as I cover my lower part with the t-shirt of Akie.

“There’s nothing you can do, Ian. You’re mine now” He possesively said.

“Hindi, magsusumbong ako sa pulis, sa kapatid mo, kay kuya, kay mama” I warned him.

“Talaga lang huh? Tingin mo ba may magagawa sila? Hahaha. Tsaka kapag nagsumbong ka, titiyakin ko na mapapahamak ’yung kuya mo. Alam mo naman na sobrang close kami ng mokong na ’yon. Madali ko lang siyang masasaktan and there’s nothing you can do about it” Mahabang pambabanta niya sa buhay ni kuya. Yes, tama siya, there’s nothing I can do about it. Tsaka isa pa, nasa kaniya pa ’yung picture namin ni Akie tsaka ’yung video. Fuck. Nakakainis ’tong lalaking ’to. What the fuck is wrong with him? Naka-shabu ba ’to?

“Ayaw mo naman atang may mapahamak sa pamilya niyo, hindi ba? Tsaka isa pa, ayaw mo naman sigurong masira ’yung reputasyon mo sa school niyo bilang pinakamahusay na estudyante dahil lang sa isang litrato at video, tama ba, Ian Salvador?” Hindi ako makasagot. Hawak niya na ako sa leeg, talo na ako sa lalaking ’to. Namuo na naman yung luha sa gilid ng mga mata ko. Naramdaman ko na lang na umiiyak na naman pala ako. I felt so weak. I felt so vulnerable. Defenseless.

“Tama na ang iyak” Utos nito at nakita ko na hinubad na niya yung boxer shorts niya. Napaatras ako at tumama sa head board ng kama niya.

C H A P T E R - 005

Ian’s POV

“Isusubo mo lang naman ’to, Ian. Ano bang mahirap don? Tsaka ’wag kang mag-alala, hindi pa kita gagalawin. Hindi pa ngayon” Sabi niya habang nakangisi. Alam ko na gagawin niya talaga yung plano niya pero lalaban ako. Hindi ko hahayaan na gawin na lang niya lahat ng gusto niya sa akin.

Sinimulan kong isubo ang alaga ng kuya ni Akie. It was kinda foreign for me because I never tried sucking dick before but it feels good. Fuck. Ano bang nangyayari sa akin? Bakit ako nagkakaganito? Bakit tila gustong gusto kong isubo yung burat ng lalaking ’to?

“Ahhh, Ian. Tangina, ang init ng bibig mo. Hindi nga ako nagkamali, ugh. I knew it, ugh. Fuck. Ah, a-ah. Fuck, Ian. Ang sarap. I knew the moment na nakita kita noon sa inyo na masarap ka nga talaga. Fuck, akin ka na Ian, akin ka na. Ugh” Tuloy tuloy na pakikipagusap sa akin ng kuya ni Akie habang panaka-naka ang pag-ungol.

I continued sucking him. Nabalot na ako ng libog. I am now drowning into the sensation of lust. Wala na akong naisip kung hindi ang mapaligaya ang kuya ni Akie.

Hindi ko kinaya na subuin nang buo yung alaga niya kaya ginawa ko na lang na parang lollipop yung ulo ng pagkalalaki niya. Panay ungol parin ang isinusukli ng kuya ni Akie.

“Ah, ugh, ahh. S-Sige pa, Ian. Tangina, ang sikip ng bibig mo, puta ka. Ugh, ah, ahh, ugh. Fuck. Fuck, ang saraaaap” Mahaba niyang ungol.

Niluwa ko sa pagkakasubo yung malaking alaga ng kuya ni Akie at kahit na hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko, dinilaan ko yung mga bayag niya, hinahalik-halikan ko din ito na nagdulot ng ibayong sarap sa kuya ni Akie, well, hindi ko alam kung nasasarapan ba siya pero puros ungol ang binibitawan niya, meaning, nasasarapan siya. Pinagpatuloy ko ang pagdila at paghalik dito.

Ang bango, ang sarap, ang laki. Ito yung mga nararamdaman ko sa mga panahong ito, gusto ko pa, gustong gusto ko yung pinapagawa sa akin ng lalaking pinaglilingkuran ko. Nababaliw ako. Natatanga. Nalulunod sa malalim na bangin ng libog. Nabihag ako sa patibong ng kuya ni Akie.

Bumalik ako sa pagsubo ng kahabaan niya. Gaya kanina, hindi ko pa rin masubo kahit na kalahati ng burat niya. Pero nagulat ako nang hawakan ng kuya ni Akie yung buhok ko, sobrang higpit. Para akong sinasabunutan.

I gasped because of the sudden attack. Akie’s elder brother took that as his chance to penetrate my mouth. Ibinaon niya nang husto yung alaga niya sa lalamunan ko, muntik na akong masuka. I coughed hard dahil nabulunan ako nang husto sa ginawa niyang pagsagad ng burat niya sa lalamunan ko. Pero hindi pa siya don tumigil, matapos akong makabawi ng hangin, mabilis niyang pinasok ang bibig ko at sunod-sunod na kinantot ang bibig ko.

“Fuuuck, ugh. Shit. I-Ian, ang sarap, puta. Ang sikip, ugh. Fuck, it feels really good. Ugh, ah, ah, ah, ugh. Ahhh”

Mas naging marahas ang ginawa niyang pagpasok at paglabas sa bunganga ko. Hindi na ako makahinga. Pinilit kong pigilan yung ginagawa niyang pagkantot sa bibig ko but my strength isn’t enough against his. Tuloy tuloy at marahas ang ginawang pagkantot ng kuya ni Akie sa bibig ko. Pakiramdam ko ay hihimatayin na ko dahil sa hindi na ako makahinga.

“FUCK, IAN. YOU’RE SO GOOD” He grunted out loud.

Sobra na akong nahihirapang huminga, and I know that any moment from now, I might end up being slumped on the floor.

Hindi pa rin tumigil sa pagbayo ang kuya ni Akie at naramdaman ko na lang na bumuhos na pala yung luha ko. Tuloy tuloy ang pagbuhos ng luha ko sabay sa tuloy tuloy na pagbayo ng kuya ni Akie. Sinampal pa niya ako at sinabing tumahimik ako at baka marinig kami ni Akie. Mas hinigpitan din niya ang pagsabunot sa buhok ko kaya mas nadagdagan ang sakit na nararamdaman ng katawan ko.

Panandalian siyang tumigil at inilabas ang kaniyang burat sa bibig ko. Pero wala pang sampung segundo’y isinalampak niya muli ang galit at naghuhumidi niyang burat. Sabay saglit na tatanggalin at marahas na isasalampak pabalik sa aking bibig.

Wala siyang awa.

Oo, kanina inaamin kong nagustuhan ko yung ginagawa kong pagluhod at pagpapaligaya sa kaniya pero hindi ko gusto ang ginagawa niya sa akin ngayon.

Sobra. Abusado. Mapanakit. Marahas. Nakakatakot. Gago.

Iyan ang mga ilan sa mga salitang makakapagpaliwanag sa kagaguhang ginagawa niya sa akin ngayon.

Fuck! Kanina, halos mabaliw na ako sa ginagawa ko. But what I did is just a fucking mistake. Hindi ko na dapat pa siya sinunod, he’s fucking insane. Matapos kong ibaba yung pride ko para lang luhuran siya, gagaguhin niya lang ako? It took all my will just to kneel in front of him and suck him off, tapos ganito igaganti niya? Binaboy na nga niya ako, tapos bababuyin pa lalo, sinaktan na nga at mas lalo pang sinaktan.

Disgusting. I felt so fucked up. I felt so dirty. I felt so ashamed.

Bumuhos lalo ang luha sa mga mata ko. Sabay na nanlabo ang paningin ko dahil sa luha at dahil na rin sa nararamdaman ko na mawawalan na ako ng malay. Sumikip na din ang dibdib ko dahil sa kawalan ng hangin na pumapasok sa baga ko. Manhid na rin ang mga pisngi ko dahil sa panaka-nakang pagsampal ng kuya ni Akie. Isama mo pa ang sakit na nararamdaman ko sa bandang ulo ko dahil sa matindi niyang pagsabunot.

Fuck.

Bigla kaming nakarinig ng katok mula sa labas ng kwarto ng kuya ni Akie.

C H A P T E R - 006

Ian’s POV

Bigla kaming nakarinig ng katok mula sa labas ng kwarto ng kuya ni Akie.

“Kuya, akin na yung laptop. Kailangan ko na ngayon” Boses ni Akie.

“Fuck” Mahinang mura ng kuya ni Akie. Agad niyang inilabas yung alaga niya mula sa bibig ko kaya naman agad kong nabawi yung kawalan ng hangin sa baga ko.

“Kuya, akin na yung laptop, manonood pa kami ni Ian ng movie. Bilis” Hindi makapaghintay na utos ng bunso sa magkapatid.

“Tangina naman Akie oh, malapit na ako eh” Bulong na mura ng panganay.

“Teka lang” Sigaw ng kuya ni Akie dahil sa frustration at pagkabitin.

“Bilisan mo naman kuya” Atat na tawag ni Akie.

“Oo, putangina, teka” Pabalik na sigaw ng nakakatandang kapatid ni Akie.

Isinuot na muli ng kuya ni Akie ang brief at boxer short nito.

“Hoy, Ian. Hindi pa tayo tapos. Mamaya gusto kong pumunta ka dito sa kwarto ko ah. Kapag hindi ka pumunta alam mo na mangyayari. Umasa ka na maraming makakakita ng litrato niyong dalawa ni Akie. Isa pa, tignan mo..”

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa nakita kong larawan. P-Paano? Hawak niya yung cellphone niya at may litrato ako nito habang nakaluhod ako sa kaniyang harapan, habang pinapaligaya ko siya. Darn this guy. Hindi ko man lang napansin na nakuhanan niya pala ako ng litrato. Paano na’to. Mukhang mas lalo akong masasakal ng isang ’to.

“…kita mo ’yang larawan na yan? Makikita ’to ng lahat kapag nagmatigas ka. Kaya kailangan mo akong sundin sa ayaw man at sa gusto mo. Wala rin dapat makaalam nito, naiintindihan mo ba?”

Hindi ako sumagot.

Hinawakan niya yung panga ko at mahigpit na hinawakan at iniharap niya ako sa kaniya. Kita ko ang pambabanta na naglalaro sa mga itim niyang mata.

“SUMAGOT KA, NAIINTINDIHAN MO BA?” Kontrolado ang sigaw niya para hindi kami marinig ni Akie na nasa labas pa rin at patuloy na tinatawag ang kuya niya.

I nodded in response. Marahas niyang binitawan ang pagkakahawak niya sa aking panga.

“Umayos ka na diyan at punasan mo yang luha mo at baka isipin ni Akie na kung ano na ang ginawa ko sa’yo. H’wag kang maarte, alam kong gusto mo rin naman yung ginawa mo” Mapangaasar niyang turan.

Gago ba siya? Sinong gugustuhin yung gaya ng ginawa niya. Halos mawalan ako ng hininga dahil sa ginawa niya. Such an idiot.

“Kuya, ano ba? Bakit ba kasi kinuha mo pa yung lap—” Napahinto sa kakareklamo si Akie matapos siyang pagbukasan ng pinto ng kuya niya.

Nasa likod lang ako ng kuya ni Akie

“Ian? Bakit nandito ka?” Nagtatakang tanong ni Akie.

“Nagpatulong lang ako sa kaniya. Meron kasi kaming assignment sa algebra at alam kong mahusay si Ian pagdating sa bagay na yon kaya nagpatulong ako” Mahabang paliwanag ng kuya ni Akie na halatang may bahid ng malalim na kahulugan.

“Eh bakit para siyang umiyak?” Patuloy na tanong ni Akie.

“Let’s go, Akie” I meddled between them, baka kasi kung ano pang masabi ng kuya niyang baliw.

“Huh, wait lang yung laptop ’di ko pa  nakukuha”

Agad namang iniabot ng kuya ni Akie yung laptop.

“See you later, Ian” Akie’s brother winked.

“Huh? Anong see you—”

Hindi ko na pinatapos pa si Akie. Hinatak ko na siya dahil gustong gusto ko nang makalayo sa presensiya ng kuya niya.

“Uy, wait lang. Ambilis mo naman maglakad” Reklamo ni Akie.

“Ambagal mo kasi” Sumbat ko sa kaniya.

Huminto siya. Hinarap ko naman siya na nakapamewang.

“Ano ba kasing problema at nagmamadali ka masyado? Para namang may gusto kang takasan” Sabi nito na tila naghihinala na sa mga kinikilos ko.

“Wala. Ambagal mo kasi kumilos” Masungit kong singhal dito.

“Ang sungit naman ni Mr. Sungit” Pangaasar niya.

“Ang sungit naman ni Mr. Sungit” I mimicked. Ginaya ko siya para asarin din siya. Oo na, napipikon na ’ko. Psh.

He bit his lower lip.

I raised my right eyebrow, confused on why is he biting his lower lip.

“Oh, bakit? Ano na naman bang problema mo?”  I rolled my eyes. Ang weird niya. Yung kuya niya baliw, ito namang isang ’to, weird. Ganito ba talaga mga Villaflor? Psh.

“Ang cute mo eh” Namula ako dahil sa sinabi niya.

“A-Ano bang pinagsasabi mo” I stuttered. Iniwas ko yung tingin ko palayo sa mga mata niyang nanunukso.

He leveled his height, parallel with my small frame.

“Ang cute mo kapag napipikon” He whispered.

My face reddened. I looked like a tomato right now.

“S-Shut up” Tumalikod ako para takpan yung pulang pula kong mukha.

Nahigit ko ang aking hininga matapos kong maramdaman ang binubugang hangin ni Akie malapit sa tenga ko.

“You also look sexy wearing my shirt”  He whispered.

My eyes widened and I gasped a little. Agad akong humarap para sana sigawan siya but I stiffened because of our closeness. Our faces is just an inch apart.

He smirked.

Tinulak ko siya para mapaglayo yung mukha ko sa mukha niya. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero I can feel the heat all over my body, especially at my face.

Tinakpan ko yung lower part ko at ibinaba yung hem ng t-shirt ni Akie.

“Pervert” I mumbled quietly.

I glared at him at agad na tinalikuran siya at dumiretso na sa kwarto niya.

C H A P T E R - 007

Ian’s POV

Pagkapasok na pagkapasok ko sa kwarto ni Akie ay agad akong nagpunta sa kama niya at tinakpan ko yung lower part ng katawan ko gamit ang kumot nito since I didn’t wear any shorts.

Maya-maya ay dumating din agad si Akie. Nakangiti na para bang aso. Kumindat siya. Iniwas ko naman agad yung paningin ko sa kaniya. Alam ko kasi na mangaasar na naman siya. Psh. What a Jerk.

“Oh, bakit mo ’yan tinatakpan” Mapangasar niyang tanong.

“Wala kang pake” Sabi ko sa kaniya.

“Sungit” Bulong niya pero rinig ko pa rin naman.

Naghubad naman ng damit si Akie kaya boxer short na lang yung suot nito. Namula naman ako matapos kong makita yung maganda niyang katawan. His well-built chest and biceps, tsaka yung abs niya na medyo visible. His skin color were tanned unlike mine na napaka-pale. Nakaka-insicure tuloy kung ico-compare mo yung katawan niya sa katawan ko.

Yung katawan niya kasi, ang ganda, well-built, muscular yet lean. Ang hot at sexy niya.

Err. Teka, wait. A-Anong sinabi mo, Ian? D-Did you just say thay Akie was h-hot and s-sexy? Argh. No way. H-Hindi.

I dust off my train of thoughts.

“Oh, Ian. Baka matunaw ako niyan” Akie called my attention. He’s teasing me again.

Nagulat ako at agad na nagtalukbong ng kumot. Nakakahiya. Nahuli niya akong nakatingin sa kaniya. He caught me gawking at him! Damn.

I heard him laughing. Argh. Nakakainis ka Akie

“Huy, tara na. Manonood pa tayo ng movie” Tawag niya sa akin.

“Ayoko” I mumbled habang nasa loob pa rin ako ng kumot ni Akie.

“Tara na”

“Ayoko sabi”

“Tara na, Ian”

“Ayoko nga”

I heard him groan.

“Kung hindi ka dyan tatayo, ako mismo magtatayo sa’yo” Akie warned.

Hindi ako sumagot. Ayoko nga kasi manood ng movie, kailangan ko pang ma-plano kung paano ko makukuha yung cellphone ng kuya ni Akie para mabura ko ’yung mga pictures at videos na gagamitin niya pang-black mail.

May naisip na akong plano pero hindi ko sigurado kung magagawa ko ba ’yun ng maayos, mahirap nang mahuli ng kuya ni Akie dahil baka mas mapahamak at mas lumala pa ’yung sitwasyon.

Argh, fuck this.

Nagulat na lang ako ng bigla na lang akong umangat sa ere, binuhat na pala ako ni Akie, dahil sa gulat at takot na baka mahulog ako ay agad akong kumapit sa balikat ni Akie.

“Hoy, ibaba mo ako” Sigaw ko sa lalaking may buhat sa akin. Bwiset na lalaking ’to.

“Okay” Ilalaglag na sana niya ako pero agad akong kumapit ng mahigpit sa balikat niya. Paano ba naman, bibitawan niya yung pagkakabuhat sa akin habang nasa ere pa ako. Syempre mahuhulog ako n’on

Ibinaba na ako ni Akie sa maliit na sofa sa loob ng kwarto niya. Sinabi ng ayoko manood, pinilit pa rin ako.

I pouted. Sino ba siya para utusan ako na manood ng movie kasama siya? Psh. As if naman na gugustuhin kong manuod kasama ’to.

Nakabusangot ako habang patuloy si Akie sa paghahanap ng movie sa laptop niya, huminto siya sa pag-scroll at ni-play yung isa sa mga movies na pinakaayaw ko, IT, isang movie na ang kalaban ay clown. My eyes widened in horror, fear is the dominant reaction that is plastered all over my face.

“Akie, bakit ’yan? H’wag na ’yan” Reklamo ko sa lalaking ’to.

“Huh? Bakit naman?” Tanong niya.

“A-Ano kasi, b-baka kasi pangit yung e-ending” Agad kong palusot. Pero ang totoo, ayaw ko sa palabas na’to dahil takot ako sa clown.

“Hindi mo pa nga napapanood tapos hinuhusgahan mo na agad” Umiiling na sabi ni Akie.

Argh. This rascal.

“A-Ano kasi —” Pinutol ni Akie yung sasabihin ko.

“Natatakot ka ba?” He smirked.

“What? O-Of course not, bakit naman ako matatakot” Matapang kong saad, pilit na tinatago yung takot, baka kasi kapag nalaman ni Akie na takot ako sa clown, pagtripan na naman ako ng isang ’to.

“Yun naman pala eh” Sabi niya habang nakangiti na parang aso.

I rolled my eyes.

Bwiset ka Akie.

Yari ako nito.

Iniabot ni Akie yung isang balot ng junk food sa akin, tig-isa kami. Umupo siya sa may dulo ng sofa habang ako ay sa kabilang dulo, maliit lang naman yung sofa na nasa kwarto niya kaya hindi naman kami ganoon magkalayo.

Gusto ko man lumapit dahil natatakot na talaga ako, kahit na hindi pa nagsisimula yung palabas. Pero naisip ko baka isipin ng mokong na ’to na gusto ko lang makalapit sa kaniya tapos sabihin pa niyang takot ako sa clown. Mamaya kasi i-prank niya ako, marami pa naman akong nakikita sa YouTube na gan’on.

Akie stood up at dumiretso sa switch ng ilaw malapit sa pinto, papatayin na sana niya yung ilaw pero agad ko siyang pinigilan.

“Stop. Don’t turn off the lights”

“Why? Akala ko ba hindi ka natatakot?” Nakangisi pa rin ang gago.

I gritted my teeth in annoyance. Bwiset na ’to,  alam na alam niya kung paano ako iinisin. Argh.

Wala akong nasagot, pinatay na niya yung ilaw at bumalik sa pagkakaupo sa sofa.

Kinonek niya yung laptop sa TV screen para daw mas malaki yung pagpapanooran namin. Bwiset, gusto niya talaga akong takutin eh.

The movie started to play as I started to munch the junk food he had given to me.

C H A P T E R - 008

Ian’s POV

In IT’s rising action, hindi ko alam kung nanood ba ako o pumikit lang eh. Nakakakot naman kasi yung mukha ni Pennywise. Ang creepy.

Malapit ng mag-climax at unti unti na ring nagpapakita si Pennywise sa mga batang bida. What the hell, bata talaga kinalaban niya eh. Dahil sa sobrang takot, hindi ko na naiwasan pang lumapit kay Akie, baka kasi biglang lumabas si Pennywise tapos kainin niya rin ako.

Fuck, I hate having wild imaginations.

I didn’t noticed na nasa tabi na pala ko ni Akie. Tinignan ko siya, nakatingin lang din sa akin ang loko, nakangiti pa. Ayos ah.

Nakarinig ako ng sigaw ng batang babae sa palabas at dahil sa takot at gulat ay ginawa ko yung isa sa mga ginagawa ko kapag nanonood kami nila mama ng horror movies, ang yakapin siya. But since, mama isn’t here, and Akie is the only person na kasama ko sa kwartong ’to, sa kaniya ako yumakap. Isinuksok ko yung sarili ko sa dibdib niya, hindi ko na inalintana na topless siya dahil sobra na talaga akong natatakot dahil sa palabas na pinapanood namin. Kasalanan din naman kasi niya yan eh. Bakit kasi yan pa gusto niyang panoorin.

Nagtagal ng ilang minuto ang ginawa kong pagyakap sa kaniya pero ayaw kong umalis sa pagkakayakap kay Akie. Aside sa natatakot ako, ang sarap kasi sa pakiramdam ng init na dala ng katawan niya. Pakiramdam ko tuloy ay hindi umuulan, ang init kasi ng katawan ni Akie. Ramdam ko rin yung mga muscles niya, his firm chest, and his broad shoulder. Everything about him radiates heat and it gives special warmth para sa akin.

I sighed in contentment.

“Ehem” Akie cleared his throat.

Agad akong napabalikwas at lumayo sa pagkakayakap kay Akie. My eyes were wide after I realized na sobrang tagal ko pa lang nakayakap sa kaniya, mukhang patapos na nga ata yung movie eh.

I turned my gaze afar from him, dahil ayoko na makita niya yung pagkapula ng mukha ko. Hiyang hiya ako.

Ano ba kasing problema mo, Ian? Tanong ko sa sarili ko.

“Mukhang gustong gusto mo akong yakapin ah” Singit na pangaasar ni Akie.

My nose flared in annoyance. Nakuha pa niya talaga akong asarin ah.

“Bakit ko naman gugustuhing yakapin ang isang tulad mo?” Mataray kong sumbat dito.

“Ang higpit higpit nga ng yakap mo” Bulong niya pero rinig na rinig ko pa rin naman.

“K-Kasi naman ikaw, b-bakit kasi yun pa yung paninanood natin?” Galit kong turan at tsaka ako tumayo at dumiretso sa kama niya. Agad akong nahiga at galit na tinitigan si Akie habang inililigpit niya yung mga pinagkainan namin. Iniligpit na rin niya yung laptop niya.

I crossed my arms to show na naiinis ako.

Kasalanan naman talaga niya kung bakit ko nagawang yakapin siya.

Yun pa kasi yung pinanood niya. Tsk.

B-But, he’s right na sobrang tagal at higpit ng yakap ko sa kaniya. I-I actually liked it. The warmth of his body, the comfort, the company, the safety, the assurance, the serenity, and the foreign feeling makes me stay longer at his embrace. Fuck, what’s happening?

Umayos ka nga, Ian.

I shook my head to dust off those compliments sa yakap ni Akie.

“Kunwari pang ayaw akong yakapin” Pagpaparinig ni Akie.

I clenched my fist. Iniinis na naman niya ako. Argh.

“H’wag ka nang mag-alinlangan pa, kung gusto mo akong yakapin, tara na”

“H’wag ka nang mag-alinlangan pa, kung gusto mo akong yakapin, tara na”

“H’wag ka nang mag-alinlangan pa, kung gusto mo akong yakapin, tara na”

Paulit ulit na kanta ng lokong si Akie.

“H’wag ka nang mag-alinlangan pa, kung gusto mo akong yaka ––” Kakanta pa sana siya pero agad akong tumayo at lumapit sa harapan niya.

“Akie, shut up!” Bulyaw ko dito. Alam na nga niyang mabilis akong maasar tapos sige pa rin siya sa pagkanta.

“Oh, bakit?” He loooked down at me innocently. Alam kong pinipigilan niya lang na tumawa.

Sa school kasi, Akie and his friend used to tease me, they always make sure na dapat mapikon ako araw-araw. They always laughed after kong mapikon. Akie is the most annoying person in their group.

“Bakit mo mukha mo.” Tinalikuran ko na siya at umupo na lang sa kama.

Tumawa lang naman ang loko. Nakita ko siya na lalabas dala yung laptop niya at dahil sa naisip ko na maiiwan ako dito mag-isa, at mamaya ay lumabas bigla yung clown na pinanood namin.

“Wait, saan ka pupunta?” I asked.

“D’yan lang po Mr. Sungit” Sagot nito.

“Saan nga?” Iritable kong tanong.

“Bakit? Ayaw mo ba akong umalis kasi gusto mo ulit akong mayakap?” He teased.

“AKIEEE!” Sigaw ko sa binatang ’to. Nakakainis talaga.

He chuckled. “D’yan lang kay kuya baka kasi kailangan niya ’tong laptop tapos magbabanyo, bakit sasama ka?” Sabi niya na may pagkapilyo at akmang lalabas na sa kwarto niya pero agad ko siyang pinigilan.

“Sasama ako.”

He raised his right eyebrow out of confusion.

Kung hindi ko sana napanood yung movie na yon, edi sana hindi naman ako matatakot at sasama sa mokong na ’to.

“Okay.” Akie chuckled at ewan ko pero there’s a glint of excitement akong nakita sa mga mapupungay niyang mga mata.

Then, he smirked.

Oh, no

C H A P T E R - 009

Ian’s POV

“Oh, ito na yung laptop” Sabi ni Akie tsaka sabay na ibinigay yung laptop sa kuya niya.

“Salamat, bro” Akie’s brother thanked him but I could feel his intense stare sa akin. Bakit ba sa akin siya nakatingin?

Naramdaman ko yung pamumula ng mukha ko dahil sa tindi ng pagtingin niya sa akin. Dahil sa hindi ko na kinaya pa yung intensity ng mga titig na binibigay niya, nagtago na lang ako sa likod ni Akie.

Mukhang hindi naman napansin ni Akie yung mga mabibigat na titig ng kuya niya para sa akin. Nagpatuloy silang magusap tungkol sa bagay na hindi ko naman maintindihan. Tungkol ata sa nalalapit na entrance exam ng paaralang pinagaaralan ng kuya niya? Marine Engineering din kasi ang balak na kunin ni Akie bilang kaniyang kurso sa kolehiyo. And since the school of Akie’s borther is the most prestigious school for all the aspiring Marine Engineering students, inaabangan na nito yung pagbubukas para sa mga nais makapagaral sa nasabing paaralan. Gustong-gusto kasi ni Akie na makapasok dito. Nalaman ko ito noong minsa’y tinanong kami sa school kung ano yung mga propesyon na nais naming tahakin sa kolehiyo at kung saan namin nais magpatuloy ng pagaaral.

Medyo tumagal na sila sa paguusap, kaya naiinis na talaga ako. Kanina pa ako nakatayo dito. Tapos hindi pa ako maka-relate sa usapan nila. Naiinis pa naman ako kapag pinaghihintay ako. Nakakainip kasing tumayo at tumunganga lang sa gilid habang yung iba mong kasama anlalim na ng pinaguusapan.

Dahil sa hindi na talaga ako nakapagtimpi sa tagal nila Akie magusap, at mukhang sinasadya niya talagang kausapin yung kuya niya nang ganoon katagal, ginawa ko yung bagay na alam kong makakakuha sa atensyon niya — I intentionally stamped my right foot right into his foot. I heard Akie grunted quietly as he hold his loud groan.

Napatingin siya sa akin, tila nagtatanong kung bakit ko siya tinapakan. Tinitigan ko naman siya na waring sinasabing “ang tagal mo, kanina pa ako dito naghihintay”. Mukhang nakuha naman niya yung nais kong sabihin dahil agad siyang nagpaalam sa kuya niya na mauuna na kami.

He smirked. A mischievous grin has been plastered all over his beautiful features.

Nagsimula akong hatakin ni Akie palayo sa kwarto ng kuya niya, agad siyang dumiretso sa banyo dahil daw may kukunin at gagawin siya dito. Bago ’yun nakita ko pa yung kuya niyang nakangisi habang malagkit na tingin ang ipinupukol sa akin.

Habang naglalakad at hatak niya ako papunta sa banyo, lumabas sa mga bibig niya ang mga salitang nagpakaba sa akin.

“Mukhang hindi ka makapaghintay sa gagawin natin ah?”

Nagtataka akong tumingin sa kaniya at nakita ko ang pilyong ngiti na nakaburda sa kaniyang mga labi.

Patay.

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“A-Akie, a-anong g-g-ginagawa m-mo?” Nangangatog kong tanong matapos niyang isara ang pinto ng banyo at i-lock ito. Nakatayo siya ngayon sa harap ko, nasa likod niya yung pinto, mukhang hinaharangan ako para hindi ako makalabas kung sakaling may gawin siyang hindi maganda.

Nagsimula siyang maghubad ng boxer short niya. My eyes widened in surprise at agad na umakyat yung init sa mukha ko. He’s standing in front of me, almost naked, the only fabric na nagtatago sa malaki niyang alaga ay ang kaniyang Calvin Klein na brief.

Sobra akong namula dahil sa napakagandang imahe na nakatayo sa harap ko ngayon. Akie is a god, I don’t have any doubt about it. He’s so perfect. He’s been made precisely and perfectly. Nakaka-insecure nga dahil ang layo talaga namin sa isa’t-isa. Matangkad siya, maliit lang ako. He’s tanned, I’m pale. He’s mascular, I’m not.

Hindi kami bagay.

Huh?

A-Ano?

A-Ano bang iniisip ko? Of course hindi kami bagay, besides we’re both guy.

P-Pero bakit may kirot sa puso ko nang sabihin ng isip ko na hindi kami bagay?

B-Baka naman may pagasa?

What, wait —–

Argh.

Why am I thinking about this? Why am I being so dumb right now? Nalilito na ako.

“Hoy, Ian. Alam kong masyadong akong perpekto pero h’wag mo namang ipakita na pinagnanasaan mo ako” Akie snapped the hell out of me.

“A-Ah, h-hoy, ang kapal mo, h-hindi kita p-pinagnanasaan ah” Nauutal kong turan kasabay ng pagiwas ko ng tingin sa perpekto niyang pangangatawan.

“Sus, ayaw pang umamin” Patuloy niyang pangaasar.

“Hindi nga sabi, tsaka bakit ka ba nakahubad?” Sigaw ko sa kaniya.

He rolled his eyes. “Half naked” He corrected me.

“G-Ganon na rin ’yon” I retorted.

“Tsk. Maliligo kasi ako”

I raised my eyebrow. Maliligo siya tapos sinama pa niya ako dito?

“Maliligo? Kakaligo mo pa lang kanina ah, tsaka isa pa maliligo ka lang naman pala tapos sinama mo pa ako dito”

“Antaray mo naman, para tuloy kitang nanay” Sabi niya sabay tawa.

I glared at him.

“Tsaka, ’di ba ikaw nagsabi na gusto mong sumama?” Nakangisi nitang tanong.

Tama siya.

“Umuulan na nga tapos maliligo ka pa. Giginawin ka lang?” Iritable kong tanong sa kaniya. Kailangan ko kasi siyang mapilit na h’wag nang maligo para makalabas na kami dito sa banyo.

“Oh, ngayon para naman kitang girlfriend. Sobrang concerned mo ah” He winked.

Namula naman ako dahil sa sinabi niya.

Ian, umayos ka nga! H’wag kang umaarte na parang boyfriend mo siya. Bulyaw ko sa sarili ko.

“A-Ano…..k-kasi, a-ano…”

“Shh, h’wag ka na magpaliwanag, Ian. Alam ko naman na concern ka sa’kin kasi crush mo ako” Pilyo niyang saad.

Aba, ang kapal ng mukha ng isang ’to ah.

I narrowed my eyes.

“Ang. Kapal. Ng. Mukha. Mo” I gritted my teeth.

“Tsk. Ayaw pa umamin” Aba, ang lakas talaga nito mangasar ah.

I clenched my small fist. I looked up at him. Sinalubong ko yung mga mata at yung labi niyang nakangisi. The mischief is visible in his eyes. He’s so transparent in terms of making fun of others.

…at nakakapikon yun, sobra.

I rolled my eyes at dumiretso sa pinto, tinulak ko siya para makadaan ako since nakaharang siya sa daan. Bubuksan ko na sana yung pinto nang bigla kong naramdaman ang mga kamay ni Akie na mahigpit na nakahakawak sa palapulsuhan ko. Hinatak niya ako at naramdaman ko ang pader sa likod ko. I bumped into the wall and it brought minimal pain.

Napangiwi ako dahil sa pagtama ko sa pader at dahil na rin sa mahigpit na pagkakahawak ni Akie sa wrist ko. Inilagay ni Akie yung isang palad ko sa itaas ng ulo ko. I squirmed para makawala sa pagkakahawak ni Akie.

“A-Ano ba, Akie” Reklamo ko, hindi ako makawala sa kahit anong gawin ko. Ang higpit ng pagkakahawak niya. Ginamit ko pa yung isa kong kamay na hindi niya hawak para itulak siya pero pati yun ay hinawakan niya at iniangat sa itaas ng ulo ko.

“Hindi. Ka. Lalabas” Mariin niyang sabi.

“Ano bang problema mo?” Malakas kong tanong dito.

Nasasaktan na ako ah.

“Dito ka lang at susundin mo ako. Hindi. Ka. Pwedeng. Lumabas” He warned.

Ano bang nangyayari kay Akie? B-Bakit siya nagkakaganito? P-Para na siyang kuya niya.

I looked at his eyes, at his threatening eyes. Ibang iba na yung nakikita ko, yung pilyo at palaasar na Akie, ngayon ay tila galit at wala sa sarili.

“Ikaw ang nagsabi na sasama ka sa’kin tapos ngayon iiwan mo ako?” Galit niyang tanong sa akin. Ewan ko pero nakadama ako ng lungkot sa boses niya, tila nasasaktan siya.

“Akie, b-bitawan mo ako” Muli akong nagpumilit na makawala sa pagkakagapos niya pero mas hinigpitan pa niya yung pagkakawahak sa akin.

“Hindi” Mariin niyang turan.

And at that moment, I felt Akie’s lip at my exposed neck. He trailed his lip at my neck. It brought tingling sensations that made me moan.

“A-Akie, ugh..t-t-tama na..ugh”

He bit hard. I could feel his teeth na bumaon sa laman ko. I cried hard.

“Aaaaah, A-Akie. S-Stop” I pushed. But he barely listened. My words aren’t audible enougj for him to hear my complains.

After niyang kumagat sa leeg ko ay agad niya itong hahalikan, didilaan, hahalilan at panaka-naka na namang kakagatin. Hindi ako makalaban dahil sa mahigpit niyang hawak sa mga kamay ko. Isa pa, ramdam ko ang panghihina ng buong katawan ko dahil sa pinapadamang sensayson ni Akie. Ngayon ko lang naramdaman ’to kaya ganito na lamang ang dulot ng ginagawa ni Akie, kakaiba.

Hindi natapos sa iisang kagat ang ginawa niya, gumawa pa siya ng ilang mga hickey sa palibot ng leeg ko, ramdam ko ang pagkirot ng mga nabuong sugat gawa ng pagkagat ni Akie. Fuck.

“Fuck. You’re so good” Bulong ni Akie malapit sa tenga ko.

Nagpintig yung tenga ko at naramdaman ko ang agarang pamumuo ng luha sa gilid ng mga mata ko.

You’re so good.

You’re so good.

You’re so good.

Those words. Those fucking words.

Katulad ng sinabi ng kuya niya.

Ginagamit lang rin ba ako ni Akie para sa pansarili niyang benipisyo gaya ng kuya niya?

Fuck this.

Fuck all of this.

Kasabay ng pagbuhos ng malakas na ulan ay bumuhos muli ang luha sa mga mata ko. Hindi ko na napigilan. Gaya lang siya ng kuya niya. I thought Akie is way more different form his older brother.

“Fuck you, Akie” Mahina kong mura sa kaniya.

Huminto si Akie sa pagkahalik sa leeg ko. Kita ko kahit na nanlalabo na yung mata ko dahil sa luha ang paglaki ng mga mata niya dahil sa nasaksihan niyang pagluha ko. Tila nalilito siya sa kung anong nangyayari, hindi alam kung ano ba yung katarantaduhang nagawa niya.

“Fuck, what I have done?” Akie cussed.

Nabitawan na niya yung mga kamay ko that causes me to slipped down straight to the floor. Patuloy pa rin ako sa pagiyak.

“Fuck. Ian, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. Please —”

Lalapitan pa sana niya ako pero pinilit kong tumayo kahit na sobra na akong nanghihina. Agad akong dumiretso sa pinto at binuksan ito. Pero bago ako lumabas saglit akong lumingon sa kinaroroonan ng taong labis na nagpaluha sa akin.

Nakita ko siyang tila litong-lito at sising-sisi sa ginawa niya. But I was more confused more than him.

“B-B-Bakit?” Mahina kong tanong sa kaniya.

Agad akong lumabas sa banyo at dumiretso na lang sa kwarto niya.

C H A P T E R - 010

Ian’s POV

Kumakain kami ngayon kasama si Tita Samantha. Pagkadating na pagkadating ko kasi sa kwarto ni Akie kanina ay agad din na dumating yung mama niya para alukin kaming kumain. Tatanggi pa sana ako kaso napilit na niya akong lumabas sa kwarto.

Hindi ko na hinintay pa si Akie at nauna na akong bumaba. Napansin pa nga ni tita Samantha yung luha ko eh, buti na lang hindi niya napansin yung mga hickey na gawa ni Akie. Laking pasasalamat ko dahil nakita ko yung kulay itim na jacket ni Akie, sinuot ko yun kahit na sobrang laki sa akin. Nagtaka pa nga si Mrs. Villaflor kung bakit daw ako nakasuot ng jacket tapos naka-hood pa, sinabi ko na lang na giniginaw ako dahil sa masamang panahon pero ang totoo, kailangan ko kasing takpan yung mga sugat na ginawa ni Akie.

“Ian, kamusta na nga pala ang nanay mo?” Tanong ni Mrs. Villaflor, napakalumanay ng boses niya, tila anghel.

“Uhm, she’s fine” Mahina kong tugon.

Ang awkward kasi, ramdam ko yung titig ni Akie ganon na rin yung sa kuya niya.

Marahan akong kumakain dahil hindi ko naman kasi talaga trip kumain ngayon, napilit lang ako ni tita Samantha. Pakiramdam ko nga tatlo o limang subo pa lang yung nagagawa ko.

“Ian” Napatingin ako kay tita Samantha matapos niyang tawagin yung pangalan ko.

“Po?” Mahina kong tanong.

“May problema ba? Hindi mo ba gusto yung niluto ko? May masakit ba sa’yo?” Sunod-sunod na tanong ng mama ni Akie. I smiled, she was like my mom. So caring and loving.

I shook my head. “Wala po. Busog lang po ako” Sabi ko as I smiled at her.

Nagpatuloy kami sa pagkain ng biglang tumunog yung phone ng kuya ni Akie.

Binuksan niya ito at nakita kong napabuntong hininga siya.

“Oh, Kenneth, bakit? Anong problema?” Tanong ni tita Samantha.

So, Kenneth pala ang pangalan ng kuya ni Akie. Funny right? Ngayon ko lang nalaman na yun pala yung pangalan ng mokong na’to pero may nangyari na agad saming hindi maganda.

“Aalis ako ngayon, kailangan daw namin pumunta sa bahay ng kaklase ko sa Batangas, we will stay there for a week. May project daw na pinapagawa si sir eh” Kenneth informed.

Yes! Gusto kong magtatalon dahil sa tuwa. Kung aalis siya ngayon, meaning hindi ko kailangan pumunta mamaya sa kwarto niya.

I sighed in relief. Buti na lang. At least hindi na niya ako maabuso pero alam ko na sa ngayon lang iyon. Kailangan ko pa rin gumawa ng paraan para makuha yung phone niya at mabura yung pictures at videos ko. Ibig sabihin, hawak pa rin ako ni Kenneth sa leeg. Kailangan ko pa rin siyang sundin.

“Ganon ba, oh sige, bilisan mo na d’yan at magasikaso ka na” Bilin ni tita Samantha.

“Sige, ma” Biglang tumayo si Kenneth at dumiretso na sa taas ng bahay. Mukhang kailangan na niyang maghanda sa pagalis nila.

Naiwan kaming tatlo sa hapagkainan. Walang umiimik at gustong magsalita. Lahat kami ay patuloy lang sa pagkain.

“Ian, bakit ka nga pala umiyak kanina? Noong umakyat ako kanina bakas sa mga mata mo yung luha” Nagaalalang tanong ng mama ni Akie.

Saglit akong sumulyap kay Akie, nakita ko siyang nakayuko at tutok na tutok sa pagkain niya.

I sighed. “Wala po yun, natakot lang po kasi ako sa napanood kong pelikula” Nahihiya kong sagot, ayaw ko naman kasing sabihin yung nangyari sa pagitan namin ni Akie, mas nakakahiya yun.

“Dapat hindi ka nanonood ng mga horror movies. Alam mo kasi…..” Bla bla bla. Tita Samantha continued to blabber pero wala na akong naintindihan. Wala ako sa gana para makinig sa mga gusto niyang sabihin. Gusto ko lang mahiga at magpahinga. Gusto ko na lang umuwe at humilata sa kwarto ko. Pero dahil nga sa bagyo, kinakailangan kong manatili sa bahay na’to.

“Ian?” Tawag sa akin ng mama ni Akie.

Tinignan ko lang siya, hindi ako nagsalita.

“Mukhang hindi maganda yung nararamdaman mo, mauna ka na kaya sa kwarto ni Akie para makapagpahinga ka?” Alalang suwestiyon ni tita Samantha.

“Akie, samahan mo na siya” Dagdag na utos ni tita Samantha.

Tinignan ko si Akie, nakatingin lang din siya sa akin, nagtama yung mga mata namin, kita ko sa mga mata niya yung pagsisisi, nagsisisi ba siya dahil sa ginawa niya sa akin kanina? Tsk. Baka naman nagsisisi siya dahil punong puno na ng kahihiyan yung kalooban niya dahil sa kagaguhan niyang ginawa.

Siya yung unang nag-iwas ng tingin, tama ako, nahihiya siya. Hindi siya nagsisisi, kahihiyan lang yung nararamdaman niya. Repentance is way more different from shame. Being ashamed for what you did is just showing how pathetic you are, you are just afraid of the possible things that others might think about you that’s why you are being sorry . But repentance is how you show how sorry you are. While repentance’s backbone is the the modest virtue, honesty. Shame’s backbone is just a prideful sin enveloped by a mask called, “sorry”. Those two aren’t twin, they were an opposition of each other.

Nauna na akong tumayo pero dahil nga medyo nanghihina ako, muntik na akong matumba sa kinatatayuan ko. Nakita ko pa si Akie na tumayo nang bahagya upang alalayan ako pero agad akong tumayo at ibinalanse ang pagkakatayo. Naglakad na ako papunta sa hagdan pero napaluhod ako, nanghihina ako. Sobra akong nanghihina.

Medyo nanlalabo na yung paningin ko dahil na rin siguro sa pagod at sa wala pa masyadong laman ang aking tiyan. Hindi kasi ako nakakain ng maayos.

Naramdaman ko na lang na bigla akong tumaas sa ere, may bumuhat sa akin, si Akie.

Binuhat niya ako na para kaming bagong kasal. Namula pa nga ako dahil sa posisyon namin dalawa at mas lalo akong namula matapos kong maisip na kaya ako buhat ni Akie gaya nito ay dahil pupunta kami sa room namin sa hotel para makapag-honey moon, yun kasi yung ginagawa ng dalawang tao pagkatapos nilang ikasal.

I dust off all the nonsense thoughts na lumulukob sa pagiisip ko.

Mag-isip ka nga nang

matino

, Ian.

“Ang cute niyo tignan, para kayong couple na katatapos lamang ikasal” Akie’s mom squeled. 

“MOM!” Akie exclaimed. Teka, namamalikmata lang ba ako o nag-blush talaga si Akie?

“Oh, Akie. I’m just fooling…” His mom teased.

“…tsaka isa pa, Ian look like a girl, kaya ’di niyo ako masisisi kung tatawagin ko kayong couple” Sabi ni tita Samantha na tila hindi big deal na perehas kaming lalaki ng anak niya.

This time, ako naman yung namula. What the hell, tita Samantha? What kind of observation is that?

“Sige na nga, umakyat na kayo para makapagpahinga” Utos ng mama ni Akie.

“Pwede mo na akong ibaba, Akie” Mahina kong bulong sa lalaking may buhat sa akin.

“No, hindi mo kaya maglakad, nanghihina ka” He said sternly.

Wala na akong nagawa, hinayaan ko na lang siyang dalhin ako sa kwarto niya, tutal tama naman siya, ramdam ko kasi yung pagod at panghihina ng tuhod ko kaya mahihirapan akong maglakad lalo na at sa hagdan pa kami dadaan.

Habang naglalakad kami paakyat sa kwarto niya, naramdaman ko yung pagbigat ng mga talukap ng mata ko, indicating that I am about to sleep. Pero bago ako tuluyang hatakin ng antok, narinig ko ang mga salitang gustong gusto king marinig mula kay Akie.

“

Sorry“ He whispered.

Then, hypnos uses his magical power for me to drift into a deep slumber.

C H A P T E R - 011

Akie’s POV

Buhat buhat ko ngayon si Ian sa mga bisig ko. Fuck, how I waited for this moment. How I fuckin’ crave for us to have something like this. Tangina, I can’t contain my happiness right now. Si Ian Salvador, si Mr. Sungit, ang pinakamatalinong tao na nakilala ko ay nasa mga bisig ko na ngayon, buhat ko at mapayapang natutulog. Pinagmasdan ko ang pagtaas at pagbaba ng dibdib ni Ian, napakapayapa. I looked at his small innocent face, at his large doe eyes na ngayon ay nakapikit, at his small nose, and at his soft pink lip. Oh, Ian, kung alam mo lang kung gaano ko kagustong halikan ang maliit at mapula mong mga labi.

Fuck. I should restrain my emotions and desires. Hindi ako dapat nagpapadala sa emosyon ko, hindi na dapat pang mangyari yung nangyari sa amin kanina sa banyo.

I blamed my self for being an idiot and moron for that scenario, hindi niyo ako masisisi, nadala lang ako sa emosyon ko. Magso-sorry na lang ako sa kaniya mamaya. I’ll explain everything kapag nagising na siya. Sana mapatawad niya ako.

Ibinaba ko si Ian nang dahan-dahan sa kama ko. Tinanggal ko yung medyas niya. Napansin ko na suot suot niya yung jacket ko. Fuck, this made me happy. Ian, wearing my shirt and now, my jacket. Pakiramdam ko tuloy akin na siya. Pakiramdam ko pagmamayari ko na siya. Did he do this in purpose?

Hindi ko mapigilang mapangiti. This must be one of the happiest day of my life. The moment na sinabi ni kuya na dito siya matutulog at magi-stay, tuwang tuwa talaga ako.

I heard him grumble and moan. Fuck. That was sexy.

Gumalaw siya ng bahagya. Mukhang hindi siya mapakali sa pagkakahiga.

“Mmmm” He grumbled.

“A-Akie…” Tawag niya sa pangalan ko. T-Teka, ako? Binanggit niya ba yung pangalan ko habang natutulog siya. Couldn’t be napapanaginipan niya ako o iniisip niya ako habang tulog siya?

Fucking shit. I should’ve recorded it.

Fuck, Ian. You’ll be the death of me.

Hindi mawala wala yung ngiti na nakapinta sa labi ko. Sinumulan kong hubarin yung jacket ko na suot ni Ian. I saw the hickies I’ve made. Sobrang pula ng leeg ni Ian, andaming marka ng ngipin ko. Somehow, natutuwa ako dahil nagawa ko ito kay Ian, meaning, I’ve been able to sealed him as mine. Alam ko na ako pa lang ang nakaunang magmarka sa kaniya sa parte niyang iyon. Pero, hindi ko rin maiwasang mahiya sa sarili ko dahil ginawa ko yung bagay na ’yon ng walang pahintulot. I just did it without his approval. Nadala lang naman kasi ako.

Patuloy kong hinubad yung jacket ni Ian. Hanggang sa tuluyan ko na itong natanggal. I looked at him. He’s like a sleeping princess that is in disguise as a guy. So innocent, vulnerable, peaceful and harmless. Ang layo ng itsura niya ngayon kapag gising siya. Whenever he’s awake he’s like a roaring lion, an impatient bull, and an harmful snake. Mabilis kasi siyang mapikon at maasar. Madalas ka rin niyang bubulyawan at susungitan. But whenever he’s asleep, he’s like a cub, a pup, a kitten. He’s cute whenever he’s asleep. But I admit, mas cute si Ian kapag napipikon siya. That’s why I use to tease him.

Pinagmasdan ko ang payapa niyang pagtulog. Inilibot ko ang mata ko sa katawan niya, masasabi kong maliit talaga si Ian, doble ako ng laki niya, hindi rin naman siya payat pero kailangan niyang kumain, mukha kasing hindi siya mahilig kumain. Just like kanina sa dinner, hindi siya kumain ng madami, halos sampung subo lang ata yung nagawa niya. And his skin, it’s so pale, nasisinagan ba siya ng araw? It’s so soft too, and flawless.

Fuck. Akie, restrain yourself. Kaya mo yan, pigilan mo yung sarili mo.

Umangat yung tingin ko sa mukha ni Ian, pinagmasadan ko yung maliiy niyang mukha. Napadako ako sa labi niyang bahagyang nakabukas. Fuck, here we go again.

I closed my eyes for a minute to hold my self from doing the latter thing na gugustuhin kong gawin without Ian’s permission. I inhaled and exhaled. I should keep my walls, ayokong makitang umiiyak si Ian. And doing the thing na naiisip ko right know could make Ian freak out and cry. But, my body doesn’t want to cooperate. It wants the best out of me. Gusto nitong gawin yung bagay na matagal at gustong gusto ko na rin talagang maranasan…..

…….ang mahalikan si Ian.

I opened my eyes at nakita ko ang maamo niyang mukha na nagtatakang nakatitig sa akin. Gising na pala siya. Tinitigan ko ang mga mapupungay niyang mata na halatang inaantok pa. He blinked twice then he rubbed his eyes with the use of his fists.

He’s like a child. I smiled because of his actions. I eventually smirked because there’s a mischievous thought that flashes in my mind.

Yes, Ian is a child — a baby. Because he’s my baby.

I grinned at that thought. Ian, as my baby, what a fucking idea.

Ian, cuddling after we make love. Fuck. I should lessen thinking about us making those dirty things.

But, I couldn’t think less of those things.

Yeah, I think I’ve fallen in love with this cute little devil.

Fucking shit.

Triple redundancy shit.

I’m so happy and I don’t know why.

Ian made me the happiest man alive.

Kahit na wala pa siyang ginagawa, makita ko lang siya, sobra na niya akong napapasaya.

I know, ang corny ko. But once you’ve fallen in love, you will be the craziest man you’ll ever know. You’ll be the dumbest one. The most exaggerated person alive. Those adjectives will describe you once you find your self drooling into someone.

“Para kang baliw” Ian snapped the hell out of me.

Oo, baliw sa’yo.

“Huh?” Taka kong tanong.

“Sabi ko, para kang baliw kung makangiti.” Mataray niyang turan.

I grinned.

“Anong nginingisi-ngisi mo d’yan.” He glared.

“Wala” I chuckled.

“Psh” He rolled his eyes. Tsaka tumingin sa may bintana. Mukhang pinagmamasdan ang pagbuhos ng ulan.

Hindi na siya nagsalita pa.

Umupo ako sa kama. Bigla kong naalala yung nangyari sa amin sa banyo.

M-Mali.

Yung kagaguhan palang ginawa ko kanina.

“Ian” Tawag ko sa lalaking napaluha ko kanina.

Lumingon siya sa kinaroroonan ko. Kita ko sa mga mata niya yung lungkot. Siguro inaalala niya rin yung tungkol kanina. Alam ko na sa aming dalawa, si Ian yung mas naapektuhan ng sobra.

“Uhm, about sa nangyari sa CR, gusto ko sanang humingi ng sor––” Ian cut me off.

“Why?” Malungkot niyang turan. Napayuko pa siya, umiiyak ba siya?

“I-Ian….” I lifted up his face at tama ako, umiiyak nga siya.

“W-Why d-did you do that?” Garalgal na tanong ni Ian. I could feel the heaviness of his pain.

“It’s because I’m afraid someone will leave me again after they promised that they will stay” I said straightforward. I looked at his eyes, he look surprised.

He doesn’t reacted. He stayed still, listening.

Ikinuwento ko lahat lahat ng nangyari kung bakit ganon na lamang yung naging reaksyon ko noong lalabas sana siya sa banyo. Nai-kwento ko ang tungkol sa pangiiwan na ginawa ng tatay ko sa amin noong mga bata pa lamang kami. Nabanggit ko kung paanong nangako si daddy kay mommy na mananatili siya sa piling namin at sasamahan kami sa lahat ng oras.

“I thought he mean it” I dramatically said.

“Kaya ganon na lang yung naging reaksyon ko kanina nung binalak mo akong iwanan matapos mong sabihin na sasamahan mo ako” Malungkot kong pagpapatuloy.

Tinignan ko si Ian, mukhang nakuha naman niya yung nais kong iparating.

Yeah. I know what happened between I and Ian is a bit far for what happened ten years ago. Pero once the unbearable wound becomes scar, it will mark. It will mark not just physically but emotionally and mentally as well. Human memories scars too.

I was lost from my train of thoughts after I heard small sniffs which came from Ian. He’s crying again.

god, he’s such a crying baby.

“Why are you crying?” I frantically asked.

“S-S-Sorry….”

Huh? Bakit naman siya nagsosorry?

“I didn’t know” He lowered his head.

Huh?

Oh, no.

“No, Ian. You don’t need to be sorry for what I’ve done. It’s all my fault not yours” Agad kong saad sa iyaking nasa harapan ko.

He’s such a good heart. Kahit na siya yung nasaktan, siya pa rin yung nagsorry.

Naramdaman ko na lang na may yumakap sa akin.

Fuck, Ian is hugging me.

“It’s okay” He comforted.

Damn, it fucking feels good. Kanina noong nanood kami ng pelikula, sinadya ko talaga na horror movie ang panoorin dahil alam ko na matatakutin si Ian. At tama nga yung mga hula ko, na yayakapin niya ako. At hindi naman ako nagkamali, dahil ginawa niya nga.

But his embrace is way more different from now. I could feel the comfort. The warmth and pleasure, I could feel all of those.

Fuck. I wish I could stop time right now. I don’t want to skip this moment. I wanted to cherish this and I wish it could last even more.

“A-Akie” Nahihirapang tawag sa akin ni Ian.

“Ow” Hindi ko napansin na napatagal at napahigpit na pala yung pagkakayakap ko kay Ian.

Humiwalay na ako sa pagkakayakap ko kay Ian.

“Sorry” Inosente kong paghingi ng tawad. But, deep inside my mind, ayokong humingi ng tawad, gusto ko pa kasing tumagal at mas higpitan pa yung pagkakayakap sa kaniya.

Nagkaroon ng panandaliang awkwardness sa pagitan namin ni Ian.

“Uhm, Akie. W-Why d-did y-you do this” Tanong ni Ian.

Nagtataka naman akong tumingin sa kaniya. Nakita ko siyang nakaturo sa leeg niya. Natatawa akong pinagmasdan ang mukha niya. Sobra siyang namumula. I wanted to laugh hard pero baka isipin niyang iniinsulto ko siya.

“W-Why did you make h-h-h….ehem”

Pfft. He couldn’t build his sentence.

“….h-hickies” Napayuko siya dahil sa sobrang kahihiyan.

I shrugged.

“I couldn’t control my self” I teasingly said.

I saw his eyes widened in shock. Gusto ko na talagang humalakhak sa kakatawa. But I hold my laughter. I should compose my self. Focus, Akie. Focus.

“W-What do you mean?” He asked with full of bewilderment.

I didn’t say anything, I just leant forward at nilapit ang mukha ko sa mukha niya. Napapikit nang mariin si Ian.

Our face is just an inch apart. We almost kissed.

I smirked.

Then, I kissed him.

C H A P T E R - 012

Ian’s POV

He’s kissing me!?

A-Akie is kissing me!?

AKIE IS KISSING ME!?

Tinulak ko siya pero agad hinawakan ng isa niyang kamay yung likod ng ulo ko at yung isa naman ay pinigilan yung mga kamay ko na patuloy na tumutulak sa kaniya.

He continued to kiss me, slowly and tenderly. B-Bakit ako hinahalikan ni Akie? What’s this? Uulitin na naman ba niya yung nangyari kanina?

Nagpumilit akong humiwalay sa pagkakahalik niya pero mas hinigpitan pa niya yung pagkakahawak niya sa ulo ko. He’s taking advantage of me again, b-but, but the way he kissed me, it was full of care, tender and love. Am I imagining? Am I hallucinating? Am I daydreaming?  Oh my fucking shit, is this for real?

He bit my lower lip kaya napaungol ako. It also gives way for him to enter my mouth with his tongue. He invaded the foreign part of my body. No one dares to kiss me, and no one ever dared to kiss me torridly.

Patuloy pa rin ako sa pagpalag na humiwalay sa pagkakahalik niya.

“MmmMm” I tried. But my works were futile. It barely budge him.

What the hell is wrong with this guy? Kanina kakahingi niya pa lang ng sorry tapos gagawa na naman siya ng bagay na ikakagalit ko!?

He continued to kiss me, sinasabi ng utak ko na Akie is taking sexual advantage of me, but my heart, my fucking heart. It tells that, Akie just wanted to open the door of my heart, he just wanted to penetrate and invade something that is within me, and I fucking hate my self for loving every single seconds of him, invading  that unidentified ‘thing’ that is within me. I fucking hate the fact na miski ako ay hindi alam kung ano ba yung bagay na yun.

Argh, ang gulo! Sobrang gulo. For pete’s sake, bakit ba ’to ginagawa ni Akie!? Ano bang gusto niyang iparating?

Nakakainis, bakit ba siya gan’to? Ano na naman bang kagaguhan ’to? He really love to make fun of me, didn’t he?

Dahil sa hindi ko magalaw yung kamay ko para pigilin siya sa ginagawa niyang paghalik sa akin, I used some counterattack. Kinagat ko na lang din yung labi niya, but I bit his lip hard. Huh! Hindi ako magpapatalo.

I startled him, hindi niya siguro naisip na gagawin ko yun. Napaatras siya at nabitawan yung pagkakahawak niya sa likod ng ulo ko. That’s the time na nakawala ako sa kaniya. Agad akong lumayo sa kaniya.

“What the hell is wrong with you?” Singhal ng mokong.

Aba, ako pa ngayon yung may mali?

“That question is all yours. What the fucking hell is wrong with you? B-Bakit mo ako h-hinalikan?” Galit at naguguluhan kong tanong.

“A-Are you, a-are you…..m-making f-fun of me?” I was now secluded with confusion and anger.

Kung trip niya lang lahat ng ito, humanda siya sa akin. Hindi ko palalampasin yung kalokohan niyang ’to. Aba, anong tingin niya, pwede niya akong pagtripan dahil gusto niya lang.

“No, of course not. You’re asking me —”

“Cut the crap, Akie. Ano na naman ba ’to? Tingin mo ba pwede mo akong halikan ng ganon ganon na lang dahil sa gusto mo? Akala mo ba hin—”

“I like you”

Napahinto ako sa kakasalita at nanlaki ang mga mata ko matapos kong marinig ang mga bagay na hindi ko inaasahang lalabas sa bibig ni Akie. Namula ako dahil sa pagkabigla at kahihiyan. Totoo ba yung sinasabi niya?

I waited for him to burst into laughter pero hindi yun dumating. Meaning, he isn’t joking. He’s not making fun of me.

Tumingin ako sa lalaking gumugulo sa pagiisip, emosyon at buhay ko ngayon. Nakatitig lang din siya sa aking mga mata.

Looking at his eyes brings me into a frenzy. I don’t know but the looks he’s giving shows honesty and sincerity. Seems like his eyes casts magic spell.

“You wanted to know why am I doing all of these?….” I stayed still, waiting.

“It’s because I like you….” Hinawakan niya yung pisngi ko at inilapit yung mukha niya sa mukha ko.

“……I like you, Ian Salvador” Dugtong niya.

Sobra na akong namumula. I looked at him at nakita ko na nakangisi ang mokong, mukhang tuwang tuwa dahil sa nakikita niyang nahihiya ako.

I gulped. I blinked once, twice, then thrice.

“W-What?” Nauutal kong saad.

“Tsk. Manhid ka ba o sadyang tanga ka lang?” Naiinis niyang turan.

“You mean, you…I…we…you––” Hindi ko mabuo yung gusto kong sabibin.

I heard him groan. “For god’s sake, Ian. Yes, I like you” He looked at me with a pissed look. Mukhang naiinis na siya.

“B-But, h-how? We’re both guy and––” Pinutol na naman niya yung gusto kong sabihin.

“Does it matter? Tingin mo ba na porket lalaki ka at lalaki ako, hindi na pwedeng magmahalan? Hindi ba ako pwedeng mahulog sa taong kapareha ko ang sekswalidad? Love only requires one thing, and that is love. Because love means everything. That’s why love is love. Alam ko na magulo, pero, Ian, falling inlove with someone is simply loving who they are. Hindi mahalaga kung babae ka o lalaki ka, ang mahalaga ay ang minahal ka dahil mahal ka niya” Akie expressed.

I looked straight at him. He’s smiling. A genuine and sweet smile were plastered along his beautiful face.

Wow! Is it really Akie who’s speaking? Ibang-iba, parang hindi siya yung Akie na kilala ko. Parang hindi siya yung Akie na barumbado, loko-loko, mokong, baliw, at bully. The Akie that is right in front of me was full of wisdom. I finally saw the sweet side of Akie, the gentle side of him.

I finally got the chance to open and understand the unreadable page of him.

Is it true? Totoo ba ’tong mga narinig ko kay Akie? Fucking hell. B-Bakit ganon na lang yung tibok ng puso ko? Kinikilig ba ako? Natutuwa? Or better to ask kung nababaliw na ba ako?

“Now, do you believe in me?” Tanong niya habang nakangiti.

Those smile and his sparkling eyes.

Fuck. What happened? Akie suddenly became the most handsome guy sa paningin ko. What’s this? What kind of magic is this?

“P-Pero b-bakit ako?” Tanong ko. Kailangan kong malaman. Naguguluhan pa rin ako.

“I don’t know, but the only thing I knew is that I love you and that, you means everything to me. Ian, you are next to none. Kakaiba ka sa lahat. You glows differently. You made me smile, you made me laugh, you made me crave, you made me jealous….and you made me complete. That’s why I choose you, Ian Salvador” Seryoso niyang pagpapaliwanag.

Oh my fucking gosh .

Mukhang nababaliw na si Akie, kung ano-ano na naman naiisip nito.

But the way he spoke, it radiates truth.

I can see his transparency. But, I still doubt everything na sinabi niya. H-Hindi ko lang makuhang magtiwala.

Ano bang problema mo, Ian!?

Argh. Nakakainis. Sobrang nakakainis.

“Alam ko na nalilito ka pa at hindi ka pa handa, Ian. But I am willing to wait. Besides, you are worth the wait” He charmingly said.

My heart beat skipped for a moment.

Fuck. Naguguluhan na nga ako sa kung anong gagawin ko sa kuya ni Akie tapos sumama pa ’tong isang ’to.

I’m screwed.

C H A P T E R - 013

Ian’s POV

“Get the hell off me, Akie. Ano ba!?” I groaned dahil sa ayaw tanggalin ni Akie yung kamay niya na nakayakap sa bewang ko.

“Ayoko, gusto kitang kayakap. Please” Sabi niya na tila bata.

I groaned.

“Akie! I said get off” Bulyaw ko sa kaniya.

Agad naman siyang humiwalay na nakabusangot. Mukha siyang napikon. He rolled his eyes. “Tsk. Kunwari ka pa, alam ko naman na gusto mo talaga akong makayakap” He boasted.

Ang kapal naman talaga ng mukha ng isang ’to. Napaka-hambog.

“Ang yabang mo” Masungit kong saad.

Tumalikod ako nang pagkakahiga dahil sa ayokong makita niya na namumula ako. Whether I admit it or not, Akie’s embrace is the most comforting of all. Well, si mama, papa, tsaka si kuya lang naman ang madalas na yumayakap sa akin and their embrace gives warmth, but Akie’s is way more comforting. Ewan ko kung bakit. There is something in his embrace, and I loved it.

Pero ayokong malaman niya yun, baka kasi kung ano na naman ang sabihin niya. Mamaya mas lamaki pa yung ego na taglay niya.

Matutulog na sana ako pero narinig kong tinawag ako ni Akie.

“Ian” He called quietly, as if it was a whisper.

Hindi ako lumingon, nagpanggap akong natutulog. I heard him sigh.

“Alam ko na nagulat ka dahil sa pag-amin ko sa’yo. But, I mean it. Hindi ako nagbibiro, hindi kita pinagtitripan. Noong sinabi kong I like you, nagsabi ako ng totoo. I really, really like you, Ian…” Huminto siya na tila hinihintay kung ano man ang magiging sagot o reaksyon ko sa sinabi niya. But I stayed still. Nagkunwari pa rin akong natutulog.

“… Pero, alam ko na hindi ka pa handa, at alam ko na naguguluhan ka pa, but I am willing to wait” Yinakap niya ako.

“I will wait for you, Ian” Bulong niya sa akin.

I heard the bed squeaked. Naramdaman ko na hinawakan ni Akie yung pisngi ko, akala ko hahalikan na naman niya ako sa labi but what surprised me is that, he kissed me in the crown of my head.

“Sleepwell” He says at naramdaman ko na lang na bumigat yung kama, bumalik na siguro siya sa pagkakahiga.

I waited for at least five minutes bago ko narinig ang mahihinang hilik ni Akie. Nang nakasiguro na akong natutulog na si Akie ay bumangon ako at humarap sa kaniya. Pinagmasdan ko yung marahang pagtaas at pagbaba ng dibdib niya. Dumako ang tingin ko sa mukha niya, mula sa makapal niyang kilay, sa mga singkit niyang mata, sa matangos niyang ilong, sa kaniyang sharp jawline at sa kaniyang mapula at makapal na labi. It all shows how manly Akie is, t-tapos sasabihin niyang g-gusto niya ako?

I sighed. Akie is such a bold and brave guy. He confessed his feeling boldly.

Walang takot.

Walang kaba.

Walang hesitation.

Ganon siya katapang.

Pero ako? Mukhang duwag ako. H-Hindi ko alam kung magagawa ko bang suklian ’yung lahat ng sinabi ni Akie. Pero hindi niyo ako masisisi, paano pala kung katulad lang siya ng kuya niya? Paano kung gusto lang rin naman pala ako ni Akie dahil sa pansarili niyang benepisyo. What if, it is just lust and not love.

Argh!

He will wait, but the pressure is on me. Kaya ko bang mapantayan at maibalik yung feelings na ipinapadama ni Akie para sa akin? Kaya ko rin bang maging matapang?

“Kaya mo ba, Ian?” Bulong ko sa sarili ko.

“ Of course, you can “ Bulong sa akin ng puso ko.

Siguro nga kaya ko naman, wala namang masama kung pagbibigyan ko si Akie. Besides, mukha naman siyang nagsasabi ng totoo. Sana lang talaga nagsasabi siya ng totoo. Dahil kung hindi, humanda siya akin.

Pero ang isa pa sa kinakatakot ko ay kung ano na lang ang pwedeng sabihin ng tao sa amin. Society is a mess. They will judge you for being who you are, but they wanted you to be you. Parang mga gago lang eh.

Yeah, before I knew I were straight but ngayon, ewan ko. Nalilito na ako. Sobra na akong nalilito.

Bwiset ka, Akie. Ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit ako nagkakaganito eh.

Argh! Fucking shit!

Tapos ’yung kuya niya pa, isa pa ’yung mokong na ’yon. Paano ko kaya makukuha ’yung cellphone niya. Kailangan kong mabura yung mga pictures at videos dahil baka kung ano na naman yung ipag-utos at ipagawa sa akin ng isang ’yun.

Bakit ba kasi ako napasok sa ganitong klaseng sitwasyon?

Kasalanan ’to ng bagyo eh, kung hindi lang sana bumagyo ngayon, edi sana nakauwe ako. Edi sana doon ako natutulog sa sarili kong kama at malayo sa lalaking na sa tabi ko na ngayon ay gumugulo sa pag-iisip ko. Hindi sana ako nakuhanan ng video at litrato ng walang hiya niyang kuya. Sana, hindi ako nalilito at naguguluhan.

Marami akong sana!

Bwiset!

Fuck you, fate. You’re such a manipulative dumbass. Bakit ba sa akin pa? Bakit ba ako pa ang napagtripan ng tadhana? Masyado ba akong makasalanan sa dati kong buhay?

“Fuck this” Hinilamos ko ang mga palad ko sa mukha ko.

Wala na akong magagawa. Everything happens for a reason. Tsaka isa pa, it’s a risk if I will opposed fate, I will end up losing. Ang hawak ko lang ngayon ay ang desisyon ko.

Shall I give Akie the chance, or will I remain the coward that I used to be?

Your decision in a current dilemma will be your ticket in your future. It’s a spectrum between good or bad. It is all in your hands…

… And now, I finally made my decision and I just hope na tama yung magiging desisyon ko.

Sana …

… Sana tama ka, Ian.

…

Kinaumagahan, naramdaman ko na lang na may mabigat na bagay na nakapatong sa katawan ko.

Unti-unti kong iminulat ang mga nakapikit kong mata. Nasilayan ko yung kamay at binti ni Akie na nakayakap sa akin.

Ayos ah, ginawa pa akong unan ng mokong.

Dahan dahan kong tinanggal ang kamay at binti niyang nakapulupot sa katawan ko. I carefully moved out of the bed para hindi ko magising si Akie.

Nang makatayo ako nang maayos at akmang pupunta na sa may pintuan para sana lumabas at makapaghilamos ay nakaramdam ako ng kamay na humawak sa aking palapulsuhan.

“Ahhh” Napasigaw ako matapos akong hatakin ni Akie papunta sa kaniya kaya ang ending, I ended up sprawled at the top of his body. Habang siya’y nakahiga, ako naman ay nakapatong sa kaniya.

I looked at him at nakita ko na nakangisi ang loko. Mukha siyang timang.

I raised my brow and rolled my eye.

Tatayo na sana ako pero agad niya akong niyakap kaya wala akong nagawa nang magdikit ang maliit kong katawan sa matikas at malaki niyang katawan.

“Good morning, Mr. Sungit” He whispered.

Namula naman ako dahil sa sobrang closeness ng katawan namin sa isa’t isa. I could feel all his muscles, especially at his chest part. I could also feel the heartbeat of his heart.

“G-Good m-m-morning d-din” Nauutal kong saad.

“Ang baho naman ng hininga mo” He commented.

My eyes widened and my nose flared in annoyance. I slapped his chest at agad na tumayo at dumiretso sa pintuan. Binuksan ko ang pinto pero bago ako lumabas, tinitigan ko siya nang masama. Nakita ko naman na nakangiti lang ang mokong. Mukhang tuwang-tuwa dahil sa napikon na naman niya ako.

“Jerk”

With that, umalis na ako at dumiretso sa banyo para gawin ang aking early routine.

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“Aalis ka na ba ngayong umaga?” Tanong ni tita Samantha.

Nandito kami ngayon sa hapagkainan at nagaalmusal. Masiyadong galante ang pamilya Villaflor. Maraming niluto si tita Samantha, may scrambled egg, hotdog, bacon, soup, toasted bread, at hot choco, sobrang dami. Iba talaga ’pag mayaman.

“Opo” I nodded as a response on her question. “Kuya will be here at 10 para po sunduin ako”

“Ganon ba? Sayang naman, gusto sana kitang isama sa gardern shop ko” Tita Samantha said.

My eyes sparkled. I love gardening. Ewan ko, but watching something grow excites me. Ang sarap lang siguro makita na nakikita mong lumago ang isang bagay sa pamamagitan ng pagaalaga at pagpapalaki dito.

“So, gusto mo bang sumama?” Tanong ni Tita Samantha.

“Gusto ko po sana, kaso po marami pa po akong gagawin. I’ll come next time around” I responded.

She smiled brightly. “Okay. Aasahan ko yan ah” She winked.

I blushed. She chuckled at my reaction.

“Ang cute mo talaga, Ian” Sabi niya.

“Yeah” Sabat naman ni Akie.

Sabay kami ni tita Samantha na napalingon sa direksyon niya.

Again, I blushed. Nakita ko naman si tita na naniningkit ang mga mata na nakatingin kay Akie, mukhang nanghihinala.

“Why? Sumangayon lang naman ako ah” He shrugged.

I just continue eating para mawala yung tension tsaka awkwardness sa pagitan naming tatlo.

“Sabagay” Tita Samantha sang.

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“Bye, Tita Samantha” I bid my goodbye at her. I smiled as she smile at me, too.

“Bye, cute Ian” She squealed.

I blushed at the nickname.

“Hatid ko lang po si Ian, mom” Paalam ni Akie sa mama niya.

“Go ahead” Tita Samantha replied as she go straight to the kitchen.

“Let’s go, Ian” Akie called.

Naglakad kami hanggang sa makalabas kami sa gate nila. Nadatnan namin si kuya na nagaantay sa labas ng gate nila Akie sakay sa motorsiklyo niya.

“Oh, Akie” Pagkamusta ni kuya sa lalaking na sa tabi ko.

“Musta po, kuya Liam?” Balik tanong naman ni Akie.

“Ayos lang naman, laki mo na ah, buti ka pa lumaki, si Ian kasi hindi eh” Pangaasar ni kuya.

“KUYA” I glared at him. Narinig ko yung mahinang pagtawa ni Akie kaya siya naman yung tinitigan ko nang masama.

Jerks.

“Tara na nga at hinahanap ka na ni mama” Binigay niya sa akin yung helmet na isinuot ko naman. Bumaling siya kay Ian at nagbigay ng pasasalamat at bilin. “Kamusta mo na lang ako sa kuya mo.”

“Sige po” Tumango siya.

“Bye, Ian” Paalam ni Akie sa akin. He smiled then winked.

“Bye” I quickly replied with a monotonous tone.

Sorry, Akie. But I finally made my decision.

Sorry .

C H A P T E R - 014

Ian’s POV

“Ian, sasama ka ba sa fieldtrip? Kung sasama ka, tabi tayo sa bus ah” Shane suggested.

Oo nga pala, malapit na rin pala yung educational tour namin. Hindi ko na napansin dahil siguro sa sobrang daming gawain sa school.

Kinuha ko yung ilan sa mga libro at notebook ko sa aking locker at inilagay sa backpack ko. Isinara ko na ito at humarap sa babaeng nangungulit na naman sa akin.

“Ah, oo, sasama ako” I smiled.

“Tabi tayo ah” Pangungulit ng babaeng ’to.

“Oo na nga, tsaka—”

“No, kami yung magtatabi” Pagputol ng isang boses sa dapat na sasabihin ko sa best friend ko.

Nilingon ko kung kanino nanggaling yung boses na yun, ang kapal naman ng mukha niya para sabihing kami  dapat ang magkatabi, humingi na ba siya ng pahintulot sa akin?

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko matapos kong makilala ang taong pumutol sa dapat na sasabihin ko kay Shane.

“K-Kevin?” Nauutal kong saad.

He smiled birghtly. I blushed. His smile is one of the most beautiful smile I’ve ever seen. It’s beautiful yet unnatural. Ewan ko, pero parang may mali.

Kevin is our class president. Siya rin yung top student sa amin, sumusunod lang ako. Well, kung hindi siguro dahil sa sakit kong asthma ay hindi ako liliban sa klase namin ng ilang linggo. Hindi rin sana ako nahuli sa mga lessons, discussions, quizzes at kung anu-ano pa. Ako sana yung nasa pwesto niya. But, it’s okay. We still have one semester to go. I’ll just do my best para ako yung makakuha ng top spot.

“Sorry, Mr. President, ako kaya ang naunang humingi ng pahintulot ni Ian. Besides, I’m his best friend kaya ako dapat ang katabi niya” Pagtataray ni Shane.

Oo nga, tsaka, bakit naman gugustuhin ni Kevin na makatabi ako?

“Let’s make a deal. You will sit with Luke then I will sit with Ian” Kevin offered.

Tinignan ko si Shane, nakita ko na naging pink yung mga pisngi niya. Kinikilig na naman siya.

Ang rupok.

“Sure” She enthusiastically exclaimed.

“What?”

My eyes widened in surprise. Ano? Papayag siya? What the hell? Akala ko ba best friend niya ako? Ano ’to, porket makakatabi niya crush niya papayag na agad siya?

“Magkikita pa naman tayo sa destinations” She shrugged innocently.

I rolled my eyes.

“Ano payag ka na?” Tanong ni Kevin.

“H-Hindi ko pa sure. Let’s see” I smiled at him.

Tinignan ko nang masama si Shane. Nakangiti lang naman siya na tila baliw.

“Hag” Mahina kong singhal sa kaibigan ko.

Nauna na akong maglakad papunta sa classroom namin. Nakasunod naman sila Kevin at Shane.

Papasok na sana ako sa classroom kaso agad na bumungad sa akin si Akie.

“Mr. Sungit” Bungad na asar ni Akie.

Tinignan ko lang siya. Papasok na sana ako sa loob kaso agad siyang humarang.

“Teka! May katabi ka na ba sa bus? Baka pwedeng tayo na––” I cut him off.

“Meron na” Agad kong turan.

Ang totoo, wala pa. Pero Kevin asked me first, well, actually, hindi pa naman talaga niya hinihingi yung pahintulot ko. Tsaka isa pa, wala pa naman akong desisyon kung sino makakatabi ko.

“Sino naman?” Galit na tanong ni Akie.

Teka? Bakit naman siya nagagalit? Tsk. Akala mo naman may nagawa akong masama.

“S-Si……si….uhm…” Sasabihin ko bang si Shane?

“Sino?” Naging seryoso ang tanong ni Akie.

“Uhm…..si Kevin. Oo! S-Si Kevin”

“Anong ako?” Biglang sulpot ni Kevin.

Patay!

“A-Ah, a-ano kasi…diba t-tayo yung magkatabi sa b-bus?” Tumingin ako sa kaniya.

“D-D-Diba?” Nauutal kong saad.

Nagtataka naman siya sa’king tumingin.

“Akala ko ba hindi ka pa––”

“Pumayag ka na diba?” Mabilis kong tanong.

“Ano?” Naguguluhan niyang tanong.

Tinitigan ko siya, waring sinasabi na, ‘sumangayon ka na lang, Kevin’.

“Ah, oo. Kami yung magkatabi sa bus” Pagsangayon ni Kevin.

Tinignan ako ni Akie. Nakakunot ang mga noong nakatitig siya sa akin, mukhang naghihinala sa mga ikinikilos ko. But, he shouldn’t know what I am up to. Iniwas ko na lang yung titig ko sa kaniya. Tumingin naman siya kay Kevin. Akie gritted his teeth. Tinitigan niya si Kevin as if any second from now, he will just jump into him and choke him into death.

“Tsk. Mas gwapo pa ako d’yan” Akie whispered but it was actually audible.

“GUYS, WALA DAW TAYONG FIRST SUBJECT” sigaw ng isa sa mga kaklase ko na nasa loob ng classroom.

Nakarinig kami ng hiyawan at ingay. Natural, sino ba naman ang hindi matutuwa kung absent yung teacher n’yo, hindi ba?

“Alis nga d’yan” Binangga ni Akie si Kevin nang dumaan ito sa direksyon kung saan ito nakatayo.

“Problema nun?” Tanong ni Kevin.

I just shrugged. “Malay ko”.

Dumiretso na ako sa loob ng classroom at naghanda sa maaaring maging quiz namin mamaya.

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“Ian, may problema ba?” Tanong ni Shane.

Nandito kami ngayon sa cafeteria dahil lunch break namin.

“Wala” I nonchalantly replied.

“Sige na, sabihin mo na. Spill the tea, Ian” Pangungulit ni Shane.

“Pwede ba, Shane! Sinabing wala nga” Mahina kong bulyaw sa kaniya. Ayaw ko kasing marami ang makarinig, mamaya isipin pa nilang nagaaway kami.

Tumahimik naman si Shane. Alam niya kasing wala ako sa mood para sa mga pangungulit niya.

Tahimik kong kinain yung baon na niluto ni mama para sa akin. Andaming naglalaro sa isip ko; una, si Akie, ano bang dapat kong gawin? Naiinis na ako sa sarili ko dahil sa walang kwentang desisyon ko, pero alam ko na sa ikabubuti ko ’to at gayon na rin kay Akie. But, is my final decision right? Then, his brother, Kenneth. Kailangan ko nang makuha yung phone niya. He’s insane, he’ll make my pictures and videos viral. He’s scandalous. I know he will use it as a blackmail. Pangatlo, si Kevin, hindi ko alam pero hindi maganda yung pakiramdam ko sa mga biglaang nangyari, bakit naman niya ako gustong makatabi? Hindi kami gaanong nag-uusap ni Kevin, but I know him since grade school kaya naman kahit ayaw ko siyang makatabi sa bus, ay pumayag na ako. Nakakahiya nga lang dahil pumayag ako hindi dahil gusto ko siyang makatabi kundi dahil ginamit ko siya.

Ano ba ’tong ginagawa ko? Tama ba lahat ng ito? Tama ka nga ba, Ian?

“Hello” Biglang sulpot ni Kevin. Umupo ito sa may harapan ko at inilapag ang dalang tray ng pagkain.

“Hello, Mr. President” Bati ni Shane. Ngumiti naman ako kay Kevin.

“Uhm, Ian, yung kanina, totoo ba na pumapayag ka na, na tabi tayo sa bus?” Tanong ni Kevin.

I nodded.

“Talaga, Ian? So, magkatabi na talaga kami ni Luke?” Shane squeled.

Tsk. Tignan mo ’to. Ipagpapalit niya talaga ako sa lalaking yun.

“Mauna na ako” Iniligpit ko na yung pinagkainan ko at agad na dumiretso palabas sa cafeteria.

Habang naglalakad ako sa hallway papunta sa classroom namin, naramdaman ko na lang na may kamay na humawak sa wrist ko kaya agad akong huminto at hinarap kung sino yung taong pumigil sa akin.

“What?” I said nonchalantly.

“Halika” Agad akong hinatak ni Kevin papapunta sa hallway na hindi masyadong dinadaan ng mga estudyante.

“Teka, ano ba! Bitawan mo nga ako, Kevin” Reklamo ko.

The moment we reached our destination ay agad niya akong binitawan.

“What’s this?” I raised my brow.

Hindi siya sumagot. Aalis na sana ako kaso mahigpit niyang hinawakan yung wrist ko para hindi ako makaalis. I tried to snatch my hand back, pero mas malakas si Kevin.

“Ano ba?” Sigaw ko. Pilit kong tinanggal yung pagkakahawak niya pero ako lang yung nasasaktan.

“Shut the fuck up, Ian” Singhal ni Kevin.

I was stunned. This is the first time na marinig kong magmura si Kevin. Kinabahan akong bigla.

Lumapit si Kevin papunta sa akin. Napaatras ako, hanggang sa tumama yung likod ko sa pader.

Ano na naman ba ’to?

“Alam mo, Ian. Hindi ko alam pero iba yung dating mo sa akin” Tinitigan niya ako gamit yung malalagkit niyang mata. I saw him smirk.

Oh, no. Not again.

