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REMINDER: Be aware of the grammatical error and poor delivery of sentences, dialogues, and so on that you will encounter while reading. The author is always trying her best to improve until she gets better. I did not proofread this story. This is raw and has a lot of flaws. If you can’t afford reading a story that is not perfectly written, this is not for you. Thank you for dropping by. I appreciate your time.

This book is published under LIB Bare.

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Drake Villafuente is known for being ruthless in business world. He’s a hottie single dad to his four year old son, Blake.

Being a single father was never been a problem to him. He can provide everything for his son, but he knew that material things and a father’s love weren’t enough.

His son’s life will never be completed without a mother. So, Drake was secretly looking to a woman who can do the role. But, his adorable son is already eyeing someone who’s fit enough. That is Blake’s teacher, the irreplaceable—Alexza Mendez, the woman from his past who left a big scar on his heart.

He loathed her, but his son is very fond at her. What the fvck he will do?

Prologue

PROLOGUE

“DADDY!”

Drake sleepily groaned as he heard his son’s voice echoed around his room. Nakapadapa siya sa kama, nakabaon ang mukha sa malambot na unan. Mabigat pa rin ang talukap ng mga mata niya dahil pasado alas tres na siya nang madaling araw nakatulog.

May guest na nagwala sa resort niya sa sobrang kalasingan. Kung hindi siya naawat ng mga empleyado niya ay baka napatulan niya na ang lasing dahil sa ginawang gulo sa Restaurant ng Villafuente Beach Resort.

His beach resort is one of the tourist spot in the Country, he doesn’t like to ruin his good reputation and even the image of his resort just because of some bastard tourist. Its a big No to him.

He’s really thankful last night because his employees and his securities were there to stop him. Nakainom din siya kagabi, kaya siguro sumabog din siya.

Naramdaman niya na bahagyang lumubog ang gilid na espasyo ng kama, tanda na umakyat ang apat na gulang na anak na lalaki.

Blake patted his back softly.

“Daddy, why are you still sleeping? It’s six in the morning already.” Reklamo ng anak.

“Give me more minutes to sleep, little champ. Daddy’s still sleepy.” Pakiusap niya pa.

“But I’ll be late in school kapag natulog ka pa.”

Napilitan siyang tumihaya upang maharap ang anak kahit antok na antok pa siya. Naka-indian seat ito habang nakatingin sa kanya. Ah, Blake is really his replica! Mabuti na lang at kahit saan anggulo niya ito tignan ay sarili niya pa rin ang nakikita niya. His mini version.

“It’s Saturday, son. Sa Monday pa ang pasok mo.”

“But teacher Lexza told us yesterday that today… we were going to play. Kasi nag-rain kahapon daddy kaya hindi kami nakapag-play.” Blake cute lips curve down.

Drake frowned. “Who’s teacher Lexza?”

Blake frowned at him, too, mocking him. “My new teacher.”

“New?” Tumango ang anak. “Bakit hindi ko alam ’yan?”

“Kasi…kahapon lang po pumasok si teacher Lexza, pinalitan niya si teacher Bea.” Para itong matanda na pinapaliwanagan siya, may hand gesture pang kasama.

“Why?”

“It’s because teacher Bea took a leave.” Bumaba ito ng kama niya. “I want to see teacher Lexza, daddy.”

Drake stare at his son, confused. The name sounds familiar. “Teacher Lexza?”

“Yes!”

“What’s her last name?”

Nag-isip saglit ang anak bago nakanguso na umiling. “I don’t know. I will ask her later.” Blake stare at him curiously. Gusto niyang paikutin ang mata dahil sa uri ng tingin nito ay parang may alam na hindi niya alam. His lips were in thin line. “Why were you asking?”

“Of course, I am your father. I should know everything that happens in your school.” Tumango-tango ito, kinukumbinsi ang sarili.

Blake suddenly placed his small forefinger under his chin and stare at him again.

He groaned again. This little champ wouldn’t stop until he gets up on bed. Ang isang braso niya ay ginawa niyang unan at nakipagtitigan din sa anak.

Blake eyes twinkled suddenly and nod his head absent-mindedly.

“She is the most beautiful teacher I’ve ever seen so far…” His son proudly said. “Get up dad, please? I will going to introduce you to my teacher.”

Wala nang nagawa si Drake sa pangungulit ng anak. Kahit inaantok pa ay napilitan siyang bumangon. He can’t just say No to Blake. He spoiled his son so damn much as if that’s the only best thing to do to his son as his father.

“I’ll see you downstairs.”

Tumalon-talon si Blake sa saya tapos ay muling umakyat sa kama, dinaganan siya saka niyakap. Parang natunaw siya bigla. They’re really close. Close enough to do everything even if its possible just for him.

Ginulo niya ang buhok ng anak at hinalikan ang tuktok ng ulo. Malalim siyang napabuntong hininga. Palagi niyang iniisip kung sino ang ina ni Blake?

He’s been with different girls. He was a bad boy years ago before he found Blake outside the gate of his resort. He was so broke and wasted when the love of his life, left him. And then, Blake suddenly came… and that changed everything.

“I love you, daddy..” Blake whispered innocently and softly. “You are the best daddy in the whole world!”

“Love you too, son…” Tinapik-tapik niya ng marahan ang likod ng anak. “Huwag mo na akong bolahin, sasamahan naman kita sa school mo.”

“Hindi naman ako nagbobola,”

“Nangbobola.” He corrected him.

Naupo si Blake sa tiyan niya at pinagkrus ang maliliit na braso sa dibdib. Napaangat ang isang kilay niya, habang pinagmamasdan ang anak.

“Why don’t we find my mommy?”

Dalawang kilay niya na ngayon ang tumaas, mangha sa kausap.

“We will find your mommy,”

Hindi niya nga lang alam kung sino ang hahanapin. Sa dami ng nakasiping niya, ewan niya na lang. Kahit bilangin niya ang buwan bago dumating si Blake ay hindi niya talaga maalala ang mga babaeng ’yon.

“My real mommy?”

“Yea, it will take time, but I promise, we will find her.”

“I wonder what she looks like?”

He’s wondering, too.

“She’s beautiful for sure.”

“Do you know her?”

Napangiwi siya. Paano nga ba niya sasagutin ang anak? Kung sa dami, hindi niya na alam. Dahil sa kalasingan, hindi niya na rin talaga matandaan ang mga babaeng dumaan sa kanya.

And it was all one night stand.

“We’ll be late.” Bumangon siya kasabay ng pagkarga sa anak. “Go to your room and take a bath.”

DRAKE was walking towards his black Bentley when he saw his son on the reception area of the resort, picking flowers on the big vase at the both side of the entrance door.

Nakasunod dito ang isang kasambahay nila na naghahatid sa anak sa eskwelahan, si Rosa. Blake’s personal maid. Anak ito ng kusinera nila kaya tiwala siya na aalagaan talaga ang anak niya. Ang tatay naman nito ay personal driver ng pamilya nila. Their family is loyal to Villafuente.

“Blake,” Tawag pansin niya sa anak nang lapitan ito. But his son seems busy.

“Naku sir, nagpilit po na kumuha ng bulaklak at ibibigay niya raw kay teacher Lexza.” Ani Rosa, may dalang dalawang lunch box.

“We can buy bouquet of flowers to your teacher, son.”

Blake look up at him then smile widely. May iilan bulalak sa kamay nito. He’s wearing his P.E uniform. Maroon jogging pants and white shirt with school logo on it.

“And, I also bring lunch for teacher Lexza.” Itinuro nito ang lunch box na dala no Rosa. Tumango na lang siya para makaalis na sila.

Silang mag-ama lang ang nagpunta sa eskwelahan, hindi niya na isinama si Rosa dahil kasama naman siya ni Blake. They are on their way now his son’s school.

“Daddy, did you know that I already kiss my teacher Lexza?”

Sinulyapan niya ang anak sa rear view mirror, nakaupo ito sa beackseat. His eyes were always twinkle every time he talks about his new teacher.

“You did?”

“Yes daddy, I kissed her on the lips yesterday.”

“On the lips?” He chuckled at that. “You should kiss girls on the cheeks only.”

“Except with teacher Lexza,” Wala lang na sabi ng anak.

“Next time, kiss her on the cheek, son.”

“Why would I?”

“Because that’s the proper way to kiss a teacher.”

“But I saw you kiss tita Maisie on the lips and she kissed you back,”

He’s dating Maisie, just dating. He don’t do relationships. He dates, he fucks but never enter a relationship.

“It’s different, son. Just do what I said to you. Don’t kiss your teacher on the lips.”

“But I like her.” Para na itong iiyak dahil sa pagbabawal niya. “And I want to invite her for dinner tonight. Can we invite her daddy?”

Drake sighed silently. Slowly, he nod his head. He doesn’t want to disappoint his son. He will do everything he wants, especially if that makes his son happy.

“We will ask her, okay? But don’t expect that she will say Yes, she might be busy.”

“She can’t say no to me. Like you, like grandmama and grandpapa, can’t say no to me.”

“Let’s see.”

“Of course, she won’t say no,” May kompyansa sa tinig ng anak. Tila ba hindi nga talaga hihindi ang teacher nito.

Ilang sandali pa ay naiparada niya na ang sasakyan sa parking lot ng ekwelahan. It wasn’t a huge school. Its exclusive only for all the student who can afford the tuition fee monthly. There are cctv around and enough securities for the students.

Natanaw niya ang playground sa pinaka gitna ng lugar, marami na ang mga istudyante roon na kasama ang yaya ng mga ito.

“We’re late,” Blake said sadly, looking at the kids at the playground. “Teacher Lexza is already with them.” Tumaas ang maliit na daliri ng anak at may itinuro.

Sinundan niya ang dereksyon ng daliri nito. There, she saw a familiar built of a woman who’s siting on the ground, she’s surrounded by kids. Nakatalikod ito sa gawi nila, ayaw niya mang umasa na tama siya ng hinala, pero hindi niya magawang pigilan ang sarili.

“Let’s go daddy. Let’s go,” Hinila ni Blake ang kamay niya at excited na naglakad-patakbo papunta sa mga kaklase nito.

“Bakit parang kulang kayo?” Ang malamyos na tinig na iyon ay mariin na nagpapikit sa mga mata niya. “Wala si…”

“Teacher Lexza!” Blake shouted happily, making the woman look on their direction.

Their eyes met. He stare darkly at her, telling her how he hate seeing her after all these years. Telling her how much he hate her. Anger suddenly filled him.

Alexza stood up, surprised by their arrival. She avoided his gaze and it made him angrier!

“Blake…” She softly called his son’s name as if she use saying it.

“Teacher Lexza!” His son run excitedly to her and hug her legs very tightly.

Marahan na nag squat ang babae at ginantihan ng yakap ang anak niya na para bang kay tagal hindi nagkita ng dalawa.

The scene makes his heart ache for some reason. He knows that his son was longing for a mother’s hug and touch, pero hindi niya inaasahan na ganito kasabik ang anak na makayakap ng babae, at sa katauhan pa talaga ng babaeng nag-iwan ng malaking sugat sa puso niya.

Drake frowned when his son kiss Alexza on the lips and hug her again. The woman let out a short hearty laugh while caressing his son’s back.

“Am I late?” Inosenteng tanong ng anak niya nang maghiwalay ng yakap ang dalawa.

“Not really sweetheart, we were about to start when you arrived.” Alexza said, smiling at his son. When he look up on him, her smile fade away.

“That’s my dad,” Blake introduced him, pero hindi naman lumapit sa kanya. Parang na-magnet na sa teacher nito.

Maingat na tumayo si Alexza hawak ang isang kamay ng anak niya. They’re just meters away, he could smell her addictive scent that he used to smell before. Damn it!

“G-glad to meet you, Mr. Villafuente,” She said casually.

Tumiim lalo ang tingin niya sa babae. She didn’t change. She’s still the woman who stole his heart and broke it! She became even more beautiful, he can still affect her and he fucking hate it!

“Please to meet you, Miss Alexza Mendez.” He said coldly.

Inilahad niya ang kamay sa harap nito, nakita niya ang pagdaan ng pag-aalinlangan sa mata ng babae, kaya mas lalo lang siyang nagalit. And now, she doesn’t even like to touch his hand?! Samantalang noon, gustung-gusto nito ang mga haplos at halik niya!

Kung hindi pa inabot ng anak niya ang kamay ni Alexza papunta sa kamay niya ay hindi magtatagpo ang mga kamay nilang dalawa.

Kinastigo niya ang sarili nang maramdaman na naman ang kakaibang init na hatid sa kanya sa tuwing nagdadampi ang balat nila. The heat is still there, the sensation when their skin touches never leaves him.

Parang napaso si Alexza nang mabilis nitong agawin ang kamay sa kanya tapos ay kinayag ang anak niya papunta sa mga kaklase nito.

“Daddy! Let’s play…” Tawag sa kanya ni Blake pero umiling lang siya. Nakaupo na ito, kasama ang mga kaklase, pinapalibutan si Alexza.

DRAKE turned off his cellphone to avoid Maisie’s phone calls. There he is, siting on the bench, alone, while watching his son and Alexza playing in the ground with other kids.

He hates seeing her happy as if she did not leave him, as if she did not hurt him. Until now, he doesn’t know her reason for leaving him. He can’t get over her and to what she did.

“Daddy! Daddy!” Blake is running towards him with his wide arms.

Kaagad na kinuha niya sa tabi ang puting towel para ipangpunas sa pawis ng anak. He’s aware that Alexza was watching them.

“Finish?” He asked his son while drying his face with towel.

“Yes, but I still want to play.”

“You will when we get home.”

Ang isang towel ay inilagay niya sa likod ni Blake na pawis na pawis din.

“Do you bring extra shirt?” Nag-angat siya ng tingin sa boses na iyon ni Alexza, si Blake ang tinatanong.

“I don’t know to daddy, teacher.”

Alexza look at him, asking. Sa tingin palang nito ay naiintindihan niya na ang nais sabihin.

“Is in the car,” He coldly said, staring darkly at her.

“Next time, bring it with you.”

“Don’t tell me what to do—”

“Bawal matuyuan ng pawis ang baby na ’to,” Marahan pa nitong kinurot sa pisngi ang anak niya at titig na titig. Maaliwalas man ang mukha nito pero iba ang isinisigaw ng mga mata habang nakatitig sa anak niya. “Ang pogi pogi mo naman…”

“Mana ako sa daddy ko,” Proud na sabi ni Blake na nakapagpataas ng sulok ng labi niya.

“I like you more than your dad,”

“I like you too teacher!” And Blake hug her again. Nakakadami na itong anak niya.

“Let’s go, Blake,” Marahan niyang inilayo ang anak sa babae.

They’re too close. He doesn’t want his kid to be attached to any woman, unless he said so. He doesn’t want Blake to assume to a woman. He doesn’t want his son to get hurt.

“Teacher, can I invite your for dinner tonight?” Blake asked, using his puppy eyes. “Please, teacher?” Its almost sounds like a beg when Alexza didn’t answer.

Matalim na tinignan niya ang babae. He can handle the pain she gave him, but not the pain she could give with his son.

Alexza caress his son’s hair gently and smile at Blake. The smile that always melt him.

“Sure sweetheart, for you.”

Nagtatatalon na ang anak niya sa harap nila sa sobrang kasiyahan sa pagpayag ni Alexza.

Gustuhin niya mang makaramdam ng saya para sa anak, pero bakit hindi niya magawa?

It seems like he will be in trouble, again.

1 ~ Longing

CHAPTER

ONE

“I SAW HIM, I saw Drake…” Para siyang hinahapo na naupo sa gilid ng kama niya, kausap ang matalik na kaibigang si Jessielyn. Mukha rin itong problemado kagaya niya.

Alexza just got back from Canada one week ago, she stayed there for three years and got the chance to worked with one of the big company there. She took the opportunity that easy without even thinking when that company offered her a job.

She just wanted to escape that time, and living abroad was the only way for her to forget everything she left. Even it broke her heart into pieces, she still chose to leave and runaway from him… from Drake Villafuente. From all the heartache.

“You can’t escape now…”

“I know,” She sighed. “I don’t even have a plan to run away again.”

“Are you ready to face him? Mas nakakatakot ngayon si Drake, pero kahit na gano’n, sobrang dami pa ring babaeng umaaligid sa kanya.”

“Is he with the mother of his son?” She asked curiously. As if that’s her only concern at the moment. “Are they together?”

“I don’t know?” Jess shrug her shoulder. “But, there’s this woman who’s always visiting his resort for one year now. Pinaka tumagal sa mga babae niya, so far.”

“Sino?”

“Maisie Victoria, the vice mayor’s daughter.”

“Do you think she’s the mother of Blake?” Pinanghihinaan na siya ng loob.

Cute na cute pa naman siya sa anak ni Drake, kung pwede niya lang i-uwi sa bahay niya ay ginawa niya na.

“Why don’t you ask Drake?”

“As if I can do that. He changed a lot. I can’t take his stares at me. Kinakabahan pa rin ako sa kanya hanggang ngayon.”

“May kasalanan ka kasi…”

Napayuko siya. Malungkot na ngumiti. Hanggang ngayon ay nasasaktan pa rin siya dahil sa ginawa niya, pero alam niyang hindi niya na mababago ang lahat ng nangyari Kahit pa gaano pa siya masaktan.

“Yes, it was my fault. Kung naging…”

“I’m sorry, Lex.” Jess cut her off and hold her hand. “There’s no ones fault, okay? Hindi naman natin alam na gano’n ’yung mangyayari sa’yo. Huwag mo nang sisisihin ang sarili mo…”

“I can’t help myself. May kasalanan din naman ako, alam ko naman ’yon. Hindi ko lang din mapatawad ang sarili ko sa nangyari.”

“Basta, para sa akin wala kang kasalanan sa nangyari, pero kay Drake, meron.”

“Hindi ko alam kung kaya kong sabihin sa kanya ang lahat.”

“He deserves to know everything, but if you don’t want to hurt him more, then don’t tell him. Keep it to yourself.”

“Ayoko na siyang saktan pa…” Marahan niyang sabi. “Leaving him without saying good bye was enough. Ayaw ko nang dagdagan pa ’yung sakit na iniwan ko sa kanya.”

“Naiintindihan ko.” Jess take a load breath. “Stop this drama. Maghanap ka na nang susuotin mo para sa dinner niyo mamaya. Saan nga pala ’yon?”

“Sa Beach Resort niya.”

“Oh, good luck, Lex.”

“Ayoko naman talaga sana magpunta. Hindi lang ako makatanggi sa anak niya…”

She can say No to Drake, but not to Blake. Masusugatan yata ang puso niya kapag natanggihan niya ang batang ’yon.

“Charming talaga ang batang ’yon. Mabuti nga at napalaking maayos kahit walang ina.”

“Drake is a good father. I can tell.”

“The ruthless and hottie, Drake Villafuente!” Jess giggled. “Kung nandito ka lang nitong mga nakalipas na taon, tiyak na pagseselosan mo ang mga sabi-sabi nang mga naikama niya.”

Napangiwi siya. Tila may maliliit na karayom ang nagbagsakan sa dibdib niya. So, while she was in Abroad, Drake was sleeping with so many girls?

“Marami? For sure.” Tanong niya, sagot niya.

“Oo, Lex!” Lalong naging agresibo ang kaibigan sa pagkukwento. Umayos pa ito ng upo sa kama. “Ang sabi pa nga, minsan threesome raw! Can you imagine that? Your Drake was having a threesome!”

“Ayokong isipin.” Iritadong sambit niya.

“Tapos, grabe raw kumain ’yan si Drake! Mamamaos ka raw kaka—”

“Stop!” Tili niya at nagtakip ng tenga. “ I don’t wanna hear it! He’s such an asshole!“

“Oh-oh,” Dahan-dahan na tumayo si Jess sa kama. “Nagseselos ka na niyan?”

“I just don’t like to hear all of it. Its disgusting.”

“Pero kapag gusto mong malaman pa ang mga ginagawa niya sa mga babaeng naikama niya, magsabi ka lang sa’kin, marami akong bala.”

“Wala na akong gustong marinig pa.”

“Ikaw ang bahala. By the way, I will leave now. Balitaan mo ko sa date niyo ha?”

“That’s not a date!”

“Whatever!” Humalik ito sa pisngi niya saka lumabas ng silid niya.

She annoyingly lay her back on the bed and think about Drake and his women! Damn him!

Habang siya ay nangungulila dito, nasasaktan at umiiyak gabi-gabi, ito naman ay kung kanikaninong babae nakikisiping! No wonder kaya nagkaanak ng wala sa panahon. Sana man lang binigyan ng ina si Blake.

HINDI na mapakali si Alexza sa inuupuan. Kadarating niya lang sa Blake’s Resto at hinihintay ang pagdating ng mag-ama. Tama ba itong ginagawa niya? Makita niya lang si Drake, bumabalik lahat ng ala-ala niya sa pagitan nilang dalawa noon.

“Teacher! Teacher!”

Parang tumalon ang puso niya nang marinig ang masayang boses na iyon sa gawing kanan niya, sa entrance ng resto. There’s her little boy running towards her excitedly. Pati siya ay na-e-excite rin kapag alam niyang makikita ang bata.

“Hello, Blake…” She shifted her siting position and welcome his hug. He’s really sweet.

“Teacher, I have something for you.” Anito at lumingon sa likod.

Dumagundong ang dibdib niya nang masilayan si Drake na papalapit sa gawi nila. Wearing a grey cotton long sleeve, expensive watch and khaki pants, he looks so dangerously handsome. His presence is always suffocating her.

Kahit ang paglunok ay nahihirapan na siyang gawin. Dagdagan pa ng mabibigat na titig nito sa kanya. Pinanghihinaan talaga siya ng tuhod.

“Here,” His baritone voice making her gasp.

Bahagya pa siyang natulala nang i-abot nito ang bouquet of flowers sa kanya.

“T-thank you,” Aniya at tinanggap iyon.

“Thanks to my son,”

Nag-init ang pisngi niya. Hindi nga pala galing kay Drake ang bulaklak, ito lang ang nag-abot.

Yumukod siya upang magpantay ang mukha nila ni Blake. Nginitian niya ito ng matamis, gano’n din ito sa kanya.

“Thanks for the flowers, Blake.” And she kissed him on the forehead, without even noticing her gesture.

“You’re welcome, teacher. Did you like it?”

“Yes, sobra!” Then she wink at the little boy.

“Daddy told me that’s your favorite flowers.”

Napawi ang ngiti niya bigla. Tinignan niya ang mga bulalak. Its a bouquet of roses with completed colors. White, yellow, red, pink and even blue.

Drake still remember her favorite flowers! Why it hurts her heart? Dapat ay masaya siya, pero bakit ang sikip sa dibdib?

Nang tignan niya si Drake suplado lang itong nag-iwas ng tingin sa kanya. She can feel his hates on her, she can’t blame him for that. She needs to deal with his coldness. She deserve how he treat her.

“I love seafoods, teacher…” Imporma sa kanya ni Blake at itinuro ang shrimp sa lamesa nila na kadarating lang.

Pinaghandaan nga talaga ang dinner nila dahil inilapag din kaagad ang mga pagkain nang dumating ang mag-ama.

“Talaga?” Namangha siya. “I love seafoods, too.” Aniya at kinuhanan ng pagkain si Blake ng ilang piraso at inilagay sa plato nito.

“Daddy doesn’t like it the way I like it.”

“Yes, because he’s allergic on seafoods.”

“How did you know?” Blake asked innocently.

Hindi siya nakapagsalita kaagad. Nang sulyapan niya si Drake ay nag-uumpisa na itong kumain, pero bahagya naman nakaangat ang isang sulok ng labi na para bang may nakakatuwa.

“Ang dami naman tanong ng baby boy na ’yan…” Pag-iiba niya ng usapan sa malambing na paraan. “Finish your foods, okay? Eat the vegetables I put on your plate.”

“What if I don’t?” Umusli ang labi ng bata.

“You don’t like vegetables? Hmm?”

Napayuko si Blake at alam niya na ang sagot do’n. He doesn’t eat vegetables!

“Come on Sweetheart. Hindi naman kita pipilitin kumain kapag ayaw mo…”

“Talaga?” Umaliwalas ang mukha nito.

“Opo, pero…” May diin ang huling salita. “Dapat, kakain ka paminsan-minsan hanggang sa magustuhan mo na ang mga gulay. Okay ba ’yon?”

Tumango-tango si Blake na para bang siya ang magulang na susundin lahat ng sabihin niya. Ah, wish niya lang.

“Bakit kay teacher ka lang sumusunod?” Si Drake naman ngayon ang umaapela sa anak nito.

“Because you’re my daddy.”

“And?” Drake trailed.

“And…you love me so much that you always do whatever I want. If I don’t like to eat vegetables, you don’t get mad at me.”

“Well?”

“I will eat vegetables now, because I don’t want my teacher to get mad at me.”

Natutuwa siya sa simpleng pag-uusap na iyon ng mag-ama. Masarap sa pakiramdam makasaksi ng gano’n.

“If I get mad at you, would you eat vegetable?” Drake asked calmly, before drinking his wine. His Adam’s apple moved up and down, making him looks hot.

“I don’t want you to get mad at me daddy.”

Nakita niya ang pagkinang ng magkabilang gilid ng mata ni Blake, parang maiiyak na. Parang iiyak din yata siya pag nagkataon.

“Of course, daddy will never get mad at you…” She interrupted. “He will understand if you don’t like to eat vegetables like how I understand you.”

“Talaga po teacher?” Parang naghahanap ito ng kakampi.

“Yes, Sweetheart…” Marahan niyang hinaplos ang pisngi ng bata.

Ayaw niya itong makitang malungkot o umiiyak. Hindi naman sa naaawa siya dahil wala itong ina, basta ayaw niya lang. Pakiramdam niya nasasaktan siya.

Pagkatapos nilang maghapunan ay nag-aya si Blake na maglakad-lakad sa buong resort. Silang dalawa lang dahil si Drake ay kinailangan magpunta sa opisina nito.

“Where’s your mom?” Tanong niya kay Blake, nakaupo sila picnic blanket sa buhanginan.

He yawned and squeezed his eyes. Napangiti siya. He’s sleepy.

“I don’t know, teacher.”

So, hindi ang Maisie na iyon ang ina ni Blake? Bakit parang gustong magdiwang ng puso niya sa balitang iyon?

“Gusto mo na bang matulog, Blake?”

Umiling ito pero alam niyang inaantok na talaga, pinipilit lang na huwag. Pinahiga niya ito sa hita niya at hinaplos-haplos ang buhok.

“Teacher, sing for me…” He sleepily whispered then close his eyes.

Alexza started humming a children’s song. She’s enjoying this. The resort is very peaceful. May mga iilang turista pero hindi naman gumagawa ng ingay.

“He fall asleep.” That raspy voice making her stop from humming.

Drake is standing next to her, watching them. She awkwardly nod. Then look down at Blake who’s sleeping on her lap.

“Yes. Pagod din kasi sa paglalaro kanina.”

Aba at nagpapaliwanag pa siya na parang siya ang ina at na para bang hindi alam ni Drake na naglaro ang anak nito.

Parang gusto niya nang mapaatras nang tabihan siya ng binata. He’s siting next to her, he’s caressing his son’s arms and legs carefully. While she’s caressing Blake’s hair.

“Hindi ka pa ba uuwi? Gabi na.”

She compose herself. He doesn’t want her presence? Kaya pinapauwi na siya nito? Gano’n ba ito kagalit sa kanya?

“P-pauwi na rin. Actually, hinintay lang talaga kita para kay Blake.” Dahilan niya.

“We can stay here for awhile…” Kabig nito. “Its been a long time, Alexza…”

“Y-yes,”

“You came back as if nothing happened…” There’s a sarcasm on his voice.

“Drake… this is not the right place to talk about it,” She almost whispering, her heart is tightened with a familiar feeling, hurt.

“Where is the right place then?” And now he sounds desperate, na para bang hindi makakatulog ngayong gabi kung hindi niya kakausapin.

She take a glance on him. Mabigat man ang bawat paglapat ng mata sa kanya, ramdam niya pa rin na gusto nga talaga nitong makausap siya. She’s not yet ready for that.

Sa mumunting liwanag na nagmumula sa likod nila, she can still manage to study every inch of his face. His deep dark eyes, that scream what he’d been through when she left, nakatulong lang ang matang iyon para mas lalong madagdagan ang sakit na idinulot ng paglayo niya rito.

His furrowed thick browse that always tell her how he’s not please to see her again.

The sharp jawline with stubble on it, how she wish she could touch him again like she used before… his aura is too strong that even now, she can’t handle it. He always makes her knees wobble. She can’t stand with his dark gaze, but every time she looks on his lips, it feels like everything that they’d been through once she kiss him will fade away. All the pain will wash away.

Kung sana gano’n nga lang kadali ang lahat…na kapag hinalikan niya ito, mawawala na ang lahat ng sakit na pinagdaanan nilang dalawa.

“No…” Drake husky voice and minty breath that hit her face woke her up from her reverie.

Their face were too close, one wrong move then their lips will meet. Napapikit siya, napakagat sa pang-ibabang labi dahil sa kahihiyaan at kadesperadahan na mahalikan ulit ang binata, sa kaisipan na maglalaho lahat ng sakit.

“Drake…” Ibinulong niya sa hangin ang pangalan nito sa nanghihinang paraan. Nagmamakaawa sa kung ano.

“Look at me,” He ordered with the hint of gentleness like a king to his queen.

Matigas man na nag-uutos pero mas nangingibabaw ang rahan do’n. Kung hindi lang siguro ito galit sa kanya ay baka mas marahan pa ang pakiusap nito na tiyak na mahihiripan siyang tanggihan.

Slowly, Alexza force herself to meet his gaze. Her heart beat painfully when she saw how hard it is for him to stare at her in that moment. Tila ba masakit para rito ang makita siya, pero pilit na pinipilit.

She gulp nervously when he tilted his head forward, meeting her lips. Umawang ang labi niya sa kasabikan. Heaven knows how much she wanted to kiss him so bad!

“Fuck…” Drake cursed breathily before she felt his lips on hers.

He was kissing her with so much need on it. So much pain and so much longing. He was giving her a punishing kiss…she could almost feel the blood on her lips because he bit it.

Ramdam niya ang panggigigil ni Drake sa kanya. Ang tanging nagawa niya lang ay tugunin ang mararahas na halik nito sa paraan na gusto niya itong halikan. She kiss him back with so much longing for him and for his touch.

2 ~ Assurance

CHAPTER

TWO

ALEXZA and her family was having a dinner in one of the fancy restaurant in town. On her right side is her older brother, Dwaye, in front of them are their parents, looking so classy especially her mother.

“How about you, Dwaye? When do you plan to settle down?” It was her mom, asking the man beside her.

Ang pamimilit sa kanila ng magulang na lumagay na sa buhay may-asawa ay napakalaking problema sa kanila ng kanyang kapatid. She can see how his brother play with women, ni hindi niya nga ito ma-imagine na mag settle down. He doesn’t even know how to stick to a one woman.

“I’m too young for that, mom.” Dwaye said annoyingly. He took a sip on his vodka.

“Too young? For Christ’s sake, son!” Her mother gasped. “You are turning thirty in the next few months, Dwaye. Men should settle down at that age.”

“I’m enjoying being bachelor,”

“Until when, son?” Her father suddenly spoke in a flat tone.

“Until I found someone who can take my breath away, unluckily, I did not find her yet.” Dwaye smirked, then look at her. “How about this beautiful lady beside me? Mukhang mas mauuna pa itong magpakasal kesa sa akin.”

Her face heated up. Napayuko siya. Of course, she’s not yet ready to settle down, same as Drake. Her boyfriend. Inside of her, she’s thinking about it…That she want to get married with Drake so he could not escape from her anymore.

“I’m out of this topic. Dinadamay mo pa ako, Kuya…”

“Well, that friend of mine wasn’t yet ready to settle down.” Her brother and Drake are friends.

Hindi naman lihim ang relasyon nila ni Drake, pero pakiramdam niya ay hindi lubusang gusto ng magulang niya ang kasintahan. Kung bakit, ay wala siyang makitang rason.

Drake love her. He came from a wealthy family. He has his own business. He’s really a good catch. A husband material. But, seems that her parents are not kind with him.

“Same as you, that’s why I don’t like that man.” Her mother announced, it hurts her.

Ngayon lang derektang nagpahayag ng damdamin ang ina patungkol sa lalaking mahal niya. Hindi talaga boto ang mga ito kay Drake at nasasaktan siya sa katotohanan na ’yon.

“Mom, Drake loves me. Why hate him? Hindi niya naman ako sinasaktan. Wala naman siyang ginagawang masama para hindi niyo siya magustuhan.”

“Because he’s not the type of man that will stick to a one woman. Look at your brother, they’re almost the same. Ngayon, mahal ka niya, dahil bago lang kayo. Magaling lang ang mga lalaki sa una. Malalaman mong mahal ka talaga niya, kung hanggang sa huli ay nandiyan siya sa tabi mo.”

“Just give him a chance to prove himself. Don’t judge him like that. You’re being unfair.”

“Alexza,” That was his dad’s warning tone. It made her shut her mouth and continue eating.

She doesn’t mean being mean, but she won’t let anyone judge her man. She love Drake so much that she’s willing to fight for him.

“I know someone who’s more deserving than Drake. You should give him a shot, darling.” Its her mother again.

“No thanks, mom. I love Drake.”

“That’s not love, Alexza. You’re just infatuated with that man. You have a crush on him since high school, at mas lalo ka lang napalapit sa kanya nang naging kaibigan siya ng kapatid mo. Am I right?”

Yes, it’s true that she has a crush on him ever since. Kung ang damdamin niya naman sa binata ang pag-uusapan, siguro siyang mahal niya si Drake. Sigurado siya do’n.

“Wether it is love or infatuation, I will still choose Drake over someone. Please, mom, dad, don’t meddle with my relationship. I know what I’m doing. I’m not a kid anymore.”

“You’re being hardheaded because of that man, Alexza. Hindi mo ba nakikita ang sarili mo? Sinusuway mo na kami ng mommy mo.”

“Dad,” Napabuntong hininga siya.

“I don’t like that man. And don’t tell us to stop meddling with your relationship. We know what and who’s better for you.”

Tuluyan na siyang nawalan ng gana sa pagkain. Tumahimik na lang siya para hindi na humaba pa ang usapan. Wala rin naman magandang patutunguhan ang usapan na iyon, mas masasaktan lang siyang isipin na ayaw ng magulang niya sa isang Drake Villafuente.

“IT’S OKAY, don’t think too much about it. Don’t let them ruin your relationship with Drake.”

Nag-angat ng tingin si Alexza sa nagsalita. Her brother is now wearing his pajama ang black sando, may nakaipit na sigarilyo sa daliri. Nasa swimming pool area sila ng bahay nila. Hindi lang din siya makatulog matapos malaman ang saloobin ng magulang para sa lalaking mahal niya.

“I won’t let them do that to me and Drake. But, you know how hard is our parents when it comes to the people they don’t like, Kuya.”

“Then deal with it. You should talk to Drake about this. Pag-usapan niyo na habang maaga pa.”

Sumagi sa ilong niya ang amoy ng usok ng sigarilyo ng lumipad iyon sa paligid dahil sa marahang pagbuga ng kapatid. The smell somehow makes her feel relaxed.

Sanay na siya na makaamoy paminsan-minsan ng usok ng sigarilyo, Drake use to smoke. And every time he does, it turns her on.

“I will going to see him tomorrow…and tell him.”

“That’s a good idea. Men doesn’t like if someone is hiding something from us, especially if that something is our concern.”

“Hindi ko kayang itago sa kanya ang lahat ng ’to. Baka magalit siya sakin at makipaghiwalay.”

“There’s a big possibility that he will do it if you hide something from him. I know Drake enough, he don’t chase women, women chase him.”

Kumabog ang puso niya sa narinig. Kung maglilihim siya kay Drake ng kahit na ano, tiyak na magagalit iyon sa kanya kung sakaling malaman na may itinatago siya. Kahit man siya ay ayaw niyang may inililihim sa kanya si Drake, pero maiintindihan niya naman siguro? But he’s different. They’re different people with different perspective in life.

“Kahit na alam kong mahal niya ako? Lalayo pa rin siya sa akin?” Kabado niyang tanong.

Her brother know Drake more than she knows him. They’re in a relationship for almost five months now, but they knew each other for long because her brother and him were friend since high school.

“It depends on how much he loves you, darling. If he loves you enough, that he couldn’t afford to leave you, then he will stay and forgive you, but if he does not, it will surely break your heart…because Drake would rather choose to be alone than being with someone who could only hurt him. I already warned you before Alexza, he’s very tough and strict when it comes to a relationship. A fucking territorial who has his own fucking rules with his woman.” Dwaye let out a deep growl.

She can still remember how her brother warned her when she told him about her relationship with Drake. At first, Dwaye doesn’t like the idea, because he knew his friend so much, he knew how Drake play with girls and what he is when in a serious relationship. Eventually, her brother accepted their relationship.

“Drake is a fucking territorial, Alexza! Ayokong masakal ka. Ayokong masaktan ka.” Naalala niya pang sabi noon sa kanya ng kapatid.

Binalewala niya iyon nang una dahil masarap sa pakiramdam na masasakal siya sa pagmamahal ni Drake, pero nang mga nakalipas ang ilang buwan, nararamdaman niya nga ang pagiging territorial ng binata. Nakakasakal, pero hindi sapat para mabawasan ang pagmamahal niya kay Drake.

“I’m scared of the idea that he could afford leaving me jut because our parents doesn’t like him.”

Humapdi ang puso niya. Hulog na hulog na siya sa binata at ikababaliw niya kapag iniwan siya nito. Ipaglalaban niya ito sa magulang niya. Iyon ang pangako niya sa sarili.

“Then talk to him and tell him every thing that concerns him.”

Marahan siyang tumango. Pareho silang pumanhik na sa kani-kanilang silid matapos ang maiksi pang pag-uusap. Nakatulog siya na ang nasa isip ay ang pag-uusap nila ng kasintahan.

Kinabukasan ding iyon ay nakipagkita siya kay Drake. He told her to wait in their resort’s coffee shop. His family own the Villafuente Beach Resort. Just just weeks ago, he took over the position of being a CEO of the said beach resort after his father retired. Kaya busy rin ang kasintahan niya dahil sa trabaho.

“Hi there, beautiful…” Napaigtad si Alexza ng may malambot na labing humalik sa leeg niya at may matitigas na brasong pumalupot sa bewang niya.

She’s sitting in a table with two. Drake is hugging her from behind. His manly seductive scent starting to invaded her senses.

“Hindi ba ako nakakadistorbo?” Malambing niyang tanong at dinampian ng halik ang labi nito.

“You will never be…” Huling halik sa leeg niya bago ito naupo sa katapat niya.

Nakailang lunok siya bago kumalma habang pinagmamasdan ang kaharap. He’s wearing a white long sleeve polo, the sleeves were tight enough to make his arms muscles visible on her eyes. Ang nakatuping sleeves hanggang sa siko nito ay sapat na para matanaw niya ang mga galit na ugat sa braso nito pababa sa ibabaw ng palad.

His aura and everything about him is too much for her, but she’s glad that she can still handle him.

One look, then you will realized that you were looking at the CEO of that place. The mighty Drake Villafuente was sitting there, staring back at her with amusement dancing on his eyes. His sexy lips were in thin line, he’s not smiling.

“I have something to confess, love…” Umusli ang nguso niya, kinakabahan sa mga titig ng kasintahan.

Maingat na hinawakan nito ang dalawa niyang kamay at dinala sa labi nito bago masuyong hinalik-halikan.

“What is it?” Kung gaano kalambing ang gesture nito, gano’n din ang boses. Gusto nang matunaw ng puso niya.

Alexza took a deep sigh and force herself to look on his eyes directly. Nervously, she started to speak.

“We talked about you last night while having dinner with my parents and Kuya Dwaye,”

“Hmm…” He hummed, while kissing her hands.

“And my parents told me that…” She bit her lower lip, not wanting to tell it but she needed him to know all of it. “…that they doesn’t like you for me.”

Ilan segundo pa silang nagtitigan. Madamdamin at nananantiya. Kinakabahan talaga siya.

“Do you think I give a damn?” Drake ask softly. Halatang wala talaga itong pakialam, ikinagulat niya iyon ng bahagya. “I only care about you… I only want is you.” Masuyo nitong ikinulong nito ang dalawang kamay niya sa palad nito. “Sayo lang ako makikinig. Ang nararamdaman mo lang ang mahalaga sa akin.”

Her heart beat wildly. She could handle her heartbeat but not the smile on her lips. She could feel how much he love her. He was making her feel it the way he hold her both hands lovingly. Para bang ingat na ingat ito sa kamay niya.

“Hindi mo na ako iiwan?” That words escaped her lips without even noticing it. Maybe because that’s what on her mind. That’s her only concern.

“Who told you that?”

“Because you might leave me because my parents doesn’t like you for me…” it sounds so childish, but she couldn’t help herself.

She doesn’t want him leave her because of it. She needs an assurance from him that he will never leave her just because of her parents.

“Do you think am I that easy to give up? No,” He said the last word harshly, but the way he hold her hands, it remain gentle.

“Hindi mo ako iiwan?” Iyon talaga ang pinupukpok niya. Takot talaga siya na iwan ng binata.

“I will never leave you, Alexza. Never. Trust my words, baby. Hold on to my words because when I say it, I mean it.”

Nakahinga siya ng maluwag sa assurance sa tinig ng kasintahan. Iyon lang naman ang gusto niyang marinig. Hindi siya iiwan ni Drake dahil lang sa magulang niya. Isa pa, nakakasiguro naman din siya na magbabago pa ang saloobin ng mga ito para sa binata.

Papatunayan niya sa magulang na si Drake ang lalaking karapat-dapat sa kanya. Wala nang iba. Si Drake lang ang mamahalin niya hanggang sa huli.

“Hindi rin kita iiwan, Drake… I will fight for you no matter what.” Umalis siya sa inuupuan at lumapit dito para malambing na yumakap. He let out a short chuckle on what she did.

She doesn’t care if whoever was looking at them. The staffs or even the customer in that coffee shop. She’s hugging a CEO and she’s proud to tell the world that Drake Villafuente is her man.

“I love you so much, Drake…” she whispered heartedly.

Drake kiss her arm and whispered back. “Prove it to me baby…” The hint of naughtiness and sexiness on his voice, making her giggled silently.

She’s very familiar on that tone from him!

“My pleasure.” She kiss his earlobe lightly that made him groan. She even move closer so he could feel her breasts on his arm. “I want to make love with you…” bulong niya sa ilalim ng tenga nito.

He groan even more at that. And it sounds so sexy. Damn boy, it turns her on.

His arm muscles tensed up because of their body contact.

Drake suddenly held her hand and stood up. He tilted his head forward and whisper,

“In my office baby… I miss your moans, I fucking miss tasting your sweetness…”

Alexza’s face rose up. She could feel the heat between them. They walk towards the exit door, holding each other hands.

Drake was her first. She doesn’t even care if she give herself again and again to this man, because she love him so much and she’s willing to give everything for him just to make him happy and satisfied with her.

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A/N: Flashback po ’yan. ☺️

Btw, I did not proofread this story yet.

Share your thoughts. 💞

3 ~ Marry (SPG)

A/N: Flashback pa rin po ’to. Share your thoughts. ☺️

CHAPTER

THREE

SA

ELEVATOR palang ay damang-dama na ni Alexza ang matinding pagpipigil ni Drake na huwag siyang dambahin ng halik.

The way he tightly hold her hand, she could feel the control on it. The way his jaw move, its dangerous but she found it hot. Dagdagan pa nang magkasalubong na makakapal na kilay nito habang matiim na nakatitig sa kanya sa repleksyon nila sa pinto ng elevator.

She wants to smile at him through their reflection, it’s just that her heart was beating nervously and excitedly of thinking on what will happen in the next minutes.

Nang bumukas ang pinto ng elevator ay mas lalong nagligalig ang puso niya. Hawak pa rin ni Drake ang kamay niya nang pumasok sila sa opisina nito. Her eyes started roaming around his office. Its her first time there, she felt proud of herself because he brought her there.

She heard him double locked the door behind her.

“Drake… I don’t think it’s…” he cut her off with a rough kiss. Tila napatid na ang lubid ng ilang minutong pagtitimpi.

She could feel the wooden door on her back. Ang mga malalim na ukit ng disensyo ng pintuan ay dumadampi sa kanya likod.

Umawang kaagad ang labi niya nang padulasin ng binata ang isang palad sa bewang niya, paikot sa likod niya bago natunton ng daliri ang hook ng bra niya.

He was kissing her with so much emotion on it, his tongue was skillfully exploring inside  of her mouth. Nilabanan niya ang halik nito. She was answering his kiss with all her heart. Nag-e-espadahan ang dila nila. Panaka-naka ay sinisipsip nito ang dila niya na mas lalo lang nagpainit sa kanya.

He unhook her brassier. With her help, they both remove her sleeve less top. His lips went down to her neck, giving her a wet kisses on that part.

Alexza tilted her head up, giving him complete access to her neck. Ang mahihinang hinaing sa labi niya ay kumakawala na nang bumaba ang labi ni Drake sa mamayan niyang dibdib. Habang ang agresibo nitong kamay ay humahaplos na sa kanyang hita.

“Ummm,” Isang pigil na ungol ang kumawala sa labi niya nang sakupin ng kasintahan ang ut*ng niya. His other thumb was teasing her other taut nipple.

Ramdam niya ang pagtayo at pag-init ng ut*ng niyang nasa loob ng bibig nito. He’s sucking her nipple like a hungry baby. She’s starting to lose her sane.

Ang kaninang nakapikit niyang mata ay idinilat niya upang panoorin ang kasintahan kung paano nito sambahin ang katawan niya. He’s now sucking her other nipple. Wala pang ilang minuto ay  napansin niya na kaagad ang iilang pantal sa paligid ng isa niyang dibdib. He really love leaving his kiss mark on her body. He love marking her.

“D-Drake…”

Para na siyang kakapusin ng hininga nang hinawi ng kasintahan ang panty na suot niya at inumpisahan hagurin ng daliri nito ang hiwa niya. She’s soaking wet. She’s so turn on.

Her hand went to his hair. Masarap siyang napakapit sa buhok nito at napatingala nang bumaba sa tiyan niya ang mga halik nito. Wala pa man din ay gusto niya nang i-buka ang hita.

Slowly, he pulled up her mini skirt. Nasa bewang niya na iyon. He’s kneeling in front of her. Ang mainit nitong hininga ay tumatama sa puson niya. She’s still wearing her black lacy panty. She badly want to remove it so Drake could start kissing her down there, but she control herself. Its funny how she manage it.

“Love…” his bedroom voice, making her look down on him.

“Hmm?” Kagat labi na sambit niya, ang isang kamay ay nakahawak sa ulo nito, humahaplos sa buhok.

“Can I remove this?” Tukoy nito sa panty niya, he’s teasing her.

Alexza groan desperately. “Y-yes, love.”

Namungay ng husto ang mga mata ni Drake, umapoy sa matinding pagnanais. Para siyang nalasing nang marahan na ibinaba ng kasintahan ang panty niya, mariin siyang napapikit muli ng tumama ang mainit nitong hininga sa pagkababae niya.

“I love it when you shave,” tunog papuri iyon. It boost her confidence.

“I know,” Tukso niya.

Bumaba ang dalawang palad nito sa binti niya at maingat na pinaghiwalay ang mga hita niya. Her black lacy panty was sexily lay on her feet.

Napaigtad siya ng bahagya nang maramdaman ang thumb ng kasintahan sa perlas niya. Her little bud ache for his touch. Tila sabik na sabik siyang mahaplos ng binata.

He encircled his thumb on her soft nub while his other finger were rubbing her wetness.

“Please…” pakiusap niya sa hindi malaman na rason. “Please love…”

“Please what?” He whispered huskily, he’s kissing her thighs, avoiding the sensitive part in between.

“Lick me… please, baby…” she begged as if her life depends on what he will do.

Tuluyan na siyang napasambunot kay Drake nang itaas nito ang isang hita niya at ipatong sa balikat nito bago niya naramdaman ang pagdulas ng dila nito sa hiwa ng pagkababae niya.

Gamit ang dalawang daliri ay mas lalo nitong ibinuka ang pisngi ng pagkababae niya bago sunud-sunod na hinimod ng dila ang kabasaan niya.

“Ooohh, Drake… ohhh,” she’s grinding her hips while he’s eating her. “More love, ohhh… ummm…”

Parang uhaw at gutom si Drake habang hinihimod at pinapasadahan ng dila nito ang pagkababae niya. Naghahalo na ang katas niya at ang laway nito pero wala silang parehong pakialam.

Naka-focus lang siya kung paano ekspertong gumagalaw ang dila ni Drake para paligayahin siya. His one arm were wrap around her leg on his shoulder, locking her, so she couldn’t escape from him, unless he’s done with her.

Mahigpit na ang pagsambunot niya sa kasintahan at malakas na rin ang mga ungol na lumalabas sa kanya ng pati ang daliri ito ay nakialam na.

His thumb were lightly massaging her cl*t while he’s licking it using the tip of his tongue. Pumipintig ang parteng iyon ng katawan niya, sarap na sarap sa bawat hagod ng dila ng kasintahan.

He’s really focus on that part. Ang masarap na sensasyon ay bumabaliw sa kanya. Nag-uumpisa ng manginig ang tuhod niya sa sarap, but Drake doesn’t give a damn bout it.

He continue licking and lapping her womanhood. She moan her heart out. She keeps on grinding her hips on his face, gustung-gusto niya kapag tumatama ang pagkababae niya sa kahit anong parte ng mukha nito. At alam niyang gusto rin ni Drake ang bagay na ’yon.

“Ohhh, please… stop, Drake! Drake!” She keeps on shouting his name, she could taste her own orgasm.

Dumiin ang kapit niya sa buhok nito at lumalim ang kuko niyang nakakapit sa braso ni Drake nang sunud-sunod at ulit-ulit na sinipsip nito ang cl*toris niya.

Sinipsip nang sinipsip na para bang may makukuhang masarap na katas do’n. Sinipsip nang sinipsip hanggang sa malakas siyang napaungol at inilabas ang katas niyang hinihintay nito.

“L-Love…” napapagod na tawag niya kay Drake at nanghihina na napasandal sa pinto. Nanginginig ang mga binti niya. Nangangawit ang isa na nakasaklay sa balikat ng kasintahan. “Stop licking me…please,” she beg as he continue licking her.

He was licking her in a very gentle and slow movement, para bang dinadama nito ang lasa ng katas niya.

“I want more…” he whispered, “more of you…”

Maingat siyang tumango. “But not licking again…please… Hindi ko pa kaya maramdaman ulit ang dila mo…” pakiusap niya dahil pakiramdam niya, sa dila palang ni Drake ay laspag na ang pagkababae niya.

“I can see,” he smirk and stare at her womanhood. Para bang satisfied itong makita ang ginawa nito sa pagkababae niya kanina lang.

Napanguso siya. Alam niyang namumula na naman iyon. Gano’n naman palagi ang kinakalabasan sa tuwing nagpagtutuunan iyon ng pansin ni Drake.

“My legs is shaking…” reklamo niya na ikinatawa nito ng bahagya.

Maingat na binuhat siya ni Drake at inilapag sa lamesa do’n. There she is, laying her back on his table, her legs parted, getting ready for him. Her heels were in the edge of the table.

She’s watching him removing his long sleeve polo. Her man is so damn gorgeous. Hindi na nga siya nagtaka kung bakit unang kita niya palang dito ay patay na patay na siya, lalo na ngayon.

His built is very intimidating. He’s tall and very masculine. She can understand now why women ogling at him every time they are in a public place. It irritates her. She become selfish when it comes to him. She wants him for her only.

Napalunok si Alexza nang tumambad sa kanya ang matipunong katawan ni Drake. Animo hinulma ito ng batikang sculptor. Sa lapad ng dibdib ay kayang-kaya siyang ikulong. Ang matitigas na muscles sa tiyan ay sadyang nakakaakit sa paningin. Sa ilang beses niya nang nakita na hubad ang kasintahan, para pa rin siyang isang teenager na naglalaway kapag nakikita ang katawan nito.

Drake slowly unbuckle his belt, his eyes never left hers. Parang may kung anong tumutusok sa dibdib niya dahil sa titig na iyon.

“You want help?” She ask, looking down on his torso.

“I would like it, but no thanks love.” He smirk and unzip his black slack.

The bulge between his thighs is very viable. Naghahalo ang excitement niya at ang kaba lalo na nang ibaba ng bahagya ni Drake ang slacks kasama ang boxer shorts.

“I wanna touch you…” she pout her lip, pointing his erect manhood.

He’s so huge. Wala pa man din ay nagagalit na ang mga ugat sa pagkalalaki nito. Para bang anumang oras ay handa na siyang parusahan.

“Maybe later?” Anito at nag isang hakbang palapit sa kanya.

Drake held her one leg and put in on his shoulder. She began to move her hip forward when she felt the tip of his manhood teasing her entrance. Nasasabik na siyang maramdaman ito sa loob niya.

“Ipasok mo na…Drake…” iritado niyang pakiusap, nakahawak siya sa magkabilang gilid ng lamesa, habang ang mga kamay ni Drake ay nakapirmis sa balakang niya.

“Impatient, are we?” Tukso nito at pinaglandas ang isang palad sa impis niyang tiyan, masuyong humahaplos sa parteng ’yon. Tumataas ang balahibo niya sa karagdagang sensasyon.

“Love naman…” magkasalubong na ang mga kilay niya. Sabik na sabik na talaga.

Unti-unti ay yumukod si Drake upang mahalikan siya, kasabay niyon ay ang pagpasok din ng kahabaan nito sa loob niya.

Hindi sinasadya na nakagat ni Alexza ang labi ng kasintahan ng bigla nitong isagad ang pagkalalaki. Pakiramdam niya ay umabot iyon sa puson niya!

“Ooohhh,” Impit niyang ungol sa labi ni Drake nang mas sinagad pa nito ang sandata sa kaloob-looban niya.

She arch her body when his mouth started kissing and licking her breasts as he thrust inside her. Ang isang kamay niya ay masarap na humahaplos sa likod nito habang ninanamnam ang paglabas-masok ng kahabaan nito sa butas ng pagkababae niya.

“Y-yes…oohhh, ooh love! Ummm,” she moan and move her hips to meet his every hard thrust. She could feel his balls slapping her but as they both desperately move.

“Ohhh fuck… ohh,” Drake moan under his breath.

Mahigpit ang kapit nito sa balakang niya habang desperadong binabayo ang pagkababae niya. Naririnig niya ang langitngit ng lamesa sa bawat marahas na paglabas-masok ni Drake sa loob niya. Ang nagbabagsakan na gamit sa sahig ay hindi na nila pansin pa.

“Ohh baby… ohh! Ooohh! Drake!”

Her breasts was bouncing on his every deep and fast thrust. She stretch her one leg and let herself feel him even more. Alexza is moaning so loud, that she’s sure it turns him on.

Drake tilted his head back, his eyes were close, his lips were little bit parted and he looks so damn hot while thrusting hard inside her. His veined muscles that holding her waist firmly were rocking hard. Naglilitawan ang maninipis na ugat nito sa leeg pababa sa dibdib sa sobrang marahas na pag-galaw sa loob niya.

“Ohh damn it, love! Love! Drake! I’m… I’m… ohhh…”

Ang sarap na lumulukob sa kanya ay damang-dama niya na. Gusto niya nang ilabas iyon. And Drake was helping her to reach her orgasm by thrusting so deep and rough inside her.

Hindi na napigilan pa ni Alexza ang mahabang ungol nang minasahe na ni Drake ang cl*t niya gamit ang hinlalaki nito habang walang kapagurang binabayo ang pagkababae niya.

“Drake! Drake! Oohhh baby! Ohhhh…” it was a long moan from her before she exploded.

“Ohh, damn it baby…” isang malalim na bayo ang ginawa ng kasintahan bago ito tumigil, bago siya hinalikan sa noo at bumagsak ang katawan sa kanya.

Kahit hinihingal at parang nawala sa sarili ay ramdam niya pa rin ang mainit na likido na pumuno sa loob niya. Drake is still inside her, spreading all his seeds on her.

“Drake…” marahan na tawag niya habang masuyong sinusuklay ng mga daliri ang buhok nito.

He didn’t move a bit. Ang mukha nito ay nasa pagitan ng dibdib niya. His hot breath was hitting her breasts.

Drake just groan to answer her.

“I want to stay tonight.”

Do’n na nag-angat ng katawan ang kasintahan at hinugot ang pagkalalaki sa loob niya na parang nagpahinga rin.

“Are you sure?” Masuyong hinaplos-haplos nito ang tiyan niya gamit ang dalawang palad. Kakaibang sensasyon ang hatid niyon sa kanya. Masarap sa pakiramdam.

She nod a bit. “Yes, I want to stay with you.”

The one side of his lips curved up. “That’s new.”

Sa ilang buwan nilang magkasintahan, hindi niya pa nararanasan na matulog magdamag na ito ang katabi, at sa pag gising sa umaga ay ito ang mabubungaran niya. She wants to experience it. Gusto niyang maranasan ang midnight sex at morning sex with him. She wants to explore.

Her parents is too strict that until now she have a curfew! Ni ang pag punta sa Club ay hindi niya magagawa kung hindi kasama ang Kuya Dwaye niya.

“I want to sleep with you. I want to wake up one morning and the first person to see is you.”

Lumamlam ang mga mata nito habang para siyang bata na sinasabi dito ang pangarap niya.

Dinampian nito ng halik ang labi niya. “I will let you experience it. Just let me…”

Masaya siyang tumango-tango. Excited sa paparating na gabi. Excited na makakasamang matulog magdamag ang lalaking mahal niya. Maliit na bagay siguro sa iba, pero hindi sa kanya.

Binuhat siya ni Drake papunta sa bathroom at inilapag sa bath tub. Binuksan muna nito ang tubig bago pumwesto sa likod niya.

He’s gently massaging her both breast while kissing her nape. Nakikiliti siya kapag hinahalikan siya nito sa parteng iyon.

“Tell me, what’s your dream?” Maya-maya ay tanong niya.

Tahimik at nakaka-relax ang ganitong eksena sa pagitan nila. She felt so contented when she’s on his arms.

“You first.” Humalik ito sa balikat niya, ang isang kamay ay nasa tiyan niya.

“To marry you…”

She could feel the sudden pause of his movement, tila ba may nasabi siyang hindi nito inaasahan. Pero kalaunan ay gumalaw muli ang mga kamay nito upang haplusin ang iba’t-ibang parte ng katawan niya.

“Ayaw mo na talaga akong pakawalan?” He chuckle softly.

“Bakit? Ako ba gusto mong pakawalan?” Mataray niyang sabi.

“Ayaw…” humigpit ang yakap nito sa kanya. Ang baba nito ay nakapatong sa balikat niya. “Nasakin ka na, bakit papakawalan pa kita.”

“So, gusto mo rin akong pakasalan?” Naninigurado na siya!

Kung mga nitong nakalipas na buwan ay pilit niyang itinatanggi sa sarili ang pagpapakasal, ngayon ay hindi na. Gusto niya na iyon. Maybe it’s too early to talk about it, but she couldn’t help herself.

Dapat ay pareho sila ng gusto sa buhay. Hindi pwede na siya lang ang may pangarap na makasal dito…

“One day, I will marry you, Alexza. Kapag handa ka na.”

4 ~ Special Night

CHAPTER FOUR

INDEED that she’s in the bed of roses. Alexza face lit up and her smile widened while looking at Drake’s king size bed with full of petals of roses above it. Its more on red petals, pero meron ding iba’t-ibang kulay ng petals. Pink, yellow, white and even blue petals of roses.

Sa ibang bahagi ng kama ay may maliliit na kandila. She found it really romantic. Ang kulay pulang bulaklak ay tila sumisimbolo ng mainit na pagmamahalan nila ng kasintahan. The dim light, the flowers above his bed and the scent around the room, its so romantically erotic for her.

“Did you like it?” Drake wrap his arms territorially around her waist, hugging her from behind.

“Yes, very much!” Yinapos niya ang mga braso nitong nakalingkis sa kanya. “Pinaghandaan mo talaga ang gabing ’to ha.”

“For my girl, yes. This is our first night together. This night is very special to me. My bed should be that way.”

“Are we going to m-make love again tonight?” She ask shyly, bitting her lower lip.

“All night until morning, if that’s what my baby’s want.” He give a quick kiss on the side of her neck. She shiver at the sensation.

“I want to make love with you everyday…”

Drake let out a soft laugh under her ear. “If only your parents would allow you to see me everyday, why not?”

Hinarap niya ang kasintahan. She cupped his jaw gently using her palms.

“Itanan mo nalang ako, Drake…” She sounds desperate. She’s so in love with him that she always want to be with him.

Namungay ng husto ang mata nito. Bumaba ang labi at hinalikan ang kamay niyang nasa panga nito. Then he let out a sigh. Parang nahihirapan sa kung anong bagay.

“I’d like to be with you everyday, Alexza. Sabik na sabik ako palaging makita at mahalikan ka…kahit ang angkinin ka araw-araw…hindi ako magsasawa sayo.”

“Magsama na tayo kung gano’n…”

Maingat na si Drake naman ang sumakop sa pisngi niya gamit ang malapad na mga palad nito. He looks problematic and pressured. Masyado bang mahirap ang gusto niyang mangyari sa kanilang dalawa? Gusto lang naman niya ay makita at makasama ito araw-araw at gabi-gabi. Gusto niya itong maging asawa!

“That’s not easy as breathing, love.”

Malakas siyang napabuntong hininga sa disappointment. Maldita niyang iniwas ang mukha kay Drake at pabagsak na naupo sa dulo ng kama. Lumubog ang inuupuan niya dahilan para gumalaw ng bahagya ang mga petals na naroon. Kinuha niya ang kulay pulang petals at iyon ang pinagtuunan ng pansin.

Narinig niya ang muling pagbuntong hininga ng binata bago ito nag squat sa harap niya. His palms were place above her lap. Hindi niya ito pinapansin.

“Listen, I will try my best to see you everyday even I have so many works to do. Please, understand…” tunog nahihirapan na talaga ang paos nitong boses.

Umirap siya sa hangin. “You’re the one here who’s not yet ready to marry me.”

Mas lalo itong parang nanlumo sa kakapilit niya sa bagay na iyon. Ano ba ang hindi ma-gets ng kasintahan niya sa gusto niyang iparating? Magsama sila at magpakasal para hindi na sila maghihiwalay. That’s it. What’s hard on it? They love each other, ano pa ba ang dapat?

“Baby you’re still young for that…” his raspy voice is the only sounds she will always wants to hear.

“It’s not about the age, Drake. As long as we love each other, there’s nothing to worry about.”

Drake is turning thirty, while she’s twenty two. May ilang taon na agwat ang edad nila pero para sa kanya hindi iyon hadlang para sa pagpapakasal.

“Yes, it’s not about the age because it’s about maturity, Alexza. Marriage thing is not a joke.” Seryosong sabi nito tapos ay hinaplos-haplos ang hita niya. Parang mas kinakalma ang sarili kesa sa kanya.

“Or you don’t see me as your wife?” Ipinunto niya.

“You’re still my baby…”

“But I want to be your wife!” She growled like a kid! She’s so frustrated and desperate!

She doesn’t know that loving this man could make her feel so many mixed emotions. Naiiyak na siya sa sobrang pagkabigo sa mga sandaling iyon.

“Hush,” alo sa kanya ng kasintahan at hinalik-halikan ang gilid ng labi niya.

He’s now kneeling in front of her. Ang mga kamay nito ay nakapatong sa ibabaw ng kama, sa magkabilang gilid niya sa paraan na sinasakop siya.

“I want you to be my husband…” humikbi siya. “Bakit ayaw mo? Tama ba si Kuya Dwaye na hindi ka pa handa magpakasal? Bakit ba? Nasa tamang edad ka na naman. May sarili ka ng business. Mayaman ka. Bakit hindi pa tayo magpakasal?”

“Because you’re not yet ready for that.”

“Handa na ako!” Inis siyang humikbi at inis na iniwas dito ang mukha. “Hindi mo talaga ako mahal!”

Drake let out a long groan before burying his face on her stomach. He snake his arms around her. He looks hopeless.

“Kung alam mo lang kung gaano ako nagtitimpi na huwag kang ikulong dito sa kwarto ko at huwag ng ibalik pa sa bahay niyo…”

“Eh di ikulong mo na ako! Huwag mo na akong i-uwi sa amin! Dito na lang ako sayo.”

“Why are you so hardheaded?” Bigo nitong sabi sa kanya. “Akala ko ako ang territorial dito, bakit parang mas malala ka sa akin?” Mahina itong natawa, amuse.

“Kasi sa akin ka!”

Hinalik-halikan nito ang tiyan niya. His lips is so soft.

“Buntisin na lang kaya kita…” anito nang magtaas ng tingin sa kanya. His eyes were burning dangerously.

Nagligalig bigla ang pintig ng puso niya. Hindi niya malaman kung bakit kinabahan siya sa ideyang iyon, pero gusto niya. Gustung-gusto niya!

“P-payag ako…” bulong niya at kinagat ang pang-ibabang labi. Parang lasing na pinanood siya ni Drake. “B-buntisin mo ako…” bakit parang tunog pagmamakaawa iyon?

Wala na siyang narinig pang salita kay Drake dahil inumpisahan na nitong hubarin ang lahat ng saplot niya sa katawan. Pagkatapos ay pinahiga siya sa kama, dumikit sa likod niya ang petals. Sa gilid ng mga mata niya ay ang iilang liwanag mula sa kandila na sapat na para hindi siya mapaso ng apoy.

Ipinatong ng kasintahan ang mga paa niya sa dulo ng kama bago pinaghiwalay ang mga hita niya.

Alexza close her eyes and reach for his hair when she felt his tongue slowly and gently licking her womanhood.

“TEACHER! TEACHER!” That familiar voice making her woke up from her reverie.

Nagbaba siya ng tingin kay Blake, nakakapit ito sa laylayan ng dress na suot niya. Its Monday morning, and its miracle that Blake is too early at school.

He’s really cute wearing his school uniform. Ang linis-linis at ang bango-bango ng batang ito. Though lahat ng istudyante do’n ay ganon, pero iba talaga ang dating sa kanya ng anak ng ex boyfriend niya.

“Yes, Sweetheart?”

“Kanina pa po kita tinatawag teacher. What were you thinking?”

Kunyari ay nag-isip siya. Hindi niya naman pwedeng sabihin dito na ang daddy nito at ang relasyon nila dati ang iniisip niya. He’s too young to understand that.

“I’m thinking about why were you too early today?”

Bumalik ito sa inuupuan. Silang dalawa palang ang nasa room dahil nga masyado pang maaga. Siya naman ay nakatayo at nakasandal sa table niya, kaharap ito.

“Because I’m excited to see you, teacher. I missed you yesterday.”

Her heart melted. Parang may humaplos bigla do’n. The last time he saw him was Saturday night, nang nag dinner sila kasama si Drake. She shook her head as the memories of him and her kissing that night. Maybe, it was a mistake. Ramdam niya naman na pareho nilang na-miss ang isa’t-isa pero mali ang halik na iyon.

“One day lang tayong hindi nagkita, na-miss mo kaagad ako?”

“Opo,” Tumango-tango ito habang isini-sway ang mga paa na naka-hang sa upuan. “Miss kita teacher eh…” his voice sounds sad for her.

Napakurap-kurap siya dahil parang gusto niyang maiyak sa nangungulilang boses na iyon ng bata. He looks so innocent saying the words. Very honest and very smart.

“Promise, hindi na magpapa-miss si teacher, okay?” She wiggle her eyebrows playfully while smiling at Blake.

“Kahit Sunday? Pwede tayo magkita?” His face lit up so much. His eyes twinkle in happiness.

Sa sobrang liwanag ng mukha ng batang kausap, parang hindi niya kayang biguin ang pag-asa do’n.

Ano ba itong ginagawa niya? Ganito ba dapat ang teacher sa istudyante? Why even if it felt wrong, she also felt happy doing whatever Blake’s want to do? Just to make him happy? Very weird.

“If it’s okay to your dad, then yes…I can see you every Saturday and Sunday.”

“Dad would like it!” He exclaimed excitedly.

“Did you talk to him about it? Hmm?”

“Not yet teacher, pero love po ako ng daddy ko.” Sabi nito na para bang matik na na papayag ang ama nito sa anumang gustuhin ng anak. Drake spoiled his son so much.

“Nasaan nga pala ang daddy mo?” Huli na nang matanto niya ang tanong na iyon. Gusto niyang pamulahan ng pisngi sa pagngisi ni Blake.

“Why teacher? Miss mo ba ang daddy ko?”

“Hindi ha, I’m just asking.”

“Pogi po ba ang daddy ko?”

Nag-isip siya sandali. Ayaw niyang umamin kaagad. Ang itsura kasi ni Blake at parang tutuksuhin siya.

“Ahm, yes, he’s handsome, pero mas gusto kita kesa sa kanya.”

“Marami po ang girls na friends si daddy. Gusto mo ba siya maging friend?”

Girl friends? Baka naman girlfriends! Ngitngit niya sa loob niya. At ipinapakita pa talaga sa anak ang mga girl friends kuno!

“I don’t

like your dad to be my friend.“

“Bakit teacher? Ayaw mo ba sa daddy ko?” Inosenteng tanong nito. Pati ang mga mata ay napaka-inosente. Nakalimutan niyang bata pala ang kausap niya.

“It’s not like that, Blake. Iba kasi ako makipagkaibigan.” Hindi ako nakikipagkaibigan sa ex boyfriend ko. Gusto niya sanang idagdag pero napigil niya ang sarili.

“But tita Maisie likes my daddy as her friend.” Parang napapaisip ito bigla.

“Maisie? Your daddy’s friend?”

“Opo, and she want to be my mommy.”

Nag-isang linya bigla ang labi at kilay niya. Obviously, hindi gusto ang ideyang magiging mommy ni Blake ang isa sa napakaraming babae ni Drake! Hindi niya pa man din nakikita ang Maisie na iyon ay nahusgahan niya na kaagad.

“Teacher are you mad?”

Kumalma ang nag-ngingitngit na damdamin niya sa tanong ni Blake. Hindi niya na naman napigilan ang sarili. Apektado pa rin siya kay Drake!

She force a smile. “I’m not mad, Blake. I’m happy that your dad has many girl friends. Gusto mo bang maging mommy ang isa sa kanila?”

Mabilis na umiling ang bata. Natuwa siya sa reaksyon nito. So cute!

“Ayaw ko po teacher. Isa lang ang gusto kong maging mommy…”

So, may meron na palang napupusuan si Blake na maging mommy? Isa ba iyon sa mga babae ni Drake? Why she doesn’t like the feeling of Drake marrying other woman? And one of his women become Blake’s mother? The idea hurts her already.

“Sino naman?” She suddenly felt weak.

“Ikaw po, teacher. Gusto po kitang maging mommy.”

Ang puso niya ay marahan na pumipintig, tila ba idinuduyan siya. Hearing what’s this little boy wanted making her feel glad, especially knowing that she’s the one he wanted to be his mother. Her heart was jumping and dancing inside her chest.

“Bakit ako?” She’s wondering.

“I don’t know teacher.” He obviously doesn’t know the reason why he likes her to be his mother.

“We will talk about all of these some other time, okay? Nandito na ang mga classmates mo.”

Tumango naman si Blake at umayos na ng upo. Nagsidatingan na rin ang ibang mga kaklase nito ang iba ay sinalubong niya sa may pintuan.

“Good morning teacher,” bati sa kanya ng mga cute na cute niyang istudyante.

Natapos ang kalahating araw sa pagtuturo at pakikipaglaro niya sa mga bata. Nagsialisan na rin ang iba niyang istudyante nang dumating na ang mga sundo nito.

Nag-aayos na siya ng gamit nang mapansin niyang lumabas mag-isa si Blake. Iniwan ang bag sa upuan. Wala pa ang sundo nitong si Ricca.

Sinundan niya ang bata hanggang sa labas ng pinto. Mabagal itong naglalakad sa hallway. Hindi pa nakakalayo.

“Blake, saan ka pupunta? Wala pa ang sundo mo.”

Lumingon ito sa kanya. “I will look for daddy, teacher.”

Her heart beat stupidly. Malaman niya palang na magkikita sila ni Drake ay parang tangang tumitibok na naman ang puso niya para sa lalaki. Hindi na talaga siya natuto.

“H-hintayin mo na lang siya dito. Sasamahan kita habang wala pa siya.”

Huminto ito sa paglalakad tapos ay tumango. Napangiti siya nang maglakad ito pabalik sa kanya. But he walks as if he’s tired or something. Nag-aalalang sinalubong niya ito at nag squat sa harap nito.

“Are you okay, Sweetheart?” Kinapa niya ang noo at leeg nito. Matamlay ito. “Medyo mainit ka.”

“I’m not feeling well teacher.”

Tumango siya at kinarga ito. Pumasok ulit siya sa classroom at hininaan ang air con. Inupo niya si Blake sa upuan niya.

“Ang daddy mo raw ba ang magsusundo sayo ngayon?” Tumango lang si Blake.

Sa drawer niya ay may kinuha siyang files kung saan nakalagay ang mga contact information ng guardian ng mga istudyante niya. Natatarantang hinanap niya kaagad ang pangalan ni Drake sa listahan.

She get her cellphone and dialed his number while looking worriedly at Blake. Ilang ring lang ay may sumagot kaagad.

“Hello?” Boses babae iyon na ikinainit ng ulo niya. “Who’s this?”

“This is Alexza Mendez, Blake’s teacher, may I speak to Mr. Drake Villafuente?” Pormal na sabi niya kahit pa nanggigigil siya na babae ang sumagot sa tawag niya.

Its Drake’s personal number! Bakit hinahayaan nitong may humawak na iba sa cellphone nito?! At ano ba ang pakialam niya?! Bakit nagagalit siya?!

“Who’s that?” It was his deep baritone voice from other line, talking to the woman.

“Give the phone to Mr. Villafuente, I need to talk to him.” Bossy na kung bossy, pero kailangan niya makausap si Drake!

“Alexza,” Mariin siyang napapikit sa paos na boses ng hinayupak sa kabilang linya. Bakit ba kahit sa phone calls ay ang gwapo ng boses ng lalaking ito?! “What is it?”

“Nasaan ka na ba?! Bakit ang tagal-tagal mo?! Yung anak mo dito nilalagnat na, ikaw nakikipaglandian pa riyan!” Sa inis niya ay hindi niya na napigilan pa ang sarili.

“Woah, chill baby. I’ll be there in a minutes. Please, take care of my son.”

She ended the line without responding. Ibinalik niya ang cellphone sa bag niya. That man is so annoying!

Nag-aalala na kinarga niya si Blake para magpunta sa school clinic. Bakit ba hindi niya kaagad naisip ito kanina?

“Teacher I want to sleep,” Blake voice is so weak. His chin is on her shoulder.

“You may sleep now, Sweetheart. I’ll bring you to the clinic. We will wait for your daddy there.”

Pagdating nila sa clinic ay kaagad naman silang inasikaso ng nurse. Patulog na rin si Blake. Ang pag-aalala niya ay nabawasan na, hindi tulad kanina na para siyang natataranta.

Napaigtad pa siya sa inuupuan ng biglang bumukas ang pinto at iniluwa niyon ang lalaking kinaiinisan niya pero mahal niya naman. Drake hurriedly attended to his son and check him.

“How’s he?” He asked the nurse.

“He’s okay Mr. Villafuente, sinat lang.” sagot ng nurse at bumalik sa table nito.

“Blake! My baby!” Boses iyon ng babaeng kapapasok lang sa clinic.

Umikot sa ere ang eyeballs niya sa arte ng babae. She attended to Blake as if she’s the mother. She’s tall and stand like a ramp model. Makinis at maputi ang balat. She’s sophisticated. Ganito talaga ang mga tipo ni Drake sa babae kahit noon pa man.

“Maisie, my son is fine.” Si Drake tapos ay sumulyap sa kanya, inirapan niya ito.

“I’m was worried, Drake. I’m glad our baby’s fine.” Maisie dramatically said and hug Drake’s one arm, rubbing the side of her breast on his veined arms! The scene annoyed her so damn much!

Our baby? Akala niya ba hindi pa nakikita ang mommy ni Blake? Bakit kung makaangkin ang babaeng ito ay parang anak nga nito si Blake?

Naiinis na tumayo siya at padabog na lumabas ng clinic.

Aaminin niya na! Nagseselos siya! Siya dapat yong kasama ni Drake, eh! Sila dapat ang may anak, eh! Anong nangyari? Bakit ganito ang nangyari?

Sa tindi ng bugso ng damdamin niya ay gusto ng kumawala ng luha sa mata niya.

“Alexza!”

Mabilis na pinahid niya ang mata at huminga ng malalim ng tawagin siya ni Drake. Sinundan pala siya.

Nilingon niya ito at pormal na nagsalita. “Bakit?”

He took another step to get closer. He’s wearing a simple white v-neck shirt and denim pants, but damn, he’s still looks smoking hot!

“Bakit ka umalis?”

“Bakit hindi? Nandyan ka na naman, nandyan na ’yung mommy ni Blake. Ano pa ang gagawin ko sa loob? Panoorin kayo?”

She tried hard not to sounds bitter, sana successful siya ngunit parang hindi dahil nakita niya ang pag-angat ng gilid ng labi ng lalaki.

“Blake might look for you when he wake up,” he lick his bottom lip sexily. “Can you stay?” Ayaw niya! Pero kapag naiisip niya si Blake… “for my son.”

She glared at him for a moment para hindi siya mag-assume na ginagamit lang nito ang anak para manatili siya do’n.

“Nandyan naman ang mommy Maisie niya.”

“Please,” mariin na sambit nito habang nagungusap na nakatitig sa mga mata niya. “Stay,”

Hypnotized by the way he beg, by the way he stares at her, Alexza nod her head for approval.

“Okay, I will stay…for Blake.”

