Prologue

Masaya si Yuka para sa kapatid niya dahil sa wakas ay ikinasal na ito sa lalaking mahal niya at ama ng mga anak niya. Hindi basta-basta ang lalaking napangasawa ng Ate niya. Si Miguel Cordova ay galing sa isa sa pinakamayamang pamilya hindi lang sa Pilipinas kung hindi sa Asya. 

Hawak niya ang isang baso ng wine sa isang kamay habang nakahalukipkip ang isang bisig niya sa ilalim ng dibdib. Hindi niya gusto ang lasa ng wine pero ito ang ginagawa ng lahat ng nakapaligid sa kanya. Ito ang dapat niyang gawin para makibagay. 

Napabuntong-hininga na lang siya habang pinanonood ang Ate Saskia at Kuya Migs niya. Suot nito ang pangalawa sa pinakamagdang dress na nakita niya sa buong buhay niya. It was a blush pink silk evening dress. Ang pinakamaganda ay ang wedding dress na kanina’y suot nito habang naglalakad sa pasilyo ng simabahan. Dapat lang, no? Dahil gawa ang mga gown na iyon ng isang sikat na international designer at hindi bababa sa tatlong milyon piso ang halaga nun. Tumanggi pa nga ng Ate niya noong una dahil nanghihinayang ito sa presyo, masyado na daw mahal para sa damit na isang beses niya lang susuotin sa buhay niya. Ayaw naman ipilit ng Kuya Migs niya iyon, kung hindi daw gusto ng Ate niya ay hahanap na lang sila ng local based fashion designer na kasing galing nito pero syempre hindi siya pumayag. Kinumbinsi niya ang Ate niya na magiging worth it ang ilang milyong pisong iyon dahil dapat siya ang pinakamagandang babae sa balat ng lupa sa araw ng kasal niya. Kinulit niya ng kinulit ang kapatid hanggang sa pumayag na rin. Hindi naman siya nagkamali dahil si Saskia ngayon ang pinakamagandang babae sa araw na iyon.

Mangyayari rin kaya sa kanya ang ganito? Balang-araw kaya makakasungkit din siya ng mayaman na lalaking ibibigay sa kanya ang lahat ng gusto niya? Alam niyang hindi na sila maghihirap ulit ngayong asawa na ng Ate niya si Migs. Mula noong ipinagbuntis ng Ate niya ang unang baby nila, pamilya na ang trato sa kanila ng lalaki. Mula sa squatter’s area ay inilipat sila nito sa magandang tirahan, pinag-aral sa private sila, pinalasap ng marangyang buhay. Lalo pa ngayon na pamilya na rin nila ito. But she knew there would always be a limit to it. Hindi naman siya asawa o anak ni Migs para ibigay nito ang lahat ng gustuhin niya. 

And she wanted more. She wanted a man who’d bend to her every whim. Ang lalaking ibibigay sa kanya ang mundo kung hilingin niya ito. Katulad ng Kuya Migs niya sa Ate Saskia at sa dalawang anak nila. She wanted nothing less than a life of luxury. 

Tumunog ang phone niya mula sa bag at agad naman niyang ibinaba ang isang baso ng wine na kanina pa niya hawak pero hindi iniinom. Props lang naman niya iyon. She shuffled through her bag and took out the phone.

Emerson Cheung calling…

She rolled her eyes and pressed ignore. Emerson was a Chinese-Filipino she met at a party. Hindi kaguwapuhan ang lalaki pero may datung. Nagkakilala sila sa isang party ng kaklase niya at nalaman niya na isa itong anak ng mayamang negosyante. Hindi siya nag-aksaya ng oras at kinaibigan niya ito. Pero syempre hindi siya papayag na hanggang doon lang ang relasyon nila at humantong pa iyon sa higit pa sa pagiging magkaibigan. Dalawang buwan din silang nagdate pero nagsisimula na siyang masakal sa relasyon na ito. Kung magiging totoo siya sa sarili niya, hindi naman talaga niya mahal si Emerson. Mas mahal pa nga niya ang designer bag na ibinigay sa kanya nito.

Wala itong ginawa kung hindi mag-text at tumawag sa kanya para itanong kung nasaan na siya, saan siya galing, saan siya pupunta, ano’ng ginagawa niya. Madikit lang nga siya sa lalaki at nakita nito ay para na itong bulkan kung sumabog sa galit. Hindi niya makakalimutan ang ginawa sa kanya ng lalaki nitong nakaraang linggo. Nakita siya nitong kasama ang isa sa mga lalaking kaibigan niya habang kumakain silang dalawa sa canteen. Walang sabi-sabing hinatak siya nito papuntang parking lot at pinagsisigawan doon. He started calling her names. Malandi, gold digger, at kung anu-ano pang masasakit na salita. Inambaan pa siyang sasampalin ng lalaki pero madali siyang nakaiwas. 

Mula nang araw na iyon ay hindi na siya nakipagkita pa kay Emerson at ngayon ay nagmamakaawa itong magkabalikan sila. Only in his dreams that would ever happen. Nakahanap naman na siya ngayon ng bagong prospect. Isang anak-mayaman na naman ang umaaligid sa kanya.

I could have another you in a minute, in fact he’ll be here in a minute.  Natawa siya sa sarili niya nang tumugtog sa isip niya ang kanta ni Beyonce. Bata pa lang siya alam niya nang maganda siya at ngayon ay alam niya na rin kung paano gamitin ang gandang iyon. 

Muli niyang dinampot ang wine na hawak niya bago naglakad palapit kay Saskia matapos siyang isayaw ng bagong asawa nito.

Her eyes were fixed on her sister, when someone walked across her. Bumunggo siya sa matigas na bagay sa harap niya at natapon ang wine na nasa baso. Halos tumilapon siya sa pagkakabunggo ngunit ang katawan na nasa harap niya ay hindi man lang nagalaw mula sa kinatatayuan nito.

“Shit!” Mahinang mura ng lalaki habang nakayuko ito at nakatingin sa matsa sa damit.

Agad niya naman na balanse ang sarili at tumingin sa lalaking nabunggo niya. Kahit balot ang katawan nito sa three-piece suit na suot ay hindi maitatago ang pagkamatipuno nito at kinailangan niya pang tumingala para makita kung sino iyon. “I’m… I’m so- Tate?”

Tumingin ito sa kanya at pakiramdam niya’y lumuwag ang garter ng thongs na suot niya. Hindi siya makapaniwala kung sino ang nasa harap niya ngayon. Aristotle St. Croix aka Tate the Great aka The Gentle Giant. Parang may paru-parong nagliparan sa tiyan niya nang magtama ang mga mata nila. The man she sees on TV and in pictures did no just for the man standing in front of him. 

Isang pilit na ngiti ang kumawala sa mga labi nito bago muling bumaba ang mga mata sa matsa sa puting polo nito at pilit niyang tinatanggal ito gamit ang panyong dinukot sa bulsa. 

“Nice to meet you, too.” May bahid ng pagka-sarkastikong sabi nito.

Parang hinatak siya sa isang magandang panaginip nang maalalang nabuhusan niya iyon ng wine. “Shit! Sorry, Tate, hindi ko sinasadya. I’m so sorry.”

Lumapit siya sa lalaki at natatarantang pinagpag ang mantsa gamit ang kamay. Hindi sinasadyang nadulas ang kamay niya sa baba ng polo nito at napasinghap siya ng mahawakan ang bagay na hindi dapat. Even without seeing, she instantly knew he was well-hung.

“Oh my God!” Parang napaso ang kamay na binawi niya iyon.

Hindi niya inaasahan ang sumunod na reaksyon nito. Kumawala ang mahinang tawa mula kay Tate. “You’re killing me, woman.” 

Muli siyang nag-angat ng ulo para tignan ito. “Hindi ko sinasadya iyon.”

“Sure.” Bumaba ang magkabilang sulok ng mga labi nito at napakibit-balikat. “That’s what she said.” 

“Promise, hindi talaga. H-hindi naman ako manyak.” She was flustered. Who wouldn’t be? Nasa harap niya ngayon ang isang famous international football player. Unang kita niya sa lalaki ay sa engagement party ng Ate niya pero bago pa siya nakalapit at nakapagpicture ay nakaalis na ito. This was the closest she’d ever gotten to him and she’d already touched his dick… accidentally, of course!

“This is going to leave a stain and I’d be reeking of wine the whole night.” Naiiling na sabi niya. 

She chewed on her lower lip, feeling a bit guilty. “I’m sorry talaga. Matatanggal naman yan, ilang kusot lang. Kung gusto mo, I’ll do it for you.”

“How are you going to do that?” Kunot-noong tanon nito. 

Tahimik na sumunod sa kanya si Tate nang ayain niya ito papasok sa powder room. 

“I like your move.” Nakahalukipkip ang mga bisig ng lalaki sa matipunong dibdib nang isara niya ang pinto. “Subtle but bold.”

Humarap siya sa lalaki. “Ano’ng ibig mong sabihin?”

“Oh, come on. I know why you brought me here.” One corner of his sculpted lips lifted up. “If you wanted something from me, you should’ve just come up. No need to spill wine on me.”

Yuka cocked her head, realizing what he was trying to say. Tinignan niya ang lalaki mula ulo hanggang paa. Tate was indeed every bit Great. She decided she wanted to play a little. 

Yuka’s mind started running a mile a minute. Isang sikat na football player si Tate. Hindi pinapansin sa Pilipinas ang football noon, it was all just basketball. Not until Tate came into the picture and played in the Super Bowl. He must be making millions now with all the international advertisements he had. Yuka quickly saw him now as a prey. 

“Why don’t we take off this coat? Mainit naman dito.” She walked up to him and slid the sleeves off his shoulder. 

Pagkatapos ay sunod-sunod niyang tinanggal ang butones ng suot nitong polo. Parang gustong tumalon ng puso niya mula sa dibdib nang makita ang matipunong dibdib ng lalaki. It was as if God himself sculpted that torso. She tried not to let it distract her as she took his shirt off. 

“What’s your name again?” Tanong nito sa kanya.

“Yuka.” She answered. 

Tumango-tango ito. Tumalikod si Yuka matapos mahubad ang polo ng lalaki at tumapat sa sink. Binanlawan niya ang matsa sa polo nito at ilang beses kinusot hanggang sa halos hindi na makita ang pulang mantsa. Pagkatapos ay itinapat niya ito sa hand dryer para matuyo. 

“There you go. Hindi ka na mag-aamoy wine at hindi na halata ang mansta.” Nakangiting inabot ni Yuka ang polo ng lalaki.

“Is that it?” He looked confused.

“Bakit? May kailangan ka pa ba?” She innocently asked, her well-threaded brows shooting up.

Bumaba ang tingin ng lalaki sa polo bago bumalik sa kanya. Parang napahiya naman na umiling ito. “No… I… thank you.”

“You’re welcome. Well, I’ll see you around?” She teasingly bit her bottom lip.

“Yeah…” Tumango-tango ang lalaki. “Yuka, right?”

“Mmhmm.” She nodded, her hand reaching the knob. 

“Are you Kuya Miggy’s friend or what? Cause I don’t think we’ve ever met before.”

“I’m her sister-in-law.” Sagot niya bago itinulak ang pinto pabukas.

It was one of the many lessons in seducing men she’d learned. Leave them curious,  expecting more, and in a place that they feel a need yet unsatisfied.

She knew deep inside that she was just as bothered with her interaction with Tate as he was. He headed straight to the bar to get herself something to put moisture to her dry throat.

“One coffee, please.” Sabi niya sa lalaking nakatayo doon.

She took a glance at the man standing behind the bar. May itsura ang lalaki. She thought he could pass for a model instead of a waiter. Mas gwapo siguro ito kung wala ang salamin na nakaharang sa mata nito. The glasses made him look cute and boyish but if he got rid of it, she knew he would look hot.

“Excuse me?” Tumikhim ang lalaki.

“One cup of coffee.” Ulit niya at napasimangot siya. “Huwag mong sabihin hindi kayo nagseserve ng coffee? Ang mahal ng binayad ni Kuya Migs sa catering na ito.”

Sandali siyang tinignan ng lalaki bago may umukit na ngiti sa mga labi nito. Parang nagdadalawang-isip siya ngayon kung kailangan niya pa ba ng kapeng iyon. There was something in his smile that made her heart skip. It was probably just the adrenaline kicking in from having to meet and be in one room with Tate.

“Coffee, huh?” Tumango-tango ang lalaki.

“Bingi ka ba? Oo, coffee. Kape. Kahit 3-in-1 ba wala kayo?” Mataray na sabi niya.

“Okay.” Kumuha na ito ng tasa. “How do you like your coffee, miss?”

Ngumiti si Yuka sa sarili. “Well, I like my coffee how I like my men.”

“How so?” 

“Rich.”

Chapter One

She walked down the hallway with purpose, her back straight as an arrow and her chin held high. Her strides were firm and solid as her 3-inch heels tapped against the floor. She definitely knew she was pleasing to the eyes of other humans and she relished it.

“Hi, Yuka! Do you need help with your bag?” Isang matangkad na lalaki ang lumapit sa kanya.

She turned at him and lowered her Chanel sunglasses to get a better view of the guy. Si Peter de Castro. Okay lang ang itsura ng lalaki, hindi gwapo, hindi din pangit. Pero narinig niyang anak ito ng isang pulitiko. Alam na siguro ng mga tao na single at available na siya ngayong wala na sila ni Emerson Cheung. Na-update niya na ang relationship status niya sa social media kagabi. They were waiting on her like dogs waiting on a bone.

Inilahad niya ang pulang bag niya sa lalaki na agad naman nitong kinuha.

“Free ka ba next Saturday?” Tanong nito sa kanya.

“Bakit mo tinatanong?” Patuloy pa rin ang paglalakad niya, ni hindi siya nag-abalang tapunan ito ng tingin.

“Aayain sana sa bagong bukas na nightclub. I have an extra pass.”

“Ano’ng nightclub naman yan?” She asked in a bored tone.

“Bliss. It’s the hottest thing in town. I think you’ll enjoy it, we’ll have some drinks and just chill.”

Agad na huminto si Yuka at humarap sa lalaki. Tinanggal niya ang suot na sunglasses at nanlalaki ang mga matang tumingin dito. “Bliss? The Bliss?”

“Bliss Manila.” Lumawak ang ngiti ng lalaki nang makuha ang interes niya. “Do you want to go?”

“Oh my God! Of course. Ang hirap makakuha ng pass doon. Simula nang magbukas ang Bliss, ilang beses na namin sinubukan kumuha ng pass ng mga friends ko pero palagi silang booked. How did you get a pass?”

Nagkibit-balikat ang lalaki. “I have connections.”

Lumawak ang ngiti ni Yuka at tumango-tango. “I see.”

Nakikita na nga talaga ni Yuka. Ang Bliss ang pinakasikat na nightclub ngayon dito sa Pilipinas. It was almost exclusive to only the famous and the wealthy. Hindi basta-basta ang mga nakakapasok doon. Pwede niyang gamitin ang connection ng Kuya Migs niya pero alam niya para makapasok sa nightclub na iyon pero alam niyang magagalit si Saskia sa kanya kapag ginawa niya iyon. Baka pag-awayan lang nila iyon so she never bothered. 

Magiging maganda ito para sa social media accounts niya. Isa siya sa mga kilalang internet celebrity ngayon na may mahigit 200,000 followers. Lalong dadami ang followers niya kapag nagpost siya ng mga pictures sa Bliss.

“Ito na ang classroom ko. See you next Saturday, Perez.”

“Peter.” Pagtatama nito.

“Peter. Iyon nga ang sabi ko. Akin na ang bag ko.” Binigyan niya ito ng matamis na ngiti at inabot naman ng lalaki ang bag niya.

Pumasok siya sa loob ng classroom at wala pa ang prof nila nang dumating siya. Marami pang bakanteng upuan at ilan pa lang ang estudyanteng nandoon. Umupo siya sa may bandang gitna at inilabas ang phone para i-update ang social media account.

“I can’t believe this.” Narinig niya ang matinis na boses ng babae nang bumukas ang pinto. “We’re classmates with that… that skank.”

She rolled her eyes. It was Kiana, her nemesis. Hindi niya alam kung bakit ang laki ng insecurity ng babae nito sa kanya. Kasalanan niya bang maganda siya? Hindi niya naman siguro kasalanan na naglalaway ang boyfriend ng babaeng ito sa kanya. She didn’t ask for the dick pic. Her boyfriend sent it to her hoping he’d get a lay but she quickly blocked him off after.

“Hindi din ako makapaniwalang classmate ko ang babaeng umay na umay na ang boyfriend sa kanya.” Tinatamad na sabi niya habang nag-iiscroll sa instagram.

“Ang kapal ng mukha mong malandi ka. Girlfriend ng bayan!”

“Kahit ano’ng sabihin mo, sinendan pa rin ako ng boyfriend mo ng picture ng titi niya. Siguro nga he gets off more sending his dick pictures to me than when he’s having sex with you.” She feigned a yawn.

“You skank! Alam mo ba kung bakit nilalapitan ka ng mga lalaki dito? Dahil alam nilang easy ka! Alam nilang bigyan ka lang ng barya, bubukaka ka na. Everyone in this school knew na pinagpasa-pasahan ka na ng mga lalaki. I heard you gave the whole basketball team a blowjob.” She chuckled spitefully. “You know why these guys are all over you? Because they see you as a cum dump.”

“Sabi ng boyfriend mo sa akin, you like to shove a Barbie up your vagina and pull it out and pretend you’re having a baby.” Tumaas ang isang sulok ng labi niya nang tumawa ang ilang estudyanteng nandoon sa classroom.

Lumingon siya sa babae para makita ang reaksyon niya. Pulang-pula ang mukha nito at halos makita niya na ang usok na lumabalabas sa ilong nito. Nang mag-walk out ang babae sa classroom ay nasisiguro niyang hindi na ulit niya makikita ito sa classroom.

Wala siyang pakialam sa iniisip ng mga tao tungkol sa kanya. What matters most to her was that she’s able to get what she wanted. Bata pa lang siya tampulan na siya ng mga tukso dahil anak siya ng pokpok. Because of that she grew herself a thick skin. All those words meant nothing to her. They were just that… words. Kung anu-anong pangalan na ang naitawag sa kanila ng mga kaklase at mga kapitbahay nila noon, narinig niya na lahat iyon. Hindi niya naman ikinamatay iyon.

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“You need to go.” He told the woman in his bed. This was what he hated most about hooking up with random women. Getting rid of them in the morning. The main reason why one night stands never worked for him. Two to three hours should’ve been enough.

“I want to stay longer. I can make you feel good.” She winked at him.

He brushed his fingers through his hair and tried hard not to let a frustrated groan. He liked keeping his room to himself. He wanted to hate Tate for putting him through this. Loosen up he said. It would be fun he said.

Yvo grabbed his glasses from his bedside table and wore it. He grabbed his robed and put it on.

“Get dressed.” He told the naked woman.

“I cook good. Gusto mong ipagluto kita?” The woman who he’d realize he couldn’t remember the name asked. He didn’t like the thought of strangers in his house in his bed.

“No, I’m fine. Just please get dressed. I’m going to book a cab for you.” He told her before exiting the room.

He hurriedly went to his office which was just right next to his room. He pressed the answering machine sitting on top of his desk.

“Good morning, baby. I’ve been trying to call you but your phone keeps redirecting me to voice message. I just want to say good morning and I love you.” His Nanay’s voice said.

He pressed the next button and another recording played. “Hi, Yvo. This is Tatay. Your Nanay’s worried that you’re not picking up your phone. I dropped by earlier to check on you. Sabi ni Zeny may kasama ka daw babae sa kwarto. Don’t worry I won’t tell Nanay. I got you covered but get yourself covered too. Mag condom ka. I love you, anak.” There was a chuckled in his father’s tone and he just had to shake his aching head.

His mother had always been protective of hin. Kahit lumipat na siya, his mother just couldn’t let go of her. She still treated him like her little Yvo.

The third voicemail played. “Hey Yvo, come down the bar later. Huwag kang magmukmok sa bahay with your hybrid bacteria or whatever shit you’re working on. I hoped you enjoyed Brittany, there’s more where that came from. Wink. Wink.”

It was Tate, one of his bestfriends. There was Coco, his cousin, who was now a family man, married to his other cousin, Anais, and they had two adorable kids together. Coco was a pain in the ass but he loved him like he was his own brother. He looked at both Coco and Tate as his brother. Siguro’y dahil halos sila ang magka-edad sa anak ng mga barkada ng Tatay niya. For a long time, he actually believed his father’s friends were all his uncles. The group were so tightly-knitted they were more than brothers, they were a part of each other. He remembered spending summer vacations with his father’s friends’ families and they’d committed to seeing each other each weekend. It just kind of got awkward when there had been a feud between his Tito Phoenix and Tito Axel because Coco got Anais pregnant. But even as a child he knew Coco already had a thing for Anais, he would always choose Anais over Tate and him.

Most of the time it was really just Tate and him. Tate was the complete opposite of him. He was a life of a party. Always bold and adventure. He had been petitioned to get evicted from his condo last month because he made the whole building look like a frat house, he had the whole floor to himself, the penthouse, but the music was so loud it reached to at least 3 floors below him. And the residence wasn’t comfortable with his guests going in and out of the building. Tate’s life was a 24/7 party. Tate was everything he wasn’t.

He enjoyed the company of few people. He loved the quiet. He needed it to think. Thinking was a huge part of his job. He prefered a more simpler and stable life. He’d had a girlfriend of one year, Krista, and they’d just broken up two weeks ago. He thought Krista would be the woman he’d one day marry and be the mother of his children. But then they decided to call it quits. She said she felt like he loved his work more than he loved her. Mas may oras siya sa trabaho niya kaysa sa babae. He couldn’t blame her for leaving him but it hurt like hell.

Quiet wasn’t what he wanted right now. It would just make him think of Krista more. He started going to parties with Tate. Tate had always been there for him whenever he needed him. He looked out for him when they were in college, helped him have his first lay with Tate’s girlfriend’s friend when he turned 18, he used to be a lanky, awkward teenager and that made him a good target for bullies, but he had Tate by his side. And Coco too, who used to bully him too but in a playful kind of way. Even now they were adults, he still loved teasing him.

Tate was the one who pushed him to working out which earned him a chiseled, muscular body. He was no longer that awkward, lanky teenager he used to be when he was in college. But he would always be the nerd he had always been inside. Tate’s life doesn’t appeal to him.

Sure, he’d played the field when he was much younger. Nakibagay siya sa buhay ng kaibigan niya. He slept around for a bit. He tried the life of party and got tired of it quickly. It just wasn’t him.  Kahit ano’ng pilit niyang makibagay ay alam niya sa sarili niya na hindi siya iyon.

But now he needed it more than ever. Krista was the second serious relationship he’d had. The first one was the woman who took his virginity. Partying had helped him get over his first heartbreak and this wouldn’t be that different from the first, would it?

Yvo called his parents to tell them he was okay. It was like an attendance check everyday but he knew he needed to always tell them what was going on. Sabi ng Tatay niya it would appease his Nanay’s worries. He didn’t want to worry his mom.

He stepped inside the club. Tate said he was already here, the real challenge was trying to find the guy. That dude was all over the place. One minute he’a here and the next he’s there. One minute he’s with this woman and the next he’s with that woman. He liked variety, he would always say.

He made his way through the jam-packed club. It was a Saturday which means the club was busier than usual. People were really taking their time to party. He headed for the bar and saw that the bartenders, Sonny and June, were both losing their minds. The people around the bar were like zombies as they had their arms reaching out, some were calling for the bartenders’ attention and others were trying to get their orders. They knew him so He was able to get inside the bar. Well, he guessed he’d just have to fix his own drink.

He was busy with shaking his gin and tonic when someone from behind him tapped his shoulder. He turned and a woman stood in front of him. He furrowed his brows. He was sure she’d seen those slanted eyes before.

She smiled and raised her brows in amusement. “Familiar ka.”

Then he remembered she was Kuya Miggy’s sister-in-law, the one that wanted her coffee and men rich. They’d met at the wedding party some months ago. She’d amused him that night, couldn’t help but chuckle and shake his head when she walked out with her rich coffee. At least she knew what she wanted.

“You also work here pala.” She giggled. “You should be a model. ha? Pwede ka.”

He let out a small smile. He decided to just humor the woman and not tell her that he’s once modeled for Abercrombie. They were on a vacation in New York with his parents when a talent agent came up to them. Decided to give it a try, his Nanay was once a model too. He wanted to know what it was like.

“Alam kong mahaba ang pila sa bar pero pwede bang unahin mo na ako? Ayokong makipagsisikan doon. I’ll give you a tip. Sige na, pogi. Just one cosmo.” She tried to charm him.

“A cosmopolitan?”

“Oo, gandahan mo ang presentation ha? Ipopost ko sa instagram yan.” She chuckled.

He’d learned making cocktails from hanging out with Tate. Tate had his own bar at his home and they’d used to experiment with the drink and hold a cocktail making contest. Cosmopolitan was basic. He mixed a few drinks together and poured it in a glass.

“Thanks, pogi.” She said as she handed him the bill and then slipped a bill inside his pocket.

“Keep it, it’s on me.” Binalik niya sa babae ang binayad nito para sa inumin.

“Wow. Thanks!” She smiled and her eyes narrowed suspisciously. And then her eyes arched. “Type mo ako, no?”

“What?” He wasn’t sure if he was hearing what she said right.

“Sabi ko type mo ako ano? It’s okay.” She shrugged apathetically before taking a sip from her drink. “Gwapo ka naman but you’re not my type. Hindi ako mahilig sa bartender.”

“Ano bang type ko?” He couldn’t help but ask.

“Mayaman.” She giggled and then sighed. “Bakit ba kinakausap kita? Dapat kasama ko ang date ko ngayon sa labas pero ayaw kong bumalik doon. Paano? Minamanyak na agad ako ng gago. Gusto agad maka-score!”

Kumunot ang noo ni Yvo. He adjusted his eyeglasses on the bridge of his nose. “Do you need any help? Do you want me to assist you?”

“Hindi na, no! Kayang-kaya ko ito. Kaya ko naman ipagtanggol ang sarili ko kung kinakailangan.” Sabi ng babae. “Siya naman ang nagbigay sa akin ng pass dito kaya okay lang.”

Yvo didn’t like how this woman think of herself. It made his hairs stand just thinking of Monique, his sister, acting that way. Hahayaan niyang manyakin siya ng lalaking kasama niya just because he was able to get her a pass in this club?

“What did he do to you?” He worriedly asked.

“Wala naman. Pahawak-hawak lang sa legs ko. Alam ko yung mga katulad na lalaki ni Peter, duwag yung mga yan. He wouldn’t dare do anything more.” chuckled like something was funny.

“Are you sure you’d be okay with him?” Paniniguro niya.

“Yakang-yaka ko ito. Ikaw naman masyado kang concern sa akin. You’re a nice guy but I would never date you.” She patted his cheek before she headed out.

There was nothing to be surprised about. Nakilala niya na ang iba’t-ibang tipo ng mga babae. That woman was one of the many he’d met in the past. The succubus. As long as their getting something they want out of you, they would suck on you like a leech.

Sinilip niya ang babae. Her hips swayed back and forth almost invitingly. Then she was stopped by a group of men. The woman frowned as the men looked like they were enjoying it.

Lumapit si Yvo sa grupo.

“Ikaw naman. Kung sungitan mo ako akala mo naman hindi ka nag-enjoy sa akin.” Hinawakan ng lalaki ang braso nito.

The wonan flinched away. “Ano’ng pinagmamalaki mo? Yung dick mong kasing laki ng hinliliit ko? That’s not something I’d enjoy.”

“Ooohhh!” His group of friends teased him.

“Talaga lang, ha? Baka gusto mong ipatikin ko sa’yo ito ngayon.” He grabbed her by her arm, he looked obviously pissed.

“Bitawa mo kong gago ka!” She stepped on his foot her sharp heels and kneed him between the lega

“Son of a bitch.” The man let go of her and took a step back. It generated a roar of laughter from his friends.

He looked like he was about to charge at her so Yvo quickly got in between. He pushed the man away.

“Leave the girl alone.” He firmly told them.

“Huwag kang makialam dito!” Sabi ng lalaki at lumapit ito sa kanya. He pushed Yvo on the chest. “Ikaw ba ang lalaki niya ngayon? Niloloko ka lang ng babaeng yan! Papaikutin ka lang din niyan.”

“Just leave the woman alone.” He said.

“Bakit sino ka ba, ha?” He shoved him again.

Yvo lifted his fist up and punched him in the face.

+++

Bliss was his new baby. It just opened about a month ago and people were loving her already. Bliss, his dear Bliss. She’s become very popular and the demands for the pass to get in were high, his staff said they wouldn’t have available slots until next year. People wanted her.

This shouldn’t surpise him. He’d learned from the best. His father was a nightclub mogul but now he was more focused on helping out his mother with the logistics business that his grandpa George had passed on to her. He was taking care of the club now, they had a total of 10 nightclubs in the US, 8 in Europe, and God knows how many in Asia. You could say that his father had monopolized the club industry. Also they had a distillery and winery business in St. Tropez. It was the place where his father was born as his father’s father was of French origin. The alcohols were exclusively distributed to their clubs which was a smart move his father had done because it raised its value. He remembered the beautiful villa they had there and the endless vineyard him, his siblings, and Clifford used to run to. Brings back so much memories.

Bliss was packed tonight. Like every other night. He has in his arms a well-known actress. She was his arm candy for the night. They were in the lounge that he had made only for him. This was a popular personality he was with and he didn’t want people up their noses.

He chuckled, taking a sip of whiskey as she kissed her neck. Her lips touching his skin and her breath tickled him.

“Sir Tate!” Nahawa ang velvet na kurtinang tumatabing sa kanila. It was one of the waiters.

“What?” He snarled. This better be good.

“Si Yvo, nakikipag-upakan sa labas.” The waiter said.

He pushed the woman who was clinging on him away. That guy was indeed losing his mind. He’d gone through a break up and was probably having a psychotic breakdown. Smart people do that shit, don’t they? They were bound to go batshit crazy at some point. There’s only a thin thread of line that seperates the boundaries of intelligence and insanity. The breakup had probably took a toll on him and bam! He’d crossed the line to insanity! Tate hoped he didn’t bring his gun and start a mass shooting. Amongst all the people who’s claimed they were his friends, Yvo and Coco were only the genuine two he had. He didn’t want him in jail or dead and he didn’t want bad publicity. That was the reason he was never into relationships. He didn’t think he’s be able to handle a heartbreak. And he enjoyed having options.

He hurried out to see his friend with bruised jaw and the man in frony of him with bloodied nose. It looked like he was trying to defend the woman behind him. Nasuntok ulit ang manok niya.

The woman pulled Yvo out of the way and she kicked him in the gut with her 3-inch heels. It was almost as sharp as a pick that Tate wondered if it punctured through his gut. It was almost too entertaining to watch that he didn’t want to intervene. But then the men’s friend began going after Yvo and the woman. Doon na gumalaw si Tate.

It was 7 against 2. Yvo was held down and the woman was grabbed on the arm. Tate locked the heads of the two men who was holding down his friend and he’d managed to kick the one holding the woman, the man flying at least two feet away. The woman was one helluva fighter too. She was no lady. She’d managed to grab a chair and hit the man who was charging at him. Once Yvo had been released, he punched the men who was going after them. Knocked him cold on the ground.

“Where are the fucking bouncers?! Call the fucking bouncers!” He angrily screamed as he choked the life out of the men in his arms.

The bouncers came in and Tate told them to throw the guys out of the club.

“T-thank you.” Said a beautiful woman as he was catching his breath.

He titled his head to one side. She looked rather familiar, he thought. He just couldn’t put his finger on where’d seen her. Was she someone he fucked before?

She was beautiful. Surely he’d remember. She’d be one of his regular bootycalls.

The cracked a tensed smile across her face. There was something about her smile that made his insides flutter. Fuck him sideways! What was he? A teenager?

“Are you okay?” He gentlty asked her.

She nodded her head.

“Are you sure?” He cupped her face and looke for any signs of bruising or cuts. He’d go after those motherfuckers if he sees a single scratch. “Hindi ka ba nila sinaktan.”

“Hindi.” She shook her head. “Mas nasaktan pa nga si…”

Then the woman turned her head behind her and saw Yvo who was now sitting on one of the stools being attended by their in-house nurse.

“Your bartender deserves a raise. Siya ang nagligtas sa akin sa mga lalaking iyon.” Sabi ng babae.

His bartender? Who? Yvo?

“Sandali lang, ha? Checheck ko lang kung okay lang siya.”

Chapter Two

Tate’s presence had her nerves jangling. No one had ever made her feel like this before. She couldn’t tell if it was just the adrenaline or something else. All she knew was this NFL superstar just saved her from her asshole ex-boyfriend. Hinawakan pa siya nito sa pisngi at tinanong kung nasaktan pa siya. He was such a gentleman at ang gwapo pa. Bakit parang mas gumwapo yata ito kaysa noong nagkita sila sa wedding ng kapatid niya? Even though she didn’t want to, she turned to bartender who was the first one to step in and help her.

“Okay ka lang?” She asked the man.

Yvo was being attended by the club’s nurse. He’d managed to catch a punch here and there but figured he’d still live. His Tatay had signed him up for mixed martial arts before for self-defense to which his Nanay didn’t approve of but he did learn a thing or two after he was forced to quit the class. He had used what he’d learned to his advantage but they were outnumbered. Buti na lang at dumating si Tate kung hindi ay napagtulungan na siya. He’d always tried to stay away from trouble and conflicts but he couldn’t turn away nang makita niyang binabastos na ang babae. He thought of his little sister, Monique. Paano kung malagay din sa ganon sitwasyon ang kapatid niya? He’d want someone to defend her, too.

“Pasensya ka na, ha? Ikaw naman kasi sugod ka ng sugod. Sabi ko naman kaya ko na ang sarili ko.” She bit her bottom lip, looking guilty, as the nurse was cleaning his cuts.

“Well, you’re welcome.” He sarcastically said. “Binabastos ka ng mga lalaking iyon. Do you think I’ll just stand there and do nothing? I happen to have a sister and a mother.”

“Binastos ka ng mga lalaking yun? What did they do to you?” Tate growled with uncompromising gruffness. He’d felt protectiveness towards her, maybe it was because he was attracted to her. He felt a certain pull to this woman the first time he’d seen her. He remembered now when he’d seen that face. It was at Migs’ wedding a couple of months ago. She was the bride’s sister as she introduced herself to be. Tate remembered asking Coco for her number but the son of a gun just wouldn’t give it to him. He said it would be best if he stayed away from Saskia’s sister as he had a reputation of being a player and not just in football fields. After the party, he didn’t think much of the woman anyway. He’d a handful of women to keep him occupied. But lord, was she gorgeous.

“Huwag mo na pansinin yung mga iyon.” She waved her hand off and rolled her cute almond shaped eyes. She looked fragile yet there was something defiant about her. It was an intriguing combination “Ex ko yung isa sa mga tarantado. Hindi lang maka-get over sa akin.”

Tate let out a chuckle at what the woman said. “Well, I see why he hasn’t gotten over you yet. I mean, you’re beautiful.”

Yuka let out a giggle, feeling butterflies in her stomach. This was Aristotle St. Croix complimenting her. “Why, thank you”

“No, I’m seriously. You’re beautiful .” He said, putting emphasis on the word ‘beautiful’. “You probably hear that a lot, huh?”

She shrugged, her lips lifting into a humorous smirk. “Well, you better tell me something I haven’t heard yet.”

Tate roared with laughter. “Confident. I like that.”

Yvo cleared his throat, breaking the flirty atmosphere between the two. He just had his ass beaten and his bestfriend and this girl he just saved was flirting right in front of him. They might as well get a room or something, he thought.

The two turned their attention to him.

“Dude, you okay?” Tate finally asked.

“Yes, of course. I may have fractured a rib or two, my temporomandibular joint may have been dislocated, and I might have an internal bleeding somewhere in my body but other than that I’m fine.” He said before letting out a soft cuss as the nurse started patting the cuts on the side of his lips with an alcohol soaked cotton ball.

“Excuse me, sir, kukuha lang ako ng betadine sa clinic.” The nurse excused herself.

“I’m sorry, dude.” Tate apologetically said, feeling genuinely bad.

“Salamat nga ulit sa pagligtas mo sa akin.” Yuka smiled at him. She noticed the dark bruising in his chiseled jaw at ang putok nitong labi. Yuka sat next to him and picked up a cotton ball. Idinampi niya iyon sa labi ng lalaki at agad nitong inilayo ang mukha at napamura.

“Ano’ng ginagawa mo?” He looked at her, his brows furrowed.

“Eh di nililinis ko ang sugat mo.” Sagot ni Yuka bago muling hinawakan ang mukha niya. She held his face in place. “Huwag ka ngang magalaw. Ang lakas ng loob mong makipag-basag ulo kanina tapos sa alcohol umuurong yang bayag mo.”

Tate swallowed back a laughter at what the woman had said. Yvo was taken aback, it shut him up for a good minute or so.

“So, what’s your name again?” Tanong ni Tate, breaking the silence. “Correct me if I’m wrong but you’re Kuya Migs’ sister-in-law, aren’t you?”

Tumango si Yuka habang abala sa paggamot sa sugot na Yvo. It made her heart skip a beat. She had to bite her bottom lip to keep herself from smiling. “Naaalala mo pa pala yun?”

“You made quite an impression.” Tate smiled, sliding his hands into his pockets.

“Doon din kami nagkakilala ni… ano nga bang pangalan mo?” She asked the man next to him.

“Yvo.” He simply answered. Yvo had a very haughty vibe to him, the complete opposite of the vibe Tate was giving. Tate was the NFL superstar and he seemed more down to earth than this bartender. Matipid sa salita ang lalaki na para bang kinukwenta bawat katagang na lumalabas sa bibig nito.

“Doon din kami unang nagkakilala nitong si Yvo. Siya din yung bartender sa wedding ni Ate at Kuya Migs.” Kwento ni Yuka.

“Tate, babe…” Biglang may yumakap kay Tate mula sa likod nito. “Halika na, let’s go back to the VIP lounge.”

“Carla, I’ll be there in a minute.” He awkwardly but gently pried her arms away. It was Carla Sarmiento, isang sikat na celebrity. “I just need to tend to my friend.”

“Mukhang okay naman na ang friend mo. Halika na, please…” The woman begged.

“Sure, I just need to talk to him for a bit. I’ll be there in a few. Get us something to drink while you’re at it.” Tate’s face twisted into an awkward expression. Why now? Why in front of the woman he’d been genuinely attracted to? He was almost sure she won’t be giving her number to him.

Carla left a kiss on his jaw before walking away. Nagtama ang mga mata nila ni Yuka at umarko ang kilay ng babae. “Girlfriend mo?”

“I… I don’t have a girlfriend.” He answered and shook his head. “I’m sorry about that.”

“Sure. You better go back. Baka hinihintay ka na ng kasama mo.” There was a rather coldness to her tone as she focused on Yvo. “Masakit pa ba?”

“I’ll live.” Kibit-balikat na sagot ng lalaki.

Tate knew he blew his chance with this girl. She seemed to have lost interest in him when Carla showed up.

“Tate, honey…” Carla came back with two glasses of alcohol in hand. “Come on. I got you your favorite drink.”

“Yuka…” She turned her head to see Peter walking towards her. “Kanina pa kita hinahanap. Nandito ka lang pala.” His eyes averted from Yuka to Yvo. “Sino yang lalaking yan?”

“Ito yung bartender na tumulong sa akin.” Pakilala ni Yuka bago nag-angat ng tingin kay Tate. “At ito naman si Tate. Siya yung isa pang tumulong sa akin.”

“Salamat sa pagtulong sa date ko, mga bro.” Sabi ni Peter.

Muling nagtama ang tingin ni Yuka at Tate habang nakalambitin na sa leeg nito ang babaeng kasama.

“Just keep your eye on your girl next time.” Iritang sabi ni Yvo.

“Halika na, Tate…” Pilit na hinatak si Tate nang babaeng kasama habang hindi pa rin hinihiwalay ang tingin kay Yuka.

“I just want to make sure Yvo’s okay.”

“I’m fine, dude. Go ahead.” Tumango si Yvo.

“Ako na ang bahala d’yan.” Dumating ang nurse na may hawak na gauze at betadine.

“Yuka…” Tate nodded a goodbye to her, knowing he’d fucked up tonight. “See you around?”

“See you around.” Kibit-balikat na sabi nito. Patuloy ang paghatak sa kanya ni Carla at lumingon ulit si Tate, hindi magawang ihiwalay ang tingin sa babae. He knew he’d be seeing that face while he fucks Carla tonight.

“Halika na, Yuka.” She broke away from the eye fucking she and Tate had shared. Gusto niyang mainis kay Peter at sa babaeng kasama nito. She and Tate were supposed to be the one together now.

“Huwag mo nga akong hawakan.” Inis na sabi ni Yuka nang pumulupot ang mga bisig nito sa baywang niya.

“Bakit hindi kita pwedeng hawakan? Date naman kita.” He asked, a whine in his tone.

“Hey, when a woman doesn’t want to be touched, you don’t touch her. Kahit date mo pa yan, you don’t have the rights to do what you want to her.” Yvo rose from his seat while the nurse was attending to him. This was the guy she was talking about earlier. Her date who was trying to make a pass on her.

“I don’t remember anyone asking for your opinion.” Iritadong sabi ng lalake.

He stepped a little closer, towering over the guy with his 6’1 height, he was just 3 inches shy away from Tate’s height of 6’4.

“I don’t think I need to be asked for my opinion. If you don’t know how to treat a woman, do us all a favor and don’t date one.” He said.

“Peter, pwede ba don’t pick a fight.” Sabi ni Yuka. Yvo didn’t think the man would even dare pick a fight with him. It says in his body language. He was ready to bail out had he taken another step closer. “Siya na nga ang nagmagandang loob na tumulong sa akin when it should’ve been you.”

“I’m sorry, Yuka.” His face softened as soon as it landed on her.

“Just get me a drink please.” Bumuntong-hininga ang babae.

“Ano bang gusto mo?”

“I want an appletini.”

The man headed for the crowded bar. It would spare them a few more minutes as the line was long.

“Pasensya ka na kay Peter.” Yuka shrugged and sighed. “He’s harmless naman, mahangin nga lang. Yvo ang pangalan mo hindi ba?”

“Yeah.” He simply answered.

“Nakakausap mo naman siguro si Tate, ano? Palagi naman siguro kayong nagkikita kasi nagtatrabaho ka dito.” Usisa niya sa lalaki.

“Yeah, so?” Kibit-balikat na sabi sagot nito habang patuloy ang paggamot ng nurse sa kanya.

“Sa tingin mo may spark kami ni Tate?” Kinikilig na sabi ni Yuka. “Nakita mo ba yung tingin niya sa akin kanina? Parang hinuhubaran niya na ako. Do you think he likes me?”

Yvo silently shook his head, disinterested. “He’s Tate and you’re a woman. Of course, he likes you. He likes women.”

“Pero iba yung titig niya sa akin. Parang mas interesado siya sa akin kaysa doon sa starlet na Carlang iyon.”

“Didn’t notice.” Yvo boredly said.

“Hindi naman siguro siya seryoso kay Carla.” Yuka mindlessly blabbered. “I know he likes me but I want to play hard to get. I don’t want to get desperate. Ang mga lalaki they love the thrill of the chase. Especially yung mga katulad ni Tate, I’m sure he’s used to women jumping over him.”

“He sure is.” Yvo commented, his tone apathetic.

Kumuha si Yuka ng table napkin mula sa despenser na nakapatong sa countertop at humiram ng ballpen. Sinulat niya ang number niya doon. “Give this to Tate, okay?”

“Akala ko ba you’re playing hard to get?”

“Well, I’m not playing impossible to get. How else would we meet after this?” Yuka said. She’d expected, after her sister’s wedding, he’d be getting a call from Tate. Inexpect niya na hihingin nito ang number niya sa kung sinong nakakilala sa kanya noon pero wala siyang natanggap. She assumed he’d forgotten about her. Ang laki ng panghihinayang niya noon. “Please, Yvo, last favor na ’to. He’s my dream man. I feel it. Siya na. He’s the one. He’s everything I want in a man. Gwapo, mabango, makisig-”

“And you like him because he’s rich.” Yvo cocked a brow.

Lumawak ang ngiti sa mukha ni Yuka. “He’s not just rich. He’s insanely rich. He’s the third highest paid NFL player. Alam mo ba kung magkano ang networth ni Aristotle St. Croix? Hindi ka maniniwala kung sasabihin kong he’s worth 197.8 million dollars.”

“I believe you.” Yvo nodded his head and turned his head to the countertop where his glasses were. “Shit!”

“Bakit?” Gulat na tanong ni Yuka.

“They broke my glasses.” Sabi nito at inangat ang salamin. “How am I supposed to drive home?”

The lenses were cracked and one hinge was hanging for dear life. He was fine with driving without glasses on but he wasn’t sure about driving at night without glasses. He was nearsighted and afraid he won’t see in the dark if someone crosses the road in front of him.

“Sandali, may tape ako dito sa bag.” She rummaged through her bag and took out a small roll of tape. “Baka kasi bumigay na naman itong heels ko kaya nagdala na ako ng tape.”

Before he could even say anything, Yuka grabbed his glasses and tape the hinge like it would magically fix it. It looked even more terrible now as the transparent tape was visibly wrapped around the hinge and the lenses were still cracked. Isinuot sa kanya ng babae iyon. His visionhad gotten worse with the cracked lenses on the way.

“Yan. Ang sexy mo pag naka-salamin ka.” Yuka smiled as she looked at him.

“T-thank you.” Yvo felt awkward at her compliment.

“Huwag mong kalilimutan ibigay kay Tate ang number ko, okay? Nagtip naman ako sa’yo kanina, hindi ba? Sabihin mo aasahan ko ang tawag niya.” Yuka shoved the napkin in his hand.

“Here’s your appletini.” Lumapit si Peter at inabot ang isang baso kay Yuka.

“Thanks!” Kinuha ni Yuka iyon.

“Are you sure you’re going to be okay?” Paniniguro ni Yvo bago muling tumingin sa kasama niya.

“Relax. Kaya ko ’to.” She playfully winked at him.

Yvo watched as Yuka walked off with the man. The nurse took her time cleaning his cuts and bruises. He looked at the napkin in his hand with Yuka’s number and then he reached inside his pocket to see the tip she’d given him earlier. 20 pesos. Wow, what a generous woman she was, he sarcastically thought and laughed to himself. He wasn’t sure if this was the woman he’d want for his bestfriend.

“Did you talk with Yuka after I left?” Tate asked as he drove his car while Yvo sat on the passenger’s seat. He’d hitched a ride with Tate and Tate had his staff drive Yvo’s car back to his place. Yvo’s glasses were broken during the fight and he thought driving Yvo home was the best excuse to get away from Carla. He’d introduced Carla to one of his friends and they were probably already banging their brains out at this very moment. He figured he didn’t want to sleep with anyone tonight. After meeting Yuka, he couldn’t get himself to get in the mood.

“We talked for a bit.” Yvo said.

“About what?” Usisa niya. Lumingon siya sandali kay Yvo bago muling ibinaling ang mata sa kalsada.

“Nothing of relevance.”

“Yung lalaking kasama niya, boyfriend ba niya iyon?”

“It’s her date.”

“Are they dating?”

“Based on my observation, it was just a casual date.”

“Based on your observation?” Tate’s car was filled with his laughter. “We’re not in your lab, Dr. Zamora.”

“I think it’s just a one night thing.” Yvo casually said.

“Like a one night stand thing?” Tate asked.

“Who knows?” He shrugged.

“Do you think she likes me? Damn! I wish Carla didn’t show up.” Tate shook his head. It should have been him filling her in tonight, not her fucking date. “Have you seen her, Yvo? She looked like an angel, didn’t she?”

“Looks can be deceptive.”

“What do you mean?” Tate took a quick gaze at him.

“Perception is not fixed. It is flexible, reflecting a person’s psychological state. You can create an impression, Tate, but not a fact.”

“Jesus, english man! Do you speak it?” Tate had to roll his eyes. Sometimes he felt like Yvo was talking in tongue. He was too smart for his own good.

“Let’s just say she’s not as angelic as she looks like.” He said and took out the napkin from his pocket. “I have her number.”

“So, she’s on to you.” He furrowed his brows. He felt hot heat of jealousy spreading throughout his chest. Kung ibang babae yan, ipaparaya niya sa kaibigan niya iyon. But this was Yuka. He liked her. Really liked her

“She wants you to have this.”

“Damn!” Tate smiled, triumphly. “I knew it! Yvo, ngayon lang ako tinamaan ng ganito, bud. I don’t know what this is I’m feeling. I feel like a love sick teenage boy all over again. My Dad used to tell me that you’ll know if you’re in love with someone the first time you see that person. Your heart will know. He knew when he first saw Mom.”

He’d always held his Mom and Dad’s loves on a pedestal. He saw how crazy in love they were with each other. He saw how his Dad worships her mother like she was some ethereal goddess. One day, he thought, he’d finally find someone to love as much as his Dad loved his mother.

“Be careful. She wants something more from you.”

“I’ll give her whatever she wants.”

“She’s a bit of a gold digger.” Yvo winced at the word itself.

“What do you mean?”

“She doesn’t know we’re friends. Akala niya bartender mo lang ako. She opened up a bit to me. She told me how you’re the 3rd highest paid NFL player and she even know you’re networth. She’s attracted to you but she’s attracted to your money, too.”

“I have lots of it.” His smile grew.

“Are you kidding me? This doesn’t bother you?” He looked at his bestfriend, repulsed.

“Why should it? I have money that could last me ten lifetime. She’d always had that vibe to her, anyway.”

“A gold digging vibe?”

“No! A woman who doesn’t live for anybody but herself vibe.”

“You can go now.” Sabi ni Yuka nang tumigil ang kotse sa harap ng malaking gate sa bahay ng Kuya Migs niya. It was already 9 in the evening. She’d already taken pictures and posted it on her social accounts, no need to stay any longer as she had gotten what she wanted. There were two securities guarding the outside gate of the house. Two more were patrolling on the backyard. The Cordovas had always been paranoid with security considering this was the safest village ever in the Philippines.

“Sandali, Yuka.” Pigil sa kanya ni Peter nang abutin niya ang bukasan ng pinto.

“What?” Iritang tanong niya.

“Hindi mo ba ako papasukin sa loob?”

“Baka tulog na ang mga tao sa bahay namin. Umuwi ka na.” She said.

“Gusto lang kitang ihatid ng maayos sa pamilya mo. Ayaw kong may masabi sila.” He insisted.

“No need, Peter. Uwi na.”

“Hindi mo man lang ba ako aalukin ng kape? Nakainom ako.”

Nag-isip sandali si Yuka. Well, Peter had a few drinks but not enough to entoxicate him. But then, if something but were to happen to him after dropping her off, she didn’t want to be helf responsible. Ayaw niya rin dalhin sa kunsensya niya iyon.

“Sandali lang, ha? Bilisan mo ang inom ng kape at inaantok na ako.” She rolled her eyes before opening the window and asking the securities to let them in.

Pinasok ni Peter ang kotse at sabay silang pumasok sa loob. Naabutan niyang nakaupo sa couch ang Kuya Migs niya sa salas at nakakandong si Tintin sa ama habang nakasubsob ang mukha sa dibdib.

“Ano na naman ang nangyari sa’yo?” Tanong niya sa pamangkin.

“Si Mommy.” Humihikbing sabi ni Tintin. Her father was stroking her blonde hair. “Pinaluhod ako sa munggo.”

“Ano ba kasi ang ginawa mo?” Tanong niya.

“K-k-kinuha ng k-klase namin yung pog na dinala ko sa school, ayaw ibalik sa akin kaya binato ko ng buhangin. Akala ko ba, Daddy, puro mayayaman ang nasa school namin. Bakit pogs lang ninanakaw pa nila?” Halos hindi ito makapagsalita sa paghikbi.

“Because they haven’t seen toys like that before.” Migs kissed his daughter’s forehead. “Tahan na, okay? Masakit pa ba?” Hinaplos nito ang magkabilang tuhod ng anak.

“Oo kaya! Nauna naman siya! Bakit ako pinaluhod sa munggo?”

“Pinapili kita kung palo o luhod sa munggo, di ba?” Pumasok ang Ate niya sa sala, nakapantulog na ito.

“Sabi mo pag hindi ako pumili papaluin mo ako habang nakaluhod sa munggo.” Salubong ang noo at nakalabing sabi nito.

“Sinabuyan mo ang kaklase mo ng buhangin sa mata. Paano kung nabulag iyon?” Galit na sabi ni Saskia.

“Come on, hindi naman niya alam iyon. She’s a kid.” Migs defended.

“Alam ko. Kaya nga para alam niyang mali ang ginagawa niya pinarusahan ko siya. Nagreklamo din pati ang teacher niya sa akin na nagcacara cruz yan sa eskwelahan tuwing recess, natututo daw ang mga kaklase niya sa kanya. Bawal iyon sa eskwelahan dahil kinokonsedera nilang sugal iyon.”

“Ano yun?” Migs asked.

“Yung piso-piso lang naman yun. Bakit sa Sto. Antonio nilalaro namin iyon?” Humihikbing tanong nito.

“That’s just ridiculous. I’m going to talk to their teacher tomorrow.”

“Huwag mo nang ipagtanggol ang anak mo, Migs. Ang mali, mali. Huwag mong kunsintihin.” Umiiling na sabi ni Saskia bago ito muling pumasok. Migs had always been soft when it comes to his daughters. The married couple had their own ways of raising their kids and sometimes they clash because of that. But someone had to give way and it was always Migs.

Lumapit naman si Savi sa kambal niya at hinawakan ang tuhod nito. “I got you lotion. Maybe this will make your knees feel better.”

“Just apologize to Mommy, okay?” Migs kissed her daughter. “Just say Mommy, I’m sorry. Hindi naman magagalit ang Mommy kung wala kang ginawang mali, hindi ba?”

“Kuya, si Peter nga pala.” Walang kagana-ganang pinakilala ni Yuka ang kasama.

“Hi, nice to meet you. Why don’t you take a seat? I’m sorry, we’re just having a little bit of a trouble here.” Said Migs.

“Boyfriend mo yan?” Tanong ni Tintin habang nakatingin sa lalaki. “Mahilig ka sa mga ganyan, ano? Mga mukhang monggi. Bakit hindi ka maghanap ng matinong boyfriend? Bakit hindi yung mga katulad ng Daddy ko?”

“Tintin, no.” He covered his daughter’s mouth. “That’s not nice.”

“Kaya ka napapaluhod sa munggo, eh.” Yuka frowned at her niece.

“Let’s just go to Mommy. Baka pati sa akin magalit ang Mommy mo kaya magsorry ka na lang, anak. Promise her you won’t do it again.” He gently told his daughter before ushering the twins out of the living room.

“Sandali lang, ipagagawa kita ng kape.” Yuka left her guest and went to the kitchen. Pinagtimpla niya ng kape si Peter at bumalik siya sa living room.

“Bilisan mo, ha?” She said as she handed the cup to him and sat next to him. He rested his arm on the back of her seat. She rolled her eyes. It was the oldest move in the book. “Didiretsahin na kita, Peter. Hindi kita type kaya tapusin mo na ang iniinom mong kape at huwag kang magpa-cute dyan. Ano’ng oras na-”

When she looked at the screen of her phone, she saw that it had a message from an unknown number. She unlocked her phone and checked the message.

Hey beautiful,

This is Tate. Text back when you’re not busy. Would love to talk to you again.

Parang humiwalay ang kaluluwa niya mula sa katawan nang makita ang text message. Parang gustong sumabog nang dibdib niya sa kilig. Tate texted her.

Chapter Three

“Tate!” She smiled as she tilted her head up to meet his eyes. He had such beautiful eyes, they were of deep brown hue. It lit as he stared at him. She knew those stares well as she’d seen them from the eyes of countless men. She wondered if he’d recognized the same stares in her eyes.

She took in a deep breath and tried to play it cool even though her insides felt like they were turning liquid. Si Tate the Great ang nasa harap niya ngayon. Ang lalaking kinababaliwan ng libu-libong babae sa buong mundo. But she knew better, hindi niya pwedeng ipaalam dito na ganon din ang nararamdaman niya. She had to stand out. Hindi niya pwedeng ipahalata na katulad din siya ng mga babaeng iyon kung hindi mawawalan ng gana sa kanya si Tate. He’d probably seen something in her that he hadn’t seen in any girls and she wouldn’t let that go. She didn’t know what it was yet so she had to be careful. Maybe it was because she kept it cool the first time they met, unlike the other girls’s who sees him as a god that had descended from heaven. Siguro nga iyon ang dahilan. Sanay ito na siya ang hinahabol ng babae and then Yuka gave her something to chase after.

“Hey…” He flashed a smile.

Yuka could feel her heart beating loudly in rythm with the loud music. He was even more handsome when he smiles. Sumagi sa isip niya ang isang picture ni Tate sa isang sikat na underwear ad. Him and his grey boxer shorts, it was a huge bulge by the way. She had felt it with her own hand when he spilled the wine on him. Napasinghap siya. She thought she needed another drink.

“It’s so nice to see you again. God, you’re beautiful.” He said, almost breathlessly. Tate hadn’t been much into asian-looking chicks. He’d dated women of different ethnicities but he always went for the tall, blonde babes with banging bodies. He never liked things that looked… fragile. He was a big man and he knew he needed big girls who could handle him, not some delicate butterfly he could easily break in half. But then there was Yuka, a petite woman whose height barely reached his shoulders. Hindi niya alam kung bakit parang may kung anong magnet ang babaeng ito na humahatak sa kanya. Hindi katangkaran ang babae, she was the kind of beauty that should come with the label handle with care, para itong babasagin na maynikang nakita niyang naka-display sa lumang cabinet sa ancestral home nila sa St. Tropez. Pero iba ang pinapakita nito sa mga ikinikilos ng babae. She moves and thinks as though the world owes her. She walks like every man should kiss the floor she’d walked on.

“Oh, Tate.” Tumawa si Yuka. “Pang-ilang babae na akong sinabihan mo niyan ngayong gabi?”

“Hmm… let’s see.” He rubbed his chin as if thinking before chuckling. “Come on, do you think I go around telling random women they’re beautiful? I tell it to women who deserves to hear them like my Mom and you…”

Nagpakawala ng malawak na ngiti si Yuka. “Football player ka nga talaga. Ang galing mong mangbola.”

Kahit malakas ang music sa paligid nila ay parang tawa lang ng lalaki ang naririnig niya. “That’s a good one. But this time I’m not playing around, Yuka. Sawa na akong maglaro.”

“Ah, so gusto mo nang magretire?” Tumaas ang isang kilay niya.

“Retire from football, no. But playing on a different field, maybe. Who knows?” Kibit-balikat na sabi nito. “May I get you something to drink?”

“Um, a glass of moscow will do.” She said.

Lumapit si Tate sa isang bartender sa bar at binulungan ito. Within seconds, he was holding a glass of moscow mule in one hand and a glass of yorsh from himself.

“It’s too crowded in here. You wanna go to the VIP?” Tanong ni Tate nang iabot nang lalak sa kanya ang baso.

“Sure!” Yuka answered, almost immediately.

They headed straight to the VIP. It was a private space and there were only the two of them inside. They could still hear the sounds from the raging music of the club outside the private space but it was muffled.

“Thank you for inviting me to your club, Tate.”

“I was planning to invite you out for dinner tonight but I thought, you know, with all the paparazzi trying to get scoops, “ He said.

“So, tingin mo I’m not good enough to be seen in public with Tate the Great?”

“You got it wrong, buttercup. You’re too good for that.” He shook his head. “I don’t want to share you with the world. I wouldn’t want to risk it. Next thing you know, we’d be on some gossip magazine with you being branded as my flavor of the night. Dito sa club ko, I’m in control. This is my kingdom.”

“Don’t tell me hindi totoo yung mga nababasa ko tungkol sa’yo?” Yuka roled her eyes, smirking.

“Depends on what you’ve read.”

“Hmm… I once read on a gossip site that you had a three-way in a hotel in Mexico with a pair of famous model twins.”

“I don’t kiss and tell.” Ngumisi ito.

“Your ex said in a tell-all that you’re like a jackhammer in bed.” Yuka could’t stiffle her giggle.

“Mukhang marami ka nang alam tungkol sa akin.” His eyes squinted, smirk tugging on one corner of his mouth. “Why don’t you tell me somthing about yourself then?”

“Ano bang gusto mong malaman?”

“I want to know if you’re dating someone right now. May magagalit ba pag may nakaalam na magkasama tayo?”

“Yung mga kaibigan ko siguro, it would probably blow their minds off when they find out about me being here nang hindi kinakailangan maghintay ng buwan sa waiting list at lalo silang mababaliw pag nalaman nilang kasama kita ngayon. They are crazy for you!” She laughed and shook her head. “Pero other than that, wala naman magagalit. I am so single.”

“What about that guy you were with? May kasama ka daw lalaki sabi ni Yvo.” He said.

“Oh, si Peter? He’s just a suitor.” She answered. “What about you?”

“I’m as single as can be. I haven’t been in a relationship for quite awhile now.”

“Bakit?”

“I don’t know. I’m very picky with the women I date.”

“Picky? Hindi yan ang nababasa ko tungkol sa’yo, Tate, and I can’t blame you. You’re like the Brad Pitt of football.”

“I’ve only had 3 serious relationships in the past, Buttercup.” He said with a proud snide.

“Nagbibiro ka ba?” Tumawa si Yuka.

“No, I’m not. I swear. I wouldn’t lie to you, would I? I’ve only been into 3 serious relationships and the rest were flings. It’s hard to commit to people you don’t see a future with. Someday I want a family like the one I grew up in. I’d have a wife as wonderful as my Mom and like my Dad, I’d give her everything I could ever offer in this life. The woman I’m going to marry someday would have the world if she asks for it.” He let out a dreamy sugh before taking a sip from his glass.

Yuka smiled to herself. He was her ideal man. He was the one she’d been looking for all her life. She had hit a gold mine. Saan ka makakakita ng gwapong lalaki na ibibigay sa’yo ang mundo? She thought she’d end up with some desperate rich man but here was Tate, a famous and attractive football player who has a networth of small island country. And she was genuinely attracted to him. Hindi na siya mahihirapan magkunwari.

“Do you think you’ve met her?” Tinignan niya ang lalaki ng diretso sa mata.

“Maybe.” He said as he stared back to her as if their eyes were glued to each other. “I like you, Yuka. I know we’ve only been texting and talking over the phone for a week but there’s just something about you…”

“I like you too, Tate.” Parang gustong sumabog ng dibdib niya sa kilig pero pilit niyang kinakalma ang sarili niya. There was just something raw and umpretentious about him that she liked even more. He wasn’t full of himself. He wasn’t egoistic just as she expected a famous NFL superstar would be. He didn’t like talking about the women he’d been in the past even when they were practically selling him out in the gossip magazine. He’d always speak of them with respect, even his flings. And she fell for him even more when he talked about how he’d treat his future wife. Hindi katulad ni Josh na ex niya na ngayon ay sikat na varsity player, tuwing dadaan ito sa harap niya pakiramdam niya may dumadaan ipo-ipo sa harap niya sa sobrang hangin ng lalaki. Buti na lang at naupakan iyon ni Tate at ng bartender niya nang matauhan naman. Sana nga ay tuluyan na siyang tantanan ng lakaking iyon.

“You do?” Lumawak ang ngiti nito sa mga labi.

“Alam ko naman na alam mong hindi ka mahirap magustuhan. Tate, I like you but I want to get to know you more. I want to get to know the Tate sa labas ng public image mo.”