“So I took the chance para makatabi ka sa bus, hindi ko alam na ganon ka kabilis papayag. Akala ko, hard to get ka, pero mukhang easy to get lang pala yung katulad mo. So, I’m thinking, what if we make out right now? Nakangisi niyang tanong.

Fuck. Si Kevin ba talaga ’to?

“Fuck off! Hindi ako gaya ng iniisip mo” Tinulak ko siya pero hindi siya nagpatinag.

“Oh, come on, Ian. Hindi? Alam ko naman na gusto mo rin akong matikman” Inilapit niya yung mukha niya sa mukha ko. “Pumayag ka na, alam kong gusto mo rin, besides you agreed for us to be in the same sit. Kaya sige na, wala namang pinagkaiba yun” He chuckled na parang proud pa siya sa sinabi niya, as if naman it was the wittiest logic ever.

“You’re being irrational, Kevin. Those two aren’t the same. Let me go!” Nagpumilit ulit akong itulak siya pero mas hinigpitan niya lang yung pagkakahawak sa akin.

“No, Ian. Kung ayaw mo, edi ipipilit ko” And with that, in just a blink of an eye, naramdaman ko yung malambot niyang labi na marahas na nakalapat sa aking mga labi.

Mahigpit niyang hinawakan yung pisngi ko at inilagay yung tuhod niya sa pagitan ng mga hita ko kaya naman nawalan ako ng balanse. Napakapit ako sa parteng dibdib ng kaniyang t-shirt. Pilit niyang pinapasok ang kaniyang dila sa loob ng bibig ko. Hindi ako makakilos, nanghihina ako. Napapikit ako, kusa na lang bumuhos ang mga luha dulot ng hindi ko malaman na dahilan, siguro’y dahil alam ko na inaabuso na naman ako. Pero, bakit hindi ako makakilos, dahil ba sa gusto ng katawan ko? Argh. Nakakainis. Fuck this.

Patuloy lang siya sa paghalik sa akin nang biglang nakarinig ako ng pagbagsak ng isang bagay. Iminulat ko ang mga luhaan kong mata at nadatnan ko si Kevin na nasa sahig at sapo ang kaniyang kaliwang pisngi, kita ko ang maliit na sugat niya sa gilid ng kaniyang labi.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang makita ko si Akie na nakatayo sa may harapan ni Kevin. Mabibigat ang pagtaas at pagbaba ng kaniyang dibdib na tila hinihingal. Ramdam ko rin ang aura niya na tila sasabog anumang oras. Inapakan niya yung dibdib ni Kevin. Kevin groaned.

“Fuck off” Akie warned. Mas diniinan pa nito ang pagkakaapak kay Kevin.

Tumingin si Akie sa direksyon ko. I saw his features soften, as if he was hurt, pero hindi naman nagtagal ay agad ding bumalik yung galit na kanina’y bumabalot sa kaniya.

Lalapit pa sana ako sa kaniya pero bago yun ay tumalikod na siya at nagsimulang maglakad paalis.

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Akie’s POV

Fuck!

I gritted my teeth.

My nose were flaring.

My eyes shows anger.

I clenched my fist. I could feel my veins sticking out.

Ian. He’s avoiding me.

Fucking shit. What have I done? Bakit siya umiiwas?

Argh.

Days passed easily and I could feel  Ian is making gap between the two of us. Hindi naman siya ganon dati. We’re not that close, but I always got the chance to talk to him. Naaasar ko pa nga siya dati. But, after he slept in our house, he suddenly turned different. Just, what the fuck?

There are times na kapag nakikita niya ako sa hallway ay agad siyang liliko sa kabilang daan. Kapag nakita niya ako sa cafeteria na nakapila, hindi siya pipila kahit na alam kong may bibilhin siya. Hindi niya rin sinasagot yung mga messages ko sa kaniya. Then, few days ago, he blocked me in social media. Halatang iniiwasan niya ako. Pero bakit? Kailangan kong malaman dahil hindi ako matahimik. Hindi ko gusto yung mga nangyayari.

Then, hindi lang yun. I even saw him making out with our Class President, Kevin. That bastard. He dared to touch what’s mine. Gago ba siya? Then, what burst me into anger even more is that, Ian, I saw him clutching at Kevin’s chest, hindi siya lumalaban. Tila nagugustuhan niya yung paghahalikan nila. May paiyak-iyak pa siyang nalalaman, siguro nagi-guilty siya kasi alam niyang may gusto ako sa kaniya pero lumalandi siya sa iba. I know hindi ako dapat nagseselos dahil hindi pa naman kami. Alam kong wala akong karapatang magalit kasi hindi ko naman siya pagmamayari pero, hindi niyo ako masisisi, ang akala ko hindi pa siya handa dahil nalilito siya patungkol sa pagmamahalan ng dalawang lalaki, pero makikita ko siyang nakikipaghalikan kay Kevin!? Ang akala ko naguguluhan at nalilito pa siya. Ginagago lang ba niya ako? Tangina naman oh!

“Akie, are you with us?” Tanong ni Michael. “May tinatanong sa’yo si coach, kanina ka pa niya tinatawag” Bulong ni Micheal.

We’re currently on our training para sa nalalapit na Intramurals. I am part of the Basketball Varsity Team kasi.

Hindi ko napansin na nawala na naman ako sa focus. Tumingin ako sa direksyon ni coach at nakita ko na nanggagalaiti na rin ito sa galit.

“Sorry, coach. Pardon me?” Paghingi ko ng paumanhin.

“Just like what I am saying, malapit na ang Intramurals, and as the Senior students here at the academy I want you to take home the championship. We have the toughest line up dahil varsity player na ang ilan sa inyo kaya I don’t have any doubt about our capacity in games. I want you all to be focused, especially you, Akie Villaflor” Tumingin siya sa akin. “Dahil ikaw ang team captain ng Senior team, at ikaw rin ang former MVP at current team captain ng varsity team ng school kinakailangan mong maging focus sa training. Do not space out. Do you understand?” Mariing tanong ng coach namin.

I nodded. Pero ang totoo, mukhang hindi ko kakayaning maging focus. Tangina naman kasi oh!

“Okay, you may all go. See you on Monday” Paalam ni coach.

Nagsimula kaming maglakad papunta sa shower room, nandon din yung mga lockers namin.

Pagkadating namin, nadatnan namin si Janice na tila may hihintay.

“Ang tagal niyo kanina pa kami naghihintay” Iritable niyang tugon.

“Kami?” Nagtatakang tanong ni Micheal.

“Oo. Kami ni Ian”

Lumabas si Ian sa likod ni Janice. Hindi namin napansin na kasama pala niya si Ian. Dahil mas matangkad si Janice kumpara kay Ian kaya naman madali lang niyang natakpan ito because of Ian’s small frame.

He smiled at Micheal tapos ay tumingin na ito sa sahig. Hindi man lang niya ako pinansin.

Fuck! Ano bang nagawa ko, huh? Dahil ba sinapak ko yung bwiset na Kevin na yun kaya ayaw niya akong pansinin o miski tignan man lang?

I closed my eyes. Pinigilan ko ang sarili kong hilahin si Ian papunta sa kung saan kaming dalawa lang, at tanungin siya kung ano bang kasalanan ko para ipamukha niya sa akin na parang hindi niya ako kilala.

Tangina.

“Ian suggested that we should have an overnight tonight dahil kailangan daw natin mahabol yung mga kulang natin para sa thesis paper natin. Also, maganda rin yun dahil next week na yung mid-term, mag-group study na rin tayo. Tuturuan naman tayo ni Ian, right?” Tumingin si Janice kay Ian at naghintay na sumagot.

Tumango lang ito. Mukhang wala siyang balak magsalita ah. Siguro nahihiya dahil sa nakita ko sila ng mahal niyang si Kevin na naghahalikan.

“Whose house?” Tanong ni Micheal.

“Mine”

“Mine”

Sabay na sabi namin ni Ian. Napalingon siya sa akin pero agad din siyang nagiwas ng tingin.

“Okay, I’ll choose” Maarteng sabi ni Janice.

We waited for her decision.

“We’ll sleep at Ian’s house” She finalized.

Tatanggi pa sana ako pero agad na pumayag si Micheal kaya wala na akong nagawa.

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“Ian, hindi mo sinabi na pupunta pala mga kaklase mo dito?” Tanong ni kuya Ash, kuya ni Ian.

“They will sleep here for our group study” Ian timidly replied.

“Ayos ’yan. Sabayan niyo na rin kami mamaya ng mga tropa ko at may handaan dito dahil birthday ng isa sa mga tropa ko” Suhestiyon ng kuya ni Ian.

Micheal and I chuckled.

“Kuya!” Ian exclaimed. “Paano naman kami makakapagaral kung malalasing kami?” He glared at his brother.

Kuya Ash shrugged. “Mas madali niyong makakabisado yung pinagaaralan niyo kapag nakainom kayo ng alak. Tsaka hindi naman kayo magpapakalasing, tikim lang naman” Panguuto ni kuya Ash.

“Saan mo naman nakuha yang sinasabi mo?” Masungit na tanong ni Ian.

“It’s a trivia, bro. Matalino kaya ’tong kuya mo, akala mo ikaw lang. Sa akin ka kaya nagmana” Mayabang na saad ni kuya Ash.

Ian frowned. “Whatever” He rolled his eyes at dumiretso na sa taas ng bahay nila.

Narinig pa namin si kuya Ash na tumatawa habang inaasar si Ian na pikunin.

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We’re here at Ian’s room. Malaki rin naman yung kwarto ni Ian. Malinis. Organisado. Mabango. Halatang ayaw ni Ian sa madumi, kaya pala nung natulog siya sa bahay, nilinis niya pa yung kwarto ko.

“Micheal and Akie” He called. Simula noong sinapak ko yung Kevin na ’yun, ngayon ko lang ulit narinig yung pangalan ko mula kay Ian. “You’ll sleep here and I will sleep with kuya na lang. Janice, Mom’s room were available, you could sleep there” Paalala ni Ian.

Halatang iniiwasan niya talaga ako. Pwede naman siyang sumama sa amin dito sa kwarto niya. Tutal malaki naman yung kama niya, kasya kaming tatlo.

“Okay” Sabay na sagot ni Janice at Micheal. Tumango lang naman ako.

“Sige. Magbibihis lang ako at maghahanda ng hapunan natin” Paalam ni Ian.

Lumabas na siya sa kwarto kasama si Janice, mukhang pupunta sa kwarto ng mama ni Ian. Naiwan kaming dalawa ni Micheal.

“Micheal, I have something to tell” Tawag ko sa kaibigan ko. Lumapit naman ito at nakinig sa sinabi ko sa kaniya.

“Flirt with someone the moment they were drunk, then sleep at sofa”

“But, why?” Naguguluhan niyang tanong.

“Damn. Just do it, okay?” I spat, slightly annoyed.

He nodded.

I smirked. I’m sure this will work.

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“Ikaw lang ata Ian ang nakita kong senior high student na nagsusuot pa rin ng pajamas” Micheal teased.

Pfft. I saw Ian blushed. Tama si Micheal, si Ian lang yung nakita kong 17 year old, na nagsusuot pa rin ng pajamas. But I love it.  He’s cute wearing those fabric.

“Tama na ’yan, let’s start doing our thesis para mamaya group review na lang” Utos ni Janice.

We started doing the chapter three of our thesis paper. Ian, leading us three. Mabilis lang namin natapos yung chapter three dahil mukhang sisiw lang kay Ian iyon.

“Ako na lang bahala mag-revise kung may mga redundant tsaka mali” Ian announced.

“The best ka talaga, Ian” Puri ni Micheal at yumakap pa ang gago.

Tinignan ko siya nang masama. Agad naman itong himiwalay sa pagkakayakap kay Ian.

“Ian. Bumaba na kayo at nakahanda na yung pagkain” Sigaw ni kuya Ash mula sa labas ng kwarto ni Ian.

“Opo, kuya. Bababa na po” Sagot ni Ian.

Naunang lumabas si Micheal, sumunod naman si Janice kaya naiwan kami ni Ian sa loob ng kwarto. Akmang aalis na siya pero mabilis kong hinawakan yung mga braso niya para pigilan siya. Hindi siya pumalag. Naghintay ng mga susunod na mangyayari.

“What’s the problem?” Malamig kong tanong sa kaniya.

Hindi siya sumagot. Hinarap ko siya kaya napatingin siya sa akin. Nagtagpo ang mga mata namin. Kita ko na kinakabahan siya at may hindi ako malaman na emosyon sa mga mata niya, is it regret?

Kinuha niya yung braso niyang hawak ko at tumalikod. Naglakad siya patungo sa pintuan at bago siya lumabas narinig ko yung mga salitang ayaw kong marinig mula sa kaniya.

“L-Leave me alone” Ian stabbed.

I was stunned. Those three words, three fucking words. Why is he doing this? Ano bang nagawa kong masama? May mali ba akong nagawa? Kung meron, pwede namang sabihin na lang niya.

Tangina naman talaga oh!

Argh!

But, hindi ako titigil. I just have to follow my plans. I know it will work.

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Ian’s POV

Nagsidatingan na yung mga tropa ni kuya at naghanda para sa salo-salo. Mukhang mayaman yung kaibigan ni kuya dahil ang dami nilang pulutan. Tatlong case ng beer din ang meron sila.

I sighed. Pasalamat ka kuya at wala dito si mama, kundi lagot ka na naman.

Aakyat na sana ako sa kwarto ni kuya nang tawagin ako ni Micheal.

“Oh, Ian. Saan ka pupunta? Hindi ka ba sasama?” Tanong nito.

“No, I’ll just study upstairs” Pagtanggi ko. Wala naman akong mapapala sa paginom. Tsaka, akala ko ba group study gagawin namin!? Tsk.

“Don’t be kj, Ian. Sumama ka na” Paganyaya naman ni Janice.

“That’s right, cute li’l bro”  Pagsangayon ni ate Vanessa, girlfriend ni kuya.

Namula naman ako dahil sa nickname na ginamit niya.

“Kaya nga, Ian. Tara na! Birthday ko naman eh” Pagpilit naman ni kuya Fiel, ang may kaarawan.

Sabagay. Tsaka mas okay na rin ’to para mabantayan ko sila Janice at baka anong mangyari sa kanila. Babantayan ko na rin sila kuya at ate Vanessa baka kasi ano, a-alam niyo na.

Umupo ako sa sofa malapit kay kuya Fiel. Ngumiti ito sa akin kaya ginantihan ko rin ng ngiti.

Our count was twelve; me, Micheal, Akie, Janice, kuya Ash, ate Vanessa, kuya Fiel, ate Jenny, kuya Steve, kuya Anthony, kuya Mark, and ate Angel.

Kuya Ash started to play songs sa videoke na inarkila nila. Ang ingay nila. Para silang mga teenagers, sa katauhan ng mga adults in their twenties. Nakakatuwa.

Nagpatuloy ang katuwaan hanggang sa magsimula na ang inuman. Binigyan ang bawat isa ng isang beer. Tumanggi ako dahil hindi naman ako umiinom pero pinilit nila kaya wala akong nagawa kundi tanggapin iyon.

Nagpatuloy pa ang inuman at habang tumatagal nakikita ko na unti-unti nang nalalasing ang mga tropa ni kuya, ganon din sila Janice.

Nagkatuwaan at kwentuhan ang buong tropa ni kuya kasama na rin kaming apat. Kinilala nila sila Janice, Micheal at Akie. Medyo kilala na nila si Akie dahil tropa nila yung walang hiya niyang kuya.

Hindi rin nawala ang asaran dahil tinukso nila si kuya Anthony na wala pa rin daw girlfriend dahil sa hindi ito maka-move on sa ex girlfriend niya. Tinukso din nila si kuya Mark dahil sa sobrang katabaan nito ay walang nagkakagusto dito.

“Ikaw, Ian? May girlfriend ka na ba?” Tanong ni ate Angel.

Bakit naman sa akin napunta yung tanong?

“Uhm, w-wala po” Nahihiya kong tugon.

“Paano ’yan magkaka-girlfriend, eh puro pagaaral inaatupag niyan. Baka nga virgin pa rin ’yan hanggang ngayon eh” Pangaasar ni kuya.

“Kuya!” I glared at him.

Everyone chuckled.

“Ang baby boy ng Salvador, virgin pa” Pangaasar ni ate Vanessa.

“Ate!” Bagay talaga sila ni kuya, parehas silang mapangasar.

“Baka naman kasi hindi babae ang hanap ni Ian” Patuloy na pangaasar na kuya Fiel.

“W-What the fuck?” I stuttered. I blushed.

He chuckled.

“There’s nothing wrong about it” He shrugged and smiled at me.

Naalala ko yung sinabi sa akin dati ni Akie kaya napalingon ako sa kaniya, he doesn’t care that much on our conversation kaya patuloy lang siya sa paglagok ng alak.

“Kaya nga, Ian. Tanggap naman kita kahit na burat hanap mo” Pangaasar ni kuya.

Nanlaki yung mga mata ko. Mas lalo akong namula. Lasing na talaga si kuya, kung anu-ano na naman kasi ang sinasabi.

“Damn you” Mura ko sa kaniya. Bwiset na ’yan! Wala talagang filter yang bibig niya.

Dahil sa pagkapikon ko, tumayo ako at tumungo papunta sa banyo. Narinig ko pa ang tawanan nilang magtotropa bago ako tuluyang makapasok sa CR.

Nakakainis!

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Akie’s POV

Damn! Nahihilo na ako, medyo naparami siguro yung nainom ko isabay mo pa na inaantok na ako. Hindi ko na alam kung magagawa ko pa ba yung plano ko. I caught a glimpse of Micheal and Angel kissing torridly. That’s part of my plan pero it was no use, hindi ko rin naman na siguro magagawa yung binabalak ko.

Nakita ko rin sila kuya Ash at ate Vanessa na naghahalikan. Sa kabilang dako naman ng sofa ay sila kuya Steve at ate Jenny. Nasa sahig naman sila kuya Mark at kuya Anthony na mahimbing nang natutulog. Si Janice naman ay nauna nang umakyat sa kwarto ng mama nila Ian. While si kuya Fiel naman ay tila may tinitignan sa kaniyang cellphone.

Fuck. Inaantok na talaga ako. Hindi ko na magagawa yung plano. Damn that beer. Dapat pala hindi ako masyadong uminom.

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Ian’s POV

Pagkabalik na pagkabalik ko ay nagulat ako sa mga nangyayari. Namula ako dahil halos nakahubad na si ate Vanessa at ate Jenny, halos undergarments na lang yung suot nila. Agad kong iniwas yung tingin ko sa kanila. Napansin kong wala na si Janice so I end up on the conclusion na nasa kwarto na siguro siya ni mama. Si Micheal naman ay tulog na habang nakapatong sa kaniya si ate Angel. Hindi naman na bago yung mga bagay na gaya nito sa akin dahil madalas na ganito ang nakikita ko tuwing nagiinuman sila kuya at yung tropa niya pero hindi pa rin ako sanay. Who would be?

Ano ba ’to? Akala ko ba group study? Bakit pa ba kasi ako pamayag na sumali kami sa inuman na ’to, alam ko naman talaga na wala itong patutunguhan.

I sighed. Si Akie naman ay nakatulog na. Siya na lang siguro yung ihahatid ko sa kwarto since mukhang ayos naman na si Micheal sa pwesto niya. Baka maistorbo ko pa sila ni ate Angel.

Sinubukan kong gisingin si Akie pero ayaw niyang gumising. Paano na ’to, hindi ko naman ’to kaya.

“Need help?” Tanong ni kuya Fiel. Hindi ko napansin na gising pa pala siya.

Tumango ako. Hindi ko kasi kakayanin si Akie magisa, at least kuya Fiel is way stronger and larger than me kaya kakayanin ni niya si Akie.

Kuya Fiel assisted Akie to stood up.

“MmmMm” Akie groaned.

Kuya Fiel chuckled. “Hindi ko alam na lasinggero na pala ang mga kabataan ngayon” Puna niya.

“They wanted to feel they were belong that’s why they join even though it doesn’t benefit them” Sabi ko sa kaniya.

“Ang husay mo ah. Parang hindi ka teenager kung magisip” Puri ni kuya Fiel.

I smiled. Nagpatuloy kami sa paglakad hanggang sa marating namin yung kwarto ko. Ibinaba ni kuya Fiel si Akie sa kama.

“Ian, I have something to tell you. Meet me at garden. I’ll wait for you” Misteryoso namang turan ni kuya Fiel. May ngiti siya na tila may gagawin siyang masama. Pero isinawalang bahala ko ito. Hindi naman siguro siya gaya ng iniisip ko.

I sighed. I nodded hesitantly.

“Susunod po ako” Magalang kong tugon. Nauna na itong umalis.

Pinagmasdan ko si Akie. Nagiguilty na ako sa mga ginagawa ko sa kaniya. Alam kong wala naman siyang nagawang mali o masama sa akin pero iniiwasan ko pa rin siya.

I know he doesn’t deserve my nasty treatment but I know it’s better for the two of us.

Kinumutan ko siya at lumabas na ng kwarto.

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3rd Person Point of View

Malalim na ang gabi ngunit ang dalawa ay nasa hardin pa rin upang pagusapan ang bagay na nais mangyari ni Fiel.

Halata ang pagaalinlangan sa mukha ni Ian.

“P-Pero––”

“Please, Ian. Please!” Fiel begged.

“S-Sige po. Ako na po ang bahala” Ian assured.

Ngumiti ang binatang si Fiel, mukhang nakuha niya kung ano man ang nais niyang mangyari. Sinuklian naman ni Ian ng isang ngiti ang binata.

“Salamat, Ian” Wika ni Fiel. Niyakap nito si Ian.

“Walang anuman po” Ian mumbled at Fiel’s chest. He hugged back.

Sa kabilang dako naman ng hardin ay nakatayo ang isang binata, nagaapoy sa galit ang kaniyang prisensiya. Bakas ang hindi maitagong pagseselos sa kaniya. Tuluyang nawala ang pagkalasing na kanina’y bumabalot sa kaniyang sistema.

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Akie woke up few minutes after Ian left him. Pakiramdam niya kasi’y sasabog na ang kaniyang pantog kaya agad itong nagtungo sa banyo upang ilabas ang tubig nito sa katawan. While peeing, Akie suddenly remembered his plans.

“Shit” Akie cussed.

Magpapanggap sana itong lasing at magpapasama kay Ian papunta sa kwarto para doon ay masolo at makausap ito. Ngunit nang dahil sa pagkaantok at pagkalasing ay hindi niya naisagawa ang lahat ng mga binalak niyang plano.

Lumabas si Akie sa kwarto ni Ian para sana puntahan ito sa kwarto ng kuya niya pero wala siyang nadatnan. Bumaba ito sa sala pero ang nakita lamang nito ay si Ash at ang mga kaibigan nito. Lahat ay nakatulog na.

Nakarinig ng mahinang paguusap si Akie kaya sinundan niya ito. Dinala siya ng mga naguusap na tinig sa hardin nila Ian. Nagpatuloy siya sa paghanap ngunit napatigil ito sa kinatatayuan nang masaksihan ang  magkayakap na sila Ian at Fiel.

His inner lion roared.

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Fiel rested his head at Ian’ shoulder. It last for at least two minutes before he backed out. Sa paghiwalay ni Ian kay Fiel ay bumungad sa paningin nito ang lalaking nakatayo sa likod ni Fiel na nagaalburuto sa galit. His madness is visible even in the midst of darkness.

Ian’s eyes widened.

“Bakit, Ian? May problema ba?” Tanong ni Fiel dahil bigla na lang nagbago ang reaksyon ng mukha ni Ian.

“A-Ah, uhm..e-err” Garalgal na turan ni Ian. He was so struck on Akie’s presence.

“Ahhh” Gulat na sigaw ni Ian matapos siyang biglang hilahin ni Akie nang pwersahan papasok sa loob ng bahay.

“A-Akie”

Hindi huminto si Akie bagkus ay dumiretso lamang ito sa hagdan at marahas na hinatak si Ian paakyat sa kwarto nito.

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C H A P T E R - 017

Ian’s POV

“A-Akie, nasasaktan ako” Patulak na binitawan ni Akie yung mga kamay ko so I end up sitting at the floor.

He locked the door. Humarap siya sa akin and I could fell Akie restraining himself not to punch anything he could launch his punches with.

“Ano bang problema mo, Akie?” Galit na tanong ko sa kaniya. Bigla na lang kasi niya akong hinatak papunta sa kwarto ko nang wala namang matinong rason. Hindi naman tama na magalit siya sa akin. Wala naman akong ginagawang masama.

I stood up. Nagsimulang lumapit si Akie sa pwesto kung saan naroon ako.

“H-Huwag kang lalapit” I shakily  warned.

Nagpatuloy siya sa paglapit. Coldness were painted across his face. Habang lumalapit siya sa akin ay umaatras naman ako. Hindi nagtagal ay nasa harap ko na siya. Naramdaman ko yung malamig na pader na nasa likod ko na. I’m trapped. He stood tall right in front of me.

“Ahh” My eyes widened after Akie punched the wall which is next beside me.

“A-Akie. A-Ano ba––” Hindi ko na natapos pa yung gusto kong sabihin sa kaniya dahil pinigilan ako ng mga labi niya na agad lumapat sa mga labi ko. Marahas niya akong hinalikan.

“Mmmmm!?” I used my strength to smack his chest with my bare hands, but it was futile. Hindi man lang siya natinag.

Niyakap niya ako nang napakahigpit kaya medyo nahirapan na akong huminga. He bit my lower lip kaya napasinghap ako. He took that opportunity to invade my mouth with the use of his tongue.

“Ungh..” I moaned. Hindi siya huminto kaya kinakapos na talaga ako ng hininga.

Dahil sa hindi siya tumigil sa kagaguhang ginagawa niya, ginawa ko ang bagay na alam kong magpapatigil sa kaniya, sa ayaw niya man o sa gusto. I kicked his groin.

Akie groaned. Agad na humiwalay si Akie sa akin at hinawakan ang kaniyang mahal na alaga. He cussed and cursed under his breath.

I smirked. Pinunasan ko yung labi ko with the use of my fist.

“Ano bang problema mo, huh? Bakit ka ba nagkakaganiyan?” Bulyaw ko sa kaniya.

He snorted. He stood up at his full height once again. Hindi na niya ininda pa yung sakit na gawa ng pagkakasipa ko sa kayamanan niya.

“Masarap ba?” He asked with a monotonous tone with sarcasm at his words.

I blushed.

“A-Ano bang pinagsasabi mo?” Naguguluhan kong tanong dito. Hindi ko siya maintindihan. Ano ba kasing problema?

“Yung halik ko. Ano, masarap ba?” Nakangisi niyang tanong.

“H-Huh?” I dumbfoundedly replied.

“Yung yakap ko, mahigpit ba? Nagustuhan mo ba?” Patuloy niyang pagtatanong.

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“Don’t play as the dumb one here, Ian” Masakit na turan ni Akie.

“I-I am not playing dumb. Hindi ko naman talaga alam kung ano yung gusto mong sabihin. Alam mo, Akie, matulog ka na lang at mukhang utak mo ata yung nalasing” I rolled my eyes at maglalakad na sana papunta sa pinto, pero hinarangan ako ni Akie at ikinulong muli sa pader. Both of his hands were on my both sides, preventing me to escape.

He leant forward. He looked straight to my eyes. Nalunod ako sa emosyon na bumabalot dito, lungkot. Akie seems vulnerable and weak right now. I could see it through his eyes.

“Bakit, Ian? Hindi ba ako magaling humalik katulad ni Kevin?”

Hindi ako nakasagot. Hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko, who the fuck could answer the question if that question doesn’t have any answer? Tell me, how?

“Hindi ba masarap yung yakap ko gaya ng yakap sa’yo ni Fiel”

“What’s the point of this?” I sighed.

Tinignan ko siya sa mata, nakatitig lang rin siya sa akin. Ako yung unang nagiwas ng tingin because the intensity of his gaze were too much.

“I’m fucking jealous” He confessed. Namula naman ako dahil sa sinabi niyang ’yon.

“You said to me that you are still confuse about two guys being in a relationship tapos makikita kitang nakikipaghalikan at nakikipagyakapan sa ibang lalaki!? Tangina naman, Ian. Kung ayaw mo sa akin, sana sinabi mo na lang. Kung gagaguhin mo lang pala ako, sana hindi ko sinabing hihintayin ko yung desisyon mo. Nagmumukha akong tanga na naghihintay sa wala” He inhaled heavily. He gritted his teeth. I know he’s just restraining himself not to burst his anger out of its cage.

“Nagkakamali ka, Akie. H-Hindi—”

Napapikit ako nang mariin dahil sa muling pagsuntok ni Akie sa pader na nasa gilid ko.

“FUCK THAT!” He shouted. Nagsimulang tumulo ang mga luha ko pero agad ko itong pinunasan.

“Anong nagkakamali? Kitang kita ko na hindi ka pumalag sa paghalik sa’yo ni Kevin tapos sasabihin mong nagkakamali ako!? Baka naman nagkakamali din ako tungkol sa nakita ko kanina?” He snorted.

“Tell me Ian, am I wrong or do you just love to flirt with guys you li––”

He stopped finishing that damn sentence the moment I punched him right into his face. Alam kong hindi ’yon malakas pero sapat na para patigilin siya.

“I-Idiot. Y-You’re an idiot. I-I….I a-am not f-flirting with any of t-them” Pinunasan ko yung mga luha ko bago nagpatuloy sa pagsasalita. “Kevin h-harassed me, hindi ako nakalaban sa paghalik niya dahil n-nawawalan ako ng lakas. He’s stronger than me, Akie. That’s why he’d been able to kiss me without my permission. H-Hindi ko g-ginusto ’yon” Tinignan ko ang naging reaksyon ni Akie, nakayuko lang ito.

“A-Also, kuya Fiel is just thanking me for advance dahil tutulungan ko siya sa panliligaw niya kay Janice. He’s hugging me because he wanted to show his gratitude” Tinignan ko siyang muli at nakita ko ang gulat na nakapinta sa kaniyang mukha.

“Does it make you h-happy now?” Bumuhos muli yung mga luha sa mata ko. I couldn’t stop it. It was as if my eyes knows the pain what I am feeling, that’s why tears falls continually. Akie’s words penetrates deep down my heart. It’s too much.

Pinahid ko yung mga luha kong patuloy na bumubuhos, mukhang ayaw nilang huminto. Nakakainis. It was so embarrassing. I shouldn’t be this fragile. I shouldn’t be like a crying baby na tila inagawan ng candy.

Hinintay ko na sumagot si Akie sa lahat ng sinabi pero hindi na siya nagsalita pa.

“S-Sige. M-Matutulog na ako. Matulog ka na rin at magpahinga” Iniwas ko yung tingin ko habang nagpapaalam, naglakad akong muli papunta sa pintuan but this time, Akie prevented me from escaping not by pinning me into a wall but by hugging me.

I was frozen. I felt his chilling breath fanning my neck.

“Sorry” He whispered. His voice speaks regret.

Hindi ako sumagot. I stayed still, waiting for what he’s about to say.

“Sorry, Ian. Hindi ko sinasadyang masigawan ka. Hindi ko sinasadyang paiyakin ka o saktan ka. I was just jealous. My jealousy took over me and I couldn’t control it” He inhaled and exhaled.

“Please forgive me” He sincerely apologized.

“I’m not mad at you, Akie. You don’t need to be sorry” I honestly said.

Akmang tatanggalin ko na yung kamay niyang nakayakap sa akin pero mas hinigpitan lang niya yung pagkakayakap niya.

“Then, please stop avoiding me” He suddenly pleased.

I was stunned. I closed my eyes and bit my lower lip.

“Please don’t do this to me, Ian. It’s killing me” He begged. I swallowed the lump to clear my throat.

“A-Ak––”

“Why are you doing this? Tell me, Ian. Why? Why do you want me to leave you alone? Why do you want me to do that? If you don’t have any relationship with Kevin nor Fiel, then why are you avoiding me? I fucking need your answers” He demanded.

“Akie, I think you should sleep—”

“No, Ian. Answer me now!” He sternly demanded. From his tone, I know na wala na akong takas pa.

I sighed. Kanina para siyang tupa kung humingi ng tawad pero ngayon para naman siyang hari kung makapag-demand.

“I-I……I…..uhm…I w-was just……b-busy with our school works. That’s it” Palusot ko. I bit my lower lip.

“You’re not good at lying” He commented.

“I was just—–”

“For god’s sake, Ian. What you are doing makes me crazy. I fucking need your reason” Hinarap niya ako.

“Please, Ian. Tell me. Why are you avoiding me?” He looked straight into my eyes. His urge for me to answer his question were visible in his eyes.

I bit my lip hard. “I-It’s good for the both of us, Akie. Kung lalayo ako sa’yo, maybe you could forget your feelings for me. By that, malalayo ka sa mga mata ng mapanghusgang tao. Ayaw ko na malaman ng ibang tao na may gusto ka sa akin, they might think something nasty on you. I’m afraid they might treat us differently and I know keeping the both of us apart could prevent that happening. So, I decided to keep some distance between the two of us” Pagtatapat ko.

Napayuko ako. I think he should’ve know my reason. Besides, Akie doesn’t deserve what I am doing. Kung lalayo ako sa kaniya, better to tell him the truth. He doesn’t deserve to be worried about me avoiding him.

“Ian––”

“I know, Akie. I should have tell you earlier. Sorry kung ngayon ko lang nasabi sa’yo. Sorry kasi—–” Akie cut me off.

He held my chin and lifted my face. I got the chance to look at his face once again. He’s smiling, grinning, smirking. All at once.

“W-Why are you smiling?” I asked, turmoil were plastered all over my face.

He chuckled. “I was so happy right now. You made me happy, Ian” He smiled.

“H-Huh? P-Paano?” I asked.

“You know what? You look so cute whenever you’re confuse. You look so innocent and it turns me on” He  smirked and winked.

My eyes widened. I blushed hard. I covered my face with my palms. How could he say those words without faltering!?

“Shut up” I mumbled through the splay of hands. Tinanggal niya yung pagkakatakip ko sa mukha ko at tinitigan ako sa mata. Mas lalo akong namula matapos niyang ilapit yung mukha niya sa akin. I thought he will kiss me, but he just smiled.

“Hearing your concerns made me happy. Knowing that you care means you have something for me” He smug.

“What!? Of course I don’t. I was just worried” I denied.

He smirked. “Don’t deny it, Ian. Worries means you care and caring means you like me, isn’t it?” He explained.

I was baffled. Argh! Akie is such a manipulator, he’s good in terms of playing his words.

’N-No, I-I, uhm….well, I—“ I heard him chuckle. I glared at him.

“Jerk” I pouted.

He hold my face both sides. Hinawi niya yung bangs ko.

“Ian, you don’t need to worry. I like you, and no other words could change that. Sabihin na nila kung ano man yung gusto nilang sabihin pero hindi ako matatakot na ipagsigawan na gusto kita” He said while looking at me straightforward.

“Hindi mo kailangang lumayo, Ian. It doesn’t give any benefits for the both of us. I am just getting crazy knowing na nilalayuan mo ako at alam ko na nasasaktan ka rin. I like you and I am willing to conquer the rejection of the society just to be with you. Afterall, you are worthy above all the rejection” He uttered. My heart melts for his confession. He’s willing to face anything just to be with me!?

“But the question is all yours. Are you willing to come with me and conquer that hill of judgement?” He asked. I could see through his eyes the hope that encourages me to answer, but I didn’t. Hindi ko alam kung handa na ba ako.

Akie smiled. “I know that you are not yet ready. But I am willing to wait, Ian. I will wait because again, I know that you are worth the wait” He hugged me. Then, he kissed the crown of my head.

I smiled. I promise you, Akie. Your wait will never be wasted. I promise.

Then, at that moment, I hugged him back.

C H A P T E R - 018

Ian’s POV

Unti-unti akong nagising dahil sa sunod sunod na katok sa pinto.

I groaned. Nakakainis naman oh!

I rolled over at kuya’s bed. I stood up and rubbed my eyes with the use of my fist. Badtrip naman oh! I only got five hours of sleep.

I was so tired. Napuyat ako dahil sa birthday celebration ni kuya Fiel, isama mo pa yung nangyaring paguusap namin ni Akie. I can’t help but to smile. I couldn’t stop it. Last night is a night full of white and black magic. I got to experience how yin and yang works, the pain and happiness.

Our conversation went bad at first but it ended up well. I could say it through the smiles we had after kong lumabas sa kwarto.

I felt bad for Akie dahil iniwasan ko siya not knowing that he really meant everything he feels for me. But last night, I realized that his feeling was genuine and I will not waste any single effort na gagawin pa niya. His words isn’t artificial, so in return I am willing to give everything for him, and I will make sure that it is more than original.

Yes, I will not deny it anymore. I felt the same for Akie. I am attracted to him. More than his looks but rather his heart that makes me fall for him. Hearing the words he say last night made realize that Akie deserves chance. Handa siyang harapin ang mata ng mga mapanghusgang tao para lang ipagsigawang may gusto siya sa akin and who am I not to risk? Ako lang naman ’tong naging duwag. I am such a coward. Tama si Akie, walang mali sa pagmamahalan ng dalawang lalaki. Being a Homosexual isn’t disgusting, society is.

Nagpatuloy ang malakas at sunod sunod na katok mula sa taong nasa labas ng kwarto ni kuya.

I yawned. Binuksan ko ang pinto at nasaksihan ko ang taong nagbibigay sa puso ko ng tuwa at galak, si Akie.

He smiled. Nakakatunaw ang kaniyang mga ngiti. I was mesmerized by his features. Sa kaniyang mga singkit na mata, thick eyebrows, well-carved nose, high cheekbones, chiseled chin, plump and naturally red lips. Everything looks different. M-Mas naging g-gwapo siya.

“I know” He smirked.

“W-What?” I asked feeling confused.

“You mentioned that I am getting handsome more than before. So, yeah, I know” Mayabang niyang saad.

T-Teka? N-Narinig niya yung sinabi ko?

“You’re speaking your thoughts unconsciously” He noted.

My eyes widened in surprise. Agad kong tinakpan ang bibig ko dahil baka masabi ko na naman kung ano man yung iniisip ko.

Lumapit siya sa akin nang dahan-dahan. I stepped backward as a defensive counter. Hanggang sa tumama yung likod ko sa study table ni kuya.

Akie smirked. Inilagay niya yung magkabila niyang kamay sa lamesa upang harangan ako sa pagtakas. Itutulak ko na sana siya but I realized na wala pala siyang t-shirt kaya hindi ko nagawa, baka kasi kapag hinawakan ko siya sabihin niyang nagtetake advantage ako sa kaniya porke nakahubad siya.

Napatitig ako sa katawan niya. It became firmer dahil siguro nag-start na yung practice nila sa basketball. His chest and biceps is incredibly hard and sexy. His abs were visible more than before.

“Pwede mo namang hawakan, iyong-iyo naman ’yan” He whispered.

I blushed hard. Tinakpan ko yung mukha ko para itago yung mukha kong pulang-pula. Anyone could tell that at any moment, I might explode.

“S-Shut up” I mumbled. He only chuckled.

Argh! Inaasar na naman niya ako!

“W-Why are you he-here by the way?” I asked through the splay of my fingers, feeling ashamed to even look at him.

He leaned forward, I could feel his lip brushing my ear and his breath fanning my neck.

“Oras na kasi para kainin ka” He said in a husky and sexy voice. He bit his lip in a seductive way.

My eyes widened in horror. My mouth gaped in anticipation to speak. I wanted to shout at him, but I couldn’t formulate my words.

He smirked. Lumayo siya sa akin at tumalikod. “I’m just kidding. Breakfast is ready. Ikaw na lang ang hinihintay. Pero kung ayaw mo…” Humarap siyang muli sa akin at kita ko sa mukha niya yung pilyong bagay na naglalaro sa utak niya.

“We could stay here and—”

“Shut up, you pervert” I gritted my teeth and glared at him.

He shrugged. “What?” He innocently asked.

I rolled my eyes. Dumiretso ako sa pintuan at iniwan siyang magisa sa kwarto. I heard him laugh.

Rascal!

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“Hoy, Ian. Bakit ’di mo kami ginising kagabi para sa kwarto matulog. Siguro sinadya mo para masolo mo yung kwarto no?” Kuya ranted.

I rolled my eyes. “It’s all your fault. Kung hindi mo sana inuna yung pakikipagharutan kay ate Vanessa, edi sana nakatulog kayo sa kwarto” I retorted habang umuupo ako sa upuan kaharap si kuya, tumabi naman sa akin si Akie.

Natahimik si kuya. Nakita ko naman na namula si ate Vanessa. Tumawa naman nang pagak sila kuya Mark at kuya Anthony. Si ate Jenny naman ay namumula rin, alam niya siguro na nakita ko rin sila kagabi, habang si kuya Steve naman ay nakangisi lang. Si ate Angel naman at Micheal ay tila wala sa hapagkainan dahil mukhang malalim na ang napaguusapan. Si kuya Fiel naman ay pilit na nakikipagusap kay Janice, mukhang sinisimulan na niyang manligaw.

“Lahat sila may lovelife na, tayo na lang yung hinihintay” Akie whispered.

Napansin din pala niya ’yun?

“Oo––”

I stiffened. My eyes widened and I blushed. Napatingin ako sa kaniya but it was a wrong move. Halos magkadikit na yung mga mukha namin. I saw him smirk. A mischievous emotion were glistened in his eyes. Agad akong lumayo sa kaniya at nagpokus sa pagkain ko. I could still feel his tantalizing gaze.

Tumingin ako sa paligid para tignan kung may nakakita ba sa ginawa ni Akie. Luckily, lahat sila ay busy sa pakikipagusap sa isa’t-isa.

“Oh, Ian, bakit ka namumula? May sakit ka ba? Ayos lang ba ang pakiramdam mo?” Alalang tanong ni ate Vanessa.

“A-Ayos l-lang naman p-po ako. A-An-Ano kasi, uhm….” Wala akong masabi, wala akong maisip na palusot.

Bwiset ka, Akie! Argh.

Nakatitig lang naman ang lahat na tila hinihintay kung ano man ang isasagot ko.

“A-Ang i-init po kasi” Napangiwi ako dahil sa sagot ko. Pero mukhang naniwala naman sila kaya nakahinga ako nang maluwag.

Tinitigan ko si Akie nang masama pero patuloy lang ito sa pagkain habang nakangiti nang nakakaloko.

Ang husay mo talaga, Akie!

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Nasa kwarto kami ni kuya. We are all currently watching the movie entitled, Conjuring. It is now 8:00 in the evening pero nandito pa rin sila ate Vanessa, they decided to have a movie marathon kaya hindi na muna sila uuwi since sabado naman daw ngayon. Naunang umuwi sila kuya Fiel at Janice, noong tinanong namin sila kung bakit, they said they will just go for a jaunt. But I doubt. I think they will go on a date. Kita ko kasi sa mukha ni kuya Fiel yung excitement habang halata naman na kinikilig si Janice.

So, our latest count was ten. Magkatabi sila kuya Steve at ate Jenny, Micheal at ate Angel at sila kuya Mark at kuya Anthony naman ang magkatabi. Nasa pagitan naman ako nila kuya at ate Vanessa, nagalit pa nga sa akin si kuya Ash dahil daw hindi siya makaporma kay ate Vanessa. Kasalanan naman niya ’to, kung hindi naman sana horror yung napili niyang ipalabas, edi sana hindi ako makikipagsiksikan sa kanilang dalawa. Si Akie naman ay nasa tabi ni ate Vanessa, seryoso itong nanonood. Para siyang galit sa hindi ko malamang dahilan. Psh. Bahala siya d’yan.

Nagsimula ang pelikula at puros sigaw ang maririnig mo sa loob ng kwarto ni kuya. Ako naman ay nakayakap lang kay ate Vanessa dahil sa sobrang takot. Si kuya kasi eh, panay ang pananakot sa akin. Sasabihin niya na walang lalabas na multo pero ang totoo, may lalabas naman talaga.

Nakakainis! Bakit kasi horror pa, pwede namang comedy, romance, action, bakit kailangang horror pa!?

“Guys, we’re running out of junkfoods” Ate Jenny announced.

Oo nga, wala na kaming makain. Inubos na kasi nila kuya Anthony at kuya Mark.

“So, sino sa atin ang kukuha ng pagkain?” Ate Angel asked.

“Guys, why not let’s have some fun?” Ate Vanessa suggested.

“Huh?” Sabay-sabay naming tanong.

“Let’s play spin the bottle at kung sino ang matatapatan, as a dare, siya ang kukuha ng junkfoods. Game?” Hamon ni ate Vanessa.

“T-Teka lang po. A-Ano—” Kuya cut me off.

“May natatakot na baby” Pangaasar niya gamit ang boses na nakakaasar.

“H-Hindi kaya a-ako natatakot” Pilit kong tinapangan ang tono ng boses ko dahil tiyak na aasarin na naman ako ni kuya.

“Ayun naman pala eh. So, shall we start?” Ate Vanessa continued to push.

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I groaned.

Ang malas ko na naman oh!

Kuya smirked. I glared at him. Gustong gusto niya talagang makita na natatakot ako. Pero nagkakamali siya, hindi ako magpapatalo sa kaniya.

Kaya ko ’to!

“Go, Ian” Ate Angel and Ate Jenny cheered.

“Damihan mo ah” Utos naman nila kuya Mark at kuya Anthony.

“H’wag kang titili ah” Kuya Ash smirked. Tumawa naman yung girlfriend niya na may pasimuno ng lahat ng ito.

Tumayo ako at dumiretso sa pinto. Lumingon ako kay Akie, umaasang sasamahan niya ako pero mukhang wala siyang pakialam. Bakit ba siya nababadtrip? Tsk. Bahala siya d’yan.

Binuksan ko na ang pinto at lumabas. Maliwanag naman dahil may ilaw but the eerie silence made it difficult for me to walk in this kind of hall. Nakakatakot yung kawalan ng ingay.

Nakarating ako sa kusina ng walang nakakasalubong na multo o anumang nakakatakot na nilalang.

“Alam ko dito lang ni kuya ini-stock yung junkfooods eh” Lumingo ako sa paligid at napadako ang mga mata ko sa isang mataas na cabinet, above the sink. May nakasulat dito na ‘junkfoods’. So I conclude, doon ko makikita yung junkfoods.

I tried to reach for it as I tiptoed, pero hindi ko pa rin maabot. Gumamit na lang ako ng upuan at tsaka pumatong dito.

I tiptoed para makita ko nang maayos kung anong klase ng junkfoods ang meron, hinahanap ko rin kasi yung paborito kong pagkain, nachos.

“Gotcha” Pagkakuha na pagkakuha ko ng nachos ay sabay na namatay ang ilaw.

“Ahhh” Dahil sa takot ko ay nawalan ako ng balanse, I tripped my ankle at tuluyang nawalan ng balance. But I didn’t fall on the floor, someone catches me.

“Idiot” Akie commented.

“T-Thank you” Nahihiya kong turan.

Ibinaba ako ni Akie. Tinulungan niya din ako na magpulot ng mga nahulog kong pagkain.

“Next time kapag alam mong hindi mo kaya, h’wag mong gawin. Nagmamatapang ka eh” Masungit niyang turan.

Teka nga! Bakit ba ang sungit nito?

Maglalakad na sana ako papunta sa hagdan pero agad akong napakapit sa kitchen table matapos kong maramdaman ang kirot sa may ankle ko.

“Kita mo? Dahil ’yan sa pagmamatapang mo” My brows knitted out of confusion. Pumuwesto siya sa harap ko habang nakatalikod, then he kneeled. “Sakay” Utos niya.

“H-Hindi na—”

“Sakay” He said in a demanding voice.

Wala akong nagawa kundi ang sumakay sa likod niya. I wrapped my hand around his neck and he placed his hands on my thigh and then he lift me up.

“Stop pretending you are brave enough” Akie adviced.

“S-Sorry” I bit my lip.

“Sorry? Paano kung nahulog ka? May magagawa ba yang sorry mo?” Galit na turan ni Akie.

“Teka nga! Bakit ba galit na galit ka!?” Tinaasan ko na rin ang boses ko. “Hindi ko naman sinasadyang mahu—”

“Nagseselos ako!” I could tell that he’s gritting his teeth.

“Nagseselos kanino?” Naguguluhan kong tanong.

“Nagseselos ako dahil kay Vanessa ka lumapit kanina at hindi sa akin. You could have come for me, but you choose Vanessa over me” He ranted.

Anong sense nito?

“What do you mean?” Naguguluhan ko pa ding tanong.

“Kung natatakot ka, nandito naman ako. If you ever felt scared and unsafe, I wanted to be the one who will give you comfort and security. Ako lang at wala ng iba” He confessed.

Pfft. I bit my lip, pinigilan kong tumawa. I am gradually liking Akie’s childish side. Nagagalit siya dahil sa hindi niya nakukuha yung bagay na gusto niya. He is possessive in a childish way and I am liking it.

“Do you understand, Ian. Sa akin ka lang lalapit kapag natatakot ka, sa akin at wala ng iba pa. I will be your protector, I and I alone” He demanded.

I blushed. I rested my head at his shoulder and nodded.

“Okay” I smiled.

C H A P T E R - 019

Ian’s POV

“Ian, nabalitaan mo na ba? Sinuntok daw ni Akie si President Kevin” Shane gossiped.

“H-Huh? B-Bakit, anong nangyari? Okay lang ba siya? Nasaan siya ngayon” I frantically asked.

Shane scrunched her face. She looked at me quizzically.

“Bakit naman andami mong tanong sa kaniya? Para ka tuloy niyang girlfriend” She commented.

I blushed. Oo nga, nagmumukha akong nagaalalang girlfriend dahil sa sunod-sunod kong tanong.

“O-Of course, h-he’s my friend” Palusot ko.

Shane squinted her eyes at ngumiti na abot tenga.

I sighed.

“O-Okay. A-Ak––” She cut me off as she squealed. Her sudden noise brings us some weird looks.

“Oh my gosh. You and Ak—”

“Shane, shut up” I immediately cut her off, baka marinig pa siya ng mga estudyanteng nakapaligid sa amin.

“Oh. Yeah, sorry” She muttered.

Napabuntong hininga ako nang malalim. “Okay, Akie and I isn’t in a relationship just like what you are thinking of” Panimula kong paliwanag.

“Then…” She waited. She grinned and wiggled her brows.

I rolled my eyes. “Akie said he has something for me”

“What do you mean by ‘something’?” She questioned.

“Shane!” I groaned.

Her eyes widened. “Oh my god! Akie is gay!?” She gaped.

“Lower your voice” Tsk. Bakit ko ba ’to naging bestfriend?!

Tumingin ako sa paligid at buti na lang walang nakarinig sa sinabi ni Shane.

“Then, were the feelings are mutual?” She pushed.

I nodded timidly. “Y-Yeah” Mahina kong sagot.

Her eyes glistened with amusement.

“I knew it. I knew it. I knew it.” She repeatedly squealed.

“You knew what?” I knitted my brows. Ano bang pinagsasabi ng isang ’to.

“That you’re gay.” She uttered na tila ba ako at siya lang yung nasa school hallway.

I blushed. Nahihiya akong tumingin sa kaniya. May takot din sa puso ko na baka hindi niya ako matanggap ngayong alam niyang hindi ako straight. Natatakot ako na baka i-reject ako ni Shane as her bestfriend.

“Ano ka ba, Ian. You don’t need to feel ashamed. I will still be your bestfriend. I don’t mind what sexual preference you have. I choose you to become my bestfriend because you are who you are. Nothing would change” She assured. Nawala yung takot na bumalot sa akin.

“Y-You’re not di-disgusted?” I stuttered.

“Why would I? Ian, I love you for who you are. Besides, being gay is pretty cool.” She pointed out.

I smiled. I’m so lucky to have Shane as my bestfriend. Kahit na minsan nakakabwiset siya, pinaparamdam at pinapakita pa rin niya na mahal niya ko.

“Hmm. I wonder who’ll be the bottom…” She thought for a while. She placed her index finger and thumb at her chin. She rubbed it slowly while thinking of an conclusion. If it would be animated, Shane might have a cloud where her train of thoughts were displayed.

“Nah, definitely not Akie. It’s you Ian, you’re small, pale, and a lot more feminine than Akie so you’ll be the bot—” Agad kong tinakpan ang bibig niya. Pulang pula na ako sa mga oras na ito. How could she say those words in public!? I-It’s unethical.

“MmmMm” She grumbled.

“Shane. Could you please shut up!” I angrily whispered. She nodded in response.

I let go of her. She mumbled a short ‘sorry’ for her not-so-honest mistake.

“One last question, Ian” Pangungulit niya.

As I remember, Shane is five months older than me, pero mukhang mas bata pa siya magisip kaysa sa akin.

I sighed. “Fine. One last question” I finalized.

“Malaki ba?” She inquired and smirked.

“SHANE!” I blushed.

Humalakhak lang naman ito sa katatawa at patakbong pumunta sa silid namin.

Argh! Bitch.

---

“Ang hirap ng exam sa math. Mukhang babagsak na naman ako” Shane grumbled.

I chuckled. “Kung nagreview ka sana, hindi ka naman mahihirapan” Panenermon ko sa kaniya.

“Kahit naman magreview ako, wala pa rin akong maiintindihan. I couldn’t fathom every equations and formulas that were written in the book. It was like, I am reading an ancestral writing” She dramatically exclaimed.

I playfully rolled my eyes and chuckled. “You’re exaggerating, Shane” I pointed out.

“No, I’m not. Palibhasa kasi sisiw lang sa’yo ang sipnayan” She pouted.

“That’s the perks of reviewing before the exam” I retorted.

“Whatever” She snorted. “C’mon, gutom na ako, mamaya wala ng pagkain sa cafeteria” She held my wrist at dali-dali akong hinatak papunta sa cafeteria.

---

Katatapos lang namin maglunch nang may lumapit sa aming estudyante.

“Kuya Ian. Pinapaabot po sa inyo” A girl sophomore approached us as she gave me a letter.

“Kanino daw galing?” I asked.

“Sorry po, hindi ko po pwedeng sabihin eh. Sige po, bye!” She ran off unto the exit.

I curiously looked at the piece of paper na hawak ko. From whom it might be?

Binuksan ko yung papel at may nakasulat dito in a cursive way.

The vividness of your smile,

is like a bright star in a dusky sky.

I was captivated by your enticing eyes,

an abysmal place that I wanted to fill with a pronoun I.

You are an addictive drug,

and even it is illegal, I will still be glad.

Because y

ou bring happiness in my life,

that not even the most expensive gem could satisfies .

“Woah! Ang sweet naman” Shane commented.

I blushed. Ka-Kay A-Akie kaya ’to galing?

“Kanino daw galing?” Tanong ni Shane.

“Hindi ko rin alam. ’Yung tula lang yung nakasulat” Sagot ko.

“Baka kay Akie? Siguro manliligaw na siya sa’yo, Ian” She whispered with a squeal.

“Oh my fucking gosh” She giggled.

Namula naman ako nang lubos dahil sa sinabi ni Shane.

“I-Imposible” I muttered.

Si Akie, manliligaw? No way. Hindi niya ugali ’yon. Wala pa akong narinig na niligawan niya. Ang alam ko, Akie will just confess that he likes you, then he will wait for your answer. Hindi na siya nage-effort. He doesn’t exert too much effort. I-It is not his nature. Besides, lalaki ako, nililigawan ba ang lalaki?

“Well. Guess you’re wrong” Shane raised her brow and smirked. Nakatingin siya sa likod ko kaya naman napalingon din ako.

Bumungad sa akin ang isang rosas, may nakadikit ditong papel. Iniabot sa akin ito ng isa sa mga varsity player ng school, one of Akie’s friend.

“Ipinapaabot ni Captain” Nakangisi niyang saad.

“Oh. T-Thank you” Kinuha ko ’yung rosas. Umalis na ’yung lalaki, leaving me puzzled on what was happening.

I opened the paper only to find out a short message. An instruction.

’ Meet me at School’s Gym ’

---

“Bye, Shane. See you tomorrow” Pagpapaalam ko sa bestfriend ko.

“Bye. Balitaan mo ako ah” She waved and winked.

I blushed. She only laughed as a response.

Papunta na ako ngayon sa gym. Wala na masyadong estudyante since uwian na.

Bakit kaya ako pinapapunta ni Akie sa gym? Ma-Manliligaw kaya talaga siya gaya ng sinabi ni Shane? B-Baka naman may ibibigay lang? O baka may sasabihin lang?

Dahil sa lumulutang ’yung isip ko sa mga dahilan kung bakit ako pinapatawag ni Akie ay hindi ko napansin na may tao pala sa harap ko kaya automatiko akong dumiretso sa sahig.

“Shit” A voice of a girl hissed.

“So-Sorry” I looked at her at nanlaki ang mga mata ko. It was Krystel, the queen of our school. Kasama niya ’yung mga kaibigan niya, they looked at me as if I were a piece of trash.

“What the fuck? Look on the fucking way, nerd. Look what you have done” She ranted. She stood in front of me. Tinuro niya yung natapon na soda sa damit niya.

Tumingala ako dahil mas matangkad ng kaunti si Krystel compared sa akin. “That’s why I say sorry” I reasoned out with an emphasis on the word ‘sorry’.

“Do you think your sorry is enough?” She questioned. Tinarayan niya ako sa pamamagitan ng pagtaas niya ng kaniyang kilay.

Hindi ako sumagot. Ang arte naman niya. Nag-sorry na nga ’yung tao eh.

“Could you please get out of my way” She rolled her eyes.

She pushed me hard kaya napaupo ako sa sahig. Pinagtawanan naman ako ng mga kaibigan niya.

Argh! Fuck that bitch. Pasalamat siya at hindi ako pumapatol sa mga babae.

“Okay ka lang?” Someone asked me from behind. Tinulungan niya akong makatayo. Napatingin ako sa kaniya. He has black mark under his left eye and a bruise on his lip side.

“T-Thank you, Kevin” I hesitantly said. Hindi pa rin ako komportable sa prisensiya niya dahil sa ginawa niya sa akin last week. Hindi ko kasi inakala na kaya palang gawin ni Kevin ’yun.

“Uhm, Ian. A-Ano kasi…” He stuttered. I waited for what he’s about to say. “Sorry” He confessed.

Hindi ako sumagot, hinintay ko lang na siya ang magsalita.

“Forgive me for what I did. I didn’t really mean what I did, I-I was just—”

I smiled. “It’s okay, Kevin. H-Hindi naman ako galit sa’yo, nagulat lang naman ako sa ikinilos mo. H-Hindi ko lang talaga in-expect” I frankly told him.

“Thank you, Ian. Promise, babawi ako sa’yo” He inquired.

“You don’t have to” I chuckled.

“Please let me do” He forced.

“Okay” I smiled. “By the way. W-Why do you have bruises” I asked.

Hindi kaya galing ’yan kay Akie. Nai-kwento kasi sa akin kanina ni Shane na sinuntok daw ni Akie si Kevin.

W-Wait. Oh my gosh. Nakalimutan ko!

“It was from—”

“Sorry, Kevin. I have to go. Bye!” Mabilis kong pagpapaalam sa kaniya.

Hindi ko na narinig pa ’yung sinabi niya. Tumakbo ako nang mabilis papunta sa gym. I forget about Akie’s surprise.

---

Hinihingal akong nakarating sa gym. I saw Akie standing at the front door, he’s wearing a frown.

Lagot.

“Bakit ang tagal mo!?” Nakabusangot niyang tanong.

“Sorry” I mumbled while I am catching my breath.

Yumuko ako dahil sa kahihiyan. I bit my lip. Mukhang kanina pa siguro siya naghihintay. I should’ve considered his effort to wait, p-pero nakalimutan ko.

“Stop pouting. Baka mawala ako sa kontrol at mahalikan kita” He suddenly teased.

I blushed. Dali dali kong tinakpan yung bibig ko. Iniwas ko rin ’yung mukha ko dahil ayoko na makita niya na namumula ako, baka tuksuhin na naman niya ako.

“W-Why do you call for me” I asked.

“You’ll see” He smirked. Hinatak n’ya ako papasok sa loob ng gym.

The whole gym was filled with silence.

I pulled the hem of his shirt, tumingin naman siya sa akin na tila nagtatanong. “A-Anong m-meron?” Tanong ko.

“Wait for it” Ngumisi at kumindat pa ang loko.

A guy who’s at the same age as ours suddenly came out of the darkness of the gym.

I gawked at the man who’s now standing in the middle of the court. He’s holding a guitar. I knew him. He’s a student from Music club.

I jumped from a sudden voice which breaks the silence of the whole gym.

Minamasdan kita, nang hindi mo alam

Pinapangarap kong ikaw ay akin.

Akie started to sang. I wanted to laugh dahil hindi naman niya nakukuha yung tamang lyrics but he’s pushing.

Mapupulang labi, at matingkad mong ngiti.

Umaabot hanggang sa langit.

Akie positioned himself in front of me. He leaned forward then smirked. He leveled his face parallel to mine. Inilapit niya ’yung mukha niya na halos magkadikit na ’yung mukha namin.

Huwag ka lang titingin sa’kin at baka matunaw ang puso kong sabik.

I chuckled as he clutch at his chest dramatically.

Sa iyong ngiti, ako’y nahuhumaling.

At sa tuwing ikaw ay gagalaw ang mundo ko’y tumitigil.

He looked at me eye to eye. The happiness were lingering on his pupils.

Para lang sa’yo, ang awit ng aking puso.

Sana ay mapansin mo rin, na tunay ang aking pagtingin.

Akie changed the latter lyrics of the song. Pumwesto siya sa likod ko at niyakap ako. Namula naman ako dahil sa ginawa niyang pagyakap.

“Sana ay mapansin mo rin, na tunay ang aking pagtingin” He whispered the last sentence of the song. Para na akong kamatis sa sobrang pula ng mukha ko.

Kumalas siya sa pagkakayakap at bumalik sa harap ko. May inilabas siyang isang piraso ng rosas at iniabot ito sa akin.

“Like it?” He asked.

“Yeah” I nodded timidly as a response. “Kahit na wala ka sa tono” I chuckled.

Nakita ko naman na ngumisi lang si gago.

“I know” Aba! Mukhang proud pa siya ah.

“Pero kahit na hindi ako mahusay kumanta, mahusay naman ako pagdating sa kama” He playfully whispered.

Mahina ko siyang hinamapas. “Pervert” I blushed.

Tumawa lang ang mokong. Nang huminto siya sa kakatawa ay bigla siyang nagseryoso.

“From this day forward. I will make it official, I am announcing a courtship for you, Ian Salvador” He formally said. I bit my lip to prevent my laughter since Akie is acting weird, he looked tense.

“Fasten your seatbelt, Ian. Because I will make sure that you’ll experience the greatest courtship a man could give” He boasted. I blushed at what he said.

“Let’s go, ihahatid na kita sa inyo” He commanded.

Nagpasalamat siya sa lalaking tumugtog ng gitara, binayaran niya pa ito. Mukhang gumastos pa ang mokong para lang dito sa performance niya.

I couldn’t stop smiling. Para akong isang ibon na malaya at payapang lumilipad sa himpapawid. My heart wanted to explode because of the indescribable feeling that I cannot contain.

Nakarating kami sa bahay matapos niya akong ihatid, nag-taxi lang kami, siya rin ang nagbayad.

“See you tomorrow” He smiled and winked. Tumalikod na siya pero bago pa siya makalayo ay agad ko siyang hinabol at tinawag.

“Bakit?” Nagtataka niyang tanong.

Without second thoughts, I tiptoed and kissed his cheek. He stood frozen.

“T-Thank you” Mahina kong saad. I ran as fast as I can papasok sa bahay.

C H A P T E R - 020

Akie’s POV

Dalawang linggo na ang lumipas at patuloy pa rin ako sa panliligaw kay Ian.

Tangina.

The uncontainable joy is overflowing in every single vein inside my body.

Everytime I saw how Ian blushed and how he stuttered made me crave for more. Seeing his bright smile, chuckles, cute giggles and his enticing eyes is more than what I could ask for. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nababaliw sa kaniya. Hell, I can’t even believe na nagdesisyon akong manligaw, hindi ko nga nagawa ’yun sa mga naging girlfriends ko eh.

But, Ian is way more different. The first time I saw him noong freshmen pa lang kami, iba na yung nadama ko. Iba ’yung naging pagtibok ng puso ko, it became excited. I remember how innocent he is that day, he looked like a stray pup na takot na takot dahil sa hindi na niya kasama ’yung mommy niya. Hindi ko alam pero I wanted to be there for him. I wanted to comfort him until he felt secured.

Gusto ko rin na ako lagi ’yung pinapansin niya, that’s why I used to tease him. Gumagawa ako lagi ng paraan para lang mapansin niya. I remember the first time we talked wherein I called him ‘bansot’, galit na galit siya that day samantalang tuwang-tuwa naman ako kasi sa wakas ay napansin na din niya ako. He hated it everytime na inaasar siya sa height niya, so paulit-ulit ko siyang inaasar noon para lang mapansin niya ako. Alam ko ang gago ko, pero that’s the only thing para mapalapit ako kay Ian. Focused kasi siya sa pagaaral kaya wala siyang inatupag kundi ang mga gawaing pang-akademiko. It is also one of the reasons kung bakit hindi kami ganoon ka-close ni Ian, puro kasi siya pagaaral samantalang ako, puro basketball, tropa, at pambabae.

Yes, I used to have girlfriends. Alam ko sa sarili ko na may nararamdaman ako kay Ian but I refused the grunts of my heart thinking it was just an adornment, so naghanap ako ng mga babae. But, after ni Ian malipat sa ibang section at malayo sa akin, I felt devastated. Hindi ko alam pero my mind, heart and soul were crying for it misses someone, it misses, Ian. Every single day na hindi ko siya naasar at napipikon ay nakakagago. His smiles, grins, laughter, chuckles, frowns, snorts, glares, irritation and every fucking emotions of him ay hinanap ko. Jealousy and possessiveness took over me knowing na iba na ang maaring magpadama sa kaniya ng mga bagay na ako lang dati ’yung nakakagawa sa kaniya.

Fuck. I’m addicted. I am fucking addicted with Ian.

Kaya naman nang maging kaklase ko siyang muli ngayong taon na ito, I took all my courage para sabihin ko sa kaniya ’yung tunay kong nararamdaman. I am just so happy and blessed na tinanggap niya na manligaw ako. At first, I thought he was straight but everything went different yet easy. Sobra ’yung galak ng puso ko knowing that he accepted my feelings, noong una, inakala ko na wala na akong pag-asa dahil iniwasan niya ako but after our confrontation, I found something through his eyes, I found something that is more valuable than any kind of precious stone. And that ‘something’ is his feelings for me. I know he likes me too and our feelings were mutual.

Kaya hindi na ako makapaghintay na sagutin niya ako. Alam ko, I am very sure na magiging kami, and if that day comes, I will be the best and greatest boyfriend ever. I will treat him as a princess, a lord, a god. Papaligayahin ko siya at pauulanan ng pagmamahal sa bawat minuto ng aming pagsasama, isama mo na rin pati ang pagpapaligaya sa kaniya sa kama.

Fuck! That thought made my friend excited.

“Pre, kanina ka pa nakangiti na parang gago sa kawalan” Micheal snapped the hell out of me.

Nandito kami ngayon sa locker room ng mga basketball varsity player, katatapos lang kasi namin sa pageensayo.

“May iniisip lang, pre” Sagot ko sa kaniya.

“Is it Ian?” He mused.

“Yeah” I smirked. Micheal knows everything about us ni Ian. Alam niya noon pa lang na may gusto ako kay Ian and he accepted me for loving a boy even though I am a boy. He’s my friend since we were young kaya tiwala ako sa lalaking ’to.

“Mukhang inlove na inlove ang gago ah” Panunukso niya.

“Tangina mo!” I blushed a little. Fuck, si Ian lang nakakapagpakilig sa akin.

Humalakhak naman sa kakatawa ang mokong.

“But seriously, bro. Sobrang laki ng pinagbago mo ah. Wala na ’yung dating Akie. You look so complete and composed” He seriously commented.

“Who wouldn’t be? I’ve finally started courting Ian and it fucking gives me total completeness. Habang nakikita ko siya na nangumingiti, tumatawa, at masaya, napupuno ako ng sobrang tuwa at ligaya. I was bombarded with a lot of butterflies inside my stomach. No, I was bombarded with Ian’s being inside my mind, heart and soul” Sagot ko sa sinabi niya. Para tuloy akong nagtalumpati dahil sa sinabi ko.

“Puta, ang corny. Ganiyan ba ’pag inlove nagiging timang?” Panunukso ni mokong.

“Gago. Hindi pagiging timang ang tawag d’on. Once you’ve fallen inlove you’ll be dumb and crazy but it is because you found someone who’ll make your mind foggy and frenzy. Too much happiness, joy, and love could make you crazily inlove with someone. That’s why I am fucking crazy when it comes to Ian” I explained.

“Tsk. Ang corny talaga. Sige, mauuna na ako at mukhang hindi ka na makapaghintay na puntahan ang baby mo” Patuloy na pambubwiset ni Micheal. He tapped my shoulder as a brotherly gesture.

“Gago” I muttered.

“Si daddy Akie miss na si baby Ian” He teased with an irritating voice.

“Tangina mo. Umalis ka na nga” Binato ko ito ng twalya. Tatawa-tawa naman itong naglakad palayo.

Inayos ko na lahat ng gamit ko at agad na lumabas sa quarter. Kailangan ko pang sunduin si Ian.

Since friday ngayon, sigurado ako na nasa History club si Ian.

On my way patungo sa History club ay nasalubong ko ang isa sa mga babaeng kinabaliwan ko noon.

Krystel Honey Francisco.

“Hello” She sweetly greeted. Ayos ah! Anghel na anghel ang postura. If I didn’t know, I might really think that she’s an angel in disguise. But no, she’s a bitch. A fucking bitch.

I just stared at her nonchalantly. Walang kwenta. Nagsasayang lang ako ng oras.

“Hindi mo man lang ba kakamustahin ang ex-girlfriend mo?” She slyly smiled.

Fuck you.

I faked my smile at her. “Oh, hi” I deadpanned.

Dumiretso ako sa paglalakad pero napahinto ako sa mismong gilid niya dahil sa mga salitang lumabas sa bibig niya.

“How’s him?” She quizzically asked.

My eyes widened. Fuck. How did she know?

I gritted my teeth in annoyance. Hindi maaari. Ian is in danger.

“I met him once and—”

“Fuck off, Krystel” I warned her. She smiled in return.

“Oh, Akie. I just want to—”

“Leave. Him. Alone” I barked. My nose were flaring because of anger and annoyance. I could feel my veins in my head popping out.

She laughed modestly. Fuck this bitch. If I could only punch her through her guts, I would do. Pasalamat siya at babae siya. But once I’ve found out that she’s doing her fucking tricks with Ian, makikita niya.

I left her alone at the center of the hallway. I rather choose to be with Ian rather than to be with that bitch.

Pagkadating ko sa History club ay nadatnan ko sa labas ng classroom sila Ian at Kevin na naguusap. The nerve of this guy para kausapin si Ian.

Noong nakita ako ni Kevin ay agad itong nagpaalam kay Ian. Ngumiti pa ang gago. Teka, pinopormahan niya ba si Ian?! Tangina niya ah.

“Ehem” Malakas kong pagtawag sa lalaking nakatalikod sa akin. Humarap naman ito matapos marinig ang pagtawag ko sa atensiyon niya.

“Akie. Bakit ang tagal mo?” He pouted.

“Bakit kayo magkasama ni Kevin?” Hindi ko sinagot ’yung tanong niya bagkus ay sinagot ko siya ng tanong.

“We’re both member of the History club” He reasoned in a matter-of-fact but I could feel the confusion on why am I asking.

“Next time h’wag ka nang makikipagusap sa kaniya” I deadpanned. Inuunahan na naman ako ng selos ko.

“But why? Wala naman siyang ginagawang masama”

“But he already does” I spat.

“But he already apologized” He retorted. Mukhang pinagtatanggol pa niya ’yun ah.

“I don’t care. Don’t you ever talk to him again” I warned.

Kita ko naman ang pagkagulat nito. Ebidensya ang paglaki ng mga mata nito.

“Akie —”

“He might hurt you again” I said.

“No, he won’t. I swear Akie, he—”

I snorted. Mukhang ipagtatanggol niya pa ’yung mokong na ’yun ah.

“He will” I deadpanned.

“Just like what you did to him? I knew you hurt him” He protested.

“It’s for you Ian. Ginawa ko ’yun dahil dapat niyang malaman na hindi ka dapat sinasaktan” I reasoned out.

“But I know, this time, he will not do it again, Akie. Let’s give him another—”

“For pete’s sake, Ian…” Tumaas ang boses ko dahil sa pagkainis ko. Napayuko naman si Ian dahil sa kahihiyan.

“H’wag ka nang lumandi kapag alam mong may nanliligaw na sa’yo” I ranted. Mabilis naman siyang napatingin sa akin. Kita ko ang pamumuo ng luha sa mga mapupungay niyang mata. He bit his lip hard para pigilan ang pagbagsak ng mga luha niya.

“P-Para sa….sa i-ikatatahimik mo, h-hindi ako n-nakikipaglandian sa…sa kaniya” Hindi na niya nagilan pa ang pagluha.

Tuloy-tuloy ang pagbuhos ng luha sa mga mata niya. Bigla akong natauhan sa mga bagay na sinabi ko. Fuck.

Fuck the deity of jealousy for making me one of its victim.

“Ian, I’m––”

He sobbed. Pinunasan niya ang mga luha niya gamit ang kaniyang kamao. My heart stings for seeing Ian cry.

“H-Hindi pa nga t-t-tayo, t-tapos s-sinasaktan m-mo na a-ako” He faced me. The hurt and pain were evident in his eyes.

“S-Sige mauuna na a-ako” Pagpapaalam niya at sabay na tumalikod.

Nang makalayo na si Ian ay agad akong napamura nang malakas.

“Shit” Hinilamos ko ang mga palad ko sa mukha ko.

Ang gago mo, Akie.

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C H A P T E R - 021

Akie’s

POV

“Sana makahanap tayo ng chix sa bawat destinations” Masiglang turan ng kaibigan namin na si Felix.

“Kaya nga, balita ko marami daw mga sexy at magagandang babae sa Enchanted Kingdom pati na rin sa Manila Ocean Park. Puta, sana makabingwit” Hindi naman makapagpigil si Jericho sa kakabanggit patungkol sa mga babae na maari naming makita sa lahat ng pupuntahan namin ngayong fieldtrip.

“Putangina n’yo. Manahimik nga kayo” Pabirong sigaw ni Micheal.

Dati, kagaya kami nila Jericho at Felix but now, everything were changed. Micheal has his Angel and I am now courting Ian. Kaya naman hindi na kami ’yung dating chix hunters.

“Pre, okay lang ’yan. Kung naiingit ka, pwede ka pa rin naman maghanap” Natatawang pangaasar ng buong tropa kay Micheal.

“Gago. Loyal ’to.” Micheal boasted.

“Loyal your ass.” The whole peer teased.

Nagpatuloy ang paglalakad ng buong tropa hanggang sa makarating kami sa parking area ng school. Nandito lahat ng buses na gagamitin for educational tour.

“Pre, bakit ang tahimik mo yata? Mukhang hindi ka excited ah. May problema ba?” Panguusisa ni Micheal matapos mapansin na hindi ako nakikipagbiruan sa tropa.

“Wala.” I deadpanned.

He looked at me quizzically. Hindi na siya nagtanong pa dahil siguro nakikita niya na nababadtrip ako.

Paano ba naman kasing hindi ako magkakaganito. The whole weekend hindi ako pinansin ni Ian. Alam kong may mali ako, pero humingi naman na ako ng tawad. Hindi pa ba sapat ’yun?

Naiinis ako sa sarili ko for being such a rude and dumb suitor but at the same time, naiinis ako kay Ian dahil sa pakikipagusap niya kay Kevin. Tama naman ako ’di ba? Kung nililigawan siya, dapat hindi na siya nakikipaglandian sa iba. Kita naman na pinopormahan ni Kevin si Ian tapos eto namang si Ian sige sa pagentertain sa gagong ’yun. Tangina!

“Guys, settle all your baggages” Patiuna ng presidente ng klase.

“Once you’ve settled, pumwesto na kayo sa mga upuan niyo. This is first come, first serve. The last row will be filled by Micheal and his peer.” The bastard oriented, our class president, Kevin Wilson.

Nagsimulang magsipasok ang mga kaklase ko sa loob ng bus. I looked for Ian but I didn’t find his beautiful face sa paligid ng parking area.

Fuck! One of the possibility is, hindi sasama si Ian. Damn! This educational tour will end up boring if Ian will not come.

“Akie, tara na!” Pagtawag sa akin ni Micheal.

I took one last glance sa paligid ng parking area hoping that Ian’s body will suddenly pop right in front of me.

…..

“Last five minutes, kung wala ng dadating pa, aalis na tayo. Kindly text your classmates na wala pa. Especially kung katabi n’yo ’yung mga responsableng bata na tinutukoy ko.” Our adviser sarcastically implied.

Tumingin ako sa katabi kong upuan. Nanatili itong bakante. Fuck! Nasaan na ba kasi ’yung isang ’yon?!

“Ilan pa ba ang wala?” The voice of our adviser rang out.

“Dalawa na lang po, Miss. Si Mr. Salvador and Ms. Quizon.” Kevin informed. Tumango naman si Miss Yvon pero bakas sa mukha nito ang pagkainis. She hates those unpunctual students.

“Sa kabilang bus na sila mapupunta kung hindi pa sila makakarating sa loob ng limang minuto.” Inis na turan ni Miss Yvon.

No way. He’s my seatmate for this educational tour and if that doesn’t happen, the ride will be the dullest among the dullest.

Yes, you heard it right. Hindi na si Kevin at Ian ang magtatabi dahil matapos kong komprontahin si Kevin ay inutusan ko din itong ilipat ng upuan si Ian kung saan ako uupo.

But, all of those plans will end up useless kapag hindi dumating sila Ian sa nalalabing oras.

Nasaan

ka

na ba kasi, Ian!?

…..

Ian’s POV

“Bakit ang tagal mo?!” Bulyaw sa akin ni Shane.

Fieldtrip na fieldtrip late ako.

“Kuya’s fault” I muttered while I am catching my breath.

That bastard. Kuya is the one na gumigising sa akin sa umaga para hindi ako ma-late sa klase but that asshole, he purposely avoided waking me up para lang ma-late ako sa educational tour namin.

Bwiset siya. Ang lakas talaga ng trip n’on sa buhay. Humanda siya sa’kin. Makakaganti rin ako.

“No more explanation. Tara na at baka sa ibang bus pa tayo pasakayin. Gusto kong makatabi si Luke” She exclaimed excitedly.

Habang patakbo kaming naglalakad papunta sa parking area, I requested something from Shane.

“Shane, can we be the seatmate for this time” I begged. I pouted just to please her.

“Ian, we’ve been seatmate for a lot of times. Tsaka, it’s my chance para makapiglandian kay Luke” She said in a flirtatious voice.

I sighed. That word. That’s the reason kung bakit gusto kong makatabi si Shane, dahil baka isipin na naman ni Akie na nakikipaglandian ako kay Kevin kung makakatabi ko ’to sa bus. Ewan ko ba, wala ba siyang tiwala sa akin tsaka ganon na lang ba kababa ’yung tingin niya sa akin?! Does he really think that I am just toying his feelings? Damn him!

Sa dami ng iniisip ko ay hindi ko namalayan na nasa parking area na pala kami.

“Bus number ano ulit tayo?” Shane asked.

“Bus 5” I answered.

She looked at the whole vicinity to find the 5th bus.

“There” She pointed at the direction of a red coloured bus. “Come on” She held my wrist at mabilis niya akong hinila papunta sa bus na sasakyan namin.

…

“WHAT?!” Nageeskandalong sigaw ni Shane.

“Ms. Quizon. Late ka na nga at nakuha mo pa ring sumigaw?!” Panenermon ni Miss Yvon.

Napayuko naman ako at pinamulahan ng mukha matapos kong maramdaman ang mga titig ng ilan sa mga kaklase ko. Ganon na rin si Miss Yvon na galit sa akin dahil daw sa ipinakita kong kawalan ng responsibilidad. She also mentioned, me being an irresponsible honor student for not following the simple instruction of ‘be early’.

Argh. Damn you, kuya Ash.

“Sorry po, Miss” paghingi ng paumanhin ni Shane.

“Bakit naiba? Anong nangyari?” Mahinang bulyaw ni Shane kay President Kevin.

Bigla na lang kasing nagbago ang pwesto ng mga estudyante. Nadatnan na lang namin na magkatabi si Luke at Kevin.

“It was because A—”

“Ms. Quizon and Mr. Salvador, what are you waiting for? Umupo na kayo sa mga respective seats niyo” Naiinis na utos ni Miss Yvon. Hindi na tuloy nasabi ni Kevin ’yung rason.

Bumalik na ito sa tabi ni Luke. Wala namang nagawa si Shane kundi ang bumusangot.

“It’s okay, Shane. At least magkatabi tayo” I encouraged. She smiled as a response.

Nakarating kami hanggang sa last row ng mga upuan. Puno na ang limahang silya, pinupunan ito nina Micheal at iba pa nitong kaibigan.

Napalingon naman ako sa sumunod na huling mga upuan. Sa kaliwang bahagi kung saan nakaupo si Jericho, may bakanteng upuan sa tabi nito. Sa kanan naman ay si Akie, may bakante ring upuan sa tabi nito.

Shane heavily groaned. “Fuck this” She cursed.

…..

Akie’s

POV

I looked at Ian. Kanina ko pa siya katabi magmula nang umalis ’yung bus but he’s not recognizing my presence. Fuck this!

“Okay, class. You could sleep for a while. Since ilang oras pa ang byahe at alas-kwatro pa lang naman ng umaga. Bubuksan na lang namin ang ilaw kapag malapit na tayo for our first destination. Reserve your energies” Miss Yvon announced.

Ilang minuto lang ang lumipas at tumahimik bigla sa loob ng bus. Mukhang pagod din ang ilan sa mga kaklase ko kaya mabilis lang silang nakatulog, siguro limitado lamang ang naging oras ng pagtulog nila dala ng pagkapanabik sa lakbay aral namin.

“Psst. Shane” Pagtawag ni Ian kay Shane. Nasa opposite seat namin siya nakaupo, katabi si Jericho.

“Bakit?” Shane responded whispery.

“Nahihilo ako” Pagsusumbong ni Ian.

“Hala ka. Uminom ka ba ng gamot?” Nagaalalang tanong ni Shane sa kaibigan niya.

“I forgot” Ian sheepishly answered.

Shane groaned. “Ian, alam mo naman na mahihiluhin ka sa byahe ’di ba? Bakit mo kinalimutan?” She rolled her eyes.

“S-Sorry” Ian muttered.

“You could sleep. That would lessen the dizziness” I inquired habang nakatingin ako sa labas ng bintana.

“Akie is right, Ian. Itulog mo na lang ’yan” Shane agreed. Bumalik ito sa pagkakatulog.

Napalingon naman sa akin si Ian. In my peripheral vision, I saw him bitting his lip. Parang may gusto siyang sabihin na hindi niya masabi.

“Why?” I asked. Para kasi siyang bata na nahihiyang magsabi ng gusto niyang sabihin.

“I….a-ah..uhm..” He started. Pfft. I love everytime Ian stuttered. He’s cute whenever he stutter.

Napansin ko ang pagpula ng pisngi niya as we passed by a near street light along the road.

Tinaas ko naman ang kilay ko gesturing that I couldn’t fathom what he’s saying.

“I-I don’t know h-how to sleep h-habang naka-upo” He sheepishly confessed.

What?! Pfft. Ian is really a baby. Simpleng pagtulog habang nakaupo hindi niya magawa? Hahahahaha.

“M-Mom is a-always there kasi to let me sleep at h-her lap”

“You could sleep at my own” I smirked.

I saw his eyes widened. A blush crept up to his puffy cheeks. He gulped.

“N-No thanks” Pagtanggi niya sa alok ko.

Oh, Ian. H’wag ka nang tumanggi pa.

“It would be a struggle for you. Baka sumakit lang ang katawan ng baby” I teased.

He glared at me. Well, it’s okay na mapikon siya, at least pinapansin na niya ako.

Mas madali akong makakahingi ng tawad.

“You’re such a jerk” He pouted.

I smirked. I leaned forward at ikinulong siya sa upuan gamit ang braso ko. Inilapit ko ang mukha ko sa mukha niya, my nose barely touched his.