5 ~ The Only One

CHAPTER

FIVE

HINDI nga nagkamali si Drake nang sinabi sa kanya na maaaring hanapin siya ng anak nito kapag nagising. Dahil totoo na hinagilap nga siya ng mata ni Blake pagkatapos unang mabungaran ang ama.

“Teacher,” the kid call her and reach for her, stretching his weak arms.

Kaagad na tumayo siya sa inuupuan at dinaluhan ang bata. Sa gilid ng kama siya naupo, nasa likod niya naman nakaupo si Drake. Ramdam niya sa kanyang likod ang pamilyar na init na nagmumula sa lalaki.

While Maisie, is on the other side of the bed, trying to get Blake’s attention but the little boy eyes is only on hers.

Halos mag-isang oras din siyang nagtiis sa loob ng clinic na iyon kasama ang dating kasintahan ang babae nito, si Maisie. Mabuti naman at nagising na ang bata.

Alexza held his little fingers and kiss it. Her sweet gesture comes naturally without even noticing it. She really have a soft spot for kids.

“Kumusta ang baby namin?” Malambing niyang tanong. On her back, she heard a soft groan, it was from Drake. Hindi niya iyon pinansin. Focus siya kay Blake. “May masakit ba sayo?”

“My head ache a little,”

Lumambot ang puso niya, gusto nang matunaw. “The nurse will give you medicine for headache, but you have to eat first, okay lang ba ’yon?”

Blake nod. “I want cookies, teacher.”

Pansamantala siyang napatitig sa bata bago nilingon si Drake, malamlam ang mga mata nitong nakatingin sa anak.

“Hindi cookies ang binili mo, di ba?”

Bumili kasi ito ng pagkain kanina kasama si Maisie at wala naman siyang nakitang cookies do’n.

“I did not expect him to eat cookies today,” sabi ni Drake at bahagyang umusog upang hawakan ang hita ng anak.

Sa pag-usog nito ay automatikong dumikit ang dibdib nito sa likod niya, napanguso siya. Ang pamilyar na sensasyon sa pagdidikit ng katawan nila ay hindi nawala, hindi nagbago. Siguro ay siya lang ang nakaramdam niyon dahil mukhang hindi naman apektado ang lalaki.

“Bake cookies for me daddy…” Blake requested weakly.

“And Mama Maisie will help daddy to bake cookies for baby Blake, okay?” Masiglang sambit ni Maisie at matamis na nakangiti kay Blake.

Umismid siya. Hindi niya gusto ang babae at hindi rin siya nito gusto, alam niya iyon dahil matalim lagi ang bawat bato ng tingin nito sa kanya.

“I only want daddy’s cookies tita Maisie,” Blake whispered then look at her again. “And I want my teacher,”

“Huh?” Aniya. Hindi siya sigurado sa nais ng bata.

“Do you know how to bake cookies?”

“Yes,” proud na sagot niya. Libangan niyang kainin ang cookies noon pa man magpahanggang ngayon lalo na kapag siya ang nagbibake. “I will bake you cookies, okay?”

“Now?”

Napangiwi siya at napalingon ulit kay Drake pero suplado itong nag-iwas ng tingin sa kanya. Ayaw yata nito ang ideya niyang magbibake ng cookies.

“Your daddy can bake you cookies later when you guys get home.” Sabi niya na lang pero parang gusto niyang bawiin iyon nang makita niyang mas lalong tumamlay ang mukha ni Blake at hindi na nagsalita.

“Why don’t we go home now little champ so daddy could bake you cookies?” Drake said patiently.

“That’s a good idea. Umuwi na tayo para mas makapagpahinga si Blake.” Si Maisie na tumayo na at kinuha ang mamahalin na bag sa side table.

Sasama pa talaga itong babaeng ’to sa Villafuente’s beach house? Do’n kasi nakatira ang mag-ama, katabi lang ng Beach Resort ni Drake.

Tumayo na rin siya nang pumayag si Blake na umuwi na. Kinarga ito ni Drake palabas ng clinic, nakasunod si Maisie pero siya ay sa nurse dumeretso.

“Excuse me, how about Blake’s medicine?” Untag niya sa nurse.

Nakangiti itong nag-angat ng tingin sa kanya. “Okay na po Miss Alexza, natawagan ko na ang private nurse ni Blake, papunta na po ’yon sa bahay nila sa mga oras na ’to.”

“Private nurse?”

The nurse nod. “Yes po, Blake has private nurse every time he got a fever. Kinukumbulsyon po kasi ’yung bata kapag sobrang taas na ng lagnat. Mabuti nga po at nadala mo siya kanina kaagad dito.”

The news made her weak and even more worried. Paano kung lagnatin na naman si Blake? Paano kung umabot sa titirik ang mga mata ng bata dahil sa sobrang taas ng lagnat? Parang hindi niya kayang makita sa ganoong sitwasyon si Blake.

“G-gano’n ba. Sige Miss, salamat.” Aniya saka nagmamadaling sinundan sila Drake.

Sa parking lot niya na naaubutan ang tatlo. Nasa backseat si Blake at si Maisie, si Drake naman ay papasok na sana sa driver’s side pero nahinto nang makita siyang papalapit.

His brooded eyes that stares at her, makes her feel so uncomfortable. His browse furrowed before he spoke.

“Did you forget anything, Miss Alexza?” The formality of his tone is the reason why her heart is beating hurtfully. It sounds like a conversation between teacher and her student’s parent.

Dahil sa kirot ng puso niya ay hindi siya pansamantalang nakapagsalita. She avoided his gaze and drop her eyes on the tinted window  at the backseat of his black Bentley. Without clearly seeing Maisie and Blake inside, her chest tightened bitterly for some reason, jealousy suddenly eat her.

She wanted to be Maisie all of sudden so she could be with Blake, so she could take care of Blake. She want to do it. But how? If the man in front of her is obviously hates her.

Alexza gulp and compose herself, trying her best to act normal even deep inside, she’s hurting because of so many reasons.

“G-gusto ko lang sabihin na…huwag mo na muna papasukin si Blake bukas kahit gumanda na ang pakiramdam niya.”

Drake eyes remain on her. He did not bother to speak, nakatitig lang ito sa kanya. Kahit noon pa man ay hirap na siyang basahin ang saloobin ng kaharap, pero isa lang ang sigurado siya sa ngayon…

Drake hate her. Drake hate her presence.

Nakiusap lang ito sa kanya kanina para kay Blake. Wala nang iba. Ang kaunting pag-asa na bumangon sa dibdib niya kanina ay isinantabi niya na.

Siguro nga ay dapat itigil niya na ang nararamdaman para sa binata. Ilang taon na ang nakalipas, hindi na sila babalik sa dati. Hindi na siya ’yung babaeng mahal ni Drake. Hindi na siya ’yung babaeng gusto nitong pakasalan. Hindi na siya ’yung babaeng gusto nitong maging ina ng mga magiging anak nito. Malaki na ang nagbago. Ang pagmamahal niya lang naman para dito ang hindi.

“Okay,” his voice was cold. It won’t help her. “Anyway, thank you for taking care of my son while waiting for us.”

“W-walang anuman,” she force to have a casual tone but her voice cracked. “M-mag-iingat kayo,”

Huminga siya ng malalim. Ang mga titig nito ay nakakapaso, para bang maraming gustong sabihin pero mas piniling kimkimin. Tahimik na gumagalaw ang galit na mga panga.

Hindi niya na kaya pang tumagal sa gano’ng sitwasyon, kaya siya na mismo ang umiwas.

Alexza walk towards her car and hop inside. Sa windshield ay tanaw niyang pumasok na rin si Drake sa sasakyan nito.

With teary eyes, she watch his car drove away…drove away from her.

Napakapit siya sa manibela at tumingala. Sinusubukan niyang pigilan ang mga luha. She deserve this pain she was feeling. After all, it was all her fault.

Walang ginawa noon si Drake kundi intindihin at mahalin siya, pero ano ang ginawa niya? She left him. She left the man she love so much without saying good bye, without leaving a trace on where he could find her. She left him without giving him a reason why.

Think how painful it was on his part?

Tuluyan ng bumagsak ang mga luhang kanina pa pilit na pinipigilan. Kung sana dinagdagan niya ang tapang noon, hindi na sana siya nasasaktan ngayon.

IT WAS a lonely midnight. Drake can not sleep, he’s fucking worried about Blake. His son is already sleeping peacefully, but he couldn’t get his ass off to bed. There’s so many things running on his mind.

Bumabalik sa balintanaw niya ang pagtirik ng mga mata ni Blake at paninigas nito dahil sa kumbulsyon noong dalawang taong gulang pa lamang ang anak. Ayaw niya nang maulit iyon. Akala niya mawawala na sa kanya si Blake, abot langit talaga ang takot niya nang araw na iyon.

Sa nangyaring iyon ay mas lalo siyang sobrang napalapit sa anak, sobra-sobra rin ang pagka-spoiled nito na kahit imposible na ang hiling nito ay gagawan niya talaga ng paraan.

Isang bagay pa na nagpapahirap sa kanya sa ganitong sitwasyon ay dahil napakahirap pakainin ni Blake kapag may sakit ito. At ngayon ay mas lalo siyang pinahirapan ng anak dahil sa paulit-ulit na request nito na gusto nitong makita si Alexza pag-gising nito.

You know what he just did? He promised to his son that he will call Alexza to visit tomorrow, after that, Blake finally ate.

His ex girlfriend should be out of his life. He fucking hate her presence, but he also fucking admit how he missed her so bad. Sa sobrang pagkamiss niya sa dalaga, halos sakalin niya na ang sarili sa pagpipigil na huwag lang madala ulit sa mga bisig niya kapag kaharap ito.

That’s why he doesn’t like to get near her, because he doesn’t trust himself when it comes to her. Alexza Mendez is the only woman who can always tame the beast inside him just by standing in front of him, doing nothing but stare at him. Very unfair.

Drake sipped on his vodka while looking at the colorful midnight lights of his beach resort. From the veranda of Blake’s room, on his beach house, he can see the whole place. The wave of the dark ocean calm him, always.

He’s about to get his lighter for his cigarette when his phone suddenly vibrate. Hindi niya sana papansinin iyon ngunit nang makita na numero lang ay napilitan siyang damputin ang aparato at sagutin iyon.

“Who’s this?” Bungad niya, hindi pa man din nakakapagsalita ang kabilang linya.

“Its me, A-Alexza,”

Drake close his eyes tightly when he heard her voice, natural na malambing ang boses nito. Gustung-gusto niyang naririnig iyon.

“What do you need?” He used his flat tone. “It’s already midnight Alexza. Why calling?”

“G-gusto ko lang malaman kung nawala na ba ang lagnat ni Blake? How’s he? Kumain ba siya ng cookies? What else he wants to eat? Maybe I could cook for him?” Drake bit his lips, suppressing a smug smile. He’s going crazy again! “Drake! Ano ba!? Magsalita ka naman! Nag-aalala ako sa anak mo! Hindi ako makatulog kakaisip! Mababaliw ako—”

“Come here tomorrow morning and cook for him.” He cut her off gently. And yes, she sounds so desperate and insane. He could almost hear her small sobs. Its very odd. She shouldn’t feel that way. Right? Because it’s too much for teacher and student relationship. “And stop worrying, my son is okay and he’s already sleeping. Matulog ka na rin.”

“Pwede akong magpunta bukas?” Excited na tanong nito. Parang mas lalong ayaw matulog. Parang mas nabuhayan. The woman is really unbelievable. She made him speechless. “Drake? Are you there? Answer me! Drake!”

He curse silently. He missed hearing her calling his name in frustration. He sipped on his vodka, trying to erase the feeling of missing her by drinking the bitter liquid. Gumuhit ang pait at init sa lalamunan niya, pansamantalang inalis ang pagkamiss sa dating kasintahan.

“Yes, come and visit tomorrow before you go to your class.”

Drake heard her sigh in relief. Tunog nabunutan ng tinik sa lalamunan. Tunog nang nakatanggap ng magandang balita.

“I will. Ano ba ang gusto ni Blake kainin?”

She could not hide the excitement on her voice. Bukod sa rinig niya, dama niya rin ang kasabikan ng dalaga na makita ang anak niya.

“Your favorite,”

“Seafoods?”

“Yes,”

“Shrimp na lang siguro ang lulutuin ko bukas? Hipon na sinabawan. Yung maasim.”

“He would love that,”

Of course, his son love shrimp na sinabawan at inasiman. Very far from his likes.

“Ahm, paano ka? Hindi ka kumakain masyado ng shrimp.”

Gusto niyang mapangiti pero sinaway niya ang sarili. Why she sounds worried about him? Ayaw niya nang paniwalaan ang pag-aalalang ipinapakita nito. They are not the same anymore. Iba na ngayon, kumpara noon.

“I can handle myself, Alexza.” Instead, he said casually. Trying to hide the bitterness that building up inside him again. “You will cook for my son, not for me.”

“I’m sorry,” her voice sounds sad. Parang may pumitik sa dibdib niya. “I’ll be there by five in the morning, Drake.”

“Okay,”

“S-see you and Blake tomorrow. G-good night.”

Mas pinili niya nalang na hindi magsalita at hinayaan na ito mismo ang pumutol ng linya makalipas ang ilan minutong katahimikan sa pagitan nila.

He drink the last shot of his vodka before he went inside and lay his back beside his son, hoping that he can get some sleep, but thinking that Alexza will visit tomorrow kept him awake.

He loathed her but her presence excites the hell out of him. Despite of all the pain she gave on him, still, she will always be the woman he wanted for him. She will always be the woman he dream about to be with him for a lifetime.

If only he could just forget all that happened, then, it would be easy for him to let her in on his life again…but things were very different now.

He needs a fucking explanation from her. Whatever her reasons, he fucking want to hear it. Alexza drove him insane for thinking her possible reasons for leaving him.

Kahit gaano pa kalalim o kabigat ang dahilan nito, handa niyang tanggapin ulit ang dalaga sa buhay niya. He doesn’t even need her sorry, he only need to know her reasons.

Sabihan lang sa kanya ng dalaga ang dahilan nang pag-alis nito noon, handa niyang tanggapin kahit ano pa ’yon, handa na naman siyang mabaliw bumalik lang ulit ito sa kanya.

He’s willing to take all the risk again, so he could have her again on his arms…on his life.

“D-daddy,” Blake suddenly called him sleepily, pulling him out from his deep thoughts.

Ibinaba niya ang tingin sa anak. His eyes were still close.

“Hmm?”

“Did you talk to my mommy?”

His forehead knotted. His son is on his dreaming state.

“Your mommy? No—”

“Is she going to visit tomorrow?”

“Oh, yes, she told me she will visit here tomorrow. Like what I promised to you.” He said, realizing that his son was referring to Alexza.

Blake sleepily nod his head and yawned, then shifted his position, his head is now resting on his hard stomach, making it his pillow.

“I want mommy… I want to see mommy tomorrow…” his son keep saying that words.

He knew it. His son was looking for a mother. Thinking about how his son wants a mommy so bad makes him feel guilty for not finding a woman to do it, guilty because he only wanted one woman to be Blake’s mother…that’s why he doesn’t give a damn to find one. That was a selfish move for him.

“Yes, she will be here early tomorrow.” He whispered, brushing his son’s hair with his fingers. “Your mommy will be here,” even in this situation, he could at least claim Alexza as his son’s mother. Even if its only a dream and a lie.

6 ~ Words

CHAPTER SIX

MADILIM pa lang ay bumyahe na si Alexza papunta sa beach house nila Drake. Kalahating oras ang layo niyon mula sa condominium niya na nasa syudad. Pagkatapos niyang makipag-usap sa binata no’ng hating gabi ay dinatnan din siya ng antok. Payapa ang naging tulog niya kahit ilang oras lang dahil alam niyang ayos na si Blake.

Aligaga siya buong maghapon kahapon kakaisip sa bata, nang mag gabi ay hindi niya na nakayanan at tinawagan na talaga si Drake upang mangamusta. She’s thankful that Blake is okay, she felt at ease because of that.

Ibinaba niya ang bintana ng sasakyan ng makatapat sa gate ng beach house. Pataas na ang araw, malamig pa rin ang simoy ng hangin. Ang hampas ng alon sa dagat ay marahan lang, nakakarelax.

“Good morning ho, bibisitahin ko lang po si Blake.” Magalang na bati niya sa security guard sa gate ng bahay ni Drake.

“Pangalan ho, Ma’am?”

“Alexza Mendez, Blake’s teacher.”

Tumango lang ito na para bang inaasahan na na darating siya ng gano’n kaaga. The gate went open, pinaandar niya ang sasakyan niya sa loob.

Drake beach house is newly renovated. Hindi ganito ito noon. Mas nagmukhang moderno na ngayon ang dalawang palapag na bahay sa harap niya. The wall is the combination of white and royal and light blue, kasing kulay ng dagat. Each window and wall glass weren’t tinted enough, you can still see some parts from inside.

Bumaba siya sa white Chevrolet niya at kumatok sa mayor na pinto. Naka-ilan katok na siya pero wala namang nagbubukas.

“Tulog pa po siguro ang mag-ama, Ma’am.”

Napalingon siya sa nagsalita. Ang puting polo shirt na suot nito ay katulad ng gwardiya sa gate. Malamang, gwardiya rin ito.

“Ang mga kasambahay ho kaya?”

“Mamaya pang alas otso pa ang dating ng mga ’yon. Pasok ka nalang sa loob Ma’am.”

“S-Sige po. Salamat.”

Iyon nga ang ginawa niya. Pinihit niya ang doorknob at napailing pa siya na hindi iyon naka-lock. Sa pagpasok niya ay nagpaka-feel at home siya. Sa kusina siya dumeretso at nag-umpisa ng maghanap ng lulutuin para sa almusal ng mag-ama. Of course, she did not only think about Blake, she also think about Drake. Sa ganitong paraan man lang ay makabawi siya sa ginawa niya sa lalaki.

Mula sa salamin ng bintana ng kusina ay tanaw niya sa labas ang unti-unting pag-liwanag ng paligid. Tahimik naman ang buong kabahayan. Halatang tulog pa ang mga nakatira.

She used to visit this beach house before, she and Drake had some memories here. His bedroom was her most favorite place of this house, because that’s the only place where she and Drake made love over and over again. It was the best feeling ever. She treasure it very much. She will never forget those days that she was with him. Kung sana ay pwede pang maulit ang mga sandaling iyon.

Pasado alas sais na nang matapos siyang magluto ng hipon na sinabawan, she also baked some cookies and pancake. Then she cooked garlic fried rice, bacon, ham and sunny side up egg for Drake. She made them milk and black coffee.

She smile at herself while looking at the breakfast she made. It feels like she’s making it for her husband and son. Damn, sana nga totoo nalang ang iniisip niya.

Dala ang unang tray ay nilagpasan niya ang kwarto ni Drake, sa halip ay ang katabing silid ang pilit niyang binuksan.

Tumalon ng husto ang puso niya nang makita ang itsura ng mag-amang mahimbing na natutulog. Blake is laying his head on Drake’s stomach, ang isang braso naman ng binata ay nakadantay sa tiyan ng anak.

The scene was heartfelt. Her heart melt that it makes her knees weak and it almost got her eyes in tears. Pangarap niya ang lahat ng ito. Pinangarap niya kasama si Drake. Hanggang pangarap na lang yata talaga ang mga ’yon.

Alexza slowly walk towards the side table, inilapag niya do’n ang tray na dala at lumabas ulit ng silid para kunin pa ang isang tray.

Sa pagbalik niya ay gano’n pa rin ang posisyon ng mag-ama. Nangingiti siyang pinagmasdan ang dalawa. They’re really look alike. Hindi maipagkakaila na mag-ama nga talaga.

Maingat siyang umupo sa gilid ng kama, sa tabi ni Blake at marahan na hinaplos ang kulay tsokolate at malambot na alon-alon nitong buhok.

Hindi niya akalain na magigising ito sa ginawa niya.

“Ooppss,” she uttered. Blake squeezed his eyes using the back of his small hand then force himself to look at her. “Good morning baby,” she smile at him and kiss his forehead.

“Morning teacher,” paos at mahina pa ang boses ni Blake.

Gumalaw ito at inihulog ang ulo sa kama mula sa tiyan ng ama. Tapos ay hinawi ang braso ng ama na nakatanday dito.

Drake suddenly moan, kinabahan siya kaagad pero nang tignan niya ay tulog pa rin naman.

“You want to sleep again? Or you want to eat breakfast? Hmm?”

Blake smile at her. “Did you cook breakfast teacher?”

“Yes, for you and…” sinulyapan niya ang gwapong lalaking natutulog. His cute snore making her smile. “And for your dad.”

“What did you cook?”

“Your favorite,” masayang sabi niya at inabot ang tray. “Choose what you like,”

Lumaki ang mata ni Blake at malikot na bumangon, napangiwi siya ng maupuan nito ang braso ng ama. Drake groan and shifted his position sleepily, tumagilid ito paharap sa kanya. Hinila ang brasong inupuan ng anak tapos ay dumantay sa hita niya.

Bigla ay nahirapan siyang huminga dahil sa kalabog ng dibdib niya. His arms always feels good on her skin. Pinilit niyang inignora ang braso ng binatang nakapatong sa hita niya at nag-focus na lang kay Blake.

“Teacher, I want cookies and pancake first,”

“Sure Sweetheart,”

“Baby,” Anito, kaya napatingin siya. “I like it when you call me baby. Your baby.”

Nanggigigil na mahina niyang kinurot ang pisngi ni Blake at hinalik-halikan ang buong mukha nito, hindi na pansin pa na sa pagyukod niya ay nadadaganan niya ang braso ni Drake ng dibdib niya.

“Ang cute cute talaga ng baby ko na yan…” Pinanggigilan niya ito ng husto.

Ewan niya ba pero ang gaan-gaan ng loob niya sa bata. She felt like he’s hers, para bang siya ang nagluwal dito. Para bang ito ay anak niya. Pero napaka-imposible niyon.

“Daddy! Wake up! Wake up!” Blake was patting Drake’s arm. Parang gusto pa nitong daganan ang ama.

“Don’t disturb your dad, baka puyat.”

But Blake did not listen. He straddle on his father, making Drake moan and snake his arms on is kid to stop him.

“Daddy’s still wants to sleep,” paos na pakiusap ni Drake, his bed hair looks good in the morning.

“My teacher is here! She cooked breakfast for us.”

Unti-unti ay nagmulat ng mata si Drake. Napalunok siya, kumabog na naman ang dibdib niya sa kaba. He’s looking at her.

“G-good morning,” she awkwardly greeted him with small smile on her lips.

“Morning baby,” Drake whispered huskily and sleepily.

“She’s not your baby!” Blake growl and throw a pillow on his father.

Hindi nito matanggap na tinawag siyang baby ni Drake. Habang siya ay kinikilig. Ang aga-agang kilig.

Drake chuckled, amuse on his son’s reaction. Natawa na rin siya habang inaawat si Blake sa paghampas ng unan sa ama.

“Stop it Blake, I’m not your daddy’s baby. Ikaw lang ang baby niya.” Marahan niyang saway at napaluhod na sa kama para lang maawat ito.

“My teacher is not your baby, daddy!”

Hindi siya sigurado kung nagseselos, nagagalit o nagtatampo si Blake.

“Yeah, yeah, she’s not my baby… but she used to be my baby…” Drake tease his son and it made Blake even more wild.

“No! No! She wasn’t!”

“She was, son…”

“Nooo!”

Drake bark of laughter echoed around the room. Panay ang pasag nito sa unan na hinahampas ng anak. She saw Blake’s teary eyes.

“Drake, stop na.” Saway niya sa lalaki at hinampas ito ng bahagya sa braso.

Gumapang siya kay Blake na nasa uluhan ng ama nito. Kinarga niya ito at dinala sa bisig niya habang nakapaluhod sa kama.

“Hush, daddy was just teasing you. Don’t cry baby…” alo niya.

Blake was now sobbing on her neck.

Naramdaman niya ang pag-galaw ni Drake, marahan nitong kinukuha ang anak pero ayaw naman bumitaw sa kanya ni Blake.

“Big boy don’t cry,” Drake said, “Come here, son. Nahihirapan si teacher sa posisyon niyo.”

Umiling-iling ang bata. Siya na lang ang nag adjust. Karga si Blake ay tumayo siya sa kama tapos ay naupo ulit, this time nakasandal na ang likod niya sa headrest ng kama. Sa gilid niya ay nakahiga si Drake.

“Stop crying na baby… kakain ka pa ng breakfast…” masuyo niyang pinunasan ang mumunting luha sa pisngi ni Blake nang i-angat nito ang mukha sa kanya.

“I don’t like you to be my daddy’s baby,” humihikbing sabi nito. Namumula na ang tungki ng ilong.

Tumango-tango siya. “Of course, ikaw lang ang baby niya—”

“Because daddy and baby don’t marry. That’s why I don’t like you to be his baby. It should be daddy’s wife, not baby.”

Natanimik siya bigla. Nag sink in kaagad sa utak niya ang ibig sabihin ng sinabi ni Blake. Too innocent but it gave her so much impact.

“I agree son, teacher should be daddy’s wife.” Sabi ni Drake at bigla na lang iniyakap ang isang braso sa tiyan niya, ang mukha nito ay nasa gilid ng balakang niya nakasiksik.

Her heart react violently at his gesture. The way he place his arm on her stomach, it feels so normal. Bumabangon ang kasabikan niyang mahaplos muli ng lalaki.

“Yes daddy,”

“Ask teacher if she want to be your mommy and want to be my wife.” Humigpit ang yakap ng braso ni Drake sa bewang niya, yung tipong wala siyang balak pakawalan. Yung tipong gusto na siyang ariin, ulit.

“Teacher, do you want to be my mommy? Do you want to be my daddy’s wife?” Blake asked her with innocent on his voice and eyes. “Gwapo naman kami ng daddy ko, hindi ka na po lugi sa’min.”

Drake body shook a bit because of laughter, controlling it.

She caress Blake’s hair and  kiss the tip of his cute nose. God knows how much she wanted to be a mommy, even with Blake she’s willing to be one.

“Of course, I want my baby Blake to have a mommy…” kusang bumaba ang isang palad niya sa ma-muscle na likod ni Drake at marahan na hinaplos-haplos iyon. She miss doing this to him. “But I need to talk to your daddy about all of these, okay? We will talk first.”

“Siguradong papayag po ang daddy ko…”

“Anak, masyado mo naman akong nilalaglag…” Drake said hoarsely, his face is on her hip.

Alexza chucked softly at that and continue caressing his back.

How she wish they could stay like that forever. The way she always wanted from the very beginning, she and Drake with their baby.

Blake suddenly snake his small arms on her neck, his knees were above his father’s arm which on her stomach. Kulong na kulong siya sa mag-ama. Pinagkakaisahan siya.

“Mag ama nga talaga kayo…” aniya habang ka-face to face si Blake na titig na titig din sa kanya. Gusto niyang matawa sa totoo lang. “You and your daddy are so clingy. Look what you are both doing on me…”

Maang na bumaba ang tingin ng bata sa posisyon nilang tatlo at nagsalubong ang kilay nito nang makita ang braso ng ama na nakayakap sa bewang niya.

“It’s okay, teacher, my daddy and I love cuddling.”

“I can see,” bumaling siya sa wrist watch niya, pasado alas siete na ng umaga, alas otso ay dapat nasa eskwelahan na siya. Ang bilis naman ng oras. Parang ayaw niya nang pumasok sa klase. “You need to eat baby boy, I will feed you.”

Naglikot si Blake sa ibabaw niya dahilan kung bakit napangiwi siya. Mabuti na lang talaga at nasa tiyan niya ang braso ni Drake kaya ang buong bigat ng bata ay hindi niya masyado nasasalo.

“Cookies teacher please…”

“Sure, baby.”

Gamit ang isang kamay ay inabot niya ang isang cookies at inumang iyon sa maliit na bibig ni Blake. She was watching him while he was chewing the cookies.

“This taste good teacher, better than daddy’s cookies.”

She felt Drake move a bit, breathing on her hip. Her one hand tracing his back up to his hair, she gently brush his hair with her fingers. Alam niyang gising na ang binata, ayaw lang talagang umalis sa tabi niya.

“I will teach your daddy some techniques to bake delicious cookies,” she again feed Blake another piece of cookies.

“Why teach him pa? If you can always bake cookies for me,”

Inabot niya ang baso ng gatas at pinainom ito. She starting to love feeding this kid. Hindi niya yata pagsasawaan pakainin ito kahit araw-araw pa ’yan.

“Son, teacher can’t bake cookies every time you want it. She has her own life to live.” Drake suddenly spoke.

“But daddy…”

“Don’t be too demanding with your teacher, Blake.”

The kid suddenly watch her with sadness on his face, his lips were little bit pouted.

Pinilit niyang ngitian ito. Ayos lang naman sa kanya kahit mag bake siya ng cookies kahit anong araw, basta para kay Blake.

“I’m sorry teacher.”

“No, no, Blake…” kaagad siyang nataranta. “It’s okay, I can bake cookies whenever you like. I promise.” Itinaas niya pa ang kanan kamay bilang sumpa.

The kid face lit up. Napabuga siya ng hangin mula sa dibdib.

Bumaba ang tingin ng bata sa ama. “You heard that, daddy?”

“Clearly, son.”

“Why don’t you get up and eat your breakfast? Or you want teacher to feed you too?”

Kinabahan kaagad siya sa maaaring isagot ni Drake at mas lalo siyang hindi mapakali ng inalis nito ang braso na nasa tiyan niya at tumihaya. Hindi siya makatingin sa binata, lalo at litaw na litaw ang upper body nito. He’s freaking topless.

“As much as I want your teacher to feed me, but I feel like kind of wanting to eat something I haven’t ate for years from her.”

Uminit ng todo ang mukha niya at umabot iyon sa batok niya. He wasn’t tell it directly but why the hell she felt that he’s referring on something…something she love every time he does it on her.

“What is it daddy?” Blake was so innocent like an angel.

Drake smirk then his eyes drop down between her thighs, mas lalong nag-init ang katawan niya nang matanto na tama nga siya ng hinala! He’s so unbelievable! Really? In front of his son? Mabuti na lang at wala naman pakialam ang anak nito sa kung anuman ang gustong kainin ng ama.

“You should eat,” she glare at him.

Drake brows shot up. “Yes I will eat, Alexza. I’m glad that you know how I badly want to eat…”

“Pakainin mo na po ang daddy ko teacher.”

“Your daddy can eat without my help, baby.”

“Siguro si tita Maisie na lang po ang magpapakain kay daddy kung gano’n,”

“Yeah, Maisie will surely love it. Gustung-gusto pa naman niyon na pinapakain ako.”

She could almost hear Maisie’s moan while Drake was eating her! Napamura siya sa isip niya dahil sa naisip. Bakit ba iyon ang pumasok sa isip niya? Ang halay! Nakakaselos! Nakakagalit ng kalamnan!

“Subukan mo lang,” banta niya kay Drake, his eyes twinkle playfully and lustfully.

“Beat me, Alexza?” Hamon nito, lalong nag-ngitngit ang damdamin niya.

Bigla niyang naalala ang mga kwento ng kaibigan na si Jessielyn tungkol sa mga naikama raw nito! Paanong hindi niya papaniwalaan ang mga kwento kung kahit pati siya ay paulit-ulit na naranasan noon ang mapaos kakasigaw at kakaungol sa tuwing nasa pagitan ng hita niya ang ulo ni Drake at sinasamba ang pagkababae niya!

Alexza took a very deep sigh before facing Blake and smile sweetly. Sa sobrang tamis ng ngiti niya parang ang creepy na.

“Of course, baby, papakainin ko ang daddy mo.”

“Daddy would love it, teacher.”

Drake let out a long groaned. He lazily get up and sit beside her. He pinched the tip of his son’s nose.

“Maybe next time son, teacher needs to leave soon and go to school.”

Sa gilid ng mata niya ay nakita niya ang pagsulyap sa kanya ni Drake pero nanatili ang mata niya sa bata na pinapakain niya.

“Baby, please tell to me if tita Maisie visit today, okay? Sabihin mo sa akin kung ano ang ginawa niya at kung pumasok ba siya sa room ng daddy mo…”

Mahinang natawa si Drake sa gilid niya. Si Blake naman ay mabait at sobrang masunurin na tumango-tango sa kanya. Napaka-attentive nito habang nagbibilin siya kanina.

“Opo teacher, I promise I will tell you everything.”

“That’s my baby,” natutuwa na ginulo niya ang buhok nito at hinalikan sa labi.

“More teacher…” Blake pouted his lips.

Alexza giggle and kiss this cute kid on he lips again and again. Humagikhik din si Blake, tuwang-tuwa pareho niya.

“Damn it,” Drake curse silently.

“Daddy that’s bad!”

Pinanliitan niya ng mata ang binata. How dare him curse in front of his son?

“Stop cursing, Drake. Naririnig ng bata.”

“Maybe daddy want a kiss teacher. He’s jealous of me because you kiss me.”

Napalunok siya lalo na nang tignan niya si Drake ay matiim na nakatingin sa labi niya. Sa tindi ng pag-ahon ng kasabikan sa kanya ay nakagat niya ang pang-ibabang labi na mas lalo lang ikinadilim ng mukha nito. They’re facing each other, controlling their emotions.

“Kiss na po,” Request ni Blake, bago niya naramdaman na may maliit na kamay na humawak sa likod ng ulo niya kaya dumampi ang labi niya sa labi ni Drake.

Her eyes widened when he inserted his tongue on her mouth, exploring inside. He move so fast. Gumalaw na din ang dila niya, hinahabol ang bawat galaw nito. They were kissing hungrily, nadadala na siya lalo na nang ang isang kamay ni Drake ay marahas na humahaplos sa bewang niya, pataas sa gilid ng dibdib niya.

“Daddy, ang tagal niyo naman mag kiss…” inip na inip na boses ni Blake ang nagpabalik sa kanya sa wisyo.

While kissing Drake, she saw his son on her peripheral vision. Drake’s big hand was covering Blake’s eyes and the kid cover his eyes too using his small palms. There he is, siting on her lap.

Alexza can’t help herself but smile. Marahan niya dinama ang panga ni Drake na sabik siyang hinahalikan, Sa sobrang sabik ng halik ay nasasaktan ang puso niya. She made him missed her this bad.

Drake stop kissing her, but his swollen lips brushing hers. Magkadikit din ang mga noo nila. Gumuhit ang ngiti sa labi niya at masuyong pinunasan gamit ang daliri ang labi nitong nadikitan ng lipstick niya.

“Tapos na po ba kayo mag kiss?”

“Yes baby,” siya ang sumagot bago muling dinampian ng halik sa labi ang binata at hinarap si Blake.

Marahan niyang inalis ang mga kamay na nakatakip sa mata ni Blake. Pumikit-pikit pa ang bata, nanlabo siguro ang paningin.

“Let’s finish your breakfast before I leave,”

“Okay po mommy,”

Muntik nang mahulog ang puso niya sa narinig. Nabigla siya, nanginig ang mga kamay niya. Umahon ang pinaghalong sakit at sarap na pakiramdam hanggang sa umabot iyon sa mga mata niya.

“M-mommy?” Her voice cracked, a small sob escaped her lips. The single word from Blake got her into tears.

“Yes mommy . Ayaw mo po ba?”

She went speechless. Something inside her chest was beating painfully.

Naramdaman niya ang braso ni Drake na dumulas sa bewang niya at hinapit siya palapit dito. Naisandal niya ang ulo sa balikat ng binata. He felt him kissing her head, napapikit siya sa pamilyar na sensasyon.

“Bumalik ka na…bumalik kana sa’kin…” paos na bulong nito sa nagmamakaawang tinig, nasasaktan at nananabik.

Lalong bumuhos ang luha niya sa sakit na hatid ng mga salitang iyon.

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A/N: Mas lalo po akong ginaganahan magsulat kapag nababasa ko po ang mga comment niyo kahit po advance mag isip yung iba. Haha, okay lang ’yan. Masaya po akong basahin mga saloobin niyo sa story ni Drake at Alexza. 😘

7 ~ Love (SPG)

CHAPTER SEVEN

PALAHAW na iyak ni Blake ang nagpatigil sa kanya sa pag-iyak din. Her emotion was just too much that she could not handle it. Ang yakap ni Drake ang siyang nagpapakalma sa kanya.

“What did you do daddy!? Why my mommy is crying!” Blake cried hard as he wipe her tears using his small soft hands.

Alexza calm herself and tried to hold back her tears, but she could not. Patuloy ang pag-agos niyon sa pisngi niya habang patuloy din na pinapahid ni Blake.

“I’m okay baby, hush, hush…” humihikbi na alo niya sa bata. “M-masaya lang ako…”

“Then w-why were you c-crying if you’re h-happy?” He sobs so loud, basag na ang boses at matindi na rin ang hikbi.

Nahihirapan na siyang makita ng gano’n si Blake kaya dinala niya na lang ito sa dibdib niya. Yinakap niya ito ng mahigpit para tumahan na. Nahawa na sa kanya ang bata. Napaka-iyakin niya talaga!

Sino ba kasi ang hindi maiiyak kung marinig niya ang boses na iyon ni Drake? He’s begging for her to come back on his life! Siya ang may kasalanan dito, pero bakit parang ito pa ang mas nagmamakaawa na bumalik siya sa piling nito? She’s really really unfair. She’s so selfish!

“I’m sorry baby, mommy is just so happy that I can not hold back my tears and my emotions.” She’s kissing Blake’s head.

Unti-unti ay kumakalma na rin ang bata, siya ay gano’n din. Si Drake ay tahimik lang na nakayakap sa kanilang dalawa. Kinukulong silang dalawa sa bisig nito.

“Blake, mommy’s soon to leave.” Drake said after a few minutes of being silent.

Kaagad na umiling-iling sa dibdib niya ang bata at mas lalong humigpit ang yakap sa kanya. Drake na Drake ang datingan, yayakapin siya ng mahigpit kapag ayaw siyang paalisin.

Hinaplos niya ang buhok ni Blake.

“Mommy needs to go to school for your classmates. Mommy needs to work.” Pilit niyang pinapaintindi iyon dito.

“You do not need to work. Daddy is wealthy enough, he could provide everything you want mommy…”

Kanina pa tumatalon ang puso niya kapag tinatawag siyang mommy ni Blake. Sobrang sarap sa pakiramdam. Parang tunay. Parang siya talaga ang ina.

“Still, I need to go to school because your classmates are waiting for me.”

“Then, I’ll go to school too.”

“Blake,” It was Drake’s warning tone. Napasulyap siya dito. Wala naman emosyon do’n.

“You can got to school tomorrow, baby. Just rest for today. Kakawala lang ng lagnat mo, dapat magpahinga ka muna.”

“But I’m afraid that you won’t visit me again. I don’t like to miss you, mommy.” Lalo itong sumiksik sa kanya.

Oh God, why this feels so good?

“Ahm, ganito na lang, I will visit you after school, okay ba sa’yo ’yon?”

“Promise me that you will,”

Bahagya niyang inilayo si Blake sa kanya upang magkita sila.

“I promise, I will visit you later today.”

Blake lips form a smile and that made her contented. Ilang araw palang silang magkasama ay attached na attached na siya sa bata. Sa isang banda ay may takot na bumabangon sa dibdib niya. The feeling is too much. It’s not normal.

Tinapos niya munang pakainin si Blake at si Drake bago niya tuluyang inayos ang sarili. Bumaba siya ng kama, habang ang dalawa ay pinapanood ang bawat galaw niya.

She brush her hair using her fingers. Ayaw niya naman talagang umalis pero kailangan dahil may mga batang naghihintay sa kanya sa eskwelahan.

Alexza sighed and crawl onto the bed. Ang mag-ama ay parehong nakaupo at nakasandal sa headrest ng kama. Halatang-halata na ayaw siyang paalisin pero mas pinipiling huwag siyang pigilan.

“Kiss mommy before I leave,” aniya kay Blake, pinapagaan ang paligid. Blake obey and kiss her cheek. Napasimangot siya. “Gusto ko sa lips,”

Sumunod naman ito, he kiss her on the lips. Ngumiti siya at pinanggigilan na naman ang pisngi nito.

“I will wait for you…” Blake said, hiding his face by looking down on the pillow on his lap.

She kiss Blake on his forehead once again before she settled her eyes on Drake. Suplado nitong sinalubong ang tingin niya, nilabanan niya na lang ang damdamin sa dibdib niya at masuyong hinaplos ang panga nito.

“I’ll be back,” paalam niya kahit alam naman nito ’yon.

“Okay,” he said coldly.

“I swear, I’ll be back.” She repeated, but in convincing tone now.

Drake just nod his head, parang hindi naman naniniwalang babalik siya. Babalik naman talaga siya!

“Go ahead. You’ll be late in school.” Taboy nito sa kanya.

Nasaktan siya pero nilabanan niya iyon. She move closer to give him a kiss on the lips but to her surprise suplado nitong ibinaling ang ulo sa kanan kaya sa pisngi niya ito nahalikan.

Binalot siya ng kapaitan.

Akala niya ayos na sila, hindi pa pala. Bakit ba naisip niyang ayos na sila samantalang hindi pa naman sila nakakapag-usap, naghalikan lang sila pero hindi pa sila okay!

Umalis siya sa kama at lumabas ng silid na mabigat ang dibdib. Ni hindi niya na nilingon ang mag-ama dahil natatakot siya na baka tuluyan na siyang hindi makaalis do’n sa kagustuhan na makasama ang dalawa!

ANG MALAMYOS na hangin mula sa labas ng binata ang siyang nagpamulat sa mga mata ni Alexza. With her blurry vision, she saw the white curtain on the wide glass window blown by the wind. Umangat na ang araw, rinig niya na rin ang malayong hampas ng alon sa karagatan.

She stiffed a bit when she felt a strong warm arms on her waist. Nagbaba siya ng tingin sa may-ari ng brasong iyon at nasilayan niya ang natutulog na kasintahan sa tabi niya.

Ito ang unang beses na nagising siya ng umaga at si Drake ang nagisnan niya. Ang sarap pala sa pakiramdam ng ganito. Start your day with smile by seeing someone you love, sleeping beside you.

“Wake up, handsome.” She whispered on his lips.

They are both naked under the white comforter. They made love until dawn. Medyo puyat siya pero plano niya talagang maunang magising para maunang mapanood si Drake na natutulog.

“Are you sure you want me awake?” His bedroom voice turns her on early in the morning.

Hinaplos niya ang malapad na dibdib nito pababa sa abs. Nang-aakit. Drake moan on what she did.

“What’s good to do this morning?”

“Morning sex,” he said, cupping her breast with his palm.

Kaagad na nag react ang katawan niya sa ginawa ng kasintahan. He was pinching her taut nipple gently.

“W-what else?” Kapos ang hininga na tanong niya.

“Eating my early breakfast,”

“What breakfast do you like to eat?”

“This,” his hand went down to her womanhood, making her body arch.

Gamit ang gitnang daliri ay nakakaliyo na pinaglalandas nito iyon ng paulit-ulit sa hiwa niya. She starting to get wet!

“D-Drake…” tawag niya dito na may kasama ng ungol.

Nakapikit na siya ay ninanamnan ang daliri ng kasintahan na minamasahe ang pagkababae niya. She parted her legs, giving him complete access.

Tinanggal nito ang kumot nila kaya tumambad ang hubad nilang katawan. Tumagilid ito at parang gutom na sanggol na sinakop ng mainit na bibig ang isang utong niya habang panay ang galaw ng daliri sa kabasaan niya.

Walang mapaglagyan ang apoy na bumalot sa kanya. Mas lalo niya pang ibinuka ang mga hita nang ipinasok ni Drake ang dalawang daliri sa butas niya.

“Ohh baby, ummm. I like it…” hibang na ungol niya.

Daliri palang ni Drake ang gumagalaw sa pagkababae niya pero nahihibang na siya.

He was massaging her cl*t using his thumb while finger-fucking her. She’s so wet and really on heat. Nadagdagan pa lalo ang ungol niya nang pinagpapalit-palitan na dinidilaan ni Drake ang dunggot ng magkabilang dibdib niya tapos ay sisipsipin iyon at panggigigilan na kakagatin ng bahagya. Pinaghalong sarap at hapdi ang bumalot sa kanya.

“Ohhh Drake… I w-want you…ohh, inside me n-now.” Desperadang bulong niya.

“Not yet baby,” hingal na sabi nito habang busy sa paghalik sa malulusog niyang dibdib.

Drake fingers went fast inside her and that made her moan louder and shameless.

“Love! Yes, yes, ohhh…ummm…”

Napakagat labi na siya dahil ramdam niya na na lalabasan na siya pero tumigil ito bigla.

She curse under her breath.

“I did not expect it,” he teased, referring the curse she said.

She glared at him, gasping. “Why did you stop?” Angil niya.

Drake look at her, amuse. “Come,” He held her hand and guide her above him.

Nagtataka pa siya dahil nasa ibabaw siya nito. She’s sitting on his hard stomach.

“W-what?”

“Feed me, baby…”

“H-how?” Takang-taka siya.

Drake just smirk before he held her waist and guide her body to meet his face.

“I wanna taste you,”

“Oh my…” kapos ang hininga niya nang makita ang posisyon nila.

Her womanhood is facing his face! She’s sitting on his face! Ang mga binti niya ay nasa magkabilang ulo ng kasintahan.

“Ride on my face baby,” he whispered and snake his strong arms on her waist.

Sa pagkahibang sa matinding init na bumabalot sa kanya ay hindi siya kaagad nakagalaw. Napatili na lang siya ng maramdaman ang dulo ng dila ng kasintahan na sinusungkil-sungkil ang hiyas niya.

“Ohh my… Drake! Ummm!”

She move her body and let her man eat and lick her. Napahawak siya sa ibabaw ng headrest habang iginigiling ang balakang sa mukha ni Drake. Sarap na sarap siyang ikinikiskis ang pagkababae sa mainit na dila ng kasintahan.

They’re both moaning. Sarap na sarap din si Drake sa pagkain sa kanya. Para bang ang pagkababae niya ang pinakapaborito nitong kainin sa lahat.

He’s really good on this. He’s a master when it comes to this. Sa ilang buwan nilang magkasintahan ay marami-marami na rin siyang alam na posisyon sa pagtatalik dahil ipinaparanas nito iyon sa kanya.

Naging mas wild ang galaw ng balakang niya nang ramdam na ramdam niya ng lalabasan na siya. Pumipintig sa matinding sarap ang pagkababae niya. Pakiramdam niya ay namamanhid na iyon kakadila at kakasipsip ni Drake.

“I’m coming! Ooohh! Drake!” She’s shouting her moan. She’s so near!

Ang kamay niya ay sumambunot na sa buhok ng kasintahan habang ang balakang ay desperadang gumigiling sa mukha nito.

Drake make sure that he’s hitting the right spot on licking her even if she move so wild and desperate above his face. He’s fucking eating her alive.

“Love! Love! Drake! Ooohhh!”

Nanginig ang mga hita niya at hinayaang lumabas ang katas niya. Nanghihina na nasandal niya ang ulo sa ibabaw ng headrest.

Ang mga kamay ni Drake ay humihimas sa buong likod niya habang patuloy ang mabagal na galaw ng dila sa pagkababae niya. Alam niyang kahit sabihin niyang huminto ito ay hindi makikinig sa kanya, unless, tapos na ’tong himudin ang katas sa bawat sulok ng pagkababae niya.

“Drake…” she called him weakly.

“Umm,” he just moan and continue licking her juices. Nakikiliti pa rin siya.

Mariin siyang napapikit habang nagbabawi ng lakas. Her man is very active in sex. Wala itong kapaguran, walang kasawaan.

“Enough na, love…” yan ang palagi niyang salita para tumigil na ito.

Nanghihina ang mga binti niya na umalis sa ibabaw ni Drake pero napigilan siya nito.

“We are not yet finish,” he huskily said and guide her on his stomach. “Its your turn,”

Napapantastikuhan na napatingin siya sa kasintahan, she’s sitting on his erect manhood! Napalunok siya at maingat na hinawakan ang mainit at mahabang pagkalalaki nito. Ni hindi magtagpo ang mga daliri niya nang ikulong niya ’yon sa palad niya.

Kung paano niya nakayanan ang unang beses na pakikipagtalik sa kasintahan ay hindi niya na maalala. He’s huge, thick and long. Nakakakaba rin ang pagkakalaki nito kapag sobrang galit na dahil naglalabasan ang ugat at mamula-mula. Handang-handa na siyang parusaan sa napakasarap na paraan.

Slowly, she move her body up and pointed the tip of his length on her entrance.

Mahabang ungol ang pinakawalan nila pareho ng tuluyang makapasok iyon sa loob niya. His hot erect manhood filled her. Nakakabaliw ang sensasyon.

Alexza started moving her body above him. Mabagal niya ring iginiling ang balakang para mas madama lalo ang katigasan nito. While Drake was watching her with fire and lust on his dark eyes. Marahan na hinihimas nito ang dibdib niya at hinahayaan siyang gumalaw sa paraan na gusto niya.

Nung una ay mabagal ang pagtaas-baba niya sa sa ibabaw nito, naging mabilis lang iyon nang marinig ang mumunting ungol mula sa kasintahan. Gumagalaw na rin ang balakang ni Drake para salubungin siya.

“Ohhh, ang sarap…ang sarap, Drake…” paulit-ulit niyang sinabi iyon habang desperadang nagtataas-baba ang katawan sa kahabaan ng binata.

Sa sarap ay hindi niya napigilan na halikan ito. They’re both kissing while they’re moving up and down. Rinig na rinig niya ang tunog ng paglabas-masok ng kaselanan nila.

Nakadapa siya sa ibabaw ni Drake parang nangangabayo. His lips travel down on her neck down to her breast. He’s licking her both nipples again while meeting her thrust.

“That’s it baby, you’re getting good.” He whispered lustfully. “Ohh fuck…fuck…” he’s cursing under his breath.

Mas lalo siyang nabaliw nang mas bumilis at naging desperado ang pagsalubong ni Drake sa pagkababae niya. Tila pareho na silang sabik na marating ang masarap na paraiso.

“Ohh Drake! Ohh! Ang sarap! Ummm!”

She desperately move up and down until she taste her orgasm again. Her legs shake weakly as she stopped from moving. Maya-maya lang ay sinundan iyon ng mararahas na bayo ni Drake sa pagkababae niya bago ito tuluyang huminto.

Pagod na pagod siyang humilig sa dibdib ng kasintahan. Pinapahupa niya pa lang ang katas na lumabas sa kanya nang madagdagan iyon ng katas ni Drake na tumapon sa loob niya.

His semen is hot. It feels so good inside her.

She can hear his heartbeat. Taas-baba ang dibdib nito. Ang braso ay nakayakap sa kanya.

“Love,” she sweetly called him.

Drake kiss her forehead. “I love you, Alexza.” He said softly.

Alexza smile and close her eyes. “I love you very much, Drake.”

The words came from her heart. Its so true and only pure love. She will forever love him. She couldn’t picture herself being with other man but him.

“Time for my baby to go home?” Untag ni Drake, hinahaplos ang buhok niya.

“I don’t want to, but I need to.” Malungkot na sabi niya.

“Dwaye been calling me last night. He was worried. I told him you will be sleeping with me.”

“Sinabi mo ’yon?” Gulat na nag-angat siya ng tingin dito.

“Yea,”

Nasapo niya ang noo. “Baka malaman nila mommy…”

“Handa naman akong panagutan ka, Alexza. Please, stop worrying.”

“Y-you did it inside me, naramdaman ko yung init, Drake.” Aniya, parang bata na pinag-aaralan ang mukha ng kasintahan.

Her chin is under the back of her hands which place above his chest. She’s comfortably laying above him, naked.

“I did it for a purpose.”

“Gusto mo akong mabuntis.” Ipinunto niya. Pinipigilan ang pagsilay ng ngiti.

“Yes,”

Parang kiniliti ang puso niya. Ngumuso siya upang maawat ang malapad na ngisi. He’s so serious. Dapat ay tumbasan niya ang kaseryosohan nito.

“What if hindi pa ako mabuntis?”

“Papanagutan pa rin kita,”

“Dahil?” Nag-aabang siya ng sagot. Hindi na mapakali.

Drake pinch the tip of her nose. “Dahil mahal kita.”

Isinubsob niya ang mukha sa dibdib ng kasintahan at doon pinakawalan ang ngiti niya para hindi nito makita. Nakakahiyang masaksihan nito na labis siyang kinikilig.

“Are you going to marry me once I get pregnant?” Tanong niya nang humupa ang kilig. She’s facing him again.

His eyes was looking directly at her. Hindi na magkandamayaw ang tibok ng puso niya. Slowly, he nod his head.

“Pregnant or not, I will still marry you, Alexza, handa ka man o hindi, papakasalan na kita.” His eyes scream so much devotion for her. “I love you very much that I could not picture myself living a day without you beside me. You are for me to keep…for me to marry.”

“Oh, Drake…” tanging iyon lang ang lumabas sa bibig niya bago siniil ng halik ang kasintahan. “I love you, I love you, I love you…” she said that words again and again while brushing her lips on his.

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8 ~ Heat

A/N: Mature content.

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CHAPTER EIGHT

“WHERE HAVE you been, Alexza? Where did you sleep? You made me so worried!”

Pagkapasok niya palang sa bahay nila ay ang boses ng mommy niya kaagad ang bumungad sa kanya. Humalik muna siya sa ina, sapo nito ang noo at nasa bewang ang isang kamay.

“I slept in Jess’ condo, mom.” She bit the side of her cheek for lying.

The truth is she slept with Drake, but she would never tell that to her mother. Siguradong maghihisterikal lang ito kapag nalaman na si Drake ang kasama niya buong gabi. Hindi niya makita ang tamang rason bakit ayaw ng magulang niya kay Drake.

Was it because of him being womanizer? But that was before! He changed now. Stick to one na sa kanya ang binata. Sana makita iyon ng magulang niya.

“You should’ve at least phone us and let us know your whereabouts.”

“I’m sorry, mom. N-nakatulog ako kaagad pagkatapos ng party.” Another lies to save her ass.

“Really? Bakit mukhang puyat ka? You have dark circle under your eyes,” nagdududa na tinititigan siya ng ina.

Nag-iwas siya ng tingin. She lacked of sleep. Hindi ba naman siya tinantanan ni Drake, magdamag siyang inangkin nang inangkin ng kasintahan. Medyo may kaunting sakit pa nga sa pagitan ng mga hita niya. Nasobrahan na naman sila kagabi hanggang mag-umaga.

“I woke up early and I’m still sleepy. Can I go to my room now?”

Her mom nod, still looking at her, trying to read her. Her parents are over protective, especially when it comes to her. She’s their unica hija and the youngest. Mabuti nga ang Kuya Dwaye niya ay hinahayaan na ng mga ito sa buhay na gusto ng kapatid. Sana ay gano’n din siya.

Alexza locked the door of her room and jump to her bed. She get her cellphone and dialed her friend’s number.

“This must be good, Lexza. Goodness! Ang aga-aga pa para tumawag.” Jessielyn said sleepily on the other line when she answered her call.

“Listen, okay? I’m worried that my mom will call you and ask you if we were together last night, tell her that I slept in your house, okay?”

Jess growl. “At saan ka naman natulog kagabing babae ka?”

“I slept with Drake!” She giggled, she’s like a crazy in love teenager laying in bed, thinking about her man.

“What?! Hindi nga?!” Na-i-imagine niya ang kaibigan na napabangon sa kama nito at nanlalaki ang mga mata. “You slept with Drake Villafuente? Siguradong hindi ka na virgin!” Nakagat niya ang labi, hindi siya kaagad nakasagot. “Sa itsura palang ng boyfriend mo, halata naman na walang babaeng hindi nakakaligtas sa kanya! No wonder nakuha niya na ang virginity mo.”

“Matagal na,” kagat labing sabi niya.

“Ano?!” Nag histerya lalo ang kaibigan sa kabilang linya. “Anong ibig mong sabihin, Alexza? Kwentuhan mo ako, dali!” Excited na tumili ito.

“Ahm, I gave him my virginity on our first month.”

Naalala niya pa kung gaano kaingat si Drake sa kanya na huwag siyang masaktan sa unang beses nilang pagtatalik, pero kahit anong ingat ay talagang naiyak siya sa sakit dahil malaki ang alaga ng kasintahan. Hindi biro.

Nang paulit-ulit na may nangyayari sa kanila sa tuwing nagkikita sila ay nasanay na siya sa laki ni Drake. She’s not tight enough to get hurt every time he took her.

“Buti umabot pa ng isang buwan ang pagtitimpi niya ’no? Ang bagsik talaga niyan ni Drake.”

“Mabagsik talaga,” she chuckle.

“O, ano nang plano niyo? Hindi naman pwedeng puro sarap lang, Lexza. Paano kapag nabuntis ka?”

Jess words making her frown. May punto ito pero may plano na naman sila ni Drake tungkol sa bagay na ’yon.

“Plano na namin na mag-baby na.”

Nag-init ang pisngi niya bigla sa pag-amin at mas lalong uminit iyon na parang baliw na nagtitili ang kaibigan.

“Tapos ano? Magpapakasal na kayo?” Eksaheradang tanong nito na para bang kaharap niya lang.

“He told me that he will marry me, buntis man ako o hindi.”

Isang matinis na tili na naman ang pinawalan ng kaibigan na ikinangiwi niya. Halatang kilig na kilig na. Siya man ay gano’n din. Sino bang hindi? Come on, it’s Drake Villafuente!

“So, I will be your maid of honor! Hay, excited na ako sa kasal mo, Lexza!”

“Me too. And Kuya Dwaye will be the best man, for sure.”

“Uh, Dwaye the fuck boy. Yea,” Pumait ang boses ng kaibigan. “Mabuti na lang si Drake nag-stick to one na…habang ang Kuya mo lahat yata ng babae na pumapasok sa Club niya ay natikman niya na.”

“Why it sounds bitter? May problema ka ba sa Kuya Dwaye ko, ha? Jessielyn?” Tuya niya.

“H-huh? W-wala naman. Hindi ko lang talaga bet ’yang kapatid mo.”

“I think the feeling is mutual? My brother dislike you for some reason.” Nang-aasar na tumawa siya. “Minsan tuloy iniisip ko na may lihim kayong pagtingin sa isa’t-isa.”

“No way in hell! No way! Not with Dwaye! He’s fuck boy! No way!” Mas lalo siyang natawa sa sobrang disgusto sa tinig ng kaibigan. “Let’s go back to the topic. Kailan naman kaya magpopropose si Drake sa’yo?”

Tumitig siya sa kremang kulay na kisame ng silid niya. Kailan nga kaya? Dapat niya bang itanong ’yon kay Drake? Surprise dapat iyon.

“I don’t know? Si Drake lang ang nakakaalam kung kailan. I will wait for him to kneel in front of me and ask for my hand.”

“Let’s wait for that. It should be a ‘bongga’ wedding proposal. Tiyak na maraming iiyak na babae.”

Umirap siya sa hangin. Hindi naman lingid sa kaalaman niya na marami talagang babae na umaaligid pa rin kay Drake lalo na’t maraming dayuhan at turista sa beach resort. But she trust her man so much. Hindi iyon mambababae.

“Eh di umiyak sila!” Mataray niyang sabi. “Drake love me so much that he could not picture himself living a day without me. Kaya nga papakasalan niya ako.” Mayabang na dagdag niya pa.

Tumili na naman si Jess sa kabilang linya. “Sinabi niya ’yon? Napaka talaga niyang boyfriend mo! Kaya pala in love na in love ka!”

“Yes, I love him so much, too. I am so happy right now, Jess. I can’t still believe. He promised me that he will marry me. Hindi ko akalain na sa akin siya babagsak sa dami ng babaeng nakapaligid sa kanya.”

“It’s because Drake love you. Masaya ako para sa’yo, Lexza. Sana bilisan niya na ang paghahanda sa wedding proposal para mabilis din ang kasalan! At sana mabuntis ka na para wala na talagang kawala!”

Alexza laugh at that. She caress her flat stomach and pray silently to have an angel inside anytime soon. Siguradong ang anak nila ang tuluyang kukumpleto sa kanila ni Drake.

“Sana nga lahat ng sana natin ay magkatotoo at mangyari sa paraan na inaasahan natin.”

SUMMER month just started. They are in Villafuente’s beach resort. She’s with her brother and Jess, waiting for Drake. He invited them to stay there and it’s all free, though they can afford the expenses, but her man did not let them pay.

Nakahiga sila pareho ng kaibigan sa sun lounger. Wearing a bikini and sunglasses. They’re watching Dwaye talking to some random woman from afar. Her brother is really an eye candy for women. He got a charm, the body and a smile that will make women swoon.

“What a flirt,” Jess murmured.

“Ampalaya ba ang inalmusal mo? You should enjoy your summer vacation, Jess. Wag mo na kasing panoorin si Kuya kung naiirita ka naman pala.” Payo niya at sumimsim sa mango shake niya.

“Yes, you are right. Dapat mag enjoy din ako!”

Maya-maya lang ay tumayo si Jess at isinuot ang flip flops. Wearing her yellow floral bikini she walk towards where his brother and the women are like a ramp model. Agaw atensyon. Nananadya.

She’s smiling while watching them, especially when she saw her brother glare at Jess. Ang kaibigan niya naman ay supladang dumeretso lang sa dagat.

“Enjoying the view?” It was Drake, he sat beside her and his callous palm caress her bare legs.

May pumintig kaagad sa loob niya sa simpleng haplos lang ng kasintahan.

“Yes, just watching Kuya Dwaye and Jess,” inginuso niya kung nasaan ang dalawa.

“Dwaye is hitting on her?”

“I don’t know, love.” She shrug her shoulder and move a little bit closer to give him a peck on the lips. “What took you so long?”

“I had to sign some papers on my office,”

Kinagat niya ang loob ng pisngi niya ang tumaas pa ang haplos ni Drake. Parang wala lang dito iyon, samantalang siya ay parang nahihirapan na.

“Stop teasing me, love. We are on a public place,” sita niya nang nadadaanan na ng daliri nito ang pagkababae niya.

Kung hindi niya sasawayin ang binata, siguradong bibigay siya. Wala naman din masyadong dumadaan sa gawi nila, hindi rin masyado pansin kung may gawin man silang milagro.

“I want you,” he whispered. His fingers were tracing the hem of her bikini.

“Lagyan mo nalang ako ng lotion.”

Mas lalong parang hindi maipinta ang mukha nito sa request niya. Para bang wala pa man din ay nahihirapan na.

“Stop torturing me, Alexza.”

“Why? Nagpapalagay lang naman ako ng lotion sa buo kong katawan.” Inosenteng wika niya.

“You can easily make me hard just by the touch of your skin against mine. Do you really think I can put lotion on your body without sucking your nipples? Without finger-fucking you—”

“Drake!” Napabangon siya at tinakpan ang bibig nito. Nag-init ng husto hindi lang ang mukha niya pati na rin ang katawan niya. “You’re so blunt.”

“Its true,” he shrug off, gently removing her hand on his mouth.

“Wag mo nalang akong lagyan ng lotion kung gano’n,”

“I can put lotion on your body,” nagdududa na tinitigan niya ito. “But in our suite, not here.”

“I know what you’re thinking.” Paratang niya.

“What?” He act like an innocent little boy. “I will just put lotion on your body and…massage you a little. How’s that?”

Inirapan niya ito. Iba talaga ang sinasabi ng kislap ng mga mata nito. Her man lusting over her and she likes it.

“I don’t trust you,”

“Ouch,” madamdamin nitong sinapo ang dibdib. “My baby don’t trust her man. Its hurts.”

Kinurot niya ito sa tagiliran. “Ang arte mo!” Bumangon siya. “Tara na nga,”

Isinuot niya ang flip flops at kinuha ang mango shake niya. Si Drake naman ay ipinasuot sa kanya ang cover up niya.

“Wear this, your body is for my eyes only.” Seryosong sabi nito.

Wala na siyang nagawa kundi sumunod dito nang ito mismo ang nagsuot sa kanya.

“May I remind you Mr. Villafuente that we are on the beach. Wearing bikini is normal.” Aniya, habang naglalakad. Naka-akbay ito sa kanya.

“May I remind you Ms. Mendez that you are mine, alone. And I don’t want other men see your body. You should follow my orders or I will punish you.” He kiss the side of her head. Ignoring the girls who’s looking at them. “Men were ogling at you. Palayasin ko na lang kaya ang mga ’yan dito sa resort ko.” Iritado nitong sabi ng mapadaan sila kalalakihan na nasa resto ng resort na napapatingin sa kanya.

“You don’t need to do that. Alam mo naman na sa’yo lang ako.” Yinakap niya ang isang braso sa likod nito.

“I know that. I’m just being protective.”

“Protective or territorial?” Tudyo niya.

Drake let out a sexy short laugh. “Both,”

Pumasok sila sa elevator. May iilan silang kasabay sa loob na napapatingin sa kanya at sa kasama niya. Puro mga babae iyon na naka-bikini.

“Drake Villafuente?” The woman who’s wearing red bikini said, smiling.

“Yes,” casual na sagot ng kasama niya.

“Remember me? Its Maisie! We’re classmates in high school!” The woman named Maisie, look at her and at Drake’s arm on her shoulder, then lifted her eyebrow.

“You look familiar, yeah.” It was Drake. “Enjoy your stay in resort, Maisie.”

“We will. Me and my friends. You own this beach resort, right?”

“Yes,”

Masayang tumango-tango ang babae. Nang bumukas ang elevator ay lumabas na sila ni Drake. Hindi niya na nilingon ang mga naiwan sa loob baka hindi niya mapigilan na irapan ang mga nandon.

“Bakit ba may mga babaeng nagpapacute pa rin sayo kahit nakita naman na may kasama ka.” Iritadong sabi niya nang makasapasok sila sa suite nila. Biglang uminit ang ulo niya.

Drake locked the door and carry her to the bed. Kinubabawan siya nito. Itinaas ang dalawa niyang kamay sa uluhan niya at hinalikan siya gilid ng labi.

“Ang init naman ng ulo ng baby ko…” tudyo nito sa kanya, hinalik-halikan ang leeg niya. Nakikiliti siya pero kailangan niyang ilabas ang iritasyon niya.

“Yung babae na kaya nalang na ’yon ang paalisin mo sa resort.”

Natawa si Drake at kinagat ang ibaba ng labi niya. Napasimangot siya.

“Gusto mo ba? I can do it for you.” He continue kissing her neck down to the valley of her breast. “Just tell me what you want, I will obey you in a heartbeat.”

That’s so sweet. Her heart really beats for him. She really love all about him. His sweet words and sweet gestures. Him being protective and territorial. Nahulog siya ng sobra dahil sa mga katangian na iyon ni Drake.

Alam niya naman na kaya nitong gawin ang gusto niya. Pero naisip niya na mali iyon. Baka dahil sa selos niya ay masira pa ang resort ng kasintahan. Ayaw niya naman mangyari ’yon.

“I’m not childish, so, I will let her enjoy her stay here with her friends.”

“Not childish huh,”

“Hindi naman talaga! I’m a mature woman!”

“Yea, yea,” tumango-tango pa ito na parang kinukumbinsi siya kesa ang sarili.

Nagpatuloy sa mabagal na halik sa katawan niya ang kasintahan hanggang sa bumaba ang labi nito sa tiyan niya.

“Akala ko ba lalagyan mo ako ng lotion? Bakit parang gusto mo na naman kumain?” Tinaasan niya ito ng kilay habang pinapanood ito na hinahalikan ang ibabaw ng bikini niya.

Pinipigil niya lang na huwag umungol dahil kapag narinig ni Drake ang ungol niya ay hindi niya na ito mapipigilan pa.

“Pwede bang kumain muna?” He lick his lower lip seductively.

Mabilis siyang umiling. Hindi nagpapapekto sa masarap na sensasyon. She will going to stay on his suite until next week. Marami pa silang oras para sa kainan na sinasabi nila. Gusto niya lang magpalagay ng lotion dahil balak niyang magbabad sa arawan at magkaro’n ng brown na balat.

Matamlay na umalis si Drake sa ibabaw niya at kinuha ang lotion sa side table. Napapangiti siya, para itong bigo. Bigo dahil hindi niya napagbigyan.

“I will remove your bikini.”

“I don’t think it’s needed.” Pigil ang ngiti niya.

Magkasalubong na ang makakapal nitong kilay. Galit na nakatingin sa bikini niya.

“Are you playing with me?” Paratang pa nito kaya mas lalong hindi niya mapigilan ang pagtawa. “Fuck, I should’ve know what you’re thinking. Such a little tease.”

Natatawa na kinalas niya ang tali sa likod ng one piece bikini niya at mabagal na inalis iyon. Maarte niyang ibinigay iyon kay Drake. Kinuha naman nito iyon pero matiim na nakatingin sa nakatayong dibdib niya. Para bang gusto nang dambahin.

“Can you remove my…” kagat labi siyang napatingin sa nag-iisang saplot sa katawan niya.

Marahas na napalunok si Drake. His Adam’s apple move dangerously.

Gamit ang dalawang kamay ay hinubad nito ang bikini niya. Itinaas niya ang pang-upo pati ang mga binti.

“You really want this, huh,” he mocked.

“What?” Siya naman ngayon ang umastang inosente. Patay malisya.

“I will play with you, then.” Sabi nito at nakakaliyong inamoy ang bikini niya na hawak nito. His eyes were close, feeling the smell of her bikini. He looks so hot from that angle.

“I’m not teasing you, love.”

“Of course you do,”

Umirap na lang siya at tumuwid ng higa. Hubad na hubad siya sa harap ni Drake, hindi na siya nahihiya.

“Please, start,” she said, closing her eyes, waiting for his touch.

Napaigtad kaagad siya nang bumagsak ang lotion sa gitna ng dibdib niya pababa sa tiyan niya. Tapos ay may bumagsak din sa hita at binti niya.

Para na siyang kinakapos ng hininga sa kakahintay ng palad ni Drake na lumapat sa katawan niya. Makalipas ang ilang minuto ay nagmulat siya ng mata.

Drake is watching her carefully. Sitting beside her, topless and only wearing his printed summer short.

“Drake,” desperadang tawag niya sa pangalan nito.

“Yes?” His brow shot up playfully.

“Massage me!” She demanded. Something aches on her and her body wanted his touch so bad.

“Yes Ma’am,” he smirk and started massaging her breast. Ikinalat nito ang lotion sa dibdib niya.

Pumikit siya at hinayaan ang kasintahan na masahiin ang buo niyang katawan. He knows how to massage, he’s good, its gentle, it relax her.

Hindi niya napigilan ang ungol nang dumampi ang daliri nito sa pagkababae niya habang minamasahe ang hita niya. Kung intensyon nito iyon ay hindi niya na alam.

“Baby, stop your moan. It turns me on.” He whispered under her ear as his hands massaging her thighs.

Kinagat niya ang pang-ibabang labi para mapigilan ang ungol pero nang dumaan ulit sa hiwa niya ang daliri ni Drake ay hindi niya na talaga napigilan kaya napaungol na naman siya.

“Fuck, baby…” he mutter painfully.

Nagmulat siya ng mata at nakita ang labis na pagpipigil ng binata.

“S-sorry, ang sarap eh,”

Drake took a deep breath. “Which one?” Gumalaw ang daliri nito at hinagod ang hiwa ng pagkababae niya. Alam na alam ang ginagawa. “This one?”

Kagat-labi na tumango siya at walang hiya na ibinuka ang mga hita.

“Eat me,” she whispered, blushing.

Parang nasaktan na umungol si Drake at marahas na hinawakan ang magkabila niyang alak-alakan bago itinaas ang mga binti niya. Her toes touches his back. Mariin na napakapit siya sa bedsheet, wala pa man ay kinakapos na ng hininga. He then position his head between her thighs and his tongue started playing with her achy little nub.

Nagpabaling-baling ang ulo niya sa kama sa labis na sarap na nararamdaman. She’s really on heat. Pakiramdam niya nga ay araw-araw ay tila gusto niyang may nangyayari sa kanila. Kakaiba ang init ng katawan niya nitong mga nakalipas na araw. Hinahanap-hanap niya si Drake palagi.

9 ~ Dirty Talk

CHAPTER NINE

“HOW was your meeting with Kuya Dwaye? It looks like a very important meeting. You and him wearing suite, hmm?” Alexza asked, sitting on his lap.

They’re spending their time watching the whole resort from their suite. Kakaakyat lang ni Drake sa silid nila, katatapos lang ng meeting. Ni hindi na nga siya nasabayan sa pagkain ng dinner.

“It was okay. Gusto niya lang magtayo ng Nightclub dito sa resort.”

Her brother is a Nightclub owner. Marami na rin branch iyon sa buong Pilipinas. He’s successful on his own business, aside from their family business that’s under his supervision.

“Ano ang sabi mo?”

“I agreed on his proposal since I don’t have Nightclub here. I only have my restaurants, even we serve some drinks I know it wasn’t enough especially when summer. People likes to party, get wild and get wasted. The Nightclub would be fit here.”

“That’s good, you do not need to go to City to party. You will have here anytime soon.” Tumango-tango siya.

Wala naman siyang alam sa business, nakikiayon lang siya. Not that she’s stupid, but biz wasn’t really her thing. She’d rather teach children. She love kids.

“I stop going to Club since I met you. I don’t think I will ever need that. I can even drink here with you beside me.”

Malambing na niyakap niya ito sa leeg. Nakapatong sa sandalan ng inuupuan nito ang coat na itim. He’s still wearing his white long sleeve polo. He may be look tired, but he’s still looks handsome for her.

“Finish your drink. I will give you good massage before we go to sleep.”

“Good massage?” Ulit nito. “Why it sounds naughty…” he smirk at her.

Tinaasan niya ito ng kilay at bahagyang inilayo ang mukha dito.

“Ikaw lang naman ang gumagawa ng kababalaghan kapag minanasahe mo ako,”

“I can’t stop myself. Don’t blame me.” Hinagkan nito ang labi niya tapos ay bumaba ang palad sa tiyan niya. “When was your last period?”

Nagsalubong ang kilay niya at napaisip bigla. Kailan nga ba ang huli? She lazily count the days of her last period on her mind.

Malambing na yumakap siya kay Drake at inihilig ang mukha sa dibdib nito. She’s smelling his scent. It feels good on her nose. She like it.

“I can’t remember, love.”

“Do you want me to buy you a pregnancy test?”

Umiling siya. Kinakabahan sa maaaring resulta kung susubok man siya. Mas nangibabaw na ang kaba kesa sa excitement. But she really, really wanted to have a child with him. They both want it.

“Ako nalang ang bibili. I want to surprise you.” Pagkumbinsi niya dito at matamis na nginitian. Tumango lang ito, hindi na namilit pa.

“I have a surprise for you.” He whispered on the side of her lips and kiss it.

She sexily trace the vein on his arm down to the back of his hand with her forefinger. His veins moving a bit, she can affect him that easy.

“Really? What is it? Hmm?”

“Its a surprise,” he chuckle on her ear. “Wait for it. You will surely love it.”

Ngumiti siya at tumango. Ano naman kaya ’yon? Baka magpopropose na sa kanya si Drake? Oh, Goodness! Ngayon palang ay hindi na siya mapakali! Handang-handa na siya sa magiging sagot niya. Its a Yes!

“I wonder if when you’re going to propose on me.”

Doon ay natawa si Drake at isiniksik ang mukha sa leeg niya. Niyakap siya nito ng mahigpit. Ni hindi na siya makagalaw sa kandungan nito. Kulong na kulong siya sa malapad na bisig nito.

“Baby, marriage is never a priority to me…but every time I look at you, every time you smile at me and every time I hear your voice, I could not help myself but telling myself how I want to keep you in my life. How I want you to stay beside me. What did you do to me…” he breath into her neck. “…why do you always drive me insane.”

Kinailangan niya pang pakalmahin ang pintig ng puso niya bago nakapagsalita. She’s already deeply falling for him, hearing those words from Drake really made her fall for him into the deepest.

She rested her chin above his head and caress his hair in a very lovingly way.

“Loving you is the only thing I can do for you and I promise to love you for the rest of my life, Drake. Gusto kong mabaliw ka sa akin, para hindi ka na hahanap ng iba.”

They have been together for almost five days now. Sulit na sulit ang summer vacation niya. Nakatulong din na nasa ibang bansa ang magulang niya dahil may importanteng bagay daw na inaasikaso. Mas malaya siya ngayon na kasama si Drake nang walang iniisip, kundi ang kasiyahan lang nilang dalawa at ang mga plano sa hinaharap.

“You are irreplaceable, Alexza. You are the only one I will love until my last breath.”

Sa sobrang lakas ng tibok ng puso niya ay nasasaktan na siya. Hindi niya akalain na maaari palang tumibok ng masaya ang puso mo sa paraan na masakit na. But she doesn’t mind the pain, she love how hear heart beating for him. Only for him.

“TITA MAISIE, visit today, mommy. But she did not go inside daddy’s room. Ahm, she and daddy went to resort and back after a few hours.”

Detalyado at walang maitatago ang dalawa sa pagkukwento sa kanya ni Blake. Pinapanood siya nitong mag bake ng cookies para sa meryenda nila. Nakaupo ito sa bakanteng upuan, nakapatong ang mga kamay sa ibabaw ng lamesa.

Pagkatapos ng klase niya ay dito kaagad siya dumeretso. Gano’n na siguro ang magiging routine niya araw-araw kung papayagan siya ni Drake. Sana ay pumayag ang binata. Sana.

“Where are they now?”

Nang dumating kasi siya ay si Blake at isang kasambahay lang ang naabutan niya.

“Daddy is in library room with her.”

Nagsalubong ng husto ang kilay niya. Pilit niyang iwinawasiwas sa isip niya kung ano ba ang ginagawa ng dalawa sa library room! Parang gusto niyang sumugod sa silid na iyon at ingudngod ang mukha ng Maisie na ’yon! Pero pilit niyang pinakalma ang sarili.

She knows where to stand in Drake’s life. Making a scene and meddling with his love life would only ruin them. So, she better control herself. That’s the only thing she can do for now, control her emotions no matter how hard it is.

“Kanina pa ba sila do’n?”

“Opo, mommy.”

She turned to Blake holding a plate with cookies. Inilapag niya iyon sa lamesa at kaagad naman nagkislapan ang mga mata ng bata. He excitedly get one piece of cookies and took a small bite.

