Mío

“♪ I’ve paid enough of petty dues ♪ ♪ I’ve had enough of shitty news ♪” The lyrics rolled out of my mouth so smoothly. My eyes are closed and I’m enjoying myself as the song beats played all over the LIP pub. It’s Friday night and that means work night. I don’t really need to work because my parents can perfectly provide for me but this has become my hobby and I really love singing in front of a lot of people.

“♪ I’ve had a thing for dirty shoes since I was 10 ♪ ♪ Love dirty men alike ♪” Saktong pagbukas ko ng mga mata ko nang matapos kong kantahin ang linyang iyon ay nagtama ang mga mata namin ni Kaleb na nasa hindi kalayuang table mula sa maliit na stage kung nasaan ako at ang bandang tumutugtog para saakin. Almost all of the people here inside the pub are looking at me but Kaleb stares is the only one who can make me smile and made me feel so appreciated. Ginanahan agad ako nang makita kong narito na siya.

“♪ Ooh, Better day than yesterday ♪ ♪ Ooh oh, I just take it day by day ♪” My lips can’t stop smiling, I swayed my body while me and Kaleb are keeping the eye contact. Kahit malayo ay alam kong may konting ngisi sa labi niya habang pinapanuod akong kumanta.

“♪ Ooh oh oh, Never hearing what they say ♪ ♪ Ooh ooh, I just do it my way ♪” Muli akong napapikit at dinama ang tugtug ng kinakanta ko. It’s a sexy song and it really suits the dim light inside the pub. Talaga namang marami ang tao kada byernes dahil dalawa kaming grupo ng entertainer ang pumupunta dito. Ang banda na kinabibilangan ko at ang DJ duo na si ate Lev at kuya Oasis.

Nagtagal pa bago ko natapos ang kanta, may sunod pa sana akong kanta pero sinenyasan ko ang beatmaker namin na mamaya naman ako. Agad niyang nakuha ang gusto kong sabihin at tinawag niya na si ate Lev at kuya Oasis para sila naman ang tumugtog.

Agad akong bumaba sa maliit na stage na iyon at naglakad ako palapit sa table kung nasaan si Kaleb na hindi naalis ang tingin saakin mula pa kanina.

“You’re late,” Sabi ko sakanya nang makalapit ako. Umupo ako sa tapat niya at pinagkunotan ko siya ng noo nang hindi niya alisin ang suot niyang itim na cap. Kanina niya pa iyon suot.

“Hi, pumpkin. I’m sorry I was late, may pinagawa kasi saakin si Dad, I couldn’t say no.” Ngiti niya saakin at sumenyas siya sa isang bartender at agad iyong lumapit saamin at may inabot na isang watermelon shake at isang cocktail. Inabot saakin ni Kaleb ang shake at siya naman ang uminom sa cocktail. Napanguso ako. If only my Dad and Papa allowed me to drink liquor.

“It’s okay, when did you even say no to your Dad? Tsh, why are you still wearing that cap?” Balak ko sanang alisin ang cap niya pero agad niyang pinigilan ang kamay ko at hinawakan iyon. Dinala niya sa bibig niya at hinalikan. Agad akong napairap pero hindi napigilan ng puso ko ang sumikdo.

“I can’t be seen here, pumpkin. Papa will kill me if he gets to know I ran away from home.” Nabigla ako sa sinabi niya at pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay.

“What? Why did you ran away?” Nabibigla kong tanong. Sinenyasan niya naman akong umupo sa tabi niya dahil nagsimula na tumugtog sila kuya Oasis kaya’t medyo hindi na kami magkarinigan. Tumayo naman ako at lumipat sa tabi niya. Agad niya akong inakbayan.

“Well, someone will be sulking again if I didn’t come and see his sexy singing performance.” Asar niya saakin na ikinairap ko. Ang higpit naman kasi ng Papa niya sakanya. Palibhasa ay anak siya ng Governor at marami ang mga mata ang nasakanya ngayong taon dahil pagkatapos ng term ng Dad niya six months from now ay siya na ang ilalaban nito. I can’t believe that my best friend will be running for governor, it feels odd to have a politician friend.

“Babalik ka ba agad sa bahay niyo? We can’t hang out tonight?” Parang nanlulumo na agad ako habang tinatanong ko iyon sakanya. Ngumiti naman siya saakin at sinundot ang tungki ng ilong ko.

“When did I let you be here by yourself? Your parents will throw a fit if they find out you’re alone inside a pub without me.” He said. Napatitig naman ako sakanya dahil halatang pagod siya dahil mapupungay ang mga mata niya habang nakatingin saakin. Nakapatong ang siko ng kaliwang braso niya sa mesa at inaalalayan ng palad niya ang ulo niyang nakalingon saakin. He looks really tired but still handsome.

“It’s okay, Kaleb. You can go home, nandito naman si kuya Oasis, he will take me home-” Agad na nalukot ang mukha niya sa sinabi ko at mas lalo siyang lumapit saakin para titigan ang mukha ko.

“Do you prefer your kuya Oasis over me? Hmm, that’s not fair, pumpkin.” Pumipikit-pikit niyang sabi. Parang konti na lang ay makakatulog na talaga siya. Napailing ako.

“Of course not, kuya Oasis is annoying, I prefer my best friend, but you look really tired right now.” Sabi ko bago ko inabot ang gitna ng magkabilang kilay niya ng dalawang daliri ko para masahe-hin iyon. Napapikit naman siya at napangiti.

“Best friend, huh?” Hindi ko masyadong narinig ang sinabi niya.

“What?” I asked.

“I’m tired but I can manage, I like to hear you sing, kiss me on the cheeks and my tiredness will go away.” Agad na bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko nang sabihin niya iyon. Everytime he will say something like this, laging sumisikdo ang puso ko sa hindi ko malamang dahilan. Maybe I just feel excited?

“Okay,” Agad kong sinunod ang gusto niya at mabilis ko siyang hinalikan sa pisnge. Nakita ko naman ang paglaki ng ngiti niya bago niya inabot ang buhok ko para guluhin iyon.

“Good boy, how about on the lips?” Sabi niya bago ngumuso saakin. Pinagkunotan ko siya ng noo at inirapan.

“If my Dad hears that joke of yours, he’ll kill you.” Sabi ko na ikinatawa niya. Mahilig talaga siyang magbiro nang ganito.

“What’s more if he gets to know that it’s not a joke?” Sabi niya na hindi ko masyadong naintindihan.

“You’re not kidding? But we can’t kiss, you’re my best friend.” Sabi ko. Nakita ko naman siyang natigilan bago napakagat labi.

“Ouch, friend zone?” Sabi niya sa boses na parang nasasaktan. Nag-aalala naman agad ako.

“Do you really want to kiss?” Agaran kong tanong. I don’t really like it when I hear or see him hurting. Natawa naman siya at umiling.

“God, Hans, what will I do to you? Your innocence will be the death of me.” Nangingiti niyang sabi. Napairap ako. Ayan nanaman siya. Hindi ko talaga maintindihan bakit palagi nilang sinasabi na napaka inosente ko. I don’t think that I’m innocent, I know how to curse and I know how to be a brat. How is that being an innocent?

“Pumpkin,” Tawag niya ulit saakin. Nilingon ko naman siya at tinaas ko ang isa kong kilay para tanungin kung bakit. “If I really want to kiss, will you kiss me?” Parang nagdadalawang isip siyang tanungin iyon pero tinanong niya pa rin. Napaisip naman ako bago sumagot.

Kuya Kaleb has been nothing but nice to me, kahit na minsan ay madalas niya akong turuan ng mga kalokohan katulad ng pag takas sa gabi sa bahay para pumunta sa night market at gumala kasama siya, ginagawa niya lang iyon para raw mag enjoy ako at totoo naman na lagi akong nag e-enjoy pag kasama siya. He’s been my best friend since I was twelve, he’s always by my side and would always do everything I want kaya bakit naman ako ta-tanggi kung hihingi siya ng halik? I will give him a kiss on the lips if that’s what he wants.

“You’ve been a really good friend to me, it’s just a kiss, I can give it to you but Dad should know nothing about this, he’ll kill you.” Sabi ko sa parang nakikipag negosyong tono. Napakurapkurap naman siya saakin bago hindi makapaniwalang nagsalita.

“What? Come again?” Parang na-o-offend niyang sabi. Nagtaka naman agad ako. May nasabi ba akong mali?

“What?” Nasabi ko na lang. Hindi naman siya makapaniwalang natawa bago napapailing na inilapit ang mukha niya saakin.

“So you will only kiss me because I’ve been a good friend to you? Not because you like it?” Parang naniniguro niyang tanong. Tumango naman ako.

“Is that wrong?” Tanong ko. Agad naman siyang tumango sa tanong ko.

“So wrong, Hans, you should be liking it before you do it, don’t do anything you don’t really like just because you feel obligated.” Mahaba niyang sabi. Napatango-tango naman ako at inintindi ang sinasabi niya. Do I feel obligated to kiss him? Parang hindi naman. I mean, he’s the only person I feel comfortable with something like this, I can kiss his cheeks, I can call him just by his name without honorifics, I can just be natural with him. Kahit anong gawin ko kapag kasama ko siya, I received no judgements. A kiss on the lips won’t hurt, right? Beside, I’m already turning twenty next month but I still haven’t got my first kiss.

“I want it, I think I want you to be my first kiss, Kaleb.” Sabi ko bago ko inabot ang baso ng watermelon shake ko at sumipsip sa straw na naroon para inumin yun. Nakita ko naman kung paano siya natigilan at nabibiglang napatitig sa labi kong sumisipsip sa straw.

“Fuck, don’t startle me like that, pumpkin- don’t- stop sucking on that nasty straw.” Nagulat ako nang kunin niya ang iniinom kong shake at siya mismo ang uminom doon. Napanguso ako at naiinis na pinanuod siyang ubusin ang watermelon shake ko.

“That’s my milkshake, Kaleb. I hate you.” Naiinis kong sabi pero hindi niya ako pinansin at parang naiinitan siya bigla dahil pinapaypayan niya ang sarili niya gamit ang kamay niya.

“Shit, where did that Hans-that-will-always-obey-whatever-his-dad-tell-him go? Your dad will really fucking kill me if he finds out you’re saying something like this to me, pumpkin.” Sabi niya sa boses na parang pinapaintindi niya lahat ng lumalabas sa bibig niya saakin. Lumalaki-laki pa ang mga mata niya saakin. I shrugged at what he said.

“I don’t know, whenever I’m with you, I feel like always disobeying my Dad. I don’t feel nervous tho, unlike when I do it with kuya Oasis.” Sagot ko sakanya.

“What did you do with your kuya Oasis?” Biglang sumeryoso ang tono niya.

“Nothing, we just ate two boxes of pizza but my Dad told me not to eat pizza anymore because I might get sick. Kuya Oasis still made me eat it tho.” Kwento ko sakanya sa ginawa namin ni kuya Oasis nung isang araw na binisita niya ako sa school.

“Phew, whenever you mention that kuya Oasis of yours, I get really nervous, Hans. Wag mo siyang susundin lagi, okay? He’s a bad influence. Wag ka masyadong sumasama sa lokong yun.” Pangaral niya saakin. Tumango naman ako dahil sinabi na rin saakin iyon ni Dad Arken. Ilang segundo kaming natahimik at pasulyap-sulyap lang siya saakin. Nainom niya nang ubos ang cocktail na nasa harapan niya bago ulit nagsalita.

“You said you want me to be your first kiss, pumpkin. Why?” Tanong niya habang titig na titig saakin.

“Because I want it to be you,” Kibit-balikat ko. Napalunok naman siya.

“Are you sure? Pumpkin, there’s a lot of kiss, what type of kiss are you thinking?” Tanong niya ulit. Nag-isip naman ako.

“Uhm, I watched a K-Drama last week, and the main characters kissed for a whole minute or so, hindi naghiwalay ang mga labi nila nang ilang minuto, I think I like that.” Natutuwa kong sabi. Hindi naman agad siya nakapagsalita at napatitig lang saakin.

“Why do you want it to be me, Hans?” Seryoso niyang tanong. I smiled at his question.

“I don’t think I can do it with anyone else but you, Kaleb, but if you don’t want it, it’s oka-” Natigil ako nang mabilis niyang dinampi ang mga labi niya sa labi ko. Nagugulat ko siyang tiningnan at may ngisi na siya ngayon sa mga labi niya.

“ Mierda

, my Hans is now all grown up, no creo que

pueda

conformarme

con solo

un

beso

,

necesitamos

follar

, duro.“

Napairap ako nang bigla nanaman siyang magsalita gamit ang lenggwaheng hindi ko maintindihan. Kaleb is half Hispanic and he sometimes talk in spanish when he’s excited about something. Although he sounds so hot when he speak Spanish, I can’t understand it so I can’t really enjoy it.

“What are you saying?” Tanong ko na ikinangiti niya lang.

“You’ll get scared if you understand.” Sabi niya habang may pilyong ngiti sa mga labi.

Mío

bxb

This story is a man to man story.

This story contains explicit content regarding language, behaviors and sexual content.

RATED 18+

READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

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Uno

Hans

I was so focused on my schoolwork when one of my friend spoke.

“Bukas pa naman yan, why are you already doing it now?” Dandy asked.

“It’s our vacant, and I don’t want to do this later at home, gusto ko gumala kasama si Kaleb.” Sabi ko habang tinatapos ko ang assignment sa isang major subject. Narinig ko naman si Dandy na natatawa.

“Aminin mo nga sakin, boyfriend mo yung anak ng Governor ’no? Ayaw mo lang aminin.” Sabi pa niya. Sasagot na sana ako pero nagsalita din ang isa naming kaibigan.

“Don’t call the gorgeous Kaleb Cabrera’ ‘yung anak ng Governor,’ He’s more than that!” Parang galit na ani ni Lyka. Napailing ako. Dakilang fan ni Kaleb si Lyka. Although hindi naman sila magkakilala personally.

“He’s not my boyfriend, he’s been my friend since I was twelve.” Maikli kong sagot at napangiti ako nang malaki nang matapos ko na ang ginagawa ko.

“Oo nga, yung Oasis ang boyfriend mo diba?” Tanong naman ni Lyka. Napabuntong hininga ako at tinalasan siya ng tingin.

“I don’t have a boyfriend, kuya Oasis is also my childhood friend, anak siya ng kaibigan ng papa Reihan ko.” Irap ko sakanya at natawa naman siya.

“Ba’t galit?” She muttered but I didn’t pay her any attention anymore. Inayos ko na ang mga gamit ko at tumayo.

“Kain tayo sa cafeteria, let’s go!” Alok ko. Napailing lang naman silang dalawa at sumunod saakin. Almost half an hour na lang naman at afternoon break na namin. Wala lang talaga ang professor namin kaya napaaga. Pagkatapos ng afternoon break ay isa pang subject then uwian na.

I can’t wait to go home! Paniguradong susunduin ako ni Kaleb mamaya para gumala.

Nang makapasok kami sa cafeteria ay agad kaming bumili ng pagkain namin at naghanap ng upuan.

Konti lang ang binili kong pagkain dahil paniguradong mamaya pagkauwi ko ay may meryenda sa bahay, o kaya naman ay paniguradong papakainin ako ni Kaleb sa kung saan bago umuwi.

Habang kumakain kami at nag-uusap ay maya-maya ay nagsidatingan na ang ibang mga estudyante dahil afternoon break na.

Paalis na rin sana kami dahil tapos na kami nang magsalita si Dandy.

“Oh, he’s here again, Hans.” Sinulyapan ko siya sa sinabi niya at nilingon ko ang tinitingnan niya.

Napakurapkurap ako kay kuya Oasis na malaki ang mga ngisi sa labi habang may binabating mga seniors namin. Nang matapos siyang makipagbatian ay inilibot niya agad ang tingin niya para hanapin ako. Nang makita niya ako ay mas lalong lumaki ang ngiti niya at lumakad palapit sa table namin. May dala siyang dalawang box na sure akong pizza ang laman. Maayos ang suot niya at malinis. Gwapong-gwapo siya sa suot niyang button down long sleeve na puti at pinares sa itim na pants. Mukhang galing siya sa trabaho. Narinig ko pang parang kinikilig ang dalawa kong kaibigan dahil sakanya.

“Hi, Hans. I bought you your favorite pizza.” Umupo siya sa harapan naming tatlo ng mga kaibigan ko. Binati niya rin ang mga kaibigan ko at pareho namang hindi nakaimik ang dalawa. Pinagkunotan ko siya ng noo.

“Kuya Oasis, why are you here again? And I told you dad Arken doesn’t want me eating pizza everyday!” Reklamo ko sakanya pero napairap lang siya at inayos ang upuan niya para tumabi saakin.

“You love pizza tho, it’s okay to disobey your father, Hans. Eat, I’m here to feed you.” Sabi niya at siya na ang nagbukas ng dalawang box ng pizza na dala niya. Binigay niya ang isang box ng pizza sa dalawang kaibigan kong hindi na nakaimik pa at nagmamasid lang saamin. Ang isang box naman ng pizza ay paghahatian daw namin ni kuya Oasis. Napaungot na lang ako at kumuha ng slice ng pizza na cheesey beef overload with a lots of olives. This is my favorite flavor of pizza.

“Don’t do this again, tataba ako, kuya Oasis.” Reklamo ko habang puno ng pagkain ang bibig ko. Ngumiti lang siya at nakita kong sinulyapan niya si Dandy at Lyka at nagulat ako nang agad na tumayo ang dalawa.

“Bakit?” Tanong ko.

“Ah, mauna na kami, Hans. Sunod ka mamaya ah, enjoy!” Sabi ni Dandy at nagmamadali silang umalis. Sinundan ko sila ng tingin at napabuntong hininga ako. Kuya Oasis scared the both of them again.

“Eat more, Hans. It doesn’t matter if you get fat, para wala na akong kaagaw.” Sabi pa niya habang nakatitig na saakin at may ngiti sa labi. Napairap ako. He’s saying nonsense things again.

“Isusumbong na talaga kita kay Dad.” Banta ko sakanya. Napanguso naman siya.

“Do you want your dad to kill me?” Tanong niya. Tumango ako at napaungot naman siya. “So mean.” Sabi pa niya pero ngumiti rin agad at tumayo. “I’ll just buy you some drink, make sure to finish half of that.” He said before leaving to buy me some drink. Napailing na lang ako at minadali ko ang pagkain para makaalis na.

Paniguradong magagalit nanaman si Kaleb kapag nalaman niya ’to. Speaking of him, I thought hahalikan niya ako nung Friday, but he didn’t. I don’t know what’s wrong with him. Umasa pa naman ako.

Siguro ay nagbago na ang isip niya at ayaw niya na ako halikan? Napanguso ako. I’ll ask him later.

“Here, don’t munch your food too fast, baka mabilaukan ka.” Bumalik na ulit si kuya Oasis at may dala siyang malaking bottle of lemon tea at may straw siyang hawak. Binuksan niya iyon at inilagay ang straw bago saakin ibinigay. Kinuha ko naman iyon agad at ininom. Nang ipatong ko ulit sa mesa ang bote ay siya naman ang uminom. Doon mismo sa straw na ginamit ko. I looked at him with a questioning look.

“Yum,” He teased. I rolled my eyes. Tinapos ko na ang pagkain ko at tumayo. Sumunod naman agad siya saakin at kinuha niya pa ang natira naming pizza. Lumakad ako palabas ng cafeteria at nakita kong ibinigay niya iyong pizza sa grupo ng mga seniors na nadaanan namin.

“May pasok ka pa? Anong oras uwi niyo?” Tanong niya habang sumasabay saaking maglakad.

“Five pm.” Maikli kong sagot napatango naman siya.

“Bummer, I have work sa pub at five, can’t drive you home.” Parang malungkot niyang sabi. Nginitian ko naman siya.

“That’s okay, you don’t need to drive me home, baka sunduin rin ako ni Kaleb.” Sabi ko sakanya. Nakita ko naman na tumaas ang kilay niya.

“Hmm, that’s good, I guess. I’ll get going then.” Paalam niya. Tumango naman ako at tumigil sa paglalakad. Tumalikod na siya at naglakad padaan sa quadrangle. Bago siya makalayo ay tinawag ko siya ulit.

“Kuya Oasis!” Tawag ko. Agad naman siyang lumingon. “Thanks for the food!” Ngiti ko. Ngumiti naman siya at kumaway bago ulit nagtuloy sa paglalakad niya. Tumalikod na rin ako at bumalik sa room namin.

Nang makabalik ako ay kakaiba ang tingin saakin ni Dandy at ni Lyka. Inirapan ko lang sila at mag-uusap pa sana kami pero saktong dumating na ang Prof. namin para sa last period.

Mabilis lang dumaan ang oras at pumatak agad ang oras ng uwian. Nagmadali akong ayusin ang gamit ko at saktong may nag text saakin. Tiningnan ko iyon at nakita ko ang pangalan ni Kaleb. Napangiti agad ako.

From: Kal^

I’ll pick you up, pumpkin.

Napangiti agad ako sa text niya kaya nagmadali akong lumabas at sumunod naman saakin ang mga kaibigan ko.

“May sundo ka ba? Pwede bang sumabay? Hindi ata ako masusundo ng driver namin.” Si Dandy. Sinulyapan ko naman siya at umiling ako.

“I’m going with Kaleb, he doesn’t let anyone but me go inside his car.” I honestly said. Totoo naman iyon. Wala pang ibang sinasakay si Kaleb sa kotse niya kundi ako lang. He really love his car so much to the point na ako lang ang hinahayaan niyang sumakay roon bukod sa sarili niya. Ayaw niya rin talaga ng may sumasabay saamin kapag gumagala o gagala kami. Gusto niya akong laging solohin.

“Malas naman, ayaw ko mag commute ’e, arte naman kasi ng anak ni Gov. Pogi sana kaso masungit!” Reklamo ni Dandy.

“Oo nga, kay Hans lang ata yun lumalambot. May favoritism.” Si Lyka naman na masama ang tingin saakin. Inilingan ko lang silang dalawa. Hindi ako maka-kontra dahil totoo naman iyon.

“Syempre, tingnan mo si Hans, mata pa lang, mapapasunod ka na talaga sa mga gusto niya.” Dandy teased me. Inirapan ko siya.

“Ewan ko sainyo.” Irap ko at nang makarating kami sa gate ay naghiwa-hiwalay na kami. Hindi ko na kailangan pang lumakad sa ibang direksyon dahil agad kong nakita ang itim na kotse ni Kaleb. Lumapit iyon saakin at pumarada sa harap ko.

Binuksan ko ang pinto sa front seat katabi niya at agad kong nakita ang nakangiti niyang mukha.

“Hi, pumpkin.” Bungad niya. Pumasok naman ako at agad ko ring sinara ang pinto. Mabilis niya namang minaneho ang kotse. Pinagmasdan ko siya at naka simpleng brown t-shirt lang siya at itim na short. Nakikita ang magandang hulma ng mga braso at binti niya. Napaka gwapo niya sa ayos ng buhok niyang medyo humahaba na pero hindi niya pa rin pinapagupitan.

“Are we going somewhere or iha-hatid mo na ako sa bahay?” Nakangiti kong tanong. Sumulyap naman siya saakin at inabot niya ang isa kong kamay gamit ang isa niya ring kamay.

“When did I ever do that, pumpkin, you know that we’re going to do something first before I drop you off to your house.” Sabi niya habang pasulyap-sulyap saakin. Napatango naman ako.

“Where are we going then?” Excited kong tanong. Dinala niya naman sa labi niya ang kamay ko at hinalikan iyon bago sumagot.

“We’re going to try some foods that you haven’t tried before.” Sagot niya. Napanguso naman ako dahil busog na busog pa ako dahil sa kinain ko kanina at sa dinala ni kuya Oasis na pizza.

“Kaleb, I’m afraid I might get fat.” I said with worries in my tone. Sumulyap naman siya saakin at tumawa. I stared at him. He look so good when he laughs. Ako lang ang madalas na makakita nito. He never laughs with just anyone. Like what my friend said, masungit at suplado si Kaleb sa ibang tao.

“Pumpkin, you have a fast metabolism, you’re so thin that’s why I’m always feeding you. You won’t get fat, and if you do, I’ll still love your body.” Mahaba niyang sabi. Wala akong ibang narinig kundi ang huli niyang sinabi.

“You love my body?” Nakangiti kong tanong. Sumulyap naman siya saakin at nakagat niya pa ang ibabang labi niya bago tumango.

“You’re sexy, Hans.” He complimented me. Pinigilan kong masyadong mapangiti dahil sa sinabi niya. He’s the first person who said that to me. Honestly, I’m a little insecure about my body because it looks like a fucking fifteen years old body. Hindi naman ako pandak pero masyado akong maliit para sa lalaking eighteen years old na, madalas ngang sabihin saakin ng iba na pambabae ang katawan ko. Specially my waist, it’s so tiny. Buti na lang talaga ay maumbok ang pang-upo at maayos ang balakang ko. Kundi ay magmumukha akong stick.

“You’re also sexy, Kaleb. The sexiest.” Ngisi ko sakanya. Nangingiting sumulyap naman siya saakin.

“Yeah? What do you like about my body?” Tanong niya habang pasulyap-sulyap saakin at sa daan.

“Your abs and chest.” Agaran kong sagot na ikinahiya ko rin agad. Naitikom ko ang bibig ko. Shit. Nahalata bang matagal ko na gustong-gusto ang hubog ng katawan niya?

“Haha, you like them, huh. Do you want to lay on them?” Taas-kilay niya saakin. Hindi agad ako sumagot at pinag-isipan ko ang alok niya. Napanguso ako at tumango.

“Sumasandal naman talaga ako jan,” I reasoned. Lumaki naman ang ngiti niya.

“You can lay on me anytime, pumpkin.” Sabi niya at saktong tinigil niya na ang kotse sa tabi ng daan. Kagat-labi akong tumingin sa labas at nasa isang market kami na maraming nagtitinda ng mga inihaw, kakanin, at kung ano-ano pa.

“Are we going to eat grilled food?” Tanong ko sakanya. Tinanggal niya naman ang seatbelt niya at sinunod ang saakin bago sumagot.

“Skewers, pumpkin. Anything you will like to taste, we will eat it.” Sabi niya at nauna na bumaba ng kotse. Pinagbuksan niya naman ako at sabay kaming pumasok sa magulong market na iyon. Halos pagtinginan naman kami ng lahat dahil siguro kay Kaleb. Kilala kasi siyang anak ni Governor Kalden.

May i-ilang bumati kay Kaleb pero tipid na ngiti at tango lang ang ibinibigay niya.

Dinala niya ako sa isang karenderya dito sa loob ng market. May mga tinda silang inihaw at mayroon din silang mga sabaw na hindi ko alam kung ano iyon.

“Pick something you want to eat, do you want that noodles?” Tinuro niya iyong klase ng noodles na may sinasabaw na maraming halo. Amoy masarap iyon kaya tumango ako.

“Gusto ko rin yun,” Tinuro ang nakita kong iniihaw na kulay itim na box ang shape.

“That’s it?” Tanong niya pa. Tumango ako.

“Manang, dalawang pares po with rice, at sampong betamax. Anim na pork barbecue na rin po, one soft drink and one bottle of water.” Order niya sa babaeng nagbebenta. Nakangiti naman itong tumango at agad na inasikaso ang order namin.

“Kaleb, is it safe here?” Tanong ko dahil medyo makalat ang paligid ng market. Kapag may nangyaring masama sa tiyan ko ay paniguradong lagot ako kay dad Arken.

“Pumpkin, it’s just street food. It’s not poison. Kumain na ako dito noon, don’t worry.” He assured me. Ginulo niya pa ang buhok ko. Tumango na lang ako at nang dumating na ang pagkain namin ay agad kong kinuha iyong tinawag niyang betamax kanina. May binigay silang mga sawsawan kaya sinawsaw ko iyon sa maanghang na suka bago isinubo.

Napatango ako nang malasahan kong sobrang sarap nito lalo na sa maanghang na suka.

“What is this, Kaleb. Taste so good.” Curious kong tanong. Sumagot naman siya habang inaayos ang pares at rice sa harapan ko.

“Chicken blood.” Natigil ako sa pagnguya dahil sa sinabi niya. Napatitig ako sakanya na parang maiiyak.

“Gross!” Inis kong sabi bago ko pinilit na nilunok ang nasa bibig ko bago ko binaba sa plato ang natirang betamax sa stick na hawak ko. Natawa naman siya sa reaksyon ko.

“It taste good, it’s edible, pumpkin. Eat it.” Udyok niya pa pero umiling ako.

“It’s fucking blood.” Hindi ko napigilang mapamura. Napangiwi naman siya.

“Pumpkin, don’t curse the food, and it’s safe so eat it.” Napanguso ako sa sinabi niya at umiling lang ulit. Napabuntong hininga na lang siya at binigyan ako ng kutsara at tinidor para ipakain saakin ang pares. Kinuha ko naman yun at tinikman ko ang pares. Masarap iyon kaya ginanahan ulit akong kumain.

“You’re so picky when it comes to food, pumpkin. Paano na lang kapag inaya kita sa lugar kung saan mga exotic food ang bilihin?” Sabi niya habang kumakain rin ng pares. Sinulyapan ko naman siya at sumagot.

“I’ll eat it, you can shut up now.” Pagtataray ko. Gusto niya lang naman kainin ko iyong betamax dahil binili niya saakin iyon. Kaleb doesn’t really like it when I don’t eat what he bought for me.

“Good, eat it well.” Ngisi niya saakin. Napairap na lang ako. Kung hindi lang talaga siya sobrang gwapo kapag ngumingisi.

“Where are we going after this?” I asked. Nilunok niya naman muna ang nasa bibig niya bago sumagot.

“Sa kubo sa labas niyo, let’s hang out there.” Ngiti niya at lumaki rin ang ngiti ko. What he means by hang out is actually cuddle with each other until one of us fall asleep. I like cuddling with him, madalas namin iyon gawin sa kwarto niya at sa kubo kung saan una kaming nagkakilala.

I can’t wait to go home.

Mío

A/N:

Wait lang po, mag u-update ako sa Mutual Desire, Lustful Mistake at Carnal Games. Dito rin. Naghahanap lang po ako ng time para isingit ’to sa mga schoolworks ko kaya don’t worry po, I won’t drop any stories I’ve already published ☺️

Dos

Hans

Pinapakinggan ko ang tibok ng puso ni Kaleb habang nakahiga ang ulo ko sa dibdib niya. Halos yakap-yakap ko na siya habang magkatabi kaming nakahiga sa kutson na inilagay namin dito sa loob ng kubo kung saan una kaming nagkita.

“Kaleb,” Tawag ko sakanya dahil alam kong hindi pa siya tulog.

“Hm?”

“May I ask something, about my first kiss.” Parang natigilan naman siya sa sinabi ko. Nakagat ko ang pang ibabang labi ko at hinintay ko siyang sumagot.

“What about it, pumpkin?” He finally asked. I licked my lips before speaking.

“Why can’t we do it right now?” Pati ako ay kinabahan sa sarili kong tanong. Noong isang gabi kasi ay sabi ko sakanya ay siya ang gusto kong maging first kiss ko, but he just gave me a peck on the lips. He paused before answering.

“Because it’s lame, pumpkin, I want it to happen naturally, not forced.” Sabi niya bago niya hinawakan ang ulo ko para laruin ang buhok ko. Napanguso ako sa sinabi niya.

“It’s just a kiss, Kaleb. you don’t want it do you?” Inangat ko ang ulo ko at tumingin sakanya. Nakagat niya naman ang ibabang labi niya habang nakatingin rin sa mukha ko.

“You don’t know how much I want to ravish that mouth of yours, pumpkin.” Sabi niya at agad na may nangyaring wirdo sa tiyan ko. I ignored it and spoke again.

“Then why don’t you do it?” Hamon ko sakanya. Napabuntong hininga naman siya at bigla siyang umupo kasama ako.

“Pumpkin, I feel like you’re only doing this because you think you owe me something, and I don’t want that.” Paliwanag niya. Kumunot ang noo ko sa sinabi niya.

“No, I don’t think I owe you something, I just really want to kiss.” I honestly said without any shame. Hindi naman siya nakaimik at bigla siyang nagmura.

“Fuck,” He frustratedly muttered. “Why are you talking about this without any hint of romance, Hans? This is hurting me for real, double fuck.” Parang naiiyak niyang sabi habang nakatitig sa mga mata ko. Naguguluhan ko siyang tiningnan.

“Romance? You want me to be romantic?” Tanong ko sakanya habang napapangiti. Is that why he doesn’t want to kiss me right now? Because he want it to happen romantically? Why?

“Of course! Why do you think I want to kiss you?” Parang siya naman ang naguguluhan ngayon. I looked at him and shrugged.

“Because we want to kiss, we want to experience it? We just want to try.” Hindi ko siguradong sagot. Hindi ko rin kasi alam kung bakit gusto ko siyang halikan ako. Parang noong isang gabi lang ay nagrarason pa ako sakanya na hindi kami pwedeng maghalikan dahil magkaibigan kami.

“That’s the reason why I’m not kissing you right now, I want to kiss when you already know why you want it, not today.” Nainis ako sa sagot niya. I want it because it’s him. Bakit ba hindi niya maintindihan?

Balak niya na sanang humiga ulit pero agad ko siyang pinigilan. Inilapit ko ang mukha ko sakanya at agad kong dinampi ang labi ko sa mga labi niya. I tried moving my lips pero agad niyang inilayo ang mukha niya saakin. I glared at him.

“I knew you don’t want it, you could just say it.” Inis kong ani. Magsasalita agad sana siya pero nagsalita ulit ako.

“If you really don’t want it then I can try it with someone else-” Nagulat ako nang agad siyang gumalaw at nagpalit ng pwesto. Hinawakan niya ako sa bewang at pinaupo niya ako sa lap niya. Kinalong niya ako paharap at inilapit ang mukha niya saakin. Gulat na gulat at napapalunok ko siyang tinitigan sa mukha. He’s also looking at me with his eyebrows knitted. I can smell his natural scent and it’s making me feel something.

“You will not do that, pumpkin, you already told me that you want it to be me and you can’t do it with anyone but me, let’s keep it that way.” Hindi ko na naiintindihan ang sinasabi niya dahil halos magkadikit na ang mga labi namin habang sinasabi niya iyon. He’s already hovering his lips on mine and I can’t help but get excited for what he’s doing. I felt a knot in my stomach and I suddenly want to cry and beg him to just kiss me already. This is the first time I’m feeling this and it feels weird.

“Kung halik lang naman ang gusto mo, I can give it to you, pumpkin, full course.” Mahina niyang sabi bago sinunggaban ang mga labi ko. I whimpered and I was caught off guard when he roughly moved his lips on mine pero agad akong nakabawi at nilabanan ang ginagawa niya. Napahawak ako sa magkabilang balikat niya habang parehong gumagalaw ang mga labi namin sa isa’t-isa. Halos hindi ako makahinga habang marahas niya akong hinahalikan.

“Ah-Ahm!” Ungot ko nang kagatin niya ang ibabang labi ko at ang sunod niyang ginawa ay ipinasok niya sa bibig ko ang dila niya. I suddenly felt breathless but my tongue met his and it danced together. Ganon niya ako hinalikan, with tongue and all. He’s giving it to me rough and I was feeling something weird in my stomach while we’re still kissing.

Naghahalo ang laway naming dalawa and I can smell his breath that smells so good. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa balikat niya nang sapuin niya ang magkabilang pisnge ko at palalimin pa ang halikan namin.

He deepened our kiss until he was already sucking my tongue. Naitulak ko siya sa sobrang gulat at hiya ko nang sipsipin niya ang dila ko.

“K-Kaleb!” Nahihiya kong saway sakanya. Napapikit naman siya at kagat-labing hinihingal.

“Fuck, that was so good, pumpkin.” He muttered and opened his eyes. Nagtama ang mga mata namin at nabuo ang ngisi sa labi niya.

“That was our first kiss,” Nakangisi niyang sabi. Napalunok ako at umiling sa sinabi niya.

“No, you kissed me last Friday, inside the pub.” Sabi ko. Natawa naman siya at hinalikan ang tungki ng ilong ko.

“I thought you don’t consider that as a kiss?” Taas-kilay niya saakin. Iniwas ko naman ang mga tingin ko sakanya pero muli niyang pinalingon ang mukha ko sakanya gamit ang mga kamay niyang hawak pa rin ang magkabilang pisnge ko.

“You were asking for it and now you’re all flustered, red ears, cheeks and even your neck is getting red.” Asar niya saakin. I glared at him.

“You were sucking my tongue!” Reklamo ko na ikinatawa niya lang.

“That’s part of french kissing, pumpkin, here,” Inilabas niya ang dila niya saakin. “Suck it.” Utos niya. Umiling ako habang napapalunok pero hindi siya gumalaw at inuudyok niya lang akong gawin ang inuutos niya gamit ang mga mata niya habang nakalabas pa rin ang dila niya.

Ilang beses akong napalunok at dahan-dahan kong ginawa ang gusto niya. I took his red tongue inside my mouth and I gently sucked on it. Napapikit ako at hinayaan kong madala ako sa ginagawa. I even licked his tongue with my own and sucked on it again. I heard him grunt.

“O-Okay, stop, fuck, mi

polla

ya

esta

dura.“ He said with his low voice.

[Translation: My dick is already hard.]

“What?” Kunot-noo ko. He just looked at me for a moment before he snuggled his head on the crook of my neck.

“Shit, Pumpkin, you’re a tease.” Ani niya sa parang nagrereklamong boses. Hindi naman agad ako umimik at hinawakan ko ang buhok niya. He smell so good. Even his hair feel so soft.

“Was that romantic enough for you, Kaleb?” Nangingiti kong tanong. Napaungot naman siya.

“No, I actually wanted to kiss you on your birthday, but you were already asking for it and I can’t also wait that long.” Sabi niya habang paunti-onti kong nararamdaman ang dila at mga labi niya sa leeg ko. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at napapikit dahil sa ginagawa niya. He tilted my head and started sucking and licking on my neck.

“Ah-” Tinakpan ko agad ang bibig ko nang lumabas ang ingay na iyon. I heard Kaleb grunted and he took my hands that’s on my mouth. Inalis niya ang mga kamay ko na nakatakip sa bibig ko at muling naglaro ang bibig niya sa leeg ko pababa sa collar bones ko.

“I want to hear it, pumpkin.” He said with his hoarse voice while he’s still sucking on my collar bone. I feel so shy to make that noise again so I started pushing him but he won’t budge and he even gently bit me on my neck.

“K-Kal,” Napaigtad ako nang maramdaman ko ang mga kamay niya na pumapasok na sa damit ko. I know that he was about to touch me on my chest but we suddenly heard my papa Reihan.

“Hans?! Hans Gabriel?! Where are you? It’s dinner time!” Pareho kaming nagulat ni Kaleb at agad ko siyang naitulak at umalis ako mula sa pagkaka-kalong sakanya. I heard him groaned.

“Fuck, what a pain.” I heard him say but I ignored him. Inayos ko ang sarili at suot ko bago ko siya hinarap habang nag-iinit ang buong mukha at leeg ko dahil sa ginawa namin.

“K-Kakain ka ba sa bahay?” Utal ko. Tinitigan niya naman ako at nabigla pa ako nang bigla niyang sunggaban ang mga labi ko nang mabilis bago sumagot sa tanong ko.

“No, I can’t, pumpkin. I need to work later, but let’s facetime, hm?” Sabi niya habang titig na titig sa mukha ko lalo na sa mga labi ko. Napapalunok akong tumango-tango sa sinabi niya.

“O-Okay-”

“Hans Gabriel?!” Kinabahan agad ako nang hindi na ang boses ni papa Reihan ang narinig ko kundi ang boses na ni dad Arken. Agad akong tumayo at tatalikod na sana ako palabas pero muli akong hinila ni Kaleb palapit sakanya para muling angkinin ang mga labi ko.

Napahawak ako sa dibdib niya at nilabanan ko ang mainit niyang halik bago niya ako bitawan.

“Pumpkin, I’ll give you something on your birthday.” Seryoso niyang sabi. I licked my lips and gave him a questioning look.

“What is it?” Curious kong tanong. Hinaplos niya naman ang buhok ko at muling sinulyapan ang mga labi ko.

“I’ll give you more than that kiss,” He kissed me on the cheek. “Something more erotic, pumpkin.” Matiim ang titig niya saakin at nakaramdam ako ng kakaiba sa tiyan ko pero tumango na lang ako sa sinasabi niya dahil narinig ko ulit ang boses ni dad Arken.

Binitawan niya na ako at nagmamadali akong lumabas ng kubo na iyon. Nilingon ko muna siya at binigyan ng ngiti bago ako nagpaalam at tumakbo na papasok sa bahay.

Nakita ko agad si dad Arken na nakatayo sa pintuan namin at nakahawak sa magkabilang bewang niya habang nakakunot ang noo saakin. Kagat-labi akong lumapit sakanya.

“Nasa kubo lang po ako, dad.” Hinawakan ko agad ang kamay niya para kalmahin siya at napailing naman ito.

“Kanina ka pa namin tinatawag ng papa mo, ano bang ginagawa mo sa kubo nanaman na iyon?” Parang inis niyang tanong bago ako akayin papunta sa kusina.

“W-Wala po, g-gumagawa lang ng schoolworks.” Pagsisinungaling ko habang malakas na malakas ang tibok ng puso ko. Hindi naman na umimik si papa at nang makapasok na kami sa kusina ay nakita kong inaayos na ni papa Reihan ang hapag para maka-kain na kami.

“Where have you been?” Tanong saakin ni papa.

“Sa kubo lang po, pa.” Tipid kong sagot at umupo na agad ako sa upuan ko para sumubo ng pagkain. Nilamanan ko agad ang bibig ko para hindi na sila magtanong pa.

“You look tired, baby. Are you tired from school?” Biglang lumambing ang boses ni papa Reihan. Lumingon naman ako sakanya at umiling habang nginunguya ko ang pagkain sa bibig ko.

“You’re all red, Hans, may masakit ba saiyo?” Tanong pa ni papa Reihan. Nalunok ko naman ang kinakain ko at natameme dahil sa sinabi niya. Shit, why am I still red?

“Love, stop with the questions and eat, Hans look okay. Right, honey?” Sabi ni Dad. Tumango-tango naman ako sakanya at sumubo ulit ng pagkain. Hindi naman na ulit nagtanong pa si papa Reihan dahil nilambing na siya ni Dad habang kumakain kami. Ganon sila lagi kahit sa hapag kainan. Dad Arken always take care of papa Reihan and I’m always happy whenever I see them being so whipped to each other. Gusto ko paglaki ko ay kung magkaka-asawa man ako ay ganitong relasyon katulad sa mga magulang ko ang maranasan ko. It just look so perfect and lovely.

Nang matapos kaming kumain ay pinaakyat na ako ni papa Reihan para maghugas ng katawan at matulog dahil may pasok pa raw ako bukas. Ginawa ko naman iyon at agad kong kinuha ang laptop ko nang makahiga ako sa kama.

Nakita kong tinatawagan ako ni Kaleb sa Skype at may ilang missed calls and text na rin siya sa selpon ko.

“What were you doing, pumpkin? I’ve been calling you.” Bungad agad saakin ni Kaleb nang i-accept ko ang Skype request niya. Hindi naman agad ako nakapagsalita dahil tinitigan ko pa siya sa screen.

Ang gwapo-gwapo niya talaga lalo na sa itsura niya ngayon. Halatang bagong ligo at naka sandong puti lang siya habang nakatagilid saakin, naka harap siguro siya sa isa pa niyang PC at may hawak siyang papeles habang ang isa niyang kamay ay may hawak na ballpen at nasa may bandang bibig niya iyon habang halatang nagbabasa sa hawak niyang papel. He look so hot.

Sumulyap siya saakin at tumaas ang kilay niya nang mahuli niya akong nakatitig lang sakanya. Napatikhim ako at nagsalita.

“Kumain ako, tapos naligo na rin, pinapatulog na nga ako ni papa Reihan.” Rason ko. Sumandal ako sa magkapatong na dalawang unan sa likod ko habang nakatingin pa rin sa screen kung saan nakatingin rin saakin si Kaleb.

“Mamaya ka na matulog, I missed you already. I’m so tired from work, pumpkin, I need to see your face so I can finish this work.” Mahaba niyang sabi habang pasulyap-sulyap saakin at sa papel na hawak niya. Kalaunan ay nakita kong pinipirmahahan niya na iyon. I watched how his biceps reflexes at hindi ko mapigilang humanga roon. Ang macho niya talaga.

“Okay, one hour, Kaleb. Hindi ako pwedeng magpuyat, I have school tomorrow.” Sabi ko habang sinusuklay ko ang buhok ko gamit ang isa kong kamay. Nakatingin pa rin ako sa screen kung nasaan siya at kita kong pasulyap-sulyap rin siya saakin.

“Okay, pretty babe. Hatid kita bukas sa school before I go to work.” Napangiti agad ako sa tinawag niya saakin at sa sinabi niya.

“Okay, Kaleb.” Nakangiti kong sabi. Sumulyap naman siya saakin at napatitig siya saakin nang ilang segundo bago nagsalita.

“Stop being pretty there,

nangungulila

na agad ako sayo, parang gusto tuloy kitang puntahan at jan na ako matulog.“ Rinig ko ang buntong hininga niya pagkatapos niyang sabihin iyon. Napailing ako.

“Baliw, magkasama lang tayo kanina, tapusin mo na yang trabaho mo, we’ll see each other tomorrow.” Ngiti ko. He sighed again and nod.

Nag-usap pa kami nang isang oras habang nagtatrabaho siya at hindi ko namalayang nakatulog na pala ako habang naka facetime pa rin kami.

I had a good night sleep though. My mind was filled of our kiss earlier. Parang gusto ko na iyong ulit-ulitin.

Mío

A/N: Soaper sweet naman ng mag bff 🤭

Tres

A/N: Hello,

binago

ko ang edad nila ngayong present time, Hans is turning 20 and Kaleb is turning 23 na po. Para

tugma

sa required na edad si Kaleb para

tumakbong

governor. ^-^

Hans

Hinatid nga ako ni Kaleb ngayong araw sa school, pero hindi kami masyadong nakapag-usap dahil nagmamadali kaming pareho dahil late na ako at siya naman ay may kailangang puntahan na lugar para maghatid ng tulong. But he promised me that he will take a day off for one week for my upcoming birthday next week.

“Hans, late ka ulit? Sabi ko naman sayo mag dorm ka na lang malapit sa school ’e, layo kasi ng bahay niyo.” Bungad saakin ni Dandy. Nagmamadali naman akong umupo sa tabi niya dahil nag le-lecture na ang professor namin sa first period.

“Alam mo namang hindi ko kayang asikasuhin ang sarili ko, pagluto nga ay hindi ko pa alam, pati paglaba, paano ako mag d-dorm mag-isa?” Kunot-noo kong sabi sakanya na kami lang ang makakarinig. Nakita ko naman siyang natatawa dahil sa sinabi ko.

“Problema sa mga sobrang mayayaman ’e, hindi tinuturuan ang anak sa mga gawaing bahay.” Sabat naman ni Lyka. Napairap ako. Ayaw lang talaga akong mapagod ni papa Reihan, kahit gusto akong turuan ni dad Arken ay hindi pumapayag si papa. Pero kapag nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataong malaman ang mga gawaing iyon ay hindi ko rin naman kakayaning mawalay kila papa at dad. Mamimiss ko sila kapag nag dorm ako. Mamimiss ko ang pag-aalaga nila saakin.

Magsasalita pa sana ako patungkol sa sinabi ni Lyka pero pumasok ang adviser namin at nakasunod sakanya ay isang malaking binatang lalaki na nakasalamin.

“Excuse me po ma’am, gusto ko lang po ipakilala itong new transferee natin, dito po ang room niya.” Sabi ng adviser namin. Nakangiting tumango naman ang professor namin ngayong period bago hinayaang magsalita ang adviser namin.

Pinakilala niya ang malaking taong lalaki na naka salamin, sabi niya ay galing daw itong state at anak ng former governor ng Quezon. So ang papa niya ay dating kalaban sa politiko ng papa ni Kaleb. Wow.

“I’m Monti Chavez, nice meeting all of you, I hope this school can take care of me.” Pakilala niya saamin habang may aliw na ngiti sa mga labi niya. Monti Chavez. Maganda ang pangalan niya at magandang lalaki rin siya.

“We will surely take care of you, Mr. Chavez. Take a seat beside Ms. Turo.” Sabi ng Prof. namin at narinig kong napaungot si Lyka dahil sa tabi niya pinapaupo ang lalaki. Sa likod ko iyon kaya nadaanan niya ako at nagkatinginan pa kami. Binigyan niya ako ng ngiti bago umupo sa likod ko sa tabi ni Lyka.

Pagkatapos no’n ay nagpatuloy ang klase namin hanggang sa pumatak ang break. Sabay-sabay kaming lumabas nina Lyka at Dandy. Nakita pa namin iyong Monti na may mga kasamang ibang mga student galing sa ibang sections at grades na alam kong mga anak mayaman talaga dahil anak ng mga artista at mga sikat ang apelido dahil sa business.

“Kilala ko yun ’e, malapit lang ang bahay nila sa bahay namin.” Biglang sabi ni Lyka habang naglalakad kami papunta sa cafeteria. Nilingon ko naman siya at nagtanong.

“Really?” Ang tinutukoy niya ay iyong Monti Chavez.

“Oo, spoiled brat yun ’e, kaya pinadala sa state pra tumino, balita ko ay tatakbo yan para sa pwestong Governor next year.” Sabi niya na ikinagulat ko.

“Isn’t he too young for that?” Tanong naman ni Dandy. Umiling naman ito.

“No, he’s a repeater, ang sabi ay nagkasakit raw kaya tumigil muna sa pag-aaral, if I know, nagbulakbol lang yun.” Nguso ni Lyka. Napatango naman ako habang iniisip ang nalaman. Kung ganon ay isa siya sa makakalaban ni Kaleb sa election.

“Oy Hans, hanap ka ni kuya Oasis, nasa quadrangle na papunta sa cafeteria.” May isang senior ang lumapit saamin at sinabi iyon. Napakamot naman ako sa ulo at narinig kong natawa si Lyka.

“Aga bumisita ng manliligaw mo?” Biro niya na ikinairap ko. Kanina ko pa kasi ini-ignore ang mga text at tawag ni kuya Oasis kaya siguro ang aga niya nandito. Napailing ako at minadali ko na lang silang maglakad papunta sa cafeteria.

Nang makapasok kami sa cafeteria ay nakita ko agad si kuya Oasis sa table na madalas naming upuan ng mga kaibigan ko. Inaya ko silang lumapit kay kuya Oasis pero bibili daw muna sila ng makakain kaya nauna na ako.

“Kuya, didn’t I tell you to stop showing up here? Baka may magalit na teachers.” Bungad ko kay kuya Oasis nang makaupo ako sa harap niya. Kinuha ko ang selpon ko para i-text si Kaleb na kumain kahit na alam kong busy siya at hindi niya iyon mababasa.

“You were ignoring my text and calls, nag-aalala tuloy ako baka may nagawa akong hindi mo gusto? Kahapon.” Sumulyap ulit ako kay kuya Oasis nang sabihin niya iyon sa nag-aalalang boses. Umiling ako sa sinabi niya.

“Wala naman, I was just busy at nagmamadali ako kaninang umaga. Sorry, I didn’t mean to ignore you.” Paumanhin ko dahil mukhang nag-alala talaga siya. Paloko-loko lang si kuya Oasis pero alam kong totoo ang care niya saakin kahit lagi niya akong inaasar.

Bumalik na nga ang mapang asar niyang ngisi bago nagsalita.

“Akala ko naman nagalit ka kahapon kasi hindi ko nahintay ang uwian niyo, gusto mo bang hatid kita mamaya pauwi? Or sabay na tayong mag lunch?” Alok niya. Napailing ako sa kakulitan niya. Kahit anong pigil ko sakanyang wag akong dalawin sa school ay lagi naman siyang pumupunta. Hindi na talaga ako magugulat kung may kumausap saaking teachers patungkol sa pag dalaw niya sa campus araw-araw.

“You know that Kaleb is the one who always drive me home, at alam mong ayaw niyang kasama kita.” Sabi ko sakanya habang pasulyap-sulyap ako sa dala niyang box ng pizza na nasa tabing upuan niya. I sighed. Tataba talaga ako nito.

“Sus, ’di mo naman shota ang lokong yun diba? Wag nga siya, daig niya pa daddy mo kung mag bawal.” Kuya Oasis said while making faces. Natatawang napailing ako. Siguradong kapag narinig ito ni Kaleb ay magpupuyos iyon sa galit. Kinuha niya naman ang dala niyang pizza at binuksan iyon, may dala din siyang bottled water at binigay saakin na bukas na.

“Kaleb is my bestfriend, ayaw ko lang siyang nagagalit.” Paliwanag ko sakanya bago ako kumuha ng isang slice ng pizza. Narinig ko naman siyang may sinabi pero hindi ko iyon naintindihan dahil mahina lang.

“What?” I asked. Umiling siya.

“Wala, kain na, I’m free today, gusto mo bang gumala mamaya?” Tanong niya. Nag-isip naman ako. Paniguradong magagalit nanaman si Kaleb pero alam kong hindi kami gagala mamaya dahil pagod siya galing work. Kapag ganitong may dinadayo siyang lugar na parte ng Quezon para tumulong ay umuuwi siyang laging pagod. Madalas ay sinusundo niya pa rin ako para may katabi siyang matulog. Wala akong takas, hindi siguro ako makakasama kay kuya Oasis.

“I dunno, baka kasama ko mamaya si Kale-”

“Oo na- Kaleb nanaman, pwede bang ako naman muna? Kailan ka ba free para sakin?” Parang inis nang sabi ni kuya Oasis. Natameme ako dahil nabigla ako sa itsura niya. Halata kasing sobrang naiinis na siya dahil sa kunot na kunot niyang noo at matalas pa ang mga mata niya. Minsan ko lang iyon makita dahil madalas ay lagi lang siyang mapang asar na nakangiti saakin.

“S-Sa Friday, sa pub, let’s hang out.” Nauutal kong ani dahil kinabahan ako sa behavior niya ngayon. Baka mamaya ay bigla niya akong sapakin dahil sa inis. Wag ko na lang sigurong banggitin si Kaleb sa harap niya.

“Hans,” Tawag niya saakin kaya tiningnan ko siya. Nakatitig naman siya saakin na parang inaaral ang inaakto ko. Napakurap-kurap ako sakanya.

“Po?” Tanong ko. Nakita ko siyang natawa.

“Are you scared of me? I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to be mad, ikaw kasi ’e, puro Kaleb, eh ako nga ang nandito.” Sabi niya at nabigla pa ako nang punasan niya ang gilid ng labi ko. Napalunok naman ako at tumango.

“Okay, hindi na. Sorry.” Paumanhin ko dahil ayaw kong masapak. Hindi pa naman ako nasasaktan ni kuya Oasis pero sa laki niya at liit ko, hindi malabong mabangasan ako kapag ininis ko siya masyado.

“Don’t be like that, don’t act like I will hurt you, I will never.” Biglang seryoso niyang sabi habang nakatitig sa mukha ko. Tumango-tango ako. Alam ko naman iyon, pero syempre, naninigurado lang. Sabi nga nila, someone who’s raging mad doesn’t know what they’re doing.

Dumating ang dalawa kong kaibigan at dumalo saamin sa table. Bumalik ang pang-aasar ni kuya Oasis at bumalik na rin ako sa pag susungit sakanya hanggang sa natapos ang break at bumalik na kami sa classroom namin. Si kuya Oasis naman ay hahatiran raw ako mamaya ng lunch at um-oo na lang ako dahil ayaw ko talagang may naiinis saakin, natatakot ako na baka saktan nila ako ng pisikal at hindi ako makakalaban.

Nang pumatak ang oras ng lunch break ay muli kong nakasabay si kuya Oasis sa cafeteria. May dala siyang pagkain na sobrang dami at masasarap. Napapatingin nga saamin ang ibang estudyante pero si Dandy at Lyka ay nasa ibang table dahil tinaboy nanaman sila ng mga mata ni kuya Oasis. Hindi na lang ako nagreklamo at kumain na lang.

“Does it taste good? Luto yan ni dad Eli, pinapahatid niya talaga yan sa bahay niyo, pero sayo na lang dito sa school, hehe.” Nabilaukan ako sa sinabi niya. Parang gago talaga si kuya Oasis. Kaya pala ang dami ng dala niya at halatang homemade dahil naka tupperware lahat.

“Loko ka talaga, kuya Oasis. Baka magalit satin si tito Eli.” Kunot-noo kong sabi sakanya habang nginunguya ang pagkaing nasa bibig ko. Natawa naman siya habang kumakain rin.

“Hindi yun, sayo ko naman binigay ’e, gusto ka nga makita ni Mamu. Punta ka raw sa bahay minsan.” Ang tinutukoy niyang Mamu ay si Tito Liam.

“I’ll try, medyo busy kasi ako sa school and sa pub.” Napapanguso kong sabi dahil gusto ko rin makita si ate Lev at tito Liam. pero wala talaga akong time. Kay Kaleb pa lang ay ubos na ubos na.

“Tell me if you finally have time, I’ll fetch you.” Ngiti niya saakin. Sasagot na sana ako pero nag ring ang selpon ko at agad na lumaki ang mga ngiti ko nang makitang si Kaleb iyon. Hindi na ako nakapag paalam pa kay kuya Oasis sa pagamamadali kong lumabas ng cafeteria para sagutin ang tawag.

“Kaleb! Have you had your lunch?” Excited kong tanong nang masagot ko ang tawag. Alam ko kasing busy siya pero natawagan niya pa rin ako kaya I’m very happy.

“Hi, pumpkin, I had lunch na, kasabay ko iyong mga survivors sa landslide. It’s devastating to see their crying and sad faces, it’s hurting me and I’m glad I can offer a little help, but I know it’s not enough, nawalan sila ng mga mahal sa buhay.” Mahaba niyang sabi at ramdam ko ang lungkot sa boses niya. Nakagat ko ang ibabang labi ko. Maawain talaga si Kaleb and nakita ko nga sa balita na malala talaga iyong naging landslide doon sa lugar na pinuntahan niya.

“Are you okay?” Tanong ko.

“No, that’s why I called you, I need to hear your voice, God, I miss you, pumpkin.” Napangiti ako sa huli niyang sinabi.

“I miss you too.” Sagot ko.

“Kumain ka na ba?” Muli kong nakagat ang ibabang labi ko sa tanong niya. Napalingon pa ako sa loob ng cafeteria at nagulat pa ako nang makitang nasa table na namin ni kuya Oasis iyong Monti Chavez at pangiti-ngiti ito kay kuya Oasis na pasulyap-sulyap saakin habang kausap iyong lalaki.

Magkakilala ba sila?

“Kumain na ako, dinalhan ako ng lunch ni kuya Oasis.” Wala sa sarili kong sagot dahil nakatingin ako kay kuya Oasis at doon sa Monti Chavez na magkausap. Mukha kasi silang close dahil nagtatapikan pa sila sa balikat.

“What? He did? Why?” Natauhan ako nang marinig ko ang sunod-sunod na tanong ni Kaleb. Natapik ko ang bibig ko dahil nadulas ako at nasabi kong nandito si kuya Oasis. Shit. Ayaw niya pa naman talaga kay kuya Oasis.

“A-Ahh, ano- wala lang, gusto niya lang ako h-hatiran ng pagkain.” Utal ko. Natahimik naman siya nang ilang segundo bago nagsalita.

“Okay, have your lunch, I will drive you home later, wait for me, hm?” Nakahinga ako nang maluwag nang ibahin niya ang topic.

“Okay, I’ll wait for you.” Sagot ko.

“Oh, also, can you tell your parents that you’re going to sleep at my house? Sabihin mo ay kailangan mo maging maaga sa klase bukas kaya samin ka matutulog, please, pumpkin?” Napanguso ako sa request niya kahit gusto ko rin naman na matulog kasama siya. Pero kada kasi ginagawa namin iyon ay sumasakit lagi ang puson ko sa hindi ko malaman na dahilan. Kapag magdamag ko siya katabi ay ganon ang nangyayari saakin.

“Okay, I’ll try, see you later, Kaleb.” Paalam ko dahil baka matapos na ang lunch break at hindi pa rin ako natatapos kumain.

“Take care, see you, pumpkin.” Huli niyang sinabi bago naputol ang tawag. Nakangiti naman akong bumalik sa loob ng cafeteria at nakita ko pang nag-uusap pa rin si kuya Oasis at iyong Monti.

Pareho silang napatingin saakin nang makaupo ako sa harap nila. Ngumiti lang ako at kumain ulit pero nagsalita si kuya Oasis.

“Who’s that? Kaleb?” Tanong ni kuya Oasis. Hindi ko agad naintindihan ang tinatanong niya pero nang maintindihan kong iyong tumawag ang tinutukoy niya ay kagat-labi akong napatango.

“Hm, he was just asking if I already had my lunch.” Ngiti ko. Sinulyapan ko naman iyong Monti dahil titig na titig ito saakin habang nakangiti. Mukhang baliw siya sa itsura niya. Lihim tuloy akong natawa.

“He doesn’t have to worry about that, I always make sure you eat, hindi niya ba alam na lagi kitang pinupuntahan dit-”

“Kuya! Don’t tell him, mag-aaway nanaman kayo.” Reklamo ko habang lukot ang mukhang tumingin sakanya nang nakikiusap. Dati kasi ay muntik na silang magsuntukan dahil lang sabay nila akong sinundo at nag-away sila kung kanino ako sasabay. Hindi ko gustong mangyari iyon ulit dahil magkakasakitan lang sila.

“Eat.” Sagot lang ni kuya Oasis kaya naiinis akong bumalik sa pagkain. I don’t want to argue with him dahil hindi ako nananalo.

“Your boy?” Naiangat ko ulit ang tingin ko nang magsalita iyong Monti. Hindi ko masyadong narinig dahil mahina lang ang pagkakasabi niya. Nakatingin siya saakin at pasulyap-sulyap kay kuya Oasis. Napangiti naman si kuya Oasis.

“Soon, there’s a lot of competitors, and based on that smile on your face, mukhang dadagdag ka pa? Don’t do it, Monti.” Nakangiting sabi ni kuya Oasis pero halata sa emosyon sa mga mata niya na seryoso siya. Natawa naman iyong Monti at tumingin ulit saakin. Hindi ko maintindihan ang pinag-uusapan nila.

“Hi, you’re my classmate, right? I love your cerulean eyes. I’m Monti.” Inabot niya saakin ang kamay niya at napatingin naman ako roon. Narinig kong nagmura si kuya Oasis kaya binawi ni Monti ang kamay niya bago niya ulit hinarap si kuya Oasis nang tumatawa.

“Relax! I’m kidding,” Tawa nito na ikinairap lang ni kuya Oasis. Hindi ko gusto ang pareho nilang mapang-asar na ngisi. Napailing ako. They’re both weirdos.

Mío

A/N: Katulad ni Kaleb sa chapter na ito, super busy rin po ako kaya

isinisingit

ko na lang itong

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. Super sorry sa late UD! Bawi talaga ako soon 😩

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Hans

“Sige na, kuya Oasis. Hihintayin ko pa si Kaleb.” Taboy ko kay kuya Oasis dahil mukhang nagmamadali rin naman siya paalis. Hapon na kasi at halos wala ng tao sa labas at sa loob ng university pero wala pa rin si Kaleb na siyang susundo saakin. Hindi ko rin siya matawagan dahil baka busy siya at hindi talaga ako nauunang tumawag sakanya, pero tinext ko na rin naman siya.

“Are you sure? Sorry, Hans, can’t drive you home, pinapatawag kasi ako sa trabaho.” Sabi pa ni kuya Oasis habang nakasakay na siya sa kotse niya at nakababa lang ang bintana sa driver seat para makausap niya ako.

“I’m sure and I’ll be okay, papunta na rin naman si Kaleb.” Sakanila kasi ako matutulog. Hindi ko na sinabi pa ang huli kong naisip. Napabuntong hininga naman siya at tumango-tango na ini-start ang kotse niya.

“Okay, text me when you finally got home. Take care.” Ngiti niya saakin at ngumiti rin ako sakanya bago niya pinaandar ang kotse paalis. Kinawayan ko pa siya at muli kong ibinaba ang tingin ko sa selpon na hawak ko para itext ulit si Kaleb.

Ang tagal naman niya? Nag-aalala na tuloy ako.

Naghintay pa ako nang ilang minuto sa labas ng university namin habang busy sa selpon ko dahil tinitingnan ko kung magre-reply si Kaleb.

“Hey,” Halos mapatalon ako sa gulat nang may tumapik saakin sa balikat at nagsalita. Nagugulat ko siyang nilingon at nakita kong ito iyong Monti Chavez. Napabuga ako ng hangin dahil sa gulat. Mukhang napansin niya naman iyon at natawa pa.

“Did I scared you? Sorry, kanina ka pa kasi dito, may hinihintay ka ba?” Tanong niya na parang close kami. Napakurap-kurap naman ako sa mukha niya bago tumango.

“Yeah, I’m waiting for my ride.” Nasabi ko na lang dahil ayaw ko rin naman makipag usap sakanya dahil hindi ko siya kilalang lubos. Napatango naman ito at muli akong tinapik sa balikat.

“Looks like your ride is here.” Sabi niya habang nakatingin sa harap namin. Nilingon ko naman ang tinitingnan niya at napangiti ako nang makita ko nga ang kotse ni Kaleb na papalapit na sa pwesto kung nasaan ako.

“Nice car,” Komento pa ni Monti kaya muli akong tumingin sakanya. Nakita kong hindi naman siya nakangiti habang nakatingin sa kotse pero nang marinig kong bumukas ang pinto ng kotse ay mukhang natigilan siya bago napangisi. Nagtaka naman ako pero hindi ko na siya pinansin at lumakad na ako palapit kay Kaleb na kalalabas lang ng pinto at nakatingin na agad saamin nang nakakunot noo.

“Kaleb, ang tagal mo.” Nguso ko sakanya nang makalapit ako. Hinawakan niya naman ako sa balikat bago ako binigyan ng halik sa noo.

“I’m sorry, pumpkin, the traffic was long, who are you with?” Paliwanag at tanong niya habang pasulyap-sulyap sa likod ko. Nilingon ko naman si Monti na siyang nasa likod ko at kumaway pa ito saakin bago tuluyang umalis. Napailing ako. Bakit naman kaya ang biglang friendly ng isang yun?

“That’s no one, just my new classmate.” Sagot ko kay Kaleb at tumango naman ito pero mukhang may iniisip siya dahil nakatingin pa rin siya kay Monti na nakatalikod na saamin at naglalakad papunta sa parking area ng university.

“He looks familiar,” Mahina niyang sabi kaya hindi ko masyadong narinig.

“What?” Tanong ko. Umiling naman siya at ngumiti saakin bago ako inakay papasok sa kotse niya. Nang makasakay kami pareho ay pinaandar niya na iyon at nag-usap kami habang nasa daan kami pauwi sakanila.

“Why did that bastard visited you earlier?” Biglang seryosong tanong niya habang tutok sa daan ang mga mata niya. Nilingon ko siya at saka ko naalala na nabanggit ko kanina si kuya Oasis. Nakagat ko ang ibabang labi ko bago ako sumagot.

“H-He was just visiting, he gave me homemade dishes that Tito Liam cooked.” Nasabi ko na lang dahil ayaw kong umamin na lagi akong pinupuntahan ni kuya Oasis sa school. Paniguradong gulo lang iyon.

“Tell me if he ever visits you again.” Seryoso niyang sabi at napapalunok akong tumango. Shit. Paano kung malaman niyang araw-araw akong hinahatiran ng pagkain ni kuya Oasis sa school?

Buong byahe ay natahimik ako habang papisil-pasil lang ang kamay ni Kaleb sa hita ko. Lumilipad ang utak ko kung sasabihin ko ba kay Kaleb ang totoo o hindi. I don’t even know why I’m hesitating to tell him the truth, I just feel like he’ll react terribly and I don’t want that.

“Pumpkin, come out, why are you spacing out?” Natigil ako sa pag-iisip nang pisilin ni Kaleb ang magkabilang pisnge ko. Napatitig ako sa gwapo niyang mukha bago ako tumingin sa labas. Nasa parking space na kami ng bahay nila at nasa labas na rin siya at nabuksan niya na ang pinto sa tabi ko. Siguro ay kanina niya pa ako tinatawag pero hindi ko naririnig.

“Sorry,” Paumanhin ko at humawak ako sa magkabilang balikat niya para makababa. Inalalayan niya naman ako at sabay kaming pumasok sa bahay nilang laging walang tao kundi ang mga katulong lang nila. Lagi kasing out of town ang Governor Kalden o kaya naman ay nasa office nito. Hindi mahagilap sa bahay nila.

Sinalubong kami ng mga katulong nila Kaleb at nagpahanda lang siya rito ng meryenda at sinabing ihatid sa kwarto niya. Pumasok naman kami sa kwarto ni Kaleb at agad kong sinimulang hubarin ang uniform ko.

“Kaleb, let me use the bathroom, and can I borrow a set of pajama?” Tanong ko habang busy akong hinuhubad ang suot kong uniform. Tinira ko lang ang maikling fitted boxer na suot ko. Yumukod ako sa bed niya kung saan ko inilagay ang mga pinaghubaran ko para tupiin iyon.

“Pumpkin,” Mahinang tawag ni Kaleb kaya lumingon ako sakanya at nagulat pa ako nang nasa likod ko na siya mismo at titig na titig saakin.

“Po?” Gulat kong sagot dahil natakot ako bigla sa mga malalim niyang titig. Parang gusto niya akong kainin.

“Didn’t I tell you not to carelessly undress in front of me?” Parang nagtitimpi niyang sabi. Napangiwi naman ako at tumango sa sinabi niya.

Sinabi niya nga iyon saakin dati. I don’t know why tho.

“Sorry, gusto ko na kasi maghugas ng katawan, inaantok na ako ’e.” Nguso ko. He sighed but his gaze never left me. Nag-iinit tuloy ang katawan ko dahil sa ginagawa niyang kakaibang titig.

“I told you I will punish you if you do this.” Sabi niya bago bumaba ang mga titig niya sa dibdib ko. Napanguso ako at lumapit sakanya.

“Kaleb, please don’t.” Kumapit ako sa laylayan ng suot niyang shirt para pakiusapan siyang wag akong parusahan. Actually, I don’t know what he’ll do but I don’t want any punishment coming from him, baka paghugasin niya ako ng pinggan katulad ng pinapagawa ni Dad Arken saakin kapag ginagalit ko siya. I don’t want to wash any plates.

“Bath yourself and have a nap,” Bigla niyang sabi. Ngingiti na sana ako pero napaigtad ako nang bigla niyang pisilin ang kanang utong ko. “I’ll punish you later.” Sabi niya at mabilis na tumalikod para lumabas.

“Ah, Kaleb..” Ungot ko na huli na lumabas dahil sa pagkabigla. Napakunot noo ako at napapangusong hinawakan ang utong kong pinisil niya. Bakit naman kaya nagmamadaling lumabas yun?

Napapailing akong pumasok sa banyo para maligo at nang tapos na ako ay kumuha na lang ako ng boxer at t-shirt ni Kaleb sa damitan niya dahil hindi na ito bumalik pa. Pinatuyo ko lang ang buhok ko at humiga na ako sa malaking kama ni Kaleb para matulog.

Agad akong nakatulog dahil sa pagod at sa bango ng higaan niya. It feels so comfy.

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Kaleb’s

Napabuntong hininga ako at humigop sa yosi ko habang nakatingin sa papasok na kotse sa gate ng bahay. It’s Dad. Himala at umuwi siya? But it’s a wrong timing, Hans is here and I don’t really like my dad near my pumpkin. Dad is a bad news, to everyone and to anything.

Napailing ako at muli kong kinalma ang sarili ko. Hans is so careless. He’s always testing my patience, ang tagal-tagal ko nang tinitiis na wag siyang hawakan, wag siyang biglain dahil nirerespeto ko siya pero habang tumatagal ay panipis nang panipis na ang gapos ng pagtitimpi ko. Konting galaw na lang at mapuputol na talaga ito at hindi ko alam kung anong magagawa ko sakanya.

Hans is so precious, as much as I want to treasure him, I also want to make a mess out of him, I want to fuck him so bad, I want to see his pleasured crying face when I start ramming his insides- fuck! What am I even thinking? Nauubos na talaga ang pasensya kong hintayin na siya ang maunang gumalaw saamin.

I want to be intimate with him so bad but I want him to initiate it first, ayokong mauna dahil alam kong papayag siya sa mga gusto ko pero hindi ko rin malalaman kung pumapayag lang siya dahil gusto niya ako or dahil komportable lang siya saakin. I can’t really read his feelings for me and it’s frustrating the hell out of me.

“Sir Kaleb, tawag po kayo ni sir Kalden.” Narinig kong sabi ni Manang Cess sa likod ko. Tinapos ko ang paninigarilyo ko at nilisan ang terrace na iyon para puntahan si Dad sa office niya.

Ano naman kaya ang gusto ni Dad?

“Son, glad you’re here, I want you to go to the Aboitiz residence, hand this to their youngest daughter.” Agad na nalukot ang mukha ko nang itinuro niya ang bouquet of roses na nasa mesa niya.

“What are you trying to say?” Naiinis ko na agad na tanong. Hindi naman siya lumingon saakin at nakatutok lang sa papeles na nasa harapan niya.

“I need you to have a good relationship with the Aboitiz, I heard that Aliza, the younger daughter of the Aboitiz has a huge liking for you, use it, think of it as business.” Tinago ko ang galit at ilang beses akong lumunok para kumalma. Isa ang mga Aboitiz sa mayayamang pamilya sa Pilipinas.

“For business?” Tanong ko kahit kontrang-kontra ang utak ko sa sinasabi ni Dad.

“For your campaign next year, it’ll help.” Kibit-balikat niya. Umiling agad ako kahit na hindi siya nakatingin saakin.

“I’ll think about it, but not today, I have company.” Agad akong tumalikod at lumabas ng office niya. Hindi ko na hinintay ang sasabihin niya. Nang makalabas ako ay agad kong gustong manuntok ng kahit ano ngunit pinigilan ko ang sarili ko at kinalma.

No way in hell I will do that. I will never court someone just for business or for fucking politics that my dad is so obsessed about. No way in hell.

Kinalma ko ang sarili ko at lumakad pabalik sa kwarto ko para tingnan kung tulog na si Hans. Agad na kumalma ang sistema ko nang makita kong mahimbing na siyang nakahiga sa higaan ko at napangiti pa ako nang makitang suot niya ang damit ko.

Only Hans can have this effect on me.

Lumapit ako sa kama kung saan siya nakahiga at napalunok ako nang makitang suot niya ang isa sa mga boxer short ko. Malaki iyon sakanya pati ang t-shirt ko kaya mas lalo siyang nagmukhang maliit.

Humiga ako sa tabi niya at hinalikan ko ang pisnge at leeg niya para amoy-amuyin siya. Napapalunok ko siyang hinawakan sa bewang niyang maliit.

Hans is so sexy, it’s true that his behaviors and the way he understands things are cute but to me, his movements and the way he carries himself, it’s so hot, he’s so hot. So hot and sexy that he made me fucking gay.

I wasn’t gay when I first met him, I was straight like a flag pole, but he bended me without even trying. Only Hans can do that and that’s why I’m head over heels for him.

Bumaba ang hawak ko mula sa bewang niya pababa sa puson niya at nabigla pa ako nang maramdaman ko ang matigas na bagay roon.

Iminulat ko ang mga mata ko at nangingiti kong tiningnan ang mukha ni Hans. Lihim akong natawa nang makitang pikit na pikit ang mga mata niya at kagat-kagat niya ang ibabang labi niya. He’s awake. Cute.

“Pumpkin,” Tawag ko sakanya bago ko tuluyang hinawakan ang naninigas niyang ari sa labas ng boxer short na suot niya. Nakita kong humigpit ang pagkakakagat niya sa labi niya at ang dalawa niyang kamay ay parehong napakapit sa bedsheet.

“This always get hard whenever we sleep together, why is that?” Tanong ko bago ko ginalaw ang kamay kong nakahawak sa alaga niya at muli kong hinalikan ang pisnge at leeg niya. Totoong lagi iyong naninigas kapag natutulog kaming magkatabi. This is why I’m not losing hope that he also feels the same with me.

“Pumpkin, I know you’re awake.” I said before I licked his cheek. Narinig kong napabuga siya ng hangin bago tinawag ang pangalan ko sa boses na talaga namang pinapanghina ako agad.

“Kaleb.. please,” He breathe out. I licked my lips and turned his face towards me to claim his luscious lips. I heard his whimpers and it’s not helping to my raging boner that wants to ram his insides.

“Pumpkin, do you still want your punishment?” Mahina kong tanong bago ko siya tiningnan sa mga mata. I saw the burning desires in it and it made me swallowed. Fuck, is he just horny or does he feel the same towards me?

Napailing ako sa mga iniisip at inayos ang sarili ko. I guess this will do, mukhang aabutin pa ako ng siyam-siyam kapag hinintay ko pang si Hans ang maunang gumalaw saamin. I need to do something to finally make him mine, slowly but surely.

“Of course you will love it.” Sagot ko sa sarili kong tanong kanina bago ko muling hinuli ang mga labi niya at tuluyan kong hinubad ang suot niyang boxer short.

“Kaleb..”

Mío

A/N: Namimiss ko rin mag update nang tuloy-tuloy, miss ko rin po kayo huhu pero full face to face classes na po kasi kami and yung Saturday and Sunday wala rin, puro school works, pero nag pay off nman ang pagod dahil pasok ako sa rankings! Promise I’ll update whenever I have free time! Sana po ay

mahintay

niyo. :>

Cinco

Hans

“Kaleb..” Kinakabahan kong ani habang pinagmamasdan ko at dinadama ang ginagawa niyang paghalik-halik sa binti ko habang nasa gitna siya ng mga iyon.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko nang sipsipin niya ang parte ng balat sa may bandang hita ko. Kanina pa sumasakit ang puson ko dahil sa ginagawa niya. This is the first time he’s doing this and he looks so good while he’s kneeling in between my legs and he’s also shirtless. Kitang-kita ko ang magandang hubog ng katawan niya pati ang napaka gwapo niyang mukha na halatang-halata ang pagnanasa saakin.

I tried to hide my whimpers because of what I was thinking. That’s what I’ve been seeing since earlier, his desires for me, and it’s making me feel so hot and I don’t know why I want to kiss him so bad right now, malalim at walang patid na halik. I’m feeling so needy and it’s making me shy. Is this alright? Can I really do this with my friend?

“God, you smell so good, pumpkin.” He said with his low voice. Ilang beses akong napalunok nang bumaba ang mga labi niya papunta sa tiyan ko. Hinawi niya ang suot kong damit hanggang sa pati dibdib ko ay nakalabas na at kitang-kita na ng mga mata niya.

I flinched when he nibbled and lick on my belly while his hands are on my chest, his hands are squeezing on it.

“Kaleb, ahh, d-don’t suck on it so hard, hurts..” I whimpered and tried to escape but his hands caught me and tightly placed me on his bed.

“Stay, this is your punishment, pumpkin.” Sabi niya at agad kong nasabunutan ang buhok niya nang kagatin niya ang parte ng tiyan ko.

“Kaleb!” I tried to get away from him but he held me tightly and when he finally faced me with burning desires in his eyes, I stopped moving and just stared at him. Fuck. Why is my heart beating so fast?

“Pumpkin, if you move, I’ll do it with you all the way, I won’t listen to your complains. Try me.” Seryoso niyang sabi habang magkapantay ang mga mukha namin at parehong nakatitig sa mga mata ng isa’t-isa. Nakapatong na siya saakin at talaga namang seryosong-seryoso siya. Nakagat ko ang ibabang labi ko at tumango-tango.

“I won’t resist anymore, sorry, Kaleb.” Agad kong sabi dahil ayaw kong parusahan niya ako lalo kapag sinuway ko siya. I know him, he doesn’t really like it when I’m not listening to him, gusto niya ay lagi akong sumusunod, he might not pressure me to do it but I know that he doesn’t like it when I don’t do what he wants. He’ll sulk and sometimes he’ll ignore me for like a half an hour. He will also give me an empty or sometimes a half-meant threat. He’s that childish sometimes, he always wants to get what he wants, and I’m always willing to give him what he wants.

“Good boy,” He started kissing me on my cheeks and on my neck. “Your scent and the way you look at me, it’s making me so hard, pumpkin.” He started whispering while kissing and licking on my neck. Napaungot pa ako nang mabilis niyang hubarin ang suot kong damit bago ulit bumalik sa paghalik-halik saakin, ngayon naman ay nasa dibdib ko na siya humahalik.

“Every inch of you drives me insane, do you know what that means?” Tanong niya bago niya ipinasok sa bibig niya ang isa sa utong ko. Napahawak ako sa buhok niya at lalong bumukas ang mga labi ko para umungot nang maramdaman ko ang mainit niyang bibig na sumisipsip sa utong ko.

“Ah—haah!” Hindi ko napigilang ungol habang hindi niya tinitigilan ang utong ko, he’s even biting it lightly. I don’t know why this feels so good and my heart can’t stop beating erratically.

“Answer me, mi amor, mi

niño

bonito, do you know why you drive me insane?” Pakiramdam ko ay lalabas na ang puso ko dahil sa mga ginagawa niya. Ramdam ko na ang basa sa suot kong short at ang sakit ng puson ko. Hindi pa nakakatulong ang tiyan niyang matigas dahil sa mga abs niya na kumikiskis sa gitna ng mga hita ko at ang boses niyang dumadagdag sa init na nadarama ko.

[Translation: My love, my pretty boy.]

“I don’t— ah! Please don’t bite, I don’t know what that means— ahh! Kaleb!” He started pinching my nipples and sucking on my chest while his abs are pressing on my crotch. I feel so good and I can’t stop moaning and it’s making my face so hot. Parang hindi ako ang naririnig kong boses na lumalabas sa bibig ko. I know I sound so whiny and what we’re doing is making me feel something I haven’t felt before. Parang gusto ko pang may gawin siya ngunit hindi ko rin alam kung ano iyon. This is also making me insane.

“Of course, you don’t know what you do to me,” Pinantay niya ang mukha niya saakin at hinuli ang mga labi ko. He gave me a deep and messy kiss and I’m liking it so much. “Pumpkin, eres mi

hallazgo

afortunado

. Eres mío.” He said and it made me whimper. Fuck, why does he keep talking like this? I feel like he’s trying to tell me something, like he’s confessing something but he’s not that brave to let me understand it.

[Translation: You’re my lucky find. You’re mine.]

“Stop fucking talking Spanish and let me know what the hell you’re saying, Kaleb, are you afraid to tell me something?” Naiinis kong sabi at nakita kong natigilan siya at kalaunan ay napangisi. Have I really made him insane? He’s acting weird.

“Fuck, you’re so hot when you cuss out of annoyance,” Ngisi niya saakin at hinalikan ako nang mabilis. ”—and yes, I’m afraid that if you understand what I’m saying— me

dejarás

.” Nawala ang ngisi niya at tanging tipid na ngiti ang natira sa mga labi niya habang ang mga mata niya ay nangungusap na nakatingin saakin.

[Translation: — you will leave me.]

I stared at him and tried to remember what he was saying. I will search what that means. He’s so frustrating, he keeps talking with a language I can’t understand, and why does he look like he’s a little sad?

“Should I learn Spanish so you will know that I am always willing to understand you?” Seryoso ko ring sabi at napakurapkurap siya saakin. I saw him swallowed before chuckling.

“Pumpkin, this is one of the times that you are really testing my sanity, fuck, te

quiero

mucho.” He said and he didn’t gave me the chance to talk back, he quickly ravished my lips and I flinched hard when I felt his hand on my dick.

[Translation: I love you so much.]

“Hmm!— Kaleb!” Gulat kong ungot sa bibig niya nang ilabas niya ang alaga ko sa short ko at lalong nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang ilabas niya rin ang kanya. Ilang ulit akong napalunok at hindi ko napigilang mapamura.

“Shit!” I hissed because his dick is so thick and long and it’s throbbing, not to mention that’s it veiny and the tip of it is so red like it’s going to explode. Fuck! Where did he get that?! Has he been hanging out with me while carrying that much of a package? He’s packing, and I’m not over reacting.

“What— why? Are you okay?” He asked me with pure concern in his eyes because I cussed so loud like I just been hit. Nakagat ko ang ibabang labi ko bago ko sinabi ang kanina ko pa gustong sabihin simula nang makita ko ang dala-dala niyang alaga.

“You’re so big, what are you going to do with that with me? I’m scared, Kaleb.” I said with genuine fear that he might use his big dick to hurt me because I was disobeying him.

“What?” Tanong niya at biglang natawa nang malakas.

“Babe, this big dick is all yours. Don’t need to be scared, I’m always gentle when it comes to you, haven’t I?” Sabi niya habang may gwapong ngiti sa mga labi niya. Naramdaman kong namula ako at nagwala ang dibdib ko habang may kung ano akong naramdaman sa tiyan ko dahil sa sinabi at tinawag niya saakin.

Babe. That sound so sweet, I like it so much when he calls me pumpkin, but being called babe by him also makes me feel something.

Kinikilig ba ako?

Nabalik ako sa realidad nang maramdaman kong gumalaw ang mga kamay niya. Ipinagtabi niya ang alaga niya at ang saakin.

“Kaleb, what are you doing?” Kinakabahan kong tanong ngunit ramdam ko na ang kung ano sa puson ko.

“Pleasuring the both of us, I need a release before I start to lose my sanity— y

empieza

a

joderte

los

sesos

.” Halata ang gigil sa tono niya habang sinasabi iyon. Napaungot ako nang magsinungaling gumalaw ang kamay niya. “Please don’t stop me, pumpkin, I can’t.” He said with his low voice and started to attack my neck again.

[Translation: — and start fucking your brains out.]

Napakapit na lamang ako sa balikat niya habang sobrang pagpipigil ang ginagawa kong wag maihi. I feel like I’m going to pee because of what he’s doing with our private parts.

“Kaleb, Kaleb! Ah! No!” Hindi ko napigilang mag-ingay dahil konting-konti na lang ay alam kong maiihi na ako dahil sa ginagawa niya. It feels so good that I want to cry. This is my first time someone is touching me there and I also don’t touch it like that so it’s so sensitive.

“Hans, pumpkin, help me.” I heard Kaleb and he caught one of my hands and brought it to our intertwined private parts. “Jack it off like what I was doing, please?” He said with his seducing voice and I was in dazed and just did what he wants.

Hinuli ko ng dalawa kong kamay ang magkatabi naming alaga at ginawa ko ang ginagawa niya kanina roon. I started masturbating both of us and pleasure started to attack my whole body again.

“Hans, shit, pumpkin— ah, rougher.” I heard Kaleb moaned and that’s when I lost it. My body started convulsing and I felt an exhilarating pleasure throughout my whole body.

“Ah! Shit! No— Ahh! Ah..” Ang akala ko ay ihi ang lalabas saakin ngunit nagulat ako nang puting likido iyon at nagkalat agad iyon sa tiyan ko. Nanghina agad ang katawan ko at hindi natigil ang panginginig nang mga binti ko pati ang mga malalalim kong paghinga.

“Fuck, so hot.” Rinig kong sabi ni Kaleb at hindi na ako nakapag isip pa nang bigla niyang pinantay ang nagmamalaki niyang ari sa mukha ko.

“Kaleb..” Ungot ko nang makita kong mabilis niyang nilaro ang alaga niya habang kagat-labing nakatingin saakin. Kitang-kita ko ang pagtaas-baba ng kamay niya sa malaki niyang ari at kitang-kita ko ang pamumula niyon.

I can clearly see it throbbing and I started to heavily breathe again because of what I’m seeing. He looks so hot while he’s masturbating right in front of my face.

“Yeah, ah, fuck, watch me, pumpkin. Ahh..” His moans and it sounds so sexy. Hindi ko alam na may ipo-pogi pa pala si Kaleb sa paningin ko. Ang akala ko ay sagad na sagad na ang pagkagandang lalaki niya sa mga mata ko ngunit sa ginagawa niya ngayon ay mas lalo akong humahanga sa pagkagandang lalaki niya. Nag-iinit ang mga pisnge ko at nakagat ko ang ibabang labi ko habang ang mga mata ko ay namumungay na pinapanuod ang ginagawa niya.

“I’m coming, pumpkin— Hans! Ah, I’m coming..” He started to desperately whimper with his sexy manly moans that is making me feel so hot.

“Kaleb..” Tanging nasabi ko habang patuloy siyang pinapanuod.

“Hans, open your mouth, babe, quick.” He breathlessly said while still jacking off in front of me. Hindi ko na naisip pang magtanong at agad kong sinunod ang gusto niya.

I opened my mouth and what he did next shocked me to the core.

“Hmph!” Ipinasok niya sa bibig ko ang malaki niyang ari at umilang ulos roon bago ko natikman ang mainit na likido na bumuhos sa bibig ko.

“Ohh! Fuck! Hans!” He loudly hissed and he didn’t even back off even after ejaculating inside my mouth.

He let me swallowed it all. All of his seminal fluid.

Bastard.

Mío

A/N: Kala niyo ba shy² lng ang mima Hans niyo, no no no, HAHAHAHAHA.

Dapat nag re-review ako para sa mga long quizzes mamaya pero

nami-miss

ko na talaga magsulat nang tuloy-tuloy kaya

heto

ako at

nagpupuyat

kahit may pasok mamaya 😩

Mag update rin po ako sa iba kong stories ngayong December break, lapit na!🖤

Seis

Hans

Tulala ako at lumilipad ang isip ko habang may kung sinong kumakausap saakin na nasa harap ko. Nasa cafeteria ako at lunch break namin pero ang isip ko ay lumilipad sa nangyari saamin ni Kaleb kagabi.

Ilang ulit kasi namin iyon ginawa, tatlong beses siguro siya nilabasan habang ako ay mga lima o sobra pa. I was overstimulated. It was a good feeling being intimate with him, but I feel guilty that I’m doing it with him while we’re friends.

Ano na lang ang sasabihin ko sa parents ko? Shit, why do Kaleb have to be so hot kasi. Bakit rin ba hinahayaan ko itong mangyari saamin? I’m not even feeling afraid that our friendship will be ruined because of what we’re doing, to be honest, I don’t even know if I want to be friends with him anymore. I want more intimate than that friendship we have.

Natapik ko ang pisnge ko dahil sa mga pinag-iisip ko. Nababaliw na siguro talaga ako.