Napapikit naman siya nang mariin habang pulang-pula naman ang mukha niya dahil sa closeness naming dalawa.

“I know. But I know you still like me” I boasted.

“In your dreams” Pagtanggi nito. Itinulak ako nito pero hindi man lang ako natinag. “G-Get off” He hissed.

“No. Not unless you will sleep at my lap” I dealed. “It would be nice seeing you sleeping peacefully at my lap” I winked.

“A-Akie––”

“No more argument, Ian. You will sleep at my lap or we will stay like this until everyone woke up. Choose wisely, darling” I smirked and bit my lip teasingly.

“I could sleep at Shane’s lap” He dealed.

“That’s not part of the choices, darling” I shook my head.

“Wh-What if—”

“No, Ian. No ‘what if’s’.” I shook my head tantalizingly once more.

“Okay, fine. Ikaw rin naman ang mangangawit sa pwesto mo” He mockingly smiled at me.

I grinned.

No, Ian. Of course hindi ako

mangangawit

.

Narinig ko ang pagsinghap nito as I leaned closer at him. Inilapit ko ang bibig ko sa tenga niya at sinadya itong dampian ng halik. I could feel that he stiffened at my attacks.

“Good choice, Ian” I whispered as I rested my forehead at his shoulder.

…..

Ian’s POV

“A-Akie. B-Baka may makakita sa’tin” Pinilit ko siyang itulak palayo sa akin pero masyadong mabigat at malaki ang katawan niya kumpara sa maliit kong katawan. Isama mo pa na nahihilo na talaga ako kaya nawawalan na rin ako ng lakas.

“I said. Not unless you will sleep at my lap” He mumbled as he buried his face at my neck.

“O-Okay, fine. I-I will, just please get off now. Baka may makakita sa atin” Hindi naman ako nagpangalawang sabi pa at agad siyang humiwalay sa akin na may ngisi sa kaniyang mga labi. Damn this manipulator.

“The bed is ready, your highness” He teased.

I bit my lip. Nakakinis talaga ’tong lalaking ’to. Nakukuha niya talaga lahat ng gusto niya.

Dahil sa nahihilo na talaga ako at alam ko rin naman na kapag hindi pa ako pumayag sa gusto niya ay gagawin niya ang lahat, mapilit lang ako.

I saw him smirk as I lay down and rested my head at his lap.

Sana lang talaga walang mag-isip nang masama sa pwesto naming dalawa.

…..

C H A P T E R - 022

Akie’s POV

Ian is now sleeping peacefully at my lap. Seeing him like this gives tingling sensation all over my nerves but at the same it gives me hard restraint not to get hardened.

He stirred at napaharap ang ulo niya sa may umbok ko. Fuck!

No, baby Akie, restrain your self.

Sobra akong namula dahil baka may makakita sa amin at isipin na may ginagawa kaming dalawa ni Ian.

It was nice seeing Ian like this, near at my soldier. But not at this moment, nasa public kami. Better if we were like this if we’re on private, mamaya kasi ’pag may nakakita, si Ian ang asarin nang lubos. Okay lang kung makita nila na nakahiga si Ian sa hita ko but not at this angle. Baka hindi pa ako n’on patawarin mamaya.

Inayos ko ang pagkakaayos ng ulo niya.

“MmmMm” He moaned.

Fuck. I closed my eyes for a minute to restrain my self from getting even harder.

Pagkadilat ko, inaliw ko na lang ang sarili sa mga nadadaanan naming lugar, not bothered by my friend whose getting harder and harder.

…..

Ian’s POV

Someone pinches my nose.

“MmMm” Pagrereklamo ko. Hinawi ko ang kamay na ’yon palayo sa mukha ko.

Nagpatuloy ako sa pagtulog nang mawala ang pagpisil sa ilong ko.

“He’s like a baby”

“Look, the baby is still drowsy”

“Si baby mukhang pinagod ni daddy, kaya hindi pa rin magising”

Different voices rang out at my surrounding. Pero, t-teka, why is these voices were too familiar. B-Boses ’yon ni Shane, Micheal and Jericho ah? Bakit ko sila napapanaginipan? Sino ’yung tinutukoy nilang baby?

Then suddenly, everything came to my senses. Agad kong binuksan ang mata ko but the sudden ray of light hit my eyes kaya ibinalik ko ito sa pagkakasara. I adjusted my vision at agad na napatingin sa mga matang direktang nakatingin sa akin.

“Oh, ang baby gising na” Jericho teased.

“Kaya nga, mukhang mahimbing ang naging pagtulog ng baby ah” Dagdag na pangaasar ni Micheal.

“Syempre, nakatulog siya sa hita ni daddy eh” Pagsuhol ni Shane.

Really, Shane? Damn you.

Namula naman ako dahil sa naalala kong pwesto namin ni Akie. You might think that we’re doing that ‘thing’ dahil sa nakalagay ang ulo ko sa hita niya. B-But no, no we didn’t do that.

Argh. Bwiset.

Umayos ako ng pagkakaupo at pinaningkitan ko ng mata sila Shane.

“Kamusta naman ang naging unan ni baby, matigas ba?” Shane slyly asked me as she smirked.

Nanlaki naman ang mga mata ko at napanganga ako dahil sa isinaad ng kaibigan ko. What the hell?

Tumawa naman nang malakas sila Micheal kaya sobra na ’yung pagkapula ng mukha ko dahil sa kahihiyan. I’m not an idiot para hindi maunawaan kung ano ’yung gustong sabihin ni Shane.

Bitch. Are you really my friend?

Binato ko siya ng junkfood pero tumawa lang ito at sinumalang buksan ’yung pagkain. Bumalik na sila sa paguusap

Argh! This is all your fault, Akie Villaflor.

Napalingon ako sa lalaking may kasalanan ng lahat. Nakangisi lang ito habang nakatingin sa labas ng bintana.

“Bakit hindi mo ako ginising?” Bulyaw ko sa kaniya.

“It would be rude if I did” He innocently retorted.

Fuck you. Alam kong sinadya mo ’yun para asarin na naman ako. Argh! I hate you. I hate you, Akie Villaflor.

“Dapat ginising mo ako. Tignan mo, ako na naman ang naging sentro ng katatawanan” Pagrereklamo ko sa kaniya.

“Ako na nga itong nagmalasakit, ako pa may mali?” I rolled my eyes. He’s now using reverse-psychology. Great, Akie. Great.

Bwiset na ’to.

He’s really a jerk.

A complete asshole and a rascal.

I crossed my arms at tumalikod sa kaniya. Minsan hindi ko alam kung nanliligaw ba talaga si Akie. Suitors should show some respect for the girl they were courting with, and even I am not a girl, he should still respect me. Nakakainis, kasi alam naman niyang mabilis akong mapikon at ayaw na ayaw kong inaasar ako tapos hinayaan lang niya na makita ako ng mga kaibigan niya na nakahiga sa ganoong posisyon. Hindi ba niya naisip ’yon?

Argh! Nakakahiya at nakakainis!

“Sorry” I felt a soft whisper at the back of my neck.

“Please forgive me, your highness” He apologized. But I could still feel his cocky smirk.

Humarap ako dito but this time, I gave a lot of distance between the two of us.

“Sorry? Alam mo naman na ayaw kong inaasar, hindi ba? Pero bakit hinayaan mong makita nila akong nakahiga sa ganoong klase ng posisyon?” Tanong ko dito.

I glared at him. Tila naman hindi ito apektado sa galit ko at nakuha niya pang ngumiti. Aba! Inaasar talaga ako ng isang ’to.

“It is because…” He stopped for a while.

“Because…?” Hindi ko makapaghintay na tanong sa kaniya.

I swallowed hard as Akie neared his face at me. I could smell his minty breath. His closeness and breath brought blush to my face.

“Because if they will see you sleeping at my lap, they might think there’s something between us. By that, they would know that you’re already off limits. No one will dare to touch you, kiss you, hug you, make you blush, make you stiffen, make you nervous, and make you tremble the way I do. Because you are mine, Ian Salvador. Mine alone” He whispered.

That brings chills and shivers up to my spine. Naramdaman ko ang paginit ng mukha ko. Mas dumagdag pa ang init matapos niya akong halikan ng mabilis sa labi. Agad akong lumingon sa paligid kung may nakakita ba sa ginawa ni Akie pero buti na lang wala.

Ibinalik ko ang tingin kay Akie ngunit nakita ko lang na nakapikit ang mokong habang nakasandal sa upuan. A smile were painted at his beautiful features. Bahagya niyang iminulat ang kaniyang mata at tsaka kumindat sa akin.

Tumingin naman ako sa ibang direksyon upang itago ang pagkapula ng mukha ko.

Akie has been one of the primary reason for every tingling sensation inside my stomach. He’s also been the reason who bring inevitable smile at me.

Ibinalik ko ang tingin sa kaniya. He’s sleeping peacefully now, mukhang hindi siya natulog kanina just to look out for me. I sighed. Bwiset! Dapat galit ako sa isang ’to eh, pero wala pa siyang sinasabi, pinapatawad ko na siya. Ang lakas talaga ng naging epekto sa akin ni Akie.

Sinasaktan niya ako, but the love and affection he’s showing is much bigger than the pain he caused. So, how could I not forgive him?

Promise, Akie. This time, I will make sure that all your efforts will be payed off.

…..

“Wow. Ang ganda” I gasped at the building in front of me. The H2O Hotel.

“Is this your first time to be here?” Shane asked.

“No. I’ve been here the last time dad come home galing sa Canada pero bata pa ako n’on” I answered. “Tara na, Shane” Hinawakan ko siya sa palapulsuhan at akmang hahatakin na nang biglang may pumigil sa akin sa paglalakad.

“Sasama ka sa akin” Akie commanded.

“What?!” No way, hindi naman mahilig sa hayop itong si Akie, I’m sure mababagot lang siya. Tapos kalaunan yayayain na niya akong bumalik sa bus without enjoying the whole place.

Hindi niya pinansin ang sagot ko at nagsimula akong hatakin papasok sa loob ng Manila Ocean Park. Nakita ko naman na nakangisi sila Micheal at Jericho. Habang narinig ko naman si Shane na sinabing “enjoy”.

I rolled my eyes. Paano ako mageenjoy? Hindi nga ’to animal enthusiast eh.

…..

“Look, Akie. They are so beautiful” I was mesmerized by the beauty of the jellyfish inside the big aquarium. They glow brightly and beautifully.

“Yeah” Akie nonchalantly replied.

I rolled my eyes. Sabi ko na nga ba, mababagot lang ang isang ’to eh.

We are now here at the first station where jellyfish and other kinds of unusual animals were displayed.

“You could have let me stay with Shane, at least doon mageenjoy ako” Pagbubusangot ko.

“No way. Tsaka, hindi ka ba nageenjoy sa akin? Well then, better to show you what enjoyment is” He said as lean forward, akmang ilalapit na niya ang mukha niya sa mukha ko pero buti na lang at naharang ko siya.

“Bakit ba kasi hindi mo man lang ma-appreciate ’yung ganda nila? Ang boring mo kaya kasama, hindi mo man nga lang matignan ’yung mga ’to eh” Pagtukoy ko sa mga sea creatures na nasa loob ng malaking aquarium.

“I would rather choose looking at the amusement lingering at your eyes. Those animals are beautiful, but I don’t want to missed being mesmerized by your beauty” He winked.

Namula naman ako dahil sa mga sinabi niya.

“S-Shut up” I spat.

“Oh, Ian. You can’t hide your feelings for me, darling” He teased.

“W-Whatever” I pass through him at nauna nang maglakad papunta sa next station. I heard him chuckle as he followed after me.

…..

“Ian, let’s go. Bumalik na tayo sa bus” Akie groaned.

“What? Mamaya na. Hindi ko pa nalilibot ’yung buong lugar eh”

He sighed and groaned. Yehey. I won.

“Fine” He deflated.

“Hello, Ian and Akie” A sudden voice greeted us

“Oh! Hi, Kevin” I smiled as a greeting.

Tumingin naman ako kay Akie at nakita siyang nakatitig nang masama kay Kevin. Siniko ko siya, tumingin ito sa akin at ako naman ang tumingin sa kaniya nang masama.

“Greet him” Mahina kong utos sa kaniya.

“Hi” Akie deadpanned.

Nako naman. Nagseselos pa rin ba siya?

“Tara na” Hahatakin na sana ako ni Akie palayo pero pinigilan ko siya dahil pumayag na siya kanina na libutin ang buong lugar. Hindi na pwedeng magbago pa ’yung desisyon niya just because Kevin is here.

Akie gritted his teeth dahil sa pagpigil ko sa kaniya.

“Ian, tara na” Ma-autoridad na utos ni Akie. Sa tono niya palang, alam kong wala na akong magagawa.

“But, Akie. Please, just this one” Pakiusap ko sabay turo sa malaking ahas na nasa loob ng glass cage.

“Just that one” Pagpayag niya.

“Thank you” I smiled.

…..

Akie’s POV

“But, Akie. Please, just this one” Pakiusap ni Ian sabay turo sa malaking ahas na nasa loob ng glass cage.

“Just that one” Pagpayag ko. I sighed. He’s using his puppy look, may magagawa pa ba ako?

“Thank you” Ian smiled. Makakatanggi ba ako sa ngiting ’yan?

Masigla siyang dumiretso siya sa harap ng glass cage kung saan nakalagay ang malaking ahas.

“Like it? That’s anaconda. They are reptiles. They could be weighed three times as the weight of a man” Kevin informed. Tsk. Papansin ang gago.

“You like animal, too?” Ian beamed.

“Yes” Kevin smiled.

Tanginang ngiti ’yan, ang pangit.

“Cool” Ian complimented. Tsk. Ano bang ‘cool’ d’on? Parang hayop lang.

“Not really. Pero alam mo ba, the largest recoded Anconda lengthened 28 ft” Pagpapapansin ni Kevin.

“Wow. They are so huge” Manghang turan ni Ian.

“Psh. Mas malaki pa ’yung ahas ko d’yan eh”

“Huh?” Ian craned his head towards me.

“Wala” Pagbubusangot ko.

“Anacondas are territorial, too” Singit ni Kevin. Tsk. Papansin talaga ’tong isang ’to eh.

“Yeah. I am one, and Ian is my territory. So, get the hell out of him. Just so you know, I am dangerous if someone touches my territory” Seryoso kong sabi kay Kevin. Hindi naman siya sumagot.

“A-Akie” Pagtawag sa akin ni Ian. Napatingin naman ako sa kaniya at nakita ko na sobrang pula ng mukha niya.

Oh, well. Akie Villaflor defeated Kevin Wilson.

“Let’s go” Nakangisi ako habang hatak-hatak si Ian.

…..

C H A P T E R - 023

Akie’s POV

“That was fucking insane” Micheal shouted as we finished riding Space Shuttle.

“Yeah” Felix agreed.

“Fucking shit” Jericho blurted out.

Tumawa naman si Shane. Parang wala lang sa kaniya ’yung nangyari. Freaking bitch. Hindi man lang siya natakot sa ginawa naming pagsakay sa isa sa mga delikado at nakakatakot na ride here at Enchanted Kingdom.

Nilingon ko naman si Ian at nakita ko na nanginginig ito sa takot. I bit my lip to stop my laughter. Pfft. He’s like a trembling cub right now. Siya pa ang may lakas ng loob kanina na dito kami sumakay, ’yun pala takot naman siya.

“What?” He snapped. Nakita niya kasi na nakatingin ako sa kaniya at pinipigilan ang pagtawa.

“Nothing, darling” I sweetly replied.

“Nothing your ass” He snapped.

Oh, Ian. You’re such an oppressive cute little pup, trying to bark at anyone who would made something against his wants.

It’s cute tho. Fucking cute.

“Okay, guys. What are we going to ride next?” Shane enthusiastically asked. She’s jumping excitedly.

“Why don’t we try Disco Magic?” She suggested as we walk along the alley which leads to where the mentioned ride is.

“Are fucking crazy? There’s no way I will ride that thing” Jericho exclaimed.

“Coward” Shane whispered. She even rolled her eyes.

“Coward pala ah” Jericho said as he tried to attack Shane but Micheal and Felix stopped him.

“Ano ba?! Stop your quarrels for pete’s sake” I meddled. I tried to stay calm. These two resembles cat and dog. They always end up getting into their own fight, though, it was no serious. But, it was fucking annoying. Paulit-ulit na lang kasi sila kung magaway.

Tumigil naman sila sa pagsasagutan pero patuloy pa rin ang palitan nila ng masasamang titig sa isa’t-isa.

“Let’s take some break. Matagal pa naman ang call time. We still have four hours” I aforementioned. Tsaka isa pa, I wanted to have quality time with Ian when we were still here at one of the most wonderful and happiest place in the Philippines. I wanted to make this day memorable, as happiness, joy, fun and love will be at one. I will make sure that this day will mark as his bright and gorgeous smile will be plastered upon his beautiful face.

“Akie?” Ian suddenly called. I was lost in my train of thoughts at hindi ko namalayan na nandito na pala kami sa may food area ng EK, it was in the middle of the amusement park.

“Why?” I asked him.

“N-Nothing. Kanina ka pa kasi walang imik” Ian responded.

I smirked. May pilyong ideya ang pumasok sa isip ko. My devil is telling me to tease Ian once again. My devil is starving to see Ian’s blush once more.

“I was just thinking…” I smirked. Nakita ko naman na napalunok siya as I neared my face at his ear.

He was expecting me to say such slutty things. So, let it be. I won’t disappoint you, darling.

“Would you shout the same way as how you shout riding Space Shuttle once you get on top of me?” I questioningly whispered, darkly. I intended to graze my lips at his ear. I felt him stiffen. I moved my body away from him as I chuckled at his state right now. He’s red as tomato. Too ashamed on what I confessed to him.

I admit, it was really an arousal seeing Ian blush. It was cute.

“P-Pervert” He stuttered. I only chuckled as a reply.

“I was just teasing you, darling” I sweetly replied with a wink.

“Jerk” He pouted as the red hue at his face continues to grow.

Fuck! How could someone be as cute as Ian?!

…..

We were currently eating the food Micheal had ordered.

“What do we ride next?” Shane asked excitedly. She’s a ride enthusiast, for sure.

“Why don’t we try other facilities here more than riding those fucking machines?” Jericho exclaimed. Pfft. He’s an indeed coward. But, I agree, I would love to enter….wait a minute. Bakit ngayon ko lang naisip ’yon?

Napangisi ako sa panibagong ideya na pumasok sa isip ko.

“Why don’t we try their haunted house?” I tantalizingly looked at them.

Micheal, Felix, Jericho and Shane lightened up. Then, there’s Ian, being deflated after hearing my suggestion.

An almost unanimous decision.

This would be great.

…..

“Guys, let’s just try their 4D movies here” Ian suggested beggingly.

“But, Ian, I heard that their haunted house here is such a terrifying and mysterious place. I wanted to try it, it’s an experince” Shane oppressed his suggestion.

“Yeah. Shane was right. It would be a lot of fun” Micheal.

“That’s right. At least we didn’t need to ride those freaking machines” Jericho.

Ian’s shoulder gave up as it slid down. I could feel his fear. A minimal tremble vibrated in his whole system. He bit his lip hard, oblivious to my hungry look at his bitten lip.

“You don’t have to be afraid of that haunted house. You could stick with me. I would protect you” I said in a sexy and teasing voice.

“You don’t have to. Because I will not enter that scary thing” May diin niyang turan sabay turo sa isang bahay na madilim na balak sana naming pasukin.

“You can’t backout at this, darling” I slyly smirked at him.

He arched his eyebrow. “Why not?” He questioningly defended his decision.

“Because if you would not come, then I will kiss you here in the middle” Banayad kong pagbabanta sa kaniya as I looked around us.

Ian’s eyes widened. Napatingin din siya sa paligid namin at nakita niya ang dami ng bilang ng tao.

“That’s unreasonable” He exlclaimed.

I smirked. He very well knew that I could do that.

“It is, darling” I teased.

He gritted his teeth. He narrowed his eyes as a glare escaped at his big doe eyes. He sighed in defeat.

Oh, Ian. You’re easy to be manipulated.

…..

“A-Akie, I-I t—thought you knew w–where the e-exit is?” Ian frantically asked.

We are now inside of the haunted house. Kami ni Ian ang magkasama since by twos ang pagpasok.

“Of course, darling” I smirked.

But let’s make this journey a lot more fun . My evil side whispered.

“P—Pero, b-bakit parang n-naliligaw tayo?” He fearfully asked. He’s cluthing at my jacket like a child which is afraid to be left behind in the dark. He’s clutching at me as if I’m his lifesaver in the middle of his agony.

I intended to misguide him. This would make my plans lead into success.

“Akie. Where are we? Gusto ko nang lumabas dito” Pagmamakaawa niya. He’s begging like a child and I’m liking it. I love seeing Ian beg at me. It was just too perfect and cute.

Biglang bumalik yung nakakatakot na tunog as we continue finding where the exit is. Actually, it would not be hard for me to find where the exact exit is, but on Ian’s side it would be, so this is the perfect moment to execute all my plans.

“Ian. I actually know where the exit is” Pauna kong sabi. Nakita ko naman na nagulat siya at lumiwanag ang mukha nito. He grinned as he waited for me to drag him where the exit place is.

Fuck! Don’t do that face, Ian. I might ravish you right in front of all the ghost imitators here.

I breathed out a heavy breath. Ian is doing this cute face of his that will wrecked your wall of restraints.

“So, what are we waiting for?” He impatiently asked. “Come’on, Akie. I couldn’t stand being here for this long” He held my wrist as he tried to pull me out of where we’re standing. But it was futile. I barely budge at my position. He looked back at me, confused on why I didn’t move.

“Kiss me” I demanded.

“W–What?” Ian stuttered and even the place were dim-lighted I could still see his flushed face.

“Kiss me. Then, we’ll leave this place” I dealed.

“No way. If you don’t want to, then I will leave this place, all by myself” He turned down my proposal as he turned his back on me. He’s about to leave as a sudden beheaded body fell right in front of him.

A loud and startled yelp escaped on him. He tripped himself as he tried to back down from the thing which terrifies him. As he tried to moved farther away from the hanging body he end up bumping at my chest. He looked at me, fear were visible at his eyes.

I chuckled. Oh, Ian. Don’t pretend to be that brave.

“So, are you going to kiss me or are we just going to stay here until the night comes. I bet real ghost exist here” I smirked. Gusto kong tumawa nang makita ko ang paglaki ng mga mata ni Ian. Such a gullible person.

Tumingin siya sa akin. He’s battling the urges to just give up to his pride.

“Just kiss me, Ian. It was just one kiss” I played.

“J-Just o-one?” He asked in uncertainty.

“Yes, darling. Just one” I convinced.

“O-Okay. But promise me that we’re going to leave this place as soon as possible”

“Sure, sweetheart” I cheekily replied.

He tiptoed to reach for me. Our faces were almost an inch apart, as he slowly neared his face with mine.

He closed his eyes, too ashamed to look at my teasing eyes and smirk. I moved my head away from his to tease him. More of that I wanted to kiss Ian right now and then, it was kinda gladdening, knowing that Ian will take the first move.

He groaned. He looked at me pleadingly. His eyes becomes watery.

“Seems like you can’t reach me. How could you able to ki––” Nagulat ako matapos hatakin ni Ian ang jacket ko palapit sa kaniya. I was startled at his sudden attack and find myself being drowned with his kiss.

Fuck! Ian is kissing me.

He was about to seperate our kiss but before he could even do that, I’ve been able to held the back of his head to prevent him from escaping. His lips was fucking soft and addictive. It was drowning me in an indescribable sensation. I don’t want to end this fluttering feeling inside my system.

I kissed him slowly. He’s not answering my kisses, instead he placed his arms on my chest as he pushed me away from him. But I barely budge. I placed my other hand around his waist and pulled him closer. My slow kisses turned into deeper one. I need his answer, I need him to kiss me back.

I continued kissing him until I felt his timid reply. He shyly kissed back. I bit his lower lip to thrust deeper at his foreign flesh. He gave in as I pushed my tongue inside of his mouth. I tried to be gentle at first but my restraints inevitably faded because of the different taste Ian has. He has this sweet taste that resembles a necter that bees couldn’t lived without, and I am that bee. Fuck! How could someone be as tasty as him.

“Fuck, Ian. You’re fucking delicious” I said in between of our kisses.

I was totally lost on my desires and by his sweetness that has been my driving force to continue kissing him torridly. I heard him moan and groan. I kept aside his struggle to regain his stable breathing as I continue kissing him. I was now oblivious at his harsh tugged on my jacket. He’s silently begging for me to stop. But, how could I stop? It was fucking addictive.

“Hala, ’yung mga mumu nagkiki-kiss”

“Oo nga. May nagkikiss pala na mumu?”

That was the time I stopped. Ian and I looked at the group of children whose watching us.

“Mumu rin po ba kayo?” A cute boy asked.

Tumingin ako kay Ian at nakita ko na sobrang pula ng mukha niya. Tumingin siya sa akin at ngisi lang ang naging sagot ko rito.

“Boo” I breathed out as they frantically ran out of our sight. I chuckled at their reaction.

Ibinalik ko ang tingin ko kay Ian na hanggang ngayon ay pulang-pula pa rin ang mukha.

I leant forward as I teasingly and sweetly whispered…

“Boo”

…..

C H A P T E R - 024

Akie’s POV

“What took the both of you so long?” Jericho irritatedly asked.

“Ask, Ian” Tumingin ako kay Ian at sobrang pula pa rin ng pisngi niya.

“I…we…I-I…w-well…we”

Nakita ko ang pagkunot ng nuo ng mga kasama namin dahil sa hindi malamang sasabihin ni Ian. Since he’s struggling to make an explanation for what we did, then I will be the one who will.

Inakbayan ko siya at hinatak palapit sa akin. With wide eyes, he stumbled as I pull him closer to me.

“Naligaw kami” I simply said. “Right, Ian?” Ian timidly nod as his response, too ashamed to speak.

Shane squinted her eyes and she threateningly looked at me. “Hoy, Akie. Anong ginawa mo kay Ian? May ginawa ka sa kaniya ’no? Anong ginawa mo sa bestfriend ko” She hysterically exclaimed. Hinatak niya si Ian palapit sa kaniya at inobserbahan ito.

I rolled my eyes. “Stop acting like his mother. What I did is no bad” I reasoned out.

She snarled at me. She’s overprotective when it comes to Ian. I might get jealous to her but knowing that they were just friends, there’s no need to get jealous.

“Tama na nga ’yan. Let just go for our last ride. It would be a lot of fun” Micheal meddeled.

Naunang maglakad sila Shane at Ian papunta sa pilahan ng isa sa mga pinakamalaking Ferris wheel sa Pilipinas. Nakasunod si Jericho sa kanilang dalawa samantalang nasa likuran naman ako kasabay ang dalawang tukmol, sila Micheal at Felix.

Micheal nudged me to call my attention. “Gago ka. Anong ginawa mo kay Ian?” Tanong nito. Tsk. Chismoso rin ang gago.

“Nothing. Let’s just say, we’ve kissed” I smirked. There’s no way I will keep what I did as a secret. I would be proud to boast that Ian and I kissed.

“We’ve kissed? Bro, I think it should be ‘you kissed’ him” Panunukso ni Felix.

Aba, gago ’to ah.

“Bobo” I muttered.

“Tangina mo. Totoo naman, pre. Ikaw? Hahalikan ni Ian? Alam mo naman na mahiyahin ang isang ’yun. Ian would never take the first move. Kaya ’wag mo kaming lokohin” Mahaba niyang paliwanag. Napangiti ako dahil tama naman talaga si Felix. But I am, Akie Villaflor, and I will do everything just to make what I want happen.

“He did and he kissed me back” I proudly tell to my friends.

“Tangina mo, Akie. Kaya ba gustong-gusto mong pumasok sa lugar na ’yon? Aba, tuso ang gago” Binatukan ko si Felix dahil sa sinabi niyang ’yon. Tangina naman nitong kaibigan ko, walang kasupo-suporta.

“Aray” He pouted. I wanted to puke. Felix is fucking ugly whenever he pout.

“Gago ka, Akie. Nanliligaw ka pa lang sa lagay mong ’yan ah? Tsaka, halik lang ba ’yun? Hindi mo ba nakita ’yung sugat ni Ian sa gilid ng labi niya, it wasn’t just kiss, Akie, I bet it was harsh. Remember na naliligaw ka pa lang, so you must take it smooth and gentle” Micheal adviced.

“Also, Ian is not the type of a girl—no, erase that one. Ian isn’t the type of someone who will fall for those dirty and tricky way of courtship. You should be sweet, man. Show him your gentle side. Show him the Akie Villaflor that is sweeter than sugar. Show him the serenity which is bomabarded with sincerity” Micheal added.

Damn. I didn’t expect those words coming from my friends. May word of wisdom din pala silang itinatago.

I nodded. Tama siya, hindi maganda na pinipilit ko si Ian sa ayaw niya. But, how could I be sweet? Hindi ko pa nga naranasang manligaw?

Haranahin ko ba siya ulit? Tsk. Baka sawa na siya sa ganon. Bigyan ko kaya siya ng bulaklak? Pero walang bulaklak dito sa EK.

Argh. Why does it need to be so hard? I just want to show Ian my affections. Bahala na, basta kailangan kong maipakita kay Ian ang sinseridad ko sa panliligaw sa kaniya.

Enough for those deceitful way of courtship. Let’s make Ian squirm and blush because of my gentle love.

…..

“Ang bagal naman ng pila” Pagrereklamo ni Jericho. Tumingin sa kaniya ’yung ilan sa mga taong nakapila, mostly, mga bata dahil this ride is one the safest one.

“Nakakahiya ka. Tumigil ka nga sa pagiging eksaherada mo” Shane snapped him. Tumigil naman ito sa pagrereklamo dahil nakadama na rin siya ng pagkahiya marahil sa mga titig ng mga tao na nasa paligid.

May batang lalaki ang biglang tumigil sa harap naming anim. He was about seven years old. Nagliwanag ang mukha ni Ian matapos makita ang cute na bata. Ian loves children because he wanted to be a Pediatrician.

“Hello po” Masiglang pagbati ng bata.

“Hello. Ang cute mo naman” Papuri niya sa bata.

“Chalamat po” The child grinned.

“Naliligaw ka ba?” Ian softly asked.

“Hindi po. There’s my mom po oh” Sabay turo nito sa isang babae na nakaupo sa isang bench.

“I wanted to come here po kasi po namukhaan po kita eh. ’Di pa po ikaw po ’yung mumu na nakikipagki—” Naputol ang dapat na sasabihin ng bata dahil mabilis na lumuhod si Ian at tinakpan ng kamay niya ang bibig ng bata. I saw Ian sighed.

“Ano daw? Bakit mo naman tinakpan ’yung bibig ng bata, Ian. Hindi ko tuloy naintindihan ’yung gusto niyang sabahin” Pagrereklamo ni Jericho.

“A-Ah. W-Wala ’yun. H-Hindi ba, baby boy?” Panguuto ni Ian sa bata. I tched. Buti pa ’yung bata tinawag niyang baby. Samantalang ako wala man lang endearment na naririnig mula sa kaniya.

“Chabi ko po—”

Hindi na napagpatuloy ng bata ang dapat na sasabihin nito dahil binuhat siya ni Ian at kiniliti. The boy giggled vigorously.

“Ta––ma na…p-po” Nahihirapang saad ng bata dahil sa ginagawa ni Ian.

Tumigil si Ian at napayakap sa kaniya ang bata. Tumingin ito kay Ian na umiiling na wari’y sinasabing, ‘don’t say to them’. Naunawan naman ito ng bata at masiglang tumango.

Tsk. Badtrip naman talaga oh! Napunta tuloy ’yung atensyon ni Ian sa bata.

“Kuya, can I ride with you there” Tanong ng bata kay Ian sabay turo nito sa Ferris wheel.

Tatangi pa sana ako pero agad na tumango si Ian.

“Of course, Sam” So, Sam is the name if this kid. Aba, ayos, close agad sila. I gritted my teeth. Moment dapat namin ni Ian ’to eh. Damn this boy.

Pinaningkitan ko ng mata ang bata at nakita ko na muntik na itong maluha pero agad na pinatahan ito ni Ian.

“Akie!” Panunuway ni Ian sa akin. Tsk.

“But, how about your mom?” Tanong ni Ian.

Oo nga, doon ka na lang sa mama mo!

“Mom will wait for me” He assured. Tsk. Badtrip naman talaga oh.

“Next” Hindi namin napansin na kami na pala ang sunod sa pila. Naunang sumakay si Ian habang buhat pa rin si Sam. This ride can occupy four person but we choosed to make it by pair. Pero dahil sumingit itong si Sam, naging tatlo tuloy kami.

Damn this.

…..

“Kuya Ian, look” Sam.

“Sam, be careful” Ian.

Tsk. Mukha tuloy akong third wheel sa bonding nilang dalawa. Tangina naman oh.

Patuloy lang sa pagikot ang Ferris wheel at malapit na kami sa pinakamataas na pwesto kung saan tanaw mo ang buong Sta. Rosa, Laguna. Lumakas din ang ihip ng hangin and since the windows of this ride were open, the cold breeze easily penetrated our skin.

“K-Kuya Ian. A-Ang l-l-lamig po” The kid stuttered. Wala kasi itong suot na jacket kaya naman agad itong pinanindigan ng balahibo nang tumama ang malamig na simoy ng hangin.

“Here, Sam. Wear this” Hinubad ni Ian ang jacket niya at pinasuot kay Sam. Yumakap ito sa kaniya at nagpasalamat.

Nakita ko naman na pilit nilalabanan ni Ian ang panlalamig na nararamdaman niya.

“Kuya Ian, you’re shaking” The kid worriedly said.

“I-I’m o-okay” Ian stuttered.

I rolled my eyes. Tumayo ako at hinubad ang jacket ko. Nagulat si Ian nang ilagay ko ito sa likod niya at ipinasuot sa kaniya.

“Wear this” Utos ko sa kaniya.

“A-Akie. You d-don’t have to—”

“I insist” Mariin kong pagputol sa gusto niyang sabihin.

Napalunok ito at nakita ko ang pagpula ng kaniyang mga pisngi. I snickered. Gusto pala talaga ni Ian ang ganitong uri ng pagpapakilig sa kaniya.

Isinuot niya ang jacket sa pamamagitan ng tulong ko. The jacket was too big for Ian’s small frame but seeing him wearing what’s mine, it was as if, he’s mine as well. No, he’s indeed mine.

“Ang sweet niyo naman po” Papuri sa akin ni Sam.

I know.

“Crush niyo po ba si kuya Ian?” Inosenteng tanong ng bata.

“S-Sam!” Panunuway ni Ian. His face flushed redder that before.

“Yes, Sam. In fact, I’m in love with him” I truthfully confessed. Yes, what I am feeling right now is’nt just puppy love.

Gulat naman na napatingin si Ian sa direksyon ko at sinuklian ko lang iyon ng pagkatamis-tamis na ngiti.

“You should kiss him” Gulat na napatingin si Ian sa bata habang nakangisi naman akong nakakatitig kay Ian.

“Kiss, kiss, kiss” Sigaw ng bata.

Ayos, may matino din palang magagawa itong batang ’to.

“S-Sam. D-Don’t shout” Saway ni Ian. Tumigil naman sa kakasigaw si Sam.

“You want me to kiss your kuya Ian?” I slyly asked.

The kid repeated and rapidly nodded.

“Pa’no ba ’yan, Ian? Request ng bata” Pangangantyaw ko sa kaniya. Hindi naman ito tumanggi pa.

Lumapit ako kay Ian at inilagay ang magkabila kong kamay sa railings ng sinasakyan naming makina. Nakaupo lamang siya at kinakabahang nakatitig sa akin. I leaned closer and closer until I felt my nose brushing against his. I tilted my head a little to find the perfect angle for a perfect kiss.

Our lips locked. My kisses were slow at first because I wanted to cherish the intoxicating taste of him. I pressed my lips deeper the moment I felt his replies. Ian were kissing me now willingly. He wrapped his hand around my neck as our kiss deepened. I bit his lower lip and without any force he opened his mouth for me to finally enter him once more. I slid my tongue into his sweet mouth. He’s fucking sweet and it was intoxicating my whole system. I probed his innocent mouth with the use of my naughty tongue. No part was left untouched. Ian moaned as I bit his lip a little more harder.

“You’re so sweet, darling” I said in a husky and rasped voice. I was about to continue kissing him again but I stopped because of the sniffles and sobs I heard.

Napalingon ako kay Sam ganon din si Ian. Nagtatakang lumapit si Ian dito at mahigpit itong niyakap. Pinatahan niya ang musmos at ilang minuto lang ay huminto na rin ito sa paghagulgol pero naroon pa rin ang panaka-naka nitong pagsinghot.

“Why did you cried?” Nagaalalang tanong ni Ian sa bata.

“H-Hin—di….n-nam—an…..po ’y-yun k-kiss eh” He cried again.

Nahihiyang nagiwas ng mukha si Ian at nakita ko ang muling pagpula ng pisngi nito. Samantalang kagat ko naman ang aking labi upang pigilan ang nagbabadyang pagulayaw ng aking tawa.

See, Sam? That’s how in love I am to your kuya Ian.

C H A P T E R - 025

Ian’s POV

“Tahan na, Sam. Hindi na mauulit.” Pagpapatahan ko sa batang patuloy sa pagiyak. Binuhat ko ito at inilagay sa hita ko. Tumingin ako kay Akie at nakita ko na nakangisi lang ito habang sumisipol-sipol pa.

It’s his fault. Sabi kasing kiss lang eh, b-but, I kissed him too. I kissed him back and not just that, I fucking let him probed my mouth. I let him explore my foreign part and… and I fucking liked it. Argh. I hate my self for giving up from my desire. Nakakahiya kasi para akong pakipot na ewan. Bakit ba kasi ako nagpadala sa sensasyong dala ni Akie. Bakit ko ba hinayaan na mahalina sa tanglaw at init na inilalabas ni Akie. Fuck! What am I saying? Damn.

“K-Kuya Ian. A-Are you h-hurt?” Tanong ng bata habang patuloy pa rin sa paghikbi.

I shook my head. “No, Sam. Why would I?” Marahan kong tanong sa bata.

“B-Because kuya Akie bit your lip” Namula ako dahil sa sinabi ni Sam. Nakakahiya. Nakita pa ng bata ’yung kahalayan naming dalawa.

“You’re bad kuya Akie, you hurt kuya Ian” Tumingin ito nang masama sa lalaking pigil ang pagtawa. Sam’s nose flared but it doesn’t give him the pissed off aura, he merely resembles a small angered puppy.

Umalis ito sa pagkakaupo sa hita ko at dumiretso kay Akie.

“I hate you! I hate you for hurting kuya Ian” Sinuntok nito ang nakaupong si Akie. Tumawa lang naman ang mokong at hinarangan ang mga maliliit na kamao ni Sam na patuloy lang sa pagsuntok sa kaniya.

“I hate you” Hininihingal na sigaw ng bata.

Yumuko si Akie para maging pantay ang kanilang mukha. “I didn’t hurt your kuya Ian” He whispered. But, that was still audible.

“Liar” Sam glared.

“No, Sam. In fact, Ian loves what I did” Mapunksong tumingin sa akin si Akie na may nakakalokong ngisi sa kaniyang labi. Naramdaman ko naman ang pamumula ng mukha ko dahil sa kapilyuhan ni Akie.

“Really?” Inosenteng tanong ni Sam. Tumingin si Sam sa akin at lumapit.

“Kuya Ian, is kuya Akie telling the truth?” Sam asked.

Tumingin ako kay Akie, nakangisi lang ang gago. Tch.

“Tell him, Ian. You liked what I did, right?” Mayabang at mapagmalaki niyang tanong.

What should I say? Kapag tumanggi ako, baka umiyak na naman si Sam. Kapag naman sinabi kong oo, Akie’s ego will ascend. That’s for sure.

“S-Sam. Just don’t mind what happened. It didn’t hurt me” ’Yan na lang ang naisip kong isagot.

“But you had small bruise on your lip” Sabay turo nito sa labi ko. My tongue automatically licked the part which Sam pointed at, naramdaman ko ang lasa ng dugo. Damn, Akie.

“A-Ah, w-wala ’to. H-Hindi naman masakit” Pagpapalusot ko.

“So, you enjoyed what kuya Akie did?” Inosenteng tanong ni Sam. Bakit ganon? Even with Sam’s innocent words, it could easily bring heat up to my face.

“Answer him, Ian” Pagsuhol ni Akie.

Damn you asshole.

“Sam, I am okay, you don’t ha––”

“Actually, Sam. Kuya Ian answered back kuya Akie’s kisses, so, he wanted it too. Right?” Pilyong tanong ni Akie sa bata. Nako, lalasunin pa niya ’yung utak ng bata eh.

Etong si Sam ay tumango naman. Psh. Nagpapaniwala mas’yado sa sinasabi ng mokong.

“That’s irrational” I retorted.

“Oh, Ian. Quit denying, just admit that you were caught by my kisses” Kumindat pa ang gago. A red hue crept to my whole face, I was just so thankful that the darkness of the night hid the flushness of my face.

“Besides, I’m a good kisser and I know that you fell on my trap” Pagmamayabang niya. Fuck! Nakakainis. Sige na, ako na itong nalunod sa halik niya. Ako na itong nablangko ang utak.

“You kissed back kuya Akie. You love him too, didn’t you?” Tanong ng bata. Tangina, saan nanggagaling ’yung mga tanong niyang ’yan? Bata ba itong si Sam or isang talkshow host?

Napatingin ako kay Akie. Wala na ’yung ngisi sa labi niya. Wala na ’yung pilyong tingin niya. All that was left was his encouraging eyes, his hopeful stares, his trembling facade as he waited for my answer.

I was muted. Wala akong masabi. Hindi ko alam ang dapat na isagot.

Am I in love with Akie?

Sa loob ng ilang linggo niyang panliligaw, he showed his love and different ways of eanderment. I felt special. I felt the different kind of happiness whenever he’s around. His kisses means a lot. He kissed me as if I’m his. He protected me as if I’m a rare kind of candy that he’s afraid to lose with. He owned me, and that was something I felt bizarre. He was always there to make me smile, blush, tremble, laugh, and squirm. He’s been there to fill something in my heart that I felt missing for almost eternal. In just a span of two weeks, Akie showed his love for me.

He made me realize that I’m gay.

He made me realize that I’m in love with someone.

He made me realize that I’m in love with him.

Damn. I am indeed in love with Akie Villaflor.

“Ian. Why are you crying?” Nagaalalang boses ni Akie ang pumutol sa mga ideyang naglalaro sa aking isipan.

“H-Huh?” Hindi ko napansin na naiyak na pala ako. The love that was filled with uncontainable happiness made me cry out of felicity and delight.

Naramdaman ko ang matikas na braso ang biglang bumalot sa akin. Napasubsob ako sa dibdib ni Akie at doon umiyak. Akie comforted me by simply chucking his hand at my back. The warmth of Akie made me relaxed.

“I-Ian” Halos pumiyok na si Akie sa pagtawag sa pangalan ko. Humiwalay ako sa pagkakayakap niya at agad na pinunasan ang mga luha ko. Tumingin ako sa kaniya at nakita ko ang lungkot at pagkabigo sa mapungay niyang mga mata.

“It’s okay if you still can’t a-answer that question. I’m willing to work hard and pursue for your yes” He reassuringly smiled. Napalunok ito at nagiwas ng tingin.

“You don’t have to hur––” Natigilan ito dahil sa mabilis kong paghalik sa kaniya.

He stayed still. He looked at me with wide eyes. I maneuvered my lip as our lips locked. I tugged his t-shirt to pull him closer to me. Naitungkod niya ’yung dalawa niyang palad sa magkabilang gilid ko. Huminto ako sa paghalik sa kaniya.

“I-I….l-love you” I whispered. Halos ako lang ata nakarinig ng sinabi ko.

“Huh?” Kunot-noo na tanong ni Akie.

“I-I l-love you” Nauutal kong pagulit. I made it louder this time.

“I can’t hear you” Akie sang.

“Akie—”

“Say it again, Ian. I want to hear it once more” He pushed. He leant forward as his lip neared my ear. “Cam’on, Ian. Just say it”.

“I love you, Akie” I blushed.

He smirked. Bumalik ’yung pilyo niyang ngisi at tingin. Ito na nga ba ang sinasabi ko, expect Akie’s ego to be that annoying.

“But action speaks louder than words, darling” He tantalizingly said.

“W-What do you mean?” Kinakabahan kong tanong.

“Kiss me” He demanded. Psh. Kiss lang naman pala eh. Nagawa ko na nga kanina eh.

I was about to kiss him nang lumayo ito at lumipat sa kabilang upuan, katabi si Sam. Nagtataka naman akong tumitig sa kaniya. He sat with spread legs. He placed both of his hands at the railings. He tilted his head as he looked at me with that sly smirk.

“While you’re on top of me” He added.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko dahil sa bagay na gusto niyang mangyari.

What the fuck?

“Cut your crap, Akie” I snapped.

He only chuckled. “Hanggang salita ka lang pala eh” He said.

Napanganga ako. Damn him. Halos tawagin ko na lahat ng diyos para lang magkaroon ako ng lakas na umamin sa kaniya tapos tatapakan niya pa ’yung pride ko?

Shit him.

“Okay. If that’s what you want” I firmly stood.

Mas lumawak naman ’yung ngisi niya.

“Come here, baby” He sang.

I took a heavy breath before I walk near him. It just took me three steps and I am now standing in front of him.

“Sam, close your eyes” Utos ni Akie sa bata. Pumikit naman ito at tinakpan ang mata gamit ang kaniyang palad.

“I’m waiting” Akie whistled.

Argh. I hate my pride and I hate you, Akie.

Pumatong ako sa nakabuka niyang hita at nahihiyang kumapit sa mga balikat niya. Nakangisi lang siya habang pinagmamasdan ang kagaguhang pinaggagawa ko.

I am now sitting at his lap, facing him. Fuck this, sana walang makakita sa aming dalawa.

“Fuck, you’re so sexy” He bit his lip.

Namula naman ako dahil sa posisyon naming dalawa, anyone who would see us will probably think that I’m riding him purposely.

“You can now kiss me” Akie.

“Why are you like this” I asked.

“Like what?” Naguguluhan niyang tanong.

“This. Are you just into kissing and being pleasured. I thought you lo–” Pinutol niya ’yung dapat n’yang sasabihin as he suddenly kissed me. I was caught off guard from his sudden attack. He placed his hand at the back of my head to pull me over him. He angled his head as he kissed me deeper. I held my moans dahil ayokong marinig ni Sam ’yung mga nakakahiyang tunog na galing sa kamunduhang bagay. He shifted his kisses going to my nose. He kissed my cheeks soflty. He then moved his kisses up to my ears. He bit it a little harsher and that’s when my moans erupted. Tinakpan ko agad ng kamay ko ’yung bibig ko.

“Kissing you is like sealing what’s mine. I love kissing you because you’re mine” He whispered. I felt shivers down to my spine.

He placed single kisses at my neck and all I did was to moan and moan. He came back to attack my lips at hinayaan ko lang na angkinin niya ’yung labi ko. His kisses this time was more gentle and soft.

“I love you” He whispered.

I smiled. This is one of the most precious things I could treasure. Things that I wouldn’t regret welcoming to my life.

This time, without any hesitation and anything in my mind, I let my heart decide what’s I really want, and that was Akie.

“Ehem” Tikhim ng isang babae ang nagpahiwalay sa amin ni Akie.

Fuck! Tapos na pala ’yung ride.

Tumingin ako sa babae at nakita ko ang namumula nitong pisngi, she’s one of the operator of this ride.

Fuck! Did she saw us kissing? Lupa, lamunin mo na ako.

“Sorry. Hindi kasi nakatiis eh. Sabi kong sa bus na lang pero pinilit pa rin ako” Walang anu-anoy sabi ni Akie. Fucking shit, saan galing ’yung kwentong ’yon?

“We understand, sir” Nakayukong turan ng babaeng staff.

Tinitigan ko si Akie nang masama. Nakangiti lang naman ito na tila aso.

“Asshole” I murmured. Nauna akong umalis buhat si Sam na nakapikit pa rin. Sumunod naman ang mokong na tumatawa-tawa pa.

C H A P T E R - 026

Ian’s POV

“Bye, Sam” Pagpapaalam ko sa bata.

“Bye, kuya Ian. Thank you for this jacket” He kissed me in my right cheek as he ran back to his mom.

I pouted.

Paborito ko pa naman ’yun na jacket. Pero hayaan mo na. At least napasaya ko si Sam.

“Ian! Antagal naman nilang apat. Kanina pa tayo dito oh” Pagrereklamo ni Shane. Nagpaalam kasi sila Akie at Jericho na may pupuntahan daw. Sila Micheal at Felix naman ay bibili naman daw ng pagkain.

“Sa bus na lang kaya tayo maghintay?” Iritableng pangungumbinsi sa akin ni Shane.

I sighed. “Mauna ka na lang kaya? I’ll just wait for them” I smiled. She nodded in agreement. Mukhang pagod na talaga siya.

Umalis na ito at naiwan akong magisa sa isang bench malapit sa may fountain.

While waiting, I reminisced what happened just a while ago. The smile on Akie’s eyes that tugged the strings of my heart. His bright smile that made my heart melt. His intensifying gaze that says how sincere he is. I was just so happy that I got the nerve to say how much I love him. I will never regret telling him that for I know that he got it the same way.

Hindi ko maiwasang mapangiti dahil sa kapilyuhan niya kanina. I hate him for always doing things that made me ashamed, but that’s what makes Akie, Akie. He’s a jerk, asshole, bully and a complete badboy. Who would have thought that he’ll fall with someone like me?

Biglang may lumapit na babae sa akin. Maganda ito at morena. Maikli lamang ang buhok nito na abot hanggang balikat. She stood in front of me, inilahad niya ang palad niya bilang senyales ng pagpapakilala. I stood, and accepted her welcome.

“Hello, I’m Riza” Pagpapakilala niya. Mas matangkad siya sa akin.

“Uhm, hi. I’m Ian” I awkwardly tell.

“I’ve been watching your group before your friends separated the other ways” Riza.

“Uh, yeah. They just buy something” Sagot ko. “A-Ano nga pala ang kailangan mo?” Mahinahon kong tanong sa kaniya.

A fictive smile crept to his beautiful and red lips. Hindi ko gusto ang isang ’to.

“I just want to know what’s the name of the hot and handsome guy. The tallest among you all” Malandi niyang turan.

Huh? The tallest among us all? Magkakasingtangkad lang naman sila Akie ah? The hottest and most handsome? Sinong tinutukoy ng babaeng ’to?

“Huh? Sinong tinutukoy mo?” Napaka-specific naman kasi ng description niya.

“Ian” Narinig ko ang pagtawag sa akin. Boses ’yun ni Akie. Lumingon ako at may bitbit itong malaking stuff toy, a figure of a cute and fluffy pup. Iniabot niya ito kay Micheal. Akala ko sa akin niya iaabot.

“Where’s Shane? I told her to wait here, tapos umalis na siya?” Akie tched.

“Pinauna ko na siya” I informed.

“Tsk. Paano kung may nangyari sa’yo? Paano kung biglang may lumapit sa’yo at—”

“Akie, I’m fine” Pagputol ko sa sasabihin niya. Pagak akong tumawa dahil sa kasobrahan ng pagaalala niya. Wala naman kasi talagang mangyayari sa aking masama.

“Let’s go” Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at akmang maglalakad na papunta sa exit ng amusement park pero biglang humarang ’yung babaeng nagngangalang, Riza.

“Hello” Bungad niya. Nakatitig siya kay Akie habang nakalahad ’yung mga palad niya para makipagkamay. Tinanggap naman ito ni Akie.

“Hello” Akie greeted, feeling bored. Riza held Akie’s hand for a long time. Split second lang dapat ang tinatagal ng shake hands ah? Bakit ganon katagal kung makahawak siyaM Nakita ko na pinisil pa niya ’yung kamay ni Akie. Ayos siya ah.

Pinaningkitan ko ng mata ang babaeng nasa harap namin ngayon. Tsk. Ano bang gusto niya? Bakit ba kailangan pa niyang humarang at makipagkamay? Mukhang may balak ’tong isang ’to ah.

“So, Akie was your name. It’s cool, just like you” She blabbered. Tsk. Si Akie ata ’yung tinutukoy niya kaninang handsome, hot and tall.

“Yeah” Simpleng sagot ni Akie.

“Akie, tara—”

“Wait. My name is Riza” Pagpapakilala niya. Shit this woman. Halatang nagpapakita siya ng motibo kay Akie.

“Hoe” Bulong ko.

“What?” She asked. What your empty head, bitch.

“Nothing” I denied. I smiled innocently at her.

Akie chuckled. “Your name was beautiful, Riza. Just like you” Akie bribed. Aba, nakuha pa niyang makipaglandian sa babaeng ’yan.

“Thank you” Ipit na boses ni Riza.

“You’re welcome, beautiful lady” Akie smiled.

Fuck.

Napalingon ako sa kaniya.

I closed my fist.

I gritted my teeth.

I glare at him.

Argh. Nakakainis. Bakit ba ako nagkakaganito?! Damn.

Lumingon sa akin si Akie at nakangisi ito na tila nagtagumpay siya sa kung anumang bagay ang pinagplanuhan niya. Napahalukipkip ako.

“Akie. Do you have a girlfriend?” Tanong ng bruhang si Riza.

“None” Akie answered.

“How come? Sa gwapo mong ’yan, wala? Impossible” She exclaimed. Tsk, ang O.A naman niya.

Hindi sumagot si Akie. Nagputuloy naman sa pagtanong si Riza.

“Eh, boyfriend? Pfft. Ba’t ko pa ba natanong. Of course wala, am I right?” She wickedly asked.

Biglang bumilis ’yung tibok ng puso ko. Napalingon ako kay Akie. Diretso lang siyang nakatingin sa bruhang babae.

“Of course, wala” He said.

My eyes get widened. I felt a searing pain all over my heart. Akie’s word stabbed me more than hundred times. Napakagat ako sa labi. Why would he decline what’s between us? I thought we love each other. The feelings were mutual. Akala ko ba handa siyang ipagsigawan na mahal niya ako, then why the fuck he denied?

“I knew it” Riza smiled. Yumakap pa ito kay Akie.

Dahil sa sakit na naramdaman ko, patakbo akong lumabas ng Enchanted Kingdom. Hindi ko pinakinggan ang pagtawag na ginawa nila Micheal sa akin. What happened to Akie’s promises? Tataob lang rin naman pala siya sa babae. Paano niya ipapangalandakang mahal niya ako kung sa isang babae pa nga lang, hindi na niya masabi na mahal niya ako. Hindi ba totoo lahat ng sinabi niya? Lahat ba ’yun out of my fantasies lang? Lahat ba ’yun kathang isip lang?

Bumuhos ’yung luha ko dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman ng puso ko. Is this the feeling of being rejected? It was fucking painful. Pinunasan ko ang mga luha ko gamit ang manggas ng jacket ni Akie,

“Ian” I stiffened. My body stopped for a minute.

“Ian. Why did you run?” Hinihingal niyang turan. “Hey, what’s wrong?” Hinawakan niya ako at iniharap sa kaniya.

“Are you jealous?” He teased.

Fuck you. Jealous? Hindi lang ako basta nagseselos. Nasaktan ako, gago.

“Hey, Ian. What’s wrong?” Nag-aalala niyang tanong.

“Why do you care?” I snapped.

“Huh? Of course—”

“Of course, what? Why do you care when in fact, you declined in front of that witch about the business that’s between us. Why do you care if I means nothing to you?” I ranted.

“Ian. You mean everything to me. You’re my everything” He cited.

“Also, why would I say yes? Hindi mo pa nga ako sinasagot” He reasoned. “I need your confirmation first. Ayokong manguna at magmukhang assuming” He continued.

“Ian, you know that I love you. But, I still need your answer” He hoped.

Oh! Does it mean, hindi naman totoo ’yung mga naisip ko? Does it mean, he really loves me and he is just waiting for my yes?

“Fine. T-Tayo na” I muttered. I blushed at bahagyang napayuko.

“Really?” Masigla niyang tanong. I shyly nodded. Mahigpit niya akong niyakap.

“Thank you, Ian. You made me the happiest man on earth” He kissed the crown of my head. Napayakap na rin ako sa kaniya. Humiwalay siya sa akin at tumitig sa mga mata ko, napatitig din ako sa mga mata niyang tila nakangiti. He held my chin as he leaned forward to give me kiss at my lips. Hindi ko naman maiwasan na hindi mamula.

“Tama na ’yan, lover boy” Boses ni Micheal ang biglang sumingit sa eksena namin ni Akie. Iniabot nito ang stuff toy kay Akie.

“Since, it’s the day you answered me, then, get this as my gift” Akie.

“Thank you” I smiled.

“I love you, Ian. I will never make you cry again. Sorry for making you in tears” He sweetly apologized.

“Ang bilis mo naman mauto, Ian” Jericho.

“Huh?” Ano na namang pinagsasabi ng isang ’to?

“All of these was part of Akie’s plan para sagutin mo na siya” Micheal.

Napanganga ako.

“Yeah. Pinagselos ka niya sa tulong ni Riza at ipinagtabuyan para mas maging malambot ka sa paghingi niya ng oo mo” Felix.

“Tuso talaga ang gago” Sabay sabay na turan ng tatlo.

“You planned this?” Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ko.

“Yeah. Sorry” He grin as he made a peace sign. “Alam ko kasi na matatagalan bago mo ako sagutin at hindi na ako makapaghintay pa. So, I take the initiative to push you at your limits. Ganon mo pala ako kamahal?” He smirked.

AKIEEEEEE!

“Besides, you already answered me. You can’t take it back.” Kumindat pa ang gago. “You’re now mine and I am now yours” He whispered. Inilapit niya ’yung mukha niya sa mukha ko. Ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko nang akmang hahalikan niya ako but I didn’t felt his kiss. I opened my eyes and our eyes locked.

“Seloso ka pala talaga?” Bigla niyang hirit bilang pang-asar. Tinulak ko siya at napaatras naman siya ng bahagya.

“Psh” I mumbled as I started to walk pabalik sa bus namin.

C H A P T E R - 027

Akie’s POV

It’s been a week.

A week since Ian Salvador officially make out with me as his boyfriend.

Fuck. Ganon pala ’yung feeling ’pag sinagot ka ng taong labis mong inaasam na mapasa’yo. The overwhelming joy and the oozing gladness were comforting me as if I’m on a cradle being lullubied by a famous kundiman singer.

The feeling was like having a lot of fireworks at my mind as if celebrating for what just happened. My heart couldn’t stop beating fast for it was rejoicing by Ian’s warm answer. My cognition couldn’t fathom at first on what kind of emotion should I use but my heart and soul were speaking for me to stay happy. No, not just happy. The word happy is an understatement. It wasn’t enough. The happiness is just too short to explain the gigantic emotion I am now feeling. It was more than gratitude, felicity, jubilee — fuck. I was so awestruck by this fluttering feeling. I was imprisoned on this fascinating emotion that if I would have the choice, I will definitely stay with this kind of satisfaction. The emotion were emmiting some kind of strong immense power to captivate me by his own fragrance and beauty.

Fucking shit. Mukhang naging makata na ako dahil kay Ian. Tangina. Mababaliw ata ako kung mawawala ’yung lalaking ’yun sa buhay ko.

We’re now official.

A dirty and kinky thing suddenly flashed through my mind. Well, pwede naman na siguro namin magawa ’yun hindi ba? Alam n’yo na….’yung bagay na ginagawa ng mga magkarelasyon.

Fuck! Just the thought of having Ian in front of me, kneeling? That was something I would love to see. But, if he don’t want it, then I wouldn’t push him to do it. Ako na lang ang magpapaligaya sa kaniya. Hindi ko pa man nararanasang lumuhod sa harap ng ibang lalaki, but if Ian would be pleased by that, then I will do my best then.

The thought of him moaning, whimpering, groaning, and screaming my name out of agony and pleasure fucking excites my little friend. I’d never experienced doing naughty things with a boy before pero I would make sure na mapapaligaya ko si Ian. I have my pride, and I know hindi ako mapapahiya kay Ian. Nai-imagine ko tuloy ’yung mukha niya once na makita na niya ’yung alaga ko.

I knew he would be shy and timid. He would definitely be red as tomato. That’s cute tho.

Siguro iniisip niyo on how the hell Ian end up being the bottom. Well, I knew that he knew that. Afterall, he has the feminine figure between the two of us. He’s slim compared to me which is masculine and lean. He’s cute that resembles girl. He’s short, average to the height of a girl which is way far from me, ’coz I’m a six footer. He’s also pale compared to my tanned skin. See? He’s a perfect bottom.

Now, I am just wondering on how I am going to fit my little Akie inside of his small ass.

Fuck?! What was I thinking? Bakit parang biglang uminit? Bakit parang naninikip ’yung pantalon ko? Bakit parang——.

“Hoy, para kang gago” Micheal snapped the hell out of me.

Psh. Sagabal naman masyado. Tinitigan ko siya nang masama. May paninisi sa mga mata ko dahil sa panguudlot niya sa kapilyuhang naglalaro sa isip ko, but, I was also thankful dahil baka saan pa mapunta ’yung mga iniisip ko.

“Bro, para kang ewan. Kanina ka pa nakangiti na parang aso. Sabihin mo nga, nagda-drugs ka ba?” Dagdag ni Jericho. Tanginang tanong ’yan, wala talagang isip ’tong isang ’to eh.

“Gago, hindi. Just because I’m happy does it only mean na nagshashabu?” Tanong ko sa kan’ya.

He just shrugged. “Malay mo” He deadpanned.

Hindi ko na lang siya pinansin dahil wala naman akong nakukuhang matinong sagot.

“Bro. You’re acting weird. Para kang lumulutang sa ulap na ewan” Pagpansin naman ni Felix.

“That’s exactly what I am saying” Jericho.

“I was just so happy, fucking happy” I answered.

“Tangina, ang isang Akie Villaflor tinamaan nga talaga” Pangaasar naman nilang tatlo.

“Yeah” Napangiti ako. Even I, didn’t expect that I would fall for Ian. But Ian was different, Ian is way more different. He’s fucking precious and rare and I wouldn’t dare to let him go for him to be at another hand.

“Speaking of your princess” Micheal. Ngumisi ito nang makita si Ian na papalapit sa akin.

“P-Princess?” Nauutal na tanong ni Ian.

“Yeah. Why? Aren’t you?” Tuksong tanong ni Micheal.

Namula naman si Ian at napayuko. Tangina nitong lalaking ’to ah. Is he mocking my Ian? I wouldn’t care if he’s my bestfriend. Kung aasarin niya si Ian, ako ang haharapin niya.

Nagtaas naman ng kamay si Micheal matapos makita ’yung nagbabanta kong mga titig, motioning na wala naman siyang masamang ibig sabihin sa sinabi niya.

“Why are you here?” Tanong ko kay Ian. Tumingala siya sa akin since mas matangkad nga ako kesa sa kaniya. He bit his lip na tila nahihiya siya sa sasabihin niya.

“Hey, don’t worry. What do you need?” I asked. I smiled to make him comfortable since we are now here at the basketball gym of our school. I know he’s getting anxious na baka may manghinala sa aming dalawa. Sila Micheal pa lang kasi ang nakakaalam about sa amin ni Ian, pati na rin si Shane. Hindi ko pa nasasabi sa mama at kuya ko but I know they would accept me and Ian just like how solemnly my friends and his accepted us.

“W-We need to f-finish our t-thesis. Next w-week na kasi ang pasahan” He stuttered.

I smirked. “You want to stay at our house?” I said and added some wink.

“N-No, I-I….o-of course not, we just really need to finish our thesis, that’s all, r-really” He continued to stuttered.

Oh, Ian. You can’t deny that you wanted to be with me. Just admit it, darling.

“Okay, sabi mo eh” I smirked.

Ayos! This is the perfect time. I don’t care about the thesis. I will now execute all of my desires.

After thesis, I will make sure na magiging isa na tayo, Ian.

That would be the time for us to make love.

I will mark you as mine.

I will seal you for good, Ian.

…..

“Akala ko ba sa bahay namin?” I groaned.

Tangina naman. Akala ko pa naman makakaisa na ako.

“H-Huh? Wala naman akong sinabi ah. Tsaka hindi naman natin kailangan ng internet for this chapter. Madali lang ’to kaya napili namin na dito na lang sa bahay gawin ’yung next part ng thesis natin” Ian innocently reasoned.

Fuck. Nakakainis naman oh. Umasa lang naman pala ako na sa bahay kami pupunta.

“Okay lang ’yan, pre. May ibang araw pa naman” Pangaasar ni Micheal. Tumawa pa ito dahil sa sitwasyon ko.

Paano kaya nalaman ng gagong ’to ’yung balak kong mangyari? Tsk.

“Guys, gawin na lang natin ’to ng mabilis, okay?” Mataray na turan ni Janice.

“Tara na” Ian lead our way to his room.

…..

“Bye, guys. Ang galing mo talaga, Ian. You’re the best” Yumakap si Janice dito. Tsk. May pa-yakap yakap pang nalalaman.

“Yeah. Janice is right. You’re really good” Akmang yayakap din ang gago pero agad ko itong pinigalan.

Fuck off, dude.

“Fucking possessive” Micheal whispered.

Tumawa lang siya nang matalim ko siyang titigan. Nauna namang lumabas ng gate sila Micheal.

“Ian. Next week na birthday ko. Pupunta ka ’di ba?” I hoped.

“Of course” Ian smiled.

“Good. I was also thinking, sasabihin ko na kay mommy ’yung tungkol sa atin” I informed.

He became paled as I mentioned about us coming out to our parents. Hindi pa rin kasi handa si Ian sa mga maaaring mangyari kapag umamin na kami.

He couldn’t even stand to speak to his parents and brother. Hindi ko naman siya masisisi dahil alam kong mahirap sa part niya ’yun. But, I was just hoping na sana magkaroon din siya ng lakas ng loob gaya ng meron ako. Besides, this is for the two of us.

“O-Okay” He stuttered. Napangiti naman ako dahil sa tinuran niya. Niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit. Finally, maipagmamalaki ko na siya sa pamilya ko.

“Thank you, Ian. I love you” I said as I place a soft kiss on his forehead.

“I love you too” He mumbled while his face was buried at my chest.

C H A P T E R - 028

Ian’s POV

“M-Mama” Pagtawag ko kay mommy na kasalukuyang nagbe-bake ng cupcakes.

“Hmm?” She hummed.

“M-May sasabihin po ako” Kinakabahan kong sagot. I decided to confess to my mom about me being gay.

“What’s it, baby?” She sweetly replied. I blushed with the nickname.

“Ma, you don’t have to call me baby. Matanda na po ako” I pouted.

Mom chuckled. Kinuha niya ’yung tray of cupcakes at inilagay sa kitchen counter. Naglagay siya ng panibagong tray sa loob ng oven.

“Ian, kahit na pumuti ang buhok mo, baby pa rin ang itatawag ko sa’yo” She smiled.

“Anyways, ano nga pala ’yung gusto mong sabihin?” Pagbabalik ni mama sa kanina naming usapan.

“U-Uhm. I-Im g-gay” I confessed. Tinignan ko si mama, wala siyang emosyon. Nakatingin lang siya sa akin. Kinabahan naman ako dahil sa naging reaksyon niya sa inamin ko.

“D-Don’t be mad at me, please. I-I’m sor––”

Tumawa nang malakas si mama. Kinagat ko ’yung ibabang bahagi ng labi ko to stop my self from crying. Is she mad? Pinagtatawan ba ako ni mommy kasi may bakla siyang anak? I blink to clear my eyes for blurring my sight.

“Ian. Bakit ka umiiyak” Nagaalang tanong ni mommy. Umikot siya sa kitchen counter at agad akong niyakap.

“Baby, why? Don’t cry. It’s okay for me. Don’t worry. Tanggap ka ni mommy” She said as she hugged me tightly, comforting me with the use of her warm and tight hug.

“Y-You’re not m-mad?” I asked.

Mom smiled. “Why would I be?” She held the both sides of my face. “Ian, I’m your mom, your parent. Bakit ako magagalit? Even you’re gay, you are still the Ian na minahal, minamahal at mamahalin ko. You’re my baby, remember?” She kissed my forehead and she brightly smiled once again.

“Hindi ako galit sa’yo. Of course, there’s a part of me na nababahala sa kung ano ang pwedeng maging epekto nito para sa’yo. But, I just want to protect you, that’s all. I will never be mad at you just because you end up being gay. I love you for who you are, baby. Remember that” She finished. Tumingin ako sa mga mata niya. I didn’t feel any rejection, it was just full of acceptance and embrace.

Dahil sa sobrang kaligayahan na nararamdaman ko, niyakap ko si mama nang napakahigpit. Mom is really the best. Nakakatuwa na tanggap ako ng magulang ko. I just hope na ganon din si dad at kuya. Besides, blood is thicker than water. Alam ko na mahal ako nila kuya and they will accept me for who I am. Just like how mom accepted me.

“M-Mom, bakit ka nga pala tumawa kanina? Akala ko tuloy pinagtatawanan mo na ako” I asked. Kung tanggap niya ako, then why did she laughed?

“Ah, nagpustahan kasi kami ng kuya mo kung straight ka ba or hindi. Nanalo ako, so, mababawasan ’yung allowance niya. Hahahahaha”

What the hell?! Ang lakas naman ng trip nila para pagpustahan ’yung kasarian ko. Tsk. Minsan talaga hindi ko na maintindihan sila Mommy.

“By the way. How did you know that you’re gay? Who made you realize it?” Mom questioned. A sly thought flashed through her eyes.

“Is it Akie?” She winked and added some squeal. Nako naman, para talagang bata ’tong si mama.

“Y-Yeah” I blushed.

“I knew it” She squealed.

“H-How did you know?” I asked with bewilderment.

“I saw you two yesterday, magkayakap. Medyo nasaktan pa nga ako kasi hindi mo agad sa akin sinabi” She pouted.

Pfft. Mom was really a soulfully childish adult.

“Sorry” I mumbled as I lowered my head a little.

“It’s okay. Ang gwapo naman ng boyfriend ng anak ko. So, may nangyari na ba?” She inquired.

“MOM!” Nahihiya kong sigaw.

“I’m just kidding” Tumawa pa ang magaling kong ina.

…..

Nandito kami ngayon sa harap ng bahay nila Akie.

It’s Akie’s birthday today. This day is full of excitement and anticipation. Excitement because I would have the chance to spend Akie’s special day with him. And anticipation because this day is where he and I will face his parents. Sana hindi magalit si tita Samantha sa akin once he found out about our relationship.

“Ian” Shane called.

“Yeah?” I asked.

“Loosen up. Para kang nagyeyelo sa kalagayan mong ’yan” She commented. Kanina pa kasi talaga ako kinakabahan. Hindi lang sa maaring maging reaksyon ni tita kundi dahil makikita ko ulit si Kenneth.

That asshole. Sana hindi na niya ako guluhin at pagbantaan pa.

I sighed.

“What if—”

“Cut your what if’s” Shane snapped. “Hindi ka naman papabayaan ni Akie” She mentioned. Siguro nga tama naman si Shane. Siguro ipagtatanggol din ako ni Akie sa pamilya if ever na hindi nila matanggap lahat ng desisyon namin. Besides, maraming beses ng napatunayan ni Akie that he’ll do everything para ipagmalaki ako.

“Tara na nga” Shane held my wrist at hinila ako papasok sa bahay nila Akie.

Nakapasok na kami sa bahay nila Akie matapos kaming pagbuksan ng maid nila. Tumungo kami sa sala ng bahay nila Akie at nadatnan namin sila na umiinom.

Nako naman talaga. Is this the kind of celebration they are talking about? Inuman? Really? Mayroon din namang mga estudyanteng kumakanta at meron din akong nakitang mangilan na nasa pool area. Tanaw kasi sa sala nila Akie ’yung pool nila.

“Ang tagal n’yo naman” Lumapit sa amin si Jericho.

“Ano naman?” Shane.

“Napakasungit mo naman” Jericho.

“Syempre nakita ko na naman ’yang pagmumukha mo” Shane.

The two continued to blabber and tease each other. Tsk. Lagi na lang silang nagaaway. Umalis na lang ako para hindi ko sila maistorbo sa away nilang dalawa.

Inilibot ko ang mga mata ko sa paligid para hanapin si Akie sa kumpol ng mga tao but I didn’t fund him. Bilang lang naman ang nandito sa celebration ng birthday ni Akie. Sila Micheal, Jericho, Felix, at ilan sa mga varsity player ng school. Narito din ang ilan sa mga classmates namin. This celebration is exclusively for Akie’s closest friend.

I sighed. Mukha namang wala si Akie sa sala tsaka sa pool. Saan naman ’yun pupunta? Baka naman nasa kusina?

I started to walk along the hall papunta sa kitchen nila. Wala masyadong tao sa lugar na’to since nagkakasiyahan sa sila sa sala at pool. I was about to turn my ways nang mapahinto ako matapos kong marinig ang mga nakakapanindig-balahibong boses ng taong ayaw ko na sanang makita.

“Ian” he sweetly and devilishly called.

Magpapatuloy na sana ako sa paglalakad nang mabilis at mahigpit niyang hinawakan ’yung braso ko para pigilan ako sa pagalis.

“Long time no see” He whispered. I felt his cold breath fanning my neck. I was stiffened and a cold shiver ran up to my spine.

Hinarap ko siya at tinitigan nang masama. I pulled my arms back. Nakangisi lang siya na oarang demonyo.

“You are still feisty as before” He commented.

“Fuck off asshole” I gritted my teeth.

He only chuckled. “Oh, Ian. You’re such a brat” He smirked.

“Ano bang kailangan mo?” Mahina kong sigaw.

“You very well know what I want” He deadpanned. Napapikit ako. Hindi maari.

“Hindi pa ba sapat ’yung ginawa mo sa akin? Binaboy mo na ako, Kenneth. So stop your crap” I insisted.

“No. You’re now my toy” He demanded.

How dare him?

“I. Am. Not. Your. Toy” I emphasized.

He only rolled his eyes. “Stop your whimpers, Ian, alam ko na gusto mo rin ’yun.”

“Fuck you. Hindi ko gusto ’yun dahil pinilit mo lang naman ako” I growled.

“But your body says nonetheless” He smirked.

“I don’t care. Hindi ko na hahayaan na gawin mo ulit ’yun sa akin” I spat.

“Kahit na malaman ni Akie ’yung ginawa mo?” Napahinto ako. H-How did he know? H-How did he found out?

“Ano kayang magiging reaksyon ni Akie?” He rubbed his chin with the use of his finger. “Will he accept his lover if his lover has an affair to his brother?” Tuso siyang ngumiti. Fuck you to the pit of hell, Kenneth.

“Anong affair ’yung tinutukoy mo? We have nothing, Kenneth. Fucking nothing” Pagdidiin ko. He gritted his teeth. “Pabayaan mo na ako” I pleaded.

“I don’t easily let go my toys until they were totally used” He smirked.

“I also don’t care kung kayo man ng kapatid ko. Baka nakakalimutan mo na ako ang nauna mong luhuran. You just need to follow what I want and rest assured that I will send nothing to my brother” He implied.

Putangina mo, Kenneth.

“See you later, trifle” He mocked.

Shit you.

C H A P T E R - 029

Ian’s POV

“Shane” I shake her off.

“Hoy!” Inalog ko pa siya nang inalog.

“Shane! Ang kulit mo naman kasi eh. Sinabi ng hindi mo kaya eh.” I tried to wake her up. Lasing na lasing na kasi siya matapos niyang sumali sa laro ng mga loko-lokong mga lalaki na inaya siyang uminom. Ayan, halos hindi na tuloy siya makakilos dahil sa kalasingan.

“T-Talo… na… ba… a-ako?” She asked in between of her burps.

Her tipsiness took over her. Napailing ako. Paano ko siya ngayon iuuwe? Tsk. Kung bakit naman kasi nagpaloko siya sa mga lalaking ’yun. Alam naman niyang malakas ’yung trip ng mga ’yun eh.

“I-Ian.. .n-nahihi.. lo… a-ako.” She groggily muttered. Paanong hindi siya mahihilo eh halos ilang cup ata ng alak nainom niya.

“Sinabi na kasing hindi mo naman kaya, nagpumilit ka pa rin.” I rolled my eyes.

My eyes get widened as Shane suddenly vomited right now and then. She puke at me as all the food and beverages she took flows constantly out of her mouth. Diretso ito sa damit ko. Umalingasaw ang mabaho nitong amoy.

“Shane!” I pushed her away from me. Ano ba naman ’yan.

“I-I’m…sorry” She apologized. Napabuntong hininga na lang ako.

“Tsk. Lasinggera.” Jericho commented. Hindi ko namalayan na nakalapit na pala siya.

“Ako na lang ang maghahatid sa kaniya.” Jericho suddenly insisted. Inilalayan niya si Shane at inilagay ang kamay nito sa balikat at dahan-dahang inilakad papunta sa labas ng bahay nila Akie.

“Take care of her, Jericho. Umayos ka ah.” Bilin ko sa kaniya. Mamaya kung ano ang gawin niya kay Shane. Nako, mapapatay ko siya.

“Babe” Mahinang bulong ng lalaking kanina ko pa hindi nakakausap. He needed to accommodate all his friends and visitors first kaya hindi kami masyadong nagkausap at nagkaroon ng quality time on his special day, but it was all fine for me.

Namula ako dahil sa endearment na ginamit niya at dahil na rin sa marahan niyang paghalik sa leeg ko. He hugged me while he’s at my back. Amoy alak siya.

“H-Happy birthda—”

“Shh,” Akie sushed. “I miss you” He placed a soft and tender kiss sa leeg ko. I could also feel him sniffing my scent. Namula ako nang sobra dahil sa mga bagay na ginagawa niya. Buti na lang at wala ng masyadong tao sa bahay nila at nakauwe na rin ang ilan sa mga kaibigan at kaklase namin. Halos kami na lang dalawa ni Akie ang gising. All of his friends na naiwan dito at sobrang nalasing were now asleep.

He faced me with him. Napagmasdan ko ang mga mata niya na tila inaantok na. Lasing nga talaga siya. He neared his face to kiss me pero pinigilan ko siya.

“A-Akie, you’re drunk” I inquired.

“So, what?” He mumbled.

“D-Dadalhin na lang kita sa k-kwarto mo p-para makapagpahinga ka na” I stuttered.

“Ayoko” He childishly declined. Yumakap siya sa akin kaya nagkadikit ’yung katawan namin.

“Akie, nasukahan ako ni Shane” I tried to push him away. Pero mas lalo lang niyang hinigpitan ’yung pagkakayakap niya. He buried his face at the crook of my neck. I gasped as he started to kiss my neck once again. He nibbled at my skin that causes some tingling sensation.

“A–Ak—ungh” Napaungol ako matapos siyang kumagat nang mas marahas sa balat ko.

“S-Stop” Pagpigil ko sa kaniya. Baka kasi makita kami ng maid nila or ng kuya niyang demonyo.

Hindi siya nakinig sa akin. Hinapit niya ako sa katawan niya at sinimulang kagatin sa tenga. I could feel his hot breath fanning my ear. It was kinda arousal tho.

“Ak—” I was about to protest but Akie took the chance to slam his lips against mine.

He kissed me the way he kissed me before, possessive. Marahan niyang kinagat ang ibabang labi ko and all I did was to moan, nadadala na rin ako sa sensaysong dulot ng mga halik ni Akie. I could also feel his little friend poking at my tummy. I was defeated by my desires as I open my mouth to let Akie probe my mouth. He suckered the moment his tongue find mine. Nalasahan ko ’yung alak na ininom niya. I wanted to puke at first because I don’t want the flavor of the wine they drink but it add fanciness on his original taste and I was drowned by those intoxicating savour. 

I timidly replied. Akie tilted his head para mas lumalim pa ’yung halik niya. Napakapit ako sa tela ng damit niya sa dibdib to hold onto something dahil sobrang nanghihina na ’yung mga tuhod ko. I was also glad dahil yakap niya ako dahil kung hindi, malamang sa malamang kanina pa ako nakaluhod sa sahig.

“Fuck, Ian. You’re even sweeter than wine” Hinihingal niyang saad. Inilapit niya ’yung ilong niya sa ilong ko. Pinagdikit niya ’yung noo ko sa noo niya. He stared at me as I did the same to him.

“Sir Akie? Hinaha—” Napahinto ’yung isa sa mga katulong nila Akie nang datnan kami nitong magkayakap at halos maghalikan na.

Agad akong humiwalay kay Akie. Namumula akong nagiwas ng tingin sa kasambahay nilang nanlalaking mga mata na nakatitig sa akin, marahil ay dahil sa gulat. I even saw her blushing. I heard Akie tched.

“What’s it, Hazel?” Masungit na tanong ni Akie. I nudged him with my elbow. He looked down at me at tsaka ko siya tinitigan nang masama.

“What’s it, ate Hazel?” He gives emphasize sa word na ‘ate’.

“H-Hinahanap po kayo ni sir Kenneth” The maid announced.

Akie just nodded and ate Hazel left the two of us.

“Akie, I think you should talk to your brother first, tapos matulog ka na, lasing ka na oh!” I instructed. “Uuwi na lang ako,” I continued.

“No. Sleep here. It’s almost twelve in the midnight. Baka mapano ka pa. I’ll text kuya Ash para hindi sila magalala sayo” He worriedly suggested.

“Huh? H-Hindi na, kaya ko naman—”

“Ian” May diin sa tono niya nang banggitin niya ’yung pangalan ko.

“O-Okay” Alam kong sa tono pa lang niya, hindi na ako pwedeng tumaggi pa.

“Sige na at maligo ka na muna at pupuntahan ko lang si kuya. Hintayin mo na ako sa kwarto” Bilin niya.

“Ikaw? Hindi ka ba maliligo? Mukhang napunta na sa ’yo ’yung suka dahil sa.. uhm… dahil sa a-ano –”

“Dahil sa paghalik at pagyakap ko sa’yo?” Pilyo niyang tanong. Nag-init naman ’yung buo kong mukha dahil sa sinabi niya. “Why? Gusto mo ba akong makasabay sa pagligo? I’m good at bathing, you’ll enjoy it.” Nakangisi niyang turan. Kumindat oa ang mokong.

“W-What?! O-Of course not, h-hindi naman ’yun ’yung ibig kong sabihin” Pagtatanggol ko sa sarili ko. Ako na naman kasi ’yung lumalabas na naghahabol sa kaniya. Tsk.

“Okay fine, darling” Bulong niya with his husky and raspy voice. Fuck! B-Bakit parang gusto ko na siya ngayon makasabay sa pagligo?

N-No. Umayos ka Ian, that was just his sexy and seductive voice, keep your self calm. Fuck! Ano ba ’to!

“See you later” He winked once more at dumiretso na sa hagdan patungo sa kwarto ng kuya niya. Ako naman ay dumiretso na sa banyo dito sa ibabang palapag ng bahay nila.

…..

I sighed. Inaantok na talaga ako. Katatapos ko lang maligo at buti na lang ay dala ko ’yung jacket ko and fortunately, damit ko lang ’yung nasukahan ni Shane. That bitch. Kasalanan niya ’to eh. Kung hindi lang sana siya nagmagaling na kaya niyang uminom ng sobang dami, edi sana nakauwi na ako. Sigh.

Mabuti pa at pumunta na lang ako sa kwarto ni Akie. Malamang ay tulog na rin ’yung isang ’yun.

I was about to step out of the bathroom nang harangan ng malalaking braso ang dapat na dadaanan ko. Dumiretso ang paningin ko sa mga mata ng taong humarang sa akin, walang iba kundi ang demonyong kuya ni Akie, si Kenneth.

“Why? Kung guguluhin mo na naman ako, pwede ka nang umalis” I rolled my eyes.

Tumawa lang ang demonyo.

“Nagbago na ang isip ko” Simple niyang saad.

Napakunot naman ako ng noo. Anong pinagsasabi ng isang ’to?

“What do you mean?” I raised my brow.

“As my toy, I want you to break up with Akie. Ayoko na may kaagaw” He deadpanned. Nalaglag naman ’yung panga ko sa sahig. What the hell?