“Careful baby. Medyo mainit pa ’yan.”

“This is the best cookies in the world!”

Napangiti siya at yumukod kay Blake. She rested her elbows on the table.

“Baka binobola mo na ako niyan ha,”

The kid shook his head and smile widely at her. “Hindi po, mommy. I promise.”

“Sige na, naniniwala na ako.” Kinurot niya ito sa pisngi at nagpatuloy sa pag bake para matapos na siya. “Baby, do you want to bring some cookies in school tomorrow? I would like to prepare it for you.”

Nilingon niya si Blake at halos mabilaukan siya nang makita na nandon si Drake at sinasaluhan ng kain ang anak. Pinapasadahan ng mata nito ang kabuuan niya habang marahan na ngumunguya.

“Yes po mommy,” ani Blake at inunahan ang ama na kuhanin ang nag-iisang cookies na natira sa plato nito. “This is mine daddy, wait for your cookies.”

“Are you finish with your meeting with Maisie?” She asked casually.

“Yes,”

“In library room, huh,” she sarcastically said as she put another batch of cookies on the plate.

“Masarap mag meeting sa tahimik na lugar. Yung walang distorbo. Yung kayo lang ang maingay.” Makahulugan na sambit ni Drake na ikinatalim ng mata niya.

“Masarap nga ang walang distorbo lalo at mukhang seryosong meeting ’yon.” She smirk, trying to hide the bitterness inside her.

“They are always in library room, mommy.” Blake informed her innocently, making Drake frowned. Para bang nilaglag ito ng anak na walang kamuang-muang.

“Favorite place, huh,” Lalo siyang nanggigigil sa nalaman! “Hindi man lang mahiya sa bata…ginagawa niyong motel—”

“Alexza,” Drake cut her off using his warning tone.

Bumuga siya ng marahas na hangin sa mula sa dibdib at ikunuyom ang mga palad. Kung ganito palagi ang malalaman niya ay hindi niya iyon masisikmura! Maisie and Drake inside his library room? Meeting? Sino ba ang niloloko ng mga ito?!

“I need to leave,” biglang paalam niya.

Gusto niyang takasan ang sakit at pait na nararamdaman niya sa mga sandaling iyon. If Drake already find a girl, then she should accept it! Kung hindi siya umalis, hindi ito hahanap ng iba! Sila pa rin sana hanggang ngayon.

“Aalis ka po kaagad? Galit ka po ba?”

Nagbaba siya ng tingin kay Blake at mas lalo lang siyang nahirapan. Why this kid needs to be so innocent that it is very hard for her to see his sad face.

Yumukod siya at sinapo ang maliit na mukha ng bata. “H-Hindi pa ako aalis. Sa l-labas lang muna ako. Gusto mong sumama?”

Mabilis itong tumango at bumaba sa upuan. Tumingin ito sa ama.

“Daddy, do you want to come with us?”

Napangiwi siya. Iniiwasan niya nga ang ama nito tapos isasama pa nila? Ano ba itong pinasok niya…

“No son, daddy need to finish something in library room. Kayo na lang ni…” Drake look at her then to Blake. “…mommy mo ang mamasyal sa labas.”

“Hindi pa po tapos ang meeting niyo ni Tita Maisie?”

“No, hindi kami nag-meeting. Tita Maisie’s left before lunch today after getting some important papers for her her business.”

“I thought you were with her since morning.” Blake looks in trouble. “I told to mommy that you were with her.” Lalong napayuko ang bata, para bang may nasabi ito sa kanya na mali.

“Talaga? Ano ang sabi niya?” Parang mangha pa si Drake, naka-squat ito sa harap ng anak.

“She looks mad, daddy.”

“H-Hindi ha,” tanggi niya kaagad. Mukhang pati siya ay malalaglag din.

“Mad? How did you say that?” Tanong ulit ni Drake, hindi pinansin ang pagiging defensive niya.

Lumapit si Blake sa ama at bumulong. Kung ano ang ibinulong ay hindi niya na alam basta bigla nalang tumawa si Drake! Pinagkakaisahan siya ng mag-ama!

“Yes daddy, she looks like that… sshh,” inilagay pa ni Blake ang hintuturo sa labi nito na parang sinasabihan ang ama na huwag sasabihin sa kanya kung ano ang ibinulong.

Umirap siya sa hangin. Nagkakampihan pa talaga ang dalawa. Ano nga ba ang aasahan niya, eh mag-ama nga.

“Nex time, make sure what you tell to your mommy. Okay?”

“Opo, daddy,” mabait na nakikinig si Blake. Titig na titig sa daddy nito. Hay, ang sarap talagang panoorin ng dalawa.

“She might get jealous again if you tell her I’m with other woman in library room.”

“Naririnig ko kayo,” humalukipkip siya at umismid. “At hindi ako nagseselos ’no!”

Nag-angat ng tingin sa kanya si Blake.

“Pero bakit gano’n kanina ang mukha mo, mommy?”

“Bakit? Ano ba ang itsura ko kanina?” Pagtataray niya, hindi sa bata kundi kay Drake.

“You were like a lion who’s ready to attack daddy and Tita Maisie inside the library room.”

Her face heated up. Gano’n ba talaga ang itsura niya kanina? Hindi pa naman nagsisinungaling ang mga bata!

Mas lalo siyang nairita at napahiya sa muling paghalakhak ni Drake. Walanghiya! Nakakahiya siya! Sa harap pa talaga siya ni Blake nagpakita ng gano’n. Great.

Ginulo ni Drake ang buhok ng anak.

“That’s my boy! I love you so much, son.”

“Love you more daddy ko!”

Yumakap ang maliliit na braso ng bata sa leeg ng ama. Drake hug his son back.

That’s a sight to be hold! Heartwarming. She starting to love watching these two being sweet to each other. Pangarap niya ang ganitong eksena. Si Drake kasama ang anak nila…kasama siya.

“Mommy, come here! Let’s hug! Family hug!” Aya sa kanya ni Blake.

Nag-aalangan pa siya. She’s thinking about Drake, baka hindi nito gusto? Nang tignan niya naman ay hindi naman tumutol, parang naghihintay pa nga ito sa kanya.

“Mommy dali!”

Napaigtad pa siya sa muling pagtawag sa kanya ni Blake. She took a steps and squatted in front of him. Pinag-gigitnaan nila ni Drake ang bata.

Blake snake his one arm on her neck and another one arm on his daddy’s neck. Nagkatinginan sila ni Drake, magkalapit lang ang mukha nila. Kung wala ang bata sa gitna nila ay baka naglapat na ang mga labi nila.

“Hug me, mommy, daddy…” Blake requested but it sounds like a wish.

Nakangiti na iniyakap niya ang mga braso sa katawan nito. She’s now hugging Blake. And what makes her heart beat so loud is when she felt a strong warm arms wrap around her.

Ikinulong siya at si Blake ng mga brasong iyon sa napaka secure na paraan. Ang uri ng yakap na nananakop, nang-aari at naninigurado na sa kanya ang niyayakap niya. Drake was giving them his warm territorial hug.

Ipinikit niya ang mata at dinama ang yakap ng mag-ama. Her face is on the side cheek of Blake and Drake face is on the other cheek of his son. She felt nothing but contentment and completeness at that moment. If feels like the missing part of her heart suddenly filled by these embrace. The feeling is so surreal.

“Sana po laging ganito…sana po lagi nalang tayong magha-hug at magkikiss. Sana po lagi na akong may mommy…” Blake whisper longingly.

Lalo siyang napapikit nang humapdi ang pagpitik ng puso niya. Nag-init ang magkabilang sulok ng kanyang mga mata. Napalunok siya, nagbabara ang lalamunan. The longings on his voice pained her for some reason.

Ramdam niya ang mas lalong mapanakop na yakap ni Drake. Ang klase ng yakap na handang-handa siyang magpasakop at magpaangkin kung si Drake lang naman din ’yon. She’s more than willing to be claimed by him, again. She’s more than willing to mark her as his, again.

“O-of course, I will a-always be here to be your m-mommy…” gumaralgal ang boses niya. “H-habang hindi m-mo pa nakikilala ang t-totoong mommy mo, I’m w-willing to be a mother for y-you.”

“But you are the only one I want to be my mommy. I don’t want other mommy.”

Tumango-tango siya. “If that’s what you want, baby, then, I will obey you with all my heart. Ako na ang mommy mo simula ngayon.” She claimed it without asking Drake!

“Gusto po ’yan ng daddy ko…”

“Talaga?”

Mapaglaro na nag-angat siya ng tingin kay Blake. Magkakadikit lang ang mukha nilang tatlo. Hinahayaan niya lang din ang paminsan-minsan na haplos ng palad ng binata sa may likod niya.

“Opo, mommy ko,”

“Hmm, paano mo naman ’yan nasabi? Did your daddy tell you that he likes that idea?”

Drake scowl. His thick brows furrowed. But he did not bother to speak. He let his son speak for him.

“If my daddy doesn’t like the idea of you being my mommy, he will complain ’bout it, but he did not, even once.” Blake shrug his shoulder. “My daddy like you…” he trail. “…to be my mommy.”

She look at Drake with smug on her face. Bakit ba hindi niya naisip na kung ayaw ng binata na gampanan niya ang pagiging ina sa anak nito, Dapat ay tumutol na ito sa ideyang ’yon, but he did not. It means, it’s okay for him that his son will have a mother and that’s her!

Or maybe Drake did not complain because he love his son so much that he will do everything just to make Blake’s happy. And if Blake happiness is to have her as his mother, even Drake doesn’t like it, even he hates her, he did not complain, he just go on what his son’s wants. He’s doing all of these for Blake. Yes, for his son and not because he also want this.

“And we still need to talk all about these, Alexza.” Drake eyed her menacingly, making her breathing ragged. “We will talk, alone.”

She parted her lips a bit to get some air. She blink and nod like she’s hypnotized by his eyes.

“O-okay, we will talk all about these. W-when do you like, Mr. Villafuente?”

“Anytime soon,” he answered without leaving his gaze on her.

“Maybe this weekend daddy? Kapag hindi ka na po busy?” Sabat ng cute na bata sa gitna nila. “Can I spend my weekend with mommy? In our resort? Please, daddy?”

Drake sigh and pinch the tip of his son’s nose. Hindi na naman nakatanggi sa gusto ng anak.

“Anything you want, little champ. You’re a good boy, you deserve all what you want in the world.”

“Thank you, daddy!” Blake hug his father. “You are the best!”

“Alright, I need to go back to the library room.” Kumalas ng yakap sa kanila si Drake, kaagad ay nakaramdam siya ng pangungulila.

Tumayo ito at siya ay gano’n din. Hawak niya ang isang kamay ni Blake.

“D-do you want some cookies? W-while working?” She awkwardly ask him.

She’s about to get the plate with cookies on the table beside them when he get it faster than her.

“Huwag na kayong lumayo. Bumalik din kayo kaagad.” Bilin nito sa kanya na kaagad niya naman tinanguan.

Bumaba ulit ang tingin nito sa anak. “Huwag na muna kayong magpunta sa resort, okay?”

“Bakit po daddy?” Blake ask innocently, looking at his father attentively.

“There’s a lot of men there. They might take your mommy away from us. So, do not go to the resort unless you’re with me.”

Hindi niya alam kung bakit parang nag-blush siya. Kung marami man lalaki sa resort o kahit saan pa ’yan, wala naman siyang pakialam. Si Drake lang naman ang nag-iisang lalaki na gusto niyang makasama sa buhay niya kahit noon pa man.

Naramdaman niya na kumapit ng husto sa kanya si Blake, para bang natakot na mawala o maagaw siya ng iba.

“I won’t let them take my mommy away from us!”

“I know son. I don’t like it either.”

“Sa atin lang si mommy, di ba daddy?”

“Yup, sa atin lang ang mommy mo. Let me know if a man approached her, okay? I will immediately kick him out of this place. Whoever it is.”

Attentive na tumango-tango si Blake. “Opo, daddy ko,”

“Good boy, see you later.”

“Napaka talaga…” she murmured, but Drake heard her.

“Is there something wrong with my rules, Alexza?” He smirk at her.

His lips were so sexy that she could almost imagine the way how that lips kiss her.

“Wala!” She rolled her eyes on him.

“Good. Be good there.” He stood up, towering her with his intimidating built. “And stop rolling your eyes on me. Hindi ’yan pwede dito sa bahay ko.”

“Bakit daddy? Ikikiss mo po ba ang mommy ko kapag nag roll siya ng eyes ulit sa’yo?”

“Hindi lang halik ang gagawin ko…” sabi nito na mariin na nakatitig sa kanya.

Inirapan niya ito, kagat ang ibabang labi niya. Bumabangon ang pamilyar na init sa kanyang katawan.

“Ano po ang gagawin mo daddy? My mommy will be punished for rolling her eyes?”

Pwede bang takpan niya na lang ang bibig ni Blake para hindi na tanong nang tanong sa daddy nito? Kinakabahan siya sa bawat lumalabas sa bibig ng binata eh.

“Yes son, I will punish your mommy if she rolled her eyes on me again. I will make her scream my name and beg for me to stop punishing her.”

“Shut up,” she mouthed at him. Iba ang naiisip niya sa punishment nito. “Hindi ako natatakot sa punishment mo.” Naisatinig niya sa huli.

“I know.” Drake titled his head forward, his lips is on her ear. “Bakit ka naman matatakot? Kung naranasan mo na kung gaano ako kasarap magparusa, ’yung tipong sa sobrang sarap, umuungol ka nang malakas. Di ba?” Nakakapanindig balahibo na bulong nito na dahilan kung bakit tila may pumintig sa pagkababae niya.

Binalot ng apoy ang buong katawan niya. His dirty talks making her wet! Damn this man for affecting her that much!

10 ~ Living With Him

CHAPTER TEN

ALEXZA was now heading at Drake’s beach house. Its early in the morning. The road is still dark. The fog making the windows moist. May iilan sasakyan na ang nasasalubong niya, may iilan din na nakasunod sa kanya.

She wake up every four in the morning and prepare to go to Drake’s house and make breakfast for him and Blake. Isinasabay niya na rin ang bata papunta sa eskwelahan, mas maaga nga lang sila palaging dumating bago ang ibang mga istudyante do’n.

Tuwing umaga rin ay inaasahan na ni Mang Mario ang pagdating niya sa bahay na iyon.

“Good morning Ma’am, Alexza.” Bati sa kanya ng gwardiya sa gate.

“Morning ho, Mang Mario.” She greeted him back with smile on her lips before the gate went open. “Thank you ho,”

And like her usual routine for how many days now. She go straight to the kitchen and make breakfast. She has her own duplicate key of Drake house, he gave it to her since maaga siya palaging dumarating sa bahay. Tulog pa ang mag-ama ay nado’n na siya.

“Morning,” napaigtad siya sa paos na boses na iyon sa may likod niya.

Nagwala kaagad ang puso niya nang yumapos ang mga braso ni Drake sa bewang niya. She could feel his morning erection on her butt.

“M-morning.” Naiilang siya. Unti-unting nawawala ang focus sa niluluto.

“What’s for breakfast for today?”

“Blake wants ham, egg and cheese sandwich. Request niya ’yon kagabi bago matapos ang tawagan namin.”

Palagi rin kasi silang nagtatawagan ni Blake tuwing gabi para lang mag goodnight sa isa’t-isa at magsabi sa kanya kung ano ang gustong kainin kinabukasan.

“How about me?”

“A-Ano ba ang gusto mong kainin?”

Drake breath into her neck, making her knees tremble.

“Ano ba ang masarap kainin sa umaga?” Nanunuksong bulong nito habang pinapadulas ang palad sa magkabilang gilid ng bewang niya.

“Tell me what you like to eat for breakfast so I will cook it for you.”

“What if I tell you that…you are the one I want to eat, would you let me?”

She gasped and held his arms. “Drake, please, stop teasing me like this.”

“Bakit? Natutukso ka ba?”

Oo! Gusto niya sanang isatinig.

Sino ba ang hindi matutukso sa mga nakakaliyong bulong nito at sa mga haplos sa bewang niya pataas sa gilid ng dibdib niya.

“Mabuti pa maupo ka na. Hindi ako matatapos sa pagluluto kung nandito ka sa likod ko…mamaya lang magigising na ’yung anak mo.”

“Anak ko…?” ulit nito. “I thought you are the mommy, bakit anak ko lang?”

“Anak n-natin,” kinakabahan na sabi niya.

Lumunok siya at nanginginig ang mga kamay na gumagawa ng sandwich. Drake is still on her back, caressing her waist up to the side of her breasts while breathing on her neck. Ang mainit na hininga nito ay mas lalong nagpapabigat ng hininga niya.

“Morning daddy ko…morning mommy ko…”

Umikot siya kaagad para makita si Blake at ang lalaki sa likod niya ay hindi man lang natinag, kasabay niya itong umikot at hinarap ang anak nila.

“Morning son,” Drake greeted Blake, his chin is above her shoulder.

“Good morning baby namin,” masiglang bati niya.

Blake sat on his chair and sleepily look at them. He yawn lazily.

“Daddy, why are you so clingy?”

Tinapik niya ang braso ni Drake, sinasabing pakawalan na siya ngunit lalo lang humigpit ang yapos niyon. Bumuntong hininga siya at pilit itong nilingon.

“I need to feed him,” aniya, tunog nakikiusap. Drake leered and slowly he loosened his hug. “And you need to eat too.”

“Yea,” he muttered dryly and remove his arms around her.

Naupo ito sa kasalungat na upuan ng anak. Naghihintay sa ihahain niyang pagkain. Parang hari at prinsipe lang ang dalawa.

Blake is still wearing his light blue pajama, he really looks sleepy. She check her wrist watch, five thirty palang ng umaga. Medyo maaga ang gising nito ngayon.

“Do you want to continue your sleep, Blake? Mamayang alas-otso pa naman ang pasok mo.” Sabi niya, nakayukod sa lamesa.

Inaantok na inihilig ng bata ang pisngi sa ibabaw ng lamesa. Natawa siya ng bahagya. Ang cute talaga.

“I will bring you to your room and continue your sleep,” si Drake at tumayo.

“No daddy, I want milk po.”

Kaagad siyang tumalima at nagtimpla ng gatas sa baso. Pagkatapos ay ibinigay iyon kay Blake. Pinapanood niya ito habang umiinom.

“Want more milk?”

Blake shook his head and started eating the sandwich she made. Nagkatinginan sila ni Drake pero siya rin ang naunang umiwas. Ilan sandali pa ay nakaluto na rin siya ng almusal nila.

Komportable na naupo na rin siya at sabay-sabay silang nag-almusal. It feels so normal. She feel at home.

“Mommy, why don’t you sleep here every night? Para po hindi ka na mapagod mag drive pauwi.” Suhestiyon ni Blake na animo ang simple lang ng bagay na iyon. “We have many guest rooms here. Di ba daddy?”

Drake sipped on his black coffee and nod as an answer. He looks serious.

“Ahm, baby, malapit lang naman ang bahay ko dito kaya okay lang sa akin kahit hindi ako matulog dito sa bahay niyo.”

“Ang mommy at daddy dapat sa isang bahay lang po nakatira di ba? Katulad po ng mga classmates ko? Their mommy and daddy are living in one house with them. Ayaw mo po ba dito sa bahay namin?”

Kaagad siyang umiling at pilit na ngumingiti sa bata. Si Drake naman ay napapainom nalang ng kape. Ang hirap hirap ng sitwasyon niya kapag may mga tanong na si Blake. Hindi niya talaga alam kung paano sasagutin.

“Answer your son,” untag niya kay Drake.

Umangat ang makakapal na kilay nito.

“Why would I? Hindi naman ako ang tinatanong. He’s asking you, you should answer him.”

Hindi niya lang maisatinig na hindi niya alam ang isasagot. Imagine that she will live in one house with these two? She likes the idea, but she’s thinking about Drake. Baka masyado niya nang pinanghihimasukan ang buhay ng lalaki. Bakit ba kasi hindi ito nagrereklamo sa mga desisyon niya?

“Gusto ko na may mommy po na magha-hug at magkikiss sa akin tuwing gabi.” Usal ni Blake kaya natuon ang atensyon nila ni Drake dito. “Katulad po ng mga kwento sakin ng classmates ko. May mga mommy na nagkikiss at naghahug sa kanila. Also, I want a mommy who would read a bedtime story until I fall asleep. Is it very hard to do, mom?” Curious na tanong ni Blake.

Napakurap-kurap siya. Hindi nga talaga kumpleto ang buhay ng batang ito. Naaawa at nasasaktan siyang malaman iyon. Bumangon ang kasabikan niya na gawin ang mga bagay na ’yon para kay Blake.

Tumikhim siya. Inalis ang anumang bumara sa lalamunan niya at bumaling kay Drake na mataman na nakatingin sa anak.

“Drake, c-can I sleep here?” His gaze drop down on her. She gulp and continue. “I know I asked for too much. I know I was meddling with you and your son’s life, but please, I just want to…”

“Yes, you can sleep here, Alexza. We will get your things at your condo later today after your class.” Drake cut her off and look at his son. “Are you happy with that, son?”

Blake eyes widened and twinkle in so much happiness on it. Naglikot pa ito sa upuan at tumango-tango sa ama.

“I am very happy, daddy! Very very very happy… may mommy na talaga ako!”

“Good. Finish your breakfast and let your mommy take you to shower. Okay?”

“Okay dad, love you.”

Drake chortle softly. “Love you too.”

“Love you mommy ko,” baling sa kanya ni Blake.

Parang tumalon na naman ang puso niya. Nakakatunaw ang kalambingan ng bata.

“L-Love you baby ko…” malambing na sabi niya at marahan na kinurot ito sa pisngi. “You are so sweet, Blake.”

Matamis siyang nginitian ng anak niya at maganang ipinagpatuloy ang pagkain. Nang sipatin niya si Drake ay magana rin itong kumakain ng niluto niya. Kahit sa pagluluto man lang niya ng almusal ng mga ito ay maibsan kahit papano ang kasalanan at sakit na ginawa niya.

“GOOD BYE, teacher Lexza. See you tomorrow.” Sabay-sabay na sabi ng mga istudyante niya.

Ang iba ay lumapit sa kanya at yumakap, humalik sa pisngi. Malambing lahat ng istudyante niya. Lahat ay close sa kanya.

“See you tomorrow children,” she said and smile at them. Then her eyes drop down at Blake who looks sleepy on his chair’s desk.

Hinintay niya munang maglabasan ang mga istudyante niya. Akmang lalapit na siya dito nang lapitan ito ni Tracy.

“Wala pa ang sundo mo, Blake? You want us to drop you off sa beach house niyo?” The cute little girl smile shyly at her baby.

“I’m waiting for my daddy, Tracy. Thanks for the offer. I appreciate.” Aba, parang binata naman itong baby boy niya.

Tracy smile faded. “Okay, see you tomorrow.” Tracy kissed Blake’s on the check making her brow shot up.

Alright, that’s nothing. Its only a friendly kiss. She has nothing to worry about, especially that her son did not move a bit. He just let her kiss him without complaining. It means, he likes the kiss? Ah, mana talaga sa ama. Kapag gusto, hindi magrereklamo. Tatahimik lang.

Sa parking lot ay natanaw niya kaagad ang pamilyar na sasakyan. Ang itim na Bentley ni Drake ay nakikipagtagisan sa mga magagarang sasakyan sa parking lot ng eskwelahan.

Maingat siyang tumikhim upang mawala ang bara sa lalamunan niya nang makita itong lumabas sa driver side. Kaagad na nahagip ng mga mata nito kung nasaan sila.

“Daddy!” Blake run towards his father and hug him. Akala mo ngayon lang nagkita ang dalawa.

Kinarga ni Drake ang anak, hindi alintana kung madumihan man ng bahagya ang puting long sleeve polo nito at black slacks.

“How many stars did you get today?”

Mayabang na ipinakita ni Blake ang braso na may limang star na nakatatak. Siya ang naglagay no’n. Blake is really good in class. Matalino. Hindi mahirap turuan.

“I got five star daddy,”

Naglakad siya palapit sa dalawa na bitbit ang backpack ni Blake. She opened the back door of Bentley and put his bag inside. Sinulyapan siya ng lalaki, para bang normal na normal nalang ang ganitong eksena sa kanila.

“Great,” Drake said, amuse. “Good boy ka ba kanina sa klase? Hindi ba sumakit ang ulo ng mommy mo?”

“Behave po ako daddy.” Blake look at her. “You can ask mommy about my behavior in class.”

Lumipat ang magagandang mata ni Drake sa kanya. Naghalo ang dilim ng mata nito at ang pagkaaliw do’n.

“How’s our son’s behavior in class?”

Halos mabilaukan siya sa hindi malaman na dahilan. Kung sa titig ba nito o sa pagdiin ng mga salitang ‘our son’. He claimed it the way she claimed Blake as his mother.

“He’s always good in class.” Sinuklay niya ang buhok ni Blake gamit ang daliri. “Behave lagi ang baby natin…di ba? Sumusunod ’yan lagi kay mommy…” nakatitig siya kay Blake, nangingiti.

Titig na titig din ito sa kanya, katulad ng ama nitong titig na titig din sa kanya, she saw Drake on her peripheral vision. Hindi niya ito kayang lingunin. Tiyak na masasaktan at matutunaw lang siya sa mga titig ng lalaki.

“T-that’s good then.” Drake stuttered, damn!

Inalis niya ang kamay sa buhok ni Blake. She composed herself, trying to act normal or at least casual in front of this man. May mga sasakyan na napapadaan at ang ilan ay pamilyar na sa kanya. Mga sasakyan ng mga istudyante niya.

“Daddy, I wanna go home. I want to sleep.” Blake suddenly break the silence around them.

“Sure anak, lets go.” Bumaling sa kanya si Drake. “Can you leave your car here? Sa amin ka na sumabay.”

Nataranta siya kaagad. Nagpalinga-linga at baka may makakita sa kanya at gawin siyang headlines ng chismis kinabukasan. But who cares right? She’s single. Ewan niya lang si Drake?

Bumalik ang tingin niya sa binata at muntik pa siyang mapaatras sa dilim ng titig nito sa kanya. Ano na naman ba ang ginawa niya?

“Ahm, a-ayos lang. I can drive.”

“Next time, I won’t allow you drive your car alone.” He said sternly.

“B-bakit? Mabagal lang naman ako magpatakbo.”

Humilig si Blake sa balikat ng ama at inaantok na naghihintay sa kanila na matapos sa pag-uusap.

“Bring your car to my house. We will use my car everyday to go to school from now on…with you and our son.” And then he opened the back door, inilapag do’n si Blake at sinuotan ng seatbelt.

“Bye mommy, see you later.”

“See you, baby,” she said before Drake closed the door.

Inis niya itong tinignan. “Hindi pwede ’yang gusto mo, Drake. Ano nalang ang sasabihin ng mga tao dito sa eskwelahan kung makikitang araw-araw tayong magkakasama.”

“Mas mahalaga pa talaga sayo ang iisipin ng ibang tao? Paano naman ang anak ko?” May sarkasmo sa boses nito. Humakbang ito ng isa palapit sa kanya, nag-ingay na naman ang dibdib niya. “Don’t you remember how you claimed my son as yours? What do you want to do? Hiding you as his mother? You know how my child want a mother so bad, Alexza.” His voice was cold and menacing. He stare darkly at her.

“D-Drake…”

“If you can not be proud to be his mother, then stop meddling with our lives!” He controlled himself not to shout at her. “I could get a woman who will be proud to have my son as her son. Unlike you,” Then he turned around.

“T-teka!” Nataranta siya. Hinawakan niya ito sa braso. He stilled. Masakit na sumagap siya ng hangin sa dibdib na naninikip. “Oo na, p-payag na ako riyan sa gusto mo…” Drake opened the driver side door. Parang hindi siya narinig. Natakot siya kaagad. Her gripped on his hard arm tightened. “Drake… please, I will do everything. Hindi na ako magrereklamo. Pakiusap…huwag mo akong paalisin sa buhay mo…sa buhay niyo ni Blake.”

Drake sighed heavily. “Sa bahay tayo.” Anito at pumasok na sa loob ng sasakyan. Nakatayo lang siya do’n hanggang sa bumaba ang tinted na bintana nito. “Go to your car. Lead the way home, I will follow you.”

“O-okay,” She’s still in daze. What just happened?

She’s about to turn around when he speak again.

“In my house, Alexza.” Tila paalala nito sa kanya.

Ngumuso siya. Bahagyang nahimasmasan. “Oo na,”

Sumara ang bintana at siya naman ay nagpunta na sa sasakyan niyang ilang sasakyan lang ang nakapagitan.

Abot-abot talaga ang takot niya. Akala niya papaalisin na siya ni Drake sa buhay ng mga ito. Ayaw niya. Hindi niya na yata kakayanin pa lalo at may Blake ng involve.

HEAVEN KNOWS how much she wanted to bring Blake on her condo but her son badly wants to sleep after they ate lunch, so she let him. She doesn’t want to be alone with Drake in one place. Something is worrying her.

Hindi niya madiktahan ang sarili niya kapag ang binata na ang nakialam. Lalo at hindi niya kayang diktahan ang katawan niya pagdating sa lalaki. Her body always betrayed her. That’s what she’s worried about.

“Afraid?” He take a quick glance at her while driving his car.

She shifted her sitting position. She’s really uncomfortable being with him, alone.

“Why would I?” Kalmado niyang sabi, hindi inalis ang mata sa daan.

“Do I make you uncomfortable? Kailan pa, Alexza?”

Doon niya na ito nilingon, sinadya niyang pagsalubungin ang mga kilay. Hindi dapat nito mahalata kung anoman ang nararamdaman niya sa mga sandaling ’yon. He might use it as his advantage. At siya naman ay aminadong marupok kapag si Drake na. Dikit palang ng palad nito sa balat niya, nag-iinit kaagad siya.

“Can you just focus on driving, Mr. Villafuente?” Irap niya at nakahinga ng maginhawa nang hindi na nga ito nagsalita.

He’s driving silently and seriously. Hindi niya maiwasan na sulyap-sulyapan ito. The muscle on his arms were firm and sexy. She will forever like that part of him. The arms that always secure her.

Makalipas ang ilang minutong byahe ay nakarating na rin sila sa condo unit niya. She opened the door with her card key and put her bag at the table.

“Suit yourself. Sa kwarto lang ako. Aayusin ang mga damit ko.”

“I don’t wanna wait here.” Nilingon niya ito nang magreklamo. “I’d rather watch you packing your things than wait for you here, alone.”

Wala na siyang nagawa nang sumunod ito sa silid niya. Dumeretso siya sa walk-in closet at pagbalik niya ay komportable nang nakadapa si Drake sa kama niya, pahalang, sapat na para mailapag niya ang suit case sa ibabaw ng kama.

“Are you really sure ’bout this?” Kapagkuwan ay tanong niya habang kinukuha sa closet ang ibang damit niya at ilalagay sa maleta. “You and I living in one house?”

“Kailan ba ako naging hindi sigurado pagdating sa’yo?” Paos ang boses na pinapanood siya ni Drake.

She stilled for a moment then continue packing her personal stuffs and clothes. She try to ignore his question. Of course, he was always sure when it comes to her.

Dahil madalas ay nakayukod siya habang naglalagay ng damit kaya lumilitaw ang cleavage niya at hindi niya iyon mamamalayan kung hindi niya narinig ang pag-ungol ni Drake nang nahihirapan. Nang sipatin niya ay nahuli niyang nakatingin sa dibdib niya.

“Never changed, huh,” tuya niya dito at hinila ang damit mula sa batok pataas.

“It looks bigger than before.” He praised, making her blush.

Tinalikuran niya ito at kumuha ng damit pangpalit. Matatagalan pa siya sa pag-impake at kapag nagpatuloy sa kaka-Hello kay Drake ang dibdib niya ay baka mauwi sila sa matinding labanan sa kama.

Pagbalik niya ay suot niya na ang hapit na puting stretchable blouse at cotton short shorts niya. Hindi na naman siguro siya nakakaakit? Pambahay na iyon.

Kahit naiilang dahil pinapanood lang ni Drake ang bawat galaw niya ay nagpatuloy pa rin siya. Tumingkayad siya sa shoe rack upang maabot ang favorite niyang stilleto nang marinig niya ang pagsipol ni Drake.

“I really like your legs. Beautiful round butt. You did really changed a lot, love.” Ang endearment ay tunog panunukso na ngayon.

Pinagpapawisan na sa wakas ay naabot niya ang shoe box at bumalik sa kama. Padabog niyang inilagay iyon sa isa pang maleta.

“Kung tinutulungan mo ako, e di sana tapos na ako rito!”

“I like watching you. But if you really want my help, then fine, I will help you.”

Mas kinabahan pa siya nang bumangon ito, parang gusto niyang bawiin ang sinabi. Mas mainam siguro kung nasa kama lang ito kaysa lalapit sa kanya.

Drake walk towards her and stop in front of her. Napatingala siya dito. Gusto na sanang bawiin ang sinabi pero napigilan siya nang hinapit siya nito palapit dito.

His hand is in the small of her back, his other hand is on her cheek, caressing it.

Her breathing went ragged as she felt the hard thing poking her belly. Para siyang biglang pinagpawisan.

Lumapat ang mga palad niya sa malapad nitong dibdib. Namumungay ang mga magaganda nitong mata na nakatingin sa kanya.

“Drake…” she called his name softly.

Her mind was stopping her from doing naughty things, but her body was betraying her. She want him so bad.

“What will you do now…” he whispered huskily, his minty breath hit her face. “You were giving me a boner.”

She bit her lips as if she did a mistake. Habang tumatagal ay mas lalong tumitigas ang pagkalalaki nito na para bang hindi na maaawat ang pagiging galit! Goodness!

Ano na naman ba itong pinasok niya? O baka siya ang papasukan mamaya? Nag-init ang pisngi niya sa malaswang ideya na ’yon.

11 ~ Bed (SPG)

CHAPTER ELEVEN

“WHAT do you want me to do…” she whispered gently at him.

Parang mas lalong nagalit ang alaga nito dahil sa sinabi niya. Tila ba gusto nang kumawala sa pantalon nito. Nakakakaba na nakaka-excite! She’s sweating!

“Don’t ask me like that… I know you feel how much I want you with me since the day I saw you again after so many fucking years.” He frustratedly muttered, kulang nalang at kabigin siya at siilin ng halik.

“Drake…” lumambing ng husto ang pagtawag niya dito.

“Fuck…stop calling my name softly.” Nakayuko ito, pinaghalik ang mga noo nila. His swollen parted lips were inviting. “One more soft words from you, I swear, I will tie you in that bed and take you until both of us are gasping from air.”

Napapikit siya at napalunok. Naghihintay ng kung ano. Handang-handa na naman ipagkaloob ang sarili dito.

Lumipas man ang ilang taon na paghihiwalay, alam niya sa sarili na hindi nagbago ang makamundong init sa pagitan nila, tila nga ay mas naglagablab pa ang nakakapasong init na iyon. Her body is burning, she could not stop it, she doesn’t want to stop it though. Oh heaven, what he’s doing on her?

“I want you too. I still want you…” she whispered heartily, making him groaned. “But I know I need to make it up to you to all I’ve done. I promise to do everything so you could forgive me. I really, really want to be back in your arms again…” she took a deep breath, her heart is hammering inside her chest, it almost choke her. Her tears were slowly blurring her vision. “I’m really sorry for all the pain I gave you…if only I could go back the time, I will stay beside you. I will fight for you… I will…”

She stop mid-sentence when Drake pulled her and embrace her. He’s kissing her head while she’s crying on his chest. Her heart hurt so much. Kung bakit siya ang labis na nasasaktan samantalang siya nga itong nang-iwan.

“I don’t need your sorry…” He said, making her cry hard. He’s caressing her back gently.

“Then, w-what do you need for m-me to forgive you?” Humihikbing tanong niya, kapit na kapit sa damit sa dibdib nito. Wala ng pakialam kung basang-basa na iyon ng luha niya.

“Just stay with me and never leave again.” He whispered as if begging for her to do what he said. It hurts hearing him begging for her to stay. “Promise me that you will never leave me again. Handa akong maniwala ulit sa mga pangako mo…Handa akong magpakabaliw ulit sa mga sasabihin mo…manatili ka lang.”

Nagsunud-sunod ang pag-agos ng luha sa pisngi niya. Her heart was beating painfully. Walang pag lagyan ang samo’t-saring emosyon sa mga sandaling iyon. The mixed emotions making her knees weak.

“Hindi na ako aalis…hindi na k-kita iiwan. I will s-stay with you no matter what happen, no m-matter how hard it would b-be to be in your arms again. I’m willing t-to endure all the pain just to stay w-with you.” She said while sobbing.

Drake guided her to the bed. He sat at the edge and let her sat on his lap. They were staring at each other. He’s wiping her tears using his thumb. Humihikbi-hikbi pa siya. Ang tungki ng ilong niya ay tiyak na namumula na rin.

“You cry so hard. Did I hurt you so bad?” He ask tenderly.

Malamlam ang mga mata nito, nahihirapan na makita siyang umiiyak. Para bang ito pa ang nanakit sa kanya kung makaiyak naman kasi siya. Maybe, she confused him with her emotions.

She shook her head and rest her face on his shoulder. Pinagsiklop nito ang mga kamay nila at dinala sa labi nito. Gumaan kaagad ang pakiramdam niya sa ginawa ng binata.

“Bati na ba tayo?” Mahinang sabi niya.

“Just because you cried hard, it doesn’t mean na bati na tayo. Nagbago na ako, Alexza. Hindi na ako magpapadala sa mga pag-iyak at paglalambing mo sa’kin…” Anito habang masuyong hinahalikan ang likod ng kamay niya. Ang isang palad nito ay humahaplos sa gilid ng bewang niya.

Bakit kasalungat yata ng sinabi nito ang kilos nito? His sweet gesture make her feel at ease. She miss this feeling with him.

She brush the tip of her nose on his neck and smell his scent.

“Miss na miss na miss kita, baby…” Malambing na bulong niya at napatili ng bigla siya nitong ihiga sa kama at kubabawan. Her eyes widened in surprise.

“What did you say?” He was staring intently at her. He almost covered her with his muscular built.

She bit the side of her cheek, trying to suppress a smile. Damn, she’s going crazy again. Nag-uumpisa nang maglumikot ang isip niya sa mga maiinit na kaganapan sa pagitan nila.

“I said, I miss my baby so much…humm!”

Drake cut her off with his punishing kiss. Ilang segundo pa ang nakalipas bago niya sinagot ang halik na iyon. She’s smiling while answering his kisses. Her hand is on his hair while the other one was caressing his stomach playfully.

“Umm,” Drake moan between their kiss when her hand reached his erect manhood. “Baby, stop doing that…” paos at masuyong sabi nito sa kanya.

His kiss lower down to her chin, to her neck and shoulder. Habang maagap nitong hinawakan ang kamay niya upang mahinto siya sa paghimas sa buhay na buhay nitong pagkalalaki.

“I want you, Drake…” para siyang sinisilaban nang bumaba na ang halik nito sa dibdib niya. “Please!”

Drake chuckle under his breath.

“Miss me that bad?” He asked, kissing the valley of her breast. She unhook her brassier and removed it. She badly want him. “Its a yes, then?” Tukso nito dahil sa ginawa niya.

“Please…” Tigang na tigang na pakiusap niya. Nawala na ang hiya sa katawan. “Baby!” She almost shout at him like a spoiled brat asking for something he did not yet forgive.

She even arch her body so she could feel his lips more on her breasts. She heard him chuckle again before he remove down her stretchable blouse. Umalpas ang malulusog niyang dibdib.

Nakita niya ang labis na pamumungay ng mata ni Drake bago siya muling napapikit sa sarap nang umpisahan na nitong dilaan ang paligid ng sensitibo niyang ut*ng.

She reach for his hair and let him suck her nipple like a hungry baby. Yes, he is her baby.

“Oh, ang sarap, Drake… I miss you so bad.” She crazily moan while he’s sucking her nipples alternately.

Mas lalong napapalakas ang ungol niya sa tuwing sinisipsip ni Drake ang dunggot niya at bahagyang kakagatin at panggigigilan na hihilahin gamit ang mga ngipin. Mahapdi na masarap iyon. Parang isang parusang ligaya.

She missed the way he suck her nipples. She could feel her wetness down there. She’s really turned on.

Naglumikot ang kamay niya at hinubad ang cotton shirt nito. She unbuckled his belt and pulled down his pants while he’s busy sucking her nipples.

“Oh damn, I want you inside me…” pinapanood niya ito na parang sanggol na pinapabreastfeed niya. His finger was pinching her other nip.

“How about foreplay?” He gently kissing her breast and suck on it. Tiyak na magmamarka iyon. “Like, eating and licking your p*ssy? Tasting your juices? I know you missed it…”

Mas lalo siyang nag init sa dirty talks nito. She pulled down her blouse until it cover her lower stomach. She help him remove her short shorts together with her panty.

“Drake…” she whispered when his head went down on her thighs.

She’s carefully watching him kissing her legs and thighs. Kumapit siya sa bedsheet, taas-baba na ang dibdib niya. Tuluyan na siyang nagpakain sa makamundong pagnanasa para sa binata.

Pinadulas nito ang dalawang kamay sa tiyan niya at inabot ang mga kamay niya na nasa bedsheet. Pinagsiklop nito ang mga kamay nila sa magkabilang gilid niya bago niya naramdaman ang masuyong paghalik-halik nito sa pagkababae niya.

Malakas siyang napasinghap sa sobrang sarap. Sobrang sensitibo ng parteng iyon ng katawan niya. Kay tagal na hindi iyon nahalikan.

“Ohh, Drake… I think I’m going to cum…” mahigpit ang kapit niya sa magkasiklop nilang mga daliri. Tila ba do’n kumukuha ng lakas na huwag bumigay kaagad.

Sa sobrang tagal nang panahon na hindi niya naranasan ang mahalikan sa parteng iyon, hindi na siya magtataka kung hindi pa man din gumagamit ng dila ang binata ay lalabasan na siya. Dampi pa lang ng labi ni Drake sa pagkababae niya, labis na ang kiliting idinulot niyon.

“I’m just kissing you…love,” bulong nito at ipinagpatuloy ang masuyong paghalik-halik sa pagkababae niya na para bang miss na miss nito iyon. She could feel her wetness.

Umangat ang balakang niya. Pilit pinipigilan ang likido na nasa puson niya na. Bumaba ang tingin niya kay Drake at mas lalo lang siyang nahirapan magpigil nang makita itong titig na titig sa hinahalikan nito.

“Oh baby… hindi ko na kaya…” she’s breathless.

“I can tell… I can taste your orgasm already.” He chuckle and look up on her. “Miss my lips so bad?” She stupidly nod her head. Hinihingal na siya. “How about my tongue?”

Mariin siyang napapikit do’n. “I miss your tongue.”

She could feel the smirk on his lips before she felt the tip of his tongue teasing her cl*t. Humigpit lalo ang kapit niya sa kamay ni Drake at pinakawalan ang malalakas na ungol.

“Ohh Drake, Ang sarap! Ummm… oohhh… yes, yes…” she grind her hip.

Mas lalo niyang naramdaman ang kiliti sa puson niya nang diinan ni Drake ang pagdila sa hiwa niya, nagkakahiwalay ang pisngi niyon at damang-dama niya ang paglapat ng dila nito sa pagkababae niya.

Pabaling-baling ang kanyang ulo sa kama. Her hips were grinding wildly. His tongue is too much for her. Mababaliw na siya.

He was massaging her clt using the tip of his tongue. Ulit-ulit na minamasahe sa napakasuyong paraan. Pinaikot-ikot nito ang dila sa sensitibong kuntil na iyon na mas lalong nagpalakas ng ungol niya. Pumipintig ng husto ang hiyas niya. At nang hinuli ng labi nito ang clt niya at marahan na sinipsip-sipsip iyon, hindi niya na talaga na kayanan ang matinding sensasyon. She lost it.

“Baby! I’m gonna cum! I’m gonna cum again! Ohhh, Drake! Baby!” She moan crazily and arch her body.

Umangat ng husto ang balakang niya sa ibabaw ng kama at sinundan lang iyon ni Drake. He continue sipping her cl*t. Sinipsip nang sinipsip na para bang may nakukuhang kung ano do’n hanggang sa hindi niya talaga nakayanan pa.

“Oh fuck…ohhh…you’re so good baby…” She reached another orgasm.

Nanghihina na bumagsak ang pang-upo niya sa kama. Hinihingal at nakapikit pa habang ang binata ay panay pa rin ang himod sa pagkababae niya.

“Hindi ka pa rin nagbabago…” hingal na sabi niya. Ibinuka lalo ang mga hita. She still want to feel him licking her there.

“I won’t stop unless you say so,” Napaigtad siya ng ipasok nito ang isang daliri sa loob niya.

Nagbaba siya ng tingin dito at nakita niyang nangingintab ang paligid ng labi nito dahil sa likidong inilabas niya.

“Give me a minute love…”

“For now, I won’t listen to you, love. I will eat and lick this shaved pinkish p*ssy until I get satisfied.” He slowly move his finger in and out while looking at her lustfully. “That’s your punishment for making me missed you so bad…”

“Oh, Drake!” Tili niya nang muling yumukod ang binata at sinamba ulit ang pagkababae niya.

HE TRIED HARD to keep his cool but when he saw Alexza’s creamy slender legs and her sexy lower butt, he lost it. Kumakawala talaga ang matinding pagnanasa niya sa dalaga sabayan pa nang labis na pangungulila niya rito.

She’s now writhing above her bed and moaning so loud while he’s licking her cl*t and moving his middle finger in and out of her. She taste really sweet.

He missed hearing her moans, calling his name and begging for him. He missed everything ’bout her. He can’t get over even he tried it for so many times. He just can’t.

“Ohh Drake, love…” she called him breathlessly.

She arch her body again. That was his sign that she’s about to orgasm. Hinuli ng labi niya ang namumula at maliit na kuntil ng pagkababae nito at sinipsip niya iyon nang sinipsip hanggang sa manginig ang hita ng dalaga at umungol ng napakalakas.

Masyado niya nang kilala ang katawan nito na madali nalang para sa kanya na dalhin ito sa tuktok ng kaligayahan.

“Ooohhh, Drake! Ooohhh…” she’s moaning and whimper so loud.

That put a smile on his lips. He made her orgasm multiple times just by licking and sucking her womanhood. He wants to taste her again, but Alexza looks so tired and weak. Isa pa namumula na rin ang pagkababae nito dahil kanina niya pa sinasamba. Pati ang hita nito ay may mga kissmark niya na rin.

“Stop na please…” she’s begging again. “Ang sarap pero nanghihina na talaga ako, Drake. Sorry na…”

Napabuntong hininga siya at inangat ang ulo hanggang sa tiyan nito. He kissed her stomach before he rested the side of his face above it.

“I’ll let you rest for awhile.”

Pinakawalan niya ang magkasiklop nilang mga daliri. Wala pang ilang segundo ay naramdaman niya nang sinusuklay nito ang buhok niya gamit ang daliri. Napapikit siya. This woman never failed to amaze her. Palagi nalang may damdamin na bumabangon mula sa kanya dahil sa mga kilos nito.

“Hindi ba tayo hahanapin ng anak natin?”

He groan at that. He really like it when she claimed his son as hers. He like it the way Blake like it when Alexza call him ‘baby’. His son is really fond at her. He’s afraid that Alexza leave them. He doesn’t want his child to get hurt.

He’s now thinking what to do to make her stay on their lives. Hindi pwedeng umalis na naman ito, tiyak na pati ang anak niya ay labis na masasaktan at ayaw niyang mangyari ’yon.

“I told him to call me if he miss you… don’t worry.”

“O-okay,”

Nang maramdaman niyang nakapagpahinga na ang dalaga ay bumangon siya ng bahagya at pinagpantay ang mga mukha nila.

She staring back at him without a doubt. The woman is really a beauty. No wonder he fell for her. No wonder he can’t forget her. Her thick eyelashes were naturally curl. Malamlam ang mga kulay tsokokateng mata na hinihiyaw ang damdamin para sa kanya. Her nose is cute. Her lips were inviting and seductive.

He swallow hard. He’s so tempted to kiss her but he was stopping himself. He just kissed her womanhood, he could still taste her juices on his lips. He can’t kiss her, not now, for sure later.

Alexza wrap her legs on his waist and that’s his cue. His erect manhood is hurting him already, he fucking need a release.

“I’m r-ready…” she whispered softly.

Slowly, he position himself on her entrance. He tilted his head back and thrust inside her. He curse under his breath when he felt how tight she is. Tight like a virgin. Tight like the first time he took her years ago.

He look down at the woman beneath him. She’s bitting her lower lip, closing her eyes and wince as he thrust deeper. Her hair is in messy bun now. Kaakit-akit sa paningin niya.

“Does it hurt?” He ask tenderly.

“I c-can handle. I’m not virgin anymore, remember.”

“You are so tight like a virgin. I’m afraid I’m hurting you.”

“You are just so huge. Mas lalong lumaki. Hindi ako handa…” ngumuso ito at nag-iwas ng tingin. “M-medyo mahapdi pero kaya ko naman. Masasanay din ulit ako sa’yo.”

“Dapat lang na masanay ka ulit…” umulos siya, napakasarap gumalaw sa loob. “Aaraw-arawin kita para masanay ka…”

“Drake!” Namula ang mukha nito.

“Why?”

He slowly thrusting inside her, sinasanay niya ito sa laki niya. Para bang bumalik ulit sila sa unang pagtatalik nila. He’s patiently moving above her.

“Araw-araw talaga?”

“Gabi-gabi rin…”

Mas lalo itong napasinghap sa naging sagot niya. Hindi niya na hinintay itong magprotesta pa dahil nagsunud-sunod na ang pag-ulos niya sa loob nito.

He lower his head and suck her one nipple while thrusting deeper and faster inside her. He couldn’t hold himself anymore. He wants to take her hard and rough.

SINASALUBONG ni Alexza ang mararahas na pagbayo ni Drake sa pagkababae niya. He’s so huge. Hindi niya inaasahan na may mas ilalaki pa pala ang kahabaan ng binata. Malaki na noon, mas lalo ngayon na halos maramdaman niya iyon sa puson niya.

“Oohhh, faster, love! Umm, ooohh, yes…” she moan insanely and meet his thrust.

Ang pamamaos niya ay kumakatok na sa lalamunan niya. Kanina pa siya ungol nang ungol ng malakas. Nababaliw na nga talaga siya.

Drake is busy sucking her both nipples again. Nakakatulong iyon na sa pag-init lalo ng katawan niya. Napapasabunot siya sa buhok nito sa tuwing kakagatin ang ut*ng niya sa kontroladong paraan.

“Oh fuck, ang sarap mo talaga…” he curse hoarsely.

Ang dalawang kamay niya ay nasa uluhan niya habang magkahugpo ang mga daliri nila. Ang mga siko nito ay nakatukod sa magkabilang gilid ng ulo niya. Galit ang mga ugat at muscle nito sa braso sa sobrang pwersa sa pag-galaw sa ibabaw niya.

Sunud-sunod ang pinapakawalan na ulos ni Drake na nagpapaliyad ng katawan niya. The bed is moving and the bed sheet is messy because of their rough moves. Ang mga maleta na nasa ibabaw ng kama kanina, ngayon ay nagkalat na sa carpeted floor.

She could almost taste their both orgasm when his phone suddenly vibrate. Its in the side table. Pilit niyang inaninag ang caller dahil mukhang hindi iyon pansin ni Drake.

“Love, our b-baby is c-calling…ohh,”

“Answer it,” he keeps on thrusting hard.

Pilit niyang inabot ang cellphone nang bitawan ni Drake ang mga kamay niya at pinindot ang answer button.

“Hello, baby..oh,” natutop niya ang bibig ng umulos ang binata. Tinakpan niya ang cellphone. “Stop moving,” pigil ang boses na sambit niya.

She pressed the loudspeaker.

“Hello mommy ko! Ano po ang ginagawa niyo?” Masiglang tanong ni Blake.

Nakagat niya ang labi at napatingin sa binata na mabagal na naglalabas-masok ang kahabaan sa loob niya. He buried his face on her neck.

“I’m p-packing my clothes,umm…baby.”

“How about my daddy?”

“Daddy’s doing push up, son.” Umulos ulit si Drake kaya napatakip siya sa bibig niya para mapigil ang pag-ungol. “Call later, anak. Matatapos na kami ng mommy mo.” Kulang nalang ay sabihin sa anak na huwag distorbo.

“Okay po daddy. Wag po kayong mag-pagod.”

“Y-yes baby, s-see you later.” She said and cut the line when Blake said bye.

Natatawa na hinampas niya sa dibdib ang binata. Umangat lang ang mga kilay nito at muling umulos nang umulos. Siya naman ay panay ang ungol at sinasabayan ang galaw nito.

After a long deep and rough thrust she felt another orgasm coming again. His balls were slapping her butt. Ang tunog ng pag-iisa ng katawan nila ay sumasabay sa ungol nila at sa langitngit ng kama.

“B-baby I’m coming… ohhh, please, yes…oh yes…” she’s panting and gasping for air.

Nanginig ang mga hita niya sa malalalim at marahas na ulos ni Drake. He’s sucking her neck. His grip on her waist is firm. Ramdam niyang malapit na rin itong labasan dahil sa mararahas nitong bayo sa pagkababae niya.

“Oh fuck, fuck baby…” he curse once again before he buried himself into the deepest.

“Drake! Drake! Ummm! Oohhhh…”

Kumawala ang orgasmo niya at sinabayan nito iyon. Ang init ng maraming likido sa loob niya ay sobrang pamilyar. He cum inside her!

Kapwa sila hinihingal nang ilang minuto. Hindi pa rin nito inaalis ang pagkalalaki sa loob niya. She felt so contented being filled by him again. She missed his buddy down there. Mas malaki na, mas masarap lalo.

“Take a rest baby. I will finish packing your clothes.” He whisper and kiss her forehead.

Marahan lang siyang tumango at ipinikit ang mga mata. Naramdaman niya ang paghugot ng pagkalalaki nito at pag-alis sa ibabaw niya. He cover her with comforter before she heard the opening and closing door of her bathroom. She let herself sleep with smile on her lips.

12 ~ Kissmark

CHAPTER TWELVE

“MOMMY KO!”

Blake called her excitedly and run towards her for a welcome hug. Nag-squat siya at napangiwi nang sumakit ang mga hita niya pati ang gitnang bahagi ng katawan niya. She’s sore.

Sinalubong niya ang yakap ni Blake at hinalikan ito sa ulo.

“Kumain ka na?” Tanong niya nang kumalas ito sa yakap.

“Opo, bakit ang tagal niyong bumalik?”

Inalalayan siyang makatayo ni Drake, mukhang napansin ang pangingiwi niya. Napwersa ng husto ang katawan niya dahil sa labanan nila sa kama ni Drake, um-isang round pa sila bago tuluyang umalis ng condo niya. Kaya naman pagod at masakit ang buo niyang katawan. She need some good sleep tonight.

“Because mommy fell asleep, hinintay ko pa siyang magising bago kami bumalik dito.” Si Drake ang sumagot. Ang isang braso nito ay nakayapos sa bewang niya.

“Gano’n po ba. Napagod po siguro ang mommy ko sa pag-pack ng things niya.”

“Pagod na pagod, anak. Kaya maaga tayong matutulog ngayon para makapagpahinga na ang mommy mo.”

Naaawa na tumingala sa kanya si Blake at yumakap sa mga binti niya.

“Mommy magpahinga ka na po. Bukas mo nalang po ako basahan ng bed time story.”

Akmang kakargahin niya ito nang mapangiwi ulit siya kaya si Drake nalang ang kumarga dito.

“I can still read you a bed time story, baby before we sleep.”

“Sa room ko nalang po ikaw matulog, pwede ba?”

“Sure—”

“Your mom will sleep in my room.” Drake cut her off. Aalma pa sana siya nang magpatuloy ito. “You can sleep in our room tonight if you like.”

“I want daddy! I want to sleep with you and mommy!” Naglikot pa ito sa bisig ng ama.

“Then, let’s go to my room and sleep.”

Karga ni Drake ang anak habang ang isang kamay ay nakayapos sa kanya, naglakad sila paakyat sa hagdan. Bawat hakbang niya ay kumikirot ang pagkababae niya. Para siyang nakuhanan ng virginity ulit.

Drake bedroom is huge than his son. May double king size bed sa gitna na may kulay asul na bed sheet. Kasyang-kasya silang tatlo kahit pa bumalibaliktad si Blake ng higa.

Sa veranda ng kwarto ay tanaw ang malawak na karagatan. Madilim dahil gabi na pero rinig ang mararahan na hampas ng alon sa kalayuan. The room was perfectly built to see the beautiful view of the ocean outside.

Nagsabay mag shower ang mag-ama at siya ang sumunod pagkatapos ng mga ito. She wore her maroon silk nighties, medyo mababa ang neckline at hanggang itaas lang ng tuhod niya ang haba. She wore nothing but a lacy panty under it. She’s comfortable wearing it when sleep. She doesn’t even wear a bra when sleep.

Paglabas niya palang sa bathroom ay pinahirapan na siyang huminga ni Drake dahil sa titig nito sa kanya at sa katawan niya.

The two is sitting on the bed while watching cartoon in a big flat screen TV in front of bed. Nakabukas din ang lampshade sa gilid na lamesa ng kama, sapat na ang liwanag para makita nilang tatlo ang isa’t-isa.

Naupo siya sa kama sa tabi ni Blake, hinaplos niya ang buhok nito.

“Ang bango mo mommy…”

Marahan siyang natawa do’n at inamoy ito. “Ikaw din naman ang bango-bango mo. Amoy baby palagi.”

“Naamoy po kita paglapit mo sa’kin.” Humikab ito at bumaling sa ama na pinapanood sila. “Daddy, sa gitna po ako ha?”

“Nope,” Drake said popping the third letter. Napalunok siya nang bumaling sa kanya ang tila lasing na mata nito. “Si mommy ang sa gitna, anak.”

Napaigtad pa siya nang abutin ni Drake ang kamay niya at marahan na hinila palapit dito. Kabado na tuluyan siyang umakyat sa kama, si Blake naman ay malikot na pumwesto sa gilid niya.

“Yan!” Humiga si Blake at kaagad na yumakap sa kanya kahit nakaupo pa siya.

Kapwa sila ni Drake na nakaupo, nakasandal lang sa headrest ng kama ang likod nila.

“You smell good,” bulong ng binata sa ilalim ng tenga niya. Nang-aakit!

“Mommy higa ka na po…”

Napilitan na humiga siya. Bakit ba ang lakas-lakas ng tibok ng puso niya? Kinakabahan yata siya kay Drake? Behave naman siguro ito ngayong gabi? Kasama nila ang anak nila kaya dapat magpatulog ito.

In-nunat niya ang isang braso at pinaunan do’n si Blake, sa bata siya nakaharap. Her back facing Drake.

“Do you want me to read you a bed time story?” She ask her son, his eyes were close now. His small soft arm were place above her stomach.

“Next time nalang mommy ko. Antok na po ako, eh.”

“Night, son.” Drake said.

Nahigit niya ang hininga nang bahagyang dumagan sa kanya ang katawan nito upang mahalikan ang noo ng anak.

“Goodnight daddy ko, good night mommy ko…” Inaantok na bulong ni Blake at tuluyan ng hindi nagpaawat sa pagtulog.

Drake turn off the lampshade beside him. Tanging ang screen sa tv nalang ang liwanag sa buong silid.

Mariin siyang napapikit nang maramdaman niya sa likod niyang humiga na rin si Drake. Dumulas ang kamay nito sa ilalim ng nighties niya at tinakpan ng comforter ang katawan nilang tatlo. Nakiliti kaagad siya sa init ng palad nitong sumasakop sa dibdib niya.

“D-Drake…” she warn him.

“What?” He sounds innocent! “I’m going to sleep.”

Then he turn off the tv. Mas lalong dumilim ang kwarto. Liwanag ng buwan lang sa labas ang tanglaw nila na namumula sa salamin na bintana.

“Yung kamay mo…” sita niya sa mahinang tinig.

Slowly, she felt his fingers playing with her nipples. Kinakapos siya ng hininga sa pagpapipigil.

“My palms were perfectly fit on your breasts. What’s your cup? C?” bulong nito sa batok niya at nag-umpisa ng lamasin ang dibdib niya sa napakarahan na paraan.

“C now,”

Napapikit siya sa sensasyon at hindi na nagawa pang magreklamo. Hindi talaga ito nagpapatinag.

NAPILITAN na nagmulat ng mata si Alexza dahil sa hindi niya maigalaw ang katawan at kahit pa ang mga kamay niya. Malabo ang paningin na sinipat niya ang itsura nilang tatlo sa kama.

Blake is hugging her, nakaunan ito sa braso niya. Masarap ang tulog. Ang mabigat na braso naman ni Drake ay nasa tiyan niya habang ang kamay ay sakop ang isang dibdib niya. Nakaunan siya sa isang braso nito.

Marahan niyang ibinaba ang kamay ni Drake paalis sa dibdib niya ngunit mas lalo lang dumiin iyon. Gising ito!

“Get off your hand on my breasts,” she whispered.

“No,” he whispered back huskily.

“Pag nagising si Blake makikita ’yang kamay mo.”

Iginalaw nito ang palad at marahan na pinisil-pisil ang dibdib niya. Siniksik nito ang mukha sa leeg niya.

“Ililipat ko si Blake sa kwarto niya,”

She gasped and slap his arm. Its still dark outside. Marahil ay nasa alas-tres o alas-kwatro palang ng umaga.

“I’m still sore,”

“What? Sabi ko lang naman ililipat ko ang anak natin…”

“I know you, Drake.”

He breath into her neck. “I know you still sore. Do you want me to massage it?”

Ang aga-aga ay parang tanghaling tapat sa init ang pakiramdam niya. Bakit ba nilalandi siya ng lalaking ito? Ilang oras palang siyang nakakapagpahinga!

“No,” kabado niyang tanggi. Nang bumangon ito ay mas lalo siyang kinabahan. “A-anong gagawin mo?”

Nilapitan nito ang anak nilang sobrang himbing na natutulog at maingat na binuhat.

“Ililipat ko lang sa kwarto niya. I don’t want to disturb his sleep because of your moan.”

“Drake!” Hiyang-hiya na sabi niya at wala nang nagawa ng lumabas ito ng silid.

Hindi na siya mapakali sa kama habang hinihintay na bumalik si Drake. Kinakabahan na naman siya dahil dalawa na naman silang magkasama. Kahit sumasakit pa ang pagkababae niya ay ramdam niya ang pamimintig niyon sa di malaman na dahilan. Parang sabik na naman na mapagtuunan ng pansin ng binata.

Ilan sandali pa ay narinig niya ang pagbukas ng pinto at ang pagsara niyon. He even locked it.

Lumubog ang kama sa tabi niya na tanda na may humiga. He’s facing her back, nakatagilid siya ng higa at pilit na nagtutulug-tulugan.

Marahan siyang hinapit ni Drake patihaya. Inis na iminulat niya ang mata, nakatunghay ito sa kanya, ang kamay ay nasa ilalim na ng nighties niya at ibinababa ang panty niya.

“I told you I’m still sore,” she glared at him.

Sa bahagyang dilim ng paligid ay aninag niya ang parang lasing na mga mata nitong nakatitig sa kanya.

“I will just massage it, okay? Trust me, you’d like it.” Pagkumbinse nito sa kanya at tuluyan ng ibinaba ang lacy panty niya.

Nakagat niya niya nalang ang pang-ibabang labi at humilig sa dibdib ni Drake. Nakatagilid ito ng higa ang daliri ay marahan ng gumagalaw sa pagkababae niya. Bahagya niyang ibinuka ang mga hita at ipinikit ang mga mata.

His finger started massaging her cl*t in a very slow and sensual motion. He doesn’t have intention to get her wet but she could feel her wetness already.

“Drake…” marahan na tawag niya dito nang naramdaman ang pagkabasa niya.

“Its normal, it’s okay.” Paos na bulong nito sa ibabaw ng ulo niya. “Let’s sleep,”

“How can I? Your finger is moving so good on me,”

“Don’t mind my finger baby.”

Niyakap niya ang isang braso dito at hinayaan ito sa pagmamasahe raw sa pagkababae niya. Sa isang banda ay gumiginhawa ang pakiramdam niya sa parteng iyon. Tila ba napapalitan ang kirot ng sarap. Hindi siya sigurado kung totoo nga itong masahe-masahe ni Drake pero effective, in all fairness.

She fell asleep while he was massaging her cl*t gently. Nakatulugan niya na ang kaganapan na iyon.

Sa pagmulat ng mata niya ilang oras lang ang lumipas ay ang nakangiting mukha ni Blake ang nabungaran niya. Nakatunghay ito sa kanya.

“Good morning mommy ko. Ang ganda mo po…” bati nito at hinalikan siya sa labi.

Inaantok na natawa siya at inabot ang pisngi nito at bahagyang kinurot.

“Good morning my sweet baby boy,”

Nagising nang husto ang diwa niya nang may humalik ulit sa labi niya. Its a quick kiss from Drake, he’s sitting beside her.

“Morning beautiful,” he greeted her, amuse on his eyes.

Para siyang nataranta na tinignan ang katawan niya sa ilalim ng makapal na kumot. Nakahinga siya ng maluwag nang makita na suot niya na ulit ang panty niya.

“We cooked breakfast mommy, let’s eat?” Kuminang ang mata ni Blake nang ayain siya. “Breakfast in bed po,”

“Sure,”

Maingat siyang bumangon at nakapagtataka na tila bahagyang nawala ang kirot ng pagkababae niya. Napatingin siya kay Drake, ilang minuto kaya nitong minasahe ang parteng iyon ng katawan niya? Hindi niya na kasi namalayan.

“You okay?” Drake is almost whispering.

She smile and nod. “Yes, I’m okay.”

“Good, I told you. Its effective.”

She bit her cheek and just nod. Nahihiya siyang tignan ito gayong kaharap nila ang anak na pinapanood sila.

“What’s that mommy?” Takang itinuro ni Blake ang dibdib niya. “Ang dami mo pong red mark sa chest.”

Nagtataka rin na ibinaba niya ang tingin sa dibdib at labis na uminit ang pisngi nang makita ang mga kissmark ni Drake sa cleavage niya. Tiyak na mas marami sa buong dibdib niya dahil nakita niya kagabi na balot ng kissmark ang mga ’yon.

Tumikhim siya at maingat na hinila paatas ang suot niya upang matakpan ang mga kiss mark kahit papano.

“Ahm, ang dami kasing langgam kahapon sa condo ko anak. Kinagat si mommy,” palusot niya at gustong sikuhin si Drake na nasa gilid niya nang marahan itong natawa. Tuwang-tuwa pa ang gago.

“Does it hurt mommy? You want me to kiss it?” Inosente at nag-aalala masyado ang boses at mukha ng anak. “Daddy use to kiss my red mark kapag nakakagat po ako ng langgam. Tapos mawawala na po ang sakit.”

“Ah, g-gano’n ba…” natataranta siya na ewan.

“Go on anak, kiss mommy’s red mark. I’m sure masakit ’yan.” Udyok ni Drake na parang wala lang. Wala rin naman sa kanya.

Gusto niya lang rin sabihin kay Blake na kapag kiniss, mawawala talaga ang sakit kahit hindi naman talaga masakit.

Mabilis na lumapit sa kanya ang anak at dinampian ng inosenteng halik ang bahagi ng dibdib niya.

“Yan! Mawawala na ang sakit mommy. Na-kiss na po.” Masayang sabi ni Blake at bumalik sa pagkakaupo sa kama.

“Let me see son,” kinabahan siya nang dumukwang si Drake sa kanya.

He move closer to her chest, as if checking her kiss mark.

“Okay na ba daddy?”

“I think daddy need to kiss mommy’s red mark para mawala na talaga ’yung sakit, anak.”

Napalunok siya ng matindi at hindi maigalaw ang katawan. Hindi siya makapagsalita! Tumama ang mainit na hininga ni Drake sa ibabaw ng dibdib niya. Nilabanan niya ang sensasyon.

“Kiss mo na po daddy para mawala na.”

Gusto niyang mapangiwi sa pag-udyok ng anak. Hay, kung alam lang ni Blake na ang daddy nito ang may kasalanan ng mga red mark na ’yan!

Napahawak siya sa buhok ni Drake nang maramdaman ang masusuyong halik nito sa ibabaw ng dibdib niya at sa naka-expose na cleavage niya. Nakakahibo ang ginagawa nito.

“E-enough, hindi na masakit.” Hirap na hirap na naitawid niya ang mga salitang iyon.

She could feel his lips form a smile above her chest, he kiss it one more time before he look up on her with smug on his face. She just glared at him.

“Hindi na masakit mommy ko?”

She smile at Blake. “Hindi na baby. Thank you sa kiss mo.” Yumukod siya sa anak at hinalikan ito sa tungki ng ilong. “Let’s eat?”

THEY ARE SPENDING their weekend at beach resort. Sa susunod na buwan pa ang summer pero ngayon palang ay unti-unti nang nagdadatingan ang ibang turista.

They occupied one of the VIP cabin nearby. Hindi na nila kailangan magpunta pa sa hotel room dahil pwede naman na dito sila pansamantala.

“Are you going to wear that?”

Nilingon niya si Drake na naghihintay sa pinto. He’s topless and wearing a summer printed short. His tanned skin making him look hot. Dala nang palaging expose sa araw kaya naging kayumanggi ang balat nito na parang mamulamula.

Magkasalubong ang kilay ng binata habang pinapasadahan ang buong katawan niya.

“Why not?”

Inayos niya ang cleavage niya na namumutok dahil sa dark blue one piece bikini. Labas na labas ang likod niya, pang-upo niya lang ang natatakpan sa likod na bahagi ng kanyang katawan.

Drake can easily attract women in his resort. Nasaksihan iyon ng mga mata niya nang dumating sila kaninang umaga do’n. Hindi naman pwedeng magpapatalbog siya sa mga babaeng naroon. Pinaghandaan niya talagang magsuot ng bathing suit.

“You are not going outside wearing that, Alexza.” Mariin na hindi nito pagsang-ayon at halos gumalaw ang mga panga.

“I have cover up,” kinuha niya ang manipis na tela sa kama at inangat iyon, ipinakita dito.

Drake shook his head for disapproval. “No, wear rush guard instead.”

Malalim siyang bumuntong hininga at sinipat-sipat ang katawan sa salamin. Nilagyan niya lang ng concealer ang mga kiss mark niya sa dibdib at hita kaya naitago niya na iyon.

She sexily tied her long hair and let him watch her with his fierce eyes. The intensity of his stare starting to make her uncomfortable.

Drake took a few steps closer and her heart started booming inside her chest. He stood behind her, watching their reflection on the mirror. Bumaba ang labi nito sa balikat niya at dinampian iyon ng halik. Pinigil niya ang kuryenteng dumaloy papunta sa tiyan niya.

“Why are you doing this to me?” He whispered on her neck, his palm held her small waist gently.

“I’m not doing anything.”

“Bakit palagi mo nalang akong pinapahirapan…” patuloy na bulong nito, humahalik ang labi sa naka-expose niyang batok. “Your body is mine. How many times do you want me to tell it to you, huh? You even have the guts to hide my mark on you,”

His hand reach her lower stomach. Naalarma siya kaagad kaya marahan niyang inalis ang kamay nito do’n bago pa may mahawakan na hindi dapat.

“At ano ang gusto mo? Ang mga babaeng guest lang dito sa resort ang gusto mong naka-bikini? At ako hindi pwede?” Inirapan niya ito sa salamin.

“I don’t care about them wearing bikini. I only care is you. Kung ayaw mong magpalit, huwag na tayong lumabas dito.”

“Napaka mo talaga kahit kailan.”

“I’d rather stuck here with you wearing this…” umangat ang dalawang palad nito sa dibdib niya at marahan na pumisil.

Kung hindi siya lalayo dito siguradong masasabak na naman siya sa matinding bakbakan sa kama sa likod nila.

Kumawala siya sa yakap ni Drake at kinuha ang cover up niya. Nginitian niya ito ng matamis bago nagmamadaling lumabas ng cabin.

“Alexza! Damn it!” He shouted but she did not turn her head on him.

She walk fast and saw her son playing sand. Blake is building a castle. He’s wearing a blue rush guard.

“Hello mommy,” nag-angat ito ng tingin sa kanya.

“Do you need some help?”

Inilapag niya ang cover up sa buhanginan at doon siya umupo. She started helping Blake building a sand castle. Ramdam niya ang mga matang nagagawi sa kanya sa tuwing may mga dumadaan.

Ipinagsawalang bahala niya iyon hanggang sa may isang naglakas loob lumapit sa kanya.

“Hi sexy, I did not expect to see you here.”

A familiar baritone making her heart beat nervously. She look up on the man who’s towering her with his wide and strong built. Wearing his black sunglasses, the man smile wickedly at her.

She gulp nervously. “W-what are you doing…”

“Ninong Brooke!” Blake call the man and stood up to give him a hug.

“Hey buddy,” they fist bumped. “Where’s your dad?”

“In our cabin po,” Bumaling sa kanya si Blake. She force a smile to his son. She’s so worried and afraid inside.

Seeing Brooke Montero here is not a good idea. Its a fucking trouble!

“I will see your dad soon.”

“And ninong, this is my mommy,” Blake introduced her proudly.

Brooke eyebrow shot up. The smile on his face faded. His aura become sarcastic.

“Mommy huh,” he arrogantly look at her. “Let’s talk.” He said it with finality and bid a good bye to Blake who is now busy in building sand castle.

Alexza took a deep breath and watch Brooke walk away from them.

13 ~ Getting Married

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

KANINA PA siya napapanguso at napapairap dahil sa madidilim na titig sa kanya ni Drake. He was looking at her as if she’d been a bad girl and she did something unforgivable. Hindi naman kasalanan na suwayin niya ito sa kagustuhan niyang magsuot ng bikini, hindi ba? She’s just enjoying their weekends. Why he needs to be kill joy?

“Hindi po ba kayo bati ng daddy ko?”

She smile at Blake who’s on her lap. They’re in the restaurant waiting for their dinner to arrive.

“Bati kami ng daddy mo, anak. He’s just not in the mood.”

“Daddy looks mad at you, mommy. Magbati na po kayo.”

Umirap siya kay Drake. “Magbabati na kami mamaya bago matulog.” Nakita niya ang mas lalong pagdilim ng gwapong mukha ng lalaki. “I think your daddy is just so tired and he would need a good massage to get relax.” She eyed Drake with naughty smile on her lips.

“Eat up,” Drake said seriously at his son when the foods served.

Hindi siya nito kinakausap simula nang takasan niya ito sa cabin nila. Mamaya niya nalang ito lalambingin kapag silang dalawa nalang. Sana lang ay magpalambing ang binata sa kanya. Naalala niyang hindi pa pala talaga sila okay, kaya dapat hindi niya muna ito binibigyan ng sama ng loob.

Inilipat niya sa katabing upuan si Blake at hinainan ito ng seafoods. Their favorite!

Nasa kalagitnaan na sila ng pagkain ng muntik na siyang mabilaukan sa lalaking umupo sa katapat ng upuan ni Blake. Ang katapat niya naman ay si Drake na hindi nagbabago ang itsura.

“I’m sorry, I’m late. I fell asleep.” Brooke casually said, ignoring her presence.

Hindi niya rin kasi ito kinausap kanina. Bakit sa ganitong pagkakataon pa dumating ang lalaking ito? Hindi pa nga sila nagkakaayos ng tuluyan ni Drake, madadagdagan pa ang problema niya sa hindi inaasahan na pagdating ni Brooke.

Brooke Montero is one of the young wealthy businessman in Asia. He has a big name is business world. His face are all over in biz magazines. Women always hunt him and hoping for his attention but he’s very private when it comes to his relationships, she knew it. He’s also the sole owner of Montero Oil Company who has many branch all over the Asia.

“Okay lang,” Casual din na sabi niya.

Drake suddenly shifted his sitting position and eye her with dark confusion on his eyes.

“You knew each other?”

Napalunok siya at ginapangan ng kaba sa tanong nitong iyon. Samahan pa ng mga titig ng binata na parang nanghuhusga.

“I know her,” It was Brooke. “I’ve met her few years ago. I did not know that you two knew each other.”

“She’s mine.” Drake said territorially. “Fuck off, Montero.”

“I should’ve known it from the start, Villafuente.”

Mas lalong tila nagalit at naguluhan si Drake. Ibinaba nito ang hawak na kutsara at tinidor. He wipe his mouth using the napkin, his intense eyes never leave hers. Ang matang nagsasabi sa kanya ng kailangan nilang mag-usap, kailangan nito ng paliwanag niya!

“I-I will explain to you all about these later, okay? L-Let’s finish our dinner.”

“You should,” Matalim na wika nito sa kanya na halos humiwa sa dibdib niya.

The hurt on his eyes were completely covered by his anger towards her and everything she have done. He’s back from being cold and distant. Maybe, he’s starting to hate her again.

“I did not mean to ruin this dinner. I should go,”

“No, eat with us.” Putol ni Drake sa kaibigan. “You are a friend.” Anito na para bang sinasabing isang kaibigan si Brooke na hindi magtataksil.

She heard Brooke took a deep sigh and shook his head. He stay for dinner as a respect even she could feel that he doesn’t really want to dine with them especially that Drake was obviously not in the mood. Brooke is a trouble and also he’s in trouble.

She doesn’t like to ruin their friendship. If only she knew that Brooke and Drake were friends, she should’ve kept her distance at Brooke. But, it’s too late now. He’s here coincidentally or intently, she doesn’t really know. One thing is for sure now, she badly needs to talk with Drake before he could decide to throw her away from their lives. She doesn’t want that to happen.

“Maybe we could have some drinks at D’ Club.” Drake said after he eat. “Dwaye is there with our buddies.”

“Yeah, I saw him before dinner. That’s cool, man. Wanna hangout with those brute.”

“Kuya Dwaye is here?” She gasped and her eyes twinkle in excitement. “I haven’t see him for a weeks now. I thought he’s in Manila.”