“I’d be happy to introduce myself to you.” He gladly said before getting to his feet. “Come on, let’s get out of here.”

“Teka, saan tayo pupunta?” Tanong ni Yuka nang hawakan siya ng lalaki sa kamay at hatakin. They made their way put of the lounge through the crowd and to the parking lot. They stopped in front of a blue Bugatti Chiron, it was the coolest car Yuka had seen. Nobody in the Cordova drove an exotic car. She knew the cars they have were expensive but not like this. The Cordovas were never loud about their wealth, they were subtle. Typical na ugali ng mga old rich. Yuka thought they were wasting it by not rubbing it around everybody’s face. If she were rich, she wouldn’t be subtle about it. Everyone would know and they would envy her just like how she envies the rich now.

“Sa’yo yan?” She said after her eyes admired the beauty in front of her.

“Who else would it belong to?” Tumawa ng mahina si Tate at pinindot ang remote key na ngayon ay nasa kamay nito. The car made a sound that indicated that it was unlocked.

Pumunta si Tate sa passenger’s side at binuksan ang pinto nito. “After you.”

Pumasok naman si Yuka sa passenger’s seat at isinara na nito ang pinto. The car smelled good. It had a very manly scent to it that wasn’t too strong. It was just the right amount with a hint of mint. Sumakay si Tate sa driver’s side at sinimulan na ang makina ng kotse.

“Tate, this is so nice.” She excitedly said.

“She is, isn’t she?” He chuckled and patted the steering wheel. “Yuka, I’d like you to meet my baby, Sonic.”

“I’m very glad to meet her.” A smile spread across her face.

Tate drove off and they were having a good conversation while on the road that she didn’t even notice that the car had already stopped. She was having such a good time she didn’t even care where they were heading to.

“Tate, nasaan tayo?” Tanong ni Yuka at luminga sa paligid nila. It was dark where they were.

Lumingon lang sa kanya si Tate at ngumiti. Pagkatapos ay lumabas ito mula sa kotse at kunot ang noo ni Yuka habanag pinanonood itong tumakbo papunta sa side niya. He opened the door for her and offered her hand. She took it and they went out. She gasped when she saw the sight below them. It was the city. The buildings, the light, eveything felt like they under her feet. The world was under her feet at that moment, shining for her. It was beautiful.

“Tate, it’s beautiful here.” Mahinang sabi niya.

“Yes, it is…” Tate uttered his eyes fixed on her. She had very smooth skin with milky complexion. He saw how her almond eyes twinkled as she stared at the view, the wind blowing her dark hair to her face. She was indeed beautiful and he could feel himself falling for her.

They leaned against the hood of his car while Yuka stared at the view.

“Ang liit nilang tignan from here.” She spoke after a few moments of silence.

“What?” He asked, his eyes still on her. “What do you mean?”

“Everything I’ve ever wanted looks so little from here.” She laughed and let her body fall to the hood of the car. Then she looked at the stars and thought the city was a better view so she sat right up. “So, why did you bring me here?”

“I’m not sure why. But I like the view here.” Tate took in a deep breath of fresh air. “We own this property, you know?”

“Why am I not surpised? Oh, right because you’re rich!” Tumawa ulit si Yuka.

“Ito ang isa sa mga unang binili ni Dad nang magkapera siya. You want to know why?”

“Humor me.”

“Right here, on this very same spot, someone saw him and Mom making out when they were teenagers. Pinaalis sila ng guard nang mahuli sila. Dad bought this place out of spite.” Humalakhak si Tate and Yuka watched him in fascination. He looked even more beautiful as his eyes were laughing as well. “Alam mo ba, the first tine my Dad told me the story about this place I didn’t know if I should find it sweet or gross.”

Yuka held his face and turned it to face her. Then she kissed him. He was so beautiful she just had to kiss him. Hindi tumutol ang lalaki. Hinalikan din siya nito. His lips were more passionate than hers, his tongue delving inside of her mouth. She welcomed his tongue with hers. God! He was such a good kisser, Yuka felt like she would lose her mind. She had never lost her mind over a kiss before, usually it was the other way around.

Naramdam niya ang katawan nitong dumagan sa ibabaw niya habang unti-unti siyang napalahiga sa hood ng kotse ng lalaki. Then he felt his hands over her tummy, slowly sliding inside her body hugging tee.

Inside his office, Yvo lifted his damaged glasses that had been sitting on top of his desk for a week now. The lenses were still cracked and the hinge was still put together with a transparent tape around it. Tate had gone on a date with Yuka tonight. He wondered if it was a mistake to give him her number. Yuka had already caused them enough trouble.

The woman was up to no good. He didn’t think she was good for Tate. She seemed shallow and materialistic and Tate couldn’t see it because he was too busy being attracted to her. No matter what he’d warned him about Yuka, Tate would counter it with something positive.

The halo effect is when a person perceives one trait as positive and therefore associate other traits related to it as being positive. It’s a cognitive bias that influence the perception of others based on the first impression of them. Yuka was an attractive woman, he couldn’t deny it. And she excudes a charming aura, like most sociopaths would. Yvo shook his head in disappoint to his friend even though he wasn’t here with him. Tate really did took a seriously liking to that woman and he’d hate to see him being made a fool.

He didn’t like Yuka for his friend, not one bit, and he had a  hundred good reason not to. He wasn’t even sure if he liked her as a person. She was a gold digging opportunity grabbing woman who had not an ounce of care for others need but hers. Ang babae mismo ang umamin sa kanya. She made it clear that she was after any rich man who was desperate enough to have her. He thought Tate could do better than her.

Chapter Four

Dahan-dahan siyang pumasok sa madilim na bahay. She tiptoed inside the house while carrying her fake So Kate pair of pumps she’d bought off the internet in one hand. Ala-una na ng madaling-araw nang ihatid siya ni Tate, hindi niya na inayang pumasok ang binata dahil alam niyang pag nalaman ni Saskia na hating-gabi na siya umuwi ay magbubungaga na naman ito sabayan pa ng Ninang niyang intrimitida. Ang Mammy niya lang naman ang nakakasundo niya sa mga kalokohan niya dahil magka-ugali sila nito, siya ang taga-pagtanggol niya laban sa dalawang intrimitida sa buhay niya. Ito ang kumukunsinti sa lahat ng kagagahan niya.

“At saan ka galing?” Halos mapalundag siya nang marinig ang boses ng Ate niya. Her Ate turned on the lampshade on the end table as she sat on the couch on her robe with her legs crossed.

“Sa party.” Sagot niya.

“Hindi ka man lang nagpasabi na gagabihin ka.” Humalukipkip si Saskia at salubong ang kilay na tumingin sa kanya.

“Ito naman si Ate, parang hindi mo din napagdaanan ito. Parang hindi ka nagdalaga. YOLO!” She smiled, nothing could ruin her mood right now after what had happened between her and Tate.

“Ganyang edad mo, kumakayod na ako para sa inyo. Hindi ako ginagabi kaka-party, ginagabi ako sa mga beauty pageant na sinasalihan ko sa iba’t-ibang baranggay, sa mga raket, sa pagsayaw sa club para may panggastos tayo.”

“Ate…” Dahan-dahan siyang lumapit sa kinauupuan ng kapatid at sumalampak sa tabi nito. Nilambing niya ang kapatid at ipinulupot ang mga bisig sa baywang nito. Alam niyang kapag naglalambing siya ay hindi siya natitiis nito. Bata pa lang siya, bukod sa Ninang nila ay ito na rin ang tumayong ina niya. Lahat ng gustuhin niya ay binibigay ng Ate niya. Madalas kasing wala ang Mammy nila, kung hindi nagtatrabaho sa Japan ay may kinakasama itong kung sinu-sinong lalaki. Happy-go-lucky, ika nga. “Iba na ang sitwasyon natin ngayon. Hindi na tayo mahirap. Minsan lang naman ito, Ate, saka ayoko naman ma-out of place sa mga friends ko. Nakikisama lang naman ako sa kanila.”

“Pinag-aral ka ng Kuya Migs mo sa magandang eskwelahan hindi para makipagsabayan sa mga mayayaman na kaklase mo. Gusto niyang bigyan ka ng dekalidad na edukasyon. Kung tutuusin hindi niya na kayo responsibilidad kaya sana wag mong sayangin ang oportunidad na binigay sa’yo. Tutukan mo ang pag-aaral mo bago yang mga kaibigan mo.” Sermon sa kanya ng Ate niya.

“Hindi ko naman pinababayaan ang pag-aaral ko, Ate. I’m just having fun.” Hinilig niya ang ulo niya sa balikat ng Ate niya at napabuntong-hininga. “Alam mo, Ate, dati pinapangarap ko lang ang ganitong buhay. Yung tumira sa malaking bahay, yung magkaron ako ng solong kwarto, yung may aircon. Ngayong naranasan ko na ang ganito parang ayaw ko ng bitawan. Ayaw ko ng bumalik sa Tondo o sa bahay kubo natin sa Sto. Antonio. Ayaw ko ng maghirap.”

“Kaya nga mag-aral kang mabuti para balang-araw magkaron ka rin ng sarili mong ganito.” Hinaplos ni Saskia ang buhok ng kapatid at hinalikan ang buhok nito.

“Ate, hindi naman ako matalino kaya kahit ano’ng aral ko, wala rin mangyayari. Maganda lang ako.”

“Teka, bakit amoy lalaki ka?” She sniffed her hair.

Biglang napalayo si Yuka mula sa Ate niya. “Ano’ng amoy lalaki?”

“Amoy pabango ng lalaki.” Nalukot ang mukha nito.

“Ay nako, Ate! Baka sarili mo naaamoy mo. Kakatapos niyo lang siguro ni Kuya Migs, sa akin mo pa ibibintang yun. Makatulog na nga. Inaantok na ko. Maaga pa ang first class ko bukas. Good night!” Nagmamadaling tumayo siya.

“Hoy! Hindi ganyan ang pabango ng asawa ko!” Pahabol ng Ate niya habang kumakaripas siya ng takbo paakyat ng hagdan.

Nakahinga siya ng maluwag nang maisara niya ang pinto sa kwarto niya. A smile spread across her lips as she remembered what had happened between her and Tate. Hinaplos niya ang labi niya. He was the best kisser she’d ever experienced. Tate the Great, he lived up to his name. How she’d wanted the kiss to go on forever but she knew she couldn’t. It was still a game. If she gave in, she knew the thrill of the chase would soon fade. Sabi nga nila the harder you work for something, the greater you value it. She wanted him to work hard for her.

Kahit ano’ng gwapo ni Tate, kahit gaano siya kasarap humalik, kahit gaano siya kabango, she knew it wasn’t time yet. She’d already crossed the line when she let him kiss her on the first date. She’d usual only let a date kiss her after he’d given her what she wanted, from finishing her thesis and projects for her to VIP front row seat tickets to concerts, luxury bags, and shoes.

She didn’t want Tate to think he could have her easily. She was pretty sure he was used to having things his way as women are practically throwing themselves at him. Mapapabilang lang siya sa mga babaeng iyon. Just as soon as she felt his hand sliding inside her shirt she pushed him away. It was the hardest thing to do as she knew she wanted more pero alam niyang mabobored agad ito sa kanya kung bibigay siya.

‘I had a wonderful night with you. I’ll dream of you tonight, buttercup.’

Binuksan niya ang phone niya at iyon agad ang bumugad sa kanyang message. Kinikilig na napatili siya bago parang batang nagtatalon sa kama.

He indeed dreamt of her and her delicious lips that night. Tate woke up with a huge smile across his handsome face. It had been there since last night. He felt like a teenager again, like he had after his first kiss.

He’d traveled all over the world and had been with different women around the globe but there was just something about Yuka… She was one badass woman and she wasn’t pretending she wasn’t. She was a what you see is what you get type of woman and he loved it.

‘Good morning, Tate. I did sleep well, thank you for asking. I hope you did, too. Was I in your dream?’

Hindi niya mapigilan ang mapahalakhak nang mabasa ang message ni Yuka. It felt as thought butterflies were going crazy inside his tight muscled stomach.

Napahinto si Yvo sa crunches niya at tumingin sa kanya na para bang nasisiraan na siya ng bait. He was at the gym with his two best buddies, Coco and Yvo. Coco was lifting weights, slowly put down the barbell and looked at him with brows furrowed.

“What are you doing? Are you going to be one of those annoying gym people who goes to the gym only to sit in the corner and get on their phone?” Coco scowled. “Sino ba yang kalandian mo?”

“Yuka.” Si Yvo na ang sumagot para sa kanya.

“Yuka?” Coco’s brows raised in surprise. “Our Yuka? My sister-in-law’s sister Yuka?”

“Yes, that Yuka.” Yvo shook his head. “He’s gone completely crazy about her.”

“I didn’t even know you two know each other.” Sabi ni Coco.

“Well, we met a couple of times and we went out last night.”

“Damn!” Coco shook his head. “Did you have sex with her? You don’t know her sister. Papatayin ka ni Saskia.”

“No…” Tate shook his head, he couldn’t get rid of the smile on his face. “What Yuka and I had last night was beyond that. We didn’t have sex but we talked and there was instant connection. I’ve never felt like this for anyone.”

“I have a bad feeling about her.” Yvo said, he stood up from the mat and threw a fresh towel over his shoulder. He knew he had no say about this but he couldn’t keep his mouth shut. “Just be careful.”

“Be careful? I know she’s not your kind of girl. She’s straightforward and says and does what she wants-”

“Oh, and she post sexy pictures on instagram.” Coco added.

“What the hell?” Tate snapped his head to Coco’s direction. “You have a wife and two kids.”

“Pinakita sa akin ni Anais. I don’t even have an instagram account, my wife does and she follows her. She’s a bit of a social media star.” Kibit-balikat na sabi ni Coco.

“Anyway, Yuka may be a bit too liberated for your taste but she’s not a bad person.” Patuloy ni Tate. “ I mean, she’s practically Coco’s family now, what do you think, Coco?“

“I don’t know, man, I can’t vouch for her.” Coco said as he was doing one arm rows. “Yuka’s like the Ronnie of their family.”

“What do you mean?” Tate asked.

“Sakit sa ulo ni Saskia at ni Kuya. Saskia would always complain about Yuka coming home late from parties, getting in trouble, and do you know about the video ?”

“The video? What video?” Tate’s brows were drawn together in curiosity.

“Man, it’s a sensitive topic. I shouldn’t have mentioned that.”

“What the hell was in that video you were talking about?” Tate grew frustrated.

“Kuya and Saskia were called over by the dean because of a video of her and some basketball player.”

“A sex video?” Asked Yvo.

“Maybe? Probably? I don’t know. Hindi ko naman na tinanong, I don’t meddle with other people’s business.”

“See why she’s not good for you.” Yvo sighed.

“Cut her some slacks! So, she probably had a sex video. Everybody has sex, hers just happened to be in a video.” Tate responded matter-of-factly, it didn’t bother him a bit. This was not the old age where a woman is expected to be a virgin until her wedding night. If an adult woman were to tell him that she was a virgin, he’d be more surprised. He didn’t like virgins anyway, he’d dated one before and he was her first. It was messy, bloody, and too much work. He forced himself to finish even when he wasn’t in the mood anymore. And women’s post-coital guilt after the first time was just something he doesn’t know how to handle. He just couldn’t get how anyone could feel guilty about doing something natural and beautiful?

“Mukhang malakas ang tama mo kay Yuka.” Coco grinned. “Remember when you said you weren’t into oriental-looking chicks?”

“Iba si Yuka.”

Yvo thought so, too. But not in the same way as Tate thought. He looked at her as a femme fetale, a beautiful but destructive woman who had the power to destroy any man with a snap of a finger. And as bad as it may sound, a gold-digging man-eater. He had no other words to sugar coat it. He didn’t mean to be judgemental but the woman basically laid her cards the first time they spoke.

“Just be careful.” Yvo patted his friend’s shoulder before standing up and heading to the locker room.

“Oh my God, Yuka!” Agad na tumakbo si Bella sa kanya pagpasok pa lang niya sa classroom. Bella was the daughter of a mayor and one of her bestfriends. “I saw your picture on instagram! I can’t believe it! Kasama mo si Tate?”

“He’s super cute!” Jennette squealed like a puppy who’d been ran over. Jennette’s the only daughter of a famous director in the Philippines. “What happened? Saan kayo nagpunta! I want to know everything!”

“Well…” She rolled her eyes with a smug smile. “Dinala ako ni Tate sa isang espesyal na lugar at nag-usap kami.”

“And then you slept with him? He’s probably just looking for someone to hook up with.” Tracy chuckled, the group considered her as the leader of the pack. 

“Walang nangyari. We just talked.” Sabi ni Yuka.

“About what? I-share mo naman sa amin!” Bella excitedly asked.

“About everything. It was magical.” Yuka mindlessly sighed as she recalled what had happened. “And then we made out a little.”

“Hanggang ano’ng base kayo?” Jen giggled.

“We just kissed. First date pa lang namin.”

“So, did you get us a pass to Bliss? I want a VIP.” Tracy said as she chewed on her gum. “I’ve been calling for a reservation but they don’t have any available slot for the next 3 months. And it’s still not VIP. I don’t want anything less than VIP.”

“Neither do I.” Bella was Tracy’s echo.

“My dad is like the king of our hometown. He did not run as mayor for me to be treated any less than special.” Jen proudly said.

“Politicians are basically public servants, Jen.” Umikot ang mga mata ni Tracy. “They are not kings, they serve people. And don’t worry about being treated as special, we already know you are special kid. “

“Thank you.” Nakangiting sabi nito.

The girls laughed and Jen just crumpled her brows, confused as what they were laughing about. After their laughters died down, Tracy turned her attention back to Yuka. “So, Yuka, did you get us a pass? Matagal ko na talagang gusto pumunta sa Bliss. I’ve used my connections but to no avail.”

“Don’t worry, I got this. Hindi naman makaka-hindi si Tate sa akin.” She chuckled.

“This is why we’re friends.” Tracy let out a wide smile. “So, weren’t you dating that Peter guy?”

“Of course not! Pumayag lang naman akong lumabas kasama siya dahil may pass siya sa Bliss. Doon ko nakilala si Tate.”

“We really have to go there! I’m sure there’s going to be lots of hot guys.” Kinikilig na sabi ni Bella.

“Oh Bella, when we get there ipakikilala ko sa’yo yung hot na bartender na nakilala ko. Alam ko naman ang taste mo sa mga lalaki.” Yuka remembered the guy who’d had saved her.

“I’m so excited.” Bella squealed and squirmed.

“Me too, do you have one for me?” Asked Jen.

“Ew! Stop acting like desperate bitches.” Tracy scowled.

Her phone suddenly rang and she gasped when she saw Tate’s name on the screen. She looked at the girls with a bewildered expression and then showed them her phone’s screen.

“Oh my God.” Belle mouthed.

Jen was excitedly waiting for her to answer the call.

“Hi.” Yuka finally answered after a couple of rings. She knew better than to answer on the first ring or the guy will think you’re too excited to talk with him.

“Hey Yuka, what are you up to?”

“I’m in class.” Her voice squeak a little as emotions flooded her when she heard Tate’s smooth velvety voice.

“I’m sorry. Naistorbo ba kita?”

“No, wala pa naman ang prof ko. I’m just with my friends.” She said.

“I see.” He nodded his head. “Just want to check on you. I followed you on instagram. Beautiful photos.”

“Thank you.” Lumawak ang ngiti niya. “Matagal na akong naka-follow sa’yo.”

“I know.” He replied. “Look, I enjoyed our date last night and I hope you did, too.”

“It could’ve been better.” Biro niya dito.

She heard a chuckled at the other end of the line. “It could have been, huh? How ’bout I make it up to you? Let’s try again. I swear, this won’t suck as last night.”

“Can I think about it?” She joked.

“Sure, I’ll give you five seconds… five… four… three…”

“Okay. Sige na nga, pagbibigyan pa kita.” She answered.

“YES!” Masayang sabi nito.

They set up the date and said goodbye to each other. Tate said he would call her again after school, he didn’t want her distracted and he needed to meet up with his coach. Yuka hugged her phone after hanging up. She couldn’t believe this. Well, she knew Tate would want a second date but it still felt surreal. Alam niyang attracted na ang binata sa kanya and she wanted him to work for it. Men like Tate liked working for things, it makes it more special. She needed to be special for Tate or else she’d just be one of his whores.

“You forgot to ask if he could get us a pass.” Tracy rolled her eyes. It was a habit of hers, rolling her eyes. Nagtataka nga siya kung bakit hindi pa nahihipan ng hangin ang mga mata nito.

“Mamaya pag nag-usap kami I’ll ask if he could get us a pass.” She just told her.

“VIP, okay?”

“Yes, of course.” Sabi naman ni Yuka.

Yvo was having a meeting with the science department of an international university. His pharmaceutical company had taken up the challenge to make a new kind of medicine, the research was still at its earliest stage. He had made an arrangement to collaborate with the university as he had seen potential in its research group, specifically a Slavic chemistry professor and a Filipino biochemistry professor. In return, he had agreed to work with the university as the director of research and had been appointed to supervise the science department.

“It is an honor to finally work with you, Dr. Zamora.” Said Dr. Alano. “At such young age, you have already propelled the pharmaceutical medicine industry here in the Philippines towards greater heights.”

“I heard about the drug you recently created, the cure for Tregiminal Neuralgia.” Said Dr. Jalowetz, his thick Slavic accent was making each syllable sharp like razor. The last drug he had created had been well-received globally. He had been given endless awards and the drug had taken off internationally. Before that, he had created a drug that reduces the risk of deaths in patients with heart diseases. Within a couple of months after its discovery, his company’s networth skyrocketed to a billion dollar and he had received recognition like no other.

“I have yet to discover the cure but my drug could only alleviate the severity of the pain to a bearable to an almost unnoticable degree where they could go on with their lives, like a mild headache or toothache. Not too long ago, TN patients were only given anti-convulsion medicines. My drug works by specifically targeting the Tregiminal Neuralgia.” He answered.

“I see. It is still a huge breakthrough.” Dr. Jalowetz nodded his head with utmost respect. “Such a young age and you are already achieving more than most doctors and scientists ever could.”

“He’s a real prodigy, I tell you.” Dr. Alano said.

Yvo’s lips cracked a modest smile. “I’d like to think I’m just a very curious person. My goal does not lie in specific titles or status, but in being challenged.”

He had high hopes for his next project and so did other people. He was put in the spotlight and all eyes were on him now as they anticipated his new wonder drug.

After the meeting, he was shown around before finally taken to the laboratory. Yvo was not one to waste time and he began briefing the research team about their new project and they immediately put it to work.

After hours of lecturing the team, he decided to head to the school cafeteria to get a quick bite. Umorder siya ng sandwich at coffee as he was heading out, a group of guys bumped against him, his coffee and sandwich fell to the ground.

“Hey! Watch where you’re going!” Galit na sita niya sa mga binata. The college kids raced away from him and he could only shake his head. Pinulot niya ang sandwich mula sa sahig at itinapon ito sa basurahan. He also got a mop and began sweeping the floor.

“Bartender?” He heard a familiar voice of a woman. “Ikaw yung bartender sa Bliss, di ba?”

He lifted his eyes and her slanted almond shaped eyes met his stares. Yuka had always been told she had the sweetest and warmest smile, the way the corners of her eyes crinkles and it is reduced to just a small slit.

“Ikaw nga. Akala ko namanalik-mata lang ako kanina.” She chuckled and then she paused. her smile disappearing. “Teka, ano’ng ginagawa mo dito? Bakit parang kung nasaan ako nandoon ka din? Sinusundan mo ba ako? Oh gosh! Obsessed stalker ka, ano?”

“You wish.” He couldn’t helo but retort. “Nagtatrabaho ako dito.”

“Ah…” Yuka nodded her head and her eyes lowered to the mop he was holding. “Hanggang dito sumaside line ka. Bartender sa gabi, janitor sa umaga.”

He didn’t feel the need to explain to her what he was doing here. He didn’t want to.

Chapter Five

He eyed her from head to toe. Her dark hair fell past her shoulders and was in complete contrast with her skin that was as white as milk. It made her features stand out even more; those almond-shaped eyes, untroubled and care-free, and a very smug ‘the-world-owes-me’ smile.

Yuka had on a tiny crop top grey shirt that revealed her pierced belly button with a dangly heart-shaped jewelry. He didn’t get the appeal of having parts of the body pierced. It was a complety tasteless way to wear jewelry.

“Masyado mo naman ineenjoy ang view.” Yuka’s voice pulled him out of the trance. Umangat ang mga mata niya sa babae. Ngumisi ito sa kanya, a sarcastic grin. “Pinagnanasahan mo ba ako?”

“No. Definitely not.” His spine straightened. “You’re a student here, am I right?”

“Oo, bakit? Ano naman sa’yo?” Kumunot ang noo nito sa kanya.

“Wala bang dress code ang eskwelahan na ito? Don’t you think you’re dressed inappropriately. You represent this university, do you not?”

“Hindi naman ako representative saka close kami ni Kuya Guard kaya hindi niya na ko binibigyan ng violation ticket.” She giggled like the menacing brat she was. “Binibili ko din kasi siya ng yosi kapag break. Ikaw? Janitor ka ba talaga dito? Bukod sa mop na hawak mo, parang wala naman sa itsura at pananamit mo.”

“Hindi ako janitor.” He answered, stoic before slowly letting go of the mop in his hand. 

“New student ka ba? Parang ngayon lang kita nakita dito. Kasi kung matagal ka na dito, mapapansin kita, promise.” She beamed.

 “Hindi din ako estudyante.”

Humalukipkip si Yuka at sandaling tinitigan ang lalaki, umarko ang kilay niya. “So, stalker ka nga talaga?”

“I am not a janitor, I am not a student, and I am mostly not a stalker.” Napahilot siya sa sentido niya.

“Ah porque gwapo ka, hindi ka pwedeng tawagin na stalker. Secret admirer lang, ganon?” The woman chuckled. “Flattered naman ako pero medyo creepy lang.”

“I work with your university’s research group.”

“Ahh…” She nodded as if she knew what he was talking about while managing to still look clueless. “So, naglulunch ka ba? Tara, sabay na tayo.”

“It’s okay.” Tanggi ni Yvo.

“Tara na! Ang arte naman nito. Wala din naman akong kasabay. Libre na kita, thank you ko na din sa’yo yun sa pagtulong sa akin noong nasa club tayo.” Aya nito sa kanya.

She watched as the woman turned her back to him. His eyes automatically caught her skinny jeans and the the black thong straps that were slightly peaking through it. He wondered what had gotten into Tate. Was this what drove him crazy for her? 

“Bakit ang tahimik mo?” Yuka asked after stopping mid-sentence when she realized she’d been the only one doing the talking. Tahimik na kumakain ang lalaki ng burger na nilibre niya dito. The least he could do was to act interested in what she had to say. 

Inayos nito ang pagkakagalagay ng salamin niya sa tungki ng ilong bago nag-angat ng tingin. “I don’t have anything to say.”

Umikot ang mga mata ni Yuka at napabuntong-hininga. “Hindi mo ba narinig ang sinabi ko? Finollow ako ni Dan Reynolds sa instagram at minessage niya ako, sabi niya ang gaganda ng mga pictures ko. Wala ka man lang bang sasabihin tungkol doon? Si Dan Reynolds yun!”

“Dan Reynolds?” He furrowed his brows.

“Imagine Dragons!” Yuka exclaimed. “Sabi niya kapag nagconcert sila dito sa Pilipinas, bibigyan niya ako ng VIP pass!”

“That’s nice.” Tumango-tango ang lalaki, even though he had not a clue of what she was talking about. His life revolved around his works. 

“Pero siguro kapag nag-concert sila, hindi na ako single. Siguro kami na ni Tate. Sana.” She sighed dreamily. “Nagtatrabaho ka pa din ba sa club ni Tate? May mga babae ba din ba siyang dinadala?”

“I don’t see him as often.” Sabi ni Yvo. He decided to go along. He wanted to know what her motives are. Tate have always had his back when he was just a skinny, lanky, fragile nerdy piece of stick. And he swore he would have his friend’s back, too. Yvo had the feeling that Yuka was bad news to his friend. There was just something about the woman that doesn’t sit well with him. 

“Sa tingin mo seryoso siya sa akin? Kasi alam mo, ramdam ko yung connection namin first date pa lang. Siya na yata ang para sa akin. Ikaw, ano sa tingin mo? Bagay naman kami, di ba?” She grinned, her brows wiggling up and down.

“Bakit nagustuhan mo si Tate?” 

“Hello! Si Tate kaya yun!” She chuckled as if what he’d asked was ridiculous. “Nasa kanya na ang lahat ng quality na hinahanap ng mga babae. Gwapo, malakas ang dating, sobrang tangkad, at malaki…”

Yvo choked on the sandwich he was chewing in his mouth. He did not need to hear that about his bestfriend. It grossed him out.

“Hoy, grabe ka! Ang dumi ng isip mo. Ang ibig kong sabihin, malaki ang katawan.” Humalakhak si Yuka then she leaned over to him. “Pero malaki din naman ang tweety bird. Nakapa ko, panalo! Kaya pala happy P ang mga nagiging girlfriend niya.”

Yvo coughed even harder. “I don’t think I need to hear that.”

“Shinare ko lang, ito naman. Saka aksidente lang naman yun, natapunan ko kasi siya ng wine noong kasal ni Kuya Migs at Ate. Doon kami unang nagkakilala, doon din pala tayo unang nagkita.”

“Yes, I remember.” He answered after collecting himself.

“It was love at first sight.” She smiled, nostalgically.

“You’ve told me a thousand times that you’re into rich guys. But what if Tate wasn’t rich, would you still fall for him?”

Sandaling natigilan si Yuka. There was apprehension on her face. She thought about if for quite awhile. “Well, may pera o wala, attractive naman talaga si Tate. Siguro magugustuhan ko pa rin siya, will date here and there but that’s just that.”

“So, your love for him comes with conditions?”

“Lahat naman ng bagay may kundisyon, hindi ba? Sa tingin mo ba mapapansin ako ni Tate kung hindi ako maganda?” She lifted a brow to him. 

“He may have fallen for your personality. He may not be as shallow as you think.”

“Sa mga palabas at romance novels lang ang mga ganyan. Realistically, women look for good providers more than anything. Pwedeng gwapo nga si Tate pero kung walang anda, paano niya ako bubuhayin at ang magiging anak namin? Bata pa lang ako, natutunan ko na na hindi ka kayang buhayin ng ganda ng mukha, ng kalooban at higit sa lahat ng pagmamahal. Kahit ano’ng ganda mo, kahit ano’ng bait mo, kahit ano’ng pagmamahal ang ibigay mo sa mundo kapag mahirap ka, basura pa rin ang tingin nila sa’yo.” 

“Not everyone thinks that way.”

“Hindi din. Tignan mo nga ang mga kapitbahay namin noon, kulang na lang batuhin kami ng bato sa tuwing makikita kami sa daan pero ngayon kung maka-message sa akin sa social media accounts ko, akala mo naging close kami noon.” Tumawa ng bahagya si Yuka. “Kapag nakapag-asawa ako ng mayaman, pagigigba ko ang squatter area kung saan kami nakatira dat-” She held her tongue and her eyes widened. “Hoy, secret lang natin iyon, ah! Huwag mong sasabihin na nakatira kami dati sa squatter. Alam mo naman yung mga friends ko, mga alta. Nakakahiya! Ano na lang ang sasabihin nila?”

Biglang tumunog ang first bell bago pa niya maibuka ang bibig. It was a warning that the next class was about to start. Agad na tumayo si Yuka sa kinauupuan. “Kailangan ko na umalis. Baka ma-late pa ako sa next class ko. Terror pa naman yung prof ko doon. Bye!”

Yvo watched as Yuka hurriedly ran with her hips bouncing from side to side like a model would on a catwalk. He didn’t know what to think of her. He agreed to have lunch with her because he wanted to know her more. Gusto niyang maniwala na hindi ito kasing baba at kasing materialistic ng iniisip niya. She must have some kind of redeeming quality, but the more he knew about her, the more she proves him right. 

He was leaning against his motorcycle, looking at pictures of him and Krista in his phone. He hadn’t deleted it yet. He didn’t have the courage to do so. Halos lahat ng picture sa phone niya ay si Krista ang kumuha. She was everything he wanted in a woman and he lost her. He had his ambitions and she had hers. He chose to stay here and Krista chose to take her doctorate degree in Cambridge. At first, they thought it would be easy but it became harder as time went by. He had gotten busy with his company since his first drug breakthrough and Krista felt neglected. She wanted to be with him so bad she looked for a job for him in UK and found one of the best pharmaceutical company to employ him so he could be with her. He turned it down as he wanted to make a name for himself. That was the beginning of them falling apart until Krista decided to break up with him. 

Naalala niya ang unang beses na nagkakilala sila ng babae. It was at a fundraising event Krista had organized to raise money for free cleft lip and palate surgery for children. He was completely floored the moment he saw her. She was as angelic as she looked. 

Yvo took in a deep breath to ease the heaviness in his chest. Kahit ano’ng tingin niya sa larawan, it wouldn’t magically come to life. He heard she started dating a classmate of hers in Cambridge and it broke him. Hindi na nito sinasagot ang mga tawag niya at binlock na nito ang lahat ng koneksyon nila. 

“Leave me alone!” Narinig niya ang pamilyar na boses ng isang babae. It sounded like Yuka.

His brows crumpled. Paalis na dapat siya pero hindi niya mapigilan ang sarili na silipin kung ano  ba ang nangyayari. He walked to where he heard her voice. Nakita niyang naglalakad si Yuka at sa tabi nito ay isang pulang kotse na dahan-dahan umaabante at sinusundan siya.

“Sumama ka na sa akin, Yuka. Mag-usap tayo.” 

“Ayoko! Hindi mo ba ako naiintindihan? AYOKO!” 

“Tangina naman, Yuka! Mag-uusap lang tayo!” 

“Bakit ba ang kulit mo? Wala na tayong pag-uusap pagkatapos ng ginawa mo sa akin sa club.” 

“Ikaw naman may kasalanan nun. Gusto ko lang naman makipag-usap sa’yo pero nagsusungit ka sa akin. Sino ang pinagmamalaki mo ngayon, ha? Yung Tate na yun?” 

“Matagal na tayong wala, Janno. Uso mag-move on!” 

“Tangina, Yuka, ano’ng gusto mo? Mag-uusap tayo o ikakalat ko ang video natin?” He threatened.

Yuka paused and shifted to face him. She was speechless for awhile. “S-subukan mo. Idedemanda ka ni Kuya Migs. Hindi siya nagbibiro sa sinabi niyang iyon.”

“Fuck! I don’t care anymore. Magka-demandahan na. I’ll call my lawyer.” There was something in his voice that says he had succeeded. 

The man got out of his car and Yvo saw him. It was the same man he’d gotten in a commotion with at Bliss. He opened the passenger’s side and Yuka just stood there as if thinking if she should get in or not.

Yvo knew he had to do something. Who knew what could happen to her once she gets in. Fuck! He could blackmail her to having sex with him again. 

“Yuka!” His voice was firm and loud.

Parehong pumihit ang ulo nila sa kanya. Relief washed over her face. 

“Ikaw na naman?” Nalukot ang mukha ng lalaki ng makita siya.

“Halika na, Yuka.” Yvo demanded. 

“Bakit ba ang hilig mong mangialam? Girlfriend ko ito.” Iritableng sabi ng lalaki. 

“Hindi mo ko girlfriend.” Sabi ni Yuka.

He walked up to the guy and without a word, punched him in the face. He was not an impulsive man. Hangga’t kayang dalhin sa pag-uusap, mag-uusap sila. But what he had heard from the man disgusted him enough that he didn’t want to talk with him.

“FUCK YOU! Tigilan mo na ako.” Yuka spat on the man on the ground as he was pulling her and then she let out a carefree laugh.

Kinuha ni Yvo ang kamay ni Yuka at mabilis silang tumakbo. He took her to his motorcycle and gave her his helmet. He rode it and Yuka hopped in, making herself comfortable on the back. Yuka held him, her arms on the either sides of his torso and when he was sure she was ready, he started the vehicle.

Chapter Six

The wind was brushing against her face, running through her long hair as the motorcycle accelerated. She held on to Yvo’s torso and she held on tight. Yuka took a deep inhale and caught a whiff of his scent. He smelled so clean, of cologne and musculinity. She didn’t know how she had defined it as musculinity but she was sure he emitted it. She could feel her back against her front, brushing ever so slightly with the movement the bike made.

She asked the Yvo to stop when they passed by a burger stand by the road. She hadn’t had anything since lunch and her stomach was already growling. She was supposed to head to the cafe where her besties were at as she told them she would meet them there after her class but her asshole of an ex showed up and wouldn’t leave her alone. She could’ve been having chicken salad croissant while sipping on her caramel macchiato in a posh cafe. She figured the three had probably left by now. Okay na din dito, naisip niya, para makatipid naman. She’d been saving up for that new Class A Hermès bag she’d seen online. People wouldn’t know the difference, anyway. Umaasa lang naman siya sa binibigay na allowance ng asawa ng Ate niya so she couldn’t afford a real one yet.

“Libre ko na ulit ito.” She said as they sat on one of the stools, waiting for their burger to be served. “Thank you ko ulit sa’yo”

“Yung lalaki kanina, why was he harrassing you?”

“Kasi nga gusto niyang makipagbalikan sa akin. He’s an asshole ex and I regret ever dating him.” Yuka rolled her eyes and shook her head. She regretted ever meeting him. She only dated Janno for social perks that came with him. She was new to the university when they first met and Janno was one of the first men to show interest in her, he also happened to be one of the popular kids. She wanted to fit in with the other rich, popular kids and it caused her her dignity.

“Ano’ng video ang sinasabi niya?” He couldn’t help his curiosity. He remembered the conversation he had with Coco and Tate about Yuka’s video. It was probably the same video the man was threatening her with.

“It was…” He could see how Yuka grew uncomfortable. She closed her eyes, burying her face into her palms. “Ang tanga-tanga ko kasi. Sana hindi ako pumayag…”

“Hey, it’s okay.” He tried to comfort the now upset Yuka. He lifted his hand and ever so lightly brushed it through her long, dark hair. “Whatever it was, he shouldn’t be treating you like that. You shouldn’t be letting him control you.”

Realizing what he had done, he drew his hand away as if he’d touched something hot.

“Paano kung totohanin niya ang banta niya?” She said. “I was so stupid. Ang tanga-tanga ko talaga.”

“You need to report him.” Yvo said.

She shook her head, lifting it up from her palm. “No. Hindi mo kilala si Janno, he’s a complete asshole. If I did report it, he would ruin my life. I have two hundred thousand followers on instagram. What would they think of me kapag nakita nila iyon?”

“Hahayaan mo na lang ipanakot niya sa’yo ang video na iyon?” He asked. He didn’t know what to feel. Fury? Pity?

“I don’t want to talk about it anymore.” Yuka took in a deep breath.

“Yuka…” Her name rolled off his tongue like silk. It surprised him how natural it felt.

“Please, ayoko na sabing pag-usapan!” He didn’t expect the rise in her voice.

The woman was in obvious distraught and as much as he wanted to help, he didn’t know how to. He felt that if he press on, it would only make her more upset. He instead let the silence settle between them as they ate their food.

“Salamat nga pala, Yvo. Ang dami ko nang utang sa’yo.” She broke the silence.

“I just did what any other man would do.” Yvo humbly replied and then looked at her.

“Hindi rin.” Umismid si Yuka. “There are a lot of asshole guys out there and you are one of the few who isn’t. Pero alam mo napapansin ko, kapag kailangan ko ng tulong bigla kang sumusulpot. Umamin ka nga sa akin, hindi ako magagalit, are you stalking me?”

“You’ve got quite an imagination.” Yvo chuckled.

“Mas cute ka pala pag tumatawa.” Yuka couldn’t help but comment. There was no denying that Yvo had a handsome face. He’d be breathtaking if he let loose of his eternally neatly combed hair and get rid of his spectacles. He could really pass for a billboard model if it wasn’t for his uppity sense of style and his I-don’t-know-how-to-have-fun demeanor.

Yvo straightened his face, not sure how he’d take her compliment. It was not as if this was his first time being complimented by a beautiful woman. With a retired supermodel for a mother and a DILF for a father, he had surely won the gene pool lottery. Even back then when he was just a dorky, lanky teenage boy, he had had women admiring him. But still, it embarrassed him. Maybe it was the fact that she called him cute. What does that even mean? Cute like a teddy bear?

“May girlfriend ka na?” Yuka asked.

“What?” He was suddenly taken aback by her question.

“May girlfriend ka na ba? Kasi may friend ako na single din, nabanggit nga kita sa kanya. Feeling ko kasi bagay kayo.”

“I’m not looking to date right now.”

“Huwag kang maooffend sa tanong ko, ha, pero bakla ka ba?”

“What?” Did he really just hear what she said right? Was this woman questioning his sexuality? It irked him. He started to question if there was something he did or say that made her think he was attracted to the same sex. There was no shame in being gay, it was just that he wasn’t. He was sure that he was as straight as an arrow. “What made you think that?”

“Ang gwapo mo kasi pero wala kang girlfriend tapos hindi ka interested makipag-date.” She had her elbow against the table and her chin resting on her palm as she looked at him as if he was a specimen being studied.

“I’ve just gotten out of a relationship. I’m just not interested in seeing anyone.” Sagot niya dito.

“I see.” Tumango-tango ito. “Seryoso ka sa kanya?”

“We were serious.” He answered.

“Ah, kaya.” She nodded, understandingly. “Matagal naging kayo?”

“Yes.” He simply said, not feeling the need to explain or elaborate his relationship with Krista to a practical stranger.

“Masakit pa rin, ano?” She gave him a knowing look as if she understood.

Yvo lowered his gaze, her words shooting right in the feels. Fuck! Why does it still feel raw, fresh. He thought he had gotten over her. This was why he hated talking about Krista. It just made it more real. More painful.

“Alam mo, ang trick para maka-get over ka sa isang tao, isipin mo ang pinaka-nakakaturn off na bagay tungkol sa kanya.” It was one of the many advices her mother had given her sister nang maghiwalay silang dalawa ni Migs at lumipat sila sa Sto. Antonio. “Isipin mo yung mabaho niyang utot. When she poops, may naiiwan bang skid marks sa toilet. May putok ba siya?”

Yvo couldn’t hold his laughter in at what she was saying. He had never met anyone as unfiltered as her and it was refreshing. During their conversation, he found himself enjoying more and more of her company. He understood now why his bestfriend had fallen so quickly and deeply infatuated with this woman.

“Sir, Ma’am, magsasara na ako. Ano’ng oras na?” Naiinip na sabi ng tindera at umirap ito. “Kanina pa po kayo, hinihintay ko na nga lang kayong umalis, eh tig-isang burger lang naman ang inorder niyo.”

“Aba antipatika ’to, ah. Hindi naman masarap burger niyo. 1/4 burger tapos puro tinapay na. Scammer! Sana malugi kayo.” She retaliated.

“Shhh…” Yvo covered her mouth with his hands before turning to the woman. “I’m sorry. We’ll leave.”

He practically had to lift her from the ground and drag her away. Yuka let out a hearty laugh as she was being dragged.

“Geez, woman…” He said as he let go of her and he couldn’t help a smile while shaking his head. “You don’t even need to find trouble. You are trouble itself.”

“Baka akala niya hindi ko siya papatulan, sanay ako sa gulo.” She chuckled. “Laking Tondo yata ito.”

He gazed at her. He wanted to understand Yuka. He wanted to understand what made her the way she was now. One minute she’s fragile, the next she’s wreaking havoc.

“You’ve had a rough childhood, huh?” He asked as they were walking back to his motorcycle.

Hindi naman itinanggi ni Yuka ito at tumango siya. “Sobra. Kami yung pinakamamabang uri ng tao sa squatter kung saan kami nakatira noon. Kami yung tampulan ng tukso, yung sinasabihan ng nanay ng mga kalaro namin na wag lumapit sa amin…”

“Why?”

“Kasi dating bayarang babae ang nanay ko.” She let out a huff, feeling the weight leaving her lungs. “Lahat yata ng pwedeng insultong itawag sa amin, narinig ko na. Pati nga sarili kong ama hindi ako matanggap. Alam mo ba na sinubukan kong i-contact ang tatay kong hapon noon, sabi niya sa akin huwag ko na daw siyang tatawagan ulit. Sabi niya wala daw siyang anak sa pokpok. Wala silang ginawa kung hindi maliitin kami. Mula noon, sinabi ko sa sarili ko na balang-araw titingala din sila sa amin. Parang yung scene sa Gone With The Wind, napanood mo ba yun?”

“Gone With The Wind? That’s one of my Nanay’s favorite books.” Sabi ni Yvo as he had seen it being read by Andi hundreds of times before.

“Wala akong tiyaga magbasa ng mahahabang libro. May movie din iyon. Ano ka ba? Sabi ni Scarlett O’Hara, I’m going to live through this and when it’s over I’m never going to be hungry again. If I have to steal or kill, as God is my witness, I’ll never be hungry again.” She said dramatically looking upward in Scarlett O’hara-like fashion. “Kabisado ko na. Favorite line ko kasi yun. Sinabi ko na din kasi sa sarili ko noon yun. Na darating ang panahon na hindi na kami maghihirap. If I have to claw my way up to the top, I will. By hook, by crook, of by fate I will get there. Titingala sila sa akin.”

Yuka had just gotten out of the shower, drying her hair with a towel, when her phone rang. Her heart suddenly skipped a beat when she saw Tate’s name on the screen. She wasted no time. Agad niyang dinampot iyon at sinagot ang tawag.

“Hey, buttercup.” She heard his voice on the other end of the line. It had only been this morning since they had last talked over the phone but having to wait for his call all day made it feel like eternity.

Nagpaalam naman si Tate sa kanya that he’s be too busy to call the whole day but he promised to remember to call her before he sleeps. Napapikit si Yuka at kinagat ang pang-ibabang labi. She was trying so hard not to let the squeal she had in her throat out of her mouth.

“Kumusta ang photoshoot mo?” Yuka asked. He had been doing shoots the whole day for an international sports brand he was endorsing. With his looks, Tate could be a professional model or a hollywood movie star if he wanted. Kaya nga suki ito ng mga endorsement ng iba’t-ibang brand.

“It went great! Everybody were wonderful.” He answered. “Ikaw? How was your day?”

“Okay naman. Alam mo bang nakasalubong ko si Yvo sa school kanina.” Kwento niya.

“Really?”

“Oo, he said he was working with this research group in our university. Tapos nagburger kami kanina, siya pa nga ang naghatid sa akin pauwi.” Yuka wanted Tate to know everything that had gone on with her day and what Yvo and her had talked about. She didn’t want to keep anything from him but she left the video part out, she couldn’t let him know yet. Paano kung magbago ang tingin sa kanya ng lalaki kapag nalamaan nito? She couldn’t afford to lose him.

“That’s great, buttercup. I won’t forget to thank Yvo for that.” She could hear the smile in his voice before he sighed. “I miss you.”

“I miss you, too.” She chewed on her bottom lip. She could feel the flutter in her chest against.

“You don’t know how crazy you make me, Yuka. You’re all I thought about the whole day.”

“Iniisip din kita. I’ve been thinking of you and the kiss.” She bit her bottom lip a little harder, anticipating what he would say next.

“Oh, Yuka, you’re going to kill me.” He muttered. “God, I want to ravish those lips again.”

She had dreamt of his kisses and touch. She had dreamt of him and woke up with a nagging ache between her legs. No man had ever made her feel like this. Not one of her exes had awaken this much desire in her. This much want. She couldn’t believe it when she’d realized that she had had her first wet dream. Until now, she had only heard about them and never thought she would have one herself.

“Oo naman. Sunduin mo ako after school.” She said, her lips tingling at the memories of his kiss. She could already imagine being in Tate’s arms again, having his lips against hers.

Chapter Seven

She was completely unaware of the pair of eyes that was watching her as she fixed her makeup. She had in one hand a compact mirror while her other hand was busy putting on red lipstick on her lips. Tate thought it was unecessary to do so as she was already beautiful without anything on her face but he couldn’t deny that her wild curls and her dark makeup had made her look sultry and alluring. Either way, he loved it. Yuka had on a black one shoulder top that ended just below her ribs and a pair of high-waisted skin hugging jeans that accenturated her figure well. She was a petite, her body lush and perfectly suited to her five-foot-two-inches frame. Tate had never had a penchant for petite women, he had always been attracted to women who he knew who could take him and his appetite in bed. She looked like he would break her in half.

“Hey. What’s a beautiful lady doing here alone?” He said as he pulled up in front of her.

Yuka almost dropped the compact mirror she was holding and her eyes widened when she saw the handsome man sitting inside a white Lykan Hypersport car. He had on a pair of Chopard sunglasses that disappointingly hid his beautiful eyes, the luxury sunglasses cost a fortune, but it was not worth hiding those intense eyes.

“Tate.” She swallowed back a squeal in her throat.

Cool ka lang, Yuka. She told herself even when butterflies were going haywire in her stomach, her heart, and her head. He was such a beautiful human being. He looked so unreal like a God who had descended onto the mortal world just to grace humankind with its presence. Plus he had a cool car.

Tate opened the door to the passenger’s seat and Yuka slipped in. She loved the car. She loved luxury and reveled in its trappings when available, she loved things that cost money.  A lot of money. It was a convenient reminder of one’s worth. If she surrounds herself with luxury, she thought, maybe she’d be worth something.

“Hindi ito ang kotseng gamit mo noon, akala ko kung sino na.” She chuckled.

“Different cars for different days.” He said, smiling and his eyes fixed on the road.

“Baka naman different cars for different babes.” Yuka arched a brow.

Napuno ng halakhak ni Tate ang buong kotse. “Do you really think that?”

“Alam ko naman ang reputation mo. Saka marami na akong nababasa na tell-all tale ng mga ex-fling mo tungkol sa’yo. It’s no secret, Tate.” She shrugged.

“I’m not going to say that it’s not true. I don’t make it a habit to lie. But believe me when I say you’re the only girl I’m seeing now.” He gazed at her to see her reaction before turning his eyes back to the road.

“Because I’m the flavor of the week?”

“No. Because I genuinely like you, buttercup.” He took her hand and brought it to his lips.

Yuka had her arms encircled around one of Tate’s as they walked into the restaurant. Even with her red 3-inch class A Valentino heels on, Yuka still looked tiny standing next to Tate who was more than a foot taller than her. Everybody’s head turned to look at them. Tate was an internationally known football star. Even though it was a fancy restaurant where people were ‘too important’ to even take a second look at local celebrities, people couldn’t keep their fascination with his captivating presence. It was like seeing a hollywood star.

Yuka was aware of the envious stares people, women in particular, were giving her. She couldn’t blame them. Aristotle St. Croix was every woman’s wet dream and more. She, herself, have had her fair share of wet dreams involving the NFL superstar. Hindi niya maiwasan na mapangiti dahil alam niyang mayron siyang isang bagay na pinapangarap lang ng mga babaeng nandoon. She had Tate’s full attention.

They were guided to their own private space in a VIP room, away from the prying eyes. It only highlighted how important of a person Tate was. A round table covered in beige table cloth and two chairs facing each other. There were candles set up on the table, fancy plates, and silverware too. Around them were flowers of different kinds. Lots of it that it almost filled the whole room. In one corner of the room were a trio playing piano, violin, and cello.

“Tate…” Mahinang sambit niya habang nakatayo at pinagmamasdan ang buong kwarto. Sa dami ng nanligaw, hindi pa niya naranasan ang ganito. “This is beautiful.”

Hinapit nito ang baywang niya mula sa likod. “Not as beautiful as you. Shall we?”

He guided Yuka to her seat, pulling a chair for her before sitting on the chair across hers.

“Hindi ko ineexpect ito, Tate.” Hindi pa rin makapaniwalang sabi ni Yuka. “Akala ko magdidinner lang tayo.”

“We are having dinner.” Tate chuckled.

“Pero hindi mo sinabing ganito kabongga. Sana nakapag-ayos man lang ako.”

“Well, I think you already look perfect.” He said, staring straight into her eyes that were shining in the candle light. Those pair of eyes had captivated him like no other woman had before. He was crazy about her, he wasn’t lying when he said to her that she was all he could think of.

Parang may paru-parong nagliliparan sa tiyan ni Yuka habang nakatitig sa kanya si Tate. She knew for a fact that she was beautiful but the way he looked at her made her feel like she was the most beautiful girl in the world. It was no secret that Tate had been with countless women, from local stars and supermodels, to hollywood celebrities. Yuka was none of those but still, here was Tate the Great persuing and wooing her.

“Bakit palagi mong ginagawa sa akin ’yan?” She asked.

“What?” He asked in low laughter.

“Ang galing mong magpakilig. Is this how you make women fall for you?”

Tumawa si Tate. “Is it working?”

“Almost.” Yuka pressed her lips together to keep her from smiling.

“Almost, huh?” Tumango-tango si Tate bago bumaba ang mata sa mapupula niyang labi. “That’s not what your lips said when you were kissing me.”

“Tate!” Yuka’s eyes widened and a giggle rose from her throat. “Ikaw, kung anu-ano iniisip mo.”

Oh, if they only they didn’t have three musicians and two waiters waiting on them here in the VIP room. He would’ve kissed those lips like he did on the hood of his car. He would love nothing more in this world right now but to taste those lips again, to explore the inside of her mouth with his tongue again and again. She was addictive.

“Don’t you think about it too?” He dared ask.

Napalunok si Yuka at sumeryoso ang mukha. She chewed on her bottom lip. “I… I do.”

“Don’t tease me like this, buttercup.” Tate muttered, his hand reaching up to touch her face. “Please, don’t do this to me.”

He was tempted to kiss her right there but he knew he wouldn’t be able to stop if he did. Her and her almond-eyes staring back at him were very inviting. The waiters came up to them pouring Chardonnay into their glasses and serving foie gras for appetizer. Bumalik sila sa realidad at hiniwalay ni Tate ang kamay mula sa mukha ni Yuka.

Yuka looked down at the food that were served to them.

She was impressed with how the food was presented. Inilabas niya ang phone niya at pinicturan ito para ipost sa social media account niya. Kinunan niya din ng picture ang kanyang date. Natuwa siya nang isipin niyang kaiingitan na naman siya ng mga kaibigan niya kapag nakita ng mga ito ang picture ni Tate at ang dinner date surprise na inihanda nito para sa kanya.

Lahat nang inihain sa kanilang pagkain ay alam niyang mamahalin. The best of the best. Nag-enjoy din siya sa presentation ng flaming baked alaska para sa dessert nila kung saan sinindihan ng waiter ang cake sa harap nila.

“Nakakahiya, nag crop top pa ako. Hindi ko alam na mabubusog ako ng ganito.” Natatawang sabi niya nang tumayo siya mula sa upuan niya.

Tate immediatly offered his arm to her. “Everyone knows a way to a woman’s heart is through her stomach.”

The butler opened the door for them and they walked out of the VIP room.

“Sobrang nag-enjoy ako, Tate. Thank you so much.” Sabi niya sa lalaki.

“I enjoyed it too as much as you did.” Sagot ng lalaki habang naglalakad sila palabas ng restaurant. “I wish this night would never end.”

Napabuntong-hininga na lang siya at hiniling din iyon. Parang nasa isang magandang panaginip siya habang kasama ang lalaki at ayaw niyang magising pa. He made her feel special like no man had before. She was in the company of one of the hottest man alive and he had surrounded her with the finer things in life. Sino ba naman babae ang gugustuhin bumalik pa sa realidad?

Tate and Yuka were finally alone in the car. Hindi napigilan ni Tate ang sarili niya nang  kabigin niya ang ulo ni Yuka. He had been wanting to do this. Yuka didn’t protest when Tate’s lips touched hers. She responded to his kiss, wrapping her arms around his neck. His tongue darted into her mouth and Yuka took him in. He was addicted to her taste and just needed to appease his addiction. 

“Tate…” Mahinang sambit ni Yuka.

Naghiwalay ang mga labi nila, parehong naghahabol ng hininga. Yuka was the first to pull away just like the first time they had kissed. He was glad she did so as he knew if they get too far, there’d be no turning back. He wouldn’t be able to stop himself and he didn’t want to take her in his car. 

Hinatid siya ni Tate sa bahay. Hindi din tumanggi si Tate nang ayain niya itong pumasok sa bahay at magkape. They had a little too much chardonnay and wine after all. And she didn’t want to part with him yet.

“Lola Mammy, Mamila Jodie, nandito na si Tita Yuka! May kasamang lalaki!” Narinig niyang sigaw ni Tintin kaaapak pa lang nila papasok ng bahay.

They walked in and saw the twins playing with their dolls by the window as if they were waiting for someone.

“Ano’ng ginagawa niyo d’yan? Ano’ng oras na.” Sabi niya sa dalawang pamangkin.

“We’re waiting for Mommy and Daddy.” Savi answered.

“Hi!” Tate gave the twins a friendly wave.

“Hello!” Savi waved back at him.

“Okay naman pala! Mukhang tao na!” Muling pumihit ang ulo ni Tintin at sumigaw.

“Tintin!” Pinandilatan niya ang malditang pamangkin. It was not as if she was bringing boys here all the time. Dalawang lalaki lang naman ang nakilala ng pamilya niya. The first was her ex who picked her up to go to the school ball and the second was her date, Peter, the one who took her to Bliss where she first met Tate at nagpumilit lang itong ihatid siya at pumasok sa bahay nila. They were of average looks, talagang pintasera lang ang pamangkin niya.

Pumasok naman sa salas ang Mammy niya kasunod ang Ninang niya. Their eyes immediately caught Tate as he stood behind her.

“Good evening po.” Magalang na bati niya sa mga ito.

“Good evening naman, hijo.” Sagot ni Sasha at naningkit ang mga mata niya na para bang may inaalala ito. “Ikaw yung anak ni Tanya, hindi ba?”

“Yes, ma’am.” Tumango ang lalaki. “Ako nga po pala si Tate.”

“Ay kaya pala magandang lalaki. May hawig ka din kay Tanya noong medyo bata pa siya.” Sabi ni Sasha sa lalaki. “Na-recruit ko yan si Tanya dati sa Japan. Tanong mo sa nanay mo. Naka-tsikahan ko pa nga yun noong kasal ni Saskia at Migs.”

“I will po when I talk to her.” Tate said.

“Saan naman kayo galing?” Tanong naman ni Jodie sa dalawa.

“We just had dinner at a restaurant. Hinatid ko lang po siya.” Si Tate.

“Nako, Yuka ha, siguraduhin niyo lang restaurant yang pinuntahan niyo. Unahin mo muna yang pag-aaral mo. Ito ngang si Migs susunduin lang daw si Saskia sa, ano’ng oras na wala pa rin ang dalawa. Kayo talagang magkapatid, buti na lang si Cosme puro libro lang ang inaatupag.” Sermon ni Jodie.

“When is Mommy and Daddy coming home?” Savi asked when she heard her parents’ name.

“Mommy and Daddy coming soon.” Sagot ni Sasha sa apo.

“Ano yun? Palabas sa sine?” Sabi naman ni Jodie.

Yuka just rolled her eyes. Sanay naman na siya sa bunganga ng Ninang Jodie niya. Daig pa nito ang Mammy nila kung sermonan silang magkakapatid. But she knew, deep down, her Ninang Jodie meant well. He had always just been protective of the siblings. In a way, he had become a father figure to them, even though he was more feminine than their mother. 

“Nandito na si Mommy at Daddy!” Nakadungaw sa bintana si Tintin at pinanonood ang kotse ng ama na umandar papasok.

“O, yan na pala sila Saskia. Mommy and Daddy now showing.” Ani Jodie.

Maya-maya pa ay pumasok na ang Kuya Migs niya at Ate niya. Their daughters ran up to them and greeted them with a hug. 

“Tate, what are you doing here?” Tanong ni Migs nang mahagip ng paningin niya ang lalaki. 

“Hinatid ko lang si Yuka.” He answered.

“Nag dinner kasi kami ni Tate kanina kaya yun.” She shrugged.

“Are you and Yuka dating?” Migs asked, his eyes shifting back and forth to Yuka and Tate.

Sandaling nagtitigan ang dalawa, not knowing how to answer the question. 

There was a short pause before Tate spoke. “Gusto ko sanang ligawan si Yuka, Kuya Migs.”

Yuka’s gasp was completely involuntary at natutop ng kamay niya ang kanyang bibig. Was she hearing the right things? Gusto siyang ligawan ng isang Aristotle St. Croix?

Tate had no idea how courtship worked. He had always had it easy since hitting puberty. Women were more than willing to be at his disposal. Sure, he had wooed women in the past but never court them in its truest sense. Or at least in the Filipino standard. He never even got as far as this, as meeting a woman’s family.

The news spread fast, and along with it, pictures of Tate and Yuka together in the restaurant. It had been the latest and the hottest gossip in the internet. Desperate women who thought they stood a chance had dedicated their time to witch hunt Tate’s mystery date. Within just a couple of minutes and not a whole lot of digging, nalaman nila ang identity ng date nito. They had been lead to Yuka’s instagram account. 

It was not of Yvo’s nature to be interested in gossips, even if it had something to do with any of his friends. If they wanted him to know, he thought, they would tell him. If they don’t tell him then it was none of his business. He had more important things to worry about than some petty gossips of someone else’s life. He was trying to come up with drugs that would one day save thousands or even millions of people. Why fill his head with less important things?

But he couldn’t help overhearing what the students were talking about on his way to the lab. He had clearly heard the words Tate, Yuka, and dating. 

“Girl, I can’t believe si Yuka ang dinedate ngayon ni Tate. Bakit siya?” He heard one woman said. “Nakita mo yung picture nila na naghahalikan sa kotse?” 

“Yes, I saw it!” The other woman rolled her eyes. “I can’t believe it nga! Hindi naman ganon kaganda si Yuka. Mas maganda pa ang Yaya ko. Tate could do better than her.”

“True.” Tumawa ang naunang babae. “It’s one of those ‘dinaig ng malandi ang maganda’ moment again. Everybody knows Yuka has a reputation of being easy, kaya nga maraming nanliligaw diyan kasi alam nilang madali siyang makuha. Just ask Janno.”

He didn’t hear the rest of the conversation as he had to turn and he had heard enough, anyway. The words that came out of those women’s mouth were vile. He just had to shake his head. He admits that he hadn’t always thought good of Yuka but it was not out of mean-spiritedness. He was just concerned for his bestfriend. What the girls said may all be possibly true but what wasn’t was what they said about her not being beautiful. Anyone with an eye could see that Yuka was a beauty. 

Out of curiosity, hindi niya napigilan ang sarili niyang ilabas ang phone at hanapin ang article tungkol kay Yuka at Tate. There were pictures of Yuka and Tate going into a fancy restaurant and walking out of it, pictures of Tate opening the car door for Yuka, and them sharing a passionate kiss in the car.

Chapter Eight

All eyes seemed to have followed her the moment she walked into the campus. Yuka held her chin up and wore a proud smile, striding with confidence as she always did. But this time with even more confidence. She knew why there were looking. She had gained almost 200,000 more followers on instagram since her pictures with Tate had made rounds in the internet. His fame had been rubbing off on her and she was thriving on the attention she was getting.

“Yuka!” Jen waved at her as she neared her locker. Her three bestfriends already standing in front of theirs.

“OMG! You’re all over the internet!” Tili ni Bella nang lumapit siya sa mga ito.

Binuksan ni Yuka ang locker niya with a smile permanently etched on her lips as she was sorting through her locker, trying to find the book needed for her first class.

“Magkwento ka naman tungkol sa date niyo ni Tate. Tell us what happened!” Jen excitedly said.