“Stop this nonsense, Kenneth. Stop your stupidness” Itinulak ko siya kaya napabitaw siya sa may gilid ng pintuan at nagkaroon ako ng daan. Pero agad niya akong pinigilan, he gripped on my arm to prevent me for escaping.

“Leave him or I’ll make the way to set you both apart. You know what I have and what I can do. I can also hurt him if I want to.” Seryoso niyang saad.

Putangina? Gago ba siya? Kapatid niya, sasaktan niya?

“You’re damn crazy, Kenneth. You could even hurt Akie just for your lust?” I ranted.

He shrugged. This demon. Argh!

“Or, we can start from your bestfriend” Tuso siyang ngumiti sa akin.

“Don’t you fucking dare, asshole” I warned.

“Then, do what I want. It’s simple, Ian. Pretty simple.” He said as if that was just a fucking assignment. I bit my lower lip.

“Why are you doing this? Ano bang nagawa ko sa’yo? Wala naman akong nagawang masama para gawin mo sa’kin ’to” I gritted my teeth.

“Because I love you” He simply said.

Bahagya akong nagulat pero mas nanaig ’yung pagtataka ko.

I snorted. Love? Is he aware of what love is?

“Love? You love me? That’s what love for you? Kenne—” Hindi ko na naituloy pa ’yung gusto kong sabihin dahil tinulak niya ako at ikinulong sa pader. One of his arm were at the side of my head and his other hand were holding my left hand. He placed my hand at top of my head.

“Don’t you dare to mock me” Naging matalim ’yung mga titig niya.

“Why? Totoo naman ah? It’s not love. You don’t love me because if you do, you will not do anything that could hurt me. If you love me, then you will let me go. Hindi ’yung sinasakal at pinaglalaruan mo ’ko na para bang isa akong manika o robot na nabili mo lang sa isang toy store. If you really love me, then you will let me love Akie. Sorry, Kenneth. But I will not going to break up with Akie” Hinila ko pabalik ’yung kamay ko na mahigpit niyang hawak kanina.

“You made the wrong choice, Ian.” He looked serious. He leaned forward to whisper the words that brought chills down to my spines.

“You will regret this. Tandaan mo ’yan” He gave me one last gaze bago niya ako iwang mag-isa.

…..

Dahan-dahan akong pumasok sa kwarto ni Akie. He’s laying asleep on his bed. Ayaw kong magising pa siya. Alam kong pagod siya dahil sa pagaasikaso sa mga kaibigan at bisita niya.

Nakarating ako sa gilid ng kama niya at napagmasdan ko ang maamo niyang mukha habang payapa siyang natutulog. Pinagmasdan ko ang marahang pagtaas at pagbaba ng kaniyang dibdib. Bumalik ako sa pagkakatitig ng kaniyang mukha at mas lalo akong namangha sa angkin niyang kagwapuhan.

Hindi pa nga rin ako makapaniwala na nagkagusto sa akin ang isang Akie Villaflor. I didn’t expect as someone like him na isang matipuno, gwapo, matangkad; a complete manly figure, na magkakagusto sa isang tulad ko.

Napatitig ako sa kaniyang makapal na kilay, matangos na ilong, on his high cheek bone, sa kaniyang chiseled chin, sa kaniyang thick dark red lips na kay sarap halikan. Fuck! What am I thinking?

No, Ian. That’s harrasment. P-Pero, he’s my boyfriend, right? So, I can do those things to him. That was just kiss, wala naman sigurong masama kung hahalikan ko siya, paano ba naman kasi, n-nabitin ako sa ginawa niya kanina.

Kiss lang naman eh. Just a goodnight kiss.

Lumingon muna ako sa paligid baka kasi may biglang sumulpot na kung sino at sabihing may kahalayan akong ginagawa kay Akie.

Unti-unti kong inilapit ’yung mukha ko sa mukha ni Akie na mahimbing na natutulog. Dinampian ko siya ng mabilis na halik. Agad akong humiwalay at napakagat sa labi. It wasn’t enough.

Fuck! Shame on you, Ian. Ano bang nangyayari sa akin?

Malalim akong napalunok. Isa na lang talaga, promise. Dahan-dahan ko muling inilapit ’yung mukha ko sa mukha ni Akie. Naglapat muli ang aming labi, this time ay mas tinagalan ko ang pagkakadikit ng aming labi dahil sa hindi ko malamang kadahilanan.

“Meow” Agad akong napabalikwas sa biglaang ingay na narinig ko. Napadako ang mga mata ko sa pusa na nasa bintana ng kwarto ni Akie.

Fuck! Akala ko naman may taong nakakita sa akin. Namumula akong nag-iwas ng tingin sa mukha ni Akie, baka kasi matukso ako na halikan siyang muli.

I was about to turn my back at didiretso na sana sa sofa na nasa kwarto ni Akie nang biglang may humatak sa akin pababa.

I found my self sprawled on a hard and rough thing. Namula ako nang ma-realize ko na nasa ibabaw pala ako ni Akie. I was now laying on his chest. Napalunok ako sa naging posisyon naming dalawa.

“Sabi na at maaadik ka sa mga halik ko” He said in a husky voice, halatang galing siya sa pagkakatulog.

That brought more heat on me. T-Tama siya, mukhang naadik nga ako sa halik niya. Damn!

He smirked. Iniangat niya nang bahagya ’yung ibabang parte ng katawan niya para itulak ako papunta sa kaniya, kaya napayukod ako at naipatong ang dalawang kamay ko sa magkabilang bahagi ng kaniyang ulo. My face was now right in front of him.

“You want my kiss?” Kumindat pa ang loko. Hindi naman ako sumagot. Akmang tatayo na ako nang pagpalitin ni Akie ’yung posisyon naming dalawa. I am now on his bottom. Itinaas niya ’yung dalawang kamay ko sa itaas ng ulo ko with the use of his one hand.

“A-Akie–” I was about to protest but he cut me off.

“No. I can’t let you go this time” He smirked. I tried to get rid of him pero mahigpit ’yung pagkakahawak niya sa akin at masyadong mabigat ’yung katawan niya na nakadagan sa bewang ko.

“Akie, inaantok na ako kaya pwede ba—”

“No. Ninakawan mo ako ng halik. Don’t you know that stealing is bad? So, you need to be punished” He smirked.

My eyes widened as he suddenly kissed me. Sinubukan kong kumawala pero sadyang malakas talaga siya. He kissed me slow. Panaka-naka rin siyang kumakagat sa gilid ng aking labi, tila nanunukso.

Tumigil siya sa paghalik sa akin. Kinabahan ako nang ilapit niya ’yung bibig niya malapit sa tenga ko, as he whispered the word that brought excitement and nervousness to my whole system.

“Ready?”

C H A P T E R - 030

[Read at your own risk]

Akie’s POV

“Ready?” I seductively whispered.

I felt the minimal trembling movements Ian did. Halatang kinakabahan siya. Well, it’s all his fault. He provoked my desires. Kung hindi niya sana ako hinalikan, hindi naman magigising ’yung diwa ko.

Tsaka, nabitin ako. This is what he want so I will give him what he want. Who am I not to give the wants of my baby? That would be rude if I will deny. Besides, this is what I am waiting for. And I will make sure that it will happen in my special day.

Bumaba ’yung halik ko sa leeg niya at marahan akong kumagat sa balat niya. Ian is fucking soft. I would love to devour him everyday, at hinding hindi ako magsasawa.

“A—ugh” Ian moaned as I bit a little harsh on his soft and tender flesh.

“You’re so soft, Ian” I rasped. Nakita ko naman ang pamumula ng pisngi niya. I smirked. Alam kong nasasarapan na din siya. So I continued kissing his neck. Hindi ko pwedeng bitinin ang baby ko at baka umiyak. I bit at his flesh to make some love marks. I wanted to mark him as mine. And knowing na ako ang unang nakapaglagay sa kaniya nito brought pride for my ego.

“Akie–ah!” He moaned. Hearing his moans made me crave for more. Kaya naman pinagbuti ko pa. I licked the part na kinagat ko. I rolled my tongue on the red mark on his neck to mollify its smarting pain.

“You are now sealed” I rasped. Namula naman siya dahil sa kapilyuhan ng pinagsasabi ko. Hindi n’yo ako masisisi. I can’t help it. Saying those kind of words to Ian and seeing him blush is such a precious moment. Bumalik ako sa paghalik sa labi niya. Marahan ko siyang hinalikan. Alam ko kasi na ganitong uri ng halik ang gusto ni Ian. I controlled my self not to ravish him right now and then. I wanted to be gentle for Ian’s sake. Pero mukhang mahihirapan ako.

“I want you now, Ian. Would you let me to please you?” I asked. I wanted to have the consent of Ian. Hindi siya sumagot. Nagiwas siya ng tingin. He scrunched his eyes close. I kissed his cheek. I rested my forehead on his cheek.

“It’s okay, Ian. If you don’t want, I can still wait until you were ready” I honestly said. Though there’s a part of me na nagtutulak sa akin na gawin na ’yung bagay na gusto kong mangyari, but I also want to consider Ian’s side.

I let go of his hands and I am about to move away from him nang bigla niyang isabit ang dalawa niyang braso sa leeg ko. He pulled me closer to him. He buried his face on my shoulder as he timidly whispered.

“I-I want you now, Akie” He mumbled. I smirked. The beast inside of me is now roaring in excitement and hunger. I hold Ian’s waist as I started to kiss his neck once more. I held the hem of jacket as I started to pull it off of him.

“A-Akie..” He held my hands to stop me from removing his cloth. I looked on his flustered face.

“Yes, baby?” I questioned.

“B-Be careful” He shyly whispered. He bit his lower lip and his cheeks were filled with red hue. Fuck. He’s fucking cute. I chuckled. I leant forward to kiss him on his lip. I bit on his thin and swollen lip. Tumungo ang mga labi ko sa kaniyang tenga. Ito naman ang kinagat ko nang marahan.

“I will” Bulong ko sa kaniya. Pinagpatuloy ko ang paghubad sa jacket niya. He let me do that business as he raised his arms up on the air. In just a nick of time, mabilis ko itong natanggal sa kaniya. Nag-iwas siya ng tingin nang pasadahan ng mga mata ko ang kaniyang katawan. He’s so pale and slim, but it was sexy for me. His nipple was pinkish in color. His chest wasn’t that firm but it was built accordingly to his body built. I bit my lip, bakit parang nakaramdam ako ng uhaw? Napalunok ako dahil parang nawalan ako ng laway. I put my hand on the back of Ian’s head while my other arm rested on his waist. I slowly and carefully lay him down on my bed. Kinuha ko ’yung isa niyang kamay at inilagay muli sa ibabaw ng ulo niya. I entwined our hands. While the index finger of my right hand gently manuevered the silky skin on his bare chest.

“You’re so sexy, sweetheart” I complemented. Namula naman siya dahil he was so exposed right before my naked eyes. I smirked. Ian is a feisty one but when it comes to this kind of scenarios, he became so timid and shy. Hindi na ako naghintay pa at agad akong yumuko to capture his awaiting nipple.

“Ak—ugh. A–Ak..ie, ah!” Ian moaned as his free hand delved at my locks. He tugged a little bit harsh. Napangiti ako, he’s liking it now.

Sounds of pleasure erupted at Ian’s mouth as I let my tongue play at his nipple. I intentionally bit his nipple to make it hard. Mas naging mahigpit naman ang pagkakasabunot niya sa buhok ko. I could also feel the pressure na ina-apply niya to press me more on him. After playing his left nipple, I did the same on the other. I bit, lick, kiss and suck his now swollen nipple. I repeatedly do the same process all over again.

“Ak…iee” He mewled. Napangisi ako. I thought something better. This would be great. I stopped sucking his nipple. Huminto rin sa pagkakasabunot si Ian. I stood out of the bed. Dumiresto ako sa sofa na nasa kwarto ko. Nagtataka namang sinundan ni Ian ng tingin ang bawat galaw ko.

“Akie?” Tawag niya sa akin sa medyo naiinis na tono. I chuckled. Mukhang nabitin ang baby ko ah.

“What?” I innocently asked.

“I hate you. Why did you stop?” His brows drawn together and his lips pouted.

“I can’t do all the business, Ian. I also get tired” Pasimula ko. “But you can ride me so we can continue what we are doing just a while ago” I inquired. His eyes widened. Actually, hindi naman talaga ako napapagod. I can devour him all night long but I also want to see Ian doing the business. That would be a good sight. Ian, riding me. While I give him the pleasure he want. Damn! I am indeed horny.

“What? You don’t want to continue it then? Okay. Goodni—”

“No” He interrupted. Napangiti naman ako, alam kong bibigay siya sa gusto ko.

“I-I mean…y-you can’t do this!” He ranted. I playfully rolled my eyes. “Why not?” I raised my brow? Namula naman siya at walang naisagot. Ian is smart but he could be easily manipulated. Naghintay pa ako ng ilang minuto pero hindi na siya sumagot so I decided not to push him.

Nahiga na ako sa sofa at ipinikit ang aking mga mata. I placed both of my hands on the back of my head to make it as my pillow. Ian is so hard to convince. His ego and pride were to high to make him do things not accordingly to his wants. Siya naman ang nabi––

Naramdaman ko ang biglaang pagbigat sa parteng tiyan ko. Something, no, someone is sitting there and that was Ian. I opened my eyes just to be greeted by a kiss. I was stunned and surprised. I did’nt expect him to do what I have said. But here he is, sitting at me, kissing me.

He kissed me aggressively kaya naman napapa-ungol ako. I am about to withdraw him but he held my hands with the use of his both hands. He continued bitting my lower lip. His lips travelled down to my neck. He did the same to me just like what I did to him. He bit at the skin of my neck and then he will lick at the bite mark to ease the pain. Fuck! Mas gusto ko ’yung ganitong Ian. Pero, ako dapat ang dominante. I wanted to be the one who will give him pleasure. Kumalas ako sa pagkakahawak niya sa kamay ko at agad na umupo. He braced his arms around my shoulder as I braced my arms around his waist. I placed butterfly kisses under his forehead, nose, cheek and on his pink and soft lip.

“I was just teasing you. But you came. I didn’t know that you are such a filthy horny boy” I teased.

“You’re so mean!” He smacked my chest as I laughed throatily.

“I know, but you love me” I inquired. He groaned and he buried his face at the crook of my neck. I chuckled at his reaction. Hinalikan ko siya sa kan’yang hubad na braso.

“Ian. Can I go further with you tonight?” I hesitantly asked. I didn’t want to make Ian scared but my restraint couldn’t just stay at its cage. My beast inside of me is telling me to claim what’s mine. To claim, Ian. He didn’t say anything but he nodded while his head were still buried above my shoulder, too shy to even speak.

My lion uproared. Ian gave me the permission to make love to him tonight. We were going to become one. Little Akie stirred to life. He will now be used. My body get excited. I immediately lift Ian up, bridal style. Nakakapit pa din siya sa leeg ko. Tumungo ako sa kama at marahan siyang ibinababa.

“I’ll be gentle” I promised. I hope I could stand at my promises because the moment I saw his naked body as I pulled Ian’s short together with his underwear, ay agad na nablangko ang isip ko. Oh, god. Help me to keep on my promises. His member is so white and the tip of it was so pink. Hinaplos ng palad ko ang malambot at makinis niyang hita. Fuck. Mukhang hindi ko nga talaga mapipigilan ’yung sarili ko.

“You’re so soft and smooth” I continuesly trailed my fingers on his thigh. His body flushed. Nag-iwas siya ng tingin, marahil siguro ay nahihiya. Napangisi ako. Only I who can make him like this.

“Ah” He moaned as I gripped his member. I started to move my hands up and down. I moved my body up to level our eyes as I continue pleasing him with my hand.

“A-Akie..ah” He whimpered. I gave him single peck on his lip.

“What is it, baby?” I smirked. Sinimulan kong halikan at bigyan ng mumunting kagat ang kaniyang hubad na katawan. I didn’t let any single part untouched.

“P-Please” He begged.

“Please, what?” I chuckled.

“Y-You know w-what I want” He stuttered. Bahagya rin siyang humapas sa balikat ko.

“I don’t” I faked.

“Ah..ugh..s-suck i-it” He stammered.

Napangisi ako. “Okay, lewd boy” I teased.

Agad akong bumaba para paligayahin siya. I trailed my tongue down to his chest and nipples. Kumagat at dinilaan ko ito. I moved further down unto his tummy. I continue until I felt his hard member poking my chin. Pandalian akong huminto at tumingin sa kaniya. I could feel his tensed body vibrating underneath my mouth and tongue.

He gasped as I took him whole. This might be my first time sucking someone’s penis but Ian’s member isn’t that huge so I’d easily captured him whole inside my mouth. It was kinda foreign for me but hearing his moans and groans of pleasures pushed me to do better. So, I did. I continued sucking him until his moans becomes louder and his hips moved accordingly to his wants. Napasubunot na rin siya sa akin at mas idiniin ang ulo ko sa pagkakasubo ng alaga niya.

“A-Ah. Uhmp. Ugh” He moved his hips up synchronized to the movements of my mouth. He was lost by the sensational feeling that were coiling his stomach.

I groaned at his impatient movements. I pinned his waist down to stop his harsh motions.

“Ah..Ak–ie..ah. I-I’m gon—na…ugh. “ Nagpatuloy ako sa ginagawa ko until I felt some liquid filling up my mouth. I swallowed it all. It was sweet, well, everything about Ian is just so sweet.

“Akie. Y-You—” Nanlaki ang mga mata after realising that I swallowed his cum. Pero napahinto siya ng itaas ko ang dalawa niyang hita at ipatong ito sa magkabila kong balikat.

“We’re not done yet, baby” I seductively said as I ducked my head on his pinkish and tight hole. I stick my tongue out and started to lick his rear. He moaned loudly more than before. Pinatigas ko ang dila ko at tsaka nilaro ang butas niya. I brushed my tongue on his puckered hole.

Sinimulan kong ibuka ang lagusan niya sa pamamagitan ng pagunat ng dalawang pisngi ng kaniyang pang-upo. I used my index finger to get him ready.

“Ah…Ak—ie. I-It….hu…hurts” He protested but I didn’t listen. Later, he will be pleasured.

Naging dalawa na ang daliri na naglalaro sa butas niya. I scissored it to loosen it more. He just continue moaning. His member stirred to life kaya naman isinubo ko itong muli upang doon mabaling ang atensyon niya.

“A-Ak–ie. Uhm. Ugh!” He moaned louder as my three fingers successfully entered his behind. I slowly moved my fingers in and out of his rear.

I go back from licking his hole. It was fucking delicious. I never thought that ass would be great.

“You’re now ready” I informed. I stood up and started to get undressed. I also removed my short and underwear. Napangisi ako nang makita ko ang pamumula ni Ian matapos niyang makita ang alaga ko. I am proud with my size and seeing Ian’s flushed face made my ego bigger. Nakita ko na nagiwas siya ng tingin.

Ipinatong kong muli ang mga hita niya sa balikat ko. I bend his body until his thigh were pressed unto his chest. Inilapit ko ang mukha ko sa kaniya para halikan siya sa labi. Pinagmasdan ko siya sa mata, he was nervous but there’s a glint of excitement in his eyes. I could see it.

Marahan kong kinagat ang labi niya. I kissed him aggressively once again. I let my tongue probed his mouth. Napaungol ako nang maramdaman ko ang pagtugon niya. Our tongues brushed and it brings warmth to the both of us. I explored his mouth and I was drowned into the sweet taste and to the heat that I could feel whenever I am venturing his mouth.

“F—uck! A-Ar—aah!” Ian cried as I started to enter his rear. Mahigpit siyang napakapit sa likod ko at naramdaman ko ang mariing pagkakabaon ng kaniyang mga kuko.

I penetrated him slowly because I know that Ian is still unused and new to this kind of thing.

“A—Argh!” Mahaba niyang sigaw nang nangalahati na ako sa pagpasok.

“Relax, baby. Just relax” I hoarsely instructed. He nodded as he buried his face on the crook of my neck.

“F-Fuck. You’re…. so tight” I sharply inhaled.

“Argh”

“Argh”

Sabay kaming napasigaw nang bigla kong isagad ang pagpasok sa kaniya. Napakagat si Ian sa may balikat ko na pinagkakasubsuban niya.

“A-Akie!” Ian’s voice cracked. He smacked me on my shoulder.

“Sorry” I chuckled. I started to move my hips slow. Every thrust I make ay may sukling hampas galing kay Ian.

“Why?” Natatawa kong tanong.

“Ma–Masakit” He sheepishly confessed. Natawa naman ako kaya namula siya nang sobra.

“You want me to stop, then?” I slysly asked. He shook his head.

“Okay. Brace your self hard” Tuso kong utos sa kaniya. With shaky hands, he wrapped his arms around my shoulder. I moved a little bit faster kaya mas lumakas naman ang pagungol ni Ian.

“Shit! It….feels good” I rasped. Mas bumilis ang paggalaw na ginawa ko and Ian’s back were arching. Lewd noises filled the entire room as we both shared the warmth of being one.

“A-Akie. Uhm. Ugh!” Ian’s head threw back and forth as I hit his prostrate.

“Y-Yes, baby?” Hinihingal kong tanong habang patuloy parin sa paggalaw.

“F-Faster” He begged. Ian is now getting enchanted by the power of lust, likewise with me.

“O—Okay” I removed my still rock hard shaft inside of him and I flipped his body, so he is now on all fours.

I raised his waist up as he buried his face on a pillow. I penetrated him once more. My length was being swallowed my the pleasurable heat of Ian’s ass.

Fuck! This is fucking good. A good shit. At hindi ako magsasawang maadik dito.

“Mmm” Ian mumbled as I made my movements faster as he wished. Nawala na ako sa kontrol. My body took over my mind kaya hindi ko na napigilan pa ang araruhin ang masikip niyang butas.

“Ahhh” He groaned as I slammed my hips harder. The collision of flesh upon flesh causes obscene noises.

“Fuck! Yo…You’re….fuck…so warm and…tight. Ahh” I hoarsed. This is fucking good.

“Mmm. Ahh. Ungh!” Ian moaned as I gripped his member and started to move my hand up and down on him. “A-Akie. I’m….ahhhh” He moaned as he filled my hands with his cum.

We shared moans and groans of pleasure. We are now enticed by the sensational pull inside of our stomachs.

“I-Ian. I-I’m…ahh…ne–ar” I moaned in between of my gasps.

“Arghhh” He cried as I thurst deeper unto him. I burst my load the moment I reached his prostate.

He became deflated as soon as I finished. Napasubsub siya sa kama. I let my shaft stay inside of him for a while bago ko ito tanggalin. He groaned as I pulled it off of him.

Napahiga na rin ako sa kama. Nakakapagod pero sulit. At last, namarkhan ko na rin si Ian bilang akin.

“Hey, baby” I called. Inalog ko siya nang bahagya.

“Mmm” He mumbled. Natawa naman ako. Hinatak ko siya palapit sa akin at iniunan ko siya sa aking dibdib.

“Is this your birthday gift for me?” Pangaasar ko sa kaniya. Marahan niyang hinampas ang dibdib ko.

“Asshole” He mumbled while his eyes were closed.

“I love you” Hinalikan ko siya sa ulo. I sniffed the fragrance of his hair.

“I love you, too” He said as we both enjoyed the warmth of our body before slumber took over us.

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Ian’s POV

I woke up early in the morning because of the unusual feeling on my rear. Sobrang sakit nito.

Damn Akie for being so rough last night and damn his lit—big friend. Fucking shit. I never expected that it would be that painful yet I enjoyed it. Fucking shit, nakakahiya. It also bring a lot of shame dahil para akong uhaw sa sex nang sabihin ko kay Akie na bilisan niya.

God! What kind of words did I say? What kind of noises did I made? What kind of facial expression did I splayed? Damn the goddess of lust for making me a hoe last night.

Napadako ang mata ko sa lalaking katabi ko. He’s still naked. Nakita ko ang pagkalalaki niya na bahagyang nabubuhay dahil sa morning wood nito. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko dahil sa ngayon ay nasaksihan ko ng malapitan ang kaniyang pagkalalaki—it was huge beyond belief. It was thick and big and God knows how it hurts when Akie penetrated my behind. Dumako din ang pangingin ko sa abs niya, he’s indeed a demi-god. His muscles seems like sculpted. His body is so firm and muscled. Nag-init ang mukha nang mapagtanto ko na parang binobosohan ko na si Akie.

Pero, hindi niyo ako masisisi, how could I avert my gaze to this god right in front of me?!

“It will come alive kung tititigan mo ’yan nang gan’yan” A raspy and husky voice suddenly rang and snapped my sanity into being mesmerized by Akie’s body.

My face flushed nang makita ko ang mala-demonyong ngisi sa labi ni Akie. There’s his teasing and mischievous smirk once again.

“Why? Aren’t last night enough? Do you wanna do it again?” He winked as my face grew redder and redder.

“Shut up. O-Of course not.” I stuttered. I started to move out of the bed but I immediately turned my body back sprawled on the bed dahil sa hapdi ng ibabang bahagi ng likuran ko.

I groaned out of pain. Akie stood up at nagaalalang inalalayan ako paupo sa kama.

“Masakit ba?” Nagaalala niyang tanong.

“Fuck you” I snapped.

He only chuckled as a reply. Fuck this man. Alam naman niyang masakit tatanungin pa. Nangaasar lang siya eh.

“Sorry at hindi ako nakapagpigil kagabi. Ang sikip kasi ng butas mo eh” He said without any shame within him. Nanlaki ang mata ko at napasinghap. Agad kong hinampas nang mahina si Akie sa kaniyang hubad na dibdib.

“U-Use some filter” I pouted at nagiwas ng tingin.

“What? Finger? I did used my finger before putting my soldier here” He naughtily smacked my butt. Naramdaman ko ang paginit ng pisngi ko dahil sa sinabi niya.

“Akie!” I glared and scowled at him.

Great, Akie Villaflor. You’re now the “man of mischief”.

“I’m just kidding, darling” He cheekily apologized as he childishly wrapped his arms tight around my bare waist and dip his head low on the crook of my head.

He started to kiss at my flesh. He bit at them also. I could feel the sharpness of Akie’s canines. I moaned as his nipping-playing came up to the lower part of my ear, one of my sensitive part.

“Fuck” Akie’s hoarse and raspy voice rang directly into my ear down to my whole system. “Are you intentionally making lewd noises just to turn me on?” He raspily asked.

I inhaled slowly and sharply. I could feel the hardened shaft Akie has. He’s getting hard again. P-Pero, h-hindi ko na kaya.

I placed my palms on his chest and pushed him gently away from me. With red face and trembling body, I shook my head. Thankfully, Akie did get what I mean and stopped kissing my bare body. Hindi ko kaya dahil sobrang sakit na talaga ng likuran ko dahil sa ginawa namin kagabi.

“Okay okay. No more” He assured. He smiled brightly as he leaned closer to me again to kiss me on the top of my head. I smiled back contently.

“Let’s take a bath together” He suggested. Namula naman ako dahil sa suggestion na iminungkahi niya.

“Don’t you worry. Walang makakakita sa atin. Maagang umaalis si kuya. Si ate Hazel naman ay siguradong nasa baba at naghahanda ng pagkain’ Paninigurado niya. I simply nod as a reply and approval.

He hooked his arms under my body and lifted me with ease. Nahihiya akong nagiwas ng tingin dahil sa paraan ng pagbuhat sa akin ni Akie. He’s holding me like a bride once again. I braced my hands around his shoulder as he steadied his hold on me. Pagkabuhat niya sa akin ay agad kong nakita ang kama na puno ng blood stain. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang mapagtanto na maaring galing ’yun sa akin ang dugong iyon.

“A-Akie, there’s a-a b-blood” I pointed at it while shaking.

“Of course it’s your first. And since, I am big and your ass were tight as pussy, you will bleed” He explained with his teasing smirk. I blinked once, I was numbed because of his straightforward explanation. Nang ma-realize ko ang sinabi niya ay agad kong himapas ang braso niya at isiniksik ko ang nagiinit kong mukha sa kaniyang leeg.

“How could you say such perverted words” I mumbled.

I heared him chuckle as I felt him move out of his room.

…..

“U-Ugh…I-I ca– ugh” Dirty noises slipped out of my mouth as Akie continued to play his fingers on my puckered hole.

After he sent me in their bathroom kasama siya ay agad niya akong pinaliguan. He also suggested na siya na lang ang magsasabon sa akin. Noong una ay ayaw kong pumayag dahil baka kung ano na naman ang gawin niyang kapilyuhan pero sige siya sa pagpilit kaya wala na rin akong nagawa kundi ang pumayag.

At first, his hands were gently bathing my body to cleanse the mark that he left last night. But his gentle way of bathing becomes seductive as he gripped my shaft with his calloused hands. His teasing hands slowly moved up and down until my manhood becomes hard.

Sooner, his fingers came to my behind as he slid one into one another. I tried to bat Akie’s hands away from there because my rear throbbed but the pleasure he’s causing were so much overwhelming.

Hands groping my manhood and his other arm’s fingers scissoring my behind— It was all driving me crazy.

“Fuck, baby. I want to put it in” Akie rasped. Napapikit ako. Bumigat ang paghinga ko dahil sa nais mangyari ni Akie. My mind were screaming out loud not to because I might end up on a wheel chair but my body refuses the reasoning of my rationale. It wanted the pleasure. It wanted the heat only Akie could give. I was like a moth enticed by the flame. I was captivated by the desirable feeling. My body wanted Akie.

Fuck! I should have known that it’s a bad idea being in a bathroom with this man.

“A-Akie…I u-ugh.” I moaned. I threw my head back and I hit Akie’s chest.

“Yes, baby?” He huskily whispered as he bit at my ear. He also used his teasing tongue to lick on the inside of my ear. He moved further down to my neck as he harshly bit on it. I screamed out of pain. Akie immediately eased the pain as he tenderly kissed the spot he bit unto. He lick, kiss, and bite to my flesh. His actions causing my stomach to tingle in so much need. Tingling to be penetrated by Akie.

“A-Akie” I called his attention. He lifted his head. His dark eyes staring intently on mine. He moved up as he placed a single kiss on my chin, nose, cheeks and lips. He momentarily slid his tongue on my mouth as our tongue brushed towards one another— being entertwined as one.

“Yes, baby?” Akie heavy breathing fanned my face as we finished kissing. “What is it?” He asked.

With red cheeks and bashful stare, I moved my gaze away from this man whose driving me insane.

“I-I. Y-You..” I stuttered. Akie stared at me waiting. He rose his brow out of confusion.

“P-Put it in” I confessed with a little voice, too ashamed to look like a slut.

“What? You changed your mind already?” He smugly whispered. I saw his smirk directly towards me.

“Y-Yeah” I answered back.

“But I don’t think if I’m in mood to do it” He moved away from me. My eyes widened and an “oof” sound resounded out of my mouth. I looked numbly at Akie as he walked over the toilet bowl. He sit there with his manly position, thigh spread wide as he braced his hands on top of it.

“But you can ride me if you want” He smirked. Damn this guy. He really are good in manipulation.

He made me hard and needy for more and he will leave me like a mess just to beg for him.

“What now, Ian? You don’t want to do it anymore?” He played as if he’s the fucking innocent between the two of us.

I gritted my teeth. I narrowed my eyes to the man sitting proudly and smugly on the toilet bowl.

“I-I do” I shamefully admitted. I blame Akie’s manipulative and teasing personality yet I blame my body for giving up so easily on it’s desires.

“Come here then, baby” He smirked. He tapped his thighs as if motioning for me to sit there.

My face lit red as I slowly walked towards his location.

His smirk grew wider and wider as I neared our distance. I finally reached him as I numbly stood in front of him. I placed my hand over Akie’s shoulder as I lifted my feet to be able to sat facing Akie.

Akie leaned closer as he grazed his lips on my ear. “Enjoy your ride, sir” He seductively whispered. I choked out of air as Akie chuckled at my reaction.

I felt his calloused hands assisting my ass. Nagiwas ako nang tingin sa mga nanunuksong mata ni Akie. I am sure that I will live my entire life hearing him tease me about how slutty I looked like right now.

I felt his member being brushed against my butt. I could feel his excited member as it stirred for a moment.

“Fuck, Ian” Akie hoarsed. His breath were fanning my ear. “I want to fuck you until your throat raw yet I also want to see you pleasing your self on top of me. Tell me, darling what do you want?” He nipped at my ear. His hot breath brings chills down to my spine.

But before I could answer, a knock on a door snapped what we’re about to do.

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Akie’s POV

The knock on the bathroom door resounded as Ian pulled away from sitting at my lap. I saw his face worsen with red face.

I gritted my teeth. Malilintikan talaga sa akin kung sino man ’yang kumatok sa pinto. It’s the perfect time to be one with Ian once again but the fuck whose behind that door interrupted us.

“Hey, bro. You there?” Micheal’s voice echoed. I rolled my eyes. Panira talaga ang isang ’to eh. Wala sa timing ang pangiistorbo.

“Yup. What do you need?” I shouted back.

“I’m looking for Ian. Do you see him? He’s nothing to be seen”

“Yes. Kasama ko—mMm” Ian suddenly shut me off by placing his palms over my mouth.

“Ano? Hindi kita maintindihan. Bakit ba kasi ayaw mong lumabas d’yan?” Naiinis na tugon ni Micheal habang malakas muling kumatok sa pinto.

I rolled my eyes. I sighed before I stood up at balutan ng twalya ang ibabang parte ng katawan ko, Ian did the same. Dumiretso ako sa pinto pero agad namang humarang ang kalahatung hubad na katawan ni Ian sa daraanan ko. My brows knitted out of confusion from his sudden behavior.

“Makikita niya tayong magkasama!” Ian exclaimed with a small yet worried voice.

“So?” I nonchalantly shrugged.

“Akie, are you crazy? Baka kung anong isipin niya” Ian continues to rant.

I rolled my eyes. “You’re my boyfriend. So someone will surely think that we fuck” I stated as Ian’s cheeks turns into scarlet hue. I leant forward as I seductively whispered, “Right, baby?” I lick his earlobe as I playfully bit at his flesh.

Marahan akong tinulak ni Ian at umiwas nang tingin. “U-Use some fi-filter” He shyly commented. I laughed because of his response. He’s fucking cute whenever he’s stuttering. And only I who can make him like that.

Pagkabukas na pagkabukas ko ng pinto ay agad na bumungad sa amin ang itsura ng mokong na sumira ng dapat ay mangyayari sa aming dalawa ni Ian. Agad na puminta ang nakakaloko at mapanuksong ngiti sa mga labi nito matapos niyang makita ang hubad ang katawang si Ian na nahihiyang nakatayo sa likod ko.

“Mukhang nakaka-istorbo ata ako sa inyong dalawa ah” Micheal commented. Making Ian blush more than before.

Putangina talaga ng isang ’to eh. Nakaistorbo na nga, nangasar pa.

“Why are you here? What do you need?” I coldly asked. Nakaka-bwiset kasi. Malapit ko na sanang makita si Ian na pinapaligaya ’yung sarili niya habang nasa ibabaw ko pero biglang sisingit itong gagong ’to. It was like having a graze of your favorite chocolate yet it was suddenly pulled out of your senses.

“Mukhang ’di ka naka-score ah” Micheal commented.

“What do you mean?” I gritted my teeth.

“I mean, you’re out of your mood. Mukhang hindi ka naka-score ah” Micheal teased. Tsk. Anong akala niya sa akin? Malakas ata ’tong karisma ko.

“Gago. We already d—” I was about to boast that Ian and I had become one last night but I felt a sudden soft punch on my left side. I looked over my shoulder just to see Ian’s face full of warning that “if you say something, you’re restricted from touching me” Fuck, he’s intimidating even with his small frame. Well, Ian is Ian.

“Tsk. Bakit ka ba kasi nandito? Ano bang kailangan mo?” Iritable kong tanong sa gago kong kaibigan. Ako pang mapapasama kay Ian dahil sa sa kaniya eh.

“I’m going to invite Ian to go out with me” He said straightforward. Nagpintig naman ang tenga ko dahil sa sinabi niyang ’yun. My palm formed into a fistful form as I gritted my teeth.

“Relax, bro. I’m just kidding. Hahahaha” Micheal laughed as he raised his both hands up on the air. “You’re a jealous ass, you know?” He smirked. Gago talaga ’tong isang ’to eh. Kung hindi ko lang siya bestfriend, baka dumugo na mukha nito.

“Shane’s mom called us informing that Shane is on the hospital right now. Jericho is also on the hospital, sabay silang naaksidente kagabi. Nawalan daw ng preno ’yung motorsiklo nilang sinakyan” Micheal informed. My eyes widened a little while Ian frantically pushed me aside and stared at Micheal with fear and worry on his eyes.

“W-What happened? Where is she now? H-How is s-she?” Ian stuttered as his voice cracked. His eyes started to water as it shows signals that he’s about to have emotional breakdown.

Oh, no.

“Shane and Jericho were now okay. May nakakita sa kanilang taxi driver kaya nadala sila nang maaga sa hospital” Micheal assured. I sighed but Ian is still shaking and trembling in fear.

“Where exactly they are?” Ian’s voice rose. He’s being hysterical now.

“Ian. Stay calm” I soothed out. He’s worrying too much, too much that his breathing were speeding faster than he used to have.

“H-How could I-I? I-Im the one who invited her to come. T-Tapos, h-hindi ko siya na-nahatid. Now she’s in danger” Ian stuttered as silent sobs fell out of his mouth. His shoulders were going up and down as he started to cry.

I sighed. I pull him closer to my chest. I hugged him tightly as I felt his small hands clutching at my chest as he nuzzled his face and cried louder. I rubbed my hand up and down on his bare back. I occasionally use my other arm to ruffle his hair in a soothing manner. Unti-unti namang tumahan sa pag-iyak si Ian at nang mahimasmasan na siya ay agad ko siyang iniharap sa akin. I leant forward to level my height against him. I held his soft and small face as I smiled brightly on him.

“It’s not your fault, okay? It’s no one’s fault. It’s an accident. You shouldn’t blame your self for an event you’re not liable at any cost” I soflty assured him. Pero kita ko pa rin ang takot at pangamba sa mukha ni Ian.

“B-But, w-what if—”

“Shh. They will be okay. Don’t you hear Micheal? They are now on a safe state of condition. Don’t worry your self too much” Marahan kong hinaplos ang kaniyang mukha, I planted a soft and tender kiss on his forehead to make him feel better.

“Akie, pwede ba nating puntahan si Shane? I’m worried for her” Ian’s eyes started to water once more but before he could even burst in crying I immediately agreed on his wants.

“Okay, okay. We’ll go there but let’s take bath first, okay?”

He simply nodded as a response. Tumingin naman ako sa direksyon ni Micheal na may nakakaloko na namang ngisi sa kaniyang labi. Tsk. Kung anu-ano na naman ang iniisip ng isang ’to.

“Wait for us downstairs. We’ll be in a minute” I instructed.

“It’s okay, bro. Take your time both. Baka mabitin kayo” He tantalizingly said.

“Gago!” I cussed as Micheal ran down the hallway, laughing.

---

“Tita. How’s Shane?” Ian immediately ran on Shane’s mom.

The old lady just smiled after answering back with an exhausted voice. “She’s now fine. You don’t have to worry”

“Sorry if I failed bringing her home that night. I might at least made sure she’s okay on the way home. But—”

“Ian, it’s fine. The doctor already told us that there are no major injuries Shane and Jericho got. Hindi mo kailangang sisihin ang sarili mo. It’s an accident” Shane’s mom assured as Ian drifted in a calm state of mind.

After a minute, we entered the room where Shane was and Ian started to sob again. She’s perfectly fine though there are some bruises around her shoulder. We also entered Jericho’s room. Unlike Shane, Jericho got more bruises.

“You wanna eat?” I asked Ian since he seems like he’s spacing out.

“Huh?” His tired and exhausted eyes flickered up and met mine.

I sighed. “Do you wanna go out? My treat” I encouraged.

“No thanks. Maghihintay ako sa sasabihin ng doctors about Shane’s condition” He smiled apologetically.

“This will just take a minute. Babalik din agad tayo” I held his wrist, ready to pull him out of the hospital room but he stood defiantly on his ground. I looked at him, irritated at the way how he act right now.

“Akie! I said I don’t want to go, right? I will just stay here. I will wait for you na lang” He said as he passed through me but I held his arm to stop him from doing so.

“Tara na! Madali lang tayo” I encouraged but he pulled his hand out of my grip.

“I said, I don’t want to” His brows were furrowed.

“Pwede ba Ian, tara na. H’wag mong hintayin na pilitin pa kita” I restrained my anger.

“I won’t leave Shane here” Ian.

“Damn that! Lagi na lang bang si Shane? You’re forgetting me because of that bitch!” I spat venomously.

Ian’s eyes widened. It started to water again. But he’s glared at me while gritting his teeth that makes his features more of an angered and hurt puppy.

“Shane isn’t a bitch. She’s my bestfriend and she’s in danger. Don’t you get it? I must be by her side” Ian angrily said.

“Fuck that! Kanina ka pa Shane nang Shane. Hindi mo na nga siguro napapansin na nandito pa ako”

Lagi na lang si Shane ang focus niya. Tsk. Nakakainis.

“If you’re jealous with my bestfriend. Then you can go. Magaaway lang tayo kung ganito” He sighed.

Fuck? Ngayon ako pa dapat ang mag-adjust?

“So? You want me to leave now? Okay, fine!” Tumungo na ako palabas sa kwarto ng hospital.

Putangina talaga! Nakakainis.

C H A P T E R - 033

Ian’s POV

“What’s wrong with him?” I breathed out an exhausted sigh. Gusto ko lang naman bantayan si Shane dahil nakokonsensiya ako sa nangyari sa kaibigan ko. Mahirap bang intindihin ang bagay na ’yon? Bakit hindi ’yon maintindihan ni Akie?

Mamaya ko na lang siguro siya kakausapin. I will let him take some moment to realize that I just want to show some care to my best friend. Besides, Shane has been one of the people who’s been there when I need someone to lean on. She’s been my spiritual twin sister. So, who I am not to exert efforts and time to be with her?

Nagtungo na ako sa kwarto kung nasaan si Shane at payapa ko siyang pinagmamasdan habang payapa siyang nakahiga sa hospital bed nito. I felt guilty for making this happen.

The chimes on the door frame rang as the door opens. Shane’s mom entered the room as I greeted her a with a bright smile.

“Oh, Ian. Bakit nandito ka? Nakita ko ’yung kasama mo na lumabas ah. Kumain ka na ba?” Tita Sofia softly said.

“I will look out for Shane na lang po until she’s okay” I lowered my head to avoid eye contact with her because of guilt and shame.

“Ian. How many times do I have to tell you that accident isn’t your fault. Don’t stress your self over something you didn’t intend to happen in the first place. Shane will be okay. Hindi niya rin magugustuhan kung pababayaan mo ’yung sarili mo nang ganiyan” Tita Sofia looked at my puffy nose and dried tears on my both cheeks.

I nodded in response. “I’m really sorry, tita.” Shane’s mom didn’t hesitate to pull me into an embrace, which I accepted. “You don’t have to say sorry. It’s okay.” She soothingly said.

“Thank you.” I was so glad that tita Sofia is so understanding. Kaya siguro tinuturing ko na rin siya as my second mom. Sooner enough we parted as she smiled reassuringly. Waving a goodbye as she excused herself to buy some foods outside. I smiled back.

I sighed. Nilingon ko ang babaeng nakahiga pa rin hanggang ngayon. She’s no damaged, and I am so much thankful to that. Pero, why does it happened to them? Jericho is a good motorcyclist. He’s competing in many motor shows, too. It was so ironic that this accident would happen to them.

Suddenly, my phone rang. I fished it out of my bck pocket as I answered the unknown number.

“Hello. Who’s this?” I attentively listened to the voice over the phone call.

A raspy, hoarsed and intimidating voice answered. “You knew who I am.” The demon’s voice echoed in my ear down to my whole system. I got goosebumps.

“Kenneth.” I stated. This bastard. Ano bang kailangan ng isang ’to?! “Cut your crap this time. I don’t have time for your shit” I boldly said.

“A feisty cub, how intimidating you are.” Kenneth’s voice sent chills down to my spine and I could actually tell that the bastard is smirking.

“Tsk. Bye. I have so many things to—” The next words I heard out of the phone stopped me from hanging off Kenneth.

“That wasn’t an accident” He snickered.

“Wh-What do you mean?” I was so confused.

Kenneth darkly chuckled. “What happened to Shane and Jericho isn’t an accident. If you want to know, come to the address that I am going to send to you. Come here. Alone!” He instructed.

“Wai—” I was about to complain but Kenneth eventually cut the connection.

That demon. Ano naman kaya ’yung ibig niyang sabihin. Argh!

Wala pang isang minuto ay nakatanggap na agad ako ng message mula sa kapatid ni Akie saying that I should go to the address he just sent.

Shit that man. Ano ba kasing ibig sabihin niya?

……

The place were so messy and it was kinda scary since it was an abandoned place. Papalubog na rin ang araw kaya naman nabalutan na rin ito ng dilim. Street lights made the place dimly-lighted.

An old building. Dito ako dinala ng address na binigay sa akin ni Kenneth. I had no intention to come here but his words made impact that pushes me to come over here. Kahit alam kong delikado, kailangan kong malaman kung ano ba talaga ang tunay na nangyari kay Shane at Jericho. The sense of curiosity and guilty drives me to face Akie’s demon brother.

“I thought you would not come” The voice came so sudden out of the darkness.

Limingon ako sa kaliwa’t kanan kk ngunit hindi ko makita miski anino ng lalaking ’yon.

“Ano ba, Kenneth! Lumabas ka at wala akong oras para makipaglaro pa sa ’yo.” Sigaw ko para ipaalam na hindi ako natutuwa sa ginagawa ng lalaking ’to.

“The cub is acting like a pro. You ain’t big to look like a lion to intimidate it’s prey.” A smirking man came out of the darkness. He’s wearing that prideful aura once again. And I hate it. I hate everything about him.

“Tell me! Anong tunay na nangyari kanila Shane? May kinalaman ka ba sa nangyari sa kanila?” I shouted. I can’t control the veins sticking out of my neck.

“Relax, Ian” He mocked. My palm formed into a fistful one ready to smack the bastard right though his face. “I will tell you” He continued.

“I manipulated everything.” He nonchalantly stated as if it was so fucking casual. And that’s when my fist hardly landed on his face. He barely budge. Hindi nga ata siya nasaktan.

“How dare you do that to her! You’re a devil. Pagsisisihan mo ’yung ginawa mo” I warned. A counted tears fell down out of my eyes.

He chuckled. He held his jaw and moved it slowly to fix it as if it has been dislocated just by my punch. “You’re getting stronger” He teased.

“You know what, I might kill you only if you’re not a good fuck.” He insulted. “What? Anong gagawin mo? Isusumbong mo ’ko sa pulis? Wala kang ebidensiya na ako nga ’yung may kagagawan ng nangyari sa kaibigan mo. Besides, walang mag-iisip na may gagawin akong masama sa mga kaibigan mo. Jericho and Shane were drunk that night” Kenneth explained.

I gritted my teeth. Tama siya. Walang mag-iisip na sinadya ’yung nangyari dahil lasing sila Shane.

“Ano bang gusto mo? Why are you doing this to me and worse, to my friends?!” I exclaimed. My brows furrowed as I glare at the smirking man in front of me.

“I want you to break up with my brother” He said straight forward.

“What the heck? And why would I do that?” I spat.

“Because you should, or else, your friends and love ones will suffer” He simply deadpanned.

Napahinto ako. H-He’s going to hurt others kapalit ng hindi ko pagsunod sa kagaguhan niya? What the hell is wrong with this man?

“And remember… I still have this.” Then the devil shows his phone with a video of mine pleasuring him, kneeling.

I clenched my fist tightly. I glared sharply to the extent of killing Kenneth just by my stares.

“Don’t worry, Ian. I know mahirap pag-isipan ang lahat so I’ll give you time to think. Break up with Akie or be fucked up” He smirked and I swear to all the gods that I will make him pay for all the shitness he caused.

“You just have one hour to choose” Kenneth leaned forward to label his height against mine as he pecked me in my lips.

He smirked. “Choose wisely, my baby.” He then leaved with that smug look painted across his face.

I groaned as he passed through me. How dare him to kiss me! But on top of that, how dare him to blackmail me! Only if I could just tell the authority about his bad deeds, pero malabo. Argh! I fucking hate you, Kenneth Villaflor.

Now, what should I do?

…..

Nalilito na ako. I wanted to continue what’s between me and Akie but I also want my friends and relatives not to be hurt.

I breathed out a breath of anticipation.

No. Hindi ko hihiwalayan si Akie. I will make a way to stop his demon brother mula sa mga gusto nito. Sisiguraduhin ko rin na hindi niya magagalaw ang sino man sa pamilya ko.

Sa ngayon kailangan ko na muna humingi ng tawad kay Akie for our quarrel earlier.

…..

Akie’s POV

Tsk. Nakaka-inis naman talaga! Hindi man lang niya ako matawagan at tanungin kung nasaan ako. Wala ata siyang paki-alam sa akin ah! Sabagay, puro na lang kasi Shane at Shane at Shane ’yung nakikita niya. Tsk.

“Hi, Akie.” A soft and tender voice echoed in the empty park here at the park where I am at. Pagkalingon ko ay nakita ko ang mala-anghel na ngiti ng isang babae. Ngunit sa likod naman ng mga mapupungaw nitong ngiti, alam kong may yungib ng demonyo.

“Krystel” I nonchalantly greeted.

“Why are you here?”

“Leave me alone!”

“Look. Alam kong hindi naging maganda kung ano man ’yung naging past natin but past is past, Akie. I just want to befriend with you. Nothing more.” Aniya.

I sighed. She looked sincere. Wala naman sigurong masama kung kakalimutan ko na kung ano man ’yung nakaraan naming dalawa. She’s right, past is past.

“Fine.” I deadpanned. Oo, handa akong tanggapin siya bilang kaibigan pero this bitch should know that I didn’t trust her that much.

“Can I sit?” Krystel asked, asking if she could sit beside me in the park’s bench.

“Sure. Do anything you want. As if I care” I snapped.

Tinanggap niya ’yung pahintulot ko na maki-upo.

“So, why are you here then?” Krystel.

“It’s none of your fucking business” I rolled my eyes.

“Oh, Akie. You’re still the same Akie. Deliquent. Hostile. Harsh. Bet no one could still tame you?” She inquired.

I gritted my teeth in annoyance. Ayos ’to ah. Kung anu-ano na naman ang pinagsasabi. Akala mo maraming alam.

Hindi ako sumagot sa tanong niya. I just sit there, waiting for the sun to set itself down while thinking about Ian. Ako na lang siguro itong hihingi ng tawad. Tutal dahil sa selos ko nasigawan ko na naman siya. I’m a jealous ass, indeed.

“Akie” Krystel called my name in a sweet tone.

I didn’t gave time to spare a single glance at her direction. I just sat there waiting for her continuation.

“I-I still love you” She suddenly confessed. Hindi ako natigilan, instead, I snorted. Really? Mahal? Tangina, hindi niya ako maloloko.

“Krystel, fuck off. I don’t want to hear your bullshit” I snapped.

“But, it’s true. I know I sound so pathetic bu—”

“Shut up!” I barked. I stood up at hinarap siya. “I think you should leave” Tumalikod na ako at akmang aalis na para bumalik sa ospital Kung saan naroon sila Jericho at Shane nang maramdaman kong may biglang humatak sa akin. Two slender arms wrapped its way to my shoulder as it pulled me down just to be met by soft lips.

I pushed this bitch away but his face resembles Ian’s cute face kaya naman nang halikan ako nutong muli ay nagpa-ubaya na ako.

Krystel were kissing me. I knew at the very first seconds that I should let go but her kisses were so damn good and pleasurable and the fact na nakikita ko si Ian sa kaniya kaya hindi ko magawang labanan ang tukso.

Napahawak ako sa bewang ni Krystel as our kiss deepened. Her tongue slipped its way through my mouth and that was fucking good! Her taste is just as sweet as before. Krystel moved and I found my body moving to the direction Krystel were leading. Napa-upo ako sa kaninang bench na inupuan namin and Krystel climbed up on my lap without separating our lips.

I found our position hot and sexy but at the back of my mind, my conscience we’re screaming to stop ’coz I was thinking for Ian. But how could I deny this goddess on top of me, grinding herself just to pleasure me. Fuck, I’m screwed.

The play goes for a minute and moans could be heard across the whole empty park. Until silent sobs suddenly rang and my body goes into a frozen state. Krystel stops what she’s doing as I pushed her off of me. She stumbled down the ground with a groan.

I stood up quickly as I looked where silent sobs were coming. Then, there is Ian, full of tears. Hatred, sadness, regret, anger, and disappointment are all visible in his big doe eyes. He’s biting his lips, seems like he’s battling to cry out loud.

With shaky voice, he asked. “W-Why?” Then tears fell uncontrollably down to his puffy red cheeks.

Crap, Akie. You’re fucked up!

C H A P T E R - 034

Ian’s POV

Nasaan naman kaya ’yung lalaking ’yon? Bakit hindi niya sinasagot lahat ng tawag ko? Bahala na nga, hihintayin ko na lang siya sa hospital. Alam kong pupuntahan niya rin si Jericho para kamustahin na ang kalagayan nito.

I will make it up to him. Bibilhan ko na lang siya ng paborito niyang pagkain since malapit lang naman ’yon sa park na katabi lang halos ng hospital kung nasaan sila Shane.

Wala pang isang oras ay nakarating na rin ako sa maliit na parke kung saan naroon ang tindahan ng paboritong pizza ni Akie. Buti na lang wala mas’yadong tao at mabilis lang akong makakabili.

I spent almost 15 minutes to wait for my orders bago ko iabot ang bayad sa tindera. I smiled to show some gratitude for a convenient service.

I was walking along the aisle of the park as I saw silhouette of two people standing in a nearby bench. Mukha silang nag-aaway. Lumapit pa ako nang husto para makita ko kung ano ba ang nangyayari but to my surprise the slimmer silhouette kissed the taller one, pero kita kong tinulak niya ’yung isa. I became more curious nang makita kong humalik muli ang tao kanina. Ngunit sa pagkakataong ito, gumanti na ng halik ang matangkad na anino. I adjusted my eyeglasses to see it clearer but I movements suddent halted nang ma-recognize ko kung sino ang dalawang tao sa likod ng mga anino kanina.

Krystel Honey Francisco and his ex-boyfriend, Akie Villaflor.

T-They’re kissing. Their eyes were closed kaya hindi nila makita na napapanood ko sila. I saw how Akie held tight of Krystel’s waist and how this bitch wrapped her arms around my boyfriend’s neck. But the worst part is, hindi lumalaban si Akie. He just let Krystel do some malicious act towards his body and he’s accepting those deeds! Nagugustuhan niya!

My tears started to rush down my cheeks nang hatakin ni Akie si Krystel papunta sa bench at umupo dito. Kita ko pa ang pagpatong ni Krystel sa magkabilang hita ni Akie. This bitch.

It last for almost a minute until they stopped. My sobs echoed all throughout the empty park as I saw how Akie’s eyes met mine. It widened as I saw how fear of emotions flickered accross his eyes.

Why afraid? Shouldn’t he be disgusted on what he did? On what he showed?

“W-Why?” I stammered.

I looked at his eyes one more time with full of disappointmens, then I turned my heels as I ran fast to go off somewhere that is far from him.

“Ian….wait! I––” Hindi ko na narinig pa lahat ng sinabi ni Akie as I ran away from the intangible pain I saw between him and Krystel.

…..

3rd POV

“Fuck!” Akie exclaimed as he ran after Ian.

Krystel smirked slyly as she watched the couple running after one another.

Hindi pa nagtagal ay lumabas na sa likod ng puno ang lalaking may pakana ng lahat. Kenneth Villaflor.

“Anong next sa plano?” Krystel asked. A smirk was painted across his beautifully sculpted face due to the uprising victory that they planned.

“Their breakup” Kenneth smirked triumphantly. Alam niya na sa sunod niyang gagawin ay tiyak na maghihiwalay ang kapatid niya at si Ian.

“Let’s go. We’ll just wait for their announcement” Naunang naglakad palayo si Kenneth as Krystel followed trough.

Meanwhile. Akie immediately stopped Ian from running due to his longer strides. The tall boy turned Ian to face him as Ian did his very best to get off Akie’s strong grip on his hand.

“Ano ba!? Get off of me” Ian shouted. His face is still full of dried tears. His nose were red and his lips were quivering.

“No! Listen to me. I didn’t mean to kiss Krystel—”

“Shut up!” Ian halted. “Y-You don’t mean it? H’wag mo kong gawing tanga, Akie. I saw everything. I saw how you accepted her kisses. You even dared to make her sit on top of you. How disgusting!” Ian ranted.

“Ian. I swear it’s not that.” The mascular boy pleaded. But Ian is too occupied by the scene he saw earlier.

“Ang sabi ko bitawan mo ako!” Sinubakan ni Ian tanggalin ang mahigpit na pagkakahawak ni Akie sa kamay nito. But the smaller boy failed to do so. Akie’s hand barely budge.

“Why didn’t you continue your kiss with her? Bakit? Did you missed kissing her? Did everything come up to your mind na gusto mo pa rin pala siya? Mahal mo pa rin ba siya? Am I-I just a rebound?” The innocent eyes of the smaller boy started to emit tears once again. If it would be cartoons, the park would be filled with a lake of tears.

“Ano bang sinasabi mo? I was just frozen kaya hindi ako nakapag-react kanina! I knew I should have pushed her off of me. But my body just freeze. And I don’t know why!” Hinawakan ni Akie ang maliit na mukha ni Ian as he leaned forward to make their distance even closer. “Believe me, Ian” The tall guy sincerely pleased.

Umiwas ng tingin si Ian. There’s a part of him na nagsasabing totoo ang sinasabi ni Akie but his rational part is stating that Akie is being illogical. Besides, nakata ng dalawa niyang mata kung paano humalik pabalik si Akie sa mga halik ng bruhang si Krystel. He’s chaeting! His rational mind screamed.

“Akie. Just…. Just please leave me alone. I don’t know what should I do, I needed to unwind. Let us just settle ourselves apart for awhile. Please.” Marahang pakiki-usap ni Ian.

“But baby, I can’t let you go—”

Naputol ang sasabihin ni Akie nang tumunog ang telepeno nito. He fished it out of his pocket. He opened the email he just got.

Suddenly, his grip on Ian’s wrist becomes tighter than before.

“A-Akie. Ano ba! Masakit!” Ian groaned in pain.

“Fuck this!” Akie abruptly throws Ian’s body away from him. Ian stumbled as he found himself sitting on the ground.

“Ouch! Ano bang problema mo. Bakit parang ako pa ang may kasala—”

“WHAT’S THIS?! TELL ME WHAT’S THIS!” The tall guy stood menacingly in front of the small boy that is currently on the ground.

Ian’s big doe eyes widened as the video played right in front of him.

His video sucking Kenneth’s dick was now playing in Akie’s phone.

“A-Akie, that’s––”

“Káilan pa ’to? Tell me káilan pa ’to!” Akie stated with such coldness on its tone. His glares is as piercing as an arrow released on a bow.

Hindi makuhang sumagot ni Ian. He was frozen in belief. Paano nakuha ni Akie ’yung video na ’yon? Is it Kenneth? But I still have 30 mins to decide. Plano niya ba talaga na ipadala kay Akie ’yung video na ’yon whatever decision I made? Fuck him!

“Ha! Ano? Bakit ’di ka sumagot? What’s wrong, nahihiya ka na nalaman ko na hindi pala sapat ’yung burat ko para sa ’yo? Kulang pa ba Ian? Ang galing mo rin umarte eh ’no? The moment we had sex, you act innocent and uncomfortable pero sumusubo at tumutuwad ka na pala noon pa. Bakit? Hindi ba mapuno ’yang bibig mo ng isang burat at kailangan mo pang humanap ng iba? You dared to accuse me for cheating on you for just kissing Krystel, while you dared to cheat on me on having a real affair sa ibang lalaki. You’re such a good slut, a hoe, a––”

Hindi na natapos pa ni Akie ang mahaba nitong pahayag dahil narakamdam ito ng hapdi sa kanan nitpng pisngi. Hindi inalintana ng matangkad na binata ang sakit ng ginawang pagsampal sa kaniya ng binatang bumubuhos ang luha.

Ian stood there with his fist closed. His outer facade was burning with flame while his inner demeanour was being drowned by cold waves of emotions.

His vision is as blurry as a windshield of a car in the middle of the rain. His heart has been divided into million of pieces after hearing everything what Akie said.

“Y-You mentioned the w-wrong thing” Ian wipped away his tears as he stood still in front of his man although his knees wanted to collapsed right after him. He smiled, showing his cute and innocent smile. “I didn’t cheated on you and I would never do that to you.”

“Playing the role of the victim now? How great are you. I ain’t dumb, Ian.” Akie snorted.

“I am not!” Ian defended. “You don’t know the whole thing, Akie.” Ian stood on his ground.

“Of course I know. And it’s you, being a dick-hungry little bitch—”

“STOP!” Ian shouted. He began to cry for the n’th time for this day. “I-I don’t want to hear any words from you anymore. Y-You”re just hurting me.“ Ian looked on the ground. He turned his heels away from Akie, ready to leave. But the next words that Ian just have said made Akie realized what he just did.

“I wished you could’ve listened to me. Goodbye.”

C H A P T E R - 035

Ian’s POV

It’s been a week since hindi kami nagka-usap ni Akie matapos ’yung away namin. It’s kinda depressing knowing that we end up not noticing each companies. Damn his brother.

“Ha! Ano? Bakit ’di ka sumagot? What’s wrong, nahihiya ka na nalaman ko na hindi pala sapat ’yung burat ko para sa ’yo? Kulang pa ba Ian? Ang galing mo rin umarte eh ’no? The moment we had sex, you act innocent and uncomfortable pero sumusubo at tumutuwad ka na pala noon pa. Bakit? Hindi ba mapuno ’yang bibig mo ng isang burat at kailangan mo pang humanap ng iba? You dared to accuse me for cheating on you for just kissing Krystel, while you dared to cheat on me on having a real affair sa ibang lalaki. You’re such a good slut, a hoe, a––”

Those words. Does Akie really meant those words? Does he really thought that I’m a whore? A slut? A hoe?

Hahaha. Of course he did. Everyone will think of that way kung mapapanood nila ’yung video na ’yon. I just hoped that he listened on me that day. I wished he did.

“Hey, Ian. Why are you crying? Is anything wrong?” Shane noticed.

Oh, yeah. Nandito pa nga pala ako sa school’s cafeteria. I cried? I didn’t noticed I’m crying that hard publicly. Hahaha. I mist be crazy.

“Oh, sorry. Napuwing kasi ako.”

“Huh? Hindi naman maalikabok dito ah. Tsaka––”

“Tama na ang tanong, Shane. Let’s just go to our next class. It’s about to start and I don’t want to be late in Mr. Villaruel’s class. You definitely knew why! Hahaha”

“Yeah, right.” Shane hopped off of her chair to dash out of the cafeteria. Hays! Buti naman at halos hindi nagbago si Shane. I thought she would be traumatized or something. At least she’s fine now.

“Ian. Come on! Akala ko ba ayaw mong ma-late?!”

“Coming!”

……

“Ian, gising.” A gentle hand tapped my back.

I peaked my eyes open to see who’s that bastard who dared to wake me up.

“Shane, shut up! I’m trying to keep my slumber as peaceful as it could. So please shut up!” I groaned.

“Hoy! Tapos na ’yung klase. Uwian na!” Napamagulat ako nang tumamo sa isipan ko ang sinabi ng kaibigan ko.

“A-Ano? Nakatulog ako sa klase ni Mr. Villaruel?” I asked with my eyes wide.

Shane nodded in matter-of-fact. I gasped as I smacked her on her arm.

“Why didn’t you wake me up?”

“You look so pale and weak the whole time. You even cried while you were sleeping. So I didn’t dare to disturb your nap” Shane gently explained. Her tone shows concern. She’s really a friend.

“Alam kong ayaw mo na nagtatanong ako. But, I’m your bestfriend. Parang kapatid na kita. Kaya alam ko kung may mali ba sa ’yo.” She held my hand at marahan itong hinaplos. “Ian, is there’s something wrong?” She smiled sympathetically.

“Actually, A-Akie and I got into a serious quarrel. He find out that I once––”

“Ian Salvador, pinapatawag ka ni Mr. Villaruel sa office niya.” A boy suddenly appeared behind the classroom’s doorframe.

“Okay, susunod ako.” I started to stow my things on my bag. “Sorry, Shane, I’ll tell you when you go to my place what happened. For now, I really need to go. Bye!” I waved her goodbye as I followed the boy on his way to Mr. Villaruel’s office.

Pagkapasok ko sa opisina ng propesor ay nakita ko si Kevin na naka-upo sa harapan nito. Mukhang malalim ang pinag-uusapan ng dalawa.

“Mr. Salvador. You’re here. Please take a sit.” Mr. Villaruel, which happened to be the head of the administration structed.

I took the seat besides Kevin. “Thank you. But what’s the matter? Why there’s a sudden call for me? And with Kevin? Is something wrong?” I asked.

“Mr. Salvador, relax. You’re not here because you did some horrible thing. You don’t have to be hysterical.” The teacher sighed.

“Oh! Okay. Sorry.” I apologized.

“So, I call you two to inform you both that there will be students coming from Canada who will study here in our University. And they want an exchange.” Mr. Villaruel started.

“What’s the connection of those students with the both of us, then?” Kevin asked.

“Nothing. But the committee choose to exchange the top students of our school. And there would be two.” Naglabas ng dalawang pirasong papel si Mr. Villaruel at ibinigay ito sa amin. I looked the picture at nakita ang larawan ko with personal profile. Nakalagay din ang GWA ko sa buong semestro.

“Obviously, you both are the top students of our institution that’s why we wanted to inform you that we are looking forward that you both would to be the representative of our school to study abroad. Pero h’wag kayong mag-alala, nasa inyo pa rin naman ang desisyon. If nakapag-decide na kayo, just come to me with these application forms and sign the letter of approval for the said exchange.” Inabot ni Mr. Villaruel ang application form sa amin. Naglalaman ito ng mga approval letter na kinakailangan ng pirma ng mga magulang.

“Any questions?” Pahabol ni Mr. Villaruel.

“Uhm. What are the benefits that we might get in accepting this request?” Kevin asked. That’s the one thing I really wanted ask.

“Everything. You will pay nothing. You will be scholars there. You will get free rooms for apartment. Allowances. Uniforms. You will get extra money too. So, please consider these benefits. It would help you. For now, think wisely. You may go.” Mr. Villaruel bid his farewell to me and Kevin. We thanked him in return.

“Mr. Salvador and Mr. Marquez. We are looking forward for you both to accept this offer. Goodbye.” Kevin and I nodded in understanding.

Schooling abroad? This is one of my dreams even before! Fantastic! Pero, does it mean na iiwan ko sila Mommy para makapag-aral sa ibang bansa. How about Akie? Hindi ko pa nga rin siya nakaka-usap after that scenario. Paano pa kaya ’pag nalaman niya na may posibilidad na sa ibang bansa ako mag-aaral. Magagalit kaya siya o matutuwa? Sana magalit siya. Sana pigilan niya ako na umalis dahil gusto ko pa rin siyang makasama kahit na hindi maayos ’yung lagay ng relasyon naming dalawa sa ngayon. Sana pigilan niya ’yung paglayo naming dalawa.

“Hey, Ian. Are you okay? Kanina ka pa wala sa sarili mo.” Kevin gently chuckled.

Namula naman ako dahil sa nakita kong muli ang matamis na ngiti ni Kevin. I don’t know but that was kinda attractive.

“W-What do you mean?”

“Sa office pa lang ni Mr. Villaruel, alam kong lumilipad na ’yung diwa mo. Normally ikaw sa ating dalawa ang mahilig magtanong. Besides, you didn’t feel excited. ’Di ba pangarap mong makapag-aral sa ibang bansa? Why you didn’t look happy at all?” Kevin asked. Confusion is visible on the way how his eyebrows goes upward.

“It’s nothing. I-I’m just tired and exhausted.” I lowered my head to hide my face ’coz I felt a single drop of tear escapes my eyes.

“Ian. Whatever problem you’re with. Always know that I will always be here for you. Just say so.” Kevin shows his charming smile once more.

“Thank you.” I smiled back.

Kevin hugged me and I hugged him back. It lasted for almost five seconds before we parted. I chuckled gently.

“Teka, hindi ka ba susunduin ni Akie? Gusto mo sabay na tayo?” Pag-alok ni Kevin.

“Ah, no thanks, may pupuntahan din naman ako.” Pagtanggi ko sa alok ni Kevin.

“Okay. Goodbye, then.”

“Bye”

I sighed. They always keep on asking. Do I hardly look devasted? I shook my head. Poor Ian.

Pupunta na nga lang muna ako sa locker ko para ilagay lahat ng gamit ko. It would be less hassle.

I turned my heels on the opposite direction kung saan tumungo si Kevin and I gasped because of the person na nasa likod ko. He’s wearing his dark pool of cold eyes. Oh, no. Did he saw me and Kevin hugging?

I gulped. Crap.

Unti-unti siyang lumapit. His strides look so menacing and intimidating. He towered over me. Halos dibdib na lang niya ang makita ko. I found my self trapped in the corner by Akie’s broad and tall figure.

“Ahhh!” I squeled. Akie suddenly slammed his fist on the wall right beside me!

“Is it that bastard?” His cold voice sends shivers down to my spine.

“W-What—”

“The man on the video!” Akie slammed his fist once again. “Is it Kevin?” He shouted. He’s gritting his teeth.

“N-No. No. It’s not Kevin. I swear!” Pagtatanggol ko sa tao.

“He’s not? So, ano? What is he, then? Your affair 2.0? Are you a collector of dick?” He said straightforward. Pinigilan kong umiyak. I bit my lip hard para hindi bumuhos ang luha ko.

“He’s just my friend. You’re just jealous, Akie.”

“No, I’m not. You’re just being the whore you used to be.” He smirked. I found it hot whenever he smirks but now, his smirk is full of insult.

I lowered my head as stream of tears continuesly flows down to the ground. Naramdaman ko na bahagya siyang dumistansiya sa posisyon niya kanina.

I heard him ‘tched’ as he walked away without bidding his goodbye. But before he could, I immediately stopped him.

“The president wanted me to study abroad!” I said in between of my sobs. “I-I just wanted you to know” I whispered.

Nakita ko na mas ikinuyom ni Akie ang kaniyang kamao.

“So, you are leaving?” He asked with soulless voice.

“I-I was thinking if you—”

“Then leave!” He cut me off.

I smiled. My heart ached. Kasabay na bumuhos nang bumuhos ang luha ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nakangiti habang umiiyak. I probably look crazy!

But atleast he supported me for what I dreamed of.

C H A P T E R - 036

Ian’s POV

Three days before the final decision that Mr. Villaruel was asking for.

And I still haven’t made any decision.

“Oh, Ian. Magsisimula na ’yung laban. Tara na!” Shane held my wrist as she ran fast in the middle of the hallway with full of students whom as excited as her.

“Shane, wait. You don’t have to rush!” Pagpigil ko sa mabilis niyang paglakad.

“Ano ka ba! This is the last time na mapapanood natin ang basketball team ng school. Besides, we’ll graduate soon at iiwan mo na ako.” Pagdadrama ng kaibigan ko. Yumuko pa ang madrama kong kaibigan na tila ba maiiyak ito sa kahit na anong oras.

I sighed. “Shane. I’ll do it to study abroad. Alam mo naman na ultimate dream ko ang makapag-aral abroad, hindi ba? And the fact na hindi pa ako nakakapagpadesisyon, you don’t have to make such a drama.” I playfully rolled my eyes. Yes, though, sinabi ni Akie na umalis ako, I am still hoping for him to stop me. That’s why hindi ko pa binibigay ’yung disisyon ko kay sir Villaruel.

“Speaking of, bakit nga pala hindi ka pa nakakapag-desisyon? Balita ko tatlong araw na lang at kailangan niyo ng maibigay ang pinal niyong desisyon. Tsaka, balita ko nga, si Pres. Kevin daw, pumayag na. Is it because of Akie kaya hindi ka pa nakakapili? Hindi pa rin ba kayo okay?” Shane sympathetically smiled, showing how concerned she is.

Na-ikwento ko na kasi kay Shane kung anong nangyari sa amin ni Akie. But I kept aside all the private things that should be kept between me and Akie alone.

“No. We’re still on a quarrel. I couldn’t blame him though” I breathed out an exhausted sigh.

“Ano ba kasi talagang nangyari? Anong rason at ganon na lang sa ’yo kagalit si Akie? Is it something unforgivable? I know you couldn’t do something like that. Kaya bakit ganon ka kung tratuhin ni Akie?” Tanong ni Shane. Alam kong nalilito at naguguluhan siya. But the thing goes same to my state of mind. Hindi ko na ma-unawaan si Akie. Maybe it was his jealousy that took over him? Alam kong mababaw lang, pero I couldn’t blame him. Wouldn’t you be mad if you saw your lover kneeling on someone’s feet, naked and bare? Ang tanging hinihiling ko lang naman sa kaniya, pakinggan ako. Hindi naman ako makapag-message sa kaniya since ni-block niya ako sa lahat ng social media accounts ko. And whenever he’s around, he will intentionally avoid me. I missed him. I missed the cheerful Akie. The sweet and the clingy boyfriend I used to have. I missed his presence and warm. Not this cold and hostile face that was plastered all over his face.

I was cut off of my trail of thoughts once I felt someone suddenly hugged me.

“Fuck. Ian, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to trigger your emotions.” Shane hysterically shushed me.

“H-Huh?” I sobbed. What? I’m crying? I didn’t… noticed that I was crying.

“It’s okay. You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to” Shane understandingly said.

After hearing her words, I suddenly burst into tears. I burried my face in her shoulder as I cried harder. She soothingly pat my back to give some comfort and it actually helped.

After a few minutes, my tantrums eventually stopped as I gap my distance with Shane. She held my shoulder and faced me sternly.

“Cry it out, Ian. You’ll get better soon. Whatever you and Akie were facing right now, I know you two could get over it. Be strong, little bro” She winked. I chuckled. Shane is really my sister. We’re not related by blood, yet, our bond towards one another doesn’t even flutter.

“Thank you, Shane. You’re the best!” I smiled.

“I know! Hahahaha” She laughed as he pulled me forward, away from the awkward silence of students around us. “Bilis! Gusto kong makita si Jericho kung paano siya umupo sa bench. Hahahaha” She smirked evilly.

Hays. Shane is really a sweet, wicked-witch.

……

“Oh! Sorry! Sorry! Shane, wait. I’m bumping into whoever it is. Ouch! Sorry!” Paghingi ko ng tawad sa babaeng nakabangga ko.

“Shane!” I halt on my stride to stop Shane from getting into the crowd.

“Ian. Hindi natin makikita kung dito lang tayo pupwesto.” She said in a matter of fact.

“Alam ko. Pero sobrang daming tao. Isn’t kinda rude if we will sneak into their spaces?” I whispered. I caught some eyes giving us glares.

“Fuck them! Ayaw mo bang makita si Akie na maglaro? I’m sure he’s looking for you.”

“O-Of course I want. It’s just—”

“Whatever. Come on!” Hinatak na niya ako papasok sa kumpol ng mga tao na nakapalibot sa buong gymnasium ng school.

End of the season final battle na kasi ng dalawa sa nangunang grupo ng buong school. Ang seniors at ang juniors. Inaabangan talaga ng lahat ang laban na ito dahil bukod sa dikitang labanan, matagal na kasing rivals ang dalawang grupo kaya ganon na lang kung pag-usapan at abangan ang laban nila. Akie is on the senior’s side.

After how many bumps and stumbles, nakarating din kami sa harapan kung saan mas kita ang mga manlalaro. We’re just beside the bench side of the senior’s team.

Napatingin ako sa mga upuan ng grupong pinangungunahan ni Akie. Micheal and Akie was there, everyone actually, but Akie. Baka hindi siya maglalaro?

“Oh, Shane, ikaw pala ’yan. Are you here to watch me beating the hell out of those juniors?” Kumindat pa si Jericho. Halatang nagpapa-cute siya kay Shane.

“In your dreams. I’m actually here to watch you sit on the bench, loser” Shane stuck her tongue out to tease Jericho more.

“It’s okay. At least I know na ako pa rin ang pinunta mo” He smirked and winked. Namula naman ang kaibigan ko. Tsk. Pakipot.

“Argh. Just leave us alone!” Shane pushed Jericho out of her sight.

“Oh, Ian. Nandito ka rin pala!” Jericho finally noticed me.

“Yeah. Hi?” I timidly waved. Hindi ko alam kung alam na ba nila Jericho ang tungkol sa away namin ni Akie kaya I feel so awkward and shy whenever they’re around me. But, thankfully, Akie keep our fight for the both of us alone.

“By the way. Hindi ba kayo nagkita ni Akie? He doesn’t come at any of the final practices. Tapos ngayon wala pa siya. Alam naman niya na sa ganitong oras magsisimula ang laban. Tsk. That bastard.” Jericho shook his head.

“Uhm. No, I haven’t seen him yet.”

“Ah, ganon ba. Pwede bang tawagan mo siya o kaya puntahan mo siya sa shower room? Baka nandon lang ’yun. Minsan kasi nagpapalamig ’yun bago ang laban.”

“Uhm. S-Shower room?” I blushed.

“Don’t worry. Kung may gagawin man kayo, just lock the door.” Jericho added with a wink.

“Tigilan mo nga ’yung kaibigan ko!” Shane meddled.

“Bakit. Gusto mo ba ikaw na lang ikulong ko sa shower room kasama ko?” Jericho.

“Fuck off. Okay?” Shane rolled her eyes.

“Sungit!” Jericho chuckled. Tumungo na ito sa bench area at naghanda na para sa nalalapit na laban.

“Ian. Huy!” Shane.

“H-Huh?”

“Go, find Akie. This might be your chance.” Shane pushed me palabas sa Gymnasium.

I stumbled palabas sa pinto ng Gymnasium as I collided once again into different bodies.

I sighed. Would this be another chance?

“I don’t think so” I whispered to my self.

…..

I was standing awkwardly in front of the locker room of the basketball team. Should I knock? Should I took a step backwards? What should I do?

Halos lahat ng estudyante nasa Gymnasium na. But here I am, waiting for a person whom might be at the court right now. Malay ko ba na nandito talaga ’yun. Tsk. Si Jericho talaga, mamaya trip lang ako n’on.

Well, wala naman’g tao, mabuti pa i-check ko na rin kung nandito ba talaga si Akie.

I entered the room quietly. Mukhang wala namang tao. There’s a lot of bags and personal stuff here, but seems like there’s no one around.

I shrugged. Mukhang wala naman dito si Akie.

I turned around just to bump into something bare and hard.

…..

Akie’s POV

I was bathing in the shower on the locker room of the basketball team nang may narinig ako na nagbukas ng pinto. Tsk. Susunduin pa ako. Mukha bang hindi ko alam ang papunta sa Gymnasium?!

I wrapped my towel around my waist. But before I stepped out of the shower, I saw a small figure behind the curtain. It seems like, this one is looking for something, or someone. Sino kaya ’tong isang ’to?

I opened the curtain and I was shocked after seeing the boy standing there— looking like a lost puppy.

Tch. Why is he here? Ano na naman bang gusto ng isang ’to?

Lumapit ako sa kaniya, and since he’s facing the other direction he didn’t see me coming. I looked at him. Mukha siyang naliligaw na bata. He shrugged at akmang aalis na per nang humarap ito sa akin ay tumama siya sa hubad kong katawan.

Pfft. Clumsy little kitten.

“Aray. Ano ba kas––” His eyes widened as he recognized that I’m the one standing over him.

“A-Akie. Nandito ka pala. Kanina ka pa hinaha–– ahhh” He squeled the moment I pushed him on the nearest wall. I held his wrist up above his head to stop his movements. He tried to escape by squirming but I pinned him using my other hand by placing it on his waist to steady his stance.

“Why are you here?” My voice turned out to be cold and intimidating.

“I-I..well…uhm” He stuttered.

I leaned forward. “Aren’t you going to abroad to study? Why are you still here, then?” I held his chin and lift it up to make him look at me directly. Napatingin ako sa labi niya. Damn! I missed kissing his soft, pink and warm lips. I bit my lip to stop my self from doing so.

“H-Hindi pa ako nakakapag-desisyon. I still have three days to decide. And, I also want to make the decision with you by my side.” He avoided my serious stare.

I snorted. “Really? You want my permission? When you cheated on me, did you ask for my permission? No, right? So why ask for validation if you do things by your own will? I don’t think I still have space between your dilemma” I smiled bitterly. Ian’s eyes watered.

Here he goes again. Playing as if he’s the innocent and victim. Tch.

“I-I’m sorry” He sobbed.

Hindi ako nagsalita. I just let him do the first move.

“B-But please believe me! I didn’t cheat on you. I swear I didn’t.”

“Then how can you fucking explain the video? It’s you, Ian. It’s fucking you!” I shouted. I felt him curling on his own body.

“I-It was your brother. He raped me. He forces me to do those things. Believe me.” He looked at me with pleasing eyes.

My heart ached for a second after seeing Ian crying and weak. Every single drop of his tears pulled the string deep within my heart that causes sudden pain.

But then, my pride pulled it’s own lever by itself. My brother?

“My brother? What the fuck?! You really think paniniwalaan kita na kuya ko ’yung gagawa sa ’yo non? Tsk. And you’re accusing my brother for raping you? You look so satisfied though, so it doesn’t look raped actua–”

Napahinto ako nang marinig kong marahang tumawa si Ian habang umiiyak. I snarled.

“I missed you, Akie. I r-really missed you. I wanted to hug you. K-Kiss you. Be by your side all the time. B-But this was too much. I can’t take it anymore. This pain is too much, Akie. I-It was too much.” Napayuko siya tsaka mas lalong lumakas ang kaniyang hagulhol.

I released my hold to his arms. Ian eventually collapsed on his knee. He covered his crying eyes with his free hands.

Damn! What have I done? I made him cry again! Pero putangina! Kapatid ko dinadamay niya! How could I decide?! Kuya wouldn’t do that thing! He’s not what Ian was saying.

Ian continue to sob heavily and loudly. I wanted to hug him. Comfort him. Secure him. Shush him. Tell him that I really believe him! But fuck! He’s accusing my brother! How could he?

“Sorry” I deadpanned. I looked away from him. I felt guilty but I know kuya wouldn’t do that.

“You don’t have to” Ian looked up. He stood up and smiled brightly through his face plastered with visible pain and confusion.

“We don’t have to say so. Maybe it’s the best not to say so. For the last time, sorry, but it’s probably for the best” I was frozen to his sudden words.

“Three days, and I finally realized my decision. I-I love you…” He turned his back and stopped before stepping out of the door. “B-But letting you go, is letting this p-pain go.” Napayuko siya at tsaka umalis.

Damn! Bakit ’di ko magalaw ang buong katawan ko?! I should’ve stop him! Fuck this ego! Tangina! Hindi pwede. I made through all of this not to be left behind by Ian!

Inihilamos ko ang palad ko sa mukha ko as I screamed on top of my lungs.

“FUCK!”

C H A P T E R - 037

Ian’s POV

I sniffed. I wiped the remaining tears na nasa pisngi ko.

Some of the students were looking at me as if I’m a weird creature in the middle of the hallway. Thank God there’s only few students left in the hallway na makakakita sa akin na umiiyak na tila batang naliligaw.

But who cares? Even Akie definitely doesn’t cared. The strings that pulled my heart causes tears to fell uncontrollably down my cheeks.

I can’t take this pain.

I love Akie and I really do.

But if there is no trust in our relationship, then, there’s no point for pursuing it. Trust is a primary element of the so called ‘love’. If love could actually conquer all of it, then, wouldn’t be trust stands as the weapon to conquer what’s you and your lover were going through.

I know I couldn’t blame Akie for not believing me since it was his brother. But the words, all the words na sinabi niya is just so humiliating.

I was indeed raped by Kenneth! I wasn’t satisfied by his brother’s dick! It was disgusting! I’ve never dreamed pleasing someone forcefully. But then, Akie did. Akie thought that I was so pleased by sucking the man on the video. And he doesn’t even believed me for telling that it was his brother.