Drake cold eyes darted on her. “How come you didn’t know that? Your brother has a Club here.”

Her forehead knotted. “Talaga? You didn’t tell me ’bout it, love.”

She saw how his face softened as he heard her endearment on him, but he quickly switched it with confusion on his handsome face.

“You should know it, Alexza.”

“Dwaye just sent me a text message.” Brooke interrupted coolly. “Shall we?”

“How about me?” Napatingin silang lahat kay Blake. He’s done eating. “Can I go to Tito Dwaye’s Club?”

“No son, you and mommy will go to our suite and sleep.” Si Drake na mataman na nakatingin sa anak. “Don’t let mommy go outside, okay?”

She pouted her lip a bit and leered. Okay fine! She will stay in their suite with Blake. They transferred in his hotel suite this evening. Ayaw na ng binata sa Cabin nila. At ngayon ay kailangan niyang magpakabait at sumunod dito. Ayaw niyang dagdagan pa ang sakit ng ulo ni Drake sa kanya at sa mga ginawa niya.

“Yes daddy. I will hug mommy so tight so she could not escape from me.”

Alexza let out a cute laugh and pinched her son’s cheek. “I will hug you back tightly baby until you fall asleep.”

“Tapos aalis ka po?”

Kunyari ay nag-isip siya. She chewed her lips and wiggle her eyebrows playfully.

“Alexza,” Drake warning tone making her leered again.

“Of course, hindi ako aalis. We will sleep together even without daddy on our side.” Kausap niya kay Blake at tumayo na. “Excuse us gentlemen, we will leave now.”

“I wanna kiss ninong Brooke and daddy first.” Blake said and hurriedly went to Brooke and kiss his cheek.

“Have a good night, buddy.” Sabi ni Brooke at ginulo ang buhok ng bata.

“You too, Ninong.” Lumapit ito sa ama, yumukod ng bahagya si Drake para nahalikan ng anak sa pisngi. “Have fun tonight with your friends, daddy.”

“I will, anak.” Drake kiss Blake on the head and his eyes went on hers. She’s standing almost beside him, waiting to their son. “Lock the door. Don’t go outside.” Ulit nito sa kanya.

Sabay na tumayo si Brooke at Drake. Brooke is busy texting someone on his cellphone while Drake keep his eyes on hers.

“D-Don’t get drunk. D-Don’t let women go near you.” She mutter shyly, almost pouting her lips.

Kung hindi lang komplikado ay sasama talaga siya sa Club para lang mabantayan ang mga babaeng magtatangka na lumapit sa binata.

Drake smirk. “Go ahead.”

She took a step closer and tip toed. She kissed his lips. He did not react on that kiss. Parang may sumipa sa dibdib niya. He always responds to her kiss, why not now? He’s really mad at her! She can tell.

“I will wait for you in our suite.”

“No, don’t wait for me.”

She nod weakly and held Blake’s hand. “Let’s go to our room baby. I will read a bed time story for you.”

Kasunod nilang lumabas ng restaurant ang dalawang lalaki. Binaybay nila ang kanang bahagi ng daan kung nasaan ang hotel habang ang dalawa ay deretso lang papunta sa kung saan ang mga ito pupunta. Hindi niya pa masyado nalibot ang buong resort, marami na nga rin talagang nagbago pagkalipas ng ilang taon.

LOUD MUSIC, dancing disco lights and the smell of alcohol with the combination of smoke from cigarettes and vape invaded his senses as they entered on D’ Club.

On the dance floor are mostly women who was dancing wildly, wearing a bikini top and short shorts, holding their glasses of liquor. Its a good view for men but the women does not appealing to him now. His eyes only wanted one woman and she’s in their suite now with their son.

Even he is mad at Alexza, he could not help himself but to be with her. He’s dealing with her and everything she’s done until that very moment. She’s really irreplaceable!

“Here!”

A familiar man sitting on one of the VIP couch wave his hand on them. He and Brooke walk towards with that group of men with women.

Dwaye is sitting smugly, waiting for them to arrive, two women were giving him a lap dance. That friend of him will always be the coolest and sarcastic among all of them. And Dwaye is the most playful when it comes to women. He don’t do relationships. He prefer one night stand. Hindi kana niyan kilala kinabukasan, parang may amnesia na ’yan pagkatapos ng isang gabing pagsasalo sa kama kasama ang iba’t-ibang babae.

While Clane Altaraza is seriously drinking his beer, his eyes were on the dance floor. He’s currently the CEO of Altaraza Hotel and Resort who’s known all over the Philippines.

Next is Zyron Fuentes with one woman on his lap, kissing his neck and chest. His father is a fucking senator and here he is, ruining his father’s image by partying and womanizing.

Drake sat on the single sofa comfortably after he fist bumped to his friend. Brooke found his sits next to Clane.

“Heard you’re with my sister,” Dwaye started a conversation and gave him a bottle of beer.

“Yeah,” tinanggap niya ang bote ng alak at napatingin sa mga babae sa kandungan nito.

Napansin iyon ng kaibigan kaya tinapik ang pang-upo ng mga babae. “Ladies, see you in my suit later.”

“Sure thing, babe.” And the women give his friend a kiss on his both cheeks before waving at them and leave.

“Have you had your check on your doctor?” Zyron asked Dwaye.

“Why would I brute?”

“Sa dami nang gabing lumipas at iba’t-ibang babae ang nakakatalik mo, naniniwala ka talagang wala ka pang nakukuhang sakit?” May disgusto sa boses ni Zyron.

“Do you really think I’m stupid? I always have my protection with me.” May kinuha sa bulsa ng pantalon si Dwaye at inihagis sa lamesa sa gitna nila ang ilang pirasong condom. “Choose your flavor, brute.”

That made them laugh. It was funny though. Dwaye use protection is because he’s afraid to have a child with the woman he slept with for only one night. Takot mapikot sa madaling salita.

If only he use protection before, for sure Blake would not be around, but he was grateful that his son came into his life. He did not regret being a bad boy when Alexza left him, because Blake came in and that made him back on his life.

He drink his beer and roam his eyes around the Club. On the dance floor, she saw a familiar built of woman who’s dancing sexily and wildly. Its Maisie.

“I don’t need that for now, Mendez. I appreciate your generosity, but I want this woman on my lap give me a deep throat tonight. Is that alright sweetheart?”

The woman on Zyron’s lap giggle. “Yes! Lets go to your suite then?”

“Why not here babe? My buddy down here is so ready for your lips.”

“Fuck you, Fuentes!” Dwaye curse. “Huwag mong dungisan itong Club ko. Isusuplong kita sa tatay mong senador.”

“I’m just kidding.” Zyron slap the woman’s butt. “See you later. I need some time with my fucking friends.”

“Okay, I’ll see you.” And the woman leave them, finally.

Tumungga siya ng beer ulit at inilapag iyon sa lamesa. Kumuha siya ng sigarilyo at sinindihan iyon.

“Where’s Alexza? Bakit hindi mo sinama?” Tanong ulit ni Dwaye na naninigarilyo rin.

Sumandal siya sa inuupuan at nagpakawala ng usok.

“She’s with my son. In our suite.”

“Binabahay mo na pala ang kapatid ko.” May sarkasmo sa boses nito.

“Alam mong matagal ko na siyang gustong ibahay…umalis lang.” Seryoso niyang sabi. “Ng walang paalam. Ng walang kahit na ano. How was that, Dwaye?” He could hear the sarcasm on his own voice.

“Forgive her,” Dwaye suddenly became serious.

Ang mga kaibigan na nakapaligid sa kanila ay nakikinig lang habang umiinom. They knew what happened between him and Alexza except with Brooke because he’s always out of the country and he did not met her before when their were in a relationship.

Besides, he’s not really vocal about his relationship with her. He kept the pain himself but he knew that his friends aware on it.

“Your sister always makes me confused. She knew Brooke. Care to explain that to me?” Nagpalipat-lipat ang desperado niyang tingin sa dalawang lalaki.

He was surprise when Alexza and Brooke knew each other. Alexza did change, hindi niya lang matukoy kung saan o paano. She puzzled him with her actions and her feelings.

“I don’t know if I am allowed to say all of these…”

“I was asking you, Dwaye.” He cut him off impatiently.

Dwaye shook his head. “You better talk to my sister. Confront her. I’m sure she will tell you everything you wanted to know.”

Drake let out a loud breath. Napapagod na isinandal niya ang ulo sa inuupuan at mariin na napapikit.

“Get drunk para may lakas ka ng loob kausapin si Alexza.” Suhestiyon ni Zyron na alam niyang hindi naman seryoso.

“Shut up, brute.”

“Talk to her when you are finally ready to know everything.” Clane seriously suggested. As if they are in a business meeting. “You wasted so much years without her beside you. And now she’s back, don’t waste another chance. Hindi naman babalik ’yung tao ng walang dahilan.” Clane is fucking right!

What’s her reason then? He needs to know that. He can tell that Alexza is ready to tell him everything. Maybe he’s the one who’s not yet ready to know it? He shook his head, of course he’s ready and willing to know her reason. Para mapanatag na rin siya. Hanggat alam niyang may itinatago o hindi sinasabi sa kanya ang dalaga hindi kailanman siya mapapanatag.

“At hindi ka rin iiwan ng kapatid ko ng walang dahilan. Sana maayos niyo na ’yan. Alam kong kahit magkasama na ulit kayo, nahihirapan pa rin kayo.” Si Dwaye na nagseryoso na rin. “Have patience on her, Drake. I love my sister so much, I don’t want her to get hurt again. Keep her.” Kulang nalang ay sabihin nitong ‘please’.

“I will talk to her. Thanks for the advise.” Drake said gratefully.

On his peripheral vision, he saw Brooke seriously drinking his beer while listening. He looks like in deep thought.

“The owner of MOC, the one and only Brooke Montero is soon to get married, is that true, man? Hindi mo man lang ba kami iimbitahan?” Zyron spilled the beans, looking at Brooke. “Your marriage is all over the internet. Tell us, fake news ’yon? Di ba?”

Brooke drink his beer and lazily smile at them. And that smile feels like a trouble on him! Or maybe his friend is the one who’s in trouble?

He admit that he’s annoyed with Brooke knowing that he and Alexza knew each other, but hell, he’s a good friend, he will support him no matter what happen like how his friends support of each other.

“Its true. I will bound to marry a girl next month. That’s why I am here to…”

“For a bachelor party? Goddammit! Man! Let’s get fucking wasted here!” Zyron aggressively call a waiter and order so many drinks.

Brooke shook his head then look at him with apologetic on his face. He doesn’t know why but it feels like he’s apologizing on him. For what reason then?

14 ~ Pain

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

“IT’S TRUE I will bound to marry a girl next month. That’s why I am here to…”

“For a bachelor party? Goddammit! Man! Let’s get fucking wasted here!” Zyron aggressively call a waiter and order so many drinks.

Brooke shook his head then look at him with apologetic on his face. He doesn’t know why but it feels like he’s apologizing on him. For what reason then?

“Tell me that was a fucking lie, Montero!” Dwaye suddenly speak angrily. His jaw clenched. “We already finished talking ’bout this! What the fuck is in your mind?!”

“I fucking need her.” Mariin na sambit ni Brooke. “You know that. We fucking talked about that. I was clueless before.”

“Fuck it!” Halos mahawi ni Dwaye ang mga bote sa lamesa.

“Chill! What’s going on? What are these brutes were talking about?” Zyron ask cluelessly. “Fucking tell us people!”

Drake watch his friends carefully. He’s clueless, but it feels like the two were talking to Brooke’s bride.

“I was so desperate to get married and she agreed. It is a marriage for convenience.” Brooke explained. “She doesn’t love me…”

“Because she fucking love someone else!” Dwaye pointed out madly.

“I know…” Brooke tilted his head down and play the bottles on the table. “I don’t know what to do now…”

“So, the mighty and the wealthy Brooke Montero was looking for a woman to marry him for convenience?” Zyron gasped dramatically. “Babae pa talaga ang naging problema mo?” Napunta ang mata nito sa dance floor. “Go there. Choose and pick a woman to marry. Kung gusto mo ako na ang pipili ng papakasalan mo? Magaling ako diyan, Brooke!” Zyron stood up, ready to pick a woman from the dance floor. “You want a woman with big breast and pinkish nipples? Small waist? Round butt? Good in bed? Tell me what you prefer.”

“Fucking sit down.” Clane pulled Zyron arm. “You are not helping, Fuentes.”

“I need to talk to her first.” Brooke seems trying to be calm. “Give me some time.”

“Let’s stop this, Montero. I’m tired of all these lies.” Dwaye stood up. “I need to cool down. Feel free to get everything you need. I’m leaving now.”

Dwaye is literally left them with confusion. Nagpatuloy ang inuman nila nang hindi na napag-usapan pa ang kasal ni Brooke.

It doesn’t bother him though. Brooke can easily find a woman to marry if the one he’s bound to marry refused their marriage. Besides, it is just a marriage for convenience. It must be related on Brooke inheritance from his grandfather.

Lumipas ang ilang oras ay tinatamaan na siya ng alak. Naglalapitan na rin ang mga babae sa kanilang magkakaibigan. His friends were with women now, flirting and kissing each other. While he’s avoiding the women who tried to get near him.

“Hey,” It was Maisie, standing beside him, wearing a black bikini top showing her full cleavage and white high waist short shorts.

“Hey too,” He greeted casually and drink on his last bottle. He would go to his suite and sleep after that last bottle.

Yumukod si Maisie sa harap niya kaya mas lalong lumitaw ang dibdib nito. Her top bikini is made up to cover her nips.

“Wanna dance with me?” She whispered sexily on his ear, brushing her soft breasts on his chest.

“Were leaving…” Tinapik siya ni Zyron sa balikat, may dalawang babae itong kasama.

“Me too,” Clane stood up, he has woman on his arm. Simpleng babaero.

Even if Maisie is in front of him, he still manage to see Brooke who’s busy on his phone, ignoring the woman who’s feasting on his body.

“Your suit or mine?” The woman asked Brooke seductively, sitting beside him, kissing his earlobe.

“Mine,” Brooke said and stood up holding the beautiful woman’s waist. He took a step closer on where he is sitting. “Got to go,”

“Enjoy the night,” Drake said drunkly then Brooke look at Maisie. “She’s a friend.” Parang defensive na sambit niya.

Brooke shrug off and leave them alone.

Drake frowned when Maisie sit on his lap and snake her thin arms on his neck. He could feel her breasts on his chest, she intently rubbing it on him.

“Stop this, Maisie.” He muttered tiredly, closing his eyes.

He’s drunk already. His hands on her both waist, pulling her away from him. She even tried to kiss his neck and earlobe, so he needed to tilted his head back to avoid her lips.

“I miss you, Drake. Can I sleep with you again? I miss your touch, your kisses and this…” She grind on his crotch. “I miss everything—oh fuck!” Maisie curse so loud as a familiar woman pulled her hair back!

Para siyang nagising sa kalasingan nang makita ang galit na galit na si Alexza na sinasambunutan si Maisie! What the!

Kaagad siyang tumayo at inawat ang dalaga. Dahil nakainom na si Maisie ay napahiga ito sa couch habang nasa ibabaw si Alexza na parang gusto ng katayin ang babae.

“Baby! baby, stop…” Maingat na hinawakan niya sa bewang ang dalaga pati ang isang kamay nitong nasa buhok ni Maisie.

“You! Flirt! You deserve all of this! Bitch! I hate you so much! Flirt!” Alexza is fuming mad while pulling Maisie’s hair and slapping her face, she’s unstoppable.

“Oh, God! Stop it! Stop it!” Maisie is shouting while avoiding Alexza’s hands.

They’re making scene now inside the Club. Napapatingin na sa gawi nila ang ibang naroon. Hindi ito maganda.

He used his full force to carry his girl and he succeeded. Nailayo niya si Alexza sa babae pero ramdam niya ang panginginig ng katawan nito, galit na galit talaga.

Marahan niya itong hinarap sa kanya at gano’n nalang ang pagkawala ng pagkalasing niya nang dumapo sa pisngi niya ang isang malakas na sampal.

“Don’t go near me! Go to hell with that woman!” Alexza shouted at him while crying before running to the exit door of the Club.

TUMAKBO nang tumakbo si Alexza habang walang humpay ang bagsak ng luha sa pisngi niya. She’s really hurt seeing Drake with Maisie. She doesn’t really like Maisie since the first time she saw her on school. Ang bigat-bigat ng loob niya sa babae.

Kakayanin niya pa kung nag-uusap lang ang dalawa pero hindi! The bitch was on Drake’s lap, kissing him and trying to get him. The idea of Drake letting the woman flirt him, anger her so much.

She was tired on waiting for him on their suit and think about what’s he’s doing in the Club full of alcohol and women. Blake was already sleeping that’s why she decided to go in that Club only to see him flirting with the woman she hate the most! Kumulo talaga ng husto ang dugo niya at labis ang pag-gapang ng selos sa katawan niya.

Sa pagdaan niya sa labas ng hotel ay nahagip ng mata niya si Brooke sa lobby na may kasamang magandang babae. Pinunasan niya ang luha sa mata at lalong nalungkot sa nakita. Nang pagtalikod niya patakbo sa dalampasigan ay narinig niyang tinawag siya nito.

“Alexza! Hey! Wait!” But she ignore him.

Nag-deretso siya sa pagtakbo, hindi alam kung saan talaga tutungo. Gusto niyang mapag-isa. Gusto niyang ibuhos lahat ng luha at sakit sa dibdib niya na hindi niya alam kung bakit parang ang tagal niyang inipon ang sakit na ’yon.

Sa kakatakbo niya ay tuluyan nang nanghina ang mga tuhod niya. She weakly sat on the sand, the dark water is so close on her. Ang marahan na hampas ng alon ay hindi nakakatulong sa pagpawi ng anumang sakit sa dibdib niya.

“What happened? Why were you crying?” A soft voice from behind, asked.

Brooke sat beside her carefully. She could smell the woman’s scent on him mixed with the alcohol he drank.

“I saw him,”

“Drake?”

Tumango-tango siya at nalaglag ang mga luha niya.

“He cheated on me. I saw him with that woman. I hate that woman so bad. Why he had to be so close with her? Why he let her kissed him? Why does he needs to hurt me? To get even?”

“He said, she’s just a friend. Maybe you were just mistaken—”

“I saw it in my eyes, Brooke!” She almost shouting in frustration. “Bakit hindi niya nalang ako komprontahin? Bakit hindi niya nalang harap-harapan sabihin sa akin na h-hindi niya na talaga ako m-mahal! Na iba na ang g-gusto niya! Na sana huwag niya na akong pahirapan…kasi mas lalo lang akong nasasaktan. Ang s-sakit eh…ang s-sakit na makita siyang may kasamang iba…”

Ang tibok ng puso niya ay dinudurog siya ng paunti-unti, mas lalong masakit iyon…mas lalong mahirap.

“Drake is drunk, you should also consider that. And maybe that woman took advantage on him? I saw how she looks at Drake, she really has something on him.”

“Stop defending him!” Patuloy siya sa pag-iyak. “I saw it! I saw them!”

“Okay, just stop crying.”

Brooke sighed heavily and held her hands then kiss it, making her cry even more. Why this man needs to be on her side every time she needed someone to lean on? Brooke Montero is always there for her. She’s really special to him.

“Please, don’t…do this Brooke…”

“Let me hold you this way…” His voice is begging. “I don’t know what to do to you, Alexza. I don’t know how to continue living without you… I don’t know why I’m still holding on to this…when I shouldn’t.”

“Please, Brooke…” Mas lalo siyang naiiyak. “Don’t make this so hard for us. Palagi nalang ako ’yung may mali. I wasn’t good in making decisions. I’m sorry if I brought you into this…”

“Sshh,” Brooke cut her off and continue kissing her hands. “It wasn’t your fault, Alexza. Its just that I badly need you.”

“H-hindi ko na yata kaya, Brooke.”

“Please don’t say that,” Parang nadagdagan din lalo ang problema nito.

“M-Mas lalo ko lang masasaktan si Drake kapag nalaman niya ang tungkol sa atin.” Inalis niya ang kamay na hawak nito at sinakop niya ang panga ng binata. His stubble covered her soft palms. Kahit man siya ay nahihirapan na talaga pero kailangan niya ng tapusin ang dapat tapusin. “I badly want to tell him everything. I don’t w-wanna hurt him anymore. I don’t wanna keep this secrets anymore.”

Brooke held her hand on his jaw and move closer, their forehead kissed. She used to be this close to him but the feeling is really different when it’s Drake. She care about Brooke, but she really love Drake so much.

“I-I understand you. Drake is my friend, he’s been good to me…but I ruined our friendship. I wasn’t a good friend, I feel like I betrayed him. I did not mean to ruin anything…if only I knew that he was the man in your past, I would never ask for your hand to marry me…” Brooke sounds desperate while cupping her hands on his jaw.

The tip of their nose and their forehead kissed. Her tears were falling down her cheeks, she could not stop it. Hirap na hirap sa sitwasyon na kinalalagyan niya.

“W-Wala kang kasalanan. You were clueless about my past. I agreed with your proposal because you are special to me and I wanted to help y-you…but I did not expect this to happened. I still love him so much that seeing him in pain killing me. If only he would understand us, pero alam kong hindi, Brooke. I’m s-sorry for all of these…”

Brooke remain silent, tila ba pinipilit pa nitong ipasok sa isip nito ang mga naririnig sa kanya. She cupped his face gently, trying to comfort him.

They’re in that position for how many minutes when she felt a strong punch hit Brooke on the jaw, making the man almost dive in the sand.

“Brooke! Drake!”

Hindi niya alam kung sino ang hahawakan niya sa sobrang pagkataranta at takot. Sa dilim ng paligid ay bakas na bakas ang mga galit na muscle at ugat ni Drake sa braso, hinaklit nito si Brooke sa kwelyo at muling binigyan ng isang suntok.

“Drake! Please stop! Please!”

She hug him from behind and pulled him away from Brooke, his lips is bleeding. Pero hindi ito lumaban, nanatili lang na nakayukyok sa buhanginan.

“You have to h-hear our explanation, Man!” Brooke spit a blood on the sand.

“Explanation?!” Drake angry voice boomed, it made her body tremble. “Fuck you! I don’t wanna see you here!”

Nakita niya ang kabiguan sa mukha ni Brooke bago tumango at nahihirapan na tumayo. He wipe the blood on the side of his lips and look at Drake.

“I’m sorry,” He apologize at him.

Brooke look at her then leave them.

Nakagat niya ang pang-ibabang labi para sana pigilan ang luha pero nag-uunahan pa rin iyon na nagbagsakan sa pisngi niya.

She slap Drake chest madly.

“Why do you have to hurt him?! Ako sana ang sinaktan mo tutal ako naman ang may kasalanan ng lahat ng ’to!” Sigaw niya dito kahit nahihirapan na siyang magsalita.

Hinihiwa ang dibdib niya sa pinaghalo-halong sakit. Drake step backward, as if he’s disgusted on her and that won’t help her, mas lalong nadagdagan ang luha na dumadaloy sa mata niya.

“Ano bang ginawa kong mali sa’yo?” Puno ng hinanakit ang paos na boses nito.

Na para bang sinasabing bakit puro pasakit nalang ang ginagawa niya dito. Hindi na rin naitago ang sakit sa mga mata habang nakatingin sa kanya.

“I gave you almost everything, Alexza. I promised my life to you! I loved you so much! But what did you do?! You left me!” Desperado na kinumpas nito ang isang kamay sa malayo.

Sa gitna ng tanglaw ng kalahating buwan ay tanaw niya ang pamumula ng mga mata nito. Ang sakit, galit at pait ay naghalo.

“For what reason, huh? You left me to marry my friend?!” He laugh with no humor. “That’s it? You fooled me! What else is your plan? Making me believe you again?! Making me love you again?! Tapos ano?! Iiwan mo ako kapag mahal na mahal na naman kita?!” He tried to let out a short laugh but his voice cracked.

It hurst her even more seeing him like that. Kung siya ay nasasaktan, ano pa ba ang nararamdaman ni Drake pagkatapos nang lahat ng ginawa niya? Bakit kailangan pang pagdaanan lahat ng sakit sa buhay pag-ibig nila?

“D-Drake…” Nanginig ang boses niya pati na rin ang labi niya.

Akmang hahawakan niya ito sa mga kamay ng umatras ito. Nahulog na naman ang pinipigilang luha sa mga mata.

“What? Tell me your plans! Talk to me now! Tell me everything!” He frustratedly controlling himself not to shout at her despite of all that happened. Ang mga mata nito ay nahihirapan at nasasaktan na tumitingin sa kanya. “Baka sakaling maniwala pa ako sa’yo…baka s-sakaling sa sobrang kagustuhan kong makasama ka kakayanin ko ulit magpakatanga at magbulag-bulagan p-para lang sa’yo….na kakayanin ko na naman t-tanggapin ka sa buhay ko ng isang salita mo lang…”

Ang pagkabasag sa lasing na boses nito ay mas lalo lang nagpapasikip ng dibdib niya. Ang luha sa mga mata niya ay hindi maubus-ubos. Sobra na ang sakit na ibinibigay niya sa binata, sa sobrang daming sakit parang hindi niya na deserve ang pagmamahal nito sa kanya.

“I’m s-sorry…”

“Sorry?!” He almost shout at her, napaigtad siya. “That’s all?!” He sarcastically asked.

Napayuko siya at hindi makapagsalita sa labis na pag-iyak. Ramdam niya ang maraming kutsilyo na tumatarak sa dibdib niya. The pain is too much that it aches her head for some reason. Napapikit siya sa pagdaloy ng kakaibang sakit sa ulo niya. Ang mga luha niya ay nagbabagsakan sa buhangin. Ang simoy ng hangin ay hindi man lang nakatulong sa pagkalma nilang dalawa.

“Okay, were done.” Mapait na sambit nito nang hindi na siya nakapagsalita pang muli.

Tinalikuran siya nito at hindi niya na kinaya pa ang eksena na iyon na makikita itong iiwan siya.

Sobrang nagmamakaawa na yumakap siya sa malapad na likod nito. Halos mapaluhod na, halos ibigay ang buhay niya huwag lang siya nitong iwan.

“Please, h-huwag mo akong iwan. Hindi ko k-kaya…Drake…hindi ko n-na kakayanin!” Humagulhol na siya sa likod nito.

Iniyak niya ang lahat ng sakit at kahit pa hirap na hirap na siyang magsalita. Sobrang sikip na ng dibdib niya na halos hindi na siya makahinga.

She could not stand seeing him walking away from her. She could not stand thinking that she would not see him again. Pakiramdam niya, ikamamatay niya iyon. Mahal na mahal niya ang binata na hindi niya na alam kung anong klaseng pagmamahal na ba ’yung nararamdaman niya.

“L-Let me go… Let’s stop all of this. I don’t wanna be with a woman who do nothing but to give me heartache.” Halos pabulong na sabi nito sa nasasaktan na tinig. “I wondered if you ever loved me? Ifyou ever cared for me? If you ever cared about how’d I feel?” He was trying to make his voice light, pero talagang nababasag iyon. Nababakas ang hindi maipaliwanag na pait. “Bakit ka pa bumalik? Sana hindi ka nalang bumalik kung uulitin mo lang din naman ’yung ginawa mo…s-sana hinayaan mo nalang kami ng anak kong mabuhay ng wala ka…”

Remembering Blake really made her cry more and her heart hurt so bad. Her innocent Blake, her baby. Pakiramdam niya, ikamamatay niya na talaga kung malalayo siya sa dalawa.

“I left y-you because I love you so much! I left you b-because I care for you with all my heart!” Isinigaw niya ang sakit sa dibdib niya.

Mahigpit niya itong niyakap, hindi binabalak na pakawalan. Basang-basa na ng mga luha niya ang shirt nito.

“I left you because my parents wanted me to marry other m-man! If I did not, they would kill you! I don’t want them to kill you…Drake!” Bigong-bigo na panay ang hagulhol niya. “Instead of marrying him, I ran away. Umalis ako kahit ang sakit sakit na iwan ka! Kahit para na akong mamamatay sa isiping hindi na kita makakasama pa! Nilabanan ko lahat ng sakit nang pag-iwan ko sa’yo! Para sa’yo! Para sa atin!”

Kung sana ay madali lang ipaliwanag at intindihin ang lahat. Kung sana…

“Umalis ako at hindi na kita ipinaglaban pa dahil alam kong mas magagalit sila! I love you so much that I’m willing to live without you so you could live your life longer. I love you so much that I endured all the pain every time I think of you. For the last few years I have nothing on my mind but you, our memories and our plan for our future, Drake. Walang araw na dumaan na hindi ako nagsisi kung bakit iniwan pa kita, pero sa tuwing naiisip ko na gusto ko pang marinig ang boses mo at makita ang mga ngiti mo, tiniis ko ang maraming araw na iyon. Nakuntento ako sa mga litrato mo at sa recorded voice calls mo sa tuwing nagkakausap kayo ng kapatid ko. Nakuntento ako na pangarapin ka sa malayo at umaasa sa paniniwala kong balang araw makakasama ko ulit ang l-lalaking m-mahal ko…” Lalong nabasag ang boses niya. Humapdi ng husto ang puso niya. Lalo siyang nahihirapang huminga. “…nakuntento ako na patuloy kang mahalin ng hindi mo alam…na patuloy kang mahalin kahit ang sakit sakit na Drake!”

The pain she’s feeling is too much. She doesn’t even know how she managed to say all of these without breaking down.

Humigpit lalo ang yakap niya sa binata nang maramdaman niya ang kamay nito sa ibabaw na braso niya, tila ba kinakalas ang pagkakayakap niya dito.

“Let me go,” Drake said gently. It was too gentle that it break her heart even more, because he was begging for her to let him go. “Please…Alexza…”

Umiling-iling siya. Marami pang gustong sabihin. Marami pang mabigat sa dibdib niya at kailangan ng bawasan iyon.

“Y-you need to know this, you should know this Drake…”

“What else? Another lie?”

Mariin siyang napapikit at muling nag-unahan ang mga luha sa pisngi niya. He doesn’t believe her.

“You got me p-pregnant…” she whispered painfully.

Naramdaman niya na natigilan ito, naghihintay na ng mga susunod niyang sasabihin pero imbes na magpatuloy ay humagulhol na naman siya sa pinaka masakit na ala-ala sa buhay niya.

“W-where’s my child?” He nervously asked, she could feel his body stilled.

Muling humigpit ang yakap niya sa binata na para bang huling yakap niya na iyon dito pagkatapos ng sasabihin niya. Nilabanan niya ang sakit ng ala-ala at pilit na nagsalita.

“I l-lost him… I lost our child. He d-died because of me. Forgive me… f-forgive me…” nagmamakaawa na napaluhod siyang lumuluha.

Ang sakit sa dibdib niya ay hindi man lang nawala, mas lalo pang lumala nang alalahanin niya ang masasakit na ala-ala.

She lost their child. She lost her baby. That’s the most painful thing ever happened on her. Sobrang sakit na namatay ang anak niya dahil sa kagagawan niya.

At mas lalong pinira-piraso ang puso niya nang pilit na ikinalas ni Drake ang mga braso niyang nakayapos dito at iwan siya do’n ng wala man lang sinabi…ng hindi man lang siya nilingon. Ang sakit sakit na panoorin ang lalaking mahal niya na naglalakad palayo sa kanya pagkatapos ng lahat.

She’s too weak to even move. She can not even mutter any single word. Bagkos, masasakit na hikbi lang ang kayang lumabas sa labi niya. Hinang-hina na napaluhod siya sa buhanginan.

She watch Drake walk away from her with painful tears on her eyes and broken heart. She cry out loud and gripped her chest because she can’t handle the pain anymore. It is too much that it break her down.

15 ~ Broken Hearts

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

ALEXZA almost losing herself. Ang lamig ng hangin na humahampas sa katawan niya at tumatangay sa buhok niya ay mas lalo lang nagpapahirap sa sitwasyon niya, mas lalong nagpapatigil sa kanya sa pag-galaw dahil sa lamig niyon. Sinusubukan niyang bumangon upang habulin si Drake, but she’s really weak that she cannot even move a finger. Her head is spinning so bad and that’s hurt.

“Alexza!” It was a familiar voice of her brother from somewhere.

She’s closing her eyes, crying and kneeling painfully on the sand. Halos mapahiga at napapayuko na sa buhanginan sa labis na sakit na nararamdaman. The man she love the most is nowhere to be found now. Nawala na sa paningin niya. Parang gumuguhong muli ang mundo niya, katulad noon nang iwan niya ito. Naulit lang pero mas doble na ang sakit.

Dwaye hurriedly attended on her and pulled her closer to let her cry on his chest. His one hand is under her hair the other one is hugging her back. They’re both kneeling on the sand.

“W-why he can’t understand m-me? B-bakit kailangan n-niya akong iwan sa ganitong sitwasyon?” Humahagulhol siya sa malapad na dibdib ng kapatid. “I know I m-made the wrong choice for leaving him, b-but I had many reasons, Kuya! B-bakit hindi n-niya ’yon maintindihan?! G-ginawa ko ’yon para sa k-kanya kasi m-mahal na mahal ko s-siya! B-bakit…bakit…g-ganito…”

“Hush,”

Patuloy ito sa pag-alo sa kanya sa pamamagitan ng mararahan na haplos sa likod at buhok niya. Sa tigas at lapad ng dibdib ng kapatid, nakapagtatakang nakapagbibigay iyon ng kaunting ginhawa. Ginhawa na inaahon siya sa dilim na gusto na siyang tuluyang lamunin.

“M-Mali ba ang ginawa ko, K-Kuya? Mali ba a-ako sa p-pag-iwan ko sa k-kanya?” May hinanakit sa tinig niya. “Mali ba na ginawa ko ’yon dahil s-sobrang mahal ko siya? N-na kakayanin kong h-hindi siya makasama p-para lang sa kaligtasan  n-niya? Hindi n-niya man lang ba inisip ’yung nararamdaman k-ko noon? O m-mas importante lang sa k-kanya ’yung nararamdaman n-niya? A-akala niya siya lang ’yung n-nasaktan! H-hindi niya alam na a-ang sakit-sakit p-para sa akin na i-iwan siya!”

Ang galit at sakit ay tila naghahalo na ngayon sa kanyang dibdib. Galit na hindi siya naintindihan ni Drake. Galit na hindi man lang ng binata naisip ang nararamdaman niya. Galit na halos nangingibabaw na kesa sa sakit na narararamdaman niya.

“Give him time. You have to give each other time, Alexza.” He said softly. “Did you tell her about the baby?”

Sa dalawang gilid ng mga mata niya ay tumulo ang isa pang masakit na luha. Tumango-tango siya sa dibdib ng kapatid.

“I told him about the b-baby. I expect him to comfort me knowing that we both lost our child, but he did not…instead, h-he left me.” Humagulhol ulit siya. Her body is shaking because of so much crying. “D-dalawa silang nawala sa a-akin. Ilang taon akong nagdusa…b-bakit hanggang ngayon pinagdudusahan ko pa rin ’yon?! B-bakit parang a-ako nalang ’yung laging m-mas nasasaktan?! B-bakit pakiramdam ko n-nasa akin ang bagsak ng l-lahat ng sakit?!”

Ilang minuto siyang umiyak sa dibdib ng kapatid. Wala ng pakialam kung ano ang itsura niya at kung basang-basa na rin ng luha niya ang polo shirt nito. Gusto niya nang ilabas lahat ng luha at sakit. Gusto niya ng mawala ang damdaming iyon na nagpapahirap sa kanya.

Iniluha niya ang lahat hanggang sa mapagod siya at tuluyan ng manghina. Tuluyan ng unti-unting nagpapakain sa kahinaan at sa dilim.

Her heart is so broken that the pain is almost lost her consciousness. Sa kagustuhan na mawala ang sakit, gusto niya nalang biglang mawalan ng malay.

“A-Alexza? Alexza?!”

Ang nag-aalala at ang pagkataranta sa boses ng kapatid ang huling narinig niya bago niya hinayaan ang sariling balutin ng dilim…kasing dilim ng paligid…kasing dilim ng tubig dagat.

DRAKE THOUGHT that the most painful feeling he had ever feel was the day when Alexza left him, but he was fucking wrong! Because the most painful feeling he had felt was just happened awhile ago.

Tatlong masasakit na katotohanan na sabay-sabay ibinato sa kanya nang hindi niya inaasahan.

The woman he wanted to marry ever since is bound to marry his friend, soon. They did not just break his heart but they also break his ego. He felt betrayed. He felt being cheated with those people who’s matter to him. After all these time, they’re playing with him!

“Why did you have to do all of these?!” He asked himself hurtfully, thinking about the woman who always give him pain.

Mapait na sinimsim niya ang alak sa bote at hinayaan na sakupin ang lalamunan niya ng pait ng likido na iyon. Pero kahit pa gano’n, hindi napawi ng pait ang sakit sa dibdib.

He’s on his suite’s veranda while his son is sleeping peacefully on bed.

He took a quick glance at Blake.

Kailangan niya pang tumingala sa langit, pumikit ng mariin at hawakan ng mariin ang bote para mapigilan ang emosyon na unti-unti ng tumutunaw sa kanya.

He’s not yet ready to see his son crying and hurting because of Alexza’s absence on their lives.

Tiyak na hahanapin ng anak niya ang babae pagmulat ng mga mata nito at hindi niya pa napaghandaan ang kung anuman ang susunod na mangyayari kapag sinabi niyang wala na sa buhay nilang mag-ama si Alexza.

“You got me p-pregnant…”

That words replying on his mind multiple times since she told it on him. Paulit-ulit na para bang isang sumpa iyon na sa tuwing maririnig niya ay napipiraso ang puso niya.

“I lost our child… I lost our b-baby…”

Ang sakit at pighati sa boses ni Alexza ay muli niyang narinig. Kung ilang pagtingala niya na iyon ay hindi niya na mabilang para lang huwag muling mahulog ang masasakit na luha sa mga mata.

Her painful words started to sink in. Mabagal na rumirihistro iyon sa kanya, sa sobrang bagal mas sobra ang sakit at pait. Parang pinupunit ang dibdib niya ng walang pahintulot niya.

Its true. Its real. That’s the fact. May anak sila, ngunit namatay iyon at ngayon niya lang nalaman. Kung alam niya lang, kung sinabi lang sa kanya ni Alexza, siguradong hindi niya na ito papakawalan magkamatayan man, but she did not tell him. Ipinagkait sa kanya ang anak niya. Ipinagkait sa kanya ang pagiging ama sa anak nila.

Kung patuloy niyang iisipin ang mga nalaman mula sa dalaga baka tuluyan na siyang mabaliw. She’s really good in making him crazy and breaking his heart.

“Daddy…”

Napalingon siya sa glass door sa likod niya. There is his son, squeezing his eyes and trying to look at him.

“Come here,”

Inaantok itong naglakad at siya naman ay tahimik na hinawi sa gilid ang mga bote ng alak sa ibabaw ng bilog na lamesa.

“What time is it daddy?” Tanong ng anak nang ma-i-upo niya ito sa katabing upuan.

He look straight on his direction and see the sun slowly rising. Paangat na ang araw na hindi niya man lang namalayan sa sobrang daming bumabagabag sa kanya. Magdamag hanggang mag-umaga.

“It’s too early to get up, son. You can go back to sleep. I’ll be right here.”

“Where’s my mommy?” Maamo ang mukha nito na nag-angat ng tingin.

He tried to keep being calm in front of his son when in reality, his heart was hammering on his chest.

“S-She…”

“She left us?” Malungkot itong napayuko. “I fell asleep last night daddy. I’m sorry if I let her escape from me. Niyakap ko naman ng mahigpit ang mommy ko pero umalis pa rin siya…?”

Drake blink for a seconds then heave a sigh. Sumasakit ang lalamunan niya na parang nagbabara. Biglang tila ba napakahirap magsalita.

“It wasn’t your fault, son.”

“Iniwan talaga tayo ng mommy ko? Tell me you’re just kidding me, daddy!”

Kaagad na nangislap ang magkabilang gilid ng mata ni Blake habang naghihintay na sabihin niyang nagbibiro nga talaga siya.

He doesn’t know how to handle this kind of situation with his son. He wasn’t prepare. And he’s not really in the right mind at the moment.

Maging siya ay nahihirapan sa nangyayari pero ayaw niyang paasahin pa lalo ang anak sa isang kasinungalingan. As long as he can be honest with him, he will. They both need to face and deal with the fact that Alexza is no longer part of their lives.

“Expect that you will not see her for awhile.”

“W-Why daddy?!”

Blake is almost crying, but his boy is also good in controlling his emotions at the young age. Kaya hindi malaglaglag ang luha nito pero mas masakit para sa kanya iyon dahil alam niya ang pakiramdam nang nagpipigil ng damdamin.

“Just listen to me!” Mapait na bigkas niya.

“Why would I? Tell me that I will see her again! I want my mommy back!” Tuluyan ng bumagsak ang luha ng anak ngunit galit nitong pinunasan iyon gamit ang maliliit na kamay. “Hindi ako iiyak daddy…b-big boy na ako. Hindi po ako iiyak…” pero patuloy ang agos ng luha nito na patuloy din na pinupunasan.

“It’s okay to cry, son.” Kalmado ang boses niya, ibang-iba kung ano ang nasa loob niya.

Parang pinipiga ang dibdib niya habang pinapanood ang anak na pilit na kinokontrol ang pag-iyak pero hindi magawa.

“B-big boy don’t cry,”

“They do,”

Deretso ang tingin niya sa kalayuan sa malawak na kulay asul na karagatan na nagkikislapan dahil sa magaan na tama ng sikat ng araw. Kalmado ang hampas ng alon. Sana gano’n din ang nararamdaman nilang mag-ama.

“K-kahit masakit dapat hindi iiyak, daddy.” Humihikbi na ito. Namumula ang tungki ng ilong. It reminds him of Alexza when she cry. The tips of her nose turn red like his son.

“Pwede mong i-iyak ang sakit, anak… it will help you feeling better.”

“I’m not going to c-cry! Mommy w-would not like it when she see me like this!” Nagmamatigas pa rin ang anak niya kahit nahihirapan na itong magsalita dahil sa pag-iyak. “B-bakit iniwan tayo ng m-mommy ko? H-Hindi niya ba tayo love? Hindi niya ba a-ako love? Love n-naman natin siya daddy…love na love ko naman s-siya, ha…b-bakit pa siya u-umalis?!” Bumubuhos ang luha sa pisngi ni Blake habang nakakaawang nagtatanong sa kanya. Inosenteng-inosente sa nangyayari.

He swallow hard. Nanunuyo ang lalamunan niya. Awang-awa sa anak at mas nadoble pa ang bigat sa dibdib niya habang pinapanood ito. This is what he afraid of, that his son was hurting because of Alexza. And it’s happening now.

“I’m sure she love you, too.”

He said that not to make his son feel good, but because he can feel that Alexza love his son. Hindi nga lang talaga nakaayon sa kanila ang tadhana para tuluyan ng magsama.

“B-Bakit siya umalis kung love n-niya talaga ako!” Blake frustratedly wipe his tears using his small palms. “Mommy doesn’t love me!” Halos pasigaw ng anak at talagang umiyak na ng umiyak. “S-she doesn’t love me!” Paulit-ulit nitong isinisigaw iyon na para bang ang sakit sakit na katotohanan iyon.

Sa sakit na makitang umiiyak si Blake ay kinuha niya ito at kinarga, dinala sa bisig niya. He let his son cry on his chest as if that’s the only thing he can do to make him feel good and to comfort him.

“Your mommy loves you. Please, trust me. She loves you…” Marahan na sambit niya. “Its just that there are things that don’t work out. I’m sorry if I hurt you because of this. I’m sorry.”

“I’m sorry d-daddy… I’m s-sorry for forcing y-you to give me a m-mommy. H-hindi p-pala madali m-maghanap ng m-mommy ko. M-masakit pala k-kapag u-umalis siya…” Blake is crying on his chest. “A-ang s-sakit po ng h-heart ko daddy…” Para itong nagsusumbong at marahan na hinawakan papiga ang sariling dibdib. “It hurts so m-much every time I-I stop myself from c-crying…that’s w-why I chose t-to cry…”

Timingala siya, napasandal ng husto sa inuupuan at desperadong pinunasan ang mga mata ng kanyang braso. His one arm is hugging his son and the other one is covering his eyes.

Why Alexza needs to break their hearts? Its so gay to be so emotional, but knowing that Blake’s heart is breaking, it break him even more. Mas triple ang sakit bilang ama. His innocent son is hurting because of that woman. She’s really a fucking heartbreaker. Damn it!

“Let yourself cry if that’s make you feel better, anak. Daddy will always be here for you. You can count on me, you can cry on my shoulder and you can tell me whatever is in your mind and in your heart.” He brush his son’s hair using his other hand.

“Mommy break my heart, daddy…” Blake sobbing hurtfully. His face is on his neck. His tears were falling down his chest. “My heart feels like its really breaking…I don’t want this daddy. I don’t want this kind of hurt in my chest.”

Mapait siyang tumikhim upang maalis ang paulit-ulit na bara sa lalamunan niya. His son just confessed his feelings and he did not expect it. Its fucking hurt!

“We will heal our broken hearts, son. We just need some time for it.” Marahan na hinahaplos niya ang likod ng anak na patuloy ang paghikbi. “Daddy will never break your heart. Daddy will never hurt you. Daddy will never leave you. I promise, Blake. I promise.”

16 ~ Betrayed

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

“KAILAN MO balak sabihin kay daddy Drake ’yang pagbubuntis mo? Kapag malaki na ’yang tiyan mo?”

Patuloy si Jessielyn sa pagkunsumi sa kanya tungkol sa bagay na ’yon habang siya ay panay papak lang ng ginisang hipon. She visited her in her condo to talk and to eat.

She’s three months pregnant and she did not tell it yet to Drake. She wanted to surprise him, gusto niyang ito mismo ang makadiskubre niyon. Tutal may mga sintomas na rin naman siya ng pagbubuntis niya. Kaya lang ay madalang silang magkita ng kasintahan dahil sa pagiging busy sa trabaho.

“Bakit ka ba kunsumido diyan? Malalaman din naman ’to ni Drake. I’m sure he will be happy knowing that he will become a daddy after a few months. Nakaka-excite pala talaga ang magbuntis.”

“Oo kaya sabihin mo na habang maaga pa at maikasal na kayo.” Bagot itong humiga sa kama. “Itali mo na ’yang boyfriend mo sa bewang mo. I heard some gossips about the women who’s visiting his resort. You would not like to know what they really wanted for staying there.”

Umusbong ang kyoryosidad niya at nagtataka na sinipat ang kaibigan. She was aware that there’s many tourist visiting his beach resort, pero hindi yata siya na-inform sa mga tsismis patungkol sa mga babae.

“What about those women?”

“Mas lalong maraming bumibisitang kababaihan sa resort dahil sa katatapos lang ipatayo ni Dwaye ang Club niya do’n. At hindi lang ’yon!”

Binalatan niya ang hawak na hipon. “At ano pa?”

“You know Maisie?”

Umirap siya at tumango. “Yes, I saw her in resort. What about her?”

“They’re business partner, Alexza. She was planing in building a salon spa in Drake’s resort.” Napaupo si Jessielyn sa kama. “Kumukulo ang dugo ko sa babaeng ’yon. Parang ahas, mahilig lumingkis sa mga lalaki.”

“Ako rin! Siya ’yung panay pa-cute kay Drake! She like him, I can tell.” Sumandal siya sa headrest ng kama. Kinalma ang sarili sa pagdaan ng selos at pagkainis para sa babaeng tinutukoy. “They’re business partner? How did you know that?”

“Your brother told me.” Wala lang na sagot nito tapos ay nanlaki ang mga mata. “Oh-oh,”

“Thought you hate my brother, hmm?”

“I still hate him though. Napag-usapan lang namin nang mapadaan ako sa Club niya nung nakaraang gabi.”

Tumango-tango siya. Napag-isip-isip na mukhang kailangan niyang sorpresahin na bisitahin ang kasintahan sa beach resort. Not that she doesn’t trust her man, but she doesn’t trust the women around him.

“Samahan mo ako, Jess.”

“Saan?”

“Sa beach resort. I want to surprise him. And maybe, I would tell him about our baby.”

Malakas itong naglabas ng hangin sa dibdib, guminhawa ang pakiramdam bigla sa narinig mula sa kanya.

“Hay, salamat naman at nagbago na ang isip mo. Kailangan lang pala magbanggit ng mga babae para lang ipaalam mo na ang tungkol sa baby niyo, eh.”

“Because I don’t want my man to be near with any woman, whoever it is who would try to flirt him, makakalbo ko talaga!”

Humagalpak ng tawa si Jess na iiling-iling. Natutuwa sa naging reaksyon niya.

“That’s it, girl! Claim him because he’s yours!”

Nag-ngiting aso siya at nagpatuloy sa paglantak ng hipon. Of course, she will claim Drake because he’s hers! Walang dapat na mag may-ari sa lalaking mahal niya kundi siya lang!

Kinagabihan din ay napagpasyahan niyang sorpresahin ang kasintahan sa opisina nito sa beach resort nito. Kasama niya si Jess, na nakasuporta lang sa kahit na anong gawin niya. Silang dalawa lang ang matalik na magkaibigan kaya silang dalawa lang din ang magsusuporta sa isa’t-isa.

“Good evening, Ma’am Alexza. Boss Drake is in the meeting at the moment. If you like, you can wait on his suite.”

Magalang na imporma sa kanya ng secretary ni Drake. Kilala na siya nito. Hindi na siya bago dito. At ito lang yata ang babae sa resort na hindi pinagpapantasyahan ang kasintahan niya dahil may pamilya na ito at matagal ng naninilbihan sa Villafuente Beach Resort bago pa pamahalaan ni Drake ’yon.

“Kanina pa ba sila?”

“Yes Ma’am,”

Tumango siya at nilingon si Jessielyn na nakaupo sa lounge, maarteng naka-dekwatro habang nagbabasa ng magazine. Nilapitan niya ito.

“He’s in the meeting,”

Isinara nito ang magazine at tinangala siya.

“Then? Uuwi na tayo?”

Alexza shook her head. “I’ll stay in his suite while waiting. Would you mind if you—”

“Na-ah,” Inilapag nito ang magazine sa babasagin na lamesa sa harap. “Ayokong maging scorer. I better go to D’ Club while waiting for you.”

Ngumuso siya at sa huli ay sumang-ayon na rin sa gusto ng kaibigan.

“I’ll text you after we talk.”

“Or maybe just go in that Club and search for me.” Jess wink at her and kiss her on the cheek. “See yah,”

“I don’t wanna go there. I hate smokes and alcohols!”

Kinumpas nito ang kamay habang naglalakad palayo sa kanya. “Oo na! Just text me once your done.”

Pumihit siya patalikod at tinungo ang elevator. Sumakay siya do’n kasabay ang ibang turista sa resort.

“I haven’t see the owner of this resort yet. I’m curious though. There’s a humor that he’s smokin’ hot!”

The girl on her left side giggle while talking to her friends. Umarko kaagad ang kilay niya at mataray na humalukipkip. Obviously, they’re talking to Drake.

“The humor is freaking right. I saw Drake this morning with woman on his arm. He’s hot and damn gorgeous!” Sabat naman ng isa pa. “The firm muscle on his arms and the sexy veins made me drool! Halatang masarap sa kama!” At binuntutan pa nito iyon ng malanding hagikhik.

“Dream on, girl.” She murmured.

“What?” Anito, narinig siya.

Umirap siya at nanatiling nakataas ang noo. Hindi man lang sinulyapan ang mga babaeng nasa kanya na ang atensyon.

“Feel free to fantasize about my man. I’m not a jealous type of girlfriend but I know where to stand. You can dream about him but don’t dare to touch him.”

Nakakalokang tumawa ang mga babae. Parang nakakainsulto sa parte niya. At bakit naman siya maiinsulto? Siya ang girlfriend!

“You were the one who’s dreaming here, girl. The last time I saw him, it wasn’t you who’s with him this morning and the whole day. It was our friend.”

Mabagsik ang mga mata na nilingon niya ang babae. Uminit kaagad ang dugo niya sa narinig! Who’s with him then?

“I’m his girlfriend!” She insisted annoyingly.

Muling humalakhak ang mga babae sa paligid niya.

“Dream on, bitch. He’s with our Maisie for a days now.” Tumunog ang elevator at bumukas ang pinto. Nag-isa-isa nang lumabas ang mga ito. Nilingon ulit siya ng babae. “If you don’t believe me, you can check him on his suite and you’ll see.” The woman smirk at her before the elevator door closed.

Umaapaw sa galit ang pagkatao niya sa nalaman! Kung totoo man ’yon o hindi ay hindi niya rin alam, basta, nagagalit siya ng husto sa mga sandaling iyon! Drake is faithful and he love her, he will never do such thing, like cheating. No! Never!

Nakakuyom ang mga kamay habang inip na inip na naghihintay huminto ang elevator sa huling palapag kung nasaan ang suite ni Drake.

Nang bumukas ang pinto ay walang pag aalinlangan na lumabas siya do’n at nagmartsa papunta sa pinto ng suite ni Drake, pero wala pa man din ilang hakbang ang nagagawa niya ay napahinto na siya sa kinatatayuan dahil sa nakitang babaeng lumabas sa suite ng kasintahan…

The woman is wearing a very short sexy black nighties, enough to cover her thighs. She’s fixing it as if it has been ripped out. She has a satisfaction smile on her lips. Her messy bedroom hair looks like she was senselessly fucked inside that room.

Her heart automatically cry as the image of the man she love having sex with other woman. She felt being betrayed and cheated by him.

Her tears slowly falling down her cheeks. She felt a sudden pain on her stomach, it made her worry and scared. She could not handle her emotions. She could not handle the pain on her heart and stomach. It made her kne es weak .

“ALEXZA! I’M HERE… Come on, darling. Hush, wake up.”

Masakit na pinilit ni Alexza na imulat ang mga mata nang marinig ang pamilyar na tinig na iyon. Slowly, she turn her head to the man who’s holding her hands and kissing it. Brooke was looking worriedly at her.

“W-what happened to me?” Humihikbi na tanong niya.

Nakakaramdam siya ng kakaibang sakit at galit sa kanya dibdib. Kung bakit siya lumuluha ay hindi niya rin masabi pa.

“Glad you’re awake.” Brooke kiss her forehead. “You passed out last night. I should’ve not left you there…”

“W-where?” She’s still in doze.

Bahagyang natigilan ang lalaki.

“Y-you…are you…” He shook his head as if he’s mistaken from something. “Ahm, last night? We talked about our marriage and Drake suddenly—”

She wave her hand weakly to stop him from talking. Muli ay napapikit siya nang maalala ang nakamamatay na sakit na naranasan niya kagabi kasama si Drake. Pero bakit may iba pang damdamin na hindi mapangalanan ang nagtatago sa dibdib niya?

“I don’t wanna hear his name. I don’t wanna talk about him.”

Brooke nod. “Okay. I understand. By the way, Dwaye brought you here last night.”

“Where’s my brother now?”

“I don’t know?” Nag-iwas ito ng tingin. Hindi niya nalang pinilit pa ito. Wala rin siyang lakas makipag-usap talaga. “How are you feeling? I should have not ask you this, but I wanted to know.”

“I don’t feel anything, Brooke.” She said sadly. “Just tired…tired from everything.”

“Yes, I can tell. I can see.” He gently brush her hair. “Want something to eat?”

Maingat siyang umiling. “I don’t wanna eat.”

“Unless you want to die in starvation,”

“Sana…sana nga mamatay nalang ako para wala na akong maramdaman—”

“Damn it!” Brooke curse angrily. His jaw is clenching. “Don’t say that again, Alexza.” Marahan ang boses nito, ibang-iba sa madilim na aura. His eyes scream anger. “I don’t want you to die,”

“Because you need me.”

“Because I fucking care about you!” Frustrated na sambit nito. “And you will going to eat. You will going to live your life again without him. Nakaya mo noon, bakit hindi ngayon?”

Masakit na tumibok ang puso niya. Nakaya niya noon pero bakit pakiramdam niya hindi niya na kakayanin mabuhay ngayon ng wala si Drake? Sa napakadaming sakit na nagsama-sama sa dibdib niya, parang hindi niya na yata kayang panghawakan pa iyon. She cannot deal with the pain anymore!

“Ayoko na, Brooke! Ayoko na!” Masaganang namalisbis na naman ang luha niya. “Pagod na pagod na ako sa lahat ng sakit! Sa pagmamhal ko sa kanya at sa pagkawala ng anak ko! Hindi ko na alam kung hanggang kailan pa ako tatagal…” Tinulungan siya nitong punasan ang mga luha niya. “…ang sakit sakit talaga…bugbog na bugbog na ako. I wanna give up…” she sob and let herself cry again.

Akala niya naubos na ang luha niya kagabi, bakit hindi pa rin? Inilabas niya na ang lahat ng sakit kagabi, pero bakit nasa dibdib niya pa rin? Nag-uumapaw na pero hindi naman nababawasan. Parang nadagdagan pa iyon at mas lalong napuno. Nasiksik sa dibdib niya na ang kahit paghinga ay nahihirapan na siyang gawin sa tuwing naaalala niya lahat ng sakit at galit.

A warm embrace suddenly cage her. She bitterly close her eyes and let this man embrace her, comfort her, like what he always does for the last few years. Brooke is really care for her. He’s the man. She should keep him. Right?

DRAKE put his son on the bed carefully. Blake fell asleep on his chest while crying. He stare at him for a few minutes until the door bell suddenly rang. Maingat na isinara niya ang pinto ng kwarto at tinungo ang mayor na pinto ng suite niya.

He look at the peephole to see who’s outside. There is Dwaye, waiting for him to open the door.

Casual na binuksan niya ang pinto at gano’n na lamang ang pagkagising ng diwa niya nang salubungin siya ng isang malakas na suntok. Sapo ang panga na isinara niya ang pinto saka lumabas. Gulat at iritasyon ang unang namayani sa kanya.

“What was that for Mendez?” He asked coldly.

“For making my sister cry!” Matalim ang mata ng kaibigan. Nagagalit ang mga panga. “I warned you to have patience on her! But what did you do? You fucking abandoned her after all the pain she’d been through!” Dwaye spit. “She was at fault for leaving you, but man…” he disappointedly look at him. “My sister had her reasons. Bakit hindi ka nakinig? Why don’t you understand her, huh?!”

“She fucking lied to me!” Mahina pero mariin niyang sabi. “What do you want me to do? Believe her again? I am always become stupid and blind when it comes to her, but I’m not that fool enough to be with her again when in fact she will soon to get married with Brooke!” Drake bitterly eye the man in front of him. “After all these years, I thought I found a friend who will never betrayed me! You know what’s fucking anger me? It was the fact that you, Brooke and Alexza were playing behind my back! What the fuck did I do for you guys for treating me like that?! You all make me fool!” Drake spit disappointedly. “I don’t wanna see you here.” He said rudely then turned his back on him.

He’s about to open the door when Dwaye spoke.

“I thought you were the right man who’s fit enough to love and take care of my sister, to make her your queen…but I was wrong, Drake.”

“You don’t know nothing about how I feel,”

“Yeah? Do you know that I’m so angry that I’m freaking ready to kill someone now?! But I was fucking controlling myself for Alexza because I fucking love my sister! I don’t wanna give her another pain. Sapat na ’yung sakit na tiniis niya nang ilang taong hindi ka kasama at ang anak niyo! Do you ever think about how’d she felt that day? Naisip mo ba kung paano niya kinaya ang mabuhay ng ilang taon kakasisi sa sarili niya sa pagkawala ng anak niyo?! Hindi! Hindi di ba?!” Mapaklang natawa si Dwaye. “I don’t want you for my sister anymore. I’d rather her choose Brooke to marry him for convenience than be with you who do nothing but to make her cry. My sister doesn’t deserve an asshole like you.” Another disappointed spit before Dwaye walk away.

17 ~ For the sake of love

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

PAGLABAS ni Alexza sa hospital makalipas ang tatlong araw na pananatili do’n ay sa bahay siya ng Kuya Dwaye niya dumeretso. She doesn’t want to stay in her condo unit because she doesn’t want to remember the special memories she and Drake had in there. It will only hurt her. It will only make her cry again.

“This will be your room.” Dwaye opened the door of one of his bedrooms. “I have Manang Emma to help you here since I don’t stay here.”

“Thanks, Kuya.”

Tahimik na naupo siya sa gilid ng queen size bed. Pinaglalaruan ang mga daliri na nasa kandungan.

“Look, if you get bored here, you could visit in my Club. Have fun.”

Ang mga kamay ng kapatid ay nasa hips nito habang pinapanood siya. He’s standing just meter away from her.

Tiningala niya ito. Kanina niya pa gustong sabihin ang napanaginipan niya nang unang araw niya sa hospital. Hindi niya lang maumpi-umpisahan dahil nawawala iyon sa isip niya pero ngayon ay medyo naaalala niya na ulit.

“Ahm, Kuya, I had this weird dream about a girl and, ahm, D-Drake…”

Kahit ang pag banggit sa pangalan ng lalaki ay ayaw niya ng gawin. Sambit palang ng pangalan na iyon ay mahapdi na tumitibok kaagad ang puso niya.

She saw her brother gulp hardly when she look up on him. Ang mga makakapal na kilay nito ay nagsasalubong na.

“A dream? What about it? Who was the girl? Where? When? What were they doing in that dream?”

Parang pumintig ang sintido niya sa sunud-sunod na nababahalang tanong ng kapatid. Dwaye looks so eager to know her dreams.

Tamad na inihiga niya ang katawan sa kama. Naka-hang ang mga binti at nakatanga siya sa kisame. She close her eyes and tried to remember that dream, but she could not. It was all blurred and it was hard for her to make it clear on her mind again.

“I actually forgot it. I just woke up crying after that dream. Maybe because I was crying the whole night?”

Dwaye slowly nod his head and let out a soft breath. Napahimas ito sa panga nito na para bang na-stress.

“If you ever dream about weird things, tell it to me, okay?”

“How could I? I actually forget it every time I wake up.”

“Oh, then, don’t force yourself to remember your dream. Hindi ba sumasakit ang ulo mo?”

“Sumasakit nga, eh.” Weird na sagot niya. “Pati dibdib ko sumasakit din.”

Dwaye fake a cough, para bang nabilaukan ito at kailangan alisin ang bara sa lalamunan. Ngayon, ay frustrated na nasuklay nito ang buhok gamit ang daliri. Sa itsura ng kapatid ay napanguso siya.

Her brother is really a head turner. No wonder women chase after him, no wonder he easily get the woman he wants. He’s still single and seems like he doesn’t have plan yet to settle down, why would he? He could easily get a woman to warm his bed. Marriage is not his thing.

“J-just forget about it, Alexza. I don’t think it would help you get over.”

Sumangsang-ayon na tumango siya. Ipinikit ang mga mata at handa nang ipahinga ang isip nang may mga malabong image na biglang naglaro sa isipan niya.

She heard his brother foots step and that’s the time she open her eyes widely.

“Kuya!” Napabangon siya sa kama.

Dwaye stop from walking toward the door.

“Anything else?” He look at her over his shoulder.

“S-Si… Maisie?” Nanginig ang labi niya at ang kalamnan niya bigla sa hindi malaman na dahilan.

Unti-unti ay pumihit paharap sa kanya ang kapatid. Ang mga mata ay deretso sa kanya, matiim. He took a steps closer and sat beside her.

“Maisie Roque?”

She nod her head carefully. “She w-was the woman in my dream.” Maang na itinagilid niya ang ulo, nakaharap dito. “I hate her. I loathed her. I don’t like her.”

Muli ay napatikhim si Dwaye. “Have you met her already?”

“I first saw her in school then…” Malalim siyang bumuntong hininga. “…in D’ Club, s-she was flirting and kissing h-him.” Tukoy niya kay Drake. “I pulled her hair and slapped her with so much anger, with so much jealousy and with so much hate. What did I do w-was just normal, right?” Kinakabahan siya habang nagsasalita. “I f-feel like I knew her and…”

“You knew her.” Dwaye cut her off. He has this stoic face. “And what you did was normal because you love Drake and seeing him with other woman made you jealous and mad. So yes, it was normal to hate the woman who’s flirting with him.”

“I knew her…” Ulit niya sa mahinang tinig. “I knew her…but I don’t remember her, Kuya Dwaye.”

“Then don’t remember her, Alexza. She’s not that important though.” He patted the top of her head gently. “You better rest your mind. I’ll ask Manang Emma to cook a merienda for you.”

“Can I ask Jess to come here? I want someone to talk to.”

“Sure, I’ll call her.” Hinalikan nito ang gilid ng ulo niya at tinapik ang balikat niya. “Get some rest. Don’t think too much.” Then he stood up and walk towards the door.

Napatingin nalang siya sa pintong nakasara na. Umayos siya ng higa at wala sa sariling napatitig sa kisame. Mag-isa na naman siya at alam niya na ang susunod na mangyayari. Papasok sa isip niya si Drake at Blake ng walang pahintulot niya tapos at kusang tutulo ang mga luha sa pisngi niya.

She missed the kid. She missed her baby boy. She missed her Blake. She missed his sweetness. She missed hearing him calling her Mommy. She’s longing for him. She’s longing for that child!

LUMIPAS ang ilang araw na nakayanan ni Alexza ang pangungulila kay Drake at Blake, pero parang sa araw na iyon ay tuluyan na siyang napuno. She’s getting crazy thinking about Blake! She wants to see the kid. She wants to hug and kiss him! Goddamnit!

“Please, Kuya, have mercy on me. I’m going crazy here. I wanna see that kid!”

Para siyang spoiled brat na nakakunyapit sa damit ni Dwaye. Nag-aayos ito ng mga bote ng mamahaling alak sa bar sa bahay nito.

“You know, I can’t talk to Drake. Galit ‘yon sa akin at galit ako sa kanya. Kaya hindi na ako magtataka kung ipagiba niya ang D’ Club na nasa teritoryo niya.” Seryoso nitong sinasalansan ang mga bote, shot glass at wine glass.

Inis na binitawan niya ang kapatid. Padaskol na naupo sa couch.

“Then I will visit Blake!”

Nakaangat ang mga kilay nito na nilingon siya at tila ba nanunubok.

“Si Blake ba talaga? O baka gusto mo lang makita si Drake—”

“I only want to see Blake! Not him!” Nagkanda-salubong-salubong na rin ang kilay niya. “I swear I will go to their beach house and kidnap the kid!”

“Woah, that? Don’t do that, Alexza. Nababaliw ka na yata—”

“Mababaliw talaga ako kapag hindi ko pa nakita ’yung bata!” Halos sigawan niya na ang Kuya niya sa kadesperadahan niya. “If you don’t want to help me then I will do it alone! Or I will ask help on Brooke, I’m sure he would not say No to me!”

“You’re not on the right mind to do that crazy thing, Alexza.”

“Namimiss ko nga ’yung bata. Ano ba ang hindi mo maintindihan do’n Kuya?” Bigo niyang sabi. “Mas namimiss ko pa nga siya kesa kay Drake! That kid is very sweet. I love him. Ang lapit lapit ng loob ko sa kanya. I’m seeing my child on him kung nabubuhay lang ang anak ko…siguro mag kasing edad lang sila.”

Napansin niyang bahagyang napatigil sa ginagawa ang kapatid pero kalaunan ay nagpatuloy din. Nagsalin pa ng alak sa baso tapos ay tinungga iyon ng walang sabit sa lalamunan. Parang hindi man lang ininda ang pait.

“Yeah, magaan din ang loob ko sa bata. I like that kid the first time I saw him when he was still a baby. Blake is almost same age with your child. Kaya hindi na rin ako nagtaka na sobra ka maka-react diyan kapag si Blake na. Para kang nanay na nababaliw dahil hindi makita ang anak…”

“Mababaliw na talaga ako, Kuya Dwaye! Kapag ako nabaliw, sisihin mo ang sarili mo dahil hindi mo ako tinulungan—”

“I will help you, okay?” Halos mapatili siya sa balitang iyon pero pinigil niya ang sarili dahil seryosong-seryoso ang kapatid. “But I won’t help you to kidnap Blake, that’s crazy…”

“I thought you were going to help me—”

“I will talk to Drake.” Putol nito sa kanya. “Handa akong ibaba ang pride ko para sa’yo. Ayokong mabaliw ka. Ayokong magkaro’n ng baliw na kapatid.”

Teary eyes, she stood up, took a step closer and hug her brother from behind.

“Thank you, Kuya…for everything.”

Uminom ulit ito ng alak. Hinayaan siyang nakayakap dito. He’s really the best brother in the world. Hindi na niya kailangan pang humiling ng maraming kapatid dahil si Dwaye lang ay sapat na sapat na.

“You can always count on me. Always remember that.”

Tumango siya sa likod nito. Alam niya naman ’yon. Dwaye is always there for her same as Brooke.

“Sasama ako sa pagpunta sa beach resort nila pero sa sasakyan lang ako, Kuya. Hindi ko pa kayang makita si D-Drake.”

“I just hope that Drake would allow you to see his son. That man is a beast when mad.”

“Sana nga pumayag kung hindi ki-kidnap-in ko talaga ang anak niya!” Kumalas siya sa yakap dito. “Kailan tayo pupunta?”

Hinarap siya ni Dwaye, sumandal ito sa island counter, may hawak na baso ng alak at pinaglalaruan ang likido do’n.

“Anytime soon. Get yourself ready.”

SA IKSI NG pasensya ni Drake nakapagtataka na hindi niya man lang makuhang magalit sa anak na sobra ang pagpapahirap sa kanya sa pagpasok nito sa eskwelahan.

Simula nang mawala si Alexza sa kanila at hindi na rin ito ang teacher ni Blake ay mas lalong lumala ang pagka-ayaw ng anak pumasok.

“What do you want me to do for you to go to school again? Masyado mo na akong pinapahirapan, Blake.”

Nahimigan na ng frustrasyon ang boses niya habang kausap ang anak na nakahiga sa kama nito at nakatalukbong pa.

“I don’t want to go to school anymore, daddy…”

“Why? Kids should go to school, son.”

“Because I miss my mommy-teacher. I feel sad when I don’t see her at school. I wanna see her.” Malungkot na sabi nito.

Malalim siyang bumuntong hininga. Ganyan lagi ang linyahan ng anak sa umaga, napipilit at napapakiusapan niya pa ito nitong mga nakalipas na araw pero mukhang ngayon ay hindi na tatablahan ang anak ng pakiusap niya. Kahit siya ay nali-late sa pagpunta sa opisina niya dahil ganito ang eksena nilang mag-ama tuwing umaga.

“Your teacher file a leave that’s why you won’t see her at school.”

Ang impormasyon na iyon ay galing mismo sa eskwelahan ni Blake. Gusto nga raw mag resign ni Alexza ngunit nag suggest ang eskwelahan na bigyan nalang ito ng short leave. Matatapos na rin naman ang klase.

“Why she need to file a leave? Is my teacher pregnant? Like teacher Bea?”

Drake wet his lips using his tongue and brush his hair with his finger.

“No, she’s not pregnant. I don’t know her reason though.”

“Maybe she doesn’t want to see me…” Kuru-kuro ng anak at inalis ang pagkakatalukbong ng makapal na kumot hanggang sa leeg nito. Tumulala sa kisame. Ang lalim ng iniisip.

“She would be back after a month. You have to wait.”

“But next month is summer month daddy. I will have to wait for another months to see her again then? Maraming tulog pa…” Lalong namroblema ang anak niya.

“Mabilis lang ang araw anak. You have to be patient.”

“Why can’t you call mommy? Told her that I wanna see her.”

Sumakit ang ulo niya at mas lalo rin siyang namroblema sa suhestiyon ng anak. And his head ache even more when his phone vibrate and he saw the name of his secretary.

“Yes?”

“Good morning, boss. I’m sorry for the early call but I wanted you to know that Mr. Clane Altaraza just arrived a minutes ago with some of our investors. They’re already waiting for you in conference room.”

He took a quick glance on his wrist watch and curse silently when he saw what time is it already. Its nine in the morning and he should be at his office at eight in the morning.

“I’ll be there soon.”

“Okay, boss.”

He ended the line. He look at his son again who’s looking at him.

“You’re late in your meeting daddy…”

Tumango siya. “It’s okay. They can wait.”

“I’m sorry. I’m not a good boy.” His eyes started to twinkle with controlled tears. Blake look away. “I miss her… I really miss her.”

His about to speak when his phone vibrate again. Without looking at the caller he answer it and speak madly.

“I told you to tell them to fucking wait because I’m still talking to my son!”

“Ah, boss, sorry po. Si Rommy po ito.” Kumalma siya at tinignan ang caller. Its one of his guard on his beach house.

“May problema ba diyan, Rommy?”

“Si Sir Dwaye nandito po. Gusto ka raw makausap, boss. Papasukin ko po ba?”

“Huwag!”

“Yung kapatid niya raw po ay mababaliw na kapag hindi pa nakita si Blake…”

Napapikit siya at napahilot sa sintido.

“Tell him to wait for me there.”

“Okay boss.”

Ipinasok niya ulit ang cellphone sa slacks na suot saka binalingan ang anak.

“Get up, son.”

“I don’t like daddy…”

“Your Tito-Ninong Dwaye is here.”

Blake eyes widened. “Is he with teacher-mommy?”

“Not sure,” Tinapik niya ito sa binti. “Get up and follow me down stair. I have to talk to him.”

Blake lazily get up from bed and go straight to the shower room. Siya naman ay lumabas ng silid at dumeretso sa gate ng bahay niya.

Dwaye was busy talking to someone on his cellphone but when he saw him, he automatically cut the line.

“What do you need?” He asked coldly.

“I came here not to apologize for what I did, because I know you deserve it.” Dwaye smirk at him. “I came here to ask you if Alexza can see Blake? Even just for a minutes.”

“Why would I do that?” He sarcastically asked.

“Not unless you want my sister to get crazy thinking about your son.”

Dumilim ang mukha niya. Hindi sigurado kung maniniwala ba siya o ano. Pagkatapos ng lahat ng kasinungalingan at pangloloko sa kanya ng mga ito parang hindi niya na makuhang maniwala pa ulit.

“She can’t fool me again, Dwaye.”

Dwaye jaw clenched and his face darkened, same as his. But the man is controlling himself, bagkos, nanatili ang kaswalidad sa tono nito nang magsalita.

“I am fucking tired of seeing my sister crying herself everyday and ever night, Villafuente. And as a brother I will do everything even to beg in front of an asshole so I could make her happy and I could give what she wanted coz I fucking love my sister!” He said firmly. “How about the mighty Drake Villafuente? What can you do for the sake of love?” Dwaye smile evilly at him.

Drake give the man an arrogant smile.

“I could let her see my son even I am so mad at her. I could fucking agree of this shit because I don’t want her to get crazy. And I could fucking let her meddling with me and my son’s life again even if it’s very hard for me to do it or even try it…now tell me that I don’t fucking love your sister and I don’t deserve her!”

He almost wanted to punch someone now, luckily he was good in staying calm. He doesn’t want to have another fight, it will only ruin them and their friendship. O pagkakaibigan pa bang maituturing ang lahat ng natuklasan niya.

Bago pa man sila magkainitan ni Drake ay tinawag na siya ng anak niya sa likuran niya.

“Daddy!”

Nagtatagisan sila ng tingin ni Dwaye hanggang sa pumagitna na sa kanila si Blake.

“Good morning Tito-Ninong!” Blake greeted Dwaye.

“Morning buddy,” Ginulo nito ang buhok ng anak niya. “Hindi ka pumasok?”

Blake shook his head looking up on him. “I don’t want to go to school po.”

“Why not?”

“It hurts me not seeing my teacher-mommy there.”

“Teacher-mommy?” Ulit ni Dwaye.

“Mommy Alexza po. Are you with her? How is she? Why did she left me? Hindi niya ba ako love, Tito-Ninong?”

“Of course not!” Sansala kaagad ni Dwaye. “Your teacher-mommy loves you. Actually, I’m with her and she wanted to see you.”

Napatingin siya sa grey Audi hindi kalayuan. Its Dwaye car and knowing that Alexza is inside and probably watching them, it makes his heart beat painfully and longingly.

He look away on that car and caught Dwaye looking at him, then his friend look at his car that meters behind him.

“Daddy, can I see teacher-mommy?” Nakatingala sa kanya ang anak, nakakapit sa black slacks niya. “Please daddy. Please…” And Blake is almost crying while begging on him.

“Y-yes, you can see her son.”

“Thank you daddy ko!” Blake hug his legs.

“Shall we go?” Dwaye smile at Blake.

“Opo! Opo!” Nagtatalon-talon ang anak niya at halos takbuhin na ang sasakyan.

“Bring him back in my office after lunch.” Bilin niya kay Dwaye.

“I will,”

He watch his son with Dwaye walk towards his Audi. The car is very tinted that even he wanted to see the woman inside, he cannot. Excited na pumasok ang anak niya sa back seat at hindi niya na alam kung ano na ang nangyari.

His phone vibrate again and it was his secretary. He answered it.

“Boss…”

“I’m on my way.” He coldly said and cut the line. His eyes still on the car, wondering what’s happening inside.

He was about to turn around to go to his car but he mutter a curse when it feels like he doesn’t want to leave because his insides were hoping to see Alexza. Damn it!

And why the hell he let her seeing his son again? He’s mad at her! Mas lalo lang siyang nagalit sa ideya na isang salita lang ni Alexza na gustong makita ang anak niya ay napapayag kaagad siya sa kabila ng lahat ng sakit at galit na ibinigay ng dalaga sa kanya. But then again he cannot afford seeing her getting crazy for not seeing Blake though.

Malalim siyang napabuntong hininga at pinilit ang sarili na sumakay sa sasakyan dahil may malalaking tao ang naghihintay sa kanya sa resort. It is a big project, he can’t just cancel the meeting just because his fucking body is longing for her.

18 ~ Dreams

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

SIMULA nang makarating ang Audi ni Dwaye malapit sa beach house ni Drake ay hindi na siya magkandamayaw sa kung ano ba ang dapat na maramdaman niya. She’s so nervous and at the same excited! If it’s because of the idea that she would see Blake or Drake any moment, she doesn’t know.