After finding the book she was looking for, Yuka closed her locker and hugged her book as her back leaned against the locker. “It was amaaaazing! Feeling ako si Cinderella at siya ang Prince Charming ko!”

“So, did you get us the VIP pass?” Umarko ang kilay ni Tracy.

“Oh, we haven’t had the chance to talk about it.” She bit her bottom lip. “I was overwhelmed with his surprise. Alam niyo bang may live instrumental music pa siyang inihanda sa VIP room kung saan kami kumain. Everything was just so magical.”

“So, how was he in bed?” Bella giggled. “Was he good? Rate him on a scale one to ten. Did he surpass Paul’s eleven?”

Yuka let out a secretive smile. “Well…”

The two’s eyes widened as they waited for her answer. Rating men they had slept with wasn’t something that was out of ordinary. The Paul they were talking about was a foreign exchange student, the son of a Minister of State in France, Yuka had dated for a week of his one month stay before he had to go back to his home land. It was a short fling and he still follows her on instagram, comments on her pictures every now and then, but she hadn’t said so much as hi and hello to him. She knew it wouldn’t work out anyway and by time he had flown back to France, she had started seeing another guy.

“Well?” Jen pressed on.

“He was the best kisser ever!” Yuka said with a secretive smile. “That’s all I’m willing to share for now.”

“OMG, Yuka! Come on! I-share mo na sa amin!” Bella shook her shoulders.

Yuka just giggled.

“Was he big?”

Yuka motioned zipping her lips.

“Oh, please! He just wants to bed you and now he got what he wanted. Yung mga katulad ni Tate, hindi marunong magseryoso. He has a handful of women at his feet. You should’ve asked for our VIP pass before you slept with him.” Tracy sighed with a hint of irritation.

“Excuse me, nililigawan na ako ni Tate in the most old-fashioned way.” Inirapan niya si Tracy. She was the only one, out of the group of friends, who had the guts to stand up to Tracy. None of the girls would be surprised if one day she overthrows the woman from being the leader in their small group.

“Nililigawan ka na ni Tate?!” Halos magkasabay na tili ni Bella at Jen.

“Yes. He even asked my Mom and Ate if he could court me.” Pagmamayabang niya before throwing a sideway glance at Tracy. “Kung hindi pa siya seryoso sa akin niyan, ewan ko na lang.”

“Oh my gosh! You’re so lucky, girl.” Bella squealed.

“Well, I better go now. My class is starting already. See you at lunch.” Sabi niya bago nagbeso sa kanyang mga kaibigan.

“Please, make more kwento. Share to us kahit yung size lang.” Humagikgik si Jen.

Yuka started walking to her class with a huge smile. Nothing could ever ruin her mood today. Nililigawan na siya ni Tate. Nililigawan na siya ng isang NFL superstar who had hundreds of millions to his name.  Seryoso na sa kanya ang lalaki dahil nagpaalam na ito sa Mammy at Ate niya. None of her past boyfriends had ever done that. Para pa rin siyang nakalutang sa langit at kahit sa klase ay hindi niya maiwasan na balik-balikan ang mga sandaling kasama niya si Tate. The fancy candlelit dinner and the kiss they shared together, the way her tongue felt inside her mouth, the way he explored her mouth like no other man had… it just felt so surreal and she couldn’t believe it was happening to her. She could barely focus in class as her mind was still in that moment.

Halos walang pumasok sa isip niya sa dalawang klaseng pinasukan niya. She had filled the back of her notebook with Tate’s name; Aristotle St. Croix, Tate, Mrs. Yuka St. Croix, she had even gone as far as to think of the name for their future children. She was like a teenager who had fallen in love for the very first time.

Lunch time came and she went to their usual spot in the cafeteria. The girls were already in their seats, having lunch and probably gossiping. Lumapit siya sa mga ito but had to stop mid-step when she heard her sister’s name.

“She’s lucky we let her be friends with us. I heard Saskia, her sister, was an escort before she met her billionaire husband.” Narinig niyang sabi ni Tracy.

“I know, right? Who does she think she is?” Bella’s face contorted into an annoyed grimace.

“Akala niya she’s all that. If Tate had only seen you first I’m sure hindi niya naman mapapansin si Yuka.” Jen said.

“Tell me about it. She should go back to the garbage she belongs in. Mga lahi naman sila ng mga prostitutes and the apple doesn’t fall too far from the tree. She was trained to whore herself. Maswerte lang talaga siya at nakapang-asawa ang ate ng mayaman. Feeling tuloy niya ka-level niya na tayo. Poor her.” Tracy spitefully said.

“Oo nga. She’s so annoying! She acts as if she was born rich. Eh sa squatter lang naman siya nanggaling.” Sabi ni Bella.

“Napaka-trying hard niya to fit in with us. Like, girl, you’re not one of us.” Si Jen.

“If only Tate knew what he’s getting himself into. I could easily snatch him from that blowjob queen, you’ll see. My mouth knows more moves.” Tracy said with confidence.

The three laughed as if it was the funniest thing on earth. Tracy’s betrayal surprisingly wasn’t a shock to her. Somehow, she knew Tracy was the type to throw a person under a moving bus if it would benefit her. But Jen and Bella? This was not something she had expected from them. They had been friends for over a year now and most times, she felt as though the two girls favor her more now than Tracy. If they had to choose between hanging out with Tracy or her, they would definitely choose her. There had always been a silent heirachy battle between her and Tracy that she knew she was slowly winning. She thought she had won over Tracy’s two mindless followers who would jump off a building if Queen Tracy commands them to do so. But alas, their loyalty was still with her. Yuka had to remember that the two was as mindless as a trained monkey. They needed someone to control them, to tell them what to do, to boss them around to be able to function slightly above the level of the mentally challenged. They hated Tracy as much as Yuka did but they also knew they needed her, they would rather die than lose their IT girl status.

She could feel the white heat forming from her chest to her head, her hands clenching and unclenching at her sides. They were talking shit about her family. Lahat ng masasakit na salita kaya niyang tanggapin pero hindi ang tungkol sa pamilya niya. Huwag na huwag lang nilang madamay ang pamilya niya. They had made a very wrong move.

“You bitch!” She grabbed a fist full of Tracy’s blonde-dyed hair and slammed her face down her lasagna filled plate. “Sa susunod na may sabihin kayong masama tungkol sa pamilya ko, you better say it to my face! Say it to my fucking face!”

Jen and Bella did nothing but scream as she held down Tracy’s face to her plate, her arms flailing like a chicken trying to fly. They were too shocked and scared to intervene.

“He–lp–” Tracy cried out everytime she tries to get a gasp of air. “me!”

She felt a pair of strong hands wrapping around her. Nabitawan niya ang pagkakahawak kay Tracy nang hatakin siya nito palayo. In a fit of anger, she tried to hurt whoever it was who was holding her. Finally, nakaangat na ang ulo ni Tracy which was now covered with tomato sauce and mozarella cheese.

Yuka turned to see the person who was holding her. His chiseled jaw was the first thing she saw and then the man looked down to her. It was Yvo.

“Bitawan mo ako!” Tagis-bagang na sabi niya.

“No.” He firmly told her. “Get a hold of yourself.”

“You daughter of a whore! Pati ang ugali mong squatter dinadala mo dito!” Tracy screamed as she wiped the sauce off her face.

“You think you’re better than me? Your parents are worst! Kumusta naman ang tatay mong na-impeach at nakulong dahil sa pagnanakaw sa probinsya niyo? Magnanakaw ang tatay mo! Magnanakaw ng bayan!” Yuka screamed back at her as Yvo tried to drag her away.

“Fuck you! Hindi pa tayo tapos, you whore!” Binato ni Tracy ang plato kay Yuka. “Go back to sucking the basketball team’s dicks!”

The plate ended up landing on Yvo’s face. Yvo could only wince as the plate hit his face while he was trying to keep hold of the feral little kitten he had in his arm. Hindi nagpaawat si Yuka. She wanted to give Tracy a piece of her. Just a piece of her and she’d die happy. At that moment, she wanted nothing more in the world than to punch her in the throat. Sinubukan niyang kumawala, she desperately wanted to get out of his hold that she had punched and kicked and tried to bite her way out.

When Yvo have had enough, he slung her tiny, petite body on to his shoulder, rendering her powerless. Nilabas niya ito sa cafeteria habang sinusundan sila ng tingin ng mga taong naroroon.

“Baba mo na ako. Ano ba?” Inis na sabi niya nang makalayo sila.

“Mangako ka muna sa akin na kakalma ka.” He said.

“Oo na nga! Ang kulit mo!” Nakasimangot sa sabi niya at ibinaba siya ng lalaki.

Ibinaba siya ni Yvo mula sa balikat nito. Huminga ng malalim si Yuka as she got to her feet. She was still shaking from anger but she had calmed down now. She tilted her head up to look at the tall man standing in front of her, his face and half of the blue cotton button down shirt where the plated had slid were drenched with lasagna sauce.

Tinanggal nito ang salamin niya, ang isang lense ay natakpan na din ng sauce.

“You broke my glasses again. Pangalawang beses na ’to.” Sabi nito nang punasan ang salamin at may nakitang crack. “Bakit ba ang hilig mong makipag-away? Can’t you stay away from trouble for more than a week?”

“Eh ikaw? Bakit ang hilig mong mag-feeling Superman?” A small laughter rose from her throat.

“Why do I happen to be there whenever you get in trouble?” He let out a frustrated sigh.

Kinuha ni Yuka ang handkerchief mula sa bulsa niya at pinunasan ang mukha ni Yvo. “Tanggalin mo nga yang sauce sa mukha mo. Mamaya makain mo yan at mahawa ka pa sa rabies ni Tracy.”

“I need to change my shirt. I don’t want to smell like lasagna all day.” Naiiling na sabi ni Yvo. He began to walk and Yuka followed behind her. He furrowed his brow when he had finally noticed what she was doing. “Why are you following me?”

“Hihintayin kitang magpalit. Kain tayo, nagugutom na ako.” Sabi ni Yuka and then she playfully slapped him on the arm. “Hoy! Libre mo na ’to. Nakailang libre na ako sa’yo.”

What comes out of this woman’s mouth surprises him to no end. He  began walking again to his temporary office. It was small but it didn’t matter to him. He spends most of his time with his research group at the lab anyway. He was never demanding but wherever he goes or wherever he needs to work, he requires to have a place of his own. A place where he could enjoy his solitude and just think. Just a little place to himself. Once they start testing the medicines they were researching and developing, he’d be back in his comfy office.

“Nice. May sarili kang office.” Umikot ang paningin ni Yuka sa maliit na kwarto. “Siguro malaki sweldo mo.”

Little did she know, he was the one paying those researchers and engineers their salary. Yvo started to unbutton his sauce-drenched shirt. Yuka’s eyes lifted up to him and she paused for awhile, watching him take off his shirt. His body was tight and muscular, hardly an inch of fat on him.

“Yabang, may abs! You working out a lot, huh?” She asked.

Yvo shrugged. “When I have free time.”

Kumuha si Yvo mula sa isang cabinet ng isang puting t-shirt at pumasok sa isa pang pinto leading to his bathroom. Yuka waited outside, letting her eyes wander around the small room. It had a desk, a swivel chair behind it and right in front of the table were two other chairs facing each other. May puting lab coat na naka-hang sa likod ng pintuan.

Dr. Yvo Zamora. Iyon ang nakalagay sa name tag na nasa lab coat. Nanlaki ang mga mata ni Yuka at napaawang ang mga labi. All along, he was a doctor. Lumabas si Yvo mula sa banyo and his immaculately groomed hair was now carelessly styled after he had washed his head as some sauce came in contact with his hair. He lost the uppity I’m-too-serious-to-have-fun look he used to have as he was now clothed in a simple white tee. He looked hotter now. It was surprising how such small details could change a person’s look.

“Dr. Yvo Zamora?!” Yuka shrieked. “Sino ka ba talaga? Bartender Yvo, Janitor Yvo, Researcher Yvo, or stalker Yvo? Will the real Yvo stand up?”

“I am a biomedical scientist.” He answered and shrugged. “Does it even matter?”

“Hello! Ilang beses na tayong nagkakasama, hindi mo man lang binanggit sa akin na doctor ka pala.” She rolled her eyes at him.

Since it was Yvo’s treat this time, nag-aya siya sa isang coffee shop. After taking their orders, they sat at one of the tables and ate their lunch. Yuka ordered an iced mocha and a sandwich while Yvo had a cup of hot coffee and salad.

“So, Dr. Zamora…” Umarko ang kilay ni Yuka. “What do you do?”

“I research.” He answered as he scooped the leafy greens to his mouth. “I research, formulate, and test drugs.”

Yukas’s eyes widened and then she leaned over and asked in a whisper. “Drugs? Mga shabu, ganon?”

“No. Drugs such as new medicines and vaccines.” He answered in a small chuckle.

“Oh.” Tumango-tango si Yuka. “Galing mo naman pala. Siguro matalino ka.”

Yvo answered with a shrug. He was smart even at a young age. His Nanay told him that he had already learned how to read at age three, write at four, and was already reading lengthy books at six years old. He had his mother’s smarts his tatay would always say to him.

“Sabagay na sa itsura mo naman talaga.” Yuka said as she stared at him. “You look like a no-nonsense type of guy.”

He cleared his throat, feeling uncomfortable with the way she was staring at him. “Ano na naman ang dahilan ng pakikipg-away mo kanina?”

“Ang plastik kasi ng Tracy na yun, her and her two airhead worshipers.” She rolled her eyes, sipping from her drink. “Kung anu-anong sinasabi sa likod ko. I wanted to punch her in the face. Bakit mo kasi ako pinigilan?”

“It’s not worth it.”

“It is! Masapak ko lang ang babaeng yun, mamatay na kong masaya. Just one punch, Yvo! But then sa kapal ng makeup niya baka di umubra, her makeup was as thick as a bullet proof vest. Nakita mo na bang walang makeup ang Tracy na yun? I swear she looks like an alien. I promise. Walang halong exaggeration.”

Yvo just let out a low chuckle and shook his head.

Yuka’s face began to contort into a sad expression. Her insecurities about herself and where she came from began to sink into her again. “She said I don’t belong with them kasi galing daw ako sa squatter. Kasi nakapang-asawa lang ang ate ko ng mayaman.”

“They’re right, you don’t belong with them. You can dress yourself up like them, talk like them, walk like them but you’re not like them. Admit it.” Sabi ni Yvo.

Her eyes lifted up to him. She wanted to be like them. She had done everything to try to fit in with them but was it all in vain? She had swore to herself that for as long as she lived, she would never let anyone belittle her again like the people in her past, like her own father had done. 

“Bawiin mo yan.” She demanded in a low but firm voice. 

Yvo shook his head. “You’re not like them, Yuka. You can put on your mask for as long as you want to try impress everyone around you and to protect yourself from anyone above you but at the end of the day, you’re still you. It’s a sad life, you know, having to live with the cold, hard fact that nobody really knows you.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Feeling slightly uncomfortable with the way he was looking at her, her eyes lowered. It was as if he was undressing her, not in a perverted way she was used to being stared at by men. He was uncovering a very vulnerable part of her. She had worn her mask for so long, it was difficult to remove it.

He had taken her back to the campus after they finished their lunch. He decided to walk her to her next class dahil dadaan din naman siya doon papunta sa lab.

“You and Tate are already dating.” It was not a question. It was a statement that wanted conformation. He knew it was none of his business but he just couldn’t help himself.

“Wow! Updated ka sa akin, ah.” Yuka grinned.

“I just happened to come across it in the internet.” Yvo said, matter-of-factly.

“Nililigawan niya na ako.” Yuka bit her lower lip as she remembered the kiss they had. “I still can’t believe it. Si Aristotle St. Croix nililigawan na ako. Parang panaginip pa rin sa akin.”

“Tate’s a good man.” Yvo said with a faint smile. “I hope it works out for both of you.”

“Oo naman! Bagay na bagay kaya kami.” Sabi ni Yuka. “Hindi ba sabi mo nagfoformulate ka ng mga gamot?”

“Yes, I did say that. Why?” Yvo arched a brow.

“Posible bang maka-imbento ka ng gamot that will make people fall head over heels in love with you? Parang gayuma, ganon?” She asked.

“Why do you ask?”

“Wala lang. Curious lang ako.”

“There had been drugs invented in the past that can alter important brain areas such as thoughts and emotions. SSRIs, antidepressants, MDMA, LSD, hallucinogens, opium and a lot more. I don’t see why a love potion is impossible, unethical to chemically manipulate someone but possible. Love doesn’t come from fairy dust.”

“Paano pag true love?” Yuka said.

“It’s all just chemicals and neurons reacting to each other.”

“So, hindi ka naniniwala sa true love? Chemicals lang din yun?”

“Are you telling me that I don’t believe in cars because I believe it’s made up of atoms?” Yvo arched his brow. 

“No, I’m saying para mo na rin sinabi na hindi ko minahal ex mo because it’s just chemicals.” She rolled her eyes. “Love is love. And what Tate and I feel for each other, feeling ko true love na yun. I really think he is my one true love.”

“You believe what you want to believe but when you have a better understanding of how the chemicals in your mind works, you have a chance of controlling it and not letting it get the best of you.” He said. 

They finally came into a halt in front of the door to Yuka’s next class.

“Dr. Zamora, it was nice talking with you.” Yuka said, cheekily and bumped her arm into his. “Bukas ulit, ah.”

“What?” Kumunot ang noo ni Yvo.

“Bukas ulit mag-lunch tayo. Wala na akong kasabay kumain, eh.” She said. “Sige na, papasok na ako. Super late na ko, naglelecture na yung prof.”

She threw him a flying kiss before opening the door and going in.

Chapter Nine

“Hi!” Yuka jumped in front of him as he stepped out of the research lab. She was wearing her usual cheeky smile, the one that makes her eyes disappear behind her rosy cheeks. There was something endearing about her smile, it was like that of a child that was about to do a trick or tell you a joke. “Kanina pa kita hinihintay. Nagtanong ako sa office nandito ka daw sa lab.”

Yvo adjusted his glasses on the bridge of his nose. “Why are you looking for me?”

“Syempre, magsasabay tayong mag-lunch. Nakalimutan mo na ba? Duh!” Yuka made a face at him and then her eyes scanned from his head down to his toe. He was still in his immaculately white lab coat and she couldn’t deny the fact that he looked stunning in it. He had an air of dignity around him that demanded respect and submission. “Mukha kang kagalang-galang, Dr. Zamora. “

She said Dr. Zamora in a rather teasing way. He was indeed a highly respected in his field of expertise. At such young age, barely in his thirties, nakagawa na siya ng pangalan para sa sarili niya. He had started his own pharmaceutical company and two years after its operation, it had already been valued at more than a billion and a half US dollars.

“Saan tayo kakain?” She asked.

Yvo shrugged. He had no one to eat with anyway. “Wherever  you want to eat.”

Dinala ni Yuka si Yvo sa isang kilalang kainan ng mga estudyante malapit sa school.

“Huwag kang mag-alala libre ko na ’to ngayon. Kakabigay lang sa akin ni Kuya Migs ng allowance.” Nakngiting sabi ni Yuka nang dumating na ang inorder nilang pagkain.

“Thanks.” He simply said as Yuka put down his plate in front of him.

“Sa susunod KKB na, ha.” She said as she sat on the chair right across from his at nagsimula na silang kumain.

“Sabi nila ang matatalino daw, bobo sa pag-ibig. Hindi ba matalino ka? Totoo ba yun?” Tanong ni Yuka sa lalaki.

“I think it really just depends on the person.” Kibit-balikat na sagot nito.

“Ano ba yan? Ang boring palagi ng mga sagot mo.” She crinkled her nose, slightly annoyed. “I’m trying to start a conversation here. Mag-share ka naman, ako na lang palagi ang nagshashare. Parang ang sobrang one-sided naman nitong friendship natin.”

“Fine. What do you want to know?” He asked, putting his fork down as showing that he was giving her his full attention. “Ask me anything, sasagutin ko.”

“Hmm…” Sandaling nag-isip si Yuka and an impish grin broke across her face. “Sino ang mas maganda? Ako o ex mo?”

“That is subjective.” He answered.

“Ano’ng subjective? Sasabihin mo lang kung sino sa amin ang maganda.”

“Maaring sa mata ng iba mas maganda ka at sa iba naman mas maganda si Krista.” He answered.

“Ah, Krista pala ang pangalan ni ex.” Tumango-tango si Yuka. “Eh para sa’yo, sino mas maganda? Ako o si Krista?”

Yvo scanned her face. She smiled and batted her lashes to him. Yuka had a beautiful face, he wouldn’t deny it. Hers and Krista were two different beauties, they were almost complete opposites of each other. Yuka had a fair, milky complexion whilst Krista was a natural morena. Yuka was very much oriental-looking and Krista had hispanic features.

“I’m not going to answer that.” Yvo chuckled, shaking his head.

“Eh di ibig sabihin niyan may feelings ka pa rin para sa kanya.” Yuka’s small eyes got even smaller as they narrowed at him. “Kasi kung hindi, kayang-kaya mong sabihin ngayon na hindi maganda si Krista.”

“I’m sorry, hindi ako sinungaling.” Sagot ni Yvo. “Krista is beautiful.”

Yuka cocked a brow. “Patingin nga. May picture ka ba ni Krista sa phone mo.”

Yvo still had pictures of him and Krista in his phone. It had only been what? Three months ago since they broke up. He couldn’t erase memories of her in just a snap of a finger. He couldn’t even if he wanted.

“Dali. Patingin!” Kulit sa kanya ni Yuka.

He exhaled and took out his phone then he showed Yuka some pictures of his ex. Yuka took his phone from his hand and took a good look at his ex. It was a stolen picture of Krista as she was sipping coffee and it seemed to have been taken in another country base sa panlamig na suot nito at sa surroundings. She swiped left to view another photo and it was of her kissing Yvo on the cheek as snow fell upon them.

“Maganda naman talaga pala.” Yuka nodded her head as she looked through more photos. The woman was beautiful, Yuka wouldn’t deny it. She was the girl-next-door type of beauty, pretty but not overwhelmingly so. Not the kind of pretty you’d see in magazines but the kind that men secretly crushes on. Yvo was handsome and smart and with his looks alone, he could date a supermodel if he wanted but this girl, she thought in a short span of knowing him, was very fitting to his personality. It was very Yvo. “Pero mas maganda ako.”

He could see clearly that modesty was not her strongest suit. It would not be fair to compare the two, it would be akin to comparing apples to oranges. Even their personalities were polar opposites, he thought the only thing they probably have in common was that they were both women.

“Di ba?” Umangat ang tingin sa kanya ni Yuka at nalukot ang mukha nito. “Break na naman kayo, um-oo ka na!” 

“Sure. Sabi mo, eh.” He shrugged, trying not to smile.

“Pero seryoso, bakit kayo nagbreak?”

“A lot of different reasons but mostly because of distance. Naging abala din kami sa buhay namin. Gusto niyang kunin ko ang trabaho sa ibang bansa kung saan siya nag-aaral para magsama na kami but I can’t live all my works behind. We decided we couldn’t make it work anymore so we broke up.”

“Sus! Baka naman nakahanap na yun ng boylet sa ibang bansa at excuse niya lang iyon. For sure, may chinochorva na yun ibang lalaki.”

“Chorva?” Yvo cocked a brow.

“Oo, chorva. Alam mo sabi nila kung sino pa yung mga mukhang mahihihinhin sila pa yung mga nasa loob ang kulo. Parang ikaw, I wouldn’t be surprised if I find out you’re into BDSM o di kaya may foot fetish ka. Masyado ka kasing… normal, for sure may saltik ka din. Lahat naman ng tao meron, yung iba patago lang.” Her mouth ran off in between chewing and swallowing.

“I’m not into any of those.” Tanggi ni Yvo. “At saka disenteng babae si Krista. Please stop saying those things about her.”

“Uy, affected pa din si kuya. Mahal mo pa rin?”

“We’re still friends. Maayos ang naging paghihiwalay namin and we still communicate with each other. Ayaw kong pag-isipan siya ng masama.”

“Eh paano naman kung makipagbalikan sa’yo si Krista?”

“I don’t know.” He shrugged his shoulders.

“So may feelings ka pa rin para sa kanya?”

“Well just like energy, I guess feelings can not be created nor destroyed it can only be transferred from one form to another.”

“Ano ba yan? Oo lang o hindi.” She rolled her eyes at him. “Kaya kayo nagbebreak ng jowa mo, eh.”

He just chuckled, shaking his head. “I really don’t know. Can we just leave it at that? Let’s talk about something else. Kumusta na kayo ni Tate?”

Nag-iba ang ningning sa mga mata ng babae nang marinig ang pangalan ng kaibigan niya. “Okay naman kami. Still going strong. Kahit na busy siya sa mga projects niya, hindi siya nakakalimot tumawag sa akin bago matulog. I always wait for his call, hindi na nga ako makatulog hangga’t hindi naririnig ang boses niya. Pag kinasal kami, hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan na imbitahan ka, promise.”

The longer he stayed with her, the more he realized how fascinating she was. She was without filter. She’d say whatever was her mind but that was a part of her charm. He understood now what had made Tate fall in love with her and he knew Yuka was genuinely attracted to his friend. They liked each other and that was all that matter. Yuka was not as bad as he thought she was. Perhaps her views were selfish and greedy for the most part but she doesn’t actually want to hurt anyone. Was it bad that she just wanted to make her life easier?

“Yung sabi mo noong nakaraang araw na walang nakakakilala sa totoong ako…” She said as he was walking her to her class again just as he did before.

Yvo looked at her, his brows rising waiting for her to say more. “Yeah? What about that?”

“Well, you do know me.” She smiled and then her smile turned into a small laughter. “It’s good to have someone to be myself with. Nakakapagod din palang makisama sa mga alta minsan, at least tayo halos magka-level lang tayo.”

Yvo could only laugh silently with her. Oh, if only she knew that he had more money than all of her ‘alta’ friends combined but he had no desire to tell her that. “Why can’t you just be yourself?”

“BS.” She said. Being told to be yourself was the biggest lie ever told to her. Be yourself and you’d accepted. What a load crap. It’s like an invitation to the circling of the wolves where you’d be the center prey. “Di ba nga sa science may tinatawag na evolution? Dapat alam mo yan, Doc. Scientist ka, di ba? Kakalecture lang sa amin ng prof namin yan. If the world around you is evolving, you must evolve with it.”

He was having a deeper understanding of her now and how she thinks. She may be right about that. Charles Darwin once said it is not the strongest or the most intelligent of the species that survives but the ones most responsive to change.

“Paano ba yan, Doc? See you again, ha.” She smiled, her eyes disappearing yet again.

Yvo nodded his head.

“Yuka.” Pinihit ni Yuka ang sendura ng pinto at bago makapasok sa classroom ay napahinto siya ng marinig ang pagtawag ni Yvo sa kanya.

Humarap siya sa lalaki. “Bakit?”

“I… I really had a nice time hanging out with you. Thank you!” He said, massaging the back of his neck.

“Nako, Doc, ha wag kang mahuhulog sa akin. May Tate na ako.” She giggled.

“Oh, no!” Agad na umiling si Yvo.

Tumawa lang si Yuka. “Ito naman, nagbibiro lang ako. Sige na, Doc.”

Yuka smiled when she saw Tate pulling up in front of her in a blue top down Hennessey Venom car. It was another one of his exotic cars. Yuka could only imagine how beautiful his garage must be with supercars of different colors lined up next to each other. Her Kuya Migs owned six cars, all luxurious and expensive but he never had one as exotic as Tate’s. But then Migs was a simple man with simple wants and needs. Wala naman pakialam iyon sa mga ganong bagay.

Tate got out of his car and walked up to her.

“Tate…” She said his name almost breathlessly. It was awfully ridiculous how starstrucked she still was with his presence when they had gone out a couple of times before.

“Hey…” Nakangiting sabi nito sa kanya habang nakatitig sa mukha niya. Inipit ni Tate ang baba niya sa pagitan ng dalawang daliri and he tilted her head up so that she could look at him.

“Yuka.” Nahiwalay ang tingin nila sa isa’t-isa nang marinig ang boses ng isang lalaki. They turned their heads to see a group of basketball players walking toward them, the group still in their basketball uniforms. Nagtama ang mga mata nila ni Janno at umangat ang isang sulok ng labi nito nang mapako ang tingin kay Tate. “Pakilala mo naman kami diyan sa kasama mo. Narinig ko boyfriend mo na daw yan.”

“Tigilan mo na ako, Janno.” Yuka rolled her eyes.

Janno and his friends stopped a few steps away from them. Sensing something was off with the group, Tate protectively put his arm around the small of her back.

“What do you want?” Tate’s jaw clenched.

“Wala naman, p’re. Gusto ko lang kumustahin ang ex ko.” He said with a chuckle. “Talaga palang nakadali ka ng big shot, Yuka. Kaya pala ayaw mo ng makipagbalikan sa akin.”

“Ex ka lang pala. What goes on with Yuka’s life now is none of your business.” Mariin na sabi ni Tate.

“Hey, between just you and me, masarap ba ang tira-tira ko?” He asked Tate with a smug smile. Tumawa naman ang mga kasamahan nito.

“Napakabastos mo talaga!” Yuka started hitting him with her bag.

Humigpit ang hawak ni Tate sa kanya. He wouldn’t want Yuka’s soft skin to graze even slightest against this scumbag’s.

“Para ka naman hindi lalaki niyan. Don’t you know how to respect a woman?” Tate tried to remain cool but he could feel fury rising up from his chest throughout his whole body. He placed his body in front of Yuka as if to shield her, easily towering over the six foot tall basketball player.

“Pare, gusto mong makita kung gaano ako kalalaki? Ano bang email mo, I can send you our video-” Before he could even finish his sentence, Tate had already held him by his shirt. Even though Janno was a big man he had managed to lift him off a few centimeters off the ground. Tate was a quarterback, years of strict training had given his arms the strength of ten. He could throw a ball for both distance and with a serious amount of velocity.

“Pinagsawaan ko na yan, gusto mo pa rin?” Even though Tate was practically choking him, hindi tumigil ang lalaki at tumawa pa ito na parang nang-aasar. His friends had closed in around them but they were unsure whether to intervene or let the exchange continue.

“Gago ka pala eh!” And that did it. Tate had lost every ounce of control he had left in his body. He threw the man to the ground and punched him, everyone heard the crack when his fists hit Janno’s nose. Agad tumalima ang mga kasama ng lalaki at hinawakan si Tate sa magkabilang braso. Janno, trying to save face, forced himself up even though he was in great pain and punched Tate back.

Tate had been punched and kicked several times by Janno and his friends before he was able to pry free. Nagtitili naman si Yuka at naagaw nito ang atensyon ng mga pulis sa di kalayuan na agad naman silang dinaluhan. The police tried to break the fight free.

“May naloloko ka na naman na lalaki, Yuka. Parang noong nakaraang linggo lang ibang lalaki ang nagtanggol sa’yo. You’re no damsel.” Janno let out a laughter, the cartilage in his nose bent to one side, broken and bloodied. “He’ll know how much of a slut you are. Everyone will.”

“Huwag mo nang pansinin.” Yuka hugged Tate nang akmang susugurin ulit ang lalaki.

“Have some respect, asshole! Sa susunod na bastusin mo pa si Yuka, papatayin na kita!” She could see veins popping out of his neck as he shouted.

Natatakot si Yuka na mapagtulungan ng mga lalaki si Tate kaya hindi niya ito binitawan. Tinulak niya papasok si Tate sa kotse nito at nagmamadaling sumakay sa passenger’s seat. She asked her to start driving at sumunod naman sa kanya ang lalaki.

Nakapako ang mga mata ni Tate sa kalsada habang nagmamaneho at nakatingin naman si Yuka sa lalaki. There were bruises and cuts on his handsome face. Hinawakan ni Yuka ang mukha ng lalaki and then he flinched from pain.

“I’m sorry…” Mahinang sabi niya bago ipinulupot ang bisig sa lalaki. Then she buried her face into her neck. “I’m so sorry, Tate.”

Tate kissed the top of her head. “It’s not your fault.”

“Tate, huwag kang maniwala sa mga sinasabi niya. Gusto niya lang makipagbalikan sa akin-”

“Shh… I don’t care. Screw them! I don’t care what he or anybody says about you, Yuka. I don’t care what had happened in your past. All that matters to me is now, us.” He gently said.

It didn’t matter to Tate if they were true or not. He was not the type who obsesses about his lover’s past. He didn’t care so long as he it had nothing to do with the present they had with him. If it didn’t bother them that he has had sexual encounters with different women from all over the globe, why would he be bothered by a woman’s past? To him, sex was just sex. Sometimes it’s an act of love, sometimes an act of lust. Nevertheless, it’s a biological need that shouldn’t be used to hold against someone. That’s why he’s never bothered when ex-lovers does a tell-all on him. So, he had sex with them. Who cares? Half of the world is fucking. He was not sexually insecure. He, in fact, prefers women with experiences. Virgins or women with little exprience to him were scary. It would be like getting in a plane with a pilot who had never flown or being wheeled into an operation room with a surgeon who had never operated before.

His car pulled up in front of his condo building. Balak sana nilang kumain sa labas but he was injured. He had a bruise on his face, his lower lips bleeding from the cut, masakit ang katawan niya ang katawan niya sa pagkakasipa sa kanya lalo na sa may bandang tandyang niya. They decided to just go to his pad so Yuka could tend to his injuries.

He had his own private elevator that required key access to the penthouse. Paglabas ng elevator ay ang pad na ni Tate. Napaawang ang labi ni Yuka the moment she stepped out of it. His pad had a breathtaking panoramic view of the whole city. Kahit saan siya lumingon there’s always huge, tall windows. It had an open space plan, nothing seperating the living room, kitchen, and dining room between each other. Wherever you look, the view of the whole city is what you’d see. Dapat ngayon sanay na siya sa ganitong karangyaan, after all her Ate was married to the son of one of the richest men in Asia. Pero hindi! She was still in awe at what she was seeing. Ang interior ng buong bahay, ang mga gamit dito, halatang mga dekalidad at mamahalin.

“Ang ganda dito.” Hindi niya napigilan sabihin nang lumapit siya sa ga higanteng bintana, the entire walls made out of huge infinite windows.

“You like the view?” Naramdaman niya ang paghapit nito sa baywang niya at ang paglapat ng katawan ng lalaki sa likod niya.

Ipinikit niya ang mga mata niya. Just feeling everything in, taking it all in. Ipinatong niya ang bisig ni Tate na nakapulupot sa katawan niya. This was her every dream and now it was slowly becoming a reality. She could already picture being married to Tate. Magkakaron sila ng maganda at malaking bahay, mas malaki pa sa mansyon ng mga Cordova. They’d have nice cars and beautiful kids, lahat ng pinagdamot sa kanya noon ng mundo ay mapapasakanya na.

Naramdaman niya ang maliliit na halik ni Tate sa buhok niya. They were alone in here, nobody but just the two of them. She felt his hands stroking her sides and she relaxed her body against his chest.

“Tate…” Inilayo niya ang katawan sa lalaki when she knew she was getting too comfortable. Humarap siya dito at kinalong ang mukha sa mga palad. “Gamutin natin yang sugat mo. May alcohol ka ba at cotton?”

“I have some in the bathroom in the medicine cabinet behind the mirror.” He answered.

He guided Yuka to his bathroom and she went through his medicine cabinet, getting everything needed for his bruises and cuts. They went back to the living room and sat on his couch. Ginamot niya ang sugat ng lalaki, she dabbed an alcohol soaked cotton on his darkened cheek and then down to the corner of his lips which had a small cut. God, his lips were shaped so perfectly. Yuka couldn’t help licking her own as she remembered how it felt against hers. No man had ever awaken this need inside her like he did.

Parang nabasa naman ng binata ang tumatakbo sa isip niya at hinalikan siya nito. Inilayo nito ang cotton na hawak ni Yuka sa sugat niya at marahang dumampi ang mga labi nito sa kanya. She knew what could possibly happen. It was just her and him. Prepared ba siya? Had she worn matching undies this morning? Should she give in to his wants, to her wants?

Chapter Ten

Yuka was on the couch lying on her back as Tate’s body settled on top of her. She could feel the heat radiating from his body against hers. His hands tightened on her face, holding it in place so that there was no risk of anything breaking their kiss. She moaned when his sweet tongue entered her mouth. She loved the way his lips felt against him, the way it tasted, he tasted of fine wine and it was very intoxicating. His mouth made love to hers, his tongue caressing and tangling with his.

Naramdaman niya ang kamay ni Tate na bumaba mula sa mukha niya papunta sa leeg. His hand went even lower until they felt the button of her blouse. He wondered if he could feel how hard the slamming of her heart against her chest was. He unclasped the first button and then the next, and the next until there was no button left to unclasp.

Should she stop him? She didn’t want to think what they say about her being easy was true. If she gives in, what would happen after? Would Tate still like her or would she be one of the women he had bedded? She wanted to raise her value by resistance, by making him want her more but what was there left to do? His lips were already on hers and he was undressing her. She wanted not to think but to just feel. Tate was the best kisser she had ever kissed and she had kissed a lot of men. She usually could not enjoy making out anymore beyond three minutes with men, her mind would wander off  to other things in the middle of a make out session like the TV series she had just watched but Tate excites her to no end. He certainly knew how to kiss and please a woman. Hindi mapigilan na madala ni Yuka sa mga halik na iyon.

Humiwalay ang mga labi ng lalaki sa kanya. His lips worked over her jaw and then down her neck. She gasped as Tate nibbled the sensitive part of it and when he laughed at her reaction. She shivered as his lips vibrated against her skin. 

“Hey dude-” They stopped when they heard a voice both very familar to them. Their heads snapped to the direction where it came from. Nakatayo doon si Yvo, his eyes widening as if he’d seen a ghost. Nagpalit-palit ang tingin nito sa dalawa.

Agad naman napaupo ang dalawa at isinara ni Yuka ang pang-itaas niya, covering her nude colored bra. Tate brushed his fingers through his thick brown hair.

“Hey, what are you doing here?” He asked, trying to hide the raggedness of his breathing and his boner with a pillow. 

“Today’s friday.” Yvo quietly said, trying to look elsewhere as Yuka began buttoning her top. He was as flustered as them. He didn’t even know where to look. They had already made plans to hang out at his place and catch up with each other. Coco bailed out on them at the last minute because his little boy, Cookie who was also both their godchild, was sick and he didn’t want to leave his wife to take care of their som alone.

“Oh, right.” Sabi naman ni Tate bago sinabunutan ang sarili. “I completely forgot to tell you that I’m going to be on a date.” He said and then looked at Yuka. “I’m sure you already know each other.”

Tumango si Yuka, hindi magawang makatingin sa lalaking nakatayo sa harap nila. Her new bestfriend had seen her making out with her future husband in her bra. How was she supposed to act? 

“Hi, Yvo.” She croaked out.

“Hey.” He gave him a nod of acknowledgement. “Nakaistorbo yata ako sa inyo. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to.”

“Hindi, okay lang!” Agad naman na sabi ni Yuka bago pa magawang tumalikod ni Yvo. 

“Yeah. Yuka and I were just about to have dinner.” Sabi naman ni Tate. “Do you want to join us?”

Yvo looked at his friend and his eyes darted to Yuka as if asking if it was alright. She gave him a smile as if inviting him. The two didn’t make him feel unwelcome even though he just walked in on them practically dry humping each other. Half of his brain was telling him to leave as it was the right thing to do, he didn’t want to be a cockblock, and the other half was telling him to stay.

“Kung hindi naman ako makakaabala sa inyo, sure.” He shrugged his shoulders, apathetically. 

“Great! I just need to go to the bathroom.” Tate said and got up. 

Naiwan silang dalawa ng binata. Their eyes shifted unto each other and Yuka couldn’t help a giggle at what had just happened. Yuka’s childish giggle was contagious and the smile that slowly made its way across his face turned into a half-supressed snicker. He didn’t know which was funnier him catching the two in the act or Tate running to the bathroom to ‘relieve’ himself.

“Istorbo!” Kunwaring umirap si Yuka sa lalaki pero nanatili ang ngiti sa mga labi niya. “Bigla bigla ka na lang talagang umeeksena, ano? Habit mo na yan.”

“I didn’t know.” Sagot niya.

Yuka looked to the direction where Tate had been and figured he wouldn’t be back for awhile. She leaned over and said in a hushed tone. “Alam kong kilala mo si Tate pero hindi mo naman sinabi sa akin na ganito kayo ka-close.”

“You never asked.” He answered.

“Doc, feeling ko pinaglalaruan mo ako.” She slumped against the softest couch she had ever sat on, the same catch he almost had her if Yvo didn’t walk in on them. “Baka naman pati yung mga sinasabi ko, sinasabi mo din kay Tate.”

“I’m not that kind of person. What we talk about is just between you and I.” He said.

“Buti naman.” Umirap siya sa lalaki. “Dapat nga binibuild up mo ako kay Tate kasi kaibigan mo ako saka kaibigan mo din siya.”

“Based on what I walked in on, it seems like you don’t need anymore building up.” He sneered.

“Hindi ba magkaibigan kayo. Sa tingin mo seryoso na sa akin si Tate o isa lang ako sa mga babae niya?” She bit her bottom lip, still swollen and red from the make out session she just had.

Yvo folded his arms across his chest. Tate had never been into a girl as much as he had been with Yuka. He had never heard of him talk about a woman whenever he and Coco were together until her. He was used to women opening their legs at the first sight of him and Yuka had been playing hard to get. It didn’t make sense to Tate that she wasn’t crawling to him, begging to be bedded just as a normal, sane woman would.

“I think he likes you more than any girl he’s been with in the past” Yvo answered. Hindi niya naman alam ang tumatakbo sa isip ni Tate, maybe after having her he’d eventually get bored. What he didn’t tell her that Tate also liked variety. 

“Talaga?” She squealed like a little girl who had walked into a room full of candy.

“Hey, did I miss anything?” Tanong ni Tate nang makabalik ito. 

“Wala naman. Nakikipagkwentuhan lang ako dito kay Yvo, hindi ba nabanggit ko sa’yo na nagkakasabay kaming mag-lunch.” She told him.

“Yeah, you did.” He answered and gently pulled Yuka from the couch, wrapping his arms around her. “I’m happy that you’re friends with my bestfriend. Yvo and I had known each other since I can remember. Isn’t that right, dude?”

“Yeah.” Kaswal na tumango ito.

“Hindi naman kasi binanggit ni Doc.” Malambing na kinalong ni Yuka ang mukha nito sa mga palad niya. 

“Doc?” Tate chuckled and turned his eyes to Yvo. 

Yvo answered with a shrug.

“Well, he’s Dr. Yvo Zamora.” Said Yuka.

“It’s just feels kind of weird to hear someone call him that. Dati kasi four eyes lang ang tawag ni Coco kay Yvo.” Tate couldn’t help his laughter. 

“Asshole.” He could only shake his head.

Tate looked at him and held his hand out. “But look at him now, he’s a ladies’ man. Siya lang naman ang hindi interesadong makipagkilala sa ibang mga babae.”

“Hindi pa din siya makaget-over kay Krista.” Yuka snorted.

“Wait? You know about Krista?” His brows crumpled. 

“Oo naman. He’s mentioned his ex to me before.”

“You know, I really thought she was the woman Yvo would settle down with someday.”

“Are we going to eat or are you two going to talk about me and my personal life like I’m not here?” Yvo asked the two.

“Right! What do you guys want? Magpadeliver tayo? Do you fancy a pizza?” He asked.

“Wala bang food sa kitchen mo? Maghihintay pa tayo ng deliver, paano kung magluto na lang ako?” Yuka smiled her charming smile.

“You know how to cook?” Tate asked, amusement in his tone.

“Ako pa! Ano bang gusto mo? Adobo? Sinigang? Tinola?” She asked.

“I’m okay with whatever you cook.” He answered.

Yuka turned her head to Yvo’s direction. “Ikaw, doc? May gusto ka bang ipaluto?” 

“I’m okay with anything.” Sagot naman ni Yvo.

Yuka sauntered towards Tate’s kitchen as if already making his home her own. The two men watched as she went through his fridge and then his pantries, getting all the ingridients needed for whatever she was about to make.

“Do you think she can be a wife material?” Tate thrust his elbow into Yvo’s arms as he wore a proud smile on his face. 

“Sure.” Yvo answered.

Naupo sila sa kitchen island habang abala si Yuka sa pagluluto. The whole room suddenly smelled of the aroma of the adobo she was cooking. After about half an hour, the food was cooked and the boys helped out in serving. 

“Wow! This is good.” Sabi ni Tate after his first bite. 

“Ikaw naman! Baka maniwala ako niyan.” Natatawang sabi ni Yuka bago tumingin kay Yvo. “Doc, ano ang verdict mo sa luto ko? Pwede na ba?”

“It is good.” Yvo agreed.

“I think you’d make a good wife.” Said Tate as he looked at him, lumapit ang mukha niya sa babae.

“Talaga?” Yuka bit her bottom lip again to supress her smile. Tate wanted nothing more in the world than to bite her lips for her, if only Yvo wasn’t in the room with them. He was officially addicted to her.

He coughed to make his presence known. He didn’t appreciate the eye fucking happening in front of him. He knew he was the third wheel, no need to rub it into his face. Agad naman naghiwalay ang tingin ng dalawa sa isa’t-isa. They continued on with their dinner.

“What happened to your face?” Hindi maiwasan tanong ni Yvo nang mapansin ang pasa sa pisngi nito.

“Eh yung gagong Janno na naman na yun, ayaw akong tigilan.” Yuka sighed. “Napaaway pa tuloy si Tate.”

“Was it that guy again?” Yvo asked. This woman, she attracts trouble like a bloody magnet.

“Oo, si Janno na naman.” She rolled her eyes. “Gago talaga ang lalaking yun.”

“Has he been continuously harrasing you?” Tanong ni Tate. 

“Hindi ko na lang pinapansin.” Sabi naman ni Yuka. “Kilala ko si Janno, titigil din yun.”

“If he does it again, I will have to report him to the office. This is not right. Sexual harrassment na ang ginagawa niya.” Umiling-iling si Yvo.

“I’m just glad that Yvo’s there to look out for you.” Hinawakan ni Tate ang kamay ng dalaga at hinalikan iyon before his eyes averted to his friend. “Thanks, dude.”

Saturday was their gym day. It was mandatory that they meet up at the gym on weekends. Coco didn’t bail out on them this time and showed up. He said his son was doing well now as it was just a slight fever but still, Tate made a mental note to buy a get well soon toy for his favorite godchild. 

“He threw up last night but after that bumaba na ang lagnat niya. Mamaya dadalhin namin siya sa pedia niya just to be sure.” Kwento ni Coco habang abala ito sa paglilift ng weights.

“That’s good.” Yvo was doing pull-ups on the bar. “I was planning to drop by your house but when I called, Anais said you’re already sleeping kaya si Tate na lang ang pinuntahan ko.”

“Yeah, slept in early last night. Tinabihan ko kasi si Cookie at nanood kami ng movie hanggang sa nakatulugan ko na. Anais is trying to keep Pixie away from her Kuya para hindi magkahawaan.” Coco had always been a wonderful father to his children and a great husband to his wife, Anais. They understood, even when they were just teenagers, that Anais would always come first. Sanay naman ang dalawa na sila lang talaga and Coco just shows up when there’s spare time for them. “What did you do last night? Did I miss any fun?”

“We just had dinner. Nagluto kasi si Yuka.” Sagot naman ni Tate.

“So, you two were with Yuka last night? Narinig ko, Tate, nililigawan mo na daw ang kapatid ni Saskia.” His brows crumpled with query.

“Yeah.” He didn’t deny it. “I formally asked Kuya Migs and Saskia if I could court Yuka.”

“Well, you did more than courting.” Yvo couldn’t help commenting. 

Tate chuckled. “In my defense, I never planned that. It just naturally happened.”

“You should stop messing with Yuka if you’re not serious with her. She’s had enough shitty relationship in the past.” Sabi naman ni Yvo.

“Somebody’s had a change of heart. Akala ko ba hindi mo gusto si Yuka para kay Tate.” Coco said.

“I got to know her. Marami akong maling bagay na inakala sa kanya but one thing I’m sure of is that she’s seriously has feelings for you, Tate.” Seryosong sabi nito.

“What? You think I’m not serious with her?” Kumunot ang noo ni Tate. “I’ve never been this serious with a woman before.”

“Siguraduhin mo lang, Tate, dahil kapag pinaiyak mo si Yuka I’m not going to back you up. She’s my sister-in-law’s sister, si Kuya ang makakalaban ko kapag pinagtanggol kita.” Coco chuckled, finally putting down his weights and wiping the sweats off his face with a towelette. 

“If I were just fooling around with her, you two will be the first one to know. Saka kung hindi ako seryoso kay Saskia, magpapaalam ba ako sa pamilya niya na liligawan ko siya?” He reasoned and then paused for a moment before he spoke again. “I may be in love with her…”

“What do you know? Our Tate is in love.” Coco grinned. “Mukhang malakas talaga ang tama ni Yuka sa’yo.”

“She’s different from the woman I’ve been with in the past.” Tate smiled. He just knew that Yuka was different. He had never wanted a woman as much as he wanted her. His intentions were pure and clean. She wasn’t going to be one of the woman he had just bedded, if that was the case he would’ve done that on the first or the second date they have had. Although, he had to admit that if Yvo hadn’t showed up they would’ve taken things further. But that wasn’t planned, he got carried away. They both did. 

Yvo had been looking forward to lunch. Usually, he’d be so engrossed with researching that he wouldn’t even notice that he hadn’t had lunch until his stomach starts growling or when he’s the only person left in the lab. Now he was the first one to leave the lab. He went to his office, changed his clothes and waited for Yuka. 

“Dr. Zamora!” He heard a familiar voice behind his door, followed by a banging. 

Yvo hurried towards the door and opened it to see her and her cheeky smile. The crinkling  of the corners of her eyes as her smile grew and the way those pair would disappear leaving only two crescent lines had gotten under his skin without him even realizing. 

“Nagbaon ako ngayon!” She said and lifted up a small bag. “Niluto ko pa ’to kaninang umaga bago ako pumasok sa school. Share tayo.”

“You cooked before going to school?” He cocked a brow.

“Oo. Alam kong nagustuhan mo yung luto ko kaya nilutuan din kita. Huwag kang masanay, ah. Ngayon lang ’to.” Umirap ito sa kanya.

He let out a small cackle. “I promise. I won’t.”

They headed to the field and sat at one of the picnic tables that was installed there. It was a corner where students could eat outside of the canteen. Maganda naman ang panahon ngayon at hindi naman masyadong maaraw kaya marami din estudyanteng naroroon. Ang iba ay abalang kumakain at ang iba naman ay ginagamit ang mesa sa paggawa ng mga projects at schoolworks nila.

Nilabas ni Yuka ang container kung saan nakalagay ang niluto niyang adobo. If it were Tracy and her monkeys she’s with, they would probably laugh at her for bringing lunch. There was nothing more dorky than bringing lunch from home. No one does that. Once, her Mammy made lunch for her and she ended up throwing it away when she got to school, she dumped it all in the garbage can and bought herself lunch in the canteen. Bakit isipin ng mga kaklase niya hindi niya afford bumili ng pagkain kaya nagbabaon siya. She did feel bad afterwards as she knew her mother took her time to cook and prepare it for her but she was trying to survive in a new, unfamiliar environment. She molded herself to try to fit in with the cool, rich kids. 

She’d naturally be embarrassed bringing lunch but for some reason, she didn’t care anymore. She had found good company, someone who didn’t care about social status.  

“Nagdala ako ng extra rice.” She said. “Baka kasi kulang pa sa’yo yan.”

“Thanks!” Yvo started digging into the food. “Who taught you how to cook?”

“Ate ko.” Sagot niya. “Dati kasi Ate ko nagtitinda-tinda ng mga ulam sa labas ng bahay namin noong teenager pa lang siya, pandagdag baon din kasi namin. Yung mga gagong tambay naman na crush na crush ang Ate ko palaging naman inuubos ang tinda namin kaya tuwang-tuwa kami.” 

 It was her Ate that did all the hard labor so they wouldn’t have to do it. Lalo na nang humina na ang Mammy niya sa club gawa na din ng may edad na ito. The customer would rather have younger women. Naglabandera ang ate niya, namasukan sa isang maliit na kainan malapit sa kanila, sumali sa kung anu-anong pageant para may maiuwing konting halaga. Saskia had spared her siblings from any hard work. 

“Yvo, alam mo kung hindi ka dumating noong gabing iyon baka kung ano na ang nangyari.” She said. “Buti na lang talaga dumating ka.”

Yvo’s forehead crumpled in confusion. “Why?”

“I’m in love with Tate pero ayaw ko naman isipin niya na easy ako. Baka pagkatapos nun mawalan na siya ng interest sa akin.” She sighed and bit her bottom lip, the same lip Tate had ravaged. “Kasalanan ko bang nadala ako sa mga halik niya?”

“Well, you’re single and so is he. I don’t see anything wrong with it.” His eyes lowered to his food. 

“Ah basta! Gusto kong paghirapan muna ako ni Tate.” She said and then there was this menacing smile again. “Kayo ba ni Krista? Did you have sex before you started dating?”

Halos mabulunan si Yvo sa tanong ng babae. He was taken aback by her question. Who the hell would ask that? Only Yuka!

“Sa atin lang naman.” Her smile grew into a grin. “Makaarte naman ito, akala mo virgin.”

“Yuka…” He said in a slightly scolding tone, scandalized by her bluntness. He would never ask that even to his closest friends. 

“I’m just curious.” She shrugged. 

“Yes. We did have sex before we started dating. Happy?” Sagot naman ni Yvo. 

“Sabi ko na, eh! Kayo talagang mukhang kagalang-galang at matitino may ibang side din talaga.” She laughed. “Were you her first?”

“Yuka!” His tone took a louder edge. He wasn’t her first and quite frankly, it had no significance to him. But he had so much respect for Krista to even share that part to anyone else. Krista had been a wonderful girlfriend to him when they were together and they still remained friends even to this day. 

“Natanong ko lang kasi mukhang dalagang Pilipina talaga si ex.” She snorted. “Ito naman! Masyado kang defensive sa ex mo! Nakakainis! Ex mo naman na yun!” 

“It doesn’t mean I get to share our sex life to every person who asks.”

“Hindi naman sa lahat. Sa akin lang.” Yuka laughed, seeing him riled up was entertaining to her. 

They had finished their lunch and as always, Yvo had offered to walk her to her next class. Ngayon ay may meeting ang mga estudyante sa meeting hall kaya doon sila patungo. Just as they were heading to the hall, they past by Tracy and her two monkeys.

“Look who we have here. The school whore.” Tracy said in a sing song tone. The two monkeys who were once her friends laughed.

Yuka paused and Yvo gripped her shoulders. “Huwag mo nang pansinin.”

“You can take a girl out of a bar but you can’t take the bar out of the girl.” She laughed. “Nakakainis talaga yung mga malalanding babaeng yan.”

She shrugged Yvo’s hands off her shoulders. “Really? Naiinis ka sa mga malalandi, eh bakit mahal na mahal mo ang sarili mo?”

“Yuka, huwag mo ng patulan.” Yvo tried to get in between them.

“Jen do you know who you’re laughing with?” She faced her ex-friend. “That’s the same girl who slept with your boyfriend. Alam mo kung saan nila ginawa? Sa bathroom mo habang natutulog ka?”

Tracy’s face went visibly red. “D-don’t believe her. She’s just saying that.”

“But that’s okay because Bella, your boyfriend finger blasted Jen at Loisa’s party. And Tracy, you might want to respect Bella a little more because she might be your step-mom someday. She hooked up with your Dad when we went to your farm last summer. Patas na kayo, pare-pareho naman kayong mga pokpok.” She let out a vindictive smile. She could see how all their faces turned pale at what she had said. None of it were lies as they were trying to claim to each other. When she was the new girl in the group, every one of them were her bestfriends. She was the one who listens when they need someone to vent to. “I know all your dirts so don’t try me!”

“At ano’ng akala mo? Hindi din namin alam ang sa’yo?” Tracy, despite her flustered face, still tried to maintain her composure. But she could see in their faces that they had lost trust in each other. She could see them melting in embarassment from within. “You get yourself ready, you whore!”

“I was born ready!” She smiled, sarcastically.

 Naningkit ang mga mata ni Tracy bago ito muling ngumiti. Talk about mood swings. “I swear, I will make your life a living hell starting today, Yuka. I made you and I will destroy you! Kung hindi dahil sa akin, you won’t be popular.”

“Tama na.” Hinarang ni Yvo ang katawan sa pagitan ng dalawang babae when it looked like they were about to claw at each other. He ushered Yuka away and the girls walked out. 

“Narinig mo ba ang sabi ng babaeng iyon!” Gigil na sabi ni Yuka. “Ang kapal ng mukha niya para sabihin yan. Kahit wala siya, kaya kong maging popular. Sa ganda kong ito! Napaka-bitch!” 

“Hey, it’s okay.” Hinawakan siya ni Yvo sa magkabilang balikat at tinitigan sa mga mata. She noticed how brown his eyes and how thick his lashes were. “Calm down. Don’t let it get to you. Sa susunod huwag mo na lang silang pansinin.”

“Hindi ko kayang gawin yun! Sa susunod na magparinig ang babaeng iyon, hahatakin ko ang dila niya at ipupulupot ko sa leeg niya!”

“Just calm down, okay?” He said, rubbing her shoulders. The friction of her hands on hers brought calming warmth to her. 

Nang maikalma niya ang sarili niya ay pumasok na siya sa meeting hall. This was where all students meet when there are important school announcements. It looked similar to a theater house with wide screen and a stage in front. Marami ng estudyante nang dumating sila. 

The moment she walked in, the screen started playing. The video was vaguely familiar to her. In the big screen, there were two people inside a small, tight closet. The man stood facing the camera, his head cut off from the video. It was only taken from the neck down and right in front of him was a woman with long, dark hair. Her back facing the camera as she knelt in front of him, his pants down to his ankles. 

Slowly, the woman turned her head towards the camera and she saw her face. And then the screen went blank. 

Ramdam niya ang mga titig ng tao ngayon sa kanya. It was burning through her skin. Yvo held her by her waist and gave her a squeeze.

Chapter Eleven

He had his arms wrapped around her. It was as if Yvo’s arms were a shield from the leering stares of men and disdainful mumbles from women. He guided her out of the meeting hall. Tracy and her two mindless monkeys stood by the door as they made their way out. She had her arms folded to her chest, her hips leaning to one side as she gave her a mocking smile. The two imbeciles giggled behind their master.

Yuka felt the urge to claw her caked up face. It would not take a genius to figure out that Tracy had something to do with this. She had known the she-devil long enough to know how her evil little mind works.

Yuka was a proud woman. She didn’t like feeling this helpless and she didn’t like feeling vulnerable and right now she felt enough of both those emotions to last her a lifetime. If it were some other day, she would have smacked Tracy’s face but she could barely hold her emotions in.

“Whore.” Tracy chuckled.

Tumakbo siya palabas at hinabol siya ni Yvo. Yvo caught up to her and pulled her into his arms.

“Ayoko na dito.” Hindi niya napigilan ang hikbi na kumawala sa lalamunan niya at isinubsob ang mukha sa matipunong dibdib ng lalaki.

“I’ll get you out of here.” Malumanay na sabi ni Yvo habang hinahaplos ang buhok niya.

And he did just that. Even though he had work to get back to, he knew Yuka needed her now. They rode his motorcycle and drove away from there. Yvo didn’t exactly know where to take her, he just knew he had to get her out of here.

“Alam mo, Yvo, hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko kung wala ka.” Sabi ni Yuka bago tinusok ang chicken ball na nasa plastic cup at inilapit sa bibig niya. “Salamat, ah.”

“You don’t have to thank me. That’s what friends do.” A soft smile made its way across Yvo’s face. “Are you okay now?”

Tumango si Yuka at humugot ng malalim na hininga. She was still in shock.

“Yvo, paano pag nakita iyon ni Tate? Ano na lang ang iisipin niya?” Her eyes began to water. “Baka isipin niya na totoo ang mga sinasabi nila tungkol sa akin. Baka maniwala siya.”

“Tate’s not going to care. He won’t care about something as ridiculous as that.” Yvo said.

“Ipapaliwanag ko sa kanya ang lahat. He needs to know.” Sabi ni Yuka.

“Just calm down, Yuka. It’s going to be okay. Walang pakialam si Tate tungkol doon. Trust me, I’ve known Tate since we were just crawling. Hindi ganon kakitid ang utak niya. He’d understand. I don’t think it would even matter to him.”

“I’m not a whore.” She quietly said. She had tried hard not to be like her mother. She was no whore but the way those men had looked at her made her feel like one. She didn’t want to be one.

“No, you’re not.” Yvo gently said.

“I’m not a whore!” Although her tone was now firmer, louder, it quivered with impending tears. It was her convincing herself more than anyone else.

“You’re not a whore. You’re nothing like one.” He cradled her face into his palms and made her look him in the eyes. “You’re a wonderful woman. You’re a fighter, tooth and nail, that’s what I like best about you. And you’re… you’re beautiful.”

Yvo blinked at the last sentence that had slipped out of his mouth. Tears began to spill from Yuka’s eyes. It occured to him that this was the most vulnerable he had ever seen her since they met and there was a sudden warmth and a sense of protectiveness that had awoken deep inside him.

“Ikaw na lang talaga ang totoong kaibigan ko.” Yuka wrapped her arms around him and rested her head on his chest. Hindi alam ni Yvo ang gagawin sa tinuran ng dalaga. It felt awkward to just sit there as his new found friend seek solace through him. “Huwag mo akong iiwan, ah.”

“I won’t.” He said, finally wrapping his arms around her, too.

“Promise?”

“I promise.”

She was no longer a part of Tracy’s IT group and was probably now a social pariah at her school. She could still feel the malicious gaze those men had given her after seeing the video, as if she had suddenly became a prey in their eyes.

“Ayoko pang umuwi.” She muttered when she saw that it was almost getting dark. She had skipped three classes and instead spent the whole day with Yvo. Wala naman silang pinag-usapan masyado ng lalaki, he just stayed to comfort her. It was what she needed right now and she didn’t want this to end. He didn’t expect anything more from her. He didn’t force to say just the right thing. It was the calm that he brought with him that made her feel warm and secure. It was all she needed as she never had that kind of company.

“We can’t stay here. Aabutan na tayo ng dilim.” Aniya.

“So, iiwan mo na ako?” She cocked a brow.

“I’m not going to leave you.” He shook his head. “Let’s just go elsewhere.”

Yuka thought for awhile and then an idea popped into her mind. “Punta tayo sa Bliss.”

“Ano’ng gagawin natin dun?”

“Eh di magpaparty. Hello! Alangan naman mag-tong its tayo dun?” She rolled her eyes. “Don’t you want to have fun?”

Yvo just chuckled and shook his head, he was more at ease now that Yuka was being her usual self. Wala din naman siyang gagawin ngayon. Well, he had to do some research but he guessed that could wait. Kahit naman ma-late siya ng konti ng uwi nasa data pa rin niya ang mga research niya. It won’t go anywhere.

He drove her to Bliss. As usual, there were already a long line of people waiting to get in. The queue stretched around the building and to the block next to it. It was only a weekday night, kung ikukumpara ang dami ng tao sa weekends ay walang-wala ito. Big bodied bouncers guarded the door to the club like a group of centurions. They didn’t have to line up, kilala ng mga ito si Yvo kaya nang makita ang lalaki ay inangat agad nilang binuksan ang pinto para papasukin sila.

“Halika, kuha na tayo ng drinks habang wala pang masyadong tao.” Hinatak siya ni Yuka papunta sa bar. The club had just opened and only a few were let in, mostly the VIPs.