“Hans!” Nagulat ako nang may humawak sa mga kamay kong nasa pisnge ko. Napakurap-kurap ako sa mukha ni kuya Oasis na mukhang naiinis na dahil kanina niya pa ata ako tinatawag.

“B-Bakit?” Ngiwi ko. Napabuntong hininga naman siya at umiling.

“Nothing, you weren’t listening to me, are you okay?” Tanong niya. Tumango naman ako at ibinaba ko ang atensyon ko sa kinakain kong pasta. Gusto ko man siyang kausapin pero ang utak ko ay puro si Kaleb ang laman ngayon. I can’t even focus in class or anything.

“Hans, I’m going, hinatid ko lang talaga ’tong mga pagkain sayo so you won’t skip your meals, may trabaho pa ako.” Sabi ulit ni kuya Oasis. Kagat-labi akong tumango.

“Thank you and I’m sorry, kuya Oasis. I’m just out minded right now.” Ngiwi ko ulit dahil halatang inis siya sa inaakto ko ngayon. Tumango naman siya at tumayo na.

“I know, I can clearly see that something is distracting you, anyways, have a good day, Hans.” Sabi niya at tinapik pa ako sa balikat. “I’m going. Bye.” Paalam niya bago ako iniwan. Agad namang lumipat ng lamesa ko ang dalawa kong kaibigan nang umalis na si kuya Oasis. Agad na kung ano-ano ang tinanong nila at bagot ko naman iyong sinagot hanggang sa sumuko na lang sila at kinain ang mga pagkain na dinala ni kuya Oasis para saakin.

Ako naman ay muling lumipad ang isip. Masama na ito, hindi ako makapag focus dahil sa nangyari saamin ni Kaleb. Hanggang ngayon ay malinaw na malinaw iyon sa isip ko at sa tuwing naalala ko ay nag-iinit ang mga pisnge ko.

I can’t forget how sexy Kaleb looks when we’re pleasuring each other last night. It won’t get out of my head and I’m getting frustrated. Gusto ko na ulit siya makita.

Mariin akong napapikit hanggang sa tumunog na ang bell hudyat na tapos na ang lunch break. Napabuntong hininga ako. Hindi man lang ako nakakain nang maayos.

Tumayo na ako kasama ng dalawa kong kaibigan para lumabas ng cafeteria. Nagmamadali sila habang ako ay natigil nang tumunog ang selpon ko. Ang akala ko ay si Kaleb ang tumatawag ngunit nabigla ako nang makitang si papa Reihan iyon.

Mabilis akong nagsabi sa mga kaibigan ko na sasagutin ko muna ang tawag ni papa Reihan bago ako lumayo papunta sa sulok na walang masyadong ingay.

“Yes po, pa?” Agad kong tanong nang sagutin ko ang tawag.

“I called your kuya Kaleb and told him to take care of you for two days, you’re going with him for two days, anak, me and your dad Arken will be out of town for your dad’s work. Is that okay with you?” Mahabang litanya ni papa Reihan at nakagat ko ang labi ko sa sinabi niya. Shit, mas lalo ako nitong hindi makakapag focus. Pero okay na rin siguro dahil hinahanap-hanap ko talaga siya ngayon.

“Okay po, please take care on your business trip. Love you and dad. Don’t worry about me too much, I’ll be okay.” Sagot ko sakanya. Sanay na akong nag bu-business trip sila ni dad Arken paminsan-minsan. Madalas ay kila Tito Liam nila ako iniiwan pero ngayon ay mukhang kay kuya Kaleb nila ako iiwan. This is not the first time this happened.

“I love you too, baby. I’ll miss you, babalik ako

kaagad

! Kailangan lang talaga ako ng Daddy Arken mo for two days.” Paliwanag pa ni papa. Sinabihan ko naman siya na okay lang dahil alam ko namang hindi mabubuhay si Dad Arken kapag wala si papa Reihan. Hindi sila mapaghiwalay. I’m shock tho that dad Arken let me stay at Kaleb’s for two days. Dati ay hindi niya iyon gusto.

Ilang minuto pa kami nag-usap ni papa at nang patayin niya ang tawag ay twenty minutes late na ako para sa first period namin after lunch. I decided not to go kaya lumakad na lang ako ulit papuntang cafeteria para tumambay.

Ilang minuto pa akong naroon nang makatanggap ako ng text mula kay Kaleb.

‘I’ll fetch you later, pumpkin. I just finished work so I wasn’t able to text you at your lunch break, sorry.’

Basa ko sa text ni Kaleb. Napapangiti naman akong nag reply na okay lang iyon at mag lunch na siya.

‘Do you not have class, why are you able to reply to me, it’s already quarter to two.’

Text niya ulit saakin. Nireplyan ko naman siya na hindi ako nakapasok dahil sa tawag ni papa Reihan.

‘Oh okay, pumasok ka kapag alas dos na, don’t skip class. Don’t wander around the campus. Miss you already.’

Nakagat ko ang labi ko dahil sa sinabi niya sa huli.

‘I miss you too, can’t get you out of my head, dunno why.’ Kagat-labi kong pinindot ang send nang matapos akong tumipa ng reply sakanya.

Ilang segundo akong naghintay ng reply at hindi agad iyon dumating.

“Lakas mo talaga, T. Trashtalk-in ba naman si sir gamit ang— ano nga bang salita yun?” Napalingon ako sa likod ko nang may umupong tatlong lalaki at anlalakas ng boses nila. Nakita ko nanaman iyong Monti na kasama nila.

Wala na ba si sir Rico? Hindi pa naman niya labas ah? Bakit nandito ’tong tatlo kong kaklase?

“It’s spanish, he’s getting on my nerve, hindi naman marunong magturo. Whatever, he didn’t understand me anyway. E

l es

estúpido

. ” Napukaw ang atensyon ko nang nagsalita si Monti gamit ang lengwaheng iyon na familiar na familiar saakin dahil kay Kaleb.

He knows how to speak spanish?

Naalala ko tuloy iyong natandaan kong sinabi saakin ni Kaleb sa salitang iyon. Tanungin ko kaya iyon sakanya kung ano ang ibig-sabihin? Hmm.

Natigil ako sa pag-iisip nang muling mag vibrate ang phone ko hudyat na may nag text. Napangiti ulit ako nang makitang nag reply na si Kaleb.

‘Don’t make me fly over there, pumpkin. I also can’t get you out of my head, always.’

Napapangiting napanguso ako sa reply niya. What took him so long to reply? Tinanong ko iyon sakanya at agad naman siyang nagreply para magpaliwanag.

‘What you said took my breath away, I needed a minute to calm myself down before I literally make my car fly to go where you are.’

I chuckled at what he replied. So cheesy. Nag reply pa ako nang isa bago siya nagpaalam na kailangan niya na tapusin ang lunch niya dahil may trabaho na ulit. Tinago ko na rin ang selpon ko at hinintay na tumunog ang bell para sa susunod na klase.

Habang naghihintay ako ay nakatanggap ako ng text kay daddy Arken. Agad ko iyong binasa.

‘I’m letting you stay with that Kaleb for two days and two nights, if I find out that he’s touching you, you know he’s dead, Hans. Take care.’

Nakagat ko ang ibabang labi ko sa text ni dad. Shit. Paano kung malaman niya ang ginawa namin kagabi? Paniguradong lagot talaga si Kaleb. Alam kong magagalit rin saakin si dad pero hindi niya ako matitiis, pero si Kaleb, paniguradong sakit ng katawan ang abot niya kay dad.

Napanguso ako sa naisip at napayuko sa mesa sa harap ko.

Ano na ba ang gagawin ko? Ang higpit naman kasi ni Daddy, kwento nga saakin ni papa Reihan ay eighteen pa lang daw si dad Arken ay nilalandi na siya nito, samantalang ako ay nineteen at mag twenty na ay hinihigpitan niya pa rin na parang babae.

Hindi ko naman maiwan si Kaleb, I know that I need him. Hindi ko alam pero nakasanayan ko nang nasa tabi ko lagi si Kaleb. Naging hobby ko na nga rin ang suwayin sila papa at dad dahil sakanya.

Napailing ako at umayos ng upo. Sisiguraduhin ko na lang sigurong hindi malalaman ni Dad ang ginawa namin kagabi ni Kaleb. Wala naman iyong bakas saakin bukod sa memorya ko na paulit-ulit naalala iyon.

Natigil ako sa pag-iisip nang marinig ko ang hudyat ng sunod na klase. Agad akong tumayo at sumabay sa ibang mga studyante na maglakad sa hall. Mabilis akong pumasok sa room ko at agad na nagtanong sila Dandy kung bakit ang tagal ko. Sinagot ko naman sila at pare-pareho kaming natahimik na tatlo nang pumasok na ang Prof. namin para sa oras na ito.

Nagpatuloy ang araw ko sa school hanggang sa sumapit ang uwian. Ilang minuto pa kaming nagkwentuhan ng mga tropa ko bago namin naisipang lumabas na ng campus.

As usual ay tinext ko ulit si Kaleb na naghihintay na ako at naiwan ulit akong mag-isa sa parking lot dahil six pa ang uwi ni Kaleb galing trabaho. Madalas nga ay five na siya lumalabas para saakin, pero ngayon ay hindi ata iyon pwede dahil tambak ang trabaho niya kaya umupo ako sa gilid ng parking lot ng university para hintayin siya habang naglalaro ako sa selpon ko.

I received a reply from Kaleb saying that he’s already finishing up his work and he will be here in a short time kaya tumayo na ako.

Lalakad na sana ako papunta sa tapat ng gate ng university nang may magsalita sa likod ko.

“Cerulean boy, you’re waiting again?” Nilingon ko ang nagsalita at nakita ko si Monti na nakangiti na agad saakin. Lumingon-lingon naman ako sa paligid bago ako tumango sa sinabi niya.

“Your boyfriend is still not here? Do you want to ride with me?” Kumunot ang noo ko sa sinabi niya.

“No, and I don’t have a boyfriend, Kaleb is on his way to fetch me.” Iling ko sakanya at lalo namang lumaki ang ngiti niya.

“Kaleb Cabrera, the son of the Governor, right? Nice catch, you have a good taste.” Binanggit niya ang pangalan ni Kaleb na parang kilala niya ito. I didn’t mind his last sentence and asked him a question.

“You know Kaleb?” Tanong ko. Tumango naman siya.

“An old friend, acquaintance.” Kibit-balikat niya. Tumaas naman ang kilay ko. Hindi siya nak-kwento sakin ni Kaleb, and Kaleb doesn’t have friends even before I met him. He’s not friendly, ako lang ang kaibigan niya.

“Okay.” Tanging sagot ko. He just chuckled and was about to wave his hand to leave but I spoke again.

“You know how to speak spanish, right?” Tanong ko. Muli naman siyang lumingon saakin at tumango kaya nagsalita ulit ako. “Can you translate something for me, I don’t know what this means, I just heard it.” Muli kong sabi.

“Say it,” Udyok niya saakin.

“It sounds like this, ’te

kero

mucho’? I don’t know but it sounds like that.” Inosente kong sabi. Napakurap-kurap naman siya saakin at mukhang napukaw ko ang interes niya.

“Who said that to you? Kaleb?” May ngisi niyang tanong. Hindi ako sumagot ngunit parang alam niya na ang sagot roon. Tumawa siya at tumango-tango.

“That’s sweet, he loves you, huh. That’s crazy for him. Unbelievable.” Nawala ang ngisi niya at nakita ko kung paano nandilim ang mga mata niya. Nagtaka ako at magsasalita na sana ulit nang tumunog ang selpon ko hudyat na may tumatawag. Parehas kaming napatingin roon. It’s Kaleb calling.

“Uhm, I gotta go, bye, Monti.” Awkward kong paalam dahil titig na titig siya saakin at halatang malalim ang iniisip niya. Lumayo na ako nang hindi siya magsalita at sinagot ko ang tawag ni Kaleb.

“Pumpkin,

I sent an Uber to your location, get in and the driver will drive you to my work place. May kailangan pa pala akong tapusin, I’m sorry. Be here and be safe.“ Napanguso ako sa sinabi niya at nagsabi na lang ako ng okay. Nang makita ko ang sinasabi niyang Uber ay agad akong sumakay at doon niya lang pinatay ang tawag nang makasigurado siyang nakasakay na ako. Bago kami makaalis sa tapat ng university ay nakita ko pa si Monti na nakatanaw sa sinasakyan ko. Hindi ko na siya inintindi pa kahit na iniisip ko ang sinabi niya kanina. Ano kaya ang ibig-sabihin niya doon? Magkakilala ba talaga sila ni Kaleb? Bakit naman hindi ko ito alam?

Pero hindi naman malabo iyon, parehong nasa politiko ang pamilya nilang dalawa.

Nang makarating ako sa capitol kung nasaan ang office ng Dad ni Kaleb at kung saan rin nagtatrabaho si Kaleb ay agad akong bumaba sa Uber at pumasok sa building.

Agad akong binati ng ibang mga staff roon dahil kilala nila akong kaibigan ni Kaleb. Ilang beses niya na akong dinala rito pero paminsan-minsan lang iyon dahil mas gusto niya akong dalhin sa bahay nila.

Nagtungo ako sa opisina ni Kaleb at nagtaka pa ako nang palapit na ako roon dahil nakabukas ang pinto. Binilisan ko ang lakad ko at saktong-sakto nang makasilip ako sa loob ng opisina ni Kaleb ay nakita ko siyang nakaupo sa swivel chair niya at nakatingin sa selpon pero hindi doon natuon ang atensyon ko kundi sa babaeng naroon sa loob kasama siya.

Saktong nakita ko kung paano hinila ng magandang babaeng nasa loob ng opisina ni Kaleb ang upuan niya paharap rito at kumalong ang babae sakanya. Agad na sumikip ang dibdib ko sa nakita at mabilis akong tumalikod at naglakad palayo roon.

Hindi ko namalayang nagpupuyos na pala ako sa galit habang naglalakad palabas ng capitol at paulit-ulit na pumasok sa isip ko ang nakita kong babaeng kumalong kay Kaleb.

Who the hell is that?

Mabilis akong naglakad palayo sa building kung nasaan si Kaleb at napadpad ako sa parking lot ng capitol.

Sa sobrang galit na nararamdaman ko ay hindi ko namalayang lumuluha na pala ako. Agad ko iyong pinunasan at naiinis na inihilamos ang mga kamay ko sa sarili kong mukha.

Sobrang nakakainis, hindi ko alam kung bakit ang sikip ng dibdib ko dahil sa nakita ko. Siguro ay dahil first time ko iyong makita, never ko pang nakitang may ibang nakakalapit kay Kaleb nang ganon bukod saakin. Simula nang maging magkaibigan kami ay never siyang nagka girlfriend at wala siyang close friend na babae.

Lalong sumikip ang dibdib ko dahil sa isiping baka girlfriend niya iyon at hindi niya lang sinasabi saakin. Natigilan ako nang pumasok sa isip ko na baka kaya niya ako pinapunta rito para makita ko iyon at malaman ko nang may girlfriend siya.

Bwesit na bwesit akong nagdabog palayo roon at balak ko na sanang tumawag ng taxi para makalayo roon nang makita ko ang kotse ni Kaleb. Napatitig ako roon at tuloy-tuloy ang naging galaw ko nang pumulot ako ng malaking bato at itinapon ko iyon sa harap ng kotse niya. Hingal akong napatitig roon nang mabasag ang salamin at magkaroon ng dent sa harap ang kotse niya. Hindi pa ako nakontento kahit na tumutunog na iyon ay pumulot pa rin ako ng nakita kong malaking kahoy at walang tigil ko iyong pinaghahampas hanggang sa may umawat na saakin.

“Hoy! Anong ginagawa mo!” Mabilis kong binitawan ang kahoy na hawak ko at tumakbo ako palayo roon nang makita ko ang isa sa guard ng capitol na palapit na saakin.

Kaleb deserves that!

Mío

A/N: Grabe naman

magselos

,

nambabasag

kotse 🤭

Siete

Kaleb’s

Naigalaw ko ang panga ko at napapikit nang makita sa CCTV ang ginawa ni Hans. Fuck, I’m sure he was jealous because of what he saw. Lintek kasing babaeng iyon na ipinadala ni Dad sa office ko. Nakita ko rin sa CCTV kung paano nakita ni Hans ang pagkalong saakin ni Aliza, pero hindi niya nakita nang tulakin ko ang babae.

“Sir, ipa-track ko po ba ang lalaking ’yun? Nakita po sa CCTV ang sinakyan niyang taxi—” Pinutol ko ang sasabihin ng security na nasa tabi ko na nakikinuod rin sa CCTV.

“No, it was Hans, he was just being a spoiled brat.” Sabi ko habang kinakalma ang sarili ko. I’m not mad about my car, I’m mad that he did that so carelessly, paano kung nasaktan siya habang nagwawala siya nang gano’n? Kanina ko pa siya tinatawagan para malaman ko kung nasaan siya pero hindi siya sumasagot.

“Si sir Hans po? Magagawa niya po ba yan?” Parang nagtatakang tanong pa ni Gerald na siyang nakakita kay Hans kanina habang pinagpapalo nito ng kahoy ang kotse ko. Tumango ako. Alam kong duda rin siya na nagagalit nang ganoon si Hans. Kilala niya kasi si Hans na sweet lang na tao at mahiyain. Napailing ako.

I understand what he’s feeling. That’s the first time he saw me with someone that close. Hans is so used that my attention and affection is only to him, kaya siguro grabe ang galit niya kanina. My baby is mad jealous. I don’t know if I should be happy or what.

“You don’t need to think about that, ang utos ko sainyo ang sundin mo, never let that woman enter my office or the capitol again.” Seryoso kong utos sakanya at mabilis akong lumabas ng CCTV room para hanapin si Hans kung saan man siya pumunta. Fuck, he will really get the punishment he deserves. He’s being so spoiled again. May ugali talaga siyang ganito lalo na kapag hindi niya nakukuha ang gusto niya o kaya’y may nangyaring hindi niya gusto. He was raised spoiled and he can’t handle his frustrations well, but this is the first time I saw him jealous like that. May konting saya saakin dahil nagseselos siya dahil may nakalapit saakin. Pero lamang ang pag-aalala at frustrations ko sakanya ngayon. He doesn’t need to be jealous like that, I’m all his.

Saktong pakalabas ko ng capitol ay may tumawag saakin. It’s an unregistered number pero sinagot ko iyon at laking pasalamat ko nang marinig ko ang boses ni Manang Elsi na siyang nag-aalaga kay Hans kapag wala sila Tito Arken at Tito Reihan.

“Hello, sir  Kaleb,

iho

, anong nangyari at umuwi nang may mga

sugat

itong kaibigan mo? Ang sabi saakin nila sir Reihan ay sainyo

tutuloy

itong si Hans?” Kinalma ko ang sarili ko sa narinig. Nag-iinit ang ulo ko dahil sa pagiging careless ni Hans. Ako itong mababaliw kapag may nangyaring masama sakanya pero kung umakto siya ay parang wala siyang pakialam kung masasaktan siya o hindi, but this is my father’s fault. Kung hindi niya ba naman kasi pinipilit saakin ang babaeng iyon.

“I’m on my way, Manang. I’ll explain everything later.” Mabilis kong sagot at pumara ako ng taxi para pumunta sa resort kung nasaan ang bahay nila Hans.

———

Hans

Lumabas ako ng banyo nang nagpupuyos pa rin sa galit. Katatapos ko lang maligo at naiinis kong pinupunusan ang basa kong buhok habang masama ang tingin ko sa kawalan.

Hindi mawala sa isip ko ang nakita ko kanina. Kapag nasa trabaho ba siya ay ganon ang ginagawa niya? May kinakalantari siyang iba? Sino ba ang babaeng iyon? Sa sobrang inis ko sa mga pumapasok sa isip ko ay mas lalo kong diniin ang pag punas sa buhok ko pero agad akong napaungot nang sumakit ang dalawa kong kamay.

“Shit,” Maiyak kong ani at tiningnan ang dalawa kong kamay na may mga bandage na ngayon dahil nilagyan iyon ni Manang Elsi kanina. Nasugatan kasi iyon dahil sa ginawa ko sa kotse ni Kaleb pero sa sobrang galit ko kanina ay hindi ko man lang naramdaman. Kung hindi pa nakita ni Manang ang dugo ay hindi ko iyon mapapansin. Napaingos ako at bumalik nanaman ang inis ko kay Kaleb. Kasalanan niya ito. Isusumbong ko siya kay Dad Arken. Humanda talaga siya.

Napabuntong hininga ako at naiinis na humiga sa kama ko at natulala sa kisame. Nangingibabaw ang galit saakin ngayon pero hindi ko rin maipagkakaila ang hindi ko maintindihang sakit sa dibdib ko ngayon. Parang gusto kong maiyak pero pinipigilan ko dahil hindi ko iyon gawain. Kahit noong ilang ulit akong tinaboy ng totoo kong ina nang hanapin ko siya nang makalabas ako sa ampunan ay hindi ako umiyak. Kahit isang patak ng luha ay hindi ko ginawa dahil sayang lamang iyon. Crying doesn’t fix anything. I’m just glad that I have an amazing parents right now. Sa takot ko lang talaga kay Dad Arken ako laging naluluha. Other than that, I don’t really know how to let out my emotions and cry my eyes out. Napabuntong hininga ako ulit at pipikit na sana ako para magpahinga nang may kumatok sa kwarto ko at narinig ko si Manang.

“Hans Gabriel, nasa labas ang kaibigan mo, inaantay ka sa kubo niyo.” Napatayo ako sa sinabi ni Manang Elsi at pinagbuksan ko siya ng pinto.

“Si Kaleb?” Bungad ko agad sakanya. Tumango naman si Manang. Napaingos ako. “Sabihin niyo po ay umalis na siya, hindi ko siya lalabasin.” Irap ko at nagulat pa ako nang kurutin ako ni Manang sa tagiliran ko.

“Aw! Manang!” Reklamo ko. Ngumiwi naman saakin si Manang.

“Nako kang bata ka, kalahating oras ang binyahe ng kaibigan mo papunta rito pagkatapos ay hindi mo lang lalabasin?” Iling saakin ni Manang. Galit akong napanguso at naiinis na napairap ulit.

“I don’t care, may atraso siya saakin, Manang.” Rason ko. Parang napapagod naman na tumingin saakin si Manang bago tumalikod para umalis na pero may pahabol itong sinabi.

“Bahala ka, basta kapag hindi mo nilabas ang kaibigan mo ay makakarating itong nangyari sa Daddy Arken mo, pati iyang mga sugat m—” Mabilis kong hinabol si Manang at kagat-labing umiling-iling sakanya.

“No, Manang, please?” Pakiusap ko. Hindi siya kumibo kaya naiinis akong tumango-tango na lang.

“Sige po, lalabasin ko na siya.” Napipilitan kong sabi. Ngumiti naman ito at inudyok pa akong bumaba na. Kagat-labi naman akong bumaba habang pasulyap-sulyap pa rin sakanya. Mas lalong nadagdagan ang inis ko dahil sa ngiti saakin ni Manang.

Nagdabog akong binuksan ang pinto ng bahay at lumabas ng gate. Pagkalabas ko pa lang ay nasa harapan ko na agad si Kaleb at seryosong pinagmamasdan ang kabuoan ko. Nagtagal ang tingin niya sa mga kamay kong may gauges. Napanguso ako at napairap. Nakapang-trabaho pa rin siya at gulo-gulo ang buhok. Mukhang nagmamadaling pumunta rito.

“Pumpkin, I don’t know her, Dad just sent him to my offic—” Pinutol ko ang sasabihin niya.

“Are you not mad that I wrecked your car? I was the one who did it.” Pinapaalam ko sakanya para magalit rin siya. Hindi pwedeng ako lang ang nakakaramdam ng galit ngayon.

“No, fuck, right now I’m more mad that you did that so carelessly, look at your hands!” I almost flinched when he furiously walked towards me and took my hand for him to see. Napatitig lamang ako sakanya dahil sa gulat.

“Hans, pumpkin, don’t be so careless again, alright? That girl you saw, I didn’t even know her, it was Dad who sent her to my office, I pushed her the moment she sat on my lap, I’m sorry you didn’t see that.” Malambing niyang sabi at inilapit niya ang isa kong kamay na may gauge sa pisnge niya saka siya tumitig saakin gamit ang mga pagod niyang mata. He looks like he’s so tired but still want me to understand what I’ve misunderstood. Napanguso ako at napairap.

“How would I know if you’re not lying?” Pagmamatigas ko. Humigpit naman ang hawak niya sa kamay kong nasa pisnge niya.

“Babe, my lap is only for you to rest on, I’m all yours, okay? When did I even let someone touch me like how you do? You’re the one I want, please, believe me, pumpkin.” Mahaba niyang sabi habang nakatitig sa mga mata ko. I looked at him for a moment and I know he’s sincere. Pero hindi maalis ang tampo sa dibdib ko.

“She still had the chance to sat on you, I’m so mad right now, Kaleb. I don’t even know how to handle this angry outburst of mine.” Matigas kong sabi habang humahangos pa dahil nagagalit nanaman talaga ako sa isiping baka ilang beses na iyong nangyari at hinahayaan niya lang.

“Fuck, pumpkin, I’m sorry, okay? I won’t let it happen again, I swear! It was just one mistake, I didn’t even want it to happen, I’m sorry if that angered you, hm?” Parang nauubusan na siya ng pasensya pero pilit niya pa ring pinapalambing ang boses niya saakin. Pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay.

“One mistake? How would I know if that’s not the first time that happened? Hindi ko alam ang mga nangyayari sa araw-araw mo sa trabaho, Kaleb.” Naiinis ko pang sabi. Parang natigilan naman siya at mas lalo akong nainis nang bigla siyang matawa. What the hell?

“What?!” Naiinis kong singhal sakanya. Pinigilan niya naman ang tawa niya at tumingin saakin na parang naaaliw siya.

“You sound like a wife that’s questioning my loyalty for you, pumpkin.” He said while his face is still amused. Naiinis kong inagaw ang kamay ko sakanya at pinandilatan ko siya ng mga mata.

“Are you crazy? Wife my ass—” Natigil ako nang sapuin niya ang dalawang pisnge ko at angkinin ang mga labi ko.

“Pumpkin, I’m not going to cheat on you, I have never and I will never, now, let me ask a question, why are you jealous? Do you like me?” Natameme ako sa sinabi niya at pakiramdam ko ay nabuhusan ako ng tubig dahil roon.

Cheat? Jealous? Do I like him?

I gasped and put my hands in my mouth. I was jealous! That’s why I was so angry, fuck.

“Damn, I didn’t know I was jealous, but you’re right.” Wala sa sarili kong sabi. Hindi naman siya kumibo at parang may hinihintay pa siyang sagot saakin. Nakagat ko naman ang mga labi ko at biglang nahiya. Fuck, why am I jealous? Do I like him?

“Of course, I like you, you’re my best friend.” Sagot ko sakanya. Totoo naman na gusto ko siya, kaya nga malapit kaming magkaibigan e.

“Fuck, again?” Nagulat ako nang magmura siya at prang disappointed na tumitig saakin. Hindi naman ako kumibo at napayuko lang habang pasulyap-sulyap rin sakanya. Ano bang gusto niyang marinig? Hindi ko talaga alam ang sasabihin ko sa tanong niya. Nahihiya rin ako na ginawa ko ang lahat nang iyon kanina at galit na galit ako dahil sa selos. I must be crazy.

“Hans, I want to fuck you right now with that answer of yours, see of you can say that again after I fucked the hell out of you.” Ilang beses akong napalunok at nanlaki ang mga mata nang galit at gigil niyang sabihin iyon. Sa sobrang gulat ko ay hindi ako nakapagsalita at napatitig lang sa mukha niyang nandidilim na ngayon.

Nang hilahin niya ako papunta sa kubo kung saan kami unang nagkita ay hindi pa rin ako nakaimik at sumunod lamang sakanya.

“Get inside, your best friend will devour the hell out of you.” He sarcastically said and pushed me inside where we have clean bed foam with mattress and pillows. I always go here and lagi rin kaming tumatambay rito ni Kaleb kaya may higaan rito.

“Kaleb,” Kinakabahan kong ani nang pahigain niya ako at sunod niyon ay halikan niya ako habang pinapaloob ang mga kamay niya sa suot kong pajama shirt. Napaigtad ako nang sapuin niya ang magkabilang dibdib ko at pisilin niya ang mga utong ko. Impit akong napaungot dahil doon.

“Hans, I’ve been patient with you, but your cluelessness will be the fucking death of me. Fuck, I like you, alright? I fucking like you and I fucking like to be intimate with you, I’m so tired of being your fucking best friend, I’m never gonna play that again.” Humahangos niyang sabi nang matapos niya akong halikan. Titig na titig siya sa mukha ko habang pakurap-kurap naman ako dahil sa mga narinig. Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko ngayon at pakiramdam ko ay lumulutang ako.

“Y-You like me? Kaleb, you like me romantically?” Did I hear that right?

“Yes, fucking yes, since we were kids!” Tumango-tango siya. Napatitig naman ako sakanya kahit na madilim. Kitang-kita ko ang gwapo niyang mukha na parang desperadong may maiparating saakin. I can’t help but to smile.

“I don’t know why I’m so happy hearing that, Kaleb.” Natutuwa kong sabi. Hindi naman siya kumibo at muli akong kinabahan nang lumayo siya nang konti saakin at simulan niyang hubarin ang suot niyang button down long sleeve shirt habang nakatingin pa rin saakin na nakahiga at pinapanuod lamang ang ginagawa niya.

“Let me make you more happier tonight, pumpkin.” He said and I saw the desires in his eyes through the darkness. Napalunok ako at tatakas na sana nang pataubin niya ako at daganan sa likod.

“Kaleb, huhu.” Naiiyak kong sabi dahil hindi ko maipaliwanag ang sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko ngayon. Is this fear or excitement? I’m lost, but I don’t think I’m scared of him.

“Hans, you’re not going anywhere, pumpkin.” He kissed me on the cheeks and I felt a bulge poking on my butt cheeks. Muli akong napalunok.

“I’ve waited for so long for this, please don’t run away from me.” He said while still kissing my cheeks and poking my butt with his huge bulge. Hindi ko alam pero napatango-tango ako at ako na mismo ang kumiskis sa pang-upo ko sa matigas at malaking bagay na ikinikiskis niya saakin kanina pa.

“Fuck, just do it, Kaleb, please.” I didn’t know where that came from but my heart is thumping so fast right now and my crotch is also twitching. I know I’m horny for him right now.

“On all fours, baby.” He sweetly said but I know what will come next will be far from sweet.

Mío

Ocho

Hans

“Ahh! Ah! Kaleb! Kaleb!” Halos masugat ko ulit ang mga kamay ko sa sobrang higpit ng kapit ko sa mattress dahil sa sobrang lakas ng mga ulos saakin ni Kaleb.

His huge enormous dick is inside me right now and I don’t even know anymore how did we end up here. Walang humpay ang malalakas niyang ulos at halos manginig na ako sa sobrang sarap nang pinaparanas niya saakin ngayon. His dick feel so good ramming inside me. I didn’t know we can do this, if I knew, I would’ve done it with him sooner because this pleasure I’m getting right now is probably the best feeling I can feel. The best!

“Ohh! Oh! Fuck! Oh—hmp!” Natigil ang malakas kong ungol nang takpan niya ang bibig ko gamit ang malaki niyang kamay.

“Fuck, pumpkin, you feel so good, this is so good, ahh,” Ungot niya sa mismong tenga ko habang walang tigil sa paglabas-masok saakin. I muffled a moan because his hands is still on my mouth.

”As much as I want you screaming for me, your neighbors will probably hear you, pumpkin.” Parang natatawa niyang sabi ngunit mabilis lang iyon dahil napalitan iyon agad ng mga ungot dahil sa kalakihan niyang walang tigil sa pag-ulos sa masikip kong butas. Pilit kong tinanggal ang kamay niya sa bibig ko.

“I’ll lower my voice, fuck, Kaleb, it’s so good, Kaleb. More, please, ohh.. Kaleb..” I can’t stop moaning his name because of how good I feel right now. Kanina pa ako nanginginig at nanghihina dahil sa sarap na nadarama ko. I didn’t know sex with Kaleb will be this good, I love it so much I can’t even comprehend how to say that I want him to fuck me all night like this right now.

“Shit, I was about to cum just by your sexy moans, pumpkin, don’t do me like that, you know I’m a sucker for your whimpers.” Humahangos niyang sabi at bumaba ang mga kamay niya sa balakang ko at mas lalo akong nabaliw sa sarap nang humigpit ang kapit niya roon at mas bumilis at bumaon ang mga pasok niya saakin.

“Ohh! Ohh.. fuck! Kaleb! Ohh, Kaleb..uhh!” My eyes was teary and blurry when I started cry moaning and my body trembled when I came for the second time. I was groaning so hard and my eyes are rolling back but Kaleb didn’t even bothered to stop and just flipped me over to fuck me more.

“Shit, shit, Hans.” He groaned and put my legs on his shoulders while he unstoppably thrust into me. Napakapit ako sa magkabilang braso niya nang lumapit siya saakin kaya’t mas lalo akong napabukaka para sakanya. He kissed me with so much tender but his thrusts never weakened. Inaararo pa rin ako noon at ramdam na ramdam ko ang kada baon niyon sa kasikipan ko.

“Ohh, Kaleb, fuck, please, ohhh..” I tried so hard to not moan so loudly. Halos umuga ang kubo kung nasaan kami dahil sa ginagawa namin ngayon. Kahit na liyong-liyo na sa sarap ay nagawa ko pa ring makita kung gaano kagandang lalaki si Kaleb habang nasa ibabaw ko at pawisang umuulos saakin. His mouth are slightly open, his eyes and eyebrows are twitching while looking at our connected parts and his whole face is showing pleasures and desires. Ang sarap rin pagmasdan ang malaki niyang katawan na kinukubabawan ang maliit kong katawan. Alam kong pareho kaming gustong-gusto ang ginagawa namin ngayon.

“Hans Gabriel? Sir Kaleb? Nanjan ba kayo?” Halos manigas ako sa kaba at gulat nang marinig ko ang boses ni Manang Elsi sa labas ng kubo kung nasaan kami.

—

Kaleb’s

I stopped my thrusts when I heard Manang outside our hut. Napapalunok akong tinakpan ang bibig ni Hans na mukhang namutla pa dahil sa narinig.

“We’re here, Manang.” Sagot ko at dahan-dahan kong muling inulos ang nangangalit kong alaga papasok sa masikip at mainit na butas ni Hans. He feels so good that I can’t get enough. I know that sex with him will feel good but I didn’t know that it will be this amazing. So nerve wrecking.

“Hindi pa ba papasok si Hans? Pauwi na kasi ako pero gusto kong masiguradong ligtas na matutulog itong si Hans sa kwarto niya bago ako umuwi.” Sabi pa ni Manang. Hindi naman napatid ang titig ko kay Hans na sobra ang pagpipigil na huwag umungol habang umuulos pa rin ako sakanya. Mas nilakasan ko ang ulos ko at napakapit at napakalmot siya sa braso ko dahil doon. Pinanlalakihan niya ako ng mga mata ngunit hindi ako tumigil.

“Shh,” I teased him. “I’m going to tuck him in, Manang, ako na po ang papasok kay Hans sa kwarto niya, we’re just having a talk right now, palabas na rin po kami.” Oh I’m far from cumming. Ayaw ko pang labasan dahil gusto ko pang pagsawaaan ang masikip na butas ni Hans na winewelcome akong masyado, tinatanggap niyang mabuti ang malaki, mahaba at nangangalit kong alaga papasok sakanya. I can’t even describe how happy I am that we’re finally doing this and he’s liking it and not just me. This will probably the end of our platonic relationship, I will let him feel this amazingly good everytime we have the chance. God, I love him so much.

“Gising pa ba si Hans?” Tanong pa ni Manang. Inalis ko ang kamay ko sa bibig ni Hans para makapagsalita siya ngunit hindi ko tinigil ang mga ulos ko. I watched him struggled to breath and moan just to answer Manang.

“K-Kaleb, will t-tuck me in, Manang. Uh—fuck.” Mahina lamang ang huli niyang ungot kaya’t hindi iyon maririnig ng nasa labas.

“Osige, uuwi na ako, ikaw na ang bahala kay Hans, sir Kaleb. Pumasok na rin kayo mamaya lang dahil malamig jan sa kubo niyo at baka magkasakit pa kayo. Aalis na ako.” Sabi ni Manang at narinig kong lumakad na nga siya.

“Yes, thank you, Manang.” Nakangisi kong sagot at muli kong nilakasan ang mga ulos kay Hans na agad na tumirik ang mga mata at bumukas ang maliit niyang bibig.

“Ahh, Kaleeeb.. ohh..” Halos mangiyak-ngiyak niyang ungol. I licked my lips and tried not to cum just because of his sweet sexy moans that keeps turning me on and edging my cum. His expressions are also killing me, he look so good. I slammed my cock inside more deeper and faster and that’s when he started convulsing again and ejaculating.

I watched him trembled and the pleasure on his face erupted as he came. Wala akong sinayang na segundo at kahit na nilalabasan siya ay patuloy ang paglabas-masok ko sa mas lalong naninikip niyang butas habang nilalabasan siya.

“Oh, shit! Fuck, pumpkin, so good, pumpkin.” I groaned and switched our position. Ako ang humiga sa kama at pinahiga ko ang maliit niyang katawan sa ibabaw ko habang nakapasok pa rin ang alaga ko sakanya. Sa ganoong posisyon ko siya muling inararo.

“I just came, please, ohh! No, oh my gosh, Kaleb! I’m cumming again!” He ejaculated again and trembled on top of me. I chuckled and groaned again when his hole got more tighter around my cock. Fuck, I can’t keep it anymore.

“Pumpkin, Hans, ohh, I’m going to cum inside you, ohh.. inside you, fuck!” Mahigpit ang naging yakap ko sa ulo niya nang manginig ako at labasan sa masikip niyang butas. Ilang beses ko pa iyong inulos at pinuno ko ang loob niya. It was the best feeling ever. Fucking heaven.

“Ohh, shit.” Hangos ko habang kinakalma ko ang sarili ko na kagagaling lang sa rurok. It feels so amazing and I still want more.

“Babe, are you alright?” Ginalaw ko si Hans sa ibabaw ko ngunit napamura ako nang makitang wala na siyang malay. Fuck.

Agad akong kinabahan at ihiniga ko siya sa kama. Shit, I think I overdid it. Kagat-labi ko siyang pinagmasdan at kahit kinakabahan ay hindi ko mapigilang mapangiti nang makita ko kung gaano siya kaganda at kainosente habang tulog. He’s a mess right now because of our session but he still look so good. Parang gusto ko pang umisa pero sumuko na ang katawan ng best friend ko.

Natawa ako sa naisip at napailing. Nakakapikon talaga kapag tinatawag niya akong best friend, dito tuloy kami umabot dahil sa lintek na best friend na yan. I chuckled again before I started putting clothes on Hans and on me. Pagkatapos ay kinarga ko siya at lumabas na kami ng kubo para pumasok sa bahay nila.

Buti na lang at bukas ang mga pinto at mabilis ko siyang naipasok sa bahay at sa kwarto niya sa taas. Magaan lang naman si Hans kaya hindi mahirap saakin na kargahin siya pataas ng hagdan. Ihihiga ko na sana siya sa kama niya ngunit ramdam kong parehong malagkit ang katawan namin kaya nag prepare ako ng warm water sa bathtub niya at muli ko siyang hinubaran para ibabad ang katawan niya sa bathtub.

Inayos ko ang ulo niya para hindi malubog kahit na mahimbing na ang tulog niya. Ako naman ay pumunta sa ilalim ng shower para maghugas rin ng katawan. Pagkatapos kong mag shower ay katawan naman ni Hans ang nilinis ko sa loob ng bathtub.

Maya-maya ay nagising siya at sumulyap agad sa mukha ko. Nakita kong napanguso siya ngunit ngumiti rin agad.

“I passed out,” Sabi niya habang nakanguso. Sumandal siya sa dibdib ko at napangiti naman ako.

“Yeah, good job, tho, pumpkin. You took my cock like a champ, was it good?” I said with a teasing smile. It was our first time and that was definitely something.

Nakita kong namula siya dahil sa sinabi ko pero tumango-tango rin habang ang daliri niya ay sinusundot-sundot na ngayon ang gitna ng dibdib ko habang nakasandal pa rin siya roon.

“It was good, so good, I still want it but my ass already feel so sore right now, Kaleb.” Parang disappointed niyang sabi. I chuckled and bit my lower lip because of his honesty and cuteness. Talagang walang tapon si Hans. I love everything that he is, I love him whole. Kingina, patay na patay talaga ako sakanya.

“We can still do something without involving your tiny hole that is sore from my humping earlier, if you want it.” Napapangisi kong alok. Sumulyap naman siya saakin at inosenteng nagtanong.

“How?” He asked. Inayos ko naman siya sa bathtub at tumayo ako sa harap niya. Agad na napunta ang mga mata niya sa naninigas ko nanamang alaga na saktong nakaturo sakanya. I saw him gulped and he bit his lower lip while looking at my snakey cock that wants to bite him.

“You can suck me, can I fuck your mouth, pumpkin? And then I will also do it to you after you’re done making me cum again, I’ll eat you all night if you let me fuck your mouth right now.” Mahaba kong litanya habang ang kamay ko ay pataas-baba na sa nangangalit kong alaga. Hindi naman naputol ang titig doon ni Hans.

I feel so excited right now, I’ve been dreaming of fucking his mouth since forever. It’s tiny and warm and my cock would like to try it. I know he will look so good while his mouth is so full of my cock.

“O-Okay, but I don’t know how, Kaleb. Will that fit in my mouth?” Ani niya ngunit umayos na siya ng luhod sa bathtub at hinawakan ang alaga kong agad na pumulso dahil sa hawak niya. I licked my lips and put my hand on his head.

“Lick all over it and suck the tip like how you suck a lollipop, pumpkin, it will fit.” Inilapit ko ang bibig niya sa alaga ko. Tumingin muna siya saakin bago niya inilabas ang dila niya at sinimulang dilaan ang alaga ko habang ang mga asul niyang mata ay nakatingin pa rin saakin at nagtatanong kung tama ba ang ginagawa niya.

“Yes, like that, suck the tip, babe, yes, ohh..” I groaned when he sucked on my tip with his warm mouth. Hindi nagtagal ay hindi ko na siya kailangan pang sabihan dahil inulit-ulit niya na ang mga sinabi ko kanina at sarap na sarap naman ako.

Sinong hindi masasarapan sa mainit at masikip na bibig ng napakagandang si Hans? I feel so lucky to have this experience with him, I will never let any other man touch him. He’s only mine, I’ve waited to claim him like this since forever and I will never let him slip out again. Wala na siyang kawala saakin.

“Hmm,” Hans moaned while sucking on my cock. He looks like he’s enjoying it so much that his eyes are already closed right now. Napapalunok akong umulos at doon siya napamulat.

“Stay still, babe, I’m going to fuck your throat.” I warned and immediately slammed my cock in his throat. Muli siyang napapikit at napatingala naman ako habang walang patid na naglabas-masok sa bibig niya.

“Ohh, I’m so near,“ Ungot ko at ilang ulos pa ay nilabasan agad ako sa loob ng bibig niya. “Fuck!” I hissed.

Agad akong tinulak ni Hans at naubo siya nang wala na ang alaga ko sa bibig niya.

“Kaleb!” He glared at me. He accidentally swallowed everything. Kagat-labi kong ginulo ang buhok niya at pinunasan ko ang labi niya.

“Don’t glare at me, it’s turning me on, I’m ready to fuck you all night, pumpkin.” Asar ko sakanya pero mas lalo lang tumalim ang tingin niya saakin. So hot.

“Put me in bed and eat me all night, that’s what you promised.” Maldita niyang sabi na ikinatawa ko. Nanggigigil ko siyang hinalikan bago ko siya binuhat paalis sa bathtub.

“The pleasure is all mine, pumpkin.” Sayang-saya kong sabi habang karga-karga siya papunta sa kama.

I’m really hoping that this finally will be the start of our romantic relationship. I’m tired playing best friends with him when what I really wanted is to be his lover.

Mío

Nueve

A/N: Napapagod talaga ako mag edit ng mga smut na

sinusulat

ko, pakiramdam ko kasi ako yung

umuungol

HAHAHAHA ramdam ko yung tension HAHAHAHA

Hans

“Ahh.. hmm-ahh, Kaleb..” I was gripping the headboard of the bed and trying not to fall on Kaleb’s face. I don’t know how we got in this position but I am now sitting on his face and he’s gripping both of my ass cheeks while licking and rimming my ass. Nakagat ko ang ibabang labi ko at halos hindi ko na maimulat ang mga mata ko sa sobrang sarap ng ginagawa niya.

I feel so good but I am also scared because I might slip and let all of my weight fall on Kaleb’s. Mahigpit na mahigpit ang kapit ko sa headboard habang dinadama ang ginagawa niya saakin. Kanina pa namin ito ginagawa at nakailang labas na rin ako pero mukhang hindi nagsasawa si Kaleb at ayaw bitawan ang pang-upo ko.

“Ohh.. fuck.. ahh..” Naipatong ko ang noo ko sa dingding na kaharap ko at nanghihinang umuungol. Ang isa kong kamay ay napahawak na nang mahigpit sa mga buhok ni Kaleb ngunit hindi pa rin siya tumitigil. He’s still enjoying and savoring my ass and I can’t lie that it feels so good. I didn’t know that I would like him doing this to me so much. It feels so good I’m shivering and cumming again.

Kaleb groaned when he felt me shivering and I came all over the pillow. Nanghihina akong muntik nang matumba ngunit agad akong inalalayan ni Kaleb at ihiniga sa kama. I was panting and was about to say something to him when I saw how he stares at me.

“Kaleb..” I whined but he just hovered his face towards me.

“Does it still hurt, pumpkin?” He asked with his dark voice. I can see the dark lust in his eyes while he’s licking his lips and staring at me intently. Humahaplos rin ang mga kamay niya sa hita at bewang ko.

“N-Not that much anymore.” I said while still panting. Hindi pa rin ako nakakabawi sa ginawa niya kanina.

“Good.” He lowly said.

“Ah!” I squealed when he suddenly flipped me over and his weight was on my back.

“Hans,” I heard him whispering. Ramdam ko ang pagpipigil at prustasyon sa tono niya. Other than that, I can also feel his bulging length on my thighs. Napalunok ako. “Pumpkin, I’m sorry, I know you’re already sore but I-” I flinched when he pulled me on my waist to get me on all fours.

“I can’t- fuck! I still want more, pumpkin. Just one more.” Ani niya sa boses na napatid na ang pagtitimpi. I looked over my back to see him and he’s biting his lip while staring down on my butt. Hinawakan niyang muli ang naninigas niyang ari na napakalaki at itinutok niya iyon sa entrada ko. Muli akong napalunok at napahawak nang mahigpit sa unan na nasa harap ko.

“Ohh..”

“Ahh.. Kaleeeb..” Naisubsub ko ang mukha ko sa unan na nasa harap ko at nakagat ko iyon nang maramdaman kong muli ang kalakihan niya sa loob ko. Shit. Hindi pa man naipapasok lahat saakin ay ramdam ko nang punong-puno ako at ramdam ko ang pag pintig ng kalakihan niya habang paunti-onting ipinapasok saakin. Ramdam ko ang kirot pero mas nangingibabaw ang sarap at kiliti na dulot niyon sa buong sistema ko.

Sex with Kaleb is freaking good. His dick is so good, so big and long. I think I like him even more because of this.

“Pumpkin, fuck.. oh..” I heard him groan before he started pumping in and out of me again. He didn’t even started slow, agad na marahas ang mga naging ulos niya saakin na mas kinabaliw ko. Wala pa man ay nanginginig na ang mga hita ko sa sobrang sarap nang mga ulos niya. He’s hitting everything inside me. Feels so good.

“Ahh, Kaleb, Kaleb- fuck.. ohh.. Kaleeb..” I whined and I feel so breathless while his thrusts never stops. Ramdam ko ang mahigpit na hawak niya sa magkabilang bewang ko at mas lalo akong nanghina nang maramdaman ko ang dila niya sa batok ko habang wala pa ring palya ang mga ulos niya.

“Pumpkin, Hans.. baby- fuck!” Humigpit ang mga hawak ko sa unan at pakiramdam ko ay tumirik ang mga mata ko habang pinapakinggan siyang iungol ang pangalan ko. He sound so sweet and erotic. Alam kong pareho ang nararamdaman namin ngayong sarap.

Muli akong napaungot nang muli niyang baguhin ang posisyon namin. He pulled my upper body and he fucked me while we’re both kneeling on the bed. Hawak-hawak niya ang buong bigat ko dahil nanghihina na talaga ako sa ginagawa namin. Dumagdag pa ang malilikot niyang kamay na pumipisil sa dibdib ko habang malalakas pa at malalim ang mga ulos niya mula sa likod. My knees can’t stop trembling and I can’t even moan properly anymore.

“Hans, pumpkin, does it feel good?” I heard him whispering in my ears. I nodded while sobs and moans escape my lips.

“Huh? Is that a yes or a no?” He teased while staring at me having difficulty breathing and forming words because of his huge dick thrusting in and out of me.

“S-So- ohh.. Kaleb- so good, K-Kaleb..ohhh!” I was moaning and sobbing without tears because he’s fucking me so hard and good. This is too much but I love it, I like it so much.

“Yes, ahh, you feel so good too, pumpkin. I don’t think I can stop.” He said moaning in my ears and I can hear the truthfulness on what he said, and I didn’t heard it wrong because even after I was convulsing and cumming all over the bed, even tho he promised to stop after one round, he didn’t let me rest and had me all night.

Hindi niya ako binitawan buong gabi at buong gabi niyang pinagsawaan ang katawan ko nang walang pagpipigil. He lost control and I lost count of how many times we did it until my body gave up and I passed out. Ang huli kong narinig ay ang pangalan ko na inuungol ni Kaleb habang ang katas niya ay inilalabas niya sa puson ko.

It was a tiring but still a night pure of bliss and lust with Kaleb.

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I woke up feeling so sore all over my body. Napainat ako at lumingon sa katabi ko. I smiled and felt myself blushing when I saw Kaleb sleeping beside me. He’s still shirtless and he look so good even in the morning. Nakagat ko ang ibabang labi ko at inalala ang nangyari saamin kagabi.

I didn’t know that I was waiting for that intimacy to happen to us. I thought I only liked him being close to me, I didn’t know that I will like him doing something so erotic to me like that. That was the first time he was rough and hard on me, and it’s because we’re having sex.

He was so good at sex. I feel so sated and I can’t stop smiling while still remembering how he had sex with me last night until I passed out. That was amazing. That was my first and I’m glad it was him. So glad that someone like Kaleb was my first, he’s the most handsome man I’ve ever laid my eyes on.

Kagat-labi akong dahan-dahang tumayo para pumasok sa banyo at maglinis ng katawan. Hindi ko maiwasang hindi mapaungot sa tuwing gagalaw ako dahil sa sakit sa entrada ko. My butt hurts so much but I really want to clean myself so I ignored it and endured the pain. Kahit na humihingal na ako sa sobrang pagod na nararamdaman ko sa katawan ko ay itinuloy ko pa rin ang ginagawa ko hanggang sa lumagapak ang pang-upo ko sa sahig ng banyo.

“Ah! Shit! Aray!” Halos maiyak kong sigaw nang mas lalo kong naramdaman ang sakit sa likod ko. Naiiyak kong tiningnan ang kinauupuan ko at nagulat at namutla ata ako nang makita kong may dugo roon. Hindi ako nakakibo at kinakabahan lang na napatitig sa dugo na dumadaloy sa tiles ng banyo kasabay ang tubig sa shower.

“Pumpkin? Hey, what’s wron- Hans?! What the hell?!” Pumasok si Kaleb sa banyo at nakita ko kung pano rin siya namutla nang makita niya ang lagay ko. Agad siyang lumapit saakin at kinarga ako. Dinala niya ako sa bathtub at pinuno niya iyon ng warm water habang namumutla pa rin siya at halatang balisa.

“Fuck, fuck, this is my fault. Are you hurting, pumpkin? Does it hurt so much?” Balisa niyang sabi habang nag-aalalang nakatingin saakin. Napatango ako.

“Hurts, Kaleb, but I can endure it, I think we overdid it last night.” Napapanguso kong reklamo. Napatulala naman siya saakin bago muling nagsalita.

“I’m sorry, shit, should we go to the hospital? Or I’ll call a docto-” Pinigilan ko siya sa gagawin niya.

“What?! No! That’s embarrassing, I d-don’t want anyone seeing me like this, Kaleb.” Naiiyak kong sabi. Parang mas naiiyak naman siyang tumitig saakin. Hindi ko maiwasang lihim na matawa sa itsura niya. Para kasing mas nasasaktan pa siya sa sitwasyon ko ngayon kesa saakin.

“But you’re bleeding, what if something bad happened? Pumpkin, let me call a doctor.” Pilit niya pa pero umiling-iling ako.

“Kaleb, you know that my pain tolerance is pretty high, nakatayo pa nga ako kanina, and I heard that people really bleed when it’s their first time.” Ngiti ko sakanya. Napakurapkurap naman siya saakin at napakunot noo.

“T-That’s for hetero couple, babe.” Mahina niyang sabi pero narinig ko.

“Huh? Hetero couple?” Tanong ko. Nakagat niya ang labi niya.

“Heterosexual couple, I mean, some virgin women bleed when it’s their first time, but I don’t know when it comes to men.” Mahina niya pa ring sabi na parang nahihiya siya. Napatitig naman ako sakanya.

“Heterosexual couple, are we homosexual couple, then?” Biro ko pero natigilan siya kaya muli akong nagsalita. “It’s okay, I stopped bleeding already, I’m sure this is normal because we did it so hard and so many times. I don’t want a doctor, Kaleb.” Ngiti ko sakanya at nilapit ko ang mukha ko para halikan siya sa tungki ng ilong niya. Ang gwapo niya kasi tingnan habang nag-aalala saakin. Wala rin siyang saplot dahil halatang kagigising niya lang nang pumasok siya sa banyo.

“Then, I’ll be your doctor, I’ll buy some meds and take care of you, don’t say no.” Matigas niyang sabi at binuhat ulit ako mula sa bathtub. Lumabas kami ng banyo at pinaupo niya ako sa sofa na nasa loob ng room ko. Kumuha siya ng towel at pinunasan ang buong katawan ko pati na ang basang buhok ko. Binihisan niya rin ako ng pajamas.

“I’ll change the bedsheets, stay here.” Sabi niya pagkatapos niya akong punasan at hinalikan niya ako sa noo bago niya ginawa ang sinabi niya. Pinanuod ko lang naman siya habang may kilig na tinatago sa loob-loob ko.

Kaleb is a really nice man. I don’t regret giving my first to him. Kagat-labi ko siyang pinanuod na gumalaw sa loob ng kwarto ko dahil nakahubo pa rin siya. Mukhang hindi niya iyon napapansin or wala lang siyang pake. His body looks perfect, it looks good in my eyes. He look so hot. Wala talagang tapon si Kaleb.

“Kaleb, what if my parents come home and I’m still like this?” Tanong ko nang lumapit siya saakin. Bukod sa masakit ang katawan ko at hindi ako makalakad ay punong-puno ng mga pulang marka ang katawan ko dahil kay Kaleb.

“Let’s say you’re just sick-”

“Hans? May pasok ka, iho. Gising na.” Natigilan kami ni Kaleb nang marinig namin ang boses ni Manang Elsi sa labas ng pinto. Mabuti na lang at lock ang kwarto ko.

“Kaleb, I have class nga pala, what do I do?” Naiiyak kong baling kay Kaleb. Tumingin naman siya saakin at mukhang namomroblema din siya.

“Hans Gabriel, late ka na!” Muling sigaw ni Manang. Kagat-labi akong napatitig kay Kaleb at siya na ang sumagot kay Manang.

“Manang, Hans is not feeling well, tulog pa po siya. Hindi po siya papasok.” Sagot ni Kaleb. Natahimik naman si Manang nang ilang minuto bago ulit nagsalita.

“Sir Kaleb?”

“Opo.” Sagot muli ni Kaleb.

“Oh sige, naghanda ako ng pagkain sa baba, pagkagising niya ay pakainin mo siya, iho. Bukas na hapon ay babalik na sila sir Arken, dapat ay magaling na ang batang yan or pareho tayong malalagot.” Sabi pa ni Manang bago namin siya narinig na lumakad paalis. I heard Kaleb groaned. Tumabi siya saakin at ipinatong ang baba niya sa braso ko.

“Your father will really kill me, pumpkin.” He said while snuggling on my shoulder. Naiiling naman akong napangiti.

“Yeah, you just fucked his only son.” Nangingiti kong asar sakanya. Napaungot siya at hinuli ang labi ko.

“You mean his only princess?” Balik asar niya saakin. I snorted at kinurot ko siya sa abs niya.

“Sus, tyansing.” Asar niya ulit. Namula naman ako at tinampal siya sa balikat pero nagulat ako nang hulihin niya ang kamay ko at inilapit iyon sa alaga niyang buhay na pala. “Dito na lang, babe, nahiya ka pa.” Nakangisi niyang asar.

“Kaleb!” Nahihiya kong tili. Humahalakhak naman siya at natulala na lang ako sa gwapo niyang mukha habang nag-iinit pa rin ang mukha. Pilyo.

Mío

A/N: Yan muna for now mga mami, naiiyak pa rin ako, can’t believe na pwede pala makapag pahinga ang mga senior high 😩

eme, super bawi po ako pag keri ng braincells ko this week!

Diez

Hans

Halos tulog ako buong maghapon. I didn’t do anything but sleep and eat. Kaleb wanted me to gain my strength before my parents come home tomorrow evening. Kahit naman ayaw ko matulog maghapon ay gusto rin bumawi ng katawan ko kaya’t wala akong nagawa kundi humilata at hayaan si Kaleb na alagaan ako.

“It’s 7 pm, pumpkin. I cooked a meal, I’ll go get it.” Pumasok si Kaleb sa kwarto at napatulala pa ako sakanya nang makita ko siyang may suot na apron.

“You can cook?” I asked. I didn’t know he can cook. Lumingon naman siya saakin at ngumiti bago ulit lumabas. Ilang minuto pa ay bumalik ulit siya at may dala ng tray na may mga pagkain.

It’s a rice soup and a few side dish. They look delicious. Pinaupo niya ako sa kama at hinarap saakin ang mga pagkain. Kinuha ko naman ang kutsarang nakita ko at agad kong tinikman ang rice soup na ginawa niya.

”Wha— slow down, it’s hot.” Saway niya nang maubo ako. Naluha pa ata ang mga mata ko dahil roon. Tumingin ako sa mukha niya at nakakunot noo siyang nililinisan ang gilid ng labi ko. Nakagat ko ang ibabang labi ko.

I didn’t cough because it’s too hot, it’s because it taste horrible. He doesn’t know how to cook after all, but I don’t have the heart to say it to him right now kaya kahit hindi ko gusto ang lasa ay tinikman ko lahat ng ginawa niya at kinain ko pa rin ang rice soup niyang niluto.

“Does it taste good? It’s my first time cooking, nanuod ako ng mga tutorial.” Nakangiti niyang sabi saakin.

“T-Taste good, Kaleb.” Ani ko habang may ngiting aso sa labi. Lumaki naman ang ngiti niya at nakahinga naman ako nang maluwag nang maubos kong kainin ang pagkaing niluto niya. Agad niyang niligpit iyon at binigyan ako ng maiinom. Napapikit ako sa tuwa nang malasahang masarap ang juice na ginawa niya.

“Thank God.” I murmured.

“Why?” Kaleb asked. Narinig niya pa ako dahil nasa pinto palang siya palabas. Umiling ako sakanya.

“Thanks for the food.” Ngiti ko at kinindatan niya naman ako bago lumabas. Napangiwi ako at inubos ang juice na binigay niya. Pagkatapos ay tumayo ako at pumunta sa banyo para maglinis.

I can still feel the soreness on my hole but I’m feeling more better than earlier.

Naghugas ako ng katawan at nagsepilyo bago ako lumabas ng banyo at nagbihis. Naabutan naman ako ni Kaleb na nakatayo kaya’t agad niya akong inalalayan.

“Hans, why are you standing?” Parang inis niyang tanong. Natawa naman ako at humarap sakanya.

“I’m okay, doesn’t hurt anymore, just feeling sore.” Nakangiti kong sabi sakanya. Umiling naman siya at pinaupo ako sa kama.

“I know your pain tolerance is high, but rest, pumpkin.” Sabi niya at hinalikan ako sa noo. “I’ll just take a shower and then we’re going to bed.” Dagdag niya bago pumasok sa banyo. Napanguso na lang ako at humiga sa kama at nag selpon.

I scrolled through my Facebook feed and I saw my friends going to school. Pinadalhan naman ako ni Kaleb ng excuse letter pero kapag nalaman ’to nila Dad ay baka magalit ang mga iyon.

Tinago ko ulit ang selpon ko nang lumabas si Kaleb sa banyo. I looked at him and he’s only wearing a pajama shorts and that’s all. He’s shirtless and I can see his perfect body. I licked my lips and I can’t help but smile.

Hindi mawala sa isip ko na ang magandang katawang iyon ay nasa ibabaw ko mula kahapon hanggang kagabi. That huge body is on top of me, moving and letting me feel all its heat.

Tumikhim si Kaleb at nangingiting tumabi saakin habang hawak ang selpon niya.

“Stop staring at me like that and rest, pumpkin. I’ll just do some work. Don’t mind me.” Ani niya bago humiga sa tabi ko at tumipa sa selpon niya. Napanguso naman ako at ihiniga ko ang ulo ko sa matigas niyang dibdib. Pinaglaruan ko iyon ng kamay ko at wala naman siyang naging reaksyon at hinayaan lang ako. Busy siya sa selpon niya.

Hinayaan ko na lang rin siya pero sa isip-isip ko ay gusto ko ulit gawin ang ginawa namin kagabi. I don’t care about my sore hole, I want to feel him but I know he won’t let me. Gusto niya kasi talagang gumaling na ako bago pa umuwi sila Dad. Siya raw kasi ang malilintikan kapag nalaman ng mga ito ang ginawa namin. Napanguso ako at tumingala sakanya.

He’s looking at his phone with nothing but seriousness on his face but he’s still handsome as hell. Kahit ano talagang tagal naming magkasama ay hindi nababawasan sa paningin ko ang pagkagwapo niya. Napangiti ako sa sariling naisip at magsasalita sana ako nang biglang tumunog ang selpon niya.

Tiningnan niya ako at nagsalita siya bago sagutin ang tawag.

“Stay silent, pumpkin, this is Dad.” Ani niya at sinagot na ang tawag. Napatitig lang naman ako sakanya at ihiniga ko na lang ulit ang ulo ko sa dibdib niya. Kung kaedad ko lang sana si Kaleb ay hindi siya ganito lagi ka-busy pag gabi. I sighed at tumitig ako sa kawalan habang pinapakinggan na magsalita si Kaleb sa kausap niya sa selpon.

Habang nakatitig ako sa kawalan ay nahagip ng mga mata ko ang umbok sa harap ng shorts niya. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at napanguso.

Why is he hard? We’re not doing anything but he’s hard. Sumulyap ako sakanya nang paglaruan niya ang buhok ko. I looked at him with my squinting eyes and his eyebrows moved when he saw me.

“Kaleb, don’t make unnecessary noise.” I said before I got up and sat on top of his harden stomach. He looked at me with warning but I ignored him. Ginawa ko ang nasa isip ko.

Habang nakatingin sa mga mata niya. Ibinaba ko ang pang-upo ko mula sa abs niya pababa sa puson hanggang sa maramdaman ko ang pagkalalaki niya sa umbok kong pang-upo. He moved a little while just staring at me warningly while still listening to his phone.

“No, ’pa, I will come to work tomorrow, I promise.” He said on the phone while still narrowing his eyes on me. Nakagat ko ang labi ko habang pilyong nakatingin sakanya bago ko iginalaw ang balakang ko. I started grinding on his groin and I saw his eyes closed and his jaw clenched.

“So hot.” I commented with my low voice. Iminulat niyang muli ang mga mata niya at inilingan niya ako. He’s trying to stop me but I put both of my hand on his chest instead of stopping. Mula roon ay kumuha ako ng lakas para gumalaw sa ibabaw niya. I saw him blew a breath when I started grinding hard on top of him.

“Dad, I understand, I’ll work on it tomorrow, I just n-need some rest— fuck—” Inilayo niya ang selpon sa tenga niya at pinandilatan ako ng mga mata nang mas lalo kong rahasan ang pag indayog ko sa ibabaw ng kalakihan niya na nasa loob pa ng shorts pero ramdam na ramdam ko na ang galit no’n para saakin.

“— shit, Hans! Stop it or I’ll fuck you.” Banta niya pero napangiti lang ako roon. Tumayo ako at bumaba sa kama. Sinundan niya naman ako nang tingin habang ibinalik niyang muli ang selpon sa tenga niya at nagsalita siya pero hindi ko na iyon pinansin at lumakad ako papunta sa sofa na nasa hindi kalayuan sa kama ko. Naroon ang bag niya at lumapit ako roon at binuksan iyon. Kinuha ko ang nakita kong lube at condom na nakita ko kaninang inilagay niya rito at muli akong humarap sakanya.

“Ah!” I squealed when I turned around and I was face with a glaring Kaleb. He’s right in front of me right now and he’s looking down at me with his eyes full of lust and warnings. Wala na siyang hawak na selpon. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at ipinakita ko sakanya ang hawak kong lube at condom.

”Fuck me, Kaleb, I’ve been naughty.” I said while looking up at his handsome face. I saw him sexily lick his lips before pulling me towards the bed and he immediately pushed me onto it.

“Shit..” Mahina kong mura nang agad niya akong kubabawan at agawin saakin ang hawak kong lube at condom. Inilapit niya saakin ang mukha niya at sinakop niya ang bibig ko nang ilang segundo bago nagsalita habang magkalapit na magkalapit pa rin ang mga mukha namin sa isa’t-isa.

“Pumpkin, I want you to rest, you’re still healing—” Umiling ako sakanya at iginalaw ko ang kamay ko para damahin ang nangangalit niyang kalakihan sa loob ng shorts niya. He groaned when I palmed it.

“Kaleb, I want it, give it to me, please, Kaleb..” Makaawa ko bago ko sinimulang hubarin ang shorts ko. I can’t think of anything anymore but his huge thing inside of me. I want it inside me and I will get it tonight.

“Hans,” Mas lalo lamang akong nililiyaban sa init kapag ganitong nawawala ang malambing niyang tawag saakin because of the heat between us. I really love it when he calls my name out of lust. He sounds so sexy.

“Please, Kaleb?” Ani ko nang matapos kong hubarin ang pajama shorts ko at sinunod ko ang suot kong pang itaas. He looked at me seriously before cursing so hard and kneeling in front of me.

“Fuck it, pumpkin. You’re really gonna get railed tonight, I won’t stop until you’re crying and begging for me to stop fucking you. You’re so naughty, I’m going to fuck you so hard.“ Mahaba at gigil niyang sabi habang hinuhubad ang short niya. Bawat bigkas niya sa mga salitang iyon ay halata ang gigil at diin.

“Ohh..” I ignored what he said I couldn’t help but moan when I finally saw his bulging thing in front of me. It’s so big and long and it’s pointing towards me. Fuck, I wanna lick it but I need it inside me right now.

“Put it in, please, put it in, Kaleb.” Ibinukaka ko ang dalawang hita ko para sakanya at nakita ko kung paano napatid ang pagtitimpi niya at agad akong sinunggaban. He claimed my lips and firmly held both of my thighs. Inangkin niya muna nang ilang segundo ang mga labi ko bago niya ibinaba sa leeg ko ang mga labi niyang napakasarap halikan. Habang ginagawa niya iyon ay naramdaman kong inalis niya ang hawak sa isa kong hita, halos isang minuto kaming ganoon at maya-maya lang ay may itinututok na siyang basa at mainit sa lagusan ko. Can’t believe he can put lubes and condom on his thing while still making me feel good. I think that’s a talent.

“Hans, you’re really going to regret this tomorrow morning.” He said before thrusting deep inside me. My mouth hanged open and I threw my head backwards when it was finally inside me again.

“Ohh! Ohhh! Kaleb!” I screamed at napakapit ako sa magkabilang braso niya na ang mga kamay ay mahigpit na nakahawak sa dalawang hita ko. Mas lalo niya iyong ibinubuka at halos manginig agad ako nang agad niyang simulan ang pag ulos sa loob ko. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang init at laki ng sandata niya sa loob ko. It’s so hard and I feel so full again. Ramdam ko ang bawat galaw niyon sa masikip kong lagusan. I started moaning and pleasure started consuming me wholely.

Oh God, this is so good. My eyes rolled back and I welcomed all of his rough thrusts.

“Hans, ohh, shit!” He groaned and looked at me with his eyes full of lust. “You feel so good, Hans. I love it so much, pumpkin.” He said while still roughly thrusting inside me. I whimpered.

“Kaleb, Kaleb! Ohh! Kaleb! Fuck! Kaleb!” I can’t stop calling him because of too much pleasure. He’s so good. This is so good. I still can’t believe that I’ve never tried this before with Kaleb when we were much younger. I should’ve done this with him right after I just turned eighteen. Can’t believe we’re just doing this now.

Natigil lamang ang mababagsik niyang ulos nang baguhin niya ang posisyon namin. Pinatalikod niya ako sakanya and he put me on all fours. Agad akong napapikit at naisubsub ko ang mukha ko sa unan nang paluin niya ang pang-upo ko.

“Ohh.. Kaleb..” I moaned. My face is pressed on the pillow while my butt is up in the air. “Kaleb!” I squealed again when he spank me again.

“I’m goin in again, pumpkin.” He breathe and slammed his way into me again.

“Ohh!” And I started moaning again when he didn’t stop thrusting into me— hitting something inside me that’s making my knees and thighs tremble in pleasure.

“Hahh, Hans, Hans— baby, you feel so good, ohh..” I heard him chanting and groaning while still railing the hell out of me. I was trembling and weak from the pleasure but I love it. I love it so much. I’m addicted.

“Kaleb, I’m coming! Kaleb!” I started yelling when I felt myself coming. Hindi siya tumigil at hindi humina ang marahas niyang mga ulos saakin hanggang sa nanginginig na ako at nanghihinang nilalabasan.

But still, he didn’t stop from that, like what he promised. Mula sa pauna kong labas, naging dalawa iyon, tatlo, apat— hanggang sa hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang beses akong nanghihinang nilabasan habang wala pa rin siyang tigil sa mga ulos at pagpapaligaya saakin.

“K-Kaleb, I’m already trembling nonstop, please— ohh!” This is my 9th time saying this for him to stop but he won’t listen. He’s really making me regret of what I asked for but too bad I like being stimulated by him this much. I won’t regret this tomorrow but shit, we need to stop or both Dad and Papa will know I had sex with him because of my state. He’s making me a mess. A real messy mess.

“I don’t see any tears, pumpkin. I told you, I won’t stop until I see you crying and begging.” Kaleb said. He’s ignoring my trembling legs and he won’t stop fucking me. Fuck!

“Kaleb! Ohh! Kaleb, please! Kaleb!” Even tho I was already so weak, I can’t help but use all of my remaining energy into moaning his glorious name. He’s so good at fucking me. I didn’t know he’s this kind of beast in bed. All my life, I saw a sweet, understanding and a little bit controlling Kaleb but right now, I’m seeing this rough side of him and I’m loving it so much. So very much.

“Te

amo

, te

amo

mucho, Hans. Te

follaré

hasta que mi

polla

no se

levante

más

. mi

polla

es toda

tuya

, pumpkin. ” He started speaking his language again and I can only whimper and hit him while I started reaching the peak again.

[

Translation: I love you, love you so much, Hans. I’ll fuck you until my dick won’t get up anymore. My dick is all yours, pumpkin. ]

“Stop f-fucking speaking l-like that.. ohh.. no more.. Kaleb, no more.. oh..” I said when I stopped coming. Tiningnan niya naman ako at tinitigan ang mukha ko nang may ngiti sa mga labi niya. Napaka gwapo niya kahit na pawis na pawis na siya. I looked at him pleadingly at napaungot pa ako nang ilabas niya ang ari niya sa butas ko at muli akong napaungot nang lumuhod siya at lumapit sa mukha ko para itutok saakin naghuhumindig niyang alaga.

“You’re so pretty, pumpkin. I love your innocent face so much.” He said before spurting his semen all over my face.

Fucking duck!

Mío

A/N: Grabe, ayaw

paawat

ang dalawa. Sana all may nonstop

dilig

, Hans, samantalang ako nonstop

schoolworks

😩

Once

Hans

Halos isang linggo akong nilagnat. Pagkatapos nang ginawa namin ni Kaleb ay nilagnat ako kinaumagahan at tumagal iyon nang halos limang araw. I couldn’t go to school and both Dad and Papa was so worried about me when they got home. Mabuti na lang at naging maingat si Kaleb sa paglagay ng mga marka saakin. There’s no obvious sex marks on me that my parents may see. Manang Elsi covered up for me at sinabi niyang hindi naman ako pumunta sa bahay nila Kaleb at nanatili lang ako sa bahay kaya’t parang napanatag ang loob ni dad Arken.

Kung alam niya lang talaga. Baka nailibing niyang buhay si Kaleb.

“Hey, are you okay now?” Rinig kong tanong ni Dandy na kumakain sa harapan ko. Nasa loob kami ng room namin at naghihintay ng prof. pero mukhang wala namang darating kaya pumapapak siya ng chichirya.

“Okay na yan, nakatutok na nga agad sa selpon ’e. Sino katext mo?” Ani naman ni Lyka. Inirapan ko siya at pinakita ko sakanya na katext ko si Kaleb. Tinatanong kasi ako nito kung ayos na ba raw talaga ako and he’s asking if I can go out tonight. Araw-araw niya akong binisita noong may sakit ako. Naiinis na nga sakanya si Dad ’e. It’s also Friday today at may gig ako sa LIP pub mamaya. I wasn’t able to do my gig last Friday night because I was still sick.

“Okay lang ba si kuya Kaleb? Wasn’t he injured or hurt from the attack?” Biglang tanong ni Lyka na ikinakunot noo ko. What attack?

“What are you saying?” Tanong ko. Pinandilatan niya naman ako ng mga mata bago nagsalita ulit.

“Duh, yung car niya diba, it was attacked and sabotaged by some random guy. Was he okay from that? He didn’t get hurt?” She exaggeratedly said right in front of my face. Napakurapkurap ako sa mukha niya at naalala ko ang nagawa ko last week.

Shit! Kumalat iyon?

“H-How did you know about that?” Tanong ko.

“Kalat kaya iyon sa buong Quezon, ang sabi nga nila ay pakana raw iyon ng mga kalaban nila Gov. Kalden sa politiko, sinasabotahe si kuya Kaleb para matakot raw na tumakbo sa paparating na eleksyon.” Mahabang sabi naman ni Dandy. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at napatingin sakanya. Seryoso ba sila? Parang naiiyak na ako sa mga sinasabi nila. Wala namang kasalanan roon ang kabilang kampo, ako ang may gawa no’n, huhu.

“So ano? Okay lang ba si kuya Kaleb?” Tanong ulit ni Lyka. Nalulungkot na tumango ako. I didn’t thought much about the damage that I have done. Nakita ko ngang kotse ni Tito Kalden ang ginagamit niya dahil sinira ko ang kotse niya. I’m so dumb and a brat.

“Bakit ikaw ata ang parang ’di okay?” Hirit pa ni Dandy. Napanguso lang ako at inaya ko na silang pumunta sa cafeteria dahil wala naman na atang papasok na Prof. saamin.

Habang naglalakad kami sa hallway ay tinetext ko si Kaleb about sa mga sinabi nila Dandy at Lyka. Sorry ako nang sorry pero wala siyang reply probably because he’s working at the moment. Lalo tuloy akong nalungkot at sinendan ko siya ng emojis na umiiyak.

“Huy, ano sayo?” Ibinaba ko ang selpon ko at tinago ko iyon sa bulsa ko nang tanungin ako ni Lyka kung anong pagkain ang gusto kong bilhin. Sinabi ko naman ang order ko at umupo na kami sa bakanteng table na nakita namin sa sulok.

“May camping daw na magaganap next week, alam mo na ba?” Sabi ni Lyka nang makaupo na kami. Umiling ako.

“In-announced kasi yun nung wala ka, camping for two nights and three days, team building daw para sa mga freshers and juniors. And guess what!” Excited na ani ni Dandy.

“What?” I asked.

“We will have guest coach, guest speaker and a visitor that will teach us about business!” Excited na sabi pa niya. Pareho kaming napangiwi ni Lyka. Excited naman siya masyado. Pagod lang naman ang makukuha namin jan.

“I’m not excited, nababahala ako sa paparating natin na OJT, saan kaya ang immersion natin?” Sabi naman ni Lyka. Saktong dumating ang pagkain namin habang tumatango-tango ako sa sinabi ni Lyka. Medyo stressed rin ako para sa darating na work immersion namin.

“Ano ba! Napaka killjoy niyo, pano kung pogi ang mga guests natin?! Dapat maging excited kayo ’no.” Mataray na sabi ni Dandy. Napailing lang ako at nagsimula na kumain. Paniguradong mga matatanda na ang mga guests na yan. Kumain na kaming tatlo habang nag-uusap.

“Good morning, cerulean boy. Eat well.” Napatingala ako nang dumaan si Monti sa harap ng table namin at sinabi iyon habang kumikindat saakin. Napanguso lang ako at hindi siya pinansin. Habang si Lyka naman ay umaktong parang nasusuka habang si Dandy ay tumatawa. Napailing ako. Feeling close na kasi saakin si Monti porke nagkausap kami nang ilang beses noong nakaraang week.

“Oh my God!” Habang sumusubo ako ng pagkain ko ay tumili si Lyka. Tiningnan ko siya at nanlalaki ang mga mata niya habang tumitingin sa likod ko. Ganon rin si Dandy at biglang umingay ang cafeteria. Agad akong lumingon sa likod ko. I was expecting kuya Oasis since he’s the one who’s always visiting me but was stunned not only seeing Oasis with lots of paper bag on his hands. I was also stunned seeing that he’s with Kaleb at kasama rin nila si ate Lev na kumakaway na agad saakin. Napatulala ako at napatitig lamang sakanilang tatlo habang naglalakad sila palapit sa table kung nasaan ako.

What is going on?

---

“You were crying on your emoticons so I decided to pay you a visit here, didn’t know that these people are all over you, pumpkin, why didn’t I know about this jerk visiting you here every damn time?” Mahinang sabi ni Kaleb na ako lang ang makakarinig habang inaayos ang pagkaing inilalagay niya sa plato ko. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at sinulyapan ko siya. Seryoso ang mukha niya pero may maliit na pekeng ngiti sa mga labi niya. I know he’s mad but he’s trying to look like he’s not because a lot of people inside the cafeteria are taking glances at us. He’s a politician and he needs to look friendly and kind all the time. Muli akong napayuko.

Nakaupo kami ngayong anim kaharap ang isang table, ang dalawa kong kaibigan, si ate Lev, si kuya Oasis, ako at si Kaleb ay magkakaharap ngayon habang awkward na kinakakain ang mga dalang pagkain ni kuya Oasis na kanina pa malalim ang titig saakin habang nasa tabi ko si Kaleb. Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman ko ngayon.

Si kuya Oasis ay binibisita ako araw-araw sa school kaya hindi na ako magtatakang nandito siya, sinama niya raw si ate Lev na kapatid niya dahil miss na raw ako nito, at kahit sobrang saya ko na nandito si Kaleb ay hindi ko magawang mag enjoy dahil sa sitwasyon. I feel so tense and alam kong nararamdaman din nila iyon. Sa titigan palang ni kuya Oasis at Kaleb ay natatahimik na ang dalawang kaibigan ko na halos hindi na huminga para hindi makagawa ng ingay.

“I heard you got sick, Hans. Nag expect pa naman akong makita ka sa pub last friday, are you okay now?” Nakahinga ako nang maayos nang magsalita si ate Lev. Binasag niya ang katahimikan sa table namin. Ngumiti ako sakanya bago sumagot.

“Okay na ako, ate Lev. Papasok na ulit ako mamaya sa pub.” Nakangiti kong sagot. Inudyok naman ako ni Kaleb na kumain na kaya ginawa ko iyon habang nakikipag-usap pa rin kay ate Lev.

“We were supposed to hang out last friday but you were sick, what happened?” Sabi naman ni kuya Oasis at agad akong napasulyap kay Kaleb na nakita kong nakataas na ang kilay habang nakatingin sa pagkain niya. Nakagat kong muli ang ibabang labi ko. Shit naman. Pahamak talaga si kuya Oasis.

“He was tired, got sick because he was so drained and exhausted. I drained him out but I’m not sorry.” Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa biglang sinabi ni Kaleb. Sinulyapan ko siya at pinanlakihan ng mga mata pero walang nagbago sa ekspresyon niya sa mukha. Narinig ko namang mahinang natawa si kuya Oasis.

“I didn’t know Hans has a personal spokesperson.” Halata ang inis sa tono ni kuya Oasis nang sabihin niya iyon. Ginaya naman ni Kaleb ang tawa kanina ni kuya Oasis.

“You know too well I’m not only his spokesperson, Oasis.” Mayabang na sabi ni Kaleb at sumakit agad ang ulo ko. Shit. Alam kong nag aaway sila pero hindi ko alam ang mga pinagsasasabi nila.

“Delusional.” Komento pa ni kuya Oasis. Napatulala naman ako kay Kaleb nang malutong siyang tumawa sa sinabi ni kuya Oasis.

“Isn’t that you?” Ngisi ni Kaleb at napangiti rin ako sa ngisi siya. Kingina, ang gwapo.

“Fuc—” Kuya Oasis was about to curse but ate Lev was quick to interfere.

“Stop it, damn, I just want to eat. People around the two of you just wants to eat, c’mon, you two, don’t be a child and stop fighting.” Ate Lev said while still munching her food. Sumama naman ang tinginan ni kuya Oasis at Kaleb sa isa’t-isa bago tumigil.

“I’m fetching you later, pumpkin. Sabay tayo pupunta sa pub.” Sabi saakin ni Kaleb bago niya ako sinubuan ng isang kutsara ng ulam. Napatango na lang ako at kumuha ng isang kutsara ng kanin para isabay sa isinubo niyang ulam.

Naging tahimik pero hindi na awkward ang buong oras nang pagkain namin. May ilang teachers pang lumapit saamin habang kumakain dahil nakita nila si Kaleb. Bumati ang mga ito at nakipag-usap pa kay Kaleb nang kaunti. Habang pinapanuod ko ang mga iyon ay ramdam ko ang agwat sa estado namin ni Kaleb.

He’s a public figure that almost everyone around us knows him. While I am just a college student who’s striving to graduate, a college student who’s still depending everything on his parents. I’m really a nobody when compared to Kaleb, but I am just glad that even with us being like this, we’re still tied to each other. I can’t ask for more.

Nang matapos kaming kumain ay sabay akong hinatid ni kuya Oasis at Kaleb sa room ng klase ko. Nahihiya pa ako sa mga nakakakita na kasabay ko silang dalawa sa hallway na parang bodyguard. Pinagtitinginan kami at naiinis pa ako kapag may babaeng bumabati kay Kaleb. Ang titinis ng mga boses nila at ngiting-ngiti. Eto naman si Kaleb ay walang choice kundi ang bumati pabalik at ngumiti. Badtrip tuloy ako nang nasa harap na ako ng room namin. Pero pinilit kong ngumiti dahil ayaw kong masira ang araw ko ngayon.

“See you at the pub, hans.” Paalam ni kuya Oasis at tinapik pa ang balikat ko. Nakangiti naman akong tumango sakanya.

“See you, kuya.” I also said.

“Wait for me later, pumpkin.” Hinawakan naman ni Kaleb ang pisnge ko bago ginulo ang buhok ko. “Take care,” Paalam niya at masaya naman akong tumango-tango.

“Bye,” Nakangiti kong ani sakanya at sabay na silang dalawa umalis. Napapangiti akong pumasok sa room at agad akong inasar ng dalawa kong kaibigan.

“Taray, binisita ni Gov.” Pabirong sabi ni Dandy. Napangiti lang ako at pabirong inirapan siya.

“Kaso asungot naman si kuya Oasis, nag-aaway ba silang dalawa kanina?” Sabi ni Lyka. Tinapik ko siya at pinanlakihan ng mga mata.

“Hey, don’t say things like that to kuya Oasis, he might be annoying but all he does is care about me.” Pagtanggol ko kay kuya Oasis. Totoo naman iyon. Kahit gusto ko kanina na si Kaleb lang sana ang kasama ko kumain ay hindi ko rin mataboy si kuya Oasis. Wala namang ibang ginawa si kuya Oasis kundi ang alalahanin ako kahit na palagi niya akong iniinis sa mga biro niya.

“Joke lang, eto naman. Medyo epal lang siya kanina sa moment niyo ni Kaleb.” Bawi ni Lyka. I tsked at what she said while hiding a smile on my lips.

“Moment ka jan.” Nasabi ko na lang. Tumawa naman silang dalawa at nagpatuloy sa pang-aasar saakin. Napailing na lang ako sakanilang dalawa at natatawa rin sa mga pinagsasasabi nila. They’re teasing me about Kaleb, pero pinipilit rin nilang nanliligaw saakin si kuya Oasis. Hindi ko pinapansin ang mga sinasabi nila dahil kuya at kaibigan lamang ang tingin ko kay kuya Oasis. Kay Kaleb naman ay hindi ko rin alam. May nangyayari saamin na hindi ginagawa ng magkaibigan pero hindi ko rin masabi kung ano kami.

I guess it is just what it is.

Habang natatawa ako sa mga sinasabi nila Dandy at Lyka ay nahagip ng mga mata ko si Monti na titig na titig saakin. Nang makita niya akong nakatingin sakanya ay hinandogan niya ako ng matamis na ngiti pero hindi ako natuwa roon.

He’s weird. I saw him almost glaring at me and then he suddenly smiled in an instant.

Hindi ko na lamang siya pinansin at napangiti na lang ako sa isiping dinalaw ako kanina ni Kaleb at lalabas pa kami mamaya. Kakaalis niya pa lang ay excited na akong makita siya ulit.

Mío

Doce

Kaleb’s

“Pa, I have something important to do, pwede ba sa sunod na lang ako sumama?” Pakiusap ko kay Dad habang minamaneho ko siya papunta sa politics party na pupuntahan niya ngayong gabi at eto nga at pinapasama niya ako. Bihis na ako pero nagbabakasakali pa rin ako na makalusot dahil may usapan kami ni Hans na susunduin ko siya ngayon at sasamahan sa gig niya.

“That child of Arken is so important to you?” Natahimik ako sa sagot niya saakin. Alam niya na agad kung ano ang pagkakaabalahan ko. I hate it when he acknowledged Hans presence or kahit banggitin niya man lang ito. I know what he’s capable to do, he’s not good for Hans and I know alam niya na importante saakin si Hans at magagamit niya iyon laban saakin. Simula nang magkaisip ako, he wasn’t just a father to me, he’s also the person behind my every move. He’s my commander, he controls almost everything I do and my only freedom is Hans. 

“Kaleb, pinapabayaan kita mahibang sa batang iyon, sa ngayon. Pero huwag na huwag mong ipapakita saakin na mas importante siya kesa sa pangarap ko saiyo, tandaan mo, tatakbo ka sa politiko ngayong taon, at kung hahadlang ang batang iyon, alam mo ang mangya-” Pinutol ko agad ang sasabihin niya.

“Pa, I do everything you tell me, and you know I don’t like it when you mention Hans, ginagawa ko lahat and the only favor I’m asking you is leave Hans out of this. Hindi siya magiging hadlang sa tatahakin kong politika. I promise you that.” Mahaba kong litanya habang mahigpit ang hawak sa manibela. Narinig ko ang mahinang paglabas ng hangin sa bibig niya bago ulit siya nagsalita.

“Then prove it to me that he’s not more important than our dream, malapit ka na sa sukdulan, Kaleb. Abot kamay mo na ang pangarap ko saiyo, don’t waste it and I will leave Hans Gabriel alone.” Napalunok ako at lalong humigpit ang hawak ko sa manibela bago tumango. Hindi na ako kumibo pa dahil baka saan pa umabot ang usapan namin.

Hindi lingid sa kaalaman ni Dad na umiibig ako kay Hans. Ngunit ang gusto niya lamang ay hindi ito kailanman maging hadlang sa pangarap niya saakin sa politika. Pero pangarap niya iyon, iba ang pinapangarap ko. I may love helping people and I can easily do that if I will be the governor, but the greatest dream is Hans, I don’t wanna lose him over anyone. It’s Hans over anyone but do I really have the choice? May karapatan nga ba akong pumili gayong bata pa lang ako ay may tali na ako sa ilong na kung saan hilahin ng aking ama ay siya ring magiging direksyon ko?

It’s sad, it really is, but that’s the reality of my life, when Mom died, our family also died. The only thing that keeps me going is the thought that maybe, maybe when the time comes, I no longer have to keep up with whatever Dad wants for me. Maybe someday, I’ll have my own freedom and be with Hans forever.

I’m one lucky guy if that happens, but luck has never been on my side since the day I was born.

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Hans

Napabuga ako ng hangin at napailing na lang habang tinititigan ang text ni Kaleb mula sa selpon ko. Kanina pa ako naghihintay sakanya pero hindi pala siya makakarating.

Another day that he need to choose work over me. Nothing new.

Napanguso na lang ako at nag text back sakanya na okay lang at sumunod na lamang siya kung kaya pa ng oras niya. Pinilit kong maging okay dahil may gig pa akong pupuntahan at kailan ko maging presentable.

Hindi naman na saakin bago ang ganitong sitwasyon samin ni Kaleb. He has broken a lot of what he says, susunduin ako, sasamahan, iyon lagi ang mga pangako niyang madalas ay hindi niya magawa dahil hindi ayon sa trabaho niya. And I understand it, kahit na minsan ay nakaka frustrate, kailangan ko iyon intindihin dahil magkaiba ang estado namin sa buhay. I can’t hold him back, I don’t wanna hold him back. His work will always come first and I understand that.

Napabuntong hininga ako at lumakad ulit papasok ng bahay para hanapin si Papa Reihan. Nang makita ko siya sa sala na nanunuod ay lumapit agad ako sakanya.