Tinanaw ni Alexza mula sa tinted window sa backseat ang gate ng beach house. Her brother is now talking to Mang Rommy, the guard on duty for this morning.

She really wanted to step out from car and talk to Mang Rommy and maybe beg to make her brother go inside. She just stopping herself, she let Dwaye do the moves. They’d been waiting for how many minutes now and she’s sure that Blake is inside the house since it’s still to early to go to school.

She’s playing with her fingers now on her lap and looking at it. She’s silently praying to see the kid today, just to see him from where she is would be enough if Drake would not allow her to see his son.

Multi niyang ibinaling ang atensyon sa gate at halos mahilo sa biglang pagkabog ng dibdib niya nang masilayan si Drake na madilim ang gwapong mukha, kausap ang kapatid niya.

Drake looks in a bad mood early in the morning, his lips were in thin line and his thick eyebrows were furrowed while looking and listening to her brother. He’s already wearing a white long sleeve polo and black slacks that fit enough to show his long muscular legs. She watch how his lips move when he talks but she could not understand whatever he said.

Then his eyes suddenly went on where she is sitting, Alexza shifted her sitting position uncomfortably. Ang takot at kaba ay binabagabag siya ng madidilim na matang iyon. Even the car window is fully tinted, pakiramdam niya nakikita pa rin siya ni Drake sa loob! Nininerbyos siya ng husto! Saglit lang nagtagal ang magagandang matang iyon pero grabe ang reaksyon ng katawan niya.

She’s waiting and watching them when a cute little boy run towards the men and stop at the center.

“Oh God, my baby…”

Natutop niya ang bibig niya at maluha-luha nang nakatingin kay Blake na kinakausap na  ang dalawang lalaki. Blake is still wearing his cute pajama. Hindi ba ito papasok sa eskwelahan?

Ilan sandali pa ay nakita niya nang natatatalon si Blake kasama ang Kuya niya na naglalakad papunta sa sasakyan kung nasaan siya! Pumayag si Drake?!

Hindi na napigilan ni Alexza ang pagbagsak ng luha ng bumukas ang pinto at sinalubong kaagad siya ng yakap ni Blake.

“Mommy ko! Mommy ko!” He’s calling her ang started crying on her neck.

Inayos niya ang pagkandong kay Blake at ginantihan ang mahigpit nitong yakap habang hinahalikan ang ulo nito. Damn it, she miss this kid so bad that it almost make her crazy!

“Hush, tahan na, I’m here na…”

“Miss miss kita… b-bakit ka umalis bigla…”

Humapdi ang dibdib niya at parang natutunaw ang nasa loob niyon. Blake voice is wondering and sad. Marahil ay lubos ang pagtataka kung bakit nga ba bigla siyang nawala.

“I’m sorry if I left you… mommy did not mean that. Ayaw kitang iwan, anak.” Umiiyak na rin siya. “But daddy and I had a misunderstanding. I’m sorry kung pati ikaw nadadamay dahil sa amin.”

“Why don’t you talk about the misunderstanding? P-para po babalik ka na sa amin…” yumakap ng husto ang maliliit na braso nito sa leeg niya. “I miss you very much mommy…bumalik ka na po, please! Please!” He beg while crying.

Gustuhin niya man bumalik sa buhay ng mag-ama pero ang tanong ay kung papayag ba ulit si Drake? Pakiramdam niya ay hindi na.

Paano kung ngayon lang pumayag ang lalaki na makita niya si Blake? Tapos bukas at sa mga susunod na araw ay hindi na?

Paano kung dahil sa kakulitan niya na palaging gustong makita ang bata ay maisipan ni Drake na tuluyang ilayo sa kanya? Isipin niya palang ’yon ay parang ayaw niya nang isauli si Blake ngayon palang!

“I wish I could talk to your dad again and fix our misunderstandings…for you. But I know and I can feel that he’s still mad at me. Mahirap makipag-usap sa taong galit at sa taong sarado ang pag-iisip para makinig.”

Marahan niyang hinahaplos ang buhok nito. Unti-unti ng kumakalma si Blake, panay mahihinang hikbi nalang.

“He’s mad. I’ve never see him smile since you left us. Daddy told me that we will fix our broken hearts. You broke our hearts mommy…”

“What can I do to make my baby’s heart healed?” She ask gently.

“I want my mommy back po…”

Gusto niyang mapangiwi. Kahit mahirap na bumalik sa buhay ng mag-ama ay gagawin niya para lang kay Blake. Pati ito ay apektado at nasasaktan. Kung may magagawa siya para sumaya ulit ang baby boy niya, then she will do it!

“Of course, I’ll be back.” Desidido niyang sabi. “But you have to cooperate with mommy, okay ba ’yon?”

Kumalas ng yakap sa kanya si Blake at namumula ang tungki ng ilong na tumitig sa kanya.

“How?”

She smile at him and brush his hair with her fingers. Her baby boy is handsome as his dad. A mini version of Drake with innocent eyes.

“I will tell you later what’s my plan. For now, I want to ask you, why you didn’t go to school today? Is there anything wrong, hmm?”

Blake look down. “I don’t want to go to school anymore mommy.”

“Why?” Her forehead knotted. “Why not?”

“Because you aren’t there. I want my mommy to be my teacher.”

Malalim siyang napabuntong hininga. Ang mata niya ay biglang dumapo sa lalaking nakasandal sa hood ng sasakyan sa labas, ang aga-aga ay naninigarilyo ang kapatid habang hinihintay silang matapos mag-usap mag-ina.

Her eyes drop down at Blake again.

“I’ll be back in school, anak. Mommy just need to rest. You have to promise me that you would go to school tomorrow even without me.”

Blake shook his head weakly, playing with his fingers.

“I don’t want to promise and break it.”

“Ahm, if I go with you in school, would you like it?”

Nag-angat ng mukha sa kanya si Blake. May pag-asa sa mga magagandang mata.

“Would you do it if I say Yes?”

“Of course! What my baby’s wants, what he gets. Well? Papasok ka na sa school bukas? Ako ang maghahatid sayo.”

“I want you to be there until I finished with my classes. C-Can you do it?” Nananantiya ang mata at ang boses nito na para bang mabibigo kung sasabihin niyang hindi niya magagawa ang bagay na ’yon.

Tumikhim siya at matamis na nginitian ang anak.

“I can do it! And we would do it! Are you happy now?”

Gumuhit ang masayang ngiti sa maliit nitong labi at excited na tumango-tango. At least, she made him smile and happy today.

“I’m happy now mommy! Thank you for all of these.” Blake kiss her on the lips.

Napangiti siya. “You’re welcome baby.” And kiss him on the lips. She stare at him for a moment before she speak again. “Did you eat breakfast already?”

Blake shook his head. “Not yet mommy. And I didn’t take a shower yet. I just washed my face and brushed my teeth.” Ipinakita pa nito sa kanya ang kumpletong cute na mga ngipin nito.

“Well, I would love to cook you breakfast but what’s your daddy told you? Kailan kita pwedeng isaoli sa kanya?”

“I heard him told to Tito-Ninong that he needs me back after lunch po.”

Her lips pouted a little. “We still have 5-6 hours to spend together then. Do you want to come with me in my brother’s house?”

“Wherever you are mommy. I want to be with you.”

“Oh, that’s so sweet anak.” Pinanggigilan niya ang pisngi nito at hinalikan ang tungki ng ilong. “Let’s go then.”

She get her cellphone and dialed Dwaye number. His phone is ringing and she watch him get his phone on his pants pocket. Hindi iyon sinagot ng kapatid, bagkos binuksan ang driver side door.

“Done?” Dwaye asked.

“Yes Kuya. Can I bring Blake in your house?”

“Sure,”

Sinipat nito si Blake na nakayakap sa kanya, ang gilid ng pisngi ay nasa dibdib niya na para bang pinapakinggan ang heartbeat niya. Her baby really miss her, she can feel it.

Dwaye just shrug his shoulder before he started the engine.

Hinabol niya ng tingin ang bahay ni Drake pero nakasarado na ulit ang malapad na gate do’n. At least, he allow her to see his son even they had a painful fight few days ago.

AFTER ALEXZA cooked breakfast for Blake, they stay at the back of her brother’s house. Sa ratan na duyan ay magkayakap sila ni Blake, she’s humming a song and slowly swinging the hum rack. Its makes them relax and feel at ease.

“Mommy, I want to be with you forever.” Blake said dreamily.

Her heart melt and her lips form a genuine smile. This kid is really sweet and lovable.

“Why do you want to be with me forever? Hmm?”

“Because I love you very very much!”

“Ahh, why do you have to be so sweet?” She mutter heartily. “I love you very very much, too and I want to be with you forever and ever!” She hug him tightly and kiss the top of his head. “I wish your dad would allow it.”

“What can we do, mommy?”

“Let’s make a plan baby…” marahan na sabi niya. “When you get home, tell daddy that you only go to school if I would be the one who would fetch you.”

Masunurin at seryosong tumango si Blake. Talagang nakikinig sa kanya at sa bawat salita na binibitawan niya.

“What if daddy would not allow it?”

“Then cry, baby. Tell him that you won’t go to school if you are not with me.”

Alam niyang mali itong itinuturo niya sa anak pero wala na siyang pakialam do’n basta makasama niya lang ito palagi!

“And if he gets mad?”

“He won’t get mad at you. Daddy loves you so much that he will do everything to make you happy, right?”

Tumango si Blake. “Opo, but I don’t like daddy to be sad because I’m not good boy.”

“You are a good boy, anak. Its just that you have to do what I told you to do for us to be together always. I thought you like to be with me…” medyo lumungkot ang boses niya. “This is the only thing I know. I’m so desperate to be with you, Blake. Huwag nalang kaya kita ibalik sa daddy mo?”

“Not a good idea mommy. Daddy would be worried and sad. He would be alone in our house. I don’t want that po.”

Hay, nakaka-touch naman ang batang ito. Mahal na mahal ang ama. Ang swerte naman ni Drake. Even Blake doesn’t have a mother, he still raise him alone with a good heart. He salute Drake being a single father. It is very hard but he managed to do it, alone and with his own way.

“I don’t know what to do now baby. I don’t want your daddy to be sad and alone while we are happy together.” Nahihirapan na bumuntong hininga siya.

“Don’t worry mommy. I will tell to daddy that I want you to be with me in school. I’m sure he would agree because he’s busy at work.”

“Okay…” marahan na sabi niya. “Let’s pray that everything between me and your dad would be okay soon. Ayaw ko ng naiipit ka.”

“You could kiss daddy so he won’t be mad at you anymore.”

Ngumuso siya at tila nag-init ang pisngi niya. “Kung sana isang halik ko lang sa kanya ay mawawala na ang galit niya…handa akong halikan ang daddy mo, anak. Kahit ilan beses pa.”

“Sasabihin ko po kay daddy na ikikiss mo siya ng maraming beses para hindi na siya magalit.”

Maliit lang siyang ngumiti at ipinagsawalang bahala nalang ang sinabi nito. As if Drake would allow her to kiss him, baka lalo pang magalit sa kanya at isipin na inaakit niya!

“Ma’am, may tawag ho,”

Nag-angat siya ng tingin kay Manang Emma na hawak ang wireless telephone.

“Sino raw po?”

“Si Sir Drake po.”

Nagligalig kaagad ang kabog ng dibdib niya na parang iyon nalang ang naririnig niya.

Nanginginig ang mga kamay na kinuha niya ang aparato at inilagay sa tenga niya.

“H-Hello?” Nakagat niya ang labi.

“Why were you not answering your cellphone?” That deep baritone voice seems annoyed. Na animo ilang beses ng tumawag na hindi niya sinagot.

“Its in m-my room,”

“Where’s my son?”

“Here, beside me…”

“Hi daddy, I’m behave po.” Blake suddenly spoke.

“Talk to him,” Aniya at ibinigay sa bata ang aparato.

“Hello daddy ko, tapos na po ang meeting mo?” Blake paused. “Gano’n po ba? Sige po, I will tell to mommy.” He paused again, listening to his daddy carefully. “She cooked cookies for me, I will bring some for you daddy…and I’m hugging mommy now here in Tito-Ninong’s hum rack.” Tumango-tango ang anak. “Opo, we will wait for you tonight daddy. Mommy wanted to kiss you po para hindi ka na magalit sa kanya. Maraming-maraming kiss!”

She gasped at that! Her eyes almost widened. Mabilis siyang umiling at mahinang bumulong.

“No, no, baby…” para siyang nataranta at nakita niyang napangiwi si Blake.

“Daddy! Cursing is bad!” Nakangiwi pa rin ang bata. “Hmm, okay po daddy ko. Love you…” Blake give her back the phone and she absentmindedly place it on her ear.

“Love you…” Drake whispered and that make her heart pump crazily and wildly!

Damn it! That words was for his son, not for her. Okay. Hindi siya nag-assume. Hindi siya assume-ra!

“Ahm, it’s me A-Alexza…”

She heard Drake clear his throat.

“I will be late tonight. Kindly look after with my son until I arrive there.”

“S-sure!” Nahimigan niya ang excitement sa boses niya.

Kung dahil ba iyon sa hanggang gabi pa sila magsasama ni Blake o ang katotohanan na makikita niya mamaya si Drake?

“Okay,”

“L-Let me know when you’re on your way here.” She whispered softly.

“Okay,”

Panandalian ang katahimikan sa pagitan nila. Tila parehong naghihintay kung may iba pa ba silang sasabihin o wala na. Hanggang sa naputol nalang ang tawag.

GABING-GABI na at nakatulugan nalang ni Blake ang pagdating ng ama. Kahit siya ay inaantok na rin kakahintay sabayan pa ng walang pahintulot na pagbagsak ng ulan.

Her brother as expected won’t be at home at night since he is partying and managing his Club. Dwaye is a night man and she use to it ever since.

Alexza cellphone vibrate and she hurriedly open the text message from him.

Drake: I’m half away.

She type a reply with her shaking fingers.

Me: Blake is already sleeping. Drive slowly.

Nang na-send niya iyon ay naghintay pa siya ng ilang saglit pero wala ng reply ang lalaki. Inilapag niya iyon sa side bed table ng kama at sinulyapan ang natutulog na si Blake. Ayaw niya itong gisingin, dapat kasi ay pinag-over night nalang ni Drake sa kanya ang bata para sulit na sulit talaga.

Napaigtad si Alexza nang tumunog ang door bell. Nagmamadali siyang nagpunta sa mayor na pinto na wala sa sariling may hawak pala siyang puting tuwalya. Iniisip niya kasing basa si Drake dahil sa ulan.

She open the door slowly and her heart was booming inside her chest as she see a handsome man standing in front of her. The water from his hair was dripping down sexily on his sharp jaw down to his neck. There’s a small amount of water behind his eyelashes that slowly falling down his face.

Ang eksenang iyon ay para bang pinaghirapang gawin bago tuluyang nakuha ang perpektong imahe kung paano naglalaglagan ang mga tubig sa mukha nito na animo ay hindi sinasadyang nang-aakit.

Bumabakat ang matitigas at marahas na pagkakahulma ng muscle sa braso ng lalaki dahil sa pagkabasa na rin ng polo long sleeve na suot.

With her shaking hands, she absentmindedly dry his hair with white towel. Marahan na gumagalaw ang mga kamay niya habang pinupunasan ang ulo nito pababa sa leeg.

She saw him swallow hard and she caught off guard. Parang napaso na napaatras siya at nabitawan ang tuwalya na bumagsak sa balikat nito.

His intense eyes and the darkness on it makes her shiver. Nahihilo siya at parang masusuka sa tindi ng paglapat sa kanya ng magagandang matang iyon.

Makailang beses pa siyang napalunok at lihim na kinakalma ang pusong nagwawala sa dibdib niya bago nakapagsalita.

“Get in. I will make you some coffee.” Mabilis na tumalilis siya papunta sa kusina.

Habang nagtitimpla siya ng kape ay nanginginig pa rin ang mga daliri niya dahil sa tindi ng hindi inaasahang emosyon. Wala siyang ibang maramdaman kundi ang tibok lang ng puso niya.

The anger, jealousy and hatred are now gone. What the hell is happening on her?

Pagbalik niya sa sala dala ang tray na may mainit na kape ay mas lalo lang siyang pinahirapang huminga ni Drake nang makita niyang hubad baro na ang pang-itaas nito. He’s sitting on the single sofa, patiently waiting.

She put the tray on the round glass table in front of him carefully.

“I will get Kuya Dwaye’s shirt for you.”

“No thanks,” Maagap na sabi nito. “I want my son,”

“Malakas pa ang ulan. Magpatila muna kayo. Beside he’s still sleeping.”

Drake sip on the coffee slowly then put it back on the table before looking up on her.

“Why don’t you sit down?”

Mabilis siyang naupo sa kasalungat na upuan nito. Nakakahiya ang naging kilos niyang iyon, halatang naratanta siya. Nakakaloka.

“K-Kumain ka na ba? Tinirahan ka namin ni Blake ng pagkain.”

Drake eye darted on her. His lips were little bit protrude, she’s wondering what’s on his mind!

“I’m okay, thanks for being kind to my son by the way.” She could almost see kung saan papatungo ang usapan na iyon. “But I wish you would stop giving him a false hope. I’d let you hurt me again and again but please stop hurting my son, Alexza.”

“I don’t mean to hurt him! I don’t mean to left him, to left both of you. Ikaw itong ayaw sa akin!”

Bumangon bigla ang galit niya sa dibdib at parang mas ipinapasalamat niya pa iyon. Kaysa kanina na parang magiging sunud-sunuran siya dito.

“My only concern is my son. I don’t even care about how I feel now. This is all for my son’s sake and his happiness. Ayoko lang na paasahin mo rin siya, you’re very good at it.” Mapakla na napasimsim ito sa kape.

“Hindi, nagkakamali ka…” kumalma ng bahagya ang puso niya. “Kung hahayaan mo lang sana akong magpaliwanag pa, hindi sana tayo nagkakaganito. But you’re mad and close minded. I understand it because I hurt you, but I wish you can also understand me and my situation. Hindi ko na hihilingin na intindihin mo ’yung nararamdaman ko, pero sana kahit ’yung sitwasyon man lang at ’yung nangyari Drake…”

He remain silent. He’s staring at the coffee as if something is more interesting there than to what she said.

“I’m sorry… I left you that night.” Iyon lang ang tanging nasabi nito bago nila narinig ang pagtawag ni Blake sa kanya.

“Mommy! Mommy ko!”

Napatayo sila pareho at sabay na napatingin sa pangalawang palapag kung saan bumukas ang pinto ng silid kung nasaan ito.

Nagmamadali na sinalubong nila si Blake bago pa ito makarating sa hagdan.

“What’s wrong?” Masuyong tanong niya nang mag-squat siya sa harap nito.

Drake is standing beside them, watching them.

“I had a bad dream mommy…” Blake voice cracked and look at her. May takot sa mga mata nito.

“What is it baby?” She brush his hair softly.

“Y-you left baby Blake…” Kumibot ang cute na labi ng anak, nagbabadya ang hikbi. “…you left me again…” Blake hug his small arms around her neck and cry on her neck. “Why do you always left m-me…mommy…even in my dreams…w-why…”

19 ~ Tied Up

CHAPTER NINETEEN

“IT WAS just a dream baby. It won’t happen again. I promise you now. I would never leave you, again.”

Alexza keep stroking Blake’s hair with her fingers and saying that words to calm him. Hindi maampat ang pag-hikbi nito at ayaw ng humiwalay sa kanya. Kapit na kapit na halos mangawit na siya sa posisyon nila.

“It felt so real, mommy. It wasn’t just a dream for me. You will left me again…” Umiling-iling ito sa leeg niya. “I don’t want that to happen.”

“I told you, it won’t happen again. See, I’m here naman di ba? Magkayakap pa nga tayo.”

Blake shook his head again and again. It seems like it’s hard for him to believe on her. Unti-unti ay naliliwanagan na siya sa ikinikilos ng anak. Blake doesn’t trust her words anymore. Kumirot ang puso niya at nahihirapan na nag-angat ng tingin kay Drake.

He’s towering them with his around 6’1 or 6’2 height and his wide muscular built. He was carefully watching them. He is letting her to calm his son for a quite moment.

Drake suddenly squatted and caress his son’s hair. Pinag-gigitnaan nila ang anak.

“Son, listen, it was just a dream. Okay? A bad dream. Let’s go home.”

Mariin na umiling-iling ulit si Blake at yumakap sa leeg niya ng mahigpit na halos masakal na siya. Napangiwi siya at maagap na hinawakan ang maliliit nitong braso upang kahit papano ay maluwagan sana ngunit mas lalo lang humigpit ang pagkakaukbit sa kanya niyon.

“I don’t want to go home without mommy! If it was really a dream and if it would not happen again, then, she should go home with us daddy!”

Napasuklay sa buhok niya si Drake na tila ba mapuputol na ang pasensya. He looks exhaustedly gorgeous. It was a long day for him and he should be resting now, but here he is, dealing with his son who’s having a tantrums.

“You’ve been a bad boy for how many days now Blake. These wasn’t good.” Mainit na ulo na sabi ni Drake. “Why did you have to do all of these to me, huh?”

Blake body is shaking and he’s starting to cry again. “I’m sorry daddy. I’m sorry…” patuloy ang pag-iyak ng anak na nakayakap sa kanya na pati siya ay naiiyak na rin.

“Let’s go home!”

Napaigtad si Blake sa galit na boses ng ama pero hindi ito nagpatinag. Lalong humigpit ang yakap sa kanya na para bang doon lang kumukuha ng lakas.

Matalim na tinignan niya si Drake at tumayo karga si Blake.

“Let’s go home.” Mariin at iritadong sambit niya habang galit na tinitignan pa rin ang lalaki.

Hindi niya na ito hinintay pang makapagsalita at bumaba na ng hagdan. Paglabas niya sa pinto ay niyakap kaagad sila ng malamig na hangin at may mararahan na ambon na tumama sa kanila.

“Tahan na, sasama ako sa bahay niyo, okay? Huwag ka ng umiyak…” Masuyong alo niya kay Blake, sa pagpigil ng iyak nito ay nahihirapan na sa paghikbi. Ngumuso siya, nasasaktan para dito. “Hindi natin bati ’yang daddy mo. Hindi ko ’yan papansinin.”

“H-Hindi mo rin siya ikikiss…” hikbi na sabi ni Blake.

“Hindi ko siya ikikiss. I don’t kiss a monster.”

“Hindi rin ako hahalik sa mga paasa.” Sa likod niya ay narinig niyang sabi ni Drake at nilampasan sila.

“Siguraduhin mo lang!” Pahabol na sambit niya, nakaarko ang isang kilay.

Tinakbo ni Drake ang sasakyan nitong nasa parking lot ng bahay. Pinaandar iyon hanggang sa medyo makalapit na sa kanila.

Nakasimangot siyang pumasok sa backseat na karga si Blake. Kahit nasa byahe na sila ay nakakandong at nakayakap pa rin ang anak sa kanya na para bang naninigurado na hindi nga talaga siya aalis. As if that she has a plan to leave them again. No way!

KULANG SA TULOG na nagpilit si Alexza na imulat ang mga mata at akmang i-uunat na ang mga braso ng mapangiwi siya dahil hindi niya ma-i-angat ng tuluyan ang isa.

She looks on that arm only to find out that her hand was tied up with an expensive leather belt on the headrest of the bed. Her eyes widened in shocked. Naalarma siya at kaagad na inilibot ang paningin sa buong silid.

Ang kombinasyon na kulay dagat at ulap na pintura at ang pamilyar na nakaka-adik na panglalaking amoy ay nagpapatunay lamang na wala siya sa silid ni Blake, kundi nasa silid siya ni Drake!

Mabilis siyang napaupo at napangiwi ng humigpit ang sinturon na nakapalibot sa palapulsuhan niya.

“How was your sleep with that?” The sarcasm on that bedroom voice beside her making her stilled.

Slowly, she look down on the man laying beside her. Drake bedroom hair made him looks like the most highest paid model in the world. Ang puting makapal na tela ay tinatakpan ang bewang nito pababa sa mga paa. Nagbara ang lalamunan niya ng hindi sinasadyang madaanan ng malikot niyang mata ang umbok sa gitnang bahagi ng katawan nito.

What is he wearing? Or does he wear anything under the white sheet? His bulge is really obvious that it heated her body up early in this cold morning.

“Morning erection,” He playfully whispered. He caught her looking at his bulge! What a shame! “Or, I think he’s just trying to impress the beautiful woman sleeping in my bed.”

Alexza look away, scared that he might see how her face turned red. Pati sa batok at leeg niya ay ramdam niya ang pagdaloy ng init.

“Where’s Blake?” Pag-iiba niya ng usapan, hindi na ito muling tinignan pa. Nagkakaroon lang siya ng kasalanan ang aga-aga.

“In school,”

She force herself not to look at him.

“Dapat ginising mo ako. I was supposed to take him on school.”

“We don’t have a heart to wake you up early in the morning knowing that all of us slept late last night.”

“Buti pumayag na pumasok na hindi ako kasama?”

“Because he saw you tied up on my bed,”

Her lips pouted a little. Pinagkakaisahan ba siya ng mag-ama? Parang hindi naman ganito ang plano nila ni Blake kahapon? Pagkakaisahan dapat nila si Drake pero bakit parang nabaliktad yata?

“So, hanggang sa dumating siya dapat nakatali pa rin ako?”

“Hmm, sort of.”

Alexza gasped and finally look at him with disbelief on her eyes.

“You are kidding me, right?” Kinakabahan na tanong niya.

“Do I look like I was just kidding around, Alexza?”

“God!” She massage her temple using her free hand. “This is not a good idea, Drake!”

“Its quite sexy seeing you tied up in my bed. I can do everything I want for you.” His husky voice, made her inner thighs pulse. He shifted his position, he’s now facing her, nakatagilid ang katawan. “Maybe next time I would tied up your legs, too.”

“Don’t you dare.”

“To make sure that you will not escape again.”

His finger started to trail a sexy line on her bare legs. Kung bakit ba parang nanigas ang katawan niya at hindi maigalaw ang kahit na binti niya para mailayo niya dito.

“Stop what you’re doing,” sita niya, hindi ipinahalata ang nahihirapan na boses sa pagpipigil na labanan ang masarap na sensasyong dumadaloy sa binti niya paangat sa kanyang pagkababae.

“Sana noon palang itinali na kita para hindi ka na alis nang alis.” Paos na sambit nito, naglalakbay ang daliri sa hita niya pataas.

Ikinipot niya ang binting bahagyang magkahiwalay bago pa mapasok ng daliri nito ang hindi dapat.

“Sana nga…” Mapait ang boses niya. “Pero hindi mo naman ginawa.”

“Because you suddenly left me. Alexza Mendez was suddenly nowhere to be found when I was ready to…” He paused and shook his head, as if trying to forget a memories they had.

“Forget it. Remembering the past is not helping actually. It would only bring us pain and regrets.”

She saw him nod his head as an agreement. Then he get up, leaving the white sheet in bed and walk towards the bathroom door showing his round sexy butt!

“Damn it,” she curse under her breath, watching him.

She slept with a naked man! And she did not know it until she saw him. What’s he doing, huh? Trying to seduce her? Hindi niya alam. Ang hirap-hirap talaga minsan spelling-in ng lalaking ito.

BLAKE WELCOMED her with a warm hug and kiss on the lips on the same bed. Drake tied her up again after she ate and took a bath. She kinda like it though, it’s weird, right? Maybe, she like it because she wanted to stay with them.

Gamit ang isang kamay ay inayos niya ang buhok ng anak.

“How’s school baby?”

“It was okay mommy, even you were not there but at least I know that you’re here…waiting for me. You can’t escape.”

Nakasimangot na tinignan niya ang belt na nakapalupot sa palapulsuhan niya. It won’t hurt her but it’s make her hand stiff.

“Do you think I can escape again if you’re daddy tied me like this?”

Matamis na nginitian siya ng anak. “Its okay mommy. We were just make sure that you will not leave us again.”

“You don’t need to do this to me though. How can I cook you breakfast, lunch and dinner if my situation is like this?”

“We will just order our foods from our hotel restaurant and they will deliver it here.”

Umusli ang nguso niya. “But I want to go with you in school.”

Blake shook his head. “I’m okay without you in school, mommy ko. You might be bored waiting for me and think of escaping.”

Sumakit bigla ang ulo niya. Wala bang tiwala sa kanya si Blake? Nahawa na sa ama.

“You don’t trust me…you don’t trust my words.”

“I just don’t like to experience being left by my mommy again…it hurts my heart and it hurts my daddy’s heart.”

Ang maliit na kamay nito ay humaplos sa pingi niya. Napapikit siya. His hand is so soft that his touch melt something on her. His innocent touch feels like something is kicking her heart. Magaan sa pakiramdam pero naghahalo ang kirot ng kung ano.

“How’s your wrist?”

Napamulat siya sa baritonong boses sa tabi niya. Imbes na sumagot siya sa tanong ni Drake ay umirap lang siya dito.

“I think it’s okay daddy. Wala pong kulay red sa wrist niya.” Si Blake na sinisipat at hinawakan ang palapulsuhan at ang belt. “Tell is if you’re hurting mommy, okay?”

“It hurts me…” reklamo niya kahit hindi naman masakit, nakakangawit lang.

“Daddy, ilipat po natin sa kabilang kamay niya ’yung belt.”

Napangiwi siya. Ano ba naman itong anak niya, akala pa naman niya ay maaawa sa kanya at papakawalan siya. Yun pala ililipat lang sa kabilang kamay niya.

“I wan to play with my baby…but how can I do that?” Nagpapaawang sabi niya. “He and his father tied me on bed. It makes mommy sad…”

Pinigil niya ang mapangiti nang gumuhit ang lungkot at pag-aalala sa mukha ng anak tapos ay nakikiusap na napatingin ito kay Drake.

“Daddy, can you untie my mommy?”

“Hmm,”

“We will play here in your room and we will lock the door.”

Alexza frown and Drake chuckled.

“Ask mommy if she wants to play here. She might want to play outside the house.”

“I want to play in your room.” Aniya kay Blake. “Let’s go?”

Umiling ang anak. “Dito nalang po sa room niyo ni daddy.”

“Why?” Her brows furrowed.

“I want here while daddy is watching us. You can easily escape from me but not with my daddy…”

Wala siyang naisagot. Natakot at nadala na yata talaga si Blake sa ginawa niyang pag-alis. Ang ama lang yata nito ang walang kadala-dala na kahit ilan beses siyang umalis, heto pa rin siya at malaya na nakakabalik sa buhay nito.

With her sad smile, she look at Drake who’s sitting beside her. Maybe she’s the one who’s selfish here, not him. He give everything even it’s impossible, even if it’s hard for him. Noon pa man, mapagbigay na si Drake lalo sa mga taong mahal nito, lalo sa kanya.

“You can play outside, son. I will watch you and mommy…” Drake said, he’s encouraging his son who lost his trust in her. “I will never let your mommy escape from us again. That’s a promise.”

Bakit parang mas nangibabaw ang banta sa tinig nito kesa sa pangako? He will never let her escape again? Why the hell it sounds so good? Hindi na ba talaga siya hahayaan ni Drake na umalis?

“Let’s go mommy. Let’s play outside.” Untag ni Blake.

Tumayo si Drake at lumapit sa kamay niyang nakatali. Bawat dampi ng daliri nito sa balat niya ay naghahatid pa rin talaga ng nakakakiliting sensasyon. Napapakagat nalang siya sa loob ng pisngi niya para magpigil.

“Thanks,” She mutter and caress her wrist.

“Pero mamayang gabi itatali ka ulit ni daddy sa bed niya ha?”

She grimace. “I won’t be sleeping here. Sa room mo nalang ako matutulog, anak.”

“No, you will be sleeping with daddy every night. I trust him that he would never let you escape. And I’m holding on with his promise to me, mommy.”

“Escaping…escaping… Hindi nga ako aalis eh.” She murmured annoyingly.

“May sinasabi ka, Alexza?” Drake smirk at her.

“I don’t need to sleep with you.”

“Why? It would be nice to feel my warm embrace and hot kisses in the cold night.”

Her face heated up.

“Di ba daddy gagawa na kayo ng baby?” Inosenteng tanong ni Blake.

Sa sobrang kainosentehan ay parang nangangamatis na ang buong mukha niya.

“Yes son. That’s why mommy’s sleeping with me.” Seryosong sagot ni Drake.

“Bilisan niyo po ang pag-gawa para lumaki na ang tiyan ni mommy at hindi na siya makakatakbo paalis sa’tin.”

Napahilamos siya sa mukha sa kahihiyan. Talagang sa harap niya pa nag-uusap ang dalawa!

“No worries, son. Daddy’s working on it. I’ll tie your mommy every night.”

“Drake!” Napasinghap siya.

“Galingan mo daddy ko!” Excited na tumalon-talon pa si Blake sa ibabaw ng kama. Halos i-cheer na ang ama.

“I will. Your mommy knows my performance well in making baby.” Drake talking to his son smugly.

“Shut up,” she muttered sharply at him.

Drake suddenly move closer until his lips reached her ear. She stilled.

“One more words from you and I will bite that little sweet lips of yours…even in front of my son.” He whispered dangerously.

Itinikom niya ang bibig. Sa unang beses ay kinabahan siya sa banta ni Drake. Ayaw niyang masugatan ang labi niya!

“Gusto ko po ng baby sister daddy ko.”

Nag request pa talaga ang batang ’to.

“Ask mommy what she likes.” Udyok ng hangal sa anak.

Ang galing talaga! Ramdam niyang pinaglalaruan na siya ni Drake! Kung sakyan niya rin kaya ang larong gusto nito?

“Mommy what do you like? Baby boy or baby girl?”

“I like baby girl.” Matamis na nginitian niya ang anak at lumipat ang ngiting iyon kay Drake. “Can we make a baby girl, love?” She’s almost smirking.

His jaw clenched. His eyes were burning with a familiar emotions. Lust and anger.

Drake clear his throat. His lips form a dangerous smile as he move closer again to her ear. Kinabahan ulit siya at nag-ingay ang puso niya.

“Yes, we can make a baby girl. Kahit ilan pa ang gusto mo…” She chew her lips nervously while listening to his sensual whisper. “Don’t push me to my limit, Alexza. I’m at the edge of ripping your clothes off, place my head between your thighs and tasting you again and again. Would you love it?” Alexza fake a cough. His raspy voice turns her on. His hot breath started to wet her down there. “Why don’t we make a baby girl tonight? I would love to tie your both hands in my bed, parted your legs wide and thrust inside until—”

“Let’s go Blake!” Natataranta siyang umalis sa kama para makalayo sa pang-aakit ni Drake.

He’s really good in dirty talks! Her body reacted so wildly that she could almost feel her wetness down there.

IT WAS A LONG day for Alexza. She and Blake played near the beach but did not bother to swim. Magtatakip-silim na nang magpasya silang iwanan ang buhanginan at bitbitin pabalik sa beach house ang mga shells na pinulot nila.

Drake was freely watching them from guard house. Kahit malayo ito ay dumidikit pa rin sa balat niya ang tila malalagkit na tingin. Kinakabahan na tuloy siyang bumalik sa silid nito tapos ay itatali na naman ang kamay niya. She can’t really escape from them. Bantay sarado siya sa mag-ama.

“Hi there, little champ!”

A gorgeous man suddenly greeted Blake and they fist bumped. They seem so close. His aura scream of so much air, but his tattoos on his arms tells nothing but trouble and danger.

“Hello Ninong pogi!”

Kailangan pang tumingala ng anak niya para makita ng husto ang lalaki. Ang namumulang balat ng lalaki ay tanda na isa itong dayo, sigurado ay nananatili sa resort ni Drake na tanaw nila kung nasaan sila.

“Hey,” Tinanguan siya ng lalaki pero kinunutan niya lang ito ng noo. “Glad to see you back, Alexza.”

Lalong nalukot ang maganda niyang mukha dahil kilala siya nito samantalang ngayon niya lang nakita ang lalaki.

“Do I know you?” She asked curiously.

The man gasped dramatically and grip his chest as if he’s hurting. He look at her in disbelief while his lips were little bit parted. Then his eyes darted on Drake’s beach house.

He suddenly get is phone on his pocket as if someone is calling him. Then he answer it and place it on his ear while looking at where Drake is.

“What? I’m not doing anything, Villafuente.” The man was frowning.

The caller is Drake? Nilingon niya kung nasaan ang binata, sa kanila ito nakatingin at ang cellphone ay nasa tenga rin.

DRAKE TRIED his best not to stood up and give his friend-Zyron a warning punch for talking to Alexza. Even before he doesn’t like when a man staring or even talking to his girl. He’s quite territorial especially when it comes to her.

He get his cellphone on his pocket and dialed Zyron number. Ilang segundo lang ay sumagot naman ang gago.

“What? I’m not doing anything, Villafuente.” Inunahan pa siya nitong magsalita.

“I don’t like your presence near my girl. Go back to the resort.”

“Threatened eh? Alam mo talagang mas gwapo ako sa’yo, ano?”

“Fuck you,” He curse fluently. “Get out of my sight Fuentes or I will throw you away.”

“The fuck, Man? I’m your fucking best friend. You fucking shouldn’t treat me that way.”

Hinilot niya ang sentido. “Can you fucking please stop saying bad words in front of my son? And just leave.”

Zyron just lifted his middle finger on him. Then go back on talking to Alexza. He’s patiently listening on him through cellphone call, baka kung anu-ano na naman ang sabihin at siraan pa siya patungkol sa mga babae niya noon.

“By the way Alexza, I

wanted

you to know that I am so wounded because you don’t remember this handsome face. Sa dami ng babaeng umiyak sa mukhang ’to, hindi ko matanggap na hindi mo ako matandaan. This face is all over in women’s social media accounts. Wala ka ba no’n?“

Patuloy si Zyron sa madramang pagkausap kay Alexza at siya naman ay napapakunot ang noo.

“I have a social media accounts. Artista ka ba? Gwapo ka naman pero hindi pa kita napapanood sa TV,” Alexza innocent voice and her words making him chuckle.

“Hindi po siya artista, mommy. He’s Ninong Zyron, daddy’s friend.” Blake spoke, looking up on the two. Oh, his innocent boy like his mom.

His friend place his cellphone on his ear again.

“Man, ano ang pinakain mo kay Alexza?” Seryosong tanong ni Zyron.

“Why would I tell you, brute?”

“Did she bump her head? She doesn’t remember me… come on,” frustrated at bitter na wika ng kaibigan. Hindi matanggap na hindi ito naaalala ni Alexza.

“Maybe she was just kidding you? My woman loves to play.”

“Don’t know, brute. See you tonight? Have some drinks? Let’s celebrate? Pa-canton ka naman. Bumalik na sa’yo yung mahal mo, eh…”

“Fuck you,” He curse sharply at him with American accent.

Pakiramdam ni Drake ay uminit ang mukha niya pababa sa batok niya. Really? That brute really needs to tell it in front of Alexza? It was so embarrassing! He seems like a teenage boy who caught having a crush with a girl. Damn it!

20 ~ Drunk

CHAPTER

TWENTY

HABANG naglalakad sila ni Blake pabalik sa beach house ay hindi na maipinta ang mukha ni Alexza. She was frowning at the man and how he treated her awhile ago as if they’re close to think that she doesn’t know him. What is his name again? Zyron? Even she tried hard to remember him, she can’t. As in wala!

Drake is staring at her since they get in the house. Tinitignan siya na para bang ang weird weird niya ng mga sandaling iyon.

“Wait for me here mommy okay? I’ll take a shower.” Paalam sa kanya ni Blake at nagmamadaling umakyat sa hagdan.

Lutang pa rin siya nang maupo sa sofa. She’s still thinking about the man she met awhile ago.

“What are you thinking?” Drake asked, looking intently at her, unsmiling. He’s standing next to where she’s sitting.

“Zyron?” She saw how his face darkened when she said that name. “K-kilala niya ako? Did you tell him about me?”

Ang mga makakapal na kilay ng binata ay unti-unti nang nagsasalubong. Ang labi ay nakaisang linya, tila may kinokontrol na kung ano. Mariin ang titig sa kanya, halos basahin ang kaguluhan sa isip niya.

“Look, if you don’t want to talk about him, it’s fine with me. I’m just confused.” Aniya ulit, ayaw niya itong galitin.

She knows Drake well that whenever they speak about other man aside from him, aside from her brother, he will get mad and jealous. Hanggang ngayon ba? Gano’n pa rin ito? Well, the way his face darkened, the answer is yes. He still doesn’t want them to talk about other man.

“I thought you were just playing a tricks with him,”

“Why would I do that? I don’t even know him.”

“You’re confusing me, Alexza.”

“I’m confused also.” She plays with her fingers. “M-Maybe you told him our story that’s why he knows me…”

“Even I don’t tell my friends about us, they will know.”

Drake lazily sat next to her. She move sideward a bit, avoiding their body contact.

“I did not even know that you have a friend aside from Kuya Dwaye?”

Napapantastikuhan na napatigalgal sa kanya si Drake. Bumuka ng kaunti ang mga labi pero wala naman lumabas na salita do’n.

Umusli ang nguso niya at inirapan ito ng matindi bago tumayo. Sa ilang taon na nawala siya, hindi na nakapagtataka na magkaro’n ng mga kaibigan si Drake. He’s not a friendly type of a man, but she believe that everyone can’t live without a friend.

“Where are you going? We are still talking, Alexza!”

“I want to rest my feet. Let’s talk some other time, Drake.” Iyon lang ang sinabi niya bago tuluyang pumanhik sa hagdan.

PAGKATAPOS nilang mag-dinner ay inaya niya si Blake sa silid nito para na rin makatakas siya kay Drake at sa pagtatali sa kanya sa kama. She would be sleeping with him again while her hand is tied up on his bed? That’s a big no to her. He might do something that she would love to, meaning to say, she’s just saving herself from heat.

“I want this mommy… read this for me.” Blake picked a book and handed on her.

They’re laying in bed already. She’s about to start reading when the door suddenly opened.

Drake was fresh from shower, wearing a v-neck top and faded ripped jeans. Sa itsura nito, siguradong aalis ito at ikinakatuwa ng damdamin niya iyon. Pakiramdam niya ay malaya siya ngayong gabi sa kamay ng binata.

“Daddy, saan ka po pupunta?” Nakatitig si Blake sa ama.

He sat at the edge of the bed.

“I’m going to meet my friends tonight. So, your mommy will be sleeping here.”

“Paano po kapag umalis na naman siya kapag nakatulog na ako?” Nag-aalala ang boses at mata ng anak.

“Aalis ka ba, Alexza?” Tanong ni Drake sa kanya, seryoso.

“Hindi. Dito lang ako.” Tinignan niya si Blake. “Pangako, hindi ako aalis, anak.” Itinaas niya pa ang isang kamay.

“Promise yan mommy ha?”

“I promise!” Siguradong sambit niya.

“Good, I have to go.” Drake stood up.

She eye him suspiciously. He will going to D’ Club to meet his friends? It means he will going to meet her brother and Zyron? Since he and Brooke were enemy? And then inside the Club is a lot of women who will flirt with them! And that Maisie!?

Kumulo bigla ang dugo niya nang maalala ang eksenang magkasama ang dalawa.

“She’s not there.” Drake said, as if he already read her mind.

Umismid siya at umirap. Pinipigilan niya ang sariling huwag magpakain sa galit pero parang ang hirap hirap, humuhulas talaga ang damdamin na iyon para dito at sa babae.

“How did you know that? She called you? She texted you?” She voice out bitterly.

“She didn’t.”

“Really, huh,”

Kahit na maang na pinapanood sila ni Blake ay hindi niya kayang pigilan ang pang-uuyam sa kausap.

“We will be in a VIP lounge. No girls allowed.” He explained. “It would not happen again. I’m avoiding her. I stopped communicating with her since then.”

Her one eyebrow shot up. “You don’t need to explain though. I don’t really care now.”

“I was just trying to give you a peace here. Stop thinking what I’m doing in Club…”

“Hindi ko iniisip,” kaila niya.

“…So you don’t need to ran away again thinking that I’m having fun while you were left here with my son.”

“Umalis ka na,” taboy niya.

“Bakit po galit ka na naman mommy ko? Ayaw mo bang umalis si daddy? Namimiss mo ba siya kaagad?”

“Hindi ako galit,” maldita na sagot niya. “Gusto ko ngang umalis ’yang daddy mo para hindi niya na ako itali. At hindi ko ’yan namimiss, ikaw lang ang namimiss ko Blake.”

She lazily lay down beside her son and leered at Drake who’s watching them. Bahagyang nakaangat ang mga kilay nito na halatang hindi naniniwala sa sinabi niya.

“I have to go now. Good night,” Drake crawl onto the bed and kiss his son’s forehead then his gaze drop down on her.

She greeted her teeth when he smirk playfully at him. What’s on his mind?!

“Good night kiss din po ni mommy, daddy.” Blake requested.

“Hmm, I don’t think your mommy would allow me to kiss her.”

“At isa pa hindi ka hahalik sa mga paasa, di ba? Kahit pa good night kiss ’yon.” Aniya, inarkuhan ito ng kilay. “Go ahead and have fun tonight.”

Drake keep smirking at her with playful small smile on his seductive lips. He’s really unbelievable and annoying!

Pinilit matulog ni Alexza sa tabi ni Blake kahit pa umiikot na sa isipan niya kung ano na ang ginagawa ni Drake sa Club! Totoo kayang silang makakaibigan lang ang magkasama o may babae rin? Its hard for her to trust him again when it comes to the women who’s around him and try to get near him.

“WHAT?! ARE YOU PREGNANT?! Alexza’s mother asks shockingly and angrily at her, while she was laying in hospital bed.

“Yes, mom,”

Ilan beses niya na rin sinagot ang ina at kinumpirma ngunit hindi pa rin sumi-sink-in sa utak nito ang balitang iyon.

She was rush in the hospital last night with her brother and Jessielyn after she fainted at the hotel lobby. On how she managed to ran before Maisie could see her, she can’t remember anymore.

Sa sobrang sakit yata na makita ang dalawa ay hindi niya na gusto pang alalahanin kung paano siya nakatakbo at nakalayo sa mga ito.

The memory of infidelity of Maisie and Drake on his suit was still lingering on her mind like an acid that burns her heart in a very painful way.

“Did that man know about your pregnancy, Alexza?! Ano ang sabi? Papanagutan niya ba? Handa na ba siyang matali sa’yo?”

“I did not tell him yet…” She took a hurtful sighed. “I don’t have plan to tell him though.”

“Bakit? Dahil alam mong hindi niya papanagutan ang batang ’yan?!”

Her mother massage her temple. She seem so stress now knowing that she’s pregnant. She’s around 52 but she looks younger than her age. Her aura screams in so much sophistication.

“I…I just don’t like him to know my pregnancy but once I give birth, I will let him know that this child is his.”

Marahan na hinimas niya ang ibabaw na impis na tiyan. Ngayon palang ay nakakaramdam na ng awa sa anak pero hindi dapat gano’n ang maramdaman niya! She will be a good mother with or without Drake! With or without his support! Damn him!

“No! Don’t you ever try tell him that that child is his! Look how irresponsible he is! I already warned you, Alexza, pero sadyang matigas ang ulo mo at lapit nang lapit pa rin sa lalaking ’yon kahit ayaw namin sa kanya!”

“Mom, please…stop. You are making me stress.” She grunted weakly.

Her mommy eyed her stomach then sighed and shook her head.

“I’m very disappointed, Alexza. Ano nalang ang sasabihin ng pamilya ni Tommy, huh?”

“Can you please stop it, mom? Hindi ako magpapakasal diyan kay Tommy! Why do you keep insisting it? Pinapaasa niyo lang ’yung tao!”

Tommy Herrera is the son of her parents business partner. Hindi niya man lang namalayan na pinagkasundo siya sa Tommy na iyon kahit na alam naman ng mga ito na kasintahan niya si Drake! Bakit ba kailangan makialam ng magulang niya sa buhay pag-ibig niya? Dinadagdagan lang ang problema niya!

“Magpapakasal ka sa kanya sa ayaw at sa gusto mo, Alexza! Forget that Villafuente and focus on Tommy instead! Ako na ang bahalang kumausap sa kanya tungkol diyan sa bata. I know he will understand and accept that kid as his.”

“No!” She shouted impatiently. “Don’t decide for me mommy! This is my child and I will do what I know is right as a mother. This child deserves to have a father and Drake deserve to know all about this! Even I’m hating him so much now, I still wanted him to know about our child!”

Her mother stilled with her sudden outburst. Her tears falling down her cheeks and she wipe it annoyingly.

“You hate that Villafuente? Why? Did he hurt you? Did he cheated on you? See? Eventually, you will realized that he’s not the one for you, Alexza. Don’t force yourself to someone who will only give tears in your eyes.”

Nanatili siyang tikom ang bibig at panay mahihinang hikbi lang ang maririnig sa kanya. Kailangan niya lang ilabas ang sama ng loob niya sa nangyayari bago pa may mangyaring hindi niya gusto.

“I’ll be back here tomorrow with Tommy. You are fully guarded outside so don’t try to escape. Bukas natin ipagpatuloy ang pag-uusap na ito. Get some rest. Ayoko ng patagalin pa ang kasal niyong dalawa.”

Her mother said before leaving the room without kissing her cheek or giving her at least a goodbye hug.

What happened really stress her and broke her. Mas inaalala niya pa ang sakit na nararamdaman niya kesa ang balitang ipapakasal siya ng ina sa lalaking hindi niya naman gusto.

She’s bothered with what were Maisie and Drake did without her around. She can’t believe that he can afford cheating on her that easy.

NABABASAG

na kagamitan sa buong kabahayan ang nagpaigtad kay Alexza at nagpagising nang may kaba sa dibdib. Her head suddenly ache because of that and she needed to close her eyes again to calm it. Blake is still sleeping beside her.

She carefully get up on the bed and went outside the room to

check the living room. The house is dim but she can still see Drake who’s messing around his house. Dali-dali na bumaba siya ng hagdan at mabilis na napigilan ito nang akmang ibabalibag ang lass center table.

“Stop it Drake!”

Yinakap niya ito sa likod at nahihirapan na inilayo sa kawawang lamesa. He’s so heavy and so drunk that his muscular built make her knees weak.

The living room are messy, the broken pieces of vases were all over the floor. Kung hindi siya mag-iingat ay tiyak na masusugatan ang paa niya.

“A-Alexza?” He called her name drunkly and turn around to face her. “W-Why are you still up?”

Lasing na lasing ito na halos napapapikit na at babagsak ng tuluyan ang katawan kung hindi niya naaagapan alalayan.

“Bakit ka ba nagpakalasing ng ganyan?”

She wrap his one arm on her shoulder and guide him to the kitchen. She turn on the lights using her free hand and made him sit on the chair.

Nakayukyok ang mukha nito sa ibabaw ng lamesa, pinipilit na ibukas ang mga mata para makita siya kahit pa gustung-gusto ng pumikit ng mga iyon.

Nagbasa siya ng white towel para ipunas sa mukha nito at nang mahimasmasan kahit papano. She’s leaning so close on him, freeing herself to stare at his handsome face on his drunken state.

“S-sana hindi ka nalang u-umalis…kaya n-naman kitang ipaglaban.” Nakapikit na ito habang lasing na nagsasalita. “I will f-fucking fight for you…if you c-can’t fight for me. Why did you have to left m-me…huh,”

“I already tell you my reasons. You’re drunk, you forget it.” Sagot niya naman dito habang patuloy sa marahan na pagpunas sa mukha nito.

“I will surely fight for you with all my heart, with all my might and with all my life if you could only give me a chance to do it for us.”

Nag-init ang magkabilang sulok ng kanyang mga mata at nagsisimula ng tumibok ang puso niya sa isang mahapding paraan.

“T-Tapos na ’yon, Drake. Sinusubukan ko nang kalimutan ’yung ginawa ko noon. Sana gano’n ka rin…”

“I don’t know what did I do for you to left me like that. Did I hurt you? Did I cheated on you? Am I a bad boyfriend? What was wrong with me?”

Umiling-iling siya at naglaglagan ang mga pigil na luha. Mabilis na tumalikod siya at nagpunta sa lababo. Binasang muli ang towel habang nahihirapan na paampatin ang luha sa mga mata.

“It was my decision to left you, Drake. N-nothing was wrong with you. You’ve been a good boyfriend to me.” She explained when she get back on him.

“I…I wish I could do something so you do not need to suffer from all the pain, alone. I wish I was there when you lose him…I wish I was there mourning with you for losing our c-child. I wish I was there.”

She bit her lower lip, avoiding to make a sounds of sobbing. She brush his hair with her fingers smoothly.

“I wish that, too. I wish you were there to be my strength. I wish you were there when I needed you the most. But I was so scared to be with you, Drake. I was scared to be happy being with you again and eventually my parents would do something that could hurt us. I’d rather love you from afar than living my life without you forever.”

Isang mapait na hikbi ang tuluyang kumawala sa labi niya at kailangan niya ulit na bumalik sa lababo para hindi na nito malaman pa ang pag-iyak niya.

Kinabukasan, sigurado naman na wala na itong maaalala tungkol sa pag-uusap nilang ito.

“Should I be happy that you still love me despite of all of these?” Drake let out a short laugh huskily.

Muli siyang bumalik sa binata. Lasing at malamlam ang mga matang nakatitig ito sa kanya. There’s a glint on his eyes that shows that he’s regretting on something.

“Y-You should be happy…” she whispered.

“Am I that really deserving for that kind of love from you? When all I do was hating you without knowing nothing but the fact that you left me hanging.”

“I…I don’t know if you still deserve the love I’m giving you…I don’t even know if I deserve to get back with your life again?”

With his weak hand, he reach for her face and caress it gently.

“I could not ask for more but you to be back in my life again…” He whispered huskily. “I could not ask for more but to live my life again with the woman I wanted to share it with…” He swallow hard and stare at her longingly. He’s so passionate saying every words that it is hard for her not to look on his beautiful eyes. “I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve caused you and for all the pain you’ve been through without me beside you.” His thumb touch her soft lips. “Let me heal you… let me fix you.”

And once again, her tears roll down her cheeks. The emotions on his every words makes her heart gone wild.

Sinakop niya ang panga nito at siniil ng matagal na halik sa labi habang lumuluha.

21 ~ Kiss

CHAPTER TWENTY ONE

IT WAS a heart to heart talk with Drake since she get back. She did not expect that kind of talk with him especially that he was so drunk. He was so passionate in every words he said. She never see him like that before, only that night.

His every words was replying to her mind again and again that it kept her awake from the whole night. And when she woke up from the next day, his friends were on his house, talking, drinking some beers and food tripping.

They stopped from moving around when they spotted her walking down the stairs.

Drake stood up from where he was sitting and walk towards her. Alexza’s heart beat crazily with his sudden movement.

“I did not expect that they will visit me. I can throw them away.” Drake said smoothly.

Panandalian muna siyang napatitig sa binata na ang bait-bait ng pakikitungo sa kanya. Naaalala ba nito ang pag-uusap nila nung gabi?

“A-Ayos lang.”

Tinignan niyang muli ang dalawang lalaki sa sala. One is Zyron and the other one is not familiar to her. Then his brother came out from kitchen area, holding a bucket of beer.

Her brother eyes darted on her and give him a warm smile.

“Come here, Alexza. Join us.” Dwaye titled his head sideward then put down the beer on the center glass table of the living room.

Nakapagtataka na narito sa bahay ng binata ang kapatid niya? Akala niya ba may hindi pagkakaintindihan ang dalawa?

“I’ll let you meet them.” Drake held her hand and guided her to his friends.

Napakurap-kurap pa siya dahil sa ginawa nito pero mabilis din nakabawi nang tumayo ang dalawang lalaki mula sa inuupuan.

“Hi, Clane Altaraza here.”

That deep baritone from a man who has an aura of power and authority introduce himself, trying to give her a friendly smile even she can sense that he was just forcing himself to smile at her.

Alexza shook Clane hand. “Alexza,” And smile shyly. “Y-Your last name sounds familiar.”

Zyron who’s standing beside Clane suddenly cough. Then the men patiently waited for her to speak again, but she did not. She keep her mouth shut.

“Because they own the famous Villa Altaraza in Visayas.” Zyron explain proudly after a while. “And Clane’s currently the CEO of Altaraza’s Hotels in Philippines.”

“Thanks brute for introducing me,” Clane patted Zyron’s shoulder then he sat down shaking his head a bit.

“How about me? Do you still remember me?” Agresibong tanong ni Zyron. “Ako ’yung nakausap mo nung kahapon. Ako si Zyron.” Dagdag pa nito na parang magdadrama kung hindi niya ito maaalala.

Alexza let out a short amusing laugh.

“Gago! Anong akala mo sa kapatid ko? Ulyanin?” Sikmat ni Dwaye at hinila paupo si Zyron.

“I still remember you, Zyron.” Aniya at tipid na ngumiti.

Umupo siya sa sofa habang si Drake ay nakaupo sa arm rest ng inuupuan niya at tahimik lang.

“Sa gwapo kong ’to, dapat lang Alexza. Hirap na hirap ang mga ex girlfriends ko na kalimutan ang mukhang ’to, tapos ikaw?” Nag-drama ulit si Zyron.

“I’m not your ex naman.”

Drake chuckle beside her and place his arm above the sofa. Halos maakbayan na siya. He’s really in mood today.

“Zyron is not an actor by the way, Alexza.” Dwaye speak smoothly and sip on his beer. “He’s a black sheep on their family. The pain in the ass of Senator Fuentes.”

Tumango siya. “Hindi naman siya mukhang anak ng senador.”

Zyron gasped and what she said making the three laugh. Nakitawa na rin siya. It’s nice to be with these men once in a while. Medyo nakakapanibago but it feels like she knew them for a long time.

“Thanks for introducing me to your sister, Dwaye. I appreciate it.” Zyron leered at her brother, sarcasm on his voice.

They continue talking and mostly is about business. She then realized that Drake, Clane and Dwaye were very much like talking about biz when Zyron is just frowning at them. He’s not a businessman type. His aura is more likely a kind of man who’s silently dangerous. No one would ever try to mess with him or else you will be in hell. Nakakakilabot kung iisipin.

“Nagagwapuhan ka sakin?” Zyron smirk at her when he caught her staring at him.

Ngumuso siya at umirap. Bago pa man siya makapagsalita ay may tumawag na sa kanyang cute na cute na bata na papasok sa pinto.

“Mommy ko!” Blake run towards her, wearing his school uniform.

Hindi na siya tumayo at hinintay nalang I tong makalapit sa kanya at kumandong. Excited na excited lagi na makita sila ni Drake.

“Daddy ko!” Maharot nitong inabot ang ama at hinalikan sa pisngi bago siya hinalikan sa labi.

Blake aggressively greeted the men who’s with them. Ang mga lalaki ay natutuwang pinapanood ang bata sa kandungan niya.

“How was school little champ? Maganda ba ang bago mong teacher?” Si Zyron ang nagtanong.

“It was okay Ninong pogi. My new teacher is pretty but my mommy is prettier.”

“Pass,” Zyron shook his head and drink on his beer.

“Let’s change your clothes?” Aya niya kay Blake.

“I can change alone, mommy. I’m a big brother na.”

“Big brother kana little champ?” Natutuwang tanong ulit ni Zyron. “Ang bilis naman ng daddy mo!”

Nag-init ang pisngi niya at talagang nahiya sa mga kaharap nila. Parang gusto niyang sikmatin si Drake sa tabi niya. Kung anu-ano ang sinasabi sa bata.

“Daddy tied up mommy on his bed and they make baby—”

“Anak,” Nag-aalangan na saway niya kay Blake, kulang nalang ay takpan ang bibig.

The men laugh, they were enjoying listening at her son. They suddenly lifted their bottles and they cheers as if celebrating for something.

Gusto niya nang umalis do’n para takasan ang kahihiyan. Bakit naman kasi na-open pa ang topic na iyon!

“Nagkakamali kayo…” naisatinig niya pero huli na iyon dahil tinignan lang siya ng mga lalaki.

Sa inis ay siniko niya si Drake na napaigtad at nagbaba ng tingin sa kanya, ngunit suplada lang siyang nag-iwas ng tingin.

“What was that for?” Drake asked softly, he could almost hear the teasing on his voice.

“Kung anu-ano ang sinasabi mo sa anak mo!”

“Our son just telling the truth.” Palusot nito. “Huwag ka nang mahiya sa mga gagong ’yan mas malala pa nga ginagawa ng mga ’yan sa mga babae nila.” Hinalikan siya ni Drake sa gilid ng ulo niya. “Besides, we have a very acceptable reason why we tied you in my bed.”

“Palusot pa si gago,” Zyron murmured.

“What’s gago po?” Maang na tanong ni Blake.

“It means handsome little champ.” Zyron answered making all of them grimace.

“You’re gago Ninong Zyron,” Blake said innocently and the living room suddenly filled with bark of laughters.

Kahit siya ay hindi naiwasan ang matawa pero saglit lang iyon at napigilan niya rin ang sarili. Her innocent cute son made them laugh just like that.

Pinaharap niya sa kanya si Blake at sinakop ang maliit na mukha.

“That’s a bad word. Don’t say it again, okay?” Marahan na paliwanag niya.

“But Ninong pogi said it means handsome .”

“He was just kidding you, baby. Basta, huwag mo na ulit babanggitin ang salitang ’yon.” Masunurin na tumango ang anak. “Promise to me,”

“I promise mommy ko,” Nagtaas pa ito ng kamay at malikot ulit na hinarap ang bisita nila.

“I’m sorry Ninong pogi for the bad word.”

“Nah, it was my fault. I deserve that bad word, little champ.” Tumayo pa talaga ang lalaki para lang maka-fist bump si Blake.

“Let’s go to your room baby. Let’s change your clothes then eat lunch.” Aniya at kinarga na si Blake. “Excuse us gentlemen.”

Iniwan nila ang magkakaibigan at inasikaso si Blake. Ilang minuto lang ay bumaba ulit sila pero sa kusina sila pareho dumeretso. Pinapakain niya si Blake nang pumasok si Drake.

“Sorry, hindi ko na kayo inaya.”

“It’s okay. Kumain na kami.” Sabi ni Drake at pumwesto sa island counter. He’s watching them. “Aalis na rin naman ’yang mga ’yan mamaya.”

Wala siyang ibang masabi kaya pinagpatuloy niya nalang ang pagpapakain sa anak. Simula nang mag-usap sila ni Drake nang kagabi ay ngayon nalang ulit sila nagkaharap. She slept in Blake’s room after she changed his clothes last night and let him slept on his room.

Baka naman hindi na nito maalala ang pinagsasabi nito dahil sa sobrang kalasingan? Pero may iba talaga sa mga tingin sa kanya ni Drake, hindi na siya nito tinitignan ng masama. Wala na ang galit sa mga mata.

“Ahm, you can go back there. Ako na ang bahala kay Blake,” hindi naman siya tunog itinataboy ito?

“I don’t like to drink anymore. I’d rather stay here, watching you and my son.”

“Sabagay, lasing na lasing ka kagabi.”

“And my head is still throbbing because of hang over.”

Do’n na siya nag-angat ng tingin dito. Sinalubong siya ng malamlam na mga mata, parang lasing pa rin pero may iba pa talagang emosyon do’n. Hindi niya pa mawari ng tuluyan.

“You want to take some pill for headache? I’ll get you one.”

He shook his head carefully. “I’m good, mawawala rin ’to mamaya.”

“Are you sure?”

“Pretty sure, love.” He said in a husk.

Para siyang nabilaukan at nainom ang juice ni Blake nang marinig ang endearment na iyon. It sounds so normal for him saying that word. Kaytagal bago niya ulit narinig mula dito ang salitang iyon na binanggit nito ng may damdamin.

“O-Okay.”

Bakit ba nawalan siya bigla ng sasabihin? Naninibago kasi talaga siya kay Drake, maganda na rin na ganito ang pakikitungo nito sa kanya kesa naman palagi silang mag-aangilan. They are better this way.

“I’m full mommy,” Blake caress his stomach.

She shrug her shoulder and give him a glass of juice. Nang maubos nitong maubos iyon ay bumaba na sa upuan saka siya tinitigan.

“What now?”

“I want to play with daddy’s friends. Can I?”

She pinch his nose and nod. “Sure baby. Go on and play with them.”

Blake smile widely and run towards the living room. She turn around holding a plate and glass, but she stop from walking to sink when she saw Drake looking at her.

“You’re washing dishes again.” Puna nito sa kanya. “Just leave it there love. Ate Nita will go here later to clean the house and do all that.”

She just chewed her lips and leered. Then she walk closer to sink, even if he is just standing near there.

“Ilang piraso lang naman ’to. Madali lang ’tong hugasan.”

“You might need a hand spa and other stuffs that women’s does in a salon. We can go later, you want it?”

It’s a good idea but she is not in the mood to go outside. She just want to stay at home all day with him and Blake. Just at home. She’s kinda feel lazy.

“Maybe next time?” Nilingon niya ito.

“Hmm, ikaw ang bahala. Ayokong napapagod ka.”

“H-Hindi naman ako napapagod.”

Itinuon niya ang mga mata sa hinuhugasan. Parang bigla ay hindi niya kayang makipagtitigan sa binata. Kinakabahan na naman siya.

“I don’t want you to get stress, too.”

Gumalaw si Drake at marahan na niyakap siya sa tagiliran. Pakiramdam niya ’yung puso niya ay lalabas sa dibdib niya. Why does he needs to be so close to her? Bakit ba nambibigla ang mga kilos nito? Hindi siya handa.

“I’m…I’m avoiding it too.”

Inamoy nito ang buhok niya. Ang mga braso ay nakapalupot sa bewang niya, sa ibaba ng dibdib niya. His hard chest touches her arm.

“Why don’t we go on a vacation? Next month?”

“Pwede rin,”

“Out of the Country? Out of town? What do you like?” He keeps on smelling her hair and brushes his lips on it.

“Out of town? I don’t like to travel for a long hours.”

“I know a place. You would like it there.”

“How about Blake?”

Ang panginginig ng kamay niya ay naitatago ng tubig. He’s too close! Hindi rin nakakatulong ang paghaplos haplos ng isang palad nito sa tiyan niya.

“Our son will go with us. Wherever we are.”

Nang tumango siya ay mas naramdaman niya ang labi nito sa ulo niya. She lost of words again. He can really make her speechless.

“Lovers, we need another bucket of beer.” Zyron voice echoed around the kitchen.

“Suit yourself, brute. Get all the beers in fridge then get out.” Drake said and continue talking to her. “Saan na nga tayo?”

“Summer vacation? Where is it?”

“In Villa Altaraza.”

“Kila Clane?”

“Exactly,”

“Ganyan ba talaga kayo kapag nag-uusap? Kailangan parang unggoy si Drake na nakakunyapit sa’yo, Alexza?” Puna ni Zyron habang kumukuha ng beer sa ref.

“Shut the fuck up, brute.” Drake mutter under his breath.

“H-Hindi naman. Ngayon lang naman…” Sagot niya rin, pinupunasan na ang mga hinugasan niya. Ang binata ay hindi parin umaalis sa gilid niya.

“Sabagay, naiintindihan ko ’yang kaibigan ko. Kung hindi ka bumalik baka nasa Mental na ’yan ngayon…”

“Get out, Fuentes. Ang dami mong sinasabi.”

“Just stating the fact, bud.”

Kinuha ni Zyron ang bucket ng beer at sumaludo sa kanila bago tuluyang umalis.

“I’m done. Baka gusto mo na akong bitawan?”

“Ayan ang hindi ko gagawin…ang bitawan ka.”

Kung matatawa o kikiligin siya ay hindi niya na malaman. Talagang naipasok pa nito ang hugot na ’yon?

“I mean, just let go of me for awhile because I need to go with Blake. Ikaw din, harapin mo ’yung mga kaibigan mo.”

“I will throw them away. Sa Club nalang nila ipagpatuloy ang pag-iinom….para masolo na kita.” Ang huling mga kataga ay ibinulong nito sa tenga niya.

“You’re bad,”

“I can be bad just to be with you…” he whispered again then kiss the side of her head.

“L-Let’s go to them,” iniligaw niya ang usapan.

Kumalas si Drake sa pagkakayakap sa kanya at kinuha ang kamay niya bago sila sabay na umalis sa kusina.

Naabutan nila si Blake na ibinibida ang mga laruan sa mga lalaki na nakakatuwang panoorin dahil tutok din ang mga ito sa anak nila kahit pa nag-iinuman.

“What color do you like? I will buy you another one when I get back here.” Dwaye asked Blake, referring to the remote control car toys who doesn’t working.

“I like blue Tito-Ninong.”

“Blue, then.” Tumango naman ang kapatid niya at tumingin sa gawi nila.

Tapos bumaba ang tingin sa magkadaupang palad nila ni Drake. Then he focus on listening to Blake again.

“Okay na pala kayo ni Kuya?” Tanong niya kay Drake, hindi pa tuluyang nakakalapit sa mga ito.

“Yes, we already talked.”

“Walang sakitan?”

“Hindi mawawala ’yan…”

She gasped. “Ano? Nagsuntukan kayo?”

“It doesn’t matter, love. Ikaw lang ang mahalaga sa’kin…”

“Si Blake pa…”

“You and my son.” Drake kiss the back of her hand before they walk closer to their visitors.

Nakakapanibago man ang mga ikinikilos ni Drake ay hindi na niya nagawang magreklamo pa. She better enjoy and treasure every little thing he said and shows her.

ALEXZA DECIDED to sleep in Blake’s room and Drake can’t do something about it. He obey whatever she wants to do. He really did change since that night.

“But, can I sleep with you and my son?” He asked, hoping for her to say yes.

She’s getting her pillows on their bedroom to bring in her son’s room. She already wearing her pajama and he just get out from shower. She really like his shower gel and aftershaves smell.

“You can sleep with us but promise me one thing.” Siya na ngayon ang may mga kondisyones.

“Anything for you. What is it?”

“B-behave ka…”

Drake chuckle sexily. He’s drying his hair with white towel. He’s topless and only wearing his dark boxer shorts. She can’t really look at him, his body is distracting her.

“I would not do something you won’t like—”

“Drake!” Inis na pigil niya.

She really know what would happen when he said that kind of words. At dahil isa siyang marupok na babae pagdating dito, hindi niya magagawang tanggihan ang mga haplos at halik nito.

“Just kidding. I’ll just hug and kiss you. That’s it.”

She suspiciously glare at him. Telling him that she wasn’t contented with what he said.

“Seryoso ako, Drake. Kapag may ginawa ka, aalis talaga ako sa tabi mo at lilipat sa ibang kwarto.”

Hinakbang nito ang pagitan nila at masuyong dinama ang labi niya gamit ang hinlalaki.

“Can I kiss you now? Para hindi na kita hahalikan mamaya…” paos na sabi nito.

Marahan siyang tumango at hinintay ang unti-unting paglapit ng labi nito sa kanya.

Her eyes close when she felt his lips on hers. He kiss her passionately. She move her lips and answer his kiss with same emotions. Then he snake his arm on her waist and pulled her closer to him.

Napatingkayad siya at inilapag ang mga palad sa dibdib nito habang masuyong gumagalaw ang mga labi nila. His kiss is very different from the kiss they’d shared since she get back.

Mas matamis at mas magaan ang sensasyon ng mga halik nito kumpara sa mga nauna. The longing is still there but he make sure that the passion on his kiss were there. The feelings were there, she can feel it.

“Ummm,” she moan softly when he inserted his tongue on her mouth. “Hmmm…” another soft moan escape her lips when she taste his tongue on hers.

Mabagal at damang-dama niya ang pag-galaw ng dila nila sa isa’t-isa. Naglalabanan at nag-e-espadahan sa marahan pero nakakasabik na paraan. The way he kiss her  is almost melt her and turn her knees into jelly. Sa sobrang sarap sa damdamin, gusto niyang huwag nang matapos ang halikan na iyon.

“Mommy? Daddy?”

That cute voice from outside make them both stop unwillingly.

Tumigil sila sa paghahalikan pero halos nagdidikit pa rin ang mga labi. Their lips were swollen and little bit parted, they both gasping from air in a very sensual way.

“Can I open the door? Hindi po ba kayo nag-gagawa ng baby?” Boses ulit iyon ni Blake na pareho nilang ikinatawa ng bahagya. “Daddy! Mommy!”

Marahan na itinulak niya sa dibdib si Drake.

“Open the door for your son.”

He groaned and give her another kiss before he let go on her and turn around to open the door.

“What took you so long, daddy?” Blake complain, with furrowed eyebrows. He’s already wearing his pajamas.

“Because we’re about to make a baby and you disturb us.”

“Drake!” Nag-e-eskandalo na sita niya. “That’s not true, baby. Come here.” Aya niya kay Blake na kaagad naman lumapit sa kanya. “I was about to go to your room, we just d-did something. Sorry I made you wait.”

“What did you do mommy?”

“J-Just a good night kiss, baby.”

“I would like to have that kind of good night kiss every night then.” Drake spoke, with playful smirk on his lips.

Pinanlakihan niya lang ito ng mata at kinarga na si Blake na halatang inaantok na.

“Let’s go to your room and sleep.”

Naglakad siya palabas sa pintuan at sinundan naman siya ni Drake na dala ang unan nila. Desidido talaga na tumabi sa kanya.

Like their usual sleeping position, she’s in between Drake and Blake. The two is so clingy that the moment she lay her back on the bed, their arms automatically round around her.

She kiss Blake on the head and close her eyes. Then she felt Drake’s soft lips kiss the side of her lips.

“Good night, love.” He whispered and hug her tightly.

“Night,” she whispered back with a small smile on her lips.

Even his sweet gestures confuse her, she could not help herself but to feel happy ’bout it. Maybe, their heart to heart talk last night is one of the reason why he became so close to her again.

She’s praying silently that all his sweet gestures would continue for a long time…until both of them finally forgive each other’s mistakes…until their wounded hearts be healed.

22 ~ Child

CHAPTER TWENTY TWO

ALEXZA open her eyes when she heard a commotion near her. She was in deep and long sleep. With her blurry vision, she saw her parents talking to a man. It’s Tommy. Sa tindig palang, alam niyang ang lalaki nga ’yon.

“She’s awake,” her mother announced.

She weakly look at them. Hindi talaga magpapatinag ang mommy niya. Ipipilit talaga ang plano nitong ipakasal siya sa lalaking ni wala siyang maramdaman kahit katiting man lang.

“Hi, I hope we didn’t disturb your sleep.” Tommy said in apologetic tone.

She ignore the man and eye her mother.

“Mom, not now, please. I don’t want to be rude, but this is not helping me. I don’t want to marry him.” She needs to be straight forward. She needs to end this conversation as soon as possible. She look at Tommy. “I’m sorry but I can’t marry you. Maghanap ka nalang ng ibang babaeng papakasalan. Huwag na ako. I will become a mommy after a few months and I having a child with another man will only make your parents mad at you. I’m not the one for you, Tommy.”

“Alexza! Magtigil ka nga riyan!” Her mother voice boomed. “I already tell him that you’re pregnant and he’s willing to be a father of your baby! Ano pa ba ang hinahanap mo? Si Tommy lang ang kayang tanggapin ’yang anak mo na kahit ang tunay na ama ay hindi kayang panindigan ang sariling anak!”

“Don’t judge him. You don’t know nothing, mom. Drake didn’t know anything about my pregnancy and I chose not to tell him. Don’t put the blame on him.”

Kahit labis siyang nasasaktan dahil sa ginawa ni Drake na pagtataksil sa kanya ay nagagawa niya parin itong ipagtanggol sa ina. Hindi niya gagamitin ang galit at sakit ng damdamin niya sa maling paraan. Kung kailangan ipagtanggol niya si Drake ay gagawin at gagawin niya!

Though he hurt her so bad but she love him so much that she will still defend him from those people who would judge him, particularly her parents.

“See? You’re too blind for loving him that even he hurt you, you still defending that man! Wake up, Alexza! That Villafuente is a type of a man who don’t think about settling down. Pinapaasa ka lang niyan katulad ng mga babaeng nauna sa’yo!”

“Stop it mom! I don’t wanna hear your rant about him. Kahit ano pa ang sabihin niyo tungkol sa kanya, hindi na magbabago ang isip ko. Hindi ako papakasal sa ibang lalaki!” Nauubusan ng pasensya na gigil niyang sambit. “I am so tired being manipulated by you and dad. I have my own life, mom. Let me decide for myself even just for this matter.”

“I think, I should go?” Tommy still looks apologetic. “This is not the right time to talk about marriage. She’s still recovering from heartbreak. We need to consider it.”

Kahit papano ay nabawasan ang bigat sa dibdib niya sa narinig. Hindi niya rin naman inaasahan na ipipilit sa kanya ni Tommy ang pagpapakasal dahil alam niyang wala rin naman itong nararamdaman sa kanya. Their marriage is a pure business after all.

Her mother held Tommy’s hand and give him a warm smile.

“You’re really a good man, Tommy. I wish my daughter see and realize it.”

“Thanks, Tita. I appreciate. Let’s give her more time to decide. I can wait for it.”

“You don’t need to give me time. My answer will always be No.”

Tommy just give her an understanding smile and she starting to hate it! She felt like he’s just being kind in front of her parents, he has devil inside him, he’s just hiding it from them.

“I’ll visit again some other time.”

Humalik ang lalaki sa pisngi ng ina at nakipagkamay sa daddy niyang kanina pa tahimik. Nang makaalis si Tommy ay muli siyang tinira ng mommy niya.

“You were rude, Alexza! Ang bait-bait nung tao bakit kailangan mong bastusin?” Nahilot nito ang sintido at nanghihina na napaupo sa tabi ng daddy niya. “Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko diyan sa anak mo.”

Her father eye her with disappointment on his face.

“You’re getting worse, Alexza. I’m not happy with it.” He said coldly. “And that child, do you think we are happy with that? I’m very disappointed with you.” He shook his head weakly. “I can’t accept that child.”

Gumapang ang kaba at ang pag-aalala sa kanya. Kung anu-ano ng negatibong scenario ang naglalaro sa utak niya at mas iyon ang ikinatatakot niya.