“Sir Yvo.” Lando, one of the bartenders, gave him a greeting nod.

“Hey, can we get something to drink? I’ll have the old fashioned and what about you?” He looked at Yuka.

“Isang shot nga diyan ng tequila.” Yuka said.

The bartender started making their orders and then served it to them. And the Yuka ordered another one after gulping the first shot in one go.

“Slow down. Baka malasing ka agad niyan.” Sabi ni Yvo.

“Ano ka ba? Malakas ang alcohol tolerance ko, ano?” She bragged. “Lets just enjoy! Sayaw tayo?”

“What?”

“Tara na, huwag kang KJ, doc.” She giggled.

“Yuka, I’m not in the mood.” Umiling ang lalaki.

“Dali na. Isayaw mo naman ako.”

“I’m good.”

“Don’t tell me hindi ka marunong, doc?” There was a teasing gleam in her eyes.

“I just don’t want to.” He shrugged.

“Fine!” Yuka huffed and swiped the second shot of tequila off the countertop. “I’m still going to dance.”

He watched as the little Japanese doll stood up from her seat and walked to the dancefloor. He soon followed after anyway. He couldn’t let his friend’s girl out of his sight. Lapitin pa naman sa gulo itong babaeng ito.

“Hi!” Yuka grinned when she saw him as she continued to dance to the music with the tequila in her hand. “Sabi ko na, hindi mo ko matitiis, doc. Show me you can party.”

Ikinawit ng babae ang bisig sa leeg niya and she started dancing again, her eyes fixed on his. All the noise around them seemed to have drop away and they could only see each other. Just the two of them.

“Lagay mo ang kamay mo sa baywang ko.” Yuka instructed and with her freehand took Yvo’s and wrapped them around her waist. She took in a deep inhale before leaning her head against his chest. She pressed her lips together so as not to let the sob out of her lips but it was no use. It escaped from her mouth and her shoulders shook with all emotions she had been trying to push down.

Yvo embraced her tighter.

“I’m scared.” She admitted, there was anger in her tone. Anger for herself. “Ang tanga tanga ko kasi!”

“It’s okay…” Malumanay na bulong nito sa tainga niya. She hugged him tighter and buried her face into his chest. Hinayaan niya ang babaeng umiyak. A few moments after, she lifted her head up to look at him and he looked down at her.

Umangat ang isang kamay ni Yvo para punasan ang mga luha sa pisngi ng babae. He felt a push from behind him and went forward, next thing he knew his lips were on hers. Her breath caught in her throat as she made a loud gasp. He still hadn’t fully taken in what was happening, all he knew was that her lips were soft and warm and sweet as honey.

She pushed him. She pushed him with all the strength still left in her. The push was weak and was effortless but the man got the hint and pulled his face away from hers. They looked into each other again, confusion in their faces slowly morphed to a shocked expression as it dawned to them what had just happened.

“Shit.” Yvo uttered a soft cuss. He had kissed his bestfriend’s girl. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to.”

Nag-iwas ng tingin si Yuka, her eyes lowering to the ground. “O-okay lang. Hindi naman sadya iyon.”

“No, definitely not!” Tanggi ni Yvo.

“Yvo, mag-ccr lang ako.” She excused herself as she felt both her lips heating. Even when it was dark, she was afraid Yvo would see. Agad siyang kumawala sa pagkakahawak ng lalaki at nagmamadaling nagtungo sa banyo. She locked herself up and leaned agains the wall. It was as if her hand had a mind of its own when it lifted up so that her fingers could touch her lips. The lips that Yvo had kissed just a couple of moments ago.

It was purely accidental. It shouldn’t be a big deal. None of them should make a big deal out of it. Smack lang naman iyon. It wasn’t like she had a full blown make out session with Yvo. But she felt bad, she felt as though she had cheated on Tate.

Tate had just finished his commercial shoot when he scrolled through his phone’s messages and saw a text from Yvo telling him to come over at Bliss as he was with Yuka. The two seemed to be getting along well and he was glad they were. He was his bestfriend and he’d like for his girl to be good friends with him. There was never any worry that Yvo would snag her girl, in fact it never crosses his mind at all. He remembered back in college when his girlfriend at that time tried to sleep with Yvo at siya mismo ang nagsabi sa kanya nito.

“Tate.” Yvo waved at him at the VIP. He half-jogged his way towards him.

“Where’s Yuka?” He asked.

“I kind of lost her a little bit but she’s here” Sagot naman ni Yvo. He didn’t know why but he felt guilty seeing his friend. The kiss was not intentional. He shouldn’t feel this way. “Listen, Yuka’s going through something right now. She needs you.”

“What are you talking about?” Kunot noong tanong ni Tate.

“It’s better if you hear it from her.” Yvo answered.

“Tate…” It was Yuka walking towards them. Hindi magawang tignan ni Yuka at Yvo ang isa’t-isa lalo na sa presensya ni Tate. None of them wanted to acknowledge what had happened earlier. The kiss was with no malice, an innocent smack on the lips that could be easily explained as an accident, but they both couldn’t push away the thought that they had cheated. Maybe it was the fact, the one fact that they didn’t want to admit, that for a brief second they liked it.

“Buttercup.” He wrapped his arms around her. “I missed you.”

“I missed you, too.” Her voice was unsteady.

Tate was oblivious of the tension between the two. All he could really pay attention to was her face and how beautiful she was. He wanted her to himself, away from all these people. Just as he had her to himself in his pad a few nights ago.

“Tinawagan ako ni Yvo, kasama ka daw niya kaya napatakbo agad ako dito.” He said.

“Baka naistorbo ko ang shoot mo.” Yuka bit her bottom lip and she could still taste Yvo even when she had risen it with alcohol.

“It was over when he texted. Saka gusto ko din naman makasama ka.” Malambing na sabi ng lalaki. She knew now why Tate was called the gentle giant. He may have had the built and body of a god but his eyes were gentle and soft as they looked into hers. It was a beautiful contradiction that had women throwing themselves at him.

“Buti naman. Napagod ka ba?” Her hand reached up to touch his soft face.

“Makita lang kita nawawala na ang pagod ko.” He answered with a smile.

“Yuka, naiwan mo ito.” A woman went up to them. It was Yuka’s schoolmate, Ciara, who she happened to bump into earlier and had a chat at the bar while trying to avoid Yvo. The conversation was of no substance, just school gossips. She thanked God she never metioned the video. She wondered if the woman had seen it.

Ciara handed her back her cocktail.

“Ay, thank you!” She smiled at her. “Kita na lang tayo sa school.”

“Sure.” She winked at her.

“What are we having?” Tate asked, eyeing her drink.

“Tequila sunrise.” Sagot naman ni Yuka bago uminom mula sa baso. She needed a drink to ease her rattled nerves and relieve her parched throat. Ni hindi niya magawang tignan man lang ang kaibigan ni Tate pagkatapos ng nangyari.

“That looks nice. Can I have taste?” Tate asked, nicely.

“Oo naman.” She smiled at him and offered him her glass.

He took it and took a small sip. “My bartenders sure know how to make a cocktail. Doon tayo sa VIP.”

“Hey, dude, I have to go.” Kunwari’y tumingin si Yvo sa wrist watch niya. “I have some papers I need to-”

“What do you mean you have to go?” Kunot-noong tanong ni Tate. “Dude, ikaw ang nag-aya sa akin dito. You have to stay with us.”

“I’d love to except that I’m kind of behind my schedule-”

“Come on. Ngayon na nga lang ulit tayo nakalabas ng ganito.” Tate said.

“I’m sorry. I really have to go.” Yvo was ready to run to the exit. The awkwardness between Yuka and him was becoming more and more unbearable.

“One hour.” Sabi naman ni Tate and then he patted his back. “Just give us an hour. Would it hurt for you to do so?”

He looked at Yuka and the moment their eyes met, she started looking elsewhere. It was not a good feeling, keeping something from Tate. It felt like the two of them shared a dirty little secret.

Napapikit si Yvo bago bumuntong-hininga at napahilot sa sentido. “I guess I can stay for thirty more minutes.”

“There you go! All work and no play makes Yvo a dull boy.” Tate chuckled. He had an arm around Yuka as they walked to the VIP section of the club where it was less crowded, Yvo followed behind them as a typical third wheel would do.

They sat at the best seat of the VIP lounge, a seat personally customized to Tate’s likings. The waiter immediately came up to them and Tate asked for shots of whiskey.

“I missed you so much, buttercup.” Tate left small kisses on the side of her face before finally it started trailing down to her lips. She wished he would kiss her. Kiss her with a burning passion as he had done at his place so that it could erase another man’s lips on her.

“Kumusta ang shoot mo?” Tanong ni Yuka, trying to ease off the thick tension in the air.

“Okay naman. Malapit ko ng matapos ang lahat ng commitments ko. But after a month, I have to fly back to US to train for the season’s game.” He took a gulp from his whiskey.

“ For Super Bowl?“ Tanong ni Yvo.

“Yeah.” Tumango si Tate. “I hope we win this again.”

“I’m sure you will.” Sabi naman ni Yvo. 

“Basta pag balik ko sa US, ikaw na muna ang bahala dito kay Yuka.” He pulled her to him. “I know you’ll look after her.”

Yuka stiffened to her seat when her eyes met with Yvo’s. She took another sip from her drink when she felt like her throat was getting dry again. Damn it! She didn’t do anything wrong. Why did she suddenly feel guilty. It was a stupid accidental kiss. There was nothing more to that and there’d be noting more.

“Tate, sayaw tayo.” Aya niya sa lalaki when Yvo’s presence suddenly became unbearable. 

“You want to dance?” He wrapped his arms around her tiny waist.

“Yeah. Let’s dance.” Tumayo si Yuka at hinatak ang lalaki patayo.

Tate chuckled and let himself be pulled to the dance floor. By now, people were crowding the whole nightclub and there were still more waiting for a spot outside the building. Mahigpit siyang hinawakan ni Tate, his hands firmly on her waist.

“Are you okay?” Tanong nito sa kanya.

Tumango si Yuka.

He bent his head down to her ears. “I heard you’re having trouble at school. Sinabi sa akin ni Yvo.”

“May video kasi…” She bit her bottom lip, she was feeling slightly heady. She didn’t know if it was because she was nervous or the alcohol she had downed before Tate had gotten here. 

“A video?” He asked.

“Yes…” Tumango si Yuka. “Ayaw kong isipin mo na totoo ang mga sinasabi nila tungkol sa akin.”

Tate shook his head and pulled her closer. He had an idea what the video was about as he had heard it from Coco before but he didn’t give a single fuck. Yuka had a sex video. It was part of her past and that was where it belonged, he was her present now. “No, please don’t think I’d think badly of you. Whatever the video is about, I don’t fucking care.”

“Tate, gusto kong magpaliwanag…”

“There’s nothing to explain, you understand?” He made her look at him. “I have feelings for you and you have feelings for me, that’s all that matters now.”

Yuka’s eyes watered with tears. She could see the genuinity in his eyes as they looked into hers. She could feel his love for her and that was enough. 

“Do. You. Understand?” He asked again.

Sunod na sunod na tumango si Yuka. “I love you, Tate.”

“I love you, too.” He whispered. 

She let herself feel. The tightness of his hug enveloping her whole being, his warmth, the soft kisses he leaves on her hair. It was pure ecstasy. Pure love. She felt nothing but love. The world could go fuck itself as long as they have each other. She was drowning in the sensation of him. 

And then she was pushed away from Tate. Biglang wala na ang lalaki sa mga bisig niya at tinutulak siya ng alon ng mga taong nagsasayawan.

Yuka had lost Tate in the crowd of people dancing in frenzy. She didn’t know anymore which way was left and right, which was up and down. All she knew was was that she was drowning in the sea of dancing bodies and she didn’t care. She felt so light that she thought she’d be floating anytime by now. She was drunk on an emotional high, losing all logical reasoning. All she could do was to feel. Everything were a blur but what she was feeling was not. It felt so vivid, more vivid than anything else she had ever felt.

“Yuka…” Suddenly a pair of strong hands held her by the waist.

She turned and let out a giggle when she saw Tate. She liked the feeling of being this light and carefree. “Hi, kanina pa kita hinahanap. Akala ko iniwan mo ako.”

“Come on.” Hinatak siya ng lalaki, jostling there way out of the crowd. They went through the VIP lounge and walked through another door which led to a spiral staircase. They couldn’t keep their giggle as they fumbled their way up the stairs.

Up the staircase was a private bedroom. The room had a very sophisticated and musculine feel, it almost had the same interior as Tate’s pad. She was pushed to the soft bed and a large body had gotten on top of her. She welcomed his kisses in full abandon, surrendering everything to him…

Her whole body was sore and exhausted even when her mind was trying to wake her up. She couldn’t get herself to move because she could feel the ache in her muscles everytime she tried to. The joints of her thighs were stiff as were her more sensitive feminine part. Bigla siyang natigilan nang maramdaman ang paggalaw mula sa likod niya. She slowly turned her face to that side and opened her eyes.

It was Tate, lying on his back with his head facing hers. She sat up and her sudden movement must have woken him up, his eyes lazily fluttering open.

“Good morning, beautiful.” He said with an indolent smile.

“Tate…” She bit her bottom lip and looked under the covers. She was naked. “We… we had sex.”

“Yes, buttercup. Last night was amazing.” He let out a lazy chuckle.

She felt the blanket being pulled on the other side of the bed. Biglang pumihit ang ulo niya sa gawing iyon. She gasped when she saw Yvo, next to her. She took another peak under the blanket and saw that he was naked as well. Nasa pagitan siya ng dalawang lalaki, sa iisang kama. She clutched tightly on the blanket that covered her intimate parts and screamed.

Tate had no idea what was going on. He immediately sat up like a jack in the box.

“What the hell?” Yvo had awoken from his sweet slumber, still dazed and confused. Doon lang nalaman ni Tate kung bakit sumigaw si Yuka.

“What the hell are you doing here?” Tanong ni Tate sa kaibigan.

“What the hell am I doing here?” Agad din napabangon si Yvo.

Yuka’s breathing became erratic habang nagpapalit-palit ang tingin niya sa dalawa. She had slept with both of them. She had slept with two men in one night! Bumangon siya mula sa kama, still clutching the blanket that was covering her nakedness. Bumaba si Yuka mula sa malaking kama at tumakbo sa pinto papunta sa banyo.

The two men both grabbed a pillow to cover their sexes.

“What the fuck are you doing here, dude?” Tate couldn’t keep the anger from his tone.

“I fucking don’t know.” Sagot naman ni Yvo.

“Shit!” Sinuklay ni Tate ang mga daliri sa buhok. “Did we have a three-way?”

“Fuck!” Napasandal si Yvo sa headboard ng kama.

Chapter Twelve

She couldn’t believe what she had done. She had been with two men in one night, both at the same time. The water that poured from the shower wasn’t enough to make her feel clean again. Even when the dried cum between her thighs and her stomach had been washed away by water, still the feeling was there. It was more than being physically dirty. She felt dirty to the core and no amount of soap and water could make it go away.

She could still feel the soreness between her legs, especially when she peed moments ago. A clear sign that that part of her had not been left untouched any longer. Gusto niyang iumpog ang ulo niya sa salamin ng shower. Paanong nangyari iyon? Bakit hinayaan? Bakit pati si Yvo?

“Yuka!” Narinig niya ang boses ni Tate mula sa labas ng banyo. “Yuka, mag-usap tayo. Open the door.”

She sniffed. “Hayaan mo muna ako, Tate.”

“Yuka…” He said, his voice now low and almost begging.

“Please, Tate!” Hindi niya naiwasan ang pagtaas ng boses niya.

“Okay, but I’ll be here. I’ll wait til you’re ready to come out.” Sabi nito sa kanya.

At pagkatapos nun ay ang lagaslas ng tubig na lang mula sa shower ang narinig niya. She had tried to gain back her memories of what had happened last night. Ang huling malinaw na memorya lang niya ay ang kasayaw siya ni Tate. After that, they were just broken, blurry fragments of memories. She had high tolerance for alcohol. Marami siyang nainom kagabi but she was sure it wasn’t enough to get her past the tipsy line. Kilala niya ang sarili niya, she used to be able to party until the break of dawn.

There were hands touching her and her intimate parts. Kisses, a lot of it. She remembered the feeling of a man inside her. There was indescribable pleasure and there was burning pain. She remembered a hand guiding hers, wrapping her fingers around his cock and moving it up and down. She couldn’t remembered clearly if it was happening while she was being fucked. There were moan and groans and the man on top of her stiffened. He rolled off her. There was a blank gap after and she was turned over to her stomach. A body positioning himself behind her and she was being fucked again. She had appreciated the pleasure now that the pain had already subsided. She was moaning. She was screaming in drunken pleasure. Only the feelings and emotions she had felt at that time were clear and vivid to her but the memories not so.

Nagtungo si Yvo sa bar at tinimplahan ang sarili ng kape. His head was throbbing. He was not much of a drinker. His tolerance for alcohol was abysmally low but two bottles of beer was not enough to get him drunk. He was careful not to even get tipsy dahil ang nasa isip niya ay ihahatid pa niya si Yuka pauwi. Nahilamos niya ang sariling mga palad sa mukha. Shame took over him as he buried his face into his palms. At napasigaw siya sa sobrang pagsisisi. He shouldn’t have had drunk too much.

“Yvo.” He heard Tate’s voice, the whole club was empty so his voice echoed throughout the whole room. Inangat niya ang mukha mula sa palad ang pumihit ang ulo sa gawi ni Tate na ngayon ay naglalakad papalapit sa kanya. He sat on the stool next to his.

“Hey.” Yvo tried to hide his shame and acted normal.

Bakas sa mukha ni Tate ang panlulumo. His face was dark and deeply lined. Tango lang ang tanging na sagot ng binata sa kanya.

“Do you want some coffee?” Tanong niya.

“What the fuck happened?” Tate finally blurted out, running his fingers through his hair, wanting to pull them out in frustration.

“Man, I wish I knew…” Naiiling na sabi ni Yvo.

“How the fuck did this even happen? I’ve only had, what? A shot of whiskey!”

“I know I have low tolerance for alcohol but I only had two bottle of beer. This is crazy!” Yvo was even more confused now.

There was a moment silence between them as if they were still trying to take in what had just happened. Nagising sila pareho sa iisang kama kasama ang isang babae. They had shared a woman. Tate’s woman.

“May naalala ka ba sa nangyari kagabi?”

An image suddenly emerged in his mind. He was moving on top of her. Her eyes closed, her beautiful porcelain doll-like face flushed with pure ecstasy. He did not remember a lot but he sure remembered how exquisite the feeling of her around his cock was. She was tight and hot and wet, her pussy clamping around him like a vise. Inangat ni Yvo ang tasa ng kapeng nasa harap niya at humigop. He tried to push the images off his mind. Damn it!

“Not so much.” He shook his head. “Ikaw ba?”

Tate could only remember the fragmented details. They were in his private room. Yuka stroking his cock with two hands while they kissed. His hands on her waist as her buttocks lifted up high and her upper body was kept low against the bed. He took her from behind and he could still remember how tight she was. She was squeezing him so much that he blew his load after, embarrassingly so, the third thrust.

“I remember having sex with Yuka.” Mahinang sabi ni Tate.

Yvo swallowed before he spoke again. “Me, too.”

Tate brushed both his fingers through his hair. “We really did it, didn’t we?”

He couldn’t answer his question, his eyes remained fixed on the dark coffee in the mug in front of him. Nagulat na lang siya nang tabigin ni Tate ang tasa and it went flying to the inside of the counter. He uttered an angry and frustrated cuss.

Tate got to his feet and began phasing back and forth. “We were drugged. Fuck! I’m sure we were drugged. If I were in my right mind I wouldn’t have let this happen.”

“I wouldn’t have done this too.” Yvo shook his head.

“U-uuwi na ako.” A small voice of a woman made both their heads snap to her direction. There stood Yuka now dressed, her eyes glued to her feet.

There was a brief moment of silence. The two men just stood their, staring at her. Yuka felt awkward and just turned and started walking away. Biglang tumalima si Tate ang sinundan ang babae. She caught her by her wrist and turned her to face him.

“Ihahatid na kita.”

“It’s okay. Mag-ga-grab na lang ako.” She quietly said.

“No, we need to talk.” Sabi naman ni Tate.

Indeed, they did. Hindi na din tumanggi si Yuka. She looked over Tate’s shoulder and Yvo’s eyes met hers. There was sadness in his eyes and regret, she wondered if she had the same emotions in hers. Tumango si Yvo she was not sure if it was an apology or a goodbye, she looked away and averted her eyes back to Tate.

Tate wrapped his arm around the back of her waist and guided her out. Sumakay sila sa kotse ng lalaki at nagsimula ng magmaneho. It was a quiet ride. It was obvious that the two were still in shock of what had happened last night.

“You were a virgin.” Tate finally spoke half way through the car ride.

Napasandal na lang si Yuka sa kinauupuan niya at mariin na napapikit. “Tate…”

“There was blood on the sheet. Tell me you weren’t a virgin.” He begged. It made it so much worse for him knowing that that was her first experience in sex. Although, it was really stupid to think of at all, he wished she’d just say that she had just started her period. “Please, tell me you weren’t…”

“I was…” Mahinang sabi ni Yuka habang ang ulo ay nakapihit sa side window ng kotse. Gusto niyang lamunin na lang siya ng upuan sa mga panahon iyon. Ni hindi niya alam kung sino sa dalawa ang unang nakakuha ng pagkakabae niya.

Tate cussed and punched his steering wheel, napaigti siya sa tinuran nito. Tate could not accept the fact that he had shared her with his bestfriend and it was her first time being penetrated by a man. Having a woman’s virginity was already too much of a responsibility to him but to share her with a friend was just fucking insane.

Yuka buried her face into her palms in shame and began to sob. Napilitan itigil ni Tate ang kotse sa gilid ng kalsada para aluhin siya.

“Hey, I’m sorry.” Kinabig niya ang ulo ng babae sa dibdib niya at marahan na hinalikan ang buhok. “I’m so sorry, buttercup.”

“Sorry din, Tate. Di dapat nangyari iyon. Dapat ikaw lang.” She sobbed.

“No, it was not your fault.” Hinaplos niya ang buhok ng babae. “Di dapat nangyari iyon pero hindi mo kasalanan. I should’ve looked after you.”

“Pakiramdam ko ang dumi-dumi ko.”

“Oh, you’re not, buttercup. Please, don’t think that.”

“Totoo naman. D-dalawa kayo. I had sex with both of you!” She shrieked between her sobs.

“It was just sex.” Tate said, trying to push away the thought that it was his bestfriend he shared her with. It was indeed just sex, this was not his first threesome as he was a well-experienced man, he had even had foursome but all with a group of girls. No men. It was the first time he had shared a woman with another man and it also happened to be with his bestfriend, now even for him that was a whole new level of fucked up. “I don’t fucking care, Yuka. We were not in our right minds. Someone drugged us.”

Napahinto si Yuka sa pag-iyak at nag-angat ng tingin kay Tate. Tumigas ang mukha ni Yuka, her jaw clenched as her thoughts narrowed down to one person. She had shared a drink with Tate that Ciara had given back to her. Pero bakit naman gagawin ng babae iyon sa kanya? She was aware that she was not the most well-loved girl in the school, in fact, a lot of women hated her but Ciara had no reason to.

Tate had dropped her off a few blocks away from her Ate and Kuya Migs’ house. Ayaw niyang madamay pa ito sa galit sa kanya ng mga ito. Isang katutak na text at missed calls na kagabi pa mula sa pamilya niya ang natanggap niya. Sa Ate niya lang siya nagreply kaninang umaga at sinabi niyang kasama ang mga kaibigan niya.

“CIARA!” She marched towards the woman when she saw her standing in front of her locker. The woman was obviously startled but didn’t even face her. Isinara nito ang locker at parang walang naririnig na nagmamadaling naglakad.

Yuka followed behind her as the woman’s pace hastened. Naabutan niya ang babae at agad na hinablot ang buhok mula sa likod at kinaladkad papunta sa restroom. “Putangina ka!”

“YUKA!” Tili nito nang humigpit ang hawak niya sa buhok. “Yuka, ano ba? Ano’ng ginawa ko?”

“Huwag ka nang mag-maangmaangan. Alam mo ang ginawa mo!” Her hold tightened even more as she forced the woman to face her. “Ano’ng nilagay mo sa inumin ko?”

Ciara’s eyes were already misty with tears as she struggled to get out of her hold. “H-hindi ko alam.”

“Ano’ng hindi mo alam?” Inalog niya ang ulo ng babae. “Gusto mong kalbuhin kita?”

“I-inutusan lang naman ako ni Tracy…” Mangiyak-ngiyak na sabi nito. “Sabi niya kapag ginawa ko daw iyon, magiging kaibigan ko na sila.”

Yuka’s chest heaved with so much fury. Gusto niyang patayin si Tracy nang mga panahon na iyon. Because of what that she-devil had done, she was no different now from her mother. She was a whore. Nakipagtalik siya sa dalawang lalaki nang sabay sa iisang gabi.

“Alam mo ba ang ginagawa mo, ha?” Her eyes stung with tears.

“Ms. Flores.” It was her professor with her brows furrowed deeply. “Ano’ng nangyayari dito.”

“Mrs. De Leon!” Ciara cried out. “Tulungan niyo ako!”

“Flores, let go of her.” She demanded.

Sinunod naman niya ang inutos ng professor. She roughly let go of her, her face slamming to the ground. Tumili ang babae and when she looked down at her, her nose was already bleeding from the impact.

“Ms. Flores!” Nagtaas ang boses ang ginang at dinaluhan ang babaeng nakaupo sa sahig habang hawak nito ang ilong na tila pinipigil ang pagdurugo. “Itong mga ginagawa mo, this will be on your records. Magkita tayo sa office!”

She had felt no remorse. Kung siya lang, she would’ve slammed her face even harder so that her nose would break. Wala na siyang pakialam kung isuspende siya ng university.

“Please, Mrs. De Leon, please let me handle her.” Biglang nasa likod niya na si Yvo at humawak ang mga kamay nito sa kanyang braso. “Ako na ang bahala sa kanya.”

Before the woman could open her mouth, Yvo ushered her away. It was him playing Superman all over again.

“Pwede ba, huwag ka munang bumuntot sa akin.” She said, not even having the guts to look at him. The man she had had sex with the other night with Tate. “Pabayaan mo muna ako. Kaya ko ang sarili ko.”

“Yuka, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean… what happened last night, hindi ko alam iyon.” He shook his head. “If I were in my right state of mind, alam mong hindi ko gagawin iyon. I would never do anything to ruin you and Tate’s relationship.”

“Did you drink from my glass, too?” She asked in a rather cold tone.

Yvo paused and thought for a moment. “Yes, I think I did. I might have not realized that it was your drink.”

“Yung babae kanina. Siya ang naglagay ng drug sa inumin ko.” Mangiyak-ngiyak na sabi ni Yuka. “Inutusan siya ni Tracy para gawin iyon. Sinira nila ako. Sinira nila ang pagkatao ko.”

“Hey…” Yvo took a step closer to her and touched her cheek. “We have to report this to the police. This isn’t right.”

Sunod-sunod na nailing si Yuka. “At ano? Malalaman ng lahat ang nangyari sa atin tatlo? Pakiramdam ko masahol pa ako sa puta.”

“Please, stop saying that.” Malumanay na sabi ni Yvo bago pinahid ang luhang nagbabadyang tumulo mula sa mga mata niya. “Hindi pa rin nagbabago ang tingin ko sa’yo. You’re still a friend and if you need me or just a shoulder to cry on, I’ll always be here for you.”

“G-gusto ko munang mapag-isa, Yvo. Huwag ka munang lumapit sa akin, please. Iyon lang ang hihilingin ko sa’yo.” Sabi niya sa lalaki bago naglakad palayo sa lalaki.

Chapter Thirteen

It had been another day of eating lunch alone for Yvo. He had been so used to having her around that it felt so unnatural when she wasn’t. If he were honest with himself, he had missed the way he smiles at her, how those two eyes disappear under her cheeks. Her cheeky laughter and her candid personality.

He had passed by her earlier at the hall. It was obvious that she was avoiding him. She pretended she didn’t see him and looked the other way when they passed by each other. Yuka was having it rough, he knew. Kanina ay pinanood niya lang sa malayo ito habang naglulunch mag-isa ang babae. It was not the Yuka he was used to seeing. She was in low-spirit, always keeping her head down and never making eye contact with anyone. Pinag-uusapan si Yuka sa buong campus at ang video na lumabas, it had even been making rounds in the internet. She was the topic of every gossip now and it infuriated him that nobody was doing a damn thing about it. He had updated the office earlier about the issue and they told him that they were looking in to it. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa nila alam kung sino ang may kagagawan sa nangyari. He’d even suggested who they should be investigating. This was an elite university and the school take what had happened seriously. Because to him, it doesn’t feel like they were.

“Yvo.” He heard a voice from behind him as he was busy with sequencing a genome for the latest drug they were researching.

He took his eye off the screen of the monitor and turned to face the man. Tate stood in front of him with hands in his pockets.

“Hey.” He gave him an awkward nod. “Ano’ng ginagawa mo dito?”

“Yuka has not replied to any of my messages. Hindi din niya sinasagot ang mga tawag ko.” Tate said in a low tone. It was slowly driving him mad.

“Hindi na din kami nag-uusap ni Yuka.” Sabi niya.

“Man, I don’t know what to do. Paano kung hindi na ako kausapin ni Yuka?”

“I think she just needs a little time to herself.” Yvo let out a deep breath.

“Alam mong siya lang ang sineryoso ko ng ganito. I’ve never been this serious with any woman. Why did you fuck her?” There was an undertone of resentment in his voice. Whether it was for Yvo or the situation they were in, both of them didn’t know. Nobody knew who’s fault was who.

“I’m sorry…” Yvo felt guilt. If it hadn’t been for him, the two would have still be okay. Even though he was drugged at that time, he couldn’t help but feel that it was him who had ruined his bestfriend and Yuka’s budding relationship. “You know I’d never do anything to ruin your relationship with her. Hindi ko ginusto ang nangyari.”

“Goddamn it!” Tate shouted out of frustration. His own bestfriend had slept with her woman. His own damn bestfriend. The easiest thing to do was to put the blame on Yvo, be mad at him, but he was just as much of a victim as them.

“Mahal ka ni Yuka.” Yvo quietly said. “Hindi na natin maibabalik ang nangyari, it already happened but if she hadn’t been drugged, I don’t think she’d want to sleep with any man other than you. Kung anuman ang nangyari noong gabing iyon, it won’t change the fact that it’s you who she loves.”

He was right. It was just sex that had happened between them. There were no feelings involved and none of them barely remembers what had happened. Just pure mindless sex that didn’t mean anything.

“I love her too.” Tate softly said, his eyes lowering to his feet.

“I know.” Yvo took in a deep breath. “If there’s anything I can do to fix your relationship with Yuka, I’d gladly do it. Whatever it is. Kung kailangan kong lumayo sa inyo, gagawin ko. No question asked.”

“Are you done with your work?” Tate asked.

“Yeah.” Yvo shrugged, his eyes averting back to the computer screen. He was nowhere near done but he thought this was far more important right now. Mababalikan niya naman itong ginagawa niya bukas.

“Let’s talk this over dinner.” Aya ng kaibigan sa kanya.

“Okay.” Yvo simply answered and turned off the computer.

Yvo took off his lab coat and walked with Tate to the parking lot. There were only few cars left at the parking lot as it was already seven in the evening. At this time, there were only few classes being held. There was nothing but heavy silence between them, both not knowing what to say to each other.

“It was Ciara’s fault, that dumb bitch. Sinira niya ang plano ko. I told her to keep an eye on Yuka.” The voice of a woman made both of them stop mid-step.

Yvo and Tate stared at each other, the conversation caught the men’s attention when Yuka’s name was said. Just two cars away from them were Tracy and Janno having cigarette, walang kaalam-alam ang dalawa na may nakikinig sa pag-uusap nila.

“Bakit din kasi pinabayaan mong mawala sa paningin mo si Yuka? Alam mo ba kung gaano kamahal ang pill na iyon? It’s the newest and most potent molly ever made. Did she even drink it?” Janno asked.

“I don’t know! Sabi ni Ciara kinuha naman daw niya! We could’ve made a real sex video this time kung hindi dahil sa tanga-tangang babaeng iyon! I gave her one simple task! She even had the guts to ask me kung magkaibigan na ba kami after telling me na alam na ni Yuka na I was behind this! I swear, she’s as dumb as a brick.”

“Ibig sabihin na alam ni Yuka na may nilagay sa inumin niya? Fuck! She did take it!” Janno’s face twisted into a scowl. “She probably fucked another guy.”

“Well, I hope she gets STD.” Tracy chuckled.

“I was supposed to be the one to fuck her. Ang usapan natin you’ll give her the pill and you take her to me. It’s that simple.”

“Why are you this desperate to have her, Janno? Ano ba ang meron sa babaeng yan? We already have the blowjob scandal you had with her out. Hindi pa ba enough iyon? Everyone already knows what a whore she is.”

“I want a real sex scandal, not a fake ass blowjob video. Kaya malakas pa rin ang loob ng babaeng yan dahil walang napatunayan ang video na iyon. I don’t even think she cares.” Janno shook his head. “A video of me fucking her. That’s what I want, Tracy. Don’t you understand? Nobody plays me for a fool and get away with it.”

“Why does it turn me on to see you this mad?” Tracy purred seductively as she threw what was left of her cig to the ground and crushed it with her heels. “You want to go to my pad?”

Janno shrugged apathetically.

“You son of a bitch!” Tate couldn’t stop himself from charging towards Janno. Hinawakan niya ang lalaki sa kwelyo and he almost lifted him from the ground. Tracy stood there, watching with eyes wide in shock. “You’ll pay for what you did to Yuka! I will fucking kill you!”

“Putangina mo, bitawan mo ako!” The man tried to struggle free from his hold. Dumukot ito mula sa bulsa ng baril, Tate let go of him when he saw the gun being pointed at him. He took a step back and raised both his hand to show Janno that he was surrendering. Tate may have a more superior physique but he was no stupid. He wouldn’t stand a chance against a gun and he didn’t want to dare to, one flick of a finger and it would fly to his head and blow his brain out.

“Ano? Nasaan ang yabang mo ngayon?” Janno smirked.

“Janno, watch out!” Sigaw ni Tracy when she saw Yvo sneaking up from behind him. Janno turned his head to Yvo’s direction and before he could do anything, he was immobalized when his arms were pulled and held together to his back. A fire was shot and Tracy let out a scream.

“Tate…” Yuka walked into the room to find him sitting on the chair in front of the police’s table.

She was at home, watching a TV series in her bedroom when she received a call from the police. Nang banggitin nito ang pangalan ni Tate, Yvo, at Janno ay hindi na nagdalawang-isip si Yuka na pumunta, she dropped her popcorn and her remote control and went straight to the station.

Agad na napatayo si Tate mula sa kinauupuan at lumapit kay Yuka. He cradled her face with his hands and his eyes lit up eagerly as he looked at her.

“Buttercup, I thought I won’t see you again.” He said in the softest of tone. “Bakit hindi mo sinasagot ang mga tawag at messages ko sa’yo?”

“I… I just needed time, Tate.” She answered as she tried to stop herself from throwing her arms around the man standing in front of him.

“Si Tracy at Janno ang naglagay ng drug sa inumin mo. We recorded their whole conversation. He was planning to have sex with you and have it on video.”

It somehow didn’t surprise her at all. It sounded like something Tracy and Janno would do. The two were evil to the core. They were the kind of people who have never been told no all their lives and never experienced hard bounderies, whose sense of entitlement and power were astonishing that they had no problem ripping apart anyone who comes in the way of what they want.

“Janno accidentally shot Yvo.” Sabi ni Tate.

Yuka’s eyes widened in surprise at what she had heard and then concern took over her. “Kumusta na si Yvo? Nasaan na siya?”

“He’s fine. Nasa ospital siya ngayon. Nadaplisan lang ng bala ang balat niya, he’s been treated.” Sabi ni Tate.

“Ano ba kasi ang nangyari?” She asked.

“I confronted Janno after hearing his conversation with Tracy about the drug they put on your drink. Hindi ko alam na may baril pala siya, Yvo held his hand to his back and the gun shot him. Janno and Tracy are locked up. We can press charges for what they’ve done to you… to us.”

Yuka stiffened at what she had heard and worriedly glanced at the police officer behind the desk. “Sinabi mo sa kanila ang nangyari?”

“Not yet. I want you here when we report it.” Sagot nito sa kanya.

Sunod-sunod na umiling si Yuka. “Ayokong may makaalam.”

“But Yuka, you’re just going to let that go?”

“Ano ang gusto mong sabihin ko sa kanila na nakipagtalik ako sa dalawang lalaki ng gabing iyon?” She said in a low growl. She was more angry at herself more than anybody else. She was ashamed that she had let that happen.

“They don’t have to know-”

“But they will. Uungkatin nila ang lahat ng nangyari noong gabing iyon. Please, Tate, I don’t want anyone to know.” Yuka pleaded, her eyes watering with tears. She wanted to forget what had happened that night. Ayaw niya nang balikan ulit iyon.

Tate let out a deep sigh. Si Yuka pa rin ang magdedesisyon nun dahil siya ang higit na naapektuhan. For God’s sake, she was a virgin until that night. Tate was an open-minded person but he knew that a woman’s first should only be with a man she feels comfortable giving her body to. Yuka had hers while she was not in her right state of mind. Ayaw niyang tanggalan ulit ang babae ng karapatan na magdesisyon para sa sarili niya.

“Okay. Just don’t cry. I hate seeing you like this.” Tate’s voice was gentle and soothing. He pulled her towards him in a tight embrace. “Yuka, you’re going to drive me crazy not answering my messages and calls.”

“I’m sorry…” Mahinang sabi niya at pumulupot ang mga bisig niya sa lalaki.

A bullet had grazed against the skin of his left leg but it did not penetrate. Luckily it was just a light scrape, nothing serious. Securities went running towards the parking lot after hearing the gun shot. Janno was immediately handcuffed and taken by the police while he was ushered to an ambulance. Tate was with him when he got to the hospital but was invited by the police to give out his statement of what had happened at the parking lot.

“Yvo…” His head lifted up to see Yuka standing by the door to the small room he was put in. His wound had already been cleaned and bandaged. Halos nadampian lang nga siya ng bala, his injury was non-life threatening. He’d just been prescribed an antibiotic just to be on the safer side and other than some bruising to his flesh, he was all good.

“Kumusta ka na?” She spoke again when he had not responded to her calling his name.

“I’m doing good now.” He answered. “Nilinis lang ng doktor ang sugat. I’m just thankful there’s no bullet to dig out of me.”

“Buti naman kung ganon.” Yuka nodded her head.

“You sure you’re okay, dude?” Tate asked as he appeared from behind Yuka.

“Yeah.” Nagbaba siya ng tingin. “The doctor said I’m ready to go.”

“That’s good.”

“Ano’ng nangyari kay Janno?” He curiously asked.

“He’s still in jail.” He quietly said and averted his gaze to the girl. “Yuka doesn’t want to press charges.”

“Kalimutan na natin iyon. Ayokong may makaalam tungkol sa… sa nangyari.” She shrugged, her gaze uncomfortably shifting elsewhere. “I just wanted to make sure na okay ka lang. Kailangan ko nang umalis baka hinahanap na ako nina Ate.”

“I’ll drive you home.” Tate offered.

Yuka nodded her head.

“I’m just going to take her home. Babalikan kita.” Said Tate.

“It’s okay. Tatay will pick me up.”

Tate nodded his head and wrapped his arm around the small of Yuka’s back.

“Yuka, Tate…” Tawag ni Yvo nang tumalikod na ang dalawa para umalis. The two paused. “I hope we’d all just forget about what had happened. Kung kailangan lumayo ako sa inyo, gagawin ko. But please, I hope whatever happened that night wouldn’t affect whatever you two have. It was a mistake and we all know it.”

“Yeah.” Tate agreed.

The two began walking again. Pumunta sila sa parking lot at sumakay sa kotse. It was a quiet ride, a thick tension in the air. Yuka didn’t know what to tell Tate, ni hindi niya alam kung paano niya pakikisamahan ang lalaki pagkatapos sa nangyari. The car came to a halt when they were outside Migs’ house.

“Yuka, whatever happened that night, hindi magbabago ang tingin ko sa’yo.” Tate shifted so that he was facing her. Kinuha nito ang kamay ng babae at hinalikan. “You’re still the woman I fell in love with. Please don’t ask me to stay away from you because I won’t be able to. Let’s start over again. Kung anuman ang nangyari noong gabing iyon, kalimutan natin iyon. Ang mahalaga ay ang nararamdaman natin sa isa’t-isa. Don’t you have feelings for me anymore?”

“O-of course, I do…” She blinked. “Pero Tate-”

“Shh… that’s enough. That’s all I want to hear.” Tate kissed her forehead and then reached over his glove compartment. He took out a black velvet rectangular box. Binuksan iyon ng lalaki. Inside it was a white gold necklace with a round diamond pendant.

“Tate!” She gasped as the diamond shone in the dark. She was no jewelry expert but she could tell just by looking at it that that thing had cost a fortune. But this was Tate, it was probably just pocket change to him. Nag-angat siya ng tingin sa lalaki.

“Let me put this on you.” Kinuha ni Tate ang kuwintas mula sa box.

“Are you sure gusto mong ibigay sa akin yan?” She asked.

“Who else would I give this to?” He chuckled as he put the necklace around her neck. “It fits you perfectly. I knew it would look beautiful on you.”

“Tate, oh my God!” Napahawak siya sa kuwintas nang ma-lock na ito ng lalaki. She took out her phone and looked at herself through the front camera. “Ang ganda…”

“It was you who I had in mind when I picked it out.” He let out a soft smile. “I want to give you something to remember me by even when we’re not together. I thought a ring but that can wait. Naisip ko na lang na necklace para palagi akong malapit sa puso mo.”

“Oh, Tate.” Naluluha-luhang sabi ni Yuka. Despite what had happened, she knew his feelings for her was still as pure. Pinatunayan lang nito sa kanya na hindi lang sex ang habol ng lalaki. It wasn’t just physical. It was something more.

“Give me a chance, please? I still want to court you, Yuka. We’ll take it slow, I promise.” He said with pleading eyes. “What do you say?”

She wrapped her arms around him and that was all the answer he ever needed.

Yvo took in a deep breath and exhaled as if he had breathed out all the guilt that had been weighing on him since that night. He had fucked his bestfriend’s woman. Tate may have been the most open minded person he had ever met but he knew it affected him. As much as they wanted to think that it was just sex and that it meant nothing, they still fucked. It would still linger at the back of his and Tate’s mind that they had gone to bed with the woman his bestfriend was in love with.

He stared at the door where the two had left. Ilang minuto pa ay nagmamadaling pumasok ang ina niya mula sa pinto. The ever beautiful Miranda Cordova, his mother’s beauty hadn’t wither a bit even with a look of worry was drawn upon her face. Age had only refined and perfected the woman’s look, making her appear more sophisticated. One of the recognized models in her youth, she was still as relevant to the modelling world as she was before being the long-time brand ambassador of a haute couture house.

“My baby…” Agad na tumakbo sa kanya ang ina at niyakap siya. He took his mother’s hand and his bent down so that his forehead could touch the back of her hand. “Ano’ng nangyari sa’yo? Who did this to you? Sabi ko naman kasi sa’yo, mag-iingat ka palagi? How did this even happen?”

“Nay, I’m okay.” He gently stroked his mother’s hair. “It’s just a scratch.”

“Ano’ng sabi ng doktor? Nakakalakad ka pa ba.” She asked, worriedly. His mother had always been protective of him and her little sister. His father was a chill guy which was good as it balances everything out.

“Nay, I already told you, galos lang ito. Nothing serious. Nakakalakad ako.” He chuckled, trying to make light of the situation so as not to freak her mother out even more. “I had a small wound and some bruising because of the impact of the bullet but other than that, I’m perfectly okay. I can walk, do you wanna see?”

“No! No, baby! Umupo ka na lang diyan. Let me take care of you. Ano bang gusto mo? We’ll buy whatever food you want. I’m sure nagugutom ka na.” She asked as she brushed her fingers through his hair.

“Anak.” His Tatay walked into the room with worry on his face. “Okay ka lang ba? You scared Nanay and I.”

“Tay, I’m fine. Don’t worry about me.” Sabi niya. Nang lumapit ang ama ay nagmano din siya dito. Tristan playfully ruffled his son’s hair. Besides the gauze bandaged on his calf, the boy looked perfectly fine.

“Ikaw naman kasi, sabi ko sa’yo palagi kang mag-iingat.” Andi scolded.

“When I told you to always be careful, I also meant outside of bed.” Sabi ng tatay niya.

“Tristan!” Andi’s eyes widened at her husband. She still thought of Yvo as her baby boy, not a mature sexual being. She couldn’t think of his baby boy like that.

“I was just kidding.” Tristan, who had made it a habit to tease his wife, chuckled.

Yvo chuckled along with his father. Andi couldn’t help a smile as she shook her head, her eyes going back and forth the two men in her life.

“Doon ka muna sa bahay natin so we can take care of you.” Paglalambing ni Andi sa anak.

“Nay, I’m going to be okay. You don’t have to take care of me.” He gave his mother a warm smile.

“But I want to.” Andi held her son’s hand.

“Oo nga, kahit ngayon gabi lang.” His Dad agreed.

A knock on the door interrupted their conversation. An older man, probably in his 50s, carefully walked into the room.

“May we help you?” Tristan arched a brow as he looked at him. It wasn’t the doctor he spoke with earlier.

“Ako ang ama ni Janno.” Sabi ng lalaki. “The boy that had accidentally shot him.”

“What do you want?” Tristan asked the older man.

“Nandito ako para pakiusap na huwag niyong kasuhan ang anak ko. My son is the university’s best athlete, he has a bright future ahead of him. Ayokong masira iyon dahil sa isang record. He made a mistake pero baka pwede naman natin ma-remediyohan yan. Wala naman hindi madadaan sa pag-uusap.”

“Ayaw namin makipag-usap ngayon. I’ll just have my lawyer contact you.” Sabi ni Tristan.

The man’s back straightened as if trying to restore dignity. “I have a lot of connections. Pumunta lang ako dito dahil akala ko ay madadaan ko sa magandang pakiusap pero mukhan ayaw mo. I guess I’ll have to use those connection.”

“Get the fuck out of here.” Tristan lost his cool at what he had heard. The man had the guts to talk to them like that after his son had shot his. He had no idea what he was getting himself into.

“You don’t know who you’re dealing with.” Naningkit ang mga mata ng lalaki.

“Neither do you.” Sagot ni Tristan. “Are you threatening me, asshole?”

“Do you feel threatened? Dapat lang. Mataas ang posisyon ko sa crame. Kung gugustuhin ko mailalabas ko ang anak ko doon.”

“I have in my contacts the PNP Chief. Baka gusto mong makausap?” Hamon ni Tristan. The Lavignes, his brother-in-law’s family, had a tight relationship with the PNP Chief as it was Axel’s father’s bestfriend. The reason why despite the billions the Cordova had when Coco was taken to jail, they could never get them out.

The man paused as if trying to calculate if what Tristan had said was true or he was just bluffing. Meanwhile, Yvo’s brain was running a million miles a minute.

“I won’t press any charges.” Yvo said. “But I have one condition…”

Chapter Fourteen

A crowd was gathered at the very middle of the university, a wide, open space surrounded by the school’s building. The place was a popular hang out place to students and was also a space where big events, such as school concerts and celebrations, were held. Curious to what was going on, Yuka couldn’t help but stop and take a peak before heading to her next class.

“Ano’ng nagyayari?” Yuka asked the woman standing next to her.

“Hindi ko din alam. Inannounce lang kanina sa speaker na pumunta dito sa field.” She answered, shrugging her shoulders.

She had missed the announcement dahil pagkatapos ng klase ay dumiretso siya sa restroom para ayusin ang make-up niya. Something she used to do with Tracy and the monkeys in between classes, but now she does everything alone.

“Good morning everyone.” Sabi ng boses sa mike. All eyes were suddenly on the platform in front of them. There stood Janno in front of them with Tracy standing next to him with a withdrawn and annoyed look on her face. Janno cleared his throat, his eyes fixed on the paper he was holding. “We would like to take this time to publicly apologize to Yuka Grace Flores for damaging her reputation.”

Yuka’s brows crumpled when her name was said.

“We, Janno Alonzo and Tracy Padua, were the one who played the video of the alleged oral scandal that has tainted Yuka Grace Flores’ name. Nandito po kami, nakatayo sa harap niyo, para linisin ang pangalan ni Yuka.” Said Janno.

“It was a year ago when it happened at my party.” Si Tracy naman ang nagsalita. “We were playing 7 minute in heaven and since Yuka was the new girl, we decided to play a little joke on her.”

“It was a joke that got out of hand and we deeply aplogize to Ms. Yuka Grace Flores.” Tila maamong tupang sabi ni Janno. “We were locked up in a dark closet, just as how the game is supposed to go, I unzipped my pants and pushed her down her knees to make it seem like she was giving me oral and then that was when I signalled for Tracy to open the door. It was just a joke, guys.”

It happened just as how Janno told it. She was pushed down and the next thing she knew, the door opened and there was a dick in front of her face. She wanted to belong, to be one with the rich, liberated kids and went along with it. She didn’t want to act all embarrassed when people at the party started teasing her about it because honestly, she’d seen them do worse. People were making out and dry humping each other at the party and she didn’t want to be called a prude. After the party, Janno started pursuing her hanggang sa pumayag na siyang i-date ang lalaki. She wasn’t attracted to the man, it was just that he was a famous basketball player and it gained her a little social leverage being seen with him. Isa pa, kaibigan din siya ni Tracy, the woman she was trying to impress at that time so that she could get into their social circle. She was once a Ciara not too long ago willing to do anything to get on Queen Tracy’s good side.

He broke up with Janno after she became best friends with Tracy and he wanted more out of their relationship. Hindi na ito kontento sa make out lang, he started pressuring her to having sex so she broke up with him. Her refusal to sleep with him didn’t come from high moral ground, it was in fact the opposite. Janno just wasn’t rich enough for her. He was just a pawn, the first step up the social ladder. She looked at sex as power and if she was going to give it away, she’d want something huge in return. She wasn’t going to give it away like her mother did, for just a few coins in the pocket. She was no one thousand peso whore. So far, nobody had given her a car yet to allow them access between her legs.

“If you’re hearing this, I hope you find it in your heart to forgive us, Yuka.” Sabi ni Tracy.

Yuka couldn’t deny that it felt good hearing Tracy and Janno ask for forgiveness in front of all these people, the same people she had been humiliated in front of. But she wanted more than an apology. She wanted them to feel the humiliation she felt. Kulang pa ito sa mga kagaguhan na ginawa nila sa kanya.

Yuka strided towards the stage and got on it. Parehong pumihit ang ulo ni Janno at Tracy sa gawi niya. She held her chin up as she looked at the two people who had almost ruined her relationship with Tate.

“You want my forgiveness?” She asked.

“Y-yeah…” Janno answered. “Patawarin mo sana kami sa nagawa namin, Yuka.”

“Paano ko malalaman kung sincere kayo?” Her eyes narrowed into slits.

Tracy fought hard not to make a face. “Hindi pa ba sapat na nandito kami ngayon?”

“No, Tracy, hindi pa sapat yun. I want you two to earn my forgiveness.” Yuka answered.

“How?” Tanong ni Janno.

“Lumuhod kayo sa harap ko in front of these people” One corner of Yuka’s lips tugged into a smirk.

“Are you fucking kidding me? Sino ka para luhuran ko?” Hindi na napigilan ni Tracy ang inis.

“Give me a break! Alam ko kung ilan lalaki na ang niluhuran mo.” Yuka chuckled.

“You bitch.” Tracy said through gritted teeth.

“Just fucking do it, Tracy.” Janno whispered to him as his eyes went to the man standing in the far corner. The man he had accidentally shot and had threatened him with a lawsuit if they didn’t do as told. He had a voice record of the conversation Tracy and him had at the parking lot. Patong-patong na kaso ang pwedeng isampa sa kanila and his father couldn’t do anything about it, the family was well-connected.

Yuka followed his eyes and had realized that Yvo was standing in the corner, watching them. Nagtama ang mga mata nila, she was taken aback for a few moment before regaining her composure. She somehow knew that he had something to do with this.

“Wala sa usapan natin ito.” Tracy threw him a sharp look.

“Do you want to go to jail? Kasi ako ayoko.” Janno said in a low tone.

Nag-iwas si Yuka nang tingin at ibinaling ulit ito kay Janno at Tracy. She put back on her bitchy face and looked at them with a smug smile. She had the upper hand here.

“I’m waiting.” Sabi niya.

Janno went down on two knees in front of her and her smile grew big. Then she looked at Tracy, the woman spitefully looked back at her for a few seconds before finally giving in and kneeling in front of her. It was as if her hand had a mind of its own when it lifted up and slapped Janno across the face and then she spat on Tracy’s face. It generated a gasp and whispers from the crowd.

“You asshole!” Tumayo si Tracy at nang akmang susugurin siya ay pinigil siya ni Janno. The woman wiped away the spit on her face.

“Bitawan mo ako!” Tracy tried to pry Janno’s hands away from her. “I’m going to kill that bitch!”

“I don’t want to go to jail, Tracy.” Janno said.

“Kulang pa yan sa ginawa niyo sa akin.” Dinuro niya ang dalawa bago bumaba ng stage.

She walked away from the crowd of people. Nakita niyang naglalakad na din palayo si Yvo. Things hadn’t been the same since that night and she knew it would never be the same again between him and her. The thought of that made her feel somewhat sad because Yvo was one of the few people she could really be herself with. They could never be friends again after what had happened, lalo na at kaibigan pa ito ni Tate. They could never be together again without the thought of the threesome they had.

“Doc!” She couldn’t help herself.

Agad naman na lumingon ang binata. They both just stood in front of each other. Yuka opened her mouth but her mind went blank for a few moments that she had to take in a deep breath to regain her thoughts.

“Kumusta na ang sugat mo?” She asked, her eyes lowering to the calf where the bullet had grazed but the trouser he was wearing covered it.

“It’s nothing to worry about. Mababaw na sugat lang iyon, it barely break through my skin.” He answered.

Yuka nodded her head. “Buti naman at walang nangyari sa’yo.”

“How are you?” Yvo smiled, his hand lifting up to push his glasses higher onto the brigde of his nose, a habit he always does when he feels nervous or awkward.

“Okay lang.” Yuka forced a smile. “May kinalaman ka ba sa paghingi ni Tracy at Janno ng tawad sa akin?”

“I told them that if they make a public apology hindi ako magfa-file ng lawsuit. What they did to you- to us, was not right.” Yvo shook his head, letting out a sigh. He could never take back that night even if he wanted pero gusto niyang bumawi man lang kahit konti kay Yuka, she had lost the most that night. She wanted the people who had ruined Yuka’s reptutation to clear out her name.

Yuka lowered her gaze to her feet. That night was a memory she didn’t want to go back to.

“Gusto kong kalimutan na iyon.” Mahinang sabi niya.

“I understand.” Yvo nodded his head. “You know, Tate has always seen the best in you while at first I never wanted to see you in that light and for that I’m sorry. I didn’t tell you that Tate’s my bestfriend because I wanted to know if you really did have feelings for him. I thought the worst of you but you proved me wrong. I’m keeping my word, Yuka. Ako na ang iiwas sa inyo ni Tate. It would be best if I stay away from you two.”

“Thank you.” Yuka said in a small voice. It would indeed be best if they stay away from each other. They could never look at each other the same way again knowing that they had shared a bed together. Ayaw din naman ni Yuka na bigyan si Tate ng dahilan para

Nothing had changed with the way Tate sees Yuka. His feelings for her remained the same even after that night. Magsisinungaling siya sa sarili niya kung sasabihin niyang okay lang sa kanya iyon. No man would ever be okay with having the woman he loves sleep with his bestfriend but it had already happened, what more could he possibly do? Wala ni isa sa kanila ang may kasalanan sa nangyari. Not him, not Yvo, and not Yuka. They were drugged. It was just sex. There was no feelings involved. Iyon na lang ang paulit-ulit niyang sinasabi sa sarili niya. He wouldn’t lie. The thought of it still kills him inside. No matter how promiscuous Tate was, it was still different with the woman he really had feelings for. Unwanted questions would swarm his head. Did Yuka come with Yvo? Did she liked the feeling of him inside her? And everytime, he would try so hard to swat it away. It was just sex, just… nothing.

“Tate!” Yuka hopped towards her as he leaned against his car, this time he took out his aqua blue Zenvo to pick her up.

Tate jogged to her, meeting her halfway and taking the books she was carrying. “Hey, buttercup. How’s your day?”

“Okay naman. Nothing special.” Yuka answered. It had been two weeks ago since Janno and Tracy made a public apology, they were both suspended when the dean heard what they had done to her, and she was able to redeem her social status. Lalo na ngayon na palagi siyang nababalitang kasama ni Tate, friends flock to her like butterflies to a daisy. Everybody wanted to be her friend. She had overthrown Queen Tracy, she had established her reign as the new queen bee when she made Tracy kneel in front of her. Everything was working in her favor.

“Dapat hindi mo na ako sinundo. Galing ka pa ng meeting, nagpahinga ka na lang sana. Ang layo ng pinanggalingan mo.” She said in a concerned tone. Yuka knew Tate was a huge star, not just in the Philippines but internationally. He had a lot of projects lined up but still, Tate made sure he always had time for her. Ramdam niya talaga ang sincerity nito sa panliligaw sa kanya.

“Makita lang kita kahit gaano ako kapagod, seeing you makes everything so much better..” He pinched her chin between to fingers and tilted her head to look at him. “That beautiful face is like sunshine to me. Warm sunshine.”

Her eyes disappeared as she smiled and her nose crinkled. “Ikaw talaga. Dinadaan mo na naman ako sa sweet talk mo. You really know what a woman wants to hear.”

“I speak from the heart, buttercup.” He winked at her before leaving a soft kiss on her forehead. He had been a real gentleman to her despite of what had happened between him, her, and Yvo. He stood true to his words when he said that they’d take it slow at liligawan niya ang babae. “Lahat ng lumalabas sa bibig ko, know that I meant every word of it. I love you, Yuka.”

Yuka tilted her head up to look him in the eyes. Those words and the soft look in those mesmerizing eyes sent tingles down Yuka’s spine. He meant it. He really did. There was nothing but sincerity in those words. He had never had a man love her as gently as he did.

“I love you too, Tate.” She said, her heart swelling with emotions for the man standing in front of her. There was no doubt in her heart that Tate was the one for her. She could see her future with him. As practical as she was when it comes to love, there was still a hopless romantic girl inside her. She had wished for a love story like her Ate Saskia’s. Pinangarap niya din na makahanap ng isang Migs na mamahalin siya at iaalay sa kanya ang mundo and she found it in Tate.

A soft smile etched across Tate’s perfectly shaped lips. His head lowered to kiss the tip of her nose and then pressed his lips against hers. It was quick, sweet, and wholesome unlike the kiss they had shared in the past. He was really trying to prove himself to her even though she know there was no need to. He had already proven himself by still being here with her sa kabila ng nangyari.

Muling umangat ang ulo ni Tate para tignan siya. He held her face in both hands.

“You’re the only girl I’ve ever felt this way about.” He pushed some loose strands of Yuka’s iron curled hair behind her ears.

“Naniniwala naman ako sa’yo.” Ngumiti si Yuka sa lalaki.

“Good.” He said with a cheeky smile. As soon as his eyes left hers, he’d caught a sight of Yvo walking to the parking lot from the building.

“Hey, dude!” He waved at the man walking and oblivious that they were even there. Agad na tumingin sa kanya ang lalaki.

Things had never really been the same between Yvo and Tate since what had happened. Nag-iiwasan ang dalawa. They knew the bro code, none of them had fucked a woman the other had fucked. They had not just broken it, they had shattered it to pieces that night.

Tate wanted to make it less awkward. He didn’t want to brew any hostility between them, Yvo had been his bestfriend since they were probably just infants. Magkaibigan ang mga magulang nila at ayaw niyang mag-iwasan sila. Maliit lang ang mundong ginagalawan nila. Most of all, gusto niyang patunayan na wala sa kanya ang nangyari. He thought that if he showed that it didn’t matter to him, it wouldn’t matter to the two of them and they could all just forget about it like it never even happened at all.

Yvo stopped and waved at them. Umiiwas ang lalaki hindi lang kay Yuka kung hindi kay Tate na din. He thought it would be best if he stayed away from the two. Sa tuwing aayain siya ni Tate na lumabas ay palagi siyang tumatanggi and he knew his friend knew the reason as to why he was avoiding him. He was a conservative man and unlike his bestfriend, he could not just forget and act like he had not gone to be with the couple. Sure he had laid with women here and there, have had a few casual sex as he was still a man after all, but to have a threeway with his bestfriend and his girl was beyond him.

“How are you doing, man?” Lumapit si Tate and he playfully punched him on the arm, just as how he’d typically greet him.

Yvo smiled and shrugged his shoulders. “Doing good. I’m a bit busy with research but everything’s good.”

“Nabanggit nga pala ni Yuka ang ginawa mo kay Janno at Tracy. I know it’s a bit overdue but I want to thank you for clearing her name.”

“I just did what I thought was right.”

“But still, thank you, dude.” Sabi ni Tate bago lumingon kay Yuka na nakatayo sa likod niya. Yuka kept her eyes away from them, she was hoping that Yvo would just go. Tate took her hand and pulled her to his side, possessively wrapping an arm around the small of her waist as if marking his territory. “Sinundo ko lang nga pala si Yuka. We’re going out for dinner tonight.”

“That’s good, you two have fun. Kailangan ko na din umalis.” Yvo lifted his wrist and looked at his wrist watch, sensing the heavy tension between them. “Work doesn’t finish in the office. Marami pa akong trabaho sa bahay.”

“Typical Yvo. When are you launching the next wonder drug, genius?” Tate asked, trying to sound enthusiatic.

Yvo chuckled. “I’m hoping soon. What about your next game? Super bowl is just around the corner.”

“Yeah, I’m trying to enjoy myself before I leave for training. You know how intense it gets.”

“Good luck with that. I know you’ll do great, Kailangan ko na talagang umalis.” Paalam niya bago tumingin kay Yuka.

Yuka stiffened when their eyes unexpectedly met. It just felt awkward for her to be there with the two men she had slept with. Hindi niya alam kung paano patutunguhan si Yvo sa harap ni Tate. Should she act like that never happened? Would it be appropriate to do so?

“Bye, Tate, Yuka. Have a wonderful evening.” Sabi nito.

“You too, dude.” Sagot naman ni Tate.

Yvo began to walk away and Tate walked her to the car, opening the passenger’s side for her. Nang makapasok siya ay sinara nito ang pinto, she watched through the windshield as Tate jogged to the driver’s side and opened the door, slipping inside. He started the engine and drove off.

“You’ve been really quiet.” Pansin ni Tate habang nagdadrive siya. “Is everything okay?”

Yuka shifted to her seat to face him. “Thank you, Tate.”

“For what?” He took a quick glance at her.

“Kasi nandito ka pa rin pagkatapos ng nangyari.”

“Yuka katulad ng sinabi ko, walang magbabago sa pagtingin ko sa’yo. That meant nothing to me. Absolutely nothing. Out of all the women I’ve been with, I loved none of them. It was just a physical act that people do. Yung nangyari, it was just that.”