“Pa,” Tawag ko. Agad naman siyang tumingin saakin at nagsalita.

“Baby, I thought Kaleb is going to pick you up?” Tanong niya. Napanguso naman ako at napailing.

“He won’t make it, something came up kaya susunod na lang raw siya. Pwede po ba ako magpahatid? I can’t be late po kasi sa gig ko.” Nguso ko kay Papa. Ngumiti naman ito at agad tumayo.

“Sure, baby. Go wait for me outside, kukunin ko lang ang susi, magbibihis at aalis na agad tayo.” Ganon nga ang ginawa ko at naghintay sa labas. Habang hinihintay si papa Reihan ay nag text pa ulit ako kay Kaleb para sabihang mag ingat siya at sinabi ko rin na papahatid ako kay papa Reihan.

Hindi nagtagal at nasa byahe na kami ni papa Reihan. Habang nasa byahe ay kinakausap niya ako hanggang sa nagtanong siya ng bagay na nakapukaw sa atensyon ko.

“Are you not afraid singing in front of a lot of people, anak?” Nakangiting tanong ni Papa. Napaisip naman ako bago umiling.

“No, Pa. I actually gain confidence when I am singing in front of everyone. Why po?” I said. Lumaki naman lalo ang ngiti niya bago nagsalita.

“How about singing in front of your Dad’s co-workers?” Napalingon naman ako sakanya at napaisip.

“What’s this about?” Curious kong tanong.

“Your Dad wants to introduce you to a lot of people that will definitely help you with your course in the future, gusto niya sana ay kantahan mo sila sa formal party sa darating na huwebes. Is that okay with you, baby?” Mahabang paliwanag ni papa Reihan. Napangiti naman ako at tumango.

“Sure, Pa. I would love to be involved with Dad’s work also.” Ngiti ko at natawa naman siya at napatango-tango.

“Thank you, anak. Your Dad will be so happy to hear this.” Ngumiti ako sa sinabi ni Papa at napaisip.

Kung siguro ay kagaya rin ako katalino kay Kaleb, matutulungan ko rin si Dad Arken sa kompanya niya. Pero sa ibang aspeto rin kasi ako magaling at hindi sa ganoong paraan.

Mabilis kaming nakarating ni Papa sa Pub at agad rin siyang umalis dahil pauwi na raw si Dad Arken galing trabaho. Kung magpapasundo raw ako ay mag text na lamang ako o tumawag. Um-oo na lamang ako sa lahat at pumasok na sa Pub dahil konti na lang at male-late na ako.

Agad akong inayusan ni ate Lev dahil ako na raw ang papalit kila kuya Oasis na tumutugtog na. Hindi naman naging matagal ang pag ayos saakin at ako na agad ang sentro ng atensyon nang magsimula akong kumanta.

Habang kumakanta ay nililibot ko ang mga mata ko sa mga tao sa loob ng Pub. Nakita ko na nasa isang sulok sila kuya Oasis at ate Lev kasama ang ilang seniors sa school na pinapasukan ko. Marami kasing kakilalang seniors si kuya Oasis sa school dahil doon rin siya gumraduate. Nakita kong umiinom sila ngunit tutok saakin ang tingin ni kuya Oasis. Nagulat rin ako nang makita kong kasama nila sa table si Monti at nakatingin rin ito saakin. Close siguro talaga sila ni kuya Oasis dahil magka-edad rin daw kasi ito ayon kay Lyka.

Ilang songs ang inawit ko bago ako pinalitan ng DJ. Pumunta ako agad sa staff room at nakita ko si kuya Chester na siyang owner ng Pub.

“Hi kuya Chest,” Bati ko sakanya. Agad naman itong lumapit saakin at hinagkan ako.

“I miss you, nak. Lagi talaga akong napapatulala kapag nag pe-perform ka! Sobrang galing lagi, hindi nagkukulang sa pagkuha ng atensyon sa audience!” Hyper na ani niya kaya nahiya akong natawa. Lagi talagang papuri ang natatanggap ko kay kuya Chester. Anak rin ang tawag nito saakin dahil ang bata ko pa raw. Medyo matandang bakla kasi siya.

“Himala at hindi ko nakitang umaaligid si Gov? Hindi mo kasama?” Tanong niya pa na ikinanguso ko. Ang tinutukoy niya ay si Kaleb.

“Yun nga po ’e, inabot nanaman siya ng trabaho pero baka makasunod naman po.” Sagot ko at magsasalita pa sana siya nang may magsalita sa likod ko.

“Pati ba naman ikaw, Chest, puro Kaleb? Nakakarindi na ah.” Biglang biro ni kuya Oasis na sinundan ata ako. Lumapit siya saakin at inakbayan ako bago nakipagbatian kay kuya Chester.

“Nako, seloso kahit kailan. Oh siya, kunin mo na yan si Hans at may gagawin pa ako, ihatid mo na kung uuwi na ha?” Ani ni kuya Chest bago lumabas ng staff room. Tumawa at tumango naman si kuya Oasis sakanya bago humarap saakin.

“Maya ka na uwi, Hans, join us, nandon si ate Lev mo.” Aya niya saakin. Mamaya pa naman talaga ako uuwi dahil hihintayin ko pa si Kaleb pero ayokong sumama sa table nila. Nag iinuman kasi sila at hindi naman ako pwede uminom.

“Kuya, you know naman na I don’t drink and I’m sure pipilitin ako ng mga kasama mo to drink kapag umupo ako roon.” Sabi ko.

“Ako bahala, just sit with us. Hindi naman kita pinapahamak ah?” Sabi niya pa pero umiling pa rin ako. Hindi rin kasi ako komportable na uupo ako roon kasama ang mga seniors sa school.

“Kuya-” Pinutol niya agad ang sasabihin ko.

“Hindi mo natupad yung dapat gala nating dalawa last friday, please Hans? Hindi naman ako mapapakali kung wala kang kasama rito.” Ani niya at nakagat ko na lang ang labi ko dahil may utang nga pala ako sakanyang hangout na hindi ko natupad.

“Fine, but I won’t drink.” Ani ko at lumaki naman ang mga ngiti niya at inakay na ako palabas ng staff room papunta sa table nila. Pinatabi niya ako kay ate Lev at pinagitnaan nila akong dalawa. Binati ko naman ang mga seniors at nginitian rin nila ako. Agad nila akong inayang uminom pero agad silang sinaway ni kuya Oasis at ate Lev.

Dahil hindi ako komportable ay inilabas ko na lang ang selpon ko dahil titingnan ko rin talaga kung may text si Kaleb pero nadismaya lang ako nang wala. Napabuntong hininga na lamang ako at napanguso.

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Kaleb’s

Hindi ako mapakali at kanina pa ako tingin nang tingin sa relo ko habang nakikipag-usap sa mga kapwa politician at businessman ni Papa. Mag 11 pm na kasi at sure akong tapos na ang gig ni Hans at kailangan ko humabol bago siya umuwi. Naiwan ko ang selpon ko sa kotse at hindi ko iyon mabalikan dahil pinapanuod ni Dad ang bawat galaw ko.

He told me to socialize for my own good. Pero hindi ko na kaya, nawawala ang focus ko at magmumukha lang akong katawa-tawa sa mga makakausap ko kapag pinatuloy ko pa ito. I am known as the smartest youngest politician here in our town, I can’t lose focus in front of them.

Nang matapos akong kausapin ng isa sa mga businessman na ka-close ni papa ay nabuhayan ako ng dugo nang makita kong katabi na ni papa si Tito Arken. Fuck. Nandito rin pala siya. I could use him so Papa can let me go.

Lumapit ako sakanila at agad na kumunot ang noo ni Tito Arken nang makita ako. Napatingin rin saakin si Dad.

“You, I thought you were with Hans?“ Agad na sabi ni Tito Arken. Napangiti ako sa loob-loob ko dahil gumagana agad ang plano ko.

“Opo sana, kaso importante raw ho ito sabi ni Dad. Gusto ko nga sana ho siya sunduin ngayon sa gig to drive him home, but..“ Tumingin ako kay papa na wala na agad reaksyon. Kinagat ko ang labi ko at tumingin ulit kay Tito Arken.

Dad is really impressed with Tito Arken, magaling kasi itong businessman at malaki na rin ang naiutulong nito kay Dad pagdating sa pera, shareholder kasi si Dad sa company ni Tito Arken. Madalas ay laging binibigyan ng pabor ni Dad si Tito Arken dahil he likes to be on his good side.

“My son is more important. In that case, I’ll better be going, ako na magsusundo sakany—“ Pinutol ni Dad ang sasabihin niya.

“No, please stay, my son will be the one to drive him home. Kaleb, go fetch Hans, may pag-uusapan pa kami ng Tito Arken mo.” Agad akong nagdiwang sa narinig ko at mabilis na tumango at tumalikod sakanila.

“Make sure to bring him home, don’t bring him anywhere!” Rinig ko pang sigaw ni Tito Arken pero nagmadali na akong umalis.

Agad akong sumakay sa dala kong kotse at nagmaneho papunta sa pub kung nasaan naroon si Hans. Sa sobrang bilis ko magmaneho para maabutan siya ay agad akong nakarating sa destinasyon ko.

Ipinarada ko ang kotse at agad na bumaba pero hindi pa man ako nakakapasok ay nag-init na agad ang ulo ko sa nakita.

I saw Hans, with that jerk Oasis. Magkaakbay sila at sumusuray pareho. Napalunok ako sa gigil at mabilis na lumakad palapit sakanilang dalawa.

Mío

LagotAngPwit

Trece

[UNEDITED kasi wala me time mag edit ng mga errors hehe ✌️]

Kaleb’s

“What the fuck is this?” Singhal ko nang nasa harapan ko na sila. Agad akong natigilan nang pareho silang tumingala saakin at saka ko nakita ang pareho nilang mapungay na mga mata. Fuck.

“Hans! Did you drink?!” Agad ko siyang hinablot at agad na natumba si Oasis ngunit hindi ko siya pinansin at sinampal-sampal ko nang mahina ang pisnge ni Hans dahil pangiti-ngiti pa ito habang papikit-pikit. Agad kong inamoy ang bibig niya at napamura ako nang maamoy ang alak roon.

“Fuck, you can’t drink, Hans Gabriel! Why did you drink?!” Inis kong tanong at agad na tumalas ang mga tingin ko kay Oasis nang makatayo na ito at nakangiting tinuturo na ako.

“L-Look, Hans, your favorite kuya Kaleb is h-heere!” Tumawa ito habang halos hindi na masambit nang maayos ang mga sinasabi. Nakagat ko ang labi ko sa gigil. I’m sure this jerk made Hans drink. Kung pwede ko lang bitawan si Hans at bangasan siya ngayon ay ginawa ko na. Pero nagtimpi ako at baka may makakita pa saamin rito. Tumalikod ako at inakay si Hans palapit sa kotse ko.

“Hey! Where are you bringing him? He’s sad because of you!“ Rinig ko pang sabi niya pero hindi ko siya inintindi at maingat kong ipinasok sa kotse si Hans bago ako umikot para pumasok sa driver seat. Kagat labi kong minaneho ang kotse papunta sa bahay.

“Kaleeb…” Nakagat ko ang labi ko sa inis nang marinig ko ang lasing niyang boses. Fuck. Ni hindi ko nga patakan man lang ng kahit isang patak ng alak ang bibig niya tapos ay papainumin lang siya ng Oasis na iyon? This is why I hate that fucking guy. He’s so careless!

“Stay put, I can’t bring you home like this, magagalit ang Papa at Dad mo, they will kill me and that fucking Oasis.“ I muttered even tho Hans can’t probably understand me right now.

“Hmm, Kaleb… I miss you..“ Natigilan ako at napabuntong hininga sa narinig kong sinabi niya. I looked at him and his eyes are close but still muttering. Namumula ang mga pisngi niya lalo na ang mga labi niyang kay sarap tingnan.

“I miss you so much, pumpkin. I was so worried about you, don’t do this again, please. I don’t like seeing you like this.” This is my fault, I can’t even take care of him because I was away. Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya hanggang sa nakarating na kami sa bahay. Agad kong ipinarada ang kotse at lumabas para alalayan si Hans. Kinarga ko na siya at ipinasok sa bahay dahil mukhang tulog na siya. Pinasok ko siya deretso sa kwarto ko at inayos ang higa niya sa kama ko.

Napapabuntong-hininga ko siyang tiningnan bago ako tumalikod para magbihis dahil naka suit pa ako. Nagbihis muna ako at naghilamos bago ako nagdala ng basang bimpo para punasan siya.

Umupo ako sa tabi niya at hinawakan ko ang kamay niya para simulan iyong punasan. Naiinis pa rin ako sa ginawa niya pero mas nangunguna saakin ang pangamba.

“Kaleb,“ Bigla siyang dumilat at binanggit ang pangalan ko. Pinilit kong ngumiti sakanya kahit na hindi ako natutuwa sa kalagayan niya ngayon. Hans has never tasted alcohol, kaya malamang ay may umudyok sakanya na uminom.

“Pumpkin, are you alright? Do you feel dizzy?” Tanong ko. Kumurap naman siya at biglang ngumiti nang marinig ako.

“It’s you, Kaleb.” Sabi niya pa. Tumango-tango ako at ngumiti rin sakanya.

“Yes, yes, it’s me, pumpkin— Hans..” Nagulat ako nang bigla niya akong hinila at umibabaw saakin. Fuck. He’s really drunk.

“Kaleb, been waiting for you..” Napapkit ako nang gumiling siya sa ibabaw ko. “Been thinking of you, Kaleb. I want you.” Napalunok ako sa sinabi niya at napahangos.

Fuck. Fuck. I need to fight my urge to fuck him right now. I can’t do that when he’s like this.

“Pumpkin, we will sleep— fuck, please, stop grinding on me. Shit. We’re going to sleep and I’ll do it with you when you’re already sober, okay?” Nagpipigil kong sabi ngunit muli akong nagulat nang dakmain niya ang nangangalit kong alaga na kanina ay inuupuan niya. Fuck.

“Kaleb, please… I miss you..” Malambing niyang sabi ngunit alam kong lasing siya. Muli akong humangos nang malalim at inalis ko ang kamay niya sa alaga ko. Umupo ako at muli ko siyang ihiniga kahit na pumupiglas siya.

“Pumpkin, I won’t fuck you like this. So you better behave before I lose my control and fuck you till you drop—”

“I want that,” Nakagat ko ang labi ko at halos nanginginig pang hinalikan ang noo niya dahil sa pagtitimpi. “Kaleb, please, I’m okay, and I want you.” Fuck. As much as I want him to say all of these, hindi sa ganitong sitwasyon na lasing siya! Kainis! Gustong-gusto ko na siya patuwarin at galawin, konting-konti na lang.

“Please spare me, pumpkin. Please. Your father will kill me.” I muttered before looking away because he’s becoming too scrumptious in my eyes when he’s looking at me so lustfully and drunk.

Tumayo ako para sana ibalik sa banyo ang bimpo at para pakalmahin ang sarili ko ngunit naputol ang pagtitimpi ko nang muli siyang magsalita.

“I want you inside me, Kaleb..“ Matalas ang matang lumingon ulit ako sakanya at nakaupo na siya habang hinuhubad ang suot niyang damit. Agad na nagwala ang sistema ko at nanalo na nga ang tawag laman saakin.

Binitawan ko ang hawak kong bimpo at kumuha ng lubricant sa drawer ng bedside table ko bago mabilis na lumapit kay Hans at sinakop ang bibig niya.

“Fuck it, Hans. You want this. Don’t blame me tomorrow.” I muttered while still devouring his sweet bitter lips. Lasang alak ang matamis niyang laway na nilalasing rin ako sa libog.

“Yes, ah, I want it now.” Ani niya pero umiling ako at pinadapa siya bago ko hinubad ang suot niyang pang-ibaba. Agad kong ipinaghiwalay ang dalawang pisnge ng pang-upo niya at dinuruan iyon bago ko hinalikan at dinilaan ang namumula niyang entrada. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa magkabilang pisnge ng pwet niya habang tinititigan ang naghihintay niyang entrada.

“Kaleb, please, please…” Muling halinghing niya. I bit my lip before I put lubes in my fingers and on his entrance.

“Patience, babe. Stay put before I completely lose control and wreck you tonight.“ Pakiusap ko dahil konti na lang ay magiging agresibo na ako at tanging tawag ng laman na lamang ang iintindihin. Fuck. He doesn’t know how dangerous I can be if I decide to quickly fuck him right now. His anus might rip apart.

Kagat labi kong hinimas ang entrada niya na madulas dahil sa dami ng lube na inilagay ko. Agad siyang napaigtad ngunit hindi na ako naghintay pa at dahan-dahan kong ipinasok ang isang daliri ko sa loob niya. Humigpit ang kagat ko sa ibabang labi ko nang maramdaman ko ang init niya sa loob. Fuck. I want to fuck him right now.

“Ahh, Kaleb, moree, please..” Hindi pa nga ako nagsisimula ay atat na siya agad. Natatawa akong pinantay ang mukha namin habang nasa loob pa rin ng entrada niya ang isang daliri ko.

“You’re pretty horny for my innocence pumpkin that I know, you like my dick that much, babe?” Asar ko at nakita ko ang lalong pamumula ng pisnge niya. Kagat-labi siyang tumango saakin kaya gigil kong sinimulang hugutin at ipasok nang paulit-ulit ang daliri ko sa entrada niya.

He’s such a tease. I didn’t know he can have this side of him when drunk. Pinaghalong excitement at kaba ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Excitement dahil ako pa rin ang hinahanap ni Hans kapag lasing siya ngunit kabado dahil binilin ni Tito Arken na i-uwi ko siya agad. Pero paano ko iyon gagawin ganitong lasing siya at inaakit ako masyado?

“Ahh, I love it so much, Kaleb, ahhh..” Nakagat ko ang labi ko sa ungol niya habang titig na titig pa rin ako sa nasasarapan niyang ekspresyon. Habang nakatitig sakanya ay dinagdagan ko ng daliri ang labas-masok kong daliri sa entrada niya. Nakita ko kung paano bumuka ang kaninang kagat-kagat niyang labi habang palalim nang palalim ang dalawang daliri ko sa kasikipan niya. I saw how his face contorted in pleasure and how his eyes almost dilated.

Humangos ako nang malalim habang nahihilo na sa pagpipigil na ipasok na lang sakanya bigla ang kargada ko. Inayos ko ang pag prepare sa entrada niya upang hindi kami mahirapan mamaya. He was so vocal while I prep his tush for my dick and I was loving it so much. Nang maramdamang kong kaya na ng entrada niya ang kargada ko ay nagmamadali ko siyang pinatihaya habang nagmamadali akong maglagay ng condom sa kargada ko. He was watching my every move while anticipating what’s about to happen.

Nang maayos ko ang condom sa kargada ko ay kinuha ko ang dalawang binti niya at ipinatong iyon sa magkabilang balikat ko. I looked at his loving face before I slapped my dick on his entrance for few times bago ko iyon dahan-dahang ipinasok. We both gasped when it was finally inside. Dahan-dahan kong isinagad iyon sakanya hanggang sa tumitili na siya na ikinagulat ko.

“Ah! Kaleb! So deep! No! Ah! Put my legs down!” Paungol niyang tili habang mas lalo kong sinasagad ang ari ko sa kasikipan niya. I want to oblige and do what he wants pero habang pinapanuod ko siyang mag panic dahil sa bagong sarap na nararamdaman niya ay may malakas na boses ang bumubulong saakin na tingnan kung hanggang saan niya iyon makakayanan. Nakagat ko ang ibabang labi ko bago ko mahinang hinugot ang ari ko hanggang sa ulo na lng nito ang nakapasok sakanya bago ko malakas na isinagad iyon sa loob niya. We both groaned but his was so loud.

“Ohh!! Kaleb!” Napapikit ako sa sarap at hinawakan ko ang dalawang kamay niyang tinutulak ako sa dibdib at itinaas ko iyon sa uluhan niya bago ko pwersahang itinuloy ang paglabas-masok ko sa masikip niyang entrada.

It was so good. I was groaning so much because of how he feels so good at dagdag pa ang mga tili at ungol niyang nilalasing ako sa sarap. This is our first time doing this position at base sakanya ay malalim na malalim ang naaabot ng ari ko. Sa mga ungol niya pa lang na halos pasigaw na ay naniniwala na ako. His eyes is also rolling back and his hands that I am gripping wants to be free to push me away. He can’t comprehend the too much pleasure he’s feeling but I am not feeling any remorse and just pumping my dick in and out of his tight warm hole. Ang sarap niya pagmasdan habang hindi magkanda-ugaga sa nararamdaman niyang sarap.

“Kaleb! Please! Ohh!“

“You asked for this, pumpkin. I can’t let you down, can’t I?” I said before letting go of his hand and gripping his waist instead. Mahigpit ko siyang hinawakan roon bago ko muling nilakasan at binilisan ang paglabas masok ko sa entrada niya. We were both panting and moaning in pleasure. I can’t imagine if someone tries to do this with Hans, I will lose my mind and I will kill whoever tries to.

Yumukod ako palapit sa mukha niya habang walang patid pa rin ang ulos ko sa nakakaadik niyang kasikipan.

“This is only mine, Hans. Only mine, pumpkin. You’re only mine, do you understand?” I said out of breaths because I’m still pumping in and out of him. He didn’t or couldn’t answer and that made me lose my mind with pleasure more intensely. Hindi ko alam ang pumasok sa utak ko at hinawakan ko ang malambot niyang buhok at sinabunutan iyon upang humarap siya saakin. Mas lalo akong hindi napigil nang marinig ko siyang umungol dahil sa ginawa ko. Gigil kong kinagat ang ibabang-labi ko bago muling nagtanong habang titig na titig sa mukha niya.

“Answer me, babe. You’re only mine, right? I’m the only one who gets to do this with you, right?” Hingal kong sabi habang mas lalong humigpit ang sabunot ko sa buhok niya. Kagat labi naman siyang tumango at nagmulat ng mata para tingnan ako.

“I’m only yours, Kaleb. You’re the only one who can fuck me, ahh fuck! Fuck me all you want!” He said while looking at me. I groaned at ipinataob ko siya upang mas lalo siyang panggigilan.

I put my dick inside him and gripped his hair while roughly pumping in and out of his tush. Halos pareho kaming lunod sa sarap habang tinitira ko siya patalikod hanggang sa makarating ako sa unang sukdulan. I groaned while coming inside him but my thirst for him didn’t even lessen. Kahit pareho na kaming nilabasan ay nagpatuloy kami sa ginawagawa namin sa iba’t-ibang posisyon hanggang sa parehong sumuko ang mga katawan namin. I didn’t even know when we started to get tired and got enough of each other. Ang alam ko lang ay pareho kaming bulagta nang matapos kami.

It was the best night of my life with Hans. I was so sated.

Mío

A/N: Sorry mga

mamsh

sa super late UD,

ginulat

ako ng college, grabe from Wattpad to WPS talaga mga

teh

, now lang ako

nagkaron

time para mag update, pero pag na adjust ko na katawan ko sa college life, balik na ulit yung UD ko every month 😁✌️

Catorce

WARNING:

Spoiler alert sa ibaba kung ayaw niyo ma spoil wag niyo basahin A/N ko hehe

Hans

Nagising ako sa sakit ng ulo ko. Lumingon ako sa tabi ko at nakita ko si Kaleb na nakaharap saakin at hubad-baro pa. Tulog pa siya kaya tiningnan ko ang oras sa bedside table at mag a-alas singko na. Nakagat ko ang labi ko habang hawak-hawak ko ang masakit kong ulo.

I remember drinking and all the things I did with Kaleb. I regret drinking but I didn’t regret what happened to us. Napangiwi ako sa sakit ng katawan na nararamdaman ko pati na entrada ko pero tumayo ako upang lumabas at kumuha ng tubig dahil nararamdaman ko ang sobrang pagka-uhaw. Nagbihis muna ako bago lumabas ng kwarto ni Kaleb.

Habang naglalakad papunta sa kusina nila Kaleb ay napaisip ako sa nangyari sa club kagabi. Hindi naman kasi talaga ako iinom, hindi rin ako pinainom ni kuya Oasis pero sa sobrang pag o-overthink ko sa estado ng buhay namin ni Kaleb ay hindi ko napigilang inumin ang isang basong alak na dapat ay para kay ate Lev. Ang akala ko ay hindi naman ako malalasing ’non pero iba pala ang tama saakin. I regret it so much. It was so pathetic of me to do that just because I was sad Kaleb always have to put his job first before me.

Napabuntong-hininga ako at ininom ang tubig sa basong nakuha ko. Habang umiinom ako ay biglang bumukas ang ilaw ng kusina dahil hindi ko iyon binuksan. Halos maubo ako sa gulat at umayos ako ng tayo nang makita ko si Tito Kalden na nakatayo sa entrance ng kusina.

“Hans Gabriel, you’re still here?” Sabi niya sa malalim na boses. Napalunok ako dahil takot ako sakanya. Masyado kasi itong seryoso at strict. Tumango ako at yumuko.

“Does your father know?” Mas lalo akong kinabahan sa tanong niya. Shit. Nakalimutan ko si Dad Arken! Lintek talaga ako sakanya!

“Mukhang hindi.” Sagot niya sa sarili niyang tanong. Nakagat ko ang labi ko. Tinitigan ako nito na parang nag-iisip bago ulit nagsalita.

“Iho, follow me, I’ll show you something.” Bigla niyang sabi bago tumalikod. Naiangat ko ang tingin ko sakanya bago nagdadalawang-isip na sumunod.

Hindi kaya sasampalin niya ako? Huhu kinakabahan ako sa gagawin niya saakin. Hindi ako sanay na kinakausap niya ako dahil snob ito saakin parati. Ano kaya ang ipapakita niya saakin?

Pumasok kami sa office niya rito sa bahay nila at pinaupo niya ako sa kaharap ng mesa niya kung saan nasa isang side rin siya. Para kami ngayong Dean at Student. Siya ang Dean at ako ang student na papagalitan niya huhu.

“Hans, do you like your kuya Kaleb?” Nagulat ako sa tanong niya at natameme ako. Bakit niya tinatanong? Huhu hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko.

“Po?“ Tanging nasabi ko. Tumitig ito saakin bago bumuntong-hininga.

“My son, Kaleb, loves you so much, Hans. Did you know that?” Sabi niya na mas lalo kong kinatameme. Napalunok ako at inisip ang sinasabi niya. Hindi ko alam pero gusto ko kaltukan ang sarili ko dahil bukod sa kaba ay parang kinilig rin ako sa sinasabi ni tito Kalden. Bwesit.

“When Kaleb was born, me and my wife was the happiest couple in the world. He’s a miracle baby.” Bigla niyang sabi kaya napigil ako sa lihim na pagngiti. Mukhang may gusto siya sabihin saakin kaya nakinig lamang ako.

“My wife couldn’t get pregnant at first but she miraculously did with Kaleb, my wife and I loved him so much. Hans, I know Kaleb doesn’t consider me as his father anymore, I’m more like, his controller, right?” Tumingin ako sakanya dahil sa sinabi niya. Natigilan ako nang makita ko ang lungkot sa mga mata niya. This is the first time I’m seeing emotions from tito Kalden.

“I was a father to him, before.” Mahina niyang sabi. Naguluhan naman ako kung bakit niya ito saakin sinasabi at kung ano iyang sinasabi niya.

“Why only before po?“ Hindi ko napigilang tanong. Tipid siyang ngumiti at nagsalita ulit.

“When my wife died, she left nothing to us but pain.” Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya. “My wife died because of heart failure, but before that, all our wealth was needed to bought her a new heart. I mean, that was nothing to me, I needed her and I would choose her over wealth everytime, but even after that, she still died.” Pranka niyang sabi na parang wala lang iyon pero kita ko sa mga mata niya ang lungkot at galit na hindi ko alam kung para saan. Napalunok ako at nagtanong.

“Why are you telling me this, Tito?“ Tanong ko dahil naguguluhan na talaga ako sa gusto niyang iparating. I didn’t know this but why does he think I needed to know this? I think not even Kaleb knew this. I didn’t know his mother needed a new heart before she died.

“I want you to stay away from Kaleb.” Pareho kaming natahimik matapos niyang sabihin iyon. Napatitig ako sakanya at napaisip kung totoo ba itong naririnig ko o lasing pa ako. Nangyayari ba talaga ito ngayon o panaginip lamang? Why would the first time tito Kalden choose not to ignore me is the time he will also say that I should stay away from his son? Why? Why do I need to do that?

“Tito..” Tanging nasabi ko habang nakatitig pa rin sa seryoso niyang mukha. Nakita kong gumalaw ang panga niya at may kinuha siya sa drawer na nasa ilalim ng lamesa niya.

“It’s not because I don’t like you for him, it’s because you’re not good for him, for my dreams for him. Alam mong tatakbong Governor ang anak ko ngayong taon, Hans—” Napakurap ako at umiling bago nagsalita.

“Tito, I’m not going to ruin his image or anything, I’m just..” Napalunok ako bago itinuloy ang sasabihin. “I’m just his best friend.” Sabi ko at nakita kong napailing siya bago natawa nang konti.

“I heard the both of you last night, no best friends will do that.” Nakagat ko ang labi ko sa sinabi niya at parang maiiyak ako sa isiping gusto niya talagang layuan ko si Kaleb. He doesn’t have to do this.

“Hans, simula nang maging Governor ako, ni minsan hindi ko naisip nakawan ang kaban ng bayan natin, I wasn’t a rotten Governor, wasn’t I?” Tanong niya bigla. Tumango ako dahil napaka mabuting Governor ni tito Kalden, kahit kailan ay hindi ito kumupit sa dapat ay pera ng Quezon.

“I’m just a governor, Hans. I wasn’t even born wealthy, sa tingin mo, saan ko kinuha ang pera para ibili ng bagong puso ang asawa ko?” Tanong niya na nakapag patahimik saakin. A heart cost a huge wealth, and I know they’re not that wealthy for a heart.

“May patong ang ulo ko, Hans.” Napakurap ako sa muling sinabi niya. Inabot niya saakin ang isang envelope at inilabas niya ang laman niyon. Nakita ko ang isang contract and I’m smart enough to know what’s it about. Binasa ko iyon at nanghina ako sa nabasa. No way.

“If you still don’t understand, the people in the black market where I bought the heart for my wife, priced it five times than it’s original price. I can’t even bought it in it’s original price so why did I bought it from them? It’s because they will give it to me even if my money ain’t even half the price of it. But of course, it’s black market, illegal, they have rules, they have conditions,” Pabigat nang pabigat ang dibdib ko lalo na nang makita ko ang seal ng black market na hindi matugis-tugis ng mga pulis dito sa Quezon. Nakita ko ang pirma ni tito Kalden at iba pang mga pirma sa contract na ipinapakita niya saakin.

“’Till now, I’m still paying them, Hans. And what does the contract says?” Tanong niya habang parang sasabog na ang ulo ko. I have never been this confuse before. Ni kahit kailan ay hindi ko kinailangang mag-isip nang ganito kakomplikado but tito Kalden just dropped this shit on me.

“If the debt is still not paid before Governor Kalden Cabrera has to step down to his title, he’s dead.” Mahina kong basa sa nakalagay sa contract.

“And that’s why I need Kaleb to be the next Governor, not for my greed, Hans, not just to make me safe. If I get killed, they will torture my son with this information and the cycle will continue, gagatasan nila nang gagatasan ang anak ko katulad ng patuloy nilang ginagawa saakin ngayon, and I can’t let them do that so I need him to be the Governor and end this unending debt of mine.” Tito Kalden desperately said but I’m having a hard time absorbing all the information he has given me. Parang ayaw ko maniwala na pwede itong mangyari sa pamilya ni Kaleb at kailangan kong madamay. I have been living a simple life with little complications but right now Tito Kalden just gave me the most complicated problem in the world, or at least in my life. I’m simple minded and is still being spoiled by everyone, I didn’t know I have to know this.

“Hans, pag-isipan mo ang mga sinabi ko. No one know this but the two of us, and lying to you is not an option, pinakita ko sayo ang contract na ako lang at ang black market ang nakakaalam. I’m telling you this because I know my son can neglect all the things for you, even my biggest dream for him.” Muli niyang sabi pero umiling-iling ako at tumayo na.

I don’t know what to feel. I don’t know what to understand and I don’t even know what to believe. This shit is so complicated. I can’t even understand half of what he’s saying, the only thing that is so clear with me is that he wants me to be away from Kaleb, and I don’t think I can do that. Everything is so sudden and my head is going to explode.

“Tito, I’m just a child, I don’t know what to do with every information you just said to me. I’m just his best friend.” Tanging nasabi ko habang nanghihina dahil sa kaguluhan sa isip ko. Tumalikod ako sakanya at lalabas na sana pero bago ko pa man mabuksan ang pinto ay nagsalita ulit siya.

“He loves you, you can ruin him, he can be in danger because of you, Hans. I know you need him, but I need him more.” Sabi niya na lalo kong ikipinanghina. Umiling ako at lumabas na ng opisina niya. Bumalik ako sa kwarto ni Kaleb at nagmamadaling nag-ayos at kinuha ang mga gamit ko para umalis habang tulog pa siya.

I still don’t know if all of this is true.

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“WHere have you been?“ Seryoso at galit na tanong ni dad Arken pero hindi ko magawang matakot dahil sa isipin patungkol sa nangyari sa opisina ni tito Kalden. Napalunok ako at nagsalita nang hindi nag-iisip.

“Kuya Oasis and I had a drink, Dad. That’s why I couldn’t go home.” Pagsisinungaling ko. Nakita kong gumalaw ang panga ni dad Arken at nakita ko ang gulat sa mukha ni papa Reihan dahil sa sinabi ko.

“Oasis? Oh my gosh, I will rat out Liam! Let’s go!“ Biglang sabi ni papa Reihan pero nagsalita pa si dad Arken.

“I met Kaleb last night, he said he’s going to fetch you, what happened?“ Sabi niya pero umiling ako. Masyadong pagod ang isip ko ngayon at ayokong ipahamak si Kaleb.

“He couldn’t fetch me because of kuya Oasis.” Pagsisinungaling ko ulit. Kilala ko naman si kuya Oasis, once I said it, he won’t say anything to go against me kaya sure ako na pagtatakpan niya ako kahit puntahan pa siya nila Dad. I don’t want to do this to him pero ayoko rin na si Kaleb ang pag initan ni dad Arken dahil sure ako na kakausapin niya si tito Kalden and I don’t want that. Baka may masabi pa siya kay Dad.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko habang mabigat ang dibdib ko dahil sa mga nalaman ko kanina. Everything just turned sad and complicated for me. Why is this happening?

I don’t know what to feel.

Mío

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“Governor, stop staring at my lips.” Ani ko habang walang emosyong nakatitig kay Kaleb.

“I’m not,” Pag d-deny niya na ikinairap ko. Natuon ang tingin ko sa pumasok sa restaurant kung nasaan kami. I bit the inside of my cheeks before sighing in annoyance.

“Your fiance is currently walking toward us, gritting her teeth, habang malagkit pa rin ang titig mo saakin. I’m hot, I know, but get over it.” Gigil kong sabi sakanya dahil panigurado ay mag e-eskandalo nanaman ang fiance niya dahil nakita kami nitong magkasama.

“Pumpkin, I’ll meet you tonight, wait for me.” Sabi niya bago tumalikod at

hinarang

si

Oceanna

bago pa ito

makalapit

saakin. Napailing ako habang matalas ang tingin

sakanilang

dalawa. Why can’t they just leave me alone? And he should stop calling me that or meeting with me, he has a fiance for goodness sake!

Quince

Hans

“What’s wrong with you?” Halata ang inis sa boses ni kuya Oasis habang kunot noo itong nakatitig saakin. Nasa sala kami ng bahay nila habang nag-uusap sila dad Arken, papa Reihan, tito Liam at Eli sa kusina. Katatapos lang nilang pagalitan si kuya Oasis dahil sa isinumbong ko. Nakagat ko ang labi at napayuko.

“Sorry, kuya. Hindi ko kasi pwedeng isumbong si Kaleb, ayoko rin makita si tito Kalden.” Kagat-labi kong ani. Napatitig ako sa kawalan at napabuntong-hininga. Napakasama ko to do this with kuya Oasis but I don’t really know what to do right now. Namimiss ko agad si Kaleb pero mabigat ang dibdib ko to even meet him. Alam kong kanina pa siya nagte-text at tumatawag pero hindi ko iyon pinapansin.

“What happened?” Umangat ang ulo ko sa tanong ni kuya Oasis at napakagat labi ako.

“Nothing, kuya. I’m just tired.” Pagsisinungaling ko but I saw him staring at me so hard. Alam kong alam niya na may mali sa inaakto ko kasi I never lied like this to my father before. Tinakpan naman ako ni kuya Oasis kanina at inako lahat ng sinabi ko kaya dagdag guilty iyon sa nararamdaman ko ngayon.

I don’t really know what to do. Parang gusto ko na lang kalimutan ang lahat ng nalaman ko kanina.

“Your phone keeps ringing, is that Kaleb?” Tanong ni kuya Oasis na ikinapikit ko. Tumayo ako at nagpaalam sakanya.

“Sagutin ko lang ’to, kuya.” Paalam ko at nagmamadaling lumabas. Lumabas ako ng gate nila at naglakad papunta malapit sa side ng bahay nila kung saan may maliit na basketball court. Umupo ako sa isa sa mga bench roon habang sinasagot ang tawag ni Kaleb. I miss him.

“Hello?” Sagot ko sa tawag.

“Fuck! For goodness sake, pumpkin! Bakit ngayon mo lang

sinagot

?! Are you okay? Did anything happen?!“ Nailayo ko sa tenga ko ang selpon dahil sa pagsisigaw niya. Napangiwi ako at nakagat ko ang labi ko bago sumagot.

“Sorry, Kaleb. Nasa bahay ako nila kuya Oasis ngayon, dad Arken was mad when I got home so I told him I was with kuya Oasis para hindi siya magalit sayo.” Paliwanag ko at natahimik naman siya nang ilang segundo.

“You didn’t have to do that, pumpkin. I can take responsibility for my actions, and why did you go home so early? Hindi mo ako

ginising

, I’m pissed. BIG TIME, Hans.“ Napahangos ako nang tawagin niya ang pangalan ko. He’s really mad.

“S-Sorry, I got nervous… because of dad Arken.” Pagsisinungaling ko habang napapalunok pa. Mas lalo pa akong napalunok nang makita ko si kuya Oasis na papalapit ito saakin habang kunot na kunot ang noo. Shit. Please don’t talk while I’m on the phone with Kaleb. He’ll be more pissed.

“Hans, your dad wants you inside. Turn off the phone. He’s mad.” Malakas niyang sabi na ikinapikit ko. Kung minamalas nga naman talaga ako.

“Is that Oasis? Tell that jerk to stop lying.

Aakuin

ko ang kasalanan ko sa dad Arken mo. Stay. Away. From. Him.“ Matigas na sabi ni Kaleb bago pinatay ang tawag. Naguguluhan naman akong tiningnan ang selpon ko at napaungot. What does he mean by that?

“Hans,” Makulit na tawag saakin ni kuya Oasis. Tumayo ako at lalakad na sana papasok ulit sa bahay nila pero hinawakan niya ako at hinarap sakanya. I looked at him confused.

“Something is bothering you, I can tell. What is it?” Ani niya at agad akong umiling at yumuko. Am I that readable? Natatakot na tuloy akong makita si Kaleb dahil baka mapansin niya rin at magtanong siya nang magtanong. Panigurado ay hindi ako makakatiis at masasabi ko sakanya ang totoo.

“Hey, Hans! Hey!” Nagulat ako nang bigla akong alog-alugin ni kuya Oasis. Napakurap-kurap ako sakanya at kita ko ang sobrang pag-aalala sa mukha niya.

“You’re so out of this world since earlier, what the fuck is happening? Is this about Kaleb?” Muli niyang tanong. Umiling ako at inalis ang mga kamay niya sa magkabilang balikat ko.

“No, kuya, please. I don’t want anymore questions, I feel so tired today.” Pakiusap ko at muling natulala sa kung saan. To be honest, I still don’t know how to feel and how to act because of what happened.

Hindi ako sanay. No one has ever put me in such a complicated situation but tito Kalden. Is this his way of punishing me because I’m always with Kaleb?

“Hans! Fuck! Isa pang tulala, Hans. I will tell tito Arken that you’re like this!” Nagulat ako sa muling sigaw ni kuya Oasis.

“Fuck.” Napamura ako sa sobrang inis sa sarili. I shouldn’t be like this just because of that! Fuck. Hindi pwedeng ganito akong haharap muli kay Kaleb. I still don’t know what to do with what tito Kalden said to me but I will never leave Kaleb. Not unless he say so.

“What? You’re even cussing, this is so not you, Hans.” Sabi muli ni kuya Oasis.

“I’m sorry, not gonna happen again, kuya.” Sabi ko at tinitigan niya naman muna ako bago tumango-tango.

“Good, I won’t ask anymore questions about it but please, get it together. I don’t like seeing you like this.” He said and I smiled and nod at him. I should stop worrying about something I don’t know what to do about. Maybe tito Kalden is just scaring me so I’ll stay away from Kaleb because he’s running for Governor this year.

“I should go inside, Dad is mad.” Sabi ko pero pinigilan niya akong muli.

“No, I’m just lying so you can stop talking to Kaleb.” Sabi niya na ikinakunot ng noo ko. Eto nanaman si kuya Oasis sa pagiging annoying niya.

“Why? Kuya Oasis naman ’e!” Naiinis kong ani at tatalikod na sana pero natigilan ako nang galit siya muling magsalita.

“What? You lied and put me on a tight spot for that jerk! Can’t I have time with you alone?” Galit niyang sabi at lumakad palapit saakin. Napalunok naman ako at nakagat ko ang labi ko dahil sa sinabi niya. Galit kasi sakanya sila Dad at tito Liam dahil pinainom raw ako nito.

“Hans, I will do anything for you. Ayos lang sakin kung magalit sakin sila tito Arken just because you lied to them trying so desperately to save Kaleb’s ass, but please, I can move mountains for you, just don’t try to push me away ’coz it hurts!” Madamdamin niyang sabi na ikinakurap-kurap ng mga mata ko sa kunot noo niyang mukha.

“What?” Naguguluhan kong ani. Mas lalo siyang lumapit saakin at hinawakan ang magkabilang pisnge ko.

“You’re so dumb that you don’t even know I’m confessing my love for you, Hans.” Muli akong nagulat sa sinabi niya. “I love you, I will do everything for you. So you can hang out with your favorite Kaleb all you want, but don’t try to push me away and not give me a chance to retrieve you from that bastard. You’re mine first, remember that.” Matigas niyang sabi na ikinaatras ko pero nagulat ako nang balakin niyang halikan ako.

I was about to push him away when someone pulled him away from me and I was stupefied when the next thing I saw is Kaleb beating up kuya Oasis.

Hindi ako agad nakapag react hanggang sa makatayo si kuya Oasis at sinuntok rin si Kaleb.

“Stop! Stop! Makikita kayo ni Dad! Stop it!” Sigaw ko sakanila pero parang wala silang narinig. Sa sobrang takot ko na makita sila ni Dad ay tumakbo ako papasok sa bahay para tawagin si ate Lev. Nakita ko siya sa sala at agad naman itong sumunod saakin at bumalik kami sa basketball court kung saan nagsusuntukan pa rin sila. Mabuti na lang at busy pa sila Dad sa kusina.

“Fuck you! Stop trying to manipulate Hans!” Sigaw ni Kaleb. Alam niya ang bahay ni kuya Oasis kasi dati ay hinahatid niya ako rito dahil gusto akong makita nila tito Liam. I should’ve known he will go here.

“Manipulate him?! You’re the one doing that!” Sigaw pabalik ni kuya Oasis. Nakita ko kung paano nagalit si ate Lev nang muli nanaman magkasakitan ang dalawa. Kinuha nito ang bolang nasa gilid ng court at ibinato sa dalawa para matigil.

“Both of you stop!” Agad akong lumapit kay Kaleb nang matigil silang dalawa but kuya Oasis suddenly pulled my arm so hard.

“Aw!” Nasasaktan kong impit dahil mas lalong humigpit ang hawak niya saakin nang pigilan siya ni Kaleb.

“Let go of him!” Ani ni Kaleb at susuntok na ulit sana ito pero natigil kaming tatlo sa sigaw ni ate Lev.

“Stop it! Fuck! Let go of him, kuya! You’re hurting Hans!” Parang ayaw pa sana ako bitawan ni kuya Oasis pero nang malipat ang tingin niya saakin ay saka lang siya bumitaw at parang natauhan.

“H-Hans- fuck- sorr-” Lalapit sana ulit ito saakin pero hinila ako ni Kaleb papunta sa likod niya.

“You stay away from him, Oasis. I’m so close to fucking ending your life here, you’re fucking nuts! Hurt him again and I will send you straight to hell.” Matigas na sabi ni Kaleb at agad na sumagot si kuya Oasis.

“He’s not yours, Kaleb. Wake the fuck up! You don’t own him!” Sigaw ni kuya Oasis.

“Neither of you own him! Stop this! Ngayon lang ako nakakita ng dalawang adult na umaaktong parang mga bata!” Sigaw muli ni ate Lev. Wala akong ibang nagawa kundi ang panuorin sila. Fuck. Why is this always happening? Lagi na lang akong walang nagagawa! I feel like I don’t even own myself and I always let them decide for me! Fuck this! Why do they always think that I wanna be owned by someone and they can decide for me? I am my own person.

Umalis ako sa likod ni Kaleb at inis na nilayasan silang tatlo. Tinatawag pa nila ako pero mabilis akong pumasok sa bahay nila kuya Oasis at dumeretso sa kusina kung saan nag-uusap sila Dad at sila Tito.

“Dad, Pa, I wanna go home. Please.” Pigil na iyak kong sabi. Tumayo naman agad si papa Reihan at lumapit saakin.

“What happened, anak?” He said worried.

“Is something wrong, Hans?” Tanong ni tito Elizer.

“Eli, Liam. Like what we have talked about, tell Oasis that Hans is not like the other kids he can hang out with and have senseless drinks.” Sabi ni dad Arken na lalo kong ikinainis. Why am I not like the other kids? Sometimes, dad is too much. He treasures me so much that I can’t even do something I really want.

“Not gonna happen again, Ark. I know Hans is your only son, don’t worry about it.” Si tito Liam ang sumagot.

“Pa, please, I want to go home.” Pilit ko kay papa Reihan at agad naman ako nitong iginiya palabas ng kusina.

“We’ll get going Liam. Talagang mabubungangaan ulit kita kapag ginawa pa ito ng anak mo.” Pabiro pero seryosong sabi ni papa kay Tito.

“Yeah, yeah. Stop ratting me out already.” Ani pa ni Tito bago kami nakalabas. Dumeretso kami ni papa sa labas ng bahay nila at sa kotse na dala ni Dad papunta rito.

Lumingon pa ako sa court at nakita ko roon si ate Lev at kuya Oasis na parang magkagalit na nag-uusap. Sumulyap ako sa paligid at nakita ko si Kaleb na nasa medyo malayo at nasa tabi ng kotse niya nakatanaw saakin. Inalis ko ang tingin ko sakanya at pumasok ako sa kotse namin at ganon rin si papa Reihan.

“Anak, are you okay? Did something happen?” Umiling ako sa tanong ni Papa.

“Anak, your Dad is just worried about you, so am I. Ayaw namin na magkaron ka ng wrong circle of friends. I know Oasis is a good kid, but not for you, but still, he’s your friend so we want to set things straight for the two of yo-” Pinutol ko ang sasabihin ni papa.

“He loves me, I don’t. We’re not friends, pa.” Maikli kong sabi at mukhang nagulat naman si papa Reihan.

“Hans, both of you are still kids. Maybe it’s still not lov-” Pinutol ko ulit si papa.

“Pa, Dad fell in love with you when he was 18.” Sagot ko na ikinangiwi ni papa Reihan.

“Yeah, sometimes me and your Dad forgets that you’re already turning 20. Sorry, anak, if we’re too strict.” Sabi ni papa na parang nababasa niya ang nasa isip ko. They’re not just too strict, they also babied me too much. Not that I am complaining. I just don’t think that life will be easy for me because of how I was raised.

Natigil kami sa pag-uusap nang pumasok si dad Arken sa kotse at pumwesto sa driver seat. Lumingon ito saakin at ginulo ang buhok ko.

“Hans, when you turn twenty, you can drink but not to the point that you won’t go home and not even tell us where you are. We’re worried sick.” Sabi niya at tumango na lamang ako dahil ayaw ko na makipag-usap pa. Masyadong magulo ngayon ang isip ko. But even tho my mind is a mess, it is still full of Kaleb.

Mío

A/N: Kaleb’s confession when? Nauunahan ka na Kal ah 🤭

Dieciséis

Reihan’s

“Ahh, Arken… love..” Mahina kong ungol habang binabayo ako ni Arken mula sa likod. I am on my knees, kneeling on my bed and he’s behind me, thrusting in and out of me. Hawak niya ang dibdib ko at inaalalayan akong hindi matumba habang marahas ang mga ulos niya saakin.

“Love, ahh, you always feel good.” Sabi niya na lalong ikinalutang ng ulo ko. I feel like floating everytime I’m having passionate sex with my husband.

“Ahh, don’t you think we’re being too strict with Hans?” Pagbubukas ko sa usapan patungkol sa anak namin dahil nakita ko kanina ang inis sa mukha ni Hans Gabriel. Minsan lang mainis saamin ang batang iyon kaya’t hindi siya mawala isip ko. I’m worried about him.

“I know, but I don’t want him to be heartbroken because of any of that guys, Oasis, Kaleb or anyone. They’re too young for it.” Arken said while still grunting. He didn’t stop fucking me while we’re talking. Hinahalikan niya pa ang batok ko papunta sa gilid ng leeg ko habang nagsasalita.

“But, fuck- ahh, y-you were eighteen when we started doing things that we shouldn’t.” Kagat-labi kong ani. He groaned before answering me.

“And what happened? I had to go away and left you alone because I was too young and naive, full of pride. We were both heartbroken because of it, don’t you think so?” He said and nakuha ko agad ang point niya. He doesn’t want Hans to experience the same thing.

“Kaleb is just turning 23 but will already enter politics, love, politics is not a good place. He will have to sacrifice something- someone to gain something bigger. Are you not afraid that - oh fuck, don’t grind while I’m talking, ahh..” I chuckled when he lost concentration because I grinded my hips towards his throbbing cock inside me.

“Are you not afraid that Hans will be someone he has to sacrifice?” He said grunting.

“I think we’re overthinking it, and how do you know that he will be heartbroken because of Kaleb?” I said. Binago niya ang posisyon namin at ipinahiga niya ako sa kama bago pumatong.

“Even if it’s Oasis, that kid is no good-” Napaungot ako nang muli niyang ipasok ang ari niya saakin.

“He’s a good kid, love. You just don’t like him.” Ani ko.

“Of course I don’t like him, manang-mana kay Elizer, mga mata pa lang kung tumingin sa anak ko, parang kakainin ng buhay. Parang gutom na gutom.” Natawa ako sa sinabi niya at napakagat labi nang lumakas ang mga ulos niya. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa bedsheet at tinanggap lahat ng ulos niya hanggang sa pareho kaming labasan.

“Ahh..” I groaned.

“I want more..” Hangos niya. Napailing naman ako at pinaalis siya sa ibabaw ko. Pareho kaming humiga sa kama habang nakaharap sa isa’t-isa.

“Love, I think Hans is being choked by us somehow.” I honestly said. Naimulat niya naman ang mga mata niya at tumingin saakin.

“You think so?” I nodded at him.

“He’s already growing up, not the same kid we needed to protect so much.” Habang sinasabi iyon ay parang nalulungkot ako sa isiping malaki na ang anak namin.

“Then I should go talk to him. Now can we proceed to round 2?” Napairap ako at natawa na lang nang muli siyang umibabaw saakin. Pilyo.

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Hans

Napatitig ako sa selpon ko kung saan naroon ang text ni Kaleb. It’s nine in the evening and he’s begging me to go out. Nasa kubo raw siya at hihintayin ako roon.

Napahangos ako at humiga sa kama ko.

I don’t know if I should face him. Baka mahalata niya rin na may hindi ako sinasabi sakanya. Naiinis pa rin ako kanina sa ginawa nila ni kuya Oasis. I sighed and looked at my phone when it started ringing. Napailing ako at tumayo para lumabas.

Nagdahan-dahan lang ako dahil baka makita pa ako nila Dad. Lalo iyon maghihigpit saakin.

Hindi pa man ako nakakalabas ng gate ay nakita ko na si Kaleb na nakaupo sa may pwerta ng mismong kubo. Kagat-labi akong lumapit sakanya at tumayo siya nang makita niya ako.

“Pumpkin,” Hinawakan niya ako sa braso at tiningnan niya ang pasa na nakuha ko sa mahigpit na hawak saakin kanina ni kuya Oasis.

“I should’ve punched that guy again, fuck him!” Galit niyang sabi. Kinuha ko naman ang braso ko sa mga kamay niya at hindi ako kumibo habang nasa malayo ang tingin. I don’t know what to say to him. Basta I don’t like what they did earlier and I’m still annoyed.

“Pumpkin, are you mad? I’m sorry, what did I do? Is this because I d-did it with you while you’re drunk?” Napatingin ako sakanya dahil sa sinabi niya. I sighed and glared at him.

“I don’t care about that. What I care about is you punching kuya Oasis, pumunta ka ba roon para makipag basag ulo?” Naiinis kong sabi at mas lalo akong nainis nang makita ko ang sugat sa gilid ng labi niya. Makikipag suntukan na lang ay magpapatama pa.

“Are you taking his side now? I’m still pissed seeing you letting him touch and kiss you, Hans.” Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya at kunot-noong nagtanong.

“What?” Inis at naguguluhan kong sabi.

“You think I didn’t saw it? I saw the both of you kissing. He was caressing your face and all.” Mas lalo akong nainis sa sinasabi niya.

“We didn’t kiss, he was about to-”

“And you were letting him.” Hindi ko alam kung saan nanggaling ang init ng ulo ko pero sa sobrang gigil ko ay nakagat ko nang malakas ang labi ko bago inis na sumagot sakanya.

“I didn’t let him! You misunderstood everything and you are accusing me of something I wouldn’t do! And so what if I do?!” Sa sobrang galit ko ay hindi ko na naisip pa ang mga sasabihin ko. I saw how his face contorted in pain that suddenly turned into rage.

Nagulat ako nang hawakan niya ako sa mga braso ko at marahas na tulakin papunta sa pintuan ng kubo. Inilapit niya saakin ang mukha niya at galit itong nagsalita.

“If you let that bastard touch you again, you wouldn’t like what I will do, Hans. And so what if you do? Hah, is that all my worth to you?” Seryoso at galit niyang sabi. Napalunok ako sa takot pero nanguna ang inis ko.

“You don’t own me, Kaleb.” I blurted and I saw how rage filled him.

“So fucking you wasn’t enough to own you? I am with you everytime, everyday, Hans. I already explore every bits of you. You are always submissive and that’s the evidence you’re mine.” Nakangisi niyang ani at parang hindi ko na siya kilala sa mga sinasabi niya. He’s not like this. He has never said something so toxic to me until now. I hate this.

“I’m with you everyday, you fuck me and all yet did you ever tell me you love me? At least kuya Oasis can say it, maybe that’s why you’re so jealous.” Walang pag-iisip ko ulit na sabi. Gumalaw ang panga niya at humigpit ang hawak niya sa braso ko bago ako tuluyang ipinasok sa kubo. Nagpumiglas ako nang subukan niya akong ihiga ngunit natigil ako nang marahas niya akong halikan at subukang hubaran.

“Kaleb!” Saway ko pero parang wala siyang naririnig.

“You’re mine, Hans. No one can take you away from me. In fact, you’re already mine since day one, do you hear me? Eres

mío , pumpkin.“ Malalim at galit niyang ani. I can see that he’s not himself while saying it because of how tight his grip on me and how he tries to undress me without caring if I will like it or not.

“Kaleb, Kaleb! Fuck! Don’t do this!” This is my fault for taunting him. Never did I talk back to him like that before and I’m seeing different version of him right now.

Patuloy niya akong hinalikan sa mukha papunta sa leeg ko at halos mapunit niya na ang suot kong pajama shirt. I started fighting back but I can’t win to him. Natatakot na ako sa ginagawa niya pero nagsisisi rin ako sa pagsagot-sagot sakanya nang ganon.

He means everything to me and even tho I deny it. Alam ko sa loob-loob ko na kung may isang tao man na papayagan kong angkinin ako ay siya iyon. Hindi ko namalayan na humihikbi na ako, nalaman ko lamang iyon nang natigilan siya at natatakot na napatitig saakin. Pinunasan ko ang luha sa mga mata ko at hindi na muling umimik.

This is probably the first and the last time he’s seeing me cry. Like what I’ve said before. I always find it hard to cry.

“P-Pumpkin..” Kabado niyang sabi. Inayos ko ang suot kong pajama shirt na halos punit na dahil sakanya bago ako nagsalita.

“I’m sorry, don’t be mad, I didn’t mean to say all of that. You own me, Kaleb.” Pag-amin ko. Natulala naman siya at napalunok bago dahan-dahang akong niyakap.

“No, fuck, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, pumpkin. I shouldn’t have done this, fuck. I’m the nutcase!” Halata ang pagsisisi sa boses niya. Inilayo niya ang katawan niya saakin at chineck ako kung may mga sugat o pasa ang katawan ko dahil sa ginawa niya. Parang nakahinga naman siya nang maluwag nang damit ko lamang ang nakita niyang nasira niya.

“Pumpkin, fuck, you can be mad at me for doing this. Shit. I’m so sorry.” Natigilan ako nang yumakap siya sa tiyan ko at narinig ko ang hikbi niya. “You can punish me all you want. I’m sorry. I’m really sorry for saying shits and forcing you, I’m really really sorry, Hans.” Napakurap-kurap ako sakanya nang maramdaman ko ang basa sa tiyan ko. He’s crying.

I know what he did is so fucked up, but he never forced me before and I know it’s because of rage. Hindi man namin alam kung ano kami, but it’s an unsaid label that we’re both having a relationship and we need to be loyal to each other. Alam ko naman kung gaano siya kagalit kay Oasis, lalo na ngayon na umamin na ito saakin. I shouldn’t have said any of that.

“Kaleb,” Sambit ko sa pangalan niya pero hindi niya inangat ang mukha niya. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at ako mismo ang humawak sa mukha niya para tumingin siya saakin. I saw his eyes full of pain and tears. I saw regret overflowing to his face. Napailing ako at hinalikan siya sa labi bago nagsalita.

“I know you don’t mean to do this, I also don’t. Nadala tayo pareho ng inis at galit. I understand you, but please, never do this again.” Pakiusap ko pero umiling siya.

“I mean it when I said you’re mine, Hans. No one can take you away from me, I will kill whoever wants to do it.” Matigas niyang sabi na ikinailing ko.

“Kaleb, I am all yours. You don’t need to be like this.” Sabi ko pero umiling siya at humigpit ang yakap saakin.

“Stay away from Oasis, I mean it, pumpkin. Stay away from him.” Sabi niya na ikinalunok ko. Kaya ko ba iyon? Wala pa man si Kaleb ay nasa buhay ko na si kuya Oasis. Halos parang kapatid ko na sila ni ate Lev dahil magkaibigan rin ang mga magulang namin. But kuya Oasis just confessed to me and I don’t think he can be the kuya Oasis I’ve looked up before.

“Hans.” Tinawag niya ako at humarap siya saakin nang seryoso. “Say you will stay away from him. Say it.” Pagpupumilit niya. Muli akong napalunok at napipilitang tumango. For him, I’ll do everything so he can stay sane.

“I will stay away from him.” Sabi ko at nakita ko ang tuwa sa mga mata niya bago ako halikan at ihiga sa foam. Umibabaw siya saakin at agad akong hinubaran. He started trailing kisses around my face down to my body.

“This is all mine, pumpkin. Everything of you is mine. Right?” Sabi niya at tumango-tango na lamang ako. I’m all his, wether I like it or not. Masyado na siyang tagos sa buto ko na hindi ko na alam paano pa siya aalisin sa sistema ko.

“Your neck is mine, your flawless shoulder, your face is all mine.” Banggit niya habang hinahalikan ako sa mga parteng iyon.

“This chest, your red nipples and all of your scrumptious body parts is only mine. You understand?” Pag angkin niya pa saakin habang ibinababa ang pajama pants ko. Napapalunok akong tumango at hinalikan siya pabalik nang sakupin niya ang bibig ko. Ipinasok niya ang dila niya saakin at lumikot iyon sa bibig ko bago niya tuluyang sinipsip ang dila ko.

“Hmm..” I groaned at mahigpit na napahawak sakanya nang ibukaka niya ang mga legs ko. I opened my eyes and I saw him put spit on his fingers before searching for my hole. He’s looking at me while doing all of that.

“This hole will only be pounded by me, do you understand?” Ani niya na ikinahinga ko nang malalim habang tumatango-tango.

“All yours. I’m all yours, Kaleb.” I said and he slowly enters his finger inside me. Nakagat ko ang labi ko habang namumungay ang mga matang nakatingin sa gwapo niyang mukha. He’s staring at me like he’s staring at something so beautiful and that made me love him more.

Napapikit ako nang sa wakas ay naamin ko rin sa sarili ko ang nararamdaman ko sakanya. He’s not just a best friend. I love him. Kahit anong deny o sabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi ko alam ang nararamdaman ko para sakanya, I knew from day one that I love him and that will never change.

“Ahhh, Kaleeb..” Ungot ko nang ipasok niya ang malaki niyang ari saakin. He pushed it more deeply before bending down to kiss me and said the words that made me shed tears again.

“God knows how much I love you, Hans. I love you so much that you’re too tangled in my soul, pumpkin. Always remember that.” He sweetly said before thrusting inside me.

“I love you so much, Kaleb.” Paungot kong ani at mas lalong lumakas ang mga ulos niya saakin. Napapikit ako at kasabay ng sensasyong lumukob saakin ay ang isiping hindi maalis sa isip ko mula pa kanina.

Will love save us from everything?

Mío

A/N: Love’s gonna conquer it all, Hans! 🤭

Ligwak

na ba si Oasis? 🤔

Diecisiete

Moonlight by Ariana Grande

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Hans

“♪ I want you to feel me slowly— hmm, hmm-hmm, wanna be the only ♪” I half sang and half hummed the song while putting lip gloss on my lips and finishing my look. Ngumiti ako sa salamin na nasa harap ko at natuwa sa ayos na nagawa ko.

I am putting a very light make up on my face because this is the day that I am going to sing for Dad’s co-workers at their party. He said I need to be presentable and this is my definition of presentable.

I am wearing a fancy maroon tuxedo that is tight on my waist part and it suits me well. Pinili ito saakin ni papa Reihan and he really knows what fits me well.

“Hans, baby?” Narinig ko si dad Arken na tumawag habang kumakatok sa pinto ng kwarto ko.

“Come in, Dad.” Sabi ko habang inaayos ko ang buhok ko sa harap ng salamin. Dad opened the door and I smiled when I saw my father wearing a simple black tuxedo but he surely looks elegant and handsome as usual. The thing with both of my parents are whether they wear simple or lavish clothes, they still both look mesmerizing, and they always make sure that I do too.

“Are you ready?“ Tanong niya. Umiling naman ako.

“Just a little moment, Dad. Ayusin ko pa buhok ko, hehe.” Sabi ko na ikinailing niya. Umupo siya sa kama ko at pinagmasdan ang ginagawa ko habang nakangiti.

“Hans, I’ve been meaning to say sorry for the way I acted towards you last day.” Sabi niya. Napasulyap naman ako sakanya at tumingin nang nagtatanong.

“I mean, aren’t we too much? Your papa Reihan told me that we’re being too strict with you.” Sabi niya pa. Pinigilan kong matawa dahil hindi bagay kay Dad na nag-so-sorry sa pagiging strikto niya.

“I am okay, dad.“ Maikli kong sagot pero nakita ko siyang tumayo at lumapit saakin.

“You can tell me everything, Hans. I wanna hear your thoughts.” Sabi niya kaya nakagat ko ang labi ko bago humarap sakanya. Napanguso ako at nagsalita.

“I just don’t like it po na because of how strict you are, people tend to baby me so much and thinks that I can do no wrong,“ Simula ko. Maybe this is the time to tell Dad what I feel sometimes. Hindi rin kasi ako nag o-open up sakanila kapag hindi sila nagtatanong. Good thing both of them knows me well when I want to say something, katulad ngayon.

“And, I don’t understand why am I not like the other normal kids? I mean, I can’t hang out with boys that you don’t know, I can’t stay up late and can’t drink with my friends. I mean, that’s okay with me but sometimes, I feel like I’m so out of touch in this world, Dad.“ Pag-amin ko. Nakita ko naman na napabuntong-hininga siya bago nagsalita.

“I’m sorry, anak. I just.. I just want to keep you safe. You’re too precious to us, masyado ka naming mahal ng papa Reihan mo to let you do things that can eventually harm you. Pero hindi na namin naiisip, na maybe, doing so, it can also harm you or put you in danger.” Napatango ako sa sinasabi ni Dad.

“We’re too careful with you because you’re our only son, the moment your papa Reihan saw you, I saw how he wanted to keep you and take care of you, and I did too. Life is not so good, Hans, and we want to keep you from bad things that can hurt you.” Sabi niya. Nalulungkot akong napangiti sa mga sinabi niya.

“But, Dad, keeping me from those bad things or experience that I can encounter, isn’t it just making me even more weak from those? What if I have to face something so complicated,” Like the bomb that tito Kalden told me. “Will it not be hard for me not knowing how to face it? You said it yourself, Dad. Life is not too kind, and ignorance will only make things hard for me.” Mahaba kong sabi at imbes na makita ko ang nalulungkot na emosyon niya ay kumunot ang noo ko nang ngumiti siya.

“I didn’t realize you became a smart kid already, I can’t accept that you’re already becoming an adult, Hans.” Sabi niya at hinawakan ako sa pisnge. “I understand what you said and you’re right, keeping you from those things will only make it hard for you to survive in this cruel world. So, when you turn twenty, I’ll let you do things I didn’t let you before, just make sure to be safe and avoid danger, alright?“ Napangiti ako sa sinabi ni dad at tumango-tango akong yumakap sakanya.

“At pwede mo na sabihin sakin na boyfriend mo ang Kaleb na iyon.“ Sabi niya na ikinanlaki ng mga mata ko dahil sa seryoso niyang tono. Kumalas ako sa yakap at napanguso.

“Dad naman ’e, tamang hinala ka nanaman. Hindi ko pa naman siya boyfriend.“ Sabi ko.

“Hindi pa? So magiging kayo talaga?“ Natapik ko ang bibig ko dahil sa narealize kong lumabas sa bibig ko. Natawa naman si dad.

“Paano na si Oasis niyan?“ Sabi niya na ikinainis ko. Si dad talaga!

“Daad! Kuya Oasis is like my brother!” Nagdadabog kong sabi at saktong pumasok naman si papa Reihan sa pinto ng kwarto at nakangiting tumingin saamin.

“Hi my beautiful baby and my gorgeous husband, hindi pa ba kayo male-late?“ Sabi niya at nakangiting lumapit kay dad at inayos ang necktie nito bago hinalikan sa labi. Nakangiti lang naman akong pinagmasdan sila hanggang sa pareho silang tumingin saakin.

“Can you believe that Hans is already becoming an adult, love?” Dad said. Lumapit naman saakin si papa Reihan at inayos ang buhok ko.

“Haay, it makes me so sad that my baby is already growing up so much. I’ll miss the Hans who cries because his dad Arken didn’t let him have an ice cream.“ Sabi niya na ikinanguso ko.

“Papa naman ’e, mag twenty na kaya ako.“ Reklamo ko. Natatawang tumango naman siya bago ako hinalikan sa noo.

“Yeah, yeah. Now the two of you really need to go, male-late na kayo.” Sabi pa niya at tumango naman kami ni dad bago parehong hinalikan siya sa magkabilaang pisnge. I kissed him on the right cheek at si dad naman sa kabila.

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Kaleb’s

Napangiti ako nang makita ko si Hans na nasa centro ng garden house na ginaganapan ng formal party na for politicians and businessmen ngayong gabi. He told me na he’s gonna be here but I didn’t tell him that I will also be here. I want to surprise him.

I saw him just patiently waiting to sing a song while the emcee is doing the opening remarks. Naglakad ako palapit sa isang cocktail table na malapit sa kung nasaan si Hans. Madali niya akong makikita rito mamaya. He has this mannerism kasi to search his eyes on the crowd when singing.

Pinagmasdan ko lamang siya habang nangingiti. He look so pretty with his attire. Bagay iyon sakanya. Bagay sa ganda ng mukha at katawan niya.

Ilang minuto pa ang lumipas bago ipinakilala ni tito Arken si Hans at saka ito nagsimulang kumanta.

“♪ The sun is setting

And you’re right here by my side ♪ ” Panimula ni Hans at hindi na napatid ang tingin ko sakanya. Mahinang nagpalakpakan ang karamihan sa narito at mahinang nag usap-usap.

He looks like a shining fairy at the center of this garden.

“♪ And the movie is playing

But we won’t be watching tonight

Every look, every touch

Makes me wanna give you my heart ♪ ” Patuloy ni Hans habang nakapikit bago ito nagmulat at umikot ang mga mata sa audience niya. Nakita kong hindi siya ngumingiti, indikasyon na medyo hindi siya komportable kaya kumaway ako nang madaanan ng mga mata niya ang pwesto ko.

Napangiti ako when I saw him smiled but confusion is also in his face. I even saw his eyes looked delighted when he saw me.

“ ♪ I

be crushin’ on you, baby

Stay the way you are ♪” His angelic voice sang and I can’t help but widely smile when I heard the lyrics. I didn’t know na kikiligin ako dahil lamang sa isang lyrics ng kanta. Well, it was sang by my pumpkin so it’s not that shocking.

I’m a sucker for him after all.

“♪ Cause I never knew, I never knew

You could hold moonlight in your hands

’Til the night I held you

You are my moonlight

Moonlight ♪” Lots of the crowd was wowed and clapped their hands when Hans hit all the high notes. Pati ako ay mahinang napapalakpak bago napasimsim sa hawak kong cocktail. Hindi naalis ang tingin ko sakanya ngunit may narinig akong usapan sa likod ko.

“Wow, I didn’t know Arken son has a talent.” Ani ng isang matandang boses.

“He’s also very handsome? Hmm, pretty is the right word, I guess.” Sabi naman ng isa. Ayoko na sana making pa pero iba kasi ang tono ng mga boses nila. Parang hanga sila pero hindi rin? I can’t explain it.

“Well, I wasn’t shock to know that his son is also gay, he was raised by two gays so that’s not shocking.“ Napairap ako nang tama ang hinala ko. Nagpatuloy si Hans sa pagkanta ngunit hindi natigil ang dalawang matanda na nag-uusap sa likod ko.

“Well hindi naman nakakapanghinayang, papasa pa rin naman siya bilang babae dahil sa itsura niya. Look at that kid, kahit ganyan kabata ay baka mapatulan ko kapag ganyan ang itsura.” Nag-init agad ang ulo ko sa narinig. My jaw tightened and I tried so hard not to get so angry. What a perverted old hag.

“Yeah, I can see that. Such a pretty child.“ I tsked and I couldn’t help but turned my head towards them and gave them a death glare. Napansin naman nila ako at agad tumahimik ang mga ito. It was Mr. Ramsy and Mr. Chiko. Old hags businessmen na umaasa lang naman sa talino at success ni tito Arken. Saan sila kumukuha ng kapal sa itsura nilang yan? Hindi na sila nahiya kay tito Arken.

“I heard that’s his boyfriend.”

“The Governor’s son? Such a scandal.” Rinig ko pang bulungan nila bago umalis sa likod ko. Napailing ako at muling tumingin kay Hans na nakatingin na rin saakin. My mood instantly lighted up and I smiled at him.

“♪ Sweet like candy

But he’s such a man

He knows just what it does

When he’s holding me tight

And he calls me “Pumpkin” too ♪ ” Pareho kaming napangiti nang malaki dahil sa huli niyang sinabi. My baby is really a tease.

Nakita kong lumapit sakanya si tito Arken at hinalikan siya sa pisnge. Lumapit rin ang i-ilang businessmen sakanila at nakita kong pinakilala siyang muli ni tito Arken sa mga ito. Nakipagngitian at kamayan naman si Hans sa mga ito habang pasulyap-sulyap saakin. Tinanguan ko siya bilang senyas na wag akong pansinin. I’m sure tito Arken knows what he’s doing.

Maya-maya ay natapos rin sila sa pagpapakilala at agad na lumapit saakin si Hans. I was just staring at him because I noticed that he’s wearing makeup.

“Kaleb! You didn’t tell me that you’re gonna be here!“ Nakanguso niyang sabi and I can’t help but lick my lips when I saw that he’s wearing something shiny on his luscious lips.

“What’s that on your lips?” Tanong ko. Napakurap naman siya bago sumagot.

“Lipgloss, hehe. I want to look good today so no one will say that dad Arken has an ugly son!” Hyper niyang sabi na ikinailing ko. I licked my lips again and swallowed when I felt my own erection because of how Hans look so good and smell so good right now.

“You’re always pretty, pumpkin. No need to put make up, ’coz that lipgloss on your lips looks very tempting. I want to erase it off of you using my mouth.” Mahaba kong sabi bago inabot ang ibabang labi niya gamit ang ilang daliri ko. Napanguso siya at napairap.

“Dad Arken will kill you if he see us like this.” Sabi niya. Aalisin ko na sana ang mga kamay ko nang may magsalita sa likod ko.

“Kaleb,“ Lumingon ako sa likod nang marinig ko ang boses ni Papa at napatingin ako sa dalawang kasama niya. Isang matandang babae at isang babae na mukhang kaedad ko.

“Pa,” Bati ko. Hindi na agad maganda ang kutob ko sa nakita. I saw my father looked at Hans and I did too. I saw how Hans can’t look at him so I spoke again. “What is it po?“ I asked.

Tumikhim muna siya bago nagsalita.

“Good thing that your friend is here, I would like to introduce you to Mrs. Villar and his daughter, Oceanna, your soon to be fiance.” Napatulala ako sa mukha ni Dad sa sinabi niya at hindi agad ako nakagalaw. Walang ibang pumasok sa isip ko kundi ang lumingon kay Hans and I saw him already looking at me too. Halos manghina ako nang makita ang kaguluhan at sakit sa mga mata niya.

“Oceanna Villar, nice meeting you, Kaleb Cabrera.“ Napatingin ako sa kamay na inabot saakin ng babaeng ipinakilala ni papa. Napatulala lang ako roon bago ko nakitang tumalikod si Hans kaya agad ko siyang tinawag.

“Pumpkin!“ Hahabulin ko sana siya ngunit agad akong pinigilan ni papa.

“Have some manners and accept her hand.” Matigas na sabi ni papa. Naiinis na napalunok ako bago muling napatulala sa kamay ng babaeng nasa harap ko.

I knew my father would do this, I thought I was prepared but he tricked me and played with me and Hans. Did he really have to do this in front of Hans?

Napalunok ako at muling nawala sakanila ang atensyon ko nang marinig kong muli ang boses ni Hans. Kumakanta na ulit ito ngunit kita kong nasa kawalan na ang atensyon niya. Fuck.

My father really knows how to fuck with me.

Mío

A/N:

Alat

ng

pangalang

Oceanna

ah 🤭

Dieciocho

Kaleb’s

“Pa, I won’t marry anyone. I already told you that.” Matigas kong sabi habang patingin-tingin sa palikid. Dinala ako ni Dad sa sulok nitong venue kung saan walang masyadong tao para kausapin ako dahil hindi ko tinanggap ang pakikipag kamay ng babaeng ipinakilala niya.

“And I also told you that she will just be your fiance, win the fucking election, kuhain mo ang pagmamahal at tiwala ng bayan na ito, and you can get rid of her.” Hindi ako makapinawalang napatitig sakanya dahil sa mga sinasabi niya.

“Are you serious? You want me to use her for this stupid election? Pa, why is it that you don’t trust me to win this election?” Naiinis kong tanong. Napailing naman siya at tumitig sa mga mata ko.

“You are competing against the Chavez this year,” Banggit niya sa apelido ng dating governor ng Quezon. “Alam mong hindi ako magiging Governor kung hindi ako tinulungan ng i-ilang mga malalakas na tao dahil kalaban ko noon ang isang Martin Chavez na mahal na mahal ng Quezon.” Matigas at seryos niyang sabi. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at parang gusto ko magwala sa sobrang inis.

Balita ko nga ay ilalaban ng dating governor ang anak niya ngayong darating na eleksyon. Hindi ko lang alam kung sino sa mga iyon dahil may tatlo siyang anak. Apat pala, ang isa ay anak niya sa labas, naging kaibigan ko dati ang isang yun. Si Monti Chavez.

Napabuntong-hininga ako at humarap ulit kay papa.

“But I am confident that I am gonna win this election, dad. You don’t need to worry about me, maipapanalo ko ito. For you, for us. I don’t wanna use someone just for this.” Pakiusap ko kay papa pero umiling siya.

“And if you don’t win? Are you ready for the consequences?” Napakunot ako sa tanong niya.

“What?“ I confusedly asked. I’m getting really frustrated right now. Sumulyap ako kung nasaan si Hans at nakita kong kumakanta pa rin siya.

“We can’t have a what if, Kaleb. You need to win, no matter what, no matter how, you will win.” He declared and all I could do is stare at him and have my heart tightened.

“Do you really have to do this, dad?” I hopelessly asked.

“Yes, now go back in there and accept the hand of that Villar woman. You know how wealthy they are, right?“ Sabi niya. Napipikong iniwas ko ang tingin sakanya. I know the Villar’s are the second richest here in the Philippines. They can really help me, but I don’t want to hurt Hans.

“After the election, I’m done with this.” Sabi ko bago tinalikuran si papa at lumakad palapit sa babaeng ipinakilala niya bilang Oceanna.

---

Hans

Tinapos ko ang huling kanta na kakantahin ko ngayong gabi at nagmamadaling naglakad papunta kay Dad na may mga kausap.

“Dad, bathroom alert.” Pagsisinungaling ko dahil nanghihina pa rin ako at hindi makapiwala sa narinig kong sinabi ni Tito Kalden sa harap namin ni Kaleb. He introduced a beautiful lady as Kaleb’s soon to be fiance.

I felt my heart tightening while remembering how tito Kalden looked at me earlier. Sure ako na sinadya niya iyon dahil gusto niya talagang layuan ko si Kaleb.

“The bathroom is in that way, ihatid ba kita, anak?” Tanong ni dad pero umiling-iling ako at nagmamadaling nagpaalam sakanya.

Nagkunwari akong pupunta sa bathroom pero agad akong lumiko nang hindi na nakatingin si dad Arken. Pupunta sana ako sa isang sulok nang may biglang humablot saakin at naglakad nang mabilis papunta kung saan.

“Kaleb!“ Saway ko sakanya nang patuloy niya akong hinila at tumigil lang kami nang nasa labas na kami ng garden kung saan ginaganap ang party. Nasa parking lot kami ngayon sa gilid ng kotse niya. Iniwas ko ang tingin ko sakanya nang humarap siya saakin.

“Pumpkin, I’m sorry.” Sabi niya ngunit napalunok lamang ako. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang mararamdaman ko sa narinig kanina. Kaleb will have a fiance.

“I didn’t know that Dad is serious about this fiance thing. He wants me to use that girl so that I will surely win this election.“ Paliwanag niya. Napakurap ako at mapatitig sa sahig na inaapakan ko.

Politics. It’s all about politics. All about his work. It has always been his work over me.

“I understand.“ Mahina kong sabi but I heard him groan. Lumapit siya saakin at hinawakan ako sa magkabilaang pisnge.

“Pumpkin, I don’t want to hurt you. You know that, right? S-She will be my fiance, for the meantime, after the election, I’m done with her.“ Napatitig ako sakanya at nalungkot ang puso ko sa isipin na kailangan niyang maging ganito dahil lamang sa politiko. I know it’s also hard for him.

“I will never touch her the way I touch you, I will never cherish her or anything, she will only be a tool I need to use. You’re the only one I will love, pumpkin. Please, be with me in this situation, I need you.” Habang pahaba nang pahaba ang mga sinasabi niya ay siyang pag higpit ng puso ko.

I don’t want to see him like this. So desperate for his father’s approval. Kaleb is a good person, I know that if he has a choice, he won’t choose to use someone just for politics. Nasasaktan ang puso ko sa isiping umabot kami sa ganitong sitwasyon dahil lang sa politiko. And I can’t blame his father, Kaleb needs to win or both of their lives will be in danger.

Ang masama lang, naiipit ako sa sitwasyon at hindi ko alam kung paano ko ito kakayanin. I don’t think I can do this but I also don’t want to leave Kaleb, I can’t.

“Kaleb, I can pretend that it’s okay for me, but will it be alright for you?” Tanong ko. Nakita kong natigilan siya bago dahan-dahang inuyuko ang ulo niya at ipinatong sa balikat ko.

“I don’t know anymore, pumpkin. I.. I feel so defeated by everything. Pakiramdam ko wala akong karapatang pumili, mamili kung anong klaseng tao ang gusto kong maging. I’m a puppet, Hans.” Mahina niyang sabi habang nakadantay ang ulo sa balikat ko. Napakurap ako at hinawakan ang buhok niya bago hinalikan ang ulo niya.

“I am here, I will always be here, Kaleb.” Habang sinasabi iyon ay naninikip ang dibdib ko.

Will I really be always here for him? Kakayanin ko ba? Can I really pretend that it is okay if his life is in another’s man hand?

“I love you so much, babe. You’re my escape in this chaotic life of mine. I don’t know what I will do without you, pumpkin.” Mahina niyang sabi habang titig sa mga mata ko. Pinilit kong ngumiti at tumango.

“I will love you forever, Kaleb.” Ani ko at nagpadala na lamang ako nang ipasok niya ako sa kotse niya at doon niya sinakop ang bibig ko.

Umupo siya sa backseat at ikinalong ako habang naghahalikan kami. Ipinalibot ko ang mga kamay ko sa batok niya at nilaliman lalo ang halikan namin.

As we deepen the kiss we are sharing, he started caressing my body and unbuttoning my pants. Hinayaan ko lamang siya at ginawa ko rin iyon sa suot niyang pan-itaas. Hindi napatid ang halikan namin habang hinuhubaran ang bawat isa.

Hinubad niya ang saplot ko sa ibaba ngunit iniwan niya ang pan-itaas ko. Aalisin ko sana iyon pero pinigilan niya ako.

“No, leave it. You look so sexy with it.“ Mahina niyang sabi bago muling sakupin ang mga labi ko. I groaned and started grinding my ass on his crotch. I felt it hard and hot.

Bumaba ang mga halik niya sa jawline ko pababa sa leeg ko. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at napapikit sa ginagawa niya. Naramdaman ko ang mga kamay niyang hinuhubad ang sarili niyang pants at nang mailabas niya ang malaki niyang ari ay saka lang siya tumigil sa paghalik sa leeg ko.

“Suck me, pumpkin. I like to see your lips covered with saliva and my cum.” Sabi niya na ikinahangos ko nang malalim. Muli kong nakagat ang labi ko bago ipinagkasya ang sarili ko na lumuhod para harapin ang nangangalit niyang alaga.

“Ah,” I moaned when Kaleb slapped my face with his rod.

“Stick your tongue out, babe.“ Sabi niya at mabilis akong sumunod. He slapped his cock on my tongue and I tasted his precum. Napalunok ako bago hinawakan ang sobrang tigas niyang alaga at dilaan iyon.

I started licking it from the base up to the tip and Kaleb was letting out groans after groans. Hinigpitan ko ang hawak sa ari niya bago tumingin sa mga mata niya at sinipsip ang side ng ari niyang maugat.

“Ah, Hans..” Napahawak siya sa buhok ko at namumungay na pinanuod lamang ang ginagawa ko sakanya.

I licked his shaft again while nibbling on its skin from time to time. Hindi ko rin pinabayaan ang tuktuk ng ari niya at nakagat ko ang labi ko bago ko ibinaba ang bibig ko sa dalawang bola niya. I licked it and Kaleb’s grip on my hair tightened so I did it again and again before sucking one of his balls.

“Ahhh, that feels so good, pumpkin. Fuck.” Mura niya kaya napangiti ako at naging proud pa sa sarili. Ginawa ko iyon nang paulit-ulit. I licked all of his shaft until he was telling me to put him whole inside my mouth. Nag e-enjoy pa sana akong paglaruan ang alaga niya ngunit nagulat ako nang pwersahang niyang isinalpak sa bibig ko ang kalakihan niya.

“Hgmm!” Reklamo ko pero I saw his face in daze probably because of too much pleasure. Hindi na ako nagulat pa nang pwersahang niya ring inilabas masok saakin ang ari niya habang mahigpit ang hawak sa buhok ko.

I adjusted my throat and looked at his handsome pleasured face while he’s fucking my mouth so hard that my saliva is already everywhere but we both don’t mind it.

“Fuck, your mouth is so warm, Hans. Ahh, fuck, I love seeing you like this.“ Ungol at sabi niya habang gumagalaw ang balakang niya para salubungin ang pagbaba-taas ng ulo ko sa kalakihan niya. Tanging impit na ungol lamang ang naisagot ko at nang lakasan niya pa ang mga ulos niya ay ramdam kong lalabasan na siya.

“You need to swallow it, pumpkin. I want you to swallow everything.“ Utos niya at iiling sana ako ngunit hindi na ako nakapagsalita pa nang isagad niya sa lalamunan ko ang ari niya at doon ipinutok ang lahat ng naipon niya.

“Ah, fuck! Fuck..” He groaned while still spurting his semen in my throat. Mahigpit pa rin ang hawak niya sa buhok ko at malalim pa rin ang ari niya saakin. Nang hugutin niya iyon ay agad niyang tinakpan ang bibig ko at ipinalunok saakin. Naluluha lamang akong nakatingin sakanya habang nilulunok ang lahat ng inilabas niya.

“Let me see,” Utos niya kaya inilabas ko ang dila ko at nakita ko ang ngiti niya bago ginulo ang buhok ko. “Good boy. Now sit on me, Hans.” Sabi niya at inalalayan niya akong makaupo sa lap niya. Napapalunok akong napatitig sakanya nang simulan niyang hubarin ang suot kong pan-itaas at saka niya nilamas ang dibdib ko.

“Your nipples looks so good, babe. How could you be this hot and innocent?” Ani niya. I licked my lips when he flicked his fingers on my nipples at impit akong napaungot nang dilaan at sipsipin niya ang isa roon.

“Kaleb..” Ungot ko at mas lalo niyang nilakasan ang pagsipsip sa utong ko. Nasabunutan ko ang buhok niya nang maramdaman ko ang dalawang kamay niya sa pang-upo ko.

“Kaleb,“ Muli kong ungot.

“Let’s do it here, pumpkin. I want you right now.“ Sabi niya bago may kinuha sa bulsa niya at binuksan iyon gamit ang bibig niya. I saw it was lubricant at nakita kong napangisi siya nang makita ang kaguluhan sa mukha ko.

“I’m always ready, babe.” Sabi niya at napaungot ako nang ilagay niya iyon sa entrada ko bago iyon kalikutin at dahan-dahang ipinasok saakin ang isa niyang daliri.

“You know sometimes, I want to fuck you with my dick while my fingers is still inside you.” Sabi niya habang titig saakin na ungot nang ungot dahil dinagdagan niya ang daliri niya sa loob ko. Napapikit ako at nakagat ang labi ko bago napaungol dahil sa sarap ng ginagawa niya.

“Ahh! Kaleb.. ohh..” Ungol ko habang nakapikit. Nagulat ako nang hugutin niya ang mga daliri niya saakin at pinaikot ako. Nakatalikod na ako ngayon sakanya at nasa leeg ko ang mga labi niya.

“Ride me like this,” He huskily said before entering me. Napapikit na lamang ako at dinama ang dahan-dahang pagpasok ng kalakihan niya saakin.

When it was already deep inside me, we were both panting as I started bouncing up and down on him. Humigpit ang hawak niya sa balakang ko at inalalayan ako.

“You feel so good, babe.” Kaleb grunted as I moaned. Binilisan ko ang ginagawa habang yakap-yakap niya na ako sa dibdib at ang mga labi niya ay nasa leeg ko malapit sa tenga ko, humahalik.

I can feel his hot breath against me while I endlessly ride him until we’re both cumming.

“You’re the only one for me, Hans.” Rinig kong ani niya sa gitna ng mga ungol namin habang pareho kaming nilalabasan.

Hindi ako kumibo at naramdaman ko ang mga halik niya sa pisnge ko. They were sweet and soft. Habang ginagawa niya iyon ay hindi ko namalayan ang butil ng luha ang tumulo mula sa mata ko.

“You are my home, Kaleb.” But I’m losing you as I am losing myself.

Mío

IyakanNa

Diecinueve

Hans

Today is my birthday. Every year, I expected my papa Reihan and dad Arken to open the door in my room and sing happy birthday for me while they’re holding a cake that is chocolate flavored because that’s my favorite. Hindi sila pumalya sa ganoong tradisyon kapag birthday ko. Pagkatapos non ay mag f-family celebrate kami hanggang hapon at susunduin ako ni Kaleb sa gabi para lumabas at i-celebrate ang birthday ko hanggang sa matapos ito ng alas dose ng hating gabi kasama siya.

That has always been my favorite happenings during my birthday every year.

But today, as I turn twenty, nagising ako sa pagbukas ni papa Reihan sa pinto habang nagbabangayan sila ni dad Arken. Naupo ako mula sa pagkakahiga at naguguluhang nagtanong.

“What’s happening, Pa, Dad?” Tanong ko. Bumuntong-hininga si papa Reihan at napailing si dad Arken.

“Hans Gabriel, what is this?” Dad Arken said and gave me the iPad he’s holding. Kinuha ko iyon at nakita ko ang isang article sa isang sikat na page at kumalabog ang dibdib ko sa nakitang title at pictures.

[

Son of Governor Kalden Cabrera, Kaleb Cabrera was seen kissing a guy in a parking lot amid his campaign for the upcoming election this year.

]

Napakurap-kurap ako sa nabasa at agad kong pinindot ang article at bumungad saakin ang sangkatutak na pictures namin ni Kaleb habang nasa parking lot kami noong isang gabi. This was the night I sang to everyone in that party.