“I have let you meddling with my life even if I wasn’t happy most of the time with all your decisions for me, but I will never let you meddling with my child’s life, mom, dad. I don’t want to ruin our relationship, but please, don’t think about doing bad things to my child.”

“Ano’ng akala mo sa amin ng daddy mo? Mamamatay tao?!”

“I didn’t say that. But I knew my parents well.”

“Stop with that, Alexza. Stop accusing us!” Lumakas ang galit na boses ng ama. “Maaaring malupit kami sa mga kalaban sa negosyo pero hindi namin kayang pumatay ng bata lalo at apo namin! I don’t like the child but I don’t even think of killing him! I would eventually accept him!”

Halos mamula na sa galit ang daddy niya. Nagtatagis ang mga ngipin at nagagalit ang mga ugat sa leeg at sintido. Napalunok siya at unti-unti ng nasisindak.

“Calm down Sweetheart,” alo ng mommy niya sa dadddy niya habang hinahaplos ang likod.

“I’m sorry,” she whispered, enough for them to hear her. “I was worried and scared with my child’s life. I’ve been manipulated my whole life and I don’t want my child to experience it. Pakawalan niyo nalang ako, mommy. Hayaan niyo nalang ako sa buhay ko…” She almost in tears, she is just stopping it. “Stop manipulating me and force me to marry that man. I will never do that.”

“Marry him and you’re free from us. Simple.” Her mother said simply. “Both party would benefit in that wedding, Alexza. It would help our business to grow more when you marry Tommy. Than of pushing yourself to Villafuente, marry a heir of Herrera’s Mining Company, instead. That’s it!”

Bigo na umiling siya. Her mother is the one who was pushing her to marry Tommy while her father keep his mouth shut. What’s on his mind?

“Stop forcing Alexza to marry that man.” Her brother suddenly came in and sat at the edge of hospital bed. “I’m tired on hearing all of these marriage thing. Arrange marriage will never last, mom.”

“At anong alam mo sa pagpapakasal, Dwaye? You don’t even introduce woman to us. You’re like your friend.” Matabang na sabi ng mommy niya.

“Just because marriage is not my thing, it doesn’t mean that I don’t know anything ’bout it. Alexza is pregnant and marrying that man wasn’t a good idea.”

“Tanggap ni Tommy ’yung bata, Dwaye!”

“We don’t need Tommy to be a father because the real father is there and willing if only Alexza let me tell all of these to Drake.” Malalim na bumuntong hininga ang kapatid at malungkot siyang nginitian. “I really don’t know what happened between you and Drake, but I wish you have the guts to talk to him and tell him.”

Paulit-ulit na malungkot siyang umiling. Buong-buo na ang desisyon.

“Please Kuya, promise to me that you will never say a thing to Drake.”

“Do you really think that hiding all of these from him would make everything fine?”

“Just promise me, Kuya!”

Dwaye frustratedly brush his hair with his fingers then nod his head annoyingly, surrendering.

“Okay! Okay!” Bagot na sabi nito. “You will ruin our friendship, Alexza.”

“Thanks Kuya.” Mahinang sambit niya.

“You will be discharged tomorrow morning and you will staying in our house, Alexza. Understand?” Her mother eyed her sharply.

Tahimik na tumango siya.

“Good, were leaving now. We have meeting to attend.”

Sinukbit nito ang Hermes bag sa braso at taas noong lumabas ng silid. Her father stood up, he stare to both of them before leaving the room.

Alexza let out a loud breath when the door closed.

“I don’t know what to do, Kuya. Ayokong umuwi sa bahay. They might lock me in my room.” Nag-aalala siya ng husto.

“Why did you say that?”

“Can’t you see? Our parents are mad at me especially now that I’m pregnant! Tommy visited here and told me that he was willing to be a father of my baby! I can’t believe! Mom’s doing everything for me to marry that guy!”

Dwaye sighed. “Relax. I’ll see what I can do.”

Sinipa-sipa niya ang kumot niya. Lukot na lukot na ang magandang mukha. Bawal pa naman siya ma-stress at eto siya nagpapaka-stress. Kawawa naman ang baby niya!

“Ayokong umuwi sa bahay Kuya. Magpunta nalang kaya ako sa ibang bansa? Para lang makatakas kila mommy at sa kasal na ’yan!”

“Pwede ba? Stop stressing yourself! Aren’t you afraid of miscarriage? Hindi matibay ang kapit ng bata, narinig mo naman ang sinabi ng doctor.” Napipikon na saway nito sa kanya.

“Then help me escape from them!” Naiiyak na naman siya.

“I will help you, okay?” Dwaye voice softened. “Huwag ka nang umiyak diyan. Get ready, we will leave tonight.”

“P-Paano ang mga tauhan sa labas?”

“Don’t mind them. Get rest and eat a lot.”

Napakain siya ng wala sa oras habang ang isipan ay tumatakbo sa pagtakas nilang magkapatid mamayang gabi. She will do everything to escape from that marriage. Ayaw niyang magpakasal kay Tommy. No way! Handa niyang suwayin ang magulang niya para sa sarili niyang kalayaan!

Nang umalis si Dwaye kinahapunan ay mas nadagdagan ang pag-aalala ni Alexza. Isinisiksik niya lang sa isip niya na darating ang kapatid niya pagsapit ng hating-gabi para itakas siya.

She lay down and place her hand above her stomach.

“Hi baby, kapit ka lang ha? Hindi kita papabayaan. Iiwan natin ang mga taong mananakit sa atin.” Kausap niya sa anghel sa sinapupunan. “I hope you don’t hate your Lola and Lolo even they wanted me to marry other man. Hindi naman magpapakasal si mommy sa iba, sa daddy mo lang k-kahit na s-sinaktan niya ako…k-kahit na nag-cheat siya sa akin. I’m willing to forgive him for that because I love your daddy very much.”

Isang butil ng luha ang tumulo sa pisngi niya at hinayaan niya lang iyon. Nagpatuloy siya sa pakikipag-usap sa anak na animo nakikinig sa kanya.

“I’m sorry baby if I’m being selfish to you and to your father for not letting him know about you. I feel scared, I feel like he’s not really ready for you. I don’t know anak, naguguluhan ang mommy. Kung iisipin ko pa ng iisipin ang mga problema ko, pareho tayong mahihirapan, lalo ka na. Ayokong mawala ka sa akin, anak… please give me more strength. Sayo nalang ako kumukuha ng lakas para harapin lahat ng ’to… sorry ha? Mommy’s weak.”

Humugot siya ng malalim na buntong hininga at natatawang pinunasan ang mga luha sa pisngi. She keep on caressing her stomach.

“Promise baby, huling iyak ko na ’to. Magiging malakas na malakas na ako para sa’yo. Hindi ka pa lumalabas pero mahal na mahal na kita kaagad… kapit ka lang diyan ha? Lalaban tayo. Hindi ko hahayaan na maikasal ako sa iba at magkaroon ka ng ibang daddy. Si daddy Drake lang ang daddy mo. Okay? Always remember his name, so you won’t forget him. He will love you once he get the chance to know you. I’m sure of that. Basta, kapit ka lang ha? Aalagaan at mamahalin kita…ng sobra, anak ko…”

NAPABALIKWAS ng bangon si Alexza, sapo-sapo ang dibdib niya dahil sa pagdaan ng kirot do’n na hindi niya alam kung saan ba nang-galing.

Her relationship with Drake is doing good and smooth, so far. Hindi na sila nagtatagisan ng masamang tingin at palagi siyang sinusunod ng binata. He’s back with his old self when they were in a relationship before. Her Drake is back and she like it very much.

Kaya…bakit naman siya makakaramdam ng sakit sa dibdib kung okay na sila ni Drake?

“A-Anak ko…” she whispered softly.

She close her eyes and try to remember her dreams…but she can’t remember it anymore. As in wala. Bigo niyang iminulat ang mga mata.

“Hey, you fell asleep here. Hindi na kita ginising.”

It was Drake then he sat beside her. She’s sitting on the sun lounger. It’s weekend so they decided to spend it on beach.

“I had a dream, Drake…”

“Really? What is it love?” Interesante siya nitong pinakatitigan.

Ngumuso siya at itinuon nalang ang atensyon sa malawak na asul na karagatan. The sunlight starting to burn her skin.

“I don’t remember,”

“It’s okay. Gano’n naman ang mga panaginip.” He sounds like he really doesn’t mind it.

“It feels so real…” naguguluhan pa rin siya. “Its about o-our child…I woke up calling him…”

Masuyo na dinala siya ni Drake sa mga bisig nito. Paunti-unti ay nailalabas niya na ang mga saloobin tungkol sa namatay nilang anak. Mas mainam sa pakiramdam iyon, may karamay na siya sa pagkawala ng anak nila.

“Did you always dream about our child?”

“M-Minsan lang… pero nitong mga nakalipas na araw, mas madalas ko na siyang napapanaginipan? Tapos hindi ko na maaalala pag-gising ko.”

“Why don’t we visit him? Where’s he? You didn’t tell me yet about that. I was waiting for you to tell me but I think you always forgot it.”

Humapdi ang puso niya nang may maalala. His son’s 5th death anniversary is next week and maybe that’s the reason why he always on her dreams! He wanted her to visit him?

“I…I don’t usually visit him, only when it’s his death anniversary. It was very hard for me to accept it. I’m still hurting for his lost.” Her voice almost broke.

Drake kiss the top of her head and embrace her. His warm embrace comfort her, helping her to feel at ease.

“I’m hurting, too. But I am here to give you strength and to comfort you. Hindi ka na mag-isa ngayon, katuwang mo na ako sa lahat.”

Marahan siyang tumango at sumiksik lalo kay Drake na para bang sa mga bisig nito siya kukuha ng lakas. Napakasarap pakinggan ng mga salitang iyon lalo at ramdam niya tototohanin ng binata ang lahat ng sinabi.

“We could visit him next week…”

“Why not tomorrow? Where’s he again? In Sleeping Angels Cemetery?”

Alexza shook her head and her tears starting to come out. She’s doesn’t like to talk about her child and his lost, because it’s still give pain on her but she needs to tell it to Drake.

“H-Hindi namin nakuha ang k-katawan niya…” pumait ng husto ang laman ng dibdib niya.

Naramdaman niyang natigilan si Drake. Kalaunan ay marahan siya nitong hinawakan sa magkabilang balikat at bahagyang pinaglayo ang katawan nila para magtama ang kanilang mga mata.

“W-what? Where’s it?” Puno ng kaguluhan ang mukha nito. “Where’s our child?”

Napayuko siya. Nawalan ng lakas ng loob na salubungin ang lungkot sa mga mata nito sa tiyak na sumasalamin sa kanya.

“N-nasunog s-siya…k-kasama siyang nalaglag sa…s-sa…”

Hindi niya matapos-tapos ang sinasabi dahil parang may punyal na tumatarak sa puso niya. Naglandas ang mga luha ng pangungulila at pighati sa kanyang pisngi. Kay hirap pigilan. Kay hirap kalimutan ng lahat.

Nakasiksik sa dibdib niya ang masasakit na ala-ala na iyon nang malaman niyang wala na ang anak niya. Nakakabaliw. Halos mawala siya sa sarili noon.

Muli ay kinabig siya ni Drake papunta sa bisig nito at niyakap. Ang labi ay nasa ibabaw ng ulo niya, tila nagpipigil ng kung ano. Ang tibok ng puso nito ay damang-dama niya rin.

“Stop… if telling to me about him hurt you so much, just stop. Seeing you crying and knowing that we lost our child was breaking me without even fighting.” His voice is almost breaking.

“I want y-you to know Drake…you deserve to know e-everything.”

“I could ask Dwaye about it, love. Just stop. I understand you… hindi ako magagalit sa’yo kahit hindi mo sabihin. Hinding-hindi na.”

“D-Did you talk to my brother about me? A-about what happened? K-Kaya ba ang bait-bait mo na s-sakin? Naaawa ka b-ba?”

Umalon ang matigas na dibdib nito tanda nang paghugot ng malalim na hangin. Binabawasan ang bigat sa loob.

“Mas lamang na nagsisisi ako, Alexza. I regret everything that happened to you without me beside you. How could I pity a woman like you? You’re stronger than I expected. You endured all the pain without me…” he sincerely whisper with the hint of admiration. “I just couldn’t believe that all of these happened to you. It was shocking because I know nothing. I’m sorry that I hated you…” he then kiss her head. “I’ll make it up to you.”

She rested her face on his chest, feeling his warm body against hers. The sounds of the waves nearby, relaxing her. The bright sunlight were slowly fading away.

Ang kulay kahel na kalangitan ay mas lalong pinaganda ang kinang ng tubig dagat. Binalot ang kapaligiran ng kapayapaan.

Naghahalo ang pait at saya sa paraan nang pagtibok ng puso niya. Halos tila pareho at sabay ang pagtibok ng puso nila ng lalaking yakap siya.

Sakit at pait na tibok dahil minsan sa buhay nila ay sinubok ang tatag nila, lalong-lalo na siya.

Saya, dahil ramdam niya ’yung pag-asa na babalik pa sila sa dati, may babalikan pa siya sa kabila ng lahat. ’Yung lalaking tinanaw niya lang sa malayo nang ilang taon, yakap-yakap na siya ngayon.

23 ~ Baby Bracelet

CHAPTER TWENTY THREE

KUNG SANA ay nabubuhay pa ang anak nila, siguradong mas triple ang saya. Blake would have an instant sibling, she could almost imagine her sons playing around the beach house. She sighed at the thought of it and feel sorry for the life of his son.

It would not happen at all. Not unless she and Drake would have another baby. It’s possible. Yes it is. She love the idea but there’s a part of her that she’s scared…so scared that she might lose another child again. Losing your own child was heartbreaking and it almost killed her. Nakakatakot na. Ayaw niya nang mangyari pa ulit ’yon.

Humampas ang marahan na hangin at sinabayan iyon ng pamilyar na masayang pagbungisngis mula sa anak habang papalapit sa kanila. Blake’s laughter makes her smile.

Sa kabila ng natuyong luha sa pisngi at pighati sa dibdib, nakakatuwang isipin na napapangiti pa rin siya…ng isang bata.

“Mommy! Daddy! Guess what I’ve got!”

Nanatili ang yakap sa kanya ni Drake nang pareho nilang nilingon ang anak na puro buhangin ang suot na damit pangligo. Ang dalawang kamay ay nakatago sa likod.

“What is it, son?” Drake ask curiously.

“Guess what daddy? Hmm?” Blake smile playfully.

“A shell? Toys? Coins? What?”

“Nah,” Blake smile proudly at them. His eyes were twinkle in happiness. “I think I do not need any gift for my birthday anymore.”

“Your birthday?” Wala sa sariling tanong niya, malambing na nakahilig sa dibdib ni Drake.

She didn’t ask them when is his birthday. Why she forgot to ask about it? It’s her son’s birthday, she should know that!

“Opo mommy,” Tapos ay iniharap sa kanila ni Blake ang maliit na kamay na nakakuyom, may itinatago sa palad. “I already have my birthday gift daddy.”

“Let me see,” Udyok ni Drake.

Pareho silang nag-aabang kung ano ba ang nasa palad ng anak. He looks so genuinely happy hiding the thing on his small palms.

“My baby bracelet!” Blake announced happily and opened his palm.

Alexza’s heart beat wildly at the sight of a small white gold bracelet on his soft sandy palms. She did not expect the effect on her seeing that thing.

May mga buhangin pa iyon pero nangibabaw pa rin ang tingkad ng kulay. The size is only fit to a new born baby. She could almost read the name engraved on its small rectangular pendant.

Baby Blake.

That was the name engraved on it.

“W-Wow,” she tried hard to be sounds excited despite of the wild beat of her heart. “That’s so beautiful. Who gave you that, baby?”

Tumingin muna si Blake sa ama, parang may gustong sabihin bago muling ibinalik ang tingin sa kanya. Blake was about to answer her when Drake spoke.

“Blake had that bracelet when I saw him. He lost it somewhere and…”

So, his real mother gave him that name? Sounds like Drake. Whoever the woman is, she’s sure that he loved Drake, because you won’t name your child that almost same as the father if you don’t love him enough. Right?

But, where is she now? why she left Blake? That thoughts confused her so much.

“…and I found it again daddy! I’m very happy!”

Tumalon-talon ang anak nila sa sobrang kasiyahan. It’s obvious that the bracelet is so important to him. He looks really happy like what he said.

“W-Was it from his mother?” She whisper, even that the answer is obvious.

Drake kiss the side of her head then he nod.

“I guessed, yes. It was on his right wrist that day. Locked and secured.”

Kung bakit ay parang gusto niyang umiyak sa mga sandaling iyon. Ang saya-saya ni Blake, nakakaiyak nang panoorin. Parang sasabog ang puso niya sa hindi maipaliwanag na ligaw na damdamin.

Nawalan siya ng anak. Ano kaya ang naramdaman ng ina ni Blake nang iwan nito ang bata kay Drake?

Habang iniisip niya iyon ay patuloy sa pagtibok ang puso niya sa mahapdi na paraan. Why her heart needs to beat like that? She’s very affected.

Kinailangan niya pang alisin ang bara sa lalamunan niya bago nakapagsalita ulit.

“He’s really happy… he really treasure that bracelet.”

“Yes, he was crying for how many days when he lost it. It’s very important for us. That’s the only thing his mother left for him.”

“I’m…I am happy for him, he found it again.” Her lips form a small smile while watching Blake’s studying every part of his baby bracelet. “We should throw a party on his birthday, Drake. When is it again?”

“Next week, love. Let’s ask him what he wanted for his birthday… Blake come here.” Tawag nito sa anak.

“N-Next week?” Napaalis siya sa pagkakayakap kay Drake.

Nagtataka siya nitong binalingan.

“Yes,”

“When exactly is his date of birth?”

“April 18, mommy ko.” Blake answered and smile widely. “It’s my 5th birthday po! Yey! Malapit na akong mag five! I’m really big na!”

Tumalon-talon ang anak habang siya ay parang nanghihina. Nahihilo at gusto ng bumigay ang katawan.

“What’s wrong?” Drake asked worriedly, watching her as if she’s soon to faint.

“It…it’s the 5th death anniversary of our s-son.” She whispered weakly, almost breaking down. “W-Why it needs to be like that…”

“I-I don’t know love.” Kahit si Drake ay halatang nagulat at naguluhan.

“P-Paano mong nalaman ’yon? B-Bakit pareho sila?”

Naghahalo na ang kaguluhan sa kanya at pag-asa…pag-asang sana si Blake nalang ang anak niya pero malabo talaga lalo alam niya ang nangyari.

“T-That was the day I found him outside my gate. And when I brought him to doctor to check him, she said that he’s one day old or two. May mga bahid pa siya ng kaunting dugo ng araw na ’yon. And he still had a clip on his navel to protect it.”

Drake eyes drifted on their son who’s busy staring at his baby bracelet. Blake’s laying on the sun lounger next to them.

“He was so soft and very fragile that it was so hard for me to carry him, I was afraid that I might broke him. And when he started crying as if he was waiting for me to carry him…my heart melted unexpectedly. My heart beat so loud to my surprise.” Drake clear his drying throat. . “That’s when I realized that he’s really mine. Anak ko siya…sa akin siya.”

Alexza’s head was spinning while listening to him. She could almost seen a blurred unfamiliar scenarios that flashing her mind, but it was very hard for her to make the image cleared. Kapag pinipilit niya, mas lalong hindi niya naaalala. She better keep it that way and let those scenarios comes naturally and unexpectedly.

She shook her head and keep watching her son. Her son. Sana nga sa kanya nalang nanggaling si Blake pero imposible iyon. Ang isang bagay na pinangarap niya ay imposibleng magkatotoo.

“It’s just a coincidence.” She whisper, sadness on her voice. “Nawala ang anak natin pero may dumating na bago…h-hindi nga lang ako ang mommy niya.” Lumungkot lalo ang boses niya. “You cheated on me…” Pagak siyang natawa, may pait na napailing siya. “I thought I’m irreplaceable, Drake? Why bedding other woman that easy?”

Hindi nakapagsalita ang binata. Kinuha niya ang chance na iyon para magpatuloy sa pagsasalita.

“Siguro ilang araw palang akong hindi nagpapakita sayo, naghanap ka kaagad ng iba? Kaya…nakabuo kaagad kayo? Kasabay ko? O baka habang tayo pa…may iba ka na.” Paratang niya.

Unti-unting kinakain ng pait ang sistema niya. Bakit hindi niya kaagad iyon naisip nung una palang? Bakit hindi niya binilang ang taon at buwan simula nang mawala siya at sa pagbalik niya, may anak na si Drake? Kasing edad pa ng anak nila! Bakit hindi niya iyon naisip kaagad?!

“I did not cheat on you…I don’t even remember that I cheat on you and I am sure I did not.” He said factly. “I’m actually hoping that day that he’s our child…na iniwan mo siya sa akin. It’s true. I’m praying that he’s from you. Na sa tuwing iniisip ko na anak natin siya, mas lalo ko siyang minamahal…mas lalo akong nagpapakatatay sa kanya kasi iyon ang pangarap nating dalawa di ba? Yung bubuo tayo ng pamilya, mamahalin at aalagaan natin ang mga magiging anak natin…”

Kumurap siya at tumingala upang pigilan na naman ang pagtagas ng luha. Hindi niya alam na ganoon ang iniisip nito…na natatandaan pa nito ang mga pangarap nila habang siya ay halos makalimutan na. Na parang may mga araw na ang mga masasayang bagay lang sa pagitan nila ni Drake ang tanging naaalala niya…para bang ang gusto lang ng isip niyang alalahanin ay ’yung mga panahon na nakangiti siya kasama ang lalaking mahal niya.

“But it was all in the past now…” he continue. “Reminiscing our past memories would only give us pain… those happy memories with you, those promises and dreams, we did not able to make it. Let’s leave it there. Those memories…will remain as a memories from us and it should stay like that.”

“Forgiveness is the only key to make another happy memories…” she whisper softly, playing with her fingers. “Forgive me…for everything I’ve done, Drake.”

Slowly, she felt his arms wrap around her again, telling her that she doesn’t need to ask for forgiveness.

“I never ask for that… I only wanted from the very beginning was to know your reasons why you left me and now that I already knew it, I’m okay with it, Alexza. I do not need anything from you at all but you to stay with me and never leave again.”

Ang puso niya ay walang tigil ang pagpintig sa magkakaiba at halo-halong emosyon. Pait, pagdurusa, saya at pag-asa.

There’s nothing she could ask for but to finally have peace on her heart and mind. With all the pain and sadness she had been through, she doesn’t know if she could live her life again like she used before.

Is there any chance that she could be happy again? Real happiness is very hard to find.

Naramdaman niya na iyon noon sa piling ni Drake, pero parang ang hirap-hirap nang maramdaman ulit ang tunay na kasiyahan gayong alam niyang kailanman ay hindi na siya makukumpleto ulit.

Pakiramdam niya ’yung ibang parte ng puso niya at ang kasiyahan do’n ay dinala ng anak niya…na kung hindi iyon maibabalik ay habang buhay niyang hindi mararamdaman ang totoong kasiyahan sa puso niya kahit pa kasama niya na si Drake at si…Blake.

Her eyes unwillingly stare at the kid…his eyes were now closed, letting himself to fall asleep while he’s holding his baby bracelet securely. While staring at Blake, she felt nothing but contentment.

Na kung bakit kapag tinitignan niya ang bata ay para bang natutunaw lahat ng damdamin na nakatago sa dibdib niya.

Maybe that’s the number one reason why she love Blake, he has this effect on her that every time she stare and talk to him, it feels like he was erasing every pain inside her…he was healing her…he was making her feel at ease…he was giving her another chance to be happy again despite of all that happened on her.

Blake is her angel in disguise to help her live her life again with a real happiness on it.

“I love your son so much…” she whispered absentmindedly.

“ Our son.“ Drake corrected her.

“Sana siya nalang ang anak natin…” puno ng pag-aasam ang boses niya habang maluluha-luhang pinagmamasdan ang natutulog na si Blake. “Pwede bang siya nalang talaga? Pwede ba ’yon?” Talagang naiiyak siya sa tindi ng pag-aasam niya. Nakakabaliw na! Parang sasabog na naman ang damdamin niya tungkol sa bagay na ’yon. “Bakit pakiramdam ko siya ang anak natin, Drake! Sabihin mo sa akin na mali ang lahat ng ’to! Na hindi ako nababaliw! Sabihin mo! Please! Tell me that he’s not our child! Please! Sabihin mo sa akin na wala na ang anak natin! Para hindi ako nagkakaganito sa tuwing tinitignan ko si Blake…please…sabihin mo sa akin na h-hindi siya ang anak natin…”

Nanghihina na nagmamakaawa siya kay Drake habang umiiyak. Inilabas niya ang damdamin para sa bagay na ’yon. Siguro kaya siya nagkakaganito dahil nakikita niya kay Blake ang anak niya…siguro nga.

“Blake’s our child.” Drake whisper gently. “You may not be his biological mother but I wanted you to claim him as yours. Gusto kong ikaw ang kilalanin niyang ina hanggang sa lumaki siya. He’s our son, Alexza. He is ours.” He brush her hair with his fingers. “I don’t care what other people would say, fuck them all! I want you to be my son’s mother and that’s all.”

All she can do was nod on it. She wanted to be Blake’s mother so bad even before. Isn’t that obvious? She’s so desperate to be one because she love the kid very much like her own child.

“I can still remember the first time I saw him in school….” she reminisced. “Ang lakas-lakas ng tibok ng puso ko, Drake. He made me cry just by listening to him and his laughs. It feels like he melted everything inside me…” she’s sobbing and wiping her tears. “Unang kita ko palang sa kanya para bang mahal na mahal ko na siya…t-tapos nalaman ko pang ikaw ang daddy niya. It gives me hope, even I know to myself that’s so impossible for him to be my son…but the hopes never leaves me, it’s still here, nasa puso ko pa rin…bakit ganito ang nangyayari sa’tin Drake…? Bakit kailangan ganito pa? Hindi ba pwedeng masaya nalang tayo ulit? Hindi ba pwedeng mawala na ’yung sakit?”

Gulung-gulo na ang puso’t-isip niya sa lahat nang nangyari at nangyayari. Sa dami ng sakit, nakapagtatakang hindi pa siya sumusuko. Gano’n na nga ba talaga siya kalakas? O sadyang may mga tao lang na nadiyan para suportahan siya. Kasi, kung wala ang kapatid niya, si Brooke, si Jessielyn at ngayon si Drake, baka magising nalang siya isang araw sa loob ng mental hospital.

“We will survive to all of these, love. Nandito na ako, kasama mo na ako sa lahat ng ’to, okay?” Drake kiss her forehead, comforting her. “You will recover and move on one day, I’ll help you. Blake would help you, too. Just let us be with you…aalagaan ka namin.”

“Anak natin siya, Drake…bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya. Hindi dapat ganito!” Ipinipilit niya pa rin ang bugso ng damdamin na itinago niya simula nung makita si Blake. “Akala ko magbabago pa pero hindi! Habang nakakasama ko siya mas lumalala. Mas lalo kong nararamdaman na akin talaga siya…nakakatakot, Drake. I feel like I’m going crazy thinking about he’s our son.”

“We can have a DNA test if you want?”

Mabilis siyang umiling. “No! The result would hurt me so much. Huwag nalang, Drake. I’d rather think about that’s he’s mine than someone would slap me the fact that he wasn’t.”

Marahan siyang umalis sa yakap ni Drake at nilapitan ang natutulog na si Blake. Ang kapaligiran ay unti-unti nang dumidilim at lumalamig na rin ang hampas ng hangin.

She sat at the space beside Blake and caress his soft hair.

“Anak ko…” bulong niya at nag-umpisa na namang tumibok ang puso niya. Napapikit siya at malalim na napabuntong hininga. “Uh, why do you have to make my heart beat like this? Wala ka naman ginagawa pero bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko…” bigong sabi niya, maiyak-iyak. “You make mommy so confuse and crazy, do you know that?”

“He didn’t know yet, love.” Drake answer and sat at the edge of sun lounger. They’re both watching their son. “Do you know that he really like you ever since?” He then asked her.

Her eyes drifted to Drake quickly. “Really?”

Drake lips form a small smile while looking at Blake, then nod his head.

“I never saw him being excited going to school. But on your second day in school, he went inside my room and wake me up, telling me that he wanted to go to school to see you. Para kang bidang babae sa isang kwento at hangang-hanga siya sayo.”

“That’s when the day you guys invited me for dinner?”

“Yes. That was his idea. I was mad at you that time, pero sobrang kulit niya sa pagpilit na imbitahan ka kinagabihan. I can’t say no to him.” Drake look at her and smile. “Blake’s very fond at you, Alexza.” He look down on his son again. “Minsan nga pakiramdam ko, mas mahal ka niya kesa sa akin.” He chuckle at that. “But that’s childish. I know my son love me as he loves you…”

Patuloy siya sa paghaplos ng buhok ni Blake. Unti-unti ay kumakalma ang damdamin niya. Pumapayapa.

“Anak ko…” bulong niya ulit. “Mommy loves you very much.”

Slowly, Blake hands move, his close palms went open carefully and the baby bracelet showed up dramatically. A blurred memories suddenly popped up her mind while looking at the white gold baby bracelet closely…she close her eyes tightly and the images suddenly faded away.

“Love? You okay?” Drake soft voice making her open her eyes.

Alexza gulp and blink. “Baby bracelet…”

“Yes, why?”

“It looks familiar to me, Drake. I feel like I saw it somewhere before I just can’t remember when or where. The blurred image of a baby bracelet was in my mind…awhile ago.”

24 ~ Letting Go

A / N: NO UPDATE on Saturday & Sunday. I’m out of town. I will try to update on Monday. Happy reading! 😉

CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR

ALL THAT ALEXZA wanted that day is to lay in bed, doing nothing but to eat. If this mood is because of thinking how they would celebrate the fifth birthday of Blake or how they would mourn for their son’s fifth death anniversary at the same time, she doesn’t have an idea.

Or maybe there’s something else why she was feeling lazy all of a sudden.

She’s just contented laying on Drake’s bed, smelling his scent on the pillows while the window is open to feel the air and to hear the waves.

She and Drake always talk about their lives when we weren’t together. Natanto nila na ang daming taon pala ang nasayang nila noon at ngayon ay pinupunan nila ang mga iyon.

They’re getting stronger and they’re starting to build a new relationship with Blake on it. All in all, they’re fine being with each other. Mas palagi lang silang sabik sa isa’t-isa ngayon kahit na palagi naman silang magkasama at magkayakap.

Suddenly, the door wide open and Drake came in, holding some paper bags.

“I can’t find that sweet and spicy dilis you were talking about, love.” He sat beside her and give her a kiss on the lips. “I’ve been looking for it in and outside the Mall, pero wala talaga.”

Inirapan niya ito. “Magluto ka na lang niyon kung hindi ka nakabili.”

“I will. I bought dilis and other ingredients for it.”

“Sarapan mo. Yung kasing sarap nung nakain ko nung nakaraang araw. Dapat gano’n na gano’n ’yung lasa.”

Nakita niyang napapangiwi si Drake at napakamot pa sa batok.

When they went to Church last Sunday, while she was waiting for them inside the car after mass while he and Blake was still buying ice cream, she saw an old woman selling sweet and spicy dilis and other kind of snacks.

Nang pagkita niya palang sa dilis na pula ay talagang naglaway kaagad siya. Napabili siya ng wala sa oras. At ngayon ay hinahanap-hanap niya ang pagkain na ’yon! May kung ano yata ang dilis na ’yon.

“Sasarapan ko ang luto para sa’yo. What else do you want to eat?”

Inayos niya ang higa sa kama. “The sweet and spicy dilis only.”

“Okay, I’ll cook now and bring it here.”

“Can you tell Blake to come here?”

“Sure love,”

Muli ay binigyan siya nito ng mabilis na halik sa labi bago lumabas ng silid. Maya-maya lang ay bumukas ulit ang pinto at iniluwa niyon si Blake. Patakbo itong sumampa sa kama.

“Mommy are you sick?”

“No baby,” she wide her arm a little for a hug. Blake move closer and let her hug him. “Why did you say that?”

“Because you’ve been laying in bed since morning.”

She chuckle softly and pinch the tip of his cute nose. He’s playing with his car toys in the air.

“Mommy feel lazy today. I’m not sick.”

“Don’t be sick on my birthday, okay?”

For a moment she stilled and think about it. Bakit ba kailangan sabay ang kaarawan nito at kamatayan ng anak niya? Ang hirap-hirap maging masaya sa araw na sobrang malungkot siya.

“Ano ba ang gusto mo sa birthday mo?”

“I wanted all of us to be happy po.” He sway his car toys in the air. “I wanted to spend my birthday with you and daddy only. Pwede po ba ’yon?”

“Oo naman. We would spend your birthday with me and your dad. Where do you want to spend it?”

“Ahm, I don’t know yet mommy. What do you think?”

Naglabas siya ng marahan na hangin mula sa dibdib.

“Actually, I need to go to one of the unforgettable place in your birthday.” Pagkasabi niya ay napabangon si Blake at tumitig sa kanya. May pangamba sa mga mata.

“I thought we would spend my birthday together? Aalis ka po sa birthday ko?” His voice became sad.

“I would leave early in the morning and be back as soon as I can, for your birthday.”

“Is that really important mommy?”

She give him a warm smile and cares his small face.

“That day is so important to me, baby.”

She study every bit of his face. From his innocent brown eyes, cute nose, thin lips and divided small chin, all of it. No wonder that he’s Drake’s son. Blake’s a mini version of him, the only difference is he looks at her with pure love from a child to his mother.

“Important than my birthday?” He almost whisper the words before he look down.

Using her forefinger, she place it under his chin and lifted gently a little to meet his eyes again.

“Your birthday is important to me, too. Okay? It’s both important to me.”

He nod, as if he finally understand her.

“Can I come with you there mommy?”

Alexza stilled again for a moment. She didn’t expect him to say that.

“A-Anak—”

“Kami po ni daddy? Pwede po kaming sumama?”

Now, she’s speechless again. How can she decide for it? Blake might feel sad seeing her crying. Ayaw niyang ipakita dito na mahina siya. At sa araw na iyon nang pag-alala sa nawalang anak niya, alam niya sa sarili na tumungtong palang siya sa lugar na iyon ay bubuhos kaagad ang luha niya. Alam niyang hindi niya mapipigilan ang emosyon niya.

Kaya nga hanggat maaari ay ayaw niyang dumating ang araw na iyon kasi sisisihin niya na naman ang sa sarili niya dahil sa nangyari. Sa wari niya, siya talaga ang may kasalanan, ayaw niya lang aminin ng tuluyan kay Drake kasi natatakot siyang sisihin siya nito.

Even after the investigation and they found out that it’s really an accident and no one to blame with, and yes she’s still blaming herself for losing her own son. She can’t move on. She can’t accept what happened. She’s still mourning for it. She’s still blaming herself.

“P-Pwede naman na hindi ka na sumama anak ko, kaya na iyon ni mommy.”

“Si daddy po? Hindi rin siya pwedeng sumama?”

“Saan sasama?” Drake came in, holding a tray.

Naamoy niya kaagad ang pamilyar na amoy ng dilis! Napaupo siya at sinulyapan ang pagkain na inilapag nito sa side table.

“Please give me that,”

Takam na takam na itinuro niya ang sweet and spicy dilis na masunog-sunog pa pero wala na siyang pakialam pa do’n.

“Here, hope you would like it.”

Inabot sa kanya ni Drake ang lalagyan at sinamahan sila sa pag-upo sa kama.

“Ang sarap!” Bulalas niya.

“I’m glad you like it.” He focus on his son who’s watching her. “Ano ang pinag-uusapan niyo ni mommy?”

“Aalis daw siya sa birthday ko daddy pero babalik po siya kaagad.”

“Where’s she going?”

She gave Drake a knowing glance, telling him about their son’s death anniversary. He got it and focus to Blake again.

“I don’t know where daddy,”

“I also don’t know where is it, son. Your Mommy didn’t tell me yet.”

“Let’s talk about Blake’s birthday.” She change their topic while eating.

“I told mommy to celebrate my birthday on that important place she was telling me. Can we celebrate my birthday there, mommy?”

Napawi nang tuluyan ang ngiti niya pati ang pag-nguya niya ay natigil. Walang salita ang gustong lumabas sa bibig niya. Mabuti na lang ay nadiyan si Drake para saluhin siya sa mga hindi inaasahan na tanong ni Blake.

“I don’t think it’s a good idea son. That place is not the right place to celebrate your birthday.”

“Huwag nalang po natin i-celebrate ang birthday ko daddy. Sama nalang po tayo kay mommy.” Suhestiyon pa ng anak kaya nagkatinginan sila ni Drake. “Wish ko po sa birthday ko sama-sama po tayong tatlo.”

“Anak,” napabuntong hininga siya pagkatapos. “Ang hirap i-explain. I don’t know if you would understand the situation, you’re still our baby, I don’t think you would understand if we tell you.”

“Tell me what is it mommy and I’ll try to understand po.”

Blake attentively watch her and wait for her to speak again. Her lips pout a little when her gaze drifted at the man beside her, telling him that she can’t explain the situation.

“Can I tell him?” Tanong ni Drake, naninimbang ang tingin sa kanya.

Tango lang ang isinagot niya at nagpatuloy sa pagkain ng dilis. In fairness kahit sunog ay masarap pa rin iyon sa panlasa niya.

“Ano po ’yon daddy ko?” Halata ang pagkainteresado ng anak nila. “Makikinig po ako. Promise.” He even lifted his right small hand as a sign of swearing.

Drake stare at his son carefully before he speak.

“We want you to know that you have a baby brother—”

“Wow!” Blake exclaim and to her surprise he lifted her blouse and place his ear on her stomach as if listening to something inside.

Her eyes widened when she realized what her son’s is thinking about.

“Blake, is not like what you think—”

“May baby brother na sa loob ng tiyan ni mommy!”

Muntik na siyang mabilaukan at nasapo ang leeg niya. Maagap na inabutan siya ni Drake ng baso ng tubig. She drink while Blake’s still on her stomach.

Napangiwi siya nang ibalik ang baso kay Drake at ito naman ay pinipigil ang mapangisi. Ah! Ano ba ang iniisip ng lalaking ito? Na may baby talaga sa tiyan niya?

“Ako ang Kuya mo… ako si Kuya Blake…” lalo siyang napangiwi ng kinausap pa ni Blake ang tiyan niya. “Kailan ka lalabas? Marami akong toys, I will give it to you baby brother.”

“In a few months Blake, wait for it.” Drake said.

Nilingon nito ang ama. “Maraming-maraming tulog pa daddy bago siya lumabas?”

“Yes, maraming-maraming tulog pa.”

“Naririnig niya na po ba ako?”

Drake let out a sexy amusing laugh. “Not yet son. So, get back here and let’s continue talking.”

“Gano’n po ba…”

Tinignan pa ni Blake ang tiyan niya bago inayos ulit ang damit niya. Muli itong bumalik sa pwesto at mabait na binigyan ulit ng pansin ang ama. Habang siya ay wala sa sariling napahawak sa ibabaw ng tiyan niya.

“Yes you have a baby brother and he’s still in Mommy’s stomach,” Drake continued making her gasped. What the hell he’s talking about?!

“Okay po daddy,” mabait na tumango-tango si Blake. “What else po?”

“You have another baby brother who’s already in heaven.” Deretso na sabi ni Drake na hindi na binigyan pang makapagsalita ang anak dahil inunahan na nito kaagad. “His death anniversary is same with your birthday, that’s why we can’t celebrate your birthday in the place where he is… but don’t worry anak, we will still celebrate your birthday after we visit your baby brother, is that okey to you?”

“Can I visit my baby brother too?” Instead, Blake asked.

Drake glance at her, asking for permission but she don’t need to answer it because her answer would be always Yes when it comes to Blake!

“Yes, we would bring you with us.”

“Are we going to go to heaven to visit my baby brother daddy?”

Hindi niya mapigilan ang pag-alpas ng maiksing tawa at nang nilingon siya nang dalawa ay itinikom niya ang bibig. Why this little boy need to be so cute all the time?

“Nope,” Drake answer, popping the third letter. “Can you please stop asking questions that’s so hard to answer, anak?”

Kahit si Drake ay parang nauubusan na rin ng isasagot sa anak nila. Siya ay malapit na rin maubusan sa totoo lang lalo at sa ganitong usapin. Hindi siya handa.

“How can we visit my baby brother if he’s in heaven then? You said he’s in heaven. Ang hirap mong kausap daddy.”

Padapa na napahiga si Drake sa kama sa tabi niya at automatiko na yumapos ang braso sa bewang niya.

“Please, talk to our son, love.” Drake whisper.

“We can’t visit him on heaven, baby. We would only visit him to the place where he d-died.” Alexza clear her throat. “Do you understand now? Your baby brother is in heaven. Hindi na natin siya makikita at makakasama kasi patay na siya. Wala na siya sa mundo natin. We will only visit him to let him know that we still remember him even if he’s no longer with us. To let him know that we still love him even if we don’t see him.”

Napatitig siya kay Blake nang tumayo ito at lumapit sa kanya. Naramdaman niya ang maliliit na daliri nitong pinupunasan ang luhang hindi niya man lang namalayan na tumulo pala.

“I understand now mommy ko.” Blake whisper softly. The sadness on his eyes is very visible while staring at her. “Huwag ka na pong umiyak mahal ka rin po ni baby brother ko…kasi ikaw po ang mommy niya. Mahal po ng mga baby ang mga mommy.”

“A-and mommies loves their babies.” She force a smile and pinch his chin. “Thank you, Blake. You’re such a blessing to me.”

“Blessing ka rin po sa akin mommy ko…kung hindi ka po dumating baka wala pa rin akong mommy hanggang ngayon.”

“Buti dumating ako?”

“Opo, para ikaw ang mommy ko at hindi si Tita Maisie.”

Sumama kaagad ang timpla niya nang marinig ang pangalan na iyon. Sa inis ay hinawi niya ang braso ni Drake na nakayapos sa kanya.

“Dun ka nga! Dikit ka ng dikit!” Iritadong sabi niya, hindi na maipinta ang mukha.

Drake groaned at what she did. He lazily look up on her.

“Ano na naman ba ang ginawa ko? Galit ka na naman love.”

“Basta! Lumayo-layo ka muna sa’kin. Naiirita ako sa’yo!”

Bagot na umalis si Drake sa kama. He stood up, looking at her with protrude lips.

“Tawagin mo nalang ulit ako kapag hindi ka na galit sa’kin…”

Inirapan niya ito habang kumakain ng dilis na sunog. Nagpapaawa pa talaga sa kanya! Akala naman ay uubra.

“Kapag birthday ko dapat hindi ka na galit mommy ha?”

Kahit si Blake ay parang tinitimbang na rin ang mood niya. Parang aandap-andap din ito na baka mainis siya dito. Syempre hindi, kay Drake lang siya iritable.

“We should be happy on your birthday, Blake. Hindi ako magagalit. Promise!” Itinaas niya pa ang kanan na kamay.

“Happy tayo sa birthday ko? Happy din si baby brother sa heaven?”

Her lips for a thin line. She silently took a deep breath and give her son a warm smile.

“I think he’s happy now in heaven and I should be happy, too, right?”

“Opo,” Blake nod his head. “We will visit him to make him more happy mommy.”

“S-Sige anak, we will visit him on your birthday next week.” She decided.

Alexza gaze went to the man standing near them, she’s still annoyed but she managed to smile at him warmly.

Magaan ang titig sa kanya ni Drake, tila sinasabing kahit ano pa man ang maging desisyon niya ay palagi lang itong nakasuporta sa kanya.

Maybe, this is the right time to finally let go of those bad and painful memories from the past.

Letting go doesn’t always mean forgetting and surrendering, it also means freeing yourself from all the pain and give yourself another chance to be happy again the way you deserve it.

Dahil minsan kung kailan tayo mas labis na nasasaktan, mas do’n natin nararamdaman na tama na…itigil na. Na sapat na ’yung sakit para pakawalan mo ’yung mga ala-ala na bumabasag sa puso mo.

It is not being a coward or a weak, it is being strong enough to accept all the pain in the process. You don’t need to burry yourself in the dark when there’s always a bright lights that would illuminate you.

25 ~ Mine

A/N: I’m back! Had fun in Subic. 🐬

Quick update tonight. Happy reading!

CHAPTER TWENTY FIVE

THE DAY she was waiting for came and Alexza can’t help herself but to feel empty. Or maybe she’s just trying to hide all her emotions until she felt nothing, but emptiness inside.

She was sitting in front of the mirror while staring at her reflection there. She looks pale and no emotions on her eyes. She was convincing herself for a couple of minutes now that today she would let go of all the memories she had when she was with her dear son.

She will never forget him, but she should at least accept the fact that he was no longer exist, he will never be with her again. He’s in heaven again with our almighty God. Her dear son is in good hands.

She can still remember what happened to them that day. It seems and feels like it happened just yesterday, the memories was very clear on her mind as if that’s the only memories her mind wanted to remember no matter how painful it was. It was very tragic and traumatizing!

And when she woke up after a long deep sleep, her son was no longer beside her anymore. He’s gone.

“Mommy! We are ready!” Blake excitedly announce when he open the bedroom door.

She look at her son through the reflection of the mirror. He’s wearing a baby blue polo shirt and khaki pants, he pair it with white expensive sneaker for kids. He’s clean cut and his cologne smells good for her. The birthday boy hurriedly run towards her and hug her stomach.

Her heart lift a bit and her lips form a small smile. She brush his hair with her fingers.

“Happy birthday, baby.” She greeted him softly.

“Thank you again mommy for another birthday greetings this morning.” Blake chuckle smoothly.

“Do you wanna hear my birthday wish for you?”

“Shoot!”

Her eyes wide a bit. He say it like a big man.

“Shoot? Who taught you that?”

“Naririnig ko lang po kay ninong pogi kapag nagkukwentuhan sila ni daddy. Was that bad?”

“Uh, no.” She chuckle a bit. “It’s just that, you sounds like not a baby at all when you say it.”

“Coz I’m not a baby anymore? I’m five na.” He even shows her his five small fingers.

Napanguso siya at pasimpleng umirap. Her son is growing up. She could even imagine him courting different girls in the near future! Uh, how she wish this cute little boy would remain being innocent and bubbly forever.

“You will be mommy and daddy’s forever baby.”

“Kahit may iba ka pong baby dito?” Marahan pa nitong tinapik ang ibabaw ng tiyan niya. “Baby mo pa rin ako?”

Para siyang pinagpawisan bigla. Kinalimutan niya na nga ang pag-uusap sa baby sa tiyan niya, pinaalala naman ulit ng cute na batang ’to.

“Uh, y-yes. Baby ka pa rin namin kahit may baby din sa tiyan ko.” At gusto niya rin talaga magkababy ulit? What?

“That’s cool, mommy.” Blake nod cutely. “I wanna hear your birthday wish for me mommy. Spill it out.”

“You’re copying daddy and his friends with that Shoot and Spill it out .”

“It’s cool copying them. They’re big men.”

Ginulo niya ang buhok nito. “You really like to be a big boy na, but for me you’re still my baby and this birthday wish is for you…” She breath out carefully. “Ahm, my only wish is for you to be always happy, Blake. We could provide all the material things in this world for you, but I wish we could also give you a real and pure happiness…” She lean down a bit and kiss the top of his head. “I love you very much, anak ko…” she whisper.

“Love you very much mommy ko…” Blake whisper back, resting his face on her stomach.

She heard the door open but she remain on their position. She like the feeling hugging Blake, she felt at ease again.

She saw a white expensive sneaker same style with Blake, standing beside her. Then her body suddenly enveloped with a warm familiar embrace.

“This feels so good.” Drake whisper on the side of her head then kiss it.

“It feels so good to hug mommy, dad.” Blake mutter. “Parang may magnet po siya. Kapag nakikita ko siya parang gusto ko po siyang laging yakapin. May magnet ka po ba sa katawan mo, mommy?”

They both chuckle at what their son confessed.

“Wala akong magnet sa katawan anak.”

“We both magnetized by her, son.” Drake said, teasing on his voice. “Your mom good at this. Magnetizing us.”

She leered and titled her head back to have a clear sight of Drake. Like their son, he also sporting a polo, but it’s color navy blue and he pair it with khaki shorts.

“Now I know why you guys keep insisting this light blue dress.” Aniya.

Pinasadahan niya ang suot na dress sa salamin. Its a combination of white and light blue off shoulder dress below her knee. She pair it with white strap flat sandals. And a cute clip on the side of her hair.

Kumalas ng yakap sa kanya ang dalawa at sabay pa siyang pinagmamasdan sa bawat galaw niya. Napapanguso nalang siya. Grabe talaga ang dalawang ’to, kung makatingin akala mo naman ay aalis siya kapag kumurap ang mga ’to.

“You’re so beautiful, love.” Drake said with the hint of admiration on his voice and on his eyes.

She blush and avoid an eye contact on him. “Thank you,”

She get her sling bag on the table and stood up. Kinuha niya ang kamay ni Blake na nakatingala sa kanya.

“Ang ganda mo mommy.”

“Ah,” Her heart melt. “Ikaw naman ang cute cute mo.”

“I’m handsome like daddy, not cute.”

Nagtaas siya ng tingin kay Drake sa gilid niya, ang isang kamay nito ay nasa maliit na bahagi ng likod niya, iginagaya siya palabas sa pinto. Now that she’s wearing a flat sandals, she can prove that he’s really tall, her head did not even reach his shoulder.

“Well, you’re dad is h-handsome like you.”

“I appreciate that,” Drake gently guide them to the door.

They stay for a minutes in front of the main wide door while waiting for his car to arrived. His personal drivel came out from the driver side and walk towards them.

“Boss,” He give the key to Drake.

The driver open the back seat door and Blake hurriedly hop in. While Drake open the passenger seat for her.

“Thanks,” she mutter as she hop in.

Drake roar the engine. The gate of the beach house wide open as the smooth sounds of his car echoed. Tanaw niya ang dalawang gwardiya na nakatanaw sa sasakyan nilang papalabas ng gate.

“Bye po,” Blake bid a goodbye to the men when the car pass them.

Nakita niya rin na kumaway ang mga ito kay Blake bago tuluyang isinara ang malaking gate.

“Are you always like that, anak?” She look at him through rear view mirror.

“Opo,” Blake comfortably sitting at the backseat, buckled up.

“That’s good, you’re friendly.”

“Coz they’re good to me and daddy.”

She smile at that. He appreciate the good people around him and it make her feel glad for him. He’s very easy going kid. Hindi mahirap alagaan. Hindi mahirap mahalin.

“Turn right, love…” she said softly at Drake after an hour of driving.

He took a quick glance on her and she see the side of his lips rose up. He’s serious and very focus on driving, they did not even have the chance to talk because Blake was talking to her.

“This road is an accident prone area,” Drake speed slowly down.

They’re in a long zigzag road with dangerous cliff on the both sides. The big trees around and the dangerous lakes from the bottom of the cliff were making her remember some memories she had while passing this road before.

“Slow down!” She said in panic and grip her seatbelt, afraid that the car would fall on the cliff.

Drake took another glance on her with worry on his eyes. He then reach for her hand, trying to comfort her but the memories she had in this place started flashing her mind. She’s in panic mode.

“I’m on it, love—”

“Stop the car!” She commanded with shaking voice.

Mas lalong bumagal ang takbo ng sasakyan. She look around and check if there’s another car that following them, the driver might bump into them and they would fall on the cliff!

She was panicking as she look at Blake who’s sleeping at the back seat.

“Hey, hey,” it was Drake who’s trying to get her attention.

Nanginginig ang mga daliri niya at pilit na inayos ang pagkakaupo. Sinipat niya ang side view mirror niya at nakitang may paparating na sasakyan.

“Go! Go! Paandarin mo na, Drake! They’re here!” She said in more panicking voice as she watch the unfamiliar car coming their way.

“Who’s—”

“Step on the gas! Damn it!” She shouted at him. “Let’s get out of here! Please! Drive away from them!”

Drake took a loud breath, clenching his jaw before he furiously pulled the steering wheel and started driving again in a very smooth way.

“Is this speed is okay to you? Or you want it fast?” He ask gently, but his face is so serious that she could even hear him clenching his teeth. His jaw is moving dangerously.

The veins on his arms protrude uncontrollably and the hard muscles on it scream how he was trying his best not to explode the bomb he was hiding inside of him.

“J-Just don’t let the car behind reach us…”

She still shaking. She keep on looking at the cars behind them, following them…following their way.

“I promise. I won’t.” He promised.

He’s keeping his cool whenever he say a words for her but his body language betrays him. He looks like a wild beast that is so ready to attack if someone who would try to mess or hurt them.

“B-Bilisan mo pa…”

“Love, this is a dangerous road. It’s zigzag. We can’t drive that fast. Don’t worry, I won’t let the cars behind reach us.” Masuyong paliwanag nito sa kabila ng galit na nakikita niya sa gwapo nitong mukha.

“I…I don’t like to see the cars behind us. Drive a little faster until I don’t see them anymore….or stop the car on the side and let them pass us.” She could not hide the panic on her soft voice. “Baka banggain nila tayo…mahuhulog tayo sa bangin. Ayokong mahulog. Ayokong mahulog ka at…at ayokong mahulog si Blake. J-just follow what I said, please…”

Drake reach for her hand and kiss it. Hindi nito binitiwan ang kamay niya na nasa labi nito hanggang sa igilid nito ang sasakyan.

Pinanood niya ang mga sasakyan sa likod nila na nilalagpasan sila. At nang masiguro niya nang wala ng nakasunod sa kanila, nabawasan ang pagpapa-panic niya.

She caught him staring at her with emotions on his eyes that she could not read. Drake tried to give her a warm smile when their eyes met but he ended it with biting his bottom lips tightly. Para bang lihim na kinakastigo ang sarili.

Ngumuso siya. “I’m sorry…”

“No, no, it’s okay, it’s fine, love…” he keeps on kissing her hand. “Just tell me what you want and I will obey it. Okay? Don’t hesitate to tell me everything, I’ll listen.”

Mariin itong napapikit, matindi ang paghalik at pagkapit sa kamay niya. He looks like he’s calming himself through holding and kissing her hand. Looks like he’s the one who needs to calm down or else whatever he’s feeling deep inside him would explode in no time.

“Drake… are you okay?” She worriedly whisper, watching him on his vulnerable state.

He breath in and out roughly, as if removing something on his chest and throat.

“I’m here to protect you. I won’t let anyone hurt you again.” He whisper huskily. “I’ll make sure they’ll pay for all of it. For all they’ve done to you and to our child.”

“I…I don’t know what you’re talking about.” She softly mutter. “It was an accident. N-no one to blame with.”

He look at her behind his lashes, staring at her submissively.

“We will both face all the pain they caused you…losing our child…losing yourself. I swear to you, I will put them behind the bars whoever that fuck. Just please, stay with me this time and never leave again. Ibigay mo nalang sa akin lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman mo, handa akong tanggapin lahat ng ’yon huwag ka lang ulit umalis sa buhay ko.” He’s begging. “When the pain is too much and you could not handle it anymore, just throw that shit on me. Just please don’t choose escape as your answer to solve the problem.”

“T-That was the only way I know…escape from all the pain.”

Drake groaned painfully.

“Always choose to stay with me and let me handle everything. Because I’d die if you leave me again. I’m begging you, love, don’t do that again.”

“H-Hindi na…” mahina pa rin ang boses niya, pinapanood itong hirap na hirap na sa kanya. Napanguso nalang siya.

“Hindi pa rin ako mapakali kahit kasama na kita araw-araw at gabi-gabi. Kailangan na nga yata talaga kitang itali sa’kin.” Ang malamlam na mga mata nito ay mabilis na nahuli ang mailap niyang mata. Ang puso niya ay nag-uunahan na sa mabilis na pagtibok. She can feel that he will going to say something… “Sa akin lang din naman ang bagsak mo…kaya, magpakasal na tayo. Bukas na bukas din.” Her heart jump out of her chest and that made her speechless. She look at him with her parted lips. “Don’t say no or else I’ll tie you in my bed again until you say yes to me.” He threatened. “Magpapakasal tayo pag-uwi natin!”

“S-Sabi mo bukas…” paos na bulong niya, kagat ang labi.

Drake bit his bottom lips and let out a long groan. He titled his head back frustratedly.

“Damn it! You’re driving me crazy, love. I change my mind…” his eyes drifted on hers. “I want to marry you tonight. I will legally claim you as mine, tonight.” He territorially said. “Sa akin ka noon, sa akin ka pa rin hanggang ngayon.”

26 ~ Baby Boy

A/N: Dalawa ang Flashback dito. Enjoy reading!

CHAPTER TWENTY FIVE

“I AM WITH with Jess, she’s waiting for us in my car. Follow me, okay?” Her brother whisper while checking the guard outside her room.

Inutusan nito ang guard na puntahan si Jessielyn sa parking lot kahit na wala naman do’n ang kaibigan. Excuse lang nito iyon para umalis ang gwardiya. Tutal naman at hating gabi na ay hindi makakaisip ang gwardiya niya na tumakas siya lalo at kasama niya naman si Dwaye.

She’s standing beside her brother, feeling nervous but she’s really determine to escape at the moment.

“Where’s she, Kuya?”

“It’s in the lobby. She texted me already. Let’s go.”

Hinawakan nito ang kamay niya at maingat silang lumabas ng silid niya. Palinga-linga sila pareho dahil baka bumalik ang guard na inutusan. Ang lakas-lakas ng kaba sa dibdib niya, para siyang nagnanakaw na natatakot na may makahuli sa kanya.

“Kuya, he’s coming our way—”

Bago niya pa man matapos ang sasabihin ay nahigit na siya ng kapatid para makapagtago sa isang sulok dahil naglalakad ng mabilis pasalubong sa kanila ang gwardiya ngayong gabi.

“Damn,” he curse under his breath as the guard pass their way. “We need to get in the car as soon as possible now! Come on, come on…”

Lakad-takbo ang ginawa nila hanggang sa makarating sa lobby ng hospital. Patingin-tingin din siya kung saan-saan at dahil baka nasusundan pala sila.

“Here!” A familiar voice of a woman caught their attention. Jess is outside of the lobby which where the cars stop to drop off the passengers. “Get in!”

Her friend opened the back seat of unfamiliar car and she hurriedly hop in. Sa front passenger seat naman ito naupo habang si Dwaye ay mabilis na nakapasok sa drivers seat at pinaandar ang makina.

“Oh my God!”

She gasped and let out a loud breath the moment they leave the hospital. She’s massaging her chest to calm her down. She’s really nervous to what they just did!

“Oh my God talaga, Lexza! This is the most exciting thing I ever did!” Jess exclaimed, sitting comfortably on the front seat.

“You okay?” Dwaye look at her through rear view mirror. “Want some water? Anything?”

“I’m okay, Kuya. Thank you.” She let out a breath again. “Thanks for all of these…and Jess, thank you rin.”

Jess wave her hand. “You are my friend and friends helping each other. Kahit ayokong kasama si Dwaye, titiisin ko nalang makita ang mukha nito basta para sa’yo.”

“Kunyari ka pa,” Sabat naman ng kapatid niya. “Sa dami ng babaeng nagkakandarapa sa mukhang ’to… hindi na ako magtataka kung isang araw matisod ka at sa akin rin ang bagsak mo, Jess.”

“Wow, ang kapal talaga ng mukha ng hinayupak!”

Her brother took a quick smugly glance at Jess. His eyes twinkle playfully. He likes teasing her friend.

“Beat me?”

“Beat your face, moron!” Jess spat.

Nagpatuloy ang dalawa sa angilan habang siya ay napapangiti. Siya ang hindi magtataka kung isang araw ay ang dalawa ang magkatuluyan kung magbabago ang kapatid niya. Ang babaero, hirap magbago.

SA PROBINSYA kung saan lumaki si Jessielyn sila tumuloy pagkatapos ng ilang oras na byahe. Pawang mga matatayog na puno at mga berdeng halaman lang ang natatanaw niya. Probinsyang-probinsya.

The house is not that big but enough for her to live on it, especially that it looks like farm house. It’s also a newly renovated house, its looks more lively and relaxing. The feeling of being in a province with a fresh air is very new to her and she like the ambiance already.

“You will be staying here until you give birth. Is the place okay to you?” Her brother ask her, looking tired from a long drive but still so handsome as ever.

“I like it here, Kuya Dwaye. Kaninong bahay ’to?” Aniya, naupo sa ratan na upuan sa sala.

“I bought this place including this house. You’ll be safe here.”

Inilibot niya pa ang mata sa buong kabahayan at natanto niyang dalawang palapag iyon. May mga antique at bagong kagamitan. Ang hangin mula sa labas ay pumapasok galing sa malaking bintana sa kanang bahagi ng bahay.

She stood up and went to the window. Hinawi niya ang manipis na kurtina at napapikit nang humampas ang sariwang hangin sa kanyang mukha. Tanaw niya ang malawak na palayan, may ilang magsasaka do’n at ang iba ay may buhat-buhat na sako ng palay at dinadala sa nakaparadang truck hindi kalayuan.

“There are farmers here, Kuya.”

“Yes, I’ll introduce you to them later.”

He sat tiredly and rest his head on the head rest of long ratan chair then he close his eyes. He drove for five to six hours while she and Jess sleeping most of their travel time, that’s why Dwaye looks like that.

“Boss, nakahanda na po ’yung almusal.” Sarkastikong sabi ni Jess nang sumulpot galing kusina.

“Good,” Dwaye said, on the same position.

Jess leered at her brother then smile at her.

“Let’s eat, Alexza? Then sleep after.” She wink at her then walk towards the kitchen swaying her hips.

Lumapit siya sa kapatid at tinapik ito sa balikat.

“Kuya kumain ka muna bago matulog.”

He didn’t move a bit as if he’s really sleeping even if he wasn’t.

“Tell to your friend that bring my breakfast on my bed.” He’s being bossy, his usual self. “I’ll be waiting.” Then he stood up and patted her shoulder. “Go and eat with her. I’ll go to my room and sleep.”

“Papadalhan ka pa rin ng pagkain?”

“Yes, tell her to bring it in my room. Sabihin mo huwag matigas ang ulo niya at baka hindi na ko makapagpigil pa sa kanya.”

“Gusto mo siya?” Tukso niya nang paakyat na ito sa hagdan.

“Dream on that, Alexza.”

Iyon lang ang sagot ng kapatid bago tuluyang umakyat sa hagdan at pumasok sa isa sa mga silid do’n.

Sa kusina ay naabutan niya si Jess na katatapos lang magtimpla ng gatas. Naupo siya sa bakanteng upuan at sinabayan itong kumain.

“Jess, dalhin mo raw sa kwarto ni Kuya Dwaye ’yung almusal niya.” Imporma niya nang makaupo.

Natigil ito sa pag-inom ng gatas at tumaas ang isang kilay. Her friends looks annoyed early in the morning.

“Ang galing talaga mang-inis niyang kapatid mo.”

“Kung ayaw mo, ako nalang ang magdadala.” Sinusubukan niya ito. “He’s tired from driving while we were sleeping. I understand him for acting like that.”

“I’ll bring it later to him. Kinokonsyensya mo pa ako eh.”

Tipid lang siyang ngumiti at nagpatuloy sa pagkain. Maya-maya ay bag vibrate ang cellphone sa ibabaw ng lamesa. It was Dwaye’s phone!

“Ba’t nasayo ang cellphone ni Kuya?” Puna niya, magkasalubong ang kilay.

“Your brother hide my phone last night and until now hindi niya pa rin ibinabalik. I need to contact my Lola so I need to use his phone.” Jess check the message and her eyes widened. “Oh,”

“What? Who texted him?”

“It’s Drake! God! Ang dami niyang messages and missed calls, Alexza!”

Inabot sa kanya ni Jess Ang cellphone pero ayaw niyang kunin iyon. Malulungkot lang siya. She throw her cellphone somewhere to stop their communication.

“Delete it.” Utos niya.

“Ayaw mong basahin? Ano ba kasi ang nangyari sa suite niya? Simula nang magpunta tayo do’n ay naging ganyan ka na. Nag-away ba kayo? Nasabi mo na ba na buntis ka?”

Umiling siya. “Hindi pa,”

“Oh bat hindi pa? Ang akala ko nga ay nasabi mo na tapos hindi ka niya pinanagutan kaya iyak ka ng iyak nung gabing ’yon. What really happened, Alexza? Care to share?”

Malungkot niya lang na nginitian ang kaibigan.

“Sorry Jess, I don’t wanna talk about it. I don’t wanna talk about him.”

Jess sighed and read a message even she doesn’t want to hear it. May pagkamatigas nga ang ulo ng kaibigan.

From Drake:

I can’t fucking contact your sister! Give me her new number Dwaye, I know you have it! Damn it!

Napayuko siya at napapikit habang binabasa iyon ni Jess nang pagalit din. Nagpatuloy ito.

From Drake:

I’m going nuts thinking of her. Please, let me know where is she. I can’t find her.

Humapdi ang tibok ng puso niya. Nawalan ng gana sa pagkain.

From Drake:

Answer my calls, Dwaye! I’m fucking out of my mind now! Why your sister needs to this to me?! Huh?!

“Stop it!” She almost shout. “Please, stop reading his messages and just delete it. Please, Jess. Or, block his number on Kuya’s phone.”

Galit na inilapag ni Jess ang cellphone sa lamesa at galit na kumakain. Apektado rin sa nangyayari.

“Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyari at wala rin akong karapatan magalit sa paghihiwalay niyo pero nasasaktan ako para sa inyong dalawa.” Bumaba ang tingin nito sa tiyan niya. “At ang mas lalong masasaktan sa lahat ng ’to ay ang anak niyo…Sana kung anoman ang hindi niyo pagkakaintindihan, bigyan niyo ng oras para mapag-usapan, kahit para sa anak niyo nalang, Alexza.”

“I would try to talk to him. I would try.” She was more convincing herself than her friend. “Thanks for all of these, Jess. I just need some time for it.”

“Nag-aalala lang ako sa kalagayan mo, Lexza. You two are perfect for each other. Alam kong mahal ka niya, nakikita ko ’yun sa mga mata niya sa tuwing tinitignan ka niya…kaya nga boto na ako sa kanya para sa’yo kasi ramdam kong aalagaan ka ni Drake.”

Umalpas ang isang malungkot na luha sa mata niya nang tumango siya bilang pagsang-ayon sa mga sinabi ng kaibigan.

She can feel that Drake love her, it’s just that what she seen outside his suite really wound her heart. It gives her pain to the point that she choose to stop talking to him to avoid another heartache. And also, her arrange marriage to Tommy is not helping her, dinadagdagan lang ang problema niya kaya hanggat maaari ay tatakasan niya nalang…tatakbuhan niya nalang ang lahat ng problema kesa harapin ang lahat ng ’yon at masaktan ng paulit-ulit.

Escaping was her only solution for now to all her problems and heartaches. She wants to escape and run away from all of it…running from all the pain.

EVERYTHING happened so fast that Alexza can’t even utter a word to Drake when he told her that he will marry her tonight. The glint on his eyes told her that he’s really serious about marrying her. The way he holds her hand telling her that he would never let her escape again from him.

Hinahawakan nito ang kamay niya sa paraan na hinding-hindi na nga talaga ito papayag na magkalayo ulit sila. Tila ba aangkinin na talaga siya nito sa ayaw niya man o hindi.

Malalim siyang bumuntong hininga at nilakasan pa ang loob nang matanaw niya na ang pamilyar na bangin hindi na kalayuan.

“Igilid mo na ’yung s-sasakyan…Drake.” Muli ay napahugot siya ng hininga. “P-pwede na dito. Let’s just walk t-there.” Itinuro niya ang kanang bahagi ng masukal na kalsada.

Drake stop the engine and kiss her hand again. She’s avoiding an eye contact. He has the vibes that some times he make her uncomfortable. Is it the way he stare at her? Is it by the way he speak speak on her? Or maybe, he himself makes her uncomfortable. His muscular built, his presence and his intimidating aura, she’s still not use to it, until now.

“Where’s it love?” Drake asks making her gasped.

Nasapo niya ang dibdib at sinamaan ito ng tingin. Talagang napaigtad siya sa boses nito.

“Huwag mo akong ginugulat.”

“Sorry na,” he unbuckle his seatbelt and tilted his head closer to give her a peck on the side of her lips. “Let’s go to our angel?”

She nod slowly and unbuckle her seatbelt. The fear inside her starting to build up again.

“L-Let’s go,”

Napatingin siya kay Drake nang marahan na sinapo nito ang pisngi niya upang magtama ng tuluyan ang kanilang mga mata.

“I’ll be right here. You have nothing to worry. You have nothing to fear. I am here, okay?” He said gently. “You can cry, love. Don’t hold it back. You can scream and tell everything you wanna tell. Let all your feelings go… let it go.”

Alexza took a deep breath and cupped his jaw. She force a smile despite of her shaking lips.

“Bear with me. I can do this alone but I’d rather choose to be with you this time.”

“I’ll be with you.”

Drake kiss her forehead down to the tip of her nose and to her lips. Napapikit siya at dinama ang magaan na halik na iyon.

“No kissing in front of a kid.”

Blake voice making her open her eyes and push Drake a little.

“You’re awake, baby.”

“Opo mommy. Nandito na po ba tayo?” Blake look around. “I don’t see anything but dangerous cliff. Are we safe here?”

“We are safe here, son.” It was Drake on his convincing tone. “No worries,”

“Okay daddy ko. I trust you.”

“You should,”

Muli ay nagkatinginan sila ni Drake bago ito bumaba ng sasakyan. He open the door for her before he went to the backseat door and unbuckle Blake’s seatbelt.

He’s carrying Blake while his one arm is at the small of her back, guiding her.

“Where’s my baby brother? I can’t see.” Blake complain. “This isn’t a cemetery.”

“Because your baby brother isn’t in cemetery. He’s in heaven.”

“Are we in heaven dad? It looks like we are. I could almost touch the sky.”

Itinaas pa ni Blake ang mga kamay na parang inaabot ang langit. Mataas ang lugar kung nasaan sila, nakakalula kung titingin sa baba.

The road is very dangerous that when you make a wrong move while driving, you might fall on the cliff. No one would hear you. No one would dare to help you. But she’s glad that someone helped her before to survived…sadly her son didn’t.

“We aren’t in heaven, son. We’re here to visit your baby brother. Okay?”

“Okay daddy. I’m behave.” Blake snake his smalls arms on his father’s neck and he keep his mouth shut.

“Careful, love.” Ani ni Drake nang pumatong siya sa mababang gutter at humawak sa sementong barrier.

She let out a loud breath and look down. Ang masukal na bangin na napuno ng malalaki at matatandang puno ay mas lalo lang nakakatakot sa paningin. Habang lumilipas ang panahon ay mas natatabunan na kung ano ba ang nasa kailaliman niyon. Kung ano ba ang nangyari do’n. Kung kani-kaninong buhay na ba ang kinuha ng mapanganib na bangin na ’yon.

“D-Dito ’yon… dito nangyari ’yon.” Sabi niya, nanginginig ang boses. “It was so early in the morning, I-I was driving…and, and…”

Hindi niya matuluy-tuloy ang gustong sabihin. Unti-unti na siyang binabalot ng mapapait na ala-ala nang nakaraan.

Mas lalong hinapit siya ni Drake palapit dito gamit ang isang braso na nakayapos sa kanya. He’s kissing the side of her head while Blake’s burying his face on his father’s neck, avoiding something to see.

“It was my fault Drake!” She almost scream, tears rolling down her cheeks.

“It was no ones fault, love. It was an accident.”

“How did you know, huh?” Mapait niyang tanong. “You weren’t here when it happened!”

She felt him rested his lips on the side of her head. He’s almost hugging her using his one strong arm, giving her strength, giving her comfort.

“You don’t need to blame yourself. Our son would not like it. He would not like see you crying…and mourning for him.”

“I tried so many times not to cry and mourn for him, but it’s just so hard to do it. Ang hirap-hirap, Drake. Ang sakit-sakit mawalan ng anak…”

Ang puso niya ay parang tinatarakan ng punyal at nag-umpisa ng sumagi sa ala-ala niya ang madilim na pangyayari sa buhay niya. A blurred and cleared memories popped up her mind without even expecting it.

Mariin niyang ipinikit ang mga mata nang magsunud-sunod ang mga imahe na naglalaro sa balintanaw niya. The images that confuse her and at the same time hurt her.

THE DAYS has passed so fast that she didn’t realized how she lived her life without Drake by her side. Her brother visited here twice or thrice a month depends on how busy he was together with Jess. She lived her everyday life seeing the green wide farm and breathing the fresh air.

Madalas rin ang pagbisita sa kanya ng mga asawa ng magsasaka upang kumustahin siya at linisin ang kabahayan. Masarap sa pakiramdam na malaman na may mga taong nag-aalaga sa’yo…mga taong hindi man niya kadugo ay parang anak na ang turing sa kanya.

“Ouch,” She wince when her baby kicked inside her stomach.

Marahan na hinaplos niya ang malaking tiyan habang nakaupo sa ratan na upuan. Kabuwanan niya na at madalas na rin ang pananakit ng tiyan niya mula pa kahapon tapos ay mawawala naman na rin.

“Sumisipa na ba hija?” Si Manang Lita na naghahanda ng merienda.

“Opo, napapadalas at medyo sumasakit na rin po ang tiyan ko pero nawawala naman din po kaagad.”

“Dalhin ka na kaya namin sa hospital sa bayan? Nandiyan naman ang sasakyan ni Boss Dwaye para magamit mo hija.”

Napaigik ulit siya nang sumipa na naman ang anak sa tiyan niya. Gusto na nga yatang lumabas.

“S-Sige ho, mag-aasikaso lang po ako.”

“Hinanda ko na rin naman ang lahat ng kailangan mo sa panganganak, hija. Ilalagay ko nalang ang mga ’yon sa sasakyan.”

“Okay po. Salamat.”

“Hay naku! Wala ’yon Ma’am Alexza.” Iwinagayway pa nito ang kamay sa ere. “Triple ang pasweldo sa akin ni Boss Dwaye dapat lang na alagaan kita ng husto at ang baby mo.”

Ngumiti lang siya at tumango. Her brother pay and provide everything for her and for the baby. Hindi niya na nga alam kung paano pasasalamatan ang kapatid.

Maingat na tumayo siya at naglakad papunta sa silid niya sa pangalawang palapag. Hindi naman matindi ang pananakit ng tiyan niya pero mas mainam siguro na magpunta na nga talaga sila sa Hospital lalo at malayo iyon.

Pasado alas singko ng hapon nang magpasya silang tumulak sa hospital. Nakalabas na ang sasakyan sa main road na minananeho ng asawa ni Manang Lita nang masalubong nila ang pamilyar na sasakyan ni Dwaye.

“Si boss Dwaye,” Ani ng driver at iginilid ang sasakyan.

Tumingin siya sa likod at nakita niya nga ang kapatid na inihinto rin ang sasakyan sa gilid. Lumabas ito do’n at tumawid papunta sa gawi nila.

She open the window before he could even knocked.

“We are going to hospital.” She informed him.

He looks so serious. There’s something on his eyes that she couldn’t read.

“Get out of there. Tayo nalang ang magpunta sa hospital.” He open the car door urgently.

“O-okay,” Wala siyang nagawa kundi lumabas ng sasakyan. “Kuya ’yung mga gamit namin ni baby nasa compartment.”

Dwaye just nod and went to the compartment, open it and get the bags there. Then he went back to Manang Lita.

“Go back to the farm and clean the house. Remove all Alexza’s stuffs, sunugin lahat hanggat maaari.”

“B-Bakit boss?”

“And tell to all farmers that keep their mouth all shut if some strangers would ask ’bout Alexza. Okay?”

“S-Sige boss. Makakaasa ka po.”

Dwaye guide her to his car while holding their bags on his other hand. He put the bags at the back seat and open a door for her in the passenger seat.

“What’s going on?” Hindi niya napigilang tanong nang pumasok na ito sa sasakyan at pinaandar iyon.

His eyes focus on the road. That deep brown eyes was emotionless. His lips form in thin line, not wanting to speak but of course she won’t let him keep his mouth shut.

“Kuya—”

“You need to go abroad Alexza.” He said coldly. “They’re fucking looking for you.”

“W-Who? Sila mommy ba?” Hinuha niya, kinakain na ng pangamba.

“And Tommy Herrera.”

“I thought they stop looking for me, Kuya.” Her voice was low.

“We need to get away as soon as possible.”

She gasped and grip into the window handle when she felt a pang on her stomach. Napahugot siya ng malalim na hininga, umaasa na mawawala ang sakit katulad ng madalas nangyayari.

“Ouch! Ouch!” Daing niya at hindi na mapakali kung paanong upo ba ang gagawin niya.

“Manganganak ka na?!”

She saw her brother took a quick glance on her, he looks worried and surprised.

“I-I think so… ang sakit na! Ayaw tumigil!”

“Oh, goddamnit!”

Bumilis ang takbo ng sasakyan, nag-o-over take na rin ito. Halatang nagmamadali at natataranta.

Ipinatong niya ang isang paa sa dashboard, naghahanap ng maayos na pwesto baka sakaling tumigil ang pananakit ng tiyan niya. Pero hindi! Patuloy pa rin na pakiramdam niya ay maiihi na siya na ewan. Tagaktak na rin ang pawis niya kahit ang lamig-lamig naman sa sasakyan.

“Oh God!” She gasped and caress her stomach. “Wait for another minutes baby…Huwag ka munang lalabas, please…”

Ilang minuto ang lumipas na kinakausap niya ang anak na halatang gustung-gusto ng masilayan ang mundo bago nagsalita ang kapatid.

“We’re close,” Dwaye informed calmly.

When she look at their direction, she saw the City Hospital. Ang tagaktak na pawis niya ay nagpatuloy. Kung kanina natataranta siya ngayon ay tila humupa na iyon, napilitan

iyon ng kaba. Kaba na hindi niya alam kung para saan ba.

Muli ay hinaplos niya ang ibabaw ng tiyan at napangiti sa kabila ng pananakit niyon at panghihina ng katawan.

“Baby…see you so soon.” She whisper softly and let herself feel all the pain her baby’s giving her before she will see him…Her baby boy.