Yuka nodded her head as she leaned her head against his shoulder. All the fear she had of losing the man of her dreams disappeared. Mahal siya ni Tate at iyon ang mahalaga ngayon.

“Akala ko iiwan mo na ako pagkatapos ng nangyari.”

“About that…” Tate trailed off as if trying to add in a little suspense.

“Bakit?” Yuka lifted her head up.

“Kailangan kitang iwan, buttercup, but only for, I don’t know, three months. I’ll be leaving for our football practice. Are you going to wait for me?” He gently asked, pleading with his tone.

“Hindi na dapat tinatanong yan, Tate. Syempre, maghihintay ako sa’yo.” Sabi niya and then her eyes narrowed. “Baka naman pag nandon ka na, makalimutan mo ako kapag may ibang babae kang makita.”

Tate shook his head, smiling. “I would never look at another woman the way I look at you.”

“Promise?”

He took a quick glance at her, looking her straight in the eye. “I promise.”

“Kailan ka ba aalis?” She pouted.

“Next week.” Sagot niya.

“Pag balik mo na kita sasagutin.” Yuka grinned. “I’ll make sure you’ll have something you’d want to go back to.”

“Does that mean you don’t trust me?”

“It means I don’t want to lose you.” Malambing na sabi niya.

“I want to take you somewhere really special.” Sabi ni Tate, taking a glance at her.

“Saan naman yun?” 

“You’ll see.” He grinned.

Tate drove until the car pulled up in front of a simple bungalow-type house with a wide front yard with white picket fence. Even though the house was simple, it was elegantly designed. It had a very intimate and cosy feels to it. You could tell that the people living in the house were a family. A tight-knit one. The bushes of flowers, the front porch swing, the big tree in front of the it made it even more so endearing.

“Ano’ng ginagawa natin dito?” Tanong ni Yuka when Tate started pulling into the driveway. He pressed a button in his car and the garage door opened. She didn’t expect the inside to be huge because looking from the outside it seemed as though it could only fit 3 cars. But it was designed to look small at pahaba lang ito sa loob. There were two lines of cars and each had 4 cars parked next to each other, all 8 looked luxurious and expensive but she was sure the garage could fit 10 cars in it as there were still two empty spaces. Nagpark si Tate sa dulong bakate na puwesto. Bumaba sila sa kotse at ginaya siya nito sa pinto papasok sa bahay. 

The house was divine. It wasn’t Yuka’s dream house as she wanted a mansion bigger than her sister’s husband’s, she wanted to live and breathe luxury, but she still couldn’t help but admire the interior of it. It was sophisticatedly styled.

“Tate, anak?” A woman came walking towards them. Matangkad ang babae, mahaba ang biyas, at tila pangmodelo ang figure. She was in a casual light blue floral dress, her hair tied up in a bun as if showing her beauty in full beauty. Yuka knew right away who she was as her features gave her away. Tate had gotten his gentle features from his mother. 

“Hi Mom.” He leaned down to give his mother a kiss on the cheek. Even though the lady was tall, Tate was way up there. Pagkatapos ay ibinalin ni Tate ang atensyon sa kanya. “This is Yuka.”

“Hi po.” She gave her the most charming of her smiles. She knew first impressions last and she didn’t want to give her future mother-in-law a reason to not like her. “Ang ganda-ganda niyo po. You look more like Tate’s sister.”

Hindi naman nagsisinungaling si Yuka. The lady still looked too young to be a mother of a grown man like Tate. She was stunning. Of course, she’d be beautiful. She was rich. Sabi nga ng Ninang Jodie niya wala kang makikitang mayaman na pangit. They have enough money to fix whatever was wrong with them or too maintain whatever beauty they had in their youth.

The lady giggled. “Oh, you’re making me blush.”

“I thought I’m the only one who can make you blush.” A voice of a man took her attention away from Tate’s mother. Lumapit ang isang matangkad na lalaki at tumabi ito sa ina niya. Now she knew where Tate had gotten his height. May anggulong kamukha ni Tate ang ama niya but he looked more like his mother. But nevertheless, Tate’s father was a total DILF.

Tawa lang ang isinagot ng ginang sa lalaki. 

“Ito nga pala ang asawa ko.” Pakilala niya sa lalaki kay Yuka and then she looked at her husband, wide-eyed. “Our son brought a girl, can you belive you that?”

“I know, angel. Looks like our boy is a man now.” Wayne said with a proud smile before turning his attention back to them. “We usually only hear about women he dates in magazines and gossip pages.”

Tate let out a small groan. “Dad, don’t embarrass me.”

Yuka felt as though she was being tickled. She had no doubt that Tate was serious with her but she had no idea that he was THIS serious. The thought of being the first woman he had invited in his parents’ house made her feel special. She was not like any other girl he had ever dated.

“Nagluto ako ng tinolang manok.” Sabi ni Tanya. “Iyon kasi ang paborito ng mag-ama ko. Hindi naman kasi sinabi ni Tate na may bisita pa pala kami, nakapaghanda pa sana ako ng iba pang ulam.”

“Okay lang po, Tita. Sure naman ako na masarap ang luto niyo.” Yuka said, switing on to her charming mode. “Minsan po, ituro niyo sa akin ang recipe para naman mapagluto ko din si Tate.”

Tate watched as Yuka hooked her arm around her mother’s, in an instant they were mother and daughter. It was as if they had known each other for a long time now even though they just met. He couldn’t help but smile at the sight of it. 

“This is Therese, our oldest. Ito naman si Tate noong bata siya.”

“Ang cute talaga ni Tate. He’s handsome even as a little boy.” Yuka squealed as they past by an end table that had frames of pictures on it. 

“Yes, he was. Sa akin nag-mana yan.” Wayne proudly said.

“Parang mas kamukha naman po ni Tita si Tate.” Yuka joked.

“See, I told you.” Tanya teasingly said. “Si Rocco at si Mimi ang kamukha mo.”

“Mimi’s going to get mad when she hears that.” Tate snorted. Camilla, or Mimi as they fondly call her, was born after him and Socrates or Rocco was the youngest. “Ayaw niyang nasasabihan siyang kamukha ni Dad because she thinks it means she looks like a man.”

“Uy hindi ah! Maganda si Mimi.” Depensa ni Yuka as she looked at the younger sister’s picture. The woman in the picture had Wayne’s elegant features but also had Tanya’s softness. She was chiseled like a supermodel but soft like a fragile doll all at once. “Mukha ngang maynika ang kapatid mo. Si Rocco, kamukha talaga ni Tito, parang pinagbiyak na bunga. Ito naman Ate mo, siya yung sikat na journalist, di ba?”

“Yes, we’re so proud of her.” Tanya said, smiling.

“Thank God she’s not a gossip writer, imagine what it would be like for Tate.” Wayne snorted. 

“Halika na nga, kumain na muna tayo. Mamaya na yan. Baka lumamig na ang kanin at ulam.” Aya ni Tanya.

They went to the dining room, the table had already been set up for them. They’d usually have dinner as much as they can but it was the weekday and his siblings had prior plans. Sinadya din ni Tate na weekday dalhin si Yuka at wala ang mga kapatid niya. She knew Therese would bombard her with questions, Mimi would be too excited to meet her as she had been looking forward to the day he brings a woman to meet them, and Rocco  would probably try to piss him off by telling Yuka embarrassing stories about him. He thought it would be best if Yuka meets his parents first before his obnoxious siblings. 

“So how long have you two been dating?” Tanong ni Wayne as he scooped rice from the bowl.

“Isang buwan ko na siyang nililigawan, Dad.” Tate answered.

“At sinagot mo na ba?” Wayne looked at her.

“Hindi pa, Tito.” Yuka grinned habang naglalagay ng sabaw ng tinola sa plato. “Pinapahirapan ko pa itong anak niyo.”

Tanya couldn’t help a laugh. “That’s good. Make him work for it.”

“Pagbalik ko ulit dito you said you’ll be my girlfriend.” Tate said.

“Basta siguraduhin mong walang ibang babae.” Sabi ni Yuka.

“I promise. I won’t even look at another woman. I wouldn’t even have time to. I’d be practicing the whole duration of my stay there.” He said.

Inilapit ni Yuka ang kutsara sa bibig. The moment her mouth closed around the spoon, the taste and smell of ginger from the soup exploded into her mouth. It assaulted her to the point of nausea, her eyes tearing a bit from the strong smell and flavor. She paused for awhile dahil para siyang sinuntok sa sobrang tapang ng amoy at lasa nito.

“Is everything okay?” Pansin ni Tanya. 

Yuka forced the food down her throat. She didn’t want to seem impolite even though all she wanted was to spit the food out. 

She nodded her head, a small wince escaping her throat.

Chapter Fifteen

“Hey, buttercup. Good morning…” Ang mukha ni Tate ang unang nakita at ang boses niya ang una niyang narinig nang magising siya. Even with eyes still heavy from sleep, she couldn’t stop the soft, lazy smile that broke across her face. 

“Good morning…” Her voice was still held some of sleep’s thickness. 

“Did you sleep well?” He gently asked. 

She moaned as she stretched her arms before hugging the soft pillow next to her. “Ang sarap ng tulog ko. How was your day?”

“The team and I went out for a few drinks earlier.” Tate said, grabbing an apple from the basket in front of him. He was in one of the houses his parents own in the US  where he’d be staying for the next three months. They had a few in different countries but his favorite was the vineyard estate in St. Tropez.  He had told Yuka of his childhood memories at the vineyard, how he and his siblings would help pick grapes and make wine, and he hope to bring her there someday. 

“Baka naman may kasama ka diyan na babae?” Yuka’s small eyes got even smaller as it narrowed to him through the screen.

“I can’t even look at other women.” Tate shook his head. “I just want to focus on the game right now.”

“Good luck, ha? Panonoorin kita kaya galingan mo. Alam kong kayo ang mananalo. You were so good last season.” She said.

“My buttercup is a fan, huh?” Tate grinned after taking a bite of the apple and swallowing it. “I bet you were stalking me the night we met. Siguro talagang sinadya mo yun.”

“Ang yabang nito.” Yuka’s face scrunched as she tried to keep herself from laughing. 

“I already miss you…” Sumeryoso ang mukha ni Tate. 

“Miss na din kita.” Yuka sighed. It had only been three days since they saw each other. Sumama pa nga siyang maghatid kay Tate when Tanya drove her son to the airport. Susunod na lang ang magulang at mga kapatid niya para manood ng laro at suportahan siya. She was invited to watch the game but she had to turn it down as she knew her Ninang Jodie and Ate wouldn’t approve of that. 

His mother had already liked her despite only having met twice. Well, she was the first woman he’d ever introduced to his parents and the couple was probably excited. They have always wanted to see their son be in a serious relation. 

Yuka was just glad when his mother wasn’t offended when she couldn’t finish the food she made for them the first time they met. She forced a few spoonful down her throat but after the third, she knew better than to force it down as she’d probably vomit all over. That would be even more embarrassing. Sinabi niya na lang kay Tanya that she was watching her weight.

“I promise I’ll be home in no time. Uuwi ako para sa matamis mong oo.” 

Yuka chuckled. “Ang corny.” 

“I’m only corny for you.” Natatawang sabi ni Tate. “Don’t you have class this morning? What time is it there?”

“Shoot!” Yuka jolted up and looked at the digital clock on the small table next to her bed. She had snoozed the alarm clock earlier and was sure she’d running late again. “Maliligo lang ako, Tate. I promise I’ll video call you again later.”

“Sure, buttercup. I love you.” He said, his voice gentle.

Kahit nagmamadali ay napatigil si Yuka. She bit her bottom lip to try to stop herself from smiling. Kahit ilang beses niya nang narinig sa lalaki iyon ay hindi pa rin nawawala ang kilig. 

“Kinikilig ka, ano?” Tate teased him. 

“Ang feeling mo talaga!” She snorted. “Sige na, I really have to go. I’m running late.”

She ended the call and went straight to the bathroom to take a shower. Tatlong araw na silang LDR ni Tate and so far, it was working out fine. Even though she knew Tate had very hectic training schedules, he still manages to make time for her. Pero iba pa rin kung nandito ang lalaki, kung pwede nga lang niyang hatakin ang oras ay ginawa niya na. It had only been three days and it already felt like eternity. She wanted him to be her boyfriend already. She thought of being in magazines and tagged as Tate’s first official girlfriend.

Bumaba siya mula sa kwarto para kumain. She hurried to the dining room as she knew she was running late and the moment she entered, it was as if she had hit a wall of smell that instantly made her stop. She swallowed back a gag.

“My, ano ba yan? Ang baho!” She made a face as she walked into the dining room. 

“Ano bang amoy pinagsasabi mo?” Tanong ni Sasha na abala sa pag-aasikaso sa lunch box ng dalawang apo.

“Ang arte mo naman!” Tintin, her niece nemesis. said “Baka nakalimutan mo lang magtoothbrush.”

“My, sumasagot, o!” Sumbong niya sa ina bago tumingin kay Tintin. “Gusto mong balik kita sa sinapupunan ng nanay mo?”

“Sige, gawin mo! Ibabalik ka ng Daddy ko sa Tondo.” She stuck her tongue out at her. Tintin had heard stories of Tondo and she knew how much Yuka hated the place where she had come from. 

“Tumigil na nga kayong dalawa.” Sasha rolled her eyes, already used to the two squabbling. “Ikaw ang hilig mong pumatol sa bata. Kumain ka na nga lang diyan, tanghali na kung magising ka! Parang wala kang pasok ah!” 

“Ano bang pagkain?” She rolled her eyes.

“Nagluto ang Ate mo ng sinangag, tuyo, at langgonisa.” Sagot ni Sasha. “Bilisan mo na habang pinapalitan ng Ate mo si Savi ng damit, na mantsahan kasi. Baka makasabay ka pa sa kanila.”

She walked up to the table and knew instantly that it was the garlic rice that threw her off. It was the strong garlic smell that made her dizzy. She held her breath and took the plate and put it in the fridge. 

“Yuka, ano bang ginagawa mo?” Tanong ni Sasha habang pinanonood ang ginagawa ng anak.

“Bigay mo nga sa kanya yung pagkain ng goldfish namin, Lola Mammy.” Nakangusong sabi ni Tintin.

“Nakikiepal ka pa!” She scolded her niece.

“Tumigil ka na nga, Yuka! Patol ka ng patol sa bata!” Saway ni Jodie na nanggaling mula sa kusina. 

“Kasi naman yang bibig ng apo mo!”

“Nuknukan ka kasi ng arte. Hindi mo na lang kainin kung ano ang nandyan.” Her mother sighed.

“Ayoko nga! Ang baho-baho!” 

“Ano na naman pinagtatalunan niyo?” Saskia asked as she walked into the chaos happening in the kitchen, holding Savi’s hand. 

“Si Tita Yuka kasi sabi ang baho daw ng luto mo!” Sumbong ni Tintin kay Saskia. 

“Ang dami mo naman kasing nilagay na garlic, Ate. Ang sakit sa ilong.” She complained. 

“Are you girls ready?” Migs asked as he followed behind her wife.

“Kakain ka ba o sasabay ka sa amin? Ano’ng oras na, o? Malalate na ang mga bata, hindi ka na namin mahihintay.” Saskia impatiently said. 

“Ayoko ng breakfast. Hindi na ako kakain.” She folded her arms across her chest.

“Eh di wag ka kumain! Sino ba magugutom? Kami ba?” Sabi naman ni Tintin.

“Tama! Mas may common sense pa sa’yo itong bata.” Jodie said. 

“O, Savi ito na ang lunch bag mo. Ubusin niyo yan, ah. Si Lola Mammy ang gumawa niyan.” Sasha handed the bag to her granddaughter. 

“Thank you, Lola Mammy!” Savi sweetly said.

The twins both kissed their Lola Mammy and Mamila Jodie goodbye before leaving. Sumunod si Yuka sa pamilya palabas ng bahay kung saan naghihintay ang kotse ni Migs. Although twins and her go to different schools, her university was just a few building away from theirs kaya sinasabay siya ng mag-asawa. Cosme, on the other hand, opted for UP and was now currently living in a dorm as Migs’ house was too far from the university. 

“Bestie!” Alexa, her new found bestfriend along with Patrice, waved at her after lining up to get her lunch, the two already seated at their lunch table. They were her new Jen and Bella and she was their Tracy. 

“I’m starving.” Yuka groaned as she sat at the table, putting her tray down. She had gone through a three-hour long class without having anything but a water bottle. Ngayon pa lang siya makakain and there wasn’t really much she liked. She had mashed potato on her tray, scrambled eggs, and salad.  “Nahihilo na ako sa sobrang gutom. I haven’t had breakfast yet.”

“Are you on a diet?” Patrice asked. “Ako kasi I’m on a gluten-free diet.

“What is gluten anyway?” Tanong ni Alexa.

Patrice shrugged. “I don’t know. All I know is that it’s bad for your body. Everything gluten-free, I’m in. Kaya nga di ba, hindi na ako bumibili sa cafeteria. I brought my own lunch with me. My yaya made a gluten-free vegetable curry for me.”

Binuksan ni Patrice ang container nang lunch niya. Yuka just had her mouth open, ready to put the spoonful of mashed potato in when the strong smell of curry choked her. It was so strong, it felt like it was burning her nose and throat. She had been really sensitive to spices lately. But this one, she absolutely couldn’t take. 

She could feel the bile coming up, the burning sensation from her stomach to the top of her throat. She knew it was impossible to hold in this time. She grabbed her Fendi bag and shoved her head in it. It was a fake Fendi but still, she had saved up for that and nobody could even tell that it was fake. But what was she supposed to do? Embarrass herself and vomit all over? The only thing she was thankful for was that she left all her books in her locker at ang tanging laman lang ng bag niya ay mga makeup niya.

“Ew!” Alexa shrieked.

“I think I’m going to vomit, too!” Sabi naman ni Patrice bago tumayo at nagmamadaling umalis.

“I’m sorry. I just can’t!” Alexa said, gagging while she left and followed Patrice. 

Yuka cursed to herself as she continued to belch. This was social suicide. Just when she thought everything was going good for her, her stomach betrayed her. 

Was it much of a coincidence that Yvo was there to see what was happening? Bibili lang sana si Yvo ng sandwich sa cafeteria at babalik na sa office niya. That was the plan until he saw this! Yuka was now alone, throwing her guts out in what looked like a signature bag, while her two so-called friends fled the scene. One part of Yvo told him that he shouldn’t intervene but the other part just couldn’t leave her there. The former part of him won as he hurried to Yuka’s table. 

He held her hair back as she was throwing up. Pagkatapos ay nag-angat ng tingin sa kanya ang babae, wiping her mouth with her arm. 

“Are you okay?” He gently asked.

She didn’t answer. Yvo took her bag from her hands and guided her up and walking her out of the cafeteria.

“Itapon mo na yan.” Yuka told Yvo in weak voice when they got out of the cafeteria. They passed by a trash bin and Yvo did as she said. 

Another wave of bile spewed from her mouth. She buried her head in the bin and started vomitting again. Muli siyang inalalayan ni Yvo at hinawakan nito ang buhok niya. It wasn’t a smooth kind of vomit. It was painful. Her stomach constricting and the acid was burning her throat and nose. 

“It’s okay…” Yvo rubbed her back as she threw up.

Nang matapos ito ay parang nanghihinang napasandal siya sa lalaki. Her knees felt like they were giving in. Yvo sat her at the nearest bench, taking out a handkerchief from his pocket and wiping her face with it.

“Do you want me to take you to the clinic? You look pale.” He asked.

Yuka could only answer with a nod. Hinawakan siya ni Yvo at inalalayan pa tayo. 

“Thank you, doc.” She silently said.

She held onto him for dear life as they walked to the clinic. The nurse had her sign her name and her student number before taking her to one of the beds. 

“Ano’ng nangyari sa’yo?” Tanong ng nurse after she had taken her vitals. “Normal naman ang temperature mo baka may nakain ka.”

“Wala pa nga akong kinakain simula kanina.” She quietly said. 

“Kaya pala. Baka acid reflux lang yan.” Tumango ang nurse as if contented with her diagnosis. “Mabuti pa kumain ka muna.”

“Here, have this.” Yvo ran out to buy something to help settle her stomach. A chicken salad sandwich and a bottle of water.

“Thank you ulit, Yvo…” Sabi niya at hindi na siya nagdalawang-isip na tanggip iyon. After throwing up whatever content left in her stomach, she was sure it was starting to eat itself. Kumukulo na ang sikmura niya. 

“Sure.” He nodded his head before looking at the nurse. “Ako na ang bahala dito.”

The nurse having know him, respectfully nodded her head and left them. He watched as Yuka started unwrapping the sandwich and taking a huge bite from it. She pushed it down with water.

“How are you feeling?” He asked, concerned in his tone.

“Nahihilo pa rin ako pero medyo okay na ako.” She answered. “It was so embarrassing. I’m sure pinagtatawanan na nila ako.”

“Hey, stop thinking about that. Ang mahalaga okay ka na.”

“Saka tinapon mo ang Fendi bag ko!” She frowned.

“You said to throw it away.” 

“I did say that pero nakakahinayang pa din. Pwede ko pang labhan iyon.” She groaned, taking another bite from her sandwich. 

“Does this always happen to you?” He asked. “The nurse is probably right. Baka acid reflux yan o hindi kaya ulcer. You should have yourself checked by a doctor.”

“Ngayon lang naman nangyari sa akin ito. This was Patrice’s fault! Kung hindi dahil sa lecheng curry na dinala niya, hindi mangyayari ito!” 

“Did it really taste that horrible?” Yvo couldn’t help the chuckle.

“Ang baho! Grabe!” She shook her head. “Nahilo ako sa amoy. May pa-glutten free pa siyang nalalaman! Ewan ko ba pero lately, ang lakas ng pang-amoy ko. Palagi akong naduduwal kapag may naamoy akong hindi maganda pero ngayon lang naman ako nagsuka.”

Yvo paused for awhile as if he’d realized something and then he got up to close the curtains around her bed. 

“Did you take any plan b or were you in any birth control?” He carefully asked her.

“Ano’ng ibig mong…” Natigilan din si Yuka. Her eyes widened and she shook her head. “U-ulcer lang ito.”

“Did Tate put you in any pills?” He asked again as he thought his friend would have known better. He should’ve gotten Yuka an emergency contraceptive.

Yuka swallowed. “H-hindi…”

He massaged his now throbbing temples. “You do know its been over a month since that happened, right?” 

“Ano bang pinagsasabi mo?” Yuka tried to laugh it off.

“I know I’m not a medical doctor but it was a part of my field to know about the human body.” Yvo tried to stay calm. “Nausea and heightened sense of smell are two of most obvious signs of pregnancy.”

“I-imposible. Isang beses lang iyon!” She exclaimed.

“Shh… lower your voice.” He calmly said to her and he began pacing back and forth as he computed the date they’d gone to bed. “It doesn’t matter if it only happened once. Kung fertile ka ng araw na iyon…”

“I’m not pregnant.” Her voice was low yet firm, her jaw clenching with each syllable. She thought if she said it firm enough it would be true. She wanted to believe what the nurse had said earlier even though she knew what Yvo said may be true, too. She had a whole life ahead of her. Never in her wildest dream had she ever dreamt of being a mother at a young age. She was just nineteen, for Christ’s sake!

Yvo closed his eyes and exhaled the anxiety out of him. “I… I may just be paranoid. I may be wrong but Yuka, you have to make sure. I have to know.”

Yuka’s eyes snapped up at him. “At bakit? Kung may higit man na dapat makaalam, si Tate iyon.”

“May posibilidad na ako ang ama.” Yvo’s eyes lowered to his feet. He was not ready to be a father, it was not something he’d be looking forward to, but he was not going to walk out on his responsibility. But God, how fucked up was this? This was Tate’s woman! This was something that he never thought would happen. 

“Hindi ako buntis at kung sakali man totoo ang iniisip mo, hindi ikaw ang ama. Si Tate.” She said before getting on her feet and marching past him.

Naiwan si Yvo mag-isa. He was struggling to make sense of his thoughts. His head spinning from the thought that he could possibly have a child with Yuka. He hoped that it was indeed just a mistake. That he was just paranoid. That things would turn out okay. He would never want to ruin Tate and Yuka’s relationship. Nangako siya sa kanila na hindi niya na guguluhin ang dalawa. But how could he just walk away with the knowledge that Yuka might possibly have conceived after that night. 

Yuka wiped the tears from her face. She was having a horrible day. Her makeup was lipstick got ruined from vomiting earlier and now her mascara and foundation were in terrible shape from crying. The worse part was that she had to throw her makeup away, the one she had vomited on in her fake Fendi purse, and she had no spare makeup in her locker to fix it. She looked at herself in the mirror in the women’s toilet where she had locked herself in. 

Hindi siya pumasok sa sunod na klase niya. How could she do so when she looked like the joker? Bumili siya ng pregnancy test. Isang oras na itong nasa bulsa niya pero hindi siya makakuha ng lakas ng loob na gamitin iyon.

She was looking at herself in the mirror, trying to will herself to use the kit. She tried to tell herself that everything would be okay. She knew the result would turn out negative. It only happened once! But for her the sake of her peace of mind, she wanted to prove to herself that she was not pregnant. 

Marami pa siyang plano sa buhay niya. She wanted to party, if given the opportunity she’d want to be a famous model, she wanted to travel the world, do crazy things, experience everything good life could ever offer. Lately, she had began dreaming of doing all those with Tate. And maybe in her late 20s or early 30s they could finally settle down.

She didn’t want to be a boring housewife and the idea of her being a mother was just out of this world. She wasn’t even good with kids. She lost Tintin at the mall, she almost killed Savi while they were at the beach and Saskia asked her to look after the kids while the twins were taking a swim, muntik ng malunod ito at buti na lang ay may life guard na sumaklolo. She didn’t even like kids, with the exception of Savi, who was too lady-like for her age. She could not picture herself as a mother. There was not one bit of maternal instinct in her body. She was too selfish to be a mother. She could not love anyone as much as she loved herself. 

She took a deep breathe in and went back to one of the stalls. She had been in here for too long and the scent was starting to bother her. She took the pregnancy kit from the box and did as the instruction said. She peed on the stick and waited. 

When the three minutes was over, she didn’t even want to look at it. It would be negative anyway, she thought. What was the point? It took her a whole lot of pep talk to herself before finally having the guts to pick up the pregnancy test kit that was sitting on top of the tank of the toilet. 

It’s negative. 

She tried to tell herself over and over. This was just one huge mistake. Tama ang nurse at mali si Yvo. Yvo may be a scientist but that doesn’t mean he’d be right all the time. Who did he think he was? He didn’t understand her body the way she did. Katawan niya ito kaya siya ang higit na nakakaalam. 

Holding her breath, she took a peak at the pregnancy test. She almost chocked at her own oxygen when she saw two red lines. There were two! She had to read again and again what it said on the stick to make sure. One line- not pregnant, two lines- pregnant. 

“Shit!” Her knees collapsed and sat on the closed lid of the toilet, raking her fingers through her hair. “No, hindi pwede ito…”

She thought of her family. Ano na lang ang magiging reaksyon ng mga ito? Hindi pa siya nakaka-graduate. She’d promised them she would finish college. At si Tate! Paano niya sasabihin sa lalaki ito? Was he even ready to be a father?

Iniyak niya ang natitirang luhang dapat niyang iiyak. Tate needed to know. He needed to know that when he gets home, hindi lang siya ang naghihintay sa kanya kung hindi ang bata sa sinapupunan niya. 

Balisa pa rin siya nang makauwi. When Sasha and Jodie asked why she was home earlier, she told them that she didn’t feel good. Nagtungo siya sa kwarto niya at agad tinawagan si Tate.

“Hey, buttercup…” Tate’s voice was raspy with sleep when he picked up. He was in bed, his eyes still half-shut. 

“I-I’m sorry, naistorbo yata kita.” She quietly said, trying hard not to let her voice break.

“No, it’s okay.” Malumanay na sagot ni Tate, seeing her face through the video. He yawned and smiled, lazily. “I understand. Na miss mo lang ako, not your fault. Can’t go through the day without seeing this face, huh?”

If it was any other day, she’d laugh and call him a jerk but she didn’t even break a smile.

“Tate…” Her voice squeaked a little. 

His brows furrowed when he saw tears film her eyes. “What’s wrong? May problema ba? Buttercup, you know you can talk to me about anything.”

“Kasi, Tate…” She finally broke into tears. 

“What?” He couldn’t hide the anxiety in his voice. “Tell me what’s wrong. You know I hate seeing you cry.”

She swallowed back a sob and tried to compose herself. “Tate, buntis ako.”

It was as if time stood still for Tate. Yuka almost thought her screen froze when Tate didn’t make a single movement or even blink. He was looking at the camera but it was as though her stares was just passing through. His eyes were glazed and distant.

Yuka bit her lower lip to keep herself from sobbing.

“H-how did you know?” He finally spoke, shock still evident on his face.

“Nag-pregnancy test ako.” 

Nahilamos nito ang sariling palad sa mukha. He started massaging his temples. 

“Ano’ng gagawin natin?” Tanong niya sa lalaki.

Tate shook his head. “I… Yuka, I don’t want to think. This isn’t what I… I’m not ready for this. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”

And then his video turned black. It took a few seconds for Yuka to figure out what had happened. Tate had hang up on him. Her heart dropped to her stomach at the realization. Muli niyang tinawagan ang lalaki, she wanted to believe that connection was just bad. He didn’t mean that. But the second time she called, she could no longer reach him.

Chapter Sixteen

Yuka had not heard from Tate since the day she told him that she was pregnant. She tried every way to contact him to no avail. He had abandoned her and the child she was carrying. Never had she thought that she would be in this situation.

She admits that she was not as smart as her little brother, Cosme, but after what her mother and Ate had been through with men she should’ve known better. She had seen how the two women she loved and cared for suffered because they had followed their hearts. She’d made a promise to herself that she would never be like them. She would use her head more than she would her heart. Pero dumating si Tate and she fell in love. Look what it did to her.

“Sigurado bang effective?” Tanong ni Yuka, taking a sip of the soda in a plastic bag she had in one hand. Bumalik siya sa dating tinitirhan nila sa squatter kung saan nakatira ang isa sa mga babaeng minamanage ng Mammy niya noon sa bar.

The place had not changed a bit. It was still the same old hell hole she knew. There were men getting drunk in the daylight, one drunk was running amok and waving a huge knife around asking if anybody wanted to fight him, sidewalk karaokes, half-naked kids running around, she even passed by their old neighbor who always had a wake in front of his house and was surprised to see that he was still holding a wake. The business was still running, she guessed. This was the squatter’s version of casino, umaarkila ang kapitbahay nila ng mga bangkay na hindi nakukuha para gamiting front sa sugal. They found away around legal gambling so that the cops wouldn’t be able to do anything about it dahil legal ang sugal sa lamay.

“Oo naman. Ito ang mga ginagamit ng mga katrabaho ko saka ilang beses ko na din itong nagamit.” The woman who goes by the stage name Candy said as she went through her drawer. They were now in her little apartment she shares with other bar girls.

After finding what she had been looking for, she turned to Yuka who was standing behind her and showed the small white box.

“Magkano yan?” Yuka asked.

“Para sa’yo, three kyaw na lang.” She answered.

“Ang mahal naman, Ate Candy. Wala bang tawad?” Yuka frowned.

“Ano’ng tingin mo sa akin, tiangge? Saka bigtime na naman kayo. Narinig ko naka-jackpot si Saskia ng mayaman.” She said.

“Si Ate yun, hindi ako.” Her face contorted into a scowl. “Bigyan mo naman ako ng discount.”

“Sige na nga, dahil pinauutang ako ng mudra mo palagi noon two-eight na lang. Wala ng tubo yan. Wag kang maingay sa iba, sa kanila nabebenta ko yan ng three-five.” She chuckled.

Yuka took out her wallet from her purse and handed the woman her money. The woman handed the box to her and shoved the money in her bra.

“Sigurado kang gagana ito, Ate Candy ha?” She wanted to make sure. “Ibabalik mo sa akin pera ko kapag hindi nalaglag ito.”

“Gaga! Depende pa rin yan sa gagamit. Minsan may mga pumapalya. Ilang buwan na ba yan?” Candy asked, taking out a cig and lighting it.

“Hindi ko alam…” She quietly said and she had no plan of knowing. She just wanted to get rid of it as soon as possible.

“Huhulaan ko, na buntis ka ng jowa mo at ayaw panagutan. Hindi alam ni Sasha yan, ano? Di naman yun papayag sa gagawin mo kung alam niya. Sabi ko sa kanya noong nabuntis siya kay Saskia noon na ipalaglag niya na dahil hindi na siya babalikan ng Briton na jowa niya pero itinuloy niya pa rin. Kita mo ngayon, donya na ang gaga.” Humalakhak ito bago humithit mula sa stick ng sigarilyo.

Yuka’s eyes dropped to her feet. It was only Tate who she had told about her pregnancy. She knew her family wouldn’t approve of what she was doing right now. But it was not them who’d take the consequences. She had a lot of dreams and being a single mother at nineteen was not one of them.

“Kung gusto mong makasiguro, pwede kitang dalhin kay Aling Lucille. Magaling na manghihilo yun. Ilang minuto lang, tagal yan.” She said.

Yuka swallowed. She had heard of Aling Lucille when she was still a kid. The baby bringer and the baby taker. She helps women with giving birth and with getting rid of it. She used to hear of Aling Lucille from her clients, the bar girls and her mother’s friends. She had heard how painful it was and how the women would feel the baby being crushed inside them and how they’d bleed buckets after. One of the women bled so bad she had to be rushed to the hospital. She had to beg the doctor not to file any case against her for having an illegal abortion. She didn’t want to take that kind of risk.

“Sa una lang mahirap.” The woman said after a few seconds of silence. “Hanggang sa para ka na lang nagpapabunot. Parang nagtatanggal ka na lang ng bahagi ng katawan mo na ayaw mo.”

She swallowed. “P-pag hindi na lang gumana, babalik ako.”

She hurried out of the old-worn out apartment and once she had gotten out the squatter’s area, she took a cab to school. She really was going to do this. Hindi na magbabago ang isip niya. She couldn’t let a tiny little thing ruin her future.

Wala sa sariling napahawak siya sa pendant ng necklace. The necklace Tate gave to her. She’d be lying if she says she wasn’t scared. She felt so alone and scared right now and wished this was all just a nightmare. If this really was a nightmare, she wanted it to be over so she could go back to the life she had before all these happened. It was going good for her and Tate, she had plans for them, for their future relationship, and now it all came crushing down onto her.

Balisa siya buong araw. She had just been trying to get through the day. There had been nothing in her mind but the thing she had growing in her body. Getting rid of the baby was not an easy decision for her to make but she had to do it. Iniisip niya na lang na wala pa itong buhay. That this was just a tissue cell inside her.

She would never let anything get in the way of her ambitions. Once it’s gone, she’d never think of this again. It would be like it never even happened…

“Yuka…” She heard a smooth, velvety voice of a man call her as she was walking down the corridor. Her last class was over and she was ready to leave after putting her things in her locker.

Knowing who it was, she picked up her pace and pretended to not hear. She heard him call her name again.

“Yuka, please let’s talk.” She could hear the sound of his shoes against the floor, he was trying to catch up to him.

She wanted nothing more to do with Yvo. As far as she was concerned, si Tate ang ama nitong bata. She didn’t want to tell him anything about her pregnancy. What was the point anyway? There’d be nothing to gain out of telling him. Things would be much more complicated if he got involved. She refused to acknowlege that Yvo could possibly be the father of the baby, she pushed the thought of it way back into the corner of her mind.

“YUKA!” She felt a tug as Yvo held her by the arm, causing the bag to fly from her shoulder to the ground. It was the bag without any zippers kaya nahulog ang mga makeup na nakalagay sa loob nito. “I’m sorry… I just want to talk with you.”

Yvo hurriedly bent down to pick her things up. “I know you don’t want to talk to me, you’ve been trying to avoid me but goddamn, this is bothering me.”

Yuka frantically tried to shove her things in her bag but it was too late, Yvo already had in his hand the white box. She could only hope that he wasn’t paying attention to what it was or that he wouldn’t have any idea. 

“What is this?” There was a change in his tone when he picked up the white box. 

“Akin na yan!” She tried to snatch the box from him but his grip was surprisingly firm. “Yvo, akin na sabi yan.”

“Misoprostol…” He paused and stood up, taking a clear look at the box. His eyes widened once he had finally taken it in. Napalunok si Yuka nang mabaling sa kanya ang tingin ni Yvo. She grew so uncomfortable as she knew what she was about to do was wrong that she had to look away. 

“This is an abortion pill, Yuka…” He said ina lowered voice as if he was afraid someone might hear even though the corridor was empty. He had wide knowledge of medicines as he had his own pharaceutical company so he was able to recognize what it was right away. 

“Balik mo sa akin yan!” Yuka demanded.

“What you’re doing is illegal.” Sabi ni Yvo. 

“Wala kang pakialam! Why don’t you just mind your own business?” Yuka snapped. 

“This kind of drug should be under a supervision of a doctor. I don’t think this brand has even been approved yet.” Yvo knew abortions pills or any type of abortion were illegal in the Philippines but in some countries it was very legal. It was probably some fake pill that hadn’t been thoroughly tested by professionals and could have serious side-effects. He knew for a fact that messing with fake pills is like playing russian roulette, you don’t know what you’re going to get and if you get the real thing it would likely lead to something serious or sometimes even death. 

“Just stay out of it! Alam ko ang ginagawa ko!” Mariin na sabi ni Yuka. “Ibalik mo sa akin yan!” 

“No, Yuka, listen to me, you can’t take this.” He refused. “Hindi mo alam kung ano ang posibleng maging epekto sa’yo nito.”

“I will deal with the consequence myself. I just want to get rid of this…” Her eyes began to start watering. “Masisira ang buhay ko! Magagalit sa akin sina Ate kapag nalaman nila.”

Yvo’s eyes softened as he looked at her. “Alam na ba ni Tate?”

She slowly nodded her head and exploded into tears. “Hindi niya na ako kinakausap. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko.”

Yvo pulled her into his arms and wrapped them around her. Yuka buried her face into his chest and began to cry and sob. She let out all those pent-up emotions, her anxiety, the fear for her future, the anger for Tate for abandoning her when she needed him the most… she had let it all out through her tears. 

“I’m here. You don’t have to go through this alone.” He softly whispered. 

Yuka felt relief after crying it all out to Yvo. He had taken her out to get something to eat. She had been having intense craving for coconut the past fews. Sa tingin niya iyon ang pinaglilihian niya as she refuses to anything without coconut. Ginataang langka, ginataang adobo, ginataang gulay, iyon ang palagi niyang nirerequest sa Mammy at Ninang niya na lutuin. 

The food Yvo had bought for her had somehow lifted her mood up. Ginataang manok, ginataang bilo-bilo, at buko juice. They had gone through a couple of eateries before finding the one that would cater to what her demanding palate wanted. 

Yvo sat across from her at the table, Yuka’s full attention was on the food she was eating. There were a lot of questions he was dying to ask her but he wanted her to finish her food. It seemed like she had lost weight, an unnoticeable amount but Yvo had somehow recognized it.

“Itutuloy ko pa rin ang balak ko. Hindi pa ako handa maging ina.” Yuka said when her eyes lifted up to him. “Kahit hindi mo ibalik sa akin ang gamot, gagawa at gagawa ako ng paraan. Kung kailangan ipahilot ko ito, gagawin ko.”

“Paano kung sa akin yan?” He asked.

Yuka shook her head. “Hindi pa rin magbabago ang isip ko.”

“What if I pay for child support? Sa lahat ng gagastusin mo sa pagbubuntis at panganganak mo. You don’t have to worry about a thing…” 

Yuka let out a chuckle and it turned into a laughter. 

“Ano’ng nakakatawa?” He asked, confused.

“You think it’s that easy? Tatapunan mo lang ako ng barya at papayag na akong iiri ang batang hindi ko naman ginusto. Ikaw ba ang magsusuffer sa consequences? Ikaw ba ang hindi makaka-graduate? Ang mapapahiya sa mga tao?” Asik niya. “This is not the life I want for myself, Yvo! This is not what I want…” 

She buried her face into her hands and began to cry again. She had been an emotional mess lately. It was unclear if this was because of the pregnancy hormone, the stress she was going through, or maybe both. 

Yvo took her hand in his, holding it and giving it a press as if telling her that he was here for her. She lifted her wet eyes to him again. 

“Natatakot ako, Yvo. Natatakot ako sa kung ano ang pwedeng mangyari sa future ko. Ayokong masira ang buhay ko.” Humihikbing sabi niya. 

Yvo moved his chair closer to her so that he could hold her. Desperate for human contact, she wrapped her arms around his torso and nestled her body against his. 

“Alam natin na isang malaking pagkakamali lang itong batang ito. Tulungan mo naman ako. I still want to get rid of this baby at hindi na magbabago ang isip ko. Please, kahit ano’ng tulong tatanggapin ko.” She begged him in between sobs. “Hindi ba doktor ka? Marami kang alam na paraan…”

He tightly closed his eyes and took in a deep breath. He understood her fears. She was still young, she wasn’t even out of college yet. He wanted to curse himself for having take part in this mess. He wished it wasn’t him who she had been with that night. It would’ve been easier for them to take if it was just Tate and her. Hindi na siguro aabot sa ganito.  

“In Singapore, abortion is legal…” Those words felt like bile in his mouth. 

Yuka stopped crying and tilted her head up to look at him, anticipating what he’d say next. “I can book you a flight. I know a doctor there. I heard it’s a quick and painless procedure.”

“T-talaga?” She asked.

“Yeah. Just please, don’t do anything stupid while I arrange everything for you. If you take those illegal pills o kung pumunta ka sa manghihilot, hindi mo alam kung ano ang pwedeng mangyari sa’yo.” He sighed heavily.

“Thank you.” She swallowed back a sob. “Hindi ko alam kung ano na ang gagawin ko kung wala ka. Thank you talaga, Yvo. Can you believe noong isang araw lang sinusubukan kong ihulog ang sarili ko sa hagdan?”

“You what?” His face contorted into a grimace.

“Akala ko kasi kapag nahulog ako, malalaglag din ito.” She really was that desperate to get rid of the child and felt extremely relieved now that she had somebody to help her. Hindi niya na kailangan dalhin ito mag-isa. 

“Please don’t do that again. There are safer ways. We will figure something out.” Yvo said with heavy heart.

A small, tiny part of her was battling with herself. Isang bahagi ng pagkatao niya ang nagsasabi na mali itong gagawin niya, it was poking at her conscience. But a bigger part of her told her that it was the right thing to do. Someday she knew she’d find the right man for her and thank her old self for the decision she had made. She knew it would be a hard decision but it would be worth it in the end. Hindi lang naman siya ang tanging babae sa mundo na gumawa na nito. What rich man would want an extra baggage, anyway?

Yvo, on the other hand, was buying time. He didn’t want her to do anything stupid until he figured out what step to take next. He was against her decision as he had seen how both his parents grieved for their unborn child. They would always visit Tristan Zamora Jr.’s grave on his made-up birthday to celebrate it. Kapag pasko, hindi nakakalimot ang mga magulang niya na maglagay din ng regalo sa ilalim ng Christmas tree para kay Junjun. He had always been a part of the family even when he had never been born. 

It sickened him to think that he’d take part in terminating the life of an unborn child when he grew up with a family that loved and cherished his unborn sibling. But if Yuka really wanted to get rid of the baby, it was still her body and she gets to decide what to do with it. He couldn’t force her to have the baby if she didn’t want to. Sa ngayon ang tanging magagawa niya lang ay humanap ng paraan para magbago ang desisyon ni Yuka. If everything else fails and she still would want to have an abortion, he would still keep his words. Kaysa naman mapahamak ito sa gagawin niyang pag-inom ng kung anu-anong gamot o pumunta sa manghihilot. He’d get him a ticket to Singapore but he told himself that it would be the last resort. 

She couldn’t help the smile on her face when she found a bottled buko juice on top of her locker. It had on the bottle a sticky note with her name written on it. Alam agad ni Yuka kung sino ang naglagay nun. She had no doubt that it was Yvo dahil ito lang naman ang nakakaalam na ito ang pinaglilihian niya ngayon.

‘Thanks, doc.’ She immediately texted him. She was glad that despite what had happened, kahit pakiramdam niya tinalikuran na siya ng mundo at pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa ay nandito pa rin si Yvo para sa kanya. 

‘Sure. Good morning!’ He texted back.

‘Lunch tayo ulit mamaya! Sunduin kita mamaya sa office mo.’ She texted again. She didn’t feel like eating with her so-called friends. She knew now that Yvo was the only one she could really count on. 

‘Okay. See you later. :)’   She read his message. She couldn’t help but chuckle at the thought of Dr. Yvo Zamora using a smiley emoji. She thought she was too serious for emojis. 

‘Ok, doc! Work ka na, I need to go to my class :D :D :D’ She texted as she was walking to her first class, drinking the buko juice he had given her. 

‘Will do. Pay attention to your professor.’ He answered.

‘How am I supposed to pay attention? E tinetext mo ko lol.’ 

‘Okay, I won’t anymore.’

‘Doc, tinetext mo pa rin ko e.’   She chuckled after sending him the text message. She just loved teasing him. She could picture him in her mind shaking his head as he would everytime she teases him. 

Parang walang nagbago sa pagkakaibigan nila. They had immediately pick up where they left off. Yvo was the only one she had right now. The only one who knew about the pregnancy other than Tate who had ghosted her. Kailangan niya ito ngayon lalo na at ito ang makakatulong sa gusto niyang gawin.

She had to take two classes before lunch time. The day started out rather normal, she had tweaked on her phone, checked her social media accounts while her professor was busy lecturing in front of the class. Tate still hadn’t respond to any of her messages in all his social media accounts. Her second class was pretty much the same, nothing really interesting had gone happened. Except that this time, she was starting to feel a little faint. She should’ve brought a snack to eat before going to class. Nakailang subo lang kasi siya kaninang umaga. Her palate had been a little too picky lately. She had to force the food in her mouth just so she wouldn’t starve again like the last time. Ayaw niya  nang masuka ulit.

The bell rang. She quickly stood up but instantly knew something wasn’t right. Napahawak siya sa desk niya nang magsimulang magdilim ang paningin niya. She could literally feel her whole body slowly shutting down on her until she dropped to the floor. The last thing she had heard before losing her conciousness was her professor shouting to bring her to the clinic. 

She slowly opened her eyes. Nakaupo sa gilid ng kama ang Mammy niya at ang Ninang Jodie niyan, both staring at her. She was confused for a few moments, her head hurting almost as if she was hung over. It took her awhile to understand what had happened. She had passed out and was now in the school clinic.

“My, Nang… pahinging tubig…” 

“Ano bang nangyari sa’yo?” Tanong ng Ninang niya bago siya inabutan ng bottled water. 

She gasped when her mother suddenly cupped her breast. She shifted her body away from her. “My, ano ba!” 

“Sabi ko na nga ba!” Sasha shot up from her seat. 

“Ano ba yan, Sasha?” Jodie looked at her, her thin brows furrowing in confusion. 

She leaned over to her daughter, leveling her head with Yuka’s, and then looked her straight in the eye. “Umamin ka sa akin. Buntis ka, ano?” 

“M-my…” Yuka’s voice cracked. 

“Sabi ko na nga ba! Akala mo hindi ko nahahalata yang pagduwal-duwal mo sa umaga at saka pagiging maselan mo sa amoy.” She said through gritted teeth. She grabbed a fist full of Yuka’s hair and then slapped her across her face with her other hand.

“Sasha, ano ba? Huwag dito.” Sinubukan tanggalin ni Jodie ang mga kamay nito kay Yuka habang patuloy ito sa pagsabunot at pagsampal sa anak. 

Yvo could hear the commotion going on inside the white curtain. He had left Yuka’s side to buy something to eat for when she wakes up. He hurried to her area and when he pushed the white curtains around the bed so that he could get in, he saw Migs’ mother-in-law with her hands on Yuka’s hair.

Agad na pumagitna si Yvo sa dalawang babae at nahatak naman ni Jodie palayo si Sasha kay Yuka. He wrapped his arms around her to shield her and Yuka wrapped hers around his torso and began to cry against his chest. 

“Bakit si Ate hindi mo naman binugbog noong nalaman mong buntis siya?” She said, her words almost incoherent with her sobs.

“Gaga! Eh iba naman kasi sitwasyon niyo ng Ate mo!” Sabi ni Jodie.

Dinuro siya ng ina niya. “Hindi ka na nahiya sa Ate mo at sa Kuya Migs mo, ha?! Pinag-aral ka sa magandang eskwelahan, binigyan ka ng magandang kinabukasan, tapos puro kalandian pa ang inuna mo, ha? Ano na lang ang sasabihin ko sa kanila mamaya? Ano ang mukhang ihaharap ko?”

“Teka, sino ba ang tatay niyan?” Tanong ni Jodie.

“Si Tate ba, ha?” Galit na sabi ng Mammy niya. Before Tate had left for US, dinala pa niya ito sa bahay para mag-dinner kasama ang pamilya niya. It had only been the second time he had been at Migs’ home. It was Saskia at Migs who had invited him over so they could get to know him more. Gusto din naman ipakita ni Tate na seryoso siya sa panliligaw niya and he promised he’d be back to continue pursuing her after his game. Well, where was he now?

Yuka swallowed, her throat feeling dry. What was she supposed to say? Sino ang isasagot niya? Tumingin siya kay Yvo at nagtama ang mga mata nila. 

“Ako po…” He answered, his eyes still on her and then they averted from her to her mother’s. He said in a more solid tone, “I’m the father.”

Chapter Seventeen

It was as if time stood still after they had broken the news to Saskia and Migs. No one dared say a word and no one dared to do something as simple as glance at one another. Yuka’s sobs seemed to have amplified in the stillness, breaking the heavy silence that hung in the living room. Yvo sat beside Yuka and when he tried to comfort her, she shrug his arm off her. 

“O, ngayon iiyak-iyak ka. Sana naisip mo yan bago ka nagpakangkang.” Sasha tried to keep her voice steady but it still quivered with impending tears. Her daughter was handed every opportunity to make a success of her life. Nabigay sa kanya ni Migs at Saskia ang buhay na hindi niya naibigay sa mga anak. Nakapag-aral ito sa magandang eskwelahan, nakatira sa malaking bahay, wala na itong poproblemahin. She had it easy compared to what she and Saskia had been through in life and she had all of wasted it. 

They waited for Saskia’s reaction but received none. She had always trusted Yuka. Siya ang higit na nakakakilala sa kapatid niya. She was far too cunning to sleep around and even more so get pregnant. Her family, they were resilient people but Yuka had a different kind of resilience than the rest of them. While they follow the path thrown to their way, Yuka makes her own way. She had always been like that as a child, head strong and knew exactly what she wanted. Alam niyang hindi matutulad sa kanya o sa Mammy niya si Yuka na tanga sa pag-ibig, na hindi man matalino si Yuka katulad ni Cosme ay sa kanilang tatlo siya ang pinakamautak. 

“Ate, Kuya, sorry…” Yuka said in between sobs when the couple still hadn’t said anything. 

Ayaw pangunahan ni Migs ang asawa. He was in shock but he knew that his wife was devastated. He had absolutely no idea that Yuka and his second cousin, Yvo, even knew each other. They didn’t even have time to greet each other when Sasha told they had something important to say. 

“Kunin mo na ang mga gamit mo.” Saskia said, barely showing any emotions. 

“Ate!” Yuka shook her head profusely. “Ate, please, ayaw kong umalis…”

“Hindi na kita responsibilidad, Yuka. Ayusin mo na ang mga gamit mo at umalis ka na dito.” Saskia couldn’t keep her voice from breaking. She had done everything to make sure her siblings could have a better future than they had before. Tinulungan sila ni Migs na magkaroon ng magandang kinabukasan at ito pa ang igaganti niya sa kabutihan sa kanya ng lalaki. He had never treated any of her family any less than his own. 

“Ate!” Yuka got to her feet and went after Saskia. “Ate, please, ayaw kong umalis. Dito lang ako!”

Saskia turned a deaf ear to her sister’s pleas. As much as this pained her, siya halos ang tumayong nanay kay Yuka lalo na noong nagtatrabaho ang Mammy nila, she knew that she needed to face the consequence of what she had done. She went straight to Yuka’s room and threw open her closet, pulling out all her sister’s clothes. 

“Ate!” Niyakap ni Yuka si Saskia. “Ate, huwag mo akong palayasin. Hindi ba nangako ka sa akin na hindi mo ako pababayaan? Pati ba naman ikaw tatalikuran mo din ako?”

Saskia closed her eyes, her legs giving way as she couldn’t carry the heaviness of the emotions she was feeling. Napaupo na lang siya sa gilid ng kama ni Yuka at lumuhod ang kapatid niya sa harap niya habang yakap siya. Yuka rested her head on her lap and cried to her like a little girl would on her mother’s lap.

“Isa lang ang hiniling ko sa inyo, ang makapagtapos kayo ni Cosme dahil ayaw kong bumalik kayo sa pinanggalingan natin. Bakit hindi mo ako napagbigyan doon?” Saskia’s voice was shaking as she tried to keep her tears at bay. “Hindi habang buhay kargo kita at ng asawa ko. Ngayong magkakaanak ka na, tama lang na umalis ka na dito.” 

Saskia felt horrible saying those words to her own sister that she had raised like her own child. Sunod-sunod na napailing si Yuka, more tears blinding her eyes. Saskia tried to pry Yuka’s arms off her but she just held her tighter. 

“Hahayaan kitang magpalipas ng gabi pero gusto ko bukas na bukas din wala ka na dito.” She said in a firm tone before she stood up. Yuka was left crying on the floor of her room. Just right outside the door to her room were her mother and Ninang listening to their conversation. Pagbukas ay bumungad sa kanya ang dalawa. “My, Nang, kayo na ang bahalang tumulong kay Yuka na mag-ayos ng mga gamit niya.” 

Downstairs, Migs had invited Yvo to his little bar room right past the dining room. He poured a glass of whiskey for Yvo and for himself to try to loosen up the tension. 

Yvo was not one to drink unless he had a good reason to. He shook his head as Migs passed the glass to him. 

“Oh, I’m fine.” He shook his head. 

“Yvo, I’m an occasional drinker myself. But trust me, we both need this.” Migs said with a reassuring smile.

He hesitantly accepted the glass and took a small sip from it. 

“Hindi ko alam na may namamagitan pala sa inyo ni Yuka. I know about her and Tate but not about you two.” Migs was warming up a conversation. “How did you two meet?”

“At your wedding.” He answered.

Tumango ang lalaki. “I see. You know, when I married Saskia I also received in my life her family. When I married my wife, her family became mine as well. Yuka is not just a sister-in-law to me. She’s my sister just as Drey and Ronnie are. I’d do everything to protect them.”

“I’m willing to support the child. Hindi ko tatakasan ang responsibilidad ko sa bata.” If it was really his.

“I have enough money to support Yuka and the child myself. Yuka needs more than financial support. She’s barely a woman, Yvo. She needs someone to raise the child with. She can’t do this alone. Hindi mo siya pwedeng pabayaan.” Migs took a gulp from his glass. 

“I won’t, Kuya Miggy.” He said, promise in his voice.

“You’re a good man, Yvo. I trust you’d do the right thing.” Migs patted him on the shoulder.  

Yvo kept his eyes on the whiskey in his hand, swirling the golden liquid in the glass.

Tate had just gotten out of his sauna at home after a hard day of training. The heat seemed to have relaxed his exhausted muscles a bit, reducing  the stiffness of it. He took a quick shower and got into his bed. His body was worn out but yet again his mind would not let him rest. It wandered to the last conversation he had with Yuka but he quickly tried to push it away.

He couldn’t afford to lose concentration. It was never an option. He didn’t want to deal with it, not right now. He had never loved any woman as much as he loved Yuka. He wouldn’t lose sleep like this if his feelings for her weren’t genuine. This ordeal was not something he had expected and was ready to deal with. He thought of his football career, his life, everything… he thought about it over and over again and even now he still wasn’t sure if he was ready to give all that up for the woman he loved. 

The phone on his bedside table rang as he was starting to drift to sleep. He had turned off all possibly communication he had outside of training but one, the telephone which only his family and his coach knew. He looked at the caller ID but it only displayed the words PRIVATE NUMBER on the screen. It took a few rings and a few seconds of contemplating whether he should pull the telephone plug out or just answer it, in the end it was his curiousity that won. 

“Hello?” He said in a rather cold manner, letting the caller know that the call wasn’t wanted at all. Some crazy fans have ways of knowing private informations about him that’s why he had learned to be careful on who he gives his number to. He needs to change his number from time to time as fans always manage to get a hold of it. Hindi niya alam kung paano nila nakukuha iyon dahil piling tao lang ang binibigyan niya. This time he had shut down all possible communication except of course with his family and coach. Lalo na matapos ang pag-uusap nila ni Yuka. He didn’t have the heart the problem now. 

“Tate.” He had easily recognized the voice.

“How did you get my number?” He asked in a hostile tone. 

“Hiningi ko kay Tito Wayne.” He answered. “I’m sure you know about Yuka.”

“I don’t want to talk about it.” He said in a cold manner, his jaw clenching. 

“Not wanting to talk about it won’t make it go away. She loved you, Tate. You know that. How can you just ignore her like this? How can you turn your back on her when she needs you most?” Yvo tried to control his voice from raising but the anger, he couldn’t hide.

Tate closed his eyes, the words felt like a stab in his chest. He loved her, he knew he really did… he’d never felt this way for any woman before. But was it enough to give up his freedom to father a child that was conceived out of a mistake? Did he really love her enough to give up everything for her?

“For fuck’s sake! I can’t do this now, Yvo!” Asik niya, his fingers raking through his hair. “Huwag mong  guluhin ang isip ko!”

“You selfish fucking prick! Isipin mo na lang kung ano ang nararamdaman ni Yuka ngayon. Did you know that she tried to get rid of the baby?” 

Hindi agad nakakibo si Tate. In the back of his mind and as cruel as it was, he’d hope she’d just do it. Get rid of the child so they could go back to the way things used to be between them. 

“Bakit sa akin mo isinisisi ang nangyayari? This was your fault! If you hadn’t taken her to the club, this wouldn’t have happened. You planned this, didn’t you?” 

“You know that’s not true.” Yvo’s voice was low yet hard.

His mind had been clouded by his anger for his friend and there was no turning back. “It fucking is! Right from childhood, you’ve always envied me. From when you were just a lanky nerd nobody took notice of. I helped you get your first lay, you miserable fuck! You want what I have kaya pati si Yuka-”

“Are you fucking hearing yourself?” Hindi na nakayanan ni Yvo ang naririnig mula sa kaibigan niya. “None of us wanted it to happen!”

“Did you not want it when you were on top of my girl?” He scoffed. “Hindi ba sumagi sa isip mo habang nasa ibabaw ka ni Yuka that you were fucking your bestfriend’s woman, huh?”

“Yuka isn’t your woman and maybe she’ll never be. I’ve never envied you, Tate, in fact, right now all I feel for you is pity. You just showed her how much of a fucking coward you are.” Yvo said before the line went dead. 

Binato ni Tate ang telepono sa sobrang galit. Kay Yvo, sa sarili niya, sa sitwasyon nila. The phone shattered into pieces as it hit the floor. Was this his punishment for all the hearts he had broken in the past? Bakit kung kailan nagseryoso na siya sa isang babae ay ito pa ang nangyari sa kanya? Why his Yuka? Why with his bestfriend?

Yuka hadn’t had a good night sleep knowing that that was last night here in her Ate and Kuya’s house. She wanted to hate Yvo for trying to intervene. She should’ve just done it. Kung ginawa niya iyon, it would’ve been over by now. She should have just taken those damn pills! 

“Yuka, nandyan na si Yvo.” Sabi nang Mammy niya nang dumungaw ito sa pinto ng kwarto niya. Her things had already been brought downstairs. It was inevitable, no matter how much she wanted to stay her sister had made up her mind. She had no idea what kind of life she’d have now and she was scared.

She went out of her room and found Savi standing right outside of it. 

“Are you really going to leave?” The corners of her lips turned down as she tried to keep herself from crying. 

“Kailangan ko na umalis, eh.” She bent one knee down so that she could level with her niece. “Huwag kang papaapi sa maldita mong kambal, ha?”

“I’m going to miss you!” She locked her arms around her aunt’s neck. 

“Mamimiss din kita, Savi.” She said to her, fighting the urge to cry. She had already put mascara on and she didn’t want to ruin it. It was the sole reason why she had on a mascara today so she’d be force to hold her tears in.

After sharing a hug, Yuka took her niece’s hand and they walked down the stairs. 

“Mahirap gisingin yan sa umaga at saka matagal mag-ayos yan kaya palagi kang malalate kung ihahatid mo yan. Kami kasi madalas, iniiwan na lang namin siya. Sabi ng Lola Mammy ko de susi daw yan, hindi gagalaw kung hindi uutusan. Pinaglihi daw kasi siya sa de susing maynika kaya ganyan. Pagpasensyahan mo na lang. Kunin mo yung cellphone o kaya tanggalan mo ng wifi kapag hindi sumunod sa’yo.” She could hear her other niece talking as they made their way to the living room. 

Tintin was sitting beside Yvo on the couch, having a little chat with him. Para itong matandang nagbibilin kay Yvo kung paano alagaan si Yuka. 

“I’ll remember that.” He was smiling as he talked with the little girl. 

“Saka mahilig ang Tita Yuka ko sa mga branded kahit peke naman daw sabi ni Mamila para magmukha siyang sosyal. Kaya kung bibili ka ng regalo dapat branded din. Ano ba yung paborito ni Tita Yuka, Mamila?” She turned her head to Jodie.

“Louis Vuitton.” Sagot naman ni Jodie.

“Yun! Ganon bilhin mo kasi hindi niya gagamitin pag walang tatak. Maarte kasi yan. Titignan ko sa laptop mamaya kung ano yung online shop na pinagbibilhan niya para dun ka na din bumili. Tapos pag ginagabi ng uwi yan, huwag mong papasukin agad-agad para madala. Yun kasi ginagawa ni Mamila saka ni Mommy. Pag hintayin mo siya ng isang oras sa labas.” Sabi nito. 

Yvo couldn’t help a chuckle at the adorableness of his cousin’s daughter. She was indeed a bright little girl, far ahead of her age. 

“Ano na naman ang idinadaldal mo?” Yuka sniffed as she walked into the room. 

“Sinasabi ko lang sa kanya kung ano ang dapat gawin sa’yo para hindi na siya mahirapan.” Sabi ni Tintin. “Aalis ka na kasi dito, di ba?”

Yuka had to swallow back her tears again. She’d miss her family. She had never lived away from them before. This was the first time she’d ever seperate from them. She’d miss all the luxury she took for granted. Hindi niya alam kung ano ang buhay na naghihintay sa kanya ngayon. She had thought that Yvo couldn’t give her a life better than what her billionaire brother-in-law had provided their family. 

“Mamimiss mo ko, ano?” She asked her niece.

“Syempre!” Sagot naman ni Tintin, her lips trembling a little and her eyes glossed. “Wala na akong kaaway.”

She fondly pinched the little girl’s nose. “Huwag ka ngang umiyak. Lalo kang papangit!”

“Eh di sinabihan mo din pangit si Savi!”

“Ikaw lang. Maganda si Savi.” She playfully stuck her tongue out at her despite the tears.

“Paano kaya yun, eh kambal kami!” Kumunot ang noo nito.

“Halika nga dito, payakap.” She bent down so that she could give her niece-nemesis a hug. They shared a tight embrace and she left a kiss on her forehead before she let go. “Huwag mong mamalditahan si Savi, ha? Huwag kayong mag-aaway!”