Kita ang i-ilang kuha saamin na ipinasok niya ako sa kotse habang hinahalikan ako. Mabuti na lang at tinted ang kotse niya at hindi nakita kung ano pang ginawa namin sa loob. May i-ilang pictures rin doon kung saan yakap ko si Kaleb at nakadantay ang ulo niya sa balikat ko.

Lalong kumalabog ang dibdib ko nang makita ang pangalan ni dad Arken kakabit ng pangalan ko. Fuck. I should’ve known this would happen. Dapat ay nag ingat man lang ako.

“I’m s-sorry, pa, dad.” Mahina kong sabi habang ang isip ko ay lumilipad kay Kaleb na siguradong namomroblema na rin ngayon.

Paano na ang eleksyon?

“This is what I’ve been saying, Reihan. One way or another, Kaleb will drag our son down.” Matigas na sabi ni dad Arken at napayuko ako nang tawagin niya sa pangalan si papa Reihan. He’s really mad.

“They’re both in trouble right now, Arken. I don’t need you to react like this, they love each other. Right, Hans?” Pagalit rin na sabi ni Papa at napatingin lamang ako sakanya.

Love? Is this love? Was love supposed to be this scary and risky?

“You know too well that politics will hurt the both of them, Reihan, and love won’t save them this time.” Sabi ni Dad at napakurap-kurap na lamang ako sa kawalan. Umalis si dad Arken sa harap namin at napailing naman si papa Reihan bago umupo sa tabi ko.

“Anak, are you in a relationship with Kaleb?” Tanong niya at ilang segundo akong natameme bago umiling. Parang nagulat naman siya pero hindi niya iyon ipinahalata at nagtanong ulit.

“Is the pictures here not edited?” Ipinakita niya ulit saakin ang article at nahihiya akong umiling. Bumuntong-hininga si papa Reihan at humarap sakin lalo para ayusin ang buhok ko. Hinalikan niya ako sa noo at nakita ko kung paano naiiyak ang ekspresyon niya. Halos maluha rin ako sa nakita. He’s very worried.

“Hans, you’re already an adult, maybe still young, but nasa edad ka na. No one can punish you from loving someone, Hans. Always remember that, hm?” Sabi niya. Napatitig lamang ako kay papa.

Sa larangan ng business, kung hindi magaling at successful si dad Arken, a lot of people will point finger at him and judge him because of his orientation. Ganito sa Pilipinas, marami man ang tanggap na kuno ang ganitong preference, pero mas lamang ang mga mapanghusga at banal-banalang maraming nasasabi para manira. We will be a laughingstock. Mamaliitin nila kami.

If not for my dad Arken’s success, we will also suffer from their judgement lalo na at maraming tao ang involve sa negosyo niya. What more to Kaleb and tito Kalden? They’re both public figure and I am also a son of a well known businessman.

“Hans, I don’t like the look on your face, anak.” Natigilan ako nang makita ang butil ng luha na tumulo sa mga mata ni papa Reihan. Nangilid rin ang mga kuha ko ngunit hirap iyong tumulo.

“I ruined everything, pa. I ruined him.” Tanging nasabi ko at umiling-iling naman ang papa.

“No, no, don’t say that. I can see that both of you love each other. No one should dictate what’s right and wrong between the two of you. I support you with him, anak. I do. I’m sure your Dad also does, he’s just scared that this will be your biggest heartbreak and he’s not ready to see that.” Mahabang sabi ni papa. Napalunok ako at napayuko sa kamay kong hawak-hawak niya.

“Pa, Kaleb is running for Governor this year. Do you think people will still vote for him after this scandal? People are always quick to judge, pa.” Mahina kong sabi. Natahimik naman si papa at muling inayos ang buhok ko sa may bandang tenga.

“Porke ba nagmahal siya ng katulad niyang lalaki, hindi na credited yung sandamakmak niyang credentials? Anak, Kaleb has always been a good person and everyone knows that. I’m sure, enough people will still believe in him, after all, he’s fitted to be a Governor. His preferences shouldn’t be where they will based if he’s fitted on that position or not. Don’t you think so?” Ani niya pero malungkot akong nangingiti habang napapailing.

“He needs to win, pa. He should win or I will not forgive myself.” I will never. Buhay ang nakataya kapag hindi nanalo si Kaleb. Buhay ng papa niya at anong malay ko baka pati buhay niya?

“Anak, please don’t say that. He will win.” Papa said and gave me a warm hug. Naidantay ko ang mukha ko sa balikat ni papa at natigil kami nang muling pumasok si dad Arken. He looked at us with a lot of emotions in his eyes before giving his phone to papa Reihan.

“What?” Si papa Reihan bago kinuha ang selpon. Titingin na rin sana ako doon ngunit may nag pop up na bago sa article na binabasa ko sa iPad ni dad Arken.

[

Kaleb Cabrera’s unknown fiance, Oceanna Villar claimed on IG that all of the photos were edited.

]

Napatitig ako roon bago ko pinindot. I saw a screenshot of the said IG post.

[

I shouldn’t be announcing this since we decided to keep it a secret until the election is over, but since a lot of his politician enemies keeps ruining his image, I will say it here clear and brief.

I am Kaleb Cabrera’s fiance, my fiance is a good friend of Hans Gabriel

Ba

ltazar

and so am I. ALL OF THE PHOTOS WERE EDITED. My fiance and I is only a good friend of Hans and I am very sad to see that his enemies used an innocent person to ruin Kaleb’s image.

We will take legal actions if the photos were not taken down after this clarification. I hope this clears things up and let’s only spread positivity for this upcoming election! ]

Napatitig lamang ako sa mahabang mensaheng iyon. Hindi ko alam kung mababawasan ng tinik sa puso ko o mas lalo iyong madadagdagan.

Lies. All of it was lies. I didn’t even know her.

“Hans,” Papa called me.

“This is getting out of hands, Hans. I want to be involved.” Sabi ni dad Arken at napatayo ako habang umiiling. Lumapit ako sakanya at nagsalita.

“Dad, no, it’s okay. L-Let things be, mas o-okay na ho ito. Wag na tayo magsalita, please.” Pakiusap ko kay Dad habang nanginginig. He looked at me before sighing. Kita ko ang awa at pag-aalala sa mga mata ng ama ko.

“Hans, this is the reason why I hated seeing you with that guy even tho I know you love each other. He will keep hurting you, this is only the begining.” Sabi niya at hindi ako nakakibo. Gustong umiyak ng puso ko pero ayaw iyon ng mga mata ko. Tanging panghihina na lamang ang nararamdaman ko.

Dad is right.

---

Hindi maalis ang mga mata ko sa notification sa instagram ko. Oceanna followed me and also message me.

Follow me so they won’t say anything.

Sabi niya sa message at agad ko iyong ginawa. Napalunok ako at tiningnan ko muli ang post niya na may picture pa ng kamay nila ni Kaleb with rings.

When did they take this?

Nabaling ang mga mata ko sa mga comments.

[ Wow, I never thought na may fiance pala si sir Kaleb. Masyado kasi siyang mysterious! Anyway, congratulations po! ]

[ Kaya naman pala ni-lowkey kasi masyadong big person ang fiance! Maganda pa! Baka

maagaw

, haha. ]

[ So relieved na hindi totoo iyong sakanila nung Hans, hindi talaga bagay kay sir Kaleb na maging bading. No offense pero mas bagay siya sakin, ems! Congrats po! ]

[ Balita ko ay spoiled brat iyong Hans! Kaya raw laging kasama si sir Kaleb dahil hind

makatiis

si sir na hindi ito pag bigyan sa mga

hanash

niya! Taken for granted

kabaitan

ni Gov… ]

Nakagat ko ang labi ko sa mga sinasabi nila at nanghihina akong napahangos. Parang gusto kong magwala at mag tantrums katulad ng ginagawa ko lagi kapag hindi ko kinakaya ang inis at galit pero alam kong hindi ko pwedeng gawin iyon ngayon. Isasara ko na sana iyon nang may mahagip pa akong isang comment na nakakuha ng interes ko.

[

Lol!

Naniwala

naman kayo! Palagi kong nakikita si sir Kaleb kasama si Hans at sobrang sweet nila lagi,

hatid-

sundo

sa school at bahay kahit na malayo ang bahay nito ni Hans.

Alagang-alaga

yan ni Gov! Kilala rin si Hans rito sa school namin at kahit lalaki ay mas maganda naman yun! Anak

mayaman

pero walang masyadong

hanash

! Masaya si Gov. sakanya! Sila ni sir Kaleb at walang

makakapag

pabago

sa

paniniwala

ko! Period! ]

Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako o ano nang mabasa ko iyon. I clicked it and napakurap ako nang deleted na iyon agad. Oceanna probably already deleted it. Dinedelete niya siguro ang mga ganoong comment.

Natigil ako nang makita ang text ni Kaleb na nag pop up. Kanina ko pa iyon hinihintay at ngayon lang dumating.

I’m on my way to your house. Come outside. Sa kubo.

Agad akong lumabas at pumunta sa kubo nang mabasa iyon. Hindi ko alam pero kahit ganito ang sitwasyon ay gusto kong marinig ang boses niya, makita siya para maibsan ang bigat sa dibdib ko.

I want to hear it from him that all of this isn’t true. Na Hindi totoo lahat ng post ni Oceanna kahit alam kong hindi naman talaga iyon totoo. I want to hear it from him. I want him to give me assurance that all of her post is only for his name to be cleared up.

Natigilan ako at nakagat ko ang labi.

Cleared up from what? From my stain because people can’t accept that the one he loves is also a man? Napakurap ako at lalong bumigat ang dibdib ko. Pumasok ako sa kubo at sumampa sa foam at naupo sa gilid.

Hinintay ko si Kaleb at nang makarating siya ay agad kaming nagkatitigan. I stared at his face and he look so stressed. Gulo-gulo ang buhok niya, maitim ang ilalim ng mga mata at halatang pagod ito.

“Pumpkin,” Nakagat ko ang labi ko nang halos maluha ako nang marinig ko ang boses niya. Agad niya akong niyakap nang mahigpit at gumaan kahit papaano ang loob ko non.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry, pumpkin. I’m sorry I dragged you into this. I’m sorry that everything seems to be a lie right now, I’m very sorry, Hans.” He murmured repeatedly while hugging me so tight. Ramdam ko ang panginginig sa boses niya at hindi agad ako nakapagsalita.

I know he’s also hurting.

“Pumpkin, I don’t know what to do anymore.” Tuluyan akong natameme nang pumiyok siya at naramdaman ko ang basa sa balikat ko. He’s crying.

“Please don’t leave me, babe. Please stay with me.” Pakiusap niya. Napalunok ako at pilit na nagsalita.

“I’m here, Kaleb.” Mahina kong sabi ngunit mapait akong napangiti sa sarili. Will I always be here? Will I really be here for him? Ngayon pa nga lang ay gusto ko na umatras sa lahat ng nangyayari.

Is it okay to think that Kaleb is being selfish begging me to stay in this mess? Does he even care if I can do it? Kung kaya ba ito ng isang tulad ko?

But isn’t it also selfish for me to keep him from the truth about what his father said to me? I know Kaleb is almost at his lowest right now, and I shouldn’t leave him and be with him. Pero hanggang kailan ko kakayanin ang ganitong sitwasyon?

Is it even worth it?

“I love you. I love you so much, pumpkin.” Napatulala na lamang ako nang marinig ang mga iyon.

He really knows how to make me stay even when I am already hurting.

Umalis siya sa pagkakayakap saakin at hinawakan ang magkabilang pisnge ko. Pinunasan ko ang luha sa mga mata niya at pilit naman siyang ngumiti saakin.

“I brought something for you, let me just get it in the car. Naiwan ko kasi kakamadali.” Sabi niya bago ako hinalikan sa labi at nagmamadaling lumabas. Hindi na ako nakakibo pa dahil sa bigat ng dibdib ko.

I want to tell him how I really feel. I want to tell him that everything is too much for me. Ni hindi maproseso ng utak ko ang kabuoan na nangyayari dahil sa bigat ng nararamdaman ko. I didn’t know that I’ll be able to feel this kind of pain again.

The first time I felt this way was when my mother didn’t want to accept me when I escaped the orphanage to be with her. Akala ko matatakasan ko na ang ganitong sakit dahil nasa mabuting pamilya na ako at kasama ko na si Kaleb.

Siya rin pala ang magpaparanas saakin nito. Pero wala akong lakas iwan siya sa ere. I know a lot is on his shoulder right now and leaving him will only make it worst.

Natigil ako sa pag-iisip nang pumasok si Kaleb na may dalang cake sa mga kamay niya. May kandila iyon sa ibabaw at imbes na doon matuon ang mga mata ko ay sa mukha niya ako napatitig.

“Happy Birthday to my pumpkin. I can’t sing because my voice sounds like a robot, but happy happy birthday, babe.” He said as the candle light was reflecting on both of his eyes. He was glowing in my eyes and I couldn’t help but blame my heart for loving him to the point that the mere sight of him makes everything better for me.

Kahit na alam kong hindi maayos dahil sa politikong pinapasok niya. Kahit na alam kong may Oceanna na, kahit na alam kong pinapalayo ako ng papa niya sakanya. His presence makes me feel like those problem doesn’t even exist.

Why am I like this?

“I love you so much, Kaleb.” Tanging nasabi ko sa nakangiti niyang mukha.

“Sorry that I ruined your birthday, gusto ko sana ay mag night market tayo ngayon tapos ipapaalam kitang saamin matutulog. Pero hindi ata ngayon posible iyon kaya birthday cake na lang at itong favorite fruit tea mo.” Malungkot niyang sabi at inginuso pa ang dala niyang dalawang fruit tea na malamang ay raspberry flavor dahil paborito ko iyon. Pilit akong ngumiti at umiling sakanya.

“It’s okay, we need to be careful for you to win. After the election, everything will be back to normal, right, Kaleb?” Sabi ko at lumaki ang ngiti niya bago tumango-tango.

“Of course. No more lies, no more mess between us, pumpkin.” Sabi niya at agad akong umasa roon. I really hope so.

“Can you make a wish for me, babe?” Sabi niya habang nakatitig saakin.

“Ano yun?” Tanong ko.

“Make a wish that after this election, we will be official and no one can separate us anymore.” Sabi niya bago inilapit saakin ang cake na may candle. Napangiti ako sa sinabi niya at kahit wala sa oras ay nakagat ko ang labi sa tuwa at kilig.

Be official with him? I can’t wait for that to happen.

Tumango ako at pumikit bago hiniling ang pareho naming gusto. Pagmulat ko ay bago ko pa man maihipan ang kandila ay namatay na ito nang kusa dahil sa hangin. Nawala ang ngiti ko at napakamot ng ulo si Kaleb.

“I will light it up again.” Sabi niya ngunit mapait na lamang akong napangiti.

I think that’s a sign that everything will turn south, Kaleb. We will lose each other.

Mío

#🤔

A/N:

Nabitin

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habulan

scenes

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Arken Needs diba, pwes dito magsasawa tayo sa habulan! Nyahahhaha

Veinte

2 MONTHS TIME SKIP…

How can you say that you love someone

you can’t tell is dyin’?

I sent you signals and bit

my nails down to the quick

My face was gray, but you wouldn’t admit

that we were sick ♪

Hans

Inip akong napatingin sa labas habang nakaparada ang sasakyan na minamaneho ni Dad sa labas ng isang coffee shop. Sinamahan niya akong mamili ng mga damit na kakailanganin ko para sa trip namin to New York next week at pauwi na rin kami pero bumibili muna siya ng meryenda. One week lang naman ang trip to New York namin at napag usapan na rin namin iyon ni Kaleb and kahit ayaw niya ay wala kaming magagawa dahil birthday ni tita Ainee na kapatid ni dad Arken. She wants us there dahil may ipapakilala rin daw itong lalaki na ang rinig ko ay fiance niya na. Dad Arken also wants to be there for his sister.

Mula sa sasakyan kung saan ako nakaupo ay idinantay ko ang ulo ko sa salamin ng kotse at napatitig ako sa isang malaking poster na nakita kong nakadikit sa isang mataas na gusali.

It’s Kaleb’s campaign poster. Last week was the start of the official campaign period so they can engage with voters to let them know their platforms. Nagkalat na ang mga poster ng mga tatakbo ngayong taon and I keep seeing Kaleb’s face everywhere.

Not that I am complaining but everytime I see his poster like this. Naalala ko ang sitwasyon namin. Sa dalawang buwan ay wala masyadong nagbago sa kinalalagyan naming sitwasyon. The only thing that changed is I can’t be seen with him publicly anymore. Because everytime we’re in public, the scandal about our kissing photos will always stir up and Oceanna will have to defend us everytime. Kinekwestyon na rin ng mga fans or voters kung bakit tanging si Oceanna lang ang nagsasalita at hindi si Kaleb. Kaya’t hindi na talaga kami pwedeng magkita in public.

Hindi naman masyadong naging problema si Oceanna. Maybe because she also really thinks that me and Kaleb are only friends. Pero hindi niya rin ako iniintindi or mine-message kapag hindi patungkol kay Kaleb. She’s a snob, and she looks at me like I am no one. Sa tuwing magkasama sila ni Kaleb ay nasisiraan ako ng ulo sa selos ngunit wala akong magawa. I can only get mad and feel defeated by everything.

Ang tanging kinakapitan ko sa sitwasyon na ito ay ang mga pangako at assurance ni Kaleb na peke ang lahat. He’s only using Oceanna, the fiance thing will end after the election. He said the only truth right now is his affection for me, his feelings, his love.

Pero habang patagal nang patagal. I am also becoming a two faced person. I am the one that’s becoming a fake. I care a lot about everything that is happening, it’s hurting me a lot, it’s taking a tool in me but I am always lying about my feelings to Kaleb. He thinks that everything is okay and that I understand everything.

I do. I do understand. I just can’t accept it na walang hinanakit sakanya. I want to be weak in front of Kaleb, but everytime I’m with him, ramdam ko ang panghihina niya at hindi ko iyon pwedeng sabayan. Our relationship right now is fucked up and we’re both pretending that everything will be okay, because we don’t have a choice, we can’t leave each other even tho we’re both hurting.

Hindi naalis ang titig ko sa poster ni Kaleb kung saan napapailing ako kung gaano iyon kapeke. He’s wearing a white polo shirt and he’s formally smiling at the camera. He look so clean, parang hindi siya ang lalaking gabi-gabi akong dinadalaw para sakupin ang sistema ko.

He’s a cheater to his fiance, and I am his accomplice.

Pinunasan ko ang tumulong butil ng luha sa pisnge ko at natawa sa sarili.

“Wow, I even shed a tear just because you’re making me your other man, Kaleb.” Bulong ko sa hangin nang hindi makapaniwala.

Umayos ako nang upo nang pumasok si dad Arken ng kotse na may dalang box ng cake at coffees. Sinulyapan ako nito at ngumiti.

“Sorry natagalan, ’nak.” He said at umiling naman ako.

“It’s okay, dad.” Ani ko at tiningnan ang selpon ko nang pinaandar na ni Dad ang kotse. Nakita ko ang ilang text ni Kaleb pero hindi ko iyon pinansin at binuksan ko ang text ni kuya Oasis.

Suntok sa buwan na kumontak pa saakin si kuya Oasis kaya agad ko iyong binuksan sa pagtataka. Hindi na kasi ako nito pinapansin dahil siguro sa nangyari sakanila ni Kaleb noong huling kita nila. Hindi ko na rin naman siya pinapansin dahil ayaw ni Kaleb. Pero hindi naman natigil ang paghahatid niya ng pagkain saakin sa school, sa ibang student niya na nga lang ipinapaabot iyon.

Hans, can we meet tomorrow? I just want to tell you something important.

Basa ko sa text niya at napabuntong-hininga akong isinara ang selpon. Ano naman kaya ang sasabihin ni kuya Oasis? Dalawang buwan niya rin akong hindi kinulit.

Hindi ko na ulit pinansin ang selpon ko hanggang sa makarating kami sa bahay.

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Kaleb’s

I looked at my unread messages for Hans and my heart tightened knowing he’s ignoring me again. Napalunok na lamang ako at hinarap si Oceanna na kanina pa daldal nang daldal.

“Are you even listening to me?” Tanong niya at agad akong umiling.

“No. I’m not interested.” Naiinis kong sagot dahil ganito siya lagi. Epal nang epal sa mga gusto kong projects kapag nanalo ako bilang Governor.

“Kaleb, may I remind you that you need me to win this election? You need to listen to me.” Naigalaw ko ang panga ko nang sabihin niya nanaman iyon. Rinding-rindi na talaga ako sa lahat. Itong putanginang eleksyon na ito ang dahilan kung bakit nagbabago si Hans. He’s not the pumpkin I know before. He’s becoming more nonchalant day by day. I am so close to fucking give up everything and just be with him so I can stop hurting him. Konting-konti na lang masisiraan na ako ng bait tuwing makikita kong nasasaktan ko si Hans ngunit wala akong magawa dahil talunan ako sa sitwasyong ito. I can’t even defend him on the fucking internet.

“Oceanna, may I also remind you that your company- that your parents is not willing to help you with- needs me or it will go down like nothing?” Sagot ko sakanya at nakita ko ang pangangalaiti niya sa narinig. Tumayo siya at dinuro ako.

“Kung hindi lang masyadong aliw na aliw sayo ang mga magulang ko? Matagal ko ng sinira ang image mo sa publiko! Your boy bitch and you, needs to behave, you need to behave because I am still helping you! You are here because you need me!” Agad na uminit ang dugo ko sa sinabi niya habang tinutukoy si Hans. Oceanna knows because I told her that I am in love with Hans and she will only be a tool that I will use. Alam na alam niya iyon at kaya lamang siya pumapayag sa sitwasyon na ito because her parents are also bullying her. Talunan rin siya sa pamilya niya and she seeks validation that’s why she’s also using me for her company and for her parents to be proud of her at least.

“Say that to Hans again and I will tell your parents about your company that is going down.” Ani ko at nakita ko agad ang pamumutla niya. Napairap ako at tumayo sa sofa na kinauupuan ko. Why does she even need to visit me here in my office everyday? Pambihira rin ang isang ’to, kahit anong taboy ko ay pilit isinisiksik sa utak niya na talagang ikakasal kami.

“Don’t ever mention Hans ever again, Oceanna. I am only tolerating your shit because I still need you for this fucking election. You will be the one to behave and we will have no problem.” Giit ko at tinalikuran siya. Lumabas ako ng opisina ko at pumunta sa parking lot. Sumakay ako ng kotse ko at nag drive papunta sa bahay nila Hans. Bago pa man iyon ay tumigil muna ako sa isang tea shop para mag order ng fruit tea na paborito niya. Bumili na rin ako ng burger para may makain siya.

Habang pabalik ako sa kotse ko ay natigil ako sa nakitang poster sa isang poste. Napatitig ako roon at nangunot ang noo ko sa sobrang taka.

Monti Chavez? What?

Ito iyong Chavez na dati kong naging kaibigan nung ten years old or twelve years old pa lang ata ako, anak siya sa labas ng dating Governor Chavez. Siya pala ang ilalaban nila?

Then why was Dad so scared that I might lose? Hindi naman siguro ako matatalo ng isang anak sa labas. Well, no offense but I know na mahirap kalaban ang mga Chavez lalo na at mahal sila ng Quezon dahil matagal bago napalitan ang mga ito sa posisyon. Tanging si Dad ang nakagawa noon with the help of big people. Pero wala naman masyado nakakakilala kay Monti dahil itinago rin ito dahil anak nga sa labas.

Napailing ako at nainis sa isiping masyadong napapraning si Dad. I really think that the thing about Oceanna isn’t needed kung si Monti lang naman ang makakalaban kong Chavez.

Sa isiping iyon ay para akong nabunutan ng tinik na bumyahe papunta sa bahay nila Hans. Nang makarating ako ay agad ko siyang tinawagan. Matagal bago siya sumagot at agad ko siyang inaya papunta sa kubo. He said okay and hanged up the phone immediately. Napailing na lamang ako dahil nag iba na talaga ang ugali ni Hans.

He’s not my sweet and innocent pumpkin anymore and I know why. I’m hurting him. Alam kong masyado akong nagiging makasarili pero paano ko iyon mababago when all I want is him? I am a loser, I know. Masyado akong talunan sa sitwasyon at pilit kong hinihila pababa si Hans kasama ako. Pero konting tiis na lang, kapag nanalo ako bilang Governor ay babalik kami sa dati. I will bring back the Hans that I changed, I will bring him back and we will be happy again. We will be together officially and every lies between us will not matter anymore. Sa ngayon, kailangan muna namin magtiis.

Agad akong ngumiti at inalis sa ulo ko ang mga iniisip nang makita ko si Hans na pumasok sa kubo. He’s wearing a pajama short and a simple white shirt. Napaka simple pero laging maganda.

“Pumpkin,” Agad ko siyang nilapitan at hinalikan sa pisnge at labi bago inabot ang binili ko para sakanya.

“Why are you here?” Tanong niya pero pinilit kong hindi mawala ang ngiti sa mga labi ko. I stared at his pretty face as I am hurting so much for the way his cerulean blue eyes looked at me. Emotionless like he doesn’t care anymore.

“I missed you. I’ve been so stressed because of work and I need you. Tyaka, a-alis ka ng bansa for a week diba? Kailangan natin sulitin magkasama bago ka umalis, panigurado busy na rin ako pagbalik mo dahil sa campaign.” Mahabang sabi ko habang inaayos ang straw para sa fruit tea niya. Nakatusok ko na iyong ibinigay sakanya at binuksan ko rin ang burger para makain niya.

“Hm, I miss you too, Kaleb.” He said and I can’t help but secretly bitterly smile because of how it sounds. It sounds so nonchalant and without any romance at all. Napalunok ako at muli kong inilapit sa labi ko ang mukha niya para halikan siya sa noo.

“I have a good news for you, pumpkin.” Ngiti ko. Tumingin naman siya saakin nang nagtatanong habang humihigop sa fruit tea. Napangiti ako sa itsura niya bago muling nagsalita.

“You know the biggest threat that’s why Dad think I’m gonna lose the campaign, right?” Sabi ko at nakita ko kung paano nangamba ang mga mata niya. Tumigil siya sa pagsipsip sa straw at nagugulat na tumingin saakin. Naguluhan naman ako.

“W-What?” Sabi niya. Napakurap naman ako bago nagsalita ulit.

“The Chavez? Kasi halos hindi nga manalo dati sakanila si dad, right? Need niya gumamit ng malalaking tao for him to win, and he thinks that I also need it to win kaya nga, n-nanjan si Oceanna.” Paliwanag ko at napakurap-kurap naman siya bago napailing at nagsalita.

“Akala ko kung ano, so what about it?” Sabi niya at nagtaka naman ako pero sinagot ko na lang ang tanong niya.

“I know who’s Chavez I am competing with, hindi ko kasi chineck because of busy schedules pero yung Monti Chavez lang pala, that guy will not win against me, Quezon doesn’t even know about him.” Sabi ko at sumulyap naman siya saakin.

“He’s my classmate. Monti.” Sabi niya. Nagulat naman ako.

“Really?” I asked and he nodded. “I know him too, he was my friend but when he found out he was a Chavez, hindi ko na siya nakita ulit.” Sabi ko at parang nakuha ko naman ang atensyon niya.

“He found out?” Taka niyang tanong.

“Anak kasi siya sa labas, kaya medyo malaki na siya nang malaman niyang anak siya ng dating Governor Chavez. Anyways, with that information, pwede ko iyon ipagkalat and I can finally cut ties with the Villar’s at sure na mananalo pa ako.” Masaya kong sabi. “Do you get me, pumpkin? I can finally get rid of Oceanna and all the lies, tapos sure pa na mananalo na ako-”

“Don’t. Let things be. Masaya ang Quezon na may Chavez ulit na tatakbo, keep using Oceanna so you will surely win. All of the business owners here in Quezon will vote for you kasi alam nilang konektado ka sa mga Villar and they can use that so their little business will grow. Mga sipsip so you should take advantage of it, don’t think of anything that will ruin everything.” Putol niya sa sinasabi ko. Napatitig ako sakanya kung gaano siya kaseryoso magsalita. Hindi ko naalis ang tingin sakanya nang humigop siya ulit sa straw ng iniinom niya at nakita ko ang konting panginginig ng labi niya.

Napakurap ako at napahangos nang malalim. Hans is hiding something from me. Matagal ko na iyong napapansin na parang may iniiwasan siyang sabihin saakin at parang may alam siya the way he accept things so easily. Lalo na iyong about kay Oceanna. He accepted it so easily like he knows something I don’t.

Ngayon naman ay ayaw niyang gumawa ako ng paraan para mawala na ang babaeng iyon sa pagitan namin.

What’s up with him?

Mío

A/N:

Taylor pasok!

“Do something, babe, say something” (say something)

“Lose something, babe, risk something” (you’re losin’ me)

😜

Veintiuno

Hans

Tinitigan ko ang text ni kuya Oasis sa selpon ko at napapabuntong-hininga akong bumangon para mag ayos.

Susunduin niya raw ako at mag-uusap kami. I don’t know what he wants but I am too tired to care. Wala naman akong ibang gagawin ngayong araw kundi humilata because it’s Sunday and I don’t have anything to do. Busy si Kaleb sa kampanya at si dad and papa naman ay busy rin sa trabaho. Ayaw kong mag-isip ng mga makakapanakit saakin kaya kikitain ko na lang rin si kuya Oasis.

I haven’t had a fresh breathe for so long and I want it now. Hindi ko na lang siguro ipapaalam kay Kaleb na nakipagkita ako kay kuya Oasis. Wala naman kaming gagawing masama.

Naligo ako at nagbihis bago nag ayos nang kaunti. I wore a lavender oversized shirt and I paired it with a brown above the knee shorts. Nag men sandals lang rin ako at pitaka at selpon ko lang ang dinala ko bago lumabas ng bahay. Hindi ko na kailangan pa magpaalam kay dad Arken at Papa dahil ngayong twenty na ako ay hinahayaan na nila ako sa mga gusto kong gala basta raw ay u-uwi ako ng walang galos at buong-buo pa rin.

The two of them have been my support system since the fiance thing of Kaleb was publicized. They know what I am going thru and they still didn’t fail to make me feel loved despite dad Arken’s detest about my situation. Ayaw na ayaw ni dad na naapi raw ako but Kaleb and I talked to him about the situation and he barely agreed.

Naghintay ako sa bukana ng resort namin at nang makita ko ang kotse ni kuya Oasis ay inantay ko iyon hanggang nasa harap ko na siya mismo. Lumabas siya ng kotse at ngumiti ako sakanya nang ngumiti siya saakin.

“I missed you, Hans.” He said and I didn’t budge when he kissed me on my forehead. Napangiwi na lang ako at tumango sakanya.

“Me too, kuya.” Sabi ko bago niya ako alalayan papasok sa kotse niya.

“So, where do you want to go?” Tanong niya. Nagkibit-balikat naman ako. Ang gusto niya ay sa bahay na lang kami mag-usap pero sinabi ko sakanya kanina na I want a road trip para mahanginan naman ang utak kong gulo-gulo na simula nang kumalat ang pictures namin ni Kaleb.

“Where do you want to take me?” Sagot ko at nakita ko siyang napatitig saakin. Pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay at natawa siya.

“Wow, dati hindi ka nakakasagot ng ganyan saakin. Ahh, I really missed you.” Sabi niya na ikinailing ko. He’s overreacting. Pinaandar niya ang kotse at nagsalita muli siya.

“I was so busy these past few months so I couldn’t visit you at your school, Hans.” Sabi niya. Sinagot ko naman siya para lang may mapag-usapan kami.

“Kahit busy ka dati, nagagawa mo pa rin akong inisin araw-araw, kuya Oasis. What were you doing these past few months?” Tanong ko. He chuckled before answering.

“I was in New York, for work. Kakauwi ko lang last day and..” Napasulyap naman siya saakin at parang iniisip ko ipapatuloy niya ang sasabihin. Pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay.

“What?” Nagulat ako na nasa ibang bansa pala siya pero hindi naman na iyon bago sa trabaho niya.

“I just saw the announcement of Kaleb’s fiance, also.. the scandal the both of you were in.” Sabi niya na parang nag-aalangan. Napairap naman ako at napasandal sa kinauupuan ko.

“Yeah, everything is okay now.” Sagot ko sakanya kahit na alam kong malayong-malayo sa okay ang sitwasyon namin ngayon.

“Are you really okay? Akala ko, ikaw ang gusto ni Kaleb?” Tanong niya na ikinatahimik ko nang ilang segundo.

Yeah, he loves me, and that love is ruining the both of us.

“Everything is a lie, kuya Oasis. Anyway, did you fetch me to talk about this?” Pag-iiba ko sa usapan. Umiling naman siya at nakita kong bumalik ang ngiti niya kanina.

“This is the first time you didn’t want to talk about Kaleb.” Natatawa niyang sabi at napairap na lang ako sakanya. Pinigilan niya naman matawa bago muling nagsalita.

“Anyway, you turned twenty, right? I’m sorry I wasn’t here, masyado talaga akong naging busy, one of our artists got involved in a very big scandal.” Sabi niya. Talent agency kasi ang trabaho ni kuya Oasis. He’s a talent manager of an entertainment agency, he also scout talents like influencers, actress or actors etc.

“Yeah, I turned twenty already. What about it?” Sabi ko. Tumango naman siya at tumigil kami sa isang boulevard. Hindi naman kami bumaba at inabutan niya lang ako ng pagkain na kanina pa ata nasa backseat. Humarap siya saakin at humangos pa na parang kinakabahan.

“So, like what I’ve said, isa sa mga sikat na artist namin, nasangkot sa malaking gulo, he’s in jail right now for attempted murder.” Sabi niya at nagulat naman ako. Sikat ang agency nila pero wala naman ako nabalitaan.

“Who?” Tanong ko.

“Artist namin sa New York, kaya nga nandon ako ’e. He’s an influencer slash model, and fuck, he has a lot of contracts going on this year and if not met, I’ll be in jail too. I’m his talent manager and that fucker is pulling me down with him.” Sabi niya na napapasabunot pa sa ulo. Napaharap ulit siya sa manibela at napahawak sa ulo niya sa sobrang stress. Napakurap naman ako.

“And why are you saying this to me? I’m not a lawyer, kuya Oasis.” Sabi ko dahil kung makukulong siya ay need niya ng abogado para hindi iyon matuloy. I am also worried about him, panigurado ay malulungkot sila tito Liam at tito Eli kapag nangyari nga ito.

“This is why I want to talk to you, all of his contracts needed to be pass to someone. Ang kaso ay wala akong artist na pwede sa mga contracts niya.” Lumapit siya saakin at kinuha ang kamay ko na may hawak na shawarma na ibinigay niya.

“I want you to do it, Hans.” Sabi niya at nanlaki naman ang mga mata ko.

“Me? Ako? Kuya, I don’t know anything about the entertainment industry.” Nagugulat kong sabi. Umiling-iling naman siya at lalong hinigpitan ang hawak sa mga kamay ko. Halos lumuwa na ang mga laman ng shawarma na hawak ko dahil sa hawak niya saakin.

“Hans, you can do it. I really need your help, the fashion show will be held this October in New York, may oras pa to train you, we are talking about the major fashion week, Hans. I really need you. Please.” Pakiusap niya.

“Teka-teka,” Inalis ko ang pagkakahawak niya sa mga kamay ko at kunot noo ko siyang tiningnan. “Kuya, I’m Hans, the Hans you know will not model or anything. I don’t even know shit about it.” Paliwanag ko sakanya pero umiling siya ulit.

“Hans, you have the looks, you have the perfect body and I’m sure enough you will have the talent if trained enough. Please, Hans. I don’t wanna go in jail, isa lang iyon sa shows na kailangan siya. Three months, Hans, you will be trained for three months and that’s a lot of time to learn already.” He said in a begging tone. He sounds so desperate.

“Kuya, I have school, and sa New York yun, sa tingin mo, papayagan ako ni Dad?” Ani ko.

“I will talk to him. Kailangan na kailangan ko talaga, Hans. Need ko lang matapos ang contract niya and my misery will end, I really need your help.” He desperately said. Napatango na lamang ako.

“If Dad said yes, then fine.” Sabi ko dahil sure ako na hindi papayag si dad Arken. Ayaw na ayaw n’on kay kuya Oasis and Papa won’t let me stop for school too. Gusto ko man tulungan si kuya Oasis, I know na hindi ko naman kaya ang gusto niyang ipagawa saakin. And Kaleb will throw a big fit if he gets to know this. I’m sure may iba pa naman makukuha bukod saakin si kuya Oasis.

“Thank you, Hans. Thank you very much.” Sabi niya at tumango na lamang ako. Kinain ko ang ibinigay niya saaking pagkain at maya-maya ay nag desisyon ulit kaming mag joy ride.

Inikot lang naman namin ang Quezon hanggang sa may nakita kaming karenderya na nagtitinda ng paborito kong pares. Ipinarada ni kuya Oasis ang kotse niya at bumaba kami para kumain sa karenderya na nasa tabi mismo ng daan.

He ordered two bowls of pares and we waited for it to be served to us. Nang ma serve saamin ay nagsimula kaming kumain habang nagke-kwentuhan.

“What have you been doing these past few months, Hans?” Tanong ni kuya Oasis.

“Nothing, katulad lang ng dati, kuya. School, bahay, hindi na masyadong makapag gala kasama si Kaleb dahil sa media.” Pahina nang pahina kong sabi. He looked at me again and sighed.

“Kung ako kasi pinili mo ’e, edi hindi ka nagkakaganyan.” Hirit niya na ikinairap ko.

“Kuya, nagtataasan mga balahibo ko kapag gumaganyan ka. You’re my brother.” Sabi ko at natawa naman siya habang napapahawak sa dibdib.

“Sakit, brother zoned. Kailan naman ako naging kuya sayo? Matanda lang ako pero kaya kitang… anuhin..” Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sinabi niya at galit ko siyang tiningnan. Natawa naman siya lalo at nagsalita ulit.

“Joke lang, I know you love Kaleb. It shows. Kaya kahit masakit, edi hintayin ko na lang magkaron ng chance para akitin k-” Hindi niya natapos ang sasabihin niya nang ambahan ko siya ng palo. Umilag naman siya at natawa bago sumeryoso at tumitig ulit saakin.

“What?” I asked. Umiling naman siya.

“Nothing. I just love the new you, not so innocent and can handle my jokes.” Sabi niya at napailing na lamang ako. Magsasalita pa sana siya pero natigil iyon nang marinig naming umingay ang ibang mga kumakain. We looked at them and they all are looking at the TV na naka display sa karenderya na kinakainan namin ngayon. Tumingin rin ako roon at halos mamutla ako nang makita ko ang dalawang pangalan na naka paskil sa balita sa TV.

‘Governor of Quezon Kalden Cabrera was shot while giving his speech on his son Kaleb Cabrera’s campaign.’

Iyon ang nakapaskil sa TV kaya pinakinggan ko ang sinasabi sa balita.

“-the governor was immediately transferred to XXX hospital along with security guards. Habang ang anak niyang si Kaleb Cabrera na

tumatakbo

sa

politiko

para

sundan

ang

yapak

niya ay naroon rin sa tabi ng

kanyang

ama. Dalawang bala ang narinig na

pinaputok

at

hinihinalang

ang isa ay para sa

binatang

Cabrera ngunit

sumablay

ito-“

Agad akong napatayo at lumabas ng karenderya na iyon. Tinatawag ako ni kuya Oasis ngunit hindi ko na siya pinapansin. Kinuha ko ang selpon ko at sinimulan kong tawagan si Kaleb ngunit hindi ito sumasagot. Halos maiyak na ako habang pindot nang pindot sa selpon ko habang hinihintay siyang sagutin ang mga tawag ko. I failed multiple times pero paulit-ulit ko iyong ginagawa habang kagat-kagat ang labi ko.

“Hans! Fuck! Hey!” Nagulat ako nang hawakan nang mahigpit ni kuya Oasis ang dalawang balikat ko at pinaharap sakanya. Naluluha akong napatingin sakanya at agad niya naman akong niyakap.

“Kuya, Kaleb is in danger..” Napapahikbi kong ani.

“I know. I know, nasa hospital na sila. May nagbabantay na, hindi na maglalakas ng loob magpaputok ulit ang bumaril sa papa niya.” Sabi ni kuya Oasis habang inaalo ako.

“No. No, I want to go there. I need to check. Kailangan ko sila makita.” Nagmamadali kong sabi at hinila si kuya Oasis papunta sa nakaparada niyang kotse.

Malakas ang kutob kong may kinalaman ito sa black market na kinakasangkutan ni tito Kalden. Noong isang araw kasi ay kinausap ako nito na isang issue pa ni Kaleb sa media ay mag wa-warning na ang black market. Naiinis at naiiyak ako sa sarili kong katangahan. Hindi ko sineryoso ang sinabi ni tito Kalden at ngayon nga ay ganito na ang nangyayari.

They’re both in danger because of me. I should’ve taken this matter more seriously. The black market is dangerous and serious.

“Hans, hindi mo kailangan pumunta roo-”

“No! Kuya, I need to be there! Please, give me a ride. Please. I just need to see Kaleb…” Pagmamakaawa ko ngunit natigilan rin ako nang maisip na baka lalo niya pa iyong ikapahamak. Natigil ako sa paglalakad at napatulala sa hangin.

I can’t do anything. I am only a danger for them, for Kaleb. Now I can surely say that I am only nothing but a parasite trying to pull Kaleb down to his grave.

Napayuko ako at binitawan ko ang hawak kong braso ni kuya Oasis. Hindi ko namalayang lumuluha na ako nang mabuo ang desisyon sa isip ko.

I need to leave them alone.

“Hans,” Tawag saakin ni kuya Oasis. I looked at him and I smiled bitterly.

“I don’t think I can do this anymore, kuya. I’m so tired already. Beaten up by everything.” Sabi ko bago tuluyang napahikbi. Lumapit siya saakin at niyakap ang ulo ko.

“I’m here.” He softly said. Napahawak ako sa damit niya sa may bandang dibdib at doon ako humikbi.

“I give up, kuya.” Humihikbi kong ani. He softly caress my hair and as always, I wish it was Kaleb. I wish it was him by my side.

Mío

A/N: hala nung sa Arken Needs parang ayaw ko kayo saktan pero bakit pag dito natutuwa ako HAHHAHAHAHA✌️

Veintidós

sakto

talaga

’tong

kanta

ng Ben&Ben kay Kaleb at Hans ↑

Hans

I looked at the sea in front of me and I felt the emptiness inside me. For people, looking at sea will give them peace and contentment, but for me, I always feel alone and empty when I look at it. It’s so spacious and lonely for me. The sound of the waves gives me the feeling of listening to a sad song I can greatly relate.

But funny that our house is located near the ocean. Like how it is funny that the man who gave me a wonderful life, is now the one who’s making everything worst for me.

I am hurt, the pain I am feeling right now is not even comparable to the pain I felt when my own mother didn’t want me. This is worst, and I didn’t expect to feel this because of Kaleb.

I know he also just wants to be with me, but I know that being with each other will only put him in danger. And I am also tired of all the lies he needs to do for his dreams, for politics that I didn’t want to be involved with in the first place.

I know I am being selfish if I leave him, but is it also being selfish if I want to save myself from all the pain that is changing me? I didn’t want to leave him so I decided to be part of the lies he’s living with, I was the other man, I was a mistress, I was hidden when he says he loves me the most, yes I was loved but I was also insulted by everything.

Everytime he kisses me, I wonder if what his fiance will feel. Pakiramdam ko ay napaka tarantado ko na tinanggap ko ang sitwasyon kahit na may masaktan na ibang tao. All of the complicated things that I accepted to be with Kaleb because he told me he needs me, I accepted it wholeheartedly, but it was also the reason why I am hurting so much. Because I have to accept everything despite being hurt, being insulted- tiniis ko lahat dahil umaasa akong kami pa rin sa huli.

Pero hindi na lang naman ako at siya ang nakataya sa relasyon na ito. His father was shot as a warning. Oceanna will know about our relationship one way or another, and the people will also do.

Natawa ako sa sarili sa mga iniisip na bagay kaya ako sumusuko.

Alam ko sa sarili ko na ang totoong dahilan kaya ko siya iiwan ay hindi ko na kaya. I can’t do this anymore. I was not raised by my loving parents to be treated this way, to be in this situation and held everything in. I was sick of it and Kaleb didn’t even noticed or doesn’t even want to address it. I am done. I am completely done.

“Pumpkin,” Napalingon ako sa nakatayong lalaki sa gilid ko. I looked at him and I felt nothing but pity for myself and for him. Our situation will not get any better if I stay by his side.

Lumapit siya saakin at nakita ko kung paano nalulungkot at naguguluhan ang mukha niya. Umupo siya sa tabi ko at nagsalita.

“You’re not answering to my calls. I’m sorry I was busy and couldn’t reach you for two days. Nabalitaan mo naman na nabaril si papa, right? I was hands on with everything for his safety and mine, and yours too. The investigation is still o-” I cut him off.

“Why are you here, Kaleb? It’s dangerous.” Sabi ko at iniwas sakanya ang tingin ko. Tumingin ako sa pangpang at sa papalubog na araw.

“I missed you, wala ka sa kubo at sa bahay niyo at nakita kita rito. What are you doing here, babe?” He asked and put his head on my shoulder. Napalunok ako at sinagot siya.

“Just thinking about the things that will release me from all the pain I am feeling.” Sagot ko at naramdaman kong natigilan siya. Hindi siya nagsalita nang ilang segundo bago itinaas ang ulo para tumingin saakin.

“Pumpkin, are you exhausted by our situation?” Tanong niya. Tumitig ako sa namumungay niyang mga mata na halata ang lungkot. I looked at his handsome face and I reached my hands for his soft cheeks. Hinawakan ko siya sa pisnge at agad naman siyang pumikit para damahin iyon.

“You’re the best thing that happened to me, Kaleb. I mean it, but,” Iminulat niya ang mga mata niya nang dugtungan ko iyon. “I don’t think I can do this anymore. I’m giving up.” Sabi ko at nakita ko kung paano dumaan ang lungkot sa mga mata niya habang nakatitig saakin. Inalis ko ang kamay kong nakahawak sakanya at muli kong iniwas ang mga mata ko sa mukha niya.

“Why is it so easy for you to say that?” Tanong niya at hindi ko napigilang inis na mapangiti.

“Easy? Do you think everything has been easy for me, Kaleb? Did it look like everything was easy on me?” Tanong ko at ilang segundo siyang natahimik bago ako yakapin nang mahigpit.

“Pumpkin, I will end things with Oceanna. I will publicized our relationship, I will not lie anymore. Just don’t leave me please, I don’t want you to leave. I will sacrifice everythi-” Inalis ko ang pagkakayakap niya saakin at mabilis akong tumayo para pigilan ang sarili kong lalong magalit sa mga sinasabi niya.

“Hindi ka nag-iisip, Kaleb. Hindi ganon kadali ’yon, you have to win the election-”

“Win the election? Why is it that you want me to win the election instead of choosing us? Why, Hans? Are you keeping things from me? Tell me the reason.” Tumayo rin siya at halatang hindi niya na nagugustuhan ang sitwasyon.

“Choose us? What ‘us’, Kaleb?” Tanong ko at nakita kong natigilan siya at nakita ko ang sakit sa mukha niya ngunit patuloy akong nagsalita. “Tayo? Tayo na nagtatago sa publiko kasi huhusgahan nila ang kredibilidad mo kapag pumatol ka sa isang tulad ko? Us that needed to adapt to the lie we have to live in? I have to tolerate everything because I want to be on your side, Kaleb. Enough is enough.” Emosyonal kong sabi sakanya at umiling-iling naman siya.

“No, Hans-”

“All we had was nothing but confusion, hiding, lying and shits! Why would you choose us when you didn’t do it in the very first place, Kaleb? Yung tayo na sinasabi mo? That ‘us’ had been wrecked when you made me your other man.” Halos mawalan ako ng hininga habang sinasabi iyon. Hindi ko kaya. Ayokong iwan siya. Ayokong gawin ito sakanya lalo na ngayong pinapanuod ko kung paano malungkot ang mga mata niya habang nakikinig saakin. Pero may karapatan ba akong mamili?

“Pumpkin, is that all we really had? You’re not the other man, babe, you know that. I had you first, you’re my only one. I can give up everything now, I will give up everything right now if you say so. I will, Hans.” Pakiusap niya na ikinailing ko.

“You don’t make the choices, Kaleb. You know that.” Sabi ko at nakita ko kung paano bumalot ang pagkabigo sa mukha niya.

“Fuck, Hans, tell me what you know! Just tell me why you don’t want me to give up everything for us! Merong tayo, and we were happy! I was happy!” Tumaas ang boses niya ngunit hindi ako natakot. I was happy too, but can we keep being happy when everything is already going south? God knows how much I want him to give up everything for me, but I don’t have the guts to say it and face all of the consequences.

“I am going to New York, not just for our family trip. Doon na ako mag-aaral, and I will work for kuya Oasis.” I said instead of answering his questions. Nakita ko kung paano nabalot ng galit ang mukha niya sa huli kong sinabi.

“Oasis?” Lumakad siya palapit saakin at hinawakan ako sa balikat. “Work for him? Is this all about Oasis? Is he the reason you’re leaving me-” Galit kong inalis ang mga kamay niya na nakahawak saakin.

“For godsake, Kaleb! This isn’t about us anymore! Not everything is about us! This is for your own good! For your safety!” Galit kong sigaw pero umiling-iling siya habang hindi naaalis ang mga titig saakin.

“I am safe with you, pumpkin. I feel safe with you.” Sabi niya na pikon kong ikinatawa.

“Kaleb, your father was shot in front of a lot of people. What more can they do to you?” Halos maiyak kong ani.

“Then tell me what you know! I know you know something, Hans. You’re keeping something from me that’s why you’re going with that Oasis!” Sigaw niya at sa sobrang pikon ko sa huli niyang sinabi ay bumigay ako.

“Fine! You and your father is in danger if you don’t win the election. You need that position to be safe from them, Kaleb.” Lumapit ako sakanya.

“They are fed up from your issues, our issues, yung pabalik-balik na issue nating dalawa dahil lagi tayong magkasama, they are fed up from that because it’s not securing your position in this stupid politics, that’s why they shot your father as a warning! You think I will let you choose us over your life?! Over someone else’s life?! I will not!” Sigaw ko.

“But I will!” Sagot niya na ikinatigil ko. “I will choose us over anything, pumpkin. I don’t care about the black market, dad will deal with them dahil siya naman ang lintek na nagdala samin sa sitwasyon na ito!” Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya.

“You knew?” Mahina kong tanong. Napahawak siya sa ulo niya.

“I just found out when Dad told me yesterday, pero ang hindi ko alam, bakit alam mo? Why did you know about this?” Seryoso niyang sabi. Napatitig naman ako sakanya.

“I’ve known it since the night I had my first drink, Kaleb.” Sagot ko habang gulong-gulo na ang utak ko.

“Ganon katagal? At hindi mo naisipang sabihin sakin?” Galit niyang sabi. Natawa ako at napaiwas ng tingin sakanya.

“Is that even important? To tell you something you can’t do anything about? And what? Let your father deal with them alone? Over what? Over us? Pipiliin mo tayo over your own father’s life?!” Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang galit at inis na nararamdaman ko ngayon. Oo, gusto kong piliin niya ako, pero hindi sa ganitong paraan na tatalikuran niya ang buhay na pasan niya sa sitwasyon na ito.

“Yes! Fuck! Why not?! Why would I not choose us over my father who did nothing but control me, Hans? Why? Why don’t you want me to choose us? To choose you?” Nakita ko ang pangingilid ng luha sa mga mata niya at napaiwas ako ng tingin sa sobrang kaguluhan na nararamdaman ko ngayon.

“Because this is not the Kaleb I loved.” Sagot ko at natigilan naman siya.

“The Kaleb I love will put everyone’s safety first before his own needs. Your father needs you, Kaleb. I don’t.” Lies. I need him more than anything but his father needs him the most.

“Pumpkin..” Tawag niya saakin. I just looked at him while a big facade is on my face to hide all of my emotions. “Will you really leave me to face everything alone? I need you. Do I deserve to deal with this mess that’s not even mine?” Nangunot ako sa sinasabi niya.

“Then whose is it, Kaleb? Is it to your father that is now lying in the hospital? Hoping you will help him because he already told you everything? This problem is no one but yours, Kaleb.” Nakagat ko ang labi ko bago pinigilang maiyak at muling nagsalita. I need to end this one way or another.

“Tatalikuran mo ang lahat for me? I don’t know how to look at you if you do that, Kaleb. You need to face everything all on your own because I can’t help, did that ever crossed your mind? I stayed Kaleb, I tried. Did I not stay and kept my fear- every pain that I felt these past few months? Was I not hurt that you have a fiance? Was I not hurt that the only thing we can do is fuck each other every time we meet because we can’t go out anymore! I was badly hurt when you decided to ignore my pain because you can’t do anything!” Lumapit ako sakanya at malakas kong tinulak ang dibdib niya habang nangingilid na ang mga luha ko.

“Ako ang magtatanong, Kaleb. Do I deserve to endure what’s devouring me just to be by your side? Is this my mess? Did I even helped when I stayed? Walang nagbago, Kaleb. Mas lumala pa dahil nandito ako. Hindi nagbago ang lahat sainyo ni Oceanna, the people still sees me as your other man and I am! I was! Your fucking fiance made me feel like I was the inferior when you’re supposed to be mine! The situation we are in didn’t changed just because I endured everything, Kaleb. Have fucking mercy on me. I beg you.” Galit at sakit ang nananaig saakin ngayon. Galit sa mga dapat naming maranasan dahil lamang sa sitwasyon na hindi naman dapat kami kasali. Sakit dahil kailangan kong saktan at iwan siya para lamang makaalis kami sa ganitong sitwasyon na pareho naming hindi ginusto.

“Hans..” Iyon lamang ang nasabi niya. Huminga ako nang malalim bago muling nagsalita.

“I know we both don’t like the situation, but ending whatever we have will make me feel better, Kaleb.” Pagsisinungaling kong muli. Feel better when I have to leave him? I am fooling myself.

Matagal niya akong tinitigan bago ko narinig ang hikbi niya pero agad niya iyong pinigilan gamit ang kamay niya. Umiwas siya ng tingin nang ilang segundo bago muling tumitig saakin at nagsalita.

“Seeing how you can’t even shed a tear right now while deciding to leave me, I guess you’ve made your decision.” Ani niya habang pigil na pigil umiyak. My heart clenched and I can feel how it was breaking at the sight of him crying and saying something like this.

“Live your life without me, I’m sorry for putting you in this hard position. I didn’t think that you are already giving up and I just ignored it because I am a fucking loser. I’m sorry, Hans.” Sabi niya at para iyong kutsilyo na bumaon sa puso ko. Pero alam kong wala iyon sa mga ibinato kong mga salita sakanya.

“I’m sorry for giving up.” Tangi kong nasabi at umiling-iling naman siya.

“You’re tired already, I understand. I guess your life will be better off without me, and I want that for you.” He said and my heart screamed in detest.

No, my life will never be better without you.

“Goodbye, Kaleb.” I said at tinalikuran siya.

“Bye, pumpkin.”

Mío

A/N: So goodbye to the ones we once loved 😗

At least may closure

diba

? Goods ba

yun

o mas

lalong

masakit

? 🤔

Anyways I put Click and DT:CG on hold, I’ll pick it up after I finish

Mío

!

Mwa

!

Veintitrés

Reihan’s

“Hans, please, baby, stop crying already.“ Naiiyak ko na rin na ani habang pinapatahan ang anak kong nasa bisig ko ngayon at hindi matigil kakaiyak. Halos dalawang oras na siya umiiyak at hindi namin siya mapatahan ni Arken. We don’t even know why he’s crying. Ang bigat ng dibdib ko habang pinapanuod siyang umiyak na parang bata dahil ngayon ko lamang siya nakitang ganito.

Hans may be a softie, but he wasn’t a cry baby.

“If you don’t tell me why are you crying, I will drag Kaleb inside our house and let him explain whether he likes it or not, Hans Gabriel.“ Pananakot ni Arken. Pinanlakihan ko naman siya ng mga mata.

“Love,” Saway ko ngunit umiling siya.

“What? Kung hindi ang lalaking ’yon ang dahilan, sino pa ba?” Sabi niya at napailing na lamang ako. These past few months, we saw how our son changed because of Kaleb’s situation. Hindi ko man alam ang lahat ngunit alam kong nasa komplikado silang sitwasyon dahil sa politiko. I tried to understand Kaleb because I can see that my son loves him, pero masyado na ata silang nilalamon ng problema kaya nagkakaganito ang anak ko.

“I’ll count to five, Hans Gabriel.“ Napailing ako sa banta ni Arken. I also understand my husband’s frustration. I saw him endure the detest in him para ipagkatiwala kay Kaleb ang anak namin. Pinanuod ko kung paano mahalin ni Arken ang anak namin at kahit masyado siyang strikto rito ay alam kong ayaw niya lamang itong mapahamak katulad ko. Masyado naming mahal si Hans at ngayon na nakikita niya ang kinakatakutan niyang mangyari. I can understand the anger he’s feeling.

“One, two.. three! Hans! I am not kiddi—”

“Dad! Please! Kaleb and I are not together anymore! We were never together, so please, just let me be weak for tonight..” Napalunok ako habang pinapanuod kung paano masaktan ang mag-ama ko. I saw how broken Hans is at nakita ko rin ang lungkot na bumalot sa mukha ni Arken dahil sa sinabi ng anak niya.

“Explain, Hans. I know you’re broken right now but so are we, anak. Nalulungkot kami ng papa mo na ganyan ka at wala kaming alam.“ Pangungulit ni Arken. Umiling-iling ang anak namin.

“All you need to know is we are done with all the lies, dad. I am done. I am leaving him. I want to stay in New York with tita Ainee, or kuya Oasis. I will work for him while I am studying—“ Agad akong nagsalita nang marealize ang gusto niyang gawin.

“Hans, alam mo naman ang storya namin ng daddy mo, diba? Leaving will never be the best option, anak.“ Sabi ko. Umalis naman siya sa bisig ko at tumingin saakin bago yumuko.

“But staying here will devour every sanity left in me, pa. I can’t do it anymore. I want this to end.” Iyak niya at nagtinginan naman kami ng asawa ko.

“We still have two days before we left to New York, Hans. Pag-isipan mong mabuti ang gusto mo, and I will talk to Oasis again.” Sabi ni Arken. Napabuntong-hininga naman ako. Nakiusap na saamin si Oasis noong isang araw pa ngunit pareho kaming hindi sumang-ayon ni Arken. Pero ngayon ay mukhang wala kaming ibang magagawa dahil ito na ang gusto ng anak namin.

Minsan, naiintindihan ko kung bakit mas pinili ni Arken umalis at iwan ako noon. You will never win against the rolling seasons. You just have to accept it and move forward.

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Hans

Napatitig ako sa oras ng flight na hinihintay ko. Nasa airport na kami ngayon nila papa, dad at kuya Oasis. Sabay-sabay kaming pupunta sa New York.

Hanggang ngayon ay hindi maalis sa utak ko ang itsura ni Kaleb nang talikuran ko siya nang araw na iyon. It’s haunting me and I keep crying every night. I can’t cry, that’s one of the problem I had growing up, naiipon lang lagi ang nararamdaman ko sa dibdib dahil mahirap saaking umiyak. Pero ilang beses ko na nga ba iniyakan si Kaleb? Ilang beses na bang tumulo ang mga luha ko habang si Kaleb ang laman ng utak ko? When he’s the reason, my tears doesn’t even try to fight it and just keeps running down for him.

I remember him saying that it was easy for me because I can’t even shed a tear while dumping him. But God knows how much it hurts me and how hard it is for me. Pero hindi ko iyon naipakita sakanya and I will be forever haunted by the fact that he thinks it is easy for me.

Naisip ko ang lahat ng pinagdaanan namin ni Kaleb simula nang maging kaibigan ko siya. He wasn’t just a friend to me even before, he was one of my support system and one of the people who always protect me from the cruel world.

I remember when we were just beginning to know each other. Naligo ako noon sa dagat dahil bata pa lamang ako ay kinahiligan ko na ang swimming. Bata pa lang ako ay maldito na ako, pabalik-balik si Kaleb sa bahay noon at gusto akong kaibiganin pero hindi ko pa siya noon masyadong pinapansin. Nakita niya akong naliligo at hindi ko siya pinapansin kahit na gwapong-gwapo ako sakanya noon.

I kept ignoring him while swimming and then he decided to also swim towards me. Natuwa ako noon dahil pursigido talaga siyang kausapin ako ngunit nawala ang ngiti ko nang makitang nalulunod na siya wala pa man siya sa kalahati papunta sa pwesto ko. The bastard can’t swim.

Nagmadali akong sagipin siya pero sa huli ay ako rin ang malulunod. In the end, he was the one who saved both of us from drowning. Hindi ko alam kung saan niya nakuha ang lakas loob noon para pilitin sagipin kami pareho, but he said to me that when he saw me struggling, pinagana niya agad ang utak niya para iligtas kaming pareho. He said it was a burst of energy that he had just to save me because he’s so worried.

I thanked him a lot because of that, and I remember he said something like,

“No worries, just save me too when I can’t swim through life anymore.”

Napahikbi ako sa naalalang sinabi niya. Why am I leaving him when this is the time he can’t swim through life anymore? Noong sinabi niya iyon saakin ay basang-basa siya at tanging gwapo niyang mukha at maganda niyang katawan ang napansin ko. Now that I remembered it, naintindihan ko na rin sa wakas ang gusto niyang sabihin sa mga linyang iyon. Napahawak ako sa bibig ko at nabuo ang isiping balikan siya.

Tumayo ako at naglakad palabas ng airport. Narinig kong tinatawag ako nila Dad ngunit hindi ko sila pinansin at tanging si Kaleb lamang ang laman ng isip ko.

I shouldn’t leave him. I can’t leave him like this. I should at least say my goodbyes properly or better yet stay with him. I have to save him too.

Lumabas ako ng airport at papara na sana ng taxi nang may magsalita sa likod ko.

“Don’t look back, leave, he doesn’t want you anymore.” A voice of a girl said. Lumingon ako sa nagsalita at kumabog ang dibdib ko nang makita si Oceanna na nakatayo sa likod ko. She smiled at me when she saw my face.

“Hi, Hans.” Sabi niya. Napatitig lamang ako sakanya. Why is she here?

“I came here to say, finally! Mawawala na ang lamat sa pagitan namin ni Kaleb. We’re both happy because you’re leaving, Hans.“ Lumapit siya saakin at hinawakan ang dalawang kamay ko habang nang-uuyam ang mga tingin saakin.

“Don’t come back, Hans. I will take care of him.” She said and I stared at her for a long time. Did she came here to do this? Akala ko pa naman ay hindi siya ganitong tao. Naawa pa ako sakanya sa pinaggagagawa namin ni Kaleb habang fiance niya ito.

I think I pitied the wrong person.

“I dumped your fiance.” Salita ko at nawala naman ang ngiti niya. Inalis ko ang mga kamay niyang nakahawak saakin at humangos ako nang malalim.

“Take care of him? Yeah, do that. I’m sure he was so heartbroken when I decided to end our affair for you and for his sake.” Hindi ko alam kung saan nanggagaling ang inis ko para sabihin ang mga ito pero hindi ako nagpigil. I saw her scoffed at hindi makapaniwalang tumingin saakin.

“I let him have an affair with you, because I know one way or another, magsasawa rin siya sayo. And I wasn’t wron—” Pinutol ko ang sasabihin niya.

“You didn’t hear me? I said I was the one who dumped your fiance, not the other way around.” Sabi ko habang pinipigilang maging pisikal sa mga sinasabi niya. I have this attitude that I want to wreck something when I am angry. At ngayon ay mukha niya ang gusto kong sirain.

“Stop fooling yourself, you’re head over heels for my fiance that you even decided to be the other man, didn’t you? You settled for that because you can’t let him go.” Sabi niya na ikinatawa ko naman. She’s delusional.

“Oceanna, we both know that I wasn’t the head over heels in our relationship.” Lumapit ako sakanya and I looked at her from head to toe. “Your fiance… he was the one who keeps visiting me every night to do things with me you will never experience from him.. he did all of that behind your back, or… did you know that your fiance is screwing me every night and you can’t do anything about it?” Pang aasar ko at nakita ko kung paano siya nangalaiti. I saw her hands fidgeting at kung wala lang siguro kami sa publikong lugar ay sasapakin na ako nito.

“Hah, you’re so proud of your affair, aren’t you?“ Ani niya. Umiling naman ako.

“No, that’s why I am leaving him. You can have him as your fiance, but I don’t think you will have him like the way I did.” Pamimikon ko pa. Nakita kong pumikit siya at lumunok bago ngumiti at tumingin saakin.

“Your days with him already ended, and we are going to start ours. What makes you so sure that I can’t have him like you did?“ Tanong niya. Napangiti naman ako kahit sa loob ko ay nanginginig na ang laman ko sa inis at galit. Naiisip ko ang lahat ng mga sinasabi niya pero hindi ako papatalo.

“You might have him like I did, maybe, but it will not be as genuine as it was to me. You are just something he needs to force things with. He said that to me himself.” I mocked pero hindi siya natinag.

“Doesn’t change the fact that he will be with me from now on, not with you anymore. What do you know? Maybe as time goes by, while you’re away, he will pour the love he has for you, to me? You never know, Hans.” Sabi niya at tumatak iyon sa isip ko ngunit pinilit kong sumagot.

“Be scared then,” Ani ko at tumaas naman ang kilay niya. “Be scared forever at the thought that if I come back, your fiance will run to me without even thinking of you, ’coz I know he will, Oceanna.” Lumapit ako sakanya at natawa ako sa ginagawa namin ngayon.

“You know what? There was never a battle between us, Oceanna. Because I will always win when it comes to Kaleb, you know that, right? Even if I go away, always know that I’m always on his mind.” Tinuro ko ang dibdib niya at mahina ko siyang tinulak gamit ng hintuturo ko. “You coming here is the evidence that you can’t have him if I am here,“ Ngiti ko bago sumeryoso.

“Prepare when I come back, do everything so your fiance can stop thinking about me. When I come back, it will be a nightmare for you.“ Sabi ko at tumalikod ngunit nagsalita muli siya.

“He doesn’t even think of you right now, if he is, where is he?” Sabi niya pero hindi ko iyon pinansin at nagsalita muli.

“Oh, I forgot to tell you, he wanted to give up everything for me that’s why I am leaving. And,” Lumingon ako sakanya bago muling nagsalita. “He said once he won the election, he’s done with you. Good luck with him, Oceanna.“ Sabi ko at pumasok muli sa airport. Nakita kong hinihintay ako ni kuya Oasis. Napalunok ako at muling nagsituluan ang mga luha ko sa mga narinig ko kay Oceanna.

Nang makalapit ako kay kuya Oasis ay saka bumigay ang mga tuhod ko. Sinalo niya ako at sa dibdib niya ako humikbi nang humikbi.

I am also afraid that all of what Oceanna said will happen once I am away, but I will trust Kaleb and I will be back for him. I promise that to myself. I will claim him again.

Goodbye for now, Kaleb.

Mío

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A/N: Sabi ng kaibigan ko

baklang

bakla

raw si Hans HAHAHAHAHA ano ba mas prefer niyo, medyo manly siya or perfect na

itong

characteristics niya right now? 🤔

Veinticuatro

almost three y

ears time skipped…

Hans

I am relaxing on my bathtub inside my bathroom when my personal manager slash assistant came in and started shouting. I have cucumber on my eyes but I know it was him. Lakad niya pa lang na pagalit ay kilala ko na.

“Hansy! You will not go back to Philippines right now, ilang ulit ko ba ito ipapaliwanag sayo. Masyado kang maraming opportunity na sasayangin kapag umalis ka ng bansa ngayon!“ Galit niyang ani. Napabuntong-hininga naman ako at tinanggal ang pipino na nasa mga mata ko at nilingon siya.

“Pete, I’ve been prolonging my homecoming because of your wants and needs for years already. Isn’t it time for me to follow what I’ve been wanting?” Kalmado kong sabi habang ang buong katawan ko ay nakalublub pa rin sa bathtub. Tanging ulo ko lamang ang nakikita niya.

“No, what you want is to go back with that man , Hans. Didn’t you leave for him to have a good life? Why are you insisting on going back?“ Napairap ako nang sabihin niya nanaman iyon. Wala rin talagang preno itong si Pete. Basta lang makapagsalita.

“It’s been four years, Pete. Don’t you think he’s missing me so much now? Coz I am.” Sabi ko at natawa naman siya.

“He doesn’t miss you at all, Hans. He’s still with his fiance.” Sabi niya at bumalik ang bigat sa dibdib ko. I am still always updated with Kaleb’s life because of Pete. Palagi kong pinapaalam sakanya ang mga nangyayari sa buhay nito para malaman ko.

He’s now the Governor in Quezon for years already, but he’s still with Oceanna. Kaya napapasunod rin ako ni Pete na wag muna bumalik sa Pilipinas dahil sa rason na iyon. He told me he’s going to get rid of that woman once he won the election, so why is it that they’re still together?

“And I am going to find out why they’re still together, Pete.” Mahina kong sabi at natawa naman siya nang hindi makapaniwala at lumapit saakin.

“And what if you find out he’s now in love with that woman? You’re going to attemp—” Pinutol ko ang sasabihin niya.

“No, I will move on. I promise you that.” Sabi ko at napatitig naman siya saakin.

“What’s the point, Hans?“ Tanong niya. Ngumiti naman ako at tumingin sakanya.

“I just need to know, Pete.” I said while looking at him. Umiling siya.

“No, you will not go to the Philippines, Hans.“ Sabi niya pa.

“I also want to visit my parents, I missed them. I already told them I am going home, how can you explain it to them if I don’t go?“ Ngiti ko sakanya at nakita ko kung paano siya nainis saakin. Natawa lang ako. Pete can be controlling sometimes but he helped me a lot in my career being a famous model and an influencer. He’s faithful and is always on my side. I will never trade him for anyone.

“Bahala ka sa buhay mo!” Sigaw niya at nagpapadyak na lumabas ng bathroom. Napailing akong natatawa at inahon ko ang isa kong kamay para ipunas iyon sa dry towel sa gilid ko bago ko abutin ang selpon kong nag i-ingay.

“Hello?“ Sagot ko sa tawag nang makitang si kuya Oasis iyon.

“Hans, I just saw your messages. Are you sure you’re going back?“ Tanong niya.

“Yeah, I can’t stay here forever, kuya. Besides, tapos na ang kontrata ko sayo, matagal na. I just stayed here for personal reasons.” Sabi ko at natahimik naman siya nang ilang segundo sa kabilang linya. Umahon ako sa bathtub at nagbanlaw sa shower bago kumuha ng robe para isuot sa hubo’t hubad kong katawan at naglakad palabas ng bathroom.

“I understand. I’ll inform the agency that you’re going to the Philippines, may kontrata ka pa sa kompanya bukod sa natapos mong kontrata saakin, you will still work in the Philippines, alright?“ Sabi niya at napatango ako kahit wala siya sa harapan ko.

“I get it.“ Sagot ko habang naghahanap ng maisusuot ko. Nang walang mahanap na comfy clothes ay nahiga na lang ako sa kama ko nang naka robe lamang.

“Good. I’ll visit you the day you will leave, susunod rin ako sayo after a week. Aayusin ko lang ang mga pending shows mo na maca-cancel na. Buti na lang at hindi pa ako nakapirma.“ Sabi niya. Ngumiti ako at pumikit.

“Yeah, whatever.“ Sagot ko dahil puro trabaho ang nasa isip niya. For the past three years, I’ve been working my ass out nonstop. Puro trabaho lamang ang inatupag ko habang wala sa Pilipinas.

“Don’t cause problems, Hans.“ Paalala niya at napairap ako.

“Of course. Gotta go, kuya.“ Sabi ko at pinatay ang tawag. Sure akong magagalit nanaman iyon dahil pinatayan ko siya pero sanay na ako sa mga ganon niya.

Tumihaya ako sa kama ko at napatitig sa kisame.

“What are your reasons, Kaleb?” I said while staring at the ceiling. Pete found out that Kaleb is still with his fiance. I’m so sure he was so eager to get rid of her before, bakit kaya magkasama pa rin sila?

Napakurap ako sa isiping baka sa kinatagalan ay nahulog ang loob niya sa babaeng iyon. But it’s not impossible right? Huli na ba ako?

Napabuntong-hininga ako at napapikit.

“Sorry, I had my reasons why I am late, Kaleb.“ Salita ko.

I have become a successful and famous model through the years, I am on billboards, major fashion shows, cover magazines as Hansy. My stage name is Hansy and I am known as a gay model not only in New York but also in different states. I also became an influencer, I always post updates in my life, fashion clothes and I mostly cover songs on my feed. I have 14 millions followers on my instagram.

I can say that I reached the dream the agency wanted for me. Pero yung pangarap ko, lahat iyon nabura para sa career na ito. But I’m not complaining, hindi pa huli ang lahat para sa sarili kong mga pangarap.

Wait for me, my dream.

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“Are you going to stay at your parents house?” Tanong ni Pete nang mag announced na ang piloto na nasa Pilipinas na kami at mag la-landing na in a minute.

“Of course,” Sabi ko. Napaisip naman siya kaya pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay.

“May mga appointments ka kasi sa Manila, and your province is an hour or three away from our workplace. Ayos lang ba iyon sayo?“ Tanong niya dahil maikli talaga ang pasensya ko sa biyahe kapag mag t-trabaho. Napabuntong-hininga ako.

“I’ll stay at a hotel if I have an appointment.” Desisyon ko. Tumango naman siya at napahangos ako nang mag anunsyo ang piloto na successful ang flight namin at bababa na kami. Fuck. Why do I suddeny feel so nervous?

“Are you okay?“ Tanong ni Pete and I glared at him. Napangiwi naman ito at nagkibit-balikat. Kita niya na ngang kinakabahan ako ay magtatanong pa.

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Kaleb’s

Kunot-noo kong binabasa ang message sa iPad ko at naibato ko iyon dahil sa inis.

“Fuck, why is everything happening doesn’t go as I planned!” Sigaw ko at sakto namang pumasok si Walter sa opisina ko.

“Gov., is something wrong?” Tanong ng secretary ko at napabuntong-hininga naman ako bago napatitig sa kisame ng opisina ko.

“He’s coming home, Walt.” Mahina kong sabi. Tumaas naman ang kilay niya.

“Who?”

“Nevermind. Where is Oceanna?“ Tanong ko at agad naman nitong ni-report ang dapat niyang i-report saakin. Napatango-tango ako at napahawak sa bibig ko habang nag-iisip.

“Buy me a forget-me-nots flower bouquet, put it in my car seat later.” Utos ko. Parang nag alangan naman ito bago nagtanong.

“What color of forget-me-nots?”

“All of them.” Sabi ko habang chine-check ang text sa selpon ng taong pinagkakatiwalaan ko.

“Is it for ma’am Oceanna?“ Napairap ako sa tanong ni Walter.

“When did I fucking gave her a flower, Walter?” Bagot kong tanong at napangiwi naman siya bago nagmamadaling umalis.

Napabuntong-hininga ako at inikot ang upuan ko paharap sa glass wall sa likod ko. I looked at the billboard outside and I stared at it for a minute.

“It’s still not the right time to come back, pumpkin.” Ani ko habang nagkatitig sa billboard kung nasaan naroon si Hans.

I wasn’t naive about what his occupation right now. Sa dami ba namang billboard ang nadadaanan ko at mukha at katawan niya ang nakapaskil. He’s a model now. A very gorgeous model.

Never have I imagined Hans to pose in front of a camera and act so sexy. The Hans I knew was shy and innocent with a hint of bratness. Hanga ako sa naabot niya nang wala ako, but a big part of me is also hurt that he did all of that without me by his side. Napipikon rin ako sa mga suot at pose niya sa mga magazines at Instagram niya. Masyadong sexy at tuwang-tuwa lagi ang mga nakakakita.

Kinalma ko ang sarili ko.

For the past few years, hindi ko inabala si Hans. I let him do what he wants to do without me. Hindi sa ayaw ko mag reach out at tanungin siya kung kamusta siya, ako pa ba, kasi siya pa, siya lang lagi, I just can’t. Kahit nga sa social media ay kailangan ko tumago para lang ma like at maka comment sa mga post niya. Pero hindi niya naman in-unfollow ang real account ko. I just can’t message him there. Masyado pa akong maraming dapat ayusin bago ko maayos ang saamin ni Hans.

But he’s now coming back. Wala pa man nagsasabi saakin ay nalaman ko na dahil sa daming articles ang nasa social media na u-uwi sa Pilipinas ang sikat na modelo.

I miss him. I really really miss him. Pero paano ko masasabi sakanya na talunan pa rin ang lalaking minamahal siya? How can I tell him that while he changed a lot, I stayed the same?

Tumayo ako at lumapit sa glass wall kung saan nag re-reflect ang mailaw na litrato ni Hans.

Ibang-iba na siya. He grew taller, his body became more defined and sexy. He constantly wears light make ups now. His style of clothing changed a lot because he’s a known model. He matured and he doesn’t look like my pumpkin at all.

Tinitigan ko ang suot niyang white long sleeve na may ruffles at kita ang magkabilang  balikat niya pati ang likod niya dahil backless ito. It is paired with a squared pants. He’s posing side angled that’s why the details of the clothes are shown pero mas highlight ang mukha niyang nang-aakit.

“I should be the only one that can witness that sweet cunning face of yours, pumpkin. Why did you plastered it all over the world?” Parang nanghihinayang kong tanong.

I would love to know the new you, Hans, but I hope your personality didn’t change that much. I love the sweet innocent you. Pero sino nga ba ako para magreklamo? I don’t have any say to you anymore.

The big question should be, would you mind to accept me again if you get to know that I am still stuck in a situation that you left me with?

Mío

A/N:

Duda ako na walang nagbago kay Kaleb 😗

Short UD muna,

hinahanda

ko pa ang sarili ko sa

malaking

pagbabago

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eme

buckle up sa mga next chaps, baka may mga ma high blood

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Veinticinco

Hans

“Fucking media.” Bulong ko nang sa wakas ay malagpasan namin ang mga tao at makulit na media sa loob ng airport. Nasa loob ng kotse na ako ngayon at nangunot ang noo ko nang makitang may malaking bouquet sa backseat sa tabi ko. Sinulyapan ko si Pete na nag-aayos nang gamit ko sa likod at nang makapasok siya ay tinanong ko agad siya.

“This flower is for me? Saan galing? Ang bilis naman.” Tanong ko at kinuha ang bouquet flower na sa pagkakaalam ko ay forget-me-nots flowers. Halos lahat ata ng shades ng forget-me-nots ay nasa bouquet na ito. Mabango at halatang kagagawa lang.

“From your number one fan,” Sabi ni Pete. Napangiti naman ako.

“You? You’re my number one fan and also my greatest hater.” Biro ko at napairap na lang ito bago pinaandar ang kotse.

“Yeah, yeah, whatever.” He said and I took a picture of the flower bouquet before posting it on my Instagram story.

’ From my number one fan! Said by lovely Pete! (It’s from him)’

I put that as my caption bago nakipag-usap ulit kay Pete.

“Can you please know where his whereabouts, Pete?” Pagpapa cute ko sakanya. Sumulyap naman ito saakin mula sa rearview mirror na kunot-noo.

“You can’t meet him, Hans. He still has a fiance.” Prangka niyang sabi. Napanguso ako.

“I just need clarifications, Pete. I just wanna know.” Pakiusap ko pero umiling siya.

“Isn’t it obvious already? The clarification is already in front of your eyes, Hansy.” I tsked at what he said. Naiinis akong sumandal sa kinauupuan ko.

“Fine, I’ll do it myself.” Sabi ko at napailing naman siya.

“Don’t make trouble, Oasis will kill the both of us.” Sabi niya. Nag make face na lang ako sa sobrang inis.

When will I meet you alone, Kaleb? I want to see you.

Ilang oras bago kami nakarating sa bahay at iyon lamang ang laman ng isip ko. Agad akong sinalubong nila Dad at Papa. Lagi naman nila akong binibisita sa New York kaya hindi na sila nanibago sa mga nagbago sa anak nila. I gave them my pasalubongs and we had dinner together with Pete.

“Are you staying here for good, anak?” Papa asked. Nilunok ko naman ang kinakain ko bago sumagot.

“I want to, but it will depend on my work, pa.” It will depend if I already clarified what Kaleb’s reason for staying with that woman.

“I hope you stay, anak, finish your studies. Masyado ka pang bata to work so much.” Sabi ni papa. Ngumiti naman ako at uminom nang tubig bago may ibalita sakanila.

“Actually..” Kagat-labi akong tumingin sakanila at nakataas naman agad ang kilay saakin ni Pete. “I want to pursue nursing, maybe this year.” I dropped the bomb and I saw Pete eyes rolling back.

“Really? You’re dropping business, baby?” Si Dad. Napatango ako at tumango rin siya.

“We will support you no matter what you want.” Lumaki ang ngiti ko sa sinabi ni Dad.

“Why do you want to take nursing?” Tanong ni papa. Nagkibit-balikat naman ako.

“I just feel like I will fit there.” Sabi ko.

“He modeled as a nurse before, he loves the outfit that’s why he wants to be a nurse now. That will change soon enough.” Epal ni Pete. I glared at him at natawa naman sila papa at Dad. Napanguso na lang ako nang asarin nila akong tatlo.

Nang matapos ang dinner namin ay agad akong naligo para umalis. Habang nagbibihis ako ay pumasok si Pete at nagsalita agad.

“You can’t see him right now, Hansy. I told you about this already, the media is all over you right now, at baka nakakalimutan mo na Governor na may fiance ang gusto mong kitain?” Mahaba niyang sabi. Napanganga naman ako sa sobrang gulat sa walang preno niyang bibig. This bitch!

“Kalma lang okay? Mag di-disguise naman ako para walang makakilala saakin. Tsaka mas sikat ka ako sa New York kesa rito, don’t worry about it.” Pangungulit ko pero umiling siya.

“Tomorrow.” Sabi niya. Pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay.

“You will attend an event tomorrow and I found out he will also be there, meet him but make sure no one will see the both of you, or make it like the both of you are friends and just having a regular catch up chitchat. Understand?” Strikto niyang sabi. Napatili naman ako at napatalon pa sa tuwa sa sinabi niya kahit na gusto ko sana na ngayon na makita si Kaleb.

“Understood! I’ll take a beauty rest for tomorrow then!” Excited kong sabi at napailing-iling naman siya bago ako inirapan at lumabas ng kwarto. I just grinned from ear to ear.

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“DO I look good?” Tanong ko kay Pete at malakas itong bumuga nang hangin bago muling lumingon saakin.

“For the ninth time, Hansy. You look good as ever, no one will compare to you in this event.” Sabi niya. Napanguso lang ako at mas inayos pa ang sarili ko sa salamin. Sumulyap ako sa labas at kita ko ang pila ng kotse papasok sa event na papasukan namin. Pete said this is an exclusive event, only for elites.

“What event is this anyway?” Tanong ko.

“Auction for a cause.” Sagot niya at napakurap ako bago naiinis na inabot siya para kurutin.

“Pete! I’m way too overdressed! Bakit hindi mo sinabi!” Tili ko at malakas lang siyang tumawa. Kainis!

“Trust me, you’re not too overdressed.” Sabi niya habang tumatawa pa pero nagmukmuk na lamang ako sa passenger seat habang masama ang tingin sakanya. Patawa-tawa lang ang bwesit.

Ilang minuto pa bago kami nakapasok sa malaking field at ipinarada ni Pete ang sasakyan namin sa malapit sa mismong structure na gaganapan ng auction. Bukas ang pinto ng parang mansyon na gaganapan ng event at halatang mayaman ang may-ari ng area na ito. The place is obviously made for an event like this.

Bumaba si Pete ng sasakyan at tiningnan ko naman muna ang suot ko bago niya ako pag buksan.

I’m wearing a designer feminine top suit na kita ang magkabilang bewang ko and I paired it to a flaired pants and a shoes that are custom made for me by a famous shoes designer.

Napabuntong-hininga ako at bumaba nang alalayan ako ni Pete.

I’m really way too overdressed. Fuck.

“I hate you, Peterson.” Banggit ko sa buong pangalan ni Pete at sinamaan naman ako nito ng tingin bago kami naglakad papasok. Nagsisimula na ang auction at mukhang late na kami dahil sa tagal ni Pete mag drive.

“Oh wow, he’s already here! Please welcome to the stage, our main person to be auctioned, the one and only Hansy!” Natigilan ako nang agad na tumutok saakin ang spotlight at nagtinginan saakin ang mga tao.

Tama ba ang rinig ko? I am getting auctioned?!

Agad akong lumingon kay Pete at nakangiti na agad ito saakin.

“Love you, Hansy.” He mouthed and I cursed him multiple times in my mind. Hindi na ako nakareklamo pa nang alalayan ako ng i-ilang naka white suits papunta sa stage.

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Kaleb’s

Hindi maalis ang tingin ko sa lalaking nasa stage ngayon at inililibot ang tingin niya sa mga tao.

Habang patagal nang patagal ang bid para sakanya ay ganon rin ang inis sa loob-loob ko.

Who the hell did this? Bakit kasali siya sa i-au-auction? I knew he’s going to be here, that’s the only reason I am also here but I didn’t know na hindi siya bidder. Halata rin sa mukha niya na walang siyang alam sa nangyayari.

“Twenty thousands!” Unang bid sakanya ay malaki na agad. Fuck. He look so good right now with how he looks and how he’s dressed. Malamang ay pag pe-pyestahan siya ng mga kumag na narito!

“Thirty thousands!” Napalingon ako sa nag bid at agad na uminit ang ulo ko nang makitang binata iyon na lalaki.

Wala akong nagawa kundi ang panuorin si Hans na halatang hindi komportable pero pangiti-ngiti lamang. Habang pataas nang pataas ang bid sakanya ay ganon rin ang kaba na nararamdaman ko.

I looked at his dazzling eyes roaming the crowd. I remembered whenever he sings for people, he always does that and he will only stop when he finally sees me. Inantay kong makita niya ako at nang sa wakas ay nagtama ang mga mata namin ay sumikdo agad ang puso ko.

Hindi ko napigilang makagat ang labi ko nang makitang nabuhayan siya nang makita ako. Fuck.

Tumalikod ako at hinarap si Walter.

“Win the bid for me.” I commanded at nakita niya naman ang pagmamadali ko kaya agad siyang lumayo sa pwesto ko bago nagsimulang makipagtaasan ng bid sa mga hayok atang makasama si Hans. The people here are all fuckin rich, hindi sila mangingiming magtapon ng pera para lang makasama ang isang sikat at magandang modelo na akin lamang dapat.

I looked at Hans again and I swallowed when he didn’t remove his gaze on me. He looks hopeful and I can see the hint of happiness in his eyes while looking at me but I failed him when I turned my back and exited the place.

I can’t bid for him, kahit na ko-konti ang tao at media sa event na ito, sure na lalabas sa publiko kapag ako mismo ang nag bid para sakanya. Masyado na kaming maraming issues noon. I can’t risk it anymore. I’m sure Walter will win the bid for me no matter what.

Humangos ako nang makarating ako sa tagong maliit na garden sa likod ng pinag gaganapan. Nakita kong may isang bench sa isang sulok at doon ako umupo bago hinimas ang dibdib kong sobrang lakas at bilis ng kalabog.

“You still take my breath away, pumpkin.” Bulong ko sa hangin. Napayuko ako sa isiping kahit na bumalik siya ay wala akong ibang magawa kundi ang tingnan lamang siya mula sa malayo.

I still have something to do, pumpkin. I’m sorry.

“Kaleb!” Nagulat ako nang marinig ko ang boses niya at agad akong napatayo nang makitang mabilis siyang lumalakad palapit saakin.

Napatulala lamang ako sa kung paano siya lumakad ngayon. He walks so confidently now and he’s sure can star struck anyone with his visuals. He’s fucking shining in my eyes.

“Kaleb, I’ve been looking for you. That guy said you’re the one who bid for me, you won.” Hingal ngunit nakangiti niyang sabi. Sinulyapan ko naman ang itinuro niya at nakita ko si Walter na mukhang nagbabantay na walang makakita saamin.

“Kaleb, I missed you.” I looked at Hans again and I gazed at his dazzling cerulean eyes, down to his pointed nose and his sweet cherry lips.

“Hans,” Tanging nasabi ko habang malakas ang kabog ng dibdib sa pagpipigil na sunggaban siya ngayon. I missed him so much. I want to cage him in my arms and kissed him until I am satisfied. But I know I can’t do that anymore.

“Are you shock? Kaleb, it’s still me, your pumpkin.” He said with hopefulness. Napalunok ako at napaiwas nang tingin sakanya.

“I’m sorry, I was just shock that you’re talking to me.” Sabi ko. Natahimik naman siya bago ko nakita ang lungkot sa mga mata niya pero ngumiti pa rin siya saakin.

“I know, I’m sorry ngayon lang ako. Kaleb, I missed you. I missed us, I still love you.” Nagulat ako sa mga sinasabi niya at agad akong nagsalita.

“Hans,” Saway ko sakanya at parang napapahiya naman siyang yumuko.

“Alam ko, makapal ang mukha ko to say all of that when I am the one who left you. But I am here now, Kaleb. Don’t you miss me?” He said and I almost opened my mouth to tell him how much I do miss him. Umaalingasaw ang bango niya ngayon, he still smells like sweet pumpkin. He still look good and even got prettier, hinihila pa rin ako ng mga magaganda niyang mata ngunit hindi ako dapat magpadala roon. Hindi sa ngayon. I can’t ruin all my plans.

“It’s been three years, Hans.” I said and he nodded.

“And you’re still with that woman. I actually..” Tumingala siya saakin at muli akong napalunok sa pagpipigil na yakapin siya.

“I wanna know why you’re still with her, has everything changed for the both of us, Kaleb?” He asked at nanghina ang mga tuhod ko dahil sa mga kailangan kong sunod na sabihin.

“We can’t just pick up where we left off, Hans. That’s not how it works. Things are different now-”

“Are your feelings different now?” Tanong niya at hindi ko maiwasang maisip na iba na rin kung paano siya makipag usap ngayon. He’s straight to the point and is not scared to tell what’s on his mind.

“Are my feelings really important? You know that my feelings will always be set aside.” Sagot ko at lumambot naman ang ekspresyon niya.