Well, blood is thicker than water tho. Pamilya pa rin naman kaysa sa mahal mo. I just wondering, do I really manifested slut, a hoe, a whore? Am I really like that? Bakit hindi ako nagawang paniwalaan ni Akie. Sa totoo nga lang, okay lang sana na hindi niya ako pinaniwalaan, but spitting harsh and hostile words on my face is such a poison. It was like I was stabbed intentionally by the person I trust the most.

Alam kong may mali ako, na tinago ko ’to at ginawang sikreto. Alam ko na dapat bilang magkarelasyon, walang tinatago, even your past should be transparent. In fact, transparency is the relationship’s beauty. Pero ginawa ko ’yun dahil natatakot ako, natatakot ako na baka anong gawin niya sa kuya niya. What if masira ang relasyon nilang magkapatid? But above all, did he cared to listen to my reasons? That everything happened from the past? That it was not my want! That it was him being jealous!? What’s wrong with him? Lagi ko siyang inuunawa, iniintindi, pinapakinggan, but where’s the return? Ako lang ’tong nagmumukhang kawawa at tanga.

I don’t even know if I should pity myself or should I blame myself for doing so?

Sobra na. Ayoko na. Suko na ako.

Kung ayaw niya akong paniwalaan, then it’s time for me to shut the fuck up. My words will just end into futility. I will just make fun of me; blabbering in some kind of nonsense.

Mahal ko siya pero tama na.

It’s time to uncover the shame of being humiliated. Tanga ako, pero hindi ako bobo. I wasn’t retarded.

Tama nga sila. Pain will make you stronger. And I will use this strength to show that I am not the Ian Salvador na nakilala nila noon.

I was hurt, but I will learn not to do what they did.

It’s time to move on. Besides, matutupad ko na rin ang pangarap ko na makapag-aral sa ibang bansa. Hindi ba?

…..

Akie’ POV

“WHAT’S WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU?” Coach shouted. “IKAW AKIE, I PUT YOU IN THAT POSITION PARA PANGUNAHAN ANG GRUPO. NOT TO DO NOTHING! ANO BANG NANGYAYARI SA ’YO, AH? HINDI KA PA NAGPAPAKITA SA MGA PRACTICE. ANONG TINGIN MO SA SARILI MO, WALANG MAKAKATALO SA ’YO? YOU ARE THE LEADER OF THIS TEAM, SO ACT AS ONE!” Patuloy na panenermon ni Coach.

Tsk. Pakialam ko.

Ako lang ba ’tong player niya? Bakit ako sinisi nitong matandang ’to?! Tangina lang.

“PUTANGINA! NANDITO NA KAYO, SO DO EVERYTHING! KUNG GANITO LANG IPAPAKITA NIYO. EDI SANA HINDI NA LANG TAYO LUMABAN!” Coach continued his sermons. I just rolled my eyes. Boring.

“Psst, Akie” Rinig kong bulong ni Jericho sa akin.

“Oh?” I deadpanned.

“Bakit parang wala ka sa kondisyon?”

“Nothing”

“Nothing? You haven’t scored any single point tapos puro ka pa foul. Is there’s something wrong?”

“Putangina, ano ba? Sinabi ko ng wala ’di ba? Haven’t you heard me? Bingi ka ba o tanga?!” Galit kong sagot sa kaniya.

Jericho held his both hands up on the air, motioning that he got no fight.

“Relax. I was just asking, bro.” He defended.

I tched.

“Pre, kalma. On game pa rin tayo oh! Pag-usapan natin ’yan mamaya sa celebration party. We have to be united as one for this game. Alam kong kaya nating manalo.” Micheal cheered.

Tsk. Fuck it.

Hindi ko pinansin lahat ng sinabi nila. Tumungo na lang ako sa gitna ng court para sa continuation ng second half of the game.

Habang iniikot ko ang paningin ko sa mga taong nanonood, nahagip ng gilid ng aking mga mata si Ian. Finally, nandito na siya, I thought he wasn’t going to watch.

I caught him looking at me, pero agad din niyang inalis ang tingin nang mapagtanto niya na nakita ko siya.

Fuck it. Kailangan niya ba talaga akong iwasan? Tapos ’yung mga sinabi niya kanina. Does he mean it? Nakikipaghiwalay na ba talaga siya?

Oo. Ayaw ko siyang paniwalaan sa sinasabi niyang ginahasa siya ni kuya dahil alam kong hindi ’yun kayang gawin ng kapatid ko. Tsaka, kuya has his girlfriend. Hindi ko rin naman hahayaang sabihan ng ganoon ang kadugo ko.

Pero ayaw kong humantong sa puntong ganito. Putangina. Hindi ko iniwan ang dating ako para lang iwan ng taong naging rason kung bakit ko iniwan ’to! Damn, riddles! Fucking shit.

Argh! Tangina! Nagugulahan na ako.

Kakausapin ko siya!

From the middle of the court, agad akong tumungo sa pwesto na kitatayuan ni Ian at ng kaibigan nitong si Shane. I saw how Ian’s eyes got widened after he saw me nearing our distance. Humarang si Shane para ipagtanggol ang kaibigan nito.

Tsk. As if I will hurt Ian.

“Don’t you dare to come near us!” Sigaw ni Shane. Maraming tao ang napatingin sa direksyon na kinaroroonan namin dahil sa biglaang pagsigaw ni Shane.

“I wanted to talk to Ian. Privately!” I demanded.

“No, you can’t. H’wag mong subukang hawakan siya. I’m telling you, ’pag pina-iyak mo ulit siya, ako na ang makakalaban mo.” She warned. She’s really is Ian’s sister.

I rolled my eyes. Tumingin ako kay Ian pero agad itong umiwas ng tingin. Hinintay ko siyang magsalita na gusto rin niya akong kausapin but he remained silent.

“See? Ayaw ka niyang kausapin. So you better go back to floor.” Shane said with full of sassiness.

I gritted my teeth as I clenched my fist.

Muli akong tumingin kay Ian at nagkatagpo ang aming mga paningin.

Let me talk to you, pansinin mo naman ako. I pushed internally.

We stared for almost a seconds pero gaya ng lagi niyang ginagawa simula pa kanina, nag-iwas muli siya ng tingin.

“Akie! Ano bang ginagawa mo!” Sigaw ni Coach. “Bilisan mo na at maghanda ka na!”

Putangina naman oh!

…..

Ian’s POV

“Grabe! Magaling ka rin naman pala maglaro, Jericho. I thought you’re a dumbass, guess I was wrong. By the way, congrats!” Shane exclaimed. Niyakap pa nito si Jericho. Hmm. Nagtataka na ako sa dalawang ’to ah.

“Uhm. Congrats!” I whispered.

Senior’s team won. Thanks for the help of Akie, Jericho, Micheal and the rest of the team. Nahabol nila ’yung malaking lamang with just a span of two quarters. Sabi nga ni Shane, bigla daw naging masigla si Akie. I don’t want to assume na dahil sa akin kaya siya sumigla. Maybe he just want to slap right onto my face how great and conditioned he is even without my support. Hays.

“Thank you, Ian!” Kumindat ito sa akin. Humarap ’tong muli kay Shane tsaka may binulong. Hmm. Nagdududa na talaga ako sa dalawang ’to.

“And, oh! By the way, may celebration ang basketball team for tonight. It will be held on my place. Punta kayo ah!” Pag-alok nito sa aming dalawa.

“Sure!” Shane replied quickly.

Huh? Wait! Agad-agad?

Hinatak ko ang mangas ng damit ni Shane. Dahil dito napunta sa akin ang atensiyon niya.

Binigyan ko siya ng tingin na nagsasabing “really?”.

Hindi talaga nag-iisip ang isang ’to. Malamang sa malamang nandoon si Akie! Eh ’di ba iniiwasan ko nga siya! Mamaya kung ano pa marinig ko sa lalaking ’yun. Ayaw ko ng umiyak ’no! Tama na ’yung mga luha ko. Tama na ’yung sakit. Manhid na nga ata ako dahil sa mga sakit na nakuha ko eh.

In return to my ‘really, dumbass?’ look, Shane pouted. She answered my looks with her puppy and pleasing look. Nagpapaawa na naman siya!

Argh! Kung hindi lang ako nakokonsensiya sa nangyari sa ’yo last time, hindi talaga kita sasamahan.

Bahala na nga. Iiwasan ko na lang ang isang ’yon. Speaking of that ‘one’ nasaan na kaya ’yon? After the game, agad siyang dumiretso palabas. Baka naman umuwi na at hindi sasama sa party ng basketball team?

Tsk. Why would I care? I should move on! And thinking less of him would help me a lot.

“Akie. Nandiyan ka lang pala. Kanina ka pa hinihintay ng team” Jericho.

I was frozen from my ground. Nakatingin si Jericho sa likod ko, meaning, Akie is just right behind me!

Dahan-dahan akong lumingon paharap sa likod ko. Pagkaharap ko, naamoy ko ang tila vanilla sa sarap na pabango ni Akie. This smell always reminds me the time na naging isa kami— wait. What?! What the hell am I thinking?!

Ian, you should move on!

MOVE ON!

I was greeted by Akie’s chest. I haven’t noticed that he was towering over me. He was so close to the point na dibdib nito ang unang bumungad sa akin. Napaatras ako ng bahagya dahil sa gulat.

Why is he so close?

Napatingin ako sa mukha niya. Fuck! Why do he still look handsome in my naked eyes! Argh! Kahit na sobrang seryoso ng tingin niya, he still look hot! Ah, erase, erase!

He noticed that I was being mesmerized by his beauty kaya napatingin din ito sa akin. Nagtama ang aming mga mata at naalala ko ang mga panahong sa tuwing magkikita kami ay ngingiti at yayakap ito sa akin nang walang anumang permiso galing sa akin.

Napayuko ako. I missed those days. I’m really in love with this guy. He made me realize that there’s another color on the painting of life.

But he leave me no choice but to conceal this love. And if it is the best way for us to be healed, then so be it.

“Come on, guys. Let’s celebrate our winning tonight! Woooooh!” Sigaw ni Jericho na nasundan naman ng sigaw ng iba pang miyembro ng grupo. Naunang maglakad ang lahat maliban sa amin ni Akie. Akala ko sasabay siya kanila Jericho.

“Ian, let’s talk.”

I turned my heels before Akie could even say more than what he said.

Hinabol ko si Shane para sabay kaming maglakad. “Let’s go, Shane.” I pretendingly smiled as I pull her towards the parking area.

…..

“Shane. Let’s go home.” Paghatak ko sa babaeng sige sa pag-inom.

Tsk. Bwiset kasi ’tong Jericho at mga kaibigan niya. Napagtripan na naman nila si Shane. Tsk. Malalasing na naman ’to for sure.

“Ano ka ba, Ian. H’wag ka ngang kj! Minsan lang naman ’to. Mabuti pa hanapin mo na lang si Akie tsaka kayo maglabing-labing. Pang-aasar ni Jericho. Nagtawanan naman ang lahat. Habang pulang-pula naman any pisngi ko dahil sa sinabi nito.

Tsk. Bwiset! Pupunta na nga lang ako ng garden para makapagpalamig.

Tumayo ako pero agad akong napahinto dahil sa taong agad na nakita ng dalawa kong mata.

Krystel Honey “Bitch” Francisco.

Tsk. Bakit ba nandito ’tong isang ’to? Oo nga pala, she’s the captain of the cheerleading team ng seniors. Psh. Pangit naman ng performance nila kanina.

“Oh, hello, Ian. Nandito ka rin pala” Bungad ni Krystel nang magkalapit ang aming distansiya. As if naman na nagulat siya na nandito ako. Galingan mo pa sa pag-arte, pokpok.

Tsaka, feeling close? Akala mo wala siyang ginawang kasalanan sa akin kung kamustahin niya ako ah. Pasalamat siya may prinsipyo ako sa buhay at mahal ko ang nanay ko kaya hindi ko kayang manakit ng babae dahil kung hindi, nalumpo ko na sana siya kahit na sabihing mas malaki pa siya sa akin ng kaunti.

“Isn’t it obvious? I’m here, so basically, my existence is recorded to be here. Pwera na lang kung multo pala ako. Pero h’wag kang mag-alala, hindi naman ako multo eh. Kasi kung nagkataon, baka patay na.” I sweetly smiled as I rolled my eyes afterwards.

Naglakad na ako patungo sa labas ng bahay nila Jericho.

The garden would probably loosen me up. I just hope Shane would be the latter snake for this day.

…..

Akie’s POV

I took another sip from the alcohol I was holding. Buti na lang at sariwa ang hangin dito sa garden nila Jericho dahil kung hindi, baka kanina pa ako natumba. The fresh and chilling air made me feel alive.

Tsk. Gusto kong kausapin si Ian. Pero lagi siyang nakadikit kay Shane. Hindi ko soya malapitan. Tsaka, bakit niya ba ako iniiwasan?!

Putangina naman!

“Ang cute mo naman” A sweet and tender voice squeled.

“Tsk. Alam ko. But handsome suits better” Sagot ko dito.

“Ano namang pangalan mo?” The voice asked.

“I’m Akie, sorry but I’m not––” Pagharap ko sa boses na nanggagaling sa likod ko ay nalaglag ang panga ko.

What the fuck? Aso pala ang kausap ng isang ’yon?

Nakayuko ’yung lalaki at tila kinakausap niya ’yung aso. Nakita ko na kinarga niya ito at agad na naglakad papunta sa pwesto na kinaroroonan ko.

Tsk. How dare him. Nauna ako sa lugar na ’to. And I wanted to be alone. Get the fuck off!

“Hey. What are you doing here? You better back o—” Napahinto ako sa sasabihin ko ganon din sa paglakad ang lalaking may karga ng aso.

“Ian.” I whispered.

Humakbang ako papalapit sa kaniya para sana sabihin ko na hindi ko kaya ’yung ginagawa niyang pag-iwas sa akin pero agad din naman siyang humakbang paatras.

“Ian. Let’s talk. Hindi ko na kaya ’tong ginagawa mong pag-iwas.” I pleaded with so much demand.

“N-No! You should have think of that bago mo ’ko sinaktan.”

“Hindi mo ’ko masisi, Ian. Kapatid ko ’yung dinadamay mo!” I nearly shouted.

Tumahol ’yung aso.

Shut up, bitch.

“But I’m telling you the truth! Why don’t you believe—”

“Because you cheated on me!” I snapped.

“HINDI KITA NILOKO!” Ian shouted. Malayo ang garden nila Jericho sa pool area kaya wala masyadong tao ang napapadpad dito.

“Akie, ano ba? Why can’t you just believe me. Why can’t you just be the same Akie na nakilala ko. ’Yung Akie na minahal ako. Alam mo, if you can’t trust me, then there’s no way for you to chase me. I’m full on taking this relationship still, and I wish you could show me your counterpart.” Pinunasan nito ang kaniyang mga mata gamit ang isang kamay samantalang patuloy niya pa ring hawak ang asong patuloy na tumatahol gamit ang isa pa nitong kamay.

…..

Ian’s POV

Sandali kaming nagkatitigan ni Akie. Inakma niyang lumapit per agad akong umatras. Tumalikod na ako at diretsong bumalik sa loob ng bahay ni Jericho.

I sighed. Is there’s any worse thing that could happen tonight?!

Tumalon ang asong hawak ko at tumakbo papasok sa bahay ni Jericho.

“Wait! Ikaw na nga lang kasama ko oh!” Hinabol ko ’yung aso but I end up sitting on the floor.

“Ow, shit. Sorry!” Inalalayan ako ng isa sa mga player ng basketball team.

I groaned. Natapon sa akin ’yung salad na dala niya.

Great. What a night.

…..

Akie’s POV

Fuck! What should I do? Ayaw na ba talaga ni Ian? Does it mean sumusuko na siya? Pero, tangina! Hindi pwede!

Napahiga ako sa kama sa kwarto ni Jericho. After that scenario with Ian, dito na ako dumiretso para magpahinga. Napadami na rin kasi ako ng na-inom.

Damn! Ang sakit ng ulo ko!

Mabuti pa magpahinga na lang muna ako. I still have two days para pigilan si Ian sa pag-alis niya.

Papipikit na ako nang biglang bumukas ang pinto.

“Sino ’yan?” I asked. Umiikot na kasi ang paningin ko kaya hindi ko na ma-identify kung sino ’yung pumasok.

“Akie, I-I wanted to say sorry.”

That sweet and tender voice.

“Sorry…? Ian? Is that you?”

“Yes. I-I just realized na hindi ko sana sinabi sa ’yo ’yung mga nasabi ko kanina. I was wrong. Tama ka, I shouldn’t cheated on you.” Lumapit siya sa akin hanggang nasa gilid na siya ng kama na kinahihigaan ko. Unti-unti siyang umupo.

Fuck. Bakit parang biglang uminit sa kwarto ni Jericho? Air-conditioned naman ’to ah?

“Patawarin mo ako sa pag-iwas ko sa ’yo. I was just hurt by your words. But I know you meant it no harm.” Ian leant forward to kiss me in the lips.

Fuck. It was still soft. How I craved for his lips. The warmness that his lips emits is incomparable. Nothing could ever compare to it.

Hindi ko naman hinayaan na siya ang magtatrabaho. So I pulled him for him to end up sitting in my waist.

Fuck. He’s hot. He’s fucking hot.

Tumigil siya sa paghalik. “Wala na akong pake kung hindi mo ako paniwalaan sa sinasabi ko tungkol sa kuya mo. I just can’t stop thinking that we would be apart. I don’t want that to happen. Iintindihin na kita, and nothing could ever change my decision.” He said submissively. Fuck, that was hot.

“It’s okay. We can start again. We can forgot what happened. Just pelase don’t leave me. Hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko bang iwan mo ako. I love you, Ian. So, please stay.” Akmang yayakapin ko na siya nang agad niyang hawakan ang dalawa kong kamay gamit ang dalawa nitong kamay. Inilagay niya ito sa itaas ng ulo ko.

“No, Akie. I’m the master for tonight” He seductively said as he grind his ass on my semi-erected crotch.

He leaned forward to kiss me. Marahan niya akong hinalikan hanggang sa naramdaman ko ang dila nito na nagpupumilit pumasok sa bibig ko. So, I gave him the entrance.

Fucking shit. He’s so sweet and tasty! Nakaka-uhaw!

“Ian, pwedeng bukas na lang? Inaantok na talaga ako.” I groggily offered. I yawned.

“Huh? But I want you inside of me tonight. To say sorry at para makabawi ako sa ’yo. Fuck me, Akie. Let’s make out tonight.” Ian said.

Anong nainom ni Ian? Bakit parang naging seducing ang mga salita niya? But whatever, I like it better this way. Well, who wouldn’t be? ’Yung dating mahirap suyuin, paki-usapan, yayain. Eh ngayon, nasa ibabaw ko na at handang ipagamit ang katawan niya.

I missed this scene. I missed being on Ian’s inside. I missed pleasing both of us.

Fuck!

Yumuko si Ian at naramdaman ko na lang na may marahang kumakagat sa leeg ko. I moaned as he licked the spot he just bit. Fuck. Humuhusay si Ian.

“I-Ian… fuck!” I moaned. His lips was fucking good.

Ian continued sucking, biting and licking my neck. I gave him more access by exposing my neck even more. Hindi naman ako binigo ni Ian because he pleased me with his soft lips. Fuck!

“Released me, Ian. Now!” Utos ko sa kaniya dahil hawak pa rin nito ang dalawa kong kamay.

“Why?” He innocently asked. Damn! He’s teasing me!

“I wanted to fuck you! Let me do the work!” I groaned.

“How impatient” He kissed me one more time and we sucked each other’s mouth for almost a minute. Nang maubusan kami ng hangin. He then released my arms.

Hinawakan ko siya sa bewang at tsaka ko pinagpalit ang pwesto namin. Now, I’m the one who’s on the top. Much better.

I smirked. Let me show you how Akie Villaflor say sorry.

Hinubad ko na ang damit ko. Tinapon ko ito sa kung saan.

“Please, Akie, fuck me.”

“Yes, I wi—” Hindi ko natuloy ang sasabihin ko nang biglang bumukas ang pinto.

“Shane, are you––” Padabog na tawag ng lalaking napasinghap sa kinanatayuan nito nang makita ang sitwasyon na kinalalagyan namin ngayon.

“A-Akie…” Tawag sa akin ng lalaki. He started to sob.

Natauhan ako bigla. Fuck!

Damn. No! Please no!

Sandali kong pinikit ang aking mga mata at marahas na inalog ang aking ulo. I groaned because of the pain na naramdaman ko. Pagmulat ko ng aking mga mata, bumungad sa harap ko ang ngiti ng demonyong may lakas ng loob na gawin ito.

Napatingin ako sa pinto. Nakatayo pa rin ang taong inakala kong kasama ko sa loob ng halos ilang minuto.

“I-Ian” My voice cracked as I call his name.

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Ian’s POV

I stepped out of the bathroom. Buti na lang at may dala akong damit na pamalit. Bwiset kasi na lalaki ’yan, ’di tumitingin sa dinadaanan. Hindi ko pa tuloy naabutan ’yung aso, ngayon, wala na akong kasama. Mabuti pa pupuntahan ko na lang si Shane para maka-uwi na rin kami. It’s getting late.

Pumunta muna ako sa kusina nila Jericho to get some water. Tubig kasi ang nagpapagising sa akin. I don’t know but whenever I was full of water, nahihirapan pa akong matulog. Maganda na rin ’to dahil papalalim na nang papalalim ang gabi, mamaya makatulog pa ako dito. Yari ako kay kuya tsaka kay mama. Hindi pa naman ako nagpaalam. Siguradong masisigawan na naman ako non.

Hays. I should probably start finding my idiot friend. Nako, masasaktan ko talaga ang isang ’yon eh!

Nasa taas na ako ng bahay nila Jericho nang may marinig akong nag-uusap, may mahihinang tawa mula dito at tila ba naghaharutan. I also heard minimal groans, grunts and moans.

Fuck! Ano na naman bang ginagawa ni Shane sa buhay niya?! Nako, ’pag nakita ko talaga siyang gumagawa ng kung anu-anong bagay sa bahay ng iba, yari siya sa akin. Shane becomes crazy whenever she’s drunk. H’wag naman sana ngayon.

Habang papalapit ako sa pinto ng kwarto kung saan nanggagaling ang ingay, eh parang kinabahan ako.

What’s this?

“Shane, are you––” Malakas kpng binuksan ang pinto dahil sa inis ko sa kaibigan ko pero agad nawala ang inis para sa matalik kong kaibigan at napalitan ng poot para sa dalawang tao na nasa harap ko ngayon.

Hubad. They were naked. And seems like they were enjoying all of this.

“A-Akie…” The name of the one who’s now on top of Krystel slipped through my lips. Nagsimula akong lumuha.

But I shrugged it off.

Compose your self, Ian. Don’t be terrible in front of them. Don’t cry. Don’t cry. You said, you’re over to it, right? Be strong, man. You can do it.

Pero tila ayaw makisama ng dalawang mata ko. They emits lots of tears the moment my heart recognized what’s in front of me.

Napatingin ako sa lalaking ngayon ay nakatingin din sa akin. He’s confused. He’s shocked.

Ha! What’s with that look? Hindi niya ba inaasahan na makikita ko sila? Putangina.

Napadako naman ang tingin ko sa babaeng kalanturan ng magaling kong boyfriend.

Krystel Honey Francisco.

What’s with that freakin’ ugly smile. Happy that I caught them playing their fucking games? Tsk. Paki-alam ko!

Argh! Ano ba, Ian! Stop crying!

Why’s this bitch? Nung una, sa park, tapos ngayon sa kwarto?

Wow, they even tried to took it somewhere to look decent, huh. As if naman na nagmukhang katangap-tangap mga ginagawa nila.

“I-Ian..” Akie’s voice cracked.

Muli sa kaniyang direksiyon napadako ang paningin ko. He’s stunned. Mukhang hindi nila inaasahan ang pagpasok ko ah.

I still tried to convince my self not to cry out loud. Yet, my sight becomes blurry. But I still managed to turn away from them as my instincts suddenly pushed me to go out of this house as far as I could.

So, I did.

I ran as fast as I could. As possible as I could. As if getting my self off of this house will make my pain fade. But it didn’t. It just getting worse and worse.

Nakarating ako sa labas ng bahay nila Jericho nang biglang may humatak sa kamay ko. Pilit kong nilabanan ang pagpigil na ginagawa ng taong nakahawak sa kamay ko but its strong grip stopped me from doing so.

“Get away from me!” I cried.

“No!” A stern voice stopped me from squirming.

A-Akie?

Why is he stopping me now? Ano? Ipapamukha na naman niya sa akin ’yung ginawa nila?

“A-Ano? Masaya k-ka na ba?” I sobbed.

“Happy from what?” Akie.

“From this! From fucking all of this!” Humarap na ako sa kaniya sa pagkakataon na ito. Nagulat ito dahil sa bigla kong pagsigaw.

I sniffed. “Nakaganti ka na ba? Makakalimutan mo na ba ’yung nagawa ko?” I wiped my tears using my clenched fist.

“What the hell are you––”

“Hindi mo naman kailangan ipamukha sa akin ’yung gagawin mong panggagago kung gusto mong gumanti sa kasalanan na at the first place, hindi ko naman ginusto!” I ranted.

“Akie. You know what, to tell you honestly. I never ever tried to cheat on you. I never even tried to think so. Ano bang nagawa ko para gawin mo sa akin ’to? How many times do I have to say na I didn’t did something to make some conflict to this relationship?! Bakit ba ayaw mong maniwala?” Napayuko ako, naghintay na magsalita siya but he didn’t dare to say any single word.

“Then, this? Really? How funny you are. Gagantihan mo ’yung isang tao sa pamamagitan ng pananakit sa kanila. Isn’t that unfair? Ikaw lang naman nakinabang sa ginawa mo ah. Do you even think of me before doing everything you did?” Ikinuyom ko ang dalawa kong kamao.

“Ha! Of course not, why do I even think that you will?” Bahagya akong tumawa bagamat patuloy sa pagluha ang aking mga mata. “Dahil kung naisip mo na nandito pa ako at baka masaktan mo ako, you’ll never do this, Akie.” Kinuha ko ang kamay ko na hawak pa rin niya hanggang ngayon.

“I thought you’re different, Akie. Akala ko totoo na mamahalin mo ako. But, it was just me, imagining things. Dahil kung mahal mo ako, paniniwalaan mo ako. And on top of that, you’ll never do things na alam mong makakasakit sa akin. Maybe it was just me na hindi sinabi ang tungkol sa bagay na alam kong sisira sa atin. Pero, Akie, all I did was to hope, that someday, once I confessed what your brother did to me, you’ll believe me. But all that I got was pain” Tumingin ako sa mga mata niya at saktong nakatingin lang din siya sa akin.

“Ian, I don’t expect it was Krystel. I thought it was you.” He reasoned.

“Kitang-kita ko, Akie. Hindi mo na kailangan pang magsalita para lang protektahan ’yang bruhang ex mo. Alam mo bagay kayo” A fake smile plastered on my face. I tilted my head.

“Naisip ko lang. You don’t trust me that much and everything turns into a mess of hell. This thing just keep us in pain. It just keeps hurting us…”

“…so let’s stop this. Baka kaya patuloy lang tayo sa ganito, ay dahil hindi talaga ikaw at ako ang para sa salitang tayo. It’s better this way. Kung hindi mo magagawang tanggapin ang mga nakaraan ko, then it’s all for nothing. All of this is nothing but a piece of shit. We should part our own ways, it’s for the best. If we were going to continue, masasaktan lang tayong dalawa. So, let’s end this story. Maybe we’re not meant for each other.”

“Ian, no! Hindi ako papayag na magtapos sa ganito! Tangina, ano? Iiwan mo lang ako? Putangina naman, Ian. Damn, no! I am not going to let you go. I can’t live without you. So, please, Ian. Don’t do this.” My heart ached for a moment after hearing Akie’s begs.

Umiwas ako ng tingin. “No, Akie. Tama na. I loved you. But, let’s just keep that love painted on the wall of memories. Gamitin na lang natin ’to for our next experience in life. Baka next time tama na.” Muli akong tumingin sa kaniya at ngumiti. Ngiting totoo, bagamat puno ng lungkot sa aking puso. I know I should end this with clear and precise goodbye. Tsaka, if I will end this with tears in my eyes, it will be harder for us to go in our separate ways.

“Goodbye, Akie.” I tiptoed to kiss him in lips. I tried my hardest not to cry. Hindi ko na siya hinintay pang sumagot at agad na akong tumalikod at naglakad. Pero naramdaman ko ang biglang paghatak sa akin ni Akie at ang pagtama ng labi niya sa labi ko.

Akie kissed me tenderly. Humawak siya sa bewang ko at napahawak naman ako sa balikat nito. His kisses becomes deep as I melted in his arms. Nalasahan ko ang mga luha naming dalawa habang patuloy pa rin kami sa paghahalikan. He tried to enter my mouth with his probing tongue. I willingly opened my mouth for him to explore it for the one last time. We kissed under the the light of the moon for almost a minute until we parted.

“I love you, Ian. Please don’t leave me.” Akie cried. Every single drop of tears na nakikita kong bumabagsak sa mga mata niya at ganon din ang sakit sa aking puso.

Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya na nakahawak pa rin sa aking bewang. Unti-unti ko itong tinanggal at muling ngumiti sa kaniya.

“Sorry.” That’s when I turned away from the man I loved before. I love you, Akie. But, if we’re about to continue, we will just keep hurting each other.

“I love you, too, Akie.” I whispered. I hope the moon could say those words to Akie.

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Akie’s POV

Damn.

Why is this happening?

My heart were aching so bad.

My tears were flowing rapidly and uncontrollably.

My hands and knees were shaking intensely.

My mind was as mess as it could possibly be.

Everything feels fuck.

Damn, ego! Bakit ko ba nagawa ’yon? Tangina!

Sinuntok ko ’yung pader na nasa tabi ko and my fist emits blood. I could feel the pain, but the pain inside of me was greater and much painful so my wounds was basically nothing but a paper cut.

Now. Ian was gone. Iiwan na niya ako.

Putangina lang. Tangina lang. Nakaka-gago pala ’tong pakiramdam na ’to.

“Ahhhh!” I shouted out of frustration, pain, and anger.

Sinabunutan ko na ’yung sarili ko as I cried louder.

Fuck, fuck, fuck. I’m an idiot. I’m a bastard. Why did I let this to happen?

Damn!

Fucking bitch.

Fuck you, Krystel. I will kill you.

Tumayo na ako. I will kill you, Krystel. Tangina! This is all your fault.

“Fuck!” I grunted. Patuloy pa rin ang pag-agos ng dugo sa kamay ko.

Nakapasok na ako sa gate nila Jericho nang salubungin ako ng mga team mates ko malapit sa pool area.

“Bro, what happened? Why did we hear shouts and cuss?”

“Yeah, bro? There’s anything wrong?”

“You look fucked, Akie”

“Fuck. Bakit dumudugo ’yang kamay mo?”

Suno-sunod na tanong ng mga kaibigan ko. But I barely understand all of their concerns dahil nababalutan ako ng matinding pangangailangan para saktan si Krystel. All I wanted was to make her suffer.

“Pre, ano? Sumagot ka huy!” Humawak sa balikat ko si Micheal but I shrugged it off.

“Don’t you fucking touch me.” I glared. I even growl to warn him.

They all get what I want so they eventually stepped back.

Nakita ng dalawang mata ko si Krystel na papababa pa lang ng hagdan. Nakita pa ito na parang walang nangyari.

What a fucking good actress.

Nagsimula akong maglakad papunta sa direksyon niya. She noticed me coming so she stopped whatever she’s doing and smiled.

Fuck that shitty smile of yours.

A demonic smile.

A manipulative smile.

“Tell me why you did that!” I demanded. It wasn’t even a question. It’s an order for him to answer.

“Huh?” She innocently asked. “Tell you what?” She continued playing innocent.

“Fuck you!” I cursed.

“Akie, we just almost fuck. You want it agai— ack” Hindi na niya natuloy pa ang sasabihin niya dahil agad ko siyang sinakal. Napakapit siya sa kamay ko na mahigpit na nakabalot sa leeg niya.

“Why did you fucking do that? Answer me!” I growl.

“W-What…ack..t-the.. he..hell” Nahihirapan niyang turan.

Naramdaman ko na lang na may humahatak sa akin para humiwalay sa pagsakal kay Krystel.

“Bro! What the fuck? You’re killing her!”

“Akie, stop doing this shit!”

“Akie, what’s wrong with you?! Let her go!”

“Akie, what the fuck is your problem!?”

“SHE IS MY PROBLEM!” I shouted. Sakal ko pa rin si Krystel na pilit pa ring tinatanggal ang kamay ko sa leeg nito.

She’s getting pale. Mauubos na ang hininga niya. But who the fuck cares. I will kill this bitch.

“Tell me why you did that! Fucking son of a bitch!” Mas hinigpitan ko pa ang ginagawa kong pagsakal sa kaniya.

“Bro! Stop this before she dies!”

“Akie, pre, tangina, babae ’yan!”

Nakarinig na rin ako ng mga sigaw ng mga babae na tila natataranta na dahil sa gulo na dinudulot ko.

But I didn’t loosen my grip on Krystel’s neck. Not until I get an answer.

“K-Ken…..neth..” Wika niya habang hirap na hirap na sa paghabol ng hangin.

Agad kong nabitawan ang pagkakasakal ko dito.

My eyes suddenly get widened.

I gasped.

Kenneth?

My brother?

W-Why the fuck will he do this?

Agad na tinulungan ng mga kasamahan ko si Krystel para makatayo.

Inilayo nila ito sa akin para hindi ko na ito masakal kung sakaling gagawin ko man muli.

“What’s with my brother?” I glared at the whimpering woman.

“H-He’s the one….. who’s… behind all of this..” Krytel spoke between her pants. “He wanted me to do this. Inutos niya na gawin ko ’to sa ’yo” Heavy breaths escapes Krystel’s lungs.

I gritted my teeth.

“Fucking liar! You’re lying!” I glared.

“Why the fuck would I lie? I almost get killed tapos sasabihin mong magsisinungaling pa ako?” Krystel retorted.

“Then why the fuck did he planned to do this?” I gritted my teeth.

“Because of Ian”

Fuck.

Fuck, no.

Damn it. So Ian was indeed saying the truth?

Fuck! You’re an idiot, Akie! You’re a fucking idiot! Bakit ’di mo siya pinaniwalaan?

Tangina naman oh.

“Bullshit. Humanda siyang gago siya. Tangina!” I breathed.

“Pre, dalhin niyo na muna si Krystel sa taas para makapagpahinga.” Utos ni Jericho.

“No! She’s not yet done suffering.” I glared. “You’re still part of the fucking plan, so you’re also a fucking reason why this shit was happening. I will not let you go alive” I warned. Para na akong mamatay tao but I definitely do not care, they leave me no choice but to be like this.

Voidness will keep you heartless.

“Bro, ano ba? Bukas niyo na lang ituloy ang kung anumang gulo niyo sa isa’t-isa. Tsaka, pwede ba idaan natin ’to sa maayos na pag-uusap.” Micheal suggested.

“Fucking no, Micheal. I will kill that bitch. So let me go!” I tried to get off of their holds pero biglang nanlabo ang paningin ko. Napadapa ako bago tuluyang mandilim ang paningin ko.

But I heard the last words na sinigaw ni Micheal.

“Fuck! He’s out of blood! Dalhin na natin siya sa hospital.”

“Fuck! hurry up!”

Nakarinig din ako ng mga sigaw at yapak ng mga taong tila natataranta.

Great. I just punched the wall for good. I am really an idiot.

Then everything went black.

……

I kissed Ian tenderly. Humawak ako sa bewang niya at napahawak naman siya sa balikat ko. My kisses becomes deep as I felt Ian eventually melting in my arms.

Nagsimulang uminit ang aking mga mata na naging hudyat para bumuhos nang sunod-sunod ang mga luha ko.

Nalasahan ko ang mga luha naming dalawa habang patuloy pa rin kami sa paghahalikan. I tried to enter his mouth with my probing tongue. He willingly opened his mouth for me to explore it for the one last time. We kissed under the the light of the moon for almost a minute until we parted.

“I love you, Ian. Please don’t leave me.” I cried.

Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko na nakahawak pa rin sa kaniyang bewang. Unti-unti niya itong tinanggal at muling ngumiti sa akin.

Those smiles. I don’t wanna end seeing those cute and genuine smile of him.

“Sorry.”

His last word.

The last thing I’d ever heard from him.

His last fucking word that turned my head into a frenzy.

Nanghina and mga tuhod ko.

Nanlabo ang mga mata ko dahil sa luha na humaharang dito.

Nawalan ako ng lakas para habulin siya.

Unti-unti siyang naglaho na parang alikabok sa dilim.

Naging saksi ang buwan sa aming paghihiwalayan.

No, Ian. Please, don’t do this to me. Please don’t leave me.

As I collapsed into a kneeling position in the middle of the street. Bigla na lang akong nasilaw dahil sa nakasisilaw na putting liwanag na tila bumubulag sa akin. Hanggang sa naramdaman ko na lang na hinahabol ko na pala any aking paghinga.

“He’s awake!”

“God, finally, you’re awake”

“Akie, anak, salamat naman at nagising ka na. Are you okay now? May masakit pa ba sa ’yo? Do you feel sick or in pain?” I recognize the woman who rushed on my side as fast as she could.

“Tita, labas na po muna kami. Sige, bro, palakas ka!” Micheal and Jericho excused themselves para bigyan kami ng space ni mama.

“Mom, you’re over reacting. I’m fine.” I rolled my eyes.

“Over reacting? Really, Akie? What’s happening to you? Huh?” Mom exclaimed.

“Tsk” I retorted.

“H’wag mo akong maganiyan-ganiyan, Akie! Ano ba kasing nangyari sa ’yo at may sugat ka sa kamao mo?! Buti na lang at naisugod ka agad ng mga kaibigan mo. Where did you get that bruise, huh? Nakipag-away ka na naman ba? Akie Villaflor, answer me!”

“I said I’m fine. Haven’t you heard me?”

Nakatanggap ako ng sampal mula kay Mommy.

“Watch your mouth, Akie.” Mom warned.

Tsk. Whatever. This all was just nonsense.

“Sige, magpahinga ka na lang at para mabalik mo ’yung lakas na nawala sa ’yo.”

“For how long I’ve been here?” I asked.

“You were here since yesterday.” Mom.

“Fuck!”

“Language, Akie!” Mom snapped. She even glared at me.

Damn. If I were here since yesterday, meaning, there’s only one day left before Ian’s flight. Kailangan ko siyang pigilan. Kailangan kong masabi na naniniwala na ako. I need to say sorry to him.

I tried to stand pero agad akong pinigilan ni mommy to move any longer.

“Akie, your body is still weak. Don’t push yourself into limits.” Mom sighed.

“No, mom. Kaya ko. I should go to Ian. I should stop him. Mom, I don’t want to lose him.” I felt the streaming tears na kusang bumuhos sa pisngi ko.

Mom smiled. She held my cheeks and wipe away my tears.

“Yes, I knew it! At the very beginning, I knew that you two would be couples! Oh my god! But still, you should’ve tell me what’s between you and Ian. I should have taken pictures of you two. Should I buy you two a cute couple shirts––”

“Mom!” I bashfully exclaimed.

Hindi ko alam kung kinikilig ba siya dahil sa mga iniisip niya o dahil inaasar lang ako ng sarili kong nanay.

“Sorry!” She smiled.

“I gotta go, mom. I don’t know if I could live without Ian. I really love him. And losing him is my least priority.” I cried. Yinakap ako ni mommy.

“I don’t know what really happened between the two of you. I know and I could feel that you love him. And fighting for that love is the greatest thing that could be possibly done. You’re right that we should always choose to fight for our love. But if you really love him, you will do things that will make him happy. You will do things that is best not only for you, but for him, too. Ipaglaban mo siya, pero, Akie, minsan, kung kailangan niyong maging dalawa para sa ikakabuti ng bawat isa, maybe letting him go is the best option. I know it would be painful, but getting loose of the grip will make your breathing stable. Akie, Ian is a smart boy, kung ano man ang sinabi niya, he definitely thought of it. He’s thinking for what’s the best for you two.” Mom caressed my cheeks. She smiled. Her smile is one of the things that calms me.

“I love you, anak. Ayaw kong makita na nasasaktan ka.” Mom whispered.

“But, losing Ian is the worst thing that could happen.” I answered.

“But losing your self is the latter thing I would want to see and happen. Maybe Ian would agree with me.” She chuckled. “Always choose what’s best for Ian. Love will always be a matter of consideration, Akie.” She smiled again.

“Magpahinga ka na muna, I will go buy you foods. After that, we’ll go home. Okay?” Mom.

I nodded in response.

Maybe mom’s right. I should consider the best for Ian. I love him, but I only get him hurt.

I laughed. Muling bumuhos ang luha sa aking mga mata.

Great. I may look crazy right now.

“….. Akie, minsan, kung kailangan niyong maging dalawa para sa ikakabuti ng bawat isa, maybe letting him go is the best option…”

Mom doesn’t even know what happened. But her words was exactly as what Ian was intending to say.

I love you, Ian.

I will always love you.

But if setting us apart is what you want, then I will do my part.

I will let you go, Ian.

It’s hard for me to do so. But making you smile is the best thing that I could offer. Maybe you would be happy without me. Away from all the pain and cries that I caused.

I hope you could forgive me.

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Ian’s POV

“Are you packed?” Kevin asked through the phone call.

I nodded until I realized na nag-uusap nga pala kami sa phone so hindi niya ako makikita.

“Yes. I’m on my way to the airport. See you there.” I end the call just after Kevin okayed.

“Ian, mag-iingat ka don ah! Always remember what I’ve said. Do not skip meals, especially your breakfast. Tsaka, always keep your blanket on whenever you’re sleeping, malamig doon. Tsaka don’t forget to bring you––”

“Mom!” I cut her off. “You’re overacting again. I ain’t baby anymore! I know what should I do.” I complained.

Mom stopped from being hysterical once she noticed that she’s being the ‘mom’ that she used to be.

“Okay. But one more thing.” She added.

“Okay. What it is?” I asked.

“Call me regularly.” She requested.

“Of course, I will.” I chuckled. Makakalimutan ko ba ’yon? Edi na home-sick ako.

“Oh sige na, baka ma-late ka pa sa flight mo.” She hugged me tightly. “I’ll miss you. Galingan mo don sa Canada ah. Hanapan mo na rin ako ng gwapong manugang!” Mom laughed. I just rolled my eyes.

Alam na ni mama at night kuya ang nangyari sa amin ni Akie. Kin’wento ko lahat pwera lang sa part na ginamit ako ni Kenneth. Natatakot pa rin ako hanggang ngayon ’pag pinag-uusapan ’yung bagay na ’yun. Natatakot pa rin ako sa kung anong pwede niyang gawin.

Matapos malaman ni mom na hiwalay na kaming dalawa, nalungkot siya. Samantalang si kuya naman ay tila handa nang lumusob sa bahay nila Akie para awayin ’to. 

Pero sinabi nila na susuportahan nila ako sa kung ano sa tingin ko ang tama. Mom never judged Akie nor me. Sinabi niya rin na siguro mas’yado pa kaming bata at kailangan namin ng growth apart form each other.

Maybe she’s right. That’s why I am now here, ready to flight abroad and to start over again. To study there and to build my broken dream into a majestic one.

I’m kinda excited but I was also hurt knowing na walang ginawa si Akie para pigilan ako. Baka ito na rin ang gusto niya. So, why would I even push myself for him? Maybe it’s the time to let my feelings go. To let him go.

Nakarinig kami ng busina sa labas ng bahay signalling that my service was already there.

“Bye Mom, until we see each other again! Take care of Mom, kuya. Bye!” I waved my hand to motion my goodbye. But she ran into me again and hugged me tight. I felt hot droplets of water on the crook of my neck. Mom’s crying.

“I’m so proud of you, Ian. I’ll miss you. I love you.” She whispered.

“I know, Mom. I love you, too. Sige na at baka magka-iyakan pa tayo dito.” I brushed it off with a joke. But deep inside, I wanna stay here. Ayaw kong iwan si Mom. She’s always been my shelter. So how am I supposed to live if she’s far from me?

Argh! Ano ba, Ian? Tumigil ka nga sa mga iniisip mo! Kaya mo ’to! For your dreams.

Mom kissed me on my forehead for the one last. Niyakap ko naman si kuya as he ruffled my hair.

“Kuya! Matapos kong ayusin, guguluhin mo lang!” I glared at him.

He just chuckled. Jerk.

Nakapasok na ako sa van ng school as I looked on the window of the car. I smiled to Mom before closing the car’s door.

I sighed. I’m sure I’ll miss them.

…..

Akie’s POV

I scrolled on my IG’s feed at nakita ko ang post ni Kevin. A picture of him and Ian. They’re on airport.

So, tumuloy pala talaga siya. Mapait akong napangiti.

I heard the main door open, I’m on our house since yesterday night. Sinabi ko kay Mommy na ayaw ko nang tumagal pa sa ospital dahil nasusuka lang ako sa amoy.

Hindi na ako nagsayang pa nang oras para tignan kung sino ’yung pumasok baka si aling Imelda lang.

Tanginang araw ’to. Wala man lang akong magawa. Mga ganitong araw kasi nagpupunta ako kanila Ian para yayain siyang kumain sa labas.

Putangina. Every fucking time reminds me of him. How am I supposed to move on if my mind craves for his presence?

Tsk. Pwede ba, Akie, tumigil ka na. Tapos na kayo. Siya na mismo ’yung tumapos sa kung anong meron sa inyo.

Napasabunot ako sa buhok ko. Bakit kasi ’di ko siya pinakinggan. Bakit ’di ko siya pinaniwalaan? Tanginang pride ’to! Putangina!

“Oh, Akie, nandito ka na pala. Balita ko na-ospital ka daw?” Nagpintig ang tenga ko matapos kong marinig ang boses na ’yun.

I breathed out a deep exhale. Pinikit ko ’yung mata ko to keep myself calm. Pigilan mo ’yung sarili mo, Akie.

“Oh, bro, bakit parang tahimik ka? May problema ba?” Tanong ng putanginang lalaking nasa likod ko.

“Nothing. I’m just lazy to spend my saliva on answering your questions.” I clenched my fist. Stop being so fussy, Akie, hindi mo pa sigurado kung totoo ’yung sinabi ni Krystel.

“Huh? You seem fussed. What’s the matter?” He asked.

“Wala nga sabi.” I brushed it off.

“Okay.” He stopped asking questions. Naupo siya sa sofa na nasa harap ko.

“Bro, nga pala, nabalitaan ko rin ’yung nangyari sa inyo ni Ian. What really happened? I thought he love you more than his self. He shouldn’t have cheated on you. Tsk. Sino ba naman kasi ’yung gagawa ng bagay na ’yun kung alam niyang meron na siyang boyfriend? What a slut.” Kenneth commented.

Gagawa ng ‘bagay’ na ’yun? What does it mean?

Napamuglat ako ng mata. Tumitig ako sa kaniya nang seryoso. I tried to compose myself to keep my fist on my side.

“Paano mo nalaman ’yung tungkol sa break-up namin?” I asked with full of threat.

Nabigla si kuya sa tinanong ko sa kaniya. “Ano ba naman ’yan bro, of course kay Mommy. She told me what happened.” Napatawa pa siya nang bahagya.

“Then how did you found out that Ian cheated? How did you found out the reason why I get agitated to him? You know a lot about the video, didn’t you?” Napatayo ako.

“What the fuck are you saying? What’s with the video?” He tried to make some blatant lies, but it was fatal.

“Putangina. Sagutin mo ’ko!” I demanded. Wala na akong pakialam pa kung kuya ko man ’yung minumura ko.

“Pathetic. You’re such an idiot, bro. I thought you would believe Ian for his explanation but it turned out that you ain’t trust him that much. Pity on you.” Kuya shrugged.

“So you’re the one who’s on the video? Tell me, why did you fucking do that?” I get agitated even more.

“Ian is a good fuck. So why wouldn’t I spend no time tasting heaven if angel is just in front  of m—”

I didn’t dare to finish what he wanted to say. I lunged towards him as I throw punches on his face. He was caught off guard dahil sa biglaan kong pag-atake. He tried to fight back pero hindi siya nakakilos nang paulanan ko siya ng suntok.

“Naniwala na dapat ako kay Ian noong una pa lang. Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you!” I punch him contagiously with every single curse I throw.

He groaned and pushed me hard. My back hit the table as he tried to make his revenge. He punched me back hanggang sa matagpuan ko na lang ’yung sarili ko na patuloy niyang sinusuntok. Pina-ibabawan niya ako at hindi tumigil hanggang sa tingin niya at hindi pa ako nabubugbog.

I tried to block his attack but kuya is way stronger than me. But I made the impact of his punch less harder.

“Damn you, Akie! What’s your fucking problem?!” He asked as he punched me once more.

“You’re the fucking problem! I’ll kill you.” I barked as I tried to get his body off of me.

“Akie! Kenneth! Stop this right now!”  Mom’s voice rang through the whole sala.

Hindi ako tumigil sa pagkawala sa bigat niya at hindi rin naman siya tumigil sa pagsuntok sa akin.

“I SAID STOP!” Mom’s voice stopped my fist and body from squirming too hard. Kuya did the same, too.

“Kenneth, bitawan mo ’yung kapatid mo!” Utos ni mommy. Bumitaw naman si kuya at tumayo malapit sa may bintana, nakita ko siyang pinagpag ang kaniyang damit at pinunasan ang nagdudugo nitong labi gamit ’yung palad nito.

Tumayo rin ako at nagpunas din ng labi matapos kong malasahan ang mismo kong dugo.

Fucking disgusting.

“Ano bang problema niyong dalawa, huh? Bakit kayo nagsusuntukan?” Mom exclaimed.

“Ask your smart son.” Kuya gritted his teeth.

“Akie, ano na naman ba ’to?” Tumingin sa akin si Mommy na para bang na-dissapoint siya sa ginawa ko.

I don’t care. That bastard fucking deserve those pain.

“He’s the reason why Ian and I broke up. You’re a manipulative dick. I fucking regret that you’re my brother. I cursed you to the pit of hell.” I snorted.

“Language!” Mom snapped.

Kuya just smirked.

Ha! How I love brushing off that dirty smirk off of his face.

Naglakad na ako papunta sa hagdan paakyat sa kwarto ko. Narinig ko pa ’yung boses ni mommy na pinapabalik ako.

Tsk. What for? Para sermunan ako? Tsaka I just want to spend the rest of day isolated rather than seeing that bastard’s face.

…..

Ian’s POV

Minamasdan kita, nang hindi mo alam Pinapangarap kong ikaw ay akin.

Mapupulang labi, at matingkad mong ngiti. Umaabot hanggang sa langit.

Huwag ka lang titingin sa’kin at baka matunaw ang puso kong sabik.

Sa iyong ngiti, ako’y nahuhumaling. At sa tuwing ikaw ay gagalaw ang mundo ko’y tumitigil.

Para lang sa’yo, ang awit ng aking puso. Sana ay mapansin mo rin, ang lihim kong pagtingin.

Napapikit ako. That’s the song Akie played when he started to court me.

I shook my head. Stop thinking of him! Stop making this hard for you, Ian. Don’t be dumb.

“Ian!” Nagulat ako nang tawagin ni Kevin ’yung pangalan ko. Inalis ko ’yung tingin sa bintana ng eroplano at humarap sa kaniya.

“Yes?”

“You seem unhappy. Buti at tinanggap mo ’yung alok ng school para maging exchange student. I thought you would reject the offer. Ano namang sabi ni Akie sa desisyon mo? Buti na lang at naging supportive siya sa ’yo.”

Napangiti ako. Ang hirap naman itago ng nangyari sa amin ni Akie. Everyone still think that we’re still on a relationship.

“Why would I decline this once in a lifetime privilege? Tsaka, everything is okay for Akie. He, actually… don’t mind.” I smiled. Muli akong tumingin sa bintana ng eroplano at muling pinagmasdan ang  pagdaan ng makakapal na ulap.

Yeah. Akie probably don’t mind if we’re apart. He… probably don’t mind it at all. Besides, maybe this is also what the fate wants.

If it ain’t good not saying goodbye, then I would want to bid my greatest farewell.

Muli akong napatingin sa ibaba ng bintana ng eroplano. Natanaw ko ’yung mga maliliit na ilaw mula sa mga bahay sa ibaba namin. 

Paalam.

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Ian’s POV

“Sabi sa ’yo mag-e-enjoy ka sa bakasyon na ’to eh.” Saad ni Kevin. Umakbay ito sa balikat ko. Nag-alangan ako kung tatanggalin ko ba o hindi. But I let it go, alam naman niyang kaibigan lang talaga ang turing ko sa kaniya.

“Yeah. The calmness of the ocean will bring satisfaction and rest to your soul.” I said.

“Tsk. Ian naman, tama na nga ’yang idiyomatikong pagpapahayag mo. Be more casual and intimate.” He said.

Ngumiti lang ako ng tipid. It’s just my nature. Tsaka, ocean really calms my mind as well as my soul.

Napatingin ako sa relo ko. It’s 11:30 in the morning. Malapit ng mag-lunch. I should get our order na siguro.

Humiwalay ako sa pagkaka-akbay ni Kevin sa balikat ko. Tumingin it sa akin.

“I’ll go get our orders. Anong gusto mo? Ipapadala ko na lang sa quarters.” I offered.

“Huh? Pwede ka namang tumawag ah? Mabuti pa ako na lang ang tatawag.” Kevin.

“No! I’ll go get our foods. Remember last night they misunderstood our orders. Tsaka gusto ko rin malibot ’tong cruise ship na ’to. We’ll be here for ten days kaya dapat makabisado ko rin ’to kahit paano.” I reasoned.

“Okay. I’ll go with you. Baka maligaw ka—”

“No, Kevin. I’m okay. I can handle myself. Just please tell me your orders.” Tipid akong ngumiti.

He nodded. Hindi na siya nagpumilit pa kahit na si Kevin ’yung uri ng tao na magpupumilit kasi ayaw ka niyang mapano. He’s just too caring. I’m so dumb rejecting his love.

Sinabi na niya ’yung order niya. Ako na lang muna ang magbabayad since siya ang nagbayad last time.

Nandito nga pala kami sa Serene 771, isang private cruise ship. Wala akong masiyadong alam pagdating sa usapan ng mga sasakyang pandagat pero ayon kay Kevin dito isinasakay lahat ng mga mayayaman at kilalang pamilya.

You might be wondering kung bakit nandito ako— kami. Well, Kevin and I is on our Internship. We’re not gonna work in this cruise ship but this gonna bring us from where we are supposed to be. Ayon sa admin ng school, bibigyan nila kami ng sampung araw para makapagpahinga at makapag-enjoy bago kami sumabak sa Internship.

We’re doctor on progress. It’s been seven long years noong pumunta kami sa Canada para doon mag-aral. I’m a future Pediatrician– well, sana makayanan ko pa. While on the other hand, Kevin is on his way to become an Opthalmologist.

Kevin have become my buddy. My bestfriend. We’re inseparable. But one day, he confessed that he likes me. I got so confused on why did he say so but it’s just so fast. Tanda ko pa ’yung nangyari sa amin way back noong nasa Pilipinas pa lang kami. Akala ko wala na siyang nararamdaman sa akin pero tinago niya lang pala ’yung nararamdaman niya dahil sa naging kami ni Akie. But the moment he found out that I and Akie are not in a relationship anymore, he took his chance to confess his feelings. But I am not just ready.

Or am I really not?

Ewan ko. Pero feeling ko noong nanghiwalay kami ni Akie natutunan ko kung paanong mahalin muna ang sarili ko. I learned the essence of self love. The essential of loving your very own soul. Mas binigyan ko ng pansin ang pag-aaral at mga bagay na personal para sa akin. Aaminin ko na tinangka kong papasukin si Kevin sa sarado kong puso. But it’s just that, Kevin doesn’t deserve my love. If I’ll let that happen, we’re just going to end up hurting each other. That’s the least thing I would want to happen. He’s been my companion all through these years. Sa tuwing umiiyak ako tuwing gabi, nandiyan siya para patahanin ako. Sa tuwing nararamdaman ko na para bang nag-iisa lang ako, nandiyan siya para ipakita na may kaibigan ako, na may masasandalan ako. Sa tuwing nalulungkot ako, handa siya lagi para patawin at pasayahin ako. Kevin has been so good to me. I’m glad nakasama ko siya along my study in Canada.

Kaya sobra rin ’yung pagkahiya ko ’nung tinanggihan ko ’yung alok niya para maging boyfriend ko. I know I’m such a fool. Matalino, mabait, gwapo, masipag at may destinasyon ang buhay ni Kevin kaya wala ka nang hahanapin pa. Plus, the fact na alukin ka ng isang perpektong lalaki eventhough you’re gay is such a rare thing for every person like me.

Siguro nga hindi pa ako nakakapag-move on kay Akie. It’s been seven years but the pain of memories seems like it happened just yesterday. Iniisip ko pa rin araw at gabi ’yung mga panahong nasaktan ako dahil minahal ko siya.

I am such a coward. Hindi ako makawala sa sakit na patuloy na bumabagabag sa akin dahil natatakot ako. Pero saan? Saan ako natatakot? Saan ako takot? Bakit ba kasi ang hirap kalimutan ng taong minahal mo pero sinaktan ka lang naman. Meron naman akong rason para kalimutan siya. But why does it have to be hard to let go of the pain in the past?

Life is such a manipulative bitch.

Can you expect the ironic cycle of life? The happiness will eventually turn into sorrow. Joy into pain. Love into a nightmare.

Here I go again. Napupuno na naman ako ng mga idyomatikong salita. Bakit para yatang naging seryoso ako sa buhay?

Well, time will surely help you to become matured enough for the future.

Hindi ko namalayan na nadito na pala ako sa harap ng isang kainan sa loob ng Serene 771. Sobrang sopistikado ng lahat ng bagay na nakikita ko. From its design, foods, service and all. Sobrang nakakamangha pala sa mga lugar na gaya nito.

I heard sniffles on the corner of the shop. May nakita akong bata na nakatayo doon. The kid aged about nine years old. Nilapitan ko ’yung bata dahil para siyang naliligaw.

“Hello. What’s wrong?” I softly asked.

Bahagya itong nagulat sa paglapit ko. Kita ko ang takot sa mata nito kaya naman agad ko siyang pinatahan.

“D-Don’t worry, I won’t hurt you. I was actually concern on why are you crying.” Ngumiti ako sa kaniya. Nawala naman agad ’yung takot sa mga mata nito.

“I-I’m l-lo-lost…” He stuttered. He’s having hard time to speak ’coz he’s losing some of his breath.

He has an asthma. Plus, the fact that he is having panic attack adds more problem to his current state.

Lumuluha pa rin siya at patuloy na nahihirapang huminga.

Hindi naman ako nataranta. This kind of cases was easy for me. Dumaan na kasi ako sa mga ganitong bagay, tsaka isa pa, I’m a doctor for kids.

Una, hinayaan ko muna siyang magkaroon ng sapat na espasyo para makakuha ng sapat na hangin. I also wiped his hair away from his forehead at pinunasan ang pawis nito.

Matapos nito niyakap ko ’yung bata at marahang hinagod ang likod nito. I also whispered reassuring words that could lessen his tension.

“Stop crying, I’ll help you find your parents.” I softly said.

Nahimasmasan naman ’yung bata kahit pa’no. Tumigil na siya sa pag-iyak at tila nawala na ’yung tensiyon sa katawan niya.

“What’s your name?” I smiled.

“I-I’m Alexis Herera.” He wiped the last tear na nasa pisngi niya.

“Hi, I’m Ian Salvador, you can call me kuya Ian. Nice to meet you!” I enthusiastically said. I’m doing this to get Alexis’ trust. Kids were basically be into you if you’re like them, so you just have to be kid, too.

“Kuya I-Ian?” Inosenteng tanong ng bata.

Tumango ako at ngumiti.

“Why are you alone here? Where’s your parent?” Tanong ko.

“Dad is on his meeting. Me and kuya Akie were playing hide and sick but then I lost.” Malungkot niyang saad.

Wait… what? Akie? Couldn’t be… tsk. Ano ba, Ian. Wala naman kapatid si Akie na mas bata sa kaniya. Tsaka…

“How old are you, Alexis?” Paninigurado ko.

“I’m nine years old.” Turan ng bata.

I sighed. Pitong taon pa lang naman akong wala sa Pinas at wala naman’g nabanggit si Akie sa kung may nakababatang kapatid nga s’ya.

Teka, bakit ba parang natatakot ako na malaman na kapatid ni Akie itong si Alexis? Am I still scared to meet him? Hindi pa talaga ako nakaka-move on sa kaniya.

Bakit ba ang hirap?! Nakaka-inis!

“Kuya Ian? Kuya Ian!” I was snapped by Alexis’s call.

“Uh, y-yes?”

“Let’s find dad na po.” He said.

“Okay, can you tell me the name of your dad?”

“He’s Captain Luis Herera.”

“Captain?” I asked. Kumunot ang noo ko.

Tumango ang bata. “Yes. Captain of the Philippine Navy.”

Oh, a Marine Navy.

…..

A/N: Another update. May mga bagong character na makikilala. Bagong plot at story line. This story is still on-going. Please keep on supporting Marino.

Thank you for the votes.

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Akie’s POV

“Kuya Akie! Kuya Akie!” Sigaw ni Alexis. Anak ni Capt. Herera. Hinatak nito ang kamay kong nakailalim sa ulunan ko. Nakahiga kasi ako sa sofa dito sa isang VIP room ng isang sikat na cruise ship, ang Serene 771.

Patuloy akong hinatak ni Alexis at ’di tumigil hanggat hindi ako tumatayo. Tsk. Makulit talaga ’tong batang ’to. Kitang nagpapahinga ako eh.

“Oh? Ano na namang gusto mo?” Iritable kong tanong. Nakapikit pa rin ako.

Kung hindi lang ’to anak ni Capt. baka nabulyawan ko na ’to. Hindi pa naman ako mahilig sa bata. Bakit ba kasi kailangan’g sa akin ibigay ’yung misyon na bantayan ’tong isang ’to. Mukha ba akong babysitter? Tsaka, hindi ba’t bakasyon namin ngayon? Kaya nga kami nandito para magpahinga. Tapos ibibigay sa akin ’tong bata’ng ’to para alagaan?

“Let’s play! Let’s play!” Sumulyap ako nang bahagya sa kaniya. Tumalon talon si Alexis para iparating na excited siya sa bagay na gustong-gusto niya. Ang maglaro.

“No, Alex. Let’s just wait ’til your dad finish his meeting. Malapit na ’yon.” Walang emosyon kong sagot.

Bumusangot naman ’yung bata. Narinig ko pa siyang bumulong. Muli akong pumikit.

“Sige na po kasi, kuya Akie. Sabi po ni dad we could play while he’s in his meeting pa po. Please. Please. Please.” Pakiki-usap ng bata.

I rolled my eyes. “Pwede ba, Alexis, tigilan mo ’ko sa kakulitan mo ah. Isusumbong kita kay Captain.” Pagbabanta ko sa kaniya.

“Kaya ka po walang girlfriend eh. Ang sungit sungit mo po.” Alex retorted. It was just a whisper pero rinig ko pa rin.

Napamuglat ako ng mata. Matiim akong tumitig sa bata. Napaatras ito at tila natakot.

“What did you just say?” I blatantly asked.

“It’s nothing.” Maang-maangang sagot ng bata. Tsk. Kita mo nga naman, kaya ayaw ko sa mga bata eh. Hindi mo sila pwedeng saktan dahil ikaw ’yung mapapasama, pero pwede silang magsalita ng mga bagay na hindi mo naman magugustuhan– and that’s fine. Fucking bullshit. Pasalamat talaga siya dahil anak siya ni Capt. Kung hindi ko lang kailangan ’tong mission na ’to para maging promoted.

Napailing na lang ako.

“Kuya Akie, let’s play na po kasi. Please!” Muling nagmakaawa si Alexis.

Puta. Hindi ba siya nagsasawang mangulit?

Pero, wait.

I smirked. May naisip akong ideya.

“Okay, fine. We’ll play.” Sumuko na ako.

“Yes! We’re gonna play! Finally!” He jumped and screamed.

Napangisi ako.

“Okay. So, what are we gonna play?” He grinned.

“We’re playing hide ’n sick.” I secretly scoffed.

Nagliwanag naman ang mata ng bata. He’s actually hoping for it to be fun.

Well, this would be fun.

….

“Lieutenant Villaflor, didn’t I remind you to be more responsible for taking care of my son.” Bulyaw ni Capt. Luis Herera.

“Sorry, Captain.” Napayuko ako.

Puta. Akala ko naman kasi babalik din pagkalipas ng ilang oras si Alexis. Kaya natulog na muna ako. Tapos tangina, nawala na pala.

“The reason why I appointed you to this kind of mission is for you to become responsible enough for simple things. Remember you are now a Lieutenant, be more responsible, kid. You’ll handle bigger things than you used to handle before.” Panenermon ni Capt. Luis.

“Sorry again, Sir.” Tumindig ako at sumaludo.

Napabuntong hininga na lang si Capt. Luis.

“Alam kong bakasyon natin ngayon. At dapat na nagpapahinga tayo. But I still need to consider this as your training. Nauunawaan mo naman siguro kung bakit?” Captain Luis.

Tsk. Ano pa nga ba, paulit-ulit na lang.

“… To become more responsible.” Walang gana kong saad.

“No.” Mariing sagot ni Capt. Luis. He sighed. “Above all, I wanted you to have care and compassion.” Dugtong nito. Napakunot naman ako ng noo.

“I’ve never seen you smile, laugh and talk genuinely since you’ve been part of this team. You’re a great soldier, a bold and strong Marine navy. But even soldiers must be vulnerable sometimes. Fragility is not a sign of weakness. Pinili ko na ibigay sa ’yo ang trabahong alagaan si Alexis hindi lang dahil para maging responsible ka, kun’di para magkaroon ka ng pakialam sa mga taong nasa paligid mo.” Capt. Luis explained.

“Hindi ko alam. Pero hindi pagiging matapang ang pagpapanggap na matapang. You should be more of you. The real you. That’s what a real soldier is.” Dugtong pa ni Capt. Luis.

“Umaasa ako na sa misyon mong ’to, mas maging bukas ka sa mga taong nakapaligid sa ’yo. Para na kitang anak, Akie, kaya pwede mo akong kausapin na para bang mag-ama tayo.” Kumapit si Capt. Luis sa balikat ko at tinapik ito.

I gritted my teeth. Ano na naman ba ’to? Mukha ba akong kawawa at kailangan pa ’tong pag-usapan? Tsk.

“Magpahinga ka na. Ako na ang maghahanap kay Alex, siguradong nandiyan lang ’yon sa paligid.” Tumango si Capt. Luis na tila ba inuutusan na akong pumunta sa kwarto ko. Tumango naman ako bilang tugon.

Lumabas na ako sa VIP room nila Capt. at dumiretso na sa kwarto ko. Inilagay ko ’yung dalawa kong kamay sa magkabila kong bulsa habang binabaybay ang daan patungo sa kwarto ko.

Pagkapasok ko sa kwarto ko agad na bumagsak ang balikat ko. Hinubad ko na muna ’yung suot kong tee-shirt dahil mas nasanay akong hubad kapag nasa kwarto ako.

Putangina, nakakabagot. Nahiga na lang muna ako sa kamang kasya ang dalawang tao. Pero ako lang mag-isa ang tumutuloy dito. I insisted to be alone. Eh sa ayaw ko eh, may magagawa ba sila? Noong una pinilit pa ni Capt. Luis na isama sa akin si Henry pero tumanggi ako. Kahit naman sabihing naging kaibigan ko ’yon, ayaw ko pa rin na may kasama.

Ewan, basta putangina, gusto kong mapag-isa.

Nakarinig ako ng katok mula sa labas ng tinutuluyan kong kwarto. Bumangon ako at agad na pinagbuksan ang taong kumakatok.

“Pre.” Si Henry lang pala. Isa sa mga kaibigan ko sa grupo. Matagal na rin kaming nagkasama dahil sa trabaho namin.

Lieutenant na rin siya. Halos magkasabay kaming pumasok sa team ni Capt. Luis. Naging kaklase ko rin siya noong sabay kaming pumasok sa training. Ewan ko nga kung paano nito natitiis na makasama ako. I never ever consider him as my bestfriend but he always insist that we’re buddy, wala naman na akong magawa kaya hinayaan ko na lang. I’m somehow grateful that he still consider me as one. The rest of my colleagues stay away from me tho. Tingin kasi nila away lang ang alam kong gawin.

I am now a Marine navy. Since noong umalis si Ian, napagdesisyunan kong pumasok na lang sa pagiging hukbong pandagat. Noong una, sa Military ko nais pumasok pero dahil sa lagi akong napapasabak sa gulo at away, nagdesisyon ’yung taong humahawak sa amin na ilipit ako sa Navy.

Okay na rin siguro para malipat ko ’yung atensiyon ko sa training at paglilingkod sa bayan. Mas pinili ko na lang ang maging marine navy dahil bukod sa pagbibigay serbisyo, siguro para mas mapalayo ako sa mga tao.

Tanging dagat lang ang makakasama mo. Walang gulo, tanging banayad at kalmadong dagat lang ang araw-araw na bubungad sa ’yo.

Ewan ko, pero nawalan ako ng gana simula noong umalis si Ian. Alam kong napakabobo ko dahil sa hinayaan kong sa tao umikot ’yung mundo ko, pero nahirapan talaga ako na kalimutan siya noong una. But now, I could say I’m over to the pain of our break-up.

Hindi malilimutan ’yung pait, pero ang magpakamanhid ang nakita kong solusyon para hindi ako lamunin ng sakit.

Ngayon, masasabi kong waves of seas are now my comfort. Malaki rin ’yung naging tulong ng pagkalayo ko sa Pilipinas dahil mabilis kong nailipat ’yung atensiyon ko sa trabaho.

Puta. Ganito ba ’pag tumatanda? Masyadong nagiging rasiyonal.

“Pre, ano? Ang haba na ng sinabi ko pero parang wala kang naintindihan ah?” Henry snaaped my train of thoughts.

“Ano na naman ba kasing problem mo?” Iritable kong tanong ko.

“Oh, relax. Ang init na naman ng ulo mo.” Napakamot siya sa batok.

Tsk. Lakas kasi mang-istorbo.

“Sama ka? Punta tayo sa isang bar dito sa ship. Balita ko may masarap daw silang alak na tinitinda dito. Tsaka, isa pa, marami daw chicks.” He wiggled his brows.

Napangiwi naman ako. Alak na naman. Gusto ko sana magpahinga pero mukhang ayos na rin kung iinom na rin ako. Tutal nababagot na rin ako.

“Sure. I’ll just get my shirt.” Pagsang-ayon ko. Tumungo ako pabalik sa kama at kinuha ’yung hinubad kong damit.

“Ikaw ah! Bakit ka nakahubad? Baka may babae diyan ah!” Tinangka pa niyang sumilip pero agad kkng naisa ’yung pinto at binatukan siya.

“Gago!” Nauna na akong naglakad habang patakbo namang sumunod si Henry para magkasabay kami.

…..

Captain Luis’ POV

Saan na naman kaya nagpunta ’yung batang ’yon? Sinabi ko na kasing h’wag makikipaglaro kay Akie pero sinuway pa rin ako. Sinabihan ko na siyang h’wag makulit kapag kasama niya ’yung isang ’yon.

I know I shouldn’t get mad on either of them. Alexis is just a kid. All he knew is to play and play. While Akie was just, I don’t know, but I knew I shouldn’t get mad of him. I never saw that kid smile and laugh genuinely. He’s been so tough and defiant. I couldn’t blame him for being one ’coz I don’t know what he’d come through.

I just wanted to give him the chance to loosen himself out of his mask. Akala ko naman magiging madali ‘yon sa pamamagitan ng pagbabantay sa anak ko dahil Alexis is such a soft-hearted kid, though makulit siya, he has this aura that could make you smile. I’m not saying this just because I’m his dad but because he is indeed a light. So I thought Akie would be lighted with Alexis’ light, too.

Para kasing nawalan siya ng gana sa buhay. Buti na nga lang at nalipat siya dito sa team ko dahil noong nasa military camp pa lang siya, halos makipagsuntukan siya araw-araw.

Naging parang anak ko na rin si Akie kaya naman gusto kong mas makilala pa siya lalo. Besides, doesn’t anyone needs to be themselves? Kahit naman gago ang isang ’yon, alam kong may tinatago pa rin siyang parte ng sarili niya na siya talaga.

Alam kong sa likod ng sinasabi nilang rebeldeng bata, there’s a cheeky and playful Akie on his inside.

And I will help him to unveil that side.

Pero ngayon, kailangan ko munang hanapin ’yung anak ko. I sighed. Sana man lang, sinunod niya ’yung utos kong bantayan si Alexis. Tsk. Batang ’yon talaga. I should’ve punished him for sleeping during his mission. Siguro gagawin ko na lang na sa buong bakasyon namin, siya ang magiging bantay ni Alexis.

Iwas rin ’yon sa trabaho ko.

But I should remind myself not to bring Alexis during our vacation. Hindi pala magandang ideya ’yon. Mahina pa man din ang puso ng isang ’yon. Sana naman hindi ’yon napano.

Tinawagan ko na ’yung tao ko para hanapin si Alexis. Siguro naman hindi pa ’yon nakakalayo. Mapapagalitan ako ni Alexa ’pag nalaman non na nawala ko ’yung anak namin.

Malalagot talaga sa akin si Akie kapag napano si Alexis.

“Dad!” A small voice rang through the door of the hotel na tinutuluyan namin. I’m here at the reception area dahil ni-report ko pa ’yung pagkawala ng anak ko.

Thank God he’s now here. Tumakbo ito palapit sa akin. Lumuhod ako para mayakap siya at para buhatin.

“Damn, Alexis. Where did you go? Are you okay? Sinabi ko na kasing h’wag kang—”

“I’m okay, dad. Kuya Ian helped me naman po.” Sagot ni Alexis. Napakunot ako ng noon. Ian?

“Hello, sir.” Napatingin ako sa harap ko nang biglang lumitaw ang isang lalaki na nasa parehong edad ni Akie. He’s just small, thin and pale compared to Akie. He actually look like a girl.

“Dad. He’s kuya Ian. Tinulungan niya po ako ’nung inatake po ako ng asthma at panic attack. He’s a hero.” Papuri ni Alexis sa binatang nasa harap ko.

“Nice to meet you, sir.” Yumuko ito bilang pagbati.

“It’s my pleasure to meet you also. Paano mo nahanap ang anak ko?” Simple kong tanong.

“Uhm… I saw Alexis crying in the corner so I approached him only to find out he’s having his asthma. I’m a doctor for kids kaya po I took the initiative to help him. Mabuti na lang po at nakita ko siya.” Desenteng paliwanag ng Ian.

“Alexis, mag-uusap tayo mamaya.” Warning ko sa anak ko. Bumusangot naman ito. “By the way, Ian, thank you sa pagtulong sa anak ko. I’m Capt. Luis Herera of the Philippine Navy. Just call me Sir Luis.” Inilahad ko ’yung kamay ko para makipagkamay.

“A-Ah, I’m Ian S-Salvador, sir.” Yumuko ito. He eventually took my hand to formally accept my greeting.

Bakit ganito ang pakiramdam ko sa batang ’to?

“S-Sir,” Tawag sa akin ni Ian at doon ko lang napansin na nakahawak pa rin ako sa kamay niya. Binitawan ko na ito at muling nagpasalamat.

“Mauna na po ako. Kailangan ko pa po kasing bumili ng pagkain para sa kaibigan ko.” Pagpapaalam nito.

“Bye po, kuya Ian.” Nagpaalam na si Alexis dito.

“Wait.” Pagtawag ko bago pa ito makaalis. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko dahil sa pagkagulat.

“Is there’s a problem, sir?” Tanong nito.

“N-Nothing.” I breathed out.

“I just want to ask you if you could come for tomorrow’s dinner with us. As an act of gratitude for what you did to my son.” Pag-alok ko sa taong nasa harap ko pa rin.

He nodded. “Can I come with a friend?” Inosenteng tanong ni Ian.

Napangiti ako. “Of course, you can. Be at 6:00 pm at the palace of cousin. Thank you for bringing my son back.”

“You’re welcome, sir.” Ngumiti ito sa akin. “See you tomorrow, Alexis.” Pumaharap ito sa anak ko at ngumiti rin.

“Yehey. Makikita ko ulit si kuya Ian.” Nagbunyi naman si Alexis dahil alam niyang may makukulit na namn siya.

Mahinang tumawa si Ian. Umalis na siya at pinagmasdan ko ang pag-alis niya hanggang sa mawala siya sa paningin ko.

“Dad! Dad!” Alexis shouted.

“Yes?” I snapped.

“Where’s kuya Akie? He’s bad, iniwan niya po ako.” Pagsusumbong ni Alexis.

I sighed. “Sinabihan na kasi kitang don’t try to play with him, right? Alam mong ayaw ni kuya Akie mo ng makulit.”

He just pouted. Napangiti ako sa gestures ni Alexis. Muli akong napatingin sa direksiyon na dinaan ni Ian.

…

A/N: Please leave me a vote. Thank you.

P.S: Medyo busy lang sa school kaya hindi ako mabilis na nakakapag-update. But I will still make ways out of my hectic schedule.

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Ian’s POV

“Kevin, wait!” Huminto ako sa paglalakad. Kinapa ko ’yung bulsa ng suot kong pants pero wala akong nahanap. Shit.

“What?” Tanong ni Kevin.

“I forgot my phone. Mauna ka na sa Palace of Cousin at pakisabi kay sir Luis na susunod na ako.” Turan ko.

“Huh? I’ll just wait for you. Tutal malapit lang rin naman tayo sa hotel.” Pagtanggi ni Kevin.

“Kev, sir Luis might feel bad for us being this late, late na nga tayo mas pahahabain pa natin? Nakakahiya, besides they are the one who invited us. I’ll be there in a minute just please be there ahead of me para malaman nila na mahuhuli ako.” Mahaba kong paliwanag. Ano ba naman kasing cellphone ’yan! Sa dinami-raming pwedeng maiwan ko, ’yung importante pa. Baka kasi tumawag si mama, ganitong oras kasi siya karaniwang tumatawag. Magtatampo ’yon panigurado kung hindi ko siya masasagot.

Tumango naman si Kevin. Ngumiti ako at agad nang bumalik sa hotel na tinutuluyan namin. Hindi naman ako nagtagal pa at alam kong naghihintay pa sa akin sila sir Luis. Ayoko namang mapahiya sa kanila at baka isipin pa nilang paimportante ako dahil lang sa natulungan ko ’yung anak niya.

Isa pa, nagugutom na ako.

Umalis na ako sa hotel dala ang naiwan kong phone kanina. Papunta na ako sa Palace of Cousin na sinabi ni sir Luis sa akin though I really don’t know where exactly it is. Pero mukhang madali lang naman itong mahahanap since sa pangalan pa lang, alam mong kilala at sikat na.

Nakarating na ako sa halos gitna ng cruise ship na ’to pero ’di ko pa rin nahahanap ’yung sinabing lugar. I tried to call Kevin pero hindi ko sita ma-contact. Nakakahiya sa kanila. For sure gutom na ’yon kakahintay.

Argh!

Napabuntong hininga na lang ako.

Didiretso na sana ako ng paglakad nang may narinig akong nagsasagutan sa may likuran ko.

I was in the aisle of the cruise ship.

Wala ka masiyadong makikitang tao na nasa bahagi ng barko kung nasaan ako dahil bukod sa papagabi na, ay tiyak na mas pipiliin ng iba na makisalamuha sa mga kapwa nila eletista habang umiinom ng alak at sumasayaw sa isang tugtuging makagiliw. Minsan naman, halos nasa mga pagtitipon sila na tanging mga mayayaman lamang ang nagkakaroon ng pagkakataon na makadalo.

Sa loob ng halos tatlong araw ko dito sa Serene 771 nasaksihan ko ang halos araw-araw na takbo ng buhay ng mayayaman. Nakakatuwa na for once, I experienced to be this rich. Though, way back sa Philippines, maituturing naman kaming angat sa buhay, but not like Kevin and Akie’s peers– no, I should stop thinking of them, of him. Mas lalo lang nagiging mahirap kung pati ang mga bagay sa ngayon ay ire-relate ko sa nakaraan.

Lumapit ako sa ingay na narinig ko. It was actually none of my business pero I feel something bad to this. Ewan ko, pero there is something pushing me to come over the noise I was hearing. May hindi tama.

Lumiko na ako sa daan na hindi ko naman dapat tatahakin. This way surely leads in bars and resto here in Serene 771. Siguro dito na rin ako dadaan at baka dito ’yung lokasyon ng sinasabi ni sir Luis na Palace of Cousin.

Pagliko ko ay nakita ko ang isang matandang lalaki na matinding nakahawak sa pulsuhan ng babae. The girl look younger than the man himself. Their age gap is undeniably not alike or even close to each other.

The old man looked like a man of influence. Though he may look old, not that old, dahil halos nasa 50’s pa lang naman ito, his presence screams dominance and power. While the woman shouts nothing but slavery. Plus, looking on the woman’s reactions, she seems to be… scared? But she’s fighting.

They were like having some quarrel over something. I don’t know but I could feel the strong grip on the girl’s wrist; and that surely hurt.

Lumapit pa ako nang kaunti to hear what they were saying. Hindi naman nila ako napansin dahil sa sagutan nilang dalawa.

“Get off of me! Pwede ba, bitawan mo na ako dahil nandidiri na ako sa ’yo!” Sigaw ng babae. Nagpumilit pa itong kumawala. Pero masiyadong mahigpit ’yung pagkakahawak ng lalaki sa kamay niya.

“What? You’re disgusted? Look who’s saying those words of cleanliness. Ain’t you’re the whore and hoe you used to be? So you’re basically the disgusting toy here.” The old man spit right into the face of the woman.

Napaatras ako sa ginawa niyang ’yon. H-How dare he? It’s unlawful kung duduraan mo na lang bigla ang isang tao. It’s another level of humiliation!

“Fuck off! I’m not your slut! I’m no one’s slut! So get off of me!” Kinagat ng babae ’yung kamay ng lalaki kaya napabitaw ito sa sakit. Agad na tumakbo ’yung babae at ’di sinasadyang mabunggo ako.

Pareho kaming natumba sa sahig. Tumayo ako at ganon din ang babae. I’m way taller than this girl, but compared to the man who’s in front of us now, I am nothing compared to his. Nagtago ang babae sa likod ko.

Really? Do I look like a human shield?

Nakatayo na ngayon sa harap namin ’yung matandang lalaki. He’s drunk, I can completely see all the features of a drunk man to him. He’s badly drunk. Ngayon ko lang rin napansin na tila may lahi ang isang ’to. But he’s still mascular despite of his age.

“What now? Is this your boyfriend? A knight in shinning armour? But he barely look like a man. He’s more of a gay. Hey are you gay? Can you suck my dick? I bet you’ll love that, huh?” Panlalait ng mokong. Sumisinok pa ang gago.

Ikinuyom ko ’yung kamao ko.

“No. I am not her boyfriend. Tsaka, ano naman if I were gay? Do you have any problem with that?” I spat. ’Di ko hahayaan na maliitin ako ng isang ’to.

“Ha! You’re acting strong now?” He groggily asked.

“Yes! And we’re leaving.” Hinawakan ko ’yung babae pero agad akong tumilapon matapos kong maramdaman na may sumuntok sa akin. Nalasahan ko ’yung dugo sa may bandang ibaba ng labi ko. Pinigilan kong umiyak.

Don’t show your weakness, Ian. You’re strong aren’t you? I know you’re not the same Ian several years ago. You are stonger now. So don’t cry.

“H-Hey, stop! Just get off will you!?” The girl threatened as the old man tried to step closer to us. But her threat was as futile as it is because well, the man still continued to step closer.

Why do I have to be like this?

Pathetic.

Hanggang ngayon ’di ko pa rin kayang ipagtanggol ang sarili ko. Kaya ’di ko rin nakakayanang ipagtanggol ’yung iba. I should’ve been the one na nagtatanggol sa babae. Fuck!

Tumayo ako at humarang sa harap ng babae. “Don’t you dare to touch her!” Mas matapang ko nang pagpapabanta.

“Ha! Do you think I’m scared? Over you? Over someone like you?” He mocked.

He’s pissing me.