27 ~ Baby Angel

A/N: Successful ang Book Signing/Launching kahapon. Sana sa susunod ay makapunta na rin ’yung iba. Thank you! ❤️

CHAPTER TWENTY SEVEN

THE NURSES hurriedly attended to Alexza the moment they enter to the City hospital. Inilapag siya ng kapatid sa hospital bed at dinala siya ng mga nurse papunta sa delivery room.

“I’ll be right here. Be strong, okay? I’ll be right here.” Dwaye keep saying the words before the door closed.

“Breath, Misis.” The doctor said softly.

Her legs is already parted. Tagaktak na rin ang pawis niya sa noo. Kung sana kasama niya si Drake, baka nakagat niya na sa sobrang hirap palang magluwal ng bata. Pero kakayanin niya ang lahat ng sakit mailabas niya lang ang anak nila. Masakit pero excited na siyang makita ang baby. Sino kaya ang kamukha? Baka si Drake? Sana.

“Aahhh!” She shouted when she push her baby out.

“Push!” The doctor order and she did again. “Where’s the baby’s stuffs? Get it from her husband.” She commanded with the nurses there.

“He’s my brother,” she weakly said and tried hard to open her eyes to see the baby.

The doctor gently slap her baby’s butt making him cry. She gasped as she heard her baby crying.

“It’s a handsome baby boy. Congrats Misis.”

She smile weakly and she never leave her eyes on him. Her baby, finally. Makakasama niya na ang anak nila ni Drake. The pain of giving birth was all worthy especially when the doctor put her baby beside her after cleaning him and wearing his baby clothes.

Balot na balot ang anak niya. Mamula-mula ang balat. His small pointed nose is proud like his father and his cute lips were same as hers. He’s sleeping and God knows how much she wanted to burst into tears while looking at her son who look exactly like his father.

After a few minutes, the nurses brought her to one of the private room in the hospital. Dwaye was already there, waiting for their arrival. He stood up from the couch and help the nurses to transfer her to the bed. He’s the one who carry her baby and she was surprise by his actions. It was so hard to believe that a man like him can actually carry a baby like he’s used to it.

“How are you feeling?” He asked smoothly.

“Feeling tired, I need some rest.”

“You need to eat first before you sleep.”

“Yes please,”

Dwaye put the baby beside her carefully before he prepare the foods for her. She’s caressing her baby’s soft cheeks and smile.

“My baby, you’re so handsome. Mommy loves you.”

“Here, you eat first.”

Naupo ang kapatid niya sa gilid na upuan. Inilapag ang mainit na sabaw at kanin sa lamesa na nasa gilid rin.

“Can you feed me, Kuya Dwaye? I can’t move yet. I have stitches.”

Her brother remain silent while feeding her. He looks so serious that it bother her for some reason. Natapos siyang pakainin ng kapatid nang at painumin ng gamot para sa kirot ng tahi niya nang hindi ito umiimik, ganon din siya dahil pinag-aaralan niya ito.

Alam niyang nababahala ito sa nangyayari sa kanya at sa magulang niya. Ayaw niya na nga sanang isipin ’yon. Hindi makakatulong ang labis na pag-iisip lalo sa kalagayan niya ngayon. Her body felt so weak that she badly need to rest. Her stitches was hurting her, making it hard for her to move.

“Please take a rest, Alexza. I’ll take care of the baby.” Dwaye voice is almost begging after a long while of being silent.

He looks really in trouble. Parang mas problema pa ito kesa sa kanya. She never see him like this before. He’s expert in keeping his cool. He’s good in hiding his real emotions. What is happening on her brother?

“Are you okay, Kuya?”

He suddenly look around, avoiding her gaze.

“I’m fine, just rest, will you?”

“Nagpapahinga na ako.”

“You need some energy for tomorrow, Alexza. You know, we can’t stay here. They might following us. We need to leave here as soon as possible.”

“Bukas kaagad?!” She gasped at that.

“Unless you want them to catch you and the baby?”

“No! Not my son!”

Kaagad na pinalibot niya ang mga braso sa anak, pinoprotektahan sa mga taong nagbabalak ng masama sa kanila.

“Then get some rest. I can’t leave you here and my nephew.”

“Promise ha? Huwag kang aalis, Kuya Dwaye. Bantayan mo kami ni baby.”

“I promise.” Her brother kiss her forehead. “Please, sleep. I’ll be right here.”

She nod her head and close her eyes. She trust her brother so much more than anyone else. Alam niya rin na hindi talaga siya nito papabayaan at iiwan sa ere. He’s the only one she can trust.

SEEING A WOMAN crying is a torture for Drake especially if that woman is Alexza. He’s hypocrite if he would deny his feelings for her. ’Yung nararamdaman niya para rito ay nando’n pa rin. Nabawasan man at napalitan ng galit pero hindi nawala. Hindi na mawawala pa. Hindi na mapapalitan pa. She’s the only woman who let him get a holds of his heart.

Dinala niya ang mukha ni Alexza sa dibdib niya at do’n ito pinaiyak. Habang si Blake naman ay tahimik lang na karga niya, ang mukha ay nakasampay sa balikat niya. Sobrang tahimik ng anak niya na mapagkakamalan ng tulog, pero sigurado siyang hindi. Blake is listening to them.

He doesn’t want his son to witnessed how Alexza’s mourn for their child, but the fact that he couldn’t stop her from crying, frustrates him more. He’s thorned between his son’s feelings and Alexza’s feelings at the moment.

He wanted to be happy for Blake’s birthday, but this day is also his child’s death anniversary and the woman on his chest was still mourning. It was hard to be happy in this kind of situation. It was just a coincidence alright, but it made him think that maybe destiny’s just playing with them.

Why it needs to be like that? Of all the dates, why it needs to be the same? Kung hindi niya lang nalaman ang halos lahat nang nangyari kay Alexza at sa anak nila ay baka naniwala na siyang si Blake nga ang tunay na anak nila. He always wish for that even before, but it would not happen. Because he knew that their son is really dead and he needs to accept it.

“He’s there, Drake! He’s there!” Alexza said while sobbing.

She grip on his chest. He could feel his polo shirt getting wet because of her tears.

“He wasn’t there, love. He’s in heaven.” He whispered, kissing the top of her head. “Maybe, it would be better if we leave here? It’s getting dark.”

Pagkadating palang nila ay humupa na ang tirik ng araw, kumulimlim na tila ba nakikiayon ang panahon sa nararamdaman nila ngayon.

“You weren’t mourning for his lost!” She accused him, giving him a pang on the chest.

A small sad smile unwillingly escape his lips. He look down at the dangerous cliff in front of them and think what his child felt when the car fell down. Mariin siyang napapikit sa pag-guhit na naman ng matalim na kutsilyo sa dibdib niya.

Kung alam niya bang nabuntis niya si Alexza, mangyayari pa kaya ang lahat ng ’yon? Nakakasigurado siyang hindi. Hindi niya hahayaan na masaktan ang mag-ina niya! But it was too late to regret now. Nangyari na ang lahat ng wala siyang kaalam-alam. Pakiramdam niya nga ay ninakawan siya ng karapatan bilang ama. Pero gaano ba ka-importante ang nararamdaman niya kumpara sa nararamdaman ng babae sa bisig niya?

Alexza carried their child for nine months. While on that months, he was being a jerk and a bad boy for bedding different women just to forget her. Pero nagtagumpay ba siyang kalimutan ito? Napabuga siya ng hangin sa bibig. Hindi! Hindi siya nagtagumpay.

“I know you were hurting, but I hope you won’t judge my feelings ’bout our child. I’m the father. Nawalan din ako. Masakit din para sa akin ang nangyari sa anak natin.”

Halos ibinulong niya ang mga salitang ’yon sa hangin, may pagdaramdam bilang amang nawalan ng anak. Hindi niya pa man din nakakasama ang anak niya, kinuha na sa kanila.

“Ngayon lang…ngayon ka lang nasasaktan. Samantalang ako, ilang taon na.”

“Dahil ipinagkait niyo siya sa akin.”

He bit his bottom lip, he titled his head back, feeling frustrated.

Nanatiling tahimik si Alexza na para bang may punto ang sinabi niya. Damn, he has a point! Ipinagkait sa kanya ang anak nila! Ni hindi niya man lang nasilayan o nahawakan.

“Did my baby angel brother fall on the cliff, daddy?” Blake suddenly ask sadly.

Alexa stilled when she heard their son’s voice and hurriedly wiped her tears and look up on Blake, who’s in the same position.

“B-baby,” Alexza stuttered. “Ahm, l-look at me.”

Blake shook his head on his shoulder.

“I don’t want to see the cliff, mommy. I’m scared po.”

Nagkatinginan sila ni Alexza. Namumugto ang mga mata nito at namumula ang tungki ng ilong.

“G-gusto mo ba umuwi na tayo?”

“Iiwan na po natin ang baby angel niyo ni daddy?”

Muling lumipat ang tingin ni Alexza sa bangin at muling bumalatay ang sakit sa mga mata. Using his free hand, he brush her hair making her look up on him, with sadness and regrets on her eyes.

“Let’s celebrate your birthday? Like what we promised.” Pinasigla ni Alexza ang boses pero halata sa mukha nito ang lungkot.

“Can we stay for another minutes, son? Daddy’s still wants to be with your baby angel brother.” He requested.

Blake nod his head. “Okay po daddy,”

“Yakapin mo lang ako para hindi ka na matakot. You will be safe with me, son.”

Tumango-tango ulit ang anak bago siya niyakap sa leeg. Then, he grab Alexza on his arm and they both looking down on the dangerous cliff.

“I can’t even see the car,” She whisper carefully. “Our son…he was in pain so bad. I wish I could help him. I wish I could rescued him.”

“You were still lucky because you had the chance to see him, to carry him and to kiss him. We should be still thankful because we have him.”

“Pero kinuha siya sa atin kaagad,”

“We can make his baby brother or baby sister, love. Kahit ilan pa ang gusto mo.”

“Are you kidding? Really? Are you thinking ’bout that while I’m crying?” Alexza slap his chest, not enough to hurt him.

“Our baby angel would love to have siblings. And I’m not kidding, Alexza.”

“I want siblings din po daddy. Please make a baby girl and baby boy.” Blake requested. “My birthday wish!”

“You heard our son, love?” He whisper on her ear. “Baby girl and baby boy were his birthday wish.”

“Shut up,” she leered at him and wipe her small tears.

“Mommy, are you okay? Hindi ka na po ba nagka-cry?”

Alexza lips for a small smile while watching their son’s back body on his arm.

“I’m finished crying, baby. I’m ready to celebrate your birthday today.”

“Hindi ka na po sad?”

“Umm, sad pa rin.”

“How can I make you smile mommy?”

Kumislap muli ang gilid ng mata ng magandang babae sa harap niya bago napangiti sa anak nila.

“You don’t need to ask that, anak. You always makes mommy smile. It’s just that I am so emotional today and this past few days. I’m sad for what happened to your baby angel brother, but I feel happy also because you are with me. You and daddy.”

He kiss Alexza on the forehead down to the tip of her nose. He stare on her little bit parted lips and he move closer to give him a gentle kiss on the lips. His eyes shut close, feeling her soft lips on his.

“Its my birthday but I’m feeling sad, mommy.”

“I’m sorry baby,” she caress their son’s back. “We can go home now and celebrate your birthday…and, and be happy.”

“We don’t need to pretend being happy if weren’t deep inside. Mahirap po magpanggap mommy ko.” Blake squeezed his nose on his neck. “I can’t be happy today. I’m thinking ’bout my baby angel brother.”

“We can still be happy,” he whisper. “Your baby angel brother wanted us to be happy even without him by our sides.”

“How did you know that daddy ko?”

“Well, when you love someone, you will always wish for their happiness even without you, right?”

Blake nod on his neck. “Why it’s hard to be happy…”

He swallow hard. He can feel the sadness over his son’s voice and the way he said the words. Muli ay nagtama ang mga mata nila ni Alexza at nanghihingi ng paumanhin itong ngumiti sa kanya. Patuloy nitong hinaplos ang buhok ng anak nila.

“I didn’t mean to make you feel sad, baby. I’m sorry.” It was Alexza in apologetic tone.

“I want you to be happy, mommy. I don’t wanna hear you cry again. Please, huwag ka ng mag cry kasi po gusto ko na rin mag cry pero big boy na po ako kaya dapat pipigilan ko.” Blake voice cracked and he hug him tightly. “I don’t want you to get hurt anymore…mommy.”

Pinahid niya ang nahulog na luha sa pisngi ni Alexza habang nakatingin ito sa anak nila. Umihip ang malamig na hangin mula sa ilalim. Napasulyap siya sa baba, isinasayaw ng hangin ang makakapal na dahon sa mga puno.

“L-Let’s go?” Aya ni Alexza.

“You sure?”

“I don’t want our baby to be sad, Drake. It’s his birthday. It’s not too late to celebrate it and be happy. Right?”

Marahan lang siyang tumango at muli nilang sinulyapan ang bangin.

’Anak ko…I’m sorry I wasn’t here to rescue you. But Daddy loves you so much even I didn’t

have the chance to see you. Please, be happy whenever you are and we will try to be happy here too. You will always be remembered. I love you, son.’

He silently said before guiding Alexza and Blake back to the car.

28 ~ Surprise (SPG)

A/N: Warning: Mature Content.

CHAPTER TWENTY EIGHT

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BLAKE!”

Said a men in unison inside their beach house when Drake opened the door for them. She look down at Blake who was surprised while looking at the balloons and confetti inside their house.

“Wow!” Blake exclaimed. “I have a birthday party!” Tumalon-talon pa ang anak niya sa tuwa.

“And some of your classmates are soon to arrive, buddy.” Dwaye squatted in front of Blake. “Happy 5th birthday!” And give her son a warm smile before handed him a blue paper bag.

Tinanggap ni Blake ang paper bag. “Thank you, Tito-Ninong. What’s this?” Sinilip pa ng anak ang loob.

“Surprise.”

They fist bumped and Zyron squatted in front of her son, holding a dark blue paper bag while her brother stood up and give his attention on her.

“Kuya, you’re here,” aniya at humalik sa pisngi nito.

She’s a little bit surprised seeing her brother at Drake’s house. Wala siyang alam na may ganitong eksena pala pagdating nila. Marahil ay napagplanuhan na ni Drake ng mga kaibigan nito ang birthday celebration ni Blake.

“We always celebrate his birthday. Hindi pwedeng wala kami, Alexza.” Right.

Dwaye eyes landed at Drake who’s standing beside her. They’re exchanging messages through their eyes and that made her rolled her eyes on them. Tapos ay pinaningkitan niya ang kapatid nang may maalala.

“You told him everything?” She accused her brother without a proof.

Dwaye just smirk and turn around, he walk towards the kitchen, leaving her with parted lips and wide eyes. How rude!

“Want something to eat?” Bulong ni Drake sa tenga niya, nakaakbay sa kanya.

“Who cooked?”

“My chef in beach resort.”

“Do they cooked seafoods? Or sweet and spicy dilis?”

Drake let out a soft laugh on her ears. Tumaas ang balahibo niya sa batok sa pagtama ng mainit na hininga nito sa sensitibong parte ng tenga niya.

“That’s the main dish. I told them that my son and my wife wants sea foods.”

My wife? It’s like a music on her ears. Ang sarap naman sa tenga ng salitang ’yon.

“How ’bout the sweet and spicy dilis, love?” May pag-aasam sa tinig niya, nakatingala dito.

Drake gave her a quick kiss on the lips before he speak.

“They cooked it, love. Don’t worry.”

“Thanks,” she tiptoed and kiss the side of his lips. “Ikaw? Nagpaluto ka ba ng paborito mo?”

“Well,” he shrug his shoulder a bit. “Isa lang naman ang paborito kong kainin.”

“What is it?”

Drake tilted his lips closer to her ear again. “Ikaw,” he whisper sexily, making her gulp. “I miss eating you…love,”

She blushed at that. She chew her lips while trying her best to control the fast beating of her heart. He’s seducing her! He’s really good in putting her body on heat.

“M-mamaya,” gusto niyang sambunutan ang sarili sa naging sagot niya!

Drake chuckled huskily on her ear, making her face turn red.

“I wanna tie you in my bed.”

Ngumuso siya. Naiisip ang pagtali nito sa kanya sa kama nung nakaraan.

“Then?” Mahina rin ang boses niya, kahit maingay ang paligid nila.

“I’ll tie your hands and legs…and,” sinadya nitong putulin ang sinasabi.

“And?” She impatiently ask.

Gumapang ang palad nito mula sa likod niya papunta sa tiyan niya at mas lalong idinikit ang labi sa tenga niya. Her body is already in heat. It’s hard for her to stop it. She suddenly ache for his touch. She wants him now!

“…and, you’ll see later.” Then kiss the side of her head. “Let’s eat first. You will need some energy.”

Kung maiinis siya sa sagot ni Drake ay hindi niya alam, but she’s disappointed because she wanted to hear his dirty talks. The hell? What’s happening on her? It’s her son’s birthday, they should celebrate it first before thinking about having a wild sex with Drake!

Drake guided her to the kitchen to eat lunch. Sa hapon naman ay ang party kasama ang mga classmates ni Blake. Right now, silang pamilya at mga kaibigan ni Drake ang kasama ng anak niya sa selebrasyon.

“Is my baby happy?” She ask her son who’s sitting beside her.

She put shrimp on his plate and small amount of rice. There are many different dishes in the long table. It’s not a usual foods for a kid birthday party, but as long as it has seafoods, her son will be okay.

“I’m happy mommy.” Blake answer, smiling to all his visitor.

Sa mahabang lamesa ay naroon nakahelera ang mga kaibigan ni Drake. There are Zyron, Clane, her Kuya Dwaye and Brooke. It was surprising seeing Brooke, they didn’t have the chance to talk yet after they last encountered on the beach. But maybe later when they get the chance?

“And you also have a birthday party later together with your classmates.”

Naglikot sa upuan ang anak. Kumikislap ang mga mata, nagpapakita na totoong masaya. And she felt happy for her son. It’s his birthday, they should be really happy. Right?

“Where is the party?”

Napangiwi siya. Saan nga ba gaganapin?

“In our beach hotel, son.” Drake answered. “We’ll go there after lunch. Is that okay to you?”

“I thought I don’t have a birthday party…”

“Pwede ba ’yon?” Zyron grin. “You’re very special Blake. Hindi pwedeng walang birthday party.”

“Right,” Brooke agreed and sip on his wine.

“And more gifts and visitors to arrive soon. This day will be a very special day, Blake.” Her brother said meaningfully then smirk at Drake who seems very careful in his every move and every words.

“Because after your birthday party is a—”

“Shut it up Fuentes.” Drake cut off Zyron.

Napapatingin nalang siya sa mga naggagwapuhang lalaki sa harap niya. May mga kislap sa mata ng mga ito na parang sila lang ni Blake ang hindi nakakaalam kung ano.

“Something is up daddy?” Usisa ng anak niya, marahil ay napansin din ang mga nakaw na sulyapan ng mga magkakaibigan.

“We’ll share it to you later, buddy,” Zyron thumb ups on Blake.

“What is it? Why it seems like you guys are hiding something from me?” She arch her eyebrow and form her lips into thin line.

Ang mga lalaki ay biglang nagsiyuko at nagpatuloy sa pagkain. Walang mga balak na kausapin siya.

“Boys talk, mommy.” Blake said and smile sweetly at her.

Ngumuso siya at galit na inirapan si Drake. There’s really something going on and she didn’t know it. She doesn’t have any idea what is it!

Hanggang sa natapos silang kumain ng pananghalian ay walang naglakas-loob na sagutin ang tanong niya kanina. She left the boys on the living area and went to their bedroom to take a shower before going to beach hotel. Kakapasok niya palang sa silid nila nang bumukas ulit ang pinto at narinig niya ang pag double lock niyon.

Nilingon niya kung sino ang pangahas at gano’n na lamang ang pagtalon ng puso niya nang makita si Drake na mataman man na nakatingin sa kanya ay bakas naman ang lagkit at init na bumabalot sa magaganda nitong mga mata.

Napalunok siya.

“Drake…” his name escape her lips softly.

He took a steps until he reach her. He’s towering her with his muscular built that she needed to tilted her head up to get a glimpse on his face. The back of her knees touches the edge of the bed, if he would take another step, siguradong mapapaupo na siya sa kama.

“It’s hot outside,” his deep baritone making her gulp again. She suddenly felt suffocated with their distance.

“W-would you like to take a cold s-shower?”

His eyes burning with so much longing that combine with lust. His lips were protruded slightly, trying to hide a smirk.

“I would love that,”

“P-pagkatapos ko—”

“Hindi ba pwedeng sabay?” Paos ang boses nito at mas lalo pang idinikit ang katawan sa kanya.

Wala sa sariling napahakbang siya patalikod at napatili nang ma-out balance siya, mabuti nalang ay maagap na nayapos ng matitigas na braso ni Drake ang bewang niya. He pulled her closer, making her feel his hardness poking her belly. Heat consumed her.

“Y-your…Ahm, y-your…” she can’t even finish her sentence.

“What, love?”

Inirapan niya ito para itago ang pag-gapang ng init sa pisngi niya. She place her palms on his hard chest and pout her lips a little.

“Your hard thing is poking me,”

“And then?”

He started kissing her forehead, down to the tip of her nose slowly.

“You need a cold shower,”

“No, I need a release.”

She slap his chest. “Ang bastos mo.”

His lips travel down to her cheek and jaw.

“What’s the meaning of your ‘mamaya’? Do you really think I forgot that, huh?”

Gumapang ang labi nito sa leeg niya at bahagyang sinipsip ang iba’t-ibang parte niyon. Napapapikit nalang siya at napapakapit ng mariin sa damit nito.

“M-mamayang gabi.” Mahinang wika niya.

Pigil ang ungol niya nang bumaba ang labi ni Drake sa ibabaw ng dibdib niya. Hinahalik-halikan iyon kahit natatakpan pa ng damit niya.

“I want now,” Tiningala siya nito. Malamlam na parang lasing ang mga mata. “Please?”

She bit the side of her cheek and nod slowly. Drake lips form a sexy smile. Napatili siya nang bigla siya nitong pinangko at dinala sa shower room.

She expect him to move fast by removing her clothes but she was wrong. Drake slowly undress her while staring at her intently. Itinaas niya ang dalawang braso upang mahubad nito ang dress niya. She’s now standing there, wearing her underwear.

“Turn around,” he said gently.

She turn around, facing the tiled wall. Her eyes shut close when she felt his fingers on her back, he unhooked her brassier. Maingat na nahigit niya ang hininga nang mabagal na ibinaba ni Drake ang magkabilang strap ng bra niya. She watch her brassier erotically falling down the tiled floor. Bumagsak iyon sa paa niya sa nakakaakit na paraan.

“Hmm,”

Alexza bit her bottom lips when he slowly slid his palms from her waist up to her breasts while he was giving her nape a wet kisses. His callous palms on her breasts were giving her a tingling sensation. He’s massaging her breasts and pinching her nips at the same time.

She tilted her head on the side giving him a complete access to her neck. Binabalot na ng init ang buo niyang katawan. Wala siyang mahagilap na dahilan para tupukin iyon. She likes the heat he was giving her.

“Face me,” paos na bulong nito at bahagyang dumistansya sa kanya.

Marahan na humugot siya ng malalim na hininga bago unti-unting humarap dito. Parang nagbara ng husto ang lalamunan niya nang bumaba ang mukha ni Drake sa dibdib niya at masuyong dinadampian ng halik ang paligid ng ut*ng niya. Her nipple hardened the moment his lips touched it.

“Umm, Drake…oh,”

Impit ang naging ungol niya nang maramdaman ang isang dunggot niya sa loob ng mainit na bibig ni Drake. Sinisipsip nito iyon sa napakasuyong paraan.

Minamasahe ng isang kamay nito ang isang dibdib niya, habang ang isang kamay ay humihimas sa hiwa niya na natatakpan ng kapirasong tela. Ang gitnang daliri ay tinutumbok ang tila nakatagong perlas. She parted her legs a bit to help him find her hidden pearl.

“Drake, ohh…”

Napapikit siya ng lumipat ang bibig nito sa kabilang dunggot niya at iyon naman ang pinagtuunan ng atensyon. Pinapaikot nito ang dila sa ut*ng niya tapos ay ipapasok sa bibig at sisipsipin na para bang sanggol na uhaw.

Napakapit siya sa buhok nito nang bumaba na ang labi nito sa may tiyan niya. She look down on him and she saw that he’s kneeling in front of her. His arms were around her waist. He’s kissing her lower stomach.

“Take off your clothes, love,” she said softly.

Tiningala siya nito, may pananabik sa mga mata, hindi nabubura. He slowly unbutton his polo shirt. She’s watching how his veined hard muscles move while undressing himself. Then her fingers reach for his hair and brush it gently.

“Hot,” she murmured as he finally removed his polo shirt, showing his broad chest and the ripped hard muscles on his stomach.

Drake lick his bottom lips before he trail his fingers on the hem of her lacy underwear. Mariin na napakagat labi siya habang pinapanood itong ibaba ang kapirasong tela na ’yon.

“Drake…” lumambing ng husto ang boses niya.

“Shaved,” he smirk while staring at her private part.

She blush.

Hindi naman siguro nito iniisip na pinaghahandaan niya ito palagi? They’re living in the same roof and there’s always a big possibility that they can have their quality time. Knowing Drake, he love when she shaved.

Ibinaba pa nito ang underwear niya hanggang sa umabot iyon sa talampakan. Kinailangan niya pang i-angat ng bahagya ang binti upang tuluyang mahubad. She lifted her one leg a bit and she heard him curse under his breath while looking at her shaved p*ssy.

Nag-init ng husto ang buong mukha niya paikot sa batok niya nang makita ang labis na pagpipigil ni Drake na huwag munang sambahin ang pagkababae niya.

Tiningala siya ni Drake nang tuluyan ng mawala ang sagabal na tela sa katawan niya. He wrap his arms around her again and pulled her closer to him, making her feel the stubbles on his divided chin above her shaved private part.

“Do you know how much I missed this?” Paos na wika nito at dinampian ng halik ang ibabaw ng pagkababae niya. Halik palang ay parang gusto ng mabuwal ng mga tuhod niya.

She swallow hard and shook her head. Sinuklay niya ang buhok nito gamit ang mga daliri.

“How much you missed that?”

“Wanna know how much I missed this shaved p*ssy?”

Mabilis na sinalakay ng init ang buo niyang katawan sa dirty talks nito.

“I wanna know,” halos pabulong na sambit niya.

“I could eat you all day, you know that.”

“We can’t do it now. You know,” she naughtily smile at him. “Ahm, ten minutes?”

“No, one hour?”

Her eyes widened. Ikinipot niya bigla ang mga binti pero maagap na nahadlangan siya ni Drake.

“There are people who’s waiting for us outside.”

“I already talk to them.”

“About what?”

“That you need to rest first before anything else.”

“You did that?”

Drake just smirk at her before he pulled her closer, umalon ang tiyan niya nang tumama ang mainit na hininga nito sa puson niya. Using his thumb and forefinger he parted her fold, nakita niyang inilabas nito ang dulo ng dila at inumpisahang sungkil-sungkilin ang perlas niya, tila pinapalabas ’yon.

“Ohhh, Drake! Ummm! Ohhh!”

Hindi niya na pinigil pa ang pag-ungol sa bawat marahas na paghagod ng dila ng lalaki sa pagkababae niya. Ipinaghiwalay niya ang mga hita at napasambunot kay Drake nang ikiskis at idiniin nito ang dila sa hiwa niya. She can feel her wetness and she could not stop it. Para siyang mawawala sa sarili kung hihinto pa ito sa ginagawa sa kanya.

“Oh my…aaahhh, yes! Yes please…oh Drake…” she moan wildly and grind her hips desperately.

Sinisigurado ni Drake na sa bawat galaw ng balakang niya ay tinatamaan ng dila nito ang hiyas niya. The tip of his tongue was teasing and playing her cl*t, making her moan loudly.

“Aaahhh, I think I’m gonna cum, love… ohhh,” hingal na sambit niya, nakatingala. Mariin ang kapit sa buhok ni Drake.

Hinawakan nito ang isang hita niya at ipinatong sa balikat nito ng hindi tumitigil sa pagkain sa kanya. Her knees wobbles when she felt her orgasm coming down.

“Ummm,” masarap na ungol ni Drake habang sarap na sarap sa pagdila sa basang-basang pagkababae niya.

She look down on him and arch her body again while watching his tongue expertly licking her womanhood. He eats her like he never been tasted her before. Mas uhaw na uhaw ito sa kanya na wala pa silang ilang minuto ay ramdam niya na ang paparating na orgasmo.

Mahigpit ang pagsambunot niya kay Drake at napalakas ng husto ang ungol niya nang inipit ng labi nito ang cl*t niya at sinipsip ng paulit-ulit. Alam na alam nito kung ano ang kahinaan niya at kung saan siya mas sarap na sarap.

Nangatog ang mga binti niya at napatingkayad. Ipinagduldulan niya ang pagkababae kay Drake nang halos abot kamay niya na ang orgasmo.

“Drake! Love! Ooohhh! Ummm!” Napasigaw siya sa sarap ng walang patid nitong pinagsisipsip ang cl*t niya dahilan kung bakit halos mabuwal siya sa tindi ng orgasmong lumabas sa kanya. “Damn it feels so good…” nanghihina na sambit niya at hinihingal habang si Drake ay dinidilaan ang katas niya at lulunukin.

Unang orgasmo palang ay ramdam niya na ang panghihina ng katawan.Hindi niya na kaya pa yata ang isang round.

“Please stop, love…” she weakly brush his hair.

Drake was licking her womanhood slowly. Lahat ng parte ng pagkababae niya ay dinadaanan ng dila nito. Napapaigtad siya sa tuwing ipinapasok nito ang pinatigas na dila sa butas ng pagkababae niya. She bit her lips and rested her back at the tiled wall when he started tongue-fucking her!

“Ooh Drake! Ohhhh! Ahhhmmm…”

Mariin ang kapit nito sa binti niyang nakapatong sa balikat nito, habang ang isa ay dinala rin nito sa kabilang balikat. Ang lahat ng bigat niya ay salo lahat ni Drake but he doesn’t mind it. Ang malamig na tiles sa likod niya ay tinatalo ng init ng dila ng lalaki sa pagkababae niya.

Umiikot ang dila nito na para bang hindi pa sapat ang pagkain na ginagawa sa kanya. She grind her hips and let her man eat her wildly and hungrily.

“I’m cuming again! Ohhh damn it! Ohhhh, ang sarap…sige pa, love…”

Hibang na hibang na siya sa sarap at wala na siyang pakialam pa sa malalakas na ungol niya.

Her body is shouting his name. Her body wants him. Her body is only belongs to him. She did not let other man touch her, but him. She’s belongs to him. She’s only to him.

Her another orgasm exploded. Hindi niya na mabilang kung ilan beses siyang nilabasan. Her body is really weak and tired.

“Ohh please, Drake… stop na…” halos magmakaawa na siya.

Maingat na ibinaba ni Drake ang mga binti niya mula sa balikat nito at binigyan ng magaan na halik ang pagkababae niya bago siya niyakap ng nakaluhod. He seems like he’s worshipping her literally.

“That’s only thirty minutes, love.” He whisper.

Hinihingal na bumagsak ang kamay niya sa ulo nito at yumakap. The hard muscles on his back is proud and hot. Hindi na siya nagtataka kung bakit kayang-kaya nito ang bigat niya. He can even throw her in bed in different position while making love.

“That’s why I feel so tired…but very satisfied.”

“Another round tonight?”

“Hindi pa sapat ang thirty minutes?”

“Kung kasing sarap mo ang kakainin ko, hindi ’yon sapat.”

Hinarap nito ang tiyan niya at hinalik-halikan iyon. He really like doing that on her. Kissing and caressing her stomach. And it feels good.

“Pagkain na ako ngayon?”

“Dati pa kitang pagkain. Ikaw lang ang kinakain ko na hindi ko pagsasawaan.”

Uminit ang pisngi niya. Bakit ba nakakakilig sa pandinig ’yon kahit na ang laswa naman.

“Hindi bola ’yan?”

“I’m not that kind, you know that, love.”

“Fine, alis ka na riyan. Maligo na tayo.”

“I could stay like this. Go on and take a shower.”

“How can I wash my ahm,” Tukoy niya sa pagkababae niya.

“I’ll be the one who will wash your shaved pinkish p*ssy.”

“Drake!” Sita niya, siya ang mas nahihiya sa pinagsasasabi nito.

He look up on her, he was hiding a grin. “What?”

“You’re doing dirty talks,”

“And that turns you on,” he pointed out. “Sabihin mo sa akin na ako lang ang kakain nito.”

Kinapa nito ang pagkababae niya gamit ang daliri. Itinikom niya ang bibig upang hindi mapaungol at ikinipot ang mga binti.

At Bakit ba siya nahihiya? Bakit ba pakiramdam niya ay nangangamatis ang mukha niya? Hell! Hindi niya na nga mabilang kung ilang beses siya nitong kinain kaya bakit pa siya nahihiya!

Tango lang ang sinagot niya at mukha hindi iyon sapat. He wasn’t convinced. Tumikhim siya upang matanggal ang bara sa lalamunan.

“I-Ikaw lang naman ang k-kumakain niyan,”

Drake smirk. “Good,”

And to her surprised he parted her legs again and delve in.

“Drake!” She gasped when she felt his lips kissing her womanhood.

Napatingala na lang siya at muling dinama kung paano sambahin ang pagkababae niya ng nag-iisang lalaking nagmamay-ari sa kanya mula pa noon hanggang sa ngayon.

29 ~ Promised

CHAPTER TWENTY NINE

IT WAS one hot afternoon for her and Drake. It’s tiring but very satisfying even if it’s just a make out inside their bathroom. No sex or making love. She really admired how good he is in controlling himself even he was hard already. After his eating time for almost one hour

they showered together and went outside their bedroom.

She can’t even believe herself how she managed to stand there while Drake is between her thighs for almost one hour! Kaya habang naglalakad sila papasok sa hotel ay pakiramdam niya ay may gumagalaw pa rin sa pagkababae niya.

Alexza wrap her hand on Drake’s arm possessively when they enter on the lobby and she saw all the female guests looking on their direction. The man look down on her, there’s a smirk on his sexy lips.

“Don’t look,” she whisper, almost avoiding his gaze.

“Sayo lang ako titingin, Alexza.” Anito at hindi nga nagtangkang lumingon sa mga guests kahit pa sa mga hotel staffs na bumabati sa kanila.

Sino ba naman kasi ang hindi mapapatingin sa gawi nila kung halos magkakasabay na naglalakad ang mga lalaking nag-gagwapuhan? And it seems like all of them are single, except to Drake because she’s sure that Drake is hers. Go girl! Claim him!

“Enjoy your stay here, girls! See you around!” Zyron winked at the women who was giggling when he passes them.

He’s holding Blake’s small hand who just smile and waved at the guests. Nauuna ng bahagya ang dalawa maglakad sa kanila. Blake’s also fresh from bath and he’s wearing a baby blue polo long sleeve, it tucked-in on his khaki pants, plus his expensive belt and leather shoes. Almost same with Drake’s outfit.

“Tangna feeling gwapo na naman si gago,” She heard her brother said, they’re walking behind them with Brooke and Clane.

“Papaalisin na nga ’yan ni Drake dito sa hotel.” It was Brooke, she could hear the sarcasm on his voice.

“Why?” Clane emotionless tone makes her frown. That’s his normal tone and she’s still not use to it.

“Different women come and go to his room and it disturb the guests who’s in the same floor at his. Maingay.”

“Is that true?” She ask Drake. “Papaalisin mo na si Zyron dito sa Hotel?”

“I can’t do that. I just need to talk to him ’bout his women.”

“He’s charming. Women likes him.”

“He’s a pro player, women shouldn’t fall for him if…”

“…if they don’t want to get hurt?” She pointed out.

“Yes,” he simply said as they enter to the elevator.

“Go ahead, susunod kami.” Wika ng Kuya Dwaye niya na hindi pumasok sa elevator kasama sina Brooke at Clane.

Sumara ang elevator na apat silang sakay. Si Zyron at Blake ang kasabay nila.

“Mommy, do I look handsome like daddy?”

Nakatingala sa kanya si Blake na nasa harap niya. She comb his hair with her palm and smile at him.

“Very handsome baby. Mas gwapo ka pa nga sa daddy mo, eh.”

“Woah,” Drake reacted, he’s standing beside her. His hand is at the small of her back.

“Mag kasing gwapo tayo, buddy.” Zyron mutter playfully. “Did you see how women giggle when I greeted them?”

“Opo Ninong-Pogi,” inosenteng tumango ang anak.

“Gano’n ka rin dapat paglaki mo. Pakiligin mo ang mga babae para mahulog sa’yo.”

“Mahulog po sa akin?”

“Yup. Girls should fall in love with you just by your smile.”

“Tinuturuan mo pa ang anak kong mambabae, Fuentes.” Drake interrupted. “Blake, don’t listen to your Ninong. You’re still young to study girls.”

Nakamaang si Blake sa dalawang lalaki. Attentive na nakikinig.

“Oh-oh, you have such a kj father, Blake.”

“What’s kj Ninong?”

Zyron laugh amusingly. “It’s kill joy. Damn, why do you have to be so cute? Gusto ko na tuloy magkaanak.”

“Pwede naman, basta sa babaeng mahal mo lang.” Napatingin si Zyron sa kanya dahil sa sinabi niya. “Dapat hindi puro panganay.”

The man didn’t have the chance to speak his mind when the elevator stop and the door wide open. Sa event hall ng hotel ay naroon na ang mga kaklase ni Blake kasama ang mga magulang ng mga ito. The birthday party for kids is well organized and it impressed her. She even saw her co-teachers and the owner of school.

“You planned all this?” Mangha na tanong niya kay Drake.

“Yearly. Hindi pwedeng hindi i-celebrate ang birthday ng anak natin.”

“I’m happy to be here, Drake.” She look around, all are enjoying the party. “I don’t know how did you manage to plan all of this.”

“I have my people to help me and of course the brutes are always there to help.” He’s referring to his friends who’s now busy talking to different persons.

“Sorry to interrupt, but boss, Mr. Lim is looking for you. He’s there.” May itinurong matandang lalaki ang secretary ni Drake.

“Okay, I’ll be there in a minute.”

Magalang na umalis sa harap nila ang secretary pagkatapos sabihin ’yon ni Drake. Inayos niya ang collar ng polo long sleeve nito nang makitang medyo hindi iyon perpekto.

“Go ahead and talk to them. I’ll be fine here.”

“I’ll be right back, okay?” He kiss her lips before he turn his back on her.

Ilan sandali pa ay mas naging busy na ang lahat sa pakikipag-usap sa mga bisita. Nakikita niya sa mata ng halos lahat ang pagtataka kung bakit sobrang lapit nila ni Drake pero wala naman nagtangkang magtanong pa.

Blake is now sitting on the center couch for a birthday celebrant. His eyes were twinkle with so much happiness while he’s looking around. Napuno rin ng regalo ang kabilang bahagi ng lugar, halos katabi lang ang limang palapag na cake. Indeed that the birthday party is well-planned and organized without her knowledge.

It’s surprising on her part. She stand as his mother but she do nothing for her son’s birthday. She focused on her baby angel’s death anniversary so much and now she felt being selfish with Blake.

“Hey,” that voice making her blink, pulling her away from her deep thought.

She glance at the man who’s standing beside her, he almost towering her with his wide and intimidating built. His expensive perfume isn’t that strong, it’s enough for her to stay close to him.

“Kuya, ikaw pala.” Ibinalik niya ang tingin kay Blake, he’s all smile. “Ang saya-saya niya ’no?”

“Yeah, he’s a happy kid.” Dwaye sip on his glass wine. The veined on his hands protruded slightly. “He looks more happy today. What did you do?”

“We just went to the cliff this morning,” Nakita niya sa gilid ng kanyang mata na natigil sa pagsimsim ang kapatid. “Masakit pa rin, Kuya Dwaye.” She confessed.

“I thought you’ve move on. You look happy being with them.”

“I am, it’s just that…” she sigh. “…I’m still affected on what happened. It has been five years, I should accept it, right? Hindi talaga siya para sa amin kaya siya kinuha.”

“I’m sorry, Alexza.” He whisper out of the blue.

“For what?”

“For not being with you that time.”

“You helped me a lot, Kuya. You helped me for almost everything while I was carrying my son. You helped me escape from our parents. You don’t need to apologize.”

“I wish I was there to save you.” There’s a regret on his voice. “I broke my promises to you, Alexza. I should be more responsible in protecting you and the baby but I wasn’t good enough to do it.”

“Kuya…you did enough for me and for my baby.” She almost whispering. “I thank you for that.”

Nakita niya ang pamumula ng mga mata nito at ang marahas na paggalaw ng panga. The way he hold the wine glass para bang isang piga pa ay mababasag na iyon sa kamay nito at dadanak ang dugo.

Hindi niya rin masisisi ang kapatid sa kung anuman ang nararamdaman nito sa nangyari sa kanila ng anak niya. He felt responsible in protecting them. But with all his help, she’s really grateful to have a brother like him. Alam niyang nasaktan din ito sa nangyari pero bakit pakiramdam niya mas nangingibabaw ang galit dito?

“I shouldn’t left you escape alone knowing that your body’s still weak.”

Nangislap ang magkabilang gilid ng mga mata niya. Inaalala ang mga pangyayaring palaging laman ng panaginip niya.

Ang dami-daming sana sa puso niya. Sana hindi nalang nangyari ang lahat ng iyon. Sana hindi nalang niya iniwan si Drake. Sana naging mas malakas pa siya nung mga panahon na ’yon. Sana lumaban pa siya. At sana…buhay nalang ang anak niya.

“You’re done doing your part as my brother. Please, stop blaming yourself just because I lost my son. Alam natin dalawa kung paano mo ako tinulungan makalayo sa kanila kahit na masaktan ka pa. You are the best brother in the world. You are more than enough for me as your sister.”

“I still broke my promises.” He sounds disappointed at himself.

“You saved me. You helped me. And that’s enough Kuya Dwaye.”

“It wasn’t enough!” Anger on his voice. Napatingala ito at mariin na napapikit. Bigong-bigo ang itsura sa mga sandaling iyon. “I should have take your son away from you like what I’ve promised. Right?”

Muli siya nitong tinignan at ngayon ay nakita niya ang mas lalong pamumula sa madilim na mga mata nito. Pagsisisi at galit ang siyang tanging isinisigaw ng mga matang iyon.

“I-It was my fault. Not yours. I chose to be with my son. Please, please, don’t blame yourself, Kuya Dwaye. Ako ang dahilan kung bakit siya nawala. A-Ako ang kasama niya sa huling b-buhay niya.”

Mangiyak-ngiyak na siya. Sobra ang pagpipigil niya sa mga luhang gusto ng kumawala. She doesn’t want to ruin Blake’s birthday because of their emotions. Everyone is having fun, except to her and Dwaye. They’re standing there, carefully talking and reminiscing the painful past.

LUMIPAS ang magdamag na walang distorbo sa pagtulog ni Alexza. Na kahit ang pag-iyak ng baby niya ay hindi niya na namalayan sa sarap ng tulog niya.

“Good morning,” her brother greeted her.

He was fresh from shower and already wearing a new clothes. She look around and see that the room is a bit huge. With kitchen, mini sala with large tv screen and bathroom.

“Where are we?” Gulat na tanong niya. Ang anak niya ay mahimbing na natutulog sa tabi niya.

“Still in the hospital,”

“Are you sure? This isn’t my room, Kuya Dwaye!”

“Stop panicking, Alexza. We are in my friend’s penthouse in this hospital.” He put a glass of milk on the side table near her. “His family own this hospital. Stop worrying and drink your milk.”

“Are we safe here?”

“I bring some security in this hospital. We could stay here for another days unless you can travel already?”

“M-medyo masakit pa ang tahi ko.”

“That’s what I’m thinking. More rest for you.”

“Thanks for everything—”

“Shut up, eat and get some rest again.” His brother leered and walk to the veranda, holding a cup of coffee.

Ibinaba niya ang tingin sa baby sa tabi niya. Tignan niya lang ang anak niya ay napapangiti na siya.

“Good morning baby. Aren’t you hungry? Who feed you last night?”

Then she saw a milk bottled almost beside him. Maybe her brother feed her son using milk on the bottle so he do not need to disturb her sleep. Right.

She look at her brother on the veranda, she’s facing her back, his cellphone is on his ear. He’s talking to someone on the line. After a few minutes, he went inside again. He sat on the couch, while she’s eating.

“Sino ang kausap mo kanina?” Curious niyang tanong.

“Drake,”

Muntik na siyang masamid kaya mabilis na nainom niya ang gatas. Napatingin siya sa anak niya at napangiwi ng umiyak iyon bigla.

“Hush, hush,” alo niya. “Grabe ka naman anak. Narinig mo lang ang pangalan ng daddy mo, umiyak ka kaagad.”

“He’s secretly looking for you, too.” Dwaye informed, making her eye him again. “You know, I’d rather choose you to be with him than be with that Herrera. Huwag mo ng pahirapan ang sarili mo, Alexza. Bumalik ka na kay Drake.”

“He cheated on me!”

“Forgive him.”

“No!” Matigas na giit niya. “I wasn’t enough for him. I don’t think he deserve me and our baby.”

“He have the rights. Pagbalik-baliktarin mo man ang mundo, may karapatan siya sa anak niyo, Alexza. Mababaliw na ’yung tao kakahanap sa’yo.”

“Hindi ako naniniwala—”

“At kung hindi ako magaling magtago, ilang araw palang siguradong nahanap ka na niya.”

“He’s a cheater! He deserves it!”

“And how about you? Do you deserve to run away? When you could do something ’bout it, than hiding.”

She massage her temple. Hindi na dapat pa nilang pinag-uusapan ang isa pang problema niya. She needs to avoid talking ’bout Drake.

“I will give him the rights to be a father, but please, not now. Masyado pang magulo ang isip ko at kumplekado pa ang sitwasyon. Mababaliw na ako sa kakaisip Kuya Dwaye.”

Dwaye let out a loud breath. He lay down on the long grey couch. He covered his eyes with his arm.

“Stop thinking then and rest for the whole day.”

“But, if something bad happened to me—”

“I would not let bad things happen to you!” He cut her off firmly.

“Just listen first, please?” He remain silent so she continue. “We can’t predict what will happen next, I want you to give me a favor this time.”

“Another favor, huh?”

She could almost hear the sarcasm on her brother’s voice. But she ignore it.

“If ever mommy caught me and push me to marry Tommy, please…” she stare sadly at her baby.

“Please what, Alexza?”

She took a deep breath and she slowly let it out. It’s hurt thinking that there’s a possibility that she could be away with her son, but what matter to her right now is her baby’s safety. She can fight alone. She could endure all the pain as long as she knows that her son is fine and alive even without him by her side.

“…if something bad happened to me…please bring my baby to Drake. Promise me that, Kuya.”

Dwaye look at her intently, trying to read her. There’s a hesitation written on his handsome face but eventually he nod his head and clear his throats in a very careful way.

“I promise.” He sincerely said without breaking an eye contact.

With that words, she found her serenity.

30 ~ Memories

CHAPTER THIRTY

“ALEXZA, wake up. Wake up.”

She sleepily open her eyes from her deep sleep when she felt someone patted her shoulder carefully. Nabungaran niya ang kapatid na nakatunghay sa kanya.

“Bakit Kuya?” Paos pa ang boses niya.

“We need to leave now. As in now.”

Her eyes widened when reality hit her. Hinagilap kaagad ng mga mata niya ang anak sa gilid niya. Balot na balot na ito, handang-handa nang umalis.

“Are they here?”

“They’re coming. My men informed me about their arrival anytime from now. Come on,” Dwaye hurriedly but carefully help her to get up from bed.

Ibinalot siya nito sa makapal na coat at sinuotan siya ng bonet sa ulo. He even kneel down to cover her feet with thick socks and wear a comfy shoes. Her clothes warm her.

“S-saan tayo magpupunta?”

“I already bought you and your son a plane ticket to Cebu. You could stay in my condo unit there for another days before you fly to Canada. It’s in that bag,” itinuro nito ang shoulder bag niya. “Everything you need is there.”

“P-Paano ka?”

“Don’t mind me, Alexza. What we need right now is for you to escape. Understand?”

He take a glance at her son and he sighed.

“We’ll be fine, right?”

“Of course. I won’t let them catch you.”

May kaba pa rin sa dibdib niya. Bakit pakiramdam niya ay may hindi magandang mangyayari? Bakit pakiramdam niya nag-aabang sa kanilang mag-ina ang panganib?

“Kuya, ’yung promise mo ha? Si baby…” nag-umpisa ng mag-init ang magkabilang sulok ng mga mata niya.

“Walang mangyayari sa’yo. Ayokong isipin na may mangyayari sa’yo para lang matupad ko ’yung pangako ko.”

“But you promised me!”

Dwaye blows a loud frustrated breath. He’s eyebrows furrowed impatiently. His face stoic and his jaw were moving uncontrolledly.

“Do you really want to be away with your son?”

Naaawa at naiiyak na kinarga niya ang anak. Maisip niya palang na malalayo siya dito ay parang mababaliw na siya. Wala itong kamuang-muang sa mundo. At ayaw niyang lumaki ito na wala siya. Gusto niyang makasama ang anak niya.

“A-ayoko, ayokong malayo sa kanya.” Nahulog ang luha sa braso niya, malapit sa pisngi ng anak. “Hindi ko kayang iwan siya, Kuya.”

“Then bring him to you. Okay?” Dwaye wipe her tears with his thumb. “Huwag kang umiyak. Ang pangit mo,”

Ngumuso siya at paiyak na natawa.

“I’ll bring him with me.” Desididong wika niya at maingat na umalis sa kama karga ang anak.

“Can you drive?”

Napalingon siya sa kapatid. “Hindi ka sasama sa’min?”

“Susunod ako sa inyo do’n.”

“I think I can drive, hindi na naman masakit ang tahi ko.”

Pinakiramdaman niya ang sarili. Medyo nawala na nga ang kirot ng tahi niya at bumalik na kahit papano ang nawalang lakas sa kanya pero aaminin niya sa sarili na mahina pa talaga ang katawan niya. She need more rest but she need to escape.

“I’ll convoy you to make sure you’re safe. Okay?”

Karga ang anak niya ay sabay silang lumabas sa penthouse. Her brother is holding her shoulder bag and her baby’s bag. Sumakay sila sa elevator at nagulat pa siya nang may sumakay din na dalawang unipormadong lalaki. Hindi man halata ay alam niyang armado ang dalawa.

“K-Kuya,”

Halos ikulong niya ang anak sa bisig niya, natatakot na baka kunin sa kanya.

“Mga tao ko sila.”

“Nasa lobby na po ang ilang tauhan ni Herrera.” Imporma nung isa.

“Marami ba?” Malamig na tanong ni Dwaye.

“Oo boss pero hindi sila makagalaw dahil may mga security din sa hospital at may mga tao rin tayo do’n.”

Isang tipid na tango lang ang naging tugon ng kapatid habang siya ay binabalot na ng kakaibang kaba.

“Sa basement tayo boss. Nandon ang sasakyan niyo.” Imporma nung isa pa na maskulado.

Wala pang tatlong minuto ay huminto na ang elevator at bumukas ang pinto niyon. Naunang lumabas ang dalawa na kapwa agresibo sa paligid. Nang masiguradong walang ibang tao ay saka sila pinalabas at iginaya sa hindi pamilyar na sasakyan.

Nakamasid ang dalawa sa paligid habang ang kapatid niya ay inilagay sa backseat ang mga bag. Paglabas nito ay may dala ng baby basket na kulay blue.

“Put your baby here,”

Maingat na inilagay niya do’n ang anak at maliit na napangiti. Tulug na tulog ang anak niya, wala man lang alam sa nangyayari.

“Boss, kailangan na natin umalis. Nakapasok na raw sa loob ang mga tao ni Herrera.”

Dwaye open the passenger seat and she put the basket on the seat. She closed the door and turn her head to her brother.

She hug him, teary eyes.

“Kuya, thank you.”

Dwaye hug her back and caress her hair. He even kiss the op of her head.

“This is the only thing I can do for you right now.”

“This is enough,”

“Nasa likod mo lang ako, okay? Hindi kasi tayo pwedeng magsama sa iisang sasakyan.”

“Bakit?”

Bahagya siya nitong inilayo dito at sinakop ng palad ang pisngi niya. May pangamba sa mga mata na pilit na itinatago sa kanya.

“They’re hunting me.”

“W-why? What did you do to them?”

Her brother just smile and kiss her on the forehead.

“I’ll tell you some other time.” He wink at her and patted her shoulder. “Get in.”

Huling sulyap ang ginawa niya bago tuluyang pumasok sa sasakyan. She started the engine before looking down on her baby.

“We can do this, okay?” Kausap niya dito. “Hindi kita papabayaan anak.”

Humugot siya ng isang malalim na buntong hininga at sumulyap sa rear view mirror kung saan may itim rin na sasakyan sa likod niya. Si Dwaye ang lulan niyon.

Naunang umandar ang isa pang itim na sasakyan sa harap niya, tanda na pinapasunod siya. Nakasakay do’n ang isang tauhan ng kapatid.

Alexza heaved a deep sigh and started driving. She convoy the car in front of her while her brother car is behind her and the other black car is following him.

Pasulyap-sulyap siya sa anak na paingit-ingit habang umaandar ang sasakyan palabas sa basement. Marahil ay naninibago at gumagalaw ito.

“Sorry baby, we need to do this.”

The cellphone on the dash board suddenly rang. Hindi niya iyon napansin kanina, bahagya niyang sinilip iyon at nakitang ang kapatid niya ang tumatawag. Nahihirapan na pinindot niya ang answer button at ang loud speaker.

“Yes, Kuya?”

“Follow that black car no matter what happen, understand?” The authority of his voice tell her that they’re in trouble.

She took at quick glance at the rear view mirror and saw different cars are following them. Ang headlights ng bawat sasakyan ay nakakasilaw sa mata.

Alexza gulp hardly. Ang kaba sa dibdib niya ay unti-unti na namang umaahon.

“Who’s behind your car?” Kalmado niyang tanong kahit na sa loob-loob niya ay nag-uunahan na ang mga daga.

“Just do what I told you to do, Alexza.”

“They’re following us! Right?”

“Your car is fully tinted. Hindi nila malalaman na ikaw ’yan.”

“Sinusundan nga nila tayo!” Hysteria na sabi niya. “They’re following us to catch me and take my baby away from me!”

“Focus on driving, Alexza. Focus.” Kalmado ang boses nito habang siya ay gusto ng mag-panic. “They’re still trying to figure out your location, please, don’t make a stupid move that would catch their attention.”

Nanginig ang labi niya. Nahulog ang mga luha ng takot at pangamba. Napasulyap ulit siya sa anak na mahimbing na ulit na natutulog. Sa anak niya siya kumukuha ng lakas ng loob para takasan at lagpasan lahat ng pagsubok ng buhay. Hindi pwedeng mawala sa kanya ang anak niya, ikababaliw niya!

“K-Kuya Dwaye please don’t cut off the line,” takot na pakiusap niya.

“I won’t. I’ll be right here behind you. Huwag kang matakot.”

“Kukunin nila ang baby ko…”

Pati ang mga kamay niya sa manibela ay nanginginig na. Sa sobrang pangamba niya ay hindi niya na iniintindi pa ang pagkirot ng tahi niya sa tuwing gumagalaw ang paa niya. She can endure physical pain, that doesn’t matter now.

“Hindi natin hahayaan na kunin nila sa’yo ang pamangkin ko.” May itinatagong galit sa boses nito. “I’m willing to kill just to save you and your baby, I tell you.”

Gusto niyang mapanatag pero hindi niya talaga magawa lalo at ang mga sasakyan sa likod niya ay nag-uunahan sa harap nila at ang iba ay pinag-gigitnaan siya.

“Kuya! What are they doing?!” She ask, panic on her voice.

“Just focus on driving.” Bilin nito sa mas may otoridad na tono.

Nang sulyapan niya ang sasakyan sa likod ay hindi na mahagilap ng mata niya ang sasakyan ng kapatid kaya mas lalo siyang kinain ng pangamba.

“K-Kuya? Where are you? I can’t see your car!”

Dwaye clear his throat. Ilang sandali bago ito nakapagsalita.

“I’m just here. I’m watching you—fuck!”

Muli ay napasulyap siya sa mga sasakyan at nakita niyang may mga nag-gigitgitan na sa kalsada. Her brother black car was in between of two van, messing with him.

“K-Kuya! I saw your car!”

“I’m f-fine.”

Sa background nito ay rinig niya ang matitinis na paggitgit ng sasakyan sa magkabilang gilid nito. Napangiwi siya at napaiyak sa takot at sa isipin na nasasaktan ang kapatid niya sa mga sandaling ’yon.

“K-Kuya! Sasama nalang ako sa kanila! Ayokong m-mamatay ka!”

“No Alexza!” He shouted at her angrily. “Fucking drive your ass off and get away from us! Go on!”

“P-Pero Kuya…”

Nanlalabo na ang paningin niya sa walang pakundangan na luhang nanggagagaling sa mga mata niya at nanginginig na rin ang buo niyang katawan. Imagining that her brother is hurting right now making her heart ache. She love her brother very much that it would break her if something bad might happen to him.

She heard Dwaye groan painfully at the other line while he keeps on cursing breathily as if that’s his way to ease the pain.

“P-Please, don’t let them catch y-you. I’ll be f-fine, Alexza. J-just go away…”

He can hardly finish his sentence. She could hear the pain on his voice even he’s hiding it. Isa pang sulyap ang ginawa niya sa bandang likuran at nakita niyang basag-basag na ang bintana ng sasakyan ng kapatid. Nanlumo siya bago napaigtad nang makarinig ng putok ng baril sa labas.

“Kuya! K-Kuya Dwaye!” She keeps on shouting his name but his only response was his low wails. “K-Kuya… a-ayos ka lang di ba? M-may narinig a-akong putok ng b-baril…you okay there? Kuya?”

“G-Go away, Alexza! H-hide from them! T-They will k-kill y-your baby!”

“W-What?! They can’t do that!” She hysterically gasped.

Her heart is booming inside her chest. Fear consumed her. Kahit anong gawin niya ay humihina ang loob niya at mas nangingibabaw na ang takot sa dibdib niya. Takot sa maaaring mangyari sa kapatid niya, sa kanya at sa anak niya.

“They can fucking do that! Tommy Herrera is crazy in love with you! He paid our parents just to get your hand! Ibinenta ka ng magulang natin! Naiintindihan mo na?!”

Lalo siyang naiyak sa sobrang daming emosyon na sabay-sabay na sumasalakay sa dibdib niya. How can her parents do that on her?! Paano siya ng mga ito nagawang ibenta na para bang ari-arian siya ng mga ito?!

“P-paano nilang nagawa sa’kin ’to…”

“They didn’t value us as a human! I discovered their hidden agenda, Alexza. They’re using us for their own sake.”

Sa kabila ng nahihirapang boses ng kapatid niya ay mas rinig niya ang galit do’n. Sa ilang sandali ay napuno ang dibdib niya ng mga sari-saring emosyon at ang pinaka nakakatakot sa lahat ay ramdam niya ang galit na namumuo sa dibdib niya.

“W-What did they do to you, Kuya? D-Did they sell you like what they did to me?!”

Narinig niya ang pagsadsad ng mga gulong sa kabilang linya at ang pagkabasag pa ng mga salamin. Ang malulutong na mura ng kapatid ay nagpapaiyak lalo sa kanya.

“It’s n-not important now. All I w-want you to do is to f-focus on driving and do all your best to e-escape from his men. Understand?!”

“Pero paano ka?! They will kill you!”

“They won’t! They need me!”

Ang mga sasakyan sa gilid niya ay nag-uunahan nang ang itim na sasakyan na sinusundan niya ay naging mabilis ang takbo.

“K-Kuya, p-parang wala ng sumusunod sa akin…”

Sinilip niya ang madilim na paligid. May iilang sasakyan pero wala siyang mabakas na may gagawa ng gulo. Tila ba lahat ng sumusunod sa kanila kanina ay sumunod sa itim na sasakyan.

“Coz they followed the black car you’re following.” Dwaye groan and she heard his car suddenly stop. “Drive back to the City, Alexza. I want you to be observant. Hindi sila hihinto sa kakahanap sa’yo at sa baby mo. And, they are also targeting Drake. They think that you might ask for his help. I suggest you to be more careful if ever you have plan to go with him.”

“B-Bakit kailangan nilang idamay pa si Drake!?”

“Because you’re involve with him. Please, do all your best to be safe. I will search for you. Mag-iingat kayo.”

“A-Are you really okay, Kuya—”

“Baba!”

Isang galit na boses ng lalaki ang narinig niya sa background sa kabilang linya bago tuluyang naputol ang tawag. Napakagat labi siya at muling nagbagsakan ang mga luha sa pisngi. Hindi niya alam kung ano na ang nangyari sa kapatid niya. Pero mula sa huling narinig niya, siguradong nadakip ito ng mga tauhan ni Tommy.

“Baby, don’t worry okay? I will take you away from bad people.” Marahan na hinawakan niya ang anak habang umiiyak. “I won’t let them hurt you. Just trust me. I will bring you to the safest place. Yung hindi nila tayo masasaktan.”

NAPAHAWAK si Alexza sa braso ng kapatid at mariin na napapikit nang hindi niya na masundan pa ang mga binalikang pangyayari sa balintanaw niya. Her head ache all of a sudden. Pumipintig din ang sintido niya.

“What’s wrong?” Dwaye ask gently, cupping her hand with his on his right arm.

“Sumakit bigla ang ulo ko,”

“Oh, come here. You need to sit.”

He guided her to the round table and make her sit to one of the vacant seat. Inabutan siya nito ng tubig. Tinanggap niya naman ’yon at sumimsim do’n.

She close her eyes again and rest her mind for a moment. Nang buksan niya ang mga mata at nakita ang maraming tao ay napangiwi siya. Para siyang nahihilo. Nahihilo nga talaga siya!

“My head is spinning,” she complain weakly.

“I told you not to think too much.”

“Hindi ko maiwasan, Kuya. Naaalala ko pa rin ’yung nangyari sa atin. Bakit hanggang ngayon ay hindi mo pa rin sinasabi kung ano ang ginawa nila sa’yo?”

Dumilim bigla ang mukha ng kapatid. Ang mga mata nito ay mapangahas na tumitig sa ibabaw ng lamesa. He tilted his head back a little, proudly showing the dangerous side of him.

“I’m done thinking all ’bout it.” He firmly said. “You know what’s matter now? Your safety.”

“Safe na ba talaga ako? Wala nang mananakit sa’kin?”

Dwaye give him a small smile despite of the dangerous aura that covering him.

“You’re safe, Alexza. No one would hurt you now. Pinabagsak ko na.”

Nangilabot siya sa huling salita nito. Umakyat pati sa batok niya ang pagtaas ng balahibo niya. Wala sa sarili na napainom siya ng tubig ulit. Then her eyes accidentally saw the stitches on his forearm. Halos kaunti lang ang nakalitaw dahil natatakpan ang kahabaan niyon ng suot nitong polo long sleeve. It’s a long stitches. She seen it many times.

“They tortured you,” she pointed out, the stitches on his arm was her proof.

“Mas masakit ang ginawa nila sa’yo at sa pamangkin ko.” Sinipat nito ang tahing nakalitaw. “Walang-wala ’yung pisikal na sakit na naramdaman ko sa naramdaman mo…dahil sa kanila.”

Humugot siya ng isa pang malalim na hininga, pinaglaruan ang tubig sa baso. Nakatitig lang siya do’n bago siya nagsalita.

“Did you talk to Drake about what happened? You told him?” She ask in a low voice.

“I did,”

“Kaya ba ang bait-bait niya sa’kin? Naaawa ba siya sa pinagdaanan ko? Naming mag-ina?”

“Nasaktan siya.” Walang pag-aalinlangan sa tinig nito. “He almost break down.” He added bitterly. “I regretted everything, Alexza. I regret all the lies I made just for you.”

“I ruined your friendship. I’m sorry, Kuya.”

Dwaye sip on his wine and look around. Then his eyes settled on the glass of water on her hand. Hinawakan nito ang kamay niya kaya huminto ang paglalaro niya sa baso pero nanatili ang mata niya do’n.

“I don’t need your sorry. All I need is your happiness. I want you to be happy without your son beside you. Huwag mo nang ikulong ’yung sarili mo sa nakaraan.”

Sobra na ba? Sobra niya na bang ikinukulong ang sarili niya sa ala-ala ng nakaraan? Kaya ba hindi niya makuhang maging masaya palagi? Siguro nga.

“Kung naging maingat lang sana ako, hindi mangyayari ang lahat. Hindi kami mahuhulog sa bangin…” Pumatak ang isang luha sa mata niya, nalaglag iyon sa kandungan niya. “Kasama ko pa sana ang anak ko, di ba? Kung hindi lang kami naaksidente, siguradong kasama ko siya ngayon dito.” Malungkot siyang ngumiti. “Sana nailigtas din siya kasama ko…”

Mas lalo siyang napaiyak ng yakapin siya ng kapatid.

“I’m sorry I wasn’t there to save both of you. They caught me and tortured me and my men. I was helpless. I woke up in the hospital thinking ’bout you and my nephew.” His voice was shaking in anger. “Then, Brooke came only to be bombed me with the news that you’re in coma.”

She bit her bottom lips and let herself cry on his chest. The only memories she wanted to remember but she can’t was the time when and how she lost her son. Sa sobrang sakit ng pangyayaring ’yon ay hindi na magawa pang alalahanin ng utak niya. That memories slipped away.

31 ~ Tears

CHAPTER THIRTY ONE

AFTER TALKING to some of the visitors on Blake’s birthday, Drake eyes search for Alexza. Nakita niya ang dalaga na mukhang masinsinan na nakikipag-usap kay Dwaye. He’s almost meters away from them but he can see sadness written on her face while Dwaye was holding her hand, comforting his sister.

Drake sighed and remember the night when he confronted Dwaye about Alexza’s confusing attitude. He noticed something is up on her when they started living in one roof. It’s seems like something was missing on her that bothered him. He sip on his martini and settled his eyes on Alexza’s pretty face .

IT’S A COLD DARK night when he decided to visit D’ Club. Alexza knew that he will be meeting his friends and it was fine with her as long as he’d take himself away from women. Of course, he’s with her already. He doesn’t need woman on his side because Alexza’s enough for him. She’s more than enough that he doesn’t look at other women no matter how gorgeous or sexy they are.

“Good to see you again, Drake.” Maisie blocked his way, holding a wine glass sophisticatedly. “Wanna dance?”

“No,” malamig na tugon niya at nilagpasan ito.

Kung ito ay hindi nadadala sa mga sampal at sambunot ni Alexza, well, siya ay dalang-dala na. He doesn’t want another fight between Alexza and other woman who’s trying to get near him. Ayaw niyang masaktan niya ulit ang dalaga kaya iiwasan niya na ang lahat ng babae lalo na si Maisie.

“That woman is very consistent,” puna ni Zyron nang makapasok siya sa VIP room ng Club at ang mga kaibigan niya ay naroon na.

“Malakas talaga ang tama sa’yo, Drake.” Si Clane na komportableng nakasandal sa sofa.

The CEO of Altaraza Hotels in Philippines been staying on his beach hotel for a week now. If he’s on vacation or what, he didn’t bother to ask. Basta ang alam niya kapag matagal na nananatili sa beach resort niya ang mga kaibigan niya, isa lang ang ibig sabihin, may mga itinatagong problema o alalahanin.

From the glass wall of the VIP room they can see what’s happening outside. There are many guests tonight and all are enjoying the loud music, they are dancing wildly on the dance floor. Kaya hindi na siya nagtaka kung pagpasok palang niya sa Club ay napanood ng mga ito ang pagharang sa kanya ni Maisie.

“Maisie’s hitting on you for a years now. Hindi mo ba napagbigyan kahit isang gabi lang?” Zyron playfully smile at him. “Imposible! Walang nakakaligtas sa isang Drake Villafuente!”

He keep his mouth shut, instead he poured his glass of vodka and sip on it. His eyes drifted to Dwaye who’s standing in front of the tinted glass wall, looking down around his Club, holding a bottle of beer.

“How’s Alexza?” Nilingon siya ni Dwaye sa tanong nitong ’yon.

Drake excused to Zyron and Clane then walk towards Dwaye. They’re both facing the tinted glass wall, he’s holding his glass of vodka.

“She’s getting fine in my house. I’m confused, buddy.” Pag-amin niya. “I don’t know what’s wrong with her.”

“Did you notice the changes on her?” Kalamado lang itong nakamasid sa paligid.

“I did. Tell me, what happened for the last five years?”

Bumaba ang tingin ng kaibigan sa bote ng beer, pinaglaruan nito ’yon sa maingat na paraan.

“She didn’t tell you yet?”

“I don’t think what I heard from her was enough. I wanted to hear the full details, Dwaye.”

“She’s still afraid to tell you,”

“Kahit ano pa ang nangyari sa nakaraan, tatanggapin ko pa rin siya sa buhay ko ng buong-buo. Bakit siya matatakot?”

Napasimsim siya sa alak nang ilang segundong hindi nagsalita si Dwaye. He keeps on playing with his beer. Behind the dim lights that illuminate them, he can see his face became darkened.

“I don’t really want to tell you these but I owe you a lot, Drake. You will surely get angry at me for what I did, but I believed this is the consequences that I need to face.” Dwaye drink his beer, halos maubos nito ’yon.

“I knew it from the very beginning, Dwaye. Alam kong may alam ka kung ano ang nangyari at kung nasaan siya.”

“Hindi ko sinabi dahil ayaw niyang malaman mo. I don’t know what happened to you and Alexza, bakit bigla ka niyang nilayuan?”

“I don’t know either.” He whisper. “I just woke up one morning, realizing that she was no longer with me.”

“She told me that you cheated on her.” Dwaye’s voice is almost accusing him. “I trust you to take care of her, Drake. Did you really cheat with my sister?”

“Hell no!” Halos mapalakas ang boses niya na napansin na nang dalawa nilang kaibigan.

“Dito natin ’yan pag-usapan mga ulul.” Si Zyron na umastang kalye na naman. Tinapik pa nito ang round center table. “Come here you two. Dito niyo ilabas ’yang mga itinatago niyong sama ng loob sa isa’t-isa.”

Nagkatinginan sila ni Dwaye bago wala sa sariling bumalik sa couch. Bumalik siya sa inuupuan niya kanina at nagsalin ulit ng alak. Si Dwaye naman ay nagbukas ng panibagong beer.

“I did not cheat on her,” he insisted. “How did she say that, huh?” Pumait ang timpla niya.

“That’s one of the reason why she left you aside from…” Dwaye trail and his eyes darted to the door.

Lahat sila ay napatingin do’n at pumasok ang lalaking isa sa ayaw niya pang makita. Tumiim ang bagang niya.

“I came here to have fun not to mess with anyone,” Brooke Montero said defensively. “Am I still welcome?”

“Yes, brute!” Zyron patted the space beside him. “Here,”

Brooke shrug his shoulder and walk towards Zyron. Komportable itong naupo do’n at nagbukas ng beer.

“Go on, ipagpatuloy niyo na kung anuman ’yang pinag-uusapan niyo.”

“It’s about Alexza,” Its Dwaye. “And thanks to your presence, brute. We need you in this talk.”

“Game on!” Brooke coolly said before drink on his beer.

“Where are we? Sa pag-alis ni Alexza?” Zyron tried to

get

back their topic.

“Yes brute.” Clane motion his hand on Dwaye. “Your turn, Mendez. Speak your mind.”

It seems like Dwaye is on the hot seat. Nakailang inom pa ito ng beer bago sila muling hinarap. Sa pagkakataon na ’yon ay mas matigas ang aura ng kaibigan.

“Well, Alexza left because my parents s

old

her to Tommy Herrera,“

Nagtagis ang bagang niya nang hindi niya kaagad napigilan pa. How dare them

sold

his girl?!

“I hid her in my farm house in Visayas while she was carrying her baby,”

Dwaye avoided his gaze, instead, he look down on the table, playing with bottle of beer again.

“I believe, Drake is the father? Of course,”

It was Clane. “

Where’s the baby then?“

Hindi niya alam kung bakit si Dwaye at Brooke ang biglang nagkatinginan bago lumipat ang atensyon ni Dwaye sa kanya.

“

Wala na siya.“

Dwaye answer

ed,

anger and pain on his voice.

Tumiim lalo ang bagang niya at napainom ng alak. Inisang tungga niya ang mapait at mainit na likidong iyon hanggang sa mapalitan ng pait ang poot sa dibdib niya. What happened to his baby? What’s the reason? Alexza told her that they had a child and she lost it, but how?!

Every time he tried to talk about it to Alexza, she’s breaking down. Wala pa man ay nanlulumo na ang dalaga kapag ang pagkawala na ng anak nila ang pag-uusapan. Kaya hindi na siya nagtangka pang magtanong. Instead, here he is, asking his friend, Dwaye, he believed that he knew everything.

“H-how?” He stuttered. He could feel his hands was shaking.

Dwaye blows a loud breath hurtfully.

“Alexza’s car fell on the cliff together with the baby…” Dwaye voice almost crack but he’s really good in keeping his cool.

And when he look up on him, his friend’s eyes were already red. Bloodshot angry eyes.

Clane clear his throat, trying to keep calm. “Was that an accident?”

Dwaye shook his head. “It wasn’t.”

“Sinadya?!” His angry voice boomed. “Sinadya na ilaglag ang sasakyan niya sa bangin, gano’n ba?!” Halos mapatayo siya sa inuupuan sa tindi ng pagsalakay ng galit sa loob niya. “Tell me who the fuck did that to my Alexza and my son!”

Nang hindi kaagad nakapagsalita si Dwaye ay hindi niya na nakayanan pa at kinuwelyuhan ito.

“Drake!” Awat sa kanya ng mga kaibigan.

“Fucking tell me, Mendez!” His voice was full of anger and pain that he felt like he wanted to kill someone right now. His grip on the collar of his shirt tightened. “Your parents?! Or that fucking Herrera?! Sabihin mo! Sabihin mo kung sino ang dahilan ng pagkawala ng anak ko!”

Sa sobrang galit ng nararamdaman at pagkaawa sa sinapit ng anak ay naramdaman niya ang pag-init ng magkabilang sulok ng mga mata. Ang mga matatalim na punyal ay nag-uunahan sa pagtarak sa dibdib niya.

Dahan-dahan na nabitawan niya ang damit ni Dwaye at nasasaktan na naupo. Walang buhay na napatitig siya sa mga alak sa ibabaw ng lamesa. Kung paano nakayanan ni Alexza na lampasan ang lahat ng ’yon nang wala siya sa tabi nito ay hindi niya mawari.

“It was Tommy Herrera,” Dwaye whisper drunkly. “He’s crazy in love with Alexza. He did everything to get her. He bought her from my parents to get her hand. He threatened my parents when Alexza suddenly nowhere to be found because I hid her.”

“W-Why you didn’t tell me…” he weakly ask. His chest tightened painfully.

“Alexza d

idn’t

want you to be involve. And she hated you that time because she thought you cheated on her.“

“T-That Herrera, where I can find him?” He wanted a revenge.

Hindi siya papayag na wala man lang siyang gagawin para sa anak na nawala at sa nangyari kay Alexza! He’s now seeking for justice.

“Tommy Herrera is dead,” Dwaye whisper dangerously, making his friends eye him.

Pero siya ay nanatiling nakatitig sa lamesa mas lalo siyang nagalit sa nalaman! Paano pa siya makakapaghiganti kung wala na ang taong paghihigantihan niya?!

“Did you hire someone to kill him?” Nananantiya ang boses ni Clane. “I won’t judge you, Mendez.”

“It doesn’t matter now because I’m done with all my revenge. Gusto ko lang masigurado na ligtas na ang kapatid ko.” Dwaye look at him. “And I wanted to apologize to all the lies I made. You deserve to know about your child, but we didn’t let you, Drake. I’m very sorry.”

He doesn’t need an apology. He needs the truth!

“Did you tell Alexza ’bout it? About Tommy?” He bitterly ask, pain on his eyes. “Alam niya ba na hindi aksidente ang nangyari sa kanila ng anak ko?”

Dwaye shook his head weakly. “She thought it was an accident.”

“How come?!” Gulung-gulo na rin ang utak niya.

“I paid the investigator to tell her that was an accident, even it wasn’t!”

“Why did you have to lie on her?!”

“Because the truth will hurt her more, Drake!” Lumakas ang bigong boses ng kaibigan. “Because she will surely seek for her own revenge once she discovered that Tommy was behind her car accident and she could never defeat that man! Can’t you see? Even she knew that that was an accident, she’s still blaming herself!”

Napasambunot siya sa sariling buhok. Napatingala at napapikit ng mariin. Ano pa ba ang hindi niya alam sa mga nangyari? May mas sasakit pa ba bukod sa nawalan siya ng anak na hindi niya man lang nalaman at nasilayan?!

“Ano pa ang hindi ko alam, huh? Ano pa ang mga inililihim niyo sa’kin?! Sabihin mo na Dwaye. Huwag na natin palipasin pa ang mga araw na para akong tangang walang kaalam-alam sa nangyari sa mag-ina ko!”

“Sasabihin ko ang lahat Drake. Lahat.”

“Who helped Alexza to survive?” Zyron suddenly ask using his serious tone. “Bakit hindi nailigtas pati ang bata?”

“Ako,” Seryosong nagsalita si Brooke kaya napatingin siya rito.

“What?” Gulo ang isip na napatanong siya.

“I was on my way home from Club when I saw her car near the cliff.” Brooke paused and took a sigh. “I was drunk but I was able to stop my car and saw a woman inside. It was a very crucial situation, na kaunting galaw lang ay mahuhulog na ’yung sasakyan. The woman was unconscious, blood all over her face from her head. I thought she’s dead,”

Brooke close his eyes and tilted his head back, remembering something from the past. After a few minutes, he continue.