“I don’t care, Kaleb. I will be with you, I am not the soft guy you had before. Titiisin ko na ang lahat. I will be with you no matter what the situation is.” Lumapit siya at agad akong umatras. Natigilan naman siya at nakita ko ang dumaang sakit sa mga mata niya.

“Is that my answer?” He said. “You don’t care about me anymore, don’t you?” Dugtong niya. I swallowed for the ninth time.

“I-It’s not that I don’t care about you anymore. It’s just… life happened, you know?” Halos wala na akong masabi. Iniiwasan kong masaktan siya ng sobra kaya piling-pili lamang ang mga lumalabas sa bibig ko.

“My question is do you still love me? Why are you still with Oceanna? What happened?” He frustratedly asked at umiling-iling naman ako bago yumuko at humugot nang lakas ng loob para sumagot.

“Whether I still love you or not, it’s not important anymore. Live the life you’re now living, I am living mine..” I paused. “Without you.” Sabi ko ngunit umiling-iling siya at halata ang inis sa mukha niya. Kita ko rin ang nangingilid niyang mga luha.

“Why are you still with her?!” Muli niyang tanong at sasagot na sana ako nang manlaki ang mga mata ko nang makita ko si Oceanna na papalapit saamin. Fuck, why is she here? She’s not supposed to be here!

“I knew your desperate ass will seek my fiance the moment you came back.” She said. Agad akong lumapit sakanya at hinila siya sa braso palayo kay Hans ngunit malakas niyang binawi iyon at tiningnan ako nang masama.

I looked at Hans and he’s looking at us with confusion. Nakagat ko ang labi ko nang muling nagsalita si Oceanna.

“Nice to meet you again, Hans, or is it Hansy now? Either way, unlike what you said before you left, I’m still Kaleb’s fiance.” She said at nangunot ang noo ko sa sinabi niya. Again? Before Hans left? Did they talked?

Muli kong hinawakan nang mahigpit sa braso si Oceanna at hihilahin sana ulit siya palayo rito nang pareho kaming matigilan nang mahinang tumawa si Hans.

“Still just a fiance?” I looked at him and his face is now mocking Oceanna. Never had I seen that expression of him before. “Oh God, I would be so ashamed to introduce myself as a three years fiance,” Tawa niya ulit bago lumapit saamin. Hindi naalis ang tingin niya kay Oceanna.

“Where’s the wedding ring? I don’t see any, what a shame.” Hans said before looking at me with sadness and then walked away. Napahangos ako at humigpit ang hawak ko kay Oceanna.

“Don’t ever talk to him again like that, don’t test me.” I told her and also left.

“You are stuck with me forever, Kaleb. Always remember that.” Rinig kong sabi niya bago pa man ako makaalis nang tuluyan.

Mío

A/N (EDITED):

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A/N: Dami ko pala errors last chap HAHAHHAHA  buti binasa ko ulit

Hans

“Ahhh!” I shouted frustratedly and push off everything in front of me. Hinulog ko ang lahat ng gamit na nasa table sa harap ko. Lumingon ako sa vintage mirror with table na naka built in sa hotel room kung saan ako nag s-stay. I looked at the make ups and my other things on the table that I used to make myself look good for Kaleb only for him to reject me.

Nagpupuyos akong lumapit roon at hinawi lahat ng gamit na naroon at lahat iyon ay nagkanda hulog-hulog.

“Fuck everything! Fuck that woman! I hate you! I hate everyone!” Pagsisigaw ko sa sobrang sama ng loob na nararamdaman ko ngayon.

“Hansy!” Mabilis na tumakbo papasok si Pete at agad na pinigilan ang mga kamay at binti ko na manira ng gamit. I keep kicking off and pushing off everything that’s in front of me out of frustrations.

“Let go!” Utos ko sakanya ngunit mas lalong humigpit ang mga hawak niya saakin na halos yakap-yakap niya na ako.

“Can you calm down? If you get bruises I will get fuck up!” Saway niya ngunit mas lalo akong nagpumiglas hanggang sa napilitan siyang itumba na lamang ako sa kama na malapit lamang sa pwesto namin. He pinned me on the bed and he made sure he’s gripping at my arms and legs. Tiningnan ko siya ng masama ngunit mas masama ang tingin niya saakin.

“Calm the fuck down, Hans. Or I will inject you again, don’t make me do that.” Banta niya kaya kumalma ako nang kaonti. I don’t wanna be injected. It hurts.

“Let go of me, I am now calm.” Sabi ko kahit na gusto ko pa rin sirain ang lahat ng nakikita ko sa sobrang sama ng loob na natanggap ko kanina. Pero kailangan kong kumalma dahil baka makapanakit nanaman ako. And I don’t wanna be sedated. Parang nagdadalawang isip naman si Pete bago niya ako tuluyang binitawan.

“What happened? Tell me.” Tanong niya. Umupo ako bago mabilis na tumulo ang mga luha ko sa halong sakit at sama ng loob.

“I got my answers, he doesn’t want me at all.” I said at natahimik naman siya. Pinunasan ko ang mga luha ko. Unlike before, hindi na ako nahihirapang umiyak. My tears will come out whether I like it or not.

“Then let’s go back to New York.” Alok niya pero umiling ako.

“Why? To run away again?” I looked at him and he’s looking at me emotionless like always.

“You said if you get your answers, you will move on, Hans.” Sabi niya at tumango-tango naman ako.

“The answers I got wasn’t even clear, but it’s so clear that he needs that woman more than me, again. Why can’t it just be me, Pete? I’ll do everything for him.” Sabi ko. Napahangos naman siya nang malalim bago umupo sa tabi ko.

“You’re the one who left before, Hans.” Ani niya. Hindi naman ako makapaniwalang natawa.

“Why is everyone acting like I wanted to leave? I had to leave for my own sanity, Pete. I had my reasons, umalis ako kasi hindi ko kinaya ang lahat. Isn’t that enough reasons for me to leave?” Mahaba kong sabi.

“It is a valid reason, but it has consequences, Hans.” Napatango ako sa sinabi niya.

“I know. Pero paano ako ngayon, Pete? Siya pa rin ang mahal ko kahit sobrang sakit ng nararamdaman ko sa tuwing maaalala ko na kahit pala nag stay ako noon, I will forever be hiding from that woman’s shadow because even after three years, he’s still with her!” Lalong bumigat ang dibdib ko kaya’t humangos ako nang malalim para kumalma.

“Okay na yun ’e, i-intindihin ko siya kung may rason ulit siya to stay with that woman, pero hindi, Pete. He seems like he has reasons but he didn’t tell me at all, ang pinaabot niya lang saakin ay we can’t pick up what we left off before. He doesn’t want to be with me again. Why? Because of that woman? His responsibilities? I was always a second, Pete. Everything has to come first before me.” Paglalabas ko ng mga hinanakit.

“Hans, it’s has been three years, a lot things change. Kahit ako sasabihin yun ’e, you can’t just go back to how it was before that easily.” Paliwanag niya ngunit natatawa akong umiling habang pinupunasan ang mga luha ko.

“But it’s Kaleb, Pete. You don’t know how much he loves me, you don’t know him like I do. The Kaleb I knew will never even hurt me thru words or anything. But yeah, fuck, everything changed and I know I should’ve known this but I held on to his affections, Pete.”

“And now you’re the only one who’s holding onto it,” Napapikit ako sa sinabi niya at napatango.

“Yeah, fuck, I’m so hopeless. I hate it.” Matigas kong sabi.

“You are not. The Hansy I know will not hold on to things that’s never on his side. Let it go, let him go.” Napakurap ako sa sinabi niya.

“I want to. But isn’t that doing the same thing I did before?” Tanong ko pero tinapik niya ako sa balikat.

“He wants it, doesn’t he? He doesn’t want you anymore, why hold on?” Napalunok ako sa sinabi niya at naalala ang sinabi ni Kaleb.

Live the life I am living right now, he will live his own life without me.

Mapait akong natawa. He said that like he wants it so much.

“You’re right, he can fuck off with that woman for the rest of his life!”

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Peterson’s

“He said that?!” Sigaw ni Kaleb. Tumango ako.

“Why did you tell him all of that?! You knew I have my reasons, Peterson!” Galit niyang sigaw at lumapit pa siya saakin para kwelyuhan ako.

“When I agreed to work for Hansy to tell you what’s going on with him, I didn’t agree that the both of us will hurt him, Governor.” Malumanay kong sabi bago alisin ang kamay niya sa kwelyo ko.

That’s right. I’ve been working for Governor Kaleb before he sent me to work for Hans. He wants to be updated to what’s happening with the love of his life.

“You think I wanted to hurt him?” Tanong niya.

“You did, whether you like it or not. You did hurt him.” Galit kong sabi. Lumapit ako sakanya para mas maintindihan niya ako. “I told you Hansy has anger issues, he explode whenever he’s hurt or overwhelmed. If you keep hiding him in the dark with all your reasons to hurt him, I can’t promise that I can protect him from himself.” Matigas kong sabi sa bawat salitang lumalabas sa bibig ko. Humangos ako nang malalim para kumalma nang makita kong lumambot ang ekspresyon niya.

“Alam mong malapit na akong manalo sa planong binuo ko, Pete. Hindi ko pwedeng bitawan iyon kahit na gustong-gusto kong angkinin muli si Hans. You know that too well.” He said hopelessly. Napailing ako. I understand that he’s in a complicated situation but he’s been there for the longest time. Kailan ba ito matatapos? The both of them has been hurting for the longest time already.

“You can hold on to every reasons you had, Governor. But don’t expect Hans to hold on because the only reason he’s doing that is because of your affection— that by the way, you ruined. You showed him that you didn’t need him anymore. You showed him that you needed Oceanna more than him. How can he hold on? How can you expect him to keep on holding on? He has a life to live too, Kaleb.” Mahaba kong sabi. Napatalikod naman siya sa sobrang prustrasyon at napasabunot pa sa sariling buhok.

“Then what do you want me to do, Pete? I don’t know what to do anymore!” Sigaw niya. I sighed.

“Let him know that you still want him. Let him know that you need him the most. I am not saying you give up on everything you’ve planned, but don’t make him feel unworthy for your affections. He wants to do everything for you, do the same.” Sabi ko bago tumalikod at umalis sa harapan niya.

I walked to my car and drove to a nearby drugstore. Bago iyon ay kinontak ko ang therapist ni Hans.

I need him if ever Kaleb doesn’t do the right decision.

I bought a sedation and supplement for Hans just in case.

Habang nagmamaneho ako pabalik sa hotel room kung nasaan si Hans. Naalala ko kung paano nagsimula ang ganitong behavior niya.

It was so messy before. Bigla na lang siya magagalit. There are times that he hurts me, he hurts Oasis, and the worst is he hurts himself. Pero hindi ko iyon sinasabi kay Kaleb. Alam kong hindi niya iyon kakayanin. That fucker will drop everything if he finds out that Hans once attempted suicide.

Good thing the therapy is working for Hans, hindi na masyadong malala ang behavior niya ngayon. But if this keeps happening, baka bumalik siya sa dati. Kaya nga gusto ko muna sana siya ibalik sa New York, away from all the stress that can trigger him here in the Philippines.

Kahit na kay Kaleb ako unang nagtatrabaho. I am with Hans. Mas nakilala ko kasi ang isang yun. Naiintindihan ko naman si Kaleb, mahirap ang sitwasyon niya, kailangan niyang saluhin ang lahat pero kinakaya niya pa iyon kesa kay Hans. Mahina ang loob ni Hans. The first time I met him, he was so sweet and innocent. But all of that changed because of Kaleb. It’s a shame.

Sometimes, I want to tell the two of them that maybe, just maybe, all of this is happening because they’re not meant for each other. Pero sa dami ng pinagdadaanan nila, maybe they really deserve each other. Maybe in the end, they will have an unending happiness, pero kailangan muna nila magtiis sa ngayon.

May sarili rin naman akong plano kaya ko ginagawa ang mga ito para sakanilang dalawa. I want them to end up together for my own plan. I am also a sucker for love, I can’t blame the both of them.

Pero kung sakaling malagay muli sa alanganin ang buhay ni Hans. I will be the one to stop everything. Masyado na akong napamahal kay Hans at sa pamilya niya just to watch him crumble and suffer so much.

If ever Kaleb’s plan doesn’t go as planned, I am ready to put an end to everything.

Mío

A/N: Short UD lng hehe pamasko HAHAHAHAHA. Any comments sa mga revelations?

Veintisiete

Hans

“Hans, hey, wake up..” Nagising ako sa mahinang haplos sa pisnge ko. I looked at the person in front of me before sitting up.

“When did you arrived?” Tanong ko kay kuya Oasis. Umupo naman siya sa tabi ko bago sumagot.

“Earlier this morning, dumeretso ako sa bahay. Na-miss ako nila mamu ’e. I bought foods, dad cooked it for you.” Mahina niyang sabi bago ilabas ang mga foods na nasa loob ng dalawang paper bag na dala niya. I just watched him prepare my food with lots of things in my mind.

Everytime I get so mad, I feel so exhausted afterwards. Nauubusan ako lagi ng lakas na parang may sakit ako sa tuwing nagagalit at nasasaktan ako nang sobra. It’s not healthy but I couldn’t help being mad when I talked to Kaleb and his fiance arrived.

I felt so inferior against his fiance. Dahil siguro may mas karapatan ang babaeng iyon sakanya kaya iyon pa rin ang nararamdaman ko hanggang ngayon.

“Penny for your thoughts?” Kuya Oasis asked before handing me a cup of porridge. “Eto muna, mamaya na ang solid foods.” He said.

“Kuya, what do you think is wrong with me?” Tanong ko habang tinitingnan ang porridge na ibinigay niya saakin. Hinawakan ko ang kutsara at hinalo ang mainit na porridge.

“Nothing is wrong with you, Hans. Why are you asking something like this? Is it some bashers? You are the most perfect model I’ve ever seen.” Mahabang sabi niya. I smiled slightly while still stirring the porridge and staring at it so hard.

“I became famous because of how I look, kuya. My fans always adores me despite some of my bad behaviors, every person I met always do what I want because of how I look. Even with all of that, the only man who really knows me was Kaleb, but why is it that I feel like I am always not enough for him to choose over that woman? Over his endless reasons.” Litanya ko at natahimik naman siya. Tinikman ko ang porridge at kahit mainit pa iyon at pinapaso ang dila ko ay hindi ko iyon alintana. Ilang subo pa ang ginawa ko bago napansin ni kuya Oasis ang ginagawa ko.

“Hans! Fuck, it’s burning hot!” Binawi ni kuya Oasis ang tasa na ibinigay niya saakin bago napapabuntong-hiningang nagsalita.

“Is this why you came back here? Hans, please, stop ruining your life because of that man. You don’t deserve it.” Sabi niya at umiling naman ako.

“Yeah, I am done offering my life to him. But it still hurts, kuya. I still wonder why is it that when that woman came, dati na nga akong palaging pangalawa sa lahat dahil sa mga responsibilities niya, mas lalo pa akong naging pangalawa dahil sa babaeng iyon. When she came, it was all ruined.” Mahaba kong sabi.

“Calm down. Maybe he has reasons, Kaleb had chose you over and over again before, didn’t he?” Kuya Oasis said. Napatingin naman ako sakanya.

“That’s the most painful part, sinanay niya akong gagawin niya ang lahat para saakin, sinanay niya akong pagkatapos ng lahat ng responsibilidad niya, saakin siya u-uwi. But in the end, it’s still hundred reasons over me.” Natatawa kong sabi kahit sa loob-loob ko ay ang sama ng loob ko sa ginagawa ni Kaleb.

I know I had my fair share of ruining our relationship because I left, but in my defense, his father and him are in danger and I couldn’t risk it. Naging mahina rin ako na may ibang babae sa buhay niya. But I have the right to, right? I was naive, I was scared for his life.

Anong magagawa ko? Hindi ko kinaya ang lahat.

“It’s been three years, Hans. We can’t go back to how it was before. Besides, pababa na rin si Kaleb sa posisyon niya ngayong taon, maybe the two of you could work it out after that?” He said and I scoffed.

“I believed everything he said before, he said he will get rid of that woman once he won the election, but he’s still with her, kuya. Sa tingin mo a-asa ako sa bagay na hindi siya mismo ang nagsabi? Yun ngang sinabi niya mismo ay hindi niya ginawa ’e.” Inis akong tumayo at sinipa ang bedside table.

“And why does everyone think I want to be back to how it was? I just want us to be together again, because he told me that he will never love anyone but me, and so I couldn’t unlove him too!” Nagsisimula nanamang bumigat ang dibdib ko. I grabbed the lamp on my bedside table and I was about to throw it but Oasis was quick to stop my hands.

“Hans! Sit down and eat, alas dose na at wala pang laman yang tiyan mo. Mamaya na yang mga iniisip mo, please?” Pakiusap ni kuya Oasis. Napairap ako at hindi ko na sana siya papansinin ngunit pumasok si Pete at agad itong nagsalita.

“You should eat, may counseling ka at exactly two pm.” Sabi niya at inis naman akong nagpapadyak.

“But I don’t wanna go today!” Inis kong sigaw. Lumapit naman siya saakin at hinila ako paupo sa kama bago kinuha ang hawak na porridge ni kuya Oasis at sinimulan niya akong subuan.

“You will have a session with your private therapist who traveled from New York to get here, you think you can just say that you don’t wanna do it today? Eat this porridge or I will make you.” Matigas niyang sabi at pilit na isinusubo saakin ang isang kutsarang porridge.

“Pete, stop it. I can talk to him that Hans is not feeling well—” Sinamaan ng tingin ni Pete si kuya Oasis dahil sa sinasabi nito.

“Kaya lumalala ang isang ’to dahil sayo, he can’t just always brat around his ass to get what he wants, Oa.” Matigas na sabi ni Pete. Inis ko namang kinuha ang porridge na nasakanya at ako na mismo ang kumain n’on. Hindi naman na nakakapaso ang init kaya hinayaan na nila ako.

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“What’s wrong? I thought Hans is already okay?” Kuya Oasis asked na parang wala ako sa harap nila. They always do this. They still think I’m some kind of helpless child.

“He had an episode last night, and you saw how he acts earlier. I told his therapist to stay here for a while for Hans, kailangan niya maging okay dahil marami siyang trabahong dapat tapusin para maluwag na ang schedule niya sa mga susunod na buwan. His parents wants him in their house, at Ke

Aloha .” Paliwanag ni Pete. Napayuko naman ako nang maalala sila Dad and papa Reihan.

I also want to be with them. I miss them so much. I know they’re worried about me, they know my situation. But I can’t let them see how my decisions before that they strongly disagreed, made me the person no one wants.

I am well aware of my behaviors. My therapist said that there’s a forty percent possibility that this is not just an anger issues but worst. I did everything to get rid of this feeling, but my mind won’t just stop thinking about things that makes me aggressive and violent.

It started when I was away, nasa New York na ako pero umaasa pa rin ako na tutuparin ang lahat ni Kaleb. Na he will get rid of that woman once he won the election. But he didn’t, not even after three years. I was so ready to go back once he does that, but he failed me. My emotions couldn’t fathom that and I tried so hard to contain my negative emotions and that lead me to this. I became the worst.

Hindi ko nakakalimutan ang black market na kinauutangan nila Kaleb. I even helped paying it without anyone knowing but Peterson. Kaya alam kong bayad na sila roon, kaya ang lagi kong tanong. Why? Why can’t he leave that woman alone and choose me? Did he really fell in love with that woman?

I am doubtful about it because he didn’t seem like he’s in love, yet they are sticking to each other.

“Hans, once you’re done with the session. Kakain tayo sa labas, my treat. So be a good boy, alright? Don’t lash out on him.” Sabi ni kuya Oasis. I just looked at him and sighed.

“I want a shopping spree after this.” Sabi ko at napailing-iling naman si Pete. Agad naman na tumango si kuya Oasis.

“Of course, we will.”

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PArang isang araw saakin ang session namin ni kuya Gian. He’s my Australian-Filipino  psychiatrist. Kahit na dalawang oras lang ang counseling namin ay parang isang araw iyon saakin.

Talking to him always drain me. I need to be so open to him and it actually makes me drained because I am not comfortable of talking about how I feel so much. Pero kahit ganon ay sumusunod ako sakanya. I need to be treated before my parents get to know about this.

Marami rin naman akong nalalaman dahil sa counseling namin ni kuya Gian pero hindi ko rin talaga maiwasang mapagod sa dami niyang tanong.

“Tired? Want to go eat before we shopping?” Kuya Oasis asked while we’re riding an escalator inside a mall. Pareho kaming naka mask at cap para hindi ako makilala ng ibang tao. Hindi naman sa artistahin ako masyado, pero people tend to want pictures to a public figure hanggang sa dinudumog na nila ako kahit yung iba ay hindi naman talaga fan or hindi naman ako kilala, just for social media. And I don’t want to burden the mall to give me securities. Masyadong hassle.

“I just like some fruit tea and I want to haul make up brands.” Sabi ko at napailing-iling nanaman si Pete na nasa isang tabi ko.

“Wag mo masyado damihan bibilhin mo, marami ka pa masyadong make ups na sponsored. You don’t really need to shopping for this.” Saway niya saakin.

“I don’t care, I feel happy when I go shopping.” Sabi ko at hindi na ito nagsalita pa at napairap na lang. Maya-maya ay kita kong inaalalayan niya si Oasis na maayos na makaalis sa escalator bago siya tumutok saakin. Parehas lang kami napakunot noo ni kuya Oasis dahil sa mga galawan niyang ganito.

He acts like he’s our parent.

“I’ll buy you a fruit tea, proceed to that boutique. That’s his favorite make up brand.” Utos niya pa saamin ni kuya Oasis bago nagpaalam para bumili. Parehas kami nagkatinginan ni kuya Oasis at natawa naman ito.

“He really acts like he’s our big brother or something, I love that he’s reliable.” Patawa-tawang sabi niya. Napairap ako bago lumakad sa boutique na tinuro ni Pete.

“Yeah, he acts like a parent to me. So strict. He reminds me of dad Arken.” Sabi ko habang papasok na sana kami sa make up boutique pero may nakita akong isang shop ng mga guitar kaya tumigil ako.

“I want a new guitar, kuya.” Sabi ko dahil balak ko mag cover ng songs sa Instagram ko habang nag gigitara. Sinulyapan niya naman ang tinitingnan ko bago napapakamot sa ulong tumango.

“Okay, mabilis lang tayo, ah. Peterson will start looking for us later.” Sabi niya at hindi ko na siya pinansin. Naglakad ako papasok sa guitar shop na nakita ko at agad akong naghanap ng makulay na gitara.

Nainis ako nang lahat ng makita kong makulay ay pulang gitara lamang. Ilang beses ko pang nilibot ang mga mata ko at nang may makita akong lavender acoustic guitar ay agad akong nagmadaling lumapit roon.

I was about to touch it when someone already grabbed it right in front of my eyes. I looked at the person who grabbed it and I saw an Australian looking guy who’s so tall. Pinagtaasan ko siya nang kilay bago ako tumikhim. Napalingon naman siya saakin at nagtatanong rin na tinaas ang kilay.

“That’s mine.” Tinuro ko ang gitarang hawak niya at sumulyap naman siya rito.

“I am holding it, so it’s mine.” Sabi pa nito. Agad na uminit ang ulo ko at ibinaba ko ang mask ko para magsalita pa.

“Give it to me, I’ll pay you triple.” Mayabang kong sabi at parang natigilan naman ito. Yeah, that’s good. He wants money.

“Hansy? You’re Hansy right?” Natigilan ako nang mali ang akala ko. Fuck. Akala ko natigilan siya sa sinabi kong presyo. Agad kong isinuot ulit ang mask ko.

“Oh my God, I’ve been wanting to meet you!” Sabi nito at lumapit pa saakin. Umatras naman ako kaya kumalma siya.

“Sorry, I’m Fred, I’m a fan of your singing voice. I love all of your covers!” Excited niyang sabi. Napalingon-lingon naman ako bago napapalunok na nagsalita ulit.

“Nice to meet you, Fred. But can I get my guitar?” Sabi ko at kukunin na sana iyong gitarang hawak niya pero inilayo niya saakin iyon.

“Can I ask for a favor, first?”

Mío

A/N: Fred, Fred, Fred… 🤔

Veintiocho

Hans

“Is that all? Deal. Give me the guitar.” Mataray kong sabi sa Fred na nagpakilala saakin. The favor he wants is to have a one hour talk with me. He said it’s something important that he wants to offer.

“Really?” Excited niya pang tanong. No.

Tumango ako at sinenyas na ibigay niya saakin ang gitara. He did at agad akong tumalikod.

“Wait! Pwede bang ngayon na tayo mag usap?” He said while following me. Agad naman akong nakita ni kuya Oasis at ang sumusunod saakin. He walked toward us at hinarangan niya pa iyong lalaki na makalapit saakin.

“Don’t come near him.” Kuya Oasis said. Napakamot naman iyong lalaki.

“I meant no harm, kinuha niya kasi iyong gitara ko.” I looked at him when he said that. Ngumiti naman siya. “If you don’t do what you said, then this is stealing.” Sabi niya pa. Pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay.

“Who said I’m not gonna do it? Let’s do it when I’m free, message me on Instagram.” Ngiti ko sakanya at kinindatan ko pa siya bago lumakad papunta sa cashier. Sumunod naman agad saakin si kuya Oasis.

“What did you tell him? And stealing?” Maagap na tanong niya.

“It’s nothing, we won’t meet again anyway. Give me your card so I don’t need to steal anything.” Hingi ko sakanya. Napailing lang ito bago ibibigay saakin ang credit card niya.

“What do you want to do next? Are you still going to shop for make ups?” Kuya asked after we bought the guitar. Dinala niya iyon at lumabas na kami ng shop.

“No, I actually want to go home and sleep.” Sabi ko at napabuntong-hininga siya.

“Sometimes, I miss the simple Hans before.” He murmured. I smirked at him.

“The one who always talks about Kaleb?” Pang-aasar ko at lumukot naman agad ang mukha niya.

“Fuck no, I love Hansy more.” Bawi niya at natatawang napairap na lang ako.

We waited for Pete to find us at nang makita niya kami ay binigay niya saakin ang fruit tea ko. Nakita ko namang may ibinigay siya kay Oasis na inumin rin at isang malaking paper bag. Tumaas ang kilay ko.

“What is that?” Tanong ko at mukhang ganon rin ang tanong ni kuya Oasis.

“Nothing, it’s not for you. Let’s go.” Sabi niya at napanguso lang ako.

We were about to walk out the mall when we saw something is going on sa event hall ng mall. Hindi na sana ako titingin pa nang mahagip ng mga mata ko ang lalaking kanina pa nasa isip ko.

The three of us stopped walking when we saw Kaleb with Oceanna, at nakita ko rin na kasama nila iyong lalaking nagpakilala saaking Fred kanina.

Agad na sumikip ang dibdib ko nang makita kong tumatawa si Kaleb kasama si Oceanna habang nakikipag-usap sa mga bata na nakita kong may mga kapansanan. They’re probably doing something related to politics and charities.

Hindi naalis ang tingin ko kung paano tumawa si Kaleb sa mga bata habang humahawak pa siya sa bewang ng babaeng iyon. Agad na nanikip ang dibdib ko ngunit napalitan iyon nang galit nang magtama ang mga mata namin.

He looked at my way at agad na nawala ang mga ngiti niya. Agad niyang inalis ang mga kamay niya sa fiance niya at napakurap-kurap siya saakin. I just looked at him and I let him know how hurt I am. Pero kahit na ganon ay hindi siya lumapit, hindi man lamang siya gumalaw.

If it was the old Kaleb, he would immediately run to me if he saw me like this, but everyone was right, it’s been three years, everything changed. He’s not my Kaleb anymore.

“Let’s go.” I heard Pete said and he ushered me out of that mall. Inalalayan niya akong sumakay sa kotse at nang makapasok kami at umandar na ang kotse ay walang nagsalita saamin.

I am at the backseat while both of them are in front, they both stayed silent until my tears started dropping and I couldn’t contain the pain in me anymore. Humikbi ako nang humikbi habang pinipigilang wag na lumuha pa.

“Fuck Kaleb.” Rinig kong mahinang sabi ni kuya Oasis. Lumakas ang hikbi ko. I looked at the both of them and I started ranting.

“That’s a fucking stab in my heart, oh God. I am sure I am more prettier, sexier and worth it than that bitch, I will prove that to fucking Kaleb!” Galit kong sigaw at malakas na sinuntok ang upuan na katabi ko.

“Stop it, we already talked about this, Hans.” Pete said.

“No, he’s right! Show that bastard what he’s been missing! You’re Hansy, who the fuck can compete against you?!” Gatong ni kuya Oasis at agad namang siyang sinaway ni Pete.

“Isa ka pa! Gumatong pa talaga? Calm him down or I will be the one who will have an episode here.” Pete stressfully said. Humikbi ako at humarap sakanila.

“Am I not that worth it to choose? Fuck! Fuck everyone! All he need to do is break up with that woman and choose me, why is that so hard?!” Malakas kong sigaw na halos sumakit ang lalamunan ko. Agad kong binato ang hawak kong fruit tea at pare-pareho kaming nabasa sa loob ng kotse.

“Hans!”

“Shit! Stop the car!”

“I can’t stop the car! Pano kung sa labas pa yan magwala?! Malapit na tayo sa hotel!” Hindi ko sila pinansin and I started breaking things inside the car.

“Ahh! I hate everything!” All I can feel was the pain, frustrations and anger inside me. Paulit-ulit na pumapasok sa isip ko ang nakita ko kanina.

“His laugh is so fake yet he’s still sticking with that bitch!” Pagsisigaw ko pa hanggang sa lumapit na saakin si kuya Oasis. Lumipat siya ng upuan at agad na pinigilan ang mga kamay at paa ko para matigil sa kakasipa at kakasira nang kung ano-ano.

“Hans, please, calm down!” Kuya Oasis started hugging me pero hindi ko siya pinansin. Nagpumiglas ako sa yakap niya at ilang beses kong sinipa ang kinauupuan ni Pete.

“If I crash this car you can’t show Kaleb what he’s missing, Hansy!” Sigaw ni Pete ngunit hindi ako natigil.

All I can think of is I don’t deserve any of this. I don’t deserve what is Kaleb’s doing to me. I should be the one he’s holding! I should be the one he’s with but he’s not doing anything for it to happen! I’m so fucking hurt!

“I don’t deserve this! I hate this! I want this to change!” Patuloy kong pagwawala at pagsisisigaw hanggang sa tumigil ang sasakyan at hindi ko namalayang may itinurok saakin si Pete.

“Pete!” I heard kuya Oasis shout while I feel a sudden mild relaxation.

“What?! He’s going to hurt himself and the both of us!” I heard Pete while I feel like I’m going unconscious.

“Fuck! This is the last time we’re sedating him! Think about the side effects!” That’s the last sentence I heard before I fell deeply unconscious.

__

Peterson’s

“Based on our evaluation, it appears that he have Intermittent Explosive Disorder or IED. It’s more than just an anger issues, it’s a kind of psychological condition.” Pareho kaming natahimik ni Oasis dahil sa sinabi ni Gian, ang psychiatrist and therapist ni Hans.

Nasa hotel kami ngayon at wala pa ring malay si Hans. Napalunok ako at halos masabunutan ko ang sarili ko dahil sa sinasabi niya.

“What? What the hell is that? Is it dangerous?” Oasis asked.

“IED is when someone has sudden, really intense fits of anger that don’t match the situation. It’s more than just regular anger issues. It’s unpredictable and stronger.” Paliwanag ni Gian.

“Fucking shit.” Oasis cursed.

“What can we do about it?” Tanong ko.

“For Hansy, these outbursts might be connected to things like unresolved feelings or stress. We need to figure out these triggers to help him manage and prevent him having an episode.” Napatango-tango ako. He needs to talk to Kaleb. That fucker will taste my fucking wrath.

Tumalikod ako at lumakad palapit sa pinto.

“Where are you going?” Oasis asked. Hindi ako sumagot at bubuksan ko na sana ang pinto nang may magbukas ’non at nagulat pa ako nang makita ang Governor na nasa harap ko.

“Where’s Hans?” He said. Hindi agad ako nakasagot dahil sa gulat na siya na mismo ang pumunta rito. Pero wrong timing dahil nandito ang psychiatrist ni Hans.

“At talagang nandito ka pa? Ang kapal ng mukha mo-” Agad kong pinigilan si Oasis at hinila siya palayo kay Kaleb nang balak niya itong lapitan. Agad namang tumalas ang mga mata ni Kaleb.

“And why are you here?” Tanong ni Kaleb at pumasok ng kwarto. Napatingin siya kay Gian at nagtanong kung sino ito, agad akong napairap at napailing-iling. Balak sana ulit sumagot ni Oasis ngunit agad ko siyang hinila palabas. Sinenyasan ko rin si Gian na lumabas na at agad naman itong sumunod.

“Stay here, I’ll talk to him.” Sabi ko kay Oasis ngunit umiling-iling ito at galit na tumuro sa pinto kung saan ang kwarto ni Hans.

“Ang kapal ng mukha niyang pumunta rito-” I shushed Oa at umiling-iling ako sakanya.

“Hans needs him. Let me talk to him, don’t run your mouth, Oa.” Pakiusap ko sakanya at pinagkunutan lang ako nito ng noo bago inis na tumalikod para umalis. Tumango naman ako kay Gian nang magpaalam ito na aalis na rin. I sighed and walked inside Hans room again.

I saw Kaleb sitting on the side of the bed where Hans is lying.

“Did he have an episode again?” He asked while looking at Hansy and caressing his hands. Napabuntong-hininga ako. I badly want to shout at him and tell him all the things that the psychiatrist said but I know that will just ruin everything he has worked hard for.

I can’t ruin the both of them. I can only ease the pain they’re both feeling.

“We needed to sedate him because he was so angry when he saw you being touchy with your fiance.” Sabi ko at nakita ko kung paano bumalot ang sakit sa mukha niya. His expression softened and I can see that he’s almost tearing up.

“Pete, I don’t think I can do it anymore. I want to stop hurting him.” He said at napalunok ako sa awa nang makitang tumulo ang mga luha niya.

“I don’t want you to give up all of your plans, but I want you to stop hurting Hans. Is Oceanna really necessary?” Ani ko at tumingin naman siya saakin.

“If she is not fucking necessary I wouldn’t have her by my side, it’s making me sick, Pete. I hate pretending to be sweet with her just because she needed to be good in the eyes of everyone.” Matigas niyang sabi at napayuko.

“It was a favor, the thing the three of you saw earlier, it was a favor from her. She said she will give me the information I needed if I do all of it, it was the information about his bastard father.” Paliwanag pa niya. Napabuntong-hininga ako at sumasakit na rin ang ulo ko sa kung paano ko ba sila tutulungan na dalawa.

“I will talk to Hans to go back to New York, after your plan is done, go find us.” Sabi ko ngunit umiling-iling siya.

“I was happy that he’s back, Pete, I was really happy when he said he missed me and want me back. It took me everything not to put him in my arms and give up everything just to be with him, I don’t want to see him go again.” Sabi niya at hinalikan ang noo ni Hans. Napabuntong-hininga ako.

“Well he’s not going to do it anyway, he doesn’t want to run away again, but his episodes are no joke these days, he’s being triggered by your actions towards him.” Sabi ko. Tumango siya at pinunasan ang luha sa mga mata niya.

“I will tell him half of my plan, I want him to be aware that I still love him but I have something to do before we can be happy together.” Sumakit ang ulo ko sa sinabi niya.

I don’t know if that will work with Hans. He hates it that it’s hundred reasons over him. I hope he can understand Kaleb.

Mío

A/N: Excited na ako sa

habulan

and

asaran

🤗

Veintinueve

Hans

I felt someone caressing my face while I am asleep. Napaungot ako sa sakit ng lalamunan at ulo na naramdaman ko. Iminulat ko ang mga mata ko at tumingin sa lalaking nasa tabi ko. Hindi agad ako nakapagsalita nang hindi si Pete or si kuya Oasis ang nakita ko kundi ang nag-iisang Governor ng Quezon.

“Kaleb,” Banggit ko sa pangalan niya. He looked at me with his soft expression but all I can think of is what I saw inside the mall. Iniwas ko ang tingin ko sakanya bago pa man ako magalit.

“Are you okay? Is something wrong?” Tanong niya nang humawak ako sa ulo ko dahil sa pagkahilo. This the side effect of that sedation. Humawak ako sa balikat ko dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman ko roon. I saw it bruised and I knew na doon tinurok ni Pete ang sedation saakin. He’s so rough. He’s probably in panic because I was uncontrollable earlier.

“Fuck, who did that?” Muling tanong ni Kaleb. I looked at him and sighed. I don’t know if I should be happy or mad that he’s here.

“Stay away from me from now on.” Mahina kong sabi. Natahimik siya nang ilang segundo.

“Pumpkin..” Napalingon ako sakanya nang banggitin niya ang pangalan na iyon. Napakurap ako at natawa sa pagkapikon.

“What do you want, Kaleb? Why are you here?” Muli kong tanong. I stared at him and he looks like he wants to tell me something but he can’t, like always.

“I just.. I want you to be okay.” Mahina niyang sabi. Kumunot ang noo ko.

“Okay from what?” I asked pero mabilis siyang umiling.

“Pumpkin, I missed you too.” Sumikdo ang puso ko nang sa wakas ay sagutin niya ang sinabi ko nung unang araw kaming nagkita. I blinked and looked at him with sadness.

“But you can’t be with me, right?“ Tanong ko at nakita ko siyang napalunok bago sumagot.

“God knows how much I want to be with you, I just need to do something befor—“ Pinutol ko ang sasabihin niya.

“It’s still reasons over me, right? It has always been.” Kumakabog ang dibdib ko at alam kong hindi imposibleng magalit ako sa oras na ito ngunit pigil na pigil ko iyon. I don’t want him to see me so hopeless.

“I love you so much. I love you still, Hans Gabriel. I do, but I need to put them in jail, nagsimula ako ng plano, Hans, I can’t just ditch it—“

“You can’t just ditch it for me, right?“ Tumayo ako at tumalikod sakanya dahil papatulo na ang luha ko sa sinabi niya.

He loves me still, but it’s still not enough reason to be with me.

“Governor, whatever your plan is, do it. But don’t expect that I am still holding on to you, I am done.“ I am done being so hopeless and then will get violent if things don’t go my way.

“Don’t say that, please, I need you.“ Humarap ako sakanya at pikon na natawa.

“But you need your fiance more, right? That’s why you’re with her!“ Taas boses ko. Agad siyang tumayo at binalak lumapit saakin ngunit umatras ako habang nalulungkot at nagagalit na nakatingin sakanya.

“I was ready to offer myself to you when I came back, Kaleb. I was ready to swallow my pride— my ego, just to be with you. But I can’t do that when there’s already someone by your side, there’s still someone by your side, I don’t wanna be a second anymore. I don’t wanna be hidden by anyone’s shadow anymore.” Lumapit ako sakanya.

“I am done understanding your unending reasons to choose someone over me. I am done fooling myself that I am okay that you will only choose me once you’re done with all of your responsibilities. I left because of that, Kaleb, yet when I came back nothing changed. You can call me selfish all you want, but I am choosing my sanity over this relationship.” Mabigat ang dibdib kong deklara habang nakatingin sa mga mata niyang nangungusap saakin. It still hurts to see him in pain, but if I don’t choose myself, I am going crazy.

“Is that really what you want?” No. I want you to choose me over everything.

“What I want doesn’t matter, I won’t get it anyway.” Ani ko at muling umupo sa kama ko.

“I can’t do that, pumpkin.” Tinaas ko ang tingin ko sakanya nang sabihin niya iyon. He walked towards me.

“Whether you like it or not, I will not stay away from you, I will be selfish too. I am not going to give up with my plans because they deserve to be in jail, but I am also not giving up on you because I deserve you. You’re only mine.” Napalunok ako nang lumapit siya saakin at itinulak ako pahiga sa kama.

“Kaleb!” Saway ko sakanya nang kubabawan niya ako at hawakan ang mukha ko.

“No te

dejaré

estar

con

alguien

más

que yo

conmigo

, eres

mío

,

siempre

mío

.” He started speaking Spanish and unlike before, I can fully understand him now. Matapang ko siyang hinarap kahit na ramdam na ramdam ko ang katawan niya na nakadikit saakin at pinanghihina ako noon.

[ Translation: I

won’t let you be with someone else but me, you’re mine, always mine. ]

“ Entonces

elígeme

o me

perderás

.

Elegir

.”  Sagot ko sakanya at halatang nagulat siya.

[ Translation:

Then choose me, or you will lose me. Pick. ]

“Pumpkin,” Banggit niya sa itinatawag niya saakin. Pilit ko siyang tinutulak ngunit hindi siya umalis at titig na titig lamang saakin na parang gusto akong kainin.

“Stay away or I will kick you!” Inis kong sigaw ngunit ngumisi lamang siya bago sinakop ang mga labi ko. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Impit akong umungot at malakas siyang tinulak at malakas na sinampal.

“Jerk!” Sigaw ko sakanya ngunit hindi naalis ang ngisi niya.

“You still taste good as ever, pumpkin. You’re so hot talking in spanish.” Ngisi niya ngunit sinamaan ko lamang siya ng tingin.

“You’re still a cheater to your fiance.” Akusa ko at umirap siya. Parang gusto ko siyang sipain sa ginawa niyang iyon. Kahit naiinis ako sakanya ay ang gwapo ng loko. Walang kupas. Mas lumaki ang katawan niya, mas gumwapo, mas naging lalaking-lalaki. Nakakabwesit.

“To hell with that, she knows who I love and she accepted that, she needs to accept it. Fuck everyone, I want you.” Sabi niya at balak sana ulit akong halikan ngunit malakas ko siyang tinuhod sa kalakihan niya.

“Agh!” Agad siyang namilipit sa tabi ko. Tumayo ako at matalas siyang tiningnan.

“Bastard. I will not let you touch me when you have your bitch of a fiance. Over my dead body.” I spat and walked towards the door to open it.

“Get out!” Sigaw ko ngunit namimilipit pa rin siya sa higaan ko.

“Ah- fuck, where did my good boy Hans go?” Humahangos niya pang sabi habang tumatayo. I glared at him.

“Get out, Governor. I’m not kidding.” Matigas kong sabi at napapailing namang lumakad ito saakin habang may maliit na ngisi pa rin sa mga labi. I glared at him so hard.

“I want you to call me like that when I start ravishing your sexy bod—” I attempted to kick him at nagmamadali naman siyang lumabas ng pinto para hindi siya maabot ng sipa ko.

“Pervert!” Sigaw ko bago siya pinagsarhan ng pinto. Humahangos akong bumalik sa higaan ko at hinawakan ang dibdib ko sa sobrang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko.

Fucking Kaleb. Nag da-drama yung tao tapos hahaluan niya ng init ng katawan niya! Fucking bastard.

Hinawakan ko ang pisnge ko at napairap sa sarili dahil nag i-init iyon. What am I fucking blushing for?

Ugh. I hate myself for being so soft to him. Kahit anong mangyari ay patay na patay pa rin talaga ako sa bwesit na iyon.

Humangos ako nang malalim at napalunok.

I shouldn’t forget that he’s still not choosing me, but I have a plan for that. If he doesn’t choose me, then I will let him know what’s he’s missing. I will show him how devastating it is to lose me.

Tumayo ako at pumasok sa banyo para maligo. Habang ginagawa iyon ay hawak-hawak ko ang mga labi kong sinakop niya kanina.

He still taste good too, but I hate myself for letting him kiss me when he has someone else. Ayaw ko na bumalik sa dati na hinahayaan ko siyang pagsabayin kami. Not again, over my dead body.

Lumabas ako ng banyo nang matapos akong maligo at nakita ko si Pete na nasa kama ko at mukhang hinihintay ako.

“Hey, sorry for kicking you earlier.” Sabi ko. Kumunot naman ang noo niya.

“It was yesterday.” He said and nagulat naman ako. Tumingin ako sa bintana na maliwanag pa naman. Is it another day? Did I sleep that long?

“Are you now feeling okay? Kaleb stayed with you all night.” Sabi niya kaya napalingon ulit ako sakanya. I stared at him and sighed.

“How long were you working for me, Peterson?“ Tanong ko bago dumeretso sa closet ko at naghanap ng masusuot.

“For how long you’re a model, that’s also how long I am with you. Why?” He said. Umiling ako.

“Nothing, you’re just too loyal to me.“ Sabi ko. Natahimik naman siya.

“You don’t want that?” Tanong niya. Tinapos ko ang pagbibihis ko bago lumabas ng closet at ngumiti sakanya.

“I love it, stay that way.” Makahulugan kong sabi bago tumabi sakanya.

“Why did you let Kaleb in? Sa pagkakaalam ko you’re so against him.” Sabi ko habang chine-check ang mga messages sa Instagram ko.

“I figured you need to talk to him, the episodes you’re going through is no joke, Hansy. Gian will talk to you about it later, don’t lash out.” Napabuntong-hininga ako sa sinabi niya. Another session nanaman.

“Why do I need to talk to the Governor of Quezon?” Tanong ko at napangiti nang makita ang message na hinahanap ko.

Fred Argus, the one I met in the mall. I saw him with Kaleb and Oceanna so I am intrigued now.

“He’s been triggering you since we came back here. So, did you have a talk?” Tanong niya. I looked at him and smirked.

“I am aware that I am losing my mind, Pete.” Sabi ko at kumunot noo siya. “This is not just an anger issues, right? Hah, I knew I’m losing my sanity over a fucking guy.” I spat and stood up.

“What do you mean?” He asked.

“Watch me do the same thing to him.” Sabi ko at napatitig sa kawalan habang iniisip ang mga gagawin ko para matauhan siyang piliin ako.

Let’s both lose our sanity, Governor.

Mío

A/N: What are you planning Hans 😬

Short UD for New Year!

Maligayang

bagong

taon

sa all! 🎊

Treinta

Hans

“Why is there a guy looking for you outside?” Tanong ni Pete nang pumasok siya sa hotel room ko kasama si kuya Oasis na tulala sa kung saan.

“Who?” I asked.

“He said his name is Fred.” Napangiti ako nang marinig ang pangalan na binanggit niya.

“Let him in.” Sabi ko ngunit tiningnan niya ako mula ulo hanggang paa.

“With you looking like that?” Ani niya at pinagtaasan ko naman siya ng kilay. I looked at what I am wearing at maayos naman ang pagkakatali ng robe na suot ko.

“What’s wrong?” Taas kilay ko.

“You’re only wearing a robe.” He stated. I rolled my eyes.

“I’m wearing my underwear underneath, don’t worry. Let him in so I can take a shower already. We’re only gonna have a short chitchat and then he’ll go.” Sabi ko. Ilang segundo niya naman muna ako tiningnan bago napapailing na lumabas. Maya-maya ay pumasok siya kasama na iyong Fred na pasulyap-sulyap sa hotel room ko hanggang sa makita niya ako. I smiled at him.

“Come here, let’s talk.” Sabi ko at nag alangan naman siya bago lumapit saakin. Umupo kami sa two seater table ko sa gilid. Nag dekwatro ako at patagilid na tiningnan siya mula ulo hanggang paa.

He looks like a decent person. Gwapo rin naman siya pero hindi papantay sa klase ng gwapo na type ko. He has a long brown curly hair and he looks like a typical musician hence I met him inside a guitar shop.

“So, what do you want to talk to me?” Tanong ko. Napalunok naman siya bago ngumiti saakin. Kinakalma ang sarili. He’s probably nervous because Pete and kuya Oasis keeps looking at him.

“Uhm, I am Fred Argus, a famous singer here in the Philippines.” Sabi niya at tumaas ang kilay ko. He’s famous? May inabot siya saaking card at kinuha ko iyon. I looked at it and he’s from a famous agency.

“He’s from Dream Agency, kuya Oasis. Did you know him?” Lingon ko kay kuya Oasis. Umiling naman ito.

“He looks familiar to me, but I didn’t know him.” Sabi niya. Napatango lang ako at muling tumingin kay Fred na mukhang naiilang pa rin.

“Don’t mind the two of them. So, the thing you wanted to talk about?” Tanong ko muli. Napakamot siya sa ulo bago nagsalita.

“I have a concert next week for the music fest in Quezon, the Governor wanted me to sing there and I actually want you to have a duet with me.” Napakurap ako sa sinabi niya at napangiti nang kaonti.

“Governor Cabrera?” I asked. Tumango naman siya at may inabot saakin na flyer. It’s a flyer about the music fest that’s gonna be held next week, Governor Cabrera is sponsoring it for the people in Quezon. Naroon ang mukha niya at mukha ng Governor na kagabi lang ay nasa kwarto ko. Sa tabi ni Fred ay isang silhouette na may question mark, it’s indicating a surprise guest.

“So you want me to be the surprise guest? Why? Did the governor asked for me?” Tanong ko pero umiling naman siya.

“No, I am really a fan of yours and nung nabalitaan ko na umuwi ka ng Pilipinas, I tried so hard to reach out but I couldn’t. Swerte ko dahil nakita kita sa mall.” Malaking ngiti niya. Napanguso ako. So Kaleb didn’t asked for me, huh?

“I’m flattered, I’ll be your surprise guest.” Sabi ko at parang nagulat naman siya pati na sila Pete.

“What?” Kuya Oasis asked.

“Don’t tell me this is because of Kaleb?” Si Pete. I glared at them.

“Do you know the Governor?” Tanong ni Fred. Umiling ako sakanya.

“Nah, let’s talk about the rehearsal later. I’ll message you.” Sabi ko at tumayo na.

“Wait, hindi naman na magbabago isip mo diba? Please don’t change your mind.” Pahabol niya pa bago ako pumasok sa banyo. I looked at him and nod my head.

“Of course not, I already gave my yes to you.” Ngiti ko bago pumasok sa banyo.

Hindi nawala ang ngiti ko habang hinuhubad ang robe na suot ko.

I’ll make you so jealous that you will lose your mind, Governor.

__

“WHy did you say yes, Hans? Alam mong marami kang session with Gian and also your work.” Sabi ni kuya Oasis nang makalabas ako sa banyo. Dumeretso ako sa closet ko para maghanap ng maisusuot.

“I miss singing, and this will also make me happy and away from triggers. I can multitask, kuya.” Sagot ko habang nagbibihis. Hindi siya umimik at tinitigan lamang ako habang nagbibihis. I rolled my eyes.

“Kuya, stop fantasizing about me.” Biro ko pero hindi siya natuwa.

“Then stop acting like I don’t like you, why are you so comfortable being almost naked around me.” Sabi niya. Sasagot na sana ako nang makita ko si Pete na nakatitig kay kuya Oasis. Tumaas ang kilay ko bago nagsalita.

“Because you know that whatever happens, it’s Kaleb that I want.” Deretso kong sabi at napaungot naman siya.

“And you said yes to that musician because of Kaleb, right? What are you planning?” Tanong niya. Tinapos ko naman ang pagbibihis ko bago nangingiting umupo sa harap ng vanity mirror ko.

“Just watch me do my thing, he will lose his mind like how I am losing my mind over our situation.” Ngiti ko bago nagsimulang mag ayos.

“And what if it doesn’t work? You will lose your mind over and over again?” Pete suddenly said. Napanguso ako at humarap sakanya.

“Oh Pete, the Governor of Quezon has fucked me before, he’s not forgetting the feeling of that.” Asar ko at pareho nalukot ang mukha nila ni kuya Oasis.

“He touched you before? Hans, akala ko kiss lang?” Kuya Oasis asked at natulala ako sa mukha niya. He looks like he’s hurt. Para siyang batang inagawan ng pagkain sa itsura niya ngayon. I almost chuckled but he really looks like he’s genuinely hurt.

“Why did you think that?” Tanong ko. Tumayo naman siya at napabuntong-hininga.

“You were so innocent before, Hans. You were even scared of me when I get serious, and I thought I had a chance. Dati pa pala ay wala na talaga akong pag-asa.” Mahaba niyang sabi at lumakad palabas ng kwarto ko. I blinked at the door and looked at Pete.

“Is he sad that Kaleb has fucked me before?” Hindi ko makapaniwalang tanong. Umungot si Pete at napairap.

“Hans, sometimes I am thinking you became a fucking sociopath. Be mindful of what you say, alam mong may nararamdaman pa sayo yung tao.” Saway niya at lalo akong nawindang.

“Pete, he watched me lose my sanity over another guy. Tapos masasaktan siya to know that me and Kaleb were fucking before? Like, yeah, it wasn’t on my face but he should know that Kaleb is a fucking living predator that preyed on me.” Irap ko bago muling humarap sa salamin para mag ayos.

It’s not that I don’t feel sad for kuya Oasis liking me when I love another guy, pero dati pa man ay hindi na ako nagpakita ng motibo sakanya. He’s like my brother and that will remain like that.

“Ewan ko rin kay Oa, he still likes you despite everything. He watched you changed because of a guy yet he’s still hoping that someday you will choose him over Kaleb.” Sabi ni Pete. I looked at him thru the mirror and he looks sad and in deep thoughts. These two are being weird.

“I don’t think he still likes me, Pete.” Sabi ko at parang napukaw ko naman ang interes niya.

“Why do you say so?” He asked. Nagkibit-balikat ako.

“He’s not like before, if you saw him before towards me, malalaman mong ang mga akto niya ngayon ay hindi na katulad ng dati. He’s overly protective and his desire for me always shows before, but that’s not the case right now. He doesn’t like me like that anymore. I am sure of it.” Sabi ko habang inaayos ang buhok ko.

“Then why do you think he’s being like that earlier?” Tanong niya pa.

“Maybe he’s confused.” Kibit-balikat ko ulit. Tumayo ako at tiningnan siya. He’s in deep thoughts again. Maya-maya ay tumayo siya at tumingin din saakin.

“Where are you going?” Tanong niya. Ngumiti ako.

“To talk with Fred about our concert, how about you?” Tanong ko. Tiningnan niya naman ako mula ulo hanggang paa.

“You dressed so fine to meet a stranger, why is that?” Hindi ko pinansin ang tanong niya at kinuha ang selpon ko para i-message si Fred.

“Hindi ako makakasama sayo, should I hire a security-” Pinutol ko ang sasabihin niya.

“No, I can go on my own. I’m not a kid.” Sabi ko at tumango naman siya at nagpaalam saakin na aalis na. I just looked at him go at napaisip kung bakit pumayag siya agad. Mahigpit kasi ang isang yun kapag a-alis ako nang mag-isa. He’s out minded right now, I can tell. Maybe because of kuya Oasis. That’s good because I need some alone time to roam.

__

“So it’s a wrap, I’ll talk to the band that’s gonna play with us about your song picks. Be there every rehearsals.” Sabi ni Fred at napapangiti akong tumango bago sumipsip sa fruit tea ko. We’re inside a fine restaurant and we just finished talking about the concert at the music fest in Quezon.

“Can I ask something?” Napangiti muli ako nang sabihin niya iyon. Good. I want him to be intrigued about me.

“Yeah, what is it?”

“Why did you say yes so easily? I’ve been reaching out to your management for almost a year now and yet I can’t even get you to have a collab with me,” He said. “Tapos nung nasa mall tayo, I was sure you were bluffing that you will talk to me, what’s up?” He asked curiously. I chuckled.

“Nothings up, I just wanna have fun, away from all the stress. And you’re my fan, you should know I love singing the most.” Sabi ko at tumango-tango naman siya. “And I am a model, my management will of course ignore you because they won’t profit off of my singing.” Dagdag ko pa.

“Make sense, but you should be a singer, your voice is so amazing. I’m serious.” Seryoso niyang sabi. Maliit lang akong napangiti at kumuha ng cake para isubo. Sinadya kong kumalat ang icing sa gilid ng labi ko and when he saw that, he immediately put a tissue in it and wiped it off. I grinned at him.

“Be careful, there’s a paparazzi taking a pictures of us. It’ll be all over our feed.” Natatawa kong sabi at parang natigilan naman siya.

“What? Isn’t that bad for you? I’m so sorry I picked this place-” Umiling-iling ako.

“It’s okay, how about you? Is this considered a scandal? I mean, I’m a guy.” Sabi ko pero ngumiti ang loko.

“Nah, if it’s with you, I’ll be even happy to have a scandal, no kidding.” Sabi niya at natawa talaga ako. What a weirdo.

“You’re really a fan, huh?” I blabbered and nangingiti siyang tumango-tango.

“Is it not risking your career, having an issue with a gay guy?” Sabi ko dahil naalala ko nanaman iyong unang beses na kumalat ang mukha ko sa social media kasama si Kaleb. That’s when Oceanna came and had to interfere so Kaleb won’t lose his voters. Sad memory.

“I don’t care. If they’re really a fan, they won’t be pointing fingers at me for doing nothing wrong. There’s nothing wrong being with a gay guy, right? As long as you like each other. Not that I am saying I like you.” Sabi niya at napatulala naman ako sa mukha niya habang may maliit na ngiti sa mga labi. I hope Kaleb can think like that as well.

“So you don’t like me?” Pag-iiba ko nang usapan dahil ayaw kong malungkot at baka sa iba nanaman iyon mapunta. Parang nataranta naman siya sa tanong ko at napaiwas pa nang tingin. I chuckled. Halatang-halata na gusto niya ako.

“I-I’m open with the possibility of having a relationship with you.” Sabi niya at ilang segundo akong natahimik bago malakas na natawa. Nahihiya naman siyang sumulyap lang saakin hanggang sa matigil ako kakatawa.

“That was funny. I don’t do relationships, Fred.” Sabi ko at napipilitang natawa na lang rin siya. I was about to say something again when I saw someone entered the restaurant. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at napakurap-kurap pa.

The hell is he doing here?

Lumingon ako sa kung saan ko nakita iyong paparazzi at nakahinga ako nang maluwag nang makitang wala na iyon.

“Governor! Akala ko mamaya pa kayo?” Bati ni Fred nang nasa harap na namin si Kaleb na pasulyap-sulyap saaming dalawa. Napasulyap ako sa sinabi niya.

“Yeah, I thought so too. We’re going to start now.” Sabi niya kay Fred at napapatango naman itong tumingin sakanya bago sumulyap saakin at nagsalita.

“Oh, this is Hansy, Governor. Hansy, you know Governor Kaleb Cabrera right?” Sabi niya at ngumiti naman ako bago tumayo at inabot ang kamay kay Kaleb.

“Hansy, nice meeting you Gov., you are really annoyingly handsome in person.” I sarcastically said and he scoffed before shaking my hand. Pinisil niya pa ang kamay ko bago iyon binitawan.

“Why are you the one fetching me, Gov?” Tanong muli ni Fred bago tumingin saakin at nagpaliwanag.

“I picked this place because Governor’s fiance will be holding a charity event here today, together with me and of course her fiance.” Paliwanag niya at hindi agad ako nakaimik. Siya kasi ang pinapili ko ng place at dito niya pinili. I actually didn’t expect to see Kaleb here.

“I was about to buy something here and I just saw the two of you.” Sabi naman ni Kaleb sa unang tanong ni Fred. Napataas lang ang kilay ko. Cunning coincidence, huh. I doubt it. But oh well, I can start my plan here.

“Is that so, then, hahatid ko lang si Hansy and then susunod na ako-” Hindi pinatapos ni Kaleb ang sasabihin ni Fred.

“No, they want you there right now.” Maikli niyang sabi habang seryoso. Pinanuod ko lang silang mag-usap hanggang sa napilitan si Fred na pumayag na lamang na pumunta na sa kung saang sulok ng mall. Why is his fiance so obsessed with charities inside the mall. What a show off.

“Then, can you wait for me, Hansy? You can watch the show-” Umiling ako.

“Nah, that’ll be too boring. May pupuntahan pa naman ako, I can go home on my own. Do your thing.” Sabi ko at napapakamot na lamang siyang tumango at nagpaalam saakin. Kasabay niya si Kaleb umalis at pasulyap-sulyap pa ito saakin. Hindi ko naman inalis ang tingin ko sakanya at nilabanan ko iyon.

What a prick, I’m sure he just wants Fred to go away from me.

Umupo ulit ako sa table ko at nag scroll sa internet. Ilang minuto pa ay lihim akong napangiti nang muling pumasok ang nag-iisang Governor ng Quezon at dumeretso ito sa table ko. He sat in front of me and sighed.

“What do you want?” Tanong ko.

“I want you to cancel on Fred’s request, you can’t sing there, pumpkin.” Deretso niyang sabi. Nakaabot na pala sakanya ang balita. Good. Ibinaba ko ang selpon ko at tiningnan siya nang nakakaasar.

“Why not? ’Coz you and your fiance are gonna be there? I don’t give a fuck, Governor.” I sassed him and he groaned.

“Your mouth is really something else now huh, I’ll clean that with my own mouth if you don’t stop it, Hans.” Banta niya pero kinunotan ko lamang siya ng noo.

“Say whatever you fucking want, you said to live my life and you will live yours without me, why are you here?” Tanong ko at napatitig naman siya nang ilang segundo bago sumagot.

“I didn’t mean any of that, I just need you to stay away for now-”

“I can stay away for the rest of my life, Governor.” Matigas kong sabi at nainis ako nang makita ang pagtutol sa mga mata niya. Why is he being so complicated? I know he still wants me so why can’t he just drop everything and choose me? I’m tired of all his nonsense, I’m tired hearing all of his reasons to do this.

“Pumpkin,” Banggit niya na parang nakikiusap. We stared at each other. He was staring at me with his soft gaze while I am looking at him with nothing but fierce facade. Hindi ako kumibo at ganon rin siya hanggang sa makita kong nagbago ang tingin niya saakin. Napairap ako.

“Governor, stop staring at my lips.” Ani ko habang walang emosyong nakatitig kay Kaleb.

“I’m not,” Pag d-deny niya na ikinairap ko. Natuon ang tingin ko sa pumasok sa restaurant kung nasaan kami. I bit the inside of my cheeks before sighing in annoyance.

“Your fiance is currently walking toward us, gritting her teeth, habang malagkit pa rin ang titig mo saakin. I’m hot, I know, but get over it.” Gigil kong sabi sakanya dahil panigurado ay mag e-eskandalo nanaman ang fiance niya dahil nakita kami nitong magkasama.

“Pumpkin, I’ll meet you tonight, wait for me.” Sabi niya bago tumalikod at hinarang si Oceanna bago pa ito makalapit saakin. Napailing ako habang matalas ang tingin sakanilang dalawa. Why can’t they just leave me alone? And he should stop calling me that or meeting with me, he has a fiance for goodness sake!

Our interactions should only be planned by me. I don’t wanna be called the other man again because I keep meeting with someone who has a fiance.

Napailing ako at lumakad paalis ng restaurant na iyon. What a tiring day.

Mío

A/N: May pasok na ba kayo? Na busy ako sa clearance at enrollment. Sa Jan. 22 pa pasukan namin kaya susulitin ko na HAHAHAHA sana marami pa akong ma update bago ang pasukan!

Treinta y uno

Hans

I was looking at my phone with too many messages and notifications from Instagram and twitter. Napangiti ako nang makitang trending na ang picture namin ni Fred na nasa restaurant.

[ Filipino singer Fred Argus and famous model Hansy was seen at a restaurant being sweet to each other. What’s the catch with these two? ]

It was maliciously captioned and people are hollering over it all over the internet. I guess Fred is really famous here. That’s good. I’m sure that bastard of a Governor will lose his shit if he sees this. He was a jealous motherfucker before.

[ Ay

bagay

! Ganda talaga ni Hansy, walang

kupas

! ]

[

Bagay

sana kaso marami

nanamang

homophobic jan! ]

[

Halaaa

! Sakin lang sana si Fred pero sige si Hansy na yan ’e huhu ]

I chuckled at the few positive comments I read.

“Nung kami ni Kaleb, puro negatibo nabasa ko, pambihira. Pretty privilege is really something.” Iling ko. Hindi naman ako pangit noon pero hindi pa kasi ako marunong manamit ’non at wala pang confidence, now that I have the charm, people are really being swayed by me, huh. I always get what I want and I will make it stay that way.

Natigil ako sa pagbabasa ng mga comments na shiniship kami ni Fred nang pumasok si Pete sa kwarto ko.

“Hey, what the hell is going on? Why are you and that famous singer all over the internet?” Tanong agad niya at ipinakita saakin ang article na binabasa niya sa iPad niya. Nagkibit-balikat ako.

“I dunno, they think we have something going on.” Painosente ko at napahawak naman siya sa noo niya.

“So this is why you’ve dressed so extra earlier, huh? What are you doing, Hansy?” Tanong niya at umiling-iling pa ako sakanya bago natawa nang makitang napipikon na siya sa ginagawa kong pagpapainosente. Pikunin.

“Fine, it was just my hunch that a paparazzi will take a picture of us but it did happen, just let it be. I want Kaleb to lose his mind when he sees everybody thinking I have a relationship with Fred.” Like how I lose my mind when everybody was happy with his fake relationship with Oceanna while I stayed in the shadow before. I’m just letting him feel what I felt, tingnan natin kung tatanggapin niya ang mga rason ko para gawin ito sakanya katulad ng pagtanggap ko noon sa sitwasyon namin.

He wants to keep doing this with me, then I’ll let him taste his own medicine.

“You’re crazy, it’s because of that Kaleb again.” Iling-iling niya at ngumiti lang ako habang nasisiyahan sa kababasa ng mga post sa twitter about sa picture namin ni Fred. The paparazzi was a good photographer, kuhang-kuha niya iyong time na pinunasan ni Fred ang labi ko.

“Are you really happy with what’s going on?” Tanong ni Pete habang pinapanuod akong ngumiti-ngiti sa selpon ko. I looked at him seriously and tsked.

“Happy that I am being desperate to get Kaleb’s attention? Of course not, but I have no choice. It’s either I’ll be a damsel in distress or a temptress. What do you prefer?” Nawala ang ngiti ko at mataray na tumingin sakanya. Napailing-iling naman siya saakin.

“I’ll take the latter, it’s hard seeing you sad and then get angry about everything.” Sabi niya. “Did you and Gian talked already?” Tanong niya at tumango ako. Bumigat nanaman ang pakiramdam ko dahil naalala ang sinabi saakin kanina ni Gian.

Pagkauwing-pagkauwi ko kasi ay nandito na siya para iparating ang balita saakin tungkol sa lagay ko. His assumption was right, it wasn’t just anger issues, it was worst.

Napabuntong-hininga ako at napahiga sa kama ko.

“Will I ever recover from this, Pete? If I finally have Kaleb again, will I get better?” Tanong ko habang nakatulala sa kisame. Natahimik siya nang ilang segundo bago sumagot.

“You already think he’s your cure, you have your answer.” Sagot niya at natawa ako.

“He’s the living trigger, of course he will likely be the cure.” Sabi ko at humangos muli nang malalim bago tumayo.

“Can you prepare the bathtub for me, I want a hot aromatic wash.” Ani ko at ginawa niya naman agad. Pumunta ako sa walk in closet ko at hinubad ang lahat ng suot ko bago kumuha ng robe at iyon ang sinuot. I cleaned my face in front of a mirror and took every accessories I had on before I waited for Pete to come out of the bathroom.

Nang makalabas siya ay nagsalita siya agad.

“Go have a hot wash, I’ll buy some wine and some scented candles for you to relax.” Sabi niya at lumaki ang ngiti ko.

“Can I also have cigarettes?” Tanong ko at agad na sumama ang tingin niya.

“Why? I thought you already quit?” Ani niya pa. Ngumiwi ako. I became addicted to nicotine last year. Probably because of stress and also the influence of my surroundings in New York.

“I need it, just one. I promise not to smoke unless I’m so stress.” Pakiusap ko at napabuntong-hininga na lamang siya.

“Whatever, just one. I’ll be right back right away.” Paalam niya. Pumasok naman na ako sa banyo at hinubad ang robe na suot ko. I took a quick shower to clean my whole body before entering the bathtub. The water was warm and scented with bathtub soap. Hindi na malinaw ang tubig kaya hindi makikita ang katawan ko kahit na pumasok pa si Pete mamaya.

I soaked my whole body at tanging ulo ko lamang ang hindi nakalubog sa tubig. Huminga ako and I relaxed my head.

Maya-maya lang ay dumating na si Pete dala-dala ang mga pinamili niya. Sinindihan niya ang mga scented candles at ipinatong ang mga iyon malapit sa bathtub at saka niya binuksan ang red wine at nagsalin sa champagne glass. He gave me the glass of wine and put the bottle where I could easily reach it.

“My cigarette?“ I asked before sipping on my wine. Inilabas niya naman ang isang kaha ng sigarilyo sa pocket niya at kumuha ng isa. Sinindihan niya iyon bago ako binigyan ng maliit na towel. Pinunas ko ang isa kong kamay roon bago ko inabot ang sigarilyong sinindihan niya.

“I love you so much, Peterson. How could I even survive without you?” Pang-uuto ko and he just scoffed.

“Be thankful that I am still sorry for always sedating you so rough.” Sabi niya at napatango lang ako habang nakangiti. Kahit naman walang dahilan ay ginagawa niya ang mga ito para saakin. I’m so glad I have him.

Humithit ako sa hawak kong sigarilyo at saka ko lang napansin na ito iyong favorite brand na gusto ko. It’s only available in New York.

“Where did you bought this?” Tanong ko. Inaayos niya ang bath robe ko at ilang towel kaya hindi pa siya lumalabas.

“I have it just in case.” Sagot niya. Tumango ako at nagkatinginan kami nang marinig naming bumukas at sumara ang pinto ng hotel room ko.

“Oh shit, I must have left it open.” Mura ni Pete.

“It must be kuya Oasis.” Sabi ko at sumimsim ulit sa wine na hawak ko na paubos na ang laman.

“I’ll see who is it—” Pinigilan ko siya.

“Can you refill my glass first, please?” I asked and he quickly obliged and walked towards me to fill my glass when suddenly the small towel on his shoulder fell in the bathtub water. His first reaction was to get it at litaw naman iyon kaya hinayaan ko siya ngunit biglang bumukas ang banyo at pare-pareho kaming nagulat.

“What the fuck do you think you are doing?” Kaleb blurted and walked towards us. Pareho kaming hindi agad nakaimik.

What the hell is he doing here? Was he serious when he said he will meet me tonight? Bastard.

“Governor,” Pete said. Kaleb looked at him before looking at me at lalong nalukot ang mukha niya.

“Is that a cigarette?” Parang galit niyang sabi. I scoffed in disbelief. Is he mad? How did he even got inside?

“Why the hell are you here?” Tanong ko ngunit hindi siya sumagot at tumingin pa kay Pete. Peterson looked at me before speaking.

“I’ll leave the two of you, call me if you need anything.” Sabi niya saakin. I groaned. It’s so unlikely of him to left me with this bastard. He must think I like to talk to him.

“Why are you letting someone see you like this? He’s a full grown man, Hans.” Sabi niya nang makalabas si Pete. Hindi naman ako makapaniwalang natawa sa sinasabi niya.

“Like this? Like what? Naked? He sees me naked everytime.” I lied and I felt the feeling of victory when I saw him got frustrated of what I said.

Might as well pissed him off while he’s here. Sumimsim ako sa wine na hawak ko bago ipinatong ang ulo ko sa bathtub at humithit sa sigarilyo.

“You’ve changed a lot, Hans. But please, I don’t want anyone seeing you naked but me.” Napairap ako. I don’t want anyone having you but me but look where we are for the past three years, bastard.

“If you think you have the right to dictate what I should do or what I should not, you’re wrong, Governor. You have lost all the rights when it comes to me when you chose that woman.” Sabi ko at hindi siya umimik. Kinakalma ang sarili. I looked at him and I checked him out.

He is wearing a white polo shirt with denim pants and white shoes. May silver watch siyang suot at napansin ko ang gupit niya na nagbago.

“Did you just had a buzz cut?” Tanong ko habang natatawa. He looks gorgeous as ever pero pormahang politician talaga siya ah. Required ba talaga ganito ang suotan at gupit kapag politiko? Pasalamat siya at gwapo siya at nadadala niya ang ganitong pormahan. Still hot and gorgeous.

“What? It doesn’t suit me?” Tanong niya.

“No, no, it suits you. I’m just amazed that it suits you.” I said in a matter of fact at napailing naman siya.

“Don’t change the topic, I know you’re confident with your body but don’t just flaunt it so much, Hans. Why are you so comfortable with that guy?” Balik niya sa usapan. Humithit naman ako sa sigarilyo at napatitig sa kisame bago sumagot.

“Because he’s one of the reason I survived this industry. He makes me feel like I am a big deal even tho I know I’m just a loser.” I murmured. Hindi siya umimik kaya sinulyapan ko siya at malalim ang iniisip niya. I blinked at his face.

I’ll be dumb if I say I don’t miss him, and I don’t hate hurting him like this just so he can change his mind and choose me. I’m obsessed with the thought that he will drop everything as long as he can have me. It’s impossible.

Tumayo ako at hindi ko alintana na hubo’t hubad ako. He needs to see what he’s been missing. Inubos ko ang sigarilyo na hawak ko at ipinatong ko ang glass champagne bago umalis ng bathub.

“Pumpkin,” Tawag niya saakin habang napapalunok na titig na titig saakin. I just looked at him with no emotions before turning my back and walking towards the shower. I turned it on and stood underneath the shower head before turning my gaze on him.

“Why are you here? Do I also have the privilege to visit you when I feel like to?” Tanong ko. Lumakad naman siya palapit and he was about to take off his clothes to join me but I didn’t let him.

“Stay there, don’t go near me. All you can do is look, Governor.” Sabi ko at gumalaw ang panga niya.

“Stop torturing me. I am here to tell that me and Oceanna are not a real thing, alright? It’s still like before, we don’t have any kind of romantic relationship, it’s pure business for convenience—” Pinutol ko ang sinasabi niya at naiinis akong natawa.

“And so I should run to your arms again and pretend that I’m okay with your setup with that bitch?” Walang pigil kong sabi. Napapikit naman siya at napahangos.

“No, I just.. I want you to stop thinking that I am choosing her over you—”

“You are choosing her, Kaleb. You are.” Ani ko at pinatay ang shower bago lumakad palapit sakanya.

“I came running to you when I came back because I know it was selfish of me to leave you before, Kaleb, but you rejected me.” Simula ko.

“I accepted that thinking this is the consequences of my actions before, but let’s not forget why I left, I had my reasons and if ever I have to do it again so I can save you— so you can achieve your goals, I will do it again..” I paused and looked at his eyes full of emotions. “But that doesn’t include being hurt everyday because people point fingers at me for being by your side when your fiance is flaunting your relationship with her every fucking day, kulang na lang ipangalandakan niyang kabit mo ako, Kaleb.” Sumbat ko.

“Pumpkin, you know you’re the only one I love. Even after all these years, all I can think of is you.” Sabi niya at muli akong mapait na natawa. His words are so sweet yet I hate it.

“Then fucking choose me, you say you love me but I don’t feel needed at all, Kaleb. If this is my punishment for leaving you before, I am gladly accepting it, but don’t expect that I won’t do the same thing to you.” Sabi ko at lumapit siya saakin. Hinawakan niya ang mga kamay ko at nangungusap na tumingin saakin.

“I need you the most, I do, pumpkin. But I don’t want you to be involved in my plan to put all of them in jail, it’s dangerous. I need you safe.” Sabi niya at kumunot ang noo ko.

He’s been talking about this plan of him, I’m actually curious.

Tumalikod ako sakanya at kumuha ako ng robe para i-suot iyon bago ako lumabas ng kwarto. Agad naman siyang sumunod. Umupo ako sa kama at tumingin sakanya na nakatayo lamang at pinagmamasdan ako.

“Tell me about your plan.”

Mío

Treinta y dos

Kaleb’s

“About the black market, I intend to put every person that’s behind it to rot in jail, every one of them.” Panimula ko. Hans looked at me for a second before signaling me to continue.

“Oceanna’s father is one of the benefactors behind it, that’s why no matter what, the law can’t seem to capture them. I am helping the law and the government to put all of them in jail, Hans. It’s dangerous, but we’re so close to successfully doing it.” Lumapit ako sakanya and I knelt in front of him. Nakaupo siya sa gilid ng kama at nakadekwatro pa habang ang mga kamay niya ay nakapatong sa tuhod niya. Humawak rin ako sa tuhod niya at tumingala sa mukha niyang hindi ko mawari ang iniisip. His cerulean blue eyes are looking at me with thick facade.

He used to be so easy to read.

“That’s why I am using Oceanna to track his father’s whereabouts, I can’t just leave her, pumpkin. She’s one of the big evidence we have to put her father in jail. I am with her not because I like her or what, it’s for pure convenient.” Patuloy kong paliwanag ngunit hindi nagbago ang walang emosyon niyang mukha. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa tuhod niya bago ko inabot ang mga kamay niya.

“Please, pumpkin. I don’t want you to be in danger, after all of this is done, we can be together agai-”

“You think that’s so easy? Am I that accessible?” Pinutol niya ang sasabihin ko. I stared at him and he now looks sad and upset. Napalunok ako.

“I understand how important your goals are, I won’t be meddling in your way. Let’s not be in the way of each other’s goal.” Sabi niya at tumayo mula sa pagkakaupo. Naiwan akong nakaluhod at naguguluhan sa sinasabi niya. Fuck.

“Pumpkin, please, what is it that you want me to do? Do you want me to drop everything so we can be together?” Nanghihina kong tanong bago tumayo at sinundan siya ng tingin. I feel so frustrated. Masyadong komplikado ang lahat para iwanan ko na lang at sumama kay Hans. That’s not how it will work. This is not how I planned it. We will not be happy if I drop everything right now. It will be dangerous for us.

“I dropped everything, including my affection for you. Including my fucking sanity so you can achieve your goal. To be a Governor..” Humarap siya saakin habang sinasabi iyon. I looked at him with frustrations but I understand what he’s trying to say. “I thought this will all end once you’re already the Governor, Kaleb. Because that’s all I can give up for this relationship that’s seems to be impossible to work anymore.” Umiling-iling ako sa sinasabi niya at muli akong lumapit para hawakan ang mga kamay niya. Napalunok pa ako nang maramdamang nanlalamig iyon.

“Pumpkin, please hear me out. Malapit na, sobrang lapit na matapos ang lahat and we can be together without thinking of anything but us. Please, help me with this one, I can’t lose you again.” Pakiusap ko. I understand that he’s done with all of the things I choose over him. But I need to do it or no one else will.

“I can’t help you, Kaleb. I can’t even help myself.” Sabi niya at hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko. I don’t even know that struggles he’s going through right now. We’re like strangers trying to be together so bad. I fucked up so bad.

“I am here, I will help you, let’s help each other. I just need you beside me. Don’t leave me again, pumpkin.” Pakiusap ko at nakita ko ang paglunok niya bago binawi ang mga kamay niyang hawak ko. Muli siyang tumalikod saakin at humangos nang malalim.

“I don’t want a help from a man who’s engaged to a bitch I hate.” Muli niyang sabi. Humangos ako at hinilot ang noo sa sobrang pagtatalo ng puso at isip ko ngayon.

The biggest part of my heart wants to do whatever Hans want, but a part of my brain knows I have to finish what I started.

“Pumpkin, I am almost finished with my plan. I am winning, I’m already just steps away from the finish line—” Hindi niya ako pinatapos at lumingon siya saakin nang matalas ang mga mata bago galit na lumapit muli saakin.

“And you’re also one step away from losing me, I am not fucking kidding, Governor Cabrera.” Ramdam ko ang gigil sa pagkakasabi niya ’non habang matalas ang mga tingin saakin. Nanghina agad ang mga tuhod ko sa sinabi niya lalong-lalo na sa nakakabutas niyang mga tingin. He’s really upset.

“What do you want me to do?” Nawawalan kong pag-asang tanong. Iniwas niya ang tingin niya saakin at humangos nang malalim bago nagsalita.

“Break up with your fiance, break the engagement and I’m all yours.” Mahina niyang sabi at muli akong napalunok sa gusto niyang mangyari. I really have some use of Oceanna to put her father in jail, but the last thing he said was so tempting.

“You’re mine since the beginning, Hans.” Hindi ko naiwasang sabihin. He scoffed.

“‘Was’, I was yours before your bitch fiance entered the picture.” Sabi niya at muli siyang tumingin saakin ngunit iba na ngayon ang emosyon sa mga mata niya. “Do you touch her like how you touched me before, Governor?” He asked while looking at me with sultriness. Umiling ako sa tanong niya.

“I will never touch anyone but you.” Ani ko. Tumaas ang kilay niya.

“I saw you being touchy with her inside the mall tho.” Irap niya at umiling-iling naman ulit ako.

“It was fake, for shows, and I thought you were referring about devouring her by my touches like how you melt to it before. I will only do that to you.” I said in defense to his sultriness towards me. Tinarayan niya ako at lumapit siya saakin. So near that my nose is filled with his seductive scent. The sweet pumpkin scent he has is now mixed with seductive matured scent. I love it.

“Break the engagement, I’ll melt to your touch again.” Sabi niya habang deretso ang titig sa mga mata ko. My jaw tightened to the sight of his chest that’s peeking on the robe he’s wearing. So smooth like how I remembered.

“Not now, but I will. Give me two weeks.” Mahina kong sabi bago ko inangat ang kamay ko at mahina kong hinila ang isang side ng robe niya. That part fell on his shoulder side and half of his smooth chest was revealed. Napalunok ako nang makita ang namumula niyang utong. Still so scrumptious. I guess I really need to finish everything in two weeks.

Hindi siya umimik at nanatili ang nang-aakit niyang mga tingin. Mas lumapit siya saakin at dahan-dahan akong itinulak hanggang sa napaupo ako sa gilid ng kama niya. This is torturing me since earlier. Everywhere here inside his room smells like him and it’s turning me on so much. Plus he got naked in front of me earlier. I’ve been pent up for years, he doesn’t know how dangerous it is to get naked in front of me.

Kung hindi lang ako nandito para linawin ang lahat ay kanina ko pa siya sinunggaban.

“Did you miss me?” Tanong niya habang mahinang hinahaplos ang dibdib kong nakatago pa sa suot kong polo shirt. I nodded and I swallowed again when he put one of his knees beside my left leg. His milky legs are now showing. He’s almost all over me now.

“I need to hear it, Kaleb.” He said again. I looked at his sultry blue eyes that’s piercing into me.

“ Te

extraño

mucho,

pensé

que iba a

morir

extrañándote

.”  Sagot ko at mas lalong nagwala ang alaga ko nang makita ko ang maliit niyang ngisi habang ang mga mata niya ay nasa mga labi ko na ngayon.

[ Translation: I

miss you so much, I thought I’m gonna die missing you. ]

“

Aún

tienes

tu

dulce

lengua

, ¿

debería

probarla

? ” Sagot niya. I licked my lips and looked at him with needs. He’s so hot speaking Spanish. I have never imagined Hans like this before, he’s so full of confidence and not shy at all but still sassy. Still my pumpkin. I want to fuck him so hard that his sassy ass will fly out the window. I want to see him again begging for me to fuck him hard.

[ Translation:

You still have your sweet tongue, should I taste it? ]

“You can have me full course, pumpkin.” Sagot ko at lumaki ang mga ngisi niya sa labi bago sinampa nang tuluyan ang isa niya pang tuhod sa right side ko. He’s on my lap at agad kong inalalayan ang maliit niyang bewang.

“Hans..” Tawag ko sakanya nang maramdaman ko ang mainit niyang dila sa leeg ko. Lalong nangalit ang alaga ko nang tuluyan siyang umupo sa harap ko at ramdam na ramdam ko na ang malalaki niyang pang-upo na iniipit ang nangangalit kong kalakihan. I looked at him warningly and he just have his playful and seductive face expression while looking at me. Parang hinahamon niya ako at handa akong lumaban.

I removed one of my hand to his waist and I pushed the remaining robe on his upper so his full chest can fully show. I touched his nips at agad siyang umigtad bago ngumiti.

“Don’t be shy, make me melt with your sweet touch, Governor.” Hamon niya at agad kong hinapit ang batok niya para sakupin ang bibig niyang kanina pa ako sinusubukan. I ravaged his sweet mouth and he fiercely fight back.

I took my time searching into his sweet sassy mouth before I suck on his sweet tongue. I groaned while roughly sucking it. I moved my hand on his chest and also started hardly pinching and plucking his red nips.

“Ah..“ I heard his moan and I thrusted my hips towards his two big buns. It’s a disappointment that both of our lower are still clothed. Gustong-gusto na kumawala ng alaga ko at tukain siya.

“I missed you so much, Hans. I want to fuck you so hard right now, shit.” I think I’m losing control. Pinigilan ko ang sarili kong ihiga na lamang siya bigla at bayuhin nang bayuhin. I want to take my time and enjoy his scrumptious body that I’ve been wet dreaming since he left. He became so sexy and I’ll make sure that everyone knows that I am the only person who can have his body. They can take pictures of him and be delusional about him but I’ll make sure that I’ll be the only one touching him in the end.

“You’re all mine, pumpkin. All mine, Hans. Eres

mio

. I’m the only one who can fuck you ’till you drop. I’ll make sure of it.” I murmured while licking his jaw down to his neck that smells so good. I nibble and lick on it down to his collar bones. I groaned when he pulled my hair and started moving his hips so his buns are grinding on my crotch. Kinagat ko ang utong niya at narinig ko ang mahina niyang ungot. I licked it to wash away the sting before looking at his face. He also looked at me with full of desires. I smiled and pinched his nipples before humping his two buns that’s killing me. I want to fuck his insides so bad.

Natigilan ako at nawala ang lahat ng pagpipigil sa katawan ko nang makita kong bumuka ang bibig niya habang gumagalaw ang bewang niya sa ibabaw ko.

“Ah.. Kaleb.. Governor..” Ungol niya habang nakabuka ang mapupula niyang labi at nang-aakit ang mga matang deretsong nakatingin saakin. This is the expression that the Hans before is too shy to show me. I swallowed and licked my lips before changing our position. Tuluyang nabukas ang robe na suot niya. He’s now fully naked again in front me and my dick is dying to come out and make a mess out of his perfect body. I stared at him hungrily.

“

Introduciré

esta

gran

polla

dentro

de

tu

estrecho

agujero

, Hans, hasta que seas

un

completo

desastre

y

sigas

rogando

por

más

.” Gigil kong ani bago inabot ang zipper ng pants ko para buksan iyon.

[ Translation: I will ram this big dick inside your tight hole, Hans, untill you’re a complete mess and still begging for more. ]

“ Too bad I don’t want another woman’s dick inside me.” Natigilan ako sa pagbukas ng pants ko nang sabihin niya iyon. I looked at his face and he’s now smirking and looking at me so amused.

“Keep your big dick inside your pants, Governor. Your fiance will lose her mind if you use that on another man’s hole.” Asar niya bago ako malakas na itinulak sa gilid bago siya bumangon at isinuot muli ang robe niya. Sa sobrang gulat ko sa  pagkadismaya ay agad akong napahiga sa kama sa tulak niya. Napakurap-kurap ako sa kisame ng kwarto niya bago malakas na napaungot.

“Pumpkin!” Asar kong ungot at nang-aasar lang naman siya saaking tumingin habang nakahalukipkip pa. Parang nanghina ang buong sistema ko sa pagpigil niya saakin. He just turned me on so much and turned me down like it’s nothing! Fuck.

“Let’s continue when you break the engagement for real, Governor. See you.“ Kindat niya bago itinuro ang pinto palabas ng hotel room niya. Halos sabunutan ko naman ang sarili kong buhok sa sobrang sakit ng puson ko.

He has reached another level of teased. My sweet innocent pumpkin is really gone.

Mangiyak-ngiyak ako sa loob-loob ko dahil sa ginagawa niya saakin. Fuck.

---

Hans

Natatawa akong nagbihis habang hindi maalis sa utak ko ang itsura kanina ni Kaleb.

He was so horny and ready to fuck when I stopped him. Muli akong natawa nang maalalang natulala pa siya nang pigilan ko siya. So funny but I was turned on too. Napailing-iling ako. One wrong move and I was so close to giving in to his temptation.

Napabuntong-hininga ako at napairap nang maalala ang usapan namin. He wants time to break up with that woman. Tama lang talaga na asarin ko siya dahil iniinis niya ako sa mga pinipili niyang desisyon. I know his plan is important, but I want to feel important too. Mahaba na masyado ang oras na magkahiwalay kami, we’re drifting off too far and I’m afraid this won’t work anymore. He needs to choose me or I will lose my mind.

Natigil ako sa pag-iisip nang may paulit-ulit na nag press ng electronic doorbell sa hotel room ko. Lumapit ako roon. Is it Peterson? It must be him.

Binuksan ko ang pinto at nagulat pa ako nang makita ang taong pinaka ayaw kong makaharap. What the hell is she doing here?

“Where’s Kaleb?” Galit niyang tanong. Tumaas ang kilay ko. Sinusundo ang fiance niya? How the fuck does everyone know my hotel room? Ugh. I need to switch hotel.

“Oceanna, I didn’t expect you to pay me a visit. I already send off your fiance, he’s not here anymore.” Sabi ko habang may maliit na pekeng ngiti. She looked at me with her insulting eyes before speaking.

“I didn’t know you can be so desperate for a man, Hans Gabriel.” Sabi niya at natawa ako. She’s really here for words fight again.

“Who’s the desperate here, really? You’re the one who’s here trying to find your fiance. Why? Can’t put a leash on him?” Balik asar ko at ngumisi naman siya.

“What will your fans say if they find out that you’re embracing someone’s fiance in your filthy arms? I wonder.” Subok niya pa. Napailing-iling ako sakanya. I folded my arms at dumantay sa gilid ng pinto ko habang nangingiting nakatingin sakanya.

“I also wonder you know. What would the people say if they find out that you don’t actually have a perfect relationship with Governor Cabrera like how you flaunt it to them for three years? Hmm, they will be so disappointed to find out it’s all fake.” Iling-iling ko at balak niya sana akong sampalin ngunit may kamay na pumigil sakanya. I looked at Peterson and he’s already glaring at the woman. I sighed.

“It’s okay, she’s harmless, just all talk.” Sabi ko kay Pete kaya binitawan niya ang mga kamay nito. Oceanna glared at us.

“If I ever hear again that you’re with my fiance, you will know what I can do, Hans. I’m not kidding.” Banta niya bago tumalikod.

“As if I give a fuck.” Irap ko bago pumasok sa kwarto ko. Sumunod si Pete. Inis kong kinuha ang selpon ko sa bed side table at minessage ang personal Instagram ni Kaleb na noon pa ay friend ko na.

‘I don’t want to see your face again unless you break up with that bitch. If you ever visit me while you’re still with her, I’m fucking every guy I see. Don’t test me.’