Humarap ako sa babae. “Go, find someone who can help us! I’ll try to stop him.”

“Huh? Are you sure you can stop him?” Nag-aalangang tanong nito.

“Of course I’m not! But at least I’ll try. So fast, go find some help.” Itinulak ko na siya para agad na siyang maghanap ng tao na pwedeng tumulong sa amin.

Bakit ba kasi walang security sa part na ’to ng barko?!

Naramdaman ko na lang na biglang may sumakal sa akin.

“A-Ack..” Hirap na pagpupumilit ko sa pagkakawala sa sakal ng matandang lalaki.

“Who thought that this gay would be someone’s hero?” Turan ng lalaki na punong-puno ng lason ang bawat salita.

Pinilit kong kumawala, pero mahigpit ang pagkakasakal niya. Diniinan pa nito ang ginagawa niyang pagkakasakal the moment he saw me crying.

Tumatawa siya kasabay ng pagbagsak ng mga luha ko; luha ng sakit.

Fuck this old retard!

“What now? Why does it look like the baby is crying? I thought faggot like you are brave enough but the truth is you are just the same cock-sucking-machine everyone thought you are.” Patuloy niyang panlalait. Tumawa pa siya na parang pandemonyo.

I am not what you think I was.

Sinipa ko siya sa maselan niyang bahagi kaya agad siyang napabitaw sa pagkakasakal sa akin. Habang patuloy niyang iniinda ang sakit ay agad naman akong tumakbo palayo sa demonyong ito.

Hindi ko siya kaya. Masiyado siyang malaki at malakas.

Pero hindi pa man ako nakakalayo ay agad akong naabutan ng gago. He grasped my hair with his strong and large hands.

Fuck! Masakit.

“Where do you think you’re going, huh?” Pagpigil nito sa akin.

Argh!

Pinilit kong kumawala pero mas lalo lang niyang hinigpitan ang pagkakasabunot sa akin. Nagsimula ulit akong lumuha.

“Let me go! You’re hurting me!”

“Why would I let you go? You’re now my bitch, I bet you’re as good as that bitch. Maybe you’re much better to her.” Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. “I promise I’ll make you feel good until you were satisfied.” He whispered with full of demonic tone.

“No! Please no! Parang awa mo na! Let go of me. Please!” Nagsimula na akong umiyak. Sumisigaw na rin ako.

Naalala ko ’yung ginawa ni Kenneth sa akin. Kung paanong naging dahilan ’yung ginawa niyang panrarahas sa akin para maghiwalay kami ni Akie. He cause me some trauma. This is just like what he did.

“Oh, why are you crying?” He murmured. But I know he’s teasing me. “I thought you wanted to get laid?” He mocked. “Is that what gays are into guys? To suck their dicks and to get fucked?” He degraded. Hindi naman ako makasagot dahil sa sobrang takot.

Kinaladkad niya ako pero pinilit kong kumawala. Patuloy pa rin ako sa paghingi ng tulong.

“No one can hear you, all of them doesn’t care if someone was being beaten into death. We’re rich and powerful, so who do you think would dare to fight agai—”

“Hey, old ass. Why don’t you leave that kid alone?” Biglang sabat ng tao na nasa likod ko.

“Tsk. What now? Are you this fag’s boyfriend?” Pang-iinsulto ng matanda.

Hindi naman namin narinig na sumagot ’yung lalaki na nasa likod ko. I wanna see him but this old man was grasping my hair.

“I’m a lieutenant of the Philippine Navy. Let go of the guy or else—”

“.. or else what? Do you think I’m threatened? Boy, I’m way powerful than you. I can make you out of the Navy if I want to.”

“Fuck you.” The man coldly replied. I felt shivers down to my spine.

Kita ko naman ang galit ng matanda sa naging sagot ng tao na nasa likuran ko.

“You, bastard.” Tinulak ako ng matanda kaya napasubsob ako sa sahig. Narinig ko ’yung yapak ng matanda na mabilis na umatake palapit sa lalaking binastos siya.

Napalingon ako sa dalawang lalaking ngayon ay nagsusuntukan, pero napatigil ako nang makilala ko kung sino ’yung lalaking sumaklolo sa akin.

B-Bakit nandito siya?

Sobrang bilis ng pangyayari. I just found myself on the arms of Kevin while he’s asking me if I was okay. Pero wala akong masagot sa mga tanong niya kundi ang tumango. Huminto na rin ’yung gulo at suntukan matapos silang awatin ng ilan sa mga tauhan ni sir Luis— nandito rin siya. Nakita ko rin ’yung babae na sinabihan kong humingi ng tulong, malamang, si Kevin ang napaghingian nito ng saklolo.

But what I was dumfounded the most is the captivating cold and serious eyes that were staring directly at me.

I gulped.

I was saved on a trouble.

But ain’t Akie Villaflor is the exact definition of that word?

…..

Akie’s POV

I was walking with my hands deep down the pockets of my pants while heading on an aisle of the cruise ship papunta sa Palace of Cousin.

Tsk. Why do I have to be there? Walang kwenta.

But since it’s an order from Captain Luis, wala akong magawa kung ’di sumunod.

I was on my way papunta sa sinabing resto ni Captain nang may narinig ako na parang umiiyak at humihingi ng tulong.

Hindi ko na sana papansinin ’coz it’s fucking none of my business. But there’s a constant thing that pushes me over the place where the sound comes.

Pumunta ako at nakita ko ang isang matandang lalaki na may kinakaladkad na isa pang lalaki– but it was way smaller than him.

The old man was a bit mascular and tall. He’s grasping the boy’s hair and it just pissed me off. I fucking don’t know why.

Kumulo bigla ang dugo ko sa nakita ko. Kaya naman agad akong lumapit sa kanila.

“No one can hear you, all of them doesn’t care if someone was being beaten into death. We’re rich and powerful, so who do you think would dare to fight agai—”

“Hey, old ass. Why don’t you leave that kid alone?” I interrupted. Napalingon naman sa akin ’yung matanda.

“Tsk. What now? Are you this fag’s boyfriend?” Pang-iinsulto nito sa lalaki. Tumingin ako rito pero hindi ko makita ang itsura nito dahil nakatalikod ito sa akin. But I could say that he’s being hurt by this asshole.

Hindi ako sumagot sa tanong niya pero nagpakilala ako gamit ang posisyon ko. Maybe he would be intimidated.

“I’m a lieutenant of the Philippine Navy. Let go of the guy or else—”

“.. or else what? Do you think I’m threatened? Boy, I’m way powerful than you. I can make you out of the Navy if I want to.” Mayabang din nitong saad. I gritted my teeth.

“Fuck you.” I coldly replied.

Kita ko ang galit sa mukha ng matanda dahil sa naging sagot ko sa sinabi niya.

“You, bastard.” Tinulak niya ang lalaki kaya napasubsob ito sa sahig. Napatingin ako sa lalaking kaninang hawak niya at bahagya akong napahinto.

I-Ian? Hindi ako pwedeng magkamali, it’s Ian.

Lalapit na sana ako sa kaniya pero agad na humarang ’yung matanda at bigla akong inatake ng suntok. Pero naka-ilag ako.

Biglang nag-init ’yung kamao ko dahil sa dumaplis ’yung suntok niya sa kaliwang pisngi ko. Plus the fact that he hurt Ian makes me fume in anger.

Pero naging mabilis ang pangyayari. Matapos ko siyang mabangasan ay naramdaman ko na lang na may pumipigil na sa akin– sila Capt. Luis.

Tsk. Mga panira.

Tinanggal ko ’yung pagkakakapit nila sa kamay ko at agad na hinanap ang taong tinulungan ko.

That’s why there’s something pushing me to help. Because it’s him. It’s Ian.

Nahuli ko siyang nakatingin sa akin kaya matiim ko rin siyang tinitigan. Kita mo sa mga mata niya ang gulat at pagtataka na makita ako.

Pero siya ang unang umiwas at nagbaba ng tingin.

Tangina. Hanggang ngayon ba naman?

Damn!

Hindi mo na ako pwedeng iwasan at takbuhan, Ian.

I’ll not let you go this time, Ian Salvador. Not again.

…..

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C H A P T E R - 044

Ian’s POV

“Ian, are you okay? Is there’s anything throbbing or what? Are you hurt? May sugat ka ba o —”

“K-Kevin, I’m fine. You don’t have to worry that much.” I replied to him.

“But–” Magsasalita pa sana ito pero agad na lumapit sa akin si sir Luis.

“Ian, what happened? Is everything fine?” Nag-aalala rin nitong tanong.

What’s with them? Why are they contiguously asking if I’m fine.

I’m damn fine.

“I’m good, sir. Thank you for the concern.” Ngumiti na lang ako. Tila naman nahimasmasan si sir Luis nang malaman nitong ayos lang ako.

Napakunot ako ng noo. Weird.

“Buti na lang at nakita ka ng babaeng ’yon, kung hindi baka na pa’no ka na.” Kevin.

“But I’m the one who saved her.” Sagot ko.

“Yeah, but—”

“Next time, kung alam mong hindi mo naman kaya, h’wag kang nagmamatapang. Look at you. You barely survived alone. If it wasn’t for me, no one knows where in the hell that asshole might bring you.”

I heard that same thought before.

Napapikit ako nang mariin.

Shit.

Right, he’s here for real!

Fucking luck.

“Ah, right. Here’s Lieutenant Villaflor, he’s part of our colleague.” Pagpapakilala ni sir Luis kay Akie at sabay na umakbay sa balikat nito.

So, he’s a Marine Navy now. I’m glad he’s on the right path. Mabuti na lang at hindi niya hinayaang mapariwara ang buhay niya.

“You did something great today. Good job!” Sir Luis complimented. Tinapik nito ang balikat ni Akie.

“Akie?” Kevin recognized.

Akie looked blankly at Kevin as he tsked.

“You knew each other?” Mr. Herera asked a bit of confused.

“Obviously, sir.” Kevin answered. “We’re schoolmates before. Akie, Ian and I are on the same highschool half of a decade ago.” He explained.

“Glad to know that. I never met any friends of Akie not until now.” Sir Luis. “Ain’t this time to celebrate for a reunion?” Siniko pa nito si Akie. But Akie just irritatedly look away from them two.

“Probably. Besides, it’s almost a decade since the last day.” Kevin chuckled. Pero walang natawa.

Argh!

Kevin! Can’t you sense the awkwardness?!

Sinigawan ko na siya sa isip ko.

“.. err. Right, Ian?” Biglang bato niya sa akin.

“A-Ah, o-oo.” Tumawa na rin ako nang mahina. I was startled by his sudden call. Napatingin ako sa kaniya at pinanliitan ko ng mata.

Napatingin naman ako kay Akie pero tila wala siyang pakialam sa pinag-uusapan namin. Nakatingin lang siya sa malayo habang nasa loob ng bulsa ng pantalon niya ang dalawa nitong kamay.

He look so matured. His stance, his aura, his presence. It screams authority and maturity.

Nabigla ako nang ibaling ni Akie ang tingin nito sa akin. Blangko at seryoso.

Napalunok na lang ako ng laway.

Bakit para yatang naging nakakatakot siya o baka dahil lang ’yon sa mga mata niya?

Kevin is right. It’s been a decade since the last time. But is it worth remembering for?

…..

Akie’s POV

Tsk. Tangina. Kanina pa ’tong gago na ’to na nakadikit kay Ian ah.

Kanina kung makapagtanong kung ayos lang ba ’tong si Ian, akala mo siya ito na nagligtas.

Tapos ngayon naman kung makapagbigay ng pagkain kay Ian sobra sobra. Haven’t he heard Ian? Busog na nga ’di ba? What’s the sense of giving him foods if he’ll not eat it then?

Halata naman na pinopormahan niya si Ian.

Flirty asshole.

Then, here’s Ian, allowing that bastard to go flirt with him. Are they aware that they’re on public?

Putangina!

“You two seems to be close.” Biglang pansin ni Capt. Luis. Nasa iisang lamesa lang kami naka-upo kasama si Capt, si Alexis, sila Commander Wilson at Erick, at ang iba pang Lieutenant at Ensign.

I am right in front of Kevin and if it isn’t illegal, he’s probably out of his breath right now.

Tumingin naman si Ian sa direksiyon ni Capt at ngumiti.

Damn it! Bakit kay Kevin at kay Capt. Luis nakukuha niyang ngumiti? Pero pagdating sa akin hindi niya kayang tumingin ni limang segundo. Nakakatangina lang.

“Uhm. Yes, Ian and I are together for almost a decade since we started college.” Si Kevin ang sumagot.

Together? What does it mean?

Tsaka bakit ba siya lagi ang sumasagot? Si Ian naman ang tinatanong ah.

Ikinuyom ko ’yung kamao ko.

Hindi naman na tinanong ni Capt kung anong ibig sabihin nito sa salitang together. He’s giving the two the privacy they deserve. But fuck. To tell that I was curios is an understatement ’coz I’m hell curios.

Are they a couple? Are they in a relationship?

Argh! I wanted to know badly.

Putangina naman.

I wanted to know everything about him. Everything about what Ian concerned for the rest of the years.

But the fuck.. how?! Ayaw niya nga akong tignan, kausapin pa kaya?

Puta naman. Aren’t we both the victims here? Bakit parang ako lang naman ’yung naghahabol? Akala ko ba mahal niya ako? Akala ko ba minahal niya ako? Then what the fuck is this?

Looking at someone’s eyes isn’t that hard. But why it looks so hard for him?

Nakakabaliw. Gustong-gusto ko na siyang hatakin palayo dito at tanungin kung bakit niya ba ako tinatrato nang ganito.

Alam kong nasaktan ko siya pero hindi ba parang sobra naman kung tatratuhin mo na parang hangin ’yung isang tao?

Nakakagago lang kasi.

“Hahahaha.” Ian lauged cutely. How I missed those smiles and laughs of him.

I was lost on my train of thoughts then I just realized na malayo na pala ’yung pinag-uusapan nila.

Marami pa silang pinag-usapan but I just sit there listening. Naging kwentuhan nila ang ginawang pagligtas ni Ian kay Alexis. Kaya pala inimbita sila ni Captain sa party na dapat ay para lang sa mga Navy. Ayos lang naman, pero sana ’di na niya sinama pa si Kevin. Na-ikwento rin nila na nag-aaral silang maging doktor and they here para sa bakasyon nila bago sumabak sa internship.

Alam ko naman na ’yon since una pa lang, pangarap na talaga ni Ian na maging isang propesyunal sa larangan ng medesina. How I missed those days na ikinikwento pa niya ’yung plano niya para sa amin once he graduated.

Fucking lies.

The dinner continued as the night goes deeper and deeper. Naglabas din ng maiinom ang mga kasamahan ko.

This is supposed to be a party. But this isn’t fun at all.

Nag-abot ng wine si Capt. sa akin. Tumango ako bilang salamat. Nakita ko naman na nag-abot ng wine si Kevin kay Ian.

“Do you want some?” Kevin.

“I don’t drink liquor, remember?” Ian. He chuckled as Kevin scratched his nape.

Tangina, ano naman’g nakakatawa r’on?

“Yeah, how could I forgot. How about some sweets? I’ll get you.” Kevin.

Tsk. Papansin na naman si gago.

“Oh, sure.” Ian smiled.

Damn. Don’t smile at him like that.

Umalis na ang kupal at kumuha ng makakain. Naiwan kami nila Capt. at Ian sa lamesa. Alexis is asking Capt if he could play with Ian pero hindi ito pinayagan ni Captain.

…..

Ian’s POV

“Alexis. Don’t be so stubborn. Don’t disturb him.” Panunuway ni sir Luis sa anak niya. “I’m sorry, Ian. Ngayon lang kasi ’yan nakahanap ng makakalaro. Bakit pa kasi pinasama pa ’yan dito ng mommy niya.” Napailing na lang si sir Luis.

“Okay lang po ’yon. It’s part of my profession to be close with kids like Alex. He’s not a problem at all.” Pagpapaliwanag ko.

“I told you, dad. Kuya Ian is awesome. Unlike the other one here.” Tumingin ito sa katabi niyang si Akie, haltang nagpaparinig.

Tumingin din ako kay Akie at nakita ko kung paanong magpigil siya na hindi sagutin si Alexis.

Napangiti ako dahil sa naging reaksiyon niya. But I eventually brushed my smile off nang mahuli ako ni Akie na nakatingin sa kaniya.

Nag-iwas ako ng tingin at sinagot na lang ’yung sumunod na tinanong ni Alexis.

Sunod-sunod ang naging tanong ni sir Luis. Gaya ng kung paano ako napunta sa Canada at nakapag-aral sa isang pristihiyosong paaralan. Marami rin siyang tinanong patungkol kay mama. Naging masusi rin siya sa pagtatanong sa naging buhay ko noong nasa Pilipinas pa ako nakatira. He’s asking too much about my past. It’s kinda weird knowing someone is over asking your personal bounderies but I find myself blabbering my story tho. Wala akong naramdamang kahit na anong pagaalinlangan na ikwento sa kanila ’yung naging buhay ko sa Pilipinas at Canada. Pero siyempre, hindi ko sinama ’yung kwento na tungkol sa amin ni Akie. I just don’t want them to know our story, tsaka baka ayaw na din pag-usapan pa ni Akie. So I set aside that part.

“I’m glad Isabelle raised you well.” Sir Luis whispered out of his thought.

“Sir?”

“O-Oh… I mean your mom. She raised you well.” Paliwanag nito. I knitted my brows.

“Uhm, yeah. She’s the best.” I answered with a grin. Mom is the most awesome person in this world.

“Yes, she’s really the best.” Muling bulong ni sir Luis.

Tatanungin ko sana siya kung kilala niya ba ang mama ko pero agad na dumating si Kevin na may dalang varieties of sweets. Sobrang dami.

“Sorry natagalan. Hinatak kasi ako para kumanta. Hahaha. Sobra silang nagkakasiyahan d’on.” Tuwang-tuwa si Kevin nang dumating ito. Malaki na rin ang pinagbago ni Kevin. He became free and more of himself.

May lumapit din na mga miyembro ng Navy at hinatak ang Captain nila para makisaya sa kantahan at sayawan. Sumama naman si sir Luis sa kanila. May nagyaya rin sa akin pero tumanggi ako. Si Akie naman ay inutusan ni sir Luis na bantayan si Alexis kaya nanatili siya sa kainauupuan nito kanina pa.

Ayon kay sir Luis nasa bakasyon sila kaya they decided to organize a party. May mga babae at hindi naman talaga ’yon mawawala. Maraming nag-iinuman, nagsasayawan, nagkakantahan, at nagkakasiyahan. Pero pinili ko na lang na maupo, mabuti na lang at isinama ko si Kevin dahil hindi ko alam kung paano ko haharapin si Akie. Hindi ko rin naman talaga in-expect na makikita ko siya rito. Pero you can’t hide someone forever. Maliit lang ang mundo.

But the good thing is, I don’t have to worry dahil ang kailangan ko lang ay dumikit kay Kevin. I’ll be safe from awkwardness.

“Ian, here, have some.” Alok ni Kevin sa hawak nitong cupcake. Kinuha ko ito at nagpasalamat.

“Do you some crush on kuya Ian?” Biglang singit ni Alexis. Namula naman ako sa tanong na iyon ng bata.

Kevin chuckled with his sweet laughs. Tumingin ito sa akin tsaka bumalik ang pokus kay Alex. “Why did’ya asked, kiddo?” Tanong nito sa bata.

“Because you’re kinda sweet and lovely towards him. Is it not how boyfriends are?” Inosenteng tanong nito.

Mas lalong nag-init ’yung mukha ko.

“You’re a complete host, aren’t you? Halika nga rito.” Pagtawag ni Kevin sa bata.

Lumapit naman sa amin si Alexis at kinulit si Kevin na bigyan siya ng hawak nitong pagkain. Mabilis naman nakuha ni Kevin ang loob ni Alexis dahil dito. He climbed on top of Kevin’s lap and started to annoy Kevin. Pero nagkasundo naman ang dalawa though Kevin is like Akie, they both hate kids. Speaking of that man…

Sinilip ko siya on my peripheral vision at wala naman itong ginawa kung hindi bumusangot o ’di kaya naman ay maging iritable at tumingin sa labas ng lugar kung nasaan kami. Maybe he’s bored.

His expression never changed since the very first time he found out about the video scandal. Hanggang ngayon, he has this stoic, unchanging and defiant reaction. Hinding-hindi na siya ’yung Akie Villaflor na nakilala ko.

Simula noong araw na ’yon, nagbago na ang lahat. Nawala ’yung ngiti niya, pagiging pilyo niya at pagiging mapangasar.

“Let’s go, kuya Kevin. Let’s get more sweets!” Sigaw ni Alexis ang nagpabalik sa akin sa katinuan.

They’re leaving and that means one thing.

Mula sa pagkakatitig sa mesa, unti-unting dumako ’yung seryososng tingin ni Akie paakyat sa akin para magtagpo ’yung paningin namin.

I gulped.

I was left together with my ex. Great, I and Akie, alone. Bet this night will not gonna be the way I supposed it was to be.

…..

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C H A P T E R - 045

Ian’s POV

It has only been a damn minute but it felt like an hour full of awkwardness kasama si Akie.

Nakatingin lang siya sa akin na para akong isang kuting na gusto na niyang sunggaban at patayin.

Bakit naman kasi ganon siya kung makatitig. Nakaka-conscious kaya. Para tuloy may mali sa akin na ewan.

Ian, relax.

All you have to do is to wait for Kevin and Alexis. Hindi naman siguro sila magtatagal. Bakit ba kasi kailangan pang iwan ako rito? Bakit ’di na lang ako ’yung niyaya nitong si Alexi–

“Ahh!” Nagulat ako nang biglang may kumalabog. Gulat na napatingin ako kay Akie. Bahagya siyang napatayo habang ’yung dalawang palad niya ay nakalapat sa lamesa. Halata na sa kaniya nanggaling ’yung nakakagulat na tunog. Anong problema niya?

“Damn it.” He whispered but I heard it clear. He’s gritting his teeth as his fist clenched. Lumayo siya nang bahagya sa kinauupuan namin at may kinuha sa bulsa niya.

Sinundan ko siya ng tingin. Naglabas ito ng kahon ng sigarilyo at kumuha ng isang piraso. Napakagat na lang ako sa labi nang sindihan niya ito. He’s smoking now? Since when? Hindi niya ba alam na delikado ’yon?

I wanted to stop him, but who am I anyways? Napabuntong hininga na lang ako. Mabuti pa ay umidlip na lang muna ako. Ipinatong ko ang ulo ko sa mga kamay ko na nakalapat sa lamesa.

I was about to close my eyes nang maramdaman ko ang biglaang paghatak sa akin palayo. I was pulled straight out of the Palace of Cousin.

“W-Wait!” I tried to stop him pero wala na akong nagawa.

Mabilis ang mga naging pangyayari, I just found myself in the midst of an empty aisle here in Serene 771 with the moon right on top of me. The waves of the sea is right behind me.

Akie towered over me. Mas lalo akong nanliit dahil sa tangkad at katawan niya. Ano na naman ba ’to?

Oh, God. Hindi pa ba matatapos ’tong gabing ’to? Una, muntik na akong mapahamak. Pangalawa, nagkita na ulit kami ni Akie. Pangatlo, ito naman.

Hindi na maganda ’tong mga nangyayari.

……

Akie’s POV

So he’s just gonna fucking stare at nowhere and ignore me? Great, Ian. Fucking great.

Hindi ba siya titingin man lang sa akin? Pakiramdam ko tuloy para lang akong bato dito. Tangina.

Dahil sa kagustuhan kong mapansin niya ay hinampas ko nang hindi ganon kalakasan ang lamesa na sapat para magulat siya. Gulat siyang napatingin sa akin. I mentally smirked. Finally, napansin din niya ako. Pero wala naman siyang naging reaksiyon kaya mas lalo akong nainis.

Nakuha ko nga ’yung atensiyon niya, pero mas nakakagago dahil parang wala lang sa kaniya. He’s trying to ignore me for god’s sake.

Dahil sa pagkainis tumayo na lang ako at dumiretso sa may gilid at kumuha ng sigarilyo. Cigarette makes me calm.

Bumalik ’yung tingin ko kay Ian pero nakayuko na ito at tila natutulog.

Shit. He’s really testing my patience. Hindi pwedeng hindi niya ako pansinin habang buhay. Matapos niya akong iwan, halos mabaliw ako sa araw-araw na pag-iisip kung kamusta na kaya siya. Pero parang ako lang ’yung nag-iisip ng ganon sa aming dalawa.

Mukhang kinalimutan na niya ako agad ah.

Tsk. Bakit ba naman ako magtataka, nakukuha niya ngang makipaglandian sa Kevin na ’yon eh. For sure he’s over for what we had before now.

Pero putangina. Bakit ’di ko matanggap na limot na niya ’yung past na meron kami.

Nakakagago pala na ’yung taong mahal na mahal mo ay wala nang pakialam sa ’yo.

Bakit ba kasi ang hirap kalimutan nitong isang ’to? Hindi naman ako ganito nabaliw noon sa kahit na sinong naging karelasyon ko.

Ian is definitely different and I will not let this man ignore me for the fucking lifetime.

Lumapit ako sa kaniya at hinatak siya palabas sa Palace of Cousin. I knew he recognized me as the one who’s responsible for bringing him out here and I’m just glad that he doesn’t make whines and fuss about what I did. He let me drag him and that’s a good start.

Nakatayo ako ngayon sa harapan niya habang nakapamulsa. I smirked. He’s like a kitten lost in the middle of the road. He just stood there at halatang ’di niya alam ’yung gagawin niya.

“Uhm, I don’t think if we should stay here. It’s better to get inside ’coz it’s getting colder and —”

“Why are you avoiding me?” I deadpanned.

“H-Huh?” Inosenteng tanong nito habang nakatitig sa sahig.

“Why are you doing these?” Singhal ko.

“Doing what?” Ian.

I snorted. He’s really good at playing innocent.

“Bakit? Nakalimutan mo na agad ako?” I chuckled darkly.

“A-Ano bang pinagsasabi mo?” He looked at me with furrowed brows but he eventually shifted his gaze out of the trance.

I leaned forward hanggang sa magkatapat ang mukha namin. I held his chin at itinaas ito. Our eyes met.

“Do you want me to remind you then?” I asked as I brushed his lower lip with my thumb. “Tell me.” I asked with hoarsed voice.

“I-I should go. E-Excuse me.” He moved his head out of my grasp.

He was about to leave pero agad ko siyang pinigilan at ikinulong gamit ang dalawa kong braso na nakakapit sa railing ng barko.

“You’re not leaving.” I demanded.

He’s now glaring at me. I could tell that he’s pissed, but I’ll do it anyways.

“Akie, really, it’s getting—” Hindi ko na siya pinatapos pa ng sasabihin dahil sinabi na niya ’yung pangalan ko na naging hudyat para halikan ko siya.

His eyes widened. I once tasted his lips again. Kumapit siya sa dibdib ko at sinubukan akong itulak pero ’di ko hinayaan na putulin niya ang muling paglalapat ng labi namin.

Fuck! His lips are fucking soft. It feels like I was on a freaking cloud 9. I was enjoying myself on kissing him samalantalang mariin lang na nakapikit si Ian at sinusubukan pa rin niyang kumalas.

I tried to move my lips pero patuloy niyang iniiwas ’yung mukha niya kaya mas diniinan ko pa ’yung pagkakahawak ko sa panga niya to stop his squirming.

He can’t stop me specially if I was caged for years and not being able to eat my favorite appetite.

Hindi ako tumigil sa paghalik sa kaniya hanggang sa halos maubusan na siya ng hangin.

I let him breathe.

He breathed heavily kaya naman nanatiling bukas ’yung bibig niya.

Fuck, I can’t stop myself.

I immediately locked our lips once more. But this time, it’s heated. I entered my tongue deep unto his mouth. I felt his tongue avoiding mine. But I still dominated him nonetheless.

“Mmhm” He moaned.

Shit. To say that his moan is an energizer is such an understatement, it’s a freaking kryptonite, it makes me weak to point of wanting it more.

I sucked his tongue to bring his saliva out of his mouth papunta sa akin. I didn’t feel disgusted. It’s fucking sweet.

Damn! I was craving for this sweet. It’s fucking delicious. It was like a rare kind of sugar. It makes me fucking crazy and delirious. I fucking miss this. All of him.

I fucking missed him.

Everything about him brings me in a state of insatiability.

I could feel my thing stiffened. I’m getting harder for every second that passed.

Suddenly, he pushed me hard enough to set our lips apart and so our body.

“W-What… the hell is… w-wrong with you?” Hinihingal niyang turan. He’s having hard time to catch his breath up. Pinunasan niya ’yung labi niya na halos mapuno ng laway.

“Kissing you.” I simply stated.

“Why, haven’t you liked it…?” I smirked. “… or is Kevin is much better?” My smirk grew wider. But there’s bitterness on that one. Thinking that they’re together get me pissed.

“W-What are you—”

“You two are together, aren’t you?” I gritted my teeth. I know it was fucking ridiculous to ask that thing to him ’coz it’s his life but I just can’t accept the fact that he easily coped up while I am still in this devastating state.

Argh! I’m talking nonsense. I’m too irrational.

But I can’t stop myself. I have to know if that’s the reason why he’s avoiding me. Because I couldn’t stand this kind of set up. I couldn’t stand this fucking distance. He’s treating me as if he doesn’t know me even for once in his entire life. And it’s killing me. I know I could do nothing about it but I was hoping that they’re not what I am thinking about them.

Please don’t say that you’re in a fucking relationship with that bastard. Please.

“Akie this is ridiculous.” He sighed. “Baka hinahanap na ta—”

“Tell me!” I screamed. Napaatras naman si Ian dahil sa gulat. Mababaniagan mo ng takot ang kaniyang mga mata.

I wanted to say sorry but my Id is getting over me. I couldn’t stop it.

“Just tell me.” I breathed out. Binabaan ko na ’yung boses ko dahil ayaw ko rin na matakot pa siya.

“No.” He simply said. “Now, can you please let me—”

There’s a part of me saying that his answer is enough but I just couldn’t stop myself. I should know why.

“Ha! Tangina. Eh anong rason mo kung bakit mo ako iniiwasan?” Galit ko pa ring tanong.

“There’s no point on answering that one.” He quickly turned his gaze out of mine.

“There is! Putangina naman, Ian. Nakakagago ’tong ginagawa mo! All this time you’re avoiding me for no reason?”

“Because this is what you want!” Bigla siyang napatingin sa akin. Kita ko ang namumuong luha sa gilid ng mga mata niya. Napahinto ako at nawala lahat ng galit ko.

“T-This is what y-you want, Akie! You want me to leave, a-and so I did.” He started to cry and I just realized one thing.

“I-I keep on pushing myself to keep our relationship on but all you did was nothing but to p-push me away!” He sobbed drastically. I couldn’t help but to groan internally.

He’s right.

I pushed him away.

I let him go.

“So, what do you think I was supposed to do? Beg? I’m not that crazy, Akie. I keep on saying my reasons but did you listened? You treated me like a freaking trash!” He screamed.

No. Damn it.

How could I not realize it early?

Hindi siya kusang umalis, ako ang nagtulak sa kaniya para gawin ’yon.

Hindi niya ako iniiwasan, ginagawa niya lang kung ano ’yung gusto ko.

Higit sa lahat, ako ang may mali at hindi siya.

Fuck! All this time wala na akong ibang inisip kung hindi itong putanginang pride na ’to.

Ian is right. Lagi niyang iniintindi kung ano ’yung nararamdaman at gusto ko but I haven’t listened to him even in a single time.

I keep on saying that he’s so selfish on leaving me behind, but it was me who’s selfish between the two of us.

I brushed my hair with irritation. Ano na naman ’tong ginawa mo, Akie? Ikaw ’tong gago eh. Puta.

Damn this ego! I curse all the deity for making me this idiot!

I torned Ian on my fucking ego. Now, how could I make it up to him? Damn.

Naramdam ko na lang na may humahapas sa dibdib ko only to find out it was Ian who’s hitting me with his closed fist. Hindi naman ako nasaktan dahil ramdam ko na kontrolado ’yung ginagawa niyang pagsuntok.

I deserve it.

“I-I hate you! I hate you, Akie! I freaking hate you!” Huminto siya nang bahagya sa pagsuntok. “Sabi mo lumayo ako, umalis ako, at iwan ka. Pero bakit mo pinaparamdam na parang kasalanan ko? Tsaka bakit mo ba ginugulo ’yung buhay ko! I thought you want me gone but why are you doing these?! You’re making me confused!” He looked at me disappointedly.

God, how I wanted to hug and kiss him. How I wanted to wrap my hands around his waist and say sorry.

“I-I hate you!” He tried to punch me again pero halos wala na siyang lakas para gawin pa ’yon. He slipped down to his knees as he cried harder.

I hate myself, too, Ian.

It’s always you who’s considering my ego. Ako na nga itong nagkamali, pero ikaw pa rin itong umintindi. How could I not see those things? I’m a fucker.

“You’re a goddamn idiot, Akie.” Bulong ko sa sarili ko.

“Akie, I’m trying to clear all the memories we had. But it’s hard I admit. But I figured it would be easy if I will engage myself out of your league. So, please, Akie. J-Just leave me alone.”

“Hell, no!” I exclaimed. “You can’t do this to me, Ian. Please don’t do this to me! I still love you. I am still in love with you!” I held his small hands and it perfectly fitted inside my large one.

Napahinto siya dahil sa narinig. Tumayo siya mula sa pagkakasalampak sa sahig at umiling.

“You’re making it worse, Akie. Please, h’wag mo nang pahirapan pa ’yung sarili mo. You know this won’t work.” He took his hands out of my grasp. Then wiped his tears.

“Please forgive me. I don’t want to lose you again, Ian. It would be hard to lose someone as precious as you.” I begged. Simula ngayon, I will set aside this fucking pride just to win Ian’s heart.

Hindi ko na hahayaan na ako ulit ang maging dahilan para iwan niya. It will kill me.

“Naguguluhan na ako. I wanted to forget you and not to deal with the risk. I-I’m afraid we might end up hurting each other just like before. So please stop doing this! Stop saying that you love me. Say it was just a joke.” He cried again. God, he’s such a cry baby.

“No, it wasn’t a joke. I’m an idiot for not considering your side. I know it’s hard, Ian. But I promise it would be worth the risk. I will not make you cry again. So, please, give me a chance. Please let me make it up to you. Gusto kong bumawi sa lahat ng pagkakamali ko. Ian, please.” I pleaded. Alam kong hindi madali ’to para sa kaniya pero ipipilit ko. Dahil mahal ko siya.

Napatingin siya sa akin. I looked at him with pleasing eyes. Encouraging him to say that he love me, too. Alam kong mahal niya pa rin ako.

Say it, Ian. Say that you love me!

“Ian? Akie?” Sigaw ng isang boses na sumira sa momentum.

Damn it.

…..

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C H A P T E R - 046

Ian’s POV

I burried my face on my pillow.

This day is freaking unbelievable. I thought I would be happy and relaxed with our vacation bago sumabak sa Internship. Pero mukhang nagkamali ako. This vacation is ridiculous! How does it end up like this?!

I thought everything would be perfectly fine as long as I wouldn’t poke at him. Pero kahit naman pala wala akong gawin, mangyayari pa rin ’yon.

That dumbass. How can he made me puzzled like that just with his mere actions and words?

He just kissed me. He just confessed. He just says that he’s still in love with me. But those things changes what I was supposed to anticipate.

I was supposed to avoid him, but I end up stumbling on him. How lucky I was?

Hell! Everything is screwed now. Thanks to the man who always brings trouble.

Argh! I hate him. He’s making my mind turn into frenzy but at the same time, he’s making my stomach flutter and tingle.

I hate him. I hate you to the pit of hell, Akie Villaflor.

[Flashback]

“Hell, no!” He exclaimed. “You can’t do this to me, Ian. Please don’t do this to me! I still love you. I am still in love with you!” He held my small hands and it perfectly fitted inside his large one.

Napahinto ako dahil sa narinig.

Tumayo

ako mula sa pagkakasalampak sa sahig at

umiling

.

“You’re making it worse, Akie. Please, h’wag mo nang

pahirapan

pa ’yung sarili mo. You know this won’t work.“ I took my hands out of his grasp.

I just know it won’t.

“Please forgive me. I don’t want to lose you again, Ian. It would be hard to lose someone as precious as you.” Akie begged.

“

Naguguluhan

na ako. I wanted to forget you and not to deal with the risk. I-I’m afraid we might end up hurting each other just like before. So please stop doing this! Stop saying that you love me. Say it was just a joke.“ I cried again.

“No, it wasn’t a joke. I’m an idiot for not considering your side. I know it’s hard, Ian. But I promise it would be worth the risk. I will not make you cry again. So, please, give me a chance. Please let me make it up to you. Gusto kong

bumawi

sa lahat ng pagkakamali ko. Ian, please.“ He pleaded.

Napapapikit

ako dahil sa mga sinabi niya.

Napatingin ako sa kaniya. He looked at me with pleasing eyes. Encouraging me to say something, to answer him back.

Hindi ako nagsalita. Hindi ko na alam.

Natatakot

akong sumagot.

[End of flashback]

Inumpog-umpog ko ’yung ulo ko sa malambot na unan.

I hate him!

Bakit ba kasi siya ganon?

First he would be as cold as ice, as if he doesn’t care. Then suddenly he would be like fire, raging and dangerous. Then he will surprisingly be as innocent as child, pleading at you to give what he wants.

Ang gulo niya. Nakakalito siya! He’s making things difficult and complicated.

I thought he want me gone. Bakit ngayon sasabihin niya na mahal pa rin niya ako? Akala ko ba he choose to believe others more than I, but why is he making regrets now? Why is he making my mind and heart go wild? Why is he making my life so miserable!

Bakit ba kasi ang liit ng mundo para pagtagpuin kami muli?

I know I’m whining and mumbling things that I should not worry. But everything makes me bothered. You can’t blame me!

I’m trying to build myself again. I’m trying to clear all the bad memories I had. I’m trying to be the best version of myself. Could you blame me for turning Akie down? I could be a masochist, but my heart couldn’t stand a single pain anymore.

Natatakot akong sumugal dahil baka mangyari lang kung anong nangyari sa aming dalawa noon. Natatakot ako na baka masaktan ko siya, at masaktan niya ako. Natatakot ako sa mga posibilidad na maaring mangyari.

I know it wouldn’t be the same. We could start from the beginning. From the start. But having U-turn could take  much time.

I’m afraid I might lost myself on the track once more.

I’m afraid to trust the power of love. Love only brings pain. Love only brings dumbness. Love is a state of feeling that could jeopardize you.

So how am I supposed to answer his question?

Chances…

I knew that everyone deserves chances. Even sinners had given the chance to be saved. But is it worth the chance? Does heart supposed to be hurt again?

Ewan ko! Naguguluhan na ako. Hindi na ako makapag-isip nang matino.

I’m having hard time to comprehend everything that Akie said.

Pero aaminin ko. There’s still this part of me craving for him. Noong hinalikan niya ako kagabi, I felt the warmth that I never felt for years. I felt the protection that it gives. Naramdaman ko ’yung pangungulila ng mga kaluluwa namin. This is as if they’re looking for their halves.

Plus his eyes, the look in his eyes is calling me. A light in a dark place that calls out my name. A bright light that’s keeping me intact and it’s actually driving me insane. How is it possible that his mere eyes could bring vast effect to me?!

Argh! Now I’m on the side of giving him a chance?! What the hell, Ian?

“Shit!” I whispered. “Ang gulo naman ng ganito!” I almost screamed.

Sinabutan ko ’yung sarili ko at pumagulong-gulong sa kama.

Damn it.

Damn it.

Damn it.

Damn it.

What should I do now?

“Ahh!” Gulat akong napaupo sa kama nang biglang pumasok si Kevin sa kwarto ko.

Nasa VIP rooms kami ni Kevin. Gumastos talaga ang school para sa mga exchange students nila. Kaya ’eto, may sarili kaming kwarto. Pero nasa iisang hotel reservation lang kami. Mas malaki lang ito ng kaunti sa karaniwan.

Bahagya siyang tumawa. Pinanliitan ko naman siya ng mata dahil sa ginawa niyang panggugulat. He should’ve knocked! There’s a door, Kevin. There’s a fucking door!

I just rolled my eyes. Bakit ba ’di pa ako nasanay, eh ganito naman lagi ’tong isang ’to. He love to tease me.

“Mukhang malalim ’yang iniisip mo ah? Care to share?” He gently said.

“You noticed.” I smiled weakly.

“Of course I will. I’ve been with you for seven years, alam ko kung may problema at gumugulo sa ’yo.” He brightly smiled. “It’s pretty obvious too just on how you rolled back and forth.” He teased. Namula naman ako. Nakakahiya!

“Is it about Akie?” Kevin uttered. He took the space beside me and sat there while looking at me suspiciously.

Napahinto ako. A-Alam niya?

“Hahaha. Sorry, narinig ko kasi kayo kagabi bago ko kayo tawagin.” Napakamot siya sa batok at bahagyang napayuko.

Yeah, right. Kevin is the one who saved me from that awkward situation. If it’s not for him, hindi ko alam kung paano ako makakaalis sa ipit na sitwasyon na ’yon.

But he heard everything.

“Sorry if I eavesdropped your business. It’s not my intention—”

“It’s okay, I know you’re not.” I stopped him.

There’s a minute of silence na namagitan sa aming dalawa.

“You still love him, don’t you?” He suddenly asked.

Hindi ako nakasagot agad.

Napatingin ako sa kaniya. Kinagat ko ’yung dila ko. Ayaw kong pag-usapan ’to dahil alam kong may gusto sa akin si Kevin. I don’t want to say something that might hurt him.

“Uhm…” Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan.

“It’s okay, Ian.” Tumingin siya sa akin at ngumiti. Tila sinasabi na ayos lang sa kaniya na pag-usapan.

“You don’t have to concern yourself for what I might feel.” He gently said. “I tried pero wala talaga eh, alam ko na hindi mo ako magugustuhan. But that’s fine, if you’re smiling, then I just have to keep on staring from afar.” He shrugged. “Seeing you smile genuinely is enough for me.” He smiled again.

Don’t be this kind!

“I-I’m sorry.” I lowered my head. Alam ko na hindi ko naman kasalanan na hindi magustuhan si Kevin, but isn’t it painful being rejected? I felt bad for him. Having unrequited love is such an awful part when you love someone.

Bakit ba kasi ’di ko siya magawang mahalin?

“Alam mo, ’yan ’yung nagustuhan ko sa ’yo, you are always thinking others before yourself. Ikaw ’tong laging umu-unawa. Ikaw ’tong laging nagpaparaya. You are always there to concern things that doesn’t concern you that much. Even if it brings you nothing but pain. I’m sure that’s what Akie loves you the most.” He complimented. Pero ramdam ko ’yung pait sa sinabi niya.

I sighed. “I’m really so—” He cut me off.

“But you don’t have to feel sorry for me.” Hinawakan niya ’yung balikat ko at iniharap ako sa kaniya. He lift my face to meet my eyes. Ngumiti siya. He’s such a man of smile.

“It’s me who loves you and it’s not your obligation to love me back. Masaya na ako na mahalin ka, kahit alam kong walang pag-asa.” He chuckled. Napakagat ako sa labi ko.

“Loving you is my choice and loving me back is just your option but don’t worry, it’s okay. It will always be okay, Ian.” Kevin assured. My lips quivered as tears threatened to escape from my eyes.

Kevin changed drastically lalo na noong napunta kami sa Canada. Nakakatuwa na nagbago siya. I felt bad for him tho, sana sumabay na lang sa pagbabago niya ’yung pagkawala ng nararamdaman niya para sa akin. Only if it’s possible then he wouldn’t need to feel this.

“I wish I was Akie.” Bigla niyang saad.

“H-Huh?” B-Bakit naman niya nasabi ’yon?

“I wish I was him.” Tumingin siya sa mga mata ko. “Para mahalin mo rin ako…” Tumagal ang pagtitinginan namin pero agad din niyang pinutol at humiga sa kama habang nakapatong ang ulo niya sa dalawang kamay, “… but Akie is Akie, no one can replace him, right?”

Hindi ako sumagot.

“There’s no point on denying it, Ian. It’s obvious.” He said casually.

“P-Paano mo naman nasabi?” Tanong ko. Heto na naman siya sa mga konklusiyon niya.

“Sa dinner kahapon, lagi kitang nahuhuli na nakatingin sa kaniya. Hindi mo ’yun napapansin pero naging halata dahil ilang beses kang tumingin sa direksiyon niya.” He smirked. I felt a wave of heat na kusang dumaloy paakyat sa pisngi ko.

Fuck, I did that? Nakakahiya!

“You’re always thinking of him, don’t you? Naguguluhan ka sa mga nalaman mo kahapon, tama ba?” Tanong niya.

Tumango naman ako bilang tugon.

“That’s because you love him. It’s that, you’re just afraid to take the risky ride of the boat of love.” He metaphorically said. “I know you’re afraid that past might happen again. But, Ian, your past won’t determine your future. What’s important is the present and on what lies at the end if it.” Malalim niyang pagpapatuloy.

“I-I don’t understand.” I stuttered.

Teka nga. Bakit ba namin ’to pinag-uusapan?

“Ian. I want you to realize that it’s not good to isolate yourself thinking that you don’t love Akie. I’ve seen your struggles all throughout these years. You’re not the same Ian na nakilala ko noon sa highschool. Naging malungkot ka at seryoso. Nawala ’yung pagiging isip bata mo. I’ve seen you cry a lot. Hindi mo man alam pero gabi-gabi kang nananaginip at umiiyak— at ayaw ko na muling makita ’yon.” Nanlaki ang mga mata ko dahil sa sinabi niya. Bumalik siya at inayos ang pagkakaupo sa kama.

“I’m jelous. It’s so frustrating na wala akong magawa para tulungan ka. I felt pathetic for not standing up to heal your wounds. Pero alam kong wala akong magagawa. Alam kong hindi ako ang gagamot sa puso mo.” He smiled weakly.

Nakinig lang ako sa mga sunod niya pang sinabi.

“You don’t have to be afraid on what might happen if you take the risk of giving Akie a another chance. Mahirap sumugal but I don’t want you to feel regrets once everything doesn’t goes accordingly to your will. I don’t want to see your tears again. I don’t want to hear your sobs again. I don’t want to see the pain in your eyes again because it only made me blame myself for doing nothing. I wanted to make you smile, laugh and be happy genuinely but it’s only Akie who can make that.”

“W-Why are you doing these? I thought—”

“Sabi ko naman sa ’yo. Ayoko na nakikita kang malungkot. Alam kong hindi ako ang taong makakapagpasaya sa ’yo, so I’m giving up. Mukhang ’di rin naman ako mananalo kontra kay Akie.” Seryoso niyang saad kasabay ang mahinang tawa.

“Kevin…” He’s such a thoughtful soul. I’m glad I found a friend like him. I wish he could find the one for him.

Niyakap ko siya nang mahigpit na sobra niyang ikinagulat.

Kevin’s words was so dense it gives impact to me. I’m glad he made me realize things.

“Thank you, Kevin. Thank you.” I whispered as he hugged me back.

“You’re welcome, Ian.” He whispered. Ilang minuto pa ay naghiwalay na kami sa pagkakayakap.

“Sige na, I’ll let you rest. Don’t stress yourself too much, Ian. But think…” ’Yon na ’yung huling sinabi ni Kevin bago siya tumayo at lumabas sa kwarto ko.

Napahiga ako at napahilamos ng mukha. I don’t know what to do. But one thing strucked inside my head.

“… You don’t have to be afraid on what might happen if you take the risk of giving Akie a another chance. Mahirap

sumugal

but I don’t want you to feel regrets once everything doesn’t goes accordingly to your will.“

Regrets…

I just hope I won’t regret my decision.

I was about to rest dahil sobra akong napagod kagabi and it’s only 10 in the morning. Pero narinig ko naman ’yung pagtunog ng doorbell sa main door ng room.

Hinintay ko na mawala ’yung tunog sa pagaakala na si Kevin na ang magbubukas ng pinto. Pero ’di tumigil ang pagtunog.

I groaned. Siguro naliligo ’yung isang ’yon, ’di bale ako na nga lang ang titingin.

Pagkalabas ko sa kwarto ay dumiretso na ako sa pinto at binuksan ito.

Nagulat ako nang si Alexis ang bumungad sa akin. May malaking ngiti ang nakapinta sa mukha nito. Pero mas nagulat ako sa lalaking nakapamulsa at seryosong nakatingin sa akin.

I gulped.

Hell, no. What’s the next drama ahead?

C H A P T E R - 047

Ian’s POV

Hinatak ako ni Alexis palabas sa hotel na tinutuluyan namin. He’s so excited to go for walk and to go somewhere here at Serene 771. Napailing na lang ako sa kung paano niya ako napilit na sumama.

“Kuya Ian!” Alexis exclaimed. Agad itong kumapit at

napayakap

sa

bewang

ko. I was actually startled by his sudden attack pero napatawa ako dahil sa pakiramdam ko ay may makulit at nakababata akong kapatid.

“Alex, why are you here?” Lumuhod ako para maging

pantay

kami.

“Let’s play po, kuya Ian. Please. Kuya Akie doesn’t want to go and play with me eh.” Pagsusumbong naman nito. Tumingin ako kay Akie pero iritable lang itong nakatingin sa kung saan. Mukhang napilitan pang samahan si Alexis.

Napangiti ako. I figured out that it’s part of Akie’s job to look for Alexis. Kahit kasi kagabi sa dinner ay si Akie ang

pinagbantay

ni sir Luis dito. I couldn’t imagine Akie babysitting Alexis.

Hahahaha .

“Bakit po kayo

natatawa

?“ Inosenteng tanong ni Alexis.

Napalakas

ba ’yung

pagtawa

ko?

“A-Ah… Natutuwa kasi ako na

naisipan

mo akong puntahan.“ Palusot ko.

“Really? So we can play? Yehey!” Paunang

selebrasyon

nito.

Shit.

“Uh…” Napatingin ako kay Akie at nahuli ko siya na nakatingin rin sa akin.

Nagtagpo

ang mga mata namin at ewan ko, pero I know I should rest pero iba ang

isinagot

ko.

“Sure. I’ll go, let’s play.” Ngumiti ako sa bata.

Tuwang

tuwa

naman siyang

nagtatatalon

at agad akong niyakap. Dumako ang direksiyon ng mga mata ko sa

pwesto

ni Akie. Hindi na siya nakatingin sa akin. Ewan ko, pero I waited for his reaction.

I smiled as I saw Akie’s lip slipping upward even at its slightest.

Kaya heto ako ngayon, kasama ko ’yung dalawa at halos maubos na ang tatlong oras sa bawat arcade na makikita namin. We also played the basketball game. Well, Akie is the one who played ’coz he’s a varsity player before. Tuwang-tuwa naman si Alexis dahil marami siyang nakuhang ticket dahil dito.

“Wooah! Kuya Akie, you’re awesome!” Papuri ng bata. Kita ko naman ang pasimpleng pag-angat ng labi nito.

Sus, ayaw pang ngumiti. Pero aaminin ko, ang cute niya kapag pinipilit niyang maging masungit sa harap ni Alexis. Bigla itong tumingin sa akin after he noticed that I was directly looking at him. I was startled after niya akong mahuli na mukhang nakatangang nakangiti sa kaniya.

“A-Ah, Alexis, t-tara na, mukhang marami na ’yang ticket mo. Pwede na natin ’yan mapapalitan.” Tawag ko kay Alexis para tapusin ang awkwardness sa pagitan namin ni Akie. Narinig ko pa na may binulong si Akie. But it was inaudible. Ipinagsawalang bahala ko na lang.

“Okay po.” Kumapit sa kamay ko si Alexis at dumiretso na kami sa counter kung saan namin pwedeng maipapalit ’yung mga ticket na nakuha namin.

I handed them the ticket at binilang ito. Sumakto naman ito sa bilang na kinakailangan para makuha namin ’yung gustong laruang espada ni Alexis.

Iniabot ng babae ang laruang espada kay Alexis at tuwang-tuwa naman itong nagpasalamat. Pagkakuha na pagkakuha niya rito ay agad siyang nagpanggap bilang isang samurai na tila may kalaban. Natawa na lang ako sa ikinilos nito. Si Akie naman ay nakapamulsa lang at tila walang pakialam sa paligid. Nasa harap namin ito habang panay ang pagwasiwas nito sa espada. Katabi ko naman si Akie. Huminto si Alexis sa paglalaro at hinarap ang bantay.

“Thank you, kuya Akie! You’re the best!” Yumakap ito sa mga binti ni Akie. Bakas sa mukha ni Akie ang pagka-iritable pero tumango pa rin ito.

Napangiti naman ako. Nahuli niya ako ulit na nakatingin sa kaniya kaya agad akong umiwas ng tingin.

Fuck. Para akong tanga na laging nakatanaw sa isang maganda at malawak na tanawin.

“Kuya Ian, let’s play that one!” Turo ni Alexis sa isang arcade machine na tila may hook na ginagamit upang makuha ang stuffed toy. Sumang-ayon naman ako sa kaniya.

Minsan lang naman ’to. Lumapit kami sa makina at naghulog ng token. I tried to play the machine pero hindi ko makuha ang laruan.

May daya ba ang isang ’to?

Nakakainis. Hindi ako makakuha. Nakangiwi akong tumingin kay Alexis at sinabing iba na lang ang laruin.

“Alexis, hindi kaya ni kuya Ian ’tong isang ’to eh. You want to try some other arcade games?” Sumimangot naman ang bata matapos kong sabihin ’yon.

“Okay, I’ll try once ag—” Napahinto ako nang maramdam ko na may tao sa likod ko. Narinig ko na naghulog ito ng token at naglaro habang nasa harap niya ako. So, basically I was pinned between him and the machine. Halos yakapin na ako nito dahil sa pagkakaipit ko. Idinkit pa nito ang sarili sa akin kaya naman mas naramdaman ko ang bigat niya. I could feel his breath fanning my nape. Naamoy ko na rin ’yung matapang at panlalaki nitong pabango.

Bakit ang

bango

niya? Nagdulot ito ng pamumula ng aking pisngi.

Hindi ko namalayan na nakuha na pala niya ’yung laruan sa loob ng machine. Umalis ito sa likod ko at kiuha ang laruan sa ilalim na gilid ng makinarya.

Akie stood there with his one hand engrained on his pants’ pocket while his other hand holds the stuffed toy. It was extended right into my face.

It was a cute stuffed puppy.

Kinuha ko ito mula sa kaniya.

“T-Thank you.” I blushed because of what he did.

Damn! How could someone cause you tingles and blushes with a mere action?

“Kuya Ian, let’s buy some foods! I’m hungry na.” Madramang saad ng bata humawak pa ito sa maliit nitong tiyan para ipakitang gutom na siya. Natawa na lang ako dahil sa ikinilos niya.

Wala naman kaming nagawa ni Akie kung ’di sundin ang gusto ng bata.

“There’s a small shop of ice cream here at ship. Nadaanan ko ’yon last time. Do you want me to buy you some, Alexis?” Alok ko sa bata.

“Yes! Yes! Please, kuya Ian. Please.” Pagsusumamo nito. Hawak hawak ko siya habang nakasunod naman sa amin si Akie. Wala pa rin itong reaksiyon hanggang sa ngayon. Hindi ko na lang siya muna pinansin at baka wala ito sa mood. Tsaka ko na lang siguro siya kakausapin tungkol sa naging desisyon ko.

“Okay, okay. What do you want?” Natatawa kong tanong dahil sa kakulitan ng isang ’to.

“Uhm… Just the same as what kuya Akie wants.” He shrugged. Napatingin naman ako sa kinatatayuan ni Akie. Nakapamulsa lang ito habang bagot na bagot na sa ginagawa naming pamamasyal. Masiyado kasing malaki ang cruise ship na ito kaya naman kahit sino siguro ay mapapagod at mababagot.

“Kuya Akie. Tell kuya Ian what you want. I want the same flavor. Please!” Pagsusumamo nito sa bantay.

“Alexis, I don’t eat ice creams.” Walang gana nitong saad. Ang kj talaga ng isang ’to.

“What? You don’t love ice creams? But kuya Akie—”

“Alexis, h’wag ka ngang makulit.”

“Pagbigyan mo na ’yung bata.” Bigla kong saad. Napadako naman ’yung tingin nito sa akin. Bakas sa mukha nito na bahagya siyang nagulat marahil ay ito ang unang pagkakataon  na kausapin ko siya simula pa kanina. Kunot-noo itong tumingin sa akin. Sinuklian ko lamang siya ng ngiti. May binulong pa ito pero ’di ko na narinig pa.

“Tsk. Fine.” Pagsang-ayon nito.

“Yey!” Napatawa na lang ako nang sabay kaming magdiwang ni Alexis. Wala namang nagbago sa reaksiyon ni Akie. Nakabusangot pa rin ’to.

He’s not like this. He will smile along with you kapag kasama mo siya. Tatawa, mang-aasar, mang-iinis. Pero nagbago na talaga siya. Sobrang nagbago siya. At hindi ko hahayaan na maging ganito na lang siya.

Handa na akong

ibalik

ang dating Akie Villaflor. I’ll give you the chance you’re asking.

Tama si Kevin, mahirap sumugal, pero ayaw kong magsisi sa bandang dulo. Kung hindi man maganda ang kahihinatnan nito ay ayos lang. Tatanggapin ko. Hindi na ako matatakot. Hindi na ako magpapaka-hipokrito.

Gusto kong makita muli ’yung pilyong ngisi, totoong ngiti at totoong pagkatao ni Akie. Kung totoo man na mahal pa rin niya ako, pagbubuksan ko siya ng pinto para papasukin. Mukhang hindi lang naman siya ang hindi pa nakaka-move on. I’m just an oblivious coward. Oblivious to my feelings and coward to admit that I am still on the same ground as his.

I am still in love with this Marino. I am still in love with Akie.

“ Kuya Ian! Kuya Ian!“

Crap! Masiyado ba akong naging lutang?

“Ah, eh, b-bakit?”

“Let’s go. I’m hungry na po.” He said. Buhat buhat na pala siya ni Akie. Tila naman nawala na ’yung bad mood nito.

“A-Ah, o s-sige.” Nauna na akong naglakad at sumunod naman silang dalawa.

Ian, umayos ka nga.

Nawawala

ka na naman sa sarili mo dahil kay Akie.

Ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko at sandaling huminga nang malalim. I should relax. Hindi ko pa inaamin kay Akie ’yung desisyon ko pero halos hindi na ako makakilos nang maayos.

Argh! Tangina. Fuck you, Akie, for making me like this! Fuck you for making my stomach tingle. Fuck you for making me love you all over again.

Great ngayon naman ako itong halos baliw na baliw na ewan. Nakakagago talaga ang pag-ibig. Napa-iling na lang ako.

Fabbrica

Di

Gelati

. Basa ko sa pangalan ng ice cream shop.

Pumasok na kami sa sinasabi kong store for ice cream. This shop is freaking insane. The exterior and interior design is pleasing in naked eyes. The pastel colors complimented all the furniture na meron sila. Hindi nakakapagtaka kung bakit sila nasa loob ng isang mamahalin at kilalang cruise ship line. Plus, the flavors they have here is freaking numerous. May iba pa nga akong nakita na halos ngayon ko lang na-encounter. This is unbelievable. I thought to myself.

“Hello, sir. What do you want to order?” Tanong ng isang babae na halos nasa edad lang namin. Pinay ito. Uhm, well, of course because this is a Filipino’ cruise ship.

“Uhm. One box of Hawaiian Special Pizza. One Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough and two Moose Tracks, please.” Pagturo ko sa napiling flavor ng dalawa. 

“Okay. Anything to order, s… sir?” Tumingin ito kay Akie. Halos lumuha naman ’yung mata ng babae nang makita ’yung lalaking katabi ko.

“Nothing to order.” Simpleng saad ni Akie. Tsk. Napakasuplado.

“A-Ah, o-okay, sir. Just wait for a m-moment.” Nauutal nitong sagot. May tinawag ito at doon inabot ang listahan ng flavors na in-oder namin.

Bumalik siya ng tingin sa aming dalawa. Napadako siya ng tingin sa kargang bata ni Akie.

“Hello, pretty boy.”

“Hello po.” Nakangiting pagbati ni Alexis.

“How old are you?”

“Seven po.” Inosenteng saad ng bata.

“Aww. You’re so cute.” The girl drooled.

“Thank you. You’re cute, too.” Saad ni Alexis. Namula naman ’yung babae dahil sa pambobola ng bata.

Yumakap si Alexis kay Akie dahil tila pagod na ’to dahil sa kaninang ginawa namin. Isinandal nito ang ulo sa balikat ng bantay.

Humarap naman sa akin ’yung cashier. “Nakakamangha po kayo.” Bigla nitong turan.

Napakunot-noo naman ako. “H-Huh?” Naguguluhan kong tanong.

“Ang galing niyo pong magulang. Mukhang nakapagpalaki po kayo ng mabait at matalinong anak. Hindi po ba mahirap mag-alaga even you’re both guys?” Nagpalit-palit siya ng tingin sa aming dalawa ni Akie.

“Swerte niyo po ang gwapo at ang hot ng asawa niyo. Mukhang mabait pa.” Kinikilig na bulong nito sa akin. That was a mere whisper but I could assure you that it was audible enough not to be heard by someone just right beside me!

Nanlaki naman ang mga mata ko matapos makuha ang gusto niyang iparating.

“W-We’re… a-ano… ka-kasi…” Hindi ko mabuo ’yung gusto kong sabihin.

“It’s okay, sir. I love gays and I support them. You don’t have to be shy.” Pamumursigi nito. Ngumiti pa ito nang nakakaloko at intinaas ang kilay na waring kinukumbinsi ako na magsalita.

“A-Ano… Hi-Hindi ko siya a-asawa.” Nahihiya kong sagot sa babae. Yumuko ako upang itago ang pamumula ng mukha ko.

“Oh my go… Sorry. Akala ko kasi mag-asawa kayo ’coz you look as if you’re together.” Paghingi niya ng pasensiya. Tumingin ako kay Akie at kita ko naman ang ngisi na nakapinta sa mga labi nito.

Shit. Ito ’yung mga gusto niya, ’yung nauutal ako dahil sa hiya! Damn you, Akie.

“Uhm… I-It’s okay.” Pagbaliwala ko sa kahihiyang ibinigay niya.

“So, you’re not in a relationship neither? And… You’re gay, right?”

I silently nodded

“Hmm. So that means you are single.” She leaned in the counter at inusisa ako. “Well, if you’re gay and you’re single, then maybe…” Pilyo nitong pang-uusisa.

Nahihiya naman akong tumango.

“I’m Shaira. I think you’re cute. What’s your name?” Tanong nito. Is she a lesbian?

“Let’s go find a seat, let’s wait for our orders there.” The deep and masculine voice of Akie interrupted Shaira’s words.

“Kindly wait for the line, sir. That’s how–”

“Hindi mo ba naintindihan? I said we’ll wait for the fucking order at our seats. So do your damn job. Kung hindi ako nagkakamali this is a cashier counter. You’re supposed to get someone’s order and not their attention. Be an employee and not a hoe.” Walang prenong saad ni Akie. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko dahil sa sinabi niya sa babae. Napaatras naman sa kinatatayuan ang kahera dahil sa hindi niya inaasahang sasabihin ni Akie.

“Akie, I don’t think—” Sasabihan ko pa sana na hindi siya dapat ganoon kung magsalita pero napahinto ako dahil kita ko sa mata ni Akie ang inis at galit.

Ano na naman bang problema ng isang ’to? Ano na namang ikinaiinit ng ulo niya?

“Ah, Shaira, sorry for what he said. He didn’t mean to say those mean words. Please understand.” I half smiled.

“It’s okay, but can you lend me your number so—”

“Sinabi kong tara na eh!” Hindi na ako nakasagot pa kay Shaira dahil agad akong hinawakan ni Akie sa pulsuhan at mabilis ngunit may ingat akong hinila papunta sa lamesa katabi ng malaking bintana.

Ibinaba nito si Alexis sa isang upuan at umupo katabi nito. Ibinababa rin nito ang laruang espada sa gilid ng bata. Umupo naman ako sa harapan niya.

“Ano bang problema mo? Bakit mo naman sinabihan ng ganon ’yung tao?” Naiinis kong tanong. Wala namang ginagawa ’yung tao.

Hindi siya sumagot.

“Ak—”

“Tangina, Ian, pwede ba?” Pagpipigil nitong sigaw. Mabuti na lang at busy si Alexis sa ginagawang paglalaro sa nakuha nitong laruan.

“Hindi kita maintindihan. Hindi ka naman ginagawan ng masama nu—”

“Nagseselos ako, Ian. Tangina. Hindi ba halata? O sinasadya mo kasi natutuwa ka na nakikita mo akong nagseselos?” He ranted.

Napakunot ako ng noo.

“You’re being impulsive, Akie. And why would I be happy if you’re being jealous?” Naguguluhan kong tanong.

“Dahil alam mong may gusto pa rin ako sa ’yo. Pero heto, ginagago mo lang ako kasi alam mong naghahabol ako sa ’yo.” He’s fuming out of anger.

“Alam mo, Akie. Walang kwenta ’yang pinagsasabi mo.” Mahinahon ko pa ring saad.

Tumayo ito at lumapit sa kina-u-upuan ko. Hinila ako nito patayo.

“T-Teka, anong gagawin mo?” I tried to took my arms out of his grasp pero mahigpit itong nakakapit sa akin.

“Alexis. Just stay here. Sasamahan ko lang ’yung kuya Ian mo sa banyo.” Wala pa mang sagot si Alexis ay hinatak na ako ni Akie papunta sa banyo ng ice cream shop.

Pagkarating namin ay saktong walang tao kaya agad niyang isinara ’yung pinto. Iniharap niya ako sa kaniya at hinarangan ’yung pinto.

“Walang kwenta? Tama ka, walang kwenta kasi nakakagago na alam kong wala naman akong karapatan magselos, pero nagseselos ako. You’re right, it doesn’t make sense. It’s all fucking nonsense, Ian.” His eyes were burning and his nose were flaring. A bomb that is about to explode.

“Pwede ba, Akie, bumalik na lang tayo sa labas at baka anong mangyari kay Alexis.” I tried to pass him pero pinigilan niya ako.

“Puta naman, Ian. Heto ka na naman. Iniiwasan mo naman ba ako? Wala ka na bang ibang kayang gawin kung ’di iwasan ako? You don’t know the restraints na meron ako kanina not to slam my lips on yours. You keep on looking at my directions and I don’t fucking know if that means something. Sinasadya mo ba lahat? Ano ’to plinano mo?” Tumalikod ito at humarap sa pinto ng banyo. Akmang susuntukin na niya ito pero pinigilan niya ang sarili.

“Tangina naman, Ian. Nababaliw na ako. Para na akong gagong umaasa. Naghihintay ako na parang puta. Nagmumukha na akong tanga. Binaba ko na nga ’yung pride ko para sa ’yo. Tapos ganito pa gagawin mo? Nakakagago!” Bulyaw niya sa akin.

“Alam mo, siguro nga hindi mo na talaga ako kayang mapatawad sa nagawa ko. So, tell me, Ian. Just tell me, may pag-asa pa ba ako? Nakakasira ng bait ’tong pinapakita mo, Ian. Sabihin mo lang para ’di ako nagmumukhang tanga na nagseselos, naghahabol, nagpapakaba—”

Andami mo namang sinasabi.

I tiptoed and pulled his collar down. I locked our lips. Alam kong nagulat siya sa ginawa ko dahil hindi siya agad nakapag-react. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him more. Napakapit naman ito sa bewang ko at dahan dahan akong tinulak hanggang sa tumama ang likod ko sa malamig na pader. Mas diniin niya ang pagkakahalik. Siya na ang naging dominante sa pagkakataong ito. Hinayaan ko siya at nagparaya.

“Mmngh” I moaned as Akie slipped his  tongue to explore the inside of my mouth. Ramdam ko na hinahanap niya ’yung dila ko kaya hinayaan ko siya na gawin ang gusto. His hot and slippery tongue gives tickles down to my stomach. Naramdaman ko rin ang mga palad nito na dumadako sa pang-upo ko.

I was moaning like a mess when he suddenly halted his actions. Nagtataka akong tumingin sa kaniya. May pag-aalinlangan sa mga mata nito.

A-Ayaw na ba niya?

“Tangina, Ian. Sabihin mong totoo ’to. Sabihin mong hindi ako nananaginip. Tell me this isn’t another crap. That you really meant kissing me. Sabihin mong ito na ’yung sagot mo.” He said. His eyes became glossy and the courage was there. As if telling me to give him the answer he want.

I smiled and give him another peck. I blushed because of what I did. Sa tuwing kasama ko si Akie nagagawa ko ’yung mga bagay na hindi ko naman kadalasang nagagawa. Nagkakaroon ako ng lakas ng loob na gawin ’yon dahil alam kong si Akie ang kasama ko. Wala akong nararamdamang takot.

Marahan akong tumango.

“Seems like you’re not the only one who’s still on the same ground.” Ngumiti ako. “Sorry for being so hard to get… and being a coward dahil nagpakamandhid ako sa tunay na nararamdaman ko. But, I am sure I’m ready to take the risk. I’ll give you another chance, Akie. Right now, all we got are chances. All that matters are cha—”

“Shh. Sapat na sa akin kung sasabihin mong mahal mo ako. Can you say that?” Ngumisi ito na nakakaloko.

Ah, akala mo ikaw lang ang kayang

mangpikon

, huh?

Hinila kong muli ang kaniyang batok para ilapit ang mukha niya sa akin. I looked at his eyes bago ako bumulong.

“Ano ka sinuswerte? Paghirapan mo ’yon. Hahahaha” Tinulak ko siya at binuksan na ang pinto.

Namula naman ako nang sobra nang maramdaman ko na may humawak sa pwetan ko.

“Sige ba, Ian. Paghihirapan ko ’to.” May pilyo itong ngiti nang panliitan ko siya ng mata.

“Pervert!” Namumula kong singhal sa kaniya. Pero lihim akong napangiti dahil ngayon ka na lang ulit nakita ang personalidad na ganon ni Akie.

Lumabas na kami ni Akie at dumiretso na sa lamesa kung saan namin iniwan si Alexis pero ganon na lang ang pagkabog ng dibdib ko nang madatnan namin ang upuan na bakante. Tanging laruang espada lamang ang naroon.

Tumingin ako kay Akie at nakita ko rin sa mga mata niya ang kaba.

…..

Note: Hello. Gusto ko pong magpasalamat sa lahat po ng sumusuporta sa istorya na ito. Pasensiya na po kung masiyadong natagalan ’yung update. Hindi ko po kasi mahanap ’yung will ko to write. Inaatake ako ng writer’s block and anxiety. So mahirap sumulat kapag ganoong sitwasyon ang kinakaharap mo. Sana maintindihan niyo po. Ayon lang po, salamat. Mahal ko kayooo!

C H A P T E R - 048

Ian’s

POV

“Ano? Anong ibig niyong sabihing nawawala?” Sir Luis vented. Nagtataka itong tumingin kay Akie at dumako ang tingin nito sa akin.

“P-Pasensiya na po, sir Luis. Ka… Kasalanan po namin. Naging pabaya po kami sa pagbabantay kay Alexis…” I fidgeted my fingers out of shame.

“… Pero tutulong po ako sa paghahanap. Responsable rin po ako sa nangya—”

“It’s okay.” Bumuntong hininga ito at bahagyang napapikit. Hinilamusan nito ang mukha gamit ang mga palad. I could tell that sir Luis is frustrated as is. Nakakahiya dahil dumagdag pa sa problema niya ang pagkawala ng anak. “Just wait a second.” Tumalikod siya at tila ba may tinawagan.

Napayuko ako dahil sa kahihiyan. I could feel the heat forming at the side of my eyes. I blinked to stop my self from bursting into tears.

It’s my fault.

Kung hindi lang sana kami tumagal sa loob ng banyo hindi mawawala si Alexis. Bakit ko pa kasi nagawang halikan si Akie kung pwede ko naman sanang sabihin na binibigyan ko na siya ng pagkakataon. Ang tanga-tanga ko. Hindi ko na sana pinatagal pa ’yung pag-uusap namin dahil alam ko naman na may bata na naghihintay sa amin.

Ngayon, nawawala si Alexis. Saan namin hahanapin ’yung batang ’yon eh halos libutin na namin ’yung paligid ng lugar kung saan kami pumunta. Halos tatlong oras na kaming naghanap sa buong paligid. Pero ’di naman namin siya makita. Parang bula na nawala, halos wala ring marka kung saan siya nagpunta.

Kasalanan ko ’to, kung naging responsable lang sana ako. Hindi sana mawawala si Alexis.

Nag-aalala ako sa batang ’yon. Mamaya kung ano na ’yung nangyari sa kaniya. Mamaya napaano na siya. Paano kung may nakakita sa kaniya tapos kinuha siya. Paano kung—

Naramdaman ko na lang ’yung malaking kamay ni Akie na pumisil sa mga nanginginig kong kamay.

“Stop overthinking. It’s not your fault.” Akie whispered. Tumingin ako sa kaniya at nakangiti itong tumitig sa akin.

Pinahid ko naman gamit ng palad ko ang luha na nagbadyang tumakas mula sa mga mata ko.

“It is, Akie. I knew I should’ve checked Alexis by the time we left hi–”

“Shh, Ian. I said don’t overthink. You don’t have to worry. We’ll find Alexis in no time. Just please don’t blame yourself.” Iniharap ako ni Akie sa kaniya. Hinawakan nito ang magkabila kong pisngi at bahagyang yumuko upang halikan ako sa noo. Ngumisi ito nang makita ang pamumula ng magkabilang pisngi ko.

“Err… Ehem!” Rinig ko ang pagtikhim ni sir Luis. Mukhang nakita niya ’yung ginawa ni Akie. Mas lalo tuloy akong nahiya. Pero itong si mokong hinila pa ako palapit sa kaniya at inilagay ang kamay niya sa bewang ko at inihapit ang katawan niya para mas lalo kaming magkadikit.

Tinitigan ko siya nang masama pero tanging ngisi lang ang isinukli nito sa akin. Mukhang nag-e-enjoy siya ah.

Ayos talaga, nakuha pa niya akong

asarin

sa gitna ng

pag

aalala

ko kay Alexis. At sa harap pa talaga ni sir Luis, ah! Ang husay mo talaga.

Inapakan ko ’yung sapatos niya at nakita ko ang mukha niya na tila nagpipigil na sumigaw nang malakas. I heard him saying ‘fuck’ in a silent whisper. Tanging ngiti lang naman ang iginanti ko sa kaniya na tila sinasabing ‘ako ang nanalo sa ating dalawa’.

“Tinawagan ko na ang ilan sa mga tauhan ko. Sinabi ko na hanapin si Alexis sa lugar kung saan kayo nanggaling.” Saad ni Sir Luis. Lumapit ito sa amin at muling nagsalita.

“H’wag niyo nang alalahanin pa ’yung nangyari kay Alexis. Mahahanap din natin ’yung batang ’yon. I’m sure he’s just somewhere around the area. Tauhan ko na ang bahala sa paghahanap sa anak ko. Sa ngayon, gusto kong kausapin si Akie.” Tumingin ito sa direksiyon ni Akie. Tila seryoso ang pag-uusapan nila kaya nagprisenta na akong lumabas sa VIP room. Nakakahiya naman kung makikinig ako sa usapan nila.

“U-Uhm… Lalabas na lang po muna ako.” I turned the knob para makalabas na sana sa kwarto nang biglang bumungad sa akin ang bulto ng isang matangkad na lalaki, kasintangkad nito sila sir Luis at Akie. Pamilyar siya sa akin dahil alam kong nakita ko na siya sa dinner party noon.

Tinignan muna ako nito bago tumuloy at pumasok sa loob ng kuwarto.

“Captain, there is still no sign of Alexis around the said area.” He reported. Tumango naman si sir Luis bilang tugon.

“Sinigurado niyo bang napuntahan niyo lahat ng lugar?” Sir Luis asked frustratingly.

“Yes, Captain. We also checked the CCTV of that resto but unfortunately, it was broken. The last record for the footage were missing, too.” Sagot ng lalaki.

“Sige, Wilson, ipagpatuloy niyo na lang muna ang paghahanap kay Alexis. Let me know kapag may bago. Susubukan ko ring tawagan ang Kapitan ng barko na ’to. Baka matulungan nila tayo.” Utos ni sir Luis. Yumuko naman ang lalaki bago tunalikod at dumiretso sa pintuan kung saan ako patuloy na nakatayo. Huminto ito sa mismong harap ko bago at titigan sa mata. Napaatras ako nang bahagya dahil sa hindi ko malamang rason. P-Pakiramdam ko merong hindi tama sa kaniya.

Seryoso lang itong nakatingin sa akin nang bigla itong ngumiti. I saw his sharp canine that glistened as the room’s light flashes across his teeth. His eyes screams mischief.

Yumuko ito bago diretsong lumabas patungo sa hallway palabas sa hotel na tinutuluyan nila Akie.

W-Wilson?

Sino siya? Bakit ganon ’yung titig at ngiti niya.

I shook my head to dust off those questions. Hindi ko naman na siguro concern kung sino siya. Baka ganon lang talaga ’yung personalidad niya.

Lumabas na rin ako sa kwarto kung saan naiwan sila Akie at sir Luis.

Ano naman kaya ang

pag

uusapan

ng dalawa?

Hays. Siguradong tungkol ’yon sa pagkawala ni Alexis. Nahihiya rin tuloy ako kay Akie dahil alam kong siya ulit ang malalagot sa nangyari. Mabuti pa ay bibili na lang muna ako ng makakain para sa lalaking ’yon, hindi na kasi namin natuloy pang kainin ’yung mga pagkain na binili namin sa Fabbrica Di Gelati dahil sa paghahanap namin kay Alexis. Sigurado akong gutom na ang isang ’yon.

I was walking along the hallway paliko sa corridor kung saan naroroon ’yung elevator nang bumangga ako sa pader– h-hindi, isang tao pala. Muntikan na sana akong matumba pero nasalo ako nito. Umayos ako nang pagkakatayo at umatras para yumuko upang humingi ng tawad.

“P-Pasensiya na po. Hindi ko po kayo nakita…”

“Ayos lang. Ayos lang. Teka, Ian, right?” Tanong ng lalaki.

“U-Uhm…?”

“I’m Lieutenant Pascual. Henry na lang. Isa ako sa mga tauhan ni Captain Herera.” Pagpapakilala ng isang gwapo at matipunong lalaki. Nakita ko na rin siya sa dinner party pero hindi ko pa siya naka-usap.

“I’m Ian Salvador. Ian na lang. Pasensiya na kung nabangga kita ah. Hindi kasi kita nakita.”

“Of course I know you.” Bulong nito.

“What?” Tanong ko dahil hindi ko masiyadong narinig ang sinabi niya.

“A-Ang sabi ko, ayos lang ’yon, ano ka ba. Tsaka, hindi ba ikaw ’yung kaibigan ni Akie noong high school?” He suddenly asked out of the blue.

Napakunot ako ng noo.

“A-Ano kasi, kaibigan rin ako ni Akie. Ako ang isa sa mga tinuturing niyang matalik na kaibigan sa grupo. Hindi kasi kita naka-usap noong dinner party…” Itinaas ko naman ang isa sa mga kilay ko na wari’y tinatanong kung anong gusto niyang iparating,

“… At gusto ko sanang makilala pa ’yung mga kaibigan ng kaibigan ko. Kung ayos lang sa ’yo…” Ngumiti ito nang pagkalaki-laki na tila abot hanggang tenga. Kumamot pa ito sa batok na tila ba nahihiya. Napatawa naman ako dahil sa ginawa niya.

Wow! Hindi ko inaasahan na may magiging kaibigan pala si Akie .

Oo, alam kong maraming kaibigan si Akie noong highschool. Pero hindi ko inakala na sa ugali niya ngayon ay magkakaroon pa siya ng kaibigan. I could tell that he isolated himself away from others by the attitude of his. So it’s impossible to befriend Akie if he’s with that nasty and hostile attitude. Maybe this man is one of a kind. It’s not easy to make friends with Akie tho. Sigurado akong marami siyang hinarap na bulyaw, sigaw at mura bago niya maging kaibigan si Akie. Hahahaha.

If that so, then…

“Sure. Nice to meet you!” I enthusiastically stretched my hands to greet him with a handshake. “… Just for formality.” I giggled. Namula naman ’yung mga pisngi niya sa ’di malamang dahilan. Nag-iwas ito ng tingin at tinanggap ang kamay ko at pormal na nakipag-kamay.

“N-Nice to m-meet you, too.” Napakamot pa ito sa batok habang nakikipag-kamay. Ang weird niya pero nakakatuwa siya. Halatang makulit at masiyahin. Kaya niya siguro nakuha ang loob ni Akie at naging kaibigan ito.

“Friends?” I smiled.

“F-Friends.” Pagsang-ayon nito.

I grinned as he nodded.

“Ang ganda mo nga talaga. Hindi nakakapagtaka kung bakit ka nagustuhan ni Akie.” Bulong nito. Hindi masiyadong malinaw ’yung pagkakasaad niya rito kaya hindi ko masiyadong naintindihan..

“Huh?” Ani ko.

“A-Ah, wala. Saan ka nga pala pupunta?” Pagbaling nitong tanong.

“Ah, bibili sana ako ng pagkain.” Kumapa ako sa bulsa ko pero wala akong naramdamang pitaka. Tsaka ko naalala na naiwan ko pala kay Akie ’yon noong hinahanap namin si Alexis.

I sighed. Tsk. Sa dulo pa man din ng hallway ang kwarto ni sir Luis.

“Uh, Henry, sorry ah, pero may kailangan lang akong kunin. Mauna na ako! Bye!” I waved him goodbye as I jog towards my way pabalik sa kwarto na pinanggalingan ko.

…..

Akie’s POV

“Lieutenant Villafor, gusto kong malaman ang katotohanan mula sa ’yo.” Seryosong saad ni Captain Herera lumipas ang ilang minuto pagkalabas ni Ian. Nag-abot ito ng root beer sa akin na malugod ko naman na tinanggap. Kumuha rin siya ng isa upang inumin.

“It’s an honest mistake, Captain.” Umupo ako sa sofa kaharap ng sofa na kinauupuan niya. Totoo naman dahil hindi naman namin inakala na mawawala si Alexis. Wala ring nakakita o nakapansin man lang kung may kumuha ba dito. So, there’s no one to be blamed fo—

“Hindi kay Alexis. Sa inyo ni Ian. I want you to tell me what’s true, Akie.” Patiuna nito sabay ipinatong ang dalawang kamay sa malalapad nitong hita.

Nagtataka naman akong tumingin sa kaniya. Tangina. Ano na naman ba ’to?

“What do you mean?” I furrowed my brows because of confusion.

“Hindi lang kayo mag-kaibigan, tama ba?” Tanong nito na may halong pangi-usyoso. I gritted my teeth out of annoyance.

Nakakairita.

“Why do you wanna know? It’s not that important, wasn’t it?” Iritable kong saad.

“Akie, just tell me…” He sternly said. Huminga pa ito nang malalim bago nagsalitang muli, “… Just please tell me what’s true bet—”

“I’m sorry, sir. But I think it doesn’t concern you what’s the deal between Ian and I.” Paninindigan ko.

Isa sa mga ayaw ko ay ang pakialamanan ang buhay na meron ako. Tsaka, ano naman ang pakialam niya kung anong namamagitan sa aming dalawa ni Ian. Bakit bawal ba sa Navy ang magsama ang dalawang lalaki? That’s bullshit. If that so, then I will turn everything I have right now just to be with Ian. Kahit pa itong posisyon na matagal kong pinaghirapan.

Wala namang patutunguhan ang pag-uusap na ’to. Mabuti pa lumabas na lang ako.

Tumayo na ako at tinalikuran na siya.

“Lieutenant Villaflor, I am ordering you to—”

Tangina. Walang kwenta.

Hindi ko siya sinunod at dumiretso ako sa pinto at bahagya itong binuksan ngunit agad din akong napahinto dahil sa mga sunod nitong sinabi.

“Ian is my son!” Napahinto ako sa kinatatayuan ko. Tila ba pinako ako sa pwesto ko kaya hindi na ’ko nakagalaw pa.

Fuck, what?

“He’s your… what ? “ Naguguluhan kong tanong.