“Ikaw lang naman inaaway ko.” Naiiyak na sagot nito. 

“Palagi ko kayong bibisitahin pag hindi na galit sa akin ang Mommy niyo.” She told the twins.

“Ikaw kasi eh! Bakit ka kasi nagpapahalik, yan tuloy na buntis ka! Nakakalimutan mo ngang pakainin yung goldfish kahit ilang beses na ibilin sa’yo, paano pa kaya yung baby?” Tintin said as she rubbed her fists against her tears soaked eyes.

“Are you going to take the baby too when you visit?” Savi asked. 

She nodded her head and gave a half-hearted smile. This baby had ruined her future, her plans for herself. Hindi pa rin tuluyan matanggap ng isip niya that this was how her life would end up. She couldn’t picture herself being a mother, living a mediocre life where everything revolved around another person’s. 

“Si Ate?” Tanong niya kay Jodie at Sasha nang humarap siya sa dalawa.

“Ayaw ng Ate mong makitang umalis ka.” Sagot ni Sasha bago niyakap ang anak. Jodie joined in and hugged her, too. They said their goodbyes to each other as if they wouldn’t be seeing each other for years. 

“Alagaan mong mabuti si Yuka at ang magiging anak niyo.” Bilin ni Jodie kay Yvo.

“I will…” Yvo nodded his head. “I’ll take her to visit  you every now and then.”

Yvo carried as much luggages as he could and brought it to his car while the helps carried the rest. It broke her heart that her Ate didn’t even want to see  her. Alam niyang masama pa rin ang loob nito sa kanya. Cosme was still at his school which saved him from all this drama. But he did promise to visit Yuka to her new home once he finishes his exams. 

Yvo and Yuka finally got into the car once the last of her luggages were loaded into the car. He drove off and not a word was said for a few minutes. 

“Yuka, are you okay?” Tanong ni Yvo sa kanya.

Yuka shook her head. “I don’t even know anymore. Hindi ko alam kung ano na ang gagawin ko.”

“I’ll take care of you…” He quietly said.

She let out a scoff. “Take care of me? Sana hinayaan mo na lang ako sa gusto kong gawin! Hindi na sana umabot sa ganito. I don’t know how I’d get out of this situation now!”

“We’ll make it right. I’ll…” Yvo swallowed, mosituring his dry throat. He’d thought about this a million times last night. After the conversation he had with Miguel and Tate, he had already made up his mind. This was the right thing to do. “I’ll marry you…”

Yuka’s head snapped to his direction. “Marry me? Nahihibang ka ba? Alam mo ba ang pinagsasabi mo? This baby is probably not even yours!”

“I have already claimed it as mine.” He said. “Hindi ko na mababawi ang binitawan kong salita sa pamilya mo.” And Tate didn’t want to take responsibility for the baby. What was he supposed to do? Iwan din siya katulad ng ginawa ng kaibigan niya kay Yuka?

Yuka buried her face into her palms in anger and frustration. Her scream filled the whole car, her pregnancy hormones playing havoc on her emotions, and she began to cry. 

“Yuka…” Yvo softly said, his hand reaching up to touch her but she flinched away. 

“This is not what I want my life to be! Hindi ito ang ginusto kong buhay para sa akin!” She sobbed. 

“I-I’m sorry…” Yvo sighed. “I’ll do my best to give you whatever you need. I promise. Just tell me what you need and want.”

“All I know is that I don’t want this! Ano’ng buhay ang maibibigay mo sa akin at sa bata? You’re just a researcher. Hindi mo kayang ibigay sa akin ang gusto ko. I don’t want to be a miserable housewife. I want an extraordinary life. I have huge, extraordinary visions of how I want my life to be. I don’t want to live this way…”

Yvo had always know how ambitious Yuka was, the drive that she had to prove herself to people. He could never fault her for wanting to obtain her goals and he felt guilty that he had gotten in the way of that. But what else was there to do? 

“Funny thing is when you live an extraordinary life for quite some time it becomes ordinary to you.” His lips broke into a somber smile. 

They did not say a single word after. Sandaling naidlip si Yuka, her body had been demanding more sleep lately. Yvo pulled drove into the gate to his house and pulled up right in front of the front door. His helps quickly attended to them, taking out all of Yuka’s luggages in. He had one of the rooms ready for his guest. 

“Yuka.” He gently woke her up. 

Her eyes flattered open and she sat right up when she had realized that she had falled asleep. Right in front of them stood a huge, sophisticatedly designed house. It looked more contemporary than Migs’ but Miguel being the conventional person he was had always had love for the classics. The house in front of her had a modern architecture with huge windows taking up entire walls. Everything was geometric, a mixture of sleek metal and sheer glass. 

“We’re here.” Sabi ni Yvo sa kanya. 

He offered his hand to her and guided her out of the car. Pumasok sila sa loob ng bahay. If she thought it was breathtaking from outside, it was even more so in the inside. Everything looked exquisite but not in a gaudy way. The furnitures and the interior had tasteful design, a mix of modern and traditional. 

“Sa’yo itong bahay?” Tanong ni Yuka kay Yvo. She was still wide-eyed with surprised and curiosity. 

“Yes.” Yvo answered. “Welcome to my house.”

Chapter Eighteen

She was settled in her new room, half the things from her luggages unpacked. Her room was bigger than the one she had in her brother-in-law’s mansion. The huge window gave her a good view of the garden at the back of the house. She didn’t expect this kind of luxury. Although she kind of knew that Yvo was of upper middle class background given his sophisticated personality and him being a biochemist research scientist, hindi niya akalain na ganito kayaman ang lalaki. Sure, doctors make a lot of money, but they weren’t exactly the one percent like her brother-in-law and probably Tate.

“Hey, do you need help?” Yvo popped his head through the door of her room as she was arranging her clothes in the closet.

“Okay lang. Matatapos naman na ito.” She answered.

“It’s almost dinner and you still haven’t eaten anything.” Yvo stepped into her room.

“Okay lang ako.” She tried to stop herself from sniffling as she didn’t want him to know that she had been crying.

“Hindi ka dapat nagugutom. You need as much nutrients as you can get.” He eyed her flat stomach. She had gained half an inch around her waist when she measured it yesterday but other than that, the bump wasn’t showing yet. “Nagpaluto ako ng ginataang gulay. I figured maybe you’d like that. I know you miss your family but I promise you, I’ll do my best to make you feel more at home here.”

He said what she needed to hear right now. She guessed she just wanted the comfort of knowing that she was utterly not alone in this. Even when she had been an asshole to him earlier when she was throwing a fit, he was still here for her.

“Thank you, Yvo.” She gazed down at her feet, feeling embarrassed by how she had acted while in the car with him and all those words she said.

“Don’t worry about it. Come on! The food is waiting.” Aya nito sa kanya. 

Bumaba sila sa dining room kung saan nakahain na ang pagkain. The smell of the food instantly made her stomach growl in hunger. She hadn’t notice how hungry she was until now. Huling kain niya ay breakfast pa kanina bago siya umalis sa bahay ni Migs, hinatiran siya ng Mammy niya ng pagkain dahil nahihiya siyang magpakita kay Saskia at Migs.

“I already scheduled an appointment with an OBGYN.” Yvo said as they were eating.

Yuka had to pause and look at him. “Bakit ginagawa mo ito?”

“What?” Yvo furrowed his brows.

“This! Why do you have to do this?” Her voice trembled with a slight growl.

“We have to make sure that you and the baby are okay.” He answered, albeit confused as to why she was getting mad at him.

“Paano kung hindi sa’yo ito, ha?” She asked in a low tone. It embarrassed her still that she had no clue on who the father was. “Ni hindi ko nga alam kung kanino ito. Bakit kailangan mong akuin ito?”

“Because if I don’t, who will?” Yvo sighed and tightly shut his eyes, leaning against his seat. “Nakausap ko si Tate, Yuka.”

Her spine involuntarily straighted and her body stilled when he said Tate’s name. It had been quite awhile since their last conversation. It ended miserably. She hated him for turning his back on her but it would be a lie to say she stopped hoping he’d changed his mind. Baka nabigla lang ito at ngayon ay handa nang panagutan siya. 

“A-ano’ng sabi niya?” She finally mustered the strength to ask.

Yvo had to take a sip of water before he spoke. “I guess he couldn’t accept the situation we were in. I’m sorry…”

Napahawak ng mahigpit si Yuka sa kutsara’t tinidor na nasa kamay niya, tears began to blind her visions as her jaw clenched. She felt betrayed by the first man she ever genuinely loved. “Bakit? Sa tingin niya gusto ko itong nangyayari? Sabi niya mahal niya ako, bakit pinabayaan niya ako?”

“I’ll take care of you and the child.” Yvo took her hand in his. “I was serious when I said I’d marry you.”

Yuka’s eyes lifted up to look at him, giving him a stunned glance. Yuka thought when he first said it was just a spur of the moment thing, something to calm her down while she was throwing a fit. Even then, she hadn’t seriously consider it. But now, it seemed more… real. She quickly regained her compusure, blinking away the tears from her eyes and taking a deep breath in.

“Paano nga kung kay Tate ito?” She asked.

“Paano kung sa akin?” The expression in his eyes belied the softness of his voice. He gave her hand a gentle squeeze. “Hindi naman natin kailangan magsama bilang mag-asawa. We don’t have to sleep together. We don’t have to do things husbands and wives do. You don’t have to act like a wife to me. I’ll give everything you and the baby need. I have enough money to last me a lifetime, enough money to give you and the baby every comfort life has to offer. You don’t have to worry about a thing, Yuka.”

“B-bakit ba ginagawa mo ito? Hindi na naman ito kapanahunan ni Maria Clara na kailangan magpakasal ang babae kapag na buntis?” She wouldn’t lie, his offer sounded tempting but it was too good to be true. Surely, Yvo was a good man but he was not stupid. It wouldn’t be as out of this world if he’d offer child support or to take care of her until they find out who the father is  but a marriage…? He knew what he was getting himself into. He knew her like no other. He’d even used the word money lure her in. What if he was… “Are you in love with me?”

Yvo blinked, taken aback by her blunt question. But that was Yuka. She had always been one to speak her mind, especially when with him.

“Huwag mong sabihin in love ka na sa akin?” Ulit na tanong niya.

His back stiffened and he retracted, letting go of her hand. “I’m not in love with you. This has nothing to do with love. Look, Yuka, you need me and I need you.”

“What do you need me for? Alam kong kailangan kita pero ikaw?” Her brows furrowed, he had money, he’d give her child a name, a comfortable life, a father but she had nothing to offer in return.

“You see, Yuka, I have a pharmaceutical company and I need fund for my projects. I need investors.” He said.

She didn’t even have a centavo to her name. What does she have to do with this, she thought.

“I have made quite a name for myself and my company. In the first year, it was hard, I almost gave up on my dream of having my own pharmaceutical company. We were running out of fund and the experimental drugs were not working in clinical trials, I was losing hundreds of millions. I gave it all I had, I continued to work passionately and committedly in my research until one of the drugs worked. It was hailed in the medical science field as a breakthrough drug. But it was not enough to gain the other’s trust and respect. Half of them think I’m a prodigy and the other half think I’m too ambitious, that this will just be another Theranos waiting to happen.”

She was still puzzled as she didn’t what it had to do with marrying him.

Yvo sighed. “I’m being undermined in my field, Yuka. Though I can’t put the blame on them. A fairly new pharmaceutical company run by a twenty-eight-year-old bachelor. I have achieved something big in such short span of time and it doesn’t make sense to them. Not to the ones who have worked all their lives for something I have now. They say I just got lucky, that I was just a one hit wonder and I intend to prove them wrong. You’ll be good for me, Yuka, and the baby, too.”

“Paano?” She asked, still at lost.

“I’m too young to be taken seriously and I am a bachelor. People tend to equate being a bachelor with inexperience and irresponsibility. Maybe being married and having a child will help them see me in a different light. Think about it, Yuka. You would benefit from this as much as I would. Kaya ko kayong bigyan ng komportableng buhay.”

“Yvo…” That was all she could manage to say. These things that were happening to her today was just too overwhelming. She started fidgeting and caught herself playing with the necklace Tate had given her. She stopped when she had realized what she was doing. He was never going to come back for her and her baby. Katulad din ito ng ama niyang inabandona siya noong ipinagbubuntis pa lang siya ni Sasha.

“It’s okay, Yuka, you don’t have to decide right now. I know marriage is a serious matter and shouldn’t be taken lightly-”

She blinked as if coming out of a daze and glance back up at Yvo. “P-pumapayag akong magpakasal sa’yo.”

Yvo’s jaw dropped slightly as if what she said had surprised him but he was quick to recover. His face turned back to its straight, business-like facade. “Thank you, Yuka. I promise you, I will take care of you and the baby.”

He had taken Yuka to the hospital to see her OBGYN who happened to be one of his good friend.   But that was not the sole reason why he had chosen her to be Yuka’s OBGYN, he knew she was the best obstetrician in the city. 

“Yvo, hi!” Ellie greeted her as he and Yuka walked into her office.

“How should I address you? Dr. Elisandra? Dr. Milano?” Yvo chuckled.

“Just Ellie.” She rolled her eyes, smiling and then her eyes went to Yuka. “Is she my new patient?”

“Yeah.” He wrapped an arm around the small of her waist acting as though they were real couples. “This is Yuka.”

Parang hindi kumpleto ang pagpapakilala niya kay Yuka but what more could he add? This is Yuka, the mother of my possible child. 

“Nice to meet you.” Ngumiti ang babae sa kanya. “You’re really pretty, kaya pala hindi ka na pinakawalan ni Yvo.”

“Thank you.” Yuka politely said.

“Ang bilis mong nakabuo Yvo, samantalang just a few months ago you were still dating Krista.” Dr. Ellie said in a rather friendly teasing manner. All his friends knew of Krista as she had been the second woman he had a serious relationship with. Dati kahit saan siya magpunto ay kasa-kasama niya si Krista. Even her family was fond of him. 

“Girlfriend lang siya, ako fiancee.” She smiled but her smile seemed mostly to convey her annoyance. Kahit naman hindi sila totoong may relasyon ni Yvo, where was her decency? Talking about an ex in front of her.

“Right.” Ellie let out an awkward smile, sensing the irritation in her tone. “Anyway, I’m going to need to take your vitals. First appointment niyo ito, right?”

“Yes.” Yvo answered.

“Very well then.” She nodded her head. “Start na natin ang pagtake ng vitals.”

Yvo sat quietly and watched as his friend took Yuka’s vitals and examined her which were all normal. After examining her, the doctor brought them to the ultrasound room and asked Yuka to take off her pants so that they could do a pelvic ultrasound on her. She excused herself from the room and said to call her when they are ready. 

Yuka stood awkwardly with Yvo in the room. Their eyes met and locked for a second before Yuka looked down.

“H-huwag kang sisilip…” She quietly said, her hands on the button of her jeans.

“I won’t, I promise.” Yvo blinked, shaking his head as if shaking himself out of trance. He faced the wall to give her a little privacy.  

Yuka quickly took off her pants and her panties. She, then, covered herself with the blanket that the doctor said she could use. She laid down the examination chair and had Yvo called the doctor.

“Ready na?” Dr. Ellie said with a smile as she walked into the room.

Yuka nodded her head, giving the doctor a nervous smile.

“Good. Can you please put your feet up into the stirrup para ma check na natin si baby.” She instructed. “I’m going to insert this probe to you, okay?”

 “Masakit ba yan, doc?” She had to ask. 

“No, it shouldn’t hurt at all.” Sagot ng babae habang hinahanda ang mga gamit. Her eyes went to Yvo and she looked at him as if asking for help. It came naturally to Yvo to walk up to her and sit right beside Yuka’s head, instinctively knowing what she needed right at that moment. Yuka held out one hand to him and Yvo took that hand, his fingers engulfing her tiny ones. His skin was warm, scorching her cold hands. 

It was only Yvo she was looking at as the doctor asked if she was ready. Even as she answered, she never took her eyes off him. Yvo was holding her hand while his other was gently brushing his fingers through her hair, trying to comfort her as much as he could. Letting out a quiet whimper, she felt the cold, hard probe enter her womanhood. She had never had anything prob inside her body, the one time (or the two times) she did, she was not in the right state of mind and couldn’t even remember a damn thing. 

“It’s okay.” Yvo gently said as she felt her hands squeezing his. 

“There.” The doctor said when she found the perfect angle. “You see that tiny dot in the center. That’s your baby…”

Pareho silang napalingon sa monitor. They could see the the curled figure of a tiny baby. It was still small but it was already a developed baby with arms and legs. They both stared in wide-eyed amazement at what they were seeing. She had seen an ultrasound of a baby before, her Ate’s baby when she was pregnant with baby Migs but it was a different feeling seeing her own child. She couldn’t believe that that thing was now growing inside of her. It was a surreal feeling. 

“Do you want to hear the heartbeat?” The doctor asked. 

“Yes, we’d love to.” Yvo answered before she could. There was a different glimmer in his eyes as his eyes were glued to the monitor. 

The doctor took out the heartbeat monitor and held it against her belly, trying to find the perfect spot. Then for a moment, the sound of the fetus’ heartbeat filled the small room. A jumble of emotions assaulted Yuka and when she couldn’t hold it in any longer, she bursted into tears. She was hearing her own baby’s heartbeat, the same baby she wanted to get rid of. 

“Your baby has a healthy heartbeat.” Nakangiting sabi ng doctor. “Ano bang gusto niyong first baby? Boy or girl?”

“Kahit ano, doc, basta kasing talino ng ama.” Wala sa sariling sabi ni Yuka habang nakatingin sa monitor. She looked at Yvo when she realized what she said. Their eyes locked and they shared a tender look. This moment was something truly special and they didn’t want to spoil it. This was their baby. Ayaw muna nilang isipin ang posibilidad na hindi si Yvo ang ama nito. At that moment, it was only theirs. 

“Oh, the baby would be lucky. Alam mo ba na si Yvo ang pinakabata sa klase noon pero siya din ang pinakamatalino. It’s not a surprise na siya ang pinaka-successful sa amin ngayon. Look at him, an owner of an international pharmaceutical company.”

“Wait lang, doc. I need to record this.” Yuka said and rummaged through her bag for her phone. She took her phone out and started recording a video of the monitor that displayed the fetus while the heartbeat could be heard in the background. 

Dr. Ellie told them that the fetus was now 8 weeks and 2 days old and it was perfectly healthy. She was told to fix herself after examining her. Agad naman inayos ni Yuka ang sarili bago lumabas sa kwarto. And then they were given pictures of the ultrasound. 

“Yvo…” Yuka said in a small voice while they were walking back to Yvo’s car. 

He stopped mid-walk and faced her. “Yeah?”

“I- I just want to thank you for stopping me…” She tried to keep her voice steady despite the tears in her eyes. It was her pregnancy hormones that was making her emotional. “Kung hindi dahil sa’yo baka kung ano na ang nagawa ko.”

“You don’t have to thank me for anything. Hindi lang ikaw ang may responsibilidad sa bata, ako din. Hindi ko tatalikuran ang responsibilidad ko sa bata at sa’yo.” He said with such gentleness in his eyes. 

He could’ve easily walk away just like what Tate did. He could’ve let her have that abortion and they could all go back to their normal lives, it was the easiest way out but he didn’t. Pinanagutan niya ang bata kahit hindi siya sigurado na sa kanya ito. 

Hindi napigilan ni Yuka ang mapayakap sa lalaki at isinubsob ang mukha sa dibdib nito. Her cries and sobs were muffled as her face was buried into his chest. She was still scared but seeing her baby for the first time and hearing the baby’s heartbeat made her realize that she had to be strong for the both of them. She may not be ready to be a mother but at least they had Yvo with them. 

“Please, don’t cry. Baka makasama sa baby.” He said, raking his fingers through her long hair. 

“I- I almost got rid of my baby, Yvo. Wala akong kwentang ina.” Humihikbing sabi niya.

“You were confused. Magulo lang ang isip mo noon.” He said, holding her face in both hands so that he could look her in the eyes. Her narrow eyes were red and puffy with tears. “But you didn’t get rid of the baby and that’s all that matters.”

He wiped her tears with both her thumb. Hindi napigil ni Yuka ang muling mapayakap kay Yvo. She craved the warmth that emitted from his body. It was so comforting and relaxing, it was what she needed right at that moment. 

The hug they shared lasted a minute or so but she wished it would’ve lasted a little longer. Si Yvo lang ang masasandalan niya ngayon. Tate left her when she needed him and her family turned their backs on her. He was the only comfort she had left and she needed her lalo na ngayon when she felt the most vulnerable. 

Hindi naiwasan ni Yuka ang magtaka nang madaanan ang kalsada papunta sa village ng Ate at Kuya Migs niya. The route became more and more familiar to her. Inisip niya na baka nag-iba lang sila ng daanan and that they were just going to pass by but then the car began to approach the village’s entrance. 

“Ano’ng ginagawa natin dito?” Lumingon siya kay Yvo nang papasukin ng guard ang kotse nila.

“I want to formally ask your hand in marriage.” Yvo answered. “I want to do this the right way.”

Hindi nakakibo si Yuka. She didn’t know how to react. She couldn’t help but caress her stomach. It was still flat but even so, she imagined she could feel a bump as she put her hand on her tummy. All she knew right now was that she would be giving the baby a father and a chance for a better life. Pinanagutan siya ni Yvo. They’d both get something out of this marriage. 

It was as if they were expected. Agad siyang sinalubong ng dalawang pamangkin nang makababa sa kotse ng lalaki. Tintin and Savi wrapped their arms around her waist, it had only been a day since she had moved out but why did it feel like years?

“Na miss niyo ako, ano?” She asked the two in a playful tone despite trying to keep the tears at bay. 

“I super miss you, Tita!” Savi said.

“Kahit naman loka-loka ka, nakakamiss ka pa rin.” Sabi naman ni Tintin.

“Ikaw talaga!” She pinched her niece’s nose. “Galit pa din ba ang Mommy niyo sa akin?”

“Kunwari lang yun. Namimiss ka din nun. Kahapon nga umiyak siya nung umalis ka.” Tintin said.

“Talaga?” She asked.

The two nodded in unison. 

“Yuka, pumasok ka na. Kanina pa naghihintay ang mga balae ko.” Sasha came walking towards them. 

“Balae?” Yuka’s eyes widened in surprise.

“My mom and dad are here.” Yvo said. “I want your family to meet my parents. Mas magandang makilala nila ang isa’t-isa bago ang kasal.”

Yuka nodded her head and smiled. 

“Sige, Mammy papasok na kami.” She said to her mother. The kids went in with Sasha. 

 She wrapped her arms around one of Yvo’s and he looked down at her. She beamed at the man, her eyes disappearing in her smiling face. It had been quite awhile since she had smiled at him that way. 

“Ikakasal na tayo kaya syempre kailangan natin maging sweet sa isa’t-isa.” Even though life had jaded her, there was still this childish innocence about Yuka left that had always made her cute.

Chapter Nineteen

They walked into Migs and Saskia’s house together and headed to the dining room where everyone were at. Yuka still had her arms around of Yvo’s and he could tell how tensed she gets with each step with the way she ever so slightly presses her fingers around him.

“Alam na ba ng mommy at daddy mo ang tungkol sa pinagbubuntis ko?” She asked, biting her bottom lip out of nervousness.

“I told them over the phone.” Yvo silently answered.

“Ano’ng naging reaksyon nila? Galit ba sila?” Her brows knitted together in a worried line.

“At first, of course they were a bit surprised. But I explained to them everything.” He sighed.

Yuka’s tiny eyes widened. “Sinabi mo ang totoong nangyari? Na ikaw at si…”

“I left that part out. It’s best to not have anyone know. Nang akuin ko ang bata, ibig sabihin akin lang yan, ako lang ang ama niyan. I don’t care whose DNA recombined with whose.” He said with firm clearness.

She tilted her head up and looked at him with soft eyes when he wasn’t looking and let out a small smile. It was at that moment she wished that Yvo was really the biological father of the child she was carrying. Yvo had been nothing but kind to him even when she was pushing him away. Ito din ang umako ng bata nang talikuran siya ng lalaking minahal niya. Even though she knew he would benefit from this, it wouldn’t change the fact that he was the only one there for her when no one was. And that was enough for her. 

“Napakilala mo na ba si Krista sa mommy at daddy mo?” She couldn’t help but ask as they were walking.

Yvo gave her a sideway glance. “Why’d you ask?”

“Wala lang…” She shrugged.

“They’ve met, yes.” He answered, matter-of-factly.

“Nagustuhan naman siya ng mga magulang mo?” 

“Why are you asking me these questions?” His brows furrowed.

“Syempre gusto kong kabugin yung ex mo.” She rolled her eyes. “Dapat mas gusto ako ng mga magulang mo.”

A low chuckle escaped from Yvo’s throat. 

“Ano’ng nakakatawa?” She frowned at him and playfully hit him on the arm.

“I think you’re just being silly. You don’t have to worry about anything. Just act yourself and I’m sure they’ll like you.” Sabi nito sa kanya.

They made it into the dining room. The table was set up beautifully and she easily recognized her Ate’s dishes on the table. Mahilig talagang magluto ang Ate niya kahit noong bata pa siya. Nagtitinda nga ito ng meryenda sa tapat ng bahay nila. Her attention went to the man and woman sitting at the table and there was a younger woman with them too. She had easily recognized the woman as she was one of the most iconic international models, Miranda Cordova. Alam niyang related ito kay Migs dahil nakita niya na ito sa wedding party ng Ate niya but she never knew she was related to Yvo.

“Mommy mo si Miranda Cordova?” She looked at Yvo. 

He just answered with a smile.

“Finally.” The man stood up from his seat and offered his hand to Miranda. He looked like Yvo but more mature and with a little more ruggedness. He was ruggedly handsome, that was the word she was looking for. 

“Nanay, Tatay.” They walked up to them and Yvo took his father’s hand and bent his head down so his forehead could touch the back of it and he did the same to his mother. She did the same as her soon-to-be husband did. Nag-mano siya sa mga in-laws niya kahit hindi siya sanay. She was fangirling inside as she touches Miranda’s soft hand. She was one of the models she looks up to, dati sa mga magazine at TV niya lang nakikita ito. 

“Ang bait naman ng anak mo, Sasha. Anghel na anghel. Marunong na mag-mano.” Her Ninang Jodie teased. Tumingin siya sa Ninang niya at sumimangot.

“Nay, Tay, this is Yuka.” He introduced her to them. “The mother of my child.”

“Saka fiancee po.” Yuka added, wearing a huge grin on her face before looking at Yvo and crinkling her nose at him.  

“We’re so glad to finally meet you.” Nakangiting sabi ni Miranda sa babae.

“Kagabi ko lang nalaman na magiging Lolo na pala ako.” Tristan, Yvo’s father, chuckled. He had a very down-to-earth air about him. Medyo naiintimidate pa siya kay Miranda dahil mukha talaga itong alta but her future father-in-law seemed like a man everyone would get along with. 

“Yuka, this is my sister, Monique.” He held his hand out to the woman right behind his parents’. She was as beautiful as her mother though she lacked the confident air that her mother had, her elegance made up for it. She looked so graceful and feminine. 

“Hello, Monique.” She waved at her future sister-in-law.

Matipid na ngiti lang ang ibinalik nito sa kanya.

“Mga balae, halika na, kumain na tayo.” Aya naman ng Mammy niya. “Cosme, tawagin mo na ang Ate mo sa kusina.”

“Opo, My.” Sagot ng kapatid niya bago lumabas. They all sat at the table with Migs, the twins, her family, and Yvo’s. 

Pumasok si Saskia mula sa kusina na may dalang isang casserole ng bicol express. She immediately stood up and hugged her Ate. Migs had to get the casserole from his wife so they could share this moment together without anything getting on the way. Saskia hugged her sister back. 

“Bati na tayo, Ate…” Yuka said, her voice quivering from unshed tears.

“Matitiis ba naman kita?” Sagot nito habang hinahaplos ang buhok niya. “Wala akong hinangad kung hindi ang kapakanan niyo.”

“Alam ko naman yun, eh.” She answered. 

“Halika na at umupo na tayo. Nakakahiya sa mga bisita.” Her sister whispered.

Yuka let out a soft chuckle despite the tears and they went back to the dining table with Saskia. She sat next to her fiancee and right across from their seat was her future in-laws. They had a little chit-chat where they found out that both their parents had history together. Tristan and Sasha used to live in the same apartment building. 

“Akalain mo yun, mga balae. Ang mga anak din pala natin ang magkakatuluyan. Naalala ko ang sinugod ako ni Tristan noon sa apartment ko dahil binubugaw ko daw si Andi.” Humalakhak si Sasha habang tuloy sa pagnguya ng pagkain. “Eh si Andi naman ang nagpilit magtrabaho sa club ko nun saka teybol lang naman.”

“Ako pa nga ang pinaharap mo sa kanya. Akala ko susuntukin na nga niya ako. Hindi ko talaga malilimutan ang araw na iyon.” Umirap si Jodie sa kaibigan.

“I’m sorry, hindi ko alam yun.” Andi chuckled and looked at her husband feigning shock. 

“Mapaglaro nga talaga ang tadhana, sino mag-aakalain na magiging isang pamilya tayo?” Tristan said with a wide smile.

“Hindi man kami nagkatuluyan ni Papa Tristan, bumawi naman sa mga anak namin.” Humagikgik si Sasha.

“Patay na patay kasi yang Mammy niyo noon kay Tristan. Kulang na lang siya na ang manligaw.” Jodie laughed. 

“Ang gwapo gwapo naman kasi ni Tristan noon. Kahit naman hanggang ngayon. Nagmana sa’yo itong anak mo, o.” Ngumuso si Sasha kay Yvo. “Ito ang pinasosyal na bersyon mo noong kabataan mo. Saka ito ding anak mong babae, mana naman sa nanay. Walang tapon sa lahi niyo. Sigurado akong magandang bata din ang magiging apo natin, maganda din naman ang lahi ko. Napatunayan ko na yan dito kay Saskia at Migs, tignan niyo ang mga apo ko. So beauty.” She stroked Savi’s blonde hair as the little girl was busy with her food. 

“Ako din, Lola Mammy.” Tintin didn’t want to be outshined.

“Oo naman. Syempre, kambal kayo.” Sasha told her granddaughter.

“I don’t doubt that. Ang ganda naman talaga ng mga apo mo. I’m already so excited to see my first grandchild. I wonder if the baby will look more like my son or your daughter.” Andi sighed dreamily, already imagining what the baby would look like.

Yuka inhaled a breath, her hand mindlessly resting over her flat belly. Who would the child look like when it comes out? Would it look like her, Yvo, or Tate? Kung sakali man na si Tate ang ama nitong dinadala niya, malalaman kaya ng mga tao?

“Ilang buwan na lang ba ang hihintayin namin?” Tristan asked looking at Yvo and Yuka. She pushed the thought away from her head and smiled. She didn’t want to think of it now. Ang importante ngayon ay may umako sa dinadala niya at hindi siya maghihirap. 

“Did you see a doctor?” Asked her future mother-in-law.

“Kakagaling nga lang po namin sa doktor bago dumiretso dito. Eight weeks and two days na si baby.” She proudly said and then reached for her bag to get the sonogram. “Ito si baby, o. Sabi ng doktor healthy naman daw saka normal ang heartbeat.”

“Let me see.” Andi excitedly said as Yuka handed the picture to her. Her expression immediately softened as she looked at it. “Mahal ko, tignan mo ang picture ng first apo natin.”

“It’s still so small.” Tristan’s face lowered to his wife’s shoulder. “Can you believe that? Magiging Lolo at Lola na tayo, mahal ko…”

“Patingin nga din ang apo ko.” Excited na sabi ni Sasha at pinakita ni Andi ang picture sa babae. “Ay! Ang cute cute naman. May maliit na mga kamay at paa na. Akalain mo yun, Tristan, nagkaapo din tayo.” 

“Si Mammy talaga. Tiyuhin yan ng asawa ko at kasal yan, maghunos dili ka.” Natatawang biro ni Saskia. Andi and Tristan just laughed as they knew it was just Sasha being Sasha. “Kayo na lang kaya ni Ninang. Tutal siya lang naman ang lalaking nagtagal sa’yo.”

“Pakiulit, Saskia? Lalaki? Sino?” Jodie shot a brow. “I’m not a girl, not yet a woman but I’m not a man. Saka si Sasha! Yuck! Ipako niyo na lang ako sa krus!”

“Grabe ka naman! Makaarte ka, akala mo naman daks ka.” Hinampas ni Sasha ang kaibigan. 

“Patingin nga din ako, My.” Sabi ni Saskia at ipinasa sa kanya ang sonogram. The twins excitedly looked at picture as they stood next to Saskia. 

“Where’s the baby?” Asked Savi, her eyes furrowing, unsure of what to make of the black and white grainy picture. 

“Ito, o.” Turo naman ni Saskia sa maliit na bilog.

“Bakit ganyan itsura? Hindi naman mukhang baby yan.” Kumunot din ang noo ni Tintin. “Totoo ba talagang buntis si Tita Yuka? Baka jebs lang yan.”

Everybody laughed at Tintin’s remark and the twins confusion, including Yvo.

“Hoy, ikaw bruha ka baka mas maganda pa ang baby ko sa’yo pag labas.” Sabi ni Yuka sa pamangkin. 

“Ikaw na nga tinutulungan ko. Ayaw mo nun, pag di ka buntis edi hindi ka na aalis dito.” Paliwanag ni Tintin sa tita niya. It somehow warmed Yuka’s heart. Even though they didn’t always get along, her niece still wants her with them. She really did love her niece, bickering with her just became a hobby and a way to show their affection for each other. 

“It’s still tiny kaya ganyan ang itsura ng baby. But there’s the head, the body, the little arms and the the legs.” Migs explained to his twins as he pointed at the parts. “Unti-unti pa lang nabubuo ang baby ng Tita Yuka niyo.”

“Ganyan din ba kami nung baby kami?” Tintin asked.

“Oo. Pero dalawa kayo sa loob ng tiyan ko.” Sagot ni Saskia.

“Do we have a picture while we were inside your belly?” Sumunod na tanong naman ni Savi.

“Wala, eh. Kasi nung nagbubuntis ako sa center lang ako nagpapacheck-up. Wala naman mga ganito dun sa Sto. Antonio.” Saskia told them. 

“Pero ang Kuya Miguel niyo, nakatago pa sa akin ang picture niyang ganyan.” Sabi ni Migs sa mga bata at hinalikan ang gilid ng noo ni Saskia. “And the next baby, will have a picture of that too.” 

“Oo nga, mag-anak na din ulit kayo ni Kuya para may kalaro na ang baby ko.” Yuka smiled. 

“When your Ate’s ready.” Migs smiled as he looked affectionately at his wife. 

“Wait lang, ha. Kakakasal lang natin.” Saskia chuckled. 

“Speaking of wedding, may plano ba kayong magpakasal?” Tanong ni Migs at tumingin ito kay Yvo.

“That’s the reason why we’re all here tonight.” Yvo took Yuka’s hand and gave her a reassuring smile as they looked at each other. “I would like to ask for Yuka’s hand in marriage.”

Jodie exaggeratedly gasped. 

“We would love for you to be a part of our family, Yuka.” Andi warmly smiled at her. 

“Aarte pa ba kami? Eh nabuntis mo na, eh.” Her mother replied. “Kailan niyo balak gawin ang kasal?”

“As soon as possible.” Yvo answered.

Both their families seemed to be getting along well. Yuka and Yvo were officially engaged. They decided that it would be an intimate wedding with only their immediate family. They had planned to wed in two weeks time. It was not the wedding Yuka had dreamt of. She wanted grand and extravagant one, just like the ones she sees in magazines when celebrities marry. She wanted a beautiful wedding gown, lots of guests, big wedding cakes, grand everything. But she knew she was in no position to demand. Hindi naman sila ikakasal dahil mahal nila ang isa’t-isa. Yvo needed her and the baby and she needed him. Saka inisip niyang maganda na din na ikasal siyang hindi pa malaki ang tiyan niya para maganda pa rin siya picture. 

“Aalis ka na naman.” Tintin pouted when the dinner was over and they were getting ready to leave. 

“Akala ko ba di ako ang favorite Tita mo?” Tumulis ang nguso ni Yuka.

“Hindi nga pero ok ka na din.” Kibit-balikat na sabi ni Tintin. “Alam mo bang medyo tahimik na ang bahay simula nang mawala ka. Wala ng pinagagalitan si Mamila Jodie at Lola Mammy?”

“Nandyan ka naman.” Kinurot niya sa pisngi ang pamangkin. 

“Pero sabi ng Daddy ko lahat ng umaalis, may papalit. Baka bilhan kami ng daddy ko ng bagong isda para di ka na namin mamiss.”

“Yeah, we’re going to go to a pet store to get another goldfish!” Masayang sabi ni Savi.

“Wow! Ka-level lang pala ako ng goldfish.” Umirap si Yuka.

“Sabi ko nga kay Daddy gusto ko namin ng aso parang yung kina Papa Nick, si Ringo, kaso ayaw ni Mommy kasi may asthma si Savi.”

“Daddy said we’ll get one when I get better.” Sabi nito.

“Pag inaway ka ng boyfriend mo, magsumbong ka kay Daddy. Siya kakausap dun. Dapat palagi siyang mabait sa’yo parang Daddy ko kay Mommy.” Bilin nito sa kanya. “Pero pag ikaw may kasalanan okay lang magalit siya. Matigas naman kasi ulo mo.”

“And promise you’ll always visit us and we’ll ask Mommy if we can visit you too. And we can facetime!” Magiliw na sabi ni Savi. “We’ll show you our new goldfish when we buy another one.”

“Alam ko na ang ipapangalan ko sa goldfish natin!” Tintin’s eyes widened like a lightbulb just turned on in her little brain.

“What?” Savi’s brows furrowed.

“Tita Yuka!” She said.

Naningkit ang singkit na mata ng babae. “Subukan mo, ipapakain ko sa’yo ng buhay ang goldfish mo.”

She said her goodbyes to the twins and her family. Yvo was having a little chat with Cosme who was fanboying over her new fiancee. Noong una ay nag-aalinlangan pa itong lumapit kay Yvo but he finally did and Cosme won’t stop asking him questions. He even asked to have a picture taken with Yvo because he was one of the scientist his brother looks up to. 

Nagpaalam na sila sa mga pamilya nila at sa mga in-laws ng isa’t-isa. Andi and Tristan were especially warm to her but his sister seemed to be more reserved. She had her arms wrapped around one of his as they walked to his car, just as she had when they came earlier. 

“Yvo…” Mahinang tawag niya sa lalaki habang naglalakad sila.

“What?” He glanced at her. 

“Nagustuhan ako ng parents mo. Pero yung kapatid mo, feeling ko hindi niya ako feel.” Nakasimangot na tanong niya. She really did try to make her in-laws like her, even his sister but everytime she attempts to start a conversation she’d just get a one word answer from her or a shake or a nod. 

“Ganon lang talaga si Monique.” Kibit-balikat na sabi nito.

“Ganon din ba siya kay Krista?” 

Yvo let out a deep huff. “Monique’s just naturally reserved. She needs time to get to know people.”

“Yung Nanay at Tatay mo ang cute, ’no? May pa-mahal ko, mahal ko pa sila. Dapat din meron tayong ganon.” Yuka chuckled a little.

“Ano’ng ganon?” Yvo asked.

“Dapat may tawag tayo sa isa’t-isa sa harap ng mga tao para kunwari sweet tayo. Kayo ba ni Krista ano’ng tawag niyo  sa isa’t-isa?”

“We call each other by our name.”

“Weh? Walang baby, babe, honey, my love, so sweet?” 

“We do but very rarely. Will you please stop bringing Krista up. She’s no longer a part of my life.” Yvo sighed, massaging his temple with his free hand. 

“Gusto ko meron tayong pet name parang sa mga magulang mo. Para mas kapani-paniwala. Ano kaya kung ‘my love’? O kaya ‘asawa ko’? Pero parang ang corny naman nun.” Her nose wrinkled as her playful nature revealed itself again. 

“I think our name sounds fine just the way they are.” Yvo couldn’t contain a chuckle.

“Ang KJ naman nito!” Kunwari’y nainis si Yuka. 

“We’ll figure something out along the way.” Yvo said with a smile.

Yuka suddenly stopped walking and faced him. Huminto din sa paglalakad si Yvo at kinuha ng baba ang magkabilang kamay niya. Yuka guided his hands to her stomach and made him feel it.

“What are you doing?” Yvo asked, his brows furrowing in confusion.

Yuka made movements on her belly and then Yuka giggled like a little girl. “This is baby saying thank you because you saved him… or her, o kung anuman gusto niyang maging.”

“I wasn’t the one who decided on this… we both did. We decided to keep the baby.” Sabi ni Yvo bago nito haplusin ang tiyan niya. “You’re going to be a good mother. I know you’ll be.”

Yuka had to swallow back her tears. God, she was awfully emotional and she did not like one bit of it. 

“Alam kong magiging mabuti ka din ama sa kanya. Salamat sa pagtanggap mo sa baby ko.”

“Baby natin.” He corrected. 

Yuka forced a smile despite the tears and nodded her head. “Baby natin.”

Chapter Twenty

Yuka was beginning to enjoy her new home. She had decided to enjoy a morning swim while the helps set up her breakfast by the poolside. Good thing pregnancy hadn’t ruined her body yet as she was still able to wear her favorite two-piece bikini. She had gained some flesh here and there, especially on her chest and buttocks which made her body more womanly, but she thought she still looked good in bikinis.

“Ma’am Yuka, ready na ang breakfast mo.” Said the smiling help as Yuka swam to the edge.

“Good. Kanina pa ako nagugutom.” She smiled back at her, swallowing a titter of excitement. She really felt like a true rich girl with the helps attending to her every whim. Hindi siya makaarte ng ganito sa bahay ng Ate niya dahil alam niyang pagagalitan siya nito at ng Mammy at Ninang niya.

She climbed up the pool ladder and the help automatically handed her a towel. She dried herself with it and sat at the poolside table. Every food she had requested was there. A bowl mixed berries, some toasts, and ginataang mais with langka.

“Payungan mo naman ako, Yaya.” She said before digging into her food as the ray of sun hit the spot where the table was at. “Naaarawan ako, o. Baka masira ang beautiful skin ko.”

Madali naman sumunod ang kasambahay at tumayo ito sa likod niya para payungan siya.

“Ikaw, paypayan mo naman ako, please. Ang init-init dito.” Sabi niya sa isa pang kasambahay na nakatayo sa tabi ng mesa. The help did as she was told to do and began to fan her.


“Yan. Ganyan. Palakas naman ng konti.” A satisfied smile broke across her face and she happily took a bite from the toast. She could not believe that this was her life now. Siya na ang nasusunod sa bahay. Hindi na ang Ate niya, ang Mammy niya, o ang Ninang niya. Pwede na siyang mag-feeling prinsesa. Here, she could live the life she had always fantasized.

“Teka, tinawag niyo na ba ang hubby ko?” She asked before taking her second bite. She wanted to convice even the helps that they were a normal couple in a normal relationship.

“Mamaya na daw siya. Si sir naman kape lang iyon sa umaga, pag walang pasok nakakulong lang iyon sa lab niya at aakyat lang sa tanghali na para kumain. Ayaw niya kasing naiistorbo sa trabaho.” Sagot nang nagpapaypay sa kanya.

She had suddenly lost appetite knowing that Yvo wouldn’t be able to join her for breakfast. Sana kasi siyang palaging may kasamang kumain, lalo na sa agahan.

“Pa-ready na lang ng bathtub ko, mamaya na nga lang ako kakain. Sasabayan ko na lang si doc.” She told the helps.

She went back into the pool and swam a little. When the help told her that her tub was ready, she went to her bathroom and took a bath. Pagkatapos niyang maligo ay nagpahanda siya ng pagkain na dadalhin niya sa office ni Yvo.

Yuka carried a tray of food down his laboratory basement. From Yvo’s study room, there was a curved stairway heading down which leads to a contemporary-styled room that blended with the whole house. Everything was black, white, and grey. The room had a couch, a big flat screen TV, and even a mini-bar. On one side of the room was a dark brown wooden double door which she assumed where his lab was. Dumiretso doon si Yuka at excited na binuksan ang pinto. She was expecting a Dexter’s Lab kind of laboratory or the ones she sees in sci-fi movies. But it was just a boring white room like of a hospital with computers and fancy machines and shelves full of bottles and containers, nothing weird like fetuses and body parts in bottles, just liquids. Everything looked sterile and clean.

Yvo was sitting on a swivel chair with earphones stuck into his ears, his head bent over the microscope. Lumapit si Yuka at hinatak ang isang earphone na nakasuksok sa tainga niya. He immediately turned his head to her direction.

“What are you doing here?” He asked, surprised.

“Hindi ka pa daw kumakain kaya naisip ko na sabayan ka.” Yuka put down the tray of food on the table. “Ano ba yang ginagawa mo?”

“I’m working.” He answered.

“Para yan sa bagong project mo?” She asked, setting up the food in front of Yvo.

“Yes.” He answered.

“Ano ba yang project na yan?” She pulled up a chair so that she could sit next to him.

“Personalized medicine.” He answered. 

“Ano yun?”

“With all the advanced technologies we have now, I think it’s time we move away from one-size-fits-all medicines. A lot of medicines tend to focus more on the target rather than the patient. The new concept is basically taking into account the patient’s genome, epigenome, environmental and behavioral factors through genome analysis. A good example is cancer. It’s always DNA damage in genes that control the cell cycle. In the case of genomic approach to medicine, we’re trying to make it possible to sequence the genes of these cells, identify the mutation, and specifically target the mutated cell with the patient’s immune system or remove it altogether from the tumor genomes to restore its normal function.”

“Sandali, nag-overload yata ang utak ko.” Yuka joked.

Yvo chuckled a little. “It’s really not that easy to understand. The human body is more complex than we could ever realize.”

“Isang linggo na lang ikakasal na tayo. Akalain mo yun, ikakasal tayong dalawa?” She laughed a little. They had planned everything in a hurry. The date had already been set and it was decided that it was just going to be a simple small wedding. After awhile, her face turned serious as she looked at him. “Hindi ka ba nagdadalawang isip?”

“Why would I?”

“Paano kung makahanap ka ng babaeng mamahalin mo balang-araw? Hindi mo ba naisip iyon? You’ll be tied to me. Habang buhay, Yvo.” Yuka chewed on her bottom lip. She wanted to know what would happen to her and her baby when that happens one day.

“You know a French author once said that some people would have never fallen in love if they hadn’t heard there was such a thing.” Yvo chuckled with dry humor. “We’re convenient companion to each other and that’s good enough.”

“Good enough? Pwede ba yun? Kasal itong pinag-uusapan natin, hindi naman ito parang kanin na isusubo mo at pag napaso ka ay iluluwa mo.” She said.

Yvo held the hinge of his glasses and took it off. “We know exactly what we want from each other.”

Dahan-dahan naman tumango si Yuka bago niya nahagilap ang sasabihin. “Ganyan nga siguro pag matalino no? Puro isip ginagamit, hindi puso. Sabagay mahirap nga yun. Sabi nga ni Francis Bacon, it is impossible to love and be wise. Nakikinig din naman ako sa klase.” She chuckled, light-heartedly.

“I don’t believe in love the way other people do. You want to know what ended my last relationship? Unrealistic expectations that love is expected all the time. I say that’s romanticism, an ideology created in the mid-18th century. Everything we know about romantic love now was just created a few centuries ago.”

“OA naman nito. So sinasabi mong imbento lang ang love?”

He shrugged his shoulders. “When people fall in love, they take cues from movies and books but really, take away all those and would we even know what raw romantic love is? To me it all comes down to two simple things, mutual trust for each other and respect. You’re one of the most practical people I know, you’ll understand what I’m trying to say.”

She let out a half-hearted smile as an answer.

“Are you having second thoughts?” Umarko ang kilay ng lalaki.

“No!” Agad na sagot ni Yuka. “No, it’s not that. Gusto ko itong pinasok ko. Alam kong hindi mo kami pababayaan ni baby.”

“That I can promise you.”

“Pero ibig sabihin ba nun… pwede ka pa rin makipagrelasyon sa ibang babae habang kasal na tayo?” She asked, her voice squeaking a little.

Yvo straightened his spine as he had not expected her question nor had he thought about it. “I haven’t really had a chance to think about those things. Pero makakaasa ka na wala akong gagawin na bagay that would potentially humiliate you or our marriage. I hope you’d do the same, too.” 

Dahan-dahan na napatango si Yuka. His answer was still pretty vague, she wanted to hear more from him, a reassurance of some sort. She didn’t even know what kind of reassurance she was looking for but decided to not push it any further. Wala naman na siyang talo sa set up nilang ito. She would benefit from this marriage as much as he would.

“Nanay!” She ran up to Andi as soon as she entered the boutique. Ilang araw niya na niyang inaanticipate ang araw na ito. Today was her gown fitting at ang designer lang naman ay isa sa pinaka-sikat na international fashion designer. Mga A-lister na hollywood stars at models lang naman ang karamihang kliyente nito. She could not believe her luck when she heard it was also her future mother-in-law’s good friend. Dati sa mga Vogue magazine niya lang nakikita ang pangalan nito.

“Yuka, darling.” Andi hugged her soon to be daughter-in-law back. Magaan na agad ang loob niya sa batang ito unang kita niya pa lang. Yuka had a very open personality, she was a what-you-see-is-what-you-get type of person, much to Andi’s delight. Ibang-iba kasi ito sa anak niyang si Monique na simple lang at mailap sa tao, very her before she met her husband. To her, having Yuka in their family was like having another child with a far more different personality than her other two. She was excited to have a daughter that enjoys fashion and the glitz and glamour of her modelling life. 

“Nanay, I can’t believe work ni Alex Montes ang isusuot ko sa wedding day ko. This is a dream come true!” Yuka blurted out as soon as they pulled away from each other. “Buti na lang friendship kayo, Nanay. Thank you!”

“You don’t need to thank me. Hindi pa kayo kasal ng anak ko but I already consider you as my daughter. I want nothing but the best for my children.” She said, fixing the loose strands of Yuka’s hair and tucking it behind her ear. 

She put her hand over her chest. “Ang swerte swerte ko talaga kasi ang bait ng mother-in-law ko.”

“I’m just as lucky to have you as my daughter-in-law.” She smiled at the young woman. “Halika na, let’s go in. Your dresses are waiting for you.” 

Yuka hooked her arm around her mother-in-law’s as if they had been bestfriends all their lives. Her Ate, Mammy, and Ninang were already inside when they walked in, they were having a chat with her sister-in-law, Monique who didn’t so much as nod and give polite smiles. Nag-usap kasi sila na dito na sila magkikita para makapamili na din ng susuotin. Her flower girls, the twins, unfortunately couldn’t come as they were having their classes. The four were being served finger food and champagne while they chatted with each other. It was decided that the bride and groom were to have different fitting schedules, hindi daw kasi pwedeng makita ng groom ang bride sa pangkasal bago ang kasal nila. 

“Nandito na ang bride.” Andi announced with excitement in her voice. 

“Buti naman, kala ko pagseserve na din kami ng dinner dito.” Jodie joked, taking a sip of champagne he had in his hand while he sat with his legs poshly crossed.

“Ganito pala sa mga sosyal na tindahan, may pa sandwich at inumin pa.” Sabi ng Mammy niya. “Tinanong ko nga kanina kung idadagdag nila to sa babayaran namin pero di naman daw kaya humingi pa kami. Libre naman, eh.”

“Kala ko nga mali tayo ng pinasukan kanina. Kala ko funeraria kasi inalok agad tayo ng sandwich at drinks. Di ba ganon sa lamay?” Humalakhak ang Ninang niya.

“Ninang, yung bibig mo talaga. Marinig ka ng may-ari.” Pigil ang tawang siniko ni Saskia ito dahil nakita niya ang designer na papalapit na sa kanila. 

“Kain ka na.” Her mother offered her a sandwich.

“Mamaya na, My. Excited na akong magsukat ng mga dress.” She couldn’t hide the enthusiasm she was feeling. 

“Is everyone ready now? The bride is here?” A middle-aged woman who looked as though she had done every possible surgery you could do to a person to look younger than her age. She sure did not age gracefully. But even so, that same face had graced countless fashion magazines and had exchanged cheek-to-cheek kisses with the brightest stars in hollywood.

“Yes, this is Yuka, my son’s bride.” Pakilala ni Andi.

“What a beautiful bride you’d make.” She commented while looking at her. “So nice to finally meet you.”

Yuka was speechless for a moment before she was able to shake herself out of her admiring trance. It was only then she had realized that the lady has had her hand held out for a few seconds now. Yuka immediately took the lady’s hand in both hers and shook it with such eagerness. “Oh my God, Miss Alex Montes.”

Natawa naman ang babae sa tinuran niya. “Pleased to meet you, too.”

“Gustong-gusto ko po yung mga design niyo, I swear. Palagi ko kayong nakikita sa Vogue, sa Elle, sa L’Officiel. Nag-iipon pa ako ng allowance ko makabili lang ng magazines.” She was just as stunned as the first time she had seen Andi. 

“Oh darling, I’m so flattered.” Alex looked at her warmly bago binaling ang tingin kay Andi. “Marunong pumili ang anak mo, Andi. I already like your daughter-in-law.”

Andi giggled. “I told you you’d love her.”

“Come on, girls, let’s go see the bridal collection.” She gestured for them to follow her. 

They were taken to a room where it had racks and racks of long, white dresses. There must’ve been about 50 dresses in the room. She felt like real royalty the moment she walked in, it was designed to look like a palace. In the middle of the room was a huge elegant platform with a grand staircase, right in front of it was a three-way mirror where one could admire herself from all angles.

“It’s a shame we don’t have enough time para magawan kita ng wedding dress. Ayaw ko naman madaliin ang work ko.” Alex said. “But I promise you, these are just as good. Feel free to look around, if there’s any particular design you’re looking for please let me know.”

She felt like a child in a candy store as her eyes roamed around the room. She did not know where to begin. The dresses were all exceptionally beautiful and she knew she was going to have a hard time choosing. She looked at a few dresses before she was able to figure out what she truly wanted. So she walked back to Alex, not feeling the need to try on any of those beautiful dresses dahil alam niya na kung ano ang eksaktong gusto niya.

“Where’s your most expensive dress?” Yuka asked with a sure smile on her face.

The most expensive wedding dress Alex had designed was in a special room just for it. They had to take it off from the mannequin so that Yuka could try it on. She was in awe when she saw the dress and instantly knew that it was meant to be hers. Hindi siya nag-aksaya nang oras at agad itong sinuot. It fitted perfectly on her, with only minor adjustments here and there.

“Oh my god!” Hindi siya makapaniwala habang nagpapaikot-ikot siya sa harap ng three-way mirror. Thousands of delicate Swarovski crystals cascade over the sheer bodice of the princess cut gown and the lower part of the gown was just as beautifully designed with intricate yet subtle beadings, crystals, and lace. She had never worn such grand gown in her whole life and had never looked this perfect in a clothing before. “This is it! This is my wedding gown!”

“Di ba sabi mo simple lang ang wedding mo?” Tanong ni Saskia.

“Basta ito na talaga ang gusto ko.” She pouted like a little girl begging for candy. 

“Kailangan may naka-ready nang shades para sa mga guest para di sila masilaw pagpasok mo.” Her Ninang commented.

“Ang ganda-ganda mo diyan, anak. Mana ka talaga sa akin.” Sasha proudly said and then she turned to the designer. “Magkano nga ba yan?” 

“1.5 Million pesos.” Alex answered.

“Hala! Hubarin mo nga yan!” Agad na nasambit ng Mammy niya. “Ingatan mo ang paghubad baka may mahulog na kristal.”

“Ang mahal naman niyan. Doon na lang tayo maghanap sa divisoria. Pagaya na lang natin yan.” Her Ninang suggested. 

“It’s fine. She looks perfect in that gown.” Andi smiled. 

“Di ba, Nay? Ang ganda, bagay na bagay sa akin.” She spun around the mirror again.

“Iba na lang, Yuka, yung mas mura naman diyan.” Sabi ni Saskia.

“Ito talaga ang gusto ko, eh!” She stumped her feet on the ground like a child about to throw a fit.

“Alex, we’ll have that gown.” Said Andi without batting an eye. “My son told me to buy you whatever gown you want for the wedding. Sa kanya naman naka-charge ito saka ang ganda-ganda naman talaga sa’yo. I can’t imagine seeing you walk down the aisle in another wedding gown.” 

“Talaga, Nanay?” Her eyes widened before she let out a squeal. “Thank you! Thank you so much! The best ka talaga!” 

She had to thank Yvo for that, too. Hindi siya tinipid o binigyan ng budget nito. She could already imagine the look on people’s face as she walks down the aisle in that gown. Everyone would envy her and wish they were her just as she had envied and wished to be in somebody’s place in the past. This was often her motivation for doing things. 

After her fitting, it was time to pick a dress for her mothers, sister, ninang, and her maid of honor, Monique. Hindi na pwedeng mag maid of honor si Saskia dahil kasal na ito kaya ang kapatid ng magiging asawa niya ang napagdesisyunan niyang kunin. Sage green was the wedding’s motif kaya iyon din ang kulay ng suot ng kanyang maid of honor. 

She walked up to Monique who was busy picking a dress for herself and stood beside her. She needed to build a relationship with her new sister. Ito na lang ang tanging tao na hindi niya nakukuha ang loob sa pamilya ni Yvo. She wanted them to like her. 

“Alam mo kahit ano’ng suotin mo babagay sa’yo. Pareho kasi kayo ng body type ni Nanay, pang model talaga. Buti hindi mo naisipan mag-model, no? Ang ganda mo pa naman.” She tried to open up a conversation.

“It’s just not my kind of thing.” She answered in a monotone, barely throwing a glance at her. 

“Sabagay. Para ka din si Yvo, may sariling mundo.” She giggled to make the conversation a little light-hearted in hopes that she’d grow comfortable with her.

She took a dress from the rack and without saying anything made her way to the dressing room. Napabuntong-hininga na lang si Yuka at napairap habang pinanonood ito. It looked like her new sister was determined to give her a hard time but it was not like Yuka to give up that easily. Her new sister would have to deal with her whether she likes it or not. She was going to be a part of their lives now. 

Not a minute had gone by when Monique peaked her head out from the dressing room. “Nay…”

Andi was busy chatting with her family and the fashion designer at the other end of the room.

“Kailangan mo ng tulong?” She eagerly asked the new sister.

Monique didn’t answer but she welcomed herself in anyway. This might be the start of their bond. 

“I just… I can’t reach the zipper on the back.” Sabi nito habang nakaharap sa salamin.

“Tulungan na kita, sis.” She said and stood behind Monique. She was amused by how tall her new sister was even without her heels. Siya ang nanghihinayang dito kung bakit hindi naging modelo. She had tried signing up for beauty pageants and modelling gigs before but they always had the same issue with her, her height. 

“Don’t call me sis.” Monique’s voice was small yet clear enough. “Hindi kita kapatid.”

Nag-angat siya ng tingin sa babae sa salamin to see that she was looking back at her. She could see the cold indifferenc in the gaze the woman was giving to her. 

“Teka, may problema ba tayo? Magka-diretsahan nga tayo. Ang alam ko kasi wala naman akong ginagawa sa’yo.” She had snapped, her bitchy side of her begging to be let out. If Monique wasn’t Yvo’s sister baka kung ano na ang na sabi niya sa babae. May respeto pa din siya sa lalaki at sa pamilya nito lalo na’t ito ang tumutulong sa kanya ngayon sa sitwasyon niya.

“Sa akin wala pero sa kapatid ko, I don’t know.” She shrugged her shoulders. 

“Ano’ng ibig mong sabihin?” Her brows furrowed.

“Who’s the father of the child you’re carrying? Is that really my brother’s?” Umarko ang kilay ng babae.

Suddenly, Yuka’s throat felt dry that she had to swallow her own saliva to put moisture to it. 

“You were dating Tate, weren’t you? It was all over the news.” 

“T-tapos na kami ni Tate.” She answered.

“You were already pregnant while you were seen dating Tate. I calculated.” She said, her tone remain without emotion. “My brother’s a smart man. I don’t think he’d miss that. Sabihin mo sa akin, sino ba talaga ang ama niyan?”

“Si Yvo! Siya lang ang ama nito.” Napahawak siya sa tiyan niya. It was he who took on the responsibility that another man couldn’t handle. Siya ang umako sa batang dinadala niya at siya ang amang kikilalanin ng anak niya. 

Monique turned to face her and looked her directly in the eyes. 

“But there’s a possibility that it’s Tate’s, am I right?” She asked never leaving her eyes off hers. 

Nagbaba ng tingin si Yuka sa sahig. She couldn’t handle Monique looking at her like that. “Kagaya nga ng sabi ko, si Yvo lang ang ama nito.”

“You’re lying and you know it.” Monique said, her eyes scanned her from head to toe. “I’m going to be honest with you, Yuka, I don’t like you for my brother. I don’t know what’s going on but I know something’s off.”

Yuka took in a deep breath and held her chin high. She gave her a bitchy smirk. “Well, you’d just have to deal with it. I’m marrying your brother and there’s nothing you can do about it… sis .”

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Sorry again for taking too long to update. Just went on a hiatus. Please don’t get mad at me, I have not abandoned you or my stories haha. Love you all!

Chapter Twenty One

The sun was shining in the sky and there wasn’t a single cloud in sight. Even when the the curtains were drawn close, rays of sunshine seeped through it and poured into her room. Despite the good weather, however, Yuka couldn’t help but feel the jitters of a bride hours away from her wedding. She took in a deep breath and closed her eyes, trying to permeate in her mind the fact that she was going to be Yvo Zamora’s wife.

When she opened her eyes, she met her own gaze in the mirror. Deep, deep in her almond-shaped eyes there was a growing absence, a feeling she tried so hard to bury but one she couldn’t quite qwell. A human-shaped void that was left by a love that never was. Kahit pilit niyang ibaon sa limot si Tate ay hindi niya maiwasan maisip ang lalaki, ang posibleng ama ng dinadala niya ngayon at ang lalaking tumalikod sa kanya nang kailanganin niya.

She opened the drawer in the vanity and took out a rectangular box. It contained the necklace Tate had given her, a promise that was never fulfilled. Tears fell from her eyes. She had thought of throwing it away but that would be too dramatic. Isa pa, gold ito at may diamond pa. Hindi niya pa alam kung ano ang gagawin sa kuwintas na iyon kaya naisip niyang itabi na lang muna.

Agad niyang pinunasan ang dalawang butil ng luhang tumulo sa mga mata niya. She made a promise to herself that from on hindi niya na iisipin si Tate. This was the last time she’d let her mind wander to him, the last time she’d shed a tear for him. She was to wed a pharmaceutical billionaire, what more could she ask for? Kahit naman marriage for convenience lang ito ay naging mabuti naman si Yvo sa kanya at ito ang umako sa dinadala niya kahit hindi ito sigurado kung siya ba ang ama.

Dito sa Hacienda Zamora gaganapin ang kasal nila ilang oras mula ngayon. It had become a family tradition to them to wed at the hacienda, which was very fitting for their simple, garden wedding. Maganda at malawak ang hardin ng mga Zamora, and even though the wedding was supposed to be simple she had hired the best of the bests to arrange the venue.

A few minutes after, her stylists and makeup artist came into the room and began doing their magic on her. The make up were as simple and natural-looking as possible so as not to appear too excessive with her lavish gown. Just a light makeup and a loose updo. Everybody was just busy getting ready for the wedding and she hadn’t even seen her groom since yesterday. She wondered what Yvo would look like later and a small smile somehow made its way across her face. Hindi pa niya nakikita ang lalaki na nakasuot ng gagamitin niya sa pangkasal nila at ganon din naman si Yvo. All he probably knew was that it was worth 1.5 million pesos and she didn’t think he would really mind.