Gigil na gigil kong type bago ko iyon sinend at sa sobrang inis ay binato ko ang selpon ko. Mas lalo pa akong nainis nang makitang sa leather couch ko pa iyon naibato, hindi nabasag. Inis akong tumili at umupo sa kama ko.

“Stop breaking your phone, pang ilang bili ko na niyan.” Pete said before walking towards me.

“His fiance already warned you, what are you gonna do this time?” Tanong niya. Humangos ako at kinalma ang sarili. I swallowed and looked at him.

“I will end whatever her relationship is with my man, at the music fest. I’m going all in, Pete.” Ngisi ko at napailing na lamang siya.

Mío

A/N: Sana

gising

pa kayo HAHAHAHA

natagalan

ako sa pag edit nito. May pasok na kami bukas 😔

Treinta y tres

Hans

Malalim ang iniisip ko habang nakatitig sa kawalan. I am contemplating whether I should help Kalep or be a hard headed brat so he would not have a choice but to pick me. I sighed.

Planado na sana ang lahat ng mga gagawin ko ngunit nagbabago bigla ang isip ko dahil lamang sa kagustuhan kong maabot niya ang lahat ng gusto niyang abutin.

I didn’t change that much after all. I’m still a sucker for him.

“Penny for your thoughts?” Lumingon ako kay Fred nang sabihin niya iyon. Nasa loob kami ng cafe ngayon malapit sa studio kung saan kami nag practice para sa music fest na bukas na gabi na gaganapin.

“Would you do anything for your loved one, Fred?” I asked him. Tumaas naman ang kilay niya at mukhang nag-isip muna bago sumagot.

“Why not? It’s my loved one, I will do anything if I am capable.” Sagot niya at napaisip ako. Am I capable? Napahangos akong muli. Nagtatalo ang isip at puso ko. I want to punish Kaleb for not choosing me right away but my heart also wants to cheer him up and support whatever he wants to succeed. I am going crazy. If it was the old me, hinding-hindi ako magdadalawang isip na itabi ang mga nararamdaman ko para maabot niya ang gusto niya. But I’m not the old Hans anymore, it’s Hansy.

“What if you’re capable but you are hesitant because of your emotions?” Tanong ko ulit kay Fred. Sumimsim naman siya sa kape niya bago sumagot.

“If you really love whoever that person is, you will not hesitate to do what will fullfil them.” Sabi niya at napatitig ako sakanya. I tsked.

“So selfless, what about me? How about my fulfilment?” Napapailing kong sabi bago sumubo ng cake na nasa harap ko. Natawa naman siya.

“What are we talking about anyway? Do you want to tell me? Maybe I can help.” Alok niya at napanguso ako. Pinaglaruan ko ang slice ng cake na nasa harap ko gamit ang tinidor na hawak ko.

“I feel like me and this person is drifting apart, Freddie. I feel like if he doesn’t choose me right away, we’ll completely drift apart to each other and I fear it so much. He doesn’t know me like how he did before, same goes to me.” Mahina kong sabi. I sighed at the thought of us not working anymore. I badly want to tell him all of my struggles, because I know he will make me feel better even with just being by my side. But how can I do that when he has all the importance things he needs to finish first before he can come to me? I want to be with him, I already waited for three years and yet he still has all his reasons that is draining the hell out of me.

“I feel like he will always choose every reasons over me. I hate feeling it. Paano pagkatapos ng sinasabi niyang kailangan niyang tapusin ngayon, may sumunod pa? I fear that he will think he can always set me aside for his important shits. I hate it.” Litanya ko bago pa man ako sumabog. I don’t even know why am I opening up to Fred. Maybe because Peterson always has the answers for my dramas, but I don’t want answers, I want a sympathetic ear that will hear me out and will validate me. Same goes to my therapist, Gian is always professional even tho he knows almost everything about me, it’s stressing me out.

“That’s very, uh.. complicated. I mean, if this person really loves you and need you, you will always be the first choice. But that’s just me.” Sabi niya at napairap ako.

“Nah, that’s what I think too. I will understand if it happened just once, but for godsake it’s been happening a lot already. I’m fed up.” Inis ulit akong sumubo ng cake at napaisip ulit. Maybe I am really being selfish but if I ever get selfless again, I will lose my mind for real. I want to keep Kaleb to myself, is that really hard when we both love each other? Why is the world making this so difficult for us.

“Do you love this person?” Biglang tanong niya. I looked at him and smiled a little.

“A lot, but I left him before, maybe this is my punishment for doing that.” Mapait kong sabi. Napatango siya.

“It’s very complicated, huh? Do you feel like giving up?” Tanong niya pa. Napatitig ako sa mukha niya at wala sa sariling natawa.

“That’s what I’ve been fearing all this time, what if I feel like giving up already but he’s still not choosing me.” Seryoso kong sabi. I lowered my head and started thinking of happy things to get the heavy feeling inside my chest. I really hate my emotions these days.

“You’re too good to wait for someone who’s having a difficulty choosing you, Hansy.” Sabi niya at natawa ako.

“Well, he’s too good too.” Nguso ko at napailing-iling siya.

“So it’s really a man, huh. I thought may pag-asa ako, sakit.” Biro niya at napairap ako.

“Bastard.” Biro ko rin at hindi makapaniwalang natawa lamang siya. Kahit papaano ay gumaan ang dibdib ko dahil sa usap namin. I also made up my mind.

Pagkatapos namin sa cafe na iyon ay umuwi na agad ako sa bago kong condo. I moved out from that hotel room because everyone seems to know that I am there.

“Where did you come from?” Bumungad saakin si Peterson at napataas ang kilay ko nang makitang bihis na bihis siya.

“Rehearsal for tomorrow evening. How about you? Where are you going?” Tanong ko bago ibinaba ang bag na dala ko sa couch at sumalampak roon.

“I got a date.” Sabi niya at gulat akong napatingin sakanya.

“Really? Who?” I asked. He didn’t speak and he seems like he’s hesitating.

“I-I can’t tell you, he doesn’t want to.” Sabi niya at natawa ako dahil binigyan niya agad ito ng gender. He’s so obvious.

“Tell kuya Oasis it’s okay, you two can date.” Sabi ko at nanlaki naman ang mga mata niya. I laughed.

“H-How- how the fuck did you know?” Nanlalaki pa rin ang mga matang sabi niya. Tumigil ako sa pagtawa at umiling sakanya.

“I just know you like him, I can see it whenever you talk about him or stare at him. Sucker.” Asar ko at natameme naman siya. Tinitigan ko lang siya at napangiti ako nang makitang marunong rin pala siya pumorma. Kala ko puro lang trabaho ang alam niya.

“So you noticed but he didn’t.” Mahina niyang sabi at natawa lang ako.

“Kuya Oasis is a man-man, like very manly, Pete. And he only had eyes on me before. Of course he won’t notice you being head over heels over him.” Asar ko at napaungot lang siya.

“Gagawin ko siyang dalaga, hehe.” Sagot niya at ako naman napaungot.

“Gross.” Irap ko bago sumeryoso.

“Anyway, I have some favor to ask you.” Sumeryoso naman siya nang makitang seryoso ako.

“What is it?” Ngumiti ako.

“What do you think of helping Kaleb with his plan? Sounds fun, right?”

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Kaleb’s

“You dress like that in front of Hans? Why?” Tanong ko kay Peterson nang makaupo siya sa harap ng office table ko. Inayos ko ang suot kong salamin at ibinalik sa papeles na hawak ko ang aking tingin.

“Can you please stop insisting that I want Hans like that? I don’t, okay? You can chill.” Sagot niya saakin. The corner of my lips just flinched.

“Right, after I saw you being all over him when he’s fully naked, I think I won’t stop thinking that you want my pumpkin.” I possessively said. Napabuga siya ng hangin.

“I told you that I was doing the usual thing I do for him, helping him out with everything like you want me to do. Hans is like my brother already and he’s under the water, I don’t see him naked and I don’t even wanna see it.” Sabi niya pa kaya lumingon ako sakanya. Hans said he gets naked around him a lot. Is he just fooling with me? Must be.

“I sent you to him to help him and report to me about what he’s doing, don’t ever cross the line, Peterson.” Sabi ko pa at tumango-tango naman siya.

“I promise you I don’t like Hans like that, I like someone else. I have a date with him right now but you’re ruining it. Why did you call me?” He said. Ibinaba ko ang hawak kong papeles bago seryosong humarap sakanya.

“I’m going all in, I will wrap up the plan in less than two weeks. I need you and Walter’s help, can you take a leave with your work with Hans?” Paliwanag at tanong ko sakanya. Natahimik naman siya at napatitig pa saakin bago napabuntong-hininga.

“Why are you rushing?” He asked. I licked my lips when I imagined how Hans looked in my arms that night I visited him. He wants me to end everything and choose him as soon as possible. My baby knows what he wants and his needs now. He’s not selfless and shy to tell me what he wants anymore. I am dying to be with him already.

“Is it because of Hans? Isn’t it dangerous to rush this? I mean, we’re facing big multiple enemies here.” Dagdag pa ni Pete. Tinanggal ko ang salamin na suot ko bago sumagot.

“I already talked to the chief of Quezon, he also wants to end this already, masyado na tayong naging maingat, I think it’s time to surprise them and end this all at once.” I explained. Napabuntong-hininga siya at mukhang may iniisip siya.

“After this, you’re going to claim Hans again, right? I don’t have to work for him anymore?” Tanong niya at agad akong sumagot.

“After this, I won’t let you get near him again.” I said and he looked at me funny.

“Fucker, I said I don’t like him, alright? He’s a brother-”

“Hans parents were brothers before they became the most horniest same sex couple I’ve known in my entire life.” I said in a matter of fact. Nalukot naman ang mukha niya.

“Don’t bring tito Arken and tito Rei into this.” Ako naman ang nalukot ang mukha sa sinabi niya.

“Don’t call them that, you’re not Hans boyfriend.” Halos mapairap ako habang sinasabi iyon at hindi lang siya makapaniwalang tumingin saakin.

“You’re so jealous, Governor.” He said and I nodded.

“Of course I am, now that Hans is a public figure, he became an eye candy to a lot of jerks including that pest Fred.” Lalo akong nainis nang maalala ang mga nakikita kong post sa internet patungkol kay Hans at sa Fred na iyon. My team hired him to sing to the music fest, not to steal my possession. I tsked.

“And what’s with Hans texts? He texted me like he’s so upset after I visited him last time. I can’t even see him right now because of that text.” Inis kong tanong. Napakamot naman ng ulo si Pete bago sumagot.

“Your fiance was there after you left, I actually didn’t know what else they talked about but she’s warning Hans not to get near you again or she’ll do something serious about it. Hans was pissed.” Napapikit ako sa sinabi niya. Oceanna will really never learn. Ilang beses na ba kami nag-usap na wag niyang guguluhin si Hans? She’s really persistent, I can’t wait to get rid of her already.

“Take a leave from your work with Hans, we’re going to wrap this up already.” Sabi ko bago tumayo at tumingin sa wall glass kung saan kita ang billboard sa kabilang building. The image in it changed but it’s still Hansy. This time, he’s wearing only a necktie and a denim jeans he’s modeling. He’s almost facing backwards, I can only see the back of his upper, the highlight was his face and his ass because it’s the denim pants he’s advertising, he’s so hot but I’m too pissed because everyone can see him shirtless with the said image. I hate his job.

“I’ll make sure we’re going to succeed, Kaleb. I’ll pull some strings.” Sumulyap ako kay Pete nang sabihin niya iyon at tumango ako.

“Let’s finish this before I lose my pumpkin.” I said while all I can think of is Hans in my arms.

Mío

Treinta y cuatro

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THIS IS

HANSY’S

  HAIR AND OUTFIT FOR THE MUSIC FEST (minus the gloves and the black choker), YES HE’S VERY GAY 🤭

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Hans

I looked at myself in front of the mirror and I look like a different person.

“You look gorgeous,” Kuya Oasis said. He’s behind me while my make up artist is finishing off my make up.

“Where’s Peterson? I’m having anxiety without him here.” I nervously said. I know I look good and it’s not the first time I dress like this for an event, duh, I modeled a lot of revealing clothes but the only shit I face is the camera and the photographer team. The fashion show doesn’t even count because it’s an exclusive event. But right now, konting oras na lang, I will face the people of Quezon looking like this. I will even sing with Fred!

“Fuck, I didn’t know I will be this nervous.” Noon pa man ay hindi na ako kinakabahan kapag kumakanta sa harap ng maraming tao pero iba ang kaba na nararamdaman ko ngayon. Probably because this is my last straw of making Kaleb to choose me. Kapag talagang hindi niya pa hiniwalayan ang babaeng yun kahit na makita niya ang gagawin ko with Fred, I will really lose it this time.

“Relax, Peterson took a leave, right? I don’t even know why he doesn’t want to be here, hindi ka naman pinapabayaan ’non.” Kuya Oasis said. I tsked. Napaka wrong timing naman kasi ni Pete, he suddenly took a leave saying it’s a family urgent matter, I couldn’t say no.

Nang matapos ang make up artist sa make up ko ay napahangos ako nang malalim bago tumayo at tumingin kay kuya Oasis. He’s looking at me like he’s in dazed. I tsked.

“Do I look good? Tell me the truth.” Sabi ko sakanya at mabilis siyang tumango-tango.

“You look so hot and pretty, like an innocently dangerous kind of pretty. Gorgeous.” Sabi niya pero hindi pa rin nawawala ang kaba ko. Shit. Why am I so nervous? Maybe because I saw a lot of people earlier. Kaleb’s people. They’re all going to watch, fuck.

I haven’t seen Kaleb but I already saw his fiance, the bitch was glaring at me but I ignored her.

Mas lalo akong kinabahan nang makita ko si Fred na patapos na rin ayusan. Lumapit saakin ang isang staff ng team ni Fred at sinuotan ako ng hands free na mic. It’s a headset hands free mic. Sinuot niya iyon sa tenga ko na hindi masisira ang ayos ng buhok ko.

“What’s your cue?” One of the staff asked.

“The chorus of his second song, I’ll sing it.” Sagot ko at tumango naman siya. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at kinalma ang sarili ko.

“Hey,” Napalingon ako sa gilid ko nang marinig ko ang boses na iyon. It’s none other than Kaleb. Napakunot noo pa ako nang makitang nasa likod niya na si Pete. Are they together?

“What?” I asked. Napailing pa ako nang maramdamang nawala ang kaba ko dahil nakita ko siya. I must be crazy.

“I don’t like your clothes. Did you dye your hair for real?” Tiningnan ko siya nang masama sa unang sinabi niya pero parang nahulog ang puso ko sa linya niyang iyon. Am I fucking ugly right now?

“Fuck you, I look gorgeous.” Tanggi ko. Napangiwi siya.

“I mean, I should be the only one who will see you like this. Of course you look gorgeous.” Dagdag niya at napairap ako. His sentences everytime he’s jealous are so cheesy.

“I will let everyone see me like this because I am single, I’m on the market, ready to mingle with a single man.” Irap ko sakanya at natahimik naman siya. Hindi ko siya pinansin at tinawag ko si Pete na kausap na ngayon si kuya Oasis. Lumapit naman siya saakin.

“What is it? You look so good.” Sabi niya at ngumiti ako. Nakampante ako dahil siya rin ang nagsasabi saakin kapag bagay ang outfit ko sa mga modeling session ko.

“Good. I want to look so tempting.” Sabi ko at sumulyap kay Kaleb na naka kunot noo na. Tsk. He also look so tempting right now with his look. His buzz cut really suits him. Mas lalo siyang naging macho tingnan.

“You look tempting.“ Mahinang-mahinang sabi ni Pete na ikinakunot noo ko. Parang ayaw niya pa iparinig.

“Bakit now ka lang? Is the urgent matter you’re talking about already settled?” I asked. Umiling naman siya.

“I just want to help you tonight, babalik rin ako bukas to my f-family.” Sabi niya at napatango na lang ako. Lumingon ulit ako kay Kaleb na hindi inaalis ang tingin saakin. Pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay.

“What?” I asked. He just smirked at me.

“Nothing. I’m just thinking of ways on how I will devour you on that outfit of yours tonight.” Mahina niyang sabi at sinamaan ko siya ng tingin.

“Jerk.” Sabi ko kahit sa loob-loob ko ay gusto ko rin iyon. Only if he just break up with that bitch already, I will let him have me.

“Governor, we’re starting.” Right after one of the staff said that, Oceanna entered the backstage we are in. She looked at our way at agad na nagtama ang mga mata namin. She’s wearing a long white simple dress and of course she looks pretty but I am prettier.

“Let’s go, hon.” Lumapit siya kay Kaleb at sinabi iyon. I grimaced at what she said and Kaleb also looked shock at what she called him. Napairap ako.

Nang tinawag na sila para lumabas sa stage, Oceanna interlocked their hands before going out. Agad na bumigat ang loob ko lalo na nang marinig ko ang tilian ng mga tao sa labas. The people of Quezon love Kaleb and his relationship with Oceanna, but I will ruin it, right in front of them, without them even knowing.

“I don’t like the look on your face.“ Pete said.

“Are you okay?” Fred walked towards me and asked. I looked at his outfit and he tried to match mine. I smiled at him.

“Of course, please, I want you to do exactly what we practiced.” I said and he nodded.

“I might add some little touch to it with that outfit of yours.” Biro niya at lumaki lang ang ngiti ko.

“Please do.” Mahina kong sabi at parang hindi niya naman iyon narinig. I saw Pete shaking his head at me. Napangisi lang ako at inantay na matapos ang speech ni Kaleb. Nag ready na si Fred at ang banda niya. I looked at Kaleb talking professionally while his hands is still interlocked with his fiance who’s all smile. Napapanuod ko sila sa screen na naka set up rito sa backstage.

“Me and my beloved fiance is really pleasured to offer you this night that will be full of joy, especially because we have Fred Argus with his band! Let us all enjoy the night!” Kaleb announced and the band started playing an original song from Fred. Umilaw ang buong stage at nagsitilian ang mga tao nang makita si Fred at ang banda. Fred started his first line and the crowd goes wild.

Napahangos ako dahil kahit ganoon ang scenario sa harap ko ay hindi naalis ang bigat sa dibdib ko sa narinig na huling sinabi ni Kaleb.

His beloved fiance..

When will he have the courage to announce to everyone that I am the one he truly loves? Will that even happen? Or will I forever stay in the shadow?

Natauhan ako sa iniisip nang muling pumasok si Oceanna at Kaleb. Their hands is not interlocked anymore but they’re both looking at me.

“This is a music fest, not a club.” Oceanna said at napangiti agad ako sa inis.

“Oceanna,” Saway ni Kaleb.

“I figured you will say that, you have no fashion sense at all.” Sabi ko at narinig kong mahinang tumawa si kuya Oasis. Sumulyap ako sakanya at nagpipigil ito ng tawa habang sinasaway naman siya ni Pete. Napailing lang ako.

“Bitch.” Sabi niya pa bago tumalikod saamin. Hihilahin niya pa sana si Kaleb para sumama sakanya ngunit nagsalita ito.

“Go on first, I have something to say to Hans.” Kaleb said at tumitig sakanya si Oceanna nang ilang segundo. She looked at him without any emotions before finally leaving. I looked at Kaleb and spoke.

“You’re still a jerk, just break up with her if you’re going to be like this.” Sabi ko at napaungot lang siya.

“We are going to talk about this later, have a good night. Enjoy the concert, the people will surely love you, they already do.” Sabi niya bigla kaya napakunot noo ako. Why is he saying this? Halata ba na kinakabahan ako kanina?

“I will surely enjoy it with Fred.” Sagot ko at natahimik nanaman siya ulit kaya inirapan ko lang siya. I know he still doesn’t want me to sing with Fred.

Napalingon ako sa stage nang matapos ang unang kanta ni Fred. Binati niya ang crowd at kung ano-ano pa ang sinabi niya.

“Tonight, is a night that is really special for me because of this special person, my idol, I love this person voice more than mine. I wrote a song that I still haven’t released yet, but we will sing it in front of all of you because this night is special and we all should feel it.” Litanya niya at nagsipag cheer naman ang mga tao sakanya.

“Pumpkin,” I looked at Kaleb when he said that. “I love you the most.” He suddenly said. My hearth thumped but I just looked at him before answering.

“You’re saying that but all of the people outside knows that you have a fiance, a beloved fiance of yours.” Seryoso kong sabi at napayuko siya.

“I’m really sorry.” Sabi niya at umiling naman ako.

“Don’t be, I will let you feel what it feels like anyway.” Sagot ko at nagtatanong naman siyang tumingin saakin.

“ ♪  In the twilight’s sultry embrace, her eyes set the pace, ♪

♪ Whispers in the shadows, a secret we chase.

Her lips, a temptation, a dangerous game,

Lost in the rhythm, desire to reclaim. ♪ ” Fred sang the first verse. I looked at Kaleb.

“Please welcome, our very special guest for tonight—”

“I will sing three songs, one of them is for you. Listen and watch, Governor.” Sabi ko sakanya bago ako lumabas.

“—Hansy!” Fred announced and the spotlight was immediately on me.

“ ♪  Sultry whispers, a dance in the haze,

Bodies talking, lost in the maze.

Man and woman, a silent plea,

Ecstasy’s rhythm, set us free. ♪ ” I sang the pre-chorus. The people started going wild when they realized who’s singing. They started chanting my name and Fred’s. I’m not surprised. They’ve been shipping the both of us all over the internet for over a week now.

Lumakad ako palapit kay Fred na kinakanta na ngayon ang kasunod na linya sa kantang sinulat niya.

“ ♪ She moves like a whisper, a tantalizing spell,

In the moonlit room, where secrets dwell. ♪ ” Kanta niya habang nasa tabi ko na at nasaakin ang tingin.

“ ♪

A touch that lingers, a flame in the night,

A forbidden dance, passion takes flight. ♪ ” He touched my cheek when he sang that line. I smiled at him and the people keeps cheering on us. Tumingin ako sa harap at hinanap ko ang lalaking gusto kong makita ang nangyayari ngayon. I smiled when I saw Kaleb with Oceanna beside the stage. Nasa mataas na parte sila at kasama nila ang i-ilang staff na nanunuod rin. We’re in an open area and everything that is set up here is pre-made by them.

“♪ Sultry whispers, a dance in the haze,

Bodies talking, lost in the maze. ♪” Kanta ko at tumingin rin kay Fred. I touched his chest while singing that but my eyes immediately looked at the man who had a grimaced plastered on his face while watching us.

Does it feel like a big hand keeps choking your heart, Kaleb? Because that’s what I always feel when people keeps cheering on your fake relationship with your fiance but I just have to keep watching.

Nagpatuloy ang pagkanta namin ni Fred habang nasa isa’t-isa ang mga tingin na parang ang mga lyrics na binibigkas namin ay para sa isa’t-isa talaga. The people was swayed by our fake flirtatious moves towards each other while singing. Habang patapos ang kanta ay ganon rin ang higpit ng hawak ni Kaleb sa railings kung nasaan siya habang seryosong nakatingin saamin. I smiled at him when the song was finished.

Keep watching, maybe your mind will change if you experience what you made me experienced for a very long time. Choose me now, or lose me forever, Kaleb.

Mío

A/N:

miss ko na yung ganto 🍑💦 nilang dalawa ah 🤭

Treinta y cinco

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A0BoCRZqrHs

Kaleb’s

“ ♪ How do I make the phone ring?

Why do I even care?

How are you all around me when you’re not really there?

When you’re not really there? ♪ “

I swallowed while looking at Hans singing his heart out in front of everyone. He looks so good and he sounds so amazing alright. Everyone is doting over him and the way he flirts with that bastard Fred. I gritted my teeth while watching them being flirty with each other while singing. Everyone here seems to like it but I don’t, I’m losing my shit over here. It’s not funny at all.

“You really can’t keep your cool, can’t you?” I heard Oceanna. Sumagot ako.

“If you see the one you love being all over someone, you will also lose your shit, Oceanna.” I mindlessly said. Natawa naman siya.

“Isn’t that what you do to him?” Sabi niya. I looked at her confused. “We’ve been together for already three years, Kaleb. He’s been feeling what you’re feeling right now for three years.” Parang binuhusan ako ng tubig sa sinabi niya.

“No..” Tanggi ko ngunit mas lalo siyang ngumisi.

“You love him? Think about it again, Kaleb. You’ve been with me for three years without even caring about what he feels about it, maybe you don’t love the likes of him anymore.” Sabi niya pa.

“I am with you because you’re still useful, I’ll discard you in no time once I have no use of you anymore, don’t even think I like you, woman.” I said with gritted teeth. She just scoffed.

“Let’s see if you can do that.” Sagot niya.

“I can with no hesitation. You know nothing.” Sabi ko pa bago muling lumingon kay Hans. Lalong uminit ang ulo ko nang makitang hawak-hawak na siya ni Fred sa bewang habang pareho silang sumasabay sa indayog ng kinakanta niya.

“ ♪ Cause every time I’m with you, I go into a zone

And I remember all the places you wanna go

Take me all the way

Ain’t nobody gonna touch it, touch it, touch it ♪ “ Hans sang that while looking straight into me. I keep ignoring that bastard hands on him because I am listening to the lyrics. He said one of the songs he’s gonna sing is for me but I can’t focus because the both of them keeps flirting with each other!

Humangos ako nang malalim at muling lumunok. I am pissed because Oceanna was right. The feeling I am feeling right now, Hans has been feeling it for a long time already. I’m really a fucking jerk like what he told me. I hate feeling this, he’s all mine.

“♪ Remind me why we’re taking a break

It’s obviously insane

’Cause we both know what we want

So why don’t we fall in love?

Baby, let’s be in love ♪ “ Hans sang again and I took a deep breath when their faces almost touches. Fuck.

“Fucking fuck, Hans.” Hindi ko napigilang mapamura. Is this what he felt when he saw me holding Oceanna’s waist inside the mall? I really fuck it up.

“I can tell he’s provoking you, and it’s working.” Oceanna said again. I looked at her pissed.

“Thank you for being aware, I don’t need it.” Inis kong sabi. I excused myself and left her. Pumunta ako sa mas malapit sa stage at nakita ko si Pete at Oasis na magkatabi. Lumapit ako sa pwesto nila at saktong natapos ang kinakanta ni Hans. Napabuga ako nang hangin nang magsalita si Fred para kamustahin ang crowd. Thank you, fuck. I almost can’t breathe with what they’re doing.

“Still okay?” I looked at Pete when he said that. I just glared at him at pareho silang natawa ni Oasis.

“Hans is so hot with Fred, I’m jealous, he’s not that flirty with me.” Oasis said at sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. Sinamaan niya rin ako ng tingin. “And he will probably not be that flirty with you, you only got the old Hans, and now you’re losing Hansy. What a shame, I’m so glad.” Asar niya at sa inis ko ay k-kwelyuhan ko sana siya pero pinigilan ako ni Peterson.

“Don’t, he’s just teasing you.” Saway niya pero hindi ko na lang sila pinansin at inis na nanuod nang magsalita si Hans.

“This song, the first time I heard it, it really struck my heart, because I somehow relate to it.” Paunang sabi niya. I looked at him while swallowing. He’s glowing in my eyes. I actually love his outfit, but I hate that everyone is seeing him with it.

“I hate how this person has been reckless with my heart, maybe because there’s another woman. How I hope the love this person has for me is also brave enough to be careful with my heart, but I can only dream, for maybe, I am the other man.” He said and a beat started playing along with the ‘awws’ from the crowd. Napakurap ako sa mga sinabi niya and I can’t help but understand what he feels. My heart aches knowing he thinks like that, but it’s not his fault, I said I love him but I can’t even prove it. I’m such a coward.

“♪ Hey, this is a story I hate

And telling it might make me break

But I’ll tell it anyway ♪ “ He sang and I can only listen how hurt his voice are. Nagpatuloy siya sa pagkanta at hindi naalis ang mga tingin ko sakanya habang pinapakinggan ang bawat liriko na lumalabas sa bibig niya. He started looking at the crowd and stopped when he saw me like he always do.

“♪ Each day goes by and each night, I cry

Somebody saw you with her last night

You gave me your word, “Don’t worry ’bout her”

You might love her now, but you loved me first ♪ “ All I can do is swallow the lump I am feeling inside my throat. I guess this is the song he wants me to hear.

“ ♪ Said you’d never hurt me, but here we are

Oh, you swore on every star

How could you be so reckless with my heart? ♪ “ Bumigat ang dibdib ko at napahangos ako nang malalim. I didn’t even know I wasn’t breathing while looking at Hans singing with his voice full of pain. Deretso ang tingin niya saakin at kahit malayo ay alam kong puro hinanakit ang nasa mga mata niya. I really fucked up. All I cared about is my plans, my goals, I was reckless with him.

Napatalikod ako nang muntikang tumulo ang mga luha ko sa isiping matagal kong tiniis si Hans. I know he left me but I also know he was just trying to save me, why did I turn so hard on him? Why did I not care if he’s really okay? Why didn’t I chase him? What struggles have I made him faced all alone? How can I even say I love him, fuck.

“You don’t have the right to shed a tear, Kaleb.” I looked at Oasis when he said that. He’s looking at me seriously. “You think Hans became Hansy without being so hurt because you are with another woman? He walked through hell to survive in New York, and you heard none of it when he came back.” Patuloy niya at hindi ako nakaimik. My heart is getting heavier and heavier knowing I rejected him when he was so hopeful of us getting back together the first time we saw each other when he came back. Is that the first thing he did when he came back? To see me and all I did was tell him I am still a coward and can’t be with him still? I made him walk through hell just because of all my reasons. I know it’s not right to just bounce back, but I didn’t even gave him a chance and a reason to hold on for us.

All these years, all I could think of is to finish everything I started, thinking Hans is in a good state and I am the one who was left alone because I am lacking. I didn’t thought of what he’s really going thru knowing he can’t be with me because I am a fucking coward with full of shitty responsibilities that I always need to do first before I can be with him. Why the fuck did I ignored all of his plea? Why did I took his pain so lightly? Why did I have to take all of this responsibilities when all I want is to be with him? I didn’t choose him, not even once.

“♪ How could you be so reckless?

How could you be so reckless?

How could you be so reckless with someone’s heart? ♪ “ Tuluyang tumulo ang mga luha ko bago ako umalis sa pwestong iyon. I entered the backstage with all the heaviness inside my heart. How could I be so reckless with my pumpkin’s heart? What did I even do to Hans? I was the one who changed him.

Natapos ang kanta at nagsalita silang dalawa pero wala akong marinig kundi ang kaguluhan sa isip ko. I want to punch myself for only thinking of the goal I wanted to succeed, I didn’t even think of the one I love, I left him out. I knew he was always wearing a facade, but I didn’t even think that I am already ruining him.

“Kaleb,” I looked at Pete. Sinundan niya ako.

“I already told you about Hans anger issues, but I didn’t tell you something because I know you can’t take it,” Panimula niya at kumunot noo naman ako sakanya nang nagtatanong.

“It’s not just an anger issues anymore, he was also suicidal before he came back, and he have Intermittent Explosive Disorder or IED, it’s a psychological condition where he can be triggered with anything, even just by simple things or unreasonable reasons, but he always fight it when he’s with you.” Parang binagsakan ako nang langit sa mga sinabi niya. Napakurap ako at inintindi ang mga sinabi niya saakin.

“H-He was suicidal?” Hindi ko makapaniwalang tanong. Tumango siya.

“I didn’t tell you because you want to succeed with your goal, I can’t ruin it, can’t I? I’m telling you this now because I know you want to do it right this time, don’t you?” Hindi ako nakaimik sa mga sinasabi niya at napahilamos ako sa mukha ko habang pumapasok sa isip ko na naisip ni Hans na magpakamatay o baka sinubukan niya pa iyon habang ako ay desidido lamang na tapusin ang potanginang planong inuna ko bago ang lahat. Bago ang taong mahal ko.

“I don’t even know how to do it right this time, Pete.” My voice almost cracked while saying that. He looked at me and smiled.

“Hans wants you no matter what, you sacrificed him for all the goals you needed to achieve. Now he wants you to sacrifice something for him too, think of something you can do for him, he will be happy with it.” Sabi niya. I took a deep breath again because I feel like I am suffocating with all the things I am just realizing now. Fuck. I really sacrificed him over my goals, what have I fucking done.

Natigil kaming dalawa nang pumasok si Hans sa backstage at agad niya kaming nakita. He looked at me at parang nabigla pa siya sa itsura ko. Agad kong pinunasan ang mga luha ko.

“What’s happening?” Tanong niya at sumulyap siya kay Pete. Umiling lang ito.

“Nothing, tapos ka na ba? No more songs to sing?” Malumanay na tanong ni Pete sakanya. I was jealous before that Pete is like this with him, pero ngayon naiintindihan ko na. He saw everything Hans gone through, that’s why he’s so soft with him.

“Yeah, I want to go home.” Hans said and all I can do was stand there when both of them walked away. Lumingon pa saakin si Pete at napailing. Napapikit ako nang tuluyan silang lumabas. Fuck.

I really need to get this right, I need to start tonight or I will really lose the love of my life. I want to make it right, I will do it this time.

Mío

Treinta y seis

Hans

I looked at the mirror in front of me and I just watched myself cry because of the same man again.

I couldn’t even do what I was about to do earlier.

“Are you okay?” Pete asked. I looked at him.

“I was so close to ruining everything, Pete. I wanted people to know that I am the one Kaleb’s love and not that woman, but one look at him and I folded, just like that.” Mahina kong sabi. I saw him looking at me like he’s also hurt about my pain, and that’s it, it only took that shit for me to fold and not do what I planned.

“This is the right thing, I told you. If he doesn’t realize what he’s been doing, move on. I’m begging you, please, let go of everything and live the beautiful life you have.” Pakiusap ni Pete. I smiled bitterly.

“This is my punishment for leaving him, Pete.” Tanging sagot ko pero umiling siya at lumapit saakin.

“Enough is enough, you’ve been through a lot, I know both of you has been through a lot, but you tried fixing it already and he’s the one who makes it difficult. You already paid the price for leaving him, sobra-sobra pa.” Sabi niya ngunit ang tanging naiisip ko ay ang mga pinagdaanan rin ni Kaleb nang iwan ko siya. I can’t even be mad at him for real because of that. I know I was selfish before, I know it’s impossible just to bounce back. May paraan pa nga ba talaga para maayos ang lahat ng ito? Napailing ako at inayos ang sarili ko. Pinunasan ko ang mga luha ko and I wore a thick facade on my face again.

“Just do what I told you to do, make it quick. I promise you, I will live my life happily even without him.” I said and he stared at me before nodding. I swallowed and faced myself on the mirror.

He didn’t do anything to claim me tonight even after the shit I did with Fred to make him jealous and lost his shit. Maybe he’s not that affected by me anymore. I need to accept it.

__

PUmasok ako sa gate ng bahay namin at nakita ko agad si Manang Elsi.

“Hans! Iho, ngayon ka na lang ulit napadalaw.” Lumapit ako sakanya at hinalikan siya sa pisnge.

“I missed you too, Manang. Where’s Dad and Papa?” I asked. Inalalayan niya naman ako papasok ng bahay.

“Nako, nasa trabaho ang dalawa. Hindi ka ba nagsabi sakanila na u-uwi ka? Ano at ganyan pala ang buhok mo? Puti na lahat.” Natawa ako sa sinabi ni Manang bago umupo sa sala ng bahay kung saan ako lumaki.

“No, I wanted to surprised them because I will be busy this week again. I have too much pending work. Anyway, I dyed my hair, Manang. Maganda ba? Bagay ba sakin?” Tanong ko at napaisip naman si manang bago sumagot.

“Bagay saiyo, nagmumukha ka lalong babae.” Sabi niya at natatawang napailing lang ako. “Gusto mo bang kumain?” She asked but I shook my head.

“No, I want to sleep here.”

“Sa kwarto mo na, malinis naman doon.” Umiling ako.

“I don’t wanna feel alone in my room, it’s okay, manang. I’ll sleep here for just a couple of hours.” Sabi ko at wala na siyang nagawa pa. Nagpaalam siyang lalabas muna at tumango lang ako. Humiga ako sa couch at tiningnan ko ang selpon ko na kanina pa tumutunog. I turned it off and sighed.

I want to refresh my mind, I’ve been using Hansy as my facade for the past week at ngayon ko lang napansin ang pagod ko. I should think of my parents too, masyado na akong nilalamon ni Kaleb. If he doesn’t want me still, I will not care anymore.

Nakatulog ako sa isiping iyon at nang magising ako ay tanghali na. May pagkain na sa harap ko na may takip. I’m sure Manang made it. Kinuha ko ang selpon ko at binuksan iyon. Nagulat pa ako nang maraming notifications ang pumasok sa selpon ko.

I clicked one of the hashtags notification about me and I smiled when it’s about the music fest last night.

HansyAtQuezon

PrettyStylishHansy

FredxHans

#QuezonMusicFestGoesWild

#Kaleb&

OceannaFAKE

!

Natigil ako sa pagbabasa nang makita ko ang naiibang hashtag na iyon.

“What? Fake?” Kunot noo kong pinindot ang hashtag na iyon at kumalabog ang dibdib ko nang makita ko ang headline ng number one entertainment media dito sa Pilipinas.

‘Governor Kaleb Cabrera of Quezon City announced on his official Twitter that his relationship with his fiance for three years was all for show.’

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko and I clicked the link on the article. Dinala ako noon sa mismong post ni Kaleb sa twitter niya. Nanginginig kong binasa iyon.

’My dear people of Quezon and to those people that knows about me and my relationship with Oceanna Villar, I am here to finally be honest and say that our relationship was all for show .

I know some of you always wonder why we don’t just get married already, this is the reason. I have someone in my heart, and this relationship that’s been shoved on my shoulder by everyone has been the barricade between me and the one I truly love. My relationship with Oceanna was all planned by our parents since the beginning, I had to be with her because they had doubt I will win the election, and I was a coward who believed it all and pained the person I love the most. I ruined my true loved one for a woman I don’t even like.

I will accept if all of you will throw names at me, call me a jerk, a bastard for doing this, but I am just a man who wants to be with who I really love. I have been lying to myself for the longest time already. I am sure that I did my part as a Governor of Quezon, I didn’t failed you all, I’m sure of that. Now I want to focus on things that is more important to me, I want to focus to this one person that’s been hurting for the longest time because of me, I hope this person can still accept me. I want to end this fake relationship that’s been killing me for three years, this position I didn’t even want in the first place, and I am making this public announcement so you don’t need to make fake accusations towards everyone around me. I am at fault for being a coward and a liar, I take full responsibility for all of this.

Once again, this is Governor Kaleb Cabrera, as the election is coming around again, I will never re-elect, I hope you can stay with me until I step down to this position. I hope everyone a good life as I will start mine. Thank you and apologies, Quezon.

’

Hindi ko napansin ang luhang tumutulo sa mga mata ko habang binabasa iyon.

“He did it.” My voice cracked while saying it and my tears overflowed. Even tho he didn’t mention my name, he did it. He ended it all. The way he called me the one he truly loves, that’s all I need. That’s all I want.

Humikbi ako nang humikbi habang ramdam ko ang pagkawagi sa puso ko. It’s just on the internet, but I felt the warmth of Kaleb’s decision to choose me, to sacrifice something for me. I know it’s selfish, but is it wrong that I feel so happy with this?

But even tho I feel happy, I also feel the sadness within my heart because of all the burdens that kept us apart.

“What took you so long, Kaleb, amado mío ?” I should only be happy but that was all washed away by guiltiness and pain. I didn’t know why but I kept crying until I fell asleep again.

__

NAgising ako sa mahinang haplos sa pisnge ko. I opened my eyes and I smiled when I saw papa Reihan looking down at me.

“Baby, why did you not sleep in your room?” Tanong niya habang pinakatitigan ang mukha ko.

“I didn’t want to be alone in my room, pa. I miss you.” Hinagkan ko siya at ganon rin ang ginawa niya.

“I miss you too, anak. Is everything alright?” He asked again. Humigpit ang hawak ko sakanya nang maalala ang ginawa ni Kaleb kanina.

“Yes, pa. Everything will be alright now, I really hope so.” Mahina kong sabi. Hinaplos niya ang buhok ko at hinalikan ako roon.

“Me and your Dad are always here for you, you know that, right?” I nodded at what he said and looked up at him smiling slyly.

“Can you make me pasta for dinner, pa? I’m really hungry.” Ani ko at napangiwi siya dahil hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin siya magaling sa pagluto. It’s Dad skills.

“I’ll make it for my two sweethearts, just don’t left me out when the two of you are being so sweet like this.” Napalingon kami ni Papa nang marinig namin ang boses ni Dad Arken sa pinto. The three of us laughed and I smiled wholeheartedly when Dad kissed the both of us on our forehead. I love the warmth and peace they can give me. I will really work on my condition for them not to be hurt if they find out I have a psychological condition within me. I will never let them find out.

Nagluto nga si Dad ng pasta at masaya kaming kumain. We talked a lot about everything I do and they are so happy with my journey. I felt so good talking to my parents until all of us need to go sleep already. Pero imbes na pumasok ako sa kwarto ko ay lumabas ako ng bahay para maglakad-lakad.

I still haven’t checked my phone and I am scared to do so. I just feel like something will be thrown at me in there and my happiness will be ruined. I am too tired to be Hansy, I want a peace of mind within me. I’m tired of all the facade I needed to wear so I can be strong and survive.

Natigil ako sa paglalakad nang makita ko ang kubo kung saan una kaming nagkita ni Kaleb. I want to see him right now, but I am too scared that I’ll be crying in front of him again. I don’t want him to see me so weak.

Lumakad ako palapit sa kubo na iyon at tumaas pa ang kilay ko nang mapansin na may nagbago roon. The woods were changed, hindi na ito iyong dating kubo. Parehong-pareho pa rin ang pagkakatayo ngunit bago na ang mga bamboo woods na ginamit rito, the materials were changed.

Did Dad and Papa did this? Or the people here at Ke Aloha?

Lumapit ako sa pinto ng kubo at binuksan ko sana iyon nang may magsalita sa likod ko.

“I knew I’m going to find you here.” Gulat akong lumingon sa taong nagsalita at hindi ako nakaimik nang makita si Kaleb. He’s looking at me with a little smile on his face and my heart is already going crazy. This is the first time we’re meeting with him being single. I feel crazy inside me.

“Why didn’t you contact me? I’m sure you know what I did already.” Sabi niya. Napalunok ako at umiwas ng tingin sakanya. Fuck. Pumupunta pa rin pala siya rito? Hindi ko inakalang makikita ko siya ngayong gabi, naka pajama short at shirt lang ako! I feel so ugly right now.

“B-Bakit ako ang mag c-contact?” Pilit kong pagmamaldita. He walked towards me at umatras lang ako habang hindi pa rin tumitingin sakanya.

“I called you so many times, you weren’t picking up. I asked everyone where are you and they didn’t know, I figured you were here and I am right. I miss you so much, pumpkin. Don’t you miss me?” Mahaba niyang sabi. Umiling ako kahit na sumisigaw ang puso ko na Oo, miss na miss ko na siya.

“I am finally here, pumpkin. I’m sorry about everything, I’m sorry I didn’t choose you and discarded all your pleas. I am really sorry it took me so long, but I am here now, I’m ready to make it all right, can we make it all right again?” Patuloy niya pa. Napakurap ako at napalunok.

“Stop being dramatic, come here and kiss me.” Mahina kong sabi. Hindi naman siya nakagalaw nang ilang segundo bago nangingiting lumapit saakin at hinapit ako sa bewang. He made me look at him. He touched my cheek and we stared at each other’s eyes before he claimed my lips so softly.

His kiss was so gentle and it seems like he’s taking his time to taste me again. I kissed him back as gentle as I also can. Masyado siyang matangkad para saakin kaya ipinulupot ko ang mga braso ko sa batok niya at tumingkayad para palalimin lalo ang halikan namin sa ilalim ng gabi sa labas ng bahay namin, sa tabi ng kubo kung saan kami unang nagkakilala. We can hear the gentle waves of the sea while we’re both claiming each other’s lips.

“I miss you a lot, amante

. “ I finally said when we both took a breath. He smiled between our lips and gripped my waist tightly.

“Does this mean we’re finally back with each other?” Tanong niya at ngumisi ako.

“No, we need to go back to one. Get to know each other.” Asar ko at napaungot naman siya.

“Fine, I can wait, but with this get to know each other, I can get to know your body again as well, right?” Sabi niya bago halikan ang leeg ko. Nakagat ko ang labi ko habang nangingiti.

“You’re lucky this is the old Hans speaking, he wants you to claim him again.” Kagat-labi kong sabi. I heard him chuckled before licking my earlobe.

“Ah..” Mahina kong ungot. Iginiya niya ako palapit sa loob ng kubo and I was shock to see na may foam at unan roon.

“I still go here whenever I miss you, your parents know that.” Paliwanag niya agad. I looked at him and I didn’t know what to say. I really miss him so much.

“I love you, Kaleb. So much that I’m dying for your touch every day. I’m yearning for you.” Pag-amin ko. It’s been three years since I have been touch. Of course I’m pent up.

“We will make love all night, mío. I’ll fuck you all night long, stay with me.” He said before he started kissing me again.

I can’t wait to be his again.

Mío

A/N: Parang kulang yung angst ah 🤭

Treinta y siete

Hans

“Ah.. Kaleb..” I moaned when Kaleb’s keeps licking on my chest while his hands are gripping my waist. Nakahiga na ako sa foam sa loob ng kubo and he’s now on top of me and making me feel so hot with his touch and tongue. I’m already shirtless and the night cold along with his warmth touches are giving me chills.

“Sweet..” He mumbled while licking my nipple. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at nasabunutan ko ang buhok niya nang marahas niyang kagatin ang utong ko.

“Kaleb..” Saway ko. He licked it and levelled his face on mine.

“I want you, pumpkin. We can go all the way, right?” He asked while giving me kisses all over my face.

“Stop asking, I want to make love, quick.” I said and he claimed my lips again. I can’t wait to do it again with him also, I can feel his needs right now and my desire is also overflowing. I feel like I’m going to burst. I haven’t been touch since we part ways.

“I don’t have lube or condoms, pumpkin.” Sabi niya habang pababa nang pababa ang halik niya. He’s saying that but his hands are now pulling down my pajama shorts. Napaungot ako nang kagatin niya ang parteng gilid ng leeg ko. He keeps biting and marking me.

“Use your saliva or something, I really need it now.” Hangos ko and I heard him groaned. Nagulat pa ako nang bigla niya akong padapain.

“I need you to stay still, baby.” He said and I bit my lower lip because of what he called me. He sounds so sexy. I can’t believe I still blush with just that from Kaleb. Natigil ako sa iniisip ko nang maramdaman ko ang mahigpit na hawak ni Kaleb sa magkabilang pisnge ng pang-upo ko. I was about to say something when he parted both of my cheeks and I am sure my hole is now staring back at him.

“Kaleb,” I looked at him behind and he was just staring at my ass. Sinulyapan niya ako bago niya pilyong dinuruan ang butas ko. “Hey!” Saway ko habang nag-iinit ang dalawang pisnge ko sa ginagawa niya.

“I’ll eat you until you loosen up for me, pumpkin. Stay still.” He sexily said and I can tell that he’s in dazed. Hindi na ako nakaimik pa at naisubsub ko na lamang ang mukha ko sa unan nang maramdaman ko ang mainit niyang dila sa entrada ko. I gripped the bed sheets when he’s literally eating my ass.

“Ohh.. Governor..” I moaned and his hands tightened its grip on my ass cheeks. I feel the tingling sensation on my stomach and the pleasure on my entrance because of how he’s devouring it. Ramdam ko ang gigil sa ginagawa niya.

“I miss this so much, pumpkin.” He said between licking my ass. Tanging pag ungot lamang ang naisagot ko at mas lalo akong nanginig nang bitawan niya ang isang pisnge ng pang-upo ko at naramdaman ko ang daliri niya sa entrada ko.

“Look at me.” He suddenly said. I did what he asked and he was also looking at me already. We met eyes and I saw how he brought up his three fingers in his open mouth. I watched as he put it in his mouth and he sucked on it so it can be covered with his saliva. Nang magawa niya iyon ay saka niya ibinalik sa entrada ko ang mga daliri niya habang deretso pa rin na nakatingin saakin. I swallowed. Fuck. He so manly, so fucking sexy. I miss this side of Kaleb, so hot and sexy. He really knows what he wants and he will get it one way or another. Sa ganong paraan niya ako nakuha noon.

“Relax your entrance for me, pumpkin..” Natauhan ako nang sabihin niya iyon at saka ko naramdaman ang isang daliri niyang dahan-dahang pumapasok sa entrada ko. Muli kong naisubsub sa unan ang mukha ko at impit na umungol roon. I can feel his long finger entering me and it’s been so long since someone did this to me, fuck. Siya pa ang huling nakagawa niyon saakin.

“So tight, has it been so long, baby?” He mumbled while biting my ass cheek and still trying to finger me. Umiling ako at nakita kong natigilan siya. I looked at him.

“It hasn’t been long since I finger fuck myself.” Sinabi ko iyon para asarin siya but I guess it was a wrong move. I saw his eyes darkened with lust at napahiyaw ako nang dagdagan niya ang daliri niya kasabay ng pagdura niya muli sa entrada ko. “Fuck!” Mura ko.

“I want to see you doing that one of these days..” Mahinang niyang sabi bago tuluyang naging marahas sa paglabas masok ng mga daliri niya sa entrada ko.

“Ohh, good, I love it!” I kept moaning and moaning. I didn’t even know how long he’s been loosening me up, I was enjoying it so much. I am very pent up and I will even thank him if he just put his dick inside me without any preparation, that’s how much I am pent up.

What can I do, I’m just a brat with needs.

“I love you. I love you so much, my pumpkin.” Nagtaasan ang mga balahibo sa batok ko nang maramdaman ko ang mainit na hininga niya roon kasabay ng sakit at sarap na naramdaman ko nang maipasok niya ang ulo ng kalakihan niya saakin.

“Ohh, fucking finally..” Ungot niya.

“Ahh.. Kaleb..” Impit ko at balak ko sana ulit na isubsub ang mukha ko sa unang nang hawakan niya ang batok ko para maiharap ang mukha ko sakanya. He looked at my pleasured face with so much desire and I can see that he’s also feeling my tightness.

“Your tightness is the evidence that my dick is the only cock you are willing to take, Hans.” He called me by my name. Napangisi ako sa sinasabi niya habang napapapikit dahil sa dahan-dahan niyang pagbaon saakin.

“I’m just.. ohh.. I was just thinking about your s-sanity,” Imunulat ko ang mga mata ko at pilyong tumingin sa mga mata niya. “I know you will lose your shit if I had let another man touch me, don’t yo- fuck!” I cursed when he rammed his cock deep into me. My strength was immediately took from me by his massive dick. He’s so big and long like how I remembered it. I can’t believe I didn’t took advantage of his dick before. But no worries, I will work it tonight until it dries out because of me.

“Oh.. pumpkin..” I bit my lips when his sexy moans added up to the pleasure I am feeling. I readied myself when I felt he’s going to thrust already.

“Oh! Ah! Kaleb!” Ingay ko nang ilang ulit niyang ibinaon saakin ang kalakihan niya. He thrusted into me and even tho it already feels so good, I know he’s stopping himself for being rough on me. Gusto ko man na mas lakasan niya pa ay hinayaan ko siya because this is making love, I want to make love with him first before he can fuck me to death, I can’t ruin it just because I want him to be rough and dominate me like a horny rabbit.

“Pumpkin.. Hans! I’m cumming!” Nagulat ako nang bigla niyang ibaon nang malakas at malalim ang kalakihan niya sa loob ko at naramdaman ko ang pag putok ng malagkit niyang katas saakin. I bit my lip.

“Fuck..” Ungol ko bago nangingiting tumingin sakanya ngunit nakapikit na siya habang ang bigat ng katawan niya ay nasaakin.

“That’s the evidence I didn’t touch anyone when we’re apart, my cock misses you so much, baby.” Sabi niya ngunit umungot lang ako.

“So cocky for a man who came before me.” Asar ko at bago pa man siya makasagot ay tumihaya ako at ipinulupot ang mga braso ko sa batok niya. I looked at his handsome face and fierce eyes.

“Hans wanted to make love, now Hansy wants to be fuck like a slut, Governor.” I said without any shame and I saw how that affected him so much. Napangiti ako nang maliit nang maramdaman ko ang mahina niyang sabunot sa buhok ko.

“Like a slut? Well, you’ve been naughty with someone last night, maybe I really should punish you.” Sabi niya at nakapikit akong tumango-tango habang maliit na nakabukas ang bibig sa antipasyon sa mga gagawin niya saakin. Nakagat ko ang labi ko nang lakasan niya ang paghila sa buhok ko.

“I love your face, Hans. I can’t wait to make a mess out of it.” He said before gripping both of my legs and putting it on the air. He spat on my entrance again before slamming his cock so rough inside me.

“Ah!” Mahigpit akong napakapit sa malalaki niyang braso at hindi pa man ako nakakabawi ay muli siyang bumira at paulit-ulit na binayo nang marahas ang entrada ko habang mayabang na nakatitig sa mukha kong nagpapakasasa sa sarap na dulot niya. “Shit! Fuck me harder, Kaleb!” Udyok ko at agad niya naman akong sinunod.

“You love this cock so much?” He asked and I nodded without even thinking. The thing that is only in my mind right now is his big dick going in and out of me without stopping. Ihiniga niya ang katawan niya saakin at sinakop niya ang bibig ko bago diniinan ang dalawang binti ko para mas lalo iyon bumuka. Napapikit ako sa lalim na naaabot ng kalakihan niya.

“Oh fuck! Ah! Ahh! Kaleb! More!” Maingay kong ungol, walang pakialam kung may makakarinig saakin dahil pinupuno ng sarap ni Kaleb ang sistema ko. Gustong-gusto na kumawala ng likido saakin ngunit pigil na pigil ko iyon.

I don’t want him to ever stop fucking me. I want him to keep going until he’s dried up. Pero sa lagay na ’to ay mukhang ako ang unang susuko. He’s so strong, his thrusts are too rough and strong and I love it so much.

“Oh, good! I love it so much! Ahh! Ah! Kaleb! Kaleb!” Walang humpay kong ingay. My mind is about to blow when he put my legs on his shoulders and leveled his face on mine. Baon na baon ang ari niya saakin ngayon.

“Ahh! Ah! Kaleeb!” I thought I was controlling my cum but when he put me in that position, I lost it. Naabot ko ang rurok ngunit hindi tumigil si Kaleb. “Wait, fuck!” Mura ko nang mas lalo niyang lakasan ang mga ulos niya saakin. I’m too sensitive for this!

“Pumpkin, look at me..” I looked at Kaleb when he called me. “I will fuck you so good you won’t be walking tomorrow, baby. Fuck.” He said with his gritted teeth. Kung kanina ay malakas ang loob ko na udyukin siyang gawin iyon, but now I want to run and escape because the look in his eyes right now is really dangerous.

He will really fucking fuck me like a slut.

Mío

A/N: Matagal kong

hinintay

ang

ganitong

tagpo

nila na hindi na shy-shy

ang

mima

niyo Hans

😭 🤭

(Hirap kasi ako dati sa bed scenes nila kasi

mahiyain

nga

ang

mima

niyo Hans! Haha)

Treinta y ocho

⚠️

VULGAR WORDS!  ↓

Kaleb’s

“Ahh, shit!” I groaned while looking at the guy beneath me. Hans eyes are already dilating while he cums for the third time already. He was so full of himself when he said he wants me to fuck him like a slut but looking at him right now, he can’t even moan properly with his state.

“O-Oh! Fuck! Kaleb! H-aah!” He can barely breathe with the way I am fucking him right now. Hindi ko iniiba ang posisyon namin. We are still facing each other because I want to see all of his reactions when he’s like this. I miss it so much. I can’t believe I am doing it again with him. I waited so long for this.

Hinigpitan ko ang hawak ko sa mga binti niyang nasa balikat ko at kanina pa nanginginig . Even tho he’s already shivering, he won’t back down. He became too cocky to tell me to stop and I am loving this sassy side of him in bed.

“H-aahgh! Ah! Kaleb! Kaleb! More!” Ungol niya at gigil kong inabot ng kamay ko ang bibig niya. I inserted my three fingers on his mouth and gave him more. Mas nilakasan ko ang pagbayo sakanya at nakita ko kung paano niya iyon nagugustuhan. He even licked my fingers inside his mouth and sucked on it. I groaned.

Fuck. He feel so good and he’s so pleasant to look at. Kanina ko pa siya gustong sakalin sa sobrang libog na nararamdaman ko sakanya ngayon. He’s so hot, I want to fuck him like he doesn’t even matter to me. I want to fuck him until he drops, and I think I really will.

“Hans,” Ibinaba ko ang mukha ko para makapantay ang mukha niyang puno ng sarap ang ekspresyon. He tried opening his eyes to look at me. “Can I be really rough on you, baby?” I asked and I think even if he says no, hindi na ako makakapagtimpi pa. I’ve been too soft on him before, I don’t think I can hold on right now.

“Governor, you can even fuck me to death if you want. I’ll still say thank you.” He said and that took the hesitation in me. I put my two hands on his neck and choke him before starting to slam-fuck my cock inside his tight warm hole.

“I didn’t imagine my sweet innocent Hans will have the courage to say that to me one day, but here we are.” Hangos ko habang walang patid na inaararo ang butas niyang tinatanggap ako masyado.

“Kaleb! Ohh! That’s it! Fuck! Fuck me like that!” Hans moaned so loud na para bang pinapaalam niya sa labas kung ano ang ginagawa ko sakanya sa loob ng maliit na kubo na ito. He’s so loud and it’s only making me lust over him so much more. He knows what he wants now, he has a smart teasing mouth that can drive me crazy and I couldn’t thank the world enough for having him like this right now.

“My dinner for tonight is so hot, fuck!” I mindlessly said while still fucking him so good. Ang dami kong gustong gawin sakanya ngayon ngunit habang tinititigan siyang nahihirapan huminga dahil sa mga hawak ko sa leeg niya at sa sarap ng ginagawa namin, wala akong lakas para baguhin ang posisyon namin. He’s even gripping on my wrist na parang mas inuudyok pa akong sakalin siya. All I want right now is to fuck him like this and I can take my time, marami pang susunod na pagkakataon para gawin ko sakanya ang lahat ng posisyon na gusto ko.

“Ohh! Yes! Yes! Kaleb! Fuck your pumpkin like that! Fuck me harder!” His smart mouth moaned and my grip on his neck tightened. Bumukas ang bibig niya at halos pikit na siyang nakatingin saakin ngayon habang halata sa mukha niya kung gaano niya nagugustuhan ang ginagawa ko. He really likes to be fuck so hard. It’s making me feel crazy. Pakiramdam ko ay puputok na ang lahat saakin dahil sa sarap niyang kawawain sa lagay niya ngayon.

“You want this? You want it when I get so rough, pumpkin?” I asked and he nodded immediately.

“Yes! Oh! I’m near, Kaleb! Fuck me more, ohh! Fuck!” I stared at him while still pounding him. I can’t believe this is my innocent Hans before, I didn’t know I will love him like this. Ang akala ko ay perpekto na si Hans para saakin dati pa, but looking at him right now, having him right now, nothing is more perfect than this. He’s just so perfect in my eyes.

“Shit! So tight!” I couldn’t stop myself and I slapped his face while hardly pounding him. Halos mapatigil pa ako sa nagawa ko ngunit nang makita ko ang ngiti niya habang nang-aakit na nakatingin saakin ay mas lalo kong nilakasan ang paglabas-masok ko sa entrada niyang sarap na sarap saakin.

“I’m sorry, fuck..” I couldn’t help but apologize because I didn’t dare to do that to him even before. Nadala ako nang libog dahil sa ipinapakita niya saaking kagustuhan habang sinasakal ko siya.

“Only apologize to me if you don’t make me cum right now. I love how you slapped me like that, Kaleb. You can do it again.“ He said in between his moans but I shook my head. I didn’t like the feeling of slapping him, choking him is enough. Hinigpitan ko ang hawak ko sa leeg niya pero sa paraan na makakahinga pa rin siya. Inilapit ko ang bibig ko sa pisnge niya. I gave him sweet little kisses on his cheeks where I slapped him while my hips didn’t stop ramming inside him.

“I’ll make you cum until you don’t want it anymore, don’t worry, I’ll fuck you so good. I will be the only one who can do this to you, do you understand?” I said and I smiled when he nodded while shivering.

“Yes, ahh, I’m all yours, Kaleb. I’m all yours, Governor.” I clicked my tongue when he called me that again. I didn’t know I can be so turned on by someone calling me Governor but I get a massive boner everytime Hans calls me that. Maybe it’s the way he says it, sounds so perfect and hot.

“Fuck.” Ungot ko nang mas lalong sumikip ang entrada niya. He’s near. Mas nilakasan ko ang pagbayo ko sakanya at walang tigil ko iyong ginawa habang hindi mawala-wala ang gigil saakin. “Nakakagigil ka masyado, mahal. Tangina.” Hindi ko napigilang ani at pareho kaming nilabasan.

“Ohh! Ohh, Kaleb!”

“Fuck! Fuck, ohh..” I groaned and emptied myself as I filled Hans insides. Napadapa ako sa sobrang pagod sa ibabaw niya at tanging parehong mabilis at malalim na hangos namin ang maririnig sa loob ng kubo. I hope someone didn’t hear us.

“I love you, pumpkin. I love you so much.” I said between my shaky breath. I looked at him and he’s still coming down to the immense pleasure we both felt.

“That was so good..” Una niyang sinabi bago niya iminunulat ang mga mata niya at nakangiting tumingin saakin. I was nervous he wouldn’t say I love you back because he hasn’t said it since earlier but when he opened his mouth, I know whatever happens, I will never let him leave again and I will never ever leave his side for another reason I’ll have.

“You’re the only one I love like this, Kaleb. I love you the most.”

Mío

A/N: Scenes like this is the most draining sht to write 😭

Treinta y nueve

NOTICE: SUICIDE ATTEMPT  ⚠️

[ this is all from Hans past

in

New

York ]

Hans

“You have schedules,

Hansy

. You can’t just go back.“ Peterson said with uneasiness in his voice.

Kumunot

ang noo ko .

“I told the two of you that I will end all of this after the election is over. I want to go back, and no one can stop me. Besides, it’s been two months since the election ended. I’m sure Kaleb is waiting for me.”

Mahinahon

kong ani habang

pinag-

aaralan

ang

ekspresyon

ni Pete. He’s not being himself today.

“

H-Hans

, you can’t just leave your

w-work

. You also have your contracts here, I’m sure he can wait.“ Kuya Oasis said and that’s when I knew something was up. If not, then kuya Oasis won’t say this. He will only say that Kaleb doesn’t deserve me and I’m better off on my own, or with him.

“What is going on? Why are the two of you acting like this?” Tanong ko at hindi ko alam kung bakit may

namumuong

galit sa

dibdib

ko kaya

pilit

kong

pinapakalma

ang sarili ko.

I watched how the two of them exchange glances and they can’t even meet my eyes. They’re really acting so suspicious.

“Tell me or I will really be mad, kuya.”

Banta

ko dahil hindi ko

maikalma

ang sarili ko. Pakiramdam ko ay

hinahabol

ako nang kung ano at sa tagal ay

hinihingal ako sa pagod at galit. I don’t know why I am feeling like this, but I hate it. I f eel like I am going to explode.

“It’s nothing, okay?” He still denied. Hindi ako

umimik

at

tinitigan

ko lamang silang dalawa. They can’t still

look at me straight and I am really getting

pissed

.

“Tell me or I will go to the airport right now, I am not kidding.”

Banta

ko at

tinitigan

naman ako ni kuya Oasis bago

napipilitang

magsalita.

“They are still together, Kaleb didn’t break off the engagement.” He said and my heart shattered.

Napuno

ng galit at tampo ang puso ko ngunit

inalala

ko na ako ang nang-iwan sakanya. Maybe he still needs time to do it. He will still do it, right? Because he said I will be the only one he will love whatever happens. He will break off the engagement sooner, so I should just wait.

---

“Sorry, Hans. He’s still not doing it.” Peterson said and I didn’t say anything. I didn’t even look at him.

Tinitigan

ko ang

malaking

billboard sa harap ng condo ko. It’s not just an ordinary billboard, it’s a billboard of mine. My very first billboard.

Parang hindi ako ang taong nasa billboard na iyon. The person in it is wearing revealing clothes and posing like a pro temptress. It’s not like me to do that at all. But it is myself, I did it.

“Hans,” Kuya Oasis called me. I looked at him with my eyes full of tears but I smiled.

“It has only been 7 months, I’m sure he’ll do it sooner.” I said and looked at the champagne glass full of liquor on the table in front of me.

Dinampot

ko

iyon

and I raised it in the air.

“Let’s celebrate my very first billboard!”

---

“Stop looking at that.” Kuya Oasis said while I stare at the pictures on my cellphone.

‘Quality time with my future hubby! Luv u always, Gov! Thank u for the time!’

I read the caption of

Oceanna’s

Instagram posts. It’s full of pictures of her and Kaleb. They’re in bed, both of them look like they’re just rolling in the bed, cuddling and flirting with each other. Just like a real couple having a quality time, like what the caption said.

Ramdam ko ang

bigat

at

pisil

sa puso ko. Pakiramdam ko ay may

sampung

kamay ang

pumipiga

sa puso ko dahil sa nakikita.

I even scrolled down and analyzed all of the photos and they looked so happy, Kaleb looked so happy.

“It’s fake, you know that, right?” Kuya Oasis said and I still couldn’t speak.

Is it still fake? Then why does it look so real. Why is the pain so real?

Napalunok ako nang maramdaman ko nanaman ang galit sa

dibdib

ko. I don’t know why I keep getting these emotions even with no right amount of valid reason but I do. I even snapped out earlier with one of my make up artists because he made a small mistake. It was so out of character for me.

I couldn’t even say sorry because of my pride, I am not acting like myself these days.

Maybe this is because of stress I’ve been going through for almost a year now, after all, Kaleb is still not breaking off his engagement to that woman. Is he even going to?

Napailing

ako.

I should not doubt him, I know he will do it, for me.

---

“Thank you! Thank you so much, Mr.

Ladesma

. I really appreciate your invitation.“ Masaya kong ani habang

kumakabog

ang

dibdib

ko. Masaya

namang

tumango-tango

si Mr.

Ladesma

. Isa sa mga

sikat

na fashion designer na half Filipino and half British. He’s really famous in my line of work. Especially here in New York.

He just invited me to be one of the judges on a fashion show in the Philippines. My home.

“It is my pleasure to have you there, my dear. You are incredible at your work and you have a good eye for designs. I heard a lot of good things about you.” He said and even tho it’s all compliments about me, I am not that happy about it, mas

kumakabog

sa saya ang puso ko dahil u-uwi ako ngayon sa Pilipinas. Hindi

makaka-hindi

si kuya Oasis at Peterson dahil trabaho ito. That means I can meet Kaleb.

Pagkatapos namin mag-usap ni Mr.

Ladesma

ay agad kong

ibinalita

kay kuya Oasis ang

inalok

nito saakin.

“You already said yes? Why didn’t you consult us?” Peterson said and I ignored him.

“I’ll be there next week, I want to get ready by now for my homecoming.” Ani ko at nagmamadali akong pumasok sa kwarto ko para mag

impake

ng mga gamit at damit na

kakailanganin

ko.

“Oh, I also want to customize my dress for that fashion show, I have to show off to Mr.

Ladesma

.” Ani ko nang

sumunod

sila saakin sa kwarto.

“Hans, I am letting you go home but promise me that you won’t meet Kaleb.”

Natigil

ako sa pag

i-impake

at agad na

nainis

sa sinabi ni kuya Oasis.

“And who are you to tell me who to meet and not?” I snapped and both of them were caught off guard but I just looked away.

“

Hansy

,” Ani pa ni Peterson sa

tonong

may

pananaway

.

Tinigil

ko ang pag

i-impake

at

humangos

nang

malalim

. Nandito

nanaman

iyong pakiramdam na

nagpupuyos

ako sa galit kahit na wala naman akong

sapat

na

dahilan

para

makaramdam

ng ganito. These past few months, I noticed that I get angry so easily and I always snap at everyone. Ayaw ko man maramdaman ito ngunit kahit anong kontrol ko ay hindi ko magawa.

“Pete, I don’t need the two of you in this fashion show. I can go on my own.” I said and both of them just scoffed.

“As if we are going to let you go like that, we have contracts, and to remind you Hans, you are going there for work, not for some engaged man.” Agad na

pumantig

ang tenga ko sa huling sinabi ni kuya Oasis. I glared at him and I didn’t know what got into me but I threw the bottle of lotion I was holding towards him and it hit him on his head.

“Ow!“

“Hans!” Pare-pareho kaming

nagulat

sa

biglaan

kong ginawa.

Napaatras

pa ako nang

makitang

dumugo

ang noo ni kuya Oasis.

“Oh my god.“

Natakpan

ko ang bibig ko at nagmamadali akong

tumakbo

papasok sa

banyo

habang takot na takot.

“Hans!” Peterson called but I locked the bathroom and I looked at myself in front of the mirror inside my bathroom.

What are you doing, Hans?

Naluha

ako nang maramdaman ko pa rin ang galit kay kuya Oasis kahit na may nagawa na ako sakanya.

Napaupo

ako sa

sahig

at

napahikbi

sa nangyayari saakin.

“Why are

you so mad? Fuck.”

Nakagat

ko ang labi ko nang hindi ko man lang

maramdamang

mag sorry kay kuya Oasis kahit na

masyadong

out of line ang ginawa ko. My temper is really getting out of hand . I think this is because of stress.

---

[PHILIPPINES]

“Are you okay?“ Hindi ako kumibo nang

tanungin

iyon ni Peterson. Hindi ako

kumibo

at

tumingin

lamang sa labas ng

bintana

.

The fashion show ended yesterday evening, I arrived here in the Philippines yesterday morning and now, Peterson is driving us towards the airport to go back to New York. Ni hindi man lang ako

nagkaron

ng oras para

kitain

si Kaleb, bantay sarado ako ni Pete at hindi ko

magawang

mangulit

dahil sa

kasalanang

ginawa ko kay kuya Oasis.

Nahihiya

ako.

Napabuntong-hininga

ako at halos

maluha

dahil sa

panghihinayang

. I’ve waited so long to go back for nothing.

Hindi na sana ako

kikibo

pa ngunit nakita kong iba ang

tinatahak

na daan ni Pete.

“Where are we going?” I asked. He looked at me and gave me a small smile.

“To Kaleb, he’s having an event at XXX park right now, you can see him from afar before we leave. That’s all I can do, Hans.” Ani niya at

nangilid

pa ang mga

luha

kong

ngumiti

sakanya. Naiintindihan ko naman kung bakit ayaw

nilang

magkita

kami ni Kaleb.

Kaleb is a public figure, and now, I am too. Kaleb is engaged, if the media gets to know that I met up with him, his reputation will get ruined and so is mine. The thing between us is getting more complicated as days go by.

Sana sa sunod ay

makausap

ko na siya, sana magawa niya nang

hiwalayan

ang

babaeng

iyon

upang

maayos na namin ang

saamin

. For now,

pagta-tiyagaan

kong

tanawin

siya mula sa

malayo

.

Dumating kami sa park na sinasabi ni Pete at

ipinarada

niya ang

kotse

kung saan makikita ko ang lalaking

nagsasalita

sa harap ng maraming tao. The people of Quezon looked at him with amusement and adoration in their eyes. They are convinced and are agreeing with whatever he’s saying.

Kaleb has reached a long mile, he’s now the Governor of Quezon, he finally achieved his dreams.

Pinanuod ko

siyang

magsalita sa harap ng mga tao. He’s so well spoken as I have remembered, maganda ang

tindig

, maayos tingnan at formal ang mga

galaw

. Just like his father before, just like a real politician.

I watched in awe and admiration for him.

“I miss you so much, Kaleb.” I whispered while still looking at his handsome face from afar.

“—and I can’t do any of this without my beautiful fiance, of course. To her, I am very thankful.”

Nawala ang maliit na

ngiti

sa mga labi ko nang

marinig

ko iyon.

Lumapit

sakanya si

Oceanna

na ngayon ko lamang napansin na kanina pa pala nasa likod niya lamang.

Hindi ako

nakakibo

at the

tanging

pamamanhid

lamang ang naramdaman ko.

Pamamanhid

sa sobrang sakit na

idinulot

ng

litanyang

iyon sa puso ko.

Pinanuod ko kung paano

ipulupot

ni Kaleb ang kamay niya sa

bewang

ng

babaeng

iyon at kung paano rin siya

hawakan

ni

Oceanna

. The look on their faces scream happiness and joy with the presence of each other. They look like a real couple, so in love with each other that they can’t keep their hands off of each other even tho Kaleb is still preaching in front of so many people.

My heart tightened more when after Kaleb preached,

Oceanna

pulled him for a kiss, not a long one, just a peck but I saw how people in front of them cheered for them.

Tumulo

ang mga

luha

ko at

tuluyan

akong

napahikbi

. Hindi ko na alam pa ang

mararamdaman

ko, halos pag

iyak

na lamang ang nagawa ko hanggang sa mabilis na

pinaadar

ni Peterson ang

kotse

paalis sa lugar na iyon.

How about me Kaleb? How about your promises?

How can I continue hoping when that’s what I saw?

---

[ back in NEW YORK ]

“Hans, eat. You can’t do this to yourself. It’s been a week, please, eat something.”

Pagpupumilit

saakin ni kuya Oasis. Hindi ako kumibo at

tulala

lamang sa

kawalan

habang

nakahiga

sa kama ko.

I don’t have the strength. I feel like something so heavy is above my whole body. Wala akong lakas, kahit kumain ay hindi ko magawa. I don’t feel like doing anything but just sleep and feel the excruciating pain within me.

“

Hansy

, it’s not the end of the world. You need to keep going.” Peterson said. My lips formed into a small fake smile before lifting myself to sit.

“You know what’s funny, Pete? When I saw that scene, until now, it’s not leaving my head. It keeps playing and playing like there’s no end to it. It’s torturing me and I want it to end, I want the world to end so this pain will also stop.”

Mahaba

kong sabi sa

nanghihina

kong

boses

. I didn’t look at them, I didn’t have the strength for that,

patuloy

akong

nakatulala

sa

kawalan

habang

nagsasalita

.

“Hans, I’m begging you, please think of yourself and not anyone anymore, it’s time that you also love yourself.”

Pakiusap

ni kuya Oasis ngunit

umiling

ako.

“It’s my fault, kuya. I can’t even get mad at him because I was the one who left him, I don’t have any rights to be mad— oh gosh, I’m so fucking mad and I think I’m going to explode but I can’t get mad at him!”

Nagsimula

nanaman akong umiyak at ramdam ko nanaman iyong galit sa loob ko.

“Hans, you can get mad, this is why you keep snapping, you’re always trying to suppress your emotions. Feel everything, after that, stand up and fight. If you really want to get back to Kaleb, keep fighting.” Kuya Oasis said but that didn’t get through my head. The lips of Oceanna touching Kaleb lips keeps playing inside my head along with what Kaleb said.

‘I can’t do any of this without my beautiful fiance, of course. To her, I am very thankful.’

Napahikbi

ako at

inis

na inalis ang

kumot

na nasa harap ko.

“She’s all he needs, oh gosh, she’s all he could ever need. He’s okay without me, he’s fucking okay, he’s reaching his dreams without me beside him, and it’s all my fault!”

Sigaw

ko.

Umupo

sa tabi ko si kuya Oasis at

niyakap

niya ako.

“It’s not your fault, it’s no one’s choice. You left because Kaleb having a fiance is too much for your mental health, and even when you’re away, it’s still affecting you.” Ani niya at

naalala

ko ang mga oras kung saan pakiramdam ko ay isa akong

kabit

dahil

patago

kami kung

magkita

ni Kaleb simula ng

magkaroon

siya ng fiance.

The fiance thing might be all fake,

but the pain and the tool it took from my sanity was not. It was all real to me.

Until now, I keep fooling myself that it’s all a show, but why does the pain inside me won’t go away? Why does it feel so real? Am I in the wrong for feeling this? Am I unreasonable for feeling this? Why do I feel like I don’t even have the right to feel this?

“

AAAHH

!!” Sa sobrang galit na

lumukob

saakin ay

sumigaw

ako at

nagmamadaling

tumayo

. Lumapit ako sa mesa kung nasaan ang mga gamit ko at

hinulog

ko ang lahat ng iyon mula sa mesa.

“Hans!” Peterson tried to stop me but I was like an erupting volcano full of rage.

Binato

ko kung saan ang lahat ng

nahahawakan

ko habang galit na galit na

umiiyak

.

I heard kuya Oasis and Peterson shouting at me but I ignored them. Kahit na nga

natatamaan

na sila dahil gusto

nilang

lumapit saakin ay hindi ako natigil

roon

.

When kuya Oasis finally reached me and hugged me tight so I couldn’t move anymore,

sinubukan

kong

kumalas

nang

kumalas

hanggang sa pareho na nila akong

pinipigilan

.

“Hans, please!” Natigil ako nang makita ko ang

dumudugong

kilay

ni kuya Oasis. Agad akong

nanginig

sa guilt ngunit

naiyak

ako dahil hindi pa rin mawala ang galit sa puso ko.

I looked at what I’ve done and I broke a lot of things. I even broke a bottle of glass and I stepped in it a lot. Pati ang mga paa ko ay puno na ng

bubog

ngunit hindi ko man lang iyon naramdaman kanina. I have scratches all over my body and so is kuya Oasis and Peterson.  Napalunok ako.

“Kuya, Pete, did you ever think that Kaleb can kiss me in front of a lot of people?”

Nanghihina

kong ani kahit na ramdam ko ang sakit sa mga sugat ko sa paa. My tears won’t stop streaming down as well.

Hindi sila

kumibong

dalawa at kita kong

nahihirapan

rin sila sa

sitwasyon

ko ngayon.

“I didn’t, never did I think of that fantasy. Because it’s impossible, kahit noon,

hinding-hindi

ko

inisip

ang

pantasyang

magagawa niya akong

ipagmalaki

sa harap ng maraming tao. Because he’s a well respected man, and a well respected man belongs to a well respected woman.” My lips are quivering while saying all of that.

“I’m not even a woman, how can he post me on his social media, right? How can I post him on mine? How can he proudly claim me as his lover in front of his people? How can he hold me in his arms without thinking of getting judged and criticized, right? He will never ever, be proud of his affection towards me in front of other people.”

Hikbi

ko at

tumingin

kay kuya Oasis na

lumuluha

na rin habang

nakatingin

saakin.

“But I accepted that fate of us, what made me so mad is actually seeing that he can do that to another woman, because I will never experience that kind of thing from him. He’s too good for me, people will hate us, but they will love his relationship with other

woman

. And he knows that too well.” Maybe that’s why he already forgot about me.

---

I sat in the psychiatrist’s office, anxiety growing at my insides as I waited for the therapist to tell me what was wrong with me. Dr. Gian Lopez, his demeanor calm yet attentive, flipped through his notes before fixing his gaze on me.

“ Hans, we need to address your struggles with anger,”

Ani niya. Napalunok ako. Pumunta kami rito dahil ilang araw na akong

nagwawala

sa mga

maliliit

na bagay na hindi naman dapat.

My heart raced as I braced myself for the diagnosis.

“Am I… am I messed up?” I blurted out, my voice tremblin

g. Please don’t tell me I am going crazy. Fuck.

Dr. Lopez shook his head, his expression compassionate.

“No, Hans, you’re not messed up,” He reassured me.

“But it’s clear that you have some anger issues that we need to work through.

”

Anger issues? So that’s why I keep getting mad over unreasonable things. Parang isang mabigat na bagay iyon na

dumagan

nanaman saakin.

“But why? What’s wrong with me?” I questioned, feeling a mix of confusion and fear.

“Sometimes, Hans, our emotions can get the better of us,” He explained. “But it’s important to recognize when our anger is causing problems in our lives.

”

I nodded, absorbing his words na parang iyon lamang ang

makakapitan

ko sa

gulo

ng isip ko ngayon.

“So… what do we do now?” I asked, my voice barely above a whisper.

Umaasa

akong

magagamot

ito sa lalong

madaling

panahon. I can’t go home and tell Dad and Papa that I have this shit going on with me.

Dr. Lopez offered me a reassuring smile.

“Now, we work together to help you understand your triggers and develop healthier ways to cope with your emotions,” He said, his words carrying a glimmer of hope.

Pero hindi ako

nahawaan

niyon

.

Triggers? The trigger is away from me

and have

already forgotten about me.

This life is doomed and useless.

---

[ Later that day ]

My hands are shaking as I clench the bottle of medicine in my hands. Napalunok ako at

nanginginig

na

kumuha

ng tubig sa bedside table ko.

I just want to end everything. Kaleb won’t break the engagement off, it’s too important for him and his career. It seems like he had already forgotten about me. Well, it’s my fault.

I took a handful of pills and swallowed all of it.

Uminom

ako ng maraming tubig bago

nanghihinang

humiga

sa kama ko at umiyak nang umiyak.

I’m sorry, Dad, Papa. The pain is not bearable

anymore. I can’t keep feeling it. I want to end it.

Humikbi

ako nang

humikbi

habang

inaalala

ang lahat ng

masasayang

alaala

namin ni Kaleb.

He was too good, he was my knight in shining armor, he was the man of my dreams. He treats me so well, he’s the man behind every love song I sang. He made sure I can be the simplest and boring person but still loved by him, he adores me so much

even when I act like a brat.

I miss everything. I miss when I was the only person he can think of, I miss it when even tho he’s so busy and exhausted, he will make time for me. I miss Kaleb. I miss him so much.

It’s been two years Kaleb, why are you still with her? Do you still think of me like I still think and hope that we can be together again?

Are you happy with her?

“Hans! Hans! What did you do?!”

I heard someone shouting but I was so out of this world. The dizziness is overcoming my senses and all I can feel is the tears streaming down my cheeks. I feel numb for a moment and hoped that this will be the last time I feel hopeless and hurt.

I hope this pain will end now. But it didn’t.

Mío

Note: Yan muna, churvahan tas ito pala sunod HAHAHAHHA pero seriously I wrote this chapter because I want all of you to understand where is Hans coming from. And

haler

,

a disorder is not a joke, Hans has anger issues that later on turned into an IED ☺️

Cuarenta

[ Present (after Hans & Kaleb 👉👌💦 😁) ]

ERRORS AHEAD! (antok na me nang mag edit)

Kaleb’s

I woke up feeling sore. Mabilis akong napamulat at agad na hinanap si Hans ngunit wala na siya sa tabi ko. I groaned.

Umupo ako at hinawakan ang ulo ko. I feel lightheaded because of what we did last night. We didn’t sleep a wink. Umusog ako sa kinauupuan ko at tumingin sa labas ng kubo. Maaraw na. Mukhang tanghali na. Bumalik ako sa loob dahil mainit ang araw at wala pa rin akong saplot.

I groaned again and tried to find my phone. Tatawagan ko sana si Hans dahil baka pumasok siya sa bahay nila pero bumukas ulit ang pinto ng kubo and I saw the person I just fucked all night.

He looked at me at pinagtaasan ako ng kilay. He’s holding a tray, may mga pagkain iyon.

“Why are you still naked?” He asked and then tried to get inside. Tinulungan ko siya at may bumuong ngiti sa mga labi ko habang pinagmamasdan ko ang bawat galaw niya.

“What?” He asked when he saw me smiling. I shook my head. Kinumutan ko ang hubad kong pang-ibaba.

“Nothing, just, your pain tolerance is still high. You can still walk after that all night fu—”

“I guess you didn’t fuck me enough then.” Asar niya at napairap ako.

“Yeah, who’s the one begging me to stop because his ass is already burning?” Balik asar ko at inirapan niya lang rin ako.

“Eat. I have somewhere else to go after this, I don’t have all day.” Ani niya kaya nakagat ko ang labi ko. I tried eating while thinking of what just happened to us.

I made a confession to everyone that what Oceanna and I had was all a lie. Alam kong hindi tatagal ay mamalaman rin nila kung sino ang tinutukoy kong mahal kong totoo. I swallowed again and looked at Hans who’s just staring at me.

“Pumpkin, we need to talk, right? I want us to talk.” I said and he stared at me for a moment before nodding.

“Yeah, but not now. I have a lot of work.” Sabi niya. Pinakatitigan ko siya at ramdam kong gusto niyang iwasan na mag-usap kami nang masinsinan. Is he scared? Why?

“Baby, I want us to work again. I don’t want to be apart from you anymore. Hindi ko na kakayanin.” Pag-amin ko. Ramdam ko ang bigat sa dibdib ko ngayon. I really miss my pumpkin so much. It’s been three whole fucking years without him. Kung pwede lang ay simula ngayon ay hindi na ulit kami magkalayo at tumira na sa i-isang bahay. Kahit dito lang sa kubo basta kasama siya ay hindi ako magrereklamo. He’s all I need.

“We will work again, I will make sure of that. You don’t belong to anyone but me, Kaleb.” Ani niya at kahit kumabog roon ang puso ko ay pinagmasdan ko ang maganda niyang mukha.

My baby changed so much. He’s not the softy Hans I used to know, he’s not the pumpkin who can’t hide his emotions and will always let everyone see it. He’s now expert in wearing a facade. It’s all my fault.

“I am all yours, pumpkin.” Ani ko and he softly smiled. A soft smile that made my heart melt. I miss having to stare at his pretty face all day. Hindi nakakasawang tingnan si Hans. Kahit na iba na ngayon ang kulay ng buhok niya ay mas lalo siyang nagmukhang angelic, he’s literally glowing. Maybe because I just fucked him all night. After sex glow.

Napangiti ako at muling sumubo sa dala niyang pagkain para saakin.

I will make sure that I am his end game. I will never let anyone have my pumpkin.

---

ONE week, it’s been one week already and we haven’t talked about anything about the past and Hans is just pretending that we are now back together like we used to before.

“Fuck, what did I do wrong, Pete? Walter?” Tanong ko sa dalawa kong personal assistant. Ang isa nga ay matagal ng nakay Hans dahil pinadala ko siya roon. Ngayon ay nandito sila sa opisina ko dahil hindi ko na alam pa ang gagawin ko kay Hans. He’s been working his ass of with his job, pero saakin naman siya umuuwi, pero kahit ganon ay hindi kami makapag-usap dahil puro sex ang nangyayari kapag nasa harap ko na siya. We are both too pent up and just want to fuck each other everytime our eyes met. Fuck this.

“I know Hansy, I don’t know Hans.” Sagot ni Pete at napatanga ako.

“What?” I blurted.

“I mean, he’s been acting like Hans these past few days, and I worked for Hansy who’s attitude is rough and a brat. Right now, I don’t know why Hans is acting like this. He’s been sweet to you and innocent to everyone around him like he was before, but ramdam ko rin yung distance.” Paliwanag niya at mas lalo akong napabuntong-hininga.

“Uhm, maybe he’s just afraid, sir?” Walter said and I looked at him confused.

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“He’s afraid of what will happen between the two of you if he gets to open up about everything that happened in the past? It’s just a hunch, baka ayaw niya kasi masyadong masakit para sakanya?” He said and Pete and I nodded.

“That make sense, Hans perfected the art of pretending. He always wears a facade when he’s afraid and needs a defense mechanism.” Ani naman ni Pete. Nakagat ko ang labi ko. I really need to talk to him sa mas lalong madaling panahon. I don’t want him to keep hurting and pretending. I want him to be happy, I want us to be happy.

“Pete, I remember you told me something about Hans being suicidal and about his psychological condition. I want to talk about it—” Natigil ako sa pagsasalita nang biglang pumasok ang secretary ko na nagmamadali.

“G-Gov., sir- ma’am - basta po yung sikat na model po, nandito po para sainyo.” Sabi niya na parang nalilito pa kung pano tatawagin si Hans. Nangunot noo ako. I’m sure it’s Hans because siya lang naman ang sikat na model na nasa buhay ko.

Hindi pa nakakapunta rito si Hans kahit kailan. Why is my pumpkin here?

“Should I hide?” Lumingon ako kay Pete nang sabihin niya iyon at nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang maalala na hindi pa rin alam ni Hans na tauhan ko si Peterson.

“Yeah, fuck. Hide in the bathroom.” Utos ko at napapakamot naman itong sumunod. Si Walter naman ay nagmamadaling lumabas at saktong pumasok si Hans sa pinto nang makalabas siya at makatago na si Pete. Hindi ko pa sinasabi kay Hans ang tungkol kay Pete dahil baka magalit siya saakin.

“Baby,” Tawag ko sakanya nang makita ko siyang papalapit na saakin. He walked proudly towards me with a soft smile. He’s beautiful as ever with his outfit, well, he’s a model. He knows how to dress and carry himself. Araw-araw akong namamangha sa mga pinagbago niya.

“Did I disturb something? Are you still working?“ Tanong niya at umiling naman ako. Hindi ako nakakibo nang ikutin niya ang swivel chair na kinauupuan ko at kumandong siya saakin patagilid. Ipinulupot niya ang mga braso niya saakin at ginawaran ako ng halik.

“Good. I finished my work early to see you.” Sabi niya at muling sumikdo ang puso ko. I smiled widely and held him in his tiny waist. Inamoy ko ang leeg niya bago nagsalita.

“Good that you came here, I really want to talk but you’ve been busy.” Sabi ko bago pa man kami malibang sa kung ano. He groaned.

“You want to talk? Shame, I was thinking of riding you here.” Ani niya at napaungot ako. He keeps doing this. Always seducing me so we can’t talk. And I keep falling for it.

“Pumpkin, you told me that we will talk. It’s been one week alrea—” Natigil ako nang magsalita siya muli.

“That’s me? Haha, did you chose this office so you can see me everyday and even at night?” Ani niya muli habang nakatingin sa likod ko. Inikot ko ang swivel chair at tiningnan ang sinasabi niya. I bit my lip when I saw his billboard picture outside my glass wall.

“It just happened to be there.” Pagsisinungaling ko. He scoffed.

“Nah, I’m sure you made this glass wall so you can jerk off with my billboard whenever you want. Smart.” Asar niya at hindi ko napigilang kagatin ang balikat niya dahil sa mga sinasabi niya. His mouth doesn’t have a brake.

“Aw,” Ungot niya. I groaned and cuddled him. He smells so good. Nalimutan ko na kung ano pa man ang dapat namin pag-usapan dahil ramdam na ramdam ko na ngayon ang galit kong ari at nakadikit iyon sa matambok niyang pang-upo.

“Baby, ride me.” Bulong ko at mahina siyang natawa.