“Alam kong magulo at nakakagulat. But Ian is my son, he is my first son. Mahabang kuwento kung bakit kami nagkahiwalay at kung bakit hindi niya ako kilala…” Saad ni Captain Luis. Hindi naman ako nagsalita at hinintay ang mga susunod pa niyang sasabihin. I just stood there waiting for him to explain. I thought he’s not gonna share this one but he did nevertheless.

“It’s a long story. I was seventeen that time nang mabuntis ko ang tunay niyang nanay. Namatay si Alexa sa panganganak kay Ian. Nasa high school pa lang ako noong panahong ’yon at hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong gawin. Kaya napagdesisyunan kong ipaampon na lang si Ian. Alam kong napaka-gago kong tatay. Pero wala na akong maisip na ibang paraan para buhayin si Ian. Wala na rin akong mga magulang noon kaya wala na akong malapitan pa. Galit naman sa akin ang mga magulang ni Alexa kaya hindi ko sila nagawang pakiusapan na alagaan si Ian. I have no choice but to bring him in an orphanage and pretend that I was dead.” Pumiyok si Captain Luis sa huling pangungusap na sinabi niya. Halatang pinipigilan nito ang pag-iyak.

“Taon ang lumipas at nabalitaan ko na lang na inampon siya nila Isabelle at John. Palagi akong nakikibalita kung nakakapag-aral pa ba siya, nakakakain ng sapat, nakakatulog, humihinga at buhay. Nagpapasalamat na lang ako dahil sila ang naka-ampon kay Ian. Pero nawalan ako ng balita noong lumipat sila Isabelle. Hindi ko na alam kung saan ko pa hahanapin ang anak ko noong mga panahong ’yon.” Saad nito. “It was also hard for me to leave Ian behind. But I think it’s for his own good. Alam kong ’di ko siya kayang buhayin sa kalagayan at antas na meron ako noon.” Dagdag pa niya bago ito lumagok sa root beer na hawak.

“Tsk. So bakit ’di mo siya hinanap? Alam mong hindi deserve ni Ian ’yung ginawa mo!” I disgustedly said. Nawala ang respeto ko sa taong nasa harap ko.

“I want to! You don’t know how miserable my life was everytime na iniisip ko kung kamusta na siya. Kung ayos pa ba siya. Kung okay lang ba siya. Nawala lang ‘yung lungkot noong dumating ang asawa ko at si Alexis. Well, at least.” Captain Luis sighed. “God knows how I freakin’ want to be with my son, pero naging duwag ako. Natatakot ako kung ano ang magiging reaksiyon niya. Kung anong magiging sagot niya. Kung ano ang maaring maging posibilidad kapag sinabi ko sa kaniya. Natatakot ako na baka hindi niya ako tanggapin bilang ama. Bilang tunay niyang ama. Kaya hindi ko na siya hinanap pa. Alam kong naging masaya na siya sa pamilya na kinalakihan niya.” Tumayo ito at lumapit sa akin.

Tangina, ano? Hindi niya sinubukang hanapin si Ian? Gusto ko sana siyang bulyawan at suntukin dahil sa ginawa niya kay Ian. Alam kong may rason naman siya pero masakit ’to sa parte ni Ian. Isn’t it painful knowing that you grow from a different pack of wolves and apart from the real one? Tangina, lumaki si Ian sa pag-aakala na sila tita Isabelle ang tunay niyang pamilya. He grew from a real shit. They made his life the biggest joke ever. Kahit anong rason pa ’yan, nakakagago sa parte ng isang tao na malaman na lumaki siya sa mga taong hindi naman niya kadugo. Pero nagpapasalamat ako dahil pinalaki si Ian ng mga taong tinuring siyang parang tunay na anak.

“Akala ko hindi na ako guguluhin ng nakaraan ko dahil sa may bago na akong pamilya. Akala ko malilimutan ko rin ang lahat. Akala ko magiging masaya na ako dahil kahit paano ay alam kong nasa ligtas na kamay na si Ian. Inakala ko na magiging masaya ako sa buhay na meron ako at hinding-hindi na mangungulila pa. Pero noong nakita ko ang marka niya sa batok noong araw na tinulungan niya si Alexis. Isa lang ang pumasok sa isip ko. Alam kong si Ian ang anak ko. Alam kong siya ang anak namin ni Alexa. Naramdaman ko ’yon. Pero dahil hindi pa rin ako panataa, humingi ako ng tulong sa kaibigan ko. Nalaman ko rin na si Isabelle ang tinuturing nitong ina matapos kong paimbistigahan ang naging buhay niya noong nasa Pilipinas pa lang ito. Nakuha ko rin ang kumpirmasyon sa kaibigan nitong si Kevin. Kaya hindi na ako nagkaroon pa ng kahit na anong pagdududa. Nawala lahat ng pag-aakala ko at napalitan ng kagustuhan ko na makasama siya.” Tumingin ito sa may larawan ng isang batang anghel na nakasabit sa dingding ng kwarto.

“Sa wakas, nakita ko na ulit siya. Nakita ko na ang munti kong anghel. Ang anghel namin ni Alexa.” Tumingin ito sa akin at nakita ko ang pangungulila sa mga mata niya. Hindi lang siya kay Ian nangungulila. pakiwari ko’y pati na rin sa kaniyang yumaong asawa. Lumuha ito pero pinahid din niya agad.

Mahina akong napasinghal. Hindi siya gaya ni Ian. Si Ian kasi, kapag naiyak, iiyak na, samantalang si Captain naman ay mariing pipigilan para hindi magmukhang iyakin. Siguro sa nanay namana ni Ian ang pagiging balat-sibuyas.

“Gusto ko siyang mayakap. Gusto ko siyang matawag na anak at hindi lang sa kaniyang pangalan. Gusto kong humingi ng tawad sa pagiging walang kwenta kong ama. Pero hindi ko alam kung papaano. After all I’ve done, hindi ko alam kung paano ko siya kakausapin at kokomprontahin. I don’t have the courage to open this topic to him. Kung mahirap sa akin. Alam kong mas mahirap sa parte niya.” Malungkot itong napangiti.

“That’s why I invited him on dinner only to find out that you knew each other. I knew it was the start. Alam kong pwede ko nang maayos lahat ng kagaguhan na nagawa ko noon. Noong nakita ko siya, pinangako ko na hinding-hindi na ako magiging duwag. He deserve to know what’s true. Matagal ko na ’tong gustong mangyari, at ngayon na nagyari na, hindi ko na sasayangin ang pagkakataon para kilalanin niya ako bilang tunay niyang ama.” Bumuntong hininga ito.

Pumuwesto ito sa harap ko and he tapped me on my shoulder.

“You might be wondering kung bakit ko sa ’yo ito sinasabi. Nakakatawa dahil dapat kay Ian ako nagpapaliwanag. But, Akie, I am telling you these dahil alam ko na may relasyon kayong dalawa ni Ian. Alam kong hindi lang kayo magkaibigan noong highschool. Sabi ko nga sa ’yo, inalam ko halos lahat ng tungkol sa kaniya. Tsaka hindi niyo rin naman maitatago pa dahil halata sa mga kilos niyo. Humahanap lang ako ng pagkakataon na sabihin mo sa akin dahil sabi ko nga, wala kayong dapat na itago. Isa pa, ayaw ko naman kayong pangunahan.” Ngumiti ito. Napangiti rin ako dahil sa mga sunod niyang tinuran.

“At hindi ako tutol dito, besides it’s my son’s choice. Who am I to decide ni hindi niya nga ako nakasama sa buong paglaki niya.” He chuckled. “So it is actually fine for me. Pero gusto ko sanang humingi ng tulong sa ’yo. Ikaw lang ang alam kong makakatulong sa akin ’coz you’re my son’s boyfriend, or at least. I wanted to make it up to Ian. Gusto kong bumawi sa lahat ng taon na nagkulang ako. Pero kailangan ko sanang humanap ng tyempo. Kapag nakita na natin si Alexis gusto ko sanang sabihin na sa kaniya lahat. Tingin ko’y magiging handa na ako.” Bumalik ito sa sofa table at inilapag ang root beer na hawak at kumuha ng panibago.

“Sinabi ko ’to sa ’yo dahil gusto kong ikaw ang magsilbing panyo ng batang ’yon sa oras na humagulgol siya kapag nalaman niya ang katotohanan. Gusto kong ikaw ang yumakap at pumahid sa mga luha niya kapag nangyari na ang lahat. Tingin ko ay iyakin rin si Ian gaya ng kanyang ina.” Tumawa ito sa sariling itinuran.

“Anak na ang turing ko sa ’yo, Akie. May tiwala ako sa ’yo. Alam kong tanging ikaw lang ang magiging sandigan ng anak ko kung sakaling ’di niya kakayanin ang lahat ng bagay tungkol sa kaniya. Kung sakaling lumuha man siya dahil sa akin, gusto kong ikaw ang magpatahan sa kaniya. It’s kinda ironic with the fact that I should be the one na nagpapatahan sa anak ko kapag umiiyak ’to pero mukhang mababaligtad ang sitwasyon….” Iminom itong muli sa hawak na lata ng root beer.

“… Mukhang ikaw ang kakailanganin niya. Gusto ko na gawin mo ang lahat para pawiin ang luha sa mga mata ng anghel ko. Ayokong makita si Ian na umiyak dahil sa akin kaya sana nasa tabi ka niya kapag nangyari ang bagay na ’yon dahil alam kong wala akong magagawa.” Malungkot nitong saad.

Lumukso naman ang puso ko dahil sa tuwa nang sabihin ’yon ng ama ni Ian. Pamiramdam ko ay botong-boto ito sa akin.

“H’wag po kayong mag-alala, ako pong bahala sa anak niyo.” I assured him. Kahit naman hindi niya sabihin, handa pa rin akong patahanin si Ian sa tuwing iiyak ito. Pinangako ko rin ’yon sa sarili ko na hinding-hindi ko hahayaan na muling umiyak si Ian sa harap ko. Malaki ang pasasalamat ko sa tiwala ni Captain sa akin. Pareho kaming ayaw makita ang anak niya na umiiyak. Ngayon na nalaman ko na ang buong istorya, alam kong madaling mauunawan ni Ian ang lahat. Alam kong magiging maayos rin ang relasyon nilang mag-ama. Tutulong ako. Gusto ko rin na malaman ni Ian ang totoo. Gaya nga ng sinabi ni Captain, he deserve what’s true. We all deserve the truth.

Muling lumapit si Captain sa akin at niyakap ako. “Salamat, Akie.” Bulong nito. “Mukhang hindi nagkamali ang anak ko sa pagpili ng magiging manugang ko ah!” Biro nito at tumawa. Tumawa rin ako at sinuklian ang yakap.

“Sige po mauna na ako. Pupuntahan ko pa si Ian. Balitaan niyo na lang ako kung ano na ang balita kay Alexis. Salamat sa tiwala, Capta—”

“Dad. Tawagin mo na akong Dad. Alam mo namang boto ako sa ’yo!” Kumindat ito at hinampas ako nito sa braso. Tumawa pa ito na tila nang-aasar.

Napailing na lang ako. Nakakatuwa dahil alam kong tanggap kami ng ama ni Ian.

“Tsk.” Tanging naging tugon ko. Pero halos magmukha na akong timang sa pagpigil kong ngumiti. Sobra lang talaga akong natutuwa at ayaw ko namang ipakita dahil tiyak na aasarin pa ako lalo ni Captain.

Umakbay ito sa akin at ginulo ang buhok ko.

Tangina naman, oh!

But instead of being grumpy I just found myself laughing together with Captain. Ngayon na lang ulit ako tumawa nang ganito na may kasamang isang tatay. Matagal na rin kasi noong iniwan kami ng mahusay kong ama.

Tinanggal na nito ang pagkaka-akbay at muling bumalik sa sofa at naupo. Binuksan ko naman ang pinto ngunit nagulat ako sa nakita ko.

Si Ian. Nakatayo sa harap ko habang ang dalawa nitong kamay ay nakatakip sa kaniyang bibig. Halatang pinipigilan ang paghagulgol. Bumubuhos ang maraming luha mula sa mga mata nito. Nanginginig siyang tumingin sa akin bago dumako ang paningin kay Captain Luis. Kita ko naman ang gulat sa mga mata ni Captain.

Patay. Mukhang narinig ni Ian lahat ng pinag-usapan namin. Tumalikod ito at tumakbo palayo sa kwarto. Bumalik ang tingin ko sa tatay nito. Akmang tatayo na ito upang habulin ang anak pero pinigilan ko siya.

“Captain, ako na ang bahalang kumausap sa kaniya.” Ngumiti ako bago hinabol si Ian. Nakita ko pang napasabunot si Captain sa buhok nito.

Nahabol ko naman agad si Ian at agad itong huminto. Tumingin ito sa akin bago ako niyakap nang mahigpit at ibinaon ang mukha sa dibdib ko. I heard him sobbing hard but I let that go. He need to release those screams and cries. I caressed his back and hugged him back as I let him cry in my arms and embrace.

…..

A/N:

Medyo busy sa online class dahil sa mga mahuhusay kong profs na kahit naman may memo na bawal magpagawa, hala sige sa pagpapagawa. Kaya ayon, ngayon lang ulit nakapag-update. Sorry.

But nevertheless, thank you for all the votes, comments and supports na natatanggap ko mula sa inyo. Especially to those peeps who keeps on motivating and encouraging me to continue writing. Mahal na mahal ko kayo. Mwuah!

Next chapter would be fun! I promise!

C H A P T E R - 049

Akie’s POV

The loud and deafening sound of a party music resounded the whole place as the room was filled with drunk and hysterical people dancing at the middle of the dance floor.

Including Ian.

Nandito kami ngayon sa loob ng isang kilalang bar sa Serene 771— Taste of Brewed Liquor . Isa ito sa mga lugar kung saan kami tumatambay ni Henry noong mga unang araw namin dito sa ship. I used to be here for twice with him but now I am with this little brat.

Dinala ko siya rito dahil pinilit niyang uminom kami. Marahil ay dahil sa nalaman niya tungkol sa totoong kwento ng buhay niya.Noong una ay hindi ako pumayag dahil hindi naman talaga umiinom ang isang ’to. But he constrained me by giving me warnings that if I would not come with him, then he’ll come alone instead. Ayaw ko namang hayaan ’tong isang ’to dahil mamaya anong mangyari sa kaniya. Pumayag na rin ako dahil baka mas gumaan ang pakiramdam niya kapag nakainom. Tutal ganon ang ginagawa ko kapag may mga problema akong kinakaharap. Hindi lang ako sigurado sa isang ’to. Pero mukhang kahit papaano ay nakalimutan niya lahat ng gumugulo sa isipan niya. Hindi ko rin siya masisisi kung gugustuhin niyang magpakababad sa alcohol since it’s everyone’s way in coping their problems; even if it is just temporary. It’s a norms, that, befriending an alcohol is like befriending the felicity over what you are experiencing. The content of a liquor is a medicine for your own tolerance. It’s a magic of numbness. It’s somehow beneficial.

But, fuck!? I have a bad feeling for this. Hindi ko mapigilang mag-alala Tignan mo nga siya. Sobra na itong nakainom. Namumula na nga ang mga pisngi nito na senyales na lasing na siya. I think this might be his first time drinking too much drinks plus the fact that what they’re offering here had such high amounts of alcohol content.

Look at him! Akala mo batang ngayon lang nakapunta sa lugar na gustong-gusto niyang puntahan. Kung makasayaw halos wala na siyang pakialam sa mga taong nakakakita sa kaniya. Salamantalang noon, takot ito na pagtinginan ng mga tao at pagtuunan ng atensiyon.

This brat! I clicked my tongue.

Dapat talaga hindi ko na siya dinala pa rito. Pero paano mo naman tatanggihan ang taong ’to? Eh halos magmakaawa siya habang umiiyak. He’s just too irresistible. Fuck those big doe eyes of his. Fuck those enticing eyes that’s pleading for you to submit on it’s glamour. Fuck his innocence. Damn those thin, soft, and pinkish lips of him that quivers as he pleaded. This man is just too irresistible. He’s just a living trap, and…

… I’m trapped with those unconscious trick of him.

“Ian, let’s go. Lasing ka na, oh!” Med’yo iritable kong saad but all he did was to shook his head. Kumapit ito sa isa kong kamay at itinaas tsaka siya nagpa-ikot ikot. His movements were kinda unstable and lousy. Pero sige pa rin ito sa pagsayaw.

“Babe, mamaya na. Ngayon lang ako nakasayaw nang ganito eh!” Sumisinok nitong litanya habang nakangiti na tila ba isang bata na nabigyan ng hinihiling nitong laruan. I knew he was drunk ’coz he’s using words of endearments now. He’s not used to say those words. Ako lang naman ang nagsasabi sa kaniya ng mga salitang ’yon.

Hinila at dinala ako nito sa gitna ng entablado kung saan mas maraming tao ang nagsasayawan.

“Ian, c’mon let’s just sit there. Look at yourself. You look like as if you’re about to pass out.” Panenermon ko sa lalaking ’to. Tumigil ako at marahan siyang hinila pabalik sa countertops kung saan iniwan namin ang mga inumin.

Pero hindi siya nagpaawat at nakipagsiksikan pa sa maraming taong sumasayaw hanggang sa nakakita siya ng pwesto sa gitna na medyo bakante at kung saan wala masiyadong nagsisiksikang tao.

“Stubborn brat.” I whispered. Gusto kong matuwa dahil ngayon ko lang nakita ang side ni Ian na ganito. Pero hindi ko rin maiwasang mag-alala dahil alam kong mababa ang alcohol tolerance ng isang ’to.

Huminto siya rito at nagpatuloy sa pagsayaw. I sighed. Marami akong nakikitang tumitingin sa kaniya.

“Ia—”

Napahinto ako sa dapat na sasabihin at nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang tumalikod si Ian sa akin at sumayaw habang ang pang-upo nito ay direktang nakatutok sa harapan ko. Ramdam ko ang katumbukan ng kaniyang pwetan ng mga sandaling ’yon.

“Ohhh!” Sigaw ng mga taong nakakapanood sa mga ginagawa ni Ian.

“Fuck!” Pigil kong ungol nang tumuwad pa siya at iginiling ang kaniyang bewang kasabay ng malakas na saliw ng musika. Nakakabingi ang tugtugin ngunit wala akong marinig dahil mas nakapokus ang atensiyon ko sa malambot at maliit na pang-upong patuloy na kumiskis sa kaibigan ko. I could feel that I’m getting a hard on; a complete hard on. I could feel the tightening of my pants as my dick get erected as Ian continuously rubbed his bum on my semi erected cock.

“Mmngh.” Ian sexily moaned at tila dumaloy ito sa buo kong sistema.

Damn! That was fucking hot. Pero kailangan kong pigilan ang sarili ko.

Hinawakan ko ang bewang nito hindi para mas idikit pa ang kaniyang matambok at maliit na pwetan kun’di para ihinto ang kaniyang ginagawang kahalayan. Though my body screams nothing but to let this go and play. Alam kong hindi matutuwa ang isang ’to kapag nalaman niya na hinayaan kong gumiling siya sa harapan ko habang maraming tao ang nanonood at nakatingin. Tsaka ayoko rin na pinagtitinginan siya ng mga tao lalo na ng mga lalaki na para bang isa siyang bayarang babae.

Iniharap ko siya sa akin at tsaka siya hinawakan sa balikat para ituon ang direksiyon niya sa akin.

“What are you doing?” I asked.

“I’m… dancing.” He innocently answered while his small lips were slightly open.

Shit! That was fucking sexy. I wanted to stick my fingers inside of that wet mouth of him. But I should stop thinking of those fucking things. Especially with his situation right now.

“Ian. You’re drunk and I think we should sit there para makainom ka ng —”

“Don’t you want to dance with me?” He pouted and I gulped. Nanunukso na naman siya.

Napapikit ako. God knows how I fucking want to slam my lips to those teasing flesh. Pero ayoko naman mag-take advantage sa kalagayan na meron siya ngayon.

“I do. Pero–” Nahinto ang dapat na sasabihin ko nang magsimula itong umiyak. He sniffed as he sobbed. He’s acting like a baby again. I rolled my eyes. Twenty-four years old na siya pero kapag nalasing akala mo fifteen years old dahil sa kinikilos nito.

“Let’s dance, then!” Pamimilit niya habang hinihila-hila nito ang kamay ko.

“Hey, cutie!” Someone suddenly meddled with our conversation. Huminto naman sa ginagawa nitong paghatak sa akin si Ian. Nilingon namin ang taong pinanggagalingan ng boses at nakita ko ang lalaking halos kasintangkad ko tingin ko’y mas bata ito ng dalawang taon kumpara sa akin. Nakapamulsa ito habang nakatayo sa pagitan namin ni Ian. Tsk. Sino na naman ba ’to?!

Ian looked at him dumbfounded. Tumawa naman ang mokong. Puta nagpapa-cute pa ’tong gago na ’to ah.

“I saw you dancing. I think that was sexy and hot.” Kumagat labi pa ang kupal. “Can I dance with you? If no one minds.” He shrugged. Tumingin pa siya sa akin at nanunuksong ngumisi.

Aba, gago ba ’to? Alam niyang kasama ako nung pinpormahan niya tapos may lakas siya ng loob para sabihin ’yon? Kapal din pala ng mukha ng isang ’to ah.

“Look, man. Back off. He’s not available.” Saad ko tsaka ko hinatak si Ian palapit sa akin. I gritted my teeth as he stay stilled.

“Dude, I just want to dance with him. No malice.” Nanunuya nitong wika. Walang malisya amputa. Ayos lang ba siya? Nakikita niyang halos lasing na ’yung tao at kung anu-anong kahalayan na ’yung ginagawa tapos sasabihin niyang walang malisya?

“I just want to dance with this little sweetheart.” Maamo nitong turan tsaka hinawakan ang kamay ni Ian at humalik sa likod ng palad nito. I furrowed my brows dahil sa harapang panlalanding ginagawa niya kay Ian. Tangina? Gusto ba nitong masaktan?

“I said he’s not available.” Simple at pinal kong paliwanag. Mas hinapit ko si Ian palapit sa akin.

“Relax. I’m asking him and not you.” Tumawa pa ang mokong. Pinipikon talaga ako ng isang ’to ah.

“Well, just for so you know, I’m his boyfriend. So I do have the right to brush you off.” I mocked.

“Bro, look. This cutie has his own decision. So please excuse us, ’coz I’m offering him a good dance.” Matapang nitong saad. Naglagay pa ito ng diin sa salitang ‘good’. There’s a mischief on his taunting tone.

Aba, makulit ’tong batang ’to ah. Baka ’di niya alam kung sino ’tong binabangga niya. What an idiot. Hindi niya ba nakuha na ako ’yung boyfriend ng inuuyam niya? May kaparatan ako—

“Uhm, no thanks… I only dance with A-Akie. S-Sorry.” Sumisinok na saad ni Ian. Kumapit ito sa mga braso ko. Napangisi naman ako. See? Kupal kang gago ah.

“Oh, c’mon, just a dance.” Lumapit ito kay Ian at humawak sa bewang nito sabay hinila palapit sa kaniya. Napahawak tuloy si Ian sa mga dibdib ng mokong. Hindi talaga nadadaan sa matinong usapan ang isang ’to ah.

Lumapit ako sa kaniya at pilit na hinila pabalik si Ian. Binitiwan naman niya si Ian.

“He’s not yours. So fuck off!” I growled just right in front of him but suddenly I felt a punch right into my face. He just punched me.

“Bitch is no one’s property. Especially a gay bitch.” He said with full of toxicity with every words. Napaatras si Ian dahil sa sinabi ng mokong. Gago ’to ah. Paano nasasabi ng isang ’to ’yung mga salitang ’yon?! Ian is not a bitch. But if ever he will be, then I will be the ‘no one’ he’s talkin’ to just to prove that Ian is mine and he is my property.

Kinuwelyuhan ko ang lalaking ’to tsaka akma na sanang sisuntukin pero narinig ko si Ian na pinigilan ako. I felt his grip on the hem of my shirt.

“A-Akie, let’s just go.” Pamimilit nito pero nanatili pa rin ako sa pagkakakwelyo ng gagong ’to.

“A-Ayoko na palang sumayaw d-dahil nahihilo na ako.” He tugged at it and that’s when I loosened my grip on this bastard’s collar. Tinulak ko siya nang malakas na naging resulta para bumulagta ito sa sahig.

“Dare to say those words again and I promise that you’ll never ever know how to speak ’coz I’ll rip your damn mouth shut.” Ma-otoridad kong pagbabanta sa lalaking ’to. Inapakan ko ang kanan niyang paa at napa-ungol naman ito sa sakit.

“That’s a threat, do you understand.” Malamig kong turan. What I said wasn’t a question, that’s a goddamn sentence of command. He should know where to step his feet into.

Hindi ko naman na hinintay pa kung ano ang isasagot ng kupal na ’to na nasa sahig at agad agad kong hinila si Ian papunta sa malapit na bakanteng mesa simula sa kinatatayuan namin. Nakakita naman agad ako.

“You know what, ang hirap mong alagaan kapag lasing ka. Dapat talaga hindi na kita dinala sa lugar na ’to.” I sighed. Bumusangot naman ang mukha niya.

“Tsaka, bakit ba lagi mo na lang na-a-attract ’yung mga mokong na gaya non? Tsk, I wish you were ugly, then. Para ako lang nakakakuha ng atensiyon mo.” I said as I let him sit at the black sofa where I know he’ll be comfortable sitting while taking his time to clear his vision and mind.

“I don’t know. And why do you wanna make me ugly? Don’t you love me anymore?” Tila bata nitong pagtatanong. I just rolled my eyes. Here’s his baby side once again. I know it’s adorable but sometimes it’s kinda annoying.

I pinched the bridge of my nose. Ian Salvador. You’ll indeed be the death of me.

“Of course I love you… Look, wait for me and I’ll order you some milk para mawala ’yung pagkalasing mo kahit papaano then babalik na tayo sa hotel. Okay? Please wait for me here.” I gave my instructions. He obediently nodded in return.

“Good.” Kumento ko tsaka ako tumayo at tumungo sa counter bar kung saan umorder ako ng isang baso ng gatas.

“Please add a lot of sugar.” I requested since I heard that it’s a good thing to drink for a drunken person.

“Akie?” Tawag ng isang boses galing sa likod ko. I turned around to look for the one who’s calling me.

C H A P T E R - 050

Akie’s POV

“Ate Jasmine?” I smiled. She’s my cousin and a very close friend of mine. We’ve been friends since we were five but her parents wanted her to study abroad that’s why on her age of twelve, sa States na siya nag-aral ng high school. Pero hindi pa rin nawala ’yung communication namin sa isa’t-isa.

“You’ve grown taller. You look matured now. And, oh, hindi ka na rin patpatin. Tsaka, buti naging gwapo ka kagaya ng kuya mo.” Pang-uusisa nito sa pisikal kong itsura. Tsk. Bakit naman kailangan pa akong ikumpara sa isang ’yon?

“I’m just kidding! Kumusta ka na? Tsaka bakit ka nandito? H’wag mong sabihin na…” She tossed her drink and took a sip on it.

“… Aba, ang bata mo pa!” She dramatically exclaimed. I rolled my eyes.

“I’ve been fine since you left to study abroad.” Pang-aasar ko. “Also, don’t be fool. I’m 24 so I can go inside and out of this bar.” Sagot ko.

“Whatever.” She blabbered and rolled her eyes. Napailing na lang ako. Ate Jasmine will always be Ate Jasmine.

“By the way, bakit ka nga ba nandito sa Serene 771?” Naupo siya at ipinatong ang dalang baso ng alak sa countertop.

“I’m on a vacation.” Simple kong sagot. “How about you?” Tanong ko pabalik.

“Some of my friends choose to have a vacation here, too. So, obviously, we have the same reason. Duh! I don’t even know why they choose this ship to be our destination but they said this one is a world-class cruise ship so I choose not to complain anymore. But then, hey! My first day of being here is such an awesome experience. There’s a lot of blablabla….” Sunod-sunod na patutsyada ni ate Jasmine. She’s really an annoying person. How could she say those words without even pausing? Hindi ko na lang siya pinakinggan dahil alam kong puro kagaguhan lang naman ang iku-kwento niya. Like, how she had find a good fuck here in ship. Or how the hell she find some man looking for a hard fuck and all. She’s just too open about her sex life.

“I also heard some of their legends that Serene 771 has something they called magic, I guess? Marami raw kasi ang nagbabalikan and nagkakatuluyan dito dahil they end up together even though they broke up. What a scam.” Ito na lang ang naunawaan ko sa lahat ng sinabi niya. Napangisi naman ako dahil sa huling sinabi ni ate Jasmine. Ian and I end up together again. I guess that wasn’t a scam at all?

“By the way, what happened to you? Why do you have some bruise on your lip.” Kinapa ko naman ’yung sugat na tinutukoy niya. Tsk. This is probably because of that fucking idiot. “Hanggang ngayon ba nakikipagbasagan ka pa rin ng u–”

“Here’s your order, sir.” Pagputol ng bartender sa dapat na sasabihin ni Ate Jasmine. Masama naman nitong tinitigan ang lalaki pero agad siyang nagpa-cute nang mamukhaan niyang gwapo ang lalaki. Kumindat pa ito na tila nang-aakit. Kumagat pa siya sa mapupula niyang labi. Ngumiti naman ang lalaki matapos matukso sa ginawang pang-aakit ni Ate Jasmine.

I sighed. Ate Jasmine is such a slut. How did she end up being one? She’s just so unreal. A slutty and annoying lawyer. But I still love her nevertheless of her personality.

I thanked the bartender tsaka ko kinuha ’yung baso ng gatas.

“So, para kanino naman ’yang gatas? Para lang naman sa bata ang gatas ah? Don’t tell me may anak ka na!” She exclaimed. She’s crazy! This idiot really thought that this glass is for a kid, inside an adult bar? I don’t even know how she’d become an attorney with that brain of her.

“O baka naman para ’yan sa girlfriend mo? Can I see her? Where is she?! Where is she?!” Pangungulit nito. I growled. Alam kong natural na makulit ang isang ’to but I never expect her to be this annoying. Siguro dahil marami na rin ang nainom niya.

“No, you can’t see him…” I finalized.

“… Sigurado akong kukulitin mo lang si Ian.” Mahina kong bulong para hindi niya marinig.

“Him? Your girlfriend is a… boy? A boyfriend? You’re gay?” She looked surprise. Shit. Hindi pa nga pala niya alam.

“Y-Yes.” Tumango ako. I looked away from her. Nagulat na lang ako nang makarinig ako ng tili. Nanggaling ito sa kaniya.

“What?” Inis kong tanong.

“Oh my fucking gosh! I have a gay cousin! This is fucking awesome! Bakit hindi mo agad binalita sa akin? So where is he? Can I see that lucky guy? Where is he?!” Pagpupumilit nito. He even shook me off. I just rolled my eyes with her annoying and irritating persistence. Alam kong hindi ’to titigil hanggat hindi niya nakukuha ang gusto at hinihiling. That runs on our fucking blood.

Naglakad ako papunta sa kina-uupuan ni Ian. Umupo si ate Jasmine sa harapan ni Ian samantalang tumabi naman ako sa baliw kong pinsan. Inilapag ko naman ang baso ng gatas sa harapan ni Ian.

Jasmine intensely picked every single details of Ian. Ian on the other hand looked uncomfortable with this crazy bitch.

“Akie, I’m wrong. You’re the lucky one here. I’m struck and breathless with his beauty. Look at those eyes, those pink lips, those cute buttoned nose, those silky and pale skin. How did you make him yours? Gumamit ka ba ng gayuma?” She muttered. What the fuck? Pinsan ko ba talaga ’to?

“Well, I’m looking forward in stealing this innocent boy and make him mine. Besides, I’m way sexier than yours.” She whispered as she pointed her index finger to my chest and thrust it with such force. Inikot pa niya ’yung daliri niya sa may dibdib ko. She even licked her lips to tease me. She even flipped her hair. Nakakadiri. Para siyang pornstar sa ginagawa niya. Bakit ba ako nagkaroon ng pinsan na ganito?

Tsk. Kung anu-ano pa ang sinasabi. Akala naman niya matatakot ako. Ian is all mine. And I know that ate Jasmine doesn’t mean everything that she says. She’s straight after all.

“So, I’m Jasmine and you are…” Inilahad nito ang palad para makipag-kamay kay Ian but all that Ian did was to blink and look at my cousin’s open hand dumbfounded. He tilted his head in the most adorable way. Fuck, he’s effortlessly cute.

Medyo na-offend naman si ate Jasmine dahil sa hindi pagkamay ni Ian. Pfft. Buti nga sa ’yo.

“Sorry, he’s kinda drunk.” Salo ko kay Ian. I smirked. Ate Jasmine looked at me then rolled her eyes.

“I’m sure you’re the top here. So have you done doing the kinky thing? Does it feel good doing sex with this cute little boy?” She asked as if it’s the simplest question that ever exists. I hate States for making this asshole a real bitch. They are making people so fucking liberated.

Namumula naman akong nag-iwas ng tingin.

“Ow, our top here is getting flushed. Was it good?” Pagpapatuloy niyang pang-aasar. She leaned closer at me. Mocking me with her famous sly smirk. She gasped exaggeratedly.

“Baby Akie is still a virgin?” She teased. Tinulak ko siya palayo.

“Of course not! But there’s no way I would tell you about my sex life.” I growled.

“Okay. I’ll just ask Ian instead.” She said as she leaned on the table to face Ian. Napaatras nang bahagya si Ian sa kinauupuan nito. “Hey, how does it feel having some dick inside your ass. Does it —” I coughed hard at nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa tanong niya na iyon kaya agad ko siyang hinila patayo at inilayo kay Ian.

“What the hell are you doing?” I spat.

“I’m asking your boyfriend!” She shrugged. I rolled my eyes.

“You’re being scandalous. Mabuti pa bumalik ka na sa mga kasamahan mo. We’ll just talk some time. Just please not now. You’re drunk and Ian was drunk…”

“… Mahirap kaya mag-alaga ng dalawang lasing.” Puta. Si Ian pa nga lang hirap na akong alagaan, isasama mo pa ’tong isang ’to?

“What? I just missed teasing my little brother.” She said as he pull me in a tight hug. Pinilit ko namang humiwalay sa pagkakayakap nito.

“I’m not kid anymore!” I whined.

“Yes you are!” She exclaimed. I rolled my eyes as I clicked my tongue.

“Okay, okay. I’ll stop so you could have your time with your baby.” She teased. She scrunched her face in disgust. Palibhasa wala siyang serious relationship. Sino ba naman ang papatol sa baliw na ’to? Lumagok siya sa hawak na alak.

“Tsk. Just get lost, will you?” Tinulak ko na siya para sa itaboy na palayo sa amin ni Ian pero ang mahusay kong pinsan ay nagbigay pa ng pahabol.

“Wait. Ikumusta mo ako kanila tita ah!” She tiptoed and kissed me on my right cheek. I nodded. “Hey, one more thing.” Pahabol pa nito. I waited for what she’s about to say. “When you two fuck, keep it slow. The little bunny might get his ass ruined.” Napakunot naman ako ng noo. “Especially from a fucker like you.” She teased once again as he pinched my nose. I groaned because of her childish acts. This rascal.

“Bitch.” I mumbled. She just smiled and flipped her hair.

“I know. See you next time, bro!” She waved as she turned around and bound her ass on the crowd dancing crazier than before.

Bumalik naman ako kay Ian at napansin ko na hindi pa rin niya iniinom ’yung gatas na dala ko. He doesn’t even moved it out of its place. Kinuha ko ang baso at tumabi sa kaniya.

“Bakit ’di mo ’to ininom?” Tanong ko sa kaniya. Inilapit ko ’yung baso sa bibig niya para sana tulungan siyang uminom but he abruptly looked into other direction.

“I’m good.” He mumbled. I sighed. He’s insanely drunk and he’ll say that he’s good?

“Ian, you’re not. You should drink this para mawala ’yung pagkahilo mo.” I convinced. Tiyak na magkakaroon siya ng hangover kinabukasan but milk could actually help him to have at least good sleep. Pero hindi pa rin niya kinuha ’yung gatas kaya ibinalik ko na lang muna ’to sa harapan niya.

“Ian don’t be stubborn. You have to take this para makatulog ka nang—”

“Ayoko nga sabi!” He turned his back from me. Napabuntong-hininga naman ako at napakamot na lang ng batok. Ang hirap naman suyuin ng isang ’to. Sumandal na lang muna ako sa sofa at hinintay na mawala ang sumpong ng lalaking ’to. I should probably remind myself not to let Ian drink alcohol ever again.

“Who’s that girl?” He whispered. It was barely audible since it was kinda loud so I asked him to repeat what he was saying.

“S-Sabi ko sino ’yung babaeng ’yon?! Bakit ka niya niyakap at hinalikan? Bakit siya ganoon ka-close sa ’yo?” Humarap siya sa akin. Babae? Si Ate Jasmine ba ’yung tinutukoy niya?

Mahina akong tumawa. Marahil dahil sa kalasingan ay hindi na ni Ian naproseso lahat ng pinagsasabi ni Ate Jasmine.

“Bakit mo ako tinatawanan?” He looked at me with watery eyes. I know I should stop teasing this brat but I could have this rare chance with Ian being so territorial.

“Hmm” I hummed. I smirked. Mukhang may nagseselos ah. Umandar naman agad ang kademonyohan ng isip ko at naisip ko na tuksuhin ang isang ’to.

“Why, is my baby jealous?” I teased. Napakagat ako ng labi. I missed teasing this bunny.

“Yes!” He suddenly stood though he was wobbling. I was stunned for a second. I didn’t expect Ian would have this level of courage to admit that he’s jealous. Normally he would stutter and be hesitant to admit that he is.

Nagpatuloy ang kapilyuhan sa kagustuhan kong tuksuhin pa lalo si Ian.

“Well, she just wanted to get my number. And oh, she also mentioned if I could hangout with her frie—

Naputol ang dapat na sasabihin ko nang pumatong at umupo si Ian sa hita ko. Paharap itong naka-upo sa akin. Both of his hands were on my shoulders. I was caught off guard by his sudden acts. I gasped as he unintentionally pressed himself down to my crotch. Naramdaman ko na lang ang pagkabuhay ng alaga ko matapos nitong madama ang matambok na pwetan ni Ian. Hindi makapaniwala kong sinalubong ang mapang-akit nitong mga tingin.

Shit, baka hindi ako makapagpigil at maabuso ko si Ian kahit walang permiso niya. He unconsciously licked his pink lips that drive my sanity insane. Naramdaman ko rin ang pagpintig ng kaibigan ko. I know from this moment that Ian could also feel my bulge.

“F-Fuck.” I hoarsely groaned. Ian’s drunken self is testing my restraints. I lifted his index finger at inilagay ito sa ilong ko.

“You know what…” His finger moved downwards papunta sa labi ko directly to my chin. He tauntingly held my chin at tsaka inilapit ang mukha niya. I was waiting for him to kiss me on lips but he just kissed me on the bruise I got.

“That guy has some point.” He paused. ’Yung mokong ba ang tinutukoy niya? “He said that I was gay and he’s right.” Tumawa si Ian nang pagak. He keep on tracing his finger on the layer of my lips.

“I don’t have boobs, or vagina just like the woman who just kissed you. You also know that I couldn’t bear a child just like the woman who hugged you. Tell me, are you playing around?” He said as he looked at me in the eyes. There’s this deep and unwavering emotion that’s lingering on his beautiful eyes. It is as if he want me to know that there’s something on him that’s calling me. Hindi ko naunawaan ’yung gusto niyang sabihin kaya nagtanong ako.

“What do you mean?” I said as he shifted his small body that causes his ass to be grinded on my crotch unintentionally. Mas inilapit nito ang mukha sa akin. He chuckled. That was cute but I could tell that there’s bitterness on his light laughs.

“The world is playing with me. The fate is playing its game, too. Me being Salvador, being mom and dad’s stepson, being kuya’s stepbrother. Everything is just a damn game– at ako lagi ang taya. It was so unfair. I felt like every single part of me is a fucking joke” Tumawa ulit siya pero sumabay ang pagdaloy ng mga luha sa mapupungay nitong mata. Pinahid niya ang luha gamit ang manggas ng suot nitong hoodie. Sasagot na sana ako pero nagpatuloy siya sa pagsasalita.

“So, tell me, Akie. Are you also here to play with me? Is this another kind of shit? The man is right. I’m gay. Wasn’t it too skeptical that someone as handsome and masculine as you would fall in love with someone like me? Is this another kind of game? Ako na naman ba ang taya? Tell me, Akie, ako na naman ba ang talo?” He said with much challenge on his words.

Tsk. He’s talking too much. Lasing ba talaga ang isang ’to? Does alcohol purposely made to make your brain function even you look exhausted?

“Yeah, I’m just playing around.” I cut him off. He gasped and looked at me hurtfully.

“Y-You also lied to me?” Hindi makapaniwala niyang saad.

I rolled my eyes. Does he really think that I’m just playing around here? Puta, sinugal ko lahat para lang mapasa’kin siya. Tingin niya ba laro lang sa akin ang lahat? Pero alam kong ’di ko siya masisisi dahil masiyado lang siyang nilalamon ng mga impormasyon na ngayon lang niya nalaman. Isama mo pa ang matapang epekto ng alak. Kailangan ako naman ang umintindi sa kaniya. Dahil lagi na lang ako ang iniintindi ng isang ’to.

“I’m playing the game of love, Ian.” Patiuna ko. Simula nang inamin ko kay Ian na gusto ko siya naging ganito na ako kung magsalita.

Does really love can turn a person poetic?

“But this time hindi lang ikaw ang taya. Dahil kakampi mo na ako at ipinapangako ko, wala sa atin ang matatalo.” Patutyada ko. Putangina, kung anu-ano na lang ang mga sinasabi ko.

“We’re playing at the same time. We’re playing at the same pace. I’m playing with you, Ian. I’m here. I-I’m playing with the Ian I love.” Namula naman ako dahil sa mga pinagsasabi ko. Puta, ang corny ko.

“Tsaka ilang beses ko ba dapat sabihin sa ’yo? You really thought that this was all shit? That our love was nothing but a piece of shit? So you are the greatest shit that happens in my life then.” I smiled. Medyo namula naman ang pisngi ni Ian na nagpapakita na nauunawaan pa niya lahat ng sinasabi ko kahit na pumipikit-pikit na siya dahil sa kalasingan.

“Don’t listen to that bastard. He doesn’t know how much I love you. No one will ever know how much I love this person.” I said as I playfully pinched his nose.

“Only this which can.” I said as I pointed my finger on his left chest. Napatingin naman siya dito at muling ibinalik ang tingin sa mga mata ko.

“Kahit sabihin nila na walang magmamay-ari sa isang gaya mo, at kahit na sabihin nilang isa kang puta kahit ’di naman totoo. I would be always here for you. Hear your heartbeats, ’coz my presence will always be there” I said as I held his face with my one hand. I smiled as he eventually stopped crying.

“I loved you for being the person I love. I didn’t choose to love someone because they have vaginas, boobs, dicks, or a good ass.” I grabbed his bum with my large hands. He squirmed after feeling my calloused hands.

“I loved you because you are Ian. Not because you’re gay. Not because you are a boy. Not because of your fucking gender. I love you because… You are you.” I said as simple as it is. Mahal ko siya dahil mahal ko siya. Walang paliwanag ang makakapantay sa pagmamahal ko para sa kaniya.

“Nothing more and nothing less. Mahal kita dahil ikaw ’yung unang tao na nagparamdam sa akin kung paano magmahal nang totoo… at kumantot nang todo.” Biro kong bulong. Tumawa ako nang mas namula ang mukha ni Ian. Mahina naman nitong sinuntok ang dibdib ko. Natatawa kong kinuha ’yung kamay niya para pigilan siya sa ginagawang pagsuntok sa akin.

“Bakit? Sa ’yo ko lang naman talaga naranasan ang tunay na sarap dahil sa maliit, malambot, masikip, at nakakabaliw mong but—”

“Akie!” Bulyaw nito. Napatawa naman ako nang ibaon niya ang mukha sa may balikat ko. “You pervert.” I heard him mumbling. Only you Ian who can make me pervert. Nanatili ang ulo niya na nakabaon sa balikat ko. I sniffed the fragrance of his hair. It was intoxicating. One minute and I found myself burying my face on his smooth and silky hair.

“Ian?” Tawag ko sa kaniya.

“Hmm?” Ian hummed.

“I love you” I kissed the crown of his head.

“Yeah” He replied. What the hell? Halos tumula na ako lahat-lahat tapos ang isasagot niya sa ‘I love you’ ko ay isang simpleng tango?

I pushed him gently and straightened him. His eyes were closed but I could tell that he’s still awake.

“Hey, say that you love me, too.” I encouraged.

“Hmm” He groaned. I rolled my eyes.

“Hey” I tried to shake his sleepy body.

“Akie… I-I…” I grinned. Yeah, babe, say it. “… L-Lo–”

“Shit!” Hindi na nito natapos ang sasabihin dahil bigla na lang siyang nasuka. Damn it! He just thrown up on my fucking shirt. Natuluyan na siyang nakatulog matapos sumuka. His vomit was pressed between his and my body. Napailing na lang ako.

“I love you, too.” I said mimicking his voice with a bit of sarcasm.

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Akie’s

POV

“Mmm” Ian groaned as I placed him down on my bed. I sighed as I take a look at him. His drunken self is extremely insane. Napa-iling na lang ako. Ian will be the death of me. That’s for sure.

Nagtungo ako sa maliit na banyo na meron sa kwarto na tinutuluyan ko. Hinubad ko ’yung damit ko ’tsaka pantalon at inilagay sa maliit na basket na naroon. Tanging boxers na lamang ang suot ko.

Sakto naman na may nakita akong maliit na lalagyan na tila tabo kaya kinuha ko ’yon at pinuno ng tubig. Tsaka ako bumalik sa kama kung saan nakahiga ang ngayon ay gising na pala na si Ian. Panandalian akong pumamewang upang ipakita na hindi ako natuwa sa ginawa niya. Lumapit ako rito at sinimulang hubarin ang suot nitong hoodie para linisan ang kaniyang katawan. 

“Next time, kapag alam mong hindi na kaya ng katawan mo h’wag mong ipilit. Alcohol is good for recreational pero hindi dapat sumusobra. Tignan mo nga ’yang itsura mo. Paano na lang kung wala ako r’on? Tsk” Panenermon ko kasabay ang paghubad ko sa suot nito. Mabuti na lang at hindi na siya umakto na tila bata dahil mas mahihirapan pa ako kung nagkataon. Nakatingin lang siya sa akin na tila nagsusumamo na patawarin ko siya.

I rolled my eyes as I stood up to look for something I can use to swab Ian’s sweaty form. Hindi naman nagtagal at nakahanap din ako ng bimpo. I then make my way back from where’s Ian was laying. Napansin ko na bahagya na siyang nakapikit. Marahan akong umupo sa tabi nito at sinimulang basain ang hawak ko na bimpo. Piniga ko ito bago sinimulang ipahid sa katawan ni Ian.

I instantly get flushed matapos kong pasadahan ng tingin ang hubad nitong katawan. He’s so pale and flawless. His body was slim. Sa tingin pa lang alam mong malambot rin ang balat nito. He somehow gained weights than before. But even with his age of twenty-four, you’ll still be amazed how young his look was. Bigla naman akong natuyuan ng laway dahil sa tanawin na nasa harapan ko.

Nakita ko na ang katawan niyang perpekto sa mga mata ko but since I’ve never seen him naked for until how many years ay tila bumalik sa alaala ko ’yung panahon kung kailan kami naging isa. I-I… Ibig kong sabihin, noong birthday ko kung kailan ko namarkahan si Ian bilang akin.

“Fuck!” Pigil kong ungol nang maramdaman ko ang pagkabuhay ng kaibigan ko.

Damn. Ian is really my drug. He can get through my whole system with his mere presence. With his mere image. With his mere heat. One touch and I’ll be crazy. Ganito ang epekto ni Ian sa akin.

Bigla kong naramdaman ang pag-init ng buong kwarto kahit may aircon naman dito. I tried to stop thinking any thoughts that could possibly turn into something. But I couldn’t brushed it off lalo na at rumehistro na sa akin ang itsura ng katawan nito.

Napalunok ako nang dumako ang paningin ko sa mala-rosas niyang utong. I then recognized his prominent collarbone, down to his flat and slick chest and abdomen. I’ve never been this oddly attracted to any physical features before. But with Ian’s, everything he has was attractively intoxicating. He’s nothing but mouthwatering. 

Only him who can make me this hard. Only him who can make my lips dry. Only him who can make me think dirty and kinky things. Only Ian who can make my mind go frenzy. It may sound hilarious but, fuck! He’s the most beautiful creature for me.

That’s how crazily in love I am to this man. Every piece of him leaves me breathless.

Naputol lahat ng iniisip ko nang bigla akong nakaramdam ng maliit na kamay na nakapatong sa harap ng suot kong boxers. I looked at Ian with shock written on my face. On the other hand, Ian was looking at me using his innocent and pleasing eyes habang bahagyang naka-awang ang bibig nito. A blush was also present on both of his cheeks on the way on the tip of his ear.

Bigla naman akong nag-init nang makita ko ang itsura niyang ‘yon. He look so fucking sexy. I moaned as Ian suddenly moved his hands down to my crotch. Sinubukan kong hawakan ang kamay niya na nakapatong sa harapan ko to stop him from getting any further. I freakin’ want these kind of things especially if I’m doing this with Ian. Pero alam kong lasing siya. He might be on a different scale of sanity. Ayaw ko namang mag-take advantage with his current state of mind. Alam ko rin na hindi niya magugustuhan kapag nalaman niyang may nangyari sa amin without his consent. I wanted to have his permission first even though he’s tempting my restraints to just fuck the hell out of him.

“You’re hard” He noticed. There’s still this innocence look painted on his face.

The fuck I am! Paano naman akong hindi

titigasan

kung hawak mo ’yung harapan ko! I mentally yelled while keeping my mouth shut— trying my best not to moan hard.

But my moans of restraints slipped out of my mouth as Ian pressed his hands on my bulge, making my erection get even wilder.

Bumangon siya sa pagkakahiga at pagapang na lumapit sa akin. His both hands were now on my sides habang nakatingala naman siya sa akin na tila isang tutang naliligaw. Inilapit nito ang mukha niya sa akin pero iniiwas ko ang mukha ko sa kaniya.

“Ian, you’re drunk. Stop doing this, hindi mo alam ang ginagawa mo” I warned.

Pero imbis na tumigil ay umupo ito sa hita ko. Paharap siyang pumatong sa akin gaya ng ginawa niya kanina noong nasa bar kami. Ipinulupot nito ang isa niyang kamay sa batok ko ’tsaka muling inilapit ang kaniyang mukha. He bit his lip teasingly. His index finger trailed my lower lips down to my chin. Huminto siya rito bago bahagyang itinaas ang aking mukha upang magtagpo ang aming mga mata. I was once captivated by those enticing eyes of him. Mula sa mga mapupungay niyang mata, sa maliit ngunit matangos nitong ilong, sa namumula nitong pisngi, at sa labi nitong bahagyang nakabukas na tila naghihintay na mahalikan. It was just so captivating.

Damn it! He’s really a tease. Naramdaman ko na bumaba ang daliri nito sa hubad kong dibdib. Sinundan ko ng tingin ang malikot nitong daliri hanggang sa huminto ito sa pagitan ng dalawa kong dibdib.

“You know what… You’ve been so good to me” He laughed then his eyes started to flicker close. Pero nilabanan niya ’yung antok na nararamadaman. “I never imagined someone like you would fall for me. First, you confessed. Then, you courted me. Until we became a couple. But shit happens and we end up broken. But then after how many years, still, you’ve been so consistent on loving me…” He started to move his fingers on my chest in a circular motion.

“… Proving me that I’m worthy to be loved. And now that I found how fake my whole life was, you’ve been the only one that sounds… real. The only person that makes me special. You made me realize that my life wasn’t that unfair at all because… I have you!” He stopped drawing some circles on my chest then he pressed his index finger on my right chest.

Inilapit nito ang mukha sa akin at marahang bumulong. “So now tell me, should I give you some reward, then?” Ani niya kasabay ang marahang paglandas ng dalawa niyang kamay pababa sa aking tiyan. Napalunok ako dahil sa pagiging mapang-akit ni Ian. I know I may sound pervert sometimes, but I will never consider moments like this as Ian’s permission to make out with me. Yeah, I’m pervert but I still want to consider my partner’s decision. Especially if it is Ian. But… Damn, how am I supposed to resist my own desires with Ian being this clingy and needy.

I then felt his hands on my covered crotch. Inosente lang itong nakatingin sa akin pero alam kong nasa estado pa rin ito ng kalasingan. I know he still doesn’t know what he’s doing. Muling tumaas ang kamay nito sa tiyan ko at naramdaman ko ang malambot nitong palad na marahang humahaplos sa hubad kong katawan.

I closed my eyes at bahagyang tumingala. Mahigpit akong napakapit sa bedsheet upang pigilan ang sarili na itulak na lamang si Ian at angkinin ito. I bit my lip to stop any moans that could slip out of my tongue.

“Ian, stop what you’re doing!” I said with a raspy tone. Hinawakan ko na ang mga kamay nito para pigilan siya sa ginagawang kahalayan. Napatingin naman ito sa akin at tila lumungkot ang itsura. Yumuko pa siya at sinimulang humikbi.

“Ayaw mo na ba sa akin?” Aniya gamit ang tono ng isang bata. I rolled my eyes as I slightly shook my head. Tsk, he’s unbelievable. From being so seductive to being a cry baby. Sakit sa ulo talaga ang isang ’to. But still I couldn’t stand seeing him deflated like this.

Nag-aalala kong binitawan ang kamay nito at marahang itinaas ang kaniyang mukha habang ang dalawa kong kamay ay nasa magkabila nitong pisngi.

“No. It’s just that, you know I could barely control my self. Kung ipagpapatuloy mo ’to, baka hindi ako makapagpigil. Ayaw ko namang isipin mo na sinasamantala ko ang pagiging lasing mo para lang may mangyari sa atin. I still respect you as my partner—” Natigil ang mga dapat ko pang sasabihin nang halikan ako nito.

“That’s why I’m giving you the permission. Let’s make out tonight. I want to give my all to you, to the person I love the most. Let me show you how much I love you” Saad nito bago niya muling inilapat ang mga labi sa mga labi ko.

Hindi na ako umangal pa. Dinama ko na lang ang malambot at matamis niyang labi, lasa ko pa ang gatas na ininom nito kanina.

Alam kong lasing pa rin siya pero kasabay ng mga salitang lumabas sa kaniya ay tila unti-unting nawala ang rason ko para hindi pahintulutan ang lasing na si Ian sa kagustuhan niya. He’s pleading and I knew that I couldn’t stop giving him what he wanted. Perhaps, this is also what I want. Kung ito talaga ang nais ni Ian, then why would I resist? Better to give what my baby boy wants. Itinigil ko ang paghalik niya. I chuckled as he tried to continue kissing me but again, pinigilan ko siya.

“What an impatient kitten” I said with an amused smirk. I’m starting to love this side of Ian. Craving and needy for my touch and kiss. Tumigil naman siya sa pagpupumilit na makahalik sa akin at hinintay ang mga susunod kong gagawin.

“Alam mong hindi ako magaling sa pagpipigil. Are you sure you want this? You know I won’t feel guilty for ruining this ass” Namula siya nang ibulong ko ito sa kaniya. Pinisil ko rin ang kaniyang pang-upo na mas lalong nagdulot ng pamumula ng kaniyang mukha. I waited for his confirmation.

He lifted his finger once again as he now placed it over the tip of my nose.

“You know I want that hard” He licked his lips again and at that moment nawala lahat ng pagpipigil ko as I felt the pleasure of lust flicker across my very own eyes. Ian, teasing me is too much. I could barely handle myself and now that he’s telling me all these indecent words, little Akie could no longer be restrained. Tumawa ako nang pagak. I’m just teasing him but he’s really playing the cards.

Muli kong ipinikit ang mga mata ko para pigilan ang sarili na abusuhin na lang ang lalaking nakapatong sa akin. I growled as Ian pressed his lips on my exposed neck. He started to lick on a specific part of it as he will eventually suck on the part he just licked. Napa-ungol ako nang sinimulan muling haplusin ni Ian ang hubad kong katawan.

Hinayaan ko lang siya sa ginagawa at malaya kong dinama ang ginagawang pagtrabaho ni Ian para paligayahin ako. Dahil mamaya, ako naman ang tiyak na magpapaligaya sa kaniya.

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Akie’s POV

Tumaas ang pagdila ni Ian sa aking panga at pinasadahan ito hanggang sa umabot siya sa ilalim ng tainga ko. Kumagat siya sa parteng iyon na nagdulot ng ibayong kiliti sa akin.

“Fuck” Mura ko dala ng mas lalong pagtigas ng kahabaan ko. Bumaba ang mga kamay niya sa ari ko na ngayon ay may saplot pa rin. Nanatili naman akong nakapikit dahil nais kong panatilihing kalmado ang sarili. Gusto ko pang maramdaman lahat ng ginagawa ni Ian sa akin dahil ngayon ko lang siya makikitang ganito— sa lahat kasi ng pagkakataon ay ako ang laging gumagawa ng unang hakbang.

He started to give gentle touches on my covered dick. His mere touches gives tingles down to my spine. Naramdaman ko naman na may tila basang bagay ang dumampi sa mga labi ko. Mula sa pagkakapikit ay iminulat ko ang mga mata ko at agad na bumugad sa harap ko ang itsura ni Ian na nakatitig sa akin habang pinapasadahan ng dila niya ang ibabang labi ko. Tila sorbetes kung dilaan nito ang mga labi ko.

“Ah…” Nahigit ko ang aking hininga dahil sa nasaksihan ko. Natulala ako sa ipinakitang ito ni Ian.

Puta. Is this how alcohol actually works? Making someone bold and courageous. But, fuck! It would sound hypocrisy if I will say this look of Ian doesn’t turn me on. This lewd look of his brings heat all over my system. Fuck, how could someone be so lewd yet hot? Muli niyang itinaas ang isang kamay at muling iginuhit ang hintuturo sa mga labi ko. Our eyes locked. Ipinasok niya ang daliri niya sa bahagyang naka-awang kong bibig. Saglit lamang iyon at agad niya rin itong tinanggal. Mas lalo akong tinigasan nang ilapit niya sa kaniya ang daliri na ipinasok niya sa bibig ko. Dahan-dahan niya itong dinilaan sa mismong harapan ko. Hindi pa siya nakuntento at sinubo ito as he teasingly bit his slender finger slowly.

Hindi ko na napigilan pa ang sarili at marahas kong itinulak si Ian pahiga sa kama. He groaned after I did the act. Pero wala na akong paki. He’s tempting me and I couldn’t contain this. Sinabi ko na hahayaan ko si Ian ang unang magtrabaho pero hindi ko na matiis pa.

Nasa ilalim ko na siya ngayon habang ako naman ay nasa ibabaw niya. Much

better . I sensually thought. This is how it was supposed to be. Ian underneath, and me being on top.

Nagtama ang mga mata namin. “You’re tempting me… too much that I wanted to fuck you right now and then” I said in a rasp and husky voice. Mapang-akit naman itong ngumiti at ipinulupot ang dalawang kamay sa batok ko. He pulled me close to him.

“Why don’t you do, then?” Tila nang-uuyam niyang hamon.

“H’wag mo ’kong subukan” I smirked. Sinimulan ko siyang halikan sa labi at agad naman niya itong sinagot. He tugged my locks na naging resulta upang mapa-ungot ako. It give Ian the access to probe my mouth. Mabilis nitong nahanap ang dila ko at sinubukan maging dominante. But I was way beyond my restraints. At ayaw kong ako ang hindi nasusunod sa mga bagay na gaya nito. I tugged his locks harder and he whimpered.

“A-Ah…” That gave me the chance to enter his mouth. I ventured the inside of his mouth with my tongue. Nalasahan ko ang matamis na gatas at ang natural na tamis na meron si Ian. Nakaka-adik. Sinubukan pang sumabay ni Ian sa ginagawa kong pang-aangkin sa kaniyang bibig pero nabigo siya. Kaya naman pinaubaya na lang nito sa akin ang pagtatrabaho. Nang maramdaman ko ang dila nito ay agad ko itong sinipsip. Hindi ako nandiri sa lasa ng laway nito dahil iba ang dulot sa akin ng laway ni Ian. It was as if I’m a bee and it’s my needed nectar. Narinig ko naman ang pag-ungol nito na lalong mas nagbigay kagalakan sa kaibigan ko na ngayon ay tumutusok na sa hubad na tiyan ni Ian. Tumagal ng ilang minuto ang ginawa kong pagsipsip sa matamis nitong bibig. He started to whimper and I heard him sobbing. Pero hindi ako tumigil. Matapos kong pagsawaan ang bibig niya ay huminto muna ako upang pagmasdan ang itsura nito.

A flushed cheeks. Swollen lips. Watery eyes. Puno rin ng laway ang paligid ng bibig nito. I smirked. Namangha ako sa sarili kong masterpis. I’m such a lewd artist. Pero hindi pa ako tapos. Nagsisimula pa lang ako. Bumalik ako sa paghalik sa kaniya ngunit sa pagkakataong ito ay marahan at banayad na halik lamang ang ibinigay ko. I placed butterfly kisses around his face. Sa maliit at namumula nitong ilong, sa mga pisngi nito, sa mapungay nitong mata. Hindi nagtagal ay bumababa ako sa kaniyang leeg at ito naman ang binigyan ko ng mumunting halik. Ian moaned as I started to lick his neck just like what he did to me. Hinatak kong muli ang buhok niya sa batok to have a much better view of his neck.

“Ahhh!” He whimpered as I bit on his now exposed neck. Hinalikan ko muna ang namumula nitong balat bago muling kumagat nang mas madiin kumpara kanina. Napasigaw itong muli marahil ay dahil sa sakit. I pulled back to take some look on my another masterpiece. I tilted my head as if examining my personally-made stamp that is only for Ian. Namumula ang balat nito dahil sa markang iniwan ko. Napakagat ako ng labi matapos bumagay ang marka na iniwan ko sa ngayon ay hinihingal na bulto nito. Hinaplos ko pa ang marka na bumagay sa kulay ng kaniyang balat.

“There, you’re sealed again” Saad ko habang patuloy kong pinagmamasdan ang napakagandang marka na ginawa ko.

“You look so fucking sexy right now” Matiim ang mga matang saad ko. Seeing Ian like this drives me insane. Hinalikan ko ang marka na ginawa ko tsaka muling hinalikan si Ian sa kaniyang mga labi.

“S-Stop saying things… J-Just please h-hurry and t-touch me” He pleaded. Sandili namang nandilim ang paningin ko at pumintig ang tainga ko dahil sa mga sinabi nito. Napangisi ako.

“What, baby want his daddy to please him?” I teased. Kumagat ako sa tainga niya at dinilaan ang loob nito. Ian moaned sexily. He bit his lip hard at iniiwas ang namumula niyang mukha. Mas lalo tuloy akong ginanahang tuksuhin pa si Ian. Sinimulan kong halikan ang hubad nitong braso. Nag-iwan rin ako ng mga kagat na tiyak na magmamarka sa parte na iyon ni Ian. This brings pride to my ego. Seeing his body full of bite marks na ako ang may gawa ay tila kagalakan sa loob ko bilang isang lalaki. Bumaba naman ang mga halik ko sa dibdib at mapupula nitong utong. I nipped on it occasionally as Ian will tug my hair. Dinilaan ko ito na nagdulot kay Ian upang mas lumakas ang pagsigaw at palahaw.

“A… Ak-ie” Nauutal na pagtawag ni Ian sa pangalan ko. Tumingala naman ako at marahan kong pinasadahan gamit ang aking dila ang kaniyang namumula at naninigas na utong. Ginawa ko ito habang seryosong nakatitig sa mga mata ni Ian. Nahihiya naman nitong sinalubong ang mga titig ko.

“Why are you being so flustered? I thought you want this? You initiated it first, remember?” Nanunukso kong tanong habang nakatingala sa kaniya. Tumango siya at nag-iwas muli ng tingin. I bit on his now swollen nipple as his body voluntarily arched.

“Lo… L-Lower…” He timidly demanded. I chuckled because of his sudden change. Parang kanina lang halos ako ang tinutukso niya ah. Psh. How basic to turn the table pagdating kay Ian.

“Mukhang may hindi makapaghintay ah.” Pagpaparinig ko. Itinulak naman ako ni Ian pababa signalling that he wanted me to touch his tool na ngayon ay bumabakat na sa suot nitong pantalon. Tumalima naman ako at agad na bumaba sa pagitan ng mga binti nito. I unbuttoned his pants and pulled it hanggang sa tuluyan ko itong mahubad. Napalunok ako at tila nawalan ng laway matapos kong muling makita ang makinis at maputing hita ni Ian. Matagal ko na ring hindi nakita ang parte na ito ni Ian, at aaminin ko, isa ito sa pinakapaborito kong parte ng katawan niya. I caressed his now exposed thigh as I felt him shivering under my touch.

I started to draw imaginary lines using my nail as I trailed my fingers on his flushed skin. He’s so smooth and soft. Nakarating ang mga daliri ko sa may garter ng suot nitong brief at dahan-dahan ko itong hinubad habang nakangising nakatitig sa kaniya. Nakakagat-labi naman nitong sinalubong ang mapanukso kong titig. Kita sa mga mata nito na hindi na siya makapaghintay. Ako rin, Ian. Ako rin.

“A-Akie…”

“I know, Ian. Be patient” I chuckled.

“No! M-Make it fast!” Reklamo nito. Napa-iling nalang ako.

“That’s not the proper way how to say please to daddy” Patuloy kong pang-aasar. Gusto kong subukan kung sasab—

“D-Daddy, please” Pagsusumamo nito. Humawak ito sa akin at nahihiyang ikinuskos ang pisngi nito sa sariling balikat. Napatigil ako. Sandaling lumaki ang mga mata ko at naiwang naka-awang ang bibig ko.

Fuck! That’s fucking cute . I muttered to myself. I growled because of what he did. Iba ang epekto sa akin ng mga simpleng bagay na ginagawa ni Ian. Dahil sa ginawa ni Ian ay mas lalong nagwala ang laman ko. I ripped his underwear apart as Ian squealed.

“Akie!” He hissed. I shrugged it off. I can’t help it especially if he’s like this. Humalik ako sa malambot niyang hita. Pinadaan ko rin ng aking dila ang maputi nitong hita.

“You’re so soft” I said as I surprised him by biting on a particular spot near his shaft.

“Ahh!” Palahaw nito sa sakit. Binigyan ko naman ng mumunting halik ang marka na iniwan ko rito. Napadako ang mga mata ko sa alaga nito na ngayon ay naglalabas ng paunang katas. My hand went to caress his erected manhood. Katamtaman ang laki nito kumpara sa akin. Makinis ito at malinis. Kaya naman hindi ako nandiri noon noong sinubo ko ito. Pinanuyuan ako ng laway nang maalala ko ang bawat detalye ng eksena na nangyari sa amin noon. Sinimulan kong igalaw ang kamay ko pababa at pataas sa kaniya. Kita ko naman na napapikit si Ian. Hinigpitan ko ang pagkakahawak dito at tila mas lalong nabaliw si Ian.

“Argh! A-Ah…” He groaned. Mas binilisan ko ang paggalaw ng kamay ko kaya naman hindi magkamayaw si Ian sa pag-ungol. Napapa-arko pa ang katawan nito.

“A-Akie… s-suck i-it… plea… se! A-Ahh!” Hindi siya halos makabuo ng pangungusap dahil sa patuloy kong ginagawa.

“What? Anong ibig mo—” Tumawa ako nang hampasin ako ni Ian. “Okay, okay. Masusunod, kamahalan” I chuckled. I love teasing Ian but I love pleasing him more. Hearing his moans and cries of pleasure is a different kind of playlists. Kailangan kong paalalahan ang sarili ko na irecord ang ungol ni Ian para gawing alarm o ringtone. That would be nice.

Bumaba ang ulo ko sa kahabaan ni Ian at sinimulan kong dilaan ang ulo nito. Nalasahan ko ang paunang katas niya at sobrang tamis nito. Marahil ay dahil sa mamahaling inumin na ininom nito noong nasa bar pa lang kami. Nakakatakam. Kaya naman hindi na ako nag-atubili pa at sinubo ko na ito nang buo.

Doing these wasn’t foreign at all dahil bukod sa nagawa ko na ito sa kaniya noon ay naging dahilan rin ang paghihiwalay namin ni Ian. Matapos kasi niyang umalis papunta sa Canda ay sinubukan kong pumasok sa iba’t-ibang relasyon hoping it would make my desolation for him vanished, pero hindi nangyari ang inasahan ko. Nauwi lang sa seks ang mga relasyon na napasok ko. I tried making out with a lot of girls and even guys pero walang nangyari. Si Ian at si Ian pa rin ang hinahanap-hanap ko. Mas lalo lang akong nangulila sa kaniya.

Lumakas ang mga ungol ni Ian as I started to bob my head. I could feel every inch of him pulsating inside my mouth. Sa bawat pagtaas at pagbaba ng ulo ko ay siya naman ang palahaw at pag-ungot nito. Mahigpit na rin siyang napasabunot sa buhok ko.

“Ahh… A-Akie… ma-mala… pit na…” Agad kong niluwa ang kahabaan niya at mabilis na sinalsal ito. I went back on his swollen nipples and bit on it harshly. Ian cried out loud. I sucked his nipples as I maneuvered my hands on his manhood simultaneously. Tila wala akong kasawaan sa ginagawa ko. No, I will never get tired doing these. Actually, I could do this all night long.

Mas hinigpitan ko ang pagkakasakal sa kahabaan niya kaya naman mas lalong lumakas ang pag-ungol nito. Hindi pa nagtagal ay umalingawngaw ang malakas na sigaw ni Ian sa paligid ng kwarto na tinutuluyan ko kasabay ang pagpulandit ng katas nito sa aking mga kamay. Agad ko siyang hinalikan sa labi upang pigilan ang ungol nito at baka may makarinig pa sa amin. Hinihingal na bumagsak ang naka-arko nitong katawan sa kama. Kinuha ko ang sira nitong underwear at ginamit upang linisin ang inilabas ni Ian. Nakasara na ang mga talukap ng mata nito nang tignan ko siya. Mahina akong tumawa. May balak pa ata akong tulugan ng isang ’to.

Inilapit ko ang bibig ko sa tainga niya at mahalay na bulong. “That’s not fair, Ian. Daddy is not yet done.” Kumagat ako ilalim ng tainga nito bago ko siya binuhat nang pangkasal. Napamugalat naman siya nang maramdaman niya ang pagtaas sa ere.

Kumapit ito sa balikat ko as I steadied my hold on him. “Now, Ian. Give me my damn reward.” I said as made my way on the small shower room na nasa kuwarto.

C H A P T E R - 053

[Read at your own risk]

3rd Person Point of View

“Ahhngh!” Broken moans resounded as Akie tried to stick Ian’s hole using his frisky tongue. Ian’s moan vibrated inside the every corner of the bathroom they’re in after feeling Akie’s tongue probing his behind. Akie were having fun playing Ian’s awaiting hole. He didn’t anticipated to lick the wet and tight cave as he felt satisfaction only by hearing Ian’s constant moans.

Ian’s small frame were slouched against the wet wall as droplets of water trickled down to his pale and flustered body. His black locks were damped. It was now hanging on his forehead that barely covers his eyes. Mariing nakapikit ang mga mata niya saliwa sa kaniyang bibig na ngayon ay naka-awang dahil sa hindi mapigilang pag-ungol. Si Akie naman ay nakaluhod sa likuran ni Ian habang binibigyan ng kakaibang kaligayahan ang kasintahan. Both were having tingling sensations on the pit of their stomach. Both figures were coated by emitting heat and warmth that their bodies releases. They’re now on an isolated feeling of a sensationalized desires to be as one.

Ian could barely held a strong grip and a steady footing as Akie tried to suck his now sticky hole. His breathing became so dense and heavy as he tried to catch his breath with the same pace as how Akie was probing his rear.

Akie on the other hand could barely restrain his beast as it uproar with desire to just devour Ian in whole. But he tried to keep his calm and controlled pacing. He doesn’t want to make this one too fast. He wanted to treasure this. He wanted to film this scene on his head. He wanted to mark this day as a symbol of him and Ian meeting each soul’s halves. A symbol of him and Ian finding the love that they used to believe. Love that they knew would last forever.

“A-Akie, haah…” Ungol ni Ian nang maramdaman ang antisipasyon ng daliri ni Akie na ngayon ay nagsisimulang lakbayin ang bukana ng kaselanan niya.

“Fuck! You’re still as tight as before. Tell me, did you wait for me?” Akie teased. He sundered Ian’s butt cheeks to get a better view of the pinkish cave.

“How awful it is? Preserving this ass for my dick? I should feel lucky then. Should I?” Akie seductively said. He started probing the gaping hole using his index finger.

Ian would normally be humiliated by this as he will smack Akie. But right now, all he felt was the dominance of the man working on his behind and on how he should be submissive. Hindi na nakuhang magsalita ni Ian dala ng kakaibang sarap na bumabalot sa kaniyang sistema. He simply nodded as he tried to move his rear in sync with Akie’s venturing fingers.

Ian was never been a virgin since Akie and him already done this before. But that was the last time he did this to another man. Since they broke up, Ian focused more on his studies more than anything else.

Akie hoarsely growled as he thought of Sam not getting laid by another man. He felt a sudden waves of pride striking him as he thought of entering Ian by him and his dick alone. He felt the recognition of being Ian’s man dahil sa hindi ito nagalaw ng iba. Pakiramdam niya ay kaniyang-kaniya ang buong pagkatao ng kasintahan. He just felt sorry for not having enough control dahil nagawa niyang makipagtalik sa iba simula nang maghiwalay sila. But he will make sure that starting from this day, he will do things like this with Ian, and with Ian alone.

“Ahhh!” Ian moaned sexily as he felt Akie’s finger poking his inside. Akie’s finger were now delving Ian’s flesh as both of them felt pleasures that satisfies their lusts. Hindi pa rito nakuntento si Akie at sinabayan pa niyang dilaan ang butas ni Ian. He strated to swirl his tongue along with his impish finger that drives Ian crazy. Akie expertly devoured Ian’s hole as the poor boy did nothing but moan.

Mas lumakas pa ang mga ungol ni Ian nang gawing dalawa ni Akie ang daliri na nakapasok sa butas nito. Akie scissored the swollen hole as Ian cried out loud because of the pleasure and pain. Ian’s toes curled as he couldn’t stand the pleasure he’s feeling. His face were flushed with red hue. His body were all wet and sweaty. His eyes were tightly closed while his mouth were sexily opened as it gasped for air. He was making lewd noises that brings pride and satisfaction to the lion behind him.

With Ian’s moans and grunts of pleasure, Akie get pleasured too. They are both enjoying the lewd noises that their bodies were making. But the anticipation and excitement of becoming one brings suspense of serenity to their souls.

Hindi tumigil si Akie sa ginagawang pag-angkin sa likuran ni Ian. Mas pinalalim pa nito ang ginawang paghalukay sa butas nito kaya naman hindi magkamayaw sa pagpalahaw si Ian.

Ian’s hand went down to his shaft as he felt the urge of jerking himself off to make a release. But a strong grip on his wrist stopped his hand to go any further.

Akie’s free and calloused hand went to stop Ian from jerking his own.

“Akie! I-I want to cum!” Ian demanded. He tried to haul his hand but it was futile. Mahigpit ang ginawang pagkakahawak ni Akie sa kamay niya.

“No, darling. You can’t yet” Akie tantalizingly said. Tuso itong ngumisi. He’s planning to tease Ian more. He wanted to see Ian begging for him to get fucked. Plus, he doesn’t want to make this night short.

Ian groaned out of frustration. He’s having this weird and tingling sensation on the pit of his stomach waiting to be released. Akie’s teasing tongue and frisky finger never stopped pleasing him kaya hindi niya mapigilang panigasan at madama ang pagbabadyang pagsirit ng kaniyang katas.

But Akie is now dedicated to tease Ian until the young man cries for him just to have a release. For Akie, that would be a great sight.

Ian tried to bent his waist. Mutely telling that he wanted to make it deeper and hollow. He’s getting impatient. Akie only chuckled after noticing that Ian is being the same impatient kitten that he is.

Tumigil si Akie sa ginagawa. Tumayo ito galing sa pagkakaluhod at iniharap si Ian sa kaniya. Ang isang kamay nito ay parehong hinawakan ang dalawang kamay ni Ian at inilagay sa likuran nito. Habang ang isang kamay naman niya ay dumako sa batok ni Ian. It delved deep to his locks as he took a strong grip on Ian’s black strands. Akie tugged Ian’s locks as Ian groaned in pain. Nakatingala ito kay Akie. Tinatamaan ng tubig galing sa shower ang kaniyang mukha kaya naman mariin itong pumikit. Naiwan naman na naka-awang ang kaniyang bibig.

Akie bit his lip. His eyes were now filled with strong lust. He got aroused after seeing Ian’s current look. Ian were flushed, trembling, vulnerable, sexy, and hot. All at once. It was an obscene image. This adds fire and burning desire for Akie. It drives the taller man out of his own sanity.

“I thought you’re giving me my reward?” Bulong ni Akie sa tainga ni Ian. Ian felt shivers down to his spine. But instead of getting intimidated, he felt aroused.

Maamong tumango si Ian bilang sagot. Napakagat labi naman si Akie at marahang napa-iling. Nagulat siya sa naging reaksiyon ni Ian. He couldn’t understand the way Ian was acting. The young man was acting innocent and all without even knowing that he’s being lewd and naughty at the same time.

“So why are you getting all riled up? Hindi ba dapat ako ang masusunod sa kung anong gusto kong gawin sa regalo ko?” Bulong ni Akie habang marahang kinakagat ang tainga ni Ian. Bumaba ang mga labi nito sa nakalantad na leeg ni Ian at doon marahas na ipinagpatuloy ang ginagawang pagkagat.

“Ahh! Hah! Haa!” Ungol ni Ian matapos sumipsip si Akie sa sensitibong parte ng kaniyang leeg.

“A-Akieee!” Mahabang ungol nito nang dumakong muli ang mga labi ni Akie sa kanina na nitong nilaro na dibdib. Akie swirled his tongue on the hard nipple. He nipped on it as Ian did nothing but moan louder than before.

“A-Akie!” Ian’s broken sobs reverberated. Tumigil si Akie sa ginagawang pagsipsip, pagkagat at paglalaro sa namumulang dibdib ni Ian. Muli niyang pinagmasdan ang ngayong namumulang mga pisngi ni Ian na may mga bakas ng natuyong luha na nilalandasan ng mga patak ng tubig mula sa dutsa na nakakabit sa baldosadong pader kung saan nakasandal ang kanilang mga katawan.

Ian panted heavily. His shaft were now throbbing so bad. It was waiting to be touched. It’s waiting for some contact. It’s waiting for a release.

Ian opened his watery eyes. Bumuhos ang maraming luha mula sa bilugan nitong mga mata.

“P-Please! P-Put it in” Ian begged. Napahinto si Akie. Nandilim ang kaniyang mga mata dahil sa libog. He gritted his teeth to stop his inner demon to just fuck Ian non-stop raw. His inner lion were screaming on top of its lungs because of the excitement to get Ian under him.

Tumawa si Akie na tila demonyo hanggang sa humina na lamang ito dahil sa pagkapaos ng kaniyang boses. Ipinatong nito ang kaniyang ulo sa balikat ni Ian.

“Damn, you’re killing me!” Akie raspily mumbled. He kissed the blazer of Ian’s shoulder. Umakyat ito sa panga ni Ian at pinasadahan niya ito gamit ang malapad at mahaba niyang dila. Napa-ungot naman si Ian nang maramdaman ang namamasa at mainit na dila ng kasintahan.

Hindi nagtagal ay narating ng labi ni Akie ang bahadyang naka-awang na bibig ni Ian. Agad na nagtagpo ang kanilang mga labi. Parehong uhaw sa init, dulas, at sarap sa labi ng bawat isa.

Ian could feel the superiority of Akie’s tongue as it dominated the invasion of the foreign cave. Nagtagpo ang kanilang mga dila at marubdob na nagpalitan ng laway. The young man whimpered as Akie’s rough tongue ravished his soft and innocent one. Their tongue meddled as it enticed noises that left them needy and excited.

Akie bit on the swollen lip. A wisp of blood trickled on Ian’s bottom lip as Akie’s tongue quickly and seductively licked the viscous liquid. He hummed after having a taste of the rusty liquid. Pero dahil sa libog ay napalitan ito ng tamis.

Mula sa batok ni Ian ay mabilis na bumaba ang kaliwang kamay ni Akie sa likurang bahagi ni Ian. Sinimulan niya muling pasukin ang bukana ng kasintahan gamit ang mga daliri. Dalawang daliri agad ang ipinasok nito.

Hindi na siya makapaghintay na mapasok at muling maangkin si Ian. Hindi na siya makapaghintay na muli itong mamarkahan at masabing kaniya.

Patuloy ang dalawa sa halikan. Umungol si Ian nang maramdaman ang mga daliri ni Akie na nagsimula na muling laruin ang kaniyang lagusan. The moan of pleasure goes directly to Akie’s core pushing the man into his beast mode.

Akie grabbed Ian’s waist and before it could register, Ian found himself getting flipped by the taller man. In just a blink of an eye, Ian was now facing the tiled and wet wall yet again. His back was facing Akie.

Hawak pa rin ni Akie ang dalawang kamay ni Ian na mahigpit na nakalagay sa likuran nito. Tinulak niya nang bahagya ang itaas na bahagi ng likuran nito kaya naman napatuwad si Ian. Gamit ang kaniyang paa, pinaghiwalay nito ang dalawang binti ni Ian.

Akie leant forward at mapang-akit na kinagat ang tainga ni Ian. Ian whimpered out of anticipation when he felt the hardened beast poking on his behind.

“May I now claim my reward, Ian?” Saad ni Akie gamit ang malalim at magaspang na boses. Kinilabutan naman si Ian dahil sa pagiging dominante sa tono ng boses nito.

Akie started to grind his hip on Ian’s naked butt. The beast were being pressed on the fleshy ass. Ian could feel the hard, large and thick meat that is about to tear him apart. Pero hindi siya natakot o pinigilan man lang si Akie.

He knew he couldn’t backed out of his promise. Besides, he wanted this too. Gusto rin niyang ipakita kay Akie na totoo siyang nagpapasalamat sa pagmamahal na ipinapadama nito kaya nais niya itong suklian sa pamamagitan ng bagay na alam niyang magpapatunay sa pagmamahal na nararamdaman din niya para kay Akie.

“W-Wait!” Pagpigil ni Ian nang maramdaman niya ang ulo ng pagkalalaki ni Akie na unti-unting pumapasok sa naglalawa niyang butas. Huminto si Akie. Nakangisi nitong hinintay ang mga susunod na sasabihin ni Ian.

“I-I want to suck yours too” Ian timidly muttered. He tried to reach the hardened shaft pero hinampas ni Akie ang kamay nito.

Akie snickered. Muli niyang inihinarap si Ian at muling sinabunutan ang buhok nito sa batok. Inilapit niya ang kaniyang mukha kay Ian tsaka marahang dinilaan ang pisngi nito. He went to Ian’s buttoned nose and gingerly kissed it, leaving butterfly kisses all over Ian’s small face.

“You want to suck me, you filthy man?” Akie darkly whispered. He pressed the pricking dick on Ian’s hip bone.

Napalunok naman si Ian dahil sa pakiramdam niya ay ibang tao na ang nasa harap niya. Masiyado nang okupado ng libog si Akie.

“Are you sure? You know you don’t have to,” saad ni Akie. “Daddy can do all the work, baby” He said in a flirty manner.

“P-Pero, I… want to serve you” Ian innocently mumbled. Si Akie naman ngayon ang napalunok. He tugged a little bit harder on the silky locks. Inilapit niya si Ian sa kaniya at mapang-angkin na niyakap. Sinamyo ni Akie ang bango at halimuyak ng buhok nito.

“Shit! You’re too irresistible!” Atungal ni Akie habang mariing nakapikit ang mga mata at tiim-bagang na pinapakalma ang sarili.