“Ang ganda ganda talaga ng anak ko, oo!” Naluluhang sabi ni Sasha habang nakatingin sa kanya nang masuot niya na ang wedding gown. She, too, couldn’t help admiring herself in front of the mirror. “Di pa rin ako makapaniwala. Dalawa na kayo ng Ate mong may sarili ng pamilya.”

“Nako, Mammy, ang mukap! Walang iyakan, mahal ang bayad sa makeup artist!” She said as she herself was trying hard to stop her tears from falling.

“Oo nga pala!” Her mother tried to wipe her tears away before it could even make its way down her made up cheeks.

“Magpakabait ka, Yuka, wag mo pairalin pagkamaldita mo.” Paalala ni Jodie sa inaanak.

“Nandito pa din kami para sa’yo. Kung may kailangan ka, ako ang unang lapitan mo.” Hinawakan ni Saskia ang mga kamay ng kapatid. “Huwag kang mahihiya sa amin.”

“Kapatid mo pa. Hindi niya alam yung salitang hiya.” Jodie chuckled, trying to lighten up the mood.

“Si Ninang talaga, inookray ako. Ceasefire muna. Kasal ko naman ngayon.” Inirapan niya ito.

He put his hand on his chest and his face controted into sadness, his eyes filming with tears. “Hindi pa lang din talaga ako makapaniwala na ikakasal ka na. Si Cosme na lang ang natitirang Flores.”

“Baka sapawan mo na naman ako katulad nung sa kasal ni Saskia. Kala mo ikaw nanay kung makapalahaw ka.” Sabi nito.

“Ikaw na yata magiging best actress ngayon. Syempre kasi si Ninang ang favorite naman talaga niyan si Ate.” She feigned a sneer.

“Hoy wala akong favorite sa inyo pantay-pantay ang pagmamahal ko sa inyo ng Ate mo at ni Cosme.” He explained.

“Kala mo siya ang nanay, o.” Sasha teased her bestfriend.

“Sa pukelya mo man nanggaling yan, pinalaki ko na din mga anak ko yan. Kaya tignan mo lumaking matitino yang anak mo. Yung dalawa nakapang-asawa ng mayaman tapos yung bunso henyo. Saan ka pa?”

“O siya, sige na. Ikaw na ang magaling.” Sasha rolled her eyes at her friend.

“Talagang ako. Ako ang tumayong ina diyan sa mga anak mo nung naloloka ka sa mga lalaki mo.”

Yuka and Saskia just looked at each other and couldn’t help a giggle as the two argued like married couples.

Soon, the coordinator went to them and told them that the wedding was ready to start. They were guided flawlessly to their places in the ceremony. Saskia’s twins were, of course, the flower girls and their ring bearer was one of Audrey’s son, Monty. The venue looked exquisitely beautiful with white flowers lining the either side of the aisle leading to the arch made of thousands of more different kinds of white flowers. It was a small wedding with no more than 50 guests and it was not as extravagant but it was elegantly done.

All eyes were on Yuka as she started walking down the aisle in her 1.5 million peso gown and relished the attention and admiration everyone was giving her. She was busy perfecting her walk and giving the photographer in front of her her best smiles and poses while walking when the man at the end of the aisle grazed her sight. She had been too full of herself to notice anything else but now she was looking at him. Now he was all she could see.

Naka puting barong tagalog lang ang lalaki at puting pantalon. A rather simple outfit tailored to his fitting and yet it exudes an aura of elegance and class. It looked so perfect on him that Yuka couldn’t help a sigh. If Disney were to make a Filipino Prince Charming, he would be the perfect inspiration.

For a fraction of a second, everything just blurred into the background when their eyes met each others and only he was in sharp focus. A soft smile grazed his face and that was all it took for her to feel like this was the best decision she had ever made. His smile gave her hope for them and for the baby inside her.

Slowly, she walked to her groom and stood before him. She had to let out another sigh as she tilted her head to look at her groom. Hindi niya maipaliwanag ang biglang pagbilis ng tibok ng puso niya at para bang nanlambot ang mga tuhod niya. He offered his arm to her and she linked her with him as they walked to the arch.

Nagsimula na ang seremonyas ng kasal. All throughout, she felt like she was in a dream-like haze. Even now it still hadn’t sunk into her that she was marrying Yvo, she couldn’t quite make up her mind if it was the fact that she was marrying Yvo or that she was marrying a billionaire that was failing to pervade her brain.

“You may now kiss the bride.” Said the priest.

And she had snapped out of her haze. She looked at Yvo and her heartbeat doubled again. He lowered his face to her and when their lips touched she couldn’t help a shiver. A quick kiss just as quick as the first one but she could still feel her face heating. Nagkahiwalay ang mga labi nila at muling nag-angat ng ulo si Yvo. They looked at each other and almost instictively, Yuka had to look away in embarassment. She was no rookie when it comes to kissing, she had kissed a lot of men but why does she feel like a blushing virgin when it was Yvo? Maybe, she thought, it had to do with them being friends first. It was indeed awkward to kiss a friend.

The reception was just as beautiful as the wedding venue, by the time the ceremony had ended it was already sunset which added to the ambience of the garden party. The hacienda was really something, even if it wasn’t over-the-top fancy.

Everyone watched them fondly as they had their traditional first dance together as husband and wife. Yvo held her against him, his arms hooked around her waist and hers around his torso.

He could see her eyes glimmering in the light as her eyes smiled along with her lips. “Ang gwapo ng asawa ko ngayon, ah. Minsan lang kita natitigan ng walang salamin.”

Yvo’s brows raised in surprise at her unexpected compliment and then he chuckled. “I have on my contacts.”

“Pero infer, bagay din naman sa’yo naka-glasses mukha kang professional talaga. Pag wala kasi mukha ka naman nagpapaiyak ng babae.” She giggled her usual signature Yuka giggle and then she patted his barong. “Bagay din sa’yo suot mo. Di mukhang pangkabaong. Gustong-gusto ko nga sanang makita ka bago ang kasal kaso pinagbawalan ako.”

He just chortled and shook his head.

“Nagustuhan mo ba ang suot ng asawa mo?” She asked him. “Bagay ba sakin?”

“You look beautiful.” He answered with all honest. They say the bride is the most beautiful woman on her day and Yvo found out today that this was true. When she walked down the aisle to him, she glowed and exuded something more than beauty, something harder to define.

“Dapat lang, no? Alam mo na kung magkano ito?” She pressed her lips together to try to stop her cheeky smile.

“I’m not sure, I still haven’t checked my bill. But that doesn’t matter, the most important thing is that you enjoyed this day.”

Her face turned softer as he looked at him. “Eh ikaw ba? Nag-enjoy ka ba?”

“I think it turned out fine.” He answered, matter-of-factly.

“Mag-asawa na talaga tayo.” Yuka uttered, unbelieving.

Yvo gave her a nod as an answer. Yuka was now his wife, his other half. And months from now, they were going to have a baby. A child together.

“Huwag kang mag-alala, Yvo. Gagawin ko ang lahat para maging mabuting wife sa’yo.” She said, probably feeling the tension he was feeling as the facts assaulted him.

“I trust you will.” He finally smiled. He liked Yuka… maybe not romantically but he liked her as a person. He liked her candid personality and her strong will. She was one of the few people in the world who could make her laugh.

The dance ended and he released her, almost reluctantly. They were just warming up to their conversation when the song ended. There were so many things they needed to talk about but he guessed that could wait. Marami pang bisitang kailangan asikasuhin. He just wanted this party to end.

Yuka felt an instant sense of loss when he let her go. They hadn’t talk like this for days since they had been busy preparing for the wedding. Gusto niya pang makausap ang asawa niya. Malinawan kung saan siya lulugar sa buhay nito. Napabuntong-hininga na lang siya nang pakawalan na siya nito at pinuntahan niya ang Ninang at Mammy niya.

“Suotin mo mamaya yung regalo ko sa’yo. Kami ng Ninang mo pumili nun para sa’yo.” Sasha giggled.

“Hinay-hinay lang sa kangkang baka masobrahan kayo at maagang lumabas ang bata.” Paalala ni Jodie.

“Si Ninang naman, ang laswa mo.” She made a face.

“Akala mo naman virgin. Kaya ka nga nabuntis dahil sa kakirihan mo, wag ako, Yuka!” Jodie rolled his eyes and then smiled. “Dakota ba?”

“NINANG!” Her eyes widened. It occured to her that she hadn’t even seen his penis yet. Or Tate’s. It was weird getting pregnant and never seeing an actual penis. Suddenly, her throat felt parched. Tonight was their honeymoon. Were they actually going to have sex? Real sex? Was she supposed to do what wives actually do with their husbands?

“Bahala nga kayo diyan, kukuha lang ako ng maiinom.” She stood up from her seat and walked to the bar. She got herself a glass of juice.

“Yuka…” A familiar voice of a woman said.

She instictively turned to face her and there stood Tanya. She was as ethereal and elegant as ever in her long dress.

Nababa niya sa ibabaw ng bar ang baso niya. “T-tita…”

Tanya gave her a soft smile. “Congratulations! I can’t believe you’re married now.”

She blinked, taking a while before she was able to find her voice. “O-opo…”

“I’m so happy for you.”

“Thank you, Tita.” She could feel the awkwardness between them.

Tanya lowered her gaze to her slightly protruding belly. It was still small, nobody would’ve guessed she was pregnant if they were never told so. But when she stares at her naked self in front of the mirror she notices the small changes pregnancy had done to her body.

“How far along are you?” Her voice was careful yet hesistant, as if she was taking a risk

“A-almost three months.” She answered.

Tanya slowly nodded her head but her eyes seemed like she was seeing through her. “You were dating my son less than three months-”

“Tita, kay Yvo ito.” She quickly cut her off even though she could feel her own voice shaking. “Sigurado akong sa asawa ko ito…”

Tanya slowly nodded her head as if taking in what she had just said. “That’s… that’s all I want to hear. Again, congratulations.”

Yuka watched Tate’s mother walk away and her body slummped against the countertop bar.

“One mimosa, please.” She turned to see her new sister-in-law tapping her fingers on the surface of the bar. Monique gave her a sideway glance as she waited for her drink then stared ahead. “If you’re going to lie make sure you cover your own tracks. Make sure hindi mo madudumihan ang pangalan ng kapatid ko.”

Napakurap si Yuka sa sinabi nito. She looked at Monique, she had a feral, overpowering look which was in contrast to her soft beauty. It was both beautiful and confusing to look at, like a little graceful lioness that could make anyone shiver not only in fear but in admiration. But in Yuka’s case, it made her feel inferior.

“Give it up, sis. Kasal na kami ng kapatid mo.” She raised one hand to show her her wedding ring. This was her little way to cover up her own inferiority. “Aren’t you going to congratulate your new sister? Mrs. Yvo Zamora.”

“Does he know about Tate?” She asked, Yuka almost wanted to take a step back when she looked at her. Monique’s gaze bruned through her.

“Huwag mong gawin mangmang ang kapatid mo. Alam niya kung ano ang totoo. Kaya nga pinakasalan niya ako.” Mariin na sabi niya.

“Hurt my brother and I swear, ako ang makakalaban mo.” She said, a serious warning in her tone.

She quaffed the remaining content of her glass before answering. “Anak ni Yvo ang dinadala ko at pamangkin mo ito. Kaya tigilan mo ko sa kamalditahan mo.”

Yvo thanked the lasts of their guests. He grabbed a glass of whiskey and walked up the staircase with the glass in one hand and loosening the top buttons of his barong with his other. He was exhausted and wanted nothing more than a hot bath. Yuka left an hour again as her pregnant bride was already exhausted herself.

He entered his room and automatically felt something different. Perhaps, it was the scent in the air. His brows knitted together. When did his room start to smell like coconut vanilla? He flicked the switch next to the door, turning on the lights.

Yuka slowly sat up from his bed and stretched out her arms, the blanket sliding down her body. It revealed her white deep v silk nightie, showing a generous amount of her swelling breasts and the bare outline of her nipples through the fabric.

“Hey.” That was all he could manage to say.

“Nakatulog na pala ko…” Her voice still raspy with sleep.

“Did I wake you up?” He asked.

“Okay lang. Kanina pa kita hinihintay.” Sabi ni Yuka. “Dito na ako pinatulog kasi nga mag-asawa na tayo. Ang mag-asawa hindi magkahiwalay ng kwarto.”

“Right.” Yvo nodded his head. It was their first night together as husband and wife. Their supposed-to-be honeymoon. “I’m just going to take a shower.”

Tumango lang si Yuka at pinanood ang asawa niyang ibinaba ang baso sa dressing table at pumasok sa loob ng banyo. She could feel her heartbeat go up a notch as she stared at the bathroom door. If he wanted to touch her, she would let him. Yvo was her husband after all. Wala naman masama kung magsisiping sila. She had readied herself, making sure she scrubbed every inch of her skin properly, brushed her teeth twice, and used lotion. It wasn’t all fear she was feeling, there was a weird sense of excitement and anticipation. She had heard of sex from her slutty ex-friends but had never gone beyond making out with the past boyfriends she’d had. She held onto her virginity for the right guy… ang right guy para sa kanya ay ang pinakamayaman na manliligaw niya. Yuka doesn’t give without having anything in return.

Yvo was one of the rare breed of men who rarely let himself indulge in lustful thoughts. Unless of course if sex was presented to him, he was still a human being with a functioning genatalia after all. And it had always been presented to him on a silver platter. Sex was just a release or a means to an end for him. He do have his own desires as a man but it was never something he had no control over.

He stood under the shower with a familiar feeling, a tingling in the groin. The kick of lust that burst through him at the thought of Yuka in his bed wearing her white silk nightie with no bra underneath shocked him. It wasn’t the response he was expecting from himself. He didn’t want to admit to himself that there was even a possibility of him being sexually attracted to Yuka. He turned the shower to cold to calm down the heat in his body, and he shivered as the icy water pounded against his skin causing goosebumps to rise. Nang masiguro niyang wala na ang init sa katawan niya ay agad siyang nagbanlaw at lumabas sa shower.

Nagbihis na siya nang pantulog at lumabas. He hoped Yuka was already asleep but she was still awake when got out.

“Why are you still awake?” He picked up his scotch that he hadn’t yet finished.

“H-hinihintay kita.” She answered.

“Bawal sa’yo ang magpuyat. It may affect the baby’s health.” He reminded.

“Ikaw? Hindi ka pa ba matutulog?” She bit her bottom lip, nervously.

“Matutulog na din ako maya-maya. I’ll just finish this.” He lifted his glass up to show her and went to the balcony. Pinanood ni Yuka ang lalaki sa glass sliding door nito. He was leaning against the railing and looking up at the dark sky, taking small sips from his glass.

It was clear to her now that there would be no honeymoon tonight. It took a couple of seconds of battling with herself before she finally decided to follow him. Bumaba siya mula sa kama at lumabas sa balcony. Yvo turned his head to her direction when she leaned against the railing next to him.

“Now what?” She asked, looking up at the sky. Nasa probinsya sila, malayo sa siyudad. The stars were visible and the moon was shining brighter.

“Huh?”

“What will happen now?”

Yvo shrugged. “What are your plans? Mag-eenroll ka pa ba sa susunod na semester?”

“Hindi na muna.” Yuka answered and then she caressed her belly. “Aalagaan ko muna si baby. Pagkatapos ko na sigurong makapanganak.”

“I’m sorry this happened to you.” He sincerely said, looking her straight in the eyes.

She just smiled and cutely wrinkled her nose. “Nandito na si baby. Wala nang atrasan ’to.”

“But you’re still so young…” There was guilt in Yvo’s voice.

“Hindi mo kasalanan.” She said, detecting the guilt. “Nobody wanted this to happen. At leastc magkaka-baby na tayo.”

“Just a few more months…” Yvo felt warmth spread from his heart throughout his whole body as he looked at Yuka’s belly that was slightly looking rounder. A small human being was growing inside of that.

“Minsan parang nararamdaman ko siyang gumagalaw sa loob ko o baka imagination ko lang yun.” She smiled and looked down at her belly. “Alam ko minsan may pagka-selfish ako at narcissistic pero alam mo nung unang beses kong narinig ang tibok ng puso niya dun ko talagang napatunayan na mahal ko ito higit sa sarili ko at gagawin ko ang lahat para magkaron siya ng magandang buhay. Hindi mararanasan ng anak ko lahat ng naranasan ko.”

“We’ll give our baby a good life. You’re not going to do that alone. I’ll be with you.” Yvo promised.

She hooked her arms around one of Yvo’s musculine arms and leaned her head against him, then she looked up at the stars. She was so close to him that he was able to breathe in her scent. A mixture of her own fresh scent and the sweet smell of coconut vanilla.

“Ang swerte ng ex mo sa’yo, pinakawalan ka pa.” She said in a giggle. “Siguro nagsisisi ngayon yun kasi kasal ka na sakin. Ako pa tuloy ang sinwerte.”

He just chuckled.

“Yvo…” She quietly said.

“Yeah?” He mumbled, just feeling her warmth and the cold night air grazing his skin.

“Kung gusto mo, pwede naman… I mean, mag-asawa naman na tayo.” Yuka’s voice slightly shook out of nervousness.

His eyes gazed down to look at her, slightly confused.

“Sex. If you want to have sex, we can… Obligasyon ko sa’yo iyon bilang asawa mo. At saka, kabayaran na din sa mga-”

Yvo shook his head profusely. “Wala kang dapat bayaran sa akin, you understand? I don’t want to have sex.”

Kumawala siya sa pagkakahawak ng babae sa kanya. He drank whatever was left in his glass and went inside. The idea of her having to repay him with sex did not sit well with him. She was his wife now, not a common whore. If they were going to have sex , it should be because they both wanted it.

She followed behind him and slid in bed next to her husband. Doesn’t he find her attractive or fuckable enough to bed? What was wrong? She did everything Saskia, Sasha, and Jodie adviced her for her honeymoon as she had no experience when it came to actual sex. Naligo naman siya, nag-lotion, nagpabango.

They both laid in bed, staring at the ceiling in the dark room, waiting for sleep to come.

Chapter Twenty Two

The honeymoon was over before it had even began. They had only spent one day at the hacienda after their wedding and then they went back to the city. Yvo had some work he needed to tend to and Yuka, after taking a few hundreds of pictures and videos documenting her hacienda life, was starting to get bored.

Yuka moved into Yvo’s room. It wouldn’t look normal for a married couple, especially a newly wedded one, to sleep in seperate bedrooms. Magtataka ang mga kasambahay kung matutulog silang magkahiwalay and they didn’t want anyone to doubt their relationship.

On their first night in their house as husband and wife, Yuka slept alone in his bed. She waited for her husband but eventually her tired pregnant body gave in to sleep. Yvo had been in his study the whole time, he couldn’t lay in bed with his own wife. It frustrated him having her sleep next to him, their bodies occasionally touching against each other, her hot breath on his neck as she slept ever so peacefully while he lay there staring at the ceiling, forcing his body not to react to the desires he couldn’t acknowlege, much less fulfill. Perhaps, he thought, it was because he hadn’t been with a woman for quite some time now kaya ganito ang nararamdaman niya. Maybe it was just his body telling him that he needed to let off some steam. 

It was a retching noise that welcomed him as soon as he opened the door to his room- their room. Agad siyang nagtungo sa banyo kung saan nanggaling ang ingay at nakita si Yukang nakaluhod sa harap ng toilet bowl. He hurriedly went to her and knelt down beside her. 

“Yuka.” He rubbed her back in a light, feathery caress and her shoulders loosened, a small moan of relief escaped from her lips. 

“Okay na ako.” She took in a deep breath and turned to face him, giving him an accusing glare while a frown crossed her features. “Saan ka ba kasi nanggaling?” 

“I was working at the lab.” He answered, grabbing a towelette that was hanging on the rack. “Are you sure you’re okay?”

Tango lang ang naisagot niya. Her morning sickness comes and goes. There are consecutive days when it isn’t there and just when she thought she had gotten over that phase of her pregnancy, it comes back again.

“Here, let me help you up.” Yvo gently pulled her up.

“Okay lang. Kaya ko na.” She said, heading straight to the sink after flushing the toilet. She didn’t want him to smell the bile she had just thrown up in the toilet bowl just seconds ago so she hurriedly gargled mouthwash. 

“Have you had your breakfast? Gusto mo ba na magpaakyat na lang ako ng makakain dito?” Yvo was still worried about Yuka.

Humarap siya sa asawa at umarko ang isang kilay. “Hinintay kita kagabi.”

“Nakatulog ako sa lab. I was working on something and I’ve lost track of time.” Dahilan niya.

“Akala ko ayaw mo na akong katabi.Akala ko naguguluhan ka sakin pag magkatabi tayo. Noon kasing magkatabi pa kami ni Ate, palagi siyang nagagalit kasi para daw akong kiti-kiti ’pag tulog. Malay ko ba, tulog nga ako eh.” 

It was true that Yuka moves a lot in her sleep. One minute she was a pillow away from him and the next her arms were wrapped around him, her legs hugging his waist. He was just being careful as he did not want to develop any sexual feelings toward her. Hindi pa rin mawala sa isip niya ang offer nito noong wedding night nila. He was mad that she’d offered sex the way she did but it would be a lie to say that it wasn’t a tempting offer. He hadn’t been with a woman for quite some time now and every now and then, fragmented memories of that night with her underneath him would cross his mind. 

“No, it’s not that.” He gave her a reassuring smile and then his hands went to her tummy. It was hardly noticeable yet but there was already a small bump. “You worry too much. Baka makasama sa baby.” 

“Kasi ikaw, eh.” She pouted even more. 

“Why don’t you go back to bed and I’ll have your breakfast brought here for today, okay?” He gently said. 

Yuka finally smiled and nodded her head. “Pero gusto ko kasabay ka.” 

“Okay.” Kibit-balikat na sabi nito. 

Yuka requested for some french toast and coconut juice and he added in some fruits to balance her diet. Yvo sat on the edge of the bed watching his wife munch on her breakfast while he sipped a mug of coffee that he asked. 

“Sabi mo sasabay kang magbreakfast.” Yuka frowned when she noticed that her husband hadn’t had food. 

“I don’t eat breakfast.” 

“Gusto kong kumain ka din.” 

“I’m okay with coffee.” 

“Gusto ko pa din kumain ka.” She said, slicing her french toast bread and bringing the fork to his mouth. Yvo hesitantly opened his lips and took a bite and Yuka couldn’t help a smile. “Yan, dapat may laman ang tiyan mo sa umaga bukod sa coffee.” 

“I’m good.” He said after a few bites and then looked at the digital clock on the bedside table. “I have to get ready for work.” 

Yuka almost didn’t want to let her husband leave her side. She wanted him to stay with her all day. Gusto niyang ma-solo ang asawa and do what normal newly wedded couples do. Like making food for her husband and being lovey-dovey with him. She was a young woman after all and hidden within her pragmatic view of love, she was still hoping for a fairytale one. 

“Iiwan mo na naman ako?” She made a face. “Honeymoon pa din natin, ah! Kakasal lang natin two days ago. This should be our time together.”

“I’m really sorry, Yuka. I have an important meeting I need to go to.” He explained with genuine apology. They already knew he was back from honeymoon and had already called for a meeting to discuss on the project they were working on.

Yuka crossed her arms over her chest and scowled. “Maiiwan na naman ako dito. Nababagot na ako. Nalangoy ko na every square inch ng pool, alam ko na nga yata kung ilang tiles nandon. Naikot ko na buong bahay. Napuntahan ko na bawat kwarto.”

“Look, I promise I’ll make it up to you.” Tinitigan niya ang nakasimangot na asawa. Her pouting lips made her look even cuter and he couldn’t help but smile. Even now, he couldn’t fathom the idea that Yuka was now his wife. His wife and the mother of his possible child. “May gusto ka bang kainin? Ano bang gusto mong gawin? Do you want to go to your sister’s?”

Her pout disappeared and she pursed her lips as if thinking. “Gusto ko sanang magshopping. Gusto kong bumili ng mga gamit para kay baby.” 

Tumango-tango ang lalaki at tumayo mula sa kama. He took out an envelop from the bedside drawer and handed it to Yuka. With brows furrowed, she took it and opened. It was an exclusive black credit card with her name on it. Yuka Grace Zamora. 

Saglit na namilog ang mga mata ni Yuka. She jumped on him for a hug which toppled him down the bed with Yuka right on top of him. “The best ka talaga, Doc! Thank you!”

She was light and warm in his arms, her skin soft, her swollen breasts resting against his chest. And even in the morning, even when she’d just been in bed and threw her guts up just minutes ago, she still smelled of coconut vanilla. It elicited a biological response from him, one he’d tried so hard to avoid since the night she’d offered sex to him. 

“It’s no big deal, really.” He, with gentle care, tried to get his very oblivious and excited wife off him. They both sat up again.  

“Sorry, na excite lang ako.” Yuka said, still with a wide smile on her face. The one which makes her eyes cutely disappear into crescents as if they were smiling along with her lips. 

“Just don’t tire yourself out, okay? Buntis ka kaya alagaan mo ang sarili mo.” He reminded her. 

“Opo, doc.” She cheerfully said, her eyes fixed on the black card. 

“At yang morning sickness mo, if it doesn’t get any better tomorrow, I’ll schedule for an earlier appointment with the doctor.” 

“Yan doctor na pinagdalahan mo sa’kin masyadong usisera.” She frowned as she remembered the incident she had with the OB. “Bakit naman kailangan niya pang pag-usapan ang tungkol sa ex mo? Nakita niya ngang buntis na ko!” 

“I’m sorry about, hindi naman na mauulit iyon. But she’s the best in her field and I know you and the baby are going to be in good hands with her.”

Yuka huffed and rolled her eyes. “Sige na nga. Pero dapat professional siya, no!”

He looked at the clock on the bedside table. “I need to get to work before 8. I’m going to take a shower, if you need anything just give downstairs a ring.” 

Tatayo na dapat siya mula sa kama nang hawakan ni Yuka ang kamay niya. She wanted to spend more time with her husband, even if it was just a fraction of a second. She really wished he could just stay here with her. 

“Teka lang…” 

“Yeah?” His brows shot up. 

“Mmm… ano’ng gusto mong dinner mamaya?” 

“Okay naman ako sa kahit ano.” He smiled.

“Pero ano talaga yung gusto mo? Ipagluluto kasi kita mamaya. Kung maaga nga lang ako nagising sana nagawan kita ng baon.” Yun kasi ang nakikita niyang ginagawa ni Saskia sa asawa nito. 

Yvo shrugged. “Um, sinigang?” 

“Sige, magluluto ako ng sinigang mamaya, ah.” She happily said. “Promise, magugustuhan mo luto ko!”

He smiled at her and then his eyes lowered to the hand she was holding. “I’m sure I will but can you please let go of my hand now? Kailangan ko na magshower.” 

“Ay, sorry!” She let go of him, slightly embarassed. Pinanood niya ang asawang pumasok sa pinto ng banyo at napabuntong-hininga na lang. She couldn’t help but imagine her husband in the bathroom, undressing himself and getting under the shower. She could picture in her mind how the water dripped to his toned body. Wala sa sariling napasinghap si Yuka sa naisip niya, she could feel her groin pulsing to the beat of her heart. She’d realized that she was lusting over her own husband and tried to shake the feeling off. Perhaps, it was just her pregnancy hormones. Napasandal siya sa headboard at bumuntong-hininga. She felt embarassed to feel her arousal increasing. Why couldn’t he just have sex with her like a normal husband would?

“Yuka, ano’ng arte ’yan?” Asiwang tanong ni Jodie pagbaba ni Yuka sa kotse. Ang driver ang nagbukas ng pinto ng kotse at pinayungan siya naman siya ng kasama niyang help. She was enjoying every minute of being a billionaire’s wife. After Yvo left for work, she rang her Ate’s house para magpasa sa kanila na mag-shopping. She’d found out that the credit card that he had given to her had five million pesos limit and that got her really excited. Nasa kotse pa lang siya papunta sa mall, iniisip niya na kung ilang signature bag at shoes ang mabibili niya. She told her husband that she wanted to buy things for the baby but she thought he wouldn’t mind if she spend some of it for herself. 

“Donyang-donya ka na, anak.” Bati ni Sasha. 

“Syempre naman, Mammy.” She smiled, her chin tilting up. “Bilyonaryo yata ang napang-asawa ko.” 

Saskia just let out a disapproving sigh as she looked at her little sister. She knew better than to lecture, Yuka. Hindi din naman ito papasok sa utak nito. Amongst the three siblings, Yuka had always been the most harded. Lahat ng gusto nito, hindi niya pwedeng hindi makuha. She would have whatever she wanted, one way or another. 

“Feel na feel mo talaga, Madam Yuka.” Jodie sarcastically said. 

“Ninang, ako na ang manlilibre sa inyo ngayon. Huwag kayong mag-alala. Mayaman na ako.” She giggled playfully. 

“Sabi mo tutulungan ka lang namin bumili ng gamit para sa baby?” Saskia’s brows wrinkled.

“Ito naman si Ate, ang KJ.” She huffed and rolled her eyes. “Syempre, hindi naman siguro masamang gumastos ako ng konti para sa sarili ko. Bakit? Mahirap kaya magbuntis.”

“O, kumusta naman yang pagbubuntis mo?” Her voice shifted in a concerned tone.

“Okay naman kaso minsan meron pa din morning sickness. Tapos mabilis na din akong mapagod at sobrang antukin ako ngayon.” 

“Ganun naman talaga pag nagbubuntis, anak. Inaalagaan ka naman ba ni Yvo?” Tanong ni Sasha. 

“Oo naman, My.” She answered. 

“Wala kang dapat ipag-alala diyan. Sa kanilang magkakapatid, dito ako sa anak mong ’to hindi natatakot maapi. Yan pa, magpapalamang.” Sabi ni Jodie.

“Syempre, laking Jodie ’to, no!” Pagmamalaki niya. Kahit naman palagi silang nagbabangayan ni Jodie ay ito ang numero unong tagapagtanggol niya sa tuwing napapaaway siya. She had a strong personality as compared to her siblings. Jodie and their life experiences taught her to never let herself taken advantage of. If anything, in her mind, she should be the one taking advantage of people. Life had already thrown her so many curveballs and she felt like she had ever right to do so. And so, she looked at people as ladders and would walk up on top of them and step on them to get to where she wanted to be. 

Yuka immediately went to Hermes, she had always dreamt of owning one of those expensive bags. Her Ate had two of those bags but it was given to her by Migs’ mother and sister. 

“My, o! Tignan mo, bagay sa akin, di ba? Ang ganda!” She asked as she put on a pair of Hermes sandals while carrying a matching Hermes bag on her arm.

“Ay, oo nga! Ang lakas maka-sosyal.” Komento ni Sasha. “Bagay na bagay talaga sa’yo.”

“Hindi naman gamit ng baby ’yan saka ang mamahal ng mga ito, Yuka!” Saskia exclaimed as she looked at the price tag. She couldn’t see the purpose of buying such expensive items. Migs would often shower her with signatured bags and shoes and other things and although she appreciates it, sa kanya wala itong pagkakaiba sa mga sapatos at bag na nabibili sa department stores. It was Migs who’d always push her to buy something nice for herself. Minsan pinapasamahan pa siya ng asawa sa mother-in-law niya o kaya sa mga kapatid nito mag-shopping para lang mapilitan siyang bumili ng mamahalin ng mga bag, damit, o alahas. 

“Alam mo, palagi kong sinasabi ito sa inyo. Kapag maganda ka, kahit plastic pa ng basura isuot mo, maganda pa rin sa’yo.” Sabi ni Jodie at sandaling sinipat ang tingin ni Yuka. “Pero Madam Yuka, ang ganda nga talaga! Ibang-iba talaga sa mga japeyks sa inoorder mo online.”

“Sabi sa’yo, ’nang. Bagay sa’kin ’to.” She happily said as she twirled in front of the mirror. “Bibilhin ko na ’to.”

“Yuka, pera pa rin yan ni Yvo.” Saskia said

“Namin dalawa. Mag-asawa na kami saka isa pa, sabi niya naman pwede kong bilhin kung anuman gusto ko. Gusto ko ng mga ito.”

She ended up buying more for herself than the baby and she reasoned to herself that a few more months was a long time. She still had a lot of time to buy things for their baby. But for now, she needed new clothes as her old ones were getting too small for her and she needed new shoes as Yvo had told her to try not to wear heels and she needed this and that because she wouldn’t have much time to shop for herself once the baby comes out. She was only able to buy a few piece of clothing for the baby and some cute little blankets. Nang bumili lang si Saskia nang mamahalin na tie para kay Migs ay doon lang din niya naalala na bilhan din si Yvo ng tie at ilang dress shirt at trouser.

“Shopping para sa baby ka pang nalalaman. Eh iilan piraso lang yan kay baby.” Sasha said while they were having lunch at a restaurant. Isa itong mamahalin restaurant and of course, it was Yuka’s treat this time. It felt so good for her to finally have the chance to spoil her family.

“Alam mo mas mamamatay ako sa gulat kung hindi maging selfish yang anak mo. Parang di mo kilala yan si Yuka.” Her Ninang Jodie said as he was fixing his foundation. 

“Grabe ka naman, Ninang. Gusto ko lang naman magshopping na ng bongga para sa baby pag kasama ko na si Yvo. Syempre, dapat pareho kami ng gusto na mga gamit para sa anak namin. Saka I deserve this naman, no!” Dahilan niya. 

“You deserve this? Wow, ha! Bumukangkang ka lang deserve mo na ’to. Eh di kung ganon pala dapat mas higit pa yung kay Sasha. Naka-isang milyon na bukangkang na yata yang nanay niyo.” Natatawang sabi ni Jodie. 

“Gaga ka talaga!” She playfully hit her bestfriend. “Isang milyon ka diyan!”

“Yuka, huwag mo sanang abusuhin ang kabaitan ng asawa. Nakakahiya lalo’t pinsan yan ni Migs.” Bilin sa kanya ni Saskia. 

“Ate, can afford naman ni Yvo yun saka isa pa siya din naman nagsabi sa akin na bilhin ko kung ano’ng gusto ko. Nasa pangalan ko nga ang credit card ko.” She said. 

“Pinapaalalahanan lang kita.” Saskia sighed. “Saka ingatan mo yang batang ’yan. Matuto kang ingatan din sarili mo para sa baby mo.”

“Oo naman, Ate…” She said, mindlessly rubbing her slightly swollen tummy. 

“Umuumbok na siya, o! Nagpapakita na si baby!” Ngumiti si Saskia at hinawakan ang tiyan ng kapatid. 

“May bago na naman tayong baby.” Excited na sabi ni Sasha. “Malakas ang kutob ko babae yan. Blooming na blooming ka kasi, ’nak.”

“Talaga, My?” She smiled, looking down at her tummy. 

“Oo, tumama nga ako nun sa kutob kong babae yung kambal, di ba?” Pagmamayabang nito. 

“Hindi ba susunduin pa natin ang kambal sa school?” Paalala ni Jodie. “Ano’ng oras na, o?”

“Oo nga pala. Nadala mo ba yung extrang sando ng dalawa? Sigurado akong nagmamantika na naman sa pawis yang si Tintin, pano kasi ang harot ng batang yun.” Naiiling na sabi ni Mammy.

“Hindi ka ba nahihirapan sa pagbubuntis mo, Yuka? Kailangan mo ba si Ninang o si Mammy para may kasama ka naman sa bahay?” Tanong ni Saskia sa kapatid. 

“Okay lang ako, alam ko naman na kailangan ng kambal ang Lola Mammy nila at ikaw naman ang favorite ni Ninang kaya ’di yan hihiwalay sa’yo.” Kunwaring umismid si Yuka.

“Wala akong paborito sa inyo, sadyang maldita ka lang talaga bata ka pa.” Sabi ni Jodie. “Okay lang naman na kay Yuka muna ako.”

“Mag-aaway lang tayo palagi, Ninang.” She rolled her eyes. 

“Eh ako na lang anak, para maalagaan kita.” Sasha offered.

“My, okay pa ako. Hindi naman ako pinababayaan ni Yvo. Kailangan ka pa nung kambal. Umalis na nga ako tapos aalis ka din. Malulungkot yung mga yun. Saka na pag nandyan na si baby.” She smiled. 

“Yvo…” He heard an all too familiar voice from behind him that made him stop right as he was just about to open the door to his car. The sound of sent his heart beating with unusual emotion, he could feel the drumming below the surface of his skin. 

He turned his head to see her standing there. Krista tried to smile despite the tears that had pooled in her eyes, determined not to let them spill. Emotions ran through him as he looked at her, the woman he’d loved. 

“Congratulations.” Her voice cracked as she said those words. “I guess I’m a little too late, huh?”

“Krista…” That was all that he could utter. 

He wanted to hold her in his arms. He wanted to kiss her. But it would be wrong to do so. Or would it? He just married Yuka for convenience, for the baby. Would it really be wrong?

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t even be here.” She shook her head. “I just… I wanted to see you again.” 

Yvo turned and his body leaned against the car, feeling drained. They looked into each other’s eyes for a few quiet seconds, not knowing what to do or how to act. The need to hug her, to just feel her body against his, to just catch a whiff of her familiar scent was so strong. He wanted to throw his arms around her and before he could do so, Krista had already wrapped her arms around him.

“I missed you.” She whispered in his chest. “I missed you so much, Yvo.”

Yvo closed his eyes and let his arms wrap around her. He gathered all the strength he had to pull away from the warm embrace. It felt right but wrong both at the same time. He loved this woman and he may still have feelings for her, but he was married now. 

“Yvo…” She looked up at him, her eyes watering with tears. He tightly shut his eyes, feeling the tears starting to sting his. Why did she have to show up now? Now it was too late. “Can we talk? Please, Yvo, kahit sandali lang…”

He didn’t have the heart to say no to her. They went to a restaurant nearby and although they came there to talk, there was nothing but silence between them. Silence after the waiter had taken their orders, silence when they were being served their food. 

“Who is she?” It was Krista who broke the silence between them. 

Yvo took a small sip of wine and then answered. “Her name is Yuka.”

“I know her name but who is she? Where did you meet? Why did you marry her? Why her?” She asked with slight quiver in her voice.

Yvo shook his head. “It… it just happened. She’s pregnant.”

She nodded her head, her eyes fixed on the glass of champagne in front of her with her arms crossed over her chest, as if it was a subconscious way of protecting her heart from the blow. She could not look at him because she was afraid it would worsen the pain of those words and she couldn’t let herself breakdown in front of him again. 

“Why didn’t you go after me?” 

Yvo shook his head. “You know I couldn’t…”

“Kaya hinayaan mong masira ang relasyon natin?” She threw him an accusing glare. “Minahal mo ba talaga ako?”

“Of course, I did. You know I did, Krista.” Mariin na sagot ni Yvo.

“Do you love me still?” Krista asked.

And she was answered by silence. Yvo knew he still felt something for Krista. He missed him and Lord, how he wanted to have her in his arms again. But beyond that, he wasn’t so sure. 

“Do you love her?” Krista asked again.

Napabuntong-hininga si Yvo. It wasn’t love he was feeling for Yuka. It was pity. But he couldn’t get himself to answer her question. 

“Ikaw ang umalis. I… I couldn’t give up on my career, Krista. I loved you but you didn’t think it would work out. I wanted us to work out.” Those words came pouring out of Yvo’s mouth. She did not believe in her and he couldn’t hold it against his ex. After losing millions and millions of money on drugs that failed, she’d stop believing in him. 

“Akala ko kasi may babalikan pa ako. I thought you’d wait for me.” Her voice cracked with tears and regret. “I was so stupid.”

He shook his head. “No, please don’t say that. We did what we thought was best for us, Krista.”

“You’re right.” Dahan-dahan na tumango ang babae. “I’m sorry, this shouldn’t have even happened.” She leaned over to him and took his hands in hers. “I want to be happy for you, Yvo. I want to be happy for you and your wife and your child. You’re a good man and you deserve the best.”

“T-thank you.” He silently said.

“Please send my regards to your wife.” She slowly let go of his hand and he wanted to chase it back, hold her for a little bit longer. “Well, I better go now. I’m sorry for wasting so much of your time.” 

She stood to her feet effortlessly. 

“Krista…” He uttered her name just as she was about to turn away and that made her pause. Secretly, she wanted him to stop her and tell her that the marriage was a mistake. That they could still be together. They would hug and kiss and make up for the time they loss apart. 

“Goodbye…” He exhaled. 

“Goodbye, Yvo.” She gave a nod, trying to force herself to smile. And then she walked away. 

Yvo sat there with his head hung low. That was the woman he thought he’d marry someday and have a family with. That was the woman he’d plan his future with. And just like that, all those were gone.

Hindi nagawang umuwi ni Yvo pagkatapos nang pag-uusap na iyon. He went to the bar to get himself something to drink, hoping it would drown out the emotional turmoil he was filling. He wanted to numb his emotions. He didn’t want to feel the hurt, the regret, the anger, how she’d felt against him and how good her hair smelled. He wanted to forget Krista. 

Yuka fell asleep on the couch waiting for her husband. She haven’t even had dinner yet as she wanted to eat with him. Gusto niyang matikman ng asawa ang sinigang na niluto niya para dito dahil pinaghirapan niya ito. She even video called her Ate for her recipe and had Saskia teach her how to cook so it would taste perfect for Yvo. Ilang oras naghintay si Yuka at kahit nagugutom na ay tiniis niya iyon. The helps tried to make her eat but she refused because she didn’t want to eat without Yvo. 

A crashing noise woke her up. Agad na bumangon si Yuka mula sa couch only to find her husband stumbling his way into the house with a few broken decorative vases behind him. She quickly went to him and her nose was assaulted with a strong smell of alcohol. Pinilit niyang huwag pansinin ang amoy na iyon kahit maduwal-duwal na siya at inalalayan ang asawa niya. 

“Yvo, saan ka ba galing?” She worriedly asked as she hooked his hand around her shoulder. He was so drunk that she couldn’t get a coherent answer from him. 

Sumigaw siya nang tulong and one of the helps came to her rescue and helped her drag her husband to their room. 

“Sige na, Ate. Ako na ang bahala dito. Magpahinga ka na.” She said, slightly exhausted from dragging the weight of a 6’2 man up the stairs. 

The help left and so she got a towel and soaked it with water. Bumalik siya sa kama kung nasaan ang asawa niya at isa-isang tinanggal ang butones nito. His body was just as toned and muscular as she last saw them. Pinunasan niya ang mukha ng lalaki, pababa sa leeg nito, at naiilang na bumaba ang kamay niya sa dibdib nito. 

He moaned when he felt the cold water from the towelette touch his chest. Nagulat si Yuka nang hawakan nito ang kamay niya. She gasped when he pulled her to him and the next thing she knew, she was already under him. 

“Yv…” His lips crashed against hers into a hungry kiss, swallowing the rest of her word. He kissed her, making her head spin as though she had drunk whatever was left of the alcohol in his mouth. He plunged his tongue past her lips as his body positioned between her legs. She could feel him against her crotch, his warmth against her most private part and it felt so good having him rub against him. She moaned softly in drunken pleasure when one hand cupped her breast. Even with clothes on, his body brushing by her private area, made her feel hot all over. She could feel her panties beginning to dampen. 

“Krista…” He moaned, his lips went from her mouth down to her neck. 

She froze when she heard him utter another woman’s name. Agad niyang tinulak palayo ang asawa mula sa kanya. Yvo collapsed next to her. She sat up and hugged herself as she stared at her husband. Nakahiga si Yvo sa kama at nakapikit ang mga mata nito na tila walang nangyari.

Chapter Twenty Three

Yvo could already feel the throbbing pain in his head before he could even open his eyes. A groan escaped his lips dried lips as he raised his head. Nasapo niya ang ulo niya at nanghihinang napasandal sa headboard. It was one of those horrible hangovers. He’d had too much to drink last night and could hardly remember how he had made it into his room.

He carefully climbed down the bed, his balance slightly unsteady, and made his way to the bathroom. He had a few too many drinks after Krista left. He tried to drown his feelings for her, his regret, he could’ve been’s. But it resurfaced again while he stood under the shower with water pouring over him. Pilit niyang pinalis sa isip niya ang mukha ng babae. Her innocent tear-filled eye looking straight into his. How he missed her and what they had together that even in his drunken dream, she was all he could see.

Only when he got out of the shower did Yuka crossed his mind. He woke up without his wife beside him and wondered where she was. Agad siyang nagbihis at nagmamadaling bumaba.

“Good morning.” He said, his voice still hoarse, when he found his wife in the kitchen.

“Buti naman nagising ka na.” She didn’t bother to throw a glance at him as he was busy with the omelette she was cooking.

“Bakit ikaw gumagawa niyan?” He asked.

“Maaga akong nagising.” She answered but the truth was that she barely had any sleep. They had just gotten married and her husband was already cheating on him in his mind with another woman. Sino’ng babae ang makakatulog ng mahimbing nun? “Upo ka diyan.”

Yvo obediently sat at the kitchen island counter. He could feel the thick tension in the air as the usual talkative Yuka barely spoke. Ngayon unti-unting bumalik sa isip niya ang nangyari kagabi. How he’d gotten so drunk last night that he had to call the driver to pick him up from the bar. Even when drunk, Yvo was still a logical person. And Yuka helped him up his bedroom and then he kissed her.

“Shit.” He uttered under his breath. He kissed Yuka!

Padabog na ibinba ni Yuka ang isang plato ng omelette sa harap niya. “Kumain ka.”

“Yuka, I’m sorry.” Mahinang sabi niya. 

“Tubig gusto mo?” She asked in a stoic tone but didn’t wait for his answer, she made her way to the fridge. Kumuha siya ng tubig at ng baso. She harshly put it down in front of Yvo.

“I didn’t mean what I did to you last night. I didn’t mean to kiss you.” He said, guilt flooding him. He felt as though he had taken advantage of Yuka, had he really? His memory of last night wasn’t as clear but he’d remember kissing her. Did he force himself on her? Was that why she was mad?

Suddenly, cold water splashed on his face. “YUKA!”

“Fuck you!” She said as tears of anger ran down her face. “Ako ang pinakasalan mo, Yvo! Ako, hindi si Krista!”

“What are you talking about?” His brows furrowed in confusion.

Even though they married for practically, it was still a huge blow to her ego that her husband had moaned another woman’s name while he was being intimate with her.

“Hindi mo ba natatandaan, ha? Inuungol mo pangalan ni Krista nung hinahalikan mo ako kagabi. Bakit? Hindi ba ko kalibog-libog at kailangan ex mo pa pinapantasya mo?” She was already sobbing. It might be the pregnancy hormones talking and making her so emotional or maybe it was just an insult to her that he didn’t find her desirable enough. Or it was both.

Yvo with his water-soaked face just stared at the crying Yuka and couldn’t think of anything to say or how to react.

“Bakit? Maganda naman ako, ah? Is it because I’ve put on weight?” She felt so insecure and she couldn’t, for the love of God, hide it. She was used to men drooling over her, dying to date her, wooing her and her own husband didn’t want anything to do with her.

“No, no…” He shook his head and stared into her eyes. “You’re beautiful, Yuka.”

“Eh bakit ayaw mo sa’kin?” She was sobbing so hard her words were barely incoherent. She had never felt this insecure and ugly before. No man had ever made her feel like this. They all desired her and lusted after her. Ngayon, itong asawa niya halos ayaw siyang tabihan sa kama. Dahil ba lumalaki na ang tiyan niya at nagmumukha na siyang bondat? She had already gained at least 3 inches around her waist and most of pants don’t fit her now.

“It’s not that I don’t want you. It’s not like that at all. But I have respect for what we have and what we are.” He tried to explain.

“Bakit? Mag-asawa naman tayo, ah! Normal yun sa mag-asawa! Alam mo yung hindi normal, yung inuungol mo yung pangalan ng ex mo habang nakikipag-laplapan ka sa asawa mo.” She said and stormed off.

Naiwan si Yvo sa kusina, completely baffled with his head throbbing even more. He was still hungover but already felt the urge to grab another beer from the fridge and decided it wouldn’t do him any good. Instead he had breakfast and took some aspirin para maayos siyang makaharap at magpaliwanag kay Yuka. And by the time he finishes, she probably had already cooled off her head and had calmed her pregnancy hormones down.

Dahan-dahan pumasok si Yvo sa kwarto nilang mag-asawa. Yuka was in bed with her back turned to the door of the room. He was having second thoughts if he should talk to her or not as he wasn’t really sure of what to say to her. He wanted to apologize but he just wasn’t sure how he should start.

“Yuka…” Naramdaman niya ang paggalaw ng kama and then he felt a soft hand touching her hair. She looked up and saw Yvo sitting on edge of it, next to her. Kumunot ang noo ng lalaki nang makita ang luha sa mga mata niya.

“Huwag mo kong hawakan.” She swatted her husband’s hand away from her.

“Sabi ng mga kasambahay hininitay mo daw ako kagabi, hindi ka daw kumain ng dinner…” He quietly said and took in a deep sigh. He felt guilty knowing that a pregnant woman had waited on him while he was out getting drunk.

“I waited for you!” She threw him a sharp glare. “Tapos uuwi kang lasing dito, hahalikan mo ko, at iuungol ang pangalan ng ex mo.”

He took off his glasses and pinched the bridge of his nose. “Last night, I met up with Krista…”

Agad na napaupo si Yuka, nanlaki ang mga singkit na mata niya. Her heart started pounding against her ribs as she hugged her knees to  her chest. They had only been married for barely a week and the ex had already come into the picture. Hindi niya alam kung ano ang dapat maramdaman niya. Takot? Pangamba? Galit? She was afraid he’d throw her out of the house, worried of what would happen to her and the baby now that the ex was here, angry that this was happening now.

“Tapos?” She tried so hard not to let her voice tremble but had failed miserably.

“She congratulated me and went our seperate ways.”

“And?”

“And that’s that.” He shrugged his shoulders.

“May nangyari sa inyo?” She could feel the hard lump in her throat.

“Nothing happened.” He looked at her straight in the eyes. “Nothing. Not even a kiss.”

“But you wished something did?” She looked back at him with a hard, cold accusing look.

Yvo’s adam’s apple bobbed up and down his throat and that didn’t escape her eyes. It wasn’t exactly that he wished that something would happen between Krista and him, it was just that he missed her so much he wished he’d had one last hug or kiss from her before they had parted ways.

“Sabi na, eh!” She exclaimed and tears welled up her eyes again along with her insecurities. “Ang pangit ko na kasi, tignan mo bloated na bloated ako. Mukha na kong pufferfish, tapos ang laki na ng tiyan ko. Hindi na ko maganda. Hindi na ko sexy.”

He held her face in his hands and wiped the impending tears in the corners of her eyes with his thumbs. He looked at his wife’s face and saw nothing but a beautiful woman with intense crescent-shaped eyes.

“Ilang beses ko bang kailangan sabihin sa’yo na maganda ka. You are, without a doubt, one of the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen.” He said, his voice as gentle as his eyes. He let his gaze ran over her face and paused on her lips. Yuka had pink plump lips and they looked really inviting… taunting even. Yuka let out a faint exhale, her minty breath brushing against his face and he took in her aroma, inhaled her in. She had her eyes closed now, as if waiting for him to make a move but instead he slowly let go of her. His body wanted to do something his mind didn’t allow of. His arousal had been untended for quite some time now, just waiting for the slightest stimulus to begin erupting. But he couldn’t. Not now. Not with her.

“Yvo…” Muling dumilat si Yuka nang maramdaman nito ang pagbitaw sa kanya ng lalaki.

With a blink, his expression returned to its normal state. Uptight and guarded.

He cleared his dry throat before he spoke again. “We’re married now, Yuka. Nangako ako sa’yo na hindi ako gagawa ng kahit ano’ng makakasira sa’yo bilang asawa ko. Me having an affair with Krista is not something you would be worrying about, that I can promise you. Do you understand?”

Yuka lowered her gaze and just nodded. She was just his wife but she knew it would always be Krista who has his heart. She let her own emotions take over her at siya din ang napahiya. Wala naman siyang magagawa kung hindi tanggapin na lang iyon.

Yuka was lounging by the pool in a pair of skimpy white bikinis. Her breasts were overflowing from her bikini top as they had gotten bigger now that she was pregnant. She didn’t care that she had a slightly protruding belly as her breasts and her hips made up for it.

“Hey.” His eyes swiped her body as she laid there and embarrassed, he swiftly looked away. It was brief but it did flicker something inside him.

She felt his stare on her and a small smirk appeared on her lips. She propped her body with her elbows and lowered her Gucci sunglasses to the tip of her nose so that she could look at him directly.

“Lunch na tayo, Doc. I had your sinigang ready for you. Hindi ba yan yung ni request mo kagabi?” She sarcsastically said with an undertone of spite.

“Yuka…” His voice was as guilty as how he looked.

She rolled her eyes and smiled. “I was just kidding. I understand. Wala na yun.”

Tumayo si Yuka mula sa lounge chair, she wrapped the cover up skirt around her hips and walked to the table by the pool. She had the food already prepared for them. It was the weekend at off ni Yvo ngayon. It would be nice if they could spend some time together instead of him being cooped up in his lab again.

“Upo ka na dito, kain na tayo.” She said with an inviting smile.

He pulled the chair across from her. Nilagyan siya ng kanin ni Yuka sa plato.

“Alam mo dalawang oras kong hinanda yan para sa’yo.” She chuckled.

“I’m sorry.” He sighed, feeling even more guilty.

“Okay lang ’yun, no! Alam ko naman mas masarap ang kinain mo kagabi. What did you and Krista have last night?” She nonchalantly said, pushing the food to the spoon with fork.

Yvo sighed, pushing his glasses up the bridge of his nose, a habit he does when uncomfortable. “Look, Yuka, we just had a quick talk. That’s all.”

“Kaya nga. Ano nga dinner niyo kagabi?”

He stared at her for a second. He was trying to calculate whether she genuinely curious or was being sarcastic. She looked back at him, waiting for his answer. He blinked and shook his head. “Um, we had salad. It was just… she wanted to congratulate me, us.”

“Ahh…” She nodded her head and then pointed to his plate with her lips. “Sige na, kumain ka na. Tikman mo yung niluto ko. Pinalagay ko na lang sa fridge kagabi kasi gusto ko pa rin matikman mo.”

He lifted the spoon to his mouth and ate it.

“Masarap?” She set her elbow to the table, chin resting on her hand as she watched him with a smile.

Yvo could only nod as he chewed. He thought it was good.

“Alam mo nilagay ko diyan?” A playful smile appeared on her lips.

Kumunot ang noo ni Yvo. Knowing how sly his wife was, he didn’t know if he was going to spit the food out or swallow it. He decided to swallow.

“What did you put?” He asked.

“Nilagyan ko lang ng seasoning granules. Ba’t akala mo lalasunin kita?” Humalakhak ang babae.

Yvo couldn’t help a chuckle himself as he shook his head. “You were pretty mad at me this morning.”

“Pero sa susunod na gawin mo sa akin yun, panglason na ng daga ang ilalagay ko sa pagkain mo. I’ll be a super rich widow.”

“Okay, now I don’t know if you’re joking or not.” Natawa na lang si Yvo.

“We’ll see.” She smirked and brought the spoon to her mouth. “Pero alam mo kung papatayin kita. I won’t poison you all at once.”

“How would you kill me then?”

“Hmm… I would put little amount of poison in every meal. You’ll get sick little by little. Para walang maghinala sa akin. Iisipin ng mga tao nagkasakit ka lang.”

Yvo wrinkled his brows as if thinking and nodded his head. “Clever girl. You’ll make a good black widow.”

The awkward and tensed air that had been around them since the wedding had vanished and they felt more relaxed around each other, just as things used to be between the both of them. They both secretly hated what this whole thing had done to the friendship they shared with each other back then. It was genuine and real and when they got married it was as if they had to walk on eggshells. What they had was not a convenient relationship so they were still trying to figure out their places in each other’s lives.

Yuka wanted a family, not just for her child but for herself too. She wanted her husband. That was what she had realized while she was in bed last night with the drunk Yvo right next to her. She wanted him and not just on paper. She had always been selfish. She couldn’t stand it, the thought of another woman having what she couldn’t.

“Do you mind putting sunscreen on my back?” She asked when they finished eating. Umupo siya sa lounge chair at kinuha ang sunscreen lotion mula sa maliit na mesa sa tabi nito. 

Yvo who was still at the table looked at his wife for a few seconds before getting on his feet. He didn’t know why but the thought of touching Yuka’s bare skin made him feel like his stomach was in knots. It felt to him like it was highschool all over again when just sitting next to a beautiful girl used to intimidate him. Yuka handed her the bottle and he sat next to her. 

Tumalikod si Yuka sa kanya at hinawi ang buhok na nakatabing sa likod niya papunta sa isang bahagi ng balikat. She had a delicately milky complexion like of a chinadoll, it seemed almost as if she was glowing underneath the sun. Napalunok si Yvo, it was probably the heat drying his throat out. He shook his head and went on to squeeze the lotion onto her back. He used his hand to spread out the lotion, her skin was soft and smooth against his hand. He tried so hard not to let his thoughts go astray to where it shouldn’t go. He thought of scientific formulas instead. 

“Doc, ibaba mo pa.” Her voice sent him right back. 

He swallowed before he spoke, his hand sliding from her upper back to the middle. “Here?” 

“Oo, saka sa may balakang.” Yuka smiled to herself as she could his hands tensing. It made her glad to know that she had this kind of effect on him.

“There.” Sabi nito nang malagyan ang buong likod niya. And he did it in a hurry. 

“Thanks!” Yuka shifted to face him. “Swimming tayo?”

“Nah, I’m okay. I’ll just sit here.”

“Ang KJ mo naman.” Sumimangot si Yuka at kinalas ang skirt wrap cover up sa baywang niya. “Sandali lang naman.”

She saw his eyes hover her body for about half a second and she had to press her lips to stop herself from smiling. He was checking her out and she had him exactly where she wanted him. She’d pick the white bikini as she knew it would be a little less solid than the other colors. The fabric was outlining her nipples, paano pa kaya when she dips herself in the water.

She went to the pool and slowly slid herself into the water and playfully splashed him.

“Yuka!” Gulat na napatayo siya sa inuupuan at nagbaba ng tingin sa basang damit.

“Dali na, Doc. Get in the water. Mainit naman, eh!” She said, laughing and began swimming around. Napahinto siya nang may maisip siya. “Ow!”

“What?” His attention instictively turned from his clothes to her.

“Aray! Yvo, yung paa ko! I think I’m getting cramps!” She tried to make it seem like she was really in pain.

Walang pagdadalawang-isip na tumalon si Yvo sa pool at lumangoy papunta sa kanya. He grabbed her and lifted her up. Yuka wrapped her arms around his neck and then laughed. Confused, he paused looking at her with brows furrowed.

“Yuka…” He groaned.

“I was just kidding!” Natatawa pa rin na sabi niya. “But see, napababa kita dito sa pool.”

“You sly little…” Naningkit ang mga mata nito sa kanya at muli siyang binitawan.

“Sorry, but you have to loosen up a bit, doc. Kailan ba ang huling beses na nagswimming ka dito sa pool, ha?” She asked.

Yvo thought for awhile. It had been quite a long time since he’d swam in this pool. It was hot out here, his body felt hot, the water was cool, and he was already wet. 

“Just loosen up, okay.” Yuka rested both her hands on his shoulders.

“My shoes are soaking wet.” He grumbled. He could feel it squelch as he walked in the water.

“Eh di hubarin mo. Ito naman ang daming problema sa buhay.” She splashed him.

“Yuka stop.” Saway niya.

“Ayoko nga!” She splashed him some more. “

“Yuka!” He yelled while trying to avoid her splashes.

He tried to get away from her until he was at the edge of the pool and then lifted himself up from the water. Hinubad niya ang sapatos, pang-itaas niya, and he began unbuttoning his pants. Yuka couldn’t take her eyes off her husband as he gave a little strip tease. Lalo na nang tanggalin nito ang salamin, it was a cherry on top with rainbow sprinkles. It wasn’t that she didn’t like him with his glasses on, it was just that he was a whole different person without. Like Clark Kent without glasses on.

He dove into the water and swam to her. Yuka just stared at her husband who was standing right in front of her. He was a gorgeous man and the sun only seemed to have highlight his features even more. When he wasn’t Dr. Zamora, he looked like one of those men from an expensive watch commercial. His features chiseled and his bare eyes… otherworldly. 

“Hey, you okay?” He asked with a careless laughter. 

Yuka blinked and then smiled. “Ang cute mo talaga pag ngumingiti ka. Sana ganyan ka na lang palagi.”

Nagbaba ng tingin ang lalaki. He was blushing and Yuka smiled even more when she saw his reaction. Yvo felt like an idiot for reacting this way at his own wife’s compliment. He wasn’t a teenager anymore and he’d been with women before but why was he feeling like a shy pre-pubescent boy. There was just something about Yuka that intimidates him– in a good way, if that even makes sense, she catches him off-guard. Her strong personality perhaps and the way she just says exactly what was on her mind without any filter. 

“Sabi sa internet maganda daw ang pag-swimming sa mga buntis kaya palagi akong nandito.” She started floating in front of him. “I don’t want to be out of shape naman kahit buntis na ako. You think I’m still sexy?” 

“What?” He clearly heard what she just asked but was just stalling so he could think of what to say. 

“Do you find me sexy, Doc?” She asked again, her body displayed right in front of him. 

Tumikhim muna siya bago nagsalita. “You’re a beautiful woman and you know it.” 

Muling tumayo si Yuka at tumawa nang marahan. “Hindi naman yan ang tinatanong ko. Alam ko naman na maganda ako.” 

A splash of water to her face made her yelp. It was the only thing he could think of doing to avoid answering her question, a silly move contrasting from the uncomfortable tightening of his boxers below the water. 

“Yvo!” She sent him a fake glare and he was grinning from ear to ear like a pucking little boy. 

“Come on! I thought you wanted a splash fight.” He laughed, seeing her struggle to get away from him. 

“Madaya ka! Hoy, buntis ako!” She reminded him, laughing. 

“A little water won’t hurt the baby.” He chortled. 

She tried splashing back but ended up swimming away from him and he had to go chase after her. She was the only one who could bring the child out of the serious personality he had. They have shared a special bond together before all these even happened and after the wedding, even when he didn’t want to admit it himself, he missed what they had.

Para silang batang naglalaro at nagtatampisaw sa tubig. He hadn’t had this much fun for a long time, the innocent kind of fun. They were playing water tag and Yvo swam to the deep end of the pool. Lumangoy si Yuka at sinubukan maabot ang lalaki when she suddenly felt a twisting sensation in her calf. 

“Yvo…” She tried to keep her head afloat as her feet couldn’t reach the ground below. Yvo had his back on her while he tried to swim to the edge of the pool. 

She tried to swim with one foot but it was hard. The water was was getting in her mouth and she panicked, her water flailing trying to get ahold of something solid but it was all just water around her. She couldn’t scream when she tried to do so to get Yvo’s attention, she just swallowed more water. 

The baby was all she could think of. All her life it had always been about her and her life, she didn’t much care about anyone but making a good life for herself. Now all she could think about as the water tried to pull her in was the tiny life in her womb. That was when she knew that she loved her child more than anything else when she was fighting for her life not for her, but for their baby. She wanted to protect it more than anything else. 

Napalingon si Yvo sa gawi niya at nakita ang nangyayari. Yuka was silently sinking into the water with her arms flailing around. It immediately registered to him what was happening, a shot of adrenaline came over him and he swam as fast as half a second to Yuka and grabbed her. Agad naman naiangat nito ang babae, he lifted her up to the edge of the pool.