“I know you also want it.” Sabi niya bago nagmamadaling umupo paharap saakin. Hindi na ako nakapag-isip pa dahil tanging masikip na butas niya lamang ngayon ang laman ng utak ko. I want to get inside him quickly. He look so delectable everyday. I can’t control being a horny dog for him.

“Pumpkin, baby,” Tawag ko sakanya habang binababa niya ang suot niyang pang-ibaba. I just can’t wait. He pulled out a sachet of lube and he didn’t let me talk and said something immediately.

“I really have this because I want you to fuck me here in your office.” Ani niya at hindi na ako nakapag timpi pa. Ako na mismo ang nagbukas ng lube na iyon at binuhos ko lahat sa entrada niya. After that, I unbuckled my pants and my dick sprung free. Hinawakan ko iyon at itinutok sa entrada niya.

“Sit on it.” Utos ko at mabilis naman niya akong sinunod. He bit his lower lip, looked at me seductively and slowly sat on my angry cock.

“Fuck.” Mura ko habang nakatingin sa nang-aakit niyang mukha at sa nakakapanginig sa sarap na kasikipan niya. I felt his warm tightness and all I could do was held his waist tightly, nang hindi ko na makayanan pa ang pagdadahan-dahan niya ay malakas kong itinulak pababa ang balakang niya upang tuluyang masagad ang ari ko sa loob niya.

“Ah! Kaleb!”

“Shit.“ Pareho naming ungot dahil sa sarap na lumukob saaming dalawa. Hindi na ako nakapaghintay pa at agad ko siyang tinulungang magtaas-baba sa ibabaw ko.

“Go on, baby. Ride me fast and rough.” Utos ko at agad niya iyong ginawa. Muli akong napaungot nang sakyan niya nga ako nang marahas at mabilis.

“Ohh, Hans, pumpkin..” Ungot ko habang sinasabayan ang indayog niya sa ibabaw ko. I looked at his face and it’s full of lust and pleasure. Alam kong sagad na sagad rin sakanya ang kalakihan ko kaya’t sarap na sarap siya.

“Kaleb, oh.. Kaleb!” Ungol niya habang hindi natitigil sa ginagawa. I held him on his neck and claimed his lips while our private parts are still dancing with each other.

“Shit! Yeah, like that!” Ani ko nang igiling niya ang balakang niya habang umiindayog sa ibabaw ko. I looked in front of me at mas lalo akong nanggigil nang makita ko ang billboard niya.

Fuck yeah, I’m fucking this famous hot model right now. And his tight ass is all mine.

Gigil kong sinabayan ang indayog niya at mas lalo kong sinagad nang sinagad sa loob niya ang ari kong konti na lang ay puputok na.

“Kaleb! Fuck! Ahh! Kaleb!”

“Hans! Oh! Shit!” Konting-konti na lang ay lalabasan na ako at ramdam kong ganon rin siya. We didn’t stop fucking each other. Halos masira ang kinauupuan kong swivel chair ngunit hindi namin iyon alintana. We were so deep in our pleasure that we didn’t care if someone hears us outside. I don’t care, they can keep eavesdropping so they can know how much we love each other.

“Ahh! Governor! I’m near! Kaleb!” I groaned when he called me like that. Shit. Mas lalo ata akong nabuhayan dahil sa itinatawag niya saakin.

A Governor and a famous model, fucking each other so hard inside this office. Fuck. I want to keep fucking him.

Walang sabi-sabi akong tumayo at mabilis siyang pinatalikod saakin. I held him on his nape and pushed his face on my table. Nakatuwad na siya at mabilis kong ipinasok ang nangangalit kong ari at mabilis at marahas ko iyong inilabas-masok sakanya.

“Ahh! Kaleb!! Kaleb!” Mas lalong lumakas ang mga ungol niya kaya’t mas lalo akong ginanahan.

“Feels good, baby? Huh? That’s all yours, pumpkin. Fuck!” I moaned while I keep ramming my cock deep inside him.

“You’re so tight and warm, Hans. This is why I love fucking you so much, you grip my cock so tight!” Hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko at ilang beses kong pinalo ang pang-upo niya hanggang sa mumala iyon.

“Kaleb! I’m cumming!” He warned. Dalawang kamay na ang hinawak ko sa batok niya at mas nirahasan ko ang ulos sakanya upang pareho namin maabot ang sukdulan.

“Shit! Shit!”

“Kaleb!” Hans trembled beneath me and he came. Umilang ulos pa ako at nanghihinang dinaganan ko siya mula sa likod at sinagad ko nang maigi ang ari ko bago labasan.

“Ohhh, baby..” I groaned while filling up his insides with my cum.

“Fuck!” Mura niya habang parehong humuhupa ang sarap na nalalasap namin ngayon. We were both trembling and with shaky breath when I spoke.

“I want to do it again.” Ani ko sa humahangos na boses ngunit bago pa man makasagot si Hans ay bumukas ang pinto sa banyo ng opisina ko. Nanlaki pareho ang mga mata namin ni Hans at agad kong hinarangan ang hubad niyang pang-ibaba upang hindi iyon makita ni Pete na nakalimutan kong nasa banyo!

“Please don’t do it again, I’ve heard enough.” Peterson said with a grim face.

Mio

A/N:

kawawang

Peterson nyaha

Cuarenta y uno

Kaleb’s

I can’t keep my legs from nervously tapping on the floor while looking at Hans who’s just staring at me and Peterson. Nakaupo kami ngayon sa sofa sa loob ng opisina ko habang nakatayo sa harapan namin si Hans.

“Explain now or I will really leave the two of you here.” Sabi niya at bago pa man ako makapagsalita ay nauna na si Pete.

“Hansy, I am loyal to you, I promise. But.. I was working with K-Kaleb even before I started working for you.” Ani niya na ikinalunok ko. Pete is so straight to the point. Tumingin ako sa mukha ni Hans at wala siyang reaksyon na ikinagulat ko. Seryoso lamang siyang nakatingin saaming dalawa.

“So, what’s the real reason why you needed to work for me? To spy on me?” Nagsalita siya at pareho kaming napayuko ni Pete.

“Tell me.” He commanded and I opened my mouth.

“I wanted him to work for you to make sure you’re okay. I can’t afford to not know anything about you or what’s going on with your life. I won’t survive if I didn’t know if you’re doing fine or not. That’s his job, to make sure you’re doing fine, so I can rest my mind.” Mahaba kong ani habang nakatingin sakanya at nakita ko ang pag-aalala na dumaan sa mga mata niya. My forehead furrowed and I was confused for a second but he spoke again.

“Was your mind rested?” Maikli niyang tanong at hindi agad ako nakasagot. Inalala ko kung nakontento nga ba ako sa mga pagsabi saakin ni Pete kung ano ang lagay niya. I nodded.

“Yes, naging sapat iyon saakin. I had no other choice. I know I can’t afford to get you back when a lot is on my hands. I’m just glad that you were doing fine all these years, you survived.” Hindi ko nag-iisip na ani. Natahimik silang pareho ni Pete at saka ko lang na-realize ang nasabi ko. Fuck. He barely survived because of my carelessness.

“I mean—” Magsasalita sana ako para bawiin ang sinabi ko ngunit pinutol niya ang sasabihin ko.

“That’s great. That’s all I wanna hear.” He said that with a genuine smile that I couldn’t even speak again. Alam kong hindi naging madali sakaniya, I know what I said was plain bullshit, I didn’t think enough and I said the most stupid thing I could’ve ever said but he’s acting like he’s happy that I said that.

I know something is wrong, but why are we acting like there’s none?

---

Hans

I drank the alcohol inside the glass I am holding while looking at the guy singing his heart out on a little platform inside this cozy bar.

I can feel the heavy shit inside my chest and I know too well why I am feeling like this but I don’t even know how I can heal from this.

Tiningnan ko ang selpon kong nag-iingay at si Pete iyon. He knows I am outside that’s why he’s calling me, while Kaleb knows I am already asleep at Ke Aloha. Simula kasi nang naging maayos kami ay sa condo ko siya lagi natutulog, but today, I said my parents wants me home but I lied. I just wanted to clear my mind and maybe, the heaviness in my heart right now.

Aaminin ko, hindi na ako nagulat pa nang umamin saakin si Peterson at Kaleb, they were too fishy everytime they met. I always see them talking to each other and then sprinting away when I appear, and I’ve always felt like Peterson’s treats me so right that it was too good to be true. And I was right, it was his job to do that. His job was to babysit me for Kaleb.

Natawa ako at naalala ang sinagot saakin kanina ni Kaleb.

I am genuinely happy that he thought that I was fine, because I didn’t want him to suffer knowing I wrecked myself because of my own decision to leave him. I was happy that he wasn’t as devastated as I was when we were apart. I really do feel like a heavy rock is lifted on my shoulders when I heard that, I realized that Peterson didn’t give him a thorough report of what’s going on with my life, because maybe he knows it was too heavy for Kaleb, and I am happy about that, I am happy that me being a wreckage didn’t pin him down from doing his responsibilities. But I don’t understand why tears kept streaming down my cheeks right now.

“Hansy?” Hindi ko na napunasan pa ang mga tumutulong luha sa mga mata ko nang may tumawag saakin mula sa likuran. I looked at the person who called me and I didn’t expect to see Fred. Agad naman siyang nagulat nang makita niya ang mukha.

“Are you okay? Why are you alone?” Umupo siya sa tabi ko at agad ko namang pinunasan ang mga luha na tumulo sa pisnge ko. I cleared my throat and picked up the glass of alcohol that was on the counter, I took a sip before answering him.

“Sorry you have to see that. I’m fine, I’m just clearing my head, how about you? Why are you here?” Sagot at tanong ko pabalik sakanya. Tinitigan niya naman ako nang ilang segundo bago nangingiting napailing at itinaas ang kamay para kuhain ang atensyon ng bartender.

“Two shots of Martini please, keep my tab open.” Ani niya bago muling tumingin saakin.

“I know that’s not nothing, let’s drink and talk about it. I’ll listen.” He said, disregarding my question. Napabuntong-hininga naman ako at napailing rin.

“Nah, I’m good. I mean, I don’t want a stranger to know all of my shitty struggles, right?” Pabiro kong sabi at napairap naman siya saakin.

“I know we barely know each other even tho we had concert together just last week, but you know the saying, sometimes it’s the best to open up to strangers because they will throw no judgement?” Pamimilit niya. Napatitig naman ako sakanya at nabaling ang mga mata ko sa martini na kalalapag lang ng bartender sa harap namin. I took a deep breath and nodded. Maybe this is the best way to clear my mind.

He gave me the other glass of his martini and I accepted it right away before chugging it down and then speaking.

“Well, to start, I’ve been avoiding a confrontation from my lover because I am scared he will see me so broken. I don’t want that, I want to keep my image as Hansy.” Panimula ko at napatango naman siya bago sumagot.

“Why do you want to keep that image?” Tanong niya at napaisip naman ako dahil hindi ko iyon naitanong sa sarili ko. Ilang segundo bago ko nahanap ang sagot saaking sarili.

“Because I am too messed up, without that Hansy facade, I am literally a walking bomb ready to explode. Ayaw kong matulad siya saakin, I know he loves me, and if he sees me being so broken, I know he will also fell apart.” Mahaba kong ani at natahimik naman siya nang ilang segundo bago muling um-order ng inumin sa bartender at sumagot saakin.

“But with you doing this, you’re not also okay, right?” Tanong niya at naiinis akong natawa.

“Yeah, fuck. I don’t know anymore, I don’t know where to start, Fred. Naging maayos na ang lahat, nakuha ko na ang gusto ko, pero hindi maalis sa isip ko yung mga nakakasira sa ulong posibilidad dahil sa haba ng panahon na ginugol namin, ginugol ko, para lang magkaayos kami ’e.” Naiiyak kong sabi bago nilagok ang alak na ibinigay niya saakin. I looked at him and tears started streaming down my face again.

“He finally chose me, Fred.” Umiiyak kong ani at napahawak pa ako sa dibdib ko dahil masyado iyong sumikip. “But the thought that keeps going on inside my head isn’t stopping, I think about it all night since he finally chose me, ‘ So

he could do it? All this time he could’ve done it? He just never wanted to?’. That shit keeps fucking me up!” Lumakas ang boses ko dahil sa prustrasyon. Napahikbi ako at ibinaba ang tingin sa mga kamay kong nasa ibabaw ng counter.

“I am the worst, Fred. I became so selfish. All I wanted is for him to choose me after I left him, and then when he finally did, I don’t even know how to feel anymore. Eto yung sinasabi ko sayo ’e, what if it’s already too late when he decided to choose me again? We have already drifted apart.” Pumiyok ako sa huling tinuran at hindi ko na napigilan pa ang mga luha ko. I am so hurt by the thought that we don’t know each other anymore like we used to.

“Ang gusto ko lang naman, siya lang makakasama ko ’e, ayokong masaktan siya dahil lang sa sitwasyon ko, ayokong mahirapan siya kapag nalaman niya ang mga iniisip ko ngayon, kasi natatakot akong baka maging masyadong komplikado para sakanya, tapos hindi niya ulit ako piliin dahil sa hirap ng sitwasyon namin.” Parang bata kong ani. “Iyon lang naman ang gusto ko, ang hindi siya pahirapan kaya ayokong makita niya ako sa ganitong sitwasyon, but I am a clown, Fred, even tho I keep saying shits like this, I know deep down in my heart, I want him to know how much of a mess I am because of everything that happened between us. Gusto ko ng kasama, I want a company with this misery.” Sumisinghot-singhot kong ani. Nalalasing na ata ako.

“Wow. That’s really heavy.” Fred said and I just nodded while crying. “But, to be honest, I think you should tell him everything, make sure he knows everything that you’re thinking, so you could have answers. So you can stop overthinking everything and have your answers, crystal clear. It’s so draining having to think about everything and you still don’t know the real answers, right? If he chooses something over you again because it got too complicated, then don’t you think that you’re not for each other anymore? It’s better to know it early than late, Hansy.” Ani niya at napailing-iling naman ako sa isiping baka hindi na nga talaga kami ang para sa isa’t-isa.

Umiyak ako nang umiyak habang umiinom at kahit na pinipigilan na ako ni Fred ay hindi ako nagpapigil. I was too heartbroken and wasted thinking about my situation with Kaleb that I wanted everything to numb down but the alcohol wasn’t even helping. Hindi ko na alam pa ang ginagawa ko nang mapilit akong ihatid ni Fred sa condo ko.

Kahit na lasing ay tanging si Kaleb lamang ang nasa isip ko at alam kong nasa condo ko siya ngayon. Sa isiping iyon ay nagmamadali akong pumasok sa condo ko at iniwanan ko si Fred na tinatawag pa ako. Nagpasuray-suray akong lumakad papasok sa kwarto at napangiti ako nang makitang naandito nga si Kaleb.

Nilapitan ko siya at mukhang nagising ko naman siya.

“Pumpkin?” Tawag niya saakin at muntik naman akong matumba ngunit agad niya akong nasalo. Natawa ako dahil sa kalasingan at napaupo sa sahig sa gilid ng aking kama kung nasaan nakaupo si Kaleb na sa palagay ko ay gulong-gulo na ngayon sa itsura ko. Nagsasalita siya ngunit wala akong maintindihan. I just giggled and giggled until it turned into crying.

I looked at his handsome face while tears kept streaming down my cheeks. Napakurap ako bago nakangiting nagsalita.

“I hope you never entered politics, babe. I hope hik , haha, sorry.” I was crying and laughing at the same time. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa suot na pajamas ni Kaleb at muling nagsalita.

“Sana pinigilan mo akong umalis, Kaleb. Sana sumama ka saakin, sana nakayanan mong iwan ang lahat para saakin, katulad ng pag iwan ko sayo dahil alam kong mas kailangan ka ng ama mo.” Umiiyak at natatawa kong ani. Ibinaba ko ang tingin ko sa sahig at halos hindi ako makahinga sa sipon at luha na hindi matigil sa pagtulo.

“It took me everything to leave you, Kaleb. I didn’t want to, unlike what everyone thinks, I wasn’t selfish, haha.” Naiiyak na tumawa ako at muling tumingin sa mukha niyang nakatitig na saakin ngayon. “Was it a selfish act that I chose to leave the love of my life, the man that I had always dreamed to be with forever? Makasarili ba ako nang piliin kong iwan ang lalaking mahal na mahal ko? You were my world, Kaleb. Sayo lang umiikot yung mundo ko n’on ’e. Ikaw lang meron ako bukod sa mga magulang ko, ikaw lang ang naging buhay ko. I dedicated almost half of my youth, loving only you.” Tuluyan akong humikbi nang humikbi at halos hindi ako makahinga para lang maipagpatuloy ko ang sasabihin ko.

“But they took you from me, your father, all of the responsibilities on your shoulders, Oceanna, they all took you from me. Ni hindi mo man lang napansin kung gaano ko tiniis yun diba? I changed a lot even before I left, Kaleb. That pain changed me and you chose to ignore it so we can pretend that everything was okay, you kept pretending that everything was okay between us when it was eating everything in me! My innocent naive heart was beaten so hard that I needed to leave, Kaleb. The fear of you and your father being killed, the pain because people think I am the other man because Oceanna exists, and you,” Inabot ko ang pisnge niya and I held it dearly while my face is full of tears. I looked at him so lovingly while my tears can’t stop streaming down. “You broke my heart, Kaleb. My heart that only loved you, you broke it into million pieces that even now, I don’t know how to fix it. You were so careless with my heart for a man who said he loves me more than his life.” I poured every pain inside me to tell him that.

“Tell me, was me leaving, a selfish act?” Tanong ko bago sumuka nang sumuka habang umiiyak. Halos hindi ako makahinga ngunit tanging sakit lamang sa dibdib ko ang nararamdaman ko.

I am too messed up.

Mío

A/N: I’m back to break ur heart. Eme. Pero maiba tayo mga be, dami ko kasing nababasa na masyado raw selfish si Hans dahil sa pag iwan niya kay Kaleb, let’s not forget the situation why Hans left, let’s not forget

everything

that made him decide to leave the man he loves the most! He sacrificed his feelings and mental health for Kaleb 🥹👊

Cuarenta y dos

ERRORS AHEAD!

Hans

Nagising ako na parang may nakapatong na mabigat sa ulo ko. I groaned and tried to sit up on the bed. Kunot-noo kong minasahe ang ulo ko at iminulat ang mga mata para ilibot iyon. No one is in my room but my eyes landed on what I am wearing.

I am wearing a pair of pajamas and I feel so clean. Pakiramdam ko ay napaliguan ako bago natulog. Inalala ko naman ang nangyari kagabi at kung paano ako nakauwi ngunit para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig nang maalala ko ang mga ginawa ko kagabi.

“Fuck.” I cursed and pulled my hair out of frustrations. “Shit. Why did you do that?” Inis kong tanong sa sarili bago tumayo at lalabas na sana ng kwarto nang bumukas iyon at pumasok si Kaleb na may dalang food tray na puno ng pagkain. Napalunok ako at mas lalong nainis sa sarili dahil ngayon ay hindi ko na alam ang sasabihin ko dahil sa nangyari kagabi.

This is why I didn’t want a confrontation, fuck.

“Sit down. I prepared you brunch since it’s almost lunch time.” He said and I caught his monotone voice. Naiilang naman akong umupo ulit at pinagmasdan siyang ayusin ang pagkain sa tabi ko. Tumikhim ako at pinilit na magsalita.

“I-I’m sorry about last n-night-” Panimula ko ngunit agad niya akong pinigilan.

“You don’t need to be sorry, Pumpkin. I’m the stupid one, the coward that hurted you.” Ani niya habang hindi tumitingin saakin. Napalunok akong muli ngunit naguguluhan ako sa inaakto niya. He looks mad but he doesn’t want to show it. Napailing ako. May nasabi pa ba akong ikakagalit niya kagabi?

“I want to talk, I’m sorry I tried to skip that part when we were already okay, almost.” Mahina kong sabi. Narito na rin naman kami. Then maybe, I should face it and stop the cowardness. Wala kaming patutunguhan kung patuloy ko itong tatakbuhang nararamdaman ko.

“Oh, now you want to talk to me? Not to Fred?” Sagot niya na ikinagulat ko. What?

“What are you saying?” I asked and he finally looked at me. Kinuha niya ang iPad na nasa bedside table at binuksan iyon. He searched something and then made me see it. I clicked my tongue when I saw a bunch of malicious articles going around the internet about me and Fred last night. Mukhang na i-spot-an kami ng media kagabi.

“Hans, I get it, I hurt you. Pero akala ko aayusin na natin? Why did you lie and said you were at Ke Aloha when you’re with that bastard?” Sabi niya sa boses na parang pinipigilang magalit. Ako naman ay kinakalma ang sarili ko dahil nararamdaman ko na rin ang galit sa ginagawa niya ngayon. I just said the most wrenching words last night but right now, mas inuuna niyang manguna ang pagkaseloso niya kesa magtanong muna saakin.

“I lied because I don’t want you to see me being a mess, it was a coincidence that Fred was also at that bar.” Sagot ko habang hindi tumitingin sakanya dahil ayokong pumutok ang galit ko dahil baka hindi niya kayanin.

“Really? Was it also a coincidence that the two of you are hugging and almost kissing?!” Tumaas ang boses niya at napapikit ako sa inis. Lasing na ako n’on, ni hindi ko nga alam na nagyakap pala kami.

“Are you shouting at me?” Tumayo ako at inis siyang tiningnan. Napahangos naman siya at napaatras bago hinilamos ang mukha niya gamit ang dalawa niyang palad.

“I am angry, Hans. I don’t like it that everyone in this country thinks that you and that bastard are together-” Pinutol ko siya sa namimikon kong tawa. Hindi ako makapaniwalang tumingin sakanya.

“Are you really saying this to my face? Huh, Governor Cabrera? Ex fiance of Oceanna Villar? Kaleb Cabrera, three years engaged with a woman while I was set aside?” Pikon kong ani at mukhang mas lalo siyang nainis sa mga sinasabi ko. I am already mad and I am trying to calm down so I won’t lash out at him. I don’t want to hurt him.

“You know I didn’t want to be a Governor and you know too well how much I hated being engaged with that woman-”

“Staying three years with her, it doesn’t seems like you hated it.” I mocked and he looked at me in disbelief. I sighed and looked away. “Kissing in front of so many people, calling her your beloved, people thinking that you’re head over heels for her. That’s just some of the things I endured, Kaleb. Kaya huwag mo ’kong paandaran ng selos mo dahil lang sa mga articles na nakita mo. Kasi kung ikukumpara yun sa impyernong ipinaranas mo saakin, hindi mo kakayanin.” Matigas kong ani habang nasa malayo ang tingin.

Ayokong sumbatan siya. Ayokong mag-away kami, gusto ko mag-usap pero hindi sa ganitong paraan. Pero paano? Pinangungunahan kami pareho ng galit. At pagod na ako, pagod na akong isantabi ang nararamdaman ko para lang maging maayos kami, para lang hindi niya maranasan ang dinanas ko. I am tired of keeping all of my shits together so he won’t see it and thinks to himself that he broke me too much, kasi hindi ko gustong maisip niya iyon kahit na totoo.

“And I am very sorry for that, I was a coward, I was a loser. I had no choice but to be a puppet to my father. I didn’t choose that, Hans. You know it.” Sabi niya at doon ako tumingin sakanya. Napatango ako at muling nagsalita.

“But you said you were gonna break off the engagement, Kaleb. I believed in that. I came back earlier for you, after the election, I came back even tho I know you still haven’t break off the engagement between you and Oceanna. I clinged onto your flowery words that everything will end after the election, but it didn’t.” Lumapit ako sakanya at mahina ko siyang tinulak sa dibdib gamit ang hintuturo ko habang nasasaktang nakatingin sa mga mata niyang parehong emosyon sa nararamdaman ko ang nakapaskil. “Instead of you, hugging me and saying you miss me and being happy that I came back, what I saw was a fine Kaleb, talking in front of his people happily, with his fiance beside him. Holding each other’s hands, looking at each other lovingly, even kissing in front of a lot of people. That’s what I saw, Kaleb. Imagine seeing me like that with another man? Imagine what you will feel when you see me like that with another man other than you? That’s what you made me feel all these years, my almighty Governor Kaleb Cabrera.” I sarcastically said the last line and I saw him look down. Napailing ako.

“I-I didn’t know, I didn’t know that you came back after the election. Peterson never said anythin-”

“Of course he won’t, kasi kahit siya, alam niyang kakasuklaman mo ang sarili mo kapag nalaman mo ang mga pinaranas mo saakin para lamang sa tanginang politiko na yan!” Matigas kong sabi. He looked at me and he was already crying. He tried to hug me but I avoided him.

“Three years, Kaleb. Nabaliw ako, nabaliw ako sa araw-araw na hinintay kong hiwalayan mo ang babaeng yun at tumakbo sa tabi ko, dahil akala ko ganon mo ako kamahal, dahil akala ko ang gusto mo, sa tabi ko. Pero hindi, no,” I stared at his eyes full of tears. “Ako pa rin, I was still the one who came running towards you while you keep choosing everything other than me. You set me aside all the time pero sasabihin mong mahal na mahal mo ko, sasabihin mong hindi mo rin kayang mabuhay na wala ako-HAHAHAHAHA!” I laughed while tears kept streaming down my cheeks. “Kaya mo, you can live without me. You made me realized that. And even tho I begged you to come back with me, hindi pa rin maayos yung utak ko, hindi pa rin makampante because I’m scared that if you see another reason-another opportunity to leave me and choose something more important, you will gladly do so without any question!” Taas boses ko habang pataas nang pataas ang dugo ko. I feel like one more trigger and I will really snap.

“Pumpkin, that’s not true. Nothings more important than you, ikaw lang. Ikaw ang lang ang mahal ko, ikaw lang ang laging pipiliin ko simula ngayon. It’s true that I can’t live without you. Araw-araw ikaw ang nasa isip ko sa loob ng tatlong taon na yun. I know I was stupid, I wasn’t a man. I’m so sorry for making you experience that pain and I took the easy way out. Pero Hans, hindi rin naman naging madali saakin, I don’t wanna weigh things, ayokong timbangin kung sino ang mas nasaktan dahil ngayon, alam kong ikaw ang mas nahihirapan saating dalawa. But know that I didn’t choose any of that reason to set you aside with my own will, lahat sila, lahat sila hawak ako sa leeg, kapag hindi ko tinapos ang mga nasimulan ko at tumakbo sa tabi mo, we will never be happy, Hans. I will only hurt you again and again, kaya hindi kita agad binalikan dahil hindi pa yun ang tamang ora-”

“Then why did you chose me now?!! Why only now?!” Sigaw ko at lumapit naman siya saakin para yakapin ako ngunit nagpupumiglas ako.

“Because I know I’ve hurt you enough, pumpkin. Please, believe me, I didn’t want anything that had happened. Wala akong ginusto sa lahat ng nangyari, naipit ako sa sitwasyon,” Hinawakan niya ang mukha ko at nagmamakaawang tumingin saakin. “I was going to break off the engagement when you left, but the black market had my Dad, they held him captive for months. Kahit nanalo na ako, hanggat hindi ko nababayaran ng buo yung utang ni papa, hindi nila aalisin ang patong sa ulo niya at sa ulo mo.” Sabi niya at natigilan ako.

“What?” I asked with a big confusion inside my head. Napalunok siya.

“Halos mabaliw ako kakaisip kung paano ko malulusutan ang problemang iyon, Hans. Gustong-gusto kong sumunod sayo, iwanan ang lahat, pero alam kong hindi tayo matatahimik. Even now, I didn’t want you to come back because they threatened me that they will kill you. Bayad na ako sa utang, pero masamang damo sila, Hans. They’re still leeching off of every penny I have with the threat that if I don’t obey, they will kill you. They know about how much I love you, they know about my weakness, pumpkin.” Tumulo ang mga luha niya at mahigpit niya akong niyakap. Hindi agad ako nakakibo ngunit patuloy ang mga luhang dumaloy sa mga mata ko. I couldn’t absorb anything he said and I tried so hard to swallow everything. Parang umurong ang lahat ng galit at tanong sa ulo ko.

“I told you that Oceanna’s father is one of the biggest benefactor of that market, and most of our biggest evidence against them was because of me and Oceanna’s relationship. Kaya hindi ko siya maiwan, Hans. Kaya nagtiis ako kahit na gustong-gusto ko na tumakbo sa tabi mo, pero alam kong hindi iyon sapat na rason para iparanas ko sayo ang lahat ng sakit na naramdaman mo.” Humigpit ang yakap niya saakin at basa na ang leeg ko sa mga luha niya. “I am so sorry, Hans. I know kahit buong buhay akong humingi ng tawad sayo, hinding-hindi niyon maalis ang sakit na idinulot ko, pero mahal, ayokong mawala ka ulit. I don’t want to lose you again. I want to be a man for you, gusto ko makita mo naman kung paano ako maging matapang para sayo. Because I know you’re already fed up with my cowardness. I’m sorry, pumpkin. I’m sorry, love.” I felt every sincerity in his voice. I know he’s also hurt like me. Katulad ng sabi niya, ayaw ko rin mag timbang kung sino ang mas nasaktan. Pero masiyadong mabigat ang mga nangyari.

“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?” That’s the first thing I could say. Kumalas naman siya sa pagkakayakap saakin at pinunasan ang mga luha niya.

“Natakot ako. I was scared that they will really harm you, kaya hindi ako lumalapit sayo kahit halos mamatay-matay ako sa pagtitiis, Hans. That’s why I also sent Peterson to you, kasi iyon na lamang ang pag-asa ko na malaman na safe ka, pero naging safe ka nga sa black market, but I was the one who harmed you, especially your mental health.” Guilty niyang sabi. Napalunok ako. Bigla ay hindi ko alam ang sasabihin at mararamdaman ko ngayon. Pero hindi ko isinawawalang bahala ang mga sakripisyong ginawa niya rin para saakin. Napaupo ako muli sa kama at napabuntong-hininga.

“I said all of my pain, lahat ng tampo, hindi dahil gusto kong humingi ka ng tawad, I just wanted answers why you chose to do that. And you gave it to me, but right now, I don’t even know what to feel.” Pag-amin ko. Sumunod naman siya saakin at lumuhod siya sa harapan ko. He held my hands and looked at me straight in the eye.

“You can still be mad at me, pumpkin. Hindi ko ipagkakait yun sayo, you have the right to be mad at me, valid na mag tampo ka, ayos lang iyon saakin. Naging duwag ako ’e, nasaktan kita ng sobra sa mga desisyon ko. Pero please, nakikiusap ako, ako lang, gusto ko saakin ka lang magsasabi ng mga nararamdaman mo, para alam ko kung paano ako makakabawi, para alam ko kung ano ang mga dapat kong pagsisihan at wag na gawin.” Humigpit ang hawak niya sa mga kamay ko. I can feel the coldness in his hands. Mukhang kinakabahan siya. “I don’t want to lose you again. I know we just can’t go back to each other just like that, I know that’s too good to be true. Pero pagsisikapan ko, Hans. I’ll court you, the things that you saw me doing to that woman? I’ll triple it, damn, I can even let the world see how much of a sucker I am when it comes to you. Wag mo lang isipin na may mas lamang sayo kasi wala, you’re on top of my necessity needs, pumpkin. Hindi pagkain, hindi hygiene, tangina kahit mawalan ng toothpaste basta nandiyan ka, ayos lang.” Sabi niya at naiinis akong tinampal ang noo niya.

“Siraulo.” Naiiyak kong ani. Bahagya naman siyang natawa habang lumuluha.

“Hans, the difference between you and that woman, is that I love you, and all the things I will do for you is because I love you the most, while she will never recieve not even my sympathy, it’s all for show. She pales in comparison to you, pumpkin. Kahit ngayon, naiinis ako na kailangan mabanggit siya kasama ang pangalan mo, because she’s not worth it. She’s too low to be even put beside your name, Hans. Keep that in mind.” Seryoso niyang sabi at napatitig lamang ako sakanya bago napairap.

“I know that. Alam kong lamang ako sakanya, Kaleb. Kaya nga naiinis ako na siya ang nasa tabi mo dati diba? You’re cheap. You look so cheap beside her.” I mock him at napakurap lang siya saakin.

“Pumpkin…” Banggit niya na parang hindi siya makapaniwala sa huli kong sinabi. I just glared at him. “And you said we kissed? I don’t remember kissing that woman?” He said and I scoffed.

“You were in a park, giving a speech or what, I don’t know. Nasa loob ako ng kotse, pero nung narinig na kita, you said ‘I can’t do any of this without my beautiful fiance, of course. To her, I am very thankful.’ , and then your fiance pulled you to peck your lips.” Matigas kong ani habang hindi tumitingin sakanya.

“What? You remember that so well?” Parang hindi niya makapaniwalang ani. Naiinis akong tumingin sakanya at parang natauhan naman.

“I’m sorry, I remember now, we had a big fight because of that, hindi na naulit iyon dahil halos magpatayan kaming dalawa nang gawin niya iyon. Pero lahat ng speech ko, siya ang gumagawa, lahat ng galaw ko sa harap ng mga tao, utos niya, kaya ganon ang mga gestures and wordings ko in front of the people, hindi ko na rin nababago dahil iyon ang mga pabor na gusto niya para makuha ko ang mga ebidensyang gusto kong makuha patungkol sa ama niya. Lahat ng nakakasukang ginagawa ko sa harap ng mga tao kasama siya, kapalit ang ebidensya ng pagbagsak ng black market. I’m sorry, Hans. I’m really sorry.” Mahaba niyang paliwanag. Kahit na ganon ay naiinis pa rin ako pero kay Oceanna na ngayon.

How dare that fucking woman do that to him. Controlling every move he does in front of all the people, what a fucking desperate. I glared at Kaleb for letting her do that with him.

“Why would you let her do that to you?” Inis kong singhal. Napayuko naman siya.

“I told you, bukod sa kailangan ko ang mga ebidensya, I also need my position to keep you safe. Hans, if I have to offer my own life to make you safe, I will.” Ani niya na mas lalo kong ikinagalit.

“I am not a damsel in distress, Kaleb. If you ever say this again and do something that will put you in a very pathetic situation, I will really rip your face off.” Galit kong sabi at natawa siya na ikinapikon ko.

“What’s funny?!” Sigaw ko.

“Nothing, I just remembered that you love my handsome face the most, you won’t rip it off.” Mayabang niyang sabi at mahina ko siyang sinabunutan sa inis ngunit kinuha niya ang mga kamay ko at dinala iyon sa mga labi niya para masuyong halikan.

Napairap ako at nagsalita ulit. This time, I was serious.

“Let’s end the black market, I’ll help you, and no, you can’t say I can’t because I will. After this, do what you said, ligawan mo ako, suyuin mo ako, do everything so we can go back to what we are before. I’ll give you another chance to man up, Governor. Don’t even think of wasting it.”

Mío

A/N: Paano kaya sumuyo ang isang Governor Kaleb Cabrera? 🤔

Cuarenta y tres

PS: I’ll be introducing new characters from my new soon to be published story hehe 🫶

Hans

“Malayo ba yun? Pwede naman sa resort ng parents ko ’e.” Ani ko sa creative director at location scout na mukhang nagkakagulo dahil nagka problema sa location kung saan kami mag s-shoot para sa sikat na magazine. It’s a beach concept.

“Why are you still not dressed?” Our creative director asked. Nagkibit-balikat naman ako.

“They said they will glam me up once we’re at the location already.” Sagot ko at napahawak naman siya sa noo niya.

“Then where is this resort you’re talking about?” Tanong niya at agad ko namang pinakita sakaniya ang online page ng resort namin. Ke Aloha has developed a lot while I was away and it can be perfect for our shooting.

“This wings are so heavy, when are we going to fucking shoot?” Pare-pareho kaming napalingon sa lumabas mula sa dressing room ng mga models katulad ko and we saw Zari looking like a literal angel with his angel wings and glam.

“You look so good, Zari.” Ani ko at nagkibit-balikat lamang siya saakin bago kami kinausap ng creative director at saka kami sinabihang lumabas ng building para sumakay saaming van papunta sa Ke Aloha resort.

“Terry is fucking annoying, he doesn’t want to take off this wings saying it’s so hard to put it on.” Tumatawa kaming lumalakad ni Zari pababa ng building habang nagrereklamo siya. Terry is his personal make-up artist. Mukha kasi talaga siyang timang habang nasa elevator kami dahil sa laki ng angel wings niya. Nauna na kami bumaba kasama ang manager niya, ako naman ay wala si kuya Oasis at Peterson dahil busy ang mga ito kasama si Kaleb para sa gagawin nilang raid sa blackmarket kasama ang mga special force. They said it’s gonna be this week.

“You look like my guardian angel right now.” Biro ko pa at napairap lamang siya. Natatawa akong napailing. Zari is my friend even before sa New York, he’s a mysterious guy but I like his energy and he’s fun to tease. He’s also openly gay.

Tinutudyo ko pa si Zari nang makababa na kami sa ground floor. Pagkabukas na pagkabukas ng elevator ay agad kong nakita ang babaeng nakatayo sa harap ng dadaanan namin. Hindi agad ako naka react hanggang sa magsalita ito.

“I warned you, Hans.” Oceanna said before attacking me. Bigla niya akong hinila sa buhok at hinila palabas ng elevator.

“Let go!” Galit kong sigaw bago ako nanlaban at hinila rin ang buhok niya. Nagsabunutan kami at nagkalmutan habang parehong sumisigaw sa inis.

“Fucking let go, Oceanna!”

“Fuck you, Hans! Fuck you! You ruined everything!” She screamed and kept pulling my hair and scratching my face.

“Oh my gosh, Hansy’s hair!” Lalo pa akong nainis nang marinig ko ang manager ni Zari na mas nag-aalala pa ata sa buhok ko kesa saakin.

“What’s wrong with this bitch?” I heard Zari said before pulling Oceanna off of me. Malakas niya itong hinila palayo saakin bago ako inalalayang makatayo nang maayos. Nabigla ako masyado sa ginawa ni Oceanna at hindi ako agad nakapanlaban. Inis ko siyang tiningnan at ganon rin ang nakapapatay niyang tingin saakin.

“Did you know that you just attacked a model’s face card? This woman is insane.” Zari said before wiping my cheeks because it has blood stain from Oceanna’s nail scratch. Sinugatan niya ang mukha ko. Mas lalong kumulo ang dugo ko at balak ko sana siya uling sugurin pero pinigilan ako ni Zari.

“Hey, enough. Do you know who is this woman?” Zari asked and I just glared at Oceanna and she’s the one who answered Zari.

“Who am I? I am Oceanna Villar, fiance of Governor Kaleb Cabrera that this bitch kept sleeping with!” Oceanna said screaming at me. Hindi naman ako makapaniwalang natawa sa sinasabi niya. Zari looked at me and I rolled my eyes.

“You’re crazy, you’re only his fake ex-fiance, Oceanna. Wake up, your delusions are already over.” Sagot ko sakaniya at sakaniya naman muli tumingin si Zari.

“The two of you are fighting over the Governor of Quezon City?” He asked at inis ko naman siyang siniko.

“I don’t need to fight her, Governor Cabrera begged me to be with him.” Inis kong paliwanag at natawa naman siya.

“Okay, no need to be so grumpy.” Asar niya pa at natigil lang kami nang muling sumugod si Oceanna but this time, she has a long metal stick on her hand. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko.

“This bitch!” Inis kong sigaw at hinawakan ang hawak niyang stick bago pa man iyon tumama saakin. Zari also helped me and tried to put down Oceanna and I was stupefied when he actually pulled her hair and slapped her into passing out. He did all of that while looking like an angel with literal wings.

“Zari!” Natatakot kong ani. Halos kasing laki ko lang siya ngunit napakalakas niya. Binitawan niya naman ang buhok ni Oceanna na nakahiga na ngayon sa sahig ng building. Mabuti na lamang at kami-kami lang ang nandito sa ground floor.

“Relax, she’s just passed out.” He said before picking up the metal stick Oceanna was holding. Tiningnan niya ito at nagsalita.

“This woman hates you so much she wants to kill you for stealing his man.” Asar niya at hindi pa ako nakakapagsalita nang bumukas ang elevator at sa ganong posisyon kami naabutan ng creative director kasama ang mga tauhan na kasali sa shooting namin. Lahat sila ay gulat na gulat.

“Fuck, you need to explain this.” Zari said at agad naman nanakit ang ulo ko.

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“That’s so funny, so she was only used and she knows it but was delusional about everything?” Zari said amused. Habang inaayos kasi ang buhok at mukha ko ay sinabi ko sakaniya ang buong detalye kung paano kami nagkakilala ng bruhang yun.

“Yeah— ouch!” I hissed when the scratch on my cheeks keeps stinging because of what my make-up artist is putting on it.

“Sorry, kailangan natin to takpan ’e. Buti at hindi ka nakalbo. What were you thinking letting that woman touch you? Alam mong may shoot ka.” Pagalit pang ani saakin ni Katy, ang make-up artist ko. Napairap ako.

“It was so sudden, okay? She was crazy.” Reklamo ko naman at natawa na lang si Zari habang pailing-iling naman si Katy. Oceanna was sent to a clinic because she passed out. Siguro naman ay hindi na mag d-demanda ang isang yun dahil siya naman ang unang nanakit, pasalamat pa siya at dinala siya sa clinic ng isa sa staff namin.

Maybe I should put a restraining order on that bitch? She’s really crazy.

“Matagal pa ba? Kanina pa ako ayos na ayos.” Zari said while his personal assistant is fixing every little details about his look. Inaantay pa kasi maayos ang setup namin. Mabuti na lang at wala ang parents ko sa bahay dahil baka makita nila kung paano ako mag model, panigurado ay aatakihin sa puso ang daddy Arken. Sa mga pictures ko pa nga lang ay parang ayaw na nitong tingnan.

“Hey, no smoking.” Lumingon ako kay Terry nang sabihin niya iyon. I looked at Zari and he was now holding a cigarette but what caught me off guard was the cold but admiring flicker on his eyes while looking at something. Sinundan ko ang tinitingnan niya at nakita ko ang isang napaka gwapong lalaki na nakatingin rin sa direksyon namin. Hindi naman siya masyadong malayo kaya napagmasdan ko siya. It was a tall huge guy with a rugged style. He has subtle mustache and he look stressed but still handsome.

“Who is that?” I asked. Bumuga naman ng usok si Zari bago tumingin saakin.

“My uncle.” He playfully said before standing up and walking towards the handsome guy. Tumaas naman ang kilay ko dahil ang mga emosyon sa mata niya ay excited. His uncle, huh? He’s looking at his uncle like he’s in love. Napailing-iling ako. Zari is really a mysterious guy.

“Hansy, you’re up. Come here.” The creative director called me. Inayos naman nang mabilisan ni Katy ang mga dapat pa ayusin saakin. Lumapit rin ang ilang assistant ni Katy para ayusin ang suot kong short na fur. I don’t have a top since it’s a beach concept. Tanging iyong makapal na short lamang na kulay lavender mix with pink and white. It has glitter in it.

I got into character and position myself like how the photographer wants. The staff did everything to make me have the best lighting and I did my best posing and making expressions the director wants.

“More sultry, Hansy. Yes, like that. Open your mouth a little bit.” The director keeps telling me what to do and I did nothing but to oblige.

“Wait-wait, more glitter on his shoulders and chest. C’mon.” Bigla ay utos niya. Lumapit naman agad saakin si Katy at ang dalawa sa assistant niya. Katy put something on my face and the two assistant who are gays put body glitters on my shoulders and chest and they rubbed it with their hands. Hinayaan ko sila at inantay na matapos. Pero bago pa man iyon mangyari ay may humablot na sa isa sa naglalagay ng glitter sa dibdib ko. Agad na tumili ang creative director namin.

“What is happening? Who is thi— Governor!” Pare-pareho kaming nagulat nang makita namin si Kaleb na halos kwelyuhan ang bading na assistant ni Katy. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko dahil mahigpit ang pagkaka-kwelyo niya sa bading na hinila niya.

“Kaleb! Let go!” Tumayo ako mula sa pagkakaluhod sa buhangin at sinaway siya. Mabuti na lang at tinulungan ako ni Peterson na kasama niya pala. Nakita ko rin si kuya Oasis na pangisi-ngising napapailing sa gilid ng photographer.

“Sorry, guys. The Governor is crazily possessive about our adorable Hansy.” Asar pa ni kuya Oasis. Napairap ako at nakahinga nang maluwag nang bitawan ni Kaleb ang assistant ni Katy na mukhang takot na takot na.

“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.” Hingi ko nang tawad at hinila si Kaleb papunta sa gilid dahil masama ang tingin nito sa dalawang assistant.

“What are you doing? Why are you here?” I asked. Napabuntong-hininga naman siya bago lumambot ang mukha at tumingin saakin.

“Why are they touching you like that?” Asar niyang sabi. Napairap ako.

“Duh, they’re fixing my look. I’m modeling?” Naiinis kong sabi dahil umaatake nanaman ang pagiging seloso niya kahit kanino na lang.

“Rubbing your chest like that? They’re seriously doing it on purpose—”

“Yeah, the purpose of making me look stunning in pictures. And they are gays, Kaleb.” Taas kilay ko sakaniya at hindi ko magawang mainis masyado dahil sa kung paano siya tumingin saakin ngayon. He’s looking at me with begging eyes, he looks like he’s frustrated because of what he saw. Napailing ako. This jealous guy.

“But I don’t want anyone touching you like that but me.” He said almost pouting. Natawa ako at hinawakan ang mukha niya. I cupped his face and looked at him lovingly.

“You need to get use to it, I’m a model.” I said and he just groaned. Maya-maya ay nagbago ang mukha niya pero hindi agad ako nakapag react dahil nakita ko mula sa likod niya si Zari at ang sinasabi niyang uncle niya na naghahalikan sa ilalim ng isang puno ng buko, medyo tago iyon. Nanlaki pa ang mga mata ko pero hindi na ako nakapagsalita dahil nauna si Kaleb at sinundan ni kuya Oasis.

“Do you have a scratch beneath your make-up? It’s bleeding.” He said.

“What the hell happened, Hans?” Sinundan siya ni kuya Oasis at may ipinakita saamin sa IPad niya. We looked at it and my eyes widened when I saw myself and Zari on an article.

’International Model Azariah and Hansy Was Seen Beating Up Oceanna Villar, the ex fiance of Governor Kaleb Cabrera.’

My mouth opened when I read the title of the article. Ang main cover niyon ay ang nakahandusay na si Oceanna at nakatayo kaming dalawa ni Zari sa gilid niya, hawak pa ni Zari iyong metal stick na kinuha niya sa kamay ni Oceanna.

“Oh my god.” Hindi ko makapaniwalang ani dahil nakuhaan agad iyon ng press.

Or was it all planned by that woman?

“Did you meet Oceanna? Is that why you have a scratch on your face?” Kaleb said with his cold worried voice pero hindi agad ako nakaimik dahil may ipinakita pa saamin si Peterson.

“I can tell this is all planned by that wicked woman.” Peterson said while I read the title of the article.

’International Gay Model Hansy turns out to be the Reason Why Governor of Quezon, Kaleb Cabrera, dumped his ex fiance, Oceanna Villar.’

“I’m going to kill that shithead.” Kaleb said and I couldn’t say anything because of pure shock.

A lot is happening!

Mío

A/N: A lot talaga be, may

naghahalikan

pa HAHAHAHHAAH

yan muna,

gumising

lng talaga ako para e-edit to hehe 🫶

Cuarenta y cuatro

A/N: HAPPY 500K+ READS ARKEN NEEDS!

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Hans

‘Old scandal about Hansy and Governor Kaleb Cabrera resurfaces along with their current issues with Oceanna Villar, Governor Cabrera’s ex fiance.’

Nilunok ko ang inis nang makita ko ang dating kumalat na mga pictures namin ni Kaleb noon na naghahalikan sa isang parking lot. Ibabato ko sana ang hawak kong iPad ngunit agad iyong nahawakan ni Kaleb pati na ang mga kamay ko.

“Calm down, I will fix this, pumpkin.” Kaleb keeps making me calm down but the opposite is happening. I can’t calm down because of that stupid bitch. Hindi natuloy ang shoot namin at ito nga kami ngayon sa resort lounge ng Ke Aloha at kanina pa nila ako pinapakalma dahil napupunta nanaman sa ulo ko ang galit. Madiin kong nakagat ang labi ko sa sobrang inis.

“Should I call the press, Governor?” Peterson asked and Kaleb shook his head.

“You know we have plans tonight, we can’t ruin it. I will do better than call the press tomorrow. I’ll make that woman pay, and suffer.” Kaleb said and I looked at him.

“Mamaya na iyong plano niyo?” I asked. Kaleb nodded. So they are going to raid the blackmarket tonight.

“There will be a big event tonight at the blackmarket, they will all be there and this is the perfect time to finally do it. Thanks for all the help, pumpkin.” He said and I just nodded. I was the one who pulled some strings so they can have special force back up. Nakuha na nila ang lahat ng ebidensyang kailangan at paghuli na lamang sa akto ang inaantay. After this, everything will come to an end. We can finally start over.

“Come on, I get it, Hans. Governor is a beautiful man, but can you handle that?” Nakuha ni Zari ang atensyon namin nang sabihin niya iyon. We all muttered a curse when we saw what he’s talking about. It was a lot of reporters and journalists coming our way.

“Move, move! Let’s go to Hansy’s house.” Peterson said and we all quickly stood up and started walking-running towards our house. Pasalamat na lang talaga at wala ang dad at papa! Kung hindi malalaman nila lahat ng nangyayari na ayaw kong ipaalam sakanila. Shit. Kinakabahan ako sa magiging reaksyon ni dad Arken, he will surely kill Kaleb.

“Governor Cabrera! Governor!”

“Governor is it true that you chose Hansy over Oceanna? Governor!”

“Hansy did you really ruin a perfect engagement?!”

“Zari why did you help beating up Ms. Villar?” Ilan lamang iyon sa mga naririnig naming tanong ng mga sumusunod saamin. Nang makapasok kami sa gate ay hindi ko namalayang nagpaiwan si Kaleb sa labas.

“Kaleb!” Tawag ko ngunit hinila ako ni kuya Oasis para hindi ako makuhaan ng mga camera.

“He can handle it.” Pete said but I looked at all of the reporters outside swarming around Kaleb who’s trying to contain them.

“Governor is everything really true? Why are you here with Hansy?” Iyon ang huling narinig kong tanong bago nagsalita si Kaleb.

“Lies. Lahat ay hindi katotohanan bukod sa pagmamahal ko kay Hans. I’ve told everyone already, my engagement with that woman was only for politics and we both agreed to fake it for power. Lahat ng pinapalabas ngayon ng babaeng iyon ay para lamang sirain ako at ang taong mahal ko, she has gone nuts!” Kaleb said with an authorization tone and questions after questions was thrown at him again.

“Paano niyo ipapaliwanag ang mga kumakalat na pictures ngayon sa pananakit ni Hansy sa ex fiance niyo?” Tanong ng isa at agad iyong sinagot ni Kaleb.

“Hansy and his friend was framed, that woman was the one who attacked Hansy. At hindi ko ito palalagpasing ginawa niyang gulo. Tomorrow, I will enlighten everyone about everything. Mark my words.” Sabi niya bago tumingin nang deretso sa isang camera. “And to you Oceanna, your name even makes me feel sick to my stomach. I will bring it to you what you are looking for, your downfall.” Kaleb ended it there and entered our gate. Tinulungan siya ni Pete para hindi makapasok ang mga reporters. Lahat naman kami ay pumasok sa bahay at naupo sa sala.

We were all silent. Lahat kami ay nag-iisip sa kung anong nangyari sa labas. Rinig pa rin namin ang ingay sa labas. Ilang beses akong humangos habang hawak-hawak ako ni Kaleb. Inalis ko ang hawak ni Kaleb sa mga kamay ko at madiin kong hinawakan ang braso ko hanggang sa mabaon roon ang mga kuku ko.

“Pumpkin!”

“Hans! Stop it!” Pete and Kaleb was quick to grab my hands and ripped it off of my own arms. I looked at it and it’s already bleeding. Agad na kumalma ang sistema ko at napahangos ako nang maluwag.

This is really getting out of hands. Kapag ganitong nagagalit ako ay saktan ko lamang ang sarili ko hanggang sa dumugo iyon ay nakakalma na ako. Gian said this is a defense mechanism.

“Get me a medical kit!” Utos ni Kaleb kay Pete. Hinawakan niya ang mukha ko at pinatitig niya ako sa mga mata niya. Sa hindi ko malamang dahilan ay nang makita ko ang desperasyon at sakit sa mga mata niya ay agad akong natauhan.

He’s worried. This is probably the first time he is seeing me like this.

“I’m sorry. It’s just.. my anger issues.” Hingi ko ng tawad at agad niya naman akong hinalikan sa noo bago niyakap.

“I will fix this, pumpkin. I promise, babe. I will make everything right.” He console me and I nodded.

“I trust you, Kaleb.” I said because I really do. Kaleb looked at me again with his empathetic eyes full of adoration before claiming my lips.

Now that everything and everyone seems like they want to ruin what me and Kaleb have, I will never back down. To hell with everything, they will know what love can do. The both of us had been hurt enough just to call it quits.

“Care to explain what the hell is going on outside? And why the hell our beloved Governor Cabrera is kissing my child?” Lahat kami ay nagulat nang may magsalita. Agad akong napatayo nang makita ko si dad Arken na matalas na agad ang tingin sa direksyon namin. Si papa Reihan naman ay agad na lumapit saakin.

“What is going on, anak? Bakit maraming tao sa labas? Are you okay?” Papa Reihan said full of worries. Nakagat ko naman ang labi ko.

This will be a long explanation.

---

“You have a very attractive parents, Hansy. You didn’t tell me.” Biro ni Zari dahil nahalata niya ang kaba ko. Inis ko naman siyang siniringan at natawa lamang siya. Nakita ko namang parang wala sa hulog iyong kasama niyang uncle niya raw pero nakita kong hinahalikan niya kanina. Weirdos.

“Kaleb will be fine, hindi naman iyon papatayin ni tito Arken.” Peterson said and I just groaned. Nasa loob kasi ngayon ng opisina ni daddy Arken si Kaleb. Pagkatapos namin e-explain sakanya ang lahat ay galit niyang pinapasok si Kaleb sa loob ng opisina niya. Naiwan naman kami rito sa sala. Samantalang iyong mga reporters sa labas ay nawala na dahil may tinawagan si Kaleb para aksyunan ang mga ito.

“Shut up. Why don’t you go there and fetch him? Diba ngayon yung raid?!” Pilit ko kay Pete pero umuling-iling ito.

“Mamaya pa naman, maaga pa. And I don’t want to face the wrath of tito Arken, how about Oa?” Agad namang sumiring saamin si kuya Oasis.

“Not me. Tito Arken never liked me because of daddy Eli.” Tinaas niya pa ang dalawang kamay niya na parang sumusuko.

“What? Why?” Pete said at saktong ipinatong ni papa Reihan sa mesa sa harap namin ang hinanda niyang meryenda para saamin.

“Because Elizer is so much like you, Oasis. Playboy as hell.” Asar ni papa Reihan at napangisi naman ako kay kuya Oasis na napangiwi lamang. Samantalang si Pete ay parang nawala sa hulog. Seloso.

“Tito naman ’e.” Reklamo pa ni kuya Oasis.

“Biro lang. Sige na, kumain muna kayo at mamaya ay papalabasin na rin iyon si Kaleb.” Papa said and they all eat except me.

Pakiramdam ko talaga ay ginigisa ngayon si Kaleb sa loob ng opisina ni dad Arken.

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Kaleb’s

“So are you coming back to my son’s life again, Governor?” Tito Arken asked with his fierce gaze. Nilunok ko ang kaba at sumagot. I need to man up for Hans.

“The only reason we grew apart was because of this politics, Tito.” Sagot ko at ilang segundo niya ako tiningnan bago muling nagsalita.

“That’s it? You just waited for your term to end?” Umuling-iling ako sa sinabi niya.

“No, tito. I just.. I had so many responsibilities on my shoulders that I didn’t even want it myself. When Hans left, I had to fight myself from running towards wherever he was. I didn’t want to hurt and endanger him, Tito.” Paliwanag ko. Tito Arken and I already talked about this. Nung makabalik siya mula sa New York at hindi na nila kasama si Hans ay pinuntahan niya ako. Of course he was so mad at me for making Hans leave and hurting his only son. But I told him about the blackmarket and the price on Hans head that I found out after I won the election. He got more furious and never talked to me again.

“What about the blackmarket? Are you sure he will be safe with you now, Governor?” He said, still with his stern voice. Napalunok ako bago sinabi sakanya ang plano namin sa blackmarket mamayang gabi. I told him everything and he fell silent for few minutes.

Inantay ko siyang magsalita ulit. Mukhang pinag-iisipan niya kung papayagan niya akong makasama muli si Hans o hindi. Although I won’t let anyone meddle between me and Hans again, I have so much respect for tito Arken and tito Reihan that I want their approval the most.

“How far will you go for my son, Kaleb?” He called me by my name at nakahangos naman ako roon. I knew he was mad that’s why he kept calling me Governor earlier.

“I was a coward years ago, Tito. I made him leave, I even wanted him to stay at first when all I did was pain him beside me. I hurt Hans and I couldn’t choose him over every responsibilities that was thrown at me.” Tinatagan ko ang loob ko at tumingin sa mga mata ni tito Arken. “But even with all the mess that was thrown at me, at the back of my head, Hans was the only one there. That three years without him felt like forever even tho I drowned myself with work and things I didn’t even want.” Napalunok ako dahil mukhang magiging emosyonal ako sa harap ni tito Arken.

“When he came back, I wanted to end everything and pull him in my arms and never let go. But I knew I still need to do my responsibilities, after this, fuck everything, fuck everyone. I’m choosing myself for me and Hans, for the ‘us’ that was once ruined. We will go far away from all this mess, we will have our own happy ending. That’s what all I wanted, tito. I will fight the whole world for him if needed. And I hope you can give me permission to do that.” I bravely said and the room fell silent again before he sighed.

“Did you know that I also left my Reihan for three years?” Bigla niyang sabi at muli naman akong napatingin sakaniya nang nagtatanong. Him? He left tito Reihan?

“But tito Reihan is your world?” Ani ko. He smiled a bit and nodded.

“He is, he will forever be my world. But I needed to do what I had to do.” Itinikop niya ang dalawang braso niya at tumitig saakin. “I know the feeling of wanting to be with someone but seems like the world doesn’t want to, Kaleb. I know it too well. I understood your decision before, but what I hated was you got another woman involved.” Sabi niya at nahihiyang napayuko ako.

“I’m sorry, tito. I’ve let my father decide for me, I was a coward.” Tanging nasabi ko pero naramdaman ko naman na ginulo niya ang buhok ko. Nagugulat naman akong napatingin sakaniya because never did I imagine tito Arken to do that with me.

“Facing everything without the love of your life, your strength and all is not called cowardness, Kaleb. I’m proud of you. You are the most effective, kind, empathetic Governor I’ve ever known. Even at your young age, you faced all of your responsibilities even if it means sacrificing your own happiness. That was brave of you, son.” Tuluyang tumulo ang luha ko at napatango-tango sa sinabi niya.

“Thank you, tito. Thank you for appreciating me.” I said because I’ve never thought of myself as how tito Arken described me. I felt a little emotional. I’ve never had a father figure like him, my father died along with my mother. He changed when my mother died. He never told me that he is proud of me even tho I did everything for him.

“But I hope that after all of this, you will always choose your own happiness and never neglect it again.” Seryoso niyang sabi. Pinunasan ko naman ang ilang butil ng luha na tumulo sa mga mata ko bago nangingiting tumango sakaniya.

“After all of this, I will let myself experience the happiness I deserve, tito. I will never, ever, neglect it even if it means the world has to end. My happiness is Hans, and he’s all I want.” Ngumiti siya sa sinabi ko at napangiti rin ako habang naluluha pa rin.

After tonight, I will show Hans the man that he deserves.

Mío

A/N: Some readers kept forgetting that Hans was a brat even at the very beginning of this story lol he was just innocent before but he was surely a brat. Kaleb loved that side of him, he was a brat but reasonable

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Anyways, ready na ba ulit sa mga pakilig ni Governor? Baka nakakalimutan niyo rin na lover boy yan

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Cuarenta y cinco

Hans

“Calm down, he’s going to be fine.” Kuya Oasis said while I was pacing inside my room. Naghihintay kami ngayon ng tawag ni Kaleb o Peterson. It’s already 1 am at dapat ay kanina pa natapos ang raid pero wala pa rin tumatawag.

I’m getting worried about Kaleb. Alam kong malaking bagay ito sakaniya. The blackmarket was the sole reason why every obstacle was thrown at us and he had to shoulder all of it.

“How can I calm down, kuya? My boyfriend is out there risking his life, kakabalikan lang namin. I don’t want anything to happen to him. Dapat kasi ay hindi na siya sumama ’e.” Sagot ko sakaniya habang pinagpapawisan sa nerbyos. Alam ko naman na gustong sumama ni Kaleb dahil gusto niyang makasigurado na matapos na ang lahat ng ito. But still, I can’t help but be worried about him.

“I agree, pati tuloy si Peterson ay dinadamay niya. I’m sure the special force and the police can handle it.” Sabi niya at naiinis lamang akong umupo sa harap niya.

“You should call him.” I said but he shook his head.

“Peterson said that their will be the one to call and we should just wait.” Sabi niya. Nakagat ko naman ang kuku sa kamay ko at napatitig sakaniya.

“I hope they’re fine.” Nag-aalala kong ani. Tumango naman siya at lumapit saakin. He sat beside me and put his arm around my shoulder to comfort me.

“Everything will be fine, Hans. After all, both of you made sure this operation will be a success.” He assured me and I deeply sighed before nodding. Sumandal ako sa balikat niya at muling nagsalita.

“Kuya, I know this is random but, do you think after this, everything will be back to normal with me and Kaleb?” Tanong ko at natahimik naman siya nang ilang segundo bago sumagot.

“What happened to the both of you won’t be easy to forget, Hans. It won’t be easy for the both of you to just go back to how it used to be before, pwedeng magkaroon ng sumbatan, ungkatan ng mga bagay na hinayaan mangyari na sa tingin mo ay unfair para sayo, para sakanya, but just remember that all of that happened because the both of you wanted it to work out. It won’t be easy, but it will work.” Mahaba. niyang sabi at napatitig naman ako sa seryoso niyang mukha na sa kawalan nakatingin. Napangiti ako nang tumingin siya saakin nang nagtatanong.

“What?” He asked and I smiled widely.

“It’s my first time hearing you so matured and serious. I can’t help but find it funny.” Asar ko sakaniya bago ko inilabas ang pinipigilan kong tawa. Napairap naman siya at asar na ginulo ang buhok ko.

“Loko. I’m serious, with your situation right now. I want you to always remember that you love Kaleb, and he also loves you so much. Remember to be patient with him, you’ve been thru a lot, but so does he. Pinasan niya ang problemang itinapon sakanya ng ama niya, as a son, especially Kaleb ’coz he’s an only child, that’s so heavy.” Mabigat niyang ani at ramdam ko ang simpatya sa boses niya. Muli akong napatitig sakaniya and I swallowed the lump in my throat.

He’s right. Kaleb did it all alone. I left him.

“Kuya, nahahawaan ka na talaga ni Peterson sa mga words of wisdom niya.” Malungkot kong sabi bago muling napasandal sa balikat niya.

“Shut up. Tell that manager of yours to stop treating me like a toddler that needs his attention so much. He’s really getting on my nerves, you know.” Pakiusap niya at maikli akong natawa bago malalim na bumuntong hininga.

“I regret it now, kuya.” Ani ko habang pinipigilan ang sariling maiyak. He looked at me with his questioning eyes. “Leaving Kaleb. Choosing my own sanity when he’s also going thru something. I regret it now. I’ve said it a lot of times that I won’t change what I did before, that I was right choosing myself over the situation that he put me in. But right now, thinking about it, I feel so sad for Kaleb being alone.” Tuluyang tumulo ang ilang butil ng luha sa mga mata ko nang matapos kong sabihin iyon.

Humigpit ang hawak ni kuya Oasis sa balikat ko at ilang segundo niya akong inalo bago muling nagsalita.

“You know how much I despise that Governor of yours, Hans. Pero aminin natin, kahit sinasabi niyang talunan siya dahil nasaktan ka niya at wala siyang nagawa sa mga nangyari, I think he was so brave for still standing strong ’till this day. Even when you left him, he managed to get it together so he could end all of it and get back to you.” Papuri niya kay Kaleb at natatawa habang umiiyak naman akong tumango-tango.

“Yeah, I was just so scared na hindi na kami magkakabalikan and I pushed myself to enter his life again during this critical time. I’m so stupid.” Nguso ko at napailing naman si kuya Oasis.

“Hey, both of your feelings and desperate actions are valid. Both of you just love each other too much, waaaay too much.” Kuya Oasis said while rolling his eyes. I chuckled and pouted again.

“Hay, where can I even start apologizing to Kaleb?” I sighed. Kuya Oasis was about to say something when the door to my room opened. Pareho kaming nagulat ni kuya Oasis at alam kong pareho kaming nakahinga nang maluwag nang makita ang dalawang taong kanina pa namin inaantay.

We were about to stand up and run towards them when both of them did it first. Mabilis silang lumapit saamin at pinaghiwalay kaming dalawa ni kuya Oasis.

“Where did you get the guts to touch Hans?” Inis na ani ni Kaleb.

“You told me you don’t like him anymore, Oa.” They both said in unison but both of me and kuya Oasis didn’t mind it and hugged them.

“Kaleb, fuck, I’m so happy that you’re okay.” Hangos ko habang mahigpit ang yakap sakaniya. He also hugged me tightly.

“Fucker, you said you would call.” Narinig kong ani ni kuya Oasis at nakita ko siyang inakay si Peterson palabas ng kwarto ko.

“Pumpkin, it’s all over now. It’s finally over.” Mas lalong humigpit ang yakap namin sa isa’t-isa nang sabihin niya iyon. I teared up and nodded my head while still embracing him.

“Thank you, Kaleb. Amor mío, thank you for ending it. Thank you for coming back to me, mío.” I said with all the happiness and contentment in my heart. He looked at me and I also saw how much happiness and complacent is in his eyes.

“Thank you, for waiting for me, pumpkin. You’re the reason why I am still standing strong ’till this day. Te quiero mucho, pumpkin.” I smiled widely while tears streaming down my face. I leaned for a kiss and he quickly claimed my lips. We share a passionate kiss for a moment before he sat down on the edge of my bed and he made me sit on his lap. I circled my arms around his nape and he secured me with his arms around my waist. We stared at each other for a moment before we both had a comforting smile.

“I can’t wait to have the life I dreamed with you, pumpkin. It’s all possible now.” Ani niya habang mariin ang titig saakin. I nodded and caressed his soft cheeks.

“Me too, Kaleb. And I just want to say I’m sorry, for leaving you befor—” Hindi niya pinatapos ang sasabihin ko.

“Baby, I didn’t want you to leave before, but I think it was all meant to be. With all the threats from the blackmarket, if you didn’t leave, I would have pushed you to. I’m just glad that everything is over now, pumpkin.” Napatitig ako sa mga mata niya at alam kong totoo ang sinasabi niya.

“Still, I’m sorry for letting you be all on your own. I’m sorry I wasn’t by your side, Kaleb. I’m sorry I wasn’t strong enough to stay.” Ani ko nang puno nang pagsisisi. He shook his head and smile at me.

“No, pumpkin. I’m sorry, I should be the one saying sorry, I ruined you. I made you a mess, I’m sorry that I wasn’t there with you when you were suffering because of me, I’m sorry that I was contented with just knowing you’re alright when you actually weren’t. I have so much to say sorry for, baby. I don’t know where to start.” Isinuksuk niya ang ulo niya sa leeg ko habang sinasabi lahat ng iyon. Napailing ako at hinaplos ang buhok niya.

“And so do I, Kaleb. I also have so much to say sorry for, kaya babawi tayo sa isa’t-isa, okay? Let’s make sure to make it up to the time we have lost.” I made him look at me. “And what happened to me was no ones fault, no one wants that. We both did everything we can, life was just not so kind to us. But now, it’s starting to have better days for us. Let’s not waste it, marami pa tayong oras, Kaleb.” Ani ko habang namamasa ang mga mata. He was also teary eyed while nodding.

“I’m gonna start by letting everyone know how much I love you and care for you, pumpkin. I’ll make sure that we will have unending better days. I promise you that, and I’ll do it this time.” He brush his head on my cheeks like a cat wanting attention. I chuckled and gave him a kiss on the forehead.

“And I will never leave again, even if the world wants me too, I’ll stick to you like a leech.” He grinned at what I said and next thing I knew I’m already laying on my bed and he’s on top of me.

“Tanga na lang ang hahayaan ka pang makawala, pumpkin. I will never let you get away from me again, even if you want to. Akin ka lang.” Paniniguro niya bago sakupin ang bibig ko at mabilis na kumulit ang mga kamay niya. We kissed passionately and his hands were being touchy but I can feel that he wasn’t rushing and is taking his time with me. He wants to make love this time.

“I love you. I love you so much, pumpkin.” He said in between our kisses before making his way down my neck. Hinubad niya ang suot niyang shirt at ganon rin ang akin. He passionately kissed every part of my upper body and I can’t help but just shiver with his passionate touch.

“I love you, Kaleb. I love you more than anything, amor. ” Sagot ko sakaniya bago bumuka ang bibig ko kasabay ng dalawang binti ko. He already removed all of my clothes. He pulled out his rock hard rod and positioned himself to enter me.

“Look at me, don’t leave my eyes.” He commanded before slowly entering me. My mouth widened and my eyes almost shut when his hot rod slowly entered my deepest. The admiration in his eyes also turned into lust and pleasure when he finally put all of his hugeness inside me.

He leaned his body to near my face and he gave me a peck before grunting.

“You always feel so warm inside, pumpkin. I really love fucking you like this. If only I can get you pregnant, ugh.” He groaned and I bit my lip when he started slowly thrusting. I circled my arms around his nape and welcomed his humps.

“Oh, like that, Kaleb. I love that, baby.” I moaned and he made me look at him.

“You calling me baby now?” Pilyo niyang tanong habang bumibilis ang mga ulos saakin. I nod while grunting.

“Yeah, uh, Kaleb! Ahh, harder please. Ohh, you can hurt me.” Nakagat ko ang mga labi ko nang masabi ko iyon. His eyes darkened and claimed my lips roughly.

“Pumpkin, where did you get this kink of yours? You like to be slapped and get your hair pulled? Hm, my baby had grown so much.” Asar niya at wala akong ibang nagawa kundi ang umungol dahil mas lalong naging marahas ang mga ulos niya saakin. I pulled his hair and almost scream when he keeps hitting my spot.

“Kaleb! Oh! Kaleb! Yeah, ohh! Kaleb!” Ingay ko habang titig na titig naman siya saakin. Nakabuka ang bibig niya ngunit halata roon ang konting ngisi habang pinapanuod akong umungol dahil sa ginagawa niya.

“You look so fucking hot, pumpkin. You’re all mine, eres mío, mi vida, my

pumpkin. Akin ka lang, akin lang ’to.” He was grunting while saying that before positioning himself more precise. Kinuha niya ang dalawang kamay ko at inilagay iyon sa ibabaw ng ulo ko bago niya mabilis at marahas na inararo ang butas ko.

“Ohh! Kaleb! Fuck, Kaleb!”

“Pumpkin, oh. Fuck.” Shit. He sounds so hot while humping endlessly inside me. He was doing that while still not leaving his eyes on my pleasured face. I felt embarassed but ngayon pa ba na nagawa na namin ang lahat? Hinayaan ko siyang titigan ako habang hindi niya tinitigilan ang butas kong sarap na sarap sa ginagawa niya. Hanggang sa pareho naming maabot ang rurok ay hindi niya inalis ang mga tingin niya saakin.

“Fuck!” Malakas niyang ungot habang pinagsisiksikan ang kalakihan niya sa butas ko at pinutok niya sa loob ang lahat ng katas niya. I could feel him filling me up and that made me so hot.

“Ohh, shit! Kaleb! Ohh! Yeah, fuck!” I screamed when we both spurted our semen. Nanginig ang buong katawan ko at ipinatong ni Kaleb ang buong kabigatan niya saakin habang mabilis na humahangos.

“Fuck, I want to do this with you for the rest of my life, pumpkin.” Ani niya habang humahangos pa rin. I bit my lip and slightly chuckled.

“Yeah, let’s make love for the rest ouf our lives.” I cunningly said and we both chuckled.

I know better days are coming.

Mío

A/N: Kayo talaga, alam

niyong

smut writer ako tas

tatanong

kayo bat puro unnecessary BS 😭

Anyways, excited na ako sa better days nila Kaleb at Hans kasi it has been so heavy writing their story because of the plot lol, parang na e-encourage akong

magsulat

na lang ng mga short story with no plot but only sexcapades of

OC’s

HAHAHAHAH hirap kasi pag hindi creative 😭

And sorry for the long hiatus, na busy ako sa anime’s hehe 🫶

Cuarenta y seis

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xifzlRqt0qo

A/N: LISTEN TO THIS PROMISE VERY FIT TALAGA SIYA KILA HANS AT KALEB! ↑↑

Hans

“Hello, I’m here to cover a song again.” Panimula ko habang inaayos ang camera para saaking Instagram live. I am going to cover a song and it’s about Kaleb.

Inayos ko ang upo ko at mahigpit na hinawakan ang gitara na gagamitin ko bago deretsong tumingin sa camera. I saw lots of viewers and comments already kaya muli akong nagsalita.

“Right now, all of you might have already known about my relationship with the Governor of Quezon, and I hope you also watched the news and saw how heroic he was ending the biggest corruption here in Quezon.” Ngiti ko bago humangos nang malalim at nagpatuloy sa sasabihin.

“He’s not here with me right now, he said he’s going to clear things about us..” I awkwardly smiled with my teeth and looked at the strings of my guitar out of nervousness. “I have known Kaleb since I was twelve and he was fifteen, the first time we met, he told me I smell like sweet pumpkin,” Ngiti ko habang inaalala ang unang pagkikita namin ni Kaleb. “That’s why he calls me pumpkin.” I bit my lower lip and tried ro overcome the nervousness I am feeling. Pakiramdam ko kasi ay naghuhubad ako ngayon sa harap ng maraming tao dahil sa mga sinasabi ko. But I want to do it, I want everyone to know that we were the victim of the situation, not Oceanna, not anyone but us.

“A lot of people accused me from stealing Kaleb from his fiance, a lot pointed fingers at me saying I am a homewrecker. While I would accept that accusation if there’s a home to wreck but there wasn’t.” Ngiwi ko sa camera at mahina pang natawa. “What Kaleb and Oceanna had was all fake, all for a show. Para sa politiko, at pareho silang um-agree sa setup na ganoon. But even though I knew that was the case, I left because I felt like I was really the other man like how everyone sees me.” I tapped my guitar and clicked my tongue remembering the days I almost lost my sanity because of our situation.

“A lot of you might not know this, but I left Kaleb when he was just running for the election. I wasn’t Hansy all my life, I was just Hans, Kaleb’s innocent Hans. But everything change when Kaleb had to shoulder all the responsibilities given to him. He doesn’t want to, he wants to give up everything for us, but I didn’t let him, and I am happy that I didn’t let him choose us over everything. Because he successfully ended the corruption of the blackmarket that was run by big businessmen, government personas and so on. Isn’t he amazing? He did all of that while mourning for what the both of us had lost.” Ngiti ko sa camera.

“When I came back as Hansy, I was pissed that he’s still with Oceanna and I was done understanding his situation. He keeps saying that he loves me the most, but he needed Oceanna to end the black market. I was persistent and stupid, I didn’t understand him once again. He had to risk it all again so he can choose me and come back to me.” Nahihiya kong kwento. “But yeah, it all worked out for the both of us.”

“I am not saying all of this so all of you can accept our relationship, I don’t care if you don’t understand. But I just want to announce to the world how much our love suffered because of the rolling seasons, because of all the people that’s so quick to point fingers. I am not the other man, I was never the other man. Oceanna knew that, that by the way, will now rot in jail for helping his father with his crimes.” Hindi ko napigilang mapairap. “But anyway, we made it. We won against the rolling season, we won the hardships that was thrown at us, unwanted. We could have chose to ignore it, choose our relationship, be together without any care in the world, but we didn’t. Because we knew what we needed to do before we can go back running to each other.” Nawala na ang kaba sa dibdib ko at muli akong humangos.

“To celebrate our comeback, I will sing a song that’s not too happy,” Ngiwi ko. ”It’s like a tribute to what I felt when I had to leave him so he can do all of his responsibilities without me being a hindrance. Know that I’ll be singing this because I finally can.” I chuckled. “Because fun fact, I couldn’t sing this song because I will breakdown for like an effing year if I do. But now that everything is getting better for the both of us, I can now finally sing this very sad song.” Tinapos ako ang pagpapaliwanag at nagsimula akong itugtog ang gitarang hawak ko.

♪ Saw you singing your song the other day

It’s been a long time since your eyes lit up that way

I felt the guilt build up as I looked back how things went wrong

Did I have to sweep in and scar you? ♪

I felt the lump in my throat but I smiled thinking that it’s all over now.

♪ Five years, we shared the

bittersweetness

of our youth

Then we broke up, because sometimes it is the best thing to do

Did it ever cross your mind that maybe you hurt me too?

But I’m not taking it against you ♪

♪ Since the beginning, I never wanted anything

But to see you reach your dreams, I knew that you just wanted me

But I had dreams of my own, and I just couldn’t let them go ♪

Napapikit ako sa huling linyang sinabi ko. That sting too much.

♪ So, I apologize for coming into your life

Just to break your heart to pieces, and then leave you in the night

And I tried my best to stay by your side

But who knew the rolling seasons would reveal that sometimes

We aren’t meant to be the one?

So, goodbye to the ones we once loved ♪

Napangiti ako sa isiping hindi ko na kailangan magpaalam pa kay Kaleb upang magkalayo kami. We were meant to be the one.

♪ When things got heavy, and you expected more from me

I tried to be there to take away your tears

But I didn’t notice that I was chipping away

At pieces of myself ’til there was nothing left to give

I didn’t even want to live ♪

I silently said my sorry’s to Kaleb for not being strong.

♪ But I apologize for coming into your life

Just to break your heart to pieces, and then leave you in the night

And I tried my best to stay by your side

But who knew the rolling seasons would reveal that sometimes

We aren’t meant to be the one?

So, goodbye to the ones we once loved ♪

♪ I realized it wasn’t anyone’s fault at all

It’s just that I wasn’t built to build you up when you fall

Maybe we were meant to be a lesson to each other

But I wish you well, and I’m sorry (I’m sorry) ♪

Napahangos ako nang may ilang butil ang tumulo sa mga mata ko. I slightly chuckled because of embarrassment. I can’t believe I am crying in front of lots of viewers.

♪ Oh, I apologize for coming into your life

Just to break your heart to pieces, and then leave you in the night

And I tried my best to stay by your side

But who knew the rolling seasons would reveal that sometimes

We aren’t meant to be the one?

So, goodbye to the ones, I wasn’t meant to be the one

So, goodbye to the one I once loved ♪

Natapos ko ang kanta at naramdam ko ang bigat sa dibdib ko na onti-onting nawala. I smiled and clicked my tongue before talking again.

“Unlike what the song stated, we were in fact meant to be the one for each other. And I don’t care if any of you tell me otherwise.” Ngiti ko bago kinuha ang selpon ko para magbasa ng mga comments kahit na kinakabahan. But like what I said, I don’t care about anyone’s opinion of our relationship.

Napangiti ako nang makitang lahat ng comments ay positive at binabati kami lalo na si Kaleb sa pagkapanalo niya against sa black market.

“Wow! He did all of that and endured the loneliness just so you can be safe, I can tell that he loves you so much, Hansy.”

“What Governor Kaleb did was so heroic! And he did all of that for love! Just wow, I hope everyone finds love like that. Both of you are so lucky to have each other!”

“That song

slaaaps

! Kaiyak so much, so glad that you can sing this song now. We love you and Governor Kaleb, Hansy!”

“You owe no one any explanation, Hansy. But so glad that we get to know the beautiful yet sad story of your love with Governor Kaleb. Best wishes! Be happy!”

Muling tumulo ang ilang butil ng luha sa mga mata ko. I’m finally understood.

“Oh my gosh, Hansy! Watch the TV now! Nasa

mainstream si

Governor Kaleb with Tito Boy! It’s live!”

Natigilan ako nang mabasa ko iyon at agad akong nagpaalam sa live para manuod sa TV. I immediately opened the TV and natulala ako nang makita ko si Kaleb sa TV.

“First of all, thank you, Governor Cabrera. Thank you so much for bringing down the main corruption in Quezon. You really nailed that, you need to be praised more.” Ani ng host kay Kaleb. Ngumiti naman si Kaleb at umiling.

“It is my duty as a Governor to do that. But I would really like to dedicate this achievement to my loved one, Hans Gabriel. I did all of this for him.”  Nakagat ko ang labi ko nang banggitin niya agad ang pangalan ko.

“ For you to do all of this for one person, you really love so hard, don’t you?” Tanong ng host. Kaleb chuckled and shook his head again.

“This is nothing compared to what Hans did for me. He endured everything, me having a fake fiance, being away from him, understanding everything I have to sacrifice to end all of it. I put him through a lot.” I controlled myself not to cry so much and focused on what he was gonna say.

“The main reason I am here is for him. Oceanna did him so dirty, framing him up so the people can sympathize with her when in fact, she was a criminal and delusional.” Halata ang pagkadisgusto sa boses ni Kaleb. Agad namang nagtanong ang host kung ano nga ba talaga ang nangyari sa pagitan nila ni Oceanna.

“ I already said it and I will say it again so those who are still delusional like the criminal I put in jail, can wake up from their delusions, our family set our marriage up. It was for me to win the election and for them to have connections with the Government.”

“Oceanna knew that I have Hans, she agreed to everything because she wants her family to be proud of her. Una pa lang, alam niyang palabas lang ang lahat saamin at si Hans ang totoong mahal ko. I was going to break the engagement off after I won the election, Hans and Oceanna knew that, but the black market suddenly blackmailed me and threatened me to kill Hans if I ever do that. Hindi sila tumupad sa usapan, they keep on laundering money from me. Kaya naman pala, kasi kasali roon ang pamilya ni Oceanna at siya mismo. All of it was their plan to make me suffer. There was no other victim here but Hans. ”

“My plan to come running back to Hans was ruined because of the black market. And on top of that, I have to pretend that I am happily engaged with that woman. All of it disgusted me, I never wanted to enter politics, but I had to save my father who was also a victim of that organization.”

“And now you have all the evidence to prove everything that you’re saying is true, this is the biggest slap to those people who still thinks that you’re lying so you can have an affair with the famous model, Hansy.” Ani ng host at tumango-tango si Kaleb.

“Yes, kung ako lamang, wala akong pakialam sa mga sasabihin nila at iisipin. They can be delusional and in denial about the fact that I only loved Hans, pero deserve ni Hans na ipagsigawan ko kung gaano ko siya kamahal. I was a loser for hurting him, we both didn’t want all of this to happen, but I couldn’t do anything but be a victim of those scums. Ngayon na tapos na ang lahat ng kasinungalingan na kailangan kong tiisin, hinding-hindi na ulit ako papasok sa politiko.” Matigas na ani ni Kaleb.

“Hindi ka na ulit papasok sa politiko, ano ngayon ang balak mo pagkatapos ng iyong termino, Governor?” The host asked.

“I will do what I wanted the most, to live a happy peaceful life with Hans. To retrieve the time we have lost. To mend to the pain I have caused him. All I want right now is to be with him, have better days and ignore all of the problems the world wants to throw at us. We deserve to be happy, I deserve to be happy.” Napatango-tango ako habang sumisinghot sa mga sinasabi ni Kaleb.

“You do, Governor. You deserve to have the world after all of what you have gone through. Mahirap ang

mawalay

sa taong mahal mo, mahirap ang

pasanin

ang mga bagay na dapat ay hindi naman

saiyo

. Deserve mo ngayon ang lahat ng kasaganahan sa buhay after what you did. You are incredible, both of you and your lover are.” The host meaningfully said and looked at the camera.

“And now, to back up everything Governor Kaleb Cabrera said. We will show you all the evidence of what really happened, including the footage of the raid where a lot of big personas are involved.” Ani ng host at pinakita nga nila ang ilang footage ng raid sa blackmarket at nakita roon ang mga pamilyar na mukha ng mga business man, politiko at kasali na roon si Oceanna na naroon rin. Pagkatapos niyon ay nagulat pa ako nang ipakita ang kontrata ng fake engagement ni Kaleb at Oceanna. Ang i-ilang recordings ng pag-uusap nila about sakanilang fake engagement at sa pagpapaalala ni Kaleb na ako lamang ang totoong mahal niya kahit ano pang ipakita ni Oceanna sa publiko.

Natuwa pa ang puso ko nang ipalabas rin ang CCTV footage kung saan sinugod ako ni Oceanna at pinalabas niyang kami ang nambugbog sakaniya. Nakahinga ako nang maluwag dahil nalinis na sa wakas ang pangalan ni Azariah na tinulungan lamang ako.

“That’s all,

kapamilya

. Kung lahat ng iyon ay hindi ka pa rin kumbinsido na totoo ang lahat ng sinasabi ng Governor, nasaiyo na lamang ang mali at sa palagay ko ay dapat mong kwestyunin ang iyong moralidad. Ano nga ba ang iyong pinaglalaban? Ang mga taong gagawin lahat para sa pera, o ang mga taong kayang

isakripisyo

ang lahat upang mawala ang mga taong walang

nagagawang

mabuti

saating

bansa?

Governer

Cabrera did a thing that no one has ever done as a government server.

Napatunayan

niya ang kaniyang sarili.” The host said his lines and asked Kaleb what his last words for the show. The camera spun towards him and he smiled at the screen.

“Pumpkin, I’m coming home.” I also smiled while watching him and nodded my head like he can see me.

“I’ll be just here, waiting for you, Kaleb.”

Mío

A/N: Ayan, redemption muna hehe

Cuarenta y seite

3 months time skip..

Kaleb’s

“Kaleb, please? Babe?” Hindi ko tiningnan si Hans na nagmamakaawa sa tabi ko. I’m in my office right now and my Hans thinks that it’s the right time to make me say yes about something I definitely don’t want him to do.

“Pumpkin, it’s a no, and that won’t change anytime soon.” Matigas kong sabi habang kunot na ang kunot ang noo ko sa binabasa kong papeles. Lihim akong napabuntong-hininga. Isang buwan na lang at bababa na ako sa pwesto ngunit tinambakan pa ako ng problema sa capitol.

“What’s wrong with this? It’s sexy, it’s trendy and it’s for work.” Muli niyang ipinakita saakin ang isang model sa magazine na naka bikini lace lamang, and to make it worst, see through iyon at tanging ang nasa pribadong harap lamang talaga ang tago. He said the same company wants him to be the cover of the magazine since itong ipinapakita niya saakin ay rough draft lamang. They want Hansy to cover the magazine and model that damn small bikini.

“Are you serious, Hans? Do you want me to collapse? I won’t let you model with this shitty bikini, no way in hell.” I looked at him with all seriousness. He bit his lower lip and he’s almost glaring at me with his cerulean eyes. I sighed and put down the paper I am holding.

“I won’t change my mind.” Matigas ko pa rin na ani. Halos mamatay-matay na ako kada makikita ko ang katawan niya kung saan-saang billboard at magazine pagkatapos ay ipipilit niya pa ito? I know I’m a jealous man but fuck, I’m trying so hard not ro ruin the career he built for himself but it’s so hard when everyone can see what I don’t want them to see about Hans. He’s mine, he should just be all mine, all to my hands, all to my eyes.

“Let’s see about that. I will wear it, and you judge it.” Kumunot ang noo ko nang tumayo siya sa pagkakaupo at kinuha ang dala niyang paperbag bago pumasok sa banyo ng opisina ko. Napakunot noo ako at inantay lamang siyang lumabas ulit sa banyong iyon.

My jaw almost drop when he walked out the door and he’s only wearing a white fitted tee and the bikini he wants to wear so bad. He posed in front of me and his eyes is looking for approval. My jaw tightened along with the bulging crotch in between my legs. He looks so sexy.

“It look so good on me, right?” He beamed and even did a 360 so I got a glance at his juicy bum.

“Definitely no, I won’t let anyone see you like that.” Muli kong pagtutol sakaniya. He groaned and walked towards me.

“Kaleeeb, I will get paid a lot if I do this. So please, let me do it, okay? It’s just for photos, people cannot touch me, only you.” Pagpupumilit niya pa. Tumabi na siya saakin at umupo sa lap ko. He encircled his arms around my neck and tried seducing me into submission again. He’s always doing this with me, alam na alam niya kung paano ako kukunin.

“Kaleb, pwede ka naman sumama sa shoot, bantayan mo ako. Just let me do it, hm?” Lambing niya saakin at hinalikan pa ako sa labi. I licked my lips and shook my head.

“You’re not getting me this time, Hans. No.” I firmly said and he glared at me. I almost chuckled but then he said something that made my blood immediately boil.

“I did a lot of sets much worst than this, Kaleb. It’s my line of work.” Naalala ko nanaman ang mga nakikita ko noong concept na hinahayaan ni Peterson na gawin niya. Damn that guy, kung hindi lang siya sobrang loyal ay talagang nabalian na siya ng leeg sa mga pagpayag niya noon sa mga sexy concept for Hansy.

It’s not new to me that Hansy is known for his sultry looks that’s why he always gets hired for concepts like this bikini shit one. Hans is sexy, he’s not that tall but he’s not short, his body is slender that fits the model concept. He’s a perfect model, kaya nga siya sumikat dahil magaling siyang magdala ng mga damit na bagay sakaniya and biggest plus ang mukha niya, but I can’t stop thinking about the Hans I knew back then, the innocent Hans who will never dare touch such lewd bikini, let alone wear it and make the world see it. I don’t want him to be tainted but I’m too late for that. As much as I love his strong personality right now, it’s also making me so stressed especially whenever he wants something that I don’t approve of, he will do anything to get his way and I’m so close to being so pissed off with this bratty attitude of him.

My baby is no longer my pumpkin who will follow everything I say and I want, he has his own needs and wants now. It’s perfect that he knows what he wants but he became greedy and whiny because we pampered him too much, I guess. Everyone around him let him do whatever he wants, and I need to balance it out.

“You don’t need to work, if it’s money that you want, I can give it to you.” I suggested and he grimaced.