“Are you aware of that?” He kissed the soft and wet locks. Ian was just too much for him. Hindi lingid sa kaniya na nasasaktan na niya ang kapareha at kung magkataon na hindi niya mapigil ang sarili, baka triple pa ang abutin ni Ian.

Marahang umiling si Ian. Tumingala siya upang magtama ang kanilang mga mata. Kita sa mga nangungusap na mga mata ni Ian ang paki-usap na pumayag si Akie sa gusto niyang gawin.

Akie snorted. His eyes darkened for a second. A dark and mischievous smirk was painted across his thick lips.

“Serve your daddy then” Kalmado pero malalim ang boses na saad ni Akie. Akie let go of the grip that’s keeping Ian’s hands on its back.

Ian obediently kneeled. Namula at napalunok siya nang masaksihan muli ang laki at haba ng pagkalalaki ni Akie. He knew it wasn’t a good idea to do things like this. Lalo na kung hindi ka sanay na

But he do want to give Akie the pleasure. He really do. Lagi na lang kasing ito ang nagbibigay ng serbisyo sa kanilang dalawa. But little did Ian know, for Akie, pleasuring him is a pleasure for him too.

Napa-ungot si Akie nang maramdaman ang malambot at maliit na kamay ni Ian na sumasakal sa pagkalalaki niya. Ian started to maneuver his hands up and down on the hardened cock. Tumingala ito upang pagmasdan ang reaksiyon ni Akie. Nakatitig lang sa kaniya si Akie na tila hinihintay ang mga susunod nitong gagawin.

Unti-unting inilapit ni Ian ang bibig niya sa pagkalalaki ni Akie na ngayon ay naglalabas na ng paunang katas. Inilabas niya ang kaniyang dila at pinasadahan ang ulo ng ari nito. Akie growled on the foreign excitement na naramdaman niya. Hindi na bago sa kaniya na masubo dahil sa mga naging experiences niya but Ian’s lips and tongue is way more different from others. It brings heat all throughout his system. It drives him crazy. Pagdila pa lang ang ginawa ni Ian pero malaki na agad ang epekto nito sa kaniya.

Nabigla si Akie nang isubong buo ni Ian ang ulo ng pagkalalaki niya. Naramdaman niya ang kipot at init ng bibig nito. This is the first time na masubo siya ni Ian. He never expected that Ian would set aside his pride to pleasure him. Ayaw niyang pilitin si Ian na gawin ito pero dahil ito mismo ang may gustong gawin ito, then, why would he decline?

Hindi rin siya nagsisisi dahil ganito pala kasarap ang masubo ng taong kinaa-adikan mo.

Nagsimulang tumaas baba ang ulo ni Ian. He had done this thing once before. Noong pinilit siya ni Kenneth. But he’s still new to this.

Akie grunted as he felt the sloppy mouth trying to suck him whole. Hindi mahusay si Ian sa ginagawa. Halos sumabit ang mga ngipin nito sa tuwing sinusubukan nitong palalimin ang ginagawang pagsubo. But Akie felt sensually aroused. Ian wasn’t that good compared to his other experiences but just the fact that it was Ian who’s pleasing him, sucking him, and kneeling in front of him is good enough for him to feel satisfied.

“Fuck!” Akie moaned as Ian swirled his hot and slippy tongue on the tip of Akie’s manhood while it was still on his mouth. Natuwa si Ian nang marinig ang malalim na pag-ungol ng lalaking linuluhuran kaya naman sinubukan niyang isubo nang buo ang kabuuan ng paalaki ni Akie pero dahil sa hindi pa siya sana’y sa laki nito ay nabigo siya.

Ian gagged. Akie chuckled as he thought of how novice Ian was and yet he’s still pushing his self to suck him off.

Ian gasped for air. He swept his mouth using his palm.

“Ian, that’s enou—” Akie was about to stop Ian but the young man immediately took a grip on Akie’s manhood. Mabilis na sinubo ni Ian ang pagkalalaki ni Akie. But now, Ian was careful not to gag himself. Halos kalahati lang ang kinayanan nito at sinalsal na lamang ang ibabang parte ng pagkalalaki ni Akie.

“Shit!” Akie growled as he braced his hands on the wall to keep his footing. Nagulat si Akie nang maging agresibo si Ian sa ginawang pagsubo at halos eksperto nitong sinamba ang pagkalalaki niya.

Ian expertly moved his head up and down on Akie’s manhood. Sandaling minuto pa lamang niya itong naisusubo ngunit determindo itong mapaligaya ang kapareha. Naroong sisipsipin niya ang ulo nito. Sinubukan niya muling isubo nang buo ngunit hindi talaga niya kaya. Kaya nagpatuloy na lamang siya sa pagsubo ng ulo habang sinasalsal ang katawan nito.

Akie get pleasured. Mariin niyang naipikit ang mga mata nang pasikipin ni Ian ang pagkakasubo sa kaniyang sandata. Sinimulan niyang igalaw ang kaniyang baywang. He could feel the wetness and tightness of Ian’s mouth. It was the most delactable and bizarre feeling that he felt for years.

“Fuck! This… feels good! Ha-ah!” Saad ni Akie sa pagitan ng kaniyang ungol. Humawak ang isang kamay nito sa buhok ni Ian at marahas na ibinaon ang kaniyang pagkalalaki sa bibig nito.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ni Ian nang maramdaman ang ulo ng ari ni Akie na tumatama sa lalamunan niya. He tapped Akie’s abodomen. Signalling that he’s running out of breathe. Tila naman nawala si Akie sa sarili dala ng naramdamang sarap na dulot ng bibig ni Ian.

Ian started to sob as he felt the urgency to gasp for some air. Akie stopped after hearing the small and soft cries of the man below him. Releasing Ian’s hair as the poor man catches his breath. He muttured a raspy ‘fuck’ after realizing that he’d gone too far.

Akie breathed a heavy sigh. Inalalayan niyang makatayo si Ian. Akie wiped the tears on Ian’s ablushed cheeks. He leant forward to kiss Ian’s watery eyes. Silently telling sorry for what he have done. He pulled Ian closer to him. Ian burried his face on the muscled chest.

“I’m sorry. I went too far. Let’s just stop—”

“NO!” Ian repressed. Bahagya siyang humiwalay sa pagkakayakap ni Akie. Tumingkayad ito at ipinulupot ang mga kamay sa batok ng kasintahan.

“I told you. I want this!” Ian whispered. “You don’t have to hold back. I want you now. Let’s make some love. Claim me as yours,” Ian’s longing and submissive tone struck Akie. Ian sweetly smiled. Akie gently smiled as a return.

“Mark me as yours ’coz I’m completely yours, Akie. I’m all yours” Ian flirted with a tinge of seriousness on his remark. Keeping the heat intact while confessing how inlove he is with the taller man.

Ian squealed as Akie pulled him up. Hawak siya nito sa magkabilang binti. Mahigpit siyang kumapit sa braso ni Akie. Isinandal siya nito sa pader ng banyo.

Naglapat ang kanilang mga labi. Mas mabagal kumpara kanina. Ipinaparamdam ng bawat isa ang pananabik at pagkatuwa ng nalalapit nilang pag-iisang katawan. Tumigil ang dalawa sa paghahalikan nang maramdaman ang kawalan ng hangin sa baga. Pareho silang naghabol ng hininga matapos ang mahaba at marubodob na halikan.

“Likewise, Ian. You’re mine… and I’m yours” Bulong ni Akie at muling kumunekta ang labi nito sa naka-awang na labi ni Ian.

The cold sensation of the fluid gradually burnt as the fire of their love seize them.

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This one was supposed to remain PG! Lol! But honestly, sorry kung lame ’yung UD. Feeling ko tuloy na-disappoint ko kayo.

Plus! H’wag kayong mag-alala. Last sex scene na ’to. Kinakailangan lang talaga na mangyari ang eksenang ’to para sa mga susunod na pangyayari. I don’t necessarily want to make obscene scenes neither (since I realized it was never been my genre) but again, I have to.

P.S

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Ian’s POV

I groaned as I felt a twinging pain on my head. Bwiset na alak ’yan! Does alcohol needed to be that loaded? I mean, ugh! All I just wanted is to forget but look what the heck I’ve all got, a freaking headache.

I inhaled as I calmed myself. I adjusted my senses to stay relaxed and light. Eventually, I could feel my heavy tenses easing up.

Nakaramdam ako ng bigat na tila ba may nakapatanong sa katawan ko. I slowly opened my eyes, adjusting from the dimly light that’s directly coating my vision.

Pagkadilat na pagkadilat ng mga mata ko ay agad na dumako ang atensiyon ko sa lalaking nakasandal ang mga hita sa baiwang ko. Our body were covered with a soft and white comforter. But still I could feel his stiff body that’s on top of mine.

Half of his body were all over my body. I could feel his weight. Nakayakap sa tiyan ko ang isa nitong kamay samantalang marahan ngunit protektado naman nitong yakap ang aking ulunan habang nakalapat ang aking pisngi sa maskulado nitong dibdib. He’s engulfing my small frame with his hot, lean and muscled frame. Para siyang bata na yakap ang paborito nitong unan, and I liked it.

I feel safe and secured, as if no one could harm me— even my slightest doubts.

Ramdam ko ang kapayapaan at tanging ang banayad na pagtibok lamang ng puso nito ang naririnig ko. Pati na rin ang mabini nitong paghinga na tila musika sa aking tainga.

It brings chills of comfort all over my system. Though it was rigid, it was actually soothing like a lullaby and serenade.

I backed slightly to have a better view of him. I tilted my head to heighten my gaze on his face. I smiled contently after seeing his serene look. Ngayon ko na lang ulit nakita si Akie nang ganito kalapit. Napaka-aliwas ng mukha niya.

He look so pure and peaceful. His usual sturdy and taunting eyes were now closed and so I chuckled for not having the need to deal with his compelling attitude. His lips were now at a steady position. Not on a grinning or smirking state. His mischievous smile were now out of the game. All that was left was his hanging innocent, red, and thick lips. Slightly gaping and letting all the possible fresh oxygen to enter him.

Napalunok ako. Nakaramdam ako ng panandaliang uhaw. Nanatiling nakatutok ang mga mata ko sa naka-awang niyang labi.

I tried to kiss his gaping lips. I locked our lips momentarily. Mabilis lang ang ginawa kong paghalik at agad din akong kumalas.

Pinamulahan ako ng pisngi. Masiyado na akong naadik sa labi niya. Hindi naman ako ganito noon. I’m not that bold and brave enough to kiss someone. But when Akie came on the picture, I found my timid self getting out of its shell.

He magically brought the best out of me.

This is not my usual deeds. Most especially, I’m not used of kissing someone while they’re asleep. I mean, that could lead on a possible harassment! He’s not aware and so I shouldn’t— argh! Why am I overthinking? Napasabunot na lang ako sa buhok ko.

He’s my boyfriend! W-Wala naman sigurong masama kung hahalikan ko siya ’di ba?

I tried to shook my head. Kung anu-anong pumapasok sa isip ko. Iba talaga epekto ng lalaking ’to sa akin.

He whimpered. He slightly squirmed and so I suddenly felt something. Something hard and calloused.

I blushed as I felt his manhood that’s now poking my hip bone. Signalling that he’s having his morning wood. Napalunok ako as I felt the heat that it naturally emits. I felt conscious with how huge his thing actually was.

Mas namula pa ako nang maalala ko lahat ng nangyari kagabi. Kahit okupado ako ng alak, tanda ko pa rin ang mga kalaswaan at kahihiyan na nagawa ko.

Kung paano ko inakit si Akie. Kung paano ako pumatong sa kaniya. Kung paanong lumuhod at sinubo ko ang kaniya. Kung paanong magmakaawa ako na pasukin niya. Kung paanong pumalahaw ako sa sensasiyon na naramdaman ko. Lastly, on how the fuck I initiated it all! Argh!

Darn it! I may be crazy that night. How messed up I was? All those images were a bit vague but I could still remember it all. Everything.

Mas lalo tuloy akong nag-init nang maalala ko lahat ng kalokohan ko. Tiyak akong gagamitin ’to ni Akie para asarin at pikunin ako. I’m sure he’ll use this for his signature ‘pang-aasar’ for the rest of our lives.

B-But I don’t care. I knew I want it all. I knew I really do love him that’s why I’ve done those things. I really do want to share the love we’re both feeling. The love that made my tummy fluttered. The love that gives tingles down to my spine. The love that gives butterflies to my stomach; and too much I couldn’t bound it anymore.

The love that made me realize that I was worthy; though my life is nothing but a piece of mess. Gusto kong ipakita sa kaniya ang pagmamahal at pasasalamat ko for being the realest person na nasa tabi ko ngayon. For being the only person that has been here, proving that he was genuine and that I’m not that unfortunate than the thought I actually was.

That my life isn’t a cursed story.

Sigh. Enough for all these sentiments. Mamaya umiyak na naman ako. But I bet all my tears have come dry?

Malalim akong bumuntong-hininga. Masiyado ko na palang pinoproblema ’yung narinig ko kahapon. Masiyado yata akong inunahan ng emosyon ko. Panandalian akong pinuno ng galit at gulat. Nakalimutan ko munang makinig.

I forgot what I’ve learned during my RSPC noong grade school. To listen is to understand. I remember how dumb I was not to listen carefully for the whole duration of the instructor who’s giving the instructions. Kaya natalo ako.

I was a fool back then, and I did it again.

I’ll wait for the time na magka-usap kami ni sir… I mean ng totoo kong tatay. I’m sure he will explain everything.

Though hindi ko alam kung kailan ako magiging handa para harapin siya pero I should be brave to confront him. From that, I’m very sure we could all settle for concord. I believe sir Luis deserves the chance to explain his side, and I’ll be glad to give him the chance to. Besides, this is for the both of us. The best for the both of us.

Gaya rin ng naging pag-uusap namin ni Akie noong ikalawang gabi ko rito sa Serene 771. Nakuha naming maunawaan ang parehong panig. Natutunan ko na, ang kailangan mo lang ay makinig. It may sound hard, but I’m sure everything will be worth to understand.

Totoo na masakit sa part ko na malaman na ampon lang pala ako. But, may reason naman si sir Luis. We just have to set a standard closure.

Tsaka isa pa, habang pinupuno ako ng alak kagabi. I realized that everything happens for a reason. That all these happenings has its own reason. Maybe I was destined to meet mama, papa and kuya. Maybe I was destined to meet those wonderful people— to meet the person who’s now on my side.

Fortunately, every cloud has a silver lining ; and maybe that was me and Akie ending up together again. Above all these fvcking revelations, I have him by my side. And I think that was enough for me to stand still.

Sabi nga nila, no matter how fucked up your situation was, just look up the sky ’coz there’s always rainbow after the rain.

Hays. Pwede ba, Ian, tama na nga ’tong pagdadrama.

Doktor

ka at hindi

makata

! I mentally scowled myself.

Mabuti pa linisan ko na muna ’yung katawanan ko, para naman mahimasmasan ang pakiramdam ko kahit papaano.

Kailangan ko rin paalalahanan ang sarili na sa sikmura at hindi sa utak inilalagay ang alak. Hindi maganda kung dinadala sa utak ang alak.

I threw my body against him. He’s too damn heavy! And why does he needed to be this clingy? Ang hirap tuloy kumalas sa kaniya!

I tried to strip his hands off of me without the chance of disrupting his deep slumber. I made it successfully without waking him up. Hindi ko lang alam kung dahil naging marahan ba ako o dahil natural na malalim lamang ang kaniyang pagkakatulog.

Mukhang napagod siya kagab— ugh! Pwede ba?! Enough for those thoughts, Ian!

I pushed myself out of the bed but I miserably failed. Muli lamang akong napabalik sa pagkakahiga.

“Shit!” I hissed after feeling the unbearable pain down on my rear.

I shouldn’t have drank those liquors. Now look how fucked I was. And what the fuck does Akie did? I’m sure he didn’t overfuck me, didn’t he?

“Argh!” Ungot ko dahil sa sakit. Freaking hell. Now I’m very sure na sumobra nga si Akie kagabi.

“Ian?” Pagtawag sa akin ng lalaking katabi ko. Paos at magaspang ang boses nito. Nilingon ko siya at sinamaan ng tingin. Kinusot nito ang mga mata gamit ang kaniyang kamay.

“Gising ka na pala. Goodmorning!” Yayakap pa sana siya pero agad ko siyang sinungitan.

“Walang maganda sa umaga,” lalo na kung gigising ka sa ganitong estado. Ang hirap kaya gumalaw!

I tried to lift my body once again and this time, nagtagumpay na ako. I relaxed a little bit. Naramdaman ko naman na bumangon rin siya at naupo sa tabi ko.

“Hey, why are you acting so moody all of a sudden?” Tanong nito. Humarap ako sa kaniya at tinitigan ko siya na para bang papatay na ako ng tao.

He chuckled. Nakuha pa niya talaga akong pagtawan? I rolled my eyes. Tumayo na ako pero napatili ako nang hilahin ako ni Akie pabalik sa kama. I end up sitting on his lap. Napakapit ako sa kaniyang mga braso.

Agad kong naramdaman ang matinding pag-init ng mukha ko. Hindi ko na ininda ang sakit sa likuran ko. Pero napangiwi pa rin ako.

I saw Akie’s eyes flickered down to my lower body part, as if reckoning my whole body for why did I winced.

Our thing were inches apart from touching each other. Iniwas ko agad ang mga mata ko sa nakatirik niyang pagkalalaki. Nahihiya pa rin ako sa tuwing makikita ko ang kahubaran niya. Pagak siyang tumawa.

“Why is my baby so grumpy?” He teased, his voice were oozing with interest. “Bakit, may masakit ba sa baby?” Tukoy niya sa likod ko habang unti-unting lumalandas ang mga kamay niya sa likuran ko.

May bahid ng pang-aasar sa tono nito gamit ang boses ng isang matanda na tila inusisa ang sanggol na anak kung may masakit ba sa isang espesipikong parte ng katawan nito.

Namula ako dahil sa pagkapikon. Alam niyang hindi ko gusto kapag inaasar ako. Pero nakuha pa rin niyang tukuyin ang bagay na ’yon.

“A-Akie!” Pagprotesta ko.

“Why?” He smirked.

“Stop calling me b-baby. We’re not teenager anymore!” I exclaimed.

“Tsk. Don’t be silly. Tatawagin kitang baby sa ayaw at sa gusto mo. Besides, I’m your daddy.” Kumagat pa siya ng labi at kumindat. Namula ako dahil sa mas naging gwapo siya sa mga mata ko. Wasn’t it illegal to be that attractive? How could someone be annoying yet charming?

“Daddy mo mukha mo!” I protested. Tinulak ko ’yung mukha niya palayo sa akin nang tinangka niya akong halikan.

Nahigit ko ang hininga ko matapos kong maramdaman ang pagpulso ng pagkalalaki niya na ngayon ay tumutusok na sa tiyan ko. Napalunok ako.

I blushed and shifted my gaze away from his teasing eyes. I could feel his smirk that’s burning my cheeks.

“Stop saying stuffs like that!” I murmured. Pero imbis na tumahimik, mas lumawak pa ’yung ngisi niya.

“Why should I? Don’t you remember? Ikaw kaya itong nagsimula,” napakunot naman ako ng noo. Napansin niyang hindi ko nakuha ang gusto niyang sabihin.

“P-PLEASE, AKIE. H-HARDER DADDY. AHH! UGH! ARGH! AHHH” Nanlaki ang mga mata ko matapos siyang umungol. I smacked him on his bare chest. Pulang-pula ang mukha ko.

Akie threw his head back and he roared with laughter. Napahinto ako. I was stunned. Imbis na maiinis at magalit ako dahil sa ginawa niya, I weirdly found myself smiling.

Ngayon ko na lang pala ulit nakita si Akie tumawa nang ganito. It was so light and genuine. His beaming laughter was as bright as the raylight of sun.

Huminto siya sa pagtawa, “Tanda mo na? You called me daddy first that’s why I’m calling you baby whether you wa—”

“Hey, why are you crying?” He paused.

Huh? I’m crying? Agad na pinunasan ni Akie ang mga luha na lumandas sa pisngi ko. Hindi ko namalayan na umiiyak na pala ako.

Akie smiled. “Okay, I’m sorry if I teased you. Sorry rin kung sumobra ako kagabi, ’di ko lang talaga napi—”

I cut his phrase off. Niyakap ko siya tsaka ibinulong ang mga salitang kanina ko pa gustong sabihin, “I love you!”

“Hey, hey! I know you love me but what’s wrong?” He whispered, his voice softening with sympathy. Nakatapat ang mga labi nito sa tainga ko. His warm breath made my body relaxed. Mas ibinaon ko pa ang mukha ko sa leeg niya.

“Okay, I love you too.” He softly replied. Yumakap rin siya sa bewang ko at pinaghatian namin ang init ng bawat isa.

Ilang minuto kaming nanatili sa ganoong posisyon until my mind gets fixed. I drew my body backward. I smiled as both of our eyes met.

“Sorry. I’m being weird and emotional and, uhm, weird again?” I said, unsure of what I’m actually feeling. Akie chuckled.

“You’re acting cute. I might lose my self and fuck you raw again.” He casually thought. Namula ulit ako. This man never failed to made my cheek flushy.

“Now, tell me what you are thinking,” he demanded.

Napakagat ako ng labi. Muling namuo ang luha sa mga mata ko pero binigay ko ang lahat para hindi maiyak. Ayokong magmukhang iyakin sa harapan ng isang ’to

“Nothing, really. I just realized that life had been so odd and so recently, everything seems so fucked but then having you by my side made it less… bleak,” I sighed.

“Masaya lang ako na kasama kita” I thoughtfully confessed. I grinned. Akie smiled in counter.

He pulled me close to him again and hugged me tightly. Sinamyo ko ang hubad niyang katawan. It was sweaty but it made my heavy tenses relaxed.

He started to draw circles on my thighs. I could feel his thing getting harder than before. But before I could utter something, Akie suddenly spoke.

“I know you’re thinking about what you heard yesterday. I’m sorry for that. Alam kong nabigla ka sa mga nalaman mo. But, I’m always here. I will always be here,” ngumiti siyang muli. Sasagot na sana ako pero agad siyang may kinuha sa may night table katabi ng kama sa tinutuluyan niyang cabin.

May inilabas siyang box. It was a box for jewels. It was filled with colors of royals. Halatang mamahalin ang laman.

Iniharap niya ito sa akin. He opened the box. Nabigla ako nang bumungad sa harap ko ang isang kuwintas. It was made out of silver. Plain and simple. But what catches my attention was the pendant that is similar to a four-leaf clover, but this one was accompanied by hearts as its leaves colored with royal red. It glimmers under the light. It was breathtaking.

Pero bakit niya sa akin ’to pinapakita? Kunot-noo akong napatingin kay Akie. Puno ng kuryisidad sa mga mata ko.

“What’s that?” I said, dumbfounded.

“Tsk. You’re not that smart as I thought you are.” He playfully rolled his eyes. I frowned at pinanliitan siya ng mata. He sighed.

“I want you to have this,” ani Akie kasabay ng pagkuha niya sa alam kong mamahaling kuwintas.

He leaned closer and reached behind my head. He placed the necklace and before it could get out of his grasp, his slender fingers dangled on its rim for a moment. Ibinaling niya ang mga mata rito bago nagtagpo ang mga mata naming dalawa. Seryoso niya akong tinitigan.

“For almost a decade, nangulila ako sa ’yo. Hinanap kita. I was mad for you leaving me alone and depressed. I was a mess that time, a complete mess. But then I found you… and I realized one thing,” sinimulan niyang haplusin ang pisngi ko. Ramdam ko ang magaspang at malapad nitong palad na dumadampi sa pisngi ko, “That… I was so lucky,” his thumb brushed my lower lips. Using his thumb, he pushed my lower lip down making my mouth slightly agape.

His eyes turned dark for a moment. Kinagat nito ang mga labi tsaka malademonyong ngumit. I blushed because he’s being his usual seductive self. Plus, the fact that I could still feel his friend that’s now standing tall and proud doesn’t actually helped me to remain sane. Mas lalo pa kasi itong tumigas at tila ba naging mas mapaghanap.

I was lost from my own thoughts but Akie spoke again.

“Mom gave this when I was young so that I can always remember her. This necklace symbolizes that to whom you’ll be giving this is that you want them to know that you were so lucky to have them,” tukoy niya sa kuwintas.

“So I’m giving you this for you to know that I was so lucky… to have you. Isa pa, gusto kong ibigay sa ’yo ’to bilang simbolismo na lagi akong mananatili sa tabi mo. Gaya na nga rin ng sinabi mo, no matter how everything seems fucked, I’ll always be here to make it less bleak. Ginago at pinabayaan kita noon, pero gusto kong malaman mo na mananatili ako dito sa tabi mo ngayon. Ayaw na kitang makitang umiyak at hinding-hindi na kita hahayaang lumuha pa. Dito lang ako,” mahaba niyang litanya. Mayabang siyang ngumisi at kumindat. Maluluha na sana ako eh, kaso puno ng kahambugan ang isang ’to.

“A-Akie,” mahina kong pagtawag sa kaniya gamit ang tono na halos maluha na. “Ang conry mo,” I suddenly cut the ambiance. Natawa ako dahil nawala ’yung pilyong ngiti ni Akie.

“Psh. Panira,” bumusangot ’yung mukha niya. I chuckled. Masiyado naman ’tong matampuhin. Minsan masarap din asarin ’yung mga taong ikaw lagi ang inaasar. Para makaganti lang.

“But thank you, really. I know you all mean it,” yumakap ako sa hubad at maskulado niyang katawan. Mas lalong nawala ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko dahil sa mga sinabi ni Akie. “Sabi ko na mahal na mahal mo ’ko eh!” I giggled. Akie just clicked his tongue.

“Yeah, yeah. Say what you want. Now, can I have this in return?” His hands started to venture my rear. Napa-ungot ako nang maramdaman ang daliri niya na unti-unting tinatahak ang bukana ng butas ko. I could feel the restrained anticipation.

Pero bago pa niya maipasok ang daliri niya ay agad ko na siyang pinigilan. Mabilis akong umiling na tila ba matatanggal na ang ulo ko dahil sa bilis nito.

“Bakit naman?” He darkly whispered. Sobrang lapit ng labi niya sa tainga ko. Umiling lang ako.

“But I want you again,” ipinatong niya ang kaniyang noo sa balikat ko. Hindi ko napigilang ngumiti. Halos mabugbog na ’yung kaselanan ko dahil sa ginawa niya kagabi tapos gusto na naman niya?

“Stop being horny, could you?!” I chuckled.

“Stop being sexy then,” he kissed the crook of my neck. His soft kisses made me blush.

“Argh!” I groaned and slightly pushed him.

“Tsk. Fine, I’ll stop. Maligo ka na. I’ll buy us breakfast,” utos nito at pareho kaming tumayo mula sa pagkakandong ko sa kaniya at siya naman ay mula sa pagkaka-upo sa kama.

“Okay,” I simply said iniwas ko ang mata ko sa pagkalalaki niya. Hindi naman sa nahihiya ako pero mamaya kasi tuksuhin na naman ako ng kapilyuhan ng lalaking ’to at kung saan pa mapunta ang lahat kapag nakita niyang nakatitig ako sa kaniya.

“P-Pero hindi ka ba muna maliligo?”

“You want us to bathe together?” He smirked.

“N-No, I was just—”

“Hindi na. Mamaya hindi pa ako makapagpigil. You take your bath para mawala ’yung pagkahilo mo, I know you’re still a bit dizzy due last night,” aniya sinumalang suotin ang mga pananamit na galing sa maleta nito. Kumuha rin siya ng isang boxer short at isang pulang jacket.

“Sinukahan mo ’yung suot mo kagabi at hindi ko napigilang masira yung underwear mo. Wear this instead,” iniabot niya sa akin ang jacket at boxers. I mumbled a soft ‘thank you’ but then, I blushed, remebering how he ripped my undies last night.

“Anong gusto mong kainin?” Tanong nito. Hindi ko naman sinasadyang mapatingin sa may ibabang parte ng katawan niya nang simulan niyang isuot ang pantalon na nakuha niya sa maleta. Muling bumalik ang tingin ko sa mukha niya at nakita kong muli ang pilyo at mapanuksong ngisi sa kaniyang labi.

“H-Hoy!” I protested. Alam ko kung anong iniisip niya. “B-Burger and pasta na lang,” mabilis kong sagot bago pa man niya sabihin ang bagay na ’yon. Mabilis akong tumalikod at tinungo ang maliit na banyo sa loob ng cabin. Narinig ko naman ang pagbukas at sara ng pinto hudyat na lumabas na si Akie.

Napabuntong hininga ako. He’s such a tease. Napailing at napangiti na lang ako. Bumalik na ang dating Akie. Ang dating mapang-asar at ang taong laging nandiyan sa tuwing natatakot akong harapin ang isang problema.

Hinawakan ko ang pendant ng kuwintas na binigay niya sa akin. He said he was lucky to have me. But little did he know, I was way more lucky to have him.

Sinimulan kong tanggalin sa pagkaka-lock ang kuwintas na ibinigay ni Akie upang mas makita ko ang ganda nito. I examined every single detail of the pendat. Sobrang ganda nito. Bigla akong napangiti. A symbol that Akie would always be here by my side.

Nagulat ako nang bigla kong marinig ang pagbukas ng pintuan ng cabin na tinutuluyan namin. Is that Akie? May nakalimutan kaya siya?

“Akie? Nakabalik ka na kaagad?” Tanong ko habang inilalagay sa cold temper ang tubig sa shower. Walang akong narinig na sagot mula sa kaniya kaya naman nagtaka ako.

Lumabas ako sa banyo upang silipin sana kung si Akie ba ’yung pumasok o guni-guni ko lang ba ’yung pagbukas ng pinto.

But in that nick of time, I regret what I did. It was a fatal mistake. Because the moment I stepped my foot forward, everything went blurry and hazy. Napaluhod ako dahil sa pagkahilo.

Hindi ko na namalayan pa ang mga sumunod na nangyari but two things happened before my vision went black.

Una, nakita ko ang pares ng paa na humarang sa harapan ko. At ang mabagal na paglandas ng kuwintas sa palad ko papunta sa sahig na alam kpng kinasadlakan ko.

Shit. What’s happening?

A/N : This is 감자 , the author of this story. Gusto ko lang magpasalamat sa inyo. Sa mga patuloy na nagbabasa nito kahit na sobrang bagal ng updates ko. I’m still on my business on dealing my anxieties. Iba epekto ng CQ’s sa mental health ko. Hahaha! Btw, keep safe everyone!

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Akie’s

POV

I couldn’t help it. Simula noong lumabas ako galing sa cabin ay para na akong baliw na hindi magkamayaw sa pagngiti. And I doesn’t have the will to brush this grin off.

May ilan pa nga akong nadaanan na tila nawi-weird-uhan sa paraan ko kung ngumiti. Siguro pakiramdam nila ay isa akong serial killer o ’di kaya naman ay rapist.

Pero, puta. Wala akong pakialam sa kanila. May nangyari ulit sa amin ni Ian and I know this was not me who wanted it the most, it was him. Ilang araw pa lang kami nagkakasama pero may nangyari na agad sa amin.

I’ll not consider that as a one night stand tho ’coz aside of us both being aware what happened last night, I will not let that fuck to be the latter. I’ll mark that one as the start of our love making.

Fuck! Do I sound too sexual just by that? Dammit. I’m such a hoe.

But who wouldn’t be? When you finally found the person you wanted to see the most, wouldn’t you feel gleeful? Though I know mine was kinda filthy. But fuck conservatism. I finally had Ian back to my arms again. For me, nothing could satisfy my longing anymore. Ian was enough. Enough for my own good.

Damn. Ian is really something. He can make my world goes wild and wild. Para akong nalululong sa droga dahil pakiramdam ko nasa alapaap ako, dahil sa umaapaw na kasiyahan– na dulot niya.

Tangina. I never thought we might end up again like this. Akala ko hindi ko na siya makikita. Akala ko magiging basura na lang ang buhay ko. But then he came. Bumalik siya. Bumalik na siya.

Then, just by that, everything seems okay. Everything became fine. All the pain. All the heavy strings that were tied around my heart. All the painful memories. All the dull moments in my life. Lahat mapapalitan na ng saya dahil muli ko na siyang kasama.

Damn, Akie. You’re a fucking poet.

I chuckled as I made my way to enter one of the fancy restaurant here in Serene 771 cruise line. Though I know everything here was fancy and sophisticated but this one was great. I’ve been here once and their food was great.

Pagkarating ko sa cashier ay agad akong binati ng kahera. Bumati rin naman ako. Hindi ko ugali na gawin ’yon pero dahil nasa mood ako ay binati ko na rin siya.

I ordered twice and much than what Ian was mentioned. Alam kong napagod ’yon kagabi kaya paniguradong nagugutom na ’yon. Napakagat ako ng labi upang pigilan ang pagngisi ko. Last night was lit… and steamy. Masasabi ko na mas lalong naging masikip si Ian. His body became fit and sexy as well. Mas lalo pa siyang naging maputi, na mas lalo ko rin namang ikinalibog. He became damn perfect. And only I who can see it right before my naked eyes.

Mahahalata talaga na walang gumalaw sa kaniya sa mga lumipas na ilang taon. A sudden pride struck me as I thought of him preserving his ass and body just for my own sake.

I was also feeling guilty because since Ian and I broke up, I started to sleep with varieties of people every night and then. I was such an asshole. Now that I thought of Ian not getting laid while I did laid someone, I regreted everything.

I was such a fool back then. Fucking fool. Sana lang hindi ’yon magalit o magtampo ’pag nalaman niya na I fucked different people for the past years of not being together.

Siguro maiintindihan din niya ako. We’re both young back then. We’re so struck by everything that happened. We never expected those dilemmas. We thought that our love was enough to overcome every possible problems that we might encounter. But that set of beliefs sucks.

It was true that love can be used as a tool to overcome problems, especially problems that was between you two. But actually no, love wasn’t enough. It was love, faith and trust. Those three should stand and remain inseparable.

Just like Ian and I, we failed to trust the love that we have for each other. We failed to have faith for the love that we used to adore and believe. We failed to love the love that made us fall in love.

So, love couldn’t stand alone. It was all love, faith and trust.

But I guess there’s one thing that love truly brings. It was that, love will bring you back to where you supposed to be with. It was love alone that guided me back to be at Ian’s side.

That’s why we find ourselves tangling again… being one again. Because it was love that set us back to where our heart belongs. To where our soul finds rest and peace. To where our body finds warmth and comfort.

“The hell, man! The fuck you’re doing? Would you mind getting your order so we could order ours?” A shout snapped me from my train of thoughts. Nawala tuloy ’yung ngiti sa mukha ko.

Dahan-dahan kong nilingon ’yung lalaking nasa likod ko at agad na ginawaran ng seryosong titig direkta sa mga mata nito. Naramdaman ko naman ang takot na agad bumalot sa kaniya. Bahagya pa itong napaatras at tuluyang tumikom ang bibig.

Nang masigurado ko nang hindi na magrereklamo ’yung tao na nasa likod ko ay muli na akong bumaling ng atensiyon sa kahera. Inabot ko ang credit card ko at tsaka kinuha ang paper bag tsaka umalis.

Habang tinatahak ko ang daan pabalik sa cabin, hindi ko ulit maiwasang mag-isip.

Mukhang napapadalas na akong mag-isip ng mga bagay bagay dahil sa nangyari sa mga nakalipas na taon. And that was good as what I supposed is that I matured enough. Hindi na ako ’yung Akie na tulad noon. I know I was the same jerk, rude, jealous and horny Akie but I know I’ve changed for good. My insights, my visions, my views, everything on how I picture one’s situation, I guess it changed. Masasabi ko na hindi na ako ang dating Akie.

And I was doing this all for Ian. I wanted to makeup to him everything what I did wrong. I made him cry, sober, and black. But the only thing I was able to do was to make it more miserable. Instead of giving him comfort, I just made everything terrible.

But now, I know everything will change. I’ll make sure to be Ian’s solace. I’ll make him the happiest living in earth. The happiest and luckiest person he could ever feel.

Sobra na akong natatakot na mawala siya. Tangina, makitang lumuha nga lang siya halos kumirot na ang puso ko sa sakit, kaya kung mauulit na maghiwalay kami. Hindi ko na mapapatawad ’yung sarili ko. Kaya naman gagawin ko ang lahat para hindi ’yon mangyari.

I’ll do anything to make Ian stay with me forever. Happy with me forever. In love with me forever.

Nawala ulit ako sa mga iniisip ko nang biglang mag-ring ang telepono ko. Kinuha ko ito mula sa bulsa at nakita na si Captain Luis ang tumatawag. Mabilis ko itong sinagot.

“Captain?”

“Where are you, Lieutenant Villaflor?” Captain Luis casually asked.

“Why? I’m on way to my cabin,” sagot ko.

“Okay. Be here after an hour. Wala pa rin kaming traces of where Alexis was. This is serious. We have to make an assembly,” Ma-awtaridad na saad ni Captain. Nagdikit naman ang mga kilay ko dahil sa sinabi niyang seryoso raw ang pagkawala ni Alexis. What does it mean? Hindi lang basta nawawala si Alexis? Is there’s someone responsible for his loss?

Nakaramdam ako ng kaba. Kahit na makulit ang batang iyon at naiirita ako minsan sa prisensiya niya, hindi ko rin maiwasang mag-alala. Napalapit na rin ako kay Alexis. Besides, he’s Ian’s brother too. Tsaka, ako ang huling nakasama ng bata bago ito mawala. Alam kong responsibilidad ko si Alexis nang araw na ’yon pero nagpabaya ako. Kaya kasalanan ko rin ang nangyari.

Pero mabuti na lang at hindi na ito bago sa amin. Normal na lang sa amin ang mga senaryong gaya nito. We’ve had been into more serious and complex than this. I hope this was just some kind of a simple misdirection of traces. Siguro naman ay hindi totoo ang haka-haka nila Captain na seryosong bagay ang pagkawala ni Alexis.

“Copy, Captain. Susunduin ko lang si Ian at didiretso na rin kami diyan,” mahinahon ko pa ring sagot.

“Okay. Gusto ko rin sana kasi siyang maka-usap. I hope he will let me talk to him,” narinig ko ang pagbuntong hininga nito sa telepono.

“He will, sir. I think Ian is also looking forward to talk with his father,” ngumiti pa ako para sana ipakitang natutuwa ako na sa wakas ay muli na silang magkaka-usap pero naisip ko na nag-uusap pala kami sa telepono kaya wala ring kwenta. Ibababa ko na sana ang telepono ko nang magsalita pa siya.

“I hope, Akie. I hope. By the way, thank you for being by Ian’s side when I couldn’t. Especially yesterday. I’m counting on you, son.” Captain Luis then hanged the call. Para naman akong baliw na napangiti dahil sa huli niyang sinabi. Captain called me ‘son’. Fuck, that felt so fucking good. Bukod kasi sa alam kong panalo na ako sa panunuyo sa magulang ni Ian, it has been then since I was called son by a father.

Sakto naman na nakarating na ako ng cabin nang maibulsa ko na ang telepeno.

Pinihit ko ang seradura ng pinto at agad kong napansin na bahagyang nakabukas ang pinto ng maliit na banyo.

“Ian?” Tawag ko sa lalaking ’yon pero wala akong narinig na sagot mula sa kaniya. Dinig ko naman ang lagaslas ng tubig na nagmumula sa shower kaya sigurado akong naroon pa siya sa loob.

I smirked. Napakagat pa ako ng labi nang isiping baka sinasadya ni Ian na hayaang bukas ang pinto para malaya akong makapasok.

Oh, Ian. You’re such good tease.

A flower that has this alluring scent that could attract bees to go look for its pollen. And I’m that bee.

Matapos kong isara ang pinto ay ibinaba ko na muna ang mga binili ko sa night table na katabi ng kama. Hinubad ko na ang t-shirt na suot ko at diretsong nagtungo sa kung saan alam kong naghihintay si Ian.

My little Akie stirred to life after thinking of how I’ll make Ian scream in pleasure once again. Pero nawala lahat ng pananabik na nararamdaman ko nang marahan kong itinulak ang pinto ng banyo at makitang walang Ian sa loob nito.

Bumungad sa akin ang nakabukas na shower. Nakita ko ang mga damit na iniabot ko kay Ian kanina lamang. Pero bakit nand’on lang ’yon? At nasaan si Ian?

Hindi ko alam pero muli akong lumabas sa banyo. Natigil ako nang makita ang kuwintas na isinuot ko kay Ian na nasa sahig na. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at malalim akong napalunok.

Why was it there?

Lumuhod ako at kinuha iyon. Nakaramdam naman ako ng kakaibang takot sa loob ko.

Humigpit ang hawak ko sa kwintas na ibinigay ko kay Ian. Halos bumaon din ang pendant ng kwintas na hawak ko dahil sa intensidad ng higpit na ibinibigay ko sa pagkakahawak nito. I gritted my teeth.

Damn, masama ang pakiramdam ko sa isang ’to. Alam kong may mali. Alam kong may hindi tama.

Kaya naman mabilis kong kinuha ang kaninang suot kong damit at hindi na ako nagdalawang isip pa at mabilis pa sa kidlat akong lumabas ng cabin at mabilis na tinungo ang bawat daan na makita ko. Sobra-sobrang kaba ang nasa dibdib ko nang sinubukan kong halughugin ang bawat pasilyo na madaraanan ko.

Dammit! I’m sure hindi pa nakakalayo kung sino man ’yung gago na may gawa nito. Tangina! Hindi pwedeng pati si Ian ay mawala. Hindi sa mga oras na pati si Alexis ay nawawala rin. Tangina sino naman ang gagawa nito? Bakit si Ian?

Fuck! I was just talking about Ian and I being together again but it seems like my dreams wouldn’t last that long as what was just happened bursted my bubble.

Ian’s POV

Gosh. My head stings. What the hell just happened? And why am I laying on a soft mattress now? My eyes were still closed but I could feel that I was laying on a bed. What the…

I tried to slowly open my heavy and tired eyelids. Pero nagtaka ako nang makitang tanging kadiliman lamang ang tanawin na naaabot ko. Bakit may piring ang mga mata ko?

Sinubukan kong igalaw ang katawan ko pero hindi ko nagawa dahil tila may pumipigil sa akin.

Then I realised something. Nakagapos ang parehong mga kamay at paa ko. Maging ang bibig ko’y nakagapos din. But I could still move tho.

Napansin ko rin na parang hubad ako. Wala akong maramdaman na kahit na anong saplot sa katawan ko kung hindi mahabang tela na siyang tanging nagiging takip sa kahubaran ko.

A-Ano ’to? Bakit ako nakatali? Ba’t ako nakahubad? Nasaan ba ako?

Pinilit kong alalahanin lahat ng nangyari bago pa ako mapunta sa sitwasyon ko ngayon.

The last time I remember was that I was on Akie’s cabin, was about to take a bathe then suddenly everything went black. The thing is, I don’t know why I end up being tied and blindfolded now.

Mabilis akong binalot ng kaba sa loob ko. Who wouldn’t be? I’m fucking tied! Do you ever expect me to just lay here and enjoy the moment? To seize the moment of being tied to where the fucking place I am?!

Pero sinubukan ko pa rin na pakalmahin ang sarili kahit na tila sasabog na ang puso ko dahil sa kaba. Nahinto ako sa kaiisip nang makarinig ako ng pintong bumukas. Napalingon ako sa direksiyon kung saan nanggaling ’yung tunog na iyon.

Then, I heard a slow yet heavy taps from someone’s heels. Seconds later, I then felt its presence as it sauntered itself on where the hell I was laying.

Lumapit ito sa gilid ng kamang kinahihigaan ko. Mabilis naman akong umatungal at sinubukan kong igalaw ang katawan ko, umaasa na makakalas ang pagkakatali sa mga kamay at paa ko.

I whimpered as I tried to say out loud the words I wanted to say but instead, my words just end up getting muffled. I’m pretty sure that I look like a groaning idiot now.

Pero hindi ko na natuloy ’yung pagwawala na ginagawa ko nang makaramdam ako ng malapad at magaspang na kamay na unti-unting lumalandas sa mga hita ko paakyat sa hubad kong likuran. Sigurado ako na sa lalaki ang mga kamay na ’yon.

It has the same size and roughness of Akie’s palms. But there’s something I couldn’t point out. Something that brought chills down my spine.

The guy repeatedly caressed my exposed and naked thighs.

“Hmmm” I grumbled. Nakahinga naman ako nang maayos nang tanggalin nito ang busal sa bibig ko.

“A-Akie… is that you?” Mahina kong tanong. Hinintay kong may sumagot pero nanatili lamang ’yung kamay nito sa bandang hita ko.

“Akie, untie mo now! I swear I’ll kick your balls until you become sterile if it is one of your gimmicks once again,” pagbabanta ko rito.

Mahina itong tumawa. His laugh were so low and stern. I could feel the power that his mere voice could protrude. Napalunok ako. I know Akie’s laugh wasn’t like this. I’m pretty sure he’s not Akie.

“W-Who the hell are you?!” I exclaimed.

Naramdaman ko ang paggalaw ng kama na kinahihigaan ko. The guy— which I don’t know who— seated just right beside me.

His large and broad palms started to caress my locks as it soon landed on my cheeks. I felt shivers as his callouse hands gently patted my cheeks.

His touches were so gentle but I could feel that there’s something behind those gentleness. Something that was kept hidden.

“You truly are beautiful. You’re so perfect,” he said in a low and hoarse voice. I shifted my head away from his hands. I heard him chuckle.

“What? Was my touches makes you uncomfortable?” He said as he took a gentle yet firm grip on my chin. Ibinalik niya ang direksiyon ng mukha ko sa kung saan ako kanina nakaharap. I could feel him smirking down at me.

“Who the hell are you?!” Ulit kong tanong. Hindi na ako nag-abala pang sumagot dahil alam kong alam niyang hindi ako kumportable sa paghaplos na ginagawa niya.

“Why the hell am I tied?! Why am I naked? Where the hell am I?! A-Answer me!” Matapang kong saad. Balot na ako ng takot sa dibdib ko pero alam kong walang magagawa kung ipapakita ko na natatakot ako sa lalaking ’to. Sinubukan ko ulit kumalas sa pagkakagapos ko pero sadyang mahigpit ang pagkakatali sa akin kaya walang nagawa ang lakas ko.

Tiyak na magmamarka ang mga lubid na nakagapos sa akin.

Damn. Sino ba kasi ’tong isang ’to? Nasaan si Akie? Anong ginagawa ko rito? Ano bang kailangan ng lalaking ’to at ginagawa niya sa akin ’to?

“You’ll know all the answer once we get there,” simple nitong sagot.

The fuck?

“W-What do you mean ‘there’? Nasaan ako at saan mo ’ko dadalhin?!” I hysterically exclaimed.

“Tulungan niyo ako!” Sigaw ko, umaasa na may makaririnig sa akin para tulungan ako.

“Shhh. Stop whining, darling. Be a good pup,” bulong nito.

Naramdaman kong inilapit niya ang mga labi sa tainga ko. Ramdam ko ang malamig nitong hininga. Kinilabutan ako nang marahan itong kumagat sa tainga ko. Hindi pa doon natapos ang lahat nang maramdaman kong lumandas ang mga labi nito pababa sa leeg ko. He sniffed on the crook my neck.

“Hmmm,” he hummed. “I was damn right. I knew you smells damn good. Is this why Akie’s so obsessed with you?” he seductively asked.

Wait… he knew Akie? If he knew me and Akie then there’s a chance that this guy had connections with us. But who would it be? Who the fuck is this guy?

Natigilan ako at napakagat sa ibabang labi nang dilaan ako nito sa hubad kong balikat. I quivered in fear. No. This can’t be. It was like what Kenneth had done to me in the past.

This was just like reminiscing a nostalgic moment, but I would rather not remember that moment in my life. Because it brings nothing but aweful memories. It was dark and traumatic so it was better left forgotten. Pero bakit kailangan maulit?

Nabasa ang mga pisngi ko ng luha. Tuloy-tuloy ang pagluha ko nang hindi ko namamalayan. I was getting vulnerable again. I am being the weak Ian once again. But you can’t blame me! What am I supposed to do then? Smile?

“Shh, don’t cry.” Pagpapakalma ng lalaki na nasa tabi ko. Pero hindi ako nakinig sa kaniya. Buong lakas kong sinubukang muli na kumawala sa pagkakagapos sa akin. I know what I was doing won’t do good but all I was thinking is to get this fucking cord off me

“Babe, stop that. You’re just hurting yourself,” sinubukan pa ako nitong pigilan. There’s gentleness on his voice but I know that was fake ’coz if it isn’t, then why would he even do this to me?

“Shhh,” bulong nito sa akin. Malumanay ang boses nito at bahagya ako nitong napakalma. Bahagya akong tumigil sa pagwawalang ginagawa ko.

“Good,” marahan itong humalik sa noo ko. “Akala ko—”

He was lost with words as I head-butted him. Tumama ang noo ko sa ilong niya.

“Shit!” Mura niya. Napangisi ako.

“No one calls me his babe but Akie!” I shouted. How dare him touch me, kiss me and call him his. I know I sound too childish but who cares.

“Damn it,” he seethed. Alam kong sapo na niya ngayon ang duguan niyang ilong. Inasahan kong sasaktan ako nito pero hindi niya ginawa.

Wala akong natanggap na masakit na suntok sa halip ay tanging sensual na haplos muli sa aking pisngi ang iginawad nito, tila pinapahid ang mga preskong luha sa aking mga pisngi.

His thumb softly brushed my lower lip. I glared at him in return, but I was still blindfolded so that’s futile. Inilayo ko na lang muli ang mukha ko sa pagkakahawak niya.

“It’s okay. You’ll be mine soon,” mayabang nitong saad. “For now, patulugin niyo muna ’yan.”

Nagulat ako nang sabihin niya iyon. Hindi lang kami ang nasa loob ng kwarto na ’to? M-May kasama siya? S-Sino ba talaga itong lalaking ’to? Tsaka, nasaan ba talaga ako?!

I was about to ask him all the questions that’s bugging me but before I could, I felt someone holding my arms as something was injected— which I guess was a syringe— just above my wrist.

I don’t exactly know what happened but everything just went black… again.

Akie’s POV

Umupo ako sa couch na kaharap ng sofa na kinauupuan ni Captain.

We’re here in Captain’s cabin. This was way bigger than the cabin than most of us had.

Kasama ang ilan sa may mga matataas na ranggo ng PH Navy, nagpatawag ng assembly si Captain for Alexis’ loss. Alam kong seryoso ang nangyaring iyon dahil hindi basta basta nagpapatawag si Captain ng meeting.

Alam kong malaking problema ’yon. Tapos dumagdag pa ang pagkawala ni Ian. Tangina! Kasalanan ko ’to! Kung hindi ko na sana siya iniwan. Pero alam ko rin naman na hindi posibleng nasa tabi niya ako sa lahat ng oras. Tangina naman. Sino bang hayop ang may gawa ng kagaguhan na ’to.

It’s been an hour since I’ve found out that Ian were missing. Sigurado akong wala na siya sa barko, o kung nandito man, malamang pinag-isipan ng kung sino mang gago ang kumuha sa kaniya kung saan siya itatago. Mahahalatang planado ang pagkuha kay Ian. Dahil kahit saan ko siya hanapin, hindi ko siya mahanap.

I almost lost the feeling of having limbs as I sauntered the whole cruise ship for almost a fucking two hours.

It was then I stopped venturing this fucking huge ship when Captain called. Tsaka ko rin ikinuwento lahat. Captain was shocked at first pero he remained calm and composed.

Of course he’s the fucking captain, so what do you ever expect from someone like him? Of course, a bunch of a fucking professionalism. Kahit na parehong anak na niya ang nawawala, hindi ko siya nakitaan ng pagkabahala.

But damn. I know he’s on a verge of worries. I know that any moment he could be as vulnerable as me right now. Damn it. Kanina pa ako nag-aalala sa kalagayan ni Ian. Paano kung may gawing hindi maganda sa kaniya ’yung mga gago na kumuha sa kaniya? Paano kung saktan siya? Paano kung patayin siya? Shit, that’s the least thing I would want to hear nor see.

Naikuyom ko ’yung mga kamao ko. Tangina, sa oras lang na malaman ko kung sino ’yung may gawa ng lahat ng ’to, titiyakin ko na ako mismo ang papatay sa kaniya.

I hope Ian is okay. Damn. Hindi talaga ako magkikiming saktan ang sinuman na gumawa nito lalo na kapag ginalaw niya si Ian.

“Where’s Wilson? Siya na lang ang hinihintay,” mahinahong saad ni Captain. Ngunit bakas pa rin ang pagka-inip sa mukha nito.

“We already informed him, Sir. Pero hindi pa po siya sumasagot.” An official of PH Navy notified Captain.

Bumuntong-hininga lang si Captain bago marahang umiling.

“Okay, forget him for now. Let’s just get started,” pormal na paninimula ni Captain.

“Nagpatawag ako ng assembly para pag-usapan ang pagkawala ni Alexis. Sinubukan ko siyang ipahanap sa buong barko but we couldn’t find any traces of him, not even a single trace. Kaya sigurado akong may mali. Sigurado akong wala na rito ang sinuman sa kumuha sa kaniya,” pauna nitong litanya. Kinabahan naman ako sa sinabi niyang ’yon. Does it mean everything was planned? Dang it.

“Yes, this is an abduction.” Pagkumpirma ni Captain sa tanong na nasa isip ko.

“But I already contacted the headquarters at sinabihan ko na silang i-track ang anumang klase ng sasakyang pandagat ang mamataan nila malapit sa kung nasaan nakalutang ang Serene 771. I already talked with the security of the ship but apparently, they too haven’t noticed any suspicious acts with the past 12 hours,” bumuntong hininga muli si Captain. You could see that he’s damn stressed.

“So this one’s serious. We have to plan everything. That’s why tinawag ko kayo, to inform you that we’ll end this trip para makabalik na tayo sa headquartes as soon as possible. We should not waste time, especially both of my sons were missing.” seryosong saad ni Captain. Napakunot naman ang mga noo ng ilan sa mga opisyal ng PH Navy sa inusal ni Captain. I knew they’re thinking of why Captain is referring to plurality of ‘son’ since Captain has only one but Alexis. Mukhang napansin naman ni Captain ang pagkalito ng ilan sa mga tauhan niya kaya nagkusa na itong magsalita.

“I’ll explain everything once we get to the quarters,” simple lamang nitong sabi. Hindi naman na nito kailangan pang magdalawang salita dahil tumango naman ang mga opisyal na hawak nito.

“Nagpatawag na ako ng mga susundo sa atin. They’ll be here after an hour. For now, just pack your things up. Hindi na rin tayo rito magtatagal,” Captain instructed. Tumayo na ang ilan sa mga opisyal na kasama ko upang tumungo na rin sa kanilang mga cabin. Ako naman ay nanatili sa kinauupuan ko. Kailangan kong makausap si Captain tungkol sa pagkawala ni Ian.

Tumayo na si Captain Luis at dumiretso ito sa maliit nitong opisina sa loob ng cabin. I’m wondering if cabins like these was made only for those people like Captain? It was an expensive, luxurious and a state-of-the-art VIP cabin.

Hindi ko namalayan na nakalabas na ang mga tao na nasa loob ng cabin ni Captain kanina lang.

Tumayo ako mula sa pagkaka-upo sa couch at sumunod sa kaniya. Nakaupo na ito sa swivel chair nang makarating ako. Binuksan nito ang kaniyang laptop marahil ay para kontakin ang headquartes.

He seems to be busy but I have to ask him about his actions for Ian’s loss.

“Oh, Akie? Bakit nandito ka pa? You should pack your things, too. Mamaya lang ay nandito na ’yung susundo sa’tin,” tinignan ako nito.

“Captain, what about Ian? What shall we do? I’m getting worried. What if they’re hurting him? What if they’re doing something that—”

“Akie, could you please calm yourself down?!” Captain Luis exclaimed.

“How the fuck would I calm down?!” I hissed.

“Lieutenant Villaflor! Walang mabuting maitutulong kung idadaan mo lahat sa init ng ulo! Now, could you please calm down?!” Captain glared at me. Natahimik naman ako. I bit my tongue as I sighed to restrain myself from spitting back. Instead I just snorted out my frustration.

Napahilamos siya ng mukha bago marahang suklayin ang buhok nito. Mukhang maging siya ay nalilito at naguguluhan na. Malalim siyang bumuntong hininga bago ako tignan sa mata.

“Honestly, I don’t know. Naguguluhan na rin ako. Alexis’ abduction was planned. Maging ako, hindi ko alam kung saan magsisimula,” nahihiyang saad ni Captain. Alam kong nahihirapan siya dahil mahirap ang malagay sa sitwasyon niya.

“Pero tinawagan ko na rin ang headquarters para ipaalam ang pagkawala ni Ian. Tinawagan ko na rin ang kaibigan nito to inform him what happened,” nagtaka naman ako sa tinutukoy nitong ‘kaibigan’ ni Ian. Was it Kevin?

“We’ll figure out everything soon. For now, we just have to stay calm. Makakaisip din tayo ng plano,” may kumpiyansang saad ni Captain. Tumango naman ako. Captain’s right. We should plan our actions. That’s the most effective thing to do.

“Don’t worry. We’ll do everything to bring back Ian safe and unwounded. Besides, I’ll not let anyone hurt him neither.” May kasiguraduhang saad ni Captain. Tama. Alam ko na sa aming dalawa, si Captain Luis pa rin ang kadugo ni Ian. Kaya nakasisiguro ako na maging siya ay hindi nanaising mapahamak si Ian.

Pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasang hindi mainis. Hindi niyo rin naman ako masisisi. Nakakagago lang. Naiinis ako sa gumawa nito pero mas nagagalit ako sa sarili ko. Dahil wala akong magawa. I couldn’t do something to find Ian.

“Okay, Captain.” I was doubtful for a moment but I still answered politely. “Kung ganon, mauuna na po ako,” paalam ko rito. Tumango naman ito bilang tugon.

I was about to leave his cabin nang biglang may kumatok. Nagpresinta naman ako na ako na lang ang magbukas para kay Captain.

Pagkabukas na pagkabukas ko ng pinto ay bigla na lang akong lumagapak sa lupa.

“Tangina mo talaga, Akie! Anong nangyari kay Ian? Nasaan siya?!” Kevin ranted. Tsk. Ano naman’g ginagawa ng kupal na ’to rito?

“Tsk. Ba’t ka ba nandito?” Pinahid ko ang dugo sa labi ko dala ng suntok ng mokong.

“Tangina sagutin mo ’ko. Nasaan si Ian?” Lalapit pa sana ito pero napigilan na siya ni Captain Luis na hindi ko man lang napansin na nakalapit na pala.

Tumayo ako mula sa pagkakasalampak ko sa sahig. Gago ’to, ah. Masakit ’yon, ah.

“Malay ko,” I casually said. I just shrugged. There’s no need for him to know what happened. I can handle this myself. Hindi ko na kailangan pa sabihin sa kaniya ang nangyari dahil wala rin naman siyang maitutulong. Tsk, oo tangina. Alam kong sobrang isip bata ng dating ko sa part na ’yon. Pero puta naman, ba’t ba kasi kailangan pa nitong mangialam?

“Wala ka talagang kwenta!” Kevin growled. Sinamaan ko naman siya ng tingin. Pinigilan ko na lang ’yung sarili ko na bangasan ’tong gago na ’to.

“Gago ka ba? Hindi ko rin na—”

“Could the two of you please shut up!” Captain Luis commanded. Hinilot nito ang kaniyang sintido bago kami pinasadahan ng seryosong mga tingin.

“Pwede ba! Tigilan niyo na ’yang away bata niyo!” Captain sighed. Umiling-iling pa ito.

“Tsk. Yung gago kasi na ’yan! Alam mo simula noong nakita ka ulit ni Ian lagi na lang siyang nalalagay sa kapahamakan.”

Aba! Tanginang ’to, ah. Anong akala niya, ginusto ko ang pagkawala ni Ian?

Lalapit na sana ako para turuan sana ng leksyon ’tong magaling na si Kevin pero natigil kami nang biglang may tumawag sa telepono ni Captain.

“Kevin, calm down. No one wanted this to happen. Stop blaming, Akie.” Sermon ni Captain bago niya sagutin ang tawag sa mismong harapan naming dalawa ni Kevin.

Nag-aapoy pa rin sa galit ang mga mata ni Kevin. Hindi naman ako nagpatalo kaya pinantayan ko ang intensidad ng galit na ipinapakita niya. Alam ’kong galit siya sa akin. Pakialam ko? Pareho lang naman kaming galit sa isa’t-isa.

Tsk. Bakit ba kasi ’yan nandito? Hindi naman namin siya kailangan. Oo, sige, sasabihin kong nagseselos ako sa isang ’yan dahil mas maraming taon pa rin ang pinagsamahan nilang dalawa ni Ian. Pero kailangan pa ba talaga niyang mangialam at sisihin ako?

Natigil ang labanan ng tingin namin ni Kevin nang magsalita si Captain.

“Wilson?”

I looked at Captain. He’s shocked for a moment. Is he talking with Sir Wilson?

“Damn you! Ikaw? Anong ibig mong sabihing hawak mo? Nasaan si Alexis? Tell me where the fucking hell did you bring my son!”

Nagulat ako nang marinig kong magmura si Captain. Mabilis siyang pumindot sa hawak na telepono. Nakuha ko naman agad ang ginawa niya. He recorded the call. Nilagay rin niya sa loud speaker ang tawag. Para siguro marinig din namin ang nasa kabilang telepono.

“I’ll tell you later, Captain. Gusto ko lang naman sabihin na nasa mabuting kalagayan ang anak mo… sa ngayon,” rinig kong saad ni Sir Wilson sa kabilang telepono. Hawak ni Sir Wilson si Alexis? Anong ibig sabihin nito?

“Fuck you, Wilson! Anong pakulo ’to, ah? Anong kailangan mo?” Captain seethed.

“Marami, Captain. Sobrang dami. Oh, hindi na ako magtatagal. By the way, before I hang this call. I sent you a small present, too. Check it out, Luis!” Sir Wilson then hanged the call. May sarkastikong tono sa pananalita nito. Lalo na nang sabihin nito ang salitang ‘Luis’.

Captain Luis cursed. Kita ko na ikinuyom nito ang kaniyang mga kamao.

Hindi ko makuha. Si Sir Wilson? Bakit niya naman ’to gagawin? Anong kailangan niya para kunin si Alexis?

“Captain, what does it mean? Paanong si Sir Wilson ang kukuha kay Alexis? Tsaka bakit niya ’to ginagawa?” Naguguluhan kong tanong.

“Even I, don’t know how to answer that question, Villaflor.” Captain sighed. “But atleast now we have our traces. Tsaka kung may kailangan siya, tiyak na hindi niya sasaktan si Alexis. I’m sure he’ll call back.”

Tama si Captain. Now we have our traces for Alexis’ loss. Siguradong magiging madali na lang ’to. Pero ang ipinagtataka ko, bakit ’to gagawin ni Sir Wilson? Tsaka, he also mentioned a ‘present’. Anong gusto niyang sabihin?

Nakatayo lang kaming dalawa kasama si Kevin nang marinig naming tumunog ang laptop ni Captain. Sabay-sabay kaming napalingon doon at agad na tinungo at tinignan kung ano ’yon.

“An email,” saad ni Captain. He clicked on the mail as a single picture and a video popped up. Tinignan muna kami ni Captain bago niya unang buksan ang larawan.

It’s a picture of Alexis. He’s on a room, alone. Kitang umiiyak ang bata dahil mahahalata mo sa mga luha nito. He’s unwounded tho, whcih means they did nothing… yet.

“Fuck!” Mura ni Captain. Mahahalata sa boses nito na labis itong nag-aalala sa bunso nitong anak.

Sinunod nitong buksan ang isang recorded video.

“ Hey, Captain!“

Henry? Oo, si Henry ang taong bumungad sa umpisa ng video na natanggap ni Captain Luis. But why was him? Para saan naman ’tong video na ’to?

“You might be wondering on why did I send this video to you. Hmm, let’s say this was Wilson’s present?”

Damn. Kasabwat siya ni Wilson? Si Henry? Ang taong halos ituring kong kapatid sa loob ng ilang taon dahil na rin sa pagpupursigi nitong maging kaibigan ko. Kahit na naiirita ako minsan sa isang ’yan. Tinuring ko pa rin siyang tunay na kaibigan.

What’s wrong with them? Why the hell are they doing this? What do they want? What’s thei—

“Ian!” Sabay kaming napasigaw ni Kevin nang makita si Ian na nasa kama at balot ang katawan ng itim na kumot.

“Surprise!” Henry smirked. May sigla sa boses nito pero alam kong masasamang plano nila ang nasa likod ng sigla at tuwa na ipinapakita niya.

Damn it. Siya ang kumuha kay Ian? Tangina. P-Paano at bakit?!

Tumingin ako kay Captain at kita ko na maging siya ay nagulat. Hindi rin niya inaasahan na maging si Henry ay tatayong kasabwat ni Wilson.

“How’s that Captain?

Natuwa

ka ba sa

surpresa

namin?“ Bahagya itong huminto at pinagmasdan ang natutulog na si Ian.

The good thing is Ian looks okay. Nakahinga ako ng maluwag. Tangina, h’wag lang nilang subukang saktan si Ian. Dahil sinisigurado ko, kahit na simpleng galos lang ’yan, makakapatay pa rin ako.

“Yes, you’re right. Pareho naming hawak ang mga anak mo,” pagpapatuloy ni Henry. Paano nilang nalaman na anak din ni Captain si Ian?

Ngayon malinaw na. They’re doing all this shits because they’re up to something for Captain? Pero, ano? Ano bang nagawa ni Captain at bakit kailangan nilang kunin ang parehong anak nito?

“Oh, siya, Captain! Baka magising pa si Ian! Nagpadala lang naman ako ng

paunang

babala. H’wag kang mag-

alala

, Captain, malapit mo na rin silang makita,“ makahulugang saad ng mokong. Babala?

“Pakisabi rin pala kay Akie na ang bango pala talaga ni Ian. Hindi ko tuloy mapigilang hindi siya halikan,” tuso at tila nang-aasar na banat ni Henry. Lumapit pa ito sa natutulog na si Ian at kita kong hinaplos nito ang hubad nitong hita. Naikuyom ko ang kamao ko.

“Don’t you fucking touch him, asshole!” I hissed. Alam kong hindi ako maririnig ni Henry but I don’t fucking care. No one’s allowed to touch Ian but me.

“Argh! Tangina!” Mura ko nang matapos ang munting palabas na ipinakita ni Henry. Damn him.

“Akie, go to your cabin now and pack your things up. We need to be at the quarters as soon as possible,” seryosong utos ni Captain. Tumingin ito sa akin matapos itabi ang laptop niya. Tumango naman ako bilang sagot.

“Sasama ako,” sabay kaming napalingon ni Captain kay Kevin. Kita ko sa mata nito ang galit at inis dahil sa napanood. Nakakuyom din ang mga kamao nito.

I’ve hated this man since we were highschool. Kanina lang, halos ang isa’t isa ang gusto naming bangasan. But now, I could see through his eyes, with that gritting teeth, and with that balled fist, that the only person that we wanted to kill right now is no one but Henry. I swear I’ll kill you, Henry.

“Kung ganon, maghanda ka na rin. We’ll leave as soon as the Navy’s chauffeurs came,” Captain agreed. Tumango si Kevin.

Just wait for us, Ian. We’ll save you and Alexis.

I’m back! Hahaha! Leave me your votes and comments. Thank you! May special note ako next update! Baka mamaya ko i-post.

A P O L O G I E S

This is not an update.

I know I doesn’t need to feel sorry but still, I’m sorry for being lost in tracks. Halos dalawang buwan akong walang update sa Marino. Good thing is, may updates naman akong nagawa sa BBS. Hindi nga lang ganon ka-frequent. Sorry talaga :((

I’ve been so tired and agitated the whole time. Also, insecurities, problems, anxities, schoolworks, stress over my mom’s business really took over me. Isama mo pa ’yung stress na dulot ng CQ’s.

Weird, right? Dahil kung nakararanas ako ng mga bagay na ’yan, then why not write? It’s an escape.

Tama, writing is a good platfrom for me to escape all my problems. But then, one thing I realised is that, you don’t have to run away from all the demons that’s bugging you. Escape is just a resort, at the end of the day, you’ll realised how important you should’ve fought those battles.

So, yeah, I rested for awhile… or more? Hahaha! Sobrang drained ako mentally and emotionally. At ito ang nakakatawa, hindi ko alam kung bakit ako drained. Ewan ko ba kung bakit, tangina.

Pero good thing is, tingin ko na-overcome ko na ’yung insecurities ko in writing. Ganon din sa anxities ko in life (though ang hirap nitong i-overcome, sinusubukan ko pa rin naman). Yey, pati rin pala ’yung mga schoolworks ko, eh, halos tapos ko na. Late kasi ako nagpapasa (I’m the lord of procrastination, lol). Sa business naman ni mama, mediyo nakakapagod pero need ko tumulong, eh. Kaya hindi na tulad noon na puro sa kwarto lang ako nakatambay. So, hindi ko mabigyan ng pansin ’yung drafts ng stories ko. Pero ngayon, mediyo gumaan na ’yung workloads in her business, so, I guess okay naman na kung babalik na ako sa pagsusulat. Hahaha.

Welcome back niyo naman ako. Lols. Anyway, I’ll make an update next Sunday. Bye for now! Love y’all.

C H A P T E R - 056

Ian’s POV

“Hey, babe, wake up.” Someone gently patted my cheeks. I hummed in protest dahil masiyadong malamig ang palad nito na humahaplos sa pisngi ko. Naramdaman ko rin ang malamig at mabango nitong hininga na diretsong tumatama sa ilong ko.

“Babe, wake up!” He pushed again. His voice were kinda hoarsed and so it instantly brought soothing chills down my spine. I groaned in return. Tinapik ko ang mga kamay niya na marahang nilalaro ang gilid ng buhok ko.

Nanatiling nakapikit ang mga mata ko dahil masiyadong mabigat ang mga talukap ko para maki-ayon sa kagustuhan ng lalaking gumigising sa akin. Isa pa, naiinis ako dahil masiyadong istorbo itong isang ’to sa pagtulog ko. Alam naman niyang ayaw kong kinukulit ako kapag natutulog.

“Akie, ano ba?!” I subconsciously groaned. I heard him chuckle.

Tinalikuran ko siya. Nakakainis. Ang sarap sarap ng tulog ko, eh.

“Akie?” he softly said. His tone were gentle yet bitter. Para din itong nalilito o nagtataka kung bakit iyon ang pangalan na binanggit ko.

I felt his hands caressing my thighs. I’m naked. Kumunot ang noo ko. His hands were so different. I mean, the way that his calloused hands touches my bare skin was so… wait.

Mabilis pa sa kidlat akong bumangon. Humarap ako sa lalaking katabi ko at bahagyang lumayo sa kaniya.

Diretsong dumako ang tingin ko sa katawan nito. I gasped as I witnessed his naked torso.

I heard him chuckle. Iniwas ko ang mga mata ko sa katawan niya at awtamatikong napahila ako sa kumot upang takpan ang hubad kong katawan.

“H-Henry?” Nagtataka kong saad. Bakit siya nasa kwarto ni Akie at bakit kami— oh god.

“How dare you!” I exclaimed. Tinitigan ko siya nang masama. Tanging nakakainis na ngisi lang naman ang natanggap ko mula sa kaniya.

“What?” He innocently shrugged.

“Don’t you ‘what’ me! Anong ginawa mo?!”

“Baka ang tamang tanong ay, anong ginawa natin.” He inquired.

My eyes widened in complete horror. My mouth left wide open. Kinuha ko ang unan na malapit sa akin at tsaka iyon hinampas sa kaniya.

“Hayop ka, Henry! Hindi ’yan totoo! Sabihin mong walang nangyari sa atin!” I restrained myself not to cry. I was trembling inside. This is not happening. This can’t be. I got molested again.

Henry chuckled. “I was just kidding. But I am looking forward in doing it with you, babe.” He added a wink.

I rolled my eyes. Nakahinga naman ako nang maluwag. Hindi pwede mangyari yung iniisip ko na ginawa namin.

Tumingin ako sa paligid ko and I noticed that the room we were in wasn’t the same room sa loob ng Serene 771. Then, I remember, kanina, Henry said while I was blindfolded that they were about to bring me somewhere. I looked at him confuse and mad.

“Nasaan ako?” I kept my voice calm, kahit na sa loob ko ay halos sasabog na ang dibdib ko sa kaba. I am horrified beyond belief.

“Secret. But it’s a place where you would enjoy especially that kasama mo ako,” patuloy niyang pang-aasar.

He think he’s being funny? Poor him. I don’t find everything about him entertaining at all.

“Where’s Akie?” I asked.

It’s now his turn to roll his eyes. “Tsk. Akie again? Puro na lang ba Akie? How do I brush that name off ba? Nakakasawa na yan marining.” Tila nagmamaktol niyang saad.

Kumunot naman ang noo ko. But then, I keep aside his comment as I tried to stand up pero, that is when I realised that my feet were tied up. Marahas akong napatingin kay Henry. May tusong ngiti sa labi nito.

“What are all this? Bakit ako nakatali? Nasaan ako at bakit ikaw ang kasama ko?” I exclaimed. But before Henry could even answer, someone opened the door and a familiar face showed up.

It’s one of the officials ng PH Navy. I saw him on the party. Was it William? No. It was… Wilson. But what do a high-ranked official of the PH Navy be doing here?

“Oh, so the princess’s awake already.” He stated. I looked at him confused. There’s something on his aura… Something on him that I personally don’t like.

“What’s this crap?! Where the hell am I?!” Diretso kong singhal sa kaniya. Litong-lito na talaga ako. But one thing’s for sure, nasa hindi ako magandang sitwasyon.

“Isn’t it obvious? You’re in a room.” He taunted.

I rolled my eyes. “I know. But where’s the others? Where’s captain Luis? And above all, why am I naked and why are you two inside my room?” I exclaimed to the both of them.

“You’re too loud,” Wilson said. “Akala ko pa naman matalino ka para mahulaan kung anong nangyayari.” He mockingly rolled his eyes.

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“It’s an abduction.” He simple said, as if it wasn’t a big deal?

“What? Abduction?!” Kita sa mukha ko ang pagkalito. Why would they abduct me? Tsaka, PH Navy would do things like this?

“Is this some kind of a crap pranks?” Pagtataray ko. This must be a prank. If not, then they’re out of their mind.

“No.”

“Then, what?”

“Pwede ba h’wag ka na maraming tanong?!” Singhal ni Capt. Wilson.

“How could I not? Who else wouldn’t question when all these things are so—” Natigil ako sa sasabihin ko nang biglang maglabas ng baril si Capt. Wilson. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko dahil sa bagay na hawak niya. Mas tumaas ang kaba na nararamdaman ko. This is serious.

But I reminded myself to keep calm.

“You will keep your mouth shut or I’ll do it for you?” Pagbabanta niya at muling ibinalik ang baril sa bulsa nito.

I was stunned for a moment and I was about to choose the latter choice to not trigger any kind of violence. But then, I couldn’t stop questioning them. “W-What are all this?! Ano ba k-kasing gusto niyo?” I restrained my shouts.

“You’ll know soon,” he stated. “For now, give him some clothes, Henry. Hindi pwede malamigan yung prinsesa,” he snorted. He looked at me for a moment and then threw some mischievous grin.

I don’t know why do they keep on calling me princess. This is as if they’re mocking me.

Kinalagan ni Henry yung pagkakagapos ng paa ko at tsaka iniabot sa akin yung damit na nasa side table katabi ng kama na kinalalagyan ko.

He volunteered to be the one na magsuot sa akin but I snatched the clothes at tinignan lang siya nang masama. Tumawa lang naman ang gago.

“You look innocent and pure yet you’re fierce and impulsive. Pretty amusing. That’s my type.” He flirted. He even bite his lips seductively.

“Sorry but I’m taken,” I sarcastically said.

“You’ll be mine, Ian. You’ll be mine.” Bulong niya but it was barely heard.

“Be quick. Wala na tayong oras,” Wilson ordered.

Nagbihis na ako at tumayo. Hindi ko na binalak pang tumakbo dahil alam ko na armado ang mga lalaking kasama ko. Isa pa, kahit naman wala silang mga baril, wala pa rin akong laban kontra sa kanila.

Lumabas na kami sa kwarto kung saan ako nakagapos at nakakulong. Katabi ko si Henry habang nasa harapan naman namin si Wilson.

I was still confused and scared. But I won’t let those feelings overcome me. I need to stay calm.

“If I were you, hindi ko susubukang kuwestyunin si Wilson. I don’t want you to get harmed, babe.” Henry whispered. Tinignan ko naman siya nang masama.

But he’s right. The good thing here is hindi nila ako sinaktan; not yet. Though, Wilson threatened me.

I deeply sighed.

For now, I just simply need to follow and obey them. Then, all I have to do is to think and plan my next steps.

I should be careful and smart on planning my escape. But how?! Hindi ko nga alam kung nasaan ako.

Nasaan ba kasi ako?! Anong abduction? Why would they abduct me?! I barely knew them. Sa barko ko lang sila nakilala. Oo, doktor ako. Pero hindi naman ako mayaman at wala rin naman akong ginawang masama para gawin sa’kin to. Also, the most confusing part here, is that, PH Navy’s claiming that they were the one who’s behind this abduction? Is Captain Luis part of this, too? Argh! This is confusing as fuck.

“Kuya Ian?” I heard a small voice calling me. Agad akong napalingon sa direksiyon ng boses at nanlaki ang mata ko nang makita ko si Alexis na nasa kama at nilalaro ang mga laruang nakuha niya sa mga arcade games na nilaro namin sa barko.

I haven’t noticed that we’re now on a different room. The room was clean and everything that’s inside looks expensive.

“Alexis?” Nagtataka kong tanong. Tumayo naman ang bata at mabilis akong niyakap.

“You’re finally here!” Masigla nitong saad. “But where’s dad and kuya Akie?” He immediately asked.

Tumingin ako kay Henry at saka kay Wilson. So they were the one behind Alexis’s lost? All this time? But why does Alexis doesn’t look terrified at all?

“They’ll be here soon, Alexis. Nauna lang ang kuya Ian mo.” Wilson said.

“That’s a lie!” I protested. Sinamaan naman ako ng tingin ni Wilson.

“Why is it a lie, kuya Ian?” Alexis innocently asked.

“N-Nothing,” I assured hesitantly. Pero naisip ko, hindi rin makakabuti kay Alexis kapag nalaman niya kung ano yung totoong nangyayari. Plus, I doubt if he would understand.

“Let’s go Alexis, kakain na kayo ng kuya Ian mo.” Wilson instructed.

Bumalik si Alexis sa kama at kinuha yung laruang espada. Kumapit ito sa akin at kay Henry. Ngumisi naman ang gago.

“Mukhang may napili na si Alexis para sa’yo,” pang-aasar ni Henry.

“Pinagsasabi mo?” Hinatak ko si Alexis sa kaniya at saka binuhat. Sumunod naman kami kay Wilson pababa sa hagdan habang tumatawa si Henry na nasa likod namin.

Pagkababa namin sa magarang staircase. I noticed that we were in a mansion, a villa. But it was somewhere far from the city. It was like we’re on an island. I could see the seashore through the glass wall. I’m not sure where this is, but this island looks like isolated and private.

Ibinababa ko na si Alexis nang makarating kami sa mahabang dining table na punong-puno ng pagkain. Ayos, ha! We’re abducted pero para kaming guest kung itrato? But that doesn’t count especially na tinutukan ako kanina ni Wilson ng baril.

I know they can still go worst. I should be careful. Hindi ko alam kung saan pwede humantong itong kagaguhan nila Wilson. Naisip ko rin tuloy kung alam na ba nila Captain Luis na hawak nila Wilson ang anak niya. Also, ano kaya yung reaksyon ni Akie knowing that I was missing. Baka nag-aalala na ’yon.

“Ano pang hinihintay mo, Ian? Eat,” Wilson kindly commanded. I rolled my eyes then sumandok na ako ng pagkain na nasa lamesa.

“I’m excited na for this vacation, kuya Ian!” Alexis enthusiastically said.

Napatingin ako kanila Wilson at Henry na kasabay naming kumakain. So, they lied to the kid that this is some kind of a vacation?

“Me, too,” I sighed and started to devour the food in front of me kahit na wala naman talaga akong ganang kumain.

Akie’s POV

It has been two days since Ian got abducted.

I’m craving for him so damn much, as much as I am craving to brush the smug look off of Herny’s face.

I miss Ian’s smell, the heat that he gives, his overwhelming presence — everything about him. This is driving me crazy. Hindi rin nakabuti ’yung pag-aalala ko na baka may nangyari nang masama sa kaniya. I am going out of my mind.

Fuck this.

Fuck Wilson and Henry. What do they want? Bakit ba nila ’to ginagawa?!

“Captain!” Napalingon kaming lahat sa officer na ngayon ay nakatutok sa computer at tila may binabasa.

We are now here at the HQ of the Philippine Navy. Gabi na pero humahanap pa rin kami ng paraan para mahanap sila Ian.

“We received a message from Captain Wilson,” he announced.

“Anong sabi?!” Mabilis pa sa kidlat na tanong ni Kevin.

Kumunot naman ang noo ng lalaki na tila ba nagtataka kung bakit si Kevin ang sumagot. Pero nagpatuloy siya sa balita na nakalap.

“He’s given the location of where they are. It’s an isolated island near Palawan.”

“Okay,” Captain Luis replied.

“Ano pang hinihintay natin?” Kevin said.

“We need to wait,” Captain calmly said.

“Wait for what? Eh halos ilang araw nang wala si Ian! Paano kung may masama na palang nangyari sa kaniya?! Akala ko ba you are the top soldier here in navy?!” Galit na usal ni Kevin. Hindi naman sumagot si Captain.

“Bro, chill.” Pagpapakalma ko kay Kevin.

“Chill? Isa ka pa, eh. Tangina nawawala na si Ian pero nakukuha mo pa mag-relax? Wala kang kwentang boyfriend. Kasalanan mo ’to! Sana hindi na lang kayo nagkita ni Ian, edi sana hindi ’to mangyayari!” Mahabang litanya ni Kevin. Nagngangalit ang mga panga nito sa galit.

Nagpintig naman ang tainga ko dahil sa mga sinabi niya.

“Gago ka pala, eh!” Inambahan ko siya nang suntok pero pinigil kami ng mga tao na kasama namin sa loob ng control room dito sa HQ. “Anong hindi nag-aalala, eh halos lamunin na nga ako ng takot at kaba! Eh, ikaw, bakit ka ba nanditong gago ka? Hindi ka naman namin kailangan dito! Kaya namin iligtas si Ian kahit wala ka ritong kupal ka!” I backfired.

“Ano? Ulitin mo nga yung sinabi mo!” Paghahamon ni Kevin.

“Ang sabi ko—”

“Tumahimik nga kayo! Para kayong mga bata!” Pagsusuway ni Captain Luis.

“Una, lahat tayo nag-aalala. This is just not the right time to go there knowing Wilson, siguradong inaabangan nila ang pagdating natin. We should plan. Hindi pera ang habol ni Wilson. Buhay. Kaya hindi tayo dapat magmadali. Pangalawa, pagtutulungan ang kailangan natin dito. Kailangan natin ang isa’t-isa para iligtas yung mga taong mahal niyo. Tingin niyo ba matutuwa si Ian kung makikita niya kayong nag-aaway? Mag-isip nga kayo!” Panenermon ni Captain.

Hindi na ako nagsalita pa. Nanahimik na rin si Kevin. Tama si Captain, hindi matutuwa si Ian kapag nakita niya kaming nag-aaway away.

“We’ll go there tomorrow. For now, magpahinga ka na muna Kevin. My team needs to plan. Makakaasa ka na gagawin namin ang lahat at ililigtas namin ang kaibigan mo,” pormal na utos ni Captain.

Kumalas si Kevin sa mga taong gumapos sa kaniya. “No, I want to know the plan as well. Sabi ko sa inyo, sasama ako.” He insisted.

I scoffed. Papansin talaga ang gago.

Captain Luis sighed. “Okay,” he nodded.

“Shall we start?” Captain said then all of us listened, forgetting the quarrel that just happened.

Hi guys! Kumusta? Hehe.