Yuka was coughing and crying both at the same time. “Yung baby ko… A-akala ko… akala ko… mawawala ang baby ko.”

“Hey, it’s okay…” Yvo’s body was still in the pool as he barely having strength to lift himself up. It wasn’t so much the physical exhaustion but the emotional exhaustion that made him weak. His arms were in between her feet that were still dangling in the water. “The baby’s going to be fine.”

“P-pano kung hindi, paano kung nasaktan siya?” She sobbed.

“No, listen, our baby’s going to be fine, okay?” He tried to reassure her, his hands rubbing her thighs.

It took a couple of seconds of trying to calm her down to make her stop crying. Kinuha ni Yvo ang kamay ni Yuka at hinalikan ito, he rested his head on her lap and everything was quiet for awhile. And then things began to sink into him hanggang sa pati siya ay napaluha.

“Yvo…” Marahang hinaplos ni Yuka ang basang buhok nito. He tried to control his cries but the trembling of his shoulder gave it away. 

Kinalong ni Yuka ang mukha ng lalaki sa magkabilang palad. 

“If… if I hadn’t seen you there, what would’ve happened to you and our baby? I’ve been so careless.” He said as tears began to stream from his eyes. “I should’ve looked after you. Hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko kung may nangyari sa inyo”

She shook her head as if telling him that he was not to blame. And she lowered her head to him and pressed a kiss on his lips. It felt like a sweet relief, her lips on his. He closed his eyes and let the relief wash over him. Yuka’s tongue boldly went into his mouth and he welcomed it with a light touch from her own. 

Yuka was in their bed now and it was already ten in the evening. They hadn’t spoken again after the kiss. Yvo gently pulled away, climbed out of the pool and wrapped a towel around her. Hinatid siya nito sa kwarto at sinabihan siya nitong magshower at magpahinga na. It was understandable as they both were still in shock. Pero siguro naman naka-recover na ito sa nangyari kanina. 

Yuka reminded herself that she needed to be extra careful for the baby in her womb. What had happened made her realize that she was ready for this baby and she would love it like nothing else. There was no room for doubt or fear in her heart now, she wanted to be this baby’s mother. It was weird loving something more than anything without even having to see or touch it yet. 

Bumukas ang pinto at pumasok sa kwarto si Yvo. They both exchanged a quick hey and he headed to the bathroom. Was he going to spend the night here in this room with her?

Pagkaraan ng ilang segundo ay lumabas na ito mula sa banyo na suot ang kanyang pajama. He silently slid into the space next to her. She could smell his aftershave and the shampoo and shower gel he’d used. He smelled so fresh.

“Yvo…” She whispered. 

“Yes?” Nakapikit na ang mga mata nito. 

“Thanks for saving me and the baby again. You’re our hero.” She left a kiss on his cheek. 

Napasinghap ang lalaki sa ginawa niya at nagmulat ang mga mata. “Haven’t I said a thousand times that you don’t have to thank me. I’m your husband. It’s my job to protect you and our baby.”

Yuka smiled and nodded her head. She scooted closer to him and snuggled to his side. Bahagyang nagulat ang lalaki sa ginawa nito but he smiled anyway and wrapped an arm around her. Her coconut vanilla lotion filled his nostrils again, awakening something in his loins. He closed his eyes and tried hard to ignored the feeling. What Yuka was doing to his senses confuses him, it disorients him. 

Even when he had his eyes closed for about 10 minutes now, he coudn’t bring himself to go to sleep. Her body heat, her scent, her bosom against him… all those were enveloping him. He remembered the kiss they’d shared earlier in the pool and the thought was slowly arousing him. The way she swiped her tongue into his mouth and how he’d answered back with the same passion. What was he doing to himself? Why was he torturing himself like this?

Little did he know that his wife was thinking of the same time. She couldn’t get herself to fall asleep. Hindi niya alam kung dahil ba nakaidlip siya kagabi o gusto niyang namnamin sa tabi niya ang init ng katawan ni Yvo. Her mind suddenly began to wander to the passionate kiss they shared last night when she thought they were finally going to consumate their marriage. And then the kiss they shared earlier. Nagulat din siya sa ginawa niya nang halikan niya ang lalaki. He looked so beautiful in his vulnerability. She had never seen her husband in that light and it broke and warmed her heart at the same time. At that moment, it felt like it was what she needed to do and what she needed the most. She was ready for rejection. She was ready to be pushed away but instead he answered back.

Hindi niya makalimutan kung gaano kalambot ang mga labi ng lalaki habang nakalapat ito sa kanya. There was this image that pushed through her mind, of him on top of her. She was underneath him and he was moving and moaning on top of her. She became aware of the growing heat in her lower belly. Her legs tightened against him, clenching, to relieve herself tension. She had never touched herself in a sexual way before but she had felt this feeling before. It was fleeting and easy to ignore but this one was so intense she felt like she had to do something about it. 

Her thighs clenched and released, clenched and released but it that wasn’t enough. Her hips began to move, her groin rubbing against his thigh and a moan left her lips. Nagulat siya a tunog na ginawa ng bibig niya at napadilat. Only to see Yvo staring at her face. 

He was looking at her like he was telling her that he knew what she was doing. And what she wanted. His eyes seemed to be a hue darker. There was passion in his eyes that burned and threatened to explode and it sent chills down her spine. 

“Do you want me to touch you?” He asked in a husky tone.

“Mm…” She could only moan and nod her head. 

And then his palm was rubbing against her panties, one finger ran slid up and down her slit. She could feel her panties dampening even more. 

“Yvoo…” Napakapit siya sa unan. 

Suddenly his mouth was on her breast. Even with the silk between his mouth and her bare breast, she could feel his tongue toying her hard nipple. Lalong lumalim ang paghinga ni Yuka kasabay nun ay ang pagdoble ng tibok ng puso niya. 

Yvo pushed aside her panties and touched her bare feminity. She felt warm, electric shock run through her whole body when a finger stopped on her clit and made circles. Ibinaba ng asawa niya ang strap ng nighties hanggang sa tumambad dito ang dibdib niya. 

He stared at her for a moment, relishing her beauty in all its glory. She had light nipples that were the perfect size for her well-rounded breasts. His eyes lowered to her thighs and in between them was his right hand, his finger rubbing her. She was soaking wet and her hips began to rock as if asking for more.

“Please, Yvo…” She begged. 

 And more he gave him when he latched on to her breast and his finger slid inside of her. She was tight but not overly so that he began to gently move his finger in and out, his thumb stroking her nub. He tongued and nibbled on her nipple while fingering her. Her hips began to slightly lift from the bed, meeting his thrust. He added another finger and her hand dug into his hair. 

She had never felt this kind of pleasure in her life. Her moans only seemed to have fuel his blood as his finger began to thrust a little faster and his mouth sucking a little harder. 

And then there was explosion, her whole body relaxed against the bed. She had climaxed and Yvo had quickly realized it. Agad siyang binitawan ng lalaki. He pulled his mouth from her breast and took his fingers out of her. Inayos pa nito ang nakalilis na damit at itinaas ang strap ng nighties niya. Yuka just watched in confusion as he pulled the blanket over her body. Tumagilid ito ng higa at tumalikod sa kanya. He just laid there with his back on her as if nothing had happened.

Chapter Twenty Four

He’d touched her in many ways no man had touched her. He gave her her first orgasm and it was nothing like she had ever experienced before. Even when she awoke this morning, she thought she could still feel the way his fingers flicked with expertise against her sex, she could still feel his finger inside her. Kung tatanungin siya ni Boy Abunda kung sex o chocolate, confident na niyang masasagot na sex.

“Doc, ni-ready ko na ang susuotin mo.” Yuka barged into the bathroom while her husband was taking a shower.

“For Christ’s sake, Yuka!” Nagulat si Yvo at agad tinakpan ang pribadong bahagi ng katawan habang nasa ilalim ng dutsa.

Yuka’s laughter echoed throughout the bathroom as she put the hanger on the wall-mounted rack. Humarap siya kay Yvo at humalukipkip. Even with the clear shower glass between them, she could see how red her husband’s face was while she stared. A smirk tugged up the corner of her lips as she watched her embarrassed husband, his hands still covering his private.

“Yuka, what are you doing?” Nanlaki ang mga mata nito. His cheeks were redder now than it had been seconds ago.

“Wala lang. Masama ba i-admire ang asawa ko?” She bit her bottom lip but it still couldn’t stop her from smiling. He was toned and muscular, it was clear that he’d taken good care of himself. Even his buttocks, she could see, were tight and fit. “I showed you mine, why don’t you want to show yours to me?”

“Can you please leave? I-I’m going to be late for work.” he said in a low growl.

“Ang arte mo naman, sa’kin din naman yan!” She rolled her eyes. “O, sige na. Iiwan na kita, suotin mo yan damit mo, kumpleto na yan. Nand’yan na din underwear mo.”

“O-okay.” Yvo quietly said.

Yuka giggled her way out of the bathroom like a teenager who’d seen a drawing of a dick on the white board. Yvo had finally relaxed as soon as the door closed. She had no idea how much he had suffered. He’d gotten off her wife last night and then tried to sleep with a hard dick. He could’ve just got out of bed, jerked it off in the bathroom, and get over it like a normal man would but he was far too stubborn. He was worried that Yuka would think he was jerking off if he gets up and go to the bathroom to, well, jerk off.

Nahilamos ni Yvo ang palad sa mukha niya. He felt so juvenile. He was a scientist with a pharmaceutical company that was worth a billion dollar. Why was he worried about his wife thinking he was turned on. It wasn’t like he was a robot, he was still a man. But even so, he didn’t want to take her… not that way. He’d hoped to develop some kind of relationship with her or at the very least declare his intentions towards her. He didn’t want to take her and make her think that it was love when it wasn’t. Ayaw niyang umasa ito sa bagay na hindi niya kayang ibigay. He could give her his name, his house, his money but not his love.

He raked his finger through his wet hair before turning off the shower and grabbing a towel. After drying his body with the towel, he went to the rack where Yuka had put his clothes and checked it out. She had good taste, he thought. Gusto niya ang pinili nitong mga damit para sa kanya. His outfit was a casual office attire, something he’d normally wear but made even better, as he’d never be caught dead wearing a full-on office suit. A blue chinos pants, a button shirt and over it was a maroon sweater.

Bumaba na siya pagkatapos niyang magbihis at mag-ayos. He’d found Yuka in the dining room, setting up the dining table. Her curves were still as delicate as ever but he’d also noticed that her baby bump was getting bigger now, more obvious than it had ever been in the past days. He could feel the slight swelling of some sort in his chest at the sight of it.

When her gaze lifted up, Yvo embarrassingly looked away. He felt like he was ogling her when he was just admiring her. Nakangiting lumapit sa kanya ito.

She looked at him from head to toe and patted his sweater, smoothing out the creases. “Ang pogi naman ng asawa ko. Bagay na bagay sa’yo yung pinili kong damit, ’no?”

He smiled and slowly nodded his head. “I like it very much.”

“Eh yan naman talaga ang style mo.” She smiled, her nose wrinkling cutely.

“Thanks, Yuka.”

“No problem. Mamaya after work, kung hindi ka busy, samahan mo naman ako mag-shopping para sa gamit ni baby. May sale kasi.” She enthusiastically said

“Sure, I’ll leave work early.” sabi ni Yvo. He tried to seem casual but he was excited about it. He was planning to turn the room next to theirs into a nursery.

“Pupuntahan na lang kita mamaya para diretso na tayo sa mall.” Her eyes smiled along with her lips.

“Okay, if that’s what you want. May kausap na din akong interior designer na magdedesign ng nursery ng baby. Ikaw na ang mag-decide sa theme ng kwarto. We also probably need to child-proof the whole house.” He couldn’t help his voice from trembling with excitement. He’d never thought he’d anticipate being a father but here he was. “Do you think we should add a play room already para isang gawaan na lang?”

“Wow, excited na si daddy.” Yuka teased him, playfully pinching his cheek.

Embarassed, Yvo straightened his spine and looked away. “I just… I want the baby to be safe and comfortable once it gets here.”

“Sabi mo, eh.” She giggled.

They had breakfast together. Yuka was such an attentive wife to him. Ang babae ang nagluto ng pagkain at naghain para sa kanya. She was beginning to feel like home to him and he actually liked having her around.

“Ni-ready ko na din yung babaunin mo sa work, ah. Kainin mo ito mamayang lunch.” Inabot nito ang isang black bag pagkatapos nilang kumain.. She’d learned from her Ate, nakita niya kung paano nito inaasikaso ang Kuya Migs niya at ang mga bata kaya ginagaya niya rin ang mga ginagawa nito.

“Thank you.” Ani Yvo.

“Thank you ka naman ng thank you. Kiss mo na lang ako.” Yuka puckered her lips to him.

Yvo looked at her, not knowing exactly what to do. Should he just walk out or give her a kiss? Was she just teasing him or did she really want a kiss?

“Hoy, ano ba? Good bye kiss lang naman. Para naman hindi mo ko inano kagabi.” Kunot noong sabi ni Yuka at napasimangot ito.

Yvo held her face in his palms and gave her a hard peck on the lips. It was so sudden, he didn’t even want to think about what he was doing. He just did it almost instinctively. Napasinghap si Yuka sa ginawa ng binata pero nang makabawi ay hindi rin niya napigil ang pumulupot ang mga bisig niya sa leeg nito. She tiptoed a little and pulled him deeper into the kiss. She felt his tongue lightly grazing against her lips, asking to be let in and she obliged and parted them a little.

Doon parang natauhan si Yvo at lumayo. Nagtatakang tinitigan ni Yuka ang asawa. She could see the embarrassed look on his face as he looked away from her. Nanlumong napabuntong-hininga na lang siya. She felt a pinch in her chest and a sudden surge of jealousy towards Krista. Sana siya na lang ang minahal ni Yvo, sana totoo na lang ang kasal na ito.

“I have to go.” Paalam nito.

Tumango lang si Yuka at pilit ngumiti. “Sige, mag-ingat ka. Pupunta na lang ako mamaya.”

“Okay.” He quietly answered before he walked away. Napamura na lang siya nang makapasok siya sa kotse. He tried so hard to push back any desire he felt for his wife but now it was starting to build up, like the bubbles from a soda can that had been shaken.

Inabala ni Yuka ang sarili sa pag-aayos ng mga gamit niya sa bagong closet para makalimutan ang inis sa asawa. She wished he answered her kiss back. She wished he’d stayed home with her so they could spend the whole day in bed.

Nakita ni Yuka ang mga lumang fake designer bags na pinag-ipunan pa niya. Tinabi-tabi niya pa ang mga baon niya at nagkanda-gutum-gutom pa siya mabili lang ito sa favorite online shop niya. Nag-mine mine pa siya sa mga live nito. Kahit naman kaya niya nang bumili ng totoong signature bags nanghihinayang pa din siya dito kaya naisipan niyang ialok sa mga kasambahay nila. Pinalaki kaya siyang madiskarte ni Jodie at ni Sasha. Dati nga nagbebenta pa siya ng graham balls, yema balls, pati nga mga papel para sa quiz binebenta niyang tig-pipiso sa mga kaklase, mabili lang niya ang mga kapritsuhan niya.

“Ate, ano ba? 500 na nga lang binabarat mo pa ako. Alam mo bang 2 kyaw ang bili ko dito. Fendi yan, no!” Sabi niya.

“Eh, madam masyadong mahal. Sige na 400 na lang.” Tawad ni Minerva.

“O sige na, kunin mo na.” Kunwaring umirap siya dahil kanina pa ’to nakikipagtawaran sa kanya.

“Ay, salamat. May pang-date na ko.” Hagikgik ng kasambahay. “Madam, two gibs ’to ah.”

“Ito naman si Ate, two gibs pa eh ang laki na nga ng discount.” Reklamo ni Yuka.

“Si madam naman, bawas mo na lang two hundred sa susunod na sweldo tapos yung two hundred sa susunod ulit.”

“O siya, may magagawa ba ako? Infer, bagay sa’yo, ah. May ’shalang bag ka nang gagamitin pag ng day off ka. Hindi na yung mukhang dugyutin mong bag.” Sabi ni Yuka habang minomodel ni Minerva ang bag.

“Grabe ka naman, madam.” Natatawang sagot nito.

“Hoy, Beth, ikaw din pumili ka ng mga bag dito. Bagay sa’yo ’tong Gucci, pang bagets talaga. Suotin mo, dali.” Inabot niya sa dalaga ang pink bag. “Yan, bagay na bagay sa’yo. 300 na lang, presyong divisoria na ’yan, ah.”

“Ay, oo nga pero madam bakit sa kanya 300.” Reklamo ni Minerva.

“Syempre, mas malaki yung Fendi, no! Saka mas mahal yan.” Paliwanag niya bago binaling muli ang pansin sa mas batang kasambahay. “Kasya lip tint diyan, phone, saka wallet. May keychain pa. Kunin mo na?”

“Sige na nga po. Pabawas na lang sa sweldo ko.” Sabi ng dalaga.

“Oo, sige ako na bahala diyan.” Ani Yuka. “Ang dami pang bag diyan, tingin lang kayo baka gusto niyo pa. Jolina, bumili ka din bagay sa’yo ’tong-”

Nahinto siya nang mag-ring ang phone niya at sinilip niya kung sino ang tumatawag. It says No Caller ID on her phone screen. Agad naman napakunot ang noo niya at biglang kumabog ang dibdib.

“Tawagin niyo sila Ichel, patinginin niyo ng bag. Teka, sasagutin ko lang ’to.” Paalam niya sa mga kasambahay at lumabas mula sa living room.

She answered the phone.

“Hello?”

There was no response at the other end of the line.

“Hello?” She repeated again.

There was just silence. But somehow, she knew in her heart who it was. Malakas ang kutob niya.

“Kumusta ka na?” Iyon ang sunod na lumabas na salita mula sa bibig niya. “Kung tinawagan mo ko para alamin ang kalagayan ko, okay naman ako. Masaya na ako kay Yvo at sigurado akong magiging mabuti siyang ama sa anak namin.”

Unshed tears started burning her eyes. She meant every word she was saying to him. She was happy with the man she married. Hindi man ideal ang kasal nila, hindi man sila kinasal sa conventional na paraan naging masaya siya dito.

“Huwag kang mag-alala, napatawad na kita. Hindi na kita guguluhin. Sana din pabayaan mo na ako. Kasal na ako at magkaka-anak na kami. Sana ito na ang una at huling beses na tatawag ka sa akin.”

Then she heard a sniffle and the call ended. Hindi din naiwasan ni Yuka na maluha nang maputol ang tawag. They were tears for the man she once loved, the man she thought she knew. Pero wala kahit isang katiting na pagsisisi sa kanyang puso. Alam niyang mabuti ang lalaking pinakasalan niya. She was starting to even like Yvo more than she’d intended. As weird as it may sound, she thought she was having a little crush on her husband.

Agad niyang pinunasan ang luha at ngumiti. Masaya na siya sa naging takbo ng buhay niya. What more could she ask for? She married a good man, bonus na lang ang pagiging ubod ng yaman nito at pagiging gwapo. Alam niyang hinding-hindi siya pababayaan nito. She was very confident in that.

Yvo just finished some work in his lab and was heading to his office. He’d promise to leave work early today so he could go shopping with Yuka. He was even the one that texted Yuka to say that he was almost done with his work. Yuka called and told him she’d be on her way to his office.

“Hi, Yvo.” He looked up from his board to see Krista in front of him.

Her smile was still as beautiful as he remembered.

“Hey.” He was taken aback but quickly recovered. “W-what are you doing here?”

“I’m working here as an intern.” She answered.

“Why here?” kumunot ang noo niya.

“Because you’re one of the best companies to work for so I thought I’d give it a try.” She shrugged.

Yvo pushed his glasses in to place and cleares his throat. “I see. Well, I do hope you enjoy your intership here.”

Tumango si Krista. “Thank you.”

“I have to go now.” Nag-iwas ng tingin ang lalaki.

“Yvo…” Nagulat siya nang hawakan siya nito sa magkabilang kamay. He felt electricity when their hands touched. “I really hope we can at least be friends again. Naging magkaibigan naman tayo before we started dating, ibalik natin ang dati.”

He wet his lips with his tounge and took a slow breath, trying to calm his pounding heart. She still had the same effect on him and he hated it. He had to remind himself that he was married now and his wife was pregnant. No matter how much he wanted, he could never get back with her.

“I need to get going, Krista.” he gently said as he slid his hands away from her hold.

Mapait na ngumiti sa kanya ang babae at tumango. “I think I saw your wife earlier. She’s beautiful.”

“Thank you.” he said in a quiet tone. Yuka was probably in his office right now, she said he would wait for him there.

Ngumiti muli si Krista bago tumalikod at naglakad palayo. He was left standing there with conflicted feelings for her. Napahilot siya nang sentido at napailing na lang sa sarili. He wanted to forget any feelings he had left for her.

He rushed to his office and sure enough, Yuka was sitting at his desk, fiddling with his computer.

“Doc.” Agad nag-angat ng tingin si Yuka sa kanya. She gave her a cheeky smile that always makes her eyes disappear. He felt warmth in her presence. There was just something about her that was attractive and familiar.

Krista makes his heart pound but with Yuka, he felt comfortable. She was like a deep sigh after an exhausting day which was what he really needed right now.

She got up from his swivel chair and walked to him to give him a hug. He found himself hugging her back.

“Kanina pa kita hinihintay.” She pouted cutely when she pulled away from the hug. Then rubbed her protruding stomach. “Gutom na si baby.”

“I’m sorry. I didn’t know you were already here.” He apologized before his eyes went to her stomach. Hinawakan niya ang tiyan nito. “What does the baby want?”

“Gusto ko ng burger sa Shake Shack, kanina pa ako natatakam dun.” she smiled again, wiggling her brows up and down.

“Okay, Shake Shack it is.” He smiled back.

“Kumusta naman ang araw mo? Napagod ka ngayon?” Yuka combed her fingers through his hair.

He wanted to say something about Krista to her pero parang umurong ang dila niya. He didn’t want to give Yuka something to think about as he knew how she reacted when he went out with Krista.

“Hindi naman. Everything’s good with work.” He answered.

Yuka had always been a woman of expression. Kahit ano’ng gawin niya hindi nito kayang matago ang nararamdaman. You’d see in her face when something’s bothering her.

“Something wrong?” Yvo’s brows furrowed at the sudden change in her face. Had she seen Krista, too? Did she recognize her?

“Tumawag si Tate kanina.” she quietly said.

Umarko ang kilay ni Yvo. He felt a pull in his chest at the mention of his friend’s name. He hadn’t spoken to Tate since the argument and now he was calling his wife. Bakit ngayon pa kung kailan kasal na sila ni Yuka? What did he want from his wife? Did he want her back? Yuka had always been in love with Tate, did she want to take him back?

“And?” he asked, trying to sound matter of factly.

“Hindi naman siya nagsalita.” Yuka shrugged. “But I know it was him. Sabi ko masaya na ako, na masaya ako sa’yo at maswerte akong ikaw ang napang-asawa ko.”

He looked at her face and could only see sincerity. There were no regrets, no wishing it was Tate she was with instead of him. She said it so surely and sincerely. Her eyes were shining with admiration as he looked at her.

“I hope you know I mean it, Yvo.” she said.

“I do.” he answered back.

She smiled again and held his face in her hands, tiptoeing to give him a peck on the lips. They were warm and soft against him.

“Yvo…” she whispered while their lips were still against each other’s, eyes closed.

“Hmm?”

“I think I’m starting to like you.”

Chapter Twenty Five

“Huwag ka sanang mailang sa akin…” Yuka sighed as they started walking. He had not even acknowledge what she said earlier. He just looked at her for a long time, opened his mouth and pressed his lips together when he could not find the right words to say. It caught him off-guard and he didn’t know the right words to say or how to react. 

Binalewala na lang ni Yuka iyon. Because what more did she have to say? She had no right to throw a fit if her own husband does not feel the same. He’d marry her out of convenience and that’s all it would ever be. She just didn’t want to make it even more awkward than it already was. 

“Oh… no.” he shook his head, “Don’t worry about it.”

“Masaya lang akong kasama ka at… inako mo ang baby ko. I know it’s a big responsibility and I can’t thank you enough for that,” Yuka tried to force a smile. 

His mind was still in shambles, everything that had happened today seemed to have overwhelmed him. First there was Krista, and then there was Tate, and now she just confessed that she liked him. He didn’t know what to focus on first.

“I told you, you don’t have to thank me. I benefit from this as much as you do,” he said to her.

What he’d said sent an ache in her chest even though she knew it should not. She tried to smile through the ache. She wanted more from this marriage than just mere convenience at hindi siya papayag na di iyon makuha. Yuka just feels more challenged when Yvo rejects her. She wanted his love and she would have it, one way or the other, just like all the other things she’d wanted before.

Kumain sila sa burger joint na gusto ni Yuka at pagkatapos ay bumili sila ng ilang damit para sa baby. Yuka couldn’t help buying some things for herself so she bought some maternity dresses and underwears, too. Her belly had been growing with each passing day and nothing fits her comfortably as they used to before. But mostly, she just loved buying new things for herself. Yvo was content with following behind her, waiting on her, and carrying her shopping bags.

“Hay, nakakapagod,” she threw herself on the couch with a sigh but a huge, satisfied smile on her face. Yvo followed after her with her shopping bags in his hand. Ibinaba ni Yvo ang mga dala nito at umupo sa tabi niya.

“Are you okay?” he asked in a subtle worried tone.

“Oo, napagod lang ako. Siguro dahil buntis lang ako pero kung hindi hanggang closing tayo,” she chuckled and then wiggled her little toes. “Nangawit na paa ko, di kineri ng powers ko.”

“Lie down,” he said.

“Huh?” nagtatakang tumingin si Yuka sa asawa.

“Just lie down, I’ll massage your feet,” he said.

And she did what he told her to do. She laid down with her head resting on the opposite end of the couch. Yvo rested her feet onto his lap and massaged them.

“This will help you feel better,” he said.

“Wow, may masahista na pala ako,” Yuka’s eyes disappeare into cresents again as she smiled.

“I read that the feet are one of the parts that are most affected by water retention during pregnancy. This will help reduce the physiological edema in the lower leg,” he explained.

“Ano ba naman yan? Pag ikaw nagsasalita para akong nakikinig sa prof sa science class ko,” her face crumpled in annoyance. “Why can’t we talk like two normal human beings.”

“Okay,” he said and his eyes stopped at the the shopping bags in front of them. They were paper bags of different colors and brands. “Is this why you want to be rich so bad?”

Tumingin siya sa tinitignan ni Yvo at napabuntong-hininga. Her shoulders shrugged, “I didn’t nice thing growing up. Nakatira kami sa maliit na bahay na pinagtagpi-tagpi ng yero at kahoy. Pag mainit para kaming nasa oven, pag tag-ulang, tag-ulan din ang loob ng bahay. Tapos minsan kapag may sobra sa bentang meryenda, dinadala ako ng ate ko sa mall para magpalamig. Doon lang kasi kami nakakatikim ng aircon. Magwiwindow shopping kami, mangangarap kami. For a few minutes or hours, nakatakas ako squatter, maraming magagandang bagay ang nakapalibot sa akin. Doon hindi kami inaasar ng mga tao, walang umaaway sa amin…”

He could see the nostalgia and sadness in her little eyes. There was deep sadness in them, just well beyond the barrier of bravery she was putting on. There he saw the sad girl she truly was inside. 

“Sabi ko sa sarili ko noon, mabibili ko din lahat ng gusto ko ’pag naging mayaman ako balang-araw,” she let out a chuckle. 

But the happiness she gets from shopping were all just momentary. There was a void inside her, she could feel it, there was a hole inside her that she tries to cram with material goods. It was the safety of objects, the comfort of a new clothing, how a new bag makes her hand feel occupied. The tangible replaces the intangible. 

Yuka took in a deep breath and her reaction suprised Yvo. Napahawak ito sa umuumbok na tiyan at nanlalaki ang mga matang napatingin sa kanya.

“What?” agad niyang tanong sa asawa, “Is something wrong?”

Yuka opened her mouth, her small eyes rounding as she stroked her belly, “Doc, gumagalaw!”

He did not want to miss the chance of feeling the little baby move in her belly. He scooted closer to her stomach and placed his hand onto it. He felt small movements in there, he could feel the baby moving… It was the first time he had felt a baby move inside the womb. Nanlalaki din ang mga matang napatingin siya kay Yuka.

“Wow…” that was all he could utter as he felt it move. 

They were both in awe. This was the first time they ever felt the baby move and Yuka was happy that her husband was with her when it happened. She had someone to share all these emotions with. 

After a couple more seconds, the movements stopped but they remained in their position. It was comfortable and none of them wanted to move. Hindi napigilan ni Yuka ang pagsuklay ng mga daliri sa buhok ng asawa. Yvo lifted his head up to look at her and he was met with the softness of her eyes. 

Yuka pulled his head to her and kissed his forehead. Yvo had to close his eyes as he felt her soft lips against his skin. Then she kissed the tip of his nose and then her lips were against his. Yvo couldn’t resist the urge to kiss her back, his lips parting to allow her access.

“Ay, ma’am, sir, nandyan na pala kayo…” one of the help suddenly walked into them.

Agad lumayo ang mga mukha nila sa isa’t-isa na parang mga teenager na nahuling naghahalikan. Yvo looked away embarrassed. He had never been one to show PDA to people. He was just a reserved man and his affection too was reserved. No one had ever seen him act sweet and loving to anyone in public, not even with the women he’d dated in the past. 

“Ang pangit mo ka-bonding, Minerva!” Yuka exclaimed as she sat up.

“Ay, sorry naman, madam. Wrong timing,” pahingi nito ng paumanhin.

“Sa susunod kapag nakikita mong naglalabing-labing. Umalis ka na, wag ka mang-istorbo,” Yuka told her, “O siya, pakidala na lang nitong mga pinamili ko sa kwarto, please. Bukas madami akong papa online selling sa inyong mga gamit para may space naman sa mga bago kong gamit.”

They were in the bedroom together. Yuka had just gotten out from the shower and had put on her nighties. Yvo was in his usual spot, reading a book. Sumampa siya sa kama sa tabi nito at pumasok sa kumot. 

Her arm encircled around him and that caught him by suprise. Parang nakuryente ito sa mga hawak niya. 

“Ano’ng binabasa mo?” tanong niya dito. 

“Just… just something to help me fall asleep,” he answered back.

“Mm…” Yuka nodded her head and rested it against his shoulder, “In less than 5 month, the baby’s going to be here with us.”

“Yes, I still can’t believe it,” agad na naibaba ni Yvo ang libro sa bedside table, no longer interesed in it. He couldn’t help a smile when he remembered having to feel the baby against his hand. 

“Hindi pa tayo nakakaisip ng pangalan para sa kanya…” 

“Hmm, I haven’t thought about that,” he said.

“Kung lalaki, gusto ko ako ang magpangalan. Kapag babae naman, ikaw, okay?” she tilted her head up from his shoulder so she could meet his eyes. 

“That’s not a bad deal,” Yvo nodded his head. 

“May naisip ka na bang pangalan ng baby?” tanong ni Yuka, “Ako meron na!”

“What is it?” he asked.

“Yvo Jr.” she chortled.

“Are you serious?” he raised his brow. 

“Oo! Super serious. I want to name him after his daddy,” he could feel her hand stroking his chest. It sent something inside his chest that he couldn’t explain. The thought of a little boy being named after him. His son would be named after him…

 “Eh ikaw, ano ba ang naisip mong name para kay baby girl?”

Yvo thought for a second and then a name popped into his mind, “Halley… if it’s a girl I would want to name her Halley.”

“Cute, ah!” Yuka commented, “Bakit hindi Yuka Jr? Unfair!”

Yvo looked at her with a confused expression and Yuka just had to laugh. This man had no sense of humor whatsoever.

“Nagbibiro lang ako,” her hand lifted and playfully squeezed his nose. “Maganda ang name na Halley. Pero bakit mo naisip? Baka pangalan yan ng isa sa mga ex mo?”

“No, I want to name her after Halley’s Comet. It’s one of the few comets that can be seen with the naked eye from the Earth. A comet that is close enough and bright enough to be very visible and it has an orbital period of 75 years, fast enough so that just about every generation is going to see it at least once in their lifetime. There aren’t any other comets that are both as bright and visible as Halley. Those lucky enough to see Halley’s Comet will never forget her and will wait for her again at the end of their earthly lives. She’s a special one… Halley. She’s going to be a special girl,” his voice trembled with so much love and tenderness that Yuka felt warm all over.

Halley. She liked the name very much. And she hoped it was a Halley.

“Ang ganda naman ng meaning pero parang naglelecture ka pa rin,” she joked.

He chuckled a little and then his hand went to her protruding stomach. There was a living being in there that he grew to love. 

“Sana… sana ikaw ang ama. I mean, ikaw talaga sana ang biological father. You love the baby,” naluluhang sabi ni Yuka.

“Of course… even if I weren’t I’d still love the baby,” sabi nito. There was not a single lie in the words he had uttered. He did not care before and he didn’t care now. Not after he’d taken care of them for months now, heard the heartbeat, felt it moving against his hand. He was the father of the baby and no one could take that away from him…

Yuka began to kiss his jaw and he inhaled sharply. Pinaulanan siya nang halik ng babae at hindi niya magawang mapigilan ito. He wanted to melt into her kisses. He liked it. He wanted it. It had been so long since his last lay. Bumaba ang halik ni Yuka ganon din ang kamay niya. From his chest, her hand went down to his pajama bottom, working its way inside it. 

He could feel her hand on her crotch area and just as she was about to reach for his hardness, he stopped her hand. He held her by her wrist and Yuka looked up at him with a confused expression on her face. 

He gently pinned her down the bed. He lifted her nighties up to her chest, revealing her supple breasts and her thin white panties. His head went down to her breast and began to suckle on it like a starving baby. 

Napakapit si Yuka sa ulo nang lalaki. He could feel the twirling of his tongue around her nipple while his hand fondle her other breast. He moved from one breast to another. It felt so good that she was moaning uncontrollably, heaving her chest forward to let him have more.

Maya-maya pa ay bumaba na ang kamay nito sa panties niya. She could feel his finger playing with her slit from outside the thin cloth. It sent shivers all over her body. She wanted him to touch her so bad. She wanted more.

And he did too. Oh God, how he wanted her too. He wasted no time and yanked her panties down. His lips moved from her breasts down to her belly. He planted small kisses onto her belly in a tender manner.

“Yvo…” she moaned wanting more, lifting her hips from the bed.

And just like that, Yvo’s head was already in between her legs. He kissed her womanhood before his tongue delved in between her slit. She jolted when the tip of his tongue began to play with her clit. Hindi niya napigilan na mapasabunot sa buhok ng asawa. She had never experienced this type of pleasure before. It was more powerful than the last time they did it.

“YVOOO!” she was writhing and gasping from so much pleasure.

His tongue went up and down her lips and then stopped at her opening. He spread her wide with two fingers and then swirled his tongue around it before pushing it inside her. He could feel his tongue going in and out of her, just like how he did with his finger. He was so good it was driving her crazy. 

He licked, sucked, and tongue-fucked her expertly that she thought she was going to lose her mind. She felt like there was nothing running through her but bolts of pleasure. Just pure pleasure. She thought his firm grip on her hips were the only thing keeping her from elevating. She was way beyond pleasure.

And then it felt like a hot bomb went off between her legs, her whole body stiffened. She drowned him with her essence he could barely breathe and Yuka watched as he licked it all off. She was out of breath after her orgasm, so exhausted, she felt like her soul had momentarily left her body because of the intensity. The little death they say. La petit mort.

Yvo lifted his head up when he was sure he’d licked off all her pussy juice. She tasted so good, he had never tasted anyone this sweet before that he couldn’t get enough of it. He licked the juice off his lips.

“Yvo…” Yuka forced herself up and looked down at her husband’s pajama bottom. His manhood was evidently stiff and hard against the cotton clothing. Yuka wanted to return the pleasure he’d given her. She reached for his pants and held his hardness.

It throbbed in her hand. 

“Yuka, no…” agad na tinabig ni Yvo ang kamay nito.

“Why?” she asked, “Don’t you want me to help you out?”

He shook his head, “Not like this…”

“Like what?” Kumunot ang noo niya.

“I’m not in love with you…” nagbaba ng tingin si Yvo.

Parang piniga ang puso ni Yuka sa narinig. But she tried to hold her chin up, pretending his words did nothing to her. She knew this game so well. She was an expert in hiding her hurt. This would not shake her.

“Eh, ano naman?” matalim ang boses na tanong niya, “This is just sex. I’m your wife, have sex with me!”

“Yuka, I’m sorry…” he said, almost in a whisper.

“I’m sure you’ve had sex with women you didn’t love,” pilit na itinatago ni Yuka ang pait sa boses but it was obvious.

“You’re not like them. You don’t understand… I’m sorry,” iyon lang ang nasabi sa kanya ni Yvo bago ito tumayo mula sa kama at nagtungo sa banyo.

Yvo couldn’t get himself to do continue on. He felt like he would take advantage of Yuka if he did so. She was very special to him. She was his friend before this happened. He did not want to hurt Yuka. She had already gone through so much with Tate and he didn’t want to add on to that.

Chapter Twenty Six

Just as she was determined to get rich, Yuka vowed to make her husband fall in love with her. Makukuha niya din ang pagmamahal ni Yvo katulad nang pagkuha niya sa marangyang buhay na tinatamasa niya. She was a greedy soul, desiring everything she found beautiful and good. And to her, Yvo was just that; beautiful and good. She would take him like all the other things she had taken in the past. By hook or by crook, she would have him.

She had gotten up early to pick the clothes he was supposed to wear for work and make breakfast for him. Her Ate had become her role model in being the perfect wife. Masaya din naman siyang pinagsisilbihan ang asawa niya. She liked seeing him get into clothes she’d pick and eat the food she made for him. 

“Good morning, doc…” she said in a sing-song voice when Yvo walked into the dining room. She had already put down a plate full of berries. Yvo liked eating light and healthy breakfast, she had already taken note of that. 

“Morning,” he greeted back with a smile. He was already dressed for work. Habang gumagawa siya nang breakfast kanina ay nasa gym room na ito at nagwowork-out. It was his daily routine and she wished she could join him but at this point, she couldn’t anymore. At 5 months, her belly was the size of a soccer ball now. 

She could barely even keep herself on her feet for more than 30 minutes without her back aching. Hinilot niya ang nangangawit na balakang. She had been standing for quite some time now.

Agad naman napansin ni Yvo ang ginagawa niya at nag-aalalang lumapit ito, “You okay?”

Yuka smiled, “Huwag mo ko alalahanin. Upo ka na.”

Pumwesto sa likod niya si Yvo at hinawakan siya sa balakang. It had been a full week since he’d held her so intimately. Simula nang gabing iyon ay iniwasan na siya ng lalaki. He’d come to their room late at night when she’s already asleep. Even though he never did say it, he made it very clear that that was never to happen again… not until she makes him fall in love with her. 

“Does it hurt?” he asked ever so gently as he started rubbing that area with his fingers.

“Hindi masakit, nangawit lang…” she answered.

She could feel the tension rising between them as she felt his breath against her nape. It had been so long. She had needs… one she had never explored before until him. Ramdam niya ang paglalim ng hininga ng lalaki ngunit kasabay nun ay ang pagbitaw nito.

“You better take a seat as well,” sabi nito bago hilahin ang upuan para kay Yuka, “Ayaw kong napapagod ka. Baka kung mapaano ang baby.”

Yuka frowned. It was always about the baby. When will it be about her? Kailan kaya magmamalasakit ang asawa niya sa kanya at sa kanya lang. May pakialam pa kaya ito sa kanya kung wala ang bata sa sinapupunan niya? She wanted him to care for her. She wanted him to love her…

They shared a quiet breakfast together before Yvo hurried to work. Naiwan na naman mag-isa si Yuka and she was beginning to hate being left alone. She was getting bored of Yvo’s huge house and his limitless credit card extension. Gusto niya lang makasama ang asawa. She didn’t know what it was but there was something about her husband that made her feel safe, protected.

Yuka had the driver take her to Yvo’s workplace. She had pack a lunch for her husband, chicken curry at kanin. Dahil sa sobrang boredom sa bahay at gusto niyang magpa-impress kay Yvo, kumuha siya ng online cooking class kung saan natuto siya nang iba’t-ibang luto. 

She was excited to see him. She craves his presence all the time. To her, he was her snuggle blanket or her comfort movie. Palaging gusto niyang nakadikit sa asawa nitong mga nakaraan araw. Could it possibly be the mind-blowing orgasm he’d given her? Maybe. Possibly. That’s one. She just loved being around him. Naeexcite na siya tuwing pauwi na ang lalaki sa bahay galing sa trabaho. Buti na lang at mabait ang asawa niya at pagkatapos nitong magtrabaho, hindi na ito dumadaan kung saan-saan. She knew because she had installed a gps tracker to his phone while he was asleep. 

Sinilip niya ang asawa mula sa glass wall nang meeting room kung nasaan ito. Her husband looked hot in his white lab coat as he spoke infront of everyone sitting at a long table. Pawang mga propesyonal na scientist at doctor din ang mga kasama nito sa loob na nakikinig sa kanya. Her husband was so smart, she thought proudly, smiling to herself. She knew the meeting was over when people began to stand from their seats and it was a cue for her to come in. Itinulak niya ang glass door papasok sa opisina. She couldn’t wait for him to walk out of the room. 

Her vision tunneled to him, her hot scientist husband wearing his hot white lab coat with his hands tucked into both its pocket. Umangat ang tingin sa kanya ng asawa at lumawak lalo ang ngiti ni Yuka.

She rushed her wait to him, “Hi, doooo-”

Bigla ay nabunggo siya nang salubungin niya ang mga taong nagsisilabasan na mula sa meeting room. 

“Oh, my god!” A woman yelped when Yuka crashed into her. Tumilapon ang hawak niyang bento box, its content spilling all over.

“Yuka!” Yvo quickly ran toward her and protectively held her tummy. 

“Sorry!” Natatarantang hingi niya nang dispensa. The whole room reeked of curry and the food she prepare for her husband was now scattered on the floor. Mula sa sahig ay umangat ang tingin niya at agad nakita ang mantsa sa puting lab coat at pink na button down shirt ng tao sa harap niya. “Sorry talaga, di ko sinasadya…”

“It’s… it’s okay.” the woman said, her voice was calm and steady. 

Nag-angat siya nang tingin mula sa damit nang babaeng kaharap. She looked as beautiful and elegant as her voice. Para itong modelong nakikita niya sa mga napapanood niyang Asia’s Top Models. The woman was inches taller than her, towering over her and making her feel more inferior. She looked familiar…

“Are you okay?” Nabaling ang atensyon niya sa asawa nang tanungin siya nito.

She blinked and turned her head to him, “Y-yeah, okay lang ako. Sorry, ang clumsy ko naman, ano ba yan.” 

She felt so embarassed and she felt like she had embarrassed her husband as well in front all these professionals. Dito pa siya nagkalat! Why did she use that cheap bento box she’d bought online? Kung mamahalin na lunch box na lang sana ang binili niya, sana di na ito nagkalas-kalas konting pitik lang! She wanted to face palm herself.

“Here…” Yvo reached for the tissue box and handed it to the woman in front of them.

“Thank you, Yv- Dr. Zamora.” tinanggap naman iyon ng babae at nagsimulang punasan ang sariling damit.

“I’m sorry,” humingi din ng paumanhin ang lalaki. The way he looked at the woman, why was she feeling so much tension between the two? “I have an extra shirt you can use.”

“I’d appreciate that. Thank you,” the woman said.

Nabaling ulit pabalik ang atensyon ni Yuka sa babae. Naningkit lalo ang singkit na mata niya. She was sure she had seen this woman before. Yes, of course! In the picture. It slowly sank into her. It was Krista… his ex-girlfriend! Hindi siya pwedeng magkamali. 

Yvo spoke to his secretary in the intercom and asked for his shirt to be brought to the meeting room. Sila na lang tatlo ang natira at nagsilabasan na ang mga ka-meeting nila kanina. Hindi alam ni Yuka kung ano ang gagawin sa sarili niya. 

Naramdaman ni Yuka ang paghawak ng lalaki sa likod ng baywang niya, “Are you sure you’re okay?”

“Mm-hm…” she tried to act normal. She even tried to smile but her face was too stiff for her smile to be convincing.

Tumikhim si Yvo as if to fill the awkward silence between them, “This is Yuka, my wife.” 

“Oh, I’m so glad to be able to finally meet you. I hate that we had to meet like this but I’m happy to meet you,” she chukled as she looked at herself covered with curry. 

Yuka feigned a smile. Bakit di pa nabuhos sa kanya lahat ng sauce? 

“Yuka, this is Krista.” he introduced the woman to her. 

“I’m a friend of Doctor Zamora. We were old friends… we had the same circle of friends.” dugtong ng babae. She looked and sounded genuinely nice. Unassuming. And just really beautiful. Para itong di makabasag pinggan. Kung pagdidikitin sila, parang ito ang maamong bida at siya ang malditang kontrabida.

Yuka hated her. The woman was everything she was not. Except the beautiful part. Hindi niya matatanggap na hindi siya maganda! Mas maganda naman siya kaysa sa babaeng iyon.

“Ganon ba?” Umarka ang kilay ni Yuka. 

Yvo kept mum knowing that Yuka knew what Krista was to him. He, too, could feel the annoyance simmering out of his wife. He knew he was screwed. 

“Sir, ito na po yung shirt.” His secretary came in, carrying a folded white shirt. 

Yvo took the shirt and handed it over to Krista. Sandaling nagkatinginan ang dalawa at agad naman humarang si Yuka sa pagitan nila. 

“Ibalik mo yan, ah. Ako bumili niyan para sa asawa ko.” she folded her arms over her chest and then forced a smile. 

“Ibabalik ko din ito bukas. Thank you so much.” The woman nodded at both of them and lowered her eyes to her protruding belly, “By the way, congrats on the baby.”

Yuka saw a hint of what looked like pain flash across Krista’s eyes as she looked at her belly. When she blinked and it was all gone as if a veil had been put over her eyes, blocking any emotions. Nag-angat ito muli ng tingin sa kanilang dalawa at tumingin kay Yvo.

“I just… never pictured you as a father,” she tried to keep up the smile even though the corners of her lips were strained, “I mean, it does suit you. I’m sure you’re going to be a good father, hindi lang ako makapaniwala siguro.” tumawa ng marahan ito at muling tumingin kay Yuka, “Masyado kasing workaholic ’yan noon.”

“Hindi naman na ngayon dahil magkaka-baby na kami. Sobrang alaga nga ng hubby ko sa amin ni baby. Syempre, kami na ang priority niya.” Yuka said with a proud smile. Inabot niya pa ang kwelyo ng asawa at nagkunwaring inayos niya ito pagkatapos ay niyakap niya ang asawa. “I’m so lucky!”

“I’m sure you are,” she smiled faintly and lifted her hand that held the shirt, “Ibabalik ko na lang ito bukas.”

“Paabot mo na lang sa secretary. Thanks!” Sagot ni Yuka.

Krista nodded her head and walked out of the room. Sila na lang ang naiwan dalawa. Yuka threw her a spiteful look and Yvo massaged his temples knowing that she’d be a piece of work after this encounter. 

“So, tinago mo talaga sa akin ito? Kung hindi pa ako nagpunta, di ko malalaman…” Yuka tried to not let her voice quiver.

“I’m sorry, I did not mention this to you…”

“Bakit hindi?”

“Because it doesn’t matter!” he snarled.

“It doesn’t matter?” Namilog ang singkit na mata niya, “Tangina! Paano kung i-hire ko ex ko na maging driver natin tapos hindi ko sabihin sa’yo? Sa tingin mo it wouldn’t matter?”

“Come on, Yuka…” he shook his head.

“Yan ang problema sa inyong mga lalaki! Kapag ginawa niyo sa amin mga babae, it doesn’t matter! Pero pag kami, it’s the end of the fucking world!” She exclaimed and then turned to walk out of the room. 

“Please, Yuka…” humabol ang lalaki sa kanya. “It’s not like that. I just didn’t think it would be a big deal to you. We’re two grown adults.”

She stopped in front of the elevator, smashing her finger on the down button, “Eh di magpaka-adult kayong dalawa! Petty ako kaya wala kang magagawa! Pakyu ka!”

“I didn’t mean it like that.” he combed his fingers through his hair.

The elevator made a tinging noise and the door opened. Yuka stepped inside and he follow behind her. She, again, slammed her finger to the Ground Floor button. 

“Look, Krista and I… whatever we had, it’s in the past now. She’s working here as an intern. Nothing more.” 

“Alam mo hindi ako nagagalit dun. Nagagalit ako kasi ’di mo sinabi sa akin. The fact that you didn’t even mention this to me, you knew it was not right…” the corners of her mouth tugged downwards as she tried to hold back her tears. 

Napabuntong-hininga si Yvo, realizing that he was in the wrong and Yuka had a point. “It never occured to me like that. It just didn’t matter to me and I thought it wouldn’t to you, too.”

“Alam mo problema sa’yo? Matalino ka nga pero kulang ka sa emotional intelligence! Di mo naiisip ang nararamdaman ko bilang asawa mo! Nagluto pa ako para sa’yo!” hindi na napigilan ni Yuka ang mapahikbi. 

Bumukas ang pinto ng elevator at agad padabog na lumabas mula doon.

Chapter Twenty Seven

It had been a long time since she’d been at a club. The light, the ambience, and the people were exhilirating. It made her feel alive again, like she was a normal teenager without a baby in her tummy and a cold billionaire husband who doesn’t have an ounce of feelings for her. Except now, it’s harder to move around with a huge five month-old fetus in her.

She carelessly danced to the rythm of the song booming throughout the whole club. It was one of those moments she felt completely free. A couple of guys tried to go in front of her and dance with her but while checking her out, quickly took notice of her protruding belly. As soon as they see it, they start moving away from her. Natawa na lang si Yuka sa reaksyon nang mga lalaking iyon. Who would even be expecting a five month-old dancing on the dance floor?

“Your mommy’s little protector, aren’t you.” She rubbed her belly as she sat at the stool by the bar. She just didn’t have as much energy as she used to. Dati kayang-kaya niya umabot hanggang 2am sa kakasayaw but now she could barely keep herself up. Her legs were already sore and she was beyond exhausted.

She tapped on the counter to try to get the bartender’s attention, “Paorder! Hello! Buntis ako, ako kaya ang unahin mo! Wala bang priority lane dito!”

“You aren’t even supposed to be here…” she heard a voice whisper into her ear.

Napalingon siya sa gawi ng boses na iyon at nakita ang madilim na mukha ng asawa. For a second, she thought it was just her conscience talking to her or her inner common sense in the voice of her husband. She blinked, thinking she was just seeing things but when she opened her eyes, he was still there. Him and his stupid face frowing at her.

She scoffed a little and turned her attention back to the server, “Orange juice, please!”

Yvo had to find out where she was through her instagram account. The helps were the one who showed him her selfie from the app, luckily but threateningly her location was posted as well. She had some hundreds and thousands of followers seeing where she was at. It was careless and stupid but she had him where she wanted him.

She was served a fancy glass of orange juice with a tiny umbrella.

“You’re insane…” Yvo was calm but she could hear the contained annoyance in his tone, “What the hell were you thinking, going in this kind of place while you’re pregnant with my child?”

Umupo siya sa bakanteng stool chair sa tabi ni Yuka habang ito ay nakababa lang ang tingin sa baso ng orange juice na hawak. Her eyes were fixated on the orange umbrella, trying to ignore his entire existence just like he’d ignored her feelings when he failed to tell her that he was working with his ex-girlfriend.

“Are you trying to put yourself in danger, posting your location for thousands of people to see? You know you’re pregnant! Why do you have to do that? And why are you even here? This is not a place for pregnant women. Paano kung may mangyari diyan sa dinadala mo? There are drunk assholes and people smoking! You are so careless and… and stupid!” His voice was shaking with so much contained anger.

“Puro na lang yung bata!” She looked him in the eye, meeting his with the same anger. “Huwag kang mag-alala apat buwan na lang, iiire ko na ito! Ikaw mag-alaga nito, ikaw naman yung responsable at mabait sa atin dalawa! Pinanagutan mo ako so I should just be grateful and shut the hell up, di ba?”

“When did I ever tell you that?” Asik nito pabalik sa kanya, “Hindi ka kahit kailan nakarinig ng ganyan sa akin? You are just difficult! You are too hard-headed, stubborn, and self-absorbed!”

“And you’re a cold asshole! Wala kang pinagkaiba sa kaibigan mong walang bayag! You may not have physically abandoned me but you’re abandoning me emotionally. Para akong nagpakasal sa bato!” A sob rose from her throat as her eyes burned with tears, “Akala ko kapag nakuha ko na lahat ng bagay na gusto ko magiging masaya na ako pero hindi pala. Hindi ko malapitan pamilya ko kasi nahihiya ako. I don’t have any friends. I don’t have anyone. I feel so alone… You’re all I have but you don’t even want anything to do with me. You don’t even care about me.”

Agad naman lumambot ang matigas na ekspresyon sa mukha ni Yvo. His eyes softened and he lifted his hand to touch her face. She felt warmth she had never felt before as he held her. Wala siyang magawa kung hindi ang pumikot at damhin iyon. A gentle kiss on the forehead was all it took and her tears fell like waterfalls.

“I care about you, you know I do,” he softly said and every word lingered like a soft light. Kinabig nito ang ulo niya papunta sa matipunong dibdib. She melted against him,  “I’m sorry, Yuka. I’ll try to be a better husband from now on, I promise.”

“Weh?” She lifted her head up to look at him.

Kinabig ulit ni Yvo ang ulo nito pabalik sa dibdib. He liked the feeling of her against him. He liked being this vulnerable. He couldn’t even remember the last time he’d used his emotions over his logical thoughts. His emotions muted everything surrounding him. It was just her, him, and the rapid thumping of his heart.

“I swear, I’ll do better.” His hand snaked to hers and he entwined his fingers with her fingers. “You’re not alone. I’ll always be here. You have me and soon, we’ll have a little one. I know I’m not expressive or warm enough… and I’m awkward at times, but I want you to know that I’ll always be here for you. Do you understand?”

Yuka nodded her head despite the tears. What she thought would ruin her life before had become something she’d been dreaming to hold now. Kumalas si Yvo sa pagkayakap at pinunasan ang mga luha niya. He took of his black cardigan and put it over her shoulders.

“Let’s go home?” he gently asked, “You’re tired, aren’t you?”

“Mm-hmm…” She nodded her head.

Inalalayan siya nito pababa ng mataas na upuan. They walked out of the club with their hands holding onto each other. Yvo felt free from himself in this little moments where he didn’t hold back. He liked having her and he didn’t want to lose her. He may not be sure yet what his real feelings for her yet but he craved her constant presence in his life; the comfort and stability she brings in life, the way she made his house feel like home…

He called in sick today. Something he had never done in quite a long time. His work had been his lifeline and he clung to it desperately. It was what had dominated his life for a very long time… not until her and the little one. Ngayon niya naranasan kung paano ma-excite umalis ng trabaho nang maaga just to see at in the waiting room of the OB-GYN office, to shop for things for the baby, to meet up with the interior designer for their baby’s room. The little one got him wrapped around its fetus finger. And the mother was as beguiling as the little one.

Yvo wiped off the sweat from his forehead with the small towel that was hanging on his shoulder. He woke up early for a quick workout. Last night, his pregnant wife had already fallen asleep in his car on their way home. She was so tired he had to carry her up to their room and he himself had falled asleep while cuddled to her. Nang magising siya kaninang umaga ay mahimbing pa din ang tulog nito.

He promised he’d do better this time, he’d be a better husband to her. Yuka deserves someone who’s there for her physically and emotionally. He was responsible for her. He was the one who put her in this situation. Siya naman ang unang may gustong ituloy ang pagbubuntis nito. She wouldn’t be in this situation if it weren’t for him. The least he could do was to make things easier for his wife.

May plano na siya kung saan niya dadalhin si Yuka mamaya. They never really had a proper date so he thought he’d take her out today. He excitedly went back to their room so he could take a shower and check up on his wife. 

“Di ba nakita mo na yung ex niya?” Yuka asked, spreading cream cheese on her sourdough bread with a tray of table right in front of her, sat up on her bed with her back against the headboard. She had already developed a comfortable relationship with the helps. Paano ba naman ang mga ito lang din ang nakakasama niya kapag umaalis si Yvo papuntang trabaho. 

“Oo, ma’am. Nagpupunta naman siya dito paminsan-minsan dati.” Sagot ni Minerva.

Umarko ang kilay ni Yuka sa katulong na kumportableng nakadantay ang kalahating ng katawan sa paanan ng kanyang kama.

“Hoy, gaga ka! Ako lang ang Ma’am mo!” Bulyaw niya dito, “Isa pang marining kong tawagin mong ma’am iyon sisingilin kita sa mga inutang mong bag sa akin!”

“Sorry naman, ma’am. Iyon lang kasi ang nakasanayan ko.”

“Mabait ba siya?” Patuloy na usisa ni Yuka.

“Tahimik lang. Hindi naman namin nakaka-chikahan katulad mo.” Kibit-balikat na sabi naman ni Jolina na nakaupo naman sa gilid ng kanyang kama.

“Maayos naman makitungo.” Sabi ni Minerva.

Nagsalubong ang mga kilay ni Yuka, “Bakit ako? Hindi ba ako maayos makitungo?”

“Ay, syempre, ma’am! Ikaw ang the best!” Humagikgik si Jolina.

“Dapat lang! Ang kakapal naman ng mukha niyo kung hindi ako. Ilang buwan na yung utang niyo sa akin, di na nababawas sa sweldo niyo saka may freebies pa kayong mga lipstick at lipgloss!” She said as she bit off her bagel.

Yvo stood outside the door, overhearing some of their conversation through the crack of the door left slightly ajar. He could tell how comfortable the helps already were with Yuka, most of them had been with him for years and never had this kind of conversation before. He knew them but all their interactions were courteous and professional. Yuka really had her way with people. She had a glib tongue and he had learned to both love and hate it.

He made sure to give a warning knock before he peeked his head inside the room. Nataranta naman umayos ang mga kasambahay at napatayo nang makita siya ng mga ito.

“Hi…” He quietly said.

Yuka flickered her eyes toward Yvo, her face glowing up as she saw him. There was that smile again and the cute squint her eyes does along with it. He timidly walked into their room, nodding at the two women her wife were with and giving them a polite smile.

Yuka looked at the two ladies with her, “O, ano tinatayo-tayo niyo diyan? Chichika pa kayo? Nandito na ang sir niyo baka gusto niyo na magsilayas.”

The two bowed their head, embarrassed by his presence more than her unrefined way of talking to them, as they walked past him and out of the room.

“Ba’t di ka pumasok?” she couldn’t help the smile on her face. 

Kibit-balikat ang isinagot ni Yvo, “I thought I’d take you out today.”

“Mmm…” she nodded her head, even with lips pressed together she still couldn’t keep herself from smiling. 

“Kung gusto mo lang naman,” he was quick to say as he didn’t want to impose. “It’s alright if you have other plans today.”

“Wala!” She quickly responded afraid the opportunity would disappear into thin air if she did not immediately answer, “Wala, no! Ano’ng gagawin ko dito? Makikipag-chikahan sa mga maid? Sawang-sawa na nga ako sa mga mukha ’nun!”

“Great! I’m just going to take a shower.” Paalam niya.

“Alright, take your time. Huwag mo masyadong galingan, ah.”

“Galingan ang alin?” he asked.

“Ang pagbawi mo sa akin baka lalo ako mainlove sayo.” She chortled. 

Yvo had taken her to his yacht. The interior was as luxurious as the exterior of it. The outside of it was black with wood detailing and it had the same theme on the inside. She had been in yachts before, her sister married into a billionaire family, but she’d never really had time to appreciate it like this. Nakakatungtong lang naman siya noon sa mga yate kapag may party, ngayon ay asawa niya pa ang may ari nito.

They were in the middle of this huge body of water. Everything was calm and quiet. It was happy stillness. A beautiful calm. It was just Yvo and her. Kung may kailangan sila, she’d only have to press a button and the butler would be there to attend to their needs.

They had simple, light food and then went to sit at the front of the yacht. 

“Di ba ang mga yate may pangalan?” She broke the silence between them. 

Yvo put down the book he was reading beside him, “Yes.”

“What is the name of this beauty?” She curiosuly asked.

“It’s… it’s right at the side of the boat.” he quietly said.

“Hindi ko nga napansin. Ano ba pangalan nito?” She pressed.

Napapikit si Yvo at naiiling, “The name’s stupid.”

“Ano nga?” Hindi pa niya alam ngunit natatawa na agad si Yuka sa reaksyon nito.

“Wet dream.” There was a visible cringe on his features.

Humalagapak ng tawa si Yuka, “Yan ang naisip mong pangalan para dito? Seryoso ka? Kung ano’ng kina-sosyal ng yate mo, ganon din kina-balahura ng pangalan?”

“It was not my idea, it was Coco and Tate-” pareho silang natahimik nang mabanggit ang pangalan nito. It was like a forbidden word that must never be uttered. It turned both their emotions in haywire. 

Napahaplos si Yuka sa tiyan niya at nag-angat ng tingin. The sky was slowly taking up a golden color, throwing its golden rays to the water. The city buildings looked so tiny from where they were. It was just him, her, and the baby. And God, how she wanted to keep it that way. Ayaw niya nang isipin o papasukin sa mundo nila ang kahit sino o ano man. 

Yvo turned his head to see her stroking her belly. He slowly smiled and reached her belly, fondly rubbing it. He felt a sense of wanting to protect her and the baby. Almost like a sense of possessiveness. This baby was his. They were his. 

She smiled at him as she rested her hand on top of his. And then she crawled to him. Isiniksik niya ang sarili sa pagitan nang mga hita nang lalaki at isinandal ang likod sa dibdib nito. Siya din ang nagpulupot ng mga bisig nito sa kanya at ipinatong ang mga palad ng lalaki sa ibabaw ng tiyan niya. She sunk against him, breathing in his familiar scent and savoring the comfort of his hard chest. 

“Si daddy mo ’yan, baby.” kinausap niya ang tiyan habang hinahaplos ito gamit ang kamay ni Yvo.

He enjoyed the feeling of her bump against his palms, he enjoyed her warmth, and the way she smelled. Light and clean. 

“Yvo…” She uttered.

“Hm?” 

“Mahal mo pa ba siya?” she quietly asked. 

Hindi agad siya nakasagot. He was not expecting that question at all. It took awhile for him to process and another while para kapain ang emosyon niya.

“Okay lang naman sa akin. Di ako magagalit, promise. I just want your honesty…” there was sadness in her tone. 

“I don’t have the same feelings for her as I did before,” he answered.

“Ano’ng ibig sabihin ’nun?” She asked with child-like curiosity in her tone, “May feelings ka pa din pero di na ganon ka-intense?”

“We’ve had a good relationship but now it’s over. I’ve gotten over and she did, too. Wala kang dapat ipag-alala. We work at different departments. I can’t just dismiss her, I need a valid reason to do so. Pero gagawin ko ang lahat huwag ka lang mag-isip ng kung anu-ano.  I promise, I will stay faithful to this marriage.”

“Stay faithful to us. Huwag sa kasal natin. Sa akin at sa kanya…” she held his had tightly against her belly, “Please huwag kang maiinlove ulit sa kanya.”

He shook his head, “I’m not going to fall in love with her.”

“Promise?” Lumabi si Yuka.

“I promise, okay?” he gently reassured her.

“Kung maiinlove ka ulit sana sa akin na,” she softly said.