“No, it’s not just the money, I love my work.” Matigas niyang tutol. I sighed so deep.

“Pumpkin, I’ll say yes to everything but not this. I don’t want to see you almost naked and posing in front of a damn camera for the whole world to see.” Pakiusap ko pa ngunit parang wala siyang naririnig. Tumayo siya at muli saakin ipinakita ang suot niya.

“It’s fashion, Kaleb. You’re so old that you don’t know fashion anymore! Dati nga ay inaalok pa ako mag nude model, this is nothing.” I couldn’t hear anything anymore but the fact that he was offered to be a nude model. He keeps talking but my head is ringing and I’m already seeing red just thinking about someone else seeing him butt naked.

“Did you accept it?” I asked. Natigilan naman siya at nagtaka.

“What?”

“You, nude modeling.” Maikli kong sabi. He blinked and smirked at me. Nakita niya ang galit kong mukha pero tinatawanan niya lamang iyon. He’s been like this for days, I’m about to change that.

“Almost, I mean, I have a great body. It doesn’t hurt if the world sees it.” I know he was bluffing and he will never do that but the thought still lingers in my mind. Gumalaw ang panga ko at tumayo ako para lapitan siya.

“If you don’t stop being a brat, I’m going to fuck that attitude out of you, pumpkin.” Banta ko ngunit kuminang lamang lalo ang mga mata niya.

“You didn’t think I would be scared of that, right Kaleb?” Asar niya pa kaya nakagat ko ang labi ko at binitawan ang hawak-hawak kong balikat niya. Tumalikod ako at nagsalita.

“You’re so pampered.” I said and he chuckled.

“You spoiled me, shouldn’t it be right for you to also be the one to discipline me, Kaleb?” He taunted and I looked at him. Napalunok ako nang makitang nakatingin siya saakin gamit ang inosente niyang mga mata. This is how the old Hans always look at me. Napapikit ako at iniwas ang tingin sakaniya.

“No sex for you until you learn to behave, pumpkin.” Mahina kong sabi at natahimik naman siya. I looked at him again and he’s looking at me like he can’t believe what he just heard.

“Are you serious?” Hindi niya makapaniwalang tanong. Hindi ako sumagot para ipaalam sakaniyang seryosong-seryoso ako. We both love sex with each other so much, we’ve been away from each other for so long and after we got back together, we fucked like horny rabbits and I found out Hans really likes it rough. He likes to be bullied in bed, he wants me dominating him, forcing him to do everything I want. Ang pinaka gusto niya ay kapag sinasapak ko siya while we’re at it, iyon naman ang pinaka ayaw ko dahil agad na bumabakat ang kamay ko sa maliit at maganda niyang mukha. It’s scaring me, but he’s loving it so much.

Kaya nga palagi niya itong ginagawa, he will always piss me off and annoy me to say yes to something he knows I won’t approve of, hanggang sa mapuno ako at mangyari ang gusto niyang hardcore sex. To be honest, I like it too, I love it, but I’m scared that I’ll hurt him. I’ve been meaning to ask when did he found out he likes that kind of thing? But now is not the right time because I need to tame my pumpkin or else he will really be the most pampered brat I need to spend the rest of my life with. Not that I am complaining, but Hans really need some disciplining from me.

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Hans

“Why do you look like that?” Naiinis akong tumingin kay kuya Oasis nang sa wakas ay lumabas na siya sa kwarto niya at natatawa pa nitong tiningnan ang mukha kong hindi maipinta. Mas lalong nasira ang mukha ko nang makitang nakasuot lamang siya ng malaking puting damit na mukhang hindi sakaniya at boxer short. Kitang-kita pa ang mga hickeys sa leeg at dibdib niya. Gulo-gulo rin ang buhok niya. In short, his look screams that he just had sex!

“Ugh, get dressed. Who fucked you so hard?” Tanong ko na ikinabigla niya, namula siya at mukhang nahiya. Mukhang mas lalo pa siyang nahiya nang marinig namin ang tawa ng isang lalaki sa likod niya.

“Did I mess him up so hard that it shows?” Mayabang na tanong ni Peterson na niyakap pa mula sa likod si kuya Oasis at hinalikan ito sa pisnge, agad naman siyang siniko nito.

“Shit, let go. Fucking gross.” Singhal sakaniya ni kuya Oasis at nagmamadaling pumasok ulit sa kwarto. Natawa naman si Pete at umupo sa kaharap kong sofa.

“He loves it, he screams so loud.” Tawa niya pa at inis akong sinamaan siya ng tingin.

“I didn’t need to know that.” Pagmamaldita ko kaya naiiling siyang tinitigan ako habang natatawa.

“Why are you so irritated so early in the morning? And why do you keep bothering us? We’re having our honeymoon.” Napaungot ako sa huli niyang sinabi at binato ko siya ng throw pillow na nasa tabi ko. Tinawanan niya lang ako.

“Honeymoon my ass, you’re so fucking gross when you’re in love.” Tiningnan ko siya nang nandidiri at inilabas niya lang naman ang dila saakin.

“Bakit? Tapos na ba ang honeymoon niyo ni Gov?” Muling lumabas si kuya Oasis at maayos na itong nakabihis. Napairap ako.

“He said no sex until I stopped being a brat.” Mahina kong sabi at natahimik naman sila nang ilang segundo bago humagalpak ng tawa. I glared at the both of them.

“What’s so funny?!” I screamed and kuya Oasis sat down beside me while still chuckling. Inakbayan niya ako bago siya nagsalita.

“Hans, I think you’re enjoying being Hansy too much, Kaleb needs his innocent pumpkin.” Natatawa pero seryosong sabi niya. Napakunot-noo ako.

“What?” Naguguluhan kong tanong.

“You’re so sassy and seriously, you’re so spoiled and you want everything to go with your way. Kasalanan talaga ’to ni Peterson.” Kuyas Oasis glanced at Pete with a glare before speaking again. “I think Kaleb wants to tame that attitude of yours when it comes to bed, he’s punishing you.” Sabi niya.

“Punishing agad? Hindi pwedeng baka dinidisiplina niya lang ’yan?” Sumabat si Pete. Pareho namin siyang masamang tiningnan ni kuya Oasis at muli akong humarap sakaniya.

“You mean he doesn’t like it when I’m being a sassy brat?” Tanong ko at umiling naman siya.

“No, duh. It’s Kaleb, he will like you even if you become the biggest villain in this world. What I’m trying to say is, when it comes to sex, he wants you to be the most obedient bitch you can be while still acting innocent.” Lumaki ang mga mata ko pati ang bibig ko sa huling sinabi niya.

“Really?” Hindi ko makanapaniwalang ani. Nakangisi namang tumango-tango saakin si kuya Oasis. Napangiti ako at napaisip sa sinabi niya.

“I don’t fucking think that’s what Kaleb wants. You two are a nutcase and sex addicts.” Peterson said to us with his hopeless voice. Hindi namin siya pinansin ni kuya Oasis at nag-isip kami nang paraan para bawiin ni Kaleb ang sinabi niya saakin kahapon.

Mío

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Kaleb’s

“Pumpkin?” My hoarse voice called for Hans when I couldn’t find him when I woke up. Maaga pa at ang alam ko ay wala siyang schedule for his work today. Ako ang kailangan pumunta sa trabaho ngayong araw.

Tumayo ako mula sa pagkakahiga sa kama at tiningnan ang banyo kung naroon si Hans. Nang makita kong wala siya roon ay lumabas ako ng kwarto at agad kong narinig ang ingay sa kusina ng maliit na bahay na nirerentahan ni Hans. I’ve been staying with him here, hindi pa kasi tapos ang pinapabago ko sa bahay na pinagawa ko para saamin. Of course he still doesn’t know about it.

Nagtataka akong pumasok sa kusina at naabutan ko si Hans na nag-aayos ng pagkain sa hapag habang naka apron pa.

“Pumpkin, you cooked?” Taka ko dahil hindi nagluluto si Hans. He was pampered by his parents that he doesn’t even know how to properly wash his dirty clothes. But he doesn’t have to worry because I can do that for him for the rest of our lives.

“Good morning, Kaleb. I cooked a simple breakfast for us.” Ngiti niya at tumingin pa saakin bago hinubad ang suot niyang apron. Naguguluhan naman akong umupo sa harap ng mesa habang nakatitig sa mukha niyang nakatingin rin saakin

Something is different about him today, but I don’t know what.

“You cooked all of this, baby?” I asked while looking at the food on our table. Tortang talong, fried meatloafs, and corn beef with diced potatoes. May fried rice syempre. Namamangha akong kumuha ng tinidor at tinikman lahat ng niluto niya. I was prepared to be disappointed but to my surprise, it taste good and decent. Natutuwa akong tumingin kay Hans na nakatingin pa rin sa mukha ko.

“Come here. When did you learn to cook?” Aya ko sakaniya at mabilis naman siyang gumalaw para pumunta sa side ko. Hinila ko siya paupo sa binti ko.

“Just yesterday, I wanted to serve you… every morning.” He said while looking at everywhere but me. Tumaas naman ang kilay ko nang napapanguso pa ang mga labi niya na parang nahihiya. I chuckled. Is he acting like this because he thinks I’ll get seduced by it? Well, it’s working but I’m not backing down that easily.

“Let’s eat then.” Nagpipigil kong ngiting sabi. Tumayo naman siya sa pagkakakalong saakin at nagmamadaling may kinuha sa counter.

“I also made coffee for you, black and bitter like how you want it.” Sabi niya at nag-iingat na dinala saakin ang malaking tasa ng kape na umuusok pa. Agad kong inalalayan ang kamay niya dahil baka mapaso siya. Namamangha muli akong natawa.

“Wow, so thoughtful.” Sakay ko sa gusto niyang mangyari. Ngumiti siya nang malaki at tumitig pa saakin bago umupo sa harap ko kesa sa tabi ko. Kunot-noo ko siyang hinayaan sa gusto niya dahil gusto kong malaman kung saan papunta itong ginagawa niya.

How did he even think of this?

“Does it taste good, Kaleb?” Itinaas ko ang mga mata ko sakaniya nang tanungin niya iyon habang kumakain na ako ng mga niluto niya. I nodded and I couldn’t get my eyes away from his cerulean eyes that’s been looking at me since I entered the kitchen. I just realized how he looks different today, his eyes changed, the way it looks at me. Hansy would always look at me with his teasing and feisty cerulean eyes, but Hans is now looking at me so innocently like he wants nothing but my approval for everything he does right now. Nalunok ko ang hindi ko pa nangunguyang kanin at ulam sa bibig ko.

That eyes is my fucking weakness for sure.

Agad akong uminom ng tubig at iniwas ko ang tingin ko sakaniya. Seriously, my pumpkin will do anything just so I can fuck him like how he wants it. Nakagat ko ang labi ko at nagsalita. He would rather fo this than behave like I want.

“Why are you not eating?” I asked because he hasn’t tasted his own cooking. Umiling siya at ngumiti lamang saakin.

“I’ll eat once I already send you to your work, I’m still full.” Napakunot-noo ako sa sinabi niya.

“Send me to work?”

“Yeah, I already prepared your bath towels, your clothes and shoes.” Napatitig ako sa mukha niya at hindi ko na napigilang matawa.

“Are you doing this so I can fuck you, pumpkin?” I teased and his eyes widened like he was so shock and embarrassed of what he just heard.

“H-Huh? H-How did you even think of that?” Napakurap-kurap pa ako sakaniya nang mamula ang mga tenga niya pati ang pisnge niya sa hiya. Seriously, he should’ve been an actor, not a model. I licked my lips and sighed. He’s so fucking adorable.

“Then, while you’re at it, can I request one more favor for today?” Tanong ko at agad naman siyang tumango habang nahihiya pa rin na nakatingin saakin.

“Suck my cock, under the table.. while I eat your food.” I slowly said and he blinked at me before slowly gulping.

“Kaleb..” Tawag niya sa pangalan ko and he sounds so fucking good while saying my name with hesitation.

“Come on, get under the table.” Udyok ko. Might as well enjoy whatever he’s doing right now.

Kagat-labi niyang sinunod ang gusto ko habang umaaktong nag-aalangan pa. Yumuko siya papasok sa ilalim ng mesa. I didn’t look under the table and I sip on my coffee hanggang sa naramdaman ko na ang dalawang kamay niyang ibinababa ang suot kong boxer shorts. I licked my lips and put a meatloaf in my mouth when his tiny warm hands are now holding my erection. I’m imagining his innocent face right now.

“Hmm..” I groaned when I finally felt his tongue licking on my cock. He’s doing it slowly and carefully and I’m loving it so much. Even when sucking me, he’s pretending not to know how to do it, I can tell. Napangiti ako habang napapapikit at napapatingala sa ginagawa niya.

“Keep doing that, pumpkin…” Tumuhog ako ng meatloaf at inilagay muli iyon sa bibig ko. I couldn’t help but closed my eyes when he tried to put all of my erection inside his tiny warm mouth. Hindi ko napigilang umulos sa bibig niya at nagulat ako nang umatras siya at umubo nang umubo na parang nabilaukan siya. Napakurap-kurap ako at tumingin sa ilalim ng mesa.

“Hah, what a sight..” I swallowed and stared at Hans who’s kneeling in front of my crotch but he was looking at me with his teary eyes like he’s begging for mercy. I licked my lips and I looked at him amusely.

“Pumpkin, what are you trying to do with this act?” I asked with a smile that I couldn’t contain. Umiling-iling naman siya habang napapalunok.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about, Kaleb.” I scoffed at what he answered.

“You take my cock in your mouth so well, baby. You even like it when I fuck your face so rough, but now you’re acting like this just because I moved a little? Suspicious.” Taas-kilay ko sakaniya at umiwas lamang siya ng tingin habang napapanguso.

“You’re so mean, that was Hansy. I’m your pumpkin right now.” Nguso niya at hindi ako nakaimik nang ilang segundo dahil sa sinabi niya. When his words finally sink in, malutong akong natawa kaya napatingala siya saakin.

So that’s what he’s trying to do.

“Really? Then my pumpkin, can you continue what you’re doing and take my cock so good? Don’t gag.” I was teasing him but he immediately obliged while still looking embarassed and even biting his red lower lip. Pinanuod ko siyang hawakan ang alaga ko gamit ang dalawang kamay niya at tumingin siya saakin bago niya isinubo ang ulo ng ari ko sakaniyang bibig. Sinipsip niya iyon habang hindi naaalis ang tinginan namin. I groaned and I couldn’t help it anymore.

Binitawan ko ang kutsara’t tinidor na hawak ko at mahigpit kong hinawakan ang ulo niya bago ko sagad na ipinasok ang katigasan ko sa lalamunan niya. He was trying to resist but I didn’t mind him and started fucking his mouth. Mabilis at malalim ang mga ulos ko habang nakatingala at humahangos. His mouth always feel so good.

“Oh, yeah, fuck..” I groaned and looked at him. I hissed when he’s still looking at me with his teary eyes while looking so innocent. Fucking pretty.

“Swallow all of it, pumpkin. Don’t waste not even a drop.” Utos ko bago marahas na sinagad nang buo sakaniya ang ari ko. I ejaculated in his throat and I felt my knees weakened as my semen spurted inside him. Napatingala ako sa sarap.

“Fuck..” Mura ko nang maabot ko ang sukdulan. Nang humupa ang sensyasyon na nararamdaman ko ay muli kong ibinaba ang tingin kay Hans. Hawak niya ang bibig niya at nilulunok ang inilabas ko. I licked my lips and helped him get up. Inupo ko siya sa lap ko at hinalikan ko ang noo niya.

“How long is this going to last, baby?” I teased him. Napapanguso siyang umirap at iniwas ang tingin saakin.

“For how long you want it to last…” Napangiti ako sa sagot niya. He’s playing this so good.

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I

Binaba ko ang binabasa kong papeles nang muling malalim na humangos ang lalaking nakaupo sa sofa ko ngayon dito sa opisina. Kunot-noo ko siyang tiningnan at natutulala pa ito sa kung saan.

“What’s wrong with you, Peterson? And why are you here?” Tanong ko dahil kanina pa siya nandito pero hindi niya naman sinasabi ang pakay niya. Tumingin siya saakin at nagkibit-balikat.

“Wala lang, bawal ba dumalaw sayo? Pagkatapos mo ko gamitin nang ilang taon?” Hindi ako makapaniwalang natawa sa sinabi niya.

“What? Why are you talking like you were my boy bitch for years?” Napapailing kong tanong bago ibinalik ang mga mata sa binabasa ko. He’s acting weird.

“Ang sagwa, wala man lang pasalamat sa mga ginawa ko para kay Hans?” Nagtatampo niya pang sabi. Tuluyan kong binitawan ang binabasa ko at inalis ko ang reading glass na suot ko bago nagtatakang tumingin sakaniya.

“I did say my thank you and I payed you a lot, why are you acting like this? What’s with people today? Hans is also acting different earlier this morning.” Taka ko at napanguso siya bago napairap.

“Tame your boyfriend, tell him to stop seeing my partner.” Bigla niyang sabi at tumaas ang kilay ko.

“You have a girlfriend? And why is Hans seeing your partner?” Pagtataka ko muli dahil hindi naman friendly si Hans.

“Yeah, right. My partner is Oasis, tell Hans to stop seeing him. Nandon nanaman siya sa bahay ni Oasis at pinaalis pa nila akong dalawa.” Hindi ako nakapagsalita sa inamin niya nang ilang segundo bago nasira ang mukha ko.

“What? You have a relationship with that fucker?”

“Hey, you’re the bastard. Don’t talk to him like that.” Reklamo niya agad kaya napakurap-kurap ako. Is he serious?

“As in Oasis? Hans childhood friend, Oasis?” Paninigurado ko at inis siyang napakamot sa tenga niya bago tumango-tango.

“Yeah, Oasis. He’s now..” Natigilan siya. “I’m pursuing him.” Pag-amin niya pa. Malutong akong natawa dahil sa pagkabigla pero nang maalala ang sinabi niya kanina ay natigil rin ako bago seryosong tumingin sakaniya.

“You said Hans is now in his house and they kicked you out?” Umasim ang mukha ko at ganon rin si Peterson.

“Oo nga, kahapon pa yan si Hans. They’re plotting something so you can oblige whatever Hans wants to do, tinutulungan siya ni Oa. And they look unstoppable.” Napatitig ako sakaniya dahil sa sinabi niya. Naalala ko ang nangyari kaninang umaga at hindi ako makapaniwalang inis na natawa.

“So that’s what it’s all about? So cunning.” Kung kanina ay hinahayaan at natutuwa lamang ako sa ginagawa ni Hans, ngayon ay mas lalo ko atang kailangan siyang turuan ng leksyon.

Imbes na gawin niya ang gusto ko at mag behave, he’s doing everything so I’m the one who’ll behave like how he wants to. That’s so Hansy, persistent. Muli akong tumingin kay Peterson na mukhang problemado rin.

“Pete, what do you say about disciplining the both of them?” Seryoso kong tanong at napatitig naman siya saakin bago ngumiti.

“I’m in.” Ngisi niya at kami naman ang nagplano kung paano sila didisiplinahin.

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Hans

“What the hell is wrong with Peterson?” Napahalukipkip ako nang pumasok si kuya Oasis sa bahay at iyon agad ang bungad niya saakin nang maabutan niya ako sa sofa.

“I don’t know, ask Kaleb. They’ve been together for days now.” Wala sa hulog kong sagot. Hindi pa man nakakasagot si kuya Oasis ay lumabas mula sa kusina ang dalawang lalaking pinag-uusapan namin.

“The food is good, pumpkin. We gotta go.” Matalas kong sinundan ng tingin si Kaleb nang sabihin niya iyon.

“Why are you here? Gotta hang out with Hans? Enjoy.” Sabi rin ni Peterson na kasunod ni Kaleb. I gritted my teeth and I also saw kuya Oasis glaring at them.

They’ve been like this for three days now. Kaleb is acting like he doesn’t care about what I do anymore, even if I hang out with kuya Oasis all day, he doesn’t budge and that’s not him at all. I can feel that he’s pissed off about something I did that’s why he’s doing this, pero sa dami kong ginawa para pikunin siya ay hindi ko na alam kung alin doon. He doesn’t even touch me now! Sirang-sira iyong plano namin ni kuya Oasis na galitin siya para gawin niya ang gusto kong parusa para saakin, pati na iyong pag akto kong sobrang inosente para lang gawin niya ang gusto ko ay walang epekto! I even learned to cook! I hate this. And why is Peterson also joining forces with Kaleb?!

“Oh, really? The two of you are going to do this to us? Are you serious?” Nagsalita si kuya Oasis kaya natigil ang dalawa sa paglabas ng pinto ng bahay. I even cooked for these two and they just ignored everything I did!

“Why are you mad? You are going to hang out with Hans anyway. We have work.” Si kuya Oasis ang sumagot at nakatingin lang naman sakanila si Kaleb at hindi ito tumitingin saakin. This jerk.

“Let them be, kuya Oasis. Let’s hang out inside my room today, they can work their asses off while we play in my room.” Pang-iinis kong sabi habang nakatingin kay Kaleb. Nakita kong gumalaw ang kilay nito pero hindi pa rin tumingin saakin. This fucker! Ako na talaga ang naiinis sakaniya! Binabawian niya ako!

“That’s what I was gonna say, let’s enjoy our time together then. We are being neglected anyway.” Sumakay sa inis ko si kuya Oasis at inaya ako papunta sa kwarto. Tumayo ako at sumama sakaniya. Nilingon ko pa ang dalawa at talagang paalis na ang mga ito. Bwesit!

Nagdadabog kong sinara ang pinto sa kwarto ko at umupo sa kama. Sumunod naman agad saakin si kuya Oasis at sumalampak ng higa sa kama.

“All this just for you to have that kind of sex with Kaleb, Hans.” Reklamo ni kuya Oasis kaya sinamaan ko siya ng tingin.

“Hey, you were also so supportive of it. Don’t blame me.” Depensa ko. Well, the plan was just to make Kaleb do whatever I want, but I confessed to kuya Oasis that I want him to obey me all the time so he can also say yes to fucking me so hard. It’s stupid, actually. I know I was being a spoiled brat again, but it’s a preference I discovered when I was in New York. Because I was away with Kaleb, I discovered sex toys and I use them all the time thinking about Kaleb.

It was normal at first, I would imagine our previous sex while I’m playing with my toys, hanggang sa umabot iyon sa maraming imaginations of what he can possibly do to me. Kaleb is a big guy, and every time we have sex before, I really like it when he dominates me so much. Sunod-sunuran lamang ako sa mga gusto niyang gawin saakin sa kama, I love his powerful hands, he’s so strong and I want him to use it on me in bed. With those thoughts, whenever I play with my sex toys, my imaginations get wilder and wilder that it got to him slapping me, bruising my skin and even choking me. And I loved that thought, that’s why I made him do it with me the moment we had sex again, and I realized it’s not only the thought of it that I love. I want him to do it with me every time we have sex. Kuya Oasis called me freaky. I couldn’t deny it.

“Why don’t you just straight up tell him your preference, I’m sure he’ll consider it.” Umupo si kuya Oasis at sinabi iyon saakin. Napanguso ako.

“I’m embarrassed to confess that to him. Kaya nga ginagawa ko ang lahat para lang galitin siya dahil doon niya lang iyon ginagawa kapag gusto niya akong parusahan ’e. But it’s not working this time.” Nguso ko at natawa siya.

“Hans, I now believe that the more innocent the person is, the more freaky they are. You’re so fucking freaky, but I understand.” Ngiti niya. Iniwas ko ang tingin ko sakaniya at nainis nanaman dahil umabot pa kami sa puntong ito.

“Should I apologize to Kaleb? Kalilimutan ko na lang ’tong gusto ko, ayaw niya naman ’e.” Pagsuko ko dahil miss ko na siyang hindi galit saakin. I’ll just stick to our normal sex than nothing.

“Don’t, we are going to get what we want. I have a plan.” Excited na sabi niya pero umiling ako agad.

“No, I don’t want any of this anymore. Baka galit na talaga si Kaleb, I don’t like it.” Pag-ayaw ko pero napahiyaw ako nang itulak ako ni kuya Oasis pahiga sa kama.

“Hey!” Saway ko pero pinatahimik niya ako at itinuro ang pinto. Kunot-noo naman akong tumingin roon at nakita ko ang anino ng dalawang paa sa ibaba ng pinto. I immediately knew it was Kaleb and Peterson trying to hear what we were doing inside.

“We are still going to piss them off but more extreme now, I want to have a fight with that jerk Peterson, he’s so smug just because I let him have his way with me. And you, argue with Kaleb about your preference, make him understand while you’re both mad so you won’t get shy.” Kuya Oasis wickedly said. Napakurap-kurap ako sakaniya at nakagat ko ang labi ko. Is this okay? Shit, I’m getting nervous.

“How?” Tanong ko.

“Make a sound, sounds like we’re getting on it.” Ngisi ni kuya Oasis at kiniliti pa ako sa tagiliran.

“Kuya! Nooo.” Pinigilan ko siyang kilitiin ako kaya natatawa siyang tumigil at sinenyasan akong gawin ang sinasabi niya.

“Aren’t we being too much?” Tanong ko at napairap siya.

“It doesn’t hurt to be too much sometimes, besides, we’re just doing it because they’re also being stubborn.” Udyok niya pa saakin. Napaisip ako at bumalik ang inis ko sa pagtanggi-tanggi saakin ni Kaleb nitong nakaraang araw. He didn’t let me touch him and he didn’t touch me! I’m going to make him pay.

“What sound should I make?” Nagbubulongan kami para hindi kami marinig ng dalawa sa labas ng pinto. Ngumisi naman saakin si kuya Oasis bago siya ang naunang gumawa ng ingay.

“Yeahh~ Oh! Just like that, Hans..” Malakas niyang ungot kaya nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Hindi pa man ako nakakabawi sa gulat ay bumukas na ang pinto at nagmamadaling pumasok ang dalawa na galit pareho. Natumba pa sila pareho dahil sa pagmamadali. We both looked at them and to each other again before laughing out loud.

“Kunwari pa kayo, mga talunan talaga.” Umalis si kuya Oasis sa tabi ko habang sinasabi iyon at nang-iinis na tiningnan ang dalawa na parehong masama ang tingin saamin habang tumatayo sa pagkakatumba sa sahig.

“Piss off, Peterson.” He cursed Peterson and walked away, agad na sumunod sakaniya si Pete na galit siyang tinatawag. Ako naman ay napalunok nang makitang seryoso ang tingin saakin ni Kaleb. Isinara niya ang pinto bago nagsalita.

“What was that, Hans? You’re really getting into my nerves right now. You’re being so unreasonabl—” Pinutol ko ang sasabihin niya.

“I have reasons, and I know you know it too.” Pinantayan ko ang galit niyang tono kaya gumagalaw ang panga niyang lumapit saakin. I stay seated while looking up at him. Damn this jerk, even his angry face looks so good.

“Is that a valid reason to fool me like that? You know that I don’t like you hanging out with that prick!” Tumaas ang boses niya kaya naibuka ko ang bibig ko sa sobrang inis. I can’t believe he’s yelling at me.

“May boyfriend siya, okay? And you think I will cheat on you? I just want you to do what I want but you’re being so stubborn!” Sigaw ko pabalik at doon siya nanggigil. Tinulak niya ako pahiga sa kama at marahas na kinubabawan. He held my chin tightly and glared at me.

“Pumpkin, you really want me to wreck you so hard that you’re going to this length?” Gigil niyang tanong. I looked at him smugly and nodded my head. Marahas kong inalis ang pagkakahawak niya sa baba ko.

“Yes, I want you to dominate me, and I’ll submit.” Pag-amin ko. Inis naman siyang bumuntong-hininga at galit pa rin akong tinitigan.

“What’s so good about it that you want me to hurt you, Hans?” Natawa ako sa sinabi niya at matalas siyang tiningnan.

“Kaleb, it’s not hurting me, if ever, it’s turning me on so much when you do all of that. I told you, I like it. It’s my preference. I get so wet when you slap me while you’re so deep inside me. I love it when you choke me while pounding so hard into my hole, it feels like heaven. I feel so good when you pull my hair so hard that my eyes are already at the back of my head. It’s my kink!” Halos mawalan ako ng hininga sa sobrang haba ng sinabi ko. Humahangos akong tumingin sa itsura niya at napakurap-kurap siya saakin habang nagugulat sa mga sinabi ko. Tsk. Why did he think that he was hurting me?

“W-When did you find out about this shi—” Magtatanong sana siya ngunit pinigilan ko siya.

“I’ll tell you later, for now, can you do something about this.” Tiningnan ko ang naninigas kong ari at napatingin rin siya roon at hindi pa makapaniwalang natawa.

“You got hard just talking about your kink? Damn it, pumpkin. You really became a freak.” He whispered and I can hear a teasing hint on his tone. Hindi ko siya pinansin at inilapit ko ang mukha ko sa gwapo niyang mukha.

“Kaleb, from now on, don’t even think that it’s hurting me when you do that while we’re at it. It’s such a pleasure for me.” Mahina kong sabi habang dinudunggol ko ng labi ko ang nakabukas niyang mga labi. He licked his lips and the emotion in his eyes changed while looking at me. Ginalaw ko ang binti ko at dinama ang naninigas niya na ngayong ari. I smiled at him widely. Napapikit siya dahil sa ginawa ko. He also got turned on.

“If you’re really asking for it, then I guess I need to do my best for your freaky preference.” Sagot niya saakin bago ako marahas na padapain sa kama. I gasped and my mouth formed into an O when he pulled my hair.

“I’m going to fuck you so hard, pumpkin. This is your punishment that you like so much.” Bulong niya sa tenga ko at naramdam kong ibinaba niya ang suot kong short. I was anticipating a finger to be put inside me but I screamed in pain and pleasure when he immediately put his dick inside me.

“Fuck! Kaleb!” Hiyaw ko.

“Ohh…” I heard his loud groan before thrusting inside me recklessly.

“Fuck!” Mura ko at halos tumirik ang mga mata ko sa sarap at sakit na dulot ng ginagawa niya. He didn’t even prep me but he was fucking me so fine and I like it with little pain. Para akong lumulutang ngayon dahil sa higpit ng hawak niya sa buhok ko habang hindi mapatid ang mga ulos niya saakin.

I was moaning so loud because of how much I like it and I can also hear Kaleb’s groan and hisses from time to time. Maya-maya ay hinugot niya ang kalakihan niya saakin at pinatihaya ako sa kama bago mabilis na kubabawan. Inangat niya ang dalawang binti ko at inilagay iyon sa magkabilang balikat niya bago yumukod para lumapit sa mukha ko. Nakagat ko ang labi ko nang halos nasa gilid na ng mukha ko ang tuhod ko dahil sa ginawa niya. I feel so spread and I am actually so spread because of him.

“I don’t wanna hear another complaint from you, pumpkin. This is what you wanted and I’m giving it to you.” Mahina niyang sabi habang magkatitigan kami at ramdam na ramdam ko ang pagpasok sa entrada ko ng tigas na tigas niyang ari. My mouth slowly opened as his dick filled me up. Pinanuod niya kung paano bumalot ang sensyasyon sa mukha ko at kitang-kita ko rin kung paano nandilim ang mga mata niya roon.

“You look so fucking hot.” He said with his hoarse voice before fucking my brains out.

“Ah! Kaleb! Oh!!” He is so deep inside, I can feel it ramming my insides. Sarap na sarap ako sa ginagawa niya at alam kong ganon rin siya. If only he didn’t think that he was hurting me, matagal na sana itong nangyayari saamin. I know I have a masochist tendency but Kaleb was so careful with me and didn’t want to hurt me like that.

“Ah, fuck! Slow down!” I didn’t actually want him to slow down but I feel like I couldn’t breathe anymore. “Kale—” I was so shocked and stupefied when he slapped me hard. Malalaki ang mga matang napatingin ako sakaniya at tanging namumungay niya lamang na mga mata ang sumalubong saakin.

“I said no complaints, pumpkin. You asked for this.” He said with his hoarse voice that I almost smiled but he slapped me again.

“Oh! Shit, Kaleb..” Ungot ko dahil kasabay ng pagsampal niya saakin ay ang pagpupumilit bumaon ng kalakihan niya. It feels so fucking good.

“You like it so much?” Tanong niya. Hindi ako nakapagsalita dahil idiniin niya sakin ang kalakihan niya. Napaungot ako at nagulat pa nang hawakan niya ang leeg ko. He put pressure on the sides of my neck, choking me.

“Answer me, pumpkin. Do you like it that much? Hm?” He teased and I whimpered. Why the hell does it feel so good when I know he’s in control of me. I almost came with his sexy voice and lustful gaze. Tumango-tango ako sa tanong niya.

“I love it, Kaleb..” Nahihirapan ko pang sagot dahil sa mga kamay niya sa leeg ko. He gave me the most sexiest smile with satisfaction before ramming his rod so deep inside me. All I could do was scream my moans and my eyes are already at the back of my head while Kaleb is making my dream come true.

“Fuck! I’m coming!” I couldn’t breathe properly anymore because of how hard he is fucking me. Ang mga labi niya ay nasa leeg at dibdib ko, sumisipsip nang sumisipsip habang patuloy sa pag-araro sa butas ko. Hindi nagtagal ay nanginig ang buong katawan ko at halos mapatid ang ugat sa ulo ko nang lumukob saakin ang sarap ng rurok. I convulsed as I came and Kaleb groaned before ramming his dick furiously inside me.

“No! Kaleb! Stop!” Pigil ko sakaniya dahil napaka sensitibo ko pa dahil kakatapos ko lamang. Inilapit niya naman saakin ang mukha niya habang pareho kaming hinihingal.

“Did I ever told you that you can come without my permission, Hans?” Natigilan ako sa tanong niya at nakagat ko ang ibabang labi ko habang nakatitig sa galit niyang mukha. He’s so serious but his eyes tells me that he’s mad.

Shit, I know I’m really going to be fucked so hard like this is our last time. I’m not complaining though.

Mío

LONG RANTS BELOW! 👇

Don’t read it if u don’t want to be stressed and pissed like me lol

A/N: I was so pissed when I saw someone AGAIN

lowkey

complaining about the ‘unnecessary’ and ‘disgusting’ bed scenes I put in my stories and saying it’s making it cheap and low quality, like girl, I was always open about me being a smut writer and a novice at that. Ano ine-expect mong isulat ko? Homily? fym u came to my page and it’s so obvious that I AM A SMUT WRITER and then u proceed to read my books and then fucking complain about the bed scenes I make? You need to get checked. Lol, let me write what I want, this is my story. I have never even proclaimed that I make ‘HIGH QUALITY’ stories, this is only one of my hobbies since I was a teenager, I’m only twenty years old now and still learning shits 😬

Don’t even think that I am writing for your praises and to please any of you, I write because I feel happy and contented doing so. If you think you can dictate me about my story lines, u r so wrong honey. If u love my stories, I appreciate it so much and of course I feel happy about it, but it doesn’t mean that’s the sole reason I write. I have so many characters that I enjoy and want to give life to and I’ll do it even if no one wants it.

This is my first time na

papatol

sa mga

ganitong

comments kasi ilang beses na ko

nakakabasa

ng ganyan lol it’s nonsense, get out of my page if u don’t want the BS I write, no one is forcing u to read it.

At sa mga ayaw jan sa bottoms ko kasi they’re not the typical bottoms who always cry and let everyone stomp at them,

hinding-hindi

kayo

makakabasa

sa kahit anong story ko ng bottoms na hinahayaan sarili niyang maapi. It’s too cliche for me.

ANYWAY, STAY STUNED FOR MY UPCOMING NEW STORIES THAT I’LL BE PUBLISHING SOON! 😚

Cincuenta: Your cerulean blue eyes.

A/N:

This is only a

throwback when they first met in Kaleb’s POV :>

Kaleb’s

“Do I really have to go, pa?” Tanong ko habang nasa loob na kami ng

umaandar

na kotse papunta sa kung

saang

resort na sinasabi ng Papa. He wants me to attend with him to a wedding reception. He also said the newlyweds are both men.

“Yes, Kaleb. Arken Baltazar is a successful businessman that can be a big help for me, we need to go.” Sabi ng Papa habang nasa daan ang atensyon niya. Hindi ako

kumibo

sa sinabi niya ngunit

sinulyapan

niya ako at muling nagsalita.

“Don’t look at them weird just because they’re both men, Kaleb.” I almost rolled my eyes when he said that.

I know his business partner Mr. Baltazar and his partner, and I also know they have an adoptive son. I read an article about them and they have a cute son.

“I’m smarter than that, Dad.” Tanging sagot ko bago tumingin sa labas ng bintana. Hindi naman na siya

kumibo

pa kaya

lumipad

ang isip ko sa mga nangyari nitong mga

nakaraang

buwan kaya halos araw-araw akong wala sa hulog. I even feel like smoking again. At the age of fifteen, I learned how to smoke because of stress.

My father suddenly changed, and I guess it was because of my mom passing away. Isang taon na ang

nakalipas , I thought my father was just depressed, but these past few months, he completely changed. It’s like he’s not my father anymore. He entered business even tho he’s a politician, and he’s using me for that even tho I’m still going to school. He said because I’m smart but he had never made me do serious paperwork before, it’s stressing me out but I don’t want to disappoint him. I never wanted to disobey him even before.

I just hope this is still because of my mother’s death. I hope he can overcome this pain.

Agad akong bumaba ng kotse nang makarating kami sa resort na pupuntahan namin. It has a very colorful wide gate and above it was a welcome phrases and the resort’s name. Ke Aloha.

What a nice name.

Inakay ako ng papa na lumakad papasok at medyo malayo pa ang buhangin na nilakad namin bago ko narinig ang kasiyahan na nagaganap sa isang malaking bahay sa tabi ng resort. It’s a nice house.

“Pa, can I pee first? I really need to pee right now.”

Pagsisinungaling ko kahit na maninigarilyo lang naman ako kung saan. My Dad just nodded and entered the gate of the big house in front of us. Naghanap naman ako agad ng pwesto para mag yosi at may nahagip ang mga mata kong lumang kubo sa hindi kalayuan kung saan ako nakatayo. I walked towards it while lighting my cigarettes.

Binuksan ko ang pinto ng kubo at tiningnan ang loob niyon. Mukhang matibay pa naman kahit maliit at halatang luma na. Pumasok ako roon at umupo sa isang sulok. Sinara ko ang pinto at tumingala habang ibinubuga ang usok na galing sa bibig ko. Hindi pa man ako nakakailang hithit sa yosi ko at hindi ko pa man nailalabas ang lahat ng stress sa ulo ko ay may biglang nagmamadaling bumukas ng pinto kung nasaan ako.

I blinked twice when a small boy entered the cottage house and closed the door before kneeling and peeping outside. Napaiwas pa ako nang tumuwad siya at dahil maliit ang kubo ay halos nasa mukha ko na ang pang-upo niya. I almost laughed at the situation because it looks like he didn’t see me at all but I was intoxicated when I smell something from him.

He smells… good. Like a sweet pumpkin pie that I loved to always eat.

“Your fat ass is on my face, can you not?”

Mahina kong kuha ng atensyon niya ngunit nagitla pa rin siya at tumili. He even fell on his stance. Hindi naman ako nakakibo agad nang makita ko ang titig na titig niyang mga mata saakin.

Inipit

ko ang hawak kong sigarilyo sa bibig ko habang tinititigan siya.

What a beautiful pair of eyes. Cerulean blue.

I know him, he’s the cute son of those gay couple that just got married. I saw his picture on an article of Mr. Baltazar and he’s more adorable in person. Cute pair of cherry lips, red cheeks. I can complement everything about his adorable face. I want to bite his cheeks. Especially that he smells like my favorite food.

Natigilan ako sa pag-iisip nang bigla siyang gumalaw at mukhang tatayo na para umalis.

“Wait,” I didn’t know why I held his arm so he couldn’t run away. He looked at me with his innocent blue eyes again.

“B-Bakit?” I heard his tiny and nervous voice and I almost smiled at it. Hinila ko siya palapit saakin at kahit mahina lamang iyon ay natumba siya padagan sa katawan ko. Lihim akong natawa sa pagiging lampa niya. Ang gaan ng katawan niya. How old is he again?

“Aren’t you the son of that gay couple who just got married?” Tanong ko habang

palihim

kong

sinisinghot

ang amoy niya at sumisipsip sa hawak

kon

g

yosi

. Hindi pa rin naalis ang mga mata niya saakin hanggang sa

natauhan

siya at nagmamadaling inayos ang pagkakaupo niya sa harap ko. He look nervous, do I look scary?

“Y-Yes po, s-sino po kayo?” Utal niyang tanong sa maliit niya pa rin na boses. Mas lalo akong natuwa sa tanong niya. He doesn’t know me. Almost everyone in our town knows me because of my father. That’s also the reason why I don’t have friends, they’re all awkward around me everytime.

Ibinuga

ko ang

usok

sa bibig ko at nakangiting nagtanong sakaniya.

“You don’t know me?” I asked and I noticed that he keeps looking at my lips. Is it because I’m smoking? Or does he like my lips?

“Why do you keep staring at my lips? Want to kiss?”

Muli kong tanong at mukhang nagulat siya roon. He backed away and I almost laugh out loud. I’m just teasing him.

“N-No po, my Dad will be mad.”

Seryoso niyang sagot kaya nakagat ko ang labi ko para pigilang malakas na matawa. I looked down and chuckled before turning off the light of my cigarette. Muli akong tumingin sakaniya habang naaaliw sa pagiging cute niya.

“How old are you?”

Tanong ko dahil napaka inosente niya umakto. Umayos naman siya ng upo sa harapan ko and for the first time since he entered the cottage, he smiled at me. My eyes blinked twice. I don’t know why but my heart skipped a beat when he smiled.

“I’m turning thirteen po, next month. How about you po?” I stared at him for a second before answering. He doesn’t look like his age. He’s small.

“I’m fifteen, what’s your name?”

Muli siyang ngumiti saakin and I almost caressed my chest because it skipped a beat again. What the hell is happening to me?

“Hans Gabriel, how about you po?”

Sagot niya sa pinaka magalang na tono.

“Can you drop the po? My name is Kaleb, Kaleb Cabrera.” I told him and he nodded like a toddler.

“Kuya Kaleb, bakit ka nandito?”

I bit the inside of my cheeks when he cutely asked me. I stared at his face and I couldn’t help but put my face near him to smell him more. Why the hell am I getting hungry over his scent.

“I’m here to smoke, you smell like sweet pumpkin.”

Sagot ko habang nagtataka sa sarili kung bakit titig na titig ako sa mukha niya ngayon at ang kaninang paisa-isang sikdo ng puso ko ay mabilis na ngayon na parang hinahabol. We stared at each other, habang patagal nang patagal ang

titigan

namin ay

pabilis

rin nang

pabilis

ang

tibok

ng puso ko.

“Hans-” I couldn’t even think straight anymore when someone suddenly opened the door again and the boy in front of me got terrified. But I couldn’t care less, hindi ako nakapag pigil at hinalikan ko ang pisnge niya dahil halos nakadikit na rin iyon sa mga labi ko. I wanted to bite him but I might get slapped.

He looked at me like he just saw a ghost. I smugly smiled at him and raised one of my eyebrows.

“Kuya Kaleb!” Reklamo niya ngunit natawa lang ako dahil sa wakas ay lumakas rin ang boses niya.

“Hans!” Pareho kaming napatingin sa lalaking muling tumawag sakaniya at matalas na ang mga tingin nito saakin. He looks like my age. I didn’t do anything when the adorable boy whose name is apparently Hans suddenly got up and run away from the both of us. Tiningnan pa ako ng lalaking

tumatawag

sakaniya bago ito inis na sinundan si Hans.

Para akong sira ulong ngumiti nang mag-isa nang maalala ang amoy ng batang iyon at kung gaano kalambot ang pisnge niya. He caught my attention. I want to be around him.

Ilang minuto pa akong naroon habang nangingiti. I don’t know why but his presence made me feel lighter and everything he did in front of me earlier amused me for no reason at all. What a cute guy.

Sa isiping iyon ay lumabas ako ng kubo at lumakad papasok sa malaking gate ng bahay na pinasukan kanina ng papa. Hindi pa man ako nakakapasok nang tuluyan ay nakita ko na ang hindi naman karamihang tao ngunit muling naagaw ang atensyon ko ng batang lalaking nakaupo na ngayon sa lap ng asawa ni Mr. Baltazar. I read from the article that his name is Reihan Cubo-Baltazar. Also a successful architect.

Natigil ako sa paglalakad at nakatingin lamang ako kung paano lumaki ang mga ngiti ng lalaking iyon habang kausap ang dalawang tatay niya. Kung ako ang tatanungin, parang mapupunit na ang mga labi niya sa laki ng ngiti niya ngunit kahit malayo ay halata ang sobrang saya sa mga mata niya.

I saw my father walked up to them so I also quickly walk towards them. Nagtama pa ang mga mata namin at pinigilan kong mapangiti. I saw his expression getting nervous while biting his own lip.

“Oh, here’s my son, Kaleb, I’m sure you heard of him naman na, right? He will be following my footstep when he turns adult.”

Pinakilala ako ng papa habang hindi ko inaalis ang mga tingin sa batang lalaking nasa harap ko. Napayuko naman siya at kinain ang hawak niyang cake. Namumula na siya sa hiya, haha.

Nag-usap pa sila tungkol saakin bago

ipinakilala

ang batang

kalong-kalong

nila.

“Ah, yes, this is Hans Gabriel, soon to be a Baltazar once the adoption process is done. He’s also a brilliant kid but he’s only a kid so I want him to enjoy his childhood first.”

Pakilala ng isa sa papa niya bago siya ibinaba.

“Go to your Tito Kline, Hans, your daddy is just going to talk about adult work so you can go play with your friends.” Sabi ng papa niya na agad niyang sinunod habang may ngiti sa labi.

“Can I go with him, pa?” Agad kong tanong kay papa bago pa man makalayo si Hans. Walang nagawa si papa at tumango na lamang saakin. I know he wants me to just be beside him but I had my plans changed. I found a cute guy. Inakbayan ko si Hans nang makita kong inantay niya ako.

“No touching, Kaleb. He’s our only son, I’m very protective.”

Tumingala

ako kay Mr. Baltazar at peke itong nakangiti saakin. Binitawan ko naman agad si Hans. So they’re really protective of him like what I’ve heard.

“Yes, sir.”

Magalang

kong sabi bago kami

naglakad

ni Hans paalis roon.

“Strict parents, huh?”

Basag ko sa katahimikan. Nakagat niya naman ang labi niya at hindi

umimik

kaya nagsalita muli ako.

“We should be friends, pumpkin, I’m sure you will enjoy my company.”

Alok ko bago siya muling inakbayan. Lihim pa akong napangiti nang talasan niya ako ng tingin. So he can also get mad.

“My Daddy said no touching, kuya Kaleb.” Strikto niyang sabi kaya natawa ako.

“What a good boy, can’t wait for that to be change.”

Nginisihan ko siya at nakita kong napailing lamang siya saakin.

My plan was to change him into a not so innocent kid, but I was a fool because I was the one who changed for him. I was a rebellious kid, but because of him, I turned into a complete gentleman.

Hans can work wonders.

Mío

A/N: Next is their proposal and wedding, two more chapters to go. Nag throwback ako because this is relevant to their vows 🥰

Anyways sorry sa super late UD, na-adik nanman kasi ako sa TV shows and Anime 😔

Cincuenta y uno

A/N: I want to

write this chapter in someone’s POV because I feel like I will express it more vividly. Baka sa sunod na chapter din naka third POV.

I’ll definitely write an extra chapter after their wedding.

Peterson’s

“Do you think he will say yes?” Napairap ako sa paulit-ulit na tanong ni Kaleb. Ilang beses niya na iyon naitanong saakin ngayong araw.

“Kaleb, that guy you’re going to propose to literally sacrifice his own sanity for you. Of course he will say yes.” Naiinis kong paliwanag dahil kanina pa siya hindi mapakali. Hans is out of the country because of his work, dalawang araw siya roon at mamayang hapon ang balik nila, kasama niya si Oasis kaya wala rin akong magawa at tumatambay na lamang sa opisina ni Kaleb. This is the last time we will be here, because his terms have already ended. Nandito na lamang siya para sa mga huli niyang pipirmahan para tuluyan siyang makababa sa pwesto. Both him and Hans were so excited about this, the position and responsibilities that made them suffer for a long time are finally going to end. Ngayon nga ay gusto na itali ni Kaleb si Hans.

“I’m still nervous for his answers. I think my chest is going to burst when I’m finally kneeling in front of him and asking the question.” Kaleb has been planning about his marriage proposal to Hans for months now. May singsing na siya at nasakanya na iyon hindi pa man sila nagkakaayos ni Hans.

“More importantly, have you told this to tito Arken and tito Rei?” Tanong ko dahil na-busy rin ako nitong mga nakaraang araw. I was wooing Oasis who is so hard to get. May nangyari na saamin at lahat ay matigas pa rin ang puso nito saakin. He’s so cold hearted.

“Of course. I was also so nervous when I asked for their permission, akala ko hihimatayin ako.” Exaggerated niyang sabi pero nakangiti na abot mata. Natawa ako bago siya pinagmasdan. When I was working with Kaleb when he became the Governor, I’ve never imagined that he can also be a bright smiley person. He was always gloomy, the vibe that always surrounds him was dark and lonely. I have never seen him smile at first, the first time I saw it was when he first saw Hansy on a big billboard outside his office. That’s when I know he was heartbroken and longing for his loved one, I thought he was like that by choice. Kaya nga nang pagkatiwalaan niya akong sundan si Hans sa New York, agad ko siyang sinunod.

“Did they give you their permission?” Tanong ko pa kahit alam ko naman na ang sagot. Hans parents also know how hard it was for Kaleb and Hans. I’m just glad that Hans is already recovering from his psychological conditions, Kaleb was really the cure. And of course, his therapist.

“Yes, but tito Arken was still so strict. He told me that they’re going to give us a house, malapit lang sakanila since Hans was away for a long time because of me.” Napanguso siya at napailing ako. I’m sure if he rejected it, tito Arken will respect that. But Kaleb is always saying yes to tito Arken, kahit na minsan ay halata naman na inaasar lang siya nito. He’s scared of him. I understand him, tito Arken is so intimidating.

“That’s nice, may bahay na kayo. Saan kayo magpapakasal kung sakali?” Tanong ko pa at muling lumiwanag ang mukha niya.

“Denmark. You will be my best man.” Malaki ang ngiting sabi niya. Napapailing akong napangiti rin. He doesn’t have any friends other than me. Paano ay seloso, ang sabi niya saakin ay nung maging malapit siya kay Hans ay hindi na siya nagbalak magkaroon ng lalaking kaibigan dahil baka magustuhan rin si Hans. Kapag babae naman raw ay baka mag selos si Hans. Every decision he made when he met Hans, lahat iyon ay laging kasali si Hans. He’s so head over heels to him.

“Alright. Susunduin ko ba mamaya si Hans or will you do it?” Tanong ko.

“Ako na. Alam mo namang simple lang ang gagawin kong proposal, Hans doesn’t want me to go overboard. And I also want this to be meaningful. Get ready though.” Tumango ako sa sinabi niya. Nakahanda na lahat pati kung saan siya luluhod at magtatanong kay Hans.

“Honestly, Kal. I didn’t know both of you would end up together. Both of you have been through a lot.” Hindi ko mapigilang komento. Natigil naman siya sa ginagawa niya at napapangiting napatango rin sa sinabi ko.

“I know. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t that much of a loser, you know? Sana lahat nagawan ko ng paraan para hindi kami nagkalayo at hindi nagdusa si Hans, but I didn’t have a choice. Pero kahit ganon, I would’ve never given up on us. No matter what.” Nakangiti siyang tumingin saakin. “I will always make sure that we will end up together. I don’t want a life without him.” Seryoso niyang sabi pero ramdam ko ang pagiging sincere niyon. I nodded at him. Natutuwa rin ako sa kinalabasan ng lahat ng sakripisyo nilang dalawa.

“You weren’t a loser, in fact, I admired your perseverance when Hans left.” Seryoso ko rin na sabi. He chuckled.

“Just having Hans beside me, that was all worth it, Pete.” Pareho kaming napangiti sa sinabi niya.

Will my perseverance with Oasis cold heart also be worth it someday? I really hope so.

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Nakatago ako sa likod ng kubo habang inaantay na makarating si Kaleb at Hans. Kaleb has been texting me that they’re already near the resort. I’m at Ke Aloha, sa kubo kung saan unang nagkita si Kaleb at Hans. Kaleb wants to propose here. He wants it to be simple. He just decorated the inside of the hut but he didn’t let me see it. Nandito rin ako sa likod dahil may pinapagawa siya saakin kapag lumuhod na raw siya. He’s so cheesy. So far from the serious Kaleb I know.

“Can the both of you shut up? Kaleb, gusto lang naman sumama ni kuya Oasis probably because he wants to see Pete. You said Pete is at my parents house.” Natauhan ako sa pag-iisip nang marinig ko ang inis na boses ni Hans. Napasilip pa ako mula sa pinagtataguan ko at nakita kong matalas ang tinginan ni Oasis at Kaleb habang kunot na kunot ang noo ni Hans na pinagsasabihan sila.

“Hey, I’m not here for that prick. I’m here for tito Reihan and tito Arken.” Oasis said and I silently chuckled. I’m sure he’s here for me. Tinadtad ko kasi siya ng text na sobrang miss ko na siya. He might be cold hearted especially his mouth, but I know he also cares for my feelings. Yun nga lang, mukhang care pa lamang ang nararamdaman niya saakin.

“I don’t care, get out of here. Go to tito Arken, just don’t bother us.” Halata ang kaba sa boses ni Kaleb habang pinapaalis si Oasis. I’m sure he’s freaking nervous right now. Nagtataka pa ang mukha ng dalawa sa tono ni Kaleb. Napairap si Oasis at naglakad paalis sa harapan nila. Agad ko namang nilabas ang selpon ko para i-text siya sa gagawin ni Kaleb. I forgot to tell him earlier.

“Ayaw mo bang pumasok, hon?” Itinago kong muli ang selpon na hawak ko at napairap pa ako sa malambing na tono ni Hans. I didn’t know he called him hon. What a sweet brat. Simula nang nagkabalikan sila, bumalik ang madalas na pagiging malambing at softy ni Hans. He’s still a brat of course, but everyone can see that his barrier weaned down when Kaleb and him got back together.

“No, maybe later. I missed you a lot. I want to be with you right now.” Muli ko silang sinilip at nakita kong hinawakan ni Kaleb ang kamay ni Hans at humarap sila sa gate ng kubo. Kaleb smiled while staring sentimentally at the small hut. Hans was looking at him weirdly.

“Do you want to have sex inside our kubo? Is that it?” Taka ni Hans at pinigilan kong malakas na matawa. He just ruined Kaleb’s sentimental eyes. I want to laugh so hard.

“What? No. I mean, I will never say no to making love with you. But I just really want to make more meaningful memories with you in this kubo of ours, pumpkin.” Kaleb smoothly said bago niya inakay si Hans papasok sa gate. Kaleb was walking slowly. Hans is still looking at him with confusion while Kaleb is staring weirdly at the small hut. Napabuntong-hininga ako. Ang bagal niya! I’m sure he’s still so nervous that Hans might say no.

“Hon?” Hans asked. Huminga naman ng malalim si Kaleb bago nakangiting tumingin kay Hans na nagtataka sa inaakto niya.

“We made a lot of memories here, pumpkin. This is where we first met, our first making love, and lots of beautiful memories.” Panimula ni Kaleb. Napatitig naman sakaniya si Hans bago napangiti. His smile is so soft and so do his stares while looking at Kaleb who’s still looking so nervous.

“And I know, marami din tayong masamang alaala sa kubo na ito. This is where I first saw you cry, this where we always have to hide from the people who don’t want to see us together because of my standing in life. All I’m saying is, this place witnessed our happiest and saddest moments, and I want it to witness a lot more beautiful memories of us…” Napahinto siya at nakita ko pang napalunok ang loko. Is he going to freaking cry? “Do you also want that, my pumpkin?” Halos mautal pa siya sa pagtanong niyon.

I looked at Hans who chuckled while looking at Kaleb so adoringly. Mukhang may idea na siya sa gagawin ng loko.

“I’ve never wanted more than to be with you, Kaleb. Why are you suddenly being so emotional? Is there something wrong?” Napailing ako. I thought nahalata niya na. Gosh, both of them are really so naive sometimes. Especially when it comes to each other’s action.

“I’m alright. This is just my love for you, overflowing.” I almost wanted to puke because of his cheesiness. Ang baduy ng gago.

“Really? Did you miss me so much?” Biro ni Hans at nangingiting tumango naman si Kaleb sakaniya.

“I do. I don’t want you to go so far away again, pumpkin. I have something for you.” Halata ulit ang kaba sa mukha ni Kaleb nang may kunin siya sa loob ng bulsa ng suot niyang pantalon. I smiled when I saw the wooden box he had been carrying for years now.

“What’s that?” Taka ni Hans ngunit halata ang excitement at kuryusidad sa boses nito. Kaleb bit his lip and opened it. Napailing ako kasabay ng pag-irap nang makita ko ang dalawang kahoy na singsing na may naka kurbang mga letra. It’s wooden rings with silver on each side to hold it. The other one has pumpkin

carved letters, while the other one has Kaleb’s name but has a tiny vegetable pumpkin carved beside his name. He made it himself when Hans left.

“Wow. Did you buy this while I was away for two days?” Tanong ni Hans na halata ang tuwa sa boses at mga mata habang sinisipat ang ipinapakitang singsing ni Kaleb.

“I made this years ago, when you left.” Natigilan si Hans at napatingin sa nakangiting mukha ni Kaleb na nakatitig rin sa mukha niya. Both of their eyes are glistening while looking at each other. “Gawa sa kahoy ng kubong ito, kung saan tayo unang nagkita.” Napangiti ako nang sabihin niya iyon at halata ang gulat sa mukha ni Hans nang biglang lumuhod si Kaleb gamit ang isang tuhod sa harapan niya. Mabilis kong ginawa ang kailangan kong gawin kaya ako narito. I turned on the warm lights surrounding where they are. Hans shocked face looked around the lights suddenly surrounding them. Mukha itong mga alitaptap na pinapalibutan sila.

I saw the nervousnes yet pursuing emotions in Kaleb’s eyes when he held the wooden box in front of Hans who finally realized what was about to happen. Biglang tumulo ang mga luha ko kasabay ng mga luha ni Hans habang pareho kaming nakatingin kay Kaleb.

“Hans, my pumpkin. I kneel here, in front of you and in front of this kubo where I found my forever solace, you. This ring comes from our Kubo, the place that has seen our laughter, our hard times, and our dreams. It’s not just a reminder that we are together, it’s a promise that we will build our life together, bit by bit, just like this little house stands strong through every rolling season.” I saw both of them trying not to cry so hard, but even with their eyes glistening because of tears, it can’t hide the love and adoration they have for each other.

“My Hans Gabriel, my pumpkin. Will you marry me?” Sa wakas ay naitanong din iyon ni Kaleb. Hans was already bawling his eyes out while nodding his head at Kaleb.

“Yes. Of course, my love. I will happily do so.” Sagot ni Hans at doon lamang nawala ang kaba sa mukha ni Kaleb. Ngumiti ito nang malaki bago nagmamadaling tumayo at niyakap nang mahigpit si Hans. Umiwas ako ng tingin nang maglapat ang mga labi nila.

“I love you so much, pumpkin.”

“I love you so much, my Kaleb.” Napangiti ako sa narinig.

That was the most beautiful engagement proposal I’ve ever witnessed. Very simple yet holds a very deep meaning. It was so sentimental for both of them. Napailing ako at natawa. I actually cried because of both of them. I didn’t just witness their proposal, I also witnessed their story where both of them really fought to be with each other’s side. I’m glad they ended up together.

Lalabas na sana ako ng pinagtataguan ko ngunit may nahagip ang mga mata ko.

My heart immediately clenched when I saw Oasis looking at Hans and Kaleb and his face was contorted in pain. He was crying when he met eyes with me. Not in happiness like me, but in pain.

Mío

A/N: This was a draft I just edited. I’m really busy right now so I can’t write a lot. I’ll be back soon.

Miss u guys. :>

Cincuenta y dos: #PumpkinHeartsKaleb

A/N:

I’VE

BEEN CONTEMPLATING ON WHOSE POV

I’LL

WRITE THIS CHAPTER FOR A LONG TIME, I WANTED TO WRITE THIS IN THIRD POV BUT I DECIDED

I’LL

BE DOING IT IN

KALEB’S

& PETERSON.

THIS WAS ALSO SUPPOSED

TO BE THE EPILOGUE BUT I DON’T FEEL LIKE ENDING IT HERE SO QUICKLY FOR THE BOTH OF THEM. Maybe next chapter.

Please listen to their wedding song above while reading this!Grow as we go by Ben Platt!👆🏼

PS: This is my first time writing a wedding scene so bear with me.

Kaleb’s

“Relax. Your bride won’t run away.” Ani ni Peterson. Napahangos akong muli habang tinitingnan ko ang sarili ko sa salamin. It’s a beach wedding so I’m only wearing a white loose polo paired with a white shorts that’s showing my knees.

“I couldn’t even sleep last night thinking about what will happen today, Pete. Fuck, this is my freaking dream since I met Hans.” Ramdam ko ang kaba sa dibdib ko ngunit bukod roon ay puno rin ako ng excitement dahil sa wakas ay magiging asawa ko na si Hans sa araw na ito.

“Ano ka ba, diba ito naman ang plano mo noon pa? Why are you so nervous right now?” Taka pa ni Pete dahil halos magpawis na ako sa sobrang nerbyos. Ilang minuto na lang ay kailangan ko na lumabas sa kwartong ito at antayin si Hans sa harap ng magkakasal saamin.

“I just can’t believe it. Alam mo naman na marami kaming napagdaanan ni Hans, hindi lang ako makapaniwala na saakin pa rin siya hanggang ngayon. I feel like crying, fuck!” Napamura ako nang mangilid ang luha ko. Shit. What the hell is happening to me. I feel so emotional right now.

I heard someone chuckled.

“Me too, I can’t believe he still chose you.” I looked at the guy who entered the room and it was Oasis. Napansin kong nakatingin siya kay Peterson ngunit ang huli ay hindi siya pinansin. Nag-aaway ba sila? On the day of my wedding?

“But hey, he did. So make this day the most special day for him. Take care of him, Kaleb.” Oasis offered a fist bump and I still nervously accepted it.

“Alright. Stop thinking about anything unnecessary. You need to go out, wait for Hans, and be the man he deserves.” Sa wakas ay nagsalita na ulit si Pete at inakay ako palabas. Hindi niya pa rin pinapansin si Oasis ngunit masiyadong marami ang nasa isip ko para pansinin pa ang nangyayari sakanilang dalawa. I’ll ask later or tomorrow.

Mas lalo ata akong kinabahan nang makita ko ang maraming upuan sa malapit sa pampang kung saan kami ikakasal. We are getting wed at one of Denmark’s beautiful beaches and our friends and families are here. The wedding was set up beautifully. White gold chairs are lined up where the visitors are sitting. There were a lot of flowers and designs and all of it was my pumpkin’s choice. Plinano namin itong magkasama but I made sure I’ll make his wedding dream come true kaya hinayaan kong siya ang pumili ng lahat ng gusto niyang mangyari sa kasal namin.

“Look alive, son. Take care of my only child.” Ngumiti ako nang salubungin ako ni tito Arken at niyakap ako nito nang mabilis. Natigilan pa ako nang makita ko sa likod niya si tito Reihan na lumuluha na.

“I can’t believe my son is already grown up to get married.” Emosyonal niyang sabi bago rin ako niyakap. Hindi ako nakaimik at napangiti na lamang ako nang pagkatapos niya akong yakapin ay inayos niya ang suot ko bago muling tumingin saakin.

“Your father is here, but I told him not to get near you since you don’t want to.” Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya bago napatango. Why is he here? He wants to be here? Matagal na kaming hindi nag-uusap ng Papa. I shrugged it off because I don’t want to ruin this day for me and my pumpkin. As long as he won’t be making a scene, I’m fine with it. I was supposed to do a formal entrance because I am the groom after all, but I suggested not to even tho tito Arken offered to walk with me. I’m more comfortable just waiting for Hans walk towards me as we anticipate getting tied to each other officially.

“Go wait for Hans.” Tito Arken said. I said my thank you’s to both of them and me and Pete already walked up to where I have to wait for Hans ngunit umalis rin siya agad dahil mamaya pa ang entrance niya kasama ang maid of honor ni Hans. Ngumiti pa ako sa mga bisita na mostly ay pamilya ng mga friends ni tito Arken at tito Reihan. Some of Hans friends and my two friends, Walter and Pete. Peterson is my best man. Nakita ko pa si Papa na nakatayo sa hindi kalayuan saamin. Nakatunghay siya saakin ngunit hindi na ako tumingin pa sakaniya. This day is for me and Hans, not for anyone else.

Ilang minuto pa akong naghintay bago nagsimulang kumanta ang singer sa kasal namin. I looked at the white curtains that were set at the entrance of the ceremony.

The song Hans let me pick started playing.

♪ You say there’s so much you don’t know

You need to go and find yourself

You say you’d rather be alone

’Cause you think you won’t find it tied to someone else ♪

Kasabay ng pagkanta ng singer ay siyang paglabas ng mga abay namin. I smiled when the flower girls and boys that are mostly the kids and friends of tito Arken and tito Reihan started walking the aisle. They tossed petals all around their paths and I couldn’t help but smile through my nervousness. Ilang beses akong lumunok nang makita ko ang Lola ni Hans na siyang ring bearer namin. I smiled as a tear fell down on my cheek.

♪ Ooh, who said it’s true

That the growing only happens on your own?

They don’t know me and you ♪

Hans parents told me about their story with lola Rein, it wasn’t beautiful, but it has a happy ending. Hans was the one who requested for her to be our ring bearer, he said it’s an official scream of his grandmother’s love for our community, and I think it’s beautiful. Nagtama ang mga mata namin ni lola Rein na siyang tuwang-tuwa nang sabihin namin na siya ang maghahatid ng singsing saamin ni Hans. We both smiled at each other while tears were flowing in our eyes.

♪ I don’t think you have to leave

If to change is what you need

You can change right next to me

When you’re high, I’ll take the lows

You can ebb and I can flow

And we’ll take it slow

And grow as we go

Grow as we go ♪

Lumakas ang kabog ng dibdib ko nang pumasok si Peterson kasama si ate Lev na siyang kapatid ni Oasis. Both of them have a big smile on their faces but my heart keeps thumping so loud while they’re both nearing me. Nang matapos ang paglalakad nila ay tumigil yata ang paghinga ko kasabay ng ingay sa paligid.

♪ Ooh, who said it’s true

That the growing only happens on your own?

They don’t know me and you ♪

All I could hear was our wedding song and when my pumpkin finally entered the aisle, all I could see was him.

What a beautiful man.

Bumuhos ang luha sa mga mata ko habang pinagmamasdan siyang mabagal na lumakad habang saakin lamang nakatingin. Kasama niya si tito Arken at tito Reihan ngunit siya lamang ang nakikita ng mga mata ko. He’s wearing something similar to mine but because he’s the one wearing it, it looks so classy and elegant. But what made me cry was the genuine smile on his lips and even tho he’s still far away from me, the genuine happiness in his eyes are beaming and I know everyone can see it.

My happiness is overflowing too, my pumpkin.

Habang palapit na palapit siya saakin ay pawala nang pawala ang kabang nararamdaman ko. I felt like I’m floating. All I can feel now is the overflowing happiness within me.

“I trust you with my only son, Kaleb.” Nang makalapit sila saakin ay niyakap ako ni tito Arken.

“I love the both of you, my sons. Be happy.” Ganon rin ang ginawa saakin ni tito Reihan na umiiyak pa rin. He kissed me on my cheeks and my tears couldn’t stop flowing still.

♪ I don’t know who we’ll become

I can’t promise it’s not written in the stars

But I believe that when it’s done

We’re gonna see that it was better

That we grew up together

Tell me you don’t wanna leave

’Cause if change is what you need

You can change right next to me

When you’re high, I’ll take the lows

You can ebb and I can flow

We’ll take it slow

And grow as we go

Grow as we go

Grow as we go

Grow as we go ♪

“Pumpkin..” Ani ko nang sa wakas ay nasa harap ko na ang pinakamamahal ko. I caressed his face and he immediately melt with my touch while we’re both looking at each other.

“We will grow as we go, my Kaleb.” He whispered and I know from the moment on, he will never have to leave again.

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Peterson’s

I fixed the way I’m sitting when the officiant told Kaleb and Hans to say their vows to each other. Humarap sila sa isa’t-isa at wala pa man ay parang maiiyak na silang pareho. I just know they’re both so happy right now.

“Ahem, how could I start this?” Nagsimula si Kaleb na halata pa rin ang kaba sa boses. May hawak siyang papel kung saan niya sinulat ang wedding vows niya. He held the mic and started reading while still glancing at Hans who’s only looking at him dreamingly.

“Pumpkin, I might not have told you this, but I met you when I was at my worst. Ang akala ng iba, pinangarap ko talagang magsilbi bilang isang politiko, but no, that same day we met, my life was starting to change, not to something better, but worst.” Panimula ni Kaleb. Lahat kami ay nakatutok ang mga mata sakanilang dalawa.

“Unwanted responsibilities started weighing me down when I lost my mother, but luckily for me, I met you. Nagsisimula pa lang ang delubyo sa buhay ko noon, but ironically, God gave me you. When I first met you, you look so innocent and even act like one. I actually don’t know what’s with you, maybe it’s your innocent cerulean blue eyes or the way you’re just so pure, but you immediately made me want to be the best version of myself.” Napangiti ako nang maalala ang sinabi saakin noon ni Kaleb.

He said he was only fifteen but he’s already smoking because of work stress. Maaga siyang binigyan ng responsibilidad, but he said he couldn’t remember all the stress when he was a teenager after he met Hans. Dahil sa araw-araw raw na pumapasok siya sa eskwela at maag t-trabaho sa hapon, ang tanging iniisip niya lang raw noon ay tapusin ang lahat ng gawain para mapuntahan si Hans. He said that’s all he could remember during his teenage years with Hans. He was really a sucker for love.

“If someone’s going to ask me how I kept going after losing my mom? I would answer it’s because of you, and it’s not because I love you so much, you just really did save me, pumpkin. And I know not everything was rainbow and sunshine for us, and I want to say I’m really sorry if I ever acted cowardly and wasn’t the man you deserve. I will forever regret the days that I was lacking, pumpkin.” Napakurap-kurap ako nang sabihin niya iyon. I saw Hans shooking his head at him. Hans and I both know he did everything he can.

Noong mga panahon na kakasimula niya lang bilang Gobernador. Alam kong halos lahat ng nasa paligid niya ay kinakalaban siya at pilit siyang pinapasuko, but he didn’t, kahit wala siyang ni isang kakampi sa tabi niya. And I actually asked him why he’s still not giving up, his answers? Because he’s still going to get his pumpkin back. Nung una ay hindi ko siya maintindihan, halos gawin siyang aso ng black market pero tiniis niya lahat mag-isa para lamang sa pagbalik ni Hans, hindi na ito madamay pa sa gulo. He might not have protected him from everything, but he gave all he had, walang natira para sa sarili niya. Hindi man iyon naging sapat, pero ubos na ubos niyang binigay ang lahat para kay Hans. And that’s why I’m still standing beside him. He has my respect.

“But today, in front of everyone we love, I promise to be your forever safe place, your biggest fan, and your softest landing. I promise to hold your hand when days are hard and dance with you when life is sweet. I will grow with you, learn with you, and stand by you, always. You are my home. You are my heart. And from now on, I will choose you over everything, every day, for the rest of my life. I promise to give you stability and security, my love. I love you with my life, my pumpkin.” Dama ng lahat ang seguridad na gustong ibigay ni Kaleb sa mapapangasawa niya. And I know Hans can feel it the most.

I saw both of them tearing up. Kinuha ni Hans ang mic at ang sulat na inihanda niya. I listened carefully when he started his vows.

“Kaleb, my man. My very-very humble man, you also change my life when I met you. You didn’t just colored it, but you also made it shine. When I met you, I was already in a happy family with both of my fathers, but I didn’t know meeting you would make me more happier than I have ever been in my whole life. You are part of what I am today, and I’m forever grateful for you, my love.” Halata sa boses ni Hans na gustong-gusto niyang umiyak ngunit pinipigilan niya iyon.

“I know you regret and blame yourself because of the unhappy things that happened to us, the challenge that made us who we are today. I know it too well, my love. When you learned about my condition because of our separation, there’s not a night I didn’t saw you cry. And I asked you, why? And your answer made me love you more.” Lumunok si Hans. “You told me you couldn’t fathom that you made me feel that way, that you made me think the unthinkable, that you weren’t there with me at my lowest. And you even said that if you knew that was going to happen with me, you would’ve make me run away with you and not think of anyone else.” Some of them chuckled including Hans. Ibinaba niya ang hawak-hawak niyang sulat at nakangiting tumingin kay Kaleb na titig na titig sakaniya. I know what he’s saying. Nang malaman ni Kaleb ang nangyari kay Hans habang wala siya sa tabi nito, something died inside him. He tried hiding it from us, but we all knew he’s always blaming himself because of Hans being suicidal. Nakwento rin saakin ni Hans na nakikita niya itong umiiyak tuwing gabi and he would embrace Hans and said his sorry for not being with him at that time. After all this time, he still cannot forgive himself.

“But baby, it wasn’t your fault. None of us are at fault, Kaleb. It was meant to happen, and it made our bond stronger, my love. Pareho nating ipinaglaban kahit matagal na panahon tayong wala sa tabi ng isa’t-isa, kahit sobrang layo ng naging pagitan natin sa isa’t-isa, our love stayed the same. And if that’s still not enough for us to be with each other, I don’t know what is.” Pinunasan ko ang butil ng luhang pumatak sa mata ko. Hans caressed Kaleb’s face. Kaleb is still crying while melting to his partner’s touch. Everyone can see that he really appreciate what Hans is saying.

“People might wonder why after all those pain and hardships to be with you, I still choose to be by your side. Kaleb, it’s because you saw me for who I really am, and you loved me more because of it. Naging matagal man dahil kailangan mo akong protektahan, but when the right time came, you made me feel like I never have to hide again, and with you, I feel completely whole. I promise to love you without condition, to laugh with you in joy and hold you in sorrow. I promise to listen, to support, and to grow with you, no matter where life takes us. You are the calm in my storm, the smile in my morning, and the warmth in my heart.” Both of them smiled at each other before Hans said the last line of his vows. It’s true that Kaleb made him feel seen and Hans never had to hide again when they reconciled. Halos ata buong Pilipinas ay nalaman na siya ang pinakamamahal ng dating governor dahil sa national TV pa nito ipinagkakandarapa si Hans, hindi lamang sa pang araw-araw niyang post sa social media niya. And I know Kaleb, he’s not the type of person to post on social media if not for his political position before. Gusto niya lang talagang bumawi kay Hans.

“I choose you, again and again, with all that I am. Always.” Yumuko ako nang tuluyang bumuhos ang mga luha sa mga mata ko. I can’t believe a grown man like me will cry over my friends vows. They just really deserve to be with each other.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and my heart thumped when I saw Oasis looking over me. Halata rin ang saya sa mga mata niya.

“I now pronounce the both of you husband and husband, you may now kiss each other.” Muling nabaling ang mga mata ko kila Kaleb nang sabihin iyon ng officiant. Both of them caressed each other’s face and claimed each other’s lips. Lahat kami ay tumayo upang pumalakpak at ang mga flower girls ay nagsimulang sumaboy ng mga puting flower petals.

Nanatili akong nakatitig sakanila. Para akong nabunutan ng tinik sa dibdib habang pinagmamasdan silang ngiting-ngiti habang nakatitig sa isa’t-isa.

Hans, you are healed. And Kaleb, you really got your pumpkin back.

The two people I watched at their lowest when they were apart, are now happily married.

Best wishes.

Mío

A/N: Honeymoon next?

EPILOGUE

Hans

“Pumpkin, please..” Humigpit ang yakap saakin ng asawa ko mula sa likod. Nakaupo ako ngayon sa harap ng study table ko habang may binabasang libro. It’s been six months since we got married and last month, I decided to go back to school to finish my studies. I want to help him with his business and probably quit modeling as my main job. I want it to be just a hobby or a side hustle. The reason? My husband, Kaleb.

“No. I need to review, may exam ako bukas.” Matigas kong ani dahil kaninang umaga pa ata siya nagpupumilit na makipagtalik saakin. I’ve been busy and we’ve only been doing quickies because of my schedules. Siya rin naman ang rason kung bakit gusto kong mag-aral ulit. Dahil lagi na lang may kaaway ang loko tuwing nag m-model ako. He’s so possessive, lahat ng lalaking lumalapit saakin kahit mga photographer, make up artist or wardrobe stylists and even my co-models ay muntikan niya nang masuntok lahat. Pinag-awayan na nga namin iyon but he will never change, Kaleb will remain possessive over me kahit pa magkamatayan na. Kahit nga billboards ko ay pinapaalis niya kapag revealing ang suot ko! Pambihira.

“But I really want you right now, please? It’ll be quick, babe.” He started sniffing my neck and caressed my chest. Napapikit ako nang ilang segundo ngunit nilabanan ko ang pang a-akit niya saakin.

“No, ang quicky mo umaabot ng isang oras. And I know you’re pent up, hindi mo na ako papakawalan kung pumayag man ako ngayon.” I’m actually punishing him right now. Dahil sa pagiging sobrang possessive niya. I’m seriously adjusting and changing my career so he will stop being a jerk to my co-workers. Kontento na rin naman ako sa naabot ng career ko, so maybe a change to be with Kaleb all the time is a good plan. Madalas rin kasi ang paglabas ko ng bansa para sa trabaho ko.

“Are you trying to kill me? You know I can’t live without pounding you every day, pumpkin.” I chuckled at what he said. Mukhang maiiyak na ang tono niya but I know better than to say yes to his request. Gusto ko rin naman at alam kong alam rin iyon ni Kaleb, but I’m really studying because I have exams tomorrow.

“Kill agad? Matulog ka na nga.” Saway ko pa sakaniya. Binitawan niya ako at narinig ko siyang bumubuntong hininga habang papalayo. Ang akala ko ay sumuko na siya kaya napapailing akong ngumiti habang patuloy ang pagbabasa sa librong nakapatong sa lamesa ko. Ilang minuto lang akong ganon nang biglang may kumuha sa parehong kamay kong nakapatong sa lamesa. Mabilis ang naging pangyayari at naramdaman kong naigapos na ang mga iyon sa likod ng upuan kung saan ako nakaupo. Gulat na gulat akong lumingon kay Kaleb at agad niya namang inikot ang upuan ko paharap sakaniya.

“Kaleb!” Malakas kong saway sakaniya. I saw him bite his lip while looking at my situation. Tiningnan ko rin ang sarili ko at nakasuot lamang ako ng silk pajama shorts and button shirt. I sighed and glared at him.

“You bought that rope because you wanted to be tied while I fuck you senseless, right? This is the right time to use it, pumpkin.” Napalunok ako nang sabihin niya iyon sa mababang boses habang parang gutom na gutom na nakatingin saakin ngayon. Shit. I did bought it so he can use it to me. Sa six months naming mag-asawa, we explored our fetishes and kinks and Kaleb quickly adapted to my preferences. He now fucks me so rough and so long I even fell unconscious after we’re done. Fuck. Tuluyang nabuhay ang dugo ko dahil sa mga tingin saakin ngayon ni Kaleb. Lumuhod siya sa harapan ko at hinalikan ako. I quickly kissed him back.

“Hmm..” Ungot ko nang maramdaman kong pinisil niya ang utong ko habang naghahalikan kami.

“So are you going to say yes now?” Tanong niya pa nang maghiwalay ang mga labi namin. I scoffed and smirked at him. Ginalaw ko ang paa ko at dinama ko ang tigas na tigas niyang ari na nakakubli pa sa boxer shorts niya.

“Fuck me so fucking hard until I submit.” Hamon ko at nakita kong mas lalo siya noon nabuhayan. I bit my lip and I watched the hunger in his eyes when he neared me again and claimed my mouth before roughly unbuttoning my shirt. Napalunok ako nang gutom nitang ipasok sa bibig niya ang utong ko.

“Hon..” Ungot ko nang gigil niyang sipsipin ang utong ko habang ang isa ay marahas niyang nilalamas.

“I love your nipples, pumpkin.” Ani niya habang nasa bibig niya pa ang utong ko. Napapikit ako at pumiglas sa ginagawa niya.

“No— uh! Kaleb..” Umakto akong inalalayo sakaniya ang dibdib ko at mas lalo siya roong nanggigil bago marahas na inilapit sakaniya ang kinauupuan ko. He cornered me while sucking on my nipples like there’s no tomorrow. My dick is already so hard and I can’t help but let him do what he wants.

“Ang sarap mong susuhin habang nakagapos ka sa upuan, asawa ko.” I gasped when he said that and I know whatever he wants to do to me right now, I will do anything to give it to him. Shit. Ang sarap niyang mag dirty talk. Hindi siya tumitigil sa ginagawa saakin at sarap na sarap siya roon. Ganon rin naman ako at hindi matigil ang kakaungol ko. I was squirming and I accidentally untied the rope. Napahawak ako sa buhok niya at nasabunutan ko iyon. He suddenly stopped and what he did next almost made my dick pour out lots of precum.

He fucking slapped me so hard, and I loved it so much.

“Who told you to untie the rope?” Mahina ngunit pikon niyang tanong. My lips are parted while looking at his angry handsome face. Ang gwapo lalo ng asawa ko kapag galit. This is why I fucking love it when he fucks me while he’s so mad. Basang-basa na ang ulo ng ari ko dahil lamang sa pagsampal niya saakin at sa galit niyang mga tingin.

“Fuck, Kaleb. I need to be fucked so hard.” Ibinigay kong muli sakaniya ang tali at itinayo niya ako. He roughly undressed me and tied my arms at my back.

“Ugh— fuck.” Ungot ko nang sabunutan niya ako at halikan sa leeg papunta sa braso habang dere-deretso akong pinalakad papunta sa kama namin. He’s behind me and when our bed is already in front of us, he sat me down facing him. I looked at him and I know he can see that I’m already in daze and want to be fuck so hard. He looked down at me and pulled his boxer down. His enormous dick sprang free and I licked my lips while looking at it. So big and long and it’s all mine. Nahalata niyang gutom akong nakatitig sa ari niya.

“You want me to fuck your face?” He asked and he sounds so fucking hot I immediately nodded.

“Please, fuck me good.” Pakiusap ko at muli niyang sinabunutan ang buhok ko at inilapit ang mukha ko sa ari niya. I smelled his addicting musky scent and I started licking the sides of his dick. Sinipsip ko ang katawan ng ari niya habang nang-a-akit na tiningnan siya sa mata. His eyes are now full of lust while looking down at me.

“Nganga.” Agad akong sumunod sa utos niya at tumirik ang mata ko nang marahas niyang isalpak sa bibig ko ang malaki niyang ari. Hindi siya nagsayang ng oras at marahas na binayo nang paulit-ulit ang bibig ko.

“Oh, fuck. Your mouth feels so good, my wife.” I groaned at what he called me and I started bobbing my head along with his thrusts. Itinigil niya ang pag-ulos at ang ulo ko ang marahas niyang ginalaw gamit ang kamay niyang sabunot ang buhok ko. He’s face-fucking me so hard just how I like it. I really fucking like it when he uses me like this. No fucking mercy at all. He knows how rough I love it.

“Hans, shit. Pumpkin!” Ungot niya kaya kahit tumitirik ang mga mata ay tiningnan ko ang gwapo niyang mukha. He contorted his face when he saw that I looked at him while he’s fucking my throat so deep and I felt his dick swelled up.

“Ah! Shit! Shit! Pumpkin!” Ang sunod kong naramdaman ay ang mainit na likidong dumadaloy sa lalamunan ko habang mas lalo niyang idinidiin sa lalamunan ko ang ari niya. Lahat ko iyon nalunok at nang bitawan niya ako ay saka lamang ako nakaubo at nakahinga nang maayos. Pinunasan ko ang gilid ng labi ko at nakangiting tumingin sakaniya na ngayon ay hingal na nakatingin na rin saakin.

“I love your seeds, hon. Fill me up?” Pang-a-akit ko. I saw his jaw clenched and immediately made me kneel on the floor beside the bed. Ipinahiga niya ang upper body ko sa kama habang nakaluhod ang tuhod ko sa sahig. Napaigtad ako nang malakas niyang paluin niya ang pwet ko nang ilang beses. Sunod-sunod akong umungot hanggang sa naramdaman ko ang lube na inilalagay niya sa pwerta ko.

“You’re adding too much.” Pansin ko. He spank me again.

“Because I will fuck you all night, you’ll be needing it.”

“OH! Kaleb!” Nakagat ko ang mattress nang walang anunsyo niyang isalpak sa butas ko ang malaki niyang batuta. “Fuck!” Halos mawalan ako nang hininga dahil sa sakit at sarap na idinulot niyon sa aking kaibutoran.

“Shit..” I heard him also gasping for air. “I miss pounding this hole all night, pumpkin. You can’t say no to me now.” Ani niya bago nagsimulang umulos nang mararahas habang hawak ang braso kong nakagapos. Hawak niya rin ako sa batok at idinidiin ang mukha ko sa kama. I love the feeling of being pressed while my hole is being abused so much.

“Ah! Ah! Kaleb! Hon!” That was the only start of my unending moans and my husband’s rough poundings. Halos hanggang umaga niya ako pinagsawaan. Hindi ako nagkamali at hindi niya nga ako pinakawalan buong magdamag.

He fucked me so hard I was obeying everything he wanted me to do. He had me at the floor, fucking me so hard while he’s standing and my feet is on the air while my head and my back is against the floor.

Nagpatuloy ang mararahas niyang ulos habang nakaupo ako sa swivel chair at hawak-hawak ko ang dalawang hita ko para pasok na pasok saakin ang malaki niyang ari na hindi ko ata nakitang lumambot buong magdamag kahit na paulit-ulit kaming nilabasang pareho. He also fucked me while standing and my hands are tied to the high cabinets. Hindi niya tinigilan ang butas ko kahit na sumusuko na ako. He’s always like this whenever we’re both so into it. My husband has a stamina of a bull and I love it so much I can praise every Saint I can name.

“Kaleb! Fuck! Hon, your cock is so deep! Oh!” He even made me ride him for an hour while he was slapping both of my nipples like it’s a big pair of tits. We were like horny rabbits going at it until I almost past out. We only stopped when we’re both sated and it’s already morning. He abused my hole all fucking night.

“Fuck, I love you so much, pumpkin.” Hingal niyang ani at sinakop pa ang bibig ko bago ako niyakap at pinahiga sa dibdib niya. Pareho kaming hingal na hingal at pawis ang katawan.

“Fuck. I have exams, hon.” Bigla kong naalala ang exams ko. I heard him chuckled. Inayos niya ang buhok kong gulo-gulo pa rin dahil sa magdamag naming ginawa.

“You can take special exams. I’ll talk to your school.” Sabi niya at hinalikan pa ako sa noo. Kagat-labi ko siyang kinurot. Even tho it’s been so long since his terms ended as a Governor, everyone still treat him like a very powerful politician. People still always adjust everything to his liking whenever he said so. Such a show off.

“Hon, do you think we will stay like this forever?” I suddenly asked. It’s because I love the life we have right now. It’s been my longest dream to have a life like my loving parents. Kaleb is treating me so well, everything is going so much better and everyone that hurted us, Kaleb made sure to triple the torment to them. And even tho it’s not in my nature to hurt other people, I let him because it’s his way to make peace with the guilt he has because of what happened to us in the past.

Masaya ako sa buhay namin ngayon, sobra pa sa sayang hinangad ko kasama si Kaleb. My family is happy, my life has been so easy after we got married and I don’t want it to change.

“What do you mean?” He looked at me and asked. Kahit pareho kaming pagod ay nakuha pa naming mag-usap.

“This happy marriage life you’re giving me. Do you think it will last forever?” I asked with full of hope. He smiled at me and answered.

“I’ll make sure it will last forever, pumpkin. We will take every battle together, but I’ll always be on the front to protect you. I’ll give you all the happiness and contentment in life and even after death, I’ll be with you as a ghost.” Natawa ako sa huli niyang sinabi ngunit halata ang sinceridad sa tono at mga mata niya. My heart feels so full and happy. Dahil alam kong simula ngayon, handang makipagpatayan si Kaleb kung kinakailangan para lamang sa kasiyahan ko at para makasama ako.

“I love you so much I don’t know how to explain it to you, pumpkin.” Ani niya pa kaya napangiti akong tumingin sakaniya.

“You don’t need to explain anything, because you’re always making me feel your unwavering adoration and love, Kaleb.” Hinalikan ko siya sa bibig. He was the man of my dreams, and that dream is finally in my hands, all mine. Like Kaleb, from this day on, I’ll make sure that this better days will last forever, together with him. Forever.

“I love you a lot, Kaleb. My husband.” Madamdamin kong sabi. He showed me his genuine smile and I can see the emotions in his eyes full of happiness and contentment while looking at me. He claimed my lips.

“From our first touch to our last breath, eres mío. ”

THE END

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AT LAST, I FINISHED MÍO! I’m so thankful to everyone who liked and hated this story, I learned a lot from every feedback and view

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this story gained. Maraming salamat sa palaging naghihintay sa mga updates ko kahit palaging natatagalan. Mawawala at susulpot ang eksena ko lagi but a lot of you stayed and I’m so thankful for that.

Actually, I don’t know how to feel every time I finish a book, masaya ako dahil sa wakas ay completed na pero may sadness or disappointment rin palagi sa heart ko every time I write the last sentence of my book HAHAHAHAHA nakakainis siya but I focus at the thought that the characters I wanted to bring life to has already been fullfilled!

I’m writing this A/N to thank everyone who’s always writing on my board and waiting patiently for my updates. CONGRATULATIONS TO ME FOR ANOTHER BOOK I FINISHED WRITING! AND ALSO HAPPY PRIDE MONTH TO ALL GAYS OUT THERE! I WILL FOREVER LOVE YOUR BRAVENESS IN THIS CRUEL WORLD GUYS

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LOVE LOTS! IT’S BEEN A FUN RIDE FULL OF DIFFERENT EMOTIONS. PUMPKIN AND GOVERNOR KALEB SIGNING OFF!

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MÍO