“It was very hard to get her out from the car that I had to carefully remove her seatbelt.” He blows a loud breath. “I don’t know exactly what I did to get her out there, all I remember was the car’s explosion after that. Sa pagsabog ng sasakyan ay nakayanan ng apoy paliwanagin ang madilim at masukal na lugar na ’yon.”

“Hindi mo nailigtas ’yung baby…” Zyron whisper sadly.

Brooke shook his head, regret on his eyes. “I wasn’t able to save the baby because I am very focused on how to save her.” Brooke eyes drifted on him. “I’m sorry,”

Ilang minuto silang tahimik. Walang may gustong basagin ang katahimikan na iyon. Para bang katulad niya ay nagluluksa rin ang mga kaibigan niya. His baby Alexza, how did she survive to all the pain and cruelty of life without him beside her?

Malalim siyang napahugot ng buntong hininga habang iniisip ang lahat ng pinagdaanan ng babaeng mahal niya. Yes he loves her. There’s no need to deny his feelings for her. Dati niya pa namang mahal ang dalaga at mas lalo niya itong minamahal dahil sa nalaman niya.

She’s such a strong woman that she can live her life without a man like him. And now he’s the one who’s scared to be away with her again. He needs to do something to make her stay with him.

“Kawawa naman pala si Alexza,” napabuntong hininga si Zyron. Nagbukas ito ng mga bote ng beer at isa-isa silang binigyan niyon. “Kung nabubuhay pa rin ’yang si Herrera, ako mismo papatay diyan, ngayon din.” Seryosong wika nito at malamig na uminom ng beer.

“You don’t need to dirt your hand with his blood, Fuentes. It’s a waste of time.” Clane mutter coldly. “What we need right now is how to make Alexza happy again.” Tinignan siya ng kaibigan. “Anong balak mo, Drake?”

“I will marry her,” he said with no hesitation.

“Even she’s confusing you?” Dwaye interrupted. “I don’t think she’s ready for that,”

“We planned this before she left. Anong pinagkaiba ng pagpapakasal noon at ngayon?”

“Marami, Drake. Marami ka pang hindi alam sa nangyari kay Alexza.”

“Then tell me!” He frustratedly wave his hand on the air. “Ayoko na siyang makitang nasasaktan. Gusto ko siyang pasayahin ulit, tulad ng dati!”

“You told me that she was confusing. Tell me what did you notice?”

Marahas siyang naglabas ulit ng hangin sa dibdib. Napasandal sa inuupuan at inisip si Alexza at ang mga napapansin niyang kakaiba sa mga kilos at sinasabi ng dalaga.

“First, she made me confuse about Maisie. I’m sure that she met her few years ago, but when they seen each other again at Blake’s school, Alexza acted like she doesn’t know Maisie, but I can see on her eyes that she hated that woman.”

“She forget about Maisie,” deretsahang sambit ni Drake. “Alexza was in coma for almost one month and when she woke up, she didn’t remember everything, including me.”

“W-What… H-How, but… Paanong…” Drake couldn’t finish his sentence because he was very shock on what he heard.

“Her brain damaged because of the car accident and she lost most of her memories in the past. But eventually, she started to remember some things, some people on her past, including you, Drake…and the baby.”

“She cried all day and night when we told her about the baby. That the doctor needed to inject something on her to calm her,” Brooke added, sympathy on his voice. “She was like that for about three to five months. Postpartum really hit her badly.”

Lalo siyang nanlumo sa nalaman. Sa tigas ng dibdib niya ay tila ba nanlalambot na ’yon, natutunaw at wala siyang magawa para pigilan ’yon. Ang sunud-sunod na sakit sa dibdib ay walang pakundangan na nagsisiksikan sa loob niya. Umaapaw na ang sakit pero hindi nababawasan, mas lalo lang nadadagdagan.

“And I wasn’t there for her…” Drake voice cracked. He’s drunk already but he can still feel the pain on his heart. “I wasn’t there to comfort her…to take care of her and to…tell her that everything will be fine. W-wala ako sa tabi niya sa panahon na pareho sana kaming nasasaktan…kung alam ko lang sana s-sana dinamayan ko siya sa lahat ng sakit…”

He drunkly get another shot of vodka and drink it. He get another shot and another shot until someone grabbed his hand and take the shot glass away from him. His vision became blurry that he needed to blink to make his vision clear enough to see who’s in front of him.

“That’s enough, brute. Uuwi ka pa kay Alexza,” Its Zyron, “Baka hindi niya gustong umuwi kang lasing na lasing.”

“I want to…to give her everything for her to be happy again, you know,” lasing na sambit niya. “Do’n man lang makabawi ako sa mga panahon na wala ako sa t-tabi niya…do’n man lang masabi k-ko sa sarili ko na deserve ko pa rin s-siya…”

“You still deserve her. We believe in you,”

“You were just telling it because we’re friends, damn you!” He drunkly shouted at his friend.

“No, I was telling that because we all know that you really love her.” Zyron pointed out. “May mga pagkakataon lang talaga na kahit gustuhin man natin na makasama ang taong mahal natin, tadhana na mismo ang pipigil sa’tin.”

Drake chuckle bitterly and nod his head.

“My baby…” tukoy niya kay Alexza. “My poor baby… why she needed to suffer like that…without me.”

“Because she was protecting you, Drake. Herrera might kill you that time if Alexza get back on you, that’s why my sister chose to be away from you because she love you so much.” Dwaye said in a low voice. “I believe she already told you that,”

“She did,” he drunkly whisper. “And I love her even more for all the sacrifices she made just for me. I love her very much,”

“I know that and I thank you for keep on loving her. I witnessed you bedded different women while she was away, but I know that you can’t replace her.” Dwaye mutter drunkly. “You’re such an asshole to slept with different women while my sister was in pain and loving you from afar. You bastard! Hate you for that, Villafuente. Two thumbs down for you.” Dwaye spat and down his thumbs on him drunkly.

“Because I was trying to forget her but I can’t. Alexza is irreplaceable. She’s my only one. I apologize for being bad boy way back. I was very—”

“Shut up, that’s all in the past. Sana lang ay hindi malaman ’yan ni Alexza. Itinago ko sa kanya ang mga pambababae mo kaya sana mag ingat ingat ka. Nakakasawa nang makitang nasasaktan at umiiyak ang kapatid ko. Kapag pinaiyak mo pa ’yon, ikaw na ang papatayin ko.” Banta ni Dwaye sa kanya.

“Papakasalan ko siya. Huwag kang mag-alala, wala akong ibang gagawin kundi pasayahin at mahalin si Alexza.” Lasing pero seryosong pinagdikit nila ang mga kamao.

“Have patience on her, Drake. She’s still very sensitive.”

“I will for sure.”

Dwaye tried his best to be comfortable in sitting but he could not. Sa kalasingan nila ay hindi na maayos ang kilos nila. Kaunting kumpas lang ng kamay ay nagkakalansingan ang mga bote at baso sa lamesa.

“I talked to her doctor last week, because I know that she didn’t recover yet some of her memories…knowing that it had been five years now.” Dwaye said that caught his attention again.

“What the doctor said?” He ask curiously.

Drake was so eager to hear the answer, so eager to know more of what happened to the woman he love. So eager to do everything to make her happy again.

Dumaan sa mga mata ni Dwaye ang lungkot at bumaba iyon sa labi nito na may tipid na ngiti. The combination of the bitterness and sadness on the small smile on his lips already told him that he will throw a sad news.

“There’s no chance that she would recover those lost memories.” Dwaye throw a bomb in front of him and he can’t do anything but to accept all the pain from his words. “Alexza didn’t know that she lost some of her memories. If ever she tells you ’bout her blurry dreams or forgotten memories, please don’t force her to remember it because there’s a big possibility that she will forever lost it no matter how she cherished it.”

Drake swallow hard. He can’t even breath well. The wild beating of his heart hurt him so bad. Halos marinig niya na ang sariling tibok ng puso sa mahapding paraan. Ang katawan at ang kamay niya ay nanginginig sa tindi nang pagpipigil ng emosyon na kanina pa pilit kumakawala sa loob niya.

“Alexza have a selective amnesia?” His raspy voice cracked again even he tried not to.

Dwaye didnt answer him. His friend just stare at him darkly, telling him that being silent always means yes.

Drake brushed his hair with his fingers desperately and bit his bottom lips, trying to control all the emotions deep within.

Pagod na sumandal siya, tumingala at mariin na napapikit, bago niya tuluyang pinakawalan ang mainit at masakit na likidong nahulog mula sa gilid ng kanyang mga mata. Luha para sa pagkawala ng anak at luha para sa sakit na pinagdaanan ng babaeng mahal niya.

32 ~ Ring

CHAPTER THIRTY TWO

“WHAT’S WRONG with my baby?”

Drake husky voice making her look up on him. She dry her tears with her fingers and try to give him a small smile, showing to him that everything’s okay.

It was a very emotional talk with her brother after a years of avoiding that topic. Reminiscing their painful past and all her heartbreaks only hurt her and made her cry. But it’s also lessen the burden inside her chest.

“W-Wala, okay lang ako.” Gumaralgal ang unang salitang binangit niya.

Mataman muna siyang pinagmasdan ni Drake bago lumipat ang tingin nito kay Dwaye. Her brother’s face remain stoic before he stood up and give Drake a man to man hug.

“Congrats, brute.” Her brother said meaningfully and patted Drake shoulder. “Finally,”

“Thanks,” Simpleng sagot ng binata saka tumango na parang ang dalawa lang talaga ang nagkakaintindihan.

“See you later tonight,” Dwaye mutter and kiss her forehead.

“See you, Kuya,”

Nang makaalis ang kapatid ay napaigtad siya nang ipalibot sa kanya ni Drake ang mga braso nito habang nakaupo pa rin siya. His lips was on the side of her neck. Alexza’s aware that they are already catching some visitors attention while most of them are enjoying Blake’s birthday party.

“You’re being clingy again,” she almost whispering.

“I like being with you this close.”

“Kahit maraming tao?”

“Kahit buong mundo pa ang manood sa’tin sa ganitong posisyon ay wala akong pakialam.”

“Kahit may mga babae?”

Medyo umusli ang nguso niya sa ideyang maraming babae ang nanonood sa kanila tapos ay ang mga mata ay nag-aapoy sa inggit at galit sa kanya.

Drake cackle sexily under her ear. She stiffened at the tingling sensation he brought her.

“Kahit libu-libong babae pa ’yan, ikaw pa rin ang nag-iisang babaeng pipiliin ko.” Humigpit ang pagyapos nito sa kanya, ang mukha ay halos ibaon na sa leeg niya. “Ikaw lang ang para sa’kin, Alexza.”

That’s a heart felt. The overwhelming feeling inside her and the wild beating of her heart is too much for her at the moment. It was just a sweet simple words from him but it gives a big impact on her.

“Hindi ka na ba talaga galit sa’kin?” Medyo kabado niyang tanong.

“Hindi na ako galit sa’yo. Mas galit ako sa sarili ko.”

“Bakit naman?”

Drake squeeze the tip of his nose on the sensitive skin of her neck, he’s smelling her scent in a slow yet sensual way. Tumataaas ang mga balahibo niya sa katawan sa isang masarap na paraan.

His jaw stubbles tickled the skin between her neck and bare shoulder, that she needed to tilted her head sideward to avoid the tingling sensation and the familiar heat that starting to build up inside her, pero sa ginawa niya ay parang mas lalo niya lang itong binigyan ng saktong anggulo upang pagpiyestahan ang kanyang leeg.

Wala siyang nagawa kundi ang maglabas nalang ng mararahang hangin mula sa dibdib.

“Because I feel that I’m very irresponsible man. Hindi ko kayo naprotektahan ng anak natin,” bumaba ang palad nito sa ibabaw ng tiyan niya at marahan na humaplos do’n. “But it was all in the past, we should both move on now and accept what happened to our son,”

“Help me accept it,”

“I will always by your side now, Alexza. I’ll help you with everything, besides, we can make another baby…if you still want it,”

She blush at that.

She rested her head on his shoulder and place her hands on his arms above her stomach. She like his body heat and his seductive smell. She could stay on his arms forever.

“I want to have another baby,” she whisper shyly, she’s blushing.

Marahan na natawa si Drake sa leeg niya. Napanguso siya, sana naman ay hindi siya nito pinagbibibiro? Sa totoo lang ay gustung-gusto niyang magkababy ulit kahit na may takot sa dibdib niya. Gusto niyang maranasan ang magpalaki ng bata. Gusto niyang maramdaman ang maging ina, hindi sa sandaling panahon kundi sa habang panahon.

“We will make another baby then. You will need more energy tonight,” he whisper under her ear. “I wanna make love with you until dawn.”

Alexza swallow hard. His voice is just so sexy and he’s irresistible. She could feel her body burning slowly.

“P-paano si Blake? Saan siya matutulog?”

“He will sleep with Dwaye tonight,” kinintilan nito ng halik ang gilid ng labi niya. “Sa akin ka muna ngayong gabi, sosolohin muna kita,”

“Baka papagurin,” biro niya.

“Papagurin din at papaungulin,”

Nanlaki ang mata niya at hindi kaagad nakapagsalita. Maang na napalingon siya sa paligid dahil baka may nakarinig, pero mukhang wala naman. Some visitors are just watching them with smile on their lips.

Sa wari niya ang iba ay mga business partner ni Drake at mga malalapit na kaibigan ng pamilya. They’re very formal but still enjoying the party. Tila ba sanay na ang mga itong puntahan ang selebrasyon ng kaarawan ni Blake.

“Your mouth, baka may makarinig sa’yo.”

“I miss you so much, Alexza.” He suddenly whisper softly.

The longing on his voice was still there. His embrace tightened even more that they are really catching attention now. They’re the only people there hugging like that and Drake doesn’t seem to care.

“Palagi naman tayong magkasama ha, bakit mo pa ako namimiss?”

“I just miss everything ’bout you. I feel like having you now is still not enough. I wanna ask for more of you…”

“What can I do?” She whisper, caressing his veined arms that wrap around her.

“Marry me, Alexza.”

Sa hindi inaasahang salitang ’yon ay napalayo siya kay Drake. Ito naman ay tuluyan ng napatuwid ng tayo, naninimbang sa reaksyon niya.

Kinakabahan na nagpakawala siya ng maiksing tawa tapos ay tumayo na rin, hindi niya binabalak na iwasan ito, ang nais niya lang ay magkaro’n ng distansya sa pagitan nila bago pa siya kapusin ng hininga.

“Y-you were just kidding m-me,” pero sa isinisigaw na damdamin sa magaganda nitong mata, alam niyang hindi siya nito pinaglalaruan.

Ang kaba sa dibdib niya ay hindi na siya binigyan pa ng pagkakataong awatin ’yon. Walang pakundangan ang paghuhumerentado ng tibok ng puso niya.

Drake was standing in front of her, staring at her longingly and lovingly. His thick dark eyebrows lifted slightly, showing amusement. His sharp jaw line was sexily moving a bit.

Alexza took a deep breath silently to calm the wild beating of her heart. Her eyes drifted on his reddish lips when he seductively lick his bottom lips.

Then, he slowly kneel down in front of her making her eyes widened and her lips parted. She carefully look around and she saw everyone is looking at them. They already caught everyone’s attention.

“T-tumayo ka riyan,” sa sobrang hina ng boses niya kahit siya ay hindi na marinig.

Umangat ang dalawang kamay ni Drake at kinuha ang dalawang kamay niya, ikinulong nito iyon sa mga palad nito. His both knees is on the red carpeted floor. He’s literally kneeling in front of her, worshipping her, devoting her.

Masuyo nitong hinalikan ang mga kamay niya bago nag-angat ng tingin sa kanya. Punung-puno ng emosyon ang magaganda nitong mga mata.

“There’s so many words in my head that I wanna tell you.” Drake said, raspiness on his voice. “There’s so many things that I wanted to do for you…to be happy again. Please give me another chance to prove myself to you and to show you that I still deserve you.”

“D-Drake,” she called his name with her shaky voice. The emotions is too much that it made her speechless.

Her stomach fluttered and her heart is booming wildly inside her chest. She didn’t expect him to do all these in front of so many people. The high and mighty Drake Villafuente is kneeling in front of her, asking to be part of her life, again. Literal na nakaluhod ito sa harap niya na para bang ang buong buhay nito ay handang i-alay sa kanya nang walang pag-a-alinlangan.

“And today, I promise myself one last time that I will never let this day pass without my last name on your name.” Drake continue, his deep dark brown eyes was looking at her lovingly.

He let his eyes speak what’s on his heart, his eyes tells her how much he wanted her on his life…and how much he loves her.

He swallow hard before he remove his one hand on hers and get something on his pocket.

Alexza bit her bottom lips and her tears roll down her cheeks when he opened the small red velvet box and saw the thick sparkling diamond ring on it.

She heard the happy commotions around them, everyone was clapping and cheering, but her eyes only focus on Drake. He blinked, his eyes became red and the sides of it watered.

“Miss Alexza Mendez,” his voice almost cracked and it made the small sobs escape her lips. “Please, be my wife,” he said it as if he’s begging and hoping for her to be his wife.

“Mommy say Yes to daddy, please!” She suddenly heard Blake’s voice around the crowd.

Alexza smile and wipe her tears before she nod to Drake. Nakita niya ang pagsilay ng ngiti sa mga labi nito na umabot hanggang sa mga mata.

“I…I want to be Mrs. Drake Villafuente,” she softly said and smile at him.

With their both shaky hands, Drake slid the ring on her finger before he kiss it. Nagpalakpakan ang mga taong nakasaksi sa hindi inaasahang wedding proposal na ’yon.

Drake stood up and cupped her face gently before he kiss her passionately. Mas lalong umugong ang ingay sa paligid sa halik na pinagsasaluhan nila ng kanyang fiancé.

There’s so many emotions on his every kiss. The way he kiss her, it tells her how much he treasure her, how much he was longing for her and how much he loves her.

She snake her arms around her neck and she answer his kisses with smile on her lips. Happiness filled her.

They are brushing each other lips and gasping for air. His reddish swollen lips tempted her to give him another gentle kiss. He chuckled softly at what she did. His minty breath hit her face and it made her close her eyes.

She felt him kiss her again and his lips went up on her forehead. Nagtagal ang paghalik nito sa noo niya habang marahan na sapo pa rin ng kamay nito ang pisngi niya.

“I love you very much,” he whisper and rested his lips on her forehead again.

Her heart keep on dancing inside her chest. She could not suppress the smile on her lips. Alam niya at ramdam niyang mahal siya ni Drake, pero napakasarap pa rin talagang marinig ulit ang mga katagang ’yon mula rito makalipas ang ilang taon.

“I love you too, Drake.” She whisper back.

She felt his lips for a smile on her forehead. Bahagya nitong binigyan distansya ang mga mukha nila upang magtama ang kanilang mga mata.

“Say it again,”

She pursed her lips while staring at her fiancé’s beautiful sparkling eyes. His brows shot up amusingly, waiting for her to say the words again.

“Ang sabi ko…mahal din kita.” Ulit niya ng walang kaabog-abog. “Happy?”

“Mas magiging masaya kung magpapakasal na tayo ngayong gabi rin.”

Hinawakan nito ang kamay niya na para bang aalis na sila.

“Sandali,” pigil niya, nakakapit sa braso nito.

Drake lazily stop mid-step and tilted his head closer to her, he eyed her carefully as if he’s reading her mind.

“You say Yes to be my wife, right?”

“Yes,” she bit the side of her cheek shyly.

“Papakasalan mo ako ngayong gabi rin.” Pinal na wika nito na para bang hindi makakapayag kung hindi sila magpapakasal ngayong gabi rin!

Wala siyang nagawa kundi tumango nalang. Kung paano sila maikakasal ngayong gabi ay wala siyang ideya. Beach wedding pa naman ang pangarap niya, pero parang malabo yata ’yon dahil kapos na kapos sila sa oras para sa preperasyon para sa gusto niyang kasal.

Pero kahit pa gano’n, handa niyang isantabi ang pangarap na beach wedding basta ba tuluyan na siyang makasal kay Drake katulad ng pangarap niya ilang taon na ang nakakalipas. She wanted to marry the only man who made her heart race just by staring at her. Her one and only, Drake Villafuente.

“CONGRATS mommy ko and daddy ko!”

Blake voice echoed around the crowd using a wireless microphone when he congratulate them with excitement on his voice. He’s standing at the center, at the back of the red couch while looking at them with awe.

“Thanks baby,” she mouthed at him.

“Can I have my speech now?” Blake ask the host who’s standing just near him. The petite woman nod at her son as an answer.

Nag-angat siya ng tingin kay Drake ng marahan nitong sakupin ng palad ang bewang niya at kabigin pa siya palapit dito habang ang mga mata ay nakatuon sa anak nila. All the visitors is now waiting for Blake’s speech.

“First of all, I want to thank my daddy for always giving me a birthday party yearly. I love you very much daddy ko!”

Blake smile sweetly at his father. The twinkle on his innocent eyes never leaves him.

Drake shrug his shoulder and mouthed. “Love you too, son.”

“And, I am grateful because I have my Tito-Ninong Dwaye, Ninong Zyron pogi, Ninong Brooke and Ninong Clane, who’s always there for me to play with me and to give me many toys kahit hindi ko po birthday,”

Blake hands pointed the men who’s sitting at the table for six, holding their glass of wine and lifted it.

“Cheers, little champ! Happy birthday!” The men said in unison.

Her son smile even grew wider. Sa wari niya ay bukod sa daddy nito ay hangang-hanga rin ang anak sa mga lalaking binanggit. Huwag lang sanang manahin ng anak pati ang pambababae ng mga gwapong lalaking ’yon.

Blake eyes suddenly drifted on her. He’s carefully staring at her. She doesn’t know what’s on his mind but the way the kid stare at her, it hit something on her heart.

She gulp nervously and her grip at Drake’s waist tightened. Why is her son looking at her that way?

“To my mommy,” Blake voice echoed again. “Thank you for granting my wish to become my mother. A mommy that I was looking for…I was wishing for and I was longing for.” Alexza blink, she could feel the heat at the sides of her eyes. Her heart melted just like that. “Thank you for completing my daddy, for completing our family and…for completing me. I feel like you filled the missing pieces inside my heart. I love you very much, mommy ko.”

Alexza force a smile even her lips is shaking. Her eyes watered but at least she manage to control her tears now. She’s being emotional in a very good way. Pakiramdam niya ay tunaw na ang lahat ng sakit at poot na nakatago sa dibdib niya.

She felt Drake lips on the side of her head, giving her a gentle kiss. And the crowd clapping their hands after Blake’s hearty speech.

“I love you anak ko…” she said tenderly, staring back at her son.

Alexza chuckle when Blake ran towards them and hug their legs. Kakargahin niya sana ito pero naunahan siya ni Drake. Nakakunyapit ang anak nila sa leeg ng ama nito tapos ay titig na titig na  naman sa kanya.

Ngumuso siya.

“Bakit ganyan ka tumitig sa’kin anak?”

“Ang ganda-ganda mo mommy ko, saka parang pareho po tayo ng eyes,”

Napatingin siya kay Drake, ito naman ay pinagmasdan ang mga mata nila ng anak. Bahagya pa nitong inilapit sa kanya si Blake upang mapagkumpara nga ang mga mata nila.

Drake lips pursed while studying their eyes similarity. Then that sexy lips slowly form an amuse smile.

“The pupil is very similar. Parang iisa lang ang may-ari,” Drake smirk. “Kaya pala…”

“Anong kaya pala?” Takang tanong niya.

Masaya siya na hinahayaan ang anak na titigan ang mukha niya. At masaya siya sa isipin na magkapareho sila ng mata, hindi niya ’yon napapansin dahil kahit sino ang tumingin kay Blake ay lamang na lamang ang pagkakahawig nito sa ama. Para bang sa mata nga lang talaga nagkatalo ang dalawa, dahil mukhang ang loob ng mata ni Blake ay namana sa ina.

“Because every time I stare at Blake’s eyes…I feel like I’m staring at your eyes, Alexza.” Drake said, looking at her eyes. “They’re very similar. The eyes that always captivates me.”

“Tama ako daddy, di ba? Pareho po kami ng eyes ni mommy,”

Hinarap pa ni Blake ang mukha ng ama sa mukha nito para talaga makita ni Drake ang mga mata nito. Napapangiti siya habang pinapanood ang dalawa.

“Oo anak, pareho kayo ng mata ng mommy mo,”

Maligayang tumango-tango naman ang anak nila tapos ay bumaling sa kanya. That’s when she study and focus at Blake’s eyes.

Alexza swallow carefully when she realized that she’s actually looking at her own eyes while staring at Blake eyes. Her sight doesn’t play tricks on her, those pair of eyes actually same as hers!

“Oo nga…pareho tayo ng mata anak.” Wala sa sariling sambit niya.

“See mommy,” Blake said smugly. “Tito-Ninong Dwaye told that to me long time ago. Ang sabi niya po sa’kin may kapareho ang mga mata ko. Ikaw pala ’yon mommy ko.”

“Kaya magpapakasal na kami kaagad ng mommy mo para—”

“Para wala na siyang kawala sa’tin daddy! Tara na! Magkasalan na po kayo!”

Naglikot ang anak na nasa bisig ng ama kaya pareho silang natawa ni Drake. Excited na excited na talaga itong maikasal na sila.

Nahigit niya ang hininga nang ilapit ng fiancé ang labi sa tenga niya.

“Wala ka ng kawala…I will claim you and I will mark you as mine.” Drake territorially whisper, making her knees trembled.

Iba pa rin ang tindi ng emosyon na naibibigay sa kanya ng fiancé kahit sa mga simpleng gesture lang. Paos na boses palang nito ay pinanghihinaan na kaagad siya.

“Sayo lang ako,” ganting bulong niya, itinatago ang kilig. Itinatago ang malakas na kabog ng dibdib.

“Then let’s change your last name with mine…before this day end.”

33 ~ Vows

CHAPTER THIRTY THREE

She’s engaged. She’s soon to get married. She will be his wife. She will be a mother. She will spend her life with the man she truly love together with their son and their future children. She will be Drake’s wife, so soon.

That’s what’s on Alexza’s mind while looking at the ring on her finger. She’s sitting in front of the large mirror. She’s done with her wedding hair and make up, made by the people that Drake hired for this very special event. They curled the tip of her long dark brown hair and they put a flower hairband that made her looks like a goddess of nature.

What happened was so unexpected. She can still remember Drake told her this morning that he wanted to marry her tonight. And what he meant by that was he wanted them to get married after Blake’s birthday celebration!

And his wedding proposal awhile ago? It was so surreal! Until now she can still the fast beating of her heart. The feeling is very overwhelming.

“Ang ganda ganda naman nitong bride na ’to,”

Napataas siya ng tingin sa nagsalita, si Jess. Her friend is already wearing a turquoise maxi tube dress, she will be her maid of honor.

She give her friend a warm smile through the mirror reflection. Jess arrived an hour ago, she didn’t make to attend at Blake’s birthday because of the lacked of time preparing the wedding.

Kaya pagdating niya kanina sa suite nila ni Drake ay tapos ng ayusan ng ibang make up artist ang kaibigan at siya nalang talaga ang hinihintay.

Alexza eyes drifted on her diamond ring on her finger again.

“This is so unexpected, Jess. After all that happened, I thought I could not find the real happiness again. But, Drake is there to give me what I was wishing for…for the passed years.”

Jess walk a little more closer behind her and place her hands on her shoulder. They are both staring at each other in the mirror.

“I believe that you deserve to be happy again, Alexza. You’re a very strong woman.” Jess said, there’s an admiration on her voice. “Nalagpasan mo na ang mga pagsubok sa buhay kaya ang tadhana na rin mismo ang nagbalik ulit sa’yo sa lugar na ’to…” ngumiti ito sa kanya. “…para maramdaman mo ulit ang totoong kasiyahan sa puso mo.”

Real happiness.

She’s been wishing to have it after all that happened to her few years ago. She left the man she loves. Her parents sold her in exchanged in marrying a man she doesn’t even like. She almost die when she got into a car accident. And the most painful past was the day she lost her dear son.

There were so many pain and heartaches. Above it all, she chose the path she thought was the best way to do.

She escaped.

Escaping was the only choice she had that time and that the only thing she regretted the most.

But today, she forgave herself. She stopped blaming herself. She let all the pain go away and she started to accept her son’s death.

It wasn’t easy. It would never be easy. But knowing that Drake is there to help and support her, it lessen the pain. It lessen the burden she buried inside her chest for how many years.

Acceptance is the only key to get the real happiness she was wishing for. And today, she promised herself to accept everything and give her heart another chance to be happy again.

“I deserve to be happy…again.” She whisper, smiling at her reflection in the mirror.

Her eyes were twinkling because of so many mixed emotions. She cannot suppress the smiles from her lips. And she can feel the familiar beating of her heart. She’s happy and in love, again.

“Naman! Kaya tara na’t baka hindi na makapaghintay si Drake at siya pa ang sumundo sa’yo dito. Alam mo naman ’yang soon to be husband mo,”

“Ano?”

“Masyadong mapag-angkin.” Jess pointed out.

Alexza chuckle. “Ako naman ay nagpapa-angkin lang.”

Inalalayan siya ng kaibigan tumayo at sabay pa nilang nilingon ang pinto ng sumilip ang babaeng isa sa wedding organizer.

“Madam Alexza, halika na. Hindi na po kasi mapakali si Mr. Villafuente. Gusto ka nang makita,”

“See? Ikakasal na kayo pero hindi pa rin mapakali si Drake,” puna na naman ni Jess at binalingan ulit ang babae. “Okay Miss, pakisabi sa groom kaunting hintay nalang. Hindi ko naman itatakas ’tong bride niya.”

Alangan na ngumiti ang babae tapos ay niluwagan pa ang pinto. Balak talaga na sunduin na siya.

“Hindi na po makapaghintay si Mr. Villafuente, nasa beach na rin ang mga bisita. Tara na po.”

“Beach?” Ulit niya.

“Yes Madam. Beach wedding po.”

“Woah,” she gasped and excitedly walk towards the door. “Lets go to my groom.”

Wearing a beaded backless white long wedding gown with deep neckline that shows a little part of her cleavage, they went outside the room.

Tinulungan ni Jess ang mga staffs sa paghawak sa laylayan ng gown niya habang naglalakad papunta sa elevator.

“Ilang buwan niyong plinano ang kasal, Alexza? Ang bongga, ha.”

“I don’t have idea about this, Jess. Drake do all the plan.”

“Grabe! Patay na patay talaga sa’yo si daddy Drake!”

Natawa siya do’n. “He just wanted to surprise me. And I’m surprised.”

Bumukas ang elevator at kaagad tumuon sa kanya ang atensyon ng mga guest na nasa reception area.

“Congrats, Madam. Best wishes po sa inyo ni boss Drake.” The receptionists greeted her, giggling. “Ang ganda-ganda mo Madam!”

Hindi nawawala ang ngiti sa labi niya simula pa kanina. Kahit papano ay kilala na siya ng mga staffs and receptionists ng hotel. Nagkaron ng komosyon sa mga guests nang marinig na ikakasal siya kay Drake.

“Thank you,” Aniya at nagpatuloy na sa paglalakad palabas ng hotel.

Sa malayo palang ay tanaw niya na malapit sa dagat ang mga upuan na nabalutan ng puti at turquoise na tela. Napuno rin ng bulalak ang mga paligid. Sa gitna ay nakita niya ang altar, sa likod niyon ay tanaw na tanaw ang papalubog na araw.

Ang paligid ay nababalutan ng kulay kahel na langit. Ang malalamyos na hampas ng alon, ang maalat na simoy ng hangin at ang kinang ng maputing buhangin ay nagbigay perpekto sa lugar. This is her dream wedding location. A beach wedding while looking at the sunset.

Alexza walk towards near the red carpeted aisle while waiting for her cue. Her eyes searched for her soon to be husband.

There she saw Drake standing at the right side of the altar, looking so handsome with his white tux. He’s watching their son who’s walking in the aisle, holding a small basket. Her little boy is all smile. Blake’s wearing a white long sleeve polo shirt with cute turquoise bow tie.

“Miss Jessielyn, you’re next. Sir Dwaye is waiting for you.” The staff called her friend attention who’s on her side. “Lapit ka na po sa kanya.”

“Huh? Ah, okay.”

Parang nataranta pa ang kaibigan niya nang maglakad palapit sa Kuya Dwaye niya. Jess snake her hand at her brother’s arm then they walk together. Dwaye is the best man and Jess is the maid of honor. The role fit perfectly on them though.

Habang lumilipas ang sandali ay hindi niya na naitatago pa ang kaba sa dibdib niya. Naghalo na ang excitement at kaba sa kanya.

Nang marinig niya ang unang tipa ng musika mula sa kung saan ay do’n na bumuhos ang emosyon sa dibdib niya.

“Your turn, Madam. Best wishes.” The staff informed her, then leave her alone.

Alexza took a deep breath before she started walking in a very slow motion. Pagtungtong niya palang sa pulang carpet ay napalingon na lahat sa kanya. Kasabay niyon ay ang magandang tinig ng lalaki na pumailanglang sa paligid.

The grip of the bouquet flowers on her hands tightened as she walk down the aisle while staring at the man who’s waiting for her in the altar.

It’s not the flowers, wrapped in fancy papers

It’s not the ring, I wear around my finger

There’s nothing in all the world I need

When I have you here beside me, here beside me…

Habang papalapit nang palapit siya kay Drake ay mas lalo lang nanginginig ang mga tuhod niya sa sobrang kaba na dulot ng kasal nilang ito. She’s not dreaming, she knows that. Because the way Drake stare back at her, it’s so real. Tumatagos sa puso niya ang intensidad na titig ng mga magagandang matang iyon.

She’s soon to be his, legally. In the eyes of God and in the eyes of the people around them.

So you could give me wings to fly

And catch me if I fall

Or pull the stars down from the sky

So I could wish on them all

But I couldn’t ask for more

Your love is the greatest gift of all…

The husky and beautiful voice of their wedding singer give the song a justice. She took a quick glance at the man on the other side, he’s no other than, Kielton, the rugged band vocalist of the famous band in the country, ColdHeart.

On how Drake managed to invite him as their wedding singer, she doesn’t have idea. Well, with money and connections, nothing is impossible.

And yes, she could not ask for more because Drake’s love is the greatest gift of all…

Her gaze went back at the man she love. Drake isn’t smiling but his eyes were looking a her in a very lovingly way.

In your arms, I found a strength inside me

And in your eyes, there’s a light to guide me

I would be lost without you

And all that my heart could ever want

Has come true…

Drake made her dream come true. He granted all her heart ever wanted…and that’s to marry him…to be with him until eternity.

“You always makes me fall in love with you… you are so beautiful.” Drake whisper softly.

Napakurap pa siya dahil hindi niya namalayan na nasa tapat na pala siya nito at hawak na ang kamay niya.

“Thank you. Sobrang gwapo mo rin,” she whisper back. She felt like she’s blushing.

The ceremony has started and everyone is taking this event formally and happily. They’re are now holding each other hands, getting ready for their vows.

The cold wind blown her hair dramatically and the sun slowly hiding from them, tila ba ipinapakita sa kanya na bago tuluyang kainin ng dilim ang paligid ay sisiguraduhin ng araw na mapapasakanya ang matagal niya nang hinahangad….iyon ay ang matali sa lalaking pinakamamahal niya.

Sa nag-aagaw na liwanag at dilim ng paligid, sa bawat mabagal na hampas ng alon sa dagat at sa harap ng mga taong magiging saksi sa napaka espesyal na pagdiriwang sa mga sandaling ’yon, humugot siya ng hangin sa dibdib at pinakatitigan ang gwapong lalaki sa harap niya.

“Drake, hindi ko alam kung saan at paano ko uumpisahan ang maraming salita na naipon sa dibdib ko na gusto kong marinig mo…” panimula niya, hawak ang kamay nito. “Ang bilis-bilis ng mga pangyayari. Ang bilis-bilis mong gumalaw ng wala akong kaalam-alam.”

Napanguso pa siya nang marahan na natawa si Drake pati ang iilang bisita. Totoo naman ’yon, hindi niya lang napigilang isatinig. He moved so fast. Ilang tao kaya ang nabayaran para ayusin ang kasal nila ng ilang oras lang? Ayaw niya munang isipin ’yon. She need to focus on her wedding vow.

Masuyo siyang pinapagmasdan ni Drake at maingat lang na nakikinig sa kanya. Sa suyo ng mga titig nito ay para siyang tinutunaw. Nakakatuyo ng lalamunan. Alexza swallow hard before she continue.

“You really know how to surprise me. You always give me hope and strength. I regretted that I left you. Pinagsisisihan ko kung bakit sa dami ng iiwan ko, bakit ’yung tao pang alam kong hindi ako iiwan? Bakit Ikaw pa na alam kong gagawin mo ang lahat huwag lang akong mawala sa’yo?”

Napahinto siya, ikinakalma ang mabilis na pintig ng puso niya. Sa kabila ng sakit na idinulot niya sa lalaking kaharap, napakasarap pa rin isipin na sa huli ay siya pa rin ang pinili nitong makasama.

“Despite of all the pain I gave you…why are you still here for me? Why do you always choose me? It’s because you love me.” She smile at him when she saw his brow shot up amusingly as if she got the right answer. “And today, you give me another chance to right all my wrongs, to heal the wound I left you and to finally fix you. Drake, I promise you that I will never ever leave you again. Kahit anong pagsubok pa ang muling dumating sa buhay natin, nangangako ako ngayon sa harap mo, sa harap ng mga taong nagmamahal sa atin at sa harap ng Panginoon, na hinding-hindi na ako aalis sa tabi mo…”

Nakita niya ang pagkislap ng magkabilang gilid ng mata nito. He tilted his head back a little, holding back his tears while listening to her. Ah, her Drake is being emotional.

He swallowed hard before giving her a warm loving smile.

“I will be forever by your side, Drake. Thank you for making all my dreams come true…and that’s to marry you.” She smile lovingly at him. “I promise to love you until my last breath. I promise to be a good wife to you and a best mother to our son-Blake and to our future children. I love you very much,” She sincerely said before sliding a gold expensive ring on his finger.

Drake clear his throat and tilted his head back once again before he settled his eyes on hers again. His full attentions is now on her. Para bang siya lang ang nakikita ng mga mata nito, siya lang talaga. The he held her hand in a very gentle way.

“My only love, my only baby before our son…you are my everything. You are the only woman in my heart. You are my happiness. And, you are my life, Alexza.” His voice is raspy.

Unang kataga palang nito ay nag-init na kaagad ang gilid ng mga mata niya at idinadaan niya nalang sa bahagyang pag-nguso ang kilig at ang tindi ng emosyon sa dibdib.

“Don’t worry ’bout the painful scar you left in my heart, you already healed me by staying beside me until now. Kaya, huwag ka ng umalis. Minsan mo na akong binaliw, huwag mo na sanang uulitin.”

Marahan siyang tumango dito.

“Opo, hindi na.” Bulong niya na nagpaangat sa gilid ng labi nito.

“You make me fall in love with you deeply every passing day with you beside me. At hindi ako magsasawa na ibigay sa’yo ang lahat ng pagmamahal ko kahit na maubusan na ako.” Drake stare at her tenderly and slowly grip her hand. The fast beating of her heart keep booming her chest.

Umihip ang malamig at malagkit na hangin sa paligid, tinangay ang iilang hibla ng buhok niya. Drake watch her hair blown by the wind dramatically and the one side of his lips curve up in a sexy way. Tapos ay mahina itong napabuntong hininga, tila ba gandang-ganda sa kanya. Hulog na hulog talaga.

“In front of you, in front of the people around us and in front of our Almighty God, I promise to give all my love to you. I promise to protect you. I promise to always make you happy. And, I promise to give my life to you, Alexza.” Drake slowly slide the ring on her finger then gently kiss it. “I love you so much, my wife…my life.” He whisper devotedly.

Alexza let her tears fall down her cheeks and let her sobs escape her lips. Her heart was beating so loud and so wild that she could hardly stop it.

This is so real! Why it felt like she’s just dreaming? She glance at their ring fingers. It perfectly fit on them. They’re really husband and wife now. This isn’t a dream. She’s not dreaming.

“You may kiss the bride.” The priest announced after a few minutes, making the crowd stood up and clap their hands.

“Kiss na daddy! Bilis!” It was Blake, excitement on his cute voice.

They both chuckle at their son. Then their eyes locked again. Drake cupped her face slowly, looking so handsome on their wedding day. There’s a glint of happiness and naughtiness on his deep dark eyes, his lips curve up in a smug way. Alexza pout her lips when she felt her heart hammering her chest.

Sa titig palang ng asawa niya, alam na alam niya na ang tumatakbo do’n. Lalo tuloy nanghihina ang tuhod niya dahil matutunaw na siya ilang sandali pa.

Maingat at dahan-dahan na bumaba ang mukha ni Drake sa kanya, otomatik na pumikit ang mga mata niya nang magdampi ang kanilang mga labi. The gentleness of his kiss shows his feelings for her. Sa halik na iyon ay ipinaramdam ng asawa niya kung gaano ito kasaya dahil tuluyan na siya nitong naangkin.

Mahina pa siyang natawa nang pagkatapos ng masuyong halikan na iyon ay nakita niyang kumalat sa labi ng asawa ang lipstick niya. Gamit ang daliri niya ay maingat niyang pinunasan ang labi nito.

Their eyes met again. They’re staring at each other, their eyes told them their feelings inside. Their love and happiness.

“Congrats mommy ko and daddy ko!”

Naputol lang ang titigan nila nang sumulpot sa harap nila si Blake. Nakangiti na yumukod siya sa anak at kinurot ang pisngi nito kaya napangiwi.

She let out a short laugh at his reaction. So cute!

“Thank you baby. You’re very handsome today.” She kiss his forehead.

She felt Drake hand on her waist. Napaangat siya ng tingin sa gwapong asawa. Sa likod nito ay ang kakarampot na liwanag mula sa papalubog na araw.

“Let’s go to hotel? It’s getting dark and cold here, baka lamigin ka.”

Umayos siya ng tayo at hinarap ito. Hawak niya ang kamay ni Blake na nakatingala sa kanila. Mangha pa rin na pinapanood silang mag-asawa.

“Hotel room?”

Drake eyes suddenly darkened in a lustful way making her lips pouted.

“You wanna go to our hotel room?” He playfully ask, a sexy smirk form his lips.

“Sabi mo kasi sa hotel…”

“Because the reception is there.” Drake move his head closer and his lips touch her ear. “But we can skip that part if you want…” he whisper sensually. “I wanna make love with my wife until dawn.”

Her face heated up. The tingling sensation ran down her spine. She gulp carefully before she smile at her husband.

“I’m hungry. I want to eat.” She said, batting her eyelashes playfully.

Nahulog ang balikat nito at nagpakawala ng hangin sa bibig. Tila nabigo.

“Then let’s eat. Ayokong nagugutom ang asawa ko.” He miserably held her hand and guide her to the hotel.

While they’re walking, he tilted his head closer again until his sweet lips reached her ear.

“Pero mamaya, ikaw naman ang kakainin ko…humanda ka.” Nakakaliyong bulong ng asawa sa ilalim ng tenga niya dahilan kung bakit binalot ng init ang buong katawan niya.

34 ~ Making Love

CHAPTER THIRTY FOUR

IT WAS HER dream wedding beach. The sunset, the waves, the white crystal sands and the cold wind. Her husband made her dream wedding came true. And even her dream wedding motif, he made sure it is turquoise. It’s like an ocean.

Pakiramdam niya nga ay isa siyang alon sa dagat, kahit saan man mapadpad ang alon na ’yon, kahit walang katapusan ang hampas non…sa pangpang pa rin ang huling bagsak niyon. Parang siya nga talaga, dahil kung saan-saan na siya napunta, maraming pagsubok na ang dumating sa kanya, pero sa huli, sa lugar kung nasaan siya ngayon pa rin ang bagsak niya.

It’s because she’s meant to be in that place in the end. She’s meant to be with him again in the end. Totoo ngang nakaguhit na sa mga palad nila na kahit ano pa ang mangyari, sila pa rin talaga ang magsasama sa huli. Hindi na mabubura, sadyang nakaukit na.

Sa daming emosyon na nag-uunahan sa dibdib niya, napahugot siya ng hangin. She’s sitting on their wedding white couch, everyone was looking at them, happiness on their eyes. She glance at the elegant wedding reception, kahit saan siya tumingin ay kulay dagat ang nakikita niya. Ang sarap sarap sa mata ng kulay asul at luntian kapag pinag-isa.

“Like what you see?” Her husband baritone making her looks on him. “It’s turquoise, your favorite color.”

Ang malamlam na mga matang nakatitig sa kanya ay ang dahilan kung bakit napahugot na naman siya ng hangin sa dibdib. Drake eyes always melt her, his every stares making her knees wobble.

“I love everything I see…including you,”

Drake suddenly tilted his head back and close his eyes, as if he’s calming himself for the reason she doesn’t know.

“Fuck…” he curse softly, looking so handsome in that angle.

Given the fact that he’s handsome. Pero bakit hanggang ngayon ay parang nababaliw pa rin siya kapag nagkakaroon nang pagkakataon na pagmasdan ito ng malaya? Ang puso niya ay tumitibok pa rin sa hindi normal na paraan.

The white tux he’s wearing was hugging perfectly on his broad chest and muscled arms. The expensive watch on his veined wrist and the gold ring on his finger, screams of a man who’s wealthy enough to settled down. Minsan ay nakaka-intimidate na itong asawa niya.

A smile curve her lips while looking on his wedding ring. She is a proud wife of him.

“No cursing,” sita niya nang ibinalik ng asawa ang tingin sa kanya. “Blake’s good in imitating you, baka pati ang pagmumura gagayahin niya.”

“I can’t help it. You just make my heart beat wildly.” He tilted his head on the side, his palm is on her lap. “Lets go to our suite?”

Nakikiusap ang mga mata nito na hindi niya na magawang tanggihan pa.

“Tara,”

Drake lips form a sexy smirk before he held her hand and guide her. Kaya lang ay parang namigat ang katawan niya sa gown na suot. He seems to noticed her reaction. Bumaba ang tingin nito sa kahabaan ng gown niya at nagkibit ng balikat tapos ay walang sereseremonya na binuhat siya.

Napasinghap pa siya at napakapit sa dibdib nito. Napatingin pa sa kanila ang mga ibang bisita. Their wedding photographers position themselves and capture that moment.

“We’re leaving. Enjoy the rest of the night.” Drake announced.

“Aalis na tayo daddy ko?”

She look down at her son. He looks sleepy. Bigla siyang naawa sa anak, hindi niya ito napansin masyado dahil naging busy na sila ni Drake. Ang mga kasama lang nito ay ang Kuya Dwaye niya at ang mga kaibigan.

Dwaye suddenly walk towards them from their table. He carry Blake who’s automatically place his head on her brother’s shoulder but his sleepy eyes remained on them. It’s already ten in the evening that’s why her son’s tired. It’s a long day for all of them.

“Are you sleepy buddy? Let’s go to our room.” Dwaye said gently.

“Hindi ako pwede sa room nila daddy?” Blake yawned cutely.

“I thought you want a baby sister?”

Napangiwi siya. Ito na naman sila sa usapang baby girl. Nakisali na pati ang kapatid niya para lang mapapayag si Blake na huwag muna matulog katabi nila. Pwede rin naman pero mukhang hindi papaawat ang asawa niya sa sinasabi nitong sosolohin siya.

It’s their honeymoon. Goodness! She felt her body burning in want!

“Opo, gagawa na po ba sila ng baby girl Tito Dwaye?”

“Yes son,” Drake was the one who answered. “Kaya…sa akin muna ang mommy mo, okay?”

“Okay daddy ko,” antok na tumango si Blake, pinipilit lang na imulat ang mga mata. “Good night,”

“I’ll bring him to our room.” Paalam ni Dwaye.

“We’re leaving too, Kuya.”

Wala nang nagtangka pang humarang sa daraanan ni Drake pero sadyang malalakas ang loob ng kaibigan nitong manukso.

“Hindi na ba talaga makapaghintay ’yang ano mo…Drake?” Zyron whistled playfully. “Baka kailangan niyo ng scorer?”

“No need, brute.” Drake leered and pass on his friend’s table.

Sa unahan nila ay si Dwaye na karga si Blake na tulog na. Pagod nga talaga ang anak.

THE DIM LIGHTS dramatically illuminate their suite. The red roses petals above the king size bed and the candles, makes the room looks so romantic and at the same time erotic.

There are many scenarios playing on her mind and it’s all about their making love. That steamy scenarios giving her body a heat. She could feel that familiar heat already.

Sa kama palang, alam niyang pinaghandaan nga talaga ang espesyal na gabi na ’yon nila bilang ganap na mag-asawa.

Marahan na ibinaba siya ni Drake sa dulo nang kama, lumubog ’yon, nasagi ang mga pulang petals. Nakatayo ito sa harapan niya, mataman na nakatitig sa kanya.

“I want to take a shower,” she said softly. “Nanlalagkit na kasi ako…”

It must be the sand and the salty wind. She needs a quick shower before she sleep.

“I want that, too.”

Umikot ang mata niya. Si Drake pa ba? Ngayon na may karapatan na talaga ito sa kanya, ngayon na mag-asawa na sila, walang pag-aalinlangan na siya nitong aangkinin. He’s has all the rights in the world to make love with her, unless she doesn’t want it. But she love it though.

“Sabay tayo?” Pilya siyang ngumiti.

Ang mga mata nito ay dumilim, umakma lamang sa tanglaw ng buong silid. He sexily swallow hard, he’s Adam’s apple bobbled up.

“If that’s what my wife wants…”

Umismid siya at umirap. Itinuon ang paningin sa sliding glass window na bahagyang nakabukas. Ang hangin sa labas ay sinasayaw ang makapal na kurtina ng pintuan, papasok sa loob.

Bakit parang mukhang siya ang sabik na sabik ngayon? O baka naman sinusubukan lang ng asawa kung hanggang saan aabot ang pag kontrol niya sa sarili?

“Can you please remove my gown, love?” She whisper innocently and stood up, she turn around.

“Hmm, I know that kind of voice.”

“What?” Maang-maangan pa rin siya. Sinilip ito sa balikat niya.

“You’re teasing me. I know it,” bulong nito sa batok niya.

Ang mainit nitong hininga na tumama sa balat niya ay nagpakilabot sa kanya. At hindi na siya mapakali nang dumampi ang mga daliri ng asawa sa balikat niya.

Tumikhim siya, inalis ang namumuong bara sa lalamunan.

“I’m not teasing you,” she denied.

She felt his lips above her shoulder. “Really, huh,”

“H-Hindi naman talaga…”

“Why’s hard for me to believe that?”

Drake slowly pulled down the thin strap of her gown. She close her eyes when she felt his lips on her nape.

“D-Dapat maniwala ka sa asawa mo..”

“Naniniwala naman ako,”

Padampi-dampi ang labi nito sa balikat niya papunta sa batok niya. Literal na tumataas ang balahibo niya sa katawan sa masuyo ngunit mainit na mga halik na ’yon.

Halos mapatid ang hininga niya nang bumaba na sa braso niya ang dalawang strap dahilan kung bakit na-expose ang dibdib niya. Her wedding gown is built-in. So she doesn’t need to wear a bra, she’s only wearing a Victoria’s Secret lacy panty.

“Oh!” She gasped when her husband cupped her breasts.

“As much I love seeing you wearing this gown, I would never let you wear this again.” He whisper under her ear. “Your cleavage showed up sexily. It’s for my eyes only.”

“You were the one who chose this gown,”

“It’s my fault, then?”

She nod. “Yes, it’s my husband fault for making me wear sexy wedding dress.”

“I thought it would fit in your breasts, but it looks like my babies get bigger.”

“Your babies?” She curiously ask, looking at him above her shoulder.

Drake is busy kissing her bare shoulder and back while he’s palming her breast.

“Your breasts,” he chuckled softly.

She laugh a that. She found it cute and funny.

“Ang dami mo namang baby,”

“Ikaw pa rin ang number one baby ko syempre,”

Her smile grew wider. She’s giggling and blushing like a teenager who’s talking to her school crush. Uh, ang galing naman talagang magpakilig ng asawa niya.

“Magagalit na naman sa’yo si Blake kapag narinig ka niyang tinatawag akong baby,”

“Our son should deal with it next time,”

His thumb is now playing with her nipple. She chews her lips when his lips trails her spinal chord, while his one hand slowly unzipping her gown to finally remove it from her.

“Shower, first,” she reminded her husband when he removed her gown together with her lacy panty.

He’s kneeling behind her, he’s using his both hands to pull down her gown. Nang nasa talampakan niya na ang mga ’yon ay bahagya niyang inangat ang paa para tuluyan ng maalis sa kanya.

Napatingkayad siya nang halik-halikan ni Drake ang likod ng mga binti niya pataas, damang-dama niya ang pagsamba sa mga halik na ’yon.

“Turn around,” he whisper huskily, caressing and kissing her legs.

Nagdadalawang isip pa siya kung haharap siya dito gayong hubo’t-hubad na siya. Ang malamig na hangin na pumapasok sa silid nila ay dumadagdag lang sa pagtaas ng mga balahibo.

“B-Bakit?”

“I wanna see something.”

Wala sa sarili na mabagal siyang pumihit paharap dito. At dahil nakaluhod ang asawa kaya halos dangkal nalang ang pagitan ng pagkababae niya at ng mukha nito. She can almost feel his hot breath hitting her private part.

He look up on her, his dark eyelashes and deep intense eyes making her gulp. She wet her lips with her tongue absentmindedly.

“W-What is it you want to see?” She ask breathily.

“This,”

Gamit ang isang daliri ay pinaglandas nito ’yon sa hiwa niya. She’s very sensitive that even with that simple touch, she can’t control the small moan from her lips.

“Drake…” she called his name, sounds like she’s begging for something.

“Yes, my wife?” His voice was seductive. She’s seduced.

Napatingala siya at umawang ang labi niya. Ipinatong niya ang kamay sa ulo nito at bahagyang inilapit sa pagkababae niya. Ang mainit na hininga ng asawa na tumatama sa puson niya ay mas lalo lang nagpapa-apoy ng katawan niya.

“E-Eat me…” kapos ang hininga na bulong niya.

“I thought my wife want a shower?” He teased.

“Just finish what you started. You’re really good in putting me in heat!” She frustratedly grip her hair.

Wala na siyang narinig pang salita mula sa asawa at segundo lang ang pinalipas ng maramdaman niya ang dulo ng dila nito na mabagal na sinusungkil-sungkil ang cl*t niya. She parted her shaky legs a little, giving him a complete access to devour her.

“Ohhh,” she moan and grip his hair when the tip of his tongue found what he’s looking for.

She look down to watch her husband on how he pleasure her with his sinful tongue. His hair is messy because of her grip. Nakapikit ang mga mata nito at halatang sarap na sarap na dilaan ang pagkababae niya. Umapoy ang kaninang baga lang sa katawan niya habang pinapanood ang asawa.

Mas lalo pa nitong pinaghiwalay ang mga binti niya at halos kapusin siya ng hininga nang lumapat ang kahabaan dila nito sa hiwa niya. He’s rubbing his tongue on her wet womanhood. Ramdam na ramdam niya ang paglapat ng dila nito na mas nagpabaliw sa kanya.

“Oohhh, Drake… yes, that’s it…it f-feels so good…”

Her moans turns him on. He keeps on licking her womanhood and it makes her legs shake, her knees are getting weak.

Ikinulong ng braso ni Drake ang balakang niya at mas naging matindi ang pagkain sa kanya. Mabilis na hinimod nito ang bawat sulok ng pagkababae niya hanggang sa halos mapasigaw na siya sa kakaungol.

“Love! Ooohhhh! Y-Yes, ohhh…” she grind her hips on his face while he’s literally eating her.

She could taste her orgasm coming. Napasabunot pa siya sa asawa ng sinipsip na nito ang cl*t niya. And that’s her weakness! Ilang sandali lang nitong sinipsip ang maliit na kuntil na iyon bago nanigas ang binti niya.

Sumabog ang orgasmo niya at nanghina ang kapit niya sa buhok ng asawa. Nanghihina na napaupo siya sa kama, patuloy ang paglabas ng orgasmo niya at patuloy din si Drake sa pagdila sa katas niya.

Her body became so weak because of her orgasm and she felt so tired. She close her eyes when her husband parted her legs. He placed her heels at the edge of the bed carefully.

“Drake!” She gasped when he delve in between her thighs and slowly kissing her womanhood.

Maagap na inabot niya ang ulo ng asawa, pinapatigil na ito habang nakapikit ang mga mata niya.

“Tired?” His voice is sexy. His palms were in her stomach, caressing her there.

She nod weakly. “I’m tired… Give me a few minutes to rest.”

“Sure thing, wife.”

Gumapang ito pataas hanggang sa magpantay ang kanilang mga mukha. Hinalikan muna siya nito sa noo bago itinuon ang atensyon sa kanya.

“Let’s remove your suite,” she whisper and started unbuttoning his white tux.

Nakapikit itong napatingala at hinayaan siya sa ginagawa. She throw his tux on the carpeted floor and then she unbutton that long sleeve white polo. She can’t help herself but staring at her husband while she’s undressing him.

Sa isip niya ay napapabuntong hininga siya. She’s so lucky to have him. She’s lucky because after all the pain she gave him, he still choose her. He married her. He promised his life to her.

Pagkatapos niyang mahubad ang pangtaas ng asawa ay pinaglandas niya ang daliri sa dibdib nito pababa sa tiyan. Umalpas ang mahinang daing dito nang dinama ng palad niya ang buhay nitong pagkalalaki.

“Thought you want to rest?” He whisper, looking down on her, fire on his eyes.

His both arms were at her side, supporting his weight. His wide built is covering her. The dim lights were against him, but she can still see clearly how his jaw move a bit and his lips parted a little, as if he’s gasping for air.

“Yes,” she keep on caressing his hardness, teasing him again.

“Then stop teasing me. I’m really hard.”

“I know that, love.” She smile sweetly at her husband.

Umangat ang paghaplos niya sa pagkalalaki ng asawa hanggang sa maabot niya ang sinturon nito. She slowly unbuckle his belt and unzip his white slacks. She pulled it down together with his dark boxers shorts.

“Damn it,” he curse breathily and rub his length on her wetness.

The heat on her body is building up again. Her husband is so huge, thick, long, hot and very hard. It excites her.

Drake tilted his head closer and claim her lips for a passionate kiss while he’s slowly poking her entrance. She snake her arms on his nape and answer his kiss with the same emotion. Their lips were moving slowly, ipinapadama nila ang pagmamahal sa sa isa’t-isa sa pamamagitan ng masuyong halikan na ’yon.

“Ummm,”

She suddenly stopped her lips from moving, distracted by his sudden gentle movement inside her. He filled her with his length that easy. Sanay na sanay na nga talaga siya sa laki nito.

“I feel satisfied already,” he whisper, brushing his lips on hers.

“Ako rin,” pag-amin niya. “Ang sarap…”

“Ang sarap ng asawa ko…”

Nag-init ang pisngi niya. Hindi inaasahan na sasabihin nito ’yon. It boosted her confidence.

Binigyan siya nito ng isa pang halik sa labi bago bumaba ang labi nito sa leeg niya. Napatingala siya sa kiliti at napaawang ang labi ng mabagal na nilabas-masok ng asawa ang pagkalalaki nito sa loob niya.

Drake every thrusts is so gentle, making her feel like they’re really making love. And the way he kiss every part of her body, it makes her feel like he’s worshipping her. That gentle kisses and his slow movement inside her, satisfied her.

“D-Drake…oohhh…” mahinang ungol niya, marahan na sinusuklay ang buhok ng asawa gamit ang mga daliri niya.

He’s kissing and nipping her breasts, leaving a kiss mark again on her skin. Ang kaninang mabagal na galaw nito ay paunti-unti ng bumibilis. Bawat ulos ay inihahatid siya sa sukdulan. Ang mahihinang ungol niya ay nahahalinhinan ng mga masarap sa tengang daing ng kanyang asawa.

“Ohhh, love…l-love…D-Drake,” she keeps on calling him breathily. “Sige pa… I’m g-gonna cum…Oohh yes, yes…Drake…”

“Ohh, oh…” he moaned on her neck.

Patuloy ito sa mabagal na pag-galaw ngunit sinisiguradong baon na baon sa loob niya. Ramdam na ramdam niya.

“Ohh Drake! Ohh,”

She arch her body and let her orgasm exploded after a few deep thrust from her husband. She’s damn tired but very satisfied.

Drake continue pumping inside her in a gentle way before she felt him thrusts deeper. His body stilled and she suddenly felt the familiar hot liquid that explodes inside of her. It feels so good as always.

Her husband just came inside. And it makes her smile. They both really want another baby and this is a good start to make one.

Alexza close her eyes and yawn. She felt sleepy all of a sudden and she knows that he noticed it.

Naramdaman niyang umalis si Drake sa ibabaw niya at lumipat sa tabi niya. Marahan na kinuha nito ang ulo niya at pinaunan siya sa braso nito.

“I love you,” he whisper tenderly.

He kiss her forehead, the tip of her nose and her lips. Then he embrace her, making her smile. Ingat na ingat ito sa kanya daig niya pa ang babasagin.

“I love you, too…” She sleepily whisper back and place her hand on his chest.

She fell asleep with a smile on her lips and with real happiness on her heart.

Epilogue

A/N: This will be the last chapter of this story. Thank you so much for loving and supporting my Territorial Men Series! Love lots, Grainners! ❤️

EPILOGUE

ALEXZA THOUGHT that the hardest part of her life was when escaping from all the bad people who will try to hurt her, but it wasn’t. She thought that the most painful part of her life was the night when she realized that Drake cheated on her, but it wasn’t. Because the hardest and the most painful part of her life is to leave her son, alone, just to get him away from being hurt by bad people.

Sa namumugtong mga mata ay muli niyang sinulyapan ang anak sa passenger seat na natutulog pa rin. She doesn’t want to be away from him, but if being away from him is the only thing she could do to save her son’s life, she will, even if it’s very hard and very painful on her part.

Isipin niya palang na hindi niya makakasama ang anak niya ay dinudurog na ng maso ang puso niya. Napakasakit bilang ina na iwan ang anak niya, hindi niya gusto pero kailangan.

“I’m sorry…b-baby, mommy need to do this to you.” She said as her tears started to roll down her cheeks. “You will be safe with your daddy. S-sana kapag dumating ang araw na magkita ulit tayo…s-sana mapatawad mo ako, anak. You k-know how much I love you. And I’m d-doing all of this for y-you…” she caress his soft legs while driving.

She’s been driving for how many hours now since they left the hospital and it’s quarter to three in the morning already. She felt tired and sleepy but she keeps going for her son safety.

With her blurry vision, she looked at the rear view mirror and saw a black van following her. The van have been secretly following her since she left the town, she noticed it. They might be Tommy’s people. Kung paano niya ililigaw ang mga ito ay hindi niya na rin alam. Hindi na siya makapag-isip pa ng maayos.

Ang madilim na kapaligiran at ang basang daan ay hindi nakakatulong sa pagmamaneho niya. It’s very creepy and scary road, but this is the only way to be in Drake’s Resort that easy. It’s a dangerous short cut road.

Sa pagbuhos ng biglang ulan ay natanaw niya ang mga iilang ilaw at iilang kapulisan na sa malayo palang ay sumisenyas na na bagalan niya ang kanyang pagmamaneho.

She slow down her speed for a check point.

She wipe her tears and compose herself before she open the driver’s window when one of the policeman knocked on there. She saw all of them wearing a yellow green glow in dark rain coat.

“Good morning Ma’am, sandali lang po ’to,”

Alexza nod her head carefully. “S-Sige po,”

She unlocked the doors of her car and watch the policemen check inside, even the back compartment.

“Baby mo, Ma’am?” Tanong ng isang pulis nang makita ang anak niya na tulog na tulog.

“Opo, pauwi palang kami.”

“Saan ho ba kayo? Delikado ang daan dito. Madulas at makitid.”

“Sa V-Villafuente Resort ho,”

“Clear!” The other policeman announced and he closed the back compartment door.

“Ingat, Ma’am. May mga malalalim na bangin diyan sa unahan,”

“S-Salamat ho,” she force a smile before she close the window and locked all the doors again.

Humugot pa siya ng hangin sa dibdib bago muling pinaandar ang sasakyan. When she look at the side mirror, she saw the policemen watching her car away.

The road is slippery that she needed to slow down her pace. The darkness and the strong rain freak her out. Tila ba siya lang mag-isa ang tanging bumabaybay sa makitid na daan na iyon. Sa gilid ay malalim na kabanginan.

“This road freaks me out baby…” she chuckled nervously. “But don’t worry, okay? We’ll be safe. I will bring you to your daddy.”

After a minutes of driving slowly, she suddenly gasped and panicked when she heard a gunshots from behind, it’s from where she was awhile ago. It was from the check point station!

“Oh God,”

Panick attacked her when she thinks about Tommy’s people fighting with the policemen. Sa pagkataranta at sa takot na maabutan sila ng mga masasamang taong ’yon ay hindi niya na namamalayan ang pagbilis ng takbo ng sasakyang minamaneho niya .

DRAKE STOOD UP from the sun lounger and was about to run towards his wife when he saw her body slowly covering the water. Pero muli rin siyang napaupo nang umahon ang katawan ng asawa mula sa dahang-dahang paglubog kanina.

Alexza was floating at the sea for how many minutes now. His wife asked him not to disturb her because she wanted to relax herself by floating her body on the water.

“I wanna go to mommy,” Blake said, pouting his lips while they’re both watching Alexza. He’s sitting on the sun lounger too, next to him.

“Maybe later?”

“Why not now daddy?”

“Your mommy’s relaxing. I don’t think it’s good to disturb her, son.”

Blake lips form into thin line before he bended his knees and place his chin above it.

“Galit na naman po ba siya sa’yo?”

He shrug his shoulder. A small smile crept his lips when he remember why his wife is always get annoyed on him.

“Hindi siya galit, anak. Naiinis lang siya minsan. Your mommy is carrying your baby sister, we need to understand her mood swing.”

Alexza is pregnant and they discovered it a week after their wedding. He’s enjoying her ‘paglilihi’ and her cravings though. He’s spoiling her. Whatever it is she wanted, he always give it to her without a doubt.

“But she’s still wearing a one piece bikini. Her tummy isn’t big yet,”

“It will get bigger as days goes by, we just have to wait.”

Tahimik naman na tumango ang anak at nakuntento nalang na panoorin si Alexza hindi kalayuan. Siya man ay gano’n din. Gustuhin niya man din lapitan ay ayaw niya, tiyak na maiinis na naman sa kanya ang asawa.

“I got the result,” Dwaye suddenly appeared on his side after a few minutes.

Drake eyes drifted on the envelope on his hand. It’s sealed. When he read the name that indicated on the upper side of it, his heart raced.

“What’s that Tito Dwaye?” Blake curiously ask, looking at the envelope too. “Why’s my name is written there?”

Dwaye clear his throat and force a smile on Blake. “We will let you know later. Is that okay to you?”

“What’s DNA po?”

“Hmm, I will read it later to you, son. Tito Dwaye and I need to talk ’bout it first.”

“Just open it here, wala namang ibang tao.” Dwaye suggested and handed him the envelope.

“Was it from my school? Is my card inside, daddy? I wanna see my grades po.” Blake ask again, he knows that his son is a curios kid. “Why don’t we wait for mommy before we open it?”

Sabay pa silang nagkatinginan ni Dwaye, hindi makapiyok sa suhestiyon ng bata.

They got the DNA Test of Alexza and Blake before the wedding. It was made from USA that’s why it arrived after a week or so. Dwaye and he planned all about that because they both have this instinct that Blake might really Alexza’s son.

And knowing that his wife has a selective amnesia, there are some memories from the past that she can’t remember. She lost some of her memories and maybe, just maybe, a memory of her and Blake when she left him outside the gate of his house, was one of the memories she can’t remember, yet.

When he talked to her doctor, he discovered that the most of the forgotten memories were those painful memories the patient had before the accident. Hindi na nais pang alalahanin ng isip ang mga bagay, tao o pangyayari na nagbigay ng labis na sakit sa pasyente. The patient usually choose to forget it than to remember it. And that might be Alexza’s case.

He doesn’t want to assume, but he believes that leaving Blake was one of Alexza’s heartbreaking and painful memories. She doesn’t want to remember it because it will only give her pain.

“Let’s surprise your mommy with this,” Drake give his son a warm smile before his finger move to unsealed the envelope.

“Damn it, the result makes me nervous, damn,” Dwaye murmured.

“Me too,” he admitted and took a deep breath, “damn it,”

“Damn, damn it,” Blake mimicked them, making them groaned.

“Don’t say it again,”

“But you both keep saying it, daddy,”

“That words isn’t for kids,”

Blake just nod his head and watch him opening the brown envelope. He blew a breath and pulled up the papers inside.

“I don’t wanna see,” Dwaye mutter and turn around to face the sea. “Don’t read it out loud, brute. I’m not yet ready,”

“Damn it,” he curse under his breath, his heart beat so loud while silently reading the DNA Result of Blake and Alexza. “Oh Lord,” his fingers were shaking!

Drake glance on his son, who’s staring back innocently at him. His eyes watered, he move closer and give his son a tight fatherly embrace.

AT THE BACK of her car she saw the familiar headlights of a van, a meters away from her. Afraid of being caught, she drive fast as she could to get away from those bad

people. She was panicking, but she tried hard her best to control her emotions and focus on driving.

“They’re coming! They’ll going to kill you! They’ll going to

get me! Fast drive! Don’t let them catch you! Get away from them!“

Absentmindedly, she keep saying the words to give herself a courage to drive faster than she was doing. Not minding the wet road, not minding the dangerous cliff and not minding the darkness around her! She needs to get away from bad people who will try to harm her and her son!

Kung paano sila nakaligtas sa mapanganib na makipot na daan ay hindi niya na alam. But she’s still panicking! Her fingers were still shaking even her car is already park near Drake’s beach house.

It’s still dark, the rain starting to go down but the wild waves tells her that another bad weather will soon to come. She needs to hurry before the bad people see her car.

“A-Ayoko… ayoko kitang i-iwan, anak…” umiiyak siya sa loob ng sasakyan habang may kinakalkal sa shoulder bag. “B-but you will be safe here than being with m-me, your daddy will take care of you, I k-know that. I trust

him w-with you,“

She get the small bracelet at the pocket of her bag. She looks at the white gold thing and force a smile while sobbing and wiping her tears using her one hand. She unlocked it and move closer to her baby.

She carefully wear the bracelet on his small wrist and caress it.

“B-Bagay sa’yo, anak…” she whisper, her voice was shaking. “Your name fits on you,” she look at the personalize bracelet she bought the last time she went to Mall before she give birth. She kiss her son’s wrist while crying on it. “I’m s-sorry… mommy loves you very much…. my b-baby…my baby Blake…” her voice cracked, her heart is so broken.

She was crying while getting out of the car. She carry the baby basket, her son is sleeping there and she carefully put him outside Villafuente’s beach house gate. Sa bandang gilid, kung saan may bubong at hindi mababasa ng ulan.

One last hug and kiss to her son, she walk away from him and went inside her car. That’s when she noticed a familiar van was coming her way.

With her shaky hands and the tears that almost blind her vision, she took a one painful glance on her son before she drove away from him with a broken heart. Without knowing that another painful accident will come her way soon, that would change her life.

IT FEELS SO REAL. No! It was real! It wasn’t just a random dream. It happened to her. The pain is in her heart and the tears was rolling down her cheeks. The painful scenarios was real!

Alexza gasped at the memories and her body automatically fell down the water. Muli ay napasinghap na naman siya nang balutin ng malamig na tubig ang buo niyang katawan, tila ginigising siya sa isang napakasakit na panaginip.

“Mommy! Mommy!” It was Blake’s panicking voice. “Daddy! Please save mommy!” And then she heard him cries.

Iminulat niya ang mga mata, kakaibang liwanag ang sumalubong sa kanya. At kahit nanlalabo ang paningin ay nabanaag niya ang pamilyar na imahe ng isang lalaking lumalangoy palapit sa kanya.

Drake. My husband.

Her memories with him brought her back to reality and when she tried to pulled herself up from a deep cold water, it’s already too late. She was drowning and she could hardly breath. She needs air. She needs someone to pull her up.

And that someone came.

A tight embrace on her waist, making her heart thump loudly. She move her hands and hold on to that strong arms as if her life depends on it. Her life really depends on him!

“I’m here, I’m here!” A deep voice suddenly echoed around. “Love! Open your eyes! Alexza…” A gentle patted on her cheeks, waking her up.

She move her fingers to responds. The air is enough for her and the warm body that enveloped on hers, making her feel safe and secure. She’s safe!

She suddenly felt the roughness of sands on her back after a while. A soft lips, pressed against hers and a minty breath was giving her more air on her chest. One last breath, her body arch and the water from her insides came out.

“Mommy! Mommy ko!” Another warm embrace envelope her stomach.

Slowly, she opened her eyes and was welcome with a handsome face who’s looking down on her as if he would die if he blinks.

“D-Drake,” her voice is husk.

“You’re safe now,” her husband caress her face. “God, I thought I’m gonna die,” he look up on the sky and close his eyes. “I was damn worried, I don’t wanna lose my wife,”

“Don’t sleep on the water again mommy,” Blake’s hugging her, crying on her chest.

The painful memories awhile ago suddenly popped up and when her eyes drop down on Blake’s wrist, and saw a familiar bracelet, all her emotions came out until she can’t handle it anymore.

She gathered her son on her arms and cry. It wasn’t a dream after all, because it was all real!

“Anak ko… anak ko…” she keeps saying that. “I’m sorry, I l-left you… I’m so sorry, mommy left you…”

She didn’t expect all of these. All her memories came back without even expecting it. Did she lost it? Did she forget it? What happened to her forgotten memories were not really important now. What matter the most is it all came back.

“Do you remember everything?” It was her brother voice, standing in front of them.

She nods her head, locking her son with her arms. Drake is sitting behind them, caressing her hair and back.

The sounds of the waves and the sunlight making the scene a very unforgettable and a sight to behold. The men who truly loves  and cares for her were around her and she already felt completed.

“I remember everything even a single details of my life before the accident. I remember all. I remember my son, the baby that I left outside Drake’s gate, it was my baby, it was Blake…” she explained between her sobs. “I was the one who do all that to keep him safe. I was the one who left him. He’s my son. Blake is my son!”

She glance at her husband who’s carefully watching her, the emotions on his eyes melted her. It’s bloodshot and he’s almost got into tears. Drake suddenly grab her and his son for another tight hug. A hug of a father and a hug of a husband.

“I know, he’s our son, Alexza. I felt it the first time I carry him,” he whisper. “He’s ours, I know that by my heart. I do not need to look for the similarities of you and Blake because every time I look on him, I feel sure that he’s mine and he was from you…Blake’s ours.”

It’s a father instinct! Drake felt it, too. His blood runs on Blake’s veins. It’s heartfelt knowing that even they both doesn’t know yet that Blake’s their son, they can still feel it by their hearts.

“Are you my real mother, mommy? I don’t understand what you and daddy were talking about,” Blake ask, looking up on her.

She smile warmly at her son and kiss his forehead.

“I am your biological mother, Blake. I was sick that’s why I didn’t remember you,” she explain.

“You were the one who left me outside daddy’s gate?” Blake pouted, making her pout her lips, too.

“Sorry na…kailangan kasi anak, eh.”

“Am I crying that time, mommy?”

She shook her head. “I’m glad you weren’t crying that time, I might bring you with me if you were.”

Bahagyang kumalas ng yakap sa kanya si Blake at tiningala si Dwaye na may kislap ng kasiyahan sa mata habang pinapanood sila. He’s against the light, the muscular built of her brother shows perfectly.

“I don’t think you still need this,” Dwaye shows her an envelope.

“What’s that Kuya?”

“A DNA Result of you and Blake,”

Alexza’s eyes widened. “How did you do that? Bakit ka may ganyan?”

“I wasn’t the only one who plan this.” He handed her the envelope. “Blame your husband, too.” She purse her lips, “I gotta go. Happy for you, sis.” Her brother kiss her forehead before leaving them.

“I thought you felt that he’s our son, hmm?” She asked her husband, staring at him. “Bakit kailangan ng DNA test?”

“Just to make sure,” Drake give her a quick kiss on the lips. “But now that you already remember everything, we do not need that as a proof that he’s our son. You’re enough to be the proof.”

Though, she knows that Blake’s really her son, she still curious and read the paper inside the envelope. A genuine smile appeared on her lips while reading the result. It’s 99.9% that Blake’s really her son. No doubt.

“I love you, anak…” she whisper at Blake and kiss his forehead again.

“Love you, mommy ko.”

Alexza smile and she glance at her husband. Her heart automatically thump crazily the moment their eyes met. Drake effects on her never change even a bit. ’Yung kakaibang kaba sa dibdib niya ay nando’n pa rin sa tuwing nakikipagtitigan sa asawa.

“Mahal kita…” mahinang sabi niya at bahagyang inilapit ang mukha dito para halikan ito sa labi.

Drake swallow hard and he breath out slowly before he tilted his head a little more closer to her. He’s bushing his lips on hers, making her close her eyes to feel the sensation.

“I love you very much that I could not see myself in the future without you as my wife,” He whisper lovingly, her heart melted again. “Now that you remember everything, I want you to know that I never cheated on you while we were in a relationship. Whatever you seen before that made you think that I did that to you and whoever woman it was, I am sure as hell I swept away all the woman who’s trying to get near me. Coz I know you’re a jealous girlfriend. I didn’t do anything to make you jealous or get mad at me, I swear.” Drake keep brushing his lips on hers while whispering, using the raspiness on his voice. “But let’s just forget the past. What matter now is you already mine and I’m yours. We are married.” He reminded her again as if she always forget it. “Sa higpit nang pagkakatali ko sa’yo, ewan ko nalang kung makawala kapa bilang asawa ko…”

The end.

A/N: I would appreciate your short feedback/review about this story. Let me hear it? It would help me. Thank you again. 💗

— MsGrainne